Dialogue: Bibi

- Arc 1.5 -

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"Life is only worth living because you are in it."

It is impossible for a human, a Kemono, a Longer, a Morri, a bee or even a plant to choose the direction of their life at birth. It is impossible to choose your sex, impossible to decide your qualities and defects. Anyone, anything, whatever... We must accept that life does not give us the CHOICE at birth.

But living allows us to CHOOSE.

To decide to be more manly or not, to be sociable or to stay in your corner. Greedy or selfish, friendly or aggressive. Even if it is impossible to choose everything, some CHOICES are offered to us. This is not a gift from life itself, nor from the Gods; it is just a part of the freedom that living beings deserve. Some abuses it, others do not. Each one is different, each thing do not work in the same way. Some are more resistant, others less.

Bibi did not have much choice.

Accepting to be alone, not being able to make any friend, living a lonely and unsociable life. She had never wanted such a thing. Never had she wanted to stay in her corner. She could try to reach out, but all she could do was catch the void. Even when the light bathed her face, she had to accept that she had no choice but to live in the shadows.

It was not HER choice, but THEIR choice.

Life dictated that humans and Kemonos had to be either male or female. To be a girl or to be a boy. It was not our choice, it was forced upon us. We had to accept it and live with it, getting to know our own bodies and moving forward in that way.

But living beings liked to break certain limits.

Some people didn't like their bodies, felt trapped in the wrong sex. They wanted to see themselves in the mirror in a different way, to stop suffering in a prison that did not suit them.

To be more free.

The more humans developed, the more freedom they had. Even when life imposed something on them, they found a way to get out of that cage. Being born a boy did not mean living in a man's body: it was possible to change. It was possible to CHOOSE more than we thought.

And Bibi understood this.

She loved her girl body, that was not the point. However, living in the dark with no one to talk to, crying with no one to comfort her, having to sleep alone and having no one to tell her thoughts to... Bibi had never had a choice. Bibi had to accept it. She had to bow her head and acquiesce to what had been forced upon her.

But she was stronger than that.

She would not let others dictate her life.

She went out one day, without permission. She danced in the light, laughing as she watched Arasol shine on her. Even if it was only for a short time, she would enjoy the outdoors and make at least one friend. Even if it wasn't for more than ten minutes, she wanted to at least leave what was in her heart and have someone hear it. She wanted her voice to reach someone and needed to say the word she had on her tongue for so long. She was not ashamed to cry, whether it was from sadness or joy. She just wished she had someone there with her... Even if it meant putting herself at risk, she needed to talk.

Because her loneliness was eating away at her.

She ran, she ran. She enjoyed the breeze, the light, observed her beautiful surroundings and caressed the few animals that passed by. She was going to be punished, she knew it; but the happiness she felt now was more important. For the first time in her life, her tears were of joy. She wanted to cuddle everything in her path. She didn't know if she would meet anyone, but she wanted to. She wanted it more than anything. She wanted to look into another person's eyes and smile at them, talk to them.

And then, after spending minutes dancing in nature, humming to nature and smiling at the world, she saw him. It wasn't even a human or a person, but it was still a living being. Someone who could speak. Someone who could answer her and who could listen to her. She didn't need confirmation to know that this was indeed a living being. She stopped and dried her tears. She looked at it for a few moments and what was in front of it moved weakly, as if frightened.

- ... Y-Yes... ?

That was all the "thing" said to her. Bibi gave her best smile, showing her white teeth, and held out her hand, even though it couldn't be caught. Her heart had never beaten so fast, so joyfully, such a wonderful melody. She tilted her head to the right, and finally, she could say what she had always wanted to say.

- Hello!!

**>>>CHAPTER 15<<<**