Nikki.html

**Neither Fandom or the creators of Lomando encourage suicide or self-harm. Always be aware of both suicide and self-harm.**

**Nikki.html** is a page containing a suicide diary written by the website manager. It is accessed from clicking the newspaper in Chaos.html.

## Information

On this page, there are eleven notes (formerly sixteen) that can be clicked on. If the last one (or the fifth one in the old version) is clicked, Mandoreiku will jumpscare the player after the text finishes displaying. All the notes in the diary are translated here, with English on the top and Japanese on the bottom.

## Notes

### Current version

* 04/02/07
* 04/01/08
* 04/27/08
* 7/01/08
* 8/14/08
* 3/6/09
* 5/1/09
* 5/15/09
* 6/1/09
* 6/15/09
* 6/16/09

**April 02, 2007**

Alright, let's work hard and make our dreams come true!

**２００７年０４月０２日**

よーし頑張って夢を叶えるぞー！

**April 01, 2008**

I didn't expect to be rejected.

I knew it wasn't for me.

**２００８年０４月０１日**

まさかの不合格でした。

やっぱり向いていなかったんだな。

**April 27, 2008**

Due to insomnia it's hard to work...

I want to quit...

**２００８年０４月２７日**

不眠症で仕事辛い・・・。

もう辞めたい・・・。

**July 1, 2008**

Just because I was born,

I have no choice but to live.

**２００８年０７月０１日**

生まれてきてしまったので

仕方なく生きています。

**August 14, 2008**

The world is a shitty place,

but I like this song...

**２００８年０８月１４日**

世の中はクソだけど

この曲いいわぁ・・・。

**March 6, 2009**

Porridge... delicious...

**２００９年０３月０６日**

おかゆ・・・うまい・・・。

**May 1, 2009**

If there were an afterlife, I wish for a good one.

**２００９年０５月０１日**

生まれ変わったらいい人生を送りたい

**May 15, 2009**

I fell on the sidewalk and hit my chest,

it was cracked badly,

it hurts when I get up...

**２００９年０５月１５日**

横断歩道で転んで胸を強打。

見事にヒビ入ってました。

起き上がる時に痛くて辛い・・・。

**June 1, 2009**

How did I get myself into this mess...

**２００９年０６月０１日**

どうしてこんなことになってしまったんだ・・・。

**June 15, 2009**

To everyone who reads this diary,

Thank you so much for everything. \_

Please be happy for me.

**２００９年０６月１５日**

この日記を見てる皆さん、

今まで本当にありがとう。\_

私の分幸せになって下さいね。

**WARNING****: This note contains a minor screamer from Mandoreiku, proceed with caution when clicking this note.**

**June 16, 2009**

I'm in pain... Help me...

Someone help me get out of here...

**２００９年０６月１６日**

苦シイ・・・助ケテ・・・

誰カ私ヲココカラ出シテ・・・

### Old version (March 2019-September 2019)

* 8/14/2009
* 8/20/2009
* 8/22/2009
* 09/1/2009
* 09/18/2009
* 09/19/2009
* 09/20/2009
* 09/21/2009
* 09/22/2009
* 09/24/2009
* 10/01/2009
* 12/22/2009
* 4/27/2010
* 07/12/2013
* 09/10/2013
* 09/23/2013

**August 14, 2009**

The ideal theme park I have always dreamed of

"Fancy Island"

Today it finally opened!

With Mimi, the mascot character

We invite you to the world of your dreams.

In this summer vacation of "Fancy Island"

Let's make great memories!

**2009年8月14日**

ずっと夢に描いた理想のテーマパーク

『ふぁんしーあいらんど』が

本日ついにオープンしました！

マスコットキャラのミミさんが

あなたを夢の世界に誘います。

この夏休み『ふぁんしーあいらんど』で

素敵な思い出を作っちゃおう！

**August 20, 2009**

The event will be held today in the central plaza of the park.

"Pieyama Pie Man's Magic Show"

The times of the event are as follows:

[Morning Session]
11:00-12:00

[Afternoon Session]
14:00-15:00

From the magician "Pieyama Pie Man"

You will see many mysterious magic tricks. ♪

**2009年8月20日**

本日園内の中央広場で行われる

『ピエ山ピエ男のマジックショー』

の開催時間は以下の通りです。

【午前の部】
11:00～12:00

【午後の部】
14:00～15:00

手品師『ピエ山ピエ男』さんの

不思議な手品がたくさん見られますよ♪

**August 22, 2009**

[Apology]

You came to our theme park on August 20th, the day before yesterday.

17 customers were transported to the hospital due to an unexplained physical condition.

An event has happened.

The cause is not yet known, but I will explain everything again as soon as the details are known.

In addition, we will refrain from doing business for the time being to investigate the cause.

The business start date is undecided, but I will write it again as soon as it is decided.

**2009年8月22日**

【お詫び】

一昨日の8月20日、当テーマパークにお越しいただいた

17名のお客様が原因不明の体調不良で病院へ搬送されるという

出来事が起きてしまいました。

まだ原因が判明しておりません故、詳細が分かり次第

また改めて経緯をご説明いたします。

なお、原因調査の為、当面の間は営業を自粛させて頂きます。

営業開始日は未定ですが、決まり次第また改めてこちらに書かせて頂きます。

この度はこのような事が起きてしまい誠に申し訳ございませんでした。

**September 1, 2009**

[Regarding the events of August 20, 2009 and the date of reopening for business]

On the 20th of last month, more than a dozen guests became ill in the park and transported to the hospital.

We have investigated the matter with various agencies.

The cause was never determined.

The agencies have assured us that there is no problem in reopening for business.

We will reopen for business on September 14.

We are all committed to preventing such incidents from happening in the future.

We will make the theme park a safe and secure place.

I am very sorry that such a thing happened at this time.

**2009年9月1日**

【2009年8月20日の出来事と営業再開日について】

先月20日に十数名のお客様が当園内で体調不良に

なり病院に搬送されたことについて

様々な機関で調査致しましたが

原因は結局判明致しませんでした。

各機関より営業再開をしても問題はないという

許可を頂いたので、9月14日より営業を再開いたします。

これからはこのようなことが起きないようスタッフ一同

心を引き締めて安心安全のテーマパークにするよう

取り組んで行きたいと思いますので、

何卒よろしくお願い致します。

**WARNING: This note contains a screamer. After a few seconds, Mandoreiku will appear along with a scream.**

**September 18, 2009**

What can I say? Isn't it stupid to be alive?

Is this the life you want to live, the life you have to work so hard for?

Are you having so much fun in life?

The wonderful things in life

You can only be happy for a short time.

In the end, there's always a risk attached to it, right?

No matter what happens, you will have to suffer in the end.

You work hard to get something.

And then you get it.

And then you have to struggle with it.

Other people only care about themselves.

They are all working only for their own status.

Helping and being kind is for self-gratification.

They want to have friends because they are afraid of being alone.

They feel the gaze of many people around them who have complex and various thoughts and values, then how could they live an empty life for decades?

The more you live, the more stressed you become.

The longer you live, the more stressed you become, the more exhausted you become, the more desolate you become, and finally the more sick you become.

Finally abandoned by your family which you trusted the most, and die.

**2009年09月18日**

なんていうかさ、生きてるのって馬鹿みたいじゃない？

身を削って苦労してまで生きたい人生なの？

そんなに楽しい人生送ってる？

人生における素敵な出来事なんて

幸せだと思えるのはほんの一時だけで

結局全部後からリスクがくっ付いて回るじゃん？

何が起こっても最終的には苦労する羽目になる。

何かを手に入れる為に頑張って

その何かを手に入れたとして

今度はその何かに悩まされ苦労する。

他人なんて結局は自分が可愛い。

自分のステータスの為だけのことを考えてみんな動いてる。

助けたり優しくするのは自己満足のため。

仲間を欲しがるのは一人が恐いから。

複雑で様々な思考・価値観を持つ大勢の人間の視線を周囲に感じながら

大して面白くもない人生を何十年も生きれる？

生きれば生きるほどストレスを溜め疲弊して荒んで最後は病気になり

一番信じていた家族に疎まれ死んでいく。

**September 18, 2009**

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**2009年09月18日**

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**September 20, 2009**

A lifespan of 25 is long enough.

I can imagine what the future will be like at 25.

**二○十二年 九月二○日**

寿命は25まででいいよ。

大体25でおおよその未来が想像できるし。

**September 21, 2009**

I had a dream last night that my tongue was being shaved with a peeler.

**2009年09月21日**

昨日舌をピーラーで削がれ続ける夢を見た。

**September 22, 2009**

Every day, I try to comfort 90% of my hardships with 10% of my happiness...

When I think that I have to live like this for the rest of my life,

I think it would be better to die.

**2009年09月22日**

毎日毎日9割の苦労を1割の幸福で慰めるように…

こんな風にこれからずっと騙し騙し生きて

いかなきゃいけないと思うとさっさと

死んだ方がましかなって思う。

**September 24, 2009**

"Youu~ already dieed~ at your poost~"

**2009年09月24日**

「君はー殉職ー死ーんだしー」

**October 01, 2009**

This is what happiness is all about, isn't it?

I can't stop smiling.

I'm starting to feel happy.

I feel like I can fly right now (^^)

**2009年10月01日**

しあわせってこういうことなんだね。

にやにやが止まらない。

たのしくなってきたなぁ。

いまなら空も飛べそうな気分さ(^^)

**December 22, 2009**

CURSE

Indigo can't clean the smell of decay.

CURSE

I think I've heard that in various places.

CURSE

Why would I use Puffin when I enjoy the smell of decay?

**2009年12月22日**

呪

藍不穏って腐乱臭非対応なのね。

呪

そういえば各所で聞いてた気がする。

呪

なんで腐乱臭楽しむ時はぱふぃん使ってます。

**April 27, 2010**

Everyone, please, be happy for me.

**2010年04月27日**

皆さん私の分、幸せになって下さいね。

**July 12, 2013**

It's been a while since I watched Keizoku.

The opening is very nice.

**2013年07月12日**

ケイゾク久々に観たいなぁ。

オープニングがとても素敵。

**September 10, 2013**

There are no reasons to live,
but many reasons to die.

**2013年09月10日**

生きたい理由は一つもないのに

死にたい理由は沢山ある

**September 23, 2013**

Because we are alive, we have to worry, we have to suffer, we have to struggle.

I don't know if there is happiness in everyday life.

If there was, it would be so small that it would not be worth the daily hardships.

With just one rope and a few seconds,

I won't have to be sad for the rest of the time.

**2013年09月23日**

生きているから悩む、辛い目に遭う、苦労しなきゃいけない

日々に幸せなんてあるのか

あったとしてもそれは

日々の苦労には全然見合わない程の

小さな幸せだろう

ロープ1本とほんの数秒で

残りの膨大な時間を悲しまなくていいんだ

### Older Version (September 23rd, 2013-March 2019)

This section only includes the most complete version of the first diary with all entries. There were many other versions with fewer entries, as the manager added them gradually in correlation with the dates listed on each entry.

* 01/26/2012
* 01/29/2012
* 02/01/2012
* 09/17/2012
* 09/18/2012
* 09/19/2012
* 09/20/2012
* 09/21/2012
* 09/22/2012
* 09/24/2012
* 10/01/2012
* 12/22/2012
* 07/04/2013
* 07/12/2013
* 09/10/2013
* 09/23/2013

**January 26, 2012**

I'm afraid of the dolls that hang in my house...

**二○十二年 一月二六日**

家に飾ってある人形が怖い…

**January 29, 2012**

No, it's nothing.

**二○十二年 一月二九日**

いえ、なんでもないのですよ。

**February 01, 2012**

Just because I was born, I have no choice but to live.

**二○十二年 二月一日**

生まれてしまったので仕方なく生きてます。

**September 17, 2012**

I wonder if there's anything interesting.

There isn't, is there?

People who resent society and don't try to catch something interesting

will never have a reason to live.

**二○十二年 九月十七日**

何か面白いことないかな。

ないよね。

社会を恨み面白いことをキャッチしようとしない人間に

生き甲斐はやってこない。

**WARNING: This note contains a screamer. After a few seconds, Mandoreiku will appear along with a scream.**

**September 18, 2012**

What can I say? Isn't it stupid to be alive?

Is this the life you want to live, the life you have to work so hard for?

Are you having so much fun in life?

The wonderful things in life

You can only be happy for a short time.

In the end, there's always a risk attached to it, right?

No matter what happens, you will have to suffer in the end.

You work hard to get something.

And then you get it.

And then you have to struggle with it.

Other people only care about themselves.

They are all working only for their own status.

Helping and being kind is for self-gratification.

They want to have friends because they are afraid of being alone.

They feel the gaze of many people around them who have complex and various thoughts and values, then how could they live an empty life for decades?

The more you live, the more stressed you become.

The longer you live, the more stressed you become, the more exhausted you become, the more desolate you become, and finally the more sick you become.

Finally abandoned by your family which you trusted the most, and die.

**二○十二年 九月十八日**

なんていうかさ、生きてるのって馬鹿みたいじゃない？

身を削って苦労してまで生きたい人生なの？

そんなに楽しい人生送ってる？

人生における素敵な出来事なんて

幸せだと思えるのはほんの一時だけで

結局全部後からリスクがくっ付いて回るじゃん？

何が起こっても最終的には苦労する羽目になる。

何かを手に入れる為に頑張って

その何かを手に入れたとして

今度はその何かに悩まされ苦労する。

他人なんて結局は自分が可愛い。

自分のステータスの為だけのことを考えてみんな動いてる。

助けたり優しくするのは自己満足のため。

仲間を欲しがるのは一人が恐いから。

複雑で様々な思考・価値観を持つ大勢の人間の視線を周囲に感じながら

大して面白くもない人生を何十年も生きれる？

生きれば生きるほどストレスを溜め疲弊して荒んで最後は病気になり

一番信じていた家族に疎まれ死んでいく。

**September 19, 2012**

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**二○十二年 九月十九日**

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**September 20, 2012**

A lifespan of 25 is long enough.

I can imagine what the future will be like at 25.

**二○十二年 九月二○日**

寿命は25まででいいよ。

大体25でおおよその未来が想像できるし。

**September 21, 2012**

I had a dream last night that my tongue was being shaved with a peeler.

**二○十二年 九月二十一日**

昨日舌をピーラーで削がれ続ける夢を見た。

**September 22, 2012**

Every day, I try to comfort 90% of my hardships with 10% of my happiness...

When I think that I have to live like this for the rest of my life,

I think it would be better to die.

**二○十二年 九月二十二日**

毎日毎日9割の苦労を1割の幸福で慰めるように…

こんな風にこれからずっと騙し騙し生きて

いかなきゃいけないと思うとさっさと

死んだ方がましかなって思う。

**September 24, 2012**

"Youu~ already dieed~ at your poost~"

**二○十二年 九月二十四日**

「君はー殉職ー死ーんだしー」

**October 01, 2012**

This is what happiness is all about, isn't it?

I can't stop smiling.

I'm starting to feel happy.

I feel like I can fly right now (^^)

**二○十二年 十月一日**

しあわせってこういうことなんだね。

にやにやが止まらない。

たのしくなってきたなぁ。

いまなら空も飛べそうな気分さ(^^)

**December 22, 2012**

CURSE

Indigo can't clean the smell of decay.

CURSE

I think I've heard that in various places.

CURSE

Why would I use Puffin when I enjoy the smell of decay?

二○十二年 十二月二十二日

呪

藍不穏って腐乱臭非対応なのね。

呪

そういえば各所で聞いてた気がする。

呪

なんで腐乱臭楽しむ時はぱふぃん使ってます。

**June 04, 2013**

Everyone, please, be happy for me.

**二○十三年 七月四日**

皆さん私の分、幸せになって下さいね。

**June 12, 2013**

It's been a while since I watched Keizoku.

The opening is very nice.

**二○十三年 七月十二日**

ケイゾク久々に観たいなぁ。

オープニングがとても素敵。

**September 10, 2013**

There are no reasons to live,
but many reasons to die.

**二○十三年 九月十日**

生きたい理由は一つもないのに

死にたい理由は沢山ある

**September 23, 2013**

Because we are alive, we have to worry, we have to suffer, we have to struggle.

I don't know if there is happiness in everyday life.

If there was, it would be so small that it would not be worth the daily hardships.

With just one rope and a few seconds,

I won't have to be sad for the rest of the time.

**二○十三年 九月二十三日**

生きているから悩む、辛い目に遭う、苦労しなきゃいけない

日々に幸せなんてあるのか

あったとしてもそれは

日々の苦労には全然見合わない程の

小さな幸せだろう

ロープ1本とほんの数秒で

残りの膨大な時間を悲しまなくていいんだ

## Gallery

Header of this page. It reads "管理人の手記", meaning "Manager's journal".Dates.Mandoreiku jumpscaring the player.Old version of this page.
## Trivia

* In the currrent version of the diary, the placeholder note (visible before clicking of any of the notes at the left) is the first note in the oldest version of the diary.

## References

1. ↑ https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm18649110 footage of a version of Nikki.html with only three entries be found at around the 3:44 mark.