Forgive Me

恕我
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Shù wǒ

**《恕我》** is the official soundtrack for Fang Siming released on Netease's Bilibili and Music Cloud on May 5th, 2021.

## Credits

**Singer:** 音频怪物

**Narrator:** 沈磊

**Lyricist:** 择荇

**Composer:** 陈禹

**Arranger:** 陈禹/向心·引力studio

**Producer:** 陈禹

**Guitar:** 李萌

**Xiao:** 水玥儿

**String instrument:** Brilliant Sound Orchestra

**String instrument conductor:** 刘辉

**Sound engineer:** Philip Au@2496Topmusic

**Recording studio:** 2496 Topmusic

**PV:** N-N

**Supervisor:** 一梦江湖/月蚀音乐

## Lyrics:

* Original
* Fan Translation

“我曾在江湖里遇过鲜衣怒马的人，与他饮过醉生梦死的酒，看过皎然升落的月，走过华灯初上的城。”

无人见过我一骑漂泊，

闯入寂夜的深雪中跌落。

天涯有春风早已弃我，

问余生本该何其寂寞。

无人知晓我亲手筹措，

流水浮舟中燎天的烈火。

江湖逢夜雨从未寄我，

想此生可有片刻洒脱。

有枝头璀璨的花开，

或碾落的尘埃，

世间枯荣成败，

自有谁青睐。

恕我只配万劫不复的轮回，

血海千丈骨千堆，

恕我只是面具之下的魑魅，

不谙多情不垂泪。

恕我命中倨傲又谦卑，

孤注一掷地追随，

尘寰颠沛，弃若敝屣不肯退。

恕我曾于生死万念俱灰，

却还记得谁。

“在最惬意的羁旅和最放肆的时节，仿佛我已不是那个，梦魇中挣扎的傀儡，暗夜里孤行的鬼魅。但只有我自己知道，宿命是逾越不了的高山，是喜怒无常的汪洋。”

有谁在意我生来疯魔，

从不解浮世悲欢与憾惑。

大梦无忧又怎能容我，

刀丛间才敢泰然自若。

如深渊山岳般俯仰，

或沧海般跌宕，

世事喜怒无常，

皆由我痴狂。

恕我只配万劫不复的轮回，

血海千丈骨千堆，

恕我只是面具之下的魑魅，

不谙多情不垂泪。

恕我命中倨傲又谦卑，

孤注一掷地追随，

尘寰颠沛，弃若敝屣不肯退。

恕我曾于生死万念俱灰，

却还记得谁。

恕我贪慕春温秋肃的滋味，

江南雪晴饮余晖，

恕我妄求山高水远的年岁，

塞上星河可并辔。

恕我并非光风霁月磊落之辈，

从此陌路不同归，

高阁之下，人间万籁曾鼎沸。

恕我还未，将这温情留给，

长行过的谁。

恕我也想，将这温情留给，

长行过的谁。

“我输给了，天命难违的执念。”

*Please note, this is an interpretation and may deviate from source.*

“In jianghu, I had met people in exquisite attire riding majestic horses. And I had once gotten so intoxicated with him. I had seen the beauty of the moon as it rose and fell, and I had walked through a city as they began to be brimmed with lights.”

No one had seen me wander aimlessly on a horse,

disrupting the deserted night as I fell upon the deep snow,

The warm spring wind reach not the cliff where I had long been abandoned,

Why ought life be so lonely.

No one knew that I beggared for money,

as my boat drifted through the roaring flame of conflict,

Not a place in jianghu will shelter me from the dismal rain,

Never have I once been unconstrained in my life.

When the flowers blossom in radiance,

Or when the dust settle to the ground,

Who will offer a glance in concern

To the misfortunes of life.

Forgive me as I am only befitting of reincarnations of eternal damnation,

With a vast sea of blood and masses of bones,

Forgive me as I am only a monster behind the mask,

Unfeeling and tearless.

Forgive me for I am arrogant yet ignoble,

I would stake my all to pursue for something,

Even if I am in destitute or thrown away, I will not give up

Forgive me for I was once in despair with life

But everyone will be forgotten through time

“During this pleasant journey, and also the most indulgent time of my life, it was as if I was not the puppet struggling in a nightmare and the monster treading through the empty darkness. But only I understood, that fate is a blockage as high as the mountain and as unpredictable as the vast ocean.”

Did it matter to anyone that I was born crazy,

I never understood worldly woes and regrets.

A dream of peacefulness wouldn’t be able to house me either,

Only by being in the battlefield will I feel at eased.

Be as grandiose and magnificent,

or be as free as the ocean,

worldly affairs are transient,

they are all under my whims.

Forgive me as I am only befitting of reincarnations of eternal damnation,

With a vast sea of blood and masses of bones,

Forgive me as I am only a monster behind the mask,

Unfeeling and tearless.

Forgive me for I am arrogant yet ignoble,

I would stake my all to pursue for something,

Even if I am in destitute or thrown away, I will not give up,

Forgive me for I was once in despair with life,

But everyone will be forgotten through time.

Forgive me for relishing at the warm spring and cold autumn,

and drinking wine on a cloudless snowy day in Jiangnan,

Forgive me for selfishly wishing that time will prolong,

that the fortress would be on par with the galaxy.

Forgive me for I am by no means an upright and noble character,

never will we be able to cross paths again,

under the tall pavilion, the world was once rowdy.

Forgive me, for I have not given my warmth,

to the ones who are respectable.

Forgive me, for I also want to give my warmth,

to the ones who are respectable.

“I lost, to destiny’s undefiable will. ”
## Links

**Bilibili:** https://www.bilibili.com/s/video/BV1aK4y1G79c

**163 Music:** https://music.163.com/song?id=1846540053&userid=1507494382