Cereza Apis

Cereza Apis is the main protagonist of Cerazus.

She is a member of the Occult Club and secretly a part of DAAT

e unofficial DAAT.

INTJ-T, The Architect

Contradictory.

Hopeful Pessimist can stack every little thing against someone (white lies, petty crimes, hiding beliefs for social gain) and view them as a bad person with that as her evidence. Needs evidence to validate her own emotions even if evidence is unfair and, itself, knowingly based on emotions.

Untrusting of most and of herself, constantly second guessing her own thoughts and thinking she's wrong. Her own development and changing beliefs as she's learned more with age has made her feel decieved by her own feelings and thoughts.

Looks down on herself, punishes herself without reason and can avoid joyful things to avoid happiness simply out of habit. Stuck in a rutt. Doesn't value her life or the experiences it brings. Lived solely for singular joys but has lost enjoyment of those things.

Ego is both easy to inflate and hard to kiss ass to, incredibly distrusting and often disregards genuine praise as niceties, random compliments can be seen as genuine and go to her head. Both prideful and self deprecating. Quick to think of herself as stupid or as someone with no reason or with no impact on others and life as a whole but also quick to put others below her and think of herself as smarter.

Non emotional topics she trusts her own judgement above all others and people who interfere with her judgement calls or question her reasoning are seen as subhuman to her judging eyes. Anyone who attempts to second guess what she says will always be looked down on as an idiot with no ability to think, if right (Rare) then she'll still think it was just rude.

Holds others to unreachable standards and holds herself to them too, is the type to wish others dead for their simple mistakes and if she makes them wish herself dead.

Wants more than anything to not be lonely, wants in similar measure to not have to be tethered to someone she doesn't like. Dislikes all people due to her high standards. She understands this greatly but is unable to change or fix it due to being so fundamental to her thought process.

Develops into a more kind and fun loving person.

Kuken is her best friend and the person she trusts the most, even at the beginning when she doesn't like him this is still true due to lack of friends to compare too and her poor relationship with her parents (at the time)

Quick to develop feelings for someone who is nice to her, quick to cut all ties with them if they fall below standards and slow to act on those feelings (never ever does) if someone manages to stay above her standards (they don't until show starts and her standards change with time)

Begins to hold feelings for Kuken at some point but they fade away and their relationship always stays platonic no matter what. Loves Kuken greatly and with unmatched passion but in a calm and unshowing way and only as friends.

Is at the lowest point of her life, feels worthless and meaningless. Feels like she lost at life early and questions why she should live the rest.
Is the kind of person who fantasizes about being successful and liked.

Most of her negativity is actually circumstantial due to the recent events in her life. Her changing is equal parts getting over the events in her life and truly changing at a fundamental level.

Thinks most people are unhappy.

Small things affect her, Kuken remembering her favorite candy is main reason she gives people more chances and tries to be more understanding of their faults as Kuken falls far below her standards but she can't help but admire him and his genuine kindness and love of others. Wants to hold people in her heart, particularly kuken and those like him so changes her heart to have room.

Develops a joy for surprising others, (Remember birthdays etc) a trait she sponged from Kukens aforementioned kindness. One of her nicest traits as she wants to pass on that kindness. Looks up to him because of that?

Hates being second guessed, prone to second guessing others, hates being looked down on, prone to looking down on others. Hypocrite but knows this and dislikes this about herself. Wants to change.

Can't change without want, truly wants to be happy and be the kind of person who aids others in their joy but is just incapable of it at first.

Easily embarassed, embarrased about that, will lie and pretend not to be if embarrassed.

Holds a repressed perversion.

Admires self sacrifice and martyrdom. Hates those who flaunt their martyrdom above all others.

Is the type of person who will hold off on readjusting to become comfortable because she thinks the longer she's suffering from discomfort the more pleasant comfort is. Somewhat creepy.

Holds a sadism, enjoys the suffering of people she "beat" even if she "beat" them in something small (someone being a sore loser about a board game can please her as she enjoys upsetting people she's defeated or outsmarted although this still holds to chance board games.)

Is a sore loser herself but tries not to be.

Humble and prideful.

Her delusion, attempts to being a better person and her currently not good self as well as her sponging of certain traits can make her seem irattional and hard to pin down, often contradictory and always changing. Her core elements are what draws people including her constant efforts to change that make her so hard to know her in the first place.

Hates being mocked for losing but admires those who can truly outsmart her (not correct her, minor difference, thin line) and can admire sadism in it's own right as an odd form of sportsmanship. (those who lose are owed a tantrum and those who win are owed the enjoyment of their suffering, equal measure and holding this to herself)

Like Adelyte, loves winning and loves attention even if she doesn't know how to attain it or handle it.

Is actually very similar to Adelyte in her true traits that appear every now and then but holds herself differently despite their extreme similiarities to the point of seeming like opposites.

Has mixed views on cheating and skirting rules. Near random on whether she respects it or dislikes it, more focused on how smart it was.

Her humility slowly defeats her shame and makes her more open to loss, criticism and corrections.

Incredibly emotional, always logical, always contradicting and changing. Acts as Cereza above any descriptor.