She inspires me to write, and to live; again.
By: Arina Salsabila
Tags: Inspire, Live, Writing, Contemplation, Mindful

I love writing. I always do. Whether it’s on my personal journal, my blog and Medium, my platform, or even my Twitter.

I love how writing can turn my random and messy thoughts into memories that I can keep and also learn from it. I love to share my thoughts, my stories, and my feelings through writing because it feels more intense and personal.

But I don't know; as the years came by, I just feel like it was quite hard to write again. I become less frequent to write about my personal stuff, be it on my personal journal, or my other personal platform.

I still do journaling, but change it to another thing; I record myself talking and have quality time with myself to get to know myself more and keep my sanity. I also try to share my thoughts and stories with other things; I made some clips and videos, also made my personal podcast.

I remembered that I once told myself to keep on writing, but unfortunately, I kinda feel like I don't have the energy to write good writing or appropriate one. I believe that I’m not someone who easily gets scared to share the things that I do, but somehow, some events and some people made me scared to write again, even on my personal platform.

one of the writing drafts that I never post and will always be on my docs.

I love writing. I always do. I remembered that I started writing in Elementary School. My parents always get me used to read books; therefore, I started writing. I write for fun, because I love to read.

When I went to Junior High School, I met someone who inspires me to write; with feelings, with heart. She is my best friend, Amira (you can find her Medium here). The moment when she reveals her daily journal book — call it a diary — made me realized that I want to write again, with my sincere heart, for the sake of myself.

I can say that Amira is one of a kind. She loves to read, also loves to write. She’s smart, warm, and really good company. If I didn’t meet her in my life, if she didn’t show her diary to me that day, if she didn’t write some words and poems back then, I don’t think I will be able to write until this very moment because she inspires me to write, and to live; again.

I love writing. I always do. But I can say these few months I feel like it’s hard to do it, to write because I want to, not because I have to. The thoughts of me writing again, having a contemplation and self-talk with myself, then turning it into another writing is just a wish that I haven’t done yet. Until I met this girl, my online mutual friend that I met on Instagram, her name is Hasna.

We actually kinda known each other since Highschool — because of the same thing that happened in the past — but only get to know each other through Instagram a few months ago. Even if I don’t really know her deeply, I’m amazed by her words, her writings, her poems, and all the encouraging little-warm-words that she writes.

When I read her writings and little words, it reminds me a lot of myself. It's about how nice it feels when you write for yourself, how healing it feels when you write your own feelings and stories, and how writing can turn your memories into something more mindful to be remembered. Her writings inspire me to start my writings journey again. You also can read all the beauty and warm words in her Medium, here.

The journey of me writing some poems and writings maybe always go up and down. But indeed, I always love to write. On our last call, she said that writing is a necessity, so don’t force yourself if you don’t feel like doing it. I love writing; I always do. Because to live is to write, and to write is to live.

She inspires me to write, and to live; again.

Write, write, and write again, darling. Your life isn’t perfect, but that’s the beauty of the journey itself. Write, write, write again, darling. You will find the peace and the memories that you want to keep through your writings later on.

September, 4th 2021.