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[|Human|] am a 41 year old woman, 3 kids 2 of them not living with me because drug problems in my past. I have a six year old daughter with me. I have history of cronic depression and being diagnosed with PTSD and borderline personality disorder also, i was diagnose bipolar but i came to think that was at the time of my drug use so i dont think i have that. Lately ive been obsessing with death a lot, i mean is really bad. I can watch videos of persons that died and their stories and i want to know how they die and why. I saw lots of pics of dead people too . I watch documentaries about cancer and other diseases that kill people in a horrible way. I read a lot about suicides etc. is just too much, Im worried i dont what that means. I think i am afraid to die cause i dont think i was a good mother i feel no worthy at all. I am agoraphobic and not social at all. I dont even like to answer the phone. I dont like contact with people besides my husband and my daughter is almost hard to spend time with my other two kids cause i feel that i dont deserve them. Right now i just want to know what is this deal with death. pls help me.,
[|AI|]  Hi there ~I understand your concerns.  PTSD and Chat Doctor.  Depression is a part of bipolar disorder unless you have dysthymia which is depression from childhood.  I am sorry that you have had to deal with all the things that you mention in your summary above.  I also think that it might be best to switch your psychiatrist if you are seeing one already and to start consulting a counselor to vent your feelings with that person.  Furthermore, I hope this helps with allaying many fears about guilt and hopelessness.  Furthermore, I would also suggest that you do yoga and Panama on a daily basis and Dayana too.  However, consulting a psychiatrist would be the priority here. I hope this helped.  Take care of yourself and have a lovely day!