Impossible- Songfic by Yellow

Hey! This is my first songfic, and it's for the Gift Exchange. So, for DramaDot!

Hope you like it.

Song: Impossible by Shontelle/ James Arthur

(Note- I'm mixing the two songs by different artists)

***I remember years ago***

I kneeled down, digging my hands into the black dirt. It covered my fingers and got under my nails. I bent forward, letting my tears fall.

***Someone told me I should take***

I pulled the handful of dirt out, laying it beside me. I dug down again. Again and again. I could barely feel the pounding in my head, no, the pain was all inside me. It was a deep hurt. More than a single person could inflict.

***Caution when it comes to love, I did***

Kaea. Betrayed.

***And you were strong and I was not***

Jax. Left.

***My illusion, my mistake***

Terra... Gone.

***I was careless, I forgot, I did***

When would the pain leave?

***And now***

I had forgotten how much it hurt...

To lose someone.

And never see them again.

***When all is done, there's nothing to say***

All I wanted was for it to be over.

But who would love me then?

***You have gone and so effortlessly***

Maybe it was better to stay in this world. A world of lies and hurt, but my home. I owe it to Terra.

Swallowed by the earth.

I laugh bitterly, and it comes out as a croak.

So ironic.

***You have won, you can go ahead, tell them.***

I shoved my hands into the dirt, burying my pain. Drowning it out.

***Tell them all I know now***

How could they leave me?

***Shout it from the rooftops***

It's probably a punishment.

***Write it on the skyline***

For all the things I did and will do.

***All we had is gone now***

Once I was gone there was no coming back.

***Tell them I was happy***

Could I really be punished for that?

Was it fair?

***And my heart is broken***

No. The world isn't fair.

***All my scars are open***

It never was.

***Tell them all I hoped would be impossible***

I'm done.

***Impossible***

With all this.

***Impossible***

The unfairness. The ruins. The betrayal.

***Impossible***

To think my heart used to sing a song when Kaea was near.

***Hey***

To think I looked up to Jax

***Falling out of love is hard***

To think Terra was *gone.*

***Falling for betrayal is worse***

To think

***Broken trust and broken hearts***

That I used to believe

***I know, I know***

We would be okay.

***And thinking all you need is there***

We never were.

***Building faith on love and words***

My hands are sunk in the dirt, and I yank them out and walk away. I look up at my house, dark and foreboding in the dim light of dusk.

***Empty promises will wear***

I don't want to go back. My father would be waiting.

***I know***

Cane in hand.

***I know and now***

Rage in heart.

***When all is done, there is nothing to say***

I keep walking. Out the gate.

***And if your done with embarrassing me***

I look up, casting a glance at my bedroom window.

***On your own, you can go ahead, tell them***

It's him. My father. In my window, face unnaturally calm and serene.

***Tell them all I know now***

***Shout it from the rooftop***

***Write it on the skyline***

***All I had is gone now***

He looks...

***Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible***

Happy to be rid of me.

Just like I'm happy to be rid of *him.*

***I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did***