I remember when

> *we used to laugh.*
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***i remember when*** is the first mixtape created for Sasha Rodriguez. It was released on February 22, 2016 on 8tracks. The playlist details Sasha's feelings about her struggles with addiction and her relationship with Carson .

The second mixtape for Sasha is ***AMEN***, released on April 9, 2019.

### Development

"she's something of the glue in the gang and tries her best to be her friends' rock, but she's not so good at being her own rock so these are songs i feel she'd listen to, if she actually existed lol" <2016/02/21>

"i'm less picky with Sasha's playlist since the songs i chose were less 'i need songs that define this character's backstory/personality/motivations' and more simple 'what songs would she like to listen to?' thankfully, in trying to find out what songs Sasha would like, i developed a sense of 'well why would she like to listen to these songs?' that made the mix a bit more 3-dimensional rather than just being a group of songs that she randomly likes to listen to, they do provide some insight to her character <2016/02/14>

This playlist is a departure from Cas' usual style. It consists of louder and harder beats, with a mix of upbeat and angry moods, in addition to the usual sadness and angst.

## Track listing

1. "Rescue" - Yuna - *Rescue* (2013) - 3:46
2. "Young Blood" - The Naked and Famous - *Passive Me, Aggressive You* (2010) - 4:06
3. "Amsterdam" - Imagine Dragons - *Night Visions* (2012) - 4:01
4. "Am I Missing" - Dashboard Confessional - *A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar* (2003) - 4:03
5. "Innocent" - Our Lady Peace - *Gravity* (2002) - 3:42
6. "Over My Head (Better Off Dead)" - Sum 41 - *Does This Look Infected* (2002) - 2:29
7. "Those Nights" - Skillet - *Comatose* (2006) - 3:46
8. "Be Somebody" - Boyce Avenue - *Road Less Traveled* (2016) - 3:23

## Lyrics & Meta

```
[Intro]
She thinks she’s all alone
And all her hopes are gone
And so I wrote this song
So she can move along]

[Verse 1]
Things were bad
She was in despair
Things were bad and you were never there
But things were bad, she came up for air
She said a little prayer
She found herself
Yeah she’s got light in her face, she don’t need no rescuing she’s okay

[Chorus 1]
Yeah, she’s got life in her veins, she don’t need no rescuing she’s okay

[Chorus 2]
No S.O.S. needed, no rescuing, she’s fine out there
No S.O.S. needed, no rescuing, she’s fine out there

[Chorus 1]
Yeah, she’s got life in her veins
She don’t need no rescuing she’s okay

[Verse 2]
She looks into the sky
And all her tears are dry
She kiss her fears goodbye
She’s gonna be alright
Things were bad
It was beyond repair
She was scared
She couldn’t handle it
Things were bad, but now she’s glad
Can’t you tell that she’s walking on air?

[Chorus 3]
Yeah, she’s got light in her face
She don’t need no rescuing, she’s okay
Yeah, she’s got life in her veins
She don’t need no rescuing, she’s okay

[Chorus 2]
No S.O.S. needed, no rescuing, she’s fine out there
No S.O.S. needed, no rescuing, she’s fine out there

[Chorus 1]
Yeah, she’s got life in her veins
She don’t need no rescuing, she’s okay

[Bridge]
That girl is you, yeah
And that girl is me
That girl is stronger than the raging sea
That girl is you, yeah
And that girl is me
That girl is stronger than the raging sea

[Chorus 3]
Yeah, she’s got light in her face
She don’t need no rescuing, she’s okay
Yeah, she’s got life in her veins
She don’t need no rescuing, she’s okay

[Chorus 2]
No S.O.S. needed, no rescuing, she’s fine out there
No S.O.S. needed, no rescuing, she’s fine out there

[Chorus 1]
Yeah, she’s got life in her veins, she don’t need no rescuing she’s okay

```

```
[Verse 1]
We're only young and naive still
We require certain skills
The mood it changes like the wind
Hard to control when it begins]

[Chorus]
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah]

[Verse 2]
Can't help myself but count the flaws
Claw my way out through these walls
One temporary escape
Feel it start to permeate

We lie beneath the stars at night
Our hands gripping each other tight
You keep my secrets hope to die
Promises, swear them to the sky

[Chorus]
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Bridge: Thom Powers]
As it withers, brittle it shakes
Can you whisper, as it crumbles and breaks?]
As you shiver, count up all your mistakes
Pair of forgivers, let go before it's too late]
Can you whisper? Can you whisper?
Can you whisper? Can you whisper?

[Chorus]
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

```

```
[Verse 1]
I'm sorry, mother, I'm sorry, I let you down
Well, these days I'm fine; no, these days I tend to lie
I'll take the Western train, just by the side of Amsterdam
Just by my left brain, just by the side of the Tin Man

[Verse 2]
I'm sorry, brother, I'm sorry, I let you down
Well, these days you're fine; no, these days you tend to lie
You'll take the Western train, just by the side of Amsterdam
Just by your left brain, just by the side of the Tin Man

[Chorus]
Your time will come
If you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me
I've tried, but I keep coming up short

[Verse 3]
I'm sorry, lover, I'm sorry I bring you down
Well, these days I try, and these days I tend to lie
Kinda thought it was a mystery, and then I thought it wasn't meant to be
You said yourself fantastically, "Congratulations, you are all alone!"

[Chorus]
Your time will come
If you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me
I've tried
Your time will come
If you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me
I've tried

[Bridge]
But the rain won't fall for the both of us
The sun won't shine on the both of us
Believe me when I say
That I wouldn't have it any other way

[Chorus]
Your time will come
If you wait for it, if you wait for it
It's hard, believe me
I've tried

[Outro]
But I won't wait much longer
'Cause these walls, start crashing down
No, I won't wait much longer
'Cause these walls, start crashing down
And I keep coming up short

```

```
Sharp disaster in a fresh new coma
Was it worth it when it was over
Proving yourself right
You'd make the biggest noise
I'd lock my hands behind my head
I'd cover my heart and hit the deck
I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you

(It's a long way) Is there anything
(For an answer) Worth looking for?
(Is there any news?) Worth loving for?
(Is there any word?) Worth lying for?
(Is there trauma?) Is there anything
(Or a struggle?) Worth waiting for?
(Am I missing?) Worth living for?
(Was the body found?) Worth dying for?
[Repeat]

[Repeat all x2]

```

```
Oh, Johnny wishes he was famous
Spends his time alone in the basement
With Lennon and Cobain and a guitar and a stereo
And while he wishes he could escape this
But it all seems so contagious
Not to be yourself and faceless
In a song that has no soul

[Chorus]
I remember feeling low
I remember losing hope
And I remember all the feelings
And the day they stopped
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent, we are, we are all
We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent, we are, we are all

Oh, and Gina's losing faith in what she knows
Hates her music, hates all of her clothes
Thinks of surgery and a new nose
Every calorie's a war,
And while she wishes she was a dancer
And that she never heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her some answers
And make her feel beautiful

[Chorus]

One day you'll have to let it go
You'll have to let it go
One day you'll stand up on your own
You'll stand up on your own
Remember losing hope
Remember feeling low
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

We are, we are all innocent
We are all innocent, we are, we are
[Repeat x3]

We are, we are all innocent

```

```
[Verse 1]
What happened to you?
You played the victim for so long now in this game
What I thought was true
Is made of fiction and I'm following the same
But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm falling
I'm falling

[Chorus 1]
Now I'm in over my head
For something I said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocrisy's beginning to get to me

[Verse 2]
It's none of my concern
Don't look to me 'cause
I don't believe in fame]
I guess you never heard
I met our makers they don't even know your name
But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I'd say my time has served me well
I'm falling
I'm falling

[Chorus]
And now I'm in over my head
With something I said, completely misread I'm better off dead
And now I can't see how fake you can be
This hypocrisy's beginning to get to

[Verse 3]
This came long before, those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare
What's with my disgrace I've lost the human race
No one plans for it to, blow up in their face

[Bridge]
Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces?
Who said it was so easy to put back all these pieces?

[Chorus 1]

[Outro]
Over my head
Better off dead
Over my head
Better off dead
Alright

```

```
[Verse 1]
I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget them all
Because on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd

[Chorus]
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

[Verse 2]
I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us
Those nights belong to us

I remember when
We used to laugh
And now I wish those nights would last

[Chorus] (x2)

[Outro]
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong

```

```
[Verse 1]
My head feels tangled up like the headphones in my pocket
Two words and you got me
Two nights and you told me that
Once the time is counting down it's impossible to stop it
Three words that we need to save
Three weeks till you move away

[Pre Chorus]
So go
Go
Your heart has to be followed woah

[Chorus]
Cause we've all got a dream
Oh gotta be somebody
Be someone

Cause we've all got a dream
Oh gotta be somebody
Be someone
So please, be somebody with me

[Verse 2]
Halls of magazines, left from two months ago
I'm clinging, to old news, memories I'm scared to lose now
I find reminders down so far under the bed
Three words could of made you stay
Three words that I left too late

[Pre Chorus]

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
If you feel like running, the grass is greener inside your heart]
And I'll be there if it falls apart
Love who you're becoming
Sometimes we win but sometimes we fall
Your story still remains untold

[Pre Chorus]

[Chorus] (x4)

So please
Be somebody with me

```