I Am In Full Survival Mode/Confessionals

I am RELIEVED because I am here with Grace and Greg. There could not have been two better people with me to be honest. Grace is with me 100%. I know this for a fact and I’m just not gonna let anything compromise that trust we have built since Day 1. She won’t either. When you know you have made that ally, you just know. Also I have Greg here who did take my info and come shank the correct idol path right out from under me, but he did come to me with the Idol after he found it and I believe that he sees us as a duo with him in control as this point. So I have my real #2, my new fake #2, and I have the idol with me and I will have influence over how it will be played. It could even end up in my possession.
I am NERVOUS because the two people from cast reveal that I did not want to be on a tribe with before merge are Tim and Courtney. Well here they are! I’m nervous about Tim because he’s the most threatening player from Kilimanjaro in my view. Not only does he know our full story and have the ultimate charismatic factor to build an army against us, he has the perfect victim story from that game of being the nice and loyal player who got baited and backstabbed by me at F8. I am nervous about being on a tribe with Courtney because I don’t know how to play this. I’ve haven’t gotten thrown back into a game with a close friend from a previous season before. I don’t want to play the same game I did in S6 where I was forced to work with her in secret, but here we are now. Obviously I don’t want to target her and be the one that sends her home but I also can’t defend a vote against her if it comes up. Not even to Grace. I’ve sold Grace on our OG tribe that I had no interest in working with Courtney because of how brutally she betrayed me, but I was hoping to not find myself in a situation like this where I had to prove it.

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We are back after the swap and surprisingly did not get swap fucked. In fact, I swapped into what I would consider a very favorable tribe for me. I swapped with my number 1 ally, the Phecda idol, the man who is the “only person in the game to know about the Phecda idol”, two people Wes is iffy about working with, but who will automatically trust Wes, and three winners. Honestly, thank god for random.org. I’ll start out with some insight on my old friends and my new friends.
1). Wes- Not much has changed about this one. I’m starting to see some of Wes’s weaknesses throughout his gameplay which only make me like him more honestly. He’s neurotic like me and constantly paranoid, but I’ve been able to talk him into things that are beneficial for both of us. Maybe later on I’ll be able to turn the tides and be the one making decisions for both of us, I’m testing those waters to see how much Wes would be willing to do for me. Overall though I wouldn’t ever lay a hand on Wes, or put a knife near him. He’s a genuine friend and a genuine ally and also happens to be the key component for me to get through this swap.
2). Tommy- Yeah, Greg isn’t here for a reason I’ll explain later. I see potential in Tommy. Like… a lot of potential. We are both winners, he’s an age range I can get along with, I think both of us are very competitive and into the game. I’m not sure how much he really meshed with his original tribe, but I think Tommy can become a great ally soon.
3). Greg- The wildcard with the idol himself. Greg is just very erratic and I feel like I cannot trust him long term. Greg trusts Wes more than me, I gave him a test dropping small things in order to separate myself from Wes and to see how much he would keep from Wes. He told Wes nearly everything I said so good job Greg, you aren’t withholding information. Bad job Greg you aren’t gonna keep my secrets clearly!! I think he thinks he’s a middle piece between me and Wes which is what is the public’s perception. The less I am associated with Wes, the better. We weren’t quite able to divide and conquer on this tribe as much as we thought we could, but that’s okay.
4). Tim- This will more than likely flip with Courtney once I talk to Courtney more, but I love Tim on a personal level. The issue is…. So does everyone. Tim is just a lovable guy and his charisma is scary. Like Ben in Cayman, I don’t like people who are more charming than me and Tim runs laps around my charm. He also seems to be into the Kilimanjaro thing with Wes and Courtney which isn’t exactly something that includes me which is a sad.
5). Courtney- I haven’t gotten a chance to talk to her much yet, but she has done A LOT of talking with Wes. Like.. thanks for telling Wes all of your secrets Courtney but unfortunately, your secrets are now mine to hold so maybe that wasn’t the right call. She has the Alioth idol, told Wes she was willing to give it to him, and seems to be super into Wes and Wes only. Wes doesn’t feel the same way there because she has proven to backstab him once and could do it again. To quote Wes from our call earlier “I could get the idol from Courtney, turn around and vote her out and blow her a kiss on the way out the door. (or something like that tbh I don’t have a good brain). I love Courtney but she is aligning with all of the people I once wanted to. She’s super close to Barrett, she wants to take my place unintentionally with Wes. These situations are scary to think about, but she is also a winner. I need to try and keep the winners around, and Courtney supposedly has this exact same line of thinking. She told Wes she was gonna try and make an all winners group with me, her and Tommy.
Right now I’m just observing and will decide what is best for Wes and I when the time comes, or if it comes. Laying low is all I can really do because one wrong step could expose Wes and I and kill my game. I think if these cards are played right Wes and I are setting ourselves up to be the duo this game hasn’t seen. Better than Gage and Grace, better than Courtney and Brandon. “Grace and Wes” has the potential to do some serious damage here. We just have to get to that point, and hopefully by that point I’ll be able to play slightly better than Wes and take a second win.

Alicia: 2 hour convo. Solid gal, like her a lot. We honestly didnt talk game too much and just had cool convos about states. However I dont think that is super important as we were growing closer. She told me barrett received 2 votes from chi and greyson
Mylo: 1 hour convo: Crazy we didnt VC last season but like one of the last things I said to him before getting voted off was "I hope we can work together in another org" and so I am kinda hoping we digs that idea. I am making it clear to him I am a free agent and so him working with me could (maybe) gain my loyalty. I think him and alicia are close
Barrett: 1 hour convo. Cool dude. Another adult I can vibe with talking about work and such. We again just talked about life and I like him a lot. He did mention chi may be on the outs but it is really hard to tell with him. I do get the vibe he may be playing me and may want to go alioth strong
At the end of the day lets win this challenge and not worry about it

3 winners (Tommy, Grace, Courtney). They could be looking at each other and being like, guys, we gotta protect each other here. We gotta have each other’s backs. They might form an alliance. I think Tommy is with me but I think he’d be down for that. Grace doesn’t seem incredibly loyal to Greg and Wes specifically (although I think she’s Phecda loyal). And Courtney is by herself from Alioth so she’ll do whatever she can!
There are 3 Kilimanjaro people here as well! Myself, Wes, and Courtney. We’ve already created an alliance chat, and in true S6 fashion, we’ll probably be doing VCs from time to time. I think we’re all down to work with each other.
Grace has been incredibly easy to talk to, and she’s given me some game info. Something makes me want to trust her. But that might be what makes her dangerous. In fact, she’s by far the most dangerous person on this tribe. I think she was the leader of Phecda. She’s incredibly good at this game. I have a great relationship with her but she’s so incredibly scary to keep around. I hate to do it, because I genuinely like her. Courtney’s like my big sister and Grace is like my younger sister. But sometimes you gotta make tough decisions in this game to win.
I’m not sure what to make of Greg. His text intro was terrifying. He sounded like a sociopath, and I originally wanted him out first. I still would be very okay if he was the first boot of this tribe. But honestly, he’s been pretty relaxed so far. Kinda just seems like the average org player. I’m not getting anything extraordinary from Greg, but nothing alarming.

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Thoughts
-I am in full survival mode, trying to have as much conversation as possibile with whoever will respond to me.
-There is a very good chance I am overplaying but I think that is a risk I have to take
-Vincent and I agreed to look after each other but that is not my priority. If I have to cut him to stay safe I have no problem doing it.
-I have had great conversations with Alicia, Mylo, and Barrett and am confident they all like me as a person, now I just have to make them like me as a character in this game,
-Chi is like actually the most annoying person I have ever spoken to in an org, I am sorry to say this and Chi if you are reading this after the season i apologize, but it is the truth. She hardly talks to me and what she does say I just do not vibe with.
Moving forward I am going to continue building bonds with Mylo and Alicia. I am hoping we only go to tribal once and we can cut Vincent. I would love it if chi goes but I am not going to risk saying a name and getting the tribe to turn on me.
Mylo also said that courtney was pushing a kilimanjaro strong thing to him and it has got to be a lie. Courtney girl that is the worst plan I have ever heard
I am not going down without a fight
My social bonds are being built, I need to continue working that and I may be in an ookay spot if we lose

Sly
Ben
Kevin
vs.
Lev
Nate
Lochlan
They're going to tribal! I actually forgot to say it, but I was anticipating they'd be the ones going to tribal. Alioth 2.0 seems like the best tribe in terms of challenges, Phecda 2.0 is okay. Merak 2.0 seems to be the least competent in challenge, even though they have Sly :joy: I was anticipating we'd get 2nd, Alioth gets first, and Merak would lose. Psychic! Kinda just seems dumb to say after the fact. Oh well!
But anyways, it's 3-3. Merak vs Phecda. From what I know, they might stay together. Ben and Sly were aligned in AOTS. Kevin is kinda on the outside of the trio, but I think that they'll stick together. I don't think they're eager to turn on each other. All bets are off if they go to rocks, but I have more faith in Merak's loyalty than Phecda's loyalty. The trio of Lochlan, Nate, and Lev is interesting. It's a big question mark on them. I think Lev is Phecda strong, Nate could've been in the majority alliance (if there was one), maybe Lochlan too. Honestly, I think they're slightly more likely to flip on each other, just because they've never been to tribal. But they could be tight as well. It could go to rocks on Merak. Wish I could watch. But ideally Sly goes home, if somebody on Merak does go home. Like best case scenario a Phecda is gone, but I'll just have to wait and see.

5. Tim - I mean, do I need to explain this? I love Tim because he is such an awesome guy to talk to. He is good friend, who really listens in conversation and participates actively in dialogue. Communicating with him is super easy and I just can't say enough how much of a pleasure it has been to play in 2 different ORGs with him. With that said, I've known since cast reveal that I was never going to be able to trust him in this game. I played him very hard in the last one, and successfully. I feel bad about it. So bad that I can't even bring myself to placate him because I feel like it would be an insult to his intelligence. I wish our time in Phoenix hadn't gone down like it did, and that it didn't just happen 2 weeks ago before finding ourselves out here again. But it is what it is. Tim is not only on the bottom of my trust ranking for this tribe, but also he is #18 in the entire game. To reiterate, it is only due to my regret in the way I treated him in Kilimanjaro.
4. Tommy - I really like talking to Tommy. He is the first other disc golfer I have met in an ORG! He doesn't take it as seriously as me, but hey its something. I empathize with Tommy's story. He explained that he feels of all the Phoenix Winners that he gets the least amount of credit. From his point of view, the rest of the players didn't respect his game as much because he played very UTR and found himself in a position (similar to Mylo from S6) where he was powerless with no choice but to let his allies fall one after another while he just slipped by in the background. I say however you get to the end is deserving of a win, and if it weren't for him coming from the same tribe as Tim I would probably want to try and help Tommy get another deep run here. However, he's spent too much time with Tim before meeting me to ever let me comfortable about his perception of my capabilities.

Alicia - She's very easy to get along with. I want to work with her, although not exactly sure who we would work with. She doesn't seem too enthusiastic about my suggestion of Chi, which is unfortunate because Chi seemed enthusiastic about Alicia.
Barrett - We connected almost immediately. I'd love to work with him, but I get the feeling he's unlikely to flip and is only DMing me because he thinks I'm cool and not because he wants to work with me. I don't feel comfortable bringing up a potential alliance with him yet because I don't want to give off the impression of scrambling to stay alive, especially because I don't see myself sticking with it longterm.
Brandon - Wow. We don't connect very well. This is like the most forced ally I've ever had. Neither of us seemed to really want this, but random.org forced us together. We have differing ideas about what we should do, with Brandon wanting to go the simple route of voting Chi if we lose and hoping we only need to deal with a single tribal, and me trying to engrain ourselves into some sort of majority here. Regardless, if I pull anything off, Brandon will have had to come along because he's by far the easiest number to gain.
Chi - I like her, but her social game has been easily the weakest out of the six of us. It's not really her fault but she's spent far less time on than us, and she's barely been DMing anyone. Voting her out would be super easy, but then what happens next?
Mylo - We have barely interacted, he seems kind of cool. Not sure if we can work together, definitely don't see myself trying too hard to get him to vote with me soon.

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So it appears what I initially thought would be a good swap for me has turned into one that has been a complete nightmare…
So for starters, it’s apparent that NONE of these people like me except Wes very much. I’ve tried and tried for two days to forge connections with people but they’re honestly getting nowhere, and it’s clear they’re getting me nowhere on the basis that the only response I get from people gamewise is the generic “oh I love everyone, we should just win out!!, I don’t want anyone to go” when I know there's multiple alliances that are forming or have formed without me.
Wes made the mistake which might’ve been on purpose of accidentally getting Courtney to target me, which on top of the fact that I’m being left out of things made me really upset. If you read this postseason Wes and really are just trying to play me and cut me for Courtney after a certain point, cool. I’m not the kind of player that is okay with just letting someone else make decisions for me and having no autonomy over myself, but if nobody likes me much I can’t change that either.
There’s 4 potential groups floating around a 6 person tribe so far which I’ll talk about in order of how they pertain to me because that’s all that I really can talk about:
1). The Chicken Dinners (Tommy Courtney Grace): This is the all winners alliance which really confuses me because of events I’ll get into after. I thought that Tommy and Courtney would be serious about not targeting winners, which I believe is a fair point but idk. We’re gonna try and VC today so hopefully I can get a little more clarity on this.
2). Whatever group Tommy is trying to make with Wes and Tim and maybe Greg: What is the point of trying to align yourself with the whole tribe Tommy? Who are you gonna target to vote out? This makes no sense to me and I thought I had a good connection with Tommy at first but it appears I do not. Just like I thought I had a good connection to Courtney but that also appears to be fake. Everything is fake on this tribe and Wes might even be fake too.
3). The Kilimanjaro alliance: This one isn’t that important anymore because Wes doesn’t care so it’s not that important.
4). OG Phecda: I haven’t talked game with Greg in ages so who knows where he stands anymore.
I have zero faith that I will survive if we lose because people just are not giving me the vibes that they like me at all. This could be a completely wrong read but I don’t know what else I’m supposed to be thinking. It’s just demoralizing and I want to be a better player than riding Wes’s coattails but that is physically impossible at the moment.
So for now I have to go another day acting completely oblivious to everything going on around me and hoping that somehow something else happens and I find an in. Right now…. that seems like such a distant and unattainable goal but I’m not giving up on it.