Going from near bankruptcy to wealth

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This is a transcript of Belana's main posts in this thread.

As some of you know, I was once a very active member of this forum, until one day, I felt the need to "lay low" for a while and concentrate on myself, so I followed my inspiration and although I've been reading some threads here and there from time to time, I hardly ever posted anymore.

And today I felt another need, you see, something amazing has happened to me and I thought, who better to share this with than my fellow abers on this forum, so here I am again, all fresh and new, AND... drumroll please... WEALTHY ::money!!!

Pre-Abe, there was a time when I didn't know how I'd get the next bill paid, when the bank wouldn't lend us any money anymore, when our house was litterally falling apart and there was no money to renovate it, when each week, we had to chose which food was the most urgent for us to buy, because we didn't have enough money to fill up our fridge and kitchen cupboards, shoes and clothes were worn until they also litterally fell apart, etc... do any of you recognize this ?

Then I found Abe, and got practicing, and although I read stories about Abers who found wealth, I guess deep-down, I never really believed this could happen to me also, so I "settled" for taking it one step at a time, and really milked the little things that happened, really got into the feeling of it all, found little games (some of them I invented myself, inspired by Abe processes or from forum members), and little by little, more money came our way. I wrote a lot about those things here on the forum, and got into several processes along with other members, did all sorts of tiny little things actually, to improve how I felt, to have some fun now and then,...

and gradually I started feeling more comfortable with a bit more money, and a bit more, and a bit more, and slowly but surely, little windfalls came our way, and we started renovating the house, little things here and there (because we still couldn't afford the expensive stuff) and then our monthly income increased a bit, and another bit, and again, slowly but surely we got comfortable having some more money, and suddenly there was some money in our savings account again, and some more, and some more, and one day, I started to play the stock market again (which is something I really love doing, but couldn't afford to for a long time), etc, etc...

And then, suddenly, oh, you're just not going to believe this, ... totally out of the blue, some far relative died, and left his house to another far relative, and that guy decided at his age he couldn't make any use of that inherritance. Can you believe there are people on this earth who think like that ? ::LOL

Anyway, long story short, he just gave the house to me, yes, you've understood right, he just GAVE me the house. And so I sold it, and then, lots of money came into my bank account, and I gave half of it to my mum, and I'm so happy I did that ::dancer and now we are also renovating our house for real, not the little stuff anymore, but we are fixing everything that needs to be fixed, we're even getting a new roof and everything, and we are using materials and all the special stuff to keep the warmth inside in winter, so we will even be saving on heating expenses and have lots more comfort, and, and, and...

I've gotta run now, but if you're interested, I'll come back later to share more ...

Belana

### Page 1, Post 7

As you all know, the changes in our lives can not be written down to "this" or "that" particular thing or quote or whatever, it's more the culmination of things I think.

It's a question of shifting our vibration from negative to positive, but that doesn't happen overnight, it's not this or that quote or process that does the trick, we go from negative to a bit more positive, to a bit more positive, to a bit more positive, and from dis-belief to a slight bit more-believer to another slight bit more, etc.

I think it's in the Money and the LOA book that they give this example of a ship being pulled to the shore by a very tiny rope, which is tied to another rope that's a bit thicker, which again is tied to another slightly thicker one, etc... they used that comparison to paint the picture of the 17 sec, where one thought leads to a stronger thought, and another one, and another one. Same thing with the shift in vibration we make, I think.

During this process, I've kept a diary though, I've written every day about what I was doing and how I was feeling, and what was happening, question of "making sure I was keeping files" in case I might need them again in future ::LOL

I'll dig up the lot and share more of what was happening over the time, I'm sure it'll be interesting for me personally to read it all back again. Hey, who knows, I might get inspired to the next big enlightenment ::LOL

I'll be back ...

Belana

### Page 2, Post 13

Hey guys,

It's very nice to see so many replies here this morning ::TU

I feel greatly appreciated ::flowers

I'll certainly share the parts of my diary that could be interesting for other Abers, but I kind of feel inspired to start by sharing what I'm doing on a daily basis, so here goes:

In the morning I'd like to start by staying in bed for a few minutes and do what Abe "tells us to", appreciating the nice little things in our surroundings, but usually hubby urges me to get up, so most of the time I don't get further than appreciating the comfy matress, the soft and warm sheets, the warm room temperature, but now that I'm writing this, I see that this is probably enough for starters ::cool

After the morning routine of washing and such, when I enter my office and the morning really starts, I take out this special book I have, where I write down my "balance of the day". I read what I wrote the day before to get in the mood of things, and then I start the new day and write down all the good things that happened already that morning, usually it starts with: "I've had a good night's sleep and feel good". During the day, I add to the list, writing down only the positives, and when negatives happen, I look for the positive in them and write those parts down.

I also take out my diary, there I write how I'm going, but also the processes I'm doing and the first thing I do every morning is chosing my focus point for the day. That is just ONE Abe-thing I'm going to practice that day. Things I've chosen were for example:

- Today I'm going to look for the positive in every negative thing that happens

- Today I'm going to pre-pave every action, think about it before acting, and notice how it makes me feel, if thinking about it makes me feel good, then I'll start the action, if it doesn't make me feel good, I'll leave it for now and go on with something else (which of course, I'll pre-pave in the same way again)

- Today I'm going to look for things that bring me fun

- Today I'm giving myself permission to be lazy, just for this one day (I often get the comment I'm a work-o-holic, so at times it's really hard for me to take time to relax when I know there's so much work waiting for me, but if I give myself permission to slack of just for that one day, I'm O.K. with it.I had to practice that one though:?it didn't just happen overnight).

- Today I'll ask myself several times how I'm feeling, if I'm not feeling good, I'll ask myself what I was thinking about, and then I'll change my focus to something nice. If I feel good, I'll congratulate myself on doing so well.

You get the picture, I find that there's so many Abe "rules" so if I choose just one for the day, that way I find it easier to stay on top of it, and if I choose another one each day (sometimes I'm using the same one for several days, but make the new commitment every morning), after a while these habits will become a second nature and I have noticed it working on some occasions, so when I catch myself doing that, I congratulate myself again for doing so well

Have you noticed that I look for ways to congratulate myself as much as possible ? ::LOL

Another thing I do daily is read some Abe stuff, I've purchased a few new Abe books and read a few pages every day, usually also in the morning, and whenever I feel like I need "a shot of positiveness"

Belana

### Page 2, Post 14

Some money-related-things I do:

- I have this special box, where we put all the discounts in that we get in any shop. I mean, we use actual money that we put in there, for the same amount as the discount we got. And if we want to buy something special for the house, kitchen, or whatever, we'll use the discount money to buy it, so that way the thing we "buy", is actually a gift, because we bought it with free money. I can tell you, it's a special feeling when you do this kind of thing in a very aware state of mind. ::cool

- I also have a "special book" (I have lots of special books already) ::LOLwhere I write down what we buy with the discount money. We've had that box for almost a year now, and last spring we bought several plant containers, soil and plants for our back porch. We've also bought 2 frying pans for the kitchenso far.

- I also play with that money. From time to time I'll take it out and count how much money is in there, and I change all the coins into bills (not adding to it, just changing the form) so it litterally GROWS, lots of small coins grow to bigger coins, lots of small bills, grow to large bills...

- I have another "special book" where I write down every gift we get, no matter how small. Could be birthday gifts, but also "out of the blue stuff", like for example, sometimes the woman of the grocery store gives us some product that reaches the expiration date, like a package of toast or so, so I'll add the package to the list. It's becoming quite a list after a while When I know the price of the item, I'll write down the amount too.

- When we eat that toast, I eat it in a very "aware" state of mind, really appreciating the woman giving us that stuff, she could just as well give it to someone else, eat it herself or just throw it out, but no, she gives it to US. Maybe it's because I do all that appreciating while eating, that she keeps giving us these things. Whatever youfocus on grows, right ?::LOL

- From time to time, hubby and me talk about how much money is in our discount box and milk it for a while. When one of us gets a small gift, we'll tell the other one and really milk it again, talking about it and really exaggerating. Boy, if some "normal" person could hear us sometimes, I swear, they'd call a doctor ::devil

Belana

### Page 3, Post 30

Wow guys, now I feel even more appreciated ::flowers, guess that's what happens when you start appreciating everything ::cool

The transformation indeed came in small steps, I think I joined the abe-cult ::devilin the spring of 2007, and looking back, that must have been the lowest point I have lived, (so Abe came along at the perfect time, when the rockets of desire were the strongest - more proof of the LOA).

Those were the days when our house was falling apart and I remember one time, when my mum asked my husband what would be the best thing for her to buy for my birthday, and my husband replied a pair of shoes would be best, because I was in desperate need of a pair (I only had one pair left and there were holes in the soles, so they wouldn't last for much longer). And he literally told my mum that, and that night she didn't get a wink of sleep, later asked me if that was true, and I diminished it and said she probably misunderstood what he had said. I told her I just hadn't found the time to go and buy some shoes, but I indeed had to go urgently now, because the part of the holes in the soles was true.

I was a great actress when it came to hiding our poverty, so I actually was doing *something* the Abe-way all along

And now, I could buy a whole shop of shoes if I wanted to, and I know that most women on this forum would probably do that ::devilbut I guess I'm not really a shoe-type woman, I only buy them because I have to put something on my feet, but I'd rather play the stock market, thank you ::devil

I've been reading up on the stock market over the last few weeks and have been daydreaming about what stock to buy, I'm like a girl in a toy shop now ::woohoo

You know, even the receiving of the house came in small steps. And it's funny, last night when I was lying in bed I was thinking I should tell you guys about the "adventure" of the receiving of the house. Because at first, when I was told I would get it, I was happy of course, but you just don't "get" a house by someone handing you the keys telling you it's yours, there's lots of legal steps to take (especially when it's actually an inherritance), soit takes a lot of time, and so I had lots of time to "think".I did my best to refocus when I caught myself "thinking" ::devil

And the whole experience was *again* proof for me of how the LOA works.Part of me still must have been uncomfortable receiving so much money, because things kept going wrong, and each time the receiving of the big ::moneywas postponed, I started thinking why this was happening and what I had done wrong. And now Jerry made me laugh this morning, because:
> lifeisgood wrote:
> You said one time that you always felt the need to review what you had done "wrong". It looks as if you now have created a habit of or reviewing whats right!
>
>

::LOL People here know more about me than those who *think* they know me in real life. ::LOL Yes Jerry, you're right, but the habit isn't totally gone yet. I really had to consciously stop myself from doing that and refocus on something nice. But hey, at least I'm able to catch myself when I go there now, so again an opportunity to congratulate myself and turn my boat around.
Yep, the whole thing was good excercise ::cool

You know, appointments were resceguled, at one point even the weather became problematic and another time the guy who was gonna give me the house nearly died (boy, that was a fright). For a moment there, I was wondering whether the universe would be so cruel as to hold the carrot of that house in front of my nose, only to eat it themselves ... but of course I know \*I\* was the one holding the carrot and keeping it at an arm's length.::chin

Do you see the ups and downs here ? Totally proves I still wasn't all that ready to easily receive lots of money, doesn't it ?

But as time went by, and I was swept between making plans (not too many, because I was afraid to put a spell on it) and letting go as much as possible, between hope and fear, going up and down the scale with rocket-speed at times,... Boy, that was a ride !

But in the end the fairy tale got a happy end ::cool

Belana

P.S.: I still haven't learned to keep my posts shorter than a book, sorry about that, I'm doing the best I can here :?

### 02-01-2010

I was just re-reading this entire thread and made some notes while doing so. It's given me a lot of insight of how all of this was possible I think. I'll share:

- Some of you refer to "being poor" and now I see I actually was poor, but that's the funniest thing, because I've never considered myself as being poor, we've always had a roof over our heads, and we've always had an income. The money just went faster than it came, but still I've never felt poor. So although the facts of poverty were there, the emotional feeling has always been one of trust in the future (that's insight nr 1: the feelings are more important than the facts)

- Previously, when I heard about stories like this one, or when I read them on this forum, I was happy for the person it happened to, but I now realize there was also always kind of a sting in my heart, I don't really know how to describe this exactly, I know I wasn't jeallous in the way that I wasn't able to grant that person their success, but there was this flash of a thought that went "this kind of thing will never happen to me" or "why doesn't this ever happen to me", thoughts like that. I guess that because they went so fast and they were so "small", and you never really want to admit to yourself that you're that kind of person, you know ? The jeallous kind :?. I guess what I'm trying to say is, than when I started to learn to really appreciate the small things, the touches of jeallousy left me :)and that must have made a big difference. (insight nr 2: feel genuinly happy for the person without bringing it back to yourself and feeling sorry for yourself)

- The appreciating on itself is a VERY large part of the allowance of your own success as I see it. There's a thread on this forum about appreciating money and than receiving some totally out of the blue. Several forum members have testified it has worked for them and why ? Because of the appreciation itself.

In the past, when someone gave me something (like the example of the grocery shop keeper giving us a package of toast), I thought nothing of it, just ate the toast and found it "normal" I would be given something like that, because they couldn't sell stuff like that anymore and coincidently I was just there at that exact time. But we all know coincidences don't really exist, right ? Now on the other hand, I started milking and exaggerating things like that and as a result it happens more and more. There's a little "negative end of the stick" there, if you appreciate to get something out of it, it won't work, you really have to appreciate for the appreciating in itself, for the warm feeling you get from appreciating and nothing more. (insight nr 3: appreciate for the appreciating in itself, without a hidden agenda)

- When I would see a movie about someone inherriting from a far relative (usually it's someone they never knew existed in the movie, right ?), I would think that would never happen to me because there simply wasn't anybody I could inherrit that kind of money from. But with me building my wealth consciousness little by little, the universe found another way to get the money to me. I didn't believe I would inherrit it anywhere, so someone else who inherrited just donated their inherritance to me. Kind of crazy when you think about it, isn't it ? ::LOL (insight nr 4: the how really IS not our pie)

- In the "poor days" I felt like I had to keep the oversight to keep things under control, so I would always count everything together we had to pay that week, I did that over and over again, never realizing this behavior was keeping me where I was, feeling low self confidence (because of course the sum of the bills was always a big amount of which I always knew there was NO way we would be able to pay all of that in time, so most of the time I felt like a failure). At one point, encouraged by Abe and other forum members' experiences, I gave up on that bad habbit, again step by step, not even bad habbits can be let loose in one go ::devil and even though I still counted everything together once in a while, most of the time I could get myself to look only at the first bill that was due and not look at the rest. So I hardly ever saw the "large amount" anymore, so the amounts automatically were smaller, so they actually became smaller (and there were less of them) in time, and now, the bills are all paid in time, (I'm talking BEFORE the receiving of that house, with just our normal income) and the only time I feel my heartbeat and breath go up a notch, is when I see a bill that's extremely large (for things that need to be done around the house, that only have to be taken care of once every decade or so). The normal, monthly bills are never added together anymore and they don't freak me out anymore either. (insight nr 5:adding dept together only makes it grow, NOT adding bills together actually makes them grow smaller)

I hope you guys get something from these insights too ::flowers

P.S.: I've been away from this forum for about half a year and ever since I wrote my first post a few days ago, I've been on a high and now I realize that boy, have I missed you guys... (I guess that's insight nr 6: turn to people who understand the LOA instead of only mixing with people who haven't got a clue -yet) ::devil

:kiss:

Belana

I see now I've just written another "book", again sorry guys :(

My name is Belana and I'm a write-a-book-o-holic ::LOL

### 02-02-2010

Goooooooood morning everybody ::group

Again, I feel VEEEERRRRRYYYYY appreciated by all of you ::TU

I wanted to share something that I found very surprising. As I've written before, it took a very long time before the money actually landed in my bank account. Sometimes I was feeling hopeful, other times I was feeling very nervous, destressed even at times and I had expected I would feel absolutely great once the deal would be complete. But to my GREAT surprise, I didn't feel quite that different than before. Of course the nervousness and the stress and anxiety was gone, but I had expected to feel completely different with lots of money in the account and that didn't happen.

So again, proof that what Abe states really IS absolutely true, it's not the stuff itself that makes us feel different, otherwise I would have felt really different. So don't we have to ask ourselves, why are we always chasing so much stuff ? When it's not the stuff that brings us the good feelings after all.

I don't know, maybe my post sounds like I'm not happy with the money, but that's not it. I am very happy that this happened, and transferring half of it to my parents' account felt really, really good. If I think about what they now will be able to do that they couldn't before, I feel even more happy. And I'm sure that once I'll be paying large invoices to all the companies that come work on our house and I see the house turning into "my little castle" I'll feel even more happy, but bottom line remains, it's not the stuff, it's our thoughts about it all.

I think I'm really getting it now (before I only thought I did). And I understand why we have to feel it first before it can actually happen. What happens (the stuff that comes) is just the match to the feeling we've been having all along, and that's just why it doesn't feel differently to suddenly have all that money in your account. The feeling was already there, I just didn't take notice of it.

Hope my rambling makes any sense ::chin

:kiss:

Belana

### 02-02-2010

Nearly forgot, I didn't even have to look for a buyer, it was the buyer who found me, not the other way around. That's quite unusual in these parts.

Normally you put a house on the market, you try to sell it yourself for some time, after a few months nothing is happening, you contact a real estate company, they usually promise you tons of money, you get excited, you sign the contract, again months go by, lots of people come and look at the house but they all find it too expensive, and so the ones that are really interested don't buy because it's too expensive and then, when all the good ones have come by and have gone again (and you missed out on great opportunities to sell the house), the real estate company tells you this is wrong with the house, and that's wrong with the house, and then they give you all sorts of reasons why this particular house can't be sold.

You lose your trust and belief, you change real estate companies and you lower the price. Usually the next company tells you that the price the other company gave you is ridiculously high and they start bringing in other people, and more people,...

And before you know it a year goes by without having sold your house and in the end you are glad you got rid of it, and you even don't really care about whether you got a good price for it or not, you just want the whole thing to stop, and so you practically at some point sell to the first one that comes along and at any price he's prepared to offer.

This kind of story I've heard many times, from lots of people, so you can imagine that MY buyer just showed up at my doorstep and he gave MORE for the house than it was actually worth (market value). He just really, really wanted it, and that was that.

I didn't have to put it on the market, didn't have to pay for any adds, didn't even have to pay a commission to a real estate company, and didn't even have to invest time to run to the house with this person and that person for an entire year.

The selling in itself couldn't have happened any smoother ::cool

:kiss:

Belana

P.S.: boy, this forum is absolutely GREAT, here you can tell people what happens to you, tell it like it is, and they all are happy for you instead of jeallous ::hugging As a result, you get more happy yourself, you tell them about it, and they get happier, and so the ball is rolling and keeps on rolling, and everybody's comfort zone expands...

### 02-03-2010

A strange thing just happened...

I planned to look up my personal evolution over the last six months, and last October it seems I was having a hard time feeling good about opening invoices. And I found an entry that I think some of you might benefit from.

So I wanted to come and share this with you guys, but then my diary accidentally closed and I couldn't find that post anymore, so I dugged and dugged deeper, only to find I had written it not this last October, but in October 2008, so my guess is that SOMEONE on this forum must be in desperate need of this, or I wouldn't have been reeding a year earlier than I had planned ::LOL

\*\*\*

Here goes:

I'm feeling uncomfortable every time I open an invoice.

- They do not deserve me paying for this, because this hasn't brought me any good results.

- They do deserve this, because they did their part of the work, so they kept their promise to me, so in turn I have to keep my promise to them, namely to pay their invoice.

- The money I'm paying them is going to be used to pay their suppliers, like the people who deliver the material that's been used, the electricity company, the machinery and computer suppliers, the phone company, and all their personnel.

- All those companies together have a lot of people working for them and a number of those people are customers at again other companies, who again have people working for them that get paid and who are using part of their salary to bring us more business. So part of the money I'm paying them today, is coming back to me through other people.

- I'm helping the economy by paying for this invoice

- When I feel bad when opening an invoice, that's a sign that my IB doesn't agree with me on the thoughts I'm thinking that are giving me the bad feelings. My IB knows those people deserve to be paid for the work they did.

- My IB also knows that in order for me to get more money flowing in fluently, I have to feel comfortable with money flowing OUT fluently.

(also added was: "the uncomfortable feelings have now been replaced with very neutral-feeling-feelings and thoughts" and apparently after that writing exercise I was able to pay the invoice with a neutral feeling instead of a feeling of resistance)

This was written Oct.2008, and right now, reading this back, I can hardly believe it was ME who had written this. I'm noteven able to recall the negative feelings I used to get from opening invoices. Not that I'm trying to ... ::LOL

So, there !

I hope that whoever I've written this for, gains something from it ::hugging

:kiss:

Belana

### 02-03-2010, 01:40 PM

Hi Rebecca,

Nice to see you again too ::hugging

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Have I told you guys about my money-rain-meditation ?

Sit quietly and relax, take a few deep breaths, do whatever you normally do when you start a meditation.

Then imagine yourself sitting in an empty room and you're just enjoying the quietness and the warm temperature and the bright color of the room and then you feel something falling down on your head, like a feather touching your hair, it falls to the ground and you see it's a dollar/euro bill(or whatever currency you normally use). And you see more and more bills start to fall down, just like the start of the snow in winter. And they fall all around you, and you start playing with them, and then you collect them, and put them in shoe boxes, and then you build piles of shoe boxes, all filled with money, large bills and small ones, and they start falling faster and faster and they are piling up, they are becoming mountains of money, and you can do whatever you can do with that money,... (go on as wanted)

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I've done this meditation often and I'll go with whatever fantasy comes to mind. Sometimes I'm there all by myself, but other times I have a whole staff with me, and we sit on the floor in a circle and we all have shoe boxes which we are filling and piling, and sometimes we even put stacks of money in envelopes and we put address labels on each of them and then we take them all to the post office and we send them to everyone in the country and the next day the guy that reads the news reports about something very strange that's been happening that day. He says that all over the country, every citizen has received an envelope with money, together with a note that said to have fun with that money and share a smile to everybody they see the next day, and the next, and if they keep it up for 30 days, their life will transform.

It feels sooooooooo good, I can't even begin to tell you, and it works wonders to expand your feel of money.

:kiss:

Belana

### 02-03-2010, 01:45 PM

::LOL::LOL::LOL

Oh, you'll never believe this...

I wanted to add that this meditation often brings me extra money the exact same day I do the meditation. My e-mail program is open while I'm at the forum and I heard there's new e-mail, so I went to check it out before adding another post and what do I find ?

::singer someone orders more work from me ::singer

so more money ::money and I haven't even done the meditation today, all I did was imagine while typing ::LOL

You see ? You don't even have to do it with your eyes closed, it works while typing also. ::LOL::LOL::LOL

:kiss:

Belana

### 02-04-2010, 05:16 AM

Hi guys,

Ever since I was a little girl, I've always liked playing with real money and I was allowed to do that. THANKS MUM ::hugging

Because of my parents' profession, there was always a lot of cash money in the house, andmy mumhad this large money box where she put in the money that came in during the day, before taking it to the bank, so there were always all kinds of coins, well, not so many coins actually, morebills, very large ones too, and as a child I would invent a lot of games to amuse myself and the games I loved the most, were always the ones where I brought money into it. And so you might say I used to play with my mum's money box practically all the time. ::LOL

I have to say that I was a very cautious child, I hardly ever broke or misplaced anything. I guess that's why mum trusted me enough to let me play with all that money. When I think about it, that must have been something very unusual to other people (of course nobody knew about it) ::deviland not many parents would allow their children to play with REAL money, but my mum DID.

I also had a savings box and from time to time, my mum and me would take it out, put a large paper on the table (because money is dirty, right ?) ::deviland then we'd throw all the money on the table and make piles of coins, put them together in rows and count and that was FUN !

I'm inspired to ask those of you who have children,to do this kind of thing with them. Obviously you remember something like that for your entire life and it certainly teaches you that money is something to have FUN with. (the "you have to work for money and money is neccessary to pay all the bills with" -part they'll be "taught" by others enough, don't you think ?)

Concerning the large money box my parents had, as a child I saw loads of money going in and out of that box, so back then I was conditioned to the fact that money should flow in and out fluently ::chin

I know most people aren't able to do this kind of thing, I mean most don't get much money in their hands, it's usually just numbers in the bank account, but with the profession my parents had, it was impossible for it NOT to happen like that.

The stuff they sold brought in lots of cash money, and then they took the money to the bank, and then the invoices from the suppliers came, and they payed the invoices and then the bank account was almost empty again. But of course, I didn't see the bank account going empty, I only saw lots of money piling up in that large box, they emptied it, and then it was filled again. It was like you had to empty the box for more money to come, hmm, interesting ::chin

Well, to summarize, as a child I KNEW how much fun money could be and I KNEW it was supposed to go out and back in again smoothly, and somewhere down the line I dis-learned that and then it became hard for me to get enough money in to survive. But now, I'm learning AGAIN that money is supposed to be FUN ! ::singer

:kiss:

Belana

### 02-04-2010, 05:30 AM

fromknowingtojoy wrote:

Belana, you made me feel excited about stock market. I never thought it can be like playing. Is it difficult to learn?::chin

Actually, there are professional stock-brokers on this forum, I'm sure if they read this, they'll chime in.

I'm not a professional, I've just always liked to play with real money (see my previous post), and now with the online-banking possibility, it's actually easy to PLAY stock-broker also.::LOL

I'm sure if you look around a bit, in just about every country of the free west, there are online banks where you can play with the stock market without investing for real. Usually they call it a virtual portfolio. Maybe you could check it out. That way you can buy stock with virtual money, so without risk. You'll soon feel if it's something you like or not.

I've done that too, but as you probably can imagine, I didn't get a lot of fun out of it, because it wasn't REAL money. (I don't like playing Monopoly all that much either, because of the FAKE money) ::LOL

So after only a short while, I was using real money and of course I lost many times, but somehow, even though I was playing with my first (and small) savings at the time, I managed to get over it very quickly, because I remembered how much FUN and EXCITEMENT it was to see the movements the shares made (you can see them change every few seconds on your computer screen, and because it was REAL money I saw moving so much, it was a lot of fun for me).

And the times I won, I was singing and dancing ::singer::singer::singer

I'm very interested in economics and I follow the economical news daily. I know watching the news isn't exactly something that's bringing a lot of positivity for most Abers, but I've always managed to see the positive sides of each and every news item (I'm talking economics, not the "usual" news broadcast) and the negatives don't seem to get to my brain somehow ::LOL

Does this bring any clarity for you ?

:kiss:

Belana

### 02-04-2010, 08:14 AM

As I was going on with re-reading my diary, I found an entrance that was written about a year ago, that you might find interesting. I know I did :)

The text written in italics is the actual text written in my diary (and the text in little print is added to make things a little clearer about what was going on)

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What I'm living is a direct result of my vibration.

What anybody else is living has got nothing to do with me.

I should make my choices and decisions based on what I want, without considering what's in it for others. (at the time, I was having issues with a certain person, and I was more involved with what results my decisions would bring them extra, than I was with what it would change for me).

It's all about how I'm feeling, I'm feeling good about the work I'm doing. I'm not going to bang things into place anymore. It'll come when the time is right and if it doesn't, that just means something better is waiting for me.

I don't have to physically be in our new house, to live there, it's all about thoughts and imagination. (we have been wanting to move to a bigger place for quite a while now, but finances and other "practical problems" have kept us from finding the right place so far)

There's no rush to do anything, I can do whatever I like, whenever I like.

I could live my life imagining and nothing more.

I could only "do" something when I felt a strong calling to do it.

What if I filled my days with reading, meditating and imagining ? Wouldn't I be drawn to the exact right action at the exact right time ?

It's been a really long while since I last worried about something, it's now a habitual thing to just let go and let be and let everything work itself out, so what if I stopped asking questions all together about how to improve things, how to attract more work, etc... Wouldn't the perfect ideas present themselves on a silver platter while meditating, reading and doing fun or relaxing things ?

So far for my diary entrance. Reading it all back, I notice that up till a point I have been doing this "letting go" pretty well at times. I've gotten pretty good at not caring anymore what other people think about what I'm doing or not doing. And while meditating, so doing nothing but imagine and live in a fantasy world, I've gotten great ideas and inspiration on many occasions.

The pracicality of daily life prevents me from doing it all day long so far ::devil but to me, it proves that taking only one day once in a while to PLAY instead of work, and taking only an hour a day or so during the other days, can actually make a big difference. The hour spent in virtual reality doesn't even have to be spent in one go, you can cut it into pieces of 5 minutes now, and 10 mins.later...

I've experienced that "working" this way, so act after virtual reality actually saves so much time, that the time spent daydreaming is actually "extra time" that's created, because the work, once started, gets done the way it's done best. Without the daydreaming, the work would be started immediately, and after ... hours, only to notice that's not right, it should be done in another way, to start all over again, and in doing so, losing a lot of time, and waisting unnecessary efforts...

So daydreaming/ spending time in virtual reality, physically creates more hours in the day.

:kiss:

Belana

P.S.: in case you hadn't noticed, I'm spending today the way I like, and only work when I feel like it today.

### 02-05-2010, 05:02 AM

Would you guys believe that yesterday I received some money in my bank account that wasn't even meant for me ? ::LOLI've NEVER had that priviledge before. ::LOL

I've never heard of that person, I'm sure they don't owe me any money, but still, they made a payment to my account. ::LOL

O.K., I know this must be a mistake, and the amount will probably disappear automatically again, with appologies from the bank for the mistake, but still, I note that I'm receiving more money and it comes through VERY unexpected sources. ::LOL

:kiss:

Belana

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