It was absolute shit and the shit.
Tags: Corona Could Never, I Won, Year In Review, 2020

It was absolute shit and the shit.

All at the same damn time.

I really don’t know how to start this, I never really know how to really start my posts, I just start but i do know one thing, I was very hopeful for this year, very, all the things that came, I NEVER saw it coming but in retrospect, it has helped me improve my foresight.

What are the things I tried this year? Vlogging, just that, that was literally the only new thing I tried, and it didn’t work out cause I felt grossly inadequate, but well, you never know, I may just try again as well as resume my jewelry designing, I really miss doing that.. I also got to realise that a lot of people think me smart, inspiring and loads of other good stuff, like ME? Lmao, that’s really cool, thank you. I’m not sure if this is how a review is supposed to go but I consider it good stuff so you should keep on reading.

Moving on, I learned a lot about friendships this year, I’ve really loved and lost fam, some I’m still healing, learning and growing from. I really think it’ll take a while but I love myself, so I’m going to be patient with myself as well as forgive completely those who have wronged me. Friendships are very important to me, I spend a lot of time and money on them, as well as encourage other people to hold on to theirs but I also observe them and know when to make a change. I’d like to add that friendships aren’t money making schemes, neither are they avenues to get free stuff or ridiculous discounts. People need to understand that friendships are more than these things. They are most importantly more than money, sure it’s important, but intangible investments such as time, love, words of wisdom and all other factors that are needed to boost the longevity of a relationship as well as the people in it is very important. Someone sending you money but not deeming you important enough to check in on, finish a conversation with, reciprocate energy and text back on time can be very depressing, no matter how hard we want to be, we still have those people who can have an effect on our emotions and wellbeing in general, positively or negatively.

I’m also learning to space my work, so pardon if you think a paragraph is too long (or not, this is my review, what the? lmaoo)

But really I tend to just keep on writing and writing, neglecting all other constructive stuff like paragraphs and recognising only my commas and full stops, well, mostly commas.

Yes!, I also started an online community of creatives for my school!!! The idea came first as an app, but lmao those are really expensive, so I decided to start with social media. WhatsApp and then on to Twitter, hit a couple of bumps but those aren’t important so imma just skedaddle past them. And it seems to be doing well. I’m doing it with my friend who agreed to jump on the graphics for me (he’s really one of the best things that have happened to me since I entered OAU, femi this one is for you champ❤) and he’s also my partner in my styling, partner/photographer (We signed some contract but I wonder if he knows it’s shit and it’s just me trusting him to keep his word😂), or perhaps it’s not🤔,hmm. Starting this community is really a baby step towards a greater goal which involves creating a unified place of comfort, growth and solid network for creatives, it’s what I wanted as a creative who was just starting out and it has helped me a lot. My network has grown pretty well and I’ve also been able to connect and appreciate as well as scrutinise the thought process behind a body of art, helping me to understand and even elevate my own mind with regards art, human beings and processes. Okay paragraphing again.

Still on the community, it is moving well, slow but steady, really learning a lot and growing, a lot of ideas evolved as well as flew out the window and sometimes femi took the shit and dipped on me😒 but small small, he’s really investing as well as doing a lot. It really is an underrated blessing to have someone who is passionate about something you are passionate about and is walking his/her talk diligently and with understanding.

I really didn’t want to write about this but not writing about it is not just disrespectful but also deceptive most especially to myself. October was not what I had been expecting. I didn’t know how much my government as well as my mental health had gone to shit until that time. (A moment for all the brave heroes of 20.10.20). The ENDSARS protest did not just shake me to my core but also remade me, I do not yet know all the changes that have occurred within me but I do know I am not who I used to be, in any way.

I also took on a couple of jobs, Got fired from 2 of my best paying jobs and lost 5 other freelance gigs cause of my lack of a laptop. This is not really something I like to talk about in detail cause it had me shattered, each time I say this, I think people may be surprised cause I come from a home that is well off but I also do not like to air my stuff in public so there will be no detail on that either. I’ve also been having online lectures since the lockdown in March and I was very happy about it, still am, but I never really thought my laptop will crash and my eyes begin to fail me. But it is what it is. I’m doing my best to get another, also praying and believing cause I honestly see no headway but I see God, that is hope enough.

I started a GoFundMe though and it got to a good place but I lost all the money. I didn’t talk about it. Still not talking about it, I’m just pushing, cause bad things happen all the time and tears are a waste of time for real. It’s good though, sometimes. I advise you to not suppress your emotions all the time and push yourself to breaking point. I’m working on that myself and if you’re like me, please work on it too.

Amazing. That’s literally the only word I can use to describe all the people I’ve met this year and as I once said "Don’t think about the future, just enjoy the present so you can smile when you think about what will be regarded as the past", I’ve had a lot of people strut in and out of my life and I’m happy I can smile thinking about them, I hope it’s the same for them. I really do not like stress, in any form, and I became really intentional about it this year, I had very stress-free friends, acquaintances and at some point partners. It was and still is a very refreshing experience for me.

I didn’t make any money this year. I mean I made good money with my business but that isn’t my money yet, it’s my business’. "Business? What business?", well, I started a jacket store. It was a very spontaneous decision that I’d just been thinking about but I did it and at the beginning, it was doing well, now? Not so much, but I’m still very proud of it and myself cause I started a business. I received and still receive a lot of support from my friends as well as my uncle and I have learned a lot. Asides the usual sufferhead market runs that comes with my line of business, my financial literacy has improved greatly as well as my discipline. I’m very passionate about my business, it is my baby and I do not want to see it malnourished or dead. Yes, that’s how I feel, although, if it does fail, I will be grateful for the perseverance, diligence, time management amongst other admirable skills that it made me learn. The name of the store is Jackit.ng but until I buy the domain name, it recognises as thejackitstore on Twitter and Instagram, I hope you check it out.

I have a lot that I want to write about, a lot but I’m already putting allat in another post so yes, expect another post to end the year. It’ll also be coming with a playlist and it’ll have a whole lot of me in it as usual.

I'm Ochuko, and this is a review of my year. Lol would you consider this a review?

Shalom!.