FOR THE LOVE OF GODDDDDDDD/Confessionals

Strategy is basically the same as BB2 thus far, I'm just trying to be everyone's friend. Animal Crossing is an excellent way to relate to people, as is Marvel lol. The only people who haven't contacted me at all are Tara and Trey...

Day 1 During Challenge - Ok so what you just read is what I had typed earlier but never got around to finishing, unfortunately. As starts the challenge, so starts the game. And I'm like, trying to lay low but also keep communication lines open in a subtle way. I just want to be on people's good sides so they don't target me, but also not on their minds so they don't target me. It's.... a delicate balance. Who knows how well I'm doing it. But basically, this is where I'm currently at in the \*the game\*:
I feel good with Clifford, Tyler, Nick, Trey, Duncan, Daniel, and Adam, Slim and Felix. I've expressed wanting to work with each of them going forward, and I believe their reciprocation. Still no alliances, I'm expecting the house split to be a very shaping force in how those turn out. At least, that's what I'm discussing with Tyler, Cliff, and Nick individually. I think the early winners are probably gonna have a thing, once again house split depending. If two of the four of us win, I think we'll find ourselves with a lot of power in this game. I'm not putting all my eggs in that basket though, as clearly I've made some headway with some more recent winners. At a second tier, I like Ben, Tasha, Joe, and Brandon but I don't think I'm in quite as close with them. Tara didn't respond to me for most of the day, and Mackie and I have talked a bit less than most.
As I write this we're in the final 8 of the HOH. Gone extremely well so far, all my old school homies are still in and my two biggest worries: Tara and Mackie, have already gone and infected people who are not me. This is good, in my book. As we get closer to the end, I still definitely want to win, but already we've reached a point where anyone who wins is a good thing for me. So.. you know? I'm just gonna chill. This is good. This challenge has already went well. If Tasha infects me at the very end or something, who cares? It'll be alright! Nicole is gonna be ok. And I'm feeling very good about my position in game right now! I'm so glad to be back. Third time's the charm! Let's gooooooooooooo!"

This season is incredible stressful from the jump, there are so many existing relationships that i am attempting to navigate and make sense of, i can't even begin to map out shit in my head let alone put it onto this confessional doc.
Let's talk about Mackie, he will probably be my main ally since the dad thinks a lot, I love thinkers, i am receptive to people who are going to talk out loud to me and I can response, give some of my thoughts and build a relationship around that. He is VERY keen to get blood on his hands in the future which i'm like not all keen about but also understand, we have to be assertive in this game if you don't get traction at some point during this early portion you won't have anything for down the line. I want to be part of his madness, no use floating about and then leaving early with regrets.
Feeling Slim as well, our conversation seems natural and he was asking to give his advice about what to do with this virus twist in the HoH, and actually gave names so I actually really like him, at this point I feel really good with him.
I also really like Joe? I think ideally I form a trio with Mackie & Joe because both are strong in challenges and both seem to like me the most so far, so that may be an alliance that naturally gels together.
I like Clifford and his energy, i like that he is preaching about honesty and he's trying to be congruent and present that he won't work with Ben and Tasha longterm, but he also is setting out that he doesn't want to do anything outside of his terms, he is clear that he doesn't want to work against the oldschool, that's fine week 1, but what about down the line? I get along with him great, but I know that he probably does not perceive me as a huge threat, and really i'm not, my original season I only started playing a winners game at the end, even then i probably would've lost to fair few of the late game cast members.
Thing is though, i'm not feeling insecurities about being here, I am working the socialbot magic that I have and just trying to be an active presence this time around from day 1 to whatever day I stay in this game. Clifford threw out a group of Mackie, Joe, Nick which sounds pretty ideal, I looked back on Nicks last 2 stints and he went out pretty early so he seems like the type that would cling to an alliance... oh my god i forgot he was that ninny that backdoored himself on his HoH LMAO WHAT. I swear i hope that he intentionally did that to put his target down for this season omfg...
But yea I probably do a whole big spill about who i'm feeling and not feeling @ the whole cast but i think I really need to see people in the motion of scrambling to not be devoured by either HoH, for now i'm just going to try be as neutral as possible but that won't stay forever.

Guess who's back? Back again? Cliffy's back! TELL A FUCKING FRIEEENNNND LET'S GOOOOOOO
BRAAAAAP BRAP BRAP BRAP BRAP BRAP!!!!!!
I thought I was playing with all winners? These chumps are itty bitty babies nappin' on their mamas' titties. HERE'S THE RECAP:
Narrator: ""Last time, on a very special C̶l̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶H̶i̶g̶h̶ Big Brother: Vanguard Victory Vape Lounge or Whatever This Season Is Called""
Big Cliffy enters the chat.
""Winners"": ""OH HEY KING PLEASE LET US EAT YOUR ASS""
Big Cliffy: \*takes a shower, prepares for some good ol' fashioned ass eating on a Sunday afternoon\*
So - lets cut to the chase - Ben is back - which means IcyHot is back - but he brought the mother of his children - I forget her name - and now I'm no longer his #2 - but we still made IcyHot INC with the three of us and will pretend that's a real thing - going to most likely reel in Duncan since I'm Ben's #2 and Duncan is Tasha's from previous seasons but me and Duncan are probably gonna be each other's #1 and undermine the couple but use them as a meat shield for our shadow alliance.
Everyone else thinks I'm their best friend except people around long enough to know better.
I decided I wanted to win this HoH - it's not over yet but I'm probably going to win and have Nick be the other HoH - he thinks I'm his #1 ally - and I think Dan might and Nicole and Joe may be trying to keep me close too. Don't trust Joe though.
I told Joe to infect me so he would talk me out of it and then cut a deal to keep him safe - and then did that to everyone else in the comp - the big clutch was convincing Adam to vote Dan so Dan could vote Tyler because ""Tyler is the only one willing to go for the couple"" but Ben agreed to let Tyler take him out lol - that way Ben can take out Nicole - Nicole takes out Tasha hopefully and then me and Nick win HoH - unless someone pulls a fast one - pretty sure I got this.
This leaves Tasha and Ben safe this week and both free to play in the HoH next week.
My target is Adam but I want Nick to take him out ahahahha and then I'll try to see if I can get rid of Brandon or Tara as fodder
Alright Imma go put on gravity boots and hang from my closet like a bat so I can masturbate upside down - ya'll have a pleasant brunch.

AND THEN THE STUFF HAPPENED. Power is up for grabs, I get greedy and grab it, and instantly regret it. Might be a useful power, but too high of a risk. But I think I can still make good use of it by laying it at the mercy of my new HOH. Then HOH starts and I continue shooting myself in the foot. Should have picked Trey as the easy option, but chose Felix instead. Not my best work. My fate is definitely in the hands of the new HOHs, and odds are that I'm not gonna be on the winning side. For now, it's time for ass-kissing and trying to ingratiate myself with some sort of majority within my new house. Fingers crossed that I can squeeze by!

I decided to let the picking play out without much meddling from me. I'm somewhat surprised by how some picks went, but I'm not nearly so naive to believe even my allies are giving me all their information, so it's fine. I trust that people are comfy with me. As it stands, I'm comfortable with everyone on my side except Mackie and Tara, and even then it seems Mackie is cool with me, and also my allies. I'd love to see Tara leave.
Now, overall dynamics - I'm still not officially a part of any alliance, but Cliff, Ben and Tasha predictably have something going on a seem to have a lot of power. I seem to be considered like a satellite member of that alliance, I believe that they want me around but I don't believe I'm part of their core. Nick and I have talked about the old school players working together, and he considers Mackie old school. I like this plan a lot, though I can't shake the feeling that I'm closer to Tyler than he is to me. I feel like there's something else going on here that I'm not fully being let in on... But so long as I'm not a target, it shouldn't be too big of an issue. For now. Lot of game left to be played, I didn't get added to the brigade until the round before jury in BB2.
Outside that power dynamic that somehow includes Ben, Cliff, Tasha, NIck, and possibly Tyler and Mackie... I feel good with Dan, Adam, Slim, Trey, and Felix. Joe and Brandon are big question marks, but at the very least we've been friendly. I do feel good with Duncan, but I'm wary of his connection with Tasha.
Long term, not terribly achievable goal? Ben makes me nervous. He's a challenge beast, and he's got a very powerful group of friends. If Ben was out of the picture, idk how close Cliff and Tasha would be. I like working with Cliff but I know he'll always be interested in keeping Ben. The problem is, even the people outside of their core seem to like Ben a lot. So he's gonna be around a while, and I won't be able to target him easily. The longer he's in the game, the more nervous I'll be.
As for how this round will go, as far as I know Nick is nomination Tara and Adam. I definitely want Adam to stay, but no good would come from me trying to push Nick to nom Mackie. So this round should work out fine. Surprisingly, there's not a lot for me to talk about on that front, lol

As far as my strategy goes I think my plan is to try and hide behind as many big targets as I possibly can while trying to gain the trust of them. I feel if I make good Clifford, Joe, Ben, Tasha, Mackie and I willing to even throw Nick in this group of people that I feel I can work with and potentially sneak by as they get targeted as the game develops. On the daily I'm making sure that I have a decent conversation with everybody in the game, without trying to be seen as someone who's overplaying which is a very dangerous line to juggle on. I honestly believe that if I stay the course that I am doing right now I think I will be able to make a run to the Jury and then whatever happens from there I'll figure it out then. This season Yes it will be about the physical, social and strategic game but the person who does the best is gonna be somebody who is selfish and puts self preservation above all else, I want to be that guy but still be people's friends without alienating anybody YIKEs thats a tall task but i'm sure gonna try my damn best!!

Anyway, pulling out my bag of tricks to make a game plan.
1. DON'T BE THE REPLACEMENT NOM. I had Tyler and Brandon both spread the false rumor that Trey was really nervous about this week. It keeps my name out of it, which is pretty fuckin ideal.
2. If I am a replacement nom, throw Brandon under the bus like no other. EVERYTHING IS BRANDON'S FAULT AND HE'S GOTTA GO. (Also false)
3. If all else fails, win the battle back comp?
4. If there's no battle back, then I'll just hang in the VL and watch the old school steamroll from my comfy couch.

After the challenge, Trey started pushing a little more to find out where my allegiances were, and I did the same in turn. We both really liked Cliff, so we got the idea to form an alliance with him. Immediately after taking the idea to Cliff though, he said he needed to talk to the two of us and used the new alliance chat to drop some BOMBS. So, Tyler has apparently been biz-zay. He's trying to pit people against Cliff and the Gaspards (Ben and Tasha). Now like, if Tyler had included me on what he was up to, I would actually be for this plan. But, he has not. Really, all he's given me is that we are totally best buds and has not talked much in the way of specifics at all. I knew he wanted Ben out, but Tyler himself never actually \*told\* me that, I only put together the clues with history in mind. So, it's very clear to me I'm not his #1, or close to it. Yet, apparently I'm being perceived as in Tyler's pocket? Honey, I'm in no one's pocket. Clifford has trusted me with far more information, so how can I not be won over? I'm still very wary of the Gaspards, but actions seem to tell that Ben has my back and I'm willing to trust that... For now. They still make me nervous, and I'm not convinced Cliff \*isn't\* working with them. But I've been activated and tho I feel for targeting a friend, this feels like the best course of action.
Of our new alliance (The Political Party? Tentative name.), I'm tasked with making the Tyler vote happen, being the only member on side A.Task one: See if I can get Slim on board with this plan. Task two: convince Nick to put Tyler on the block. Task one is on hold until Slim is awake, But I'm actually fairly confident of this. No one else seems to have a connection with Slim, but I do. And if necessary I can point to the fact that if Tyler doesn't go up, it's Slim who will be on the block. Task two is harder, but I've been working on it. I confronted Nick about keeping me in the dark but we seem to be in the open now. Cliff said Nick was good to go on this but after a talk with him it seems some details were missing. Nick is not fully comfortable with this and thinks Cliff might be putting it together in order to damage him. I mean, I don't really believe it but given Nick's past with these people (anyone remember Operation Quick Draw? No? Don't look it up. One of the many ugly events of BB6). I don't blame him for being wary. He thinks Tyler still might be a number for us, but ehhhhh, I don't feel comfy with Tyler anymore. So basically, the only way Tyler plan happens is if I can guarantee me, Ben and Slim's votes to make it a sure thing, and Nick feels good about it come decision time. If he decides no, Slim goes up, and Adam likely leaves. It's not ideal to me, but I can live with it.
I think that's it for the day. I should probably learn to be more concise, this took a long time to type. I hope y'all hosts are having a good day, and are entertained by the season! You rock!

I saw unfortunately because i feel like him and I could've really worked together, I really wish this twist wasn't around because Brandon wouldn't be in danger if the house hadn't been split the way it was... He's really trying, he was going to try tell Clifford that because he won't be the replacement nom, he won't come after him... which is a great argument if you were giving it to someone who didn't have as much control as Clifford, I think as transparent as Clifford's fake transparency is (trying to act like he has everyones best interest at heart... lol obviously not), he at least is giving me the spill and i'm more in the core than others are who i want to work with longterm. Mackie is about to flip his lid he is really not happy about how the season is going in terms of old school vs new school type of shit.
He and I had a call while he was high, and he was going on about Tasha, Clifford & Ben being untouchable, and he isn't fucking wrong, how do yo target a 3 headed fucking hound? Clifford is arguably in the best spot, because if someone were to take a shot at that trio, Clifford won't be the target because he is not a threesome, he is just a third wheel, I assume that everyone deep down wants Ben gone, I don't get any social vibes from him, he just comes off as very standoff-ish and only attempts social game with strategic undertones, at least with his wife she is approachable and can start a conversation about anything, I can mention the weather and where most people struggle she'll find a way to make the topic engaging.
At this point I feel good with a lot of people, but it makes it hard to gel an alliance together without the potential of a leak or it caving in, I was added to an alliance with Nicole, Clifford & Trey. I don't trust Trey \*at all\*, I told him to tell me something interesting about his state and he told me ""oh we have two racing tracks"" bitch you're Lightning McQueen? I don't care!
Nicole and Clifford however I do believe there is potential there, I think Nicole and I could almost sit pretty in the middle but obviously she's quite close with those 2 already, so that makes asserting a further alliance with Nicole harder.
I've kind of fallen off a bit with Joe, He didn't even tell me about his advantage .-. like bitch why bother having extensive convos if you're not even going to talk. if Brandon does leave however Joe might be a good replacement as a comp beast who isn't old-school (again, let's hope we're not talking in these childish divisions much longer). I also feel decent with Slim, I think he is going to slide really UTR and be used as a swing vote so i'd rather get close to him so I can start to hear about potential information from the 'higher ups' in this house.
At this point, Trey will be the replacement and I know Brandon is going to harass me to save him, which god i really wish I could have some sort of leverage to shift but Tasha & Felix won't budge, Joe will fold & Duncan will do what Tasha wants because they're quite close, though Duncan has said he feels really good with me... it sucks a lot of ass that all these people I like, are affiliated with those 3 power trio, and Clifford can swear up and down about how he isn't associated with Tasha and Ben. At least with Clifford i know that he knows he needs a number for down the line to protect him, I will probably use him for this early game, but then ditch him for someone who is stronger in comps. I don't plan on winning much shit intentionally, I was not planning on winning this veto but hey, i'll take safety over facing the first eviction.
I'm doing okay so far, I've not really had fun yet, I hope i can start to get close with some people and have some more downtime than having to tensely move about the game with caution.

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It’s fucking week one and people are already cracking. Nick went above and beyond to lie to Ben and ended up backdooring him this week. House 2 was completely left in the dark. Nicole and Mackie were apparently left in the dark? Brandon hasn’t messaged me all day about anything despite knowing Daniel won the veto. Ideally there’s a way to get Ben the votes to stay because that will be a meat shield for me moving forward in the game. Also I just don’t care for Adam much. He seems fine but I don’t see myself working with him in the game at the end of the day. I’m happy to see Brandon go solely for the fact that he took me out of the hoh comp. He didn’t trust me as hoh when there were other people he really needed to watch out for. Sorry Brandon!
Anyways this is kind of great for me despite things being tense and kind of awkward in the house. I'm going to do what i do best and try and be half of the house's best friend. I'm starting to feel better about my chances at making jury but we'll see.
I kind of hope to see two sides go at it. There are lots of people in this game who are considered ""big threats"" and it seems like if ben goes it'll be tyler, nick, adam, slim and tara as a group vs basically the rest of the house omitting mackie because he feels scorched about being left out too. You don't think im mad? i sure am! however all the people involved in this week 1 drama are going to be gone by the end so at the end of the day i'm not too upset. Also if cliff quits it'll suck but i care more about his mental health than a f\*cking game, so whether its short breaks or excusing himself and leaving the game i hope he does whats best for him. Other than that I got my positive vibes chat formed with Nicole (who was also blindsided by this ordeal) and Felix. I think we're a bunch of very different people and no one would see us coming if we can work together. Also i really like Daniel. I don't know how but I'm going to work with him. I don't know if I'll make another confessional before this eviction takes place. I am very very grateful to have made it through this first week and not end up as co-first boot. I think there's a long road ahead for all of us in this game and I may regret it but i can't wait to see how it all turns out.

Weak sauce Brandon? OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW. Clifford and his posse fucked with the wrong bitch, and are about ready to pay the fucking price. With Clifford out, and possibly Ben it obly makes sense to start picking off the rest of their group.
Part of the reason I'm here is because I played it as cool as a cucumber. What helped me stay so calm includes:
PENNY NICKEL DIME PENNY PENNY NICKEL DIME NICKEL PENNY NICKEL DIME PENNY PENNY NICKEL QUITTER! 🤫
https://youtu.be/XmxRgKogMJU
And next, I'd like to thank birthday party Elsa, for staying turnt and keeping me in a good mood while I suffered great pain on the block.
https://youtu.be/CDmY-c-lccY
I'm so ready to win HOH and keep this ball rolling in the right direction. 😁

GAHHHH I don’t even remember what I wrote last so I’m just gonna go with what I want to talk about and some of it might be repetitive so you will just all have to deal how’s that sound??? After nominations at first I was like LETSGO I am the pawn this week and things were looking fine but then reality set in.. why the hell would they target Tara over someone like me, Tara has been fairy inactive this season and she really offers nothing me on the other hand have been quite active and my winning game is seen as more savage then hers (hers was better imo). I wanted to win veto, I needed to win veto and I came so close but was so far far away. I felt at this point their is probably no chance that I’m going to survive, consider the remaining options if they wanted to make a waveless move putting up a pawn and taking me out was the simplistic thing to do. Here’s the thing I Love Ben and Clifford and Tasha and they are fantastic players but it had become obvious that they were not only controlling this game but they were playing me. I approached Nick with my idea of taking out Ben and explained my reasoning, for me it’s not just about his connections and it’s not just about him being a killer player, there has been two All Star season (not including FS) and he dominated both, I think it’s time that other players find that success In a caliber season like this. Bens time has come and he has proven to be a very dominate player and nobody and nothing will take that away from him, but getting him out now allows this game to be more open and I dig that.
I would write all about the story’s and the rumors that I have been hearing regarding the events that have transpired this week. I have heard multiple versions such as Clifford and Ben set up the draft to take me out, I’ve heard it was Nick and Mackie, I’ve also heard it was Nick and Clifford. Honestly regardless I don’t care, if I show that I care people will see me as trying to get revenge and let me be clear on something maybe part of me does believe Nick was involved but I can not and will not seek revenge any time soon, maybe one day but now. Things did get a little messy today, Trey is someone that I fee I could trust so I let him know what Nicks intentions were this week and with in minutes Clifford was in my DMs and he was kind of being a lunatic... I think he forgets that we are good players, he’s offering me advice and saying that I need his help to survive... like does he think I’m a moron? Like Cliff the plan is Ben you’re just gonna have to deal with it, I’m glad I didn’t bite this apple because I feel Clifford gets angry when he doesn’t get his way and I hate that shit (though I do too LMAO)
All in all in this vote requires me to put air of faith into people that may have had a hand in putting me up in the first place.!!

What's happened, is that Cliff organized for a Tyler backdoor this week because Tyler was apparently doing a lot of work to target him
If this was true, and Tyler wasn't telling me anything, then it seemed to me that he wasn't actually very close to me. So I was willing to go along with it since Cliff was so convincing
Nick ultimately decided to target Ben instead, and told Tyler everything about the the plan, including that I was part of it
Allegedly, Tyler then has been making things personal against Cliff, I don't know how but Cliff was going to quit the game over it so it seemed serious to me, on top of the rough time Cliff is going through right now
Tyler fully denies it, and also says Cliff himself told him all the details about the plan and exposed me, so I shouldn't trust him. Knowing that Nick told him, and not having any explanation for why Cliff would want to do that, makes me find this fishy
I don't want to believe Tyler would do anything like that
But... Something is affecting Cliff. If he were acting this I would have serious problems with him
So where I stand now is, I don't think Tyler crossed a line. I hope he didn't. I'm hoping all that happened is Cliff is not in a good headspace, and when the game got stressful he wasn't able to handle it. The way Ben phrased ""personal"" made it seem like it was just bringing up past games, which... is not exactly what I had in mind when I heard ""personal"".
Tyler and I are more chill,, but I believe trust has been lost. I really want to trust Nick but in only one round he managed to deceive me several times, so that's not happening in the near future. I still have Dan and Trey despite the loss of Cliff, and Duncan and Felix as well. I've actually just proposed combining both of these alliances, with Tasha as a cherry on top. That's still pending, but if would leave me feeling a lot safer. Unfortunately, I already have bridges burned and a few people so playing all sides is no longer an option for me
SHIT I THOUGHT I SENT THIS ALREADY HERE YOU GO HOSTS