Chapter 5: I'm The Disgusting Creation of Yours

I wake up in pure darkness. I can hear voices and the beeping of heart monitors.

“Hey Jammy,” I hear from somewhere “it’s me, Ink.”

Who’s Ink? Where am I? Hate isn’t speaking to me… What’s going on!?

“It’s been almost a year,” he begins “I’m surprised they haven’t cut you off yet. I miss your voice. How you’d always talk, and make us laugh, you were so sweet. I found out about your lung condition. Emphysema huh? You must have had so many problems. I don’t know how you dealt with me.. Haha…”

He pauses before beginning to cry.

“I’m so sorry Jammy… I-... I never should have left that day… You seemed so scared and I just, I just left you…. I was the one that found you.. You know that..? I thought I heard screaming, and I felt like something was wrong.. So, I came back. I-... I found you laying there… There was so much blood Jammy, I-... I was scared for your life… You weren’t breathing.. I tried to run with you in my arms to my house like how you’d always hold me to make me laugh… But then I-... I got us hit by a car… I’m so sorry.. I wish I could have done more to help you..”

He sighs.

“I’m sorry, you don’t want to listen to me vent the whole time, I get it… Well, anyways.. Let me fill you in.. No one plays at the park anymore. Not after I figured out what happened to you. Up until yesterday, I had no idea what Error and Virus did to you, and I’m so sorry. But, yeah. No one goes there anymore. They finally cleaned up your blood because it was bad for children's health at the park. I quit running around the park. It reminds me too much of what I did with you. I found the thing you made for me. Remember? That flower? I don’t know how it was surviving without me. I think my mom was watering it. But, after getting rid of a lot of things, I have more room to put your golden flowers on my desk. I also have room for your snapdragons. Your mom gave me all your flowers. I didn’t know where to put them, but it’s all coming along nicely.”

I feel him hold my hand.

“I just want you to know.. I really miss you Jammy. You were the best brother I could have ever had, and I love you so so much………. Oh.. Visiting time for me is over. Time for your mom to come in.”

He squeezes my hand.

“Talk tomorrow Jammy. Love you.”

I hear him leave the room. Another person comes into the room.

“It’s been almost a year, and you’re still not awake. I’ve been considering taking you off of life support. But alas, you’re my disgusting creation, and you’ll continue our family line when you get older. Your father doesn’t even remember you exist anymore. As for me, I only visit you in hopes you’ll wake up and I can get you out of here. The sooner you're out the less trouble it will be for me. I’m honestly starting to resent you after how much trouble you’ve caused me with your little stunt. Suicide? Are you crazy? They tried to convince me it was your silly friends but I know you Omoi. I know you well. What kind of person are you? You’re selfish. Putting our whole family on the line for your own happiness. You disgust me. I wish I never made you.”

I start to hear ringing. I feel sick. The woman whispers in my ear.

“You’re a disgusting creation of mine.”

Suddenly, I wake up.

Everything’s blurry… Where am I…? There's a harsh ringing in my ears that I desperately want to go away. Everything hurts, and I feel really sick. I’m shivering and sweating at the same time. It’s bright… I can see moving figures, but nothing of shapes I can make out. I can hear muffled talking, but it’s all overrun by the ringing. I feel trapped in my own head.

“Welcome back.” I hear Hate say over the ringing.

“I know you can hear me, but I also know that response will be hard for you. You took a huge hit back there.”

“Back where?” I think.

“When you got bit by the spider,” Hate began, “you didn’t tell your friends. The poison coursed through you and you almost died. Your heart stopped for a whole three minutes. Then that Manny kid found us. Maybe I was wrong about him.. But that’s not the point. The point is you were very stupid to get hurt like that. First the bruises and cuts, then you ignoring your Emphysema, and now all of this venom? You could have died Origami! Do you know how worried I was!?”

They begin to cry.

“So much Origami… I didn’t know if you were going to be okay.. If they didn’t find you, who knows what would have happened to you… I couldn’t even help you, and I always help you..”

“I’m sorry..” I think.

“No.. It’s okay… You couldn’t have stopped that.. You could have told them, but they might have taken advantage of you.. I get it… You were scared.”

Hate’s voice fades away in my mind and the ringing dies down. I see Manny. He’s doing the thing where he talks to himself as he bandages my wounds.

“How could you let this happen Manny.. They were right in your reach and you missed them both times… You saw they were sick but you still left them alone there…”

I open my eyes a bit more and my vision finally unblurs. He’s crying a bit while bandaging my arm. I notice my hair isn’t on my eyes. There’s… What? What is that thing on my dead eye? Manny looks at me and realizes I’m awake.

“O-oh..!” He wipes his tears. “Origami..! You’re awake.. I..”

He pauses, seeming like he doesn’t know whether to scold me or cry.

“You uh, you probably have questions… But I don’t exactly have answers…. I just..”

He pulls me into a hug and starts to cry.

“You were so still.. I thought you were a goner.. If you went farther, I don’t think I would have found you.. I found you next to a pile of blood, vomit, and bones.”

I put my hand on his. He wipes his eyes.

“Sorry.. You seem really confused. I was just really scared to lose someone close to me.”

He smiles a bit.

“So, to fill you in, you’re going to be okay.” He says cheerfully, but with a hint of doubt in his voice.

“I was too late to extract any poison, so you might feel pretty sick for a while. But, I was able to make sure your wounds wouldn’t cause you anymore damage. I fixed up most of your wounds, although I don’t know how to deal with the bites, so I just kinda bandaged those. The bites were really big though. I don’t know how I feel about spiders anymore. Black widows are vicious things. You’re pretty strong for someone your size.”

I roll my eye with a smile.

“Oh, uh.. About your eye.. It looks like it’s been open for a while. You know, the one that’s just black..? I noticed it was going to get infected if you kept letting dirt and ash in it, so I put a sort of bandage patch over it. It’s really just bandages. It’s not much, but it should help.”

“What about you..? What about the others..?” I whisper.

“Oh, we’re all okay for the most part. I fixed up Blue’s cuts. Potato had a broken arm, but she’ll be okay. I have a couple cuts, but I’m okay too.”

I smile. I’m glad everyones okay. He smiles back at me.

“So, how are you holding up Origami? You doing alright?” He asks.

I sit up and rub my head. A wave of nausea rolls over me.

“Oh, be careful. Take it slow.” Manny quickly says.

I nod a bit. The throbbing in my head is a lot, but I’m sure I can take it. The other two are sleeping under clothes.

“Why aren't you asleep..?” I quietly ask.

“I couldn’t,” Manny begins, “I was too worried. It’s kind of hard to sleep when someone who’s like a little sibling to you was dead for a minute.”

I nod. I know how scary that can be. I felt like that with my flowers.

“You rest…” I insist.

No.” Manny says. “I’m not taking your word for that again. I’ll go to sleep after I know you’re safe and asleep like Blue and Potato.”

I nod and lay back down.

“おやすみ Manny..”

He smiles.

“Oyasumi Origami.”

I pretend to sleep, and then he goes to sleep short after. But through all this, I can’t stop thinking about my dream. I’ve always felt like I’m nothing, but now I **know** I’m nothing. I’m someone's disgusting creation. I’ve had to pay for all this sh!t that wasn’t mine to deal with. I shouldn’t have been made. I know who that woman is. She’s probably my Mother. Why did she make me? Was that all I was good for? A disgusting creation that everyone has to tolerate and hurt? I'm just supposed to be the disgusting creation of yours!? Well not this time!

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