🍄 Why I stopped microdosing psilocybin
By: Mirel Vasile
Tags: Focus, Psilocybin, Life Lessons, Microdosing

Why I got into microdosing

I struggle with lack of focus while working. While working on a task I tend to dedicate more energy to actually staying on the task rather than the task itself. It’s been like this since I was a kid and I never got used to. I’m surprised by how much I’ve done in my life while fighting this constant distractions.

I wanted to figure out why I’m so distracted more than I wanted a “cure” for my distraction.

Testimonies (real?) of other people doing microdosing mentioned improvements in focus and ability to identify the triggers. So I was sold on it.

Where, how and how much did I take

I got my shrooms online and ordered straight to my home address. It’s illegal in my current country and it probably is in yours. I’m also lazy so I got them already dosed in 1g x 6 on a strip.

I tried 0.5g / 0.75g and 1.0g and accidentally 2.0g

On 2.0g I was tripping. My personal sub-perceptible dose is 1.0g but I know for sure it varies. Everyone is different, from weight to tolerance. You should build your way up. Unless you have free days and can just chill in case you end up tripping.

How the F##k did it actually feel

I got into microdosing mainly to figure out why it’s so hard for me to maintain focus. Here’s what I got instead:

- Goosebumps for the entire duration of a song. (multiple times)

- Balls to send really painful messages

- Decided to pull the trigger on a project and go for it

- Mapped out business problems I was procrastinating for a long time (during my first intake)

- 2 subscriptions to the gym (first impulsive, the second planned)

- Next-to-zero fucks about making errors

I would describe this short experience with microdosing like taking the pill from limitless. But for the balls.

I believe that what makes incredible people incredible is not what they have, it’s what they don’t. Ego, fear and social construct cages seem to have less power over them. Microdosing psilocybin definitely goes in that direction.

If so great, why did I stop?

Let’s take a step back and define what we are. 95% of the time we operate on autopilot. As bad as that might sound, that Autopilot is what built our lives as they are right now: our jobs, passions, relationships, social media addiction [you name it].

Most of the time we don’t make changes because we don’t know what the triggers to our discomfort and sadness are. But to me, those triggers are less hidden when microdosing.

These couple of months have moved really fast for me and I realise not everyone around me will have the time to adapt. This potentially brings a lot of friction.

So, what’s the “side effect” of microdosing?

The side effect is exactly the reason you might be considering doing it. But as the saying goes, be careful what you wish for. You might want to:

- leave your job

- travel a lot

- dedicate your life to a “crazy” project

- leave your spouse

- do weird things that suddenly feel like your life goal

The side effect is that you will start changing. And if you’re like me, changes will happen crazy fast. And while it’s ok for me, it might not be ok for people around me. People I care about. People I want to communicate better what I’m jumping on and why it’s so important to me.

So I decided to stop microdosing to allow a better level of communication. This is something I need to thank psilocybin. Being more patient and less selfish.

I know the red pill is real. I just need to prep things before I take this journey. When I’ll be ready, I’ll go for a full year of microdosing in a row.

PS: this is my first post. I’m not a writer and don’t care about being one. I just want my message out there.

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Much love, M.