Not sure where to begin
By: Brandi Coulter
Tags: Mommy Bloggers, Life Lessons, Leap Of Faith, Life, Christian Living

I am me, Brandi, the infamous 30 year old mother of three children. I am someone who no one really knows about, someone in a small town in Painesville, Ohio. I can say that my three children are my best achievements yet! I have had a crazy dramatic life. A life filled with many extraordinary happenings! I have experienced things many people will never ever experience. I am a writer at heart. I have written stories literally, stories, since I was able to write. I once was chosen to show an author around my elementary school and this,of course, is another major achievement which I will always talk about. My teacher chose MY story way back when, in the second grade! Its funny though because I am just now realizing that writing is what I have a passion for. Writing is who I am. If you are a writer, I am sure you would agree that it just flows and feels great to put your thoughts out there for the world to read, to think about. Its amazing to imagine words having the power to change an entire life or viewpoint. Its amazing for me to imagine how some people view writing as a chore. Whereas people like us, the passion filled writers, do it for fulfillment and enjoyment.

Who am I though? Why would anyone want to read what I have to say? Well, I have been blessed with an unusual kind of life. A kind of life that maybe people would be interested in hearing about. Maybe my biggest mistakes can help my readers avoid the same ones.

A little about me: I have a crazy weird obsession with blue pens and I promise you that I have close to about 30 favorite ones. I only like to write on college ruled paper, not quite sure why. I am a bit strange sometimes and I tend to be a people pleaser. I hate the thought of any human being being upset or mad at me. I therefore, will stretch myself in order to please. I once won the lottery. I sat alone in my bedroom at my mothers house. As a helpless single mother of three, I didnt believe Iwould ever get us out of my mothers home. Until one night everything changed. Just me, the quietness of my sleeping children, and a scratch off $5 dollar ticket. I remember praying so hard for the Lord to intervene and He sure did. It was a miracle and I sobbed and believed everything would be better and different. Turns out that I am me and my habits and flaws didn’t change that night. At this point in my life, I can def say that the saying “money comes, money goes” is beyond accurate. $300,000 and one year later, I have only this weeks pay in the bank and not much else to show. The biggest life lesson I have learned thus far, not all people are friends, and many times they leave when you are no longer able to do things for them. Handling money is something that is learned and needs to be taught to our children. I realize that money does not buy happiness or peace but rather creates many problems when not stewarded well. I have learned to not want “things” and to help others rather than to only think of myself and my kids. I teach them also to not want all the time but to look around at all of our blessings, which i assure you are ALL around us! I love the elderly and I hope to someday impact the lives of many in big ways. I am hoping to someday conquer the chaos of being a mommy. Damn, its so hard to be a mother and to be an example. The most important thing about me though is my relationship with Christ. Without Him in my small crazy world, I’m absolutely sure that I would have given up by now.

I have so many ideas and they do change slightly day to day. I am beginning to write publicly and this, to me, is a BIG step of faith. Something I have always dreamed of doing but have never had the courage to bring to ACTION. This is me just following my dreams and searching for my calling. I, like most of us, am hoping to fulfill my purpose, which is yet to be determined. Maybe, my writing will help some other helpless mommies out there to realize that all we really need is our children, God, and a Pen and Paper!

Now go make today better than your yesterday! Until next time.