Most People Want Happiness but I Just Want Peace
By: Jerine Nicole
Tags: Self-awareness, Mindfulness, Self, Spirituality, Life

Most People Want Happiness but I Just Want Peace

My introduction to spirituality

Photo by Tj Holowaychuk

Lately, I’ve been having so much inner peace. I signed up for a spiritual coaching program about a month ago. I was terrified of what I would get out of this course. Even though the coach was too spiritual for me, I liked her overall message.

I knew nothing about spirituality, but I took that leap and bought the course.

When I thought about the word spirituality, I thought about religion, oracle cards, crystal balls, or just things that I didn’t understand.

I signed up for this online course because I wanted to have a coaching business aligned with my core values and beliefs. The problem was that I didn’t know my values or beliefs.

I fell into the trap of rushing to get to your success, but I also felt like I was getting more and more confused about who I was and about what I wanted out of life.

In short, I wanted to have a business that aligned with my true self.

When I thought about the word spirituality, I thought about religion, oracle cards, crystal balls, or just things that I didn’t understand.

I was wrong about what I thought about spirituality.

The course introduced me to a world of lived experience. It is teaching me how to be the person you want to become.

I am a high achiever, and I always rush to get to my goal, but this has caused more mental burnout than anything. As my best self, I wanted inner peace, happiness, and the trust to get what I want, no matter what.

The course taught me I can be that person now.

I don’t have to believe that I need to be successful to be at peace. It is a trait that is currently available to me right now.

Before the course, I felt that I had so much inner conflict about my success and goals. I’m learning that I don’t have to figure out everything right now. I can go day by day, listen to my inner self, and trust that everything will work out.

It may not be today or tomorrow, but I trust that it will happen.

I know it sounds like ‘woo woo’ and all, but there’s also a science behind it. You and I have been doing it all our lives, but we weren’t just aware of it.

I’m learning that I don’t have to figure out everything right now.

I remember thinking that it would take my partner and me at least five years to save up for our place after graduating. But it happened only a year after without us having to sacrifice traveling or social life.

This is an example of what was once an impossible thing, but it happened anyway. Now, I have even more faith that whatever I decide to do in the future will happen.

One thing that my coach always says, “There’s no other way,” and I believe that too.

The course wasn’t your typical manifestation teaching where you “ask, believe, and you’ll receive.” You have to take action.

I believe in the power of hard work, but sometimes our mind keeps us from doing that.

The more I understand how our mind works, the more I believe that you and I can work with it despite the fears and emotions that we are scared to feel when things don’t work out.

Even though I haven’t fully figured out what I want to do in the future, I know that if I listen to myself every day, at every moment, regardless of what happens, it’ll be enough.

While spirituality can be scary for some people, at least for me, it’s brought me a sense of inner peace. I think that’s how people find the world of spirituality.

It’s when people need some sort of faith that there has to be more in life than our day-to-day work.

I wanted to learn how to truly live, despite what’s everything that is happening around me. I wanted to learn how to make hard decisions.

I wanted to know how to be myself. I am slowly learning to do all of that.

I also believe that every one of us will go through this process, where we will ask ourselves at the point of our time, “Is this what life is? What else is there?”

I feel lucky and grateful enough that I asked this question just before I turned 25. Now, I have the urge to inspire people and make an impact in the world.

While I haven’t figured out how I will do that, I trust that all my decisions will lead to doing that.

I also realized that I am already inspiring people. I just had to look at the evidence.

Last month, I received a card from a family member about how she was so grateful and inspired by how I took care of her dad at the end-of-his life. In my head, I was doing my job. But to her, it meant the world.

Ironically enough, I signed up for the course to have a coaching business, but through this program, I also found that it doesn’t fit me right now, so I write on Medium instead. Life is funny like that.