Q: you talked about your 2 step program of first consuming content and then creating it. I've been stuck on the consuming step for years, and have been wanting to go to the creating step for a while now. I've tried a bunch of different forms of creating and nothing really got me hooked... how do you decide what to create? or even determine what you're good at so you don't waste time trying to create for no reason?
A: for me there were always too many ways, which actually made it impossible. there were always 100 ways i 'could' just pursue a career working for someone else as a side person.  but i guess i just was too picky, and also crazy, so the only thing that made sense was to do everything myself, and there were always strong signs that that was possible because i have always picked up skills easily from a young age. but the more skills i got, the bigger and more insane the ideas and goals got. and i was just drowning and had no idea how to figure out what to do. and as time passed, it only got bigger and bigger and more insane. but i began documenting my journey early on, which sort of helped tie the entire struggle together into one cohesive story. and sure enough, after a few more chapters, and a few more layers of unmanageble expansion, just when i thought i was in way too deep to ever find my way, i just snapped and started a brute force approach which was to just start doing 5 'things' a week, ruthlessly, and never stopping, and posting it online. and then evolving the project from there, as needed, knowing that once it's underway i can surely steer it to hit every corner in due time