Moon Work-Waning Moon Day 10
By: Leigh Larue
Tags: Personal Growth, Spirituality, Moon, Personal Development, Shadow Work

My intention with starting a Medium blog was to share my personal shadow work, but I haven’t really succeeded at doing any yet. What I’ve actually been doing is reflecting on my past and recognizing some of my weaknesses, mistakes, and regrets. I’m still figuring it out. Like Richard Grannon says on YouTube, not much information is given on how to successfully go about the process. I Love Teal Swan, and I have her book ‘The Completion Process’ which is all about shadow work and healing, but it involves 18 steps. I’ve not been that committed yet. Plenty of other people write about shadow work online as well, so there’s a lot to wade through to find what works with the amount of time and energy we’re willing to give to it.

Once I ask myself a question or recognize an issue that needs to be looked at, what are some good questions I can ask of it? A couple of obvious ones are ‘How does this make me feel?’ and ‘Where/when did this originate?’ I need to get serious about this and have a list of reliable questions to refer to. Then I hope I have the courage to take it deeper.

I posted a one-card reading on Instagram this morning, and it is so fitting that I just have to share it here. Here’s the post:

‘The Shadow’ card is the highlighted card today, with ‘The Mystic’ appearing at the bottom of the deck. This is signifying that by beginning a regular shadow work practice, you are not only healing the unspeakable, the unwelcome, and the denied parts of yourself, but you’re also unknowingly becoming the Mystic, someone who is fearlessly dedicated to the path of transformation. A great way to begin this journey, or journal, is to ask the questions ‘What do I most despise about myself?’, ‘What are my regrets?’, and ‘What are my resentments?’ Deep searching and complete honesty are required. If you’re finding the work easy, you’re not doing it right. It’s the work of a lifetime and will more than likely last a lifetime.

In ‘The Wild Unknown Archetypes Deck & Guidebook, the author Kim Krans writes this about the Mystic: ‘In order to save the earth from darkness, Shiva swallows the poison of the world and holds it in his throat, slowly transmuting the liquid into nectar. This is the work of the Mystic. They do not feat the darkness but rather sit I the presence of it, harness the potential and latent energy behind it, and embed it with light. They are patient and prudent change makers, seeking growth above all else….’ She also says this: ‘It may seem that the Mystic is inward-facing, yet it’s light beams back to the world with the strength of a thousand stars’. And this: ‘Like any light worker, the Mystic must build a relationship with fire. This begins by awakening the inner flame (or tapas) within’.

I love this stuff, and you just can’t make it up. I’m always in amazement and appreciation at the divinely inspired readings, and I love sharing this magic with all who are drawn to it. Besides tarot and shadow work, I’m enjoying writing about my struggles, lessons, and hard-won spiritual wisdom. To continue with the moon work I’ve been sharing this month, what I intend to release for today is anxiety. I know this is a HUGE one, but I have faith it can be done. Listen, this is where’s it’s at in my life right now. I’ve been traveling in my van since August of this year. I’ve had highs and lows financially, and currently I’m at my lowest. I think I might have $50 to my name, my van brakes are going, and unemployment has ended. I am literally trusting the universe to come through for me in some notable way. I am praying for grace and mercy so that I am able to continue on my journey and continue to focus on my life’s work as a light worker, healer, and ‘mystic’!

I should be terrified, and I know that plenty of people are terrified for me, but I am feeling surprisingly calm. Yes, I have fleeting moments of monumental worry, but it passes quickly and easily. I know in my soul that the universe won’t let me fall. I have finally found my path, or at least partially, and am committed to it and thoroughly enjoying it. When we’re sharing our gifts with the world in the best way we know how, there is no doubt we won’t be provided for.