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Specifically, social media targets these desires and reduces them to their most basic form. Driven by these forces, we now seek the like, the comment, the follower.
It is a profoundly desperate state in which we find ourselves, on a daily basis, sharing those aspects of our lives which will assuage the ego and provide us that dopamine rush with which we have begun to associate happiness.
It is difficult to wrap one’s head around the dangers of the promotion of such a system, but we are seeing it now play out in the political arena. People have become so dependent on the acceptance and approval of others that they will go to great lengths to validate their own neuroses, even at the expense of critical thinking.
But why would any individual, or more appropriately, corporation, invest so much money and effort into engineering such a regression of consciousness?
Control is the only reason.
Please bear this in mind with every like you collect today, with every engaging comment that you elicit, with each follower who has now subscribed to your outlet.
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Do not allow the illusion of free will to dictate your decisions. The only person who can give meaning to your life is the one residing within your body.
Despite this, with the help of others, I am becoming the most authentic version of myself.
I value authenticity above all else, and until recently, I have felt that the expectations of others prevented me from living in this genuine state.
In the dissolution of this expectation, I have found a freedom from presumptive behavior that has allowed me to take many steps toward realizing the version of myself that I would like to become.
I have not forsaken the need to be, but in this small striving toward authenticity, I believe I will become more confident in my own ability. I believe that an increase in confidence of my social currency can only serve me well in my journey moving forward.
This is very controversial to my sensibilities, and I find it difficult to find the words to express myself at this time.
All that I know is that this motion toward equilibrium has awoken in me a deep desire to express myself in healthy and sympathetic ways.
***
By achieving our greatest potential, as measured by our own metrics, we become more valuable to the greater society as a whole. It is the individual’s prerogative to become better for their own sake, but in so doing, we elevate the status of every other person with whom we connect.
Unification is not a luxury, it is not an ideal which should be borne as the standard for elevation of the human condition. Unity is a practical step which all sane beings should be capable of making without coercion.
Though men and women may disagree over the importance of this or that, in unity we could elevate the bond of our shared ancestry, as yet another link in the chain which will lead us to a complete existence. We must individually rise above the dregs of our conditioning for the betterment of humanity.
Every existent life form shares the similarity of cellular unity.
If only people could see the importance of subordinating their desires, despite the allure of capital growth, we could achieve the state of organism, an integral step in realizing the greater good of mankind.
Put simply, if we could escape the bonds of feudalism, then we could see clearly from eyes, set within heads, set upon shoulders, built upon a base of form serving function.
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If we could all only agree to take this step toward a state of being, perhaps the planet and animals and our understanding of the very fabric of space and time would follow.
Perhaps we could become greater than the sum of these parts and exist freely in union without such a contrived ideal as utopia.
***
A piece of me still craves the attention of others, but as time passes, that piece becomes smaller. I dream of the day on which I will awaken to realize that I have never needed this prying, cloying, distinctively motherly recognition.
It is a shame that I have endured this long in life without addressing this issue. Resolution of such a vicious error of personality could only serve me well in future endeavors, and yet here it has been, festering inside the deepest recesses of my mind.
I owe it to myself to seek the cause of such an obsession.
I have an undying urge to control that which can be controlled, and my dependence upon this familiar approval can surely be overcome.
This is an issue which I find myself to be incapable of remotely observing and excising, and as such, I have employed outside assistance in pursuit of this goal. It is my hope that the guidance of an impartial escort will lead me to a realization which my chauvinistic mind is incapable of reaching on its own.
I must follow my intuition, fuck my feelings.
***
I have never once felt an emotion which genuinely enhanced my condition.
I have many times felt a pull which was utilized as a means to manipulate. The circumstance in which I find myself is so utterly hopeless that passion could only serve to distress.
This pursuit of noble aim is a concept that has been lost on me for some time.
I have sought the superior place; I have sought the liquor of fools.
This confidence I have achieved is based on the assumption that what I do is right or somehow virtuous. I am struggling to learn that virtue is a fallacy of my own imagination. That which is so meaningful and worthy to my current point of view is downright destructive to the views of others.
By attributing value to the pursuit of a noble existence, I am granted ability rooted in kindness rather than perceived value to the self. If my actions are performed with gentle intent, perhaps they will be better received by the hivemind than those performed in self interest.
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I am now beginning to see that the superiority I have been seeking is an indulgence of the ego.
“If I could only make me right,” declares the selfish portion of my psyche. However, this rectitude is mired in controversy and would lower the development of my psyche to a level far removed from mastery.
I must seek my noble aim as a means to restore conscious impediment to my base desires.
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In this moment I have become aware that my fate may be mired in mediocrity. However, the illusion of greatness weighs heavy above the head in which my ego resides. I must conquer this desire to achieve, as a means to an end more illustrious than I could possibly imagine.
A true acceptance of the mean, coming from within, will bring me to the correct position once again. This posture is worth the sacrifice of my ambitions despite the disdain rendered by the self-absorbed domains of my psyche.
I currently possess every comfort for which a man could crave. It is my responsibility to accept this position and move forward with the work as the most central aspect of my mind.
I must want not, for in wanting I debase the most powerful desires of the self.
***
Perhaps my assumptions have never been correct. Perhaps I hold within myself a worldview which is irreconcilable with the modern times.
I am willing to accept that my understanding of existent reality may be flawed at its most basic level. Through this willingness to embrace my own incompatibilities with others, I am delivered from the negative headspace inherent to enmity.