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hello! | 03,May,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well im at shannas and i just got back from the show it was fun i was with thomas and his friends and tony and LL's frineds it was fun well yea tomorrow thomas is coming over before ebveryone else and hes gonna teach me how to play the drums im so excited and then tony and the other shitheads r coming over anyway things r werid with me and denny its really gay i dont no tho i guess its ok i mean what am i suppose to do about it and things r bad with me and kevin to i think well not bad but there not to good like sometimes i think theyre good but then there not ANYWAY im going now peace | 03,May,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
haha ok well yesterday...i got my pictures developed OMG they look soo good i was so happy...we sat at greeks for awhile and then i went to cassies to do my laundry and greek said "cassie come back solo" so cassie came back solo i sat at cassies and waited for my laundry to be done...well then around 1015 greek kicked us out and me and gina and cassie came back to my house and jay, matt, mike w, tuki and andy came over...andy and mike w left around 12 and tuki left about 130 and jay and matt slept over it was some fun we watched movies and didnt sleep like at all haha it was some good times well when we woke up i felt like shit so i was all tired and my mom made us some pancakes and bacon haha well i found some more things abotu my mom last night...yea...VERY interesting but now they all left and i decided im just gonna stay here cuz A) im tired as fuck, B) i feel like shit and C) today is my heavy day ok well thats it...o yeaaa i had a FUCKED up dream...to long to explain but its FUUUUUUUUUUCKED up... AWW shanna baby i love u! | 29,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i miss you too teddie....i want you to come home right now so we can jam in my car to the sex pistols..E.M.I!! remember that one time we were blasting dkm and this kid did that vagina sign thingy to us?? haha good times.i cant wait till you get home so you can stop being a drunk,and start being a mall rat with the cool kids.remember that one time you spent the night at my house and you got blood on my sheets? haha ewness.i love how your dad never remembers where i live,even though your ALWAYS at my house.i miss seeing you get gidy about boys...i havent seen that in awhile.and i even miss your ancient-soon to be mumified-dog.ok thats enough just wanted to let you know your still my best friend and your spot hasnt been taken yet haha | 28,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
alright well im still at cassies listening to Alkaline Trio and watching some disney movie....the one with the teacher that pretends hes dead and the red head that goes and finds out what went wrong..whats that called?...hmm i dont no ANYWAY yea so cassie is still at greeks...and im really bored i was thinking earlier today what kinda old person im gonna be...am i gonna be the weird old lady down the street with the smelly house that cant show her face in the sunlight or the cute lil old lady that have 100 different colored socks to match every outfit...ha i was sitting at Dominicks with my mom today watching all the people walk to their cars and i saw this one guy..he had 2 little kids with him..they were so cute and the dad and his 2 kids were playing on the lil merry-go-round and having a great time but as i watched more i could tel the dad was a huge alky and it made me really sad..i wanted to cry...these poor lil kids have to grow up knowing daddys a drunk..it really makes u think and u have to say to urself god damn im so lucky and its totally not fair that u get to grow up with lil problems u think are so huge and these poor lil kids out there dont have familes or comfort or places to go to and they grow up knowing mommys a slut, the person they call daddy could be some random man on the street or mommys always so sad 2 depressed to go on, the man they call dad is always drunk, yells all the time it really makes u think is ur life all that bad? its such a horrible thought to think about all those kids out there that have NOTHING and while we sit in our 4 bedroom house with so much food in the fridge to make us fat for weeks we still complain while its 20 below and we sit at home with the heat on curled up on the couch watching some movie complaining were so bored u gotta think what about those people that live in the box in the alley and those lil babies with crack whore moms that leave them in the street to die...its such a horrible world we have these inconciderate lil bitches that piss fits because they got pepporoni pizza instead of cheese and theres those people that if their lucky they might get something to eat for that week i wish i could do something about it i wish i could help...i mean i sit here and complain and complain about how BAD my life is and how i want to kill myself and blah blah blah but really when u think abotu it my life is gold compared to some...yea i have some fucked up things in my life but to others they would KILL to have what i have its so sad to watch these stuck up kids complain because their HORRIBLE parents got them braces and for their birthday they only got 27 presents instead of 29 it makes me sick to my stomach it just makes u think haha sorry i did tihnk haha alright well im out peace | 28,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
alright well im at cassies alone...i came to do my laundry but then i decided im not going back to greeks because hes to much of an asshole and i cant take it anymore...all he says is negative things and then hell say ha im just joking but he takes it toooo far and i have limits and he definitly crossed my limits WAAAAAY 2 far...well yea cassie made me use a tampon and it didnt work! it HURT SOOOO bad like i still cant move..holy shit i think my vagina might fall off or something it hurts...i hope sex doesnt hurt this bad | 26,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
me and cass r finding out r measurements.....so far it stands at this... Teddie: Boobs- 30.5 Waist- 28 Hips- 34 Ass- 42 Cassie: Boobs- 32 Waist- 26 Hips- 31 Ass- 36 so from this we can concur that my ass is much larger than cassies.....her waist is almost as big as mine...and her boobs are definitly bigger than my baby boobies | 26,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well last night...can u guess what i did...yea u guessed it i went to yet ANOTHER keg..haha it was alot of fun...but then the cops came...haha it was out of control crazy...me and gina jumped in the river and i got all wet! haha i fell and this kid ronny carried me out and we ran all threw the woods i was so drunk trippin all over myself....me and gina were the only girls that didnt get caught...cuz were hardcore haha but gina got the shit beat out of her! its so funny but yea that was my night basically we went back to ginas and nick had people over...BORING well i woke up this morning and well lets just say im getting my ovaries removed tomorrow its so bad and i have the worst cramps ever i cant move and i cried...okay well KEVIN UPDATES!!!!!!! i blocked kevin and he well stay blocked because he is an ASSHOLE he was all telling me that he never loved me and it was a lie and all this crap so whatever i dont need that shit i miss shanna....SHANNA I MISS YOU!!!!....omg lupa is sooooooooooooo hott i was like omg i want this kid...but hes cassies territory just like every other man alive so i must not speak of this agian ok well im out PEACCCCCCCCCCCCE | 26,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
what can i get for you... I'll have the meatball sandwitch, a medium coke and ur phone number.... haha fast times is such a GREAT MOVIE! | 26,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
alright welllllllllllllllllll since i decided NOT to go to greeks ive been sitting at home ALL by myself and now gina and cassie have cheerleading so im BORED out of my mind...i started a new book...im on page 73 haha i like it cuz the main character has red hair, green eyes, and a big butt just like me i watched drumline and started some other movie and then start teenage mutant ninja turtles 3 and decided it is the worst ninja turtles movie EVER so i made myself something to eat instead...didnt feel like eating so i threw it out and then i read all my old poems and that made me cry and then i found a picture of me and kevin being all cute and since i was already crying it made me cry even more and jeeze its only 7 and ive already accomplished so much by myself now i have a headache and feel like shit........im so bored...i dont no what to do with myself see these are the days in which i wish i had a bf...empty house to myself all day and all night...sitting here alone...get my drift? i wish i could just find some random guy make him fall in love with me and live happily ever after man i can dream right? | 24,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
"It's okay to do whatever you have to do but just remember, that eventually, youre going to adjust to the changes life brings your way and you'll realize that it's okay to love agian and laugh agian and its okay to get to the point where the life you live is full and satisfying and good to you...and it will be that way because you made it that way...."....i qoute from the nice decorative piece of paper sitting in front of me | 24,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well last night i went to yet another keg...it was pretty fun...got pretty drunk...i met this guy tony..haha yea i talked to him at the keg and...yea....haha well gina and cassie went back to my house and we snuck out till like 4 in them morning we went to greeks....haha and tony was there and me and him sat in jays car for like an hour...i talked to him ABOUT everything....like for some reason i told him shit i would only tell gina or cassie haha he said the way i kiss turns him on i was like oooook well i umm said some stuff to greek i probably shouldnt of said...like about the list and stuff and i made him feel like an ass but he made me cry so whatever im not going there anymore im really really not y should i be around people that dont like me? really its so stupid but yea i talked to kevin like 5 seconds ago...he asked katie out...wow way not to listen to my advice....but yea not like i care....i cant wait to go home.... | 24,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well tonight i went to the woods AGIAN..not that its a bad thing but its just an everyday thing which is BORING i need excitement in my life..i need new things well ginas being a bitch yes i will say it out loud...she knows...but shes not doing anything about it...but whatever...it fuckin pisses me off to the point where i dont even wanna be around her..i mean y would i wanna be around someone who is a complete jag off to me....but its gina and i love her so much so im gonna talk to her about it 4 the 100th time...ok well the kevin update stands at this...im still blocked and will stay blocked and even if im unblocked im gonna act like im blocked haha ok well im at cassies and now we are gonna have a heart to heart 4th grade lil girl slummber party and tell are deepest secrets.....catch ya on the flip side peace | 24,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well im sitting at ginas house all by myself haha mrs v just walked in haa i feel so STUUUPID well im going back upstaris hah | 22,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
alright lets see i found out that greek and andy and tuki added me to the list so now im like what the fuck but i dont care haha last night there was a double keg i got really drunk high five me and now im drinking as we speak with my good friend cassie lynn domian haha kevin blocked me cuz im "annoying" im by far the least annoy at of all the people i no so whatver i dont care ok well since im drinking and im having fun im out peace | 22,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
teddie come back home to me you fucking cunt hole pussy asshole bastard!!! fucker fucker fucker fucker! oh ahaha guess what i went on your screen name ealier tonight bc i was bored love your #1 coolser | 22,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
u people seriously bore me............BIG BOOTY HOE #1..thats me cuz cassie is BIG BOOTY HOE #2 cuz my ass is better | 20,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well im at cassies we went to the carnival yet agian..haha friday night was the BEST...more fights and hot people and jimmy on stage dancing was friday night today it was more like meet up with people stay for 10 minutes and go to the woods...we drank...cops came...we ran...o yea i saw bridget haha she told me she reads my blog all the time...so HI BRIDGET!!!!!.....well now im sitting here eating cookies..yea well im out i have NOTHING important to say as i never do | 20,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
MAdMaN34X: well can i really do nething? MAdMaN34X: cuz i dont like u ne mroe ok lets tell a person that wants to kill herself that u dont like her anymore cuz u no tahts so hardcore to do fuckin asshole look at me my name is kevin daly and im so upset and pissed because roxanne likes her x bf now and they might go out and she might diss the trade mark of the punk rawkers and go hang out wiht preps look at me im so pissed off she dissed my new bestest friend tony cuz u no ive only been hanging out with them for the past 2 weeks but im BEST friends with them i think im so much better then everyone cuz i can ditch my only frineds to hang out wiht the 'punks" that r just so hardcore punk rawk to begin with im so hardcore punk rawk look at me i wear boots now cuz im a skinhead that thinks theyre so much better then u woo hoo im cool and ur not my name is kevin daly and i love u so much but tomorrow i wont cuz im badass like tahtblah blah blah FUCKIN ASSHOLE thats all i have to say is ASSHOLE i hate him i dont hate anyone else anymore just him cuz he has made my summer a living fucking hell....really hell...i seriously would like to never live agian because of the shit he put me through WAY 2 much for a lil bipolar fucked up future mental hospital living 15 year old girl to take in all at one time...i wish he would die...i wish i would die and then i would haunt his ass every night hahah yea well maybe this is me taking my shit out on him cuz he did talk to me early about SOME of this but then he had to "talk to roxanne" about stuff cuz u no roxanne is much more important then me i only fuckin spent almost what 2 years talking to him and hes talk to her as best friends for like what a month i swear he has PMS or maybe hes bipolar 2 i dont no....but i no is once i post this i will wake up tomorrow if i wake up and say oh shit i didnt mean that well i do ... but it is harsh but as of right now...FUCK KEVIN DALY IN THE ASS PLEASE...i hope some gay guy jumps and rapes his asshole | 20,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well i cant sleep i need to write something is wrong so wrong...im shaking so bad..i have 100000 million thoughts going through by head and they wont stop my whole body is shaking and i keep randomly crying..im hearing things and shit and my head is pounding i can hear the insides when i shake like my whole body looks like its having a siezure like im shaking constantly but randomly like my body twitches or something..its not twitching its more like viciously shakes and i dont no what to do..im so fucked up and have NO ONE literally NO ONE gina is being a bitch to me, cassie says i just drink to much and im just being a stupid drunk...but im not even drunk, kevin is to busy with other problems to worry about me cuz i just annoy him and every one else i could talk to isnt here..i mean i fuckin talked to tim beck about how i wanted to die....thats how despertrate i am...i need help major help...but i dont no how to get it..i hate everthing...EVERYTHIGN..i hate myself, i hate my family, i hate the people i call friends, i hate the people i love, i even hate u..i hate life in general...there is no point in it and i just want to get away...i want to kill myself and get everything over with...but that would be taking the easy way out...but i dont get it..if life isnt easy then there really isnt an easy way out is there? o well i dont care im gonna take the non easy or very easy way out if it kills me..haha isnt taht the point life is so confusing and im so fucked up and confusing doesnt help me therefore life is dumb and doesnt need me anymore so life i give up on u and in this game people refer to as life i cheat and give up so ha i win | 19,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
PatheticXIII: Teddie is hot. And she should GO TO BED TEpPiE64: i wish i lived in a fantasy world and got what i wanted KtK363: haha id be there 2 haha....... man like would be great haha and we would actually kno why these goons all the sudden dont care about us TEpPiE64: right i no...but see we wouldnt need to no cuz these goons would be with us | 19,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i have ALOT to say but i cant talk now cuz im at cassies with gina so i will explain EVERYTHING laaaaaaaaaaater | 19,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well me and cass went back out and i talked to kevin and hes being fuckin retarded maybe hes drunk...probably...but anyway i dont care well tahts it peace | 17,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well hmm today gina got in a car accident haha yea it was funny....we hung out at andys ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL day from like 1130 in the morning till like and hour ago..and now im at cassies...im really worried about kevin...i called him at like 1 cuz i wanted to make sure he was ok but he wasnt home or something...i wonder if hes ok...god damn it...y do i still care so much? can someone PLEASE answer me that question...well yea im eating cake now so peace | 16,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
MAdMaN34X: oh i dont know...the girl that i thought would be better then the best girl i ever had turned out to be a piece of shit i wanna cry | 16,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
iHAVE12toes12: do u like jay? iHAVE12toes12: cuz u should? iHAVE12toes12: earse the question mark iHAVE12toes12: i didnt mean to put that there GMV141201: hahahaaha GMV141201: weres the white out?? iHAVE12toes12: hahah! GMV141201: haha another classic iHAVE12toes12: man u should like jay..and i should like greek...o wait i do...and then i should hook up with greek and u should hook up with jay and then we could go on DOUBLE DATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! iHAVE12toes12: hahahaha double dates of sitting in a garage smoking weed iHAVE12toes12: now thats what i call fun! GMV141201: haha ur a DORK iHAVE12toes12: its a genius idea GMV141201: hahahaha hell ya GMV141201: smoke 2morrow just try it iHAVE12toes12: noooooo iHAVE12toes12: i dont no how iHAVE12toes12: ill feel dumb iHAVE12toes12: no no no no no GMV141201: yes please iHAVE12toes12: stop it with the peer pressure damn it iHAVE12toes12: LEAVE ME ALONE iHAVE12toes12: NO WEEEED NOOO WEEEED GMV141201: how can we have double dates of smoking in the garage when u dont smoke GMV141201: haha ok sorry GMV141201: ookkk im sorrrrryyyyyy iHAVE12toes12: haha well i can pretend iHAVE12toes12: ill be the im pretending to smoke weed type i crack myself up!!!!!!!!!! | 16,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
iHAVE12toes12: i started to like him at the keg but for some fucked up reason i make out with cray instead im dumb GMV141201: haha i know u wanted greek iHAVE12toes12: haha how can u tell? GMV141201: cuz i know iHAVE12toes12: hoooooooooooooowwwwwwwww GMV141201: cuzzzzzzzzz u were in deep conversation with the kid GMV141201: and there is no such thing as deep convos at a keg | 16,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
OMG! it worked..haha my blog hasnt worked on my computer for 2 days...last time i wrote i had to go to ginas..anyway well lets ee today..was fun haha we did alot...we went to greeks house and gina smoked..and then i took a nap and ate food and then we went to the park agian and stayed there all night haha it was alot of fun..i played softball..haha cray was there it was funny cuz i dont tlak to him...ive decided somethin but its top secret..ha o yea i talked to kevin today..i dont no y..i was bored..and i wanted to no if he stil hated me and he doesnt..so that made me laugh..well thats it...peace | 16,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i was in such a great mood last night...here are some of the convos i had with people.... iHAVE12toes12: man o man im fuckin bored Charcoaleyes: man o man im fucking horny! Charcoaleyes: hahahhaa jk iHAVE12toes12: hehe ew iHAVE12toes12: dude hes vicious liek the sid Charcoaleyes: no fucking way Charcoaleyes: no one is vicious like the sid iHAVE12toes12: if i had a pimple the size of afirca on my face woutl u tell me? Charcoaleyes: haha i would pop it iHAVE12toes12: ive decided im gonna marry myself GMV141201: oh yeah iHAVE12toes12: would u liek to be in the wedding or teddie hawkins and teddie hawkins? GMV141201: sure the flower girl? iHAVE12toes12: haha yes! GMV141201: score! iHAVE12toes12: would u liek to be in the wedding or teddie hawkins and teddie hawkins? Charcoaleyes: yes Charcoaleyes: im the maid of honor iHAVE12toes12: i wish elvis was sitll alive iHAVE12toes12: i would have sex with him Charcoaleyes: im so bummed now Charcoaleyes: i dont iHAVE12toes12: elvis is a hottie Charcoaleyes: EEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW iHAVE12toes12: haha what he WAS untill he got fact Charcoaleyes: fuck no iHAVE12toes12: fuck yes girl firned Charcoaleyes: no way iHAVE12toes12: i want to have a bf OldStyle89: cool iHAVE12toes12: a big hot beefy one iHAVE12toes12: GIIIIIIIIIIIIIINA thats gonna be dumb GMV141201: i know but i can iHAVE12toes12: i dont smoke WEEEEEEEEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! did u forget about that? y would i go? GMV141201: so i dont have to go by myself pleaseeeeeee iHAVE12toes12: haha im going DUH! iHAVE12toes12: i wanna watch high people fall! GMV141201: haha ok good thanks GMV141201: haha yes i promise i will mak it fun iHAVE12toes12: haha if u fall ill go GMV141201: haha its if u go we go iHAVE12toes12: ahha yes only if u fall iHAVE12toes12: if u fall we go GMV141201: haha ok wel that was some of the highlights from last night...i didnt do much of anything last night...we went to a park and played softball and then today we went to greeks garage haha good times thats all i haev to say...o yea i talked to roxanne last night even more good times....it put a smile on my face | 16,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
haha alright last night was REALLLLLLY fun! so we go to the woods and whatknot at first i was like omg there are so many people here i dont no anyone i feel stupid but then muligan was introducing me to everyone and i was like this is fun...haha but once i got afew beers in my a was talking to eveyone...haha and this kid cray, well his real name is danny and his porno name is dizzy and i call him crayfish and kristin cals him craydawg but anyway so this kid right we were talking the whole night and he just got out of jail for stealing acar, hes 18, his favorite color is blue and his birthday is oct 18th anyway haha so i make out with this kid right..haha it was so much fun and then "crayfish" told me hes gonna buy me a purple teddybear before i leave cuz purples my favorite color and he calls me teddybear haha ANYWAY i talked to this kid greek and he called me a tease i was like um no and haha this kid paul was like..."i like girls that wear abercrombie and fitch..." and im like HEY! im wearing aercrombie and fitch...and hes like exactly my point...haha so yea tonight was alot of fun, and i came to the conclusion that i dont feel stuipd anymore and i like them...well now i gotta tell u about what happened when i get home..ok so me and cassie spend the night at my house...and my brother, westin and riley and her crack head dog max were here haha it was funny cuz i was DRUNK of my ass and westin craped all over and i couldnt clean it up and my brother was on "protest" so haha cassie did it, and then my good friend chris came over and brought me food, it was a surprise...hah i really was surprised...well i didnt sleep much cuz i was eiher to hot, to cold, couldnt find a place to sleep or the dog attacked me and then finally when i sleep the baby wakes me up at the crack of dawn, so right now im a lil hung over haha so is my mom and aunt its great..they just woke up and look like crack whores but yea for some reason i have that feeling i used to get when i would tlak to kevin...it wont go away, maybe that means im gonna puke? i dont no but i definitly dont like it cuz i dont have a reason to have this feeling...cuz im not talking to kevin and im not in love...yea i think im gonna puke...but right now im shaking so much i can barely talk so ill catch u guys on the flip side | 15,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well last night i went out with mulligan and them and drank some...it wasnt that bad...theyre not that horrible anymore, theyre really nice 2 me so hey i dont have a problem, well after me and gina got really drunk we went to the park and met up with jimmy and steve and them, yea i saw joe daly there its funny i see kevins little brother like EVERY WHERE but i dont see kevin...like i care hmm lets see...tonight theres a double kegger...double the fun for me, but its with mulligan and all them, it should be fun but i dont no...i had a dream last night that me and kevin fought to the death you no one of those battles were u fight each other and the first one that dies loses..well yea me and kevin fought to the death and i woke up right before the winner was declared haha fun stuff well i went shopping today with the mother..got some new jeans and some pretty cool shit..oooooooooooo yea last night my mom calls ginas 4 times bitching the fuck out of me...i fuckin hate u, ur such a bitch, u took my ring, i wish u were never my daughter, u left the door open some one came in and took my ring, u had a party and ur bitchy friends took it, im done with u blah blah were some of the things that were said..haha and then she calls back and says o yea sorry i found it..shes so dumb but yea thats basically it... | 14,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well im sitting at ginas and shes in a nutcase mood and shes running around in her cheerleading uniform..well today was my last day with the little kids, i had fun, 80 hours i gave back to the community..i should be a saint ANYWAY i dont no what im doing tonight...hopefully something fun...ha i talked to tyler alot last night..he makes me smile...well i wrote some new poems today i might post them later but yea thats basically it, o yea i watched darkness falls STUPID movie, a scary tooth fairy somethin ive always been afriad of ok well cassie is coming now yay cassie GOOO cassie o yea i talked to shanna on the phone last night pretty nifty ok well peace my home dawgs | 13,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well its about 1020 here and im sitting at home with a facal mask on and im about to curl up on the couch and watch darkness falls...if anyone would like to join me ur more than welcome to..u no where im at | 12,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
hmm well im at the police station its almost 1:00 and i dont no where my aunt is...maybe shes out arresting people? hmm i dont no ANYWAY i didnt go out last night and i probably wont go out tonight..i have to have dinner with the grandparents...well i thought more about the kevin situation before going to bed and i was expecting myself to break down in tears and write him a long email telling him im so sorry for the things i didnt do blah blah blah and then i said to myself.."teddie ur not crying, teddie ur not upset'' and then i laughed haha i laugh everytime i think about it...haha so that means i really am over it and im not just pretending to be happy, i think finally for once in my life im actually happy, like really happy, i can sit down and say "I, Teddie Hawkins am happy with my lemonade." man i feel so good well i talked to tyler last night and that made me sad...it really did i wanted to reach out and give him a hug and cry for him, but i didnt cuz i couldnt, well thats it peace | 11,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well i got alot accomplished today..i slept alot...talked to some old friends and lost a very close friend....today june 11th 2003 kevin daly decided im not "worth his time anymore" and hes not gonna "put up with my shit" cuz u no i have so much shit to put up with...yet after saying he doesnt want to be friends with me he unblocks me..now ladies and gentlemen of the jury does that make sense...i think not..his reason of choice for this matter was because...hes not "gonna waste space on his block list with crap like me" high five kevin daly u r the king of giving bad excuses ..now normally you people would think, "omg how horrible!", "she must be heartbroken" but let me inform u, i teddie hawkins am not upset the slightest bit, because for i have finally realized this waste of space given the name kevin daly is not worth my effort of getting upset over cuz it not only cause more stress but its bad for my health so for everyone out there reading this i would like to reassure u that im OKAY! and kevin daly has no effect what-so-ever on my life,now i would like to give out some advice to my new friend roxanne...well roxanne i wish u the best of luck and hope kevin daly is good 2 you but beware one day he might just wake up and decided youre not "worth his time anymore" but roxanne dont fret because when that day comes i promise you, you wont be upset...well now everyone i hope u and many others can learn from my expeirence....When life gives you shit, You must make lemonade out of it...and i teddie hawkins have made my lemonade..goodnight everyone | 11,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well once agian its 1040 in the morning and im eating cheese haha thats basically it..im so tired..haha i watched this anthrax video with some cop it was so funny...me and him were ripping on the china lady in it...well thats my day so far...peace | 11,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
kevins a fuckin weirdo...talkin mad weird shit about an onion and a q tip...and salt water and...just wow thats all i have to say haha hes so dumb...thinking i would really play with an onion...like i fuckin believe what he says | 10,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
MAdMaN34X: goodnight nigger i was called a nigger...he ims me and says hes computer is broken along with other things and then he said goodnight nigger...wow wow he definitly nos how 2 fuck with my head | 10,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
YourSoDumb77: ha,fuck them TEpPiE64: haha theyre skanky YourSoDumb77: and ugly,dont forget ugly TEpPiE64: hahaha yea REAL ugly | 10,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well kevin and roxanne r going out...thumbs up 2 them..i dont care...i only wanna kick roxannes ass because she fucked me over twice after telling me she wouldnt...see i try to be nice...but things dont work out the way i would hope...but i mean i dont no..i bitched her out...... TEpPiE64: hi punxz182: hey TEpPiE64: so i hear u and kevin r dating now punxz182: r u ok wit it TEpPiE64: no punxz182: so do u want me 2 end it? TEpPiE64: i think it was pretty shady of u 2 lie and say o i dont like him, we dont have anything, dont worry i wont touch him shit and then go out with him...its like u fuckin stabbed me in the back TEpPiE64: do whatever u want punxz182: teddie im sorry i didnt mean 2 do this 2 u, and u kno this its not like i went out w/ him because i wanted 2 hurt u and all the things i told u were tru i didnt get on hhim and i didnt have feelings 4 him then TEpPiE64: so last night u decided hey omg i have feelings now..cuz u no those thigns come one so quickly punxz182: not exactly, ur trying 2 make me 2 shity of my self i didnt try and hurt u w/ this, and u and kevin really havent been w/ eachother lately or talking TEpPiE64: we fuckin talk all the time when he isnt talking to u punxz182: ok well im sorry TEpPiE64: whatever u fuckin lied 2 me so u could save ur own ass cuz everyone i knew...even mulligan wanted to beat u and i stopped em...and right now after hearing all the shit u told me day after day after day and finding out what i just did i wish i didnt stop them punxz182: but everything i have told u ws the truth and i really did understand u punxz182: ok i made a mistake TEpPiE64: whatever...if it wasnt for u things would be perfectly fine but u fucked me over AGIAN...not once but twice so whatever...watch me stop people now punxz182: i tried 2 make things better teddie punxz182: u kno this punxz182: why r u saying this stuff TEpPiE64: its not taht...its the fact u said u promised there wasnt anything and u wouldnt hurt me like that agian cuz u had respect for me but u did.......because im sick of this shit and now i feel bad so i sad i was sorry..... TEpPiE64: roxanne... TEpPiE64: i gotta say something punxz182: yea.... TEpPiE64: im sorry i snapped...its just ya no people have limits that cant be pushed...i was pushed 2 far...u gotta understand where im coming from...and i no u like him and he likes u and its hard 2 ignore feelings but i feel like u lied 2 save ur ass...u kept my hopes up when u new it would just end in shits and i dont like people that lie...thtas y im pissed....i dont care that u and kevin r going out...im fine with that...its just i dont no...im upset but im sorry i snapped punxz182: dont say sry!!!!!!!!!!! punxz182: pleaz dont apologize TEpPiE64: well i am TEpPiE64: i shouldnt of been a bitch 2 u haha im 2 nice...... o yea kevin yelled at me..... TEpPiE64: cuz they are porno style adn u have im a lil slut bitch that likes 2 fuck people over gf MAdMaN34X: ur being very bitchy TEpPiE64: i have the right to be a bitch tonight MAdMaN34X: im sure u do... MAdMaN34X: but wouldnt u rahter bitch at some1 who will at least consider what ur saying TEpPiE64: what? TEpPiE64: im not bitching at u TEpPiE64: i dont want to bitch at u TEpPiE64: i haev no reason... MAdMaN34X: ur jsut being very bitchy in general TEpPiE64: ok well i have a good reason MAdMaN34X: but y r u bitching to me TEpPiE64: im not...that comment about ur new gf wasnt in a bitchy tone.... TEpPiE64: im in such a good mood i dont think u understand.. MAdMaN34X: lil slut bitch that likes 2 fuck people over gf MAdMaN34X: that sounds like bitching to me... TEpPiE64: haha no it was in a funny laugh laugh tone MAdMaN34X: well i fuckin hated people that called u a slut when i was goin out with u MAdMaN34X: dont u think im gonna be just the same with her? TEpPiE64: omg calm down.....its me for christ sake...its not like im serious...and me out of all people have the right to call her a slut MAdMaN34X: no..u dont TEpPiE64: o i dont?....she only fucked me over but ok MAdMaN34X: bye teddie... TEpPiE64: what? MAdMaN34X: and keep ur fuckin mouth closed TEpPiE64: omg MAdMaN34X: no1 wants to hear ur shit TEpPiE64: calm down TEpPiE64: im not talking shit TEpPiE64: kevin first off, i dont care that u have a gf, i dont care taht its roxanne, im happy ur happy, cuz im over u, i dont want u anymore, its just im pissed because she fuckin lied 2 me thats all, and u no how i am with liars.....so calm ur ass down cuz im nto talking shit about ur damn gf...i dont care enough to talk shit haha the cute lil protective bf that he is...blah makes me sick ANYWAY i finally found a way to make myself independently happy yea ok well im sick of the blog peace | 10,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well im at the police station eating cheese haha some community service this is..."Give Back to your Community by Eating Cheese!!!!!" haha well the lunch program im doing doesnt start till 1130 ha before that i had to put traffic tickets in numerical order...BORING they give tickets for the stupidest shit...haha o yea u no how people say blacks do all the damage theyre so bad...well out of 50 tickets...41 of them were white, 6 where hispanic, 2 were black and 1 was asian...haha how random is the asian person haha i laughed when i read that and all the other cops looked at me like i was nuts..im so bored..i never thought i would be sittin in a police station at 1035 in the morning eating cheese...haha im dling AIM on this offical police computer how badass am i? haha they have aol 4.0 on here...how hardcore ok well im out... yours truly | 10,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
wel its 7:39 in he morning im off to give back to the community...im such a great person....ha | 09,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well i talked to kevin... MAdMaN34X: u know i think ur not fat MAdMaN34X: well...i am really sorry teddie MAdMaN34X: u know i didnt mean it... dude the kid has worse mood swings then i do...see what im talking about? haha i finaly talked to tyler today..hes so sweet... Cow of Death13: you are so ssexy Cow of Death13: we totally need to have sex when you come back you have no idea Cow of Death13: you are sexy, and great, and ... all of the above Cow of Death13: you are magnificant Cow of Death13: I want to cuddle with you lots teddie jeeze it was like compliment teddie day...i like this day ok now i will talk of my day day.. i went to navy pier with gina, kelli, and julie..we went on the feriswheel...i decided once i get a cuddle buddy me and him r gonna go to navy pier..its so pretty there..ok well that was my day..goodbye | 09,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
you act like everythings okay hiding behind words you can never say you act as if nothing is wrong playing off so strong but i know youre weak i no all the cuts as your blood leaks i no all the shit you put yourself through i no, because im you By: yours truly | 09,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well lets recap what happened in the past 5 min...i talk to kevin...mistake #1 then he tells me he was running..haha i laugh cuz he HATES running and then he says..."we'll see whos laughing when one of us gets fat" and then i say."r u calling me fat" and he says "haha maybe..." who the fuck says things like that and he nos how sensitive i am to shit like that i mean what the fuck people dont jus go telling people theyre fat and then laughing about it is just fucked up...theres something seriously wrong with him im not jking...who laughs when they make people cry...that kid is damned to hell i dont care what anyone says hes like the fuckin tinman in the wizard of oz with no heart hes so inconsiderate to peoples feelings its like all he cares about is himself..i cant wait for the day when he wakes up and has nobody to talk to cuz hes a lieing cheating no good fucked up in the head lil dweep and as of right now i want NOTHING to do with him...all this making teddie feel like shit has gone 2 far...hes crossed the line and im done seriously done over finished if i never talk to him agian thats great ha i cant believe it...he called me fat | 09,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well i just got back from that stupid shit i had to do...i had to do community service hours at my aunts work..haha it really was community service..i had to go around the ghetto in bensenville and feed the lil ninos haha nobody could speak english so i had to bust out the god ol' espanol haha it was fun...it really was well today i dont no what im doing...i need to call gina but i dont feel like going anywhere yet..i think im just gonna wait for cas to get back...well yea thats basically it...catch ya on the flip side | 08,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ive decided im the most patheticist person ever...if thats even a word...ANYWAY...i want a cuddle buddy right? well i really only want kevin to be my cuddle buddy...NOO i dont want things back to the way they were cuz ick no just no i dont want to go out with him ah just no please no..i just i dont no i kinda want what we had over christmas just like friends but kinda some more...not to the point where theres fuckin nutso commetment but like i dont no how to explain..i no what i dont want and thats what we had before i want nothing of the sort...i just dont no what i do want...well i do but i dont no how to explain it...but ha it doesnt matter cuz i was DE-NIED..it was like bam bam 2 slaps in the face my name is kevin daly i spit on u...this what went down... ImGoing2EatYou99: i just i dont no...its like one minute u act like theres nothing and then the next u say hey maybe...its enough to fuck with my head a bit and i dont like it MAdMaN34X: ok... MAdMaN34X: well then no teddie MAdMaN34X: its not gonna work MAdMaN34X: its never gonna work again seee slap twice in the face and a big spit ball in my eye | 08,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
OldStyle89: i wish u could change minds..if i were her id cry OldStyle89: lol id cry all day and all night and never leave my room and write in my diary and listen to alkaline trio OldStyle89: or id just make my self feel bad (like sorry for me) and shit.. ImGoing2EatYou99: HAHAHAHA ImGoing2EatYou99: u nerd OldStyle89: man if i was her id play it smart...id make me feel bad constantly for evertything i do ImGoing2EatYou99: hahaha OldStyle89: like if i saw her and didnt even see her id be like thanks alot i see u care for me... OldStyle89: oh man im gonna keep pretedning im in her mind ImGoing2EatYou99: hahahaha o man OldStyle89: this is fun OldStyle89: and then id be like "oh im such a lucky girl the guy that i love hates me but loves me hes a goon im gonna make him feel bad for me now" OldStyle89: god im a genious OldStyle89: if she did that more often i would never even use a ! mark at her ImGoing2EatYou99: HAHAHA OldStyle89: hoestly arnt i smart theo? ImGoing2EatYou99: yes tim u r my hero OldStyle89: lol i wish i was a girl id get everything my way OldStyle89: that pitty shit reallllly works | 08,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well tonight i went driving around with the jimmy and the steve and the cass and the gina it was alright...me cass and gina dressed up like idiots we looked hella good, ANYWAY last night was markys grad party but me and gina went out with the mulligan yea there was a kegg at the "wall"..haha the wall what nerds..it wasnt that bad, i didnt drink that much...i wasnt in the mood...i got drunk but not as bad as before, i called kevin...yea we talked....its so weird...well maybe im just weird...yea we all no that hmm i still want a cuddle buddy and i still dont have one...kinda sad...actually really sad...haha tonight is the first night in a while im home withot cass or gina haha fun...hahaha o yea tim beck isnt talking to gina i laugh at that hahahahaa | 08,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so last night we were a jimmys and i got 2 drunk for my own good....it was bad..i did some things i didnt wanna do i dont remember alot of things...i think i blackout or something...cuz i remember laying down in a bed and the next thing i no im in a car like no joke...i remember pretty well what happened before that and im trying to forget but from the time between in the bed and to the car i dont remember...all i have to say is that im gonna be fucked cuz gina is PISSED at me...even tho she hasnt said anything to me about it yet...shes pissed and me tim and gina need to sit down and have a lil talk ANYWAY i feel so gross and so dirty..i feel like ive een raped...ANYWAY well yea so teddie got way to drunk....i puked and cried...it was so bad...and i still feel like shit...well i havent talked to kevin in like forever and i think thats good...haha cassie told me that last night all i talked about was talking to kevin...and tim told me the whole time we were talknig it was about kevin...wow i really need to stop drinking..ha well today im not doing anything because A) Gina is at graduation and cassie is somewhere else...i dont no where and B) gina is mad at me and i kinda dont wanna be around her cuz im scared...hmm today is kevins fight, i wanted to go, but i cant...i hope he doesnt die well thats all for right now | 06,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
this is my new favorite quote...(not like i had a favorite to begin with...) "Hold your head you high cause you might die tomorrow." I dont no who said that but i was reading this magazine jimmy bought and it was in there so yea i like it | 05,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well yesterday me and gina went to the mall with jimmy and scott and then went driving around and went back to jimmys house and kevin showed up there it was like what the fuck r u doing here...he came to get roxannes sweatshirt or something...i dont no...today i went to the mall (golf mill this time) with nick, jimmy, cass, kelli, gina, and tim...yea and then me cass, gina, jimmy, and kelli watched goonies and my house...i think tonight we're going by jimmys..not sure tho, we might go to the pascals carnival MAYBE hmm i dont no..i havent talked to kevin in a while...ha well when i say while i dont mean weeks i mean like 2 days but anyway yea..i havent talked to him since he said i was annoying i dont understand one day im boring and the next im annoying...what am i suppose to do be boranning haha i do not understand...well still no luck on the cuddle buddy...im still lookin and hopin...ive decided if i dont find a cuddle buddy soon i might die hah not really but yea im out peace dawg | 04,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well yea hmm kevin....its weird..i dont wanna talk about it ha ive decided i dont want a bf...really i dont..not at all...i just want a cuddle buddy hehehe yes just someone i can go to and cuddle...no that doesnt mean a bf its called a cuddle buddy everyone should have one...2 bad i dont yet...hopefully i will soon..ok well goodnight everyone and sleep tight | 04,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
im still at kevins and im crying silently now leave me alone | 02,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so im at kevins...im so stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid i wish i never went out with him tonight...i no thats mean but i shouldnt have...dont get me wrong im havng fun its just that i DIDNT want to have fun...cuz now all those feelings i worked so hard to get rid of came back and i feel like a fuckin idiot cuz i no this is like a one day thing and i duno i feel fuckin stupid...o well what the fuck am i suppose to do...NOTHING so o well ooo well hahaha o man we saw finding nemo...yea well i cried...not cuz of the movie cuz im so stupid...yes i cried ok now leave me alone u stupid fucker | 01,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well im goin to hang out with kevin today after school...omg haha im scared, im all like ah whats gonna happen blah blah blah...i dunno tho it should be fun...haha I HOPE! | 01,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
TEpPiE64: pink writing is my thing now TEpPiE64: pink is my color now TEpPiE64: pink is my soul mate now MAdMaN34X: haha MAdMaN34X: thats sad TEpPiE64: y? TEpPiE64: cuz i meant to be together with a crayon? MAdMaN34X: u have a soul mate TEpPiE64: tickle me pink! MAdMaN34X: haha MAdMaN34X: no TEpPiE64: i have come to the conclusion that my soul mate will be this tickle me pink crayon right here in my hand TEpPiE64: no what? MAdMaN34X: haha MAdMaN34X: is that waht u really want? TEpPiE64: no TEpPiE64: but its what god gave me MAdMaN34X: u cant do a crayon TEpPiE64: well thats what i get a crayon and the ability to never have sex MAdMaN34X: ahaha MAdMaN34X: thats sad TEpPiE64: not really...its my destiny | 01,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
Apocalyptia88: dont get back with him Apocalyptia88: he doesnt deserve you.... man o man how sad....i want to get back i really do how pathetic am i? | 01,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
TEpPiE64: ok pretend ur having sex with me 123 go Cow of Death13: holy shit I think i just cremed my pants | 01,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
Viciousalkaline8: you dont need him Viciousalkaline8: your grade A top choice meat,hes not even on the market | 01,June,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i am so bored...i packed once agian today because i leave tomorrow..i dont think everything is gonna fit in the truck tho...thats gonna be funny trying to fit all the stuff in the back of my dads truck...its kinda ewy outside i was hoping it would be nice so i can lay out on more time but nooo it looks like it might rain...dude i was in such a weird mood last night..i thought i was going insane..it was fuckin NUTSSS i was laughing so hard i couldnt stop i was laughing so loud i woke my brother up and he called me crazy cuz i didnt no y i was laughing and i just couldnt stop crazzzzy man crazzzy im so excitied im gonna be home tomorrow!!!! TOMORROW!!! yay im so happy...brittnay is having a party but i dont no what day i need to talk to melissa but shanna isnt going so if its on friday im not gonna go but if its on saturday then im so going even if its boring im still gonna have fun cuz im just a big bundle of joy...i wonder how cass and gina and every one is doing i havent really talked to gina in a while like we write letters and stuff to each other but i havent talked to her..im gonna call her tomorrow night when im HOME!!! yay!! ok well i dont no what else to say... | 30,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
Charcoaleyes: i miss my boyfriend TEpPiE64: i miss my....nonboyfriend pathetic isnt it... TEpPiE64: i would make a damn good spice girl TEpPiE64: couldnt u just picture me in a tight lil dress and 10 inch heals screaming girl power on a stage XmydarknightskyX: orgasm.... what? im going to be the next spice girl TEpPiE64: do u even no who i am? AnthonyotherPunk: yeas TEpPiE64: whats my name then AnthonyotherPunk: teddie he does no my name!! woot woot parttttty | 29,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i wonder how long it would take someone to pluck off their leg hair...? | 28,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
what if some one had hair growing out of their ears...do they pluck it with tweezers? | 28,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i just got down plucking my eyebrows...that hurts like a bitch in a half...but they look good...that is one thing im definitly great at is plucking my own eyebrows...i should like get an award...and i owe it all to bridget garrity for showing me how to pluck my eyebrows well during the washington trip when she was my roomie haha good times...well only 2 more days..thats 48 hours haha im so excitied cant u tell? ha but thats it were having breakfast for dinner tonight...isnt it ironic dont u think? its like raiiiin on ur wedding day a free ride but u already paid its the good advice that u just didnt take and who would of thought it figures i can recite ALL the lyrics to that song...and i havent heard it in ages...hah im a loser because i no alanis morisette lyrics ( i think thats how u spell it: sorry if i affended anyof u die heart alanis fans out there by miss spelling her name) but now im out peace | 28,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
wow i experienced a complete omen moment today...( omen moment i made that up ) anyway ok so over sring break i riped kevins pants and tied it to my wrist and when we broke up i never got to taking it off...hell im just too lazy...anyway..at one of the kegs joe ripped it off and said he sounds like a bastard u dont need that fuck anyway and i put it in my jean pocket and that was about a month ago maybe more...well that was the last time i saw it..i figured it feel out of my jeans blah blah blah well today i walked past this table and there it was laying on the table in perfect condition...is that creepy or is that creepy..hmm wonder what that is suppose to mean...i get rid of something and now its back? that gives me the weebie jeebies well i just got out of the shower and now its raining...Okay word of advice when any one of u goes out and buys a house DONT get windows in ur bathrooms well at least big windows...so im taking my shower and drying off and i turn around and to my surprise there are builders working next door and probably saw my whole self taking a shower...so now i feel violated...only 2 more days and ill be home!!yay! im so happy i cant wait to see everyone and meet the E-MAN haha yay! | 28,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i dont understand why every punk known to man has to make a huge fuss about mainstream music...who really gives a fuck? im sick of people whinning and complaining the radio sucks this blah blah blah they only want ur money this band is a sell out yadi yadi ya...well how else to you except people to make money...its easy money to...if you dont like it dont listen to it...i dont...im not defending it..im just saying whats the point and complaining about it...if you want to sound smart talk about something important and if u wanna act like a "true punk rawker" then listen to good music thats all i have to say | 28,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i wrote today...it was weird i just kept writing and writing and writing i guess you can say its the start to my book...but i say that alot...it has potential anyway i didnt do much of anything today..i went into "town" haha that makes me laugh and i got a new book...thats about it...3 more days! | 27,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
My Views on How Guys get Sex at Parties: TEpPiE64: i mean how do u think guys like that get into girls pants they act all sweet and seem like a nice guy and than BAM ur screaming get off stop stop rape before u no it so ladies dont go into any unlighted areas with strange looking men and always pour ur own drinks i guess im screwed...ive been to give or take 10 kegs this summer and i still yet to learn how to pour my own beer.....o well bobthefish51: still in the chicargo? TEpPiE64: nope TEpPiE64: im in south carolina bobthefish51: oh no bobthefish51: run! TEpPiE64: run? TEpPiE64: y? bobthefish51: because its south carolina bobthefish51: the kkk racist rednecks will get you! bobthefish51: run! I MISS NICK... | 27,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i miss gina and cass and kristin and richie and jackie and amy and matt and vanesa and buzz and jay and tuki and andy and andrew and tabitha and joe and alex and everyone else boo hoo : ( | 26,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i miss shanna | 26,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i woke up at 1130 today i walked to the couch and like fell over and ever since then i havent moved i watched lil mermaid 2, queer eye for the straight guy, hey arnold and trading spaces now im watching thats so raven ive decided since today is the bad day im not gonna do any physical activity at all i talked to nichole yesterday we talked about volleyball and i came to the conclusion that im not gonna make it this year and i really dont care all that much i mean i do but im not THAT upset at least i can admit it right? hmm waht else well i need to shower but that would go agianst my no physical activity rule for today because showering is an activity because it does require movement hmm thats basically it im gonna go get me a glass of juice and watch some more tv...i have retired as a couch potato for the day goodbye | 26,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
im so bored...aww poor anthony is sick the poor thing...im talking to cass!!! yay cass go cass anyway i watched queer eye for the straight guy...stupidest yet funniest show ever 5 gay guys its great....FABIOOOOO..im so cold i have goosebumps...omg i wanted to take this dog home i found yesterday it was practically dieing and straved so i gave it my cheeseburger and my dad wouldnt let me take it home..the dog was so scared of people it was sad...at first we wouldnt even come near me and then i got it to eat out of my hand and by the time i was heading home it was following me everywhere..it was sooo cute only about 6months old...aww the poor thing when im older im gonna work to save the stray dogs and straved childern of america...its my goal to stop stravation and feed the hungry....what can i say i set high goals for myself | 26,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
shanna has a bf...i call him the white man with a black mans name..Ely hahaha well now im upset i want a bf boo hoo im crying on the inside...actually im not at all and im not upset that i dont have a bf cuz i could careless..but a boyfriend would be nice but im not complaining today i was up at 830 but i didnt get out of bed till 11 i had a nice breakfast consisting of toast and milk and i watched saturday morning cartooons...thats the life right there | 25,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
im so bored...im talking to anthony..i like anthony...but to bad his name is anthony...its the curse of the anthonys...ok ill explain....every guy named anthony i meet i completely fall head over heels for but they never work out...anthony romano....was IN LOVE with him he liked me to...but never worked out...tony well thats one long story i dont want to get into then there was taht one guy tony at the keg but i gues u could say that worked out i mean i made out with him and whatknot but then 2 weeks later joe or someone almost killed him and now its this anthony...i bet 5 dollars its gonna turn to shit...but hey its been good considering i didnt even no his name 3 months ago and now im talking to him almost everyday so its alright (knock on wood) anyway i layed out in the sun today and i noticed i have this pattern of freckles in the shape of a moon in between my boobs right there ha and i have no pigment in my skin on my tummy and i have a birth mark in the shape of a crown on my belly to interesting huh? well im gonna go change goodbye | 25,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
theres a butterfly caught in a spider web...i want to help it but im afraid...just like im afriad to help my own self...i wish i could help it, it doesnt deserve to die..the twisting webs raped around its fluttering wings struggling to be free helplessly wasting its last containment of energy until finally it realizes theres no point realizing that in just a split second its body will be dead and destroyed...i am just like the butterfly a helpless creature only meant to die.....i want to be free just like the butterfly that screams....free me omg the things i come up with haha wow i havent done that in awhile..i look at something and then all of a sudden like the change of the weather i start writing and writing and writing untill i come up with some twisted form of literature that scares people...even myself | 24,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
yoga does wonders.....i couldnt sleep last night so i did a power ab yoga workout at midnight haha it made me feel so much better...i havent talked to gina or cass in a long time...wonder what theyre up 2? HI SHANNA! BFP PRIDDDDDEEE!!!!! well im listening to 80s rock and im gonna do some yoga bye bye! | 23,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
i had a nervous break down..well at least thats what i call them...havent been like this in a long time i guess maybe its the time i have to myself...the amount of time i have to think..i try to keep busy but theres only so much i can do by myself or maybe its the fact that my family talks way to much shit about me....they act like i have no ears to hear...teddie will never be like that...she will never look like that...teddie this and teddie that...im still shaking and im about to throw up in a few minutes...im crying...when was the last time i cried?i cant handle myself anymore i feel a great deal of pressure pushing down on me and i cant get away from it...y do i have to make everyone else happy? y does my own family push me about how i look? i barely have enough self convidence to get me up in the morning i dont need my own flesh and blood telling me im ugly im fat nobody will ever like me like the way i am...telling me im a horrible person i thought family was suppose to be there for u i thought family was the only group of people that accept u for who u are? i guess i was wrong..i guess i was wrong about alot of things..but who do i turn to now? im left with no one...gina and cassie r over since i left im invisible theyre to rapped up in their own world and i dont blame them...the only one i got solid comfort from for a year was kevin but he cant comfort me anymore.....he would say "its not his job anymore" and everyone else doesnt no me well enough to actually help me i guess u can say im alone im drowning myself deeper and deeper i go...im gonna be the cause of my own death the thought of knowing ur alone is so scary excepically when ur biggest fear is urself | 22,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so i changed my blog its not better than the fruit but NOTHING is better than my fruit its kinda plain but hey it works | 21,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
theres something wrong with my stupid blog im getting so mad and might delete it omg i want to kill it | 21,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
im so bored blah blah susan made me go on a 2 mile walk it was boring i picked flowers along the way but i want to go on the jetskii so i have to wait till my brother gets done playing some card game i had a weird dream last night it was about kevin i dont feel like explaining it | 21,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so south carolina isnt taht bad its really nice blahblahblahblah but i didnt sign on to this lil adventure to be called fat the whole time i swear i have never seen a family that talks so much shit about one another....i no im out of shape i no i need to run thats y i am...but i dont need my family calling me names and teling me what to do ive done it once i can do it agian i mean i didnt even gain any wait its just that i sat on my ass the whole summer and lost all my muscle mass so i need to gain it back...today i went on a 2mile bike ride, walked up this stupid hill 10 time ( that sounds dumb but i would like to see u try) and i did a leg work out and right about now im gonna do some yoga! and then my abs of steal work out its insane and today all i ate was a half of omlet..SOY CHICKEN!! fuckin soy i mean really who eats soy? and then my brother made dinner but i dont really count dinner cuz i walked it all off anyway its like fuckin bootcamp but i like it i broke my ass jetskiing i thought i was gonna die and tomorrow i get to make dinner yay for me haha well its not that bad..nothin compared to drinkin everyday and wasting my time but hey at least ill have buns of steal and a 6 pack!!! | 21,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
welll my last night in chicago wasnt bad at all first off it started out with drama with gina and jay...cuz jay is an ass sometimes and doesnt call gina we sat at kristins for most of the night and then matt l called cassie and was like yea we have beer so i got drunk for free and i got matts hat well gina wanted to stop by chads to make a scene but no such scene was actually made alot happened...dont feel like mentioning it..see thats what happenes when i post like 2 days later ANYWAY so i was left at the airport for oo about 3 hours it was horrible i had elvie and she like puked all over herself and i didnt no where my dad was and i had 3 bags that were way to big for my lil self to carry but besides the fact that i was stranded at the airport it was an ok flight right now im in south carolina..its so nice here the house is HUGE it has like 5 bedrooms and its right on the water i went jet skiiing today with the brother omg it was insane the lake is HUGE and the water is so clean i fell off the jet skii and almost killed myself i flew forward and then backwards flying off the side hitting my head it was horrible but after the like 5 hour jet skii ride i layed in the hot tub and feel asleep! who falls asleep in a hot tub? well after that i jumped in my dads bed and slept for about 14 hours...i got in trouble cuz i didnt go out to eat but u try and stay up for 24 hours ok! but yea thats basically it....it feels so good to actually be back..wel im not really back anywhere since ive never been to this place before but u get it | 20,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
Charcoaleyes: hes a shit bag thats not even worth lighting Charcoaleyes: they both need to be put in straight jackets shanna i love u! thats shanna talkin about 2 people that arent even worth being named in my blog ok so today i woke up hating kevin daly and hes lil bitch friend denny so i want nothing to do with them thats it | 19,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok never go to the movies drunk...and for everyone out there that thinks im a liar I AM NOT DRUNK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im gonna watch 3 ninjas peace out | 18,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well its 1143 in the am!! i havent been up this early in ages...i even showered to arent u guys so proud of me? u should be!! ok well last night i was in such a GREAT mood it was totally insane aww shanna said i had pretty lips i was like aw thats so cute well only 2 more days ladies and gentlemen arent u so sad well u should be!! as of right now im listening to fenix tx and im going shopping at 1230 and later jay gina cassie and tuki r going to the movies and i decided if its just them 4 im NOT going sorry a double date with teddie doesnt sound like fun to me i told gina that and she made fun of me.....wish that i was cool i wish taht i was surfin! my goal is to become a surfer chick | 18,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
alright well today chris picked me up..it was HORRIBLE gina calls at 1100 yea chris will be at ur house in 5 min i was like what the fuck so i had to get ready in under 5 min and i did WOOT WOOT but yea so we went to justins house...watched mall rats..haha i saw liam today when i was driving to justins in chris' car fun stuff well i came to the conclusion that gina and justin want each other so bad it makes me sick to my stomach but hey o well hmm what else did i do today...we went to cassies work and got free food and um i went to cheerleading with them..BORING...excuse me (i just burped) anywho i leave in like 3 days yea i decided im SO ready to leave because...i dont no i just am..ginas being wierd..thats all im gonna say damn it shanna went to a god damn party with BEER im so pissed the only party ive heard of that i could of gone to im not there for DAMN it im so pissed ok i have decided im gonna start saying dude in like every sentence me and shanna r WOOT WOOT o and im bringing back the WOOT WOOT Charcoaleyes: you have the ghetto booty!! o u no it! ok well im out HOLLA! | 17,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so today was alright gina CASSIE!!! matt amy richie kristin and vanesa came over while i watched the lil kid...drank a few beer i didnt get drunk...i wasnt in the mood for socializing well that was basically it i sat up for like an hour reading about how i can be beautiful if i go on a crash diet wear 160$ jeans and spend 1000$ on new make up and cleaning products how entertaining i might add haha o yea jay called my house with out realizing and me and gina listened to them talk for like 15 min it was funny as hell i love knowing people waste time with me as the topic of conversation..thank u all so much for actually wasting time with me as the main concern of the night...even if its talking shit u obviously care enough to talk about me for that long of a time makes me laugh on the inside well im talking to good ol liam dority right about now and its been a very interesting conversation... kingcurls7: hey there TEpPiE64: how r u kingcurls7: great now!!!!!!!11 TEpPiE64: hahaha sure kingcurls7: i am TEpPiE64: uh huh whatever u say my friend kingcurls7: ok babe TEpPiE64: haha u make me laugh kingcurls7: i make u wet to rite?????????? TEpPiE64: what TEpPiE64: ? kingcurls7: u heard me TEpPiE64: no actually i didnt hear u kingcurls7: i said i bet i make u wet too TEpPiE64: oo yea liam ooo yea im orgasming over the thought of seeing u right now kingcurls7: omg come over pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (Edit: the annoying e's went on to long) TEpPiE64: ok thats enough TEpPiE64: haha i would laugh if u spelled please wrong kingcurls7: please TEpPiE64: haha how am i suppose to come over when i have no way of getting there kingcurls7: find a way any way i promise u it will be worth it TEpPiE64: o yea and tell me please how ur gonna make it worth something kingcurls7: many ways trust me TEpPiE64: please tell me kingcurls7: pleasure u in ways ud never thought possible TEpPiE64: hahaha alright liam whatever u say kingcurls7: ok dont belive me ull be sorry TEpPiE64: never said i didnt believe u...but it did make me laugh kingcurls7: ok then come over take ur moms car or sumtin u can come inside i live in the basement TEpPiE64: hmm not gonna happen considering i am the worst driver EVER and i would probably end up killing myself if i ever did take my moms car and drive it plus i dont no where u live and i would end up getting lost for hours which would cause my mother to send a search party out for me causing many people to be in a horrible mood for the rest of the day...not worht all the trouble kingcurls7: o it is plus i live on lawerence and millwaukke u take eleston to lawerence the lawerence alil bit down it right before milwaukke TEpPiE64: im telling u im horrible behind the wheel and even worse with directions kingcurls7: its easy directions kingcurls7: and not far TEpPiE64: so if u want it so bad y dont u take ur moms car out come pick me up and take me back to ur house? kingcurls7: cause i no ill get caught and then my mom will kick me out and i owe some people a lot of money so i cant afford to be living on the streets TEpPiE64: aww what a touching story kingcurls7: come onb TEpPiE64: im gonna let u down easy by saying...how about some other time haha liam makes me laugh i like laughing it makes me smile and puts me in a good mood ok so im talking to tyler that kid KILLS me hes always depressed and so "tired" it annoys me to death cuz hes a GREAT person in general and hes so much fun but damn hes always depressed its like calm down a minute and relax hes always trying to help someone and hes always acting older than he is...he needs to chill out and figure himself out hes always worried about the person next to him than himself and when someone tries to help him he wants nothing of it really tho calm down child before u has a nervous break down if u havent already...hes only 16 theres not much he can do anyway so y work urself to the bone over it | 16,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
finally i get to write in my damn blog...all night last night thats all i wanted to do was write in my damn blog but every time i would start a post i would get kicked off aol...damn u aol damn u straight to hell ANYWAY Yesterday: me and gina met justin chris justins lil cousin chris and this kid pete at the mall it was actually a lot of fun...pete started shit with some lil nerd kid omg SOO funny well after the mall we went to justins house and sat around there...gina pierced her ear....well after justins we went to the stairs cuz richie bought us beer...wel i wasnt even done with one beer and joe starts a fight with some old bum and the cops come to we had to hide r beer and book it to onahan BUZZKILL but yea me and gina were SOO bored at onahan that we decided to drive richies car...gina got it up to 105 on the expressway..i thought i was going to die and then she got it up to 108 on devon it was soo scary i curled up in a lil ball in the backseat i was SO scared well taht was last night Today: so today i wake up at o about 230 haha very nice i sat around and then i put on one of my moms dresses and high heeled shoes and walked around the house like i was someone important haha yea but now since its my moms birthday im going to watch the child for her and since i have a case of beer i figured what the hell party at my house so i think thats whats goin down tonight and if not then im chillin with westin tonight! woot woot party over here but now im going to curl up on my moms bed and finish reading ellen foster so peace out P.S: brad was here last night ick ick ick ick | 16,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so yesterday gina picked me up and we drove around then we went to pick up amy and i saw kevin...yea it was weird..he didnt even say hi and gave me a dirty ass look...i asked him about it and he said that he couldnt look me in the eye yea ok kevin ANYWAY so me gina and amy went to andys it wasnt that bad and then alex showed up and hes like alright lets go to my garage and he turns to gina and says u no whos not invited so we go back to ginas instead then we decided this is gay so we get in a car and drive we went and picked matt up because alex wouldnt let him in his garage cuz matt talks to me and u no since i have coodies and all matt got my disease but yea so me amy matt and gina drove to the beach and drove through the projects wow so scary but yea anyway after that i went home and watched igby goes down agian for the 4th time and made myself something to eat and talked it up online...for some reason last night i erally really wanted to get out of my hosue like really bad i wanted to just get up and leave but since i didnt have a car i couldnt o well o well i leave in 5 days i need to pack .............gina is suppose to call me today and come pick me up but i dont no what im gonna do cuz they have cheerleading and i have no way of getting home before that because my mother is going out well thats it peace out | 15,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
alright well last night i enjoyed having the night to myself...it was really nice actually i sat around and watched igby goes down and made myself some dinner...then i talked to shanna on the phone for like 100 hours very nice that movie (igby goes down) is soo fuckin good the guy in it is soooooooooo hott i wanted to jump in the tv and rape him shanna has a new man now Ely or something...sounds like a black mans name but yea anyway shes out looking for a man for me now cuz i need one a big hot beefy one that will treat me like a princess haha o man so nice so nice ANYWHOOOO gina is picking me up at aroun 1 o'clock and then i dont no whats gonna go down...cassie got caught smoking so shes cut off her parents over react toooo much they need to calm down because one day cass is just gonna get up and leave and never come back...y do u think she wants to go to the army so bad? they need some serious parent child counseling of some kind...this ol' blogger here really needs some spell check or something haha sorry random thought ANYWAY right now i JUST got out of the shower..shaved my legs HAHA theyre all smooth and soft i cut myself tho and it really hurt..but yea now i think im gonna take my bowl of oatmean throw it in the garbage cuz im not hungry anymore and sit my ass down and watch igby goes down agian for the 3rd time untill gina is ready to come pick me up...does anyone know how to make oatmeal cookies? i have the biggest craving for some right now ANYWAY im off so i hope everyone has a lovely day today BYE! | 14,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so LAST NIGHT...we went to mike ws and drank...it started out as a HORRIBLE night and then ended not to bad alex and whatknot started screaming mysteria and everything and i was like alright fuck this im sick of it, and they wouldnt stop so i felt like shit and started crying and kristin BITCHES the fuck out of them and then gina does too but as i was crying i went for a walk with gina and matt came to he really helped hes like dont worry greek is an ass to everyone he used to be an ass to me to blah blah and then he told me what mysteria stood far...haha this is soo funny, i laughed...it means like someone who strikes in the dark like me making out with people cuz they all think i tried to get on chubs but i didnt and they all think i got on ronny but i didnt do that either so haha yea it makes me laugh...but gina told him about mine and ginas theory on y he doesnt like me and matt totally agrees but ANYWAY so we come back and he sees that ive been crying ect ect and alex gets up and leaves all pissed off and then he comes back on his lil bike and sat on the cooler without one word to anyone but anyway so yea that was the horrible part of my night oo yea and i hit my head on the door and it really hurts but anyway so after all that went down i talked to jimmy and gina about god and heaven and hell and whatknot that was such a good conversation haha serious drunk conversations really make me laugh haha o yea steveo put gasoline in a charcoal grill and when joe deltlo and i were filling up the cooler hes like y isnt ur bf doing this for u and im like i dont have a bf and hes like alright im ur bf then i was like yea oooo k u drunk man but yea then we went inside and i fell asleep on the couch and matt used my leg as a pillow i woke up this morning and he was all curled up holding my leg and i was like awww it was so cute but yea that was pretty much my day..we left mikes at like 11 this morning and my mom knew i didnt come home last night but yea cassie worked today and i went home ate taco bell, watched phone booth ( confusing movie ) and fell asleep and just woke up about 25 min ago....now im really hungry and i think im gonna make me some food and watch a movie then pack 7 MORE DAYS! !!!! how sad and depressing and so exciting at the same time xRitalinKid7x: i do. you know that i always loved you (as corny as that sounds). aww denny | 13,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
o man ooo man | 12,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok so today...we slept till like 330 and went to the woods REALLY boring....i came home early cuz im so sick of alexs shit, its annoying as fuck i mean if u dont fuckin like me just fuckin say it he like says shit about me thinking i dont no and its soo annoying and since its alex and everyone else we hang out with cant think for themselves they all go along with it and say they hate me to so me and gina talked about it cuz i was like on the verge of crying or killing someone...i cant handle it when people dont like me and need to make fun of me like i just freak out, i cant handle it at all but yea so we talked about it and she talked to kristin about it and kristin said that its just alex and the people that count love me so its ok but u no i dont even fuckin care anymore cuz its like what i leave in 9 days? i never have to see taht mother fucker agian if i dotn want to so whatveer fuck him if he wants to be an ass to someone he hardly nos then fuck him but yea gina said that we dont need to hang out with them for my last week and i can choose what to do so yea no more of that stupid shit im out peace | 12,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well eight now we are about to sneak out in 15 min to mike ws house...i REALLY REALLY REALLY DOOOONT wanna go, im tired wanna sleep and just got out of the shower, now i have to change and whatknot, i dont feel like making myself presentable and whatknot o well haha well anyway cassie came over and the baby pissed on my leg, we went to tabiathas work and she gave me icecream hehe i was good but yea the baby pooed all over and i made cassie clean it up well thats it im out for another exciting night of sneaking out peace | 11,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
LiL Angel 1344: ya! i was like omg.. i didnt know it was u ! haha i saw rachael like 2 days ago..havent seen her since 8th grade...i LOVE seeing people i havent seen in a long time...its always the same thing it takes them 5 min to realize its me and then then we have a conversation a day later...OMG u look so good, u look so different...haha i love it....aw the baby asked for a pickle how adorable ok peace | 10,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
alright well yes we snuck out once agian it wasnt bad me gina cassie stonehouse joe jimmy and alex walked around drinking for like 2 hours in the rain...it was kinda fun listening to all the stories about back in the day well anyway we called it an early night around 200 so we came home and this morning i wake up and gina and cass r gone its like alright thanks for leaving without even telling me so now im stuck picking everything up while theyre out i feel like a god damn mother or something....so i call cass and her a gina got food and went to go get ginas car and then they were going to alexs she said she would call me but that was at 130 and what time is it now hmm lets see....415 yea thats great i like get ditched in my own house but see im not even taht upset but i no for a fact if i was at someones house got up and left without even waking them or telling them and went out with out them said i would call and never did that person wouldnt talk to me for days...but since im not like that im gonna enjoy my time alone finishing my book and when my mother comes i will play mommy tonight and watch the lil child while they go out after cheerleading and drink it up and i guarantee i wont get a phone call at all...o well now im sitting here talking to tim beck about how my life is boring, dennis newman about how he cant go to a show, kelli russo about y im not out and mike c about how i have no fucking idea where his damn mic stand is so thats basically everything thats on my mind...i was watching some weird jew movie the jew girl was a slut and fucked her husbands bother and some random black man jeeze all taht and she was jewish well i leave soon...10 days, i talked to my dad about it today and personally i cant wait to get the FUCK outta here...nobody understands how bad i want to go home, i miss my house, my daddy, my old routine, i miss my old life in general i just wanna get back to normal i guess things just feel more right there but i bet 100$ once im home im gonan complain about how bad i miss it here, how bad i miss gina, cassie, everyone, drinkning everyday, sneaking out till wee hours in the morning all this stuff but whatever haha i just bought tims GBH tshirt RIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT ON ok im out peace | 08,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
well i just got home...today was pretty fun....joe calls gina at like 12 and is like so what kinda beer do u want? haha it was great they r so nice...well we went to alexs at like 130 and watched hlaf of blow..i dont no y i like him im so stupid cuz he like hates me...nobody else hates me anymore except for him...me and gina decided it was because i got on cray that one night but theres nothign i cant do ANYWAY after alexs we went to the woods and drank..then went to imlay and jessica was suppose to fight dina but that never happened, cops came then we went to mike ws house and say around outside and now im sitting here eating a hot dog and talking to my volleyball coach...sneaking out agian...o man cant wait, so excitied | 08,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well its 530 on the dot and everyone just left i swear i feel like a single middle aged mother of 4 when they slept over...i cook i clean i pick up after them and after i do all that im not tired so i go mega mom and clean the whole house and after im done cleaning i relax on the couch reading a book...man o man im gonna be an amazing mom well me and gina had some heart to hearts about things for some reason i told her EVERYTHING EVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERYTHING about me and kevin...i dont no y she got me started and i kept going and going and going and going...it felt good to get everything out tho like i feel lighter or something and once agian for EVERYONES info i do not want him anymore so stop thinking that right now before i bash ur skull in with a lamp post her and jay r cute...haha it was so funny she wakes me up at like 130 saying "my mouth hurts" as jay walks out my front door hahaha taht still makes me laugh well poor joe slept from like 6 in the morning till like 10 minutes ago i feel so bad for him man o man im 2 nice but right now im sitting here in my "Andy is my Hero'' shirt watching the cars go by...i need a bf | 08,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |
ok well its 822 in the morning and andy joe jay gina and cassie r at my house they have been here since 500 i gotta stop with this sneaking out and not sleeping thing...we snuck out to greeks house and drank with jimmy at like 330 in the morning i had ALOT of heart to hearts tonight even with andy he told me y he DIDNT like me and told me that hes cool with me now which is nice to hear o man cassie was pissing me off but u no whatever if she wants to be a slut then so be it she can be a fuckin slut but i dont wanna see her cheat on all her bfs and get a cocky ass attutude about how she gets all the guys cuz thats so wrongo ok well me and gina r gonna have ANOTHER heart to heart peace | 07,July,2003 | female | 16 | Virgo | indUnk |