I Yearn to Be Quarantined Again
By: Mansi Shah
Tags: Quarantine Diaries, Self-awareness, Journaling, Self Exploration, Mental Health

I Yearn to Be Quarantined Again

Life is too short and wild, enjoy it and breath it all in, and seek adventure every step of the way Mansi Shah Jul 1, 2020·5 min read

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When things happen it does for a reason, I couldn’t agree more being complying the situations around. For many reasons I have appreciated the company of myself, simply because I believe that it is so much you learn from simply observing the life from within. Been quarantined helped me realise so many things, for instance, the path to living life is simply from within. The anger, happiness and processing and creating through your filtered senses. The lessons I learnt from being quarantined was more of self-observation, which most of us would agree on.

Communication

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Some of us lived in isolation, while some with families while some with strangers. That being said I think we take this word for granted. At least I did, for a long time and I still face the same. The people you surround yourself with is important, but overall its how you stay and act around everyone, which includes yourself. You cannot expect to act or react in isolation. Understand that relations are different than being human. All this time I didn’t think it was important for speaking and listening without judgements, which is to yourself and the people around. Know that there are many voices, speaking to you inside out, know them, observe them, and not make sense of anything all the time, especially with your mind, because as humans we are emotionally attached, to everything, then why do we seek for logical answers? and not, emotional intelligence?

Happiness

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This word is associated with a lot of ideas and is confused with a lot of things. I say it is the state you want to be in not something you seek out? here and now, because that is what you have correlated to thinking and believing. You don’t have to do or be, or dress, or act, to be Happy. Having dealt with anger and depression in the past, it took me a lot of time to understand simply this, you don’t have to expect, assume, question, or even think about being happy, its the state you choose to be in. The emotions you experience during situations, come out not because you are angry it is what caused it. This is where communication comes in place. As we grow, we suppress ourselves and assume that you don’t have to communicate about the problems, frustrations, and situations you are simply taught/believed to face it because hey its life. Being fully aware of your anger, sadness and taking the time, to observe yourself and reason it out by speaking about it out loud, would make such a better place. Being with myself and the people I was surrounded gave me a sense that we all are emotional beings and have beliefs having these patterns drawn looking back and connecting the dots result in expectations and not seeing reality the way it is.

Spaces

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It need not be physical, spaces need not be places. I categorise space along, physical, emotional, sensory caused by colour, textures, patterns, smells, conversations, pictures etc. The space you want to be surrounded by could be drawn in many ways. Don’t contain yourself into a bubble because that is all your will ever know and become and believe. The information you seek today because of technology and the conversations you have with others and yourself, has an immense impact, in what will be. If you filter out you would experience life fully staying curious and not having the time to think but experience everything you do, is a very powerful state to be in.

Exploration

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Staying curious, if I could elaborate this a little more. The best example I would put down is children, they are not polluted with beliefs, expectations, rules, education. They are curious and see it as it is given to them, without making any sense of it. I find them so fascinating because that is how exciting life is. Let that curiosity not be taken away. That being said I believe strongly when you make decisions or think and observe the world from a child’s mind, it is so full of imagination and dreams. Then why is it that when we evolve we grow out of it? I still remember glimpses of my child’s mind of how I saw the world. It was nothing but full of life, colours, imaginations and emotions, and didn’t care about pretty much anything, seeing the grass being green and thinking to myself if I could paint it blue, are the simple things in life I seek.

Last But Least

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Be the child that never grew up, life is too short and wild, enjoy it and breath it all in, and seek adventure every step of the way. It will always be the experiences and stories to pass along, and nothing else of our lives lived.