Hate Myself

"Hate Myself" is the second single on dodie's debut album "Build a Problem". It was released on January 12, 2021.

## About

"Hate Myself" is about "passive aggression" and "finding anxiety in someone's silence". Dodie describes it as "a feeling that I have to deal with when someone else in my life, be it a partner or a friend, like, goes quiet, like, thinks introspectively and deals with their problems internally, I freak out, ‘cause I’m like, ‘I’m the problem,’ like, ‘what have I done, to make you feel upset?’ And that’s probably coming from past trauma".

## Lyrics

[Verse 1][1]

Could it be different? Did I ruin the day?

Oh, do you look angry? Oh, what did I say?

Filling in the gaps, build a problem that

Neither of us needs, something wrong with me (Mmh-mmh-mmh)

I'm getting desperate, losing my mind

Oh, how do we get here, every time?

One will fold their arms, one will do the dance

Really is no need, something wrong with me

[Pre-Chorus]

No, I don't think I can help it (Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha!)

(Nope)

[Chorus]

Oh, so illogical, I'm not magical, I can't read your mind

But how can you not hear the whole conversation?

I have, sitting still with a brain on fire

I know, it's a me-thing

Eyes closed - isn't helping?

When you go quiet, I hate myself

When you go quiet, I hate myself

[Verse 2]

Look at you sideways, playing a game

Oh, what if I laugh now, think I'm insane

Filling in the gaps, build a problem that

Neither of us needs, something wrong with me

Pushing a boundary, something to prove

Strong expectation, you already lose

Oh, one will fold their arms, one will do the dance

Really is no need, something wrong with me

[Pre-Chorus]

No, I don't think I can help it (K)

[Chorus]

Oh, so illogical, I'm not magical, I can't read your mind (Read your mind)

But how can you not hear the whole conversation?

I have, sitting still with a brain on fire (Brain on fire)

I know, it's a me-thing

Eyes closed - isn't helping?

When you go quiet, I hate myself

When you go quiet, I hate myself

[Bridge]

Give me a mystery

Maybe they'll bloom for me

It's always the quiet ones

Oh, something here must be done

I'm hoping I'm ready here

Don't think they get me, dear

I'm only proving how

I'm only worth losing now

Give me a mystery, maybe they'll bloom for me

It's always the quiet ones, something here must be done

I'm hoping I'm ready here, don't think they get me, dear

(When you go quiet, I hate myself)

Don't think they get me, dear

(No I don't...)

Give me a mystery, maybe they'll bloom for me

It's always the quiet ones, something that must be done

I'm hoping I'm ready here, don't think they get me, dear

(When you go quiet, I hate myself)

Don't think they get me, dear

[Outro]

No, I don't think (Don't think they get me here)

I can help it (Don't think they get me here)

No, I don't think (Don't think they get me here)

I can help it (When you go quiet, I hate myself)

(Don't think they get me here)

No, I don't think (Don't think they get me here)

I can help it (Don't think they get me here)

No, I don't think (Don't think they get me here)

I can help it (When you go quiet, I hate myself)

No, I don't think

I can help it

(Mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm)

## Trivia

* According to dodie, the song was "written on a guitalele, and it was definitely inspired by HAIM".

## Gallery

Dodie - Hate Myself (Live) - Vevo Studio PerformanceDodie - Hate Myself (Official Lyric Video)Dodie - Hate Myself (Live in an abandoned school)Dodie - Hate Myself (Late Night with Seth Meyers)
## References

1. ↑ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EC3M1j-jOJQ
2. ↑ https://music.apple.com/us/album/build-a-problem/1535123610