Session 6 (23/3/2020)

This session saw the party collecting their reward from the mayor, then setting off on the road after some discussion of the fight with the bandits. On their way, they ran into a party of gnolls raiding from across the river and killed most of them, the survivors fleeing into the hills.

They arrived in Stillmoor to find the town in a state of fear, a villager warning them to get themselves inside before dusk and directing them to the inn. They hunkered down in the bar and started trying to figure out what was happening in this strange little town.

Teldaris date: Tuesday the 12th of June, 643IR

## Kel'Nazir Shadestone

I have spent much of the last day in contemplation. Do I embrace this power? Or do I cast it aside? All I know is that right now I need it. Lyra has some magical power that seems to affect minds but noone else has the ability to harness raw power like I can. Perhaps we need more allies well versed in the ways of the elements.

Today it seems we furthered our venture to Kazholm. Great hound beasts called Gnolls ambushed us on the road and nobody was in a mood to entertain them. After dispatching them we found a curious artefact. It resonates with a similar energy to my gauntlet, possibly linked to another being. Lyra mentioned it has something to do with rage and power. Perhaps it is a tool that can be used by Oorok to size up against Sigrid. Aldor on the other hand knows more than he is willing to share. It is infuriating. He wishes to destroy the weapon and will not provide valid enough reason other than that it is 'Evil'. Lyra seems curious about it at least so there may be hope for it yet.

The town we have currently residing in seems to be currently having a murder issue. Figuring the best way to hunt a murderer is to send someone with a similar mind to track them, I sent Gaw out to scout. And my hunch turned out to be true. Something was butchering these people and Gaw was going to lead us right to it.

## Aldor Stargazer

Dear diary,

I am starting to lose my way, I think. I'm on an adventure I've been preparing for, for YEARS. But now I am losing it? Seriously. I have to pull my fucking head out. If i continue like this I'm going to fail.

It all started a couple days back when we were going to Kazbarrow. They questioned why I knew so much about this stuff and why I was acting the way I was. I told them the usual star stuff and thought they believed me and trusted the rumoursthat they had obviously heard.

Then it happened again after we… I.  Failed to get the scepter back, they questioned my reaction. Why did this all mean so much to me? I told them the truth. It's my mission. My Polaris given mission to retrieve that scepter and stone. I thought that by telling them the truth then and there that maybe they would drop it and accept that the touched halfling had a mission from his goddess. I thought that it was pretty normal that a cleric had a mission. Apparently I was still incorrect.

I've noticed that I am more and more left feeling untrusted and unworthy to stand by their side. I try to get myself into positions to help in combat and they leave me behind. I try to prevent the death of my friends and in doing so am left to die by two that I truly thought of as close friends. Then I am told I need to tell Lyra where I'm going at all times, fuck that. I am an adult and while I get it, I deserve my secrets just like she does, I don't see her telling us everything. They treat me like a child, which honestly I appreciate in a way. It makes it easier to deal with things. Especially thinking.

However, I think this touched persona is starting to lose its usefulness… At least around these people. But they call for trust when they place none anywhere else. I am scared to be the first to offer it up. I'm scared they will be hurt when they find out about the real me and that they will use that information for a purpose that I cant acknowledge.

Hahaha I guess I haven't grown up that much, huh old man? Maybe it's time to tell Darragh some things. Maybe if I start with him and build my courage up to talk to the others things will go smoother.

That glaive is dangerous. I understand Lyra's thirst for knowledge I truly do. Not that I can communicate that. I suck at talking. Another reason i like my touched persona. It doesn't matter how bad i am at talking. I can just yell shit and not feel shit about it. But if she continues to abandon all proper reason for magic knowledge she will get hurt. I don't want to see that. She is like Kel in some ways. They pretend to be invulnerable. Though in Lyra's case i feel she may actually believe she is better than the things she looks at. One day that's going to hurt her… I just hope I'm nearby to help. She is incredibly important to this party. We all know that.

I forgave Bjorn… I couldn't hold the grudge in that state. It just didn't work. I have too much shit to do and care about that a case of almost dying is unfortunate but not enough to discard a useful ally. Maybe he will be a friend again. But that is for a future me to deal with.

Everything is becoming more complicated but I need to accept that and get ready for this to get harder. We are just country folk running around with knowledge we shouldn't have. Knowledge of a world about to be attacked. And knowledge of a void that is fast approaching. The full moon doesn't bode well. I might be meeting some of those creatures from that book a bit sooner than expected. Hopefully, we can come together properly when the time comes. I need to up my game though. It's my job to keep them together but I'm ripping them apart. It's time I do something different. I will start with Darragh. He should know a bit more now. I don't know how much I will tell him. But… But i will do my best. I need them all. I will focus on bringing them together one by one.

Time for me to change again. It has been a while since I last did that. Change huh? Well at the very least it will be interesting.

May the stars guide my path and bring me back to where I must be. I live for thee my lady. I will become what you need me to be. I will not fail to complete my mission. I promise

Signing off,

Aldor "Goodchild" Stargazer.