Teen Struggles
Tags: School, Stress, Covid Struggles, Teen, Parenting

So with Covid still out there the school is doing the hybrid learning. So 2 days at home, 2 days in person at school, and 1 day being a remote/ catch up day which is the middle of the week.

Due to a recent death in the family my mom went out of state to see her family about their loss. So that means she needs to quarantine for 2 weeks. Now you all think since she’s my mom, I’m underage and don’t have my own place therefore I live with her so I should too. Well in this case I don’t. I have 2 houses. Known as mom’s house and dad’s house. They’re together and mostly we live at “mom’s” but whenever things get tense he goes there. We lived at dad’s first which was 5 cold, tight years.

So for those 2 weeks she’s there. So I can still go to school and work with no issues. But a lot of people don’t understand so we keep it private. Besides it’s our business after all. Not all the world needs to know our business.

But with her, let’s just says she’s pretty much in charge of the household. Sometimes it’s a her way or the highway household.

Now I’m going to refer as in “today” when I know I won’t post this until 3–7 days. So today is day 1 of her being home. This morning is my no school day so I need to be online and reveiwning my new work and doing my weekend work that’s due tonight or tomorrow. I had a late morning but it was normal to me. Today is my second sleep in day. My brother gets three and younger by 3 years and does less then me and has more free time while I’m losing my mind and sleep.

I slept til 8 a.m and wake up for 10–15 min. Then spent 30 min walking my three dogs and made myself breakfast which I rarely do, but got to work around 9 a.m. I’m up in my room eating but before I went up there, my mom asked me what time would we normally start my little sister’s school work. I said normally I start now since it was when I was done with everything and hook her up with something then start something. My dad hardly helps. He gets his stuff and things I can’t do and won’t do it and when my mom gets home says he didn’t have time to get to it but spends most of his day on his phone.

She started with that I went to go do my work and everything was going just fine.45 min later I’m called down. I don’t know why so I didn’t have a bad feeling or anything. She told me why weren’t the dishes done before I did my work. I said “Well normally I do it after lunch so there’s a load for the dishwasher.” I’ve always done it that way. My dad for the first time I’ve ever heard said that I never did it til before dinner. Well close to that time maybe on 1 or 2 occasions since I’ll have a lot of work after my google meeting.

I went to the sink and started the dishes and she asked me when do I normally eat. Of course in was 9:45 and just finish eating and said I don’t normally eat. So then she said I starved myself. No I don’t I always eat lunch. She snapped at me saying so do you eat before or after class. I was so confused then she yelled “why aren’t you answering me” so my turn to slightly lose my cool and said “ I don’t know what you are even asking me so how do you expect me to answer”.

She said it was my google meeting she was talking about and I said I don’t know depends in my timing. She didn’t like my honest answer. It was true though. On my busy days with lots of work I do lunch after the meeting as well as dishes. On my lighter days I end up doing lunch before my meeting and as much dishes as I can before my alarm goes off.

She still flipped and decided to make it worse. She yelled at me where’s my phone.

She has this rule that’s a bit dumb yet I know the reason is valid but I don’t like the time limit and how she has it. Like from 8–3 p.m no phone time unless from research or texting a parent. She always told me it was phone time not no phone in my room. So I was following them. I was on it an hour pass since I woke up late and I was eating otherwise I was right at work. Only time I stopped was when she called me down to blame me and yell at me.

So when I was doing dishes she went in my room unplugged my phone and hid it. I came to my room furious. I threw my math book across then room (it’s a big book so there was a loud thud) and I went to cry for 5 min and try to work but had a meeting in 20 min and 2 little kids yelling playing as I’m trying to work.

My meeting came and went. Then I came down for lunch. I figured if she had to start a war about when I ate lunch she would make me something too, right? I mean why start a war if you were going to do what you wanted anyway. No. Everyone already ate and there’s was nothing for me. What I was going to make was feed to everyone and nothing for me. Also she was at the sink doing the dishes too! WOW.

I went though all that shit just to wait to do math, have no lunch, and have the dishes done? Then why the fuck did she had to start shit? Why did I have to become super stress and upset for her to do that. I swear she picks me all the time when she wants a problem. If she let things be the way they were and watch had the day would have played out she wouldn’t have been pissed off with me.

So see i have 13 more days with her being home. 3 more with her here on my online days.

I will never understand why most parents I know act like this. They make it seem we have to obey everything they say or we get punish. As if they have higher power cause they had brought us into this world. I’m sorry I didn’t ask to be here. Parents are not high and all mighty. Sure they do a lot for us and most of us understand and thank you for that. But you are not the all power. You are here to guile us so we can survive in this cruel world. You know how things could be compared to an extent? We humans are animals. Sure from time to time the parents will growl at their young or pick them up and carry them away.

But do you ever see an animal do it for control? To make their young wish they were never born? Or see the young distance themselves from the parent due to fear or the fact they aren’t loved or how they are tired of the confusion of what they did?

So teens do bad things not always because we’re bad, wanna cause trouble or any reason you may think. Sometimes we just want to prove our points. To prove how well your parenting really was. Now some kids love and adore their parents and don’t experience what most teens do. But that’s cause their parents get it. Rather they’ve been through the pain before, seen the pain, or just understands what it means to be a parent.

We teens don’t want to be a burden. Buts that’s how it feels. Parenting isn’t easy, but neither is being a teen. When your told to be a kid and to grow up. We’re enjoying our life as much we can. Feeling like a burden from the people who are suppose to love us hurts the most. That’s why we are what we are, to protect ourselves and from false hope and lies.

Sorry for the parents out there and try and the kids who are sheltered or who have it better then most, but this is the point of view of a lot of teenages out there.