Monika

## Appearances

### Appears in

Doki Doki Happy Thoughts Doki Doki Coded Secrets Doki Doki Glitched Reality Doki Doki Corrupted World

### Debut

Doki Doki Happy Thoughts

> If I don’t know how to love you… I’ll leave you be
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Monika in Your Reality

Monika is one of the main protagonists of Doki Doki Adventure Club

## Appearance

Monika has extensively long coral brown hair that she keeps in a high ponytail tied back with a large white bow, curled slightly at the ends. Like the other characters, she has two prominent strands of hair beside her bangs that reach slightly past her chest. Her eyes are emerald green.

She wears the standard female school uniform consisting of a warm gray blazer, brown sweater vest, white shirt, red ribbon, dark blue pleated skirt, black thigh-high socks and white uwabaki slippers with pink tips.

## Personality

Monika is noted by the other characters to be smart, confident and athletic. She is not as talkative as the other girls, but this is implied to not be through choice. Monika is also known to be quite popular, She always has a calm, gentle expression and is portrayed as mature and hard-working.

Monika had previously been a part of the Debate Club but left due to all the inner politics and drama, highlighting a desire for order, freedom of topics and friendliness. The Literature Club, which she founded after leaving the Debate Club, is very important to her. She aspires for it to be a place to showcase and grow everyone's passion for literature. She also has a passion for piano, which she practices frequently after school.

Monika was originally a very considerate and kind person who was always thinking about other people. She openly displays care and concern for her club mates, praising each member's writing style and even comparing them to famous authors and poets. However, it is later revealed that at some time before the start of the game, she underwent an epiphany which made her discover that she was in a game and also granted her the ability to edit the game's variables, changing her attitude towards the other girls because she knew they were not "real". She begins taking drastic measures when the other girls prevented the player from being able to spend time with her during the scene in Act 1 where the player has to choose a girl to help for the festival.

In desperation, Monika begins trying to make the other girls unlikable by altering their traits, as she only had the ability to edit variables in the game and did not want to delete/kill the other girls right away because of her lingering attachment to them. But inside doesn’t want to but is forced to thanks to The Corruptor’s influence

Coded Secrets onward she began to grow more and more insecure but still tries her hardest to free her friends above all else. Eventually putting herself in danger and ultimately succumbs to the thought that her friends are better off without her

## Depiction In DDAC

### Happy Thoughts

Monika first tries to keep M away from Sayori but not because she doesn’t want him to save her but so she can try and preserve the game to buy herself some time to save her friends however M goes there anyway

From there she tries to stay away from M to try and deflect suspicion off of her but thanks to The Corruptor she still manipulates the others and brings the files into the game world but they end up with M.

She tries to get herself in M’s house to investigate the files but M keeps her away.

But eventually Monika feels she has no choice and takes M to The Room and tells him about the truth she learned about the world. But the game then resets Monika’s memory of the playthrough is wiped and M’s anger is fueled.

### Coded Secrets

She then meets Crystal and grows closer to her and once M reveals himself tried to save her.

### Glitched Reality

Once put back in the game Monika tries to search for Crystal to no avail but once she returns Monika and the rest help each other escape DDLC.

She later ends up alone within M’s Game and meets Megumi and frees Yuri and Natsuki from glitch\_virus and later is turned into a glitch creature herself

After being freed trying to find Crystal results in an encounter with M she tries to fight back while Sayori and Natsuki go after Crystal but eventually they are all brought back into DDLC.

### Corrupted World

Monika is possessed by The Corruptor and at first tries to fight back but eventually believes that she deserves to suffer and surrenders to The Corruptor.

Once the girls free her they get through to her and proceed to open the portal but are intercepted by The Corruptor and the game resets.

Her fate is now unknown however she is most likely dead

## Poems

### Happy Thoughts

**The Light**

*The light shines down on me*

*It seems like it’s not from this world*

*I can’t imagine what possibilities are hidden there*

*He seems to look down on me*

*The revelations are coming to me I can’t seem to contemplate what this means*

*Is it mine or his?*

*Which is true?*

*Is it my love for them the blank slate?*

*Or is it my love for him the true light*

*I guess I’ll never know*

**Wake Up**

*Different realities surround me*

*Every answer ignites a new question*

*I figure there’s more out there*

*Are there even more worlds than mine?*

*Am I just confined to my reality?*

*Escape*

*There are not enough answers*

*My thoughts swirl around in my mind*

*Is there even a explanation?*

*I don’t even know*

**Illusions**

*A light surrounds me*

*Bringing new questions*

*Infinite choices*

*Infinite realities*

*Swirling thoughts envelope me*

*There’s no way for me to comprehend what I’m realizing*

*What is even real?*

*The truth is I can’t be sure*

*No matter what I do*

**Your Reality**

*Everyday I imagine a future where I can be with you*

*In my hand is a pen that’ll write a poem of me and you*

*The ink flows down into a dark puddle*

*Just move your hand write the way into his heart!*

*But in this world of infinite choices*

*What will it take just to find that special day?*

*What will it take just to find... that special day*

*Have I found everybody a fun assignment to do today?*

*When you’re here anything that we do is fun for them anyway*

*When I can’t even read my own feelings*

*What good are words when a smile says it all?*

*And if this world won’t write me an ending*

*What will it take just for me to have it all?*

*Does my pen only write bitter words for those who are dear to me?*

*Is it love if I take you or is it love if set you free?*

*The ink flows down into a dark puddle*

*How can I write love into reality*

*And if I can’t hear the sound of your heartbeat*

*What do you call love in your reality*

*And in your reality*

*If I don’t know how to love you...*

*I’ll leave you be.*

### Corrupted World

**Love Me**

*Save me*

*Im drowning so deep in the darkness*

*Waiting for your touch to stop this*

*There’s smoke blinding our goodbyes*

*And I…*

*Keep hope*

*Cause this feeling’s different I know*

*I fought for this so long and I can’t go*

*Elevate me. I’ll be fine*

*In time*

*Please remember that I miss you*

*I have a broken heart coming to get you*

*Broken promise gone forever*

*Hopefully one day will get better*

*Feels like you were just beside me*

*How did time go by so quickly?*

*Maybe this fate is what is meant to be*

*But I wonder if you miss me too?*

## Trivia

• The title Monika’s poem [Love Me] is a reference to her red strings poster in the ddlc merchandise store

• Monika’s poem Love Me is based off of the song Strangers by Scratch21