Who am I?
Tags: Psychology, Philosophy, Psychedelics, Ego, Spirituality

It’s pretty funny this question, ‘who am I?’. If you’d ask this question to any random person, they’d probably say “ I am name, I do job, I’m age years old, I’m from origin, I’m a religion, etc.” But is this a satisfactory answer?

That you are what you’ve been told what you are ever since you were born by the people around you? Is this all there is to you? A Human Being, or is it merely an identity that we carry which we think is who we are?

Now, if this identity, that which ‘separates us from other human beings in society and the fact that we’re ‘humans’ which separates us from our surroundings, plants and animals is all there is to ‘who we are’, Why does this question spark so much curiosity and ponder? There seems to be something unsatisfactory about us being the mere ‘tags’ given to us by the people around us at birth. If all we are is what was told to us that we are, do we really know who we are?

And if this question doesn’t bother you and you are happy with who you think you are according to your rational mind, how come there are so many things we experience in this life that make no sense to our rational and logical thinking, which we thought was all there is?

Things such as ‘love’, that feeling which makes no sense and throws away everything we’ve been brought up to believe, right out the window for no logical reason or understanding, only to have us fall prey to its glory and leave us defenseless to it, and if we refuse to succumb to it, we are in a never-ending battle with ourselves which ends up driving us insane before we realize it.

Its something far more powerful than mere chemical reactions that go off in our brain firing our dopamine receptors, pumping out oxytocin which seemingly goes off at any given moment( cuz we can’t choose who we love at all, now can we?) like a time bomb, blowing all that we’ve built of ourselves(Belief system)to bits xd.

Or what about Intuition, that feeling we get in our stomach, that ‘gut-feeling’ about someone or something that we seemingly know beforehand with no conclusive knowledge as to how, which again goes against logic and rationale according to which we function in our day to day lives and turns out to be true.

Or what about connections/attachments which we form with other people, animals and seemingly inanimate objects regardless of logical reasons.

What about our passions even, are our passions something given to us at birth by our parents like our identity? Did we choose our passions? No. All we know is that we love that certain thing we are passionate about. Where does this passion come from?

These are only a handful of examples of the infinite which dictate the fact that there is most definitely something more to who we are other than our ‘identity’. This something has been given many names such as the ‘human soul’, ‘Atman’, ‘Essence’, ‘Core Being’, ‘True Self’, ‘Our Heart’, etc.

So if this ‘something more’ is existent and this ‘identity we have is also existent, which one are we? Is our ‘identity’ a sham? A lie? A pretty illusion?

That identity is what is called the ‘human ego’. What lies beyond the ego? That requires an utter dedication, a quench to find the ‘Truth’, not just a mere curiosity. Or maybe like a lot of curiosity as well, IDK.