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I was just doing online Spanish class and I knew all of the questions but the teacher asked me the only one that I didn't know and then then I panicked and somehow lost track of what page we are on I asked for the page number and he told me then I didn't know the answer and I said the wrong answer Fuck | non-suicide |
who is still afraid of the dark? i had this dream when i was like and in that dream, i saw a figure in the corner of my room | non-suicide |
If you pretend you have technical difficulties in online classes because you haven't studied, fuck you Whenever I am in class almost every time someone has technical difficulties its when the teacher asks them a question or we had an exam. Of course in the begging the teachers tolerated it, but now after so many people get so many issues every day they can't differentiate between people faking their issues and actual ones so if you have an actual problem with your machine that day then too bad! You are getting an absence and possibly even a low grade if you had an exam that day and there is nothing you can do about it. I personally have a pretty shitty laptop with bad connection so sometimes the teacher can't understand what I am saying, and two times now has it just refused to work properly during an exam and due to it I can't finish and then I get a low grade because teachers assume I am faling it so I can get out of doing it for the day. So if you fake technical issues just to get out of trouble, fuck you, don't make people who actually have problems suffer because of your mistakes and incompetence, just fucking own up to it when you get asked a question you can't answer instead of pretending your microphone doesn't work. | non-suicide |
some dickhead in my class pretended to have COVID Sent screenshots that he tested positive, constantly said hes worrying for his family. He told a friend of his that he was pranking everyone in dms but it got out. to put it short, not funny didnt laugh | non-suicide |
My day and night is mixed up. I sleep during the day and do random stuff during the night. Anyone else? I'm just alone at night so why not. It's pretty cool. Is there anyone else that has their day and night mixed up or is it just me? | non-suicide |
Wait hold up... You dropped this ur welcome :) | non-suicide |
So if I ate a can of ravioli And it happened to have a snail in the bottom What am I supposed to do about that Like I have to use the bathroom but im scared too Cus like I ate the snail and half its shell I didn't mean to Um | non-suicide |
I opened up to my parentsI opened up to my parents about my feelings and general thoughts on life and made them both cry now I feel like a piece of shit | suicide |
thanos had a good idea but he should have just snapped the horny people out of existence. | non-suicide |
Thinking about dyingI think a lot of the people in my life would be better off if I was dead. I know it would hurt them in the short term but I already do that while I'm alive. In the long term they won't have to deal with me. How I annoy them, and upset them, and generally do things wrong. I'm always wrong. Except right now, I think I'm right about this. About thinking I should be dead. Thanks for listening guys. | suicide |
My life has been so fucked upThrowaway account. I'm a year old male who had been repeatedly sexually abused by men. I am heterosexual & women are absolutely repulsed by me. I have never had a girlfriend, never kissed a woman, Im still a virgin & I am planning on killing myself via drug overdose. Once this stimulus check comes Im buying a bunch of meth, crack & heroin creating a surefire death sentence. I will forever be alone & in terrible pain. No woman will ever be attracted to me. If this method doesnt work when I am numb enough I will slit my wrist with a boxcutter. I am a hideous, unlovable, autistic/schizophrenic & there is absolutely no hope for me to ever live a happy life. God is bullshit, and karma doesn't exist. All the people who hurt me now live happy lives while I contemplate my own demise. So in the next week or so I will be dead & in the void. | suicide |
helpI feel suicidal today, maybe one day everything will be okay but right now it doesnt feel that way, infact it feels the exact opposite, i feel like i wont make it past today. honestly does anyone ven care? int his moment in time it feels as if no one does. yeah sure in the back of my mind i know some people do. butt right now the pain and numbness is clouding my head and i feel like it has to end. I have to end. No one said life was easy but why does mine have to be so hard. I dont care what you think of me. I'm just venting, its what I do, I'm fed up, annoyed, over, plain and simple. im done. would anyone notice? would anyone care? i have what i need so whats stopping me? I dont want anything stopping me. | suicide |
bruh i just got turned on by my on body what the fuck | non-suicide |
I feel like I am doneI must do it becauseI am too lazy for this shitshow called life. I feel exhausted all the time even after doing nothing at all. And by this attitude I am sure I won't be able to reach what I dream for. Even people around me tell me to just do it or stop complaining. Believe me I want it more than anything. God I wish euthanasia was legal in my country so that at least I could die and do one thing in my life peacefully and easily. I am tired being sad and miserable. | suicide |
i am a cowardi can't fucking end it | suicide |
I have a job interview in minutes in conclusion: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I know I'll probably be ok, ***but*** ...idk im really anxious because I feel as though I might stutter or mess up, I don't do well under pressure cuz I have anxiety (and YES before u ask i am diagnosed). not sure if anyone will see this but ill update you once its over | non-suicide |
Final words...Love you all forever! | suicide |
Losing everythingI am alone, and honesty, I dont see the point. During this summer, I found out my dad had cancer. I dropped everything and went to take care of him. When I finally got him back on his feet, I was told to leave. I was abandoned by my own dad. I went weeks homeless cause my parents decided to disown me before college. I'm in college now, and well, its just made things worse. My friends from high school just laugh at me. I cant talk to anyone. No confort, just a constant reminder to the sad things in my life. I posted here because I just give up. I want some reminder that I excisted. But in the end it'll seem to end the way things always end. One last mocker to my insufficent life | suicide |
I don't know what to doThis probably won't make sense but here goes I feel like I've kind of run out of options. I don't have anyone in my life I can talk to about this. Anyone I do know just tells me to "grow up" and stop trying to guilt them, or says I'm just not trying hard enough. Maybe they're right. I don't know. I feel so shitty lately that I really struggle to do anything. Hell I don't even want to eat most of the time. I'm falling behind in my classwork but I can't exactly email my lecturers and say "hey I'm not coming in for a few days because I'm too suicidal to cope with the work" - so of course I spend all day too fucked up and demotivated to do much and I just fall further behind... which makes me feel even worse and the cycle continues. I just feel like a complete an utter failure of a person. I'm struggling to see any point in trying to get through this. I don't even know how. I could go talk to a doctor but it'll be months before I get any help because of waiting times and I honestly don't know if I can last that long. I don't even know where to begin to stop this. I guess I just needed to vent. I dunno. Sorry | suicide |
Wanting to feel human again.Whoever is reading this, I am sure that we both have our story. Meeting, it means that we know tragedy best than others. However this time I hope it is not what we keep on the pedestal, and I hope it is hope itself what leads each other. I'd like to be open for once, instead of falling back into a loop where hurting myself in whichever way that I can find becomes my only relief. I'd like to share the little things again, with someone. Would you take a chance with me? | suicide |
why am i short? im " and pepole call me short. i cant contorl my height Lmao | non-suicide |
both of my accounts are top .. how ahh i swore i wouldnt check coddit | non-suicide |
I will resolve the lions v.s. Pokemon debate with simple math. So, take a lion from the billion and take altaria with earthquake. According to bulbapedia, the max PP of earthquake is , and, well, its an earthquake, so obviously it OHKOs a lion. Now, why is pp relevant? Because we need a way to recover it, or else we only kill lions. How do we solve this? Simple, the ability pickup. Since its just of every pokemon and no npcs(not that there is an npc that sells pp restoring items anyway), the pickup ability is the only way to restore PP, assuming that we cant plant leppa berries. Now, why does the pickup ability restore pp? It just picks up random items, it shouldnt be able to restore pp. well, thats the thing, pickup has a chance of giving you ethers, and you can use elixirs to restore pp. there are pokemon(including evolutions)with the pickup ability, and there is a % chance of pickup activating after every battle, even if a Pokmon wasnt active in the battle. Probability says the ability would proc twice because there is pokemon and a % chance on each, effectively giving a % chance. Whats the chance of getting ether from pickup? %. Well give pokemon their one and only privilege, and this privilege is allowing all of the pokemon with pickup to have their ability activate after a battle has ended, even if they arent in the party, because the party has a limit of . Now, how likely is it that there will be enough ethers to sustain the PP of altarias earthquake? Very likely, because ethers give pp to one move, and it takes one earthquake to finish a battle, and there is around a % chance to get an ether(% for every proc and procs on average), you can get ethers in the amount of battles it takes to use up earthquake enough to use ether in the most effective way possible, or in other words, ethers every time you need to use ether. Feel free to correct me on anything here, some of this data is based off many different games, for example the ether drop rate is based off ruby and sapphire, and the amount of pokemon with the pickup ability is based on sword and shield. | non-suicide |
ya know, alexis I feel bad for your boyfriend... like I wouldnt want to activating the amazon echo during sex | non-suicide |
I don't know what at to doIt's gotten to a point that I don't even expect anyone will see or reply to this. Everything I say is so invisible and doesn't matter. I care for people and I want them to be ok but it always seems to go wrong. I want to die. I feel really unsafe. I have no one to talk to. I'm going to cut as deep as I can | suicide |
I hate my lifeI have always hated my life. I've always hated myself. No one cares about me. People who I should trust, lie to me. I could care less if I died. | suicide |
Yo help a brother out Any ideas on how can i make about $ real quick? NEED IT | non-suicide |
Hey....pssst, come here! Just wanted to say I love you : Have a good day! | non-suicide |
Is there any way to "soften the blow"I've attempted multiple times in the past month, and I know my next one will be it. I feel really bad because I know my family and grandparents will be heartbroken. To be honest my family is not helping, they think I'm doing it for attention, and they are constantly yelling at me. But I still feel guilty for leaving them like this. Is there any way to make it less bad? Thanks. | suicide |
Youre great chris After he said if you dont give me your paper to copy off of, youre gay (note: they use as an insult but they support) and I respond how do I give you half the paper (Im bi) and he looked up at me confused and I said Im half gay And he was said wait... waaaaaait, no and I knew what he meant and I said no, I dont like you that way and then someone called me over to help them, when I get back I found out he told the a kid (I had already) I was half gay, and and then I said, Im half straight to and looks surprised, fast foward a bit he asked are there any guys you like at this school? And I said no Chris responsed are there any girls you like and I said yes After I told him who it was, he asked if I needed advice, cause he had dated her in the past, Overall thanks Chris, you good in my heart, and no, I wont have a crush on you anytime soon | non-suicide |
Give me stuff to draw poorly and I'll draw it even more poorly you're gonna want to lower your expectations for this one | non-suicide |
Australia is the most dangerous continent on the planet nearly everything Animal vegetable and mineral living there can kill you somehow, But it's also the nation of warning labels. In every major city the suburbs and even out in the middle of nowhere There are very detailed signs warning you of a possible hazards even some of the spiders come with warning labels. So at least for the traveler Australia is the land of warning labels like its neighbor Japan is the land of subtitles, And across the Pacific America is the land of .... well I guess ... California has that weird bacon smell no one can explain Once you get North of Santa Barbara.. So I guess we're the land of weird air smells... Or you know roadsides telling you miles to the closest World's largest ball of twine..lol Also .. probably Mcdonalds | non-suicide |
What should I do?All I want is to die. I'm only and that makes me feel even more depressed. I have no friends that I can talk to, and my family won't take me seriously. I used to be a happy person, very out going, I was one of the "cool kids" at school. Then it all changed three years ago and I haven't even had a glimpse of happiness since. January , my dad, who I thought loved and cared about me walked out without even saying goodbye and ran off with my moms best friend. Nobody asked how I was doing. They just thought to themselves oh that sucks and didn't even think to wonder how I felt. We've moved twice since then, to a completely different city and now I don't even have any friends to talk to, I'm just trapped with my own thoughts doing the same thing every day. I would be so happy if I could just die. But I'm too scared, what if it's just an impulse decision. Im too scared to ever actually kill myself, so I'll have to go through my entire life with myself, nobody by my side. What should I do? If anybody has gone through something similar I would appreciate it more than anything if you could offer advice. My only goal is to recover. I won't kill myself, I refuse to waste my one chance at life. | suicide |
I don't know how to ask for helpI really want to die. I'm too much of a pussy to do it, to man up and slit my throat. It would hurt everyone around me ; my parents, my little brother, and my friends. I have a plan to do it. I'd pack some clothes and money to live for a couple days if I need to, a note and my knife. I would just walk away from my house, into the woods below the mountains. I would find a good spot, a nice tree or a little dip in the ground. I'd slit my throat and die holding my note so that foul play won't be suspected. It would be over, for me and everyone I know, unfortunately. I wish people didn't care about me. Their feelings make me uncomfortable. When people cry it makes me sick to my stomach. It hurts. I want to ask for help so badly, but if it causes anyone pain then I can't do it. I don't want people to know these things about me. | suicide |
I'm a failureI'm a failure, I'm , I have no job prospects, no relationships, friends who give shits about me and an abusive family. Ive decided that I think I'm better off dead because my life only gets worse with time, never better | suicide |
I just came out to my parents They said that they are very supportive of the fact that I now identify as a Ford Fusion. *vroom* | non-suicide |
Yeah Boiiii! Its a-time to change my flair! | non-suicide |
HopelessI tried to kill myself yesterday and even after practicing it hasnt worked. Ive been out of work for years while being a full-time caregiver to a family member, so no one will hire me, not even gas stations or nursing homes because there is nothing useful on my empty resume. My college degree is being completed online, which people see as worthless. No car. I have absolutely no hope moving forward and I really just want this life to be over with. I still live at home in my near-mid twenties. Pathetic. Im done with this, but my method to die still wont work. I wish I could just get into a car accident or get past survival instinct. | suicide |
The sound of a sad thumping basketball is so nostalgic I love it idk why, wats nostalgic to u | non-suicide |
I will do it. So help me drink water If I get gold I will literally stream myself drinking water | non-suicide |
Everythings so repetitiveWake up, eat, do nothing all day, go to sleep. Wake up, eat, do nothing all day, go to sleep. The same shit every day it's making me go mad and I just can't bare to live anymore. The anti-depressants I'm on make me somewhat more functional but as a side effect of that it makes me incredibly tired and it does help the suicidality too. In the sense that I don't have as potent spikes of it its more just dispersed and I want to kill myself all the time instead, don't feel much and dissociate a lot. I have no family or friends to speak of and im borderline homeless its getting to much. | suicide |
Felt pretty good...to untie the noose that was hanging from my closet doorknob for the last several days. Only now I wish I hadn't. I'm afraid I will never find peace in this world or even adjacent to it. I am the inedible rind weathering insult for a bland, unsatisfying fruit. | suicide |
I think I have decidedI really can't take my life anymore. I just can't. I got over the feeling of wanting to kill myself, because I really don't want to take my own life. But all that left was utter and complete dark emptiness. Everyday, I fucking wake up. Eat breakfast. Go to work. Drink. Come home to no one. Smoke. Eat dinner. Sleep. The monotony is the only thing keeping me alive, I have something to do. But this feeling has become so intense to the point of psychical pain. I also suffer from IBD which leaves me puking bile for hours a day, it has been a miserable years. Constantly being in physical and emotional pain is to much to bear. The physical being the IBD and the emotional from not being with anyone for quite some time, I am just such an empty shell of a person I cannot attract anything around me. I have tried taking all your advice in the past of trying to do something that makes me happy, but their is nothing. Even my favorite thing, snowboarding, brings almost joy to me. When I am around my family I cannot even fake a smile anymore, I just can't. I feel like such a cockhead because it seems like I just don't care about them. I spendt my drive home tonight semi-drunk seriously considering smashing into the highway barries at the turns. And I mean seriosuly considering it. I cannot bear to think what it would do to my family though. I almost wish I had no family so I could just do it. This world is fucked for people like me, I am in such a dark whole there is no fucking return at this point. No one fucking acknowledges me and I am slowly becoming paranoid and it fucking scares me. | suicide |
Goodnight you wonderful little broskibittyboperonies Or siskibittyboperonies | non-suicide |
should i unadd my friend if hes being really nasty to me basically ive told him i like him and he didnt do anything now he wants to bust his ass for some other girl because shes a catgirl and makes it an effort to let me know im not as good as her he also talks about himself into oblivion. lmk should i stay or should i go | non-suicide |
Alan Jackson is the most attractive country singer of all time Change my mind | non-suicide |
Why are there so many ppl asking for dms? Like bruh if you're bored do like means watch YouTube vids | non-suicide |
How do you move on from someone So every time Im rejected/something else I instantly move on to like another person, but this time I want to move on and focus on myself. I dont know if I want a relationship, and I want to focus on school and sports. I dont ***want to*** like anyone right now, and I think its always like this: Like someone - be awkward around her - think that I might have a chance - ask out - rejected. And I just want to take a break from pursuing people at the moment. I dont think the post was too long but in summary TLDR: I want to focus on myself HOW? | non-suicide |
Lurker w/a positive suggestion for allGood day to all. I wish each of you peace and happiness. BLUF (Bottom Line Up Front): this community is in need of a more thorough online space in which to gather, gain support and share information. A forum based site with many differing topics would be ideal. A single hub to share resources and connect is the concept. Sites such as Reddit and those returned by a search on the topic of suicide would serve as resources while the ability form groups within this proposed site could prove very beneficial in terms of support. In other words, aren't we missing a virtual safe space with centralized resources, organized topics, and the ability to discuss topics in depth? I am hoping there is someone out there willing to build such a site as it is currently a need within the community. Perhaps there is something such as this already? | suicide |
I'm tired of living for othersI don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want the people I love to feel any pain. But it's been going on for so long. Isn't years of suffering enough? Am I not allowed to rest? I am so sick of being trapped in this male body. I just wish I could be me. But the world doesn't want that. So I bend. And I do what the world wants me to do. But I am tired. I might as well have been dead for years. This is not living. What's the point of being alive if I can't live. Maybe if I would have acted sooner. But I'm many years too late. I don't see a future anymore. I just want the suffering to end. Can't I be selfish for once? | suicide |
i was going back n forth w sum girl on snap and was expecting a fast snap back right and i was bored so i started tech decking and its been minutes and Im now realizing that maybe Im not getting the immediate reply I expected | non-suicide |
done so much coke formed a hole u doin xannies u a fuckin fool xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx | non-suicide |
I'm not sure how i can live. i needed a place to express this.I don't want to talk to anyone in real life about this. I need a place to vent. Everything is beginning to seem insurmountable. I'm autistic, and i really don't think i can cope with life. What is just a little difficult for other people is impossible for me. I wasn't able to cope in school, everything was overwhelming and I couldn't organize myself. I'm almost and i still have no qualifications. Getting a job, even a part time job feels terrifying and impossible. I don't see how i'd be able to manage it. I'm really unable to navigate being social. it's tremendously difficult for me to maintain friendships. Last year, two of my closest friends decided that they didn't want to talk to me anymore. They asked me to stop speaking to them. It has affected me really badly, i think it might be my fault, but i'm not sure. i trusted them completely. i've been unable to let it go and have developed a lot of anxiety. I had a terrible time with depression after i left school when i was a teenager. it consumed my whole experience. i think it nearly killed me. It was the worst pain i could ever imagine. I'm beginning to feel like that again. I am still able to go through the motions, but i'm starting to feel hollowed out. Noises and lights hurt my skin. I'm worried about a relapse. I know I wouldn't survive it a second time. i have friends now and i know that they care about me, but i'm not sure i could really explain anything to them. I don't think i want to anymore. I don't see how i could cope with any real pain in my life, being so sensitive to everything. I don't see a future for myself. i don't have any plans, I don't want to do anything. the thought of actually living is terrifying to me. i don't want to be in pain anymore. | suicide |
I seriously need help Guys, I am in severe need of help. Idk what's wrong with me, but I need to talk to someone about it. If anyone hear can call me and just like talk to me for a minute it'd mean alot. I just have to get things offa my chest but those are things I can't really talk to my parents or friends about. --- A minute of your day will mean alot. | non-suicide |
Its hurts please let me dieI'm afraid. This pain is so overwhelming I just want to make it all go away. I'm stuck in this cycle and this hole and the only option is for me to die. | suicide |
To Y'all who are brave enough to put ur faces on the sub u guys r fucin gorgeous, all of u. don listen to shit heads who say otherwise.  And to the ppl who haven't put their faces up, u too. everyone here is beutiphul so cheers | non-suicide |
I tried suicide I didnt succeed but now im even more sad. I hate my parents for hating me, i hate my sister for being a spoilt asshole and most importantIy i hate myself for being useless | non-suicide |
Its so difficultI ought to provide a semblance of context before I express my feelings. Im a year old high school student with a rather rough (but not to extreme levels) background, and the household I have lived in has always been monetarily far below average. I have no siblings and only one parent my grandparents have passed away and my mother is... gone. I dont know if I suffer from depression, and Im not going to say that I have it unless I get an official diagnosis one day. Anyway, I think Ive covered the basics about myself. I suppose I should jump right in. I am extremely... sad. Ever since I turned , I gradually have been losing my ability to be happy. I get frustrated from minor things and feel strongly perturbed by little inconveniences. I feel so lonely most of the time. And I feel horrible about feeling sad. Its like I shouldnt be sad; I am nd of my class, have great friends, and a greatly-loving father. Its just that no matter what, nothing seems to make me happy. I am scared of death, which has swayed me away from suicide before. But with my linear and steady decline in mental health, I really am being convinced I have nothing to live for. I just dont find happiness anymore. Im always really sad. I have to fake my smile % of the time, and I feel so hopeless. I want so badly to be able to speak to a professional, but I dont know how to address the situation to my dad. Im scared. If youve read to here, thank you. I think I went off on a tangent writing this. If I was ever confusing, just let me know and I will try to clear things up. | suicide |
QuestionAnyone know whats the easiest and painless way of commiting suicide? | suicide |
Hmu if you're bored We can talk about whatever but let's try not to be dry alright? Also ill give an award to a random comment here if that helps as an incentive | non-suicide |
I hate my subconscious and the dreams I have The only dreams I ever seem to remember are these incredibly lucid dreams I have about me and girls I like. I wouldn't have a problem with it if it didnt feel so real. Whenever I get one, I'm always wondering if it was real when I wake up. It's awful. The most recent one was last night. The details are a little hazy but I'll do my best to remember. I'm out with my crush and some other friends. I forget what we were doing but it isn't really important. Afterwards, we go to my house and the group disperses. It's just me and my crush waiting for her parents to come get her. She starts telling me about some medical episode she had recently and how it's highly likely she has some condition that causes death. Basically Your Lie in April at this point. She tells me she's scared and that she doesn't know what to do. She moves over to me (we're on a couch by the way) and put her around me and I slump over. At this point, she's basically lying on top of me. She says some stuff I don't remember and I wake up. Apparently I was just hugging myself. They're not usually that sad. Normally they're pretty happy and cool. Just overly realistic. I'm not some loser who's never had a girlfriend before, or doesn't know how to talk to girls. I guess I've just felt really empty really. And with quarantine going on, not being able to see anyone or go to school hasn't helped. Well that's all for now. Stay safe everyone. | non-suicide |
I JUST TURNED TODAY!!!! I'm joining this community today. I'm so glad | non-suicide |
I wanna dieI don't know how much more I can take I really don't. I just want to fcking give up, I had enough. | suicide |
Did anybody get the vaccine? I'm so exited the anybody and up can now get the vaccine it will be around late April to early May for me, anybody who already got it? | non-suicide |
Ricardo has awakened from his -day long sleep aka ban LOL | non-suicide |
I need conversation topics to try to talk to my crush okay, so ive only talked to him a couple of times and its been about an inside joke we have about a gorilla pit, population control that type of thing. I feel like im dragging it out now but I dont know what else to say. I want to be funny but it be like a topic I could mention often, please help. My usual go to is planning world domination together but seems a little early and hard to go for. Were in band together and like politics/have the same political views. So far, Ive tried making fun of a mutual friend and something else idk ill edit this when I remember. I know that him not reciprocating this probably just means he doesnt want to talk to me but I dont care even if its just as friends I need someone to talk to in that class. This is the cringiest thing ive ever done but oh well i guess I need help | non-suicide |
Just want to end it allI honestly just hate living whenever I'm happy something upsets me...... whenever I'm upset I try to be happy again but my dumbass mind and shit is all sorts of fucked when I'm upset. wish it would just all go away all this pain i go through on a daily basis it's hard to hide sometimes. Honestly I just want to die. When TF is my time supposed to come because I hate all this pain I'm feeling. I wish it would go away but it wont no matter who or what anyone says I'm better off dead tbh at least when I'm dead I cant hurt anyone anymore...... I've thought about ending it so many times idk what to do any more. I'm a ugly fucking bitch, have social anxiety, antisocial asf, I'm too afraid to talk to anyone, I failed school times and my life is just fucking cursed since I've been born, I'm a one eared, fucked up eyebrows, ugly ass fucking piece of shit. All I want is to be able to meet my bestfriend and see her everyday it's so hard having a bestfriend and a GF over a phone on Instagram because my phone gets taken every month and my dumbass falls asleep all the time on them and have them worrying they sometimes get upset cuz I ain't there. I just wish I was with them things would be so much easier and maybe all my depression would just go away. Honestly god hates me........ I'm done with all the sad and suffering already I should just kill myself because then I wont have to suffer ever again yes my GF and BFF make me happy but part of me just wants to die because I cant be there with them I'd more than likely never get sad again if I was with them but they're so far away and I cant FUCK MY STUPID CURSED LIFE | suicide |
Good night redditors I need my ugly sleep... see ya in a bit | non-suicide |
Post in /r/BisexualTeens | suicide |
I have suicide thoughts for no reason. What the fuck is happening to me?Hi I don't know what the hell is going on. Today I have woken up becouse of my phone clock. I turn first of them off and went to sleep again. I'm always set few clocks to have % chance of woke up. After clocks I turn every single one off. I don't wanna get up. I wanna just lie in my bed for all day but after few minutes i get up. I feel extremely stressed and bad. I don't have any tests today and anything that could stress me so what the hell? Why am I feeling this way? When i'm in school nothing bad I think that would happen happened but I still feel bad. Even through ppl talk to me, nothing bad happen I feel worse and worse. Then I have suicide thoughts. Realy big. Actually I may do this, there are so big if they haven't ended after some time. They and bad mood ended when I have nice conversation with friend about makeing cover of Sepultura song. I suddenly stop feel bad and feel happy for few minutes. The thoughts ended but after I came back to my house, when I'm alone I feel bad again. What the hell is happening to me? | suicide |
I don't know if the good is worth the bad anymoreSpent a month on interviews to get rejected at the last stage I can't even handle a simple rejection, how am I supposed to make it in the real world I'm so fucking tired of having to prove I know what I'm doing when I don't even know if I do I want out | suicide |
Ive started to notice regular users on this sub that are normally on around this time Im talking about users such as u/DenXOffWhite u/tinkerbell u/Szle u/-_bunni Ill update more as I think of them but I salute yall, I have a terrible memory and you guys shitpost so much that even I was able to remember you | non-suicide |
Only making posts so I can get the rush from the notification soundI'm so deprived of social contact that anything is like a drug. It's still not enough, but at least when I say I'm gonna kill myself I get messages. I really hope my end is soon, as soon as I find a good rope I'll hang myself. Inb: yes I'm in therapy, yes I'm on medicine, no they don't help, no I'm not going to the emergency room, yes I have hobbies, no they don't help either, there are things I "enjoy" but that won't save my life, I don't have friends, there's no opportunity to make friends, I'll probably did friendless. | suicide |
Message to the Ignorant I have seen some posts here saying that 'no matter who you support, you can still stay friends'. And, that is simply not true for the US elections. This can apply to other things such as your music taste, hobbies, etc. but not your political support of Republican or Democrat candidate this year. You cannot possibly support Trump whilst having friends who are part of the LGBTQ+ community, are not Christian (Protestant), are not white, and are not men. By voting for Trump you are voting against them and basically hurting them. I know lots of you might be angry at this, but if you have a friend who is not white, cis, hetero, and protestant, and you voted for Trump, you hurt them. You shouldn't separate this from relationship. Not something as serious as this. Thank you for reading. | non-suicide |
Hey girl are u a magnet? Yes you are, because every human emits magnetic feilds, so technically we.. No wait, where r u going? Please come back, I swear I won't be.. Dammit my facts r so cool girls run away from me to avoid hypothermia. | non-suicide |
I FINALLY DID IT!!!!!! :D After a year of thinking, and months of suffering from gender dysphoria, I finally figured out it!!!!!. IM NON-BINARY AND PROUD!!! :D | non-suicide |
I am not happy at all.I hate my life so much. | suicide |
My lungs are being crumpled like discarded soda cans.I'm tired. School sucks. Generic agreeable statement. | suicide |
As a girl, what can I do about having a wide and masculine-looking jawline? Should I just wear my hair down or something? I don't quite know what to do, supposedly my eyes and lips are feminine-looking but my jawline is very wide and masculine-looking (although even when I posted a vid here with my hair down some asshole still said that I had a weird head shape bc this is Reddit.) Would makeup help too idk | non-suicide |
Online school or Regular school? To everyone stuck in non-online school, do you want to go back online or do you like going to regular school? | non-suicide |
I still miss herSorry for anyone who doesnt care this is the only way I can vent So back in I had my first girlfriend who I caught feelings for really quickly, everything was great for months but on The th of August I made a decision that I would regret I broke up with her because I didnt want to be constantly bothered because this was when I had finally saved up enough money to buy a computer and I was just caught up in it Im so fucking selfish its actually sad I later realised my mistake only for her to reject my apology because she had started talking to someone new. Ever since then I have been nothing but depressed and I still miss her to this day. I graduated last year and still dont have a job, all friends have basically left because of how fucking pathetic I am because I didnt speak to them over the Christmas holidays and think Im a loser. Serves me right for being a scumbag I dont know what to do guys I dont have anyone to talk to or anything, my parents wouldnt understand because I told them how much she was in the wrong and they believe a pathetic self centred loser who hasnt had a girlfriend since I was Im sorry | suicide |
Alright guys... just opened up my PRE calculus book for the first time after receiving it from school today, Gotta say, for a book thats this old and has been used for years it still has the new book smell, but this ones different... it smells more like sweat and tears. It's been severely folded, though I guess those are important parts of the book. And it is surprisingly heavy! it's a pages and it weighs about a kg. Well I guess I'm next to adding more to the smell of sweat and tears! Wish me luck and I hope you fucking succeed on whatever life choices you're making! | non-suicide |
I Went to the dentist. And Im still there. They wont let me out. Help | non-suicide |
I'm going to betray my familyI can't keep going on like this. I don't want to hurt them but I can't live anymore, it's already gone on for too long. I wasn't supposed to make it this far, now because of my choices my health is falling apart anyways so I might die before I even get the courage to end it. Even if I chose right now to live and move forward it would end the same way. My mom is getting worse and worse by the day. I'm pretty sure the day she dies is the day I finally lose it. I don't know what I'll do but it will likely end with me dead on the sidewalk. I am completely fucked. | suicide |
HelpI've always struggled with depression since I was little. Ever since my brother was born my mother has told me how I'm the biggest mistake of her life (her and my dad married because of me). My parents got a divorce over the summer and my mom thinks my dad cheated on her and is blaming it on me. She's tormenting my brother with it too but stopped about weeks ago and is trying to get him to go to her side with it Allan's he comes home crying after spending time with her saying I betrayed her. My grandfather (a second father to me basically) lost his battle to cancer after years, my best friend was in an accident and went into a coma and passed. I ended it with my girlfriend because she knew I was planning something and I didn't want her to see or worry about it. I loved her to death and wanted to marry her but I snapped. I tried killing myself twice afterwards and both failed. I'm probably about to try again. I need help | suicide |
I just want someone that will wear matching flannels, boots and jeans and take cute pictures with me Like that would be awesome | non-suicide |
This is an attempt at karmawhoring Give me awards | non-suicide |
BeeZeeZooZaaZaa , lets overthrow king Mufasa Hello welcome to chilis Lets go shoot some hillbillies ... I wanna suck some dick honestly | non-suicide |
I went to school in person today for the first time in a year! Im a freshman so it was my first time on campus. Thankfully its pretty small so it wasnt very hard to find my classes | non-suicide |
I cant post my rant It keeps being removed even though it abides by the rules, so have the link: [ | non-suicide |
You know what sucks?Knowing if you dont succeed, people will think youre a liar. | suicide |
I can feel my mind losing itselfI keep having flashes of me saying something cruel and humiliating and I don't know why or how to stop it. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, my mind feels like it's constantly on fire i can't have a cleared mind at all I tried meditation for about a week and I couldn't do it it's just not happening, I don't feel at all connected to the present, I have no interest to do anything, I'm losing my ability to form sentences and I can't look in the mirror without getting upset | suicide |
I'm tired of where I live and it makes me not want toIll prolly delete this later after I get self conscious lol The place I live in has gotten really violent. I've been followed home twice and physically attacked in the past months, I have PTSD that's been getting worse because I'm fucking STUCK here, I hear gunshots so often outside of my window, theres always articles about someone getting killed or shot at. th of july was a nightmarish game of "fireworks or bullets"? Learned fast tho I used to always feel unsafe at home and I thought I was past that and here I am again. It's so excruciating staying in the place where this all has happened, like I'm digging into a wound over and over I had a huge wave of panic wash over me recently because I heard quick footsteps behind me, but it was just a little kid running. I'm moving in like weeks after months and months of waiting to a beautiful place in a safe neighborhood and I think I'll be okay because there HAS to be an end to this right? but I just am so overwhelmed and tired and sad and so angry, I'm having trouble with my friendships and they are all dissipating. I'm seeing a therapist and theres intensive therapy I can go to to supplement it but it has to happen after I move. Most of the people I talk to just dont get it or blow it off as dramatic so I just keep closing myself off and pushing everyone away, even the one who care and makes me feel safe and protected. I never feel safe. I feel like a burden and I like I'm rotting from the inside out because I keep saying "I'll be okay" or "you don't have to worry about me!" or cracking jokes or distracting myself and i really don't know if I will be. Im so tired of running away from my feelings but I also don't want to feel anything. I feel so alone and tired. I honestly just want to die | suicide |
You ever have a real good idea for a post and then delete it? ^and ^then ^post ^sorry ^shit ^like ^this? | non-suicide |
I hate my life I just want the pain to stop and sleep foreverI just want it to end. No one except my family cares about me anyway. If I still had my sleeping pills I would take all of them right here and now so I could overdose and sleep forever. A lot has happened this year and a lot is wrong with me, check my other post if you want which explains it. | suicide |
.I didn't want to do this because for months online I had death threats and hate and people saying I'm looking for attention and sympathy all this time I was looking for support and love and some closure people never believe me I had bpd and abandonment issues and I was always loud and annoying and stupid I push people away on top of bpd I have depression and schizophrenia and ocd and bipolar I heard voices every day telling me give up and kill myself I never sleep I stay up for days and even have nightmares i have attempt suicide times and self harm using razor blade when I use self harm with fork I have abused family my dad is always at work and never care about me my brother abused me and call me names my mom is dead people made fun of her passing saying she deserves to die I was bully in middle school and high school nobody was my friend nobody sat with me or even play with me at playground I was outcast I had been my whole life I have no social life or friends my exes ruined my life one of my exes rape me in all of them was asshoes I gave up on everything and everybody I don't trust anybody I knew my life was living nightmare Im worthless and mistake and failure and waste of space I'm going say this straight forward I regret every suicide attempt I did and always fail people say life gets better its doesn't its lie people want me drop dead I don't believe what people say nobody can stop me this is my choice I choose this path I want better life the after life is better for me I shouldn't never be born I wish I never born I'm mentally sick bitch with no life always go Im going end my life all together people are fed up they all want me drop dead and see me do it already I don't blame them sorry for everything I was never looking for sympathy and attention I never want hurt anybody sorry for everything once again bye cruel sick world everybody is fake and liar and evil I dont want any part of this sick world again I'm done I had enough I'm tried I'm drained I'm overwhelmed I'm done suicide is the right answer I'm out bye everybody | suicide |
what's the point of living if u don't enjoy any of itif ur lonely, depressed and broke all the time. there's no reason to keep going. i don't know what to do with my life. im running out of cash and i can't get on welfare. there's no way to escape this | suicide |
If u guys want a quick sketch of yourself feel free to dm me and Ill draw u! Ya like the title says I like drawing people and I also just wanna make people happy. If u wanna see my previous work u can look at my profile. :) | non-suicide |
Hello redditHello reddit, i've been a Lurker for a long time now, you guys made me laugh when times were rough, made me cringe at People, you guys shows me cute animals and even helped me choose my major. But i Just cant do this anymore, im sorry. Goodbye everyone this my Last Day here. | suicide |
Do I tell my therapist I want to kill myselfI already told her about my suicide ideation but promised not to do anything. However in two weeks I can kill myself by hanging. I am set to do it but there is an annoying voice telling me that its selfish and I need more help. But she will tell my parents as I am under the age and I dont want to cause a fuss. I think it probably would be better if I just do it and go. | suicide |