Chapter 115: I Want To Open Up About It

**I Want To Open Up About It** is the one-hundred-and-fifteenth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Kyoutarou walks into his home after school, and is greeted by his mother, while Kana plays on her guitar, unable to hear him due to headphones. He recalls Yamada asking him if he told their family about their relationship, and he wonders how one even goes about doing that. Suddenly Kana notices him, and welcomes him, and, lost in thought, asks her if she would tell them if she got a boyfriend. She reacts blank-faced, and asks him why he thinks that would be the case, and he replies that she's never said anything about one. Their mother, who had been listening in on the conversation, offers taht she's never had one, to which she loudly replies "Mom!" and goes into a rant about being a Tokyo college girl. Kyoutarou leaves the room, considering the whole exchange to be creepy, and wishing he hadn't asked.

In his room he realizes that this isn't a big deal, and wants to look over the paper he made with Yamada's confession. He suddenly realizes that it's not in the place he left it, and is instead on top of his desk, when he thought he put it under a book or in a drawer. He panics, thinking it may have been seen, and walks back downstairs to try and confirm. His mother gives him a look, then says that they're having curry for supper. When he stops moving, Kana asks what is wrong, and he tries to play things casual, saying he's beat and sitting on the couch. He loudly announces that he's been writing lyrics to a song, hoping to potentially throw them off his trail, and talks about how using a small amount of words can help develop a style. Kana becomes super interested in this, and brings up her own paper pad, saying she's been stuck on the lyrics for a song for her band this summer. He looks over the lyrics, and calls them cheesy, and she begs to take a peek at his lyrics. He denies her eight times as she begs for some inspiration, even as she goes so far as to start crying, and saying how little experience she has. He asks if she has even less than a middle-schooler, and she agrees, so he relents, leading her to his room as she says she won't do anything bad. He considers how this may be his chance to tell her about him and Yamada, as she makes a dash for his desk, and looks over her confession. He jumps at her, trying to make excuses, while she gushes over how direct this apparent love song is, and he buries his face in his pillow in embarrassment. Suddenly, a lightbulb goes off over Kana's head, blinding him, and she begins overflowing with inspiration, and she begins running out of the room. She stops, suddenly, and pulls out a pair of tickets to hand to her brother. She tells him that a friend's band is doing a live show in Shimokita, and while he initially turns her down, he realizes that there are two tickets, and she winks at him before leaving the room.

Now alone, he laments over the fact that he wasn't able to tell his sister, but turns his attention to the idea of a live show and inviting Yamada. He considers if this could be their first date, and is immediately glared at by the two Nigorikawas. He calls up Yamada, feeling uneasy, and she answers, saying that she is making Gyoza, and will have to talk on speaker phone. He apologizes for calling her at a busy time, but his attempts at talking with her are cut short by the three Yamadas bickering about the size of the Gyoza. She apologizes, and says that they're done, now, and he declares that he wants to talk to her about something, with her saying it's fine. Thinking that he should do this before a proper date, he clarifies that he means he wants to talk with her along with her parents.

## Trivia

Based off his mother's reactions in various panels, it seems likely that she noticed the confession he wrote down, as she is staring at him in several panels. In the original Japanese, her comment about curry also incorporates "Kareshi," the Japanese word for boyfriend.