text | |
"I know I can't keep it closed too long. | |
I couldn't find the 'stop' button. | |
But I can still fix the 'pause' button. | |
At least for a while." | |
"I looked out through the bars, | |
for the first time. | |
I saw the road outside, actually the | |
wounded man on the road. | |
Blood spilled all over the road, him. | |
Many around him watched him suffer. | |
Some captured his suffering on their screens. | |
I watched him die, with a pain. | |
And others too, without it. | |
With a shake of my hand | |
the first bar broke, silently." | |
"But I still see you, a shadow | |
at the far end, like a drop of tear- | |
hanging off an eyelash." | |
"Oh why is it so hard dear | |
The rocky road of life | |
To the other end you walk | |
But never seem to reach" | |
"I spent that day with my PC | |
by playing games and more. | |
Need For Speed , Grand Theft Auto, | |
Total Overdose, Prince of Persia. | |
Driving cars and Killing enemies, | |
Sword attack and Combo list. | |
Without talking to anyone | |
I became Blacklist No.1." | |
"I too had dreams, hopes flying- | |
like cotton clouds in the blue sky. | |
Too late to realize, it seems, | |
that those were just soap bubbles. | |
Now I know I should stop, | |
cause I don't deserve your love." | |
"Don't you taste stardust ? | |
Don't you feel that we're the same ? | |
Don't you see the blaze in my eyes, | |
The heat of a star trapped in my body?" | |
"It wasn't lust either, cause | |
you were more than just a body. | |
Can't say why I loved you, | |
sometimes reasons are meaningless. | |
My love wasn't fake, cause | |
you could catch me every time." | |
"But when I looked at the stone through and through, | |
I found out something peculiar, something wonderful. | |
Something in common between me and that stone. | |
Every cell of my body and every microscopic particle | |
in that stone came from the same place!! | |
Hard to believe but true!!!" | |
"I tried to hold it. But my hands | |
couldn't find the grip. | |
It closed at last, blocking the golden light | |
leaving the darkness in front. | |
I stared at the void for a long time, | |
so that I missed the other 5 doors | |
those were opened for me!!" | |
"The sky was once again red | |
when my eyes woke up from sleep. | |
red -not blood red , it was | |
evening red, red as evening sun. | |
The sun’s one day’s journey | |
Ended there, handing over | |
his job to the moon." | |
"I see the avalanche of bullets | |
buzzing around, aching my drums, | |
painting the walls red. | |
Chains cutting into my flesh." | |
"Here, take the key to my chest, | |
and only return it when I ask you | |
after a whole year." | |
"You made my nights colourful with the- | |
stories of the villain fox and poor rabbit. | |
I can never thank you enough | |
for the support you gave me mom." | |
"I know that is you. | |
Pinned to the infiniteness | |
of the fabric far above." | |
"But there's a lot going on here , | |
in this tiny ball of dirt. | |
But stay with me, well journey through- | |
space and time, around this tiny dirt ball. | |
We'll float like a dust in a sun beam, | |
till our past and future meet as one..." | |
"""What are your wishes?"" I asked her. | |
""Nothing"" she replied. | |
""Don't have a bucket list? No crave for adventure?"" | |
I was amused. | |
She shrugged and said: | |
""Sometimes it's an ordinary life that take the most effort.""" | |
"It all started with a pain- my life. | |
I stepped into the world by hurting you mom, | |
by giving you the pain that gave you satisfaction. | |
The pain you'll always love to remember. | |
But I hurt you mom, even in the ultimate innocence- | |
I gave you pain. | |
I can never thank you enough for that, mom." | |
"Waterfalls must only be a turbulent flow- | |
of water to me, with the Reynold's number > 2000. | |
I'm restricted to wonder why | |
the aircraft fly in the air. | |
I'm only allowed to be thorough with | |
the Bernoulli's principle and it's derivation." | |
"I walked until I was dead. | |
Until the world below disappeared | |
behind the thick veil of the cotton clouds | |
that spanned to the distant horizons." | |
"I will bury it among the woods, | |
cause love can only be buried among love. | |
I will give it to nature, | |
for there's not a better lover than her." | |
"And when I slowly stepped into my life- | |
you received me with a handful of love. | |
You gave me the nectar of life. | |
You gave me the sweet taste of love. | |
You loved me, cared me, taught me the essentials of life. | |
You showed me the importance of being honest, | |
You taught me to say truth always, | |
The importance of trust in life. | |
You showed me how to respect others, | |
not only humans but also the nature. | |
You taught me that the god lives in the- | |
hearts of everyone." | |
"Only one was left. | |
Just one bar between me and the world. | |
I waited for it, the death of the last bar. | |
It happened, on the rainy disastrous night, | |
followed by a sunny morning. | |
She was helpless, crying for mercy. | |
But no one’s bowl had the warm soup of mercy. | |
They looked like humans. | |
But barbarian animals inside. | |
Tortured her, raped her. | |
Not by one, too many were there | |
waiting to rip her soul into thousands pieces. | |
They almost killed her, | |
left her behind like a corpse, but with a pulse. | |
That endless rain that night had | |
the bitter taste of her tears. | |
The 7th bar washed away by the rain." | |
"I wanted to fill the void, | |
but my mind was out of ideas. | |
I looked around to find something- | |
that really worth a poem." | |
"Then he'll know how I fooled him. | |
My smiles were fake, words were hollow. | |
He'll see the mask then, with an everlasting smile | |
and inside the insidious beast." | |
"Forgive me, my love | |
for the things I have not done. | |
Forgive me, my love | |
for the tears I've caused. | |
I don't deserve it, your love, | |
If those tears I could bear." | |
"But I will, one day, cry a river- | |
below that bridge and | |
Kiss your shore." | |
"In the bright golden sunlight, | |
in the thick foamy clouds, | |
in the song of the cuckoo, | |
in every flap of a butterfly's wings, | |
even in the long row of ants- | |
there was a bit of poetry. | |
In everything around me." | |
"There was the clear blue sky above my head, | |
the red hot sun on its edge. | |
There were many beautiful flowers in my garden, | |
butterflies and birds chirping around. | |
There were several gorgeous girls too- | |
on the road, enjoying the evening. | |
But what drew my attention was- | |
nothing more than a stone. | |
A cold black stone." | |
"I sat there in the bright sunlight. | |
All I had was a blank paper- | |
and a pen with full of ink. | |
But my mind was out of ideas, | |
empty as the blank white paper. | |
The ink didn't flow out just like always." | |
"My legs were numb, | |
But I kept pushing forward. | |
Cause there was a lot in store | |
on top of the Tatra mountains." | |
"On a cold winter night | |
I look up the sky and see | |
a star shining bright." | |
"Ocean also heard my question, where's your love? | |
Their answer came towards me like waves. | |
You even saw love in my perilous heaves! | |
No one realizes I'm a kind of ugly waste basket." | |
"Night has only one colour- Black. | |
And without the mask, human mind- | |
have the same one- Black. | |
That's why I'm in love with that colour. | |
That's why I love the darkness, night and my mind." | |
"There was only one window with 7 bars, | |
when I came here for the first time. | |
A small window with 7 vertical bars, | |
through which light and life came inside. | |
That was the only thing which could | |
make me think that I'm still living | |
Seven bars, the only thing I owned in my | |
seven years long prison life." | |
"I asked the stars, where's your love? | |
They answered, blinking their eyes | |
We blink and you say it's love. | |
Who knows we're trying to close our eyes from this earth of madness?" | |
"I walked until my legs gave up, | |
passing the springs and the | |
flowers waiting to bloom, | |
and the bushes and berries that colored the mountains." | |
"I see that distant island | |
Lonely and grey | |
Midst the violent storm | |
And the monster waves" | |
"It’s not easy to win. | |
Neither too hard. | |
You should mean it, in every- | |
Throw of dice, you should believe." | |
"I will dig so deep for this relic, | |
no nomads can ever find. | |
I will burn it till it glows, | |
till the heat of our love melt it." | |
"Last night she gave me the ring- | |
that bore our names, | |
A reminiscent of the love we once shared, | |
A shiny ring." | |
"It's the only time that reveals- | |
fear, revenge, lust and all other things- | |
I failed to see in the daylight. | |
That's why it's so important. | |
The end of a day, or a beginning of new one." | |
"Stars as a dust spread over - | |
the dark grey sky , it was no longer grey. | |
It is black now… Black everywhere. | |
Tiny dots of stars twinkled at me. | |
The half faced moon smiled at me. | |
I don’t know why but they were | |
all looking at me………" | |
"I couldn't open my eyes | |
Out the days were cold. | |
The smoke spreading my lungs | |
The cries shrinking my heart." | |
"Where do you keep all your hopes? | |
Carry it on that fancy backpack? | |
Or stuff it in a plastic bag and- | |
let it flow in the mighty river of time?" | |
"But even after time has run a long way, | |
it came back to me. | |
I really marvelled to see the part of- | |
myself on that little stone. | |
Now I'm changing the lyrics. | |
We're equally great actually. | |
Except the fact that- | |
Only I can make an extraordinary poem- | |
out of a seemingly ordinary black stone!" | |
"In fact, this is not a poem at all. | |
This is the key to the padlock- | |
I'm using to lock the chest- | |
of my imagination." | |
"One or two stars were seen | |
but everywhere else was red. | |
As the dial turns round and round | |
The sun rose up from the horizon. | |
Reddish colour was disappearing | |
or transforming to blue." | |
"Look above at the black carpet, | |
Blazing sparkles sprayed on to it. | |
Look at the emptiness that engulf us. | |
Look far in to the past of pasts." | |
"I look at the cloudy skies | |
Lifeless lands, lightless days. | |
cursing the darkness | |
blackening the blue planet." | |
"It didn't let me | |
face the challenges. | |
It took away the opportunities | |
that were in front of me. | |
It never allowed me to win. | |
It took me from the | |
world of light and | |
blinded me with its black veil. | |
Made me a living statue!" | |
"You'll find yourself there , | |
in the heart of a blazing star. | |
A bunch of dust waiting to become you. | |
Waiting to be thrown out into the darkness." | |
"Draw the line, shoot the other side | |
cried the general from his abode | |
But where does it start, or end? | |
It goes in circles? he asked." | |
"Very interesting his last moments will be. | |
An element of surprise. | |
A push,a nudge into the darkness | |
where it will all end with a thud!" | |
"It all changes at night- the human mind, | |
covering its even more dark side | |
by the pure darkness of night." | |
"Your voice never hardened even if mine did so. | |
I hurt you more than I did at the beginning. | |
I made scars on your mind and soul- | |
with the key of innocence no longer in my hands. | |
I know mom, a sorry won't be enough. | |
But I know, being a mother you can- | |
forgive even without a sorry." | |
"Oh dear I know it's dark | |
I know the light is hours away | |
But every moonless night, my love | |
Gives us a million stars" | |
"Witnessed a murder next time. | |
This time for the precious metal. | |
After all its a metal right? All coming from mud. | |
Why on earth would they kill each other | |
for just some mud? | |
That evening, the golden rays of the sun | |
melted the second last bar." | |
"I knew a push would do it. | |
A little push, my hands can handle. | |
it wasn't hard, neither was easy. | |
my hands had the strength- | |
but mind said No! Ignored it." | |
"I looked out for the second time | |
and saw the woods. | |
Again I looked | |
Saw the sand! | |
The wood has gone! I don't know how | |
Its gone! | |
The hot northern wind | |
came in without a difficulty | |
taking the second bar away with it." | |
"The moon- half naked, half | |
concealed with black curtain | |
like a boat it floated in the sky. | |
Its light was not enough | |
for this dark…black night. | |
There was no dazzling light | |
only a cool moonlight." | |
"Just like life, there are no shortcuts to 100. | |
You’ve to play fairly. | |
The snakes, your mistakes. | |
The ladders, your gains." | |
"Human mind work so different | |
at night, in its deep dark shadow. | |
When there's no dazzling light, | |
no annoying sound, only calmness." | |
"Third time I looked out. | |
There was a huge building on the place where | |
the slum stood once, home to thousands | |
was replaced by the smoke | |
vomiting chimneys. | |
On the lament of the thousands, | |
the third bar was destroyed." | |
"The torch was dead, | |
the light inside never reached out. | |
A bullet through hope's heart. | |
It was all done. | |
Peace was one beat away... | |
I closed my eyes!!" | |
"Night feared me once, | |
by the fairy tales of ghosts. | |
But now I love the night. | |
Because, It's the only time I can see me." | |
"Billions of years ago, | |
before the time begun with a BANG, | |
me and that stone were together. | |
Concentrated on a very small region - | |
in an unimaginably dense state. | |
Then we parted, at light's speed*" | |
"Have you seen my soul? | |
darker than the moonless night. | |
I heard some fool say, 'When you love- | |
you learn to love their dark side too'. | |
But that darkness, my love | |
you don't deserve to live with. | |
If Love never really hurts, | |
then is this love at all?" | |
"I asked the dew drops, where's your love? | |
She answered smiling: | |
You saw only love in me. | |
No one sees me shivering in that cold." | |
"I should only care what's in the textbook. | |
Anything out of it- irrelevant. | |
But I'm okay with that. | |
I can get used to it." | |
"You carried me, a long 10 months... | |
10 months of transformation to chaos to a human. | |
You kept me inside, served me with love and care. | |
You let me grow up comfortably. | |
My extra weight did not matter to you. | |
I can never carry you even a single day- | |
even if I were the most strongest man in the world. | |
I can never thank you enough mom." | |
"As I went far in my life, | |
I forgot what you taught. | |
As my height increased, voice toughened, | |
my ears became more resistive to your voice. | |
But you always smiled at me." | |
"Oh dear, there is a lot going on- | |
in this tiny ball of dirt. | |
Some say it's big, some say it's huge. | |
But look, it's just a spec of dust." | |
"And we'll sail away, far | |
to the end of the world. | |
Till the river meet the ice cold ocean." | |
"You know, my legs don't have | |
strength to walk that far | |
and run away with you." | |
"Every turn is a game changer here. | |
Everyone wants 6’s and 5’s. | |
But when the right time comes, | |
You should play for 1. | |
That’s snake n’ ladder buddy, | |
That’s life." | |
"I can't hold it's weight, | |
cause there's a part of my soul inside- | |
that I rip apart for you. | |
A part still craving for your love." | |
"But that didn't help. | |
I found nothing, absolutely. | |
But at the end I found out, | |
everyone with a mind and desire- | |
can make anything out of nothing! | |
Just like I did here." | |
"Don't let the dark part | |
overtake you. | |
It will be your end and | |
you will be no more. | |
One day I will | |
overtake my dark side. | |
And that day will be my | |
Independence Day!!!!!" | |
"But then the bright screens were turned on, | |
earphones plugged in. | |
The song echoed in every corner, | |
but no one heard it!" | |
"My legs were dead. | |
But to feel on top of the world, | |
that's one sacrifice to make. | |
And there's a lot to see, | |
a lot to try, a lot to feel- | |
everywhere my legs can take me!" | |
"The journey ended there, journey seeking love. | |
I didn't find the love, neither its origin. | |
The love I saw was just an illusion... | |
Love was dead, and buried." | |
"It was so early when I - | |
woke up from my bed. | |
For 8 hours I have been waiting - | |
to switch on my computer. | |
Without even taking bath | |
I sat in front of my PC." | |
"5th time I looked out for witnessing a murder. | |
Taking life was a child's play for 'em. | |
I remember his boisterous laugh | |
who was enjoying the scene, the same who | |
acted well in his mourning. | |
The 5th bar broke by the power of his evil laugh." | |
"No one will judge you by the snakes, | |
If you’re gonna make it to 100. | |
No one will care your ladders | |
If you’re gonna lose." | |
"Now, it is blue - blue everywhere. | |
Not dark blue, light blue, aqua blue | |
Everywhere was sky blue. | |
At first just there was blue only, but - | |
something came out of the blue. | |
Clouds…white foggy cloud … | |
It was like an elephant, no no , | |
an angel or a beast , I don’t know | |
How could I say that ? because | |
It was making shapes of its own." | |
"And at last it opened. | |
The only way I can get to the outer world. | |
But I didn't move an inch. | |
I didn't want to go out. | |
'Cause I knew that the imprisoned criminals are | |
far better than the lunatics with | |
no chain on their hands. | |
The darkness inside was much more comfortable | |
than the dazzling light outside." | |
"The door was opened for a while. | |
The door with a silver outline, | |
a golden light emerging from inside. | |
From something that was too bright for my eyes." | |
"But slowly I realized that | |
the spirit was no good for me. | |
It was he who made me | |
bad to worse." | |
"But I just couldn't find it then, | |
there was nothing in my mind. | |
Empty, blank, void and | |
every other form of nothing." | |
"I asked the clouds, where's your love? | |
He replied like thunderbolt: | |
You saw love in my enormity also?!! | |
Have anyone saw the sunlight making me suffer?" | |
"Let's hold our hands , gaze at our past , | |
Till we float away and be dust again. | |
They say it's big , some say it's huge | |
But it's a spec of dust , like you and me." | |
"The sun should be nothing more than | |
a distant celestial object | |
with angular magnitude 0.5 degrees | |
and stellar magnitude around minus 27." | |
"O' dear, you know I can't keep it, | |
Time must rust it out. | |
Like our love that once shined, | |
but left a cold piece of charcoal." | |
"I should not see the angels and beasts | |
which the foamy clouds make in the sky. | |
But I should study that the scattering of light | |
is the reason for its foamy white colour. | |
I should not marvel at the beauty of the | |
seven coloured rainbows, | |
but study 'Total Internal Reflection' causes it." | |
"I feel the metal bed, | |
I hear it clinging. | |
I feel the cold of those | |
Long death metal pipes." | |
"Passing the serene villages, | |
deserted suburbs and crowded cities, | |
it engulfed the earth like- | |
the thin fog of petrichor." | |
"This will be the last poem | |
that's gonna originate from the - | |
ball point tip of my pen this year. | |
My pen will be idle for a while." | |
"I am what you always say, | |
a machine, a wooden plank. | |
My love wasn't romantic, | |
neither a shower of flowers. | |
It was all thorns, sharp edges | |
cutting into your flesh." | |
"From far far away... | |
from the mountains where- | |
ice melt into rivers | |
from the peaks where- | |
the sun kiss the dew | |
from the tip of the rainbow where- | |
the treasure lay hidden | |
from the heights of the canopy which- | |
overlook the landscape, | |
came the song of a cuckoo. | |
A song so mellow, so subtle | |
like an infant's laugh." | |
"It was a spirit that | |
always came with me, | |
Travelled with me, | |
Played with me. | |
It assisted me in my sleep, | |
in my study, on my play time. | |
It made my path clear. | |
Deviating me from | |
the way of challenges." | |
"There are 8 snakes and 8 ladders | |
In a 100 block long snake n ladder. | |
Though it seemed to be many fewer | |
Ladders are there on the board." | |
"I saw the spoiled childhood on the streets | |
when I looked out, 4th time. | |
I searched for colourful dreams on their head. | |
But only found sacks of sand. | |
My fist chocked the 4th bar, crushing it | |
powdering it, leaving the other 3 behind." | |
"The past is a dead reflection. | |
And the future hides behind- | |
the thick fog of time, | |
fading into reality just like- | |
a dream does when you open your eyes. | |
This moment is all there is. | |
We own nothing but this loaf of time!" | |
"I saw the deep valleys, | |
a small spring running weak among. | |
Snow capped peaks peeping above | |
the lake of white clouds." | |
"You may think that it's absurd to think | |
that the stone holds much greater value than me! | |
In fact, that silly stone is not silly at all." | |
"Sirens screamed, death showered | |
Not knowing why, they battled. | |
Where to draw the line? they asked. | |
But the corpses looked all the same in the mud." | |
"One day in my life | |
I felt I am not alone. | |
Someone was with me | |
all the time. | |
But I didn't bother to know | |
who it was." | |
"You know I can't come- | |
seeking you, cause- | |
I can't cross that bridge." | |
"Now I know the dark side | |
is growing bigger to biggest. | |
But I must not allow. | |
I have to fight and I will. | |
I have to lighten the | |
dark side of me." | |
"When left alone at night, things change. | |
Everyone finishes a day long show there, | |
without a prolonged applause. | |
Without the mask, he's he- | |
what really inside." | |
"I know can't stop loving you. | |
But you should, take a stand. | |
I can never hate you. | |
I don't think you can either. | |
Stop loving me, but don't hate me, | |
cause hate is not the opposite of love. | |
It's a disease, will make you blind, | |
oblivious to what love really is. | |
My love, I love you. | |
But you shouldn't..." | |
"The next day, I woke up early | |
But my PC wasn't good. | |
So I went up to the balcony | |
And just sat there like a cat. | |
But when my eyes took a - | |
Flight to the zenith | |
I saw the reddish sky." | |
"I didn't know what the light was, | |
whether a trap or precious treasure. | |
I was in a confusion, dilemma. | |
So I didn't take a leap. | |
I took too much time on thinking | |
before it started to close!" | |
"Do your memories run past | |
Like a view through a window | |
Does the things you did | |
Come back and haunt you" | |
"I must not enjoy the beauty of the sunset. | |
But study that the red light has the | |
greatest wavelength among the colours | |
in the visible region of Electro Magnetic spectra." | |
"Giving a push is nothing | |
the beast can't do. | |
since the mask is torn off | |
it can let him go to the dark. | |
In the dark, no one will see the beast either!" | |
"There's us, then there's them | |
but where is the line in between? | |
There's love, then there's hate | |
but why does it hurt so much in between? | |
There're laughs, then there're tears | |
but what is that feeling in between? | |
There's birth, then there's death | |
but when is the life in between?" | |
"There're tyrants, then there're martyrs | |
but who are the ones in between? | |
There's us, then there's them | |
but we are the ones in between." | |
"I was setting the last moments | |
for whom I never gave up hate. | |
whose face always forced me | |
to wear that fake smile." | |
"The blue skies merging with the | |
landscape below, somewhere. | |
The grey hills, so distant | |
drawing the contours of the terrain below." | |
"I was in a journey, | |
Journey seeking love, its origin. | |
The love I saw around me, | |
In the mist that covered the dawns, | |
In the morning song of the cuckoo, | |
In the silver lined clouds of noon sky, | |
In the ocean waves swallowing the setting sun, | |
In the blinking of stars at the night sky, | |
I saw love everywhere. | |
It was a journey to seek that love." | |
"I asked the cuckoo, where's your love? | |
She said with a smile: | |
You saw love in my song, | |
Did you notice a lament of a mother in it?" | |
"Does the warm breeze freeze you | |
Does the moonlight burn you | |
Do the waves drown the | |
Sound of your prayers?" | |
"Do not worry my love | |
Do not worry, cause | |
The dark cold winter days | |
Always give way to colours" | |
"Night is the time your eyes | |
doesn't search for a light. | |
You'll want it to be closed. | |
Closed against all the darkness around, | |
only to let out the darkness inside." | |
"It's a long journey , a voyage through- | |
the dark corners of space and time, | |
Towards this very moment- | |
when my lips meet yours." | |
"What if the padlock gets so rusted so that | |
I can never open my chest again...........?" | |
"I can never thank you enough for giving me | |
the eternal love that I failed to return back. | |
I can never thank you enough for | |
bringing me into this world, | |
for giving me this extraordinary life. | |
I love you mom...." | |