Selene's Diary

The diary of Selene Hellian where she jots down her feelings and thoughts about the goings on in her life, the secret insight into the queens thoughts and what she might be hoping for. Or maybe this diary is another layer of lies Selene tells herself to feel good or bad or whatever it is she wants, either way here is Selene in her own words.

## S1E0 - A New Game Begins (Alvilda Chargen)

2021, February 25

Today was a delicious start to my plans for this semester. I was at the ice skating rink with the girls, scouting out potentials. You see ice skating is a likely hobby for many a winter monster. Yeti’s, Yuki-onnas, etc. However, what really caught my eye was a couple of humans and a fledgling vampire.

Sofia Brown tasted like she wanted to be in my sorority, she wanted it so bad of course I had to grant her wish. The girl is strange, not too bright but cute, fun, total Hellfire potential just waiting to be fostered. She passed all my tests so she has her own room and I look forward to seeing that Hellfire Spirit build in her.

Ryhs Vasquez isn’t my normal type but he was hungry and shy. It was adorable, he’s got a ghost stalker, they seem to be friendly to him but I am not sure he is aware of them. The ghost was messing with Rhys’s bully Landon, annoying prick i’ll get to him, so I can only assume the ghost is some sort of loved one for Rhys or a person with a long formed crush that was stalking them in the afterlife. Either way I got Rhys to sort of stand up for themself and then fucked them. Their fangs felt amazing. I just just hope he doesn’t get addicted to my blood. I'm sure it’s the best he’s had.

Then there was Mary, it wasn’t so much that she had Hellfire potential as she looked like a stuffy nerd who needed to let loose. So I had Sofia invite her to come to the party. Despite not knowing her she fell for her super hard, desperate lonely loser or was there some sort of love potion involved, I am not sure but when she got to the party she had a total aura of desire for Sofia.

Mary was so horny for Sofia they fucked in the bathroom which is a choice for sure. Then apparently she got all clingy and wanted to go out and maybe just assumed monogamy despite just having gotten her to say they would date minutes ago. Regardless, after Sofia and Mary fucked I couldn’t really hold back any longer could I, all that tasty lust, it was time to move the party to Sofia’s new room. Me, Her and Ryhs fucked like Berry and I felt amazing after although I hear some people are calling Sofia a cheater now, as if.

I had Mary distracted by Lezly, she said Mary looked great in the outfits I picked out for her, let’s see how this turns out it could be fun, maybe she’ll go all axe murder and come after me, I’d like to see her try but I am sure I can keep playing her like a fiddle.

All and all I got everything I wanted, a new Hellfire member, and a cute vampire who will clearly be loyal to me after all this. I’d say today was a major success. Still I got lots more work to do so I’m excited to get to it.

## S1E3 - Terrapin Station

3/5/2021

I was doing my book shopping for the sorority when the day really started to get interesting. Not that making sure all of my precious Hellfires can get all the textbooks and other books they needed for the semester is boring but it was planned. What was not planned however, was running into the people I encountered there.

There was Arsling Broganson is that annoying girl from Twitly, she is every bit as annoying in person, however what I find more fascinating was that seeing her in person I was overcome with a new desire. I wanted to convert her into a fellow succubus but honestly making someone that insufferable immortal and bound to you, ehh. Well, perhaps with some hard work I can get the little cursed girl in some pink and with a new mindset. Regardless I revealed I was a succubus to her in exchange for a blanket favor, you think if she dealt with monsters so much before she would know how bad that was for her, oh well, a fool is a fool. Cute though, I can see potential in her.

There was Penny Prescott and her stalker Dakota Pascal. Dakota is a Leanan sídhe, aka another desired monster. They without the proper groom pose the biggest possible threat to me by their very nature of making people around them obsessed with them. Dakota is cute but a massive threat and their obsession with Penny is both a gift and a curse. Penny as I had mentioned before has  been promised to me, not so much as in an engagement, at least not that I know of but in some sort of deal between the family. We are trying to find out what it is and I have full intention of spiting my mothers if at all possible for making a deal behind my back. So for now Dakota is my ally and both them and Penny are going to be moving into The Hellfire Sorority.

Then there was Burgundy Adisa once me and the girls got over to the beach, they were rather interesting. It was revealed to him that Lezly was a Undine and he got all royal treatment on her. She seems to worship the water spirits of the beach, while Lezly isn’t from the beach or at least doesn’t make her it her domain she’s apparently of high standing to this person's faith. That is very useful, they don’t hold major power, just standing on an environmental team but the game of influence isn’t about how much power any individual has but the power of your collective set. Beyond that it was nice to see someone fawning over Lezly. The girl deserves the star treatment.

So we got monster bait, a powerful ally or foe, and someone who is inclined to bend to Lezy’s will today. I’d count that as a very productive day and it all wrapped up with all the praise from my Hellfires for helping them out, it’s nice seeing them smile and knowing I can tend to them. Anyway, I must be going my sweet diary, till next time, may you hold my secrets with loyalty.

## S1E5 -Frat Party Black Out

CW: Sex mentions, Lots of bad angry/sad thoughts

3/7/2021

I haven’t felt this week since I found out about my parents doing shit with Penny behind my back and before that well...when Ami...FUCK HER I don’t want to write about that. I am a fucking head bitch, why the fuck do I feel like that little brown trans lesbian who everyone picked, whose parents were shit, everyone treated her like shit, who was so powerless she couldn’t help but pretend to be an optimist and fake a smile at everyone she saw even if they were hurting her.

I swore I wouldn’t feel like this again, I became Queen Selene, I cast away being a weak bitch with hopes for love or kindness. The only way to make the world better is to be the bitch who calls the shots and I didn’t feel like that. I felt like Selene Tuskino. I won’t let this stand, I can’t let it stand.

**Didi Hunter** thinks she is hot shit on skates and she is hot but she hurt one of mine and then had the audacity to get mad at me about her hitting my fucking friend. Hellhounds are dead to me and so is Didi. To think I liked her stupid roller derby team and that I could be friends and actually make a real connection over something that wasn’t about myself was fucking stupid, it has to be me because I am the only person who can matter to me if I wanna be strong enough to change shit in this world.

**Tamzen Shaw** or as my leading theory on her goes Zenni. To think I had a crush on that fucking DJ, stupid, stupid, stupid feelings, fuck that. Bitch thought she could go up on the Radio and throw shade at me about Loving Lavish, there is gonna be zero exclusives and if I can do anything to prop up competition I will. They better be begging for my forgiveness, I’ll take nothing but absolute subservience and praise for Queen Selene from now on from that dinky radio show. I don’t care if Lezly was rude to her, having her tossed by her butch girlfriend wasn’t a helpful response.

**Lavish Valentine** is worse than dirt and probably is getting off on not getting laid thinking I’ll be extra mean so they can call me mommy and suck on my titty. If they think they can get some of this ever again they are fucking wrong. I’d forgive them when they are either begging me for forgiveness or I bring them down so low that people wouldn’t even believe it was Lavish if I told them. Why the fuck am I love with them, I am gonna get over this, I bet there is some demon magic I can do to burn away those feelings and use it to hex the person I love.

I told myself I wouldn’t fall in love again, every person I love hurts me again and again and again. It happened again, I knew me and Lavish were rivals but I didn’t expect Lavish to just gang up on me like that when I was in need. Especially after I just kissed them in public. I was naked and vulnerable and hung over and tired and Lavish couldn’t even back me up, couldn’t even bother to care about me. Why should I give them a lick of pleasure. They are ghosted, they will get off on me hurting them so I’ll wait, I’ll wait until I can make a blow so big that Lavish won’t be able to get off or recover. Ticktock, ticktock Lavish, I’ll see if you can surprise me and make me forgive you before then.

So i’ll see about ripping out my heart and truly becoming heartless because I don’t want to want romance anymore, I don’t want love, I don’t want any of this, I want to be the queen, I want to sit on top of the highest tower and rule it all, make it all better cuz only I can.

At least **Rhys** was around at the end. He’s a good boy, sweet, kind with a secret sexy deadly side. Poor boy got hurt clearly, lost someone he loved and I’ll do whatever I can to help him get his revenge. As long as he is loyal to me he is basically a Hellfire.  Their mine and if anyone tries to fuck that up, I’ll fuck them up far harder then that.

So ya Diary, fuck today, time to find out to start a grand plan. I am focused on operation end that twink, name pending. The others can be handled more with petty moves, I’ll start looking for a Derby team to throw my weight behind.

## S1E8 - Booch and Cake

**March 11th 2021**
(CW. Self Hate)

Laura has sex like Ami and moans like Lavish, I can’t think of a worse combination of things I love, that I hate so strongly. I thought I was getting better, I thought I was getting over it and that I wasn’t going to be so mad or sad yet here I am. Today was a good day too. I did my turn moving my body to raise money to fight cancer, flirted with a cute girl, saw a perv get wrecked, ate some sweets, got to hang out with Rhys but it feels so bad. Everything feels so bad, I feel so alone.

**Laura le Fanu** is hot for sure and sure I approached her with the intention of fucking her, eventually but, here I am again, alone in a bed that isn’t even mine, laying there wishing I could be cuddling with someone, wishing someone would stroke my hair and tell me they love me, but I don’t get that and without saying it Laura reminded me that I’m a sex beast, nothing more.

No one wants to date me, no one cares about me other than what I can do for them, I think I am the smart player moving people around but I am the girl getting used. I’m easy, totally hot and easy. When Ami fucked me over in front of everyone...I gave up hope but I was inspired again thanks to everyone then I met Lavish and I don’t know being with them felt special but then they won’t even say they're sorry to me. Berry and Lezly convinced me I was going too hard on everyone and it was toxic for myself but here I am just a few days later...once again just fucked over.

Sure there is **Rhys** but he has **Colby** now so why would he even want to be around me anymore? Their cute and sweet and they are cute with Colby so soon enough I’ll be either a blood/fuck bank or I’ll be forgotten all together.

**Arsling** was following me around but that’s cuz she has no one else to turn too. The murderer can’t even really admit that she likes my music, just another part of me to use otherwise it’s a free for all to insult me. I gave her a warning and she probably won’t listen. Whatever Burgundy has cooked up for her it might be way worse then if she just chose a new form.

Berry, Lezly and Pyrrah will try and help me out of this but what can they do? They have their shot at any time they could ask me to be their girlfriend, ain’t happened yet. No I am their boss, their home owner, their leader, their creative muse, but I am not the person or persons they love. No, no one could love me, I am a being that hurts people at their most pleasured moments, that feeds off intimacy but can’t keep it lest she over feed and kill someone.

I’ll show them who is using who,  I have to show them because that’s all I got. Other then some more dirty bed sheets to wash, wait why the fuck would I do them, I’ll grab one of the sluts around here and have them do it for me. I am Selene Hellian aka Queen Selene, everyone should worship me. Also someone better get back to Sappho's Sweets and get me way more treats, gonna go chew them out now, later diary.

## S1E13 - Sugar Magnolia

2021, March 19th
Today was amazing, I woke up next o Didi, no we didn’t have sex, it was nice, even with all the lust and rage and sadness, we just laid together, like, I rarely get to feel something like this, it might even be the first time ever. I feel like, I want more of Didi, I mean sure I’d like to fuck her, looking into her fantasies they were very sexy and raw and she was a rare person who could fill them but I want to be closer without that too.
On the reverse end at the spark today, the girls forced me to go and have a picnic, Dakota decided to include herself and I was going to lash out at them more when Lavish came along. I was still in my really dark place but the more we fought the more we were saying under the words. Then well, we had sex in the park. Lavish is like the opposite of Didi in basically every way but I love them. They are funny, charming, clever, devious, kinky, honestly so many things that are just really hot together.
I still think Lavish is annoying sometimes but I think even Lavish thinks Lavish is annoying sometimes. Regardless, we are working together now, wars on hiatus while we fight the Anti Magic Cult Together. We meet up with the gang, Serenity, Iva, some new girl. I think her name was Tammy, and Dakota to plan the destruction of the cult. We shared information, talked methods and came to a few conclusions before changing to more fun topics.
The whole time Lavish was on my lap and it was so cute and romantic, like they wanted to be seen being cutesy with me, ahhhh, I am getting so weak for them but honestly, I am strong enough to have a weak point, even if they betray me or someone else uses it against me, I’ll come out on top anyway cuz I’ll expect the weak point strike.
Iva was really hot, I love her mind and her planning, nothing is hotter than a girl who knows how to crush her enemies and is on the right side of a battle. I’d like to get to know her, a lot better and I mean a whole lot.
I had even more sex with Lavish to start wrapping up the day and finished it with some late night sweets with Dakota. We talked about a few things and honestly it’s surprising how much we have in common despite being so clearly different people. I am glad I took her under my wing and she knows to not be a threat to me so we should be able to be very good friends.
I feel very light like my heart might be ready to start opening back up again. I let Lavish know about my feelings for them...more or less. I let Didi know about my past and moms. I feel like Rhys and I keep getting closer and like he brings out the best in me. I am not sure if I want to be romantic with him yet but I do know I want him in my life. I feel like this cloud has gone from me and I got a lot of options moving forward.
I am going to crush that cult with everything in my power, make them rue the day they threatened all of this potential, each and every one of them will be begging for mercy and if their lucky I might grant it to a few. I will not be fucked with nor will any monster of mine or even Lavish’s.  We got this, the pathetic losers don’t know  what’s coming for them, they will remember that Selene hellian rules MHU and the only threat I’d even consider allowing is Lavish. I’ll protect everyone and crush anyone who thinks about hurting us.

## S1E14 - Quite In The Library

March 27th, 2021. In bed with lavish asleep with their arms clung to me.
Okay so today was a roller coaster. It started amazing, I stayed up all night fucking Didi with Berry and being romantic, sweet meals, nice stories, the moon light, it was romantic and I feel like I’d like to be Didi’s girlfriend. We’ll have to talk about that later, I wanted to talk about it at the Library but that’s where shit hit the fan.
Let’s go with who I blame for today first, Zahra Mohseni. She came in starting problems with Didi about having sex with me like she isn’t a whole ass grown adult. Then she got roped into Lavish’s horny little web of hate fucking, which they are amazing at. Zahra got played like a fiddle but Didi had to defend her packmate. If Zahra either put out faster or just didn’t start fights none of this had to happen.
Lavish of course could hold the blame but like Lavish really only wants themselves hurt. They might try and start shit but that’s because they want to be sandwiched in chaos. They are complicated and cute and sexy. It was clearly a mistake to go two on one against the wolves but maybe they expected Gene and Jack to back them up? I feel really bad for Lavish, didn’t end up getting to fuck Zahra and was crying a lot. They are really hurting and I am not sure how to fix it because it really isn’t about today and I can tell.
Didi on the other hand can’t be blamed for anything, she was trying to live her life, was verbally attacked by her Team Captain, then played it super well and got control. Only to have someone she really mistrusts try and seduce another packmate but handled it maturely. Eventually yes it did go to blows a little but Didi intentionally set Lavish up for even hotter sex. Didi is the biggest sweetheart.
Unlike Rhys, who I  thought was just the sweetest agender bean but it turned out they just decided to bear their fangs at me. Rhys was such an asshole, telling me I should fucking decide who I date, that I shouldn’t date Lavish, basically implied with his eyes that I shouldn’t date Didi, said that I can’t make good choices and he should be the one to make them for me. He was so jealous and it was gross. A bit of jealousy and dominance can be hot. Most of that can be forgivable but he was treating me like a Barbie in their collection.  They are going to have to work hard if they want me to forgive them.
Then there was Joseph the wild card, at first I was just helping him with Stats class and complaining about things. Then he spilled water on Didi’s shit, then intentionally smashed water on Lavish and Zahra while they were down. I made sure to get him to fucking leave. I am not holding a grudge or anything but no one kicks one of mine when their down unless they ask for it.
The day ended with meeting up with Arsling then returning to Lavish for a night of cuddling the mess, I just wish I could get through to them, they are so much like me. If I can save them then I can help make the world better. I see a future in them, I just want it to be a good one. Well that’s it for the day, I gotta go check on Didi, make sure she’s okay and I hope that we’re okay. I don’t want Lavish to cause a wedge for us, I want to date them both. Didi makes my heart sings in ways I never knew and Lavish makes me excited in ways I couldn’t imagine. Gosh why did I need to fall for people in a fude? Am I as self destructive as Lavish? Meh, no the heart doesn't decide who it wants, it just knows what it wants and demands it.

## S1E17 - The Botanical Garden

2021, March 31st
Today was exciting, I had not expected to be involved in a plant girl rescue operation nor did I know that Pyrrha and Lezly had been assisting Flora in making one happen although it seemed to be rather spur of the moment. I was in great company today and we ended up being successful. I thought I was just there for the inner circle and I to collectively get inspiration and have fun while doing some minimal volunteer work Berry could post about. Plus getting to hang out with Rhys and Laura was an extra little bonus.

Let’s start with ***Rhys***, he came to apologize to me the day after the library. I attempted to humiliate him but he was groveling so hard and they are so cute I just had to give in. Still I am keeping him on the short leash, I care for him a lot and he still reminds me of me in so many ways, so I can forgive the slight. Then today he proved himself, I had assigned him finding the exit which even with Berry being adorably bubbly today after the full moon had worn off. He also did what I said when I asked him to sit next to Laura. So I rewarded him with some blood and fun.

Speaking of ***Laura*** she was also here today and there was also more catching up to do since my last major entry. Me and her spent some alone time at her apartment and became yuri friends!! It was really nice to open up about my nerdy shit and because of opening up to her I was able to more easily open up to Didi. Today I came out to her about being a succubus and got her roped into all this monster stuff. She stuck with me and we dealt with the plant girl who wants to eat humans. Green also seemed to have an influence over people that caused them to spit out truths or lose their filter? I will go over the details of their abilities with them later. Regardless Laura asked fairly tame questions to me and she believed me when I said things. Also green kept calling her my human pet, which she seemed to enjoy, kinky.

***Arsling*** was of course there as well and as always she was ever the little hipster dork. She tried to get me to make out with her, which I denied. If she wanted to make out in public, she could publicly praise my music, talk about how pretty my pink hair is, put in some effort. I left her with Lezly because I thought she would be a nice counterbalance to her constant drama. She didn’t really do her job of being distracting but she did handle red for us and seemingly she may have some anger abilities so it might have been good I avoided her all together, especially not being in the same room as Rhys.

Flora and Pyrrha handled the operations, making sure everything went smoothly, Lezly also made the three plant girls some clothing. The three of them are all going to be Hellfires, obviously they don’t have money but that’s of little concern to me, they are in need of a home and they are better with me then left to fend for themselves.In terms of potential benefit while I have insisted they do not eat any humans or any humanoid creature nor any being that is a resident of hellfire I could see myself making exception. We have a war to win against a cult, if some people were in need of being getting rid of, well I don’t see why they couldn’t be food. We’ll see, obviously I’d like to avoid blood sheed, dodge that whole cycle of revenge thing.

Honestly, it was a really good day, from seeing how Burgundy had rubbed off on Lezly to seeing my friends all handle a situation to protect some people in need, even potentially dangerous people, it was touching.
Today was one of those days where my ambitions felt possible. A day where monsters and humans can coexist, where people can become monsters, where people are given options on how to live and no one has to struggle to do it.

## S6E25 - Poisoned Arrows

April 15th

It’s a shame, I had to feed a cultist to our nymphs. I really wanted them to be good, you know, to deep down be sorry about what they did but they weren’t they were happy to kill all monsters and witches. I’d rather have seen a redemption, seen a change, but so long as their aims are to kill they pose a threat. I tried my best but ultimately they were beyond mercy. I might shapeshift as them once we have their phone hacked, pretend to be them, get answers, lower suspicions. Not sure though, they probably aren’t worth my time. Seems we extracted any useful information. I always want to see people grow and change, we all make mistakes, even big ones. However, there are lines that can’t be crossed.

Honestly, I’m not too beaten up about it, today was a fairly good day. Worked on some papers to officially get Lavish on board with Queen Selene Film, their money is helping that be a reality which is great. The rest of Lavish’s crew is getting ready to move in, I dealt with a lot of that in the morning.

Classes were easy but really getting to deal with the monster hunters today was the highlight. Especially cuz **Didi** and I and Berry got to work together <3. I was so freakin happy getting to work on a plan together, without even saying words we managed to read each other perfectly and not cross each other's lines, work together and get the results. Didi is so hot and so strong and I am so lucky to be with her. It was sweet watching her bake after we cleaned up that mess of a person. I wonder if that’s how my parents felt too, from some big extreme that you know in your book is right but a tense choice to a sweet moment like it didn’t even happen.

Of course **Daktoa** was there too, and they were fantastic. They were quick thinking and they were top notch with their shapeshifting and managed to improv super well. I am glad I recruited them into Hellfire. It was nice to just share some cookies together with Didi and the rest of the gang and laugh and have a good time. Plus they managed to convince Jason not to keep being an asshole. Now we have two spies.

Well maybe three if **Ludlow** was effective enough to convince his friend who was about to sell him out to the cult to help out. That said he seemed chaotic, he was useful and likely would work as a decent ally for now, but eventually he may pose more problems then things he’s helpful for. Having a necromancer on call isn’t bad though, it might help us. We’ll see where he lands.

In the end today was really nice and me, Didi and Berry had some fun at the end of the day, just three girlfriends having a good time. My feelings are growing so strong for Didi it’s scary, and did I always feel this intensely for Berry or was it new? Well, I’ll just have to deal with this and figure out these feelings. I feel even more confident that we will win this shadow war and we're going to get out of this okay. We worked so well together with no planning, when we set a plan, that's it for them.