After Pain

**Label** | Universal Music Japan

**After Pain,** (アフターペイン, *Afuta pein*) is Kusunoki Mu's first trial song. It was released on Youtube and digitally on October 16, 2020.

On July 30, 2021, the Es Cover was released to celebrate the original music video reaching 1 million views.

## Track Listing

1. **After Pain (アフターペイン)**
2. **After Pain (アフターペイン)** (Off Voice)
3. Otome Dissection (乙女解剖) [MU Cover]
4. Otome Dissection (乙女解剖) [MU Cover] (Off Voice)
5. Crying B -Voice Drama- Mu & Es

## Music Video

* Original
* Es Cover

## Audio

* Mu
* Es

## Lyrics

* Romaji
* Kanji
* English

Watashi ga inakunareba kiereba yokatta no

Mou kiichatta shicchatta

Konna ni mo watashi wa iranai

Tokubetsu imi wa nai no hazure wo hiita no

Mou kiichatta shicchatta

Konna ni mo watashi wa iranai

Nee nande ita-ita-itai no yamete kurenai no?

Kawaichatte doushitara

Gomen no mahou wa kitto kikiakichattanda ne

Demo tabun watashi mo warui tokoro wa aru kara sa

Kore de kitto ii no kamo

"Ikiteru" wo kanjitai yo iki shite mo ii no kana

Oshiete

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo

Ashita ni ikitaku wa nai kinou wa wasuretai

Watashi wa totemo tsurakatta no tasukete dareka

Nee moshimo watashi no koto wo warumono ni suru nara

Mushi shitatte ii kara ne

Gaman nara mou narekko mata ajiwattekudake

Sore nano ni keshita hazu nanoni yume ni micchau no yo

Watashi mou dame kamo ne

Sayonara no mae ni douka mou ichido

Nanchatte wasurete

Itami no naka de aimashou Watashi dake no ibasho

Kokoro kakusu shinigeshou Hodokikata wa naisho

Akuma no koe ni yoru shishou Kaesu yaiba wa isho

""Anata" ga suki yo"

Itami no naka de aimashou Watashi dake no ibasho

Kokoro kakusu shinigeshou Hodokikata wa naisho

Akuma no koe ni yoru shishou Kaesu yaiba wa isho

""Anata" ga suki yo"

Nee nande ita-ita-itai no yamete kurenai no?

Kawaichatte doushitara

Gomen no mahou wa kitto kikiakichattanda ne

Demo tabun watashi mo warui tokoro wa aru kara sa

Kore de kitto ii no kamo

"Ikiteru" wo kanjitai yo iki shite mo ii no kana

Oshiete

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)

"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo

"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo (Itsuka kikoeru kana)

"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo (Itsuka kikoeru kana)

"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo (Itsuka kikoeru kana)

"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo

Watashi ga inakunareba kiereba yokatta no

Mou kiichatta shicchatta

Konna ni mo watashi wa iranai

私がいなくなれば　消えればよかったの

もう聞いちゃった　知っちゃった

こんなにも私はいらない

特別意味はないの　ハズレを引いたの

もう聞いちゃった　知っちゃった

こんなにも私はいらない

ねえなんで痛-痛-痛いのやめてくれないの？

乾いちゃってどうしたら

ごめんの魔法はきっと　聞き飽きちゃったんだね

でもたぶん私も悪いところはあるからさ

これできっといいのかも

“生きてる”を感じたいよ　息してもいいのかな

教えて

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ　(いつか届くかな)

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ　(いつか届くかな)

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ　(いつか届くかな)

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ

明日にいきたくはない　昨日は忘れたい

私はとてもつらかったの　助けて誰か

ねえもしも私のことを悪者にするなら

無視したっていいからね

我慢ならもう慣れっこ　また味わってくだけ

それなのに消したはずなのに夢に見ちゃうのよ

私もうダメかもね

サヨナラの前にどうかもう一度

なんちゃって　忘れて

痛みの中で会いましょう　私だけの居場所

心隠す死化粧　解き方は内緒

悪魔の声による刺傷　返す刃は遺書

「“あなた”が好きよ」

ねえなんで痛-痛-痛いのやめてくれないの？

乾いちゃってどうしたら

ごめんの魔法はきっと　聞き飽きちゃったんだね

でもたぶん私も悪いところはあるからさ

これできっといいのかも

“生きてる”を感じたいよ　息してもいいのかな

教えて

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ　(いつか届くかな)

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ　(いつか届くかな)

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ　(いつか届くかな)

「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ

「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？　(いつか聞こえるかな)

「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？　(いつか聞こえるかな)

「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？　(いつか聞こえるかな)

「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？

私がいなくなれば　消えればよかったの

もう聞いちゃった　知っちゃった

こんなにも私はいらない

If I was gone, If I had just disappeared

I overheard, I found out

How much I’m not needed

There’s no special meaning, I got the short end of the stick

I overheard, I found out

How much I’m not needed

Why won’t you stop hurt-hurt-hurting me?

My heart is all dried up

My sorry spells must be wearing off

But I guess some of it is my fault

Maybe it’s ok as it is

I want to feel “alive”, is it ok if I breathe?

Tell me

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone (I hope it will someday)

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone (I hope it will someday)

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone (I hope it will someday)

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone

I don’t want tomorrow to come, I want to forget yesterday

I was miserable, someone please help me

If you’re going to make me the villain

It’s ok to ignore me

If it’s endurance, I’m used to it. It’s just having another taste of it

But I see it in my dreams even though I erased it

Maybe I’m done

Just one more time before saying goodbye

I’m just kidding, please forget I said that

Let’s meet up inside the pain, a place just for me

Postmortem makeup to hide my heart, how to solve it is a secret

The stabbing of the little devil’s voice, counterattack being a suicide note

“I love YOU”

Why won’t you stop hurt-hurt-hurting me?

My heart is all dried up

My sorry spells must be wearing off

But I guess some of it is my fault

Maybe it’s ok as it is

I want to feel “alive”, is it ok if I breathe?

Tell me

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone (I hope it will someday)

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone (I hope it will someday)

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone (I hope it will someday)

“I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone

”I'm sorry” can’t be heard by anyone (I hope it will be someday)

”I'm sorry” can’t be heard by anyone (I hope it will be someday)

”I'm sorry” can’t be heard by anyone (I hope it will be someday)

”I'm sorry” can’t be heard by anyone

If I was gone, If I had just disappeared

I overheard, I found out

How much I’m not needed

## Significant Details

*\*Anyone can add here. The only time something will be removed is if it is not in the music video, or isn't understandable.*

## Trivia

* This song was added to the game "D4DJ -Groovy Mix-" on June 10, 2021.
	+ In-Game Page