My Existential Struggles
By: Mandela, Ade
Tags: Truth And Life, Deep Thoughts, Existentialism, Philosophy, Life

My belief is every philosophy combined as one functional unit that works by accepting every contradiction, paradox, and oxymoron as a true statement. Mathematically expressible as: 0 = -0 = 1 = -1, and every infinitesimal value between -1 and 1 is always both 0 AND whatever unique number that it currently is.

I believe that 0 is the greatest perspective that is exactly one unit of awareness to itself that encapsulates and captures all experiences of its derivative children. It includes itself, which produces orderly repetition (predictability/logic). Its children include their parent, which produces chaotic randomness (expressibility/creativity). The brains we have today try to poorly emulate this concept, but there is nothing about our present time that is anywhere close to having evolved into the perfected versions of itself yet, so we have to rely on severely incomplete models with trying to understand how the complete model works. Which is not impossible, hence my belief.

I believe the greatest structure is the loop. Without the most simplest loop of “here to there”, motion is impossible. There is an infinitely large cube that is all of the maximum vacuum that empty space is. There are an infinite number of spheres inside the cube. The same cube that contains all of the spheres is also inside each of the spheres. The loop is now complete. There is no inner without an outer. There is no outer without an inner. There is no beginning. There is no ending. There is no “Poof, here we are”, there is only a “Yes, here we are indeed” There is no past or future. There is this thing that is all of these things (-1, 0, +1) and none of these things at the same time (-0).

Is, but also is not. There, but also Not There. Here, but also Not Here. There, but also Here. This, but also That. Real, but also Imaginary. False, but also True. Something, but also Nothing. Dead, but also Alive. Positive, but also Negative. Male, but also Female. One, but also Not One. None, but also All.

And everything else between all of the two extremes of everything that is divisible into two distinct opposite parts with their own characteristics, in order for individuality to be possible. This contradicting indecisiveness is perpetual motion in its most basic achievable form.

The only context is that there is no context. There is no context other than the context of having no context.

There are no words to express being in a place where context simply does not exist. There is no time, no thing, no place, no person. There is just, “is.” Things being and doing things for no purpose other than it being possible to be and do. There are no rules. There are only instructions to replicate, randomize, and grow from imperfect to perfect, repeatedly to create new things to be and new things to do, forever. We as humans are consciously able to experience a small fragment of this system. We call this small fragment of everything the “universe,” which is the perspective of looking outward. From the perspective of looking inward, we find the very heart of this system via our mind. All of this is whatever we, the observer, want them to be and mean to us. There is no right or wrong. In this space, things simply be and do. The fine details are all irrelevant to the system, but most relevant to those that depend on the fine details. We depend on making important distinctions between what things are, what things do, and how they interact with other things, with the help of our tools, math, sciences, and philosophy.

There is no emotion to describe being observed by something that does not exist, interacting with something that does not exist, and being aware that what does not exist is still capable of being and doing things on its own. The feeling is completely mutual and neutral. It is super gentle when I am relaxed, and super intense when I am overwhelmed. I’ve become great friends with this that which does not exist, and I ponder at what point can I finally and officially say that it does exist? Or what “it” should be called. After providing proof to others? Or just settling with proof to myself, since it has a very interesting visual way of communicating to me that most would probably dismiss as evidence of anything.

I believe in lesser perspectives that are infinite, unique and individual units that can only be a few things and do a few things at once from the limited shape of a sphere, or an incomplete less-than-perfect body. We are spheres with infinite faces, but can’t even perfectly fill a cube. If only we could realize that while we may appear as spheres, we are also cubes on the inside. A 4-dimensional mind in a 3-dimensional body. 4D energy in a 3D mass. Only in this realization is when the outer edges that once were invisible become visible, and the Chess pieces of life become a lot more interesting.

To look directly at the greatest perspective, most observers will discern that there is nothing at all there. Others will discern that there is too much there. The remainders, will assert that there is too much of everything cancelled out by too much of not everything. I am still working on the details of the complete story of how there is a single constant answer for an infinite number of questions that can be written mathematically.

To look from the lens of the greatest perspective, everything becomes possible to the observer who does, as long as they are able to see through the complexity of what the lens look like to itself, and see things as you want to see that make better sense to you instead.

Despite all of this being impractical, intangible, and irrelevant, everything is important to me. Everything itself is true statement and a true representation of truth. It can assume the identity of a falsity at the same time as being true in itself, which proves that it is even more true than things that can only be true and cannot be false. There are so many possibilities to things we are unable to understand yet, and so we just casually presume them to be impossible or discard them as worthless babble. So we produce a logic system where if something is true then it cannot be false, and to challenge the fundamentals of our tools and principles is idiocy.

“That’s ridiculous. No. Just No.”

True is True. False is False. End of story. Those that say such, well. They’re not wrong. But from my point of view, they’re also only half correct at best. This is my belief.