Week 5

Last round after the POV, I was talking with Alexa and we both mutually decided we'd rather Annabelle stay and for Will to go, and Alexa talked to me about talking to Jenna about using the POV, so I did and she didn't want to do it which is fine. Then after the POV Will approached me saying he heard I wanted to backdoor him, I didn't deny it and just asked him who told him since I only said it to two people. He gave me a weird vibe and it wasn't hard to figure out it was Alexa, who has been playing both sides the entire game. So I got HOH and had 10 minutes to decide, and sorta just jumped the gun on it and figured why not just go for the snake head. I've been in the minority for the first two HOH's and ignored sorta for the next two so I just wanted to go after a real target and none of this stay safe bullshit. Alexa starts saying how hurt she is and pleading with me, that is until after she's saved and starts going at me in the chat with lies about how I'm a snake (never lied) and how I'm running the game (first time anyone I ever suggested was actually even nominated). Now I'm being told it was only an inference but, come on, it's too convenient and too specific for Will to have just thought that from a conversation with Jenna.
So now I'm probably screwed but hey I don't think I've actually ever played a day in this org or my other one where I wasn't ¯\\_(ツ)\_/¯

However, I will not be getting overconfident this week. I'm well aware that my plans could go rogue with the wrong person holding the Power of Veto but I will assure you one thing -- someone from that alliance (hopefully Sydney) WILL be sent packing. They tried getting me to put up Joey & Ryan goodbye, go try and push someone else's fucking buttons.
I gave that competition everything I absolutely had. Took three Advils and had 2 cups of coffee! I'm so excited to play this week smart and set myself up for future weeks. No way I'm going out without a fight.

I feel like I was successful in making amends with Charley but she could be telling me what I want to here since I’m in power for the week, but hopefully she’s being genuine.
Elmo is playing such a weird social game… sorry buddy I love you but like you’re so shady. And I’m onto your duo with Ryan, you better not vote out
The people I trust the most are Forrest/Estefana for sure, only ones who’ve had my back this whole time. But Estefana turns on her allies for “iconic moves” in the long run so I need to be weary.
So since I’m HOH this week I really don’t want to go on a power trip and be overconfident. I’m going to use this week get people’s ego stroking/desperate manner to repair the damage Will did to my game and hopefully start fresh. I’ve always been a hardcore social strategist, and I won’t give up now. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger right?
I really want to send Sydney out the backdoor this week but the pawns (AnnaJane/Zak) would still be a good hit even if she did somehow manage to win veto. I’m not going to be cocky or start drama this week because I know these snakes would keep Sydney just to fuel the fire and I don’t want that shit to happen. I’m playing it 100% strategically as always, I’m not letting emotions get in the way.

Jenna is also being very sloppy right now because she ran to Elmo saying how great it is for Sydney to have won the veto since she and I will be going at each other’s throats. Right after she told me how she wants Sydney/I to make amends and stick together and that she’s bummed that Sydney won. Girl, a piece of advice. Play a blunt straight-shooter game because the sneaky card does not work for you. Elmo/I have just agreed to let Jenna believe she has us fooled.
When looking at this game past my HOH reign it’s not logical to put up Jenna/Charley because I’ll be alienating two people who possibly will keep me safe (although I know they’re snakey in the game). I might just have to use Joey as a pawn since he’s got no alliance and is semi-close to Sydney. This week is still a win situation for me because they’re going to lose a number so. I gave those competitions everything I had so I’m not disappointed in myself.

Zakriah/Joey are up on the block, which isn't the most ideal pairing in the world but I'll live. I was hoping Zakriah could be useful to me later on, but at the moment it's crucial we knock out one of the other side's numbers so he has to go rip. Alexa said she got Courstina on board to evict him so with their vote we'd have 5 and that's majority. so fingers crossed that's what happens
Jenna has been putting in so much effort to be social with everyone not on her side omg. She's a nice girl but her game is sooooo transparent. She is trying to be friends with everybody meanwhile everyone knows this house is split in damn two, and we're on opposite sides of the fence. I can tell she's nervous that I'll get power and target her........ and she should be!!!!!!!!!!

If Joey ends up going home it doesn’t do any harm to my game because he was just a mere floater anyways. Zak/Anna/Sydney/Jenna (possibly) are all gunning for me anyways, which is blatantly obvious. Zak going home would be nice, and right now I have the 4 from my alliance + Christina (is she stays true to her word hopefully). Charley’s advantage could fuck everything up but that’d be idiotic because advantages are pretty unfair.
I already know Sydney/I are both doomed and will probably go out in the next 3-4 weeks for being the ringleaders but I’m not going out without a fight. I’m going to take a few of them down with me if that’s my fate, giving this game my all like I have been all season. And it’s all game, not personal so.