The Universe In Me Part2
Tags: Reading, Universe, Writer, Poetry

Where am I? If I knew where I lost myself…I would go get me. But where would I be…Please tell me. In the middle of the road, suddenly I was alone, and then I heard some voices. They we’re talking to me, if I don’t know where I am…How do they, in my head they started talking and I could only hear…You don’t know us but we know you, don’t even try to scream because…We can be loud too; do you want to scream for help or are you going to stay quiet, they asked me, and so, it started…They were in my head, how was I supposed to run?

Since that day, I don’t know where I am, Where did I lost myself? Where am I? Why can’t I run, from my own mind? How did they know my name, before knowing who I am? Why won’t they let me sleep, and why they don’t want me to wake up? They brought so many questions, but no answers they’ve got, so I know…They know my past, they say today is all I got, because the future may not arrive. They never shut up…If I knew where I was…I would run to me; and I would tell her to run because they are coming with me. Don’t turn around, don’t look at me, just run and don’t look back. I am not her; you are not me; I’ll disappear and you will be happy.

Day or night, sun or rain, I just know I want you to see rainbows even when they are thunders in the sky be happy at least they are not in your mind, because to stay in the dark is not as bad as it sounds the monsters are now scared of the demons inside of me so they don’t bother me, even I am scared of myself sometimes. The monsters are not under my bed anymore they are now in my head, they are so many I lost count, everywhere, they are under my tongue, in my heart, my eyes and in my mind. Is there any hope for me? I tried already and now what else is there do to? So please I am asking you again, if you know where I am please tell me, you they can’t read. I would go get me, somehow, I would figure it out…I don’t know where I lost myself? I can’t ask for help…because i don´t know where am i? I don’t know no-one , beyond the me that is writing this…Nobody knows me, not even I do, I can’t even trust myself imagine somebody else. In the middle of the road, it all turned black…on the cross road of my life…They screamed my name and I knew that was the end.

I will never forget the day I lost myself…I knew there was no turning back, they were right behind me, while looking straight at my eyes…The creepier moments of my life were inside of my head, beside the ones outside of it, lucky me, am I right? My mind is a scary place?…For me it is just another day. My last thought before falling asleep is to don’t wake up…Just stay in your dreams, there you can hide,even thou you can´t run, but… you always wake up. My first thought when I wake up starts with a d and ends in e. Do you know what it is? I guess that says something about me. I lost myself, a long time ago…I don’t know where…And now I don’t know who I am anymore, I wonder if I ever did, if someone ever does, Who was I? Who are you? I think I already answered you, the future is yesterday do not forget?

The only thing I can see, is the dark surrounding me…The only thing I can hear from here are their voices, well they’re screams…They walk with me, everywhere I go, they are right by my side they never leave, if I knew where I was, I wouldn’t be here, they know the answers they just won’t tell me. Where am I? How did I get here? I hope…yesterday me knows the answers, I am looking for in the past you call tomorrow.