Cuckhold

Throwaway account because my wife
follows my regular account here. My (28m) wife (26f) and I have
admittedly had very vanilla sex throughout our 3 year marriage. We had
our first kid a year ago and it seriously slowed down our sex life.
However, a little under a month ago she approached me about “trying new
things”. She has been hanging out with a group of moms in our
neighborhood and one of them told her that she and her husband tried
pegging and it completely transformed their marriage. My wife told me
that she wanted to try pegging as well to “spice things up”. At first I
thought it was a joke, but soon realized she actually wanted to peg me. I
 had never done assplay before and had always lived by the philosophy
that the anus is solely an exit, but my wife made it clear that this was
 important to her so after a few days I obliged.

That
 next weekend, she pegged me and everything was surprisingly enjoyable.
Additionally, the week following the pegging was one of the best weeks
we’ve had together since the birth of our child. We were back to our old
 sex life, doing things like having sex before work and even waking each
 other up with head. However, that next weekend she told me she wanted
to peg me again. I was slightly confused as to why this last week of sex
 wasn’t cutting it for her, but I agreed.

This
 is when things took an extreme turn. During this second pegging while
my wife was inside of me, she grabbed my hair, craned my neck to the
right, and pressed our foreheads together. I had never seen her take
control like this and thought it was very hot until she looked me in the
 eye and whispered “I want your shit”. I pulled my face away and asked
her to repeat and she said “I want you to shit on me”. I pushed her off
of me and asked her if she was joking and she started crying. I felt
like a fucking dick because she thought I was kinkshaming her. In a way,
 I was because I thought the request was far too extreme. I ended up
leaving for the night and stayed with one of my close friends, but
didn’t tell him what happened.

After
 that incident, my wife and I hardly talked all week unless it related
to our son. At the end of the week, I asked my wife to talk about what
happened. She told me again that she wanted me to shit on her and that
it meant a lot to her. I thought it was sickening, but she claimed this
was her deepest, darkest kink. I couldn’t understand how and why my shit
 excited her, but she insisted that she has always wanted this.

We
 fought about this for about a week and after watching some scat porn
and reading articles by people who also shared this kink, I tried to put
 myself in my wife’s shoes. I told her that I will shit on her if that
is what will turn her on. She was so happy and even though I was still
completely nauseated by this desire, I wanted to satisfy her.

That
 brings us to tonight. We were having sex for the first time this week
when I (regrettably) confessed to her that I had to take a shit. She
perked up with a smile, sensed my discomfort, and began stroking my hair
 and whispering encouraging things to me. I still really didn’t want to
go through with it, but since I had promised her I pulled out and we ran
 to the bathroom.

She got into the
 bathtub and I hung my ass over the side of the tub. I started pushing,
but unsurprisingly found it very difficult to successfully shit on my
wife. I turned my head around to see my wife staring up and smiling at
me waiting for me to finish. With enough time, I was finally able to get
 a turd to start coming out. I could hear my wife breathing heavier
beneath me as my asshole started opening. However, before the turd was
able to drop on her chest, I felt a sensation around my asshole.

I
 turned around and saw my wife - the love of my life, the mother of my
son - attempting to catch my turd in her mouth as it fell out of my
asshole. I was horrified that she would try to do this, and tried to
pull the shit back into my body so she couldn’t receive it in her mouth.
 Seeing what looked like an attempt by her to eat my shit brought me
close to throwing up.

As I
clenched my buttcheeks together to try to stop the shit from reaching my
 wife, the clenching cut off a very small piece of my shit and I heard
it land somewhere beneath me. I was too scared and disgusted to look at
my wife to see what she had done with it, so I ran to the other bathroom
 to clean myself. As I was sitting in the other bathroom thinking about
how I will ever be able to look my wife in the eye again, I heard
footsteps approaching. My wife lightly knocked on the door. I didn’t
respond and was on the verge of throwing up the more I thought about
what just happened. She walked away and then I got a text from her
thanking me for fulfilling her wish and asking me to come to bed.

I’ve
 been sitting in the living room typing this for the last half hour
scared to face my wife. We have plans to take our son to the zoo with
another family tomorrow, but I don’t think I can look at her after what
she did to me. I feel deceived and violated by the woman I love and
trust. During our initial conversations about this, there was never a
question that my shit would go anywhere other than her chest. She knew
how uncomfortable I was with this in the first place, yet she still
tried to push the boundary that we had established.

I
 would appreciate any feedback from anyone who has experienced a similar
 violation of trust from a loved one. I’m turning to this sub for advice
 because for obvious reasons, I cannot tell anyone that knows my wife
and I. I know that some of you may find this humorous, but please
serious comments only - this is something that could lead to the end of
our marriage.