Self loathing

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**hocusthepocus**

11-09-2014, 08:02 AM

I accidentally fell into self loathing. I've never really liked my nose, but a year or two ago, I just somehow were at peace. I didn't obsess about it and many good things happened.

I've been with my boyfriend over a year now.

A week ago I could actually feel my nose growing again and then I started to obsess about it again. I constantly look myself from the mirror and I hate what I see.

I feel like I shouldn't feel sexy or pretty anymore and that makes me feel like actually killing myself.

How did you come off from self hatred?

**candelonia**

11-09-2014, 08:47 AM

I decided to start caring about how I feel, caring about ME feeling good regardless the health/body issues and experiences that I felt bad about. And Yes I went from hating myself and actually trying to kill myself feeling like a victim to LOVING myself, feeling empowered worthy and so blessed. Did it happen instantly? No, and that is the BEST PART because I got the wonderful opportunity to practice finding relief and finding my alignment unconditionally! !! It is so empowering! And Yes everything I desire just came to me easily but that was after I had found my way into relief, more relief and feeling good. ♡

**marie la luz**

11-09-2014, 11:45 AM

big nose =/= bad feelings = kill self

not really

not ever

I had a similar issue

(imperceptibly to others but trust me, as an artist I can see it) hugely crooked nose =/= bad feelings = severe anxiety

Nope

It never has anything to do with the nose

those feelings far outweigh the value of a crooked nose or big nose or whatever

Point being

Looking back, I actually was "under the spell" of gluten intolerance

It took a lot of releasing resistance to finally find that out and correct it

So, no, if you are feeling that badly about your nose, its probably just that you are having enormously bad feelings which are looking for a home, and apparently your nose is your most sensitive point that you can pin your feelings on...

I think there is a larger alignment/ longer term bad feeling thing going on.

aka it has nothing to do with your nose

There are actually people who are even more "imperfect" who enjoy better feelings about themselves.

aka

there are ugly people in this world, who amazingly don't know it, and due to LOA they enjoy the heck out of their lives and might as well be the only beauty in this world.

aka

its not your nose

**marie la luz**

11-09-2014, 11:54 AM

I guess my point is,

don't even call it self hatred

Treat yourself with all the tenderness that you would for an ill person

Really just seek relief

seek alignment and drop any burdens you've been carrying

Be extra good to yourself

extra tender and careful

And there is nothing wrong with getting emotional help from a councelor

or whatever you do to get help...

Pay attention and be extra kind to yourself

and don't take it personally as if you are "bad" for messing up ever.

**songbird**

11-09-2014, 04:11 PM

By remembering what is really true.

Who you really are.

The beauty that is within.

Only you can be you....I heard this today and loved it.

The sooner you can wean yourself off having your self value and self esteem based on your looks, the easier it will be as you get older and can no longer rely on your looks for that!...I heard this too, and thought this is such good advice for women and men, since our society and media believe that this is what is important.....I was looking at a row of magazines yesterday and saw one popular one and the headline was....The most inspiring women of the year"....and it was their view of the most fashionable women! and it made me laugh....because to me that would not be the most inspiring women....or the most inspiring topic...maybe for me it would be other women. Women who may never be on the front cover of a popular trendy magazine.

Please do not place your value where it is not. For you will never find it there.

Find it in the truth of who you are, and it will go with you wherever you are, for as long as you are.

I guess it is a case of what is the most important thing for you.

All the best

PS You cant come off of something, you can only go onto something else. Because what you focus on will always increase. So maybe find easier to feel good about topics and obsess about them.

Remember the positive more and more about yourself. And learn how insignificant the size of your nose really is. Know that source choose that nose and so it is perfect. Find positive role models who don't base their worth on their looks. Find positive role models who have noses that are larger than the Media perfect size! Maybe get some pictures of them to show yourself that only you can be you!

**songbird**

11-09-2014, 06:25 PM

I just remembered something that I found really interesting, and that was a Ted talk that I watched. It was by a young women who had been called the most ugly women in the world, and she was giving a talk about this. I cant remember the details, but she had previously given a talk or maybe it was a photo of her posted and she had hundreds of comments made about it and they were all apart from one very negative saying how ugly she was. In her talk she talked about this and how hard it was but in time how she grew from it.

Anyway, the thing that I found really interesting was how her appearance completely changed, to me, during her talk, half way through she started to talk about the positives from her experience, and when she did this for a while she just lighted up, she began to glow and she looked radiant and beautiful, it was radiating from within her. She looked really beautiful when she focused on the positive aspects and her expansion.

**hocusthepocus**

12-15-2014, 09:26 PM

Funny story, I just happend on that video. And then soon after came here and read your post again. :D