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Rolling Stone (Interview)

By: Reed Fischer

### Interview

**Sounds Like**: Macabre millennial nightmares, softened by dream-pop tranquilizers, reverberating from a casket-shaped music box.

**For Fans of**: Lana Del Rey, Elliott Smith, the films of Harmony Korine

**Why You Should Pay Attention**: Nicole Dollanganger's gothic folk songs detailing mental illness, guns, sexual violence, poverty and death are as beautiful as they are brutal. After exploring abandoned buildings growing up in Stouffville, Ontario — a small town near Toronto — the taxidermy enthusiast studied film at Ryerson University and started posting her dark, cinematic songs on Bandcamp. Soundbites and grisly themes from horror movies, *Welcome to the Dollhouse* and school shootings amplify these lo-fi bedroom recordings. Backed by acoustic guitar, Dollanganger's winsome cover of Foster the People's "Pumped Up Kicks" off 2013's Columbine EP strips away the original's party vibe to its chilling lyrical core. A demo of her latest album, Natural Born Losers, eventually reached her countrywoman Grimes. "It blew up my brain so hard that I literally started Eerie [Organization, a new artist collective] to fucking put it out," the art-pop experimenter said in a press release. They performed together opening for Lana Del Rey in June and Dollanganger is supporting Grimes' fall tour.

**She Says**: "I fell in love most with aggression in vocal delivery. Even when someone's singing something that isn't aggressive, but they yell it or scream it, it strikes me. Ceremony comes to mind. They're incredible. [Frontman Ross Farrar's] vocal performances, I was like, "Holy shit." Type O Negative, I was taken with how [Peter Steele] fluctuated between really dark topics and really light topics. Some of the sounds were really industrial and heavy, and some were softer. That kind of mixture is really intriguing. [Marilyn] Manson does the same thing."

"I really enjoy hitting record on GarageBand. For an hour and a half I'll just freestyle. I'll get a chord progression going and start singing. I'll record everything. Most of it's trash, but usually there's a line at least — like 'drinking a cup of alligator blood' — then I'll build around that."

**Hear for Yourself**: Echoing the pulse of Nine Inch Nails' "Hurt," Dollanganger sweetly toes the line of bruised love on "You're So Cool."
My Pug (song)

## About

**My Pug** is the sixth track off of *Ode To Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs* by Nicole Dollanganger.

The song is about Dollanganger's dog, Fred, who was named after Freddy Krueger of the *Nightmare On Elm Street* series. He is featured in the cover art for *Heart Shaped Bed.*

## Lyrics

Anywhere I go I'm gonna take you with me

Pennsylvania, Arkansas, Texas, and Kentucky

Buy a little trailer big enough for just you and me

Stay up watching Golden Girls and I Love Lucy

Cuddling in bed, I kiss and rub your belly

Listen to you snort and wheeze and whine in your sleep

Greeted with wet kisses in the early morning

Always fall asleep to the song of your snoring

And I don't know what I did

Before the day I met you

And I don't know what I'd do

If I ever lost you

Anywhere you go is the place I'll call my home

Painting welcome signs and growing flowers in the lawn

Eating junk and watching trash 'til the break of the dawn

A gentleman you are, always take me on long walks

A great big appetite - I like men who know how to eat

Slurping the same noodle when we share spaghetti

Eating peanut butter, dip the spoons in the jar

Buy a box of donuts glazed in icing sugar

And I don't know what I did

Before the day I met you

And I don't know what I'd do

If I ever lost you

You're the lumpiest, squishiest, fattest little thing

You're the sweetest little guy, my double-chinned baby

You're the only man I want and the only man I need

You're the only man I dream of late at night when I sleep

You're the cutest pug; the kind I spent my whole life dreaming of

Growing old together in a trailer park so in love
Curdled Milk (album)

## About

**Curdled Milk** is the first full length album by Nicole Dollanganger released on July 13, 2012. It was written and composed by her in 2011 - 2012.

These three images were used as the artwork prior to Curdled Milk's release.

## Physical Releases

In 2013 a CDr was released on Nicole's Storenvy exclusively. In 2014 both a CDr and a white cassette limited to 50 copies each were sold on her Bandcamp. Both CDrs had alternate cover images and were sold in cardboard sleeves. On June 10th 2016 a CD for her first album (limited to 100 copies) was sold on Bandcamp, later on in August another CD was released by Get This Right Records through Cold Cuts Merch.

CDr (2013)CDr (2014)Cassette (2014)Bandcamp CD (2016)
Gold Satin Dreamer (song)

## About

**Gold Satin Dreamer** is the second single and second track off of Married in Mount Airy by Nicole Dollanganger. It was released as a single on November 4, 2022.

Gold Satin Dreamer Single Cover

## Lyrics

Light bleeds in through the curtain lace

Sleep on the couch, where the flowers stay

And never bloom but only fade in the sun

I feel the bath, while I dream of the lake

I can smell the blood, purge from raw steak

By the barbecue on a summer day and the sun

But I find you here

In the blue light of the TV

And I feel you in the wind

Through the backscreen at night

With the kitchen tile cold on my cheek (Oh)

I Love you, baby

Gold satin dreamer, gold satin heart

Gold satin dreamer

Waiting for it to get dark

I wait for it to get dark

All of those dreams left out in the sun

They run like syrup and clot like blood

Disfigured beyond recognition

In the sun

Colors fade from my memory and even though

Other faces I forget

Yours is carved out of stone

Tryna take you out of me is like

Trying to get smoke out of wood

Love you baby

Gold satin dreamer, gold satin heart

Gold satin dreamer

Waiting for it to get dark (for it to get dark)

I wait for it to get dark
Golden Ring (song)

## About

**Golden Ring** is a song by Dan Darrah featuring Nicole Dollanganger that was released on Bandcamp on November 24, 2016.

## Lyrics

(Dan & Nicole alternating; singing)

We only study on the hour

If we miss it by a minute, we go back to sleep

We wear our sheets around our shoulders

And our waists like we’re Romans

(Dan & Nicole alternating; speaking)

-*Do you see this room?*

-*Yeah.*

-*Does it look the same?*

-*Yeah, it does.*

-*Like, as it first did?*

-*Yeah, of course.*

(Dan singing)

I guess I need to make money

For this hole-in-the-world

Where you love me

(Dan & Nicole singing)

I trim the leaves on the kitchen plant

If you tried I know you could grow 'em back

With the remote or your cigarettes

The nails that we built this world with

Sometimes the wine takes a sec. to sink in

The things you say in bed sound just like hymns

Your tennis skirt and games of chess

The nails that we built this world with

It disappears when the neighbours come over

Goes in the walls where they can’t find it

(Dan singing)

We only study on the hour

In a world for us only
Poacher's Pride (song)

## About

**Poacher's Pride** is the first track off of Natural Born Losers by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

Album Version & Demo

I shot an angel with my father’s rifle

I should have set it free, but I let it bleed

Made it into taxidermy, hung it on my wall

On my wall

I shot an angel, kept it in my backyard

Hung it out to dry on the clothing line

Pinned above my bed like the cross of Jesus Christ

On my wall

And I know one day Hell will catch up with me

And I’m sure that I will burn eternally

One day it will come to claim its pound of flesh

When it’s done, there won’t be anything left

I shot an angel, dragged it to my basement

Starved it till it died and I did not cry

Sickness of poacher’s pride
Sweet Girl (song)

## About

**Sweet Girl** is the second track off of Ode To Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

You taste like sweet apple pie

With whipped cream on the side

Your cum is like warm milk

Your red cheeks are soft as silk

You taste like raisins in the pudding

Sweet soft bugs I'm chewing

Stuck between my teeth

Curling the toes on my feet

You're so sweet

So I take you to the movies

And then back to my house to sleep

You wear a used dirty band shirt and cute panties

Whisper secrets and you kiss me

Pull me close and tell me

That you think I'm so pretty

Well I think you're a jewel

I think you're a ruby

Don't know who told you you had a cherry

In between your legs

The only thing I pop are the blood vessels on your neck

But if you want one we can split a sundae

Tying knots with our tongues

Practice for later on the grass when I lift your dress up

So I take you to the movies

And then back to my house to sleep

You wear a used dirty band shirt and cute panties

Whisper secrets and you kiss me

Pull me close and tell me

That you think I'm so pretty

Well I think you're a jewel

I think you're a ruby
Up In Smoke (song)

## About

**Up In Smoke** is the first track off of Unreleased by Nicole Dollanganger featuring Dan Darrah. It was added to Unreleased on June 20, 2013.

2013 Single Cover2017 Single Cover
## Lyrics

(Nicole singing)

Leave home with these eyes

That only know how to chase roads

In the summertime

It will be easier to say goodbye

Pretend that I'm coming back

(Dan singing)

My hands are chalked white from pounding on the walls

Lord knows the summer ended too soon

It was harder to say goodbye
American Tradition (song)

## About

**American Tradition** is the eighth track off of Natural Born Losers by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

### Album Version

He wants to lift weights like a fighter

We put the medals on the wall

In the room of starving vultures

Gold trophies, he got 'em all

He wants to be just like his father

We play the knife game on the table

I bleed to death, it doesn’t matter

'Cause my baby, he’s still the winner

He holds me in his arms, it’s no good

Things don’t go like they should

Sleep on the carpet through the night

We’re living off a TV dinner

Hanging me up by his gold chain

He used to be a hockey player

I used to be a figure skater

Cutting my leg with the blade

In the blue and red arena

Trying to pretend we’re the same

He holds me in his arms, it’s no good

Things don’t go like they should

### Demo

He wants to lift weights like a fighter

We put the medals on the wall

We are the starving vultures

He wants to shoot like his father

And I want to ? like his

And I saw him win

He wants...
Blood Brothers (song)

## About

**Blood Brothers** is the third track off of Curdled Milk by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

He took me to a motel

He put me on the bed

He cut my arm open

Then did the same to his

The skin parted like petals

On blossoming flowers

We pressed the cuts together

Became one and another

Now we’re blood brothers

A part of me will always live in you

I’ll love all your demons because

Now they’re my demons, too

He watched all of my hair fall out

He lifted me and kissed my scalp

He said, “I know you’re trying to kill yourself,

But I’ll never let you do it

Because our bodies are one now

I’ll eat when you starve yourself

I’ll lick your wounds and kiss your mouth

I’ll take care of you forever”

Now we’re blood brothers

A part of me will always live in you

I’ll love all your demons because

Now they’re my demons, too

We stained the sheets with cum and blood

We consummated with his gun

He said, “I’ll use this to protect you from

Anyone who tries to hurt you”

We lay there naked on the bed

He wrapped my arm with his bandage

We watched the gauze turn blood red

“I’ll take care of you forever”
Pumped Up Kicks (song)

## About

**Pumped Up Kicks** was the fourth track off of Covers and was originally the third track off of Columbine by Nicole Dollanganger. It was written by Foster The People.

## Lyrics

Robert's got a quick hand

He'll look around the room

He won't tell you his plan

He's got a rolled cigarette

Hanging out his mouth

He's a cowboy kid

Yeah, he found a six-shooter gun

In his dad's closet

With a box of fun things

I don't even know what

But he's coming for you

Yeah, he's coming for you

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

Better run, better run, outrun my gun

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

Better run, better run, faster than my bullet

Daddy works a long day

He be coming home late

Yeah, he's coming home late

And he's bringing me a surprise

'Cause dinner's in the kitchen and it's packed in ice

I've waited for a long time

Yeah, the sleight of my hand is now a quick-pull trigger

I reason with my cigarette

And say, "Your hair's on fire, you must've lost your wits, yeah?"

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

Better run, better run, outrun my gun

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

Better run, better run, faster than my bullet
Executioner (song)

## About

**Executioner** is the seventh track off of Natural Born Losers by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Background

The instrumental of Executioner was used in *Houdini & Doyle'*s seventh episode of season one called "Bedlam", which aired on April 23, 2016. Executioner is registered as *Houdini and Doyle Cues* and is not listed in the show's credits as "Executioner".

## Lyrics

### Album Version

Baby, you have to pay in this way or another

In this life or in the next

For as long as we’ve known each other

You’ve been playing this game with death

One day you will be tried

On the execution line

He’ll strap you in and you will fry

Like fireworks on the 4th of July

Baby, you have to pay in this way or another

Whether you can cry or not

Oh, how sad to face the judgement

Unprepared to meet your god

He will wear a rubber coat

Shoot lightning through the vital veins

They think that you emit the light

But you only take it in

The man in uniform will come

And he will stick it in the arm

You’ll scream out for your father

And in darkness I pray you will

Never find him again

(Everybody fries in Texas)

### Demo

Baby, you have to pay in this way or another

In this life or in the next

For as long as we’ve known each other

You’ve been playing this game with death

One day you will be tried

On the execution line

He’ll strap you in and you will fry

Like fireworks on the 4th of July

The man in uniform will come

And he will stick it in the arm

You’ll scream out for your father

And in darkness I pray you will

Never find him again

Baby, you have to pay in this way or another

Whether you can cry or not

Oh, how sad to face the judgement

Unprepared to meet thy god

He will wear a rubber coat

Shoot lightning through the vital veins

They think that you emit the light

But you only take it in

And now should he will come to claim

The 21 grims you pissed away

All your tear ducts will dry up

Just like the worms after a hard rain

Everybody fries in Texas
700 Club (song)

## About

**700 Club** is the seventh track off of Ode To Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs by Nicole Dollanganger.

The title is a reference to the flagship television's program of the same name that airs on the Christian Broadcasting Network (CBN), best known for garnering press and controversy in the '80s and '90s.

## Lyrics

Virgin Mary, Jesus Christ

Think I just found the light in your eyes

Think I just became as religious as they come

I think I just found God

Dumb founded by the glow of your gold halo

Oh, God, I can't believe I'm staring at a living angel

Give me a Bible, I'll put my hand on it

Give me a pen to join the 700 Club

Baptisms baby, dip me in the lake

Pour the holy water, I'll drink the whole cup

'Cause I never believed there was a heaven 'til I found you

And I never prayed like the church always told me to

But now you can count on me to get on my knees for you

Virgin Mary, Jesus Christ

Who would have thought all those church signs were right?

The Lord did come and He is my savior

I'm a good girl now, I'm a believer

I don't have blind faith 'cause I've got proof

I know angels are real now that I've found you

Give me a Bible, I'll put my hand on it

Give me a pen to join the 700 Club

Baptisms baby, dip me in the lake

Pour the holy water, I'll drink the whole cup

'Cause I never believed there was a heaven 'til I found you

And I never prayed like the church always told me to

But now you can count on me to get on my knees for you

Yeah, now you can count on me to get on my knees for you
Dahmer and the Limbs (song)

## About

**Dahmer and the Limbs** is a song by Nicole Dollanganger based on the notorious serial killer and cannibal, Jeffrey Dahmer. It was originally available as the third track on Empty Homes and was also later available on Unreleased for a few weeks. It was released on Empty Homes on January 19, 2014, when the EP was originally titled **b side**. It was added as track four on Unreleased on February 10, 2014, but it was only for a few weeks.

## Lyrics

In my chest I know

How he felt when they left, when they go

Every muscle, every tendon, every bone

Screams, "No, please don't!"

And the flesh, it's just the flesh

Just something to get past

All the tissues, all the cartilage, all the soft fat

And if one day you must die, I want it to be inside me

Limb to limb splits spine to sternum

Ripped open and spread out

Swallowed in my bowels

Anything to make you stay

Anything to make you stay

In my blood, I'm the same

Everything I want to love, I degrade

Every muscle, every tendon, every bone

I take and humiliate

And the flesh, it's just the flesh

But when it's all that you have left

It becomes the only thing you can keep of them

And when one day you know that they're going to go

Your bones scream, "No, please don't!"

Limb to limb splits spine to sternum

Ripped open and spread out

Swallowed in my bowels

Anything to make you stay

Anything to make you stay

Every mess I make, I make on purpose

So I can lie in it when it's over

The only things I have of you I keep

Underneath my skin, inside me

In my chest I know

How he felt when they left, when they go
Sometime After Midnight (song)

## About

**Sometime After Midnight** is the eighth track off of Married in Mount Airy by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

He’ll be picking me up

Sometime after midnight

In the Buick Electra

Sometime after midnight

I know, I’ve spent all day

Thinking of what I’ll wear

At the waterfall vanity

Showered and bare

Checking all the different sides of me

Split in three mirrors

But there’s this feeling in my stomach

Wondering if I should just ignore it but

I was told when something bad happens

It’s usually at night

And I’m watching the sky turn black

By the window-side
I-D 2016 (Interview)

## GIRLI, Nicole Dollanganger, and Sunflower Bean on the Iconic Albums of Their Youth

### Information

"In the second part of this double-feature, GIRLI waxes lyrical about the Arctic Monkeys and Nicole Dollanganger reminisces about Daniel Johnston’s ‘1990.’"

Posted on: February 24, 2016

By: Zio Baritaux

### Interview

A friend of mine burned me a CD of Daniel Johnston's 1990 to have while I spent the summer away. I ended up biking around the neighborhood swamps in Punta Gorda, Florida, aimlessly listening to it on repeat every day. It was the first time I'd heard music that seemed completely unfiltered and unafraid. There wasn't emphasis on production or quality because there just didn't need to be. The songs spoke for themselves and completely changed the way I understood how songs could be written. It encouraged me to do and write what I wanted.
Unreleased (EP)

## About

**Unreleased** is an EP by Nicole Dollanganger that was likely released sometime in February 2014. It was recorded by her in 2011 - 2014.

## Tracklisting

The first track was added to the tracklisting on June 20, 2013. Track two, which was originally included as track five, was added to the tracklisting on February 9, 2014. Track three, which was originally included as track five, was added to the tracklisting on February 23, 2014. Track four was added to the tracklisting on May 18, 2014. Tracks five and six were added to the tracklisting on October 2, 2014.

On February 10, 2014, Dahmer and the Limbs was included in the tracklisting as track four. It was only for a few weeks.
Beverly Marsh (song)

## About

**Beverly Marsh** is the third track off of BabyLand by Nicole Dollanganger. The song is inspired by the character, Beverly Marsh, from *It* by Stephen King. Near the end it contains dialogue from the 1990 miniseries based on the book.

## Lyrics

Beverly Marsh’s father

Took her skull

Put it on the mantel

Hung her photo on the wall

And kissed it,

So gentle
Adam (Reformatory) (song)

## About

**Adam (Reformatory)** is the fourth track off of Flowers of Flesh and Blood by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

The first hit felt like hell

But now they feel like heaven

Know these fists so well

You bear the indents of them

Got a broken jaw

But it feels so good you let them

They beat the shit out of you

And I'm left piecing you together

I look into your eyes

But I can't find a reflection

Skull-fuck you cold

Leave you on the floor

Mouth full of blood

But still you beg for more

All busted up

Lips wired shut

I know you less now

Than I did before

I look into your eyes

But I can't find a reflection

Past these fences, fields stretch for miles

You don't see them anymore, you don't even try

I look into your eyes

But I can't find a reflection
The Nobodies (song)

## About

**The Nobodies** was the fifth track off of Covers and was originally the first track off of Columbine by Nicole Dollanganger. It was written by Marilyn Manson.

Original Tumblr Cover
## Lyrics

Today I'm dirty

I want to be pretty

Tomorrow, I know, that I'm just dirt

We're the nobodies

Wanna be somebodies

When we're dead,

They'll know just who we are

Yesterday I was dirty

Wanted to be pretty

I know now that I'm forever dirt

We're the nobodies

Wanna be somebodies

When we're dead,

They'll know just who we are

Some children died the other day

We fed machines and then we prayed

Puked up and down in morbid faith

You should have seen the ratings that day

We're the nobodies

Wanna be somebodies

When we're dead,

They'll know just who we are
Adam II (Infirmary) (song)

## About

**Adam II (Infirmary)** is the fifth track off of Flowers of Flesh and Blood by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

Like to keep me so sick

Just to mend me a little bit

Lips of sewage

You know that I've gone septic

And I don't want to get better

No, I just want to be in your arms

Keep me in a hospital bed

Sigh over me, my Angel of Death

Hook me up to machines

Have them all

Breathe for me

Drift in saline highs

Cold and sterilized

Wrapped in wet, white sheets

Pale and shivering

And my head is getting heavy

And I just want to be in your arms

Keep me in a hospital bed

Sigh over me, my Angel of Death

Keep me weak, keep me dependent on you

Keep me mean, keep me needing you
Cute Aggression (song)

## About

**Cute Aggression** is the first track off of the Cute Aggression EP by Nicole Dollanganger. It was released as a single on February 16, 2017.

## Background

Dollanganger stated via Twitter that it is a "track from scrapped record demos" and "not indicative of future style/genre..." Also, that it "was always the 'oddball' track and just meant to be something fun".

## Lyrics

Oh, my love, my darling, can't you see?

There's nothing you can take from me

So small and weak, diseased by the

Egregious need to squeeze the life from me

'Cause I'm gonna make, gonna make

Gonna make you wish

Instead of hate that you taught

That you taught me kindness

I’m gonna make

Gonna make you hate

Is it hard for you to want me?

Let it sink down to the floor

Come on, tell me that you want me

Make me beg for more

Filled with blood you drain from me

Just like a leech who feeds with fervent teeth

So, go, once more, come fight me ’til

I give the fight you got the hard-on for

'Cause I'm gonna make, gonna make

Gonna make you wish

Instead of hate that you taught

That you taught me kindness

I’m gonna make

Gonna make you hate

Is it hard for you to want me?

Let it sink down to the floor

Come on, tell me that you want me

Make me beg for more

Is it hard for you to want me?

Let it sink down to the floor

Come on, tell me that you want me

Make me beg for more

Take it away

Leave with nothing

I know

And take it all away

I know

Is it hard for you to want me?

Let it sink down to the floor

Come on, tell me that you want me

Make me beg for more
Observatory Mansions (song)

## About

**Observatory Mansions** is the first track off of Observatory Mansions by Nicole Dollanganger. In 2016, it was rerecorded with Matt Tomasi and added on as track 10 on the Run For Cover Records reissues. The second version was released as a single on September 23, 2016.

Observatory Mansions II Single Cover
## Lyrics

Time scurries away from us like field mice

Out through the holes in our walls

Lost to the dark night

Heal me up again

Everything I love gathers dust inside my chest

And all the love lost was the love that I kept

In coffins and boxes - a museum of the dead

It’s time I let go; let the darkness claim them

Heal me up again

Heal me up again

Carved out of chalk

Out of wax, out of wood

Saints, dolls and angels

In pews they all stood

They said it’s time

To give all that I’ve found

It’s time to give it back

To the ground

And one day they will knock

The buildings down

Like vomit our ghosts

Will all spill out
Black Flies (song)

**Black Flies** is a song by Nicole Dollanganger that was recorded in 2017 for Heart Shaped Bed but didn't make the final cut. It appears on Heart Shaped Bed demos, b sides which was released on December 18, 2019.

## Background

The live take/demo version appears as track five on Heart Shaped Bed demos, b sides and the 2017 studio version appears as track eight. The 2017 studio version was added to Heart Shaped Bed demos, b sides on January 13, 2023.

The 2017 studio version credits include: "Piano & Guitar by Scott Downes. Guitar by Matthew Tomasi. Drums by Leigh Fisk. Produced by Scott Downes. Mixed by Davis Maxwell."

## Lyrics

Black flies swarm at the dairy dreme

They'll die for the taste of something sweet

Face up in the tubs of soft ice cream

Melting in the summer heat

We used to go to the dairy dreme

We'd sit outside and share ice cream

As the bugs drank the blood from our bare feet

'Cause you and me, we were so sweet

Don't you remember darling

We used to go to the dairy dreme

I was so sweet then, you'd have died for me

As we made love in the summer heat

Behind the dairy dreme
Noisey: Style Rider (Interview)

## Nicole Dollanganger Gets By On Her Lucky Charms

### Information

"Co-signed by Grimes, this 23-year-old Canadian singer makes candied pop with a dark sting."

Posted on: September 5, 2015

By: Ilana Kaplan

### Intro

Lately it seems like Grimes has become a magical music fairy godmother. First, Grimes’ tour singer/friend HANA grabbed the attention of electro-pop fans everywhere with her singles “Clay” and “Avalanche,” and now, Grimes’s protégé (and the first signing of artist co-op Eerie Organization) Nicole Dollanganger is on the verge of fame. The 23-year-old Canadian singer-songwriter sounds a lot like a lovechild between Lana Del Rey and Melanie Martinez: Dollanganger’s candy-coated vocals coyly play off raunchy, hypnotic lyrics. Plus, the Canadian singer has a timeless quality about her, care of her dollface and Lolita-like look—something that made us curious about her tour style and essentials. Her fashion sense is all frills and thrills with stickers, good luck charms, and even dolls.

Although Dollanganger has released seven other collections of music on her Bandcamp, her album Natural Born Losers will be released via Grimes’ artist collective on 10.9. With Marilyn Manson covers and a record dedicated to 1995’s cult classic, *Welcome To The Dollhouse*, Dollanganger has an eye for making the obscure her own—something that shines through in her pastel, delicate dresses and cute tchotchkes. We’re totally down with this because it brings us back to being a our obsessive Hello Kitty collecting days.

### Interview

#### Good Luck Charms

Out of superstition I always carry my good luck charms when traveling or doing something I'm nervous and excited about. There are three different pendants given to me, one by my mother, an old friend’s tooth, my grandmother’s ashes, a doll-head pin I found after a hospital visit and a bisque doll.

#### Art and Work Supplies

I do most of my writing on my laptop but also like to carry around a few notebooks and sketchbooks for quick ideas. It’s also very easy to record and demo out a song idea to work on later with just some headphones and my laptop’s recording unit.

#### Dry Shampoo

It’s such a lifesaver when you’re on the road and have to be getting ready in public bathrooms or in the back of a van.

#### Dresses

Dresses are so easy to wear and pack when you’re working with minimal bag space and wanting to still look somewhat presentable. They're also so comfortable and good for traveling.

#### My Coat

My coat is a security blanket. I never go anywhere without it, even in the summer. It's been battered up through the years but it's really comforting to have, even to sometimes sleep in.
Smitten With You (song)

## About

**Smitten With You** is the fifth track off of Ode To Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Background

Nicole described this song in a Tumblr post as, "The only love song that is applicable to every person I've ever had a crush on."

## Lyrics

When I see you I can't find the words to speak

My cheeks go as red as two big cherries

I try to look beautiful for you

Stuffing my dress up with tissues hoping you'll notice

But it's obvious and I get so embarrassed

I'm so smitten with you and everyone knows it

When you're not around I clutch my chest and say,

I'll look you in the eyes and not be so god damn shy

But I am, I can't find the words to speak

But in my dreams I walk up to you and say,

"Do you want to get a milkshake after the show?"

You say, "sure," but first I take you to a bathroom stall

Give you a quick handjob and then we go

Walk across the street in the snow to the restaurant

Squeeze beside each other in the seat, share the same straw

Leave my lipstick on the cup

And lick the foam off with my tongue

Flirting with the waiter when he comes

Twirling my hair and batting my eye lashes

Like a hollywood starlet winking at the cameras

And when we go I wear your coat around my shoulders

And you hold my hand, you walk me home

I take you in, peel off my dress

Throw you on the bed, and do everything I imagined I did

When I masturbated and thought about you
Dog Teeth (song)

## About

**Dog Teeth** is the fifth track off of Curdled Milk by Nicole Dollanganger. It was possibly written about an old friend of Nicole's.

## Lyrics

He handed me a pair of pliers

And he told me to pull out his teeth

Because as long as he had them

He'd use them to do bad things

You’re cold on the inside

There’s a dog in your heart

And it tells you to tear everything apart

My body’s covered in teeth marks

Your bite’s worse than your bark

You ruin everything you touch

And destroy anyone you love

You’re all over me

He’d sunk his teeth into the flesh of many others

Infecting them with whatever was already inside him

He’d broken all their hymens

Cut them open and played inside them

He’d hollowed out their bodies

So they’d feel just empty as him

You’re cold on the inside

There’s a dog in your heart

And it tells you to tear everything apart

You draw blood just to taste it

You hold bones just to break them

You ruin everything you touch

And destroy anyone you love

You’re all over me
A Marvelous Persona (song)

## About

**A Marvelous Persona** is the tenth track off of Natural Born Losers by Nicole Dollanganger.

The album version samples audio from the animated feature *The Halloween Tree*. The demo includes different samples, including audio from the film *Gummo*.

## Lyrics

### Album Version

Oh, Pipkin, what's happened to you?

I think I'm dying.

You are not!

You tried Wally; we all did.

Shut up! Shut up, will ya? Don't quit. Keep running - escape. We'll follow.

We have to go now, Wally.

No, no, Pip! You can't! Wait, will ya?

### Demo

*The amount of overlapping audio makes it difficult to determine the words being spoken.*

He's got what it takes to be a legend.

He's got a marvelous persona...
I'll Wait For You To Call (song)

## About

**I'll Wait For You To Call** is the twelfth track off of Married in Mount Airy by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Lyrics

I'll wait for you to call

And if I wait my whole life

It won't be wasted at all

I'm fine to love you from afar

And if I don't see you again

I understand it's just how things are

I'll wait for you to call

And if I wait my whole life

It won't be wasted at all
Angels of Porn (song)

## About

**Angels of Porn** is the sixth track off of Observatory Mansions by Nicole Dollanganger. The rerecorded version appears as track nine on Natural Born Losers.

## Background

According to an interview, this song was improvised and recorded in a single take.

## Lyrics

My bedroom smells like rotten food

And I guess so do I

It’s harder to be good in here

Than it is to starve and die

I’d give my body to Satan

If I could only keep my soul

But I can’t seem to find the split

Between them anymore

My hair is falling out again

And I don’t really care

I try to stir my conscience

It was never really there

Your fingers up inside of me

Feel like fingers down my throat

Everything is fine in heaven

But I’ll never get to know

Make sacrifice in bathtubs

And stained bed covers

Soak all my clothes in holy water

And drown them like a crying son

Drown them like a crying daughter

Praying in the night to the angels of porn

Nails in their wrists, and knees on the floor

Great lakes full of cum extracted from everyone
Rampage (song)

## About

**Rampage** is the second track off of Observatory Mansions by Nicole Dollanganger. There is an acoustic demo of this song that was meant to be on Ode To Dawn Wiener: Embarrassing Love Songs but is currently unreleased.

## Background

The song samples audio from the movie, *Zero Hour*, and of Eric Harris acting in a homemade video called, *Hitmen for Hire*. Dollanganger has, on several occasions, stated what the song is truly about. She said:

*Rampage isn’t about Columbine, I was just using the (really strong/passionate) reaction a lot of girls have towards Eric Harris and/or Dylan Klebold as a way to talk about something else. The song is about people who believe that because they love a violent person (or a violent person loves them) they won’t hurt them. Also, a belief that giving a really violent person love will prevent them from acting out or doing bad things.*

And again:

*The song is about believing that a violent person will not be violent towards you just because you love them/they love you. My big mistake was referencing Eric and using the sound clip of Hitmen for Hire. But it was an easy way, I thought, to get the message across. You spend any amount of time reading about Columbine and you’re going to come across a very large community of people, predominantly girls, who express deep, emotional and romantic feelings for Eric Harris and/or Dylan Klebold, and the general consensus between them all is the whole.. “I wish I could’ve been there for him, I wish I could’ve given him love, helped him..” and nothing reminds me more of feelings I’ve had in the past to people I knew were violent fuckers than that shit. I think a lot of people would argue me on this, but I don’t believe for a second that if a girl had come along and shown Eric Harris love and warmth that he would have never acted out violently. I don’t think there was an easy solution with him. And I wouldn’t doubt that someone like him would be able to take out that aggression and hatred on someone he loved, or someone who loved him.*

## Lyrics

I hear him screaming like late night white trash TV stations

Black combat boots pacing in through the school building

He’s gonna fight the good fight; The Noble War

Yeah, my baby has a baby but it’s not me

It’s an AK47 semi-automatic gun and

He loves her more than he loves me

(Eric Harris speaking)

*I don't care what you say. If you ever touch him again, I will freaking kill you. I'll pull out a goddamn shotgun and blow your damn head off. Do you understand? Little worthless piece of crap.*

Gunslinger, black duster, delusions of a western

He wears his hat on backwards, sets fire to his locker

He’s gonna fight the good fight; The Noble War

Yeah, my baby has a baby but it’s not me

It’s an AK47 semi-automatic gun and

He loves her more than he loves me

I’ll bet you’ve never seen the smile of Savage-Springfield 67H

With his blurry face and cracked voice gone through VHS tapes

(Zero Hour audio)

Yeah, my baby has a baby but it’s not me

It’s an AK47 semi-automatic gun and

He loves her more than he loves me
Fan Art

*Monthly featured Nicole Dollanganger fan art.*

## 2019

January: FlorFebruary: OliviaMarch: [TBA]April: [TBA]May: [TBA]June: [TBA]July: [TBA]August: [TBA]September: [TBA]October: [TBA]November: [TBA]December: [TBA]
## 2018

January: Noheli CarolinaFebruary: Bug BiiteMarch: Olivia SizemoreApril: Hailey WaitMay: fallghostyJune: MegJuly: shogako.chanAugust: MariSeptember: cherubbbabieOctober: Abby AdairNovember: EmmaDecember: Clyde
## 2017

June: melanpsycholiaJuly: Hailey WaitAugust: The Mad SketcherSeptember: Paige BlessingOctober: Lavanda MinaNovember: Chelsea MartinDecember: Rebekah Holder
Woman Child (book)

**Woman Child** is a collection of poems written by Sarina Kemme-Lynch released on April 8, 2013. It is currently only available in eBook format. The cover was illustrated by Nicole Dollanganger.

## About

Women-children with their mother of pearl eyes, matted seaweed hair, the clam bottoms. Each of us is stuck between an avenue's fork. Our mothers beg to for us watch as if it is a railroad track, but men already resemble knights; we already taste patriarchy. Only some will not curtsy when complimented on the street. They will still wiggle their tongue defiantly, not hold their value upon it.

She can approach liquor, but not dare to drink it - so intoxicated on the dynamics of obeying and disobeying, fluctuating between the expected and outlandish, remaining woman and child.

Here are the poems about that girl, that kaleidoscopic lady.
My Funeral Boy (song)

## About

**My Funeral Boy** is a song by Nicole Dollanganger that was released as a single on July 5, 2013. The rough take is not in common circulation.

## Background

It was posted to Tumblr with the following caption and image:
"*Ok so over the last few months I tried to do things a little differently and wrote maybe 20-30 songs all electronically based but didn’t end up liking any of it so I trashed the whole thing and moved on, but this is one song I wrote for a friend that I didn’t want to delete because it was meant to be a kind of gift to him! So here it is. I also thought it might be cool to post the scanned pages of my book from when I wrote this song so everyone could kind of see the process I have with song writing.*"

The lines "You're no light of my life / No fire of my loin" loosely reference the first lines of *Lolita*, a 1955 novel by Vladimir Navokov.

## Lyrics

In a meadow, I've planted a white cross

For every piece of skin you've cut or burned off

In the wake at a funeral home, I fill your coffin with flowers

To warm your bones

As other have tried to save you, I have not

Where others tried to dig you up, I let you rot

My funeral boy

I know you're already dead

Never wanted to bring you back to life

Only wanted to go down there with you

My funeral boy, my funeral boy

Every time he cuts himself an angel gets their wings

(My funeral boy)

Every time he burns himself my skin begins to sting

My funeral boy

Never wanted to bring you back to life

(Every time he cuts himself)

My funeral boy

Only wanted to go down there with you

(An angel gets their wings)

My funeral boy, my funeral boy

You're no light of my life

No fire of my loin

Flowers on your eyes

Where there should be coins

And your face is as white as the light at the end

But your mind is as dark as the tar at the bottom of the water

My funeral boy, my funeral boy
Married in Mount Airy (song)

## About

**Married in Mount Airy** is the first track off of Married in Mount Airy by Nicole Dollanganger.

The song references Mount Airy Lodge, a large resort that was located near Mount Poconos in Pennsylvania. It became a sought-after honeymoon destination and its popularity peaked in the 1960s and '70s. Due to financial difficulties it closed in 2001 and was demolished shortly after.

The line "All you have to bring is your love of everything," is taken from an ad promoting the lodge in 1987, which Dollanganger posted on Twitter shortly after the album's release.

## Lyrics

I was married in Mount Airy

In its prime, sometime in the late 60’s

Where he carried me into a lover’s suite

And we made love beneath

The mirrored ceilings

And things were merry at Mount Airy

Where they’d sing,

"All you have to bring is your love of everything”

Don’t recall what we were drinking but

I remember thinking

There was something very strange in the air

Don’t recall what we were singing but

I remember swinging

With my hands caught in the curls of his long hair

Don’t recall what we were drinking…

But I could swear he tasted of Sherry

Contrary to the maraschino cherries

With our own colour TV

Heavenly shag carpeting

A world apart from the ordinary,

Something in the air

And things were merry at Mount Airy

Where they’d sing,

"All you have to bring is your love of everything!”

Don’t recall what we were drinking but

I remember thinking

There was something very strange in the air

Don’t recall what we were singing but

I remember swinging

With my hands caught in the curls of his long hair
Uncle (song)

## About

**Uncle** is the first track off of Heart Shaped Bed by Nicole Dollanganger.

## Background

It was formerly titled as "I Slept With my Uncle on my Wedding Night" and "I.S.W.M.U.O.M.W.N" / "ISWMUOMWN" while featured on her EP, Greta Gibson Forever. The original title was named for a lost V.C. Andrews short story of the same name. On February 9, 2018, Dollanganger posted a 13 second snippet of the new version over a clip from the 1987 movie, *Flowers in the Attic*, to her Instagram Stories.

The demo appears as track two on Heart Shaped Bed demos, b sides.

## Lyrics

I wake up and I creep

Down the hall to your feet

Where I lay like a dog for you

In silk down to my knees

Wet with spit, red with need

Three fingers in, you go deep

Reach inside me, please hide me

Somewhere they will never find me

I will always come to you

When I’m weak and empty

With my wedding night blues

When I need you to fill me

Like you do

I wake up and I creep

Down the hall to your feet

Love he gives that I don’t need

Grind it to dust with my teeth

Rose and Neptune in the blue moon

All the darkness goes into you

When we’re lost in the holy bedroom

When I feel you inside, but I still need you

I will always come to you

When I’m weak and empty

With my wedding night blues

When I need you to fill me

Like you do
Tammy Faye (song)

## About

**Tammy Faye** is the second track off of Heart Shaped Bed by Nicole Dollanganger. The title refers to the controversial American Christian singer, evangelist, talk show host, and television personality, Tammy Faye Messner.

The line "I love you so madly like Sadie Mae" is a reference to Susan Atkins, an acolyte of cult leader and murderer Charles Manson. While living with him her alias was Sadie Mae Glutz aka "Sexy Sadie."

## Background

The 2018 Stereogum interview revealed that it was written one night in August of 2017 when Dollanganger couldn’t sleep. Early in morning, she crept away to write and “it just kind of spilled out of me at this weird hour. For me, the songs that happen like that - they speak to me the most,” she said. It was later re-recorded in Tomasi’s studio. The first snippet was released on March 20, 2018.

## Music Video

The music video wrapped on May 17, 2018. It was filmed in Mount Pocono, Pennsylvania and features Xavia Claire Alice, Patience Kingsley, and Maggie Dunlap.

### Behind The Scenes

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## Lyrics

You know how I get

With my Tammy Faye eyes

Crying, I'm a mess

Half undressed in the light of the TV

You know you'll just have to go bury this

In the garden and leave it 'til there's nothing left

For me to find, when I try to dig it up

And bring it back to life

'Cause you know how I get

I love you so madly like Sadie Mae

But I'm just a crazy bitch

Crying in the kitchen to Tammy Wynette

But it's just how I get

With my Tammy Faye eyes

Blood on my clothes and my hands

I've done it again

You know you'll just have to go bury this

In the garden and leave it 'til there's nothing left

For me to find, when I try to dig it up

And bring it back to life

'Cause you know how I get

I love you so madly like Sadie Mae

But I'm just a crazy bitch

Crying in the kitchen to Tammy Wynette

'Cause I shoot the gun any chance I get

With blood on my clothes and my hands

I've done it again
Only Angels Have Wings (song)

## About

**Only Angels Have Wings** is the ninth track off of Heart Shaped Bed by Nicole Dollanganger. It was co-written with collaborator, Matt Tomasi. Its name references the 1939 film, *Only Angels Have Wings*.

## Lyrics

I know it's true

“Only angels have wings”

But they don't get to do

Any of the things we do

And I'm sorry he thinks more of my soul

Then he does my diamonds ‘cause

I'm no good, not even when I'm trying

I know if I was an angel

I'd be begging them to cut the wings off me

Just so I could be here with you, darling

And maybe that's crazy of me, but it's true

I know it's true

“Only angels have wings”

But they don't get to do

Any of the things we do

'Cause when I dream it's you I see

(And I'm sorry he thinks more of my soul

When he does my diamonds ‘cause)

When I dream it's you I see

(I'm no good, not even when I’m trying)

If I was an angel

I'd be begging them to cut the wings off me

Just so I could be here with you, darling

And maybe that's crazy of me, but it's true

If I was an angel

I'd be begging them to cut the wings off me

Just so I could be here with you, darling

And maybe that's crazy of me, but it's true

And I'm sorry he thinks more of my soul

Then he does my diamonds ‘cause