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695 | anyone also get feeling see someone happy street deleted | self.depression |
697 | keep going dont want point im working fulltime im loosing car bill cant paid cant feed house mess dont care want stop end depression isnt killing loneliness dont even know im posting right im trying im done doctor counselor say find way live dont want live used rare thought constant here trying one hour one tear | self.SuicideWatch |
698 | whats point life first time posting visiting reddit want die dont see point living im acne everywhere short shitty grade shy even talk girl like rest family phd sibling great college cant see even getting shitty state college try hard look grade realize id rather live another year enjoyment get appreciation get shitty job local restaurant friendly staff friend cant talk parent dont know end without disappointing family | self.SuicideWatch |
699 | depression consistent im curious im guy who depression long time however depression isnt always notice kind alternate feeling know everyone good day bad day notice kind shift slow time life depressed feel like normal person im perfectly happy slightest ill transition period im suicide watch period hardly get bed ill mope around day never leaving room ill normally conversation live live ill one extreme anywhere week couple month always eventually transition opposite im starting feel better start think tackle thing thing going doesnt feel enough therapy support world stop going anyone else go phenomenon | self.depression |
700 | im new low dont know next created account back every time ive tried write end deleting today ive decided need get thing chest hopefully find advice help get rut year ago took risk made investment better switched career path took month away work receive intensive training software development expensive seemed pay almost immediately landed job shortly finishing paid double ever made thing looking company started struggling laid junior developer made sense smaller company month ago ive looking job ever since nothing working ive sent countless application time ive received exactly two interview neither developed anything beyond initial interview beginning look like investment made future isnt going pan mean marketable skill money future prospect beyond lifetime customer service hated working reason decided make change value offer anyone im last leg point spend time bed late drive anything dwindling dont see point anymore im looking forward holiday face entire family complete utter failure im sure dont know whats left point im afraid discover exactly wont worth cant go back look like ive hit end road im currently feel worthless like future beyond existence crippling mediocrity depression dont know right subreddit maybe there better one ive found im hoping maybe someone point direction give advice next beyond keep keepin | self.depression |
701 | awful flashback ive tried shutting mindfully accepting matter flashback hypomanic cringe recent manic insanity keep haunting get constantly always causing surge anger sometimes like spasm sometimes punch wall sometimes talk angrily wasnt fault feel like destroying everything every time happens dream supposedly stable two month according psychiatrist dont know losing stability result stabilized diagnosis pretty recent first symptom two year ago high school im suspicious first ever period euthymia allowed flashback since occupied staying alive human prior without even slightest intention worst shameful moment life decide invade fucking head anyone relate something everyone bipolar go entirely different issue ive lost desire see anyone know isnt family see manic suicidal pretty much everyone identity stained feel like everyone condescending towards whether know im bipolar see erase someone behavior ur head pretend nothing happened met people hypomanic besides cut life dont want feel fucking angry like think theyre better even worse flashback specific event involving like visualization identity always fucking idiot acted like there nothing shake outside killing | self.bipolar |
702 | psyching see doctor deleted | self.Anxiety |
703 | random late night thought anxiety depression watching self destroy everything ever worked give anxiety like go around telling everyone im asshole issue time look like piece shit | self.Anxiety |
704 | paxil ive using paxil past week feel amazing people say paxil take full effect take least week question expect big difference feel difference small | self.Anxiety |
705 | holiday alone time year year one spend holiday remember ex use lot tradition would decorating house putting christmas tree dont much motivation want stuff year family life dont want bother problem im point wish holiday would focus work routine ive made get thru day feel really stupid sometime know shes great time friend probably new guy im stuck place cant seem get really holiday dog empty house real friend call stuff family family worry im depressed right probably going worse christmas time ive tried meet group online dating volunteering therapy nothing making difference maybe life going alone forever metal health serious bad getting worse around holiday know right think ending thing everyday morning night | self.depression |
706 | need advice desperately ill start saying gad panic disorder really suck ive seen therapist always alienate issue medicate marijuana contrary popular belief help actually concentrate thing better especially go college problem drive decide medicate college minute away driving need convince mother currently unemployed staying home least drive bus stop able school taking medication vaporizer smoking section literally pas class pretty hardstuck antimarijuana help know help get better grade since im actually able concentrate worry everything else point realized info would help mother know think time week doesnt really know vaporizer dont want lie want let know like calmly possible tends yell annoying update ended letting know shell see grade exceed isnt happy driving part say time shes fine | self.Anxiety |
707 | symptom connected emoquette ill make brief ive emoquette birth control pretty consistently last month even though certain life circumstance shit year sent back depression pittm noticed something interesting week forgot take pill day already feel whole lot better talking cry le able calm faster even productive selfmotivated problem cant tell sure actually result taking pill anymore im gon na stay another week experiment anyone else who used emoquette form pill similar experience ill gladly switch another prescriptionmethod mean feeling le awful time | self.depression |
709 | dont even care main account deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
710 | birth control help anxiety ive wondering lately ive pill since currently went pill november feeling rather depressed wanted rid chemical might effecting mood since developed anxiety disorder making life rather difficult think back time quit first feeling amazing following january experienced first real panic attack happening day day stopped anxiety got worse time especially autumn late winter right really worried takinh control life starting new job week want mentally prepared wel pressure even whole interview process breeze seems like adrenaline wear get hit anxiety induced sensation ive thinking possible birth control kept anxiety issue control maybe havent pill would developed earlier ive read birth control actually make condition worse buy everyone different experience sort thing update june hey would like give guy kind respond quick little update situation quite rollercoaster like planned went see doctor get another birth control prescription got started taking first day period first two day huge spike whatever feeling actually kinda optimistic went downhill got worse worse day got hit mixture severe anxiety depression couple week doctor appointment starting new job dont call come start employment go several medical check ups like ecg eye test etc end consultation family doctor really nervous would point recurring anxiety problem cant start describe understanding helpful doctor actually explained problem started experiencing started eating birth control hope helping issue expressed concern probably related hormone especially spike surrounding period also pointed thyroid slightly enlarged blood test checked hormone result showed problem actually correlated much estrogen little magnesium course stopped eating pill right another check tomorrow compare result situation improved quickly noticable result point really happy actually took time helped find solution rather simple experience try shove pill throat soon mention feeling bit tired im saying pill arent helpful really make life bearable people time take little supplement im saying go eat magnesium pill experiencing stuff perhaps get thyroid checked want know anything ask away hope give hope | self.Anxiety |
711 | shes everything im fill gap calm turn thing dont understandcant empathize debate inside joke much like good thing got he heterosexual shes doesnt need someone mess constantly stressing straining mentally best friend escape head youre physically disabled wildly intelligent thats lifeline escape respite give anxiety attack one pull never cause stress strain anger frustration disappointment never make feel like he psychologically tired honestly glad glad met needed pretty spot fit would great kid shes psychiatrist thing spot equal match challenge understands banter debate level one another kid raised people like raised right shit together instead someone automaticallyinevitably reason future psychological treatment need get together figure finance everything order allow smooth operation home lifeschool angry furious disappointed abandoned depressed would one time kid move life best healthiest way cant get hurt anymore one last time n little enough block e old enough hate forever til convince amazing one hit wonderwhich dont understand feel like theyre trying humor dont go mental deep end depression see awesome force nature dont shit together im someone everything im fucking utter mess im bumbling around life everyday trying make end day equal better started everyday mine field everyday chance cause explosion rooted lack understanding compassion knowledge experience discipline exhausting feel possibility ineptitude inevitably blow something far beyond capability repairedsalvaged working hr week local restaurant would net around month br apartment utility included town working hour would allow enough food walk work see kid want ill drive doctor appointment make meal sew halloween costume kid play video game e make pineapple cream pie n work depressing time make go quicker act permanent distraction wont mental breakdown undeserved aftermathconsequences need therapyd road maybe would better got smeared semi least would grieve go instead tortured reality spousemother incapable loving causing pain accidentally consequently single parent spouse able get disability status sure therefore would longer stress horrible job weighing mind minus timespentwithher parent help kid wont need spend time talking edge trying pull muck function normal human level wont need feel like he parenting adult test dummy anymore worsen ptsd bit help understands doesnt take work love truly love back excuse distraction apology needed refusal better dragged wellbeing reduced quality length life spouse kid know love healthy good fail pay attention important detail defensive discovered dismissiveignorant negative consequence usually spouse kid truth toxic twisted warped egocentric manipulative consequence ignorance victimize others see wonder woman farce rotten inside one day rot going come spilling obv throwaway | self.depression |
713 | feel sick overcoming big event registered enrolled school college week year big thing jumped head wanting change lifeetc pushing back anxiety trying talk get done well biggest part going school registering class today schedule done im proud actually ithowever feel really sick head feel heavy feel nauseated want sleep feel like barely keep eye open ive anxiety hangover man one bad anyone relate | self.Anxiety |
714 | anybody feel sudden claustrophobia watching tv cleaning something sometimes feel really intense sudden need open door window house cant stand touched stand next anyone feel like house gotten time smaller somehow also become hypersensitive sound nearly every sound almost painful even sound adorable dog breathing last maybe minute feel fine doesnt sound bad husband feel like hate try even put arm around dog try head lap feel like go outside going vomit dont feel like happens im especially anxious know root problem anybody else feel | self.Anxiety |
715 | failure shame lack dream struggled chronic depression dysthymia anxiety avoidant personality disorder diagnosed well decade ago im mid forty feel pointless try get better anymore feel life already career failed ive lost little hope ever finding girlfriend feel guilty ashamed even dreamed thing failed achieve see therapist almost year learned toxic shame distorts thinking made progress feeling futility failure say never late life turn better thats empty word nothing life seems worth effort got everything wanted today would still feel bitter youth | self.depression |
716 | self esteem mania last please time self esteem general mood low wish good feeling get would last minus craziness ive rapid cycling last week one minute im one minute im | self.bipolar |
717 | im back getting gp check lump pubic area went gp wasnt embarrassing thought would nice couldnt feel lying doen stood pinched itlifted show straight away feeling said ah yeah thats sebaceous cyst said infected anything said might go away gave antibiotic case grows get painful made sure nothing concerning made clear think nothing bad let say feel pretty happy know cancer would know bu feeling yeah | self.Anxiety |
718 | beware betterhelp dont register need help hello wanted warn anyone thinking subscribing site online counseling betterhelpcombetterhelpcom supposedly offer counseling help whatever problem youre facing truth theyre waste time money ask bunch question match someone actually help problem dont least case never paired anyone user reported counselor didnt help either examplehttpswwwredditcomrdepressioncommentsqebbetterhelpdeniedme another onehttpswwwredditcomrdepressioncommentsrlciregisteredatbetterhelpcomtheyemailedme here full search topichttpswwwredditcomrdepressionsearchqbetterhelpamprestrictsron see multiple case people complained site youre looking help like better look elsewhere dont put hope site thought useful site would helped hope better folk | self.depression |
720 | worst feeling world feeling alone marriage ive done wife ive really messed thing marriage past two year wife warned spending much time phone wasnt paying attention didnt listen answer truly know loved know isnt single planet ever love care much ignoring wasnt listening sign giving late say doesnt want u separate want u work shes emotionally done trying shes trying two year get attention thats wanted attention would ignore one person love care world please someone explain cause cant understand im losing day day havent lost already life understand feeling want go away end feel like anymore whats life without one person completes never thought id feel like unless old dying sit home alone trying think life would go without nothing make sense wouldnt want alive anymore ive never regretted marrying ive never questioned love ive never stopped caring id anything act like make beg attention see trying im lost need someone explain ive tried psychiatrist new job insurance good till january st cant handle anymore please help tdlr would ignore person love care telling might happen didnt stop | self.SuicideWatch |
723 | feeling suicidal due guilt depression following daughter birth injury deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
724 | im week amp half hypomanic episode killing keep random hookup try gain control lose control even anxiety building wish stable relationship hypersexuality easier manage within stable relationship instead another hookup coming annoying feel empty frustrated anyone else going hypomanic episode | self.bipolar |
727 | two final monday spent today sat watching tv youtube browsing reddit im going go bed hope cram enough information tomorrow dont fail yay | self.depression |
728 | dosage move something else deleted | self.Anxiety |
729 | anxious alone annoyed christmas comment ive awful build christmas wasnt really looking forward got closer today felt becoming disconnected people tried closer friend relative fact cant even stay frequently contact anyone upset upset isolation get anxious people unwilling commit staying contact either initiating conversation returning message annoys annoys appear im worth one time yeah course cant tell anyone move place hope failed friendship trouble ive used many opportunity try make new friend ive exhausted mean try find new people common moving existing socalled friend take back ground ground isolated comfortable im depressed see state social life good want return way able isolated worry people thought go back remain limbo | self.depression |
730 | im dying somebody drag depression show still somebody care | self.depression |
731 | please someone talk cant take removed | self.SuicideWatch |
733 | life anymore finally went med must say there improvement rarely ever feel suicidal im le angry sleep still feel fucking empty inside try positive outlook always land back fooling hate deal people everyday even though feel lonely im always anxious ill say wrong thing hate casual talk mostly cant relate anyone thought everyone love grow old die forgotten nothing happened saddens hard work fighting life dealing bullshit everyday dealing people super rude everyday knowing nothing saddens big well fuck youre dead end really bother dont know dont know want life | self.depression |
734 | want call therapist anxiety trying complete task suffer social anxiety really making point fix far ive tried buspirone help general anxiety social propranolo take ive tried wellbutrin made anxiety worse really trying stay away antidepressant lot side effect although see doctor wednesday may ask trying antidepressant dont associated side effect anyway ive heard many success story cbt social anxiety next step also try trouble contactingfinding therapist month ago psychologytodaycom found might find helpful contacted yet heard nothing back drive find therapist kind faded away whatever reason really making effort reach want successful guy recommend find therapist specializes social anxietycbt insurance network bluecrossblueshield also would reach email phone ask inquiring therapy | self.Anxiety |
735 | try hard put back place deleted | self.depression |
736 | everyone else problem mine didnt realize going going affect others older half sibling went rough parenting cause father oldest mistreated abused nd oldest get attention father rd oldest spoiled fuck since like father like soni think thats saying go victim suffer problem went mom got dog hate much care dog hate time first got dog would snap finger beat dog dog going something didnt like ever dog happy see wanted attention would give got cat spoil cat im concerned kid treat animal better treat care nurture need | self.depression |
737 | ive already posted thing situation still absolute limit anyone help please read past post sub thing thats changed said processing case everyone else got approved told took least month even told hearing date took people year im year half thing killing point inability anyone platonically otherwise imagine desperate touch someone need skin skin contact need sex need feel cared get house meet anyone let alone intimate relationship someone even tried work thjs point would take know long able get place would still waiting waiting waiting waiting like ssi except would meltdown cant handle extra stress stepdads abuse daydreaming taking every sleeping pill free thats access kill im closer ever following | self.SuicideWatch |
739 | dont know friend im judged im pale skinny dont like sport im talkitive person people school bunch douche bag started cutting dont know whats next im allowed talk online phone secretly xbox dont even let leave porch im want die happiness life parent slap hard sometimes im skinny really hurt give oh barely touched crap want happiness | self.SuicideWatch |
740 | got job place unwanted kid technically rehabilitation center boarding school rich teen absurdly expensive materially nice course staying fun kid arent allowed talk half arent even allowed read book punishment minor transgression like turning light pm listening kid talk tell parent found excuse send like caught beer breath sent another state year parent attorney even hollywood would rather throw facility raise kid thrmselves unsurprisingly either substance abuse suicidality kid tell theyre felt nobody loved course therapist tell theyre crazy one bad one one behavioral problemseven though almost none violent almost violence turned inwards part extremely kind sensitive beingsthe type prone depression type personality trauma mold im glad got job get actually maybe make sort impact showing kid respect concern theyve starved entire life rough experienced similar childhood minus money see sadness eye understand story tell give flashback dont know handle | self.depression |
741 | looking informational resource deal bpd family looking subreddit online website informational resource provides advice family deal bipolar disorder family member | self.bipolar |
742 | socialize ok amount friend many close one tho wan na socialize people get talk people know life past fear anxiety problem exists know respond certain time start convo even continue one sometimes people say stuff respond ok amp woah like interest life know say respond discussed problem friend simply said keep wall people wan na interact tend push people away turn em simply word arrogant way dont know question way make conversation interesting part understand people feeling certain moment undergrad bugging lot | self.depression |
743 | strict parenting lead shitty child growing parent strict strict point lived fear didnt know parent actually showed affection kid didnt know parent actually bought kid toy didnt call spoiled brat time didnt know parent didnt throw heavy object child wanted shut didnt know child werent supposed sleep garage wasnt normal kid get kicked house nothing pajama middle winter fear parent fucked anything life grew seeing kid loving family happy home grew abuse regret alive im going hang soon final fuck parent stealing happiness taking away light eye ruining point dont even know anymore im done life everything know anything sabotaged parent anyways | self.SuicideWatch |
744 | im year old father one sure specifically want die want die im weak reason im alive make bullshit excuse live older get see world laughing here twist know certain level shit head always head friend dont say know theyre tired hearing one come visit one care feeling im whiny bitch clearly see post could anyone please fix end | self.SuicideWatch |
745 | betraying friend deception pain please help boy th grade international school hong kong close friend person since th grade recently incident happened large amount ignoring started happen small social group friend split right half one friend backing one friend backing idea happened suspect girl like seen quite large behavioral change month went month tried comprehend whats going school winter break cambodia school trip community service small thing said threw fit spanish teacher quite understanding saying seen thing like happen could hormonal month school ended stuck essentially school friend one grade relate please help | self.depression |
746 | tfw talk suicide get answered hotline number thats even one country line | self.SuicideWatch |
747 | ive lost one friend person chance date anxiety depression im much worse im honestly close cry bad thing never cry | self.depression |
748 | mention bright aspect depression would made stronger wiser kinder etc depression made calm kinder person hate admit | self.depression |
749 | pregabalin use anxiety u im currently prescribed mg ngabapentin time day control anxiety still break want suggest lyrica bioavailability actually feel medication working proper doc declared benzo treatment table main question pregabalin prescribed ever u label treatment anxiety like older friend gabapentin inb buspar dont get along | self.Anxiety |
750 | im hypomanic im super fit healthy lose weight good way im depressed eat way much junk food gain lot bad weight psychiatrist suggested naltrexone help anyone experience getting really bad gained pound six month depression bout embarrassing problem try use depression excuse know ultimately lifestyle choice wonder medication help give bit strength resistance | self.bipolar |
752 | put head noose couldnt follow deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
753 | accepting breakdown trying control got two new tattoo new year one done several year ago gon na get least one le week birthday havent decided dyed hair slightly different thinking dramatic color change hair dark brown currently slightly red bottom half thinking going blonde despite serious concern bleaching also thinking nose piercing concerned back mind want teacher least one tattoo visibly forearm convincing stigma isnt bad especially positive quote inappropriate breakdown started last year total repeat first attempt college got super depressed mixed episode failed horribly im financial aid pay huge balance plus extra semester due failing literally every class well incompletes stuck retail job hate chance getting job field figure finance due unimaginable gpa always fairly good student first time dropped went full crazy heavy drinking risky sex almost started taking pill friend intervention time around feel craving trying channel urge self destruction regular breakdown choice lol know fight ill spiral like last time need kind bigriskbigreward shit im least legitimately medicated time probably reason havent killed rid everything came close couple month ago without free service school cant afford psychiatrist school doc gave prescription month refill said clinic generally refill lamictal without prescription show youre idk suggestion way crazy without risking life color dye hair curly shoulder length complexion tanish | self.bipolar |
755 | best friend died two day ago day nd birthday week year father passed didnt get chance see since fall semester began thats pretty much longshort ive away school last month first ive returned home luckily spoke briefly past week dont know id hadnt im still absolute wreck ive never lost someone close never could imagined quite like majority reason ever came home school first place stopping house even making im loss word dont know go | self.depression |
756 | anyone tip getting work anxiety get physically ill want keep job make husband proud help appreciated | self.Anxiety |
758 | poly bipolar girlfriend person ive ive bounced love dont like dont understand dont quite understand sometimes circle sometimes triangle sometimes work together sometimes work ive told individually great individually great together sometimes great sometimes feel bad like sometimes drive wall theyre intimate maybe im insecure compare lot shes older teacher im youngest still dont direction life matter many time tell wont run still feel insignificant sometimes dont want one ruin happiness want keep trying kind bug people ask shes fiance instead wild passion see tje weekend dont guess im jealous dont know handle weve talked monster still come im sure handle around make want alone sometimes like run better one isnt bipolar dont feel like shes around need time poly complicated relationship ever also frustrating cant treated normally theyve talked worried triggering make feel worse like eventually one get tired im mood pushing people away dont want emotional around bottle handle weve together little year think point itd super unfair say im issue wouldnt want one break id feel like selfish jerk feel super distant lately start taking depakote earlier week havent told definitely kind mood today im scared break everything touch dont see therapist th im gon na word vomit anybody feel like mess want run away start even though love people life wish didnt know problem think im trying rock lately | self.bipolar |
759 | think time really end dead end job requires thinking useless college degree animation stupid friend romantic interest hate way look cant picture ever happy think ending constantly even upping dose med cant live misery longer feel like eternity even though im im stuck current life situation feel like way death want get graphic design late useless college degree instead drive make design portfolio like anyone would hire without degree anyway whats point | self.bipolar |
760 | try try try feel like nothing deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
761 | morning guy checking mom surgery hour really worried im rock well wish needed check post history much deeper story sure uinfinitewaters yet | self.SuicideWatch |
762 | sometimes want cry mom dont tell calm telling calm make depression anxiety worse set siren earlier today trying chill wanting hug even though told wanted space talking career path idea right im negative headspace help talk light hearted shit know going austria dream mine dont want go debt money bring every fucking minute asked money abroad last time needed help dont want hear sister going go grandmother austria go family reunion goal mine year dont even want go sister micromanages every single time im around sorry im incredibly frustrated want curl deal anyone | self.depression |
763 | feel lost taking lithium helped impulse lot feel sexual desire ever even think sex also feel like im vibrating sometimes really weird drink ton water kinda idea could im seeing doctor thursday feel like need tell isnt im really disappointed wanted work | self.bipolar |
765 | need advice bad news made thing worse deleted | self.bipolar |
766 | dont belong overwhelming get feeling one big mistake diagnosed dependent personality disorder literally mean always need feeling safety need someone mum big part life youth full anxiety losing took obsessive form basically stalked till got home work biggest fear became reality yr ago passed away cancer relationship girl yr always mum died well broke got much anxiety known people dependent personality disorder immediately replaced girl another girl like replaced mom girlfriend thought alone make sick give panic drive crazy tried going back girlfriend z breaking new girl l broke l panic attack immediately restoring told sorry tried back away z made panic broke l made panic restored second time im player respect everyone dragging people fear make lose shit even current situation im l cant get away z ex yr sad story z want l l want z dont want alone life killing wake everyday feeling cant keep anymore cant alone thought alone thought going supermarket without someone knowing kill whole disorder slowly killing inside cant escape destroy people dont want anymore psychatrist doesnt know dont know either im scared nobody ever get weird fear everyone leave | self.depression |
767 | want end life dont understand life boring empty predictable | self.SuicideWatch |
768 | anyone experience nurse practitioner hi recently referred family doctor local hospital outpatient service could see psychiatrist adjustchangeadd medication since think doesnt feel comfortable reason taking mg latuda still occasionally get really bad period depression suicidal thought morning phone appointment hospital screened lady said since wasnt crisis wasnt appropriate receive care hospital apparently outpatient service people currently crisis referred clinic run nurse practitioner deal medication question anyone experience nurse practitioner adjusting medication im scared since psychiatrist might something wrong itll lead downfall advice | self.bipolar |
769 | surviving holiday family hi guy ive never posted reddit really need advice bipolar diagnosed year reasonably well managed med overall im pretty good holiday fast approaching im surrounded biggest triggermy family mum also bipolar sister emotional regulatory disorder husband pretty cool calm collected sister mum clash go zero hundred real quick violent angry outburst self harming thrown good measure anyone tip keep healthy next week staying travelling overseas fear escape | self.bipolar |
770 | dropped back depression feel like travelled back time anyone else feel like time year ago went rough patch due depression one lowest point life slowly surely started get better rather numb eventually ok happy could function fine fast forward today suddenly dropped back depressed mindset though woke year long sleep like id going fugue state weird scary also familiar comfortable worst way feel awful life also feel real past year im suddenly remembering regret aspiration relationship pushed suppressed awful also feel like ive found missing part rambley dont know make sense wanted put | self.depression |
771 | find friend burned house spent month inpatient facility still live parent im even tho took home dont want therapy anymore feel cultivated victim complex made health mental physical worse think everyone highschool know girl lived next told everyone live backward area anyone care white middle class bullshit want move parent dont think im capable tell ill live ghetto ill get murdered raped got two new job making like hour minimum live want friend either feel like dont want around memake effort theyre asshole dont share similar value interest im also ashamed hobby wierd fetish one ambition literally become slash fiction writer kpop group would legit friend someone online im even afraid talk someone online theyll think im weird dont know talk people dont know proper etiquette online even lurk like year legit anyone want message rn ill friend im good listener need someone who open minded doesnt victim complex want get better | self.depression |
772 | didnt die back two week since last attempt still wish would ended thing harder everyone around nothing changedgotten better even though continue wish would died night dont think feel suicidal thats possible good enough life wasnt worthy death else even continue towards life | self.depression |
773 | anyone else lay awake wide eyed bed somewhere night total darkness layed bed like hour even trying fall asleep cant tell depressed bored didnt even scroll twitter reddit feed phone like usual cant even remember thinking | self.bipolar |
774 | find talking back second person sometimes usually bad thing worthless whatnot | self.depression |
775 | anxiety control im scared ive anxiety since long remember probably beginning year old period time intense week month sometimes dont even remember worried anything last month last two week filled anxiety day everyday im really sure triggering happen cant stop thinking thing make panic sometimes anything make unable move breathe cant remember sometimes also feel disassociation recently discovered actual thing dont feel real real fit anxiety cant even recognize mirror everything seems fake seems like ive turned completely different person dont know truly anyone ever anymore cant control anxiety whatever else along anymore im scared worry dont know whats wrong nothing happened feel way dad passed five year december th recently went breakup january ex five year dont know anything cant keep going life like went crisis center wednesday seeing psychiatrist therapist first time life cant get till january need help scared dont friend talk want feel normal | self.Anxiety |
777 | parent talk ask school graduate school application deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
778 | moving easy dont worry paying place ensuring ability afford go yeah sure ill get right | self.SuicideWatch |
779 | maniac episode get aggressiv time hey guy im year old female got diagnosed bit year ago weird sleeping habit big suprise somethings odd well since diagnosis started analysing episode month depression till mixed anxiety month hit depression im maniac month noticed maniac phase start happy joyable spent load money others im sweet nice sociable everyone talk love also love everythings great love love love somethings weird happens start putting people get easily annoyd start think im better others get fight easily get greedy money spend sleep le normal im weird kind fight mode everything piss im making fun others provocate everyone fun plus start needing lot sex make kind reckless start hurting feeling get want someone feeling dont make anyways weeell know cant relationship dont want cheat phase like would almost impossible guess never cheated befor always ended r point weird feel phase get aggressive maniac phase greeting | self.bipolar |
780 | cool appgamemovie calm anxiety send | self.Anxiety |
782 | ive noticed feeling towards life kind different deleted | self.SuicideWatch |
783 | death spiral trigger warning well im death spiral deeper ever time interestingly enough diagnosed couple year therapy everyone thought better moved home got toxic relationship started good diet working making buck thrifting selling online see advertisement dream job apply dream job get everything great start ramping maniastart masking buy k carloose touch reality lie everyone family friend celebrate success wow youre well making much new car good job falling apart work weird making weird demand unrealistic delusional grand thinkingthink im better job tell employer suck dont get time start promiscuous sex loose job lie friend family still manic buy ton ton shit apply credit card start drinking getting wasted taking drugsdepression hit course crash depressed fuck energy gone money gone family friend still think im employed well getting everyday leaving house like im going work sleep car day getting dark pm getting cold cold car almost money one know still bought storage unit store office stuff one know ive lost job car payment hit insurance hit buy shotgun put storage unit ammo write goodbye letter tell family big work trip coming give away stuff friend think im rich dont need thing anymore almost last dollar bar getting wasted going pas new k car money road trip make work trip seem real end moneyend line shotgun head im death spiral yes med fucked lost therapist month agoi dont energy fml | self.bipolar |
784 | medication question hey everyone dealing anxiety last two year first prescribed zoloft didnt work today went back doctor see whats next step would prescribed amitriptyline anxiety seems hit stomach hard dont eat day vomit almost everytime anxiety hit anyone tried amitriptyline actually help stomach issue thanks everyone | self.Anxiety |
785 | want girlfriend dont know sometimes feel girlfriend id happy cant love least someone could love despite ugly piece mess | self.depression |
786 | new year changed got depressed ever fast make anxious thinking feel like loser make wan na cry want change change best want believe wish better year everyonei wish everyone happy new year every time zone let hope nice | self.depression |
787 | surviving survive senior year high school without fucking killing friend suck girl suck academic suck everything make want die life get better | self.depression |
788 | everytime try something interrupted mistimed meeting selfstandard seems like everything fucking there great chance derailed im tired like today wanted stream game im new streaming want project minute intending hour worth hear rapping knock door apartment bug people ive forgotten roommate stupid dog start barking head shes one dog take good hour shutting pausing game midstream thought time get short worried making wait open door let presenting boxersshirt lovely meanwhile tend dog habit fixated people barking thembeing nosy theyre changing filter leave minute roomy dog kept barking barking shaking listens roommate course struggle even get listen trick treat get cage wouldnt stop even cage barked couple time stream ruined im shakenirritatedupset resume restart someone talking hasnt responded hour assume either passed without telling something else without courtesy telling im trying enjoy little freedom time work training start next week shit happens yet im discouraged thing story damn life | self.depression |
789 | posting vent bit feel like im worthless nobody care im gone sometime get urge take rope go final walk found mother cheating dad many year doesnt even try hide fact mean dad another country working as pay little brother living expense work dead end job barely make money sustain bad lifestyle im relacionship e yeae still dont know love affection shes ever given ask dont peace mind home anymore every thing lound want end sometimes daydream end see good tree say hey mabye mabye find gun thatll quick mabye strong medication find im memorable person im gone one remeber never stood never talent never special way something keeping still cant figure always point ive decided im doimg blue something take burden bit decide stay last night go walk rope everything decided stop beach sat watch listened stayed therw hour listening got went home mabye ill stick around bit mabye wont really cant decide | self.SuicideWatch |
790 | play victim head really ranty apologize need vent little bit need guidance well hang please myfitnesspal forum incident would call expressed experience lifestyle health related contextual response someone question people started responding questioning legitimacy health issue implying might making disagreed doctor claiming opinion right one instead others flat told lifestyle wrong instead stated opinion found rude saying didnt dick post deleted issued warning post quoted deleted post argument instigation left untouched moderator punished eye feel like attacked bullied bully allowed get away im starting question take defensive others take aggressive im sitting feeling like forum toxic wrongly punished others happened many time many matter online im wondering mind jaded way im trying victim genuinely dont think people anxiety problem run similar issue deal crazy | self.Anxiety |
791 | heart palpitation cant stop heart palpitation chest tightness even laying bed night try keep mind thing dont stress doesnt work everything stress anyway used turn exercisecardio managing anxiety even doesnt interest lately want lay around eat ugh | self.Anxiety |
792 | wish never born ive cry silently since got home almost week normalcy one bad day sudden want die wasnt even bad im overreacting cant shake feeling everyone hate ive researching easiest method die lol know go | self.depression |
793 | guy relationship depression deleted | self.depression |
794 | fuck fuck help fuck posted sub nothing oday took hiv test routine anxiety killing right id managed control today morining took mg clonazepam took mg clotiazepam im depressed im scared chased booze im pathetic im pathetic im pathetic edit clonazepam dont want take also really want get knocked fucked want end wan na take disappear im nothing felt good today morning probably feel good later dont pas fuck emotional instability wrong meeeeee im fucking tear cry screaming hitting wall lost control dont know happened fuck deprssion nfjnkldsm edit took mg clonazepam help ive taken mcuh know wont kill maybe dont know im fucking lost world | self.depression |
796 | surrounded million alone sourounded people everyday alone live austin addicted brain damaged please write taste music movie distraction like ill write back let distract maybe youll distract | self.depression |
797 | rapid cycle within single day im waitress restaurant morning table three lady worst nothing right sent back food yelled tip deal table like lot sent spiraling real quick panic attack felt really depressed went nonverbal basically talking coworker started feeling much better two hour later im place cleaning getting project done around restaurant ive dealt rapid cycling never quite like | self.bipolar |
798 | hate anxiety kick time sadness get lonely | self.Anxiety |
799 | im worst daughter could ever exist im lucky mother shes loving caring understanding tell everything still always find way fuck problem dog old pee everyday kitchen night like two year mom really tired cleaning every morning also regular job kid cleaning two house week today woke cry saying really tired went take mop wouldnt let took force think gesture made really break felt horrible though maybe rude saw upset fact clean dog mess tend get upset rude help cleaning something cant control notice im behaving feel horrible make feel selfish bad person want say sorry ive already fucked big time forgives dare hurt person love world selfish give everything like suffers every week make suicidal thought usually really happy person disappoint like want die disappear form life cant would destroy completely told life wouldnt meaning wasnt losing child worst could happen anyone dont know whats point writing needed let write somewhere | self.depression |
800 | ive got first therapy session ever tomorrow im pretty worried keep going thing head expect | self.Anxiety |
801 | minimise pain suicide family friend sorry really dark title hello im going commit suicide new year im problem life save aspergers related stuff starting uni december ive really decided end road ive lived life wanted live time close book speak typically stress everyone im generally pretty negative influence everything think ultimately best understand unfortunately suicide hurt family friend im looking way minimise plan writing nice suicide letter let know fault also want take life insurance cover give money pas also please dont encourage die ive planning year really nothing stop want would much prefer could provide tip minimise harm ill cause | self.depression |
802 | getting long id say year ive fairly depressed motivation want sleep feel good task hand getting point leaving work get extremely dark thought especially passed year ive felt angry really dont know whats wrong everything life seems well wonderful wife great job coworkers boss love chance move next couple year etc dont currently major problem crippling medical debt thanks appendix feeling associated two fairly traumatic event life one attempted suicide father nearly year ago used horribly first girlfriend think wasnt necessarily intentional looking back present seems may latter ex girlfriend family friend john well family uncle even though good friend father well long story short ex sort relationship im pretty sure brainwashed thinking normal lover john early time family seemed sort found shunned pretty much lockdown come picture awkward shy individual time thought beautiful happy funny girl year old thrilled beyond belief couple month start getting bit weird look back start using talk phone etc seemed much happier talked etc pretty much go point wed go walk night loved trusted shed go meet hug kiss love etc knew wrong fucked rose tinted glass broke like month later kind went deep end well shes dating year old shes course legal age like seems reaffirm tool get needed seems really fucked suck big time also like last year messaged saying se lucky loved missed telling family problem po baby daddy etc point deleted blocked social medium dad situation typical got shit debt girlfriend breaking something got drunk laid hood attempted shoot lurched drive blew half face survived missing eye pretty horrible sinus thatshit still tear hard got back drinking hardcore alcoholic quit start back incident around id pretty much drive car little gas money could gather canadian immigrant united state couldnt work due td visa thats whole situation stress ended pretty much living wife house time werent dating love girl etc started dating shortly moved big pile shit treated horribly pretty much heated excuse prett fucked back regret everyday ill never live pretty much start seeing dad part time say hi lunch hed give every week shinanigans wife family became family dad treated like one son took long time dad relationship get better healthy suck hate sound like im whining stuff vent getting stuff suppose hope everyone good day thank | self.depression |
803 | facing fear today decided face fear despite high functioning anxiety paranoia went outside watched surrounding wasnt bad ive always feeling like everyones eye make anxious watched people around turned werent even staring made really happy continue facing fear hopefully get rid awful illness | self.Anxiety |
804 | day friend college said ugh im failing epigenetics class deleted | self.bipolar |
805 | reached rock bottom time life found way still feel inside always part anyways ive always accepted depression still deep principle always saying everyone pitying go best one day one way another never believed saying either still hitting every floor bottom kept saying others around smile face spent month trapped room talking anyone job money eating three time week showering pile garbage room verge getting kicked house wishing meteor hit reason today got good job early big paycheck im still wondering died prank seems like play along reason today called mother first time year reason today old friend dis came talk smile reason today got good news reason today felt like day long nde still inside always way seems like one point thing move hope still feel vain nothing seems important still life always find way life go wanted share witnessed today call hope im saying everything get better day thing move way life want | self.depression |
806 | disassociating know involuntary coping mechanism developed hate nothing feel real terrifying help idk im dreaming real right making anxious gdi | self.Anxiety |
807 | everything fault problem couldve done better failed would think dont know way | self.depression |
808 | thought supposed photo mine feel like gifs right yall know feeling | self.bipolar |
809 | people keep raising hope leave disappointed reinforcing thought tell one care deleted | self.depression |
810 | subreddit gad cant find subreddit specifically generalized anxiety disorder | self.Anxiety |
811 | dont know happy feel like anymore deleted | self.depression |