Q: Anyway, I know this completely out of the scope of this page, I just really needed someone to talk to. I guess my question is "what should I do given that I'm a broken piece in the machine of human existence and don't seem to have any use to anyone or be able to perform any useful service to humanity, however small?"
A: just taking a quick glance at the big picture here, just on the page here, it appears you seem to have some writing skills. which i can guarantee is a useful skill, in many many ways, and is still alive and thriving especially now in the internet age