I'm Not Mad

## *Manic (Deluxe)* Chronology

"**I'm Not Mad**" is a song performed by Halsey. It was released on January 17, 2020 through Capitol Records as a bonus track on the Target Exclusive edition of her third album, *Manic*. It was later featured on the deluxe edition of *Manic* which was released on September 29, 2020.

## Background

On January 18, 2020 Halsey took to Twitter to talk about the Target exclusive song:

"*I saw some of you discovered “I’m Not Mad” the bonus track on the @Target exclusive version of Manic. It’s one of my favorites I made during the writing process!*"
—Halsey

When asked by a fan during a Spotify Q&A on Twitter why the song didn't appear on the standard edition of *Manic* Halsey replied:

"*It was really hard to decide which songs were going to be exclusive to different versions of the album. But I ultimately ended up putting 'wipe your tears' and 'I'm Not Mad' as bonus tracks because even though I really wanted to keep them, they felt the least essential to the plot that I was trying to get across, because they were so much about other people. And even though there are songs on Manic about my experiences with others, I really wanted the journey to feel cohesive, as being about me, and myself, and my discovery.*"
—Halsey

## Lyrics

[Verse 1]

I'm not even mad anymore

No really, I ain't even mad anymore

Yeah, I don't even want you back anymore

I don't remember what we had anymore, yeah

I hope your back aches and your knees hurt

I hope you think about me sleeping in your t-shirt

I hope your little brother turns out to be nothing like you

I hope that you hurt more than I do

[Chorus]

And honestly, I still wish you nothing but the best

I know that you're still self-obsessed

I hear the wicked get no rest

But when you do, I hope you dream of me

[Post-Chorus]

You know, you know I'm hoping

Yeah, I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping)

You know, you know I'm hoping

I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping)

You know, you know I'm hoping

I hope you dream of me, yeah

[Verse 2]

I don't even hope you die these days

I hope you live 'til 85 these days

Regretting that you ever lied these days

I hope it's eating you alive these days (Yeah)

I hope you're up late in a bathroom

Just wishing I'ma change my mind and come back soon

I hope that when you're 35 years, you'll wish that you tried to

'Cause I know that I do

[Chorus]

And honestly, I still wish you nothing but the best

I know that you're still self-obsessed

I hear the wicked get no rest

But when you do, I hope you dream of me

[Post-Chorus]

Yeah, I hope you dream of me

Yeah, I hope you dream of me

I hope you dream of me

[Bridge]

I ain't even mad about it anymore

No really, I ain't even mad about it anymore

Maybe just a little less than I was before

I've got a twenty dollar bill that says

You're never, ever, ever gonna change

[Chorus]

I still wish you nothing but the best

I know that you're still self-obsessed

I hear the wicked get no rest

But when you do, I hope you dream of me

I still wish you nothing but the best

I know that you're still self-obsessed

I hear the wicked get no rest

But when you do, I hope you dream of me

[Post-Chorus]

You know, you know I'm hoping

Yeah, I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping)

You know, you know I'm hoping

I hope you dream of me (You know, you know I'm hoping)

You know, you know I'm hoping

I hope you dream of me, yeah (You know, you know I'm hoping)

## References

1. ↑ *Twitter* @halsey - "wanted to let it sink in for a minute before I said anything but I saw some of you discovered “I’m Not Mad” the bonus track on the @Target exclusive version of Manic. It’s one of my favorites I made during the writing process!!!!! https://halsey.lnk.to/ManicTarget"
2. ↑ *Twitter* - @spotify - "Q: why didn't you include I'm not made and Wipe your tears ? #AskHalsey"

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