Dialogue: Cerise

Arc 3.5

***> Chapter 51:***

A long time ago, when I was just a kid, there was a term I didn't quite understand. I think we are all more or less the same when we are children. ya can't tell yarself that the world is so cruel and unfair, so ya're naive. Or rather, we are not taught.

The word I'm talking about is "TRUST".

Yeah. My parents used to hide from me how unfair this world was, but Lost Hell is even worse than we think. Living there is an ordeal, surviving it takes strength and courage. Maybe there are people in this world who live even worse than we do, but we've been living in a real hell since we were born. The green and beautiful landscapes of the plains, the forests and the white snow? We don't know all that. Well, we know what it is, but it's thanks to books and tourists who think our country is worth visiting. Bunch of idiots.

I understood who deserved my trust and who didn't when I grew up. When my best friend named "Kari" betrayed me, but also betrayed everyone around her, I understood at that moment why adults make fake smiles. Why they avoid trusting everyone and keep secrets and distance. Eh. It took me a while to understand, but Kari opened my eyes. I'll have to thank her, that bitch. Anyway.

As I grew up, I realized that it was best to doubt everyone. To tell yarself that at any moment, in yar sleep, the person will betray ya. Maybe not by killing ya, but maybe they'll just walk out of yar life without explanation, without any reason. She will decide to stick the knife in yar back, maybe even in the heart directly! ya will have to accept yar fate and what can ya do? Nothing. If ya want to get angry, the person will tell ya that ya don't have to get angry. If ya want an explanation, ya will be given predictable excuses with no life behind them. Do ya think the person doesn't deserve to be punished for their betrayal? Killing someone is illegal, so this is too much. Torturing her is also illegal, unfortunately.

But take revenge.

Even if it leads to that person's depression, even if ya have to come to manipulate them, don't get stepped on. Let yar selfishness speak for itself, understand that ya are better than these little shits. Walk on it, walk on it, ahah! ya are worth gold, they are not even worth a single coin. Don't trust anyone, even yar own family. They'll kill ya without ya even realizing what's going on. So protect yarself at all times. Even if ya are best friends with one another, even if ya are in a relationship with yar partner, even if ya are married, beware.

Because I promise ya that being betrayed is a pain that never leaves yar body.

Ya will never get over it, even years and years later. Even when ya die, this pain will be visible on yar poor little heart. ya can be madly in love with someone, it doesn't matter. Life is a fucking war, man. War. Submit first and ya'll lose it. Don't think ya can take several bullets in the body: after one, ya'll be on yar knees. So fight and NEVER trust anyone. Finally, always keep that... hesitation. Doubt! Doubt!!! Stop being so weak, stop!!! That's not how ya win, that's not how ya get ahead in life. To trust blindly is to throw yarself into the lion's den! To hope to be able to survive thanks to luck and only luck ! ya think nice people are really nice, don't ya?! Yes, kindness exists. But no human, no Kemono, no Kizon, no living being doesn't have a part of selfishness in him ! Everyone has a darker side and everyone will hurt ya one day! ya will cry like a baby and wait for comfort, but ya will be used! Do not.

Ever.

Trust.

Blindly.

- Oooh, Cerise!

- Ah? Oh, hey, Porencha.

- Do ya want to come see Syrianna with me?

- Hey, why would I go see that shithead?!

- I have to pick up an order from there.

- ... Aaah, if ya wanna...

I'm rectifying.

NEVER trust blindly unless ya meet a Porencha in yar life.

But this is the only exception. The only one.

**>>>CHAPTER 52<<<**