Amanda

## Overview

Amanda is the 2nd protagonist of the series This ugly yet beautiful world.

## Appearance

Amanda has long light brown hair with fringes just above her eyes. She wears a shirt from the band 'Korn (Follow the leader)' as seen in other artwork, light pants and shoes.

## Personality

Amanda is often perceived as almost mute from everybody. Despite being perceived as mute she has very little people she decides to talk to but may be often described as considerate for others regardless of how she thinks for them.

Within the first game of This ugly yet beautiful world entering her bedroom. It can be seen that she typically has a lack of respect for her well being and surroundings (Eg: Paint peeling from walls, lack of furniture, etc), reasons for her lack of self respect are unknown but it may be possible to assume its from the cause of poor mental health from her past. As well, an instrumental song plays in the background from the band 'Title fight', which can be presumed as a band she might enjoy.

Besides that, Amanda is known for enjoying certain hobbies such as collecting cards and consoles, digital arts, cosplaying and reading graphic novels. In her bedroom on the PC upon turning on, it can be seen she might have been reading a novel before that had included graphic and pornographic content.

As stated via discord, Amanda/Riruru is known to be a secular Buddhist & Tulpamancer. Admitted by Amanda as well, she is the real-life alter ego of Riruru.

## Past

Not much is known about Amanda's past as not much is shown amongst the people she talks to. Amanda is known to have a missing father in her life who had ran away when she turned 4 years old and grow up being a subject of bullying, self-harm and attempted suicide. A lot of her family had described her as always 'talking to herself' when she had personally been a Tulpamancer talking to a friend known as 'Tata', who became a subject of mental suicide during 2022. She had later met a girl in early 2022 outside of her school known as 'Lyrisa', and eventually started dating becoming a lesbian couple. Amanda's sexuality however is not known besides her frequent lesbian relationships but as told to a few people her gender is known as transgender/MtF/Female.

What is known about her past was in 2021 when she had been 15.

She had met a boy online and began dating a few months later after being cheated on by her previous girlfriend. The group that had created was known as 'The horizon initiative', name taken from the SCP wiki. The purpose of the group was to be an exclusive non-religious and white member group only that had got backfired from a friend that catfished her and turned out to be Muslim.

She was led to start this group after attending an extremist Christian school, growing up where hating amongst certain groups had been common. She often described the school to others as an occultic like community with them holding rituals, media designed to reform young minds attending the school and support multiple illegal actives (Incest, threats of murder, grooming, etc). Nearing the end of 2021, Amanda had been still attending the school before getting expelled for being transgender and lesbian. The school had been forming multiple groups with the last of 2021 being known as 'Boys club' for the year 11 & 12 classes. Attending the Boys club sessions as forced, Amanda had been called up to be the host for the upcoming ritual following 3 males.

Being called upon stage, Amanda and the 3 males walked upon there. Being given a needle with an unknown substance in it, she was set to the task of injecting herself and the rest with it and wait till 9:30PM before going home. Later throughout the evening Amanda and the 3 males had gotten to know each other in a short amount of time before 1 of them had begun forming wounds through his arms and legs, starting to bleed out at a fast rate with the science teacher ignoring the ongoing event. Amanda had called an ambulance for the 2 others to enter a critical state, along with herself starting to experience extreme nausea.

When the ambulance had arrived, the male who had been bleeding out died upon arrival of entering the hospital due to blood loss with the 2 others and Amanda being escorted to ER. Amanda and 1 other had become discharged later throughout the week at 4AM with the other being discharged at a later date. The ones responsible for the attempted murder at Amanda's school had been placed under police custody and investigation with multiple people coming forth of the math teacher having illegal content on his PC.

Amanda is still known to generally dislike anyone religious besides Buddhists, satanists, Luciferians and Muslims after being convinced enough by a friend she made in early 2023, as well as anyone who isn't white and often describes other races in a manner which can be problematic and hurtful.

Outside of that, Amanda has been given a diagnosis for brain damage after an epileptic seizure resulting in a head injury, she tends to forget important information (Family members, past experiences, what to say, etc). Lyrisa had originally played a mother like role for her temporarily till Amanda had started a new tulpa based off the show 'My little pony' playing an adoptive mother role for her. The character however is only known to Lyrisa.

On 20/12/2023, a music video from youtube had emerged from being private (published 19/7/2023) stated as 'Escape Please | Amanda's theme (MUSIC VIDEO)'. The music video features multiple clips from Asian countries such as Japan, Hong Kong, etc without any context to them. The origins of the clips in this video are unknown or what the intentions had been. It has been speculated that due to the nature of the music video, this may relate to certain aspects of TUYBW having a dreamy aestheitc. After the music video had been reposted in Riruru's discord server it may be that the music video has been declared official. The mp4 of the music video from 'Riruru' has been found as well. Multiple other videos as well have been found as well referencing TUYBW and other. As the youtube channels username is named as Riruru, there is no proof to verify Riruru is the one running it.