Heaven

* Perfectionist
* MySpace

**"Heaven"** is a song by Natalia Kills. It is the thirteenth song featured on her debut studio album, *Perfectionist*.

An earlier version of Heaven was uploaded on MySpace between 2007 and 2008 under the alias Verbz.

## Lyrics

* Album
* Verbz version

**[Verse 1]**

Yesterday you were in front of me

Woke up this morning

All of a sudden you're a memory

And if life is as short as they say it is

I guess we'll meet again sooner than we think we will

And they say a picture says a thousand words

But I would trade a thousand pictures to hear one of yours

And I've been saying prayers like I was writing you letters

'Cause if heaven's far like I think it is, you wouldn't get 'em

**[Chorus]**

I know heaven must be beautiful right now

Since they got you, babe

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

I know heaven must be beautiful right now, ooh

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh)

Since they took you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

**[Verse 2]**

They say that God is full of mysteries

Sometimes I wonder if you tell him that you're missing me

'Cause I miss you every day, like they took summer away

Like they took color away

And this grey needs to get the hell away from me

And I'm jealous of the angels, 'cause they see you every day

And I see you when I'm dreaming, but it doesn't feel the same

I know my heart is broken, you can have it anyway

If I could only see you again, again

**[Chorus]**

I know heaven must be beautiful right now

Since they got you, babe

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

I know heaven must be beautiful right now, ooh

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh)

Since they took you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

**[Breakdown]**

Give my life for one last time with you, with you

Give my life for one last time with you, with you

**[Bridge]**

Got my spacesuit on, gonna blast off

Take a vacation to where you are

Hoping heaven ain't all that far

And you passed me by on a shooting star

'Cause I wish so bad, one last chance

Take me back to the photograph

I close my eyes, and I feel you laugh

But all I got is a frame and glass

Is it selfishness?

Shoulda made a room for the both of us

Loneliness

I'm not lost but I've got no direction

Parachute gone and I'm falling fast

My heart has stopped, but I'm still breathing

Gone numb, but still I'm feeling

The less I look, the more I'm seeing

I just lost my hero

**[Chorus]**

I know heaven must be beautiful right now

Since they got you, babe

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

I know heaven must be beautiful right now, ooh

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh)

Since they took you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

I know heaven must be beautiful right now

Since they got you, babe

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

I know heaven must be beautiful right now, ooh

Since they got you, babe (Oh-oh)

Since they took you, babe (Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)

**[Chorus]**

Heaven must be beautiful right now

'Cause they got you, baby

'Cause they got you, babe *(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

Heaven must be beautiful right now

'Cause they got you, baby

'Cause they got you, babe *(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

**[Verse 1]**

Ooh, yesterday you were in front of me

Woke up this morning, all a sudden you're a memory

Ooh, if life is as short as they say it is

I guess we'll meet again sooner than we think we will *(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

But I thought if I looked around, you'd always be there

If I fall, I fall, you pick me up and tell me, "Keep believing"

My heart stopped beating soon as you stopped breathing

I got on my knees, and I don't care who sees me

Heaven's got to wait because I need you *(Oh)*

They say a picture says a thousand words

But I would trade a thousand pictures to hear one of yours

And I've been saying prayers like I was writing you letters

'Cause if heaven's far like I think it is, you wouldn't get 'em *(You're so far away) (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

See, yes, the distance is making it harder

I can't just call you up and laugh with you the way we used to

Ooh, this world isn't good enough, I don't deserve you

'Cause you was an angel all along and now God returned you

**[Chorus]**

And heaven must be beautiful right now

'Cause they got you, baby

'Cause they got you, babe *(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

Heaven must be beautiful right now

'Cause they got you, baby

'Cause they got you

**[Verse 2]**

They say that God is full of mysteries

Sometimes I wonder if you tell him that you're missing me

'Cause I miss you every day, like they took summer away

Like they took color away, and this grey needs to get the hell away from me

So much life lost, unnecessary

Street wars, world wars, Earth is only temporary

Anger's only momentary, words replaced by weaponry *(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)*

We need to save the human, save the future, stop our history becoming

And I'm sorry, did I take you for granted?

But did I ever thank you? I meant to every day

Please don't say it's too late to pay homage

Never called yourself a hero, but you never disappointed me

You think you're so in control, but, boy, we don't even know what's comin' around

I should be counting out my blessings like I'm counting down seconds

'Cause I can only say goodbye for now, for now *(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

**[Chorus]**

I know heaven must be beautiful right now

'Cause they got you, baby

'Cause they got you, babe *(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

I know heaven must be beautiful right now

'Cause they got you, baby

'Cause they got you, you, you *(Babe) (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)*

I know...

## Background

It seems that, at an unknown point in time, a higher quality version of the song than the one uploaded to MySpace leaked or surfaced. However, as there is no proof of this, it is also possible that the recovered file from LostMySpace is simply lower quality than the one actually uploaded to MySpace.

## Writing and Development

#### MySpace

Heaven was likely initially written around 2007 alongside the other songs that were released on MySpace by Verbz.

## Meaning

When asked about the meaning on Twitter, Teddy answered:

> "I wrote it for my grandad who died in my arms... Fuck cancer."
>
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## Announcement and Release

#### MySpace

Heaven was uploaded to MySpace sometime after the release of Shopaholic in 2007, which is considered to be Verbz's debut single, and before August 26, 2008, when the song was mentioned for the first known time.

## Credits

### Technical

* Produced by: **Jeff Bhasker**
* Written by: **Natalia Kills, Jeff Bhasker**
* Published by: **The Kills Effect/Songs Of Universal (BMI) / Sony ATV Songs LLC (BMI) / Way Above Music (BMI)**
* Recorded by: **Jeff Bhasker**
* Recorded at: **Enormous Studios**
* Mixed by: **Robert Orton**
* Mixed at: **Metropolis Studios**
* Mastered by: **Gene Grimaldi**
* Mastered at: **Oasis Mastering Studio**
* Executively produced by: **will.i.am, Martin Kierszenbaum**

## References

1. ↑ captain cappuccini in paris! - Heaven Retrieved June 20, 2023 via LostMySpace
2. ↑ "Much love to you both! RT @NataliaKills: @OwlKILLS I wrote it for my grandad who died in my arms... Fuck cancer. Stay strong sweetheart xoxo" March 26, 2011. Tweet from @PhuckCancer.
3. ↑ "Heaven" Retrieved April 29, 2022 via Lost MySpace.
4. ↑ "Verbz has been impossible to ignore since her debut single ‘Shopaholic’ was first heard..." Retrieved April 22, 2022 via Verbzz on Skyrock.
5. ↑ "Heaven" August 26, 2008. Retrieved April 29, 2022 via Natalia-Cappuccini Sky on Skyrock.