A Love Note From my Soul to my Ego
By: Lou Pastor
Tags: Spiritual Growth, Love, Love Yourself, Consciousness, Spirituality

Photo Credit: Adrianna Calvo

I know that all you’ve ever wanted are love and monetary abundance for a sense of stability, but you need to understand that the universe is sending you unquantifiable, unconscious pain towards your most vulnerable chakras as a signal to change your mentality. The universe does love you. We’re being guided to a better life. It’s true that we cannot yet see what our new existence will be like, but we must have faith in the process. We’re the lucky ones, my friend. This happening at such a young age means we could live in the light for longer than many other people who must watch their physical bodies literally disintegrate before acknowledging that their societal status means nothing in the bigger picture. Your horrible underlying beliefs are suffocating your confidence and inner beauty, though. For example, I hear you say things like, “there’s no way that girl would ever like me” or “I’ll never receive love or monetary abundance without a college degree”. It’s as if you’ve thought these ideas into existence. Life is like a beautiful woman, and this spiritual awakening process is like her smiling at us and holding out her hand. If you regain control over our body and slap her gentle hand away (like you’ve done with other human girls before) because you’re so uncontrollably afraid of defeat, then that’d be the coup-de-grace of your foolishness. I can see that your traumatic childhood has prompted you into becoming a great actor who’s chosen the role of an anxious, depressed guy who gives off negative vibes. And even when girls do show interest in you, you have tended to push them away, sometimes even when you really do like them. Go ahead and think about the handfuls of girls we’ve pushed out of our life over the years.The sad part about this is that you’re actually so physically gorgeous, but your self-absorbed, hateful nature sends ugly vibes into the atmosphere, and other people can sense those bad vibes. It’s understandable because your parents bombarded you with truly horrible pain throughout your entire childhood. Your parents should be ashamed of themselves, but I need you to break out of this cycle of negative thought patterns. All that happens is you reconfirm your underlying beliefs by not getting what you want, and you deal with both physical and emotional pain as a result. The universe isn’t punishing you; the universe is actually trying to help show you the illogical pain you inflict upon yourself. You’re actually very lucky. The universe will give you everything you want, but you must first overcome your horrible underlying beliefs. If you become the version of yourself that you were meant to be, love and acceptance will find you in time. Every ounce of our consciousness will be loved — even the negative tendencies that so many people would shield off from others. Your higher vibration will prompt the universe into shuffling the pieces around and setting you up with a girl who really connects with you at a spiritual level. It really will happen if you let it. Imagine how you would feel if you tore down the belief stating “no one will ever love you”, that your mother cruelly hammered into your fragile mind at a very young age. Imagine how you would feel if you didn’t believe that you needed a college degree in order to attain monetary abundance, and that monetary abundance is the only ticket to true love. You’re already so pretty and when you genuinely smile it’s beautiful. You will get everything you want. There’s no need to dim your own brightness with disempowering beliefs. This spiritual process, The Dark Night of The Soul, is a gift. You’re one of the few. One of our spiritual teachers calls it a “winning lottery ticket”, and to cash it in, you must mentally adapt to the pain you’ve been given. Trust the universe and your own actions and thoughts. Everything happens perfectly for you, whether it’s “good” or “bad”. You will attract your true passion and money. You will. “You’re safe and you’re set”, as our friend told us repeatedly. You’ve been chosen to be helped by the universe now. Your life will change for the (so much) better. There’s no need to doubt. All of your overwhelming doubt is disempowering all of your natural brilliance as a human being. Just let go. The more you allow yourself to trust in every single tiny detail of this perfect simulation, the more good luck will be attracted to your consciousness. Become the scriptwriter, actor, and audience at the exact same time, and life will take you further than you ever imagined you would go.