Chapter 78: I Want To Know

**I Want To Know** is the seventy-eighth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

At the theater, Yamada is holding a tub of popcorn in front of her face, introducing herself as the "popcorn man." Ichikawa plays along, replying "well met." When they get to their seats, he focuses on the size of the tub, thinking in terms of sizes going from small to Yamada size, but blurts out his thoughts that the "Yamada size is huge." Yamada says that it is for sharing, while he contemplates how blessed he is to get to watch a movie with her. He thinks on his sister's claim that they're on a date, and wonders if he's getting too ahead of himself to think of it as one himself. She then asks to switch positions with him, and when he asks why, she claims there is no reason as they trade. She asks if he watches movies often, and he says he doesn't, at least not in theaters, and that he sometimes falls asleep. She says if he does, she'll wake him up, and he asks her to not. He brings up that movie that she's going to be in, and says that he has read the novel that it was based on. She reacts with excitement that he remembered, and he asks himself if he's being creepy, and brings up that her character isn't in the original version. She isn't aware, and he tells her she should read it. She adds that she is going to Hiroshima during Spring Break to film for the movie, for about a week, and that she wants to study this movie to help her acting. She then starts gushing about Kitamura Yuko, saying she is her favorite actress, how she watched all of *The Queen's Scales,* a drama she starred in, and how she smelled so good when she passed her in the office. She realizes she is rambling and apologizes, but Ichikawa is impressed with how carried away she gets talking about things she enjoys. The lights dim and the movie starts.

As Ichikawa considers Yamada's job, he thinks to turn off his phone, and sees that he got a message from his sister asking if she should tell their mother that he'll be late, and he mentally demands that she shut up. He recalls another movie called *New Werewolf Jinro Last Final II* that he checked out six months ago because Anna Akino was in the credits. Comparing, he thinks how she did such a better job when compared to the mostly-idol cast in the movie, and how legitimate she seemed. Lost in his own world, he has closed his eyes, and Yamada leans over to whisper in his ear to wake up, he jumps but says he wasn't sleeping. When his eyes turn back to the movie, he sees that the film's main couple are having an overlong, intense kissing scene. He glances up to Yamada, considering this awkward, but her eyes are glued to the screen, and he considers how different the world must be through her eyes, and how that makes him afraid. The movie ends with Yamada tearing up at the apparent doomed love the couple go through. As they head for the exit, she comments how even though it ended on separation, that doesn't automatically mean it was unhappy, and that she enjoyed Kitamura's performance. She apologizes, wondering if he was even interested, and saying that she just talked about things she liked all day. He thinks on how beautiful she looks talking about a world he doesn't understand, and ultimately says that he wants to know more about her. She reacts with embarrassment, and he clarifies that he wasn't expecting her to be so studious, while she adds that she learned a lot from this movie, and more than just about work, making him curious.

## Trivia

* Yamada likely asks to switch seats with Ichikawa to see his uncovered eye, as he almost always has his right one covered with his hair. She also flips her hair to face the other side, allowing them both an unobstructed view of each other's face.
* Yamada also likely wanted Ichikawa to pay special attention to the kiss scene in the movie, which is why she makes sure he's awake during that time.