Guilt Trip

**Guilt Trip** is the fourth episode of the first season of *Another Life*, and the fourth episode of the series overall. It was released on July 25, 2019 on Netflix.

## Synopsis

A ship malfunction leaves Niko trapped in a state of deep sleep, where she dreams again and again about the worst day of her life.

## Plot

**SPOILERS AHEAD**
Niko comforts August while she calls William. However, August tells her that he is offline, and asks her if she looks better or worse than her brother Billy. August tells Niko to tell her parents that she was not scared, but Niko tells her that they would be making it home.

Cas and Niko find each other. The former tells Niko that they need to get off the planet, which was Canis Majoris. However, everybody was separated, so they drag August to the medical center. Niko tells August that her brother was not afraid, but she could tell that she was lying. All of a sudden, the three of them are attacked by an alien who drags August away. Niko cries while Cas tells her they need to leave.

As they move, they hear steps and roaring. They open a door and stumble upon Javier, Zayn, Oliver, Bernie and Michelle. They have an argument, but Niko tells them that they needed to stick together. She remembers when a racoon went into their house and tells them that they should shoot the alien into space using the airlock. As Niko moves forward, the crew is torn apart by the alien. She traps Cas and the alien in the airlock, who swiftly kills her. After this, Niko goes back into soma.

Niko was just having a bad dream. Everybody is awake and she is still asleep because the batteries to the soma system are hemorrhaging power. They worry about Niko because her tube had less than 30 minutes on it. If she was still asleep by then, she would be brain dead.

In Niko's dream, Dubois tells her that they would be talking about The Pilgrim. Niko is confused as to why they are talking about something that happened years ago and tells Dubois that she does not have PTSD and she knows something is not right. Dubois calls her a hero, but she punches her in the face and the security while calling her daughter's name. When she opens the door, she walks into a funeral, where a man tells how Niko saved half a crew because she sacrificed the other.

Zayn says that she cannot remove the soma because if she was off by even a fraction, Niko would die.

Niko walks out another door and is at a party with Erik. She hugs him and they see it was Jana's eighth birthday. In this dream she stayed on Earth and she now realizes that she is in soma sleep.

August refuses to eat because she wants to check the somatic interface. Michelle tries to grab a plate to eat, but Bernie does not let her take it. Cas tells them that she was in charge until Niko wakes up and Michelle tells her that their sensors picked up a moon. Bernie is excited because they need food, but Cas tells her to stay on course.

Zayn managed to stabilize Niko, but the problem was that Niko might not even know that she is dreaming. William asks if they could convince her to leave from within her subconscious, which she has not done.

William appears in Niko's dream, telling her to wake up immediately because none of that was real. Niko is convinced that what was happening was real, but William does not understand why. Cas tells Zayn to keep trying.

In her dream, Niko sings the birthday song to Jana. However, they hear that the Salvare had crashed and it was assumed everybody was dead. Jana tells Niko that her wish was that Niko never leaves her ever again. An alarm starts sounding and Niko tries to turn it off. Niko tells them that she had to go back to the Salvare and exits her dream.

When Niko wakes up, she sees nobody until she sees a man, who walks up and kisses her. He tells her to look outside and they begin to prepare to dock at Saturn. However, Niko tells Hudson that something terrible would happen. Hudson does not listen to her and proceeds.

Bernie tells Cas that they were going to run out of food, but Cas tells Bernie that it would be a 4 light year detour, which Bernie does not like.

August and Javier talk. Javier says that he does not trust soma tech and August suggests working in the mess hall. He tells her that he dreamed he was a dad, which would not happen soon. Javier says that he is not upset, but he tells her that he does not have parents who own an asteroid, which meant that he had not gotten the chance to go to a fertility clinic. She tells him that she got her eggs frozen so that her parents could have grandchildren if she died.

Cas goes to Michelle's room and tells her that they would be going to the moon she had found, but she is called by Zayn to soma. After Cas leaves, Sasha and Michelle start kissing, while the former takes her bra off.

Niko has thirteen minutes left, so William, Cas and Zayn discuss options. William is ordered not to go back into Niko's dream, but he does anyway.

The crew members tell Niko to look outside at Saturn. She approaches Billy and tells him that they were coming up on a dark patch in the rings and they should keep an eye out for the moonlets, which is what he was going to say. William arrives and Niko hugs him; she tells him that she tried to wake up, but was brought to the Saturn mission, in which two moonlets collided and debris took down an engine. If she did not act fast the ship would explode, so she pressed the button which killed ten people. William convinced her that she did the right thing and convinced her that she could not change anything. However, this time Niko would remove herself from the equation. Niko realizes that she was still in the dream and William tells her that she should save everyone instead. Once everyone was in the room with her, she started removing the other half of the ship, but Jana suddenly appeared outside. The dream restarts once again and William tells her to look deep within herself. She realizes what she needs to do, but William is pulled out of the dream. After that happens, Niko accepts what she had to do and is finally able to move forward.

On the Salvare, Jana calls for Niko. Cas tells Zayn to pull the soma needles out. Niko tells Jana that she needs to finish what she started. She proceeds to repeat exactly what had happened before, but accepting what had happened. She also cries when looking at Hudson and remembering him.

All of a sudden, Niko wakes up, which makes William, Zayn and Cas wake up.

Niko asks Cas what was going on with the ship's direction, and she explains that they took a slight detour. However, she is angry because the detour was 4 light years and they did not even know if the moon had anything they could eat. Cas tells her that she did what was best for the mission. William interrupts and tells them that he had caught the same transmission as the one on Earth in the moon. They look at the moon's surface and see the same artifact there.

## Cast

* Justin Chatwin as Erik Wallace
* Samuel Anderson as William
* Elizabeth Faith Ludlow as Cas Isakovic
* Blu Hunt as August
* A.J. Rivera as Bernie Martinez
* Jake Abel as Sasha Harrison
* Alex Ozerov as Oliver Sokolov
* Alexander Eling as Javier Almanzar
* JayR Tinaco as Zayn Petrossian
* Lina Renna as Jana Breckinridge-Wallace
* Selma Blair as Harper Glass
* Jessica Camacho as Michelle Vargas
* Louis Ozawa Changchien as Hudson
* Chanelle Peloso as Petra Smith
* Helen King as Salvare & Pilgrim Voice

### Minor

* Donald Sales as Danny
* Kindall Charters as Billy Catawnee

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