My first ever blog post
By: Kalyani Chitre
Tags: First Post, Getting Started, Goals, Getting Things Done, Writers Block

My first ever blog post

Well… Hi? I have no idea how to write a blog and as the title is very self-explanatory, this actually is my very first blog post ever. Not that I’m new to writing and expressing my thoughts in a written format but actually posting it out there, in the wild wild world.

Being new to blogging, I don’t know how to start with it, what kind of a language or tone to use, but we are all at this very stage at some point in life. For anything, really. A new hobby, trying to showcase a skill or even just waking up in the morning. Yes, as simple as that. I have trouble waking up at any time, be it morning or afternoon. Doing something constantly and then having to change to some other activity takes a good toll of energy and motivation from me and so did this. And for this reason, I decided to write about it in my first post on Medium.

I’ve been anticipating the right moment to write a blog for more than 3 years now. Its a very long time, I know. But that’s how most things have been for me. I’ve read a hell lot of things on the internet that are supposed to help you with “getting started”, yet nothing ever worked for me. No matter how hard I tried, it was never enough to reach the activation energy I needed.

I’ve got a long list of things I want to do, things I am genuinely interested in but I always end up not doing anything at all. Not because I’m busy or anything with other things but, well, I don’t feel like doing those things.



I’ve seen a lot of my friends and the people around me who face some issues in getting started but eventually, they’re on it. It takes them a day, or a week or even a few hours in hitting that “good mood” where they become extremely productive, doing all tasks in hand. I, on the other hand, sit and do nothing. At the end of the day when I look back at what I accomplished from this new day I had, I barely see anything been done. It upset me a lot, infuriated me too. I would be really mad at myself for not doing anything. A state of anger listing down on what a disgrace I was to myself. This unhealthy behavior kept on adding the fuel required for me to see myself as a complete failure. My mind was more like a battlefield. One side was the nagging and negativity and the other was the feeble little brave soldier never wanting to give up. But oh it couldn’t beat the mighty dark feeling. These waves of wars have been happening for a very long time. Longer than I can even remember. And it is very exhausting.

We’ve all experienced blocks in our lives. The big wall stopping you from attaining your full potential, may it be a writer’s block, artist’s block or a technical one. It goes away eventually once you try to clear your mind with a little walk, listening to music or even talking to someone. But this block in my life has been here for a few years now and its very frustrating. I used to sketch portraits a lot and now that I have a hell lot of free time (its the quarantine times as we call it) everyone tells me to go and sketch or paint and when I tell them I don’t feel like it, all they have to say is ‘try listening to some music it might help’. I appreciate people trying to help me but the thing is, I have tried it all. Most of the things that one might suggest, I’ve done it. Nothing. Helps. Anymore.

People expect a lot from me because I have DONE things before. I used to actually study for tests, I used to actually write a lot, I used to actually complete sketches, but now all they see is, me sitting in my room, doing absolutely nothing. I watch random YouTube videos which, again, bore me out in a split second. My parents see this every day. They get annoyed at me. I complain to my friends about all the things I want to do but haven’t done yet. Their obvious response is “Then do it!”. As if I didn’t know it. I know it all. I know that I should be doing ‘that’ thing; I know how to do ‘that’ thing; I know why I need to do ‘that’ thing but I just don’t do it.