Kimber

## Application Sheet

Kimber was a large, blue-gray she-wolf with green eyes, who lived in Vale during the Dark Ages, serving on the Black Watch, protecting Shenandoah (who she viewed as a younger sister) as a secret member of the Resistance until Faust returned as alpha. After that, weary from the war, Kimber left the Domain. She was created and RP'd by Welihn.

## Personality

* ***Caring, Sensitive & Nurturing***. Kimber has a very well developed emotional understanding... Of others. Since she was a pup she is quick to detect small signals on one's behavior, she reads the wolf body language like an open book but most importantly she can easily empathize with another's emotions, fears and traumas and is usually good advising one through them. She cares deeply for others who are troubled and innocent. Kimber tends to act as some sort of therapist that can be both professional while expressing that she does empathize and cares. She claims her life's goal is to be the fighter of chaos and defender of the innocent. She wants to help and to inspire, and perhaps when she notices an individual is going through a hard time she may even be invasive when it comes to "trying to help", but she surely does with the best of intentions.
* ***Morally Conflicted.*** Born in a hostile environment and a very traditional and perhaps traumatized troubled family, Kimber grew to be very conflicted. Her family pack have always shown her the importance of survival and how you must do everything to stay alive. But Kimber was born with a strongly developed moral compass. She is always caught between self sacrifice or the sacrifice of another to stay alive, that deeply impacts and scars her.
* ***Shy & Insecure.*** She is shy, but fights to hide and overcome that, it is always a uncomfortable situation for her to be in crowds but she will do so and make sure she looks and sounds as powerful and mighty as she really is, her strong face and intimidating size are constantly exhaling strength and power, it rarely goes out unnoticed. However she tends not to notice she is good. She fights an eternal fight to be perfect and is constantly worrying whether she is enough; good enough, pretty enough, smart enough.
* ***Agonized**.* She helps others, but she doesn't ever help herself. She has a tortured soul that is screaming for help and understanding, but she holds it down and keeps it hidden underneath all that fur of her's. Her puppyhood is a mystery to most and she isn't willing to reveal much of it. Although she can read other wolves quite easily and decipher their emotions and intentions, she struggles to interpret her own emotions and put them into words. She unknowingly tends to comfort others with words she herself would need to hear.
* ***Bossy & Short Tempered.*** She is likely to snap, but it usually isn't severe, just wide eyes, dilated pupils and lots of teeth in the picture, hurting others severely is something she likes to avoid, but it can happen and it has happened. Some subjects, some that others might find completely normal are very serious matters for her and she will usually get sensitive about them. Causing her to snap if the subject is held for too long. She gives warnings and they better be heard. Kimber is also very bossy and likes to live life by her very own rules, having another trying to dictate her life will only infuriate her.
* ***Perfectionist & Self Critical.*** Constantly finding issues and faults on what she does, she is extremely self critical, and is always overthinking her previous and future actions and subconsciously seeking for something to pick on. She is always thinking what she has done wrong and what she could have done better or different but is never actually happy with how it was done. She strives for perfection. Her struggle with image and perfection are mostly results of her epileptic disorder which as a wolf she doesn't exactly understand and is incredibly ashamed and afraid of, she considers herself a cursed beast and a shame to all others around her.
* ***Honest & Blunt**.* Kimber is naturally very sarcastic and blunt, she may hold her feelings in most of the time, but her thoughts about someone or some situation are rarely if ever hidden from others. She believes that the truth must be heard in order for it to be faced, and so she'll spill out her views almost mercilessly at times. That's not to say she doesn't know how to approach her words in more serious occasions however, and when she is faced with more delicate cases she will make sure to say things in a less painful way for others.
* ***Sarcastic**.* Sarcasm tends to be the main way she'll express both frustration and delight. It really depends on the situation, but that tends to be a very important way of communication for Kimber, making comical remarks on both good and bad situations in order to ease some of the tension of them.
* ***Intelligent, Tactical & Calculating.*** Kimber is always thinking and analyzing situations and interactions very closely and paying attention to details on another's gestures, body language or simply the tonality of their voice. She has collected a lot of information throughout her life and all her travels, she knows nature's tricks and how to take advantage of the elements and a landscape, she is good with planning strategies for battle, knowing the battle field and it's pros and cons to use them against the target of the moment. Her natural sensitivity to other wolves emotions is also a great advantage, sometimes, realizing their fears and insecurities and using those against the enemy. Her intelligence is present almost all times, she is a wise wolf, inside the battlefield and out of it in daily routines. She is observant and it's almost impossible to fool her.
* ***Merciless & Brutal.*** Yeah, sweet, loving, caring and cute, sure, she is. But she can easily go the other way around. Kimber has many concealed and repressed emotions and sometimes finding someone who deserves a cruel form of justice is a moral way of releasing her accumulated and bottled up emotions of anger and sadness. She usually tries to judge wolves using her brain and not her heart but often times she uses both, and if she considers you a threat to the majority she will get rid of it. And if something was done to her or to a wolf she loves or simply considered innocent, you will pay, she holds grudge against some individuals and will go to the limit to end their existence. However, this extreme side of her usually stays hidden.
* ***Explosive**.* With the Dark Age in Vale, Kimber's showing a more explosive side in which she may succumb to stress when stuck in poor conditions, and then grows explosive and irritable towards other wolves or any social gathering. She may get rude and perhaps more aggressive. When the waters calm, she'll fade back to her normal collected and loving self.

## Pre-Group History

Kimber was born in a land far from the Domain, a land of extremes in the north on arctic tundras, there was snow all winter long, usually started in the mid autumn and lasted until mid spring. There was few trees, and shelter was hard to find in the relentless snowstorms, the wolves of this land had to be the strongest, and the toughest. Kimber was born to a small pack of pure gray wolves, they were kind of medieval, mating to the biggest and baddest wolves to produce pups with higher chances of surviving, Kimber was a result of one of this planned matings, both of her parents were extremely large wolves, they didn't love each other but shared a common love to their pups, Kimber and her siblings had a fairly "easy" start of life, freezing with the cold but they were safe in a cozy den, hidden within their mother's fur until they opened their eyes and started to walk properly, from that point on their parents already forced them out of the safety of the den for most of the day to start adapting to the merciless landscape.Prey was scarce in that spring and they soon left the den officially in search of better hunting grounds. The pups had strong genes running in their veins from generations of selective breeding and they were able to survive the journey. Kimber was a shy pup, she didn't really enjoy playing with her litter mates, she would much rather spend her free time trying to convince her father to play with her, she craved his attention but although he loved her he couldn't dedicate his time to being a loving father but simply keeping her alive. At the age of seven months old her mother started to train Kimber and her siblings intensively, many hours everyday with little to no breaks, training on hunting, fighting and pretty much staying alive.

She was forced to grow up too fast but she still managed to find time for herself, she has grown into a strong wolf, both emotionally and physically, still extremely attached to her father, she always tried her hardest to impress him and make him proud, but as always he was too busy surviving to pay her the attention she longed for. Feeling like she wasn't good enough for his standards she started to become a self critical and perfectionist juvenile, she wanted to be the best at what she did but never thought she was being good enough.

With 11 months she was pretty much ready for life, all trained in fighting and hunting, she thought she was unstoppable, but then it all started, she was leaving with her siblings for an important caribou hunt, the job was being well done and the caribou was being pushed to the limits of his physical strength, to the point of exhaustion, the caribou stopped running, kicking the wolves with it's front hooves, they were dodging all the kicks, and while her siblings distracted the caribou Kimber had the chance to grab it from behind and force it down, but suddenly her body stiffened, the muscles twitching, she froze still, her pupils growing in size, eyes fixed on the image of the caribou and her siblings but the vision was slowly becoming blurry, saliva was dripping from her mouth and then she had loss consciousness, falling on the ground with her entire body twitching and shaking, the first seizure episode in her life. The hunt was interrupted, her siblings allowed the prey to escape to help Kimber, she seizure didn't last for too long, but she took one hour to wake up, her brothers dragged her to underneath the shade of a small pine tree and spent the time watching as she slowly opened her eyes, lost and confused, she had no idea what had happened to her, but she knew she had failed, the hunt had failed and she had disappointed her brothers and her parents, she felt a wave of guilt wash over her as they slowly made their way back to their den where her brothers explained what had happened and Kimber blamed herself for it.

By the next morning, before the sun broke the horizon, Kimber had abandoned her family, ashamed of herself and too confused to know what she was supposed to do. From that point on she was a traveler, a lone wolf with a lonely life. She had more time to think and reflect about her life and all of her thinking made her wiser, eventually she grew used to her health issue and could sense when she would have another episode but the events were extremely rare. She could take care of herself pretty well, but missed her family and the memories, but she would rather live her life alone than simply survive with her family.

She was hopping from pack to pack but never found a place she belonged, finally she reached the Domain, and many packs roamed that strange land and that was a chance she took. At first she wouldn't trust any wolf she came in contact with in this new place, and her true name was never mentioned, she got known as the "Blue Bear" a ghostly figure of a creature of mysterious beauty, but she would rarely stay in the same place for too long and only stalked wolves from the shadows, many believed her to be an actual bear. She would only show herself to few, the wolves she thought to be suffering emotional battles. She would stick with them until they were emotionally healthy again, and then left. She lived like that for a few months and travelled throughout pretty much all of the Domain, until finally coming to the borders of the Vale pack, and has been roaming the place to hopefully join them, where she feels might finally be a place to call home.

## Group History

Kimber would meet Alar before either of them had arrived in Vale, however. About nine months before they reached the proud pack, Kimber would accidentally intercept Alar as he was being chased out of his former pack's territory by a male and a female packmate. Alar's former packmates, angered at her interruption of their business, lashed out at her, and Kimber killed the female - though immediately felt terrible guilt about it. She and Alar parted ways, then.

They'd meet again when he arrived in Vale - after she'd already begun to settle into the pack. She would befriend Gunnvarr and learn her way around the territory.

And then, Renier deposed of Faust. Kimber, who had only been in Vale for a few weeks, loathed the new king, but became a part of his Black Watch, assigned to guard the entrance to the Royal Den. She told Wren that she didn't hold her accountable for what happened - mistakes were made, but she didn't know the full facts - Wren shared these facts. She considered Wren innocent in Renier's schemes, and considered Shenandoah, her daughter, to be innocent as well. She was devoted to Shenandoah, and served the rebel cause in secret, holding tightly to her place on the Black Watch when Alar announced Renier's death.

However, once again, she found herself being used as a killing machine. After Rhaegan attacked Alar, the new King demanded that Kimber take Rhaegan out and kill him for treachery. Kimber, sickened, had to make the decision to either refuse - potentially costing her own life or losing her much-needed place on the Black Watch - or kill Rhaegan to maintain her cover. Ultimately, the Black Watch beat Rhaegan to a pulp and left him for dead.

About a week after Kimber removed Rhaegan from Vale's lands, Enzo decided it was high time for him to depose of King Alar. Under the cover of night, Enzo attacked Alar, and Kimber - who had been with Shenandoah - was roused to action. Shenandoah *begged* Kimber to save Alar and fight her uncle, Enzo, to stop him. Enzo tried to explain that Alar was *wrong*, that he was manipulating Shen, and Kimber - while all she wanted was to see Alar *die* - needed to do as Shenandoah begged. She and Enzo battled, with Enzo ripping off part of her ear, and Kimber managing to fight him off - though she didn't kill him. He fled, with Kimber and Shenandoah summoning the rest of the Black Watch to make sure they were safe, and getting help for Alar.

The time to fight for Vale had arrived. Kimber, aligned with the Rebellion (as she had been since day one) was confronted by Bellamy, who called her a traitor - the worst kind of traitor - betraying *Shenandoah,* who she had been trusted to defend with her *life.* Kimber tried to make Bellamy and Shenandoah see reason, but Bellamy attacked, and Kimber, pressing her paws against his throat, caused his consciousness to fade. Shen ran to her Good Fish's aid, and when he roused a bit, battered, Shenandoah lashed out at Kimber, telling her that she was *dead.* Kimber didn't want to fight Shenandoah, who she viewed as a little sister, and did her best to avoid using her fangs. She grabbed Shen's muzzle in her jaws and tried to hold on to her, until she could calm down and be reasoned with, but when she tasted Shen's blood, Kimber immediately released the young she-wolf. Sickened by her choice - to attack *Shenandoah* when she vowed to not let anyone harm her - Kimber tried to run after the young she-wolf as Bellamy encouraged her to flee, but ultimately had no choice but to give up.

Hollowed-out by everything the Dark Ages had wrought, Kimber collapsed, wanting nothing more than the sweet release of death. That would not come, however. Instead, she would be roused by her packmates, rejoin them in welcoming Faust back to a war-battered Vale, and everyone tried to make sense of what had happened. Kimber simply *couldn't* recover - mentally, from what had happened.

Kimber sought out Bellamy, who had hidden himself away in one of Vale's caves, unable to leave. He accused her of trying to kill him (which was fair) and she insisted that he go and speak to Loki about what all had happened - the truth of everything that had gone down in Vale. Eventually, he agreed.

With the end of the Dark Ages, Kimber made the painful decision to leave Vale and leave the Domain. With all that's happened, she couldn't feel at home in Vale anymore, everywhere she looked only reminded her of pain and horror. After all this time and all she's been through, she decided to go back home, to the north, to the tundras, hopefully to find her family again.

## Trivia

* Her seizures aren't that severe and not life threatening. She is still young and can live many years like this, but when older, up to 7-8 years old she may not be as strong to deal with them and it should shorten her lifespan. So she probably wouldn't go past the age of 9 years.
* Kimber secretly loves pups, the cute innocent ones at least but she is immune to the cuteness of annoying selfish pups.
* In the past year of her life she has been wondering how it would be like to be a mother. However, she fears that her "curse" would be passed on to her offspring so she fears.
* Kimber has never felt *love* towards another individual, not romantically, only platonic.
* She is a skilled fisher, in the tundras she grew up in were in the coast, and salmon would go up the river in a specific time of the year, while the rest of the seasons there would be smaller fish species. Fish composed great part of her diet when young.
* She actually prefers the taste of smaller animals, as that's what she had most of her life. Birds, fish and rodents is luxury for her. She loves it.
* Hates the summer, she considers bright green tones of the grass visually unpleasing, and also there's the heat.
* She has a small secret den in Vale's territory, closer to the coast, right by the shore of Trua River. She keeps the location of the den secret, as that's where she will go whenever she'd like to be left alone. The "Seahaven" is her favorite location in all of Vale's territory.
* Often times she can be found stalking some of the pack wolves for the fun of it.
* She envies flying creatures, as they can fly and see all the beautiful different landscapes from above. But she has a deeper admiration towards birds of prey.
* Kimber doesn't feel comfortable in forests that are too dense and dark, she likes to be able to see the sky and prefers open landscapes.

## Quotes

* "You will pay for what you've done to Faust. You will pay for what you've done to all of Vale. And you will pay.. For what you've done to *me*." ('to' Renier, talking to herself, *On the Edge*)
* "I do not blame you, not without knowing what truly happened. Sometimes, if we are left to judge our own actions, we might condemn and blame ourselves more than we truly deserve." (to Wren, *I Will Be Here*)

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