Chapter 21: Anxiety And Impatience

Karii wonders where will she spend the night, now that she can't detransition back to male mode.

## Features of this Chapter

### Transition Milestones

Karii Maki becomes worried when she can't detransition back to male mode, since this is not the correct or proper time to do a 'coming out' as a transgender male to female to parents and friends.

### Relationship Evolution

Karin takes a bold step forward in her shipping with Karii by inviting her over for a sleepover.

### Skills Learned

Karii's transition skills are not deficient, it is something wrong with Chiyoko's programming of the iphone app.

### Lessons Learned

Avoid anxiety and impatience, cultivate peace of mind and calmness / endurance of the heart.

ANXIETY AND IMPATIENCE

CHAPTER 21 OF THE MANGA

( Part 2 of the Disappearing Detransition Story Arc )

( Scan downward for the Mangaka's Omake placed after the end of Chapter 21, in the Omake Section )

## Previously

In order to celebrate her passing of her mid-term exams, something that was in doubt because she goofed off so much, Karii Maki suggests that the three members all go bowling this afternoon instead of being in the clubroom. This they do. However, Chiyoko does an adjustment to Karii's iphone app that governs her transition status, so as to remove the increased strength factor when she is in 'ordinary girl' mode. However, at the end of the day, in her bedroom, Karii finds out that she can not detransition back to male mode. She wants to eventually live her life as a girl, but staying as a girl now is not good, since she is not prepared to 'come out' to family and friends that she is a transgender male-to-female teen.

## Chapter Overview

Karii Maki, at home trying to detransition back to male mode, finds out that something with her iphone app is messed up, and she can't do so. With parents due home any time now, she redresses in her female school uniform, and leaves home. Now sitting on a park bench near where Chiyoko lives, she calls her to explain the situation. Chiyoko will look into the problem, but this may take some time. In the meantime, Karin calls Karii offering to help in any way. Since Karii needs somewhere to spend the night as a girl, Karin, although embarrassed at the implications, offers to have Karii come to her house and share her bedroom !

## This Chapter's Story

Karii Maki is in a real pickle ! She is by herself at home, and although her parents are working late, she finds out that the command for the iphone app that detransitions her back to male mode for some unknown reason does not now work. She is sure that she is doing it correctly; she has tried to change back repeatedly. Then she notices the time; soon her parents will be home, parents that do not know or suspect that their offspring is actually a girl inside ! Karii dresses again in her school uniform, and quickly exits the house. Outside of the apartment building where Chiyoko lives, Karii calls Chiyoko on her cell phone. Chiyoko is as puzzled as Karii is, given that Karii is doing everything correctly. As she opens her laptop, Chiyoko tells Karii that she will look into it, but that may take some time. So Karii has to 'sweat it out' and wait. Arising from the park bench she was sitting on, she tells herself that she will take a walk. But to where ?

Walking with no direction or purpose, Karii acknowledges to herself that she is real anxious right now. She muses what may happen if she can't turn back at all. Not a good situation, because this is not the proper or best time to pop it on the parents and friends that she wants to be a girl for the rest of her life. She admits that she has had a lot of fun presenting as a girl, but it's completely different if this is the wrong time to do a 'coming out' as to her correct gender of that of a teenage female. Amid her troubles and social fears, Karii runs into the one person that she does not want to see right now---Akria, out in public cross-dressed as the teenage 'girl' Kaitani Zakurow, and wearing a super cute, ruffles and bows, little girl's style sailor suit outfit !

Karii only manages an " Ugg! " to greet her, and Kaitani returns a sour comment back to Karii. Karii knows that this person is a cross-dressed Akria, however, Akria may only surmise or suspect that Karii is Minami in female mode. Karii brightens the conversation by asking Kaitani if 'she' is really interested in this style of little girl clothes ?

   ( Akria is about 16 years old, but is wearing a style of clothing normally found on 8 - 10 year old little girls. ) Kaitani hints that 'her' outfit is only a ploy to fool people. Disbelieving Karii only responds with a surprised, " Oh, really ? " Kaitani rebounds with a stern denial that 'she' is not interested in this fashion style ! Next, Karii states that she thought that Dark Lords only wore dark, scary clothing. Kaitani contradicts 'herself' by matter-of-factly stating that 'she' thought 'her' fashion choice was good for a well deserved, pleasurable change of pace.

Kaitani hastily changes the subject by commenting if the club members had a club meeting today ? Karii mentions that everyone decided to go out today, and asks Kaitani if 'she' went to the clubroom today ? 'She' did ! With a tentative look on her face, Karii asks Kaitani if 'she' wants to "put Maho Curry ( Karii as an anime girl ) to the test" right here and now ? " Don't be daft ! ", spits out Kaitani, as 'she' thinks to 'herself' that Karii is in a strange and sorrowful mood right now, and this is not the time to be challenging her. Kaitani tells Karii that combat will be yet future at another time and place, then takes her leave.

It's nightime now, as Karii has walked a full circle and found herself back at the park bench. Her heart skips a beat at her cell phone rings. But it is not Chiyoko, but only Karin. She had found out about Karii's dilemma from Chiyoko, and called to see how Karii is getting along. Not so good. Chiyoko has told Karin that she has still not figured out what is happening with the iphone app. Karin states that Karii probably will not be able to go home like she is now. Correct, and Karii says that maybe she will just sleep on a park bench, or hang out at a 24 hour convenience store. Karin is shocked at those prospects, telling Karii that she has to take care of herself because she is a vulnerable girl right now. Karin is now embarrassed and blushing deeply, however, she trudges forth and tells Karii that she can stay overnight at her house !

## Chapter 21 Omake ( Extra )

In the original manga *Magitora!* , at the end of Chapter 21, the mangaka, Yutaka Kashii, added an Omake. It consists of their well wishes for interest in their manga, as well as original character ideas, pages, and profiles that they used to create the notable people of the manga. Below are the pages of that Omake, that the mangaka added following Chapter 21.

## Chapter Lookback and Commentary

Karin worries about her apparently first sleepover with another girl !

Manga Fan's Commentary
Wooden Poom / 19 weeks ago / 1 like
How 'bout [that] gender-bender girl, then? ( Kaitani Zakurow )

Erik Danumbnuts / 1 year ago / 10 likes
[Karii Maki X Kaitani Zakurow---Pure, unadulterated] **YURI** !!!!!!!

Walter Viii Britannia / 1 year ago / 1 like
I hope he'd just be stuck as a girl 'till forever. That would be so much more fun and it [the story] would become a true [trans]gender ..... finally.

But I'm not complaining, I was only just here for the comedy and no hopes of that gender bender drama whatsoever. I have other things to occupy me for that.

WPA / 1 year ago / 1 like
This is the moment in every genderbender [manga] that the M[ain] C[haracter] can change gender at will, where all of a sudden they are stuck as the female counterpart. Sadly It never lasts forever, and they find a way to turn back.

Lady vivi / 1 year ago
I think he’d actually be okay if he was a girl forever.

Sheep in Wolf's Clothing / 9 months ago
She would 'actually be okay if she was a girl forever'; that is the whole beginning and ending of a genuine transgender male-to-female teenager. Minami >>>>>>> Karii Maki!

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