Ender Kuroishi

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## Land of shadows

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## Family & relationship(s)

### family

Luna Kuroishi (mother)Loren Kuroishi (Father)

William (younger brother)

### other

Jaden Demara (best friend)Simon (best friend)

Oliver Olivarius (friend)

> I feel like a lost soul, wandering through the shadows... Is that normal?
>
> - Ender when talking to William

Ender is one of the five significant characters of the End CMP. He is the older brother of William and the king of Kurayami.

## Physiology

### Appearance

Ender is a tall, middle-aged man (he's 35), with shoulder-length, fluffy hair that is bleached cedar in hue and dull heliotrope purple eyes. He primarily prefers a dark grey hoodie over a dark purple turtleneck with no sleeves. He is dressed in a pair of thigh-high dull gray-blue boots and dark muted purple jeans. A purple crown studded with purple gems floats above his head.

According to canon, he is depicted with white gloves, a white button-up shirt with a round collar and a purple tie, a jacket that is yellow and black and resembles a tuxedo, dark greyish purple pants, and white and yellow lace-up boots that are just below his knees. A white ribbon that resembles silk is tied to a purple and yellow cloak that hangs from his shoulders. While the purple studded crown still hangs above his head, two thin white sashes around his torso keep the suit in place.

When he was 12, his hair was a lot shorter and curlier than it is now.

### Biology

Because he is a pure Enderian, Ender canonically has wings. His mother and father were much taller than average. He is the only Enderman who possesses shadow walker Genetic information; he did not acquire it at birth.

## Personality

Ender is often seen to be distant and harsh toward the vast majority of individuals. Most of the time, he makes an effort to avoid interacting with others and keep to himself. Ender works himself to fatigue all the time, yet he refuses to stop working when his body is urging him to. Because he is always working, he seldom takes breaks and never gets much sleep. It all began when he had to take responsibility of Kurayami, which placed a great deal of pressure on him.

Out of all the main characters, Ender is seen as the one who maintains the friend group together. Ender is the one who takes things seriously, whereas the others frequently speak loudly and without thinking. Ender would rather be the group's quiet listener, without actually participating in any activities that the others might perform. Ender prefers to browse a book in the castle library instead of attending social gatherings. Ender pursues Jaden relentlessly to stop him from causing any major mishaps. Ender prefers to spend time with William over the other group members because he thinks them to be loud and disorganized. He will occasionally join William, Jaden, Hillard, and Oliver in insane shenanigans.

Ender is torn and depressed both inside and out; he never seems to find happiness or the light in life, regardless of where he goes. Ender prefers to keep things private and never wants to bring up the subject frequently. His suicide aspirations were much more extreme previously; they still linger in his thoughts, but they're not as dangerous. He developed trust issues after the passing of his parents and is prone to lash out at anyone who causes him mental pain or whenever he loses something that is dear to him.

## Mental health

Ender has struggled with mental health issues all of his life. His trauma began when he was corrupted at the age of eight. His depression started to have an impact on him after the loss of his parents and the betrayal of an old friend. Although he has dealt with his depression for a long time, it still has an impact on him. His mental state is considerably impacted by the corruption, which contributes to his psychotic tendencies. Although Ender frequently has no intention of harming people he cares about, his corruption occasionally influences what he does. Despite his issues, Ender never talks about them; he prefers to keep them hidden. However, on occasion, he chooses to confide in his younger brother about his mental health issues. Stress from ruling the realm and all of the Endermen, as well as the loss of his parents, caused Ender to suffer greatly.

He used to cry himself to sleep when no one was looking when he was younger; he makes an effort to be strong for his younger brother but finds it difficult at times. His eyes have eyebags from hardly sleeping, and he no longer has the white glow in his eyes that indicated emotion. His younger brother tries his best to assist him, but he doesn't believe it is enough. Ender began to distance himself from others by growing colder and more distant with them.

Ender says he's "perfectly fine," but William notes he spends the majority of the time silent and nearly avoids everyone. When Ender was a teenager, he began to have suicidal ideas, but he never wanted to actually do it. Ender occasionally has death fantasies while by himself in his room debating whether to carry on his suicide urges. He once reached his breaking point as a teenager and was unable to cope with his sadness; he was on the verge of taking his own life when his brother entered the room and persuaded him that there is a purpose to live.

## Relationships

Various people Ender has interacted with

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