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227 | ssri induced bipolar disorder hi given diagnosis bipolar ii disorder due ssri taking psychatrist belief recent hypo manic episode due medication taking symptom bipolar disorder know describe experiencing treating abilify currently recently stopped taking back depression episode dont know point im asking many diagnosed bipolar disorder taking ssri happened | self.bipolar |
229 | whats best way kill preferably gruesome whoever find dead body excruciatingly painful either legal live uk gun option im cant buy sleeping pill otc pill know method im looking pretty much doesnt exist anyone idea p honestly isnt cry help much appreciate im looking sympathy anything really need answer thanks | self.depression |
231 | severe depression man want run away severe depression cant cant even get comfort day even one second never comfortable never joy happiness desire anything anyone else like | self.depression |
232 | anxiety kick night hey folk broke gf year month ago imagine rough ride one thing noticed week break particularly night heartbeat would accelerate feel like world closing talking doctor prescribed ativan help calm help im wondering anyone method dealing thanks reading | self.Anxiety |
233 | got knocked im entirely sure want get back drowning debt ive work ive last month apart brief week period wedding day honeymoon dont remember last time happy put application kind job stuff field stuff ive even applied burger flipper role mcdonalds ffs useless degree hope got call interview say dont want take first line support role would rather put forward second line role idea role open fattest useless lump waste space ever think honestly im done | self.SuicideWatch |
234 | stuck couch ready give stuck awful couch friend house im paying thru nose sleep onrelatively charged month usd next month energy anymore im always pain cant even buy bed place awful couch cant fix anyways cant afford anything money think option living mother also certainly lead suicide pathetic adult family still living together last month shitty landlord kicked u im life beyond pathetic training career bunch odd job lead nowhere career take anyway cause smoke weed family pretend care depressed forget quickly theyre adult important shit went college music ed realized couldnt spend life teaching something passionate bunch dumbfucks make talentless retard like migos famous world spit existence even fucking bother look somewhere live im better dying cant wait make u feel better urself short term misery continue finally end | self.SuicideWatch |
235 | im tired going school work numb pain weekend deleted | self.depression |
236 | thing r going kinda bad last time felt like th september usually enjoy reading watching series past day hella hard feel like hopeless unconfident everything every place go best friend try avoid feeling loneliness cant getting hard | self.depression |
237 | please help id appreciate advice hiso uh throwaway ill get point im final year mechanical engineering student ive frequent panic attack past week reason idea im done degree dont know want specialise grade good cgpa ive done great project dont confidence whether ill survive im freaking idea want next phase sure ill employed even get employed im sure ill well ive posted engineering sub assume right place post im getting anxious losing shit ive gotten tunnel vision bad way cant see anything else negative future ive lazied life taken everything granted damn straight worth dime know gotten comfortable comfortable dont remember last time worked hard pitiful ive got tip minute ago thought id post advice help appreciated rest assured wont jump havent given completely yet please help | self.SuicideWatch |
239 | beautiful face wife beautiful face breathe memory smile fill lung hope hope carried blood vein soul like bat send signal love await return echo navigates day nothing love love thousand time shout darkness silence return thousand angry dagger invisible black abyss blade rend flesh spirit though bloodied weak stand clinging life smile im okay im okay thousand time say peaceful repetition attempt soothe fighting back crashing wave wouldbe tear tide swell calm slowly eroding bedrock faux defense crumble ground im sorry im sorry thousand time cry word tiptoe ear vain burning eruption anger turn ash molten rage slam ocean tear encompasses cage obsidian clawing back rage try hold heat much hold sink fall farther abyss sorrow searching hope close eye try remember beautiful face smile gone | self.depression |
241 | suicide isnt hope life ive thought bullshit stress life compared simplicity poetic death ever get head who say shouldnt write beautiful memoir try put calmly possible im even starting lose motivation im getting tired monotony life sometimes wish able sleep forever stop fucking rush life know family love much dont even hate life enjoy feel like effort put isnt worth id rather put monotonous life course could probably guess im im tired getting hour sleep night mediocre everything sometimes think well done suicide easy way give make name | self.SuicideWatch |
242 | tell stay busy delusion pointless life truly tell selfish people longer u rather tell love world longer love | self.depression |
243 | sad today dont talk much anyone month since last proper conversation week last done nothing sit silence know make others awkward try stay away today one asked hated dont speak anymore felt sad felt like asked forgiveness said alright im ruining everything try talk cant even bear looking eye try best swing glance fails think making awkward hurting feeling try stay away often fail make sad due inability say anything said couldnt talk nothing say tried point talking nothing anything felt worthless could blame anyone could nothing stand shameful silence nothing say wanted say sorry could would make awkward realy sad angry anxious knowing say either way probably pitty always invite everyone invited party felt like collapsing quite paniced knew would likely come said lie went home collapsed cried half hour got text asking would come said ill food ate feel ill ate think reason maybe something ate earlier today read post made anxious hour thinking suicide couple week since depression returning last week quite intent follow today even worse dont know plan get drunk send message call friend say sorry way behaving really sorry cant anything see make sad distressed probably say fine isnt ive ruined everything might go get food elsewhere hope get sick mind depressed year hasnt always shit everytime good lower guard get hurt something happens know shouldnt socialize grose inability yet surround people sorry worry hurt probably worst feeling initiative want end never suffering worse unknown death good make others happy least time break start pushing away guess become happy stop talking ok im sorry read need write something something vent anxiety | self.SuicideWatch |
244 | growing alcoholic mother mom heavy alcoholic since year old im turn still drink straight vodka course last year emotionally abused physical altercation well shes rehab several time jail domestic violence countless amount violation probation alcohol parent going nasty divorce mom want take lot money dad even though hasnt worked year dad might lose job provides good pay progressed much year loos choice work low paying job high school diploma denver cost living pretty impossible live without good income meanwhile drunk mom go live family dad money get struggle survive dont want leave state graduate year college plan state midst havent friend many year sit browse web aimlessly dont know people age ive loop whole time want gain friend want get girlfriend absolutely clue ive room whole life dont know socialize suck ive hurt year probably get lot worse divorce wanted abuse took big emotional toll thankful keep positive outlook life keep moving forward matter hard | self.depression |
245 | im alone dont know go extreme anxiety nothingness like dont know point dont want die im scared dying dont particularly want live either | self.SuicideWatch |
246 | even parent forgot christmas spending another christmas alone cherry top one parent theyre divorced havent sent gift post office close christmas know im little old want present time would taken get gift card time holiday would made feel nice even worse im child | self.depression |
247 | want need help one believe invalidate every feeling deleted | self.depression |
248 | weight world back shifting mania hypomania pretty much october november unstoppable enrolled college course next semester even though literally dropped three course last semester much find new apartment next month seems impossible ive already taken almost year point cant take time top everything disordered eating getting progressively worse realizing lost pound recent mania instead reacting outraged regard current news event im getting horribly upset hopeless really hope doesnt last long depression last anywhere day several month handful new coping skill year iop session ill see go anyway needed vent thank reading adviceempathy would appreciated havent cried much week long time hope youre okay | self.bipolar |
249 | ever wanted ever wanted happy couple people llife love little le lonely share quiet private life people feel glad near instead nothing noone crippling loneliness sadness fear insecurity deserve dead im failure life thing never get better one ever love fact opposite true people hate matter want im tired pain want edit past day since posted horrible everything go wrong ha gone wrong clear im wanted earth shuffle life im sick tired incredible im tired | self.SuicideWatch |
250 | man man suicide selfish god gave purpose reason live according parent also say everyone feel way get house | self.depression |
251 | im depressedanxious im pulling hair problem year getting worse im literally pulling hair frequently im starting get bald spot getting difficult hide point wear hair ponytail time without thinking realizing sometimes ill make little deal like ok one time stop paying attention happens dont know know im harboring deep deep shit dont know stop subconsciously im miserable person dont go outside unless need work home hour day day week im mom get everyday work stay awake every morning spending almost entire time computer trying avoid anything dont see friend anymore best friend live right across driveway havent seen week dont desire move function im super insecure bald spot patched hair regrowth cant tamemy hair curly ive looked support group online everything say isnt something fixed anyone thats something else put slowly eats away motivation anything ever im tired moment wake go sleep never even feel like slept night whisk dream nothing feel lost | self.depression |
252 | spiraling control long sorry advance deleted | self.depression |
253 | explaining anxiety disorder others got diagnosed gad panic disorder ive gotten used lot thing people say frequently say know nothing anxious thats disorder brain doesnt function way people obviously lot people refuse believe real illness usually discount week ago posted story reddit anxiety disorder tertiary plot point someone claim diagnosed anxiety bipolar disorder may explain seem understand exhaustion anxiety cause seemed think talking merely tired rather week exhaustion full night sleep experiencing | self.Anxiety |
254 | even life thanks disorder thing ive jobless past three year im still living parent havent made progress life time every time ive get interview depression decides kick cease function ruining chance getting job add even interview im awkward social interaction end bombing thing feeling like total shit afterwards im getting kicked insurance soon need find decent job im going end medless obviously wouldnt good much liked hypomania dont want go back old self ive tried voc rehab nothing came like kind aversion finding work im stuck disability feel guilty dont think need yet id screwed without im failure | self.bipolar |
255 | dont even know good life would look like there really nothing want achieve every part existence dull boring | self.depression |
256 | hospitalized mental health go way state residential mental health care deleted | self.Anxiety |
257 | someone portland need help far way anyone else help want talk someone person little bit meet could potentially get care center know long shot im really sick im willing make drive anyone else could would really help | self.SuicideWatch |
258 | im burden three people would feel bad leaving behind bos employee boyfriend niece truth someone job better someone would hurt boyfriend le one day niece resent much rest world everyone get sick point mental health issue make difficult get along sometimes im dropped like bad habit boyfriend support im feeling fight constantly feel like support blame problem make feel worse though sometimes feel fighting like adding weight im already struggling keep water think im angry doesnt understand wake every morning cry much worse make life cry impact make earth knowing always negative im waste space dont want fight anymore | self.SuicideWatch |
259 | stop wanting end real friendship hi pretty much one friend persistent keeping company confided depression start uni got know know made effort lived together second year think say enjoyable year ever life around pretty much time course work team genuinely enjoyed company time spent living roof third year uni got placement went move partner live alone private hall pretty busy work neither u share experience day day thing like lecture there much talk anymore occasional chat via text maybe couple time week seeing person scarce today went partner first time ive hung together previous time there always discomfort noone like thirdwheeling seems pas day go manage separate entity couple individual part interact normally recently though really feeling like know fact depression gotten much worse past month ive felt like avoiding people never want talk anyone never want see people person much effort energy talk anything know pushing people life away dont know control today thought id make effort go see rather make excuse care however whole day felt unnatural like hanging stranger nothing talk discomfort around didnt wane day went felt wouldve made better impression id said couldnt go therapist heard talk friend mine since he pretty big part life past two year asked im love dont believe comment doubting feel make want keep check know place friend show much care behave way make give impression im fearful showing enjoyment around also think im jealous life plan someone love love back much live together share others company etc think want someone like want life share someone least companionship around im home thing making want disappear life dont really add anything theyre perfectly well without moreover surely theyd better jealous person around know lot thought influenced lack selfworth selfhatred depression social anxiety know thought irrational make situation worse end potentially hurting process appearing ghost mean lot stop want disappear | self.depression |
260 | wall anxious need new brain brain happy dealt anxiety disorder long remember coping skillz lately kicking as adult child college living degenerative disease cause chronic pain discomfort turn cause depression course come support week supporting said child cause panic anxiety treat cbd pretty successfully unless im call work med today day med help get today step take stave panic get car drive home work think also need longer term help starting impair quality life | self.Anxiety |
261 | shake leg theyre nervous used time school ive recently started annoying im constantly worrying somebody see ask something wrong | self.Anxiety |
262 | hate spamrobo call need complain much hate randomized spamrobo call especially call spoof coming across local number hearing phone ring always make anxious however need ringtone phone call case work family member older family member tech savvy hearing phone ring seeing unexpected number automatically make anxious mind think loved one terrible accident theyre calling someone el phone pay phone even pick realize even human who calling heart rate spiked hand shaking mind racing cant get back normal little disrupts entire day signed every call list imaginable top wont even answer phone english anymore ive heard horror story robo call capturing someone voice get access personal information figured thats le likely happen speak language isnt common call coming realize someone knowi switch back english hate calling people hate robo call hate hearing ringtone want stop hate hour day ruined robo call please let unidentified phone call reserved serious situation like loved one dying thanks | self.Anxiety |
263 | hard get bed ive spent hour lying bed afternoon hard convince there nothing look forward nobody talk find reason selfcare easier stay bed struggle thing like selfhatred sexuality type relationship future take step improve situation hard emotional support nobody cheering nobody go thing stepbystep nobody listening im aware rely validation seek help time im aware change thing soon im trying independent everything fall apart immediately like want demon go away dont need happy want stop | self.depression |
264 | anyone else make post post get nervous go back delete second guess think said something stupid time pretty largempost history two month honestly would two three time didnt get crippling anxiety every time tried reach friend im tired thinking im worthless say stupid thing time | self.Anxiety |
265 | irritable month ssnris xpost rbipolar need turn internet instead doctor took cymbalta two month effexor week ive irritable edge constantly even brought isnt normal anyone else deal related ssnris | self.bipolar |
266 | feel like annoyance obligation care sooooooooooooooooo one friend got engaged another one working really hard building connection get medical school another one friend started spending time friend engineering contest planning build thing side passing second year job money literally biggest achievement last couple month beating cuphead feel lonely wan na spend time friend dont want waste valuable time playing game consoling like mostly never ask hang anything come theyll happily go cheap restaurant hear ramble dark soulsthe cuphead game feel like dont deserve | self.depression |
267 | lost im year old female ive wife six year everything going great seemed problem world april lost dad unexpectedly talking hour prior lived together three u best friend everything together wife one found bathroom aneurysm gone best friend parent ever never even got say goodbye cant stop thinking last thing talked air conditioning couldnt something meaningful always said love ending every conversation whether person phone text said annoying amount time day always said back thought saying last time habit took little time sad seemed like supposed pretend nothing happened stopped talking like never even happened aunt told counselor would make everything worse didnt go wish wish would wanted time able properly grieve still havent gotten fast forward week ago wife told doesnt love anymore wont even look said partially im suicidal partially doesnt think love someone way cared dad without fear losing suicidal thought make angry push away refuse talk doesnt even want try anymore cant help feeling wish didnt truly want healthy without support really hard took almost two year tell felt couldnt tell got married weve married little year problem hiding emotional relationship year old tell everything met two month ago feel though ive replaced wife get angry anytime ask girl even know uncomfortable make plan finally see counselor sometime week telling didnt feel like alive anymore said doesnt want go counseling there point saving u ruined mostly want u talk professional since neither u time grieve individually couple kind counseling better none dont know anymore suicide seems like right option nobody else wife doesnt want anything mortgage family sorry rambling head place | self.SuicideWatch |
268 | anxiety gassy stomach tip relief ok noticed get anxiety episode stomach get really puffy start feel heartbeat anyone found natural way find relief maybe dgl tablet work rosmething ive using chamomille tea help trapped gas bit still looking somethign else | self.Anxiety |
270 | good always help write thought paper deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
271 | thought life lot want get chest dont really know talk im year old male college really feel like dont belong anywhere really mean people would call friend one feel extremely close even friend close past dont really excite anymore gotten point get anxious see anyone assume wont like time think really happy relationship due sentiment pretty tough time connecting girl point interested top dont really much social life dont really know overcome hurdle come starting relationship im particularly ugly im pretty decent shape dont really know talk people guess whenever meet new people idea say small talk almost foreign concept even muster question two never know continue conversation invariably end awkward silence wishing kept think part problem dont really passion anything particular especially thing people age drinking partying raving etc honestly wish enjoyed thing could connect people better maybe would close group friend something feel different dont know day spent passing time online love something lately ive trying lot new thing try boost ive exercising frequently focusing school meditating cooking even tried yoga think activity helped feel better person pretty solitary havent helped find friend maybe im bit loner tell would lot happier even one two close relationship also seeking therapy started talking already tell going long process resistant fully revealing even though dont want dont know im looking guess mostly wanted outlet anyone else feeling like want share would nice hear there others like | self.depression |
272 | advice people able make tough day hi hoping someone could give pointer done keep falling edge found get two three rough day fine till next bout im medication covered would really appreciate hearing people help dark day | self.depression |
273 | saw post taking medical leave keep job explain need time bipolarrelated issue im symptom dont want probably stay indoors another option dont think residential treatment work environmentroutine change drastically become episodic turn fuck authority pretty quickly draw line work possible really difficult back away sense danger want hideout could take pick snack dont camping equipment carcamping safer anyways could bring blanket music candy old cd emotion dont scare much theyre music sometimes could feel something good mood tank im nowhere nobody time save always need saving | self.bipolar |
274 | whats safe anxiety medication though helpful giving energy plus keeping calm | self.Anxiety |
276 | negative thought cant vocalize anytime try vocalize negative thought dont make sense cant make full sentence convey thought sentence basically thought arent true seem negative head get frustrated cant speak idk fuck going | self.depression |
277 | thinking posted recently relationship situation led deep depression ive thought suicide past never seriously ive always felt dont want leave people care pain im starting feel differently im starting feel comfortable gone hassle everyone everyone deal shit ive turned bottle last several year make forget going make forget im feeling feel im making others deal thing need im end rope im lost confused frighteningly comfortable gone | self.SuicideWatch |
278 | shame thought letting family love cant deleted | self.bipolar |
279 | please tell get better please tell fix genuinely smile one day feel thing even get excited thing like kid wake focused motivated day instead wishing died sleep enjoy around talking people person want deep christmas eve ive spent day trying get spirit tomorrow gave gf couple early present loved still feel nothing going im done | self.depression |
280 | somehow still feel lonely several year ago knew exactly felt lonely alone simple right last friend gotten sick stopped talking cant really blame depressed hell confused desperate lashing everyone regardless point utterly alone changed im much better close friend several le close one im happier motivated actually happy motivated one thing hasnt changed still feel like im alone dont know feel like may fact trouble emotionally vulnerable dont really know sure since undoubtedly tied depression thought id ask subreddit guy anything similar insightadvice | self.depression |
283 | dont know im completely fucking college know sound trivial expect lot educationwise feeling slipping away unbearable attendance ive week mean ive missed month already know people call lazy flippant dismissive like dont care genuinely could trying harder telling much wish answer teacher angry cant understand hard dont want go sexuallyphysicallyemotionally abusive relationship year two close relative passed away earlier year ache daily im ruining everything honestly idea | self.SuicideWatch |
284 | im moving feel nervous im year old lived whole life mother tomorrow move new house gc feel nervous feeling started day ago close day approaching im sure new change life im prepared dont know | self.Anxiety |
285 | cant win losing know meansanybody afraid work phone make eye contact deleted | self.depression |
286 | dont hate anyone anything ive got point ive learnt everyone individual story character cant justify thinking shit dont hate seeing happy people anymore dont hate every minute thing people carry thing anymore complete apathy dont even care enough anything hold conversation friend etc wised respond thing yeah know sound fucked emptiness lack feeling make sick miss depression derealization depression anxiety fuck want back im chain smoke drink time pain ive given till end summer there much want experience life want fucking die | self.SuicideWatch |
287 | advice getting slump im sure depressed going class past two week due social anxiety tired time sleeping usual im sure break happened month ago dont self esteem power last week school idea kickstart temporarily fix get dead weekfinals week | self.depression |
288 | depressed im depressed im attracted woman woman arent attracted even though im thinking nonstop woman improve nothing work ugly failure | self.depression |
289 | adderall happiness im depressed diagnosed add early teen dont feel like problem add used happy friend kid life got bad starting middle school got depressed hung bad influence dropped good friend became asshole lot people im couple friend meaning literally friend girlfriend since depression hit age im though prescribed never used adderall every day problem feel lack motivation dullness everyday task due depression never got depression treatment take adderall feel happy minute taking little orange pill honestly say pretty much time feel happy life hate dont know know adderall ruined lot life need get life back happy dont know | self.depression |
290 | one want share something kind helped bullied lot school many year since young age left depression anxiety adult life week reading article artofmanlinesscom excerpt changed entire outlook life cant thank god enough sending hope help obvious reason study shown always everything explanatory style optimistic always everything explanatory style prone pessimism depression maes fail something susceptible experiencing learned helplessness long time across many area life effect explanatory style resiliency whole life overstated pessimistic always everything explanatory style prone depression anxiety low selfesteem paralyzing inertia face setback optimistic always everything style hand experience improved health happiness significantly success workplace school playing field resiliency example explanatory style let examine one situation see always everything man reacts compared always everything man len get fired job len tends always everything thinking style might explain event saying im incompetent accountant always league office ill never able find another good job always wife probably going leave man life screwed everything len always everything explanatory style might explain event saying got fired isnt much work anymore company trying efficient economy really making holding job difficult thing eventually turn around always job wasnt good fit anyway really wasnt using true talent least good wife home help everything | self.depression |
291 | feeling hopeless im yo senior highschool feel like alright fed life already dont real friend like aquinctances never girlfriend nervous clueless get one people already dont like supporting trump top everything dont even know life highschool sometimes wish could end done life reason wont get feeling want better dont really know anyone read cause cuz im wall | self.depression |
292 | everything happening around taking toll health immune system isnt used mental health deteriorating deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
294 | hard talk weve together year best friend got diagnosed theyve multitude inpatient stay stood side didnt judge suicide attempt stayed ambulance got im episode manic depressed much trouble talking feel ashamed dont like admitting need help really dont like admitting something wrong especially since lately whenever im hypomanic manic make feel like im purpose stop wanted | self.bipolar |
296 | im actually going insane cant take anymore loneliness fucking bitch im left alone thought every fucking day overthinking every bad memory life | self.depression |
297 | im going commit suicide there nohing live anymoreit seems pointlessim laying listening sade album youtubei anough sleeping pill overdosealthough music relaxingim year oldi thinking overdosing listening musicand pas awayiv seeing psychologistspsychairtrists medication | self.depression |
298 | meditation work ive looking researching meditation help anxiety start anyone guide meditate anything like idea get started thanks lot | self.Anxiety |
299 | talk parent best way go getting antidepressant gave weed alcohol last semester thing helped feel like one ruin everything every friendship dont get something take away dark dark room thats head last long much anybody even reading anyone care | self.depression |
300 | decided leave anxietyinducing housing situation ive living inconsiderate roommate month im tired im tired dreading going home know ill see im tired told house im tired walking room huge party never told happening decided sublet apartment move soon find somewhere else live resign lease im getting anxious itmoving suck dont know break news hell getting new roommatebut itll refreshing come home place every day even teeny overpriced studio live rule wish luck reddit | self.Anxiety |
301 | little improvement went therapist yesterday admitted havent sleeping properly past month im still really new cognitive behavioral therapy finally tackled hypomanic block got hour sleep last night im really proud wanted share someone | self.bipolar |
302 | vistaril hydroxyzine pamoate mg one medication pdoc prescribed asneeded basis anxiety took first time afternoon holy shit im relaxed im happy im tense feel ok feel like make plan arrange timetable without stressing fuck holy shit know wont last forever worked anxious scared work welcome relief | self.bipolar |
303 | stuck ive never posted anything like im breaking point nobody else turn im pretty young still im always told whole life ahead dont see way feel stuck there much want want known history everything want live time dont dont see point die anyways even try im failure know ill even graduate time especially approaching quickly try positive really family gone really tough time grew super fucking fast dont friend isolate convince im annoying tell nobody like ive therapist psychiatrist im depressed anxious nothing helped dont want resort medication ive seen effect people im sure im posting breakdown today theyre becoming common especially new year feel like im giving without really knowing want rip hair skull im starting miss felt like hurt | self.SuicideWatch |
304 | happy new year best life ill dead new year resolution dead hour ive spent last day family trip weather beautiful love pa love boyfriend guess he right shit u post doesnt make much sense give many reason ill tonight matter weather warm sticky humid firework technicolour breath taken away | self.SuicideWatch |
305 | whenever free time work business feel terrible anxiety wish start online business problem watching video subject reading book theorycrafting whenever come time take step something practical buy domain name write article publish etc feel paralyzed fight flight feeling body cant anything besides retreating bed laying fetal position sleep away anxiety feel way well alone | self.Anxiety |
306 | seeing diagnosis writing make feel real got copy paper submitted insurance psych testing list dxs primary bipolar schizoaffectivehttpsimgurcomaahlfv code top ptsd bipolar ii forget im happy borderline ruled offence dxd bpd misdiagnosed year feel bit bitter anyways everything written paper making shit finally feel real im bit sad state life | self.bipolar |
307 | dae ever friend group actually hated entire time met people online last year thought could talk feeling nice face passing around private thing said friend along picture location full name even try force friend apologise friend feel dumb could trusting none friend made know struggle know none would treat way mind refuse listen | self.depression |
308 | fear drugged two day ago halloween people give candyso one neighbor gave candy yesterday happily ate immediately got scared someone put drug candy reason guess got scared many people like hype fear people drug kid candy halloween drug particular worried either lsd bath salt lol know stupid thing believe doesnt really happen gave fear started looking thing getting really anxious yesterday today also came oh somebody drugged food particularly deliveryi still ate though make scared eat know irritational im scared im developing psychosis sczhiophrenia sp delusion irritational thought know true thought yet im also afraid im going believe make sense thing relate year ago used avoid going train bombi would afraid alone someone kidnapping mekilling meetc deal health anxiety anything someone told might ocd related havent diagnosed thatalthough thing number lot hold lot thing high regard people wouldnt reason scared psychosis drug fear also sometimes get intrusive thought really really bother bother much im scared im either getting mental disorder im going crazy every time try get get drug fear come back make worried im getting psychosis something sitting cry eye delusion would saying | self.Anxiety |
309 | im sorry dont know else go found dad cheating mom nth time ive known awhile month nothing mom found im feeling guilty dad long history cheating mom every time though always denies dont understand exactly protecting pride see whats happening mom everyday since christmas mom verge tear dad still either doesnt notice doesnt care problem mom powerless dad u money dont know anymore still havent confronted hell deny word dad family wealthy theyre bunch fucking elitist dad family protects like he angel aunt brother past instead going dad shit instead put blame mother fuck wrong wit people mother cancer survived retired form stressful office space shes treated like shithead father idk else recovered depression think might go promise look gun time around seems like fair escape shit | self.depression |
310 | selfharm without drawing blood feel intense urge inflict pain drawing blood freak like feeling soreness want inflict bruise dont know ive thought starving time feeling always fade away anyway hurt without cutting | self.depression |
311 | favorite music listen youre breakdown removed | self.depression |
312 | im sick living genuinely feel like option solve problem death im fucked head im waste space everyones time feel like everything wrong almost always fault powerless fix im pathetic weak life gift curse | self.SuicideWatch |
313 | everything feel hopeless cant live like constantly feel tired sad life feel like dark abyss every time wake think every bit joy gon na end everything going end eventually even try whats point trying everything temporary go therapy doesnt help feel like work make worse want die | self.SuicideWatch |
315 | lie bed look forward living dream world inside head person ive always wanted im loved safe happy morning come wake reality sink like brick youth gone im still failure wish never woke tried hard life feel accomplished live life proud love loved every day another act failure rejection day get heavier heavier ive run strength want stay bed want stay dream world really really dont want wake | self.depression |
316 | killing next day whats point alive never meant world natural selection defective piece shit like get picked im gon na die anyway speed process hate life life whole experience im unable cope porn masturbation comfort even though make feel like shit im alone one talk friend girlfriend hell dont even trust woman anymore honestly kinda hate emotional fickle careless piece shit hate man today le valuable constantly put feeling arent even taken seriously like fuck get emotional scared lower status woman dont believe check social medium television barely attractive girl horde men chasing hold power men sex intimacy relationship decide worthy get men blaming one allowed happen im still dont feel like man definition woman defines real man one bitch wouldnt real man punched face depression borderline personality disorder barely get morning hatred mostly directed towards im fucking failure ive felt depressed empty far back remember still dont know get matter hard ive trie im perpetual fuck ive managed fuck everything barely regulate emotion told mom cremate die even made promise im trying best leave back cash take care expense suicide incur dont want funeral dont deserve one dont deserve love missed time want needed cherished badly life feel empty existence seems meaningless day devoid joy emotion constantly fluctuates deserve faith deserve die young im waste | self.depression |
317 | mom lost job le year superior decided shut business dad paid really really bad job mechanic sometimes lucrative time people seem forgotten like car feel like burden even though lost job le hour ago maybe drink whisky whole pack paracetamol see happens dont know im also half drunk moment | self.depression |
318 | ive almost made last year time debating overdosing medicine lost thought id never make made need hear remember youre worth believe | self.bipolar |
319 | dont know want die depression several year ruined life partner year left couldnt cope newborn already low withdrawing work several month born feel empty whenever struggled shutdown contemplated suicide week missed last hate hate soon old enough tried hard fight doesnt care gone hope dont want carry fault | self.SuicideWatch |
321 | bipolar survival kit whats one item use couldnt live without thought might fun share maybe help pair amber wrap around sunglass wear im trouble unwinding night im swinging block blue light help relax sleep | self.bipolar |
322 | past two week gone downhill car accident dog injury something didnt think important turning alone bad health police showing house panic attack doctor going derma issue feeling guilty playing video game payment payment thinking getting really drunk really wish theyd give something dull emotion least participate emotion say emotion arent bad say hate much please give something stop fear | self.Anxiety |
323 | nobody want stay youre severely mentally ill ive lost almost everyone life bipolar disorder ever end | self.bipolar |
324 | choose antidepressant forgive sound extremely stupid ive finally convinced year ignoring depression go see doctor im confused process work person get prescribed medication know ton different kind medication doctor know one prescribe say antidepressant youre leaning towards know severe side effect im wondering theyve talked inspect give choice list feel best usually start bat one kind medication without question asked | self.depression |
325 | let talk ex long post sorrynotsorry going post earlier job want call help line anxiety ive family problem affecting job performance self confidence talking people depth anxiety give anxiety fml thought hey reddit might offersomething remembered ex dated several year self esteem low thanks everyone met told didnt like way treated brushed got dream job barely reacted put school twice held multiple demeaning job considering suicide worked as get job got thirty second phone call claimed tired jealous put another six month long distance didnt even realize much manipulated developed feeling guy friend mine started realizing wasnt really crush cover friend perfect relationship girlfriend envious mine different wake call spent next month realizing ex narcissist controlling finally got courage end time felt guilty didnt really hate started looking back treated like crap got jealous hung friend got paranoid going leave barely gave time day real problem blamed anxiety default answer everything told ah became paranoid started apologizing go back look old chat email want punch past self actually see developing anxiety getting worse said way hed brush flip around make seem needy annoying used sex incentive wanted long relationship always stressed busy mood wanted hate even didnt realize told best friend didnt think could keep real job anxiety actually work career dreamed kid job love want stay long want go anywhere want get help anxiety know need help think he right he right hate much hate think id totally different person hadnt come life wish could tell hate think thats want he trying subtly get back life keep hurting worst part working thought id moved ive moved relationship long breakup damage he caused im ranting im also terrified he still going realize feel pleased destroying really call help line tldr narcissistic ex said wouldnt keep job anxiety work want see someone anxiety | self.Anxiety |
327 | im always sad cant cry anymore life tiring everything make sad cant cry sit give least cry good release sit numbness | self.depression |
328 | need med adjusted cant stop thinking killing ive started self harming want bleed im going fuck im even scared want bad need wish could im fucking chicken though needy whiny need die need dont know month left see doctor thats enough time make mind parent proud donating much charity bad selfish reason | self.SuicideWatch |
329 | suicide option almost worse actively suicidal deleted | self.depression |
330 | tao bipolar maintenance yesterday regular appointment psychiatrist first appointment newly assigned resident student already knew id exactly baseline little month id somewhat hypomanic didnt find alarming wanted see immediately discussion residual symptom went many drug id trialed past big pull worked best reply nothing id ever tried helped slightest drug made thing much worse continued fairly satisfied compared prospect gambling better venture result experience lateral movement best descent greater instability worst struck tao help harm control disorder inaction treat accept simplicity thing reject desire form something artifice aligned nature without action harmony found end agreed readjustment | self.bipolar |
331 | daughter prescribed zoloft main symptom anxiety constantly moment mania anyone experience drug | self.bipolar |
332 | would boyfriend twin sister think ive trying convince im getting better lie ever think ending cutting alleviate pressure life going nowhere got kicked college year im cc solid job kill knowing wont amount anything im talented dont excel anything look average best even makeup im recovered bulimic self esteem still rock bottom im depressed purge shit ive drinking turn next wednesday dread mom biggest regret kid said face twin sister try help shes hour away parent much already lost best friend th grade ive boyfriend two month make happy im love doesnt stop paranoia sham elaborate scheme tear keep head water stop fighting would think would twin sister think im gon na keep drinking feel like dont exist wish didnt exist many people would much happier never came late next best option cease | self.SuicideWatch |
333 | college keeping tab making anxious im business student local college last semester found one classmate professor anonymously reported school strange behavior kind med give hypoglycemia make slur word seem tired since getting email ive never social anxiety badly feel like im one careless comment away hospital stay dont know reported even suspect everyone simultaneously feel like imagination leave class today felt everybodys eye feel like well poisoned im sure exactly point | self.bipolar |
334 | anyone else feel stuck cant describe feeling like dont want anything dont want get job dont want get morning energy goal dont even care anything like im floating im getting absolutely dont care lately ive okay feel like getting far get went college year dropped depression anxiety taking lexapro anger much lower im want anybody else medication ive week two take week fully work lazy passion anything scratch passion dog im happy around thing allergy mean cant zyrtec fix price pay following dream veterinarian midnight thought | self.depression |
335 | younger figured thing would make sense got older havent im approaching think ive hit lowest point last five year ive issue long remember particularly dad died early teen thing never really made whole lot sense dont think ever really understood concept school yknow get supposed prepare life seemed like something wouldnt bothered even senior year never really dreamed anything jumping ahead ive essentially done warehouse work last year quit last job november im pretty sure family room mate pissed im really type talk feeling facetoface basically told couldnt deal anymore really happened nightshift something hated one thing ive come know im feeling depressed lack sleep completely mess night resigned spent first three hour shift trying keep breaking cry front group stranger kicker dont even really good reason think exhausted nothing meaningful kept building creeping fear life meaning nothing job looking work without much luck point ive online work suspect wont enough keep everything going ive essentially started applying anywhere since im going start feeling financial strain soon people get know bluecollar job pretty straightforward look job productivity jump chance call someone lazy arent working hard think thats keep lot guy going working deadend job hate get mindset selfpraise hard work work harder guy b guy c lazy po forth room mate got angry quitting recently essentially said lazy havent stable job long time like met previous job he almost year problem argument mind hate he always trying leave early take somehow even worst seem better financially dont get wrong post isnt rant criticism people around suppose would unfair say im lazy dont enjoy thing hate seems like fruitless cycle work live live work thats argument make around people though guess would come full disclosure fucked otherwise im lazy reading job description recently make life seem bleak dont get thing seem make sense everyone around wont click head people work near decade something hate continue cycle end ive entered numb feeling im convinced im never going understand looking peace life dont really know expect hear post like felt like share someone snap anyone relate general advice | self.depression |
336 | panic attack dont feel actual panic hi obviously im really user subreddit hope weird ask know im panicking im type cry shake basically loses mind etc however im curious different type different symptom whatnot example recently freaked public thought reacting something else thought maybe allergic reaction new makeup wearing didnt feel nervous felt kind disassociated calm realized must seemed like experiencing panic attack people staring friend telling take deep breathes etc really weird ive never panic attack reason didnt really feel panicked could retroactively thinking better actually maybe people around think every time react something im panic attack anxious personality perhaps actually different kind panic attack | self.Anxiety |
337 | drank as valentine day hey wanted say drank pretty hard valentine day got bar people people watching soccer match felt pretty lonely pretty miserable end didnt enough change fourth beer meh feel disgusted unable love feel loved single year end guess worst anxiety staying alone fantasizing love cant reach romance cant live im pretty bad excuse human dont stand thats kind person dont even courage keep given anxiety disorder disease pest plaguething didnt ask still im way abnormal there way someone could love loser like ive always loser wish could die find courage die something there much remind flawed unlikeable like ghost exactly dead making kind ripple world anyways hey thanks coping end message thank | self.Anxiety |
338 | wishing catch flu take work stay home soaking hot bath day cant tell bos spiraling say locked bathroom yesterday cry work say almost caused accident morning bawling driving work honest hoping type sickness give muchneeded space time craving | self.depression |
339 | u think boyfriend insulting texted boy told dont understand like since im fat ugly texted back youre ugly maybe u get hair done buy new clothes make feel better insulting | self.Anxiety |