A Juicy Goat/Confessionals

## Day 18

So Szymon and I decided to throw our votes on Zach because we knew that there had been some discussion about an idol, and we wanted to be safe. We also decided on this because we knew that people would go crazy over this - especially the people who are huge control freaks in this game.
So, with 3 votes on Zach it for sure looks like a group of people decided to vote for him. So immediately Felipe tells me that he has voted Zach, and is unsure who the other two are, and I act really surprised. So I return back to work and home a thousand messages from Szymon.
Szymon tells me that a lot of the people from Kassari think that Hesh was the person who voted Zach, as he had thrown his name out as someone he wanted to take out. This is amazing for my game because Hesh has been very messy thus far. He thinks he is being super smooth but in actuality, his game is very transparent. It also doesn't help that me and Szymon compare notes every 5 minutes so his game is obvious to us.
Szymon also mentions to that the remainder of Kassari want to take out Hesh now because they are so confident he was the one to throw votes. This plan 100% works for me. I think taking Hesh out before jury is a smart move. I'm not sure if original Ulemiste would be on board, but they have also lied to me in the past - so I am not too surprised by that.
Zach has no idea who voted him, and as far as I can see - no one thinks it could be me. So I decided to use this time when he is down and feeling out of it to strike a deal or alliance with him. I mention to him how I am happy he is still here, and that I don't want him going anytime soon. I have no idea if he believes it. If I were him I wouldn't trust me for a moment, but in the terms of the game I'm not sure if I'll be genuine with it - but I will pretend to be. I also made sure to word how I would look out for him moving forward so it's not like I am trying to say I did last time either. I'm starting to swim with the sharks right now.
Overall, I am not a fan of the Maardu people. They only talk game, and just scream disingenuous. Should be interesting to see what happens next. One more tribal until jury !

## Day 19

Also fucking thought I was done with pretending for looking for the idol together with Andreas, now he wants to test Kaz and how much of I fool was I to agree with him?? He made everyone in our OG Ulemiste tribe guess for the merge idol together by using the idol clue I won from the reward and conveniently placed Kaz in the D column because that's where the merge idol was.
For the last time, Nicholas needs to be blindsided for making me do all the effort for pretending to look for the merge idol.

Soo me and Andreas threw votes on Zach in case of an idol play. I didn't care for either Zach or angel to leave so it didn't matter to me at all. BUT IT WORKED PERFECTLY!! I blamed hesh for those 2 hinky votes to help my plan of blindsiding his ass. He's so cocky and arrogant towards hosts i can't stand him anymore.
Same for James today, wtf??????????? what crack are those str8s on... idk..
but if everythings is going to go well, Hesh will be gone tommorow. FINALLY!

Then, Nicholas decided to go on a rager and feel the need to win every single round and is now in the lead by like 10 points. He must feel in a lot of danger to be this committed to the challenge. And now since he basically has immunity he’s being a complete lunatic and demanding I tell him who I’m voting for and who my alliances are .... like hold on bud! These people have such terrible social games it’s rather sad!

## Day 20

And well I had a heart to heart talk with James because he was being weird and naughty with me last night, he was drunk and forgot everything he said. He scrolled up and saw what he said to me, felt bad and apologised to me several times. Moving forward, hopefully this doesn't affect our view of the game

Nadine... i just can’t find enough words to describe how much i luv her. i donut see myself voting her out. she’s definitely my nr 1.
Andreas i also luv him. i honeslty didn’t expect to bond with him the way i did. amazing partner in crime tbh
Maria - legend.. very busy with her brazilian org game but i luv her, however im so worried shes gonna strike herself out anytime :((
Karthik - my mans.. but im starting to get a bit wary of him. i spilled him some tea about kaz targetting me and him last round and he became pranoid to the point of wanting to confront ulemistes about it.. if anything it just makes me worried about sharing any information with him.
Felipe - okay still a king.. i think we drifted away a bit lately due to us being busy. we kept each other out of loop in those days but im def loyal to my kinglipe and will try to reconnect with him those days
Nicholas - okay he grew up on me a lot since the merge, but... he just cant chill for a second and has to play hard/overplay all the time for no reason. hes blindly obvious about his game too..
kaz - highkey angel 2.0 thats all lmao
zach - bad player
james - cracked str8
lex - who
hesh - cocky meninist who thinks is too good for this game. can't wait for his wake up call

Firstly, there has been a plan brewing to get Hesh out since he had his little episode during the immunity Challenge. Nadine, Maria, Szymon, Felipe, Nicholas, Karthik, and I are going to vote him out. The other 5 players plan on voting Felipe - which was completely Zach and Hesh's idea. So that's a thing - that I am not doing.
Nadine wanted to tell Kerem about the plan to vote Hesh but I'm really against that. Even just by speaking with Kerem I can tell he is not about that so I made the executive decision not to tell him.
Szymon created an alliance chat with himself, Nadine, and I which I think is a good idea ! They are my closest two allies in this game and I love it !! Such a good group.
Karthik proposed a final 2 to me, and while I'm not in love with the idea of it I agreed with it and went with it. He is for sure a powerful player in this game, so him wanting to be with me is for sure a benefit to my game.
Lastly, Nadine told me that almost everyone she has spoken with thinks I'm awesome - whether this is true or not it makes me feel really food ! I'd like to think I have been putting forth a good effort in this game and knowing it could be paying off is great. Also not having to search for the idol is so nice you don't even know !!!! Overall, I think I have set myself up to easily make top 9 - but I know this game is far from over as of now

The six of myself, Hesh, Lex, James, Karthik, and Szymon settled on calling ourselves the Sexy Six, just in time for it to be dismantled from the inside. Hesh is playing the best game right now, easily. He's got this alliance of six, he's got the love of just enough outsiders that if the alliance somehow flops he'd be good, he's scary. That's why I want him gone.
He upset a few people with his actions during the challenge, so a group of 7 has formed to take him out. Myself, Karthik, Felipe, Szymon, Nadine, Andreas, and Maria are (hopefully) all voting for Hesh. We debated if we wanted to include Kerem but none of us trust him whatsoever.
I am expecting to see 7 votes for Hesh, 4 votes for Kerem, but I have no idea what Kerem will be doing. Probably a 7-4-1 since he's close with Hesh and can't vote for himself.
The jury starting is exciting. I didn't have to play nice with Angel and Hesh, but I did anyway because it's good practice. I don't want to strongarm anyone, but if Hesh goes now I'd probably prefer to see Lex go as the first jury member? It's not concrete, I don't want to be just telling everyone what to do. If I'm seen as bossy or even just as a leader, I'm screwed. Day 20 is too early to be seen as a threat in any way.