Partially-Chewed Journal

It feels like we're winning!

Me and Selene and Berry and Abella make such a good team

We figured out Jason Stevenson was in the monsterhunting cult, followed him to Cynthia DeMure, dragged Ludlow in for a sting operation, turned the tables, and captured a higher-level "Order of Orion" interrogator. Learned a bit more, dissuaded the grunts... Selene was so hot intimidating them.

The asshole confirmed their plan is to exterminate the supernaturals in Night Falls and seemed completely unrepentant. So we fed him to a plant.

Then I made cookies for Dakota. They're pretty cool, too, it turns out.

### April 11, 2021

i can still taste it

you'd think that would bother me more

i've tasted the blood of two of them now, on my own fangs and on lil's claws

proud and ashamed all at once. sick to my stomach

what if i made a mistake?

FACTS

Elliot herded us to that place

Falen and Suri were right there, in uniform, armed, aware of our supernatural natures

They're connected to the surveillance

The surveillance room had magic

They tried to take Rhys

Suri was extra-strong

He hurt Iva

Iva thought it was right

SPECULATION

Prioritized Rhys and Iva as targets?

Associated with the hunters Lily & Ash faced

### April 1, 2021

Got magically abducted by a weird therapy house that wouldn't let us go until we had an emotional epiphany or something. It was really sweet, though, how Lily relaxed and got to be in harmony with Pad for a while. She's such a sweetheart and a good kisser and fun to wrestle and pretty... I'm worried that she's in a really vulnerable place and just like imprinting on me as the first person she can be herself with, so I should be gentle and not read too much into things since we just met! I'm taking her and Ash to Z's place for a party Sunday to meet the pack as humans and I think it'll be really good for them both.

### March 26, 2021

(this entry is scribbled and barely legible)

wtf even was this day

just wanted to study

joseph got fluids on my fluid dynamics

would be funny if i didn't have an exam in two days

mostly i can't believe i stood up to Z

not trying to take her place

don't wanna be in charge

just want to be with the people i (illegible)

selene is so pretty

### March 18, 2021

it's done

Z and the pack are ecstatic

i told myself over and over it was the right thing

Iva said so

Burgundy said so

Pack Mother said so

No one has to be scared anymore

not them, not her

not me

*doodles of a lithe tree fae and a short-haired antler fae with a flute*

it'll all be okay

it'll be okay

at the full moon, it'll be ok. ash will make such a good wolf. i meant it when I said i could see the wolf in her already

but maybe it was the curse talking, making me see the wolf, want to turn her

or worse, maybe it wasn't

no, no. it's for the best. it'll be okay. she'll grow into it and she'll see it's better than being cursed and hunted and killing innocent people who can't help but try to turn her

it'll be okay

### March 17, 2021

This is the worst week ever

First fucking up and getting Ash hurt for nothing. Worse than nothing. I let down Z and Iva and Burg and everyone else who might get hurt still; put a bullseye on the pack

Things with Tamzen are so awkward I feel like I’m going to forget what shape to be. she thought I was a beast and seems disappointed that I’m more than that. now I feel ridiculous for caring so much and i don’t know how to stop

But she seemed so happy to see me again that night… as long as i played the part

Selene asked me the weirdest question, about how much I’m performing a persona on wheels. The truth is that i’m probably performing a little more than I told her, but I’m doing it all the time.

She seemed so vulnerable… as soon as things got too real, though, she got… feral with me. She was so goddamn hot I forgot myself, probably would have just fucked her right there outside the rink

Except Z broke us up

Fuck, she warned me about getting intimate with Selene. And she was furious after. She’d been understanding about the failure of the first hunt -- my failure. But then between that damn twitly photo and getting out of control with Selene, I just really set her off. I’ve never seen her that angry, not with one of us. But I guess I’ve never seen one of us fuck up that badly. Not even when Gene left

i can’t believe i almost texted her

Iva’s been the bright spot in my week, someone who knows every part of me and still cares about me, who stands by me even when I fuck up. I’m so glad i get to be there for her, too, and help out with her presidential campaign

I want to visit Burg and… actually if I go visit while Selene’s away on tour that shouldn’t piss off Z

Then there’s the one thing I can’t stop thinking about...

Ash said she *loves* me. I make her feel normal, happy, safe

She’s terrified all the time otherwise

And I’m going to betray her

All I can do is make it quick and do it right this time, and try to take care of her after

### March 7, 2021

this is why i don't go to frat parties

i can still *smell* that place

ugh

anyway... what a day. for some reason i woke up at PLO, with Tamzen passed out on my lap. It was really sweet, except... well... she freaked out at a naked Didi because they don't even really know each other that way

*unwritten subtext: Tamzen knows Didi as Fluffy the wolf and they've fallen asleep together in the past and possibly last night*

there was this creepy guy and some of the popular cliques and all we wanted was to get out of there. i honestly don't even know what their drama was over on that side of the room, where Gene was. and everyone else

Tamzen tried to leave as Lezly was coming back with an armful of clothes and then had the nerve to demand Tamzen hand over her shirt! Poor Tamzen had nothing on underneath... as we all soon discovered...

Fucking Lezly. I was so mad, I went to grab the clothes and kind of lost track of my own strength; I wound up tossing her bodily back into the frat house.

Selene didn't like that one bit and gave me the whole popular-girl speech about how I'm trash in every way, exactly the kind of thing that would have been my worst nightmare back in high school when I let Vicki walk all over me. Fuck her and fuck that whole scene with her and Lavish. They were still fighting as we left

Then Tamzen told me basically to get lost, so... yeah. I feel like I should tell her... I feel like shit for knowing what I know and not telling her

Ugh, I need to go hunt

*Unwritten subtext: Tamzen confessed crushy feelings for Didi to Didi-in-Fluffy-form and Didi feels guilty about it*

### March 6, 2021

Iva kissed me omg

Okay

So

She's been reallllly stressed with this presidential announcement thing, not to mention midterms, and she needed a break. So I dragged her up to the hot spring, made her favorite soup, that kind of thing. Her hands always feel so cold, and she really liked the heat pad, so I figured hot springs would be a hit

and I think it was

I didn't mean to be flirting, I really didn't, we were just enjoying the hot springs, pretty much naked, when two strangers showed up, students I guess: Dakota and Joseph. Dakota seemed nice but she was definitely in league with... whatever Joseph is. He smells like a vampire, but less stale blood smell. And he was out in the daylight. And he had stitches on wounds that don't heal. I don't know what it is, but it isn't good.

If I hadn't been so distracted I might have confronted him, but... us other three kind of got into a splash fight and then I was wrestling Iva and I had her pinned down and it felt really good to be pressed together like that and that's when she kissed me

!!!!!!!

I never thought Iva would be into me like that... she's really kind and hot but so *controlled*, and I'm a natural disaster. Maybe I'm just a fun person to cut loose with. I guess I need to talk to her

But her skin is so smooth and her lips are soft and she's so good with her tongue! She's got that distinctive *Iva* scent and taste to her and I've never gotten it this intensely before

Maybe next time we'll have the spring to ourselves

Actually, maybe we won't. I think one of those water spirits Burgundy told me about was getting frisky today. I makes me wonder whether the spring is naturally hot or if it's this spirit heating it up

### March 1, 2021

I should write some stuff down while I still remember anything from last night. I remember... I was at the MHUSC social for new transfers. There was a new girl -- Mini -- really tall. We were chatting and these frat assholes decided to take over the lounge in the middle of things, blocking the movie and everything.

Hell no, not on my watch.

I remember there was this one dude with a keg, so I grabbed it and threw it out the door. I guess someone had closed the door when I wasn't looking because there was glass and shit *everywhere*. I think someone got cut, ugh. I don't even know.

But the frat boys ran like rabbits! Left the keg, too, and that's where things get a bit hazy. Byron was there... I've been worried hu has been responsible for some of the recent disappearances. From what I remember, though, hu helped me get the keg back inside and get people back in the partying mood... and forget about how I'd started shit with the frat. Maybe hu isn't so bad.

The frat's even been fined for the cost of repairing the door. Ha!