Doujin 9

Rumi sometimes gets rather aggressive with her love and attraction to Akira.

### Transition Milestones

Akira is told to begin wearing a bra, as her boobs have begun to develop. She gets her first bra and panties combination. Akira's second period begins, as she gets advice on how to predict when her periods will begin.

### Relationship Evolution

Akira and Mom are somewhat split on Akira's Gender Expression. Akira wants to remain a girl, but Mom and others are pushing her to return to being a 'boy'.

### Lessons Learned

When Akira sees first a blouse and mini-skirt, then a short-hemline dress, she wants them so badly. But you don't always get what you want ! She gets a deck of dueling cards instead. Oh well, maybe next time.

ORE GA WATASHI NI NARU MADE (UNTIL I BECOME ME)

CHAPTER 9 OF THE STORY (DOUJINSHI version)

(Story Note---In the Doujinshi version, this chapter contains two separate stores, thus making it a double chapter. The Manga version splits this chapter into two chapters. Therefore, the Doujinshi chapter will split the stories into Part 1 and Part 2.)

## Previously

Akira reluctantly agrees to have her hair cut and restyled. This she does, and finds out that the hairdresser's nephew is in her class at school. When Akira sees herself in the mirror with her new hairstyle, she goes into a funk, and thinks that she will be made fun of at school by her friends, and the other students. However, Rumi adds her own personal touch to Akira, and Akira ends up looking all the more girly and adorable.

After school on that same day, Akira is told by the School Career Consulor that she should attend a diversity school in Kyoto, ***as a 'male' student, and wear the male school uniform !*** Akira is shocked about the fact that person, as well as Mom and others, are so determined, for unexplained reasons, that she has to go back to being a bratty 'boy'. Akira tells herself that she never disliked, or was displeased being a girl,

## This Chapter's Story

Doujinshi Version Chapter 9, Part 1

It is September, and time for one of Akira's regular health checkups. She is in the exam room with Nurse Okabe-chan, and a new female doctor, one who is not as nice and pleasant as Dr. Kubota is. While the exam is taking place, Okabe-chan compliments Akira on her new hairstyle, and how is suits her pleasing feminine presentation. After the exam, the grumpy, fussy doctor gives her assessment. Akira is in good health. However, it has become obvious that Akira's breasts have begun to grow. Do twingeing feelings occur ? Yes, sometimes. The doctor says that now is the time to consider wearing a bra, or at least a training bra. Yet, if you, Akira, want to have more time to discern what to do about your body, we could give you safe and effective drugs that will pause your puberty for a while. Plus, later if you want to detransition *back to being a male*, we could recommend surgery. Akira noticeably cringes at that last statement, but says nothing.

The door to the exam room is opened, and Akira's Mom is waiting for her. As they walk away, Mom comments that Dr. Kubota was so kind and caring, but this new doctor seems to be really sour and scary. Akira says that she felt uneasy around this new doctor all the time we were in the exam room. Meanwhile, the sarcastic doctor yanks on the back of Okabe's nurse's uniform, and spins her around. She scolds Okabe for complimenting Akira on {his} cute appearance, saying that it could 'scar' {his} adolescent {male} personality. Okabe-san, you should be more aware of making such thoughtless comments (all the while the crass, uncaring doctor was misgendering Akira in such an obvious thoughtless, hurtful manner) ! Okabe merely apologizes, and says nothing more.

Outside, Mom and Akira enter a taxi. Mom now thoughtlessly remarks that if you, Akira, were to enroll in that special school in Kyoto, you won't have to keep dressing as a girl. You would wear the boy's military style uniform. You could have your hair cut short, too, just like boys do. Akira thinks back to that meeting the other day. The Career Consular said that soon another gender inclusive school, like the one in Kyoto, will be opening in a city closer to home. Students questioning their gender roles, as well as ones like you, Akira, would have to take an entrance examination. But that should not be a problem for you, as you have good grades already. Think of it, Akira-kun (**kun** lit. *male*)! You could attend a school as a boy. Isn't that great ? Akira shutters, but says nothing. At least Mom is quiet now in the taxi, as Akira silently wonders why all of a sudden, seemingly everyone among the adults wants her to return to being an undesirable, cantankerous 'boy'. She tells herself that she needs more time to come to any conclusion. Yet, right now, returning to boyhood in not really a viable option. Doesn't anyone notice that ?

The taxi van stops in front of the downtown department store at the mall. Mom says that while we are downtown, we should get you some clothes for winter, Akira. Leading her up to the girls and womens bra department, Mom says that the doctor recommended that you begin wearing a bra. So that is first on our shopping list. Inside the store, in the teen department, a young, attractive saleslady offers a friendly. "Welcome!" Akira becomes miffed at Mom's apparent hypocrisy, telling Mom that didn't she just get done telling her in the taxi that she didn't have to dress like a girl ? Mom's only comeback is that Akira can fully dress as a boy only when she begins attending that alternate school. For now, Akira, although you are a girl, you should wear boy's shirts and pants !

Mom turns to the saleslady and tells her to take Akira's bra size. Akira is lead to a dressing room and ushered inside. When Akira has removed her fancy sweater top, her heart begins pounding, as she is now naked from the waist up. This is worse than at the hospital. The saleslady enters and says that she is going to measure Akira for the correct size bra. This she does. As the saleslady is handling the tape measure, she casually asks if Akira is ticklish ? Yes, she is ! Besides that cute trait, continues the sales lady, you, Akira, are also a very pretty girl ! The saleslady then asks if Akira is in elementary school ? Finishing up fifth grade. Akira now complains---

"I (lit. Watashi {feminine}).......still.......well, since my breasts are not very big, this means that there is no real need to wear a bra, right ?"

The saleslady kindly offers the thought that even though her breast buds are small, using a bra will help them to take a proper shape and develop nicely. The saleslady says that her breasts were small in middle school, but got big, plump, really nicely shaped in high school. She goes on to say that you are still growing. Sooner or later you will have a full, attractive bust. (Akira now imagines herself as she will look like when she is about 21, now with hair below her wing bones, a big, plump bust, coyly sitting, wearing only a bra and panties, and smiling into the mirror at how attractive and sexy she now looks !) Soon, inside the dressing room, Akira is looking at herself in the mirror. She has been fitted with a matched set of a gray sports bra and panties. "Too tight?" "No, it's fine!" She is somewhat embarrassed, but tells herself that her 'muffin tops' don't hurt now. The saleslady asks Akira if she wants a more colorful sports bra, or a different style of bra ? No, what she has is okay ! Akira thanks the sales lady for her help. The sales lady says that she is going to leave the dressing room, and for Akira to get dressed again, but now wearing her new bra and panties.

At the checkout counter, Akira can't believe what just happened. She obtained her first bra !!! The saleslady offers her good-by wishes by saying that if Akira needs anything more, come back right away. "Alright, I will !" Now in a somewhat better mood, Akira thinks to herself that she felt happy when the nurse told her that she had pretty hair. And she was happy when the saleslady told her that she was so cute and attractive. Exactly what kind of person do **I** (lit. *Watashi* {feminine}), no, **I** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) want to be ??? And now she feels the same happiness, this because she is wearing her first bra.

Walking across the various departments, Akira walks past a display of teen/tween fashions. A particular item catches her attention. An attractive, long-sleeved, white frilly shirt, paired with an adorable gray, with tiny white stripes, fashionable mini-skirt. Such a pretty mini-skirt, she thinks to herself, as she admires the one with diagonal stripes and a bow on the front. Akira starkly comments to herself that her pretty hairstyle doesn't go with the boy pants that she is now wearing ! She dearly wishes that she could buy that shirt and mini-skirt, and proudly wear it out in public.

"If only skirts were an option for me to wear ...." , muses Akira silently to herself.

At the next clothing display, Akira sees a pretty, striped, very short hemline dress. She takes one off of the shelf, and holds it up to take a closer look.

"This pretty dress might work just as well with my hairstyle, maybe, hopefully ?"

Just then, Mom comes up to Akira and asks her if she found anything that she wants to buy and wear ? Taking note of the short-hemline dress that Akira is holding up to her body to check for sizing, Mom callously announces that you, Akira, would not look good wearing dresses or skirts. You should stay with wearing boy's pants ! Akira is flabbergasted and greatly disappointed, and returns the dress to the display table. Mom bluntly (but incorrectly) states that she "knows for sure" that Akira would hate to wear skirts. Akira sheepishly says yeah, and silently tells herself that it would kinda weird for **me** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) to wear a skirt, let alone a mini-skirt, or a dress, wouldn't it ?

As it is near noontime, Mom takes Akira to a pizza / pasta parlor in the downtown mall. While eating, Mom asks Akira if her longer hair is getting in her food ? You need to learn how to tie your hair up, or get it cut off. Mom takes Akira into the ladies room, and installs a hair tie in back, giving Akira a sexy ponytail. Yet, Akira's mind is elsewhere. She is thinking that if she were to enter that diversity school, she would not be able to wear the female uniform with the cute, pleated mini-skirt. Mom would absolutely see to it that she would have to wear the male uniform with pants. I must not allow that to happen ! Even if it did, I bet I could still borrow and wear Rumi's skirts and dresses ! Just then, a mother and teenage daughter enter the pizza parlor. Akira is shocked and surprised to see **the daughter wearing the exact same striped, short-hemline dress**, paired with gray pantyhose, that she saw earlier in the teen fashion department. Goodness sakes, she looks so attractive and adorable in that dress, confesses Akira to herself, as her heart skips a beat ! I just imagine Mom would go bananas if I went and bought that dress for myself, all on my own !

When they are done eating, Mom says that she has already bought some things for Grandma, so it's time to go home. Walking through the mall, they pass by a gamer's store. Mom says for Akira to wait for her over on that bench, as she has something that she wants to do. Akira thinks to herself that if she told Mom that she wanted to buy that cute mini-skirt, or that pretty dress, there would be nothing but trouble from Mom. Only thing to do is wait on the bench until Mom returns.

Out on the street, the two wait for a bus. Once on the bus, Mom reaches into one of the shopping bags, and brings out a small package. She hands the package to Akira, telling her that this is for you. Ironically, Mom adds, if there is anything that you really, really want, let me know, and I will get it for you. Unwrapping the package, Akira sees what is in it. Mom says that your desire for this was 'written all over your face', when we were in the department store. Akira thanks Mom, but has a surprised expression on her face. Inside the package was a complete starter deck and booster pack of Duel Oh! (YuGiOh!) cards.

At the front door of home, Akira is in an almighty funk and sour mood. Her mind is screaming loudly, but her mouth is shut and silent---

**That deck of cards IS NOT WHAT I WANTED ! I WANTED, ABOVE ALL ELSE, WAS EITHER *THAT BLOUSE AND MINI-SKIRT COMBINATION, OR THAT ADORABLE, SHORT-HEMLINE STRIPED DRESS !!!***

(End Chapter 9, Part 1)

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CHAPTER 9, PART 2

That evening after the shopping spree, Akira feels tired, and goes to bed early. The weather has turned cold early this year. Sometime after midnight, Akira is sleeping in her bedroom. Was sleeping. She is awake now because her feet are cold, and beginning to cramp up. Must be because of all the walking she did while shopping with Mom. She rubs her feet with her hands to stave off the cold. But she can't go back to sleep. Now she has to go to the toilet. Still no sleep. She's now thirsty. So downstairs she goes to the kitchen, and looks into the refrigerator. "You can't sleep ?", comes a voice from behind her. Only Grandmother. Grandma leads Akira to the downstairs bathroom, runs hot water into the tub, and has Akira sit with her feet in the tub. She is told to relax, and let the hot water warm her up. Grandma surmises that Akira's feet must be sore after all the walking she did today. Then Grandma makes a troublesome, off-handed comment---that Akira doesn't have to 'force herself to sit like a girl'. Akira thinks to herself that she was not forcing herself at all, she did what came naturally.

Afterwards, Akira is lead back to the kitchen, where Grandma fixes her a hot chocolate. Wrapped in a comforter, Akira slowly drinks her hot chocolate. Grandma asks if Akira's feet are still painful ? She than says that maybe Akira's feet are hurting because her feet are growing. This reminds Akira of what the doctor told her---that her breasts have already begun to grow. Grandma then drops another troublesome, callous comment---by telling Akira that since she woke up as a girl, then perhaps she will wake up as a boy someday. Akira softly, yet ironically, says, "Yeah ... right .... !" Akira silently says to herself that she is okay being a girl now, but she can't tell Grandma that. No way !

Next morning, when Akira got up to use the toilet, she discovered that her period had begun. This would be the second time she has had her period. Her paper panties were bloody when she took them down, and that scared her, just like the first time. Later, Mom asks Akira if she put on a pad ? Yeah ....! Handing a pack of pads to Akira, Mom then tells her to remember to change her pad at school every time she has a breaktime. Akira dresses for school, wearing a long sweater that look liks a mini-hemline sweater dress, with a sports logo on the front, black skinny jeans, and a hoodie.

Coming into the kitchen, Akira sees Grandma on a stool, trying to reach a crock-pot to make something for a hot meal. Just as Akira walks by her, grandma's foot slips off of the stool ! Akira catches her and stops her from falling to the floor. "You really scared me ! Are you okay? I don't want you to get hurt!", Akira inquires. Grandma is fine.

Mom and Akira are now eating the hot breakfast that Grandma made. Mom is again in a somewhat of a foul mood. She quizzes Akira if Akira is okay ? Is she tired ? Does your stomach hirt ? Yeah, all that and more, retorts Akira. But being decidedly annoying, Mom tells Akira that you'll be feeling like hell every month from now on, and have to deal with it, like it or not ! You could have okay periods, and then again, really nasty ones. Akira moans; it is *every single month* ? And how do you know when it will come ? Unconcerned, Mom dryly says that is why you have to mark it on the calendar ! If you're still not sure, you should take your temperature and write it down. You're going to have to learn what your own cycle is going to be ! PAY ATTENTION TO ME ! If you don't do it right, you will have problems ! Akira gets ready to leave for school, as Mom barks out one last command, "If you feel bad at school, go to the Infirmary, and see the nurse !

Akira, miffed by this sudden firing squad, says the she is outta here, and turns to go. "Being a girl certainly makes for a really hard time !", Akira proclaims to herself as she goes out the front door. Walking to school, Akira notices that her breasts feel extra tender today. If **I** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) were still a bratty boy, I would now be making fun of all of the girls who are having their periods. In a while, Akira tells herself that she is going to tell Rumi about her experience of buying her first sports bra, even if that is something that would be embarrassing talking about to your very best friend. (Rumi has already been wearing bras.) Once in the school building, Akira is all frowns and bad feelings. She feels occasional random pains in her abdomen. Her foul mood continues, until she meets Rumi. Rumi gives Akira a big smile and a cheerful 'Good Morning'. Akira's bad mood changes instantly. She returns Rumi's greeting with a smile herself, and an equally cheerful, although somewhat forced, 'Good Morning' ! Akira immediately begins telling her 'my first bra' story---

"Rumi, so yesterday **I** (lit. *Watashi* {feminine}) went through such an important event for a girl to experience ...."

(End Chapter 9, Part 2)

(End Chapter 9)

## Chapter Lookback, Commentary, and Opinion

Kampfarsch

Messages: 3,749

Oct 26, 2020

Maybe I remember it wrong, but this one [Doujinshi version] had some weird differences to the other [manga] version, but isn't this the first one? Man, I'm confused [about Akira and the clothing display].
It's a lot more obvious that Akira was looking at the girl's [mini-]skirt, and not the cards. Here, I didnt notice that the first time [reading] at all. I thought she really wanted the cards.

urugiru

Group [Translation] Leader

Messages: 76

Oct 26, 2020

@Kampfarsch---There are two versions. This version [Doujinshi version] was drawn before the serialized [manga] version reimagined the story a bit. Things like Akira wearing [paper panties] and sometimes thinking with "watashi" [lit. *feminine*] were removed from the [doujinshi] volume edition. And yeah the order of the chapters will continue to be weird [between the two versions] until we catch up with chapter 12.

Sheep in Wolf's Clothing

Messages: 71

Jan 31, 2022

Not only was Akira stunned by the desire to purchase the blouse and mini-skirt combination, she even toyed with the idea of obtaining that short-hemline, striped dress. Only the fear of what Mom would think of her, Mom who keeps dropping hints that Akira should go back to being a 'boy', kept her from buying one or both of the outfits that she so greatly admired.

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