Applefang

Applefang is a slim, pale brown ticked tabby she-cat with amber eyes.

## Personality

Applefang is a complicated cat, to say the least.  She makes sure to present herself as calm and dainty and as pretty as she can, constantly grooming her pelt and keeping her pawsteps light, acting as graceful as she can — as much as a *proper* molly as she can.  Raised to think that everyone else is better than her, she is constantly at war with herself.  Every time a cat so much as looks at her wrong, she feels like she's doing something wrong; something that can be looked down upon, and there's also a small part of her mind that tells her that it might just be the fact that she's *herself* that they don't like.  She also constantly feels like she has to avoid cats older than her, so that she can avoid any potential orders and how judgemental that she thinks they are.  She tends to avoid cats at large, though, so most cats don't pay too much attention to her antics.  She prefers to keep to herself, and if cats get too close to her then she's liable to glare or hiss or snarl (or just do all three) to try and chase them off.

While she's quiet — though, not timid or shy by any means — and reserved on the outside, on the inside she is full of anger and creative insults that she is constantly flinging out to any cat that catches her eye.  Truly, she's a bit of a rough-and-tumble kind of cat, but she doesn't express that part of her in public; during training sessions with cats that she's close to, or even wrestling with friends (though, that would be a rare occasion) is when she would be at her happiest.  She does have some social anxiety that would keep her from *actually* insulting a cat, and sometimes even keeps her from talking to cats; though, for the most part, her anxieties aren't too terrible, and she doesn't notice them a lot of the time.  She hates thinking that she's worth less than others, hates that she has to listen to the cats around her, and she is *constantly* angry about it.  Occasionally, she even feels bad that she feels angry about in the first place — maybe, if she was a better kit and had listened to her parents, then she wouldn't have the the self-esteem issues and wouldn't constantly feel angry and they wouldn't be *dead*, but then she remembers that her sister was prettier and better than her in general, which would make the entire endeavor worthless.  Still, there are times where she likes to fantasize about it (her sister tossed aside) and imagine that her life would be just a little bit easier; even if the idea of having to obey other cat's who *aren't* the leader, deputy, medicine cat, or observers still rubs her fur the wrong way.  Because of how she was raised, though, she'll still do it — she just won't enjoy it, and she's liable to go and take out her frustrations on something later.

Applefang is a cat with a rebellious spirit, as she's one that is constantly thinking of doing the opposite of whatever orders are given to her, but she'd never do so — mainly, because of the fact that obeying has been ingrained into her.  She also constantly feels bad about the fact that she just doesn't want kits, at least right now; her whole life up until their deaths, her parents had always impressed upon her and her siblings that they would give them grandkits, whether they were adopted or otherwise, and she was expected to settle down as quickly as possible to give that to them.  She's not even sure if she would be a good mother, but even then, the pressure is still there, and she feels a bit like a failure in that she never had the chance to do that for them while they were still alive.  But still, she's content to live a quiet life by herself, and is perfectly fine not having a mate.  Should she ever fall in love with a cat, though, she would find herself incredibly nervous and shy, constantly stammering over her words.  There might also be periods where she decides to avoid her object of affections in an attempt to force her feelings to go away — she doesn't believe in "love makes the heart grow fonder" in the least — but as soon as the cat looks at her she would find herself trotting back to them.  While she hates following orders, she'd be a cat that would jump to her paws to fulfil a request that a crush asks her to do before they've even finished saying it.

## History

Born to a littler of three, Applekit and Sweetkit were raised to act prim and proper and listen to their betters and act exactly how her mother did (apparently a prime example of how mollies should act).  Sweetkit took to the teachings like a fish to water, but Applekit didn't believe it.  She preferred to spend her time wrestling and playing with the other kits in the nursery — but that was something for her brother Sparkkit to do, not her, and she would be berated for it.  Her and Sweetkit were taught to be as calm and dainty as they could be, and she hated every moment of it; but couldn't do anything about it, either, because the the more she protested the more her parents doubled down on her.  Their teachings eventually changed from authorities being better than her to *everyone* being better than her, and eventually, Applekit buckled under the pressure.  By the time she was an apprentice, she was following her parent's lessons flawlessly (if begrudgingly).

As an apprentice, though, Sweetpaw and Sparkpaw both got sick and never recovered.  Her parents seemed to give up, after that; her father Goldenstripe, a sabre, was killed in battle, and her mother Twilightsky, an avian, reportedly died of a broken heart — but not before blaming Applepaw for her family's deaths.  Ever since, she has carried the guilt with her.