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Are You Happy Now

**Genre**

"Are You Happy Now" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying* as a double-track with "My New Legs. It was remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

"My New Legs" and "Are You Happy Now" were originally written separately. Near the end of recording for the album, Thorn realized that she had not included "Are You Happy Now" anywhere in the tracklisting. She noticed that it and "My New Legs" were written with the same tempo, so she simply combined the two. The instrumental bridge was added to transition from "My New Legs" to "Are You Happy Now". They were made separate tracks for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* but were kept next to each other.

## About

"Are You Happy Now" is written as a shot against musicians who write songs about the desire to become famous, and about famous musicians who complain about their fame. Additional shots are made towards bogus celebrity marriages and Dave Grohl bragging about recording albums in a basement and a garage, despite both albums being recorded with top-line studio equipment anyway.

## Lyrics

Point your ass at the cameraman and say

Some ignorant opinion of the world today

Why do you pine for fame and fortune

When you get a lot more than that

Your tears are a farce

Rock out loud in your giant Hollywood home

It escapes me why no one wants to leave you alone

There's nothing remotely interesting about you

But we must know about your cat

Are you happy now

You got what you wanted

You are not allowed to cry

Are you happy now

You are rich and famous

And sought by the cameraguy

You know I love you but you missed the important part

You put the heart back in rock but you've got the funding for your art

How's a poor kid gonna give his basement or garage

Half the tech that you got in yours

You're seeing too close

Everyone gets dropped

A side glance once in their lives

Take the cheap way up

Or work it out

Or play it out

Or burn it out

Then burn it out

And burn it out

Burn it

Are you happy now

You got what you wanted

And you didn't have to try

Are you happy now

Everyone is watching

Counting down until you die

Oh how you dreamed of being a rockstar

You wrote a song and everything

You worked your ass off to be a movie star

Hey what's that piece of shit you call a wedding ring

The whole thing's missing

A toilet metaphor

If only it were easy

To piss it all away

When everybody's watching
Miles Away

**Genre**

"Miles Away" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn, recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It is an outtake from her fifth album, *Rise in Love*, though its instrumental demo appeared on the *Rise in Love instrumentals* EP and as a bonus track on the album. It is set to be rewritten for a later album.

## About

The song is currently being written and recorded. It was originally going to be between "Bloodstar" and "The Singer Died Today" on *Rise in Love*, hence its placement between them on the instrumental EP.
Electricity (ThornBrain song)

**Genre**

"Electricity" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her fourth album, *Worldbuilder*.

## About

The song is a Progressive Shoegaze track describing the main character's euphoria as she explores the world that she created for herself. Writing and planning for the song began in 2012 with Thorn recording the synth voice arpeggio on a MicroKorg, but she wouldn't find a use for the recording for six years. She also took inspiration from her friend Tiana's description of the effect changing weather had on her body, saying it felt like electricity, though this would be changed when Thorn began recording for *Worldbuilder*; the lyric "The weather brings/Electricity" remained in the song.

The song was heavily inspired by Yes's 1974 album *Relayer*, which had a strong Jazz Fusion influence. Thorn's friend Patrick described the song as a Punk version of "Gates of Delirium", though Thorn took more influence from the following track "Sound Chaser".

## Lyrics

The morning brings

Electricity

The weather brings

Electricity

With the promise

Of possibility

Worldbuilding

I can make the air

I've always ached to breathe

With all I need

Electricity

They're walking with me

Electricity

Throw the sword to me

Catch the lightning with me

The journey brings

Electricity

Euphoric me

Electricity
Neuropia

**Genre**

"Neuropia" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies* as well as the free *Quaero* compilation. It was remastered along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020, though it was one of the few songs that Thorn felt no need to remix.

## About

The song describes a paranoia-laced suburb, inspired by Thorn's many walks through her neighborhood and surrounding blocks. The title is a portmanteau of "Zooropa" by U2, itself a play on "Europa", and the word "neurotic"; the first verse was written for a canned song titled "Do the Neurotic", which would turn Thorn's various quirks and ticks into a parody of a dance craze.

The song has roots in an old intro idea Thorn planned for *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*; the initial recording for this serves as the voice in the intro and outro. Much of the funk sections are inspired by Talking Heads, and the drums are lifted from "Breathe Deep" by Cabaret Voltaire. The bass is actually a Stratocaster, as Thorn was unable to record her bass guitar at the time. The nonsense chorus of "All these have to let me in/Let's kill 'em" came from playing one of Thorn's earlier songs backwards and deciding what the lyrics were now saying, a'la "On Earth My Nina" by They Might Be Giants.

## Lyrics

At some point

We've probably all thought the same thing

Let's think about it now

Did you hear that

Car passing in sight

Clench your hand in time

Grind your teeth to the kick to the snare to the beat

Sounds like the thought of the skull of a skeleton

Being used as a stool

Someone out there thinks he's

Multiple gods at once

All these have to let me in

Let's kill 'em

All these have to let me in

Let's kill 'em

There was a thunderstorm the day you were born

And it missed you by a mile

Your house so often flooded

It moved on its own for several yards

Breath and heartbeat never aligned

Your legs stepped of their own meter

And now your favorite little sister

Can't move an inch

All these have to let me in

Let's kill 'em

All these have to let me in

Let's kill 'em

Clench your hand

Everytime a car passes by

Grind your teeth

To the kick to the snare to the beat

Most of the neighborhood

Sits alone in their cars

Staring forward perfectly still

Facing you parked on your lawn

While two doors over

Your neighbor sits with his front door open

Waiting for the ones he distrusts to take the bait

His first kill was only checking that he was okay

All these have to let me in

Let's kill 'em

All these have to let me in

Let's kill 'em

Clench your hand

Everytime a car passes by

Grind your teeth

To the kick to the snare to the beat

The father stands between

The daughter and the predator

A red-eyed girl with crystal hair

She said if I had my way

You'd be strung up high by these eyes

The daughter wouldn't doubt they'd make her fly

They all saw the sunset

Or maybe the world burst into flames

Did you hear that
Antioxidant

**Genre**

"Antioxidant" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying* and later remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* with some additional vocal re-recordings.

## About

The song is about "treating people like shit", written about three different, unnamed relationships in Thorn's life. The first is about her doomed friendship with DFatman, the second about her friendship with Mugiwara Yoshi and the latter's high school-era bitterness and antisocialness, and the third about her altercations with a fellow abridger who seemed to insist on spending time with people he disliked.

The title was chosen specifically to be for a song with nothing to do with the title.

## Lyrics

Didn't know each other long

And goes to tell

As far as doomed to fail goes

It did not go well

Two figures in their masks

And over time

Your face came out of yours

Should I have left on mine

Have to hate the way I

Am when I think about it

I shouldn't think about it

Should I

We're bound by bitterness and

Manic cheers

Blind hate while wondering

What you'll do in a few years

Some day the time came for your

Thoughts to fair

Nobody's was but I

Still can't stand you there

Want to punch you in the

Face when I think about it

I shouldn't think about it

Should I

Stop me wishing

To go back in the marsh

Things are better

How they've laid out so far

It's up to you how you spend your time

So it's your call

But why do you insist to waste it

When you clearly hate them all

Someone had to say it

Guess something got through

And with the steady change

Maybe I'll forget you too

Now the seeds are planted

Now I've finally had it

It's time I made you think

So should I

Should I

Should I

Should I
My Hyde

**Genre**

"My Hyde" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*. It was remastered along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020, though it was one of the few songs that Thorn felt no need to remix.

## About

The song is a speedy punk rock track that attempts to refresh the clichéd metaphor of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde by using Hyde to refer to depression and suicidal thoughts. The song was inspired by the then-recent suicides of celebrities with lifelong depression and bipolar disorder such as Robin Williams, Chester Bennington and Chris Cornell, and by the knee-jerk reaction of others to call them "cowards" for committing suicide. Thorn opted to combat this thought by personifying suicidal depression as a murderer who haunts a single victim's mind for decades, and the only way to get rid of him for good is your death.

## Lyrics

My Hyde is not yet a murderer

Still working on his first victim

My Hyde is a talkative method killer

But won't tell me how he picked 'em

My Hyde uses my voice

My Hyde uses my eyes

My Hyde will take you out

With decades of his lies

A potion in my head brought him out

A potion in my hand made him louder

Cut off my Hyde

He's making way too much noise

He's taking up too much space

Whenever I hope the best

The best will soon efface

His knife is a tempting offer

And so is to change our place

My Hyde will shut them down

And leave with my disgrace

A potion in my head brought him out

A potion in my hand made him louder

Tear off my Hyde

My Hyde has a double agent
Working from the outside

Their innocent words pull him back out

No matter how hard I tried

They say I hold the power

They say I never try

They almost have a point

He'll go out with me when I die

A potion in my head brought him out

A potion in my hand made him louder

Rip off my Hyde

I said tear off my
Headcase

**Genre**

"Headcase" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It appeared on the promotional *Spider* compilation as an outtake from *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*. It was later re-recorded and mashed up with "My Parents Died and Everyone Loves Me" for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* compilation.

## About

The song was originally written in September 2009 with a Velvet Underground-inspired musical style. No demos or audio ideas were recorded until planning for *Nobody Cares...*, during which the song was changed to a fast Punk Rock style. The lyrics were unaltered, and they are nonsense pun jokes. The verse about concrete hands breaking guitar strings is a reference to Elvis Costello, who was called "The Little Hands of Concrete" by producer Nick Lowe after breaking some guitar strings while recording his first album.

## Lyrics

I'm in love with a china set

When she gets on my back

I threaten to break it up

I laugh at my joke

She walks out the door

I think I deserve it

I'm in love with my guitar strings

Soft little whack and I can make her sing

But my concrete hands

Make no one laugh

Lost another

Split in half

I'm in love with a plastic bag

Insert suffocation joke

I'm such a headcase I don't even choke

Headcase, headcase

Headcase, headcase

Headcase, headcase, headcase

I CAN'T BREATHE
Geizhals

*Geizhals* is a shelved album by ThornBrain. It was to be the first full-length album written entirely by Thorn and the first album to be sold, but Thorn officially canceled the album in July 2013. She instead started working on *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*. Musically the album was to be darker and heavier, featuring improved production, songwriting and singing from *BlackholeWhitespace*. A lack of motivation led to the project ending prematurely, and Thorn returned to recording with a more straightforward, Punk-inspired mindset for a separate album.

Similar to how *BhWs* followed a theme of paranoia, *Geizhals* would follow various concepts of perception, be it the alteration thereof or offering contrarian points of view (for example, "Spider" mocks Arachnophobia by offering spiders as a metaphor for an unnoticed but more suitable lover than insects and dogs). "Spider" was the only song recorded before the album was canned; the final, full-length version of it was included on the *Spider* compilation, and it was also included as a hidden track on *Nobody Cares...*. A handful of other songs intended for *Geizhals* later appeared on *Nobody Cares...*.

## Title

"Geizhals" is a German slang term for a greedy miser; it translates literally into "skinflint", and is used similarly to how "redneck" and "chav" are used in English as slang for a type of person.
Tribute to a Better Song

**Genre**

"Tribute to a Better Song" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was originally planned for her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*, but she decided it wasn't good enough, instead including it as an outtake on the free *Quaero* compilation.

## About

The song is about writer's block and Thorn's tendency towards writing surreal nonsense lyrics. It began as a soft, short, a'capella song titled "Working Bibliography" that was inspired by "Your Dictionary" by XTC; the lyrics were eventually recycled into this song's chorus.

The song is the origin of the bass synth riff that was eventually recycled for fellow outtake "Judas in the Garden of Eden" and finally the album track "As Gods as Demons". The lyric "Don't be afraid/Don't fear the new song" was recycled into "Abbott is Death Process", itself a quote from Johnny Marr introducing a new song of his during a concert that Thorn attended in 2016.

## Lyrics

I don't know what I'm writing

This ain't a voice I speak

It's a language I read

I don't know what I'm writing

What to do with myself

Try again in reverse

I don't know what I'm writing

That's not the part that matters

When it comes together

I don't know what I'm writing

Pulling parts of me out

That I don't recognize

Please send me

Inspiration

Of all I've heard of all I've known

Please send me

Inspiration

I haven't written one word of my own

I don't know what I'm writing

It's the art from beyond

It's the art form spin

I don't know what I'm writing

It's the art from beyond

It's the art from skin

I don't know what I'm writing

It's not instinct

We're aware of what we're lacking

I don't know what I'm writing

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song

Please send me

Inspiration

Of all I've heard of all I've known

Please send me

Inspiration

I haven't written one word of my own

What to do with myself

What do I do with my head now

What to do next

What do I do with my low brow

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song
Micronova

**Genre**

"Micronova" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released as the opening track on her fourth album, *Worldbuilder*. The acoustic demo is included on BandCamp purchases of the album as a bonus track.

## About

The song is a melodic, uptempo Dream Rock/Shoegaze track that serves as the mission statement for the album. It introduces the "micronova", a force of energy that brings the album's main character to a new, empty dimension that she can shape to her will, but notes that the micronova itself has no mind and makes no judgements.

The song was initially inspired by Thorn's faded memory of the song "Autodidact" by Swervedriver, hence the word "micronova" having a similar rhythm to "autodidact". The lead guitar line is played on a distorted baritone acoustic-electric.

## Lyrics

No one knows what it is

Or the cause

No one's sure why it comes

Or what it does

But the lonely girl can tell

She's not where she was

The micronova

Has called you out

Of the normal

To bring about

More to wonder

More to find

The micronova

Is in your mind

And your mind is all that you will

See in there

The micronova

Can't tell what's right

Both anger and imagination

Bring new sight

A body and a brain are both

Alight

The micronova

Has called you out

Of the normal

To bring about

More to wonder

More to find

The micronova

Is in your mind

And your mind spilled out to a new plane

Out here

In time

All you want

Is all you'll see

Here the song

That you hear

Is in the style

Of your wile

All the worlds you loved before

Bring any part

Endless black turns to green and blue

That's just the start

The micronova

Has called you out

Of the normal

To bring about

More to wonder

More to find

The micronova

Maybe a dream

Maybe reality

Or maybe both agleam
The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)

*The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)* is a compilation of original material by ThornBrain from 2009-2013 that was re-recorded, remixed, and/or remastered in 2020 to better match Thorn's standards for her music and to fix mistakes in the original recordings. The album includes almost the entirety of *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*, selections from *BlackholeWhitespace*, re-recordings of outtakes from *Spider*, and *The Right Way to do Everything* EP expanded to include B-sides from the "Lost Effort" single.

The album art is a closeup of Francesca DiNanno's cover art for *Nobody Cares...* with the vase cut out, showing Thorn's cover art for *BlackholeWhitespace* underneath.

Streaming and downloading services subtitle tracks 1-22 with "...(2020 mix)" and tracks 23-30 with "...(Remastered)", but they are excluded for the purposes of this page.

A sequel of sorts, *The Forgotten Ones 2 (The Free Music, 2009-2021)*, was released in 2021. It gathers all of the free music Thorn released from 2009-2021 in their original forms, including songs remixed and re-released on this compilation.

## Tracklisting

Tracks 1-22 from *Nobody Cares...* except \* from *BlackholeWhitespace*, \*\* from *Spider*.
Tracks 23-30 from *The Right Way to do Everything* except \*\*\* from the "Lost Effort" single.
All tracks written by Mikaela Thorn.

1. "Let's Make a Martyr"
2. "What a Way to Go"
3. "Get Out of the House"
4. "Count All the Flies in My House" \*
5. "Tell Us if You've Seen This Guy Before" \*
6. "Headcase" (mashup with "My Parents Died and Everyone Loves Me") \*\*
7. "My New Legs"
8. "Are You Happy Now"
9. "Hang On, I Got This"
10. "An O in Hell" \*\*
11. "Antioxidant"
12. "Don't Hear Me"
13. "I'm Your Victim"
14. "Edged Out"
15. "A More Traditional Love Song"
16. "All the Wrong Friends"
17. "The Forgotten One (ft. Tiana Camacho)" \*
18. "I Forgot to Tell Them the Bridge is Out"
19. "Shake"
20. "Tribalism"
21. "There for Me"
22. "Spider" \*\*
23. "No One"
24. "Echo to Canal Street"
25. "Knock Gabriel Knock"
26. "I Feel Fantastic"
27. "Lost Effort"
28. "No Effort" \*\*\*
29. "The Flint Robot has a Perfect Day (ft. Dan Flintham)" \*\*\*
30. "Needs Me"
Sky

**Sky:**est le fils d'Adrien et d'Ayla. Elle le met au monde dans une petite chambre en tant que servante de Layla,il né avec son jumeaux Prince,Ayla le nomme Sky en l'honneur de Skyle.

## Histoire:

Ayla qui se sait enceinte décide de lcacher à Livi la verité . Elle les mets au monde dans sa petite chambre et en voyant la couleur des cheveux de Sky ,elle repense alors à Skyle et décide de lui donner la moitié du prénom de son frère pensant que cella lui porterait chance. Alors qu'il joue dehors avec son frère Prince et Phebus . Phebus s'éloignent d'eux et se fait mordre par un serpent . Malgré la lutte inespéré d'Ayla le petit meurt dans la nuit. Prince prend alors froid et décède aussi , Ayla le couve alors effrayé ,mais alors qu'elle s'occupe de nettoyer la chambre de Livi ,celle ci se rend dans la chambre d'Ayla et blesse le petit. Ayla le sauve et le soigne

## Famille

### Frères

Akira,Skyle,Meyren,Atlanta (m),Kyô,Phebus,Sasha,Mario,Marvin,Gaël,Prince
Abbott is Death Process

**Genre**

"Neuropia" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*, and the isolated, icy guitar intro was included on the free *Quaero* compilation as "Sad Crystal Waves". The song was remastered along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020, though it was one of the few songs that Thorn felt no need to remix.

## About

The song is a shoegaze epic about welcoming new ideas and giving power to those without, particularly people of color and LGBTQ+ people. The second verse was inspired by "I Let Love In" by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, though Thorn misheard part of the song- the lyrics are "...Love was shrewd and bold", whereas Thorn heard "Love was shriveled and bald". Thorn liked the idea of Despair being more appealing on the surface than Love, and so Despair is welcomed in when one meant to let in Love.

The icy guitar intro was recorded years prior during Thorn's dry spell, tentatively titled "Sad Crystal Waves" after the "crystal waves" Guitar Rig preset Thorn used for it. The length of the song was Thorn's conscious attempt to write a long track and keep it interesting all the way through; near the end of recording for the album, she thought that she'd failed and that the song should be an outtake, until she tried reusing the keyboard melody from "Quaero". This "finished" the song to her satisfaction.

The song also shares the line "Don't be afraid/Don't fear the new song" with album outtake "Tribute to a Better Song"; the line is a quote from Johnny Marr introducing a new song of his during a concert that Thorn attended in 2016.

## Lyrics

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song

Step back from ourselves

Let someone else move on

Our blind world's too small

A wider world's strong

Hear these new colors

Words we can't speak

Help them grow stronger

Doesn't make us weak

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song

The first one to say

That love is blind

Said it with face in hands

And a heavy sigh

Despair is golden, blue-eyed

Love is shriveled and bald

Despair is welcomed in

When it was love you called

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song

Don't be afraid

Don't fear the new song
The Flint Robot

The Flint Robot was a short-lived Avant-Garde musical collaboration between ThornBrain and her friend Madcapoperator from 2009-2010. Thorn's intent with the project was to make sample-based Electronic music using various recordings from MCO and samples she collected from artists like Peter Gabriel and Cabaret Voltaire. Only four tracks were put together before the project fizzled out, one of which was later included as a B-side on the "Lost Effort" single.

The four tracks received a proper release in 2021 on the compilation *The Forgotten Ones 2 (The Free Music, 2009-2021)* as *The Flint Robot* EP.

## Songs

* "Stardom"
* "Talentless Hack"
* "The Flint Robot has a Perfect Day"
* "It Comes Screaming Back"
The Flint Robot has a Perfect Day

"The Flint Robot has a Perfect Day" is a song by Mikaela Thorn and Dan Flintham released under the project title The Flint Robot. It was originally uploaded to YouTube as a surprise for Dan, and it was later remixed and released as a b-side for the "Lost Effort" single. The remix was re-released on *ThornBrain is Really Bad at This - The Best of the Worst (2009 - 2011)* and remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*. Both the original version and the unmastered remix were included on *The Forgotten Ones 2*.

## About

Dan's guitar and vocals were originally recorded in August 2009 following Thorn's writing of the lyrics for her first song, "They Call Me Person Man", (which would later be rewritten as "Tell Us if You've Seen This Guy Before"). His parts were mainly bits and pieces Thorn could use if she ever found a use for them in her music. Eventually Thorn put together a two-piece rhythm track composed of a microphone pop run through a tremolo and a small piece of Skype static. She then added Dan's vocals (a Morrissey/Ian Curtis-inspired reading of the previously-mentioned lyrics) and a piece of his distorted, ringing guitar to the mix. Originally the track contained a sampled keyboard note from Peter Gabriel's "Not One of Us", but this was replaced with a note taken from a recording of Dan playing with a Moog iPhone app for the single release.
Ominous Storytelling in the Back

**Genre**

"Ominous Storytelling in the Back" is a short, instrumental jam session by Mikaela Thorn with high school friend Justin Beall. It was recorded on July 20, 2009, but it was never formally released or uploaded anywhere until Thorn included it on the 2021 compilation *The Forgotten Ones 2 (The Free Music, 2009-2021)* as part of the *BlackholeWhitespace*-era extras.
Angel Lungs

**Genre**

"Angel Lungs" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*. It was slightly remixed along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020.

## About

The song is a slower, bluesy, sludge rock track built around the classic Heavy Metal diminished fifth tritone and inspired by The Melvins. The lyrics started as surreal free-association, but as Thorn got further into writing the song, it became a conduit for leftover post-breakup frustration. The line "Be a mankind of mystery boy" is based on Thorn mishearing the first line from "Neat Neat Neat" by The Damned, "Be a man, can a mystery man".

The song was one of Thorn's least favorites from the album, though she was much happier with it after remixing it in 2020.

## Lyrics

Can you come over

I haven't had a friend in two days

When you were over

My neighbor's house walked away

Angel lungs

Angel lungs

I was the last thing to go right for you

Can I have my closure

Don't put your hand in the way

Hand me back over

Promises you hoped not to stay

Angel lungs

Angel lungs

I was the last thing to go right for you

Hello get out

You burnt your mouth

You broke a bottle

Across the audience

Hello be a mankind of mystery boy

Thank me you're finally

Making more sense

At what age did we turn young

Two years and our worst fears had died

Once you are done taking my time

Hit the ceiling from the opposite side

Angel lungs

Angel lungs

I was the last thing to go right for you
Safe

**Genre**

"Safe" is an outtake from ThornBrain's fifth album, *Rise in Love*, though its instrumental demo appeared as a bonus track on the album.

The guitar was recycled for a new song with the Agitation Trips collective, also titled "Safe". This version was written and performed by Patrick S. Barry, Christopher G. Brown, Clint Degan, Johnny Jimenez, Lillian Edith Martin, Abram Taber, Rich Taber, and Mikaela Thorn.

## About

The original demo was written as a potential mid-album transition between "Bloodstar" and "Supermoon". Thorn didn't think there was enough there to keep it on the album, so she scrapped it and made "Disassociation" as a better middle track.

She offered up the guitar track to the Agitation Trips collective as the baseline for an April 2021 single, which maintained the title "Safe" while being more spearheaded by Rich Taber. The song was released April 1st, with proceeds going to Planned Parenthood.

### Agitation Trips credits

Lyrics by R. Taber

Music by by Barry/Brown/Degan/Jimenez/Martin/A. Taber/R. Taber/Thorn

Mixed by Christopher G. Brown

Patrick S. Barry - Casio DG20 Guitar, auxiliary percussion

Christopher G. Brown - Ebow

Clint Degan - Vocals, Guitar

Johnny Jimenez - Drum programming

Lillian Edith Martin - Bass, Backing Vocals

Abram Taber - Vocals, Roland RS-09

Rich Taber - MIDI Keyboard (Elec. Piano, Organ, Sax)

Mikaela Thorn - Rhythm Guitar

Cover photo by Rich Taber

Cover layout by Lillian Edith Martin

Additional layout by Christopher G. Brown

## Lyrics (Agitation Trips version)

Why are you feeling this way?

I thought we're all ready for something new

What if we changed our names?
Would that make a difference to you

I never thought love could be this good

There’s always something in the way

When we’re safe together we could pretend

We don’t hear what they say

Is it wrong to feel this way?
Everyone’s so scared they change what they do

A no-win situation for us

Does it make a difference to you?

We never thought love could be this good

There’s always something in the way

Now that we’re safe together we should pretend

We won’t hear what they say

Hear what they say

Hear what they say

Hear what they say

Who knew love could be this good?
Spider (song)

**Genre**

"Spider" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was set to be released on the now-shelved album, *Geizhals* and instead appeared in an extended single mix on the promotional *Spider* compilation and as a hidden track on *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying*. It was remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

## About

"Spider" provides a contrarian metaphor as a mockery of Arachnophobia, playing them as better lovers than "insects" (the abusive and dangerous) and "dogs" (the obsessive and clingy). The lyrics were written in August 2012, inspired by the obsessive hounding of one of Thorn's female friends (an arachnophobe) by her male friends. Music was written the following September, inspired by My Bloody Valentine (primarily the song "Only Shallow"), Helios Creed, Chrome, early Killing Joke, and early Brian Eno (namely "Needle in the Camel's Eye" and "Baby's On Fire").

The single version opens with an ambient 12-string soundscape originally recorded in June 2011 for an abandoned microsong compilation. It also includes a sample from a California Lottery "Strike it Rich!" commercial. The sample was replaced in *The Forgotten Ones* version with the second half of the "Bobsatm.com" voice message.

## Lyrics

Oh, what a monster

Would you look at those big eyes

He will suck your life right out of you

And you'll give until he dies

You're in need of pest control

Before you lose the plot

Take him out however you like

And give a spider a shot

(Yeah, you heard me)

Oh, you're quite a specimen

You've got in mind a goal

With your six arms wrapped around a girl

And your spine wrapped around a pole

I hope she appreciates the thought

For her most eventful birthday

Her last thought was she might upgrade

'Cause they're just giving spiders away

Don't mention the spider

on your daughter's arm

She'll never notice if you crush him instead

It's not love without the glove

So proceed to invade their space

If they say they're not having fun

I say it's OK to give chase

Now how is that so bad when there's

A sick dog pissing in your hands

I say it's time to give a spider a chance

Give a spider a chance!
ThornBrain Wiki

**Welcome to the ThornBrain Wiki!**
The works of Mikaela Thorn, AKA: ThornBrain. Mostly maintained herself, though registered Fandom users can edit most pages.

See also: TheMidnightFrogs Wiki for her abridging works such as *Sgt Frog Abridged*.

## Important articles

* ThornBrain Music
* category:Albums
* *The Legend of Zelda: Book of the Traitor*
Judas in the Garden of Eden

**Genre**

"Judas in the Garden of Eden" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was originally recorded as an intro for her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*, but she decided it wasn't good enough, instead including it as an outtake and intro track on the free *Quaero* compilation.

The song shares its bass synth riff with fellow outtake "Tribute to a Better Song" and album track "As Gods as Demons". The lyric "I can't think in here/I can't breathe in here" was recycled into "As Gods as Demons".

## Lyrics

I can't think in here

I can't breathe in here

(Let me out)
Buried Secrets & Old Lies

*Buried Secrets & Old Lies* is the third full-length album by Mikaela Thorn under her alias ThornBrain. It is a concept album based around the titular themes of old, conservative, oppressive regimes holding back younger generations and new ideas, particularly LGBTQ+ people. These are personified by the characters Old Lies, an abusive and hypocritical priest, and Buried Secrets, his skeleton who breaks out of his body after his death. The album is the first in a loose trilogy with her next two albums, 2019's *Worldbuilder* and 2021's *Rise in Love*.

The album was Thorn's first in five years, following a lengthy dry spell that began with multiple failed attempts to start a band in 2014. She got her musical spark back in early 2018 by covering "Revenge" by Ministry for the *Effigies: A Tribute to Ministry's "With Sympathy"* charity compilation, combined with inspiration from the then-new albums *Mirror Might Steal Your Charm* by The Garden and *woof* by smell. Inspired by the latter albums' "don't give a damn"/"do anything" attitudes, she decided to write and record as many new songs as possible until her creative energy ran out, and then she would cut the weakest material from the album. Out of a total of twenty completed tracks, only three were cut from the album and were instead included on the free promotional compilation *Quaero* that October. Two other considered but uncompleted tracks, "Competition for a Bad Life" and "Cancerous Winter", were saved for *Worldbuilder*.

Thorn quickly found herself unhappy with the original murky mix and master of the album, opting to remix and remaster it in 2020. This version is the only one available on streaming services, but the original mix is still available for purchase on her BandCamp.

The album cover was painted by Lore Cox, who is also the artist for his and Thorn's *Legend of Zelda* fancomic, *Book of the Traitor*. The back cover, also used for *Quaero*, is Lore's concept art for *BotT* of a potential version of Redeads, a recurring zombie enemy in *Zelda*.

## Credits

All performed instruments, vocals, programming, production, mixing, and mastering by Mikaela Thorn

except drum programming on "Last Minute Thought of a Man on Fire" by Lilz Martin

and samples taken from royalty-free sources.

Album artwork by Lore Cox.

## Tracklisting

All tracks written by Mikaela Thorn

1. "Here Comes Singularity Black"
2. "Abstract and Cracked"
3. "Room for One More"
4. "Quaero"
5. "Face Down Walls"
6. "The Mask is the Face"
7. "Angel Lungs"
8. "Misery is a Riot"
9. "Single Moving Star"
10. "Neuropia"
11. "My Hyde"
12. "You'll Never Be a Man"
13. "Principle Shit (Anthem for the Tired Generation)"
14. "As Gods as Demons"
15. "For Not 206"
16. "Abbott is Death Process"
17. "Last Minute Thought of a Man on Fire"
Get Out of the House

**Genre**

"Get Out of the House" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying* and later remixed for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

## About

The song describes a youth having a drug trip while being forced to stay in his upstairs bedroom. Halfway through the song, the youth falls out of the window, is sent to the hospital, and at the end is stuck in casts in the den.

The lyrics were written for Thorn's songwriting class in late 2011, and they were expanded during recording after a misjudgment in the length of the music. The music was based on a random guitar riff idea she developed as she began working on *Nobody Cares...* The song was originally intended for *Geizhals*, though the music was not clearly defined until 2013.

## Lyrics

You won't find me here

I'm a whole world away

You try to keep me grounded

You lock me up all day

But now I've got a plan

We'll see how long this stands

I've stepped out of this house

I've stepped out of your hands

Bit of a money and an altercation

And some edible imagination

My burning head and I

Are searching for new lands

I'm on the outside

Of here and now, of then and now

I'm seeing lights, I'm seeing

Sights that two feet won't allow

My own have now betrayed me

I can't see through one eye

My plan was to escape but now

I've tought myself to fly

But I still see

To my surprise

No longer a high rise

My bedroom is in the sky

By the time you found me

I'd hit an all-time low

Never saw the flashing lights

But felt a fleeting glow

Now I'm stuck back at home

A gnarled ball in the den

I guess it ain't so nice to

Get out of the house every now and then
You'll Never Be a Man

**Genre**

"You'll Never Be a Man" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*. It was slightly remixed along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020.

## About

The song started with the idea of covering "You'll Never be a Man" by Elvis Costello and changing the meaning to be about being transgender, but Thorn decided the lyrics read questionably under that lens. Her song is instead an angry Deathrock song about people policing masculinity and the fetishization of transpeople without treating them equally. It was especially charged after the Trump administration's oppression of transpeople, and the lines "...some half-rotted motherfucker talking in kind/Gets to tell the whole world he will take you away" is directly about Trump.

While Thorn would come out in 2021 as a transwoman, she identified as genderfluid leaning-male at the time, and the song was written more in solidarity with transmen.

## Lyrics

Awful lot of people getting hung up on face

Looking at your own only makes you displace

True to life, stuck behind not a mask it's

Not a face, it's a wastebin, a casket

Everyone cares too much about detection

It's on their minds due to social insurrection

"Boys will be boys", an inappropriate direction

Say it again to call for physical correction

A life of putting up

With everyone who can

Look down on you and say

You'll never be a man

Their fetish, nobody yet will allow

Their fetish, what's in the video now

Their fetish, they never count as their kind

Their fetish, lies and says they don't mind

You have to put up with enough from your mind

Then some half-rotted motherfucker talking in kind

Gets the tell the whole world he will take you away

While you're running out of energy to live one more day

A life of putting up

With everyone who can

Look down on you and say

You'll never be a man

You put up with enough

From your own mind

Half-rotted

Tells the world your time is up

Their fetish, they never count as their kind

Their fetish, they'll only see online

Their fetish, burning the beach to glass

Their fetish, waiting for all this pass

A life of putting up

With everyone who can

Look down on you and say

You'll never be a
Tell Me About Your Planet

**Genre**

"Tell Me About Your Planet" is a four-part track written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her fourth album, *Worldbuilder*.

## Segments

1. "Tell Me About Your Planet"
2. "Look, Know, Forget"
3. "Shark (A Distraction)"
4. "The Human Conditioner"

## About

The track is a four-part suite inspired by the multi-part epics of Yes, especially their 1974 album *Relayer*, and by Miles Davis' *Bitches Brew*. The main guitar riffs were inspired by early Everything but the Girl. The song repeats the acoustic leitmotif from "A Different Place in the Twilight (A Discovery)", and it makes use of the same piece of programmed feedback as "Competition for a Bad Life" that Thorn recorded in July 2010, here used to imitate birdsong.

The track loosely describes the main character interacting with the people in the world she created, and her anxiety builds as she remembers her home before she decides that she has solved all of her problems. "Shark" is merely a humorous breakdown that jumps between multiple time signatures, inspired by a bizarre dream Thorn had where a singer ended a lovely song by matter-of-factly saying "shark".

The title is a loose reference to *Oops! Wrong Planet* by Utopia, and the line "Did you roll it up by hand" is a reference to *Katamari Damacy*.

## Lyrics

Tell me about your planet

What's it like there in your land

Is it half what we have here

Did you roll it up by hand

All or no

We know where everything is now

You don't get lost on your own

But not here

Look at the fields that I

Laid out before you

Know that no matter what

Direction you take

You will forget all your

Goals on the way

What to tell you about my planet

Once you look you know

You'll forget it

I was not alone

And felt lonelier

But not here

Look at these people I

Laid out before you

Know that no matter how

Far down you break

Theirs is the pieces

Your heart will replace

What to tell you about my planet

Beauty

Empathy

Shark

Shark

I am the conditioner

For the human condition

The micronova

Gifted me

With all anyone

Will ever need

I'm the human conditioner

What to tell you about my planet

I forget
Echo to Canal Street

"Echo to Canal Street" is an ambient/noise track by Mikaela Thorn, released under her alias ThornBrain for *The Right Way to do Everything* EP. The song is composed of a relatively old experiment inspired by Lou Reed's *Metal Machine Music*; Thorn held her guitar up against her Ibanex acoustic practice amp amp with its built-in chorus effect active and strummed it, allowing the feedback to create an echo effect. The recording was further processed for the EP: Thorn ran the track through a brickwall limiter (notably producing the loud "boom" later in the song), readjusted the volume throughout the track, and ran some segments through reverb.

The original recording was called "Echolofeedbackation", but the name was changed when Tiana Camacho described the track as something she would listen to while on the bus to Canal Street in her native New York City. The original "Echolofeedbackation" recording was temporarily uploaded to Thorn's SoundCloud, but it remained unreleased formally until it was included on *The Forgotten Ones 2 (The Free Music, 2009-2021)*.
Shake

**Genre**

"Shake" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her second album, *Nobody Cares Unless You're Pretty or Dying* and later remastered for *The Forgotten Ones (The 2020 Mixes)*.

## About

The song is about a person who is in love with a woman heavily involved in drug use and who fetishizes her mental decay. Unlike most other songs on the album, it is more electronic and inspired by bands such as Suicide and Depeche Mode. The song was originally written for *Geizhals* as a companion to "I'm Your Victim", a similarly dark and sexual song that includes a pun on the word "tender".

## Lyrics

It's on me to work through

The chemicals in us

While you sit idoling by

A trail of venom down your cuss

I keep you locked

You're so much trouble for the free

Soon to be draped in virgin white

The only virgin will be me

Shake till you can't anymore

Shake till you can't anymore

Us alone out on the floor

Oh, she's like a dream

Hazy as she goes

Oh, she's like a dream

Immobile in her throes

Oh, she's like a dream

Thriving on your fears

Oh, she's like a dream

Forgotten when your head clears

Do you want to know how people try

To so easily define gender

Do you want a little tenderness

Or do you want your body tender

You grip so impassionately

Try not to think of you and me

You're like a dog's philosophy

His thought's a lost ability

Shake till you can't anymore

Shake till you can't anymore

Be my victim on the floor
The Mask is the Face

**Genre**

"The Mask is the Face" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was released on her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies* as well as the free *Quaero* compilation. It was remastered along with the rest of *Buried Secrets...* in 2020, though it was one of the few songs that Thorn felt no need to remix.

## About

The song is about Thorn's life as an introvert and her frustration with people trying to get introverts "out of their shell" to find their "real" personality, as though shyness and introversion aren't real parts of someone's personality to be respected. All of the pronouns are changed to "we", "us" and "ourself", inspired by Brian Eno doing similarly in his early solo work. The music is heavily inspired by Industrial/Acid Punk band Chrome, and the lead riff is similar to "Clash City Rockers" by The Clash. The bass is actually a Stratocaster, as Thorn was unable to record her bass guitar at the time.

While Thorn often has a period early in recording where she's dubious about how an album will ultimately come out, recording "The Mask is the Face" was the point where her fears were assuaged, being so happy with the song that it she didn't feel it needed any remixing in 2020.

## Lyrics

Come out of our shell

Just open up

Pretend that we care

We're in a public place

We want us to share

What's under our mask

We don't understand

The mask is the face

We don't understand

The mask is the face

Don't laugh at our run

Don't balk at our hide

Sitting by ourselves

We loudly celibate

Parts there to delve

Once we know us well

Parts there to peel

But it's still our natural state

We don't understand

The mask is the face

We came out too fast

The thought tends to pass

We burned out the ground

We turned beach to glass

Ask us for once

It's not something wrong

Our breath is a smelling salt

Our voice twice as strong

The mask is the face

Give a chance a chance

Give giving ourself a chance a chance

Give a chance a chance

Give giving ourself a chance a chance
Fountain Neck

**Genre**

"Fountain Neck" is a song written by Mikaela Thorn and recorded under her alias ThornBrain. It was originally planned for her third album, *Buried Secrets & Old Lies*, but she decided it wasn't good enough, instead including it as an outtake on the free *Quaero* compilation.

## About

The song is a blast of surreal, aggressive free association inspired by Butthole Surfers and *Bleach* by Nirvana, based off a riff Thorn thought up during her five-year dry spell. Thorn screamed the vocals so hard during recording that she strained her diaphragm and was unable to breathe normally for a over a week, and she didn't fully recover for two whole months; this ordeal was later referenced in "Supermoon" from *Rise in Love*.

## Lyrics

This is a song about love

This is a song about love and hate

This is a song about love and hate

And finding the potential within you

This is a song about being afraid of what you found

This is a song about being afraid of what you found

And waiting for your opportunities to present themselves

This is a song about eating

This is a song about eating and dying

This is a song about eating and dying and

Doesn't that make you feel better doesn't that make you feel better

Doesn't that make you feel better doesn't that make you feel

Who is the one responsible

Who is the one responsible

Who is the one responsible

Who is the one

This is a song about love

This is a song about love and hate

This is a song about love and hate

And finding the potential within you

This is a song about being afraid of what you found

This is a song about being afraid of what you found

And waiting for your opportunities to present themselves

This is a song about eating

This is a song about eating and dying

This is a song about eating and dying and

Doesn't that make you feel better doesn't that make you feel better

Doesn't that make you feel better doesn't that make you feel

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