Q: i want to play what i'm in the mood to play-how do i start necoming good at playing what's in my head, not what's on the page?
A: well first of all, just don't use pages. but then you're gonna have to start gradually building neural connections in your brain so you have an intuitive idea of what each note would or would not do, at any given time. and, like learning a language, this happens naturally as you spend more and more and more time with an instrument, and enjoying it. you just need to spend a large large amount of time having fun and being curious. that's it