Q: i feel like... i'm on a similar journey. but i'm several to many years of nonstop full capacity work behind you and man. do i wanna catch up. and it's like "how are you gonna catch up" and the only thing i could think of was just run fucking faster. i'm 20 and i feel like i am just now in the first groggy stages of waking up to the reality of who i am and what i'm capable of and what i really want. and i could just go back to sleep but why the hell would i do that? and no actually: i can't go back to sleep. and yet i still feel held back by the fear that i've wasted too much time already and haven't developed my skills enough. and it's like i'm afraid of eating this snake. and i know it's gonna bite me on the way down but that's gonna happen whether i eat it tonight or tomorrow or next year or in 40 years, but if i want to be a snake eater i have to eat that first snake. and it's gotta be now or else it'll be soon, which really means later, which re
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A: sounds like you are on the right track