Chapter 14: Wary Intimidation

I AM MY OWN SELF

WARY INTIMIDATION

CHAPTER 14 OF THE CHINESE MANHUA

After the school day has ended, the impromptu interpersonal exchange between Yulan and Jin has become quite the spectacle in the almost deserted classroom. Jin is confronting Yulan, the feminine boy, about being in the athletic competition, specifically being on the all-female cheerleader squad. Jin has Yulan pinned against the wall, blocking him in with his hands and arms pressed on the wall. Yulan is visibly concerned and disturbed by the intimidation that Jin is dishing out. Yulan silently wonders if Jin knows his deeply held secret ?

Just then, two more boys enter the classroom, the Class Representative, and Qiu Yi, a boy who has the same chocolate brown colored hair as Wen Wen. Immediately, their attention is directed to the two boys at the wall. The two girls, who have been watching the interplay, wonder between themselves just what is happening with those two boys ? Jin is staring down Yulan, whereas a languid Yulan is looking downward and to the side. A pregnant silence ensues, until Jin gruffly orders---

"SO, WILL YOU DO IT ? JOIN THE CHEERLEADERS ?" The Class Rep knows what is going on, but doesn't interfere.

Bravely, Yulan looks up into Jin's face, and remarks, "Can you .... um .... not ask me like this .... everyone is looking at us .... !"

Responding, Jin moves in even closer, just a few inches from Yulan's face. "Just say you will do it !", commands Jin. Yulan looks away, pleading that you, Jin, are too close.

Almost whispering, Jin says, "If you don't join, I am going to kiss you !" Jin has Yulan completely blocked in, plus Yulan is blanketed by Jin's shadow.

"You .... you can't .... you can't kiss me .... ah .... because .... we are .... both .... um .... both boys .... !", pleads Yulan.

"But if you were a girl, then it would be all right, okay to kiss you, wouldn't it ?", is the comeback from Jin.

"A .... a girl .... you say .... ?", softly ponders Yulan.

"Aren't you really a girl, deep down inside .... ?", offers Jin.

"A .... girl .... inside .... a .... girl .... a girl to be kissed .... to be kissed by a Prince .... a girl awakening .... a girl .... you say ....", mumbles Yulan almost to themselves.

Yulan closes their eyes, with an almost dreamy, surreal expression on their face. Jin is still only a couple of inches from Yulan's face. Yulan seems to be in some sort of trance, as Jin becomes puzzled at Yulan's coy demure. Yulan's mind brings up the fact that being a girl inside has been the deep dark secret that had to kept hidden. However, Yulan's heart suddenly implores that revealing that fact now is not such a bad idea. So to kick-off that determination, Yulan's heart does a 'Coming Out' to oneself, admitting that they have been, am now, and always will be a genuine girl ! A girl's awakening, indeed !

One of the two girls who had been watching the 'hunter and hunted' game comes upon a wicked cool idea. She silently works her way up to behind Jin, and with her two hands touching the back of Jin's shoulders, gently nudges Jin forward. Enough so that Jin's lips touch Yulan's lips for a few fleeting moments !!! Jin is immediately paralyzed with conflicting emotions, and can't move.

With that seemingly deliberate kiss, Yulan's mind, heart, and spirit erupt like an atomic bomb going off. Although Yulan's eyes are still closed, her senses are flooded with a rainbow of different emotions and feelings. Her mind, in a flash, is sensitized to a ***summoning and awakening*** pouring out of her heart, like the floodwaters of a thunderstorm, like the hail that is beating down the fear of reveling one's correct Gender Identity, that had long held sway. Her spirit is saying that ***a kiss from a Prince*** has broken the chains of apprehension and trepidation, and the ***beauty*** of being a real girl, that has been ***sleeping*** for so long, has just been released and taken wings of flight ! Such a ***charming*** thought ! Yulan's determination to be the girl she was meant to be, the motivation to do so, and the self-confidence to carry it out to completion, ignites a firestorm of conviction in Yulan's heart---**HER MIND ROARS OUT IT'S ASSESSMENT---THAT SUDDEN ACCEPTANCE OF GIRL POWER, 'IT'S OVER 9000' (\*) !!!**

Yulan opens her eyes after the brief, yet oh-so provocative kiss. She places both her hands on Jin's chest in an almost romantic mood, and with such a succulent tone, whispers to Jin, *"Yes .... I am a girl ! A real girl ! An authentic girl ! A girl just now awakened to her own feelings and desires !"*

"Huh .... ?!?!?", reacts Jin, as he drops the intimidation tactics, and becomes much perplexed at what is happening to Yulan.

The makeshift audience of classmates now notice an abrupt change in Yulan's attitude and disposition. Yulan pushes against Jin, pushing him away from the makeshift blockade that she had been held in. Backing away, she sizes up her target. Yulan then draws a bead on Jin, looking at him like he is in the cross-hairs of a scope, and shoots forth a profound declaration, like an arrow that pierces Jin's heart and soul---

**"I AM MY OWN SELF ! I AM WHO I AM !! I AM WHO I WAS MEANT TO BE !!! I'M PUBLICALLY 'COMING OUT' AS A REAL GIRL !!! I PROCLAIM THAT I AM AN AUTHENTIC GIRL, A TRANS GIRL !!!"**

"Gawdd .... Yulan's fighting back ! {He's} lashing out at the bullying. *GO, YULAN, GO !*", shouts one of the girls, "Knock down Jin with your Girl Power !" !

"I didn't think {he} had it in him !", muses the Class Rep.

"Well, I'll be damned .... Yulan beat me at my own game !", gulps down Wen Wen !

Bursting with new-found confidence, Yulan boldly proclaims to no one in particular---

"Join the Cheerleaders ? Of course, I will ! So that is what a few of the girls like to do for the athletic events ? That is what I am going to do, as the genuine girl that I am, and certainly is something that should be done, likewise !"

A few of the students, including the two girls, clap their hands in response. Qiu Yi slaps Jin on the back, and spits out, "Looks like you got taken down a few notches, didn't you, Jin ?" Another boy chides Jin about 'kissing' another "boy" ! Lashing out, Jin asserts that he had nothing to do with that ! Besides, he kissed ***a girl***, not a "boy" (#). Jin feels silly for doing what the Class Rep told him he had to do. A dumbfounded Jin looks across the classroom at the Class Rep, and in a goofy, melodramatic manner, announces that Yulan has agreed to join the cheerleaders. Duh ! The Class Rep notes the newest cheerleader on his athletic sheet, Then he upstages Jin, saying that nobody from this class has signed up for the 10K race. How about you, Jin ? You can redeem yourself for the guffaw that you just did on Yulan. Jin worries about the length of the event---10K ! The Rep points out that the cute, adorable cheerleaders will be shouting encouragement all the way, including the prettiest one---Yulan !

Looking across the classroom at Yulan, Jin seems conflicted about entering the 10K. However, Yulan tells herself that if Jin doesn't compete, he will look like a total wimp and weakling, especially after his bloated, comical power play in front of everyone. Loudly, it could be heard across the room that Jin says that he will do the 10K. The smug Rep tells Jin that he had already been signed up some time ago ! Yulan comes up to Jin and remarks that you really are going to do a 10K, fer real ? "Piece of cake !", boasts Jin !

(End of Chapter 14)

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**Chapter Lookback, Commentary, and Opinion**

**(\*) THE GIRL POWER IS OVER 9000**

A Dragonball Z reference

**(#) The Kiss**

The one girl who tricked Jin into kissing Yulan probably wanted to see a live incident of B.L. (Boy's Love / Yaoi). And that is what it seemingly looked like. Yet, as Jin pointed out, he DID NOT kiss a 'boy', but a girl. This because unknown to Jin, but nevertheless correctly suspected by Jin, Yulan had previously done a "Coming Out" to themselves as a girl, and from that point forward, Yulan was a real girl, a Trans Girl ! Jin had inadvertently kissed a Trans Girl.

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Scorps

Messages: 92

Mar 1, 2021

Do it for the fem[inine] boy!!!

Urimiya

Messages: 28

Jan 10, 2021

Really hard to find Chinese stuff with lgbtqia material!

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