Vegasin (OC)

Full birth name: Vegasin Tony Soyer Preferred name (if they have one): Vegasin, Vegas, Tony, Mr. Soyer Gender: cisgender male A/B/O: Omega Sexuality: omnisexual Race: mixed Species: Human / shapeshifter Pronouns: he/him they/them xe/xem Age: 27 Little age: believed to be "6-8" Height: 5'8 Weight: 208 Likes: Cats, his pets butterscotch, blimmy, and voldemort, spending time with his daughter, the beach, going for walks, stargazing, alone time (most of the time), seeing his 'customers' and making them lunch, cooking, doctor who

Dislikes: court meetings, his body, his self harm scars, eggs, being a little, lopsided paintings or photos, those who believe littles should be killed for existing, animal abusers, little/pet/slave abusers, extremely bitter things, deserts Fears/phobias: His role being found out, his daughter being taken away from him, his exwife having full custody, his daughter being put into foster care, his sexuality being outed, being arrested, living as a little, being put in a little orphanage, his exwife, necrophobia, new people, cats that aren't his own, overdosing, losing the things he likes Strengths: He's able to shapeshift and look like objects, animals, or people, he is bilingual Weaknesses: no matter what he shifts into he'll keep his voice, scent, and his breathing can be heard, he also will only have the physical capabilities of the thing he shifted into.

Comfort items(if any): A small beaded bracelet, he keeps it in his pants front pocket to fidget with if he gets anxious, the bracelet isn't really comforting but the way he can play with it calms him, his daughter made it for him when she was five. Disorders/disabilities(if any): GAD (diagnosed), PPD (undiagnosed), MDD (undiagnosed), PTSD (undiagnosed), insomnia, addiction to supressant L, meth, and weed, weakened immune system, self harm addict, due to the drugs once he begins going through his little changes he might seem bigger then his little age actually is and his changes might be even more painful then they originally were. Hobbies: he works multiple jobs consisting of being a librarian, bartender, and bar singer, however he also has a bad habit of experimenting with different drugs, he is always trying to find new ways to spoil his daughter even if he's struggling, he has likes to sometimes have lunch with his customers Personality: He appears to be like the near perfect caregiver, he's soft and caring and speaks in a very soothing tone. He's very very empathetic and always trying to help people even if he's uncomfortable or struggling to do it he'll push himself to be able to. Its hard to catch on he's not actually a cg, but he definitely rubs off as a very soft one. He does occasionally take care of littles mainly at the library, he does story time to littles every friday and monday, and he often gets stuck helping the littles in the kids section of the library; on days like that he often ups the dossage he takes of L since his body will begin craving to be small even more seeing littles having fun, and upping the dose helps get rid of that sensation.

1. The littles that visit the library regularly often stick to him like glue and rely him to help with opening things, reading to them, helping them clean up, and at times even changing them. In order to keep his caregiver appeal he'll do these things, often having to pretend its his daughter to ease the discomfort of caring for others. His daughter triggers the smidge of daddy instinct he has. Luckily with suppressant L it allows him to do said things easier but not without a price. Through the use of the drug and him forcing himself to act big he has began to suffer from PPD (Paranoid personality disorder), depression, and insomnia, his anxiety attacks due to that have worsened in intensity and he even has panic attacks at night. However he managed to mask all of those aspects beyond well, but to those who work with him he can be described as very jumpy and jittery. Often to ease his anxiety before shows in the bar he'll get relatively high but he doesn't do this every single time, just on days his anxiety is bad. To the little's who buy his drugs though he always loves to pamper them as he knows they must be having a tough time if they are resorting to suppressant L, he'll cook or order a nice lunch for them, so when they come to pick up their drugs they can at least have something warm to eat. He'll often allow himself to be a place to vent to for his customers, always giving them a sort of sympathy he refuses to ever give himself believing using the drugs is the best thing he can do for himself and the people in his life. He won't ever deny selling suppressant L to anyone and will always sell it for cheap so its affordable for people but he will always advise against it if he knows the little coming to him has a chance of living a good life as a little. He has some insecurity about his body and he has tried to lose weight but always managed to gain it back fast so he has given up for the most part and tries to ignore it.
2. [1:23 PM] He's rather naive when it comes to love he can fall head over heals rather easily even if the person isn't his soulmate. He'll drop anything and everything to help his daughter if she needs him as she means the world to him, he tries to spoil and give her everything she wants since he rarely is aloud to see her due to court giving most of the custody to his exwife. Backstory: TW - toxic relationship, domestic violence His life from the very beginning was messed up, he had been born in a car in the ongoing traffic of Las Vegas nevada! It was a surprise as well, since he wasn't meant to be born for another two months and on top of that he had been a breech birth baby so the process was beyond messy and stressful for his parents. Eventually after his birth he had made it to the hospital where he had to stay for a good while before him and his mother could go home. Due to the unexpected birth of the boy they hadn't really prepared a name so in order to avoid him being just 'baby boy' his whole life they just named him Vegasin since he was born in Vegas, and Tony being the fathers name. His family wasn't the worst, they loved him beyond belief and they always elaborated how much they loved him, they were even extremely protective. They were especially caring because of his medical issues he had to grow up with, including the fact he was diagnosed relatively early with GAD. His mother was especially caring towards him, his father however had a bit of a tough love attitude. His parents tried to pay for all the medications he had to take to help his health and most of the time they acted like it didn't matter but when his parents were drinking or fighting Vegasin was constantly mentioned and not in a positive way, always mentioning how far in debt they were because of him and how much trouble he caused for the family at times he'd wake up to the noise of them fighting and he's even heard his father consider giving him up for adoption and that hurt him greatly but he never mentioned it because he didn't want his parents to have even more stress on them.
	1. It worked as simple as they wouldnt talk about it, and he wouldn't have to talk about it. Besides those things his life was near perfect even if he had problems after all who doesn't? However his parents were very anti-little, they thought littles were useless to the economy and were just adults and teens who should be 'put down' since a lot of them couldn't even work the simplest of jobs. While he was a kid he fully believed them but as he grew up and actually knew people he began to disagree with them but never informed them about his beliefs just went along with their beliefs.
	2. [1:25 PM] After all, he didn't wanna Qruin his good relationship with his parents. Throughout his school years he was bullied since he was always a bit slow and smaller then the rest of the kids, however in middle school he managed to make a small friend group and although his friends weren't the best people he was lucky to have them they always stook up for him when he needed them to. However there was some things he just wouldn't do like skipping classes since he was a good kid, and whenever he got good grades on his report card his parents would take him out to eat and see a movie at the drive-ins, they always loved the drive-ins since they could bring all the snacks and food they wanted to the movie. He was a near perfect prodigy kid almost always scoring all A's however on occasion he'd get a B, and despite his parents and friends praising him for those grades he would constantly beat himself up about it if it was lower then they previous report card even if it was by a percent. He wanted his parents to have reason to be proud of him and wanted to show them the work they put into him was worth it. His parents never understood why Vegasin always beat himself up over it, they had always been proud of their son even when they felt he was doing poorly, they only wanted the best for him and tried to stay proper and motivational to him, they had believed his childhood was rough because of his medical issues so they tried to take it easy on him. However sometimes when tensions and emotions were high, harsh things they thought could be leaked to him. By the time he moved up into high school his parents had begun talking about what they thought he might be as his role both of them assumed he'd be some sort of dom but since he was always a bit softer they guessed he might be a pet owner or dare they say it a caregiver.
		1. They felt pity for him if he ended up being a caregiver since he'd be mentally needing to deal with a little. When he got into freshmen year one of his sophomore friends had begun flirting with him and getting close to him and he honestly enjoyed the attention he had been getting from her. He had saw everything in her to be good even though she had similar political views as his parents, he couldn't see any bad in her and they fell deep in love. They began to constantly hang out and over summer he was spending almost every other day with her at her house and his parents adored her. By the time vegasin became a sophomore they began dating which his parents found out about real soon but not from him, from his now girlfriend which made him uncomfortable she did that but he let it slide because of his love for her. But as time passed she began to switch up in personality which he didn't understand, she began to become more demanding towards him. It started off with small things and then it got worse when she found out she was a pet, she was a lioness pet but she liked to claim she was a kitten due to the fact she wanted to sound cute. He was still always trying to find the best in her after all going through sub changes was proven to be more complicated then a doms changes especially for pets and littles! He tried to spoil her to make her happier and his parents supported it, believing he had to do more for his submissive. However as time went and she kept going through her sub changes she was beginning to stop doing those little things he loved getting from her. Rather he felt like he was missing something but he didn't understand want and it caused increased anxiety because he didn't understand why he wasn't happy.
			1. And the feeling of missing something built and built over months, eventually his mark appeared but he wasn't aware he was just aware of the sensitivity on his tushy. He managed to go over two weeks without noticing the mark, he was rarely showering since it he had finals coming up and he felt he needed to be amazing with them since he had been having extreme issues with his parents over his grades. But his grades had kept dropping due to all the time and care he had to give his lioness. However his father believed he shouldn't have so much trouble dividing time between his pet and school, after all a proper dom would be able to balance them. After finals he decided to take a bath and that's when he saw the mark.. A large LITTLE mark on his behind he was in major alarm. He didn't even bother bathing; he left the water in the tub to get cold, he simply got dressed, and rushed to his girlfriends house in hope to get help from her. She acted calm and comforting that night and she let him stay with her even cooking him dinner that night and letting him bathe and clean up while there, and snuggled up to him throughout the night. However by the time he woke up it was only him in the bed and he could hear talking from another room, so he creeped up out of bed to see what all the noise was about and who that new strange voice was coming from. When he managed to wobble into the living room he half recognized the girl his girlfriend was talking to, she had been one of his girlfriends friends who was a tattoo artist.
				1. The two girls sat Vegasin down and showed him strange large looking pills, and his girlfriend began elaborating how hard him being a little would be for her since she was in love with him and needed to be cared for because of her role, and she even went as far as elaborating how useless he'd be for his family and society if he accepted his place. He was hurt by her but due to the changes he had already been experiencing unawarely it was easier than normal to manipulate him into doing the drugs. They managed to even get him to agree to a tattoo to show what they said should be his proper make, a caregivers mark, however his pain tolerance was lower because of some of the hormone changes so he practically had to be held down by his girlfriend while getting it. Soon after things were going back to normal well, as normal as things could be, due to his slight changes taking form before his medication he's had a slightly loose tooth he's had to weary of when eating. Along with the fact his girlfriend had begun making him pay her for the pills she was practically becoming his dealer, but after months of the same cycle she released some information to him and proclaimed to him that money wasn't gonna do it anymore and that she wanted something more intimate with him since she's given him so much yet he still wouldn't touch her. He was uncomfortable with this and said he couldn't do it and he didn't want to but she was persistent and they got into a fight about it where she broke down sobbing and talking about how he didn't really love her which left him hurt he didn't want the girl to think he didn't love her so in the end he felt required to participate and regrettably, he did.
					1. A few weeks later, on the day he went to go break up with his girlfriend she revealed to him she was pregnant and he acted happy but part of him felt small afraid and confused, but another part of him had a parental instinct kick in and he felt like he couldn't leave him he didn't wanna force her to abort the child and he didn't wanna be a deadbeat dad but at the same time he was barely 17 and he was a dad. As soon as he got home his parents had already known his girlfriend once again already told his parents, his parents ended up pushing and pushing him to marry her. Then soon low and behold he broke underneath the pressure and he did. Before his daughter was born he decided to drop out of school he couldn't handle the pressure of trying to care for his pregnant wife and graduate which left his parents infuriated and claimed he was a deadbeat for not graduating and how he was the perfect student. That night he packed his bags, climbed into his van and drove off planning to never look back again. He just couldn't handle all this pressure and stress anymore. He spent the months jumping state to state, jobs, motels, and sadly different dealers as his wife's words stuck to him like a glove, although along the way he clinged onto new substances to cope.
					2. [1:28 PM] Eventually his wife had found and caught up to him she guilted him and fought with him over the fact he left her to go through pregnancy, birth, and raise a newborn by herself and how he needed to stay with her. He of course felt bad especially when he saw his little girl. He poured all his savings into a house he ended up in debt from in order to help his wife and kid. He stayed with her for three years at max and he learned rather quickly that she was a horrible wife and mother, it wasn't about his wife anymore it was about his DAUGHTER his legacy and his little girl. He filed for divorce and went through a long lasting custody battle that eventually collapsed and due to the judge being sexist and the lawyer his wife had being a liar, he ended up losing the custody battle completely, part of the reason being his lack of income and he was heartbroken. He even lost his house and he ended up buying a small little trailer to live in instead, he was working multiple jobs and even began to sell drugs and making them, he mainly specialized in supresent L. When his daughter turned eight his wife came up with a deal and contacted him in secret though it was extremely uncomfortable with him he agreed to it reluctantly. If he'd grant her special favors she requested he'd be aloud to see his daughter again, which he of course agreed to quickly.