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Tags: Daily Life, Journal, High School

Right now we’re going to go pick up my new computer I hope everything will be ok with it. I really have nothing else to say for now maybe I’ll come back later when I feel like venting some more. We lost my phone in the car and my mom is still so controlling but I guess it’s ok. Also my computer is fucking awesome. I still don’t wanna check Instagram since everyone posting pics of hoco and I’m still here just had a boring time prob not going to Sadies unless I get asked or robin and David are going so I’m just bored. Ok so back to the computer it loads up so godamn fast and its so cool. But unfortunately it doesn’t have WiFi or vga on the graphics card so I have to get a new monitor. The problem with my rich friends rn are that they are really selfish and also rich people almost always care about money more than anything else and that’s pretty annoying. Also I was listening to a podcast and they said that it’s important to have friends that love you unconditionally and I really don’t know if I have one of those except maybe Kip and I haven’t talked to him in so long cuz he doesn’t understand the meaning of bros before hoes so fuck him you know. I really want to get a new iPad cuz the standard one is 329

October 20, 2019, 12:57 PM (America/Los_Angeles)

Holy shit we just came back from the Library and we saw Maddie who told me she liked me during the summer. Holy fuck that was so scary and awkward and she didn’t seem that awkward when she talked but oh my god that was terrifying. Other than that school went ok I realized that Mr. Platt is kinda narcissistic. I have some homework to do that I should probably do like math and so much chemistry. That’s pretty much it rn. Not much else no girls for now and idk. It’s pretty funny that Felipe is 100% hitting on those freshman but since I started like actually noticing girls I found it so hard to just normally talk to girls. Well I guess it’s only pretty girls cuz like chair and Bella and amber are really not pretty or girls that I would like idk why but other girls like Isabel and that’s really it are hard to talk to especially if they really don’t talk back normally. The girl that sits next to me in math is kinda pretty cuz she where’s a lot of makeup and she laughs when I make fun of Mrs. Grant so idk I think she’s a junior tho.

October 21, 2019, 6:11 PM (America/Los_Angeles)

Came back from confirmation it was pretty fun and a new kinda pretty girl but I talked to her and she’s kinda boring. Kelly is not as pretty as other girls but she’s really fun to talk to and to be around. Other than that the guys in my group are ok they’re kinda boring to talk to and Evan and Matt are really opposite of Troy like not smart but like not dumb I guess. They’re probably not as annoying and far less anti social than my regular friends. Mr. Platt just droned on for what felt like hours during AP Lang today and that was super boring but altogether today was pretty good since I really didn’t have anything to do. Except Ms. Deliz pulled the try hard looking Asian girl from my group she fucking new that we were too smart to be in one group so she had to pull us apart. And I really wanted that one hot girl Paige to be in my group cuz she didn’t get put in a group at the end and I hoped so bad that I would get her in my group since I never talked to her I just know she’s easily one of the hottest girls at my school there’s no way she’s not except there was another girl who sits with the cheerleaders who’s super pretty. Idk why I think things like this cuz I can never get a girl like that in a million years but it’s fun to imagine. Also my new computer started working since I moved it super clean to the office room thing and hooked it up to Ethernet so the internet is crazy fast and the graphics and processor are absolutely insane compared to what I used to run. I played Destiny 2 and Apex cuz those are the only games that I wanted to try and were free so u know I gotta save the money for idk what.

October 22, 2019, 10:15 PM (America/Los_Angeles)

Today had its ups and downs. It started out pretty good with minimal work in cs and and substitute for math. But also fucking Felipe told the story to those girls who talk to us before school and then in mech stupid fucking Pranay told the story to basically like 25% of the whole fucking class. I hate him so much rn fuck everything. Idk what happened the rest of the day. The golf tryout meeting was super scary cuz I’m totally fucked cuz 1 is range and 1 is on the gd course 9holes! Holy crap I’m so screwed as long as I behave nicely and work hard to improve and keep a level head I hope I can do enough to make the team. That was pretty much my day. I got to play my pc today too and it was super fun to play Destiny 2 but it’s a little difficult and I really want to get Overwatch but really just don’t know when cuz I don’t want to get addicted to the game and yeah. I kinda just hate all of my friends right now cuz they all kinda suck in their own different ways.

October 23, 2019, 8:37 PM (America/Los_Angeles)