In His Likeness 3
Tags: Christian, Lessons, Teenagers

I allowed Lude in while Sor gave me a look asking if I’m still going with him or I’m staying. I’m torn between them two. I love Lude with my whole being but he has not being the best lover in the past few months, how sure am I that the nice smile, he put up is not just a facade that would wear off once he knows I still love him enough to bear this pain. I refuse to remain pained, I’ll go with Sor even if it costs the shatter of my heart.







Finally speaking up, “Oh Lude you’re welcome, you can make yourself comfortable and leave whenever you will, I would be going with Sor for a few days", I stated with a sense of finality giving no room for negotiation, but knowing Lude, he surely had something to say,







"How would you leave me here all alone, since when did you start going off with men other than I, you even say it like you own your life, guess what, you don’t, you lost your ownership since the night we consummated, I now own your life and I say you go nowhere, especially with this...", he stopped unable to find a word to describe Sor, and just made do with staring at him disdainfully.







All the while Lude talked, I looked at Sor to try and know what was running through his mind, and once he heard the word 'consummated’, I saw the look, I never want to see on him, HURT. It shattered me, now he knew I could never be what he wants me to be with him(it was obvious, he wanted to make me his), yes I was no longer a virgin, and as a prince, and from what I’ve known about his place, only virgins ever became crowned princesses. I wanted to tell him but not this way!!







Sor looked to me for confirmation, seeing the tears on my face, he knew it was true and all he did was walk out. I knew that was it with Sor, he would never come back, that feeling of sorrow brought me crashing to the ground.







Happy at the fact that Sor had left, Lude made it a point of duty to do nothing but mock me, "You thought you could leave with him", he said bursting into laughter, the laughter I used to find so endearing now did nothing but draw cuts on my heart. “ I already told you know one could ever love a broken wreck like you save me!", he said holding my mouth forcefully and then hitting me.







"And this is your definition of love!", I shouted back at him(for the first time in my life) not even knowing where the courage came from as I cleaned the blood stain that ran from my mouth due to the slap.







"Oh now you have the courage to shout back at me!!", he shouted back, each word representing a hit on my face.







"As much as I know no one has loved me other than you, wait you never even loved me, you just wanted me and when you got me, you drained me so I’ll be too useless for another when I find out the truth, well you’re fulfilled right, you’re happy, no matter what you say or do I’ll not be shut down anymore, understood!!" I shouted back at him refusing to be defeated or let myself feel pain, the pain of losing Sor was enough, I could not take in more else I die and I don’t want to die.







Did I just say I did not want to die, well the beating that came after could have as well being a death sentence, Lude beat me till I lost consciousness with reality, I just felt the hit but not the pain, I could not see him, I could not even see anything, hearing was out of it, it was like I was on the road to paradise wait who am I deceiving, someone like me can never go to somewhere that beautiful, and that was the last thing I thought of before I finally passed out.

To be continued...