Just Smile and Blink/Confessionals

## Day 4

Basically, Christian was voted out for being quiet as fuck, and like..... he blamed me and Brian for being too social or something?? It's ridiculous. I didn't have any part in throwing out his name, and yeah, I went along with it and tried to throw him off of voting for me, but .... um.... BYE??? I can barely lead a group of campers to the bathroom... I don't think I could LEAD a group of other people my own age to vote the same way.... So anyway.
I don't really worry about it hindering my game, however I do worry about it being a "yikies" for me. Because I feel like it could make people more aware of me as a player.

I have some... alliance... with Brian, Jason, Dwayne, and Sam! I don't not like anyone on my tribe, but I prefer some over others, and I think i've made that clear in the past.... basically, I think that, uh, Jason isn't someone I see in my longterm game??? I don't know. He's just someone I see as a very surface-level person, and that's my only issue. He's nice, but nice doesn't get you to be my closest ally. Also, it doesn't help that this group doesn't include Drew or Sharky. So I'll trust it as my back-up, but I won't rely on those people to be my longterm gameplan!!
Also, I've realized what makes me such a great villain: I'm a bitch. I just don't give a fuck. Like I want to be liked, but I also... don't give any fucks about what I say to be liked. I'm also lowkey a lil' manipulative... kjDHS... it's not on purpose, but I kinda.... just smile and blink and everyone loves me. Love that for my gay ass.....

## Day 5

My tribal question was kinda perfect because I'm in a spot in this game where I'm kinda playing all sides alongside Sam, so we know where the divisions lie, and it's fun to be able to have the tea from every angle! I definitely could be getting played, but I truly think Sam and I are set in this early portion of the game. The only concerning part of this all is that if we go to tribal again, following what should be this united Anita vote, we're going to have to kinda... pick a side. We could vote out Shea since they're not officially in either alliance, but I like Shea? So that's not super ideal for me. But Shea also kinda pops off 24/7 and is a dangerous player, so I would love to see them go before it gets too detrimental for me. I also think I could push that as a peaceful move.
Basically, all-in-all, I think Sam and I are set for now, but we need to start winning so the two of us can hide in the middle for a little while longer while we try to form our perfect group. Ideally, for me, that would be Sam, Sharky, Drew, and Dwayne, but of course, I'm not expecting Sam to be all good with that. I do wanna play this game wholly with Sharky and Sam, but I mainly want to make it to the end again and win. I do love the friendships I'm forming especially with Sam, but the win is something I'd love for a second time.
I'm going to do some pre-tribal rankings!
1. Sharky / Sam - I'm conflicted here. Sam and Sharky are definitely my #1 allies in this game and outside of this game. Even though Drew is my twin, I do think he is a very sneaky gameplayer, so I just trust these 2 above him. Sharky is always going to be someone I can rely on, and I have no doubt I have to clue him in on everything going on with me and my game that he doesn't know yet, but Sam and I are THE duo in this game. Sam has showed me some strong ass friendship that I literally adore him for, and he changed my mind on him in 5 days flat. Sharky and Sam are definitely my top 2, but I can't pick one over the other right now.
3. Drew - Drew's an easy next pick. I love him as my twinnie. We share so many things in common and whatnot, but I fear he's too smart for me to take to the end. I want to win, OK, and if I can't, I wouldn't mind rooting for him to win, but I don't want him to be the reason I'm in jury. I need to make sure him and I work hand-in-hand until "I" don't want that. Drew, when you see this, know that I respect you so much as a gameplayer but you are NOT my #1 right now.
4. Dwayne - I love Dwayne! Reconnecting with him during this game has been such a pleasure, and I truly think we could slay this game together! He has been so fun and enjoyable and amazing... fuck! I wish I didn't have some double combo of Drew/Sam/Sharky here because I know Dwayne would be in my ideal final 3 just based on how much fun I have talking to him. But alas, with my 2 babies, Sam and Sharky, and then my twinnie, Drew... Dwayne's #4 for this tribe!
5. Brian - Other Brian is highkey amazing???? I think I'm accidentally manipulating him into trusting me, and like... I'm sorry kjFDHSA.... He's really fucking sweet and fun to talk to, and he has a lot of nice life goals that I wish to one day also achieve, but I feel like... he's just not someone I want longterm for my personal game. Definitely more longterm than the bottom 3, but not super longterm.
6. Jason - Apparently Jason really likes me, and I really like him, too! I still kinda stick with my original view that he is sorta 1-dimensional, however I think he's showing other colors and why he's a villain. He dragged the FUCK outta Anita in the alliance chat, and I was shook to my core. But I think longterm? He's not going to be the best for my game.
7. Shea - I like Shea, but I fear that one time soon, they will be the reason I die in this game, and I cannot have that! I do think Shea's flexible to work with, especially if they wanna work with Sharky or Drew, but they aren't my first pick to work with!
8. Anita - I like Anita and have since I met her in Minshan, but she's clearly putting all her time into winning BBUK! And that's just not this game, oK? SO!!!

So yeah, we won the flag challenge, and then Host Liam comes in saying they had the villains name wrong in their tribe chat, and that he thinks it should just be a reward challenge now because of this...okay what?
First off, there's a wiki. You can take five seconds to look and the name is right there! Secondly, even if the name was right, the most it could do was bring their effort scores to 10, which would TIE us, not give them the win!
Anyways, apparently, the villains just wanted to nullify the round, even more what??? We won fair and square, and the hosts even checked with the original judges and it turns out that it wouldn't have changed anything.
So, okay Toby goes off and talks with one of the villains, and comes back and it didn't go well apparently, but now it's just new judges with the name fixed. And you know what changes?
NOTHING! WE ACTUALLY GOT MORE POINTS AND WON MORE FROM THE NEW JUDGES!!! It was all pointless!!!
This was just funny to me, like I get it, you wanted a fair challenge, but come on! If we lost because of a spelling error, I'd take that as our fault, and even further if I heard the judges say that it didn't change anything, then I would back off. WHY WAS THAT SO HARD FOR THEM TO DO????