I'm Literally Weeping Into A Bag Of Cheetos/Confessionals

### Day 10

The perk to going to tribal is it shows where everyone lays. I now know I can tryst Ally/Kailyn/Elizabeth/Daunte and that they were all being honest with me.
It's especially useful cause now we're swapping and I'm gonna need them as allies if we swap on a tribe together.
The PROBLEM is that one of them has the idol. I was looking for it constantly, working hard and then I finally find where it is.. just to learn it's been taken.
I'm sure Ally has it. She seems like the most active. If not her, then Elizabeth.
I really coulda used this idol if I ended up on a tribe with no allies, so I'm feeling especially bummed that I don't have it.
I picked 2 in the tribe swap cause it's my lucky number so... I better get on a good tribe.
Also this is a good chance to start getting brawn people out. They deserve it"

### Day 11

I’m sure Elizabeth, Kailyn, and I can stick together as a majority on this tribe. My main concern is just one of them having an idol.
Also, I’m worried about how my tribe will do in the challenges. None of us excel in them, and tbh from what I’ve seen Hailey barely does them.
Things are looking good for me here though. Ain just said she wants to work with me although I’m sure it’s because she knows she’s in minority and Elizabeth/Kailyn won’t reply to her.
Also I’m still bitter I don’t have the idol cause it would’ve been really nice to have "

I had 2 alliances on my OG tribe. I have a majority on my swapped. I like everyone I’m with rn and am feeling pretty stable.
I’m saying all this cause it would’ve been even more perfect If I had the idol.
I was SO close to getting it skdjdjd and I am still dissapointed I don’t have it.
I wanna make merge so bad and that idol wouldve been the key to getting out of any sticky situation that might prevent that."

### Day 12

On the obvious side there’s the alliance of Me/Elizabeth/Kailyn from the Jasper tribe. We’re a tight group and have no real reason to flip on eachother.
On the other side theres Ain. I like her a lot. She says she wants to work with me and that she’s talked to me the most. We were talking right after we lost about who to vote. I brought up that Hailey is kinda weak at challenges and Ain was kinda defending her.. Which I don’t blame her. I’m sure Ain and Hailey have had some sort of talk that they’re already in an obvious minority.
If Ain really does wanna work with me it raises the question, ‘should i flip?’
Like I said earlier, I have no real reason to.
But flipping would give me connections with both brain and brawn. And say Elizabeth does have the idol, I could blindside her with it.
It’s unlikely I’ll flip. Hailey seems to be the target from my Jasper alliance and I think she’s the weakest so I’ll probably vote her out "

I’ve built a solid foundation with Elizabeth and Kailyn and have no reason to throw that away for a risky alliance with Hailey and Ain. I also believe Hailey is the weakest member, and I really wanna win challenges.
The biggest problem I have with this vote though is that I want Ain to trust me because I like her a lot. But with how Me/Kailyn/Elizabeth have been lying to her, she probably won’t.
I also feel bad for Hailey cause she seems really nice.
I mostly feel bad for myself though cause I am afraid I’m gonna get exposed.. wish me luck."