An A Belle (Annabelle's Book)

**An A Belle** is a short-book written by Annabelle, who competed on *Survivor: Bryde Island* & *Survivor: War of Worlds*.

The book has sold many copies, over a million copies worldwide, making it one of the most best-selling books in the year of 2020. The book has inspired many LGBT+ individuals to stand up for themselves.

## Book

*Disclaimer: The chapters are longer in the actual version of the book, but here are the most important parts.*

### Chapter One: Who Am I?

It feels like yesterday that I looked myself into the mirror and straight up told that something wasn't right. Why did I have short year? Did I wear pants? And did I have something hanging below, instead of something else that all other girls like I had? From that moment, I started to feel different. Is different the right word for it? I doubt so, cause I am just a ordinairy girl. But I wasn't born like a girl. Around my fourth year on this planet, my parents realized that I was different, much different than any other boys. I never related myself to them, rather wanted to use the girls toilet because I felt much more safer there. Little did I know that I should've been there rather than the boys toilet.

### Chapter Two: From Him to Her

As soon as my mother saw me dressing up like a princess, playing with dolls and doing my cousin's hair, she realized that something wasn't right. An doctor appointment was made and after that, I went to many therapists and specialists that talked to me for months. And that's where my real life began; I started to become a girl. It was the first time I was happy to get medicines, to buy dresses and finally let my hair grow. That moment, where I heard I was gonna be a girl, was the best moment of my life.

### Chapter Three: A Dark Twist

Even though my mother supported me heavily, it was my father who refused to believe my transition. He burned all of my dolls, threw away my new bought dresses and when my mother went to work, he locked me in the basement closet. It wasn't just my father who didn't accept my new life. I got bullied at school, some of my nephews didn't want to see me and were even scared of me and I got kicked out of school after taking the girls bathroom for multiple times. One thing was for sure; if I had to be a girl, I had to be a tough one.

### Chapter Four: I'm A Queen

Some years passed. My parents divorced and my father even died because of alcohol poisoning. I strongly believe you should always respect your parents, but, what happened to my father might have been karma. I went to high school, with no one knowing that I was actually transgender. Due to the fact that I began my transition very early, my voice was still high and I had a very girly look. I decided to keep the secret for myself. The children who knew me before probably forgot me, my father died and the teachers from my school didn't bother to look after me. I started to be my totally self, be a extra queen and love everything and anything about my life.

### Chapter Five: Nightmare

I was around sixteen years old, almost fully grown into a girl. I almost reached the point where I could do surgery to become 100% a girl. So, I went to this party where all my friends went to. I wasn't aware of the fact that more people came there, people from different worlds. Certain guys suggested to take some drugs with me, but I refused, which made them mad and pissed at me. They tried to rape me, and figured that I wasn't 100% a girl since I hadn't done surgery by then. The worst thing imaginable happened. They still raped me, tortured me and when I got passed out, I was dumped in the lake. Thankfully I woke up as soon as I touched the water, or else... Anyways, I realized that whatever I did, it would backfire to me. These people knew my real identity and as much as I would have loved to get revenge on each one of them, I would only hurt myself.

### Chapter Six: A Whole New World

I finished high school and decided to flee. I had to leave this world behind me. I applied for a Fashion School in New York and got accepted. Only one thing let me stay, and that was my mother. After a long, long conversation, she let me go to New York. I had to leave my life supporter, best-friend... my mom. It hurt a lot, and it really bugged me. But, I was going to a new world. In New York, I met more people like me. I met Drag Queens, Gays, Transgenders... this is my world, this is my thing. They loved me for who I was and who I still am. And I will be so grateful for that. I finished Fashion School and then I realized that I wanted to get revenge on all the people that picked on me in my past.

### Chapter Seven: The End

We now come to the final part of my story. So, I finished my surgery and fully became a woman. I decided to apply for two shows; both of them refusing to accept me. Then, I applied for Survivor and I got accepted instead. I knew that if I showed myself as a woman, I would've gotten revenge on my haters. But, as soon as the season finished, the haters got to the toxic Jerome and his bully friends. They obviously told it to different people and therefor Joseph and Sean got the information too. Anyways, I grew closer to Sveneryn after we both got manipulated and bullied on our season. After months of talking, I felt comfortable with telling him my story. And out of all people that I met, except for my mother and the LGBT+ community, he accepted me. We fell in love and our love was so strong that no one could break it anymore. Because of that, I got my revenge on the haters. No matter what happens; I will always be myself and I encourange everyone to be themselves as well.

## Trivia

* Annabelle stated that writing this book meant a lot for her, but it was very hard to write.
* The title, An A Belle, means that she's a belle. A woman that stood up for herself and was loved because of who she was. It also resembles her name; An-a-belle (Annabelle).