Onii-chan

ONII-CHAN

## Appearance

Onii-chan is about the same height, and has about the same body size and shape as their sibling, Yuuki, although she is a couple of years older, making her about 14~15 years old. Her face is round with full cheeks, and a slightly blunted chin. Onii-chan has somewhat course, straight, black hair, with gray and off-white highlights. She combs it into a pixie cut, worn with a girl's wide headband across her head. Many narrow, full bangs drape down covering her forehead. She has huge, dynamic 'manga girl' eyes, so rare for a perceived male. Her eyes, like Yuuki's are of a reddish amber color. Thick, expressive eyelashes and normal eyebrows compliment her face. She always wears wide, circular steel-rimed glasses, giving her a mature and scholarly look. Onii-chan's body size is such that she can wear Yuuki's girls clothes without much trouble. She has a thin neck, narrow shoulders, thin longer arms and average hands. Onii-chan tried on Yuuki's bra, and because she also has a flat chest, the bra fit well. It is implied that Onii-chan will also begin wearing a training bra of her own. She has a proportional sized waist, narrow hips like a typical boy, long, trim legs, and average sized feet.

In the story, Onii-chan does not have girl clothes of her own yet, however, she tries on and wears a flower print pattern sundress of Yuuki's, and later a Gothic/Lolita outfit, also belonging to Yuuki. Onii-chan was greatly distressed, thinking that if she wore girl's clothes out in public, she would only be giving the negative impression of a 'boy' cross-dressed in girl's fashion attire. However, Yuuki's two girl friends proclaim that she presents as an "adorable" teenage girl, thereby overruling Onii-chan's misunderstanding of her own feminine presentation. In fact, one of Yuuki's female friends dresses Onii-chan in a little girl's birthday party dress at a department story, and once again it becomes so obvious that she can wear cute clothes and be seen as an authentic girl without any trouble. Onii-chan is proclaimed as being a fine example, and will present as a girl with no qualms or any valid criticism of her fashion style.

## Personality and Circumstances

As somewhat of a contrast to Yuuki's vibrant and outgoing personality, Onii-chan grew up more reserved, studious, unassuming, level-headed, and mindful of their station in life. Like Yuuki, Onii-chan knew all along that she had a female Gender Identity. However, unlike Yuuki, Onii-chan chose, throughout their childhood and puberty, to hide that fact inside themselves, buried under a ton of self-denial and being supposedly content to living their life masquerading as a 'male'. Yet it was inevitable that sometime in their life Onii-chan would be faced with the hardcore fact that they were born a female inside, and the personality mismatch with their perceived birth sex of male would have to someday be resolved.

The low-key way that Onii-chan's transition began touched off a firestorm of conflicting emotions within her mind, heart, and spirit. One day Onii-chan was tempted, while cleaning up the clothing mess that Yuuki left, to try on one of her sundresses. Onii-chan was the only one home, so why not? Next, Onii-chan tried on a bra and panties set also belonging to Yuuki, and that did the trick. Onii-chan did a 'coming out' to herself that she was an authentic girl after all. Yet this revelation within herself had some unintended consequences.

As with many male to female persons IRL, Onii-chan had the 'go ahead' from her heart and spirit to begin presenting as a teenage girl. But her mind was racked with fear, fear of the unknown, fear of what others would think, fear if they had the fortitude to pull off a real transition. Thus, this explains why she agreed to Yuuki's offer to go out in public dressed as a cute girl, but was so, so frightened of actually doing so. This fear in her mind was overriding the desire to present as her correct gender. Thankfully, this dilemma lasted only a couple or so hours. Yuuki's two female friends convinced Onii-chan that she was actually "adorable", rather than her own assessment of herself as supposedly "shameful". With Onii-chan in the company of Yuuki and her two girl friends, Onii-chan rather rapidly was shown that she has nothing to fear about going out in public dressed as a girl, and doing all the typical things that teenage girls like to do. Onii-chan's better judgement part of her personality prevailed. Her good personality traits even moved her to offer help and consolation to Yuuki, when Yuuki became jealous and fearful within herself that Onii-chan would once again overshadow her. However, that very day Onii-chan and Yuuki came to a private, intimate understanding between themselves as regards their mutual gender concerns. Both siblings are destined to be wonderful trans girls, and help one another achieve their gender goals, living their lives as they were meant to do so, as females.

## Trivia

Onii-chan's first and last name is not mentioned in the oneshot manga. They are only referred to by the sibling title of 'Onii-chan', which literally means, "Big Brother". At the end of the story, Onii-chan is called, "Onee-chan", which literally means "Big Sister".