Q: Or do you not care what others think, and care only to work at a pace that suits you?  Or perhaps a combination of both?
A: but the only kind of pressure i pay attention to is the pressure that was present before any of those, which is whoops i have no social life but my mind has been exploding for as long as i can remember, and it needs to be put on display ASAP in as many ways as possible until people understand