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[ "shouldnt kill myselfive lost friends family help live" ]

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[ "think im suicidal summerive heard seasonal affective disorder thought winter months drag people down ive got backwards apparently never wanna hot humid life always goes crapim backwards whole life mistake give one good reason continue pointless cycle" ]

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[ "banned point ive banned strong suspicion people banned least" ]

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[ "life hard like cant get hot boy catboy costume choke life gotta hard like smh kill" ]

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[ "want alivr anymore think take longer problem feeling hate everytying happening especially breathng want alive thibk kill myself want feeling idk stop it tired" ]

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[ "redflag thoughts living aloneas soon turn eighteen would like start living alone start jobim afraid day long thoughts ending all want cut myself want hurt myselfim afraid alone could really end all live parents sister since think much cutting myself cant stand anymore knowcould" ]

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[ "reasonim serious dire straights one person read today would enough ive come reddit many times seeking help various problems yearsletkeep quick im worst state depression ive ever in theres huge lead past three years ripple effect huge onset panic disorder agoraphobia coming dangerously close developing eating disorder depression bad moment im physical pain im pretty much frowning time whether want not result chronic headaches time cant sleep binged eat im supossed go back uni next week six hours away folks parents desperately trying convince go back think depression get worse ill kill myself worst depressions even probably ever be mom knows suicidal thoughts only recently help ive medication since may much im depressed suicidal usual say suicidal loosely feel like fucking imposter guess feel like id everyone huge fucking favour die think necessarily want die feel like inevitable part future fucking hate im convinced feeling like result eventually killing myself desire grow old ive never anyone im cant keep job keep school", "im fucking depressed days really wanna something takes everything shit ton pills write redflag note yet again wanna die want pain end cliche sounds pains getting bad think im beyond point fixing this either redflag live rest life barely hanging suffering sometimes wonder suicidal depressed about im reasonably good health wonderful family live safe country never really want anything go good schoolim fucking ungrateful could many amazing things life motivation deserve achieve things even deserve get better ive tried fucking hard many years beat this ive really really tried get hard work ending exactly place started sometimes worse im fucking alone mom knows anything even know everything friends acquaintances uni", "many people like honestly think really good people living campus keep telling really care me care died even fucking care depressed fucking deserve this humour anymore dropped killed even want consider dropping choice have amazing friend group even tried hard go along every event every event smile funny go majorly way help get around everything wanted city theyre exchange students ended ditching me tell amount times id crying eyes out talking jumping window full blown panic attack moments headed them nothing excluded plans never replied messages calls but regularly talked group chat ate without we live hall things without constantly quite rude times happy call overly cautious paranoid acted anxiety no didnt know anxiety depression thats fucking shitty thing say anyways trying hard brave expect anything life honestly dont seems matter fucking hard try im piece shit one really likes enjoys around dead friends people life actually care would much better off feel like alien something wrong im different connect anyone im indifferent death im becoming cold fucking hate it ill never good close friends partner future thats possible me big part wants get better going years reasons anyways get better grow old cant even shit remember loved ones bust ass get degree thats gonna get salary thats snatched taxes constantly pussyfoot around others im terrified offending them spend every second life living like this keep going family worst days brain convinces want die ease burden care someone mental illness not true family amazing", "fucking believe anyways two questions said consider dropping uni this second time do really go back live six hours away folks tiny room friends people rely on im depressed suicidal good idea let folks convince staying home six months finally anyone give reason keep going one fucking reason would enough keep fighting good fight guys" ]

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[ "may sound dumb want dio run fade blonde bastard killed dog ruined love jonathan erina i think im starting season one fight stand stone mask know imma die imma it would prefer fight mask stand" ]

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[ "thats id sum up said naked gun meets james bond think mine accurate im neutral point o br br this movie kind blast past reminds old movies from s s thats plays time period exact flashback exception mood movie made shows screen main actor who ive told popular homeland france perfect role here hes spy number attached him one character sums movie asking question hes good see watch movie br br very funny indeed like spies mixed comedy old school flair taking anything else matter seriously need watch this o" ]

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[ "dont want feel wayanymorei keep flipping depressed feeling absolutely nothing dont want feel way anymore first appointment get psychiatrist wont march dont know last long im give everything depressed could handle that life numb nothingness feeling whats breaking down dont know anymore" ]

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[ "lot easier people cry someone funeral ask going every while imagine would answer anything standard i fine one wants hear loneliness existential dread realised something" ]

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[ "teensy bit horny okay lied ive horny day posting would tell im bored" ]

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[ "someone please wish happy birthdayim worst birthday ever ive celebrating whole day bc nobodys home feel fucking alone right now lmao didnt even get hear happy birthday today fuck feel like crying something really stupid rn mean definitely isnt hoped th birthday go welp guess someone please wish happy birthday feel least little bit happy today would kinda mean world" ]

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[ "got link survey sexual intercourse frequency quarantine lmao u guys r sex id lucky even see gf february" ]

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[ "reason dont wanna kill myselfis dont wanna make dad grandmother sad already going lot break heart hard im done everything gave trying nothing ever works me failed" ]

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[ "one acquaintances came todayi walking school happened pass asked hey man doing gave typical answer doing okay jokingly replied saying only okay well least hate everything want kill yourself haha knowrespond gave kind nervous laugh little know" ]

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[ "guess whos friends homophobic hell mine yet come feels fucking great knowing anything homosexuality" ]

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[ "saw movie night sleep loved searched find would again probably best movie ever seen time even cast full people never seen seems like real life story based nyc kind movie elevates viewing pleasure see it hear feel it moment saw wirey drinking beer watching game imagined must like grow without father many lines movie use daily basis like the personal alone time bathroom drinking beverage great film" ]

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[ "were stumbling around together unformed world whose rules objectives largely unknown seemingly indecipherable even possibly nonexistent always verge killed forces understand says ted pikul film people sums life existenz probably film existence real unreal tell difference not last line film superbly ambiguousbr br the film seems like shaggy dog story indeed real shaggy dog it takes along interesting ride full provocative cronenberg touches make look amphibians game pods fish spines bones new light bits quite icky takes place rural setting gas station called gas station chinese restaurant called chinese restaurantthe film engrossing texture leagues away usual big budget science fiction movieyou read many things film repays watching oncebr br the main actors jude law ok jennifer jason leigh great roles suit talented actor good role like unmatchable unconventional beauty fascinating voice suits part allegra looks great short black skirt too familiar actors given much do looks good sounds good howard shore score complements film well cronenberg possibly alfred hitchcock scifihorror genre matter film makes always worth watching" ]

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[ "anyone know pills overdose die little pain possible sorry english bad help overdosing" ]

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[ "whats problem tornadoes hurricanes america like bitch build house bricks concrete obviously wooden fucking house gonna stay together never heard three little piggies" ]

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[ "town mph wind rn watched streetlight fall semi tip side got learners permit today woooo" ]

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[ "messaged crush wish luck bois filler filler filler filler" ]

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[ "wait judge ironically killed family free go" ]

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[ "regret starting print d printer going piii bu bzzz next hours" ]

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[ "forget milk cereal first yall wash hair body first actually bothering youd better answer correctly" ]

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[ "least painful way diecant anymore dont want really painful" ]

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[ "im hate life know might seem like every stupid year old kid ive suicidal since would go kitchen late night reenact would slit throught rare dont suicidal thoughts feel like im waste air one loves want im bad school everyone sees failure idk last post reddit good night reddit" ]

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[ "world sadim fuckinghurting yall years torment abuse years healing shit alone years always alone get better betterim fucking step program im even addicted drugs alcohol though true guess addicted something im fucking trying feel sadness look universe begging hope see pain injustice cant escape im either going die protest maybe death meaning im gonna blow worthless brains end dayfuck life worth this" ]

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[ "one best romantic classicteen deviyaan film selecting among equals soft emotionlovethis simple story middle class man came limelight poetic talent charming personality attracted towards three women vice versa one hindi movie star second rich lady third lives neighborhoodbr br the situation put confusion decide one life partnerhe asked days themultimately goes astrologer asked loves mosthis confusion came know lady living neighborhood really cares loves true lovedevanand played lead character fully justified contemporary romantic image" ]

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[ "escape fron thismy family believe therapy siblings thinks worthless nowhere go help faraway want end end it" ]

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[ "tell someone want dieive suicidal thoughts pretty much everyday past years somehow im still mostly cant boyfriend love much dont know tell im extremely suicidal person breaks least week wishing could take miracle death pill weve dating years knows depression dont think knows bad is feel like cant tell bc die blame knowing cant burden another person anyone relate here dont need convincing stay alive bcim afraid end rn need advice this" ]

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[ "farewell friend aka adieu lamihonour among thieves perfect neat entertaining thriller sees mismatched demobbed french algerian war veterans alain delon charles bronson trapped basement vault one return stolen bonds clean two million wages sitting christmas weekend naturally things quite simple even open vault leading neat twists turns debit side theres bizarre striptease scene car park bronson irritating fonzielike catchphrase uses inopportune moments brigitte fossey sporting perhaps hideously misconceived hairstyle s it makes look like bald woman whose wig blown back top head high wind something liability ill cook spaghetti ill learn make love well ill read shakespeare speech hysterical wrong ways shame horrible last lineshot otherwise surprisingly entertaining unpretentious number thats worth checking find decent printbr br cinema clubs uk dvd offers english soundtrack since delon voices rest cast fairly well dubbed thats great problem especially since widescreen transfer pretty good quality" ]

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[ "anyone hereim sure begin ill start now mother advanced lung cancer step father intellectual incapacities shows word wrong im getting paranoid itim alright everything need someone talk to thoughts self harm redflag thanks" ]

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[ "one beautiful moving thought provoking films around good family entertainment time makes think hard issues involved every time see ghost zac riding bike puddle end cant help cry eyes out john thaws performance touching shame longer us gone forgotten outstanding film full marks" ]

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[ "whoever says pokemon stupid die movie superlative even shead tear celebei died cry much film touching animated thriller br br in fourth installment pokemon ash friends must stop bad jerk making celebei ultimate evil weapon dark ball time sam celebei travel time continuously hunted game hunters like part double battle sam apricorn pokeball if played pokemon gold silver crystal know isbr bri also enjoyed miramax charge instead warner brothers putting mini movie end great idea pokemon movie come life ever" ]

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[ "whats point fighting pain die eventuallyi cant take pain anymore" ]

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[ "ive seen many dustin hoffmans movies like straw dogs rain man liked them characters much often calm even shy persons expected movie straw dogs saw totally different person much energetic film kinda reminded al pacino serpico movie interesting beginning end liked way dustin hoffmans character ready everything stay son movie also revealing personally think shows people learn find compromise self without involving people issue" ]

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[ "know im going itim going stab taking beautiful view park near live ill start day breaking shit boyfriend ill tell ex cheated her feed favourite foods ill make sure day talked said goodbye friends ill want ill go want ill tell person ive liked years like them then ill go park ill sit one boardwalks its empty night impale myself ill get high fuck it pain problem ill let bleed out ill throw knife water want die" ]

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[ "u guys ever post thirst traps fun like dont even wanna talk anyone ill post occasional thirst trap instagram tiktok feel something" ]

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[ "ill keep briefi sexually assaulted last wednesday night wantdie" ]

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[ "bought rope againthe ropes thin though long could cut pieces braid it even know im posting here waste time" ]

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[ "im drowning selfloathingim fucking stupid ridiculous literally intelligent thought process goes head given time cant well exams fucking basic even monkey them everyone fucking thinks shit easy dont think makes stupid im god damn stupid im blight upon humanity deserve die hate stupid anyone put misery wish one ever believed keep disappointing people realise im really loser life everyone thinks smart actually biggest fucking piece shit ever sully earth someone please help feel like hyperventilating fucking time think im going die soon" ]

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[ "im gonna kill tonightim done feeling pain world collapsing dreams dying family members dying im debt lost car lost job goodbye world" ]

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[ "re im losing mindthis supposed response post just deleted think freshly posted received responses the post user seem deleted middle typing response anyhow original poster still reddit reading i hope so quick response alone peak hours right people probably asleep its am california right now im best person offer advice since im quite lost depressed state situation exactly i guess nobody really exact situation i too struggle am feel like ive become enemy people say cant let depression define you im struggling see line drawn anyhowsorry cant offer better words encouragement wanted say alone" ]

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[ "went run rained hard shirt soaked white shirt thank god wearing bra even though bright pink embarrassing like check weather going run" ]

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[ "update last post tried talk mom headache soon broached subject igwell try tomorrow lazy check basically hour long mental breakdown prolly undiagnosed bipolar" ]

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[ "days great days want kill myselfive attempted redflag once took roxycodone pills xanax klonopin drank half bottle nyquil half bottle dayquil know im explainingbut yeahnow sometimes day like morningafternoon great night get depressed want kill myself one day ill happy next ill want kill myself happen cant happy always gonna nagging thought fuck up right kill first time" ]

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[ "rented movie without heard or read anything it shame movie intelligent witty hilarious fastpaced realistically ridiculous characters manage get developed without relying heavily clichd tired stereotypes refreshing watch help thinking marketing would helped lob notsomainstream movie starvedforintelligentcomedy mainstream quality dialogue ease actors execute huge range awkwardness heartbreak comedy rare daysi felt actors must really enjoyed participating something rich national treasure number one box office three weeks rowit weak many ways mention guess im happy movies like seeing still made somewhere there" ]

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[ "need advice ive wanted date someone two years started talking now tell feel last years keep mouth shut" ]

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[ "wish people caredim guy im ive cleft lip whole life made depressed ive actually tried kill couple times it enough courage anymore baby sister im scared life could affected death right feel alone nobody life seems care friends want around make depressed parents mock tried commit redflag thinkproblems typical adults understand passing someone hallway school makes shake im nervous anything productive know nobody permanently help feel better ive always thought backhead girlfriend a girl loved was would happy always makes feel extremely guilty everyone tells worry first also doesnt everyone want relationship makes special guess im posting here hopefully nobody say that think thing could help even girl hugged me would make happy long time year ago got hug girl best thing ever joke nobody cares tried times actually know many spent many many months talking girls absolute best patient respectful nice mention depression feel like thats best could do girls even want talk me confidence left embarrassing like said everyone tells im young nothing worry about friends call bitch bit emotional thing done made everyone else happier shutting saying nothing want shut good" ]

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[ "playing much games summer quarantine realised cop ambulance vehicles minutes hearing sirens front building" ]

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[ "get gf supportive lmao ampxb processing img mkazzfkdi" ]

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[ "homelessness like chronic illnessgonna homeless again time expect happen fifth count bunch stuff money storage friends help move did thinking selling ending shit im built paycheck paycheck lifestyle breaking cycle poverty seems impossible wanna leave bed cause going long time till one again" ]

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[ "tips better confidence hello need advice confident less shy really sure else say" ]

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[ "found cockroaches bed one closet get rid them someone actually help im terrified cockroaches im go bed two climbing crack bed do im goingsleep couch bc im genuinely terrified" ]

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[ "theres guy thats dick day long wont say names thats rules usually jojosomething theyre shitty person fuckoffdickhead" ]

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[ "dont want live anymoreim literally friends since years old im pretty sure mild quiet form bpd also pretty sure social anxiety avoidance personality disorder bothim fucking lonely ive always people talk work school ends soon walk door people talk outside work right grandparents mom siblings online friend talked time eventually got tired clingy annoying cut offim lonely physically hurts hate myself cry sleep night wake crying morning dont want anymore" ]

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[ "girl school said ugly eyes idea means regular dark brown eyes anyone tell means someone tells youyou ugly eyes least let know im ugly" ]

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[ "hi guys story wrote english assignment tell think warning story quite dark standards vaguely mentions physical abuse enjoy the solution ampxb opened eyes didnt help couldnt see thing jolt fear ran me gone blind blinked times slowly could see vague shapes around me tried peer ahead fog gloom impeding vision saw appeared barren desolate muddy wasteland rotting trees looming beside me looked could see sun stars moon dark blanket clouds floating menacingly head descend upon crush me felt holding strange stick right hand looked hand realized wasnt holding stick knife sharp dagger precise dripping blood flung ground shock wiped blood hand onto pants frantically looked around me confused got hold weapon", "then second thought saw something ground little fog hand walked closer towards mysterious object yes hand hand whole body small girl lay ground arms legs splayed out couldnt older covered blood eyes wide open still unmoving horror staggered away body turned ran stopped again blood bodies piling top other ran again everywhere went found bodies still unmoving finally stopped dropped knees bodies around me felt like suffocating me knees saw dagger again done this could possible become monster slid ground prayed over suddenly huge thunderstrike sounding like gunshot woke sleep wait dream seemed real thought breathed huge sigh relief then almost took back looked around me remembering true reality situation sat up looking far wall bland dark stained wall looked around me walls looking almost identical felt cramped like walls closing me small dim light hanging ceiling home mind wandered thinking got horrible situation brought head take surroundings far end room could see tiny kitchenette appliances sitting bench gathering dust contrast wall behind almost sparkled dim light dozen knives stuck magnetic wall shining bright full moon glimpsed peeking small ivycovered window looking knives brings sense comfort took back childhood collecting knives hobby id spend hours cleaning them sharpening them arranging them escape outside world knife dream too didnt bring comfort felt uneasy almost scared might done kind fear ive feeling since childhood pushed feet walked unsteadily small alcove bathroom facilities were used sleeve sweatstained black hoodie wipe dust mirror peer mirror see holloweyed disheveled stranger staring vacantly back me", "let become creature staggered shower stripping clothes letting fall onto tiled floor turned water showerhead stuttered spit water out slow first strong flow water hit me stepped back weakened body unprepared sudden impact spray leaned spray temporarily enjoying feeling clean water running hair onto body water splashed onto face remember couldnt breathe greasy palms pressing neck grabbing hair muffled laughter barrier water separating us water continues flow crumple floor head hands flashbacks getting frequent still much done many lives saved innocents needed protection would protector never had needed finish project hair still damp dripped like blood dream shook away impatiently rubbed bloodshot eyes almost finished connected last wires carefully sealed glowing capsule inside airtight lead casing could fulfill purpose could save everyone inevitable pain anguish suffering life brings heaved sigh relief first time months allowed small smile linger haggard face took knife rack strapped side would need hands work first time months eased open door cringed loud creak checked hallway furtively one there dragged burden hallway grimacing unaccustomed weight arrived set creation pressed button done everyone free clutched knife close chest waited doubt lingered late go back become" ]

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[ "im giving self monthsidk wanna die ya want live anymore nothing except tears months things change ill livei think anything changei friends really know wanti want anyone im scared human beings every human good actorfake emotions family miss fine happy later on ok heres im posting what three months im anyway gonna die wanna experience stuffhelp out" ]

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[ "belong worldi never begin withim tired ive actively passively suicidal since years young thinking taking out want end violent disturbing life was growing up want one find me somewhere forests montana lake colorado always wanted move think thats ill find sort peace love nature ive ever loved anything entire life want surrounded die want given back earth put stupid box thrown ground gift come earth would bring last bit peace able give back it im sorry cant shit more" ]

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[ "misfits military school hmmmm sounds funny maybe offensive some characters there arab thief sex crazy teen smart mouth pot smoker forget guy burns things throw strict nonsense sergent homosexual sergent one sexy ammunition teacher makes one crazy film adventurebr br i seen film funny comedy revolved around fact try work together things get donebr br these band misfit students weinberg military school placed because sgt liceman quotes because outcasts embarrassments families communities disgraces one ralph macchios earlier performances karate kid cousin vinny appearances barbara bach well film appeals teens young adultsbr br great soundtrack keeps film moving" ]

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[ "tiredi stupid amount money owed various places owed council due fact flatmate initially failed declare tax exemption court hearing said owed money th sept divorcing parents tearing whole family setup farewell abusive husband father mother me flatmate leaving go live someone else expected happen growing tired living could tell hard find work chosen career depression impedes efforts work times have tired feeling dull constant ache throbbing feels being nearly breaking middle supermarkets unable tell people around feel would gladly cease existenceoh yes mind long wish around deal aftermath mother stepfather friends such aftermath would horrible note would fix anything brothers sisters fill place know feeling death another leaves open wound empty bare could die affect noone would lovely im throwing hands air shouting one last fuck you jumping front oncoming train want go quietly night nothing more" ]

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[ "so look like eboy chromosomes gave curtains shit look like tiktok eboy time get bullied" ]

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[ "phrase describe far a series unfortunate events probably goes world thought worst years ever might bad years" ]

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[ "please helpthere several thesehttpwwwthinkgeekcomproductbtabs hidden inside house keeps night seriously cant take more nobody takes seriously unable locate them longer hear direction coming several" ]

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[ "planned redflag todayi idea anybodys actually going read this know im posting ive tried everything medication help therapy help thought relationship would make happy thought getting dog would make happy thought moving would make happy nothing changed exception brief periods actively wanting die feel like live everything ive done others others done me ive made many mistakes knew could start over would heartbeat cant theres changing ive done think shoulder burden anymore went every option available overdose asphyxiation even shooting myself honestly put thought dinner friday deserve something quick something painless needs hurt deserve hurt happen read this thank you hope better spot right now" ]

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[ "new here need helphi guys sorry im breaking rules but ive thinking redflag alot dont think act could ever do family friends etc im dark place need someone anonymous talk to please help" ]

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[ "soul mateim years old nearing ive praying death year now always felt like never good enough older brother always better everything parents seemed love always felt like dissapointment got uni met girl fell madly love get insanely well would anything her person makes feel like normal person im away feels like theres nothing left me completes makes feel whole boyfriend really nice guy would get really well way treats makes despise him always late everything unorganized past laughable asked go meal old friends ex recently got engaged girl love want go persisted agreed blew friends go him tells her long shift work go something get known weeks understandably angry went home got pjs meal family finished phoned told meal asked was phone comforting her upset angry said would see evening turned turned hours later said would said apologise would take breakfast late too still forgave him also took girl wanted sleep before see girl loves favourite play theatre understandably upset this somehow convinced unreasonableim always one comfort boyfriend whatever wants everything im left nothing ive desire death met girl found felt human since ive comforted boyfriend many times desire death", "never greater reason write now help found felt incredibly sad promised would stay around long needed boyfriend visiting since arrived barely says word feel use finally run out stuck girl described worst year life often referred rock always tried hardest make happy put smile face boyfriend long distance relationship btw tried make situation people made feel awful better made worse often forgets consider hard tried last year her continually mentions boyfriend perfect glandular fever thats hard says looked grim glandular fever saw pictures still looked beautiful glorifies everything feel like im becoming worth less less seem need anymore feel getting closer closer redflag even boss work realised something up know do want end" ]

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[ "leaving people behindi cant talk stuff anywhere may kill get goal weight want live loose skin disgusting want repulsive unlovable covered rashes wrinkles infections want least achieve goal die see need see scale buy gun time worried people upset die love enough want stick around want hurt all sad sure leave note idea plan this feel sad imagine poor niece missing me confused friends mom husband hopecoolokay it just case anyone reads thisno money surgery yes even another country" ]

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[ "tw moroccan sucide hotline number hheyhey name rayna need help please ive feeling pretty weak mentally physically past last months time would try vent family would simply ignore saying its phase growing up simply took away phone thinking letting talk friends eventually try vent them am writing small message laptop sucide slf hrm mental illnesses are sadly really taboo thing country concidered haram since moroccan people closedminded would like moroccan sucide hotline number even tho doubt theres one thanks taking time read im really sorry possible spelling mistakes english first language im still trying improve" ]

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[ "sister reached decision get married guyi say im biim wearing bridal gown sister going go dress shopping together look fabulous bridal gown" ]

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[ "lights new york first alltalking feature film been course jazz singer released oct first feature film incorporating synchronized dialog however film released july virtually unremembered place film history started short gradually tacked clocking minutes accidentally became first alltalking feature film opened grind house run warner bros surprise made million dollars good money back", "br br the plot quite simple two country barbers naively buy barber shop broadway fronts speakeasy the hawk gangster learn truth cant afford get out younger barber eddie mothers money tied place kitty younger barbers girlfriend gangster hawk wheeler oakman eye turning older girlfriend gladys brockwell newer model chorus girl kittyhelene costello cop killed trying stop hawks men unloading shipment bootleg liquor hawk sees opportunity frame eddie thus getting kitty himselfbr br this early talkie loads fun enthusiast pioneering works sure plot elementary dialog stilted something see much early talkies background musical scoring vitaphone originally used purpose still using musical accompaniment along dialog singing dancing numbers scenes hawks nightclub used opportunity show films could never musical numbers even wildeyed emcee heavy makeup left silent era hoot watchbr br vitaphone could go outdoors point due static camera booths scene park two lovers eddie kitty simulated cheaply greenery looks like something ed wood movie perhaps high school production our town br br gladys brockwell hawks castoff girlfriend delivers lines punch real trooper considering lines deliver hawk so think chicken want throw back deck huh mixed metaphors anyone final lines ive lived ive loved ive lost someone get paid write dialog brockwell making good success talkie career scoring triumphs silent films the evil sister seventh heaven fatal car accident cut career shortbr br then eugene palette older two barbers story frog voice natural delivery lines cuddly appearance gave long career character actor usually appearing putupon family manbusinessman gruff exterior heart gold fact mr palette member cast still notable career films three years movie releasedbr br finally question where microphone hidden microphones still stationary point fun figure theyve hidden it one famous scene though everybody pretty much figure out hawk office talking two henchman seem comprehend slowly talk taking eddie ride watch scene swear phone desk character film front center whole conversation microphone likely planted phonebr br there something heroic pioneers flying blind face new technology sound silent actors accustomed using pantomime expression vaudevillians know play live audience know make impression vitaphone camera booth dialog writers either trying write conversation compactly title cards filling films endless chatter br br check one out boring moves fast loads fun know look for no expect one ever bluray hope folks warner brothers add warner archive soon everyone see it" ]

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[ "know might feeling many relate to depression less half life due many different factors things happened throughout lifei used drink alcohol quite frequently even smoke lot weed however quit things completely couple months ago another journey itselfi knew indulging different substances make highdrunk pushed feelings redflag depression aside making disappear forgetting moment came back last couple months completely facing shit unable or say unwilling escape means constantly feeling want cry time little feeling want let floods real got much tension inside know potential would feel much better afterwards time feel empty cannot cry matter hard try feels like emotions somehow trapped deep inside me would need terrible reason able let go pressure instead letting go getting rid it keeps staying is really frustrating want cry cannot" ]

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[ "ive finally realized somethingfirst all ill apologize errors post submitting mobile doubt many people read anyway im sure im apologizing im even bothering put throwaway nevertheless ive battling severe depression anxiety past eight years now selfharm selfhate like job recently admit needed help finally decided medicate myself intensify feelings ive increasingly paralyzing panic attacks self mutilating almost every day since hate feeling like this honestly like remember like genuinely happy thats realized really want earth anymoreyes amazing support system theyre thing keeping here im years old ill graduating college soon ive heart broken truly believe im worth loved hate see every single day look mirror im unpopular even lonely im tired sad time ive missed classes count want get go life thing holding ending knowing badly would hurt others guess ill continue hurt means hurting endim loss guess im really looking answer sort needed let out" ]

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[ "try kill real according cruel ultimatumimeanyeah like heavily depends future look like anyways whether not know follow ultimatum still shit might hit fanyeah guess ill happeni hope course" ]

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[ "every time happier feel sadder feel after hate feeling happy feels foreign" ]

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[ "failed everything matters mei want complete waste life end fucking stupid euthanasia illegal here would give money blow every god damn person company way kill painlessly" ]

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[ "believe it want pull trigger cant deal knowing unknown ahead time fucked lolive reading posts forum past weeks breaks heart time get weird feeling comfort knowing one wants commit redflag planning redflag quite based many different events happened life feel really want go it bought gun new sig mm legion guess want go style also want make sure bullet maximum destruction ive read enough human anatomy base brain know want aim gun practiced putting gun mouth pulling trigger however cant get brain accept real bullet condition able pull trigger think im afraid happens next tell next basically nothingness exist anymore thought seems illogical cant comprehend nonexistence anyone else problems way getting past instinctive need survive thanks readinglistening" ]

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[ "tell friendsthrowaway account reasons met vast majority friends internet kill im sure theyd ever know title says tell im killing let slowly forget me" ]

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[ "hows everyone checkpoint dont forget save" ]

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[ "anyone else ssris feeling like completely blocked creative thinking might coincidence creativity really bad now like cant think things anymoreim prozac btw" ]

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[ "inb no trans feel way could choose gender would get birth would love onewant die gender" ]

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[ "nobody believes ill itive decided give life school relationship girlfriend going shit told ive tried kill thought college thought joking told itd okay went last night told scared losing drifting apart scared felt way girl told thatd wed talk tomorrow stopped talking halfway night still read messages think make day" ]

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[ "internet service provider isp make long story short one access isp know u use incognito mode still keeps ur history must figure access plz cox helps all thank you" ]

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[ "lets sing songs d comments song title replies lyrics please cooperate" ]

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[ "anyone thoughts this get suicide ideation comes mind benzoheroin od" ]

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[ "reasons liveall reasons live people husband son mum sisters best friend none meant walk life them push them weight fact feels like cant breathe" ]

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[ "counts redflag attemptif someone take like mg ibuprofen even knew wouldnt kill knew dangerous body weight would count redflag attempt would like self destructive behaviour self harm" ]

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[ "found ammo box no messing around drugs knives actually kill now best part missed anyone" ]

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[ "redflag planon throwaway account cause cant find post main acc probably time ill post anyway could write whole books worth stuff theres really anytime explain ive set certain intervals time likely end attempting redflag im planning day day im giving years see kind change im pretty sure ill kick bucket cant explain feel life isnt inherently badim good health mentally cant find anything good myself beat constantly one world cares all im saying", "cause refuse open anyone longer expect anything good bad happen go motions dont tell anyone feel hold everything hate appearing weak even though im trying hard man try hard stoic void feelings eats soul none friends give shit me dont know anyone irl know one girl every time tried talk gave advice always hear understand itll get better basically means nothing boyfriend sometimes take kind meaningful interaction someone shes normally phone im blabbering idiot nothing offer wish instead understand someone would would instead try lend hand meet me talk me ask day nope redflag becomes tantalizing world disconnected shit im caught middle one would care left it people never say anything face moment die theyll go oh great guy sycophants post social media look like good person im invisible everyone thats price pay existing really want get better somewhere me light follow really hope doesnt come taking well might" ]

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[ "whole body hurts head feels swollen chronic pain combined panic attacks depression mix probably going loose job help kids bullying making videos comparing head egg jesus christ feel worthless cannot keep" ]

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[ "kinda obvious im hereive dealing bipolar depression years best friend killed around year half ago ive talked mom lot since seeing suffer knowing mom would suffer similarly killed thing preventing it sometimes feel like pressure ironically causes additional duress edit really know im posting here im sitting room alone guess want feel less lonely thoughts bit jumbled turned drugs reddit seeking help" ]

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[ "kyrei eleison ego defeceruntalea iacta est die cast please understand present wish subdued it written letter wanted write little girl decision final she everyone else better without taint regrets adding another failure huge pack sorrow everyone might give damn failing little girl seeing grow up man love babe much reason message ask simple wish thank you thank letting part community this cannot say owe let acta sopa pipa form cencorship prevail keep internet alive free yourselves children future fight bitter end reddit chan gag memebase win cyber war believe all thank youoh small ps favourite movie whos afraid virginia woolf check out roles richard burton elizabeth taylor planted transcend every movie comes today" ]