I'M ON TO ME

* Album Cover
* Lyrics Sheet

I'M ON TO ME is Rav's debut album, released on November 27th, 2020.

Since VESTIGES, Rav had been teasing an album he was working on, one he would continue to reference during the WeDon'tSuck Podcast, describing his time writing it, as well as his struggles to correctly portray the feelings he was intending to portray with the project.

Rav later made a vague announcement on Twitter that something would be happening on November 27th, which ended up being the release of I'M ON TO ME. The album description reveals the project Rav was working on had been put aside, (and would eventually be scrapped) to instead address events from the past year, Creating the project over the course of around 3 months. Rav explained the title was an expression of how he felt he was finally starting to catch on to the mechanisms and patterns that control him and his depression, with that self-exploration being the focus of the "embarrassingly intimate" album.

As was noted by a fan after the album's premiere, I'M ON TO ME is a loop, ending with Rav blowing out dandelion seeds, with him making wishes on dandelions being the main symbol of the album's first track. Rav explained this was because "depression is a cycle". As "To My Future Self" is a song wishing a future version of Rav be better than himself, and "Dandelions" a track that explores Rav losing his hope for a better future, wishing he could return to a past version of himself with hopes and dreams, it attempts to capture the feeling that even if Rav gets through this period in his life, he will inevitably fall into the same damaging thought patterns over and over as long as his depression persists.

### Official Description

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> *"A whole lot of breakdowns, not enough breakthroughs."
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> I'M ON TO ME is an embarrassingly intimate account of a number of arduous, personal experiences and emotional discoveries that I underwent this year. I was actually working on an entirely different album at first, but ended up having to put it on hold, as I felt an urgent need to address a gross, festering wound. Sorry for making you look at it.
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> - Rav*
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### Tracklist

* Dandelions
* Me? Never
* Molasses
* Prosthetic Self-Love
* Channel F
* Dead End
* To My Future Self

### Physical Editions

I'M ON TO ME was released on CD the same day as the original album. These CDs feature new art by cover artist kinjiro. The back of the CD shows the back shot of the album cover, the inside features a depiction of innards or brains. The CD itself displays a dandelion, a core symbol of the album. Unlike most CDs up until this point, it features no track list.

I'M ON TO ME was later released on vinyl through Bandcamp's vinyl campaigns, where a vinyl can be crowdfunded by fans. By the end over 20 thousand dollars were pledged, 561% of the original goal. This vinyl includes the lyrics card included in the Bandcamp download of the album, the same back of the CD, now uncropped and featuring the text "MADE IN CZ", with the inside texture now on a see-through red vinyl.

### Trivia

* The album was accidentally released early on one streaming site, meaning that some fans learned the announcement was going to be an album, and heard it before it's official release, this was referenced by Rav during the album premiere, thanking many for staying quiet even after they learned what the announcement was going to be.
* I'M ON TO ME is Rav's debut album, while many have presumed his debut was BENEATH THE TOXIC JUNGLE, Rav at the time considered it a mixtape due to anxieties about the weight of releasing a full album, along with the general culture surrounding online releases at the time. To this day Rav stands by his original title of mixtape for said project, with all other releases being EPs, mixtapes, or B-Sides, making I'M ON TO ME his first album in name.
* The album art is based on this comic by kinjiro about covid awareness, the third panel of which in style and structure bears a striking resemblance to the album art. "*the "im always sick" panel is actually the drawing the cover is based off of. rav liked it so much he wanted me to turn it into his album cover. and that's a little fun fact for ya today*" - kinjiro
* The album Rav was working on before I'M ON TO ME was never released, even after it became evident it was a separate project, with Rav commenting on stream later that while almost complete, he was no longer sure how he felt about the project, instead opting to released one track, Time-Tested, as a single. While the fate of the other tracks are unknown, it's likely their components have been, or will be, reincorporated into other projects.

1. ↑ https://twitter.com/brandonlepine/status/1378391735378841602?s=20