Sheeno

Gaius (Adoptive Brother)

## Application Sheet

Sheeno was a brown-furred she-wolf, raised by adoptive father Rutnik in Fellfang. She left the pack for a time, following her heart, but ultimately wound up returning to the pack, having lost her mate and children. She lived there a short time longer before leaving the Domain again. She was designed by MatrixPotato, and created and RP'd by Spicerooni.

## Personality

* ***Attention-Seeking, but with Low Self-Esteem.*** Sheeno is extremely needy when it comes to positive reinforcement and praise. She constantly needs to be reminded that she's special and liked among her peers just to function, which can be seen two ways. By wolves her own age, it's seen as a very undesirable behavior, where as those older than her see it almost pitiful as to how low her self esteem is. She constantly worries if she looks alright or if she ever is good enough. She is always concerned with impressing those around her and being her best physically, and struggles with believing in herself. This trait has excelled greatly after the birth of her premature litter at a young age, which has also caused her to contract Postpartum Depression.
* ***Depressed, Mentally Unstable, and Sick.*** She is well aware of the many mistakes she has made in her life, and dealing with the loss of her children hasn't aided in her recovery either. She is severely depressed to the point of where most of her problems are self inflicted, such as her choice not to eat even when she's incredibly underweight and needs the energy, only for the reason of she feels responsible for her children being taken away from her and eating would only be disrespectful to that fact. She becomes closed-minded whenever someone tries to help her overcome her pain, which makes it difficult for her to make any progress in helping her overcome her hardships. She is in a sense, both mentally and physically sick.
* ***Kind, Emotional, and Considerate.*** Even despite everything she has been through, Sheeno is still a considerate young lady who still emits kindness through her words and gestures. Just as she was when she was younger, she's a people pleaser and loves to go out of her way to aid whomever she can and boost dampened spirits, even though she's struggling to help herself at the moment. In a way, helping others distracts her from herself, and it helps her think about something else than her children for a change. She still cares deeply for young children even though being around them is still too much for her to handle at the moment, but she hasn't given up complete hope on the thought of youth.

## Pre-Group History

Sheeno was born in the early days of winter in a pack that was struggling to stay alive in it's current territory. Because she was so young at the time of the separation, she still to this day has no memories of her true birth origins or who her parents even were. That particular winter was harsh and violent, snowstorms coming in almost every night that even began happening at the end of Autumn. Food was immensely scarce, and it was becoming harder to salvage any form of resources from the small territory. The land had dried up and withered in the freezing winds, forcing the pack to make an immediate evacuation somewhere else. Among the starved chaos and struggle against the harsh winds of the storm, it was easy to forget things in the midst of trying to find a new place with food. Unfortunately, amidst the chaos, Sheeno was forgotten and left behind back in the den as the pack scrambled to grab the other pups and leave before the snowstorm got too dangerous to navigate through.

She was only a few days old, still requiring the support of mothers milk to survive and unable to see or hear. All she knew was darkness and the iciness of the world around her, all alone in the abandoned den. It would only be a matter of time before the ice claimed her life. But as fate would have it, she had waddled out into the snow in search of her mother's warmth and was discovered by a Fellfangir who was passing through. It would have been pure sin to leave her in the snow unprotected at such a young age, so he took her with him to be properly cared for in Fellfang. His name was Rutnik.

## Group History

*If it weren't for Rutnik, she would have died within an hour from exposure. The pack became her new family, and would in time become the only thing she ever knew.*

*It was a fruitful life in Fellfang, hardly having any worries to indulge herself in and the pack was well accepting of her growing personality. She had grown into a young juvenile, and by that time chosen a task for herself to study as a Caregiver. Caregivers were the aid of the pack, as it was her duty to help anyone in need according to the Code of Honor Fellfang was so well known for. While out on her lonesome one day, she happened to come across a wounded wolf around her age in need of assistance. Seizing the opportunity to impress her elders, she took it upon herself without any help from her teachers to try and heal the young male. He later introduced himself as Jenson and being the youthful naive fool she was, started listening to her head instead of her gut. She believed that he was her prince charming delivered to her on a silver platter, having come in delivering flirty remarks and such upon meeting each other. Soon enough, she had fallen in love with the young male in a matter of days. It wasn't long before Jenson was ready to return to his home pack, and unsurprisingly offered her a place beside him there. Without a second thought and encouragement from Helbreau, she left Fellfang with high hopes and head full of fairy dust as she traveled with Jenson to his home to become his bride.*

*Sheeno was barely out of juvenile age when she took on her first mate in Jenson, having believed in the fairy tale of true love and love at first sight and willingly jumped head first into the relationship. It was no surprise when she revealed to her newlywed husband that she was expecting their first litter barely of proper age to be carrying children. That was when the doubt and desperation began to sink in. She was still so young, and hardly had any skills to help provide for her new pack such as hunting or helping defend it from trespassers. She only knew the gentle ways of a Caretaker, and hardly any skills of that trade either since she only studied for a few short weeks before running off. Her new pack mates were starting to have doubts of their Jenson's choice of bride, and started to treat her as such as time went on. Even Jenson became distant towards her, having realized that maybe jumping into a relationship this fast was a mistake. He wasn't ready to be a father, nor a father of children with a female like Sheeno. Sheeno had begun picking up on the disinterest, and having been born a natural people pleaser, began to panic and take desperate measures just to be liked again.*

*But her efforts were entirely in vain, for the new pack had made up their minds about Sheeno's incompetence and immaturity. When the time came she bore three healthy puppies, and Sheeno loved her children more than anything she had ever known in her life. She wanted to protect and better herself for the lives she created, but Jenson and the pack had different plans. Sheeno was weak after the birth and still so young to be birthing children, and so she was easily taken advantage of and her newborns were taken from her at just a few hours old. Sheeno didn't have any means to try and fight against the stronger older wolves who pinned her down as they stole them from her, deeming her inadequate to be raising children that belonged to the pack and not her, and left her behind as they moved on to a bigger territory to support their growing numbers.*

*She laid for days in the very den she had birthed her children, feeling something die inside her soul. She felt empty and alone, and the feelings of something being stolen from her had embedded itself into her heart without showing any signs it would ever leave any time soon. It was borderline starvation that pushed her to get up from her spot in the den, and without knowing where else to go, teats still raw and exposed expecting to feed hungry mouths that would never nurse on her body, she miserably started to head back in the direction of the only life she had ever known, feeling miserably defeated and humiliated with her shortcomings.*

*She had no where else to turn to now but home.*

Sheeno struggled to find Fellfang, for they had moved from the territory she had once known, but once she did find them, it was Rutnik who she sought out first. Rutnik couldn't believe she was back - he thought he'd lost her forever! The reunion was tender and sweet, and he brought her back to Fellfang's den to get her cleaned up and fed.

She stayed a few months in Fellfang, catching up with Rutnik and her old packmates. However, for unknown reasons, Sheeno ended up departing the pack again. She has never returned since.

## Trivia

* Suffers from postpartum depression and anxiety.
* She never actually had the chance to name her children while they were alive.

## External Links

* Official Application Sheet
* Spicerooni's deviantART Gallery