S.H.

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## Appearance

S.H.'s appearance is different depending on one's point of view. From his perspective, he appears almost identical to Midori, but from an outside perspective he appears very glitched, with the textures on his model appearing a shadowy color aside from the iris of his eyes. Whether he bleeds is also a matter of perspective, as sometimes he bleeds normally, others he bleeds a "strawberry-flavored" pink, and sometimes his blood isn't visible at all. The change in blood appearance is likely involuntary.

His outfit, aside from bandages, consists of a white button-up dress shirt, black dress pants, black dress shoes, a deep red tie, and a black blazer. The dress shirt was torn badly and stained with blood, but it was recently repaired by Kayo. The blazer, however, remains faintly bloodstained, as S.H. doesn't care to get it fixed.

Due to his addiction to self-harm, he has many wounds, many of which are on his torso, hence the bloodstained shirts. Those wounds, in order of occurrence, are:

* Many stab wounds to the lower torso (skin in that area has been hand-sewed back together)
* Deep cut on the palm of his left hand (wrapped with bandage)
* Large stab wound in his lower left arm, piercing through arm between ulna and radius. (wrapped with bandage)
* Three bullet wounds in left shoulder; bullets have not been removed
* Stab wound in his throat, piercing through the bone (wrapped with bandage)
* Missing eye, which was originally stabbed beyond recognition of being an eye before being torn out of its socket (covered with square eyepatch)
* Five slits on his left wrist

(Note: he has more injuries than this, but we don't feel like updating his page to list every single one of them. Some main ones that are not on this list is his missing right eye (meaning he cannot see at all), his missing tongue, and his missing right arm, with all three injuries being caused by Arte.)

As of August 28, 2021, S.H. has mechanical eyes replacing his missing eyes. It is unknown how exactly they function, but, while "a bit delayed," they appear to restore his vision fairly well.

For a list of all of S.H.'s outfits see here.

## Items

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S.H.'s revolver gun
Based on a similar gun from Your Turn To Die. Has only been used once so far.S.H.'s knife
Presumably a kitchen knife. Often used for self harm and occasionally threats. Usually covered in blood.Shin Doll
A small, felt doll of Shin made by Kayo, Was gifted along with many similar dolls to various members of Calendar System as a late birthday gift.

## Playlist(s)

### "SH'S PL4YL1ST" on Amazon Music

1. Washing Machine Heart by Mitski
2. Crazy = Genius by Panic! At The Disco
3. This Hurts by Mindless Self Indulgence
4. Oh Ana by Mother Mother
5. Cabinet Man by Lemon Demon
6. Burning Pile by Mother Mother
7. Semi-Automatic by twenty one pilots
8. Touch-Tone Telephone by Lemon Demon
9. MONSTER by Kira (featuring GUMI)
10. Partners in Crime by Set It Off (featuring Ash Costello)
11. Jaws by Lemon Demon
12. Choke by I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME
13. Secret by The Pierces
14. Villain by Stella Jang
15. A Mask of My Own Face by Lemon Demon
16. Ghost Rule by DECO\*27
17. Two Time by Jack Stauber
18. Thid Is Love by Air Traffic Controller
19. Change The Formality by Infected Mushroom
20. Love Taste by Moe Shop
21. Me and My Husband by Mitski
22. Arms Tonite by Mother Mother
23. Ruler of Everything by Tally Hall

### S.H. and Shin (-)

S.H. considers himself to have been "in love" with Shin. Their relationship was unhealthy at best but better described as heavily abusive and dysfunctional. S.H. is heavily obsessed with Shin, keeping a large collection of fanart of his source, owning a felt doll of him, and still keeping his dead body, refusing to let it be buried, among other things. While Shin was alive, S.H. practically brainwashed the former into being a "toy" for him, which allowed S.H. to be so affectionate with him. S.H. took a disliking to anyone who could help Shin from the situation S.H. had forced him into, particularly N. After Shin's passing, S.H.'s opinion of N became a bit better, and the two began hanging out occasionally, but just as quick as it'd first changed, S.H.'s opinion of N soured once more as he noticed N's strong resemblance to Shin, which bothered him quite a bit. Just about anything that reminded him of Shin that wasn't Shin bothered him. Another thing that changed after Shin's passing was S.H.'s violent nature. He'd originally just been violent with Shin, but with the latter gone, he began harassing other members of the system, even attacking some of them (with Ono, who he'd sexually harassed, and Abc, who he'd violently attacked, being good examples).

### S.H. and N (-)

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S.H. and N have a complicated but definitely negative relationship. The two of them are both based on Shin's perception and opinions of Midori and his relationship with Shin, but specific sides of them. S.H. represents the negative sides of him and their relationship, especially the things that Midori told Shin that influence his thoughts, whereas N represents the friendship Shin wanted with Midori, as shown with N originating from Shin's fantasies of meeting Midori again, but in the fantasies Midori was much kinder to Shin, even to the point of genuinely apologizing to him. Due to the two of them being opposites in embodying positives and negatives, Shin heavily prefers N over S.H., with the latter being highly possessive of Shin, leading him to dislike N for being "the favorite." Given the two of them being like the good and bad sides of one person and with N being the "good" side, N is made very uncomfortable by S.H., and sighting him in Shin's world often causes a major shift in his demeanor. While not around N, S.H. openly expresses his "hatred" for N, but when around N in Shin's world, he takes on a more cool and smug presentation. N, however, is the opposite. When Shin talks about S.H. to N, N tends to react kindly and calmly as he would to seemingly everything, but when actually facing S.H., he shows open discomfort and is even disgusted by him, as though he hadn't really "gotten" how bad S.H. was until seeing him for himself.

## Roles/Terms

* Big
* Semi-Fictive (of Midori)
* Malicitor/Persecutor
* Nonhuman (Glitch)
* Outsourced (from Your Turn To Die)
* Symptom Holder (of depression) (formerly)

## Trivia/Other info

* S.H. formed a group called the "Dark Side" as a joke, recruiting various "evil" people so that they could "commit crimes" together. Although it's never specified exactly what they do, it is assumed that they act as sort of "vigilantes," committing crimes against other evil people as revenge for whatever they have done, similar to how Arte tortured S.H. himself.
* While many of his relationships with people are inherently negative, S.H. has stated that he actually does *like* everyone, but in a "bad" way, as he likes them for what harm he can do to them and what entertainment they can bring him that way, rather than in any "healthy" or "normal" way.