Q: i want to make music so bad but i just don't fucking know how and it feels like i'm being buried alive by all the possibilities and i was late to the game in terms of experimenting and i feel like i will never acquire the skills i need at this rate
A: no one knows how. there is no way to write music. other than the way each person makes up on their own. you might even have an interesting advantage because you don't think you know anything. but either way, you have to try something first. it's like untying a knot which is trapped in a block of ice. you are not going to even touch the knot until you break the damn ice. to break the ice, just hit it with something large, anywhere on the exterior. anywhere, it doesn't matter. or if you prefer to just raise the tempurature of the room that might do it