Chapter 9

### Transition Milestones

Akira is getting used to wearing girl's protection pads, as well as keeping tract as to about when her monthly period will begin.

### Relationship Evolution

Rumi and Akira are almost a Yuri couple now.

### Lessons Learned

One can turn around their life for the better, if one puts their mind, heart, and soul into it.

ORE GA WATASHI NI NARU MADE ( UNTIL I BECOME ME )

CHAPTER 9 OF THE STORY (Revised English Translation)

(Chapter note---Chapter 9 is only that of the MANGA version)

## Previously

Since Akira has returned from Summer Camp, she has had, like it or not, several upgrades to her feminine appearance and presentations. She has her regular periods under control now. She has had a hairstyle makeover, originally not to her liking, that has given her a softer, more feminine appearance. She now has obtained and is wearing her first bra. Rumi, her intimate friend, of course, is delighted. However, Akira, even at this late point in her transformation to an atomically correct teen/tween girl, is still somewhat uncertain as to her eventual or long term goals regarding her sexuality and gender expressions. So many different influences are pulling on her from all different directions, not the least of which is Mom, who seems to want Akira to reverse herself and degenerate back to boyhood.

## This Chapter's Story

CHAPTER 9---According to the MANGA version---

The weather has turned cold early this year. Akira is sleeping in her bedroom. Was sleeping. She is awake now because her feet are cold, and beginning to cramp up. She rubs her feet with her hands to stave off the cold. But she can't go back to sleep. Now she has to go to the toilet. Still no sleep. She's now thirsty. So downstairs she goes to the kitchen, and looks into the refrigerator. " You can't sleep ? ", comes a voice from behind her. Only grandmother. Grandma leads Akira to the downstairs bathroom, runs hot water into the tub, and has Akira sit with her feet in the tub. She is told to relax, and let the hot water warm her up. Grandma states that Akira's feet must be sore after all the walking she did today. Then Grandma makes a troublesome, off-handed comment---that Akira doesn't have to 'force herself to sit like a girl'. Akira thinks to herself that she was not forcing herself at all, she did what came naturally.

Afterwards, Akira is lead back to the kitchen, where grandma fixes her a hot chocolate. Wrapped in a comforter, Akira slowly drinks her hot chocolate. Grandma asks if Akira's feet are still painful ? She than says that maybe her feet are hurting because her feet are growing. This reminds Akira of what the doctor told her---that her breasts have already begun to grow. Grandma then drops another troublesome, off-handed comment---by telling Akira that since she woke up as a girl, then perhaps she will wake up as a boy someday. If that happens, Mom and herself will always be here for you. Akira merely says an okay. But what if ??? Ah ! Never mind. Sorry. However, Akira thinks to herself that, what if, just what if she said that she is okay just as she is right now ..........

    Back in bed, Akria is again trying to fall asleep. But she can't. She thinks to herself that she should keep herself as she is now, not as she was when she was a debased male. She wonders how she will turn out ? She further wonders how she *wants to turn out* ?

" Who do ***I*** ( lit. *Ore* {Masculine} ) want to be ?

Next morning, Akira is getting ready for school. Mom asks her if she is wearing her 'time of the month' protection pads ? She is wearing a pad now. Seeing her blood on her bed when she woke up this morning scared the crap out of her. Mom reminds her to change her pad at school during break time. Coming to the kitchen, Akira sees grandma on a stool, trying to reach a pot to make something for a hot meal. Just as Akira walks by her, grandma slips off of the stool ! Akira catches her and stops her from falling to the floor. " You really scared me ! Are you okay? I don't want you to get hurt! ", Akira inquires. Grandma is fine.

Mom and Akira are now eating the hot breakfast that grandma fixed. Mom is again in a somewhat of a foul mood. She quizzes Akira if Akira is okay ? Does she hurt anywhere ? Akira states that she is okay. But being decidedly annoying, Mom tells Akira that you'll be feeling like hell every month, and have to deal with it, like it or not ! Akira moans; that it is every month ? And how do you know when it will come ? Mom belts out that is why Akira has to mark it on the calendar ! If you're still not sure, you should take your temperature and write it down. You can learn what your own cycle is going to be ! PAY ATTENTION TO ME ! If you don't do it right, you will have problems !

Akira, miffed by this sudden firing squad, says the she is outta here, and turns to go.

" Girls sure have a rough time ! ", Akira proclaims to herself as she goes out the front door.

Walking to school, Akira notices that her breasts feel extra tender today. She tells herself that she is going to tell Rumi about her experience of buying her first bra, even if that is not something worth talking about to your very best friend. Once in the school building, Akira is all frowns and bad feelings. This until she meets Rumi. Rumi gives Akira a big smile and a cheerful 'Good Morning'. Akira's bad mood changes instantly. She returns Rumi's greeting with a smile herself, and an equally cheerful, although somewhat forced, 'Good Morning' ! Akira begins telling her 'first bra' story---

" Rumi, so yesterday ***I*** ( lit. *Watashi* {feminine} ) ............

## Chapter Lookback, Commentary, and Opinion

Akira still continues to be indecisive about her long term goals and accomplishments concerning her sexuality and gender expression. What with her being pulled in opposite directions, that can't be for her ultimate good. Mom seems to want Akira to move toward a strong, rugged boyhood image, whereas Rumi and all the other girls in school want Akira, who definitely has the potential, to become one of the cutest, most feminine, and mildly and covertly sexy girl in school. And Grandma seems to be 'on the fence', with a times conflicting observations and advice towards Akira.

## What Manga Fans Are Saying About This Chapter

**AllosaurusJei / 28 days ago**

It depends on how Akira identifies really. At the moment they seem to be still ... referring to themselves in masculine terms even as they use neutral language in the outside world, and they've definitely begun to appreciate their femininity... so we'll have to wait and find out.

**Darklight99 / 4 months ago**

Grandma wasn't the one who had to deal with being separated from her spouse, having move away to a completely new location, have everyone treat her child as a contagious person.

**dokidoki / 4 months ago**

I always felt it like that too. Think about it. Dad left because son turned into a girl, Mom had to change [Akira] from school 'cause other parents who where in her school, mom's friends thought what [Akira] got was contagious and she had to move back with her old mother and is now overweight from probably stress eating..... I just hope she can have a happy life again one day, since I too consider [Akira's] mom a victim...feels bad, man!

What shocks me the most now that I think about it---that the Grandma isn't even more pissed off at [Akira] and the mom for everything, as typical old people her age would be when her kids turn into [supposedly or alleged] failures or such.

**Notesha / 4 months ago**

Am I the only one think that the mother is secretly resent the M[ain] C[haracter, Akira] for suddenly transformed into a girl and change ~~ruin~~ everything, and she [Mom] is now in conflicted and denial phase?

**Tiny Anvil / 4 months ago**

Also glad they [the mangaka] didn't take the bite marks away!

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