Absolutely Livid/Confessionals

### Day 34

Sam's idol is now gone, which isn't much comfort when Jake's likely found the merge one now, and he's gonna have to play it tonight, making him untouchable yet a-fucking-gain. If Sam was genuine last night, then it sounds like John or Chelsea will be going home tonight, but I don't want to turn on Chelsea and I need John at the Final 3 to ensure I can win the final immunity challenge (hopefully). God this is a mess, I don't know what to do, I don't know what angles I can work, and I think it's all just gonna bite me right in the arse. Absolutely livid.

I just need to execute it
for this to happen though liam needs to go this round 100%
nobody wants to face me in a tiebreaker at F4 and if they do they're crazy
I just need liam gone because he's the only competition I'd have
of course I'd just vote the other person instead of liam at F4 if me and sam make it but I need that out of the way

### Day 35

not as an arrogance thing but mathematically speaking there's no possible way liam survives this and also it puts me in a position of who to take with me
chelsea is out of the question that's complete suicide to go with her
so between john and sam ugh
on the surface john is easier to beat but I also feel like he has at least one or two votes he'd 100% get over me and I don't feel the same way about sam
I feel like Sam the past few rounds and also going forward has been sorta self destructing and it's making it really hard to decide
Before I feel like I would've absolutely lost chelsea and liams votes to Sam but I feel like I have a waaaaay better shot at getting them after the events of the last round
I feel like although john from a gameplay perspective isn't like anything I think he's the bigger social threat. Or, maybe im just arbitrarily making things harder on myself.
I know my strategic game has been superior to Sam's already, I don't need to use that as a reason for taking john just to say I outplayed him strategically
The spot I think I've been most superior to Sam is in not making people upset with me after votes, because I've been pretty clear to everyone at a lot of points that I felt on the outs so when I flipped on people they understood it from me and felt blindsided by him

### Day 36

main goals rn are securing chelseas vote by staying in her good graces until the very end and letting sam continue to hurt his chances at getting liams vote. I hope i’d have her vote regardless because her and i are super close, but i’m really worried about betraying her and i’d be devastated if she was mad at me
I might try to see about getting out john at 4 because it guarantees regardless ill make f2 with either sam or chelsea

this has basically been my strategy for a while already
there's a reason the last few people that have left have been more angry specifically with sam
until recently it wasn't specifically about sam but moreso making it so im not taking heat after blindsides
I've been a huge player in most of the votes post merge aside from the first couple but I've been free from having people be mad at me upon their exit
liam is upset but he's way more upset with sam
liam thinks im just being played by sam but like..
honestly the further the game goes the stronger my game has been and the weaker sams has gotten
sam peaked early merge and i mostly took over after that