メリア (Melia)

"Smile for me"
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*此れは僕の独り言だ。*

*訥々、丁寧に、紡いだ言葉だ。*

*孤独が染み付いて仕舞ったというのに、どうにも孤独が怖いのだ。*

*清く正しく、誠実に、明るく健やかに生きる事が難しかった。*

*嘘を覚えて仕舞ったから。*

*誰しもが嘘を吐いて、誰しもが嘘を隠すのだ。*

*偽物の言葉達に毒された僕らは、*

*馬鹿みたい笑ってんだ。*

遠い空から落っこちた

雨粒が律を刻むように

今日に総てを置いて征こうか

嘘で象った過去だから

心の奥に仕舞い込んだ

僕らしさが見つからないように

そっと階を降りてみようか

世界から踏み外さないように

書き記した言葉と常々連れ添って

息継ぎもせずに記憶を泳ぐのだ

隠れた僕を連れて征って

其の水面で意味を掬い上げて

聲を、聲を枯らすようだ

綺羅めいた彗星の訪いに

嗚呼、朧火と揺らぐのでしょう

正しい悲しみが終わる前に

言の葉を落として歩こうか

DellaVerita

偽りの花々が舞って轟に歌うのでしょう

柏手は散々に消え去って

明日の僕も笑えるように

春は一匙の涙に花を散らす

忘れ去って征く憧憬が愛しいのだ

此の三六五日の終幕も明日の朝に

靄と成って仕舞うようだ

可笑しいよな

有刺鉄線、屋上の

一盛りが意味を持たないように

徒然の儘に生きていたのだ

贋作みたいな人生だ

矍鑠の烏滸が嘯いた

「明るく健やかに生きなさい」と

どうも僕には合わないようだ

笑顔が酷く苦しいから

教室の静けさが逃避すら寫すのだ

此の聲も其の中に閉じ込めて仕舞えと願った

眩いた放課後の寂寞を

どうか何時迄も忘れないで

綰ねた空々な言葉達よ

また迷子に成る事としようか

抗った儘だった僕達の

嗚呼、思い出も既に欠いて

贖う意味など知らない癖に

罪だけを残して歩くのでしょう？

休し疎らまた果敢なかった

高張った花々が去った儘だから

なんて奇麗な終わりでしょう

僕の居ない所で笑っておくれよ

夙に黒に暗むは

総て偽物の記憶と成るだろう

託言がましい歌が

今も響くのだ

消えないように

美しく耀う花々が舞って

其の儘、伽藍と成って

今迄とこれからの隙間から

眺めた瞬きを忘れないで

呟いて仕舞った悲しみが

嗚呼、止め処なく溢れ出して

過ごした幾日の積層が

大切だと胸を張れるように

啄んだ夕景の太陽を割って

訪れた夜に泣いて

正しい、正しいと言い聞かせて

間違えた事を忘れるんだ

去った日々の稚さよ

待って、僕を一人にしないで

拙い言問を続けるのだ

遥か、遥か先の其の日迄

疾うに何処かに落っこちた

顰蹙する雨を探す道理

涙に満ちた別れの言葉も

笑顔の裏に隠したんだ

tooi sora kara okkochita

amatsubu ga ritsu o kizamu you ni

kyou ni subete o oite ikou ka

uso de katadotta kako dakara

kokoro no oku ni shimaikonda

bokurashisa ga mitsukaranai you ni

sotto kizahashi o orite miyou ka

sekai kara fumihazusanai you ni

kakishirushita kotoba to tsunezune tsuresotte

ikitsugi mo sezu ni kioku o oyogu no da

kakureta boku o tsurete itte

sono minamo de imi o sukui agete

koe o, koe o karasu you da

kirameita suisei no otonai ni

aa, oboroka to yuragu no deshou

tadashii kanashimi ga owaru mae ni

kotonoha o otoshite arukou ka

DellaVerita

itsuwari no hanabana ga matte todoroki ni utau no deshou

kashiwade wa barabara ni kiesatte

ashita no boku mo waraeru you ni

haru wa hitosaji no namida ni hana o chirasu

wasuresatte iku shoukei ga itoshii no da

kono sanrokugonichi itsuka no shuumaku mo asu no asa ni

moya to natte shimau you da

okashii yo na

yuushitessen, okujou no

hitosakari ga imi o motanai you ni

tsurezure no mama ni ikite ita no da

gansaku mitai na jinsei da

kakushaku no oko ga usobuita

"akaruku sukoyaka ni ikinasai" to

doumo boku ni wa awanai you da

egao ga hidoku kurushii kara

kyoushitsu no shizukesa ga touhi sura utsusu no da

kono koe mo sono naka ni tojikomete shimae to negatta

kurumeita houkago no sekibaku o

douka itsumademo wasurenaide

taganeta karakara na kotobatachi yo

mata maigo ni naru koto to shiyou ka

aragatta mama datta bokutachi no

aa, omoide mo sude ni kaite

aganau imi nado shiranai kuse ni

tsumi dake o nokoshite aruku no deshou?

kyuushi mabara mata hakanakatta

takabatta hanabana ga satta mama dakara

nante kirei na owari deshou

boku no inai tokoro de waratte okure yo

tsuto ni kuro ni kuramu wa

subete nisemono no kioku to naru darou

kagotogamashii uta ga

ima mo hibiku no da

kienai you ni

utsukushiku kagayou hanabana ga matte

sono mama, garan to natte

imamade to kore kara no sukima kara

nagameta mabataki o wasurenaide

tsubuyaite shimatta kanashimi ga

aa, tomedonaku afuredashite

sugoshita ikunichi no sekisou ga

taisetsu da to mune o hareru you ni

tsuibanda yuukei no taiyou o watte

otozureta yoru ni naite

tadashii, tadashii to iikikasete

machigaeta koto o wasureru nda

satta hibi no itokenasa yo

matte, boku o hitori ni shinaide

tsutanai kototoi o tsuzukeru no da

haruka, haruka saki no sono hi made

tou ni dokoka ni okkochita

unzari suru ame o sagasu douri

namida ni michita wakare no kotoba mo

egao no ura ni kakushita nda

*This is my monologue.*

*These are the words I've spun together haltingly and politely.*

*Despite loneliness having stained me indelibly, loneliness is terribly frightening.*

*Living purely and uprightly, honestly, cheerfully and healthily—that was impossible.*

*I'd fluently picked up their lies, after all.*

*Everyone lies, and then everyone conceals them, is the thing.*

*We who were poisoned by spurious words*

*are laughing like fools.*

Raindrops fell from the distant sky

As they chimed a rhythm

Shall we leave everything behind in the present and move on?

Because it's just a past made up of lies

I've been keeping it in the back of my mind

So our “us-ness” won't be discovered

Let's go down the stairs gently

So as to not step out of the world

Always accompanying me with written words

You swim through your memory, breathless

Spiriting my hidden self away,

You scoop up meaning from the water’s surface

As if screaming your voice dry

Upon the visitation of a beautiful comet

Ahh, it'll waver with a cry, a hazy fire

Before the end of a righteous sorrow

Let's drop a few words as we walk

DellaVerita

False flowers dance and sing with a roar

The kashiwade scatters into pieces and vanishes

So that I, too, can smile tomorrow

Spring scatters flowers in a spoonful of tears

I love the longing that I’ve started to forget

Tomorrow morning the end of these 365 days

Will seem to turn into a mist

It's funny, isn't it?

Barbed wire, rooftops

As if the brief profusion of them had no meaning

I lived my life in tedium

My life is like a forgery

Healthy and heartily, the old and vigorous fool said to me,

"Live a cheerful and healthy life"

I don't think it suits me though

Because my smiles are way too forced

The silence of the classroom reproduces even an escape

I wished my voice could be locked up inside it, too

Don’t ever forget

The loneliness of the dazzling after-school hours

I've been gathering up these empty words

Why don’t we devote ourselves to getting lost again?

Our resistance

Ahh, those memories have already been forgotten and gone missing

Without knowing the point of redemption,

We walk along leaving only our sins behind, don't we?

Rested and sparse, they weren’t fleeting

The high-spirited flowers have departed

What a beautiful end!

You can laugh about it without me

Since long ago, being dazzled by the blackness

Will all become false memories

A displeased song

Still echoes in the air,

As if it will never fade away

Beautiful and shining flowers dance

And like that, they form a temple

Don’t ever forget the twinkle that gazed at you

Through the gap between what has been and what will be

The sadness that I ended up muttering about

Ahh, it overflows endlessly

The days I've been layering up

I hope they can serve an importance that I can be proud of

I split the evening sun that I’d picked at

And when the night fell, I cried

"It's right, that was the right thing to do," if you tell yourself that

You'll forget that you even made a mistake

The childishness of the days gone by

Wait, don't leave me alone

I'll keep up this shoddy question-and-answer

Until that day in the distant, distant future

It’s long since fallen somewhere,

Any logic in searching for a scornful rain

And the tear-filled goodbye we shared

I hid it all behind a smile

Translation by **s**
On-screen text translation by **MeaningfulUsername**

1. ↑ it's a gesture people make when they offer prayer to gods and it consists of clapping hands (at a shrine)

**English Title**

Melia

**Japanese Title**

メリア

*Meria*

**Music, Lyrics, Video**

Michibata no Ishi

**Illustration**

Arusechika

**Character**

Haruka

1. ↑ Melia is a term used in flower arranging where several flowers are put together to form one larger flower