8/10 On The Zoinks-O-Meter/Confessionals

## Day 6

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I've essentially been telling everyone I'm super happy that Rein is gone because he was ""controlling"" and such. The truth is, yes I'm happy he is gone because I felt it difficult to socialize with him. But, he was the only person on this tribe that would talk game with me. Nadine, Kerem, and Maria all won't speak game with me. Fun fact, I made up a little lie where I said that Rein came up to me and said we had to work together cause north america on day 1. This is a truth, but when only two people know a story - and 1 is voted off, it's my decision to make.
Moving forward, it's probably a fair assumption that I'm on the bottom of this tribe. I need a way to make these people think I am valuable to the tribe. In ORGs the only way to do that is to do well in challenges. I am fortunately a good competitor in challenges. But I don't want to reveal my challenge prowess this early on. So, my strategy is to not be the best in challenges, but be the second best. I need to show how strong I am. As for this reward challenge, I need me an idol so I want that clue. Right now I don't feel safe on this tribe.
I'm not ruling out my game just yet, I have tricks up my sleeve, and even if I can sway just one person for the next vote - it would go to a tie-breaker. So hopefully I can get it together.

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I’ve been thinking that Maria could be my closest ally, only found out recently that she’s been from Brazil so not only we’re the only women on the tribe we’re women of color!!

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Zach Mac is starting to annoy me a bit, he barely messages me anymore and he usually uses the tribe chat to ask questions that have already been answered. Also, Angel is speaking with me a lot more. If we lose I'll try to get Zach Mac out.

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In the reward challenge, I had the third highest score which I was super pleased with. Obviously I didn't have one of the highest scores, but my score was close enough to other peoples that it wasn't terrible. I'm hoping that someone on my tribe sees that if I wasn't there, the tribe would be in danger more then we already are.
The trend of people not speaking to me has continued. Kerem leaves me on read all the time, Maria hasn't been around in a while, and Nadine will only talk to me when something is happening. I hope my tribe wins immunity for the next little while and we can stay safe until a swap occurs. I'm not feeling the safest.

## Day 7

And after thinking about this challenge, i came to realize that the best thing for me might be to lose this immunity and go to Tribal Council.. for various reasons.
Obviously main reason for me is to keep Maya and Nadine safe on other tribes. But i also kinda find really beneficial for my own game if we have to attempt voting. This will give me a chance to my current alliance to show that i can be *easly influenced* and go along with whatever they want. Infact i donut really care if Zach or Angel leaves and i donut care which one of them would be the one to go. Zach is boring and so stiff that i find it impossible to connect to, and Angel is really shady sometimes and i don't trust him at all. And by going along with whatever my alliance wants and agreeing on whatever i want to have this opportunity so they will feel comfortable with me sharing their own plans moving forward.
So i want to throw this challenge by submitting a bad/average score without making it too obvious. Furthermore, i donut want anyone to see me as a challenge threat ASKDJGHASDJKGH. OHHHH and other than that Karthik and Felipe are still legends and im not gonna vote them out.
Ty for hearing me out

More than the benefit of having the idol, the knowledge that the others do not have it, is vital for me. I wouldn't mind using it on others but I am not gonna tell anyone about this at least for now.

## Day 8

So, I would say I am at about a 6/10 on the Zoinks-o-Meter right now. This is not the worst tribal I have ever been to, but definitely one of the most stressful starting tribals.
(Yes, the Zoinks-o-Meter will most likely be used throughout the season as a sort of stress level. I gotta do it somehow).
Anyways, I really like everyone on this tribe, and no one is truly inactive. That is what makes a vote like this incredibly difficult. I have made some bonds as of recent that I think are gonna help me now and down the line.
First one is Hesh, who told me that he refuses to write my name down at this stage in the game, so I tossed him the same promise. That is one person who I believe strongly has my back, and I his. The other is Sharky, who thinks he and I are the best in the challenges, and when he asked me who should I go, I kinda just tossed up either James or Maya.
James and Maya seem cool too, but have both done the least in every challenge, so I think it would make sense for one of them to be the person to go. That seems to be what is happening, but if anything changes, expect an update.

Kaz and Maria were hopelessly useless in challenges, so without a care for my threat level, I pushed myself further and submitted a score that I felt wasn't too high and was enough to score us a win. I'm just hoping I won't be a target in the future, but I'm willing to fight for whatever it takes!

I did contemplate on whether submitting a comparatively high score in the challenge would put a target on my back down the line. However, I wanted our tribe to win so as to have more numbers on our side heading in to a swap or merge, especially given that I have an idol and also since its too early in the game, I am hoping that it wouldn't have much of an impact.

suspect list: EVERYONE!!! any of those men could be hiding it in their buldges ugh

No tribal for us - which is nice!!
I talked to Nadine a bit and I get the vibe she feels that we are the two strongest in the tribe which I agree with. Other then that, I’ve had like no social interaction with the tribe because Maria dissapeared And Kerem is Kerem.
That’s all for now :)

i heard james name going around but i feel a very genuine feeling towards him?? like right of the bat i want to play with him.. on the other hand me and alex are suggesting to vote natalie out cus she kind of ignoring my messages till the last tribal and i feel very keen to write her name down. but she also helps a lot on the challenges but if its either on of those two its Natalie.
but at this point of the game its wiser to just go with what the majority wants.

i hope my guts is telling me the truth and zack is telling me the truth or else i would get blindsided and might jump off a cliff :x i hope this plan will work through and the person whom i want to get out the most will go.

On the bright side, it seems most everyone is on board with a James vote, but it obviously sucks to have my name being tossed around this early on in the game. Heck.
Hopefully I survive this unanimously.