Chapter 58: I Want To Rely On Her

**I Want To Rely On Her** is the fifty-seventh Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu.* It begins Volume 5 of the published Manga.

## Summary

In class, Chi is commenting on Ichikawa's fractured arm. She explains how Yamada told her that he broke it on a snowy mountain in Akita, while Yamada grabs her by the shoulders and quietly calls her name to get her to stop. She offers to get them to write on his cast, but he feels pressured by all the attention his injury is getting him. Adachi slams his desk, telling Ichikawa not to get cocky over it. Chi brings up the Akita Charm on his shirt, making him self-conscious and calling it gross. She and Serina walk off, with Serina commenting that he's trying for some kind of gap appeal. He takes off the charm and puts it in his pocket, and Yamada walks up to him trying to tell him that if he has any problems on account of his injury, she can help, but she gets cut off by a couple of Yamada's friends from another class, who call her into the hallway.

Maeda walks into the entrance and calls Ichikawa into the hallway. Outside, they talk about how it's unfortunate that he's lost use of his dominant hand, and he proposes someone to help him keep up with notes during class, and recommends the person he gets along with best in class, that being, of course, Yamada. He says that her seat is close to his as well, and asks if it's a good idea, but he considers how she's got a lot of people she would want to interact with, and how busy she is, and rejects the offer, claiming they aren't really that close. He says he'll manage without help, and quickly steps back into the room, only to find Yamada herself listening in from the side of the doorway, and looking hurt. He curses his actions, and festers on how all the progress he felt he'd made with her over the Winter Break just went up in smoke, and he is the one to blame.

During break, he considers who to ask about taking notes from, and looks over to Yamada, but she turns away from him. He thinks that Hara would gladly help, but considers about Yamada, and how bad of an idea that would be. He finally lands on Adachi, but surprisingly he already has a copy, telling him how Yamada asked him to make one on account of her messy handwriting.

After school, Ichikawa encounters Yamada at the shoe locker, and awkwardly apologizes. She asks him what for, wanting to hear it from him, and refusing his apology until he says the full line. Finally, he breaks down, and admits that he didn't want to have her help him, but now realizes that she's the one he wants to rely on the most. The snuggles up next to him, now pleased, and says that she knows.

Outside the gate, Yamada asks about him being picked up, but he says that his mother has her job, and he'll have to walk back home. She offers to take his bag, and he begins to refuse, but remembers that he just agreed to rely on her, and accepts. The two continue their walk, and while doing so, he tells her that she shouldn't talk to Adachi so much. She wants a reason why, and asks several times to no answer.

## Trivia

The girls who invite Yamada into the hallway have been to Universal Studios Japan and are wanting to give Yamada gifts from there.