Chapter 5: The Secret's Beginning

NOZOMU NOZOMI

THE SECRET'S BEGINNING

CHAPTER 5 OF THE MANGA

Days later, Tao is at school, pausing to review, think, and meditate at the best possible location for such activities---sitting on the toilet in the boy's room ! The conflict between their mind, and that of their heart and spirit, is just beginning to heat up, as the 'battle lines' are being drawn inside Tao's conflicted personality. The mind is telling Tao to embrace their birth sex of male, as that is what has been done up 'till now. The heart and spirit is saying to abandon the phony masquerading of supposedly being a male, and accept their beginning changes to that of a female. Tao notes that **it has been three days since the beginning of the change to a girl**. They are, due to the mind's influence, worried that someone may accidentally find out what is happening to them. One of the first problems up for consideration is what to do about going to the toilet. Where ? Boys, or Girls ? If boys, they would have to sit down to urinate each and every time, as a girl would. Another male student, in fact the boy who broke his arm and could not play on the baseball team for the recent competition, Yasu, comes in to use the urinal. Standing up, he tells himself that it is difficult to "go" using only one hand and arm. His other arm is in a cast, healing from breaking it. Suddenly, Yasu, somehow knowing it is Tao in the toilet stall, shouts out to him, asking if he is actually 'doing his business' or just sitting there and goofing off. Tao barks out a hearty, NO, not goofing off !!!

When Tao comes out of the boy's restroom, they run into a couple or so other irritatingly curious boys in the hallway. Those boys question Tao, wanting to know why they are using the toilet stalls, instead of the urinals lately ? Is it because "something" is happening that is not supposed to be seen or known about ? Guesses are entertained, but Tao denies all of what is speculated about. Red flags go up in Tao's mind, as their heart shoots up into their throat during the gossip. Yet, they keep their calm and composure. Yasu points out that if a guy with girly features and attitudes insists that they are fully and completely male, wouldn't anyone lose confidence in that person's ability to be believed about anything ? That person is just masquerading as a male, and not being true to themselves. Tao is silent.

Ide-san, a student herself in the high school, comes upon the guys questioning Tao. She wants to know what you guys are talking about that is turning Tao beet red ? "Have you seen it ?" What ? The picture of Tao wearing a girl's party dress ? Ide-san says the she has seen 'the real McCoy', but is not interested in making fun of Tao, like you degenerate life forms are dong. Tao says that of course Ide-san had seen me wearing a party dress, as she is the one who helped me to get dressed into it. A boy asks if this was the time when the team had to go through a punishment game, and dress as cheerleaders ? Tao remarks to Yasu that he had to do it, too, right ? Yasu says that they did not play in that losing game, as they had a cast on their arm, remember ? Another boy says that the team lost because Tao was playing in that game, and not Yasu. A third boy cries out that they want to see that picture of Tao dressed like a cute teenage girl ! The boy with the picture says that he wouldn't show it, unless ones are prepared to pay the price. That picture is pure gold !

After school, Tao and Yasu are walking outside together. Yasu asks Tao what they are going to do this Sunday ? Tao answers that they are going shopping during the day, and might watch the Titan's baseball game on local cable TV in the evening. Yasu wants to know if he can go shopping together with Tao ? Tao confesses that they are going clothes shopping with their sister, Kanae. Yasu candidly remarks that he hates Tao's sister. Because of her tomboy style and attitudes, half the girls in our class are tomboys, with the worst being Ide-san. He goes on to say that the way that Tao has been acting recently, he is more feminine and likeable than any of those tomboy girls. Tao becomes irritated at that comment about Ide-san. They emphatically state that Ide-san in a cute, sweet girl, and those guys got her all wrong. Ide-san hears all the guys call her a tomboy, or worse, but she never gets to hear the other students who truly think she is quite feminine and attractive. Yasu says that you, Tao, say that, but you weren't there in the restaurant that one day when Ide-san went nuts over a baseball game that was playing on the TV in the dining room, just like a fan-crazed guy. Tao counters by saying that is just like Ide-san, she really loves baseball.

That following Sunday morning, Tao opens the door to their bedroom and yells downstairs to Mom. Tao wants to know if there are any boy's briefs underwear left to wear ? Mom says that she threw them all out, and replaced all of their underwear with boxer shorts. That is what you should be wearing now. Not good ! Tao goes to the bedroom dresser, and sure enough, it is filled with boxer shorts. They select a plaid one and try it on. Also not good ! The seam up the center rubs Tao's 'girl bits' the wrong way. The rubbing gives off girly sensations, and serves to remind them that they are a girl now.

Later that afternoon at the downtown department store, in the teen clothing section, Kanae asks Mom about a clothing choice that she just selected ? NO WAY ! Mom suggests to Kanae to pick out something that is not so adult-like and provocative. Kanae bemoans that to please Mom, she has to wear little girl styled clothing. Kanae than turns to Tao, asking what do they think is good for a girl to wear? (Kanae and Tao have a secret understanding between them. Tao can select girl's clothes that they want to wear, with Kanae actually ordering up the clothes as if they were for her.) Tao points to a Lolita styled jumper dress on a stand. It comes with a white blouse with a peter pan collar, and short puff sleeves. The jumper dress itself is of a pleasing pale maroon color, with spaghetti straps over the shoulders, a ruffled front like a bustier, and tiered layers of fabric for the skirt part of the dress, with a very short hemline falling at mid-thigh. The dress is styled like something a 10 year old little girl would wear, yet the sizing would be big enough to fit Tao! Kanae picks up on why Tao pointed to that particular dress, and tells Mom that she wants it. Mom is shocked at Kanae's immediate change of fashion style, but is well pleased. Mom asks Tao what he wants ? Tao knows not to ask for more girl's clothes, so they only say that they want some athletic wear. Kanae says that black athletic clothing is good, so Tao tells Kanae to go select what she would want Tao to wear. Mom becomes puzzled as to why the two siblings are acting so close and intimate with one another ?

The three leave the teen's department with three packages. Kanae asks Mom if it is okay for her to get a lot of underwear ? (Underwear for two?) The three head on over to the teen's intimate wear department. Wow! Bras and panties as far as the eye can see ! Tao, heart pounding away like a hammer and anvil, says that they will retire to the video game area. Just before they go, Kanae pulls Tao aside and whispers what kind of girl's panties do they want ? Well....striped ones are good ! Kanae then yells at Mom that she wants a good assortment of striped panties ! Mom gives the "okay"! Tao breaks out into a cold sweat, but says nothing.

The next day that Tao had baseball practice, Tao comes over to the bleachers where Kouji-sempai and Yasu are sitting, talking with one another. Tao sits next to Kouji-sempai. Suddenly, without warning, Kouji-sempai grabs Tao's arm, and pulling on it, belts out that he heard from their Dad that Tao has a lean, muscular, masculine body. Kouji-sempai gets Tao to practically sit on his lap, and fondles Tao's shoulders and chest, from his position behind Tao. He candidly remarks that it seems that Tao has small 'muffin tops' on their chest. He wonders why there are these tiny pads of fat under Tao's nipples ? Tao is greatly embarrassed, but offers nothing in the way of explanation. Kouji-sempai merely tells Tao that they are at their masculine prime, so to work their muscular, virile male body for their benefit. Tao shudders in abject terror and trepidation, knowing that someone has noticed that they have the very beginnings of breast buds, but says only that they will do their best at baseball practice.

(End Chapter 5)

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