Beatriz Narvaez Headcanons

## Soft

* Every year Bea and her brother had matching costumes for Halloween without fail and besides getting candy, their favorite part of Halloween was planning their costumes months in advance
* She'll absent-mindedly draw shapes on her clothing to busy her hands, if she doesn't have anything to draw with then she'll rub circles in her palm with her thumb
* She gives really good hugs and she knows it
* She falls fast and hard and can hold onto crushes like no one's business, you could literally just compliment her on something arbitrary and she'll think about it for a long while
* When she smiles, like genuinely smiles, her nose scrunches up
* Despite hating the feeling of a full face of makeup, she'd always agree to be her little sister's guinea pig for new looks she'd want to try out
* Her love language is gift giving so she likes to make up small, arbitrary anniversaries just so she can gift people things (mostly food)
* Her most treasured possession is an old polaroid from a road trip because everyone in it looks genuinely happy
* She wishes on shooting stars
* Bea slowly gets more into makeup because it makes her feel closer to Andrea
* As a kid, Bea had super long hair which she cut herself once because she thought it’d be cool. It turned out less than stellar but it was also her first act of “disobedience” so it holds a special place in her heart.

## Angst

* She used to put out an outfit for her brother on school nights because he didn't have any fashion sense in her opinion, sometimes she'll still do it absent-mindedly and wake up the next morning feeling horrible when she finally notices the clothes still neatly folded on the end of her bed
* Her sister is the one who taught her to rub her palm with her thumb when she was nervous after a particularly bad fight between her and her parents, now it's just a habit to do whenever
* Though she tries to hide it she can't stand the sound of sirens, they bring her back to the accident
* Beatriz can't bring herself to do another theater performance because she knows that when she looks into the crowd she'll never see her full family out there
* Her shooting star wishes have always been to be a part of a loving family
* She has a savior complex because she couldn't save Adrián and Andrea
* A part of her wishes for some sort of chance to die in place of someone, so maybe then her life can have some sort of meaning
* Massive survivors guilt
* When at home alone she shuts herself in the bathroom and blasts music because the silence drives her crazy
* Despite everything, some nights she finds herself dialing her dad's number only to be met with the same dial tone as every other night, a part of her still wants his validation
* During the first few anniversaries of the crash, she refuses to do anything but hug Adrian's flannel close and let everything out
* She has a secret place in the woods near the trailer park where she goes when the anger part of her grief finally hits
* When she comes home from her bouts of anger with bloody knuckles and her voice hoarse her mother "overreacts" which always causes them to get into a fight
* Refuses to go to therapy because they don't have the money to pay for it and she feels like she'd be even more of a burden (also a certain part of her feels like she doesn't deserve it)
* She was forced to mature from a young age because of her family dynamic she felt it was always her job to keep the family safe and okay, she blames herself for the family falling apart
* She started getting into theater because it brought her family together and her parents were proud of her for it, she can't bring herself to step on a stage anymore because her family isn't full anymore
* It's very hard for her to say she loves someone because her parents never really told her they loved her, her siblings, or each other
* She has never dated anyone because her parents' relationship scares her away from it, she never wants someone to feel like how her parents feel about each other because of her
* She knows who Eddie is because she lives in the trailer park but pretends she doesn't because she fears being bullied again (she feels really bad about it constantly)
* Bea contemplated running away to go stay with Robin when she was told that she was moving to New York but decided against it bc she couldn't leave her siblings alone or be forced to go through what she did
* Bea wore glasses for her poor eyesight up until her last year of middle school where she changed to contacts due to bullying.

## Robbea

* Despite being the shorter of the two, Bea always insists to be the big spoon
* Before she met Robin, Beatriz was a completely different person, she was a big loner who preferred to only talk to her siblings due to the bullying she received before moving to Hawkins
* Beatriz's biggest insecurity in the relationship is that one day Robin will see her as not enough or find someone better, because of her parent's constant pushing her to be better Bea can’t help but overthink any actions she takes in regards to the relationship
* Literally even the smallest amount of physical touch from Robin sends Bea's brain haywire
* Bea folds very easily when it comes to arguments and bickering, she'd rather it just be over instead of escalating to where they're genuinely mad at each other
* Beatriz will constantly apologize for even the smallest mishap
* Sleepovers, many sleepovers
* Bea will read Shakespeare's comedies to Robin and give a full rundown of what everything means, her favorite to read is A Midsummer Night's Dream
* Bea writes small notes, letters, and poems to Robin but can never get the courage to actually hand them over, embarrassed at herself for being so mushy
* Bea will doodle hearts with her and Robin’s initials in it on whatever she can, she will get embarrassed about it when she’s caught but ultimately it won’t stop her
* Robin is probably the only person that has ever and will ever see Bea in glasses, aside from her family, which she’s thankful for because sometimes contacts can be annoying
* That being said she still has some anxiety about Robin seeing her in glasses because of all the bullying.

## BHN house

* Bea never uses bread ties for loaves of bread like she's supposed to because she favors the whole "twist and tuck" method
* Because of the accident, Bea doesn't like to be alone while sick so if she ever feels sick she'll call a "family meeting" and have everyone sit somewhere in the house with her
* Bea's favorite place, contrary to what she'd have you believe, is the balcony, her favorite activity is reading on the balcony around sunset when it starts getting a little colder
* Speaking of the cold, she thrives in it and most of the electric bill is just her trying to keep her room near arctic just so she can cuddle up under her blankets comfortably
* Due to how she's used to living, Bea will randomly open other's bedroom doors to check if it needs any cleaning before remembering that she's in a different household and feeling really bad for "invading" even though she didn't step a foot actually inside the room
* She will always tell on herself when she does accidentally check in on someone's room and act like it's the end of the world bc she thinks she invaded their privacy
* Bea will take on the role of a housewife regularly because it's what she's used to, she's definitely gonna have to be reminded often that she doesn't have to clean the whole house herself
* Bea 100% embodies the "Mom I frew up" meme
* She hides literally everything under her bed because she thinks that no one will ever find it there
* Bea will sometimes even hide herself under her bed to read, it weirdly comforts her