Bounce It Back/Confessionals

## Day 19

Meanwhile Caeleb and Alyssa wanted to form a 4 person alliance with me and someone else, so I brought in Elise. Those Micro Parvmanda teas. I'm starting to feel like, a complicated web growing and that worries me on two levels. First level, people seeing me as a social threat, but on the other level, it means at a point I'll have to start burning people. It's a delicate position to be in, but I think it's a position I can handle.
And of course Shane has to throw mud on the way out, well prejury is karma for bitterness honey. Throwing me, Alyssa, and Jackson specifically under the bus for what? Because we came through being on a shitty starting tribe. How dare we! Everyone has alliances from their original tribe so for him to throw down at us specifically was oddly personal and unnecessary. Jealousy is a disease honey, just because you weren't able to build bonds as well as I did. Too bad, enjoy spending time on the prejury trip with the cast of robots that frankly suits you. (Except Benji angel, ily king hope you're doing well <3)

uhhh hi :o

so.......i dont feel very secure or safe in this game at all! i lost one of my closest allies in shane at the last tribal and was lied to by several people about the vote. it just sucks bc i genuinely wanted to trust people like elise caeleb alyssa and rob but i guess i cant! so im gonna have to truly start playing for myself.

im getting fairly close to finding the second idol...im rly rly hoping im further ahead than everyone else but who knows. my clue isnt super helpful but oh well. if i can secure a second idol i would feel much much more safe bc i def feel like im gonna have to use my idol before too long. im being left out of discussions and stuff which rly sucks.

but im just trying to continue building relationships with people. me and disc were the two people left out of the last vote (besides shane) so we talked about how we are on the outs and have to try and secure a majority together. im not sure who exactly to go after from here but oh well. hopefully a target will present themselves this round and i can be safe for another round LOL. i hate playing round to round bc i rly wanna set myself up to get to the end but right now thats just not something i can do bc i have to focus way too much on surviving just one tribal at a time.
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## Day 20

The risky game player side of me is thinking of using my immunity as a round to organize a Lisa/Jacob/Disc/Megan/Me blindside on somebody in the majority, preferably one of the Siasi 3. I came clean to Jacob about there being a majority alliance and I suggested to him that he should reach out to Lisa and tell her something along of the lines of how t"here’s clearly a majority alliance that doesn’t include them". They really fucked up keeping Lisa out of the loop last time and this is an opportunity to change the trajectory of the game. Hopefully he does a good job of convincing her. I then plan on reaching out to Lisa myself, playing a little dumb, and seeing if she brings up voting with Jacob. If she she does, that’s a strong indication that she’s actually on board and it isn’t lying to my face. If I strongly feel like she is being genuine, I will consider flipping and making the move. Megan could be easy to reel in if I spill to her that she was almost the vote for this round but she’s so unreliable with her self-votes that it terrifies me to think this move depends on Megan. I’m definitely not locked in to a decision just yet and voting Disc out is an option but… I didn’t just come here to be a sitting duck. Overall, I want to make sure whatever move I make isn’t erratic and is one I can live with for the rest of the game.

## Day 21

I couldn't do the immunity challenge cause I was barely home the entire day, so it does suck that I couldn't even really win that insurance that I was staying. But, I did learn A LOT of tea that's been going on. So, according to John there is a majority alliance, which was honestly obvious cause last tribal felt so organized. But John is my lifeline here, he told me about this and more. And apparently they want to split the votes between me and Jacob, making it much easier to overturn so we can get majority. If this gets pulled off, it'll be an amazing blindside. The, the basic plan is me, John, Jacob, Megan, and Lisa band together and blindside someone in that alliance.
Then, after we had already talked about it and stuff, Alyssa approaches me as well talking about maybe making a move. Apparently she heard that the vote was between me and jacob and didn't want any of those options to go, so she wants to pull in me, jacob and caeleb and blindside Megan. I said yes to this, but I don't think I'm actually gonna do it. And if they do go through with it I think that means that I can trust them, cause they've already lied to me last tribal, and still haven't mentioned they're in the majority alliance, Alyssa's kinda beating around the bush with that lmao. So we could be seeing four different people getting votes this tribal, I guess we'll find out when the time comes 😉

I've concocted a plan to have 6 of us (Elise, Rob, John, Alyssa, Lisa, Megan) vote for Jacob and 5 of us (Jackson, Kevin, Caeleb, Disc, Jacob) vote for Megan. It requires us trusting Lisa to stay solid, but if Jacob plays an idol and votes with Megan and Disc it will be tied 3-3 and majority gets to go on Megan. The first 3 on Megan are people who I think are fairly solid with doing this vote and won't flip, so we can't be taken out by an idol as long as both Lisa and Megan don't vote with Jacob. It's a huge risk, but if we put one more vote on Megan then she will go home, not Jacob. Survivor is about risks, after all, and this one might just get the target I want (or at least an idol) out of the game and get me some subtle strategic credit. The best part about this plan? No one has to lie, and the vote begging is spread out so it isn't just me telling everyone "Jacob?". Caeleb pulls Disc into his vote, John and I pull Megan and Lisa, and we all tell the truth. I'm saddened that it hurts my connection with Disc a little by not talking to him myself, but I'd rather vote for Jacob than Megan, who I potentially can still work with since I seem to talk to her about 0.000001% more than the other players now that Shane is gone.
I feel \*ok\* with my position in the game. If this tribal goes wrong it could break it, but for now I think I have quite a few people I can work with. I know feeling comfortable is bad, but I think I'm okay unless an idol is whipped out. Famous last words, huh?

Also more notes because it’s a little bit later lmao. People are quiet and that always makes me more nervous than I need to be. John is sketching me out because Jacob said that’s where he got his info but he’s telling me he would prefer Jacob going over Megan? I’m like? Makes me think Jacob is lying to me which is a real concern DJSJS
Jackson isn’t online and he’s one of the Megan votes so we kinda need him. But also getting annoyed that I’m doing this whole thing to save Jacob and hes been like pretty quiet with me today too. Don’t make me too paranoid otherwise I’m gonna start thinking it’s me and do something DUMB which I don’t want to do!

However.................. UPDATES Caeleb knows his name was thrown out and I don't know how, but I'm fucked. I think Shane was right about the Siasi 3. They're in control, and Rob was so defensive because it's true, holy fuck. I think Rob told him, because both Rob and Jackson want to keep Caeleb alive.
Which means, since I just missed out on immunity, it's potentially going to flip onto me. Last tribal I was scared for nothing - this time, I'm pretty sure it's me.

I’m just hoping that the target stays Megan, but there are talks of it being Jacob still but also potentially rob? John needs numbers but won’t talk to me and I’m like? You need numbers tho right. Lisa is a wild card I’m legit like annoyed but Megan going perf. Rob going okay because that opens some things up. Jacob going fine but like not great. Me going AINT THE MOVE. But it could happen at this point.

STEP 1: hint that I’m okay with rob going to Jacob and disc. STEP 2: vote for rob when it’s crunch time if that’s the majority (otherwise stick on Megan plan) STEP 3: tell Alyssa in the last second because either she’s forced to vote out a siasi (which good for me the more I think about it) OR she plays her secret idol that I assume she has on him and hopefully Megan goes home and an idol goes bye bye
The odds any of this are happening is so slim but hehe fun to fantasize about huh?