Trans Star

TRANS STAR

A ONESHOT SHORT STORY BY HIROKI OHARA

**Story Designation**---Canon

**Synopsis**

Shizuku, a high school girl, has a massive crush on Yuu-kun, a boy in her class. In fact, Shizuku has decided to advance their relationship and do a Love Confession to Yuu-kun after school on the next school day. However, on this most faithful school day, the day she mustered the courage to finally confess, Yuu-kun has come to school with a very different appearance. Yuu-kun, born perceived as a male, has begun their transition from male to female, although still wearing the male school uniform. Yuu tells Shizuku that the time had come to transition to her correct Gender Identity of a teenage female, and nothing could stop this. This because she was diagnosed with a rare form of TS [Transsexual/Transgender] dysphoria, and transitioning is an approved therapy to handle the physical/mental aspects of the syndrome. Shizuku is now in a quandary. She was deeply in love with perceived male Yuu-kun, but how does she feel about shipping with and falling in love with another girl? A girl who happens to be named Yuu-chan, and is destined to become a most feminine and attractive teenage girl. However, Yuu-chan needs help and encouragement to do so from Shizuku. Can Shizuku sort out the conflicting feelings and emotions to be any real benefit to Yuu-chan?

**Character Profiles**

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Yuu NekoyaShizuku Tokusatsu"Male" Yuu
**TRANS STAR**

A ONESHOT SHORT STORY BY HIROKI OHARA

(Story Note---At the beginning of the story, when Yuu-kun is masquerading as a 'male', and later during a flashback, male designations will be used for them. On the first day back to school, when Yuu-chan is presenting themselves as a female student, thereafter, female designations will be used.)

Shizuku is in her bedroom, looking at her iphone, and daydreaming. On the iphone is a picture of the boy that she is deeply in love with, however, for now it is an unrequited love. The boy does not know or perceive that Shizuku is so deeply infatuated and attracted to him. To her, he is like a superhero right out of a TV program. She has been only friends with him for quite some time now, but Shizuku now wants to advance the relationship further. She has decided to do a Love Confession to him on the first day back from this school vacation. In fact, tomorrow will be the first day back to school......

Next day at school, Shizuku gets the shock of her life! She meets with the 'boy' of her dreams, however, 'he' has used the vacation time to transition from male to female, and will begin attending school as a female student, although for the time being they will be wearing the male school uniform! Shizuku wonders to herself; now that the 'boy' that she admired has transitioned from male to female, what will become of her unrequited love?

Later that day, Shizuku goes to the school library, and looks up information regarding transgender people. She learns that a mismatch between one's perceived birth sex, and their Gender Identity, is called by many in the medical profession as a "TS (transsexual) Malady". Within Japan, about one in 10,000 people are transgender individuals. Starting with the secondary sexual characteristics, those are gradually brought into alignment with one's correct Gender Identity. First, one's outward appearance, that is, one's Gender Expression, changes to match their Gender Identity. Afterwards, the internal mental, emotional, and spiritual parts, the unseen attributes, will gradually readjust to that of the Gender Identity and Gender Expression from the influence of hormone therapy and other factors. There are no risks or evidence that transgender people will by their own actions supposedly influence cis-gender people to want to transition personally themselves. Shizuku with her hands, slams shut the heavy, thick tome that she was reading. She continues to ponder to herself. Simply speaking, there should be about 1000 people in Japan who transition to their correct gender. And since transitioning is recognized in modern society, people transitioning should not be that rare.....

Back in the classroom, Shizuku is alone at her desk, however, she overhears the person that she likes discussing things with two male students. Although still wearing the male school uniform, to think that Yuu-kun would end up as one who would be transitioning from male to female..... One of the male students asks Yuu what their impression is of turning into a girl? Yuu replies that it felt more complicated than she would have thought possible. One boy comments if Yuu didn't just wake up one morning as a girl? One would think so....Yuu guesses that people would think that to be the normal way. But it actually was, how would one say it, it felt as if her 'male' mind, heart, and soul were gradually crumbling away into tatters from the inside out. That really sucked, ya know! (Yuu sucks and slurps on a juice box!)

The doctor told me that it would happen this way, but I never really did 'get it' myself. Seems that your body cells keep regenerating at full speed internally to forcefully remold your body over time, or sometimes seemingly overnight. This first began one night a while ago when I was asleep....I woke up from the pain, but soon blacked out again. By the time that I snapped out of this nightly routine, my body was already re-configuring itself in a fleshly sense. From then on, there were no more dreams, no more of any awareness of anything at all while I slept. The most unsettling thing was the night that my 'male thingy' ('boy bits') shriveled up and.....you know.....and now there are 'girl bits' down there.....?!?

**"That's enough! I don't wanna here no more!"**, bellows the one boy. The other boy asks what Yuu is going to do from now on? She states that she wonders herself. She doesn't feel that she has become a full-fledged girl yet, other than her body physically changing to an anatomically correct girl---maybe she would be better off masquerading and pretending to be a "guy" for a little while longer. You serious??? Well, changing one's outlook on life this late in the game is huge pain; yes, no, maybe? And with that, even though I'm a girl now, lets keep getting along as if we are two good guys, right bro?

***"DON'T YOU DARE!!!"***, shrieks Shizuku from across the room at her desk!

"Shizuku-chan?"

Shizuku continues her rant and rave. She yells, saying that you, Yuu-chan, are a girl now, so you can't do guy stuff with your homeboys any more! (One of the boys touches Yuu's chest, feeling that she has soft, real boobs now. This only infuriates Shizuku!) She shouts that it doesn't matter any more that you used to be a guy, you can't continue with your life as if nothing has changed! You have to become self-aware that you are a girl now, and live your life accordingly! Yuu-chan meekly squeaks out that even if you say that, how am I supposed to know what to do from now on? Yuu-chan gets up from her desk and scoots over to where Shizuku is. She grabs onto Shizuki's shoulders.

*"Shizuku, make me into a proper girl!"*, pleads Yuu-chan, "I'm begging you!"

Shizuku is quite taken aback. She wonders out loud as to just what Yuu-chan means? Yuu-chan implores Shizuku because, as she states, she does not have any female friends that she can ask about things like this, and furthermore, Shizuku seems to be more knowledgeable about all things feminine, much more so that other girls. Another girl who sits next to Shizuku pipes up, and declares that Shizuku, indeed, has more *girl power* that any of the other girls in class! Yuu-chan tightens her grip on Shizuku's shoulders, reasoning that it will be only until she becomes a 'full-fledged woman'! *A full-fledged woman???* Quite a few students in the classroom are now watching the drama play out between Yuu-chan and Shizuku. Finally, in exasperation, and to bring this little incident to a close, Shizuku loudly exhales, **"F...FINE!"**

The next morning at school bears much fruit regarding the making of Yuu into a 'proper' girl, whether she likes it or not.

"Do I really have to wear this?"

Today, for the first time, Yuu is wearing the female school uniform. It consists of a white with dark blue trim sailor top, a dark blue sailor necktie, and a dark blue pleated mini-skirt. Yuu is wearing the sailor fuku's mini-skirt with black tights for modesty. Shizuku doles out the admonishment, saying to Yuu that if you want to change the inside, start with changing your outside appearance! Yuu meekly protests, squeaking out the complaint that, wearing tights now, she feels "different" in the crotch......Shizuku counters with the admonition that she get used to it, including the wearing of female tights or pantyhose. She goes on to say that Yuu has already to some degree, mastered being feminine, and that her feminine fashion style is such that she should be wearing short skirts or mini-skirts all the time now, as that shows off her girlish figure and long legs the best way possible ! Yuu says that she understands, but complains that her sailor top is a bit tight around her boobs. Shizuku's reaction to that is to go over to where Yuu is standing, and in front of everyone, *fondles her boobs*. A 'real free show' for the other students in the classroom. Somebody begins to laugh, but Shizuku gives them a *"Death Before Dishonor"* look, and the **"NO LAUGHING"** silent signal is understood by all! Finally, Shizuku gives Yuu the 'you're good to go' thumbs up, and the morning classroom excitement comes to an end.

A couple of days later, after school, Shizuku leads Yuu-chan downtown to the department store, specifically to the cosmetics counter. There, a full compliment of items are selected, then the two girls retire to Shizuku's home. Yuu-chan is patiently taught how to apply makeup and cosmetics, but the net result of her efforts are that she ends up looking like a 'Lady of the Evening'! Then one afternoon, after school, the two make the trip back to the department store, this time visiting the woman's intimate wear section. Yuu obtains her first well-fitting bra. So necessary for her growing boobs!

That evening, in her bedroom, Shizuku is laying on her bed, exhausted. She is finally done....at least for the time being. Soon, her iphone buzzes with an incoming call; it is Yuu-chan calling. Yuu is telling her that she, Yuu, finally has come to enjoy wearing girl's tights and pantyhose, and plans on making that a major part of her fashion style. Shizuku becomes embarrassed, telling herself that she does not need to know that kind of information. *What the hell is that girl thinking anyway?* She taps out a text back to Yuu, telling her to act more feminine and responsible, and less prone to gossip.

Shizuku falls back onto her bed. Soon, her mind begins to ponder all that has happened recently with Yuu and herself. She admits to herself that she has not sorted out her feelings yet. First off, she though that she could become a real help to her beloved Yuu-chan.....But 'he' is already well on their way to becoming a unique, interesting, self-made girl. It is ironic that we became more intimate with one another, but this love of Yuu-kun ("male" Yuu) that I have held onto is such that I have 'cashed in my chips', and that love is over now. Or am I just beginning a whole new round of 'casino style' love? I wonder....! Even though Yuu is a girl now......No, NO, **NO!**  We're *both* girls now! Just what should I do? A quote now comes to her mind, although she can't clearly remember who said it---

" Even if my shape should change, my mind, heart, and soul will remain the same!"

Next day at school, in the classroom, another female schoolmate is talking to Yuu-chan. She exclaims that Nekoya-kun (Yuu's last name) really is like a typical girl. Yuu-chan admonishes her to please stop with the calling of, "Kun" (a male designation), since she actually is a real girl now! The girl apologizes. A second girl with glasses, listening in on the conversation, makes the unabashed comment that Yuu-chan's feminine behavior and speech patterns are already close to being perfect. Maybe that happened so soon because of the way some men take an interest in and view feminine behavior, almost like a hobby. If one looks at Yuu-chan as she is now, one would never think of or dream that she used to be a former "guy"! Glasses girl asks Shizuku for her opinion. Shizuku only offers the comment that 'it' is nothing.

Across the classroom, on the other side, a group of three boys are drooling over a female celebrity magazine. One comments that Amamiya-chan, this weeks Gravure Idol (\*), is too, too cute, right? Another boy declares that her boobs are certainly big, and that she's got an erotically shaped body. Neat, huh?!? All three of the boys confess that they are getting excited by looking at the magazine. The girls from across the classroom can hear all that they are saying, and proclaim that all of them are acting like idiots and perverts, yet again! One of the boys calls out to Yuu, inviting her to come over and have a look at the gravure idol, too! He says he knows that Yuu likes Amamiya-chan, too, isn't that the case? You should know how we are feeling right about now!?! Yuu-chan replies to "cut it out!" Also, states Yuu-chan, she does think that Amamiya-chan is cute, but she no longer has any other feelings happening right now. Yuu goes on to reveal to all in the classroom that she still had some parts of her former male personality in place, this occurring right after her transition. But for the most part, her hormones have given her an entirely different outlook. ***She no longer thinks of anything when she looks at other girls***, nothing at all! **"SH\*T, REALLY?"**, Shizuku silently screams to herself!

Shizuku goes on to mentally torture herself at her desk. She states to herself that Yuu-chan has, by now, really turned into an honest girl. Her transformation is now almost complete. And that means that I, Shizuku, have now run out of time! Yuu-chan should be fine from here on out.....and with that, Shizuku turns red with extreme embarrassment and distress, emotionally 'throws in the towel', suddenly gets up from her desk, and dashes out of the classroom, much to the astonishment of all.

**"Shizuku-chan???"**, cries Yuu! **"CHASE HER, NOW!!!"**, bellows out the glasses girl! Yuu-chan bolts from her desk and is out of the classroom in a flash! Shizuku is tearing down the hallway like a funny car at a drag strip, with Yuu trying to catch up to her. Yuu-chan curses to herself, questioning as to why her female body has such little stamina? Yuu-chan does manage to shout out to Shizuku, asking her why she is running away? Shizuku shouts back that she *is not* running away! Yuu-chan reiterates that she is totally running away!

Shizuku comes to the end of the hallway, with only a turn to the right as an escape. However, that right turn actually leads to the top of a set of stairs, with a stair landing halfway down the flight of stairs. Shizuku does not realize this, so when she turns right at full speed, she tries to negotiate the steps, but she is going too fast. She slips and stumbles at the top of the stairs, and begins to fall forward and downward into the stair steps. By some miracle of pursuit, Yuu-chan had almost caught up with Shizuku, enough that as Yuu turns the corner, she sees Shizuku lose her balance, and begin to pitch downward into the steps. By another unfathomable miracle, Yuu reaches her hand out, and grasps onto Shizuku's flailing wrist. Again, Yuu curses herself that she doesn't have even half the strength that she had as a "male". Unfortunately, this maneuver pulls Yuu off balance, too, and she also begins to be pulled downward into the steps, right behind Shizuku! Shizuku's mind goes blank, except for one last eventful proclamation---

"Why---*Why did it have to turn out like this*.....that I would **fall in love** with her (Yuu)???"

Shizuku's mind now has a reset, and this brings on it's own fresh set of problems. It is as if the Time and Space Continuum came to a screeching halt. Both girls seemingly are suspended in midair above the steps, frozen in time. Reality is nonexistent. Another dimension is unfolding and ripping at the fabric of space, and the two girls are caught in the crossfire. Shizuku suddenly finds herself in a flashback. A flashback to the time when Yuu-kun was still masquerading as a 'male', and she was trying to establish a shipping with 'him'. However, it became apparent to her that her love for Yuu would be a painful, unrequited love......

FLASHBACK---Sometime in the recent past, Shizuku accidentally steps into the path of an oncoming bicycle. The bicycle is being rode by Yuu-kun. He turns to avoid crashing into Shizuku, but loses control of the bike, and falls off of it. Shizuku twists and turns to avoid the bike, but slips and also falls to the ground. Soon, both Yuu-kun and Shizuku are sitting on the ground, amid many scattered items that fell out of Shizuku's bag, as well as the bike rack, with the wrecked bike next to them. Shizuku apologizes. Yuu-kun says the he was careless, too!

When both have composed themselves, Yuu-kun notices a DVD jewel case on the ground. Wait! It is a "Kamen Rider" DVD, and belongs to Shizuku! Yuu-kun wonders out loud if Shizuku was in such a hurry because she wanted to watch this anime as soon as possible? Shizuku silently thinks to herself that she is done for....the boy of her dreams is actually going to talk to her! Yuu-kun comments on how nostalgic that particular anime is, as he used to watch it on TV when he was a kid. It is still on as re-runs, but they come on Sunday morning, however, Yuu-kun is not a morning person, so they never get to watch it. Is the newer anime series just as awesome as the original? Yuu-kun notices that Shizuku is acting like a 'deer in the headlights', and not laughing at his light conversation at all. Yuu-kun merely states that watching old anime series can be a nice hobby. He remarks that it is a real surprise that you, Shizuku, are into "Kamen Rider", as you seem much more feminine than other girls.

Shizuku looks away, and silently reminisces about the time she was in middle school. When the other students found out that she liked "Kamen Rider", they all made fun of her, saying that she was more like an adolescent boy, or rather, a little male child. So she began to hid all the things that she liked, to prevent any more ridicule. And to further add to that understanding, she began to be mindful of girl's fashion and style, shifting her presentation to that of being ultra-feminine. That way others would see her as a 'normal' girl. Yuu-chan continues to speak to a silent Shizuku. He somehow reads her mind, and notes that maybe she likes things that are perceived as 'boy stuff', even though she is a girl? "EH?", squeaks out Shizuku. Yuu-kun goes on, saying that if you end up liking something, even passionately, it would not necessarily be related to you being a boy or a girl. (Yuu-kun opens the DVD case to see if it was broken. It wasn't!) Yuu-kun relates.....how did it go again......

"Even if my shape should change, my soul will remain the same!!!" So that is were Shizuku had heard that saying! (END FLASHBACK)

What happened in the meantime, Shizuku has no idea or concept, as her memory is completely dark and blank. The very next thing that Shizuku remembers, from slipping and being in mid-air, is that she is on her hands and knees, kneeling on the stairs landing, in the *Tachi Position (#)*, looking down onto Yuu-chan. Below her is Yuu-chan, lying prone on the landing, in the *Neko Position (#)*, looking up at her. Shizuku thinks to herself---

"Right! It had to turn out like this....be it about 'him', or be it about 'her'!"

Yuu-chan speaks first, asking Shizuku if she is okay? "EH?", she croaks. Shizuku then blurts out the only thing that is filling her mind right now---

"*It doesn't matter if you are a boy or a girl.* **I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE!!!!!!!"**

Shizuku immediately and silently rebukes herself for doing an unplanned and unrehearsed Love Confession---

**"I'm so done for....but that's fine....that's all right!!!"**

Yuu-chan, for her part, silently thinks to herself, "Even though **I** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) have turned into a girl.......CRAP, NOW WHAT ??? My heart is racing like crazy, and not from the fall......"

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SOMETIME LATER---

Shizuku and Yuu-chan are sitting together on a park bench, under a shade tree, somewhere on the school campus. Both are silent, yet Shizuku's mind is churning out thoughts. She tells herself that it was sometime later after she did her Love Confession that she realized that all this time Yuu-chan, too, was in love with her, but also with an unrequited love. This understanding dating all the way back to even before the time Yuu had transitioned, way back to the time 'he' was masquerading as a 'male', when 'he' had first met her. Ara~Ara! (My,my!) So Yuu-kun has been in love with Shizuku since 'he' first met her, but never said anything to indicate this. This was a situation that the both of them were in love with one another, but both simultaneously were keeping it inside themselves as an unrequited love. Then when Yuu went through their transition from male to female, Shizuku erroneously told herself that she had to give up on her love, once and for all. Actually, however, it seems that Yuu-chan was not acting like her usual self, so therefore, Yuu-chan changed her mind, this after her doing her Love Confession. Even if Shizuku doing the Love Confession caused the both of us to change our minds, still, it seems that Shizuku shouted out some real embarrassing stuff, that day we fell onto the stair landing.

Soon, the three boys who were best friends with 'male' Yuu-kun come near the park bench. One of them shouts to Yuu-chan, asking her if she wants to go with them to WacDonalds (McDonalds), or go do something else? Yuu-chan merely shouts back that she is sorry but she can't, because she is 'on a diet'! The boys are quite taken aback, and mumble to themselves---

"On a diet, she says!" ... "Sorry for us wanting to hang out together~!" ... "Can't be helped, she is already a true girl now." ... "Let's go, let's just us go!" ... "Let's hang out together next time!" ... "No doubt, those two really get along well together!" (Shizuku and Yuu-chan overhear what the boys are saying, and turn to one another, and snicker and grin at one another!)

"And thus we ended up dating one another!", both girls ponder together, sitting on the park bench. Even though others may not realize that we both now are lovers, but after all, that doesn't matter. No big deal, really, what your circumstances are, or who you end up liking---

"Be it a boy....or....be it a girl! Since that doesn't matter after all!"

Shizuku and Yuu-chan romantically hold hands, and relax on the park bench for quite a while, silently enjoying the romantic vibes that are flowing between the two lovers. Although eventually, the romantic mood is shattered, like a brick hitting a plate glass window. Yuu-chan has a sharp pain in her mid-section. Muscle pain? Stomach troubles? Soon, another sharp pain ripples through her lower torso. Shizuku becomes very concerned. She inquires of Yuu-chan if it is her stomach hurting in an unusual way? Yuu-chan can only groan, as she wraps her arms around her mid-section. Finally, it dawns on Shizuku what is happening to Yuu-chan. Something that happens to almost all girls, and is happening to Yuu-chan for the first time, since she is an anatomically correct girl now. Something that happens every month, and can be painful.......Looks like Shizuku's benevolent and kindly concern and tutoring is going to continue for the time being.....

(THE END)

## Commentary and Opinion

**(\*) Gravure Idol**

In Japan, a Gravure Idol (グラビアアイドル, gurabia aidoru), often abbreviated to gradol (グラドル, guradoru), is a female model who primarily models for magazines, especially men's magazines, photobooks or DVDs. "Gurabia" (グラビア) is a Wasei-eigo term derived from "rotogravure", which is a type of intaglio printing process that was once a staple of newspaper photo features. The rotogravure process is still used for commercial printing of magazines, postcards, and cardboard product packaging.

Gravure idols appear in a wide range of photographic styles and genres. Their photos are largely aimed at male audiences with poses or activities intended to be provocative or suggestive, generally accentuated by an air of playfulness and innocence rather than aggressive sexuality. Although gravure idols may sometimes wear clothing that exposes most of their body, they seldom appear fully nude. Gravure idols may be as young as pre-teen age up to their early thirties. In addition to appearing in mainstream magazines, gravure idols often release their own professional photobooks and DVDs for their fans. Many popular female idols in Japan launched their careers by starting out as gravure idols.

**(\*) Tachi/Neko (Seme/Uke) Positions---**

[In Japanese modern culture,] the two participants in an [intimate] relationship are often referred to as seme (攻め, "top") and uke (受け, "bottom"). These terms originated in martial arts; seme derives from the ichidan verb "to attack", while uke is taken from the verb "to receive". Although not the same, a [romantic] construct similar to "seme and uke" is the concept of "*Tachi* and *Neko*". This archetypal pairing is referenced more often in older [manga] volumes; in modern [manga], this pairing is often seen as already encompassed by seme and uke or simply unnecessary to address. The Tachi (タチ) partner is conceptualized as the member of the relationship who pursues the more passive partner, the latter of whom is referred to as the Neko (ネコ). Seme and uke are similar but not identical to Tachi and Neko because the former refers primarily to sexual roles, whereas *the latter describes personality.* Although seme and uke roles are already used in some manga to describe which member of the relationship is more dominant and which member is more passive, there are just as many manga novels which subtly or overtly differentiate between the two [sets of terms].

---Taken from Wikipedia (edited for brevity, words in brackets [...] are added for clarity, some italics added )