Chapter 105: I Don't Want To Lose

**I Don't Want To Lose** is the one-hundred-and-fifth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu.*

## Summary

The girls are drawing various hearts, stars, and kanji on each other for the festival. Moe declares that they can do this since they're third-years, and won't be judged by any senpai. Yamada shows off her forehead, which has been emblazoned with the kanji for "truth," with Andou asking if that's the name of her boyfriend. Yamada says she got it from the owner of the Moko Tanmen Nakamoto ramen restaurant chain, and Serina says that Andou will get used to Yamada's weirdness over time. Ichikawa, who has been listening, walks out of the room, considering how today is the day of the sports festival. At one point he runs into Yamada in the hallway, who runs up to him and suddenly writes on his forehead and wraps a bandanna around what she wrote. He asks if it's washable, but she ignores him and tells him not to take it off. He's more concerned about the potential for rain causing problems, though.

Later, the students have assembled outside, and Ichikawa is looking to the darkening skies, secretly hoping that the event gets rained out. Adachi takes the stage, with an official announcing his class and name, saying he will perform The Athlete's Oath. Kanzaki says from behind Ichikawa that he practiced the oath a ton yesterday. He then recites the oath, but adds various double-entendres to it, causing Kanzaki to lose a bet, and lighting a flame underneath Ichikawa to beat him. Hanzawa brings out various hand fans for cheering with, and the girls comment on them while Andou begins her event, the "borrowing" contest, where she has to grab a slip of paper and then find an example of the thing on the paper. On her paper is written "A couple (unspoken feelings are okay)," and rushes over to show them, looking around eagerly for some kind of confirmation, which Ichikawa considers like a witch. She singles out Yamada, who has a "look at me" fan in front of her face, and she asks if she knows one, but she and Ichikawa look at each other awkwardly. They get bailed out by Yamada's father dashing across the school grounds with her mother in his arms, who is covering her face to contain her blushing. Their contribution earns them first place in that category, while his wife begs him to put her down, but their celebration is cut short, because The Executive Committee overseeing the event accuse Andou of cheating the raffle and disqualifying Team Red (Class 1). Andou gets pulled to the side by Moriya, who lectures her about not listening when she said she wanted to win, and tells her not to screw around.

Yamada takes her place at the start of the obstacle race, trying to best position her body, and Moe calls out to Ichikawa to let him know. He grunts affirmation, which annoys Moe, who tells him to cheer for her. His attention turns to Adachi, who is running around the track to pump himself up for the upcoming cavalry battle, but Moe calls out to Yamada, and he turns back to find her wrapped helplessly in a net. Adachi has stopped in the crowd to stare lecherously at her, which angers Ichikawa, and he rushes over to protect her from his gaze, throwing a hand fan with her name on it to block his sight and also inadvertently cheer her on. Yamada makes it out of the net and finishes her race, though she makes last place. As she makes it back to Moe, she talks about how Ichikawa was cheering her on like crazy. Meanwhile, Ichikawa makes the excuse that this sign is something Hanzawa made, but Adachi ignores him, thinking back to all the times that Ichikawa has gotten in his way with Yamada before. He begins to address him, but Kugenuma appears, saying they're up. Adachi gets angry because he has such a big guy as their cavalry, but Ichikawa asks defiantly if he'll quit the contest.

As they walk over, it begins raining, with various characters commenting on it. Ichikawa considers how he should be glad for the rain, but he sees Adachi dash over to the teacher's tent, and he insists to Maeda that it won't be a problem since they're all boys. The teacher insists that that's not what the problem is, and when Ichikawa walks over, he insists that they won't stop, and Ichikawa agrees, saying he will finish it in no time at all, and getting smiles from Yamada and Adachi for different reasons. He concludes that he'll be the one to end this lame event. On top of Kugenuma's shoulders, he feels exposed at such a great height, and concludes that if he falls wrong, he could die.