Tape C

The contents of tape C are played in episode 3, starting at 8:25.

## Timeline within the episode

What appears to be rain can be heard in the background, while he says:
"She defined insanity as a person's inability to accept the reality that they perceive. She said that, in order for a person to go in saying that they don't need to have an entire alternate reality that they're subscribed to, they just need to have doubt in their own reality. That that doubt alone could be so damaging that it could break the foundation of their reality. Once that foundation was broken, everything else becomes weakened, everything else [...] has the potential to, I mean think about it: If you're willing to question a core truth, a core belief, then suddenly anything can come into question."
"She said because of this, that insanity was highly infectuous, and that often times, there would be a single question that caused that initial foundational break. That there would be a single question that [...] or not even necessarily a question, but a notion that a person couldn't reconcile with, something that they couldn't come to grips with. She called this 'breaker questions'."
"And it's not like there's some specific list of breaker questions. You know, there's not like some list out there of 30 things that you can ask that will drive someone insane. It's an individual, unique experience for everyone. It's just something that gets *you* to question your reality. And that once a person starts to doubt their own reality, everything else becomes easy to doubt too. And eventually, it becomes easier to doubt things than it does to believe things."
"Let's say you believe something crazy. Let's say you believe that the world was flat. Even there's countless of bits of evidence that you have to disregard, and then not that, but you also have to believe other crazy things too, like you have to believe there's some sort of a conspiracy going on. That there are people who are actively, consciously lying to you about it. And you have to fabricate an agenda for why they would do this. Then you have to fabricate a power structure that exists, that creates us. And then on and on and on. And then, now suddenly, you're comfortable believing all of these things, and doubting all of these things, and [distorted]"
 11:26 - 15:11
He goes on explaining that the same applies to mental energy as well, in terms of skills like problem solving or awareness of the surrounding environment. This is why we resort to "safe routines" in our daily lives, which we do not have to doubt or question. This is also the reason why organizations, governments and religions work. He calls this set of collective beliefs a "mythos" or "doctrine", which takes the place of original thought and doubt. This improves our survival of our species.
 15:11 - 16:35
 16:35 - 17:04
 17:04 - 19:55
He does not consider his brother an evil person, he just had "something in his head that wasn't wired right". His brother, himself and his mother tried to fight it.
His brother used to call him on the phone often to talk. He noticed a "manic tone" in his brother's voice. When his brother would call during the night with that sound in his voice, he knew that it would be a long call. He tried to help his brother and talk him down, but he didn't know how to do it.
They tried different forms of therapy with his brother, but nothing seemed to help.
 19:55 - 21:02
In total, his brother killed 19 people. He doubts that he could have prevented this on the long run, even if he had picked up the call during that night.
 21:02 - 25:16
"But my parents have a lot of money. They have a lot of status. Paid to have it all covered up. To have it stay out of the papers."
"And my brother went to jail, and he killed himself."
He expressed that this caused a lot of anger within him. He was unable to deal with the situation, seeing no options for him doing anything about it.
He made a plan to talk to the victims' families. He wants to apologize to them, on his brother's behalf. With no intention of explaining the tragedy away, he was ready to receive any amount of anger or negativity they would throw at him.
As a reason for this, he gives "because they needed somebody to hate". He effectively wants to act as a vent for the victims' families, because his parents had covered it all up.
He mentions that some of them did not want to talk to him, implying that his visit to the town was not for the first family on his list. Others did talk to him.
This is how he finally arrived in this town, finding himself trapped inside it.
 25:16 - 26:15
 26:15 - 26:51
He is afraid that the thing from the woods will find him soon and kill him.

## Distorted passages

* 8:25
* 11:09
* 13:05
* 17:04 -- not distorted but skipped