Hopedrunk Everasking

“**Hopedrunk Everasking**” (originally titled Rare Beauty) is a song by Caroline Polachek. It appears on her fourth studio album *Desire, I Want To Turn Into You* as the ninth track.

## Background

On September 15th 2023, Caroline described the creation process of the track, explaining that it was originally scrapped from the project:

> Hopedrunk is the the deepest, darkest song on the album. It started on the Future Nostalgia arena tour opening for @dualipa, when @dannylharle joined me for a few weeks so we could write together on the road. We didn’t see the sun for weeks, it was the middle of winter. We’d wake up underground in the bus in the arena garage, cab to a local studio, write til 5pm, then I’d race back to the arena, do my hair & makeup, sing for 20,000 people, crawl into my bunk, wake up in a new city, do it all again. This industrialized workflow made us hungry for another dimension; a more spiritual, primal, beautiful dimension, which had no place in our everyday lives. In NYC, borrowing @eccopn ‘s studio, we made this wordless piece of music which felt subtly connected to our Eastern European Jewish roots - we added balalaika and layered my voice into a choir over the next sessions. I loved it so much..
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> …and then I spent a year failing to crack the lyrics. I wrote, recorded & scrapped it three times. Come January I had to cut the song from the tracklist, unable to match the tone of the music well enough. Three weeks before Desire came out, I saw a show of Anselm Keifer’s work, dark gold paintings which were mournful and terrifying but sublime. Reading about Kiefer that night I came across the work of the poet Paul Celan, and a key turned while reading these compound words he’d invent in his native German (like “herzstrahl”, or “heartbeam”) to push through the limits of language. That same week, I was finalizing the album cover with @aidanzamiri , asking myself what a subway \*really\* means: it’s a descent into a tunnel, a journey underground. So Hopedrunk Everasking became about that tunnel, the one that connects to our subconscious, to the ancient history in our DNA, to the beloved, to death, but also to becoming ourselves. And so at the last minute, “Hopedrunk Everasking” found it’s final form, so old, so new.
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## Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Starlight in the tunnel

Kind of familiar

Hopedrunk everasking

How does it feel to know

Your final form?

So old, so new

[Refrain]

Pull close to me and never be alone

[Verse 2]

Real life is a rumor

Under the theatre

Deeper, dig it deeper

'Til the meanwhile slows

They'll find our bones

And yet they won't

[Refrain]

Pull close to me and never be alone

[Verse 3]

Dawn is just a headspace

Night is a feeling

Hopedrunk everasking

Centuries come and go

Thеy'll find our bones

And yet they won't

## References

1. ↑ https://www.instagram.com/p/CxMH4tsvB9E/

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"Welcome To My Island"
"Pretty In Possible"
"Bunny Is A Rider
"Sunset"
"Crude Drawing Of An Angel"
"I Believe"

"Fly To You (featuring. Grimes & Dido)"
"Blood And Butter"
"**Hopedrunk Everasking**"
"Butterfly Net"
"Smoke"
"Billions"

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"Long Road Home"
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