LU 45 - Mira 2

I was simply enjoying my afternoon coffee time when I heard knocks on my door, followed by my name being called out by Sytamni- I was confused at first until he explained that Chizzy hasn't been around still ever since we had all visited her cave. This worried me so I just followed him towards her shoe house, thinking that she could've been there. But she wasn't. We both went to spawn, assuming that if anywhere she would be at Nekane's cafe- Though upon arrival we found him serving customers instead of the druid we were searching for. He also said he didn't know where Chizzy was, but went with us to help look for her. We needed the help- Well... I assumed we did, at least. We decided to check at the cave with Sytamni leading the way, only to find a pile of moss where I had last seen William laying (which I found odd, with no sign of him other than that. And there was no sign of Chizzy, either. So now there were two druids missing, but we only cared about one of them- Thus we kept searching for the younger of the two. We returned to spawn after thorough inspection and determining that she wasn't at the cave anymore. I didn't have any clue where else she could've been, until Sytamni - I think - had spotted her by a river. Her horns had looked slightly different, but I didn't think it was important until Sytamni kept pushing me away to point it out... I still didn't quite understand, however. But when he did that, Chizzy had run off. Whilst we were distracted. Honestly I wanted to yell at Sytamni for that because I was getting tired of running everywhere, but getting to Chizzy was most important. We met back up with Nekane, who had apparently seen Chizzy walking back to the direction of her shoe house. I had no clue why he didn't try stopping her, or even FOLLOWING her. We might as well have just left him to serve customers at his damn café instead of letting him follow us. No matter. I practically mad-dashed back to Chizzy's place, with Sytamni and Nekane following close behind me to my knowledge. The druid was there of course, but refused to say anything when I asked where she had been. Sytamni had even asked once, but then backed off, which was honestly irritating. Weren't these two best friends since years ago?? She owed ~~me~~--She owed *Sytamni* an explanation! At the *very* least, right?? Surely. So I pressed her, kept trying to get her to answer why she didn't return before then. But she didn't let up. Not even when I got up close, not even when I started yelling at her- She kept pushing away my questions, while Sytamni tried getting me to stop. But it was just--unfair! Then, I blanked. I blanked for just a moment. I had gotten angry, and the next thing I knew, Chizzy was in the water. I pushed her in. I pushed-- Why did I do that..? I was angry sure but not *that* angry-! She wasn't even coming back up. She wasn't coming up. And I panicked, calling for the other two- They both dove into the water for me, as I couldn't do it myself. They dove in a few times, but didn't find her.

I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack at this point, or at least *something* like that- I felt like I had just.. *killed* somebody! Who was my own damn friend, no-less! And Sytamni wasn't making it any better- He kept blaming me for it, not that he would've been wrong about it. I pushed Chizzy into the water... And now she was gone- It felt like she was, at least. A numb sort of sensation came over me. Not the typical numbness from being cold though, it was like.. an emotional numbness..? I just didn't react to whatever the others were saying as I just stared at the sky, huddled against the hill since Sytamni had told me to just not be in the way. Then something caught my eye. It looked like Chizzy, but I couldn't be too sure- Until I saw Sytamni's short self dashing in the same direction, in which I followed shortly after. Chizzy was there- I saw her. On top of a tree, with something in her hand- It looked like a trident... But that wasn't what was important to me. What was important to me was that Chizzy was *alive.* Accusations were thrown around for a bit- Chizzy accused me of killing her uncle... So I guess that explained why she.. hadn't been around for a while. I don't blame her for wanting to avoid us now. Especially me. But I could tell Sytamni was still angry at me- I don't blame him for that. However once the accusations were done being thrown around, the druid had suggested that we had all gone into her house to talk about it further- I didn't exactly feel like.. it was my place to be in her house though. Not with the tense feelings that were very evident at that point. So... I left to go back home. I wasn't going to tell Jeremy about this though. I can't bother my own son with my problems.