Letters To Rigani

## Leoven to Rigani (18th Leontes 536)

> ***Dear Rigani,***
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> I must begin by saying that I apologise on behalf of us all that no one has replied to your parting message sooner, but I would be a fool to think we have had enough time for such luxuries. There are so many things I need to tell you. Though, where do I begin?
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> I suppose I should keep things brief (whilst trying my best to spare the vulgarities). Essentially: you left and everything went to shit. One could describe it as a lack of a moral compass; I would describe it as your absence leaving us with a total of three brain cells at any given time. … Maybe that is too harsh…? I give Khantos less credit than he is due. But I would mark it as an apt description for the rest of us. I have led soldiers on a battlefield before, but this eccentric group is far beyond my grasp at the moment. It does not help that they hold no trust in me right now. I have wrapped myself up in something I cannot control, something that puts the rest of the party at risk if I do not comply, and… I am scared. I’m not sure why. *It shouldn’t scare me*.
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> You seem like the best person to ask for advice without having me give you every detail. Putting exactly what difficulties I face into words might put me and the others at risk, so all I seek to understand is how I can gain their trust again? I find myself missing you greatly. Your guidance and your heart would likely solve our in-fighting. However, your own matters must take precedence. I hope you and your family are well, and that your son — Vassillious—does not grow up to idolise us too much.
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> Regardless of circumstance, I shall endeavour to write to you as often as I can. If you do not mind, of course. I find writing to you to be a great comfort.
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> Your servant,
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> ***Leoven***
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## Rigani to Leoven (4th Akamentes 536)

> ***Dearest Leoven,***
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> I return the apologies for the late reply. I too have been held up, a plague has struck down my neighbours and I've been tasked with helping them whilst simultaneously protecting my child who's immune system cannot handle just a fateful illness. I hate the idea that I was 'the glue' to keep everyone in line.
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> You are all incredible adventures and opened my eyes to what the outside world is. You have to remember that everyone has there own reasons for doing things. People's moral compasses point North at different things, something me and my husband have found out after all these years. I'm glad you've found solace in Khantos. He was always a kind Triton. I've met many a bad one so you can take my word for it! The group aren't soldiers and you have to remember this. Their ideals and training is different to yours. They are less regimented and more chaotic but that's not necessarily a bad thing!
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> Fear is also not a bad thing. It keeps us safe and protects those around us. Do you believe I really wasn't scared whilst I stole a cure that saved my son's life? I don't know if I ever told you this but that's the reason I left my home and my life. I was banished for thievery. But I would do it again in a heartbeat for those I love and I think you would too. You love hard and widely and it really is one of your best qualities. They might not trust you but as long as you trust yourself that is all that matters and I know that you have made the right decision.
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> Trust is something you'll have to gain overtime. Try to open up to them about your past and your insecurities, I'm sure you share many experiences with our friends and if they can relate to you it will help you to become closer. I miss you greatly also. My life is mundane compared to life travelling. I miss our adventures and the feeling of greatness I felt when I was with you all. I can assure you my son idolises that you made his mother elated for a short period of time and the rest he remains ignorant to. I'm sure much has changed since you wrote last so I look forward to your response and hope I have been some form of help.
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> My love, always,
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> ***Rigani***
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