Everything I Wanted (Song)

## "everything i wanted"

"**Everything I Wanted**", stylized as "**everything i wanted**" and originally titled "**nightmare**" is a song by American singer-songwriter Billie Eilish, featured as the fourth track on her sophomore studio album, *DREAMS ARE NOT REAL*. It was released on November 13, 2019 as the first and lead single.

## Background

The song was first mentioned by Billie on her Instagram story on November 6, 2019, when she stated that she would be releasing a single in the following week to make up for the long wait for her *Vanity Fair* issue.

On November 10, 2019, Billie revealed the single's title, release date, and cover art. On November 12, a day before its release, she teased a 12-second snippet of the track on Instagram.

## Theme

Lyrically, the song describes Billie's experience in the music industry, and how she feels pressured to cater to the demands of her fans. She ponders whether or not she would have chosen to be an artist if she knew about the pros and cons beforehand. It is also a tribute to Billie's brother and collaborator, Finneas O'Connell.

In a interview with *Seventeen*, Billie stated that the theme was inspired by a dream she had. She stated, "We started writing it because I literally had a dream that I killed myself and nobody cared and all of my best friends and people that I worked with basically came out in public and said, like, "Oh, we never liked her." In the dream, the fans didn’t care. The internet shit on me for killing myself, all this stuff, and it really did mess me up."

## Lyrics

**[Verse 1]**

I had a dream

I got everything I wanted

Not what you'd think

And if I'm bein' honest it might've been a nightmare

To anyone who might care

Thought I could fly (fly)

So I stepped off the Golden, mm

Nobody cried (cried)

Nobody even noticed

I saw them standing right there

Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I had a dream

I got everything I wanted

But when I wake up I see

You with me

**[Chorus]**

And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you"

Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to

If I could change the way that you see yourself

You wouldn't wonder why you hear, "They don't deserve you"

**[Verse 2]**

I tried to scream

But my head was underwater

They called me weak

Like I'm not just somebody's daughter

Coulda been a nightmare

But it felt like they were right there

And it feels like yesterday was a year ago

But I don't wanna let anybody know

'Cause everybody wants something from me now

And I don't wanna let 'em down

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I had a dream

I got everything I wanted

But when I wake up I see

You with me

**[Chorus]**

And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you"

Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to

If I could change the way that you see yourself

You wouldn't wonder why you hear, "They don't deserve you"

**[Outro]**

If I knew it all then, would I do it again?

Would I do it again?

If they knew what they said would go straight to my head

What would they say instead?

If I knew it all then, would I do it again?

Would I do it again?

If they knew what they said would go straight to my head

What would they say instead?

## Trivia

* The song's artwork was created by Jason Anderson.
	+ It is a painting of the Golden Gate Bridge, which is also mentioned in the song's lyrics.
* Billie's older brother, Finneas, is featured in the music video.
* The song's music video opens with a message from Billie saying "finneas is my brother and my best friend. no matter the circumstance, we will always have and always will be there for each other."
* In certain parts of the video, the lights in the background match up with some of the beats in the music.
* As of August 2020, the song has peaked at number 4 on the Billboard 100 'Top 100' chart.

## Media

### YouTube

Billie Eilish - everything i wantedBillie Eilish - everything i wanted (Audio)

## References

1. ↑ https://www.nme.com/news/music/billie-eilish-releasing-new-songs-xanny-music-video-2564463
2. ↑ https://www.nme.com/news/music/billie-eilish-announces-new-music-everything-wanted-released-2566505
3. ↑ https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/billie-eilish-everything-i-wanted-911797/
4. ↑ https://www.seventeen.com/celebrity/music/a29798191/billie-eilish-everything-i-wanted-finneas/
5. ↑ https://twitter.com/Jason\_FineArt/status/1193997208900841472
6. ↑ https://www.instagram.com/p/B7skq8TJXOx/?igshid=1tysfpz0k0trg