C!sam

C!Sam (known as Spam to differentiate) is a devoted member of the Foot religion, and grew up as a clown in a circus. He always wears face paint and circus clothes, and he has dyed green hair. Spam is an extremely unstable person, and can be quite rash, but he is also very sensitive and naïve.

### Backstory Summary

As a very young child, Spam's home village suffered a bad fate leaving it destroyed and abandoned, however Spam was still left there all by himself. He was all alone and barely survived, but a travelling circus (which was essentially a cult in itself and took advantage of young kids) took him in and raised him, and so that became his whole life.

He owed the circus his life, and grew extremely dependant and attached to them, desperate for their approval and to be useful to them. He did labour around the circus, along with learning tricks to be able to perform. The conditions in the place were bad, and he was not cared for but this didn't matter to him - he needed them, he needed to be useful to them and that was all that mattered. This was all he had, and so he clung to the people who looked over him.

Nobody properly cared about him there, or even liked him really. But if someone showed any kind of affection towards him, he would cling to them like glue and be willing to do anything for them. And so, he grew up like this and his mental state got worse and worse as his needs were neglected.

There was a certain higher-up that he was very attached to, that he trusted and wanted to be useful to. That trust was betrayed. Things only got worse for spam at the circus and the abuse broke him. He hated everything, but most of all he hated himself due to the manipulation of the only people he had in his life. He felt awful, and things only got worse in his mind with frequent delusions and hallucinations.

More things happened as he grew up there and it led up to his escape. While the circus did a good job of breaking down his mind to be shapeable, he was also full of rage and pain and the delusions of his mind only got worse.

He had many bad memories that would go through his mind, bad feelings that lingered and would not leave him alone. he wanted them to stop, he wanted the cause of it to suffer. And so he decided it; he would burn down the circus and leave it all behind. In his mania he set it alight and felt an overwhelming sense of new freedom. But of course, he'd never be free. Everything from there was now a part of him, and that wouldn't leave.

He left the place behind. He was extremely unstable at this time and his mind wasn't functioning properly, all he knew was that he had to get out of there. His treatment at the circus was bad but he reminisces on it as good, and still holds it in his heart. it's a part of him, and it was all he had. And now, it was gone forever, along with the memories of what happened to him.

Due to how susceptible he is to that kind of thing he was easily indoctrinated into the new cult. Like before, he became very attached to it and his delusions fuelled him, making him believe he is an important holy saviour. The kind of delusions he had already had, the ones that made him feel like a god.

All the pain he had suffered, it made him holy, it made him important.

### Gallery of Spam images

Spam's phases in gacha 1Spam phases in gacha 2Spam minecraft avatarSpam wielding a mallet drawn by Charlie in the Omori stylePossessed Spam by AronSpam portrait by CharlieSpam wielding his mallet by AronSpam art by AronSpam art by AronSpam art by AronSpam and Ruby art by AronSpam art by AronSpam and Mort art by AronSpam, Mort and James minecraft skinsSpam art by CharlieSpam art by AronSpam in the circus, gachaSpam art by Aron