Jinsei wa Saikou no Hima Tsubushi

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## Song Information

### Released

March 26, 2021 (CD)
April 24, 2021 (MV)

### Lyrics and Composition

shito (lyrics, composition)
Gom (lyrics)

### Music

Nakanishi (guitar, banjo)
Keiki Uto (keyboard)
Kousuke Higuchi (bass)
Leon Yuki (drums)
setsat (violin)

### Characters

mona
**Cameo:**
Sena Narumi

### Album

Kokuhaku Jikkou Iinkai FLYING SONGS: Aishiteru
#Namae Dake demo Oboetette Kudasai

### Links

**Official MV:**

**"Jinsei wa Saikou no Hima Tsubushi"** is a character song for the *Confession Executive Committee* song series. It is a character song for Mona Narumi.

The song made its commercial debut on the doujin album *Kokuhaku Jikkou Iinkai FLYING SONGS: Aishiteru* on March 26, 2021. This song serves as one of four character songs for mona on the album.

## Synopsis

The song covers times in Mona's life when she becomes depressed over certain sad subjects, such as discouraging social media interactions, her strained relationship with her older sister, or other things. However, it also covers how she deals with her negative thoughts and how she learns to cope with them.

## Lyrics

* Kanji
* Romaji
* English

もしももしも今死んじゃったら

泣いてくれる人はいますか？

一年いや一ヶ月も経てば

どうせ忘れられてるんでしょ？

呟いてしまう

“あの顔になりたかった”

もしそうなればこの世界を

きっと好きになれたでしょ

何でもかんでも生き方真似して死んでるし

不満をぶつける裏アカ削除もできないし

ああもうやるせないな

消えちゃえば楽かな

もしももしも今死んじゃったら

泣いてくれる人はいますか？

一年いや一ヶ月も経てば

どうせ忘れられてるんでしょ？

なんかなんか超悔しいから

やめだやめだお腹空いたし

人生は最高の暇つぶし

どうせなら楽しまなきゃね

ランキングだらけ

オンリーワンでいいのに

もしそうならばこの世界は

きっと楽になれたでしょ

ディスって笑いを取ろうとするやつ黙ってろ

何にも知らない関係ないやつ出しゃばるな

ああもう面倒だな

消えちゃえば楽かな

もしももしも今死んじゃったら

トップニュースしてくれますか？

どうせ流し見とかされちゃうし

喜ぶやつとかもいたりね

なんかなんか超むかつくから

やめだやめだドラマ見たいし

人生は最高の暇つぶし

どうせなら楽しまなきゃね

いつかはお墓に入るし

急ぐ必要もないし

肩の力を抜いて

気楽に気楽にね

画面見てないで上を向こう

空を見るのいつぶりだろう？

毎日の生活のどこかに隠されてる幸せ探し

もしももしも今死んじゃったら

泣いてくれる人はいますか？

一年いや一ヶ月も経てば

どうせ忘れられてるんでしょ？

なんかなんか超悔しいから

やめだやめだお腹空いたし

人生は最高の暇つぶし

どうせなら楽しまなきゃね

Moshimo moshimo ima shin jattara

Naite kureru hito wa imasu ka

Ichinen iya ikkagetsu mo tateba

Dōse wasure rare teru ndesho

Tsubuyaite shimau

“ano kao ni naritakatta”

Moshi sou nareba kono sekai o

Kitto suki ni naretadesho

Nandemo kandemo ikikata mane shite shin derushi

Fuman o butsukeru ura aka sakujo mo dekinaishi

Aa mou yarusenai na

Kie chaeba raku ka na

Moshimo moshimo ima shin jattara

Naite kureru hito wa imasu ka?

Ichinen iya ikkagetsu mo tateba

Douse wasure rare teru ndesho?

Nanka nanka chou kuyashiikara

Yameda yameda onaka suitashi

Jinsei wa saikou no himatsubushi

Douse nara tanoshimanakya ne

Rankingu darake

Onri wan de iinoni

Moshi sou naraba kono sekai wa

Kitto raku ni naretadesho

Disu tte warai o torou to suru yatsu damattero

Nani mo shiranai kankeinai yatsu deshabaru na

Aa mou mendouda na

Kie chaeba raku ka na

Moshimo moshimo ima shin jattara

Toppu nyūsu shite kuremasu ka?

Douse nagashi mi toka sa re chaushi

Yorokobu yatsu toka mo itari ne

Nanka nanka chou mukatsukukara

Yameda yameda dorama mitaishi

Jinsei wa saikou no himatsubushi

Douse nara tanoshimanakya ne

Itsuka wa o haka ni hairushi

Isogu hitsuyou mo naishi

Kata no chikara o nuite

Kiraku ni kiraku ni ne

Gamen mitenai de ue o mukou

Sora o miru no itsu buridarou?

Mainichi no seikatsu no doko ka ni

Kakusa re teru shiawase sagashi

Moshimo moshimo ima shin jattara

Naite kureru hito wa imasu ka?

Ichinen iya ikkagetsu mo tateba

Douse wasure rare teru ndesho?

Nanka nanka chou kuyashiikara

Yameda yameda onaka suitashi

Jinsei wa saikou no himatsubushi

Douse nara tanoshimanakya ne

 Say, what if I died right now?

Will there be people who’d cry for me?

After a year – no, maybe even a month

I’m sure I’d be forgotten by then, right?

I mumbled to myself,

“I wanted to have that kind of face”

If I had one, then surely

I had loved this world

Living the way you want, and imitating everything

Already tired of doing it

The secret account to vent up all my frustrations

Can’t even delete it

Aah, jeez, I just can’t do this anymore

Would I feel better if I just disappear?

Say, what if I died right now?

Will there be people who’d cry for me?

After a year – no, maybe even a month

I’m sure that I’d be forgotten by then, right?

Somehow, somehow I feel really frustrated

I give up, I give up, and I’m feeling hungry anyway

Life is the best way to pass the time

If that’s the case, then

I’ll just have to enjoy it anyway, right?

Rankings here and there

Would have been better if there’s only one

If that happened, then surely

This world would be a better place to live in

People who try to be funny by dissing someone else

Should just shut their mouth

Outsiders who try to get themselves into something that doesn’t involve them Should just keep quiet

Aah, jeez, this is too troublesome

Would I feel better if I just disappear?

Say, What if I died right now?

Would they make my death the top news?

I’m sure there’d be people who’d watch it anyway

And of course there’d be people who’d rejoice of it

Somehow, somehow I feel really irritated

I give up, I give up, I want to watch a drama anyway

Life is the best way to pass the time

If that’s the case, then

I’ll just have to enjoy it anyway, right?

One day, I’ll be buried in a grave anyway

So there’s no need to hurry things up

Let’s relax ourselves

Take it easy, take it easy, okay?

Don’t keep your eyes on the screen and look up

When was the last time you’ve seen the skies?

The happiness that’s hidden in our everyday lives

Let’s go look for it

What if, What if I died right now?

Will there be people who’d cry for me?

After a year – no, maybe even a month

I’m sure that I’d be forgotten by then, right?

Somehow, somehow I feel really frustrated

I give up, I give up, and I’m feeling hungry anyway

Life is the best way to pass the time

If that’s the case, then

I’ll just have to enjoy it anyway, right?

English translation by Haru and Michiko

## Trivia

* The music video for the song was released on April 24, Mona Narumi's birthday.
* The umbrella Mona uses in the music video is likely the same umbrella Sena Narumi lends to Midori Hamanaka in "Kinyoubi no Ohayou", as both share the same design and star keychain.