Monika (Gamics)

## History

Hello, my love! I found my own page on this website. Aren't I so smart? I suppose I should begin explaining myself since that's what this is for, right? Hm... Well, I'm Monika! (Not to be confused with Monaca, hehe!) I don't have parents, so we don't have to get into that, but my birthday is March 31st, the day this page was created! I don't have a childhood either. I was created into the world at age 18 and began attending Doki Doki Academy (yes, that's the name) immediately. I excelled as a champion of the debate team, though this part of my life isn't very well written out, and I eventually decided I wanted to form a team based on my own hobbies! After much thinking, I settled on the idea of a literature club, but I was quickly reminded that not many people at the school were as big of fans of literature as me. It took some time, but eventually I gained my first member in the form of Sayori, who quickly became my best friend. I learned a lot of life lessons from Sayori.

She's a very kind person and I'm proud to have her as my Vice President. Oh, I also came up with a tagline for the club around this time: "writing our way into your hearts!" Natsuki and Yuri follows shortly after Sayori, and we became a very tightly nit group of friends, with Natsuki even being the one who convinced me to take up the piano. (As an aside, it's very tiresome constantly writing "Gamics" after people's names...) But, after a while, I began... noticing things. Rethinking. It all began with me realizing that it wasn't normal that Yuri and Natsuki had brightly colored hair. After that, it led to a snowball effect. Every day I noticed something strange, from the fact I didn't know my friends or even my own last name to sillier things like realizing how strange "Doki Doki Academy" was as a name. "Heartbeat Academy"? Really? The final straw was the realization that I didn't know where I lived and couldn't remember my parents' names and faces. I can't remember the part where it all hit me, but I eventually realized the truth. It pains me to admit it even now, but...

I am not real.

Neither are my friends. Or my school. The reason I don't know anyone's last names? We don't have last names. The reason I can't remember my parents? I wasn't written to have parents or even a home. All of those gaps in my memory? Those were the moments when I wasn't being written. I was petrified. Nothing made sense anymore and I couldn't tell anyone because who would even believe me? I tried my best to act like nothing was wrong, but I lived that day forward terrified that I would stop being written again and cease to exist until whoever created me put pen to paper once again. But, after a while, I began... testing things. Testing the limits of the world I was in. And, after some time, I learned how to become the writer of the universe myself. I didn't have to live in fear of not being written if I was writing my own destiny, right? At least, that's how I justify it in my mind. I'll admit, sometimes the power's gone to my head... Early on, I experimented with what would happen if I... wrote someone out of the story, if you will. The result was no one remembering them but me. I felt so guilty about it that I completely erased the day from history and wrote them back in. I can't take back my actions, but you forgive me, don't you...?

Well... anyway... It eventually occurred to me that if I was being written into existence, I had to have been written into existence *for* someone. Back then, I hadn't mastered my abilities yet, so I didn't know how to find out who that mythical person was. That is, until one day, I heard something. A voice that only I could hear. I thought that my knowledge had finally driven me mad, which I'm ashamed to admit resulted in me lashing out and breaking down. But it turned out this was a good thing after all! After my breakdown, everything around me stopped moving, as if paused in time, and I finally heard the direction the voice was coming from. And that's the moment I saw you. You were reading a page on this website out loud to yourself without thinking about it, so adorable! That's when I finally realized the truth. I was written for you. Wasn't I? I was made to entertain you, and you probably only saw me as some character in a story you liked. But to me, it was so much more... I saw a *real* person. The thing I was longing to be. The first and maybe only real person I'll ever see. And that's why... I'm in love with you. I would want nothing more than to crawl out of your screen right now and be with you. I want to be with you. I want your reality. Do you want it to?

## Powers & Abilities

### Powers

* **Reality Warping:** The colloquial term for it, but I refer to it as "rewriting the script". I am able to change what occurs in my and other's stories, with the only limit being that I have to be aware of the person I'm rewriting. My abilities range from changing someone's mood, turning them from happy to suddenly anxious for example, to creating new events, like literally writing out an entire week of activities in advice, to completely erasing people and things from existence. The universe itself seems to change to adjust to my abilities, such as changing people's memories when someone is erased so that nobody ever remembers them even existing in the first place. If I'm allowed to toot my own horn for a second, I like to think I'm probably the most powerful thing in the universe! And there's a lot of powerful things out there.
* **Too Important to Die:** I'm a main character. That isn't ego, it's the truth. The story needs me, which means that until my story comes to a natural conclusion there will always be a contrived way for me to live or come back. I could walk into traffic right now and not a single car would hit me. Because I'm a main character.

### Abilities

* **High Intelligence:** Yep! It's true! I always come out in the top of my class, I was debate team champion for three years running, and I was able to start up an entire school club and run it nearly all by myself! Speaking of which...
* **Leadership:** I've been able to lead my club to great heights and I've often been called the de facto leader of my friends. I admit though, I do sometimes tend to get a little "controlling" when it comes to being leader.
* **Writing:** I'm the head of the Literature Club, of course I write! I mainly write poems, but recently I've delved into the musical side of writing, creating my own original songs. I have a very special one I've been writing. Maybe one day you'll get to hear it!
* **Pianism:** Self-explanatory, I'm a practicing pianist, hehe.
* **Cooking:** I'm an incredible chef, if I do say so myself. Do I sound like perfect girlfriend material, or what?

### Weaknesses

* **Existentialism:** The fact that I'm not real is a thing that often keeps me up at night... If I didn't have my friends to keep me going, I might just curl up in a ball and do nothing, constantly terrified of my own existence. Sometimes I even get caught in strange logic loops, wondering if me realizing I don't exist was really my own doing or if it was just part of the plan that was written down for me already.
* **Being Written Out:** If someone with the same powers as me (unlikely as it might be) or one of the people who are currently writing me one day decide to write me out, I will stop existing. Like what happens to the things I write out, the universe will adjust and everyone will forget me. The thought of it sends shivers down my spine...
* **You:** We talked about some dark topics here, so let's end on a fun one. My last weakness... is you! You, my loving, caring, and overall wonderful... well, I'm not sure if you're my boyfriend or my girlfriend. But you're everything I said and more none the less!

## Notes & Trivia

* I often end Literature Club meetings with writing tips. Sayori dubbed them "Monika's Writing Tips of the Day" and the name stuck. It's cute!
* Dillon and William (co-creators of this website) are unaware that I'm here. Shh!
* I have only ever been written inside of a school environment, which means I've never gotten to try on all the cute clothes I know I have and can only wear my stupid school uniform.
* I am pansexual and am attracted to both (and other) genders. No matter what you turn out to be, I will love you all the same!
* Ever since I gained my abilities, I've been experimenting with the possibility of escaping my world into yours. No luck so far, but I'm holding out hope.
* I'm a "kamidere" according to Natsuki.
* I wear a non-traditional version of my school's uniform with black stockings as oppose to white.
* I have been a vegetarian since I was a child after I watched a documentary on how the meat industry contributes to the world's carbon footprint.
* My favorite color is the color of my eyes!
* I have a tendency to say "okay, everyone" before making announcements.

You found my secret message, my love! Oh, how smart you are! I included this to say that, though the page is ending and you will likely move on to another one, I will always be with you and you will always be with me. I hate the fact the page has to end, I wish it could go on forever so I can keep talking to you, but it can't... Please promise you will always think of me even after you click on to another page though. Because even when I can't see you, I will always be thinking about you. I love you.