Q: If so, or if not, how do I overcome this feeling of fear and lack of motivation?
A: wanting to do it is motivation. if you didn't have motivation then you wouldn't want to do it, and you wouldn't be here asking this. but i think what you are experiencing is like what home-owners experience when they feel like their neighbors lawn is always a brigher shade of green than their own. it's not really true, but it's a common feeling to have. i don't know of a direct solution for this, but simply knowing about this phenomenon is helpful. i'm sure there are things that other people see in you that they wish they had