Chapter 28

Akira realizes, maybe for the first time, that she prefers to wear girl's clothing, and mostly pretty dresses and skirts at that.

## Features of This Chapter

### Story Setting

At school on the day of the special sex education classes and workshops

### Time Line

One school day, plus the night before when Akira could not fall asleep

### Transition Milestones

Akira admits to herself that she is as feminine as she ever has been, and will undoubtedly continue to transition to a feminine personality, and female gender expressions, forever forsaking her birth perception of a male.

### Relationship Evolution

Akira and Rumi ponder together if they romantically like, and are sexually attracted to boys, girls, or both.

### Lessons Learned

After going through the sex education classes and workshops, Akira has learned much about her own sexuality. But that information still does not answer the many more questions that Akira has about herself, her feminine gender expression, and her sexual attraction to boys or girls, or both.

ORE GA WATASHI NI NARU MADE (UNTIL I BECOME ME)

CHAPTER 28 OF THE MANGA (REVISED ENGLISH TRANSLATION)

## Previously

Despite strained and damaged relations between many of the female schoolmates, most notably between Akira and Rumi, nevertheless, by the time of the Athletic Festival, most of the social and emotional damage had been repaired. Akira muses that things have been going reasonably well between the friends for a while now. The day of the Athletic Festival, Akira and Rumi were entered in the three-legged race. As a team, they were surmised to do very well, as they are now such fast and intimate friends. And three-fourths through the race, they were in the lead, ready to take first place and the Gold Medal. However, Akira unexpectedly twists her ankle, and although she tells Rumi that she can continue to the finish line, Akira has to drop out because the pain and trama were just too great. One good happening did come out of the inability to finish the race; Akira and Rumi are just about back together as in an intimate Yuri relationship, as they were when they first met one another way back in fifth grade.

## This Chapter's Story

On this particular night, Akira finds that she can't get to sleep. After an hour or so tossing and turning in bed, she decides to get up. Then, Akira decides to try on the pretty plaid dress that Dr. Kubota gave to her (see Chapter 12). She has not worn the dress in quite some time, so after she tries it on, to her astonishment, it no longer fits all that well. She is taller now, so the hemline of the dress is now at mini-skirt length! She has trouble zipping up the zipper in back, as the fabric around her bust is so tight now. Bigger boobs? And the long sleeves only come down to a couple inches above her wrist. They are three/quarter sleeves now. Akira admits to herself that she probably can't wear the dress anymore. A real shame, as it was her first dress that she wore as a teenage girl. Akira tells herself that she is actually growing up now, and will soon become a young woman. She absentmindedly strokes the fabric pulled so tight across her chest, and realizes quite vividly that her breasts are steadily growing. That is what Natsumi told her would happen. The peaceful realization that she is becoming a young woman is broken by Mom's harsh voice, yelling her to get to bed, as she will not be able to get up in the morning if she doesn't. Akira yells back that she is going back to bed right now! She gets in bed still wearing her first pretty dress. After things are quiet for a while, Akira thinks to herself that Mom sure startled her. She continues thinking---

"If Mom finds out that ***I*** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) like really like to wear these kinds of women's clothes, like dresses and such, I don't know what Mom would think, say, or do. ***I*** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) used to be a boy..........I wonder if it's weird that I was born a boy, but *like to wear girl's and women's pretty clothes now?"*

Akira ever so quietly gets up and changes out of her dress, and into bed clothes.

Next day at school, there are special programs of sex education for most of the day. Attendance by all students is mandatory. Akira sits in class taking it all in. Sex, as in physical sex? Had she even thought much about all the implications? What about falling in love with boys? And what about wanting to love another girl (Rumi?)? Had she thought about any of that, either? The female instructor drones on and on about how to avoid having unwanted children. She mentions that ones can always refuse sex. She further states to talk thinks out ahead of time with the person who wants to have sex with you. Relationships, especially sexual ones, should be among equals.

After the lectures, there are workshops with activities to teach certain aspects of the result of physical sexual relations. Aoi has a realistic looking and acting newborn baby, but bitterly complains that she can't get the baby to suckle on her. Someone remarks to Aoi that she is not supposed to be playing with the baby. Akira has on a plastic body panel that can be tried on so that one can see what a girl would look like when she is about 7-8 months pregnant. The Instructor makes the comment that everyone's mother had to endure 9 months of pregnancy, and all that goes with it, to give birth and life to all of you. One particular boy tries on the pregnancy body panel, as he says that he wants to feel what it's like to be a pregnant girl. He takes some heat from the other boys for doing so. One girl, called Natsumi, after watching the various happenings, becomes sick to her stomach, and sits down on the floor. She bursts into tears, wanting to know if she will be the one to end up with an unwanted pregnancy? Aoi tells her that we all are a long way off from something like that happening. Natsumi cries that she does not know what the future will bring. Rumi begins to lead Natsumi to the Infirmary. Akira muses that all the girls are especially worried, after all, they are the ones who get pregnant, not the boys. Meanwhile, the boys seem to be joking and making fun of one another.

Later that afternoon, Akira is in the girl's restroom. She pulls down her panties, and sees that her period has begun. As she cleans up, she ponders what was said earlier about avoiding getting pregnant and giving birth to children. A sobering thought hits her like a ton of bricks---That her female body is developed enough now, sans having periods, that she herself could become pregnant, being a former boy notwithstanding. Girl's periods. Bummer. The first time she got hers she was so, so frightened and unprepared (see Chapter 6). Now it is such an almighty nuisance and bother, nothing more. As Akira leaves the girl's restroom, Erika and Shouma are walking by. They ask Akira if she is okay? Before answering, Akira recalls the agreement that Erika forged with her (see Chapter 25). As such, Akira tells herself not to be disturbing the two seemingly passionate lovers. 'Out of the blue', she says that she suddenly feels ill again, and goes back into the restroom, thanking the two for their concern.

Akira leans against the wall inside the girl's restroom, again thinking to herself. She admits rather candidly that she is getting used to the life of a teenage girl. It's not all that bad! If she fully embraces her girlhood, will she be 'falling for' boys? Or will she be romantically attracted only to other girls? Who.......who am ***I*** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) supposed to fall in love with?

At the end of this very special school day, Akira and Rumi are at the lockers, removing their school shoes, and putting on their street shoes. Rumi offhandedly remarks if Natsumi Tsuda will be okay, after becoming sick during one of the sex education workshops? Akira replies saying that she is also worried about Natsumi. Suddenly, Akira breaks loose with a personal question for Rumi---

"Rumi, is there anyone who you like?" (The implication of the question is that Akira is asking if Rumi likes anyone of the opposite sex?)

Rumi sternly replies, "What's with that odd question? **NO THERE IS NOT!!!**" Rumi turns the question back upon Akira, "WHAT ABOUT YOU, AKIRA?"

Akira can only stammer out a---

" ***I*** (lit. *Watashi* {feminine}) ............. "

At that very moment, two boys open the front door of the school, and a forceful gust of wind enters the locker area. Both Akira and Rumi are standing up, however, the gust of wind is strong enough to lift up the short, pleated skirts of both girls, enough that one could see Rumi's panties. She reaches down to force her skirt to once again cover her thighs. Rumi screams---

***" IT'S VERY WINDY !!!*** It's at times like this that I really don't like wearing short skirts. The two boys take note of the 'free show' of seeing a girl's panties, and callously remark that it's so windy outside!

When the two boys have moved on, Rumi asks Akira if something is wrong? Akira replies with a 'No'. She adds that she is so glad that the two of them are really girls. Rumi wants to know what that is supposed to mean? Akira only says that it's a secret, and she's not telling. Akira then silently thinks to herself that the day where she can accept "it" (The attention of boys? Akira's own feminine nature? The fact that Akira may only be sexually attracted to other girls?) in it's entirety, and even enjoy it, she tells herself that she doesn't think that day will ever come.

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