Q: Do you find yourself wanting to create things that YOU want to make, or do you want to create things OTHERS want to see?  Like, percentage wise, i mean.  (Personally i'm like 90% me/10% others.)  This is a topic that fascinates me for some reason.
A: throughout my life, i have turned away from 'catering to specific audiences' at every juncture. when i finally got myself organized enough to start really creating content, i was so far down the road to no-man's land that there was no turning back. it was still even a few more years after that until i actually had any audience. now that i have an audience, it can actually be easy to forget that i am supposed to be playing entirely my own game!! and forgetting that causes only stress. so i regularly have to remind myself that i am still supposed to be playing my own game, and to try to transport back to 2013 and 2014 when absolutely no one told me what to do