Alto Spencer

**Alto** is so stupid and the worst catgirl in the entire world

## Appearance & Personality

### Appearance

Alto is a little skrinklet trapezoid girl who stands at an underwhelming 5'3. Upon first glance, she bears a striking resemblance to her mother, looking like a smaller, much frailer version of her. She is tiny and painfully thin, yet disproportionately leggy and wide-shouldered. With very visible ribs and deep hollows under her eyes and cheeks, she has the appearance of being starving, perhaps like a victorian child, which is partially due to genetics but mostly due to her genuinely being malnourished. Complimenting her cute undead aesthetic, she is deathly pale and has white hair of an ambiguous length and style. She has huge golden eyes like a bug, which are, much to Alto's chagrin, incredibly expressive; all her feelings play in vivid detail across her face, which is bad for someone trying to keep up a delinquent persona who also happens to be very, very, very sensitive. Also her teeth are sharp cause shes a catgirl. She can nearly always be seen fidgeting with something, usually the hem or her shirt or her own fingernails or just anything in her vicinity she can fit in her hand. Her wardrobe consists almost exclusively of white button-downs and black pants (with the exception of stuff she stole from her siblings and coats she Borrowed from Girls), but she is hesitantly starting to experiment with her style. Additionally, due to being an OC, she also has a bunch of scars. Most of them are from miscellaneous dumbassery and fights she started on purpose, but some are Not Miscellaneous and Are In Fact Traumatic. In summary she looks like a bug and does not shave her legs. The end.
### Personality

Alto has things wrong with her, and she contains multitudes. First and foremost, her most iconic trait, she is painfully, agonizingly pathetic. She is so meek and pitiful, with her very presence she seems to be crying out to the world, "why is everyone so mean to me". She is SO sensitive, though she hates this about herself, she is so so expressive and its the easiest thing in the world to make her cry. She is completely unable to hide her desperation for human contact and the fact that she sincerely believes everyone in her life hates her and wants her dead. She is always devastated whenever anyone is mean to her for any reason, even when she herself believes it was deserved. She, has very big eyeballs.
She tries to hide this by being so fucking obnoxious and unbearable, it is un believable the things this girl says. She has a very negative self image, even beyond just hating herself, as she believes that she is fundamentally undeserving of love or kindness and the only thing she can do to change this is either Grovel or Become Someone Who Is. This is the root of a lot of the weird ways in which she presents herself. She keeps starting fights, verbal *and* physical, so she can feel less pathetic and scared of everyone. She wants people to think she's a delinquent so they'll see someone who's tough and dangerous and cool instead of, A Bug. She latches onto any scrap of confidence or superiority she can find and sinks her teeth into it until its nothing but shreds, burning through all her emotional highs so fast that she's just left miserable again. Anything she can do to deny herself, she will, not out of a desire to protect her fragile emotional state but to destroy it. Logically, denying fundamental parts about yourself is a very good idea and always works, so this has never once backfired for Alto and definitely doesn't just amplify her pathetic ness tenfold. This is the reason, for her behaving Like That, mostly in the Group Chat.
So, when people *are* nice to her, or when they aren't but she wants them to be, she develops a very healthy, completely blind, completely unbending loyalty to them. She wants to experience kindness and affection and love so bad that she will Attach to anyone who spares her a glance and never let them go. Anyone who can tolerate her is a saint and an idol and she worships them as such. Since she can never really deserve their kindness, she'll do anything they say to make up for it. She doesn't see anything wrong with this. Playing nicely into this trait of her's, Alto is also like, literally incapable of hating people who've wronged her. Not that she's super nice or particularly forgiving, no, she doesn't need to get that far. She doesn't view it as being wronged at all. She thinks everyone who has ever hurt her did it for her sake or because it was her fault, so she can only pin the blame on herself. She will keep crawling back to these people again and again and again no matter how terrible they are or how terrible she feels around them. Even if they actively hate her she will just try to crush herself into someone they *don't* hate. If anyone leaves her entirely she'll just guilt herself forever about it without really being able to change. Needless to say her ideas of love and kindness are very very incorrect.
Anyways. Even aside from emotional issues, Alto genuinely is just kind of obnoxious. At her very core she's bright and hyperactive and impulsive, and she really likes expressing affection through teasing and being annoying. Mostly to her male friends because she would NEVER say ANYTHING rude to a woman (on purpose; she is not very smart). She's dumb and likes to do dumb stuff about it. She is clingy and very physically affectionate, as well as just so so so so so easily flustered its like embarrassing. She is an extrovert, though she is painfully inept at socializing, and she likes just, being around people. Especially in the rare instances where The Everything clears up enough for her to not constantly worry that everyone wants her dead. Despite being an obnoxious bastard, she finds great joy in Being Nice and feeling like she's helping people, although she currently takes this to a very miserable extreme. She likes being bossed around, because she's normal. She is like a creature. The end.
## Relations

* Family
* Other

* Alto was never able to form a relationship with her mother, having been left under the care of her uncle with nothing but her name and a certain Mister Teddy. She still believes her mother is alive and hopes to meet her one day, though she faults herself for her unexplained disappearance. It's pretty obvious that her going missing had something, or probably everything, to do with Alto's birth. And even Alto can't convince herself that that was something she could've in any way helped, although guilt has never needed a rational reason for being. She switches a lot between resenting her for abandoning her and admiring her for being, like, Her Mother. Despite everything, she likes to daydream about what it will be like when she comes back for her. What it will be like to have a mother who loves her. The fact that she's been gone for seventeen years and no one has seen even a trace of her, and the way the church seems to want to pretend she doesn't exist despite the important role she used to play there, is something that makes Alto deeply uncomfortable. She tries not to think about it. But it bothers her. Especially now. It bothers her a lot.

**????** [Mystery father]

* Alto has no idea who her father is. She probably thinks every adult male she has ever spoken to on more than one occasion might be her father, including the man who actually is her father. Whoever this might be, she doesn't care to meet them nearly as much as she wants to meet her mother. As such, she doesn't really care to resent them either. Her father is just, Some Guy to her.

**Nancy Spencer** [Aunt/Adoptive mother]

* Nancy was alive and consequently Alto's adoptive mother for like 3 minutes before dying. Alto does not have a single memory of her. Nancy liked to take baby pictures of all her kids, so some of those exist of Alto and she doesn't know how to feel about them because she doesn't think they're real.

* All the cruelty in the world couldn't erase Alto's desperation for Uncle Boris to just.. Like her. And be nice to her. She's terrified of him, all her worst memories are of him and she never wants to spend any amount of time in his vicinity, but there's no part of her that can muster up any resentment towards him. It's not his fault he's mean to her, after all, he never deserved to have a daughter foisted onto him out of nowhere, not to mention the fact that she's a grotesque unlovable nuisance. She doesn't blame her siblings for hating him though, and there are times when she wishes she could, too, but she just.. Can't. If she wants it bad enough, maybe, some day, he'll forgive her.

**Nelson Spencer** [Cousin/Adoptive sibling]

* i have to figure out. how she feels about them, again

* Guppeta and Alto used to be inseparable in their early childhood, but things started changing around middle school. She couldn't keep up with him when he started rebelling in quiet ways and, god forbid, socializing and making friends. So they grew apart, and Guppeta's annoying sibling contempt for her started to actually sting. Even if he was never mean to her on purpose, she was hurt by their growing apart anyway. She misses being close with him and has no idea that he does too. She views his attempts at reconnecting with her as insincere, very rationally believing that the best way to get close with him again is to stay as far away from him as possible. Because, clearly, he hates her and never wants to talk to her again. Also he kind of gets on her nerves. Their relationship is pretty neutral nowadays, with Alto only bugging him for stupid unimportant issues (how to talk to girls) and Guppeta forgetting to pick her up from school half the time. There is also the small issue of both of them accidentally being out to each other but they are both very bravely ignoring this.

**Mister Teddy**

* Alto loves loves loves loves loves mister teddy. Obviously she knows he isn't like, a living thing, and she's very embarrassed of her emotional connection to him and how much she depends on him to be able to sleep, but he is her beloved teddy bear and she loves him. Even aside from him being her only tangible connection to her mother, he is just something Soft And Friendly she has had since she was little. If anything bad ever happens to him she WILL explode.

* Alto can't stomach the faintest thought of Faith without feeling nauseous anymore but despite goddamn everything she still daydreams about the 3 microseconds where she gaybaited her. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aside from being ABSOLUT$ELY TERRIFIED FOR HER LIFE AND THE LIVES OF ALL HER FRIENDS she genuinely feels really bad about ratting her out. Since she's delusional, she feels like Faith really was trusting her with something important and she ruined it for her and now everyone hates her and its just a matter of time before she realizes it was all Alto's fault. She wants to believe Faith is in the same situation that Alto herself is in, and that she wouldn't really hurt her or any of her friends, although understandably she is having a little bit of trouble convincing herself of this 100%. But she's working on it! It isn't easy to just drop several years of Very Intense But Assuredly Normal Feelings for someone, so she's searching for a way to remain loyal to her without, like. killing someone or losing all of her hard earned bffsies.

* Alto misses Ricky SO BAD and she feels horrible about what happened to him. That was her bbf(bug best friend) and now he is in hiding and she has to pretend she killed him!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is so ridiculous she would think it was funny if it wasn't nearly the worst thing to ever happen to her. She worries that she could've done more to help him and that, maybe, just maybe, there's just a tiny chance, that her loyalty to the girl who told her to kill him is misplaced. She worries about him every day and vows to hang out with him like 24/7 if- when- he comes back.

* Alto still admires Ritsuko and has a lot of feelings (mostly guilt) towards her that she will never willingly express, but now with added mistrust due to her being involved with the everything! But she still really likes her and is delighted and honored to be her friend. She has a hard time telling if Ritsuko actually likes her but she is Attached to her anyways and can never be removed. She really really misses their study sessions with Ricky but, well. sad

* THEY ARE FINALLY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or at least she thinks they are. She isn't entirely sure, Sai is very hard to read, especially over text. She stared at him with her eyes for so long but now that she actually is friends with him it is kind of underwhelming. She doesn't respond super well to his completely emotionless and kind of mean energy, and also, she, would love it if he was not involved with the everything, BUT she is glad they are bffs now anyway. Her intention is to wring more fighting lessons out of him and annoy him until he decides he likes her. ALSO she wants him to give her more weed now. So everyone will think she is cool.

* ALTO IS IN LOVE WITH ANNYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And she has almost realized it. She thinks Annya is the nicest and smartest and funniest ~~and prettiest~~ person ever and she is the light and life of her earth. She is delighted whenever she talks to her and giggles and kicks her feet in the air whenever she thinks about her. Unlike a lot of her other crushes (namely diarg), she genuinely just feels really nice about her. Annya makes her feel secure and kind of just, normal, in a way that no one else really does. Also The Thing She Told Her. Which just makes her 100000x clingier so she can make sure Annya doesn't like, die (and so she will cuddle with her some more). She kind of super wishes she did not tell everyone about the everything but she is never going to bring this up ever and then she is just gonna forget about it and be over it peace/love.

* Alto has a crush on Blair because she is a girl. She thinks Blarg is sooooooo cool and wants to be bffsies with her. She's super curious about her and is dying to know her better, and maybe hang out somewhere that isn't a shitty gas station in the middle of the night while freezing half to death.. As long as neither of them ever bring up anything even remotely related to their parents ever again.

* Alto has no idea why Deya Fucking Darcy had to get involved with all this horseshit and if she's being honest she would really rather she wasn't, but she seems nice enough so she will probably attach to her sooner or later.

* Alto HATES Jack for dating Faith like she wants this man DEAD. Not that she is gay for Faith but FAITH WAS HERS FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!! He is just a DUMB BORING BROODY SPORTS GUY who has NO FRIENDS and NO ONE LIKES HIM. She thinks he doesn't deserve her because he did not spend every Sunday of his life staring at her and following her around like a dog or really sad cat. He didn't even have to pretend to kill his bffsie for her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So why does HE get to say he's dating her and probably hold hands with her and talk to her more than once a week????? She only misses being friends with him with like, one singular cell of her brain because, she, replaced the scary fighty broody male friend in her life with Sai. yippee

* Though she does sometimes feel a tiny bit weird about Kian, she is very grateful for his company and really enjoys hanging out with him, because they have the same braincell. He falls into the category of people that Alto doesn't constantly worry hate her so, she is Attached to him. Rest in piece boob the boob fish.

* SHE BEAT HER UP IN THE CHURCH PARKING LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She actually secretly agrees with a lot of the stuff she said about church but that just makes her resent her even more because she's jealous that she can't think like that. Obviously, *everyone* secretly hates everything about church, but you're supposed to pretend you don't.

**Aozora Parker**

* do they know each other. im going to forget to ask as soon as i stop writing this noah if u see this do they know each other

* She hopes Venna is not involved in the Everything because she, thinks she is hot and does not want her to be a murderer. :stare:

**Chloe Bailey**

* i dont think alto has even thought about chloe in. months

**Jayden Perry**

* She has never met or even seen him but she hates him because he is an evil murderer and Faith probably likes him better than her.

* he is too greasy and sometimes his long hair makes alto think he is a girl

## Other shit who care

### Interests

* women. Genuinely just women, Alto loves women and boobs and being horny and that takes up enough of her brainspace to be considered an entire interest. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
* Cats? Alto likes cats enough for it to also be an entire interest. She doesn't even own a cat or like anything specific about them she just, likes cats. She likes cats and she likes saying that she likes cats. She likes to type out the word meow and send it in the groupchat. This is because she is a catgirl.
* GAMING!!!!!!!!!! Alto is a gamer girl who has a natural talent for just, being good at video games. In her early childhood they were a good outlet for energy she couldn't otherwise express, and they were good at keeping her quiet and occupied when Uncle Boris still had money to spare. Her favorites are competitive games like Smash, but she also likes Pokemon because everyone likes Pokemon, and the Dark Soulses because she is a gamer girl, and the Bayonetta series because Bayonetta is hot, and lots of Metroidvanias because projecting. She has a very bright future as a twitch streamer.
* Anime and manga, regretfully, but mostly manga. She likes looking at pictures, and she much prefers these sorts of stories over things like American YA literature. She is an avid Makima Chainsawman defender for reasons that are so obvious it is criminal of me to do something so predictable.
* Wandering the fuck around. Whenever Alto is bored she likes to just, Go. And fuck around. She appears in the most random ass places completely unprompted. Why does she do this? Cause.
* Skateboardinge.; The act itself isn't really what draws her to like skateboarding, especially cause she isn't very good at it, but moreso the connections she has made over it. Like Kian teaching her how to skateboard, and then her showing off to Ricky and them taking turns eating shit in the parking lot. It would probably be good to impress girls with too! If she was good at it, that is.
* FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!! Aside from being a very handy way to self-destruct, there is a part of it that she genuinely enjoys. Even if she sucks SO much shit at fighting and has NEVER WON ONCE IN HER LIFE NOT EVEN AGAINST RICKY, she still likes the adrenaline rush she gets. Maybe its the physicality, or the competitiveness, or the motivating drive to improve, or the fact that it makes her feel masculine, or its just a weird symptom of being A Fucking Masochist (though she doesn't fight girls enough for this to be the case). She wants to get better at fighting people but she doesn't know how. (She is too frail and wimpy and fragile.)
* Going To Church And Being At Church. Alto loves going to church because it is good to go to church and be at church and if you don't go to church then everyone in your life will abandon you and you will die and go to hell (and get tortured forever by demons (with big boobys (this is a bad thing (she promises)))). Her favorite part about church is how involved her mother used to be before she disappeared and now nobody seems to want to mention her anymore because she was born. (Actually her favorite part about church is staring at Faith Iverson (or it used to be (it still kind of is (maybe she will start staring at Annya instead)))).

### other thing

* She listens to Lady Gaga (and other early 2000s pop) and George Jones (and other very old country artists). Her music taste is not the, best.
* She is a recovering warrior cat... All her ocs were generic tough battle guys named shit like Shadowscar and Talonclaw and Battlemetal. Some of them even had mates (who were girls).
	+ There is a part of her that would like to rp or do rp-adjacent things again but Guppie will not let her into any of their D&D campaigns because she annoys them and her initials are Ass and she has no idea where else to look so.
* Some miscellaneous things she likes are cats and stuffed animals and vampires (she wishes they were real and would bite her). Yellow is The Altoid color but her favorite color is actually dark red, or maybe blue or maybe pink. Her favorite foods are gummy candy and jolly ranchers, and her favorite drink is apple juice.
* She is a catgirl

## Gallery

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