At The Start

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The story took off pretty late... That I really thought would never take off and gave up. The ideas haunted me that year. I wanted to write a book about my AU OC's with a deep aching passion, but I avoided it because what was the point. It will only fail like the other unfinished books. That time, I was a user at that cringy Flipline Forum. I have my good and bad times there. Those times were the best because my friends were there, now it is cringy users. But, we'll get back to that later. So, I was goofing around that year, that idea still plaguing my mind. Everyone user was showing their new creation. AU OC's shined that year by one of my friends. I was watching them, feeling out of place. One user struck me like a bolt. I will not name for private reasons. Perhaps I got it wrong, but I was a-mazed at this one user and soon more began to follow them. It was beautiful how everyone began to open up with their unique ideas. I wanted to be part of it but didn't know how to begin. It took a while to expand my thoughts. Soon, that user and I became good friends. By then I had already tried opening up about my AU OC's. Sure, some users liked it but I was still so shy. Took a while. Then I began to blossom and make more, but no book yet. One day I did it. I began to write about my main AU OC's. It was a small story with so many plots and holes were everywhere. It was pretty bad, but some users liked it! But, I began to lose a bit of interest and went on hiatus. A few years passed and I was more focused on AU OC's and guilt. I felt bad about my first story, but there was so much to say So, I went WAY back. To the very beginning.

How and *why?*

I was fired.

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*Nice, huh?*

Yes, my sister I were fired from my babysitting job with no warning. I was pretty bummed out and spent my time moping around and thinking of the little twirp we took care of. Bad day. The New year was looking bleak. I logged onto the forum, watching everyone goof around. I was going to bump my old story but didn't feel up to it. Sooo...

I wasn't thinking straight.

I started a new topic in the Fan Fiction board, wrote a short chapter and gave it a name before posting.

*"I AM... The Rebellion."*

The first book of Loyal was born. Looking back, it was all random and the story-line was not even ready. I had no right making another book, but I did. Even after posting, I thought it was to be abandoned. To my surprise, there were already three comments on my topic, my heart swelled, but I was a bit scared. What if this was another failed book? Lord knows I have plenty of ***those.***

I hope it takes off better than the last ones.

Perhaps it will. So, during that time I posted a lot of chapters and I did get a lot of readers. During that time I became depressed and stopped writing for a while. (weeks/months?) Couldn't get in the groove and I felt that the story was failing. All it took was a small post to keep my spirits up. Someone asked me if I was going to post another chapter.

That... That meant so much.

It really did.

That was enough to keep me going and I posted new chapters. The joy was back again and it stayed for a long time. That user and I became such good friends. Sadly, they left and I never heard from them again.

I hope they are okay... I really do...

I had been writing for a while, mostly random stuff. Bad moooooove. lol. I really fucked up there. But, I am updating and adding more parts and chapters. I hope it gets better...

But around 2017 is when I really hit rock bottom. There was a tragic death in the family and I was in no mood to write. It was such a dark period I thought it was going to kill me.

By then, I had already finished Part One and was in the middle of Part Two.

Lord, I am rewriting everything.

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