Pepper

> I'm tired of pretending to be the hero I could never be.
>
> - Pepper, her journal

## Overview

Pepper is a...mostly human character living in The Village. Her house is located next to North and Green's base. Pepper came from a village far away, leaving only because her "friends" betrayed her. She rode off with one of her old "friends'" skeleton horse and arrived at the Sky Islands, where she was taken in. After the Islands got blown up, Pepper moved to The Village.

// THIS PAGE IS A WIP :DD //

## Appearance

Pepper wears a purple buttoned shirt, black jeans, and a brown bag that she keeps slinged across her shoulder. There are two cuts in her back where her wings used to be. Her hair is blonde with a shock of black running through, and her eyes are black as well, with her right eye having a sideways smile in it. Various scars and branches cover her.

## Relationships

### Ghost

Positive: They got off on a bit of shaky ground with neither of them willing to talk to the other, but since Ghost has opened up they have been nothing but nice to Pepper.

### Duocake

Very positive: Ghostcake was very welcoming as soon as Pepper came to the islands, they always cheer Pepper up with their happy. Pepper just wishes she could help them with...whatever this is.

### Marielle

Positive: She gave Pepper the power of Creative Mode and always is very nice to her.

### Eevee

Positive: He's a bit of a mystery to Pepper, but he's very friendly.

### Empress Green

Positive: She's still in there. She has to be. It's not over.

### Ghost Green

Positive: Even though it makes Pepper sad to see the Empress in this state, Ghost Green is always very friendly to Pepper.

### Warped

Very positive: At first Warped didn't seem to trust Pepper, but they became closer when they both went against Clover.

### Clover

Positive: It wasn't her fault, and Pepper knows that. If only she had a chance to say "goodbye"...

### Zixvir

Positive: Though he doesn't seem to know when to back off, Pepper knows that Zixvir's just trying to be nice. He forgave her very easily for his canon death, and always seems to have Pepper's best interests in mind.

### Star

Positive: It wasn't fake. She can go back. She has to.

### Muriel

Neutral: The only time Pepper's talked to Muriel is when he tried to help her with the voice. Pepper could sort of appreciate the help, but was frustrated that he, like everyone else, didn't listen to her when she told him to go away for his own safety.

### El

Positive: Even though they did aid in the Sky Islands explosion, they let Pepper live with them for a bit in the New Realm. Pepper is very willing to give them the benifit of doubt.

### North

Very positive: She has a lot of secrets, but she's always very nice to Pepper regardless.

### Nebula

Positive: Pepper and Nebula killed each other, but they've since forgiven one another. They plan to leave The Village and run away together.

### Faye

Very positive: She was very welcoming to Pepper the moment she met her, giving her all sorts of baked goods. She is very helpful and sweet.

### Polly

Positive: It was never their fault. Someday everyone will find that out.

### Sirin

Very positive: Sirin is always willing to listen to Pepper and help her out. Pepper really needed a friend like that.

### Citrus

Neutral: Pepper isn't really sure what he wants or why he's here, but he seems nice enough?

### The voice

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## Pets

### Bee

Bee is Pepper's axolotl. He died in the Sky Island explosion.

### Strawberry

Once belonging to Ghost, Strawberry randomly appeared inside of Pepper's house one day. She didn't mind much, she did love the sheep, him being the one thing she ran to when she first came to the islands and was feeling upset. He's been killed who knows how many times now, but he somehow always comes back.

### Rosebud

A dog Pepper found one day while on a walk. He died in the Sky Islands explosion

### Skelllllllllly

Stolen from Pepper's old village, Skelllllllllly was useful for getting around pleaces, and was used by many people on the Islands. He died in the Sky Islands explosion.

## Lives

First life - Killed by the voice

Second life - Killed by the voice

Third life - Killed by the voice

She continues to be killed and revived by the voice.

## Lore

### Old Realm - Pre Party

She wakes up at the foot of the Sky Islands after accidently falling asleep during her travel. She is greeted by Duocake, Marielle, and Ghost. Still reeling from her betrayal, Pepper is wary of these people. Duocake and Marielle are very friendly to her, asking if she wants to stay in the Sky Empire and asking her about herself. Ghost doesn't seem to trust Pepper, and the two don't talk much. Pepper decides to live in the Sky Islands, and tells herself that she won't get too attached to the people here, just in case they want to betray her. Ghost tells her to not trust anyone there, and that the place is cursed, which only solidifies Pepper's plan to not become attached. She starts a journal inspired by Duocake's book.

Pepper builds her house and starts establishing herself in the empire. She wakes up one day and starts hearing a strange voice in her head. It doesn't tell her particularly nice things...saying things like she was turning into the people from her old village. Pepper starts freaking out, she runs out into the forest and meets Zixvir along the way. He tells her that he can take her to the old, abandoned village. She thanks him and they go off. He shows her around the village and they begin to build a house. Zixvir seems very intent on sticking close by Pepper, which she finds to be a bit off-putting, considering that spending time with people is a surefire way to become more attached to them. While building the house, a black inky creature appears - the voice. It burns down Pepper's house, and she and Zixvir run away. Seeing that she can't outrun the voice, Pepper returns to the Sky Islands.

Pepper meets the empress of the empire - Empress Green. Pepper asks her if she knows anything about the voice, or any reason why the Empire has so many strange happenings, why it's "cursed". The Empress tells her she doesn't know, she doesn't even know how the original people got to the islands. She tells Pepper to not trust anyone, to which Pepper gets a bit upset at her, saying that that's exactly what everyone says. Pepper's really confused on who to go to, on what is even happening on the islands. She can't seem to get straight answers from anyone. As a sort of apology for yelling at her, Pepper leaves a bottle of honey at the empress' doorstep, along with a note thanking her for letting her stay in the empire, and telling the Empress that she will help her make the islands better in any way she can. Pepper just wants things to be better there, for people to not be so untrustworthy of everyone, and for the voice to go away. She tells herself that just because she's helping people doesn't mean that she's making friends.

While going into her house, someone shouts her a hello. Here Pepper meets Star, who at first is a bit of a mystery to her. It's clear that something's up, Star is always huddled in a group with Empress Green and Eevee, and always slips up on saying she's been to different universes. Pepper just brushes it off, not wanting to intrude in matters that aren't her business. But on her way down from the islands, Pepper overhears Star in her house talking about some sort of curse. Star spots Pepper and decides to let her in on what's happening (you can read about the curse on Star's character page!). She, the empress, and Eevee all help and stand by Star while she transfers her life into a book, thus removing the curse!

Someone named El comes to the island. Zixvir is wary of them, but Pepper sees no need to be so afraid if they haven't done anything yet. Their relationship with the empress does seem a bit shady... Green calls Pepper in to open up to her about what's been going on. She shows her her to-do list, and Pepper promises to help her in whatever way she can. After coming outside from the castle, they see El and Duocake talking on the front lawn. Green gets very upset with El, alluding to a possible past that the two share. They go inside the castle, and are arguing about something to do with the eye banners. Ghost, Duocake, and Pepper all watch the argument just outside the room. All of the sudden, Duocake runs out of the room. Ghost and Pepper follow, to find Duocake by Ghost's house, dripping with...happy? They let Pepper in on what's been going on with them by giving her their journal to read. Pepper wants to help them, but she doesn't know how...as per usual. The three discuss trying to go to The End to get rid of the voice, thinking that perhaps this will help Duocake. She also invited Duocake to stay at her house until they get a chance to make their own.

Pepper goes out on a bit of a walk the next day, just to clear her head and think things through. Upon returning, she finds that all has turned to shambles. The Empress is dead, and Star has taken her place. Pepper realizes that she has failed at keeping The Empress safe like she had promised. On top of this, Pepper loses her first life at the hands of the voice. The thought that she can't even help herself, nevermind other people frightens her and pushes her to help even more when two new people appear in town - Warped and Clover. She invited them into her house to stay until they can get their own house. Pepper also becomes occupied with trying to make The Islands better - patching up creeper holes, making a community help board, and making the place a little prettier. She wants to help anyone in any way she can, to prove that things can get better around this place.

Pepper notices that her ender eye banner was stolen from one of her chests. She gets to making her guests their own rooms. Even though she wants to be helpful, she can't have people stealing any important items from her. Warped and Pepper see a strange, hooded figure walking around one night. Pepper is once again reminded of the voice, and reminded to not let her guard down. The next day, Pepper and Warped try to follow the cloaked creature to see who it is. The creature turns out to be Clover, which is who Warped suspected the being to be. Clover explains that this cloaked is to mask her "true form," a form that she can't control. Pepper is extremely wary as she doesn't want anyone to get hurt at the hands of Clover, but she allows her to stay in her house for the time being.

Clover makes the suggestion to go to The End to defeat the voice. This had been the plan from the beginningbut Pepper is still a bit nervous. She doesn't want to see anyone get hurt and feel as if it is her fault again. Still, she knows it will be good in the long run to get rid of the voice. After a long battle with the Ender Dragon (seriously why would that thing not fricking perch i swear that was like the worst 2 hours of my life /hj) the group celebrates the victory! The voice is defeated! Now things can go back to normal...or that was the plan, at least. While the gang is triumphing over the victory and retrieving the well-earned egg of the dragon, Clover goes off to the edge of the End island. Realizing that she's missing, the rest of the group go over to see what's going on. And what do they see, but the voice congratulating and thanking Clover for...freeing it? Clover assures the voice that it wasn't all her doing, and that she had some amazing help! All the work that Pepper had done to keep everyone safe, and for what? To be betrayed? No. Worse than that. She had aided in the thing that she had feared the most. The voice then kills Pepper, meaning she now only has one life left. Later, Pepper talks with Warped. The two make a little plan to get away from all of this stuff, find some place out in the middle of the ocean. If only it could have been that simple.

The next day, Pepper gets and invitation in her house for a "party." This party is meant to serve as an apology for lying by Clover. Pepper is immediately set off by this inventation, and is all too aware that this will not be what it seems. But Pepper is finding it hard to care about what happens to this place anymore. She and Warped will be getting away from it soon enough, so what does it matter? Warped informs Pepper that, indeed, this party isn't what it seems. Zixvir passes out potatoes and other such food to everyone, and they all wait for the party to start. Then, Clover takes the stage. She states that "The Order" has a "deal." A deal that they cannot destroy anything, and then they must leave. However, an old "friend" may be able to help with that destroying part... Clover spawns a wither up on the stage, which quickly destroys the majority of the Islands. As Pepper is watching the water fall down from the Islands, as she looks up at all of the destroyed builds, she realizes that she doesn't care of the Islands got destroyed or not. She doesn't really care about much at all. She failed.

### Old Realm - Post Party

Duocake runs off into the woods, so Pepper, Zixvir, and Warped follow them to try and bring them back. They wind up at the Old Village, where El is as well as Star. Duocake doesn't seem to remember Pepper, and Star is distressed over something that Pepper can't figure out. El takes Duocake, Pepper, and Warped off to their house, but Pepper doesn't stay for long. She has a bit of a sour impression of El considering they helped blow up the Islands and were a part of The Order.

Pepper and Warped go to the nether, where Pepper apologizes to Warped for lashing out after the Islands were blown up. While Pepper is staying at Warped's house, the voice starts talking to her once again. Pepper runs off to ensure that Warped won't get hurt by it. She winds up in a small cave somewhere in the nether. The voice tells her about how the Islands exploding is her fault, how she's just like her old "friends." Pepper is fed up with the voice at this point, so it proves her a point. The voice kills Pepper for a third time, taking away her last life. It then revives Pepper, sending her back to the overworld spawn. It continues to taunt her along with Clover, repedelty killing then reviving her. Pepper runs away to the nether, convinced that she can't help anyone here anymore, least of all herself.

She lives on her own in a nether fortress room for some time, and hangs signs around telling no people to come in if they see the place. One day, Pepper sees Marielle again. She immediately tells her to not go near the place, for fear that the voice will come and hurt her. Marielle just laughs, and insists Pepper come with her back to the overworld for a bit. Pepper obliges. Marielle puts Pepper through a series of tasks, ending in Pepper gaining creative mode. She now has the ability to fly, build whatever she likes, and, most importantly, she can no longer get killed by the voice as easily as before. While Pepper knows she should be happy about this new ability, she can't help but feel a bit put-off by it. She continues to stay in the nether.

One day, after exploring the nether for a bit, Pepper comes home to see a little girl asleep inside her house. Pepper snapped at her a bit for her apparent inability to read the signs outside that clearly state to not come in, and the girl runs off. Later, while Pepper is going around the nether again, she spots the girl killing a magma cube before going into a nether portal. The girl leaves behind the dropped magma cream, so Pepper picks it up and intends to give it to her after going in through the portal. She is brought to a library carved out in the middle of the earth. The girl seems nervous that Pepper found the place, and Pepper can't help but worry over the place's intentions. She pushes these thoughts off and goes back into the portal shortly after arriving. She can't put people at risk anymore.

A few days later, the voice visits Pepper inside of her house. It talks with her for a bit, insisting her that she can't stay away from people forever, and that Marielle's tactics have no use against it. The voice tells Pepper that she needs to go back to the overworld to figure out what happened to Polly. Pepper had only heard about Polly before. Supposedly, Polly was the reason why Green lost the majority of her lives. They don't exactly have a positive reputation. But what choice does Pepper have? She is teleported by the voice back to the overworld, with a new "mission" to boot.

She goes back to the Sky Islands, or the ruins of what it was. A few people are up at the ruins when she arrives - Marielle, the girl from the nether, and someone else that Pepper hasn't seen before. After participating in what can only be described as forced conversation, Pepper finds out that the girl from before's name is North. She also finds out that the other person is Polly. After North leaves, Pepper asks Polly what happened, and why everyone thinks they're such a bad person. Polly explains that it was an accident that they killed Green, and that none of any of the bad things was their fault. The voice seems to confirm this. So, Pepper decides she is going to help clear Polly's name. As well as The Order's, and everyone else. And she is going to prove to everyone that it's the voice's fault that this happened. Pepper has renewed energy to help all of these people in whatever way she can...thought she can't help but worry that she may just make things worse again.

The old realm shuts down for an unexpected and unforeseen reason one day (o7). Marielle takes everyone to a new realm. A new start.

### New Realm (In The Village)

Upon arriving at this new land, Pepper sees El. They seem to be the only ones in close proximity to Pepper. El suggests they both gather resources and live together for a bit, at least until they can find the others. Pepper agrees, after her new outlook that no one on this realm is bad, she has no reason not to trust El. But one day, after Pepper comes up from mining, she finds a sign from El stating that they have left. So Pepper takes all her belongings out of her chest, and heads off to spawn to see if she can find anyone. Once there, she sees that there is a little village that has been built. North is there, and she explains to Pepper that she built this village all on her own! She asks Pepper if she would live there. Pepper is hesitant. She doesn't want what happened before to happen again, but the excited and hopeful look on North's face pushed her to oblige. Pepper gets right to work on her new house. Even though she's nervous for what this future could hold, she does like not needing to be alone anymore.

Someone named Faye comes to The Village and meets Pepper. She gives Pepper all sorts of baked goods and makes friendly conversation with her. Pepper makes sure to tell her about the voice so that she can be safe, but later feels a bit bad for freaking her out. She goes to her house and gives her a bottle of honey and a small note to apologize.

Duocake comes to the village and Pepper tells them about the Sky Islands explosion. This is when Pepper learns that Duocake's tendency to change to a different person is a bit more prevalent than she once thought. She hadn't even noticed that Ghostcake wasn't there for the Islands explosion. Pepper tries not to worry about it too much.

A couple days later, Pepper sees someone in the lake near The Village. She goes over to him to make sure that he isn't trying to hurt anyone at The Village. After trying to strike her a couple times with lighting from his trident (and failing cos yknow...creative mode), Pepper finds out that he had gone to this village before everyone started living there. This raises a lot of questions, but the boy goes off before Pepper really gets much of a conversation with him.

## Journals

Pepper keeps a variety of journals to remind her of what she is standing for on this realm. Here are all her entries to them!

entry one -

im not entirely sure how to keep one of these. there was never any time to write about stuff before...but things seem a little less chaotic here, and ghostcake keeps some type of journal so...why not give it a try i guess. im not sure whats up with

ghostcake though...im not really sure whats up with anybody. it seems like no one knows...or no one wants to tell me. thats fine...i dont want to tell them everything about me either i guess. i dont even want to recount what happened. it all switched so fast... we were all having such a good time...at least thats what i thought. it doesnt matter anymore. its over and im not going back. i cant go back. this is my home now...for the time being, at least. i did see a little town on my way here...looks pretty abanoned though. i didnt even see this place last night. that horse and i went so far...i rested my eyes for a couple seconds and it was morning. i suppose it makes sense...i hadnt slept in a while, im surprised phantoms werent all over the place. as soon as i came into the place these three...people? some where ghosts i think...came down and greeted me. they all were staring at me...it was really confusing. theyre so friendly and welcoming...it puts me on edge. well...except one of them. ghost, i think was their name? they dont seem to them. they remind me of moss. i still miss him...he was the only real friend i had, and i sent him away. it was for the better...at least thats what ill keep telling myself. i can feel myself getting attatched to these people, as much as im trying to be wary. i dont want to be betrayed again. i dont trust me much. but the feelings pretty mutual. they do have a little pet sheep though. strawberrys their name. i really like them. they remind me of moss. i still miss him...he was the only real friend i had, and i sent him away. it was for the better...at least thats what ill keep telling myself. i can feel myself getting attatched to these people, as much as im trying to be wary. i dont want to be betrayed again. i dont think i can go through that again. there i go, talking about the past. i know its over, i just cant put it behind me. maybe living here will help me forget...if only i could be like ghostcake. they forget things a lot it seems...im still not really sure what happened to them earlier. they suddenly werent them anymore...it was confusing. then they come back and act like nothing happened. they do give nice hugs though...and these things called "happy." i like to keep it in my hand, although im not sure if it does much good. maybe i shouldnt have a home. i could just wander the world im sure theres a lot to see. i wouldnt get so attatched if i never stayed long enough in one place...one thing i guess im not all that attatched to is that horse i rode here. hes not even mine, i took him on my way out of the town...he just is another thing to remind me of the past. i wish i could get rid of him...but i cant stand the thought of sending away another animal...ugh, why do i keep doing this? its like every little thing reminds me of that darned place. i need to ask ghostcake their secret. maybe theres a potion or something. come to think of it, i dont know if id trust anything that these people gave me to eat. ghost tells me that this place is cursed...thats the one thing they said to me. i feel like i shouldnt be here...but who else is going to accept me? as much as traveling the world seems nice, i dont think i could do that my whole life. besides, i already have a nice house here built. maybe if i just dont talk to them that much...yeah, that sounds good. ill just stay in my house. no one can play with my emotions if i never give my emotions to them. thats all for now...until next time i suppose.

dont trust anyone, dont let them in. dont let them hurt you again.

-pepper

entry two -

i dont know i dont know i dont know

where am i

help help help help

if any more things can read this

help help help help

i was meant to escape

this was meant to be better than that place. the voice tells me im like them. im not. im not like them at all. they were ruthless...im not like them at all. i tried to get out of the islands to get rid of the voice...but it only followed me. a person named zixvir showed me the way back to the old village. i built a nice little house there....but a thing made of pure ink came and burnt it down....me and zixvir tried to put the fire out, but it was too late. im not sure about zixvir. the voice tells me that hes an evil being...thats why he got exiled from the village he brought me back to. maybe its right. i dont know who to trust anymore. everythings so complicated. i used to know who to trust...or at least who i thought i could trust...im not sure which is worse - not trusting anyone at all, or giving my trust easily and running the risk of being betrayed again. the voice tells me i cant trust anything. ghost told me the same thing...maybe theyre right. im not sure where i can go anymore. last night i was looking at the moon...that seems like a nice place to go. i wonder if i would be able to. if the voice would follow me there... or if zixvir would. he likes to hang around me...i dont need his help. i dont want his help. i dont want more people to become attatched to. if i push them all away...that only leaves more room for the voice. i never should have come here. i should have kept riding. and riding. and riding. until i made it to the farlands...i remmeber the stories about those places...a mythical land where the terrain reaches far above your head and where water and lava cascade down in a beatiful pattern...hm...there or the moon. either one. or maybe both. yea...i could have a house on the moon, and when i got bored, come back to the farlands. no voices could get me. i wouldnt need to worry about who to trust. the voice seems to have gone away for now...maybe me and zixvir were just having an off day. he said he could see the creature, too. we could have just been tired... i met someone named eevee as well. they said they were born in a lab...not the weirdest thing ive seen i suppose. we didnt talk much... i guess they seemed nice. man, i was really freaking out at the beggining of this haha...im sure i was just overreacting. everything seems fine now...it got really loud and chaotic though for a while... if it happens again, im at the sky islands, and people here must know something about this, right? this is the way it got into me...theyve got to be connected, im sure of it. im sure ghost would be the one to aks about that, they were the first ones to tell me to not trust anything around here. maybe ill write them a note....but what if interracting makes me attatched? theres way to much to be wary of, i cant keep up. trying to make one thing better runs the risk of making another thing worse. zixvir wanted to make a houe on wheels, so we could move it whenever the voice follows. but then i would have no one other than him....and im not sure if i can trust him so that makes me uneasy. no matter, im back here now at the islands, with people who might be able to help me...or betray me. either one... being wary against all these things is exhausting... im not even sure i should write in here anymore...the voice can read this thing. i dont need it to know more about me...if thats even possible. no, its not possible. its not possible because the voice isnt real. me and zixvir were probably just...hungry. theres nothing wrong, everythings fine. i was just imagining things... but it certainly felt real...

you are okay

- pepper

entry three -

i met the empress of the sky islands. she seems nice, her names green. she said the islands have a history...a story shes "not willing to tell". she must know something about the voices. about ghostcakes dissapearences, about where eevee came from, about who zixvir is, about anything. anything at all. someone must know SOMETHING. maybe this wouldnt be so stressful if i just knew one thing that was going on here. no one wants to tell me anything. and i know the only way to fix that is to gain their trust...but then id have to try and interract with them enough to get that trust. then once they have my trust and i have theirs...theyll pull the carpet right out from under me. theyll leave me hanging again, with no where to go. i feel so stuck. i need to have someone help me, but i dont want to ask for it because that would mean i would have to open myself up to them. that makes it so much easier for them to take advantage of me. maybe its worth a try to ask someone...just because im gathering information doesnt mean im making friends. i dont need to be all buddy-buddy, i just need to ask for advice. people do that to people who arent their friends, right? ill send green a note... a formal one. just the questions, nothing more...

talked to green. she agrees, this place is horrible. says she doenst know how she and the "original" people even got here. got washed up on a shore. she hears the voice too...i guess it really is real then. said that her murderer came back...polly was their name. she doesnt want to tell me anything about them, big surprise. how am i supposed to look out for myself when i dont know what to look out for? "trust no one", thats what they all say. thats what empress green said, thats what ghost said...the voice... how am i expected to live in a place where i have to remain vigilant at everything?? i snapped at the empress... i feel a bit bad about that. im just so sick of the secrets. i just want to know whats going on, but thats proving to be difficult between people not wanting to tell me things, and people not knowing whats going on here themselves. a new person just came up here...star their name is. empress green seems to really like them. they seem very protective...and i dont think theyve been here in a while. so many people, so many people i cant trust. i can still talk to people and not give them my trust...i can stay vigilant while not needing to hide from everyone. that would be impossible... i cant go back to the village, zixvir is still there and he seems really interested in helping me...i dont know how to tell him that by trying to help me and stick around, hes only making things worse. if someone has your back, it becomes practically impossible to not give them your trust. staying here, everyones so scared of each other, no one wants to be buddy-buddy with anyone...and theres no way to give my trust out to anyone if we just stick to forced formality. theres no way to be betrayed. maybe living here isnt as bad as i thought...people may be untrustworthy, but if we all think that, then no one will ever be betrayed. really makes you wonder why everyone is percieved as untrustworthy in the first place... i gave a gift to the empress, told her id help try and make things better here...and less cursed. just helping the cause, not making friends. only being formal, just trying to help. star is trying to make something... i wanted to help by giving them a sunflower but they seemed a little to wrapped up in what they were doing. the empress just mailed me a firework star in return for my gift...said that her letting me stay here is "just what an empress is suppoed to do" in response to my letter thanking her for letting me stay here. zixvir has come to the kingdom. empress green really does not seem to like him, which is fine by me. if hes not allowed to go here, and if i dont visit the village that often, theres no way he could try and make friends with me and no way i could be betrayed by him, especially considering he might be evil. empress green said that he traumitized her with something, so its clear that i should definetly stay aware of him. its nice to finnaly have a reason, other than just the voice telling me to stay away. does that mean then...that it was a forewarning? The voice was right...if he hurt the empress, he must be something evil...maybe i should listen to the voice. that woild mean that im becoming like the people in the old village then...ill need to stay aware of that. ill need to try and stop that from happening. star seems to be able to travel thru universes? again, not a surprise to me. they tried to cover it up...maybe that has something to do with the potion them, empress green, and eevee were trying to make. star doesnt seem mortal...she keeps trying to cover it up, but its pretty obvious. not that it matters, it doesnt put me off any more than any other thing on this horrid place. zixvir tried to shoot empress green. she pushed him off the side of the island my house is on...it got really scary for a moment. but i shouldnt care about that if im not friends with anyone, if im not attatched to anyone here. as soon as someone does one nice thing for me, i fear for anything bad to happen to them. i can hear eevee and star talking...something about the universe celestia. star thinks thats where she came from... so she isnt a mortal human, as much as she wants to convince us. i talked with zixvir. it seems that he was trying to save empress green from polly, then something bad happened. i still dont know who polly is, but they definetly dont seem like a good person... ghost got stuck in pollys body, empress green tells me. there was a cursed item that seperated ghost from polly...but i hear that pollys back now somehow... were going to try and transfer stars life into a book...her curse being that she can never die. if she "dies", she just goes to a new universe. shes sort of similar to me...betrayed by someone she thought she could trust...that just happened to be her father. helping these people is good, it means i dont need to be too friendly, i can fix the place, and i dont have to be hiding from everyone. just a favor to help the empire as a whole. not becoming attatched to people, just making the place better. if i prove i want to make this place better, they might trust to tell me more things...although i havent even told anyone my name yet...if they have something to call me by, we might become friendlier. its good to feel a part of something without needing to feel like i have to befriend everyone. i missed the feeling of being in a community. even if this place is a little worse for ware, ill be able to help and make it better. i dont know much about magic or spells, but star told me to just make sure she stays concious to finish the spell. i think i should be able to do that...i hope i will be able to. we tried the spell. empress green had to kill star to make sure it worked...i couldnt watch as that happened. everyone was so scared...but it actually worked! we were all so happy...i was more happy than i would care to admit, considering im not supposed to be friends with any of these people… empress green says to not trust anyone, but she certainly trusts star...maybe there are people you can trust... maybe i need to figure that out for myself, not just listen to a silly voice and a group of people living up here, people just as scared as i am... zixvir tells me not all is black and white. i suppose hes right about that, the more i stay here, the more my opinions change. one second someones the villain, the next theyre the hero. if heroes and villains even exist here, that is... zixvir did steal empress greens diary though, so id say hes looking like a villain right about now. i tried to help her find it, but we got attacked in the woods by a bunch of monsters, and i got sent back home by some...force. a force that always comes just in time to help, it seems. i suppose i cant complain, at least its a strange happening that actually helps me as opposed to harm me. i can hear empress green at her house, she says she got her diary back. thats good. prying eyes looking into your past is never fun...i would know im sure. maybe i could just let my guard down a little with some people... if im not supposed to trust anyone, then how can i trust that everyone here isnt being paranoid? people i like -

- star

- empress green

- ghostcake (when theyre normal, not the other version)

people i dont know if i like

- zixvir

- eevee

- ghost

- marrielle

- muriel

people i dont like -

- ghostcakes other version

- polly

just because i like people doesnt mean im friends with them, or i wont get attatched,or that i trust them. ill just be less stressed around them.

hopefully im doing the right thing

- pepper

entry four -

someone named muriel came today...i think that was their name. empress green doesnt seem to like them. the voice came back. its in my house right now...hasnt started talking yet. i just have to not listen...or listen to only a little. it seems like it might be able to tell the truth about some things...maybe it knows what on earth is going on here. maybe it could help me a little... the voice tells me that empress green is a monster that was trying to escape a "well-deserved demise". i asked the empress if she wa human...she said she was a monster from the nether. if she comes from that horrible place...no...no shes been nice to me. the voice tells me her actions make her a monster, not her species...i just asked what she did. maybe i should stop listening...this was a bad idea. i cant take other peoples word for things...but maybe i should. maybe the voice is trying to warn me... zixvir keeps following me. i know he just wants to protect me...but he doesnt need to be with me all the time. i might become friends with him if that happens... the voice killed zixvir. it actually killed him. i watched it. one second he was there, and the next… i couldnt even do anything. i just froze. i hate it. i hate the feeling. i hate the thought. its all my fault. if i warned him the voice could hurt.... but i was too stubborn! too wary! not trusting people hurts them...but trusting them might hurt me. people i trust -

- everyone

people i dont trust -

- the voice the voice the void the plague the horrible horrible horrible

\*the rest of the ink on the page is smudged with what seems to be tears\*

⏚⟒ ⍙⏃⍀⊬ ⍜⎎ ⏁⊑⟒ ⌿⟒⍜⌿⌰⟒ ⊑⟒⍀⟒ ⌿⟒⌿⌿⟒⍀, ⏁⊑⟒⊬ ⏃⍀⟒ ☊⎍⍀⌇⟒⎅ :)

-⏁⊑⟒ ⎐⍜⟟☊⟒

entry five -

the voice has made an entry in here it seems... i dont know what it said...but i know what i need to do now to keep people safe...besides, trusting people just means telling them what i know...i wont be faked out by them. i met someone new named el. they seem a little suspicious... particularly having to do with the empress. i hope they dont try to hurt her... the empress seems nice...she sees the voice too. the one person i can confide in and have her try and help me...i hear her yelling at the voice earlier. but were not friends. Just aquainted. ((FUNNY NUMBER FUNNY NUMBER HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAAA

i found a sign in the empresss castle from el saying that the empress should "watch her back" maybe el just wants to protect the empress...or theyre warning her about something theyre going to do... whatever happens, if someone wants to get to the empress, theyll have the entire empire against them. myself included.

dont let anyone get hurt again on your watch

- pepper

entry six -

the empress confided in me today...said the voice was telling her she was a monster. its interesting, considering it tried to tell me the same thing. i said id help her make the empire better, and she greatly appreciated that! she considers me her friend now i think...i dont think i like that... my last "friends" werent very great. and im sure it wont be the same this time...but can i really be certain? i dont want to be betrayed again. ill help, but i dont want to be roped in as a "friend". i know she needs the help, so im glad to try and get this place better, and to be able to make the empress feel better...she seems pretty down right now... i talked to ghost, they had zixvir give me a present from them and it was a little confusing...just an eye of ender. they took me away to somewhere private (away from the empress and ghostcake, who also came back today and gave me some more happy, which was nice!!) and told me that it had something to to with the voice. i told them all the things that had happened to me because of the voice, trying not to leave anything out so nothing like last time happened again... i also told them about the strange eye banners appearing all over the place. then ghostcake came up right behind us. it scared the heck out of me, but they did have one of the eye banners in their hand that i was talking about, so ghost could see them. ghost told me to burn the banners right away, saying that the voice could see through them... we all think that the voice has something to do with the end, what with the eyes and it speaking ender in my journal... i still should ask the empress about what it told me, i dont speak ender... but maybe its best not to know. I dont need more conflicting opinions, thats for certain. when we came back to the castle, the empress and el were fighting with each other. they were saying something about a deal...and how they couldnt kill one another. so i suppose i dont need to worry about the empress being in danger anymore...but im still confused...i told the empress id help her, but im not sure how i can help when i dont know what i need to help her with... i want to stay on her side, she likes my helping her, but there are so many other sides with people i also want to help that conflicts with hers. no one wants to hear anybody elses side of the story...thats the problem. everyone thinks they have everyone else all figured out - but they dont! if people just talked to each other for a little bit, told each other what was happening...its no wonder everyone says to not trust anyone. green wants the banners to stay...for whatever reason. ghost whispered to me and ghostcake while the empress and el where fighting that we would burn the banners, whether the empress likes it or not. i dont want to do anything against the empress… but what if ghost is right? i feel like im stuck in the middle... i didnt burn my banner, but i did remove it from above the bed and into a chest. maybe it cant see me like that... ghostcake says that polly gave them the banner, so maybe shed be able to help us... ghostcake also seems to not be doing very well right now... while the empress and el were fighting, they ran out coughing. ghost and i followed them, they were out by strawberry. they dropped a lot of their happy along the way... i asked them if they were sick, and they said they didnt think so... they gave me a book to read detailing all the times that this had happened to them before. it seems to happen for no reason, they just start to cough out yellow stuff, just like the happy they give everyone thats supposed to make people feel BETTER... at the end of the journal it had some writing that didnt look like ghostcakes...i can only imagine it was the other ghostcake...was arsoncake their name?? i dont know... ghostcake said they couldnt remember...their memeory was getting strained a lot it seemed... i would be lying if i didnt say that it was a bit discouraging that they can remember so little. i know it isnt their fault, its just...to have the only person who was there for those past events, and who im sure would want to share them, NOT remember them at all?? it sets us off the path a little... but its okay! i know they cant help it, and they always seem so sad when they cant remember, so i try not to get too upset. as we were talking, ghost fell from the side of the island.... im still not sure why they did that..it was scary. i thought i had failed again, i let someone else get hurt when i could have stopped it... i told ghostcake to go to sleep, that maybe that would make them feel better. they dont have a house here, so i offered to let them stay in mine. that was the reason why i took the banner down, i didnt want ghostcake to get hurt. i guess i shouldnt stay too near the house now whenever the voice comes... i dont think i would ever forgive myself if it killed someone else because of me. the voice didnt talk much today...it just asked what i was doing, and i told it to go away. im sure it just didnt feel like messing with me today...i doubt it will be gone for long. i left ghostcake to sleep and walked around outside...and i found ghost again. they were standing there completly fine!! they said they were sorry for scaring me. ghostcake woke up and was just as shocked as i was to see ghost. ghost told them that they revived themselves, and ghostcake didnt seem to pleased about that.. they said that they didnt want ghost to go away forever. then they talked about how much they missed polly. in their journal, it said that polly was one of their friends. so now i guess im not too sure what to think about her...everybody seems to think shes bad... i guess its just another story no one cares to listen to. ghost seemed uncomfortable by the whole talk, and for good reason, considering that them and polly used to be the same thing before they got seperated, if im understanding correctly? i dont think ghostcake knows that, though. ghost is convinced we need to go to the end if we want to stop the voice...a completly dangerous and rediculous mission, if you ask me! think about how many people could get hurt there!! ive never heard somebody go to the end and come back alive...although i suppose two thirds of out party isnt alive in the first place. i said that if we wanted to go to the end, wed need to tell empress green...and ghost didnt seem too fond of that idea. either way, they said that we defienlty cant go now, so i suppose its no use fussing over something that might not even happen...that HOPEFULLY doesnt happen... i guess if its the only way to get rid of the voice...it might be better just to one-and-done it than stand around paranoid whenever someone comes near me for fear theyll get hurt. zixvir is still trying to help me with the voice...he just wont go away no matter how many times i tell him!! i cant help but be reminded of moss every time i tell zixvir to get lost...

its for his own good

- pepper

entry seven -

everything turned to crap very quickly while i was out... i was just in the forrest, taking a walk...it was so peaceful...i guess i should have known better. looking back on it, it was way too good to be true that the voice didnt talk to me at all during that.. i got back and found everything destroyed, and the empress dead. now only her ghost remains...at least they seem nice... zixvir tells me that she died in an explosion while trying to kill who she thought was polly, but who really was just the voice... i told the empress id help her, she considred me as one of her friends, even. and all i did was let her die. it should have been me. i had all my lives...no one would have even cared if i lost one. whos supposed to run this place now?? zixvir told me that star runs it now, but he wasnt sure. star would make a good empress i think..shes seen other universes, she must have picked up some good tips on ruling, right? besides, she might even be able to revive the empress... at first i was thinking i could trade in one of my lives for the empresss...that was until i lost one of mine. three guesses what horrid thing took me out. how can i help other people if i cant even help myself? no one even wants to listen to me when i tell them to get lost...that person muriel kept trying to help earlier..i know he’s just trying to help me, but what would REALLY help is if i didnt have to constatnly tell everyone to go away whenever the voice comes. i hate pushing people away...it reminds me so much of doing the same thing to moss.. if it keeps them safe though, its all worth it. i met two new people today- clover was one of their names, the other one is warped. they both seem nice. clover knows stuff about the voice, which should be very useful for us! they agree - the end is our best bet to getting to the heart of the voice. im still scared about the idea...but if we prepare enough we might be able to make it out of there with at least one of our lives... warped gave me an interesting looking thing that had a note attatched to it saying it could "revive my friend". maybe that will be able to revive green...and i wouldnt need to lose any more of my lives. star said shed reasearch reviving people, hopefully shell find something. clover and warped are staying in my house..so now i have 3 guests staying in an already small house. theyll hopefully get their own houses soon, so it should be fine. zixvir is building a new part off of the island where their houses might be able to go. we all stood outside of my house for a bit and listened to cat on my jukebox...no one seemed to really be enjoying it much besides zixvir. clover seemed to get really tired partway through..i dont think theyre used to being around people. they said something about living alone in a cave..hopefully they like the people here. i think im going to start work on fixing this place up- patching up holes from the explosion, making everything look prettier...the place is a bit of a dump at the moment, considering weve all been too preoccupied with other, more pressing matters to care... i think its time we make it look nicer though, maybe thats the first step to making everything else okay here.

help wherever you can. dont let anyone down again. dont be like them.

- pepper

entry eight -

i fixed some of the holes down below. i think it looks really nice! warped even helped out- patching up the land and adding sugar cane around the pond. i made a little board with some stuff on it for how to make the sky islands a better place. i think its really going to come together! this place will be looking better in no time. clover seems a bit upset...she lashed out a bit at zixvir. they complained about how cramped the house is...hopefully them and warped can get their own places soon so they dont need to be squished in anymore. someone took the eye banner out of my chest...hopefully they wont do anything bad with it. i put all the rest of my important stuff in the enderchest, so no one can get it...unless they have access to magic, which most people here do.... well, i hope its safer? id like to think no one would steal from me...but i dont know how it just dissapeared like that. maybe its time i raise my guard just a little again...

be welcoming and helpful, but dont be an idiot. thats how they got you last time...protect yourself and them

- pepper

entry nine -

i made some rooms for all the many guests i have staying here now. hopefully it should be a little less cramped for everyone... and maybe people wont be so tempted to take my stuff if it isnt alway right in front of them. wapred and clover have been acting a little strange lately... especially clover. i havent asked if anythings up, i know i always like to be left alone when i feel upset... warped and i saw this stange hooded person walking around last night. i didnt get a good look at them, but warped tells me they had a sheild with an eye of ender on it... i know that could mean only one thing, as much as id like to believe everything is going fine.. the voice hasnt actully bothered me for a bit, and it seems like clover and warped arent being bothered by it either, which is nice. clover already knows about it..and i hope warped does too. i hope theyre careful...

- pepper

entry ten -

we figured out who the hooded figure was. not before they shoved me into lava, though. i was trying to figure out who they were...seeing if they would hurt anyone. i need to be more careful. i want to keep people safe, but its all too easy to lose my lives here. i need to start asking people to help me help others. like when warped and i went throgh the forest together to follow the hooded person. it was a little scary, i was worried they would get hurt along the way and i wouldnt be able to help again, but everything turned out fine. i did get sent back while i was surrounded by mobs, leaving warped in the forest by themselves. i started freaking out a little, but when going back to the forest i ran into the hooded figure, and warped caught up a bit after. the big reveal ended up being clover, which does make a little sense considering i saw them leave the islands before seeing the hooded person, and clover was acting strange.. i kind of blew up at clover...and im not sure if im really sorry for that yet. everythings just been so much lately...im still getting over those idiots i called my "friends", empress greens death, zixvir getting killed by the voice, the voice following me around and absolutly no one listening when i tell them to go away so they dont get hurt, ghostcake being sick, something wrong with star that she cant tell me or else her dad will kill her, me losing my first life, its all so much. getting burned by clover and hearing that clover killed warped was the tipping point...and i would be lying if i didnt say it felt really good to just let myself be angry up front at the people who hurt me. clover cant control their "true form", as they call it. they told us all to get out of their room, and after i scolded them for trying to kick me out of my own house, they told me that they would rather not accidently kill more people. zixvir had come inside at this point, and i tried to get him out, but he didnt listen..no real surprise. he wants to try and make all of us sleep better...clover has been sleeping a lot, warped doesnt sleep i think because theyre from the nether, and i dont sleep because the voice always speaks to me so much loader when im asleep. hes convinced there must be something to block dreams...maybe hes right, but we have bigger things to deal with right now than sleep. i know hes just trying to help though, and i appreciate that,,,unless its just a ploy to betray me at the last minute. cant let my guard down again. i took down the sign on the community board about trying to trust people...i dont think its a safe idea for everyone anymore.

help people, but never trust them

- pepper

entry eleven -

i hate it here.

i set it free.

i need to go.

im only putting them in danger.

- pepper

entry twelve -

theres going to be a party today. the invite seems a little ominous... i think im just becoming wary of everything. itll probably be fine...right? either way, warped and i are leaving this place soon...it doesnt matter anymore what happens to it. i dont care. warped tells me this party is a trap. that only confirms what i thought. gotta be careful. gotta keep the people i like safe.

its all gone.

i dont care.

or maybe i do.

i got this feeling while i was looking at the place being blown up. looking at the water dripping down. at the items falling below. between the sadness, the betrayal...i wanted to blow it up, too. i wanted to take a pickaxe and destroy it all. let it all go. i wanted to tear down that huge tree. I wanted to rip it all to shreds. i tore down the signs and started to craft an axe...but ghostcake was upset and i wanted to try and make them feel better so i needed to stop... they ran off------

where am i?

its really cold

the branches hurt

im gone

its getting louder

this cycle is just going to continue. ill keep being killed by the voice, and ill keep being revived by the voice right after. if only zixvir would get lost. i dont care what happens to me. i just dont want anyone else getting hurt because of me.

i cant hurt anyone when im dead.

i cant help anyone when im alive.

im tired of pretending to be the hero i could never be.

- pepper

entry thirteen -

i live in the nether now. away from everyone. no ones here, which is good. its pretty dangerous here...there are a lot of blazes and ghasts. a ghast just shot a fire ball at me from inside my house- i really need to get some windows in here.

- pepper

entry fourteen -

someones at the door. i hope they leave. i dont want to hurt them.

i left this book outside my house. it mustve gotten shot at by a blaze - it was on fire when i found it. thank goodness none of the pages were badly burned. i need to be more careful. This book is the only thing i have to remind me on how to keep them safe.

- pepper

entry fifteen -

im still not sure how i feel about the islands being blown up. ive had a lot of time to replay the explosion over and over again in my mind. while it happened it hurt. it hurt a lot. to see my new home get destroyed just like my last one. to feel betrayed all over again by someone i thought was my friend. i knew clover wouldnt come around, but the fact that warped knew something about the explosion, and didnt tell me..i really thought i could have trusted them. ive forgiven them, not that it matters much considering im never going to see them again. after i jumped down from the islands, just watching it get destroyed...well, you know how that went. i was so upset and angry and hurt. i told myself i wouldnt get hurt by something like that again..and i guess i couldnt help it. but then afterwards..i didnt really care. i never liked that place, so what was the big deal if it was gone now? it didnt matter to me before the party, so why would it matter any more to me now? but now...now im not sure how i feel. im not sure if i still dont care, im not sure if i want to go back to the scattered remains and destroy all the rest of the ruins, or if i want to sit down here on the floor of my new, empty, and lifeless house and just cry. its very lonely here...which is a good thing in most regards. i cant get hurt by people who dont exist, and i cant hurt those people either. i do miss stepping outside of my little house on the island and seeing empress green on her throne, having zixvir propose some crazy plan to me, giving ghostcake sunflowers, going over to see strawberry, getting to talk with warped about how things were going... that third option sounds really good right about now..

- pepper

entry sixteen -

is everyone just gravitated toewards this place?? its so far from spawn, and yet EVERYONE comes here ALL the time.

.....

i think

i think im not very fond of this

..

i can make anything

break anything

i dont need food

......

but i dont like this.

it feels so weird.

i dont like this.

entry seventeen -

im still not used to this...i came back home to find a little girl sleeping on the floor. i was a little mean to her...i just am a little tired of people here not being able to //read// or //listen//. she went through a portal into this weird library thing. i talked to her for a bit...she seems really nice...unfortunetly. just another person im going to hurt. the voice was right, i just keep coming back to people. im never going to learn. i dont even care about whats going on in that library, i dont care about anything anymore. why do i just keep coming back to people??

THIS IS SO STUPID!!

....

............

are you okay :c

....

..........

what?

its gone.

whatever, whats one more voice in my head going to do to me.

i dont care.

- pepper

entry eighteen -

i was forced back to the overworld by the voice. i guess i shouldnt be surprised. went back to the sky islands ruins...its so overgrown now. there are trees and vines everywhere...i can still see the ruins of my house. north (thats what i found out that girls name was), marielle (the person who gave me "the power"), and polly where up there... for all the bad things i heard about her....she seems nice. the reason the voice brought me here was so i could find out what really happened to green...and it wasnt pollys fault what happened. it wasnt anyones fault. it was //never// anyones fault, not even clovers. not even mine. the only things fault it is is that voice. and polly and i are going to make sure everyone knows it. might be a little hard...considering everyone wants her dead...but if people just //listen// for one in their lives, listen to all sides of the story. its almost ironic...emperess green was the one who believes so strongly in sccounting for all sides, yet she seems like shes still blind to any side thats not hers... that all needs to change. i need to do the one thing i told myself i would do...all those months ago. im done hiding. im done being a coward.

i need to get everyone to trust each other

- pepper

entry nineteen -

am i doing the right thing? i feel like this is going to end in me running away again. ...this is the right thing, right? it has to be....

that little girl from before visited the islands with another little kid. the new kid seems nice. they accidently pushed me off the side of the island, but it didnt hurt, of course. they felt really bad afterward and i said it was okay. the first kid is very blunt...she made me a little sad..but shes just a kid. i got a little nasty at her...i need to try and calm down. all the fightings over, no need to be sour about it.

## Other Info.

* Pepper doesn't talk about her life before the realm much, but she supposedly got her house burned down by the people she was living in her village with. No one's ever seen any evidence of this village...are we even sure it ever existed in the first place?
* Pepper has a room hidden somewhere that she plans to go to if and when the voice comes to her again. She plans to never tell anyone of it's existence or location.