Lucas Damien Gonzalo

* Animal
* Human

Lucas Gonzalo, or refered by his full name, *Lucas Damien Gonzalo*, is a major supporting character of the serie/placeholder/idk im still deciding. He is primarly known as Thunder's older brother, and he serves as a contrast to Thunder's way of living and goals.

> I don't have time to even exist, and you know It better than anyone!
>
> Lucas D. Gonzalo, "Rabid Dog"

### Biography

#### Early life

Lucas Damien Gonzalo was born on the 24th of october in 2020, in the capital of The Philippines, Manila, by a Filipino father and a Chinese mother.

His family life was as chaotic as you would expect from being the product of a teenage pregnancy. He had a caring and kind mother, but extremely unexperienced. He is very close to his father, an out of touch 41 year old man, strict, but emotionally unavailable.

After his brother, *Thunder*, was born, they instantly became unseparable. Even as a baby, his brother would be quiet, reserved and shy, so Lucas always had to stick up for him. Both of them were close siblings, but they would drift apart by their contrasting desires; Lucas loved his dad and despised his mother, but Thunder was the other way around. Thunder couldn't stand to see how his brother would adore their father and disregard their mother as a slut, so as soon as he moved out, Thunder cut off contact with everyone in his family (except for his Mother).

Lucas was too resentful and prideful to even mention his brother's name, and from that moment, he would never speak to Thunder again, until the funeral of their mother.

#### Background

By nature, Lucas is extremely empathetic, driven by an urge to please others and prove himself useful, specially to his father. However, his very nature is the one he so desperately tries to get rid of, as he believes that feelings only get in the way of critital thinking and rational decisions, thought that is only further re-inforced by his father.

Blinded and decieved by his own father, he learned to hate and look down on her mother, for reasons that even as his young age, he couldn't comprehend, but that he knew he couldn't question; atleast, not yet.

His sentimentalism often clashed with his necessity to serve. He was doing what he wished for the most, which was making his father proud, but at the same time, he was hurting his mother. However, his fear of disappointment was stronger than his instinct to love.

His role in the family was to uphold and serve as the peacemaker, since his whole existence is based around making others happy, doesn't matter if he doesn't get to be a kid like he should've.

#### Relationships

##### Bayani Sai (Mother)

During his infant years, out of pure instinct he was very dependent on his mother, and loved her like any other child would love their mother. However, once he was old enough to hate, he followed in his father's footprints and learned to loathe and despise his own mother.

Since *Bayani* was 14 when she conceived her first child, Luca's father put great effort into making sure everyone knew she was the one to blame, specially to his children, and unfortunetely for Lucas, he believed him. He had no respect for his mother, much less as a teenager, and would often refer to her as a whore.

Despite his rudeness, his snarling and growling, no matter how much he bit and destroyed, the gentle hand of his mother would always be there to bring him comfort through the violence that was sown in his son's heart; and whenever he felt too weak to keep up his tough exterior, his mother would always welcome him with open arms. His brother wouldn't.

The reaction to his mother's suicide was mixed. After years of emotional neglect, he couldn't bring himself to cry or show any form of distress. Even then, deep down he couldn't help but feel a strange sense of guilt and anxiety, mainly because it was something he was never prepared for. He didn't shed any tears, swallowed his fear, and called his brother to inform of their mother's death.

## Appearance

Lucas Gonzalo has different appearances, depending on how he is feeling; his animal form being the one of a wolf. The wolf represents his extreme loyalty to those around him, even staying loyal to those who have hurt him. Wolves are known for their great hunting skills and communication, which in the story is represented as Lucas knowing full well how to hurt and tear someone down with words and actions. Most importantly, the wolf represents his loss of humanity and individuality; feeling trapped in the role of leadership that he was forced upon in the family, unable to do things independently, and also being greatly influenced by his unwavering loyalty to his father. Lucas feeling like a wolf is a symbolism to him being smart enough to realize what he really wishes for is family and belonging, but being held back by the loyalty he has to his last family member, his father.

Rarely ever he feels human, but we can catch glimpses of his human appearance when he looks in the mirror. He resembles more his mother's side than his father, having white skin, brown eyes with prominent dark circles and black hair. He mostly wears his hair in a *half man bun ponytail,* wearing the bottom part of his hair down, and only puts his hair down when going to sleep.

He is often seen wearing a simple but formal dark suit and pants, with a red tie and a white dress shirt.

## Trivia

* The name *"Lucas"* means *bringer of light ,* and was given by his mother in hopes of him having a bright future.
* The name *"Damien"* was given by his father, and it means *to tame* or *to subdue*. This name is taken literally, since Lucas is still under his father's control.
* Lucas does have a chinese last name, *Sai*, but he does not use it due to his hatred towards his mother.
* Unlike Thunder, he looks more like his mother, but like his brother he has the same eyes as her.
* Lucas was born on the national brother day, May 24th.
* He was originally supposed to be a rabbit, just like Thunder and his mother.