Chapter 121: We're Not Self-Aware Enough

**We're Not Self-Aware Enough** is the one-hundred-and-twenty-first Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Yamada is showing off her dyed hair at the class, making accompanying sound effects to emphasize the shine and sparkle, which Chi mocks. Moe, Andou, and Hanzawa all gush over it, with the latter saying she wants to lighten her hair as well, which Chi and Serina comment as a joke in the background, due to her already light hair. Chi asks about her ribbon, and she says it's for her part, while Ichikawa considers her role as Goto Miria.

In a flashback, he goes over the character in his head while reading the manga, thinking of her as the mature, best-friend type, but has a forbidden love affair with her Japanese teacher. At this, he throws the comic on his bed, claiming that teachers shouldn't go after high schoolers, with Nigorikawa agreeing with him. He continues reading, and the teacher is shown to have a large back tattoo, implying a Yakuza past, which makes him even angrier. Nigorikawa chastises him as he throws the book again, but he says it's fine because it's his copy. He then looks at the scene where Miria and the teacher kiss, and hug while half-naked, with regular Nigorikawa calling it pretty lewd for a shoujo manga, and Lucifer Nigorikawa growing and busting out of his clothes. He questions what he'll do if Yamada has scenes like that in the drama.

Back at the school, class ends and they depart, while he considers how this is part of her job, and it would be childish for him to complain about it. She suddenly grabs him and leads him into the storeroom. Inside, he asks what is going on, and she says that she felt like she couldn't talk with him because everyone was paying attention to her due to her hair. He asks if she has anything she wants to talk about in particular as she sits on a desk and places her legs around him, and she gets frustrated at his question. She says that he isn't self-aware enough as a boyfriend, which makes him nervous, and he begins sweating, commenting on the heat. She reminds him how the other day he said that they shouldn't just touch each other without permission, even though they're dating. She says he has a point, but it's still a bit stifling to her, and she nervously blusters out that wherever she touches him, he can touch her, too, that way, they'll be equal. He nervously agrees, and she leans up to touch the top of his head, which he jumps at, but ultimately accepts as she rustles through his hair. She declares that he doesn't have to do it now, but he refuses, saying now is fine, and touches her in the same spot. He tells her that her hair is soft, and she replies that bleaching it makes it easier to cut, before reaching out and touching his cheek. He moves his head slowly down to meet her own cheek, and thinks again on the kiss scene from *Your Color's Octave,* recognizing that if that will happen in the drama, he wants to kiss her first. They lean in to begin, but in the heat of the moment, she presses her hand on his chest, and he pauses, thinking of the ramification of him being able to touch her chest. She comes to the same realization, and panics, frantically telling him he can't, and knocking over a desk, which falls over and breaks the knob off of the door leading outside. The two look on in confusion at the new problem that has arisen.