Poems From My Life
By: K Zerkowitz
Tags: Sad, Poem, Stories, Loss, Life

“Freedom is measured by the distance we can see ahead,

Walk with your head up high,

Your horizon will broaden

And your freedom will become greater. “

Foreword

It might be very different from what you have read until now. It is not the poem book as in the conventional sense of the word. Actually it tells the stories of a part of my life, in which I have loved and lost, learned and accepted and choose a new path for life.

For all of you who don’t know me and haven’t lived this part of my life, it might not always be clear what is happening or what my poems are actually speaking of. However, that is the magic of words, it will allow you to wonder and make something of my life, the way you see and understand it from my words.

The pictures that illustrate these short 40 pages are all pictures from my own collection. Things that I have seen and that have shaped my thoughts and dreams.

I truly hope you can enjoy some of the reading in this bundle, or that it might give meaning to some of the things you might recognize. Don’t hesitate to use my thoughts to form you own, as I have done the same with the thoughts of the people that have mattered in my life.

Thank you for taking your time to go through my thoughts.

A Marines Quest

All may be lost,

I still stand tall

For my brothers in arms

For those who will fall.

Pain isn’t over,

Because you wish it were

Another fight waits

Where water goes.

As tears lead the way,

To peace of mind,

I found you there,

A place to hide.

A second for a prayer

Years to fight,

I still stand tall,

And see the light.

For you may rest,

And enjoy the stars

While I stand guard,

With our Nations best.

They call me Marine,

And that is what I am,

As for your peace,

I do all I can.

SEMPER FI

A soldiers creed

Give me a reason,

Show me a sign,

Send me in harms way,

Forgive me in time.

For I’m to wander,

off the path,

Searching for justice,

In angels eyes.

Meet me in heaven,

For I will try,

To bring you justice,

From time to time.

I am a soldier,

So forgive me Lord,

As I fight for freedom

Live by the sword.

Shepherd for the weak,

From dusk ‘till dawn

I will fight, To save us,

from what is wrong.

All alone

Lost my heart,

when I saw you first

You eased my pain,

I have been hiding.

Like a star in heaven,

I see you at night

Disappearing in the day,

I spend my life in darkness.

Crying when alone,

I feel so lost

Longing for your touch,

I can only dream about.

Dreams of you keep me sane,

No one can take that away

Hold you in my arms,

Maybe my nights, will become day!

Always stay the same

Some things never change;

they always stay the same

Scars left by loved ones,

Tears on a pillow, tears of pain

Maybe it is for the better,

And it needs to stay alive,

For scars left by loved ones,

You can never hide.

Visible behind a smile,

Eyes never lie,

If it hurts in your soul,

Your scars will never die…

Try not to forget, or to change,

Things that are to stay,

Close them in, embrace that pain,

For some things never change,

they always stay the same

Next to me

Cold and silent, empty souls,

I feel tired, things have changed.

Someone waiting, at heavens gates,

I stay lonely, all suddenly.

Don’t forget, what it was like,

Endless and deep as were your eyes.

Those feelings surrounded, what now is gone,

A beating heart, filled with love.

Does it all end, when the beating stops,

When suddenly you are no more?

Sometimes I feel you next to me,

Waiting to see you come through my door.

No one knows, where you have gone,

Or where you might be

All I know for sure

I can feel you next to me…

Cold at night

Hold me tight, don’t let go,

Your touch being, all I know…

I’m so scarred, of what is to come,

Loosing you, our love be done…

I close my eyes, afraid to see,

For what the future, has waiting for me…

Your arms around me, hold me tight,

Maybe that will get me, through the night…

Promise me eternity, to never leave,

Because to survive, it’s you I need…

The night is cold, when I’m all alone,

But between your arms, I feel at home.

Never leave, or let me go,

I love you, I love you so…

Deep blue skies

Show me the skies,

Those deep blue skies,

That turn my pain,

Into something nice…

I lost so much,

In so little time,

It makes me wonder,

If you were ever mine…

If we could start over,

Would you lay with me,

‘till the end of time

As far as we can see?

Taken away, without goodbye,

Hopelessly lonely, I’m bound to die…

Show me the skies,

Those deep blue skies,

The ones in your smile,

The one that never dies…

May I say,

That all I need,

Are you here with me,

Under deep blue skies.

Drowning

I wish I could close my eyes,

Repress the tears from flowing,

Stand up and be strong

Stopping you from going.

Fear has filled my lungs,

I’m no longer alive,

Can’t fight the tears from flowing,

When I think of what’s to come.

I should stop running,

If that would stop time,

Drown in my tears flowing,

If that would make you mine.

Tears are over flowing,

Down my eyes into the void,

I will miss you ‘till it stops

Or I die in my tears drowning!

Far Away

As I look into my mirror,

I see you far away.

As I close my eyes

I feel you every day.

Wishing being next to you,

Breathing the same air.

Giving up my life,

Is just how much I care.

Wiping away tears,

While I think of you,

Smiling like crazy,

Is what you make me do.

Wrap your arms around me,

Tell me we’ll be ok,

Wrap your lips around me,

Is all I want to say…

Be my image in the mirror,

When I miss you most,

Wrap your arms around me,

And don’t let go…

Heaven and Back

Soon I will close my eyes,

Drift away with the fading sun,

To find where my future lies,

I have to go where it all begun.

I dare not dream,

Of things to come,

Or places I have been,

Where it all begun.

Soon I will lose my sanity,

Become lonely again,

Lose what you called ‘we’

In an ocean of undesired pain.

I dare not dream,

Of things to come,

Or places I have been,

Where it all begun.

Came to earth a lonely man,

To find you being there,

Protect you with what I can,

Become human if I dare.

I dare not dream

Of things to come

Or places I have been,

Where it all begun.

Protected you best I could,

Returned to heaven to early,

Fell in love more than I should,

Couldn’t escape from this reality.

Heaven took you

Why does my heart ache,

When I look back in time?

What did I loose,

That once used to be mine?

Roses seem so pointless,

In my garden of pain…

As light never reaches them,

Drowning in tears of rain…

Hope to see you

Somewhere soon again,

The road might be long

But for God I will stand the pain…

Heaven took you away from me,

Silence became my enemy,

I know you are happy and smiling,

As stars shine down, onto me.

I gave it all

When you loose yourself in silence,

Lost in emotions, dwelling around,

Wings without feathers, stuck on the ground.

Flying towards darkness,

Alone without a guide

I turn towards prayer

But I feel pushed aside.

My pain feels so lonely,

With no one to share

A destination unknown,

When will I get there ?

I just want to stop bleeding,

Before it is too late,

To come home somewhere,

On the right side of a gate.

My eyes seem so cold,

They can only cry.

To keep warm during winter,

Or soon when I hope to die.

Tears will carry me, towards happiness,

Or take me to my grave,

My heart is empty,

After all, it is all, I gave.

I miss you

It hurts so much,

To see you cry,

When you are sad

Angels die…

Falling from heaven,

Leaving dark spots behind

It hurts so much,

To see you leave,

Distant memories

Of what I believe.

As you leave me behind,

Stars are born.

There must be a reason,

Why you had to go.

I keep asking in heaven,

I’m not supposed to know…

Oh tell me please

Why do I need to be alone?

Fold my hands for prayer,

Look up to the sky

Believing there is a reason,

For which you had to die.

When life on earth suddenly ends,

Love continues in my heart!

I miss you…

I think it’s fine

When I think all is fine,

And our skies are clear,

When my heart skips a beat

As you come near,

I think it’s fine.

When you look at me,

And I feel alive,

When you touch my lips,

As I drown in your eyes

I think it’s fine.

In dreams of the future,

I build our lives

Holding you tight,

Through cold winter nights,

I think it’s fine.

I think it’s fine,

Wish it was real,

Touching your lips,

As you’re touching mine.

I think it would be fine.

I will see you again

Could I make you smile,

Create magic in your eyes?

Make you skip a heartbeat,

Create clear blue skies?

Could I make you cry,

Roll tears down your cheecks?

Hold your soul in my hand,

Provide for all your needs?

May I lay next to you,

Hold you tight?

Why oh why I ask,

Did I loose the fight?

I continue living,

With a pain filled heart,

Memories of you,

One more touch for which I starve..

We will walk together,

Once more, again,

For now I keep on living,

and enjoy the pain.

For you are all I long for,

To see you smile,

See you in heaven,

See you in a while.

Losing my sanity

Do you know what I feel,

When I cry at night?

Alone with my thoughts,

Losing the fight….?

Giving up on everything,

Letting go so easily,

Wondering where it all has gone,

Slipping away from me…

I don’t feel anymore,

It is all darkness I see,

When I close my eyes,

Or lay awake secretly.

Everything so cold to my touch,

No emotions in my heart.

Going forward into emptiness,

A canvas, without the art.

I’m afraid, all alone.

Where will this take me?

I’m losing myself,

My sanity.

I ask for help,

The darkness covers my voice.

Alone I will lose this fight,

But in this darkness I have no choice.

Must have been a star

Hold my hand and close your eyes,

Trust me blindly, I’m your guide.

Walk with me a million miles,

Show you things, that make you smile.

You are too beautiful to hide away,

Burning desire is what I feel,

When I see you day after day.

I must be dreaming, you can’t be real.

An angel from heaven, down on earth,

Holding my hand, while I’m guiding you,

You must have been a star, at your birth,

The way you shine and make me do..

Next to me

Where have you gone,

So silently…

Leaving it all behind,

Leaving me…

I close my eyes,

To remember you,

My tears roll down,

What can I do…

Pray to heaven,

Hope you can hear,

All that I wish for,

To have you near…

Turn back time,

Eternally,

To hold your hand,

You be next to me…

Reflections

I look into a mirror,

See your image there

I want to look over my shoulder,

Should I dare?

I know you will be gone,

Because a memory is all you are

A reflection of my joy,

So close to me, yet so far…

Hold your hand tight,

And never let go,

Forget all the rules,

Of the universe I know…

Reflections in the mirror,

Feelings in a dream,

That is all that remains,

Or so it may seem.

A star up in heaven,

Feeling warm at night,

Roses in the morning,

Blooming at first light…

All that is you,

Not just the reflection

Look over my shoulder,

All that, your affection.

Until that day

The world stopped turning,

That day in time,

When my heart was drowning

You were no longer mine…

There was a blizzard in my soul,

I felt blown away,

When I saw you there,

On that Godless day.

Your lips went cold,

Your soul set free,

Goodbye to this world,

leaving me.

I feel so alone,

Without you here

I just wish you back,

In my arms my dear…

Farewell and see you soon,

Up in heaven so far away,

Our time will come,

And I will love you, until that day.

When did this happen?

It hurts so much,

To see you cry…

To feel your pain,

See my sunset die…

When did this happen,

Why wasn’t I there…

To save you from falling,

Hold your hand and care…

Believe me I died,

When you slipped away…

My heart stopped beating,

Nothing left to say…

I love you still,

And will always do…

I keep on living,

But only for you…

Without a touch

What do I need to do,

To feel no more?

This pain inside me,

Wasn’t there before!

Loosing someone,

Always hurts,

Whatever I pray,

I know you are gone.

Love seems so far away,

Hidden under pain,

When all left of life,

A struggle from day to day.

Rest in silence,

My darling girl,

Your image in the night,

Will be my guidance.

Love just seems to hurt so much,

When loving is, without your touch.