Chapter 39: I Had A Dream

**I Had A Dream** is the thirty-ninth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Ichikawa is having a fever dream where he keeps seeing Yamada, who changes sizes from as big as a building to as small as a mouse. He wakes up uneasily, and heads downstairs, concluding that he got sick from being out in the rain, and lamenting that his dream with Yamada couldn't have been something sexier, but is at least relieved that he got to stay home from school. He makes himself a drink and sits on the living room couch, but is interrupted by the electronic doorbell. He tries to ignore it, but it keeps ringing, making him angry, so he decides to check it out. He sees Yamada's face just as she turns to leave, and quickly stomps up to open the door. He spots her and calls out, and she brightens up and returns to him. She explains that they were having a strawberry bavarois for lunch at school, and she wanted to make sure he didn't miss out. She apologizes, saying it was her fault that he got soaked, but he says it was his for forgetting his raincoat. They discuss how far she has to walk home, and she begins to depart, but he stops her at the last second and nervously invites her inside for a cup of tea, and she accepts. Hardly believing what he's done, he leads her inside.

He tries to make some tea, despite his panic, and tells her he's going to go change clothes while the tea is on. He heads upstairs as his breathing becomes more labored, and while searching through his drawer for a shirt, his vision turns blurry and he passes out.

Yamada, downstairs, hears the tea go off, and, concerned, goes upstairs to check on him when he doesn't answer her call. She finds him in his room, collapsed on his open drawer, and, fretting, helps him to his bed despite his half-conscious complaints. She tries to help him into a shirt, but he falls onto her shoulder, too weak to keep himself up. Now believing he is dreaming, he feels the sensation of Yamada around him as she embraces him, but concludes that this dream doesn't have anything about her getting bigger or smaller.

He awakes later, seeing a figure and thinking it is Yamada, but it is actually his sister, home early. He reacts with disgust at her loving greeting, and asks himself when the dream began regarding Yamada. Kana then brings out the strawberry bavarois, saying it was in the living room, so he concludes that she must have actually come over. Yamada asks about a friend, and produces a note from Yamada, apologizing and telling him to "cheer up soon."

* A bonus page is an advertisement for a clear folder drawing in an issue of Young Champion Magazine. Ichikawa is concerned that the contents may be perverted, because of the cover, but Yamada seems interested in seeing it.

## Trivia

* Ichikawa's mother is confirmed to have a part-time job here.

* Yamada not only puts a shirt on him (and messes up the button placement), but actually changes his pajama pants, as the design changes once he passes out again.

* When she embraces him, his forehead compress gets stuck to her cardigan, as seen in the cover page.

* The note she leaves seems to have been folded into a heart, but then smoothed out.