Daggers

"**Daggers**" is an unreleased song by Ellise. The song was scrapped from Ellise's debut studio album, Chaotic. The song's existence was confirmed when Ellise took a screenshot of her files with blurred titles and posted it on her Instagram Story with blurred titles. At the bottom of the screen, the title "Daggers by Ellise" can be seen.

## Song Leakage

* April 22nd, 2019 - A 15 second snippet of the song is posted on Twitter.
* April 26th, 2019 - The song is performed live.
* August 2nd, 2021 - A watermarked snippet of the song is leaked.
* August 3rd, 2021 - The previous snippet is leaked in higher quality.
* December 21st, 2022 - The second version of the song is leaked via Discord.
* December 21st, 2022 - The demo of the song is leaked via Discord.

## Theme

The song is about Ellise being in a dysfunctional relationship that she has strange mixed feelings about; she is not sure if she hates the relationship or loves it.

## Lyrics

* Demo
* V2

**[Verse 1]**

Don't like counting my steps, but I like where I'm going

And you like when I show you all of the ways that I'm making you feel so alive

And I know I'm a wreck, while you're picking me roses

'Cause you love when I'm broken

Long as we're killing each other, we'll never die

**[Pre-Chorus]**

Even when I'm afraid, I can't push you away

Your hands are so cold, when you touch me, I'm frozen

And how long 'till we break, when we love like a game

Our hearts on our sleeves come with daggers to hold them

**[Chorus]**

I know what I owe myself

I don't ask for help

'Cause I'm where I wanna be

I don't have to recognize the demons in his eyes

When they're what I wanna see

**[Post-Chorus]**

'Cause I know what I want

And I know what I got

Yeah, I know what I want

Oh, and I know what I got

**[Verse 2]**

You can take me to hell, if you tell me it's heaven

I won't even regret it

All of your words sound like sugar, it should be a crime

And I laugh to myself (myself)

No one else understands it (no)

And I bet you can't stand

The way that you hate and love me at the same time

**[Pre-Chorus]**

Even when I'm afraid, I can't push you away

Your hands are so cold, when you touch me, I'm frozen

And how long 'till we break, when we love like a game

Our hearts on our sleeves come with daggers to hold them

**[Chorus]**

I know what I owe myself

I don't ask for help

'Cause I'm where I wanna be

I don't have to recognize the demons in his eyes

When they're what I wanna see

**[Post-Chorus]**

'Cause I know what I want

And I know what I got

Yeah, I know what I want

Oh, and I know what I got

**[Chorus]**

I know what I owe myself (I know, I know myself)

I don't ask for help (I don't ask for help)

'Cause I'm where I wanna be (I'm where I wanna be)

I don't have to recognize the demons in his eyes (in his eyes)

When they're what I wanna see

**[Post-Chorus]**

'Cause I know what I want

And I know what I got

Yeah, I know what I want

Oh, and I know what I got

All of your words sound like sugar, it should be a crime

**[Verse 1]**

All of your words sound like sugar, it should be a crime

Don't like counting my steps, but I like where I'm going

And you like when I show you all of the ways that I'm making you feel so alive

And I know I'm a wreck, while you're picking me roses

'Cause you love when I'm broken

Long as we're killing each other, we'll never die

**[Pre-Chorus]**

Even when I'm afraid, I can't push you away

Your hands are so cold, when you touch me, I'm frozen

And how long 'till we break, when we love like a game

Our hearts on our sleeves come with daggers to hold them

**[Chorus]**

I know what I owe myself

I don't ask for help

'Cause I'm where I wanna be

I don't have to recognize the demons in his eyes

When they're what I wanna see

**[Post-Chorus]**

'Cause I know what I want

And I know what I got

Yeah, I know what I want

Oh, and I know what I got

**[Verse 2]**

You can take me to hell, if you tell me it's heaven

I won't even regret it

All of your words sound like sugar, it should be a crime

And I laugh to myself (myself)

No one else understands it (no)

And I bet you can't stand

The way that you hate and love me at the same time

**[Pre-Chorus]**

Even when I'm afraid, I can't push you away

Your hands are so cold, when you touch me, I'm frozen

And how long 'till we break, when we love like a game

Our hearts on our sleeves come with daggers to hold them

**[Chorus]**

I know what I owe myself

I don't ask for help

'Cause I'm where I wanna be

I don't have to recognize the demons in his eyes

When they're what I wanna see

**[Post-Chorus]**

'Cause I know what I want

And I know what I got

Yeah, I know what I want

Oh, and I know what I got

**[Chorus]**

I know what I owe myself (I know, I know myself)

I don't ask for help (I don't ask for help)

'Cause I'm where I wanna be (I'm where I wanna be)

I don't have to recognize the demons in his eyes (in his eyes)

When they're what I wanna see

**[Post-Chorus]**

'Cause I know what I want

And I know what I got

Yeah, I know what I want

Oh, and I know what I got

## Video

* Snippet 1 & 2
	+ Ellise - Owe Myself - (ALL SNIPPETS)Live performance of second verse, and the studio snippet of the pre-chorus and chorus from the demo version of the song
* Snippet 3
* Snippet 3 (HQ)

## Cross-References

* The line "The demons in his eyes" references Bruises.

## Trivia

* In the leaked demo, "all of your words sound like sugar, it should be a crime" is the last lyric, while in version 2 it is the first lyric.
* This song is currently the only of Ellise's songs that contains its title within the lyrics to not say the title in the chorus.

## References

2. ↑ https://twitter.com/ellise/status/1120163993815961601?s=20
3. ↑ https://twitter.com/510shawty/status/1122237507058331648
4. ↑ https://leaked.cx/threads/ellise-daggers.42494/
5. ↑ https://leaked.cx/threads/ellise-daggers.42746