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College Hermit Blues

**Genre**

"College Hermit Blues" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was an outtake for her fourth album, *Worldbuilder*, but it was included on BandCamp downloads as a bonus track.

## About

The song was written in 2012 for a songwriting class in college, specifically for a 12-bar blues project. Thorn wrote her song about her daily experiences and frustrations, walking to the bus every day and dealing with the annoying dogs living next door. While she never thought it was good enough to go on an album, she recorded it for *Worldbuilder* in case she wouldn't have enough songs to make the RPM Challenge's 10 track requirement. She ultimately made the requirement and chose to keep "College Hermit Blues" as a BandCamp bonus track, though a short clip of it appears suddenly in "Self-Portrait with Stolen Painting".

While the song was intended to have nothing to do with the story of *Worldbuilder*, listener HeyItsDingo thought that the song was written from the main character's perspective after she returned to Earth and started going back to college. Thorn adopted this as canon, as it provides a more quietly hopeful ending to the album than the sardonic "Worldbuilder (A Denoument)."

## Lyrics

The sun's going out now

Tomorrow it's cold

I like a bit of sunlight

But it was gettin' old

I walk a mile a day

I'm sweatin' my ass away

I drown in water all I can

But let's be honest nature

I was just getting back my tan

I'm not alone

I may never be

'Cause I got this little doggy

Yappin' at me

I may not be alone, babe

But I sure wouldn't mind it

'Cause when his annoying life is over

I'll be free of that little shit

Another late day

Waffles at midnight

And now I'm in front of twenty people

Playing something cheap in class

Confrontation reaction, my ass!

Suited for this job, I just ain't

Then I remember I'm in college

That is a stupid complaint
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An O in Hell

**Genre**

"An O in Hell" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It appeared on the promotional *Spider* compilation as an outtake from *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*.

It was one of the first songs recorded for *Nobody Cares...*, but it was dropped from the album when Thorn decided it wasn't good enough to pay money for. She later reworked half of the lyrics into "Face Down Walls" for her 2018 album *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*. The original song was later re-recorded for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* compilation.

## About

The song is written as mostly nonsense based around twisting clichés, as well as random lyric ideas Thorn came up with while walking around her backyard at night. The first verse is an intentional play on clichés such as "What have you done" and "where have you been". The title is a pun on "hello", and it was something she said to her friends over Skype, after which she immediately decided to write a song titled it.

The lines "Do you remember how you met me/When the forest came into the city" refers to one of the album's considered titles: *Forest Came Into the City*, which was taken from a caption for a set of modern Chernobyl photos.

## Lyrics

Who have you done

What have you been

When are you

Why are you

Draggin backwards through the Summer

Body checking a helicopter

Now they're glad you're not a bother

Anymore (Anymore)

Hope they find a place where they can

Bury you (Bury you)

Rocks, dirt, miscellaneous

Extremeties

Bet you're glad that you can't think now

Bet you're glad you can't remember how

Bet you feel like an O in hell

Who have you done (What have you been)

When are you (Why are you)

Why can't I feel like an O in hell

Why can't I feel like an O in hell

Do you remember how you met me

And the forest came into the city
Count All the Flies in My House

"Count All the Flies in My House" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on the Futures Passed Free Music compilation, *In Two Years*, and it was later included on her debut album, *BlackholeWhitespace*

It was one of three *BlackHoleWhitespace* tracks to be remixed and remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* compilation, alongside "Tell Us if You've Seen This Guy Before" and "The Forgotten One".

## About

The lyrics to "Count the Flies" were written several months prior to the album's recording. Unlike most other songs on *BlackholeWhitespace* that have a message or a narrative, the lyrics are purely free-associative, druggy, surreal imagery. Musically the song is a driving dance rock track with thick low-end guitar (no bass guitar was used); a recurring, soaring guitar hook; squalls of feedback; and backmasked guitar noodling (actually the song's main hook played through an effects pedal set to "reverse"). Label manager Steve failed to think of an existing genre to place the song in, so Thorn coined it "Avant-Dance".

The song's choral guitar hook was inspired by an interview of XTC's Andy Partridge, who talked about learning guitar by discovering how guitarists "play patterns". Thorn admits she might have repeated this pattern too much. The low-end guitar is played similarly to Black Sabbath's "War Pigs", though this was unintentional and Thorn did not realize it until well after the song was finished.

The wall of noise that opens and plays throughout the song is a recording of Thorn beatboxing the song's drum track, which has been run through a feedback generator. The feedback generator was also used in "Tell Us if You've Seen This Guy Before".

## Lyrics

I like to sit on a petrified head and

Count all the flies in my house

I like to think that there's plenty more people

With insane amounts of time on their hands

I wish the voice in the roots of my teeth

Stopped buying pizza it can't afford

It makes more flies

It makes more flies

It makes more flies

It makes more flies

The door with rack on its back has a mind of its own

I try to turn the lock but it stops with an irritated groan

I want to put in the wood chipper and wait

Until the replacement comes

I like to sit on a petrified head and

Count all the flies in my house

I like to think that there's plenty more people

With insane amounts of time on their hands

I wish the voice in the roots of my teeth

Stopped buying pizza it can't afford

It makes more flies

It makes more flies

It makes more flies

It makes more flies

Invite more flies

Invite more flies

Invite more flies

Invite more flies

It makes more flies

It makes more flies

Invite more flies

Invite more flies
No One Needs Me - The Rest of the Worst (2009-2011)

*No One Needs Me - The Rest of the Worst (2009-2011)* is a compilation of material that Thorn left out of *ThornBrain is Really Bad at This - The Best of the Worst (2009 - 2011)*. This includes tracks from the album *BlackholeWhitespace*, the EP *The Right Way to do Everything*, the Futures Passed Free Music compilation *The Futures Passed in Two Years*, and all of the *BlackspaceWorkinprogress EP*, all of which were made unavailable due to FPFM shutting down. Unlike *ThornBrain is Really Bad at This*, *No One Needs Me* is released for free, as Thorn didn't feel these songs deserved to be paid for. Only the title tracks were included in *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

All of this material was later included on *The Forgotten Ones 2 (The Free Music, 2009-2021)* in their original forms, making this compilation obsolete.

## Tracklisting

**Key**: \* Originally from *BlackholeWhitespace*
\*\* Originally from *The Right Way to do Everything*
\*\*\* Originally from *BlackspaceWorkinprogress EP*
+ Originally from *The Futures Passed in Two Years*

1. "No One" \*\*
2. "They Call Me Person Man (Tell Us... 2009 demo)" \*\*\*
3. "Void" (Mike Scholl) \*
4. "Dirty Old Ghost Town (demo)" (Mike Scholl) \*\*\*
5. "There for Me (demo)" \*\*\*
6. "The Forgotten One (instrumental)" \*\*\*
7. "Confusion (Sparks cover)" \*
8. "Psycho Killer (Talking Heads cover)" +
9. "30 Century Man (Scott Walker cover)" \*
10. "Void (Alternate Mix)" (Mike Scholl) \*\*\*
11. "Needs Me" \*\*
Worldbuilder (A Denoument)

**Genre**

"Worldbuilder (A Denoument)" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released as the title and closing track for her fourth album, *Worldbuilder*.

## About

The song is a noisy Garage Rock track built off a guitar lick taken from the bridge of "Micronova". It has a jazzy Progressive Rock bridge that leads into a Punk Rock outro before the album closes on a quiet, acoustic coda. The song is a thematic conclusion to the album, overviewing the main character's arc and noting her naivete in building a world out of her interests without expecting consequences. It ends the album with her returning home from her constructed world.

The song was one of the last songs planned, and was mainly written to give the album a high-energy closer. Much of the lyrics are scraps Thorn had lying around, which combined into a more sardonic, mean-spirited ending to the album than she intended.

## Lyrics

Ah worldbuilder

You are going back home

Whether you mean to or not

Round trip with a lot of baggage

Facing what you already fought

You're a band without an audience

And it's not quite a band either

An audience without a drummer

Who's the only one who comes through the speakers

Ah worldbuilder

All you want and all the bother

Ah worldbuilder

Death of your own author

Wearing nothing but time itself

Your fantasies will all enlace

Can't see past the continental shelf

That's just the game freezing in place

Last left school when you were 23

And only took a breakdown to get this far

But it can't help but still haunt your dreams

Those aren't the keys to Ric Ocasek's car

Ah worldbuilder

All you want and all the bother

Ah worldbuilder

Death of your own author

When your rock is an ocean

Are you so surprised you drown

Not good enough to repair

Not broken enough to put down

Worldbuilder

One slip from you and it all curds

Your melodies rhyme better than your words

The micronova heeded your call

Now an open mouth is your mess hall

You're too young, too alone

Too uneducated

To know what innocence is

Didn't spend enough time worldbuilding

Before you built your world

Thought you only brought your favorite parts

Then your own self unfurled

Do you clean up and try again

Or leave no more impearled

All you want and all the bother

Death of your own author
Bobsatm.com

"Bobsatm.com" is a defunct self-help website intended to help people make money. In April 2009, a bizarre, vague, and humourously condescending telemarketing voicemessage was sent out to various phones to advertise it. However the message does not explain what the website is for, merely encouraging people to visit the website and at one point spelling out the url. The domain has been unused for years, making it and the voicemail an obscure curiosity.

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ThornBrain received one of the voicemails and saved a recording of it. The full recording was uploaded to her archive channel on YouTube, and she sampled the recording on her album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*, for the intros of the first song and the hidden track. She retained this use for the remix and remaster compilation *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*, with the sample replacing the California Lottery sample from the extended version of "Spider".
Sellafield (band)

Sellafield is an upcoming Industrial Rock/Post-Punk/Avant-Garde side project by Mikaela Thorn. It is inspired by early Industrial like Chrome and Cabaret Voltaire, Krautrock like Neu! and Faust, and avant-garde musicians and artists like Scott Walker and Michelle Lyons. Thorn also considers her EPs *The Right Way to do Everything* and *The Flint Robot*, as well as the song "The Mask is the Face", as predecessors to Sellafield. The project's first album, *Profile*, is currently being recorded.

The project has origins in a Chrome-inspired band that Thorn wanted to start which would have taken conceptual influence from video games like *Fallout* and *STALKER: Shadow of Chernobyl*, playing a style of Industrial Punk called Nuclear Punk. "Sellafield" was chosen to reference the nuclear aspect, being the name of a British town with an active nuclear plant. This original Nuclear Punk idea has mostly fallen by the wayside, but the name and roots in early Industrial/Post-Punk stuck.
Worldbuilder

*Worldbuilder* is the fourth full-length album by Mikaela Thorn under her alias ThornBrain. It is a concept album about a troubled girl breaking through dimensions into an empty world that she can make into her own paradise, which takes on many pieces of her favorite video games, followed eventually by her own personal villain. The album is the second in a loose trilogy that began with 2018's *Buried Secrets & Old Lies* and concluded with 2021's *Rise in Love*.

The concept is inspired by video games based around traveling to alternate dimensions that mirror one's own world such as *The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask* and *Ni no Kuni*, as well as Thorn's many years doing fan projects such as *Sgt Frog Abridged* and *The Legend of Zelda: Book of the Traitor*. Some other elements of the story are autobiographical, such as the main character approaching age 30 and having a troubled college life. Thorn also kept it ambiguous as to whether the girl was cisgender or transgender, though when Thorn came out publicly as a transgender woman herself in 2021, she admitted that she had quietly considered the character trans.

The album was recorded entirely in February 2019 for the Record Production Month Challenge, AKA: RPM Challenge, inspired by her friends Lilz Martin of Sawtooth and Patrick S. Barry of Smell taking part, despite Thorn having just finished and released *Buried Secrets & Old Lies* less than two months earlier. Two of the tracks, "Competition for a Bad Life" and "Cancerous Winter" were originally considered for *Buried Secrets...* but weren't thought out far enough to finish for the album or as an outtake for *Quaero*.

The album cover and booklet were designed by Thorn, based on photographs taken of interesting cloud formations while she was out on walks. The back cover, showing a cloud shaped like a horseshoe crab, was originally going to be the front cover until Thorn noticed what appeared to be a creepy face in another picture.

## Tracklisting

All tracks written by Mikaela Thorn

1. "Micronova"
2. "Competition for a Bad Life"
3. "Cancerous Winter"
4. "A Different Place in the Twilight (A Discovery)"
5. "Self-Portrait with Stolen Painting"
6. "Electricity"
7. "Tell Me About Your Planet"
	1. "Tell Me About Your Planet"
	2. "Look, Know, Forget"
	3. "Shark (A Distraction)"
	4. "The Human Conditioner"
8. "Northern Mantra"
	1. "Northern Mantra"
	2. "Colony Collapse"
	3. "We're Not All Here"
9. "the shift key is broken and so is my heart"
10. "Worldbuilder (A Denoument)"

### Bonus tracks

Purchasing the album from BandCamp also includes the following bonus tracks

11. "College Hermit Blues"
12. "Micronova (instrumental acoustic jam)"
13. "the shift key is broken and so is my heart (instrumental demo)"
Here Comes Singularity Black

**Genre**

"Here Comes Singularity Black" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released as the opening track on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*. It was slightly remixed along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020.

## About

The song began as a set of lyrics inspired by the vocal rhythm of "Voodoo" by Godsmack. The lyrics were only written to fit the rhythm and don't have any specific meaning, though they do reference Thorn's outdoor cat Baby. The song's title was originally named "Vantablack" after the world's darkest black dye, but the name is copyrighted, so at the suggestion of Silverhand in her Discord server, the name was changed to reference a different black dye, "Singularity Black". Thorn also chose to expand the title to reference the Killing Joke song, "Here Comes the Singularity".

The guitar drone was inspired by Scott Walker's late-period work, particularly his collaborative album with Drone Metal band Sunn O))), *Soused*, and "Feel Good Hit of the Summer" by Queens of the Stone Age. while the drum pattern was lifted from "Anthrax" by Gang of Four, and the noodling guitar lick was inspired by Zac Brown. The song uses a Yamaha digital keyboard on its organ setting, one of the only songs on the album to use a keyboard other than Thorn's toy Casio run through a Stylophone.

## Lyrics

Baby is waiting outside in the cold

He'd be warm inside if he did what I told

We've been hunting for platinum, only finding gold

And the life of the raw deal is getting old
Single Moving Star

**Genre**

"Single Moving Star" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*, and the demo was included on the free *Quaero* compilation. It was slightly remixed along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020.

## About

The song is one of the oldest on *Buried Secrets...*, being one of the few Thorn wrote and planned during her five-year dry spell. It is inspired by her multiple trips to Boston, especially the first night she ever spent in Boston where she had to sleep on a bench at the airport overnight, and how seeing planes in the sky at night made her nostalgic for those trips. She heard the lead guitar melodies in a dream, and the rhythm guitar riff was inspired by Devo.

## Lyrics

Shuttle in the air

Here no single moving star

Fly out from the East

Here we head the other way

Do I know you

On the inside

Maybe I will

Do I know you

On the inside

Maybe I will

Stepping outside

Here the cold is all opaque

Can't see one thing

Here as darkness rolling in

Do I know you

On the inside

Maybe I will

Do I know you

On the inside

Maybe I will

Sleeping on a bench

Here we have no chance to rest

Holding nothing now

Here the outskirts are the same

Do I know you

On the inside

Maybe I will

Do I know you

On the inside

Maybe I will
Edged Out

**Genre**

"Edged Out" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying* and later remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* with two lines altered.

## About

The song is inspired by Minor Threat both musically and in subject. Minor Threat frontman Ian Mackeye has a personal aversion to illicit sex, and this was carried over to the Straight Edge movement that he inspired; the song mocks this aspect of Straight Edge, because unlike drugs and alcohol, sex is a natural human act and impulse. It compares this banning of sex to some of the dogmatic rules in religion which have no purpose other than to control people. The title of "Edged Out" references Straight Edge but also relates to the sexual act of "edging", wherein a person brings themselves near climax without passing it, often as a form of denial play.

The outro is one of Thorn's oldest recordings called "Whack", made on July 3, 2009 to experiment with effects on guitar and hand slaps.

The altered line in the 2020 version, "It's not even a religious thing", was the original lyric up until recording.

## Lyrics

Have you ever had a human impulse

Cut it out, you don't oppress yourself enough

They say to go straight in an old world sense

Tough it out, the better man always says no

But it's not that simple

Your badge of pride

The reason you're alive

You'd better hide

Don't touch that girl

Don't fuck that guy

Or you might

Get just

A little

Edged out

It's part of life to want to do things to people

That if your mom can hear, you'll never say

There's nothing special about not doing something

When no one wants to fuck you anyway [changed in *The Forgotten Ones* to "When no one wants the bullshit anyway"]

Repress yourself

Your human instincts

Your love and lust

Means nothing to your ego

But the best part

It's not even a dogma thing [changed in *The Forgotten Ones* to "It's not even a religious thing"]

One

Can feel

Just a little

Edged

A little

Edged

A little

Edged
No One/Needs Me

"No One" and "Needs Me" are two noise songs written by Mikaela Thorn and released under her alias ThornBrain. They are the bookends to *The Right Way to do Everything* EP, based on amplified microphone static run through a phaser. Vocals are spoken through a vocoder, first as a title drop for the EP, then to read a poem about religion-based persecution of queer people.

After Futures Passed Free Music shut down, making *The Right Way to do Everything* unavailable, the two tracks were added as the namesakes and bookends of the 2014 compilation, *No One Needs Me - The Rest of the Worst (2009-2011)*. They were remastered with the entire EP for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

## Lyrics

What's the right way to do everything

Dip in the water

Given more time

Do not forsake me

Victimless crime

Buried in story

Trapped and not free

I am the lover

No one needs me

What's the right way to do everything
I'm Your Victim

**Genre**

"I'm Your Victim" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying* and later remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

## About

The song is about a dominatrix who has a tendency to accidentally kill her clients. However the narrator wants to be with her for exactly this reason. The song was originally written for *Geizhals* as a companion to "Shake", a similarly dark and sexual song that includes a pun on the word "tender"; the synth percussion intro to the song is taken from "Shake" and sped-up.

The song is musically inspired by "Babylon's Burning" by The Ruts, and the lines "I'm a sick boy with a capital D/And I wanna give a buck with a capital F" is inspired by a line from Elvis Costello's "Love Went Mad" ("I wish you luck with a capital F").

## Lyrics

You have a funny condition

Of killing everything that you touch

Oh, the hurts so good that they all pay for

Soon it doesn't hurt all that much

And everyone is turning a blind eye to you

But baby I'm ready to talk

You ain't getting repeat business so

Why don't you replenish your stock

That feeling in your chest that

Says you're still alive

Anymore of it and I won't be

I'm your victim

Any other case I'd be dead on the floor

But you and I know it's 'cause I

Want you more

I'm your victim

I'm not looking for the usual kiss

I don't want to be the usual lover

I wanna feel the air leaving me baby

You and I both want a kind of tender

I'm a sick boy with a capital D

And I wanna give a buck with a capital F

The last thing I hear at all should be your vitriol

You're only halfway if you make me deaf

Your game is the kind that you fuck up from the inside-out

That feeling in your chest that

Says you're still alive

Anymore of it and I won't be

I'm your victim

Any other case I'd be dead on the floor

But you and I know it's 'cause I

Want you more

I'm your victim
Kyô

**Kyô** est le fils d’Ayla et Adrien ,il est le frère jumeaux de Moon ,il devient l'un des guerriers d'Akira et il est l'espion d'Ayla ,à qui il loue une amour filial fort. Il se repenti et devient roi ,mais il chute dans la gorge en prenant peur de Nathanaël .

## Histoire:

Kyô apparait comme le fils d'Ayla et Adrien ,il est très vite remarquer par Ayla pour son envie d'apprendre. Elle lui apprendra quelque technique et le rejettera ensuite par peur. Kyô lors d'un entrevu amicale avec Skyle ,le provoquera et fuira grâce à son cheval mais il est vite poursuivit par Skyle ,il arrivera cependant à le semer et rentrera au château où il se fera gronder par Adrien. Il apprend alors très vite de nouvelles techniques de combat et Ayla et lui auront alors un rendez-vous dans la forêt . Elle lui apprend alors l'existence d'Akira (son frère ainé). Il promet alors à sa mère d'espionner Akira en cachette. Il montera alors un plan pour se faire détester de son père et de sa sœur ainsi il pourrait agir librement. Il enferme sa sœur et s'enfuit ,il est alors rattrapé par Adrien qui lui dira de partir et de ne jamais revenir .

## Comportements:

Kyô est un homme qui est de nature calme , il sait par exemple garder son calme lorsqu'il tombe sur un serpent. Il adore sa famille et sait se montrer compréhensif . Il est cependant hautain et glacial par moment .

## Mentors/apprentis:

### Mentors:

-Ayla

-Adrien

-Skyle

-Akira

## Montures/animaux de compagnie:

### Montures:

Kyô montait un cheval noir et un blanc au noms inconnus.

## Famille:

**Mère:** Ayla (Décédé)

**Père:** Adrien (Décédé)

**Frères:** Akira (Vivant) ,Skyle (Décédé) , Meyren (Disparu) , Atlanta (Décédé) , Maehara (Décédé) , Mario (Vivant) , Sasha (Vivant) , Marvin (Vivant) , Gaël (Décédé) , Phebus (Décédé) , Sky (Vivant) , Prince (Décédé)

**Demi-frères:** Nadezhada (Vivant) , Nathan (Vivant)

**Soeurs:** Alquia (Décédé) , Moon (Vivante) , Aria (Décédé) , Alya (Vivante), Athéna (Demi, Vivante)

**Grands-pères:** Akyra (Maternel, Vivant) , Luquoi (Paternel, Décédé)

**Grands-mères:** Lyara (Maternel, Décédé) , Catherina (Paternel, Décédé)

**Oncles:** Ahiro (Demi ,Vivant) , Pheli (Décédé) , Asterio (Vivant)

### Notes:

-Kyô n'a jamais eu de compagne fixé car il ne supportait pas ça.

-Il aurait voulut empêcher Aria de se jeter entre Akira et Skyle.
A More Traditional Love Song

**Genre**

"A More Traditional Love Song" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying* and later remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

## About

The song is a satire of two common types of love songs: songs that admire a specific part of the person in question (eyes, legs, etc), and songs that appear to be romantic but are actually dark and threatening towards the object of affection. The music was inspired by Motorhead, The Damned, and Damned guitarist Captain Sensible's solo work.

## Lyrics

If I had to pick one thing that I like

About your eyebrows

It'd probably simply be the fact

That you have eyebrows

Life wouldn't nearly be as fun

Without your eyebrows

Turn them the other way

I see you look at me

Ever so quizically

How shall I drop the gun

I can't apologize

When I see them rise

And something in me follows

What I like most about you

Is your eyebrows

Make you look like you don't trust a

Thing that I do

Oh your eyebrows

They can break my heart

But that's nothing next to

What I do to you

Don't you know the best love songs

To sing to eyebrows

Are the ones where you're in fear for yourself

What's with your hairstyle

Where'd our relationship go wrong

I watch you sleeping

Turn them the other way

I see you look at me

Ever so frantically

Why did I drop the gun

I can't apologize

When I see them run

And something in me follows

What I like most about you

Is your eyebrows

Make you look like you don't trust a

Thing that I do

Oh your eyebrows

They can break my heart

But that's nothing next to

What I do to you

That's right

I did it

I shot her

Right in the eyebrows
A Different Place in the Twilight (A Discovery)

**Genre**

"A Different Place in the Twilight (A Discovery)" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her fourth album, *Worldbuilder*.

## About

The song is a short, hazy, mostly-acoustic track describing the album's main character needing an escape from her life and punching her computer monitor in frustration, causing the micronova that takes her to an alternate dimension. The song is the first to use a wobbling, hammer-on-based, acoustic leitmotif that returns in "Tell Me About Your Planet". It's also the first to have a subtitle starting with "(A D\_\_\_\_\_)", followed by part 3 of "Tell Me...": "Shark (A Distraction)", and "Worldbuilder (A Denoument)".

The song makes direct reference to two different pop culture dimensions with "twilight" in the title: the Twilight Realm from *The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess*, and *The Twilight Zone*.

## Lyrics

No escapism this time

A proper escape

Is what I really need

Lost my composure

Put my fist through the monitor

Found a different offline

It's a different place

In what types like me

Would call the twilight

Not a realm

Not a zone

Just mine
Profile (album)

*Profile* is the upcoming first full-length album by Mikaela Thorn's Avant-Garde Industrial Rock project, Sellafield, and her sixth full-length album overall.

The album began recording in February 2020 for the RPM challenge like *Worldbuilder* before it, but hardware failure forced Thorn to shelve it for later. Recording resumed briefly in September 2020 before it was shelved again in favor of preparing to record *Rise in Love*. Recording resumed again in September 2021 following a break after *Rise in Love'*s completion.
The Forgotten One

"The Forgotten One" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was first released as an instrumental on the Futures Passed Free Music compilation, *The First Snow of Winter*. Vocals were then recorded by friend Tiana Camacho, and the final version was released on Thorn's debut album, *BlackholeWhitespace*.

The song is one of Thorn's favorites from her early songs, and she named the remix and remaster compilation *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* after it. She also remastered the vocal version for it; the song is one of three from *BlackholeWhitespace* to make it to the compilation, alongside "Tell Us if You've Seen This Guy Before" and "Count All the Flies in My House".

## About

"The Forgotten One" was the first new song to be written on the *BlackholeWhitespace* album. Thorn was asked mid-December 2010 to join the FPFM label, which motivated her to record new material. She first wrote "The Forgotten One" for *The First Snow of Winter* compilation; it was initially released as an instrumental for the compilation (cymbal crashes were added to increase the Winter feel). Lyrics were written, but Thorn felt her vocals were inadequate, so she asked friend Tiana to sing the song. The final version with her vocals was released on *BlackholeWhitespace*, and the original instrumental (minus cymbals) was included on the *BlackspaceWorkinprogress EP*.

The rhythm vocoder is of Thorn humming a potential drumbeat, though she liked how the vocal recording sounded through the vocoder instead. Using this vocoder track and a simple bassline, she improvised all of the guitar work. This manifests itself in some wrong notes that Thorn just runs with, and the guitars noticeably jump around in the stereo. Thorn ultimately liked how it all came out, so she eschewed retakes and kept it as is, warts and all. She later made minor changes for the sake of even gain staging when remastering for *The Forgotten Ones*.

The lyrics are intentionally morbid, describing someone dying in the wilderness and having their body covered by the Autumn leaves, then the Winter snow ("It's not the world that's on my shoulders/Just the weather hiding me from them", "One million disguises hover over"), ultimately to never be found again ("Alone I lie in wait of contact"). Despite it being the only song on the album to directly invoke death, it is a topic Thorn thinks about frequently, and the song was based on her own feelings of futility due to her not believing in an afterlife.

## Lyrics

It's not the world that's on my shoulders

Just the weather hiding me from them

No one can see beyond the cover

Hidden and punctured by the stem

Alone I lie in wait of contact

The creatures found me long before

One million disguises hover over

Forgotten one beneath the floor

Forgotten one

Forgotten one
My Parents Died and Everyone Loves Me

**Genre**

"My Parents Died and Everyone Loves Me" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*. The song was excluded from *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* in its original form, instead becoming part of a mashup with "Headcase".

## About

The song began as one of Thorn's ideas for the "Microsongs" compilation that her then-record label was planning to make in 2011. The compilation never happened, but she saved the recordings and decided to find a use for them in *Nobody Cares...* The lyrics mock Mary Sue archetypes in amateur fiction, and they were written after she and friends read a *My Little Pony* fanfiction based around a typical Mary Sue character.

## Lyrics

My parents died

And everyone loves me

I have no faults

Except my horrible spelling

Put some colour in my hair

Try and punch me in the eye

Doesn't matter if I even deserve it

Everyone takes my side
Spider (album)

*Spider* is the companion compilation to ThornBrain's second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*. Whereas the album is for purchase, *Spider* is free to download.

## Tracklisting

\* - *Nobody Cares...* album track
\*\* - *Nobody Cares...* album outtake
\*\*\* - *Spider* exclusive

1. "Spider (Extended Version)" \*\*\*
2. "Let's Make a Martyr (demo)" \*\*\*
3. "Headcase" \*\*
4. "An O in Hell" \*\*
5. "What a Way to Go" \*
6. "Synthscape (Tribalism excerpt)" \*
7. "I Forgot (2009 instrumental demo)" \*\*\*
8. "Hang On, I Got This" \*
9. "Requiem" \*\*\* (Jaz Coleman)
10. "Ex Lion Tamer" \*\*\* (Bruce Gilbert, Graham Lewis, Colin Newman, and Robert Gotobed)
11. "Blackout" \*\*\* (Emma Anderson)
12. "Don't Dub Me (Don't Hear Me excerpt)" \*

All songs written by Mikaela Thorn except where indicated.

## Album Art

The cover art is a cropped version of the 1926 painting "Der Geizhals" by Margret Hofheinz-Döring. *Spider* was originally planned as a companion to Thorn's shelved album *Geizhals*, which would have taken its name from the painting.

## Personnel

All instruments, programming and vocals performed by Mikaela Thorn, except a vocal appearance by Radhames Contreras and his mother in "Don't Dub Me".
Competition for a Bad Life

**Genre**

"Competition for a Bad Life" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her fourth album, *Worldbuilder*.

## About

Like "Cancerous Winter", Thorn began writing the song during the recording of *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*, but she didn't get far enough to record it for the album or to consider it for *Quaero* an an outtake. The title and subject were inspired by a statement from friend Jon Pino about being allowed to feel pain and sadness for misfortune without having to compare it to others' supposedly worse misfortunes. Within the story of the album, it is the main character expressing frustration over her current situation, struggling with college and depression while wanting to bury her troubles with her video games.

It is one of *Worldbuilder'*s experiments with time signatures, inspired by Thorn's then-obsession with Progressive Rock band Yes; it alternates 7/8 in the verses a with a 6/4 polyrhythmic drum pattern, 3/4 in the choruses, and 4/4 in the breakdowns. The guitar riff was adapted backwards from the synth vocoder melody in "Electricity" which was written first. The opening warbling noises are from a piece of programmed feedback that Thorn recorded in July 2010; the feedback later returns in the intro of "Tell Me About Your Planet".

## Lyrics

Gaping hole in your leg

But to your side

Gaping hole in their head

They nearly died

Everybody's pitched against

Another one

Seeing who can be more

Cruelly overrun

I just want to

Tell my dad

That I didn't plan to stay

A lifetime undergrad

But you need a tragedy

To befall you

Before you're welcomed in

The pain queue

We're not running a

Competition

For

A bad life

The future didn't last long

Did it

My education took its

Precious time

You treat me like I'm a

Special case

To want to flip a switch

To switch my mental space

All I want's a button

For a fantasy

Call a monster my new friend

To die for me

Live in a rock by the lake

Yes, in it

Lick a hovel out of it

Until you fit

We're not running a

Competition

For

A bad life

First step to combatting your misery

Go and find the first prick to invalidate it

Second is to give up, go do something else

Do that something until it's replaced your need to process

That's the stage I'm currently at

I stopped looking for a stage three today

'Cause the easiest day of your life is your birth

And the cost of life is inverse to its worth

We're not running a

Competition

For

A bad life

Only crows squawk more than these people

And they're just a hint smarter

And you know what they tell me

Anything that doesn't kill me

Will look good on a resume no one will see
Bird Ghosts

**Genre**

"Bird Ghosts" (stylized in all-lowercase as "bird ghosts") is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and Patrick S. Barry, recorded for Barry's solo project smell on its second album, *viva lasagna*. Thorn remixed the song as a bonus track on her fifth album, *Rise in Love*.

## About

Thorn noted that the first smell album, 2018's *woof*, was one of the inspirations for her returning to music and recording *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*. Thorn and Barry wanted to collaborate on a song for the second smell album, so Barry wrote the base of keyboards and drums, then passed them to her with the tentative title of "bird ghosts" since he thought they would fit her style. She wrote the lyrics and recorded her parts entirely in the evening of February 23, and Barry added additional instruments and a vocal harmony over the remaining week.

Thorn took much of her lyrical and stylistic inspiration from the song's title of "bird ghosts". The guitars are heavily delayed and make use of an Ebow to make a fluttering effect; the melodic lead guitar is also inspired by Yes's Steve Howe. Lyrically, the song is a dark drama where the narrator is watching a person they have dropped off a cliff fall to their death.

As thanks for Thorn's part in making the track, Barry offered to collaborate on a song for her then-upcoming album, *Rise in Love*, and she enlisted him for the title track. Thorn also got Barry's permission to remix "bird ghosts" as a bonus track for the album.

## Lyrics

Cold-blooded shiver

As your hand slips from mine

In the air among the other

Ghosts of birds in alkaline

Are you having trouble letting me down

Do you need a hand letting me down

You a petal

The wind ungentle

But my ears settle

I know you don't want to be let down

I'll give you a hand letting you down

There's innocence captured in scares

All that slings back to me

In the bird ghost's pageantry

The highs of letting go

I hope you see them

Fly past your eyes

Bird ghosts never go

And we're supposed to push them home

To quiet their cries

It's your time to go

And as you fall

Keep your eyes

On mine
What a Way to Go

**Genre**

"What a Way to Go" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*, as well as the promotional *Spider* compilation.

## About

The song is a Punk Rock song inspired mainly by The Ramones, Dead Kennedys, and Lush. The lyrics detail various ways in which people accidently kill themselves. "Hang On, I Got This" follows a similar theme.

The song had two demos: the first was a quiet, semi-acoustic recording made late at night. The second was a louder version with distorted guitars and more closely resembles the final version, though only the completed version was included on the promotional compilation. The intro to the second demo was recycled for the completed track. Both original demos were eventually shared on Thorn's music retrospective podcast.

## Lyrics

It's time to act your age

Burn the house down

What a way to go

What a way to go

No one sees the dead boy

Fly around

What a way to go

What a way to go

They don't understand

When he succumbs to his rage

What a way to go

What a way to go

The monster's

Already acting his age

What a way to go

What a way to go

Look for something to cheer up the folks

Something kinda Islamic

Way to go

What a way to go

Took one step away from zero

Way to go

What a way to go

The more you do, the less you know

Flipping backwards

Off a rocking chair

What a way to go

What a way to go

Red color of copper

Needle in the eye

What a way to go

What a way to go

My kid loves

Our brand new car

What a way to go

What a way to go

Go for a ride

Come back bone dry

What a way to go

What a way to go

I'd look to look before I walk

But I'm choking on all the plastic

Way to go

What a way to go

Took one step away from zero

Way to go

What a way to go

The more you do, the less you know
Room for One More

**Genre**

"Room for One More" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*. It was slightly remixed along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020.

## About

The song is a mid-tempo, slightly funky post-punk track inspired by early Fugazi, built around an A# barre chord arpeggio written during Thorn's five-year dry spell. The lyrics are free-associations on the futility of life and the struggle with shame. The title is a reference to the *Twilight Zone* episode "Twenty Two", and an early version of the song included a sample of actress Arline Sax saying the line at the end of the episode, followed by Barbara Nichols' scream; Thorn cut the sample to avoid legal issues with Viacom.

## Lyrics

We're pulled out of the hole alone in the world

The price always going up but never the worth

If every birth is a miracle, then so is the death

If every death is a tragedy, then so is the birth

You're not as good and pure as you were

Now aren't you ashamed, now aren't you ashamed

There's always room for one more crime

If every tragedy dies, then the miracle can rise

Only half of you is dead at any given time

Did you believe in life

Before we taught you not

To see yourself in shame

Did you believe in life

Before you taught yourself

You're lucky not to be the same

The daughter of evil is the mother of questions

The father of ego needed less time alone

The family tree is addicted to pesticides

Not what it needed for scrubbing the bone

You fall out of the hole alone in the world

It's why they make you sign on a dotted line

If it was solid how could you slip through the cracks

Only half of you is dead at any given time

Did you believe in life

Before we taught you not

To see yourself in shame

Did you believe in life

Before you taught yourself

You're lucky not to be the same

Only half of you is dead at any given time

Room for one more
For Not 206

**Genre**

"For Not 206" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*, and the instrumental demo was included on the free *Quaero* compilation. It was remastered along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020, though it was one of the few songs that Thorn felt no need to remix.

## About

The song was one of the few planned during Thorn's five-year dry spell, starting as a hypnotic loop that eventually became the instrumental demo. The full version has more of a typical song structure and describes what happened after "Misery is a Riot", wherein a child kicks Old Lies' head down the road. The icy intro was added last-minute, as Thorn felt that the song needed more space to calm down after the stretch of intense tracks before it, ("My Hyde" through "As Gods as Demons").

The lines about "the head of the preacher man" are a reference to "Bring Me the Head of the Preacher Man" by Siouxsie & the Banshees. "The boy with a thorn in his brain" is both self-referential, as well as a play on "The Boy with the Thorn in His Side" by The Smiths; Thorn would later reference the boy again in "Supermoon" on *Rise in Love*, after she came out as a transwoman.

## Lyrics

I found a place

In a hole in the wall

I'm still not sure what I've found

I found the head

Of the preacher man in the lap

Of a boy with a thorn in his brain

The head spoke of miracles

And smelled of accidents

You put your faith and not your trust

In cloud-walking men, he said

The boy with the thorn in his brain

Let him roll out the hole

The boy turned around

Peered into a hole behind him

He said I'm still not sure what I've found
Face Down Walls

**Genre**

"Face Down Walls" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies* as well as the free *Quaero* compilation. It was slightly remixed along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020.

## About

"Face Down Walls" was one of the first songs to be planned and recorded by Thorn as she started getting her musical spark back after a five year dry spell. The lyrics "How do you face/Face down walls/I lost something else/Losing balls again/Watch out for yourself/I'm losing balls again" come from a dream Thorn had where Captain Sensible was singing them in the style of his solo rap single "Wot!". The song also recycles some lyrics from the *Nobody Cares...* outtake "An O in Hell" and is built around a clipped recording of a drum machine. The form and the guitar solo were inspired by "Adventure of a Lifetime" by Coldplay.

## Lyrics

How do you face (How do you face)

How do you face (Face down walls)

Draggin backwards through the Summer

Body checking a helicopter

Now they're glad you're not a bother

Anymore (Anymore)

I lost something else

Losing balls again

Watch out for yourself

I'm losing balls again

Hope they find a good place to break and bury you

Rocks, dirt, miscellaneous extremities

Bet you're glad that you can't think now

Bet you're glad you can't remember how

Bet you feel like an O in hell

Why do I feel like an O in hell

I lost something else

Losing balls again

Watch out for yourself

I'm losing balls again

Why do I feel like an O in hell

Why do I feel like an O in hell (How do you face)

Do you remember how you met me

And the forest came into the city (Face down walls)