Valentine Day To Me, My partner and Everyone
By: Samantha Liddick
Tags: Love Yourself, Relationship, Love, Single, Valentine

A couple of weeks before Valentine’s Day. I decided I want to back to my memories by went through pictures in my Instagram account.

I saw this bittersweet description I wrote with a self-portrait.

Instagram Picture. Image Description: Sami was top of the mountain with some snow and with an epic view of the mountains behind her. Sami wore a pink hat with a light blue t-shirt and black leggings.

”This picture took in 2016 — I’ve admitted that I was a bit jealous to see many couples on social media posted of them together celebrate Valentine’s Day this morning but I realized — what can i do about it and make best out of it so I expressed my love to everyone who made me feel much loved — families, friends, pets and especially myself. I am so proud of where i am right now. I changed for good. Seattle changed me in better ways because i want to be a better person every day and still do. I used being frustrated with an understanding of ”love” and what it meant for years, especially during college. Now I know. I am in love with myself. I am whole. I don’t need to BE in a relationship for that. So Happy Valentine’s Day to everyone include everyone else! 🤟🏻#singleandfabulous”

Why it is bittersweet? Because now I am in a relationship. And it has been so wonderful. My partner, Alex is more than just my boyfriend. We are best friends who fall in love with each other more and more every day.

But I was single forever before him. I’ve fallen in love before. My heart was broken many times before. But I’ve never been in a serious relationship before. I finally accepted that I was single and am fine with that. This is because I’ve experienced so much more loved by family and friends in my life when I moved to Seattle. They reminded me of how important I am to them and myself.

I’ve taken this time to analyze myself. I hurt a few best friends really bad before. I lost many friends before. For a while, I didn’t understand why and was angry at myself because of it. I managed to change my thinking and decided to focus on myself — to focus on learning how to love myself. I discovered many flaws I have and loved them. Every one of them. I started to forgive people who hurt me the most and asked people who I’ve hurt forgive me too. I apologize to them. I apologize to myself especially.

Looking back on all of those journeys I’ve had through the years and all of those mistakes I learned. That was when I fell in love with me. And that was when I wrote this description on Valentine’s Day, one year ago.

In my relationship with my partner, Alex, I don’t need him to remind me why I should be loved. I KNOW that I am loved already. I want to share my love for myself with him. I want to let him know I have flaws that I’ve to learn to love. I want to let him know I’ve hurt people before. I want to let him know it took me a long time time to understand what ’love’ meant. I am already ’whole’. Alex decided to join and share both of our love together to grow this love larger. We are excited to share our love with everyone. It is not just ours. It is yours too.

Happy Valentine’s Day to me, my partner, and all of you!