Q: Was it randomly chosen, or do you have a reason for doing it now?
A: the selection process was marred with highly potent self-doubting agony, which is to be expected. i did the standard procedure of combing the entire list and selecting ones that seemed like the right choice. then i did a few rounds of writing on those finalists, to boost their status even further. i was expecting to have to randomize amongst those, but i ended up setting a deadline/timelimit on when i had to choose, and just chose. i knew it was the right choice, and yet, the following morning, i reached such high levels of doubt that i actually convinced myself that i CANNOT do that one, and then quickly reminded myself that if i don't stick with that selection then the entire validity of the selection system is broken, and i also had to remind myself that any selection is going to give me various flashes of misery, until i delve into the writing process. i was able to recall that this exact same thing happened with the 'la de da' selection, where i doubted it so badly the next day that i actually changed my mind and then hated that option too and so i had to switch back. basically it all gets better once you start writing on it and start to find solutions for its problems