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the saddest part, to me, is she knew me and was with me before the schizophrenia took hold. she knew the "different side of me" and when "i used to be...me." it gets in my head sometimes. half our lives, children. its been a few years.

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does anyone else find themselves always moving either shaking their leg or rocking back and forth because they feel the need to constantly be moving? i feel like its mostly my anxiety.

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sometimes i get these sudden urges to just hurt people or the thought of people getting hurt and killed just put my mind in an euphoria state evrything so peaceful at that moment i hope so one knows what i mean so i can talk more about this some people freak out but would i really ever hurt someone..

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i've been hearing gun shot sounds like for two days now and people laughing also. it's like bad men are trying to kill me with their guns. what do i do, i'm afraid, my meds don't seem to work. they're coming after me, please help.

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just got out of an inpatient treatment center for mental illness and im feeling raw and a bit traumatized. whats your worst experience you ever had at and inpatient facility?

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the weed turned on me for the last time, resulting in me being hospitalized. my docs agree that it's the weed causing all my psychotic episodes, i've had 5 in 2 years and have been using weed for 3. so i've begun not using, and i plan to keep it that way. the psychosis is simply not worth the high. thank you for listening.

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having anxiety is like being scared and tired at the same time. it's the fear of failure but no urge to be productive. it's wanting friends but hate socializing. it's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. it's caring about everything then caring about nothing. it's feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.

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it's amazing, being unconscious, nothing on your mind. you don't need to think about all your worries and shit anymore. it's like an escape from everything your going through.

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i fell for someone super hard and then we got really close and stayed together for a year and a half. we spent tons of time together, but now we aren't talking barely at all and i haven't seen her for like 2 weeks now. a lot went wrong between us over time. i'm devastated. i don't know what to say. :(

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i went to get help for a seriously traumatic event, and was diagnosed with bpd. can someone who agrees with their bpd diagnosis explain what your emotions and day-to-day life makes you feel like? what are the things you do and can't do? what is your social life like? thanks for helping me understand.

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i just can't take it anymore. everyday sucks. i just want to sleep or lay around and do nothing. i don't want to work but i have to work tomorrow. that's pretty much life. work, work, and more work. then a tiny bit of free time then you gotta work again. i seriously wish that i was never born.

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i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder traits , not quite sure what the difference is between that and a diagnosis as just borderline personality disorder

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aced my interview and got a job offer that pays a little more and will hopefully keep me busy for 8 hours vs my soul-crushing current job! that is all! and my prozac/rexulti combo is going strong!

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i have been experiencing more panic/anxiety since starting this medication from simple relationship challenges. i just increased my dose last week to 200mg. i feel like its controlling my life

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at least then i could lay here remembering it. instead of trying to hug myself, only to feel like i'm making my desperation for a hug worse. maybe knowing would hurt more though...

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upper body and head tingle then got dizzy for a second. am i okay because im freaking out.

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nothing comes out, i really really really want to bawl as loud as possible for hours and hours but i just can't get past teary eyes no matter how hard i try. unable to. why does this happen? what is this? is there a way to let it out?

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whenever i try to sleep i start getting closed eye visions and hallucinations. my dreams are vivid. i feel anxious about these symptoms. i keep thinking it could possibly be psychosis or schizophrenia. i'm having a hard time finding help for this.

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i feel shaky and spazzy rn, and im panicking and scared and its making it worse bc i cant relax or anything. im too focused on my body and im just scared.

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hey guys, wondering if anyone has done any dbt courses online? want to know how helpful you found it and which one you did. you guys know of any other useful bpd/dbt related websites/forums/podcasts/sources? any information will be great thank you :))

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so ive been blaming my palpitations and chest pain on covid (had it 7 weeks ago and still not recovered) but last night i took half an ativan at an event be use i was overwhelmed. all my chest symptoms went away! has anyone else had this experience?

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so i met with my new psychiatrist today. she was super nice and really listened to me. even changed up my diagnosis after reading my chart and talking with me. from major depressive disorder with psychosis to bipolar with psychosis. and due to that she switched me from lamictal to depakote. any takers of depakote? opinions? i start in a week after tapering off lamictal.

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tired of this life.. tired of myself. tired of talking. tired of seeing. tired of hearing. tired of breathing. what are we doing here? what is the point. is it a game? are we real? who's to say what is and isn't? and who's to say at all really.. i don't know neither do you. i should just end it now

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i all but stopped sleeping a couple days ago and been totally sober but am too self-aware manic to feel like i don't have it under control. was getting these odd bizarre happy panic attacks so had a couple drinks (instead of valium or anti-psych) along with heavy dose of otc sleeping pills. still up. any ideas or even just anyone relate?

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for some reason, i cant fall asleep today and anxiety is getting worse. it feels like nobody is telling me anything and ive barely spoken a word to anyone all day. tomorrow i am considering getting lunch at the mall. ive been trying to get out of the house at least once a day.

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sometime my chest feels heavy and its hard to get a full deep breath. i dont feel anxious when this happens. ive had my lungs and heart checked, and both are good. is it possible to have an anxiety attack without actually feeling anxious?

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for the last two years my hallucinations consisted of 80% auditory. for the last few months ive been having fewer and fewer auditory hallucinations and a huge increase in visual hallucinations. its so strange to me to experience this shift. has anyone else experienced this?

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while talking to my dream guy who has been in love with me for years about us having babies one day. while waiting for the hot guy i walked by today to reply to my dm because im desperate for physical attention.

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so i got prescribed abilify on a grippy sock vacation last month, and its going to run out and im not sure if ill be able to have a new psychiatrist by then, what are the possible negatives of going without this medication and is there anything i can do to get a refill or at least enough to get me to when im seeing a new psychiatrist

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was just kind of curious if there was any correlation. i am an intp. appreciate it if you can tell me if you used the myerbriggs test or did some of your own research, would be helpful. no real reason to know why just out of curiosity.

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i just wanted to know if anyone else feels this way and always clearly communicates like this because of anxiety. even if im mad or upset i dont want the last thing that i said not to be i love you... am i alone in this?

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dont have many friends or the friends i made already have friend groups so theyre busy. have siblings but theyre working so i cant really talk to them. go to classes with 100+ people but i dont know anyone. want to be noticed but wont be. have no purpose nor a hopeful future.

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is there a term for extreme irritability with a hodgepodge of stress, depression, hopelessness, helplessness and anger. i'm this weird mixed grab bag of feelings while simultaneously feeling lost and disconnected. wtf is this feeling?

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my mental health is not great and im begging every avenue i can for help and there is none. im so tired of being sad about everything. please help me stop being pathetic. pls pls help me.

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i feel like almost every post on here about weed is people talking about how badly it affected themis anyone else fine smoking w bipolar? ive been on lamotrigine for a little under a year and smoking around once a day and i feel great lol

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if i wasn't mentally ill i'd be so cool and have many friends and have a great time being alive, but no ! bpd and depression, ruined my life

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can it happen or is it unlikely?

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i guess this is my destinudestiny . live and suffer.

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been dating this guy for about a month now, but he doesnt know about my schizophrenia. when would be a good time to disclose ones mental illness to the person theyre dating?

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impulsively took 11 20mg of citalopram. not enough to kill me, if i were brave enough i'd scavenge the medicine cabinets.

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i feel like all i do is hurt all i do is destroy

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i keep seeing updates about covid and all the new variants and i can feel the panic creep up on me... i dont know what to do. i really feel scared and i cant stop feeling this way.

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im 5 months pregnant and i was prescribed escitalopram yesterday. ive been having ocd, anxiety, and depression. i am scared to take this..i have to take a 5mg pill every morning. is there anyone else thats going through this? or have any advice or experience taking this pill while pregnant?

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did anybody else feel different after their first psychosis? i feel like ive become dumb. i also cant think or be productive. or plan my days. or do simple things. or be motivated. or feel things appropriately. im just not the same person anymore. its been almost a year and im still not my old self. is this what schizophrenia is?

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i suffer much shame,failure and rejection and wonder if this is commonplace amongst people with mental illness and why is this so ? also what can be done about it?

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my wife reported me as suicidal while i left the house, the police found my handgun hidden in the car and brought me to a crisis center, im out now and now im going insane wondering if theyre going to charge me for the gun being in the car

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what will occur when i begin to rapid cycle less frequently or how did ur rapid cycling start to slow down or episodes to become less frequent?

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sometimes i get so overwhelmed and so into the "nobody should love me" spiral that i start to worry that even my stuffed animals are going to abandon me. it's funniest when it's centered around the one i literally projected my perceived inner child onto. like, babe, that's you. he's also a stuffed pig. he's not going anywhere love

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kept seeing it happening and felt it happen and even convinced myself someone knew and was going to hurt me for it. i imagined that i did horrible things and i can't tell which are real and which are fake

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this is disastrous that people with mental illnesses have to suffer with people with mental disorders at the same wards. they are only more scared. [view poll](

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ive tried 4 different ones, and 3 of them made my anxiety worse. i found 1 did actually help, but i had to stop that one due to a worsening side effect.

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does anyone else sometimes out of the blue see horrible scary faces in their head that you just can't shake off ?

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idk if this makes sense to anyone but does anyone else pull themselves off their meds just to like torture themselves like i like that it makes me miserable idk

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and i'm looking for another hobby. what should i do next? i'm currently exercising as a way to aliviate my depression and i'm also on diet now. i'm not gonna read books yet coz i'm so stressed about it. but i need suggestions on hobbies except for reading amd exercise because i already done that. so yeah

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hi all, i started sertraline 50mg (zoloft) 3 weeks ago but have been dealing with excessive sweating so the docs have now switched me onto the sister drug citalopram 20mg. ive had some very positive effects from sertraline so will it erase any progress by starting the new drug or will it continue to work? thank you in advance

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its getting difficult to feel happiness these days... i have no motivation to do things... i have no will to live anymore... university is too heavy... im going to drop out soon... try to find a job so i wont be useless... the void in my chest is unbearable... hopefully i can keep myself away from tall buildings..

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i've seen a few posts mention daylio, but it doesn't help track meds. i've been using a spreadsheet (bc i absolutely love spreadsheets) on , but editing offline makes them act funny.

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i have autism i love legos princesses , minecraft, dinos avengers paw patrol pj masks vamprina disney i love yoda i like blaze and monster machines and shimmer and shine too, i like gaming what is a good theme for my bedroom , should i get new bedding set is a new mattress cover needed any ideas help

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im a hypochondriac and have gad, and wanted to know if this was common place with anyone else. mine usually only happens when im sleeping though and worries me that i might be low on magnesium ?? thank you

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i just seem to cause problems. i just want to be good to people but i don't even know what that means anymore. i just want to be a good factor in peoples lives. it's breaking my heart to know how much i'm hurting those that i love

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i know it's common for bipolar ppl to wind up manic/hypomanic on ssris alone but do they ever actually help mania/hypomania (along with depression)? of course it's going to vary from person to person, i'm just wondering if any of y'all have experience with that or otherwise know anything about it.

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it's whenever you have a good phase and think: "damn maybe it's finally over and nobody can hurt me anymore" and then a little thing happens, and you're back down, where you were before. and then it's once again the worst feeling a human being can have...

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since ive been looking into pds ive become dead emotionally. i don't have anything left in me anymore, im apathetic.

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im confused if this means that its likely that im just over reacting to being happy after being depressed and convinced myself that its bipolar. both my parents had onset in early 30s whereas i had mine at about 15. i definitely feel like i het hypomania but it could just be happiness im not sure.any input would be greatly appreciated.

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everything just hurts when we fight, everything is always my fault. if i didnt love him this much it wouldnt hurt this bad, right? how do i let go, how do i stop loving him?

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i hate that my anxiety has taken away my joy of wanting to take acting class. i feel that i dread them because i can't seem to get rid of my stage fright. i really just want my anxiety to go away so that i can enjoy acting. i feel stupid for crying and worrying over this.

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i don't know how anyone can go their whole lives without letting it get to them.

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im so exhausted of all these mood swings and impulsive behaviors. its so hard to act normal when inside i feel like im worthless. i keep fucking up in life and i just wish i could die.

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just looking for tips or what works for you guys. trying to build internal self love because i have absolutely none.

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i get really intense feelings of depression just randomly at any time. my throat start closing up and i cant breath well and i panic a little bit i honestly have no idea how to describe hot it feels. what are the symptoms of a panic or anxiety attack and how do i know im experiencing one?

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i stress about the idea of going to work, several days before i actually have to go in to work. like, i dont work until friday, but its wednesday right now and im already dreading going in.

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sometimes life gets unbearable, i live in constant fear of failure, although i'm pretty sure i'm

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having a hard time, i have issues but we all do. i text a friend today asking when were going to get together again. was told in a while. he and others have just posted pictures on fb together after all saying theyre busy tonight. ive supported them for years and stood by them. feeling very betrayed; im so sad. ideas?

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hi! we're a did system from new zealand, diagnosed currently with cyclothymia with psychotic features, though we're looking at getting that reviewed and potentially getting assessed for schizoaffective disorder. we experience psychosis on an occasional basis now we're on antipsychotics but it flairs up every now and again not too sure what else to say here, so hi! nice to meet everyone \-nightfall system

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my friend says he has schizophrenia and he hears people voice. he was addicted to weed. he left his job and now moved to a totally new place always from us. we couldnt stop him from moving. we are afraid of his condition. what should we do?

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i don't think many people actually see my personality, they all just see symptoms of my illness. knowing that makes me miserable. my illness is the worst part of my life and it's the first thing people see. sometimes even the only thing they'll see.

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i hope all of you get the happiness you deserve. you are some of the kindest, most considerate, caring and loyal people in the world. you are much more than just your problems. you are incredibly strong. you matter. it can and will get better.

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i have medical diagnosiss from multiple professionals, but at the same time i feel as if i have been faking my own illnesses/symptoms. is this yet another symptom of mental illness or how do i tell if im actually faking it without realizing it.

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i got dumped last night because he couldnt see getting into something so serious with me. he said that his heart just isnt in it. he doesnt like me enough. its so predictable and such a pattern. no one ever cares about me as much as i care about them. i dont want to be this alone.

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"im not responsible of the people who hurt me, but im totally responsible of the people i hurt now" its better to take action before things happen, if you know you need help get help, because things you do after are just unforgetable. dont take this as something bad, its more a peronal thing with nyself but i hope it could help someone.

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the man is 19 and he has severe mental health problems, he self harms, he cant eat unless hes spoon fed, he needs someone to wash him every night. should the woman feel guilty if she had caused him to do this?

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im sitting in the pharmacy line waiting to pick up my depression meds and im a meth addict as well thats trying to get off the stuff and i have had a shit day and i literally wanna just ball my eyes out and scream im so damn depressed its unreal

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tw for pretty much everything. i feel like im in a small room no matter where i go. my parents wont get me help. porn is the only source of dopamine. cutting is the only distraction. nothing is fun anymore. i lost all faith in god. i dont truly love anyone. a bullet and a gun would be great thanks.

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i used to cut myself almost every day but my last time was in june, it was pretty bad where i almost fainted in my bathroom. lately i've been extremely depressed and wanting to cut again. can someone reccomend ways to get rid of the urge?

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ive been trying to be emotional unavailable and repressing my emotions. its been a couple of days and it feels good. im not bothering anyone with my sh or si , and i tell everyone im okay. no one will be able to read me or see through me if i dont tell them. i feel so safe in this barrier ive created between me and people

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i just turned 21 yesterday. still cant say im happy to be here, but its slowly getting better. so dont lose hope :)

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i cleaned my room today and it literally felt like climbing a fuckin mountain hahaha. im very proud of myself. little victories are still victories. ive been feeling like shit because of quarantine and dont get me wrong, i still do but cleaning my room gave me a sliver of clarity. im back in bed and refuse to move but at least i can see my carpet :)

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hey guys, im currently splitting negatively. ik ill feel guilt because of my passive agressive behaviour after it ends but idc anymore, i feel so free not caring ab my fp. honestly im so tired of non ending cycle "i hate u" to "i love u" and idk how to control my emotions during positive splitting. how do you handle specifically positive splitting after negative and guilt after it?

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no weight gain, minor akathisia and dystonia, but hey! least i'm not getting put through the wringer like before.

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i never used to worry much and suddenly i started get anxiety. i worry about things like what if i get psychosis or schizophrenia. lately i've been feeling like i have a flu or something. i have trouble with concentrating, fatigue, weird dreams, feel empty, etc.

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does depakote cause more fatigue than lithium?

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i dont know why my previous post doesnt show up , can anyone see it ? ive mentioned how it worsens my depression i dont know if it got removed but i dont know any rule i broke :(

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on really bad days i curl up in bed bc it's so exhausting when this happens. [view poll](

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feels like ive fucked up everything in my life over the last several months, finding it hard to see the positive and ive become more emotionally numb. living with regret and negative energy in my body. please (and honestly) tell me, is there a way out of this hell? does it get better?

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i hold my family so dear to me and i get horrible anxiety sometimes when they leave the house especially by driving somewhere. this isnt all the time but it is frequent. i cry and worry that they might get hurt or in a car crash. i dont know how to stop worrying and just be calm.. can anyone relate?

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just had one of my biggest triggers appear randomly and i cant stop having delusions and stuff now, any idea on how to get it off ur mind i know you need meds for delusions and stuff, but i need this off my mind temporarily, just need it gone holy shit feels like i'll vomit

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not much else to say. i miss alcohol. i hate the way it tastes. i sometimes even gag when thinking about it, but i miss it. i wasn't even a severe alcoholic.

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hey guys, just wondering if anyone here has been diagnosed with late-onset schizophrenia. some have said they were diagnosed later in life, but had symptoms since they were young. that's not what i mean. i mean people who's symptoms and social decline started after the age of 38 and onwards. would be interesting to know how common it is for schizophrenia later in life.

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is this common is people who grew up being depressed/ anxious? i am only 20, but when i attempt to remember my childhood or things that happened in high school, i can't remember anything, just bits, and pieces. everything is like a blur and i usually feel anxious.

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