Where the self resides

> *i am alone, so don't speak*
> *i find war, and i find peace*
> *i find no heat, no love in me*
>
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***where the self resides*** is the mixtape created for Blair Moore. It can be heard on 8tracks.

## Track listing

1. "The City Limits" - Umbrellas - *Umbrellas* (2005) - 3:22
2. "Bitter Boy" - Kate Rusby - *Awkward Annie* (2007) - 4:53
3. "Always Gold" - Radical Face - *The Family Tree: The Roots* (2011) - 5:55
4. "Little Lion Man" - Mumford & Sons - *Sigh No More* (2009) - 4:07
5. "Defeatist" - Eisley - *I'm Only Dreaming* (2017) - 3:31
6. "Dark Matter" - Andrew Bird - *Armchair Apocrypha* (2007) - 5:07
7. "Illusion" - VNV Nation - *Judgement* (2007) - 4:46
8. "Flesh and Bone" - Keaton Henson - *Dear* (2010) - 4:32

## Lyrics & Meta

```
[Verse 1]
If you see me at midnight
Walking the streets
You'll know it's me for I cannot sleep
I've pushed away the dreams
And spoiled the quiet
I'm propelled by fear
And nothing righteous

[Chorus 1]
So have you been to a place like this?
To see your breath as it paints against the sky
The fever is near
I wish you were here

[Verse 2]
I'm thinking ambitious
I've got this feeling that things will be alright
So go break a leg now
Been given the green light so go entertain them
They're waiting for you [x2]

[Chorus 2]
So have you been to a place like this?
To see your breath as it paints against the sky
Feeling so right when things went wrong
The fever is near
I wish you were here

[Chorus 3]
So have you been to a place like this?
To see your breath as it paints against the sky
Feeling so right when things went wrong
The fever is near
I wish you were here

```

```
There was a boy, a bitter boy
Who's golden heart I saw gleaming
I thought I'd win the heart within
But now I know that I was dreaming

[Chorus]
But I will rise, and I will sing
Until the day I can't conceal it
Because I hold the saddest song
And wish to God I cannot feel it
Then the boy, the bitter boy
He came to me for rest and healing
He reached in his chest, deep in his breast
Held out the heart for me still gleaming

[Chorus]
Then the boy, me and the boy
We walked for miles through stormy weather
Hand in hand, we roamed the land
And held the gleaming heart together

[Chorus]
Then the boy, the bitter boy
He came to take the gleaming treasure
He reached in my chest, deep in my breast
And took the gleaming heart forever

[Chorus]

```
 "Always Gold" - Radical Face

```
We were tight knit boys
Brothers in more than name
You would kill for me
And knew that I'd do the same
And it cut me sharp
Hearing you'd gone away

But everything goes away
Yeah everything goes away

But I'm going to be here until I'm nothing
But bones in the ground

And I was there, when you grew restless
Left in the dead of night
And I was there, when three months later
You were standing in the door all beat and tired
And I stepped aside

Everything goes away
Yeah everything goes away
But I'm gonna be here until I'm nothing
But bones in the ground
So quiet down

We were opposites at birth
I was steady as a hammer
No one worried cause they knew just where I'd be
And they said you were the crooked kind
And that you'd never have no worth
But you were always gold to me

And back when we were kids
We swore we knew the future
And our words would take us half way 'round the world
But I never left this town
And you never saw New York
And we ain't ever cross the sea

But I am fine with where I am now
This home is home, and all that I need
But for you, this place is shame
But you can blame me when there's no one left to blame

Oh I don't mind

**All my life**
I've never known where you've been
There were holes in you
The kind that I could not mend

And I heard you say
Right when you left that day
Does everything go away?
Yeah, everything goes away

But I'm going to be here 'til forever
So just call when you're around

```
 "Little Lion Man" - Mumford & Sons

```
[Verse 1]
Weep for yourself, my man
You'll never be what is in your heart
Weep Little Lion Man
You're not as brave as you were at the start
Rate yourself and rake yourself
Take all the courage you have left
And wasted on fixing all the problems
That you made in your own head

[Chorus]
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my

[Verse 2]
Tremble for yourself, my man
You know that you have seen this all before
Tremble Little Lion Man
You'll never settle any of your scores
Your grace is wasted in your face
Your boldness stands alone among the wreck
Now learn from your mother
Or else spend your days biting your own neck

[Chorus (Extended)]
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my dear?

Haa-a-a-a
Ha-a-a-a-a-a
Ha-a-a-a-a-a
Ha-a-a-a-a-a
Ha-a-a-a-a
Ha-a-a-a-a

[Chorus (Extended)]
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my dear?

```
 "Defeatist" - Eisley

```
[Verse 1]
I may have faltered in my life
But not with you, I couldn't make this up
I've had trouble disengaging my heart
But I'll bite the grenade pin out

[Chorus]
You know I want you, you know I will fight
Down in the trenches, holding your hand tight
I will not make it out without with you
I'll bite the bullet, I'll fall right through you

[Verse 2]
Sweet, sweet baby of mine
You will be the one I call on for all time
Your weird mind, your bright eyes
I've wasted so much time
On all the things that don't turn me on
So let's fight on

[Chorus]
You know I want you, you know I will fight
Down in the trenches, holding your hand tight
I will not make it out without with you
I'll bite the bullet, I'll fall right through you

[Instrumental]

[Outro]
And as the dust falls down, I usually give up so easily
I let my head hang down before I even see
A truth that's plain as day staring back at me
I'm a defeatist but I don't have to be
I usually give up so easily
I let my head hang down before I even see
A truth that's plain as day staring back at me
I'm a defeatist but I don't have to be

```
 "Dark Matter" - Andrew Bird

```
[Verse 1]
When I was just a little boy
I threw away all of my action toys
While I became obsessed with Operation

[Verse 2]
With hearts and minds and certain glands
You gotta learn to keep a steady hand
And thus began my morbid fascination

[Bridge]
Tore the spines from out of all of these self-help books
Made myself a gun that not only shoots but looks so real
Yeah, it shoots through steel with rays of darkmatter
Rays of darkmatter

[Verse 3]
Do you wonder where the self resides
Is it in your head or between your sides
And who'll would be the one who will decide
Its true location

[Verse 4]
And does the thought about this red and black
Thought of tongues that taste you back
Fill you with the nausea of elation

[Bridge]
Noose is loosed around our necks made of DNA
And every day it's growing tighter, no matter what they do or say
And you can shoot right through with rays of darkmatter
Just before they kick out, they kick out the ladder
With rays of darkmatter, rays of darkmatter
Like something catching fire

[Verse 3]

```
 "Illusion" - VNV Nation

```
​​​​​​​I know it's hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don't want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you're human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don't cry now

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate;
For all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion, trying to change you

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That's not what I believe, and it doesn't matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I'm still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, oh please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, oh please don't leave here
I don't want you to change;
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, oh please don't leave here
I don't want you to change;
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you

```
 "Flesh and Bone" - Keaton Henson

```
​​​​​​​And I am alone, so don't speak
I find war, and I find peace
I find no heat, no love in me
And I am low and unwell
This is love, this is hell
This sweet plague that follows me

And my body's weak
Feel my heart giving up on me
I'm worried it might just be
And my body's weak
Feel my lungs giving up on me
I'm worried it might just be
Something my soul needs
Something my soul needs

And I see war on the screen
And it is cruel and unclean
But I still worry more about you
And I am rude and unkind
Have no thought, and have no time
Have no eyes, so no point of view

And my body's weak
I feel my heart giving up on me
I'm worried it might just be
My body's weak
Feel my lungs giving up on me
I'm worried it might just be
Something my soul needs
Something my soul needs
Something my soul needs

And I am more than this frame
I feel hurt and I feel shame
I just wish you would feel the same
And I am more than these bones
I feel love, I feel alone
I just wish you would come home

My body's weak
I feel my heart giving up on me
I'm worried it might just be
My body's weak
Feel my lungs giving up on me
I'm worried it might just be
Something my soul needs
Something my soul needs
Something my soul needs

Is you, lying next to me
And it's you, lying next to me

```