Major life decision and being pulled in different directions...

*Changing the outer physical circumstances will never change your internal vibration or at least not for long enough to bring to you what you say you are wanting. Only changing your feeling circumstances matter. Then the physical circumstances have no choice but to reflect to you your own emotional vibrations. -* SheerLuckHolmes

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**neo**

First off, I will start by saying that this is my first post.

I have learned a lot by reading and connecting with many of the messages posted here. I thank those that have taken their time and energy to do so. I'm hoping that me posting my message could help another who may be struggling with a similar scenario.

Here Goes...

Prior to my current career path, I had always felt a deep connection with life and had experienced many synchronicities and coincidences that just seemed to make life enjoyable and "fall into place".

As I entered my current career path, the synchronicities, coincidences and my life connection in general began to fade.

As I read some of the AAIIG book, I began to realize that stress (resistance) could likely be the cause. So I have tried to make amends with that stress (resistance), however my current path does not seem to get any easier and the synchronicities (and connection with life in general) has never returned with the same zest I lived before.

I've tried to change the way I look at this career path. To quote Wayne Dyer: "*When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change*." Despite my best intentions and efforts to change the way I look at things, my current career path continues to be a struggle. In fact, I ask myself: "*if this were such a great path, why all the struggle?*" however, there are times when I feel a great sense of purpose.

Every day I awake with some form of anxiety (resistance) that makes me feel as if something is wrong (not in alignment) and needs attention. I believe this feeling is associated with wanting what I want, but having to choose another career in order to achieve (experience) what I am trying to achieve (experience).

So I took the time to write out what it is that I truly want to include in my experience:

When I think of what I want I feel a strong pull away from my current career path (almost an intuitive knowing). This is good because it gives me a sense that what I would like to achieve (experience) is not on this career path. When I think of the quote "everything you want is downstream":I feel pulled toward the second career:

But here's the rub:.

I keep saying to myself that "*I want to achieve my success (experiences) in what I originally chose in the current career and not go through all this*".

Also, when I think of leaving the current career path, I feel a great sense of loss partially because I think I feel a greater sense of purpose where I am.

The most difficult part is that when and if I leave my current career, it feels like it would have to be for good. To compare: Like a priest leaving the priesthood. There's no going back.

With that comes a lot of indecision and intense emotion about making the right choice. It becomes like a plane stuck in a holding pattern unable to land. A vicious circle, if you will.

I will say that I have thought of making this change in the past and I've always felt the strongest pull toward what I would like to achieve (experience) in the same direction as the second career, even years ago before I began this path.

In fact, I have even attracted someone to help make the transition.

Where I am right now, if I were to go about making contacts to move on to the second career I get a sense it would happen quickly and I'd have to be ready to close that door, turn my back and move on.

Problem is: I keep going back to this conversation:

"*but why can't I achieve what I want to achieve here (on this career path) when I've sacrificed so much to even get this (this experience)???*"

...and the answer is always the same:

"*what you want (and in most cases need) you won't completely experience here:it's over there (second career path):*"

I know I "can never get it wrong" and "can never get it done" and I know that the contrast has caused me to want certain things and not want others, but what exactly is going on here:where I feel pulled in both directions:staying with my current path vs. just moving on, feeling the loss, and dealing with the unknown:

Why all the back and forth??? What can I do to gain greater clarity in this decision??? What am I not fully realizing here??

Your thoughts and perspective are appreciated:Anyone else with a similar scenario and positive outcomes???

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