Get Retribution/Confessionals

### Day 14

Okay, my apologies. It’s day 15, and time for my first confessional..? I was very busy for the first few days but I don’t really have an excuse for not confessing as of late. I guess I never really thought I had an interesting position in the game or were really influencing it. I kinda felt like I haven’t been an influencing player on the decisions that were made. So in a way I felt like I didn’t have anything to offer you.
But here we are. I’m about to be a big player in this vote and this episode (in one way or another). So coming into the swap down 4-2, things are looking bad because we’re down in the numbers. Aston has an idol which could definitely be used as a tool, but also as something that keeps him immune making me the last option to go home if the votes are split.
So coming into this tribe, Aston and I devise a plan that will allow new first impressions to work along with the idol. We are trying to get all of the votes onto Aston by having him be a very aggressive brash personality and have myself be very likeable and endearing (which I am good at). In order for this to work, Aston will play his idol and we will get someone out with our own two votes. So that’s the strategy we’re going with.
If I were to rank my new tribemates, I would probably do so like this:
1. Chelsea
2. Elizabeth
3. Morgan
4. Liam
I have gotten to know the girls pretty well and I like them. Coming into this tribe I was planning on targeting Elizabeth because she posted a video with her covering her eyes while she was driving. But I actually like her personality so I’ve decided not to hold he driving thing against her. I like Morgan too. I’m definitely weary of him, but we get along well and have good conversations. Liam proved to be a big threat in the 24 hour challenge. Not in his challenge prowess, but just how involved he is with the game and the community. He’s also the most cold to me. So when Aston and I talked about which of the 4 we would like to try to idol out, it was him.
So there are four decisions that I really think are going to influence this vote. Decision #1 is from the four original La Grille members. They have the decision to split the votes between me and Aston, or to put all the votes on Aston. We are trying to get them to put all the votes on Aston, but if they are smart (and I think they are) it makes more sense to be safe and split the votes. My only hope is that they would try to salvage a relationship with me.
Decision #2 is from Aston. That’s the decision of who to vote for. He could vote for Liam as we agreed, or if he values his hidden immunity idol more than me, he could vote for me. This factors into Decision #3, which is also for Aston to either play his idol or to not play the idol. If Aston thinks that I am voting for Liam and that the others are doing a split vote, then he could vote for me so that I go home in a 3-2-1 vote without him playing his idol. That is the only scenario I can see him not playing his idol.
Decision #4 is for me to vote for either Liam or throw a vote onto Aston in the event that I think he will try the 3-2-1 without playing the idol. If I vote for him and he doesn’t play his idol, we would tie 3-3 and it would be easy for me to convince everyone to vote for him over me given that he has an idol. Aston is my closest ally, and I want to play the rest of the game with him. But it is becoming so difficult to see a scenario where I will survive this vote that I will do anything. I came to this game by myself and I’m not going to play for Aston. If the only way to survive this round is to vote for Aston, then I’ll do it.
I think in the end, I am not going to be the tribe’s first choice. But I will still be the one going home. You’ve cast some good players this season and I wish that I would have had the opportunity to play with them at the merge. This just feels like your classic swapfuck, and I can’t be mad about that.

minus sam ofc but how many different ways am I supposed to say i love sam at this point

### Day 15

I SWEAR TO GOD
I READ THE POST VERBATIM TO HIM
AND ONCE HE READ IT HIMSELF HE WAS LIKE
‘oh i didnt know it was one attempt only’
BITCH I JUST TOLD YOU THAT