My lonesome update for mid October

**My lonesome update for mid October** is the fifteenth video in the OpAphid video series.

## Transcript

(*Black screen, white text.*)

**Text:**
I've been out of touch.

Yes, i've been busy.

i've been so busy trying to keep up

with the order in my life.

i haven't been able to do everything I had hoped.

I learned my lesson:

Maintaining order is very time consuming. It keeps

you on your toes.

With any luck, i might be closer to

accomplishing my goals.

Even though things have unfolded in a

rather unpredictable way.

And it is taking A LOT longer than I

thought it would take.

i am having a hard time working in these surroundings...

...even after all this time.

I've thought it over a lot.

My only explanation?

I haven't fully embraced my situation.

Not as much as i should have.

It just seems like such a long

time has passed!

Didn't we originally think that the

curtain would have fallen by

mid-October?

I now have this sinking suspicion

that i'll be here a few more weeks.

Maybe even until the end of the year.

I worry about how insignificant i

feel in the order of things. I'm not

sure how much value i have.

I think i am well-linked by some.

And i am being given priveleges,

which I appreciate!

For instance, i've had more access

to television recently than I

suspected i would.

At least that bodes well for the

chance I'll be able to watch the

World Series on TV!

But there were events I'd hoped to

actually attend earlier this month.

Unfortunately, i was unable to.

Television is a good distraction.

That "Grief Counseling" episode of

The Office? Good stuff.

But still, it's not what I had hoped

to watch that night.

I was surprised thought: The things

I missed were actually

videotaped...

Someone else with a similar interest posted a video onto the

internet.

The quality was poor, but it made

up for the access i lacked.

I wasn't sure what to make of it, actually.

It was a bit of a letdown!

Even thought I probably built it up way too much in my head.

Now I am thinking that maybe it

wasn't what I had predicted.

Since it's the internet, the video could've easily been a

staged hoax of some sort.

In fact, maybe that event has yet

to take place?

I don't know what to think from

what i have seen in the time

since...

Because strangely, little has

changed. Maybe it's just that my

day to day is pretty much the

same, but there was no major shift

from my perspective.

i am living the same life i have

been. I really thought i would have

a different viewpoint on things.

But it's all just the same.

Except i have had my computer

access limited in recent weeks.

Severely limited.

It seems other operations are

given priority over what i am

working on,

and I am not even sure if i can see what those are exactly.

i am not allowed to participate in

the operations of interest, only

smaller projects.

I find it dull, but at least i am not being scrutinized much.

I still do not see the clear

connections.

i can't see the full picture yet.

Please tell Mom and Dad that I am

sorry for not calling.

i lost my cell phone, and it had their phone number on it.

That's one of the main

reasons why i haven't been

able to check in with you all.

(and I sincerely apologize)

But I hope you're still

watching for these.

Even thought i've been so busy

that I haven't written as often as

I had promised to.

That cell phone was the only

place that i had their

number, actually.

Yours as well.

i am not quite sure where i lost it.

no one here has given me any indication that they found it.

I'm 99% certain that everything on

there is secure.

But I apologize if you've gotten any strange phone calls as a

result.

If that happens, please find a way

to let me know, okay?

Like, immediately!

I'm sure there's no need to worry.

In the event of the worst-case scenario, I am sure i will figure

something out!

I miss you all!

With any luck, I will see you sooner rather than

later!

XOXO,

T

## Notes

* OpAphid suggested that we look into Tachyon's "i's." She suggested that I was her Order persona and i was her persona.
* The music that plays in this video is Radiohead's 'Karma Police' played with violins and other such instruments.