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About Me — Charlene Annabel. Born on the sunny island of Singapore…
By: Charlene Annabel
Tags: About Me, Biography, Stories, Self Introduction

Born on the sunny island of Singapore, I’ve always been the kid who’s slightly more tanned than her peers, a goody-good student to her teachers, and a girl next door as my friends would come to describe me as.

A Travel Lover

Growing up, I’ve had my fair share of travelling to various parts of the world, particularly the South-East Asian region and down under. My parents made it a point to travel as a family once every year.

Even as a child during then, I was always amazed at how tiny my presence mattered in an enormous world. The culture, food, historical landmarks, tradition, and well preserved scenic places fired up the child-like curiosity in me that there and then, I aspired to be Columbus; venturing into territories I’ve never been.

Travelling has always been a source of comfort away from the complexities of life. It’s a magic portal that transports you to another dimension, and for a moment, you forget all your worries back home; living life as it should be. That power to connect with the world defines a part of me — a girl who’s ever seeking adventures to quell her insatiable hunger for worldly experiences that I could only fulfil for as long as I live.

A Book Worm

In an Asian household, making sure your child grows up to be intellect is a given. Naturally then, books of different genres filled my shelves (though occasionally, when we’re out shopping for books, I’d slip into the cart a few horror storybooks.)

Even till this day, I still use books as a means of escapism — from the stillness of life. It’s an excellent way for me to unwind from a day’s worth of hustle and to gain a myriad of knowledge from admirable authors.

In summary, I’m someone who prefers using my time to learn, grow, and expand my perspectives. Some of my favourite influential figures include:

Bill Gates (an avid reader who recommends thought-provoking books)

Barack Obama (a genuinely knowledgeable, inspiring, and charismatic leader)

Yuval Noah Harari (an independent thinker who brings about perspectives you probably haven’t thought before)

A Gamer Girl

Yes, I’m a massive nerd for games as well! As a child, I spend most of my time gaming with my dad — from computer games to console games; you name it, we have it. More often than not, my favourite part of going to the mall would be geeking over the latest video game releases or the Xbox.

Psst, here are a couple of fun facts:

I built my gaming computer from scratch

I still keep a collection of most gaming consoles since my childhood days — even the ancient Game Boy that powered on cartridges

As a girl, you’d probably think I play more feminine games such as The Sims (it’s more popular among women), but for some reasons, I like Call of Duty and Assassin’s Creed better.
This was a fun and inspiring collaboration. Thanks for inviting me along on this journey Sabana.
By: Tree Langdon
Tags: Bullying, Biography, Parenting, Relationships, Life Lessons

This was a fun and inspiring collaboration. Thanks for inviting me along on this journey Sabana.
About Me — Shabaira Junaid. “The only journey is the one within.” —…
By: Shabaira Junaid
Tags: About Me, Introduction, Personal, Biography

About Me — Shabaira Junaid

Photo created by freepik — www.freepik.com

Being the eldest among my siblings, I’ve always been the responsible one. I’m an introvert, and I come across as very reserved and quiet, but those who know me well would suggest otherwise.

I completed my ACCA and worked in Finance, Accounting and Auditing jobs before I chose to become a stay-at-home mother. I live with my husband and two lovely kids, a daughter who’s thirteen, and a son who’s nine years old.

I’ve always been fascinated by words and writing and wanted to write myself, but I couldn’t get myself to do it because I feared judgment. It took a great deal of courage and convincing myself, to do what I’ve dreamt of doing.

Interests and hobbies

Being an introvert, I crave solitude. I love my time alone and like to spend it reading books, listening to music, watching TV, or doing nothing. I love travelling and discovering new places.

I’m particularly good at procrastinating and using humour and sarcasm to vent my feelings of anger and frustration.

What I write about

I’ve not bound myself to any particular niche yet, as I’m still discovering myself. I like to write about life, experiences, parenting, and anything else I find interesting.
What Did Marie Curie Discover?
By: Maddy M
Tags: Scientist, Important Events, Biography, History, Marie Curie

Inspired by Wilhelm Roentgen’s discovery of X-rays, Henri Becquerel was studying its properties using naturally fluorescent materials in 1896. While observing its behavior under a magnetic field, he found that Uranium emits rays that are different from X-rays.

This motivated Marie Curie to pursue her research in the field of uranium rays and their electromagnetic properties.

When Curie experimented on uranium rays, she found that uranium rays remained constant regardless of the form of Uranium. Hence, these rays must have come from Uranium’s atomic structure. To describe this phenomenon, she coined the term ‘Radioactivity.’ Marie’s study on radioactivity gave birth to a new field of physics called Atomic physics.

Marie’s husband joins her research

By this time, her husband, Pierre Curie, was very impressed and intrigued by her research. So, he decided to drop his research and help her in her discovery.

Marie worked with two minerals of Uranium. She also sampled tonnes of the ore Pitchblende to understand more about its radioactive properties. She and Pierre began searching for other elements that are radioactive. In the year 1898, they discovered that the element Thorium was also radioactive.

Marie presented a brief paper on her discovery in the year 1898 since she knew that sharing her discovery with the world as early as possible was necessary to establish her predominance as an important woman scientist.

After years of extensive research, Marie and Pierre discovered two radioactive elements that they named “Polonium” and “Radium”.

Marie and Pierrie in their laboratory, 1904 — By Unknown author — hp.ujf.cas.cz (uploader= — Kuebi 18:28, 10 April 2007 (UTC)), Public Domain, Link

Unfortunately, Pierre Curie died in a road accident in the year 1906. After his death, Madame Curie continued her research on radioactivity. She isolated the element Radium in 1910 and devised an international standard to measure radioactivity.

Winning the Nobel prizes

In 1903, Henri Becquerel, Pierre Curia, and Marie Curie were awarded (together) the Nobel prize for Physics for their work on radioactivity.

A picture of the 1903 Nobel Diploma for Physics — By Dannybalanta2011–04–16 / Public domain

In the year 1911, she won her second Nobel prize, in Chemistry, for the discovery of Radium and Polonium.

This is a snippet from the biography of Madam Marie Curie. Read her entire biography here: Interesting facts about Marie Curie
Fbi Prince Biography & Music Career
By: De Thrills Music
Tags: Biography, Fbi Prince

Prince Monday Popularly known as Fbi Prince, is an American Nigerian Rapper, Singer Songwriter, Performing Artist, Video Producer/Director and a Computer Scientist who was Born on 15 July ,1995 in Eleme, Rivers State . Pkute is from Rivers State, Nigeria in the Western Part of Africa. He was Formally called Fbipkute as a nickname/stage name.

Music Career

FBI PRINCE Started Music at an Early age and has gone into various filed of Entertainment and musical works.

Fbi Prince (Pkute) is a rapper /song writer and a video producer/Director. He is also a virtue artist he draws art.

He has created awareness about his music around his area and state . Engaging with fans who love his sounds

Prince is planning on working with Nigerian American Pop singer “Davido” Dmw Boss on his new song titled Fake Love (Forth Coming Release). Fbi Prince was the first wowapp ambassador in Nigeria

Educational Background

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He was a student of benson Kenule Benson Saro-wiwa polytechnic, (Kenpoly) Formally Known as Rivers State Polytechnic in Bori, Rivers State, Nigeria

COURSE: COMPUTER SCIENCE

FAMILY & Early Life: He started his music career 2014 and leter gave a brake to finish his education, Pirnce Monday is the first born and only son with three female ,His Dad is an electrical engineer, And mom is a business woman who loves marketing…
The myth of math: why it’s never too late to begin.
By: Henry Jacobs
Tags: Biography, Learning, University, Mathematics, Data Science

In my early teens, a myth was often told amongst my young peers. Though the myth was formulated in several different ways, its essence remained constant: math was to be useless in the grown-up world.

Photo by Antoine Dautry on Unsplash

Investing in the myth

Somehow, I believed that a career requiring a solid mathematical background wouldn’t be of much interest for me, thus fortifying my own belief in the uselessness of mathematics. As a consequence, I did not put much effort in math classes (or anything that comes remotely close to maths) and chose for a major that would reduce my scientific involvement to its bare minimum.

As I let this poor choice compound into the future, the time remaining before another life-changing decision was slowly diminishing. Ultimately, I needed to decide what I wanted to do with my life, and choose a curriculum that would grant me access to a career in my field of choice.
Book Review: When You Don’t Like Your Story
By: Michelle Renee Kidwell
Tags: Biography, Christian, Book Review, Memoirs

When You Don’t Like Your Story

What If Your Worst Chapters Could Become Your Greatest Victories?

by Sharon Jaynes

Nelson Books

Thomas Nelson

Biographies & Memoirs | Christian | Religion & Spirituality

Pub Date 26 Jan 2021

I am reviewing a copy of When You Don’t Like Your Story through Nelson Books/Thomas Nelson and Netgalley:

In When You Don’t Like Your Story we are reminded that many people aren’t happy with the stories that God is writing in their lives. We feel that the mistakes, failures, tragedies, and circumstances outside of our control linger in our minds and hold us back. But the author reminds us that God turns our broken stories into beautiful prose and the unwanted pages in the book that is our life into stunning narratives of victory.

Author Sharon Jaynes reminds us that our ravaged pages can turn into God’s redemptive victory. She goes on to teaming us that though we live our life forwards, we understand it backwards. She goes on to point at that their are times we prefer to live in the certainty of dysfunction rather than to embrace the uncertainty of change.

It is pointed out too that God does not simply want to comfort us in our distress, but infant he also wants to heal us from the history of hurt that causes it.. we are reminded too that just as forgiving others sets us free from the hate place forgiving ourselves sets us free from shame.

We are reminded too that our story is a divine weapon that has the power to defeat the devil. It is pointed out too that struggles remove fluff from our Faith to make it rock solid, and that hardships can prepare ordinary people from an extraordinary destiny.

I give When You Don’t Like Your Story five out of five stars!

Happy Reading!
Gauri Kulkarni bio, birthdate, Aai Kuthe Kay Karate, age and more
By: Prachi Katalkar
Tags: Biography, Actors, Marathi, Actors Life

Gauri was born on 23rd September in Beed. Gauri was educated at Savarkar Vidyalaya in Beed district.She completed her junior college in Beed and her engineering education in Pune. While in Pune, Purshotam Firodia was participating in it to sing.She has also acted in a play in Purushottam. And then director Girish Datar saw Gauri in a workshop for the Rang Sangeet competition and asked her to act.In her last year, she staged the play Jatakavina in which the role played by Gauri was also awarded. Then she realized we could act and she was interested in it.

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The fairytale you didn’t mean to write…
By: Brittani Bomar
Tags: Toxic Relationships, Domestic Abuse, Recovery, Relationships, Love

“Once upon a time…” used to be this idea that would elevate our sense of hope and wonder for what was to come…

In our twenty-somethings, once-upon-a-time doesn’t seem to spark that same sense of idealistic love that we once assumed was destined for us according to our life’s plan. This transitional phrase no longer leaves us longing for the Prince Charming or Cinderella that would sweep us off of our feet. It no longer predicts the goosebump-first-kiss-in-the-rain. Our once-upon-a-time is now a story that is written of first loves and heart break…

…filled with the eternal wearing of our souls than the momentary wearing of glass slippers and ball gowns…

Somehow, the same way we stitched together those visions of our dream home, handsome bank account along with an equally established husband, we are left with a needle and thread too large to thread and an instruction guide in an unfamiliar language telling us exactly what to do…with no translator present.

At one point in time I had found my dream, or so I would’ve liked to believe.

The fairytale of what we experienced versus those we lived when our parents brought us to Disney World as kids become just that; a story so illogical and for lack of better word — crazy — that we sit and try to reason and imagine it happening, reliving every moment, but somehow we are stunned at the reality so much so that instead of wishing upon a star, we simply wished it had never happened — or only the bitter parts anyway.

I am not here to smear anyone’s name because I loved him and will always love the parts of him that made me feel as though I was writing my own once-upon-a-time. My mistake was trying on the glass slippers while trying to love Prince Eric — we just didn’t belong together. I know that my testimony will be someone else’s rescue story and that is the sole reason I have chosen to open up about my deepest love and darkest experience. When you pursue what is not meant for you, you will experience heartache you never fathomed. So, for those of you searching for your once upon a time, be careful of the main characters you let into your fairytale; they may belong in someone else’s story. More importantly, be careful of who you let yourself become in the process. God determines your chapters, your story, and your ending — he will let you take the pen from his hands, but take it from me, it will be nowhere near what he has in store for you.
Best Portable Rugged Shockproof 3.5 Inch Sata HDD Case Usb 3.0/Type C To Protect Our Data From All Disaster & Accident
By: Jannah Firdaus Mediapro Art
Tags: Computer Science, Hdd, Disaster, Recovery, Data

Data is vey important and until today we still use hdd as no 1 to save our expensive and important data. We can use military grade rugged external 3.5 hdd case usb 3.0/type c to protect our data from disaster and accident.

1) Portable Oyen Digital Novus USB-C Rugged 3.5-Inch External Hard Drive Enclosure

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The Novus features an aluminum body encased in a silicon rubber sleeve for maximum protection and impact resistance. Through rigorous development and testing, the most reliable components are selected to provide the best possible performance and reliability.

The USB-C interface provides fast transfer rates by connecting to a USB 3.1/3.0 or Thunderbolt 3 port.

2) Portable ORICO RS200RC3 3.5 inch 2 Bay Aluminum Alloy Type-C Hard Drive Enclosure with Raid & Silicone Cover

ORICO RS200RC3 is a honeycomb series 2 bay 3.5-inch Type-C rugged hard disk storage system hard disk enclosure with Usb Type-C interface.

Shockproof silicone cover will protect the hdd from any damage and this case support 2 sata hdd 3.5 inch pc desktop.

3) Portable Orico RS400RC3 3.5 inch 4 Bay Aluminum Alloy Type-C Hard Drive Enclosure with Raid and Silicone Cover

ORICO RS400RC3 is a honeycomb series 4 bay 3.5-inch Type-C hard disk storage system hard disk enclosure and USB Type-C interface. This case support 4 hdd 3.5 inch pc desktop. The silicone shockproof cover will protect this hdd case enclosure from all disaster.
HOW TO RECOVERY FUNDS (CRYPTOCURRENCY) LOST TO ANY FORM OF ONLINE SCAM
By: Arshdeep Staples
Tags: Blockchain, Binary Options, Bitcoin, Investment, Recovery

HOW TO RECOVERY FUNDS (CRYPTOCURRENCY) LOST TO ANY FORM OF ONLINE SCAM

How to recover your money from forex schemes, brokers, binary, fake investments proposals ,funds recovery from any other form of online scam or other fake platforms .

READ THE FOLLOWING :

Investment scam is all over the place in recent time and due to greediness people fall victim daily to bogus promises.

I was scammed on investing in bxtcoin.com ensuring a guaranteed return. I sent them 1.0089BTC . This was one of the biggest mistakes of my life, after which I got blocked and couldn’t contact them anymore.

I felt so frustrated and devastated, not until I saw on YouTube a referral for a recovery agency Quadhacked@gmaiL.com , this agent saved my life , he helped me hack the rippers, expose their real identities and I was able to recoup all I lost.

I’m doing this because I know there are people out there falling for everyday scams, send a message to QUADHACKED@gmail.com , Go get your money back .
Welcome Monday Morning !
By: Kimberly Arnelle
Tags: Grace, Bounce Back, Recovery

Bounce Back

Bounce Back! This weekend caught me by surprise as I felt a little tired on Saturday, and then not so good later that evening. But as I listened to.my body I had to take my own dose of Friday Flow medicine and allow myself to Grant Grace to …ME! I gently heard In my Spirit. ..you will Bounce Back!! And PTL SUNDAY CAME AND THAT I DID

Too often we push through warnings and knowing, fearful of what we may miss out on (nosey lol) or miss doing. We can be our own worst critics, but please know Beloved that you can BOUNCE BACK. A little time of recovery when Prescribed is always in order. Allow the Re- freshing to occur propelling your forward in the BOUNCE and receive the New Pep in Your Step!

I release a new buoyancy , bounce, a new spring and greater elasticity over you now!

I pray a New SUNDAY and NEW DAY for you on today in your walk, your life your prayers and your plans! Spring Forth, and remember to

Welcome Monday Morning!

#welcomemondaymorning #recovery #mindyourvisions #selfcare#givegrace#prayervisionfaith#praywellstaywell
this surprising thing made me realize that my eating disorder is valid
By: Christina Jumper
Tags: Bulimia, Eating Disorders, Weight, Recovery, Relapse

It’s Christmas evening and I’m lying on my couch watching Klaus and picking at a salad. Despite being invited by friends to join them in their intimate holiday gathering, I’m feeling a little anxious and have elected to spend the day in the company of my cats and my family via FaceTime. Honestly, there are worse ways to spend a solo holiday.

One of the reasons I’m feeling alright is that just two days ago, I created a GoFundMe page to help fund my bulimia treatment after being told that the cost of admission to the facility alone would be more than I’d had in the bank in years — even BEFORE the pandemic. To my shock, we raised $5,000 in less than 24 hours. “Overwhelmed with gratitude” doesn’t even begin to describe how I feel.

However, there is a gnawing anxiety getting in the way of my joy. It wasn’t long after the donations started trickling in before I was having intrusive thoughts saying things like “You just did this for attention”, “You’re 28 and have to ask people for money? What a loser”, and my personal favorite: “You’re not even that skinny — people probably think you’re faking it”.

Let’s let that last one sink in for a second.

Now, we’ve known for awhile that a person’s weight is not necessarily an indicator of the severity of their eating disorder. In fact, this 2019 study shows that the patients with the most aggressive forms of the illness often had greater BMIs upon intake than others who weighed less.

Despite this knowledge, there is still an unspoken bias against normal or overweight ED sufferers. There is a sense that they haven’t worked hard enough, or followed the rules, or lost enough weight. (This is despite research that previously overweight people with EDs, who might look normal at their sickest, are sometimes more at risk for sudden health problems because of the rate at which they initially lose weight.)

And it’s not just other people with eating disorders making these judgements. The healthcare system is also to blame, to an extent. Although there have been progressive strides made, such as the relatively recent addition of Binge Eating Disorder (BED) to the DSM5, the fact that a person’s BMI is still used to diagnose patients with an ED indicates that we have a ways to go until we drop the stigmas associated with not looking “sick enough”.

I know more about eating disorders than the average person, having been battling its forms for over 14 years. I also like to think that I’m logical and analytical. Therefore, I know IN MY HEAD that just because I weigh 15lbs more now than I did at my lowest adult weight, my bulimia is still critical enough to warrant residential treatment.

But tell that to my bulimia.
RECOVERY ENERGY
By: Angelica O Rourke
Tags: Tarotenergy4u, Tarot, Hope, Recovery

What is the key to recovery? What does ‘recovery’ mean in your life? The shakeup in your life you have recently experienced has begun to heal. You know you have the strength to not only make it through, but you also have the ability to learn from this Leo energy.

The Leo energy represented by the lion showing up in the Strength card and in the 7 of Wands card has to do with the heart and spine. Leo represents a sense of play and of innocence. Leo energy is optimistic and looks to the future.

I heard that depression is focusing on the past and anxiety is focusing on the future. So, even though you can look to future in optimism, it can still take you out of the now and enjoying the moment you are in.

The key to discovery and contentment is within your reach. As they say, one day at a time.
Magic Rescue — Recuperação de Dados
By: Marcos Henrique
Tags: Dados, Recovery, 100security, Magic Rescue

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Naughty or Nice?
By: Andy C
Tags: Addiction, Aa, Recovery, Christmas, Inventory

A share at the Huddle meeting, where Step #8 was the topic.

“Step #8 is the Christmas Step, making a list and checking it twice, goanna find out where I was naughty, not nice.”

We laughed out loud.

Merry Christmas.
Recover JPEG — Recuperação de Imagens JPEG
By: Marcos Henrique
Tags: Recover Jpeg, Recuperação De Dados, Dados, Recovery, 100security

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Recuperar arquivos deletados usando TestDisk
By: Marcos Henrique
Tags: Testdisk, 100security, Recovery

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Unbent
By: Riley Wilson
Tags: Recovery, Poetry, Feminism, Rape Culture, Poem

Riley Wilson

With thoughts in hand,

Perpetrators in reprimand,

Breathe freely as can be,

Healing will come to thee;

Men of these, aren’t meant

To hinder women of we

Gather we may at the kent

His wrath is left no longer unbent.
Mandy-
Tags: Active Listening, Grief, Recovery, Inspiration, Grief And Loss

Mandy-

Your article is a testament to your understanding of what active listening really is.

In my not so humble opinion as a former oncology and hospice nurse and active cancer support group facilitator for over a decade, I can see by your choice of scene from “Inside Out” you really get it!

It’s a rare quality and I am grateful you are in the work.

I must also openly confess so others understand just how hard it is to do this work effectively, especially when you are positively wired like Joy, or ME…

Positivity is hard to turn on and off like a knob or light switch. However, if we are willing to slow down and take active control of our thinking, it’s possible.

You must be able to extricate your own beliefs and be willing to sacrifice the immediate desire to resolve the pain of another by understanding that resolution is an individual process without timelines or boundaries. Not safety boundaries, but physical boundaries like nature for example.

I recently read an article by a man who is slowly losing control of his body and how healing it was for him to get his scooter close enough to touch a tree.

We never know where the healing will come from but it surely won’t come from rushing to push past the pain or grief…

We feel for a reason. We cry for a reason.

Your article is professionally relevant and timely as many can benefit from reading and reflecting on your words before they attempt to help their friend or loved one “get over” their grief.

This was an anti “get over it” message and I am #Grateful you wrote it.

I could go on but I won’t.

So good!

Thank You!
How to Avoid Eating Disorder Triggers During the Holidays
By: News You Can Use
Tags: Eating Disorders, Holidays, Recovery

By Communicare

The holiday season is usually associated with fun traditions, especially those that revolve around food. However, for someone struggling with an eating disorder, the holidays can be especially stressful and challenging. Here are our best tips to help you enjoy the holidays with less stress:

1. Be mindful of the holidays. Holidays are not just for eating and drinking. Shift the focus away from food by taking time to reflect on the significance of being together with your friends and family and the joy it brings to be together, happy and healthy.

2. Cope ahead. One of the most important things is to know your triggers. If there are certain conversation topics or situations that can be challenging for you to cope with, envision how you want to react-in a healthy way — if or when they happen. Prepare what you will say because it can help you stay calm and focused.

3. Continue with your treatment. Don’t put your recovery on pause; keep meeting your treatment team and continue with your therapy like normal.

4. Communicate. Tell your loved ones about your situation, explain your fears and concerns and tell them how much you value their support and encouragement. An open and honest dialogue can make them aware of your eating disorder’s complexity and the difficulties that holidays can bring.

5. Set boundaries. After you tell friends and family about your recovery process, ask them not to be pushy with food or conversation topics. Explain they can help you avoid some common triggers with just a little effort and care on their part.

6. Have a support friend. Make arrangements with some of your recovery peers or friends to act as your support during the holidays if you begin to struggle or have panic attacks. At this time, having a support buddy can be especially powerful and uplifting.

7. Have a stress outlet. Whether it’s writing, jogging, walking, painting or yoga, make sure you have some creative or active stress outlet you can turn to throughout the holiday season.

8. Have an exit strategy. A simple step is to prepare what you’ll say if you want to leave a gathering early. Don’t let anyone guilt-trip you; your recovery always comes first.

9. Don’t skip meals. Skipping meals is a slippery slope, especially during the holiday season. Follow your meal plan, keep your regular eating habits and remember your why.

Keeping up with your recovery during the holiday season requires some thoughtfulness and planning, but it’s not impossible. And if you don’t stick exactly to your plan, don’t beat yourself about it.

If you or a loved one needs help with this or any other issue, Communicare is here for you. Take a look at our services and don’t hesitate to contact us!
Seeing myself for the first time at 40.
By: Ash Hj
Tags: Healing, Recovery, Self Love, Self Acceptance, Self-awareness

Seeing myself for the first time at 40.

Put your hands up if you lost everything during this pandemic. What I really mean to ask is: did the floor under you give out? Are you free floating in anxiety, trying to save yourself?

This year I realized that my 4 year relationship with an emotionally unavailable man had become untenable. The reason I was with him (I realize now) was because I was emotionally unavailable and severed from myself. We’d been living as expats for the last 3 years and were thrilled to come back to Canada last December, a couple months before lock downs started happening all over the world.

When we broke up, he took the kitten and the internet plan. I didn’t have internet access for a week, and my life suddenly got very quiet. It was like a Vipassana meditation course I didn’t sign up for.

A couple things I discovered:

Many of my positive personality traits were developed in part to hide feelings of worthlessness and shame

The reason I struggle with closeness, intimacy and relationships is because I was insecurely attached growing up, and also endured abuse

Deep down I felt like a little girl wanting so much to be seen, protected and cared for

As someone who identifies as a strong, independent, queer, feminist, poc, educated, outspoken, etc, etc, admitting these things were so f’n shameful. I felt disgusted and sorry for myself.

I’m writing to understand how it came to be at 40, I’m finally tuning into myself. For the first time in my life I’m giving myself the steady, loving presence and attention that I so craved my whole life.
Self-Compassion and Big-Picture Thinking Post-Relapse
By: Charlotte R.F.
Tags: Addiction, Self Compassion, Recovery, Relapse, Personal Essay

Self-Compassion and Big-Picture Thinking Post-Relapse

It was a few days after Christmas 2017 that I had to confront myself over the fact that something was undeniably wrong. Staying with my mom for the holidays, I’d returned to her house after a visit with other family members, gone down to the basement, selected a bottle of vintage red, poured myself what was intended to be my one glass of the night, and sat down at the table with my laptop.

As the minutes passed while I sipped my wine, a subtle feeling of warmth and pleasure gradually arose in my psyche. Although I’d told myself I would enjoy the subdued afterglow of just one glass, the feeling called to me, urging me not to let it fade, even to transform it into something greater and more intense.

The memory of the soaring grandiosity of drunken euphoria proved to be too tempting for me that night. A few hours later, I’d snuck a second bottle upstairs and was chasing that perfect state of bliss where I’d reached just the right level of inebriation.

This was far from the first time I’d done it. I’d had issues with occasional binge drinking in the past, but had managed to be sober for around three years before Winter 2017, long enough to finally escape the siren song of unfettered alcoholic indulgence — but not permanently.

The next morning, through the fog of my hungover malaise, I could no longer avoid admitting to myself that it had become a problematic pattern again. I’d sworn to myself multiple times that it wouldn’t.

Despite my intentions to better control my alcohol intake, over the next few months my habit only became more frequent, eventually blossoming into a full-fledged psychological addiction that would have a debilitating grip on me, on-and-off for years afterward.
Ep67 — Saved by Sobriety: The House Fire Cheryl Survived
By: Matt Salis
Tags: Addiction, Recovery, Health, Mental Health, Alcoholism

Have you ever cheated death? Have you ever had too much to drink, and put yourself in a dangerous situation? Have you ever passed out unable to protect yourself should the need arise? Have you ever left your children in the care of a spouse so drunk he couldn’t possibly answer the call should they need him? Have you gotten away with it despite flirting with disaster so many times?

Cheryl Kuechler had flirted with drunken disaster. And had she not chosen sobriety two years ago, she would surely have died in early December 2020. Please listen to her story, and consider donating to the fund to help her put her life back together.

Click here to Donate to Cheryl’s Restoration Fund

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Worth Blogging About
By: Liam Ashtyn
Tags: LGBTQ, Ftm Top Surgery, Transgender, Recovery, Transman

No, today isn’t some great milestone that I’ve achieved in my journey to recovery…but it is (I think) a very good day.

Since my two surgeries in September (my top surgery & my skin graft procedure) I’ve been dealing with a lot — complications from my initial surgery, skin grafts that died, open wounds, edema, and a great deal of scar tissue.

Yes, I’m still dealing with the edema and scar tissue, but my wounds have healed very nicely. I just need to get some treatment done to help with the scars. I’m going to physical therapy 2–3 times a week to help get rid of the edema and scar tissue, and I’m really happy with my two therapists. I know I’ve got a long road ahead — it won’t be an easy process…but I’ll get there.

So…other than that, you’re probably asking yourself why today is such a good day. Well, I’ll tell ya. I had yet another virtual follow-up with my amazing surgeon this morning. She is one in a million — couldn’t have asked for anyone better. During the appointment, she kept telling me how good I look in such a short amount of time — how I’m healing wonderfully. She also said that I have handled this much better than most (she’s pretty proud of me). Annnnnnddddd…she asked me if I had been working out and doing push-ups. I told her that my physical therapist didn’t want me doing push-ups just yet, though I have been given other exercises to do. When I asked her why…guess what she said??!! “When you’re moving around, I can see your pecs flexing, and they are very defined. They will just continue to get more defined as you heal and start to add more into your workouts.” Whaaaaaattt???” 😁😁😁

So…while I still have quite a ways to go to get the chest I want (and deserve), today…I feel pretty damn good. I have a feeling that 2021 may just be my year. 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

Peace and love to all of you! Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!!!

Liam
2 Ways to Recover Permanently Deleted Word Documents on Mac
By: Rosa Kaman
Tags: Data Recovery, Data Recovery Software, Recover Word Document, Recovery

Imagine, you have spent hours of typing a Word document on Mac, but simply by a mistake or accident, the Word document got deleted permanently (you could not even find the document in your Trash Bin), wasn’t this a disaster? If you are facing such a disaster, calm down first, then follow our guide to retrieve your permanently deleted Word document on Mac.

First, Stop Writing to Your Mac

This is a crucial step to restore your word documents.

Why? The reason why we are still able to recover a permanently deleted Word document is because that the file is still saved on your Mac, we just cannot find the portal to access to your Word document, as long as there is no new data or files added to your Mac, we still have the chance to get them back, the faster we take actions to do the recovery, the higher success rate for us to retrieve the document.

Therefore, stop writing or run any programs on your Mac immediately after losing your Word documents permanently, then follow the guide below to get them back.
Early phase of addiction
Tags: Substance Abuse, Addiction, Addiction Recovery, Recovery

The early phase of addiction can be a happy place. It is when you are still conscious mentally as you choose to make your self happy whenever you take your vice. That early phase is the best feeling you can have. It can be better than most things in life. That stage is like a wedding day in heaven. After a while the true identity of the devil you marry shows himself. That is when you see addict gone too far from the point of no return.
One of thanks
By: Moses In The Wild
Tags: Love Letters, Yogasutras, Recovery, Marriage Proposal, Love

The boys are home and it is glorious..i am in awe, ..it is just what you’ve become.. it’s glorious your new tone.. I’m sure this is what we thought it would be.. so close now.. throwing that word love around ..this is how we live.

But let me confess .. I have only known the life of regret.. and let me confess I would have lived that life.. but I need this one with you now .. I am in this one…I will live this one … your face is the only face … I have written well, but this life I will live..

I am naked in the living room pressed up against that rug.. here in this place we’ve built. Here where fate is a quartet of ones .. and I can’t help it … confessing this way. Wrapping my arms around you this way.. changing my passwords to reflect these days as we build the new .. something you said in passing, and now I’m confessing to you. We have said the words .. and we have longed to be.. and now it is nice.. and now it feels safe.. and now I have let the death and the fear of being me.. and joined the life that has requested me.. your only request … like all those times before.. like all those hanging moons.. like all those promised kisses and how I’d die in your arms .. but choose instead to live in your light… you call it warmth and I call it truth

So I refused to finish.. no need to be perfect tonight.. life is not a series of perfect occasions so I’ll leave that outside .. we live inside… and God is here

“If only he loved you.” (they will not say these words) They will not be the words spoken after I’ve crumpled like loose skin.. far too much to pick up and bury outside.... marriage proposals are like this.. far too much skin to leave in the sink. But I love you and I’ve surrendered.. cause your joy is breath.. and the remnants of fear have stopped blocking that drain and the doors have all opened. With your sweet suckling kiss… this life is for adoration.. the love cluttering the floor.. this life is for giving.. your hands tied to my pillows .. as I promise you more.. giving you more..

You’ve allowed me to become gentle… required it as you lay flat rocks as a path.. laying your head on my chest.. allowed me to coax a dragon through the eye of your needle.. and I am grateful..

“My remarks have become grateful..and I am grateful.. and the confession is one of thanks, kissing all of your lips.. this forever now a word.. reality theory.. this forever is now” — -Moses in the wild

Art credit : Loving Couple, Mithuna, 13th century, Orissa, India. Eastern Ganga dynasty.
What Is “Crosstalk” and Why Do Addicts Avoid It?
By: Benya Clark
Tags: Addiction, Recovery, Alcoholism, Mental Health, Sobriety

What Is “Crosstalk” and Why Do Addicts Avoid It?

One of the most common guidelines in addiction recovery groups is for participants to avoid crosstalk. Although the policy first gained traction in AA, it has since spread to other recovery programs and even internet forums.

The definition of crosstalk varies slightly between recovery groups and meetings. Generally speaking, it means giving advice or responding directly to another addict, rather than addressing the group as a whole. Various groups will have their own unique takes and enforcement levels when it comes to this rule.

The prohibition is also common in online recovery spaces. Although the popular Reddit forum /r/stopdrinking doesn’t use the word crosstalk, it has a similar guideline, which suggests speaking from the “I”:

That means don’t tell others what they should or must do. It’s better to phrase your advice in terms of your own story, talking about what worked for you.

This ethos is even reflected in the way that many addicts speak about their addictions in public. For example, when celebrities with addictions are interviewed, they typically emphasize their own addiction stories rather than providing advice for others.

What’s Wrong With Crosstalk?

When I first quit drinking, I didn’t understand why so many different recovery programs had adapted similar prohibitions on crosstalk. It felt like people often talked in circles just to avoid violating this guideline. What was so terrible about offering direct advice?

However, the longer I’ve stayed sober, the more I’ve come to appreciate this rule.

For one thing, crosstalk can discourage open, honest discussion. Anyone who has ever shared the story of their addiction knows how difficult it can be to open up. I’ve done plenty of embarrassing things as an alcoholic. Although I’ve learned to forgive myself and get over them, when I first quit drinking I was filled with shame.

It makes it so much easier to start sharing these stories when you know that you won’t get any judgmental comments. Even well-meaning advice can feel like censure, and the rule against crosstalk helps avoid these types of miscommunication.

I’ve also heard the argument that allowing positive comments could lead to a slippery slope in which neutral and negative statements also begin to show up. It’s incredibly important for recovery groups to stay non-judgmental. Otherwise, they risk scaring newly sober members right back to their addictions.

Rules against crosstalk also help promote the peer-to-peer nature of most recovery programs. In general, addiction groups are composed of addicts helping each other. They aren’t doctors or addiction experts, they are just people sharing their own experiences.

What works for some addicts might not work for others. I can share what I’ve done to help me stay sober, but I don’t have the expertise to know whether it will work for another person. Treating my own anecdotal experience as the end-all be-all would be irresponsible.
Virtual Recovery and Connection
By: Allie Lowry
Tags: Addiction, Self Improvement, Recovery, Alcoholism, Mental Health

Convenience:

The most challenging part of going to meetings pre-COVID was the physical act of getting up, driving, and walking into the room. I allowed my anxiety to paralyze me at times, and I wouldn’t go. I usually relied on being with someone else to get myself to the meeting — going alone was frightening at times. It never failed, though, as soon as I walked out the doors, I felt relief, calm, and thankful that I went. I almost always get something from every meeting. Sometimes they are small lessons — sometimes there is a share that hits you right in your heart or opens your mind. Waking into my first meeting was one of the scariest moments of my life and the best decision I have ever made. I will always be thankful for the ‘White House’, who offered meetings all day, every day. I met people there that made me feel safe and loved. I never thought I would be able to get these feelings from a virtual meeting.

“Walking” into the virtual meeting was easy. There is nowhere you have to go except on your computer. You can sit at a desk, in your bed, on the deck outside. You can be on your phone in your car, at work, or in your house. You can dress up or be in your underwear if you’d like. All you need is an internet connection and a device, and you can go to any meeting across the world. It takes minimal effort to find a meeting (there is never a time that there isn’t a meeting), and you can find meetings of all different formats, groups, languages, and sizes. All of these things made getting into a meeting easier, I was in the comfort of my own home, and if it is terrible, you can always leave the meeting without having to feel the awkwardness of standing up and walking out the doors early while all eyes are on you.

I found my meetings by chance and by chance, I mean my higher power put them in front of me. The first day I decided I wanted to stop drinking was uncomfortable. I kept telling myself over and over not to go to the liquor store. After fighting with myself all night, a thought sparked — why not try out a virtual meeting? I had no reason not to, so I got on my laptop and googled “virtual AA lookup,” and I found an incredible resource: Online Intergroup of Alcoholics Anonymous. You can filter your search as narrowly as you’d like, and you can find a meeting that will fit what you are looking for. It is excellent for intersectionality, finding your people and your safe place.
My eating disorder
By: Samantha Hernandez
Tags: Anorexia Recovery, Eating Disorders, Recovery

Now what can you do to help yourself or you loved one first off don’t be ignorant if you see any signs of this talk to them address it some key sentences you can say is “hey I’ve noticed your not doing well it seems your not eating” but remind them your not trying to attack them or trying to make them panic its simply because you care and want them to be happy the key to dealing with an eating disorder is to listen and ask, let them know “I'm not going to judge you nor do I think differently of you, we all go through our battles and this is the battle you are in but I'm here for you when your ready to talk but nothing you go through will make me think any less of you.” Now I’m not a psychologist so seek professional help but the best you can do its, don’t try to ignore the problem it won’t go away the more you pretend its not there the more it grows. If your someone currently going through an eating disorder and you know somewhere deep down you are don’t ignore it accept it the more you acknowledge you are facing an eating disorder the faster it is to understand it and fix it. If your someone recovering and currently your going through learning to eat normally like everyone else just know right now your body is like a child it knows nothing about how to eat even though you think to yourself but I'm eating way to much no your not just like a person who hasn’t walked in a month because of an accident they lose all capability of walking so just trust the process once your body gains the knowledge back you’ll then learn to eat when you need to but right now you yourself aren’t capable of doing any of this by your self so until you learn to be able to eat then your going to have control but right now you can’t so don’t make it hard on yourself just do whatever it is you have to do until you start getting back your hunger cues your energy your health.
Tick Tock, My Clock
By: Gurpreet Dhariwal
Tags: Sick Day, Sick, Recovery, Sickness, Dead Poets Live

I want to write about affirmations/letters/anything that has inspired me this year for a good 31 days. I am not promising that to myself but I am going to try to write one post on it every day. The moment I promise myself I get jittery so I am keeping it this time to go with the flow. I will be sharing the moments that I have been so gratefully thankful for and I know I am alive for a purpose.