Lorn and Torn

**Lorn and Torn** Is the sixth chapter in the first INFINITY book.

## Synopsis

*"Cosmo decides to catch up with Izzy, only for her to dive deep into her previous love lives"*

## Transcript

Cosmo walked around for a few minutes and finally caught sight of Izzy walking around a corner. She ran after her, turning the corner, seeing her enter a door. She opened the door, seeing her alone in the large room.

"Izzy, what are you doing in here?"

Cosmo asked, seeing Izzy stop and tense up, before standing straight again.

"Oh, thought maybe, you'd follow me, and it worked"

Izzy said, walking up to her. Cosmo thought about her tactic and how it worked so well.

"Well, you have me here, what are you planning"

She said teasingly. Izzy chuckled, getting in arms reach of her.

"Well, since Buzz separated us back there, thought I'd try again at making an impression"

She said, seeing Cosmo cover her mouth and laugh.

"Trust me, when I first say you, you already peaked my interest"

Cosmo said confidently, walking past her.

"Wow, okay. Guess I don't have to fight a giant monster to impress you"

Cosmo stopped, her eyes widening.

"You know what, you don't. I should be the one trying to Impress you"

She replied, Izzy choking a snort and covering her mouth.

"I never felt my heart leap like that"

Izzy stated, Cosmo walking close to her, their eyes meeting.

"It seems I can say anything to make you flustered"

Izzy snorted louder, her cheeks becoming warm.

"Y-Yess"

Izzy muttered. She was so close she could, touch her, but her inner feeling were so close to bursting out.

"C-Cosmo, are you always like this with the ladies?"

Cosmo chuckled, stroking a finger on her cheek.

"When she interests me, yes, other than other woman, not really"

Izzy smiled slightly, feeling like she was on that level of attractive woman that catch her eye.

"However, I have had my fair share of romantic relationships with women"

Cosmo added, her expression changing, a frown appearing over her lips.

"I'll start at the beginning"

She began. sitting down on a wooden box.

"I was a young teenager in the military, 18 years old"

She began, resting her shoulders on her thighs.

"I was doing my usual rounds on the ship. As a solder, you have to be sharp, not one mess up, or you're getting swamped. However, upon getting back to base on land, I saw her"

**-FLASHBACK-**

Cosmo stared at the woman, her black braids, tattoos that covered her skin, she looked like something out of a comic book.

"She was the most gorgeous girl I had ever seen. Never, had a woman taken my breath away like she did"

The girl walked pasted her, their eyes meeting for what seemed like an eternity, before it was over in a split second.

"She was all I could think about when I got back home. Buzz continued to question me, why the heck I was acting so strange"

"Sis?"

The boy said, his sister snapping back to reality.

"Are you alright, you've been acting weird since you got home"

He said, seeing her poking at her food.

"Oh, no… I was… I'm alright, just got lost in thought"

She said nervously, her brother not falling for her excuse.

"Yeah… I don't believe you"

He said, rolling his eyes at her, forking a piece of his steak.

"Alright, so I like this girl I saw back at the base"

Buzz grinned and chuckled to himself.

"Yeah, go get her sis"

He cheered, seeing her cover her face.

"Bro, you're only 15, stop that!"

She scolded, seeing him cover his mouth, laughing.

"I may be 15, but I know what a girl can do to a person"

Buzz said, waving his fork at her.

"Yeah, but you're too young to understand at my perspective"

She remarked, cutting a piece of her steak and eating it.

"Is she pretty?"

He asked, raising a brow.

"Bro, come on, drop it, let's eat dinner and watch your favorite movie, for the 12th time in a row"

Buzz cheered and he resumed eating. They sat down on the couch, watching her brother's favorite movie. She wondered how this movie could keep him occupied for hours on end. Now too old for a babysitter, Buzz could take care of himself with help from their neighbors, of course. When nighttime rolled around, Buzz and Cosmo brushed their teeth, went into him room and talked for a few minutes before she tucked him in and kissed his forehead.

"I love you, bro. To the moon and back"

She said, leaning against his door frame.

"Love you too, sis"

He said, before she closed his door. Laying in her bed, she looked back on her encounter, her brown eyes and how they sparkled. She felt butterflies in her stomach as she turned on her side, hoping to fall asleep to ignore the feeling.

**-END OF FLASHBACK-**

Izzy stared at Cosmo, her blue eyes becoming glazed over.

"Long story short, we eventually made small talk and got to know one another, but…we never actually started dating, we were always too busy to get to that stage"

She said, feeling that familiar feeling.

"A month before I would transfer to Star Command, she decided to leave, as her father had gotten ill. I told her I would join her, but she-"

She stopped, feeling tears freely flow down her cheeks.

"Told me to stay and achieve my dreams. It wasn't fair for her to leave, and I join her, it wasn't right"

Izzy felt guilt erupt inside her gut. She never knew that she was carrying this much baggage, specially for a woman so strong.

"I- am so sorry you dealt with that"

Cosmo sniffled and looked over at her, her gut tightening, making her stomach hurt.

"Don't…because I fell in love with another woman, her name was Wilde. She was a Ranger, the toughest of them all"

She explained, her eyes still flowing with tears.

"Her and me, hit it off. She liked me first, and I must have fueled the fire. One thing led to another and 2 weeks later, she was my girlfriend"

Izzy felt weak in her knees, but shrugged it off.

"It wouldn't take long until we were together for a good solid 5 months, then I proposed to her. She was so happy, she tackled me down"

She said, wiping away her tears, smiling to herself.

"She put the ring on and said, we would be the cutest married couple in Star Command"

Her smile faded, her frown reappearing.

"That all changed 2 months later"

-FLASHBACK-

"Are you SERIOUSLY going out there!"

Wilde said, her brows furrowed, watching her fiancé pack her dufflebag.

"Like I'm not going to go, my brother is the Captain, he needs me"

Cosmo replied, putting her essentials in.

Wilde rolled her eyes and crossed her arms.

"I may not have been up in space, but it is dangerous out there. What if I never see you again?"

She exclaimed, Cosmo stopping to look at her.

"Wilde"

She said, reaching out for her, but Wilde recoiled.

"Don't…touch me"

She demanded, seeing Cosmo recoil her arm back.

"You are making a big mistake. If you leave, I don't want anymore to do with you. You can say goodbye to this dream wedding we had planned"

She added, walking out of her room, slamming the door behind her, making Cosmo wince.

Wilde stomped down the hallway, toward the meeting room, strutting in like she were on the runway.

"Lightyear, I hope you're happy, your sister plans on going on this expedition. You have ruined my life, thanks a lot!"

She exclaimed, stomping out of the room, everyone turning to Buzz, who shook his head.

Cosmo packed the rest of her things before a knock came at her door.

"Go away, Wilde, you already said what you had to say"

She said, annoyed. A voice replied, which made her stop again.

"It's me, sis. Open up"

She looked over at the door, and opened it.

"Come in"

She said, seeing him walk in and see her bag.

"Are you sure you want to come?"

Buzz asked, seeing Cosmo continue packing.

"Yes and you can't tell me otherwise"

He nodded, seeing her stuff things in her bag.

"So, is it true that-"

She cut him off, finishing his sentence.

"Yes, she broke up with me. Another relationship I'll never recover from"

She said, rubbing her head.

**-END OF FLASHBACK-**

Izzy stared, feeling distraught at her story.

"She meant the world to me, yet… I chose family, over her"

She said, wiping tears away for the fourth time.

"I remember boarding the Turnip and seeing her eyes on me from the window. She stared me down, thinking if I'd turn back and rejoin her back down there. However, when the countdown began, she knew I wasn't coming back"

She said, bringing her knees up to her chest.

"We took off, and could feel my heart break, knowing I indeed wouldn't see her for a long time. When we crash-landed on this planet, I knew I would never see her again, not that it mattered"

She added, taking her hair out of her two chopsticks.

"She gave me these chopsticks, she bought these for me at a convention and I love them, they are all I have left of her"

She explained, holding the chopsticks in her hand, clenching them tight. Izzy wanted to pour herself out to her, but her brain said no, yet her heart said, "go for it".

"U-Umm, could I maybe confess about something?"

She said, trying not to embarrass herself.

"W-Well, umm…"

She began, trying to make up a sentence in her head, yet it always came out sounding weird. Cosmo stared at her, her expression slowly changing from sadness to admiration, which confused her. An eternity passed before Cosmo made the first move, placing a kiss on her cheek, leaving her without a word to say next.

"Thank you for listening to me, I needed this heart-to-heart conversation, makes me feel closer to you, like I was with Wilde"

Izzy had been completely defeated, with just a kiss. It made her melt.

"I… I-I"

She tried to make a sentence, but the kiss came back, almost like she was replaying it.

"Izzy, if you have anything to say, just out with it. because I ain't going to turn away, when I believe that you're the one"

Cosmo said, cupping her face. Izzy looked into her eyes, seeing them sparkle, yet they were in a dark warehouse.

"Well…"

She began again, Cosmo scoffing to herself, before closing the distance between them once more. Izzy let a sequel escape her throat, drowning into the moment before they parted. Their eyes met, leaving Izzy's heart to leap up her throat.

"I swear, you're the most adorable woman I ever met. You're so easily flattered and become nervous and awkward, which is cute"

Cosmo said, letting go of her face. Izzy had no words to say, that feeling being all she could think about.

"Now, I need to go talk to my brother, I'll catch you around, babe"

Cosmo said, putting her hair back up in a bun, getting up from the crate and walking out of the warehouse, leaving her to collect all of her feelings.

*"Did, she just kiss me?"*

She asked herself, getting up and walking out of the warehouse, feeling a breeze brush her face. She closed her eyes, thinking about the kiss over and over again, making her heart skip a beat. Cosmo walked down the hallway and grabbed her card, sliding it in the slot, a button changing color. She walked into Buzz's room, seeing him sitting down at the table still.

"Hey, so I talked to Izzy"

She said, walking over, patting his shoulder.

"And, How'd it go?"

He asked, seeing her sit down on his bed.

"Her and I talked about my previous relationships. She listened all the wat through to the end…then I kissed her… I don't know what I was thinking"

Buzz stared at her and cheered, scaring her.

"Wow, that takes guts"

He asked ecstatically, seeing her nod.

"Tell me about it, I was feeling bitter and thought that kissing her would make me forget about Wilde, which worked, I'm over her now"

She said, grabbing the chopsticks out of her hair, it flowing down her shoulders. She stared down at them before throwing them down on the floor. Buzz watched as them clanked on the floor before the room went silent again, a smile appearing across her lips. The two shared smiles, before he stood up, hugging her tightly. Cosmo, returned the hug, feeling all her closeted feelings just fall off her shoulders.