We could have been

> *confess to me every secret moment*
>  *every stolen promise you believed*
>  *confess to me all that lies between us*
>  *all that lies between you and me*
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***we could have been*** is the mixtape created for the relationship between Carson and Sasha. It was released on July 13, 2017 on 8tracks.

The playlist depicts the arc of Carson and Sasha's relationship from their first meeting to the beginning of [The Series].

"quick synopsis of the beginning of their relationship and the realization that they have feelings for each other but struggle to confess - and then the cusp of missed opportunities while trying to reconcile their grief over it"

## Track listing

1. "Perfect Color" - SafetySuit - *#Youaretheperfectcolor Single* (2017) - 3:54
2. "Pictures of You" - The Last Goodnight - *Poison Kiss* (2007) - 3:10
3. "Giants" - Savoir Adore - *The Love That Remains* (2016) - 3:54
4. "Gotta Have You" - The Weepies - *Say I Am You* (2006) - 3:19
5. "Smoke Signals" - Phoebe Bridgers - *Stranger in the Alps* (2017) - 5:24
6. "It Is What It Is" - Lifehouse - *Smoke and Mirrors* (2010) - 3:21
7. "Carry This Picture" - Dashboard Confessional - *A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar* (2003) - 2:53
8. "Let's Hurt Tonight (Collateral Beauty Mix)" - OneRepublic - *Let's Hurt Tonight Single* (2016) - 3:29

## Lyrics & Meta

```
[Chorus]
Yellow nice to meet you
Do you know that you just blue my mind?
It was the perfect conversation, I think that I red about one time
And I told a white lie when I told you, I've never been green with envy you
You are the perfect color

[Refrain]
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh

[Verse]
To the misfits and the freaks
To the outcasts and the geeks
To the weird kids that don't care
Cause you feel like you're not there
To the ones who won't look in
To the mirror cause you're scared
Dont let the hater's hate become your own, oh, no, no

[Pre-Chorus]
Now there's always gonna be someone who thinks art has no meaning
Who looks up at the Sistine Chapel and only sees a ceiling
But you, you you
Well you know what I would say to you?
You know what I would say to you?

[Chorus]
Yellow nice to meet you
Do you know that you just blue my mind?
It was the perfect conversation, I think that I red about one time
And I told a white lie when I told you, I've never been green with envy you
You are the perfect color

[Refrain]
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh

[Bridge]
And in a perfect world
I'd get to say
It's just black and white
There's no room for grey
And there's a color scheme inside every heart
Ours won't be complete until we have yours
So yellow nice to meet you

[Chorus]
Yellow nice to meet you
Do you know that you just blue my mind?
It was the perfect conversation, I think that I red about one time
And I told a white lie when I told you, I've never been green with envy you
You are the perfect color
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Yellow nice to meet you
Do you know that you just blue my mind?
It was the perfect conversation, I think that I red about, I think that I red about one time
And I told a white lie when I told you, I've never been green with envy you
You're the perfect color
Ooh, ooh, ooh

```
 "Pictures of You" - The Last Goodnight

```
[Verse 1]
This is the clock upon the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a newborn child
Before he starts to crawl
This is the war that's never won
This is a soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone
Praying for her son

[Chorus]
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

[Verse 2]
There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab
Just waiting for the call
This earthquake weather has got me shaking inside
I'm high up and dry

[Chorus]
**{Pictures of you, pictures of me**
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be}

[Bridge]
**{Confess to me, every secret moment**
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me}

[Verse 3]
We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win no matter
How hard we might swing

[Chorus]
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been

[Outro]
Could have been, we could have been
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
Could have been

```
 "Giants" - Savoir Adore

```
[Verse 1]
If you build your house out of bones
You’ll never be alone
See your body exposed
Just a vessel for your soul
And throw your heart in the river
If you can’t let it go
Cause your soul grows bigger
Than your body ever knows

[Pre-Chorus]
Stumble, repeat, stumble, repeat
Get off your feet, get off your feet

[Chorus]
If the feeling don’t fit
You'll just have to stick with it
Got a soul so big
We were giants at the start of it
No we’re never gonna quit
Not even just a little bit
No we’re never gonna quit
We are giants, giants, giants
At the heart of it

[Verse 2]
This world is blind
Eyes so deep and difficult
If we took the time
We’d see the ease in being kind
Throw it all in the river
And let it all go
You don’t have to suffer
To let yourself grow
Watch it burn into cinders
Can you read the smoke

[Pre-Chorus]
Stumble, repeat, stumble, repeat
Get off your feet, get off your feet

[Chorus]
If the feeling don’t fit
You'll just have to stick with it
Got a soul so big
We were giants at the start of it
No we’re never gonna quit
Not even just a little bit
No we’re never gonna quit
We are giants, giants, giants
At the heart of it

[Bridge]
If the feeling don't fit
You'll just have to stick with it
No we're never gonna quit
Cause we are giants at the heart of it

[Chorus]
If the feeling don’t fit
You'll just have to stick with it
Got a soul so big
We were giants at the start of it
No we’re never gonna quit
Not even just a little bit
No we’re never gonna quit
We are giants at the heart of it

If the feeling don’t fit
You'll just have to stick with it
Got a soul so big
We were giants at the start of it
No we’re never gonna quit
Not even just a little bit
No we’re never gonna quit
We are giants, giants, giants
At the heart of it

```

```
Gray, quiet and tired and mean
Picking at a worried seam
I try to make you mad at me over the phone
Red eyes and fires and signs
I'm taken by a nursery rhyme
I want to make a ray of sunshine and never leave home

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No, no, no, no, no, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you

The road gets cold, there's no spring in the meadow this year
I'm the new chicken clucking open hearts and ears
Oh, such a prima donna, sorry for myself
But green, it is also summer
And I won't be warm till I'm lying in your arms

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No, no, no, no, no, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you

I see it all through a telescope: guitar, suitcase, and a warm coat
Lying in the back of the blue boat, humming a tune...

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no wine
No, no, no, no, no, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have...

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No, no, no, no, no, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you
I've gotta have you

```
 "Smoke Signals" - Phoebe Bridgers

```
[Verse 1]
I went with you up to
The place you grew up in
We spent a week in the cold
Just long enough to
"Walden" it with you
Any longer, it would have got old
Singing "Ace of Spades" when Lemmy died
But nothing's changed, L.A.'s all right
Sleeping in my bed again, and getting in my head
And then walk around the reservoir

[Chorus]
You, you must have been looking for me
Sending smoke signals
Pelicans circling
Burning trash out on the beach

[Verse 2]
One of your eyes is
Always half-shut
Something happened when you were a kid
I didn't know you then
And I'll never understand
Why it feels like I did
"How Soon Is Now" in an '80s sedan
You slept inside of it because your dad
Lived in a campground in the back of a van
You said that song will creep you out until you're dead

[Chorus]
And you must have been looking for me
Sending smoke signals
Pelicans circling
Burning trash out on the beach

[Verse 3]
I want to live at
The Holiday Inn
Where somebody else makes the bed
We'll watch TV while
The lights on the street
Put all the stars to death
It's been on my mind since Bowie died
Just checking out to hide from life
And all of our problems, I'm gonna solve 'em
With you riding shot-gun, speeding, 'cause fuck the cops

[Chorus]
And you, you must have been looking for me
Sending smoke signals
Pelicans circling
Burning trash out on the beach

[Verse 4]
I buried a hatchet
It's coming up lavender
The future's unwritten
The past is a corridor
I'm at the exit looking back through the hall
You are anonymous
I am a concrete wall

```
 "It Is What It Is" - Lifehouse

```
[Verse 1]
I was only looking for a shortcut home
But it's complicated, so complicated
Somewhere in this city is a road I know
Where we could make it but maybe there's no making it now

[Chorus]
Too long we've been denying, now we're both tired of trying
We hit a wall and we can't get over it
Nothing to relive, it's water under the bridge
You said it, I get it, I guess it is what it is

[Verse 2]
I was only trying to bury the pain
But I made you cry and I can't stop the crying
Was only trying to save me but I lost you again
Now there's only lying, wish I could say it's only me

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Here it comes, ready or not
We both found out it's not how we thought
That it would be
How it would be
If the time could turn us around
What was once lost may be found
For you and me
For you and me

[Chorus]

[Outro]
I was only looking for a shortcut home
But it's complicated, so complicated

```
 "Carry This Picture" - Dashboard Confessional

```
Carry this picture for luck
Kept in a locket, tucked in your collar, close to your chest
Make it a secret, shown to the closest friends
And meet me at quarter to seven
The sun will still shine then, at this time of year
We'll head to the inlet
And we'll share a bottle there

And color the coast with your smile
It's the most genuine thing I've ever seen
I was so lost, but now I believe

And follow me south of the big docks, where they tether the boats
The rich men revere as so important, they hire our fathers to steer
And down to the edge of the water, where we'll spill our guts, and we'll name our fears
I'll give you this picture
Keep it and don't be scared

And color the coast with your smile
It's the most genuine thing I've ever seen
I was so lost, but now I believe in the coast
Your smile is the most genuine thing I've ever seen
I was so lost, but now I believe
Now I believe
Now I believe
Now I believe

```
 "Let's Hurt Tonight (Collateral Beauty Mix)" - OneRepublic

```
[Verse 1]
When, when we came home
Worn to the bones
I told myself, "this could get rough"
And when, when I was off, which happened a lot
You came to me and said, "that's enough"

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Oh, I know that this love is pain
But we can't cut it from out these veins, no

[Chorus 1]
So I'll hit the lights and you lock the doors
We ain't leaving this room 'til we both feel more
Don't walk away, don't roll your eyes
They say love is pain, well darling, let's hurt tonight
Ah-ooh-ooh, ah-ooh-ooh

[Verse 2]
When, when you came home
Worn to the bones
I told myself, "this could get rough"

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Oh, I know you're feeling insane
Tell me something that I can explain, oh

[Chorus 2]
I'll hit the lights and you lock the doors
Tell me all of the things that you couldn't before
Don't walk away, don't roll your eyes
They say love is pain, well darling, let's hurt tonight
If this love is pain, well darling, let's hurt, oh tonight
Ah-ooh-ooh, ah-ooh-ooh

[Outro]
**{So you hit the lights and I'll lock the doors**
Let's say all of the things that we couldn't before
I won't walk away, won't roll my eyes
They say love is pain, well darling, let's hurt tonight
If this love is pain, then honey let's love tonight}

```

## Cut Tracks

1. The Chainsmokers ft. Phoebe Ryan "All We Know": "Carson and Sasha should perhaps start trying to move on from their love for each other." It was cut in favor of the more bittersweet "Pictures of You"