Nothing And Everything Is Wrong With You — Being Who You Are Is Like Being A Simple Raindrop (A Water Molecule)
By: Rebecca L. Auch
Tags: Self Development, Life Lessons, Acceptance, Creativity, Beyourself

How you see yourself is a relative flexible vision too. Imagine your thoughts are electrons, they circle around you, the center and nucleus of every atom, the basic and smallest chemical unit in. In the center, there are protons (positively charged particles) and neutrons (neutron like neutral). Electrons are charged negatively and make sure the nucleus and atom altogether remains stable.

So, sometimes, when there is something from outside touching us, it confuses us and we try to remain stable, our thoughts circling around and the very nucleus of us, our mind and heart, it is touched too. I like this comparison because we have our thoughts and sometimes we need to separate from them in order to remain balanced or regain our stability and independence of the external life.

Of course the composition and life of the very atom is much more complex and if you look more closely, it may make no sense to think of this related to us and our view. What I want to say is:

The decision whether everything, something or nothing is wrong with you, it lies in your hands.

The truth about this does, and if you are free to choose, you don’t give permission to anyone else, except for the ones closest to you, to give you feedback and tell you what you do right or wrong.

The very simple conclusion is: Be who you want to be, who you feel good to be and just be you, with all your sides and shades, with all your “flaws” and wishes, dreams and ideas.

Who Told You That What You Do And Feel Was Wrong?

Why would you want to be anyone else but you? Why would you be anyone else when you don’t feel good being that way? Why would you want to feel bad about being yourself as well? Then you could just feel bad all the time. But how about feeling good about yourself? How about becoming aware of all that’s in you, all that completes the unique composition of the element (person) that you are?

Humans are made of 70% of water, and 30% of macromolecules (bigger molecules) like proteins, sugar, genetic material, and other smaller molecules and chemical stuff. Water consists of different chemical molecules and so do we, water is flexible and adaptive, water is the way it is and it has a catalyst feature, making reactions between other chemical particles possible.

Honestly, every chemical element is the way it is. They do change for one another, if you can say this (when they react). And every one of us is the way we are, we are ourselves and sometimes it is more unclear and complicated than being an oxygen pairing with two hydrogen molecules. Yeah, it’s not easy, but it is still very simple.

Who told you that what you do or feel was wrong? Get to them and ask them about it. In my case, I would have to go talk to myself, haha. Honestly, we can be the biggest and most critical audience of ourselves — we judge ourselves and we decide when we did it good and when we messed it up. We correct ourselves, we evaluate how we are and we constantly think and think, we feel and we try to connect — but do we also try to connect to ourselves? Do we open up and bridge the gap between our ideals and realities? Do we separate judgement and clear explanation/reason?

Not a single ounce of your value depends on how you are socially active, on how successful or productive you are. You are not a thing made for other people’s entertainment, emotional healing or empty talks. Your worth isn’t dependent on how big or small the numbers are, those may have summed up during your life (2 years of dating, 5 years in this job, 3 months of yoga practice, 2 pages of journaling every week, 20 years old, etc).

They do define you in a way, but they are also just labels, categories and numbers — they have nothing to do with the emotional and mental health and well-being. You can feel anyway, and nothing and nobody in this world can tell you how to feel, how to be right and how flawless you were.

You are the one knowing yourself the best, the one responsible for yourself and your well-being. So if you know, I actually like this and I actually don’t understand so I ask twice — then do it, just be yourself without labeling, without questioning how much time and action you need until it feels right for you.

I have gotten to this topic through my own confusion and “struggling”. I had received a deeply heartwarming letter, confirming that I don’t have to be afraid to open up and follow my intuition. Yet, a few days later, I felt again faced with these questions: Is what I am doing enough? Is who I am being enough? Can I justify my actions and decisions? Do I have to do more in order to be seen the way I feel?

Make Yourself Happier and Make Life Easier

Are you happy with yourself? If your answer is yes, then keep up your work, your flow and routine of being yourself. Embrace yourself and for one day, do what you feel and what your intuition shows you, without labeling, expecting and evaluating. No rating is allowed. After all, how do you rate a water molecule? It is simply itself and that is the “right” way, and right means, it aligns with its roots, reasons and all that makes it up. If you answer is no, then change something: first your perspective, then yourself, and then the world around you. Even when we try to change the world, sometimes we are just trying to change ourselves. Try to understand what deeply illuminates and empowers you.

Think of a raindrop. It is water. It can be fast or slow, it can be wet and it can be bigger and even more wet, drench your clothing and getting you a cold if you don’t take proper care. Talk about wet fish, yes, this is a very simple observation, but would you think of it? Of course fish is wet, because it is surrounded by water, and water is wet. But what does this mean? It means fish isn’t dry, raindrops aren’t dry, water isn’t dry.

Overseeing the most obvious facts, we get confused. We get shaken by all kinds of ideas, doubts, fears. And we forget about our promises (“I promise to myself I’ll take better care next time and listen to myself more”), our decisions and some reasons that have driven us to that decision. We give in because we are afraid of what may happen next, maybe we can’t make it? Maybe we’ll learn it’s all even worse? Yes, but if you don’t give yourself a chance, you’ll never know if you can do more than you currently believe. And the set of beliefs we have at this certain moment, it’ll be old in a few days, weeks, months, years.

You Are A Living Being Hence You Are Living — Experiencing, Collecting Knowledge, Storing Memories, Being Whoever You Think You Are

You are beautiful when you smile. You are beautiful when you cry. You are beautiful when you are you. You are beautiful when you are human. I guess it is our very own problem if we create problems and barriers, as if we hadn’t enough of them already. With a little bit of humor and self-reflection, it goes easier and you’ll realize that if you had looked at it from the outside, the solution and necessary steps to be taken were right in front of you, all the time. So why overcomplicate it? Why overanalyze it? Be creative and engage entirely, feel the energy and passion flowing in you.

One of our talents it to see things not as they are and then making them what we think they are. Water flows when it flows. Two sides crash when they do. And having space and energy for the things that are meant for you only, that’s when you’ll be flowing like water too. Be you and if you don’t know who you are, find it out.

Be everything and nothing, and find your own middle in between or beyond the scale, outside of the box.

Who is it that you believe you are? What are the things making you feel good when you are who you believe you are? What things are not the way you want them to be and why? Can you be a raindrop, a water molecule as catalyst and find something that is your energetic interconnection in life?