Daily Notes

**SPOILER WARNING:** *This page may contain spoilers to the plot of Fable SMP. Please read with caution.*

## Daily Notes

### Current Location

Ocie and Ven's House

This notepad was owned and used by Ven before the War of the Realms began. It contains to-do lists, drawings from his partner, and conversations from when Ven would go non-verbal. Rae and Arisanna found it initially, and after reading through it, Rae returned it to Ven.

## Transcription

*Page 1*

Happy Birthday sweetheart,

I know you said you didn't want anything but... i figured you could do with a new notepad! Make use of it, but try not to fill it with too many notes about me ;)
- Fengári <3

*Page 2*

26/1

* dishes
* 2nd draft for the glass blowing manual.
* more soil for Fengári
* flowers for Feng (do florists like receiving flowers?? or would that be pointless?)

*Page 3*

31/1

* contact publishers
* visit the post office
* get more milk

* stop by Fengári's, if you have the time

*Page 4*

7/2

* Parchment
* tulips seeds for Feng
* flour
* fruit for the picnic

*Page 5*

13/2 card draw

Death (Upright)

* new beginnings, perhaps something to do with Feng?

(or perhaps that's wishful thinking.)

*Page 6*

28/2

* ask Feng about his plans for the garden
* send off final draft for the glassblowing manual
* take a goddamn nap

*Page 7*

[written in two different hand writing styles]

Lunch?
Salad?

*In a moment*

ill make coffee?

*thank you <3*

*Page 8*

7/3

* buy more oats
* buy milk
* send off first draft to Glasterburry, await instructions from the scientists there

*Page 9*

[someone has drawn a bouquet of tulips and orchids on this page.]

*Page 10*

20/4

* talk to Feng about his shower products, where to buy them
* unpack the kitchen
* finish the second draft

* just talk to Feng, damn it

*Page 11*

Breakfast?

*I'll be down soon.*

How long have you been here?

*Not long, promise*

*Page 12*

29/4

* parchment
* milk
* honey
* whiskey
* tequila
* steel-cut oats

*Page 13*

Lunch?

?

??

*Later.*

*Page 14*

10/5

* find some new disks
* help with the garden
* cook dinner

* go to bed after sunset (fix your damn sleep schedule)

*Page 15*

*Lunch?*

*oh haha.*

*Your hair looks pretty :)*

*I'm heading inside, see you when you're finished here <3*

*Page 16*

12/5

* cat food
* Cat bed
* litter box
* cat water
* cat toys

what do cats need???!!

*Page 17*

[someone has drawn a cat on this page. It's a Himalayan breed, white feet and warm coat. it's expression looks regal.]

*Page 18*

*Not feeling up to talking right now.*

*I'm done with work :)*

*Waffles?*

*I'll go make the mixture <3*

*Page 19*

19/5

* get Feng flowers
* schedule a date
* laundry
* dishes
* spring clean the bedroom

*Page 20*

[there are sketches of different household objects on this page, but they're drawn in two different styles, one messier than the other.]

*Page 21*

20/7

* check mail
* take Captain to the vet
* work on the surprise for Feng's birthday

*Page 22*

3/9

* write to Feng
* explore
* purchase some souvenirs

*Page 23*

15/9

* look over Van Poel's notes on irrigation
* visit the gentlemen's club on main street
* meet with the printers

* take a nap

*Page 24*

2/10

* pick up flowers for Feng
* buy new boat equipment
* water and food
* new gloves

*Page 25*

[this page is covered in graphite sketches of a curly-haired man lying in bed, some with a cat.]

*Page 26*

15/10

* help clean out the store
* hand over keys
* pick up wine from the grocer

*Page 27*

10/7

* check Feng's plans
* check on Captain's health
* contact florist about the bouquet
* pick up the rings
* check storage for the old picnic basket

*Page 28*

[this page contains sketches of flowers, but they look shaky and unfinished.]

*Page 29*

22/8

* visit Dr Yang
* visit the bank

*Page 30*

4/9

* feng's medicine
* milk
* captains food

*Page 31*

2/11

* Flowers
* Feng's medicine

*[Pages 32-34 are left blank.]*

*Page 34-38*

Sometimes I like to look back at pictures of us, photos where you’re just standing there or doing something domestic or mundane. I look until the shape is imprinted on my retinas and then I try to remember the feeling of you being alive next to me. The way your shoulders move, your eyes flick, and your chest rises and falls. The distinct feeling of blood and life flowing through your body as you stand next to me. I miss the days when you were a part of my life. I miss the days when you were a part of me.

Because I yearn. I yearn to hold you again. To link our palms and press kisses to the freckles on your shoulders. To hold onto you and love you. I feel disoriented like I've lost my limbs every time I’m reminded that you’re not here. I miss you. I miss you to the next world and back.

It pains me to wake up every day, knowing that you aren’t here anymore. I often find myself wondering why you had to be taken from me. Perhaps your soul was too good for this plane of existence. But whatever the case, it doesn’t matter anymore. you’re gone regardless.

What does matter now, however, is cherishing what we did once have. I can’t have you back, I know that, but I will hold on to my memories of you with an iron grip. No matter what the universe throws my way, as long as I can help it, I will always remember you. I promise your legacy that much.