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which was entered by steps leading from the pavement to the basement.
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At that instant two drunken men came out at the door, and abusing and
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supporting one another, they mounted the steps. Without stopping to
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think, Raskolnikov went down the steps at once. Till that moment he had
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never been into a tavern, but now he felt giddy and was tormented by a
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burning thirst. He longed for a drink of cold beer, and attributed his
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sudden weakness to the want of food. He sat down at a sticky little
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table in a dark and dirty corner; ordered some beer, and eagerly drank
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off the first glassful. At once he felt easier; and his thoughts became
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clear.
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“All that’s nonsense,” he said hopefully, “and there is nothing in it
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all to worry about! It’s simply physical derangement. Just a glass of
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beer, a piece of dry bread--and in one moment the brain is stronger,
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the mind is clearer and the will is firm! Phew, how utterly petty it all
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is!”
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But in spite of this scornful reflection, he was by now looking cheerful
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as though he were suddenly set free from a terrible burden: and he gazed
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round in a friendly way at the people in the room. But even at that
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moment he had a dim foreboding that this happier frame of mind was also
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not normal.
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There were few people at the time in the tavern. Besides the two drunken
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men he had met on the steps, a group consisting of about five men and
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a girl with a concertina had gone out at the same time. Their departure
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left the room quiet and rather empty. The persons still in the tavern
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were a man who appeared to be an artisan, drunk, but not extremely so,
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sitting before a pot of beer, and his companion, a huge, stout man with
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a grey beard, in a short full-skirted coat. He was very drunk: and had
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dropped asleep on the bench; every now and then, he began as though in
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his sleep, cracking his fingers, with his arms wide apart and the upper
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part of his body bounding about on the bench, while he hummed some
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meaningless refrain, trying to recall some such lines as these:
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“His wife a year he fondly loved
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His wife a--a year he--fondly loved.”
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Or suddenly waking up again:
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“Walking along the crowded row
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He met the one he used to know.”
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But no one shared his enjoyment: his silent companion looked with
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positive hostility and mistrust at all these manifestations. There was
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another man in the room who looked somewhat like a retired government
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clerk. He was sitting apart, now and then sipping from his pot and
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looking round at the company. He, too, appeared to be in some agitation.
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CHAPTER II
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Raskolnikov was not used to crowds, and, as we said before, he avoided
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society of every sort, more especially of late. But now all at once he
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felt a desire to be with other people. Something new seemed to be taking
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place within him, and with it he felt a sort of thirst for company. He
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was so weary after a whole month of concentrated wretchedness and gloomy
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excitement that he longed to rest, if only for a moment, in some other
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world, whatever it might be; and, in spite of the filthiness of the
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surroundings, he was glad now to stay in the tavern.
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The master of the establishment was in another room, but he frequently
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came down some steps into the main room, his jaunty, tarred boots with
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red turn-over tops coming into view each time before the rest of his
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person. He wore a full coat and a horribly greasy black satin waistcoat,
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with no cravat, and his whole face seemed smeared with oil like an
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iron lock. At the counter stood a boy of about fourteen, and there was
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another boy somewhat younger who handed whatever was wanted. On the
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counter lay some sliced cucumber, some pieces of dried black bread, and
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some fish, chopped up small, all smelling very bad. It was insufferably
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close, and so heavy with the fumes of spirits that five minutes in such
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an atmosphere might well make a man drunk.
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There are chance meetings with strangers that interest us from the
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first moment, before a word is spoken. Such was the impression made on
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Raskolnikov by the person sitting a little distance from him, who looked
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like a retired clerk. The young man often recalled this impression
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afterwards, and even ascribed it to presentiment. He looked repeatedly
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at the clerk, partly no doubt because the latter was staring
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persistently at him, obviously anxious to enter into conversation. At
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the other persons in the room, including the tavern-keeper, the clerk
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looked as though he were used to their company, and weary of it, showing
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a shade of condescending contempt for them as persons of station and
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culture inferior to his own, with whom it would be useless for him to
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converse. He was a man over fifty, bald and grizzled, of medium height,
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and stoutly built. His face, bloated from continual drinking, was of
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a yellow, even greenish, tinge, with swollen eyelids out of which keen
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reddish eyes gleamed like little chinks. But there was something very
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strange in him; there was a light in his eyes as though of intense
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feeling--perhaps there were even thought and intelligence, but at the
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same time there was a gleam of something like madness. He was wearing an
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old and hopelessly ragged black dress coat, with all its buttons missing
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except one, and that one he had buttoned, evidently clinging to this
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last trace of respectability. A crumpled shirt front, covered with spots
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and stains, protruded from his canvas waistcoat. Like a clerk, he wore
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no beard, nor moustache, but had been so long unshaven that his chin
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looked like a stiff greyish brush. And there was something respectable
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and like an official about his manner too. But he was restless; he
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ruffled up his hair and from time to time let his head drop into his
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