Solfy Ashwell Avely

### Work

Vice-President of L'Celsburg (unpaid intern); Revolutionary soldier (volunteer); currently unemplyed

## Names

### Nick name

Solf', "Menace", "Sister dearest", "My Logic", "My Left Brain", "Kiddo", "Tiny", "Little shit"

## Dates and places

### Cause of death

1. Shot in the duel for L'Celsburg's independence by Eve; 2. Committed suicide by jumping off a cliff and drowning

### Residence

Silusia, Astoria (former); L'Celsburg (former); Pogtopia (former); Arctic house (former); Sapph's taiga mansion (former); EveSMP (former); Fortuna, Astoria (current)

## Family

### Family

William Ashwell (adoptive brother); Chloe "Tiptups" (parental figure); Ruen Ashwell (adoptive sibling); Sapphire Faux (cousin figure)

### Other relations

Evan Walker Millington (best friend); Elora Danes (functional legal caretaker); Lene Amare Endruiden (older sibling figure)

## Occupation

### Profession

recovering from trauma and being a menace

## Skills and powers

### Powers

Emotional synesthesia/manipulation

**Solfy Ashwell Avely**, also known as **Solfy**, is a teenager who was one of the main founders of L'Celsburg, as well as a member of Pogtopia's secret organization, and the First Resistance against the Crown. She is best known for being eclectic and knowledgeable, skilled with a bow and arrow, and an unbeatable debater.

## Appearance

Solfy is a human girl with pale light skin, and dark hazel brown hair cut above her shoulders that she sometimes keeps in a low ponytail. In a good emotional state, her eyes are azure blue, glowing and scintillating in the dark. They become dull and grey in the case of overusing her powers, or worsened physical/mental well-being.

She is 150 centimeters tall (5'0). Her physique isn’t well-developed, which makes injuries harder to heal. She frequently falls ill due to an underdeveloped immune system.

She is scarred across all over her body as a result of battle and a general lack of self-preservation skills. However, her most prominent features are a small scar on her left cheek, faint scar across her neck, and a mark above her heart from being shot in the duel for L'Celsburg's independence. Her arms are littered with a multitude of scars all across.

## Personality

### In Brief

**Brief personality traits:** empathetic, open-minded, persuasive, reserved, adaptive, outspoken, perceptive, innovative, curious, quick thinker, caring, self-sacrificing, self-destructive, unstable, confrontational, creative, versatile, perfectionistic. Tries to be optimistic around others, but is prone to negativism. Usually thoughtful, but can act on emotional impulse from time to time.

Gets easily irritated by being looked down, underestimated or not taken seriously. Always feels a strong need to stand by herself and prove wrong whoever challenges her competency, abilities or skills. Truly, she can not even be as confident in herself as she shows to be, however she does it to present herself as useful and versatile.

Basic desires: to be worthy and justified; to have only what she deserves; to be loved and be needed; to have family and support; to be useful, capable and helpful; to have purpose and know her role in life; to be independent and self-sufficient; to find balance and tranquility

Basic fears: to be unloved, unwanted, alone and abandoned; to be a bad and undeserving person; to be useless, helpless and dependent; to not be able to be around the people she loves; to be out of control of her life; to be worthless and purposeless

### Psychology

As a consequence of **emotional abuse and neglect** in early childhood, Solfy is hard on herself and prone to self-destructive behaviours, as well as suicidal tendencies and a general lack of self-care. Her self-esteem has always been low, so it is no surprise she has severe difficulties asking for help and validating her own emotions.

Her perception of self is skewed and altered by an immense weight of guilt she has carried practically since birth, which leads her to believe everything is somehow her fault, connected to her own mistakes, and that she is the "catalyst" for bad things that have happened in the lives of her loved ones. She is highly sensitive to rejection and has trust issues, believing people will abandon her if she isn't good enough or useful to them in some way.

Solfy has always felt estranged and different from the crowd, struggled with connecting to people of her age. She does not obey authority nor trust adults, and only treats people who she believes are good with respect.

She often experiences nightmares and flashbacks, and suffers from insomnia due to repeated traumatic experiences. **Complex-PTSD** causes her to be prone to dissociation, emotionally dysregulated and go through periods of self-imposed isolation, as well as makes it more difficult for her to concentrate.

Alongside C-PTSD, Solfy suffers from obsessive-compulsive disorder (subcategory - **Pure OCD**). This makes any of her unwanted thoughts to be prone to endlessly loop in her mind, causing her a struggle of thinking about anything else, but the consuming thoughts, or break out of the tunel-visions. Her obsessions also consist of repetitive intrusive thoughts of harming herself or fear of causing harm and inconvenience to others, and she soothes them by repetitive actions (compulsions), such as mentally reviewing information and repeating words, or mentally undoing and redoing actions.

## Abilities

Solfy's abilities consist of **emotional synesthesia** and **emotional manipulation**.

People with this ability have a direct connection to the Goddess of Emotions, either by bloodline or blessing. In case of bloodline connection the power will have to take some time to awaken, depending on how strong the blood relation is. The power itself is fluid and depends a lot on the individual's state, while at the same time affecting it. Because of this, having an emotion-based ability often feels intense and results in emotional instability and a mental overload due to personal emotions or somebody else's.

**Emotional synesthesia** determines the ability of deeply sensing emotions as a spectrum of colours projected in the form of "fog" around another creature.

**Emotional** **manipulation** can be interpreted as advanced emotional synesthesia - the ability of changing a creature's emotions and controlling the emotional energy itself.

Someone with this ability can perceive the electromagnetic waves created by a brain of alive beings. Since every colour is a reflected light wave of various length, they see the brain's waves as different hues looming around a creature's head that can be manipulated by changing the wavelength of a hue. This results in a forceful shift of the target's emotions.

Solfy's, and most common perception of colours as emotions are: red (anger), orange (discomfort/anxiety), yellow and golden (happiness), green (jealousy), blue (sadness), purple (fear), coral pink (embarrassment), white (balanced state), and black (awful emotional state). The toxicity of a colour determines how anxious a person is, saturation determines intensity, warmth represents comfort, and pastel colours show tranquility.

She inherited the powers from her father, who was a demigod of Emotions (son of Serena, the Emotion Goddess). Since early childhood, she was already able to sense emotions in her mind and had quite advanced empathy. However, she only started seeing creature's emotions as colourful auras around the age of nine - when she was taken in by Will, another emotional synesthete. Spending time around him caused Solfy's own power to develop.

The ability to manipulate emotions, although, has only awakened during the winter before her fifteenth birthday, due to severe traumatic experiences altering her own psychological state. Since then, Solfy’s eyes also reflect her emotional state and the state of her powers.

## Traumatic events

### Early childhood (2006-2015)

* Her father's suicide, which happened when she was five.
* Abuse and neglect by her mother - she often shouted or talked in a negative tone about her hatred for Solfy, wishing she was never born, and blamed all problems on her. Sometimes, she would lock Solfy in a tiny storage room.
* **Being abandoned at an orphanage by her mother**, and the neglect she faced at the institution itself.
* Surviving on the streets alone for half of year, before being taken in by Will.

### Adolescence (2020-2022)

* **First death**: sacrificing herself for Will, as she was shot in the duel by Eve.
* Witnessing Will's first death, while they were escaping from "Pierceville".
* Awful mental environment in Pogtopia; constant high-stress conditions, a fear of losing Will because of his suicidal behaviour, worry for his absence.
* Will's second death during the Pierceville Festival of Democracy.
* **Will's third death** and the eight months of grief which led to a mental descent by summer.
* **Second death**, her own suicide - jumping from a cliff and drowning.
* High-stress environment in the Resistance.
* Violet's reveal at Jo's birthday party and her attempt to burn everyone alive.
* Constant stress after Violet's resurrection: never ending paranoia, anxiety, fear for hers and others' lives, forced seeking shelter in a place of previous trauma, as she had to watch everyone she loves being hurt and descending into worse mental states, becoming blind for a week, etc.

## Triggers

Due to the aforementioned traumatic events Solfy has faced throughout her life, she eventually developed C-PTSD that results in her having a list triggers which impact her day-to-day life, and provoking which can cause a mental/emotional throwback to the traumatic event, flashbacks, intense feeling of fear, anxiety or sadness. Those triggers include:

* the sound of breaking glass or dishes
* shouting in a negative tone
* calling her useless, burdening and guilt-tripping her
* sudden movements directed at her
* mentions or jokes about her being abandoned, or a person regretting taking her in
* being grabbed by wrist
* small and dark spaces
* counting to ten (especially the last two numbers)
* any mention of Pogtopia or Will's deaths that she witnessed
* explosions and loud noises, flashes of light (thunder and lightning)
* height sea cliffs
* intense scent of smoke

Along with triggers, she developed two phobias - aquaphobia (fear of drowning), and claustrophobia (fear of being locked in small/dark spaces).

## Trivia

* Solfy is awful at cooking and can cook only the simplest dishes.
* Her favourite flowers are forget-me-nots.
* She always knocks four times, having picked up Will’s knocking pattern.
* Her sexuality is lesbian, a woman-liker if you will.
* She’s skilled at geography, can point at any country on a map and identify every flag.
* Her favourite colour is blue.
* Solfy is hyperfixated on forms of government, such as democracy.
* Her other special interests are: vexillology, history, psychology, flowers, and drawing.
* Two of Solfy’s favourite foods are chocolate muffins and raspberries.
* Her favourite drinks are chamomile tea, and dark grape & apple juice.
* She likes bugs, especially spiders, maybugs and ladybugs.
* Her nervous tics: fidgets with something, bites the inside of her cheek; rambles about random things in fast scattered voice; bounces her leg.
* Solfy’s favourite animals are cats, raccoons, sheep, frogs and lizards.
* She likes a wide range of music, and her song preference can rapidly change, but she generally likes very expressive music that satisfies her emotional instability.
* Her favourite artists are “Sleeping At Last”, “Marianas Trench” and “The Oh Hellos”.
* Her favourite song is “Dearly Departed” by Marianas Trench.
* Solfy can play guitar and knows how to play a couple of songs on piano - both things she was taught by Will, along with the keys of random sounds.
* Her favourite pizza is pineapple pizza.
* Upon seeing the lesbian flag for the first time, she thought it was the flag of a country.
* She realized she was a lesbian at eleven, when Will once suggested an explanation for why she never agreed with who he found attractive.
* Since coming back to the EveSMP in December, she always wears a forget-me-not pendant, matching with Will, Ruen and Sapph’s flower pendants.
* In childhood she dreamt of getting raccoon, and asked Will to adopt one. At times, she also dreamt of getting a sheep, frog and rabbit.
* Her MBTI type is ENTP, and her Enneagram is 2w1 251.

## Quotes

“Are you really so not sure in your abilities, that you can't say 'yes' to a duel with a kid? Should I feel honoured now?”

“I just want to be a fucking child and not face the person who let my brother die every damn day. I don't want to see a reminder of him every day knowing that he will never come back, I'm tired."

"I was there when this nation was founded, and I want to be there when it will live its last seconds."

“Glad we all are homophobic.”

“Did you know actually, I had this convo with Eve about how I could be a good drug dealer, and I thought... we could really have the greatest drug scamming business.”

“I want to outsmart your pacifism. There is no rule that can’t be outsmarted.”

“I'm glad to be back, it feels like maybe my world even has a little more colour.”

"Wow, I feel the rainbow filling me even if I don't really see colours now."

“Will, think of the political reputation of adopting an orphan, even!”

“I am neurodivergent and a minor.”

“I'm just scared of you feeling really bad again, because it's obvious it's not something I'd want as well... It's like knowing that a person who’s already not doing well would just feel worse because of your words.”

“I want to know everything, always.”

“Communication is important, right? If something is on your mind, you should say it, because it makes sense and everything.”

"People aren’t created to be used, you too, especially you. You’re being pessimistic now. "

“Let’s analyse this and find pros and cons.”

“I am progressively turning Sapph into a democrat and I absolutely destroyed her in a debate over how anarchy is a utopia and sucks.”

“I can’t get 'you are not broken' as something more than words of reassurance, when everyone treats me inside their minds like glass.”

“If I'm going to name everything that went wrong because of you, I'm not sure if I will be able to shut up even after an hour.”

"To say it directly, shall we do a little debating?"