Week 3

Okay at the end of week 1 Alex trusts me a lot. I wanted to think what was best for my game though and that was to vote out Danielle instead of AB, so that's what I did. I'm happy that Alexa and I were able to convince Jenna to do so as well. Right now, I'm not sure why Alexa doesn't trust he at all? It could be because Jenna is good with A LOT OF PEOPLE in this game (She's at the middle, I would say.) But I digress, there was one extra vote so people thought that maybe there's a VL vote? I think so too but who knows!
Week 2 was UTR week for me because I had betrayed a lot of people (notably AJ, Alex, Charley and Syd) I still wanted to reconnect with them because I like all of them as persons and they 100% deserved an apology from me. I feel like AJ and Alex didn't take it too well but I'm happy that I at least got to keep my relationship with Syd and Char. Estef wins HOH and wants Alex out, that works for me because Alex was pretty mad at me. Estef nominates CC/Zak as pawns and AJ wins the Pov. Honestly I was unsure whether AJ would use it or not but I'm glad she did. Alex was sent home and I believe that the people who saved Alex were Char,AJ,Syd and Zak.
So this week! Zak wins HOH and I'm ngl. For the first time I'm actually a little scared because I don't have a good relationship with this guy. I legitimately only started to talk to him A DAY AGO so hopefully the stuff that has happened in 24 hours will keep me safe. Otherwise, good luck for me in the VETO!!!!!!!!! (Unless I'm backdoored which would be AWFUL!!!!!)
Anyways I won't stop trying and I will try to get my allies to save me!! I'm happy that Jenna is close to Zak and the peeps I'm not so close with so we can keep each other safe!!!!!!
PS: If Ryan strikes himself out I might just cry.

AnnaJane: This girl is honestly a badass. We relate really well on a personal level and I could see her as a potential threat long-term. She has her rivalry with AnnaBelle which will keep her focused on a set objective. I’m in her alliance of her/Sydney/Zak/Jenna/Charley but I do not plan on staying loyal to that, I’m merely participating in it to cover my game on all sides. I hope to use the members in that alliance as a way for me to take a shot at some of my allies without revealing my strategy.
AnnaBelle: My closest female friend on the ORG. She’s a huge threat but I love her to pieces so I’m going to have to use someone else to take her out later on.
Charley: Same as AnnaJane. We’ve been close for a while, she’s sweet.
Christina/Courtney: I love Christina! She’s so blunt and funny. She/Joey aren’t included in either alliance so they’re basically free agents. Wouldn’t be surprised if Jenna/others had secret side alliances with them which is why I’m doing the same.
Elmo: Huge threat, huge heart and also talks a lot about my big reputation as an ORG player. He’ll try to backstab me later on and will feel terrible about it… I’m not letting my guard down.
Estefana: Same opinion as when we started. Love her though.
Forrest: My ride or die. He knows me better than anyone here so influencing him has to be subtle. I’m looking out for him.
Jenna: I’m very close with Jenna but I’m not loyal to her and I do not trust her at all. She’s in my position as a double agent except for her… it’s an illusion. AnnaBelle’s side does not trust her and sees through her “play the middle” game probably because I spent so much time painting her as untrustworthy and shady. I’m keeping her close until it’s time to send her packing because she will not hesitate to call me out. On a personal level she’s alright but strategically she’s really bad at hiding her relationships. She’s already revealed to me that she’s super close to Zakriah. Her best bet is to stick with AnnaJane/Charley/Sydney etc but I want her to betray them so that she’s deemed untrustworthy by all sides of the house.
Joey: Same opinion as Christina.
Miguel: Same opinion as Forrest, except he’s playing similarly to Estefana which means I have to keep him in the dark about most things.
Ryan: He’s on the outer ring of the Anna/Will side, I like him but he’s nowhere near my top allies list.
Sydney: She scares me… A lot. This girl is smart and is the only person I’m afraid that’ll catch on to my game. I’m not going to change my behavior with her despite her side being in power this week because I don’t want to give her any red flags. She is always on high-alert and fooling Sydney is not easy. I want her gone the first chance I can send her home.
Will: Same opinion as Sydney except he’s not on my immediate targets list. He knows me pretty well so I know he won’t hesitate to send me home. I see through his act though at pretending to have a broken fence with Jenna via Jenna since she revealed to me that he’s trying to get close to her despite stating to people in the alliance that he dislikes her and doesn’t trust her.
Zakriah: He’s really sweet but he’s a little messy with information control. I’d like to see him go home pretty soon but I’m playing up my loyalty this week.

I'm not stupid. I don't care about winning. There's a difference between the two. I don't talk to part of the cast because I don't want to waste my time with it. I know I won't win because I'm straight up terrible at big brother, but again, I'm not stupid. I'm perceptive, I know when people are fucking with me. It's funny because they lie to my face, and I get to play the wide eye'd idiot like YEAH I TRUST YOU LET'S GO TO THE END but like dude you're not good at hiding your shadiness. Everyone in this damn game is shady, the only ones I really trust are Jenna and Sydney for now, because I have no reason not to.
The saddest for me is Alexa. I love her as a person, and always will, (Alexa if you read this ily <3) but in this game I KNOW she is back dealing. How do I know? Well, I know that Forrest is one of her friends, I see them talk all the time on her statuses, and yet she has never brought him up once, clue number two. Also, Sydney told me that she doesn't trust her and that Alex said she was flipping the vote, clue two. I don't mind my friends lying to me in a game, why it kind of sucks with Alexa is she is the one pushing our friendship and how much she trusts me because we are friends. She can lie all she wants, I just wish she wasn't using our friendship as a way to get me to trust her and then lying. Regardless, it's a game, and unless someone makes it personal I don't care, I won't hate anyone over lying in a game. Anyone that does that is kinda dumb because these games are built on lying and deceit.
I'm not going to confront anyone right now because then that would give away my cover. I want them to think I'm an idiot for as long as possible, keep not caring. That way I can be of some use to my alliance before I'm inevitably taken out by this majority.

Forrest told our alliance chat that Jenna is saving him.... kk work good 4 u. now it's time to make sure elmo & i are not even an option in zakriah's mind as a renom :) shouldn't be too difficult tbqh, i shall let you know if it was successful or not

i'm feeling like such a minnow in this game lmao. like one of those players i despise watching BB on tv who don't do shit the first half of the game and just coast & let others control the board. i hate it but literally.... that's how you win nowadays lmao. so! i'm straight up just focused on keeping my head above water & building a solid foundation for once it gets time for jury :)