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To live in China is never an easy thing... living abroad is never easy. sometimes you have to find strengh to keep moving , keep fighting for your dreams and goals.And when you cant find reasons to fight anymore you must find help outside you.That was when I learnt to depend on friends i made here. People that i could look deep in their eyes and say anything and i knew they would have ears to hear me and use their hearts to say what i needed to hear.The worst part of leaving in China is when one of those support pillars have to go away.One living in China cannot only have chinese friends , first because their culture is so different , second because they cant deal with tears nor with you showing your emotions , no matter if you are happy or sad , your chinese friend cant deal with you hugging them, or crying infront of them. Tears and laughter are part of growing up and facing your demons, so during this 6 years i have found safe places to be myself, and im greatful for each of those friends that were able to share a hug or a meal when i needed the most.The realitly here is that people never stay too long. China is not an easy place to live, and most people stay for one year or two and than they have to find another place to live their dreams.I will never get used to this.I will never get used to see someone you trust and feel safe around going away.. But i will always admire them for fighting .. fighting to find their way.. their dreams .. to find that thing that drives them to move in life...that is the only thing that comforts me... to know that they are going to find something better.. something that will make them a better person .. even more ....I also learnt that true love never fades away.. and those that have touched my life at some point of my journey in china have never left my life...they have left china, or moved to another city , but they are still in my life.. touching me almost daily with their love...for them i dedicate this post.. and i will finish with Augusto Cury's words.. to encourage those that are far away.. love you all.... miss u all.... Augusto CuryMade friends, faced defeat, overcame obstacles, knocked at lifes door and told her : im not afraid to live you Although we are not perfect, we must see that we are like unique pearls in lifes theatre and understand that there arent sucessful or unsucessful people. There are only people that fight for their dreams or those that give up of their dreams.Great ideas come from the observation of the small details.Wise is the person that has courage to go infront of his souls mirror to face his own mistakes and falures, and use those to plant the most beautiful seeds on his inteligence land.The past is a window .Happy
are those that can look through this window and observe the past and keep walking towards the future.Most people today have no dream, neither good ones, nor bad ones. They have nothing to fight for.You must concour what money can not buy, otherwise you will be poor, even though you are a rich man.It is on the most simple and anonimous things that we can find the biggest treasures.Those that can change their dreams into reality learn how to be leaders of their own lifes so they can later lead the world that is around them.
There is a song in portuguese that says something like this:" everday she uses the same way to do things, wake me up at 6am, give me a smile, and kisses me with a mint flavour on her lips..." the song is about a relantionship and the guy is saying how boring and predictable that relantionship is , everyday is the same.. and it seems that he cant decide if he likes it or not.... So why am i talking about this? shouldnt i be talking about my amazing Holiday and how i spent the Spring festival in Ningbo with my friends? SURE and that is where i want to take you...stay with me .. After 6 years in China it is hard to find new things to be surprised with, it is hard to be excited over a dish, or a new song , or even a new word that i just learnt... After 6 years in China it seems that my love affair with China has became like that song... everyday is the same... I have many new friends in Ningbo and for some of them this was their first Chinese New Year, their very first Spring Festival... and they were surprised by the fireworks but it was not long before they realized how boring it is to expend a holiday in China.Why???Cause they do always the same things... exactly the same way.. and with the same people...The tradition says that you should go home and celebrate the new season with your family , so they all go home, as a result train stations, airports, bus stations, are packed with people trying to get home. They only get 7 days of vacation , and the whole nation is on vacation , at the same time!!! So .. no restaurants, no markets, nothing is really open this days. Ningbo is quite nice and we have malls here, and to follow the western tradition malls never close! not even in China.But if it happens that you are in a city that doenst have a mall.. poor you.. the only thing you will be doing is watching tv at home.By the way .. that is how a chinese family celebrates the spring festival. they all eat dumplings and wait until 7pm when the national tv starts showing the new year show.Every year at the same time, with the same songs, and artists, and same jokes....By 4pm they start the fireworks , and every hour after that more fireworks.. until midnight when every home prepares their on set of colorful fireworks and the show goes on for almost half an hour... and wont stop until next day in the afternoon.. So if you are lucky to be invited for dinner that night , you will for sure eat jiaozi, and drink baijiu, than watch tv with the family and if you resist until 12, you will help them with the fireworks.. after that you will try to sleep, but you wont be able,.. cause every now and then you will be waken by some
more fireworks...And that was what i did this year... went to a friends house.. had a nice meal, watched tv .. went out at 11 to see the fireworks....Fun right?!Paula you are so negative! Dont you like China?!I do..I m just saying how predictable we are , how bounded to our traditions and old ways... how hard it is for us to try a different route?!We all do that dont we? every day!For the past few months i have been struggling with some of this stuff...specially the fact that Chinese always do things on a certain way and never change..never think out of the box, never gives a chance to the new.. Than i stop to analize myself.. my own culture and habits... we do that too, dont we?!Here we can say it is much more evident , and i guess because this is a country that didnt begin yesterday and maybe the longer you have been around the stronger are your traditions and culture.Not that i want my chinese friends to change , or that it would be better if they had a new tv show next year.. but it would be good at least to see some of that old traditions coming back.. like those things you can see at the country side. Anyway .. the spring festival should be a celebration for the new season, the winter is over... a promisse of life is ahead of us.. warmer days, sun light.. life is coming back... lets celebrate that...maybe wake him up with a kiss but with chocolate flavour next time!Let the Spring come.. with new hopes and dreams.. happy NEW YEAR...
Finally we can see the Sun again.....dont say it too loud! it might go away again... It is getting warmer and we can finally say the spring is coming.But dont get too excited ! Soon i will be complaining how HOT it is !!!Or how crowed it is... or how dirty it is... I know , i know.. my posts are not very positive lately, i appologize...i guess the fact that im getting ready to go home for a short holiday that put all things in a different perspective, a more negative one im afraid.But there is not much i can do .. in fact things in China are not so romantic as people think. The system here is far from being the one MAO idealized for this country. The progress is coming but with it destruction and pollution.Talking about that...This week i went on a day trip to YIWU , a city nearby , to visit a factory and get some suppliers for a client in brazil. ( that is my side job now). Well I thought.. a day out! I will have a chance to enjoy a little of the road and see some green ,the countryside, i will be able to see the mountains and maybe even enjoy the sun that is shinning again.And indeed.. I got on the bus , and here i was feeling the sun heat, looking at the mountains... rivers.. and trash.. plastic bags... garbage...debris.. and more plastic bags.. and trees... were are the trees?? and what is going on with that river ? where is the water? i can only see plastic floating!!Im not exagerating....It was a 3 hours ride, and all i could see was poluted rivers , filled with plastic bags floating or trapped on the marginal trees. The mountains are so devasted that you can barely see trees... most of them are being used as farm land, so now after so many months of winter you can only see the destruction the man is causing to the mountain.. Maybe it was like this last summer when i last passed by this road, but maybe the green from the plantation fooled my eyes, and what i thought was nature was in fact man destroying the mountains and forest to grow crops.The winter exposes it all. There were no mountains between Ningbo and Yiwu that werent touched by man, there were no rivers with clean water, and no field without some kind of debri.So last week's post makes more sense now to me. It is not only on the cities but the countryside is also being attacked by this constant progress. So my question is PROGRESS OR DESTRUCTION??Dont need to be an expert on the topic to know the answer. I was so sad to see all that.. and the reality made me so discouraged.The reality is that the country is growing and needs to provide food for all this people. They need the factories to produce so they will have what to sell to the rest of the world. And we are
all buying chinese products , we all need them.So in the end.. we are all part of this ... Sad..But on the other hand... no.. we are not responsable when a chinese farmer decides to throw his trash on the river. No we are not responsable when the factory polutes the river nearby, NO we are not responsable for this lack of social conscience , for this lack of education... and NO we are not resposable for the fact that they are not thinking about the future.My second question is .. what are they going to do when they finish destroying their country? I dont want to know the answer...
things about living abroad is that you get to experience life through another culture, and see things through different eyes. China follows the Lunar calendar to celebrate its holidays and that includes the New Year. Every year western countries wait for the 1st of january , but chinese count the moons to know when the new Year will come with Spring.For brazilians that never have to face real winter this doesnt make any sense, but for a country like China that has to face severe weather every year , and temperatures bellow zero for months , the sound of Spring is a beautiful song that they cant wait to hear.So this week is the last week of the Year of the Rabbit and on sunday , under the new moon, spring will officially start in China, and the Year of the Dragon will begin. Families will eat jiaozi together , and drink chinese wine. At midnight the whole country will watch the amazing fireworks and for almost a week chinese will be visiting each other and sharing meals together.It might not have the Christian feeling of Christmas , but after so many years in China I can say i do like to see my chinese friends getting ready for this time of the year. They all go back home to see their families, all buy new clothes and clean up their houses waiting for the new season . A few weeks ago while we were celebrating Christmas i was really tired of being in China and sad i could not go home for Christmas this year, so i started this project to talk about chinese food.It was a way i found to find things i still enjoy about China. I can tell this project really helped.For the past few days i have been eating out a lot and this food hunting helped me to realize that there are so many things about China that i still dont know or, still haven't tried . And as i promissed this was going to be a post about noodles, so i did try many different kinds of noodles this week and that proved that i still know nothing about chinese food and culture. There are so many kinds of noodles that i think one can spend a year trying different noodles everyday !And more they are all super good....there are fried noodles, long noodles, knife noodles, streched noodles, dropped noodles, dry noodles, soup noodles, instant noodles, cold noodles, rice noodles, potato flour noodles, sweet potato flour noodles, muslum noodles, flat noodles, spice noodles, thin noodles, tick noodles, ... noodles with vegetables, beef, pork, eggs and tomato, ... i guess you got the pictures , right?! noodles with beef... yummy!My internet connection is really bad this week, so i haven't been able to upload some of the pictures i took, i will try again next time.. I will talk more about food in the future.. but for now i will go back to my light diet..Let me get ready for the Holidays and i will be
Everytime i think about Hongkong i think of a place where i can go shopping and get all the things i miss from home.. maybe almost all things...Last week when i went down to Hongkong once more to get my visa sort out, so i had a chance to spend 3 days at Caseway Bay, five minutes from Times Square , paradise for shoppers...I didnt buy much, maybe a few discount outlet tops, swiss chocolate( cant resist) ...i did a lot of walking, and that gave me plenty of time to think and observe.Hongkong is one of my favourite places for a quick holiday. Beautiful people, good food, and everything is just 5 minutes away from you. Yeah Yeah, it is croweded, you spend a lot of money, and most of the time you are underground, or inside a building. But im saying holiday... not living...Someone invited me to move to HK when i was there.. come he said.. "i can get u a teaching job here.. " but i dont think this will be my next address. Although i love to go to HK for short trips, i would have a hard time not having GREEN around me.. it is true that u can find real nice hide aways , private beaches. But it would drive me crazy to open my window everyday and see hundreds of skycrapers one on the top of the other.Hongkong has the charm of New York, the constant progress of Sao Paulo, and the sophistacation of London. But also gets to be croweded , busy and foggy.. just like Sao Paulo...haha or London, or New York...My goal for this next 2 years is to travel more, around Asia , and other places i always dreamed of going.. why??Cause i want to find my next address.... a place i will call HOME sweet HOME.Shouldnt it be Brazil?? I dont think so.. that is where my heart is and always will be.. but if you know me a little , you know that Paula loves to learn and to be challenged, i have faced many challenges in China, learning new languages, making new friends, and most of all learning about myself.China is responsible for bringing the best and the worst of me, and has helped me to face my fears. In China I have learnt to fight for my dreams. And everytime i go to Hongkong i come back with a better understanding of my daily life in China. This time in Hongkong i felt so part of the place.. i knew my way around, i could communicate with everyone, i went to some of my favourite shops and the vendors recognized me... And that is how i feel about China. It has been my home for 6 years, long years...But i guess it is time to settle down. To find my place in the world.My address.My home sweet home.When i first came to China i fell in love with the culture and people. I guess as in every relationship there are moments you have to make decisions
, this will not be easy, but the truth is .. im not in love anymore...respect, admire, have fun with...but not in love anymore...There is a time for everything.. time to embrace time to let it go, time build time to destroy...time to live time to die... time to love and time to hate... i guess it is time to find a new love...
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A vida sempre tera lutas e dificuldades...mas nunca desista,voce sera recompensado em breve...SOMENTE CONFIE !Mas nao esqueca somente confiar sem agir de nada adiantara...sejamos inteligentes para agir com a razao e jamais com a emocao. chat bbb ao vivo - Pesquisa Google chat bbb ao vivo - Pesquisa Google chat bbb ao vivo - Pesquisa Google Google Google Minha conta chat bbb ao vivo - Pesquisa Google verbbb11 chat group - BBB11 e aqui ~ http://chatbbb.blogspot.com/ Google E talvez eu so seja mais uma apaixonada, talvez nada disso faca sentido e provavelmente, e bom demais pra ser verdade... Fico me perguntando se um dia eu vou conseguir confiar na minha capacidade de fazer alguem feliz. Nao acredito em mim, como iria acreditar nisso? Nao sei ser boa o suficiente para ninguem... e quando acho que vou conseguir ser, algo vem e destroi isso. Entao eu simplesmente, parei de acreditar... Infelizmente, nao consigo parar de sentir. Mas nao acredito que eu va, um dia, ser o suficiente para alguem. Nao acredito que alguem, uma dia va querer viver seus dias ao meu lado, nao sou digna disso.Confesso, sempre acho que enquanto eu penso na pessoa, ela esta do outro lado rindo da minha cara por ser tao babaca. Sim, eu sou assim. Nao sei acreditar que alguem pode realmente gostar de mim, simplesmente pelo fato de que, nem eu mesma consigo gostar de mim, como alguem poderia? (...)Como ela nao recuou e nem me parou, lentamente fui descendo minha mao de seus labios e encaixando-as em sua nuca... Suavemente ela se contorceu um pouco e fechou os olhos, como se pedisse por aquilo, como se quisesse tanto quanto eu... Fui me aproximando aos poucos e quando parecia que nossas bocas tornariam se uma so, parei, sorri e disse: "Agora eu quero saber seu nome!". Nos duas caimos na gargalhada... e ela ja sem folego de tanto rir, disse baixinho, "Ashley, meu nome... e Ashley! E obrigada por me desconcertar inteira!".. Eu ri alto e automaticamente coloquei minhas maos sobre minha boca, sempre achei minha risada horrivel, ela riu e disse que achou meigo, que eu deveria rir assim sempre... Estavamos ali a nao mais do que 40 minutos e parecia que eu a conhecia ha anos... agia com uma naturalidade com ela que eu nao tinha com mais ninguem... Sempre fui timida e nao conseguia me misturar muito.Quando os risos se acabaram, olhamos uma para a outra, ambas com meio sorriso e foi ali, que eu percebi que era para aqueles olhos que eu queria olhar pelo resto da minha vida... Nao precisei de mais do que 5 minutos para saber, mas cada segundo ao lado dela, comprovavam minha teoria... Novamente, fui me aproximando lentamente e de repente uma brisa muito forte passou por nos e ela se recuou de frio... A aproximacao lenta se tornou a jato, pulei para sua frente e a enlacei em meus bracos, passei suas maos por debaixo de minha camisa e a cobri com meu corpo... Ela me abracou e calmamente encostou sua cabeca em meu colo..
E eu sentia que, se eu morresse ali, naquele exato instante, eu morreria como a garota mais feliz do mundo. Ela olhou para mim e, como sempre, com um sorriso no rosto, agradeceu. Eu suavemente coloquei minha mao sobre sua boca para silencia-la e a puxei para mais perto... E ali ficamos, abracadas... A brisa ja havia passado, o frio ja tinha passado, mas continuamos abracadas... Me afastei um pouco, pouquissimo na verdade, so o suficiente para conseguir levar minha mao ate seu rosto, coloquei minha mao em seu queixo e a fiz olhar para mim, assim como ela havia feito comigo... e com uma mao em sua nuca e a outra em sua cintura, voltei a me aproximar, olhei-a nos olhos e fui me aproximando, parei por alguns instantes para olha-la, so mais alguns segundos... Calmamente continuei a aproximacao ate que, nossos labios, finalmente se encontraram... Dizem que quando se beija o amor de sua vida, voce escuta fogos de artificio e sente como se flutuasse... Mas nao, quando nossos labios finalmente se encontraram, todos os sons se silenciaram, toda a luz se apagou e eu senti uma calma pairando em meu ser... Uma sensacao de que nada mais existia, so nos e aquele momento... E a beijando eu fui percorrendo minhas maos por seu corpo, contornando suas lindas curvas e nao podia mais imaginar-me sem ela ali. Amor a primeira vista? Amor apos primeiro beijo? Nao sei ao certo o que foi, so sei que foi...(...)
O que era tudo aquilo queeu sentia? Um misto de vontade de morrer, com vontade de gritar, de agarra-la,de sorrir, de cantar, cantarolar, chorar... NAO SEI, So sei que era! Enfim, aliestavamos nos duas, ela olhando para mim fixamente com aqueles seus lindosolhos cheios de lagrimas e suas maos acariciando as minhas e eu tentando naodemonstrar reacao nenhuma, devido ao fracasso da minha ultima declaradademonstracao de afeto. Ela ainda olhando pra mim, abriu a boca e comecou afalar: Nao tenho como explicar o que aconteceu ontem, fui tomada por motivos que nemeu sei ao certo quais sao, peco-lhe desculpas, sai correndo quando, na verdade,eu queria abraca-la para sempre... Nao te conheco, nao sei absolutamente nadasobre voce, mas ainda assim, olho para voce e vejo toda uma vida em seuolhar... Eu nao sabia se eu chorava ou se eu ria de felicidade, estava ela dizendo mesmoaquilo que eu estava ouvindo? Sera que eu estou entendendo direito? Sera que...SERA QUE NADA... CALA A BOCA LISA, para de pensar e escuta! E la estava elaainda falando, perdi algumas partes porque meu pensamento estava gritando, maslogo voltei a mim...Olha, fala alguma coisa? Por favor... Nao sei o que pode ou nao sair disso eeu espero de verdade que eu nao tenha estragado tudo, espero nao ter jogado nolixo a chance de olhar para esse sorriso lindo todos os dias, de abraca-latodos os dias... FALA COMIGO!Eu estava em choque, nao me mexia, nao falava, POR MAIS QUE EU QUISESSE, naoconseguia fazer nada, estava ali, parada, olhando para ela com aquela minhacara de besta apaixonada quando, depois de uns 2 minutos, ELA ME BATEU! E aindagritou comigo: DA PRA FALAR ALGUMA COISA? Fiquei inconformada... Olhei para elaassustada e ela sorriu... Ate esqueci que ela havia me batido depois daquelesorriso. Mas, devido as atuais circunstancias, eu preferi tentar falar algoantes que eu levasse uma porrada em publico, o que seria desnecessario... Meiogaguejando, comecei a falar:A-A-Ashhhley... Foi HORRIVEL! Nao dava pra saber se aquilo era o nome dela ou se eu estava comdor de barriga. Mas, mesmo assim continuei...Ontem foi o melhor e o pior dia da minha vida, conhecer voce, mesmo que pouco,foi a melhor coisa que ja me aconteceu e quando lhe disse aquelas coisas, nofundo eu sabia que se assustaria, eu na sua situacao provavelmente faria omesmo, mas voce ir embora daquele jeito, so me fez pensar que eu haviaestragado tudo, que eu havia perdido a chance de conquista-la e de transformartodos aqueles pensamentos instantaneos que eu tive ao te ver, realidade. Choreia noite toda e ja nao sabia mais o que fazer, aonde ir, fiquei aqui parada porum bom tempo olhando pro nada na esperanca de que eu piscasse e vocereaparecesse em minha frente... Ela meinterrompeu e disse Eu sei, me desculpa, eu sei que fiz merda, sei que naodevia ter te deixado plantada aqui... Mas eu voltei, voltei para te encontrar,voltei para ME encontrar, voltei por saber que eu nunca vi tanta sinceridade emalguem em tao pouco tempo, nao sabia que era possivel sentir isso tao instantaneamentee a verdade e que eu senti medo, medo