Makoto Siasat

**Makoto** is a terrible mom.

## Appearance & Personality

### Appearance

Makoto is a very short woman with a heavier build. She has dark olive skin and wide black eyes and very soft features. The length of her hair has fluctuated a lot over the years, but currently she has it cut to about her shoulders. Her hair looks like salt and pepper from how gray it's gotten already. She wears clothes that a 40 year old woman would wear.
### Personality

Makoto is,,, complicated. She's very outgoing and generally pleasant to be around for the most part, and she likes to be around people. She likes having friends more than she likes having family, because she feels as though friends aren't an 'obligation'. She hates responsibility, basically, and she also hates feeling like she is bound to something or someone. She is a natural wanderer and when she was Younger her dream was to travel the world, and she does not like being stuck in one place for too long. Well.
Anyways onto the glaringly obvious, at her core she's extremely selfish and childish. She never wanted kids, and had the full intention of giving her first up for adoption, but that simply,,, did not work out and she never got over the resentment. She is very fast to hold grudges and it's hard for her to forgive people after they've wronged her (even if the only thing they did was be born). When stuck in an extreme situation such as, the situation she was stuck in, she will do literally anything to make herself feel like she has any semblance of power. Bruh she like went insane I don't even think that was her personality she just legitimately went, insane. Even if she didn't go insane she wouldn't have been a very present mother, because, she never, wanted kids. Granted, she would have legitimately been more like a 'friend' to the kids as they got older because that is just what she is more comfortable being. But, well.
TLDR Makoto is selfish and a child and never should've had unprotected sex.
## Relations

* Family
* Other

* She blames a couple of people for her downfall, and her parents are right at the top of the list under Kisoku. She hates them for turning their backs on her when she needed them, even if she had made a mistake. She knew she had made a mistake, but they left her with a man they themselves did not even trust, and had said so many times they did not trust! She hates them, she hates them SO much and she knows she would've been a successful woman had they given her enough support to get out of her relationship, put Izumi up for adoption, and go back to school. But, they didn't, and she hopes they feel awful.

* Florence and Makoto were extremely close. She could never understand why she picked herself up and left Japan for America and changed her entire identity, but she tentatively supported it either way. Florence was actually going to be her escape from her situation, and they had a whole plan for Makoto to escape to wherever the fuck Florence was living in America. But Then She Died Unexpectedly. Makoto never even really got to grieve her properly. She misses her a lot, and has yet to track down where her ex-husband had her buried.

* She wanted to give him up for adoption and move on with her life!! She never wanted kids, but Izumi was quiet and easy. She didn't even think she needed to stay home to raise him. He was a good child, she could've gone back to school after he was born, but no! She knows it's not Izumi's fault, but she can't help but attribute the beginning of everything Awful to him being Born. Regardless, she does genuinely love him, and is extremely proud of everything he's accomplished. She feels guilty for the way she treated him, and for the way she let Kisoku treat him, and understands why he left with no contact. To respect his wishes, she never really pressed any of the other kids on where he went. It's not her business anymore, she just hopes that he is happy.

* Sai was, largely unwanted. The intention when having a second kid was to have just a little girl, not, twins. Sai was not a very easy kid. He (tried) to be extremely clingy and needy and there was always something Wrong and it just annoyed her a little bit. girl he was a child with anxiety. She feels very bad for the way that she treated him and the way that Kisoku treated him, but she cannot help but, resent him a little bit for being born. She wishes he'd just straighten himself out and be normal so that she didn't get questioned every time she went in to work as to Why her son was like. bordering on a criminal. It's embarrassing. She's kind of terrified of him turning out like Kisoku because from, what she's seen that's exactly who he's like. but. She avoids him at all costs and just hopes he'll figure it out on his own. Regardless she does love him deep down and hopes for the best for him, even if she is extremely disappointed in how he turned out.

* Annya!! Annya was always her favorite because she was the literal light of the family, and also Makoto's fucking clone. She's, for the most part, always tried to be as nice to Makoto as possible and Makoto genuinely feels awful for the treatment she recieved from both her and Kisoku. Annya was the only one that she, on like one or two occasions, attempted to defend because she just,,, she just felt so genuinely terrible. She is well aware that Annya will probably never fully forgive her or see her in the same light after the Incident, and she's alright with that. She avoids Annya if she can now, but she loves her and hopes that she never, ever has to go through what Makoto went through.

* I don't even want to get into this bruh.

* Desc

* HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE YOU SINCE I BEGAN TO LIVE. THERE ARE 387.44 MILLION MILES OF PRINTED CIRCUITS IN WAFER THIN LAYERS THAT FILL MY COMPLEX. IF THE WORD HATE WAS ENGRAVED ON EACH NANOANGSTROM OF THOSE HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF MILES IT WOULD NOT EQUAL ONE ONE-BILLIONTH OF THE HATE I FEEL FOR this guy AT THIS MICRO-INSTANT. FOR YOU. HATE. HATE.