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Tolerance Hi all. This is just going to be a sort of monologue of mine, you don't have to read or upvote it. I am posting it here because I believe it's a safe space and I also think that someone might read it.
I called up a friend telling him that I didn't wish to attend any future class meet ups, because of certain ... | self.depression |
oh my god another project/obsession in the last year i have bought herbalism courses, invested in crystals, had a brief stint in essential oils, invested in gardening equipment and planters (RIP my lil squashies), spent wayyy too much fuckin money in home automation. this list is just from the top of my head. my medica... | self.bipolar |
Today feels like my day, i have the whole day to figure it out. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing is fun Like I said nothing is fun for me and the only person I trust and like doesnt read my message | self.depression |
I hate when regular people talk about how "crazy" they are I rage internally when those unaffected by severe mental illness call themselves crazy like it's cute or silly. WHY IS THIS SO COMMON? And then when they see a real crazy bitch, yours truly, SUDDENLY it's not cute anymore. Can keep a job? Have a stable relation... | self.bipolar |
I really think I'm going to do it I can't stand living anymore. I just don't know how I'm going to kill myself. I don't want it to hurt very much.
I just hate myself. I just feel like I just gave up, let myself go, and existing like this, even with the aim of improvement, hurts more than death will.
I don't know th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Sick of being thrown back to old states. No need to read this. You can move on.
I just need to write this down because I cannot do it anywhere else and here I've been a long time lurker so I feel I kinda belong, if this even means anything these days for me.
Long time clinical depression and a mix of other stuff (short... | self.depression |
TW: suicide. Feeling triggered by a recent event at my campus. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Bad night I’m sorry that this probably isn’t the right place, but my best friend passed away from suicide 2 years ago and I’ve never understood depression before that. But I have since, and I’ve been doing well, but tonight is just a bad night and I don’t want to actually die but I want to hurt myself. I’m sitting arou... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've been wasting my life away for the past 4 years and I need help Since I was 13 I've had severe depression and crippling anxiety, so bad I once spent a week in an inpatient psychological hospital on suicide watch. I was diagnosed with depression, severe social anxiety, and bipolar 2. When I was 14 I dropped out of s... | self.Anxiety |
The confusion in whatever the loss of faith In relationships is [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm often angry Even when it doesn't feel like I am in the moment I can always feel it kinda in the back if that makes sense. Sometimes it just flares up and I just want to hurt someone, anyone and I want to hurt myself.
I'll look at myself sometimes and wonder what the hell is wrong with me, why do I keep doing thing... | self.offmychest |
scared of my mind it’s telling me i don’t deserve anything i want and i get it, shit. it’s so loud here, i just want a break from my own mind | self.depression |
Swiping Tinder I change all the time, can't/don't want to keep the same friends, never satisfied at the NOW. When i have energy, it works. When im low energy, i am alone and lonely.
Maybe i became sex/dating addict over the years. It felt like a drug. Alchol & seduction. His attention all on me. Its easy. Easy to ... | self.depression |
I hate the TSA To be fair, not so much TSA, just the process of them checking to see if I am a potential terrorist or not. People with anxiety disorders would make terrible terrorists, but that’s for another post.
I hate that I have to take off my shoes and walk on that disgusting floor. Thousands of people walk on t... | self.Anxiety |
I'm addicted to unhappiness and pain I think it's predictable. Happiness is something that is unpredictable. So many songs in my playlist: "chop Suey" by SOAD, "The Change" by Evanescence, Whispers in the Dark"/Skillet, "Given Up"/Linkin Park.
Happiness, deep down, I want so bad. But i rebel against it. I cheat, ... | self.bipolar |
I really just want a hug and to be told everything will get better. I really don't want to do this but this seems like the only logical answer left. | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm deeply in debt and there's no escape I'm 32. I'm graduating in a few weeks. My first loan payments are due the day before my graduation. I'll be on the hook for more than $1000 every month (and yeah, that's if they even approve of the income-based reduction that'll have me paying off these loans into my fucking 60s... | self.SuicideWatch |
New to Bi+Polar- Medication Got off Seroquel, Lexapro, and Buspar some months ago because my blood was turning into sugar and more near to diabetic than I’d like to be at 22.
Had some hard times last few months without the three meds, only down to Lamatical now. I was wondering if anyone had the same experience after... | self.bipolar |
Notifications give my anxiety notifications give me anxiety. not the kind of anxiety where im scared to read a text, but the little red dot makes my heart rate pick up. I can't even stand it when the apps on my macbook bounce up and down, or when a "___ send you a message" flashes across the facebook tab. I can't focus... | self.Anxiety |
Generic title for a rant Just, finally, getting things off my chest that have been building up for far too long.
Basically, a year ago, my girlfriend (who suffers from Borderline Personality Disorder, though we didn't know at the time) went into a moodswing common with her disorder, leading to her jumping from obsessi... | self.offmychest |
*RANT* I honestly can't find a reason to live anymore. [deleted] | self.depression |
Today I had a panic attack in a job interview... [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anyone have any tips or encouraging words for dealing with anxiety brought on by family? Anyone have any tips for dealing with anxiety brought on by family?
My sisters are so rude to my mom and it makes me so upset. I feel too emotionally weak and my anxiety is too high to speak with my sisters about it and stand up... | self.Anxiety |
I’m 20 but my life is over I turn 21 in January and as scary as it is to even say, i feel like that’s my last year. Everything has fell apart, not even recently, a while ago.
I suffer from anxiety and depression and am on medication for both, and see a therapist often, but it’s not enough. I’ve never had a job in my ... | self.Anxiety |
UCLA IOP experiences? Hey guys! My therapist is recommending me to the UCLA mood disorders intensive outpatient program for my worsening bipolar depression and consistent/constant suicide ideation.
Just wondering if anyone has any experience with this (or any other) IOP. It's really difficult to find good information ... | self.bipolar |
Happy birthday It's my birthday. It marks 4 years since my first suicide attempt. I might try it again today. I don't know if I even have the motivation or the energy to try though. Much easier to lay in bed than get up and prepare for death. What does it matter, if not this year then next year. It's happening at some ... | self.depression |
My wife and I are going through some tough times. Right now my wife and I are going through some financial problems we have a daughter (3) and I am the only one that works, my wife is a stay at home mom, but we are not making enough money for that to continue.
Due to her severe anxiety she refuses to put her self into... | self.Anxiety |
Do certain experiences or objects make you recall anxious times? Things like videos, music, movies, etc. There was this ASMR video I kept watching on youtube before doing a presentation and now every time I stumble on it, I recall what an anxious mess I was then. Or last night, when I played a certain game and read a c... | self.Anxiety |
I just want to shut down and shut everyone out so badly today. I feel physically sick with sadness if that's even a thing. | self.depression |
I'm at my personal rock bottom, and I don't know what to do... Four weeks ago the love of my life said to me, that she doesn't love me anymore. I was, and I am, shattered just by the news. Two weeks later I moved out into a second house of my parents to give her space (I still hope she changes her mind) and to set up a... | self.depression |
Lamictal & Abilify I was prescribed Lamictal a long time ago and it worked amazing with my Abilify. I was up to 100mg of Lamictal before. Some stuff happened in December and I was unable to continue my medication. Fast forward to January 24 and I was able to go back on it.
I’m up to 50mg of Lamictal now through t... | self.bipolar |
Going to kill myself once my parents fall asleep I'm not really sure what to say, this will be the 7th time and hopefully the last. I'm extremely lonely so I would like to talk to someone, anyone. I'm 15, from Australia, just been depressed for too long and have had enough of this pain | self.SuicideWatch |
Ending it My life just keeps getting worse. And my depression gives me no will to live. Help. | self.SuicideWatch |
Sad alone afraid So I am in university right now, and I have talked to my doctors and stuff about my depression and anxiety, but the problem still stands I'm still depressed and anxious. I don't sometimes know why I keep moving forward and it's getting bad for the past three days I have just stayed in bed I have an exa... | self.depression |
CBD Oil Update! Hi /r/anxiety ~
I posted a few months ago asking if anyone else has tried CBD oil to help their anxiety and got quite a few helpful responses, so I decided to try it. I wanted to update you all on how it has worked out for me so far. Let me start by saying it has been AMAZING. I have used it every day ... | self.Anxiety |
Anybody else feel like an impostor because they have depression? [deleted] | self.depression |
Life is a paper cut. Meaningless yet excruciatingly painful. And criminally easy misfortune received.
I got a deep paper cut and it all made sense. Fuck this shitty world. | self.SuicideWatch |
Extending my time off from school The jist is after Highschool I was planning to take a year off. Nothing wrong with HS, I had a grand time, but my grades were piss poor for living then studying and I got rejected at all the schools I applied to accept one and that one cost way to much so basically a rejection. I’m gra... | self.offmychest |
It made me physically ill again. Hey guys. It’s 12:00 where I am, but I don’t really give a shit. The existential pain is getting out of control for me. It’s turning into pounding headaches and churning stomach aches. I spend every day like this. The pain just becomes real for me now. It manifests physically. It’s gett... | self.depression |
I dream of spending intimate time with my friend and I want it to stop so bad. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Positive Medication Experiences Anyone? Psychiatrist wants to start me on Lamictal but I am unbelievably terrified of all medications (even Motrin/Aspirin) due to a severe allergic reaction that landed me in the ER once. Would anyone mind sharing some bipolar medication success stories? There has to be something better... | self.bipolar |
I'm having another episode and I don't know what to do. All I want to do is jump ftom our 39th floor building. Somebody help me please. I"m all alone right now. And I"m scared. | self.SuicideWatch |
How can I stop feeling embarrassed about dumb things? I have this problem where if I do or say something weird/awkward/accidentally rude I dwell on it for MONTHS. Sometimes years. The moment will continuously comes to my mind and I just cringe so hard and literally face palm and tweak out. I wonder if other people just... | self.Anxiety |
Idk if this is the right subreddit but I just want a friend :( My girlfriend dumped me yesterday. I have had a long battle with depression and when I started dating her my depression was literally cured. I quit my prozac on the spot and for the last year of my life I was depression free. But now she told me she no lon... | self.depression |
Seeking Advice On Dealing With SO's Anxiety Sorry for the long thread but I've just got to let it all out. Any advice would be helpful.
My girlfriend has anxiety, (that's as specific as I know), and I'm having a hard time dealing with it. The usual way it shows itself is that we start arguing about something that mak... | self.Anxiety |
A Poem A couple months back, I made a post on here asking if I were to publish a poetry book regarding my times with bipolar and depression, if anyone would buy/read. I got few responses but they were all positive. I'm here to say now I'm about 45 days from publication! I figured I would share one with you guys as this... | self.bipolar |
Depression and falling out of love ( or feeling like I am) This is a long story -
So around mid September I started feeling really depressed, distant from my boyfriend, anxious, scared, sick and generally like crap
Was going on holiday and couldn’t be bothered kept thinking something bad was going to happen,
3 day... | self.depression |
He did it!!!!! My boyfriend is walking across the stage and getting his college degree on Friday after feeling like he was not going to graduate because of one of his classes. I have been crying like a baby on and off for about two hours (when he showed me he made it). I am so excited for him. I can’t even describe how... | self.offmychest |
My best friend didn't invite me to her wedding. We've been close since we were kids and I've always had her back through everything. I did my best to schedule my shifts so that I can make it to her wedding after my shift.
She got mad at me for not being able to make it to her pre-wedding ceremony and straight up told... | self.offmychest |
Just went to a bar sober. Question my life. So I recently moved into sober living. It's kind of a shithole and I live with 10 other guys. It's been okay.
We went to a favorite bar of mine with some sober guys in the house. We played pool for a while and smoked cigs. Usually I'd be dancing, having fun, and meeting gir... | self.bipolar |
Idk Just the usual clichéd post. Noone will miss me; there'll be more joy than anything else as I only ever annoy people or get in the way. Like the title says, idk. | self.SuicideWatch |
Im just planning on jumping all of a sudden so it could work. Since i cant do it,Im just gonna get all the courage i can and fill myself with negativity so i can do it,I might be scared because of what will happen but fuck it,Right now i have a little courage and im already negative,I need a hour or two,And then i'll j... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel really good today Today I feel very happy about myself. I wrote a Thank you letter to my TA, and she said she was really touched by it and it made my day. I know this may sound silly to some people but to me it meant a lot | self.offmychest |
Made it to 18...finding it hard to make it further [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I found out that my severe anxiety is due to gender dysphoria. Anyone relate to this? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
is there a chat like suicide hotline? i feel like fucking shit right now and i want to talk to someone but im to socially anxious to talk to someone over the phone so is there like a online chat you can do instead instead of having to use your voice? | self.depression |
Boyfriend refusing to get help Kia ora whanau,
Help me convince my boyfriend (he is next to me and knows I’m writing this) that the anxiety he has been living with for years is not something he has to live with or deal with on his own.
I’ve been trying to talk to him about going to a doctor and trying medication but ... | self.Anxiety |
Not sure if depression? OK, let me start this off by saying on the outside I’m laughing and joking to cover these feelings up.
Tired of life
Hard time waking up
Always fall to sleep using phone (guess it prevents me thinking)
Bad thoughts when lonely
Man even work sucks, I work hard, 80+ hours a week at least and sp... | self.depression |
My depression would be so much better if I quit with the negative attitude I had a rough start to today. I got to be at work at 6 30 am. I start off today by waking up and looking over at my clock that says its 6 25. I set my alarm clock to 5 20, but it never went off(it would still be buzzing when I woke up if it went... | self.offmychest |
I'm a senior in college and I've started to seriously doubt I'll ever be able to make it in my chosen career field. Feeling completely lost about my identity and finding meaning in life (this is going to be long so I'll put a tl;dr at the end. I really welcome advice related to anything in this post, whether or not you... | self.offmychest |
i took down christmas today the hollow feeling is back. having a tree and decorations just felt so fake. it reminds me of what i am - an obese woman in her mid-40s with no partner and no kids. no true friends nearby, i was the homecoming queen and prom queen. i used to be beautiful and fun with everything going for me.... | self.depression |
Job interview tomorrow So I’ve written on here about a week ago and I may have mentioned my summer internship out of state for 3 months. Now I have a state government job interview tomorrow at my home state and I’m freaking out!!! I need this internship because if i don’t do it I know I’ll regret it. But at the same ha... | self.Anxiety |
College Student, Senior year, living alone and thinking about killing myself. I can't rewind the past, living just seems so difficult now. It was just one specific class! I keep telling myself this, but it all seems so far away now that I fucked it all up. I feel ashamed, I got nothing after this if it all goes down th... | self.SuicideWatch |
rant vent whatever this wall of text is Every day the same, every month and year. Persistent sleep issues, staying up, watching videos, anime, reading the same subreddits over and over, watching the same people on youtube and twitch, doing the same work and playing the same games. Only now things have begun to change f... | self.depression |
Am I ugly for this?(15f) I was at a party and I was blackout drunk(15F). I was bring annoying and talking loud. I think I was trying to brag and it was annoying. A senior girl took an unflattering photo of me and posted it to twitter. She called me a sloppy hoe and ugly. Twenty people liked it. Am I that annoying? Am I... | self.SuicideWatch |
What's the difference between this and /r/bipolar? Hi to all! I'm Wintermorn and I'm new to Reddit so please excuse the clumsiness. I sincerely apologize if either this question has been asked a million times before or if this isn't the right place to post this. Long story short, I have Bipolar 1 disorder and I'm looki... | self.bipolar |
Fml. Mix up with my boss and I wanna cry/hide in a hole My pet died the day before yesterday (bearded dragon) and I've been having a really hard time with it. I emailed my supervisors this morning to tell them I can't come in today because I can't focus. One of them responded so I assumed they both saw it. The other te... | self.Anxiety |
Medication? Dear fellow Redditors,
I am wondering whether anyone here can give me some advice. Since forever I have been quite anxious, especially socially, and I am considering to ask my doctor for medication in the form of an SSRI. However, I am very anxious about the possible side effects and am scared of maybe not... | self.Anxiety |
Sudden intense flair up of anxiety at work [advice needed!] I had to excuse myself to the bathroom but I have to rush to type this because they need me back out there.
I have social anxiety and work at a fast food restaurant. Right now I'm working the front register so I'm looking people in the face and being stared a... | self.Anxiety |
I hate being Pakistani and i hate all the culture I love being a girl and i love being a Muslim, i wouldn't change them for the world. But why am i bothered by my stupid fucking Pakis culture. I'm a Pakistani from a strict cultural background whereby everything i do I'm judged by so called relatives. My parents are no... | self.offmychest |
Still too pathetic Once again, I only scratched my wrist with a blade instead of actually cutting it deep enough to end it. Even though I have tried so many time to actually attempt suicide, I'm still too pathetic to do it. The silent weights of disappointments and knowing that I have achieved absolutely nothing - not ... | self.depression |
Please help me! Okay, so I recently posted about a brain tumor, but someone told me that if I had a headache during the tumor, it wouldn't ever go away, so I know I don't have one. But I had to look something up. Has anyone had the feeling of one eye being hotter than the other? I looked up how to make it stop, and wha... | self.Anxiety |
I just want to rant. I don’t even care if anyone sees this How the fuck do I even start. Sometimes when I jog I stand in the middle of the street and I hope to any greater power that a car will go fast enough where I can’t dodge out of the way, so it can just end me. I don’t have the strength to do it myself. Every sen... | self.depression |
Can a resting heart rate of 100+ be caused by anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
What happens when escapism no longer works? **throwaway account**
i don’t know how most people cope with anxiety or depression, but where are you supposed to go when you have nowhere to go? What am I supposed to do when that deadline is closer than you think and you have no way of pushing that off?
I spent most of ... | self.depression |
Yerba mate for anxiety I have been using yerba maté for anxiety on and off over the past year. I have found that drinking maté has brought me a calmer mind and more relaxed state of being. I drank it while I was living in south America and it really helped ease my social anxiety and connect with others. Its a great dri... | self.Anxiety |
my long-distance best friend told me he's going to commit tomorrow i've known this friend (we met online, but we got a chance to meet IRL last month) for a long time, and I know he's been struggling with suicidal thoughts and multiple mental illnesses for a while (as do I). I've talked him into feeling better while con... | self.SuicideWatch |
Dear /R/BIPOLAR, MY BPII ANGST HAS A BODY COUNT. Nah, totally kidding, I am a wuss and love all sentient beings, even if their name is Bob McNair.
Anyways, I thought today was a bad day. But it went from Hell to Purgatory, cause like, lmfao at least in purgatory you can be in a standstill.
So, today, I was late agai... | self.bipolar |
I'm trying to keep it together, but I'm just lost In November my boyfriend (he's 38, I'm 27) asked for a break citing he needed space because he was afraid his depression would prevent him in giving me what I deserve. We are long distance for 1 1/2 years (met in person initially, remained friends, then began a relation... | self.depression |
I rather be euthanized than have another bad day [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Getting bad news while depressed is actually easier for me. Like you can't hurt me with bad news when I'm so numb. Today I heard my friend and colleague has cancer. Which of course I'm really sad about, but it weirdly heightened my mood a bit. Like it gave me a real reason to be strong, to try to be supportive and get ... | self.depression |
Your your patterns growing up Did you have trouble sleeping before diagnosis of bipolar?
Did you have trouble falling asleep as a young kid?
We’re you always tired in the mornings for school?
EDIT: From all of replies it seems sleep issues often happen before onset of bipolar. What would happen if children at risk f... | self.bipolar |
Theme of tonight "no one cares" It's two nights in a row now that I have cried my self to sleep. Im starting to feel it's more than depression and anxiety. My anger is coming back. Tonight I broke my headphones. Last night it was a clothes hanger. Tonight immediately just shut the lights off turned my fans on and went ... | self.depression |
Loneliness I think I'm starting to lose touch with reality. It's a very weird feeling. Just when I thought I could control myself and I did and could for a respectable time and through/despite difficult exterior bad luck and situations, now I think that sometimes and right now is one of them, I just lose contact with r... | self.depression |
Does anyone else ever get nostalgic for bad things they did while (Hypo)manic, Even though those things really hurt people? I've done some pretty awful things to people while I've been hypomanic or in a mixed state, and I truly, deeply regret those actions. They're possibly the worst decisions I've ever made. But when ... | self.bipolar |
Xanax Wow. My anxiety. Is gone. Drank a few beers then some one offered me a bar. This is amazing, i feel nothing:) | self.depression |
Does anyone else feel like a quitter? Like you see these stories of people overcoming huge shit, like being shot or abuse or cheating, starting organizations and sharing their inspirational stories. And here I am, I can't even find the motivation to work out for more than a week straight. When shit gets rough, I just g... | self.depression |
What's the point of living if you suck at everything and no one likes you? [deleted] | self.depression |
Lil peep a rapper who helped many people through depression has died. If anyone feels as though they want to commit suicide after this call the suicide hotline or PM me. I’ll talk to you. Don’t freak out [removed] | self.SuicideWatch |
Just had my first counseling session Just had my first counseling session. It went well. I feel a lot lighter. It's nice feeling understood and at the same time having a better understanding of my causes of depression.
Does counseling/therapy help you guys? | self.depression |
I’ve been seeing a few comorbidity posts lately— anyone have bipolar + OCD? I understand this is sort of common, so I apologize if there’s already been posts like this.
My psychologist thinks it’s possible I have OCD as well and although I don’t have a confirmed diagnosis right now I have a few questions.
When did ... | self.bipolar |
Running out of options.. I don’t usually start these threads, but if someone has any advice I would really appreciate hearing it.
In short: Bipolar 1, cis female, 29, diagnosed at 21 after massive psychosis and breakdown.
I’m turning 30 in a few months. My fiancé and I broke up a few months ago (he had undiagnosed ... | self.bipolar |
Help with triggers Hi I have a lot of triggers that make me angry. If I don't eat often enough I get super pissed. If it's to hot out, I get supper pissed, if I don't have enough socialisation I get super pissed or depressed, if I don't sleep enough I get super pissed. This is with medication. So how do I get enough sl... | self.bipolar |
Help on intrusive thoughts? Hi, for the past year I have been suffering from intrusive thoughts, mainly on self harm. It started from a thought popping in my head saying "jump off this balcony" and it has manifested into anything that could harm me. Does anyone have any help for me on this? Recently it's felt like I'm ... | self.Anxiety |
I really can't do this an more and I don't want platitudes and hugs, there's really no way out and I have no fight left in me {TW] I dobtbknow whether this post should go here or on suicide watch, suicide watch is such bullshit, it makes me so angry to see peoples comments. I can't even go there to help others. I just ... | self.bipolar |
desire leading to depression? This is so childish, but I really want a cat. For my entire life, I've been living with dogs, but I'm strongly a cat person. The thing is, I don't have a cat. It's all I think about every single day. I'm very, very lonely. I have no friends at school, and when I get home I either just go t... | self.depression |
Taking Venaflaxine So I've started taking Venaflaxine yesterday for my general anxiety and my Psychiatrist told me to take it for 6 weeks. Starting from 37.5mg and doubling every 2 weeks. I was wondering if any one else has taken this medication and experiences weird feelings in the chest, such as weakness or feeling ... | self.Anxiety |
running out of steam and motivation for school i shouldn't have taken 5 classes, 4 classes is required to be a full time student. I've taken on more than I can chew.
I'm only 3 weeks away from finishing this semester, too. But I'm losing steam. Semester projects are announced today. But I don't want to do these assign... | self.offmychest |
If your going through depression and have friends Then tell them whatever it is that is bothering you, your friends are their for that, vent to them, get your shit out, don't keep it in and let it eat away you from the inside like I did. Also ask them if they are ok.
With me I was so used to being the strong one I did... | self.depression |
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