I'm Absolutely Terrified/Confessionals

### Day 8

It sucks because we've been dominating these past few challenges, but I feel like I've been falling behind? I lost my portion of the 1st and 3rd challenges, and I almost lost us the entire 2nd immunity, and I just feel super bad about it. I thought this time could be better for me, but I'm starting to get nervous it may not be the case. I'm going to hopeful that Aaron, Conor and Tobi can pull out three points in a row to continue our streak, but if we do end up losing, I can definitely see my name coming up as at least a possibility. :(

### Day 9

Aaron: has hosted me and has hosted w me and i’ve hosted him but i haven’t played w him yet so who knows what hes like!! Never really talk personally
Chole: okay she has the same hair as me which automatically makes her cool but then like lowkey during the duel she was on one health and picked reckless haste (which btw makes u lose at least 1 health guaranteed) so like idk she might be a bit dumb (might regret saying that LOL)
Conor: a king mr bee (bzz bzz) always supports him and loves him soo!! Im really excited to meet him and hopefully i will <3 <3
Joe: hosted me in sinai!! Pretty cool second best hostie after grace (grace queen justin succ)~ excited to play w him too
Louise: queen has played w me twice now and i hosted her once, shes cool and like pro nicole but like idk if i can trust her shes like me she either goes all in w ya or ghosts tf out of u (aka shes voting u out)
Marie: i love and support marie and hope that she survives this tribal <3 <3 queen in japan <3 <3 her hair extensions <3 <3 her blonde-pink ombre > anita’s <3 <3 choker <3 <3 love marie <3 <3
Miles: have played atd w him a few times but never spoke personally BUT I SEE THAT HE STANS LOONA SO THATS A +++++
Shippo: im prob the only person in this game that knew him before it started, i play league sometimes w him and minecraft, i killed him a few times and we punched each other w sticks lul but hes cool and im SAD TORSA (probably torsa?) split us up and he better not die before i get to him also zak lowkey doesn’t like him aojfisdlk
Tobi: omg he played w me in podorg bb 2 fricking years ago i think i was his hitlist target or the other way around but we still got along and still wanted to work together but he kinda died rip im excited to reunite also hes cute
So ya that was brief nicole other tribe “impressions”

In my first season i got eliminated after trying to help someone I shouldn't have, but this time I feel like it could actually be beneficial and go well? I spoke to Chloe about it and she agreed, so we kinda got to work LMAO. We made a three person alliance with Aaron, then we made another three person alliance with Louise. Me/Chloe+Aaron+Louise and then Shippo is the majority and I feel confident with those 5 and they'd be loyal hopefully. If we pull this off, we'd have a good group, but is it worth pissing off the remaining people who didn't know about it?? I don't know!!

We lost immunity, the vote seems simple, it’s Chibi because he’s the least active. But there is some mess though. I heard from Aaron that people were trying to blindside Joe so I told Joe and Chloe about it because I have a good relationship with both of them. Literally the minute after Aaron tells me Chloe and Conor are the ones trying to do that and I’m just like.... fuck. Now Chloe knows Aaron ratted her out and I hope it doesn’t come back to bite me in the ass. At the same time, it’s aarons own fault because he should’ve told me directly Chloe and Conor were the ones trying to blindside Joe. Also, I told Miles Chloe and Conor were being shady motherfuckers and I plan to tell Joe after TC because I don’t want this to become too messy.

At the same time, I'm hoping we don't swap or we go on an immunity run just so I can stay in the game longer sndflnf sooo that's my thoughts for rn I gotta pee see ya

I open up my messages and chat with Marie, to find out Chloe and Conor are going after Joe. This is terrible for my game because I'm allies with all 3 of them!!! Then, I get various accounts from multiple people. Conor says this is all Aaron's doing, which I highly doing. Conor also mentions the alliance me/Joe/Tobi have, which only Chloe would know about, because she was invited to join it. I feel that entire fact validated that Chloe told Conor, and they decided to put the blame on Aaron, just in case things backfired.
After catching Tobi up on the situation, I think that at the moment, Shippo is still going because if my alliance along with Marie/Aaron vote for Shippo, that's already five and enough. If Joe already goes home this early, I'd feel so bad because I know how bad he wants to make the merge this time around, and it also hurts my game as I lose an ally.
Tribal happens in 4 minutes and I'm so nervous. I hope things go my way tonight and if they don't, I'm able to quickly recover.