I haven't had a real friend in about 7 years. Never really had many -close- friends though. My one really close friend passed away in 2012. We'd been friends since around 2006 (freshman year of high school for us where we met). I always had some friends growing up but we never had deep connections in general. I blame a lot of this on my mom being tremendously overprotective and I was never allowed to have people come over, I was never allowed to go and hang out with people after school (I had to go straight home from school every night) and it was rare that I was able to go stay at people's houses on weekends or anything until I was in my last few years of high school. Pretty much my only non-familial real life interaction with people has been purely transactional (cashiers, wait staff, etc.) and I haven't checked my personal social media since about 2014 or so. That wont be changing any time soon since it'd just depress me lol. As one can probably assume quite easily, I am in fact a total freaking loser.
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