Kørii's Journal pages

#### **Day 1**

I ate them. They're dead now... It's so lonely, and quiet... but I'm okay with it? this silence is so loud, and the voices are getting louder with it... they sound just like him, but: angry... Resentful and bitter. He's scolding. "you're a monster." I can't tell where it's from... But he sounds so close... me... · coming

like he's behind me... watching. Ethan... Oh my god. Why am I still so hungry? my 50 mind is racing. is racing, oh god, no. why did I eat them? I can't remember anything! why...? I don't know how I lost my self so much... I've been married for so log and its all gone because I was so hungry..? maybe I should sleep it off. This will pass.

#### **Day 2**

I've been seeing things. I'm seeing them. they look so disappointed in me. Rhonnie... Ethan... they both sound so real. I've reached out to feel them, but they don't let me touch them. They move away from my guilty hands, every time. I can't forgive myself either... I hurt them so bad. It's so cold in our room, mine and Ethan's.. that window... a smear of blood on the windowsill... whose blood is that...? I'm not bleeding right now, and I ate parts of Rhonnie- Is it his? no... no no- I couldn't have... did I? please tell me I did... holy shit... I'm nauseous, oh god.

#### **Day 3**

I found a pile of clothes I've never seen before. They don't look like anything. Ethan would wear. Do these belong to 50 me one else...? Is that why there's blood on the windowsill? No... He's gone - date somebody there's no way Ethan survived what no way I've done. I'm getting stressed again... vo полого No No No го пого о no Nono No No NO го

please. I'm so HUNGRY

#### **Day 4**

I've been thinking about what happened. These clothes weren't what Ethan was wearing... But he's saying his. His voice echoing with Rhonnette's. Both sounding so melancholy. it's

I CANT DO THIS/HELP OH GOD HELP ME PLEASE! MY ARMYS OH! MYARMS

#### **Day 5**

I woke up in bed this morning. I know for a fact I blacked out on the floor. My body has been having muscle spasms as of late and I've been hearing Rhonnie screaming angry and hateful words to me. My vision is very blurry, but I can slightly see if I put my face close enough. My eyes are moving without command, I'm so dizzy. I'm forcing the consequences of what I willingly did. I had a choice. My vision is blacking out again. I can't see.

MY EYES!!

#### **Day 6**

I need to smoke. I told him I wouldn't, and I've been clean for 10 years, but I'm but I'm going to claw my eyes out. I'm hungry and there's Nobody around. Rhonnie is still yelling at me Ethan is telling me not to smoke. But I need one cigarette. A single stick of paper and tobacco... Maybe I  can talk to Rhonnie through the stars...

I'm gonna smoke.

#### **DAY 7**

My hands are so... Bloody! THE WALLS ARE MELTING!! I'm so LOST! RHONNIE keeps Screaming! Ethan is scolding me. I'm clawing at my eyes. I cant Keep them in my sockets, they've got to go! But I can't! I don't understand why, but I can't pull them out! MY Face is Scratched brutally- HELP!

#### **Day 8**

I saw him again. His arm is missing, yet his other is still held on to me, strong. He held me until I stopped shaking. It felt so Real. Is there a chance he's still alive? What does that matter... I tried to kill him.

I'm sick. The salt in my tears are Stinging my face. The lines from clawing at my eyes. They're mangled but the Hallucinations are Still there.

#### **DAY 9**

The muscle spasms are worse but I feel a Strong familiar arm holding me in place. I haven't eaten in days... I'm gonna die like this with whatever the hell is killing me and my starvation. I'm so Screwed- no no please

Pease Stop I Stop please make it Stop

#### **Day 10**

I can't tell if these hallucinations are even hallucinations, or it's real- there's actual food on the counter, And Ethan was here, but he ran away like he usually does. The food satiated some stress, but I'm not... spasming? I'm still in pain, but it's a change- There was so much food, It stopped maybe I can be let outside..? Just near the house-

I found Ethan.

#### **Day 11**

why is everything going so... well? or.. controlled I guess I'm having less muscle spasm and hallucinations, its... weird..

I found Ethan yesterday, his arm... the arm I ate the one I took from him... how did I get here...? he was knocked out in the bushes, his hood is drenched in his blood. I helped him, of course, but never have I ever thought I'd ever see him again... I reek of blood and my face is messed up- I can't believe I did such stupid shit..

#### **Day??**

I'm in a hospital bed, not sure of how or when I got here, but I'm assuming it was by Ethan Though Seeing as he's right next to me asleep ina chair - I can't be too sure, but he feels... real? His thick hair feels like It normally does? I can't tell any more, but it's.. fine? the nurses told me I have CJD, so I'm sitting here dying from brain rot- they wanted to wake up Ethan, but this, I'm also assuming, is the most sleep he's gotten in a while-

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