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Don’t want to end up in psych ward again. Need to get out of depressive episode asap. I’m slipping into a really bad depressive episode. I’m becoming suicidal, slept 15 hrs yesterday, am anxious and screaming often at nothing, self-harming, in physical pain, and have brain fog from depression.
I have assignments due t... | self.bipolar |
Do you ever break down because of how ugly you are [deleted] | self.depression |
I just need some support. Please, if anyone is out there reading this, just tell me that you're there and that it'll be okay. Because I know it will, somewhere in the back of my head. Every day is torture and the torture is going to continue until July. Im trying so hard to get through this but every day makes that fin... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is it bad to say you are suicidal for attention? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been suffering for seven years and I just want the pain to stop... So seven years ago I graduated from high school. At that time I felt like the king of the world: I was honor roll student who excelled at school, I had a girlfriend who I got along with, I participated on our school's football team, concert/jazz ba... | self.depression |
Welp, just got rejected like always While I won't be able kill myself reliably where I'm currently at, I still want the pain to end. I took the risk of either getting better with my depression and finally finding someone or killing myself. Guess I'm outta luck I never had.
Don't do relationships kids. | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing to live for, so much to die for. I do not enjoy anything, no matter how hard I try. I am riddled with anxiety whenever I am outside. I'm too lazy to try and do well in school. I have friends but I literally don't have fun with them at all. I'm incapable of having a close relationship with anyone because I have ... | self.depression |
I've hated my job for too long and I'm finally applying for new ones [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Can’t take much more I’ve been here before, so many times. Telling myself no one cares about me. I know I’m wrong but it still hurts as if I believe it every time I think about it.
I don’t give a shit about anything anymore, I have no future, nothing to look forward to. I’ve been living for years for the sake of my fr... | self.depression |
Cómo seguir adelante Durante años he luchado con mi ansiedad y episodios depresivos, y me dí cuenta de que confiaba mucho en mi pareja para mantenerme en calma. La necesitaba mucho a tal punto que ella no pudo más y se fué, solo quiero poder estar bien estando sola y que mi mente no me mate | self.SuicideWatch |
Suicidal thoughts all day. Please help me. Hi. I've been having suidical thoughts all day and the words "I want to die" repeating in my mind. I don't feel like myself right now. I feel numb. I don't want to die, I just want it all to stop. The thoughts, the horrible thoughts. Someone please help me. | self.SuicideWatch |
Hey all - new here. Life spiraling the drain and I am off my meds. tl;dr I quit my meds a few months ago for a couple reasons and lately my husband is sick and useless (2 separate issues) and I just found out my Mom probably has cancer.
This is hard. I have no friends, my Mom is the only family that is talking to me ... | self.bipolar |
I have no friends and spent most of last night crying [deleted] | self.depression |
Why do people suck so bad I feel like nobody cares unless you are rich or dead | self.SuicideWatch |
Has anyone Had Issues w/Bupropion But successfully taken it later? My pdoc recently prescribed Bupropion (Wellbutrin) XL 150mg to help with both depression and ADHD, as well as to hopefully counteract any potential weight gain from Seroquel XR 200mg. So far so good, right?
Well, I've tried Wellbutrin before and had it... | self.bipolar |
I haven't been on a plane in about 5 years I have a flight in two weeks.Every time I'm anxiety is worse. I'm very claustrophobic and hate the thought of the doors shutting and being locked in for about 3 hours. I wish I had something to just knock me out for the full 3 hours!Any help would be great! | self.Anxiety |
Not wanting emotional support is a vicious cycle. Don't have anyone to talk to --> Spiral into depression from chronic loneliness --> Learn to not need other people in order to stay sane --> Begin to pride self in not needing other people because it's all I have left going for me --> Reject emotional suppor... | self.offmychest |
Tired I live at a boarding school at the moment since my mum can't take care of me anymore since I couldn't get out of bed and was therefore missing lots of school. I thought it could be better, I thought I was getting better, obviously not. One of my best friend tried to kill himself a while ago I've told my mum i fee... | self.SuicideWatch |
I fucking hate my life I’m just not having a good time here on earth. I want to be with my friend so bad and sometimes I think about ending it all | self.SuicideWatch |
Holiday Hell Hi,
I live with my mom (as a 36 year old female) and she just left for a 10 day vacation. I do have a boyfriend, we usually see each other during the daytime when we meet for tea. Today I have plans to see my dad and his girlfriend (I usually only see them 3 times a year at most. I don't think I have e... | self.bipolar |
homework makes me want to die i once again screwed myself. i have 2 packets of math and 2 packets of chemistry to do, amounting to about 100 problems, and 2 projects for my remaining classes to take care of. i have 3 days before christmas break is over, counting today, and today’s almost over. i feel like killing mysel... | self.depression |
My anxiety is ruining my relationship. my insecurities have 100% ruined my relationship with my boyfriend. my anxiety feels like it’s taken over all my thoughts and I constantly second guess whether he’s faithful or not. I don’t know how to make those bad thoughts go away, it’s so exhausting and i’m going to end up dep... | self.Anxiety |
Had my first failed suicide attempt. Took about a 6 inch kitchen knife and relentlessly shredded into my left arm. Chickened out as soon as I realized that the blood kept coming after wiping it away. Sat with a throbbing arm, only thing guaranteed is a nasty scar at this point. | self.SuicideWatch |
My mom doesn't understand that I use the internet as my coping mechanism. I've posted before in either this subreddit or others about how my family can't understand that my internet is how I cope with my depression but now it's actually becoming a bigger problem. I'm 14 and I've been depressed for about 3-4 years. In t... | self.depression |
heart pressure: low diastolic and high systolic, 18yo. Hello, few months ago I've had my first panic attack, which, perhaps, was induced by methylphenidate (ADHD drug that I'm prescribed), I was hospitalized then. Blood pressure was constantly at least 160/90 (my blood pressure before issues was around 130/80).
The pan... | self.Anxiety |
My housemate got taken away in an ambulance outside our house last night and I didn’t realise it was her so I didn’t do anything and now I can’t deal with the guilt [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I can't stand my (F27) partner's (M31) best friend (F29) and don't know what to do [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I've got people all around me who are on some sort of passion fueled quest to become a specialist in their chosen field. Meanwhile I cant get out of bed most mornings. [deleted] | self.depression |
I cant just commit suicide, its not an option... Depression has become this toxic cancer that has swallowed me whole, I dont know how long I can last like this before Im totally engrossed by this feeling.
I dont experience any emotions anymore its always *miserable* or happy. When I feel happy its always this masquera... | self.depression |
Just got hit with a wave Got into a minor fight with my partner. His mother passed away two years ago, and he'd mentioned earlier that he missed her, which triggered me into thinking about how much I miss my mother (who lives on the other side of the country) and how fucked I'm going to be when she dies. Fast forward t... | self.depression |
Poison Ive been thinking about suicide methods for the last 2 months, and I’ve been wondering what a good poison would be, preferably a painless one. | self.SuicideWatch |
i don’t see the point anymore i apologize for how long and how much of a mess this is. i honestly don’t care if anyone even reads it because i just needed to vent. i suppose this isn’t the best place to try and get help from, but right now it’s the only place i can think of.
i’m 16 years old, and i’m just so hopeless... | self.depression |
My sadness now vs my depression before. BU reflection [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm a 16 year old boy and I really need help please I'm using a throwaway because some of my friends know my normal reddit account. This is sort of a rant so I'm sorry, I don't expect people to read this really.
I'm in sophomore year of high school, and ever since high school started I've felt really sad. I feel real... | self.depression |
[nsfw] I received anal sex for the first time and I'm really embarassed [deleted] | self.offmychest |
22M who grew up in a bad home, I feel intellectually starved and developmentally disabled from neglect at home, school, and friends You know that feeling when a conversation begins to drift into something you can't quite grasp? The feeling of being in understanding just slips away like losing your grip on a door handle... | self.offmychest |
I need to vent I'm absolutely freaking out about my future and it's pushing me to the brink of suicide. I feel like a failure. | self.depression |
I realized the older I've gotten the uglier I've gotten Ever since I turned 23 I've gotten ugly. Now that I'm 25 it got worse. Been single all my life. I wasn't this bad as a teen and early 20s. Could stress be the cause I don't know what happen to me! My face and skin got uglier. I'm not skinny but not extremely fat. ... | self.depression |
I don't think I'm depressed, but I can't feel anything. [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel like I can't breathe. Everything is falling apart. Please help. I just got destroyed on my chem midterm today, found out I failed a bio lab which reduces my final mark by a nice 5%, and my friends have pretty much straight up told me that I'm not hanging out with them like I usually do and that I don't seem happ... | self.offmychest |
People's first inclination is to always blame the depressed person It's somehow beyond their imagination that sometimes *bad shit happens and it's not your fault*. Because NOOOOPE it's always gotta be because "you're not trying hard enough". They never have any fucking answers that don't involve making it your fault. F... | self.depression |
On shit posting... obviously, as has been stated, the issue is not just selfies. So, we have a community that’s divided: one group feels that posting whatever they find (ir)relevant to bipolar disorder should go here. The other group would like to keep the subreddit relatively free of spam in order to help those who do... | self.bipolar |
Fixing myself seems impossible and pointless Hi everyone.
I'm a 30 something married woman that has struggled with major depression, dysthymia, with features of avoidant personality and borderline personality disorders (I haven't been formally diagnosed with the last two - the psychologists say I don't meet enough of ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Code Red I've been struggling with a depressive episode for about 2 weeks now, and it's hit what I call code red; severe anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Maintaining normalcy is impossible at this point and I regard my job with a sense of dread. I see my psychiatrist in a week, but it'll take forever to get a talk therap... | self.depression |
I'm going to sleep now. I hope I don't wake up I'm just tired. I'm tired of not having any friends. I'm tired of my mom. I'm tired of reading to the news. I'm tired of constantly being in debt. I'm tired of school. I'm tired of my grades constantly going down. I'm tired of eating. I'm tired of having no control whatsoe... | self.depression |
This relationship is so one-sided. I'm sorry I'm not enough for you. When I get back from holidays, I will have to break up with you. I'm so sorry it couldn't work out. But I'm clearly not enough for you, nothing I do or say seems to keep you interested in me. My texts go unanswered, you don't want to have sex anymore,... | self.offmychest |
I don't know how to feel. So, I've been told I have COPD. still waiting for an appointment to find out more about what that means. I get the impression from people around me. Mostly one friend and my mum, that I should be scared or sad or feel I need to talk about it?
What are you supposed to do when having a potentia... | self.depression |
This is a throw away account because I'm ready to throw it all away. Fuck it. I'm making this post and hopefully someone will be able to convince me not to engage the trigger on my .45. I am a transgender MtF and have known such for decades. This is nearly irrelevant, though as I could not under any circumstances tran... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why!? I feel like you guys are harassing me [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
The story of how I had a meltdown in Stockholm. Twice. Firstly, let it be known; I am a norwegian, more-or-less "high functioning" Asperger guy.
**First Stockholm-Meltdown:**
In november 2015, I went on a study trip to Stockholm with my theatre class. We were going to see lots of different theatre around the city. A... | self.Anxiety |
God im so so tired i just want to rest Im not even physically tired ,it's just..mentally it's destroying me
just so many problems that i cant do anything about ,i cant do anything but sit here everyday and waste my life, so many financial issues..just..it never ends ,it's not even the problem i've gotten used to it bu... | self.offmychest |
Am I depressed? I know no one here is a doctor and all that but I don't want to see anyone unless I'm positive cuz I have no idea what I'm doing and don't want to waste anyone's time.
Sorry if this ends up being long.
I don't even know what to write so like I was walking back from a lecture one day listing to music t... | self.depression |
Do hopeful words from loved ones do anything for you? I want to know if it's just me. It's at the point where I try to share some of my blackest issues and every word my friends tell me is the same old, "right now it seems the worst," "your pain won't last forever," and the most common, "it gets better" tripe. I just f... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lost my Job Well after two years of employment I lost my job. The only reason they gave me was "performance". I had recently missed work for a manic episode which put me behind on two projects. When I have worked through my phases in the past it has caused issues so under the advisement of my doctor and therapist I too... | self.bipolar |
Everyone saying it only gets worse is freaking me out. Hey guys. Dealing with depression for a while now, I think I might be getting worse, not entirely sure. I fear I might be getting worse. I fear that I won't be able to cope and I'll get worse and never get better and be able to enjoy life. Anybody ever feel like th... | self.depression |
Mom just told me that depression isn’t real and to kill myself. merry christmas
i told my family about what ive been going through this past semester and my mom just told me to stop being a bitch and that depression isn’t real. She said if I were actually depressed I should just kill myself because im obviously making... | self.depression |
Depressed after visiting someone in hospital. Does anyone else get depressed after visiting someone they know in hospital? My Dad has been in one for a few days with a serious bacterial infection, and I visited him today for the first time. He is almost like himself (we even went for a coffee), but I find the environme... | self.depression |
Only had this symptom once before, don't know what to do I'm pretty well acquainted with the depression side of bipolar and some of the hypomanic side but I am having really, really bad irritation and anger. I rarely get angry--I'm anxious rather--and if I do get angry it feels controlled. But I'm pacing the floor and ... | self.bipolar |
I don’t want to have to feel bad for being straight, white, and/or male. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Changed diagnosis? (Type II ---> I) Went to a new treatment place today. I walked in with the diagnosis of "Bipolar Type II, ultradian cycling."
After going over my story of self and loads of questions, the p-doc pulls out the DSM-V and starts looking through. Then we go over some more symptoms and she says, "I thi... | self.bipolar |
I feel like this is killing me, but still no one listens..? I am convinced that I have been suffering from bipolar since the age of 19, I am now 21. I don't think I'll make it to 30, I just can't see it happening. I've been cycling between manic episodes which start off fun and then end up making me irritable, paranoid... | self.bipolar |
Help Hi.
Lately, my best friend hasn't been sleeping well, he kept ditching school, and hasn't communicated with anyone.
Today I spotted a bunch of scars on his wrist. What should I do? | self.SuicideWatch |
Traveling while medicated One thing I always took for granted when I was off my meds was the fact that I didn’t have to remember to bring anything with me. We’re back visiting family 4 hours away and when I went to take my meds this morning, I couldn’t find my lamictal. Queue full on panic. I had two in my “I forgot to... | self.bipolar |
Loneliness I could use some help rebuilding myself after a breakup (4months). I have been jumping from relationship to relationship for the past year without pausing and being happy with myself. I need to learn how to take care of myself and appreciate myself without seeking a significant other for support. There a... | self.depression |
Almost 40 years and not a single redeemable quality can be found on this crappy rock. [deleted] | self.depression |
I think i have Sociopath/Paranoid-Schizodisorder, but i am also an INFP. I need help (see bottom) [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I effed up and I'm never gonna get a chance to make up for it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I don't know how to get professional help. I (26M) don't have a general practitioner in the family to recommend a professional therapist. My mom is aware of my struggles but can't help in the way that I need it. I have an old contact from 2 years ago, a counselor that saw me in off hours, but I'm not sure if he remembe... | self.depression |
I just wish I had a friend This life thing is bullshit. Nobody cares, everything is fucked, and everybody sucks. No matter how hard you try to make friends it doesn't even matter once they find out you are a depressed piece of shit. In fact, even if I wasn't I still can't make friends without saying anything. God damn ... | self.depression |
I spent two weeks in a hospital and most of the people were nice, but didn't know what the hell they were doing Sorry, I just really need to rant.
I was hospitalized for a suicide attempt in October, and the techs (the people who monitor the patients 24/7) were mostly nice, although you could very obviously tell that t... | self.depression |
Fuck New Year's Eve For some background, I used to be terribly depressed until a few months ago, for a few years. But I feel that that is going away now. I do not have that constant weight at the back of my mind, but there are still some times when I am brought down. So I don't think the depression has completely gone ... | self.depression |
Every Day Is Hard, Every Year Is Even Harder... [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been on 20mg Citralopram for 6 years and recently have had more to severe anxiety. My new doctor upped my dose to 40mg. How should I go about increasing my dose so I get little side affects? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I thought I was over my depression.. not too sure now [deleted] | self.depression |
how do you cope with the feeling of failure? i've given up all hope of trying to improve myself or learn something new. i cant even get myself out of my bed to exercise, draw or write my ideas out. i feel like theres so much people better than me, and that i'll never hold a candle to a decent human being
it all feels ... | self.depression |
Lately sleeping is the only thing that makes me feel better the dreams I have make me feel alive until I wake up and realize I'm still here with my mess of a life | self.depression |
Hormonal contraceptives and anxiety I just wanted to put this post out there for any fellow female GAD sufferers who are on hormonal contraceptives.
I have been off my hormonal contraceptives for a couple of months now and have noticed a huge relief in my anxiety and depression and a big reduction in the amount of pan... | self.Anxiety |
I need to escape this place Took the trash out. When the bag left my hand I had a brief thought to walk into the highway and just wait. It would destroy so many people but my constant battle with myself would be over, at least I hope. How can I be so miserable when I know there are so many people that love me. Why am I... | self.depression |
Health anxiety is exhausting. I suffer from some serious health anxiety. For the last few months I actually felt like I had it under control and was able to diffuse any intruding or worrisome thoughts. However, a few days ago a man close to my family had a heart attack and is in critical condition. Ever since then I ha... | self.Anxiety |
Daylio advice I would like some input into how you use Daylio or other mood tracking applications.
I was using Daylio for a month, super proud because I thought I was tracking my mood twice a day, only to realize I was pressing "meh" 50/60 times because that's my immediate overwhelming feeling whenever I get a stupid... | self.bipolar |
I have been suicidal for the past 3 weeks and I really should get help but it stresses me [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Get a goddamned job I love you, but your ideas about how the world works when it comes to jobs just drives me nuts. You have a master's in a field no one's heard of, you're pushing 30 and have never had a job or even tried to get one, and you somehow think your education entitles you to something "above" the things you... | self.offmychest |
I'm hiding it because I care My name is Imran. I am not mentioning my age because it's not important. I am from Malaysia. I hide my feelings, and thoughts from anyone. I didnt want anyone to know what I feel on the inside because if I do, I get criticized, bullied, and insulted. That crushed me. I stopped making youtub... | self.depression |
Things are going my way and I feel like shit I'm about to get a (good) job. I've almost finished my college year and started summer holidays (southern hemisphere). I'm planning a trip with a friend on July. My niece is growing up and is about to start talking. My best friend has been getting better from her depression.... | self.depression |
What do I do if I don't want anything? It seems like the only thing I want is unhappiness and pain. I don't want to do anything in life other than sleep all day and listen to music. All of my responsibilities I neglect because they just don't feel important anymore, even though a small part of me is saying that they st... | self.depression |
I wish someone would spend time with me I wish someone would go eat pizza with me, play video games with me, see movies with me, spend time at my house, go to concerts with me, walk around town with me, etc. I feel so alone. | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you have a stronger sense of smell when you’re hypo? Everything is stinking to me even though my family says they don’t smell anything. I’m almost gagging with the smell of our house. I don’t know if this has anything to do with me being hypo? I’m definitely not pregnant but it is almost the same.
Edit: I notice m... | self.bipolar |
My phone interview may not have went as well as I wanted it to... Fuck. | self.offmychest |
I think people close to me are fed up with my Anxiety sh!t Sorry for the vulgar title, but that's exactly how I feel right now.
I have ocd with health related anxieties. It gets the best of me. I am on therapy and medication. And I also do a lot self work. I tend to speak about my issues with my bf, friends and family.... | self.Anxiety |
I constantly ruminate and rethink social interactions over and over in my mind. Anyone else can relate? I've been like this since- forever, actually. | self.Anxiety |
mental visuals? I don't know if this is a bipolar thing or not since I've never seen anyone mention this, but in the last few months I've noticed that when I start feeling depressed again I get like a sort of scene or visual in my head. For example, once the feeling is just about to set in I'll all of a sudden get this... | self.bipolar |
SSRI's helped anyone with heart palpitations? First time post here. Really love the sub and everyone here is supportive and helpful.
So for the past year or so I have been struggling with heart palpitations/heart skipping beats then rapid heartbeats. Went to the emergency room once over it and it felt like I was havi... | self.Anxiety |
Venting: intense regrettable moment So I keep to my 31/M, I don’t try to date or have an sort of relationships it’s just too much since I can’t be emotionally stable or reliable plus I just don’t want to be wrapped up in that.
Sometimes when I get super depressed or get somewhat manic tendencies starting to manifest ... | self.bipolar |
Will the pain ever stop I'm so physically exhausted from feeling this way all the time. I'm 23, and I have BPD, depression and most likely an ED (I don't have an official diagnosis- but I'm pretty sure that a cycle of bingeing/purging/restricting is a pretty clear indicator).
I have no access to treatment or therapy ... | self.depression |
whats even the point when people find you insufferable.
it hurts. I'm in tears right now, and I wish people just tell me what's exactly wrong with me instead of acting distant or cold to me. | self.depression |
It took me 4 years but I did it. It took me 4 to make a 5 minute phone call. A phone call regarding to set up an initial appointment to a cardiologist. Its been years since ive seen a cardiologist. I havent gone because I didnt give a shit but I kinda give a shit now. Probably not tomorrow but I give a shit for now.
W... | self.bipolar |
I love her, but I'm obsessed. I have to stop things here for my own good In my post history you'll find a post saying I'm lonely. Saying I barely have friends and I want people to talk to. That was a year ago, and oh my God so many things have changed.
I have a girlfriend. I love her. We don't see each other much but... | self.offmychest |
Might be without anti-depressants for four months I am new here so I hope this is alright :) So I was talking to a friend about study abroad because I am going to Japan next fall and she told me they are very strict about meds (the adhd meds she takes is illegal to bring in the country) so I might not be able to take m... | self.depression |
I’m arriendo to break up with my boyfriend because of how depressed he is and im scored he my kill himself. I’m 15 and he’s 16. We’ve been dating for about 10 months(with a few weeks of a temporary break up). He’s kinda insane and he’s also really not that good of a guy (except to me). He has a lot of mental issues an... | self.depression |
Do you ever wish You could just die peacefully in your sleep. No struggling, no planning, no guilt for leaving family members? Sometimes I lie awake in bed at night and just pray I won't wake up. | self.depression |
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