Chapter 83: I'm Ready To Go

**I'm Ready To Go** is the eighty-third Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Kyoutarou is reminiscing about his elementary school days, thinking on how he won awards for essays and poster-making. He is standing in front of the school with the kids talking and bickering in the crowd before him, thinking on how the ignorant masses before him are trash. He then proudly presents his poster by raising it high above his head. He concludes that the him from that era is long gone, and the scene transitions back to him in front of his current class, looking nervous. He asks himself when he became so afraid of others looking at him.

At home, Kana is in a panic, bringing put various things to help her brother with his speech, including a humidifier, throat lozenges, and some Vicks Vapo-Rub, which she begins rubbing on his chest. He protests, saying that the latter is medicine for a runny nose or cough, but she ignores him and says she can't believe that he's giving this speech. He reminds her that he has a script and it won't be that big of a deal, but then says that he needs to go to the barber. His mother asks if 2,000 Yen is enough, but he requests 5,000, to which his sister asks if it's from a fancy salon. He recalls how he made a web reservation for his haircut on website Pepper, and comments how the system is nice for antisocial people. He then begins writing on a piece of paper, to which his sister takes interest, asking what he's writing. He declares it's a flowchart for a conversation with the hair stylist, listing things like favorite games, manga, and movies, and what kind of cut he wants, which she reacts with shock to. She asks if he wants her to accompany her, but he refuses. He goes to the salon, but finds with relief that the stylist does not ask him any questions, which he chalks up to his looks giving away his antisocial tendencies. He seems pleased with his cut.

The next day, Kyoutarou is at school, thinking the day will be perfect, but realizes somehow his haircut looks different than it did yesterday. Yamada notices his look, commenting that he got a trim, and Moe adds that it looks like a bowl-cut which makes him self-conscious. In the classroom, he makes the excuse that it was the first time he'd been to that salon, and that's why it turned out weird. Serina asks if he has any wax, which he takes to mean floor wax, and she turns to Adachi, asking him for some, which Moe compares to a shake-down. As she prepares the wax, Moe comments that Serina has said she wanted to be a hair stylist, but she reacts with embarrassment, saying it was just one option. Serina begins messing with his hair, saying he's not putting it to good use, and styling it up in a pompadour. He looks in a mirror with disgust, while Moe asks if he's on a raid, and Serina assures him that nobody will look down on him like that. Yamada then walks up to him and ruffles his hair, saying she should be able to do well being a model. The other girls put on a ribbon for the ceremony while Kyoutarou considers how the scenario he's currently in would have been impossible half a year ago. Moe asks Chi why she is so silent, and she brings up how they'll be changing classes soon. They bicker about them potentially switching around delinquent groups, and Yamada, still messing with his hair, says that they may be separated. He assures her that everything will be okay, which she questions, while Maeda opens the door and tells them to line up in the hallway. As they walk outside, he consider how he doesn't actually know, and Moe comments on how they got his hair back to looking normal. He thanks them for the help, then reaches for his script, but realizes that he actually has the conversation paper he made for the haircut. He runs back into the classroom, throwing things out of his bag searching for the script, while Yamada asks what is wrong. He realizes he doesn't have the script, and considers how dead he is.