Chapter 19

**Deep Memory** (深い記憶, *Fukai Kioku*, ***Deep Memory***?) is the 19th chapter of the *To Your Eternity* manga.

## Summary

Gugu and Fushi continues to scare people. The greater the stimulus, the deeper it is imprinted in memory. After scaring some people, Fushi asks if Gugu is not going back to the Booze Man's place. Gugu replies that he will not come back for what Booze Man did to him, which is stuffing alcohol in his body. Gugu then suddenly collapses and was not able to move. Fushi carries Gugu and says to go back to the liquor store but Gugu strongly refuses.

They end up in Gugu's turf. While laying, Gugu tells Fushi that he has not eaten anything for so long and asks Fushi if he has anything. Fushi replies no but seeing Gugu's response, he starts to remember the foods he ate and begins replicating them from his body. Fushi first produces the fruit March gave him, the food from Yanome and shoves them into Gugu's mouth. Gugu then proceeds to eat the foods Fushi made. At this moment, the greater the stimulus was, the easier it is for Fushi to replicate it. The greater the stimulus, the deeper it is imprinted in memory. Yet depending on Fushi's growth, the day may come when Fushi is able to replicate even the smallest stimuli.

After eating, they are approached by Meer, Rean's dog. Fushi then wonders if it's Joaan. Fushi keeps saying Joaan but Gugu corrects him that it was Rean's dog, Meer. Gugu asks who Joaan is and Fushi replies that someone called him that once. Gugu then says that it must be his name and asks if his parents called him that. Fushi replies that he does not know but remembers that person is his first person, that they became hollow, cannot move and Fushi became them. Gugu then clarifies that the first person who had his appearance died and asks if the girl, wolf, and bear he can turn into also died. Fushi then asks Gugu about death.

Gugu then describes death as the hollowness Fushi spoke of and once it happens, you can never turn back. Gugu then says that he thinks he only reacted through pain but it seems Fushi reacts to emotional pain as well. Gugu then asks that if he died, will Fushi turn into him. Fushi replies that he thinks so. Gugu then says that it's great since even though he died, Fushi will still be thinking of him. Gugu then shares that he is all alone and that if he had grown up in a normal household, he would eat every day, have a bed to sleep at night, have a mother who will nurse him to sick, a father to ask how he's doing every day, older sisters that like to tease him but play with him and an older brother that would teach him everything. But then one day, he would feel discomfort telling that they had t move because of his father's work but they didn't take them with them. Shin then tells Gugu that they have to look for work somewhere. Gugu thought they were his family but the truth is they are only their employers and the only one who thought of him was his brother.

After Gugu shares his past, he apologizes to Fushi for hurting him and tells him that if he dies, become him. Gugu then says that he's feeling sleepy and that he's happy that Fushi is worrying about him, thinking of him and there for him and he feels like that is what a family should look like. Gugu then goes to sleep.

After a while, Rean approaches holding Meer saying she found both of them. Gugu then is seen blushing and covering his face with a blanket.

## Character in Order of Appearance

* Fushi — Form(s): Oniguma, The Nameless Boy, Joaan
* Gugu
* Meer
* Shin *(Flashback)*
* Rean Cropp