Moon Work-Waning Moon Day 1
By: Leigh Larue
Tags: Fire, Spirituality, Daily Blog, Personal Development, Transformation

For this first night of the waning moon, I’ve decided that my tendency towards a negative mindset needs to go. There comes a time when even a whisper of negativity sounds like a foghorn. I’ve grown weary of hearing myself say anything that is not constructive and conscious. Alas, the time has come where positive change is beckoning. Taking the initiative to make this vital shift is exceptionally empowering, and I’m allowing myself to forget and remember and remember again. As with anything else, it’s a process. Let’s be patient with and compassionate towards ourselves.

There are many forms of negativity, some of which are negative self talk, too often expressing our self-doubt & insecurities, judging others, and being pessimistic in general. This negativity, even as innocent as it seems at times, unfortunately manifests in our individual and collective realities eventually and in one way or another. There are those that have been on the spiritual path for a time, and they take the power of positivity very seriously. We would all benefit by doing the same.

I was hearing myself speak today, and I was all too aware of how I sounded. I often find myself playing it small, denying my prospects, and underselling my abilities. Modesty overdone can be detrimental to our wellbeing and our self-growth, and it does not inspire others. For some reason, this brings to mind a book that was big in the nineties, ‘You Can’t Afford the Luxury of a Negative Thought’ by Peter McWilliams. Thoughts become words, become actions, become patterns, become a way of life, become our cellular makeup, become disease/dis-ease, become our downfall. Not only that, but it sets an example for others to follow that will continue this damaging domino effect. Let’s own our strengths and empower each other to express the very best in ourselves for the benefit of all. If we’re caught up in judging ourselves, others, or events around us, we can expect to see more of what we are not desiring.

In attempting to make positive changes such as these, sometimes we can have the tendency to overcompensate in the opposite direction for a period of time until we find our equilibrium. If we’ve been negative and pessimistic most of our lives, we are likely to go too far in the deep end of over-positivity and vice versa. Just being aware of this to begin with might be a helpful reminder to seek out this balance sooner than later. I myself used to be much more positive in general, but through an abundance of life challenges I seemed to have lost that innate gift. Now, trying to correct this, I hope to ease into that middle ground smoothly and swiftly.

I’m ready to be positive, powerful, and self-assured. I’m eager to step into my role as light worker, torch bearer, and leader of my own destiny. This means I need to be willing to take chances and risk failing and feeling like an idiot at times. Am I up for this challenge? More so than ever. It doesn’t just wipe away the doubts or throw all my fears out the window, but it gives me permission to be less than perfect and grow organically over time without the self-judgment or condemnation.

I don’t have to control everything around me, and I don’t have to hide in a protective bubble. Events, reactions, and opinions outside of my control are not my responsibility. I just have to do my part and do it the best way I know how. One step at a time. In faith and with patience, it will all unfold as it unfolds. Conscious creation with allowance of imperfection. Dancing to the tune of the natural beat of the universe, trusting that we are consciously created and perfectly placed to fulfill our higher missions. It all begins with this shift from doubt to trust, in ourselves as well as the divine plan of our creator.

Since this is a time of release, I will write down all that does not serve me in regards to negativity. All on separate pieces of paper, torn and small and easy to burn. I’ll set some time aside to burn each separately, so as to give thoughtful consideration to the pieces of myself that I am ready to transmute. I will forgive myself for unwittingly taking ownership of these shards of negativity before setting them free. And, I will give gratitude for how they once served me and protected me and for now being bold enough to move forward without them. So it is.