Chapter 113: My Love For Him

**My Love For Him** is the one-hundred-and-thirteenth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Ichikawa is hanging a piece of paper with his wish (Hoping For Success) at the shrine. Adachi comes up behind him, asking if he's referring to his exams, and saying that he's too serious.

Later, Ichikawa meets up with Yamada as she's leaving for her audition. They greet each other, and he brings out his bag, unzipping it and showing a collection of her favorite snacks. He says that he figured she would run out fast, so he brought her a lot. She immediately brightens up, and gleefully brings up how full his bag was. She begins to depart, and he places his fist forward, beginning to announce "good luck," but catches himself, saying, "It will be okay." She beams at him then continues on her way.

A quick montage of panels shows the rest of Ichikawa's final day with the trip. He hangs out with Adachi, Kanzaki, and Oota, watches as the other girls interact with some students from Kansai, and looks over souvenirs, taking special interest in a charm with a dragon curled around a sword, while Adachi tries to entice him with a wooden sword and a lantern. On the way home, most of the students are napping while he peers solemnly out the window. He considers his words, "I'll have fun even without you, Yamada," and considers how, even so, he really wants to see her. He thinks on this all the way from the station, and as he walks home, gets a message from her, saying she is at the usual place. The options rush through his mind, and he decides on the school library.

Inside, Yamada is sitting at her usual spot at the table by the window. They discuss how he got there so fast, and how she managed to get inside the school with street clothes, then he asks about the audition. She lets out a frustrated groan, grabbing onto the curtains and saying that she wasn't sure, but tried her best. She begins mentally beating herself up, calling herself a weak person, indecisive, jealous of others, negative, and quick to get anxious. He tries to interject, but she claims there is nothing she can do about it, but concludes, with a smile, that she likes herself that way. She claims it's not a personality change, just something she's come to realize. She says that this is why everyone around her feels so precious and special to her, and that that is something that he made her realize about herself. She calls his full name, saying, that he is the most precious and special person to her, and, with everything she has, declares that she loves him. She asks if he will go out with her, grabbing his hands, and he timidly agrees as tears well up in his eyes. She moves her hands to his face, and suddenly leans in for a kiss, catching him off-guard. The two awkwardly move their heads back-and-forth, trying to get the optimal angle, and end up bonking each other on the head, which causes them both to laugh. She suddenly bends down and pecks him on the cheek, still giggling, and runs out of the room, yelling "We did it!" As he attempts to recover, he concludes that a brand new world has just opened up to them.

## Trivia

* In the bag of snacks that Ichikawa brings is a collection featured all throughout the events of the manga. Colbee potato chips, Jagabee potato sticks, Meltykiss chocolate, and chocolate-covered almonds are all featured.
* This Chapter features several real-world locations. The girls meet some kansai students here. The shrine where Ichikawa makes his wish is here.