1346/Late Night Outing

**Starlock has posed:**
     Late Night, Harmonex Ruins... Starlock was sat up on the defense barrier as she looked up at the dark night sky with the sea of stars above.. She had a specialized jacket over her frame, due to her own cooling systems and the cold weather around her, proving a bit of a issue in regards to her internal fluids freezing.. The Carbon snow that had fallen around the area definitely wasn't helping in regards to the temperature.

      She vented out a sight as her glowing purple optics looked out to the broken crystalin city before her... She looked down at her pedes and started humming softly.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid is following Starlock along, quietly watching her. He walks through the carbon snow, his feet crunching in the sand as he looks around the ruins. "Its peaceful like this. With the snow." almost too peaceful. Like a graveyard. But he doesnt say that bit aloud.

**Starlock has posed:**
     It is 100 percent a graveyard, Starlock even knows this, a frown on her face, she'd look back at Aid, thankfully the moon and starlight are reflecting off the snow, and crystals, allowing the area more light then what would have been on in a warmer weather night. "Yeah.. it is..." She was silent.. That was another thing, this place.. it was /dead silent/ which was eerie for this place, but it had also been dead for sometime now.

      They were alone here.. so Starlock had no worry about reaching her hand out for First Aids as she looked down at her pedes.. There was a much.. more somber look on her face tonight, like some sort of mask had shattered on the ground where she was looking.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid holds Starlock's hand, quietly. "I know. This must be hard for you to see." he whispers. "I can.. give you some time if you need it. Some peace." he stays close to her, trying to be her light and hope.

**Starlock has posed:**
     "It's okay.. I've seen it over a dozen times now.." She'd murmur softly, once she feels Aid's hand in hers, she instinctively leans against his pauldron. "....I don't want to be alone." She'd finally admits, with a saddened sigh. "Please I just... Don't want to be alone anymore." She'd say softly as she walked with him into the city, moon reflecting off the broken silenced crystals of the city.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid hugs Starlock close. "You never have to worry about being alone anymore." he says softly. "Im here. The Autobots are here. You will never. Never be alone anymore."

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock could feel her optics welling at his words, her face twitching into a frown as she wrapped an arm Around First Aid, nuzzling her face plate into his hug. "...I-I'm sorry.. I.." She'd take a vent, trying to collect her rattled thoughts, a lot of things where starting mentally unravel inside her.

      "...A..Are okay.. with me um.. voicing the thoughts in my head?" She'd ask softly.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid smiles. "Yes. Always. Tell me whats on your mind, Starlock. Im here." he holds her close. "Im always here for you. Whatever you need my sweetspark." did he just call her sweetspark?

**Starlock has posed:**
     First Aid Actually gets a smile from her at that, she keeps close to him... and is actually silent for a breem, as she collects her thoughts as they walk. "...I don't know why but..Despite everyone around me.. You, Sky Lynx, Ratchet, Swivel, Hoist, Nightlash, heck even Jazz... I just... I don't know.. Feel isolated all the time, cold and alone." she would frown. "..I don't know why.. " Well she didn't feel that now, fact was one of the few times she was feeling warmth with Aid around.

      "Does that make sense..?" She'd glance up at him. "...I'm tired too.. Not because of work but..." She'd spin her wrist in thought. "I don't know. .the feel of obligation to do what i do... If I don't fight to protect those under my care in the field, who will? If I don't stand up to those I do, who will? If I don't try to.. to fix the wrongs I see, who will?" She'd question before pinching her nose bridge.

      "...I'm having a breakdown, aren't I?" She'd sigh, trying to force back tears.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid pauses. "I hope not. But its ok if you are. Its easy to be alone even when in a group of people. I often feel that way too." he admits. "Its a big weight on your shoulders and if I can help in any way to help you caryr it let me know. I mean you're doing this for me its the least I can do to help right?" he wraps his hands around Starlock's . "We'll get through this. I swear. Together we can get through anything."

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock nods, resting against him, even closing her optics. "...Alright.. I.. Don't know how, but I will I'm not.." She'd frown. "I'm not.. used to having help." She'd admit at last. "Or.. talking, or doing all these things I've been doing despite it.." She'd sigh, and hugged Aid Tightly. "...Thank you.." She'd say softly.

      "...I think i've just been repressing alot of things." She'd murmur softly.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid frowns "Its not healthy to repress you know. You can tell me." he nuzzles her. "You can always tell me."

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock nods, keeping her forehead against his chassis, and takes a deep vent to calm herself. "Alright... I can do that.." She'd nodd again... Finally she looks up at Aid. "...I'm good at listening too if you need someone to talk to as well, I.." she'd frown. "I don't give the best advice, but I am a food rock." She'd smile weakly, given being a rock was what her problem was of late with internalizing all her problems.

      She'd motion Aid down to her slightly.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid nods "Im fine. My life isnt very complicated. I have my work. I have you." he syas. "Im happier then I've been in a long time." he says.

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock smiles and motions him down again. "...I'm happier now that I have you too.. it definitely helps in making some of these lonely feelings melt away..." she'd murmur softly, giving a quick glance around of where they where.. still the inner outlining of the city.. Moon light still seeping through the crystalin buildings and busted crystals themselves... A nice view of the central giant, but broke, skyscraper in view.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid nods "Me too. Im glad we're together." he says. "I wish... I had seen this city. It seems so beautiful. Even now." he holds her close still.

**Starlock has posed:**
     "I wish you'd seen it too.." She'd lean on him. "...And heard it.. The sound of the crystals.. its.. soo mournful now, now that they no longer sing." She'd say as she listened to the silence. "It's so quiet now... As before it wasn't ever silent, but never so loud that one couldn't sleep or be annoyed by it." she'd murmur.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid nods "I'd have loved to hear them. I was created in the middle of this war." he says. "I didn't know any of it before.." he shivers. "There was so much beauty."

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock is silent a moment in that thought, and.. she glances down one road... A road she knows well, despite it's snow covered, and damaged state. She could.. but if others found out... Wasi t even stable? She'd then look back up at him. "I wish you could of seen it too.. I think you'd loved it here." she'd smile softly.

      She looked back out at the crystals and buildings, and siliance, many thoughts where swirling in her head that she wanted to say, but.. None of them came out, instead, she started humming again, the tune growing as she goes along, eventually soft singing escapes her.

      "It's been one of those days..
      Too much, too much to say..
      Tears fall, tired of pain.
      Doesn't seem to leave me alone..
      I can't, seem to hold on.
      Too much, too much gone wrong.
      I try, try to be strong... There's more to me, more than I know...
      But if I'm being honest.
      There are some days I don't want to get off the berth...
      Happens more than I like to admit.
      but I know there's still life to be lived."

      She'd sing out softly, smiling some.. Even though the crystals are broken the sound still resonates of them, echoing through the broken city.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid listens. His optic band lights up brightly and theres even a little bit of coolant tears as he listens. He is totally enraptured by Starlock's singing, smitten "YOu are so beautiful. I love hearing you sing, and the crystals.. I could see how they..its so beautiful."

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock smiles some, chuckling even "Not just saying that because we're... " She'd not say it but gesture between them, there's a smile still on her face as she looks up at him and back out. "Yeah.. could always hear music from the singing crystals when this place was.. alive." That was the only way she knew how to explain it, the chrysalis silence very much signaled the death of Harmonex, in her mind, a bit of a symbolic death of the unity that once was there...

      "Even on the hard days, I'm not giving up..
      Even when there's no change, I'm not giving up.
      Even when I'm afraid, I'm not giving up.
      I still believe that hope survives.
      There's still more story left to write, so I'm not giving up.
      No, I'm not giving up.. I'm not going to give up."

      She'd continue on as she listened to the echos.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid pauses. "Im saying that beasue I htink it. Im saying it because I believe you sing wonderfully and its a wonderful place." He says softly. "I love you, Starlock. You are so much more then what you do for the war. You are my everything." he listens to her continue, just watching.

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock smiles softly once more up at him, there's a moment of hesitation as she has to force through her own fear to get the words out. "..I love you too Aid, thank you again.. Heh.. Sorry I dragged you out here so late at night, in the cold and snow because I was.." she'd didn't want to admit it, but one of her weaker moments.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid blinks "Dragged?" he says. "I came out here cause I wanted to be with you. This late, its beautiful an I am glad you shared it with me." he says. "And helping you through this? Its my pleasure. I want you to be happy, Starlock."

**Starlock has posed:**
     "I want you to be able, to be happy to." She'd nod, andi n that thought she glances up and leads Aid slightly by the hand into something of dancing spin and chuckle.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid smiles under his mask "Im always happy when Im with you." he spins and brings Starlock along with him, trying to dance. Hes not good at it. Not at all. But he chuckles. He's having a great time with the femme he loves.

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock chuckles and tries to show him some, but the carbon snow does make it a bit hard, making her slip some as well, but she just laughs and sighs out, having a much better time as well. Some cycles had past and it was getting much latter, Stalrock looks out at were the moon is and looks back to Aid with a smile. "...Some probably get back, getting colder, and late aint it?" She'd smile weakly.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid nods "Its late but I dont want to go. I dont care how cold it is. I want to spend more and more of our time like this. I wish we could forever you know." he says as he dances. "but we gotta be responsible."

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock grins at that, but nods when responsible is mentioned. "Yeah... would be nice though." She'd chuckle, once they come to a stop though, she'd smile and reach up, temporarily removing that mask of his, to kiss what was behind it. "Think that makes turning in for the night a bit more reasonable?~"

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid kisses her softly once his mask is removed "Just a little. I think I can be talked into it a bit more now." he chuckles, with a little blush.

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock grins once more as she gets the plate back into place. "On my lead then?" She'd question as she took his hand once more, walking around and slightly ahead of him as she looked up to him.

**First Aid has posed:**
First Aid bows and holds out his hand. "After you, my sweetspark." he says, enjoying the petname he gave her.

**Starlock has posed:**
     Starlock nods, leading the way back to the base, eventually having to let go, to transform, to lead back to Iacon.