know yr body
By: Donald Joseph Kingsbury
Tags: Mexico, Transgender, Planned Parenthood, Hormones, Orchiectomy

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Vina Vena Ash

DJ “Gellibene” Kingsbury

Jennifer Sarah Ashley

Preamble

Everyone at the clinic was wonderful. I was just angered at the idiotic rules set up just to get pregnant horse urine. I know the ramifications, I have been on it. I have 3 year old dated pregnant(estrogen) on my make-up table. I stopped taking the hormone regimen in 2017 because some random guy at the YMCA touched me. I punched him out, wanting to give him a blood eagle- but I worked in the day camp at the time. I know I am overweight, I am losing it as an art project right, I was just miffed at myself when I walked out in a cold & darken silence.

1

I went to a Planned Parenthood to get back on Estrogen (pregnant horse urine). I know I am transsexual. I just need to get my hormones in balance. I wanted to get my Estrogen legit. Pregnant Horse Urine needs to be easier to get in the United States. My hormones have been out of balance since 2004 when I had an ORCHIECTOMY(had my parasitic gonads removed). My teeth have rotted out(partly because of addiction to Code Red Mtn Dew), I am overweight( I gained weight when I got into university.) my emotions have been out of control(I didn’t write a new poem for a decade) I took time off from Long Form Improv, had a few nervous breakdowns(I couldn’t stand my own mind.) I just want/need/desire to have sum balance before I am released phrom this sdrawkcab suffocating mortal coil. I deserve sssssum happiness. I have given this consciousness a lot by just spilling my heart through poetry in 5 books. I have also made thousands of people laugh, which is just as spiritual of a release by singing HARE KRSHNA over & over & over again.

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Today my blood pressure was 160/100. It made no sense. I had been walking the stairs on the daily basis since last time. I had drank no pop for a few days. I have eaten more fruit & vegetables, relaxed a lot. Less than a month ago I had a home visit phrom a Dr. & my bp was 121/80. I was amazed. I had just woken up, didn’t even take a shower. I was 441 lbs, & my HA1C is less than 5.7%. It was a no stress environment. I put too much pressure on trying to be “legit”, have a Dr. watch my hormone levels. There is an obvious correlation ‘tween the none stress environment of the home visit & the stress level of waiting on the ok prom a Dr. to “allow me” to go on hormones. Originally I was told I would have access to liquid estrogen(Pregnant Horse Urine) but than later on by the Dr. I was informed that it would be a pill. I was outraged by that change. But to echo it shouldn’t be hard to get hormones. I want balance. I want whatever change the regimen will bring. I have nothing left to lose anymore, I am 69 years of age for the next 22 years. I am gonna die at a point anyway. It’s my life- MY BODY MY CHOICE! !!

3

I am bored by my parasitic bacon bazooka, I want a pseudo lady garden. I will most likely have to go to Mexico to get the operation done in a few years. I am hoping by 50. I just want to live out the rest of my days in a cabin with a few cats & internet access. HELL IS OTHER PEOPLE IN THESE CURRENT DARK AGES. I walked out when my bp was read as 160/100, it made no sense. I’ll get my hormones no matter wut, I’ll die on this hill. I have nothing left to lose, I AM 69 YEARS OF AGE FOR THE NEXT 22 YEARS! !!

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Aphter I stormed out in a darken silence, wearing all black. I went to the Family Dollar next door. I bought some perfume, nails, nail polish, a new brush, mtn dew & 4 peel off masks. I contemplated sum Mr. Hero, but I needed to save sum money for NYC, a city that no one ever goes to. My hostel In NYC had called & my room was canceled because they are over booked. So now i gotta stay between the train station & the work out place so I can sleep, shower & relax. I will go see a movie & stay there for hours. I will see a few friends & am doing a few open mics. Which will be cool. I haven’t performed in NYC since AAK Improv performed at DEL CLOSE MARATHON in 2012. It’ll be a fun time.

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I gotta end this because I need to go eat. I haven’t eaten for 15 hours, I have to head to the train stahp soon to head to NYC, a city where no one goes. I am 69 years of age for the next 22 years. I just want to end up in a cabin, alone, with a few cats. I just want to write & perform. I want/need/desire to make a movie. I will get my pregnant horse urine, keep my levels at a safe place so I don’t get cancer. To many women of my generation x are dying of cancer. The transgender community is rising in deaths as well, mostly phrom murders by jealous men who can’t control themselves & their urges. I will go to mexico to look for a Dr to transform my parasitical custard launcher into a pseudo LADY GARDEN, pseudo hoo hoo, PSEUDO VERTICAL SMILE! !! I got to get packing for NYC, a city where no one goes.