Koudem

Boone (Adoptive Son)

## Application Sheet

Koudem was a black-and-brown male wolf with pale sky blue eyes. He was heavily-scarred on his face and rear legs, and was adorned with multiple feathers in his fur. Born and raised in Havir, he was separated from his pack and spent a brief time in Kausen, before ultimately returning. When the pack was destroyed by a meteorite, he and his best friend (and later mate), Siobhan, traveled to Heylguard (later Heyl). There, after becoming a Cave Watchman, he also became the father to two pups: Silas and Sivora. He also adopted a youngster named Boone, shortly before the family (minus Silas) left the pack, presumably returning to the abandoned lands of Havir to continue their lives together, never to be seen again. Koudem was created and RP'd by KinaRain.

## Personality

* ***Selfless and Loyal.*** Koudem would do anything for his pack and his gods. He is fiercely loyal and selfless almost to a fault. He believes there is no point in taking care of himself if he has no one to protect.
* ***Spiritual and Traditional.*** Koudem was born and raised in Havir and has a strongly rooted faith in the gods. He follows all of the packs traditions to a T and believes that is why he has prospered. Anyone who questions his gods will be punished. Even now that he is in Heylguard he still tends to follow Havir culture and tradition.
* ***Proud and Strong Willed*.** Koudem is a very proud wolf but he is not arrogant, in fact he sees little value in himself. He is proud of his pack and his heritage and his strength because it enables him to protect these things. He is fairly stuck in his ways and once his mind is made up about something or someone it is very hard to change it.
* ***Wise and Just*.** More than anything Koudem wants to someday be a just leader. He is wise for his years and always takes the elder's experience into consideration. Though he has firm beliefs Koudem is willing to listen to others. His willingness to listen, however, does not change the fact that he has his own opinions and always puts the gods first.
* ***Impatient but Respectful.*** Though Koudem is caring he has a very strict set of beliefs and if you don't live up to them he has little time for you, however, if you have the desire and strength to improve he will do everything he can to help you succeed. He is a firm believer that every wolf has a place in the pack be it high rank or low and he will respect the place you have.
* ***Calculating and Cautious.*** Koudem is always looking out for the packs best interest and this has lead him to be very careful around strangers. Around pack mates his philosophy is bite first, ask questions later but alone he has a different approach. When he encounters a stranger he walks up and talks to them, it doesn't matter what about, he watches their movements and body language. Once he has a good feeling for what they're like he will do one of two things. If they have something to offer his people like great hunting skill or knowledge of the gods he invites them in. However, if they are a threat he instantly goes from friendly conversation to attacking them.
* ***Lost*.** In his youth Koudem wanted nothing more than to serve his pack and someday, if the gods willed it, rule. Now as he makes his way to another new pack he feels incredibly lost. In his time he has followed two great alphas, Saurugol and Gregor. By choosing to follow Siobhan he has promised his loyalty to this Nahimana and Fitu. Only time will tell what kind of alphas this pair will be.

## Pre-Group History

Koudem, like his mother before him, was born and raised in Havir. His mother Iris was a very beautiful and well respected she-wolf in the pack, a beta healer. As a pup she had shown great promise as a healer and was taken from her parents to be raised by the eldest healer in the pack. As a young adult she progressed unusually fast and quickly became a delta healer. It was at this point that the alphas took note of her. It was decided that she would be betrothed to Saurugol, future alpha of Havir. Though she considered him a good friend and a worthy alpha Iris never really cared whether or not she became an alpha herself. All that mattered to her was taking care of her pack and honoring her gods.

    Eventually, while out searching for herbs near the border, Iris met a loner named Kyzer. Over time their friendship turned to love and Iris found herself pregnant with his pup. Though he possessed great knowledge of the gods Kyzer refused to join Havir. Iris accepted this but also knew her place was in the pack.

    When they found out about her affair the alphas were outraged but they couldn't just ignore how much she benefited the pack. They ended up letting her stay in Havir. Wolves still came to her for healing but they stopped talking to her personally. Even Sauru, who she had considered a good friend, left her behind seeking comfort in the den of another she-wolf to mend his broken heart. When she finally gave birth to Koudem, the only pup in his litter, Iris was completely alone.

    Koudem never realized any of his mother's heartache as he was growing up, she was to good at hiding it for his sake. She was strong and proud much like himself. She had fallen in love and saw nothing wrong with that. Koudem never met his father but was constantly told by his mother that Kyzer was her angel and that he was always watching over them. The pup modeled himself after the kind of man he imagined Kyzer to be.

    When Koudem was still young his mother brought home a small pup. She had been found in the cold next to her dead littermates. Iris took the diamond marking on the pup's forehead as a sign from the gods that she was meant to raise her. Both Kyzer and Koudem shared the same mark.

   Koudem and his new 'sister' Siobhan became fast friends and grew up being told stories of the gods that Kyzer had taught Iris. When Koudem was a juvenile his mother became very ill. She refused to see any healers saying it was her time, Kyzer was calling her back to him. Over the last week of her life Iris told her pups her final story and told them that she would become a star, watching over them always. Iris' death hit Koudem hard. The day it happened he ran out into the cold to numb himself from the pain of his loss. He sat outside through the freezing night. Eventually Siobhan found him and drug him into the den but the damage was already done. Due to severe frostbite Koudem has nerve damage that causes him to not feel small injuries. In a fight he is more likely to bleed to death before backing down simply because he can't feel the pain.

    For a while Koudem lived contently in Havir, following his gods and working towards his goals of being a guardian. He still believed in the gods and knew they must have taken his mother for a good reason. As Siobhan began working towards being a healer Koudem began going on short trips to gather rare herbs for her, things that didn't grow in their snowy territory. During one such trip he encountered an aggressive loner who challenged him. The two fought and Koudem, being larger but less experienced, was greatly injured. Because of his nerve damage he didn't realize how much blood he had lost. He made his way home but quickly became disorientated. He wandered south, away from Havir, without realizing. Confused and lost he ended up stumbling over a small cliff. He lost concisousness laying on the rocks.

    When he woke up Koudem was warm and safe in Kausen. A member had found him and taken pity on the young adult. Once he was well enough Kou went to the Alpha and requested to join the pack. He expressed his strength and skill and Gregor agreed that he would be a valuable addition. Koudem joined the Kausen pack and now works hard to earn his alphas favor. His pack mates have asked him many times but he really has no memory of his life before Kausen, there's just a faint feeling like he's missing something. He tries not to think about it too often and focuses on working towards being a scout so he can better protect his pack.

## Group History

After a short time as a Scout in Kausen, during which he got to know a few wolves like Impala, Koudem was haunted by dreams of a bright red-furred wolf. Tensions were rising between neighboring packs Blutwald and Aryn, and the Kausen alpha, Gregor, decided it would be safest to move his pack to join with that of his daughter - Chandor. He told his packmates that, if they didn't want to join Chandor, they wouldn't have to.

Koudem felt betrayed. He swore his loyalty to his alpha, and Gregor asking them to take Aethelynda as their new alpha without Koudem *knowing* her made him very uncomfortable. He decided to travel north, in the hopes of finding the pack that lingered in his memories...finding the red-furred wolf who haunted his dreams.

After some time alone, Koudem eventually found himself at the borders of Havir. Recognized by some former packmates, he was brought back to the main den. There wasn't much time to reacclimatize, however. The red wolf he'd been seeking - a childhood friend, closer than a sister to Koudem - had been kidnapped and missing from Havir for over two seasons.

It was only a short time after his return that a glimmer of hope for the kidnapped she-wolf, Siobhan, (and the others who'd been kidnapped) sparked. One of the loners who'd kidnapped her, Tadashi, came to the Havirians and offered to help them get their packmates back. Koudem was loathe to trust Tadashi and wanted desperately to go with the rescue patrol to bring Siobhan home, but he was told to remain behind, with Dahlia and Hroarr, to guard the main den.

The group was successful in bringing the kidnapped she-wolves home, and Siobhan was *very* surprised to see Koudem! They were very close before he vanished and wound up in Kausen, and to see him suddenly back in Havir was surprising. Upon seeing her again, he realized that the closeness he felt to her wasn't *just* a friendship - seeing her again made him realize that he had a bit of a crush developing on her.

He wanted to share his feelings with her, but he felt very anxious about it, especially with his memories still only coming back in bits and pieces, and not being completely back. Additionally, *so much* of the pack was different than when he'd left, and he felt like an outsider looking in as Havir life continued. Siobhan wasn't *his,* not as close as they had been as younger wolves. She had a new best friend - Aphrodi - and agreed to be a surrogate mother for him and his mate, Ruston, since they couldn't have pups together.

Koudem knew those pups wouldn't be *hers* exclusively, and that they were *technically* the pups of Aphrodi and Koudem, but because of the necessity of her presence in the pups' lives, she was firmly a part of the family unit. A family unit Koudem was *not* a part of. Siobhan still spent a great deal of time with him, but her attentions were divided now...she was going to be a mother, of pups that weren't his, and Ruston and Aphrodi were almost constantly with her, prepping for their new family.

Even though Siobhan still cared for and spent time with Koudem, it didn't help with the loneliness he felt. Koudem felt...isolated, from his pack, even though it was *home.*

Imagine how heartbreaking it was for him to lose it all over again.

A meteor struck Havir, destroying the territory and killing Saurugol. The pack scattered, with the majority of the wolves going to Vale. Koudem was isolated for a short time, but managed to find Siobhan, Aphrodi, and Ruston in the wreckage, traveling south, towards Heylguard to have their pups.

Koudem was uncertain of what to do, but lingered with Siobhan and her companions. He caught prey for her, and for Aphrodi and Ruston, to the best of his ability, all the while noticing that Ruston was an excellent guardian, and Aphrodi a healer...they would be able to take care of her without him. But he wouldn't leave - not yet, at least. He felt he couldn't leave Siobhan, even though he knew the others were capable of caring for her.

One day, while returning to their temporary den with prey from a successful hunt, he heard the squeaks of new life - the pups had been born! Immediately, he was seized by pride, and then a twinge of jealousy, all of which vanished when he realized how dearly he wanted to hold Siobhan, offer support and praise for delivering her pups, tell her, *finally*, that he loved her.

But no - he wouldn't tell her just yet. He let her enjoy her new role as a mother to Asclepius, Livia, Khione, and Eros.

The two proud fathers and Koudem helped Siobhan to bring the pups to Heylguard, where they were welcomed. Able to relax a bit more, with a whole pack to offer support, food, and protection, Koudem finally felt it was the time to share his feelings. Siobhan loved him too, and even though their situation was complicated, by the grief of losing Havir, the four new lives keeping them busy, and adjusting to a new pack, Koudem and Siobhan would make it work.

Koudem showered Siobhan in affection, bringing her flowers and rarely leaving her side. He would receive a distraction, however, in the arrival of a juvenile loner named Boone. Boone immediately looked up to Koudem, wanting nothing but to earn his respect and praise. Koudem was puzzled, and a bit gruff, about being 'adopted' as Boone's father figure (though eventually he'd come to accept the young male).

One day, after a failed fishing lesson with the youngster, Koudem returned to Siobhan, and she told him that he'd better get used to being a father - because she was pregnant with his pups. Two dear pups would be born that summer: Silas and Sivora. Koudem and Siobhan loved their children dearly. How could they be happier?

Koudem realized, after the pups were born, that Boone was becoming withdrawn and avoiding him. Koudem approached the youngster and they discussed their insecurities - Boone about making Koudem proud, seeing him as a father figure, and Koudem expressing his concerns about being a good father. With Boone's reassurance, Koudem vowed to be the best father he could be - not only to his newly born pups, but to Boone as well, accepting him officially as his adopted son.

He was a good father to the pups as they grew. When they became juveniles, Koudem and Siobhan decided that they wanted to return to Havir. Even though the pack was gone, the lands remained, and they felt drawn to them. Sivora went with them, though Silas decided to remain behind. Boone, it is presumed, also went with them.

In any case, Koudem and his family (with the exception of son Silas) have never been seen again, though it's presumed they live a peaceful life either outside of the Domain or deep in the abandoned lands of Havir.

## Trivia

* Being born and raised in Havir Koudem believes in the Havirian Gods. Though he believes in and whole heartedly worships all 3 gods he considers the Moon God Ademache to be his personal deity, not only do his eyes look like the moon he also considers himself a protector of his family and pack. He firmly believes three things; that everything happens for a reason, you do not anger the Gods, and you should respect elders for their wisdom and the strength that they once had. While in Havir he would do *anything* to please the alpha and therefore please his gods but now an alpha must prove themselves worthy.
	+ The three feathers he wears in his mane represent the three gods: a pheasant feather, for Adezevah; a falcon feather, for Ademache; and a raven feather to represent Adetunji.
* Koudem has many scars from the harsh conditions in Havir, most of which are hidden. However, the large scar on his left hip is the worst, caused from the fall where he lost his memory and landed on pointed stones. The scar on his face, under his left eye, was caused when it was cut while running from the destruction of Havir.

## Quotes

* ”I have to find them. I have to find *her*.” (deciding to find Siobhan, despite having no memory of who she was, *Where Will I Go Now?*)
* "I suppose I have been a bit like a father to you. Come on. You should probably meet your siblings." (accepting Boone as his son, *Family is More Than Blood*)

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