Gay Panic at the Disco

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Lily took in a deep breath. This was it, this was the night. Raising a hand, she readied herself and knocked on Didi’s door.

The blue-haired wolf came to the door dressed as she often did for derby, with her fishnets and ripped black shorts, a loose, tattered grey cotton shirt over a black tank top, but she had on her nicest, lacy, black bra, peeking out just a tiny bit past the tank’s neckline. On top of it all was her sky-blue cropped hoodie, and she had fishnet leggings and her black, stompy boots.

“I’m ready to roll!” she said, bouncing as she greeted her date.

Already blushing subtly, Lily smiled and held out a bouquet of white lilies. “The flowers were Ash’s idea.”

She was wearing a pink sundress with a blue lily pattern, with sandals that completed the summery look. Her hair, rather than the normal single braid she kept it in, Was down around her shoulders, framing her face with a white lily pin holding it out of her face. Her makeup was of the subtle variety, just covering and emphasising her natural beauty. She had a designer black handbag over her shoulder, a look that would normally seem out of place for the girl, but fit with her current outfit.

Didi was in awe as she took in the beautiful Lily, gratefully accepting the flowers, giving the bouquet an appreciative sniff before hugging her date.

“You look so beautiful…” She ran a hand through Lily’s loose hair. “Just. Wow.” She gazed into Lily’s eyes a moment longer. “I’m so lucky…”

Eagerly hugging her back, Lily let out a gentle laugh. “I’m the lucky one. Four other partners and you still choose me as well.” Pulling back from the hug, Lily pushed a little hair out of her eyes. “We should probably head off before your outfit causes me to lose mine.”

Didi giggled at that, then pulled out her multitool to cut the stems of the bouquet and get the flowers into a vase -- well, a big plastic cup, but it would do for now. Then she turned back to Lily and cocked her head. “Four partners?” She frowned. “Ash said we were dating, didn’t she?”

“Are… Are you not?” Lily asked, suddenly nervous that she may have thrown her friend under the bus.

“We’re not! We never dated!” Didi took a deep breath, then sighed. “I don’t want to start things off by getting upset, but… well, the short answer is just ‘no.’ I really appreciate how you asked me out, how you were clear about what you were asking so I could respond in kind… truthfully, polyamory and relationship anarchy are so complicated, it just doesn’t work if people make a ton of assumptions and don’t tell the other person. So, thank you.”

“Um… you’re welcome. Well, I think even with three other partners I’m still rather lucky.” Lily giggled, trying to lighten the mood she had inadvertently soured. “This is my first ‘date’ ever, so I guess I just want to be clear so I don’t mess up.”

“So far so good,” replied Didi, with a smile. “Oh! And I made you these!” From the table near the door, she picked up a pair of enormous rollerskates: a padded metal platform with straps to attach to any kind of feet and heavy-duty wheels. “It’s a prototype… they’re not pretty, but I tested them out and they work!”

Reaching up, Lily kisses Didi on the cheek. “They look great. I’m really happy that you care enough to help me with my situation.”

Blushing, Didi replied, “Oh, well, y’know… I like an engineering challenge? Yeah, alright, you got me, I care about you.” She grinned. “Plus, I get to go on a skating date with you! I was motivated.”

“Well how about we get motivated to actually get going? We can talk while we walk, right?” Lily said, feeling a little cheeky.

“I think I can manage that,” replied Didi, taking her arm.

As they walked, Didi did indeed manage to talk without tripping over herself, even while admiring the beautiful Lily.

“So yeah, I’m dating Iva and Berry and Selene, and Selene and I are girlfriends -- which, for me, that’s a step more serious than dating. It must sound like I’m super-experienced, but… I only had one serious relationship before this past month. It kind of took me a while to get over that one, and I’m so glad I’m meeting you now. Things are really looking up!’

“Well, I think you can probably guess by the pink I’m wearing, but I’ve already met Selene. She seems really nice.” Lily let out a giggle. “I’d really like to meet Berry and Iva at some point, if that’s okay?”

“Of course! Berry’s a sweetheart, kinda like you, but also… very not, in some ways… and *Iva*! Whew, Iva… we were roommates freshman year and she has the most intense and abrupt personality, we didn’t get along at all at first, but she’s actually got a really good heart. I’m cooking for one of her SGU campaign events, if you want to come by…” She looked Lily over again. “You already met Selene, did you… oh, did she help pick out the dress? It really suits you!”

Lily smiled wide with a giggle. “Aw, thanks~ It’s my first time wearing a dress in years. She also helped with my makeup and hair, and lent me this handbag. I can see why you like her.”

“Well, you look gorgeous,” said Didi. “I used to wear dresses all the time, believe it or not. Coming to college was a great chance to reinvent myself. Plus I became a werewolf at the same time…”

“Well, you look amazing. Though we do look a bit mismatched, hehehe.” Lily gently rested her head on Didi’s shoulder as they walked, feeling happy and content.

\*\*\*

At the rink, Didi brought Lily to the locker rooms where her own skates were stored. She hadn’t had time to make herself wolf-sized skates, so they’d be a bit more mismatched when they got rolling.

In the wee hours, the athletics building was dark and abandoned, full of shadows and creaking. There were only the faintest lights illuminating the halls and locker room and rink, but Didi pulled a little canvas bag from her locker along with her skates.

“A little surprise,” she said, producing a small, battery powered disco ball light.

Lily took one look at the disco ball before breaking out laughing. “Oh my god Didi, you’re such a dork! I love it!”

She ran over and quickly kissed her date on the cheek. “I’m going to get changed okay? No peeking~” Winking, Lily went off behind a group of lockers and quickly shuffled out of her dress and sandals. Reaching into the handbag, she pulled out another dress, identical to the first but fit for a being much larger than herself. She climbed into the mass of fabric, before closing her eyes and shifting. When she came back out from the lockers, she was fully shifted into her wolf form, shyly holding her arm. “So… what do you think?”

Didi’s jaw literally dropped at the wolfgirl in the dress. “You’re so cute! Did you find another bunch of morphing fabric??” She trotted up and did her best to throw her arms around Lily’s larger self.

Chuckling, Lily picked Didi up and hugged her close. “I wish. No, Selene was just amazing and made a matching dress that fit this form.”

The now-smaller wolf giggled in Lily’s arms. “In retrospect, that’s more likely than magic fabric.”

Once on her own feet, she waved Lily to a bench. “Ready to try on your skates?”

Nodding, Lily walked over to a bench and sat down. “I might need some help. I don’t know how dextrous these claws are.”

“There are perks to human form,” said Didi, as she knelt to strap the oversized skates onto Lily’s feet. They’d been made to her measurements, and soon she was secure. “Give that a try! And don’t worry about falling down: you’re plenty durable to take some wipeouts.”

Lily slowly tried to stand up, her bulky arms out to the side to try and keep her balance. Unfortunately, her left leg went out from under her and she fell, banging her head against the lockers behind her. Sitting up and rubbing her head, Lily sighed. “This seemed a lot easier at the weird house.”

“I think it had you worrying less…” said Didi, as she checked Lily’s head. It wasn’t dented, though, the locker was. “Lemme get my skates on and I’ll try to steady you.”

She slipped on her own skates and wheeled over beside Lily. She was small, compared to her, but still strong enough to be of help.

Lily reached up to grab Didi’s hand as she tried to stand up once again. With her help, she was able to get onto two feet, though wobbly. “You’re probably right.”

“Well there’s no one here but us, and we’re basically unbreakable! So nothing to worry about!” It definitely was a challenge to steady someone so much larger than herself, but Didi was solid on her skates. “Just take it slow! It’ll be fun soon, I promise… there’s just a learning curve.”

“I trust you, a lot.” Lily let Didi guide her, slowly getting used to moving on wheels. There was so uch she wanted to say to her, to let her know how much she meant to her. But Lily felt that right now, the best tithing would just be to enjoy the moment. The emotions could come later.

With Lily steady on her own wheels, Didi let her go, to balance on her own. “Watch my feet, then my hips. Once you feel the rhythm, you can just *go*.”

“You don’t need to convince me to watch your hips…” Lily muttered under her breath as she did as she was asked.

Didi grinned to herself, only just beginning to show off for her date. After a minute, she gracefully wheeled back around to Lily’s side. “So what kind of stuff do you do for hobbies? Tell me about yourself!”

Lily watched Didi with glee as she gracefully went around the rink. Trying to follow her, Lily pushed off from the wall and slowly started to move. “Well I’m doing programming for my major. I was hoping it’d lead to a job with minimal social interaction originally, but I think that might not be as important now.” She giggles to herself as she continues. “And I also box. Not against anyone else, but it helps keep me in shape and let out a bit of frustration every now and again.”

“Ohh, she fluff and she tuff, hot,” teased Didi. “Programming sounds very cool! I’m designing a search and rescue robot with Tamzen for our Problems in Engineering course. Do you program stuff for fun, too, or just as schoolwork?”

Lily blushed, though it wasn’t visible under her fur. “Um… I do some stuff in my free time. I, uh, actually made a game that got a bit popular online.”

“A game? I bet some people around here have played it… we’ve got a lotta nerds around,” Didi teased, sticking out her tongue.

“M-maybe. I…” Lily faltered, trying to decide if she should tell Didi just what she had created. After a few moments she quickly blurted out, “It’s called ‘Full Moon Memories’!”

“You’re Lunacy???” Didi’s eyes went wide. “Broc got half the pack hooked on FMM! I shoulda known it would be a hot sapphic werewolf who made it. I love the sense of humor and everything…”

Lily half smiled and half groaned. “I should have known you’d have played it… I’m glad you like it though.” She lets out a chuckle as they continue to skate. “It was originally just a test, but I ended up putting werewolves in it to… to see if I’d have a romantic future as a werewolf, y’know? Turns out there are a lot of monster fuckers online, hehehe.”

Didi laughed. “There sure are! Some in real life, too. You know, I bet a bunch of werewolves have played!”

Lily laughed along. “Probably. I’ve got like a terabyte of fanart on a drive in my room. It’s kind of ridiculous just how quickly it blew up.”

“And now you’re internet famous! Seriously, though, tell Broc, he’ll go wild. He played even before he was awakened this fall.”

“I don’t know, I really don’t want to get hounded offline too. Oh!” Lily almost ran into a wall as she laughed at her accidental pun. Didi giggled along with her.

“Alright, then, your secret is safe with me~”

The blue-haired wolf whizzed by, enjoying the speed and the air against her face.

“I’m planning to finish my motorcycle next month! Once I test it out and make sure it’s safe, I’d love to take you for a ride.”

Lily pushed back off, trying to catch back up with the speed demon. “Oh! That sounds amazing. I’m lucky to have a partner who’s good with her hands~”

“Oh yeah, gotta make sure I’ve got the right drive shaft for the job, lubricate all the parts, keep that motor purring~”

Lily’s eyes widened, not expecting the counter attack to her tease. Letting out a short ‘ack’, she almost lost her footing. “Not fair, you have more practice.” She whined, pouting.

Didi spun to skate backwards. “I have been known to go for the jugular, but look at it this way: you’re the one who gets to benefit from my ‘practice.’”

Giving up at fighting flirt with flirt, Lily smiles gently. ‘I… I can’t wait.”

Lily had started to get the hang of skating, at least when she wasn’t distracted. Catching up, she leant over and gave Didi a quick nuzzle before pushing on faster.

"You're a quick study!" Racing around the rink was so much more fun with a partner. For a while it was nice just to move like this together. Eventually, though ,, in the glittering dark, Didi skated close. "Lily, this was such a sweet idea... and I'd like to kiss you again, if you want..."

Lily nodded quickly, not bothering to hide her enthusiasm. “I’d love to. Um, but before we do, I have a surprise for you. Wait here please.” Lily quickly skated off to the locker room, not waiting for an answer.

Taking about ten minutes, Lily finally comes back out. She’s back in her human form, wearing her human sized dress. Quickly rushing up to Didi she quickly preempts any questions. “Okay, this is going to sound weird.” Taking a deep breath, she readies herself. “Turn me on! Um… please?”

Didi’s eyes flashed with interest, then she slowly rolled up to Lily, taller than usual in her skates. She slid her arms over Lily’s shoulders and leaned close. “I think I can do that, especially if I get to kiss you now~”

Lily flushes as she wraps her arms around Didi in return. “Please, do your worst~”

“We’ll work up to it,” Didi teased, closing the distance and kissing the sweet werewolf, gently but firmly, a hand playing with her hair. When they parted, her eyes were wide. “You didn’t shift!”

Opening her eyes, Lily looks down before letting out a large grin. She hadn’t fully shifted, but there were some physical changes. Her eyes had turned golden, her ears had lengthened, and her teeth had sharpened. “Yes! It worked!” Lily yelled, pumping both fists in complete glee.

“Oooooh!” Didi admired her eyes and ears. “You’re getting control of it! That’s wonderful!” She kissed her on the cheek and whispered. “You did say to do my worst, though, and I’ve barely gotten started.”

Lily chuckles as she continues to give her toothy grin. “I’ve been training for tonight, for you~” She raises off her toes and whispers back. “Give me everything you can, I can take it and more~”

“‘Training,’ you say?” Didi nibbled at Lily’s neck and tightened her fingers in the other woman’s hair. “Does that mean Selene helped you with more than just the dress? Just how *rigorously* did you train?”

“Oh no, I trained by myself. My first is all for you, *dear*~” Lily lets out a coy giggle as she pulls Didi closer. “Maybe we should move this to your room? We don’t want to leave a mess for the poor cleaners~”

“So considerate,” said Didi, running a hand down Lily’s back. “If you can wait that long, then certainly… but I won’t blame you if you can’t help yourself before we get back.”

She gave Lily a wink at that, pressing close in the other woman’s arms.

Lily places a hand under Didi’s chin and pulls her into a deep kiss. A passionate kiss that was more forceful than anything Didi had seen Lily do before. After a few moments, she pulls back, once again grinning cheekily. “I’ve been waiting my whole life. I can wait a little bit more~”

That forceful, hungry kiss was hot as hell; Didi was the one who would have trouble waiting if this went on much longer.

With a breathy, distracted voice, she said, “I’ll stow our gear and then try to make it worth the wait~”

“I’m sure you will~” Lily said, clearly enjoying having flipped Didi’s switch.

\*\*\*

It was a close thing, making it back to the dorm without tearing each other’s clothes off, and they were kissing as they re-entered Didi’s dorm room.

“Your ears are cute like this,” Didi said, stroking one of them.

“Mmm~ They feel good too.” Lily said. As soon as the door closed behind them, Lily dropped her bag and quickly wrapped an arm around Didi’s waist, guiding her to her bed. She turned her around with a quick motion, before pushing her down.

Climbing on top of her date, Lily leaned down and whispered. “Tonight, I want to make you mine~”

Didi looked up at her with wide eyes and a disbelieving, crooked grin. Lily certainly had a wolf’s fierceness. Coupled with the girl’s sweet personality and floral dress, it was a delightful combination, and one Didi hadn’t expected. She licked her lips. All manner of retorts and teasing comments came to mind, but the last thing she wanted to do was deter this side of Lily.

“Then tonight,” she said, meeting Lily’s gaze as she took a deep breath and let it out. “I’m yours~”

\*\*\*

The next morning Lily groaned as she slowly opened her eyes into the light of a new day. It took a few moments for her sleep addled brain to realize that not only was she not in her own bed, she had shared a bed with someone else.

Memories of the night before flashed through her mind, quickly causing her to flush a deep red. She felt a pain in her arm, the tell tale sign of an incoming shift, and in a bout of panic fell off the bed with a loud thump.

Didi lazily flopped over to look down off the bed, blinking sleep out of her eyes. She cracked a gentle smile.

“Looks like ‘shy Lily’ is still in there after all,” she teased.

Feeling the shift fade, Lily looked up at her first partner and slowly smiled. “I… I guess she is. I don’t really know where my confidence came from.” Standing up slowly, Lily leaned over and kissed Didi good morning. “But I really enjoyed it.”

The blue-haired wolf pulled her back into bed and kissed her again. “I’m excited to see all the different sides of you.” One corner of her mouth turned up in a grin. “But I certainly won’t complain if ‘take-charge Lily’ shows up again, either~”

Giggling, Lily hugged Didi close. Blissfully, she murmured, “I… I think I love you Didi.”

Didi tensed, glad Lily couldn’t see the furrowing of her brow. “You’re sweet, and I’m really glad you… like me... but we’ve known each other less than two weeks…”

“I… I know… and maybe I’m rushing it, but all I know is that you make me happier than I’ve ever been in my whole life…” Lily continued to hug Didi, her body starting to shake slightly as the emotions started trying to get out. “If… If that’s not love, then I don’t know what is…”

Holding her tight, Didi let out a breath, melting a little bit at Lily’s earnest affection. “I don’t know, either. All I know is… when I say it, I want it to mean something that’s… really big. Impossible to come to quickly. Something that shouldn’t be taken *lightly*.” She had to stop, there, her voice cracking slightly.

“I…” Lily faltered. Taking a moment to gather her thoughts, she spoke gently but steadily. “I don’t need you to love me back. If you ever end up saying you love me, I want you to mean it too.” Taking a deep breath, she carried on. “I know it’s quick, but this is really big for me. I wouldn’t say it to anyone I didn’t care deeply about. I *do* love you Didi, and I hope I’ll be able to prove that I really mean it.”

Didi hugged her again, fiercely, and Lily could feel a hot tear where their cheeks were pressed together. All Didi could do in the moment was nod and hold her tight.

Eventually, she managed, “You’re really special, Lily,” before she buried her face in the other woman’s hair.