HE GAVE ME NICE LEGS/Confessionals

## Day 6

they literally took three hours to vote out morena..
and i was busy for two of them like i literally only spoke to phoenix, isabel, and edvin LMFAOOO yikes
so if abi, spencer, or andrew are tribe leader i'm.. done!!
whew love a mess"

like.. anabel can't really do the challenge. byron is off doing idek what. like last night i pm'd him ""hi"" and he said verbatim ""IN THE MIDDLE OF A THING CANT GET DISTRACTED AAAAAA"" like... byron why would u even respond if u don't have the time and ur only reaction is going to be to yell at me??? what type of social mess JSJSJSJ.. so ya jp and i can't solo do this challenge i don't think, so i'm just going to pray marpesia wins again!! luckily edvin is one of the three people i messaged during my short tenure there and i do feel like i have a good connection with him so hopefully he'll save me?? but if antianara wins, the literal only thing i know about chieko is she's all for girl power.. and i live for that.. but if that means anabel is kidnapped over me, i'm going to be in a tough spot!
let's run the scenarios!
if anabel is kidnapped, i'm at tribal with jp and byron. based on our convos, jp should (if he's not lying) want to vote byron over me and honestly since the only thing byron incinerates is his social game, rendering it difficult for me to connect with him, i wouldn't be surprised if he would gun for me! so that puts my life into jp's hands and he knows i have the idol. so i don't like that! i'd probably idol myself and turn myself into a swing, but if i felt like really secure (which is highly unlikely), i might keep the idol and vote byron. but if i play the idol - if i go valasca strong, i vote byron because jp is a really good ally to have down the road. if i play individually, i vote jp because in a swap situation, i do feel like byron would have a harder time integrating socially than me, which could honestly save me if i'm in a minority at the swap, which seems v likely!!
if byron is kidnapped, i'm definitely idoling because jp and anabel are tight as well and i'd probably vote jp over anabel, while also asking for her to vote for me. i'd ask her to vote me because i do feel like we are close and i want to hide that, so why not flush my idol and create a perception! in any event, if byron is kidnapped, i think jp goes because i do have a really good bond with anabel and i trust her!
if jp is kidnapped, i think this is probably the only scenario where i feel i might not idol? i'm not sure anabel knows about the idol like it's a matter of if jp went off with this information but she did basically say this morning that she and jp are tight and byron is valuable in challenges. so she'd keep me over byron unless she knows about the idol i think? i'd still be putting my life in someone else's hands, but i do kinda trust her not to be wild enough to vote me? like it'd kinda be a bad move for her i think, so i just need to make sure she knows that!!
if i'm kidnapped, byron would probably leave and then we should swap? please let us swap. i want off this tribe. i planted some seeds with marpesia while i was there that we should form a coalition to take out antianara so hopefully those grow a little bit!
so ya.. my tribe is a MESS and i'm debating whether or not to jump off this sinking ship while i still can. this fake bitch isn't drowning i hope!!"

As a side note, I suck at challenges. Like. Really suck. I'm a liabilty but I don't think anyone on my tribe really realizes that rn soooo shhhhhhh don't tell anyone. Love you all. Goodnight."

I've been kinda slacking too when it comes to talking to the tribe. When there's only 4 people left, a great social game is vital."

Abi- I LOVE Abi she’s my in game mum. She’s the first person I spoke to in here and I fully intend to be her new best friend. I really want an alliance with her ngl.
Andrew-We haven’t spoken much yet but he seems really nice ahh. He’s really good at the challenges.
Edvin-I love him awe he dragged me through that song challenge I literally would have got 4 points without him. I really want an alliance with him ngl.
Phoenix- I am unsure of how I feel about Phoenix, he seems like he is very good at gameplay, but I don’t think I trust him yet.
Spencer-ok so I started off by calling him a furry but that’s only because he left me on read after he said hi. I now no longer believe he is a furry and I actually love him wow. He did so good on the flag (anyone who says otherwise is wrong-HE GAVE ME NICE LEGS)
Jake-he’s basically a tribe member at this point and I lOVE him wow. He’s so nice and I WISH I could form an alliance with him wow. "

hopefully my 95 and JP's 53 (and whatever byron and anabel end up getting) are enough to free us from tribal. i wasn't doing that immunity for my day 7 safety but rather to hold onto this idol, so hopefully that's accomplished!! like.. we need a break LMFAO! losing morena and aaron, while they were essentially dead weight in challenges, has robbed us of our insurance plan and now, any tribal is a messy tribal. even if i got kidnapped, byron leaving (which is probably what would happen) isn't great because i think i need him as a poor social shield in the swap ):
like even if i make a big move with my idol, a big move isn't always a smart move. if i destabilize my position to remove someone else's, did it really better my game? or have i become the medium through which someone else gets their outcome and all i get is attention.. and not the good type!! bc i am p visible at the moment w/ challenge performance and kidnappings. an idol play would put a target on my back and i don't want to wear that down the runway! but tbf the circumstance is wild.. like a tribal with three people when i've been kidnapped twice is basically a death sentence unless my social pussy has really popped!! "

## Day 7

WE FINALLY WON A CHALLENGE????
well tbf.. i literally scored higher than all of marpesia combined JKHDSHJKHKSDHKFJKJ like.. whew i really snapped and threw UTR out the door.
i am like.. kinda nervous about abi being here because i've been hamming up the whole ""it could be me"" vibe at marpesia when i was kidnapped to like.. keep myself kidnapped and i don't want notes compared, but i didn't really do that with abi (more with isabel and phoenix) so hopefully it doesn't amount to much! based on my brief time there i honestly wouldn't be too surprised if it was abi on the outs, but idk like obvs they aren't going to tell me their tribe dynamic
i'm kinda weirded that JP went solo in terms of who he picked, but anabel didn't seem to know it was abi because she asked who it was in the tc, so that might mean there's not an alliance w/o me where shots are being called.. plus i did tell them not to discuss kidnappings in the tribe chat since kidnapped people are added so maybe it was just an individual decision! also, he seemed frustrated that anabel and byron didn't go as hard as we did in immunity and i kinda tried to make an excuse for anabel (tbf the girl had three finals and a show), but byron isn't getting any sympathy from me when he told me 100 was a good score and proceeded to get 17!! like i feel like he is in a world of his own and idk.. like i knew my score would be ott but i didn't think it'd be like.. nearly double the next highest score ott LMFAHKJDHJKSDK so i'll have to flop the next challenge on purpose honestly.
a swap is probably coming soon. i'm not sure if it'll be into three tribes of five or two tribes of seven, but i'm kinda hoping we have another round to even the playing field in terms of tribe numbers, but i'd also just love to not have to go to tribal with three of us bc then i'll have to make a move!! i think if the kidnappings and idols weren't factors, byron would be the next boot of this tribe, but they are factors and for that reason, jp would be my pre-swap target still unless like.. i was thoroughly convinced he was with me.. which i'm still not even if he is like.. bitching about anabel and byron's scores!! idk. if we made swap together i'd definitely drop it because my desire to make a move is a product of valasca losing and if that stops, i do too! i'm a lot more beneficial for his game than i am in this like mess of a tribe so he'd be beneficial for my game too and i'd want to stick with him!! idk if i'd stick with byron in a swap. definitely staying with anabel like i adore her and want to go far with her!!
last time i was at marpesia, i planted some seeds for anti-antianara rhetoric and hopefully that blossoms into a coalition? idk.. the game is accelerating and i am nervous! i think i really need to calm tf down in the swap because i'm positioning myself as an early merge ""get this threat out"" boot so hopefully i can kinda coast for a bit? after kidnappings, ott challenge performances, losing streaks, and idols, i'd really like to coast"

In the case if we had lost, I think I could have been fine, even if I had been kidnapped by the winning tribe. As much I've bonded with everyone else, people won't see the deal of voting out someone like Tal who was the weakest scorer of the challenge, or even Shay, which everyone had bonded with her the least. Either one of these two would have been fine by me.
P.S: Jp can suck my ass for choosing the same Marpesia member I was about to kidnap in case Antianara came in first. Also, Jake can have my pussy because he carried his whole tribe with that huge score that everyone wanted to have but they kept failing at it. If only I had the Audacity to pull a big score like Valasca would, people could appreciate me for putting such effort. "

Good days for me! I'm safe and we got to kidnap Abi who I wanted to kidnap when I was leader, boom!"