Trying to embrace it all

> *I look around and think about all the times that you carried me*
> *Close my eyes and catch the wind up in our family tree*
> *Be blocking your eyes with my hands*
> *I'd be talking directions and you had to walk*
> *Exactly the way that I told you to walk*
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> *And you did it 'cause I was your son*
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> *I know exactly where I'm coming from*
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***trying to embrace it all*** is the second of two mixtapes created for Lizzie. It was released on May 1, 2016 on 8tracks. The playlist describes Lizzie's view on life and her feelings regarding her absent father and her roommate-turned-lover, Carson.

The first mixtape for Lizzie is ***you can't fall in love alone***, released on December 14, 2015.

## Track listing

1. "On Shoulders" - Chef'Special - *Passing Through* (2014) - 3:15
2. "Where'd You Go" (feat. Holly Brook & Jonah Matranga) - Fort Minor - *The Rising Tied* (2006) - 3:51
3. "Tell Me a Story" - Phillip Phillips - *The World from the Side of the Moon (Deluxe Version)* (2012) - 4:21
4. "In Your Arms" - Kina Grannis - *Stairwells* (2010) - 3:04
5. "So:Lo" - Kate Havnevik - *Melankton* (2007) - 3:04
6. "Loneliest Girl in the World" - Cary Brothers - *Who You Are* (2007) - 3:38
7. "Scratch" - Kendall Payne - *Grown* (2004) - 5:31
8. "Daughter" - Sleeping at Last - *Atlas: Life* (2015) - 4:04
9. "Love You Good" - Trent Dabbs & Amy Stroup - *Love You Good* (2011) - 3:36

## Lyrics & Meta

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[Intro]
In a land of hope
There's a river running low
In a land of hope
They know
They know

They know how this river flows

[Verse 1]
Cause it flows back into the days in times
Back into the fighting blind
Burning fire, crashing lightning
First steps on the story line
And the river don't flow for me, no
That river is cold to me
Wash away my traces back
All my tracks are gone

It takes a million years to find out where I'm coming from

[Chorus]
I know I don't know that much
I'm getting dumber by the year
Trying to embrace it all
Even now I'm so much older
Still feels like I'm on your shoulders
On your shoulders

[Verse 2]
Look around and think about all the times that you carried me
Close my eyes and catch your wind up in our family tree
Be blocking your eyes with my hands and I told you directions that you had to walk
Exactly the way that I told you to walk
And you did it cause I was your son

I know exactly where I'm coming from

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

No matter how high, no matter how high, no
No matter where I, no matter where I go
No matter how high, no matter how high, no
No matter where I go I know I'm always on your

[Chorus]

On your shoulders [Repeat x6]

Still feels like I'm on your shoulders
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Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone

[Verse 1: Mike Shinoda]
She said, "Some days, I feel like shit
Some days, I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along, but the trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me not to feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around the call
But when I pick up, I don't have much to say

[Pre-Chorus: Mike Shinoda]
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up
That I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here, singing "where'd you go?"

[Chorus: Skylar Grey & Jonah Matranga]
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home

[Verse 2: Mike Shinoda]
Come back home, you know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every Halloween
With candy by the pile, but now
You only stop by every once in a while
Shit, I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine, and I'm I planning to keep it that way
You can call me if you find you have something to say

[Pre-Chorus: Mike Shinoda]
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up
That I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here, singing "where'd you go?"

[Chorus: Skylar Grey & Jonah Matranga]
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home

[Bridge: Mike Shinoda]
I want you to know it's a little fucked up
That I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless
It seems one thing has been true, all along
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back, I won't be here and you can sing it

[Chorus: Skylar Grey & Jonah Matranga]
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home

[Outro: Mike Shinoda, Brad Delson, & Jay-Z]
When you made me that initial batch of songs
I was like, that's the shit, right there
Alright!]

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Another phase in this world that brings death to life
So don’t believe in everything you see

Because what you want might not be what you need
Hold your breath, jump with me and we’ll survive
Cause you are the sun that leads me to the light

Hope is just a ray of what everyone should see
Alone is the street where you found me
Scared of what’s behind you
Scared of what’s in front
Live with what you have now and make the best of what’s to come

Tell me a story long and true
We aren’t what we say
We are what we do
Just pieces of a puzzle to find where we stand
Just confused
So you are the moon that pulls me through the night

Hope is just a ray of what everyone should see
Alone is the street where you found me
Scared of what’s behind you
Scared of what’s in front
Live with what you have now and make the best of what’s to come

So you are the sun that leads me
You are the moon that pulls me

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Where it first started
Cool night, us lying in the dark
I felt my heart
Was trying to find the place for you to stay
A place where I feel safe

[Chorus]
Anything we have known, anything we've forgotten
In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay
Anything we have known, anything we've forgotten
In the rain, in the dark we'll lay
In your arms, in your arms I'll stay

[Verse 2]
Take my hand
Let's go into the trees
Behind the branches
Falling on our knees
I remember feeling like this part of us will never change

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Follow me
We both know the way
It's always been the same

[Chorus]

[Outro]
In your arms I'll stay [x4]

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There's nothing wrong
Just needed to talk
I hoped you would answer this time

'Cause I'm so:lo
Everyone's speeding
But I'm still going slow
And I'm so:lo
Everyone glows
I see love affairs
Everywhere
But no one will do
But you

If we could speak
We could have a good row
Which of course I'd win
What I mean is I'm missing you now
This freedom is wasted on me

'Cause I'm so:lo
Everyone's speeding
But I'm still going slow
And I'm so:lo
Everyone glows
I see love affairs
Everywhere
But no one will do
But you

'Cause I'm so:lo
Everyone's speeding
But I'm still going slow
And I'm so:lo
Everyone glows
I see love affairs
Everywhere
But no one will do
But you

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You are the loneliest girl in the world
And tonight you'd fall for anyone

It's in the wall you fall down to bed
It's in the way you cry when he's not looking

You are the loneliest girl in the world
I'll watch you die a thousand times again
You are the loneliest girl in the world
And I just want to make it go away
And I just want to make it go away

```

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And everyday I wish I was small
I've been counting on nothing
But he keeps giving me his word
And I am tired of hearing myself speak
Do you ever get weary?
Do you ever get weak?
How do you dream
When you can't fall asleep?

I've been wondering what you're thinking
And if you like my dress tonight?
Would you still say you love me
Under this ordinary moonlight?
I'm so afraid of what you'll say.

I'd like to know if you'd be open
To starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To giving me a second chance

I used to think I was special
And only I have proved me wrong
I thought I could change
The world with a song
But I have ended up in India
With no lamp to guide me home.
The strangest place I think
I have ever been
And all this time
I thought that we were friends
My stubborn will is learning to bend.

I'd like to know if you'd be open
To starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To giving me a second chance
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To giving me a second chance

It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things

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The weight of the world’s a little lighter
The stars lean in a little closer
All because of you

I want to see
You lift your chin a little higher
Open your eyes a little wider
Speak your mind a little louder
’Cause you are royalty

This is your kingdom
This is your crown
This is your story
This is your moment
Don’t look down

You’re ready, born ready
And all you gotta do
Is put one foot in front of you
Our ceiling is your floor
And all you gotta do
Is put one foot in front of you
If only you knew

If only you knew
The forests grew a little greener
The roots reach in little deeper
The birds all sing a little sweeter
All to welcome you

I want to see
Your happily ever after
That you know in your heart that you matter
That you are royalty

This is your kingdom
This is your crown
This is your story
This is your moment
Don’t look down

You’re ready, born ready
And all you gotta do
Is put one foot in front of you.
Our ceiling is your floor
And all you gotta do
Is put one foot in front of you.

You’re ready, born ready
And all you gotta do
Is put one foot in front of you.
Our ceiling is your floor
And all you gotta do
Is put one foot in front of you.
If only you knew

This is your kingdom,
This is your crown,
This is your story.
This is your moment,
Don’t look down.

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One look
And then my heart was through
My lines
Were they worth your time?

It’s not as hard as I know you make it
Love you good
Tell me where to start I’m dying
Love you good
I know it takes a while to find it
Love you good

Yes I do believe that if everything that we need is here
Then tell me how to love you good

Sidelines
We’ve waited our whole life
To find
A love that feels this right
Make room
Don’t waste your time with doubts

It’s not as hard as I know we make it
Love you good
Tell me where to start I’m dying
Love you good
I know it takes a while to find it
Love you good

Yes I do believe that if everything that we need is here
Then tell me how to love you good

Well everything,
It feels so new, so new
Love you good
Tell me where to start I’m dying
Love you good
I know it takes a while to find it
Love you good

Yes I do believe that if everything that we need is here
Then tell me how to love you good

```