Fell72

Fell72 was a player on 2b2tmcpe.org who later moved to ConstantiamPE, joining the minecraft anarchy community early November 2018. He was well known as a trustworthy and mature person, which helped him work his way up the ranks of the groups he was part of. He was a leader of FEAR of and Harmony at points in time. Fell quit minecraft anarchy on May 25, 2020, deleting his discord account to seal the deal.

Fell sent this final message a little while after he left:

> My name is Fell72. At the moment, I am no longer in any discord servers related to minecraft anarchy, save for this alt I’m using to post this. Initially I was going to make my exit as unassuming as possible, (I’ve made my distaste for the dramatic roleplaying around some in this community very clear), but after giving it some thought I decided that I owed some people an explanation, as well as a place to get some thoughts I’ve had over the years out there. This is going to be very long, and not take any serious form, but I hope some of you take the time to read it.
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> This server was always a time dump for me. From the moment I learned of it from a certain YouTube channel (I’m sure you all know which one) I was hooked. The grand scale of it all, wars, cities, possibilities to make a name for oneself all , it seemed to scratch an itch that I didn’t know needed scratching. So, I took to the web and found servers compatible with the shitty iPod I had at the time. After bouncing around from server to server for a while, I settled into a comfortable grove.
> What happened on the actual server matters less than how it affected me. It was more addictive than any hobby I had ever held previously, and at the time that was perfect. I have always been an awkward person, so being able to hide behind a persona of sorts was appealing. While in the anarchy community, you start to form an odd kind of faux relationship with other people. With a few exceptions, people interact with each other by speaking through personas they have adopted. At the base level, this can be dumb fun. It’s role playing. But you can’t make the mistake of placing online relationships over real, physical ones. This is a mistake I made. As anarchy ate up more and more of my time, I found myself willing to stay in the virtual world instead of going out with friends I had outside of it. I’m not going to lie and say that it seriously affected any my friendships in real life, but I did turn down some opportunities that I really wish I hadn’t. I have spent literal weeks playing minecraft. I could have done so much with that time, but I didn’t. I stayed home, in the dark, behind a screen.
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> Another aspect of this community that I want to touch on is the individuals it is made up of. There are some legitimately wonderful people, but they are few and far between. For the most part the people you will come across are not good. It seems like edgy shitposting at first, and a lot of it is. But the more time you spend around people, and around the language they use, it seeps into you wether you like it or not. This might be a personal fault of mine rather than something that happens to a lot of people, but I felt my views on the world change simply because I was around people who saw it through their shitty pessimistic lenses. In particular, politics and identity were things that I can look back in and see where I was adopting positions that are insane to actually hold. It sounds dumb and kind of corny writing this out, but don’t let this happen to you. Question things. Make sure that you really believe what you believe. It’s more important than you might realize. There isn’t really a way to wrap this up nicely, so I’m going to keep it simple. Keep yourself in check. Real relationships are always going to be worth more than online ones, even if they are harder to foster. If you hear that little voice at the back of your head telling you that you have spent to much time online, listen to it. Don’t make excuses for not going out and having a life. It’s possible. The less time I put into anarchy, the better my life got. It wasn’t the only reason, but it was certainly a factor. Sometimes you have to grow up. On a lighter note, don’t do the melodrama shit. I know it’s rich from someone who just wrote a fucking essay on his minecraft experience, but role play is cringe. Don’t do it.
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> Another aspect of this community that I want to touch on is the individuals it is made up of. There are some legitimately wonderful people, but they are few and far between. For the most part the people you will come across are not good. It seems like edgy shitposting at first, and a lot of it is. But the more time you spend around people, and around the language they use, it seeps into you wether you like it or not. This might be a personal fault of mine rather than something that happens to a lot of people, but I felt my views on the world change simply because I was around people who saw it through their shitty pessimistic lenses. In particular, politics and identity were things that I can look back in and see where I was adopting positions that are insane to actually hold. It sounds dumb and kind of corny writing this out, but don’t let this happen to you. Question things. Make sure that you really believe what you believe. It’s more important than you might realize. There isn’t really a way to wrap this up nicely, so I’m going to keep it simple. Keep yourself in check. Real relationships are always going to be worth more than online ones, even if they are harder to foster. If you hear that little voice at the back of your head telling you that you have spent to much time online, listen to it. Don’t make excuses for not going out and having a life. It’s possible. The less time I put into anarchy, the better my life got. It wasn’t the only reason, but it was certainly a factor. Sometimes you have to grow up. On a lighter note, don’t do the melodrama shit. I know it’s rich from someone who just wrote a fucking essay on his minecraft experience, but role play is cringe. Don’t do it.
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> You might relate to some stuff I said, or you might not. Either way thanks for reading all of this. After this, I’m really out for good. So, bye.
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