Better Me

"**Better Me**" is a song by Brandon Arreaga, released to his Soundcloud in 2017.

## Lyrics

**Lyrics**
[Intro]

Aye

[Chorus]

Lately I've been feelin' I've been puttin' on a show

Try to turn away but I can't seem to let it go

Feelin' like the devil's got his hands around my throat

'Cause I'm chokin', I'm chokin', I'm broken (oh, oh)

Wish that I could say I knew where this was gonna go

Right before the start of somethin' I couldn't control

I feel like the devil's got his hands around my throat

'Cause I'm chokin', (no) I'm chokin', I'm broken

[Verse 1]

See, I ain't got it all together

People lookin' at me like I got the answer (but I don't)

I'm walkin' through the city with my head up

But I'm still feelin' the pressure (still feeling the pressure)

And when I say that I'm okay I'm really not though (not though)

I try to cover up my pain, I gotta stop though (gotta stop though)

'Cause I don't wanna lose everything I got, so

I'm gonna try to make it right (make it right though)

[Hook]

I'm gonna try to fix my life (fix my life)

Gonna fight to survive (to survive)

Ain't gonna listen to the lies

I'm just gonna fight

[Verse 2]

And if I die, that's okay ('kay)

Know where I'm going at the end of the day (day)

If only I could keep myself together for a change

This is not the party that I wanna show up late to

Gotta know it's not a game against you (not a game)

Rather with you

Only if you choose to (yeah)

I ain't one to point fingers 'cause I got my own issues

I'm tryna lay it out

Tryin' not to confuse you

I'm not who I wanna be

I'm not like I used to be

Who I used to be

Wish I could remember how I used to live

Lately I've been thinking 'bout the words I've said

Things I did

I can do better

[Chorus]

Lately I've been feelin' I've been puttin' on a show

Try to turn away but I can't seem to let it go

Feelin' like the devil's got his hands around my throat

'Cause I'm chokin', and I'm chokin', I'm broken (and I'm broken)

Wish that I could say I knew where this was gonna go

Right before the start of somethin' I couldn't control

I feel like the devil's got his hands around my throat

'Cause I'm chokin', I'm chokin', I'm broken

[Verse 3]

I ain't finished (I ain't finished)

No, I've got some unfinished business

History ain't short

But I'm tired of keeping secrets (keeping secrets)

Tired of walking 'round with people who don't know the difference (know the difference)

Tired of vibin' with the people who don't know the business

But I ain't tryna lose my soul I know it's hard to keep (hard to keep)

Ain't gon' let my observations get the best of me (best of me)

I wanna see a better me, that's what I wanna see

I wanna see a better me, I ain't got time to flee

That's for the market

That ain't gon' be a part of me (that ain't a part)

I'm gon' stop it

The parts of me that are losin' sleep

'Cause I ain't had it

Yeah I've been staying up for weeks

I know it's bad, but I ain't seen no one stopping me

I only see what I wanna see

It's bad for me (bad for me)

I only go when they needed me (yeah)

Emergency (emergency)

I only want what I don't need (need)

When will I see all I need is what I can't see (what I can't see)

It takes a week before I'm back doin' the same thing (nah nah nah)

You'd think I learned but I guess I can't see clearly (clearly)

That's why my vision is up

'Cause I ain't givin' it up

I'm holdin' back because I know about the things that I've done

[Hook]

When will I trust in them

When will I love again

Hope it doesn't take me

Losin' everything

To realize he's enough again

Oh I wanna be in love with him

I wanna come back home again

[Chorus]

'Cause lately I been feelin' I've been puttin' on a show

Try to turn away but I can't seem to let it go (let it go)

Feelin' like the devil's got his hands around my throat

'Cause I'm choking, I'm choking, and I'm broken

Wish that I could say I knew where this was gonna go (go)

Right before the start of something I couldn't control

I feel like the devil's got his hands around my throat

'Cause I'm chokin', I'm chokin', I'm broken (oh oh)

[Outro]

I wanna see a better me (oh)

Better me, oh