Ao - let it die ~ECHOLOCATION~

不確かな明日の不安が 暗闇に溶け込んでいて
意味不明なアイドルの歌に熱狂
一人でいるのが怖くて 握りしめている携帯が
何か 解決してくれた訳でもないし
「そんなんじゃ生きては行けないよ」
嫌いなやつじゃないとそんな風に言えないだろ
泣き叫んでる自分と喧嘩できないのは
きっとしょうもない本性に気付きたくないから
声に出来ない不安をずっと抱えていても
強く心塞いでるのは自分の手
明らかに無理めな理想を 長いことブッそこいて(遡行て)きた
その度 不安と恐怖の はい膨張 もう終了
諦めたくなったのなら 言い訳なんてその辺に
吐いて 捨てる程に転がってるだろ
「本当は辞めたくはなかった」って
10年後くらいにそんな事言いたいのかな
溢れだしたそんな本音に蓋し続けるのは
逃げようのない現実を知るのがこわいから
目を閉じても自分の声に気付けないほど
強く耳を塞ぐ その手で
「こんなんじゃ生きては行けないよ」
「こんなんじゃ生きてたってしんどいよ」
そうやって自分見失いたいの？
現在地なんて 今更気付きたくないの？
泣き叫んでる自分を隠し続けるのは
情け容赦ない現実を知るのが怖いから
目を閉じても自分の声が聞こえないほど
強く心に蓋してるのはその両手
大きい順に夢を堕胎し続けるのは
きっとしょうもない自分に気付きたくないから
もう消えない卑屈な思い抱えていても
「強く目を閉じて耳を澄ましてよ」って
ずっと目を閉じて 耳澄まして
Imi fumei na aidoru(idol) no uta ni nekkyou
Hitori de iru no ga kowakute nigirishimete iru keitai ga
Nanika kaiketu shite kureta wakede mo naishi
Son'na nja ikite wa ikenai yo
Kirai na yatsu janai to son'nafuuni ienai darou
Nakisakende iru jibun to kenka dekinai no wa
Kitto shoumonai honshou ni kidzukitakunai kara
Koe ni dekinai fuan wo zutto kakaete ite mo
Tsuyoku kokoro fusaide iru no wa jibun no te
Akiraka ni muri mena risou wo
Nagai koto buso bo ite kita
Sono tabi ni fuan to kyoufu no hai bouchou mou shuuryou
Akirametaku natta nonara iiwake nante sono hen ni
Haikei tsukeru hodo ni korogatteru darou
Hontou wa yametaku wa nakattatte
Juunengo kurai ni son'na koto iitai no kana
Afure dashi-souna hon'ne ni futa shi tsudzukeru no wa
Nigeyou no nai genjitsu to shiru no ga kowai kara
Me wo tojitemo jibun no koe ni kidzukenai hodo
Tsuyoku mimi wo fusagi sono-te de
Kon'na nja ikite wa ikenai yo
Kon'na nja ikitetatte shindoi yo
Sou yatte jibun ni ushinaitai no
Genzaichi nante imasara kidzukitakunai no
Nakisakende iru jibun wo kakushi tsudzukeru no wa
Nasake-you janai genjitsu wo shiru no ga kowai kara
Me wo tojite mo jibun no koe ga kikoenai hodo
Tsuyoku kokoro ni futa shi teru no wa sono ryoute
Ookii jun ni yume wo datai shi tsudzukeru no wa
Kitto shoumonai jibun ni kidzukitakunai kara
Mou kienai hikutsu na omoi kakaete ite mo
Tsuyoku me wo tojite mimi wo sumashite yotte
Zutto me wo tojite mimi sumashite
I'm in a frenzy over an idol song that I don't know the meaning of
I'm afraid to be alone, and the cell phone I'm clutching
It's not like it's solved anything.
You can't live like that.
You can't say that to someone you don't like.
You can't fight with yourself when you're crying
You can't fight with yourself because you don't want to find out what you're really like.
Even though you've been carrying an insecurity that you can't voice
It's your hand that's blocking your heart
I've been trying for a long time to reach an ideal that's clearly unreasonable.
Each time, the fear and insecurity expands, and I'm done.
If you're tempted to give up, you've got more excuses than you know what to do with.
There's a million excuses out there if you just want to give up.
"I didn't really want to quit."
Is that what you want to say 10 years from now?
You can't keep covering up your true feelings.
Because you're afraid of the reality that you can't escape
Even when I close my eyes, I can't hear my own voice
I cover my ears so tightly with my hands
"I can't live like this."
"It's hard to live like this."
Is that how you want to lose yourself?
Don't you want to realize where you are?
You keep hiding yourself from yourself, crying and screaming
Because you're afraid of the merciless reality
Even when you close your eyes, you can't hear your own voice
You keep a lid on your heart so tight that you can't hear yourself
You keep aborting your dreams in order of size
Because you don't want to realize that you're worthless
Even if you hold on to a despicable thought that will never go away
Close your eyes hard and listen carefully
Close your eyes and listen carefully