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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebshh3/my_friend_is_a_garbage_singer_but_wants_to_sing/

self.confessions

my friend thinks he has a good voice as his voice is similar to his friends, his friend has an amazing voice. we got to chatting and he wants to join a band, I haven't said anything as I'm not the type to crush someones dreams but it sucks having to keep it a secret. I overheard him singing a NSYNC song today and he was incredibly off key and it sounded really bad

my friend is a garbage singer but wants to sing in a band, I'm just waiting for someone to tell him he sucks.

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebsgee/i_am_22_and_already_resent_the_success_of_my/

self.confessions

I feel terrible even writing this. I'm the second of four kids. I've always been the black sheep of the family, and I have also, independent of that fact, always been a screw-up. My older brother has had his share of ups and downs, and I don't really envy his life, but at the same time, he generally has his shit together and is responsible with the small things, and is getting on track with his life. My younger brother was always introverted and kind of shy, but since starting college has blossomed an insane amount. He is killing it at school, is still dating his high school girlfriend, is now his fraternity president, manages to spend a lot of time in the gym (could certainly kick my ass at arm wrestling if he wanted), and is generally shaping up to be this super charismatic, happy, success-magnet. My sister is a couple years younger than I am, and just started high school. She is already more mature than I am, she is an absolute sports superstar, and extremely diligent in her studies. She is also super popular and has tons of friends already. I know I'm feeling sorry for myself, but whatever, this is reddit confessions. I'm the quirky, anxiety-prone, mess-up. My siblings tend to be overachievers, where I am the overthinker. I failed out of college because I couldn't get my act together or motivate myself, I can't for the life of me seem to get into or keep any form of healthy relationship. My siblings are naturally athletic, and my body, try as I might, seems to be stuck on the 80 year old setting. One of the things I want to do the most is to join the military, but I was temporarily waitlisted for an eye issue, and then while waiting fucked up my knee, and am now scared of hurting myself again, much less trying to get back into athletics or anything. I genuinely feel I have a better relationship with my siblings now than ever before, and I am TRULY thankful for this, as I have barely any other social life, and some family issues have brought us closer this year. But at the same time, I feel even more low about myself and my futile attempts to sort out my life, when I am around my siblings or when I hear about what they have got going on. Eh, figured I'd get some of that off my chest this holiday season before my head explodes. Thanks Reddit

I am 22 and already resent the success of my siblings, and feel awful about it..

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebseyu/i_threw_away_3_months_worth_of_company_mail_at_my/

self.confessions

First of all, I don't condone my actions in this story in an way whatsoever. So, I worked for a nonprofit at a university. The thing is, my boss worked for the university and ran a nonprofit. The nonprofit wasn't associated with the university or my boss's job, but she spent all her time working on her organization, so Idk what her job was supposed to be, but basically, she was a horrible boss, and she hired me through the university I was paid to do stuff for her nonprofit...so she was essentially embezzling money from the school because for the three months I worked for her, I didn't do a single thing related to the university. She revealed this to me because non only was it obvious, but she thought I was young and wouldn't notice. I was 20, and I knew what she was doing was wrong, but needed the job so bad. Also, it was above minimum wage. So, anyways, my boss was horrible, always berating me for asking a simple question, like the password to the Microsoft Word account. She consistently claimed that my memory was horrible, and once hit me on the head with her notepad in a really condescending way. She treated me like I was her bitch, a fool, her personal servant, and I put up with it. One thing she wanted me to do was check the P.O box weekly. She gave me the key. I thought that the number on the P.O. Box would be the same as the number on the key, since she didn't tell me the P.O. Box number. She told me there was probably nothing in the P.O. Box since they almost never got mail, but to check once a week anyways. So the first week, I went to where she said it was, and after trying to follow her shitty directions for an hour, I found it. I couldn't find a box associated with the key number and there was no one around, so I left. When I went back to work the next day, I really wanted to tell her I couldn't find it, and ask her for the number, but I was afraid it was going to be painfully obvious, and I didn't want to look stupid or be treated like I was stupid, so I just said the P.O. Box was empty. That's when I knew I had reached the point of no return. I couldn't tell her I lied to her, so my opportunity to ask was gone. So, every week I'd just tell her it was empty. Well, at the end of my contract, after she told me she wasn't renewing it, I went back to check the P.O box, because it had been 3 months, and I was really concerned about someone checking it after I left and finding the mail, so I decided I had to get rid of the evidence of my lie. I went back to the place where it was, and this time there were employees there. I asked them for help, and since I didn't know the number they asked me about the organization I was with and found it that way. There was a ton of mail, and the employees told me that the P.O. Box was going to expire in a month if the organization didn't pay them to continue using it. The notifications for the expiration of the P.O. Box were in the P.O. Box, which I saw when I looked through the mail and found them. I didn't tell anyone the P.O. Box was expiring soon, because I knew they'd ask why I didn't say anything, and maybe realize I hadn't been checking it. Also, I wanted a bit of revenge for how I'd been treated. So I threw their mail away and didn't tell anyone the P.O. Box was expiring. To this day, I have absolutely no idea what happened, but I'd be really interested to know. Sometimes I think about telling my university what is going on there, because I'm pretty sure my boss is still embezzling money from the school. However she has kids in college and I would feel bad for her family if she got in trouble. Not her though, fuck her. I hope someone yells at her and hits her on the head with a notepad one day. Also, nowadays, if I had issues with my job and things like that were happening, I'd quit and report it. I wouldn't play these bullshit games anymore. This happened a few years ago, and I've changed how I handle things like this now, but that's how I handled that kind of stuff back then.

I threw away 3 months worth of company mail at my job.

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebsdsd/i_probably_cant_do_it/

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I probably can’t do it

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebsdde/i_watch_videos_of_people_getting_seriously/

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I watch videos of people getting seriously injured to deal with my anger issues

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebsclv/i_cheated_on_my_gf_sexually_but_still_want_a/

self.confessions

So, I’m honestly in a state of confusion after the past weeks happening. Gf is out of town and I meet up with an old friend for drinks. We’re a young couple (sub-25) but we’re very abnormal in that were immensely advanced compared to others around us in regards to maturity Last week gf goes on vacation with friends and after meeting up with said friend we hang out through the early morning and stay together for the night. All pg at this point. The next day is spent catching up on sleep, but the following night the scenario progresses quickly. After some OBVIOUS sexual tension both parties act consensually on the tension and sex happens. The confusion part I guess is I LOVED the friendliness, the casualness, and the freedom with security. I want an emotional relationship with this mature individual bc our minds match and so forth. She is attractive and there are many sexual things about her, but I am, I admit, quite lustful and confident enough to act upon them. Gf definitely would not support this sort of scenario; hookup would also not, but gf was not disclosed to her intentionally on my part. Honestly, amazing sex. Best I’ve had in years, maybe ever. So my brain is quite fucked. I have the personal preference of retaining a sound emotional relationship while secretly (atm) pursuing sexual relationships with my gf as well as whoever I see sexually and consensually fits my needs

I cheated on my gf sexually, but still want a future with her emotionally

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebs9v9/i_have_anonymously_tipped_ice_around_637_times_so/

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I have anonymously tipped ICE around 637 times so I have likely contributed to the deportation of hundreds of illegal immigrants

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebs8z4/im_gay_and_i_dont_like_most_other_gay_people/

self.confessions

I (18 F) am a lesbian. I'm proud of who I am and I have nothing to hide, but I don't really talk about being gay much. I just find it unnecessary to proclaim my homosexuality unless someone asks about it. However, today I found out that most other LGBT people don't think so. The college I go to has a Pride Center and we all were having a discussion about being gay in the workplace and I mentioned that I hadn't ever officially "come out" to my coworkers or my boss because it hadn't ever come up. A bunch of people then jumped to the conclusion that I had internalized homophobia and that's why I don't like to talk about it. No amount of reasoning or explaining could convince them otherwise and I ended up leaving because I got so angry. This isn't the only incident where shit like this has happened. A while back I was talking to a few classmates, one of which I know from the Pride Center. I said something kind of funny in response to someone and the person from the pride center very loudly said "OMG that was so gay. No straight person would say that." I played it off but it made me super uncomfortable. Again, nothing to hide, but it's really not cool to out someone like that. I don't like most of the LGBT people I'm around, and I'm even starting to dislike most LGBT people in general. People need to understand that being anything besides cisgender/heterosexual isn't a personality trait. I hate it when people constantly talk about being queer in spaces where it just doesn't have anything to do with that, or when they try to shoehorn their gayness into conversations. There's a time and a place for it, and hearing people only talk about how gay they are has been getting on my nerves lately.

I'm gay and I don't like most other gay people

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebs8qc/friends_and_family_talked_bout_throwing_me_a/

self.confessions

It doesn't feel okay to me.

Friends and family talked Bout throwing me a birthday party for my 50th. It didn't happen. I said it's okay.

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebs489/i_slept_with_my_ex_while_he_was_dating_my_friend/

self.confessions

In freshman year, I dated this one guy who had a bit of a reputation ( let's call him Joe), I ignored the signs and couple of rumors I heard because I was naive and never had a boyfriend. He never gave me his number saying to find it on facebook even after I told him I didn't have an account, barely treated me like a girlfriend, and ignored me the last couple of days of school and had no contact with him the whole summer, he even had me perform oral sex on him once after school in his dad's truck. I didn't understand then what I do know. I told my friends who were attending another school in the same district about him and how I felt like I got played after the fact, I was a bit closer to one of them since me, her (we'll call her Sam) , and another friend at another school (call her Jess) knew each other from middle school, and felt sorry for me. Fast forward to the first day of sophomore year started, I was in my last class of the day and everything seemed fine until Joe walked in, I hid my face as soon as I saw him come in and tried to ignore him when he tried to get my attention. As soon as class ended, I was the first one to walk out of there,I tried not to make it too obvious, so I power walked but he caught up to me and slapped my ass. He asked where have I been, why I haven't contacted him and hugged me saying he missed me, now he asks for my number. Part of me was upset at him and another part was happy to see him again and I couldn't stay mad at him. I know, stupid me. Either the next or two days later I saw my friends and I noticed Sam was avoiding me, I thought she was just messing around like always but then we talked a little about Joe, saying that he wanted to be me with me and she had a strange reaction towards it but I didn't think it was strange until when I got home. I got a call on the house phone from Joe with him upset with me, saying that Sam was his girlfriend and that I lied to her about him trying to have sex with me freshman year, despite him getting a blow job. I was so confused, I never even introduced them, how did they get to know each other and why she would date him after what he did. Then I got a call from her five minutes later, she wasn't upset with me since she was keeping it hidden, she asked if I lied about what I said about him wanting to be with me, I just said I thought he did, I didn't tell her about him getting handsy with me and the passionate hug he gave me ( should have), he was basically acting like he wasn't seeing anyone. She asked me if I was comfortable with them dating, I said it was fine even though it was obvious I wasn't okay with it, I should've said no right there, she said she was sorry and I hung up. At that moment I realized she were not friends anymore but still hung around her even when he was there, I hated watching them, treating her better than how he treated me, kissing her in front of me and the girls, I would just be sick to my stomach on how insensitive they were. I still hung around him some days and he was still being unfaithful towards Sam with me, hugging me, smooth talk, even made out a few times while no one was looking. One night he called me, saying that he wanted to do "it", I thought about it and said yes and I lost my virginity to him the next morning before school, it wasn't even good. I think in a month or two they finally broke up and I talked to another friend ( we'll call her Gloria) who was attending the same school as Sam after she transferred from my school. She knew Joe pretty well and she told me everything about the girls he messed with and how he got girls to do it and he told me how Sam was talking to another guy sometime before they broke up and I decided to tell her about what I did. He was shocked how I did it with him because not many girls found him attractive, not even Sam, it turns out she only dated him because she felt sorry for him because he said he was depressed from his last break up. I don't know if he was referring to me, another girl, or (knowing what I know about him) lied about being depressed to reel her in. I think they ended up meeting through Jess because Joe went to the same school as her before transferring to mine, but I know she didn't mean to introduce them that way, he tried to get with her too. Eventually, I told Sam what I did and she was upset with both of us, her and the rest of the group stopped hanging around me after a while and I didn't care, they weren't really good friends anyway, especially after all the trouble he caused us. Oh, I forgot to mention that while they were dating, he was kinda flirting with one of the girls in our group, we all noticed it, and they started dating after they broke up, he also lied to her right in front of me saying that we didn't have sex and I didn't even call him out for it because I was so shocked. I'ts funny because after all the heat died downed months later, he wanted to talk to me again, saying he wanted to be with me, for real this time, and how I was the only girl who treated him right and the girls treated him like crap. He would always try to talk to me every six months, asking me to be with him again and I always said no, even though there was a little bit of me that wanted to give him a chance but couldn't risk it even if he meant it. I do admit that every once in a while that we would hook up, last time we did it I was nineteen and the last time he contacted me was two years ago. Do I regret losing them over a guy? No. Do I regret losing my virginity to him and blindly trusting him? Absolutely. I wish I can go back and slap myself for even going near him when we first met. Yeah, I know I sound bad, hate me all you want, but I really don't feel bad for losing such crappy friends, I never home wrecked other then with them and would never date a guy after breaking up with a friend, there's no excuse for that.

I slept with my ex while he was dating my "friend"

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebs1tn/ive_got_a_few_incestuous_confessions_so_be_ready/

self.confessions

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I've got a few incestuous confessions, so be ready to see a lot of me.

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrxo8/i_love_writing_erotica/

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I love writing erotica.

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebru0b/i_like_my_seventh_grade_math_teacher/

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I like my seventh grade math teacher.

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https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrtyx/i_m_19_still_think_about_my_high_school_crush/

self.confessions

My mind keeps returning to her, though I've confessed to her and she politely declined years ago. Now she's at a distant college following her dreams I presume. I am too, but I can't stop thinking about how much I wish she was in my life. I had always admired how smart, determined, strong, and (insert other compliments here). I wanted to have her in my life to help myself become a better person and enjoy life with someone else who cares about me the same, but we just never got very close. I felt honored to know her and when she comes to mind, it just feels good, despite possibly never seeing her again. It still is comforting to know that people like her are out there; she really was a special woman.

I (M 19) still think about my high school crush after 3 years

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrsvz/i_am_such_a_huge_fan_of_codys_lab_that_i_asked/

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I am such a huge fan of Cody's Lab that I asked out one of my friends on his behalf, and I got rejected.

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrqqw/i_know_why_my_dorm_smells_like_shit/

self.confessions

It's been brought up in my college dorm's groupme a couple times this semester. People think it's something wrong with the plumbing. It's because I have a certain fetish and I like to make poops in my bed when I can't be bothered to go to the bathroom. I try to cleanup every once and a while...

I know why my dorm smells like shit

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrpog/i_used_to_order_food_and_pretend_i_had_cooked_it/

self.confessions

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I used to order food and pretend I had cooked it on my previous relationship

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrmr7/ive_never_really_liked_black_people/

self.confessions

I don't hate them or think they should suffer but fuck do they look weird and act weird and like idk i just don't like them. I don't like being around them. Never understood why. Wasn't raised racist but i just dont like them. If i could I'd move somewhere all white

I've never really liked black people

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrl83/ive_jerked_off_to_my_friends/

self.confessions

I’m a 17 year old boy, so I’m not gonna go into detail about my mastrubation habits, but basically I was kind of a loner with only like 2 or 3 friends and anyone else that I was friendly with were really just school acquaintances, but lately I’ve been getting lot of friends that are really cute girls, that’s like the majority demographic of my friends and my closest friend group is a group of girls, which btw has helped me understand women a lot better. So I was doing the deed and I just couldn’t find anything good to jack it to so I gave it up and opened up Instagram and the first image I see is of one of my female friends in a really skimpy bikini and next thing you know that gets me going again and I just without thinking start jerking off to her and I start scrolling down and I see more and more of my cute or hot girl friends , some I’m really sexy poses or outfits or some just making a cute face and I finish and after that I just feel tremendously guilty like more so than post but depression. I would never actually date any of these girls because there my friends but lately I’ve just been fantasizing about them and it’s really starting to annoy me. I’m currently just chocking it up to hormones because I haven’t had sex in a long time and I’ve really been trying to get a girlfriend, but I don’t know. Just putting my thoughts out there

I’ve jerked off to my friends

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrgvr/i_24m_didnt_know_eminem_was_white_until_i_saw_the/

self.confessions

https://www.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrgvr/i_24m_didnt_know_eminem_was_white_until_i_saw_the/

I (24m) didn't know Eminem was white until I saw the music video for 'Not Afraid' in 2010. I had never seen one of his videos before that time.

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrgff/im_tired_of_the_baby_yoga_memes_ive_said_it/

self.confessions

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I’m tired of the baby yoga memes, I’ve said it.

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebrehd/im_really_drunk_and_want_a_woman_to_peg_me/

self.confessions

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I’m really drunk and want a woman to peg me

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebr9z4/i_sorta_sexted_a_random_person_on_reddit/

self.confessions

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I sorta sexted a random person on reddit

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebr3ze/i_sorta_sexted_a_random_person_on_reddit/

self.confessions

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I sorta sexted a random person on reddit

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebr3mi/i_was_looking_at_pictures_on_my_dads_phone_anddddd/

self.confessions

So when I was about 14 I was looking at old family pictures on my dad's phone and I guess I scrolled too far because I found a lot of pictures of shemale porn. Not just one or two but A LOT of pictures of GIRLS WITH DICKS on my own father's phone. It's been 6 years and I still think about it

I was looking at pictures on my dad's phone anddddd

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebr39v/im_feeling_hopeless_just_from_hearing_someone/

self.confessions

I'm in my journalism club at school and I had to do an interview about mental health. I thought it would be fun to interview a friend. He invited me and a few other friends over, we all made and ate crepes, it was good after the long day of school. Then I interviewed him about all of his suicide attempts and depression which I knew about. I just didn't expect it to be so emotional. Then some of his other friends were wondering if they could be interviewed about their mental health and share their stories. One was about a chain of molestation in a family, she was 4 when she was molested by her cousin who had been previously raped by an uncle at an even younger age. Another was a very graphic detail about someone witnessing a friend's very close call suicide attempt where they had to talk her out of it. Reading these is fine, watching the people tell their stories, I want to cry. I don't suffer from any mental health things and I don't want to make it all about me because I'm the "reporter" on this situation. How the fuck do therapists do It? As a girl in Highschool with depressed friends, this hit deep. I just want to cry. I feel disgusted by that one story. I felt all that they felt the way they told their stories. I had to stop for today in writing my article, it's too much and it's not even about me. Seriously seek help of you suffer. I don't think any of these people should be shameful or are pathetic. How do they not break down every day? I only got a crumb of a jumbo cookie. How? I just want to hug everyone, then ball up and cry.

I'm feeling hopeless just from hearing someone else talking about their depression

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebr39c/i_hate_being_heterosexual_and_would_love_to_be_a/

self.confessions

I know and understand that being a gay man in the world is definitely something that is difficult. People (both men and females) view you as gross and there is a ton of homophobia and hatred that you would have to push past. Still though I think it would be much better than being a straight man. I hate the fact that I am heterosexual and I openly loathe the fact that I am attracted to women. I do not believe that any woman can ever desire a man (either romantically or sexually) as much as a man can desire a woman. Contrary to what many people think I do not think women are attracted to a man's appearance. I even go so far as to think that most women find men and the male body to be ugly and penises to be hideous. Men are in love with the beauty of women whereas women are either nuetral or outright grossed out by the male body as well. Even women find other women to be more attractive than men. Even the majority of "straight" women (I do't believe straight women exist) would rather watch lesbian porn or look at naked women. I don't think women like sex very much either and I know this is controversial but I really think they don't. I believe that sex is something most women either put up with to maintain a relationship with a man or use it as a tool to manipulate men. The fact that you have men paying for sex from women or are trying to coerce them proves that, at the very least, men lust after women far more and I don't understand why people don't see this. Women primarily value men as utilities and are only really attracted to us for our money and social status. Women are attracted to what men have not what they are and even then it is mostly about using what a man has instead of a relationship or sex that they care about. The men thing men complain about on Reddit is not getting women while the main thing women complain about is unwanted attention from men. Says it all right there. Most women also feel like sex is a transaction and are horrified whenever a man "pumps and dumps" them because they were forced to undergo copulation with a man and not get anything out of it in return. Its not even just sex either, I also don't believe women value men romantically as much as the reverse. It must be great to be a gay man and be able to appreciate somebody valuing you for your body and sexuality, something no woman can ever do for a man. To be desired in a way that women don't and really can't desire men as women do not value the aesthetics of men at all (nobody values the appearance of a hammer so long as it does its job.) To not be simply viewed as a walking ATM and to not be valued for your "confidence" and "social status." This is why I hate being a straight man because no women will ever desire any man as much as vice versa and I openly view my sexual attraction towards them as a weakness. I view it as a power they have over men and all other men and I feel like it is a Curse from nature itself, even if it is a necessary one. This is also why I want no girlfriend, am fine with being a virgin forever and, if I had my way, I would even like to have myself castrated if possible.

I hate being heterosexual and would love to be a gay man.

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebr1iz/i_think_im_a_sexporn_addict_without_ever_having/

self.confessions

I mean... I AM a 19 year old virgin boy, so like... i think that comes with the gig, but I just can't stop thinking about porn, and the idea of having sex... I am THIS close (not really) to hopping on one of those "let's fuck" apps, or whatnot. Now, I don't have anything wrong with those who do, do your thang cheif, but for me personally, I want to like... be a husband and father some day, so the idea of just sleeping around seems like it ruins the "first time with someone special" sort of thing that I also long for. So I don't really know what I want from this post, I've just been dwelling on this for a bit.

I think I'm a sex/porn addict without ever having sex...

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqzqa/i_thought_my_newborn_cousin_was_an_alien/

self.confessions

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I thought my newborn cousin was an alien

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqwah/i_know_its_stupid_and_petty_but_i_need_to_say_it/

self.confessions

I really love the guy I'm dating right now (I'm 18 m, he's 21). We've been dating for about 2 and a half months, and have seen each other around 5 times total. With every day I don't see him I feel more alone. I always think about his face and whenever I actually see a picture of his face, I get super strong butterflies in my chest and stomach - you know, the heart-skipping-a-beat kind of feeling? I also stare at him because I just find him insanely attractive. He had to cancel our meetup today because of some personal issues with a friend of his, and although it made me feel a bit shitty that I couldn't see him, I was totally fine with it and I still love him. He said he "didn't want me seeing him like this" (he was on the brink of a panic attack) and although I said I understood, I would have given anything to see him anyway. I feel an urge to always be there for him and make sure he's okay, although he says he doesn't want me to (probably because he doesn't want me to be involved with the negative part of his life). He moved our date to Wednesday but I'm still scared he might move it again - I have generalised anxiety, so I'm worrying a lot. I worry a lot about him too whenever he tells me he's feeling scared or worried about something. I just crave his presence a lot and since we don't see each other extremely often, I feel like something is always missing. But yeah, basically I've totally fallen for him and even if I'm not sure he feels the same way, I really really hope he does.

I know it's stupid and petty, but I need to say it somewhere.

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ebqw9w

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqw9w/i_felt_like_i_needed_to_talk_about_this/

self.ama

/r/AMA/comments/eblkig/i_m24_fucked_my_aunt_f20_ama/

I felt like I needed to talk about this...

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ebqvul

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqvul/my_friend_is_in_love_with_me_and_his_parents_want/

self.confessions

The title says it all really but here we go. Long btw I'm f[18] and I have this friend m[18] we will simply call him Alex. So I live in a different city than my friend group since they're all in high school and I'm graduated. On weekends when I'm off work I go over to Alex's house and spend the night so my friends and I can hang out. His parents f[48] and m[53] have always been kind to me. But last night his dad approached me and said that him and his wife were entertaining the idea of having me in their bed. This is verbatim, "we don't really think of you as a daughter. That would be gross. You're more like a f*** toy" Alex has also had feelings for me for a long time but has been mean lately because I keep rejecting his advances. I have never made any moves towards him and think of him only as a brother. It would ruin his relationship with his parents if he knew what his dad said to me, but I also know that he would somehow turn it around on me Alex and I would sometimes sleep in the same bed when it was too cold at night but we always used separate blankets and such. But recently when that happened he tried to spoon me and began attempting to touch my boobs while I was trying to fall asleep. I am a victim of sexual assault that happened while I was sleeping in my ex boyfriends bed, to which I woke up to him having sex with me. Alex knows this. I have a lot of issues with people perceiving me as only a sexual object because I'm open about my bisexuality and I'm very sex positive. But being regarded as a f*** toy by someone I considered family to me has ruined my self worth. Sorry for the long post xx

My friend is in love with me and his parents want to have a threesome with me

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ebqv09

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqv09/she_havent_gave_her_number_but_took_mine_instead/

self.confessions

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She haven't gave her number but took mine instead (1½ year later)

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqsm9/i_thought_winter_break_was_supposed_to_be_relaxing/

self.confessions

i have a six week long winter break and i have no idea what to do with myself. im so tired. im so bored. college gives me structure in my life. it gives me a way to see my friends, and gives me something to do. during break all im doing is laying in bed and watching youtube. i cant talk with my siblings because they all have school. none of my hometown friends want to hangout with me or are too busy to. at least for maybe a week and a half after new years my boyfriend will stay with me. am i a bit embarrassed by my family, house, and hometown for him to stay that long? yeah. but he's just happy to see me and loves my cats. my town is so tiny, and i can't drive. theres nothing to do without asking a friend for a ride. so all my days right now are spent in bed, depressed, and probably gaining weight bc im not walking around like i do when im on campus. hhhhh

i thought winter break was supposed to be relaxing

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ebqsjx

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqsjx/if_youre_in_a_relationship_i_hope_you_two_break/

self.confessions

I said it in a previous post, but I'll reiterate because I'm 110% sure nobody'd care enough to read my post history. The TL;DR of the last four-ish years of my life have pretty much been: >Met a girl that, for once in my life made me feel important, fell madly in love, she ripped it off like a bandage for some dick that played baseball four years ago. Still hurting regardless of how "time heals all wounds" I get to wake up every day now hating the thing staring back at me. Hating the regret of how things went down between her and I, what I could've, should've, **would've** done to make things better... I'm genuinely convinced we only get one soulmate in life -- and she was mine. Now I get to sift through all the platitudes of regular people with regular advice that have never experienced legitimate heartbreak, trying to give me the same spoonful crock of shit that they were fed thinking it'd help even a little bit. "Oh, there's someone for everyone! You just haven't met her yet!" "Time heals all wounds! Just wait another month and you'll see!" "Well the longer you wait, the more someone else fucks your future wife!" "mAyBe iF U sHOwErEd onCe nD a WhIlE yoU'D gEt a gF" (I shower daily by the way) The point I'm trying to make of this confession is -- my whole mindset has been changed, molded as a product of my environment. You can try and spin it like this was "my choice" to think the way I do, or that I "wanted" to be sad all the time since apparently all you have to do to not be sad is just "stop being sad" as if someone would actually **WANT** this... But I don't. Years of being alone, watching couple after couple come into my workplace hand-in-hand with their "someone for everyone." Sure, it may not last the whole year -- but something I really missed out on as a teenager was this same thing normal people get to experience all the time. Feeling wanted by someone for once, waking up every morning to "hey you" texts again, there wasn't a damn thing in the world I'd rather have than that one girl that at least pretended to care... Now here I am, sitting in this cold and empty room, only lights are the flickering frames of the T.V in front of me and the glow of my laptop as I click away keys. I feel like I could fill entire **BOOKS** of the same shit I'm writing here... It doesn't help that I'm incredibly short in the dating world. Couple that with being a male -- and you're royally fucked. I can't help but feel like I've turned into a monster over the years. Because now? I feel bitter. Every time a post starts with "LOOK WHAT MY GIRLFRIEND AND I DID" or "HEHEHE MY BOYFRIEND IS SO AMAZING HURRRDURR" I downvote it without cause. Stop shoving your happiness down my throat. Nobody cares that you're in a relationship -- not **everyone** gets to be that lucky. After my parents die, that's it -- I'll be alone in this world till it's my turn. "Congrats" that you found someone to keep you company till death do you part, but actually not congrats at all. I hope you two break up, and I hope, at the end of the day, I'm not the only one that ends up this abysmal and envious.

If you're in a relationship, I hope you two break up, and no I'm not sorry for saying it.

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ebqpew

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqpew/when_i_was_a_14yearold_girl_i_tried_to_convince/

self.confessions

SMGFan.com used to be the ultimate 90s/early 2000s e-house of worship for fans of Sarah Michelle Gellar, who played Buffy on *Buffy the Vampire Slayer.* Around this time, I was a young teenager obsessed with that show and frequenting *Entertainment Weekly’s* Television forums. I posted so much about Sarah and the show (often to defend them from haterz that said she was ugly or the show sucked) that people started teasing me for being obsessed and having no life (totally true). I was kinda embarrassed. So I decided to concoct a cover to convince people I knew all this stuff and obsessed over it because I was the **preeminent** owner of SMGFan.com. I was on the forums in a *professional* (not obsessive) capacity—participating was just a natural extension of my day-to-day site project. I knew that people would see that the owner of SMGFan.com was a dude if they checked out the WHOIS data for the site, so I then further pretended I was a middle-aged dude. I reasoned that it was *way* cooler for a middle-aged guy to obsess over this stuff and defend SMG’s honor than a young girl. Besides—I was tired of people sending me to a kiddie corner whenever they found out my age, so I finally got to keep participating in the adult conversations. I dug that. I stuck hard to the persona for several months. I was welcomed as a wacky regular on the forum and respected as a site owner. Lol. Then, out of the blue: the man himself appeared on the forums! The *actual* owner of SMGFan.com arrived to inform the forum that an imposter was in their midst—he had been receiving e-mails from my e-pals and had no idea who they were. He told everyone that someone was pretending to be him, and he had no idea why... For a short time, I held my ground. I explained that *no*, this *other* guy was the imposter! I’m the real deal! I pasted HTML code from the site in my defense. Could an *imposter* do *that*? A few of my friends stuck by me and gave the real owner hell. But he maintained that I was a total loon, I ran out of defenses, and eventually my e-pals slowly backed away, probably thinking “wtf.” I then disappeared from the forum. I received messages from one of my closer pals asking why I lied, saying he knew I was a good guy and he just wanted to know why I did it. I never wrote him back, because I thought he’d feel even more *had* and stupid if he knew he wasn’t even talking to an adult male. 😬 I then became a troll in Yahoo! chat and left the forum world behind until Livejournal came around. Then my main focus became convincing people I was pretty and smart. The end.

When I was a 14-year-old girl, I tried to convince my online friends I was an adult male that owned SMGfan.com.

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqn60/im_a_girl_whos_barely_a_teenager_who_sends/

self.confessions

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I'm a girl who's barely a teenager who sends pictures of myself to pedos to feel some sort of validation and love.

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ebqhj6

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebqhj6/i_despise_all_talented_people_and_only_wish_the/

self.confessions

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I despise all talented people and only wish the worst for them.

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ebq8y5

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebq8y5/came_across_a_folder_of_pics_from_my_ex/

self.confessions

Was going through some files on my computer and came across a folder of the nudes she sent me over our years together...God do I miss that body and being with her. But I do not miss the toxicity and the stress she brings around.

Came across a folder of pics from my ex.

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ebq6uq

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebq6uq/i_pissed_on_my_neighbor_and_her_friend/

self.confessions

We lived in a 2 apartment flat. My family was on the 2nd floor, with our neighbor below us. I was probably 11 at the time and would run out to the balcony and piss if somebody was in the bathroom and I had to go badly. Well one night my neighbors older sister and her friend were sitting on the porch waiting to be picked up for a party and I pissed all over them lol they started screaming so I just went prone until they ran inside lol don’t feel bad about it all they were cunts just thought y’all would like to hear it lmao

I pissed on my neighbor and her friend.

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ebq5gt

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebq5gt/my_mom_would_sometimes_expose_herself_to_me_when/

self.confessions

Disclaimer: no, this is not a troll post or some weird fetish shit that I’m making up to get off on. And no, I will not post pictures of my mom. This is just some weird shit that I’ve repressed for years that’s popping back into my head for some reason. Anyway, when I was a little kid (no older than 8 or 9), my mother would occasionally show me her breasts when I asked. I only remember this happening a handful of times, but I’m 99.99% sure it actually happened. It would basically consist of me asking her to show me her boobs, and her lifting her shirt and flashing me for a couple seconds. I remember on one occasion she did it for me and a friend of mine while we were on vacation (I think we were in first grade). I don’t know if she did it for shits and giggles or what, but thinking about this makes me cringe immensely. And that’s it. Nothing else sexual happened beyond that. Now I’m going to go back to pretending it never happened.

My mom would sometimes expose herself to me when I was a little kid

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ebq3iw

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebq3iw/i_dont_feel_skinny_unless_i_puke/

self.confessions

I’m 23m, everyday I make myself throw up before work when getting ready. I’ve had a lot of self esteem issues in the past and I know what this will lead to if I’m not too careful but I’m just not happy with how I look. I exercise and everything but my diet is the issue and I’ve tried fixing it but the weight just doesn’t drop unless I do this. I managed to lose almost 20 pounds in 4 weeks and I’m feeling better and better the more those dammed numbers drop. I haven’t told anyone about this, which is why it’s a throw away account but I just needed to let some one know...

I don’t feel skinny unless I puke...

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ebq0ik

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebq0ik/ask_me_anythingm/

self.confessions

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ASK ME ANYTHING(M)

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ebpytl

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpytl/sometimes_i_cry_thinking_my_parents_will_die/

self.confessions

They're strong, happy, and healthy atm, but still they're aging. Time's a btch. Thinking that they will leave us someday makes me really sad, and I can't imagine how I am going to hold up once the day comes.

Sometimes I cry thinking my parents will die someday

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ebpy4m

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpy4m/ill_rip_your_heads_off_right_in_front_of_the/

self.confessions

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I’LL RIP YOUR HEADS OFF RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE SCREEN

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ebpwvp

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpwvp/i_keep_getting_scholarships_in_the_mail_but_i/

self.confessions

https://www.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpwvp/i_keep_getting_scholarships_in_the_mail_but_i/

I keep getting scholarships in the mail but i always throw them away because theyre always pre written and sent to randoms. 😐 send me a personal message if im ”such a motivated and perfect student!” with all F’s 💀

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ebpv8k

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpv8k/i_am_so_excited_my_first_subreddit_has_almost/

self.confessions

[Here's my sub](https://www.reddit.com/r/Thighsexual/)

I am so excited! My first subreddit has almost 1,000 followers!

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ebpuj8

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpuj8/i_have_cancer_and_noone_takes_it_as_seriously_as/

self.confessions

(Little edit: me saying the dry mouth has more to do with meds, not my cancer itself, and yes, I am not lying, it is confirmed.)Little explanation here: I have always been in the hospital, in and out. I was born dead and resuscitated. I have had a heart issue for years now. all of my health issues kept bringing me to the hospital. I was at the hospital a few months ago, and I was in for a routine checkup, the doctor knows about everything but found something extremely alarming. He said my throat felt weird. especially my left side, and said "That doesn't seem right. I would highly suggest you see a sonographer."I was at the sonographer and without the doctor there knowing where exactly to look at, she focused again on my left side, more exactly my bottom left corner. After the visit, she said, "I sent your doctor the photo's I took, you should get a test result soon" (my hospital has an app they can post on"Sure enough, the found a spongiform mass on my left thyroid. They say it's not serious but I rather not sugar coat it. I asked my therapist what exactly it meant. She told me what it was without all the medical nonsense talk. They don't think it's bad, which said it doesn't need to be looked at. Well, I talked to my friend, let's call him John. John said they're slightly right. he said that I don't need to worry about it if **NO** symptoms popped upRecently, I have been pretty dry in my mouth (from side effect. Not cancer itself), then I would try to eat something and have a slight difficulty getting down. I haven't told anyone about it. I know it what no-one wants to think it is. The terrifying realization is not a feeling I wish upon anyone. I already planned an "in case of the emergency" funeral.

I have cancer and no-one takes it as seriously as I do.

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ebps9e

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebps9e/i_will_keep_posting_on_reddit_about_how_much_i/

self.confessions

https://www.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebps9e/i_will_keep_posting_on_reddit_about_how_much_i/

I will keep posting on Reddit about how much I want to get strangled by a stereotypical nerdy man's thighs until I actually get strangled by a stereotypical looking nerd's thighs!

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ebprxx

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebprxx/a_girl_who_ive_never_spoken_to_before_made_my_day/

self.confessions

That’s all.

A girl who I’ve never spoken to before made my day by complimenting my socks.

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ebpqiw

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpqiw/im_16_and_pissed_myself/

self.confessions

I drank a lot of water during the late evening. I had a a lot of dreams about going to the washroom and woke up at 1am and was like damn I gottta pee. But then I thought “I can hold it” I couldn’t and didn’t. I then woke up at 3am and was like “oh shit! I peed in the beddddd”. Thankfully nothing got on my bed, but damn I was so disappointed in myself and pissy.

I’m 16 and pissed myself

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ebppmx

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebppmx/im_a_masochist/

self.confessions

I often have fantasies about being raped, tortured, or choked till i pass out it's not like something from 50 shades of grey. I don't wish for a handsome guy that is dominant and cold but after a while he will magically fall in love with me. To be honest, I don't really care how would that person look like. Sometimes i choke myself while masturbating. In a way that at the end i am worried i may pass out. Sometimes i scratch or slap myself. it's almost impossible to find porn i would enjoy because i think it may be even illegal to record something like that. I wouldn't even complain if someone would make a sex slave out of me, i know it's weird. I am sure i have some mental issues, but i just can't help myself. I know it's not normal.

I'm a masochist

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ebpn9l

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpn9l/i_am_so_mad_at_you_college_students_take_note/

self.confessions

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I am so mad at you (college students take note)

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ebpbp8

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpbp8/when_i_was_young_i_yelled_at_my_dog/

self.confessions

I'm 27 now. I was in elementary school when I did. He was old, and probably peed on the floor but I forgot what he had even done to deserve being yelled at. I yelled at him and he walked away and he curled up wimping. The next day when I came home from school he was nowhere to be found. By chance, due to his age and health issues, my parents put him down. I came home that day wanting to apologize to him and pet him and hug him and I never got the opportunity to do so. I cried for days. I still think about it every now and then and it honestly makes me feel so sick and upset. I have never told anyone this story until today.

When I was young I yelled at my dog...

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ebpav6

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebpav6/got_caught_shoplifting/

self.confessions

Today was the day I decided to let myself have some fun at my favorite place in town. I love the unique food and little goodies each shop there contains. But something today just made me want to snap. I’m not sure if it was this sincere depression I’ve been having over school ending fast, over my parents’ relationship, or just how shitty I feel, in general, when I don't take my anxiety medication. I didn’t have my anxiety pill today, which keeps me from acting risky. Sorry to my family, if you ever find this. I love you very much, and I didn’t do this to disappoint you or to make you wonder about me. I was a petty thief today and I’m lucky to know it is out of my system, whether or not they charge me for stealing an $10 Hot Wheels. Everyone has skeletons in their closet, and since I’m openly gay, this would be the last skeleton I’ve got in hiding. I am doing this so i can forgive myself and not worry so much about it anymore. I went into a boutique I usually go in when we are there together. It has keychains, toys, stickers, cheap makeup and little things anybody would like. I was at a particular low because I saw the toy cars and just thought to myself: “My dad spends more money on these pathetic little cars than he spends trying to better his life. And he doesn’t seem to have a lot of it left considering he’s jobless. What money is he using exactly?” I don’t know if that even makes sense, i just wanted to be miserable about something that wasn’t my problem. I put the car in my jacket, under my arm. The store is heavy on cameras, too, so they must go through this a lot. Feeling cocky, I don’t notice the sensors near the door and walk right through them. I stand there long enough to make the sound of the alarm long and annoying to deal with. I am asked to come back inside. So i start lying; not because I don’t want to be caught, it’s because I’m embarrassed of myself and my behavior. I’ve never stolen anything before. I pull apart my bag, giving the salesboy things from my purchases to try through the sensors. Finally, my bags are put aside and I start blaring the alarms on my own. I decide to cover, pretending “I forgot” i had it on me. I should have just set it down and walked away. Finally, I am given the decision to pay and I take the chance without further question. The manager takes a picture of my ID while I pay, and then tells me never to come back. “I totally understand!” I reply, like an idiot. I’m a fucking idiot. I have so much. Had I taken my pill today, maybe that would have been different, maybe it wouldn’t have. Maybe I’m just more worried there are now two other people who don’t like me in the world. I really need to get over that because I was wrong and I didn’t do the right thing. If they could read this now, I would apologize for my behavior again and for lying. I am better than that and I in no way wanted to disrespect them or their business. I thought they wouldn’t miss an $10 toy, but that’s not important at all. I won’t make excuses; I could have hurt somebody’s business today. I have decided I’m going to donate $30 to a charity for kids not getting toys this Christmas. It’s the least I could do.

Got caught Shoplifting

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eboy6z

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eboy6z/i_have_been_speaking_to_this_guy_i_met_on_omegle/

self.confessions

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I have been speaking to this guy I met on Omegle every day since August 15th 2018

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ebow0t

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebow0t/i_would_very_much_like_to_fuck_my_history_teacher/

self.confessions

I (a 17 y/o gay male) have a VERY hot APUSH teacher. He's maybe in his early 30s, but he has slicked back hair and even though he's one of the teachers who dresses super nice, I can see that his body is fantastic. It seems like every other day that I have to go to the bathroom, jack off and come back. I also can't help but look at his genital region constantly. I want him to destroy me. I know this is really tame for this subreddit, but I needed to get it off my chest. Gooooodbye!

I would very much like to fuck my history teacher.

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eboukm

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eboukm/today_the_day/

self.confessions

Feeling that darkness come on again..the darkness that takes you within yourself, takes your soul. Death is here. And I dont have much else to live for now, so might just close my eyes and see where it takes me this time. I just wish I had the strength to tell her the truth..

Today the day?

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eboogu

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eboogu/im_non_binary_and_thighsexual/

self.confessions

My gender is thighgender, and my sexuality is thighsexuality. My pronouns are I/want/to/get/strangled/by/nerd/thighs Lots of love! <3 r/Thighsexual

I'm non binary and Thighsexual

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ebom2h

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebom2h/i_overheard_that_my_ex_best_friend_lost_her/

self.confessions

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I overheard that my ex best friend lost her virginity (F15)

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ebojww

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebojww/caretaking_an_elderly_parent_is_making_me_ageist/

self.confessions

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Caretaking an elderly parent is making me ageist.

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eboiod

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eboiod/i_was_raped_by_my_exfiancé/

self.confessions

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I was raped by my ex-fiancé

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eboem1

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eboem1/so_im_not_sure_what_to_do/

self.confessions

It’s my cake day. Is it like a 21st birthday? Do I post all over? Or do I silent enjoy I’ve been committed to something for a year? A year into reddit and I still don’t know how it works...

So I’m not sure what to do

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eboa2m

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eboa2m/im_weirdly_desensitized_to_things/

self.confessions

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I’m weirdly desensitized to things

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ebo0ft

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebo0ft/i_am_a_black_man_that_cant_stand_black_women/

self.confessions

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I am a black man... That can't stand black women

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ebnxxv

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnxxv/i_want_to_pay_my_boyfriend_off/

self.confessions

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I want to pay my boyfriend off

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ebnxgm

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnxgm/i_want_my_parents_to_die/

self.confessions

So I can off myself without upsetting them

I want my parents to die

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ebnvv5

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnvv5/am_i_to_blame/

self.confessions

Years ago when I was in primary school I was at my grandparents house and was playing on their IPad, I went on my grandads recently deleted images and there was child porn. I didn’t tell anyone because I was young and he was my only family member who I saw on a regular basis and I knew that he’d get into trouble, I know it’s bad but I was only around 9/10 and I couldn’t bare the thought of losing one of the only people who I thought cared about me and my sisters. Anyway, nearly 8/9 years later and my sisters have come forward and said he has sexually abused them growing up, he never harmed me (and I lived there for just over a year and moved out about a year ago bc of his drinking habits) and my friends had told me that he creeped him out but I always put it down to just being a bit of a flirt and wanting to make people laugh. The police are involved and I told them about what I found a few years ago but I just can’t help but think that if I told the police sooner none of this would have happened, I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself

Am I to blame?

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ebnunb

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnunb/i_stopped_talking_to_a_girl_who_was_interested_in/

self.confessions

First, this is absolutely not a humble brag. I don't even know that she was attracted to me, we had just been messaging on tinder and talking on the phone. For that matter, I don't even know how attractive she was in real life. But it doesn't matter. We were (are) both foreigners living in a country where we don't understand the language. We talked about *Lost in Translation* and loneliness. But pretty much from the start, I treated her differently than I would to other girls. I philosophised more to make myself sound interesting, and flirted less - probably because I was insecure about any flirting attempts I made being rejected. Ultimately, I guess I was so insecure about my lower attractiveness here - my loss of social status and inability to have a real conversation with 95% of people, that I rejected myself before she had the chance to. Talking to her was just really stressful. And I feel quite guilty about it. She might be super-attractive, but that doesn't mean she's maybe not just a lost, scared, foreigner too. I hate what this says about me and how I view beauty and society, and maybe it makes me shallow, and part of the problem. Should I have done more?

I stopped talking to a girl who was interested in me because she was too attractive

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ebnp3n

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnp3n/my_boyfriend_is_a_cheater_but_doesnt_know_i_know/

self.confessions

my boyfriends been cheating on me but he doesn’t know i know so, i’ve been with this guy for nearly 2 years. and it’s been really good up until about march 2019, i got told by this girl that she sent him nudes and vice versa, i said to him that i couldn’t forgive him n i didn’t trust him but it’s be with him. he was distraught and cleaned up his act.. until September 2019 i found out he slept with me ex-best friend. she told me, blamed it all on him and took none of the blame for it, she was a sex worker kinda and said she’d give him “mates rates” for her content. he took up the offer. later on, about October to date i check my bf’s phone, not all the time barely at all tbh, well it got to a point where another thing happened and i told him to delete snapchat and so he did. although, i’ve seen that he actually re downloads snapchat when i’m not around and deletes it again, i’m usually with my bf 3 sometimes 4 days a week so he doesn’t use it then, only when i’m physically not there. I had also noticed he’d been flirting with diff girls and shit, bare in mind we’re both guys and bi- i love him to pieces and i refuse to give up on the relationship, i really do refuse to give up because i always try to find the good in people. he tells me he’s going to change but secretly i’ve been checking his phone (like i said before hand very rarely) and he’s still occasionally like v occasionally talking to people in a certain way and then snapchat thing too. i don’t know what i should do. because occasionally i say should we break up or have a break and he’s like no i love you i am happy. and i always say to him that he doesn’t seem happy if he does that to me. anyway he has seemed to be getting better at being a bf but idk

my boyfriend is a cheater but doesn’t know i know

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ebnnhz

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnnhz/im_a_suicidal_16yearold/

self.confessions

Throwaway for obvious reasons. Please don’t judge my grammar or spelling; i’m really dyslexic and it’s frustrating enough for me. I’m so lost at this point in my life. I’ve been in three mental hospitals since the age of 14. My 15th birthday was spent in the hospital just for a little background. I’m Broken let’s get some facts straight, i’m suffering from depression anxiety and eating disorder. Let’s start at the beginning. Eight years old family goes on vacation to Florida of course. Cousin molest me oh wait it gets worse;Ants running from the government they move in with us. The next eight years of my life molesting off and on again. I’m top of my father and mother who are verbally and physically abusive. My father has pinned me against the bed and choked me because I was crying because he slapped me. One of my oldest memories. He was in the army so he was gone most of the time so it wasn’t that bad in my younger years. Father retires brother moves out. Father stabs me across the face and good CPS called on himself. One of the bad events that has recently happened; he was repeatedly calling me a dumb dumb dumb ass in the car and I yelled and asked him to stop catch. Stop the car screams at me and tells me to get out. I proceeded to be left on the side of the road for an hour cops are called cops don’t do shit. Tell the school and they call CPS. The most hurtful thing my father has said recently when I was telling him about my depression was. I said I was miserable and he said I’d be miserable even if I were dead. All the while I’ve been dealing with this my whole life. I am dealing with not being able to read. My principal told me if I couldn’t deal with school now I couldn’t deal with college. Two boys in my school have been bullying me and physically laughing me across the face and I told the PE teacher and she said if that happened I would’ve seen it. My confession is I wasn’t honest with talking to my counselor when she asked if I wanted to kill myself I lied and I said no. I just can’t go to the hospital again. I just feel so alone and so heartbroken I really miss my ex. In life so devastating and I feel so helpless. I can’t even kiss a guy without getting nervous. I want someone to love me so bad it hurts. Again please don’t harp on my grammar and spelling I’m speaking this into a phone. it’s really confusing and hard for me to correct everything. Feel free to reach out to me or give me any advice is much needed and appreciated.

I’m a suicidal 16-year-old

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ebnndv

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnndv/i_crapped_in_a_training_potty/

self.confessions

My oldest sister has a little kid and he is learning to use the toilet. So today when I was visiting her I went into the bathroom and saw her child's training potty and I had a devious idea. I squatted down and pushed out a big boy sized poopie. I didn't know how much shit stinks when it's not covered up by water. I almost threw up. But it was so funny and I just left it there for my sister to find.

I CRAPPED in a training potty

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ebnkv0

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnkv0/i_have_lived_a_life_of_lies_since_the_age_of_13/

self.confessions

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I have lived a life of lies since the age of 13

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ebnk38

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnk38/pets/

self.confessions

When I was 14-15 m I wanted to see if I would like it I tried both male and female dogs then ten years later I got to fuck two females dog in a livingroom while most women watch and touched there self's also first time I suck off a male dog full mouth of cum and piss

Pets

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ebngdu

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebngdu/what_i_found_doing_my_boyfriends_laundry/

self.confessions

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What I found doing my boyfriend's laundry

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ebngd9

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebngd9/my_boyfriends_been_cheating_on_me_but_he_doesnt/

self.confessions

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my boyfriends been cheating on me but he doesn’t know i know

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ebnbfe

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebnbfe/i_want_to_die/

self.confessions

Don’t mind my name really it’s a joke, but I just want to stop talking to everyone and then in a few years kill myself, I don’t know if this is depression or something but yeah.

I want to die

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ebn3ky

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebn3ky/me_get_expansiv_prezant_4_me_mum_n_sis_n_bes_fiend/

self.confessions

But me no hav lot monee but me do anyway

Me get..... expansiv prezant 4 me mum n sis n bes fiend

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ebn1n6

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebn1n6/im_jewish_and_i_believe_jeffery_epstein_was/

self.confessions

Anti semetism is now rampant in the US despite the ADL's best efforts to contain it. It was only until recently Epstein made the news. I do not believe he was guilty and he was set up. All the evidence against him was planted by anti-semites/white nationalists and I heard the jury yelled out ''convict the Jew! Convict the Jew!'' in the courtroom which to me is just the smoking gun proof Epstein did not get a fair trial and was only convicted due to anti semetism.

I'm Jewish, and I believe Jeffery Epstein was innocent and only convicted due to rampant anti-semetism.

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ebmrmw

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebmrmw/lost/

self.confessions

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Lost

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ebmgk9

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebmgk9/i_have_started_to_sell_my_used_knickers_online/

self.confessions

Some guys want certain things.. Tbh I'm not bothered by it....

I have started to sell my used Knickers online....

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ebmbwp

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebmbwp/i_cut_myself_today_for_the_first_time_in_10_years/

self.confessions

I haven’t been doing very well emotionally or mentally lately. I would rather feel physical pain than the heartache I’ve been feeling. My chest hurts and I feel sick..

I cut myself today for the first time in 10 years.

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ebmazp

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebmazp/i_fucked_a_feminist_so_hard_she_became_a_right/

self.confessions

This happened earlier today at the local theatre (my uncle works for Disney and gave me tickets for early screening of the rise of skywalker) and i overheard a feminist say how great rey (a woman) was the greatest character of all time and then she proceeded to say how anyone who didn’t like episode 8 was sexist. I proceeded to explain to her how wrong she was and explained to her in extreme detail the flaws of the Disney trilogy. She looked at me with a huge look of scorn and told me I was sexist because I stood up for myself and didn’t give a shit whether she disagreed or not and blamed it on toxic masculinity. She said men were all evil and cocks are the enemy of the people and she proceeded to pull down my trousers and say “I hate you” at my cock but seconds later she realized she couldn’t stop staring and proceeded to whisper “but it’s so big and thick” she then proceeded to get on her knees and slowly started sucking my cock making sure not an ounce of cum was wasted and she swallowed all of it, I told her I was very right wing and told her why I was right about politics and social things and she agreed while sucking my huge cock it worked like a Jedi mind trick. Now she calls my cock the best thing that ever happened to her and so my dick literally worked as a Jedi mind trick. This was halfway through the movie but everyone could tell what was happening and they all stood up and gave a round of applause and paused the movie just for me! I then proceeded to shove my dick inside her so hard she started to cum from her asshole! A few minutes later I went back to watching the movie and she asked for my number and I said “sure” and now owns a maga hat!

I fucked a feminist so hard she became a right wing conservative

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ebm3er

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebm3er/im_a_photographer_and_im_cancelling_all_my/

self.confessions

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I'm a photographer and i'm cancelling all my obligations to save my sanity.

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ebm0kj

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebm0kj/i_fancy_the_pants_off_my_boyfriends_brother/

self.confessions

That's all.

I fancy the pants off my boyfriend's brother

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eblvy6

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eblvy6/i_ate_a_carolina_reaper_pepper_things_went_as/

self.confessions

Today at work a coworker brought in a Reaper pepper because I had told him Friday that I would try one. I knew it was going to be hot but I had no fucking idea. I started chewing it and felt nothing. The minute I swallowed some of my pepper tainted saliva I knew I had fucked up. My eyes started watering and I started violently hiccuping. I had to make a conscious effort to breath. About 10 seconds later my stomach started hurting. I went to the bathroom and made myself throw up. That seemed to help my stomach although my mouth and throat was still on fire. I drank a 20 oz sprite in under a minute and must have drank a half bottle of water. My hands were shaking at that point. It lasted about 14 minutes before the burn subsided enough that I could deal with it. TLDR: Carolina Reaper Peppers probably qualify as attempted murder.

I ate a Carolina Reaper pepper. Things went as well as you would expect.

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eblu9z

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eblu9z/today_i_broke_down_about_my_how_awful_my_ocd_is/

self.confessions

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Today I broke down about my how awful my OCD is getting. I've formally decided to begin therapy.

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eblqo7

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eblqo7/im_low_key_jealous_of_my_12_year_old_son/

self.confessions

My 12 year old son is a very successful streamer on a computer game called Fortnite. He makes a very good amount of money, especially for someone his age. I am a middle school janitor and he makes nearly the same amount that I do in a month. While this sounds like a good thing for my son, he doesn’t understand how to use his financial situation to his advantage. He goes out and buys toys and things he wants when he should be buying me stuff for being his dad. I’m thinking about kicking him out because he’s making these bad choices and when he’s out on the streets on his own he will learn how to manage his money. My wife says just to shut off the internet or break is computer but I do not think this would be as effective.

I’m low key jealous of my 12 year old son

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eblmhy

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eblmhy/i_have_a_crush_on_my_kids_teacher/

self.confessions

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I have a crush on my kids teacher

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eblitv

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eblitv/been_lying_to_get_nudes/

self.confessions

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Been lying to get nudes

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ebld5y

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebld5y/my_grandmother_and_my_family_know_i_want_to_kill/

self.confessions

I’ve been going through a lot recently, and it’s been hard missing people and letting go, and a lot has been happening so I wanted to talk to my mum, I want to die it hurts every single day and I just felt like I needed her help to stop this cycle of self hate and she promised me she’d tell nobody and she told my dad and I can’t blame her whatsoever she’s my mum and she loves me she cares about me and she didn’t mean to hurt me, but my dad told my grandmother and now I feel like an awful human being because my Nan is an old woman she deserves to be so happy with her granddaughter in her last few years not hugging me begging me not to die, I don’t deserve my family

My Grandmother and my Family know I want to kill myself

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eblc7d

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eblc7d/wait_is_my_father_a_pedophile_or_sociopath/

self.confessions

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Wait... Is my father a pedophile or sociopath...?!?

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eblc01

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/eblc01/i_opened_my_christmas_gift_and_i_regret_it/

self.confessions

There was this sport jacket I saw on sale and I hinted to my mom about it, but something in me told me that I should’ve just bought it for myself cause my mom would end up getting me the wrong size (Last year she got me some clothes that were too small so she gave them to my cousins). Nevertheless she did get me the wrong size and now I’m a little bummed. Idk if I should be honest and tell her in advanced that she got me the wrong size, or if should just buy myself the jacket and pretend I never knew my mom got it for me.

I opened my Christmas gift and I regret it

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ebla23

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebla23/i_want_to_break_up_but_im_financially_screwed/

self.confessions

So my and my boyfriend have been together for 8 months, we went very quick, we made it official after a week and he moved in with me after only 3 months. He works at sea 3 months on, 3 months off. We’ve been physically together less time than apart. He’s been caught more than 3 times speaking to other people and 2 times with the same guy. I’m being forced to move due to my flat being riddled with mould and straight up disgusting but the place were moving to is £70 dearer so I’m already in a tricky situation with money and this is making it even worse. I feel horrible because I think I rushed this relationship so much and now I’m feeling we’re not that compatible and now I want to split... what do I do? I’m a broke ass student with a 8 hour contract at a supermarket making barely enough to cover myself at the moment. What do I do??...

I want to break up but I’m financially screwed

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ebl9zk

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebl9zk/my_crush_just_found_out_i_like_him/

self.confessions

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My crush just found out I like him..

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ebl7dy

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebl7dy/my_dog_killed_another_dog/

self.confessions

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My dog killed another dog

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ebl52u

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebl52u/rickrolling_the_chamber_of_commerce_of_nh/

self.confessions

So I am doing a project on wevideo kind of like a slide show website where you record your voice and you can use that to turn on YouTube to record 30 seconds of it (Teacher wanted no more than 30 secs) and at the end it cuts to NEVER GONNA. GIVE YOU UP NEVER GONNA LET YOU DOWN NEVER GONNA TURN AROUND AND DESERT YOU

Rickrolling The chamber of commerce of NH

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ebl44b

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebl44b/ugh_dumb_drunk_idea_added_a_married_girl_to_fb/

self.confessions

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Ugh, dumb drunk idea - Added a married girl to FB secret crush

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ebl10i

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebl10i/i_made_a_mistake/

self.confessions

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I made a mistake

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ebkv2g

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confessions

https://old.reddit.com/r/confessions/comments/ebkv2g/i_was_kind_of_raped_last_night/

self.confessions

I’m 21. This happened over the course of the last night. I recently came back from college for the winter break and I wanted to catch up with an old friend who had moved back to a town near my hometown. I drove out to see him after he got off work and planned on sleeping on the couch. We started drinking and having a good time. I’ve only ever been drunk twice before this, so I didn’t know how much alcohol was too much. He gave me a lot of whiskey and I drank it all. Once I started to feel the effects he asked if I wanted to go to sleep and I said yes. Instead of taking me to the couch, he took me to his room. I was barely coherent and couldn’t stand on my own, so I obliged. He then took off my shirt and bra and wouldn’t let me put them back on. I was too weak to grab it back. He then took all of his clothes off down to his underwear. I was falling in and out of sleep throughout it all, but I remember him grabbing my hand and placing it on his penis. I told him no and pulled my hand away. He didn’t listen to me and grabbed my hand again. I told him no again and flipped over to face the wall. After I turned over I fell asleep pretty quickly and woke up to him pulling down my shorts and underwear. I was on my period so I had a tampon in. He didn’t care. I said “no” and “please stop” multiple times but he didn’t listen. He pulled out my tampon and tried to force himself inside me as I begged him to stop. I was barely conscious, so I wasn’t strong enough to pull away. He finally stopped when he couldn’t get himself in and I went in the bathroom to put in a new tampon. I still wasn’t coherent enough to realize what he just tried to do. I fell asleep shortly after getting back to the bed. I don’t know how long I was asleep for, but I woke up later to find my shorts and underwear pulled back down and a sharp pain around my vagina. I think the tampon stopped him from entering all the way, but he still tried while I was unconscious. That’s when I started to freak out, but I was still drunk and over an hour away from home. I couldn’t leave. I know that what happened was wrong and a form of sexual assault, but I don’t know if it was rape because he didn’t go in all the way. I told him “no” many times but he didn’t stop trying. This morning was when I realized what had happened and I started to panic. I managed to get myself out of there quickly because he had to go to work. I’m really freaked out and my body’s been shaking for hours. I don’t know what to do or who to tell, but I don’t want to report him. I just need advice. Was I raped?

I was kind of raped last night?