Sai Hatori

**Sai** is not doing well mentally

## Appearance & Personality

### Appearance

Sai is stress ball of a person. Standing at an unimpressive height of 5'6" and having a very rounded and soft appearance, Sai does not come off as very intimidating at first glance, much to his own dismay, but his appearance is incredibly deceiving. He has a round face with effeminate features and squeezable cheeks-- save for his eyebrows that are pretty thick and usually furrowed in a glare. His skin is an olive color and he has very dark brown eyes that have such dark circles around them it looks like he hasn't slept in weeks. His hair is black and falls to about his shoulders and bangs that completely cover his left eye, and his hair is usually greasy because he simply does not care enough to wash it. He usually wears the same Nirvana sweatshirt and baggy black pants with sneakers All the time, or slight variations of that. He tries very hard to look like an NPC but he's emo in his soul.

### Personality

Sai is hopelessly introverted. He is extremely reserved and prefers to keep to himself for the most part-- he'd honestly much prefer it if people didn't percieve him. i have to go to art history ill finish this later
## Relations

* Family
* Other

Sai does not have, a good relationship with his dad.

Sai and his mom have a relationship, kind of. Even as distant and as un-motherly as she is, Sai knows that she cares and she does make an effort-- Sai just really wished she'd make more of one. She's more of a mother now than she ever has been, which Sai is grateful for, but he also really fucking wishes that she was a mother sooner rather than later. A Childhood Is Hard when You Have Horrific Awful Ghoulish Parents. Regardless, none of them ever bring what happened in the past up, because none of them like to think about it, and if you don't talk about it then it didn't happen. Of course that isn't true, Sai is still deeply uncomfortable around his mom a lot of the time and does resent her because he knows that half of the reason he's so fucked up is because of her, but he doesn't like to blame her. He knows she was pushed to the very limits of an already questionable psyche. At the end of the day, Sai is still uneasy around his mom, but he's just really, really happy to have her present and kind of prominent in his life.

Sai has always been in Izumi's shadow. Izumi already checked all of the boxes that Kisoku had set out for them as sons. Smart, athletic, well-liked, agreeable, attractive, and most importantly, he is masculine, and it really didn't help that Sai didn't meet any of these standards to begin with. He was the son that their father wanted, and the one he got on the first try, leaving Sai to disappoint him at every step because there wasn't any chance in hell that he would live up to the legacy that Izumi left. Sai loves his brother, but at the forefront of his mind is the deep and bitter resentment and jealousy he's harbored over the past 17 years of constant comparison and disappointment. He feels bad that he's let his parents entirely warp his perception of his brother, but he tries not to think about it. He justifies his negative feelings by telling himself that Izumi is too much like their dad for them to ever get along beyond something surface level. Regardless of that, Sai thinks Izumi is well deserving of the success he's found in life, because he knows he's worked hard. He will NEVER say this to him, but he's very proud of him, and wishes him the best despite the fact that they don't really talk anymore.

He Loves His Sister. Annya and Sai have been basically inseperable since birth. They weren't saddled with the curse of being born the same gender and being forced to do legitimately everything together, so they naturally grew very close due to Circumstances. Annya has always been far more outgoing and confrontational than Sai, and has always had far, far more friends that she kind of forced to also hang out with Sai so he wouldn't be left out or lonely. She stuck up for him when they were younger, be it in school or at home, and Sai would do the same for her-- especially as they got older, and he got the balls to physically stand up to their dad, for both her and himself. They have seen each other through everything, and though they both keep secrets, Sai can safely say that Annya is probably one of the only people on the planet that actually knows him.
Somewhere in the back of his mind he's jealous of her. Not as bitterly jealous as he is of Izumi, but it's clear that she's the favorite twin, in every aspect of their lives. He's fine with that, for the most part, it just hurts to know that both of their parents like Annya more than him, along with literally everyone they know. It is glaringly obvious with their mother and subtly noticeable with their father, and those are things that DEEPLY hurt Sai, but he will never bring it up. He will also never bring up that he is jealous of her femininity because that, is, an entirely different can of worms.
Mostly he's just extremely worried about her. He knows that she's worried about him in return, but he loves to be a hypocrite. Sai knows that Annya is a deeply emotional and sentimental person, and that she cares deeply and loves very hard, so it unnerves him to see her pushing her negative emotions aside and playing them off as nothing. He thinks that she's too happy, not even in a way that is supposed to be mean he just knows that there are very dark things in her mind that she refuses to talk about because she *really* likes to pretend everything about their life is normal. He gets it on one hand, but on the other hand he just kind of wishes she'd take the plunge and tell him that she wants to kill herself or something, just so that he knows and can keep an eye out for her. He is not one to ever want to talk about feelings, but Annya will always be his exception because he loves her deeply. He genuinely hates that she's so forgiving to people who have wronged her, and thinks that she should have far more hate in her heart than she does. He knows she'd forgive almost anyone who has wronged her, given the chance, even if she's so violently polarizing when it comes to people who have hurt those she cares about. He loves her SO MUCH and does NOT want to see her more hurt than she already has been because he knows that this world is cruel to kind people like her.

Sai genuinely thinks that Patricia might be the stupidest person he has ever had the misfortune of meeting and interacting with regularly. She somehow managed to be swayed by his dad's nonexistent charms, to the point where she would rip apart her family and jump at the chance to be with him, not to mention, thinking she could get away with lying to her husband about the paternity of Ren for *five years* when he was clearly not white. She will not hear out a single bad word against Sai's dad-- reasons why Makoto and Patricia have only spoken once during the entire ordeal. What's even funnier, is that Patricia has almost no reason to believe them, since she's never experienced that side of Sai's dad herself. It must be that awful always belongs together, because Sai's dad has gotten marginally better since Patricia has come into thier lives. Patricia also really likes to think that she can completely replace Sai and Annya's mom, having gone through the entire house and gotten rid of every picture that she's in, or simply taped a picture of her own face over Makoto's. These are things that Sai observes that makes him think that maybe, just maybe, he isn't as insane as they come. She's nosy and overbearing in a way that Sai isn't used to and doesn't like, and he does everything in his power to avoid her and her bombardment of questions as to where he is, what he's doing, who he's with, and worst of all-- how he is. She's not his mom, she never will be, and he'd rather she didn't make an effort.

Ren Headphones Hatori. First and foremost Sai is just really fucking annoyed by Ren's existence because he wakes him up at 6am every day regardless of when Sai may have fallen asleep, and asks him to Play Toys with Him. But that is something Sai can overlook considering Ren is, six years old and a child. He tries to be as nice to him as he can be because The Situation was probably twice as hard on Ren as it was on him and Annya. He thinks Ren is a pure beautiful soul and is extremely worried for how his life will go when Sai and Annya aren't around to supervise things. Being caught in the middle of adults' drama fucking *sucks* and Sai really hopes it doesn't take a toll on Ren like it did on him.

Sai kind of wishes he was neutral on Griffin and Pheobe because he wants to forget that they exist. He does not like having strangers in his room and space and close to his belongings and personal shit, and he especially does not like that there are now RANDOM CHILDREN living with his DAD and they will know all of the nitty gritty details of his home life. That all aside, Sai doesn't HATE them, he just thinks they're annoying purely because they're, annoying kids. He thinks they're nice enough and has kind of grown to like them, he just wishes that they weren't around, since, The Happenings should have never happened and their family should have NEVER been broken.

Angelo has been friends with Annya since middle school, which means Sai has known Angelo since they were kids. She's always been really nice to him, enough to the point where Sai can consider her a friend of his own outside of Annya, but her refuses to hang out with her alone due to things he has made up in his head. He thinks she's an awesome person and somebody he can trust purely because of how much she has stuck with Annya through. he is very jealous of her in the back of his mind for reasons.

She replaced Annya and fucked Jayden Perry and also talks to him like he is not a human. She was also so, so so mean to him in middle school purely because he hung out with his sister and by extension Penny and Angelo. He thinks she's a horrible fucking person.

Katerina is his brother's previously obsessive ex girlfriend. She just kind of showed up at his house one day looking for Izumi and found Sai instead, so she started hanging out with him. She gave him weed, and their relationship wasn't much deeper than Katerina ranting to Sai about her relationship with Izumi and how much she misses him, and Sai being really egregiously high. They haven't talked much since Katerina got over Izumi a couple of years ago, and Sai's fine with that and hopes she's doing well.

Sai has definitely had his fair share of sour encounters with these girls in middle and early highschool, but that's not really what he's worried about. What he does care about is the psychological torture they put Annya through because good GOD they would make her come home sobbing-- and they were supposed to be friends, or something. Whatever, it doesn't matter anymore, because Sai just HATES this group of girls and will say the most HEINOUS and misogynistic things about them because it's an easy way to verbalize how much he hates these people.

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Sai doesn't understand Neil, and that's kind of what the draw is for him. He's like if Slade were REAAAALLY integrated in society. Sai thinks Neil is really fucking weird in an appealing way. He always asks Sai to draw Neil and Dunkle in WEEEEEIRD fucking positions and situations, such as their wedding or their honeymoon or the birth of their first child. They get kind of close purely because of The Dunkleverse and Sai develops a crush on him at the very end of senior year. Neil becomes somebody he can trust a little.

Oh, Kian. Sai used to be head over heels for him, but they just kind of... drifted. Kian found new friends and despite the fact that he still hangs around his old lunch table, it isn't the same for Sai. He doesn't trust him anymore and avoids talking to him if he can. He can't help but be worried about the way he is going sometimes, but he pushes that to the back of his mind. He misses their friendship, but knows that it would have never gone further than that because Kian Is Straight.

Guppet falls under the same vein as Neil in Sai's mind. He thinks he's really cool and would really like to get to know him better if he could get past his crippling anxiety over, talking, to them. The only things different are that Guppet is a little too goatular for Sai to be attracted to. His visions of Guppet with a goat head on a human man's body were a little TOO jarring. Jax is just kind of There to Sai. She is female in a way that he cannot compute so he just kind of experiences her presence. He doesn't dislike her, but he definitely isn't comfortable around her, and probably won't get to know her better sadly.

Felicity is into Sai in an AGGRESSIVE way where she will sometimes borderline bully him and just kind of Punch His Arm and Be Loud around him. He is so scared of her. And Fifi is just insane to him. On occasion she'll be funny, but mostly she just scares the shit out of him. He avoids them both.
* pre faith event
* post faith event

Sai does NOT like Alto. The way that she looks at him makes him feel bad and guilty and like he's done something truly awful to her by just existing, even though he really hasn't done anything but be unpleasant. Which, he is to everyone, so she isn't special. She's definitely special to Annya, though, which really bothers him, because he thinks she can do a lot better than two big weepy yellow eyes pasted on some transulscent white skin. He avoids her at all costs.

he feels normal about her.
* early encounters
* The Happening
* the leaving event

Sai doesn't know jack shit about this guy aside from the fact that he's kind of annoying and comes in nearly every shift and talks his ear off about genuinely nothing. He thinks Slade is kind of fucking weird, but he's extremely attracted to him and furious about it.

Slade grew on Sai, a lot. Like a lot, they're essentially attached at the hip and are seen everywhere together. Sai likes him a lot-- like a *lot*, simple attraction and "sex for the sake of sex" turned into something more to Sai and he's trying pretty desperately to cover that up before Slade catches on. If Sai didn't have Annya tethering him to, like, reality, he would've run away with Slade in a heartbeat. He loves him, basically, but even with his feelings for him put to the side, Sai cares about Slade very deeply. He values him greatly as a friend and genuinely thinks he's a fun person to be around, and somebody he thinks he can trust-- not for any great thing Slade has done, but because of how comfortable Sai feels around him. He's still the most obnoxious person on the planet, says and does insane things and is generally a nuisance, but he's Sai's nuisance and he has endless patience for his antics. In the back of his mind he's aware that Slade is dragging him down somewhere dark, but he doesn't really give a shit because it feels good.

He can't really bring himself to hate him.
**Kostas Dunkle**

Big Toe Kostas.
* pre cocaine party
* post cocaine party
* scary perry event

**Margo Knight**

she sits at his table once every blue moon he doesn't register her existence.

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sai just does not have a good track record when it comes to any sort of relationship

He is scared of them.
**Artemis Mirza**

She Stared At Him. It Scared Him.

### History

Pre-Wadeport

* he was born on june 19th in like 1998 or something in seattle, washington
	+ he has a twin sister named annya. she is a solid 5 minutes older
* the horrors
* he attends an elementary school
	+ he makes 0 friends and merely follows annya and her friends around or Plays in Dirt
* the horrors. cps is probably called once or twice but nothing happens
* when he's about 8 years old his dad gets offered a new job by makoto's (adopted) father at Wadeport Inc and they move to michigan

Wadeport

* he and izumi start sharing a room and become loosely close
	+ mostly sai just idolizes him and izumi kind of Protects Him and Annya using his suave and charisma and mostly the fact that their dad liked izumi more. like imagine a huge bird putting its wing over two small shivering birds in the rain. he would never Stop something as it was happening or step in during incidents but he'd do his best to talk their dad out of severe punishments because that was kind of, all he could do
* he begins attending wadeport elementary
	+ he continues to not have friends and follow annya around silently
	+ when he can't follow annya around he sits in silence in the back of the class and does not interact with people
* he begins attending wadeport middle school
	+ this is when he legitimately is kind of like. mute. and doesnt. talk. when talked to.
	+ immediately gets bullied
* he and annya attempt to run away (attempt 1 of several)
* annya befriends penny glazier & angelo williams-gomez and sai kind of, follows, her, and is their friend by extension, kind of
	+ penny is SO mean to him and permanently ruins the way he views his friendship with all of them
	+ genuinely he will go out of his way to avoid them because she is just Cruel to him
* annya becomes friends with the popular girls and he stops being able to hang out with her during the day (due to fear)
* bro eats lunch under the stairs with like 1 or 2 other Untouchables in absolute fucking silence
* things are just. bad. all around awful. things are so bad on every level. he copes in ways and does not stop coping in ways
* baby's first alcohol
* izumi moves out for college and the last layer of protection he and annya had from The Horrors is Gone.
* immediately after izumi leaves his ex-girlfriend katerina comes looking for him and starts hanging out with sai because he is So depressed she just, feels bad
	+ baby's first weed

*9th grade*

* he begins attending wadeport highschool
	+ due to the way the classes are set up, sai stops being in classes with his bullies b/c he is still kind of a good student at this point
	+ becomes an npc for the most part
* the Events happen with annya's friend group and they become attached at the hip again
	+ annya gets close with angelo and they start sitting together at lunch
* things just kind of happen and everything still sucks
* he and annya try to run away again because of The Horrors
	+ they actually manage to stay away from home for a couple of days before annya gets Scared and they go back
		- consequences

*10th grade*

* things continue on. neil boyd & kian boyd start existing
	+ kian and sai actually immediately become friends even if it was for like, one Scrimple. sai felt normal things towards him (HE HAD A MASSIVE FUCKING CRUSH ON HIM.)
	+ this is when sai becomes involved in the dunkleverse/kind of friends with neil because neil just does not stop asking him to draw weird fucking pictures of dunkle
* his mom discovers that his dad cheated on her at LEAST once several years ago with the secretary at wadeport inc
	+ there is actually a whole ass 4 year old to prove this
* The Incident.
	+ The Incident.
* his parents get divorced
	+ due to several children moving in with their dad, annya and sai agree to let their parents have joint custody despite wanting to move in with their mom
* The Incident
* his dad marries his Other Woman. sai now has a stepmom, a stepbrother and stepsister, and a half brother
* his mom immediately becomes distant and kind of leaves them on their own
* his dad also, kind of starts trying to pretend that sai and annya do not exist unless they do something wrong
* sai and kian drift due to kian getting close with bianca fischer
* he starts growing his hair out

*11th grade*

* he starts working at the 7/11 on the edge of town
* The Incident
* his grades start to slip and he gets kind of kicked out of ap and honors classes and he is just like Ok (effects him deeply)
	+ consequences
* him and kian stop talking entirely due to kian becoming friends with the car guys. sai has a normal reaction to this
* he discovers he can do PILLS to curb the decay of his sanity (doesnt work)
* meets slade
* neil asks sai to draw art for his new band dunkle and the masses
* he is so depressed. 1 of many low points
* sleeps with slade because he does not want to Die a Virgin. proceeds to try to kill himself naturally
* what do you know he is still alive. he keeps talking to slade because he feels bad for him, and also because that is The Guy he Lost his Virginity To.
	+ they become good friends over the summer and sai starts trying to clean him up
	+ at some point after sai gives slade a shower they start sleeping together again
		- this also Genuinely kickstarts sai's gender identity crisis

*12th grade*

* shit continues to occur
* alto starts existing as a concept in sai's mind due to annya. detrimental to him
* sai sees slade sleeping on a bench outside covered in a layer of ice and snow and offers to let him sleep in his car
	+ turns into sai creating a BED for slade in his trunk so that he doesn't freeze to death
* annya discovers he is sleeping with slade. she is not pleased
* sai starts getting closer with griffin, pheobe, and ren after a full 2 years of trying to pretend they dont exist
* slade and sai become BEST friends
* things occur over the winter because sai does not feel comfortable leaving slade alone in the cold (if youre cold he's cold Put him in your mouth)
	+ baby's 1st hard drug
* sai starts to actually kind of become friends with neil and the gang
* sai attends scary perry's cocaine parties with slade
	+ he befriends margo there and they bond over being sure that everyone in their school is fucking fake
* things are actually REALLY good for sai even if at the same time they are falling apart
* slade and sai become genuinely inseparable and sai starts skipping school to hang out with him
* wade krunelle dies
* slade goes missing
* sai gets asked if he was groomed by slade (detrimental)
* sai and margo become VERY close
	+ this leads to sai questioning he if he is attracted to women. He comes to the conclusion that he isn't but this doesn't stop him from trying to be Margo's favorite person because he hates Lewis Perry THAT much
	+ sai, margo, and lewis perry become a WEIRD trio. lewis perry and sai fucking hate each other actively and openly
* alto leaves annya for faith
* sai and margo get accused of murder
* scary perry becomes VERY SCARY
* shit just OCCURS.
* turns out it was all faith and the murder accusations go away
	+ faith gets arrested and goes away. the entire situation does horrors to sai's mind
* annya starts dating alto. sai is not happy about it
	+ will give her a disease if she comes too close to him or if he sees her any where around annya
* sai becomes very close with annya and angelo
* Graduates Highschool.
* turns 18, cuts off all of his hair, and leaves wadeport
	+ also fucking throws his phone into a lake so good luck contacting him

Post Wadeport

* he did not expect to get this far and has 0 plans
* drives out west because he has nothing better to do at this point

*Las Vegas*

* gets a new job, starts renting a place with a bunch of random people
	+ this random people include souls such as Augustus Dunkle (Kostas Dunkle's second son), Goose and Viper, Priya Patel, and Peter Nutshack
	+ let me stress that NONE of these people would be friends or even ever speak to each other were they not FORCED to live under the same roof
* annya breaks up with alto and this is event gives sai a slight skip in his step for the next several days
* gets another job but this one is much more questionable
* sai sleeps with a dunkle
* immediately falls into hard drugs
* things are still not great
* moves across the country to NYC to try to restart because his situation gets really bad

*New York City*

* gets an actual job as a cook in some random restaurant
* eventually he "settles down" and starts dating A Guy
	+ they just. enable each other. they love each other but their relationship is Bad purely because they make each other so much fucking worse
* at some point izumi stops talking to sai
* at some point ANNYA almost stops talking to sai
* Sai Leaves, Eventually, because that is Not worth it
	+ he actually leaves so aggressively he moves completely across the country to Seattle

*Seattle*

* instantly checks himself into rehab and therapy because he is a mess and cannot continue on the way he is
	+ here marks the beginning of his healing era
	+ he goes through about 3 therapists before he gets one that he doesnt have delusions over. or one that doesnt quit after 2 sessions
* he ends up re connecting with his half and step siblings because he's actually a functioning human
* the slade event
	+ gets close with the kid involved in that whole situation

*his 30s probably*

* kind of just wanders the country because he has no real ties to anything. works odd jobs and shit
* he probably ends up going to school for something
* somehow manages to become a tattoo artist and settles somewhere

## Fuck and shit I Can't fit Anywhere Else

* he likes music
	+ he does kind of play the guitar but not really
* SAI LIKES ALL THINGS CREATIVE. Sai was, and still is, a very quiet and introverted child and sought refuge in writing and drawing when he was younger as opposed to making friends. He doesn't consider himself very good at either (but he is pretty talented), and doesn't show people his drawings a lot-- not a single soul has seen a word he's written beyond English papers and stupid Warrior Cat roleplays and the creepypasta fanfiction, probably for good reason because he's pretty demented. He likes to draw pictures of dead things.
	+ He refuses to do art classes with his sister after the art teacher said his art was disturbing, and mostly does stuff in the woodshop because making birds out of wood is much more socially acceptable than whatever the fuck he was doing before.
	+ he regularly draws the people he goes to school with but Demented
* Skateboarding, kind of. He only just barely knows how to skateboard so he can pretend he's cool.
* he likes to smoak wead. he has also dabbled in HARD DRUGS.
* Feminization
* He actually really likes cooking and will do it whenever he can-- kind of because if he doesn't eat actual meals he will feel about 100 times worse than he normally does, but he has a genuine passion. He likes to cook for other people. Mostly Annya. Almost only Annya. She is the only person who is ever around. Sometimes he'll cook things for Slade.

### Fun Little Tidbits of Info

* He likes punk rock, emo, alternative and grunge-- among other things. his favorite bands & artists include nirvana, car seat headrest, deftones, slowdive, elliot smith, pixies, radiohead, nine inch nails, interpol, my chemical romance, grimes, green day among many many many other things
* He was very into Creepypasta when he was in middle school which is honestly really telling about him as a human being. He was kind of in love with Jeff the Killer and also Ben Drowned and would secretly read gay fanfiction of them on Wattpad. He is normal.
	+ There is a fanfiction.net account floating around the Internet that got super famous because of its Jeff the Killer fanfictions. You'll never guess which demented 12 year old was behind That one. He has tried to figure out the password the wipe the web of these heinous, heinous scripts, but alas, he deleted the email it was attached to and now it is just, there. And he knows it is there.
* He is supposed to wear glasses, but they got broken at some point and nobody took him to get them replaced, so now he's just kind of blind. My guy cannot clearly see things that are 3 feet ahead of him.
* He has a deep love for Kurt Cobain which is EXTREMELY TELLING ABOUT HIM AS AN INDIVUDUAL.
* The only reason he "hangs out" with the stoners is because they needed someone to draw their album covers. They let him sit at their lunch table, and that's as far as that goes.
* He has a tattoo of a wolf on his thigh that he gave to himself drunk.
	+ he also later tattoos slade's name on his inner thigh because he is insane!
* the titles
	+ the Imp
	+ the Ghoul
	+ The Mantis
	+ Other Mother
	+ The Raptured
	+ Cockroach/Chihuahua/Hare Fetus
	+ Scary Perry
	+ Big Toe Kostas
	+ Fishlips
	+ whimsical pacifist
	+ raptured meatbag
* he is scared of the girl scouts
* perma boymoder