Paying with blood!
By: Akinosho Samson
Tags: Peace, Health, Hardwork, Peace Of Mind, Blood

Paying with blood!

One of the lessons I learnt from childhood is that when something requires your peace of mind and tranquility, it is way too expensive for what you can afford. I have watched scenerios play out in my attempt to make decisions and quickly snap out of it if it keeps me worrying for too long.

I am convinced that as humans, it is toxic to derive some sense of living from nursing what we should let go, instead, we constantly remind ourselves that it is an act of living to sacrifice so much of our peace of mind just so we can say we got what we desired through intense worrying or some work. When you start thinking that there are things you can’t afford to lose, right there is the beginning of many days of unrest to come.

It almost feels like we have been fashioned to deal with problems alone and when we can’t find something that keeps us up at night or constantly worrying, we see that a problem too. I am not against living a life of solution, being a problem solver or some sort of rescue hero, but to think that’s all to do with life is too toxic to be masqueraded as “purpose”.

Sometimes you meet people and the idea of peace or having nothing to worry about is totally strange to them. Their perception of life is “something must kill a man" and they dedicate a large part of their existence acting out that ideology.

Peace is fine and it doesn’t have to make you too unsettled just so you can find some problems to nurse. We hold on to challenges even when their time is up and lessons have been learnt. There are situations, careers, relationships that we are in, beliefs or perceptions that we like and ideologies that make us feel informed but they cost too much than what we can naturally afford. When something takes that much of you, it’s no longer asking for efforts, it is demanding for blood and at that point in time is when you should remember that only one Jesus should live on earth, you are not Jesus and dying to seem like some heroic act just because you love problems so much is a form of weakness and not strength.

There is a quote or motivational statement somewhere right now that looks directed at you and asking you not to give up. Life is a re-occuring battle between what you should let go and what is worth fighting for, but my advice is, whenever you are at that crossroad, let peace of mind be the deciding factor. Everyone is reiterating their problems at every opportunity and you want to really stop and ask yourself if you are totally fine because are not dealing with anything of that sort or category. This is part of the reason why religion and other sham sells, people constantly thinking you must get into life, create as many fuckups or look for some and ask the divine order to solve them for you.

A life of purpose will demand you put effort, discipline and concentration into achieving what you set out to get but that doesn’t translate to living a life that pays with blood and so much of what you can’t afford. This is not a “whatever will happen will happen" post but when you’ve seen life from my angle, you can immediately tell things you are delving into that will cost you sanity.

Relationships take so much, religion does the same, more problems have arisen from holding on just a bit too much and when you find yourself gripping so hard because you don’t want to lose it, at that point you have crossed sanity and will do almost anthing to keep it, that’s when you should let go.

We should all start by looking inwards, there are things we are definitely holding on to that takes too much productive energy but reward us with some sense of “bigger problem” participation, those are the things to let go and no matter how long you’ve been holding on to them, they are the things you should let go.

When I speak to people and we troubleshoot challenges together, I can immediately spot what is necessary but important to them just because it gives them some type of feelings.

We should all stop paying with blood and focus on things that actually count. It doesn’t mean it will end well just because you have convinced yourself that if you give it so much energy, it will someday turn for good. That is a life of torture and that isn’t healthy living.