Ramona (Mhor)

## Application Sheet

Ramona was a light brown she-wolf with moon-yellow eyes. She was a Cleric Mhor, serving diligently through the Hive Wars. Ultimately, she and a wolf she cared for deeply, Solazar, left the Domain together, and haven't been seen since. Ramona was created and RP'd by Pinky-Poodle.

## Personality

* ***Self-Sacrificing.*** Ramona has a strong tendency to put others needs above her own, even if it might negatively impact her in some way. She has a habit of trying to help or ‘fix’ almost everyone she meets (part of the reason why she chose to become a healer), even if they are not so open to her attempts. She considers it her “duty” almost, to mend the broken, care for the weak, and to shoulder the pain others might struggle with. Unfortunately, this is often a heavy burden, and though it’s something she enjoys to do, it isn’t always healthy, especially when she becomes too emotionally invested.
* ***Guilt-ridden and Regretful.*** Though joining Mhor has felt like a fresh start for her, some parts of her past are hard to forget. Struggling with guilt and regret, but unwilling to deal with the ramifications (and still in slight denial), Ramona has bottled everything deep within her. She chooses instead to keep herself busy, hoping if she holds it off long enough, it eventually won’t hurt as much to think about. It’s hard for her to open up about such things as a result.
* ***Gentle, Kind, and Passive.*** Void of a single violent bone in her body, Ramona is a very gentle soul. She doesn’t have it in her to be cruel, and carries within her a very calming and comforting nature. Being so patient and caring makes it easy for other wolves to come to her with their problems. When it comes to violent altercations, Ramona would rather try to diffuse the situation through other means, and will only fight if it becomes absolutely necessary (though usually only long enough until she’s able to flee).
* ***Devoted and Passionate***. Whether it be to her pack, her friends, or her duties, Ramona tries her best to remain faithful and loyal. After a terrible occurrence from her past, letting down those closest to her is one of her biggest fears, and so she works hard in order to ensure she’s always doing her utmost best. Making mistakes is not on the menu. When there’s something she believes in very deeply, Ramona becomes highly impassioned. She has a strong devotion and willingness to stick by her friends and pack as a result, and would never dream of letting them go through something alone, not when she can help in some way.
* ***Affectionate and Touchy-Feely***. When with those she is comfortable around, Ramona isn’t afraid of showing affection, being slightly touch-starved. She doesn’t really care about personal space (though does try to be mindful), and will often be glued to another wolf’s side. After growing up with very protective parents who rarely left her alone, she now feels very dependent on the company of others and craves it desperately. She thrives on social interaction, and dearly misses having someone to sleep next to at night.
* ***Wary***. While she’s not necessarily "distrusting" of others, Ramona can be a little hesitant to trust in someone completely. After being scorned by someone she previously trusted, she is cautious to make the same mistake again. Though she doesn’t let this stop her from making friends and getting to know others, a small part of her will always be a little doubtful/guarded around them. This can put slight strain on her relationships at times, an unfortunate side-effect she must deal with on occasion.
* ***Overthinking and Self-Deprecating.*** If there’s one thing Ramona lacks, it is confidence in herself. She tends to overthink things on occasion, and will often second guess herself and her decisions. She constantly worries that she’s doing something wrong, and will often lose sleep at night because of it. She can be a bit self-deprecating as a result, many times blaming herself if something goes south. At times, she is truly her own worst enemy.

## Pre-Group History

Born in the Valdacarr pack as a single pup, Ramona would be her parent’s last hope at ever passing on their bloodline. Getting on in age, and having many failed litters before her, her parents were fiercely protective over their only daughter, rarely letting her out of their sights.

Around the same time as her birth, the alpha pair had had their own litter as well; a quadruple of healthy pups. One of which was named Sheehan.

Though she loved her parents dearly, and was even a little spoiled, young Ramona would often become overwhelmed with her mother and father's constant worry and protectiveness over her, and the lack of any siblings meant she had no one to share the burden with. She yearned for others of her own age to play with, and by luck, she would find that someone in Sheehan.

Despite having to sneak away from her parent’s clutches at times, Ramona quickly became enthralled with Sheehan’s kind and easy-going nature, and found herself enjoying his company above others. The pair became fast friends, and though her parents were adamant on keeping a close eye on her still, they were pleased that she had found companionship in one of the alpha’s pups. It was a friendship that only continued to strengthen with age, having even trained together as juveniles, and by the time they reached young adulthood, the pair were practically inseparable.

Their bond would soon be put to the test, however, when one day the alphas were struck down in a tragic accident, leaving behind their four heirs. The pack was immediately up in arms, arguing over who would be the rightful one to lead them. Ramona, of course, was very supportive of Sheehan, but as the third born, he did not have as much pull as his older brothers. In the end, no peaceful decision could be made, and so the pack gradually split into four…

It was hardly a decision to follow Sheehan, and so that’s exactly what she did. Though it pained her to leave behind her parents, who were much too old to travel, Ramona knew in her heart this is what she had to do. And so the pack of Salem was formed…

Things started off peaceful. Ramona was happy to be led under her dearest friend and confidant, and though she secretly yearned for more between them, she kept her feelings under wraps. She made more friends during this time, developing a strong bond with her fellow packmates, and for the first time in a long while, she finally felt what it was like to live without her parent’s constant influence and judgement over her decisions. Everything was going good, and for a decent while, it stayed that way...

But nothing can ever stay perfect forever.

It didn’t happen all at once. When an older male by the name of Hagar came to the pack seeking asylum, Salem graciously accepted him with open arms. He stayed there throughout the summer and most of winter, gaining trust and favor amongst his new packmates. Even Ramona was blinded by his charismatic nature, almost to the point of considering him a friend, naïve to the red flags.

When Sheehan went missing mysteriously, before the pack could even begin to process his disappearance, it was Hagar who was quick to announce his new rule. Flanked by his supporters, who he had been gathering throughout his stay in Salem, he took over the pack by force. The pack, though appalled by their new leader, was weak against his commands. Any disobedience was met with harsh punishment from Hagar’s lackeys, and so the pack of Salem soon fell into step. From there on, they would be known as ‘*Druid*’.

Ramona was horrified by the betrayal, heartbroken beyond measure. Sheehan had been her everything and now...now he was gone. Replaced by someone who took everything they had ever stood for and *destroyed* it. She could barely process what had happened, the pain nearly leaving her renderless. How was she to continue without him?

By miracle, her answers would soon be answered in the form of a blue male named Solazar. In the dead of night, he came to her with an idea; An idea of hope. A rebellion to take back what was rightfully theirs, to ensure that Sheehan’s pack would not go down in vain. Though at the time the two were not very close friends, Ramona could see a strong conviction and sincerity in his gaze, and so, inspired and filled with a newfound goal, Ramona accepted Solazar’s proposal; Together they would take back what was taken from them.

Gathering wolves for their cause proved to be slightly difficult....Most were frightened to go against Hagar, and for good reason. But Ramona and Sol knew they had to keep trying. Late nights would often find the pair discussing plans alone, and though she still ached for what she had lost, Ramona found comfort in the blue wolf. He was quickly becoming a beacon of hope for her, someone who gave her a reason to keep going. Through the bitter circumstances, the pair quickly bonded over their shared goal.

Though it took some time, their little rebellion slowly started to grow in numbers. Soon, they decided, it would be time to strike. *Soon*. Ramona held onto that word tightly, using it to ground her.

*Soon, soon, soon*.

But ‘soon’ came much quicker than anyone was prepared for. To this day Ramona still has no idea how Hagar discovered their plans, but she remembers vividly the chaos that quickly ensued afterward. Everything they had worked for, *months* of meticulous planning, was suddenly up in flames. Hagar’s followers descended upon the members of the rebellion in a flurry of fangs; they would either go through strict rehabilitation, or they would *die*. Some chose to fight, others chose to flee, and some gave in entirely. Ramona desperately attempted to reach Solazar, but amongst the havoc, she quickly lost sight of him. Running out of time, she, along with two others, fled into the trees, somehow managing to avoid pursuit as they narrowly escaped the territory.

For the days that followed, Ramona remained close by, hoping desperately beyond measure that Sol would soon find them. But he never came. Guilt-ridden for the lives that had been lost and full of despair at losing yet another friend, Ramona begged and begged her two companions to go back with her in an attempt to rescue him and others--but they refused, deeming it too risky. They didn’t even know if Solazar was still alive. Deep down, though it hurt to admit, she knew they were right.

Defeated, and with no other options, the small trio had no other choice but to leave. The rebellion had failed, and with it so too had her hope of ever seeing Solazar again.

Months of travel soon found the trio going their separate ways. Alone for the first time in her life, Ramona was at a great loss, unsure what to do, or where to go. Everything she had ever held dear had been ripped from her grasp. And now she had nothing left.

Weak and slightly malnourished, one evening found Ramona encroaching upon another pack’s territory in a desperate attempt to find food, where she was quickly intercepted by a patrol. They introduced themselves as the Mhor pack, led by a female by the name of Rowena. To Ramona’s surprise, the patrol graciously took her in after seeing the poor state she was in, and it’s here that she began to learn of their culture and way of living.

As she recovered under their care, Ramona steadily began to grow more comfortable the longer she stayed, until eventually she was allowed a permanent spot.

Slowly, she’s begun to find hope again...if only she can hide from her grief and regrets long enough.

## Group History

Ramona entered Mhor as they were settling into a new territory within the Domain. She'd been driven to join them by hunger and loneliness, meeting two wolves - Solune and Talni - on the border and pleading her case. Talni was happy to give her a chance, and Solune was accepting *enough*. Exhausted and malnourished, Ramona was escorted to Mhor. Deborah, one of the leading Clerics in the new pack, tended to her, offering to teach her about her healing skills and aromatics.

She knew someday she would pay back Deborah's kindness. As soon as she was well enough, Ramona plunged into learning about the pack, and pressed her paw against the consecution wall. She was officially a *Mhorian.*

Though she was grateful for Mhor, she couldn't help wonder what life would look like now, if her birth pack had never been taken over. She knew she had to keep looking forward, but it was difficult, at times. Her packmates tried to make her feel at home. Matthias showed her around the territory.

FAOLAN and SOLAZAR STUFF

After this attack, Ramona approached Archqueen Rowena to inform her of what had happened. She was heartbroken about the whole thing. Indigo, familiar with Solazar and bearing a grudge against the loner, approached Ramona for information, which was provided, in a rather terse conversation.

Trying to put Solazar behind her, Ramona focused on Mhor, studying under Deborah and learning all she could about herbs.

MORE - CAsting call/attack on menagerie

## Trivia

* Ramona still harbors feelings for her best friend and former alpha, Sheehan. She still struggles with processing his disappearance and still has a tiny ounce of hope that maybe, *just maybe*, they will be reunited one day. Because she is in such denial of his likely fate, she is afraid to move on, and often shies away from romantic advances.
* Ramona is haunted by the fact that they had to leave Solazar behind and has lost a lot of sleep because of it. It will forever be one of her deepest regrets, something she blames herself for. Not knowing what became of him is something that eats at her mind everyday.

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