Moon Work-Waning Moon Day 6
By: Leigh Larue
Tags: Personal Development, Fear, Daily Blog, Risk, Trust

Fear was practically eating me alive today. When I’m feeling wholly uncertain about my life, I tend to slip into hermit mode. I avoided anything to do with reality today until it hit me that I was going to have to be proactive. At just before 10pm tonight I had the idea of just gathering my tarot cards and a candle and doing a really quick 3-card ice breaker on camera.

I’m currently doing the van life and have traveled through several amazing towns in Colorado, San Diego, Flagstaff & Sedona, and am staying alongside a small lake in Arizona as we speak. The lighting in my van at night is slightly above crappy. So, I grabbed my ‘magical tools’ and headed over to a picnic table where it was well lit, I spread everything out, saged everything, and shuffled. I then drew three cards. I didn’t have anything to hold my phone, so I wasn’t going to be able to shuffle on camera with one hand. I guess I could have fanned them out and drew that way. Anyway, just as I had looked over my cards and was about to begin filming the lights shut off! It was 10:08 by that time, and I was both shocked and relieved. I’m taking it as a sign from the universe that I have permission to ease myself in.

The question I asked the tarot was what message do I and my viewers most need to hear right now, and I had a hilarious realization that I don’t yet have any viewers! What have I been so afraid of this whole time? I drew the King of Pentacles, the Star, and the World cards along with the Lovers at the bottom of the deck. I’m including a horribly lit pic of the cards that I drew, and I ended up taking this pic under a yellow street light near my van.

The message of the cards is as follows: One cycle is ending as a new one is beginning, with hopes & dreams realized. Financial & material comforts are to be had, and there may even be someone who is financially stable and strong who will somehow play a part. It also tells of loving what one does for a living and that it will be both fulfilling and healing, with faith and hope in life restored. Whenever you happen to read this, I trust that this message is fitting for you.

I have to say, even though I didn’t get to make a video, just taking action (any action) helped alleviate my fears and stress. It’s not like I don’t and haven’t taken plenty of chances and risks in my life, but this was kind of major for me only because I hate being on camera, am an introvert (an extroverted introvert at least), and I really don’t enjoy talking much. Some of the amazing tarot readers that I regularly watch can go way into detail and can go on forever, often too long for my comfort level. I am probably going to be more to the point and short and sweet in my videos, but I’ll have to see how my style unfolds as I go along.

I learned something valuable tonight, and I hope whoever is reading this can takeaway some wisdom as well. When feeling fearful about beginning something new or taking something to the next level, we don’t always have to dive head first into the deep end. We can begin by sticking our toe in, wading around the shallow end, floating on our backs, doggie paddling a little deeper, and then take the plunge. Whatever gets us moving in the right direction and taking action towards our end goal!

I feel much lighter and more hopeful that one day I’ll be able to do this. In the meantime, I will be available for personalized readings via phone, text, or email. I’m posting this on this sixth day of the waning moon as an excellent example of releasing fear simply by taking manageable action steps. That’s it. Nothing more than that. Hope it helps!