Yudh Jain

**Yudh V.S. Jain**, 54, New City, N.Y., was a senior project manager at eSpeed, Cantor Fitzgerald.

MEMORIES FROM FRIENDS:

"Yudh was always polite and kept his cool no matter the controversy of the subject. His comments were well thought out and logically expressed. He had a way of injecting humor into the discussions so there was seldom any concern that we would get into any unfriendly arguments. Yudh was a gentleman, intelligent, firm in his convictions yet considerate of other people's opinions."

"I worked with Yudh for 11 years at Simcon. He was a fine gentleman and a kind and loving person. He was also an excellent and an intellegent project manager. He was stolen from all of us on September 11th. "

"Reading tributes to Yudh in past tense is difficult because he is still so very much with us. With your tolerance, I will think of him in present tense.

Soon after 9/11, I had this vivid dream - they had found bin Laden and I rushed to tell Yudh that they should cut him into 4,000 pieces, one for each victim. Yudh smiled as if gently scolding me. I woke up, instantly realizing how wrong I had been. Yudh is most kind, the gentlest of gentles. He would never kill anything or anyone, so why would he agree to such cruel thought?

Because he is forgiving, he never has unkind words. Despite his brilliance, he is never brash. He lives simple life, works hard, yet touches us all with his gentleness. Too bad bin Laden never knows Yudh, otherwise he would have learned humanity and compassion.

Last time I saw Yudh, it was two days before the WTC attack. As I said goodbye, he said that we would get together again. How I wish I could give him a big hug for that final farewell. My friend, keep your promise and meet me in my dreams."

"We were privileged to have Yudh's friendship for over 30 years. He was the most gentle soul we have ever met in our lives. He set an example within our circle of friends for his compassion and ethics."

"Over the years, I had the chance to work closely with him and learn to appreciate his vast knowledge and exceptional talent. I was also fortunate to be able to get to know him personally and to appreciate his good nature and kindness. We were good friends.
He was very proud for both of his daughters. We were all very shaken to learn about his fate at the WTC attack."

"Good memories:
I worked with Yudh back in 1994. He was a manager of my last project with the company, soon after I left.
I was saddened and devastating by this news.
I will always remember him as a kind and caring person, soft voiced, respecting and helping people, who ever were working with him. Not many like him these days."

"I just wanted to let you know that I am deeply saddened by the 9/11 events and especially about your Dad. I remember the first day he had the interview at eSpeed with one of the managers. After the intevew I walked him to the elevator and I told him good luck and that I hoped to see him again and his reply was, "I hope so". A few weeks after he started working at eSpeed I was glad that he got the job. I told him if he needed any help or had any questions to ask me. Now I feel so sad that he is not with us anymore. I only knew Jain for about three months. He was a kind person and a gentleman - very soft spoken."

"It is difficult to express in words the pain and sorrow we feel when we think of the tragic events of September 11th that took dear Yudh away from all of us.We can't even begin to imagine the anguish your family is experiencing from this unfortunate loss.We all knew Yudh when he worked for ABB and he touched us all with his grace and sincerity.To some of us he was a hard working co-workers, to some he was a mentor,but to all of us he was a friend, a dear friend ,kind and gentle human being who was always willing to help others."

"I worked with Yudh for 6 years at Simcon and I always admired his knowledge and personal integrity.He will always be remembered fondly by those who knew him."

"I was fortunate to have Yudh as my friend and mentor from the day I came to Lincoln, Nebraska for my graduate studies. Being in the same department and living close to Yudh's apartment, we shared several hours.

When Yudh moved to the New Jersey area, we were amongst the first to visit him from Lincoln, Nebraska. Yudh was always there to help me, as if I was his own brother, be it for a sight seeing trip or a job-hunting trip. Later on my family and I visited Yudh's family. Today I fondly remember all those occasions.

For all of us who knew Yudh, to say "Yudh was a caring person" would be an understatement. It is impossible for me put our sentiments into words.

I am forever indebted to Yudh for his everlasting affection and unassuming, but nurturing, nature. His memories will be with me forever."

"I consider it an honor to have met someone the caliber of Yudh. I enjoyed working with him and will miss him as do others from our group at ABB. Yudh was a true gentleman and an oustanding professional."

" There are no words to express my admiration for my husband's great talents. He obtained his master's degree and doctorate in chemical engineering from the University of Nebraska at Lincoln through a merit based fellowship that brought him here from India at the age of 18. He later obtained another PhD in computer science as well. I always used to tell him his first wife was his studies, not me. But still, despite his devotion to learning, he never tired of being a good father and provider and always treated me like a queen and his daughters like princesses. He lived for his family and his work and never for himself. He never complained about late hours or his many duties at home. Often, when I was angry with him for coming home late or having neglected some minor chore, he would simply smile and wait for the storm to pass with a smile on his upper lip. He is greatly loved by his co-workers, community and friends and he has touched all he has met with his gentle and quiet calm. Always there to lend a helping hand at any time of day or night, Yudh is a generous, unselfish and wonderful man who I will cherish forever in my heart. "

Mona Jain (daughter):
"My father's greatest dream was his family and he, my mother, my sister and I like precious jewels. He was the perfect provider and lived for nothing else but to see us smile. I owe him everything I am and everything I will be and I want nothing more than to become the dreams he had for me. I love him dearly and he will be my guardian angel forever."

Cheena Jain (daughter):
"What can I say about my Dad. He could be remembered as a 9/11 victim. Sure. But there's so much more to remember him by. I'm sitting here writing this four and some days after he was taken from us. I can describe him so that people will know who he is one day. I write down memories of his all the time. I never want to forget him. But to characterize. My father was a rock. For me, specifically, he was person that, when I knew he was there, everything felt safe. Life would be okay. He even told me that life would be okay if something happened to him. As time would move on that I would go on. I think he said that to me when I was eleven. It's hard to describe. I was his baby girl and he was my everything. It's hard to express how hard things can become when I person leaves you and also how integral one person could be to your entire existence. Everyone has a couple of people like that, whether it's family members, best friends, mentors, etc. but for me, one of those people was my dad.

I remember after the attacks, I returned to college, still seventeen feeling like I was going on forty-five, and my 2D design professor asked me where I had been. He said something like: 'Where have you been? You haven't been around to make noise in my class; fighting a cold or something?" I just said that my dad had died, in front of the whole class. He asked to see me after class. I remember we talked after class and I just poured myself out. The thing that resonates about that experience is that later on I did a project involving the loss of my father. It was a really horrific image that I had laid out, including a picture of my father holding me as a baby and my sister as a toddler hanging on to him. During my critique, my professor spoke about my work and mentioned the afternoon that I had sat and spoke with him so soon after the attack. He began to cry as he spoke about his talk with me and he said that when he thought about what I had said to him that afternoon, one thing was clear. He said 'I talked to her about her father for a while and it was so clear. Just from her words, the way she spoke about him, you could hear from her voice just how much he loved her.' That affection that my professor spoke of was not just for me, but for everyone he held dear.

To begin to comprehend who Yudh Jain was, there needs to be a comprehension of his pure and complete heart. So complete was his heart that it made mine feel whole. His love was his base. It was as though it radiated knowledge, experience, wisdom, compassion and of course all of his love. All of the love a father could give his daughters. All of the love a husband could give his wife. Pure compassion for the world. I could ask him any question and of course get a really long detailed response. If I cried, he couldn't stand to see it and he do anything to make me feel happy again. And he was my friend. I can't tell you all of the things we would say or do. There were many things.

So now you understand. My father was my rock. Sometimes I wonder if I should run into the street and shout that I'm falling. But then the sun shines or there's a warm spring rain to run around or dance around in. I just tell myself that it's his way of taking away my tears and making me happy again. He always had a knack for that."