Q: Is there more to it than that?
A: it's worse. everyone always feeds you this idea of how sacred and holy collaboration is, (and i agree with it), always pointing to the great collaborations (lennon/mccartney, etc etc etc). so i always believed that that was important. but there's one problem, what if i don't have any friends? what if i just can't seem to meet anyone who wants to spend their life doing the kinds of things that i'm doing? what if everyone around always wants to just, i dunno, go home and watch the oscars or something. what if i really can't find anyone? so i felt sad and guilty for a long time, thinking that you are supposed to collaborate but i just can't find people cuz i'm cursed or something. and then one day, i saw an interview clip from a very famous and well respected songwriter (i wish i could find the clip, i would post a link to it) that said "you know, i don't collaborate well. that's one of the reasons i like songwriting, is because it's something you can do all by yourself." and that is when it became clear. i had already given up on finding collaborators, but seeing that clip was what made me stop feeling bad about it