Q: i can't hear whether a note is sharp or flat or in tune - like i can hear the pitch changing when i turn my tuning peg but if it weren't for my digital tuner i'd have zero idea where is the "right" pitch for the note.
A: well you're gonna have to decide. and if they all sound bad to you then it couldn't possibly be very much fun, so at that point you would want to find something else that you do enjoy