Here, There, and Everywhere.
Tags: Space, Mwc Space, Gravity, Expectations, Acceptance

However, that’s a really strange mindset. Why bother to even think about the future while you’re just starting that future you worked so hard for previously?

As time passes by and after so many endless nights doing projects and assignments, on the contrary, I really wished I will graduate soon. While the first thought was about enjoying everything, I suddenly realized that this adventure is actually a really tiring one. Wrapping it up and call it a day seems like a delightful promise compared to the sufferings I have to endure — I long for the future for once more.

It only occurred to me later on, that we humans, really attached to have this desire to believe in one day.

We create this imaginary space inside our head of who we will become, of how we will do certain things in life, of where all things will finally work for ourselves, of when we will be contently happy — one day.

We just always want to be “there”.

The way I see it, our desires for constantly wanting to be there create the space. The space is a huge void. It could be finite or infinite. An empty room with all four white walls, vacuum, and isolated. Imagine something alike but inside our heads. That’s it. That’s the space.

This space takes form as a gap between our own perceptions and reality. And damn it — but we do keep making it endlessly every time!

We build the spaces and assembling that slowly as the brick of very tall walls for ourselves. We do this to our future selves, our partners, our friends — we do this to our family and the people we actually care about.

We even make spaces with our own emotions.

Holding back tears because at some point, even though we feel all the pain and sufferings, we thought it’s just another form of inaction — it’s pretty useless and that it doesn’t solve any of the rooted problems.

The more you put yourself soaked inside it, the space expands. The more you overthink, you will find yourself floating aimlessly, seeing yourself part away from your world. The more you try to perfect the scenario inside your head, the space will eat you up and steal away your breath.

You no longer can be “here” as a part of this present time. The body may be sitting on a chair or lying on a bed, but the vulnerable side of yourself isn’t. It’s just a living body without a soul. It’s just another breathing corpse.

Find the gravity.

Before it’s too late and you’re away from sight in the vast space, look around and let yourself be attached to the gravity. Find it, in every place you would like to look for it.

Gravity is the invisible force that holds the many, many objects we have in this universe altogether. Likewise, gravity will help you sorts all of the spaces you constantly create within yourself.

The gravity lets you be you, in the most normal way of you being you. The flawed you, the nosy you, the strangest part of you. The good news is that it lets you be the most of yourself too. The best part of yourself that you haven’t yet discovered.

It’s intangible.

You can’t really see it with your eyes, but you can see the effect that gravity creates once it pulls you up without a burden. The gravity allows you to wake up easily every day and attracts you to keep focusing on doing the things that you really love. The stuff that actually matters for yourself. Even when it’s just a small wobbly step.