Sayuri Tatsuaki

Here comes the ✨b o i✨

## Appearance

Sayuri is a short person with a very pale, like ghost-pale, skin. They have yellow eyes with sclera of their right eye being black. They have messy, tangled orange hair, with some of strands being black. They have multiple bandages and patches on their body. They're wearing blue sailor uniform with a long black pants. They're wearing green jacket, that was tore up repeatedly, but they fixed it with differently-colored fabric pieces and pills-shaped earrings.

## Personality

Sayuri is a very anxious person. They have major troubles with talking to the others - such as making big pauses between parts of sentences. Extremely self-loathing, they think they don't deserve to live because they don't have a past - they couldn't even remember their name.

Their speech becomes better when they're focused - it was shown during the trial of Sora's murder. But due to their low self-esteem they'll loath themself or simply go quiet for the rest of the trial as soon as they get something wrong. After some time, spent with people, their speech became much better.

Extremely clingy once they get close with someone. They don't really understand what 'affection' is or how to show it - the one thing they remember is hug, they learned it from their friend. They don't understand sexual stuff *at all.*

Being in basement and lab-like buildings gives them strong anxiety, which leads them to repeating 'let me out', unless someone calms them down or distracts them. They also suffer from severe nightmares and prefer to stay up late/don't sleep at all over sleeping.

They're scared of loud noises and people touching them without warning. With loud noises, they'll cover their head in fear, with people touching them - Sayuri will hit that person. If they trust you completely, they won't hit you though.

## Backstory

Sayuri is a test subject. He's being experimented on - person behind these experiments studies human emotions and wants to see how long it'll take someone to push someone over their limit. He's not the only subject of that person - his friend, Renichi was also a victim of that.

After escaping, suffers from dissociative amnesia - It occurs when a person blocks out certain information, often associated with a stressful or traumatic event, leaving the person unable to remember important personal information. As such, they can’t remember their past prior kidnapping and only partly remembers their life while being kidnapped.

Sayuri actually regained some of their memories and remembered their name, rejoice. They're doing better now.

## Relationships

### Sora Tsukimi (Sora)

Sora is Ayu's second friend after Renichi. They like him a lot, but they don't really understand difference between romantic and platonic love, so it's stilt to be decided what kind of feelings they are. Ayu doesn't understand why Sora volunteered to be injected, instead of them. Ayu tries to stop Sora from self-loathing because of his bad luck, in return Sora helps Ayu with his tendencies and helps lighten their nightmares.

### Eva Rourke (Xenos)

Despite Eva being daughter of person, who took Ayu's calm life away, they like her. Ayu think Eva is too young to understand everything and that her father made her think everything is fine. They've become good friends after Asa died.

### Renichi Juzo (Xenos)

Ayu's friend, who was imprisoned with them. Greatly respects Ren for everything he's done to them and ~~doesn't lose hope to find him.~~ They have reunited, thanks to M1-D0's ability to check if someone's alive. Also, Renichi gave Ayu jacket they always wear - they treasure it a lot and will go feral/hysteric if someone tries to or takes it away.

### Asa Rourke (Xenos)

Ayu fears his Captor - he has broken them and Renichi mentally and physically and made Eva, an innocent child, think it's fine. Even after escaping, Ayu fears that Asa will find them and experiment on them again. They're glad Asa got arrested and executed

### IRIS (Neon!)

~~Robot momther~~

Likes Iris as a friend. Finds her very caring and understanding, despite being a robot. Would like to know her more.

### Hajime Hinata (Midoriya)

Ayu is very close to Hajime. They've gotten friendly in a death game, unfortunately Ayu died in the main game. They look up to him because he's always confident and knows what he's doing. Hajime is one of people, who touch Sayuri without getting bitchslapped, they're getting closer and closer~ Sayuri confessed to Hajime and they kissed y a y, we did it boys

### Sakuya Tsuchiya (Sakuya)

Another one of Ayu's friends. Finds Sakuya a little too rude, but likes him regardless.

Sayuri is scared of Sakuya now due to his anger issues. Sayu is afraid that Sakuya will hurt them

### Haruka Fuzuki (Sakuya)

Their friend. Bonded in a death game, Ayu voted Iris, despite knowing the risk of her being a sacrifice, because he didn't want Haruka to die. Sayuri got adopted by Haruka. ~~hope priest boi has money for therapy ahaha~~

### Kyouko Hakuryuu (Sakuya)

Friend, "he" promised Sayuri to put Asa to jail. Is grateful to Kyouko for putting Asa to jail

### Misao Higurashi (Midoriya)

Friend, Misao is very caring and calm. They're not aware of what happened between Misao and Izumo, as well as of Misao's death

## Trivia

* Their backstory is kind-of based on the story about Viktor Mokhov - a russian maniac, who kidnapped two underage girls and kept them imprisoned in basement for almost 4 years. (https://youtu.be/I94yDZzS35I - full story for english-speakers, https://youtu.be/CCEB8Tt0Uv4 - for russian-speakers)
* Doesn't associate themself with any of the genders
	+ Yep, they're an agender
* Panromantic asexual
* Their age range is 14-17
	+ They're 15 y.o.
* Reason why they chose nickname "Ayu" is because their real name has "ayu" in it
	+ We did it, they remembered their name
* Their triggers are lab- and Basement-like buildings and being referred by it/its pronouns or as "subject"
* The black sclera is just cosmetics, it doesn't affect their vision
* Underweight as you can see in infobox
	+ They may forget to eat the whole day sometimes because they are used to suppress hunger
	+ Same goes for drinking
	+ Starvation was one of methods to push them to the limit
	+ They can't eat fish at all because Asa fed them with expired fish at some point
* Sayuri has C-PTSD
* They hardly sleep, if sleep at all
	+ Mostly because of nightmares
	+ They tend to stay up the whole night to escape them
	+ Which can bring to them randomly collapsing
	+ They sleep better if they're with someone (Sora, Hajime~)
* ~~Even less original than Xenos or Shian tbh~~
* Voice claim - N/A
* Name "Sayuri" ~~(was female and has 177 different ways of writing)~~ written as "二由有" has kanjis that mean: "two/second" (二), "reason" (由) and "to exist" (有) ~~{it makes "2nd reason to exist" lol}~~
* Surname "Tatsuaki" (達晶) means "to accomplish" (達) and "shining brightly" (晶)
* Ngl, I love them the most out of my OCs
* Searching voice from them from painful

## Fuck it, TS!Sayuri (WIP)

### Aliases

* Sayu
* Ayu

## Physical description

### Gender

* Agender (they/them)
* Assigned male at birth

### Height

* 170 cm
* 5'5 ft

### Weight

* 65 kg
* 143 lbs

## Appearances

### Portrayed by

* Played by Xenos
* Placeholder - idfk, still searching

## Appearance

After timeskip, Sayuri's hair is shorter and now it's covering their right eye, some of the strands are still black. They're wearing a green heavy jacket with thick fur trimming, white shirt with a red tie underneath the coat, black pants, and long black boots.

## Overview

After timeskip, Sayuri is doing much-much better. They rarely stutter in their speech, only if they're really panicked, but that's normal for most of people. Reason why they're a novelist now is because they have written down their experience of being kidnapped into some kind of novel (?), however they still have their pre-timeskip shyness and anxiety, so they show it only to their close ones. They got praise from the work and so they kept writing random stuff, mostly to take their mind off things and as a form of self-vent. They hardly share their works with anyone though.

So, after timeskip, Sayuri is still shy, but less anxious and more open. They sometimes can joke about their past, but Sayu still has PTSD, they just have more or less recovered from it. However, with enough pressure, they can be broken down, basically reverting to their pre-timeskip self. If you attempt to try to hurt their family/close ones, they'll become violent and attempt to seriously injure, but not to kill this person, despite still being quite weak physically.

## Trivia

* So returning to their triggers
	+ Lab- and basement like buildings just make them uncomfortable, but they can bear with them. If Sayuri is there with someone they're at least friends with, they will stick near this person
	+ Being reffered as a 'subject' or by itits pronouns make them very irritated, but doesn't make them panic anymore
	+ Still can't eat fish
* Their sleep schedule is still not good, but now it's cuz they stay up late writing
	+ If something they're writing is related to their traumatic experience, they can't sleep
* Most likely, they somehow (via notepad/tablet) will write down events of the kg/dg/etc they're in
* Voice claim - Manaka Sawa (JP voice of Yakumo from NU: Carnival)