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Posted on 09 March 2010 by Liza Mae V.
I have mentally prepared and planned this decision to leave my life of the 9 to 5. I woke up Monday morning feeling anxious and terrified for the decision would change my life. My boyfriend was no where to be found and I didn’t know what I should do. Frantically I managed to put a resignation letter together and ten minutes prior to my weekly meeting with my boss, my boyfriend signed online. To my relief he read it over and suggested to change a couple things and he sent his well wishes. He seems to know how to calm me during times like this, thanks babe for being there!
As I walked to my bosses office I took a deep breath and I gave my boss the letter and she was excited for me. She said she would of made the same decision, given that she was placed in my shoes. It wasn’t easy for me to do so because it felt like my umbilical cord had been snipped at that moment. Leaving a place of warmth and comfort to live in the new unknown future ahead. I always envisioned that at that moment I would of gotten in an emotional breakdown but it was quite opposite. I was strong and confident and my fear in me disappeared. I had a defining of moment of … letting it go.
No more mundane Mondays, reporting to a manager, long meetings, etc. I am trading my current life for the hopes that I can successfully start my business and start living my life the way I want vs. what society wants for me. I have always lived my life by social design but for once in my life I decided, enough is enough, it is time for me to take a mini-retirement.
I am not too sure how long my retirement from the typical life style will be but for starters, it is a minimum of 92 days or 3 months. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to retire to have idle time but I want to retire from defined schedules which are designed to make one tired and worn out. Whoever decided that 8-hour days, 5 days a week was the way to go was simply insane. The working hours seem ludicrous to me but let me leave that in another post.
Floating in air, I continued my day in shock of what I had just done. Everything just seemed so surreal to me but my worries went away once my flight was booked, 20 days* until departure. It is not that far away and I have 3 units to rent out before then. It sounds unrealistic but I try to strive for the unrealistic goals, for if I just strive for the realistic ones then I would just be another statistic in this norm.
*Update: 12 Days left and I have rented 1 of the 3 units.
*Update (March 11): 2 of the 3 units rented.
Posted on 22 February 2010 by Liza Mae V.
As I dropped him off at the airport today, a trickle of tears ran down my face as we hugged good-bye. At least this time I did not cry a river for I know I will see him soon. The 5 weeks he was here just went by so quickly yet it felt like so many things transpired. It began on a rocky road but things became more smooth between us and stronger than ever. It was a really trying period for us but here we are again. I promised us that we will be together again in less than 4 weeks and hopefully before his big Three-Zero!
So I have contacted my boss and made her aware of the situation and I am hoping to get some unpaid-leave of a minimum of 2 months but if not, I have decided to cut my losses and go with the flow of things. I am quite terrified of doing so because it is like cutting my umbilical cord to my secure life. I realize that doing this will hurt and disappoint many people due to their own personal reasons, but at the end of the day, I have to take care of myself and my partner. The weight of their disappointment is weighing me down and I just feel like I don’t need that right now. I just want support from people but I can’t change their egotistical way of thinking, so be it. I mean it is really selfish for one to tell me to stay back because it makes them happy but what about my happiness? I would never be disappointed in someone because they chased after their happiness but I guess their excuse is that they are looking out for me.
I’ve gone tired of trying to make everyone else happy, that I don’t really care what anyone has to say.
Posted on 18 January 2010 by Liza Mae V.
It is funny how the last month’s events caused me to amplify my thoughts so loudly that I can not stop thinking about the life I want to live versus the life I am living. Those two points are far in between but the gap could easily be narrowed if I … stopped worrying.
On December 26th, 2009, I seen a message on facebook from my cousin that our mutual cousin Paula had died. She was under 40 and had a family (husband and two daughters). She had been fighting cancer for a couple of years and her time had expired on earth as we know it. RIP Paula!
Last week, my brother got in a serious car accident which landed him in the hospital with a broken collar bone and minor lacerations. He could of been seriously hurt or dead but thankfully God gave him another chance at life.
With all these occurrences happening around me it made me think and ask questions within myself. Why is it that I live my life of mediocrity to only want what everyone else wants? Why do I settle for a secure life rather than a happy life? Or if I am so unhappy why do I continue to live unhappily? Why do I have wait until I find out I am dying or had a life/death experience to do the things I truly want to do?
Fear is the biggest monster one has. It gets in the way of many things and stagnates growth and disables one’s abilities to be free. So I’ve decided to make some major changes in my life which will occur in the next 3 weeks. Story will unfold shortly, stay tuned.
Posted on 30 June 2009 by Liza Mae V.
Since the weather has warmed up I’ve been spending most of my days (when not at work) at the beach. I am an avid believer of enjoying the outdoors during the short summer months in Toronto. I have some ideas on how to enjoy the summer the economical way.
Posted on 18 December 2008 by Liza Mae V.
+ This year I have taken a big risk in leaving my comfortable four year relationship for the unknown and it resulted in my great love for mi amore and especially myself. It is time to take more risks for 2009.
+ When faced with the same situation, I sometimes forget the lesson learned and repeat my mistakes but I am learning to break this habit. I have already begin to do so because I am conscious of it now.
+ Very true, it has happened a couple of times in my favour.
+ Rules who needs rules?
+ Hrmmm, it seems I don’t do this enough. I am always around people, whether it be at home or at work.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
+ I am guilty for this occasionally. In a heated argument things slip up but I do keep this in mind.
+ I have traveled this year but I don’t think anywhere new – Miami, New York, Montreal.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.
life … what is it all worth?
Posted on 27 February 2004 by Liza Mae V.
I haven’t written in so long because my thoughts have been scattered like pieces of a puzzle. I’m trying to put it all together but it just doesn’t seem to fit. It is like I’m trying to answer the same questions, over and over … but there is always a different solution. I am nearing the age of 21, and I begin to wonder where I am going to be in a year.
The uncertainty scares me, but what is it that I fear?
Its ironic that I fear is living … not death. Death does not bother me. It is a part of life that we have to accept. But not being accepted is what I can not accept.
The future is in the hands of time. Everything can change with in seconds. One’s life can be taken … in one direction … to the next. So are these daily stresses, all worth it? I guess so. We do this, day in and day out.
I look at all the relationships I have and wonder, if this person will be with me in a few years? Why is this person here? Right now? and wonder who I will bump into next?
I’m just so tired. Tired of starting new, where there is no expectations of what this person will be in my life. The whole cycle of getting to know someone … just tires me out … knowing it can end up … where I started, no where. He/she just appeared, and then disappeared.
I ask too much questions which can not be answered now because that is in the future. That’s what I fear … the fear of not knowing what or who comes next … but that’s life … my life.

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