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Holding on by a thread I’m struggling. The last couple months, I have thought of ending my life. It’s more than the last couple months. I’ve struggled with it since I was 14, so half of my life. I just can’t handle it anymore. I lost my job that I loved so much due to my mental illnesses. My parents are at the end... | self.SuicideWatch |
My right leg. I broke my leg the other day. Well. More than that. I fell while bouldering at a gym (not my first time - hand slipped off the rock at about 3m off the ground), I fell awkwardly, with my shoe getting caught on the mat as I fell. I broke my tibia and fibula right below the knee, and my femur crushed my kne... | self.offmychest |
Idek anymore It’s 3am and i cant seem to get to sleep.. i’ve been so upset and i just don’t know what to do anymore.. im so depressed i put myself through so much fucking bullshit im always giving people chances im always there for people even when they don’t deserve me i’ve been used and taken advantage of and im just... | self.SuicideWatch |
Saying suicide is selfish? A friend of a friend quite recently attemped to take her own life and I just sat down and talken about it with my three best friends, to of whom have been close friends with said suicide attemptee.
They were so angry, saying things like how selfish it was of her putting them and her family t... | self.depression |
Can not sleep..... its been 29 hours im feeling so bad i dont really know what do to. and im tired but i cant sleep..... | self.depression |
Is anyone actually ever happy, or are they just faking it? [deleted] | self.depression |
Does anyone ever think about waking up in another life if you choose to end it all? This is something that I have thought about for a while now, mulling it over in my mind constantly. It is something that is equally curios and terrifying for me. I don't want to wake up in another life, I didn't even want to be born i... | self.depression |
Nostalgia I'm always thinking about the past, about how happy I was with virtually no worries. I wish I could go back. I wish she was here with me. | self.depression |
Why do I hurt? And how can I get it to stop? So, bit of background, end of August/early September my depression was coming back hard to the point where I almost needed meds. And then a very close friend of mine committed suicide.
It pushed me over the edge and I got in to see my doctor after the funeral to get on meds... | self.depression |
I can’t cope with my feelings I really like this girl and she knows it but she doesn’t like me but we’ve had sexual contact and it seems like we’re always getting into awkward stares and I just don’t know what to do I want to disappear but Idk where I would hide | self.offmychest |
Today is the end My mother just find out I didn't go to college all the semester, and didn't pass, she's so angry... I'm sorry I'm sorry, she just don't understand depression all she cares about is her money who it's being wasted on me, this is my 3rd year already im fucking hopeless don't want to deal with this shit, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
What happiness is. I’d just like to remind everyone here that you don’t need constant euphoria to be happy. Happiness is when, despite the inevitable negative aspects of your life, you always feel at peace and, even if you’re unhappy right now, you’re at least satisfied knowing the future may be more positive.
Before ... | self.depression |
Does anyone else feel that it’s impossible that just “anxiety” could be making you feel this way? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I want to apologize for existing I really want to apologize to my 'friends?' For existing but I don't want them to worry about me. I just post about on here every couple months. I'm really sorry for being who I am I wish I could have the courage to end it but I don't I'm really sorry hopefully I'll be gone soon. | self.SuicideWatch |
Recovering but confused?
My biggest confusion is how I got like this?
I’ve had a great life, a LOT of trauma such as my mum had cancer, my grandad who was like a dad to me died, my uncle died suddenly, two friends died of suicide and I went through a bad break up, all in the space of two years.
But then I look at ... | self.Anxiety |
Yo Double Post Just end my useless fucking life people. 1 up vote is all I need 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😉😉😉😊😊😉😉😉😉😊😉😉😉😉😅😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉😉 | self.SuicideWatch |
GAD and depression, or adjustment disorder? I started seeing a therapist about a month and a half ago, only able to go every 2 weeks. After my 2nd time there she said it may just be an adjustment disorder, and that she could probably give me GAD, but didn't want to add on that and depression as well. Something about no... | self.Anxiety |
A change in my routine can ruin my day I'm always afraid of screwing up relatively simple tasks, and if I don't have explicitly clear instructions I just panic, as such, I love my routine, I love doing the same things everyday (provided said things progress, like reading a book, or studying in college), but whenever I... | self.Anxiety |
I’m sick of seeing people I care about suffering For the past year at least, I’ve been starting to notice that everyone I care deeply about always ends up feeling like they should hurt or even kill themselves and I’m sick of this. I’m so tired of it, I just want them all to be happy. I found out a week ago today that m... | self.offmychest |
What is the easiest way to end it? Don't have a gun :-( | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I start a conversation Do you guys have any tips on how to have a genuine conversation? It can be over text or in person it doesn’t matter I’m just really socially awkward when it comes to things like this. Thanks! | self.Anxiety |
Family is like an obstacle for a life I'll be OK with [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I battled depression at a young age and won through the love of those who surrounded me. This is my story, I hope it gives you the strength to keep fighting and to help those around you. Hang in there. A while ago I was bullied a lot to the point that I didn't want to live. I eventually moved schools and was led out of... | self.depression |
alone people think im a slut. my father told me i would not be anything in life, even if i become a prostitute, i would still be nothing. my mother said im a demon. my brothers said im crazy. my family abhors me. i am alone. | self.depression |
Anyone had success with low dose atypical AP's for severe anxiety or depakote? I tried a low dose of risperdal a while back and it did help provide relief of my severe anxiety and agitation think I took .5 to start and maybe then a full gram at bed time but stopped because I immediately started gaining weight and was z... | self.depression |
Nothing to Say I'm the most boring person in the entire world I think. I have nothing to say to anybody ever. I'm paralyzed in space and time if that makes sense, I have no idea what I should be doing at any moment. If you want to have friends and relationships you have to be an 'interesting" person with a personality,... | self.SuicideWatch |
repost: hate my sister reposted because it keeps getting removed.
Recently, we adopted cats and they live in our basement, where my sister also lives. The cats rarely come up because one of our dogs is hyperactive and barks a lot at them, so they generally stay downstairs. My sister hates the cats and I think she's tr... | self.offmychest |
Friendship Not sure if this is the accurate subreddit but I need some advice.
Ive reached the point in my life where I think I have no friends. There are several cliques that I'm associated with but they often have discussions among themselves that I am not a part of. Even when we hang out in feel as if I am only an a... | self.depression |
I literaly met the girl of my dreams Three days ago I dreamed that after university my friends introduced me a girl that was also going to my university, with the name of Nicolet. By the logic of the dreams, I took her hand and had a walk to my home, but that walk wasn’t a normal walk inside a dream, it was a super rea... | self.offmychest |
I think that reading online news may be severely affecting my depression. Have you tried cutting it, and has it helped you? I've been thinking over the past week and it seems that my habit of reading online news (and checking related web sites) may explain why my depression is much worse now than in years past despite ... | self.depression |
When to go to the ER I feel like I can’t make it. I fantasize about different ways of killing myself all day every day. I don’t sleep, I hardly eat, I cry so hard I throw up. Every minute of every day is a fucking battle. And I am losing. The only person I have to talk to about it says it will ruin my life if I go to t... | self.SuicideWatch |
i wanted so badly to drive my car into a tree on the way home i don’t like who i am. i think i’m stupid and i don’t like my personality
everything makes me nervous and all i do is feel anxious and it’s never going to get better
nothing is enjoyable. i either feel bored or depressed or anxious
i was talking to my ... | self.depression |
Work didn't work Well, I tried going back to work yesterday. 5 minutes in, full fledged panic attack and my husband had to send our teenager in to fetch me from the bathroom so he could take me home. | self.bipolar |
R/relationship-advice is full of a bunch of jerks Actually that's unfair. But at least two jerks. I went there to talk about my current relationship issues and how to best give my SO the space she needs in the break we are on while also living in the same place. All I got was "haha she's using you, you're pathetic!" An... | self.Anxiety |
After 28 Years this Virgin starts feeling lonely I'll most likely soon be a 28 year old virgin.
And in principle, that's fine with me.
But more and more I'm yearning for someone to cuddle, while watching a movie, while laying in bed.
Problem is, I dislike propably >90% of the people I meet (in the sense of pre... | self.offmychest |
Body is anxious but not brain? Does anyone else experience anxiety that seems to be all physical and how do you get past it? The best I can explain it is that mentally I feel fine and I am having good thoughts, telling myself that I’m fine and that I can do this. But then my body will be exhibiting the symptoms I have ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm thinking about weird ass stuff all the time I need some advice. This problem happens to me whenever I stumble upon an article about some patients having weird yet scary diseases such as neurofibroma or ALS, etc. After reading the whole article or just looking at the picture of the patients I then feel extremely nau... | self.Anxiety |
i have been unemployed and in severe cognitive distress for the last few years today i released an app i had been working for close to 10 months it took me 4 times as much time as it should have, but doesnt matter. this is where I thank everyone and share the success with you guys | self.Anxiety |
No meaning, no passion, no responsibilities. What's the point? I get the point of getting a job to survive but it's so unfulfilling. I'm doing good in school, eating healthy and keeping my apartment clean but I'm still suicidal because all that is ultimately meaningless.
I just wish I was a useful part of something an... | self.depression |
I don't know how to help my friend For the past two days I've been sitting up trying to talk someone I really care about out of suicide. I haven't eaten, I've barely drunk, I've barely slept. All I've done is cry and be scared and plead with them. I don't want to be here either but I can't watch them do this. I can't l... | self.SuicideWatch |
Off my pedestal platform! TLDR: Healthily transform burning desires to a meaningful productive relationship.
I am at the breaking boundary. Fantasizing insistently per the sole gal. How does one best cut the cake and ask her to a valid date?! The more timely energy I've put unto this, the higher extant personal inves... | self.offmychest |
I’m done Life is unfair, people are even more unfair, even more on the internet... i submitted my story and I almost got banned from this subreddit cause of all the bad karma it gave me. Then I watch any other comment and they get such amazing feedback and support and when I was looking really bad they told me to kill ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t feel that way.. I am a 19 year-old girl. I am not brave enough to kill myself, but I want something to kill me. My parents say they love me, but I don’t know, my sisters they never say it. I have a boyfriend, he says he loves me, but I don’t know too. I feel just like a burden to everyone else. I am always such... | self.depression |
Day by day. Recently a coworker of mine tried killing themselves. The shock alone from this news put me back in a downward spiral. Almost threw away my relationship because of my irrationality, but at the same time it was an eye opening experience. It shed a lot of light on my own problems and how I've ignored them for... | self.depression |
A line crossed? My “ex” fiancée was having a hard time and it was getting to the both of us. I told him he could go ahead and leave. He then started bawling and begging me to “stop him from leaving”. I stayed away cause he called me some names and I wasn’t up for anymore name calling from his end so I just locked mysel... | self.depression |
Abandoned by my only friend I only had 1 friend that I thought would never abandon me. I was wrong. I value that friendship more than anything. Every “friend” I had just abandoned me out of nowhere. Im alone and tired of all of this. I’m not a bad person. I cant be alone all my life. | self.depression |
I go to my counselor/therapist for the first time today. Please tell me about therapy anyone, I was diagnosed with depression from my doctor 3 days ago, my mom is worried about my mental health, please tell me about it.
| self.SuicideWatch |
my fiance suffers with anxiety and i want to learn more and do better Hi guys,
A bit about me and my SO, we have been together for over five years, got engaged this past summer, and will be married sometime in 2019. I love her dearly - she is the most thoughtful, friendly, intelligent, beautiful person in the world. I... | self.Anxiety |
Excessive worry over things you say? I have suffered with anxiety all of my life all the way back to a child of about the age of 8. My anxiety has went dormant for periods and I feel like nothing can tear me down but every 10 or so years it relapses and created a bigger monster of fear. Well it happened again last year... | self.Anxiety |
Going out public Whenever I go outside in public, It feels like my mind is pulling me towards going home and just feeling depressed and sad alone. I just feel so empty inside, like a part off me is already dead. And ending life wouldnt be so bad, cause life really isnt that great. Does anyone feel some what the same? | self.depression |
It feels like this isn’t right Hey guys. I’ve been fighting with this for a while and was good for a couple of months but this weather along with personal issues have been getting me into this deep deep tunnel is darkness. Ive been trying to ignore everyone but hen that makes me more sad because I feel lonely. I try t... | self.depression |
Do you ever want to never wake up? Do you ever feel like it'd be so much better to just go to sleep and never wake up or to just be erased all together? | self.depression |
Just tired of my life and everything in this world, scared of what I will become... [deleted] | self.depression |
I NEED TO FUCKING QUIT MY JOB! Gaaahhhhh holy fuck. I knew it wasn’t a long term thing when I took the offer, I knew I would get tired of it. It was probably only 2-3 months in that I thought “oh fuck, I need out of here.” I’ve made it to over 10 months now.
I have a surgery scheduled the first week of Feb, and my hea... | self.offmychest |
What song sounds like what's going on in your head right now? | self.bipolar |
Somebody tell me that sexual relationships in Hollywood do not represent reality at all. I have stopped watching Hollywood movies a long time ago, or at least purposefully.
It's disgusting. The totally uncalled for kiss scene between two characters that met barely a handful of hours ago is disgusting.
The unnecessar... | self.offmychest |
Losing weight after Lithium Has anyone had experience gaining weight with Lithium then discontinuing it and losing weight?
I stopped taking it about 1 week ago and I’m curious if I should expect the weight to come off easily or if I really need to get my ass in gear with the gym and eating healthy.
Thanks | self.bipolar |
I hate my life I'm a sophomore at highschool. I keep starting conflicts with my school counselor and my grades are so shit at school. I have no money and can't hire a tutor to make up for those grades. are money probs and doing sht at school thinking that you're worthless in life and in the future enough reasons for su... | self.SuicideWatch |
Girlfriend ignores me when i talk about my depression/anxiety [deleted] | self.depression |
Feeling Stuck I feel like I'm unintentionally destroying my relationships due to suicidal obsession. My husband and I fight so regularly now, I can't help but attribute my anger in the fights/disagreements themselves to the fact that his attachment to me, is what ultimately has kept me from, literally, pulling the trig... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lost my best friend and gf (she was both). We still talk. I don't know what to do. A couple weeks (maybe even months now) ago my gf broke up with me. She said she wasn't interested in a long distance relationship anymore. It really broke me as a person. I am successful person with a fulfilling job, but I am having such... | self.depression |
Weird Thoughts Anyone else have reoccurring thoughts that they are actually dead or are in a coma and all of what is experienced is just some sort of dream / after life? Any tips to deal with this? It sometimes happens when I get hurt or have anxiety / chest pains, like I will feel like I didn't survive the injury / sy... | self.Anxiety |
I just wanted to thank the users of reddit who comment daily with life advices [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
What stupid things make you anxious? I'm writing this in hopes that i'm not the only one that gets really anxious about stupid, simple things. For instance, I get really anxious when someone knocks at the door. 9/10 times if someone is knocking at the door and i'm not expecting it, i wont answer it. Same thing goes wit... | self.Anxiety |
I thought christmas was bad... ...but the new year seems to be turning out worse.
People are hurting. Every one seems exhausted and made of wax.
Another year of being trapped in a world that i will only ever view from the sidelines and never fully participate in.
Another year dangeling from the cliff.
Always on t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Had to leave a vacation dinner because I felt so shitty Title. Dad was super pissed taking me back to hotel, and I was at myself as well. This is hell. I hate my depression and I hate myself. | self.depression |
Trying to make myself better This week I decided to drag my ass to a library instead of staying at home sleeping and generally doing nothing to get some work done with my online course. It’s working for the most part although yesterday I had an argument with someone so I only finished 1 chapter instead of 3 the previou... | self.depression |
A big step!! So being in the dark or being alone are two of the biggest triggers for my anxiety. Tonight I went to the ATM by myself (in the dark!), and I'm sooo proud of myself. Sometimes I feel ridiculous being 22 and scared of the dark, but tonight made me feel a little better. Just wanted to share :) | self.Anxiety |
HIPAA violation is making me feel ashamed of being bipolar I already posted in r/hipaacompliance, and we’ll take action tomorrow. But basically my gf’s step mom is a nurse and she looked up my records to find that I was on an antipsychotic and am on bipolar meds, so she told my gf’s dad (who is very abusive and unstabl... | self.bipolar |
I've lost my drive to do the things I used to like Typical weekday: Wake up, go to work at this quiet dreary office I'm starting to hate, come home, eat dinner, just kinda kill time on Reddit or something, then go to bed early (I'm talking 8-9 PM).
My current position at work is just so dull and dreary. The office I g... | self.depression |
I don't know what's wrong with me, why i don't have anyone Having dreams only makes you suffer if you don't take action
I don't take action because I don't like doing anything except mindlessly browsing the internet
The reason I don't like is because deep down ,I'm unstable
Which has a lot to do with how lonely I'v... | self.depression |
It's back. I've tooken the route of confiding in this thread. My numbing depression is back in full force not to mention my anxiety. It took me months to improve on myself. However, I find myself back at square one. I no longer have any meaningful friends anymore. I lost the two that meant the most. One became toxic/... | self.SuicideWatch |
Have been in chronic pain for the last 28 years. I'm at the end of what I can take. I'm just so exhausted. It's never ending. It's 24/7 now. Nothing they do or give me helps. Nothing is working. This is not living. This is not fair. I have so much I wanted to do. | self.SuicideWatch |
a positive review for Wellbutrin it's been 2 months and I have noticed a big difference. the first two days were rough but after that it's been smooth sailing. a lot more energy each morning, not anxious energy, positive yeah let's do the thing energy. I'm also noticing it is way easier to lose weight on this stuff, I'... | self.depression |
I'm 20 years old and never felt the touch of a women besides kissing [removed] | self.depression |
Abilify blues I'm on 20 mg, its been I'd say a month. It made me super happy and creative and outgoing in a non manic way. Now I'm more depressed than I have been in a few months, can't do a single thing to try and change it either. I usually go to art of some form or even just bullet journaling and I can't even do tha... | self.bipolar |
Seeing my school's mental health counselor for the first time tomorrow, what can I expect? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Tired of living for other people. My life is absolute shit. It's complete garbage. I won't go further into detail because it would likely bore you. All you need to know is that I want to die. When I have told people this, both friends and professionals say the same thing: "But think of how this will impact [insert fami... | self.SuicideWatch |
My girlfriend is suicidal. Help. I don't know what to do, she's been having suicidal thoughts and she says she's been having urges to take pills just to end her life. I'm not very good at this at all, we're both 22 years old and i've lived an unhappy life but i've never ever been to the point of wanting to harm myself.... | self.SuicideWatch |
I think I still have feelings for someone from my past. My high school sweetheart, anyways. We were together for a couple of years in high school, closer to a decade ago. The closest of friends a year before. She was there for me for everything, and she was the only one I truly had an intellectual connection with as we... | self.offmychest |
My friend committed suicide. I can't live with the guilt. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I am not suicidal but i just want to thank you all I want to thank the people that help these people that think this way I think its special and that you have the powers to save lives and that's just so special, thanks.
and yes I have been through this all and I have been depressed and trust me you WILL get out of i... | self.SuicideWatch |
Felt what I thought was a pop in my head and immediately had a panic attack [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
my life means nothing all i have done today is eat fast food smoke pot and think about killing myself. i fuckin hate college. i hate that my parents had to be cursed with the sorry piece of trash that is me. everything i do feels pointless. i dont enjoy a single second of my worthless existence. also no woman will ever... | self.depression |
Leaving my house to work with full blown anxiety [deleted] | self.depression |
2018 has been absolute shit so far In this year so far my best friend has stopped talking to me. It is absolutely devastating for me because she was the only one I told that I have felt depressed, and now I have nobody. She was always there for me but I don't know why but I haven't heard from her in a while and she is ... | self.depression |
Finally got rid of facebook I've been feeling really chained to my phone recently and facebook in general. I don't really care about what's on there, and don't even have many friends. I still checked it constantly just the same, and was always trying to convince myself to deactivate it. It just made me feel worse about... | self.Anxiety |
feeling like a failure..."Caving" into the compulsions I have severe OCD that causes me to have false memories sometimes. Basically, I get so worried about something happening that I imagine it happening, and then I start obsessing over whether it really happened or not. I start wondering if I'm repressing things, or d... | self.Anxiety |
DailyStrength website Was anyone on here members of the bipolar group on daily strength??
I've been trying to access my old account, TiredLittleTanager to no avail and it's driving me nucking futz. I literally had a decade long journal I can't get to at all. Hoping maybe one of yous guys was a pal of mine on there an... | self.bipolar |
I think sometime in the very near future, if stuff doesent turn around im leaving everything behind me. If my life continues to travel ddownwards, and i continue to hate working a minimum wage slave job, and being lonely, with no friends, no future plans, bleak look on life. I am leaving everything behind. I am saying ... | self.depression |
It's not [just] you, it's your cats. I have asthma, and I'm severely allergic to cats... and horses, and some dogs...
When my mom brought two cats home, I was really excited for her! She loves them and has wanted one for years but couldn't have one when I was in the house as a kid. My eyes swell shut and I start wheez... | self.offmychest |
Redditors with dysthymia, how do you cope? I've been severly depressed for 23 years, I i truly believe that I have this. I have vivid memories of wanting to commit suicide at 4 years old. I have had medication and therapy, and have a surprisingly supportive friend group. I can't get a doctor to take me seriously althou... | self.depression |
Maybe now I'll be strong enough to end this relationship It's uncomfortable to look back at my post history on this account because I've posted here several times in this past year about how I'm unhappy with my relationship and I'm thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend. But I never did. Now his Trump love has ... | self.offmychest |
I’m done. I’m worse than I’ve even been. I’m so lost, I’m tired. Tired of pretending I’m okay, tired of trying to start over, when I can’t get anywhere. I’m so lost, and I’m exhausted.
I finally realized there is nothing left for me, not anymore. I just want the pain to stop. | self.offmychest |
Can't focus on studying when the voices in my head keep telling me that I can't make it [deleted] | self.depression |
I can't believe how naive I was in thinking things would ever get better. 22/F, 5th year college student.
I don't even have the words to explain how I'm feeling/what's going on. I've struggled with writing this for like an hour lol
I'm still lonely with absolutely no friends/'associates' (literally 0 contacts in my p... | self.SuicideWatch |
offff why do i always see myself fat in the mirror? please help me get past this it's really annoying i hate myself so much | self.depression |
Huge mood swings, confused and desperate. Can anyone relate? Sorry for the long post or if I'm rambling, my head is feeling heavy and I'm tired.
Friday 2 weeks back I felt worse than I have in a long time. I got extremely nervous, anxious and scared after coming home from school. After that weekend I suddenly had a bu... | self.depression |
Do you ever just lie to yourself and convince yourself that everything is negative? I know I lie to myself sometimes. Even if I'm wrong about hating myself. I feel like I deserve to be depressed. | self.depression |
Looking for opinions I will give a tl;dr on my history. I'm 29, home schooled until college, and I used video games as an escape from reality. I lack social skills and only recently started to contemplate suicide (3 months ago). I still live with my parents.
I will try to describe my mental state. When I look in a m... | self.SuicideWatch |
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