Chapter 106: We Are Losing

**We Are Losing** is the one-hundred-and-sixth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

The girls are covering themselves with trash bags as the rain begins falling harder, and Chi suggests they go back inside. Ichikawa, meanwhile, has managed to get onto Kugenuma's shoulders, shakily asking him to be careful and wondering why he agreed to this in the first place. Ichikawa sees Adachi's team and begins smacking him on the top if his head, telling him to run right, much to his annoyance. As the two cavalries approach, Ichikawa asks himself his own motives in doing this, if it is for Adachi, or to wipe away the past. He realizes it's nothing so noble, but his thought is interrupted by Adachi yelling out that he likes Yamada, but that, more importantly, he thinks that Ichikawa is a good guy, and that's why he's already lost. He proclaims that if he is going to lose, he wants to lose ugly. Ichikawa gets angry, telling him to take things serious, but that he still likes Yamada more than he does. The girls, realizing that the battle is still going on, pause, and Yamada runs up to watch, while Moe comments that they're just whining. As the rain continues, Adachi's footing begins to slip, and he concludes that if he didn't know Ichikawa was this kind of a guy, he'd have ended up hating Yamada, too. He suddenly jumps up in a last ditch-effort off of Oota's shoulders and snatches the hat and bandana from his head, revealing that Yamada had written "Kyou" on his forehead earlier, and she says his name in tandem with the grab. Adachi gives him a smirk as they fall into the mud below with a simultaneous thud and curse. As tears escape Adachi's eyes, Kugenuma comments how it's good that it's raining, and Oota berates him for being reckless.

An announcement over the intercom relays that the rest of the program has been cancelled. Kyoutarou is in the nurse's office, and Yamada and Kana suddenly barge in asking if he's okay, only to find that he is being tended to affectionately by Adachi's mother. Adachi, embarrassed, tells his mother that they should go home, but she tells him not to underestimate her nursing license. He exchanges a look with Yamada and walks off, but as he exits, he walks past Kana, and is suddenly enticed by her, asking if she's Kyoutarou's big sister. He comments on how cute she is, despite her dismissive gaze, and she calls him a brat as the other girls tell him to die.

Back inside the nurse's room, Yamada looks around for Ichikawa, finding him on one of the beds, behind the curtain. She asks if he's okay, but he only replies that he lost the cavalry fight. She says that her mother used to tell her not to forget her feelings of frustration, because they're what move you forward in life. He considers how in his past he tried so hard to suppress that side of him, but it all came pouring back out on today's warpath, and he cringes at the idea. She sadly says that she'll leave the food here, dropping it on the bed, but he suddenly jumps up, saying he'll eat. She brings out three huge tupperware containers full of different dishes, which he finds intimidating. He asks if she made it, and she affirms, showing off the karaage-filled onigiri, and talking over the contents of the meal. He is internally doubtful as she explains the meal, and nervously takes a bite, afraid that he won't be able to fake a reaction if it isn't good. Surprisingly, he enjoys it, and gives a look of satisfaction along with a decisive "yum," which she loves. She thanks him, but he insists it isn't flattery, and calls the taste not too sweet, and rather refined, asking if she used good quality eggs. She blushes at being given so much uncharacteristic praise from him, as he continues saying that it's also cooked perfectly. She leans in close to him as he continues eating, making him nervous, and he assumes she wants some food, so he suddenly takes his chopsticks and puts some in her mouth. She accepts the bite, but says she was just looking at his face as they both blush deeply. He tells her she should eat, too, but she claims it's all his portion, to which he asks her if she thinks he's a sumo wrestler. She gets up to go get her own bento, and he tells her it's fine, but as she crosses the curtain she looks back and tells him that he looked really cool today. He considers how this lame sports festival feels like a curtain lowering on the climax of his life.

## Trivia

Yamada's reaction to Ichikawa praising her cooking largely comes from him not being the type to deal out high praise, which he self-admits to.