I Hate U, I Love U

**I Hate U, I Love U** by gnash and Olivia O'Brien is a song in the episode Coming Back, an episode in JD: Meant To Be: The Golden Era, where it's the group's first day of senior year. It is covered by Melody as she is looking back at the good times before the band fell apart for the first time.

## Lyrics

*Disclaimer: Melody Phoenix edited the lyrics so they are appropriate for the show.*

Feeling used

But I'm

Still missing you

And I can't

See the end of this

Just wanna feel your kiss

Against my lips

And now all this time,

Is passing by

But I still can't seem to tell you why, it hurts me every time I see you

Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you,

I hate that I love you

Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you,

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I'll never be her

I miss you when I can't sleep

Or right after coffee

Or right when I can't eat

I miss you in my front seat

Still got sand in my sweaters

From nights we don't remember

Do you miss me like I miss you?

I messed around and got attached to you

Friends can break your heart too,

And I'm always tired, but never of you

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that

I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that

I type a text but then I never mind that

I got these feelings but you never mind that

Oh oh, keep it on the low

You're still in love with me but your friends don't know

If you wanted me you would just say so

And if I were you, I would never let me go

I hate you, I love you,

I hate that I love you

Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you,

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I'll never be her

I don't mean no harm

I just miss you on my arm

Wedding bells were just alarms

Caution tape around my heart

You ever wonder what we could have been?

You said you wouldn't and you did

Lie to me, lie with me, get your stupid fix

Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all mixed

Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing

Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance

I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing

But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings

When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on

Everyone I do right does me wrong

So every lonely night I sing this song

I hate you, I love you,

I hate that I love you

Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you,

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I'll never be her

All alone I watch you watch her

Like she's the only girl you've ever seen

You don't care, you never did

You don't give a damn about me

Yeah, all alone I watch you watch her

She is the only thing you ever see

How is it you never noticed

That you were slowly killing me

I hate you, I love you,

I hate that I love you

Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you

I hate you, I love you

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I'll never be her

## Trivia

* Melody Phoenix decided to put this in the first episode of the reboot
* While the song is primarily meant to interpret as she misses the way things used to be in the band, it can also be interpreted as her missing someone she was in a serious relationship with over the summer and is hesitant about telling her friends