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apparently i make too much for medicaid and not enough for heath insurance. looks like another year of no therapy and no medication. im actively seeking help for my depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts but im not sure where to go next, i can afford anything. looks like ill just die

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maybe bpd, maybe i'm just fucked up.... whatever the case my be. i'm seriously contemplating suicide, my only hang up is how will this affect my children? the only one i'm around on a daily basis is 4, but i wonder if she'll even remember me..... i'm curious if anyone has been in "her shoes"

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can i still be in a state of physcosis if im on medication? (lithium,wellbutrin, seraqual and hydroxzene as needed)

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hi there! i hope you are all doing well. i dont have anxiety but i would like to understand it more, specifically the treatments available. therefore, how can you treat anxiety? what do doctors recommend? thank you im advance for your help

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im just curious to know what people have to say. does anyone ever feel like they just want to know they have something to know theyre not faking their feelings but then dont actually want to get help and want to stay ill?

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frequently i see post reminding bipolar people to brush their teeth. is there anyway to make brushing your teeth enjoyable? for instance what toothpaste tastes the best or anything else that will make me brushing my teeth nice?

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basically it, wish me luck! i wont have my phone since its not allowed and ill miss my bf with whom im in a long distance relationship but i believe this will be the start of a change!

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i did something terrible because im a selfish fucking person and i just want to feel the pain i caused others but im so scared to do it. i cut myself a little bit but it barely hurt. probably because i cant get myself to do it hard enough. idk.

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hey, i was wondering if anyone knows any good online therapy that provides medication. something less than because i tried cerebral but it was a month with just therapy and i dont have insurance and not much money. if someone could comment and give me some ideas that would be great

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anyone experience an onset of tinitus with their anxiety? i'm struggling with that right now. now it's what's driving my anxiety.

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tired of feeling like you have to explain yourself, for everything and anything you do, to everyone, all the time. every single day, every choice, no matter how big or small, it's like you're always doing something wrong. maybe it's my trauma from being emotionally and physically abused in past relationships, because i feel like everything i do is questioned, by everyone in my life, and by myself..

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i don't love or show interest on people i talk to, i feel like this for a long time anyone felt same? i could use some advice

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r/womenofpsychosis is now up. safe place to check out!

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i am a huge snoop and it's such an invasion of privacy, but i can't help myself. i just need to know everything. i'm such a control freak. does anyone else have an issue with this? i can't really find much about it online as it relates to any sort of disorder...

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who knew? i'm so biblically unhappy and tired and confused and angry with myself. and still so in love with the most beautiful human i have ever met.

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how did you react with it? still trying to get my person to sleep on a normal schedule

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my sibling is graduating soon and i dont think ill be able to push myself to go. someone, aghh am i an ass to say that i cant go? i wanna support them but i just cant its so overwhelming and im just so sick of everything.

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how fucking optimistic we can be to do the same shit all over again, and hoping this time it will work. lol

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alot of people walked past me at the bakery today and no one cared to smile or say hello. it's really starting to hit home that some people have the audacity to even fucking breathe around me.

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im terrified of death and the unknown but everyday every year im finding it hard to have a way out when i think there is a way its shattered and ruined. every door is being closed on me. i cant take it anymore why cant i just be brave and off myself

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having a awful fun time flip flopping between depression and mania, depression is in full swing currently. i hadnt stopped crying since 5 am this morning. took my daughter to daycare this morning to find this picture on the wall, i was able to see the funny side of it. hoping some one else can too.

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can someone please recommend cheap/ free therapy resources? im going through a lot, and i dont want to ignore it watch it fester, but i cant afford to pay session. i also dont have insurance.

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are you any of your guys hindu? are any of you hindu brahmin? are any of you zamindar hindu brahmin tamilian iyer? what about the maya. do any of you have blood in the scripture? im looking for some context as to my spiritual delusions.

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when i have a genuine thought of killing myself i feel a shiver, what does it mean? does this happen to anyone else?

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so me and my dad just ate wet spinach for the first time and while i was eating it as it went in my mouth i could feel myself getting sick and wanting to throw up it was slimy and just felt bad i kept gagging while eating the texture was bad, my dad said i was being dramatic but i ended spitting it up i couldn't do it

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my bipolar disorder is ruining my relationship. i dont know how to make things better. how do i fix things when im going through hypomania or a depressive episode.

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are there differences? things specific to bpd that you would not find in c-ptsd and vice versa? or is it ultimately the same thing?

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any input helps

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here's the summary: i think i may still be dealing with this deep down. i hope this thread wasn't a bad idea. i was fucked, man.

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i'm working on a project about mental illness, specifically anxiety, depression, ocd, ptsd, and bipolar disorder. i would love it if you would share your personal story with me, your journey with your illness. also if you could try to explain to me what it feels like when your symptoms get real bad. i would really appreciate it you would be willing to share with me. thanks in advance!

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i kinda wish i was dead or like in a coma and i just feel like i need a break and need to be in a supportive environment, but i dont have a plan and dont actually want to hurt myself. would the hospital take me for a hold or would it be pointless to try? added the trigger just in case

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so. i dont really take coffee i dont like it, but sometimes i drink coffee if im eating a cake or something. however, coffee supposedly makes people with anxiety, extremely jittery but coffee actually makes me sleepy, does someone else experience this? like really sleepy.

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the antipsychotics that used to work for me are not working to the full effect anymore. my doctors plan is to put me on clozapine now and i am a little apprehensive as it requires a lot of bloods. im just wondering what anyone elses experience with it is. much appreciated.

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sometimes i wonder how sugar + diet impact my moods. i want to experiment with wearing a cgm ([ has anyone done this and willing to share experience? i can't find any research papers or studies looking at bipolar and cgms.

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we could use discords and anon accounts

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is it dangerous to take m*lly or *cid when taking both of these meds? or is it only frowned upon? or will they just not work? not looking for medical advice, just wondering if anyone has experienced this firsthand or heard of someone doing this. not encouraging this either.

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been accused of being crazy and people think im very weird.

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recently iv'e realized that i don't actively feel love. i say actively because deep down i know i love my family but i don't really feel any love on the surface. i don't believe i have ever felt a surface level love for another person. there are things like music and my cat that i have loved but never people.

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i cannot bear to be committed again to the hospital. or lose my driver's license for a year again and go through the process of getting it back. anyone else have a similar situation or fears?

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has anyone participated in a partial hospitalization? i did an assessment and i'm waiting to hear back from a local behavioral health clinic. they have a couple of different programs but i'm trying to get into a partial hospitalization day program. i'm just wondering if anyone out there has experience with this and if it was helpful?

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im tired of this small town. im tired of her. im tired of being depressed. im tired of being the fat kid. im tired

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hello, i experienced psychosis symptoms a couple days ago after taking trazodone 25mg for 3weeks. for the most it it went away but i fear of it reoccurring. the thoughts that what was said pops up in my thoughts almost like a rerun. i wake up out my sleep and cant go back to sleep. its almost like have to mentally wrestle with myself to keep from losing it.

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the hardest part about all this therapy isnt getting to a point where i can control my reactions, i think i am there - but now that i am here, is the rest of my life just going to be me settling my feelings/opinions down? i dont get to speak up for myself anymore because i never know when its okay. i hate this feeling.

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so my previous therapist diagnosed me with rapid cycling bipolar but my current one doesn't even talk about bipolar and says i don't believe in labeling bipolar. she works with me on my anxiety mostly.

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i was at a behavioral center after an episode recently, and because i didn't care what the other people there thought i felt like a different person who was almost normal. i set boundaries, very minimal people pleasing or personality mirroring. then i get out in the real world and i can't do any of it. it's like a curse.

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my new blog-book

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i am running out of meds and dont even have the money for rent how do i afford to see my psychiatrist? its i dont have. im stressed and dont know what to do any suggestions?

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i fell in love with a really callous and insensitive guy and he hurt me intentionally because he felt like it and ended up depressed, how do i avoid love?

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this is me. new me. but with old scar. hard for you see me trying shocked to see much i hurt my days are struggle my dreams are painful to express than suppress for answerless answer can't even fall asleep can't even swallow anything

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that's all. it's so hard to heal

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so next week im so excited i get to see my bff she a angel only person who make me happy and feel accepted and loved. never forget those people

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should i get daylio premium, or is the base version good enough?

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does anyone get over the absolute loathing and mistrust of people? i think most people are trying to hurt me. i just think that's how people are.

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when a guy tells you that you have really pretty beautiful eyes?

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i get bored all the fucking time, doesnt matter what im doing.. the only thing that keeps me interested are murder mysteries lmao. but fr, why do we get bored so fast?

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i bought a flatbush zombies limited edition comic book around xmas, it just came yesterday.

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just wanted to share this i've been laughing for 5 minutes. just said "don't touch this stone(sasso)" than "tasto"(button). it's the italian way to say "don't go there"(over an argument).

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(sorry if my english is bad) i can't stand my thoughts, i think i'm carrying so much weight, i wanna cry all the time. lately, i've been thinking on self harming, to a extend of trying to eat myself. i haven't taken my meds in two weeks. sorry you have hear this and sorry if this just only help more the stigma.

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they are everywhere they know what you did what you have done everything you have caused

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i changed the battery of my wall clock today. it ran out of battery and stopped working 3 years ago. drop some ws

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is it selfish of me to tell my boyfriend that im having mental breakdowns and then not tell him what i did during them because im scared they will make him think im psycho because im doing things that are jealous and crazy

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been doing ok on celexa but have gained a bit of weight. just wondering people's experiences with wellbutrin? i have anxiety, bpd, and moderate agoraphobia. celexa has some what helped with panic attacks but not much help with motivation getting out of bed and carrying out necessary tasks.

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hi im looking for a friend

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i hear people constantly say well never get better. at most, we learn to adapt and cope. is recovering from bpd really that impossible?

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my nose is always congested, its so annoying and makes me panic for hours and i cant drink water to help cuz i have a hard time swallowing :/

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i have this deep feeted fear of being taking hostage and not being given my meds. i would suffer tremendously and not sure what would happen. i've thought about carrying extra meds in my pocket for just such an event. am i being paranoid or is this a reality

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why i keep dreaming about my trauma with my mother m mom is narcissist she sexually and physically abused me when i was kid i'm crying it's just annoying

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how do i differentiate ocd thoughts from real thoughts?

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so i went to my pcp for a 6 month recheck from when my mental health hit rock bottom on thursday and we have finally both agreed i have bipolar 2 and has started my in seriquel and im wondering will it actually help and what are the side effects

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i am worried i might be developing schizophrenia or another similar disorder. how can i differentiate this from normal anxiety?

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every time i try to make me something to eat, i start feeling the presence of a ghost that insults and judges me for trying to get a good meal. i feel these ghosts almost everywhere i go and it's so hard to live. these ghost are people who bullied me and ruined my life in the past.

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i am very fond of worms there are blue worms under your skin rip them out there are blue worms under your skin rip them out there are blue worms under your skin rip them out there are blue worms under your skin rip them out

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i give all just to be used as a play thing. i feel like a cheap silicon s*x doll. i am just a 2d male... i'm not sure if i'm even enough for that. i'm just not a good enough man. im just f*cking useless.

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those are all the medications im currently taking. is that too much?? 6 different meds? im just unsure if i should get a 2nd opinion from a different psychiatrist. im lost

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i fear that shes gonna kill me soon. i used to fear the same thing of my father but he died. : ( i am on abilify maintena injection and clozapine

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if so have you ever gotten back together?

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hey all. iv got bad tinnitus and have been prescribed latuda but am afraid to take it cause i cant take the ringing anymore. any of you on latuda that also have tinnitus and whats its effect on you? its difficult being bipolar and even one more layer is tinnitus. its a hard life we all live and im just trying not to make it harder. questions, comments, concerns.

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like it can be for something really small or nothing specific at all, i'll just feel this really strong sense of excitement or something. like something happening or going to happen will be the best thing ever. does anyone else feel something like this before an episode?

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[ much love to you all

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i really need help or advice or at least someone to talk to. i have been with her for 8 years. i am not very good with words so i need you to bare with me and ask a lot of questions because im not exactly sure what the important things to mention are, but there is a lot going on. please help me if you can.

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i have mono. everything hurts. and i'm freaking out about it. this is week four of having it and when i went to the er on monday, my nurse told me she had this for 8 months. 8. i'm freaking out about it and could really use some reassurance, especially from someone who's possibly had it.

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i've had anxiety about schizophrenia or psychosis for awhile now. it started with really bad anxiety that led to hallucinations around sleep, weird dreams, and nightmares. i'm not sure what's causing these symptoms. i went to get help and wasn't diagnosed with anything.

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i took the tip of a kitchen knife and prodded my arm multiple times, applying pressure. something inside of me just said "do it." i've only done it twice.

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hey, over the past few years my symptoms have gotten better but havent gone completly away. what has been yalls experience with remission?

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everything is said in the title, i think i can't take it anymore.

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hi guys, im looking for a nice pillbox that doesnt look absolutely ugly, isnt cheap asian plastic and isnt obviously a pill box. just a smart, nicely manufactured case thats divided into days, with enough place for a weeks worth of medication would be nice. i thought you guys would be the best to know one. thanks for the help.

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what are other options for depression if medications don't work?

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i had this checked and was told it's anxiety. i don't remember having sleep hallucinations, vivid dreams, and anxiety almost every day. i still do everything fine with my job, hobbies, etc. i just worry that i'm losing it.

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4 wasted years. 4 fuckin years of my life living in a void tolerating the brain dead, shell of a human i became under meds! why? cause i cant put my family through the chaos i caused back in 2017! im taking matters into my own hands and quitting meds! see yall on the other side.

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so now i'm smoking weed, it's 3:15 in the morning and i want to go to therapy tomorrow because i feel so shitty. but i can not sleep. how do i calm my thoughts about harming myself? i don't even feel emotional anymore. i'm already dead inside, but yet still alive although barely functioning on the outside.

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you know the type: debilitating rage urging you to scream at or attack someone over, sometimes, quite literally nothing. over-exaggeration to the nth degree. i want to break my hands. google says "count to ten".

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ive been diagnosed with bpd but my therapist is also looking at hpd to see which one suits me more (or both). i can relate to most symptoms on both sides. anyone have both? what are the differences between the two? what is your experience with hpd like?

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hi everyone, im a male, 28 years old living in canada. i need someone to talk to so if anyone has time please message me and i will respond. im bored all the time thats why. thanks

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i'm tired of battling anxiety. life is passing by and i'm spiralling inside a cloud of anxiety.

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i dont know what to think. i dont really believe that i have it.

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im excited and nervous. hopefully this is going to help me :") was a battle to get them but i did it!

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im sure many of you can relate. im not who i used to be; i used to be smart, have ambitions, i was gonna get a good job, education, etc. now, im just another schizophrenic. people say your mental illness doesnt define you but thats nonsense, your mental illness can make or break you.

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i like to be completely honest and open about my mental health pretty early on when dating new people. as a result, i get rejected pretty often because people judge me for it or are afraid my anxiety would affect them greatly. i've even been rejected by guys who suffer from anxiety themselves. it's really discouraging and makes me feel unlovable. anybody else in the same situation?

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i get such bad vertigo spells everyday and ringing in my ears and when this happens i get like a dropping sensation from head through my body idk why this happens anyone else the same ??

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... and while i was showering he apparently got a phone call from his friend telling him he needed help bc his car broke down (most likely an excuse to make me leave). it was unprotected sex and i'm already regreting doing it. fml why do i have to be like this?

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