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340 | mother suicidal thought making sad mother father split almost year ago currently life brother give shit last week one worst fight talk today came tell died life pay im im deal fact mother want kill constantly alone hand deal father also difficult person deal also going several phase life time energy dedicate mother since im living mother hard follow know determined commit strong suicidal thought today deal fairly well fear anything happens mother know could handle suicidal thought well time pass mother loses reason live fall suicide please help know else like im loop take get mother make sadder talk today tomorrow morning ill schedule session psychologist soon possible else get thought head | self.SuicideWatch |
343 | weird sexual behaviour manic young way could calm social anxiety get intimate people look like mildly acceptable behaviour man woman least country nevertheless made good friend horrible enemy fast forward day married kid struggling sex drive hypomanic even though acting past keep intimate relation husband social behaviour still flirty side mistake spot friendly realise back baseline depression outragious dont flirt youre invited talk possible employer hate probably get job obviously make family life suffer well first admit sexuality problem idea cope depressed fine generally dont look people face dont see advance flirtatious attitude hypomanic walking mess vented also hard write please judgemental choice made making debilitating behaviour cost family reputation also job talking hate | self.bipolar |
344 | cure hope hating want dont power change thing life accept im going kill tonight eventually like there hope thing change time didnt feel like girl ever saw anything dont even know wont happen im shocked ever even happened massively unfair rely someone else make feel like youre good enough want feel wanted someone still wouldnt fix fucked perspective know wont solve problem least wouldnt deal isnt hope getting rope work hopefully extra weight make quick | self.SuicideWatch |
345 | balancing work treatment im trying isnt working well missed therapy day got called one competent worker walked schedule absolutely packed dont want explain condition vital treatment plan work performance dont think choice also supposed reevaluated psychiatrist therapy really looking forward potential med change wait another month feel like mess im super financially stable blah | self.bipolar |
346 | someone give advice life transition coming making anxious deleted | self.Anxiety |
347 | ever get amazing happy feeling like second go back wanting jump train deleted | self.depression |
348 | inability act almost cost business deleted | self.bipolar |
349 | emotional numbness anxiety depression feeling emotional numbness awhile used suffer anxiety panic attack dont get much instead feel completely numb dont enjoy thing used hobby becomes boring dont look forward thing feel plain head feel like there barrier reality feel tired time energy nothing drive question long numbness last anxiety depression get back track okay | self.Anxiety |
350 | hello hope better life hi want thank personally even giving slightest bit attention didnt want end life without atleast talking letting one last time however im going end life ive planning year ive reached breaking point shitty life got dealt friend social life stupid exam education cant get uni struggle alot socially never fit maybe ugly look would make sense suppose like seriously would want friend virgin moron like anyway hope die im gon na go onto something better mean could worse | self.depression |
351 | alone lost ive alone angry long feel like matter try always fail tired hope feel like foreign concept pull hair find incredibly difficult stop feel like dying | self.SuicideWatch |
352 | anyone else negative parent would say mom definitely one reason horrid crippling anxiety negative doesnt really understand dont like talking spending time today woke gave kiss cheek conversation hey way double majoring art im music double majoring would much already work commute im full time one point taking unit job didnt even car told get rd job argument oh know dont make money right like seriously wtf tell shes worried blah blah doesnt take emotion seriously basically implies im spoiled baby need tough shes happy hardly make money try think hardly make money looking tax return found made nearly half made sad considering im fulltime student parttime job one time getting scholarship told said thats like yeah much thanks making feel bad getting scholarship lol mean thats tip iceberg woman seriously take ton energy completely ignore im around like unconditional love even hate living particular moment still always love deep deep deep deep deep deep deep damn always negative dont want around literally everything say negative make everything worse wish could make understand need therapy | self.Anxiety |
353 | truly finally sick bullshit called life ive tried everything doesnt get better im literally sitting cry writing im failure worthless useless person nobody care ive done everything people told suggested started eating healthy started working outdoing sport made healthy daily routine nofap im everything make life better doesnt im still fuckin lonely guy failure girl like doesnt care would date today cancelled saying fake shit cant meet said going write later didnt doesnt fuckin care feel already confessed feel seemed feel way believe also fake shit dont feel like writing doesnt fuckin care im going beg anyones attention would rather die thats im going today figure im first time girl rejected every time asked girl rejected people doesnt fuckin care anyone beside filthy scum earth friend well used moved away others girlfriend doesnt fuckin care guy actually got together didnt even bother sending happy birthday text take like second yes thats much doesnt fuckin care dont even know exist suppose one friend lost suicide another friend always busy im fuckin lonely sick living see point next year im going university dont fuckin care anymore want die people talk text need something need something dont reply im always friendly help people get nothing im sick going write note ill tonight | self.SuicideWatch |
354 | anyone else feel depressed end net neutrality deleted | self.depression |
355 | anybody else feel like theyre trapped thought | self.depression |
356 | feeling want delete entire history dont mean google chrome going rough patch anxiety moment cringe lot thing say even worse cant sleep night analysing entire history quite self absorbed im sure people cant remember little thing rational thought comforting someone help put mind rest | self.Anxiety |
357 | tired wish could brave enough end | self.SuicideWatch |
358 | rexulti know asked im specific symptom im sure theyre worth result ive tapered mg point read go mg problem already experiencing side effect deal change vision worse kind crisscrossed inability sleep night go sleep alright wake pretty much every hour resulting feeling like absolute shit morning loss memory night im reminded remember replay event head also taking forever type normally im textproficient realize obviously mention side effect doctor didnt know common side effect thought edit im also taking mg depakote mg lamictal | self.bipolar |
359 | thought happy dont know anymore im ive grown upper middle class loving family ever since car accident last year everythings gone downhill parent honestly people feel actually care probably one thing holding back thought toll would take since accident leg permanently damaged ill never able stuff loved seems like whole world turned realized thought friend dont care top feel like mind broken beyond repair nothing really make happy anymore school mark good enough get good university could keep next year dont see point going ill ever happy end last year first time ive ever really felt like right feel like nothing ever able make happy im selfish asshole satisfied nothing last night took way dosage prescription opioids prescribed accident ive attempt die try forget issue leave reality couple hour tonight think ending im probably going go thought seems comforting dont know | self.SuicideWatch |
360 | network insurance go urgent care home pcp deleted | self.Anxiety |
362 | one comment post care see post many comment post get none people annoyed posting something isnt subreddit venting helping | self.depression |
363 | younger cousin went inappropriate laptop bookmark really stressing two little cousin coming see quite often year old wanted use laptop play video game love helped uncle cut tree front yard deleted browser history couldnt see anything inappropriate came back inside heard one favourite song playing computer forgot delete internet bookmark turn went bookmark put song came said guy listening said sorry messing around nothing else said ended going home went internet bookmark found link drug anxiety even porn link dont know noticed link im freaking right dont want think drug user think differently bookmark link im babysitting day dont know approach situation anyone help give advice | self.Anxiety |
364 | today bad send good vibe feel dissasociated also like mind numb assume copius amount caffeine due lack sleep im suffering work right send nice sub browse calm nerve please also im never much caffeine even took lexapro early today | self.Anxiety |
365 | world place nigga feeling | self.depression |
366 | right psychiatrist unsuccesful psychiatrist visit sleep alot writing horrible psychiatrist didnt understand problem didnt want telling everything happened fault getting bullied born short fault getting depressed going school fault awkward socially fault hear father mother fight fault asshole everyone fault suicidal fault flaw fault fuck society | self.depression |
367 | im tired im tired waking im tired going school im tired cry im tired cutting im tired lonely im tired failing im tired scared im tired friend im tired judged im tired hating im tired eating im tired sleeping im tired thought im tired hoping better day im tired change im tired living im tired writing | self.SuicideWatch |
368 | cry people tear lot cried last movie saw cried saw nice homeless person talked near house even cried saw painter dirty clothes buying grocery dollar tree think much hate much wish could reborn never cry think worst memory instead cry usually feel ashamed useless want cry feel like im gon na break soon actually need cry almost like feel like dont deserve | self.depression |
369 | treatment resistance medication working ive different medication still struggle lot near constant depression symptom anxiety ocd im currently lamictal wellbutrin keep hypomanicsuicidal still dont function well im keen trying antipsychotic sideeffects ive experienced anyone success many unsuccessful med honestly get better dont feel like ill ever close living normal life list med ive prozac seroquel lamictal lithium abilify latuda geodon wellbutrin mirtazapine | self.bipolar |
370 | reason im parent didnt ask hold parent responsible anything happens life wouldnt wouldnt endure pain im enduring id nonfuckingexistent | self.SuicideWatch |
371 | depressed date anyone success dealing depression date starting last relationship tremendous anxiety depression tied dating life current girl sometimes come home date start feeling depressed immediately feel throughout rest week | self.depression |
372 | social security disability unemployment hey everyone past month bipolar disorder turned severe quit part time job slowly breaking made time go hometown spent past month staying parent seeing old psychiatrist begin medication year since treated bpd ten day heading back home live boyfriend begin therapy rapid cycling lot working seems like lot right want apply disability dont know start even possible apply social security unemployment hallp anyone knowledge experience live ca | self.bipolar |
373 | suicide seems like option erase pain deleted | self.depression |
374 | need say oct worst day life nothing particularly different pressing feeling wanted die went work early morning trainingyay army thought hoping would go away finished released go get breakfast way home something clicked immediately started planning going started gathering account info everything bank social medium student loan etc sent everything person trusted would able take care everything gone turned phone picked weapon chambered round lifting another thought struck didnt want defile weapon like probably sound stupid thats went mind went work preceded think another way lunchtime never happen person sent info called crisis line within minute post wide alert put needle say got help day thing wish wouldve lied almost clear everything explanation everything decided trust chain commandnot everything mind see counselor every week honest never let slip bad place im every single day wish dead one know dont know open anyone feel like im borrowed time fucking exhausting want feel normal already | self.SuicideWatch |
375 | anyone else feel trapped feeling impending doom relationship deleted | self.Anxiety |
376 | started think much make people nervous dont know people wont talk easily extends people know question friend cant totally open make people nervous | self.Anxiety |
377 | gad problem rant im sitting nd day school due snow anxiety stomach ache usually get sunday school friday somehow ive overnight last night convinced swallowed something skincare routine somehow idea generalized anxiety suck sometimes dont youre anxious like ive working project woke early ive gotten much done nope anxiety stomach ache havent seen boyfriend week doesnt sound right cause anxiety keep reading coping stuff theyre find make anxious try face agree im much figure try face person figuring trigger idea annoying im trying get better work stuff mind like lol thought sorry rant im tired anxiety stomach ache make feel like im actually sick want actually participate life rant sorry | self.Anxiety |
378 | got diagnosed bipolar year ago baker acted three day boyfriend say real diagnosis doctor didnt see enough time ive mg seroquel mg citalopram year random adjustment time im bipolar fucking cope | self.bipolar |
379 | escapism normal could depression really dont even know im right place talk going make sense ive feeling pretty embarrassed wanted get chest throughout preteen teen year suffered pretty severe depressionanxiety cutter loner thought pretty normal hospitalized different time age tried different medication eventually got point time college felt okay lot time think mentally healthy deep know thats probably true today im late married working full time living pretty normal life except tendency start daydreaming alternate reality fantasy always hyper sexual seems build get bad every couple month recurring theme either thinking ex boyfriend broke fictional character tv show depends im watching time usually kind character whatever im watching get started dont know trigger thought intrusive obsessive start feel physically painful make anxious cant stop thinking thing dont want stop want live alternate universe need get body life something like think pretty normal symptom depression coming back like think im happy im happy relationship cant stop obsessive daydream there nothing wrong relationship im happy feel nauseous time nothing really make happy except daydreaming allconsuming dangerous painful often violent controlling sexual relationship nothing like marriage life general find constantly hating body thats nothing new ive never thin particularly attractive hasnt gotten better year thats probably part im constantly thinking one could find attractive always mind dont want live reality anymore im bored bored | self.depression |
380 | ive resorted melatonin supplement sleep time feel safe pain im always pain kind pain tooth pain specifically im seeing dentist tomorrow sends prepanic focus energy willpower preventing panic attack instead actually productive thing like course work might end becoming crutch dont care hormone know awake exhausting | self.Anxiety |
381 | need someone talk problem please deleted | self.depression |
382 | im still life im still sadistic whore removed | self.depression |
383 | thing keeping alive pet deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
386 | deal hypersexuality im tough time im going around screwing whole bunch people sex present always choose sex whatever task instead like cant prioritize anything sex become problem | self.bipolar |
387 | cant stand pressure constant pressure stress joke eye disappointment much decided come around since dont like hotlines reddit thing keeping sane deep wound nasty scar reminding torment mind put reminded worthlessness opportunity seeking fly past speed light struggle ask shyness embarrassment cant take anymore one blame failure action reflect nothing failure worthless failure cant anything right panic attack every breath refuse believe anything wrong would add liability existence brings around attempt far hope luck sorry wasting time ill delete idk | self.SuicideWatch |
388 | ultra manic irritable every holiday im diagnosed bipolar mixed last four year become unpleasant manic strong irritably throwing thing yelling hiding upstairs extended family doesnt see yelling though know im hiding well family tried help providing quiet small nonstressful holiday thing happens im getting dread holiday either feel miserable im irritable ill feel guilty later manic making everyone el holiday horrible im ready celebrate miserable everyone normally lithium good job helping control longer normal occurring thing lithium holiday happen anyone else anyone suggestion thank | self.bipolar |
389 | stop following politics stop living life fear seriously still vote man hour new cycle shit going end breaking quit shit | self.Anxiety |
390 | signed online suicide prevention based therapy regular therapist isnt helping much got declined im already seeing someone told much struggling therapist doesnt seem think serious enough trouble telling feel like hope lost fml | self.SuicideWatch |
391 | cant go talk girl like way deleted | self.depression |
392 | go deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
393 | vent post guess suicide note idk im tired fun part night google overdoses break nearly quit im fucking sick would message friend either suicidal would straight call someone dont anything live sound spoiled middle class white british im claiming issue know good moment small bad one outweigh see whole life layed front mess fail mock havent studied scrape pas gcse pick course ill grow hate level get debt degree spend year thinking im dumb mediocre job husband dont really love get pregnant accident dont heart abort start toxic family structure achieve nothing drift away friend reason stay alive friend shit place one confessed one day theyre gon na kill tried yesterday failed day overdose kill im afraid die im fucking tired living | self.SuicideWatch |
395 | ever tried moclobemide background bipolar comorbid anxiety problem sort hasnt formally diagnosed unless ended diagnosing panic disorder havent flat told thats possibility say suffer anxiety period panic attack period obsessive thought one formally diagnosed tried treat thing bipolar formally diagnosed ok aside mood stabilizer stabilize mood euthymia still end terribly terribly depressed persistent ive always take antidepressant dont respond well antipsychotic also dont think theyre safe ive tried five different antipsychotic luck luck antidepressant took effexor year stopped working havent really able find one helped since closest ive come trintellix take isnt fully treating anxiety problem take provigil top ultimately dont know trintellix right drug reason look ahead cant afford taking four medication near future ok else well ive tried zoloft cymbalta trazodone fetzima wellbutrin celexa think thats struggle suicidal ideation many older one really option moclobemide maoi seems safe wikipedia say isnt lethal overdose like maoi doesnt dietary restriction though probably try eat copious copious amount tyramine side effect profile seems pretty mild true oomph maoi hit receptor virtue arguing monoamine oxidades could promising im first admit science really point strong grasp neuropsychiatry bipolar disorder many hypothesis educated guess may someday proven correct right arent psychiatrist clinician forthcoming kind background practice rather guiding principle said seems like general consensus mood shift bipolar disorder linked dopamine bipolar depression manifest low level dopamine im personally bit skeptical parkinsonrestless legakathisia type symptom indicative bipolar depression low dopamine would bring thing limited neurological opinion let give benefit doubt dopamine well arent many antidepressant cover ive heard lot people taking emsam great luck doesnt seem like good fit part swim lot also available back home leaving u real possibility graduate emsam also maoi like moclobemide maybe would miracle drug need tried | self.bipolar |
396 | cant escape shitty life nobody understands im actually sick deleted | self.depression |
397 | rant im always everyone always try nice good friend stress saying something wrong constantly get return bullshit people fucking hate im sorry im fucking talented good anything constantly remind shit even jokingly suggest ill succeed something want one even fucking entertain idea fucking shutting well fuck fuck fuck fuck people see extra comic relief character one give godamn respect matter much give cant happy hurt constantly god hate | self.depression |
398 | eli medication schedule hello reddit yesterday got medication help battle worst enemy got different one take morning take evening dont understand mean take time healthy people consider morning evening way body experience morning evening sleep night almost year exclusively daytime currently pm got supposed take morning pill know best ask doctor available anymore today | self.depression |
399 | every time think ending become happy hi everyone know agree time keep fighting time keep keeping thing get better look clear one day hole right thing die absolutely need carry bipolar suffer several illness make slow mellow fatigued dont energy anything day today spend laying bed day simply give energy put living painful doctor dont solution treatment lined waiting die go ahead accept fate thats saying life bad wish good prosperous life live strong kind wish could get redo order try good happy person dream last little time take care everyone love | self.SuicideWatch |
400 | dont want booked counselling session dont want go dont want try fuck fuck shit hate feeling like dont want exist want hurt dont exist yet dont want want live oh god want live fuck fucking year ago place wasnt though dont even fucking know crazy shit shit dont care fuck thats like catchphrase nowadays fuck dont care im hell even real head fuck upset dont want fuck life girlfriend reckons im really well everything hunky dory dont want tell going back always go back always fuck dont care thats always say ever want id fine love fucking bit want happy want happy thats want got ta fucking shit another year god know many year dont want dont want live got phone lady samaritan felt like fucking idiot im stupid crazy real im sorry | self.depression |
401 | doctor diagnose bipolar disorder ive always known deep heart something wrong without health insurance year health care plan job dont know something regular doctor diagnose process ive event personal life past year really make question | self.bipolar |
402 | dont many friend guess time elementary shy kid almost unnaturally shy like one friend year middle school forced make new friend high school pretty much kept friend minus couple college finally come around cant manage really make doesnt feel natural talk much class time dont social energy focus conversation stranger used stutter talking people couple year ago slowly gotten better still cant manage form connection besides one guy talk every class honestly really awful think make people think im bored dont like bc dont know interact situation im sophmore college ive joined club school went counseling still feel like im ghosting around trying act like think one relate anyone advice dealing | self.Anxiety |
403 | zoloft started zoloft month ago first mg week increased mg per doctor instruction little started taking still alcohol gross im huge drinker love wine beer ive ssri year switched zoloft depression got pretty bad cant even fathom beer anymore wine maybe one glass feel sick anyone else problem similar med ive paxil pristiq effexor never issue | self.depression |
404 | something wrote tonight crisp white coating engulfed road another sleepless night another crunchy step taken path escape like deathbed cold yet way comforting dimly lit road winding hill seemingly leading nowhere endless circle cruel metaphor life trapping beautiful soul emptying leaving nothing mere skeleton real world dementor intercepting excitement joyous time year holiday spirit flow air feel dark aura confronted yet somehow im coming accept okay newfound serenity alternate state one writing meaning true reflection sound beautiful head like poetic verse capture slight feeling still within written word fill void longer spoken | self.depression |
405 | involuntary shouting growling whining laughing strong urge scream punch thing restlessness bedtime ive lot traumatic experience life started meditation back ever since happening like old junk coming past happening year im wondering ever end anyone experience | self.depression |
407 | every day pass feel like want put gun mouth blow fucking head deleted | self.depression |
409 | bi polar bear destroys sanityfirst time reddit user first time reddit user apologize post isnt fluent others fuck startthis past late winterspring pretty ridiculous manic episode landing as hospital day first time diagnosed bipolar psychotic feature illness destroyed fucking life looking back ive suffered year im past year life reputation completely destroyed lost gf year treated like complete shit happier come home everyday could barely get word pissed look face like wire head getting fucking shorted thats wanted act would talk tell everyone proud hated everything went hand hand drinking drinking sent cycling depression manic manic depressive daily lost thats really started get bad shared dog together well drinking end picked episode worsened alot one night stand cope loss crucified ex im one night stand really fucked really wanted shitty situation didnt want couldnt fuck anyone else without getting involved somehow bought house ex pissed got two roommate worked turned bachelor pad drinking constant ex fought dog job call going call sleep partial intoxicated sometimes year also add line work quite dangerous adding equation manic depressive depressed happily manic sometimes partially completely intoxicated like year straight somehow told one best employee come program set sight high company dont know fucking mess duis came st one leaving cancer benefit donated quite bit money also saw ex ended drinking much kind episode drove got nailed needed cdl job cdl suspended work didnt even make big deal made work wanted fucking die point getting trouble life fucked quit job getting another one ended giving dog ex didnt deserve sent dark place ive never pulled duis later got manic day easter hiding bar thought family going kill long story got nailed home town walgreens broad daylight fucking embarrassed spent easter sunday morning jail quit another good paying job backup thought everyone staring talking wandered bit pissed away k got job shitty campground couldnt even handle illness cruel fucking bitch lost im fucked k credit card debt medical bill dont sell house next week ill lose ive hiding place dont even wana leave daylight everyone think fucked life im loser basically know im sick ive sick suck shit happens quick needed get chest im fucked want disappear planet sorry ranting im also un medicated memory anxiety gotten soo bad cant even make doctor app stick either forget im scared go im even close man year ago suck paranoia delusion voice night terror cry shaking gotten best im really ready give life think day everyday ive done much crazy shit burned many bridge episode nutts didnt shitty illness could really done alot life wondering bipolar bear story wana tell talk | self.bipolar |
410 | last one friend made freshman year graduating im still freshman bc tore lcl acl honestly dont feel like living anymore work fast food restaurant barely make anything live much le pay student loan pay credit card pay medical bill older sibling successful one lieutenant army one firefighter swat member one big successful lawyer one pharm rep making big buck younger brother full year scholarship nasa company want everyone seems like moving im moving backwards seems | self.depression |
411 | wrong friend hang im even invited joke best friend talk everyday hang weekend way find seeing social medium wrong seriously cant even think straight making lose hope | self.Anxiety |
413 | im dead dad left young feel useless unwanted hear voice tell im chosen one god person chosen resurrected new earth im unsure whether im crazy | self.SuicideWatch |
414 | im writing suicide note rn im sure im going cant anymore im lowest point ive ever feel like ill never recover hope parent tired worrying boyfriend broke one nothing | self.SuicideWatch |
416 | every year get worse like since im depression ive become depression ever since freshman year friend ditched people ive fighting depression sparked year im reaching point really feel nothing im scared world time im aware offer every morning want kill numb pain smoking weed cant think hate system hate people treat others hate one really care hate see light getting better school designed make dont abide fall whole survival fittest always fucked arent animal human emotion expression yet world global hierarchy expect u abide rule deal american supposed feel blessed able live ina free country let tell competition choose degree faster become slave corporation like fuck cant one generation see unbalanced divided shit supposed look forward vacation fucka desk job give u life meaning every year get worse friend idea life mean nothing pain desire want get better drive even talk people cant even smile used human feel like im bad dream even hell never ending loop nothing disappointment maybe deserve pain conclusion ever made existence wanted live like idk maybe im manically depressed getting help seems useless point depression almost routine somebody telling im depressed fuck shit even thanks listening keep fighting know there someone might really bottom bottom thats beautiful depressed girl could step life cure oh well haha wtf write | self.depression |
417 | end truly addictive toxic relationship deleted | self.depression |
419 | emptiness lost emotion sleep dont see life like feeling soothing recently started getting body feeling dizziness top mental numbness time everyday day nothing important empty hollow feeling constant feeling powerlessness waiting breathing stop already pushed people away tired feel sadness drowning emptiness strenght mean would end isnt life hurting others approaching ever reaching suicide currently slowly ending making thing worse worse way back ending sure wrote useless piece text matter like anyone bring life life thank read kind | self.SuicideWatch |
422 | subreddit hasnt helpful even though lot people offered help ive never able exchange message without ghosted new kind low connect even people depression forum really feel like im truly alone entire world | self.depression |
423 | struggling thing thought seem trapped anybody give advice help get head ill constantly get lost thought sink depressive state going outside thing definitely help im done thing sitting room thought come right back im sick anxiety worrying thing dont want put medication want able handle live happy life | self.Anxiety |
424 | coming long term depression im coming year depression way getting decade lower level anxiety depression realizing really nowhere life great career speak long term relationship certainly great asset anything also finally starting break voice head parent divorced young somehow cocktail unhelpful stuff realizing havent made decision life based thought would feel natural certainly never thought long term anything im weird phase im kind like dont get wrong happy practice selflove ive built legitimately nowhere near friendsfamily come variety thing life least attracting partner cant well tell hey least im super depressed expect like presence depression seems like barrier outside world almost like dont quite know successfully exist havent much practice suppose anyone else come long term depression way anyone thought mean live life happy | self.depression |
425 | advice hello name taylor get asking question want give quick backstory there currently girlfriend still highschool long distance relationship year weve met several time even stayed house mom ive come know quite well past winter break seen person total day live texas life florida first serious relationship really think longest time didnt really know relationship first serious one time relationship got around month found wasnt quite person make online agenameetcto day im still person shes met online know real info found lost quite bit trust really eventually got back though realized dwelling wouldnt much here made mistake thought relationship several time flirtatious another person knew online text isnt pity party either already know wrong ive already gone knowing wrong found break caused lose trust understandingly since left none stop awful still together current almost like mental abuse head may meant way though come way low end spectrum aspergers well dont know relevant feel like mental abuse really getting late im trying best fix every effort feel like get thrown back ive tried best resort anything deal med anything much lose sleep dont eat get anxiety attack often left really scared situation im scared dark thought everyday ultimately making scared know wont resort suicide though dont power go something like please advice cope mother told many time show sign clinical depressionwhich besides professional help else dont want sit everyday feeling scared worried let put low mood everday dont want let super dark thought everyday consume | self.depression |
426 | trying quit caffeine bring real bad depression get headache withdraw symptom specifically dont consume caffeine day brain get foggy start awful thought anyone else experience | self.depression |
427 | got paid live week year old son wifei got paid bill afford food gas get work im done ive searched searched new better paying job cant find anything cant take anymore | self.SuicideWatch |
428 | depression like parasite feed body live life life controlling mine live none | self.depression |
429 | never trust opinion find never really trust opinion im always seeking validation others cant anything never feel like im capable thing | self.depression |
430 | wife told peak oil paralyzed seriously cant imagine go forward seems hope im anxious read book shes reading hasnt gotten solution part yet | self.Anxiety |
431 | dont know anymore like im barely making im shot ive lost hum ive lost spark | self.depression |
432 | feel dirty guilty pain much pain sexually abused child ive never said didnt even acknowledge little ago feel like im gon na throw hate worst part literally begged fucking begged every fucking time wanted born broken | self.SuicideWatch |
433 | stuck well metaphorically hey everyone first reddit woo anyway ive struggling major depression year havent managing well id like ive trouble coming friend loved one really need support ive accepted cant alone anymore | self.depression |
434 | youre anxiety attack suddenly feel need go bathroom youre state physical mental lockup jesus suck | self.Anxiety |
436 | six month employment gap cv due anxiety explain job interview hello probably tell username taken upon attempt get rut currently stuck caused due anxiety bad experience management previous job ended quitting time sick attempted look work ended anxiety attack attending interview didnt go always anxious never level actual attack isnt something id previously experienced occasion couldnt even face going supermarket fell bad habit without realising knew month gone sleeping day night either computer watching tv drink lot night dont drinking issue case never anything else next day day beer right therapy since end last year attempting get life back track six month work finance seriously declined well general quality life since beginning year attempting turn thing around sticking strict sleeping schedule getting bit using method therapy trying get back work question explain big gap cv employer explain covering letter interview process anyone experience thank edit sorry title formatting messed reason | self.Anxiety |
437 | couple question thank apologyagain well first id like apologize last day woke morning feeling depressed instead manic looked past two post realized tone writing pretty rude pretty lost mood state wasnt really accepting advice didnt correlate feeling id like thank people replied post urged seek help despite replied still offered good caring advice feel like real bitch pardon language acted elsewhere might due illness still excuse thank million time guy rock question guy may may able help seem rapid cycling look mood chart place episode lasting day week like usually theyre long spaced normal period inbetween pattern started around month started taking wellbutrin mg ive since stopped taking im pretty convinced harm good possible wellbutrin permanently altered course illness could function im sure handle constant swing break feel better past day im still going take guy advice make emergency appointment hope fit dont think im psychotic anymore didnt think either im apparently great judge im definitely still normal mood way overslept last night whereas apparently hadnt slept really night prior according hubby might broke manic part episode thought sleeping kind okay apparently night every night curled ball starring wall sound nut lol anyways even nobody answer question mostly wanted say sorry thank dont know hear enough sub everyone nice dont know id ended without guy | self.bipolar |
438 | cry help im suicidal dont want die want make cry help dont want put back hospital im lost dont know therapy med never worked dont think ever life fucking shit hole dont wan na edit hell cry help like non verbally cause cant shit | self.SuicideWatch |
439 | psychiatrist literally called lazy git nsfw language im paraphrasing mean literally admit havent behavioural activation stuff though great didnt seem interested positive stuff lot professional seem bang fucking simple sometimes walk walk doesnt make feel better thing partner getting upset time getting low even incidental low getting apparently making excuse avoiding issue dunno stage grief complaining reddit im extremely pissed maybe right assuming sake argument dont see using kind language remotely helpful anyway mean fuck sake shes supposed professional whats point taking ludicrous amount medication come lazy | self.bipolar |
440 | distract brain matter try relax distract initially work quickly start build pressure brain eventually becomes annoying focus back square one guy method work | self.Anxiety |
442 | question sending friend thanks hey guy thanksgiving im thinking sending sort message thinking letter might late friend mine across country shes going alone holiday wanted reach send holiday cheer struggle depression self esteem issue stemming trauma life im wary saying wrong thing getting opposite reaction want shes huge source strength inspiration big supporter mutual friend everyone know love impressed work ethic skill cant see im trying send message convince self esteem problem rather trying make known shes great friend im thinking good idea | self.depression |
443 | feel like absolute shit sleep deprived af verging getting cold barely ate anything today worst day ive long time yet attempting make clean shit supposed last week bc family staying house weekend get done fuck | self.depression |
445 | suggestion someone w anxiety studying abroad personal experience med suggestionsexperiences ive posted sub similar question around august maybe anyway im year old female better part life ive suffered anxiety depression recently anxiety pressing issue depression started taking zoloft mg worked mg course several year depression related issue ever since last year though ive horrible debilitating panic attack usually happens get weird nausealike feeling stomach followed anxious feeling sweating shaking vomiting dizziness ive passed twice summer went physician see could done buspar little bit however made cranky irritable didnt anything actually panic attack stopped buspar added mg wellbutrin take every day prescribed mg atarax hydroxyzine breakthrough attack went back see day explained ive feeling pretty sluggish lately atarax help take many day row becomes le effective sometimes give headache solution bump wellbutrin mg day ive feeling kind detached recently probably past two week cant figure wellbutrinzoloft combination say wellbutrin helped term anxiety though like feel starting get anxious feel like panic attack coming easily able talk opinion suggestion im worried im leaving country u end january ill gone several month ultimate fear something happen able handle | self.Anxiety |
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447 | feeling horrible ready die hey im vent guess im ftm teenager ptsd molestation anxiety depression ive much better late ive gotten one antidepressant ive done better socially ive feeling generally better past year ive dealt lot shit coming back feel like shit everything crashing point ive sleeping twelve hour ive cry much usual relapsed month clean cant deal want die time dont know people care want help hurt much deal everything took large amount zoloft know wont kill least probably wont something dont know want help dont know im posting im sorry | self.SuicideWatch |
448 | im sad idk day already | self.depression |
449 | three friend told theyre struggling depression im trying offer help support much three thing isim really suicidal idk deal dont know help im sure im particularly good job helping friend three closest friend theyre one trust talk struggle would selfish theyre already going much really dont want bother getting much handle | self.SuicideWatch |
450 | talked panic attack ugh recovering right one worst migraine ive ever started feeling lightheaded whoozy usually trigger panic lot anxiety symptom seem correlate physical symptom linked past trauma subconscious started first freaked little quietly really late night bed sleeping point started saying loud youre panicking youre migraine youre going fine one biggest fear losing complete control body passing never waking fear long time im trauma survivor big deal push something like realize spite okay phew well thenits im one except catsi think im going bed night got oh im gon na try cut back caffeinewish luck big big hug | self.Anxiety |
451 | cant go school cant answer question class im wrong ill feel bad cant happy | self.Anxiety |
452 | crazy current bout depression seems come feeling self doubt actually depressed sometimes feel like im lying im faking excuse constant overthinking worry im really truly sick make thing worse | self.depression |
453 | med changed thing hardcore med extreme depression deleted | self.depression |
455 | want feel good thats want want look mirror see good bad past present regret triumph tell thats good | self.depression |
456 | anyone else feel like would suicidal even werent depressed feel like ive got point even dont see point living dont see point dying guess death thing really really want dont really care money love anything really unshakeable urge die feel like view hold reasoning behind really wont change even depression somehow magically cured | self.depression |