Q: was the "and i just dont know where to start, and that's exactly where it started" part in hotewig inspired by your own life experiences
A: that's not what it says. it's close, but it says i don't know WHEN to start, and that's exactly WHERE it started. it's this ambiguous interplay between 'where' and 'when' that allowed me to invoke the sentiments needed to describe a world where space and time don't exist. Which, according to many of today's top scientists, is what would go at that part of the story