Episode 212

*"I just see the back of a bitter man. Someone too busy but somehow still finds time to start another family…. No one kind. No one sweet. No one generous. No one funny. The only one in my life that fits close to that description… is the person in front of me right now… and I'm the bitter one with his back turned." -Kousuke*

## Episode Information

### Release Date

March 3, 2023

This page contains **spoilers** for Episode 212 of *I Love Yoo*

## Summary

Kousuke yells at Nol, asking why he is not fighting back. Nol says that Kousuke's breath smells, and Kousuke slams him into the ground, yelling at him to shut up. Nol asks what is going on, and tells him to stop tucking his thumb into his fist.

Kousuke asks if Nol *"thinks[s] [he's] better than [him]"* Nol says that he's crazy, and that *"[he] asked and [Kousuke] fulfilled".* Kousuke starts to punch him again, but Nol once again points out his improper form. Kousuke yells at him to take things seriously and stop treating everything like a joke, as if he's better, because Nol can never be better.

Kousuke thinks back to the past, after he had first met Nol and Nessa. He watches them, and is approached by Yui. He starts to say what happened, but she shushes him, telling him not to believe rumors. As they start to leave, he asks Yui if his father was ever funny, which she denies, saying he has no time for jokes.

In the present day, Kousuke pauses, noting how Nol isn't attempting to block, and says that Nol doesn't seem threatened. He releases Nol, and starts listing the things that he hates about Nol: how he's optimistic, outgoing, amicable, how he's brave and resilient, and how easy it is for him to talk to people, and people like him despite his past.

Kousuke continues on to say that people don't talk to him because they like him, and that nobody likes him and he hates how Nol reminds him of that. He says the thing he hates most about Nol is how he reminds him of Rand, and wonders if all the traits Nol has exist in another side of Rand. He thinks back to how Rand treated him, and how he plowed through school and worked hard to be more like him, but it wasn't enough. He talks about how Rand was always cold, and the only warm and friendly person in his life is Nol.

Kousuke confirms that he is scared that there's nothing he can do to be good enough for Rand, and that is why he tries to *"extinguish [Nol's] light".* He says that he hates Nol for reminding him of this.

Nol says that they share a lot more in common than Kousuke thinks, and that's why he has kept trying. He says that Rand acted as if he didn't exist, and that he also only saw the cold version of him. He says that they were both children being lied to, and that maybe his mother wanted to protect him from the truth. Nol says that they probably would've made a *"great team",* but Kousuke destroyed that chance, and that he's not going to forget how Kousuke treated him. He goes on to say that Kousuke's past doesn't mean he can mistreat others. Nol threatens to attack Kousuke, but while standing up Kousuke notices there is a bloodstain behind Nol.

Nol slumps over and Kousuke runs towards him and tries to bring him back to the party when a car shows up, and Kousuke runs towards it asking for help. Rand comes out and sees Nol, causing him to run towards Nol while Kousuke picks up the Bible, which has been dropped on the ground.

## Characters Appearing

* Yeong-Gi
* Kousuke Hirahara
* Nessa Lochlainn (flashback)
* Yui Hirahara (flashback)
* Randulph Skuli Hirahara

## Notes & Trivia

Blurred text reads:

* "What meeting? To get away from me?"
* "Seriously? Not everything has to be about you"
* "It's your son's high school graduation!"
* "You couldn't even tell me that it was today???"
* "Because you're never around??"
* "Maybe if you were present you wouldn't need me to —— you around"
* "Don't you try to turn this around on me you're the one that [has] him on a chokehold. How can I even get close to him?"
* "Try harder."

The final panel is refrencing the painting *Ivan the Terrible and His Son Ivan* by Ilya Repin.

The sheet music that Kousuke is holding is most likely some version of the song Erlkönig.

## Episode Discussion and Analyses

* https://www.reddit.com/r/ILoveYoo/comments/10s7xjf/fastpass\_ep\_212\_discussion\_222023/
* https://www.reddit.com/r/ILoveYoo/comments/15myhnw/212\_is\_this\_important/
* https://www.reddit.com/r/ILoveYoo/comments/11go7xl/i\_love\_yoo\_chapter\_212\_analysis\_sins\_of\_thy\_father/

## Soundtrack (211-12)

"Gnossienne no.1" written by Erik Satie and preformed by Bishara Haroni

"The Winter" written by Sid Acharya