If I Saw You Now

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**If I Saw You Now** is an unreleased song by Teddy Sinclair. It was likely written and recorded during the studio sessions for her debut studio album as Verbalicious, *Verbal Issues*, but the project was scrapped. The song leaked on June 24, 2013.

## Lyrics

**[Chorus]**

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

**[Verse 1]**

Right from the day I was born, people had a problem with me

But I was too blind to see from north to 16

I was bullied and tormented, pushed, laughed at and worse

Silenced and shushed, in and out of school, beaten and cursed

I was a nice child, caring, sharin’, always happy

Confident, center of attention, keep you laughing

But in pre-school, I was misfit, primary—an outcast

Teachers and students just wishin’ that I would come last

Pushed in a pool and had my head held underwater

Till I oughta have died, playin’ along and gettin’ slaughtered

Getting tortured and teased, my hair pulled while I was on my knees

Begging please, when will someone root for me?

**[Chorus]**

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

**[Verse 2]**

I was taught that if you be yourself, you can achieve greatness

No matter what, I didn’t stop, even when I saw the haters and chasers

They said my talents were all worthless and wasted, but let’s face it

It didn’t stop me, just a jealousy taste

When people said I would be nothin’, I put their hopes in a coffin’

There’s nothin’ stoppin’ me now, only me stoppin’ their scoffin’

When I was pushed into lockers, bottles thrown at me and racial attacks

They must step back, when they see just where I’m at

‘Cause I must confess, I can’t regress

You know I had success, no bitterness, just call me blessed

‘Cause I, I love you all for every little thing you did to me

Your frenzy of envy, aiding creativity

**[Chorus]**

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, would I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

**[Bridge]**

Who would have thought that you never could brea-ak me?

Who would have thought that you only could sha-ake me?

Who would have thought that you never could take, take me down? *(Down)*

Down, down, down, down, down, down

**[Chorus]**

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, would I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, would I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now, what would I say?

If I saw you now, could I walk away? No...

If I saw you now, could I hold it all back?

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know

If I saw you now *(Saw you now...)*

## Background

A snippet of If I Saw You Now surfaced online on November 13, 2011, following the discovery of a 30-second preview on music licensing website, BMG. The song leaked in full on June 24, 2013, alongside other tracks from the *Verbal Issues* sessions.

If I Saw You Now was leaked as the thirteenth track on *Verbal Issues*, but the track listing is most likely unofficial; for more information, see the album's page.

## Writing and Development

If I Saw You Now was likely written during the development of the unreleased studio album, *Verbal Issues*, sometime after winning a BBC Radio 1 MC Battle in 2003 and before the album was scrapped in what seems to be late 2005.

The song samples an undetermined song by British rock band Queen.

#### Note

There is a slight chance this song can be accredited to Verbz due to the close proximity of the two eras in terms of time and music registrations. On ASCAP, the song was registered a considerable amount of time before any confirmed Verbz tracks (Shopaholic, Swaggerific, etc.) were, something which is shown by the sizeable gap in the songs' work IDs. However, it was registered after some of these songs on BMI. It is important to note, though, that several other Verbalicious songs, including the third alternate version of Hey Boy, were also registered after Verbz songs on BMI. Based on this information, it is reasonable to assume If I Saw You Now is a Verbalicious song, but the possibility of it being a Verbz song is higher than in other cases (such as Baseline).

## Registrations

This song was assigned an ISWC, a unique code necessary for commercial releases, which suggests that it was finished and ready for release at a point in time.

ISWC: T-900.160.435-9

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## Song Credits

#### Writing and Production

* **Written by:** Teddy Sinclair, Brian May (Sample), Roger Taylor (Sample), Freddie Mercury (Sample), John Deacon (Sample)

## References

1. ↑ Warning... they're from the Verbalicous era. November 13, 2011. Retrieved February 25, 2022 via Night Owl on Gaga Daily.
2. ↑ "The unreleased debut album from Natalia Kills, Verbal Issues, has been leaked online!" June 24, 2013. Retrieved February 25, 2022 via Leaving on Pop Hates Flops.
3. ↑ "she was signed soon after she won a Radio 1 MC competition when she was just 16." February 24, 2005. Retrieved February 25, 2022 via BBC.
4. ↑ "Verbalicious seems to have disapeared too. She had an album, Verbal Issues, in the pipeline but I guess it got shelved." September 14, 2005. Retrieved February 24, 2022 via [Deleted User] on Digital Spy Forums.