My Wonderings About "The Beloved"
By: Zaynab Odejayi
Tags: Spiritual, Asmaul Husna, Allah, Muslim, Islam

My Wonderings About "The Beloved"

Here I am, gazing out into space in full awe of Ya rabbil'alamin ( The Lord of the Worlds). I can’t help but to just wonder about the One whose every introduction except one in His glorious book of revelation says: " I am the exceedingly compassionate (Ar-Rahman) and the exceedingly merciful (Ar-Raheem).

A kind permanent reminder to His slaves not to ever despair for our Lord's mercy is exceeding!

And when I see or hear about kings of this world showing off and using their powers as they like. Leaders who rule without an ounce of compassion or heads of households who are as tyrannical as the infamous Firaun whom Allah destroyed. I remember that my lord is Al-Malik- The king beyond all the worldly kings put together, He is the sovereign lord over all things (living and non-living) in the entire universe and beyond! The king of the both worlds!

He is the All-hearing (As-Sami') and All-Seeing (Al-Baseer). The king who sees everything, even what is between the chests, He hears everything, even before the thoughts are formed. The one who knows our deepest secrets and desires, our fervent wishes and need. He is Al- Azeez, Al-Kabeer (The Almighty, The Great!) He is the mighty king whom nothing surpasses and absolutely nothing happens without His knowledge not even the prick of a thorn nor the fall of a petal. Ya Malik-ul-Mulk (the owner of all sovereignty) is aware of everything!

And when I worry about wealth or fear poverty, I remember my lord is Al-Ghani (The enricher). He is Al-Wahab (The bestower). He can bestow us with his bounties whoever he wishes. He is Ar-Razzaq (The provider). He has made provisions for us right from the inception. He is Al-Aleem (The All-knowing). He knows what's best for us and when exactly it is best for us to have it. And when we make a particular dua a million times, He answers when it is best for us for He is Al-Mujeeb (The responder).He is the one who answers every prayer of His slaves.

And when life’s trials and challenges breaks me in to a million shards and threatens to overwhelm me I remember He is Al-Jabbar ( The mender). He is the only one that can fix all that is broken in us. He is the only one that can make us whole anew. He is As-Salam (The source of peace!). He is the only one who can grant us inner peace, save us from despondency and set right our affairs beautifully. He is Al-Fattah (The One who opens doors you never knew even existed). No matter the pickle life might binds us in, He is the only one that can change our situation within the blink of an eye, opening doors we would never have thought of in a seemingly miraculous way.

And when my sins seems innumerable for I had transgress myself greatly and I start to despair about finding favour with my lord again. I remember He is Al-Ghafur (The much Forgiving). He forgives the sins of his slaves even if it were as much as the foams of the oceans. Gladtidings to the believers, for the exceedingly merciful is ready to forgive our sins no matter how terrible they are so far the repentance is sincere. He is Al-'Afuww (The pardoner) the one who pardons, expunge the sins from our record as if it was never committed if he wills.

And when I am taunted about my shape, looks, form or and part of my physical appearance, I remember He is Al- Mussawir ( The fashioner of forms). He has created and fashioned us in the best of forms no matter what the society’s standard is or what people have to say. He has moulded us in the very best way.

When I worry about being loved or feel not loved enough, I remember He is Al-Wadood (The Loving!) The one whose love is 77times greater than a mother's love. His love surpasses all forms of love. He continues to love us despite our trespasses, our inconsistency, our transgression, our ungratefulness ,... He is the true beloved our hearts should always beat for as He made the hearts beat. He is the love that will never leave our hearts broken. He is our greatest and truest love story!

And when I want to become impatient, I remember He is As-Sabr (The patient). He loves those who are the Sabireen! And so, I learnt to hold firm and have sabr (crawling forward even when I want to give up, crying my heartache to Allah and believing firmly-tawakkul that He has something beautiful in store for me. Waiting on his promise of glad tidings to the sabireen!)

Our rabb is ever patiently waiting for us to turn back to Him, to worship Him, to find solace in Him so as to attain success in both worlds!

Alhamdulillah ‘ala nimatil islam! Indeed, I am blessed by “The Beloved” who guided me and kept me on His path- the only and true part!

28th Shaban 1440A.D