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People Pleasing?

Just a passing maybe realization

So I was watching a scene in Anne with an E, where mom (mother figure-ish) was apologizing to child after making a terrible mistake and forcing them back to the orphanage and to live by themself and starve and many terrible things happened to the because of mom, so she was definitely very in the wrong, and before the 'apology' it was very very akward for both of them and child was being not like themselves, extremely quiet and was acting so "good", and I don't mean like good but like unneccesarrily much trying to be absolutely perfect to try to please mom in every way she could, and I kept thinking about (and while I know that they shouldn't have to and they shouldn't have to be uncomfortable) how if I were them, I would go the extra mile, I would literally be the perfect child forevermore, and do everything to please mom and make mom like me, because I hate her being disappointed in me, which leads me to believe a first point, I have mommy issues, which makes an awful lot of sense considering the bitch GS who birthed me (ok that was immature I meant the bitch GS who is my mother)

then there was the scene I mentioned in the beginning of mom apologizing to child and child was crying and being honest and all I was thinking was 'If I were in child's shoes, I would never actually cry in front of her, I would never force her to apologize (even though she didn't), and even if the person apologizing to me was apologizing I would immediately comfort \*them\* even if they wronged me and I would try to make them feel good and not uncomfortable, because mom or anyone in that situation would be uncomfortable apologizing to someone, because well that's kind of just how human being are, and I keep thinking how I don't care if I'm uncomfortable, I don't care if I'm hurting or if I'll literally kms because of the pain, I'd much rather make them comfortable and make them feel good, maybe by talking about how even if they wronged me, that no, they didn't really do anything wrong and I was actually the one in the wrong in at least some way, and I would always make sure they're happy

**This mostly pertaining to my partner**

Also fluffy scenario to comfort myself

**Being able to cry like that in front of my partner, even if they were in the wrong, but be fine, not have to hold the burden of comforting them even when they were the asshole, like I'd even try but then they notice and tell me that I don't need to comfort them, they'd hug me and hold me close to their chest as I cry and feel their warmth and actually feel comfortable because god I love them so much**

Just a thought that will obviously never come true, I know it seems pathetic when put into words but whatever I guess
The Warden

Warden, or Mark Davis (as confirmed by his voice actor in a Reddit AMA i think its a stupid name) isn't really that munchable. Just put him here out of spite. For what? No idea.

He is a very bendable, shapeshiftery fellow. He is also a bit goofy. Nutters, if you will. You shouldn't let someone who is a nutter have priority over other people, should you. I hope he boils.

he is probably like #bicurious. i think
Lukewarm I

This is gonna be short, but-

Sometimes, in the shower, I like to lay down on the floor... and play dead. act like I died, like I'm gone. Fantasize about finally offing myself, that maybe after I do, someone would find me, but not my family, maybe someone who would actually care. Maybe after I'm gone, someone would actually give a shit about me. Letting the stream of water from the shower violently crash into my unconscious-seeming body, my mind in a state of peace, or at least as much peace and tranquility as possible.
Romance absolutely can be a short story

ROMANCE ABSOLUTELY CAN BE A SHORT STORY (A sort of rebuttal to my English teacher)

In fact, I'd argue that some of the best romance stories can be/are oneshots/short stories. A big upside to short-form romance stories is that they can be nice and direct, and I like how they don't have to have many distractions, which makes them straightforward.

I admit I may be a bit biased since I read fanfiction for a living but romance is incredible in short formats, especially angsty romance (when it's good though).

I feel like something drawn out isn't bad per se but is a very specific kind of romance and I'd argue that there's too much emphasis on romance novels, short stories are amazing for romance. Like 99% of fanfics I read are short fluff/angst stories. And you can have plot in them, or they can be drabbles but either way 10/10 very cute.

PS: Some of my favorites are when the story embraces its short format. Perhaps somewhat of an open ending, or just a quick stab at your heart. I like when it's angsty, can you tell? Some of my personal favorite best angst short stories include:

"Utterly Foolish" (Xiao/Reader)

"I'd Trade Anything to Have You Back" (Xiao/Aether)

"Unlasting Starrynite" (Xiao/Aether)

"I know you don't but I still try | | Xiaoven Angst"

(Yes these are totally all Xiao fics but imo Xiao has **so** much potential for angst stories.
Plankton

## Sheldon J. Plankton

Ok so heresthe thing i think hed be super hot if he like wasnt so tiny and stuff his voice isoooooooooo hot andummm hes so like villany and hes kind of hot in similar ways To dr two brins so hot so hot

iwish it was 2006 i wish peoplewote about sexy dr two briansi n2006

very bisexu but like super man leaning

so evil but hit because idk

from spongebob (you knwo)
Liang Hu

**Liang Hu** is one of the protagonists and playable characters of Seal of Evil.

## Background

Liang Hu (or “Stalwart Tiger”) is not exactly the sharpest tool in the shed. However, what he lacks in wit or intelligence he more than makes up for in heart and soul. Originally hailing from the largest Beastman settlement in the region, Fang-Horn, he ran away in shame when he was younger after losing a bet to his best friend, Tie Lang (or “Iron Wolf”). He wandered the Central Plains for many years, experiencing first-hand the racism and fear that has been directed at his people for so long by humanity. Yet, despite all the social hardships he encountered, he never lost his faith in people (Beastman and human alike). To earn money and provisions, he often fought in the gladiatorial pits that are so popular in the Central Plains cities. His impressive record eventually attracted the attention of a notoriously corrupt magistrate who tried to coerce Liang Hu into throwing his matches (thus rigging the fight and giving the magistrate the advantage with the bookies.) When Liang Hu refused to tarnish his honor with such cowardly tactics, the magistrate threatened to put him in prison for the rest of his natural life. Wisely, Liang Hu fled the Central Plains and eventually found himself in Cloudrose, where both the chieftain and his people accepted the Beastman for what he was. He has been in the Baiyun village ever since.

His best friend is Lan Wei, the chieftain’s daughter. Her father took it upon himself to further educate Liang Hu in the arts of war and battle (while Lan Wei was studying under the village’s Chief Wizard, Chi Huan). Liang Hu regards Lan Wei as his sister in all but blood. There is nothing he won’t do for her, and should trouble threaten her he will sacrifice his own life if it means saving her. Yan Hong doesn’t much impress him, although he doesn’t really dislike him either. Generally, he thinks the young Wizard is entirely too dour for his own good.
Dr Two Brains

CURRENTLY HOTTEST CHRACTERON THIS WIKI. (Outdated. Since 1/31/22, It Is Now Jailbot.

Socute. ummm was orihinaly professier boxleightner or something i think and then his mouse squeaky pressed a button and he became Dr ywo brains. he consantly is like attacking and trying to steal cheese. He is the top villian most dangerous in the wordgirl town (iforgot the name of the towna) despite just stealing cheeese

he gets like mouse urges someitims

very very fruity bisexu flirts with the sanwich

from wordgirl
Gai Nie

**Gai Nie** is one of the protagonists and playable characters of Seal of Evil.

## Background

Wherever Gai Nie goes, his reputation precedes him like a wild fire on a grass plain. He is a veteran of many wars, and is one of the few true heroes in China during this troubled time. His career began in the state of Zhao, following the famous general Li Mu into battle after battle against the Qin rebels. Li Mu, one of the greatest warriors who ever lived, was a righteous man with an indomitable will. He rarely took on students because so few men and women could live up to his high moral standards. However, one day a private named Gai Nie caught his eye. The young man, while defending a cohort of camp followers from ruthless bandits, exhibited such skill and finesse with his weapon that he greatly impressed the general. Over the following weeks, Li Mu slyly tested Gai Nie’s moral character. Immensely satisfied by the young man, he promoted him and began teaching him in earnest.

Months passed and the war against the Qin raged all across the land. Then one day the King of Zhao, believing rumors that Li Mu was secretly allied with the King of Qin, ordered the general to commit ritual suicide. Ever loyal, the general did so without question. Shortly thereafter, the Qin army broke the Zhao defenses. All was lost. Gai Nie, despite his best efforts to rally the soldiers, had no choice but to ride back to camp and save his wife. Together they fled to safety. Saddened by the loss of his mentor and sickened by war, Gai Nie decided to retire his sword. He and his wife moved from place to place, avoiding the bounty hunters and Qin patrols who eagerly sought his head. He was content to live a simple life. Everything changed for the worse, however, on the day his friend Jing Ke’s letter found him. Now, with his wife and baby dead, Gai Nie has again taken up his sword against the despotic Qin leader, King Ying Zheng and his wicked armies.

Gai Nie will have his revenge.
Quests

**Quests** are objectives that the player can complete during the progress.

Upon completing a quest, there may or may not be a record on the Log, as well as a reward. Most quests can give the player different rewards, although some may only leave nothing but a Log note.

Many of the quests can be crucial to the story's progress, with some may even significantly affect it, and with that, the ending of the game.

Some quests may stay persistently over a long time without fail, even after multiple areas and chapters. But all quests will still be made failed or unavailable once passing a certain point in the story.
Yan Hong

**Yan Hong** is one of the protagonists and playable characters of Seal of Evil.

## Background

Yan Hong is not the happiest fellow around. That’s understandable, though, given that he’s one of the last surviving people of the now extinct West Baiyue. His father, Yan Bo, was the West Baiyun chieftain during the Qin invasions and, sadly, died defending his country. Before Yan Hong could fall victim to a Qin blade, his uncle Yan Peng rescued him at the last second. For years they journeyed together, his uncle always on the lookout for new magic and artifacts. Naturally Yan Hong picked up a few things here and there. It was inevitable that he’d become a wizard as well when he came of age. His main talent lies in the mystical summoning of wild creatures, beasts, and the occasional demon (although his adopted master Lan Xiong frowns on that).

As already mentioned, Yan Hong is generally dour and unhappy. He seems constantly disappointed with his life, as well as the world around him. The one thing that brings him true happiness is Lan Wei, the love of his life. Although he will never say it aloud, he sometimes thinks Fate destroyed his country solely to bring the two of them together, perhaps for even some greater purpose. He knows its wrong to think such a horrible thought, but nothing else in this world matters as much to him as Lan Wei. Luckily, her father, as strict as he is, long accepted Yan Hong’s place in his daughter’s life (though not without copious complaints). He is friends with Liang Hu, albeit begrudgingly. While he has nothing against him because of his Beastman heritage, he finds the other man’s eternal optimism incredibly tedious and annoying. When he’s not with Lan Wei, Yan Hong values his privacy above all else. Spending his childhood alone with his uncle on the road taught him the virtue of looking inward for comfort and solace.
Bigfoot

Bigfoot, also commonly referred to as Sasquatch, is a purported ape-like creature said to inhabit the forests of North America. Many dubious articles have been offered in attempts to prove the existence of Bigfoot, including anecdotal claims of visual observations as well as alleged video and audio recordings, photographs, and casts of large footprints. Some are known or admitted hoaxes. Tales of wild, hairy humanoids exist throughout the world, and such creatures appear in the folklore of North America, including the mythologies of indigenous people.￼
Book Of Munchableness

YOU MUST PUT THE Characters CATEOGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please List The Source Or if it has none, The Creator.

ALL CHARACTERS HAVE TO BE ADULTS

ALL CHARACTERS CANNOT BE FERAL ANIMALS

NO REAL PEOPLE

NO CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE BASIC ANIME CHARACTERS

NO CHARACTERS ONLY ACTED BY REAL PEOPLE

MOST IMPORTANTLY NO ONCELER.

NO ACTUALLY WELL KNOWN TUMBLR SEXYMEN IN THEIR HUMAN FORMS (OTHER FORMS ARE FINE) THE POINT OF THIS IS KIND OF CHARACTERS NOT KNOWN FOR BEING HOT
Lan Wei

**Lan Wei** is the primary protagonist of Seal of Evil. She is the most important playable character throughout the story, and her death will result in a game over in all but one scenario.

## Background

The daughter of the East Baiyue chieftain, Lan Wei is a young witch in-training. Although she only recently turned 18, she still chaffs under her father’s strict parenting. To his credit, he only wants what is best for her, which is to be prepared for anything on the day she must take up his mantle of authority and lead their people. Her mother is no longer with her. She died years ago during a Qin invasion defending both her husband and Lan Wei’s brother, who also died on that day.

Unlike other Baiyun, Lan Wei really doesn’t bear any malice against the Qin people of the Central Plains region. Having grown up during a time of post-war calm and peace, she never experienced first hand the full impact of the repeated invasion attempts.

Lan Wei’s capricious personality often gets her into trouble, especially with her close friends. For example, one of the older boys in the village, Ah Wa, often volunteers to be her guinea pig whenever she wants to practice her magic, a responsibility he claims to assume in order to spare anyone else the unfortunate side-effects of her still inexpert mystical talents. Her best friend in the world is a Beastman named Liang Hu, who was adopted into the Cloudrose community when he showed up out of the blue more than 12 years ago. Then there is Yan Hong, her brooding, somewhat moody boyfriend. They’ve been a couple for as long as anyone can remember. The entire village won’t be surprised in the least when she and he decide to finally marry. The fact that they haven’t yet continues to be a source of both amusement and wonder to them.

Despite her youth, Lan Wei does indeed exhibit her father’s temperament and even some of his wisdom. She is also a remarkable talent when it comes to casting spells and manipulating the Five Elements. Her teacher, the village’s Chief Wizard, Chi Huan, believes the girl possesses the strength of her ancestors. Someone with Lan Wei’s potential only comes along once in a very long while. A destiny of greatness awaits her.

## Trivia

* If Lan Wei ever dies, the game will immediately be over. The only scenario where her death doesn't result in a game over is during one of the possible ending battle scenarios, which requires several conditions to be fulfilled.
* As the primary protagonist, Lan Wei cannot be switched out of the party. There are only 4 times when she is "removed" from the party, all of which are scripted events, and one of which is the result of her "death".
Genshin Impact Favorite Quotes

**"Do not seek to emulate the past, for there is no law that can suffice for all time." -Yanfei**

This is a quote that I feel like Pickle Girl (Andja) would need to hear and understand. I like it a lot. I can't really explain why, but especially with all of the law shit going on with minority groups, queer marriage, trans rights to transition, non-binary rights, and rights to abortion (that was made illegal a few days ago in the US). It really shows how we shouldn't stick to rigid ideals of the past and conservative and bigoted views we used to have, but acknowledge that as times change, as people change and as society evolves old laws and old mindsets aren't applicable now, and how we should strive for a better future, not the same future we had 100 years ago.

**"Fantasy…can only survive with an underlying reality. Reality is the stillness buried deep beneath the illusion." - Raiden Ei**

Invokes a lot of emotions in me but I can't explain it.

**"The world would lose much of its appeal if wholly stripped of delusion and falsehood." - Fischl**

**"Some say a few are chosen and the rest are dregs; But I say we humans have our humanity. We will defy this world with a power from beyond." - Dainsleif**

**"Now you who set foot in this world. Your journey has reached its end, but one final doorway remains. Step forth, if you have understood the meaning of your journey. Defeat me, command me to step aside, show me that you are worthier than I to rescue her. Then the threads of all fate will be yours to re-weave." - Dainsleif**

**"What does freedom really mean when demanded of you by a God?" - Dainsleif**

**"The fate that brings people together, is not a cord so easily cut" - Kazuha**
Seal of Evil Wiki

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Shitniversary

As of writing this, it's been 1 month and 2 days since Her Imperial Majesty and Pickle Girl broke up with me

I am somehow, still alive, barely

By no means am I doing well, I am literally just about nothing other than the bare minimum of alive

but I guess I am still a living, breathing creature

so that's nice- i g -

I miss texting, I miss talking, I miss headcanoning, I miss tierlisting, I miss joking, I miss praying to Сергей and Краљ Камен, I miss playing Genshin with someone, getting excited over Genshin banners, versions, livestreams, I miss talking 24 fucking 7, I FUCKING MISS BREZ, I FUCKING MISS SEEING HER IMPERIAL MAJESTY'S HOUSE, BREZ, GIVING HER (Her Imperial Majesty, not Brez) FUCKING CHILI PEANUTS, APPLE JUICE, I miss saying Twenty to someone that's not myself while I'm talking to myself for hours and hours every day, I miss saying Сергей, I miss "want me to do the dishes for you?", I miss Blue Haired Bitch, I miss the Barbara Hate Club, I miss the Solar Fish cult, I miss the Solar Fish Headquarters, I miss Џизус Крајшт, I miss her wife, I miss fondling dice, I miss Јеј Мајко, I MISS MY FUCKING BEST FRIEND

I am pathetic. And continue on to be nothing but

I miss talking to someone that I like, I miss talking to anyone.

But, I deserve this, it's my fault. I ruined things, as I always do, I hurt her, I hurt both of them, and I deserve to suffer for that, at least they're happy now, they're happy together and I love that for them.

Until next time, which is never, comrade.

and to the person writing this, unfortunately, see you soon, bitch.
The Avengers

Marvel's The Avengers[6] (classified under the name Marvel Avengers Assemble in the United Kingdom and Ireland),[3][7] or simply The Avengers, is a 2012 American superhero film based on the Marvel Comics superhero team of the same name. Produced by Marvel Studios and distributed by Walt Disney Studios Motion Pictures, it is the sixth film in the Marvel Cinematic Universe (MCU). Written and directed by Joss Whedon, the film features an ensemble cast including Robert Downey Jr., Chris Evans, Mark Ruffalo, Chris Hemsworth, Scarlett Johansson, and Jeremy Renner as the Avengers, alongside Tom Hiddleston, Clark Gregg, Cobie Smulders, Stellan Skarsgård, and Samuel L. Jackson. In the film, Nick Fury and the spy agency S.H.I.E.L.D. recruit Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Bruce Banner, Thor, Natasha Romanoff, and Clint Barton to form a team capable of stopping Thor's brother Loki from subjugating Earth. The film's development began when Marvel Studios received a loan from Merrill Lynch in April 2005. After the success of the film Iron Man in May 2008, Marvel announced that The Avengers would be released in July 2011 and would bring together Tony Stark (Downey), Steve Rogers (Evans), Bruce Banner (Ruffalo), and Thor (Hemsworth) from Marvel's previous films. With the signing of Johansson as Natasha Romanoff in March 2009 and Renner as Clint Barton in June 2010, the film was pushed back for a 2012 release. Whedon was brought on board in April 2010 and rewrote the original screenplay by Zak Penn. Production began in April 2011 in Albuquerque, New Mexico, before moving to Cleveland, Ohio in August and New York City in September. The film has more than 2,200 visual effects shots.

## Species

* Humans
* Chickens
* Hawks (mentioned)
* Bilgesnipes (mentioned)
* Ants (mentioned)
* Pigeons (mentioned)
* Asgardians
* Frost Giants
* Chitauri
* Titans
* Life-Model Decoys (mentioned)
* Mutates
ConspFiqDrin & RatioNuMcgus Dream

I had a dream the other day, coincidentally the night of the 16/17th of August, exactly one month since CR and I broke up

I was walking in Sokobanja, right across from Amam(P) and right next to the circular stairs at Amam Bath, except about where the park started and the degenerate tree was there was this very Genshin-like terrain with no grass just Genshin-like grass and terrain, and a big glitchy hole, just like those holes under Mondstadt, like very glitchy and unnatural.

I was walking about right next to the line where it starts, the circular stairs and the bump around it where PFC and I sat years ago, and I heard/noticed/sensed Pickle Girl walking behind me, and I out of a few reasons, mainly 3 being 1 wanting to avoid her seeing me and any and all contact with her, 2 I wanted her to notice me and how "pissed" I was at her and her and 3 I wanted her to notice me and see how much I didn't even care that she was there and that I barely even noticed her (which definitely isn't true) I started speeding up and going at a fast walking pace to get away from her

except that fucking bitch (this is not an insult, it's playful annoyance for anyone who doesn't understand) noticed me and decided to fucking run up to me and start talking to me?????? like what???? tf bitch. anyways for some reason, Her Imperial Majesty was there too and remember how I said there was that glitchy Genshin terrain hole that was unnatural and deep? well we fucking fell into it, and in classic Genshin terrain fashion there was a puzzle to sovle to get out of there, but we didn't know that immediately so for a second we thought we couldn't easily escape.

And they were being extremly nice to me, which like 1 it was akward (well not sure if it was akward in the dream but now looking back hell yeah it was akward as fuck. Anyways they were just being really friendly and making conversation and we were having like normal-ish conversations

Then we saw the puzzle, worked together fairly well to solve it and get out, and then as soon as we fucking did, like literally the same exact fucking second we escaped they started acting much weirder, kind of ignoring me and half-heartedly muttering goodbye and just generally being very cold and bitchy to me (which I know I deserve but it still hurt(s)).

Then just a bit later I see them all throwing a sort of party down there in the whole with a bunch of people and having tons of fun, and obviously not even bothering to invite me (not that I'd expect that they would but it still hurt)

Fuckkkk. It's been a month...
I'm- scared...

My love, I- I'm scared, but I don't even know of what- I don't know why, I literally just started shaking and I feel panicky, and scared and my heart is beating really fast, and I feel really on edge and shaky and I feel scared I guess-? Maybe? I don't know what this is but I guess scared, but Idk why, there was no clear reason, it literally just happened out of the blue, and it's really weird like I just wanna crawl up into a ball into Kazu's arms and just have someone run their hand through my hair telling me it's okay. Also I am shaking while writing this and I'm making some typos because of it, so like... **Wow, what the fuck is this?**
Symbiote

The Klyntar (colloquial: symbiotes) are a fictional species of extraterrestrial symbiotes appearing in American comic books published by Marvel Comics, most commonly in association with Spider-Man. The symbiotes form a symbiotic bond with their hosts, through which a single entity is created. They are able to alter their hosts' personalities and/or memories by influencing their darkest desires, along with amplifying their physical and emotional traits and personality and thereby granting them super-human abilities. There are more than 40 known symbiotes in the Marvel Universe.
F u n T i m e s W i t h D e p r e s s i o n

Do you know what the most absolutely fucking \*fun\* thing is?

The only way to actually calm your brain enough to get yourself to fall asleep is to literally fatigue yourself half to (brain) death after spending all your energy silently screaming and crying violently in the shower and feeling your mind and soul rip to shreds.

at worst, at least.
GS Gender Theory (Children)

This all started when Goose got a haircut, and I saw the absolute fucking horror of what GS was doing to a child. (I'M JOKING, I'M JOKING, I mean I'm not but in this specific case it's a joke)

but jokes aside, the haircut was atrocious, and not only that but extremely, and I mean performatively, deliberately ultra-masculine. It was like she on purpose gave him the most masculine haircut ever and was really proud of herself for it

that got me thinking, she never did this to me, I even asked GTS and he did convey an undercover confirmation of it without insulting GS, that GS never did something like that to me, and while I'm thankful still I couldn't help but think that it had something to do with righting a wrong, a do-over of a "failure", which was me.

Her first child, who she allowed not to be a deliberately ultra-masculine fuckboy, ended up turning out like a little bitch, in other words, feminine. I mean look at me, long hair, feminine(-ish, f u c k .) voice, very liberal and progressive look on gender, and openly supports the трензџендерници, as well as kinda deliberately hinting at my not-cisness (which she deserves a world-class medal for ignoring, honestly like- **how fucking ignorant can you be?**)

Under no circumstance can she let the other meet that fate, she has to beat the gayness into submission before it arises (lol). So to make sure of that, she is now raising the second child to be as masculine and grossly frat-boy-ish as she can make him, which includes ultra-masculine (and ugly) haircuts, playing 100 sports, only these colors, and indoctrinating him into her cult of a belief system in a very masculine, male-ish (is that even a word?) way.

Because she's stupid enough to think that that's the way it works, that those things will really do that, give her the desired result, or a cishet, jocky male who will adhere to her stupid fucking Christian beliefs. Not to state the obvious, but instead she's just creating more pain and suffering for her child down the road, when he needs to untagle himself out of these weird beliefs and values that were shoved down his throat, and start the slow and painful process of actually finding himself beneath all these layers of a preconceived notion of self he had that wasn't real but just a result of her fucking abuse.

Trust me, I know how that feels, and it's fucking miserable.

So in conclusion...

Fuck you, GS.
IJ Mental Illness Terminology

Why I use these terms: I started using these terms because quite simply I feel incredibly guilty asigning these mental illnesses and mental health problems (as well as physical) to myself because I am not diagnosed officially, and while that is problematic, see "Diagnoses in Mental Health", I can't help but feel like- guilty? ig. It's not even guilt it's maybe like cringe, like I feel cringe at myself for using those terms when I'm not sure if I have those problems, kinda like when I was in my Taxi Liminal Numbness Era and didn't wanna even use the word gay because I wasn't 'diagnosed' as gay, which in hindsight was one of the stupider things I've done but oh well, anyways while I have gotten better at using the real terms I'm still sort of guilty using some of them so for the time being these substitute words will be more commonplace in my vocabulary.

Dendrobium - Depression

Porcelain Cup - Panic Attack

Omnipotent Cooldown - OCD

Testing:

Lukewarm - Suicidal Thoughts/ Suicidal Ideation

Ambiance/Ambient (Denoting to parents usually) - Abusive

Service Announcement - Inexplicable, Unknown Occurrence, aka you know what
Adam

SneakyAdam is one of the romantic interests in The Gamer Girl. He has long hair and is a gamer. Kabbage and Adam bond over playing League Craft.

## WEEB Playthrough

In WEEB's playthrough of the game, Adam was modelled after Enrico and is a total loser. Rejected at most points of the story, Adam ended up alone.

## Trivia

* He walked in to Kabbage and Daniel about to kiss while holding a pizza and it was funny.
I beg you, GS, please, stop

Please stop it

Please I'm begging you

Stop gaslighting me...

I beg you, **please**

please I'll do anything

**just stop all this gaslighting**

Stop it

I beg you

*I can't do this anymore...*

*I'm so tired of this...*

*I just want it to stop*

**please, someone**

make it stop

I can't take any more of this gaslighting and abuse.

**Later edit:**

In hindsight, this was not my proudest moment. Begging GS is something I'd honestly never thought I'd amount to doing, but desperate times call for desperate measures... if anything this just serves as proof of what she's doing to me, and what effect it has on me. She's making me question reality, telling me something happened, something didn't happen, **I** am wrong, **I** am misrepresenting the story, **She** is right, **She** is blameless.

GOD DAMNIT WHY CAN'T YOU FUCKING ADMIT YOU'RE WRONG. PLEASE. FOR ONCE IN YOUR GODDAMN PATHETIC LIFE AT LEAST ADMIT TO YOURSELF, IN YOUR MIND, THAT YOU. ARE. FUCKING. WRONG. Nobody can be right all the time, so why is it that you goddamn have to be?

There's only so much abuse 1 person can suffer, my one fear though... Is that limit is closer to me than I think, and that I don't have enough time... to get away. I feel myself slowly fading, even when I'm not, even when my resolve is strong and even when I resist, I feel like it's the big explosion before I fizzle out, like a star, before it totally dies, there's one last big bright shine of the purest strongest light, and then... it's all gone. That is exactly what I'm gonna be if this doesn't stop... dead.

g o n e .
Praise on dead ears

The Global Perspectives teacher praised me today regarding my research essay on How The Internet Revolutionized Communication. She said I did really well and there was nothing she would add, praised most aspects of it such as a good amount of sources, how correctly I referenced them, and she said I had a real talent for both writing and research. which- is, nice?

However

I'm still not proud of myself. I still don't think I deserve praise. I still think it's not enough, I still think it's not my talent that made that "good" essay.

But I know I won't stop doubting myself after one possibly good essay, I honestly don't know what I was expecting...

When praise falls on dead ears
New Identity(?)

well, uh, not sure where to start here

I mean look I hate who I am now, or well how I am presented to the world now

so in an ideal world, what would my identity look like?

**9/18/2022:**

**Name: Mae Ellis (**so I was thinking something Feminine, but like not too feminine, something feminine-ish but also could be gender neutral, so since I absolutely fucking love "Feel Good" show, and the main character is Mae, and also non-binary. I thought... H M. and hence why I for now am choosing Mae as my chosen name.**)**

**Gender: Non Binary (**So like, this is fucking complicated, I'll just leave my page on Gender here, and just look through that**)**

That's it for now, at a later date I definitely will add more categories, but for now this should be fine, I don't wanna add something just as a filler)
Fear. & Shame.

The only thing keeping me going, keeping my from shutting down is **shame and fear**

I wouldn't keep going if it wasn't for my (justified) fear of my parents if I show any of this to them. I'm terrified of them finding out how I feel because it would be hell for me. I don't feel safe here at all, if anything I feel the opposite

I wouldn't keep going if I wasn't so incredibly ashamed to admit I'm not okay.

I would shut down if I wasn't terrified of the fact that if I do, I don't know if I'll ever be able to go back, I don't know if I'll ever be able to do anything again, if I stop, I will stop forever, that's the fact I'm scared of.

The only thing keeping me barely trudging along throughout these shitty days is the fact that I can't let things get worse, I need to keep holding things together via a needle thin string

Because I am doing that, my whole life is being held together by a string thinner than a needle

And I am exhausted keeping it together and honestly I have no idea how I'm managing to

And I am really honestly truly scared that I won't be able to much longer...
Ogre

An ogre (feminine: ogress) is a legendary monster usually depicted as a large, hideous, man-like being that eats ordinary human beings, especially infants and children. Ogres frequently feature in mythology, folklore, and fiction throughout the world. They appear in many classic works of literature, and are most often associated in fairy tales and legend with a taste for infants.
ICOE

I take no pleasure in writing this

This is the official ICOE, In Case Of Emergency, page. In case of emergency, return here.

Ground rules:

DO NOT trust GS. GS is not to be trusted under any circumstances.

This web is poison, everybody here is connected in ways deeper and darker than it seems at first sight. Anybody and everybody connected in Scarab's web is not to be trusted, and is to be considered dangerous, this includes GP (Goose Prime) and his web, GSSs (Goose Senior Seniors), GA (Goose Adjacent) and even DS (Duck Senior).

Leave as soon as possible. Do not hesitate, she will try to stop you, do not reveal your plans under any circumstance and leave utterly and absolutely. The consequences of not doing so are dangerous. For specific instructions to leave refer to [Under Construction]

S (sparrow) is on the outside.

Any and all information revealed IS NOT inconsequential. They remember everything. Be extremely open about certain topics (such as School) to avoid suspicion, and make GS believe that her brainwashing is working, make her believe you're on her side, as well as to avoid being too open about other much more important topics.

Make GS believe you're on her side, you MUSTN'T make her doubt that, otherwise you lose the element of suprise and any insight into Scarab's Web. Redirect conversations about sensitive, important or dangerous topics ALWAYS.

If D (Dove) lands, DO NOT reveal to GS, under any circumstances whatsoever.

you are NEVER under ANY circumstances, EVER to reveal your affiliation with Gates, French Beans, Bicycle garages or anything of the sort. This is life-threatening.

In case of emergency, delete EVERYTHING. Leave nothing behind and NOTHING is a higher priority than protecting the Gates.
SBC-010-2 - "The Tommies"

**Sentient, Aggressive, Lethal**
WIP

## Description

SBC-010-2 are entities that look like First World War British soldiers in old raggedy gas masks. They come in three types: rifleman, officer, and machine gunner, all of which can be seen patrolling any stretch of the trench between 12am and 6am. Aggressive in nature, these entities attack on sight anyone unfortunate enough to come into contact with them.

It is most common to see riflemen patrolling with a Lee Enfield Rifle Mk III with a bayonet attached. Even though the rifles seem fully functional in the hand of the rifleman, if you try to use one yourself, it will not work.

There are fewer officers and machine gunners in the trenches during patrol hours. The officer will have a higher chance of spotting you as he patrols with an oil lantern instead of the riflemen and machine gunners, who do not use any kind of light at all.

If you're trapped in the trenches during the patrol hours of 2am to 4am, you'll probably discover sleeping entities in entire sections of the trench.

Between 5am and 7am, sections of the entities will charge over the top and into the darkness. At this time it will be safe to freely roam the trench system, as no one will be inside it.

## Special Containment Procedures

Is already contained within SBC-010.

Seemingly unaware of containment.
Q&A

Salutations, my dear. This will be a page to collect information of sorts, there will be a lot of questions and answers. Most of the answers will be answered here however if I feel a question is better directed towards a separate page I will link it. (This will also include voice-overs)

Q1. What's one goal you wish to accomplish this year?

A1. Honestly? To get through the year. In an ideal world I have other things but truth me told I know my limits and I really just wanna survive

Q2. What name would you have and why?

A2. My current choice as of 23/12/22 is Mae. This is a name I like for a few different reasons. Firstly, I quite like how simple it is, I find that simple names are often my favorite. Mae Martin is another reason, I feel like I really resonate with that character, and the emotions presented within them. Additionally I feel like Mae isn't too unlike my birth name (deadname?), with the emphasis on the "A" sound.
SBC-019 "The Voices in the Shadows"

**Aggressive, Lethal, State-changing entity, Hallucinations**

SBC-019 was created by Chill's dreams.

## Description

SBC-019 is an abnormally thin humanoid entity, with a height of around 6 foot 11, the entity is black in colour and appears to be completely made from a black, oily substance, yet acting as if it were solid. This form can disperse into black gaseous clouds which may enter shadows. Despite seemingly being able to see, the creature lacks eyes, only sockets which look as if they lead to a pitch-black void. The entity can only move as long as it's connected to a shadow, otherwise it's physically locked in place. SBC-019 seems to need to hunt, and specifically targets humans, luring them in to it's locations by causing it's chosen prey to hallucinate whispers in the dark and to force them to check out the "source". As soon as the entity and it's prey are in the same location, the entity will quickly rise and glide at extreme speed at it's prey, somehow completely causing vitals to cease. The entity will then use it's many needle-like claws and teeth to consume it's prey. Despite regularly hunting, the entity shows no actual need for sustenance.

## Special Containment Procedures

The entity is to be locked in a high-security seamless cell at the higher-level containment wing of Site-Gamma, with extremely powerful lights circling the outer edges and corners of the cell, leaving a shadow in the middle for 019 to be locked in. These lights are to remain on 24/7 and be connected to their own power grid in the case of a faliure, the lights should also be hooed up to the main site power, so if either power grid fails, the lights will remain on. A surveillance camera is to be embedded into the centre of the ceiling to monitor the entity. If a shadow is spotted anywhere outside the centre of the cell, a wing lockdown is to be initiated and a breach is to be declared until 019's position is confirmed.

## Reports and Files

Discovery

SBC-019 was first discovered in December of 1999 in a more rural part of England. The creature was reported by an elderly woman who saw it devour several young adults. It took several attempts of capturing to fighure out how the entity functioned, using Test Subjects as bait. Everyone was reportedly shook from the voices whispering to them, and several requested therapy afterwards, leading to a belief that the wispers could be bordering on infohazardous, but nothing has been proven. Eventually, helicopters dispatched used spotlights to attempt to contain the entity, but that failed so instead they were used to sheepdog 019 into temporary containment. On the way back, it got out, but was swiftly re-captured. It was placed in Site-Gamma where it still remains today.

Surveillance Notes

It's been reported on several occasions that 019 mutters to itself very rarely about being the "shadows of the past century", whatever that means...
SBC-007-j - "Seven Foot Rats"

SBC-007-j is of course, a seven foot rat. This article is made by Dr. Lien (AlienTheTree)

## Description

SBC-007-j is a seven foot (2.1336 meters) long rat. It has completely non-anomalous rats along itself, and when trying to remove the rats from SCP-007-j would only make it grow more rats. SCP-007-j can also call pet rats from a 7 foot radius around it, and they'll fade into wild rats. Rats that are glanced upon by SCP-007-j are reported to feast on other rats. Otherwise, it acts like a normal rat, but bigger.

It is to be researched more to confirm or deny rumors surrounding the rat.

## Special Containment Procedures

SBC-007-j is to be contained in a large rat cage with a hay matting and a large water bottle. They are to be fed food considered nutritious for it, which are:

Rats

Dry Fruit and vegetables

Seed

Cheese

## Reports and Files

On a date unknown, someone by the name Camilo [REDACTED] has reported the seven foot rat within the walls of [REDACTED]. He described the physical appearance of the rat on point.

On a later date, rumors by the rest of the [REDACTED] family have reported different odd behaviors from SCP-007-j. Whether those rumors are true or not is to be disputed.

## References

1. ↑ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oTiaYwLCrRg
2. ↑ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vm112M4ToLM
GS is a terrible psychologist

For a psychologist, GS doesn't know how people work

And for a psychologist, GS is incredibly narcissistic about herself

I mean I'm honestly confused about how as a Ph.D. psychologist she doesn't understand how forcing someone to do something makes them wanna do it less.

And honestly, does she really gain such pleasure from forcing people to converse with her? I think I use this example a lot but it's quite perplexing to me how people derive pleasure or satisfaction from forcing someone to do something, like forcing someone to be in a relationship, forcing someone to have sex with you, etc. is just objectively not enjoyable because if you're forcing someone to do something like idk- talk to you then there goes any nice feelings from engaging willingly in a conversation and enjoying what you're talking about.

for what it's worth I understand that it's a power trip, and if GS is anything, it's power-hungry and narcissistic, so she definitely gets pleasure from exerting power over others, but personally I don't even pretend to comprehend her reasoning
SBC-016 - "Nebula"

**Sentient, Telepathic, Cognitohazardous, Potentially lethal**

SBC-016, Or "Nebula", Is a Being Made from Mostly Star Matter, She Doesn't Pose a Threat Yet... But She has the power to do so..., This Page Was Made By Dr. Tree, Or TreeSquid

## Description

Nebula Appears to be Made from A purple solid Substance, 6 Spikes Are Connected by Purple String, A 7th Spike on the top of her head has an Eye, Two Yellow Lanterns hang from 2 spikes, Its staff it's using is made of a wooden substance, Most confusingly of all... It has 2 Sets of Eyes, But the One that's on the 2 Moon Face's as a collar is Fake,

Despite Seeming Harmless, Due to the Symbols, Nebula can Cause a Cognitohazard Called "Nebuloxing", In Which Nebula Makes the Victim Believe they're in space, therefore... they're oxygen runs out, and they die in 3 minutes, During This, the victims are considered SBC-016-1.

Nebula Was Found In [REDACTED], During An Expedition to Locate [EXPUNGED], Hiding in a cave, She was Supporting Her Life Using Crystals. After She was Taken Back To Site-Gamma, She Was Given a Threat Level of 1, But after the Incident, It was changed to Threat Level 7.

## Special Containment Procedures

Nebula's Containment Cell Is Housed in Site-Gamma, In a 15x15 Cubical Meter Cell, The Cell's Walls, Floor, and Ceiling must be made of screens with unbreakable glass, seamlessly connected together, cycling through patterns of nebulas and space odditiess.

~~Nebula is allowed outside of it's cell to talk to scientists and personnel on duty as long as it doesn't leave.~~

Nebula Is Unable to leave its cell after an incident.

## Reports and Files

Incident Report:

After A Failed Test with SBC-006 - "Rare Whisp", It was Remarked that Nebula Murdered 2 Scientists Out of Anger And Stress. Due to this breach, Nebula is no longer allowed outside of her cell.

Nebula Seems to Be getting a calling for “Singing”, By monitoring her cell at times, Marimba noises can be heard coming from her Spikes,

When she is let out for tests, she’s compliant 100% of the time, She doesn’t even try to escape, the only time she’s actually angry is when She has to test with SBC-022, Or “Sun”,

She is mostly seen meditating in her cell with nebulas swirling around her as she floats around in her cell.
SBC-006 - "Rare Whisp"

**Sentient**

The Rare Whisp is a Double Element Ethereal Class Type Monster, This Page Was Created out of Spite By NickDaSquidTree, Or TreeSquid, As He Is more Commonly Known

## Description

The Rare Whisp Has Green skin, Black Wavy Hair, And A Singular Red Eye, From Underneath its yellow "Dress", Spindly Yellow Arms and Legs with Green Skin, The Rare Whisp is a sort of Cocky Being, Creepily Smiling at Personnel through the Camera's of it's Cell.

The entity is of unknown origin, being found during [data expunged], it possesses a limited degree of intangibility and it's power of intangibility only enhances upon becoming angrier. It is noted that this entity does not have a reflection and some suggest it is parially trapped between 2 dimensions. Research showed it calms down significantly when exposed to sweet treats and calming music. It has been suggested it may possess other abilities, as people have reported experiencing mild hallucinations upon close encounter.

## Special Containment Procedures

The Rare Whisp is contained in a 4x4 cubical meter cell, monitored by Cameras that are to be checked every 2 hours. Treats are passed into the cell twice a day, such as cupcakes. Pleasing Music is played into the cell through speakers embedded into the wall.

## Reports and Files

The Rare Whisp has been observed on many occasions, trying to break out of it's cell to reach cupcakes with its hands, it's not that easy though, and shows distress upon faliure to do so.