Li Lan

## About

She is the daughter of Li Jianyi(Former head of the Swordmanship-Seeking Sect) and Luo Lan(Former peak master of Water Sword Peak of the Swordmanship-Seeking Sect).

She initially pretended to be a male. Although there were a few clues, it was only in Chapter 611, during her parents' funeral was it revealed that she is a woman.

## Appearance

*Chapter 44:*

The youth’s face was pretty. He was obviously male, but his eyebrows were so elegant that they looked like leaves from a willow tree. His eyes were long and narrow, and he squinted slightly out of habit. They were as feminine as a woman’s, and it made people feel that he was extremely shrewd and scheming.

*Chapter 611: First appearance as a woman.*

A woman in snow-white clothes was slowly approaching, parting the crowd.

It was a slender girl of snow-white skin and beautiful eyes. Her face was delicately flawless with indescribable exquisiteness. Her willow-leaf arched eyebrows in particular, they added an unrivaled charm. Dressed in white clothes, she was elegant, noble, and otherworldly. She walked quietly while the hem of her dress fluttered, like drifting white snow.

The skin of her red lips was flawless and fair. Her neck had the perfect line, like that of a swan. Those were features of feminity. Her bosom was slightly bulging, though it couldn’t be said it was ample.

According to Ding Hao, She has a flat chest.

“Her majesty is flat-chested. Haha, an A-plus at most!”

## History

According to her, the reason she pretended to be a male was:

"I was born a girl. It was unfortunate, since my father wanted a boy to inherit his legacy and succeed him as the head of the Swordsmanship-seeking Sect. On the day of my birth, my father went to the sword cliff alone and got drunk for the first time in many years…"

“When has there ever been a female master in the Snow Province? Except for a declining sect like the Heavenly Sound Valley, it’s been men who have dominated this land for thousands of years.”

“Hehe, my father later learned a set of arcane tricks from somewhere and changed my gender. Of course, it was just a superficial change. He wanted me to be a boy so that he could realize his dream. He was thrilled when I showed my exceptional martial arts talent. However, my mother fell out with my father because of this. They almost broke up…”

“Very few people knew that I was actually a girl. I was raised as a boy since the day after my birth. My father was very harsh with me and had high expectations of me. I rarely appeared in public because of my special identity. My father himself taught me martial arts since day one. At that time, there were many things I didn’t understand. Why would my father leave when my mother went to see me? Why did I have to dress up and behave like a boy when I clearly knew I was a girl…?

“Later, when I grew up a little bit, I began to understand things…

“Every night, when I took off my clothes and soaked myself in hot water, I would cry quietly. That arcane trick gave me an Adam’s apple and made me speak in a rough voice. I was as thin and flat as a man. But I know that I’m a girl. Even though I look like a boy with clothes on, I’m clearly aware that I’m a girl…

“Sometimes I feel that my life is a nightmare. I’m playing a role that doesn’t belong to me.

“But I still respect my father deeply. I know the price he paid for the revival of the Swordsmanship-seeking Sect. I know he loved me dearly, deep down, but he loved the sect even more… So all these years, I’ve been living up to his expectation. Many times, I told myself that since I can’t dress like a woman, I should forget that I am one and focus on helping my father realize his dream…

“That is, until I met you, after I became a nominal disciple of the sect with a different identity… Hehe, Ding Hao, you may not believe it. When I saw you for the first time, I knew would probably not be able to become the top disciple of the Swordsmanship-seeking Sect’s younger generation as my father had expected. I wasn’t as talented as you were, although my strength was much greater than yours at that time.

“At first, I was hostile towards you, but later… How annoying it was. I gradually wanted to become friends with you!

“Later, you were like a sharp awl hidden in a cloth bag. You shocked the whole sect with your extraordinary talent and got support from Master Qi Qingshan… I guess my father also noticed that, so he no longer placed all his hopes on me and began to pay attention to you. Maybe he believed that you could realize his dream.

“I hated you a lot for a time. My existence seemed to have lost its meaning because of you. I gave up my feminity to act like a man in the past 15 years… I paid such a big price for what I wanted to achieve. And then my efforts became meaningless because of you. You replaced me as a more suitable candidate in my father’s eyes. What am I? What do my efforts mean? I have become a man, a woman, and a monster. All for what?

“It’s so annoying. I wanted to hate you, but I can’t.

“Later, I thought that if my existence had lost its meaning, I might as well take the chance to be a woman again. I wouldn’t have to bear the burden, living for others…

“I loved my father but I love my mother more. She didn’t care for me because of my responsibilities nor she had any expectations. She did so because she was a mother. Every time I felt lost, she would immediately appear in front of me and comfort me with the gentlest words. Always…”

## References

1. ↑ Chapter 627
2. ↑ Chapter 620
3. ↑ Chapter 631
4. ↑ Chapter 629
5. ↑ Chapter 631