Black Balloons

## Music Video

 Next Track"**Did It Hurt?**"

"**Black Balloons**" is the first single from Ellise's *2nd Studio Album*.

## Song Leakage

* October 13th, 2022 - A high quality snippet of the song is shared by Ellise on TikTok.

## Background

On October 13th, 2022, Ellise announced the song, with a snippet on TikTok, along with a presave link for the song.

On October 28th, 2022, the song was released along with a visualizer.

On December 30th, 2022, Ellise teased a possible music video for the song via her Instagram story.

## Theme

> *i made a song about feeling disconnected from myself and reality
> i wrote it the day before my birthday which is when i always get the most depressed lol
> an evil bday party from hell taking place inside my brain
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> Ellise, via TikTok*
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> *I know a lot of people can relate to feeling kind of depressed and down right around the time of your birthday, I was definitely feeling the birthday blues, so it kind of all just meshed together perfectly.
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> Ellise, via ENVI*
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She almost cancelled the studio session the song was written in due to how low she felt, however chose to record the song instead, writing the entire song within an hour.

> *Everyone was so locked in on the same page, which is such a rare thing. And when it happens, it's like magic.
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> Ellise, via ENVI*
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## Lyrics

**[Verse 1]**

Spent the day in my own broken head

Living for people who wish I was dead

I should get the fuck out of my room

Dig my own grave so my friends don't have to

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I'm barely breathing, suffering season

Or maybe it's me and

I'm at the pity party of my dreams

**[Chorus]**

Can't eat your cake if it's rotten

Don't drink the punch 'cos it's toxic

Everyone here is of my own delusion

I'm all alone blowing up black balloons

**[Post-Chorus]**

Ha-a-a-a, ha-a-ha-ha-a

I'm all a-

I'm all alone

I'm all alone blowing up (black balloons)

**[Verse 2]**
I'm not even gonna fight it

So sorry, but you're uninvited

It's me, myself and I like it

The sad bitch in me got a tight grip

Knee deep in the crazy

Got me gossiping with shadows

Someone should restrain me, I'll be happy in the madhouse

**[Pre-Chorus]**

I'm barely breathing, suffering season

Or maybe it's me and

I'm at the pity party of my dreams (Hahahaha)

**[Chorus]**

Can't eat your cake if it's rotten

Don't drink the punch 'cos it's toxic

Everyone here is of my own delusion

I'm all alone blowing up black balloons

Tables are set for disaster

Banner says: "you never mattered"

Everyone here is of my own delusion

I'm all alone blowing up black balloons

**[Post-Chorus]**

Ha-a-a-a, ha-a-ha-ha-a

I'm all a-

I'm all alone

I'm all alone blowing up (black balloons)

## Trivia

* This song's presave link originally had the song's actual cover art when first revealed, but this was shortly swapped to another placeholder cover, and then later another placeholder cover art.

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* This song was inspired by a scene from a horror movie with black balloons in a van (resulting in the song's title).
	+ Additionally, further inspiration came from "Pity Party" by Melanie Martinez.

## References

1. ↑ https://www.tiktok.com/@ellise/video/7154093609598471466
2. ↑ https://www.envimedia.co/artist-spotlight-ellise-on-her-new-single-black-balloons/