Good night, Nostalgia

* Good night, Juvenile
* Live Idly

*-Unbreakable curses and unawakenable dreams-*

"*Good bye, my yesterday self.*"— **Music description**
**Good night, Nostalgia** (おやすみ、ノスタルジー, *Oyasumi, Nosutarujii*[?]) is a song by Guchiry featuring Kagamine Rin. It is the seventh track of the album *Good night, Juvenile*, and the sixteenth track of the album *Live Idly*.

## Lyrics

* Japanese
* Romaji
* English

見たくないものに蓋をして 見ずにいられる世界であったなら

こんな息苦しいこともなかっただろう

目を逸らしてまた振り返って 後退りしながら進んできた

明日のことはもう 考えたくないから

自分の事なのに他人事のように 思えてしまうのは何故なのだろう

それは自分を愛せていない証拠だろう

「なら他人を愛す資格がない」など、「愛される資格なんてない」など、

誰が言ったんだ そんな戯言

好き勝手放題 指差して 解けない呪いをかけておいて

知らぬ存ぜぬで「恨むな」って そんなの許せるわけないよ

未来に縋るのはやめにしよう 過去はクシャッとゴミにまとめておいた

これでもうボクを縛るものはない そうだろう？

わかってくれるなんて思ってないよ ボクも何もわかってないから

ここまでの道のりが天国か地獄かなんてさ わかるわけないんだ

他人の人生を値踏むな 誰も頼んだ覚えはないから

これはいつの日か 自分で終わらせるストーリー

誰も知らない そんな思い出（ストーリー）

何度過ちを繰り返して トラウマばかり背負って来たのだろう

眠る度ぶり返す 自傷症状ファンタジー

何一つ成せてなどないから 心だけが取り残されていく

いつの間にか 大人になってしまった

誰も彼もボクだけ置いて 光の方へと走り去っていく

膝をついて「もう歩けない」って泣いてるボクはここにいるよ

差し伸べる手なんてものは無かった 負け犬は所詮人じゃなかった

これを何と言う？人の生とは呼べないだろう

もしもボクがここにいたとして 目の前で苦しんでいたら

キミはそれを助けてくれるだろうね だってさ それは優しいから

でも世界のどこかで 誰も知らないような場所で

彷徨っていたら キミはボクを見つけてくれるかい？

わかってくれるなんて思ってないよ ボクも何もわかってないから

これまでのこと 自分のこと 相手のこと わかるわけないんだ

でもそれを生と呼ぶのだろう 足掻いて生きた過去があるだろう

それをいつの日か 終わらせるのさ ノスタルジー

まぶたの裏 呪いに告げるよ おやすみ

誰も知らない そんな思い出（ストーリー）

Mitakunai mono ni futa o shite mizu ni irareru sekaideattanara

Konna ikigurushii koto mo nakattadarou

Me o sorashite mata furikaette atozusari shinagara susundekita

Ashita no koto wa mou kangaetakunaikara

Jibun no kotonanoni taningoto no you ni omoeteshimau no wa nazena nodarou

Sore wa jibun o aiseteinai shoukodarou

"Nara tanin o aisu shikaku ga nai" nado, "Aisareru shikaku nante nai" nado,

Dare ga itta nda sonna tawagoto

Suki kattehoudai yubi sashite tokenai noroi o kaketeoite

Shiranu zonzenude "Uramuna" tte sonna no yuruseru wake naiyo

Mirai ni sugaru no wa yame ni shiyou kako wa kushatu to gomi ni matometeoita

Kore de mou boku o shibaru mono wa nai soudarou？

Wakattekureru nante omottenaiyo boku mo nani mo wakattenaikara

Koko made no michinori ga tengoku ka jigoku ka nante sa wakaru wakenai nda

Tanin no jinsei o ne fumuna dare mo tanonda oboe wa naikara

Kore wa itsu no hi ka jibun de owaraseru sutoorii

Dare mo shiranai sonna sutoorii

Nan do ayamachi o kurikaeshite torauma bakari seottekita nodarou

Nemuru tabi burikaesu ji kizu shoujou fantajii

Nanihitotsu nasete nado naikara kokoro dake ga torinokosareteiku

Itsunomanika otona ni natteshimatta

Dare mo kare mo boku dake oite hikari no hou e to hashirisatteiku

Hiza o tsuite "Mou arukenai" tte naiteru boku wa koko ni iruyo

Sashinoberu te nante mono wa nakatta makeinu wa shosen hito janakatta

Kore o nanto iu？ Hito no nama to wa yobenaidarou

Moshimo boku ga koko ni ita toshite me no mae de kurushindeitara

Kimi wa sore o tasukete kurerudarou ne dattesa sore wa yasashiikara

Demo sekai no doko ka de dare mo shiranai youna basho de

Houkou tte itara kimi wa boku o mitsukete kureru kai？

Wakattekureru nante omottenaiyo boku mo nani mo wakattenaikara

Kore made no koto jibun no koto aite no koto wakaru wakenai nda

Demo sore o nama to yobu nodarou agaite ikita kako ga arudarou

Sore o itsu no hi ka owaraseru nosa nosutarujii

Mabuta no ura noroi ni tsugeruyo oyasumi

Dare mo shiranai sonna sutoorii

If only it was a world where we could put a lid on what we don’t want to see so they won’t be seen,

Then it wouldn’t have been this suffocating

I averted my eyes, turned my head, and started walking back,

As I don’t want to think about tomorrow anymore

Why does it seem like I think it’s someone else’s problem to deal with when it’s mine?

That is proof you don’t love yourself right?

“If that’s the case then you are not qualified to love others.” and such, “You are not qualified to be loved.” and such,

Who said such bullshit?

Do whatever you please and point at me and put an unbreakable curse on me

In complete ignorance they just say “Don’t hold a grudge”, there’s no way I will forgive that at all

Let's stop clinging to the future. Crush the past and put it all in the trash

Now there is nothing left to tie me down anymore, yes, that’s right?

I don’t believe you will understand because of course, I don’t understand too

There’s no way I could know if my journey up to this point will lead to Heaven or Hell

Do not go and put a price on other people's lives, I don’t remember anyone asking for that

This is a story that will one day be finished by me

No one knows such memories (stories)

How many times did I repeat the same mistake? I guess I've been burdened by nothing but trauma

A fantasy of self-harm symptoms comes back to me every time I fall asleep

I have accomplished nothing and such, and so only my heart is left behind

Before I knew it, I had become an adult

Everyone else ran towards the direction of the light while I was left behind

On my knees, I’m here crying “I can not walk anymore”

There was no hand to reach out to. Dejected losers were not human after all

What could you call this? You can’t call it human life

If I were here, suffering in front of your eyes,

You would help me, after all, that is kind

But somewhere in this world, in a place nobody knows,

If I wander around, will you find me?

I don’t believe you will understand because of course, I don’t understand too

There’s no way I could even understand myself or my companions

But I guess that is called life? There has to be a past where you struggled to live

Someday, I will finish it, that nostalgia

On the back of my eyelids, I will tell a curse, goodnight

No one knows such memories (stories)

**Original translation done with DeepL and Google Translate, edited by Saucerijjfasac**

## External Links

### Official

* Youtube Music
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* Spotify
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* Ameblo - Lyrics

### Unofficial

* VOCALOID Database
	+ VOCALOID Database (-GR Style-)
* VOCALOID Lyrics Wiki

## Trivia

* Good night, Nostalgia has motifs borrowed from Dear, Juvenile which is the 13th track of Good, night Juvenile, more motifs are used in the *Live Idly* version.
* It was intended to be a ballad but Shishido arranged it into a pop arrangement which Guchiry liked.

## References

1. ↑ https://twitter.com/bomless\_race/status/1476105754486931458
"逆にぐちりメロだけ作って送り付けたものにシシドさんが編曲して完成しました バラード調のつもりで書いたのですが、ポップな切り口のアレンジで返ってきて「これぞ共作の醍醐味よなぁ…」と感じました 歌詞は読み返すととても苦しいです/On the other hand, I just wrote a melody and sent it to him, and Shishido arranged it and completed it. I wrote it with the intention of making it a ballad, but when it came back with a pop-like arrangement, I thought, "This is the real pleasure of co-writing..." It's very painful to read the lyrics again."