| A soul is something we have every now and then. Nobody has one all the time or forever. Day after day, year after year, can go by without one. Only sometimes in rapture or in the fears of childhood it nests a little longer. Only sometimes in the wonderment that we are old. It rarely assists us during tiresome tasks, such as moving furniture, carrying suitcases, or traveling on foot in shoes too tight. When we're filling out questionnaires or chopping meat it's usually given time off. Out of our thousand conversations it participates in one, and even that isn't a given, for it prefers silence. When the body starts to ache and ache it quietly steals from its post. It's choosy: not happy to see us in crowds, sickened by our struggle for any old advantage and the drone of business dealings. It doesn't see joy and sorrow as two different feelings. It is with us only in their union. We can count on it when we're not sure of anything and curious about everything. Of all material objects it likes grandfather clocks and mirrors, which work diligently even when no one is looking. It doesn't state where it comes from or when it will vanish again, but clearly it awaits such questions. Evidently, just as we need it, it can also use us for something. |