Are you resisting the feeling of resistance?

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**morinaga**

I have this thing now, where when something happens in my experience that I don't like I feel uncomfortable (as we do), and so instead of looking primarily for a change in circumstances I look for a change in feeling. Feelings of relief. I think about what it would feel like to be confident, or to appreciate this person or whatever.

Since I focus on reaching for thoughts that will change the way I feel (as opposed to a direct change in "what-is") I tend to think about how I actually don't need a change in circumstances at all if I can feel relief, and I can feel good and high about this topic (but of course circumstances would change anyway).

I've noticed though, that in search of feelings of relief I've come quite resistant about resistance! I hate it! It feels horrible to me, and so when I feel it I seem to be focusing on NOT having resistance as opposed to having improved feelings.

When I try and focus-wheel with something I'm trying to act on the resistance, to turn that around instead of doing it to feel better. So really, often it's no better than literally trying to change the circumstance that's causing the discord in the first place.

Whenever I get to a point where I'm feeling really good, or in the vortex even, the thought that takes me down or boots me out is often: "inevitably, because it is never done I will experience the horrible step 1 feelings of contrast again".

Yesterday I felt horrible about something, and I was looking to feel better and I stumbled upon "livingourdreams" virtual reality thread, and I did some VR's and it was great! It was fun! I was in the vortex! And so I thought to myself, I'll dabble with this everyday and I'll enjoy how it lifts me up and makes me feel great. Today when I got up I tried doing the VR's and they just felt stiff. It felt like I was pushing against again, and I realized that I was trying to do the VR's not because they were fun and they felt great to do, but more as a tool to take me away from my resistance.

The message here is BE EASY ABOUT THIS! I've been getting it from the universe over and over again. I hear it in my head at random times, I was watching TV, and this whole segment came on about fish going with the flow of the water and it resonated and I knew it was a sign. My girlfriend was quoting stuff from a book which was talking about acceptance and embracing all situations to be happy (moving up the EGS). It's like the universe is screaming "chill out, just chill out!"

So my question is therefore, how do I be easy about this!? Can anyone relate to this? Does anyone know what I'm talking about?

I so badly want to move out of the negative emotions and into the positive ones that I seem to be causing resistance.

I have this ideal that I can be this happy happy, person and that I'll have a dominant vibration of vortexness and when contrast shows itself in my experience I easily, effortlessly and gracefully glide to the top of the EGS. It's so controlled, and there's so much confidence in my ability to do this.

Kind of like what abe talks about in ask and it is given:

"As you consciously consider the way you feel, you will get better and better at directing the Source Energy, and you become a disciplined and joyous deliberate creator, with practice you will be able to achieve a focused control of this Creative Energy, and, like the skilled sculptor, you will take delight in the molding of this Energy, which creates worlds, and direct it toward your individual creative endeavors."

Also on sidenote, despite my disconnection with source today, I seem to be having A LOT of good things happening today. I think it could be because I was in the vortex yesterday. So my sidequestion is: Is there a time lag between our vibrational offering and it's reflection in our reality? Does that mean that I can feel really good one day, have a shit day the next but still receive the goodness from the day before despite my disconnection?

Or, could I be having a very resistful day, and then the next despite being very very high on the EGS experience horrible things as a result of that vibration?

Much Love!

**Sparklebright**

> **morinaga** wrote:
> I've noticed though, that in search of feelings of relief I've come quite resistant about resistance! I hate it! It feels horrible to me, and so when I feel it I seem to be focusing on NOT having resistance as opposed to having improved feelings.
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When you read this doesn't it just make you want to laugh? Oh we tie ourselves up into some knots don't we? I have beat myself up countless times over the fact that I \*Just can't get in the Vortex\*, \*Just can't let go\*.

Youre rowing dear. :oars:

Just let go of the oars. Can you feel it the moment you stop paddling? Can you feel the sweet bliss when you just take your hand off the stove?

You don't have to beat the drum of feeling good :shock:you don't have to DO anything. Just let go, the stream will take you to good feelings.

As many times as you notice you are resisting, just remind yourself to let go of the oars.

**transformation1111**

Hi Morinaga, :kiss:

I sort of get where your coming from. Sometimes we sort of set ourselves up as to be sooooo wanting to be in the vortex and having the delicious experience of it then we tend to view the out of the vortex stuff as "not being successful, sort of even failing, dissapointment etc". "I am back here again, I dont want to be here :shock:.

I hate being here. I was cruising along so well, now I am out of the vortex and got to "work" my way back" , "I am back in this place that I dont want to be in. I want to be over there.

Is there a dominent vibration of frustration in your life underlying all of this stuff?

Abe has been talking recently about the physical now manifestation as being

"past tense", and the vibrational creation as being the now reality. The creation has happened, source has expanded, it is vibrationally manifest now. So attention to the contrast or the problem is past tense, it is history - a historical event been gone and done and over. It only continues because of our attention to it. Every moment is a new beginning, but when we continue to offer the same vibration we are only allowing in the creation of the same thing.

So what ends up happening is there is a lot of pushing against unwanted also. Resistance to the now moment. Resistance to the communication. Resistance to the indicator. Resistance to allowing movement. Resistance to me. Make peace with where you are, when you stop paddling then you can move from where you are.

Wouldn't it be nice to be in the delicious flow of allowing the emotion and having that complete knowing of it being only and indicator, and communication from our inner being.

Wouldn't it be nice to acknowledge the indicator, acknowledge the message then just take a deep breath and deliberately and easily reach for a better feeling thought.

Wouldn't it be nice to go with the flow and remember that it is just a step 1 experience.

Wouldn't it be nice to remember that this negative emotion means that the source within me has expanded and become my desire to the problem I am still focussed on.

Wouldn't it be nice to look at resistance and unwanted as the birthing platform of all creation.

Wouldn't it be nice to move into being a co-operative component to my desire, rather than a co-operative component to my problem.

This is just temporary.

I can choose a thought the feels a little bit better or a thought that feels a little worse. I think that I will choose a thought that feels better.

Isn't it nice that I have communication to identify resistance.

My negative emotion is confirmation of my creation and expansion.

I am right on track.

All I have to do is to relax and allow. And then reach for the best feeling thought that I can find from where I am.

blessings robyn :kiss:

**angelman66**

Morinaga - thank you for sharing this! It is so true - sometimes we are just one little thought/feeling away from the Vortex and it is so easy to get in and stay in for a long time. Other times, it just ain't happenin' - even when doing the same things or thinking the same feel-good thoughts...

But we can stop compounding the problem, as you said - we don't have to feel bad about not feeling good...I have come to HONOR and RESPECT my Step 1 moments...no, the contrast doesn't feel good, but I don't push against it. I usually just resign myself to it, KNOWING it will pass and I will receive a revelation soon and BOUNCE BACK into the Vortex easily. I now trust that process.

It is no coincidence that today I woke up and felt all dragged out - skipped my daily exercise - felt kind of boo hoo about it... just sighed and said, "So what?? This is how I feel right now. I've felt this way before and will feel this way again...it will pass....I'll be bouncing off the walls again in no time, but for today, I am just going to MAKE PEACE WITH WHERE I AM and not push myself to be magnificent and amazing today..."

Then I read your post and felt, YES, this is OK. My cork is already starting to float.

Thank you!!!

-Chris

**Oasis**

Robyn, thank you for the excellent post reply. http://www.theabeforum.com/images/emoticons/thankyou.gif You have such a gift for communicating in a way that I can clearly hear. I have saved a couple of your replys in other threads also, as they just resonate with me. http://www.theabeforum.com/images/emoticons/New/bow.gif

**morinaga**

Thankyou guys for the thoughtful replies!

Sparklebright and Robyn, I took your advice very much to heart and it has really started something new for me I think.

You see, I've always been a very very methodical and very action orientated. I've always pushed hard and 'worked hard' to try and get want.

And since coming into all the law of attraction material, and subsequently the abe stuff, I've been thinking of it as more of a set of tools which I 'use' to get what I want.

I always thought that because I wasn't physically acting on a circumstance that I wasn't resisting.

Instead though I was pushing and bucking internally. I wanted to go about 'fixing' things but just in my head. And I think thats why the abe processes so far have sometimes worked brilliantly and sometimes not at all.

And so I'd be like: "gotta get to love/appreciation, I NEED to focus wheel (take action while pushing against).

Now that I've thought about it in terms of dropping the oars it feels completely different. I can relax, and with the acceptance I feel the relief come and the resistance fade. It's a feeling that I've been practicing the last couple of days after reading the advice here, and I certainly haven't mastered it yet but I feel I'm on the verge of a major breakthrough.

So I accept whatever it is that's causing me resistance (or the resistance itself) and then I just let the relief come. I don't grit my teeth and desperately grasp for something that will 'save' me from the resistance, instead I let the universe bring thoughts of relief to me ::cool.

And they come! And it's such a pleasure to let a postive thought just appear in your mind instead of rigidly trying to find it.

This feels so much more effortless, there's no 'work' involved.

I've drifted right into the vortex a couple of times already.

While I feel resistance right now still as I write this, I know that I'm learning quickly how to drop the oars, and that the feeling is becoming familiar and easier to access/allow.

I'm kind of anticipating a wave of awesome things to appear in my experience actually. In fact I already feel like it's starting to slip through the cracks, and that soon the dam will break.

I'll try to keep my progress in this thread as these things unfold

**papillon**

Great. Beard. Of Thor. It's like you read my mind, dude. I feel like I'm in a very similar space and resisting resistance has been a major hang-up of mine too. Thank you so much for posting this. ::ghost

**morinaga**

ahhh good to hear!

I was thinking that there must be many more like me!

**Sparklebright**

Morinaga it sounds like you are finding what you have been searching for.

It's such a great thing isn't it?; Discovering that yes, I am resisting again. Oh yes I recognize the feeling of resistence. And I know I can let go of the oars when I realize this. And even if I find I have been resisting for hours, the very second that I let go of the oars, I KNOW I am once again flowing towards where I wish to be and nothing has been lost!

We always have a choice, yet we restrict ourselves from these choices if we arent aware of where we are vibrating. So I think this "issue" I have had with my husband drinking was what helped me so much in learning to be aware as much as possible and as often as possible of what I was thinking and feeling.

Self awareness must come even before deciding to choose a different thought or to let go of the present one.

Congratulations!

**Nylorac**

> **morinaga** wrote:
> I've noticed though, that in search of feelings of relief I've come quite resistant about resistance! I hate it! It feels horrible to me, and so when I feel it I seem to be focusing on NOT having resistance as opposed to having improved feelings.
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Morinaga,

I could have written your entire post myself. In fact, I typed something into Google looking for an Abraham answer to my resistance to resistance, and that is how I found this forum.

Something recently clicked for me with the Abraham material, after years of dabbling in it, and I have been spending a lot more time in the Vortex. Because of this shift, I have been super thrown off when I am booted out of the Vortex. I have been going through the feelings of "I gotta do everything I can to get back to where I was..". Of course that just made me tie myself in knots.

What you wrote here, really made me understand what is going on. I am resisting the resistance, and instead of just going with the flow, I am taking all this action to fix it and just getting more frustrated!

Reading your post really made me let go and say to myself, "Being out of the vortex sometimes is normal...be easy about it!". I then went to a yoga class, came home..and guess what? I am back in the vortex again.

::ohm (Um, love this emoticon! ha)

Funny how my contrast created the escrow "I want answers about my resistance" and then I found this forum and got them. Talk about creation!

Thank you all (especially Morinaga). I look forward to participating with you all on here!

Carolyn

**a\_muchness**

> **papillon** wrote:
> Great. Beard. Of Thor.
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::dancemicky I love that phrase papillon.

The other day I saw a license plate that said "ICZEUS" (I see Zeus). I'm not sure what exactly they meant but it made me laugh. (hmm, no lightning bolt emoticon, too bad)

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