Journal of Zaiyen Xavier

This is a journal in the view of a character named Zaiyen Xavier

## 8:35 AM, 14/8/2029

Hello. I'm 15-year-old Zaiyen Xavier. Before you judge me based on my name, I live on some random planet in some random universe. Yup. My mom calls me down. ***"ZAIY! TIME TO GO TO SCHOOL!!"*** Ugh, I HATE school! My bullies are somewhat physical about their bullying. Ask my friend, Laylen Davis. She's... Not as fortunate as I am. Her mom is.... Not nice and her dad is dead. Yeah. She is considered a working poor in the social class, whereas I'm in the working class. WELP, time to head to school. BRB.

## 9:30 AM, 14/8/2029

Hello again! So yeah, I'm at school. In class. Without my teacher's knowledge that I'm not even listening to her. GOOD TIMES. Hmm, I wonder when Mrs. Jayin will find out.

"XAVIER! PAY ATTENTION!"

**"My name is Zaiyen- Or Zaiy-"**

"I DON'T CARE, XAVIER."

Geez, that woman is annoying. Wait, did I seriously write that?? WELP.

"STOP WRITING, XAVIER!!!"

I sigh loudly and put it away. *Was that woman raised under the mayor?? GEEZ!*

## 10:10 AM, 14/8/2029

YES, FINALLY, IT'S ELA! I CAN WRITE IN MY JOURNAL! I write more. Now to talk about my ELA teacher. She's VERY nice, and her paint color is yellow, reflecting her personality. Her name is Ellis Manger or Ms. Ellis. She's my favorite teacher.

**"Hi, Ms. Ellis! How are you doing?"**

"I'm great, honey! You?"

**"Also great! I've been writing in the journal you gave me!"**

"Oh, really? That's awesome!"

**"Yep!"**

Laylen drives in, looking sad. **"Hey, Ms. Ellis."**

**"Oh, hey Laylen."**

"Hey honey... What's wrong, baby?"

**"My mom... She was REALLY mean at dinner yesterday."**

**"Oh... I'm sorry to hear that.."**

"That's awful, baby!"

A bully approaches Laylen. "Hey, ugly!"

**"DON'T CALL MY FRIEND UGLY!"**

"Hey Jeren... No calling students ugly."

She starts teaching. Well, time to end this entry.

## 11:20 AM, 14/8/2029

Hey again. I'm at Math now. Mr. Garen is my teacher in this class. He's like a less-rude and inconsiderate light blue version of Mrs. Jayin, who's my Science teacher.

**"Umm, hey, Mr. Garen."**

***"Hey, sit down."***

**"But I wanna talk before the bell.."**

***No, sit down, Zaiy."*** (He mispronounced it, to my mild annoyance)

**"Fine..."**

He notices my notebook.

***"Put that thing away, NOW!"***

**"But-"**

"***IT'S MATH, NOT ELA OR HOME!!"***

I sigh and put the notebook under the table. *Ugh, what is up with my teachers?* I smirk and draw a monsterfied version of Mr. Garen. I've drawn Mrs. Jayin as a monster too. Then, Mr. Garen comes over and sees me writing.

## 1:05 PM, 14/8/2029

Ugh, you know what Garen did!? He took my notebook 'til the end of the school day! He says to me, ***"I saw your drawing. Next time I'll take it for the entire day."***

I sigh and leave the school. **"Hey, Mom."**

***"Hey, honey. How did your day go?"***

**"Meh... My Math teacher took my notebook!"**

***"What did you do?"***

**"Nothing much... Wrote and drew stuff."**

***"WHAT did you write and draw?"***

I flip to the section where I was in Math and show her.

***"REALLY, honey??"***

My sister, Tonia, comes in and sees my monster of the species called 'Mr. Garens'. *"YOU'RE IN TROUBLE, YOU'RE IN TROUBLE."*

**"Shut up."**

*"...You're in trouble, you're in trouble!"*

***"Quit it, honey."***

*"HE'S IN TROUBLE, HE'S IN TROUBLE!!!"*

I hit her to shut her up.

*"WAAAHH!!!"*

**"YOU'RE NOT EASILY HURT!!!"** Annoyed, I go up-ramp and decide to take a nap.

## 2:30 PM, 14/8/2029

Awake now! Hopefully Tonia stopped. Then, I approach the ramp. I hear Tonia actually crying, not faking it. *What?* I catch a few words, but it's all I need to know to know something happened at school.

"*...School... hurt... bully..."*

***"Oh, honey!"***

**"Umm,"** I go down-ramp, **"What happened, Ton?"**

She glares at me with angry and tearful brown eyes. *"Weren't you at the ramp?"*

**"I only caught a few words."**

*"I was smashed against the lockers at school... By a bully."*

**"That's... not good."**

*"YA THINK!?"*

**"Umm... Are you okay?"**

*"Better than I was,"* She says, *"Why?"*

I hug her. **"Sorry, I was mean to you, Ton..."**

*"It was my fault..."*

I'm gonna draw a picture for Ton, BRB.

## 3:05 PM, 14/8/2029

Done! Aww, Tonia drew a heart picture! How cute! I drive to Tonia and hand her the picture, with a picture of our family, including my baby brother and father. There's a heart in-between each of us. I added a design to each of our drawing selves. Mine is a vine on my green coat of paint with green dots in my brown eyes. My baby brother is light blue with eyes to match. Tonia draws a butterfly on her mostly-purple with light-blue character.

*"Thanks, Zaiy..."*

**"No problem, sis!"**

*"Do you like my picture?"*

I nod and say, **"I love it!"**

"*Yay!"*

Dad comes in, looking grumpy.

**"Hey, Dad! Wanna see my drawing?"**

*"Ugh, sure."*

I show him the picture, his blue eyes glancing at it. *"Nice, now go away."*

**"Do you- do you like it?"**

*"I SAID YES, NOW SKIDADDLE."*

I look down sadly, knowing his answer was half-fake. I draw a small picture of my dad when he was actually HAPPY at 26.

(Oh, and I realized how tacky my drawing self's eye color sounds. Believe me, it's not as bad as it sounds)- 1:06, 16/8/2029

## 4:05 PM, 14/8/2029

I hear my mom call us down for dinner. For 45 minutes, I've been on Fandom chatting with random people inside my world and out. It's also some way to communicate with people outside of my universe. Their world is.... Interesting, to say the least. Some mentioned concepts I would never get and a human girl told me not to write some of those concepts. EVER. So I don't to avoid getting in trouble with Fandom. I also do roleplays, which is often shortened to RPs. They call the characters OCs. Most of those RPs are... Well, chaotic.

"ZAIY! GET DOWN HERE!"

Uhh, I'll talk about Fandom later. BRB.

## 5:30 PM, 14/8/2029

I'M BAAACK!! So yeah, we had pizza. Rare occurance in our home, as the nearest pizza place is a hour away. FuN. Also, about my chat about Fandom. People were talking about something called the chat or the talk? I dunno. They capitalized it. When I asked what that was, they typed, "You don't know what that is? Well then..."

I replied, "Noo.... What is that?"

They replied, "Never you worry your innocent little head about that..."

I went, "What head?"

They left.

So yeah. I'm bored. What do I write about next? Gosh, this entry went from weird to weirder.

I'll talk about my room! It's very, VERY blue. I'll end this random page called my journal entry now. BAII!!! Another thing Fandom people say.

## 6:00 PM, 14/8/2029

I'm bored. Yeah. I decide to draw a car that looks like me with nature powers. It's kinda bad, but I don't care. Why did I write this page? Imma out.

(Ugh I went back to the older journal pages a month later. This is embarrassing!)- 16/9/2029

## 7:30 PM, 14/8/2029

I'm so tired! And bored. I *want* to go to sleep, but my body won't let me. UGH. Oh well, might as well draw a character. I draw a elemental truck, name him Waver, and manage to write up a whole bio. This is what it says.

*Waver Aaron's age is 23 and he's kind, laid-back, sweet, and impulsive. His parents are named Beach and Eric Aaron. Eric died in a car accident, leaving Waver and his large family sad. His younger sister, Seashell, and younger brother, Fin, were eight and 10 at the time. Beach protected her children. Aaron was 15 at the time. Aaron, today, does have flashbacks sometimes but less than he did at 15-17.*

I'm done now. Kinda sad backstory, but whateves. I'm tired. Oh well, it's what I could think of. Night.

## 4:00 AM, 14/9/2029

Yes, I know it's early. I CANNOT go to sleep! Usually I wake up at 12:00 AM (PM to us- Sisi) or 2:40 PM on weekends. I don't know, I guess I'm worried about my sis. Then, I hear her scream. Mom and Dad are deep sleepers (As with me) so they don't hear her. I speed over to her room. She must've had a nightmare, 'cause she's still asleep but crying. I gently shake her and turn on my headlights to let her know it's me. She wakes up, looking alarmed for a sec, but relaxes when she sees it's me. I lean against the bed. "Did you have a nightmare, sis?" She nods somberly.

"What was it?"

"Ya know the bully I was talking about earlier?"

*Oh no...* "Yes..."

"Well, in my nightmare, he murdered you guys. And me," She whimpers. I gasp and hug her.

I look at Toniya and whisper, "I'm gonna head to bed now, sis."

She nods and waves. "Good night, Zaiy."

## 8:00 AM, 14/9/2029

"ZAIY! WAKE UP!" Mom is standing idle in the doorway. I yawn and slowly wake up. "Mom... I didn't get much sleep!"

"TOO BAD! GO TO SCHOOL!"

I think, *She's just as tired as I am... She's only mean when grumpy-*

 Then, Dad drives in. "ZAIYEN IF YOU DON'T LEAVE THIS INSTANT I'M TAKING YOUR LUNCH MONEY AWAY."

Even Mom is shocked by his words. I tear up. Dad continues to yell.

"GO SO I CAN'T SEE YOUR UGLY FRONT ANYMORE!"

Toniya hears the yelling and tearfully yells, "Father! Stop!"

He turns angrily to her and hits her! Mom gasps sharply and pulls him away. Toniya cries, not out of pain, but heartbreak. Mom tearfully whispers, " Kids, go. For your own safety." I help Toniya up and push her gently ahead of me.

"I'm scared," whispers Toniya. It strikes me that she's looking to *me* for help as her older brother. I get worried for Mom.

Toniya whispers, "Do you think that Mom is OK?"

"Maybe... But I'm not sure..." We continue in silence.

## 8:40 AM, 14/9/2029

We go our separate ways, both of us sad. My Math teacher yells at me, saying, "WHY ARE YOU LATE!?"

"I didn't get much sleep, sir..."

"GET. TO. CLASS."

I sadly drive to Gym. *Why does everyone yell at me??*

## 11:30 AM, 14/9/2029

Hi. Sorry I didn't update for so long. I was sad and wasn't feeling up to it. Right now, I'm in Library. Mrs. Chandler is nice, luckily. I can't take any more mean people today. I'm reading an adventure book called Prowler and it's about a teenage male human escaping some tiger. Here's an excerpt and where I am at now.

*Fern was running through the woods when a black panther hopped out at him. He screamed and ran faster. The tiger trapped him and Fern maced him and ran further. He hit a small village filled with African peoples. The people welcomed him in, the 17-year-old being taken in by a young family. They viewed him as a worker but was out of place with his tanned white skin. Two days later, the village was attacked. When Fern woke up, he was sickened by the stench of death. He was in more for a shock when he went outside. Seven Africans have been killed and there were five more wounded. Fern, horrified, treated the wounded and buried the dead. He quickly realized one of the large animals in alliance with the tiger or the tiger himself was responsible for the bloodshed.*

Yeah... It's a... Interesting book. I'm gonna leave now. Bye.

P.S. I'll ask Fandom what Africans are. I'm hoping they'll know.

## 14/11/29

Yes, I know I haven't updated since Monday. My family and I are in a bad mood for the week. I'm hoping it'll blow over soon. Also, I DID get an answer from the Fandomers. They said Africans are a group of people on Earth, which is where the majority of Fandom lives. I had to explain why I didn't know what Africans were and why I asked. I gave them the excerpt and most of them reacted in horror. Two users said they were FROM Africa. Whoopsies. Of course, I asked a million questions. Most answers were "Why?? or "...".

Zaiy, out.

## 14/12/29

Ugh, I can't think of anything to write. I'll talk about my friend. She's getting better. She said social services gave her better parents. Yay! So today I was doing an RP literally called 'Chaotic Mess'. Basically, there was a whole bunch of violence and death involved and my OC ended up getting blasted to death : (. Of course, I revived him because 80% of the characters get revived. My Fandom friends' OCs also got blasted to death. Most got revived. EvergreenSandwing's (Just some random person I made up- Sisi) OC, Evergreen, was replaced by some girl named Katniss. It was supposed to be a reference, but I didn't get it. I asked what it was referencing. This is was Evergreen's response: "You don't know??"

Me: "No... What is it?"

Evergreen: "The Hunger Games"

Me: "Still confused."

Evergreen: "\*Sighs\* I tried.

Me: "..."

Yeah... I had an interesting conversation.

## 12:50 AM, 14/14/29

Hello. I'm afraid the Incident has taken a toll on Toniya's mental health. Dad's been treating her like garbage since then and now Ton's not doing well on her school work and her energy levels are going down like trees in a wildfire. She used to get Bs and now she has Ds. Even her teacher is worried now. Mom is thinking of taking her to a psychologist and doing something about Dad's behavior towards her. She's tried before but it often ends in failure. Ton's only 10 years old! Why is Dad doing this to her!? Ton cries out, "Mom!"

Me and Mom rush to her. Dad is yelling things at her, things like, "GET YOUR GRADE BACK UP OR I'LL TAKE AWAY YOUR STUPID GAME!"

The game is the only thing keeping her happy, even if for a little bit! I can't let him do this! "DAD, THE ONLY REASON SHE'S FAILING IS BECAUSE OF *YOUR* ABUSE TO HER!!"

He turns angrily to me. "Shut your trap, boy. NO, it's because *she's* a failure!"

Mom watches heartbrokenly as Ton speeds away heartbrokenly. Dad smirks and I narrow my eyes. "If you keep this up, I'm telling the police."

## 1:30 AM, 14/18/29

I head down-ramp. Dad had hit me really hard and Toniya was returned to the house by a police officer. She was scared-looking and Dad had been arrested for verbal and physical abuse, Mom said. I'll be completely honest, I'm glad Dad was arrested. He was causing nearly-severe mental damage to Toniya. My innocent 10-year-old sister. Which, by the way, she was taken to the psychologist. Because of the verbal abuse done to her, she will have long-lasting or even *permanent* mental damage. I sigh sadly. *My 10-year-old sister did not deserve this...* "Mom..." I hear her murmur. She's dreaming I think. I'll update this when school comes along. BRB.

## 8: 45 AM, 14/18/29

I'm in Math right now. My teacher is grumpier than usual, which sucks. He yells at me to put it away. I sadly draw a picture of our used-to-be-happy family and then put it away.

PS- I'm sorry, I have to keep this short.

## 2:30 PM, 14/18/29

Hey. I'm at home now. Update on Laylen. Her new family is really good and not abusive unlike her mom and my father. To think that Laylen would have a better family life than me... Is both happy and heartbreaking at the same time. Happy for her, heartbreaking for me. I go into the living room. Mom is crying while looking at a photo of her, Dad, and me when I was Ryan's age. Dad was smiling. And actually loved me then. I look at the picture and also cry. "Why was Dad so happy then and so cruel now?" I ask Mom tearfully. I hold baby Ryan as he cries. "Dada? Where Dada?" It just deepens the heartbroken hole where Dad used to be in my heart. I tearfully say, my words blurred by tears, "I don't know, where IS he??" Mom goes up-ramp, looking sad and depressed.

## 3:20 PM, 14/18/29

I knock on her door and enter. "Mom, you okay?" She's tearfully looking at another picture. The caption is 'Happy Together Forever'. It's a picture of Dad, Mom, me, and baby Toniya. Angry sobs wrench from her grille. "This picture is a lie!" She throws it to the ground. "Your dad doesn't care anymore!" I nod sadly. Then, I hear a social worker talking to Ton. Me and Mom speed down. "Ton! What's going on!?"

She turns to me, tears in her eyes. "He wants to take us away from this house and put us in a house with a nice male and female..." The baby cries nearby. I tear up as well.

"But Mom's a great parent and Dad's in prison! We're fine!"

The social worker turns to me, something flashing in his.. strange... golden eyes. "Do you want to be supported by a MALE figure as well?"

I laugh sourly. "Well, my dad was cruel so moms are better."

I watch in shock as his eyes slowly turn red, Ton getting scared and yelling in terror, "Mom!" When Mom looks at the worker, his eyes are starting to turn green. Holding back terror, I growl, "Who ARE you?" Ton shivers as she hugs Mom, slowly glancing at the mysterious car's eyes. "Mommy.... They're gray now... I'm scared!"

Mom's eyes widen as they change to silver. "OK, sir, my children are clearly terrified, so can you please go?" The baby approaches. The guy's eyes are bronze now. Ryan cries, terrified of him.

1. Gold
2. Red
3. Green
4. Gray
5. Silver
6. Bronze
7. WHAT'S NEXT!?

The worker growls, "OK, I'll go." Soon, we hear a pained scream.

## 14/19/29

It's the 19th day now. People keep trying to take us away and Mom doesn't like it. I don't either. It's awful! I decide to continue *Prowler.* Here's where I'm at now.

*Fern was tired of running for his life. He had ENOUGH of the constant danger that followed him and had caused injury and even* death *to 150 people. He used a stone to make a spear and faced his enemy. The black panther. He had sent 20 big cats before and Fern had killed 18 of them. He badly injured the cruel panther and ran from the small town he was by because he did not want any more people being hurt. He made a small hut in a desolate location. He ate a small piece of meat so he didn't starve and drank some water. For three days, the evil panther could not find Fern. But on the fourth day, tragedy struck. The large black animal had found a village and questioned the people on Fern's whereabouts. They didn't know and Blacker had injured six of them and killed two more. Then, he found Fern's hut. Luckily, Fern was gone while going hunting for food and water. Blacker destroyed the hut and waited for Fern's return. Then, the boy came back. The panther clawed him, leaving him severely wounded without food and water. And a weapon.*

Yeah, I'm here.

## 14/20/29th, LAST DAY!?

Tomorrow's the first day of Rachen! Wow, time passed fast. What am I to expect though? My life is chaotic. Well, I guess it's time for school. This sucks. I wanted to be with my sister today : (. I head to school. First class is Gym. She smiles at me. Looks like she's in a good mood today. She's... Unpredictable, to say the least. She can be mean, cranky, nice, loving, and caring on different days. I let her read my journal and sometimes she laughs and other times she looks sad.

## The first of Rachen, 29th! (12:30)

So... Yeah! Right now, it's 12:36 AM. Good news: My sister's mental health is getting better! I'm at school right now, as usual. I'll talk later, peeps!

### 1:30 PM

I had headed back 10 minutes ago. Me and my family had a snack.

Me, Tonya, and Mom had a nice day out, since school is out for the day.