If I Was God

**"If I Was God"** is a song by Natalia Kills. It is the fifteenth and final track on her debut studio album, *Perfectionist*.

## Background

Teddy first teased the song on March 15, 2010, when she tweeted, "If i was God, what would i change?..."

She later tweeted, "I hate to tell you but, it's all an illusion," on July 3, 2010.

In September, she teased the same lyrics from March when she tweeted, "If I was God, what would I change?"

On or around February 4, 2011, Teddy tweeted, "studio memories with Rob Feemster…#PERFECTIONIST," along with a paper that reads, "LOVE WAR LIES MONEY."

## Trivia

The ending of the demo version of this song features excerpts from Ronald Reagan's "A Time For Choosing" speech.

## Lyrics

* Album
* Demo

**[Intro]**

Ooh, yeah

Ooh, yeah

**[Verse 1]**

Would you love me if you found out I never had no

(Clothes, cars, money)

No (Clothes, cars, money)

Would you still want me if I told ya I was not a somebody? (Somebody)

Nothing special (Nobody)

Yeah, I've been lying, fantasizing that I had it all

I want to give you more than just the person that I was

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I wish I was strong

I wish I was everything I'm feeling inside my head

Don't let me wake up

The truth is my enemy

Just tell me you're still here

**[Chorus]**

If I was God, what would I change?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

Should we keep on or should we throw me away?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

**[Post-Chorus]**

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh (Love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh (Love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money)

**[Verse 2]**

I hate to tell ya, but it's all an illusion from the hair

(Lashes, nails, body)

Hair (Lashes, nails, body)

I'm scared to disappoint ya, all I really got is just a heartbeat (Soul, honest)

Heartbeat (Soul, honest)

It's a secret me I never showed nobody, no

That everything I want is in the pathological

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I wish it was real

I wish I had everything I dream of while I'm in bed

Don't let me wake up to fill all the emptiness

Just let me believe it

**[Chorus]**

If I was God, what would I change?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

Should we keep on or should we throw me away?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

**[Post-Chorus]**

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

**[Bridge]**

I don't really wanna live like nothing's wrong

I don't really wanna give up on our love

I don't really wanna live like nothing's wrong

I don't really wanna give up on our love, babe

**[Chorus]**

If I was God, what would I change?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

Should we keep on or should we throw me away?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

**[Post-Chorus]**

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

**[Chorus]**

If I was God (Would you still love me?) what would I change? (Reality)

(If I wasn't everything you thought I was, illusion)

Should we keep on (It's not a lie)

Or should we throw me away? (Escape)

(I just want to give you the best version of me, fantasy)

**[Outro]**

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh (Ideology, I choose dishonesty)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Dishonesty)

(But I'm trying to protect you from disappointment)

Woah, oh, oh (Disappointment)

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Is it really wrong? Am I really that wrong?)

**[Intro]**

Ooh, yeah

Ooh, yeah

**[Verse 1]**

Would you love me if you found out I never had no

(Clothes, cars, money)

No (Clothes, cars, money)

Would you still want me if I told ya I was not a somebody? (Somebody)

Nothing special (Nobody)

Yeah, I've been lying, fantasizing that I had it all

I want to give you more than just the person that I was

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I wish I was strong

I wish I was everything I'm feeling inside my head

Don't let me wake up

The truth is my enemy

Just tell me you're still here

**[Chorus]**

If I was God, what would I change?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

Should we keep on or should we throw me away?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

**[Post-Chorus]**

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh (Love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh (Love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money)

**[Verse 2]**

I hate to tell ya, but it's all an illusion from the hair

(Lashes, nails, body)

Hair (Lashes, nails, body)

I'm scared to disappoint ya, all I really got is just a heartbeat (Soul, honest)

Heartbeat (Soul, honest)

It's a secret me I never showed nobody, no

That everything I want is in the pathological

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I wish it was real

I wish I had everything I dream of while I'm in bed

Don't let me wake up to fill all the emptiness

Just let me believe it

**[Chorus]**

If I was God, what would I change?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

Should we keep on or should we throw me away?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

**[Post-Chorus]**

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

**[Bridge]**

I don't really wanna live like nothing's wrong

I don't really wanna give up on our love

I don't really wanna live like nothing's wrong

I don't really wanna give up on our love, babe

**[Chorus]**

If I was God, what would I change?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

Should we keep on or should we throw me away?

(Love, war, lies, money)

(Love, war, lies, money)

**[Post-Chorus]**

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, oh (Ooh yeah)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Love, war, lies, money, love, war, lies, money)

**[Chorus]**

If I was God (Would you still love me?) what would I change? (Reality)

(If I wasn't everything you thought I was, illusion)

Should we keep on (It's not a lie)

Or should we throw me away? (Escape)

(I just want to give you the best version of me, fantasy)

**[Post-Chorus]**

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, oh (Ideology, I choose dishonesty)

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Dishonesty

(But I'm trying to protect you from disappointment)

Woah, oh, oh (Disappointment)

Woah, oh, oh

Woah, oh, ooh yeah (Is it really wrong? Am I really that wrong?)

**[Outro]**

Have the courage (Love, war)

What we know in our hearts, what we know in our hearts (Ooh yeah, ooh yeah)

There's a risk, give up your dreams, give up your dreams

When did this begin? (Love, war)

When did this begin? (Love, war)

## Credits

### Musicians

* **Teddy Sinclair** - Vocals
* **"THE-RON" Feemster** - All instruments, background vocals
* **Christopher Simila** - Background vocals
* **Kristle Simila** - Background vocals

### Technical

* Produced by: **“THE-RON” Feemster**
* Written by: **Natalia Kills, “THE-RON” Feemster**
* Published by: **The Kills Effect/Songs Of Universal (BMI) / Zomba-Universal-Music Publishing / Feemstro (ASCAP)**
* Recorded by: **Zach Kasik**
* Recorded at: **The Boom Boom Room**
* Mixed by: **Robert Orton**
* Mixed at: **Metropolis Studios**
* Mastered by: **Gene Grimaldi**
* Mastered at: **Oasis Mastering Studio**
* Executively produced by: **will.i.am, Martin Kierszenbaum**

## References

1. ↑ "Most things RT @NataliaKills: If i was God, what would i change?..." March 15, 2010. Tweet from @NellyNellyXO.
2. ↑ "That's very David Lynch of you! RT @NataliaKills: I hate to tell you but, it's all an illusion." July 3, 2010. Tweet from @FawazMJS.
3. ↑ "RT @NataliaKills: RT @RedOneKenKills: @NataliaKills If I was God, what would I change?" September 20, 2010. Tweet from @JeSuisAlonso.
4. ↑ "@NataliaKills: “studio memories with Rob Feemster…#PERFECTIONIST’" February 4, 2011. Fuck Yeah Natalia Kills on Tumblr.
5. ↑ A Time for Choosing Speech, October 27, 1964. Retrieved February 25, 2023.