Chapter 71: I Want To... With Yamada

**I Want To... With Yamada** is the seventy-first Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*. It is the final Chapter of Volume 5.

## Summary

Kana is yelling in disbelief that Kyoutarou made chocolate at Yamada's apartment as she returns from work. He clarifies that everyone did, while their mother says that he should have said something so she could have made a gift. He dismisses the idea, and shows off the bit of chocolate that they made, while his sister takes a bite. Kana asks about the "everyone" he mentioned, and if they were girls, which he affirms, and she asks if he's forming a harem, imagining her brother surrounded by the girls fawning over him, which makes him angry. Kyoutarou's phone goes off, and he rushes out the door while Kana slyly brings up how much of a hurry he's in.

In his room, Kyoutarou talks to Yamada, who asks him how he felt about today. He doesn't get the line of questioning, but she clarifies about how he feels about her mother and father. He claims that it's what he'd expect for her to have parents like that, and that he expected them to be more strict based off their appearance, and a bit scary, but ended up being more kind than he expected. She zones in on his "expect" comment, bringing up a previous conversation between her and her parents where her mother says Kyoutarou is just what she'd "expect" from her daughter. She asks if he has any idea what she meant, but he claims not to know, and requests that she not bring him up, due to his shady nature, which she apologizes for. She says she may try and start learning how to make sweets from her father, which he says is good, then brings up another conversation where her father was being "weird," asking for "Yamada-kun's" Smitch friend code (in reference to Ichikawa). She and her mother both correct him, and she comments how weird he is to mix that up, causing Kyoutarou to panic as he realizes that her father did indeed remember him in the elevator during his previous visit. She continues, saying he went to bed without a bath immediately after, with a sullen image of him hanging his head and walking down the hallway accompanying her statement. She asks him to come over again someday, and he agrees, and they say their goodnights, but he frets about having to tell her how he was found out, and how he'll certainly lose sleep over it now.

Downstairs, he is greeted by Kana, who is waving him over as she drinks at the table. He comments on her alcohol, and gets his own (non-alcoholic) drink, with her offering a cheers, which he reluctantly accepts. As she nibbles on a snack and he drains his beverage, she suddenly asks if he plans to confess to Yamada, causing him to spit-take. She apologizes, saying the alcohol got to her, and as he regains his composure, he clarifies that he isn't sure he has the confidence, and isn't sure if it's even possible. She says she believes in him, which he counters as something easy for her to say. She adds that he is still in Middle School, and that it might be best for him to take things slow, but warns that hearts can change over time, even his, and that there are 3.8 billion women in the world, so he may find someone else. He insists that that won't happen, and that he'll always like Yamada, if nothing else. He adds that Yamada lives in a bigger world than him, and that she always faces forwards despite her setbacks. He considers how she'll be loved by a lot of people just for being who she is, and if tomorrow they were suddenly estranged, she'd probably forget about him over time, yelling out that he doesn't want that. Kana worries about him as he puts his face in a nearby pillow, saying that his actions are what is important, and that the first step is the most important. He admits that he wants to go out with Yamada, leaving them both flustered at the conversation. She checks his drink to make sure there isn't any alcohol in it, not accustomed to him acting this way.

The next day, Kyoutarou is riding his bike and runs into Yamada. She absentmindedly asks if she should give the boys friend chocolate, and Ichikawa, considering how there may or may not be a future for them, decides it's okay to be greedy while they're like this, and asks her not to. She turns to him, shocked, but agrees that she won't.

A bonus scenario is two video calls between our protagonists. In one, Yamada and Kyoutarou are lying down, and she unexpectedly drops her phone, picking it up in a panic as she bolts awake. A similar setup is her holding her phone above her head and also dozing off, but drops it on her face, jumping up and covering her mouth, but nearly falling out of her shirt in the process, causing Kyoutarou to suddenly turn around.

## Trivia

Yamada is writing out the kanji for "I Like You" in the background while Kyoutarou talks about how loved she is.