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Oh, wow. So I dyed my hair blue in the summer of 2016. And prior to that, I had been like a bright pink magenta. I don't know. I just kind of like really was experimenting with the colored hair look. I had purple hair before. I had purple, pink, and blue mixed together and then I just like wanted blue one day and the rest is history I don't know then I just really became into like what is it called like monotone outfits just like wearing all of one color and yeah monochromatic that's it yeah monochromatic and just like really felt that blue was the color of my aura and here we are today how many years later like five when i think of the color blue i think calm cool collected think mysterious i think electric just has many different vibes with the different shades feel like I do to an extent very organized lists our lists also here's the list they they also have some of the similar things on the list which I really like that I see that yeah I feel like Virgos we get a bad rep people always say that we're like very critical of others, but I feel like I'm more critical of myself than anything. And, but I like stay like cool and calm and like amongst it all. Or it could also, I don't know, be that maybe you hold yourself to a really high standard and you feel like someone else also has that standard attainable, but they're not holding themselves to it. So you're like, why? I am very hard on myself. And to an extent, like, you know, in some ways I'm a little critical of others, but not in the like, oh, you know, like not in like a down looking way, but definitely very hard on myself. Cause I just want to be the best, the best of me.

I'm definitely very hard on myself because I just want to be the best, the best of me. Oh, geez. It's okay. I kind of needed it, I guess. I don't know. I think one of the things I'm really critical with myself about is like my journey in this industry. I feel like, I don't know, I want to be progressing faster than I am and not saying that I'm not progressing, but I just have to like learn to be patient, like, you know, in due time, like these things will come. And I also have a habit of just like having like very big, like aspirations and goals. And I kind of stress myself out in the process of like, you know, obtaining these goals and these things I desire and sometimes I have to like I don't know remind myself I need to chill out because like things are happening and they're happening the way they are for a reason and I don't know don't be don't be a bitch to yourself for everything never know what's gonna happen I'm I'm always like, what's next? It makes me think of sometimes I'll send out a scene that I have made for my OnlyFans, and while it sends out, sometimes I'll be sitting on my couch like, what if they like it?

What if they hate it? What if they like it? What if they hate it? Are they going to hate it? Are they going to like it? Oh my God, should I unsend it? And I'm freaking out, and then I'm like, I don't know what to do.

But then everybody loves it, and I'm just like, oh, why did I do that? I don't know. to do but then you know everybody loves it and I'm just like oh why did I do that I don't know or like did I edit that part out right or you know sometimes you just gotta like I'll do that when I'm sitting at my computer just everything's chill and then look at my list again yeah I also I also have like my planner right here and then my computer and then if I'm feeling really stressed I will actually make a list of like affirmations, you know, things that I'm grateful for.

And I have like little mantras I will say, like sometimes even when I'm in the shower, just to kind of keep me centered and keep me on track.

Oh, I plan a day off. I'm just like, I feel like I should be working. But then my body's telling me, no, you need to rest.

You're going to really like it. And I. But then my body's telling me, no, you need to rest. You're gonna really like it. And I try to like really savor my rest days. I've like learned to enjoy rest because I don't know, you need it because you're gonna drive yourself crazy and then burn out.

Cause I've like kind of gotten close to like, you know, being burnt out from last year, going hard, creating all the time.

So now I'm like, you mellow out. You don't need to be going hard creating all the time so now i'm like you mellow out you don't need to be doing too much all the time so i like to just be a couch potato sometimes i think that's like good for my mental health because i'm a go go go person i'm always like going somewhere doing something so i like on my rest days normally it's sunday i just like to sit on my couch catch up on my animes and my shows cuddle with my cats eat my favorite food and normally just like i don't know indulge myself a bit and like the things i like like good food just chilling i don't know um not wearing any makeup also really like my no makeup days. Go on a walk, get some fresh air, touch some grass, see the sky. It's addicting. It really is. And like coming from a Virgo workaholic perfectionist, I can definitely attest to that. Also like allowing myself to like have like fun or like, you know time and I like you know my fun and play time is like going to a rave or hanging out with my friends and things like that just like letting myself like kind of do something like I think of it as like a cathartic release releasing all this energy and just like I don't know dancing I don't know it's very healing so things i like to do outside of work definitely the flow arts hooping with like leds or fire um i got into that about like six years ago six seven years ago i um let me backtrack a bit. So, so backstory when I was in high school, it's all relevant. I did color guard and color guard is essentially dancing with the flag, dancing with a prop. And then when Instagram started becoming a thing, I remember seeing people on Instagram dancing with hula hoops. And I was like, I could do that. It's like the same thing is dancing with the flag. And then I like fast forward to a few years after high school, like around like 2014, 2015, I discovered there was like an actual community of people in my area who did that. And I got to connect with them.

And the rest is history with like, you know, my love of flow arts and prop dancing and prop manipulation.

And then I learned fire, because if I want to do it, I want to do it all.