Chapter 122: I'm Not Prepared Enough

**I'm Not Prepared Enough** is the one-hundred-and-twenty-second Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Ichikawa attempts to place the doorknob back into the bore hole, to no success. He frets, pushing against it, but says it won't open. Yamada smiles through this ordeal, but averts her gaze and changes expression when he turns to address her. He says not to worry about it, and realizes they'll have to call someone to come open it from the other side, but realizes that means giving away that they were alone in the storage room. Meanwhile, she takes off her cardigan, complaining about the heat, and leaving him nervous. As he pours over his contacts list, he realizes she's being way too quiet, and he settles on Moe's number, showing a small text conversation between them. He reluctantly offers her as a choice to help them out, but a jealous Yamada silently takes his phone and puts it in her breat pocket. He asks what's wrong, and she pouts before asking if he's got any plans for Summer Break, such as ocean surfing or a barbeque, both of which he denies on account of his antisocial personality, and because he'll be attending cram school. She says that she'll be busy with filming, and he asks if it's a competition. She then questions him about his school choice, and he admits that he sent in his paper, but hasn't made an official decision yet. She claims she's fine with his pick, but as she gets up, the heat gets to her and she nearly falls over. Realizing it's not good for them to continue to be there, he carefully takes his phone from her front pocket, causing her to recoil and clutch her chest, as he quickly dials up Moe.

Moe arrives, opening the door, and asking if it was a sauna as the two sweat-drenched lovers exit the room together. Yamada makes a beeline for the water fountain and drinks copiously, and the three of them head to the nurse's office to get Yamada an ice pack, all while Moe remains nervously silent. Eventually Ichikawa yells out, demanding that she say something. Moe shakily offers that if they really "did it" this time, then she has nothing to say, but he again yells out that they didn't do it. Moe offers that they must at least be going out, and the two affirm. Moe stammers over her words for a bit, and anxiously asks if it's okay to let everyone know. Yamada says only she can know for now, and Moe counters, asking if she thinks she can keep her mouth shut, which Yamada says she can. Ichikawa says that's why he called her, and Yamada lays down on the couch to rest. Moe considers this, and then announces her departure, but Ichikawa stops her, saying that he plans on applying to Syugakukan, though in his head he knows the person he's really telling is Yamada. He tells her about the friend he ran into recently, and his past insecurities, and asks if she'll give it her all with him. She cracks up, saying she thought she was the one trying to motivate him, not the other way around, and says that she'll apply to Ohka University. She then proposes a study group over Summer Break, though he clarifies he didn't mean "with him" in a physical sense. She ups the stakes to a study retreat, and Yamada, hearing all of this, sits up, saying they should go on one, shocking them both.

## Trivia

The text conversation between Ichikawa and Moe shown on his phone appears to be her asking his opinion on a piece of media, likely a television show or anime, as she's occasionally known to watch some of the latter.