Leuci

**Leuci (*Leu*)** is a Despair-following Sheolfolk from the Cult of Melancholy who was introduced in *Asphodel*. (Played by *Sal*)

## Biography

A long time ago, a group of Despair followers broke away from the rest of their society. They broke away from the ideas of Molech and the binds of the Sheolfolk. In pursuit of true freedom and what they believed was the truth to Despair, the Cult of Melancholy was born. These cultists followed their own sense of Despair and cultivated generations of Despair following children on the surface away from the Homini, Sheofolk, and Elysian’s alike.

The Cult of Melancholy was meant to be different than Sheolfolk society. They followed their own customs\* as they didn’t consider to have any rules, but guidelines they could follow to better understand Despair and further their Vice. They believed in having no expectations leads to a life of true freedom and understanding of the cruel world. They also thought in Despair being more elegant and found true beauty in the sadness that followed them. Expectations were meaningless and gave way to a life full of endless doors that never mattered in the long run. It was an imperfect perfect world. The Cult also changed the ideas of naming (and the Sheolfolk naming ceremony) as well as useless bloodshed, bonding, relationships, and several other unimportant ideas to list.

Now, onto Leuci’s part of this story;

Leu was born on a rainy night. Their mother looked at her baby’s silent face, believing her daughter had already died. Fitting, for a single mother following Despair in the Cult of Melancholy. However, as Leu’s mother was about to lay them outside to pass on through the storm; Leu cried. Softly, but crying nonetheless.

As a child, Leu was often left alone. Either that or locked out of their house for days at a time to fend for themselves. Most kids their age had a similar situation. It was common practice in the cult after all. Loneliness was one of the emotions introduced to their children early on; abandonment and such. Their mother would also often let her daughter be raped by their father, uncle, aunt, or whichever adult was also occupying the house when Leuci did want to stay inside. Leu caught on quickly and started forcing themself to stay away from their home. Mind games were also a tactic used by the cult towards the kids. Some days the adults of the children would call out for them to come home. Creating hope that it was safe, before taking it away in whatever way they could think of: denial, rape, physical/mental abuse. Leu also quickly grew to understand this. Leuci for a long time didn’t understand why the adults would treat them like such. Even though they knew of Despair. It wasn’t until their teens when they understood just how good Despair felt.

As a teenager, Leu had made a living on their own. Despair by that point had become their Vice and the mind games were mostly over for them. Instead, they would partake in the mind games and live life the way the cult had intended for them to in some ways.

Nowadays, their life consists of jumping from person to person and traveling around for no particular reason. Other times they consider trying to show others how worthless their hope is. May it be Sheolfolk, Homini, or Elysians when they come across them. For now, however, ironically she is quite stuck where she is.

## Physical Appearance

Albino in most of their features, Leu is an average height and average build type sheolfolk. There are no real defining features to them in that aspect. Though they have a mass amount of scarring on their arms and palms from the bloodletting\* they’ve done over the years. They also have two spiky ivory-like horns protruding from the front of their head.

When it comes to clothing, Leu wears a traditional style that is based upon Asian cultures. Much of their outfit is silk-based, light, and see-through. It wouldn’t be uncommon to come across them practically naked just because of how visible their body is under their clothing. Also, they don’t like to wear shoes. Ever.

## Personality

Leuci isn’t one of many words unless you have been around them enough to where they think you’re worth talking to. Even then, it’s usually short and simple. The only time they speak in long sentences it usually comes out extremely somber and oddly philosophical. Aside from words, they will more likely than not speak with their hands and other gestures--head tilting, facial expressions, etc.

When it comes to their ideas of what Despair is, they use it as a driving force to free themself and open up the mind to the acceptance of sorrow and hopelessness. They see the beauty in having no chains and creating great strides when at their lowest points. Even while their world is dark, they do not see the darkness as an enemy but instead a companion of sorts. (Though, it should be mentioned Leu doesn’t believe in friends, lovers, and other bonding words/ideas.) Often times, more than not, they feel as if they really aren’t even on a plane of existence. Sometimes Leu will consider themself truly unbound from chains when they feel numb inside and out or not even real at all. In some ways, one could argue that their Despair is like an addiction to a drug.

Being away from Sheolfolk society has also given them a neutral stance in life. They don’t really believe in Ahriman or Elodi, or why everyone is killing one another with hopes of a better world when there will never be one. No one will ever be happy. No one will ever get just what they want. Especially after the sundering, they don’t understand why anyone could really have false hopes of a future.

Lue also does not believe in bonds, or would ever consider one. Even if it means they might die at least they’ll die without chains on their wrists. Truthfully, just having a bonded could mean being pulled from Despair--and that would be a big no from Leuci.

### *Strengths*

* No alliance. Which, could be bad or good. Though, it does keep them out of the conflict.
* Leu is good and bad at nothing?

### *Weaknesses*

* Leu is weak as their Despair isn’t exactly a solid form of it. And, in some ways takes from Despair and Anarchy in a weird sort of way.
* Twisted sense of outlook on life for themself and others.

## Relationships

* **Shi** ー *mother, alive*
* **Unnamed Father(s)** ー Leuci is actually quite unaware of who their *real* father is. Their mother often had so many partners all the time that they never really kept track.

In general, Leuci doesn’t have any notable relationships and connections. At least, they wouldn’t consider to have any and sees no reason to keep people so close when no one will ever meet their expectations--not that they had any to begin with.

## Trivia

* Leuci is polyamorous but doesn’t necessarily believe that they feel love towards any of their partners and will never tie themselves to just one or any for that matter.
* Biologically, Leuci is female.
* Leuci is taken from Leucistic or Leucism. It is pronounced like “Lucy”.
* Leu's Spotify Playlist
* Their FC is Milt from Food Fantasy.