Chapter 61: We're Searching For It

**We're Searching For It** is the sixty-first Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Ichikawa is walking to school in the cold, looking at Akita Kenjirou and thinking about the snow and Yamada, who he recognizes feels responsible for his injury. He makes it to the building and walks past her three friends, and Moe calls out to him. They bring up that Yamada hasn't been acting normally, with Chi bringing up how she only had one carton of fries at McDonalds, when she usually gets two. Moe and Serina stare him down, asking if he knows anything, but he plays dumb, and Chi asks why they're asking him, with Moe getting angry at her denseness. She walks past and greets them, and everyone goes to class.

Inside the classroom, Yamada is going through her bag, while Ichikawa considers how she didn't even contact him through LINE yesterday. She suddenly panics, still going through her bag, and declares that Akita Kentarou is missing. Chi and Serina, unaware of who/what that is, imagine a buff man with curly hair, asking who this person is. They ask for specifics, but she downplays it as not a big deal. As the girls leave, Ichikawa leans back and asks her if she had it when she left the house, and she considers that maybe she just left it at home, but she continues looking through her bag, distraught. Part-way through the lesson, Maeda tells the students that classes are ending early due to the snow, and Yamada heads out quickly. The girls confirm that she's acting strangely, and Ichikawa realizes that she's likely hunting for the charm so that the girls don't find it and it causes him problems. He wonders if she can find it, or if he needs to help her search. At the shoe lockers, he runs into Hara, who is looking underneath the boards in front of the shoe lockers that the students step on when switching shoes. Kanzaki comes in with his umbrella, saying that he can't find it either, then asking Ichikawa to help Hara find the dog charm she lost. Hara explains that she overheard them, and apologizes, but he resolves to find it himself, leaving Kanzaki jealous because of the misunderstanding. He calls his home and says that he doesn't need picking up, and walks through the snow-covered streets cursing himself. He continues, breaking up the small snow piles with his umbrella and searching, when Moe comes up behind him, shielding him with her umbrella. She asks if he's looking for something, and he denies it, so she asks if he's just standing around. She follows up by saying she's going to Yamada's place, and that he can follow if he wants. He follows behind her, still breaking snow clumps, thinking about how cold and miserable he is, and how his arm is hurting, and considering how pointless this whole excursion has been. He suddenly runs into Yamada while holding out his umbrella, and apologizes before realizing who she is. Moe, realizing the importance of this situation, makes a fake phone call, loudly talking about her brother and how he's in terminal condition at the hospital, and leaves.

Yamada addresses him, tearing up, and saying that Akita Kentarou wasn't at her house, and begins to say it isn't anywhere, but he stops her, saying that it is definitely out there, even if she can't find it. He says it won't disappear, and she shouldn't worry so much, but at that moment, he sees the charm dangling from a nearby tree, and points to it, yelling. He grabs it and says that someone must have found it and hung it there. She thanks him for finding it, but he says it's only because of her that he even looked up. She pulls him in for an embrace, but cuts it off, and he suddenly sneezes. She asks if he's okay, and he comments that he hasn't learned anything. She looks behind her towards her apartment, and offers to let him inside to warm up.