Fortgate/Confessionals

### Day 4

The other thing I’m trying to do is have good relationships which I lacked my first time. This tribe has proven good for that because I’m on good terms with basically everyone. I linked up with Ryan and Zack right away because we go waaaay back. I’m also on good terms with chris right now which I think is important because he’s so connected. Chris basically laid out his allies to me lol (Jared, Layla, Arshie, Ally, Jake) but it’s all good bc I’m good with those people too. We really get along well as a tribe which I’m sure people weren’t expecting but here we are lol. The only person I haven’t spoken to is Jordan, he’s verrrrry UTR and tbh I get the vibe that he’ll be the one to go if we go to tribal. Beyond that, who knows?
I’m kind of hoping there isn’t a swap this season tbh bc I feel like I could last a long time on this tribe!! I hope that’s not too confident of me but whatever. I’ve had good conversations with people so I’m excited to take my game to the next level and commit to some real alliances beyond just me/Ryan/Zack.

i hope Elmo is thriving on Hero beach. the only winner that can stick around hehe

luckily i think i'm genuinely stepping it up. with the marae ticket I was able to earn a light pearl which could help me in the event of a tie vote moving forward which could be probable if concrete sides form at the merge or even in a swap/pre-swap situation!
but on a strategic level i think i am building a lot of bridges. at this point, chris, arshia, jared, and layla have all reached out saying they're interested in working with me - i think it's given that ally is too which means half the tribe does have my back and i could rally them if the other half were to consider gunning for me for whatever reason, which i don't feel is probable given that i also have good relationships with ryan, courtney, and zack in that order. i think that in itself is enough for safety like i've been talking alliances with hals, the tickets with chris, and idols with layla so each of these are panning out into something legit and i think the most important part is that they're coming to me, not vice versa. each of these four people have approached me and said they want to work together so i really think it amounts to something and unless the other six align i think it'd include me in anything developing or at least prevent something developed from targeting me!
i think out of everyone rn, jordan, rhone, or possibly (more of a stretch) courtney feel like the most likely boot from this tribe. i don't want to be lulled into thinking my allies are invincible and untouchable but those three seem to give the least effort in PMs. i feel like it'd be jordan though and me feeling like rhone could go might just be because we haven't really connected yet. everyone here does have a strong social game though so it's hard to tell.

I've been focusing on bulding strong 1on1 relationships that would allow people to open up more on me and trust me with their information. I definitely donut want to be seen as someone whos going to call the shots, cuz im perfectly aware that woudnt be smart for me in a long term run.
Also... I really love everyone in our tribe. The only person that i have a weird vibe is Tucker cuz i feel like he was the one to spill to Elias that he was going, and he was also acting very odd afterwards. I talk to him a lot, and i like him but idk if i would put all my eggs in his basket if it was down to it.

### Day 5

My new no.1 is Elmo ofcourse,we share idol guessess,and he is like "I dont want anyone else to know we are close",that's just the way I like it too!I had great progress with Tucker too as we narrowed down which were the people we talked to the least.Turned out his were Elias,Andreas and Danielle too (if he wasnt lying),but he talks a lot to Chloe too just like Szymon.Which is making me really nervous about Chloe.Cause she just keeps me on seen forever,I have no idea why she wouldn't reply me.Is it because she doesn't like me,or because she is alligned with enough people,so she doesn't need me??Is there any majority alliance growing which I am not aware of?Makes me want to win the challange even more.

luckily chris took charge and basically had us tie the heroes before elizabeth snapped and defended our fort. i've been trying to switch tribes but she genuinely outsold.
i think if we do lose i should be safe? idw be over-confident especially in a season with really competent players but i organized our information & was generally around for most attacks like ya! i think chris said he'd be taking out someone who didn't do much if we won and that's perfect for me because i should be able to sit back. he did the most in the challenge and def emerged as a tribe leader of sorts so i think he'd have a good amt of sway in the vote. my goal if we lose is to say i feel like the general people on the call to do a last minute effort (myself, jared, zack, chris, ryan, hals, and layla) were most emblematic of the people trying + ally for defending which basically covers everyone i've made some sort of deal with. in a perfect world that'd be an alliance but idk!
anyways i think out of everyone rhone did the least in this challenge, probably followed by jordan and making a comment like that could solidify the target on either one of them! part of me would want to use this to take out rhone over jordan bc i feel like jordan is an easier boot if we lose again, which protects me but i also dw go too hard bc the best way to make myself a target rn is to target someone else and have it get back to them. i do think naturally it'd land on jordan tho! maybe courtney but idts she slayed endurance last time around

### Day 6

and literally everyone contributed from our tribe.. heroes are thriving for once and not the last time lemme tell u that

so... tribal huh. this sucks. it also sucks because MOST of us tried really hard for the challenge. rhone didn’t really try that hard but idc because i wouldn’t vote rhone out because i know he has my back and i have his.
my personal preference, i want jordan. i’ve has like 2 conversations with him and the first conversation i had with him he said he has “a food baby” and is “due in 2 hours” he really talked about taking a SHIT with me... i can’t with straight people...
even though we won last challenge and had the day off, i still made sure i worked on my social game. like since we’re going to tribal this round, i fee pretty confident i’ll be safe. i really like jared and we made a deal to look out for eachother. idk if he’ll live up to his word, but as of RIGHT NOW... i plan on living up to mine. at least till merge hopefully. my list goes.. rhone - ryan > jared > arshie > jake > layla > chris > everyone else.
layla talks to me a lot but i know she’s just doing that with everyone....
so yeah. hopefully jordan goes home tonight and i can continue to thrive hehe. toodles luv.
p. s. i literally hope ever hero croaks.. stupid slags.

ryan - rhone > jared > ally > insert the rest of my list there.

last night i asked in the Brendas chat (with Zack/Rhone) what are plans for a majority next vote gonna be and they didn't answer me LKFASD so. im gon' pose the question to my alliance with Layla/Arshia and see what they say. it's called pREPARATION yall. i cant sit n wait to see what majority gon be in the future, i need to figure that shit out now...

the only real development throughout all of this is a decent amount of idol paranoia because if jordan has this thing, someone is being 0-1'd. luckily i have a light pearl up my sleeve that protects me from that paranoia but it's definitely interesting to note like how diff people react to / consider that possibility it lets me know people like layla/chris/ally do not have it but someone like jared could just based on their responses! so long jordan doesn't a) have an idol and b) doesn't have a friend to throw a second vote, i should be fine? unless this is all an elaborate blindside wherein people are literally giving me idol guesses KDSHHJSDFHKKH. honestly watch that happen LMFAO

UNFORTUNATELY i dont know if i can because all votes were revealed last time and if everyone decides to share parchments id be screwed, so i rly cant do that sadly! rip!
jordan thinks courtney is the vote bc jared and layla from what ive heard told him that it was courtney, which is only gonna hurt both of them if it gets back to courtney so i may be the one to get it back to her! :D
id like to think im fine for this tribal bc of the work i did in the challenge but you never truly know. i had a good heart to heart with jake last night and he gave me real real advice and i appreciated it a lot. i need to take a step back in challs bc i dont need to put myself in this role. not happening.
moving forward the people i trust i think are jake/ally/jared the most and layla in 5th. layla is 5th rn bc shes talking to everyone and idk if shes GENUINELY loyal to me or not. she needs to give me info on other people if i wanna trust her bc so far she hasnt.
heres to hoping for the best and expecting the worst at this tribal

My long term plans still revolve around Ryan and Zack. In terms of past placements we are the 3 biggest threats on this tribe, no doubt, and we trust each other kind of implicitly which I think will grant us some flexibility. I'm getting the vibe that Chris is going to try to run this tribe with an iron fist. I could see him creating an alliance including me, him, Arshie, Ally, Jared, Jake, Layla and Zack, just going off of what he told me. That could be problematic because it leaves Ryan out of the loop, but I also want to advance in the game, so it's tough. Chris is a super paranoid player who really digs his heels in IME and will just, like, overwhelm you with ideas and his anxiety if you allow him to. So while I truly adore him personally I'm kind of keeping him at arm's length in the game. Especially because if he plays a high octane game and makes it to the end, I don't see how he doesn't win given who's playing this season.
For now I just need to keep my head down and focus on not fucking up the next challenge. I'd feel so much better going into the merge with the Villains' numbers by my side so I can potentially maneuver and work with the Heroes on key votes. I didn't think I was going to be the Sandra of this season, honestly, but if the shoe fits...

The day we won our first immunity challenge, which I believe was day three, David sent us an idol clue as well as a picture of brownies "for sustenance." At the time, I thought this was merely a quirky David thing to do, but of COURSE, there was more behind it and I missed it because I wasn't on my toes. The next morning, I was talking to Chris and he asks regarding the brownies and if there could be any Marae hints in it. I took a look and within five minutes of analysis, I found it - in the upper right corner, instructions on how to get a ticket. Well, whaddya know.
As any villain would, I told Chris that I didn't see anything obvious and immediately followed the photo's instructions. In my thread, Nadine replied with a blushing emoji, so I was under the impression that the ticket had already been taken. Under those circumstances, I told Chris that after all, I had found a clue, and I sent it to him and convinced him to try to get the ticket (I knew the ticket had already been taken and I wanted to look like the good guy). He followed the instructions, and like me, did not receive a ticket. Chris and I agreed that we would tell others about our discovery in order to gain the trust of our tribemates, but also to narrow down who might have the ticket. Good idea, right? I thought so.
A couple of hours later, I get a ticket in my thread! I've been doing a number of things lately, so I thought the ticket was an award for my exceptional social game. In hindsight, oh Layla, you silly overconfident sausage. It was for the brownies that were posted in the tribe chat. At this point, I was freaking out. I had accidentally spread the rumor that somebody had gotten a ticket, while all along it was me, and I had NO IDEA. I even got as far as blaming Rhone or Zack for getting the ticket because they viewed the brownie image first. The brownie ticket hasn't come up again since, because there's no way in hell I would ever own up to causing such Marae paranoia over a stupid mistake. Guess the villain is coming out in me, huh? (Also, I failed the Marae challenge and walked away empty-handed, which was just insult to injury.)
Because that testimonial was so long and drawn-out, I'll give a brief synopsis on everything else going on. I have made official duo alliances with Hals (Arshie), Ryan, Chris, Ally, Jared, and Jake. I have made trio alliances with Hals & Ryan and Ally & Chris. The people I feel like I have the most chemistry with are Chris and Hals. I'm sharing idol guesses with all of my allies, but as I would do, the guesses I'm giving them are faux.
Also, there's a tribal tonight. There's not much news; everyone's down to vote for Jordan due to his lack of time allocated towards socializing and playing the game. Should be easy! (Jordan also had the audacity to tell me he trusts me and my judgment today. Based on the fact that we've barely talked, this is a last-minute scheme he's putting together to save himself.)
All in all, even though I have already made my fair share of mistakes, I feel great about this season. I've most definitely refined my way of talking to people and strategies since Malawi, which is what I came here to do. I don't want to get too cocky too early, but I'm in a great position, and I think I'll be able to maintain my villainous reputation while giving you all entertainment and genuinely good gameplay.
Until the next confessional. We're hangin' in there.