My Alliance Doesn't Want to Francesca Gavin/Confessionals

### Day 1

The twists introduced are really... Twisty, for lack of better word. I've never actually played in an anarchy twist. I've played in a Redemption Island game, but I actually never used it when it was there.
As for the cast, the cast is really really interesting. I know and have played with a couple of the people here before, and I hope I'm doing a decent job socializing with some people. The ones that I haven't played with before all seem friendly and nice so far. Of course, that can be subject to change.
I should definitely try to socialize more, but for now I've had a long day and would like to rest. So far, I've talked to Eva, Dani, Gavin, Shea, Jennifer, and Solar through PM's. I like all of them! I've played with Eva, Dani, and Jennifer. I knew Gavin and Shea previously, but I just met Solar today. This is decent progress for me, since I consider myself pretty shy. I should talk more to others tomorrow. That'll be a goal for myself.
I think that's all for today! Hoping tomorrow will be as exciting if not more.

### Day 2

So this is the recap: we got put into our randomized teams for the first immunity challenge, our challenge is 3 DIFFERENT challenges that certain people do, and the due date is about 5 hours away.
Now onto my thoughts. I LOVE my randomized team. Is this fate? It sucks that in the next challenge, there's a high chance it won't end up as good as this, but in the event that our team loses this immunity challenge, I SHOULD be safe. Then again, I don't know the relationships of the other players here, so I should still exercise an amount of caution.
I've shied away from talking to people I haven't even met yet in the game, which is slightly distressing, but I'm ALSO talking some more with other people. This is getting unbalanced pretty quickly. Of course, it's still only the beginning of the game - but it may well end up being that I don't talk to people halfway through the game. This is a warning to myself.
I really like Solar! He's very cool. I think we literally just click. Are we the same person?? Though, I mean last night he was drunk and I haven't drank alcohol, so I guess we're not.
Gavin started talking to me some more and ended up telling me his playstyle in most Survivor games and then proceeded to ask me if I wanted to be a part of his playstyle. He was really open with it, I guess because he decided I could be trusted, but why me? I guess I'm in a symbiotic relationship now, or some form of blood pact. Hope I'm not Ralph and wreck it anytime soon.
That's all for now, I still have to submit for the challenge, but I want to have the highest score so it looks like I'm carrying the team and increase my chances for survival. Though, thinking about it, if it's TOO high of a score, everyone will notice I'm a threat.
I guess the ending thing I want to say is that the main thing I need to work on is balance, and balance is essential to a lot of things - life, work, even a Survivor ORG. Oh god, I'm getting to be too much, I'll just end it here.

### Day 3

Originally, everyone was agreeing to vote out Chrissa, which I was completely fine with. She rubbed me the wrong way with first not being around for a big portion of the challenge (though, she's said she was busy so that wasn't the worst), to flopping on the challenge and just submitting without trying any harder to lower her score. Along with that, she never talked to me. Nothing against her as a person, but I wanted her to go.
Suddenly, after I woke up, people switched to voting out Solar - which I am most definitely not okay with voting for. The rationale was that he was apparently pushing for alliances - which I'm pretty sure a lot of people have been doing since the start of the game. Along with that, apparently keeping Chrissa as someone who will drag teams down in Anarchy seems to be "strategic" when really, the teams are randomized and no one knows who will be in what team. She could end up in my team again.
In the end, I still voted Solar anyways, because the deadline draws near and I was the last one to vote, even though I told people I voted already. I'm the worst! Anyways, it really sucks because, to me, Solar reminded me the most of myself in the team, and I was really glad to meet him. He was trying in the game, unlike Chrissa. I hope somehow he sticks around through Redemption Island. I hope if I have some way of controlling votes, we vote out people who are not as good as challenges in the future, which was how this vote should have gone.
My first Tribal Council in this game and the first Tribal Council in this game in general turned out to be difficult. If only things were simple.