My Ghost

**My Ghost** is RIELL's fifth release of 2023, as well as the fifth song off her upcoming album "Hymns For The Bitter". It was released June 9, 2023.

Listen to **My Ghost**

## Theme

"The song is about losing somebody that you lost yourself in. I guess it's like not recognising who you are after being with somebody, and you can't really forget them, 'cause everything that used to be you has now somehow turned into them"

"This guy one time cheated on me with his ex girlfriend and then got back together with his ex girlfriend and then six months later while still with her, he then was like 'wanna backpack Canada together' 'cause he was from England and I'm from Canada and he wants me to show him around, and I was like, 'absolutely not'. and then i wrote this sad verse [referring to second verse of the song]".

## Lyrics

[Verse]

You taste like sin

I wish I couldn’t remember

Your touch wicked

I’m haunted by your lips on my skin

[Chorus]

My Ghost, I can’t shake you

My Ghost, I feel you in my bones

No matter where I run to

No matter where I go

My Ghost, I still feel you

[Verse]

Your love is cheap

So one-sided, so conditioned, so greedy

But still I let you bleed me dry

Your best defense made in the back of my mind

[Chorus]

My Ghost, I can’t shake you

My Ghost, I feel you in my bones

No matter where I run to

No matter where I go

My Ghost, I still feel you

[Bridge]

I built you up among stars in my mind

I put your name up in dazzling lights

I painted all of your red flags white

I built you up far too high

[Chorus]

My Ghost, I can’t shake you

My Ghost, I feel you in my bones

No matter where I run to

No matter where I go

My Ghost, I still feel you

And you feel like home

[Post]

Oo, you feel like home

Oo

[Verse]

I said goodbye

Every night I swear it’s for the last time

## Background

* **My Ghost** was leaked by RIELL on May 7, 2023, in a Discord event, where she also leaked three other songs and the whole tracklist.
* A live acoustic version was posted on TD Music Connected Series on January 22, 2022.
* **My Ghost** was announced on June 7, 2023.
* A video showing how the album art was made using an iphone, a milk bath and a bathtub, was posted on June 12, 2023.
* A behind the scenes video for the music video was posted on June 22, 2023.
* In an Instagram live for the My Ghost premiere, RIELL explained how she used an inflatable pool, as well as water-soluble black paint in the music video for the dark liquid. She also said how for around a week after, she was getting black paint out of her hair and other places on her body.
* The music video for My Ghost was released on June 23, 2023.

* On July 7, 2023, RIELL posted a behind the scenes video for the shooting of the **My Ghost** music video.

## Trivia

* The line "I painted all your red flags white" is reused from **First**, which RIELL said she used because "I like to reuse some lyrics, especially 'cause **First** when I didn't have that many people listening to it so I was like, 'I really like that lyric and I really wanna use it again', then it also comes back."
* In the music video, it's described as RIELL being in a void and drenched in emotion, and there was a shot in the chorus where she's dripping with emotion, essentially.

## Sources

1. ↑ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h2N6qzj2GFQ
2. ↑ https://www.tiktok.com/@riellmusic/video/7249102217536376069
3. ↑ https://youtu.be/omRIDBbTRIs?t=375
4. ↑ https://www.instagram.com/p/CtKeAApSOT7/?utm\_source=ig\_web\_copy\_link&igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==
5. ↑ https://www.youtube.com/shorts/T1y4qr-U1\_M
6. ↑ https://www.youtube.com/shorts/hZ7JTMrAGiM