Rowan Kane

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## Rowan Kane

* Adult (H)
* Adult (M)
* Adult (PD)
* Teen
* Child

## Basics

### Mental Disorders

Antisocial Personality Disorder, PTSD, Substance Abuse Disorder, Gynophobia, Autism, DID, Bipolar I Disorder

## Appearance

### Nationality

English (2007-2037)Underworldian (2037-Present)

## Other

### Drug Use

**Currently:** Weed, Alcohol, Seradust, Tobacco**Formerly:** LSD, Cocaine

### Groups

The National Revolt, Midnight, The Department of Paid Crime

### Assosiations

Grim Avetisyan - Girlfriend, Ren Saturnus - Boyfriend, Rhys Kane - Older Brother, Jasper - Headmate

## Extra

### **Who is Rowan?**

Rowan is a human (now Malux) from earth who's a internet micro-celebrity and a National Revolt Member.

### **Appearance**

In his usual appearance, Rowan is a 5'6ft man with dark skin and scar going across his left eye. He has black hair that's cut to shoulder length with bangs that are cut just above his eyeline. His eyes are a dark green and he has bandages on his forearms.

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Gynophobia, Rape, Child Abuse (Neglect, Physical and Emotional), Alcohol Abuse, Suicidal Ideation and Suicide Attempts, Mental Health Struggles (Dissociation, Paranoia, Flashbacks, Panic Attacks), Homophobia and Internalised Homophobia, Transphobia and Internalised Transphobia, Self sabotage (Both intentional and unintentional), Fragile Masculinity

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### **Backstory**

#### Early Life (2007-2016)

In 2007, Rowan was born to Brihanna Lyons and Kaymar Kane only 3 years after they and his older brother Rhys had moved to England.

Their mother was very removed from Rowan when he was born and would even make comments about wishing he hadn't had him at times, but no one thought much of it due to her experiencing a brief postnatal depression after Rhys' birth, although admittedly less severe. After multiple years however, Brihanna's avoidance didn't waver like with Rhys, but instead drastically increased, which caused Kaymar to become suspicious and begin looking into it after she refused to even acknowledge it.

Kaymar found out that the reason why she was so on edge was because she had repeatedly cheated on him during their relationship, both before Rhys' birth and after Rowan's and she feared that Rowan wasn't Kaymar's son and by proxy was also worrying about Rhys' father not being him either. This expose caused a massive strain in the family for all 4 members, with Rhys and Rowan taking it the hardest. Brihanna's alcohol abuse worsened and Kaymar's dissociation became worse, causing Rhys to have to take care of Rowan most of the time, Rhys wanting to return to the family's prior happiness but also now questioning if that was even his family in the first place and Rowan was now developing problems due to having problems with both of his parents and having no contact with family other than them and his brother.

During Rowan's childhood, his mother was extremely neglectful and abusive towards him, both physically and (more so) emotionally. She would actively avoid him and would gladly make it clear that she hated him if he ever even went near her, constantly insulting him and often pushing him away and telling him that his birth ruined the three's lives, even telling him that he should kill himself on multiple occasions. His father wasn't much better, although not necessarily abusive, Kaymar would either dissociate most of the time and be too out of it to help or he'd not stick up for him while it was happening due to not wanting to also endure the same abuse, usually trying to make it up to him afterwards, much to Rowan's annoyance. Due to this stressed relationship with his parents, he developed Reactive Attachment Disorder and Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder which, due to his mother believing metal health issues are a sign of weakness and his father not wanting to accept the fact that he partly caused it, were never treated, causing him extreme problems down the road.

Due to this increased stress at home, Rhys developed his own alcohol addiction as he grew older, causing him to become a party animal who would go to literally any event he found out about. When he got older, he started taking Rowan with him, resulting in them staying out late with random people living in the neighbourhood. This is where he would meet Dexter and George and these three would start to constantly go to various parties and events together, even without Rhys. Dexter was new to the area, moving there in 2013, and he and Rowan would be invited to a sleepover at a classmates house as a way for Dexter to break the ice. At this party, they would take part in a game of spin the bottle and when Dexter spun it, it landed on Rowan, with Dexter, after a little pear pressure, jokingly pecking him on the cheek.

Although meaning nothing to Dexter, this caused Rowan to question a lot about himself. His mother was extremely homophobic and after Rhys came out to her, she deemed Rowan being CisHet his only redeeming quality. Dexter's joke caused Rowan to develop a massive crush on him which he was extremely self-conscious about and would constantly fret over. He was desperate to cling onto his mothers only praise of him but couldn't help but enjoy the attention Dexter gave him, the only positive attention he had ever got from someone other than his brother.

One day, Rhys went to a house party a classmate threw at their house for their year exclusively. This is where he met a girl in called Enya, who he immediately hit it off with. When Rhys' addiction worsened, Enya was there to help him though it and due to this, the two developed an extremely close bond and became partners. He then later moved out with her, taking Rowan with them.

#### Post-Moveout (2017-2032)

Rowans insecurity over his orientation was only exacerbated when Dexter would introduce him to Ren just before they had a falling out with George. Ren would replace George in the trio and due to Ren being extremely protective and overly caring of the two, it caused Rowan to develop feelings for him too, causing him to not only worry over who he was attracted to, but also how many people he was attracted to. Soon, he'd find out that Ren had a crush on Dexter and insisted on helping him get with him. He hoped that by matchmaking the two together, the fact that they where already taken would make his feelings go away.

After the 3 years it took Ren and Dexter to officially get together, he was exited to finally have his feelings leave, only for no such thing to happen, instead now having *more* feelings for the two, due to know knowing them for longer. This caused Rowan to develop a very on-and-off friendship with the two. He'd obsessively spend time with them before ghosting them out of guilt and shame, doing this repeatedly for a straight 3 years before finally confessing to Dexter (Now called Grim) in an emotional vent, the first time Rowan had ever vented to anyone. Grim was horrified to find out that he kept such a secret for the shocking 10 years he did, especially since Grim and Ren also had feelings for him but ignored them due to thinking he was straight. He went to Ren asking for advice and Ren in response was equally as upset, confessing to the fact that Rowan matchmade them together and now realising why he did. The two decided to try and cheer him up by spending more time with him, but Rowan immediately noticed that the two where acting off and questioned Grim, asking if he told Ren. Grim confessed and feeling betrayed Rowan started an argument with him about it, causing Grim to storm off.

Rowan knew that this was just an example of his impulsive self-sabotage and urged Ren to leave with him but Ren denied the offer. He instead spoke to him about how he also has trust issues and that he understood what he was going through and after a long heart to heart, Ren urged Rowan to do what he wanted to do and not what others wanted him to, causing him to apologize to Grim and from then on, the 3 became a polygamous couple, even if Rowan was still his usual on-and-off self.

Not only were Rowan, Ren and Dexter (now called Grim) a trio in their social life and love life but also in their work life. Rowan started doing occasional jobs for the DPC, mainly around damage control, giving him an average income to work with and since all 3 of them worked there, their superiors would usually let them work together on the same cases, Grim prepping the victim for the murder, Ren doing the murder and Rowan cleaning and covering it up. Obviously, the 3 were very close but on 31st December 2032, the two would die and it was Rowan's job to clean up the crime scene. He didn't mind it at first, thinking it's better he does it then someone who wouldn't be as respectful, but the image of their corpses would linger in his mind and over time the memory of it would torment him more and more. These flashbacks usually happened if something reminded him of them or someone brought them up and Rowans reaction could range from breif dissosiation to full-blown panic attacks.

#### Pre-Death (2017-2037)

In the coming years, people would notice how differently he was acting and the DPC would finally do some mental health evaluations on him, diagnosing him with ASPD, DDD, RAD and CPTSD. In 2029, he would meet a woman called Aisha and the two would start getting to know each other, bonding over the fact that they're both DPC employees and had similar personalities. They started living together as roommates and 14 months later they would end up in a open sexual situationship.

Rowan was desperate to move on from Grim and Ren, not wanting to accept that he was traumatised by their death's and hoped that getting with Aisha would fulfil that, but again, it didn't work. Now panicking, realising how much the two meant to him, he spiralled and began a destructive cycle of mental illness, substance abuse, one-night-stands, isolation and suicidal ideation.

After a few weeks of good mental health and no substance abuse, a friend of his called Elena invited him to a party. Not able to resist the sight of drinks there, a single drink became multiple and that combined with the weeks of not drinking ended up with him being black-out drunk by the end of the night. Elena was watching him but briefly got up to go to the toilet and when she came back he wasn't where she left him. After looking around for him with a friend of hers, the two found him in bed with a girl who was obviously sober. Elena dealt with the woman while her friend delt with Rowan, watching him while putting in efforts to try and sober him up and after a few hours he fully sobered up and found out what happened.

He assured the two girls he was fine and made his way home, trying to pretend nothing happened, but like the other problems in his life, he couldn't forget it and spiralled more then he ever had, this time not even telling Rhys what happened and ghosting the two girls out of fear of what they thought of him after it, blaming himself for what happened. Occasionally, when Grim and Ren would pay him visits, they would notice the difference in him, even though Rowan would try his best to hide it and eventually, he'd breakdown in front of Ren after he saw the bloody bandages on his arms. Even after this however, he still refused to tell Ren and Grim what happened and would still refuse help after this.

He was put in isolation by the DPC after they were made aware of how mentally unstable he really was and Rowan eventually started getting better. After a long time of good mental health and lack of alcohol and drug abuse, he decided to treat himself to a drink on his 30th birthday. He later that night, got into a drunk driving accident that cost him his life.

#### Post-Death (2037-Now)

Rowan, Grim and Ren quickly reunited in the afterlife and after a bit of drinking together, Rowan finally confessed all of his issues to Grim and Ren, much to their horror. After he sobered up, they urged him to tell them why he didn't tell them what he was going though and instead of panicking and telling the two he lied or whatever, he instead promised to try and be more honest with them, with Ren and Grim vowing to help him in anyway they can. Rowan's drinking has since been under control for the most part, mainly due to Grim and Ren being there to cheer him up or stop him. The only new problem he has is that, due to his struggles with dissociation, his intoxicated-self is a completely different person called Junkie. Both consider the other a different person and outright despises them, doing self destructive things to get back at them (so the other has to deal with the consequences when they switch back). Since dying, he's also been diagnosed with Substance Abuse Disorder and Gynophobia.

### **Criminal Record**

* **[Vandalization]** Misc graffiti and vandalised the house of someone he had beef with.
* **[Public intoxication]** Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
* **[Threats to kill]** Common.
* **[Verbal assault]** Common. Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
* **[Robbery]** Robbed a store before burning it down.
* **[Battery]** Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
* **[Physical assault]** Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
* **[DUI]** Crashed a car while drunk. Killed 3, injured 2 (Including him). Crashed a car while drunk. Killed 1 (Himself).
* **[Arson]** Robbed a store before burning it down.
* **[Perverting the course of justice]** Common (Rowan's job is to cover up crimes.)
* **[Assisting an offender]** Common (Rowan often helps Ren and Grim with their crimes.)
* **[Attempted Manslaughter]** Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
* **[Manslaughter]** Common.
* **[Murder]** Common.

### **Notes**

* Rowan doesn't have contact with anyone in his family other than his brother and his girlfriend and has no intention of reaching out to anyone else.
* Most of Rowan's insecurities come from his mother's abuse:
	+ His internalised homophobia and fragile masculinity coming from his mother constantly talking about how she disapproved of Rhys being bisexual and that Rowan being CisHet was his only redeeming quality, causing Rowan to unhealthily fixate on it due to it being the only praise he ever got from her.
	+ His alcoholism and messy love life comes from her constantly cheating on his father and drinking around him, causing him to think that's how to deal with his problems.
* It's been hinted that Rowan was/is a prostitute or rent boy but its never been outright confirmed.
	+ The first hint is his secondary outfit featuring a green handkerchief in the back-left pocket. A green bandana (worn on the left side of the body specifically) is part of handkerchief code and is used to symbolise that the wearer is a sex worker.
		- Junkie also has this same handkerchief featured on one of his alternate outfits too.
	+ The second hint is Thomas telling Grim that Rowan would often sleep with him in exchange for drugs. Although this is considered a "innocent favour" by the two, Rowan was said to be the one who came up with the idea, which would insinuate that Rowan was very casual about doing things like that (Since they didn't know each other at the time.)
* In addition to Rowan's Gynophobia, he's also scared of men. The only reason why only one gender is considered a phobia and not the other is because his fear of men isn't extreme enough to be considered a phobia, whereas his fear of women is not only a phobia but a severe and extreme scale of it, often shaking and having short breaths over just being in the same room as one.
	+ An example of this is best shown with his relationships with Thomas' partners Azazel and Amy. Although intimidated and scared of Azazel at first, he eventually warmed up to him and can hold a decent conversation with him, whereas with Amy, he's so terrified of her that he refuses to talk to her and refuses to even be in the same room as her without Grim or Ren with him, despite them having been siblings-in-law for years now.
		- When Rowan's asked why he's so scared of Amy in particular, he says its because she reminds him of people he's met in the past and that "it never ended well" with these people. Whether this actually has anything to do with Amy's appearance, personality etc or whether he's just referring to the fact that she's a woman isn't ever clarified.