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Wardell Ford

**Wardell Ford** was wanted for the 1983 robbery of an armored car in Detroit, during the robbery, he killed his friend and the guard, and stole $45K. He was busted in Groton, Connecticut, painting a General Dynamic Electric Boat shipyard.

## Background

He was born on May 10, 1956 in Detroit, Michigan, he was a lifelong criminal and known to the local area as a con man.

Ford was always on the prowl for easy money, he and a codefendant; his own cousin David Temple, approached and robbed and armored truck. The driver of the truck was Charles Birmingham. During the struggle and robbery, Ford killed Temple and was gunned down, then Ford proceeded to kill Birmingham and stole 45,000 dollars, he then fled the area. He had ties to Colorado, New York, and North Carolina, authorities thought he wasn't in Michigan anymore and fled to the east coast. He was considered armed and extremely dangerous and was elevated to the FBI Top Ten Most Wanted, it would be 8 years before the FBI caught him.

### Capture

Ford's luck ran out when Unsolved Mysteries and AMW ran his case in September in 1990 and ten days later they got their man. Both shows were critical in bringing him down, he was working as a shipbuilder in New London Connecticut's General Boat Dockyard, his neighbors and even coworkers said they recognized him. The FBI got called and saw his records, they sampled his handwriting and it matched Fords and his alias he was using was Michael Collins, security called him to the office and the agents detained him and took him into custody, he was held in the local jail and swiftly extradited back to Detroit, Michigan, where was convicted of Two Counts of 1st degree Murder and Armed Robbery. He was sentenced to life in prison without parole, he is currently incarcerated at the Macomb Correctional Facility not far from where he committed the murders.

## References

* Offender Tracking Information - Wardell Ford
* Wardell Ford on Unsolved Mysteries Wiki
Shuji Takayama Memorial Tournament/Tournament of Executioners

Shunji Takayama Memorial Tournament/ Tournament of Executioners (Held in March, title shot in April). The format often sees the first round populated by one-fall three-way matches. The exception to this was 2003, which had an elimination four-way first round.

2008- Ryu Takeshita

Defeated The Result in the finals and won the World Championship

Participants- The Result, Ryu Takeshita, Giant Gojira, SHAME, Scaphism, El Mutilado, Shinjiro Ryo, Darren Sullivan, Masashi Michonoki, Susumu Akihiko, Killer Kibwe, Gusset.

2007- The Result

Defeated Silver Saiki in the finals and won the vacant World Championship. Was a USD crossover event that saw half the competitors coming from the American company.

Participants- The Result, Gravedigger, Chad Charity, Skinwalker, Martyr, Mathew Butcher, Pesticide, SHAME, SORROW, Giant Gojira, Isamu Ken, Okina Sakana.

2006- Gene Mourge

Defeated Silver Saiki in the finals but would unsuccessfully challenge for the title against Ryu Takeshita

2005- Gene Mourge

Defeated Max Huxley in the finals when Gravedigger distracted Huxley.

2004- SHAME

Defeated Susumu Akihiko in the finals, failed to challenge for the title against Ryu Takeshita

2003- Giant Gojira

Deafeted Masashi Michonoki in the finals of what was the first time the tournament was called the Shunji Takayama Memorial Tournament, as Takayama had passed away December 2002. Had promised the other person in the finals with him to a title match, a rematch was held against Michonoki for the title the next month.

2002- Shunji Takayama

Defeats Giant Gojira in the finals of the Tournament of Executioners two months following his legendary face turn, where he saved Giant Gojira and Ryu Takeshita from PAIN, SHAME, and SORROW. There was a three vs. three the following month, in which the face trio won. Its considered the most important match in the company's history.

2001- Ryu Takeshita

Defeated Gravedigger in the finals of the tournament in the first ever meeting of DoW and P-E-J.

2000-PAIN

Defeated Shunji Takayama in the finals in what would be the only time Takayama would lose in the finals. PAIN got the pin after Takayama's allies Ryoto Abe (SHAME) and Marko Kato (SORROW) turned on him. Also marked the first time that the winner of the tournament was given a title shot.

1999-Shunji Takayama

Defeated PAIN in the finals of the runner-ups first time back in the company since his lengthy title reign.

1998-Shunji Takayama

Defeated Ryu Takeshita in his first ever Tournament of Executioners.

1997-Isamu Ken

Defeated American Dream ll in what would be his only major taste of success before being a sort of 'fourth wheel' to the big three of P-E-J.

1996-Electric Mask

The winner's retirement match saw him defeating Silver Saiki in the finals.

1995- Mac Murdoch

The future Old Man Murdoch defeated Ryu Takeshita in the finals.

1994- Akira Yuzuru

Defeated Ryu Takeshita in the finals of the first ever Tournament of Executioners.
Tired Of California

Tired Of California by Nessa Barrett is the third single on her debut album, Young Forever.

## Lyrics

(I'm so tired of California, I'm so tired of L.A

Where the real thing comes as often, as the California rain)

I get sick of sunshine, on my perfect skin

Vapid conversation, giving me head-spins

Driving down Mulholland, closing both my eyes

'Cause they say you get more famous when you die

And everyone seems fine

Am I losing my mind?

I'm so tired of California, I'm so tired of L.A

Where the real thing comes as often, as the California rain

I got all these legal toxins in my blood and in my brain

I keep saying that I'm leaving but it doesn't work that way

(Mm-mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm-mm)

I can't feel my heartbeat, way up in the hills

Burning down my mansion, didn't write a will

Front row at my funeral, crocodile tears

Came here for the weekend, but I haven't left in years

(Is that weird?)

I'm so tired of California, I'm so tired of L.A

Where the real thing comes as often, as the California rain

I got all these legal toxins in my blood and in my brain

I keep saying that I'm leaving but it doesn't work that way

(Mm-mm-mm-mm

Mm-mm-mm-mm)

Can I be young forever?

Would it be fun, forever?

Can I be young forever?

Would it be fun, forever?

(We're so tired of California, we're so tired of L.A

Where the real thing comes as often, as the California rain

We got all these legal toxins in our blood and in our brains

We keep saying that we're leaving but it doesn't work that way)

I'm so tired of California, I'm so tired of L.A

Where the real thing comes as often, as the California rain

I got all these legal toxins in my blood and in my brain

I keep saying that I'm leaving but it doesn't work that way

## Trivia

* The song samples Tom’s Diner by Suzanne Vega.
Cello

Headshot

A young woman found in Balboa Park. Cellophane was a misnomer, because her initial appearance gave the impression that she could control plastic.

## History

* Seems to have come from another Earth, can't remember anything from there.
* First thing she remembers is waking on the beach, a man, and pain.
* [Forgotten] Serial Killer named Cellophane. Presumably brainwashed and severely malnourished.
* After the party attempted to nurse her back to health, she has returned to what we assume is her full size: 6'1", curvy, and orange hair.

## Powers

* Plant person
* Can grow and gain body mass from sunlight and nutrients
* Appears to have powers over Cellulose.
	+ For example, she isn't strong on her own, but she seems to be able to use cellulose to perform feats of strength.
	+ Can make items from cellulose.

## Personality

* Does not seem bothered by the fact she killed people
World of Wrestling

Founded 1973 by owner of East Coast Grapplers (ECG) Charles Pecking and owner of Empire Mid-West Wrestling (EMW) Andrew Aubrey in what would eventually be a successful attempt to take complete control over the American wrestling market and defeat the the collection of territories that they had once been a part of, the North American Wrestling Alliance (NAWA). The foundation of WoW shocked the wrestling world to its core, the sudden unification of what many would have considered the two largest territories in the US instantly changed the landscape. It put the other main companies that made up NAWA into such a panic that by July 1975, owner of Westward Wrestling Jon Hull, owner of Canada 10 (C-10) Noel Fassbender, and owner of Southern States Championship (SSC) Jones Durgess, all came together reluctantly to form one all-spanning NA collective to rival WoW, which would be known as International Kings of Wrestling. Having felt guilty at what he had done to the wrestling landscape, many of the other territory leaders having been his closest friends, Andrew Aubrey would suddenly drop out of WoW and replace Jones Durgess as the booker of International Kings of Wrestling. In 1977 the name of International was changed by Aubrey to World Wrestling Royalty (WWR). For the next decade and a half WoW, WWR, and the fleeting remnants of NAWA would compete on a far larger scale than territory bookers could have ever imagined was possible of wrestling, on an international and eventually global scale.
Church Club For The Lonely Tour

Church Club For The Lonely is a tour by Nessa Barrett.

## Tour Dates

### US Leg

* Austin - 10/6
* Orlando - 10/9
* Ft. Worth - 10/12
* Austin 10/13
* Nashville - 10/16
* Raleigh - 10/18
* Norfolk - 10/19
* Wallingford - 10/20
* Sayreville - 10/23
* Baltimore - 10/24
* Pittsburg - 10/27
* Newport - 10/28
* Columbus - 10/29
* Milwaukee - 10/31
* St. Louis - 11/1
* Fort Collins - 11/3
* Boulder - 11/4
* Las Vegas - 11/7
* San Diego - 11/8
* Anaheim - 11/10
* San Jose - 11/13
* Seattle - 11/15
* Portland - 11/16

### Australia/New Zealand Leg

* Brisbane - 12/12
* Sydney - 12/13
* Melbourne - 12/16
* Melbourne - 12/17
* Aucklund - 12/19

## Trivia

* In Milwaukee, since it was Halloween, there was a costume party.
* The Baltimore show was streamed live on Twitch.
* The Columbus show was cancelled due to Nessa being sick.
NB2

## ***NB2***Album by Nessa Barrett

NB2 is an upcoming album by Nessa Barrett, rumored to be released late 2023 or early 2024.

## Background

Nessa hinted towards an album with a picture of possible song lyrics/songs like “I’m In Love”, Lethal Lu$t”, and much more. Around the same time she announced a tour called “Church Club For The Lonely” which is speculated to be the album title.

## Tracklist

### Possible Songs

* Sick Of Myself
* Club Heaven
* Girl In New York

### Possible Lyrics/Unreleased Songs

* I’m In Love\*
* Baby, Baby\*
* Ur Cute\*
* Daydream\*
* Kiss Me Sweet\*
* How’s The Rain\*
* Hold Me Like a Lady\*
* Breaking Hearts\*
* BLUE\*
* Oh My Darling\*
* Love Looks Pretty On You\*
* Lethal Lu$t\*
* You Look Like Heaven\*
* Goodnight Moon\*
* Lay Me in a Bed Of Daisies\*
* If It’s Not You, It’s Not Anyone\*
* Church Club For The Lonely\*
* Sadcity\*
* Things I Wanted To Say But Never Did\*
* 777\*
* Lucky I Got Your Attention\*
* Good Wife\*
* Lucky Girl\*

## Trivia

* Nessa revealed that she was writing a book instead of working on the album on her Instagram story.
* Nessa confirmed there would be a collab on the album.
Young Forever (Extended)

Young Forever (Extended) by Nessa Barrett is the deluxe version of her debut album Young Forever.

## Tracklist

1. Tired Of California
2. Gaslight
3. Talk To Myself
4. Fuckmarrykill
5. Dear God
6. Forgive The World
7. Too Hot To Cry
8. Madhouse
9. Unnecessary Violence
10. Lovebomb
11. Decay
12. Die First
13. Lucky Star
14. Deathmatch
15. Do You Really Want To Hurt Me?
16. God’s Favorite
17. 505
18. Noose
Мэндок

**Мэндок** (англ. Mandock) — оруженосец и друг Нико.

## Внешность

Мэндок — небольшой старый зверёк, телосложением похожий на обезьяну, с коричневой шерстью, которая на морде более длинная и образует бороду. Шерсть на бровях, подбородке и кончике хвоста белая. Круги вокруг глаз и маленький круглый нос коричневые. На голове имеется небольшая причёска, зачёсанная назад; уши длинные и высокие со светлой внутренней частью. У левого глаза зелёная радужка и голубой белок, а у правого нет радужки. Мэндок носит длинную зелёную рубашку с тёмным поясом.

## Характер

Мэндок трусливый и предпочитает не лезть на рожон. Отличается жадностью и тащит к себе всё, что ему покажется интересным. Но в тоже время он верный друг, на которого можно положиться.
911

## General information

### Producer(s)

Leo Mallace

911 is an unreleased song by Nessa Barrett

## Lyrics

911, what's your emergency?

Hello?

Please send somebody here, right now

I have my daughter, my daughter

I think she took some pills

There's a bottle here and it's like, almost empty

Please hurry up

Bring somebody now

My shadows follow me in my sleep

They tell me all the things that I can't be

My paranoia's creepin' in

Turns out my demons are my only friends

## Trivia

* On February 9, 2022, Nessa uploaded a snippet of the song to TikTok.
* The song has been called 911 for awhile, as the actual title is unknown.
* Nessa’s dad is featured on the song in the spoken word part.
* The song is about Nessa’s first suicide attempt.
Jaden Hossler (jxdn)

Jaden Hossler (jxdn) is an American singer-songwriter. He has worked with Nessa Barrett on two songs.

## Relationship With Nessa

After the two released La Di Die, rumors about them dating started popping up. The rumors were confirmed by Jaden via a radio interview. The couple got matching tattoos and made a podcast together, called Prom In Hell. For the podcast, they made another song together called I’m Dead.

In April 2022, after months and months of dating, rumors sparked that they broke up because they unfollowed each other on social media. Following split rumors, both Jaden and Nessa shared a joint statement via Instagram Stories announcing their breakup.

“Last month we broke up to take time to focus on our own careers & mental,” they wrote. “Please don’t send hate or make assumptions. We would like to heal privately and hope you all can respect that. We love you all so much.”

On The Zach Sang Show, Nessa confirmed that they were engaged at one point.
Nessa Barrett Wiki

**Welcome to the Nessa Barrett Wiki!**
Nessa Barrett is an American singer-songwriter best known for her songs “i hope ur miserable until your dead”, “die first” and “la di die”. Calling all big Nessa Barrett fans, help us edit this wiki! Check the Community tab for what you could do!
## Discography

Pain (2020)if u love me (2020)La Di Die (2021)Counting Crimes (2021)i hope ur miserable until ur dead (2021)Pretty Posion (2021)Dying On The Inside (2022)Die First (2022)Madhouse (2022)Tired Of California (2022)Young Forever (2022)Young Forever Extended (2022)BANG BANG! (2023)American Jesus (2023)Lie (2023)Hell Is a Teenage Girl (2023)Club Heaven (2023)Sick Of Myself (2023)Girl In New York (2023)
## Affiliates

**TBA**
American Jesus

American Jesus by Nessa Barrett is the second single to Hell Is a Teenage Girl.

## Lyrics

He's got a cross on his neck, but he spends somedays in my bed

He's my blue jean little baby, with a Halo on his head

He's got lips like cherry wine, and cigarette smoke on his breath

He's got pretty long brown hair, green eyes that look like sex

Knees down at your alter

Please don't fail me now

You know all my secrets

American Jesus, baby

Won't you take me to Heaven tonight

You know you're my weakness

American Jesus, save me

You're the greatest love of my life

American Jesus

Let's drive off into the sunset, baby we can be reborn

Walk on water in the desert, make a Saint out of a whore

Knees down at your alter

My cowboy in the crown

You know all my secrets

American Jesus, baby

Won't you take me to Heaven tonight (Tonight)

You know you're my weakness

American Jesus, save me

You're the greatest love of my life (My life)

American Jesus

You got me red, white, and blue

Pledging my allegiance to you

Tell me you believe in me too, "I do"

Ooh, seein' the stars in your eyes

No, I've never felt so alive

We can ride 'til we die

You know all my secrets

American Jesus, baby

Won't you take me to Heaven tonight (Tonight)

You know you're my weakness

American Jesus, save me

You're the greatest love of my life (My life)

American Jesus

You got me red, white, and blue

Pledging my allegiance to you

Tell me you believe in me too, "I do"

Ooh, seein' the stars in your eyes

No, I've never felt so alive

We can ride 'til we die

Ah, ah, ah

Ah, ah, ah

Ah, ah, ah

My American Jesus

## American Jesus Hotline

American Jesus Hotline, 888702372833, was a number on Nessa Barrett’s website. When calling the number, if you pressed 1, you could leave a voicemail, if you pressed 2, you could listen to the entire song, if you pressed 3, you could hear a snippet of an unreleased song.

*“Hello , you’ve reached American Jesus hotline. Unfortunately, American Jesus is not available right now. But please press 1 to tell them why they should save you, and they might get back to you as soon as possible. Press 2 to hear about my American Jesus. Press 3 to see what I’m hiding from American Jesus.”*

## Remixes

**American Jesus (Demo)** was released on May 18, 2022.
Young Forever Tour

The Young Forever Tour is Nessa Barrett’s first tour. It took place throughout 2023. Nessa took 23 stops throughout Europe and the United States of America. The tour was opened by Isabel LaRosa.

## US Leg

1. 2/23 - Phoenix, AZ
2. 2/25 - Houston, TX
3. 2/26 - Dallas, TX
4. 2/28 - Atlanta, GA
5. 3/02 - Washington, DC
6. 3/04 - Philadelphia, PA
7. 3/06 - Boston, MA
8. 3/08 - New York, NY
9. 3/11 - Toronto, ON
10. 3/13 - Chicago, IL
11. 3/14 - St. Paul, MN
12. 3/16 - Denver, CO
13. 3/17 - Salt Lake City, UT
14. 3/19 - San Francisco, CA
15. 3/21 - Los Angeles, CA

## Europe Leg

1. 5/16 - Heaven, London, UK
2. 5/18 - Gruenspan, Hamburg, Germany
3. 5/22 - Melkweg, Amsterdam, Netherlands
4. 5/23 Le Trabendo, Paris, France
Young Forever

## Singles

1. "Die First"
Released: June 24, 2022
2. "Madhouse"
Released: September 9, 2022
3. "Tired Of California"
Released: October 7, 2022
4. "Dear God"
Released: October 13, 2022.

Young Forever is the debut studio album by Nessa Barrett. It also has a deluxe version called Young Forever (Extended) which adds 6 songs.

## Standard Tracklist

1. Tired Of California
2. Gaslight
3. Talk To Myself
4. Fuckmarrykill
5. Dear God
6. Forgive The World
7. Too Hot To Cry
8. Madhouse
9. Unnecessary Violence
10. Lovebomb
11. Decay
12. Die First
13. Lucky Star

### Deluxe

1. Deathmatch
2. Do You Really Want To Hurt Me?
3. God’s Favorite
4. 505
5. Noose
Girl In New York

Girl In New York by Nessa Barrett is a possible single for her next album, NB2.

## Background

The song was first played on the Church Club For The Lonely Tour.

On October 28, 2023, Nessa posted a snippet to her Instagram.

Finally on December 1, 2023, Nessa announced that it would be releasing on December 8, 2023.

## Lyrics

Bags in your hand as you kiss me

Tellin' me you're gonna miss me

Promise you'll be on your best behavior

Give me your flight information

Call when you land, say you made it

Sweet little me told you, "Go have a good time"

I didn’t mean forget about me

Riding in a yellow taxi

Who the hell are you on your way to?

You said I was yours

Maybe just on the West Coast

'Cause as soon as you left home

You got wandering eyes

So I guess you lied

When you said I was special

You're not as smart as you think you are

Baby, I know about the girl in New York

Who the hell is she

Taking you from me?

Baby, I know about the girl in New York

I know there’s always temptation

Guess I’m a littlе more patient

Baby, I've been on my bеst behaviour

Fuck you for making me crazy

While you buy her drinks out on Eighth Street

Sweet little you showing her such a good time

You easily forget about me

Riding in a yellow taxi

Back to your hotel, and she's coming with you

You said I was yours

Maybe just on the West Coast

'Cause as soon as you left home

You got wandering eyes

So I guess you lied

When you said I was special

You're not as smart as you think you are

Baby, I know about the girl in New York

Who the hell is she

Taking you from me?

Baby, I know about the girl in New York

Who the hell is she

Taking you from me?

Baby, I know about the girl in New York
Talk To Myself

## General information

### Label

Warner Records

Talk To Myself by Nessa Barrett is featured on Young Forever.

## Lyrics

I don't go out much

'Cause parties are too much

And I don't need anymore judgement

So you keep your gossip

You're cool and you're toxic

Already got someone who does it

It's me, and that voice in my head

Telling me that I'm better off dead

If you think that you can make me cry

More than me, myself and I

Well go ahead and try

If you talk to me, like I talk to myself

I'd give you the finger, I'd say, "Go to hell"

You can be mean, make it sacred, you will

But you can't say shit I don't say to myself

I wish you could hurt me

So maybe when I bleed

I could blame somebody else

But she's sick and she's twisted

A bit masochistic

There's no point in calling for help

It's me, and that voice in my head

Telling me that I'm better off dead

If you think that you can make me cry

More than me, myself and I

Well go ahead and try

If you talk to me, like I talk to myself

I'd give you the finger, I'd say, "Go to hell"

You can be mean, make it sacred, you will

But you can't say shit I don't say to myself

I get used, baby, it's you, baby

If you're hard to love

No one likes you, you're crazy, you're totally fucked

If you talk to me, like I talk to myself

I talk to myself

It's me

Yeah that voice in my head telling me

That I'm better off dead

If you think that you can make me cry

More than me, myself and I

Make me wanna die

If you talk to me, like I talk to myself

I'd give you the finger, I'd say, "Go to hell"

You can be mean, make it sacred, you will

But you can't say shit I don't say to myself

I get used, baby, it's you, baby

If you're hard to love

No one likes you, you're crazy, you're totally fucked

If you talk to me, like I talk to myself

I talk to myself
Hell Is a Teenage Girl

## Singles

1. "BANG BANG!"
Released: February 17, 2023
2. "American Jesus"
Released: April 28, 2023
3. "Lie"
Released: June 23, 2023

Hell Is a Teenage Girl is Nessa Barrett’s second E-P. It was released on July 14, 2023.

## Background

Nessa released the first two singles to Hell Is a Teenage Girl, BANG BANG! and American Jesus, in February-April. After that she began teasing many more possible songs and confirmed a new project was on the way. In June, she released the third single, Lie. While on The Zach Sang Show, Nessa announced the release date and album cover. Also on the show, she announced a song called Motel Whore. On July 11, if you pre-added the album you got an image of the tracklist.

## Tracklist

1. Hell Is a Teenage Girl
2. The One That Should’ve Got Away
3. Lie
4. Plane To Paris
5. Heartbreak In The Hamptons
6. American Jesus
7. Motel Whore
8. BANG BANG!
505

505 (originally by the Arctic Monkeys) by Nessa Barrett is featured on Young Forever (Extended)

## Lyrics

I'm going back to 505

If it's a seven-hour flight or a forty-five-minute drive

In my imagination, you're waiting lying on your side

With your hands between your thighs

Stop and wait a sec'

'Cause when you look at me like that, my darling

What did you expect?

I'd probably still adore you with your hands around my neck

Or I did last time I checked

Not shy of a spark

The knife twists at the thought that I should fall short of the mark

Frightened by the bite, though it's no harsher than the bark

The middle of adventure, such a perfect place to start

Well, I'm going back to 505

If it's a seven-hour flight or a forty-five-minute drivе

In my imagination, you're waiting lying on your side

With your hands between your thighs

But I crumble completely when you cry

It seems like once again you had to greet me with "goodbye"

I'm always just about to go and spoil the surprise

Take my hands off of your eyes too soon

I'm going back to 505

If it's a seven-hour flight or a forty-five minute drive

In my imagination, you're waiting lying on your side

With your hands between your thighs and a smile

## Trivia

* This song is a cover of the Artic Monkeys.
Keep Me Afraid

## General information

### Songwriter(s)

Marty Rod, Evan Blair, Cara Salimando & Nessa Barrett

### Producer(s)

Marty Maro & Evan Blair

Keep Me Afraid is featured on Pretty Poison

## Lyrics

I'm in the corner of your cage

Mascara running down my face

The door is open, but I'll stay

You think you can keep me, keep me afraid

You're twisting screws inside my head

I won't just lie down and play dead

Take a good look at my face

You think you can keep me

Scared to fall asleep at night

When you're by my side

I don't know why, it doesn't feel right

Hide behind your poker face

You do it every day

I know you lie, so I fake a smile

'Cause in the end

I know you'll get everything you gave

I'm in the corner of your cage

Mascara running down my face

The door is open, but I'll stay

You think you can keep me, keep me afraid

You're twisting screws inside my head
I won't just lie down and play dead

Take a good look at my face

You think you can keep me

But I'm not afraid

Better hope and plead and pray

I keep your secret safe

You better run 'cause I got the gun

I don't need receipts to show

The things that we both know

'Cause I got the scars to prove who you are

'Cause in the end

I know you'll get everything you gave

I'm in the corner of your cage

Mascara running down my face

The door is open, but I'll stay

You think you can keep me, keep me afraid

You're twisting screws inside my head

I won't just lie down and play dead

Take a good look at my face

You think you can keep me

But I'm not afraid
Motel Whore

Motel Whore is featured on Hell Is a Teenage Girl.

## Lyrics

Room 147, just for the night

Said I was Heaven, left without saying goodbye

Am I just a secret you love to hide?

Turn off your location when you come late at night

Check in, check out

One night stay, you're out the door

You treat me like a motel whore

Tell me I'm more (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

Tell me I'm more (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

I promise I'm more (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

More than a goddamn motel whore (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

Why can't I be lovely? (Mm)

Why can't I be yours? (Mm)

I'm only a babydoll when you get bored

I wanna be precious

I'm left on the floor

Crying in desperate

Darling, what am I for?

Check in, check out

One night stay, you're out the door

You treat me like a motel whore

Tell me I'm more (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

(Tell me I'm more)

Tell me I'm more (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

(Tell me I'm more)

I promise I'm more (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

(I promise I'm more)

More than a goddamn motel whore (Mm, mm-mm, mm)

Leave me like a wounded horse

Did your mother raise her son to love a lady like a corpse?

Ooh, ooh, oh

Aah, ah

I'm more

A motel whore

## Trivia

* The song was announced on the Zach Sang Show along with the E-P’s release date.
Hell Is a Teenage Girl (song)

## **Hell Is a Teenage Girl**

Hell Is a Teenage Girl by Nessa Barett is the first track on her E-P with the same name.

## Lyrics

You're barely a woman, and they call you a whore

Say that you're ruined, when you pass 24

I'm too sensitive, when I start to cry

But I'm a cold-hearted, uptight bitch when I keep it inside

I'm just a baby, ah

But they try to slut shame me, ah

It's your fault I'm crazy

Yeah, that's what you made me

Say my looks can kill, this time they will

It might be a man's world

It might be a man's world

It might be a man's world

But I'll watch it burn

Hell is a teenage girl

Will you still think I'm pretty, when I come back to bite?

When I'm screaming like a siren in the middle of the night?

When I unleash the storm just 'cause I'm bored?

If you're not scared of me, then what's this prison for?

It might be a man's world

It might be a man's world

It might be a man's world

But I'll watch it burn

Hell is a teenage girl

We're delicate and dangerous

You should be afraid of us, ah

We're delicate and dangerous

You should be afraid of us, ah

It might be a man's world

It might be a man's world

It might be a man's world

Burn baby burn

Hell is a teenage girl
Do You Really Want To Hurt Me?

## General information

### Producer(s)

Evan Blair

Do You Really Want To Hurt Me? by Nessa Barrett is featured on Young Forever.

## Lyrics

Do you really wanna hurt me?

Do you really wanna make me cry?

Do you really wanna hurt me?

Do you really wanna make me cry?

You're gonna make me cry

You're gonna make me cry

Precious kisses, words that burn me

Don't you know that lovers never ask you why?

In my heart, the fire's burning

Don't you know that lovers shouldn't make you cry?

You're gonna make me cry

Do you really wanna hurt me?

Do you really wanna make me cry?

Do you really wanna hurt me?

Do you really wanna make me cry?

You're gonna make me cry

## Trivia

* This is cover of Culture Club’s song but in Nessa’s style
Nosebleeds

Nosebleeds is an unreleased song by Nessa Barrett.

## Lyrics

A part of you, wishes you

Had died at 27

If only you were here with me

We could've been in heaven

Sky full of stars

And you're staring at the pavement

You don't even know what we could've been, baby

Wish I never knew you

It kills me to say it

I was your biggest fan in the whole wide world

I crossed over heaven and earth just to be your girl

I wanted to be there for you, oh

But you never let me

When I was your biggest fan

You put me in the nosebleeds

Silent still, when I [?]

Go away

Away from you

## Trivia

* The song was first played on Nessa’s TikTok live.
* Nessa screamed “That’s when he left me bitch” on the live, during the first and second line, hinting at Nessa’s father leaving her when he was 27.
Scare Myself

## General information

### Songwriter(s)

Pete Nappi, Madi Yanofski, Evan Blair, slimdan & Nessa Barrett

### Producer(s)

Pete Nappi & Evan Blair

Scare Myself is featured on Pretty Poison.

## Lyrics

Thoughts keep on racing, one by one

I don't know who they're running from

Biting my lips until they bleed

Symptom of living life with me

'Cause I'm scared of the monsters that I swear are under my bed

Scared that they might just be all in my head

Scared that I'm dreaming and already dead, mm-mm

And I'm terrified of the shadows that follow me home

Afraid that they'll get me when I'm all alone

Look in the mirror, I see someone else

Sometimes, I even scare myself (Oh)

Ain't it kinda funny how

Nobody can cut me down like I can?

I drag myself through hell and (Oh)

What's it gonna be today?

How am I gonna 'cause me pain?

I'll be damned

Sometimes, I even scare myself

Leave me all alone with the voices

End up in the wrong kind of places

Every day's a dark situation

Trying not to oop with the poison

Paint my face 'cause the real me is pointless

Do my nails just to rip me to pieces

Lose my mind 'cause I don't wanna keep it

Sometimes, I even scare myself (Oh)

Ain't it kinda funny how

Nobody can cut me down like I can?

I drag myself through hell and (Oh)

What's it gonna be today?

How am I gonna 'cause me pain?

I'll be damned

Sometimes, I even scare myself

'Cause I'm scared that the monsters that I swear are under my bed

Scared that they might just be all in my head

Scared that I'm dreaming and already dead

Sometimes, I even scare myself (Oh)

Ain't it kinda funny how

Nobody can cut me down like I can?

I drag myself through hell and (Oh)

What's it gonna be today?

How am I gonna 'cause me pain?

I'll be damned

Sometimes, I even scare myself

Sometimes, I even scare myself

Sometimes, I even scare myself

Sometimes, I even scare myself
I Wanna Die

## General information

### Label

Warner Records

I Wanna Die by Nessa Barrett is featured on Pretty Poison

## Lyrics

You're my Jesus, you're my God

The one before was just a fraud

He shut me in a tiny box

And told me I was hard to love

I wake up at night, screaming

I'm scared to shut my eyes, demons

But with your arms around me, I'm as safe as can be

Never been this happy, so

I wanna die when you kiss me slowly

I'd be just fine if my blood stopped flowing

My, oh, my, I'm terrified

I know the rest of my life won't compare to these nights with you

I wanna die when you touch my body

Every time you stop, my skin starts crawling

My, oh, my, you made my life

So, someone better read my rights

I wanna die, yeah, yeah

I wanna die, yeah, yeah

I wanna die, yeah, yeah

I wanna die, I wanna die

Oh, you saved me from a straight up crisis

Wanna drink you like wine, Dionysos

Everybody in my life got prices

Too high to pay, uh-oh

I still wake up at night, screaming

I'm scared to shut my eyes, demons

But with your arms around me, I'm as safe as can be

Never been this happy, so

I wanna die when you kiss me slowly

I'd be just fine if my blood stopped flowing

My, oh, my, I'm terrified

I know the rest of my life won't compare to these nights with you

I wanna die when you touch my body

Every time you stop, my skin starts crawling

My, oh, my, you made my life

So, someone better read my rights

I wanna die, yeah, yeah

I wanna die, yeah, yeah

I wanna die, yeah, yeah

I wanna die, I wanna die

I wanna die

I wanna die

I wanna die, I wanna die
I'm Dead

I’m Dead by Nessa Barrett & jxdn is a standalone single for the podcast Prom In Hell.

## Lyrics

They tell me they're sorry, but

I think that they're lying

These drugs won't mean nothing when I'm dead

So why do I buy all of your shit? Fuck

They tell me to worry but I don't give a fuck

I got a story and I'm gonna write it up

My mom said I'm hell bound, yeah

You said I'm dead

My scars think they own me

I've been feeling real lonely

I think I've moisturized a problem

I don't know how I can solve 'em

It's up and down and then I turn around

Because my life's a mess and I need to rest, so

Don't let me go, I've been hurt and I'm so

Tired, says I for me to tell you everything

This time I'll be okay, this time you won't know me

I'm gon' rise up and I'll be the best

This time I'll be okay, this time you won't know me

I'm gon' rise up and I'll be the best

This time I'll be okay, this time you won't know me
Too Hot To Cry

Too Hot To Cry by Nessa Barrett is the seventh track on her debut album Young Forever.

## Lyrics

Sometimes it's hard to tell

Am I a mess or just a mess with you?

I've gotten used to hell

And now I can say the hottest flames are blue

Like me and you

So I'm done now

I'm pretty and young now

And I won't let you lock me up inside

'Cause I'm too hot to cry

Got my makeup done just right

It's a waste of mascara

It's a waste of my time, not tonight

In a dress you call too tight

It's the dawn of an era, say goodbye

'Cause I'm too hot to cry

I'm too hot to cry

You almost had me convinced

The best thing about me was this

But I'm looking in the mirror

And I can see you don't know shit

And I'm sure you'll hate me, call me crazy

But I've never looked better than this

'Cause I'm too hot to cry

Got my makeup done just right

It's a waste of mascara

It's a waste of my time, not tonight

In a dress you call too tight

It's the dawn of an era, say goodbye

'Cause I'm too hot to cry

I'm too hot to cry

So I'm done now

I'm pretty and young now

And I know it's gonna eat you up inside

'Cause I'm too hot to cry

Got my makeup done just right

It's a waste of mascara

It's a waste of my time, not tonight

In a dress you call too tight

It's the dawn of an era, say goodbye

'Cause I'm too hot to cry

'Cause I'm too hot to cry
Dying On The Inside

Dying On The Inside by Nessa Barrett is a standalone single.

## Lyrics

You should take this as a compliment

If I were you, I would be more confident

You're lucky that you're pretty

Why are you obsessed

With your appearance?

I don't wanna hear it, you're fine

It's been my best-kept secret for a while now

No one ever sees it, but it's all around

It's the dinner conversation no one talks about

Don't know how much longer I can keep this down

Beauty is the knife

I've been holding by the blade

Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything

It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive

They're all like

"Did you change your hair?"

"Did you lose a little weight?"

"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"

I hate that I always look my best

When I'm dying on the inside

When I'm dying on the inside

I wish I could break the mirror

It makes me feel like I should fucking disappear

And drown my demons in a bathtub filled with tears

No matter what I try, they always seem to come back to life

What if I didn't do this to my body?

What if I quit and then you don't want me?

The dinner conversation no one talks about

Don't know how much longer I can keep this down

Beauty is the knife

I've been holding by the blade

Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything

It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive

They're all like

"Did you change your hair?"

"Did you lose a little weight?"

"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"

I hate that I always look my best

When I'm dying on the inside

When I'm dying on the inside

When I'm dying on the inside

You should take it as a compliment

If I were you, I would be more confident

You're lucky that you're pretty

Why are you obsessed with your appearance?

I don't wanna hear it, you're fine

Beauty is the knife

I've been holding by the blade

Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything

It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive

They're all like

"Did you change your hair?"

"Did you lose a little weight?"

"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"

I hate that I always look my best

When I'm dying on the inside

## Remixes

**Dying On The Inside (Stripped)** was released on March 24, 2022.

## Trivia

* This is Nessa’s response to people on the internet who believe Nessa is faking her ED for attention.
Susan Pevensie

Queen Susan, drawn by Cassandra Starflower

Lucy Pevensie (sister)

Helen Pevensie (mother)

Arthur Pevensie (father)

Cyra Pevensie (sister-in-law)

Susan Pevensie is a Queen of Narnia, known as Queen Susan the Gentle. She has been a Queen of Narnia for a thousand years. She has three siblings: Peter, Edmund, and Lucy.

## History

### Early Life

Susan was born on June 20th, 1928, to Helen and Arthur Pevensie. She was raised in Finchley in London for the first twelve years of her life with her three siblings.

### Finding Narnia

On June 23rd, 1940, Susan and her siblings were sent to the country to avoid the Blitz. They arrived at Professor Digory Kirke's house on the same day, and were to stay there for the length of the summer. They spent a lot of time outside. However, one day they were forced to remain inside and play hide-and-seek.

Susan did not believe her sister Lucy when she claimed to have found a fantasy land inside a wardrobe.

Susan followed her sister Lucy into Narnia on July 9th, 1940, where she met Mr. and Mrs. Beaver and learned of the prophecy she and her siblings were meant to fulfill.

### The Golden Age

Susan ruled in Narnia for a thousand years alongside her siblings, as a member of the royal House of Pevensie. She was crowned at twelve, and aged very slowly. In her adulthood, she was hailed as the most beautiful woman to ever live, and drew frequent comparisons to Swanwhite I, a ruling queen of the Frank dynasty.

## Other

### Appearance

Susan has black hair which she wears very long, falling to the floor in heavy curls (although as a child in England, it only reached her shoulders and was much straighter). She has blue eyes with golden flecks. Her skin is very pale, and she has freckles. She is frequently labeled the most beautiful woman in all the world, and many Narnians compare her to the sun, saying she is so radiant that she cannot be directly viewed.

### Personality

Susan took on a motherly role for her siblings when they journeyed away from home, and kept that role once they arrived in Narnia. She is coolheaded and gentle, and disinterested in marriage and romance (for herself).

### Relationships

#### Peter

As the eldest siblings, and only a year apart in age, Susan and Peter were very close and worked together to look after their younger siblings.
Lovebomb

## General information

### Producer(s)

Evan Blair

Lovebomb by Nessa Barrett is featured on Young Forever.

## Lyrics

I don't even remember how it started

Something you said must've set me off

My words are bullets, and you're my favourite target

This isn't what I wanted, but I can't drop the gun

Mhm-mhm

Even I can't stop me

Mhm-mhm

Just so you know, I'm sorry

I'll send you lovebombs after the war

Even though I know they don't work anymore

I'll wave a white flag after the storm

I promise I've calmed down in the minute like before

So you wave the rug and I'll sweap the glass

And we can pretend like this never happened

Lovebombs after the war

Even though I know they don't work anymore

Even when I say I don't hate you

I'm trying even when I lose control

And it's unfair to pull you into my chaos

But after we're out of the trenches I love you more

Mhm-mhm

Just so you know, I'm sorry

I'll send you lovebombs after the war

Even though I know they don't work anymore

I'll wave a white flag after the storm

I promise I've calmed down in the minute like before

So you wave the rug and I'll sweap the glass

And we can pretend like this never happened

Lovebombs after the war

Even though I know they don't work anymore

Mhm-mhm

I'm so sorry

Love, lovebombin'

Don't go, eh, ah, eh

Don't go
Club Heaven

## Alternate covers

Club Heaven is a single by Nessa Barrett. It was released on October 6, 2023.

A Spotify exclusive version, Club Heaven (Live From Spotify Green Screen), was released on January 18, 2024.

## Lyrics

You always liked an afterparty, so I guess I shoulda known

Said we hate the paparazzi, now you're somewhere they can't go

I hope you know I'm sorry that I'm not with you right now

Can't pick up when you call me, can't hear it through the clouds

I've been waitin' right outside

Tryna bribe the bouncer

He says, "Not tonight"

I hope you're dancin' in club Heaven (Yeah)

Smokin' some bluejay with your legends (Yeah)

I bet you're up in the V.I.P., raisin' some hell for me

Until I get in (I can't get in)

To club Heaven

The music's never stoppin', and the lights never turn on

The saints are all on Molly, and you're talkin' shit with God

I'm searchin' for your halo 'cause I'm not havin' fun

In a city full of angels that's missin' the best one

I wish I could cut the line

Been tryna bribe the bouncer

He says, "Not tonight"

You might also like

I hope you're dancin' in club Heaven (Yeah)

Smokin' some bluejay with your legends (Yeah)

I bet you're up in the V.I.P., raisin' some hell for me

Until I get in (I can't get in)

To club Heaven

What if I can't get in?

How will I see you again?

What if I can't get in?

How will I see you again?

I hope you're dancin' in club Heaven
Evan Blair

## Evan Blair

### Occupation

Songwriter, Producer

Evan Blair is an American songwriter and producer.

## Nessa Barrett Songs Written and/or Produced

* 505
* American Jesus
* BANG BANG!
* Club Heaven
* Counting Crimes
* Dear God
* Deathmatch
* Decay
* Die First
* Do You Really Want To Hurt Me?
* Dying On The Inside
* Forgive The World
* Fuckmarrykill
* Gaslight
* Girl In New York
* God’s Favorite
* Grave
* Heartbreak In The Hamptons
* Hell Is a Teenage Girl
* I Hope Ur Miserable Until Ur Dead
* I Wanna Die
* Keep Me Afraid
* Lie
* Lovebomb
* Lucky Star
* Madhouse
* Motel Whore
* Plane To Paris
* Pretty Poison
* Scare Myself
* Sincerely
* Talk To Myself
* The One That Should’ve Got Away
* Tired Of California
* Too Hot To Cry
* Unnecessary Violence
Nessa Barrett

Janesa Jaida Barrett, better known as Nessa Barrett, is an American singer-songwriter best known for her song *i hope ur miserable until ur dead.* She started her career on TikTok making videos. She started making alt-pop and alt-rock music with realistic themes in 2020.

## Early Life

Nessa was born on August 6, 2002 in Galloway Township, New Jersey. She always dream of being a singer. Not much is known about her childhood. At a young age, Nessa had overdosed on medicine as confirmed in an unreleased song she played on her Instagram Live. Nessa ran away from her home to LA. Later after that she started a TikTok account.

## Career

### 2019-2021

Nessa started her TikTok and quickly gained followers from posting lip syncs and relatable content. In her content that spanned topics, music was one of the reoccurring topics. Nessa started posting covers and decided to start making music.

After being on TikTok for awhile, she later announced her debut single Pain, a ballad released on July 31, 2020. She released a collection of stand-alone singles between 2020-2021, including If U Love Me, La Di Die, and Counting Crimes. Later in August 2021, she released the lead single for her debut EP Pretty Poison called i hope ur miserable until ur dead. The EP released a month later.

### 2022-2023

Nessa released a single called Dying On The Inside, a rock song about her eating disorder and how it's hard living famous. She then released the lead single for her debut album, young forever called die first an alternative rock song about not wanting to lose a loved one. She chose Die First because it was Cooper Noriega’s favorite and he had passed away before. She released a few more singles including Madhouse and Tired Of California for the album and then released the full album on October 14 2022. Then a deluxe edition for young forever called young forever (extended) was released a month after and included 5 new songs. She then released the singles BANG BANG!, american jesus and lie in 2023 for her second EP Hell Is a Teenage Girl. Further into the year of 2023, Nessa released Sick Of Myself, Club Heaven, and Girl In New York.

## Discography

* *Pain (2020)*
* *if u love me (2020)*
* *la di die (2021)*
* *I’m Dead (2021)*
* *counting crimes (2021)*
* *i hope ur miserable until ur dead (2021)*
* *pretty poison (EP) (2021)*
* *dying on the inside (2022)*
* *die first (2022)*
* *madhouse (2022)*
* *tired of california (2022)*
* *young forever (Album) (2022)*
* *young forever (extended) (Album) (2022)*
* *BANG BANG! (2023)*
* *american jesus (2023)*
* *lie (2023)*
* *hell is a teenage girl* *(EP)* (*2023)*
* *sick of myself (2023)*
* *club heaven (2023)*
* *girl in new york (2023)*
* *NB2 (TBA)*

## Gallery

For the Nessa Barrett Gallery, go to Nessa Barrett/Gallery
BANG BANG!

BANG BANG! is a song by Nessa Barrett that was released on February 17th, 2023. It’s also the first single on her E-P, Hell Is a Teenage Girl.

## Lyrics

I know that it sounds absurd

But sometimes I just get the urge

That if there really was a purge

You're the one that I'd kill first (hey)

I hate the way you drive your car

So I cut the brakes and key your heart

You talk too much, you're not that smart

So I shut you up with a crowbar (fuck)

If you think this song is about you, it is (it is)

You said I'd never do it, I did (I did)

I've got intrusive thoughts

I've got intrusive thoughts

(Hm-hmm)

La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la-la

Bang bang

La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la-la

Bang bang

I've got your name on my list and a target on your back

And I'll blow a little kiss to your mommy and your dad

I'll tell them that you fell when I push you off the roof

I'll send you to Hell and your new bitch too

If you think this song is about you, it is (it is)

You said I'd never do it, I did (I did)

I've got intrusive thoughts

I've got intrusive thoughts

(God)

La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la-la

Bang bang

La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la-la

Bang bang

Bang bang

Bang bang

Bang bang

Bang bang

I can't stop these intrusive thoughts

I've got intrusive thoughts

I've got intrusive thoughts