1-800-273-8255

### Songwriter(s)

Sir Robert Bryson Hall II, Dylan Wiggins, Arjun Ivantury, Alessia Cara, Khalid Robinson, Drew Taggart

## Music Video

"**[[1]]**" is a song by Logic featuring Alessia Cara and Khalid. It was released as the third single from his third studio album, *Everybody*, on April 27, 2017 through Visionary Music Group and Def Jam Recordings. The song's title is the phone number for the American National Suicide Prevention Lifeline(NSPL). Produced by Logic and 6ix, it was written by the three recording artists, along with 6ix and Drew Taggart of The Chainsmokers. "[[2]]" eventually peaked at number 3 on the US *Billboard* Hot 100 and received nominations for Song of the Year and Best Music Video at the 60th Annual Grammy Awards.

## Background

Logic talked about the song's background and meaning in an interview with Genius. He stated that the song was inspired by fans that tell him things like "you've saved my life", even if that wasn't his intention. Logic realized the power he has as an artist and decided to create a song where the sole intention is to spread awareness about suicide and attempt to save lives.

In an interview with Genius, Logic said:

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> So the first hook and verse is from the perspective of someone who is calling the hotline and they want to commit suicide. They want to kill themselves. They want to end their life. When I jumped on a tour bus that started in Los Angeles, California and I ended in New York City and did a fan tour where I went to fans' houses and shared meals with them, hung out with them, played them my albumbefore it came out. Them along with other people on tour, just fans that I met randomly, they've said things like, "Your music has saved my life. You've saved my life." And I was always like, "Aw so nice of you. Thanks." And I give them a hug and shit but in my mind, I'm like, "What the fuck?" And they're really serious. And they tat shit on their arms and get shit like lyrics that save their life and in my mind, I was like, "Man I wasn't even trying to save nobody's life." And then it hit me, the power that I have as an artist with a voice. I wasn't even trying to save your life. Now what can happen if I actually did?
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The song's first chorus and verse are from the point of view of somebody who is suicidal and is calling the National Suicide Prevention Hotline. They say that they want to kill themselves and they believe that they don't matter to anybody. The next part of the song is told by the operator on the other end of the line. They tell the person that they want them to live and all the reasons why they should. The final part of the song is the caller realizing that their life does matter and deciding to go on regardless of whatever hardships they may have to face.

## Chart Performance

The song performed very well on charts, peaking at #3 on the Billboard Hot 100.

## Music Video

The music video was released on August 17, 2017 and was directed by Andy Hines. It depicts a young man who is struggling to be accepted for his sexuality. The teen becomes friends with a boy from school, and their relationship quickly grows into a romantic one. The boy and his partner are later discovered laying next to each other in bed by his partner's father. After fighting against his inner demons for a bit longer, he puts a gun to his head, ready to pull the trigger. However, he decides to call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline instead of taking his life.

## Lyrics

**(Logic)**

I've been on the low

I been taking my time

I feel like I'm out of my mind

It feel like my life ain't mine

(Who can relate? Woo!)

I've been on the low

I been taking my time

I feel like I'm out of my mind

It feel like my life ain't mine

I don't wanna be alive

I don't wanna be alive

I just wanna die today

I just wanna die

I don't wanna be alive

I don't wanna be alive

I just wanna die

And let me tell you why

All this other shit I'm talkin' 'bout they think they know it

I've been praying for somebody to save me, no one's heroic

And my life don't even matter, I know it, I know it

I know I'm hurting deep down but can't show it

I never had a place to call my own

I never had a home, ain't nobody callin' my phone

Where you been? Where you at? What's on your mind?

They say every life precious but nobody care about mine

I've been on the low

I been taking my time

I feel like I'm out of my mind

It feel like my life ain't mine

(Who can relate? Woo!)

I've been on the low

I been taking my time

I feel like I'm out of my mind

It feel like my life ain't mine

I want you to be alive

I want you to be alive

You don't gotta die today

You don't gotta die

I want you to be alive

I want you to be alive

You don't gotta die

Now lemme tell you why

**(Alessia)**

It's the very first breath

When your head's been drowning underwater

And it's the lightness in the air

When you're there

Chest to chest with a lover

It's holding on, though the road's long

And seeing light in the darkest things

And when you stare at your reflection

Finally knowing who it is

I know that you'll thank God you did

**(Logic)**

I know where you been, where you are, where you goin'

I know you're the reason I believe in life

What's the day without a little night?

I'm just tryna shed a little light

It can be hard

It can be so hard

But you gotta live right now

You got everything to give right now

I've been on the low

I been taking my time

I feel like I'm out of my mind

It feel like my life ain't mine

(Who can relate? Woo!)

I've been on the low

I been taking my time

I feel like I'm out of my mind

It feel like my life ain't mine

I finally wanna be alive

I finally wanna be alive

I don't wanna die today

I don't wanna die

I finally wanna be alive

I finally wanna be alive

I don't wanna die

I don't wanna die

**(Khalid)**

Pain don't hurt the same, I know

The lane I travel feels alone

But I'm moving 'til my legs give out

And I see my tears melt in the snow

But I don't wanna cry

I don't wanna cry anymore

I wanna feel alive

I don't even wanna die anymore

Oh I don't wanna

I don't wanna

I don't even wanna die anymore

## Impact

According to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (NSPL), in the three weeks following the single's release, calls directed to the NSPL rose by 27%, while visits to their website increased from 300,000 to 400,000 over the following months. According to *Billboard*, the hotline received the second-highest daily call volume ever with over 4,573 calls on the day that the song was released.

Lifeline's Director of Communications Frances Gonzalez reported that, following the night of the 2017 MTV Video Music Awards, the NSPL experienced a 50% surge in the number of calls to their hotline. This was reportedly as a result of the performance of the song by Logic, Cara, and Khalid during the show as well as the speech given by recording artist and activist Kesha, who was tasked with presenting the performers.

During the 60th Annual Grammy Awards, Logic performed the song alongside Alessia Cara and Khalid, as a tribute to Soundgarden lead vocalist Chris Cornell and Linkin Park lead vocalist Chester Bennington, who both died by suicide in 2017. It was performed after the annual in memoriam tribute, which ended with Bennington.

## Remix

A Spanish remix featuring Colombian singer Juanes was released on October 13, 2017. Rapper Lil Durk has also remixed the hit single on his album Just Cause Y'all Waited and titled it "1 (773) Vulture".

## Trivia

* The song's title is the number of the National Suicide Prevention Hotline. After the song's release, the number's calls reportedly went up by 27%.

## References

1. ↑ https://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/jay-z-kendrick-lamar-bruno-mars-lead-2018-grammy-nominees-w512734
2. ↑ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOJTg9cL5bM
3. ↑ http://djbooth.net/news/entry/2017-07-13-logic-1-800-273-8255-effect-on-suicide-prevention
4. ↑ https://www.billboard.com/articles/columns/hip-hop/8039094/logic-1-800-273-8255-national-suicide-prevention-lifeline-statistics-tweet
5. ↑ http://www.billboard.com/articles/events/vma/7942341/logic-kesha-vmas-suicide-prevention-hotline-calls
6. ↑ http://www.rap-up.com/2018/01/28/video-logic-khalid-alessia-cara-perform-1-800-273-8255-at-grammys/
7. ↑ http://www.billboard.com/articles/columns/latin/7997609/juanes-logic-1-800-spanish-remix