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DESENHOSSIMBOLOSESPORTESDROGASBANDEIRASTRISTES c d g j p q u v x v c g i l q r s v x y v g Q Y g j l y b c d g h i k L m n p q S t u v w x y v A g i j q S T x y l o y a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s u v w x y v C J N R S U V W V a e j m O a c g j l p q v x v a c e g i j k l n p q u w x y c g j k q s x y a q v w x y v Daryl wassitting on a tree stump making an arrow when Nadia appeared in front of himholding a plate with some pieces of cake. He pretended not to notice her, butshe sat on the ground near him anyway.Ive madethis snack for us. Its made of orange, she said, taking a piece and startingto eat it.Why do youlock horns with taking care of me?, he asked in a rough way.She smiled.Becauseyou take care of me.I takecare of everyone. And there are other guys taking care of everyone too.Theyreall married or the like. Take a piece. Its good!Nothungry.Theyexchanged a look for the first time ever. He noticed she wasnt happy as usual,especially after she glimpsed some dead squirrels hanging from his chopperhandlebars. What the hell, he thought, and wished none of that was happening.I heardyou dont eat meat, he spoke with his teeth closed.You heardit right. I was born like this, she answered smiling again.Also heardyoure from Brazil.I am. Camehere to learn English. I was going back by the end of this year, when snowstarts to fall...Dont likesnow?Im justnot used to it. Last winter, my first here, I promised myself Id follow themigratory birds! Guess my plans will have to change a little bit now... You know?I wanted to travel. Europe, South Africa, India, Australia... I had it allscheduled. All my life I stayed away from men because of that.He lookedat her as if his eyes were saying Now I definetely dont want this virgin maryin my way.I mean,its hard to go around the world if you have someone special waiting for you.Daryl stillseemed to be very unfriendly. If someone got really determined to enter hisworld, it would take a lifetime of front and backwards moves. Nadia, however,wasnt determined at all. She took another piece of cake.Well,there was a dog. There is, I dont know. Kiwi, because he looked like one. Hepreferred my neighbor for barbecue reasons! I just couldnt stand the rejectionand went as far as possible!Her rewardfor that little joke, she thought, was a second exchange of look. You had nofamily?No oneclose.A coupleof guys in here have no family either.Nadiadidnt want to annoy him. She didnt want to annoy anybody. She swallowed the lastbit of cake in her mouth and said in a
very kind tone of voice:I knowwhat you mean. Just let me tell you something: I feel happy to be here talkingto you. I wish you felt the same, but if you dont, just ask me to go. Illunderstand.Go.Ok.She stoodup slowly, slapped the dust off her shorts and tooka few steps away from him. Her mind was very active, so she was alreadythinking about what she could do next to fulfill her day when he called out hername.What?, she asked turning around. She stood still for some endlessDaryls seconds until he finally reached out his hand to take the plate and gogive it to her from a safe distance. Here. Now dont come back.He cares about me a lot, she thought, but she didnt smile because itwould hurt him.She disappeared among the trees and he started making arrows again, alot of them, very quickly. Then he went hunting. His pain was his only companyand it returned with him even worse that night.He had a very good excuse to go to the camp, though: a deer he wouldntbe able to eat not because it was too much. That goddamned witch!, he said tohimself.He looked everywhere but couldnt find her. He sat for a while with theothers but couldnt rest. It was unbearable to see some of them preparing themeat. Maybe he was too tired, maybe he was too weak, but some flashes of thatpeople eating the deer with their bare teeth made him want to shoot everybodythen shoot his own head.Have you seen Nadia today? She doesnt eat it but she could help us topreserve it, he heard somebody asking and got real mad.Dont say bullshit! And I havent seen her since early this afternoon,Daryl answered very threateningly. The girl goes missing and you only noticeit when you need her?I saw her with a shovel and some boards a couple of hours ago. Sheseemed to be making a coffin.A coffin?! And you didnt find it strange?!Well, look around. Everybody is dying...Just tell me where you saw her!By the swamp...Daryl strangled him just in his mind because he had to hurry to find outwhat was going on. There was only one possible thing, he presumed: she dug agrave, put a coffin inside it, buried herself and no one could hear the shotbecause of the dirt. Wait a minute! Are you dumb? How would she put the dirtback in the hole?Yet he saw her place of death. The pain almost killed him, but he hadenough strength to dig it open and pull out the coffin lid to see her calmlylaid down! He wanted to hug her and to punch her and to kiss her and to killher! Nadia unhurriedly got out of her hideout, while listening to him shoutingat her.Are you crazy? What do you think youre doing? Everybodys giving theirbest to survive and you just give up?! What were you trying to do? Suffocate inhere?!Please lower your voice.Please low...Listen to me.They were both sitting on the dirt, their feet barely touching thecoffin bottom, side by side.One: did you forget the things I said yesterday about
living instead ofsurviving when that kid was going to be slaughtered? Two: just imagine! Nothingcan come from this side because of the swamp. Itd be very unlikely to reach mefrom that side because of those cliffs. Also, there are lots of trees all overthe place. And if you had paid a little attention to my shelter, youd haveseen an air duct ending on that tree, so that its almost impossible to knowwhere I am. Well, at least its what I was convinced of. I was testing thething. But I was quite sure I was safe, you know? Im just a little upsetbecause Ill have to do it again. In fact, Im not upset at all, for it wasyou...My turn.Ok.Do you wanna know what you are to me? Do you... I dont care if you do! Idont care if I dont wanna talk about it! I dont know what the hell you have in your voice that Im addicted toit. Youre like a cigarette, or a stronger drug! I listen to you, I feel finefor a while. I dont listen to you for some time, I have to find you. I staywith you for too long, its overdose. I think youre dead, everything else isover.Daryl...Dont say anything! Forget what I just said! Im hallucinating! Letsget out of here! Come to the RV with me if you wanna feel safe enough to sleep.I can fix this for you tomorrow.He stood up very quickly, grabbing her arm and trying to pull her fromthat place, but he let her loose too soon, she slipped on the soft soil andfell into the shelter, injuring her knees. He jumped like an arrow into thehideout to help her get into her feet again, but she couldnt. Then he justlifted her so that she could sit on the soil again all that without saying aword and in seconds!I think Ill be able to walk in some minutes...We cant wait.Youre definetely not going to put me on your shoulders. I dont wantto worry anybody. They ask a lot of questions, you know?Leave it up to me!And he carried her out of the woods in his arms.Daryl, maybe I can walk now.Youre not heavy. Keep eating berries. How old are you?Twenty-three. Why?Just wanted to know you were not under eighteen. You look pretty...young.They entered the camp and some of the others stood up in aprehension,quickly asking what happened. Daryl had it all set:We just got married!, he replied as sharply as usual, leaving them inastonishment. Nadia laughed a little and let him accomplish his mission with acomfortable silence.They got in the RV to find out the only bed had already been taken.Either they would share a mat or...Lie down here. Ill stay awake and stand guard.This reminds me of a song..., she whispered, sitting on the mat.What?She signaled him to come closer. He left his crossbow on the table andsat beside her.Te fiz comida, velei teu sono... Fui teu amigo, te levei comigo e mediz: pra mim o que e que ficou?, she sang in his ears. Its about someoneconfused in a
complicated world.Me?All of us.They stared at each other for a long time. Nadia was just singing in hismind, but Daryl was very confused, for he had grown up with no mammas arms tohold him, no daddys smiles at all. Why in the hell do I want her to hold me?To smile at me and sing again? Shes turning me into a pussy! If I just went...Do you want me to sing you another song? It would make you sleep.Youre so strong, but its good to rest now and then. Come on, stretch out yourback in here.He wanted to resist, he really wanted, but he was so tired, and hervoice... It seemed to command his eyes till they closed, and his body until itdid exactly as she said. Then Nadia started to sing another song, lying downnext to him. He listened to the first verse as if he could understand it, as ifhe knew there was hope all over it. Then she sang another verse, getting realclose to him, her mouth almost touching his neck:Todos os dias antes de dormir, lembro e esqueco como foi o dia...Sempre em frente! Nao temos tempo a perder...What is this one about?, he mumbled, not wanting to be rudeinterrupting her, but to try to stay awake forever.Time. Theres a lot of time, but theres no time to lose.You can continue if you want to...She hugged him and finished the song. A long silence followed until hejust held her hand and asked:Teach me how to love.Of course, Daryl, of course...And they just slept like that, sharing warmth and certainty.But it didnt last to become reality. When Nadia woke up, he wasntthere anymore, and he spent the whole day away, trying to forget she existed.He almost did it, if it wasnt for a herd invading the camp in the middle ofthe night. The fire brought him back, and the fire allowed him to see survivorsescaping in cars, leaving two mortals behind. He went for Nadia and didnt seethe other girl disappearing in the woods. Then they rushed to find theircampmates, which didnt take long.They found one, two, three of the vehicles and Daryls chopper was justlike a needle sewing all of them together and leading those desperate souls to asafer place. He was good like that. He even wanted to go try to find somemissing people, but each one of the remainder had death stories to tell. Also,when he saw the area wasnt that secure, he helped everyone get a better car,the last drop of fuel he could find and the few useful things that were left toscavenge. Unfortunately, not enough to make it to somewhere free from danger.Just the middle of a road surrounded by nothing.When they stopped, hungry, scared, cold, grieving, all those negativefeelings turned into a chaotic argument whose main consequence was thedisclosure of a very inconvenient truth: everybody was infected.Except Nadia!, the guy said pointing at her as if she was guilty. Thenext second, all of them looked at her, then at themselves and at the guy whosaid that and they all started asking questions
to make sure it was real. Howmany times had they listened to some undeniable info such as we must love ourchildren, we must stay away from guns, we must build a sustainable world?They had never really listened. They were going to hear another one, though. Avery painful one. Actually, a new fact for most of them.Its because she doesnt eat meat, Daryl mumbled. Maybe her blood isour hope to find a cure.They couldnt help but stare at her. Everybody thought she was just auseless sixteen-year-old burden who hasnt really caused any real trouble yet. Now, hearing that was as if Daryl had hit them with an arrow in theirheads, and no one was able to digest such a strong idea. So, everybody justchanged subject. They had to organize a new camp and guard shifts. They had tothink about what to do in the morning. They had to dream about a differentworld. A world full of Nadias instead of unconscious meat eaters...When the first part was settled, Nadia sat right next to Daryl, who feltvery uncomfortable, although all of them were also very close to each other,looking for safety. She nestled her head against his chest and shivered withcold, so he instinctively passed his arm around her to try to warm her up alittle, feeling even more awkward, but at least he thought he knew why he hadbeen keeping his distance from her.Where are the clothes we found?, he asked someone.In the first car.Cmon, lets find something for you in there, he said, standing up.She followed him directly, but overheard one of the women saying Idont know what the hell is going on between those two. Her first impulse wasto get back and tell them everything, but then she thought it would be rude,and she hadnt quite decided yet what to do when Daryl told her to hurry.He opened the trunk then a heavy bag, telling her to choose somethingfast. She noticed he wasnt worried about an attack.Daryl, when you said you wanted me to teach you how to...I was out of my mind! Cant you see it now?!Now? Now what? Now that we need each other more than ever? Cos I need...You need to stay away from me! From every man!You mean...I mean youre not infected and you have to remain like this! Do youthink is it just the meat?! Ive been thinking...Yeah, I see your point now. I feel I have no other option than to tellyou a little story.Go ahead then.Look, Ive lost my mother when I was 11. I used to be a sweet child,but after that I became a brat. You know? A total spoiled little monster.You? Hard to believe.Until something happened at my 13th birthday party.Something that changed me completely again. I had this cousin... He was a littlebit older than me and I hated him well, I actually hated everybody at thattime. He stayed for the night and I think he decided to take revenge from all Ihad done to him... by raping me.Wha...?You know, were a very sensual people in Brazil. We start our sexuallives
early and free of guilt.I dont unders...Look, although I was open to have sex with some guys, I hated him,remember? And he forced me regardless. I almost couldnt breathe because hecovered my mouth, so I passed away after feeling a lot of pain.Daryls face hardened and it was impossible for him to keep on lookingat her. She touched his arm very fondly, what just made him try to come off. Put this on before you freeze.Thanks. I wonder if we can find some pants.He helped her in that darkness until they found the same pair of jeanstogether. Nadia thought she had already given him the time he needed to beready to listen more and she finished her story before entering the car tochange his shorts.I went back being sweet because of that, you know? I spent a lot oftime silent, thinking, then I realised I should had seen it coming. I deservedit.How can you say that?!We all deserve what we get. I read lots of books, watched tons of movies,listened to some good bands and I decided to change. I dont know what I did todeserve losing my parents yeah, my father died last year, but maybe it wasthe only way to bring me here. Maybe this is where we can work things outinstead of being extinct. Anyway, I told you my secret because I dont want youto think this is like HIV, I mean, I think sex is a natural thing and I didntget infected with it. I want you... to be... someone... very close to me, now. Butyou can take your time and feel free to tell me you dont want me.You talk to me as if I was a little girl! Im not a fucking idiot! Isaid we got married, didnt I?! And I cant infect you! You said you want me,didnt you?! Do you think Im a pussy?!In spite of all that verbiage, he wasnt able to do anything but walkingback and forth! She expected he would when she pissed him off on purpose, justto see if anger could motivate him since love couldnt.I think you must get rid of your prejudices, was her thought while hefinally managed to use his manhood as an excuse to hold her strongly and kissher lips wildly. He wouldnt admit he had imagined that moment some timesbefore, but he told her she was his last hope. Humanitys last hope, in fact.Now Im going to protect you 24/7. Nothing is gonna happen to youbecause you dont deserve it and Ill be the one to make sure the world treatsyou right. I feel like were close to a solution. We can find somewhere safe.Are you really 23?She grinned at him, her eyes sparkling, and nodded.'Then let's get in the car', he suggested, all hands on her, smiling with the corner of his mouth.
Musica que a Cachorro Grande fez pra mim (sem saber):"Ela vem subindo a ruaEla vem imaginando uma solucaoEla anda no mundo da luaEla anda na sua solidaoSonhos perdidos no tempoPara onde o vento ira soprarEla quer entender o momentoTalvez seja a hora de repensarNao ha mais porque nao acreditarNao ha mal nenhum em se deixar levar"Escuta a musica! Listen to the song!"In HerLoneliness"A songCachorro Grande composed for me (not knowing):"Shecomes walking up the streetShe isimagining a solutionShe walksdaydreamingShe walksin her lonelinessDreams lostall alongWhere willthe wind blowShe wantsto understand her momentMaybe it'stime to rethinkThere is noreason why not to believe anymoreThere is no harm in lettingherself be carried away" O universo como nos o conhecemos e, ao mesmo tempo, tao gracioso e tao... PRIMITIVO! E serio: vejam a justica, por exemplo. Ela e medieval, assim como a igreja. (Impossivel evitar o paralelo!) Assim e como eu vejo essas duas instituicoes nos dias de hoje:Elas lidam com os "erros" da mesma maneira. A igreja faz os pecadores pagarem uma penitencia e pronto: la vao eles prontinhos pra pecar de novo! E a justica? Tragam os criminosos! Vamos puni-los! Ao recuperarem a "liberdade", estao louquinhos pra fazer umas maldadezinhas!Quando e que esse sistema monstruoso todo vai mudar e comecar a ajudar as pessoas que erram ao inves de violenta-las e engana-las? Para que elas sejam realmente "consertadas" e deixem de ser ameacadoras? Hum... Trabalho voluntario com as criancas?E essa e a hora em que os criticos de plantao me perguntam: "E se fosse contigo? Se alguem te fizesse mal? Tu nao ia querer justica? Bla, bla bla?" Primeiro: escolhi um caminho que me deixa longe de quem queira me fazer mal. Segundo: tentem entender que todos somos um. Terceiro: usem um pouquinho de QI pra perceber a incoerencia dessas instituicoes pra la de ultrapassadas, erradas, podres, preconceituosas, viciadas, etc., etc., etc.!"Diz-se que nao ha pecado em matar uma besta. Apenas em matar um homem. Mas onde um comeca e o outro termina?" (Originalmente publicado em junho de 2011.)Justice?The universe as we know it is at the same time so gracious and so ... PRIMITIVE! Seriously: look at justice, for example. It is medieval, as well as the church. (Impossible to avoid parallel!) This is how I see these two institutions today:They deal with "errors " the same way. The church makes the sinners pay a penance and it's done: there they all go ready to sin again! What about justice? Bring the criminals! Let's punish them! As they get their "freedom" back, they are eager to perform some little evil things!When will this whole monstrous system change and start helping the people who make mistakes rather than raping and deceiving them? So that they are truly "fixed" and stop being a threat? Hmm .. Volunteer work with children?And this is the time when always-on-the-look critics ask me: "What if it were you? If someone hurt you? Wouldn't you want justice? Bla, bla bla?" First: I chose a path that gets me away from those who want to hurt me. Secondly: try to understand that we
are one. Thirdly: use a bit of IQ to realize the incoherence of these institutions indeed very much outdated, wrong, rotten, full of prejudice, biased, etc., etc., etc.!"It is said there is no sin in killing a Beast. Only in killing a man. But where does one begin, and the other end?" (Originally published in June 2011.)
Daryl estava sentado num toco de arvore fazendo uma flechaquando Nadia apareceu na frente dele segurando um prato com alguns pedacos debolo. Ele fingiu nao perceber, mas ela se sentou no chao perto dele de qualquermaneira. Eu fiz esse lanche para nos. E de laranja. ela disse,pegando um pedaco e comecando a come-lo. Por que tu teima que nem uma mula em cuidar de mim? eleperguntou de forma aspera.Ela sorriu. Porque tu cuida de mim. Eu cuido de todo mundo. E tem outros caras que tomam contade todo mundo tambem. Eles sao todos casados ou coisa assim. Pega um pedaco.Ta bom! Nao to com fome.Eles trocaram um olhar pela primeira vez. Ele notou que elanao estava feliz como de costume, principalmente depois que ela vislumbroualguns esquilos mortos pendurados no guidom da sua moto. Que merda e essa pensou ele, e desejou que nada disso estivesse acontecendo. Ouvi por ai que tu nao come carne ele falou com osdentes fechados. Ouviu certo. Nasci assim ela respondeu sorrindonovamente. Tambem ouvi dizer que tu e do Brasil. Sou. Vim aqui para aprender ingles. Eu ia voltar ate ofinal desse ano, quando a neve comecar a cair... Nao gosta de neve? So nao sou acostumada. No inverno passado, meu primeiroaqui, prometi a mim mesma que seguiria as aves migratorias! Acho que meusplanos vao ter que mudar um pouco agora ... Sabe? Eu queria viajar. Europa,Africa do Sul, India, Australia ... Eu tinha tudo programado. Toda a minha vidaeu fiquei longe dos homens por causa disso. Ele olhou para ela como se seus olhos dissessem: Agora eudefinitivamente nao quero essa virgem maria no meu caminho. Quer dizer, e dificil dar a volta ao mundo, se a gente temalguem especial esperando por nos. Daryl ainda parecia ser muito hostil. Se alguem estivesserealmente determinado a entrar em seu mundo, levaria uma vida inteira deavancos e retrocessos. Nadia, no entanto, nao estava nem um pouco determinada.Ela pegou um pedaco de bolo. Bom, tinha um cachorro. Tem, nao sei. Kiwi, porque eleparecia um. Ele preferia meu vizinho por razoes de churrasco! Eu simplesmentenao pude suportar a rejeicao e fui tao longe quanto possivel! Sua recompensa para aquela piadinha, ela pensou, foi umasegunda troca de olhares. Tu nao tinha familia? Ninguem proximo. Uns caras por aqui tambem nao tem familia. Nadia nao queria irrita-lo. Ela nao queria irritar ninguem.Engoliu o ultimo pedaco de bolo que tinha na boca e disse num tom de voz muitoamavel: Eu sei o que tu quer dizer. So me deixa dizer uma coisa:eu me sinto feliz por estar aqui falando contigo. Queria que tu sentisse omesmo, mas se tu nao sente, e so me pedir pra ir embora. Eu vou entender. Vai. Ta.Ela se levantou devagar, bateu o po da bermuda e deu algunspassos para longe dele. Sua mente era muito ativa, entao ela ja estava pensandosobre o que poderia fazer em seguida para preencher o dia, quando ele gritouseu nome. O que? ela perguntou se virando. Ela ficou parada poralguns segundos interminaveis de Daryl, ate que ele finalmente alcancou a maopara pegar a prato e foi