Goodbye 2020
By: Alice G
Tags: Time, 2020, Change, Goodbye, New Year

Goodbye 2020

Photo by Anne Nygård on Unsplash

Goodbye 2020

Another year went by. I can’t even think about it.

2021 looked so far away and now is here. Is knocking at our door.

January 2020 was a weird month for us all.

The world found out about covid-19 in the middle of the month, and no one knew how to deal with it, how serious it was, and how could have happened.

The streets started to be empty. No one was going out anymore, but at the same time, because we didn’t know how serious the situation was, people kept living their life as normal. And so did I.

I was working during that time, and I remember being scared of going out and taking the tube or any kind of public transport. I was still trying to figure out how to live alone when the news about the lockdown entered our houses.

I didn’t know what to do.

Then the news of the first lockdown arrived, and I was terrified.

I went back home, and I spent those four months of lockdown with my family. I left London, and I didn’t know when I would have come back. I was scared to start my life there all over again, but I had to.

I wanted to go back to London.

Only when I went back home I realized how worried the situation was.

April, May and June felt like a whole year. Three never-ending months. I did a lot of thinking, like everyone else I guess.

My first thought was “do I really want to go back to London?”

I wanted. But was it the right time?

I came back here, and the city didn’t look like how I left it.

The biggest city in Europe was empty. A ghost city.

I struggled a lot to find a job. Funny. The first job I had in London I remember I found it in three days. But this time It took me a month.

I’m very lucky that I found it though.

Most of the people lost theirs.

I started working again. August and September were weird. I worked but not full-time. So I didn’t know if I would have been able to get through the month. I had savings, of course, but this city is too expensive.

Then my full-time contract arrived, and things started working. At least until October.

31st of October, Halloween. Boris Johnson announced another lockdown.

My first thought? “will I get the furlough?”

Luckily I did, and I was able to spend the lockdown here in London.

If I have to be honest, I liked November lockdown. I turned 22, I had fun with my flatmates, and we tried to look at the situation as best as we could.

Went back to work on the 2nd of December, and now I’m here, again, in lockdown with no end date. We don’t know when this will finish. So I’m trying to live these days as best as I can, resting and enjoying my time at home.

This current lockdown allowed me to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas day with my friends. We cooked, we ate, and we had fun.

Because of lockdown, we got closer, and we had the opportunity to get to know each other even better.

What we like, what we don’t like. I even got my heartbroken. That’s the power of London. You never know what’s around the corner until you take the turn.

What did I learn during this year?

During this year I feel like I grew up a lot. Mentally.

I see things in different ways. I don’t take things for granted anymore.

I wake up every morning and I’m grateful that I have a healthy family, even if they’re not here with me.

I learned that it’s important to put yourself aside for a moment and help people around you.

I learned that it’s dangerous to overthink and that I need to live in the moment.

I learned that if you love someone, or you care for someone, you have to let them know if you don’t want regrets.

I learned how to be less selfish.

I learned that people don’t want to listen to my problem every day, because they have their own.

What I still have to learn?

I want to learn how not to overthink and live the moment.

I want to learn how to speak about my feelings.

I want to learn that is fine not to know what you’re doing.

That my problems are nothing compared to the size of the universe we’re living in.

“Never stop learning, because life never stops teaching” - Unknown

What is my wish for 2021

I wish myself a year full of joy and fulfilment.

I wish myself to find my real purpose, my goal. I wish to find what I really what to do in life.

I hope I find someone to share my day with.

Someone to share my experience, and someone to love.

I wish to find a job that I really like and makes me satisfied at the end of the day.

I wish to come back home to someone I love and care about.

I wish to hang out more and to not overthink too much.

I wish I will act and take more risks.

I wish to say I love more often to my family, to my friends.

I wish that this year will be better, not only for me but for everyone.

I wish everyone happiness and joy.

Stay safe and enjoy this last bit of 2020 that’s left.