I am so sorry I did this to you.
By: Joseph Mayuyo
Tags: Minimalism, Sorry, Thanksgiving, Euphoria, Past Lives

I am so sorry I did this to you.

I’ve been so inactive on Medium ever since the big change. I didn’t like it. In fact, I contemplated ending my subscription because I saw that they were no longer promoting self-publishing writers. It looks as if writers have to be apart of a publication in order for their content to be seen.

I didn’t know I had actual users in my email list. The medium didn’t care to mention that or maybe it’s my fault. Anyway, I just want to apologize for not being more active. I honestly didn’t know that people joined my email list.

If you only know me through Medium, I’ll explain where most of my focus is. I have a podcast I post at least once or twice a month. I wish I could do more of it but since it’s more therapeutic than it is an actual conversation (most times.)

Other than the podcast, I’m trying to build my YouTube channel back up. And on top of that, my server for my website had plunged and I’m in the process of fixing it. I’m all over the place. But I wanted to leave you with a little “RX” for today.

Today’s RX is euphoria.

“An extreme, unrealistic feeling of physical and emotional well-being, feeling “high.”

Euphoria today is often associated with, MDMA. Which releases serotonin and causes you to feel euphoric. The best way to describe this feeling is going to your favorite place when you were a kid. For many, it was the excitement of going to Disneyland. That anticipation and seemingly “gone before you know it” kind of day.

What if I told you there was a way you could feel a rush of euphoria without using chemicals? Aha, there is a way. Especially if you are a messy person. Or it’s been a while since you’ve redecorated/redesigned your room.

If you have absolutely nothing to do today that is important. I want you to do three things. Clean your room, throw away something you’ve been clinging to, and sell something you don’t need anymore.

Of course, this might take more than a day but start small. You’re not being graded. You are being administered a dose of euphoria. When you clean, especially a deep clean, where you throw things away that should have been thrown away years ago. You’ll experience euphoria. Why or how is this possible?

Because many of the things we cling to have some type of emotional value whether you know it or not. Those love letters from your ex? Those prom pictures? For a moment, go ahead and dive into the past. Study how much you’ve changed. Most importantly, notice how much you miss this version of yourself.

The one who was impenetrable. The one who could not get their heartbroken. The life of the party. The center of attention. Great memories right? Go ahead, and cry. I know I did when I found certain things I didn’t know I had under my bed.

That’s all I’ll prescribe you for now. It takes time. I know somethings are so important you do not want to throw them away. However, they are stunting your growth. They’re keeping you in the past. The other day, I went so far as to destroy my old hard drives. I was done with those memories and maybe I’ll regret it later. But at least I know I was strong enough to create room for new memories.

Much love, thank you for your support. I wish you peace, love, and blessings.

All the best,

Joseph Mayuyo

The Podcast Has Grown!

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