Time travel is easy
By: Writer At Large
Tags: Memories, Love, Relationships, Paris

I time travel all the time. Now, for those of you who know me, no I am not micro-dosing again and getting the doses wrong, I am talking about Meditating and getting into a time that has passed, along with a time in the future.

Photo by RODRIGO GONZALEZ on Unsplash

Memories are tricky; in the present world, I feel when you remember something, you really only see a version of the last memory which is adjusted and not the actual events. In meditation though, I find that a very different memory surfaces. When in a meditative state, I find that you actually see the past as an observer, whereas your real memories are more in the first person (you see the memory from your eyes instead of looking at you and others from a vantage point).

I think it is the exact same thing when you manifest in life. It is hard to believe that even though I was trained in Transendential Meditation years ago, it took the shock of something to get me to do it again.

I try to “time travel” every day, when I can. I make a point of doing it before I do anything else in the morning. Lately it has been hard as my living conditions were not the best, but as I move into a new place, it has the perfect setting for meditating. On day two in the place and I have found it so good, it has taken the “travel” to a new level, which is a wee bit scary.

Over the past month, there have been four people who have come back into my life out of the blue. Each of them, I shared both a physical and an emotional connection at some point in life over the past several years. Each of them ended and each of them drifted back in my life at the exact same time. Given the time of massive retrograde we are currently in, I expected one or two would, but four is a lot for me.

W hen something ends for me, it is over. “End” is simply when I make the decision, “Ok, enough. Time to move on.” That point in time could be a much different point than what the other party to the equation believes it to be. Either way, I move on completely at some point and never look back. This is ususally after I attempt to either make something work or apologize, but in the end, I go into the woods to never return to that humans life.

What is wonderful about time traveling in meditation is you see yourself in the third person which shows you how good or bad you were. This retrograde of people forced me to revist their times. Over the course of the last eighteen months, I have been doing a ton of regression meditation and have begun to understand those periods where things go wrong and why. Being a narcissist for a period of time is usually the trigger that creates the lows while being more of an empath creates the highs for me. Given that knowledge, it is easy to then project my future through manifesting what it is I truly want to live like by starting from the right jumping off point. It is working better than I could have dreamed.

All this leads me to the four humans who came back into my life this month. It was fascinating to see the difference in the people and how they approached me. Two were clearly in the present to point out the shitty things I did to them. I already knew what I did and they were not wrong. I was not a good human to these two and they had a good time explaining it to me. I took it and got the chance to apologize and I suspect that will be it. The other two, we did not part ways badly, but we did part ways. They did not want to vent to me, they wanted to catch up. They wanted to time travel and be made to feel like they did during “our” time.

It is really hard to go back to the past and not feel different. We change, we mature and we experience different things. One of them realized that after about five minutes chatting, but the last one, the fourth and most recent to this post, simply wanted to experience a connection to a person they thought would be there forever. They wanted to feel what I feel when I meditate, but they wanted it in reality.

She wanted to physically travel in time back to when we were happy together. She wanted to live in that time again.

Was it the isolation of Covid that drove that or was it something more? She lived in Paris through Covid, which was where we met years ago. It was hard on her. She like so many others wanted to feel “connected” to someone that was familiar. I understood it and tried to help, but it is hard to time travel in reality. All you “feel” and “see” are memories. Those memories are a bastardization of the good and bad, not a realistic view of who we both were.

Growing as a human is hard. I think the world, especially the US, right now, has a very hard time realizing how wrong we are about so many things. How “memories” are not real. How many people refuse the vaccines for whatever reason, but still see their loved ones die and yet blame the Doctors for “killing” them or letting them die because they would not flush their stomachs with bleach or give them horse medicine?

State of mind, is just that, a state. You have the power to change your state of mind any time you desire. You have the power to go back in time and see yourself for who you really are and you have the power to travel forward and manifest who you “are”. To do that, you need to look in the mirror and first ask yourself,

“Am I ready to see the unvarnished truth about myself? Am I really?”

Realizing who you are is much harder than most think. They see themselves for who they think they are, yet others see a very different picture. I am blessed to be living with my youngest son who keeps me busy chatting with me about all things in his life and his world. I never had any idea just how smart he was and is. He is that way because he is constantly evaluating his own being. I am starting to teach him how to time travel. It is a skill everyone should learn if you want to improve who you are to yourself. Other people's opinions of you are completely irrelevant. You are the person you make.

In this time, the holiday time, it is easy to feel sad, happy, fortunate and all those things that may be masked by “activity”. If you really want to know how you feel, go back in time.