Azrael

*"I don't like talking about my feelings."*

## Physical Description

Azrael is a thin and lanky cat with soft, but usually messy, medium-length white fur. The left side of his face is pitch black, however, and so are his paws and tail. His eyes are golden.

## Personality

Azrael is a secretive and eccentric cat. He is charming and likable, but mysterious and guarded. He rarely opens up, and even his closest friends don’t know everything about him. He hates feeling vulnerable, so he avoids situations where he might have to disclose private information about himself. He has trouble trusting cats, afraid of being hurt by them. However, he becomes attached to cats quickly and is often protective of them, though he remains standoffish towards them. Unfortunately, his coldness doesn’t help him get along with cats, and he often ends up hurting the cats who do manage to befriend him. He gets into a lot of arguments, and seems to always be fighting with someone, even over the most trivial of things. He consistently defies authorities and ignores rules, and could be considered rebellious. Similarly, he is very brave and will run head first into dangerous situations, as if he’s trying to prove something to someone. He is really bad at taking social cues and often remains oblivious to cats’ feelings until he’s outright told them. He can come off as selfish or uncaring because of this, which is only magnified by his apparent lack of emotion at times. He’s cynical and sarcastic, never taking things too seriously. He does actually feel things, however he lets his emotions bubble up and spill over, pushing them away. This often leads to outbursts and intense emotions.

## Skills and Weaknesses

Azrael isn't good at much. He's an average fighter, a pretty bad hunter, and he has no special abilities such as swimming or climbing. If there's one thing he's excellent at, it's coming up with ideas and plans. He also prevails at lying and manipulation, and has surprisingly good leadership skills. However, he's awful at being vulnerable and telling cats about himself.

## Life

### Kithood

Azrael was born a kittypet. His mother was a stray who was taken in by a shelter while she was expecting him. Being a kitten, he was soon adopted by a fairly nice family with two children. However, he was rehomed due to his destructive behavior, and given to a... less ideal family. The couple who took care of him gave him food a few times every week, and rarely spent time with him. On a few occasions, he was struck. When he was 8 moons old, they left a window open, and he managed to escape.

### Adult Life

After escaping the twolegs, Azrael spent most of his days hanging around the forest and Twolegplace, avoided other cats. While he mostly scavenged for food, he eventually taught himself to hunt. When he was 15 moons old, he became involved with the clans, taking a bit of interest in them. However, his curiosity turned negative when he was treated fairly poorly by the clan cats. He met another rogue, Night, who, after being attacked by a RiverClan cat, shared his contempt for the clan cats. So, they came up with a plan.

Azrael and Night decided to drive out RiverClan by gathering an army of loners and chasing them out. First, they went to RiverClan's camp, acting like they wanted to join. They were really going so that they could memorize their territory, though. While in RiverClan, Azrael made a few friends, including Silver, a medicine cat helper who he grew close to.

While living in RiverClan, Azrael got the idea to start a war between the clans. He spoke with Night, and they decided to frame ShadowClan for a murder she committed. He brought the body of Sagepelt to the ShadowClan border to get their scent on her, before bringing her back to camp. However, Silver recognized Night's scent on the deceased warrior, and warned Azrael, who pretended to not believe her. During this time, Night also confessed that she liked Azrael, and he ran off, conflicted and confused by his emotions.

Silver and Night got into a fight over the murder, and Azrael was forced to intervene. He told Night to leave Silver alone, and they argued. Night then ran off. Soon after, Azrael decided to leave RiverClan. However, he planned to meet with Silver once a moon.

Azrael went to meet with Silver soon after he left, meeting her at the willow tree where they had previously spent time with each other. Silver told him that she loved him, and once again, he ran away. He ran into Night afterwards, and they agreed to try to be friends again.

One day, while wandering around No Clan's Land, Nightshade, a StarClan warrior, appeared to Azrael. She attempted to help him get his feelings in order, and tried to convince him to go back to Silver. Azrael spoke to Night about this, and it turned out that Night had met Nightshade as well. They came to the conclusion that she wasn't who she said she was, and that she was possibly a Dark Forest cat, and ended up growing closer.

Not long after meeting Nightshade, Azrael ran into Silver again. They spoke, and made up. Azrael suggested that she leave her clan and live with him, as he could protect and hunt for her. She agreed to consider this.

Nightshade appeared to Azrael again later, and told him that she had killed cats in her youth. Azrael was uncomfortable with this information, believing she was a murderer. Directly after, he spoke with Silver again. Silver tried to get him to open up a little, but, still shaken from his conversation with Nightshade, he snapped at her. They got into an argument and went their separate ways, both mad.

Azrael found Night again. She revealed that she had also spoken to Nightshade, and Azrael described his distrust for the StarClan cat. This led to them getting into an emotional argument over trust. Azrael once again left.

Fed up with everything going on in his life, Azrael fled to ShadowClan and Swiftgaze, a cat he had previously met, escorted him to camp. ShadowClan's leader, Lakestar, allowed him to stay.

While hunting one day, Azrael found Silver passing through ShadowClan territory. They spoke to each other, upset, and Silver passed out. Panicked, Azrael brought her to ShadowClan camp to get her help. Fortunately, she woke up once they arrived. Lakestar was not please with this however, so he had to bring her back to No Clan's Land. On the way there, they made up a little, no longer upset with each other.

Azrael ran into Night while in ShadowClan territory one day. They spoke, and made up to some extent, with Night offering to join ShadowClan, too. Later, he dreamt about Silver, and went to go see her.

About a moon after coming to ShadowClan camp, Lakestar asked Azrael if he would like to officially join. While he was hesitant at first, he agreed. Lakestar herself offered to train him.

Azrael met quite a few cats in ShadowClan, including Buzzardstorm, Lilacfrost, and Brokenrose.

Not long after Azrael joined ShadowClan, Night came to camp, asking to try it out for a bit. Lakestar agreed. Azrael spoke with Night, who revealed that Silver had been taken by twolegs. They decided to search for her, however, their mission was cut short by an angry dog, and they returned to ShadowClan empty-pawed.

After staying in ShadowClan for a little, Night decided to leave, causing her and Azrael to go their separate ways. They met again not long after, when Night was brutally injured by RiverClan cats, and Azrael helped her. Night went to RiverClan to be healed. Later, they met again at the border, where they discussed Silver and the fact that they had both lost hope of finding her and decided to move on. Night said that she was planning on joining ShadowClan. However, not long after, she said that she had changed her mind, greatly upsetting Azrael.

One day, while he was hunting, Azrael stumbled upon Silver again. They spoke, leading to Azrael to make the impulsive decision to leave ShadowClan to be help her raise her kits. They went to camp so that he could say goodbye to his friends. One friend of his, Brokenrose, was especially bothered by this announcement. However, it was clear that this was not the right path for Azrael, and Silver ended up leaving him behind.

Azrael stayed in ShadowClan, where he ended up making up with Brokenrose. Over time, things got a lot better for him, and he got a bit of closure with both Night and Silver. However, one day, while he was in No Clans' Land, he found Silver and Brokenrose- who had shown contempt for each other in the past- fighting over a piece of prey. He broke up the fight, and had to stop Brokenrose, with encouragement from a loner named Hamlet, from killing Silver. The encounter led to all parties being mad at each other.

Not long after the fight between Silver and Brokenrose, Azrael spoke with Brokenrose. They made up to some extent, but ended up getting mad at each other again. Azrael found comfort in speaking with Silver, who he stayed with for a night before heading back to camp.

Azrael's life stayed pretty quiet for a few days. However, his world was shattered when Brokenrose told him that Silver had been found dead, having died while kitting. This caused Azrael to spiral into depression. His mental health began to deteriorate, and he stopped sleeping and eating. Struggling to thrive, he decided to temporarily run away ShadowClan.

Azrael stayed in No Clan's Land for a few days, beginning to feel better. Unfortunately, he had to return to the clan when he was injured in a fight with Hamlet, who claimed to have killed Silver.

Not long after returning to ShadowClan, Azrael spoke with Brokenrose, who was upset that he had left without telling anyone. She forgave him. However, the peace between them didn't last long, and they got into a heated argument when Azrael denied Brokenrose's advice for coping.

Azrael was made a warrior by Lakestar. He also met Sapphire, a loner living in No Clan's Land. They spoke and became friends.

One day, Azrael went to investigate what sounded like a cat crying. It turned out to be Brokenrose. Azrael apologized for his behavior and they became friends again.

Azrael and Sapphire ended up meeting again, too, and she revealed to him that she was planning on joining ShadowClan. Unfortunately, when she tried to not long after their conversation, Lakestar denied her. She and Azrael spoke again soon after, though, and remained friends.

## Friends and Family

### Friends

Night - Rogue, She-cat, On and Off Friend

Silver - StarClan, She-cat, On and Off Friend

Brokenrose - ShadowClan, Warrior, She-cat, Mate

Squeakpaw - ShadowClan, Medicine Cat Apprentice, Tom, Friend

Sapphire - Loner, She-cat, Friend

## Notable Quotes

“I’m not meant to be with other cats. I’m a loner. The cat you think I am isn’t the cat I think I am.” *- Azrael to Silver*

"There's no such thing as an evil cat. There are just cats who make good choices, and cats who make bad choices.” *- Azrael to Night*

“I don’t like talking about my feelings.” *- Azrael to Silver*

“My eyes have the fury of a thousand foxes in them.” *- Azrael to Silver*

“I don't get scared!" *- Azrael to Nightshade*

"I don't want your help! I don't want anyone's help! Cats like you are the reason I'm unhappy!" *- Azrael to Silver*

“Well maybe I don't want friends! You ever considered that?" *-Azrael to Silver*

“You can be rude to cats, you know. I do it all the time." *- Azrael to Squeakpaw*

"Why don't you respect my feelings and leave me alone for once?! Why can't anyone do that?! No, it's all about them, isn't it? It's all about everyone but me!" *- Azrael to Silver*

“But I don't hate myself. I just… Don’t like myself.” *- Azrael to Brokenrose*

“You didn’t actually care about my feelings. You just didn’t want me to think badly of you.” *- Azrael to Silver*

"I was just doing what was right for me. I know that you don't understand that, and I don't need you to. But don't blame your feelings on me.” *- Azrael to Silver*

"I have no home." - *Azrael to Brokenrose*

"There's nothing left here for me. I've lost everything." - *Azrael to Night*