Maybe just an opinion!
By: Mayank Jindal
Tags: Isolation, Opinions Expressed, Social State

When one is living life of no social value or perception of that sort then maybe it becomes truly hard to survive in this world. Your some friend’s relative might assist you in an event of great adversity but if for once no one really knew you closely and you were to look for some recognition and identity then maybe you end up being horribly depressed and short sighted.

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A picture perfect world wherein no one really be troubling you and talk nicely and happily to you maybe an illusion and fantasy like what being taught in childhood but later the same child being taught how cruel the world is and how dejected people could make you feel.

First Impression

It is said that your first impression is your last impression. Maybe it will be true in many cases but maybe this concept leaves no space left for that person for further improvement in terms of mindset and life in general.

I’m just staring at the person being in front of me for him to soon make an eye contact only to believe this is my only chance to make some genuine contact in real world.

Looking at your phone all day long seeing how advanced the world has become and how much people have achieved either in terms of wealth or prestige. Each person is just trying to nail their first impression a million times to the world to the people.

Well how much mental calculations and life will that be sucking out of you. For me it just took both my breath and body away from me and left me all desolate and disheartened.

Just two eyes for the rest but your whole world for you….

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Just for a moment close both your eyes and try seeing the people that are around you. Can you see them? Can they see you back?

If you couldn’t even be seeing them will that idea of first impression would even arise in you?

Those wide eyes and people making eye contact with me used to scare the shit out of me. I was way too worried about my own image in front of others. But when seeing yourself as an distinct alien creature just like you have one inner eye to see everything within you.What else will people around you believe or make out of you maybe that which you think about yourself.

What you see around you is what you believe, Else try closing down your eyes and believe!

Every incident every fraction of a second is played through in mind a million times not realising how much you’ve been thinking about someone who doesn’t really matter much in your life.

Just realising that every other person being behind or in front of you is just living in their own self created world whether they think it makes them special or important to people that form their life.

But what I am looking for is total oneness and inclusion not just limited to people around me but just everything that has ever formed the life and circumstances that we are dealing right now.

Somewhere I do feel lost and think of more value and importance being given to me but I know in search of truth and understanding all these things about prestige and value doesn’t matter much unless there is someone sitting next to you whom you could talk to about the worthy possessions have you’ve spent the lifetime working day and night for.

The beginning

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Seeing children going to school with their bags and water bottle has some refreshing feeling about it. Everyday is filled with something new, some new activity and hell lot of fun.

Not much to think about neither not much to worry about. At those times the idea of social value and prestige and acceptance were not much applicable for us as we just knew how to stay happy and laugh wholeheartedly.

But now the present looks foggy while the past appears totally vibrant and alive. Its fun to talk about past to go through the difficult phase of today. In terms of utility and function we may seem evolved and enhanced to others but where’s the happiness that a child is always adored for.

Haven’t we totally cut down our happiness and joy many folds down starting from childhood to adolescence and till adulthood. Don’t know about others but I have totally loosen it at one point that school became synonymous to hell for me.

Aiming and slicing down

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It gets just easy to become a prey to people living around. If you appear as childish and genuine then just like an eagle many people would try attacking you and making its prey. They will slice you and use you for their benefit either to feed the stomach or extracting happiness and joy out of you.

The animal instincts haven’t gone out of us yet and we try attacking and insulting whomever we think as weak and childish. Not all maybe like that but that’s how I just feel like.

So no one could really be their true self as the world and people are demanding someone clever and strong that suits their own perception about the ideal figure.

The Mirror

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I’ve been splited down into a million pieces that every single piece has its own completely different story to narrate.

Some moments are filled with joy, some sadness while others with pure togetherness and happiness.

But having a split in yourself may create undue pressure on mind such that it may completely disconnect from reality.

Bit by bit you try to arrange every little piece hoping that you will just fix the mirror and create a perfect image of yourself as seen through the eyes of yours.

It may bleed, it may cause some pain picking together the pieces as the pieces of mirror are sharp and smaller.

But for you your mirror is your perfect compainion because it shows you your whole life behind you and infront of you. A plain and clean mirror perfectly captures your face and such like our personna should be.

If we are just like mirror that what we perceive is what we deliver to the world then maybe life would be like cutting a piece of cake. Not living by standards or ideologies but just doing what the circumstances and your personna are matching with.

Still there’s a lot of learn and lot to think about but having set your own perception about the world to its maximum visibility may lead you towards the light and obliterate you from darkness.