Q: think i finally understand the whole "everyday the prize gets higher for if i can make this work." From reality.  because my skills and experience and vision keep developing even as i dilly dally around the real big challenges because they scare the shit outta me still but i keep realizing more and more of my power and potential. was that what you were talking about at all?
A: that sounds about right. it's kind of like when the lottery thing keeps growing if no one has won it yet