Kaffalljidhma Therapy Journal Entry

So having spent twenty years as an Otyugh  we were found and healed by a Plane ship from our home reality.  Apparantly over two decades have passed since the fall of Haephastus base.  Still going through the various Psycological and fitness tests that seem to have not changed much since I was last on active duty.  The  Head Counselor Aevernis recoomended to all of us former Otyughs to write down what we rememebered and how we felt about skipping 20 years into the future.  I may have let my anger get the better of me at first hearing of how long it had been, no one was seriously injured and it seemed almost expected.  The rest of the Haephastus crew who I honestly do not know that well having only known them for a couple months seemed to deal with it a lot better.  They still hold some of the decisions in the last week of the base before the fall against me.  People have a stronger faith in how secure  and stable natural portals are then they should.  I honestly have no clue how many of the people we tried to get out in the last days actually made it though anywhere would probably have been better than that planet.

Anyway as a personal biography as accurately as I can give  I am Kaffaljdhma Kree formerly reached a rank of Junior Lietenant though was generally more of a troubleshooter or emergency assignment  especially when dealing with weird portal or planar issues.  More comfortable flying a ship or driving than walking has been said of me in the past.  I am either in my mid 30's or mid 50's depending on how you consider the missed time.  On the more personal side of things  I have had a couple previous relationships,  none of which have ended well,  apparantly settling down and not going on extreme missions and “risking my life” is too much for a relationship to hold.

I had considered settling down Maybe having Haephastus being the last mission I went on at least fro a while,  my twins had just turned 4 when I left and I thought maybe I would try and raise them , I could have actually settled dwn for them potentially but apparantly that wasnt my chouice to make.  If they are still alive which I hope they are they would be in their mid 20's and not have any use for a mother that to them has been dead most of their life.  Will at least look them up when we make it back,  I do hope their lives have been good for them maybe they avoided a lot of the mistakes I made.

Back to the ship , I would love to get a chance to fly this thing it I built like nothing I have ever seen and from what I feel it hndles like a dream for a ship of this size, I would love to talk tott the person who designed it beause usually engineers do not consider good handling and speed such a priority.  Should maybe talk to Commander Xho I might be able to at least get temporarily reinstated   this mission seems like a really good way to keep exploring the planes and seeing amazing things not getting stuck in the past and things better left there.

Been using the Chimera chamber to  try and deal with my anger which the Counselor advised after I kept causing damage to their office.  Started doing research o portals and the void and especially planeships, the counselor suggested doing something useful.  The amount of progress and discoveries I have missed out on in 20 years is amazing.  It feels like a different world and I havent even seen what Rodan -Beri looks like though from pictures I have seen it is quite unrecognizable.