"Rough Love"

***Stop with the murdering of my dignity***

Electropop • alternative pop
(First day of Hell version)

3:55
(First day of Hell version)

Redd Lights
(First day of Hell version)

"**Rough Love**", is a song by Katrina Martinez. It was intended to be the sixth track on her Untitled EP/Album, however, the project was later scrapped.

## Background

The song was initially written and recorded in 2013 for Katrina's unreleased EP from the same year as a track. It was reproduced as a track concept for First day of Hell but the song was later scrapped.

During her performance at The Rockwood Music Hall in April 2013, Melanie stated that she did not go through domestic abuse herself, but that the song is inspired by various episodes of American crime TV series *Law & Order: Special Victims Unit*.

## Theme

This song was written about a girl going through an abusive relationship. It shows how she doesn't want to feel this abusive anymore.

## Lyrics

* 2013 final
* First day of Hell version
* Worktape 1
* Worktape 2

**[Verse 1]**

Pulling teeth straight out of my mouth reeks

Of insecurities you poured into me

If these walls talked they'd tell you to stop

Stop with the murdering of my dignity

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

And all your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

Not this time

**[Verse 2]**

Look at me, what have I become?

I'm just a toy you played and destroyed

And what is love? Does it push and shove?

And does it haunt you? Make you feel like a fool?

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

Not this time (Not this time)

Not this time (Not this time)

Not this time (Not this time)

Not this time

**[Bridge]**

Every tear that falls from me

Is the last one you will see

Tell myself this all the time (Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)

I don't know what changes my mind

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

And all your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

Not this time (Not this time)

Not this time, no

Not this time (Not this time)

Not this time

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

**[Verse 1]**

Pulling teeth straight out of my mouth reeks

Of insecurities you poured into me

If these walls talked they'd tell you to stop

Stop with the murdering of my dignity

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

And all your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

Not this time, not this time

**[Verse 2]**

Look at me, what have I become?

I'm just a toy you played and destroyed

And what is love? Does it push and shove?

And does it haunt you? Make you feel like a fool?

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

Not this time, not this time, no

Not this time, not this time

**[Bridge]**

Every tear that falls from me

Is the last one you will see

Tell myself this all the time

I don't know what changes my mind

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

And all your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

Not this time, not this time

Not this time, not this time

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

**[Verse 1]**

Pulling teeth straight out of my mouth reeks

Of insecurities you poured into me

If these walls talked they'd tell you to stop

Stop with the murdering of my dignity

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

All your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

**[Verse 2]**

Look at me, what have I become?

I'm just a toy you played and destroyed

What is love? Does it push and shove?

Does it haunt you? Make you feel like a fool?

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

**[Bridge]**

Every tear that falls from me

Is the last one you will see

Tell myself this all the time

I don't know what changes my mind

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

All your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

**[Verse 1]**

Pulling teeth straight out of my mouth reeks

Of insecurities you poured into me

If these walls talked they'd tell you to stop

Stop with the murdering of my dignity

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

And all your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

**[Verse 2]**

Look at me, what have I become?

I'm just a toy you played and destroyed

What is love? Does it push and shove?

Does it haunt you? Make you feel like a fool?

**[Chorus]**

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

**[Bridge]**

Every tear that falls from me

Is the last one you will see

Tell myself this all the time

I don't know what changes my mind

**[Chorus]**

Suddenly all the boys wanted was

To gaze in my eyes

And all your sick little brain craved was

To see me cry

All the other boys left me 'cause

I wasn't good enough

Now I'm stuck with these nightmares of me

Accepting rough love

## Trivia

* This song is one of Jose Martinez's favorite songs from Katrina, along with "Curly Cue".
* In some live performances, Katrina performed the second verse first. It is unknown if this was intentional.
* The 2013 EP version of the song was recorded in the same session as "A Thousand Words".
* It took two days to be finished.
* Two acoustic worktapes of the song recorded and produced by Katrina on her laptop were uploaded by Katrina's manager, Ron Shapiro, to his SoundCloud account in 2013.
* The track's original file names are "ROUGH LOVE 1.5" (2013 EP ver.), and "ROUGHLOVE RLDEMOapr" (First day of Hell ver.).
* This song is registered on Warner Chappell Music.