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normal | im sooo sad right now i need a hug | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | in like hour lol i m a failure i m bad at everything and all i do is waste my parent money i cause them amount of stress they will be sad when i die but it will be for the better i can t keep watching them suffer because of me my brother is going to be super sad which make me sad but hopefully he can understand when he grows up i plan to jump from my terrace hopefully it s high enough there is grass below tho i hope that doesn t stop me from dying cause it will be real embarrassing if i don t die failed at everything including suicide have a great day to whoever read this edit guy thank you for your reply i decided to actually talk to my parent and sort everything out i will not be killing myself for the time being i really appreciate everyone here thank you may god bless all of you | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | hi i am very sorry if this is the wrong sub for this post a good friend is going through a though depressive episode right now and since we live in different country we mostly hang out by playing game online we joke a lot but my humor a well a hers can get quite self depricating so i want to change my type of joke and how i talk in a way that boost her self esteem instead of lowering it i am really bad with word so if some of you have concrete example for how i can turn a joke or a phrase like bruh we are so dumb lol etc around to something positive would be really helpful just imagine you have to teach a toddler with atrocious social skill how to be a supportive friend | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i am year old junior in college i have multiple problem that i need to address to start i have gotten carried away with smoking weed i have been using it almost everyday since i wa and i can no longer control it im always buying it when i can t always afford it i spend a good amount of my time at home smoking weed or using thc product i have also been drinking a lot more than i used to and i have even picked up a nicotine habit from my friend i am not doing a well in school a i should be and i really need to be more proactive and motivated but i feel no motivation some day to even do anything school related i havent been eating well a lot of day been eating a lot of fast food and skipping meal some day there are night where i barely get enough sleep because i end up staying up most of the night being on my phone watching tv or playing video game i have set goal for myself that i want to workout more build myself up and eat better but i never stick to them i feel very anxious and depressed a lot of the time with the only relief i have felt come from hanging out and talking with friend i have some really great friend that i am very close with and a wonderful family that would do anything for me but i can t help but feel alone i feel a great need for companionship and i have been trying to get into a relationship for a long time going from one person to the next but nothing ever becoming of it and we become stranger again it ha taken away a lot of my energy and exhausted my motivation and drive me further into my loneliness and add to my anxiety i have been on an emotional rollercoaster the past several month talking and going out with multiple girl not at the same time and it ending the same i just feel a void in my life some day and lately i have been spending a lot of time around friend to try and fill that void more than i usually do which could also contribute to me spending le time on school and a lot of other important thing i have barely been home in the past week because i wa with friend i feel completely empty and hopeless somedays and feel like my life is over i see others living their best life exciting thing happening having opportunity connection with others is just natural to them and just having a great time with life and then there s me who wish i could be that way but i know i am different than them and no one will ever see me like that i will always be by myself wherever i go and i used to be such a happy child excited for life not afraid to dream big and wonder about the future and just live in the moment but thing happened that turned me into what i am today i feel like a shell of who i could have been and that my younger self would be dissapointed in me i wish i could go back to when i wa about and not taken it for granted and go through life again with what i know now some day i really do not like the person i am turning into i do not thing that i am doing what s best for myself mentally physically and emotionally i feel like i m on a treadmill walking through life but not actually getting anywhere while watching everyone else pas me by i really need to break out of this mindset and change my life around if i am going to survive in this world and live the good and happy life that i always wanted and not a wasted life | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | emilyruppe well he said that he is a looser and that is what the show implies | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i think i m starting to feel an emotion that i haven t experienced naturally in year you know that feeling where you have a vacation coming up and the whole week before you re like excited because you have something to look forward to i ve been feeling that all week but i have no plan or break until the end of the semester i wa trying to express this feeling out loud to my friend when it occurred to me is this what happy people feel like like do they feel satisfied just walking around all day it s like my stomach is warm and content even though nothing is different and i have nothing going on anyone else have thought on this | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | life just fucking suck i hate everything but above anything else the most i hate is religion i cant help it but say that i do not understand religion and their concept guess what i had to be born in a religious family fuck yeah because of that i am constantly threatened by religious friend and family looking at me like i am a disgusting being constant physical abuse by my mother just because i disagree with their belief i never wa disrepectful to them i just hoped that i could be free and decied wetehr or not follow the religion but no my mother is more worried of what other family member think of her so she try to force me to not reject religion or else my family will think that she is a bad mother and look down on her my family is a fucking joke this is not my only reason that made me start having suicidal thought i am a teenager male so i unfortunately still depend of my mother but that doe not matter because i decided that after finishing uni i will kill msyelf i am weak i cant even handle a full time job i have no realistic goal i have no ambition and even le motivation to do anything it seems i am not suitable fort this world so the only thing i am able to do is fuck this shit i give up i am not strong enough and i know it is pathetic and cowardly yes you are right i am a fucking coward piece of scum so please kill me already | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | going to the dentist again i mean tooth spa right valeriekhoo | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | the last time i checked my weight wa around week ago and it wa around kg 9 lb my anxiety ha been really bad for the past few week too but today i decided to check my weight and i lost kg i think i ve been eating the same amount everyday so is it really my anxiety that caused my weight to go down or i might have disease i m not aware of | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | depression suck especially accompanied by insomnia and chronic pain chroniclife | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i can t do this anymore the secret the fear that oh no i say something wrong and boom my friend all hate my as i m worried anything i say will tip one of my friend off the edge and she ll do it idk what to do anymore i have a plan but also i m terrified of death | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | iamigboblood nonyekings mizzzidc likeee someone who s depressed with rant they ll go low they won t even bring it to social medium doe she know what depression mean people who re depressed don t cap outside | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i have a couple friend but the girl i love doesn t love me back any more i think she might be seeing someone else i want to kill myself | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | paulcoles hmmm greed is good when it motivates the individual to do better not so much when it take away from others | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | ugh horrible ending to the sandra kantu story prayer go out | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | in a queue for a ticket at phantasialand look busy school holiday ftl silver mine and winjas fear are closed too | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | a usual cooking what i hate | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | humanopium pretty much just scary for me | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | the suicide hotline take hour to respond i ve fucked up every relationship that i had by trying to be funny and the other person being creepy and lied to everyone i know why should i continue self harm doesn t do anything anymore nothing brings me joy i have no future because of my mental problem really why do i stay here the one reason i still live is because around new year an online friend of mine at the time attempted suicide i got so fucked up then i couldn t function properly for a week i couldn t talk to anyone the one reason i am still here is because i thought people would feel that way about me but a ive lived and breathed i have come to realise that isn t true my friend will be glad i am not around them the only disappointment they will feel is that they don t have a vulnerable little shit to kick around my family will be glad that the failure in the family is finally gone and the school will pretend to be sad for a month make it about how mental health is important tell people to be kind about one another then forget about me i won t stand out im another human being in the 00 billion that exist i don t even know if im real i don t want to be here so might a well leave | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | hello everyone i m an 9 year old male with a perfectly normal bmi 9 lb or cm 0kg i ve never smoked in my life i ve never tried drug and i don t drink alcohol no history of cancer or heart issue in my family so it all begun this july when i woke up with an intense chest pain i thought i wa having a heart attack and my mother slashed me to the er i had a blood test ekg ultrasound everything wa clear one week later i caught covid but the symptom were mild and i wa also vaccinated so in september i took a cbc again in order to get an accutane treatment for my acne the cbc came back with high wbc and lymphocyte 0 and normal are 0 0 0 for wbc and 0 for lymphocyte they told me it might be cause of covid and i should retake the cbc in a month meanwhile i begun to get daily intense chest pain at the upper left part where i can feel my heart so i got another appointment with a cardiologist in october i went to the cardiologist who did an ekg echo they told i have very few pvc s but that wasnt something concerning for the doc so they told me i don t have any heart issue now my cbc came back with more elevated wbc and lymphocyte and at the time i had also developed everyday abdominal pain and lot of gas like i have to fart all the time and the fart last long also i feel a fullness to my abdomen and i get spasm or fasciculation all over my body everyday i got an abdominal ultrasound which came back normal my poop also come back in thin layer which look nothing like before in december i met with an hematologist oncologist who put me on like 0 test and everything came back clear except my wbc which were again elevated at this time and lymphocyte at in september they were 0 and in december the hematologist told me that i have a reactive lymphocyticosis and it s nothing serious before i caught covid in july at the er my wbc and lympho were perfectly normal he said i should retake a cbc in month in order to check i also visited a gastroenterologist who said that i probably have nothing since i m too young and prescribed me omeprazole for 0 day it didn t help at all i also take vit d supplement because i have a deficiency i also had a poop culture which came back clear i decided that i should look into my thyroid for the heart etc so i got a thyroid ultrasound and some lab with bloodwork everything came back clear again along with some inflammation lab crp igm igg igg which were all negative the latest test were conducted in december now it s been like month that i m living in daily pain i can feel something like a rapid heartbeat in my abdomen jerk or twitch hand back etc my body is pumping all the time i think they re called fasciculation i get them like every 0 minute and it s so so annoying i also get the intense chest pain everyday i feel like my heart is gon na leave me or something it s really painful and i feel like dying the pain is very intense my abdomen also hurt everyday i have so much gas and ramblings i think it s everywhere in my body and i can t stand it my belly usually hurt at the upper left part but the pain is everywhere i m also severely bloated i also got covid again just a few day before new year im afraid to take a cbc now cause i believe that my wbc will have skyrocketed my symptom were worse than first time i had a high fever for day 9 c and i still have some cough i feel that this will really mess my immune system more than it s already messed up i guess it s already messed up because my covid symptom were much worse than in july even though i had the delta variant in july and now the omicron which is weaker i asked if i can get a colonscopy but they told me that they re meant for people over the age of 0 and me with no family history i m not a candidate for it plus i have no blood weight loss etc pretty much every test i ve taken come up normal except my wbc which keep raising every month i m so afraid that i have something serious like colon cancer or crohn s my quality of life ha really deteriorated i can t study any more i m gon na fail my uni final i can t do anything i m in daily pain my heart hurt my acne ha dominated my body it s really everywhere chest back butt face even thigh we re talking really bad cystic acne here not pimple and with bad break out i can t lie on my bed because my back bleeds because of it and i still haven t gotten the accutane because of my blood i also want to start working out but the pain are scaring the shit out of me thinking that i m gon na pas on the treadmill or something the acne ha also destroyed my self esteem and it s worse than ever been battling with it for almost year now i also get random pain all over my body lower back headache arm etc i really don t wan na die yet but my life is really shitty hell i would give everything to feel good again tbh i don t know what test i can take anymore to shed some light in my case should i ask for an mri my parent have really got full of me i ve ripped them off by dragging them to so many appointment i ve had more than 0 since july they have to pay i can literally feel my left part of my belly pumping right now i ve tried taking laxative dulcolax for day but my constipation and thin stool turn into diarrhea and more pain i also get some sharp pain here and there that last a few second i m so afraid it s cancer tumor or leukemia or autoimmune which will make me suffer for life only the thought of it make me wan na vomit i m only 9 goddammit i think that covid might have triggered an autoimmune disease or something i guess my nerve system is really broken right now lastly my mentally healthy ha really deteriorated at this point symptom started at of july and today it s the th of march everything is a lot worse than it wa before i wake up from my sleep with panic attack i m thinking about death all the time | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? 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depressed | i ve been waking up with anxiety attack every day for the past week it s been a while since my morning anxiety wa this bad i usually get anxious around people or quite randomly throughout the day which i m used to i ve had that since i wa so i can sort of handle that more or le but man the morning anxiety ha me losing my mind i can t function for hour i either lay in bed with racing heart amp thought unable to move or i m the most fuzzy hyperactive person on earth running around doing random stuff just trying to get away from my thought and hoping it ll somehow calm me down i ve tried breathing exercise meditation stretching taking a shower doing stuff to distract me doesn t help much i have to wait til it go away which take around h for me another hour or two until i feel normal again doe anybody have tip please i just wan na be able to manage this until i can get help the worse it get the more scared i get that i ll fail my university class cause i can t get sh t done which in turn make my anxiety worse vicious cycle | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | so i had a depression yesterday n mom saw me cry so hard n she thought i wa cry about my study n worried about my last exam in month but my heartless as wa cry about a fucking boy | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i m 0 and have never even been on a date with a girl before everything ha just gone wrong growing up there were so many time where thing almost changed almost got in a group of people i wanted to be with almost would no longer have been alone but every time something at the last second happens and i lose it forever sometimes my fault but usually not i ve stopped getting my hope up for anything i know it will always just never work out it s like i m destined to just always be like this i had a few friend in high school no one i could ever connect with though i didn t care though maybe i could meet new people through them but for some reason anytime anything interesting would happen with them it wa when i wa gone anytime i am with them same usual boring shit i m not there something crazy happens i started going to college recently i really wa hoping doing this i would meet people make friend but even doing thing like going to event and regularly attending class just nothing i love talking to and meeting people but i just never get placed in the right place at the right time and the moment i get close i fuck up again or something else happens i downloaded some dating apps just to try to meet people i know i wouldn t have much success a a short medium attractive guy i would maybe get a match a week if i wa lucky and we d send a couple message but nothing more last week i finally got someone s contact info and we set up plan to go on a date i wasn t particularly interested in this girl but wa just exited to finally go on a date i had a class for the time we planned but that didn t matter i can miss it thing were finally going well and then last night i suddenly remembered nothing is ever supposed to go well i always get so close so this morning i check my phone she had blocked me i didn t even feel anything it s just how everything go for me i thought i m not angry at her or anything she probably just decided last minute she didn t want to go i m tired i m done trying i m killing myself next week maybe if i keep putting myself out there i ll actually meet someone but it s an endless cycle my depression make it so hard to do that which just cause me to get more depressed what is supposed to break this cycle i ve tried medication no effect therapy i ve tried may therapist and they ve all told me the same bull shit i ve already heard i don t really want to die it would be nice for thing to work out for once but with the cycle i m in nothing will ever change and i don t see a way of breaking it if thing will just be like this forever why bother continuing sorry for this absolute wall of text if you actually read this cool i guess i just needed to write all my thought out gon na go to sleep now bye tl dr god fucking hate me | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | l want but i can t sleep | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | emmavieceli aw no get better soon have honey and lemon drink | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i feel worse than ever i need more burn than i thought i started using cigarette burn i thought this wa going to be better than cutting but it s worse much much worse i need help the guy i talked to in dm wa right i need help i just don t know where to start | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | didn t want to be a tax inspector anyway | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | funny how the little thing make me homesick criminal breakn n a brownstone on lawnord ci made me misty | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | yeah so basically me and my bf both have been in a very good relationship for about a year and month and we were just texting like we normally do every night and he told me that he s suicidal and think about hurting himself a lot how do i deal with this information how can i help him he already said he doesn t want to go to therapy since that would require him telling his parent and i assume he s really embarrassed about it so what can i do to help him i ve never had to deal with anything like this before so i have no idea | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | kenmcguire sorry i had to be the one to confirm your darkest fear | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | mm twitter appears to have eaten some of my post naughty twitter | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | life seems to be so unfair how come i am mentally struggling and unwell 0x more compared to people who abuse substance or i guess sometimes to people who just drink a lot smoke a lot of weed etc it doesn t seem to affevt them negatively meanwhile i am completely sober but seems to be going through so much shit sleep issue regardless of no substance abuse i jusy don t understand | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | bolajioyebode depression co your mama wear your bata where are these people from | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | hero is soooo boring ugh and i just found out there are more episode this season | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | lghague just uni ruining my life a per usual | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | andygosling ouch zoom and the clearfix method are your friend | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | so i recently started my first customer service job and wa doing well until it came to order taking i wa making order before at the register inside i m not great but okay but the register at the drive through i seem to have worse anxiety while talking with people i don t know and can t see for some reason and on top of that everything that happens at the drive through is broadcasted to anyone wearing a headset and on top of that my medication wa screwing me up any time i missed even one dose i wa waning off but having trouble with the final drop off and i wa on the verge of a breakdown all day and the drive through wa what pushed it too far and i had to leave early to get my medication my medication still aren t stable and i m having a very anxious episode that s been happening since i started getting off the medication far worse than it wa before how have you managed to cope with this anxiety and perform necessary work interaction with stranger repeatedly | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | xambix wow welcome home eh that s well shit especially just coming back off holiday some fucking people | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | death is peaceful life however bite | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i m not suicidal i just feel everybody close to me slipping away and it s crushing me slowly so i wa wondering what are the main sign | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | the daily struggle is starting to get to me i have wondered for so long why and made excuse why but when you re depressed the reason don t matter a far a i m concerned seeing a therapist amp getting medication are not an option for me the closest therapist is 00 mile away my insurance doe not cover visit they charge 00 a session and the wait for an appointment is month the way i figure it is that i have three choice end it all which would cause pain for everyone else i love wait six month travel amp get some happy pill that never work and make certain body part uhhhh shall we say limp deal with it any way possible tough choice i ll get back to you all on what i choose be well peace out | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | if your own brand of depression make you bring your mum to the timeline for public flogging it s not depression that is plaguing you it is just plain old foolishness your whole operating system is corrupted and need a total overhaul | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i m fine i m fine i m fine until once again i m back in the pit and i m wondering how long do i need to keep doing this for when i stare at my computer screen another fucking 9 day of meaningless clicking so i can earn barely enough money to survive comparing myself with other people my age depresses me i m not so successful and i probably didn t live up to anyones expectation including my own but the more i think about it based on all my trauma and self hatred where i am kinda make sense but the thought of i need to continue living like this idling just living in the same page everyday why i have a vacation booked and then what i come back to the same meaningless routine every time after a vacation im more depressed that my life is how it is do i want to change sure how i don t even have the energy or motivation nor do i have the strength or idea some day i feel like im living in my own paradox or dream that my life isn t even real the past few week i been reliving my trauma and all the shit i went through continuously in my head why i don t even know maybe i m trying to understand myself all i get are mood swing bad attitude and burst of anger maybe i should get on med | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | self explanatory title i can make it through the day when distracted with a busy day at work or surrounded by friend but a soon a i m alone or i have a minute to think i realise how deeply unhappy i am in almost every aspect of my life i don t want to die i know there s thing to live for like family friend travelling new career potential love and child and maybe being one day happy but every day i wake up and struggle i feel little part of my health and sanity being chiseled off one by one and i just don t know how long i can do this for before i just give up | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | flowfy0 kenklot manlikeicey people will just be capping nonesense she died of depression yen yen the word depression wasn t even been abused then like they do now she died of blood clot disorder | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i recently got caught at my school with a very small amount of weed my dad ha a number of reason to be worried about this he work in an environment where addict are he ha went to rehab for alcohol in last year ha had sister die of overdose etc he ha not gone to work for day in a row now and he tell me it s because of anxiety whenever i ask him what s on his mind he just say idk and that i can t do anything to help him now mind you i haven t spoken a single word to him about the incident stated at the start even though he is well informed of it every morning around the same time i hear him vomiting i don t have much experience with alcohol so i can t judge too quickly here and i understand i m probably not leaving enough info for anyone else to fully decide too whether this could be anxiety or something else just what should i do in a situation like this ha anyone had any experience with vomiting around the same time due to anxiety | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | yo that wa hella weird my twitter got deleted | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | just booted into window to upload something since internet is even worse under ubuntu | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | huntermoore i don t want him to ever punch me | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i broke up with my so and honestly i think that wa the last thing keeping me from wanting to end thing and it felt like it came out of nowhere without even a chance to fix thing i feel so alone i barely have any friend left everyone from high school moved on everyone from college moved away i ve always had trouble with friend and every time i think i make them they get stripped away or i just become a periphery friend who never get added to the group chat i feel incapable of functioning a a normal human and i can t handle being alone my job is remote so i can t even make work friend i can t be completely by myself day a week it feel like solitary confinement i got an adhd diagnosis recently but my therapist doesn t even talk about my emotional issue they just focus on if the medication is helpful it is i don t know how to ask for help with anxiety and depression my family ha been distant and i don t know how to talk to them about this stuff my mental health always got ignored growing up compared to other member of my family even though the adhd stuff wa super clear in retrospect because of the adhd i ended up a shell of myself a a coping mechanism and that drive people away every relationship end badly or shrivels up and dy i m failing at my job and might have to quit or get fired because i m week behind my pet is dying i didn t renew my lease because i thought i d be moving with my ex to a new city so now i don t even have an apartment for the fall and potentially am still moving there because i need to get away from where i am right now and i have a lease i could sign which is definitely not the healthiest choice and there s some really bad trauma that i don t even want to mention here that alone could drive someone to feeling like this when i told my ex how i wa feeling they ignored it even though they were the first person i ever told i felt that way i ll make sure to tell them it isn t their fault but to be honest it definitely added to thing i don t even need them back i just wanted someone to help me get the therapy i need literally everything in my life need to start fresh and i can t do it i don t see the point why start literally everything over when you re haunted by the ghost of your past and will end up doing the same shit i m not ugly dumb or out of shape but if my personality just stay so shitty and i can t fix it what s the point my building ha a th story roof i can get on i m gon na climb up and jump off when i get the courage i have some text already written out telling people it isn t their fault i set my bank up to donate to a local animal shelter i cleared my browsing history and threw out anything weird from my apartment i went up last night but only didn t do it because i got cold the only thing stopping me is how awkward the funeral would be and the pain i d cause my parent and honestly i don t think that s enough | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i feel very apathetic towards everything in my life i just have no drive or ambition towards anything like i m just living just because people tell me to live i don t want to be here in life or anywhere really i just want to not exist a good portion of what i ve done in life is only for the approval of others now that i m older the more i just stop caring about others i know you all will probably suggest to maybe try other thing now that you don t care about other people s opinion find thing that actually enjoy i did i took a break from uni and decided to dive into art and a bunch of hobby i found them to very meaningless i don t know how to explain it but i felt like i wa faking enjoying the thing i did just to prove to myself that i am getting better and that i am like other people i did them just to do them i m just depressed that my family had to be stuck with a daughter like me because i m nothing but lazy and careless i don t want to burden it d be so much easier for me if i could just die in my sleep so i can save myself from hurting my family by committing suicide not existing is the only choice i want | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | omg whats with window vista today tried installing it on my window laptop and it died reinstall | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | ik this wa his depression outfit but i couldnt no laugh at it look at him he wa wearing stede s clothes and writing song abt not wanting to let him go izzy how could you do this to u http t co avvlcv ixx | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | i m so cold | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i m starting to lose hope i feel like i m on auto pilot i m not living i m existing | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | this earthquake in italy ha me sadden it s only three hour away from naples where my family is | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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depressed | night two of deep depression i wish my med didn t have some bad day bc im a mess i don t feel like me this week and i m just so incredibly sad | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | longing to own a sewing machine my birthday is too far away | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | skooool i hope for some reason it is sooo much fun and like the best hehe | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | my navel piercing tore a bit when i wa forcing my dog into the bed of my truck my fault i know it look to be healing yay | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i need some help badly i suffer too much my depression ha gone from a depression i wa able to function on i wa a everyday gym user ate well slept well grade were alright now my depression is horrific i tried the gym the other day and saw myself in the mirror and wanted to pick up a weight and smash my head in i don t eat i don t sleep i ve lost weight badly my hair is always ridiculed someone always go out of there way to speak to me or about me leave me alone i would bet money if you ask my couple of friend and my family doe he have depression they would say no way he s happy i m dying inside suicidal thought used to be a comforting thing for me whenever something bad happened i said i won t be here so it won t matter now it s getting to the point where it seems like my only solution i m such a gentle great soul why doe my brain treat me like a piece of dirt why doe my brain force me to thrive to look perfect i ve resorted to self harm i ve done it twice a month or two ago and it felt great i cut up my thigh badly i ve tried to not make that a habit tho i m just a year old kid how tf am i giving up already on life my beautiful parent and family and pet and i choose to be a disgusting loser i wish i didn t have such a amazing family so i didn t feel guilty i know this is long and i know people won t read this on a stupid reddit page but i had to vent my main reason for depression are body dysmorphia worst part and most crippling lack of social life fear of driving while everyone else doe lack of aspiration don t know what i m doing for college don t have a career choice lack of attention from opposite sex least painful one but it definitely hurt badly i ve never told a single person about depression can someone save my life | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | if you were to open my head you d see happiness and 9 pain that is my smile and laughter the 9 is just regret smh ing anger stress and depression | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | edit i realize maybe i write too much you don t need to read it to answer the question in a way i needed to vent also thats what a lot of this is but i can only put one flair i have heavy anxiety social and general i think it s called not sure i avoid going anywhere a much a i can i get very anxious around new people and absolutely hate it and then i also have anxiety about my health what if i am doing something wrong etc i had medication once that i would take if i had a panic attack but i don t have any more it wa a one time prescription after a visit to emergency care depression also cloud my life my anxiety make me depressed issue about my identity make me depressed and overall it s just awful everything feel so awful and it s hard to feel happy about anything even though where i am right now i asked to be i wa seperated from my bf cause of family moving stuff and i am with him again after month of being alone at my family place for month i wa looking forward to being here but i can t even be happy about it because my anxiety mainly it is because of work i have never had a job before and i am gon na start soon at a fast food place yeah i know amazing for someone like me i hate meeting new people everyday i am scared i wont be able to learn quick enough or retain information i really don t look forward to having to interact with people i am scared to be treated like an outcast i m trans and at the interview i let the interviewer call me she which i am not but it wa like whiplash is that the right word and i couldn t say anything now i have to correct him when i call back because i wa told to call back but i am scared because it feel like correcting someone on pronoun make a big deal i don t want it to be a big deal but some people take it so personally it s not something i want brought up all the time honestly i don t want to be a push over but i also don t want to be seen a too defensive another thing i am anxious about is my trip to work i will have to take public transport and i have huge fear of something bad happening to me that i can t relax when going anywhere and i am scared of being asked to come in on many day off and i don t like to say no but i also don t want to be asked to fill any shift whenever they want i said i am willing but honestly only day extra a week i am not doing day work no break thats awful i am scared i wont be able to make the decision i want and fall to pressure sorry if it s a lot to read and maybe i get off topic sometimes my mind is a mess i just want to know how some of you cope that work in job with a lot of customer interaction and people around i feel like i wont make it like i will screw up big time or have a panic attack and i will just walk out because i can t keep my anxiety under control i want to get help but i really have no money i want to find a better job but i have no experience in anything and everything that you don t need experience for is customer oriented or requires heavy lifting and i don t have the time either having to get a job asap because my bf is paying for our accommodation right now and i need to help out so i need to do this but i feel like it s gon na take a toll on me and i don t know what to do | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | drinking milk being on youtube lonely emiliiee | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i don t know how i feel my mind is a mess and feeling are confusing i have no idea what i m doing or how to get better or if i m even getting better but i don t know anything and this probably make no sense but i just needed to vent a little | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | sister s cat meatball ha had it leg crushed need to be amputated now poor little thing | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | someone who i know also suffers from anxiety also told me that everything will be fine and those are word i sort of never am able to grasp and i think he saw the look on my face that these word almost didn t make sense to me | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | ryanmwilson aww that stink hug | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | startv kaderiminoyuntv it s also crucial the scenarist address in depth from a psychological point of view theme that have been introduced throughout the story abandonment of biological parent of the partner amp family depression social pressure abusgul dergecerim ferayegizemkurt kaderiminoyunu | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | my gf might be pregnant we haven t done it for month now she told me with all honesty that she and her boy best friend did it last month she only did it because she wa drunk and had a fight with her parent i had no idea about that until now she s delayed week i feel like my chest is getting crushed by what she had done i can t cry but damn it hurt so bad i don t know what to do i admire her honesty but the pain is still here in my heart she doesn t want to break up with me either she said she s sorry i love her i really do | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | she wa my only hope the only person i thought loved me she only love me a a brother her ex which i m friend with showed me a message of him asking her what if i had a crush on her august 0 in january we kissed and everything then after a couple of day our love stopped i keep telling her that i love her and care for her and she doesn t say it back i m alone alone forever i have a knife next to me i m scared to do it tho i m scared of death but wan na die | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | ientje 9 aw i m fine too thanks yeah i miss you so much on the mfc but hope we can talk later on today kiss huglove | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | is boarding ek a usual no upgrade from ek colombo | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | well i m going to bed early i wish i could sleep in tomorrow | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | cloudpimps d oh at least you re getting a decent exchange rate at the moment sterling is still getting flogged | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | year have passed but the only thing that doesn t seem to pas is this tough phase of loneliness i have had a very troubled childhood i wa bullied throughout school probably since every grade post th i didn t have any friend used to roam alone in school during recess coz sitting alone in class without friend used to make me feel really awkward and sad i am now graduated college but situation hasn t gotten that better i did make few society friend lately but they only contact me whenever they need my help or vice versa i tried talking normally too but to no avail they would simply seen zone me i tried dating site too many a time but they were a big flop they always ended up damaging my self esteem a i never ever got more than like whenever on festival when my society friend call me to hangout they always boast that how amazing their experience have been with girl in college someone wa hooking up with different chick in a single week someone else just competed year of relationship am the only fucking one in the entire group of 0 who ha never dated even once it make me feel really really sad and just completely destroys my self esteem i have never ever kissed a girl never held hand with any girl and it just go on and on it make me feel like a failure i feel like i got no one in life it s even tough to sum it up all in this post a there s just too much stuff to share the family issue failed attempt at getting a girl getting used by a girl and then getting blocked from her and much more it make it impossible for me to focus on my study thankyou so much for giving me your time lt much love | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i am male and getting my dream education right now and will be working with young people that can t live with their parent for a multitude of reason anymore in year after year of being aimless i found that to be my dream job i am together with a nice girl and we have great chemistry i am living in my own flat and my grade and praxis are is going great i got professional help after a major mental breakdown i had year ago that made me live like a plant and got over severe depression and constant panic attack panic attack are rare and i know my trigger and how to deal with them i am confident in myself and got to reflect on my messed up childhood and problematic personality trait a couple of week ago i started feeling really anxious tho by far more than usual i am afraid of dying for stupid bodily reason and i am always so tense and have ache in my stomach and neck and my heart beat really fast from time to time and i am afraid my girlfriend will leave me that s what i am most anxious about she is really good for me and she told me that i am good for her but lately she act distant while still showing me affection in way because she isn t doing that good aswell there are reason for her to feel bad besides me but i am afraid that i might be a big reason because she wa confronted with a lot of my anxiety related issue logically i would say she won t leave me because gave me thoughtful present and still care for me by reminding me to eat and she sometimes say she miss me but she behaves so distant and it s triggering me so hard because of a toxic relationship i wa in i decided not to talk about my anxiety anymore because i don t want to lay that upon her and i told her about my abandonment issue once and will leave it at that because i don t want her to feel bad everytime she behaves distant because of her own issue that would be selfish hell she even told me she won t stop loving me even if she cant express it but my anxiety is still there the worst thing is that she doesn t want to speak about what s bothering her because she doesn t want to think about it which make me feel like it s me and then i feel like an asshole because i am not the center of the world so yeah long story short my abandonment issue are the worst thing right now i decided not to bother her with it because it s not fair but i don t know how to deal with it oh and those issue wouldn t be so bad if i weren t so anxious in general the general anxiety came with the practical part of my education but i don t know why because i am doing good i will be done with that in week and that s when i will meet her again and i hope that everything will be okay by then but i am afraid that i will be sabotaging myself before then by ruining my relationship just so that the anxiety go away | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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normal | home from franklin street i almost jumped over a fire someone kicked it before i could jenny lost her shoe | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | not sure if my adhd is on a slump or what but i have nothing i m really interested in right now and then the thing i wa doing also lost my interest so in a desperate attempt to stay occupied i tried some of my old game that i realized i lost the skill to play so then come the rage quit and now for the staring at the ceiling contemplating if this is a normal thing my depression or even just life being cruel i wish i could just enjoy something again | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | im lonely keep me company female new york | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | angry barista i baked you a cake but i ated it | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | i am not sure if this is the right place for it but last friday one of my classmate told me jokingly to jump out of a window she ha been doing that joke for over a month i ve had it up to here so i said i d blow my head off on the weekend i tried to hurt myself and went to the emergency room on monday they prescribed me some lexapro and i went home relieved that i finally got some help half an hour after i returned home cop stormed my apartment saying they received a hint from the school that i wa gon na hurt myself and they searched my whole apartment for a gun which i don t have so they obv didn t find one and restrained me they then took me to the same hospital i wa at just half an hour ago and i spoke to the psychiatrist there again who told the police i am not a threat to myself or someone else so they let me go again during that they took my phone and it ran out of battery and i didn t have access to it for like hour or more during that time two of my classmate messaged me asking why i blocked them and they attacked me not knowing my phone ran out of battery and that s why i didn t answer they then blocked me and i explained to them on instagram what happened and they read it but didn t care apparently my classmate apparently told our headmaster they were worried and then he called the police i am getting the proper help from all of my teacher and my headmaster and i have an appointment with our school psychiatrist soon it s just that this whole police incident ha left me panicking and cry when i see a police officer car and everytime someone with heavy boot walk on my apartment floor i sit up thinking the police will come back again i also can t sleep properly and can t distract myself because i keep having horrible flashback of the scene when the police stormed in which leaf me breaking down it left me broken traumatized overwhelmed and desperate because i don t know what to do on top of that my classmate all blocked me are ignoring me and not even looking at me talking about being worried and not even one person asked me if i wa alright or how i wa doing i am considering going back to the emergency room and talking to the same psychiatrist from before but it s not really an emergency you know sorry if this text is long i am just overwhelmed and don t know what to do anymore all i know is i am traumatized a fuck and broken what should i do someone please assure me that everything is gon na be okay because at this point all my hope ha left me | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | miss sil no i wa half asleep and turned off the laptop after that | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | rustyrockets will you be showing me some love you sexy swine feeling abit lonely go on you know you wan na x | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | mhbigcatch oz golem but finally got a wight oz | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | oh just got all my macheist 0 apps sweet didn t get the espresso serial no though although they said they sent it oh well | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | everything is a really weird blur not all the time but these wave of blur come and go doe anybody else have this it s like i m existing but not really dead but alive deaf but i can hear blind but i can see what is this | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | jennlopez i had to get an hd tivo and just got it set up tonight in order to get channel 0 9 | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | childhoodflames whats wrong | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | yawn morning all i had a real rough night | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | stanning him ha added joy to my life he s not a tool to fantasize in your arm he s not a play thing to go crazy over he s an artist you like him because his art is adding a new flavor to your time his song mean something to me my depression wa understood and respected in | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | nothing is normal anymore i used to be this happy funny kid and now all i do is silently tear up and think about blowing my brain out like seriously there s nothing else to think about i feel like nobody care i m not going to talk to my father about this and my friend would only agree with me hel i didn t know if i should come here i can never sleep and when i do it s in the middle of class i keep everything inside and i think it s making go insane there s some worse stuff on here so i don t know if i belong here i m sorry for wasting your time | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | longing for yesterday | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | iiiii havent slept yet and i have to be at work in 0 minute boo | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | tommcfly have fun tom i need to buy eclipse too but i have no money sad times | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | depression i love it | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed | joeedwyer put poet on the moon i want to hear about depression on the moon | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
normal | bradqb i know the feeling man just lay low for a while some people are just like that | Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |