Conversation: The conversation between human and AI assistant.
[|Human|] Hey Im 24 years old. Im always tense and I feel like Im always angry. I really dislike people and I feel like if given the oppurtunity I would really do some harm to people who have done me wrong. I dont feel like its a normal reaction I feel like Im seriosly degrading another persons life.I love my girlfriend atleast I think I do, I love being with her but emotion that emotion love doesnt feel like much of anything. I dont feel like other people proclaim to feel. Shes logically the best person for me. I dont abuse her and I dont think I ever will. My ex however would send me over the wall and I really hurt her. Its like Im always on the bring of an explosion. I always get the feeling that my friends arent my friends. I always degrade them based on the lack of intelligence they have. Stupid people. I dont know why I feel like Im better than them. I dont know why when I walk into walmart everyone around me sickens me. I dont understand why Im filled with such hate. Its really come to the point where its starting to scare me. Like this dark pressure inside me is growing. I have a cat and sometimes I get frustrated with but I toss him around like he isnt alive. Sometimes by the neck, sometiems I even imagine choking it until it cant move. Afterwards im engulfed in this flush of sadness thinking about missing him. I sometimes imagine my girlfriend dead but then I that same sadness hits me. Then anger. I sometimes dream about selectively wiping out the human race. Its really farfetched but who am I to judge someones value? I feel like I want to just REMOVE filth and another part of me wants to help that filth.This has been longer than intended. I have no insurance and ive been trying to find help whereever I can get it. Thats why Im trying to get all the info I can in one message. I also eat ALOT to cope with this. WHat is wrong with me? Will I kill someone? Could I? When I hurt my ex I would feel horrible after I did what I did. SOmetimes I would feel bad while doing it. Liek it was her fault! SHe made me do it! I knew better but I wanted to kill her...over nothing I knew it was NOTHING but still I couldnt control it. I can never control it ever!
[|AI|]  Degree understand your concerns went through your detailed description. I suggest you to immediately find a psychiatrist in your area for further treatment. If your description is truly what is actually happening, you must be suffering from multiple personality disorder, impulse control disorder and possible schizophrenia. Therefore, I suggest you to find a psychiatrist immediately. But I can assure you, you will not kill anyone. Alternatively, you can consult one of our psychiatrists online through this same site. All details are available in the home page. Hope you understand the depth of the situation. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.