That Monkey Was Kinda Sexy/Confessionals

## Day 29: Head of Household

I feel like we really need this hoh on our side. But even if we don't win, I think im probably the safest of my side. This week has really helped me to keep myself aside from fights, drama and still have some talks with people like Calvin and Max smile emoticon.
Let's await the sandcastles... omg that monkey was kinda sexy too

Tadd - the head of the snake
Jenna - the heart of the snake
Max - the ass of the snake
Calvin - the snake's poop
I need these people to be terrible at building sandcastles or I'll be on a beach somewhere building sandcastles...alone.

The bitch fucked up
Sorry Jenna ily but it's true

Coming into the house I wanted to find one person to trust even if they were a scumbag. I chose Ben. I don't think he's a scumbag. I think he's a nice guy who stands a good chance at winning this game. I've aligned myself right with him. He's going to gun after the competitions and be the glue to any alliances that add me as a mere number. Leaving myself constantly on the outs is a good thing because I don't pose a threat. If I'm evicted it'll be for personal reasons, not strategic. To evict me over Logan or Ben or Dennis at this point in the game would be pretty stupid.
The methodology behind my thinking is to continual discredit myself. I make sure I never understand their slang. That I don't get their references. That I can't remember any details of the game. Basically, it's a roll over and play stupid strategy. But the house is generally very sensitive and flips on a dime. It doesn't take much for someone to throw a target out there and no matter what the truth is, someone else is painting a different version of reality that suits their agenda. My relationship with Ben is smart because he's securing my safety, going hard after comps, and will get blood on his hands. At the end of the day, I haven't lied and I haven't outright went after a single person in the house. I'm clean. At this point in the game, I'm self-aware enough to know I haven't built a resume and don't have a case for an endgame yet. The logical thing would be to ride it to the end with Ben and cut him. But by allowing him to build up his own resume, the fact that we aren't even at jury yet, makes me believe he will be targeted without me having to do anything. Leaving me as a lone number with no power and an easy option for most players left in the game to take to the end. I like that. Working my way to a position where everyone will take me no matter what. That's why I have consistent side conversations with everyone, even Tadd. Calvin is the only wildcard... and eventually Jenna. But we're not there yet. I'm going to take my time, be observant, have my fun, and enjoy what time I have left here. My only focus is the end game and seeing Ben in a leadership position, finally out of the shadows, there's enough giants in front of me that I should be able to sneak my way to the end. I'm a huge fan of big moves but this has been a game of right moves. Picking the right people, jumping ship at the right time, and adapting where I have to. Art of War 101: When you're strong act weak and when you're weak act strong.
Thanks

## Day 30: Nominations

Allies - Tadd, Jenna, Calvin
Half Allies - Topaz and Trent
Idiots who think I'm an ally - Ben
People who I want to throw in the trash can with moldy cheese - Cliff, Logan, Bryce

Seeing as we survive this week

## Day 32: Power of Veto Competition

Things got awfully quiet after the nominations. Got me thinking that some mice are stirring in the shadows whispering about the weeks to come. The last three evictees, I had a behind-the-scenes hand in and the fault fell on that of the HoH and known affiliates but I'm not sure how long I can hold this guise for. It gets messier as weeks go on. If Tadd gets knocked out this week as planned then we should have a clearer path but that doesn't stop hurricane Calvin from ripping through the house. Most of the house trusts me and those who don't believe they can control me. Gotta ride that middle. The rise of Ben has started and he's going to be such a golden boy that it'll take attention off me going forward. I will never outwardly campaign against Ben. I will go to the end with him cuz idgaf. But I know, if I want to win this game, I can't be sitting next to him. But I also know I need him in this game as long as possible to keep attention off me.

Hopefully my dirty work for our alliance will be enough to flip ben's mind into putting up somebody like cliff logan or bryce
just fingers crossed it's not going to be tadd or jenna
If so then ben just really sucks at making moves lol

## Day 35: Eviction

Tadd and I have the same day job so in a way...we were fraternal twins. When he hurts I hurt. When he eats I eat. When he doesn't eat...I still eat.
Tadd. I would compare your gameplay to a wounded donkey trying to play checkers with a crash test dummy. Or maybe an old lady's girdle hanging from a clothesline, drying after a night in the swamp.
I want you to know this...and listen very closely.... I was honest with you. And then you targeted me. I hope you accidentally shit your pants today and rethink your life.
Other than that, I wish you all the best and hope one day you can experience a six week orgasm with no mess. Bless.