Sad Holiday

## **Sad Holiday**Single by Niki DeMar

* Original
* 2020 version

## Audio

* Original
* 2020 version

"**Sad Holiday**" (stylized in all lowercase) is a Christmas single by Niki DeMar. It was released on December 7, 2019, along with its official music video directed by Nayip Ramos. The song's second version was released exclusively on SoundCloud on December 16, 2020.

## Background

On December 3, 2019, Niki announced that she had a new song which was going to be released on December 7, 2019.

On April 13, 2020, Niki revealed that she was working on a new version of the song.

## Music video

The music video was filmed on November 26, 2019, in Allentown, Pennsylvania, a few weeks before the single was released, and it features Sarah Dorothy Little, who portrayed young Niki, and Ryan Bachman, who portrayed young Gabi. It was directed by Nayip Ramos with cinematography by Mario Contini. It was produced by Nayip Ramos and Casey Schreffler with the production company Centertainment. Styling was done by Lisa Cameron with hair by Valerie Vanessa and makeup by Katie Nova.

### **Behind the scenes**

Two behind the scenes videos were released, one by Sarah Dorothy Little On December 8, 2019, and another by Ryan Bachman on January 11, 2020. Niki also posted footage on her Instagram from the set of the video.

Behind the Scenes of NIKI DEMARTINO Music Video SAD HOLIDAY Sarah Dorothy LittleBEHIND THE SCENES WITH NIKI DEMARTINO Sad Holiday Music Video
## Live performances

Niki debuted the song live at the Streamy Premiere Awards on December 11, 2019. On December 12, 2019, Niki hosted and performed at "an emo launch party" for her jewelry line NikNaks joint with "Sad Holiday".

Niki DeMar performs ‘Sad Holiday’ 2019 Streamys Premiere AwardsI performed by myself \*a stressful vlog\*
## Lyrics

**[Verse 1]**

It’s that special time of year

With the streets lit through the night

The radio is playin' all Christmas songs

People feel merry and bright

But I can’t wake up in the morning cause

Something doesn’t feel right

Even though the holidays are coming

I still feel the weight of my life

**[Chorus]**

So I put on my coat

Brush my hair

Put up my Christmas lights

Fake the motions till I feel alright

This time of year makes me

Some kinda way I don’t how to say if I do

All the things that I’m supposed to do

Maybe I’ll feel better soon

Everyone’s red and I feel blue

I’m fighting through my sad holiday

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night

**[Verse 2]**

It makes me feel worse

When people around me are full of cheer

It makes me wonder

What it’ll take for me to love this time of year

Everyone around me wants to go out now and celebrate

But I can’t help that I’m not jolly I’m going through the motions on Christmas day

**[Chorus]**

So I put on my coat

Brush my hair

Put up my Christmas lights

Fake the motions till I feel alright

This time of year makes me

Some kinda way I don’t how to say if I do

All the things that I’m supposed to do

Maybe I’ll feel better soon

Everyone’s red and I feel blue

I’m fighting through my sad holiday

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night

**[Bridge]**

Sometimes I feel the magic in the air

Sometimes I’m almost happy, almost there

But then the snow melts and I forget that I was ever fine

So I put on my coat

Brush my hair

Put up my Christmas lights

Fake the motions till I feel alright

This time of year makes me

Some kinda way I don’t how to say if I do

**[Chorus]**

All the things that I’m supposed to do

Maybe I’ll feel better soon

Everyone’s red and I feel blue

I’m fighting through my sad holiday

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night (fighting through my sad holiday)

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night

Hold on we will be alright

Fake a smile to get through the night

## References

1. ↑ Twitter - working on another version of sad holiday for you guys 🧡