Big Brother 5/Week 3

LIKE AT LEAST IT'S NOT FUCKING GRANT BECAUSE HE WOULD'VE GIVEN ME LIKE Z E R O CHANCE BUT BRYCE ALSO JUST LEFT ME ON READ SO I'M ABOUT READY TO DIE LMAO, PLEASE SEND HELP!
I'm literally not here to leave Week fucking THREE

I AM A FUCKING MESS AND IT'S BEEN HARDLY AN HOUR SINCE THE HOH RESULTS WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME LMFAO

I'm now, however, in a situation where I don't even know if winning HOH will hurt me more than it will benefit me, because there isn't anyone who I can put up and say "we just didn't connect", it would be a direct strike against a social connection I have made in the game and early on that's a no. My job is to put focus on who I REALLY want to go deep with in this game and who is expendable, there are people in my current alliance that I feel like could even fall in the expendable category over some of my "side" people, but it all depends on how the bonds develop over the next few weeks.
I'm fucking extra as fuck and I stressed myself out over nothing the past two hours, I'm lowkey too pessimistic about this game as a whole LMAO, but I guess it's better than being a cocky fuck, that thinks everything is going his way, right?

a) I tell Trent and Alietta, they see the vote as potentially too messy and evict me
b) I don't tell Trent and Alietta, they see me as shady and evict me

With that being said however, Bryce is gonna have to make a replacement nominee, the first of the season, how exciting lmao and he's considering making a move and I'm like "yikes that's a bit scary", he could easily try to backdoor someone from the Garbage alliance (keyword try, I don't know if everyone of the other 5 would vote to evict them, if Bryce did put that person up, especially with Grant, who is now a vote, being nominated as his primary target) - He could also go for someone like Emma/Dom who have been social threats in games before.. I really have no idea what he is gonna do.
If I am completely honest, it's week 3 and I would ALREADY be tempted to flip on 2 of the 5 people in Garbage, simply because I do not talk to them privately as compared to the others (those 2 being Erin & Nathan saghsjdg), I feel like a douche even considering it LOL, but hey it's probably not even gonna happen this week anyway, I kinda doubt that Bryce would think "threat" and point fingers at Erin OR Nathan, they've kept it lowkey so far and it would surprise me a bit.
Depending on what Bryce is gonna do, I really kinda wanna vote with him this week, majority or not, just so I can play along and act like I had no idea shit was going wrong, but at the same time I wanna vote for the boot cause I kinda wanna vote for who goes every round? LOLOLOL, oh well, there's a lot of time to think about anything vote-related, so I'll just let it happen for now

Hannah got nominated as replacement, as already expected based on conversations before, but as I wake up, I see that Aromal has been aggressively campaigning and going around, saying he had votes on lock, specific votes in JAKE and NATHAN, who are supposed to be in our alliance lol.
There's a key factor to this, that made me believe Jake wasn't actually super involved in this, because Jake was supposed to "tell me and Erin to evict Hannah" and he never did that, so he obviously wasn't serious about it, but NATHAN is sitting there with his pretty little mouth shut and it's sending red flags towards me, towards Alietta & Hannah.
The three of us discussed the situation and we were kind of being bitchy about it, so I jokingly said to Alietta "we are like the Bitches Coven" and.. yeah 20 minutes later we formed a 3-person-alliance with exactly that name LOL, which I'm frankly fine with, because an alliance of 3 is cute and there's little to no chance of drama and we all seem to get along, I trust Alietta, I trust Hannah, we are giving Hannah reason to trust us by the way this week is working and it seems great.
I'm gonna continue to stay lowkey in the next few weeks, because people are making themselves big targets by being messy and if I can stay out of everyone's business, that's gonna be good for me. That doesn't mean I'm not gonna do anything, I'm just not gonna spill every type of information I get, because that could create a sense of trust in me by people who I am not particularly super close to and that makes it less likely for them to come for my edges later on. I'm here to do well and go far so I'm not gonna put that at risk by being a stupid big-mouth :- )

this game is kind of dead nobody really talks to each other as far as i know
i was more than happy to waste my hoh last week and let ellie go. it’s what needed to happen and all of us in the house knew that. whatever keeps blood off my hands.
this week it looks like aromal is set to go. i feel bad for him. but this week has also been pretty silent, though there is some tension brewing up. apparently someone told hannah that shes the target and bryce thinks its me which.... no? i told nathan that i thought she was the target after the veto ceremony and that was it, because that was the last conversation bryce and i had. nathan and i corroborated our talks though and i know now that that’s not true, and that bryce doesn’t care who leaves. anyways hannah came off STRONG for my vote and it was a little off putting but i have little choice but to vote with her since she has the votes on her side.
theres also some drama brewing with myself and alietta. i asked alietta how she was voting and she flipped out pretty much because she didn’t want to influence my decision when bitch???? we’ve talked all gsme so far about trying to work together i’m just trying to get your opinion help me out girl. and so i tried to be open about her being all wishy washy like that and she got mad, naturally, because i was being a bit rude. but she also needs to understand that if she’s gonna talk about wanting to play this game with me she needs to be able to fill me in on game details or i’m gonna lose my trust in her.