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knew it was |
was no use |
matter how hard he tried |
been on him to move |
tried to get |
get him to realize |
realize that the last thing his jade would want was |
continue carrying |
tried to prove |
prove to them he had moved |
in projecting |
projecting what he thought |
thought was |
was love |
was just as confused |
vowed after that mistake that he was n't going |
going to let |
let anyone dictate |
dictate when it was |
was time |
was to love |
be the one |
was just the same |
heard his name being paged |
before whirling |
using his back to open |
did his best speed walking |
after donning |
dropping , '' another nurse called |
began beeping |
need to shock |
charging at 360 joules , '' a nurse replied |
muttered , ` ` come |
matter how young or how old , he hated |
matter how young |
hated to lose |
remained frozen |
was a losing battle |
need to open |
after making |
allow a nurse to move |
matter how many times he 'd had |
had to do |
was still something |
as holding |
waited to see |
see if the damaged heart would restart |
remained still |
said with regret , ` ` calling |
said with regret , ` ` calling time of death : nine forty - seven a.m. '' ` ` want |
want me to handle |
get him closed |
m sure |
sure they 'll want |
want to see |
before pushing |
was the most difficult aspect |
of saving |
appeared to be |
m dr . nadeen |
from here |
told them i bet |
bet their dad had fallen |
wondered why he would n't call |
realizing she was rambling |
realizing she was rambling , her voice cut |
's okay |
m very sorry |
were never able |
able to revive |
is something |
m so very sorry |
past what the paramedics originally did |
believed that part of a patient 's care also meant |
ignored his pager going |
was only when his name was paged |
was only when his name was paged over the intercom that he took |
like to be |
with her sons flanking |
m so very sorry |
thank you , '' her son mumbled |
was unable |
unable to speak |
was the true embodiment |
swore they were |
were moist |
was one thing |
was a professional |
had to be |
be emotionally detached |
staying detached in the moment that was the issue - it was |
staying detached |
staying detached in the moment that was |
was the issue |
was the aftermath |
seemed to shoulder |
know how long he remained |
was kristi |
hate to interrupt |
with her six - month - old son balanced |