Chapter 41: I Can't See

**Chapter 41: I Can't See** is the forty-first Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

It is seat-moving day in Class 2-3, and Ichikawa is slightly disappointed that he got a hallway seat, since those tend to be on the cold side. Yamada is fishing through the paper slips that determine your place, and Chi is getting impatient. She finally chooses, and Ichikawa prays to God that she gets the seat next to him. She ends up off by one, in front of him, though. He considers this not so bad, until Adachi appears, taking the seat next to her. Hara ends up taking the seat next to Ichikawa. After weighing everything, he is pleased with the outcome.

Later, class has started, and Ichikawa has a hard time seeing the chalkboard with Yamada's tall figure in the way, often getting distracted by her face and long eyelashes. She turns and, their eyes meeting, concludes that he must just be looking at her, and gives a smug expression. He gets upset, thinking that it isn't fair that he has to look her way to see the board. While he considers this, Adachi announces that he has forgotten his Modern Japanese textbook, and Yamada offers to share hers, which makes Ichikawa jealous. He dives into the cubby hole of Adachi's desk, finding the textbook, and making Adachi upset. They go back to listening, but Ichikawa still can't see the board at all. He tries to lean over far enough to see, but accidentally hits heads with Hara. He apologizes, and jumps back, and she says it's fine. He quietly explains that he can't see the chalkboard at all, and she says she'll talk to the teacher after the lesson, and offers to share notes. Yamada turns to them, angry that he got so upset about her interacting with Adachi, but shows no hesitation in interacting with Hara, and accuses him, saying "oh, so you can do it."

During the break, there is an awkward silence between the two, and Chi calls out to Yamada, asking her to come by he window to their usual talking spot. Yamada, still upset, says that Chi should come over to her if she wants to talk, and Chi asks her if she's a king. Yamada turns around and asks Ichikawa if it's nice having the warm, kind Hara as a neighbor. He tries to downplay it, but also thinks about how he can tell her that she's in the way without being insensitive. She continues, saying that Hara is cute, but Ichikawa cuts her off, saying "I can only see you." She reacts with embarrassed frustration at such a bold statement, and he realizes the context of what he's said as he continues, cutting himself off and burying his face in his hands. Hara then opens the window to the hallway, saying she talked with the teacher, acting nervous after walking in on something she shouldn't have. Ichikawa concludes that maybe it's not so cold by the hallway.

* A bonus page shows the aftermath of the seat change, with Yamada and Ichikawa switching places. He is not too pleased with the results.

## Trivia

* Yamada notably seems to hide her face by pulling her hair over ear once she gets upset with Ichikawa for talking with Hara.
* Hara can be seen in the window accidentally overhearing their discussion, which is why she's so flustered when she finally opens it to talk to them.