Backstabber

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**Backstabber** (うらぎりもの *Uragirimono*) is Monica's lament. The Japanese version is sung by rionos and the English version is sung by Brooke Williams.

## Media

【MV】うらぎりもの（Song. rionos）(フル音源Ver.)【メメントモリ】Japanese version【Lyric MV】Monica "Backstabber" (Full Ver.) 【MementoMori】English version
## Lyrics

* English version
* Japanese version

I feel like a mermaid that

is melting in the waves

I faded away from here

where you left me

I feel like a missing map

that's floating in the waves

You will forget it

Now I'm like a mermaid who

has lost all her laughter

Then I faded away

But I'm dreaming

And I killed my heart so that

I won't want anything

One by one by one

Don't stop, I can't stop

I have to move forward

Before the twilight overtakes me

I couldn't tell you anything

Couldn't open my mind

I closed up and shut down

I want to tell you everything

Want to open my mind

Now our time's up, breakdown

Why did you go?

Why did you go?

Why did you leave the mermaid?

I feel like a mermaid who's

swimming in cloudy sky

I'm looking for your back

that I can't find

I feel like a mermaid who

can't move from the same place

I'm stuck here to you

Crouching down and down

No one's looking at me

Someone else's eyes overtake me

Couldn't be with you forever

Couldn't follow my dream

I closed up and shut down

I didn't want to lie to you

Want to say sorry

Now our time's up, breakdown

Why did you go?

Why did you go?

Why did you leave the mermaid?

I know my body has no energy

I know my heart is torn to pieces

I want you to hug me, but I want you to admit

Your heart was growing away from me, but

I was always trying to forget it

I loved you so much, but you only sold me out

I couldn't tell you anything

Couldn't open my mind

I closed up and shut down

I want to tell you everything

Want to open my mind

Now our time's up, breakdown

Why did you go?

Why did you go?

Why did you leave the mermaid?

* Japanese
* Romaji
* English translation

波間に溶けた 人魚みたい

見捨てられて 消えていく

忘れかけてた 約束だけ

浮かぶように

作り笑いの裏側では

誰も同じ 夢を見て

心の声を殺すばかり

また一つ

止めないで 進まなくちゃ

夕暮れが 迫るまで

誰にも言えずに

気持ちを 隠したまま

また少し刻む 心で

傷を癒やす

どうして 貴方は

私を見捨てたの

一人で歩く 曇り空に

後ろ姿 探してる

気づけば同じ景色の中

立ち尽くす

しゃがみ込む 私のこと

どうせ誰も 見えてない

剥がれ落ちていく

見えない 夢のかけら

追いかけるほどに

身体は嘘に染まる

ごめんね 許して

鏡 映る涙

疲れた身体ごと 心が破れても

誰かに受け入れられたくて

忘れて待ってたんだそっと

それでも知ってたんだずっと

裏切り者のしるしを

誰にも言えずに

気持ちを 隠したまま

また少し刻む 心で

傷を癒やす

どうして 貴方は

私を見捨てたの

namima ni toketa ningyo mitai

misuterarete kiete yuku

wasurekaketeta yakusoku dake

ukabu you ni

tsukuri warai no uragawa de wa

dare mo onaji yume o mite

kokoro no koe o korosu bakari

mata hitotsu

tomenaide susumanakucha

yuugure ga semaru made

dare ni mo iezu ni

kimochi o kakushita mama

mata sukoshi kizamu kokoro de

kizu o yasu

doushite anata wa

watashi o misuteta no

hitori de aruku kumorizora ni

ushiro sugata sagashiteru

kizukeba onaji keshiki no naka

tachitsukusu

shagami komu watashi no koto

douse daremo mietenai

hagare ochite yuku

mienai yume no kakera

oikakeru hodo ni

karada wa uso ni somaru

gomenne yurushite

kagami utsuru namida

tsukareta karada goto kokoro ga yaburete mo

dareka ni uke ireraretakute

wasurete matte tanda sotto

sore demo shitteta nda zutto

uragirimono no shirushi o

dare ni mo iezu ni

kimochi o kakushita mama

mata sukoshi kizamu kokoro de

kizu o yasu

doushite anata wa

watashi o misuteta no

I feel like the mermaid who melted in the waves

Left all alone, vanishing without a trace

Promises nearly forgotten

Are all that stay afloat

Behind these smiles we force ourselves to wear,

We each have our dreams

But, we always kill our feelings deep down inside

One by one

Don’t stop now—I’ve got to move forward

Until twilight looms on the horizon

Unable to let them out,

I locked my feelings away

But once again, with a little time

My heart will heal these wounds

Please, tell me why...

Why did you throw me away?

I walk alone underneath the cloudy sky

Looking everywhere for you

Then, I realized I was still in the same place

Trapped with nowhere to go

Here I am, sinking to the ground

But, it's not like anyone can see me anyway

Drifting away from me

Are pieces of dreams I no longer have

As I chase after them,

My body’s tainted with lies

I’m sorry... Forgive me

My tears shine in the mirror

My body’s about to crumble, my heart’s in pieces

But, I still wanted someone to take me in

So I let them go, and have been waiting quietly

But even then, I’ve known about them all along

signs that you were a backstabber

Unable to let them out,

I locked my feelings away

But once again, with a little time

My heart will heal these wounds

Please, tell me why...

Why did you throw me away?