Song

> *all my life i've watched you dance along*
>
> *to music that i can't hear*
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***song*** is the mixtape created for the polyamorous relationship between Mia Lazzari-Qian, Blair Moore, and Sasha Rodriguez. It was released on September 28, 2017 on 8tracks.

## Development

A prototypical cover of this mixtape featured a butterfly being held and protected by a pair of hands. "butterflies have a lot of symbolism in general. the particular symbolism i wanted, with the hands, was the protection of something seemingly fragile but enduring: Sasha, Blair, and Mia's love for each other. it *feels* fragile, that doesn't mean it is."

because of "their individual insecurities - their worries about not being enough, being too much, being unlovable,,"

"butterflies also symbolize change, which i wanted to refer to how the three girls find that they change for the better - in that it becomes easier to express their hopes and dreams, vulnerabilities and scars - by virtue of experiencing that love.
"also, more shallowly, i just love butterflies"

## Track listing

1. "Room" - Jillian Edwards - *Daydream* (2014) - 3:19
2. "Fire Escape" - Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness - *Zombies on Broadway* (2017) - 3:24
3. "Song beneath the Song" - Maria Taylor - *11:11* (2005) - 3:59
4. "The Moon Is Down" - Radical Face - *The Family Tree: The Roots* (2011) - 3:18
5. "Oxygen Mask" - Eisley - *The Valley (Deluxe Version)* (2011) - 3:22
6. "Seasons" - Great Northern - *Tremors* (2015) - 3:50
7. "Make a Noise" - Katie Herzig - *The Waking Sleep* (2011) - 4:43
8. "Young Blood" - The Naked and Famous - *Passive Me, Aggressive You* (2010) - 4:06

## Lyrics & Meta

```
With all of my heart
I'm racing
Watch the page as it turns out
You would read all of me
Had you the chance
You'd never put me down
Please don't put me down

Cover to cover
I won't ever love another
Oh, let me be the one that you would rediscover
Over and over again
'Cause I don't see no end
To this stream of consciousness you're flowin' down in
But I must reassure you
I must testify
I get a little bit restless, you just gotta give me time
I get a little bit insecure
A little bit bent
I get a little bit everything, every now and then

But there's room
For you here
Oh, if you take it all
Got so much room
For you here
Yes I pray you lay your head down here

So take it all, take it like you would your childhood
The street you lived
You ride your bike
The whole world there inside your eyes
I'll find the water's deep
The river's wide
I've got nothin' but time

And room
For you here
Oh if you take it all
Got so much room
For you here
Yes I pray you lay your head down here

So I swear by my heart
Make a promise that
I've never been more sure of anything in my life
As inconsistent as I have been
This is steady and sure and clear as the wind
That I see the other side of me in you
That I've got nothing but room

For you here
Oh if you take it, take it all
Got so much room
For you here
Yes I pray you lay your head down here

```
 "Fire Escape" - Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness

```
[Verse 1]
I met up with an acrobat
In Brooklyn or some place like that
With life and taxis flying past
We tore that dance hall down

[Verse 2]
Pocket change and subway cars
Our big ideas filled empty bars
You might be from the moon or Mars
Either way, I'm never going home

[Pre-Chorus]
So, let's hang an anchor from the sun
There’s a million city lights but

[Chorus]
You're number one
You're the reason I’m still
Up at dawn
Just to see your face
We'll be going strong
With the vampires, baby
We belong, we belong awake

[Post-Chorus]
Swinging from the fire escape

[Verse 3]
I was drinking from the wishing well
Some junkie metal-head hotel
When we boarded the carousel
The roof was caving in

[Verse 4]
On the stage, my Oxblood frien
Was singing songs about the end
The bankers in the lion's den
Were dropping lines like beggars in the snow

[Pre-Chorus]
So, let's hang an anchor from the sun
There’s a million city lights but

[Chorus]
You're number one
You're the reason I’m still
Up at dawn
Just to see your face
We'll be going strong
With the vampires, baby
We belong, we belong awake

[Post-Chorus]
Swinging from the fire escape
Swinging from the fire escape
Swinging from the fire escape

[Verse 5]
Walking home, your hand in mine
Tattoos on the river line
The morning birds are taking flight
Either way, I thought that you should know

[Chorus]
You're my number one
You're the reason I’m still
Up at dawn
Just to see your face
We'll be going strong
With the vampires, baby
We belong, we belong awake
You're my number one
You're the reason I’m still
Up at dawn
Just to see your face
We'll be going strong
With the vampires, baby
We belong, we belong awake

[Post-Chorus]
Swinging from the fire escape
Swinging from the fire escape
Swinging from the fire escape
Swinging from the fire escape

```
 "Song beneath the Song" - Maria Taylor

```
Cryptic words meander
Now there is a song beneath the song
One day you'll learn
You'll soon discern its true meaning
An interesting detachment
A listless poem of love sincere
Desire, despair
Overlapping melodies

And it's not a love, it's not a love
It's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song

Oh now the roots are reminiscing
Recurring dreams of minor chords
Metred time
Muted chimes find the beat

And in the pulse there lies conviction
A steady push and pull routine
The cymbals swell
High notes flail into reach

And it's not a love, it's not a love
It's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song

It's not a love, it's not a love
It's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song
It's not a love, it's not a love, it's not a love song...

```
 "The Moon Is Down" - Radical Face

```
There ain't no moon tonight
It's hard for me to see
But if I can catch a glimpse of you
It helps me feel at ease
It helps me sleep

All my life I've watched you dance along
To music that I can't hear
I ain't equipped to hear those songs

I like the way you talk about all the things you've seen
You make the world seem small for a time
Though it's still too big for me

All my life I've watched you dance along
To music that I can't hear
I ain't equipped to hear those songs

You were never at rest
You were always somewhere-bound
But as for me, I'm the simple kind
I'll live and die in this town
And I know my home ain't big enough
That it would only keep you down
And I'd hate to see you caged
So all that I ask
Is you come say hi when you're around
It ain't much
But it's good enough for me

```
 "Oxygen Mask" - Eisley

```
You’re a ray, ray, ray
You’re a sunbeam ray
But now you’re turning grey
Don’t tell me what you think I’m meaning to say
Okay

Rainbows and setting suns they all
Come into the darkness when we were one
Oh I can’t believe it’s happening to me
Oh I can’t believe it’s happening to you

You’re a vision of truth
And that’s what I love
Give me one more chance
Got me breathing through an oxygen mask
Give me one more chance

Oh you remember me
Doubled over on the floor we start to read
And all the poetry convinces me
You were stolen from the waves at sea

But now we are crumbling
And I’ll never get the chance to say what it means
To have you my love, depend on me
To live all those days so joyfully

Why do you run?
Oh I need you greatly, love you keep me alive
Oooo you keep me breathing on

```
 "Seasons" - Great Northern

```
[Verse 1]
You were born
Faster than a rail train
And all the voice around you
Couldn't say your name
It looks like you got lost somehow
It looks like you got lost
If I found you
(carry it)
We could leave
Get out of here
Or just fall away
Just disappear
It looks like we got lost somehow
It looks like we got lost
If I found you

[Chorus]
You were forced into a battle that you couldn't take
All the eyes were on you looking for mistakes
Falling all around you
You were lost in a maze this time again
You wasted days just listening
Oh wait it's all in your head
Everything could change
If I found you

[Verse 2]
We must have left
We must have left them there
We were falling
Somebody else could win
It looks like we got lost somehow
It looks like we got lost
If I found you

[Chorus]
You were forced into a battle that you couldn't take
All the eyes were on you looking for mistakes
Falling all around you
You were lost in a maze this time again
You wasted days just listening
Oh wait it's all in your head
Everything could change
If I found you

```

```
Look up
You see the sky on fire
Look out
The world is getting higher, now

Believe, that you can change the world
Your dreams, have been living in a code of silence
So let them out

Find your voice, find your voice
Make a noise

You try, to find the words you want to say
You might, be looking much too far away
To recognize, we’re all disguised

Find your voice, find your voice
Make a noise

Oh, we’re all aboard before the war, worlds collide
Look at all the people fighting for the same side
We’re all aboard before the war, worlds collide
You can’t have the peace you’re looking for without a fight

Oh, we’re all aboard before the war, worlds collide
(you see the sky on fire)
Look at all the people fighting for the same side
(the world is getting higher)

Oh, we’re all aboard before the war, worlds collide
(you see the sky on fire)
If you see the world you want make it right
(the world is getting higher)

You see the sky on fire
The world's getting higher

```

```
[Verse 1]
We're only young and naive still
We require certain skills
The mood it changes like the wind
Hard to control when it begins

[Chorus]
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Verse 2]
Can't help myself but count the flaws
Claw my way out through these walls
One temporary escape
Feel it start to permeate

We lie beneath the stars at night
Our hands gripping each other tight
You keep my secrets hope to die
Promises, swear them to the sky

[Chorus]
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Bridge: Thom Powers]
As it withers, brittle it shakes
Can you whisper, as it crumbles and breaks?
As you shiver, count up all your mistakes
Pair of forgivers, let go before it's too late
Can you whisper? Can you whisper?
Can you whisper? Can you whisper?

[Chorus]
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

```