Heavy

## Audio

"**Heavy**" is the seventh track of *CINEMA*, the debut studio album of American indie pop band The Marías.

## Background and conceptualization

In an interview with No Basic Girls Allowed, María explained the development of "Heavy" began with a simple image.

> *We do this game sometimes where I'll pull up some good pictures online, from Pinterest, maybe, and I'll show them to María and tell her to sing a melody or anything that comes to mind when she sees it.*
> Josh Conway, via Apple Music
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Josh Conway, the drummer and backing vocalist of the band, per tradition, had shown María a depiction of a woman in a desert to which she reacted in song, vocalizing a lyric and melody. From this, Josh created a chord progression in inspiration of the lyrics and tune that María had sung. This chord progression remains even in the final release of the song.

> *And I was like, 'Oh, okay, here we go.' And within minutes, we had the verse and the chorus there.*
> Josh Conway, via Apple Music
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The song's inclusion on the album was announced on June 14th, 2021, alongside the rest of the track list for *CINEMA*.

## Theme

María has since explained the track's title, "Heavy", is used to reference anxiety and her experience with feeling "heavy as molasses and [the want] to sink back into comfort." This feeling leads her to feel lethargic and dull, forcing her to stay in her bed and yearn being alone.

> *["Heavy" is] more about wanting to be alone and not wanting to deal with anyone or anything at all. Anyone knocking at your door, you're just like, 'Just go away, let me be alone here.'*
> Josh Conway, via Apple Music
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## Lyrics

* CINEMA
* English Translation

**[Verse 1]**

I'm heavy, I'm by your side

Forget me 'cause I know what I need

Like a loser like me could be fine

I'm heavy, alone inside

Don't tell me what I want, what I need

Like a loser like me will be fine

**[Pre-Hook]**

Maybe I'm living in my head

Maybe I'm living to contend

Maybe I wanna stay in bed

Far from the weight of the world

In my hands, 'cause they don't understand

**[Hook]**

Is someone telling me don't get in the water?

What have I done?

I don't wanna get lost inside the color under my tongue

'Cause I don't want to be in love with another

Even in another life

Can someone tell me it's alright to be covered

Underneath the covers?

But I, no, I don't need to sleep anymore

**[Bridge]**

Is someone banging at my door?

When I just wanna be alone

Is someone banging at my door?

**[Breakdown]**

Je ne sais pas qui est ici

Is someone banging at my door?

When I just wanna be alone

Is someone banging at my door

Door, door, door

Door, door, door, door

My door

Is someone banging at my door?

'Cause I just wanna be alone

Yeah, I just wanna be alone

I just wanna be alone

Yeah, I just wanna be alone

I just wanna be alone

**[Verse 1]**

I'm heavy, I'm by your side

Forget me 'cause I know what I need

Like a loser like me could be fine

I'm heavy, alone inside

Don't tell me what I want, what I need

Like a loser like me will be fine

**[Pre-Hook]**

Maybe I'm living in my head

Maybe I'm living to contend

Maybe I wanna stay in bed

Far from the weight of the world

In my hands, 'cause they don't understand

**[Hook]**

Is someone telling me don't get in the water?

What have I done?

I don't wanna get lost inside the color under my tongue

'Cause I don't want to be in love with another

Even in another life

Can someone tell me it's alright to be covered

Underneath the covers?

But I, no, I don't need to sleep anymore

**[Bridge]**

Is someone banging at my door?

When I just wanna be alone

Is someone banging at my door?

**[Breakdown: *Translated*]**

*I don't know who could be here*

Is someone banging at my door?

When I just wanna be alone

Is someone banging at my door

Door, door, door

Door, door, door, door

My door

Is someone banging at my door?

'Cause I just wanna be alone

Yeah, I just wanna be alone

I just wanna be alone

Yeah, I just wanna be alone

I just wanna be alone

## Trivia

* María has stated "Heavy" includes some of her favorite lyrics of its album: "'Is someone telling me don't get in the water? What have I done? I don't wanna get lost inside the color under my tongue.' It reflects a feeling of helplessness that comes when you feel like you're drowning in your thoughts."
* The original premier lyric of the song, as heard in a rough concept, was "I'm heavy, I'm nice-eyed."

## References

1. ↑ 1.0 1.1 1.2 https://nobasicgirlsallowed.com/the-marias-dont-expect-anything/
2. ↑ 2.0 2.1 2.2 2.3 2.4 2.5 https://music.apple.com/nz/album/cinema/1563957170
3. ↑ https://twitter.com/themarias/status/1404514486673764354
4. ↑ 4.0 4.1 4.2 https://www.coupdemainmagazine.com/the-marias/17870