Q: When you talk about making bad stuff until it starts becoming good, do you mean it in a "keep trying even though you'll make a lot of random noise" way or a "just make random noise, then find a pattern in the noise" way?
A: it has to do with what happens to you while you're making it. if you decide to make something bad on purpose, hopefully that should put you in a brighter mood because it might be more fun to break the rules than to follow them. so it's just sort of a trick to lighten your mood. then you'll be in a better mood and suddenly the music will get good. and as soon as you notice this, you'll immediately become self-conscious again and have to restart the trick