Doujin 7

ORE GA WATASHI NI NARU MADE (UNTIL I BECOME ME)

CHAPTER 7 OF THE STORY (DOUJINSHI version)

(Chapter Note for the DOUJINSHI version---This chapter deals with the sensitive and controversial issue of an adolescent girl's experience with having her first period. It is discussed with a tactful and respectful, albeit a slightly dramatic, approach. THIS CHAPTER MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR CHILDREN OR OTHERS. READER DISCRETION IS STRONGLY ADVISED !!!)

## Previously

One morning at school, during the first period P.E. class, at the end when the girls were changing out of their swimsuits and back into their school uniforms, Rumi asks Akira if she is going to the school sponsered camp outing ? Yes, she is. Rumi asks Akira if they can sleep together. However, at camp, Akira had already been assigned to sleep in the adults' cabin. Akira and Rimi did get to be together hiking up the mountainside, although Akira was exhausted for her efforts. Also, cooking together, Rumi and Akira, as well as other girls, made curry. Now it is bedtime for Akira, who makes it to the cabin before curfew. She lays out her futon in the adults' cabin, and eventually falls asleep. Yet around midnight comes a knock, knock on the front door of the cabin. It is Rumi, wanting to know if Akira will escort her to the girl's restroom, way across the campground ?

## This Chapter's Story

Sometime around midnight, Rumi comes to the front door of the adults' cabin, with Akira waking up and opening the front door. Rumi has to go to the restrooms, but they are way across the campground, and it is dark outside. Rumi wants Akira to escort her to the restrooms. Akira consents to do so. She takes Rumi across the campgrounds to the girl's showers and toilets, since Rumi has to 'go' rather badly. It is dark outside, and after curfew, so Rumi is a bit jittery and apprehensive. She is clinging to Akira's arm like a straight-jacket. The two girls enter the old, creepy building that houses the shower and girl's toilets. Rumi is somewhat disturbed that there are no lights on in the hallways. The two come across a creepy picture hung on the wall that scares Rumi. Then Rumi is frightened out of her wits, as the grandfather clock rings out midnight. Finally, they make it to the toilets. Akira promises that there are no monsters in the room. Going inside, Rumi pleads that Akira stay with her until she is done with her 'business'. Akira promises not to leave her alone.

Right about now, it hits Akira that she needs to 'go', too ! As Akira steps into a stall, Rumi shouts if she is still there ? "I'm here !" Yet, as Akira is just now sitting down on the toilet, Rumi again shouts, "Are you here ?" "Yeah !" Akira remarks to herself that she feels glad to be a help to someone, given that she was such a pain to others when she was a boy. Without thinking about anything, Akira pulls down her panties, and her gaze drifts down to the absorbent protection panties that are held in her hands. What gives ??? Barely seen in the semi-darkness, the inside of the panties are all bloody.

"AKIRA-CHAN ?!?", once again, shouts Rumi.

But Akira's mind is promptly going into convulsions, NO! . . . . No Way!!! . . . . This can't be happening . . . . I mean . . . . I'm not . . . . NO! . . . . Why? . . . . this . . . . is this my period? . . . . that's the blood of . . . . EH ? . . . . should I laugh it off? . . . . what now ?

Akira's eyes begin to tear up, ready for a flood of frightfulness and remorse. "***RU .........***

But Akira doesn't finish her shoutout to Rumi for help ! Tears flood her eyes, as her mind swirls around with fear and trepidation. She tells herself, to no avail, that she can't cry over something like this. "NO! I won't cry ! Bear with it, BEAR WITH IT !!" But Akira's emotions are getting the best of her, as she quivers in sordid expectation of what may happen next. To keep quiet so that Rumi will not know that she is about to burst into loud whaling, Akira bites and sinks her teeth into her right forearm. She bites down HARD !

"It's okay ! **I** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) can handle this ! ............. I can, as I always have !" Silently, Akira pictures in her feverish mind herself as the male bully from so long go. That bully is mocking her as she sits there, saying that she is crying over something as mundane as her first period. Really, girls are so, so pathetic; they cry over everything ! A small stream of blood is now dribbling down her arm, as her mouth stays clamped onto her arm. Akira's unhinged and uncontrollable mind now recklessly 'kicks down into overdrive'. She begins imagining all sorts of horrid things that did happen, is happening, or will happen.

>>>How disgusting !

>>>Everything would be so much better if **I** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) had never been born !

>>>Mom, I so sorry ! Because of me, Dad blamed you, and the two of you split up . . . . . . and you gained all that weight.

>>>Sorry, Nana! You probably hated me so much when I lifted your skirt to show everyone your panties, causing you to cry ! And I did so many other awful things to the other girls !

>>>My so-called male "friends" stripped me naked, then laughed at me !

>>>Kyousuki, I'm sorry for the trouble that I caused you !

>>>No matter how much I apologize for what I have already done in the past, there can never be any forgiveness for me ! None at all ! NEVER !!!

>>>If **I** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) .......If **I** (lit. *Ore* {masculine}) had never existed ..............

"AKIRA-CHAN ? ARE YOU THERE ? Can you open the door ?", a voice comes from beyond the closed toilet door.

It's okay.........It's okay .........As long as I'm quiet, she won't know a thing . . . . . . . Akira now takes her fingers and bites down on them, too, so very hard ! She then reaches out to open the door from the inside. With a surprised expression on her face, Rumi looks intently at Akira. " .... does it hurt anywhere .... ?, squeaks out Rumi, as she sees the bloody arm, fingers, and panties.

" .... don't look at me, Rumi .... look away .... I'm in awful shape right now .... ", feverishly implores Akira.

Rumi steps up to Akira, and with her standing, but Akira sitting, she leans down and in, puts her arms around Akira's neck, pressing Akira's face to her shoulder, and softly tells Akira that it's all right. Akira responds by saying that she, Akira, doesn't deserve your kindness, Rumi, and if you knew the real me, you would surely hate me ! Rumi counters, saying that she doesn't do things like this with just anyone, but she does this with you, Akira, because I love you ! Tears are still coming down Akira's cheeks, as she silently continues to cry. Waiting until there are no more tears from Akira, Rumi wants to know if Akira has calmed down some. "Yeah" Next, Rumi says that she is going to leave to get Akira a fresh pair of panties, and a pad, and for Akira just to wait until she gets back. (Rumi, as the savior, is now no longer scared of the dark, and goes alone back to the cabins, and then returns.)

Meanwhile, Akira thinks to herself. She tells herself that she is such a failure. She (supposedly) has not changed for the better one bit from being a bratty person. Not only that, but she wonders how others see her and perceive her personality ? Furthermore, she wants to become that kind of person that is kind, cares about others, and wants to help them. Someone kind like Rumi-chan !

Soon, Rumi returns, with clean paper panties, and a box of feminine napkin pads. Rumi shows Akira how to use the pads (Rumi's periods have already started). In such in personal, private setting, this small favor brings the two girls even more close and intimate with one another.

Late next morning, it is time to board the bus to take everyone back. Two boys see Akira and Rumi coming out of the campground office. Rumi is asking Akira if she is okay, and does it feel weird wearing a pad for the first time ? "No!" Walking past the two boys, one of the boys shouts out that you two missed the morning outdoor exercises ! What gives ? You two in some kind of trouble ? Rumi shouts back at the two that IT'S NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS about us girls !

Akira and Rumi board the bus, and sit together in a seat toward the back of the bus. Akira turns toward Rumi, and thanks her for all the help and understanding last night, wishing that she could be just like Rumi someday, too ! Surprised, Rumi says that you should not be 'like me' ! Just be yourself, Akira-chan. That's all ! During the trip back, Akira ponders what it meant to be 'herself' ? Soon, a weary Akira falls asleep with her head resting on Rumi's shoulder. Soon, Rumi also falls asleep. The two sleeping together in the seat look like a couple of lovers, tired from the experiences that they had together.

(End Chapter 7)

## Chapter Lookback, Commentary, and Opinion

Omake (Extra) pictures placed at the end of Chapter 7

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ChristineGuinn

Active member

Messages: 357

Dec 20, 2019

I may be wrong on this, since we haven't seen where this is going yet, and what the mangaka's intentions are, but it SEEMS to me just from the title and story so far that this is about him/her accepting themselves and becoming a better person, and the shock of changing genders is the catalyst for that. I mean, it's essentially "divine retribution" for a boy who was cruel to girls to BECOME a girl. Who knows, maybe he learns his lesson ....... but it seems more likely that SHE learns HER lesson, and remains a girl in the end. Like I said, we'll eventually find out what the author has in mind. 😃

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bitfarb

Messages: 789

Dec 15, 2019

Whoof...I could almost taste the panic and self-loathing.

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dokidoki

Messages: 2,235

Dec 15, 2019

Bruh .... just look at that bite mark .... that sh\*t must hurt so damn much to cause bleeding like that, poor girl, hope [the] Best Girl [Rumi] stays with her forever !

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