MAY 7TH, 2020
Tags: Birthday, Storyofmylife, Storyboard, Expectations, Storytelling

GRATITUDE: DAY 1

On becoming Adedayo Toluwanimi @ 2x

THE EXPECTATIONS

Just like you, I have a mountain full of expectations aiming to be reached at 2x, which is absolutely normal. Having a target goal for oneself is excellent and should be emulated. Objectives and targets push us to better; it gives us the chance to conquer and aim higher. Some would say a life without a goal is aimless and useless. Some would consider having goals as using a GPS to locating a particular place, thus easing the path to ply.

Several factors influence our desired expectations at some particular stage of life. Do you know that writing one’s goals could be the easiest thing to do? No matter the kind or type of goals you laid down for yourself, it requires work that is proportional to the kind of goals you desire.

The Diary

It was the last week of December 2014; my dad brought the Wema bank dairy home. He, bringing the diary home, was the usual as he gets that every year but the diary always ends up with Mojolajesu (ohh! Mojola is my kid sister). I guess my inbuilt was design to dislike the writing of a thing; neither was I interested in putting down my next year or coming years goals into the paper. That very evening, he came in and dropped the diary; I was pushed to ask for it making sure my sister didn’t get it this time.

Alas! I got the jotter and not knowing what to do with it. I watched some movies and probably saw some of my friends doing the writing shit. I followed suit, and I started writing, in little time, I have written over five pages of goals to be reached in a few years. The feeling was excellent, and I felt I have finally landed, I smiled. Writing one’s goal was as simple as ABC…

SO, WHAT DID MY DIARY SAY?

· 2020, I should be running my master’s program according to my diary, who didn’t foresee any contingencies. Did I tell you that I am still running my Bachelor’s degree (final year) at Ladoke Akintola University of Technology, Ogbomoso, Oyo State? Now you know. My then decision was made just from my love and passion for being academia.

· My diary said I should have finished my first degree in 2018, but here I am in my final year 2020

· I loved early marriage then, so I should be getting married by 2022, according to my diary. If you were to tell me I would be getting married by 2022, you would probably be landed a slap.

· On May 9, 2020, I should have a minimum of 10 million naira in my account, but in two days, I don’t know if that will be possible.

· My diary said a lot…

MY DIARY WEAKNESS

“Man proposes, and God disposes of”. This statement can be twisted most especially by some who had failed to meet a particular challenge, but here is not the case. I am a believer, and acknowledging the presence of the supernatural is something I won’t shy away from.

All I did then was written in the flesh, I had no consultation with the creator. I wanted this; I wanted that, but never for once did I ask then what he wanted for me. Thankfully, I was birthed in a Christian home and thanks to my mum, most notably for leading us to the path.

Severally, I have taken a big step that I refused to seek the counsel of God. Okay, while I was deciding what I wanted for myself, it was either I go to the engineering or medicine field. Lucky me, I was quite good in mathematics and biology, so choosing was a big problem then. My dad wanted medicine, probably because that was his field. My mum was the will of God, but deep inside, she was the medicine fan. Adedayo was there, and clueless and not knowing what he wants with his life. The majority, including my family doctor, saw my strength and said I would fare well in engineering. In short, my dad won, but I struggled within.

The medical journey began, and here I am at LAUTECH. Am I proud of that decision? Sincerely I don’t know.

So painful, my diary could not see the future. If only I had known years of strike are waiting for me, probably I would have increased the span or had a rethink, but it is what is. Oh my LAUTECH, I was frustrated, and I even attempted to make a transfer, but for some reason, it wasn’t possible. Here I had a lot of downs that weighed me down and affected my zeal to be academia. Yes, I had some downs, but I am most glad of the experience and the people this event led me to.

Had my diary known that the world would experience a pandemic, maybe I would have corrected and cleaned a few things from it.

MY DIARY LESSON;

Who would say the whole world would stand still at 2020 for some reason we couldn’t predict?

· Sometimes we need to make up with ourselves that everything might not go according to our plan. We need to trust the process and the supernatural we so believe in.

· Expectations are reasonable but are flexible to redirect and explore.

· Position yourself to overcome the everyday hurdles

· You don’t win everything, and you can’t just have everything

· Be grateful for the moment and trust the process.

· No laziness, maximum focus

· We move

My expectations and objectives have projected me to the present! So wassup with the present, see you tomorrow! maybe something about my relationship as well.

You can choose to share your diary story with me!