Ayana Wilder

Keira Knightley as Ayana Wilder

> "... I feel like I'm on a massive high, and I just walk around in the middle of the night with no idea where I am, despite the fact that I've lived here a while. Everything is unfamiliar and very far away from me.. it's like I'm dreaming everything, and my hands will go through anything I touch."
>
> - Ayana opening up to Milla

Ayana Wilder, sometimes known as the Devil, is an Italian American Year 13 student at Camshire Institute, having joined the school in Chapter 4: Ink Blot Stains. She is currently dating Milla Nang Dearborn, though is polyamorous and open to more relationships. She is most known for flirting with members of the chatroom and for making Rahim publicly apologise to her after publicly sharing screenshots of him lying to her.

**Note: this page contains neglect, sibling abuse, dissociation and stalking, as well as mentions of an eating disorder.**

> "Yes, it's in the name, darling. Undeniably wilder than you."
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> - Ayana to Sahin

## Biography

### Early Life

Ayana was the youngest of several older siblings: Ayana, Alden, Nolan, Milo, Zane, Aleia, Grace and Colson. Her mother worked as a cardiologist, and her father was a software engineering manager. Her parents never seemed to be home, unable to care for their children, and so responsibility fell to the older siblings. Her older siblings abused this responsibility, picking on Ayana due to her academic difficulties, and abusing her physically, verbally and mentally. Colson was the nicest to her, and the little Ayana would cling to this. He left home when she was eight years old, and she has since developed abandonment problems.

Ayana has struggled with academic subjects from a young age, particularly maths. She's never been able to grasp it, and was diagnosed with dyscalculia at the age of nine. Her middle school quickly gave up with up, telling her to simply try harder. The little Ayana, who'd been trying her best, got very frustrated, and at the age of 13, took Milo's golf club and smashed the windows of Grace's car. Milo got the blame, pleasing Ayana.

She eventually moved to a more supportive school, where her grades went up, and whilst maths remained her poorest subject, she managed to pass maths.

### The Birth of the Devil

Ayana befriended Connie Collins, a fellow student who suffered from cystic fibrosis. Ayana loved her down to earth view, and would playfully tease her for hours on end. It was around this time that Ayana picked up on a lot of the gossip going on, and befriended Maria McMills- a quiet, yet intimidating student. Ayana and Connie were close, with Ayana considering Connie her best friend. Her dissociative symptoms became more obvious during this time, and she found that not a lot would ground her- however, gossip and drama seemed to be hooks back to reality for her.

Ayana began to listen out for gossip and drama, and find evidence supporting the worst bits. She became well known for blackmailing bullies and students who would harm others, and had the ability to spread rumours quickly. Dae-Hyun and Evan, who Ayana had not met yet, coined the nickname "the Devil" for her. Unknown to Ayana, Connie was dating Dae-Hyun- Ayana was aware she was dating someone, but Connie never gave a name, so Ayana called him Cameron.

Ayana's dissociation got worse, leading to her finding herself feeling lost in her own home, and dissociative states whereby she wandered aimlessly, looking for a grounding point. She met Dae-Hyun and Evan in one of these states after she walked into a road and Evan pulled her back. The four grew a strong friendship, and Ayana took Connie to their old school's prom.

### Connie's Death

Connie developed pneumonia, and her body couldn't recover. Over the course of five months, Ayana watched her friend slowly die, forcing Ayana to confront her own mortality. The confrontation worsened Ayana's dissociation as a form of self protection, and resulted in multiple breakdowns. Evan took care of both her and Dae-Hyun until they were steady and able to stand on their own again.

Ayana continued her work as the Devil, eventually agreeing to meet up with her friend, Caspian, who attended Camshire Institute. Ayana moved to Camshire Institute, allowed in due to her high grades in history, geography and business.

### Ink Blot Stains

Upon joining the chatroom, Ayana demanded to know the location of Caspian, which greatly amused Virgil, who had also recently joined. Milla seemed enamoured by Ayana's appearance, which Ayana toyed with for a while, beginning to flirt with everyone.

Her relationship with Virgil briefly turned sexual.

When Evan joined, he and Ayana bicker, playfully making jabs at each other- with Ayana calling him a parasite and Evan calling her a gnome. Others seem concerned, whilst Evan confirms that they're friends.

Two students, Rahim and Isa, join the chatroom. Ayana begins to flirt with them, and Isa wants to meet her. Ayana agrees, only for Isa to stand her up. Ayana takes to the chatroom to complain, and Rahim states that he told Isa to stand her up. Meanwhile, Isa texts Ayana to tell her that he stood her up out of fear, and calling her a crazy witch. Enjoying the rush, Ayana sends screenshots of Isa's message to the chatroom, demanding to know who is right. Isa calls her lonely and attention seeking, hurting Ayana's feelings, and so she forces both Rahim and Isa to apologise publicly.

Dae-Hyun joins the chatroom, seeming to easily be able to calm Ayana down. Dae-Hyun jokes with Evelyn that he's known them "too long-" about three years. Ayana wakes up, claiming Dae-Hyun is "talking bad" about her.

Ayana attends the Spring Formal with Milla.

### Broken Bells

Virgil and Caspian leave Camshire, throwing Ayana off. She keeps her instability to herself. This worsens her dissociation, leading to her constantly watching the chatroom in hopes of drama or some sort of hook back to reality, as both Virgil and Caspian had been grounding points for her.

Whenever Rahim tries to make friends, Ayana brings the incident up, using it as her hook back to reality- she is conscious of the fact that Rahim did not properly apologise, and is continuing to lie for Isa, who has also left the school.

Sahin joins the chatroom, appearing to already know Rahim, much to Ayana's annoyance. Melina, Imogen and Ayana jump in, calling Sahin a pick-me girl, before Ayana drifts into a heavy dissociative state, appearing lost. Dae-Hyun steps in to go find her.

### Falling, Flaming Hearts

Ayana continues to publicly shame Rahim for lying, before convincing him to tell the truth. She forgives him, though Dae-Hyun suspects she's simply wrapped Rahim around her little finger.

Evan suggests that Ayana gets tested for dyslexia. She shuts this down quickly.

### Haunted Hearts

Ayana watches as Milla talks about wanting a hickey. She teases him, making an offer to "arrange something," and the conversation continues in DMs- the result is Ayana opening up to Milla. The two begin dating, though Milla wants to take her on dates in order to "court" and "win" her over. Ayana accepts, amused by this.

Amadeus and Milla discuss diets, and Ayana jumps into the conversation, arguing against diet culture, as she believes it plants the seed for eating disorders.

Ayana argues with a student who upsets Wesley. After watching a long argument, someone asked for evidence that Sophia was a mean person- Ayana quickly steps in, providing evidence, and beginning to "play the Devil," as Evan says. When she realises the student is much too stubborn, even with evidence, she advises the rest of the chatroom doesn't talk to him.

Ayana continues to watch the chatroom, calling out Issac for being rude about Hades' name. When Sophia tries to befriend Revna, Ayana provides evidence that Sophia is a mean person.

In the middle of an argument, Ayana drifts into a dissociative state, trying to reach out for help, though is ignored by the chatroom.

When Sahin tries to throw a party for Dorian, Ayana realises Dorian doesn't want to go but feels unable to say, so she steps in to say that a "little birdie" told her that Dorian visits Essie nightly and has far too many medical appointments. It's unclear how Ayana knew Dorian was visiting Essie or whether her claims were true, but Dorian seems thankful nonetheless.

Ayana realises she's being stalked.

When she learns Killian is in the hospital, she travels to visit him. Ayana then has a breakdown in her dorm, as Evan's graduation is coming up, and injures her hands with glass after smashing her mirror. Evan tries to help her in the chatroom, only for Ayana to lash out at him, stating she's "genuinely angry" with him. Evan backs off, knowing why.

## Personality

Ayana's personality seems to change drastically depending on who you are to her.

To most, she appears confident, flirtatious and often cunning and vengeful. Whether she likes it or not, Ayana will do anything for some form of positive attention as a result of the neglect she's experienced. She's very protective over those she cares about- notably Milla, Evan, Dae-Hyun and Kip. When it comes down to it, Ayana is an excellent secret keeper. Ayana seems to have all the details on gossip and drama, almost always watching the chatroom for anything going on. She has a strong sense of justice, and is kind to those she feels deserve it. Ayana often has a teasing, playful attitude towards others.

When she becomes closer to someone, Ayana's personality seems to grow calmer, and could be considered depressing. She feels disconnected to others, deeply concerned about being annoying or a burden to others. When possible, Ayana keeps her issues to herself. Most of the time, Ayana feels guilty for the things she's done. She has a deep seated fear of abandonment, and will do whatever she can to avoid it.

Ayana suffers from depersonalisation/derealisation disorder, dyscalculia, dyslexia, and unknown to her, suffers from anorexia nervosa and PTSD.

## Relationships

### Milla Nang Dearborn

Ayana's current boyfriend. Ayana feels attached to Milla, and is terrified that he's going to abandon her due to the periods of silence in their communication. She loves him genuinely.

### Evan Crossman

Ayana's best friend. They have a much healthier relationship than most would think, with Evan being protective over Ayana. At the moment, Ayana is deeply upset with Evan, as his graduation is coming up, and she believes he's leaving her. Ayana views him as a brother figure,

### Zhi Dae-Hyun

Ayana's best friend. He seemed to be the one that will calm Ayana down quickly and take care of her when she seems off. Ayana views him as a brother figure.

### Rahim Malek

Interestingly, Ayana views him as a friend now that he's apologised properly.

## Quotes

* "I don't know where I am. Everything feels out of place, and none of you are answering so I'm pretty sure I've made you all up and you're just a part of my imagination. You're not real." - Ayana talking to the chatroom in Haunted Hearts.
* "Are you trying to sell me out, Ayana?" "Yes, please get out of my life." - Ayana, stating Evan is single.
* "Most diets paint certain foods to be 'bad,' which then plants the seed for eating disorders. If you're completely cutting foods out of your diet- with the exclusion of health conditions- for fear of weight gain, then that's anorexia or a restrictive eating disorder by DEFINITION. Diet culture is bullshit." - Ayana ranting about diet culture.
* "You're really bad at this, جميلتي." - Ayana to Rahim after he tries lying.
* "To be fair. I would also be upset if I spent like $60 on a set of nails and they broke." - Ayana calling Sahin a pick-me.
* "Woman up and go do something illegal like property destruction, blackmail or assault." - Ayana to Sahin.
* "Wilder for a reason." "Are you wilder than me?" "Undeniably." - Ayana to Sahin.
* "Wow, not happy to see me?" "Not if you're shit talking me." - Ayana to Dae-Hyun.
* "I very much would like to avoid the wrath of Ayana Wilder." - Dae-Hyun about Ayana.
* "Ayana Wilder. If you see anyone call me the Devil, it's false information." - Ayana to new students.