LU 189 - Space 37

When I got to Mira's I was met with an immediate issue: I couldn't communicate with her at all. After trying literally everything, I eventually figure out I could pick up small objects; albeit it's tiring. Mira almost immdiately caught on and began to panic.

When she calmed down, we worked out a form of communication and I answered some context questions regarding Tori (she somehow knew, which was odd). Eventually I pushed her to go to Spawn, hoping that Vice could do the talking fo rme. Sure enough, we got to Vice and he started to beg Mira to bring me back once he figured out what was going on; he also figured out that Frezz was with me, which made him freak out more. It got to the point where Vice was willing to give his life for Frezz and I, despite his past with us. So, Mira did something I never considered her low enough to do: kill Vice; I was more stunned than anything.

Then she started to write in a journal, and I got an idea. I stole the book and was able to write in it for a little bit. Since that revelation, Mira and I had quite the talk about why I should be let out and whatnot. She eventually started to worry me, laughing and talking crazily like she had lost her mind over this ordeal. She talked herself into going to see Luca, when Tori showed up to make my life even worse; he fought with me over my new book, which sucked for everyone but him.

After her deadful talk with Luca about my fate, I convinced her to talk with Edelle once she calmed down a bit. We went to the castle and immediately something was wrong; Tori was excited to see Nat and gave him his newly acquried book. Nat instantly ran off, Edelle and Mira cornered him in some cave. The three of them had a long chat about whether to let me out or not, but Edelle eventually made Mira cave and do it after justifying my point of view. Tori, Mira and I went over to the tree to bring us back, but realized we forgot Frezz back at Spawn.

So, Tori took off to get him while Mira and I waited. After an unusally long amount of time, the two came back and seemed to be a bit too close with each other for my liking; they took a second to whisper to each other after getting to the tree, which only heightened my suspicions.

We all got into Insight's lair thing and Mira began to sweet talk Insight into letting me and Frezz out. Insight eventually agreed, under the condition that I'd leave the trees alone (she cursed me to make sure of that). I assumed all was good but then Mira idiotically brought up my sword; I knew I shouldn't have told her about that. After some discussion, Insight took it from me and opened up a portal back to the real world.

I got back after fighting off Tori who tried to stop me (which I had a feeling would happen), and immediately began to panic. Why did Mira give the sword to the trees on a silver fucking platter? Why did she betray my trust? Why... did I think I could trust her? Heh, I guess I *still* haven't learned how to trust anyone; Tori came with us to speak to Morphious, so he took off to do that.

When Mira and I got back to Spawn, she asked if I had the sword. I told her no and she began to panic and apologize. I started to think about the consequences and something hit me: the gods fighting is what spawned the shard and the trees in the first place, and I had a feeling something similar was about to happen on a much larger scale. So, I explained my tought process to her and she panicked even more. She apologized profusely, but I said it was fine; what wasn't fine was her betraying my trust and acting stupidly. She said that she thought she was doing the right thing, but failed to consider that Amathis could survive and potentially escape the void.

Normally I would just feel bad for her and at peace with the world ending, but I began to... feel something?

Fear. Betrayal. Anger. Saness. Hopelessness. Regret.

All these feelings started to drown me and I got overwhlemed. Normally I would push my hollow feelings down to act professionally, but all of these feelings were bubbling up so I lashed out at Mira. I criticized her tunnel-vision morality, her need to do good regardless of what that effects, her lack of logic in critical moments, everything I had bottled up began to pour out onto her. She was stunned, completely shutting down. I had her tear down these new wanted posters around Spawn (which I assumed was Luca, considering that he was the only one not held back in some way from posting posters about me, and the only one left who blindly hated me and hinted at a rebellion before), then asked her to come with me to the castle so we could warn the others about this impending doom; she didn't follow.

Not like I care, she's offically dead to me.

I found Edelle and explained everything. She seemed worried and shocked about what I told her, but agreed to help me with my last-ditch plan to fix Mira's mistake; she also agreed to help me get my sword back. :)

We told Nat and Syt, but they told us Mira told Syt to go home. I tried to explain the dire situation, but he left. I decided to leave Edelle to chat with Nat and left to sleep.

Coming out of the void made all the energy I used bite me in the ass, so I was ready to pass out. I went into my room and fell alseep on what was left of my bed. I gotta admit, despite how painful it was to lose Amathis, it felt nice to finally be free of that sword's constant mental torment. I could actually... feel again. I also don't have that burning desire for power anymore, which is also nice. However, like a drug, it felt equally, if not way nicer, to have that sword letting godlike power flow through my mind and body 24/7.

I decided that I shouldn't give up quite yet and help the tree group the best I could despite my curse; plus I have to get my sword back; I need my immortality. I suppose if the world does end, I can finally be free of this miserable existence.