The Unexpected Life
By: Eternal Sunshine
Tags: Women, Suicide, Mental Health, Abuse, Nonfiction

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Later, he slowly rubbed her name from his wedding ring, and later, he left his ring off forever because he found a fancy word, “mutual divorce.” She was left in shock for days because all these years she stayed with him with the hope that he would change and they will get a happy life.

Now she hears the separation words from him. He gradually separated his family from her as a result. Soon she realized he has cooked up a strong story to portray her very bad so that no one would bad mouth about him. She lost even her family due to his made-up tale because, in his stories, she was a stubborn, selfless person and cheating on him.

He turned into a furious animal day by day with physical and verbal abuse, accusing her of affairs. All these were more than she could bear. Her son held every time she thought of leaving him. “He will live without a father.” That thought had her into Joseph until her thirteen-year-old son told her;

“He doesn’t even deserve your tears. Why are you still sticking on to him.”

But she couldn’t leave him for some reason that even she couldn’t understand. She wrote every burden from her heart into papers and sent them to me. Every time I opened her letters, I always had a heavy heart. All she wanted was to live a happy life with peace, a simple life with three of them.

“Hopeless, helpless, walking dead robot,” was how she explained herself to me the last time I saw her.

Later, I did not receive any letter from her for an extended period may be for more than six months. And suddenly, I got a call from her, but I ignored it because I was involved in my kid’s examination periods. I was going to talk to her later, which turned into never. Soon after three or four weeks, I got the news,

“Bella has died, and it was a suicide!” I was in shock for a moment.

I couldn’t believe my ears. I called everyone to know what has happened. And I got the answer, a small fever resulted in finding out her son suffering from Leukaemia, and he had only a few days left. He was the only hope for her, and she lived only for her son. She couldn’t take the news of her son being sick.

She decided to end her life before her son because she thought she couldn’t see him leaving her. Her last moments in the world were briefed into drug overdose.

I came to know this from the previous letter I received from her after a few weeks from her demise. I couldn’t complete the letter because I regret the very moment I ignored her call. I could have helped her in living or made any changes to her. If I have picked up her call, I might have her now. I don’t know.

All these regretting thoughts haunt me still now. On the other hand, Joseph has started a new life. Being a widower who a lost a son has gained a lot of sympathies and a new life.

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It’s been two years since her demise. But the missed call from her, that I ignored is my nightmare. What if I was her only hope? What if I could have saved her. All I hope now is may God grand her heaven and join her with her son for a happy life in heaven.