Q: and i'm scared that if i continue what i'm doing then i'm going to get "locked out" of the music world because i won't be good enough, or i won't know anybody, or something. what do i do??
A: i wish you knew about all the people who are currently in some of today's highest ranks of success, whose backgrounds and lifestories are fully loaded with exactly these kinds of lost 'what the heck' sort of scenarios you just described. you are literally on the quintessential path to success -- specifically i'm talking about the part of your story where you're scared and don't know what the heck you're supposed to do. in fact i think that scene might actually be in every success movie