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Awakenings through Anxiety ….
By: Sundy Gilchrist
Tags: Self, Awakening, Healing, Anxiety

Awakenings through Anxiety ….

My first experience of anxiety was triggered by a ride on a fairground big wheel.

It was an intense experience and I remember seriously considering the way to jump off as it was near the bottom, to the degree I said to myself I’d have to duck to. avoid my head being hit by the next carriage coming down !

I was a young teenager.

After that I suffered in silence really …not understanding why I was fearfully avoiding going through car tunnels, sitting in the bottom of the school room tower block, pressed up against the window in case the weight collapsed it down onto me, freaking out inside, in biology lessons, around my ‘inner bodily world’ learnings…..it subsided eventually…..

It was the start of a journey to be sure ……

I was a farmers lass. Strong in my body and a bit ‘loud’ too……up for a laugh and a risk , more often than not ……could ride a ‘wild’ horse at the drop of a hat ………and not so much on fairground rides ……

My next ‘awakening’ was after babies ……the second one to be precise …..

From the farm to a suburban town house was a shock , looking back ….change of lifestyle and then babies on top, proved to be a breaking point

This time it was full on

No ‘avoiding’ the triggers this time

I presented at the doctors

He said I was depressed ….I couldn’t wrap my head around that and now I realise he was correct.

He said “Not too long ago, we would have prescribed Valium and sent you on your way to cope”

Jeez.

Glad I missed that….only just though ….

Instead I was prescribed amitryptilline and diazepam (isn’t that similar to Valium?) and offered someone to talk to ……

I settled into domestication (possibly late, as I’d been a bit of a wild child on the farm) and eventually , after another couple of depression and anxiety episodes , managed to come off all the meds ….

I learnt more about myself through inner enquiry.

It occurred to me that I got ‘mentally ill’ when I was trying to shoehorn my wild and free spirit into places and with people which did not suit me.

Still it took me yet another mental health ‘ride’ to truly suss this out

My children rejecting me was the final foray, and my doctor saying to me that he thought I had ‘cyclic depression’

“Stuff that” , I replied …have you seen my life ?!

I’d toyed with the idea that I might have ‘inherited’ all, or some, of my mental health shenanigans from my mum.

Latterly though I chose the view (aided by my internal voice) that it was the abdicating of my Self, and my wants and desires for my well being that caused me to get ill.

What concretised this in my knowing, was the day I said no more to putting my body into places, and with people who didn’t treat me kindly, and the day soon after, when I came off the citalopram.

My children thought I was getting iller, I was seeing myself as getting well ….like, really well.

It took me til I was 56 to do this.

For me, I believe that depression is my mind and body saying to me “this is wrong for you”

Anxiety was the amplification to get me to listen.

Sundy 💛💫
The Unbreaking (a free verse tribute)
By: Maria, She Her
Tags: Soul Searching, Blue Insights, Healing, Lyric Poem, Love

Sometimes I can’t take my eyes off of you, and

sometimes it hurts to even try.

So beautiful

such perfection

How did Keats know that the shape of your beauty would move away the pall from my dark spirit

Strike me blind I don’t mind

for I have seen all the beauty in the world.

I am a museum

and you are the artwork that adorns me.

So free

such liberty

watching you with rapt attention

you are breathtaking imagery and emotional volatility

you fill up the room and demand attention.

I am a cinema

and you are the film that mesmerizes me.

So transcendent

such indulgence

consuming every detail you are willing to give

left longing for the ones you don’t.

I am a dead tree

and you are the passion that revives me.
“Write to Right”
Tags: Lessons Learned, Writing, Healing, Poems On Medium

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Love from Within. The profound effects of self love
By: Kurt Anderson
Tags: Truth, Self-awareness, Awareness, Healing

The profound effects of self-development

Almost stepped on this guy

The many places we search for healing and love, tend to be the places that overshadow the things that mattered first. “YOU”, know there is no other of your known model and e-nergy. The infinite expressing itself in the form of you. A unique conscious co-creator with the ability to perceive and guide what dreams may come. Colliding against like and opposite minds, realities blend as sacred geometry in flow! When brought back to the source we realize we are a whole, a unit of one. Unlike the many animals and organisms, a man questions his existence. Everything but he is happy to be here. The birds, bees, trees, etc. Are happy to exist without question or force of its own will.

All forces above and below man have adhered to these wills of the unknown, it is a man who wishes to outrun his true nature. On the quest for knowledge, he learns his true nature lies within that, which he seeks to overthrow. The carnal man is the conscious man's shadow. To be impure, unknowing, forgotten, tricked… All the qualities of a “Race” in the midst of galactic evolution, to be reborn anew. He who seeks to control forces beyond his own will ultimately meet his shadow in the mirror. The shadow that reminds him of his flaws but ultimately that which appears to himself as he sees others. Reflections of colliding light, he refracts his truest colors. As conscious man returns to his absent half he becomes whole. The carnal man begins to integrate and unlock the gates to your mind's eye. Past, Present, and future are but a dream to a galactic being!

What dreams may come are spoken words, e-notes of the vast streams of energy our minds may conceive. Through a magical act of wind the “Voice”, we create what we speak and speak what we believe. A belief that is all-encompassing when man realizes his flaws are energy in motion, co-creations of source within you. He understands his shadows trove of stories and defeats are but triumphs in the Enchiridion of his life. A force of will that expresses itself through you endlessly, when viewed from the nadir and felt from the zenith. Like Peter Pan and his shadow, we too can become best friends with the divine counterpart within. As you return to you, the fear of growing up disappears. Growth is recognizing yourself in the world, within a place or face. Knowing that the worst in man is also the worst and best in you, “fear not what I am”. He says to himself. “Fear that which I am said to be, for it is in the mind where man will be deceived”. Parted seas of memories on a journey of the fool, a nestled seed in a tide pool awaits the touch of your love to blossom. I believe in You and your contribution to this “Race” as earth warriors. Let’s blossom together!
Healing the Inner Child
Tags: Inner Peace, Healing, Positive Thinking, Peace, Spirituality

Whatever you are today is the outcome of your problems, strengths, habits and level of self-esteem. In every age, from birth to infant and child to adolescent, you have met distinct challenges. If the people around you raised you in a natural and healthy way, you will turn out into a well-balanced and strong individual. However, if your youthful experiences are filled with traumas and problems, these past incidents will extremely affect the way you are today. To understand this topic, you have to understand the concept of inner child..

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The right words
By: Van Rockey Vanessa Rockey
Tags: Inner Voice, Healing, Psychostimulant

The right words

The start of our first counselling session and the brute of an overly tattooed 40-ish year-old man recently released from prison asks, “do I look like a man who has been on tik for 18 years”? My mind goes with the rhetorical. Tik has flooded the Cape landscape, devasting lives, like molten lava slowly consuming the innards of individuals, families and communities depositing a dark, heaving void. It is a cheap, white, odourless psychostimulant made from various combinations of at-hand ingredients; rat poison, anti-freeze, battery acid, drain cleaner, acetone, cold and flu medications, amphetamines, you name it. It fries the brain whilst providing the yearned for euphoria and energy.

Whilst I have counselled many people with addictions, I had no image of someone with a long-term tik addiction on their first day without the drug. The first session was smooth and, with an air of confidence, he described his journey. The drug was still in his system. Fast-forward to session two. Gone was his previous bravado, the room palpated with restlessness and irritability. There are a mere handful of rehabilitation centres in South Africa and even fewer for those without financial means. We discussed triggers and coping mechanisms, but his singular salve was to lock himself in his bedroom and throw the key into the garden in the morning, until, end of day, his girlfriend would uncage him. Pure white-knuckling.

He lamented that he never saw his dad after his parents’ divorce when he was nine and was unable to fathom why. Surely his father had not forgotten him. Surely his dad loved him. This became the thread and preoccupation week after week. His father had long been living overseas and my client didn’t want to upset his mother by asking these gnawing questions. To quell this fixation I organised mediation between him and his mom.

I knew the desired outcome but no way to envisage the process. My expectations of a burly, street-wise mother were wrong. A delicate, old-lady in her best dress with groomed hair, hobbled into the counselling room, gripping her handbag Queen Elizabeth style, as if to ward off any would-be criminals.

We gave her space to reminisce the heartbreak she felt when her husband left her for another. The rhythm of their discussions coursed until it was time for me to ask the pertinent question, “your son would like to understand why his father never saw him or contacted him”. An eternal pause — “because I asked him to not see you”. Eight words he had waited thirty-five years to hear. A gentle light flowed into his inner dark void and suppressed tears were freed at last. His substantial muscular frame crumpled and the man gave way to his little boy within, freed at last. “And I thought it was because he didn’t love me”. I was privileged to witness the instantaneous healing of a broken man, a betrayed wife, and a shredded mother-son relationship.

And I wondered about the nature of human-kinds’ inner void — what if we reached out to one another with the right words at the right time.
To be like a lotus
By: Yamini Shankar
Tags: Learning From Nature, Self Improvement, Healing, Self Love, Self-awareness

Why to be like a lotus? What’s different about a lotus?

In spite of its dirty puddle environment and frogs on its leaves, a lotus retains its beauty and true nature of being a flower.

What can we learn from it? or rather, how can we be like it?

We all are surrounded by many kinds of people, or energy fluxes around us. Our environment can be very harsh and negative but we can be like a lotus. In spite of being surrounded by negative people and adverse environment, we can be calm and always reflect on who we are.
A HOLIDAY MESSAGE: How you can shine bright in 2021.
By: Henry India Holden
Tags: Christmas Message, Healing, New Year, Divine, Message For 2021

A FINAL HOLIDAY MESSAGE FOR 2020 FROM ME TO YOU

The Festive Season this year looks so different from what we’re used to because of Covid-19. It has cast a long shadow that deepened as the year went on, and that will extend far into 2021.

For those who are by themselves in their place, it’s especially hard. Because of safety measures, there’s not even the possibility of escape into the company of strangers at a bar or restaurant or mall.

If that’s you, my heart flies to yours, and I’m sending you Reiki healing and divine loving feeling.

Many have endured the loss of income and the fallout from that. I hope that the congressional care package isn’t held up too many more days and that unemployment payments continue, as well as protections against foreclosures and evictions. Everyone deserves a home, food on their table, and wellbeing care; these are human rights, even if not recognized as such by the laws of this land.

But even those of us who have work, a home, and loved ones around us, as I do with my beloved, Steven, are surely feeling the privations of this pandemic.

Next year, which is just around the corner, will be different, not in the least because we will have someone different in the White House. For some of us, this is wonderful, for others, it’s not.

What’s also different is that we will have a vaccine available to blunt the viral threat and then the long slog of having to be patient and still observe all the safety measures to protect people, such as myself, who are not eligible at this time to receive the vaccine, and helping the country recover.

2021 is a new beginning, yet a big portion of it will be sorting out the issues of this year, such as the urgent demand and need for racial and economic justice and the financial and economic losses, and even friendships that some of us were unable to sustain with just the help of Zoom and social media.

If you are spiritual, this is a time to go withing where your divine presence resides and draw on its healing power. If you’re not and this thought doesn’t resonate, there are many other practices that will help sustain and empower you as you move through the holidays and 2021, such as walks, companion animals, gratitude, grounding, tree-hugging, sky-gazing, creative pursuits, and extending your helping hand.

I send you love from our house to yours.

I send you healing and loving connection.

No matter what place you’re in and what you’re going through, we are kin, you and I, and in that sense, we are always connected; we are part of this living world, and of this breathtaking, pulsing, ever-expanding universe. We are made of the stuff of stars; let’s shine our light, as we can.

Love & blessings,

Henry
After
By: Amy Lauren
Tags: Healing, Empath, Alcoholic, Relationships, Narcissist

After

You will look for pieces of me in every woman you date after me. Some may contain the smallest particles that will never amount to my whole being of self. And that my dear, will cause you to forever be searching. For you are missing so many pieces that I have put together hand by hand, piece by piece, to make myself whole. Forever something will be missing, and what is missing, is me.
Healing in the Holidays
By: Wisdom Community
Tags: New Years Resolutions, Meditation, Healing, Holidays, Mindfulness

A Virtual Guided Meditation

This is the time to care for our inner lives.

Join APOLLO AELIUS for a very special virtual 40-minute Healing in the Holidays guided meditation on

Sunday January 3, 2021.

There will be 2 sessions of the same meditation at different times that day to accommodate United States and international participants:

Click here to register for the 1:00–1:40 PM EST US session.

Direct link: https://healingintheholidays1pmest.eventbrite.com

Click here to register for the 7:00–7:40 PM EST US session.

Direct link: https://healingintheholidays7pmest.eventbrite.com

A virtual Zoom Link will be provided after your register.

FREE (with a suggested donation of $5).

For more information, contact us at http://wisdomprojects.org.

Apollo Aelius

Apollo Aelius is a Maryland, US-based healer and mindfulness educator who holds certifications in Usui Reiki and Karuna Ki Reiki. He began his healing practice as an adolescent growing up in rural Maryland and credits mindfulness as a major factor in sustaining his life during challenging times.

This is a project of the Wisdom Community of Wisdom Projects, Inc. and Ascension with Apollo Aelius.

Share widely. Bring a friend.
Why Being Called Crazy is A Compliment
By: Kembang Langit
Tags: Awakening, Self Improvement, Healing, Growth, Self-awareness

Do People Dislike You? Good!

I used to tremble when I know that someone had a different strong opinion against me. My ego was racing to the front line of the battlefield because it wanted to defend itself. The adrenaline rushed to the tip of my tongue — I am ready to attack.

It’s an internal war every time, and it sucks our life force energy. For all the ladies who want to be youthful, this is the key to anti-aging treatment.

The more war you have inside, the more wrinkle and aging your body will be.

The fact is,

1. People will dislike you, no matter how good you think you are.

2. People will hate you, no matter how much you’ve loved them.

Is this a problem? The answer is No!

It is a good thing actually if people dislike you. They are making things a lot easier for you. Why is that? Because you will know what to do next, which is to let them go mentally and physically. Yeah, maybe you will procrastinate a little bit in the beginning.

It’s okay to do that but don’t beat yourself up! It may take a while to marinate on this feeling. When people dislike us — It’s their own stuff, not ours.

The only thing you should ask yourself is,” Do you like yourself? Are you proud of yourself?”

That is the question you need to ask when you’re in the mind battle, whether you want to be upset about others' opinions or choose a different response.

Photo by Andrea Piacquadio from Pexels

Be Yourself?

I know it’s a boring saying. Everybody is always saying it but with certain conditions. This is the time when I frowned my forehead. Really? I can be myself, but certain conditions apply {rolling my eyes}.

It is like an invisible anthem of social settings. We will love you only if….(fill in the blank).

I am no longer playing those old games when I have to conform and be the same to be liked. The Caterpillar is fu*ked up, and now it wants to be a butterfly. So she can fly away from all the bulls*it with a winning smile.

I love the butterfly metaphor. I felt every human being should undergo a massive transformation to really feel the sh*t and be the best version of ourselves. To live a life that has no regret whatsoever.

I live for 39 years as a caterpillar, and just when I hit 40 years, I finally know what it feels like to be a butterfly. This is where people called me crazy.

Be yourself means to be okay being disliked.

Be yourself means to be okay being called crazy.

Be yourself means to be okay being alone.

Be yourself means being okay even if nobody understands you.

I am proud of my craziness. I know that I am not for everyone.
Going on a date after a heartbreak.
Tags: Affairs, Online Dating, Healing, Heartbreak, Widow

I heard many times that for you to get over someone, you need to get under someone else.

Even though I am not the ONS type, I decided to try to get to know someone new; it would distract me from my last heartbreak and give me a chance to start all over again, this time, more confident of what I want.

I opened a Tinder account.

A Match.com account.

A bumble account.

And closed everything in 24 hours.

Online dating was not new for me, while I was married I have used AM and Illicit Encounters, but believe me or not, cheaters are way more honest and way more clear on what they are looking for (at least the experienced ones).

Work was busy, and the shared custody also left me with little spare time, so I put the whole online date off and concentrate exclusively on me.

As the weeks went by and the covid restrictions became lighter, I decided to give it another go and reactivated my bumble profile.

A guy messaged me straightway and even though he wasn’t a Greek God, something about him attracted me.

He is widowed with three young adult kids; his wife passed away two years ago, and he never had a relationship after that but went on two dates that didn’t go ahead.

I explained that I am not into endless texting and that I prefer to meet in person. After exchanging a few messages and get a glimpse we were a good match we decided to go for lunch the next day.

And we did.

It was comfortable, light, refreshing, it was the most extended lunch I have been with someone I have just met.

He is more attractive in person and a gentleman.

Our lunch happened on the 21st of December, and we ended with a promise to try to meet each other soon, between Christmas and New Year.

We exchanged what’s app, and we have been keeping in touch regularly since then, but as per my choice, our texting is light, and we don’t spend hours on our phones, I learned that over texting give you a mistaken impression that you are closer than you are in reality, slow and always is better than 100 km/hr and a big crash.

He is 52, I am turning 42 in a few days, we don’t intend to share a house with a partner, but we are looking for a solid and fulfilling romantic relationship.

He still needs to sort his kids “blessings.” and I still have some final “healing” to deal with.

We are not in rush.

But we are open to each other, and day by day my last relationship is fading away giving me space to invest in something new, shiny and most importantly, a beginning built without having to destroy anything, a relationship that came to add in both of our lives without ruining anyone else’s.

I am not sure what the future holds, but I know what I want for the future.

(Which is a great start)
Sick
By: Amy Lauren
Tags: Healing, Empath, Alcoholic, Relationships, Narcissist

Sick

You give me the blame, I swallow it whole

You fill me with pain, and enjoy the show

You rip me to shreds, and devalue my soul

I send you right back to hell, you bastard I know

I have broken these chains, give me back what you stole

I have saved myself, you are evil just go
What happens when the Pain Doesn’t go away?
By: Balpolam Idi
Tags: Anime, Christmas, Healing, Love, Pain

Image by Little baby PicsArt on Pinterest

For the first time in about 20 months, I’ve found myself in another bout of rheumatic pain. The last time I had an episode like this was on the day I wrote my final exams during my undergraduate program. I woke up with this immense searing pain in my right hand. From shoulder to fingertips. It was wild. Prior to this, all attacks were localized to my lower limbs, so it was not something I was used to or something I knew how to deal with.

Then the panic started, because I could barely hold my pen and I kept praying to God - God Abeg, how will I write this exam now?

My roommate did my makeup, I was in pain. I took pictures with my closest friends, still in pain. I kept waiting for the pain to disappear because I had prayed, broken bread and believed.

Here is what did not happen, the pain going away suddenly. Disappearing into thin air immediately, with no trace. What happened was that the exam questions were made objective questions! It was unbelievable. This was a core course in our faculty, known for requiring extra work to earn good grades. No one saw it coming, people were frustrated during the exam (if you have been in a federal uni in Nigeria you know what I mean), but I was chuckling all through. Even when the pain would get sharp, I just used my left hand to keep ticking my answers, to fill my details, horrible hand writing like this.

One thing I heard in that episode is - God really loves me. It kept ringing in my head that God really loves me.

It stuck with me. That even when the answer is not what I think it ought to be, He has my best interest at heart.

I now came close to understanding what Paul was talking about. God’s strength being made manifest in our weakness and how He makes all things work together for our good. Now on days my hand is too feeble to lift a cup of tea, God really loves me. On the day I get completely healed, God really loves me. Even if it gets worse than this, God really loves me. On this Christmas Day that may not feel like Christmas, I want to remind you that God really loves you. And He is with you even if the pain doesn’t go away.

Trust His heart for you and lean on Him at your weakest. He really truly does love you.

Love, Ballie 💖

wallpaper by SlayntSama-c3 on Pintrest

Naruto is an amazing Anime and Pain is one of my peculiar characters, hence his appearance.
A 21st Century Desire
Tags: Healing, Health, Lifestyle, Education, Psychology

“WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND”

What do you think must be the need of an hour apart from the urgency of developing a vaccine for Covid-19. Is it money? Is it a job? or Is it good clothes to flaunt around with? If not wrong then the urge to go on a vacation ? EEEEEHHHHHH!!!!!!

The brain’s hitting hard😟

Today when the world has been hit hard with a pandemic, and people being forced into isolation wards, it is unapologetically the need to just be WANTED and LOVED. Isn’t it a paradox of life where people till date didnt realise the importance of love, care and support. It’s only when the sheer force is imposed that we realise the importance of something. These 2 words WANTED & LOVED are more often overlooked or taken for granted until and unless realized by heart. Why is it important to feel loved and wanted? The answer to this is the art of being SOCIAL. In times with the flaring social media we have lost the essence of being social.

Here strikes a disparity👊

The peace that we acquire in someone’s company let it be mother, father, sibling, friend or a lover is usually underrated and overlooked till we reach a point in life when we realize the importance of it. A day lasts until its chased away but love lasts until the grave. So, today whether conscious or unconscious, it is the realization of being loved and loving back in return that matters the most. Everything in life washes away, vanishes and disappears at one point of time but it is the feeling of Love that will remain till grave. It wouldn’t be exaggeration if I quote Mahatma Gandhi here, “WHERE THERE IS LOVE, THERE IS LIFE.”

With reducing of lifespan among humans drastically, may we realize the importance of loving and being loved. May we get all the love that we deserve and desire. To add a little humor, may we give back all the taken love with our nose and not by heart 😅

I hope you got the point💓
Narc
By: Amy Lauren
Tags: Healing, Empath, Alcoholic, Relationships, Narcissist

Narc

You are empty, I am full

You are shallow, I am deep

You are cruel, I am kind

You are broken, I am healed

You speak lies, I speak truth

You know hate, I know love

You walk on fire, I walk on water

You are dead, I am alive

You are evil, I am angel

You are the narc, I am the empath
How does one grieve?. At first I was numb I barely cried…
By: Catherine Aumack
Tags: Grief, Support, Grief And Loss, Healing, Personal Growth

At first I was numb

I barely cried

Wasn’t emotional

Didn’t know how to act

No one taught me how to grieve

No classes you can take to prepare

I was jealous of those able to cry openly

Releasing their grief with each heaving sob

I busied myself with rearranging life to account for the loss.

No longer could I call Mom to tell her bits of news

No longer could I hope for a few hours to visit

I miss being able to talk, to call, to visit

I need you Mom

I need you now more than ever

I need to talk to you

Need to talk to you now

Silence

Deafening silence

She can’t answer me

She’s beyond my reach

Hungering for one more talk is in vain

She is gone forever

She will not come to me

When it’s my time…

I will go to her
The Art of Grace
By: Kurt Anderson
Tags: Awareness, Grace, Healing, Peace

When it comes to talking to those who have wronged us, it may seem like the last thing on the list of healing factors. In regards to speaking your truth in a healing manner, the impossible may become possible. Many people always ask me why I’m so forgiving. I always say it’s not a matter of forgiveness it’s a matter of grace. With grace, forgiveness is automatic, with a deep understanding of others and circumstances. Grace becomes possible, knowing what others may have experienced allows you to understand the way of man. It isn’t always a question of “Why” people are the way they are. It’s how can I understand this individual on an unspoken level. In school they try to have everyone learn the same way, this is where the stunted growth of many begin.

Many of us starting as children especially rainbow, indigo, crystal kids, etc. Do not learn in the same constructs as others, many of whom needed one on one hands-on learning. INFJ, INFP, and many other personality types at young ages tend to find it difficult to learn in the standardized textbook methods! All too many times these children who grow to be adults are classified as “Outcasts” or “Anti-Social”. Ideals and words that trickle through adulthood of a large portion of very intelligent brilliant minds who were written off at the start. Many of Millennial’s struggle with this on a day to day basis, when battling with unrealistic expectations of corporate America. Most jobs today are nothing more than an adult high school. Where many come to realize they hate their jobs they were duped into by following tradition or parental values.
Self Love- A Poem on Healing
By: Greyson Arnold
Tags: Courage, Healing, Self Love, Poetry On Medium, Poetry

Self love is a strange sort of existence.

Sometimes, you forget it’s uncommon.

Sometimes, you forget it’s attainable.

But, you never forget it exists.

It’s this type of potion that reminds you you aren’t required to be perfect.

The pleasant surprise of you finally getting to enjoy the calming confetti you’ve been throwing on everyone else’s lives.

Confetti is for celebration,

and sometimes it’s hard to celebrate ourselves.

So I’ll remind you:

Just because you don’t like your body, does not mean you can’t respect it.

Cutting yourself up won’t get rid of the claustrophobia you feel from being in your own skin,

Bowing down to others won’t raise you up.

So yeah, it may take some adjustments to achieve self love.

You may lose some people.

You may lose those who used you as a footstool or a floor mat,

but you won’t regret your own forward motion just because of what you left in

the past.

It will all be worth it.

The transformation your mind took into a sort of no man’s land will

eventually dissipate as you learn to stop blaming yourself as well as learn to

gain personal responsibility.

Balance.

That’s all self love is.

A magical concoction that can be dangerous if mixed improperly.

Horribly dangerous.

So be careful.

Ask those you trust to hold you accountable,

but most importantly,

hold yourself accountable.

Remember you aren’t perfect,

but that doesn’t make every one of your actions excusable.

Patience.

Patience.

Patience is the key.

You will slowly drift in and out of recovery remission and relapse.

Until suddenly one day,

while you’re drinking your coffee,

or walking your dog,

or comforting your friend,

that you haven’t picked up a blade in years.

And that lighters remind you more of birthday parties than they do of the darkness,

and you’ll smile.

Recovery isn’t instantaneous,

but it’s possible,

So, while self love is a strange, uncommon way to exist

find how that existence looks in you.

Hug it around the neck

and make it your best friend.

Make the love you have for yourself your best friend,

and work harder for that best friend than you do for any other person.

That beautiful day of realization will come

and you will sigh,

maybe even laugh

and you will be grateful for everything you’ve sacrificed.
Don’t crease them!
Tags: Shoes, Funny, Fashion

Don’t crease them!

I waited to stare at the window for the mail lady to drop my new shoes off. My all-white Air Force 1s! I was so excited. Beep beep. The mail lady dropped my box off. I picked it up. I was quite excited. I slipped them on very carefully. Attempting not to crease them! I decided to take cute, trendy Instagram pictures. I walked out the door very stiff. Watching my feet to make sure not one inch got creased. Boom! I tumbled down all thirteen stairs. In the end, my whole shoe got ripped open. There goes not trying to crease my new shoes.
Marry chrismas
By: Woxyd Com
Tags: Funny, Memes

This would have been way better if the spelling wasn’t fucked up in such a stupid way.



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The Santalorian would like to wish you a Merry Christmas Woxyd.
By: Woxyd Com
Tags: Funny, Christmas

The Santalorian would like to wish you a Merry Christmas Woxyd. Woxyd Com ·Dec 27, 2020

“Looks like you’ve been naughty this year. I can bring you in warm, or I can bring you in cold.”



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“Concession, Cooperation, Holiday Cheer NOT My Style!” Trump Tweets, As He Forces Millions To Suffer
By: Allan Ishac
Tags: Satire, Covid 19, Humor, Funny, Politics

“Concession, Cooperation, Holiday Cheer NOT My Style!” Trump Tweets, As He Forces Millions To Suffer

His tantrums threaten to cripple the country… but he’s got scores to settle! (Credit: https://www.local10.com)

Adolf Twitler, holed up and moping in his Mar-a-Lago resort, admitted over the holiday weekend that he was “more miser and Kaiser than tranquilizer or stabilizer.”

The president, who is refusing to sign a relief bill that could keep millions of Americans from losing unemployment benefits and other critical government aid as the Covid pandemic wreaks havoc on the country, appears to be punishing Republicans in Congress for not aligning with his election fraud delusions.

Responding to criticism that he ruined Christmas for countless Americans by not signing the bi-partisan bill that it took months for Congress to negotiate, Trump tweeted, “Concession, Cooperation, Holiday Cheer NOT My Style!”

He later told aides that he was not going to “save Americans until McConnell and the other RINOs save my presidency,” and that he planned to stick with threats, insults, and deranged behavior through January or until “I’m guaranteed by everybody that I can stay in the White House.”

RINO stands for “Republicans In Name Only” and is Trump’s favorite acronym for GOP legislators who he thinks have betrayed him.

Mr. Trump added that he would be naming Jared Kushner, and his top Nazi adviser Stephen “Cyborg” Miller, as co-attorneys general in the days ahead.

One skeptical White House adviser who heard the news said, “this should certainly cement 2020 as a year of Black Death unparalleled in American history.”

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And Merry Christmas … hang in there, hope is on the way.
Sloth
By: Pretheesh Presannan
Tags: Lazy, Creative Writing, Humor, Limerick, Funny

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A huge Russian “puddle” became an online sensation
Tags: Funny, Funnyrussian

A “puddle” recently joined Instagram to alert local town municipality in Russia

A smart and fun loving Russian citizen started a “puddle” Instagram account under the username of ya_luzha_u_doma. It has photos of the puddle which was created in 1994 on a road in the Russian city of Yuzhno-Sakhalinsk in Sakhalin island . The local community has been continuously asking the town administration to repair it but of no avail.



They announced approval of their request several times but did not bother to actually repair it. As a result the small pool grew and covered the road fully.



This chronic issue triggered the creativity of an anonymous citizen, who decided to took the matter into his own hands. He created the account on the popular social media platform Instagram in September this year.



The more interesting element of it is the use of personal blogging style. For example, the first post by the puddle states:

Now I am a 26 years old puddle and I will inform the entire world about the agonies I have been facing

Humour aside, the sad fact is that the local government there promised to fill the puddle Back in 2014 and 2014. But later on they postponed this “project” to 2024.



A Russian kid launching his boat in the honour of Russian city mayor

The caption of the photo below says:

The last night was story and today’s morning a neighbour’s kid “launched” a paper ship he made earlier. It bears the portrait of the mayor of our city Mr. Sergey Nadsadin

In my opinion, the young s
Invisible Man
By: Quality Demanded
Tags: News, World, Facts, China, Funny

Task to the readers before reading through the article Find the invisible man on given 3 picture’s and comment below the article :-

CHINESE ARTIST LIU BOLIN USES ONLY PAINT AND A SETTING OF HIS CHOICE TO CREATE THESE STUNNING PIECES OF ART. KNOWN AS THE INVISIBLE MAN," LIU MANAGES TO CAMOUFLAGE HIMSELF COMPLETELY INTO THE BACKGROUND BY PAINTING THE PRECISE COLORS AND DETAILS THAT HE SEES ONTO HIS CLOTHES, WITHOUT ANY DIGITAL TRICKERY. USING HÜNDREDS OF DIFFERENT SETTINGS IN CITIES ALL OVER THE WORLD, LIU IS SO EXPERT AT CAMOUFLAGING HIMSELF THAT PASSERSBY NORMALLY DON’T EVEN NOTICE HE IS THERE. AN ASSISTANT HELPS LIU TO PAINT HIS BODY-HE MUST STAND COMPLETELY STILL THROUGHOUT-AND IT CAN TAKE UP TO TEN HOURS TO GET EACH IMAGE PERFECT.

Born :-7 January 1973 (age 47) Shandong, China Nationality :-Chinese Notable work :- Hiding in the city

Liu belongs to the generation that came of age in the early 1990s, when China emerged from the rubble of the Cultural Revolution and was beginning to enjoy rapid economic growth and relative political stability.

Since his first solo shows in Beijing in 1998, Liu’s work has received international recognition. Among other international venues, his distinctive photographs and sculptures have been shown at the major contemporary photography festival Les Rencontres d’Arles and he had solo shows at Dashanzi Art Zone in Beijing (2007), Galerie Bertin-Toublanc in Paris (2007), Klein Sun Gallery in New York (2008), Galerie Paris-Beijing in Paris and Brussels (2013), Boxart Gallery in Verona (2008), Forma Foundation for Photography in Milan (2010),

H. C. Andersen Museum in Rome (2012).

To celebrate US President Obama’s visit to China, he made an effigy of Obama in his honor.

He now lives and works Beijing, China.

In June 2011, Liu created his Hiding in New York series, in which he incorporated iconic New York sites into his work.

In January 2013, Liu created the artwork for New Jersey hard rock band Bon Jovi's 2013 album What About Now.
I LIVED IT: My Boyfriend Got His Dog A Better Gift Than Me
By: Isabella Dillman
Tags: Christmas, Humor, Holidays, Relationships, Funny

who’s really the good girl?

Everyone loves Christmas. The baking, the decorations, the food, the family, and yes, the gifts. I love gifts. Some people’s love language is gift giving, it may sound shallow but my love language is gift getting. Gifts make me feel special, they let me know how much people care, and generally just make me feel good! Which is why I was so disappointed at what happened with my boyfriend.

This Christmas I gave him my heart, he gave me a T-Shirt with a teddy bear on it. Which would be fine. What’s really interesting is he got his dog a new diamond encrusted collar. That’s jewelry! We’ve been dating for three years! He’s only had this dog for six months! How did she get jewelry and I got a tacky T-Shirt?

It’s not even like he could afford a diamond encrusted collar. So not only am I suffering with a T-Shirt from Kohls, my boyfriend can’t pay his half of the rent this month because of this stupid dog. I would’ve been fine with anything he gave me if he didn’t spend $450, yes I looked it up, on some stupid dog bling.

There has been some clear favoritism from the start with this new woman in his life. I have gotten far less attention, had to do all the housework, and pick up after this little bugger time and time again. What’s more? She has the same name as me. Penny, we’re both named fucking Penny, why would he get a rescue dog named Penny unless it was to torture me?

This isn’t the first time he’s gotten better things for dog Penny than woman Penny. For our anniversary he took me out to dinner, at Popeye’s. And guess what he got for dog Penny, a steak from Beni-freakin-hana. I would’ve loved Benihana! That’s not fair, that much sodium for a dog is not good for them anyway.

Another time, on my birthday, which he proclaimed was also Penny the dog’s birthday because “wouldn’t it be cute,” he said. “You’d have the same name and birthday” he got her a tennis bracelet and me a self help book. If that’s not a sign then I don’t know what is.

This whole thing has to denote a bigger issue. When I asked him he said “I got Penny for us, Penny!” and “I want to start a life with you!” But, if that were true wouldn’t he have bought me more diamonds than her? At least one diamond! The big important one!

So, in the end I had to break up with him. My sweetest revenge is that he will be saying my name every day for the next ten to fifteen years. I’m better off without him, hopefully my next boyfriend is more of a cat person.
People are Adding Deceptive Titles to These Images, Totally Altering What Your Brain Sees, and Here They are The Best.
By: Scribbled Memes
Tags: Photography, Funny, Creativity

The Internet is an immense place where any oddly unique item finds its home. There’s no mystery out there. Like this is deceptive thumbnails. Oh, yeah you got it correctly. Misleading thumbnails that you frequently see on social media are something for this Reddit group that goes by exactly the same title: Misleading thumbnails.

489k members of this online community share weird, funny, and cool images that aren’t necessarily what you think they are. The reasoning is simple: some Reddit thumbnails give rise to a peculiar optical illusion due to their small size and make you go: “Hmm… let’s see.”

According to the group’s definition, “when you open the images to the full size, you’re in for a surprise.” So today, we selected some of the most misleading images that would make you scratch your head before you realized that you were bamboozled.

1- Crowd in a concert

2- View of the Jupiter

3- Giraffes Love the Sunset of Serengeti

4- Delicious Sushi

5- Unfortunate Break In Couch of Leather

6- A bunch of Bananas

7- Surfer Trips Never Double Tube Wave

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Shooting — MSI Gaming Monitor Global
By: Kino Diaries
Tags: Funny, 微星, Msi, Monitor, Advertising

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NPvwx2rAEx8 For Every Gamer — Up Your Game

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2iLXkFBulw Expand Your Horizons

https://youtu.be/4V8R2iqNhsY For Every Gamer — Shatter Your Reality

https://youtu.be/2RmvzVKFHog For Every Gamer — Choose Your Playstyle
With Brexit Resolved, World Unites In Christmas Prayer For Quick “Trexit”
By: Allan Ishac
Tags: Satire, Christmas, Humor, Funny, Peace

With Brexit Resolved, World Unites In Christmas Prayer For Quick “Trexit”

Take your wicked, whiny self and get the hell out … and take your felonious family with you.

Britain finally resolved its EU exit problem on Christmas Eve, leaving one final headache for the free world to deal with before year’s end—Donald Trump.

That’s why the planet has come together in prayer on Christmas Day, pleading with the powers above (Santa on his sleigh, that is) to rid us of the Orange Grinch forever.

This focus on Trexit — namely, the prompt expulsion of Donald Trump a month ahead of his scheduled departure from office—would allow new dawn in 2021 without the scourge of the Super Scrooge.

Disappear in December, Hair Hitler. We’re counting on you to quit.

An early Trump exit in December would deliver relief from a host of troubles — inepititude at the top in the fight against Covid, the spread of lies and deflections about the Russian cyberattacks, continued corruption at the highest level of government and, most important, an existential threat to American democracy.

But the best part of a Trump Trexit in the next week would be the epic, “See Ya, Sir Sissypants” parties.

“Boot The Bastard!” bashes would mark this as the best holiday season ever.

“Chase The Combover Con Artist!” celebrations would be remembered for all eternity.

“Goodbye, Great White Dope!” galas would set a new standard for joyous jubilees.

If Britain can make Brexit happen, America can make Trexit come true! We’re counting on you Santa!

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And Merry Christmas … hang in there, hope is on the way.
What Do You Mean I’m Not A Content Writer Just Because I Don’t Write Anything?
By: Akshaj Khurana
Tags: Amateur, Cv, Funny, Interview

I’m writing this blog for myself , just like all the others I’ve written (one) considering how many people actually reads them (again, one. Hi Lagan)

I recently started college and to be a part of the vibrant culture that is followed there, decided to join a society. Now in my college there is a whole bunch of them to choose from which is essentially a good thing, except many of them asked for something called a CV. Me being the most carefree person on the planet decided to just ignore those societies that asked for one, hence avoiding the need to make one. But when one of those societies that I really wanted to get into wanted me to attach a CV in their google form, I had to give up and finally make one

Considering I just graduated from high school with no experience in any field of work or any specialized skills, I wrote a bunch horseshit and surprise surprise, it did not work.

The personal interview that I had to give where they went through the stuff I wrote on my CV and asked questions based on it has to definitely be the most uncomfortable thing I have ever done in my life. Throughout the entirety of the 40 min session I wanted to jump of a cliff while the interviewers tore apart every last bit of my integrity and self esteem (which honestly I asked for when I sent them that godforsaken document)

Now what is the purpose of coming on medium after 6 months and writing this blog? Well to keep it short I would like to have at least one of the things that I wrote in as my “skills” to be true i.e content writing. Now there are people who have been doing this for quite some time and for a lot of organizations (Hello again Lagan) so that makes me late to the party but hey mans gotta start somewhere right?

So if you don’t see a bunch of blogs after this post, consider I have already failed, which should not come as a surprise if you know me at all in real life.
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Tags: Funny Videos, Funny Meme, Funny Cats, Funny, Funny Story

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move over coffee test
By: Lalochezia Cachina
Tags: Puff, Humor, Trees, Funny, Weed

spent Christmas eve at my folks place and prefer to sleep in their basement. it’s quiet and I can get into a lot more trouble down there, but most importantly, it’s nice and cool. as opposed to the rest of the house which feels as though it’s kept at a balmy 152 degrees.

before calling it a night, headed upstairs to fill up my glass of water and that’s when my mom goes, “it smells like an animal came in the house. do you smell that?”

I was like, no

then said good night and started walking back downstairs.

as I descended the stairs, it hit me like a bag of bricks.

it smelled like a straight up skunk thanks to the trees I had just puffed.

so, my mom def doesn’t have Covid.