Chapter 126: I'm Airing My Frustrations

**I'm Airing My Frustrations** is the one-hundred-and-twenty-sixth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Kyoutaoru and Kana are eating cold noodles at the dining room table, and she tells him he hasn't put mayo on his food. In a daze from over-studying, he starts pouring some on, but quickly realizes that he doesn't usually use mayo and yells about it. Kana confirms her suspicions, knowing he was acting strange. As he grabs his bag to head out, his mother asks if he wants her to pick him up after school, but he says he'll be fine as the two women look at each other in worry.

At cram school, Kyoutarou considers how close their retreat is, and is worried about being able to focus on his studies, since he's been having difficulty thinking altogether. As he heads out, he finds his mother waiting in the car outside, and he gets in, but complains, saying he was fine. She uses the excuse that if she doesn't drive once in a while, she'll get out of practice, and drives them home.

Inside, his mother announces their arrival, and Kyoutarou notices an unfamiliar pair of shoes at the entrance. Yamada walks out of the kitchen, welcoming him home. He asks why she's there, surprised, and Kana says she invited her over as a friend. Yamada quickly pulls out her phone and snaps a picture of his forehead, which he has had exposed since this morning with the help of a hairclip. He angrily tousles his hair while explaining, and Kana comments how out of it he's been. Kana says that she's cooked, and asks if he wants some, but he denies her, saying he had some bread at the convenience store. Yamada adds that she helped cook as well, and he sits apprehensively at the table. Kana introduces the meal as pork shabu with a shio sauce, and brings out a can of garlic seasoning, adding it to his meal, despite his complaints. He takes a bite, saying it tastes like garlic, and Kana brings up how he didn't eat his lunch earlier, which he says was her fault. He finishes and thanks them for the food, leaving the two girls to continue discussing food. He heads upstairs, and hears the voice of his father, who has just finished assembling an ergonomic rolling chair in the hallway. He asks him about it, and declares to his son that the most important item you can have is a chair. He finds this advice odd, but takes it into his room as Yamada follows him inside. He collapses onto his bed, saying he's exhausted, as she comments on the chair, and his father smiles as he takes the old, star-patterned chair downstairs.

Inside, Yamada sits on his new chair, while he keeps his back to her, saying that they're being way too obvious. He beats himself up, saying he wishes that he could ask for their help, but is afraid of what will happen if he fails. He starts cursing at the idea, thinking that he focuses on the negative, it will end up happening, and that he's been trying not to allow such unnecessary things to enter his head. Yamada places her hand on his shoulder and joins him on the bed, telling him it's fine to let it out. She comments on how hard he's working, and how difficult his goal is, so it's normal to become negative, but that he hasn't given up, saying that that is the Ichikawa Kyoutarou that she loves. She says she feels the same way about herself, and he turns around to face her as he thinks back to when he listened to all of her frustrations, and how much of a relief it was. The two lean in for a kiss, but at the last moment, he remembers the garlic from his meal and cuts it off. He looks up, and notices that the door is wide open, and at around this time Kana pokes her head in, asking him if he has a second, and he realizes how close they were to getting caught. She produces a slip of paper, and says that they are the lyrics to the song they're going to do at their next show, and asks if he wants to see. Yamada asks if it's the same one that was a sibling collaboration, while Kyoutarou panics over the prospect of Yamada finding out about the confession song. He keeps the note away from her, and looks it over, with images of Yamada's confession flashing behind him. He realizes that it's even closer than he was expecting, and asks his sister if he can make a few adjustments.