Doujin 8

Akira gets a hair restyle, with mixed results.

### Transition Milestones

Akira's hairstyle receives mixed reactions, with Rumi making it so much more girly and attractive.

### Relationship Evolution

When Akira is in a funk about her hairstyle, several of the girl classmates remind her just how cute and adorable her hair is now, especially with the bow in her hair, curtsy of Rumi.

### Lessons Learned

One's own perception of oneself may be different from other's perception of yourself, sometimes to a much greater degree.

ORE GA WATASHI NI NARU MADE (UNTIL I BECOME ME)

CHAPTER 8 OF THE STORY (DOUJINSHI version)

## Previously

When Akira and Rumi, along with the other classmates, attended the Camping Expedition, Akira had a less than desirable time. This because during the night, when she escorted Rumi to the spooky girl's restroom building, her very first period had begun. However, Rumi knew just what to do, as her periods have already started. Nevertheless, Akira's self-confidence really took an almighty hit, and she came away wishing that she could be another person, like maybe Rumi. Yet, Rumi helped to 'set Akira straight', and encouraged her to be her own self. After the trip, Mom told Akira that there already is an appointment at the beauty stylish for her to get her hair cut and styled. How will Akira react to this unplanned action ?

## This Chapter's Story

About one month after the Camping Expedition, Akira is in her bedroom on her bed, and reading a teenage girl's fashion magazine that Rumi loaned to her. Mom comes in with an ultimatum, she has made an appointment at the hairdresser for tomorrow, so please go, Akira, and do something about your hair ! Akira offers that there is nothing wrong with her hair now. It is long, like how a girl wears her hair. Retorting, Mom insists that your front bangs are too long; they practically cover your eyes. You don't have to cut your long hair on the sides and back, but you need to have the hair removed from in front of your eyes, says Mom. "I get it, I'll go.", complains Akira.

Tomorrow afternoon, Akira is welcomed into the beauty parlor by a pleasant woman who is the hair stylist. Akira says that she only wants a little off the front, meanwhile silently thinking to herself that this whole situation is making her nervous. The lady begins, as well as trying to make small talk. She mentions that her nephew is in the same class as you are, Akira. Silently thinking again, Akira wonders who that might be ? The stylish doesn't mention who, but goes on to other chit-chat. Akira stays mostly silent.

When it is all over, Akira meets the stylist at the cash register. "That will be 2500 yen (~ $16.50 USD)." Akira tells her that her service is much appreciated. However, once outside, Akira worries if her hair looks okay now, or does it look frightfully weird. At home, Mom says that the bath has been prepared for her. Going into the bathroom, Akira catches a glimpse of herself in the mirror. She sees the girlish cut of her front bangs, and is mesmerized by how she looks now. Mom brings in a towel, and scares Akira, who was lost in her own little world. After Mom leaves, Akira undresses. She notes, as she removes her paper panties, that she has not wet the bed in over two weeks now. Such good progress !

The next school day, Akira is leaving. Mom mentions that she is going to school in the afternoon to meet with a school official. Okay. Looking in the mirror on her way out, Akira is transfixed by her looks in the mirror. She looks so different now ! A real contrast ! Disparity ! Dissidence ! Strife ! "Mom, I don't want to go to school today !" Mom retorts that you have never skipped school before, so don't start now ! But I look weird ! Fixing that, Mom slaps a baseball cap on Akira, and hustles her out the front door. Problem solved !

Walking to school, Akira gets into a funk. The boys are going to laugh at me. Rumi and the girls will make fun of me. Going in the front door of the school building, Akira tells herself that she is getting sick to her stomach. The first person to notice her is Shouma, and he merely comments that she got a new hairstyle ! Akira gives him such a look of hopelessness and despair, that he scoots away. I knew it; I want to go home, cries Akira. Next to come by is Rumi. She mentions to Akira that she sees that she got a new hair restyle, and it makes her look so good ! But wait a minute ! Rumi gets a ribbon out of her backpack, and ties it upon Akira's head, like a Lolita headpiece. She also ties up her hair into sexy twin tails. Akira thanks her, as she silently tells herself that Rumi has finally caused her to begin "smiling" (in the Japanese language, the kanji is the same for "smiling" and "very feminine").

A group of female classmates, namely Erika, Chika, Mayu, and Kanae, gather around Akira to see what is new about her. Akira falls back into her funk, that is not lost upon the girls. You okay, Akira ? Suddenly, Akira bursts out laughing. She apologizes for the drama. Thinking to herself, Akira notices that being with her female friends and classmates, makes her so very happy ! But even that brief respite is dampened, with her mind bringing up the thought of how Nana and her female friends severely scolded male Akira, saying that the girls will never help or associate with male Akira, ever again ! Mayu notices that something is upsetting Akira, but Akira brushes it off as nothing.

After school has ended for the day, the Sensei dismisses the class, but pulls Akira aside. Sensei tells Akira to follow her to the school's office. Rumi is disappointed that she can't walk home with Akira, as she always does now. In the office, Mom is waiting for Akira. As soon as Mom sees Akira, Mom comments on how cute and adorable she looks, what with the ribbon in her hair, as well as the new hairstyle. Mom wants to know if Akira has made any new friends ? Akira only silently nods.

Sensei leaves the office, and soon the school's Career Consultant enters the room. She welcomes Akira and Mom, inviting them to sit down. This they do. Then, the Consultant mentions that the two of them were invited here today to discuss Akira's future education options. She lays a brochure on the table. On the front cover is the title, *Kyoto Shoyama Middle and High School*. The caption states, *Live Life Your Own Way*, with the picture showing two students wearing the school's official school uniforms. One student resembles a 'female' student with braids, wearing the male military style school uniform, and the other student resembles a tall, husky 'male' student, wearing the female school uniform, consisting of a blouse, a huge bow tie at the neck, a vest, and a pleated mini-skirt ! The Consular nonchalantly remarks that you, Akira, can now attend a school that will allow you to detransition, and go back to being a boy .... ! Akira cringes, and goes white as a ghost !

(End Chapter 8)

## Chapter Lookback, Commentary, and Opinion

Yukipho

Messages: 8

Jul 5, 2020

You know what I love about this series? She [Akira] looks back and notices and understands that her past aggression she did towards girls, and is slowly, internally, atoning for it. Though it's not in the best way to mentally kill yourself about it. It's always much better to talk to someone and open up. I understand she is in a [precarious] mental state that it is nearly impossible at the moment. But I'm just happy she understands and is very human about it. I hate that most manga never seem realistic at all about how humans would react to such events in their life.

She is genuinely in pain about the things she had done in her life, and is trying her best to accept and cope about who she is. I really do [hope] she accepts who she is and accept and try to forgive herself about her past and have a happy life. Seeing such an innocent child go through such strife in her life really breaks my heart.

Nimroth

Active member

Messages: 394

Jul 5, 2020

That boy that got embarrassed must have been the hairdressers nephew.

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