Beating Around The Bush/Confessionals

I have a few options to save myself at tribal council, however. There is a possibility Conor could give me either his 2 round idol or his double vote. There's also a chance that Alex might give me he light pearl. And finally there's the chance that a green finds the idol by the tribal council deadline, which is also highly likely. I'm so happy with myself for establishing these close relationships with these people because I think they might really pay off for me here. When everyone was openly ostracizing Conor for being a mess, I was constantly there grounding him and reminding him I wanted to work with him. I may not have been completely honest saying that, but as soon as the auction results came out and he told me he won literally 3 advantages I knew it paid off. My relationship with Alex allowed me to find out what he won at the auction as well - a light pearl. If I can keep Chloe grounded and on my side, like I was able to do last tribal council against all odds, and couple that with Alex's light pearl I can pull off a 2-2 tie. If by the grace of god Conor gives me a second idol within the span of a year, I will be playing it regardless of what happens and Joe or Marie will be getting voted out. And, even better, if Alex, Brian, or I find the fucking idol before the rest of these buffoons do I will almost certainly be playing that tonight as well. If Conor gives Chloe his and I find one, even better for me! Chloe and I will both be safe and the three of them will have to vote each other. If I win immunity, Conor gives his immunity idol to Chloe, and I find the merge idol? Miles gets saved too. Have fun Joe and Marie, I'm really, really, really not going down without a fight, because I came to fucking win this stupid ass game so I can fucking move ON with my life!!! I'm such a whirlwind of emotions rn, I'm just not looking forward to being twisted out of all three big 3 orgs tbh lol!

At the moment, I don't think I am in the number one position I want to be in, but I have to take what I can get. During the events of last tribal council, I was left with a choice. Either vote Aaron out 7-3 of vote Tobi and have Aaron go 6-4. After thinking over it, I chose the latter.
Voting in the minority on purpose seems like an insane idea, but I think it was my best option. It left Marie and Joe trusting me in this game, because they know I am with them in this game. It also leaves Aaron, now on the jury more inclined to vote for me, someone who seemingly stayed loyal, to win this game. Finally, Brian knew about this, so I can continue to work with him, and weave the web of this cross tribal alliance we have been concocting.
The only bad side to this situation is that I have slightly isolated Chloe, ruined my relationship with Tobi, and had to lie to Zakirah about the true reasoning of why I voted for Tobi. I guess it was a more neutral move for my game, but I think going with the first option would've had Marie/Joe mad at me, and I'd be at the bottom of the Qionglai geoup
Now, onto this twist. This twist is a life saver for me. I was lucky enough to end up in a group of 5, with Marie and Joe, securing us a majority. I also have Chloe, which is less than ideal, because there's a high chance she's gonna want me to flip to her and potentially vote out Marie or Joe.I don't want to do that, but I want to maintain my relationship with Chloe, so hopefully Zakirah doesn't win immunity or have an idol. If we're in the clear there, it should be a good upcoming tribal.
I also have to be aware of the ongoings of the other group too, because who they vote out will affect me just as much as who I end up voting out. I hope Brian ends up taking control there, and votes out someone like Tobi or Conor. I do think Conor is more likely though, which has it's pros and cons. Pros being that Chloe will lose a duo and then will stick with me, but the cons are that I do lose a potential ally in the future.
Overall, I believe my best Final 3 is with Joe, as he is a bit aggressive and as seen earlier, can get angry. I'd also like to bring one of Alex or Marie, because they seem to have more under the radar games, like myself, that I can hopefully argue against. As much as I love Brian, I caanot let him near the end, or I think he may win, as seen by his good social game so far. Hopefully I am able to make it that far and maybe win for the first time? Stranger things have happened.

I wouldn't be in the hot seat at all if chloe wasn't so messy and confronting everyone and telling everyone about the flip NNNNN like all she had to do was sit down and eat her food... i do understand why though like if someone told me i was at the bottom of my alliance and people wanted to vote me out i would go and confront people too tbh...
the scariest part of the whole plan was when chloe actually started believing the other side.. but my arguments and persuasiveness was good enough to keep her with me which i was really surprised about... bc i really did wanna protect her like honestly and truly and im glad i got through all her misconceptions
the other side was PISSED at me but i really dont give a fuck... its an individual game and like i want to get through the game with people i enjoy talking to... not with people who my only connection with is through an alliance...
at the end of the day im super happy with how tribal turned out and i think if i play carefully i can make it far!!

### Day 27

Since I'm in an alliance with Joe and Marie, and Zakirah is immune, that leaves only Chloe to vote out, but I really don't want to vote her out. She is such an amazing person and I really love speaking to her, so I don't want to lose her this early in the game. Screw you Zakirah Razzak!!!!!!!!!
I really don't want Chloe to end up being mad at me forever because I really want to have a friendship outside of this game, and I promised her I would never vote for her but now it's coming to this and I really want to win this ORG but I don't want to go back on my promise to her.
I just feel so bad and I don't know what I'm going to do. I really want to go forward in this game with the three I'm able to vote and it's just mortifying knowing how angry they would be if I flipped on any of them.
I'm still leaning towards Chloe, which hurts so much, but I am going to take time and wait and see if anything is going to happen. :(

Zak is going to work with the others for this round in an attempt to get them all to throw their votes at me so that they waste their vote and then me and Zak can vote one of them out. Which doesn't seem like it will be that difficult to do as Joe had apparently more or less immediately messaged Zak after the challenge results and said my name - which makes sense as I'm not in their alliance and he doesn't know I have an idol.
Even if Zak were to tell them about the fact I have an idol, what are they gonna do about it? Vote each other? Make my job easier? This all round seems like a win win for me, Conor and Zak.
So ya fuck you Marie and Joe, hope you enjoy feeling safe while you can. 1, 2 I'm coming for you. 3, 4 I'm knockin on your door. 5, 6 My parchment's gonna stick. 7, 8 Did you realise too late?. 9, 10 Don't try to come for me again xx

But yeah it feels like I have options, I'm still gonna be targeted because some people still don't like me, but people need to watch out because I'm probably one of the most dangerous players, at least for this round. 2 Idols and a double vote. I'm here to play hard and not be scared.

After the challenge happened, Chloe looks like the main target on her tribe. Zak was the original target but obviously he won immunity and now Chloe is the clear target since she voted against Marie/Miles/Joe last round. But there's no way I could let my number 1 friend and ally go now, that would be HORRENDOUS! So of course I transferred her the 2 round idol :) It's time to fck shit up and get one of the people out who didn't care for me till they were in the minority. RN Me/Chloe think it's better for us if Marie goes. I think Joe staying would be better for me because I think I could work with him easier and he's easier to game with compared to Marie. But Zak wants Joe gone since Joe can't stand him.
Then we have my tribe which is whack. At first I didn't have to use the other idol so my plan was to try and get Alex and Brian to vote Tobi out with me. But I spoke to Brian and he doesn't trust me and he was kinda harsh. Brian's pretty messy, especially considering he threw Alex under the bus to Joe of all people who then told me. Alex must have told Brian about his light pearl bc he trusted him and Brian betrayed him by telling Joe, silly silly Brian. It looks like I'm gonna have to use the idol, I wish I could keep it longer but I am NOT going home today! Brian, Tobi, Nicole need to watch their damn backs. People thought I was completely out off this game but I'm climbing back up in the ranks and I'm here to get deep in the game and hopefully it happens!

I’ll kinda spill my full thots abt this round if I survive until the next round but ... basically two “mini tribes” were formed, and it’s a look... I had majority to take out Conor and save Tobi after Nicole won immunity, but then Alex might not vote Conor and Zak/Joe demanded I keep Conor... so now I’m just thoroughly annoyed with all the men in this game and they can royally fuck off.
I’m trying to save and preserve Tobi and myself bc Tobis my favorite human being not named Marie in this game... but Im working a lot better alongside a lone Tobi...
so ya ! woo !!! i hope me/tobi/alex/nicole take out conor and chloe goes on the other tribe ¯\\_(ツ)\_/¯