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0 | wanting skip postpone exam exam saturday feel massive urge reschedule experience often major exam flashback several year prior skipped final exam failed dont feel ready dont know im tired mentallly fried feel day might help part think fight urge tank | self.Anxiety |
1 | bipolar folk problem substance abuse first want say great able talk thing open way never good point term drug alcohol right ive big problem past odd many time time intentional suicide attempt totally caring happened extreme distress usually abusive mother occurred space decade fucked bad alcohol methadone ended icu doctor told large number bipolar people addiction problem take med exactly prescribed drug use marijuana problem others similar problem | self.bipolar |
2 | wanted share revelation tonight depressionfor first time year hope thing get better hi ive depressed year still depressed first time throughout hell actually gained insight hope thing get better really breath fresh air depression literally suffocating long know wont necessarily apply everyone really hope share maybe give people insight hope well first thought depression result loneliness able function okay work around people got home alone felt like wall caving mind would race suicidal self loathing thought hate kill stupidjust example thing would say head overwhelming state mind long time thought way would ever able find peace mind suicide hospitalized month ago suicidal ideation co worker admitted told constantly thinking killing hospitalization tramtic felt trapped nobody tried help isolated room daysit felt like prison day still think hospitalization made depression worse really first time anyone showed would anything could help though day never forget co worker really cared worried sick told prescribed wellbutrin hospitalized didnt get therapy hospital nobody tried help conquer depression got feeling psychiatrist prescribing pill expecting fix although told important therapy combination medication didnt really understand learned tonight wellbutrin month antidepressant dont actually anything depression itselfat least suppress symptom depression wellbutrin didnt make happy able feel emotion gave energy allowed wake feel completely drained energy unable move duration ive wellbutrin could still feel depression mounting continued get worse physical symptom depression completely debilitating tonight work real reason depressed wasnt anything affecting emotionsi felt couldnt focus couldnt smilei door door work genuine smile important people definitely tell youre faking couldnt connect people couldnt thinkmy mind wasnt racing really feltkind blahlike couldnt get peaceful state mind even though wasnt anything bringing ended leaving work couldnt get mind straight walk mile get back car started talking sisterwho experienced mental problem spouse bpd severely depressed suicidal etc mom actually called concerned last day telling mom im suicidal want pain end thinking carefully thing came conclusion dont actually want die commit suicide feeling produced depression severe couldnt think way express severity way feel say want die want kill told sisterinstead saying want die would start saying want feeling stop really first awakening moment tonight realized really want livei dont want feel like anymore long time thought way could achieve peace mind suicide started thinking welbutrin wasnt anything feeling depression producesit wasnt anything certain feeling pit stomachits like overwhelming feeling emptinessbut helping symptom point learned symptom depression depression thing see depression disease probably never go away medication help suppress symptom disease make easier live therapy help control cope disease plan action survive horrible condition even though know never go away dont feel happy find comfort knowing thing feel better even though know probably never feel normalor like became depressed thanks reading hope thing ive learned might help people especially part wanting die unable express severity depression make feel really crave peace mind think ive discovered plan gain peace | self.depression |
3 | feel deader dead find dont real want anymore would flicker desire maybe want play overwatch fun fizzle fast come think moment maybe feed dont day end curled bed waiting hour go many shoulds nothink want essay due monday thats another flicker thought triggered sheer sense responsibility conscious besides care test essay youre thinking suicide one week blur next another bland weekend nothing happens feel deader dead lived long diagnosed developed suicidal many year child depression really go unnoticed especially old knowledgeable enough recognize depression first place med work im lucky enough money buy dont know really help logical side say another bottomoftheoceandeep low phase unending cycle ups down real say whatever want gone free pain life reason held far parent nothing deserve dead child wouldnt able repay love longest time medicinerun burden wish could love back love dont feel anything hard feel pain laugh even cry anymore im drained numb dead dead without physically dead im machine run medicine ghost breathes time im done holding upon time dream unrealistic one even didnt beleive wanted doctor loving doctor would smile wave discharged patient left hospital wanted help people work group like doctor without border go heal need help went college realized brutal path simply someone level im neither smart enough motivated enough dead enough probably going alive long enough scifi fantasy since dream became obsolete since started feeling numb year ago sometimes im sure im really alive feel done | self.SuicideWatch |
4 | im pretty sure friend suicidal best friend girlfriend left something stupid embarrassing backanyways im pretty sure he always saying want go island alone one love he told depression never said he suicidal asked firmly denied he always saying really self hating stuff time like im little emo prick im depressed little bitch idk dohelp | self.SuicideWatch |
5 | selfharm urge getting stronger hey everyone dealing really rough situation thought id share mental state gradually getting worse quite time started stronger element anxiety depression come byproduct selfisolation selfsabotage caused anxiety ive never self harmed havent urge long recently though urge gotten strong ive punching head whenever aggressively negative thought one else around brother hadnt come home early today probably would cut thing holding back fear family find fear getting caught act going extra stressful time right exam couple day thats definitely contributing im hoping thing get little better thats done unfortunately motivation feel like degree pointless interest subject also intense anxiety im incredibly afraid family reaction fail result complete inability keep focussed intense feeling selfhatred fear even get past exam mental state continue get gradually worse unless something change believe end selfharming eventually im anxious low selfconfidence change anything though guess ill see take sorry long post advice support id greatly appreciate thanks | self.depression |
6 | anonymous entry plz nice brain boil nonstop lol ive finally become deteriorated husk person hopefully last feeling selfawareness | self.depression |
7 | im drowning dont remember ever really happy ive content thats extent day feel like im wading endless thought self hate day bad feel like im drowning cant figure make stop roommate offer help stating suffer depression confided parent day go dont fantasize killing told oh probably get therapy would go therapy take medication insurance constantly feel like cant anything right every person come contact criticizing day get work ill lay bed hardly get reason ill even get get food use bathroom roommate still expect act certain way want go want talk claim depression maybe arent supportive slightest dont know anymore dont feel like talking help anymore | self.depression |
8 | anyone ever tried rtms repeated transcranial magnetic stimulation treat bpd type clarification bpdgtbipolar disorder mean sorry confusion | self.bipolar |
9 | anyone else afraid life first youre reading thank much dont want write long story want share feel alone like im serious relationship come way feel feel pretty alone im afraid people workwhat think say behind back embarrass easy happen awkward ive tried everything nothing helped interest thing used love point im trying survive pussy actually end sooooooooo tired cant even look mirror | self.depression |
10 | serious question suicide fascination staying alive moment suicidal swing pretty dont get commuting suicide hastening inevitable everyone feel need say dont mean realistically control time outcome | self.depression |
11 | dont know bother friend tell depression ive severely depressed year struggling lot friend country living barely surviving university recently started new antidepressant speaking one close friend skype telling frustrated wish didnt depression surface level stuff dont like speaking much situation people reply saying hard know get understand trying relate help feel better make mad constantly say depression online even though never gotten diagnosed ask symptom explains get sad lonely ive tried explain thats depression get really defensive dropped shes incredibly high functioning never skip class job go every weekend see people week social university always participates class dont even know make angry shouldnt matter say depression make want open problem even make feel shitty tbh | self.depression |
12 | took anxiety pill doubt kill great deleted | self.depression |
14 | therapy caregivernon anxious partner wife year suffered generalized anxiety adult life shes tried one one therapy twice little progress instance didnt really engage process put practice discussed whilst encouraged continue cbt exercise etc havent pushed issue thing certainly havent improved time sometimes feel like gradual decline pace kept check mainly medication good marriage id lying didnt say struggle support time like many husband tend toward coldly rational pragmatic come support sometimes lose patience empathy understanding need maintain order help thing get bad fifteen year hard let little exhaustion even resentment show time time worry effort improve matter considering seeing therapist improve perceive shortcoming also see pick new better tool technique understand support wife anyone experience either first hand partner anxiety whose half tried somethng similar clear im trying apprentice therapist steal technique stealthshrink im considering full knowledge consent | self.Anxiety |
15 | extreme anxiety exam hi ive never posted forgive im breaking rule little background ive never seen doctor money family lot reason able start year ive never diagnosed anything although pretty sure depression im psychology graduate recognize sign ive year normally manage diet exercise bad bout generally okay since entering law school year ago ive felt worse worse week want curl ball disappear first thought manifestation depression ive realized im feeling depression extreme anxiety consistently happens situation feel particularly powerless right im incredibly anxiety exam feel like nothing help im hard time breathing ache im getting abdominal pain there tightness wont unwind feel absolutely paralyzed fear law school regularly deal lot tough situation nature exam anxiety attack extreme bout anxiety least paralyze worst possible moment incredibly hard study exam crucial time seriously affecting grade havent studied huge exam tomorrow may fail dont know im trying deep breathing there much sure get medicine take help | self.Anxiety |
16 | shouldnt born long story short good life loving family amazing boyfriend country chile suck lgbt right social equality thing thought thing getting better theyre today conservative president elected feel disappointed many thing fought bring social justice people believe hell create new job bring money people put social right aside want communist reason communist mean everybody straight malefemale shit ton money lot people say homophobic shit make feel like scum society hate hate wasnt bad day election result came world sick | self.depression |
17 | presentation hour im already shaky nervous mess guess comfort knowing last final undergraduate degree need shaking like leaf next seven hour would sneaking drink help nerve advise edit survived least find grade | self.Anxiety |
19 | im going hopefully dead end january fuck yall tired living wasted life thanks mental illness grabbing throat forever | self.SuicideWatch |
20 | feel like people care certain degree opened depression like understand people life worry need focus recently opened lot close friend girlfriend suffer serious depression went finally seemed help struggling last year started med therapy take really show improvement mean time try turn suicidal thought come creeping back worthlessness everything else get treatment like head need think positive case could cured magically first day hardest part girlfriend getting frustrated im depressed like choice telling im needy decided revert back old self pretending like everything fine reaching anymore never time talk long distance relationship used talk daily barely sending good morning text refrain talking throughout day give space say need anything text back around midnight doesnt feel like talking go friend like dont even exist say call never mention im upset never time u im bad guy understanding busy point fuck going thought getting help reaching people would best choice support understanding feel even alone lying everyone would much better would dump cause already feel like doesnt give fuck least would feel le guilty string end bullshit existence keep trying care life mean anything nobody else give two shit | self.SuicideWatch |
21 | anybody else suddenly recall childhood memory gutwrenching anxiety able go back deleted | self.Anxiety |
22 | clinically depressed person say dont want visited mean | self.depression |
23 | sorry needy since sleep thing really driving wacko snapped son im mean cranky even though son made sleepy time tea fam keep telling take nap lay cant sleep bad get start getting better fall asleep fine wake cant go back sleep maybe call pdoc afford take anything sedate much much work job start day early work european mind need sharp | self.bipolar |
25 | think place say deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
26 | last night f intense anxiety attack said total overreaction behaved whole family died car crash explain control deleted | self.Anxiety |
27 | im gon na tonight ive attempted time already | self.SuicideWatch |
28 | feel like creeping huge battle getting therapy medication parent im minor cant get finally best month life almost depressionfree feeling indescribable amazing liberating way school started parent divorced brother need therapy gave session didnt realize today depression feel like disgusting film thats slowly ruining life already know next thing know im going staring ceiling completely void anything unable move thinking isnt worth live hate seeing happen loss motivation emotional numbness selfhate come back stage knowing whats going happen feeling unable prevent | self.depression |
29 | friend saying suicidal thing im worried know irl name one say ik nothing else blame going pc instead staying xbox reason think might im worried please someone tell dont want call police idk he serious msg becuz steam doesnt lem see one reason httpsimgurcomagsugj | self.SuicideWatch |
30 | im alone alone suck making friend one ever talk guess fault im quiet dont start conversation anxiety much handle nowadays school attendance suck im failing every class dont much live point love family dont think understand feel reminding dying child africa im much luckier doesnt actually help surprisingly enough would realise yeah one talk way feel make feel lonely barely get morning lay staring ceiling waiting nothing happen yeah thats pretty much | self.depression |
32 | partner told felt suicidal would told mine summer bare mind six year together january early miscarriage march day terror attack london ive always one look everyoneand one time need someone look feel alone feel much like cant talk anyone life isnt bad oh well man etc etc ive tried bury feel best part year maybe two manifested seven month since miscarriage dont think actually felt kind happiness since seeing positive result he begged go doctor every time go call get scared put rang today call wednesday morning get emergency appointment live uk thats start guess whether ill call wednesday remains seen ill likely talk justfeel honestly nothing live people need help im waste space hate job im one top dept store london honestly despise everyone work im currently trying find new job much luck go gym get anxiety done enough either dont go im three hour feel get judged whole time impossibly vilefat friend amazing lovely wonderful friend feel low horrendous make excuse see best friend like sister much dont feel burden insignificant life problem partner moaning life slipping away front asd odd growing never really felt like big deal like hard work getting everyday remembering make eye contact say whatever head pretend interested others act well normal sorry self pityingor wallowing dont know anymore thanks x | self.depression |
33 | hate staying alive others really really wish way go without hurting people | self.depression |
34 | evolved cactus motherfucking mushroom thats right longer even need sunlight survive im one step closer considered human hurray edit holy shit wasnt expecting much positive feedback thanks guy | self.depression |
38 | someone help background im high school sibling suicidal past never attempted parent separated fighting yet divorced yr im contemplating suicide | self.SuicideWatch |
40 | could really use good vibe right slept pm still havent eaten dont know survive night deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
41 | family causing depression anxiety family never beleived young age always quiet child would bully chore around house didnt id verbally physically abused never wished well beleived therefore build confidence felt worthless despite got good grade school always remained positive one day id toxic environment id happy tried best effort get eventually going university problem university parent never supported financially got support anyone friend going thru difficulty one turn independent able take care thinking getting job help financially wanted focus university enjoy ive free entire life thought working would make tired miserable unable enjoy experience life young age financial difficulty drop university nobody helped nothing live amazing assignment essay one become depressed sad choice move back negative home worse ever verbally abused family say im loser ill never able achieve anything life say im weak burden wake every morning purposely age nag anything think dont support way shape form really dont know cope live like want positive know there nothing left positive like happy burning buildingyou know gon na burn eventally wont able escape really want study well life experience normal thing anyone age would im unable choice thats lazy one problem family thats negative towards make feel hopeless due want go uni next year ill left position | self.depression |
42 | posting someone el stead gday everyone lately friend mine f going lot heavy stuff past year life drained disposition towards brighter future personality morphed somber version word feel like there reason wake think isnt important anyone doesnt open people proximity live different state doesnt voice thought unless already drink many also worry rarely vent close friend met year ago situation he going saddens greatly give space time talk clam soon start talking understand way feel history constant suicidal thought close actually honestly want help idea reckon could go see therapist parent supportive might take wrong also doubt would like idea good may want help truly love unfair life done last week cried desperately talking phone took long calm go bed dont know honest advice highly appreciated thank tldr dear friend feel bad asking advice help english isnt native language please excuse mistake hope message got | self.SuicideWatch |
43 | always back suicidal dream aspiration anything life shitty time college struggling every single class trying figure want work towards reality want die whats point going much bullshit know never happy dont goal go towards lately new job keeping tendency check bad day work today want swallow many pill since dont gun shoot wish knew pill would kill try tell girlfriend feeling talking worthless | self.SuicideWatch |
44 | anyone else feel like subconsciously selfsabotaging order keep depressed came tonight look post self sabotage curious see depressed folk around felt way exactly feel well feel like ive struggled varying degree depression since sophomore year highschool ive short bout long drawn period handful suicidal episode varying severity worst landed psychiatric wing bit mention dealing illness seven year concise know lifelong disease however also know possible rally moment normality dip recent bout lasted multiple year fact suicidal episode severe ideation attempt occurred within time starting recover see mountain shifting stable life begin emerge yet chaos fade find acting way bring renewed depression ie selfsabotaging happens mentally physically lack better term spend hour analyzing friendship end launching anxious spiral also find drinking sending strange text people goofing work suffering consequence think deep know im finding situation im putting situation one two thing either im simply acting want act resulting consequence distancing others pushing back depression level want hold depression im acting way result isolation subsequently renewing depression search come conclusion must least subconsciously want stay depressed believe least part without depression dont know entire adult life lived within confounds depressed outlook allow heal mean become new person cant take metaphorical cast walk around like person used person teenager im trying make light struggle hate familiar like old saying devil know better devil dont depression hell im afraid facing whatever come next im afraid reconstructing life well even reconstructing im afraid construct stable life first time without depression dont know think im self sabotaging guess question anyone relate insulting ever depressed person admitting im scared live without logic even sound guy want feedback edit though wanted add part might want subconsciously stay depressed rather attempt avoid failure selfsabotage fail heal really chance try heal could way taking knee instead seeing whether succeed fail | self.depression |
45 | please honest stupid kill high school relationship scale fucking retarded wtf justified please dont soft sensitive give ur honest unfiltered thought | self.SuicideWatch |
46 | f feeling overwhelmed hi yall title say overwhelmed work hour week live emotional support cat school fulltime take med trileptal buspar daily see therapist weekly basis switched doctor love new one school design dogwalk five day week work sport bar hour week also private school aftercare program six day week starting introduce exercise back life thinking going soylent diet meet calorie need father help rent car insurance thats everything else pocket curriculum requires expensive art design material software beginning feel overwhelmed financial responsibility currently unable take loan dont anyone cosign started building credit student credit card started passing thought wow really killed instead dealing serious think im worried one day might take serious fitmixed episode reached close friendclassmate going church atheist need major coping skill dont want quit working think im love making money save little extra spending cash tldr fulltime student working hour week feeling overwhelmed need coping skill | self.bipolar |
47 | medication anyone take lexapro like started today | self.Anxiety |
48 | hate im never going get better maybe im better alone forever hate | self.depression |
49 | today asked different people wanted hang said werent busy couldnt hang deleted | self.depression |
51 | starting gym today start gym im excited terrified reading load advice exercise help im starting give go choose gym close mile away like country side two bad day waiting today panic attack right first time long time something extremely positive towards health go counseling wish luck keep get better | self.Anxiety |
52 | feel like old personality dying weird state either follow dying push wait something happen bascially ive felt like month | self.depression |
53 | im sure dont want really im sure im depressed ive never psychiatrist dont dare mainly depression scam according people know importantly family felt ive done research studied enough know ive last five year ive every single symptom one know thing none friend single person family many friend say im one kindhearted people ever met came people ive never expected say thing scare make feel lonely hurt one time couple year back actually turned friend told depressed long time brushed said dont even know depression even truly felt like one would ever even begin understand go im suicidal loathe living point wish brave enough know wont dont want attempted twice took handful pill dont remember happened afterwards year later tried slit wrist got terrified ended bruise im ive tried smoke hated never sipped alcohol life dont want ive told im loved felt nothing honestly dont think im capable feel apathy feel empty feel like nothing ever able fill void dont even know im writing guess feel like people know like feel shitty alone | self.depression |
54 | morning anyone else wake really really depressed suicidal day continues become fine happens every day im really sure deal advice appreciated | self.depression |
55 | anyone else wanting chat depression feel like putting instead keeping inside | self.depression |
56 | someone please tell im sociopath person personality disorder manifesting extreme antisocial attitude behavior lack conscience happy living alone bad also strong moral compass killing wrong suffering good better please tell im sociopath | self.depression |
57 | bpii dx today yr unhelpful mdd treatment deleted | self.bipolar |
59 | anyone else experience ear worm dont mean actual worm music playing head talking therapist skeptical thats issue anxiety ive read online ear worm common people anxiety anyone else experiencing | self.Anxiety |
60 | suicidal ideation ever go away objectively good life one thing significantly hard husband ten thousand debt largely due medical issue subsequently always stressed never save income go tube debt still deal invisible disability chronic pain medical procedure beyond made husband wonderful person toddler love whole healthy delightful achieved career dream getting paid art form try give back society working sick child part time outsider would think great life however teen attempted suicide stomach pumped next year though ive never made another attempt ive continued suffer intense suicidal thought somewhat dependent external circumstance high school incident swore mother would never every time ive gotten close anything ive remembered promise look pain precious child would destroyed without yet much sends state panic sorrow continue suffer trauma rape decade ago past many way sexual assault news sometimes feel like im girl room im getting help therapist low dosage anti depressant year everything cause anxiety even thing good example objectively least mediumlevel attractive yet ob ugly feel reality damned hate stomach cant let go achieved career dream yet get state panic writing next book deadline cant moment lose temper daughter think oh well ill angry fucked mom like mine daughter would better without im trying say matter good self hatred intense desire disappear earth consumes sometimes way harken back year old oded ambien champagne year therapy antidepressant good life still struggle much anxiety many moment want die ever get better broken person dont feel anyone talk say look good life theyre right tonight think wanted jump window dont understand really dont | self.SuicideWatch |
61 | ive run reason live doubt many people read ill keep short ive getting depressed past year started bullied overweight got worse became anorexic bulimic still made fun skinny stayed bad eventually hit lower level oldest brother died overdose continued spiral throughout year mom best friend like second mom lost battle cancer got worse girlfriend ex got pregnant gave baby grandfather passed away hospital trying kill broke mother child dropped college didnt think would get much worse dad diagnosed liver failure month later ive watching slowly get sicker sicker since time early last year thing finally looked went college best friend could ask found girl thought truly loved accepted past fun made memory finally found trusting somebody year able felt sad always wanted comfort listen gave time love told love life talked future kid married plan life made happy know somebody loved much long couple week ago cheated dumped ive trying win back since yesterday officially decided thing much due depression said would never together fight blocked everything maybe emotional maybe immature feel like there point anymore much finally got hope crushed front heart broken cant anymore ive thinking killing almost daily past week getting worse im starting actually feel would better dont know im gon na thought get chest dont think whole living thing anymore | self.depression |
62 | feel like im surrounded fake people caring im schizophrenic voice head telling pathetic schizophrenic type tell theyre thought actual physical voice honestly dont feel like know anyone real life care voice started appear even know theyre way brain cope loneliness evolutionary instinct last stage suicide attempt luckily im crazy yet uncharismatic annoying look post history alt account see pathetic loneliness ive trying reward pathetic asking friend classmate something school succeeded person feel like mildly trust look last post one see also realized annoying | self.depression |
63 | wish could go back time happy remember happiness remember enjoying present moment remember enjoying enjoying life remember smiling remember remember seeing family friend remember happiness really really miss happy | self.depression |
64 | yo long post ahead youve warned last lost father best person entire planet imagine living world there le toxicity father always cheer thing even simplest thing he gone downer life mom usually doesnt care much sibling honestly dont care doesnt care younger singlings kind support study right much debt lucky landlord kind kick u apartment else wed living street home nothing get depressed pissed anything got full time job last working game master korean company called ig netmarble main client recently decided go back finish degree since school yr ive take new subject changed curriculum somewhat source problem right much stuff going mind right im enroll capstone course im student still dont approved topic begin enough groupmates said course hard find someone start socializing anyone already peer course im new ive thinking lately im still fit take finish capstone project even coming topic professor want cant there much want explain cant think right word feel like im edge tall mountain fall tiny mistake life else fails perhaps ending life would better option | self.SuicideWatch |
65 | know life end suicide dont know deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
66 | saddest day life birthday week ago deleted | self.depression |
67 | im pretty sure reason im still alive death anxiety dont see point trying anymore inevitably im going die anyway matter even managed form better relationship people point ill die theyll die theyll leave one u end hurting point dragging misery point trying control im getting older accumulating even problem there way around fact eventually die actually going becoming tangible everyone lie say get better get older getting much worse problem following plan im afraid failing succeeeding one truly know happens cross there god get mad | self.SuicideWatch |
68 | update lamictal making feel much rage doc want take stronger mood stabilizer yesterday posted lamictal made feel much rage making aggressive confrontational also made feel intense feeling suicide made feel sadness ive never felt problem felt awful symptom intense ive taking lamictal since february nd low dosage first week took one mg pill per day week im supposed take per day next week per day etc february th started taking mg guy read last post youd like concern doctor response took xanax around noon yesterday doctor told phone take two trick said im free take day see friday doctor also said want take different mood stabilizer pill mg really worry suicidal violent mg lamictal one safer mood stabilizer whats going happen im suddenly x dosage mom say shouldnt take medication anymore actually agree although havent officially diagnosed yet doctor believe im bipolar ive always suicidal thought ive always felt high low goddamn never felt intense emotion first time yesterday actually considered could commit suicide morning feel much much better stopped taking medication per doctor instruction swear smoking weed much better alternative im going use dont want take medication triple dosage think im going stick talk therapy exercise edit im sorry mod forgot add trigger warning title hope wrote feeling suicide arent detailed wont trigger anyone im new subreddit apologize broke rule | self.bipolar |
69 | completely failing math successfully class find homework super easy despite exact material help class turn anxious stress ball class find homework assignment dont present much challenge despite harder question class idea | self.Anxiety |
70 | ive come peace decision used cry time wanted die used feel sad couldnt shake feeling wanting end life serious thought certain way never certain anything life honestly dont know day ill know itll within next week find want im oddly excited see end im excited life never treated well | self.SuicideWatch |
71 | clockwork way tell someone everything confidence life end regretting wan na say ill never definitely though round round go | self.depression |
72 | cant really handle living anymore feel like matter hard try progress depression saving grace friend learned recently plan leaving soon barely handle every day really dont know one | self.SuicideWatch |
73 | here positive post im starting taper klonopin going well far started mgday ive several year past ive tried taper several time disastrous result doctor say went fast right im mg one night mg next ive week feel different im excited cant wait tell dr next time talk decide next step | self.Anxiety |
74 | quit well paying job thought parent would kill told deleted | self.Anxiety |
75 | one thing keeping killing know people thinking killing way bigger problem here story disclaimer following text probably sound like whiny teenager angry girlfriend worst person earth paying enough attention feel feel alone someone actually cared amazing every aspect feel like ruined everything last year week birthday best year life love long distance girlfriend met first easter best week life werent able meet somewhat broke saying needed free space fine think made everything better since shes tossing aside constantly shrugging everything say told problem including constantly drunk father lack friend lack self confidence nice conversation basically set aside someone else wanted talk day next day wanted pick topic back guy called randomly hour shouted month still working relationship went christmas told nothing happened shes always saying important person stay place didnt answer message since coming back home didnt spend time rather play league legend friend rather thing know thinking suicide since christmas eve increased parent break anyone talk thing keeping one friend suicide thought helped talk couldnt stand dying hypocrit | self.SuicideWatch |
76 | deal consquences depressed like didnt reply email message snarky people etc etc | self.depression |
77 | revelation doctor umpteenth time claimed dont think im bipolar deleted | self.bipolar |
78 | feel like ive trapped thinking head past week two help cant stop thinking cant even blurb sentence without stuttering ive become mute past week havent spoken anyone trapped mind | self.Anxiety |
79 | anybody else ever enjoy mild panic attack sometimes im home ill relatively mild panic attack really dont mind mean enjoy probably wrong word conscious appreciation whats happening like understand physical symptom recognise whats going im home dont let overwhelm symptom still presenting | self.Anxiety |
80 | brain implant specific phobia near future deleted | self.Anxiety |
81 | anyone experience nootropics recent hypo binge splurged whole bunch brain boosting chemical namely noopept aniracetam phenylpiracetam whole lot others im back earth looking pile powder marked intended human consumption wondering good idea lot supposed help depression study done russia either mouse cognitively impaired person cant return seems like waste give shot least im already modafinil amphetamine lot drug tested effective mild cognitive impairment scientific community considers bipolar people manic episode verbal fluency certainly gone couple episode used silver tongued slick salesman selling suit left right barely keep conversation going fdaapproved medication helped respect nootropic forum none deal additional risk face possible mania final year university cant risk experience department id love hear recommend | self.bipolar |
82 | getting job found job ive really excited past month isnt gon na happening bos really shady dodgy lately told today wont job opportunity got accepted great chef school month ago really wanted go would rather work said school said yes job instead find wont getting job motivator last month right feel like completely giving dont know fuck right reason got job friend know owner havent even graduated high school spending year high school grown ups getting grade job im eligible super mindless souldraining job even chance arent looking bright cant even get job mcdonalds im old im going try get military school summer refuse live way ive living past month barely leaving apartment week feel suicidal thought returning thought gon na get job finally able get routine back track quit drug addiction start working money spend finally meet friend im locked inside prison escape someone please mail anthrax | self.depression |
83 | please help ive hurting much feel like eternity ive never bad cut first time year life hurt cant stop trembling everything gave comfort doesnt even work momentary distraction anymore listened muse earlier thought fun singing started cry grabbed box cutter eye hurt much theyve closed ive lying bed much recently told everything best friend facebook shes asleep dont want wake thought reading everything wrote make feel guilty like im going vomit make want hurt mind wont leave alone please someone tell stop | self.SuicideWatch |
84 | feeling like dont matter know lot people think revolve around universe another way saying lot people feel like theyre main protagonist movie life dont even feel way feel like extra background nobody care like dont matter know ive making several post recently hard nobody want talk depression problem im going anybody care im feeling suck | self.depression |
85 | im scared get job depression anxiety cant even function properly home function properly working environment | self.depression |
86 | finding lost mentally done every day wake sad try appear happy roommate getting harder hide going year since family think something think go away find impossible tell family word truly feel everyday seems like see laziness even though there nothing wouldnt feel normal one day spending day break cry truly miserable regardless everyone think made excuse proactiveive heard really sure im asking post really hard week month year | self.depression |
87 | lonely feel like killing girl get fake got one girl stopped responding im lonely work school happiness friend family ive planning awhile im ready crossover afterlife potential anything | self.SuicideWatch |
88 | wall shame may help journaling reading old one realised progress ive made particularly bad time last year made realise ocd well tackling also starting therapy gad adhd ive seen obsessional mind loop set anxiety latch thing gone round round head unchecked ive realised utterly fucking stupid grabbed pen big piece paper entitled wall shame added stupid mind loop anxiety ive stuck wall add recognise theyve started laughing head seeing light day utter nonsense reasoning head held power cant reason afterlife life anything completely pointless believe one way ocd make continually doubt cant buy new clothes world going shit im participating via materialism repetitive task like taking bin ironing mean life completely pointless looking calendar make feel like im wasting life dont know help sure helped realise fear mind unreasonably try deal realise post edit clue flair came anything im sending hug support | self.Anxiety |
89 | epival horror gone pound pound epival let slide eventually horrified got depressed doctor visit gaining pound week would stop going month would think platowed really gave doctor nurse said level point honestly went two month possible know massive stretch mark across entire stomach hurt achillies tendon walk day ache bad get bed barley walk must kind diet calculated everything myfitness pal week allways calorie without even trying would like able walk without pain main goal anyone bad reaction epival | self.bipolar |
90 | tell family depressed past four year ive depressed year suicidal thought lot time really cant find meaning life anyone el sorry anything really want enough stay alive ensure get think meaningless everything seems reason havent called quits would hate hurt family like ive enduring anyway back point thinking letting rent know feel feeling know mom blame sure dad might take seriously suppose need find way make mom understand lol also one dog passed away recently mom little brother took quite hard mom actually anxiety attack passed hour yeah tell im starting feel like might easierbest | self.depression |
91 | anyone else get anxiety falling asleep hate feel like im dying every night like im wasting time sleep im desperately tired crush internal clock end staying awake | self.Anxiety |
92 | could boy ive talking messaging girl yesterday ive year took small break started last month anxiety depression bad comfort though absolutely verbally abusive yesterday asked check message phone n see message asking girl date n stuff hasnt taken one im year asked basically said im boring talk n stale n fault end apologizing filled xanax got bottle intending od mom found bottle n dumped tho dont want thanks compassion | self.depression |
93 | wanted share story guess deleted | self.depression |
95 | taken mental hospital may deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
97 | nobody know keep always every day feel suicidal im self medicating suffering always one truly see care | self.SuicideWatch |
98 | im tired acting like im okay want shout fuck want die | self.depression |
99 | struggling meaningful thing spend hour straight reddit trouble spending minute paying telephone bill | self.Anxiety |
100 | way help somebody depression boyfriend pretty severe depression im person talk good least talk someone think tell parent could try get professional help refuse talk anyone belief therapist cant help matter hard ive tried convince also belief taking medicine wouldnt help even though tried convince suicidal least day im worried one day way help know everyone different general advice would appreciated | self.depression |
101 | since remember would always say kill parent died ive grown older want live become afraid death day dont think cope cant cope seing father loose mother see loose dread think never seeing either dont want die | self.SuicideWatch |
102 | see another walking dead man see eye med blinded caged say best deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
103 | rapid heart rate day dont know year old male cm pound kg far remember one family history heart disease also quite athletic ive exercised frequently ive got great stamen running matter fact ran couple mile ago fine here situation ive always form inability deal great change back seeing therapist hed told overprotected much parent divorce chance fully mature properly regardless thats background couple week ago sorestrep throat pretty harmless right however first time like year reaction something shouldve simple exaggerated consisted severe anxiety depression throughout week took antibiotic daily week another day taking antihistamine allergy throat issue seems gone thats still feeling super anxious depressed even throat thing passed year since ive stopped yearlong visit therapist well medication thought time go back time continue treatment properly started taking ssri since last week first week mg one mg whole pill paroxetine ive taken paroxetine past rapid heart rate different brand name one used make difference anyways also took xanax mg night like day taking ssri decided stop since made super tired plus youre lot medication get point dont even know whats causing ssri plus antihistamine allergy didnt high level anxiety negative thinking depression throughout day yet heart still racing probably around bpm side effect ssri side effect taken xanax taking ssri could heart disease mean went gym yesterday ran couple mile today nothing happened could still heart disease could anxiety depression caused even though ive gotten much better negative thought stuff rapid heart rate still lingers day normal trouble sleeping suck remember xanax alprazolam brand name calming bit actually ive stopped stop soon dont want go back may fk withdrawal stuff guy think earth happening mean dont high temperature cognitive function fine dandy heart rate slightly uncomfortable plus hand shake time | self.Anxiety |
105 | feel like shit favorite girl idol look nothing like used fervently followed superstar year recently came able cope fact doesnt look like used plastic surgery changed nice sweet petite appearance there one show became obsessed look finest look youngest look healthiest became quite addiction stay late night rewatch entire show performed land far away take note every step make every note sings show somehow feel like lost childhood lost friend car crash knowing appearance continue worsen make much painful might ridiculous saying feel like raped virginity stripped away complete stranger force never back | self.depression |
106 | today th birthday woke feeling loved empowered grateful time last year unmedicated actively planning suicide thing get better im cry hard writing year ive dreading birthday losing insurance last week approved stay parent insurance giant relief year friend organized little party today phone blowing birthday wish love sub provided much support kindness really made major difference life feel thankful safe cared going god damn year | self.bipolar |
107 | tired voice ever since little voice head whenever im supposed something important nessecary he opposite sound like always convinces listen always battle head never chose never ever life idk make sick control body thought failed every school ive life failed everyjob life im tired dont anything life dont understand social life cant comprehend u want social cant relate anybody ever feel like everybody stupid im smart sometimes people make mad normal want kill bare hand feel like never connected someone personal level dont understand dont friend people make fun fail everything life cant take anymore want kill voice doesnt deserve body ive gone therapist make really mad really confused thing im sorry guy cant take anymore | self.SuicideWatch |
109 | feeling like burden f im living boyfriend grandmother house month internal injury require bedrest course clinical depression yesterday asked clean house thanksgiving morning overhear saying wonder parent dont want house sleeping feel like im burden around ever get hate condition im going live useless broken shouldnt around im like sick horse expensive fix put | self.SuicideWatch |
110 | telling people anxiety always compliment good life feel guilty deleted | self.Anxiety |
112 | girlfriend year cheated lost hey first time reddit saw community figured try here story two month ago went florida buddy got really mad btw continuing went last time would hang college good time didnt even anything crazy literally stayed grandma lol anyways got mad went wanted cut thing day year florida sure always little fight would take break whatever time different committed came back tried hard would buy flower treat good even surprised dinner small little road trip place shed dying go hung last month said loved said happened past past would continue text every night say stuff hungry would offer get food would get month thinking going right direction randomly started texting boy mind knew something fishy said nothing even told nothing worry funny thing well last night decided make clear wanted flaunting around acted like nothing acted like never even single thing life drove house today wanted talk trying justify text saying okay broken month yet last month shes saying complete opposite lost amp saddened literal everything future planned lost take forever time pas lay bed wonder tried freaking hard make feel perfect | self.depression |
113 | barely talk anyone anymore shut life mother mom person see flesh day may talk like three people online occasion feel impossible interact people | self.depression |
116 | would consider dedicating live others instead killing thats question mind ponders maybe dont like capitalism maybe dont like life mean willing die situation bad enough cant stand thinking people could better living condition thanks death cant help anyone anymore worth fighting one day help someone maybe could even study something help people job really satisfying know human better chance happiness know must thinking right perception could start see way make satisfying fact life unfair action way impact people life better maybe strange idea maybe worth fighting thats thinking lately selfless live least year help others need become small buddha accepting fact job may tiring sometimes focus something worthwhile time used think something like cant anything important help worth maybe dont know yet want thought | self.SuicideWatch |
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