Chapter 88: I Don't Know What I'm Saying

**I Don't Know What I'm Saying** is the eighty-eighth Chapter of *Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu*.

## Summary

Ichikawa tries to explain the situation, that he and Hara were just walking around since they happened to get on the same train. Yamada tries to play things cool, but addresses Hara as "cute," turning to Ichikawa with angry expectation and asking his opinion. Ichikawa considers the situation and realizes that Yamada must be jealous and feels like glowing, but his train of thought is interrupted by Kanzaki aggressively glaring at him a few inches from his face, and he realizes this might not be the time to glow. Hara tries to clear the air by affirming that Yamada is also cute, and asks Ichikawa about it, hoping he'll agree, but he can't bring himself to do it due to the awkwardness.

At the buffet, Yamada and Hara are filling their plates, and from behind, Kanzaki brings up how cute Hara is, which Ichikawa agrees with, but it immediately makes Kanzaki angry. He says he can only refer to her as "nice-looking," but when he tries that instead, it still makes Kanzaki angry. Ichikawa, unsure how to react to all of this, just wants to go home, considering how unfair it is that a "cute" intended for Yamada was misunderstood to be for Hara.

The girls return with their plates, with Yamada having a smorgasbord of sweets, but Hara only having a single cupcake. Kanzaki insists that it's his treat, and she should have more, and she tries to play it off as being fine, but her stomach growls in protest. Kanzaki tells Ichikawa that it's always like this, which is why he recommended Yamada come along, since her habit of being a big-eater might help make Hara more comfortable, and, to further enforce things, he tells Hara that she's plenty cute the way she is. Yamada is amazed at how casually he calls her cute, and Hara claims that he calls her that once per minute, which an upset Yamada says must be nice, glaring at Ichikawa. When the french fries are brought out, Kanzaki offers some to Hara, but Ichikawa finally interjects, saying that even if he praises her, it only matters if she's the one who is comfortable, and he shouldn't push it on her. He adds that it's wrong to deny someone who wants to change, thinking how he wants to change as well, and that's the whole reason he came. Kanzaki retorts, saying that he may be right, but that his feelings won't change because of Hara's size. He declares that it makes him happy to see her eat her fill, and that's the person he likes. He then produces a gift for Valentine's, a cutlery set, which Hara finds to be cute. Hara finally relents and decides to eat, at least for today.

Having finished eating, the girls go to the bathroom to freshen up, and the boys talk outside. Kanzaki talks about his return gift, and how he ran into Yamada, who helped him pick something out. Ichikawa, feeling his own jealousy bubble up, insists that he not go shopping with her alone. Kanzaki considers openly how she is a type of celebrity, but Ichikawa claims that isn't the reason, and tells him not to talk or even look at her when he brings up how she is in conversations and when she's eating. Kanzaki asks what's wrong, because he's been acting weird, and Ichikawa suddenly yells out "Yamada is mine!" just as she walks up behind him, causing her to recoil from the impact of his words.

A bonus page is Yamada and Hara in the bathroom, with Hara talking about how Kanzaki always drowns her in affections, and Yamada agreeing how that can be confusing as well.