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I feel like I’m close to another mental breakdown. I’ve literally been running around the past 2 months trying to find an apartment for my current SO & I. It’s been very hard, given that his family has literally tried to ruin my life for no reasons. Instances of: sending pictures, harassment on social media, my car almost being towed, my work (now former job) being called, now CPS has been called on my cousin for no reason. I [F24] am literally at my breaking point. There was a day where I was running around trying to seal a deal on an apartment bc they’re first come first serve type of deal. I ran to 3 different cities in one day trying to find my SO [M21] paper work. I did this bc he is busy to accompany me during the day to run around, it’s been stressful finding a place given our income & doing it alone. I just went to a job interview today & got the job, but now they require the certifications I got from my trade school. (Sorry, if this sounds so rushed & grammar isn’t the best I’m really trying to hold it together here w out throwing my phone against the wall & crying in a corner.) I can’t find my LAST certificate, the actual one that says my GPA & completion of the program & I’m freaking out since that’s going to determine my pay rate. Now I don’t know what to do or if they’ll even make an exception w out it. I’m literally having fights w my SO every day bc he’s hurting bc of his family which he doesn’t talk to after everything & im trying to be understanding but I can’t - I can’t deal w everything being my fault even when it’s not. I literally sit there laughing & crying & I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t want to go back to the behavioral health ward in my local hospital for the 3rd time this year. I’m just fucking so overwhelmed I can’t even deal anymore.

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feel like close another mental breakdown literally running around past month trying find apartment current hard given family tried ruin life reason instance sending picture harassment social medium car almost towed work former job called cps cousin breaking point day seal deal bc first come serve type ran different city one paper busy accompany run stressful finding place income alone went interview today got require certification trade school sorry sound rushed grammar best really hold together throwing phone wall cry corner last certificate actual say gpa completion program freaking since going determine pay rate know even make exception fight every hurting talk everything im understanding fault sit laughing want go back behavioral health ward local hospital rd time year fucking overwhelmed anymore

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GAD - Looking for a non-sSRI, non-Benzo I've suffered from GAD for many many years, pretty much as long as I can remember (I'm a 39 year old male FWIW). Over that time period I've tried various pharmaceutical treatments off and on combined with therapy. Most recently, I was put on Lamotrigine about 5 months ago, which I've actually found to be very effective. Unfortunately it may be causing me some skin issues (not Stevens-Johnson syndrome) and I'm looking for something else to try that's not an SSRI and not a benzo. I've read a little about Buspar and read through some of the threads on this sub, and am a little skeptical. So my question is, does anyone else who suffers from GAD have experience with any other medication that netted positive results?

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gad looking non ssri benzo suffered many year pretty much long remember old male fwiw time period tried various pharmaceutical treatment combined therapy recently put lamotrigine month ago actually found effective unfortunately may causing skin issue stevens johnson syndrome something else try read little buspar thread sub skeptical question anyone suffers experience medication netted positive result

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my mind is going to kill me. (i cant add a flair because i’m on mobile but tw. health/heart problems) i’ve hit a point with my hypochondria where i’m convinced that my mind will kill me. the fact that i can’t do things that i love in fear i’m going to have a heart attack is making me flip my shit. as a kid, i had heart “problems” and my family and doctors amplified them because they forced me to go to cardiologist appointments (i would get very high blood pressure because i was very very anxious at doctors, i have always been anxious at doctors ever since i was a little kid.) and they found that out and ever since then i’ve been super mindful of my heart and every time it gets to a speed that is PERFECTLY NORMAL might i mind you, it’s normal for your heart to accelerate when you’re exercising or engaging in sexual activity, IT HAS ME PANICKING. i smoke pot, i’ve been doing it for almost 4 years now and it used to calm me down but if i can’t feel a pulse when i’m high i flip out and send myself into a panic attack. my mind is going to kill my heart and in turn it’s going to kill me. this isn’t a cry for help, or maybe it is, i don’t know. i just don’t know what i should do anymore. i can’t afford to have a therapist, hell right now i don’t even have a primary doctor and i don’t know how to make myself worry less but i’m terrified of this progressing as i get older. i want to not be afraid of my own body and its natural processes, but i’m not even sure how to start to let go of this fear i have that’s taken over a huge part of my life.

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mind going kill cant add flair mobile tw health heart problem hit point hypochondria convinced fact thing love fear attack making flip shit kid family doctor amplified forced go cardiologist appointment would get high blood pressure anxious always ever since little found super mindful every time speed perfectly normal might accelerate exercising engaging sexual activity panicking smoke pot almost year used calm feel pulse send panic turn cry help maybe know anymore afford therapist hell right even primary make worry le terrified progressing older want afraid body natural process sure start let taken huge part life

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People always asking me if I'm ok/what's wrong in public. So I've been diagnosed with general anxiety and have been medicated with Prozac and wellbutrin. It's made a big difference and has taken me from dreading social gatherings of any kind (as well as many other parts of life) to enjoying a relaxed environment like a dive bar or karaoke. That being said, even when I feel like I'm having a good time and enjoying myself people in my group of friends and aquantences zare always asking me if I'm ok or what's wrong. I'm generally a pretty quiet person and most of the time I don't make unnecessary small talk in most situations. I'm completely happy being a wallflower and taking part in conversations but I am never compelled to start them especially with strangers. I'm guessing maybe this is an expected part of going to a bar, maintaining a constant stream of conversations with anyone around, but it's just not me. Has anyone else recovering from anxiety experienced this feeling like your out of place when people are constantly checking up on you? It's like I have a pissed off look on my face or something but in reality I'm happy and relaxed just being around everyone. Just venting a bit and seeing if anyone else has had any experience with it.

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people always asking ok wrong public diagnosed general anxiety medicated prozac wellbutrin made big difference taken dreading social gathering kind well many part life enjoying relaxed environment like dive bar karaoke said even feel good time group friend aquantences zare generally pretty quiet person make unnecessary small talk situation completely happy wallflower taking conversation never compelled start especially stranger guessing maybe expected going maintaining constant stream anyone around else recovering experienced feeling place constantly checking pissed look face something reality everyone venting bit seeing experience

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I silently suffered from chronic anxiety for the past year, but I think I may have rid myself of it through diet. I really wanted to talk to someone about this, and I'm so happy to see there's a whole Reddit community devoted to it. A little over a year anxiety started creeping into me. It got so bad I would sometimes arrive at work, with tasks I knew I needed to do, and I literally could not urge myself to do them. I have since discovered that this is called "executive dysfunction" and is not uncommon in sufferers of moderate to severe chronic anxiety. I have talked to no one about it, I never reached out for help... even though I should have, obviously. I've always considered myself the kind of person who deals with his own problems himself, but this was not getting better and was clearly getting in the way of things. Well... a thing happened. My daughter has a severe form of autism, which we have linked to a rare genetic mutation (fyi, this is a very rare form of autism. Autism is an umbrella term that actually covers a variety of conditions, but which all have similar treatments). Well someone recommended to my wife and I to try a dietary change for our daughter called the "Nemechek Protocol." The theory behind it is that the Western diet has two major problems: first, an imbalance between Omega-3 and Omega-6 oils, and a lack of pro-biotics. Switching to the diet is relatively easy; you eliminate most vegetable oils and replace them with canola or extra virgin olive oil, and you take a fish oil (omega-3) supplement and a prebiotic supplement (inulin). Saying I was skeptical would be a massive understatement, but we don't turn down any kind of advice out-of-hand when it comes to our daughter, so I read all of Dr. Nemechek's book to understand the underlying theory and how the diet works. And hey, wouldn't you know it, in a very short segment near the back of the book it mentions that this imbalance in the Western diet can cause some negative effects in adults as well as children, the primary one being... wait for it... anxiety. Still skeptical, we decide to try out the diet, since it's relatively easy, not really expensive at all, and we're willing to try a lot of things if it might help our daughter (as long as we've vetted them to make sure they'll do no harm). I figure I'll try this diet too, because what the heck, why not. It's been three months. Our daughter's therapists have seen a significant upturn in her attitude and engagement. She's picking up words more easily and more willingly. It's not like it's miracle-level stuff, it's not like Jesus himself touched her and she is cured, but the diet has very clearly had a positive effect for her and we've been super happy with her improved performance. And guys. Me? Anxiety is a fraction of what it used to be. If I had to put a number on it, I'd say I'm at a 2 out of 10, where most days I was between 7 to 9 out of ten. And it's only getting better every day, bit by bit. I'm not trying to sell anyone on this specific diet change, but I am personally a believer. I was looking to this sub to see if anyone had any other specific diet or exercise tips for further reducing anxiety, or if anyone else had a success story that ended in a total or near-total end of their chronic condition without using medications. Rock on guys!

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silently suffered chronic anxiety past year think may rid diet really wanted talk someone happy see whole reddit community devoted little started creeping got bad would sometimes arrive work task knew needed literally could urge since discovered called executive dysfunction uncommon sufferer moderate severe talked one never reached help even though obviously always considered kind person deal problem getting better clearly way thing well happened daughter form autism linked rare genetic mutation fyi umbrella term actually cover variety condition similar treatment recommended wife try dietary change nemechek protocol theory behind western two major first imbalance omega oil lack pro biotics switching relatively easy eliminate vegetable replace canola extra virgin olive take fish supplement prebiotic inulin saying skeptical massive understatement turn advice hand come read dr book understand underlying hey know short segment near back mention cause negative effect adult child primary wait still decide expensive willing lot might long vetted make sure harm figure heck three month therapist seen significant upturn attitude engagement picking word easily willingly like miracle level stuff jesus touched cured positive super improved performance guy fraction used put number say day ten every bit trying sell anyone specific personally believer looking sub exercise tip reducing else success story ended total end without using medication rock

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Physical symptoms and how to cope? Bad title, but here goes... For those here who have extremely visible symptoms of anxiety, what are they? How do you cope? Whenever I get anxious I start shaking really bad, enough to keep me from doing certain things. It’s recently become more of an issue and I’m considering actually doing something about it. I want to keep medication out of the picture for now but that may change.

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physical symptom cope bad title go extremely visible anxiety whenever get anxious start shaking really enough keep certain thing recently become issue considering actually something want medication picture may change

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Feeling proud of myself I talked / breathed myself out of an anxiety attack tonight... I know it's something that we all face and its not impressive or anything but I'm proud of myself. I feel more in control than I have in a while. I hope everyone is doing great. I love you

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feeling proud talked breathed anxiety attack tonight know something face impressive anything feel control hope everyone great love

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Anyone else get so much anxiety trying to buy things? It’s so hard for me to spend money on things even when I need them, sometimes I have anxiety attacks and can’t even get through the process of buying it :(( I was going to buy a record from my favorite band. I found out the didn’t have the most “pretty” pressing of the vinyl that I wanted and this terrible anxiety attack ensued I think bc I felt like I couldn’t justify spending the money if it wasn’t perfect. Does anyone else struggle with this?? Or have tips for improving it? I really want that vinyl but I feel so much guilt and anxiety at the thought of it :((

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anyone else get much anxiety trying buy thing hard spend money even need sometimes attack process buying going record favorite band found pretty pressing vinyl wanted terrible ensued think bc felt like justify spending perfect struggle tip improving really want feel guilt thought

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What skills/ self-help did your parents teach you, or you have taught your children? First time here: I hope this post does not deviate from group's purpose. If so, I understand it might not be shown or would be removed. I would like to give my offspring lifelong tools for managing stress and anxiety. We have one school aged child and counting. Is there anything that you were taught early in school for managing how you feel, or have you taught your own children skills to help them manage things like frustration or anxiety regarding their school work? Specific books, or techniques very welcome!

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skill self help parent teach taught child first time hope post deviate group purpose understand might shown would removed like give offspring lifelong tool managing stress anxiety one school aged counting anything early feel manage thing frustration regarding work specific book technique welcome

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Does anyone else have anxiety imagining their partner dying? I (25F) have always struggled with anxiety. Lately I can't stop having intrusive thoughts and resulting anxiety about my fiance dying. I think it's largely because I had very little faith in relationships before him and the way he treats and cares for me is so far beyond anything I ever expected. He is my best friend and I can't imagine life without him. However, since we got engaged especially, I can't shut off my fear of him dying. He works early mornings and with ice on the roads I worry about him. I worry about his health. I worry a lot about him dying and how I would go on emotionally. Worry, worry, worry. Does anyone else experience this? How do you move past it? I want to be able to enjoy life and not constantly be anxious about these things I can't control.

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anyone else anxiety imagining partner dying always struggled lately stop intrusive thought resulting fiance think largely little faith relationship way treat care far beyond anything ever expected best friend imagine life without however since got engaged especially shut fear work early morning ice road worry health lot would go emotionally experience move past want able enjoy constantly anxious thing control

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progress is real!!! 8 months ago i was so anxious to meet my online friends, and i was a MESS PERIOD. i messed up a lot in an anxious sense - didn't really talk to any of them and was awkward and said stupid shit and thought about it for months. like for months and just hated how dumb i was meeting them for the first time. today, i had one of the best days in relaxing and trying to engage more. i've been trying my hardest to step out of my shell and take my meds and calm down. anxiety is tiring, it's hard to live with. but i will try my best to live with it. i feel proud that today actually felt like a really good day. i feel good that i held more than one conversation with people. a lot can change over time. you just gotta hang in there.

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progress real month ago anxious meet online friend mess period messed lot sense really talk awkward said stupid shit thought like hated dumb meeting first time today one best day relaxing trying engage hardest step shell take med calm anxiety tiring hard live try feel proud actually felt good held conversation people change gotta hang

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Intrusive Thoughts Hello, first time poster here. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and Panic disorders in 2016. I feel like I have made great personal progress during that time but now I have new symptoms that I do not know what to do with. Firstly, I've been feeling especially good the last few weeks (Sunshine in Northern Germany, a miracle!) but I've been having WAY more intrusive thoughts (about self-harm, to be concrete). I have always had intrusive thoughts on and off, but it confuses me as to why I'm having so many when I've been feeling pretty well lately. To make matters worse, I am spontaneously SUPER angry at little annoyances, which magnifies the thoughts tenfold and I have to resist the urge to break or hit something (including myself), which stresses me out more and fuels the cycle. I'm only finding resources for OCD, which I don't have. Does anyone have any tips on how to lessen this raging, destructive feeling? Or link to resources for those that don't have OCD? Any help would be appreciated

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intrusive thought hello first time poster diagnosed generalized anxiety panic disorder feel like made great personal progress new symptom know firstly feeling especially good last week sunshine northern germany miracle way self harm concrete always confuses many pretty well lately make matter worse spontaneously super angry little annoyance magnifies tenfold resist urge break hit something including stress fuel cycle finding resource ocd anyone tip lessen raging destructive link help would appreciated

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I suck at being employed. This is just a rant. I have always had trouble attending school and work regularly. I got in trouble for truancy in high school for always skipping. I skated through my first associates degree by showing up the bare minimum amount. I'm a former preschool teacher. Sounds like an odd job for someone with anxiety, right? Well, I loved it until I worked at a terrible school with awful management. I don't normally get anxious around kids, but I found myself calling out at least once a week and asking to go down to part-time until I finally quit after a year and a half. I was unemployed for 6 months after that. Luckily, my mom has her own business and I worked for her making about $1,000 a month from home which was just enough to get me by since all the bills I have are rent and internet. However I was really secluded and it just wasn't good for my mental health. I landed a dream job (what I thought was a dream job) back in September with the local school district making $16 hourly. This was a huge step up from the $11.50 I was making at the preschool. While I loved my co-workers, I only liked about two of the kids I worked with. I had no idea I would be working with elementary kids with behavior issues and honestly most of them were just straight assholes. I resigned after 4 months and decided just to be a substitute. That didn't work out very well because I would get horrible anxiety accepting a job because I never had any idea what the day would be like. Now, I started a job at a new school, same district, last week. I'm working with older kids with learning disabilities, and most of them are good kids and they seem to really like me. SO WHY AM I CALLING OUT AND GETTING SUCH HORRIBLE ANXIETY EVERY MORNING?! ugh. I feel terrible texting the lead teacher and telling her "I'm sick" twice on the 2nd week when that's not entirely true. They've probably been talking shit about me and I feel like I'm going to go in tomorrow and they are going to be mad at me. I'm not sure if I just need to switch career fields for awhile or just get help with my anxiety. I've always gotten great performance reviews, I've been told I'm really good at what I do, and I'm really qualified. I don't want to believe my type of job is the problem because I'm not qualified for anything else. I've never been to therapy nor have I tried medication. I don't know what to do at this point and I'm falling into depression. TLDR; I suck at being employed and call out often in every job/school program I've been in because of my anxiety. I feel like my co-workers talk shit about me and are mad at me. I've never been to therapy or taken medication and I'm not sure what to do anymore because I'm becoming really depressed.

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suck employed rant always trouble attending school work regularly got truancy high skipping skated first associate degree showing bare minimum amount former preschool teacher sound like odd job someone anxiety right well loved worked terrible awful management normally get anxious around kid found calling least week asking go part time finally quit year half unemployed month luckily mom business making home enough since bill rent internet however really secluded good mental health landed dream thought back september local district hourly huge step co worker liked two idea would working elementary behavior issue honestly straight asshole resigned decided substitute horrible accepting never day started new last older learning disability seem getting every morning ugh feel texting lead telling sick twice nd entirely true probably talking shit going tomorrow mad sure need switch career field awhile help gotten great performance review told qualified want believe type problem anything else therapy tried medication know point falling depression tldr call often program talk taken anymore becoming depressed

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I generally like to finish the stuff I do that I consider to be work related but some things like video games, series or anything like that I don’t want to end. I am scared of finishing them since I know going back to it won’t be the same. After I finish them everything about it just feels so empty, like it has no value anymore. Knowing I can never experience it the same way again makes me not want it to end. I go from loving it and then afterwards never wanting anything to do with it anymore.

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generally like finish stuff consider work related thing video game series anything want end scared finishing since know going back everything feel empty value anymore knowing never experience way make go loving afterwards wanting

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Anxious About The Doomsday Clock I’ve barely known about this thing, I don’t know if it’s legit or not and i’m starting to panic. What is it? Is it reliable and should I be worried?

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anxious doomsday clock barely known thing know legit starting panic reliable worried

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Can I get some advice on physical anxiety problems? So Basically I really struggled with anxiety for a while. I eventually got over most of the mental stuff but the physical problems are still here. My gut always feels shitty, I feel cold and shake a lot. I also notice my face is really tense. This stuff happens constantly even though I am not feeling anxious mentally. Does anyone have advice or something I can do to help this?

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get advice physical anxiety problem basically really struggled eventually got mental stuff still gut always feel shitty cold shake lot also notice face tense happens constantly even though feeling anxious mentally anyone something help

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Looking for support My anxiety has been peaking the past few days. I'm looking for someone to help me focus. I play xbox to try to help so if anyone what's to play sometime please let me know

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looking support anxiety peaking past day someone help focus play xbox try anyone sometime please let know

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i don't know how to deal with it I have a huge anxiety about eating in front of opposite sex. I can kinda handle it when it's about a friend but if it goes to eating in front of someone who I'm attracted to, it only gets worse. When I had a boyfriend, for the first few meetings (long distance relationship, seeing each other every 3 weeks) when we were eating out, he was ordering something and I was just looking at him pretending I'm not hungry. I was feeling more anxiety than hunger. Once we even did something like "hey I'll go to the toilet and you can finish my meal if you're hungry". Maybe it sounds stupid. I wanted but I coudn't. One time I decided to try to fight and we finally started eating together but an unfortunate comment from him about how I am eating and I stopped having meals with him again. I don't know why I am so sensitive about it. How do I deal with it? What do I do when I'll find another love? I don't want to tell "I'm sorry but I'm scared of eating with you" to another person ever again.

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know deal huge anxiety eating front opposite sex kinda handle friend go someone attracted get worse boyfriend first meeting long distance relationship seeing every week ordering something looking pretending hungry feeling hunger even like hey toilet finish meal maybe sound stupid wanted coudn one time decided try fight finally started together unfortunate comment stopped sensitive find another love want tell sorry scared person ever

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Driving while anxious I had to quit my job over not being able to do this. Does anybody have any tips? I used to be a great driver and I love cars and all, but now I can't make the drives I used to without my throat closing up.

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driving anxious quit job able anybody tip used great driver love car make drive without throat closing

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keep getting woken up by anxiety Lately my anxiety has gotten out of control. I've been woken up for around a week now, everyday, by anxiety. My brain will replay a memory that makes me really anxious and it won't stop until I open my eyes. And then when I do, I feel really bad anxiety and my brain keeps pushing that memory on me over and over throughout the day. It makes me just feel absolutely awful the entire day. I can deal with it during the day but waking up to it every morning is torture. Anyone have any suggestions for getting me out of this vicious cycle? Is there something I can do before bed or during the day to stop this?

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keep getting woken anxiety lately gotten control around week everyday brain replay memory make really anxious stop open eye feel bad pushing throughout day absolutely awful entire deal waking every morning torture anyone suggestion vicious cycle something bed

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Sertraline/zoloft withdrawals? I started sertraline for anxiety just over a year ago and have been on 100mg for at least a few months now, and I basically left it too late to renew my prescription in time and have had to miss my dose this morning. It's now the evening and I'm on the verge of a full panic attack (which I don't get too frequently, normally just when something has triggered my dissociative issues and I'm not aware of any trigger this time) and in particular quite intense physical symptoms, and I'm just wondering whether it's possible to have withdrawal effects after just one day? It might be worth mentioning I had quite a bad reaction to it the first week or two I started it pushing me into a very deep depression, but it seemed to even out and my psych thought it wasn't too much of an issue. Is it more likely that I'm just overthinking/hyperaware of what I'm feeling at the moment? Any thoughts would be very much appreciated!

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sertraline zoloft withdrawal started anxiety year ago mg least month basically left late renew prescription time miss dose morning evening verge full panic attack get frequently normally something triggered dissociative issue aware trigger particular quite intense physical symptom wondering whether possible effect one day might worth mentioning bad reaction first week two pushing deep depression seemed even psych thought much likely overthinking hyperaware feeling moment would appreciated

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I missed my mid-semester review So I stayed up the whole night before my review in college, I worked on my assignments but by the time I hit morning, I felt like it isn't enough and if I go it's gonna be absolutely humiliating and a bunch of other stuff. So I actually didn't go, I was too scared, and my teachers were livid and aren't ready to talk, and I don't even know how ask for help or feedback on my assignments. The only thing they've said is for me to write an email stating why I wasn't here, and I don't know what to write in that, I can't lie about being sick because I called one of my teachers and told him I was doubtful of my work and he just said he doesn't care and my attendance was important. My brain is exploding and I need suggestions.

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missed mid semester review stayed whole night college worked assignment time hit morning felt like enough go gonna absolutely humiliating bunch stuff actually scared teacher livid ready talk even know ask help feedback thing said write email stating lie sick called one told doubtful work care attendance important brain exploding need suggestion

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New here, not sure if I belong but i'll talk a bit anyways Hello, I'm new here. I don't have an anxiety disorder but I do get anxiety from pretty much everything. I mostly post to r/depression when I feel bad. Today I'm staying home from school because I feel depressed and I don't want to leave my room. I realized today I missed a quiz last week and I'm freaking out about the consequences that will ensue. It was only worth 10 points but what if that ends up costing my grade? On top of that I had applied to an internship and had an interview that went really well, but I haven't heard back from them and it's been a week. I've been worrying all week about it and now I'm getting the feeling I probably didn't get it. That was pretty much my dream internship too, dream ruined. I feel like my parents will be disappointed in my knowing how bad I'm doing right now and especially if I don't get the internship. Another issue I have is my roommates, while they are all my friends they give me so much anxiety, even if they just walk upstairs a little too loud I get a terrible feeling inside. I have pretty much come to hate everything and wish I could just not exist so i don't have to feel this way.

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new sure belong talk bit anyways hello anxiety disorder get pretty much everything mostly post depression feel bad today staying home school depressed want leave room realized missed quiz last week freaking consequence ensue worth point end costing grade top applied internship interview went really well heard back worrying getting feeling probably dream ruined like parent disappointed knowing right especially another issue roommate friend give even walk upstairs little loud terrible inside come hate wish could exist way

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Anyone else experience patterns? I’m about to go for a driving lesson. And I’m super nervous- because this is my second lesson, and my first one went well. I’m sort of convinced (and I know this is irrational) that this lesson will go horribly because the last one went well. Because I think the universe needs to balance out the good and bad that happens to me. So everything good that happens to me, I’m convinced something terrible is around the corner because the universe sent it. Ugh I’m so scared right now. Does anyone else experience this? And did anyone figure out how to convince yourself that there is no pattern?

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anyone else experience pattern go driving lesson super nervous second first one went well sort convinced know irrational horribly last think universe need balance good bad happens everything something terrible around corner sent ugh scared right figure convince

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Is it possible to ever “recover” from anxiety permanently? As stated in title! Follow-up questions to explain why I asked this: 1. How do you know if your “anxiety” is really anxiety, and not just a normal human response? (e.g. like how most people would be nervous to give a presentation in class) 2. How do you know if you truly have anxiety, or just react very badly to certain situations that cause stress? (like giving presentations). I get that you can be diagnosed by a professional, but what if you happen to see a professional for a one-time situation? 3. Hence, the big question, can anxiety ever be truly “cured” or will we just have to learn to cope with it? Right now for me it’s kind of like a “lifestyle”, if that makes sense. To summarise that it goes like this for me: example: 1. I have to give a presentation in two weeks 2. I spend the two weeks panicking and in agony 3. I waste too much time panicking and don’t prepare well 4. I start panicking over my unpreparedness 5. I feel like death by the day of the presentation 6. Once it’s over I just feel so drained and I want to sleep and never wake up again. And then usually things go alright until the next time I have to stress over something :p The thing is, I’ve seen a psychologist on a few occasions (cos of the things I stress over) and I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety. But when I have nothing to stress over, I feel fine most of the time. Hence I was wondering if I “recover” in between stressful situations, but then “relapse”. At the same time though, the “recover/relapse” cycle doesn’t feel like it’s really anxiety... like don’t normal people live that way too? (Question 1) Everyone gets stressed over certain things right? Sorry for the lengthy post. I hope to hear from all of you about this :)

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possible ever recover anxiety permanently stated title follow question explain asked know really normal human response like people would nervous give presentation class truly react badly certain situation cause stress giving get diagnosed professional happen see one time hence big cured learn cope right kind lifestyle make sense summarise go example two week spend panicking agony waste much prepare well start unpreparedness feel death day drained want sleep never wake usually thing alright next something seen psychologist occasion co nothing fine wondering stressful relapse though cycle live way everyone stressed sorry lengthy post hope hear

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Health Anxiety / Phobias I'm new here. I've suffered with anxiety for as long as I can remember, but it took an existential crisis for me to seek treatment about 10 years ago. I've been medicated ever since. The meds definitely help me feel more "normal", but I'm never 100% without anxiety. It's still always there. I have some chronic health problems, and after suffering for years (see a pattern here?) I have finally gotten up the nerve to try to figure out what is wrong. For years I've told myself my symptoms are just anxiety related (IBS, body pain, fatigue, extreme migraines, etc.) It has now gotten to the point where I'm sick more often than not, I'm missing a lot of work and I'm not able to be a good mother or wife. I'm spending most of my time in the fetal position in bed. I'm losing weight without trying. I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality. The problem is, I am really freaked out by doctors and all the associated medical tests/procedures. I have a GP who handles my anxiety meds, and I see her regularly, but I am awful at getting tests done and awful at seeing specialists .... even though I know logically that I need to go do these things to find out what is wrong with me so I can get better. In a moment of bravery, I made myself appointments with all of the specialists I've been told to see over the years... gastroenterologist, neurologist, rheumatologist, dentist and oral surgeon. I've gone to a couple of the appts and of course all of them want me to get tests done or bloodwork done. I feel paralyzed when I think about getting those things done. For example, I have orders for bloodwork. I just have to walk into the lab and let them draw blood.... super easy and no big deal. I have driven myself there 5 times in the last week and been unable to force myself to walk through the door to get it done. I break out in a sweat, panic, and get back in the car and leave. Then I spend the rest of the day hating myself for it. Feeling like an idiot because I didn't get it done. My GI doctor also ordered an ultrasound, which I forced myself to do (I've had two kids and knew US were easy, so this didn't freak me out as much). However, she called me back to tell me that my US results are abnormal and that they might need to do a biopsy... so of course now I am absolutely freaking out. Does anyone else have this problem? I feel paralyzed and terrified over the simplest things and hate myself for it. I need to stop being such a coward and get this stuff done so I can figure out why I am so sick and try to fix it.

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health anxiety phobia new suffered long remember took existential crisis seek treatment year ago medicated ever since med definitely help feel normal never without still always chronic problem suffering see pattern finally gotten nerve try figure wrong told symptom related ibs body pain fatigue extreme migraine etc point sick often missing lot work able good mother wife spending time fetal position bed losing weight trying like grip reality really freaked doctor associated medical test procedure gp handle regularly awful getting done seeing specialist even though know logically need go thing find get better moment bravery made appointment gastroenterologist neurologist rheumatologist dentist oral surgeon gone couple appts course want bloodwork paralyzed think example order walk lab let draw blood super easy big deal driven last week unable force door break sweat panic back car leave spend rest day hating feeling idiot gi also ordered ultrasound forced two kid knew u freak much however called tell result abnormal might biopsy absolutely freaking anyone else terrified simplest hate stop coward stuff fix

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Why is it so hard to have a social life? I feel like it's so hard for me to have a social life. Due to my anxiety it's really hard for me to make new friends and connect with people. On top of that my family puts a lot of emphasis on having a social life with friends so it's difficult for me to do actives with my own family. I feel so alone. For example I've never been to a spa, So I asked my mom if she would want to go for mother's day as a treat. She said no and if I wanted to go I should ask a friend. I have asked my friends multiple times but they've never seem interested. I know this sounds like such a privileged problem, like I am complaining that no one wants to go to the stupid spa with me. It's just that these type of situations happen all the time, whether it's going for coffee or a movie I always get rejected! I'm so annoyed that it's this difficult for me to do what I want! I feel like I have to pull peoples teeth just for them to hang out with me. So I spend a lot of time alone because I'm so tired of getting rejected. ( sorry for my terrible english) ​ Okay I'm done venting, thanks to anyone who's reading this :)

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hard social life feel like due anxiety really make new friend connect people top family put lot emphasis difficult active alone example never spa asked mom would want go mother day treat said wanted ask multiple time seem interested know sound privileged problem complaining one stupid type situation happen whether going coffee movie always get rejected annoyed pull teeth hang spend tired getting sorry terrible english okay done venting thanks anyone reading

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I went out to a restaurant by myself and I had fun. For context, I'm a 22 year old female who lives in a college town. I have anxiety that has worsened over the past year and I have isolated myself in my bedroom during the times that I am not at school or at work. I live with a roommate but she has severe depression and often doesn't talk to me/isolates due to her own anxiety, which I understand. I also have a boyfriend but he is on the other side of the world right now, so I don't go out very often. I have started doing a lot of things on my own — going to the movie theatre on my own, going to coffee shops and burger joints on my own. However, tonight, I really wanted some sushi, and didn't want to eat in front of my tv. So, I put on a nice outfit, and took myself out on a date. The waitress looked puzzled when she saw just myself enter and asked if there was anything she could help me with — so I politely asked for a table for one. I was seated at a rather large table, actually, but it wasn't too bad. The tables beside me must have thought I got stood up but was being a good sport about it — and, honestly? I'm fine with that. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, and it felt really good to leave my house and come home feeling wined and dined all by myself. The staff was more than excellent so I left a hefty tip, and I'm grateful to them for making my venture outside of my comfort zone a little less intimidating. Take that, anxiety!

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went restaurant fun context year old female life college town anxiety worsened past isolated bedroom time school work live roommate severe depression often talk isolates due understand also boyfriend side world right go started lot thing going movie theatre coffee shop burger joint however tonight really wanted sushi want eat front tv put nice outfit took date waitress looked puzzled saw enter asked anything could help politely table one seated rather large actually bad beside must thought got stood good sport honestly fine thoroughly enjoyed felt leave house come home feeling wined dined staff excellent left hefty tip grateful making venture outside comfort zone little le intimidating take

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I got hired at my dream job today and have to quit my current job I’ve been at for a year and I’m so so anxious. Any advice will help!! I have to call and quit on the phone because I am a consultant and don’t work in an office with my boss. Please help!! I’m freaking out!

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got hired dream job today quit current year anxious advice help call phone consultant work office bos please freaking

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Been brave and got help TW: Self harm Hello it’s my first time posting gear! I have been brave and instead of cutting myself during a overwhelming anxiety attack I’ve gone to the walk in centre to get help! Low key proud of myself even though I’m scared.

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brave got help tw self harm hello first time posting gear instead cutting overwhelming anxiety attack gone walk centre get low key proud even though scared

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How Do I Control My Nerves I was playing Werewolf with my friends tonight and I wanted to be the Narrator for a really long time because I love to indulge in my creative side yet I kept trying to compensate for how someone else thinks how the game works and as a result I kept getting interrupted and it was slow, and even worse for the first time ever the surroundings was so noisy and I ended up embarrassing myself so fucking much. I feel like yelling at someone (maybe my friend) because of how much I was fucking embarrassed and having to bend myself to other people. How do I calm myself without resulting to ranting at my friend, because even making this post isn't fully calming my nerves.

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control nerve playing werewolf friend tonight wanted narrator really long time love indulge creative side yet kept trying compensate someone else think game work result getting interrupted slow even worse first ever surroundings noisy ended embarrassing fucking much feel like yelling maybe embarrassed bend people calm without resulting ranting making post fully calming

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Was this an anxiety attack or something else? So, i deal with anxiety on a general basis, and I'm planning to get myself treated and find out if i have an actual disorder, but over a year ago, and again today, i had a really weird happen to me that could be described as a panic attack, but also has similarities to Pseudobulbar Affect. When, for some reason, my anxiety gets really bad, i sometimes start hysterically laughing, it happened for the first time in late 2017, when getting dizzy triggered some really high anxiety, mostly because i thought i was having a stroke, and i started laughing and crying at the same time, while being terrified for my well-being, and I've had some minor incidents that i could more or less control, including today, when reading an isntagram story where a guy i follow complained about having a panic attack gave me an anxious reaction. For a while i couldn't help myself from laughing, my breathing was weird and I felt kind of shitty, but i managed to control it and calm down. Even then, every now and then for a few minutes i would let out a single laugh and my breathing was still a bit unstable. What do you guys think? Is the whole crying-laughing thing normal in panic attack or could it be a sign of PBA?

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anxiety attack something else deal general basis planning get treated find actual disorder year ago today really weird happen could described panic also similarity pseudobulbar affect reason bad sometimes start hysterically laughing happened first time late getting dizzy triggered high mostly thought stroke started cry terrified well minor incident le control including reading isntagram story guy follow complained gave anxious reaction help breathing felt kind shitty managed calm even every minute would let single laugh still bit unstable think whole thing normal sign pba

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I'm not sure how to help myself anymore. I been having a lot of anxiety attacks recently. Everything was doing well. I had slowly returned to running and even camping with some friends but soon after that rush it has gone downhill. I have slowly stopped isolating from them again because I get anxious of their approval or me annoying them. I'm close to failing the last class I need for my masters again. I have read the book so many times and I just feel stupid not understanding concepts. A week or two ago I wasn't able to answer an entire homework because I didn't understand anything. I feel stupid, alone and it's close to be my 30th birthday. I really visualized my life in a complete path and I just want to graduate to be able to get a better job but I just seem to do this. My therapist keeps canceling my appointments after the first evaluation and I just don't know what else to do. I'm just tired and depressed and I really felt it was changing.

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sure help anymore lot anxiety attack recently everything well slowly returned running even camping friend soon rush gone downhill stopped isolating get anxious approval annoying close failing last class need master read book many time feel stupid understanding concept week two ago able answer entire homework understand anything alone th birthday really visualized life complete path want graduate better job seem therapist keep canceling appointment first evaluation know else tired depressed felt changing

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I stood up for myself! So I was a teacher. had to quit my because the pressure to be perfect was killing me. I have always been extremely afraid of my boss, just my personality type. and it doesn’t help that she can be micromanaging and emotional. I was offered a support staff position and I took it. Unfortunately I’m still at the same school working under the same boss who scares me to death. I have a lot of anxiety just being in this building. So I just try to do my job as best I can and NGAF about anything else :) Today I stood up to her! She confronted me about “coming to work a couple minutes late every day”. Took me a minute to process but I told her I don’t think I have been late at all. I clock in A MINUTE late each day because we always have a line of people waiting. But I am always on time. I’m just so on fire to have defended myself, which is really difficult at work. :-D makes me feel like I’m going to be my old self one day!

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stood teacher quit pressure perfect killing always extremely afraid bos personality type help micromanaging emotional offered support staff position took unfortunately still school working scare death lot anxiety building try job best ngaf anything else today confronted coming work couple minute late every day process told think clock line people waiting time fire defended really difficult make feel like going old self one

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one of my triggers is my dad's voice. He does not yell or express anger violently anymore, however I still get triggered. Idk how to fix this. can anybody help? One of my triggers is my dad. He used to have some anger issues. Now he knows I have anxiety, and is way better at expressing his emotions and won't burst out to me ore my mom anymore. However, I still get triggered whenever i hear his voice get a bit loud or a bit too small. I don't get triggered when I'm talking to him directly, but i get triggered when he's talking to someone else, like my mom, or someone on the phone, or when he's just talking to himself. It usually happens when I'm in my room and he's in the living room, and then I sense his voice being a bit different than usual. Even though I can hear he is not angry nor emotional, he's just talking about a tv show or the weather or the furniture etc, my heart beat will rise and I will start getting anxious. I try to reassure myself that nothing is happening, and there's nothing to be anxious about but of course that never works. I tryed to get rid of my anxiousness by going out of my room and see what's happening. Nothing's ever happening, he would be just talking about normal stuff, he's not angry nor agitated. He's just not using a super duper calm voice. Then I'd bug him a bit, joke a bit to check that everything's fine. and everything is fine. And I would go back to my room. but my anxiety is still fucking there and it takes a looooooooong time for it to go away. For some reason, whenever I'm triggered by my dad, it's one of those anxiety moments which takes a super duper long time for me to recover. Also, I get easily triggered by my dad which makes it worse. it's also a bit weird cuz i wasn't triggered by my dad when he had those anger issues. i guess it made me more rebellious or something so it was easier to brush it off? but now since he got calmer, I get more triggered. I want to stop getting triggered by my dad or at least make those sessions? shorter. My dad's just being a normal person now, and I've already talked to him tons of times about my anxiety and how his actions caused them, and he already feels super guilty and is trying his best to help me. He changed his actions a lot, and I doubt there's nothing more he can do. so I am the only thing that has to change or do something but i don't know what to do

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one trigger dad voice yell express anger violently anymore however still get triggered idk fix anybody help used issue know anxiety way better expressing emotion burst ore mom whenever hear bit loud small talking directly someone else like phone usually happens room living sense different usual even though angry emotional tv show weather furniture etc heart beat rise start getting anxious try reassure nothing happening course never work tryed rid anxiousness going see ever would normal stuff agitated using super duper calm bug joke check everything fine go back fucking take looooooooong time away reason moment long recover also easily make worse weird cuz guess made rebellious something easier brush since got calmer want stop least session shorter person already talked ton action caused feel guilty trying best changed lot doubt thing change

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I'm going to direct a clip for a school project So, as the title says, I'm going to be the director of a clip. I'm the one who got the idea for that clip so I'm directing it and I'm really stressed about it, I have social anxiety and there are a lot of people that are going to be involved into making it. I feel like this is more than I can handle but I probably can't back down so I don't know what to do :/ Sorry for bad grammar

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going direct clip school project title say director one got idea directing really stressed social anxiety lot people involved making feel like handle probably back know sorry bad grammar

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How do I stop giving a shit about things im not even sure about? Sorry its venting as well as advice needed. I work in HR and im really not happy with my job. I used to be a recruiter for a staffing agency and because of the pressure I wanted to find more of an HR generalist job (no sales focus). When I first got my current job I was told that I would need to start with recruiting and I would always be involved with recruiting but I would pick up other responsibilities. Its been almost 2 years and 80% of my job has been all recruiting. Recently my manager, the person who set those expectations left and I am not being managed. Once he left only 2 things came to mind- 1 find a new job or 2 work harder to get a promotion. Ive been looking for a new job and things have not been going well in my search. The CEO of the company and I do not work well together so its not likely that ill be able to get a promotion. While all of this has been happening my VP has been in the loop about me being unhappy. Ive been looking for my managers replacement and ive been starting to think maybe I should ride this out maybe ill learn a lot from the new manager. When I expressed my thoughts to the VP she said “if the new manager thinks you have skills to offer maybe she can have you do other things besides recruiting” the way she said it was not rude or with malicious intent but since she said it ive been super anxious. It makes me think she does not think I have any useful skills. My anxiety is like a wave crashing against a wall going back in forth making me feel pressured and awkward. How do I just not give a shit about these types of situations? Ive always been told to not be hard on myself and take the small win for the day but ive always been a person who thinks about the big picture. At the end of the day I always end up seeing more negative then positive in my life. Please, I could really use some words of wisdoms with everything going on. In my life my friends and family are not people I can rely on anymore. I have never felt this alone and isolated.

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stop giving shit thing im even sure sorry venting well advice needed work hr really happy job used recruiter staffing agency pressure wanted find generalist sale focus first got current told would need start recruiting always involved pick responsibility almost year recently manager person set expectation left managed came mind new harder get promotion ive looking going search ceo company together likely ill able happening vp loop unhappy replacement starting think maybe ride learn lot expressed thought said skill offer besides way rude malicious intent since super anxious make useful anxiety like wave crashing wall back forth making feel pressured awkward give type situation hard take small win day big picture end seeing negative positive life please could use word wisdom everything friend family people rely anymore never felt alone isolated

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Going to see a doctor I’m planning to go see a doctor about my really bad anxiety. I feel like it’s been especially out of control lately. And I’m so scared, because I’m not diagnosed and I haven’t been to a doctor in years. How does a doctor diagnose anxiety?

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going see doctor planning go really bad anxiety feel like especially control lately scared diagnosed year diagnose

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I spent the last 6 months losing sleep at night and trying to find another job to avoid the performance review I had today. I had horrible anxiety about my 9 month performance review. When I found out it was a thing I got scared shitless and started looking for another job off and on to avoid having to face the performance review. I realize that this sounds ridiculous, extremely dramatic, and is counterproductive. However, at the time it made complete sense. I had the performance review today and it lasted all of 15 minutes and was no big deal at all. This has made me realize that I have a really big problem with handling criticism even when its meant to be constructive and I need to take some serious steps to start dealing with this issue. Whether it be medication or therapy, I need to do something about it. The reality of how severe my anxiety actually is has finally hit me. This is embarrassing.

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spent last month losing sleep night trying find another job avoid performance review today horrible anxiety found thing got scared shitless started looking face realize sound ridiculous extremely dramatic counterproductive however time made complete sense lasted minute big deal really problem handling criticism even meant constructive need take serious step start dealing issue whether medication therapy something reality severe actually finally hit embarrassing

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How do I convince parents my problems and struggles are because of my anxiety? They don't fucking get it. I don't go to some things with them because I don't feel comfortable and don't want to deal with questions about my life that I do not enjoy. I do say I'll go to things and then don't go, which I do need to work on. But, I can't predict my anxiety really. It sorta just happens. They always think me not doing things or not going to things are me just "getting my way". God it's so aggravating

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convince parent problem struggle anxiety fucking get go thing feel comfortable want deal question life enjoy say need work predict really sorta happens always think going getting way god aggravating

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Hi, I think that I’m dying. Constant anxiety attacks through out the day. Every single thing i feel in my body makes me question whether it’s some unknown disease or health issue that’s gonna kill me. i get lightheaded and this feeling in my chest. i’m constantly feeling my heart to make sure that it’s pumping and working fine. I hear this ringing in my head (not in my ears but yes in my head). it controls when i’m happy, when i sleep, when I socialize and i’m fucking sick of it running and ruining my life. how do I make this stop. I can’t live like this forever

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hi think dying constant anxiety attack day every single thing feel body make question whether unknown disease health issue gonna kill get lightheaded feeling chest constantly heart sure pumping working fine hear ringing head ear yes control happy sleep socialize fucking sick running ruining life stop live like forever

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What methods are useful for anxiety attacks? I currently have anxiety but it's not as severe as before. But, I still have extreme anxiety attacks at least once a week. I have coping mechanisms but sometimes they do not work. May I please get some suggestions as to how others cope with these attacks?

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method useful anxiety attack currently severe still extreme least week coping mechanism sometimes work may please get suggestion others cope

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Low blood sugar or anxiety? I almost constantly feel the need to eat. When it comes around meal time I tend to almost get shaky irritable and lightheaded. It has grown into a severe anxiety around dinner time. I looked up the symptoms and they seem identical to low blood sugar or anxiety. I test my sugars and they’re typically in the mid 70s prior to meals. Do other people experience this? Could this just be the anxiety tricking me as mid 70s should not be dangerously low.

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low blood sugar anxiety almost constantly feel need eat come around meal time tend get shaky irritable lightheaded grown severe dinner looked symptom seem identical test typically mid prior people experience could tricking dangerously

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Difference. Going to keep this simple. How do you tell the difference between anxiety and some other chest issue? Haven’t really been diagnosed with either but having some major issues right now and trying not to head to the ER if I don’t need to.

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difference going keep simple tell anxiety chest issue really diagnosed either major right trying head er need

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I Think I'm Going to Talk to My Friends Again, However.. .. I feel embarrassed for them being associated with me. All I do is whine and complain about the same shit and I don't want to irritate them, let alone with my problems. I've been in a different school since early November and I still have not made any friends. I don't know what to do. I kind of like being off the grid from everyone, but I feel so tired and drained. I don't know what to do, if anything.

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think going talk friend however feel embarrassed associated whine complain shit want irritate let alone problem different school since early november still made know kind like grid everyone tired drained anything

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I am starting to think people in my class hate me I have anxiety and autism and don't really have that much friends in class. I guess some people in my class as I get really poor grades and am socially awkward. Anyway, I now have this course where we have to do presentation as assignments. My grades for my previous courses tend to be very bad, yet for some reason I find this course easy. Sometimes when I hear someone say something which I interpret as common sense and yet they don't seem to get it, I will find it funny. I know laughing is rude so I try to hide it but I am scared they can tell I want to giggle at what they presented. I will also sometimes grimace if they say something I don't think makes sense or nod if I agree with what they said or the prof pointing out the things their presentations can work on. I don't know if this comes across as condescending. Anyway, I tried to stop doing this. I am starting to get the impression they are starting to dislike me. They do not congradulate me when I do well in my presentations. Some of them do laugh out loud when the profs point out the errors in my presentations but it may have to do with how I react when that happens (I tend to laugh at my own errors). I am now anxious about the fact that people in my class secretly hate me now. I guess I've always had no friends in class and I don't know if I am overthinking these. Some of them want to pick a certain elective course which is competitive and some even explicitly asked me if I would consider picking certain elective courses instead (which they did not pick). Tl;dr: I don't know if it is rude for me to try not to laugh when someone people say things which aren't logically in their presentations and whether it is condescending for me to naturally nod when I agree with that they've said (or when the prof tells them how their presentations can be improved) and grimace when I don't. I am now starting to notice they seem to dislike me.

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starting think people class hate anxiety autism really much friend guess get poor grade socially awkward anyway course presentation assignment previous tend bad yet reason find easy sometimes hear someone say something interpret common sense seem funny know laughing rude try hide scared tell want giggle presented also grimace make nod agree said prof pointing thing work come across condescending tried stop impression dislike congradulate well laugh loud point error may react happens anxious fact secretly always overthinking pick certain elective competitive even explicitly asked would consider picking instead tl dr logically whether naturally improved notice

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Anxiety? Is throbbing pulse on my head also a part of anxiety? It usually happens when I try to sleep and + sweating. And I feel like I lost my drowsiness, I usually feel sleepy and start battling my eyes during long or boring classes but now I haven't felt being sleepy. I do yawn but that's it, my eyes don't feel sleepy. Even with 0 sleep I can't feel sleepy but I want to.

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anxiety throbbing pulse head also part usually happens try sleep sweating feel like lost drowsiness sleepy start battling eye long boring class felt yawn even want

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Advice on propranolol Hi guys I'm on 40mg of propranolol 3 times daily and completely forgot to take them to my parents with me. However my dad is on 10mg tablets, but they're a different colour would I be safe to just take 4 of those?

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advice propranolol hi guy mg time daily completely forgot take parent however dad tablet different colour would safe

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29 years old, no friends, no girlfriend, virgin, hermit. Anxiety and depression has ruined and is ruining my life. Please don't become me. I am 29 years old, turning 30 soon. I have never had a girlfriend, I am a virgin, I have no friends, I come home to an empty apartment every night. All throughout middle school, high school, and college, all I did was sit at home on the computer and play guitar. Barely ever went out with friends, never went to any social gatherings, never went to any school dances, etc. Fast forward to now, at 29 almost 30, I am left with what I described above. I have a job that I hate, that turned out was a bait and switch. I went in thinking I would be doing one thing, and it's completely something else, but because the pay and benefits are good, and I can't find anything else, I am stuck here even though I am miserable. My team doesn't talk to each other, everyone ignores you if you ask for any type of help, manager is never around. I get a sense of dread every single day I go to work, and I come home pissed every day. I only moved out of my parents house last year. For almost the past year I have been living in a 1 bedroom apartment by myself, and to be honest I hate it. I hate sitting around by myself. I have even thought about moving back to the parents. Little things about the place make it shittier and cause me more anxiety, such as the parking situation, etc. I am so behind the curve that I don't even think there is any hope for me. At this stage, who would even want to date me? Once someone would find out my history, it would be huge red flags. I have become so used to sitting alone by myself, that I have no clue what to do even if I want to do something. I have no interest in sitting in bars or going to clubs. All I want to do is sit around and practice guitar and piano. My idea of a good time is sitting with someone playing video games, or watching netflix/youtube and discussing what we are watching, etc. I always had an interest in producing music, but I feel like I can't focus on those things because they are isolated activities and I have this large looming cloud over me telling me I better get moving because I have no friends and girlfriend. I have been saving up for a downpayment on a house, and I'm pretty much there, but now I don't even know why I want that. A house is for a family, why the hell would I want a 3 bedroom house all to myself? Maintenance costs would be through the roof. Why would I want a house if I'm not with anyone. I honestly don't know what I want anymore. Every single day is the exact same, go to the job I f'n despise, and then come home to an empty apartment and sit around. It's even worse in these months because it is so bitterly cold outside that there is no point in doing anything else. I honestly don't see a future for myself. I feel I am at the stage where I am beyond help. I don't see myself ever being with anyone, and I will just become someone who's office job is all they have. I already know my family is disappointed. My mom actually sat me down a couple months ago and told me she was extremely worried about me because of the no girlfriend/friends thing. My sister constantly yells at me that I am destroying my life, but her lectures just stress me out even more. My entire life my family has done what I call "cheap shots" at me. Little mental abuse situations. Example: I don't see the ketchup sitting on the table and go to the fridge, not seeing the ketchup i ask "oh, we're out of ketchup?" to which my mom will reply "It's sitting here on the table, what the hell are you, fucking blind?" Little shit like that, adds up over the years. I honestly don't think I will make it to 40 years old. I have had multiple online dating profiles for the last 8 years. I have not once had any luck. I try to make my profile as interesting as possible, soliciting feedback from people. I have not once received a reply from anyone that I message. I have even paid for these services. It has been the biggest waste of time and money. Another thing that causes me lots of anxiety is my teeth. Cavity after cavity no matter how much I brush and floss. All the teeth in my mouth have fillings, some more than one. I even have 2 crowns. I am pretty certain I will lose all my teeth when I am older. I have been told that I might need braces. All that does is further drive me into deeper depression. I can't mentally handle possibly having braces at this age. Would make me even worse than I am in terms of looks and dating. I have a "friend" whom I text with a lot and he told me that he doesn't ever see me with anyone unless 1. they were a gold digger, or 2. it was a single mom with kids. Do you know how terrible that feels? I constantly overthink everything. Thinking about my hopeless future gives me terrible anxiety. I have a feeling of dread every morning going to work, which I think are mini anxiety attacks. I posted in another subreddit about finally going to a therapist but I felt like he felt that my problems weren't real. Saying things like "It sounds like sitting on the computer has gotten you nowhere. Have you thought about doing outside activities or joining groups?" GEEE!!! SUCH CLARITY NOW!!! The funny thing is, is that when I'm alone on the computer I actually feel comfortable. But deep inside I have this voice telling me that things aren't OK. Don't become me. EDIT: Thanks for the responses. A lot of people here say I have independence going for me but I forgot to mention that I pretty much don't. After work I go to my parents house for dinner every night because I can't cook and that would require me to eat out every night. On the weekends I sit at my parents all day because I have nothing else to do. So my apartment is pretty much just a shack for me to sleep in until I have to go to work the next day.

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year old friend girlfriend virgin hermit anxiety depression ruined ruining life please become turning soon never come home empty apartment every night throughout middle school high college sit computer play guitar barely ever went social gathering dance etc fast forward almost left described job hate turned bait switch thinking would one thing completely something else pay benefit good find anything stuck even though miserable team talk everyone ignores ask type help manager around get sense dread single day go work pissed moved parent house last past living bedroom honest sitting thought moving back little place make shittier cause parking situation behind curve think hope stage want date someone history huge red flag used alone clue interest bar going club practice piano idea time playing video game watching netflix youtube discussing always producing music feel like focus isolated activity large looming cloud telling better saving downpayment pretty much know family hell maintenance cost roof anyone honestly anymore exact despise worse month bitterly cold outside point see future beyond office already disappointed mom actually sat couple ago told extremely worried sister constantly yell destroying lecture stress entire done call cheap shot mental abuse example ketchup table fridge seeing oh reply fucking blind shit add multiple online dating profile luck try interesting possible soliciting feedback people received message paid service biggest waste money another lot teeth cavity matter brush floss mouth filling crown certain lose older might need brace drive deeper mentally handle possibly age term look text unless gold digger kid terrible overthink everything hopeless give feeling morning mini attack posted subreddit finally therapist felt problem real saying sound gotten nowhere joining group geee clarity funny comfortable deep inside voice ok edit thanks response say independence forgot mention dinner cook require eat weekend nothing shack sleep next

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I have a strange and horrible form of anxiety I feel Anxiety in my nose/sinuses. It’s like the nerves in my sinuses are going haywire and causing waves of panic and dread. Does that make sense to anyone? I know it sounds weird. I also feel very uneasy in the back of my head, and sometimes that unease moves to the base of my back. It’s terrible and it can be constant for days. It makes be unable to cope. If I do break down and take a clonazapham (which i despise taking due to their addictive nature) it all goes away and I have near 100% relief. Unfortunately this is not a long term solution. I feel like there must be something physically wrong with me to be having these bizarre symptoms. It’s impacting my ability to go to work and it’s making every day pure hell.

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strange horrible form anxiety feel nose sinus like nerve going haywire causing wave panic dread make sense anyone know sound weird also uneasy back head sometimes unease move base terrible constant day unable cope break take clonazapham despise taking due addictive nature go away near relief unfortunately long term solution must something physically wrong bizarre symptom impacting ability work making every pure hell

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He proposed. . . This is really long but my soon to be hubby has reddit so please understand the vagueness is for anonymity. Yes I know this should be nothing but fantastic news for me (27F) and my fiance (27M). We have been together for over 6 years and lived together since we were 20. However... since he proposed a month ago, I am feeling like he is less into me now than ever before. Our sex life has slowed, his attentiveness, and quite frankly all the things that made me say yes to his proposal have kind of stopped. He has had more patience and understanding when it comes to my anxiety issues in the past than anyone else in my life but lately..its out the door. For example I brought up our sex life yesterday... it'd been about a week (normally we avg around 3-4 times a week so no sex at all had been really strange to me) and I tried to bring it up playfully, saying he must be getting some action on the side if he wasnt missing sleeping with me yet... he snapped. Like red face totally pissed at me SNAPPED and said accusing him of sleeping with someone else is damn near abusive behavior. I dont know if it was his tone of voice or what but I basically lost it. Started getting super emotional and bringing up irrelevant shit to the now heated argument. 1) you never text me now that were engaged (seriously no texts at all for 4 days and counting) 2) we havent gone on a date or done anything together since he proposed other than he comes over after work and sleeps in the same bed as me 3) I brought up sex again 4) And fucked it all with well if youre not doing anything wrong...lemme go through your phone. Obviously I was reacting poorly but what I didnt expect was for him to say fuck it I dont need this Ill just return your ring if youre going to act like this - grow the fuck up and realize relationships arent everything you want all the time. And I know hes right but I still feel like we need to talk about what I am feeling and why I feel that way or I am going to end up being that girl who is paranoid and screwed up about trusting him all the damn time Basically, I need advice on how to reapproach my concerns without it escalating. And I need advice on whether or not its common for men to...Idk exclude themselves for a little bit after becoming engaged?

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proposed really long soon hubby reddit please understand vagueness anonymity yes know nothing fantastic news fiance together year lived since however month ago feeling like le ever sex life slowed attentiveness quite frankly thing made say proposal kind stopped patience understanding come anxiety issue past anyone else lately door example brought yesterday week normally avg around time strange tried bring playfully saying must getting action side wasnt missing sleeping yet snapped red face totally pissed said accusing someone damn near abusive behavior dont tone voice basically lost started super emotional bringing irrelevant shit heated argument never text engaged seriously day counting havent gone date done anything work sleep bed fucked well youre wrong lemme go phone obviously reacting poorly didnt expect fuck need ill return ring going act grow realize relationship arent everything want he right still feel talk way end girl paranoid screwed trusting advice reapproach concern without escalating whether common men idk exclude little bit becoming

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Questions for other people with anxiety I have been dealing with anxiety for the past 5-6 years of my life. I am 20 years old and started to notice it when I was 14 or 15, about my freshman year of high school. Before that I don’t remember having any major troubles with it. Whenever I’m in a good place in my life I seem to not have any worst case scenario thoughts or general anxiety, but when I’m in a bad place it seems to overtake me. Recently I had a kidney infection and before I was diagnosed I thought I had a life threatening disease and since I’ve been cured I’ve still been worried every day that something is wrong with me physically. I have never had this before until the past couple of months. Do any of you deal with this or have ways to cope with it? I also have found myself making excuses to skip my classes, or not to work out, knowing that it is not the right decision. Do you guys have tips on how to help be more motivated or be a more reliable person when also dealing with your anxiety? I’m sorry if these questions have been answered on this sub before, I just found it today and did not have time to browse through all the post looking for an answer. Thank you for any help given!

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question people anxiety dealing past year life old started notice freshman high school remember major trouble whenever good place seem worst case scenario thought general bad seems overtake recently kidney infection diagnosed threatening disease since cured still worried every day something wrong physically never couple month deal way cope also found making excuse skip class work knowing right decision guy tip help motivated reliable person sorry answered sub today time browse post looking answer thank given

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Anyone want to share their bedtime routine? Anxiety me hits hard when I lay down and try to sleep. I've tried so many things over the years, things help for awhile, then I find I need to readjust the routine. So what do you do to help keep the anxiety at bay while you try to get the much needed sleep us anxiety sufferers so desperately need?

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anyone want share bedtime routine anxiety hit hard lay try sleep tried many thing year help awhile find need readjust keep bay get much needed u sufferer desperately

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Upping anti-Anxiety medication side effects So I recently saw my doctor and he upped the dosage on my anti-anxiety medication. I was on the same dose for about 4 years, and now he's doubled it (10mg to 20mg - not too huge). After a few days I noticed my anxiety almost getting worse? For no particular reason just a feeling of dread (normally my anxiety is situational). I'm just wondering if other people have experienced heightened anxiety after changing medication dosage. I'm thinking it's either self inflicted (worrying I'm gonna feel worse so i DO feel worse), or just my body adjusting and it should even out. Any feedback/advise is greatly appreciated.

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upping anti anxiety medication side effect recently saw doctor upped dosage dose year doubled mg huge day noticed almost getting worse particular reason feeling dread normally situational wondering people experienced heightened changing thinking either self inflicted worrying gonna feel body adjusting even feedback advise greatly appreciated

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Extreme frustration while using fine motor skills? Not sure if this is the right sub, but I'm having a hard time googling exactly what I mean. Does anyone else have issues where they get extremely frustrated and physically cannot continuing things that require moderately high accuracy movement? Tasks like threading a needle, piecing together two small components, or even something larger like clicking exact points with a mouse. Sometimes when I try to do things like this my brain and entire body just feels absolutely terrible and I get in an awful mood and can't continue. The threshold for this kind of response varies depending on the day and recently it's been super low. The past two days I had to stop working on school assignments because I was getting super frustrated just by creating flowcharts and stuff in PowerPoint. This really sucks because I feel like I can't do super simple tasks - I'm like a little kid who throws a fit because he can't get his Legos to fit together haha. Does anyone have a similar experience? Does it probably just have to do with stress and anxiety, or might it be something else? Thanks.

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extreme frustration using fine motor skill sure right sub hard time googling exactly mean anyone else issue get extremely frustrated physically cannot continuing thing require moderately high accuracy movement task like threading needle piecing together two small component even something larger clicking exact point mouse sometimes try brain entire body feel absolutely terrible awful mood continue threshold kind response varies depending day recently super low past stop working school assignment getting creating flowchart stuff powerpoint really suck simple little kid throw fit lego haha similar experience probably stress anxiety might thanks

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Lexapro & Alcohol Wondering what other experiences with mixing Lexapro and alcohol. Since I’ve been on Lexapro, drinking feels better than ever. The effects feel more like a high, are more amplified, and I don’t get nauseous like I used to. Basically, it seems like all of the positives are boosted, and all of the negatives of alcohol are minimized. Anyone else have a similar experience? Not trying to become an alcoholic, but damn is drinking more enjoyable now....

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lexapro alcohol wondering experience mixing since drinking feel better ever effect like high amplified get nauseous used basically seems positive boosted negative minimized anyone else similar trying become alcoholic damn enjoyable

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Anxiety with work and possible leave of absence Hello friends. I'm running out of ground as I race towards a wall at 80 miles per hour. My anxiety is getting the better of me, and I need to get it under control. I am posting here in hopes of finding support and a virtual hug to help alleviate some of this pain. Since January of last year, I was moved into an accounting function within my company. I went from a low-stress work situation to one that I discovered to be high stress and high volume. Not only that, but the work I was doing in accounting was and has been incredibly complex and layered with bureaucracy. To add to this, my manager has been difficult to work with, which adds to the stress. He has the highest turnover of any one manager in accounting, and i wish I had known that before taking this job (there is a story behind how i ended up in his group, but the short of it is that it wasn't my choice). Accounting wasn't a good fit, but it was manageable. At least, in the beginning. I was actively looking for new positions throughout the year, but had nothing bite. Then the anxiety began to get worse. And worse. I didn't practice enough self-care until the stress and anxiety REALLY began affecting my health. The most startling and frightening situation was that I went from having perfectly normal blood pressure, and in a few months, discovering that it was fluctuation all over the place. It was a big concern for my doctor and myself. Luckily I don't have to get on medicine, but I have to get it under control I have been focused on various avenues of self-care (friends, family, meditation, exercise, hobbies, cooking), but since the start of this year, the stress and anxiety with work have seemingly doubled. My biggest concern has been my health, as it's beginning to manifest as chest pains and headaches. For this reason, I am actively searching for a new job (which I'm desperately trying to do), quit and take up a bar job (I can probably find some mental healing in a restaurant for the time being), or take a leave of absence from work and allow myself to heal and figure out a plan of attack for the future. What would you do in my situation? Taking a leave of absence sounds like the ideal path, and before I call my Human Resources department, I wanted to vet any ideas and outcomes I need to be concerned about. Has anyone else here gone on leave? Thanks!

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anxiety work possible leave absence hello friend running ground race towards wall mile per hour getting better need get control posting hope finding support virtual hug help alleviate pain since january last year moved accounting function within company went low stress situation one discovered high volume incredibly complex layered bureaucracy add manager difficult highest turnover wish known taking job story behind ended group short choice good fit manageable least beginning actively looking new position throughout nothing bite began worse practice enough self care really affecting health startling frightening perfectly normal blood pressure month discovering fluctuation place big concern doctor luckily medicine focused various avenue family meditation exercise hobby cooking start seemingly doubled biggest manifest chest headache reason searching desperately trying quit take bar probably find mental healing restaurant time allow heal figure plan attack future would sound like ideal path call human resource department wanted vet idea outcome concerned anyone else gone thanks

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Toughed out 2 major panic attacks at the dentist today... Went to the dentist today and had to wait almost 3 hours. As soon as I sat down I started to feel it... heart racing and my face turning red. I tried to calm down but it just kept getting worse than somebody decided to sit down next to me and I lost it... After 15 minutes of deep breathing I finally felt it start to fade. After waiting for another hour a girl infront started to facetime her friend and then tried to point her camera at me without me noticing (I have severe eczema and a very noticeable rash on my face...) I made eye contact and shook my head... I felt angry then felt another panic attack heart beating out of my chest and instead of just saying fuck the appointment altogether I went outside took a deep breath and called my mom and told her I'd be late coming home. Then after another hour I finally saw the dentist fixed my cavities and almost had another panic attack because they were so close to my face but I told myself I'm not leaving and calmed down. Sorry if this seems out of place but after dodging human contact for months before after one panic attack I felt this was a major win for me...

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toughed major panic attack dentist today went wait almost hour soon sat started feel heart racing face turning red tried calm kept getting worse somebody decided sit next lost minute deep breathing finally felt start fade waiting another girl infront facetime friend point camera without noticing severe eczema noticeable rash made eye contact shook head angry beating chest instead saying fuck appointment altogether outside took breath called mom told late coming home saw fixed cavity close leaving calmed sorry seems place dodging human month one win

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Does it stop? Can it be cured without pills or am I crazy to think so? I keep having existential crises and I am so exhausted from being so nervous/negative. I just want to feel normal. Needed to get it off my chest. Thank you for reading if you do, I’m sorry if it’s so negative. I’ve had a really bad rough patch and I’m ready to see the light at the end of this stupid tunnel.

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stop cured without pill crazy think keep existential crisis exhausted nervous negative want feel normal needed get chest thank reading sorry really bad rough patch ready see light end stupid tunnel

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Death Anxiety Anxiety gets me so deep into my thoughts when it comes to certain topics, one of those being death. Being that death is obviously inevitable, I try to not think about it often. But when I do, the whole concept of it blows my mind. I start feeling the common anxieties, like fearing the deaths of loved ones, or leaving my loved ones behind when I die, and the pain that will cause them. Then I think deeper about how crazy it is that one day we all simply cease to be. Everything going on in our lives right now seems so important, but the bigger picture is that it’s all temporary. Everything is temporary, everything will come to an end. It’s crazy that one day you’re this living human-being with a life full of experiences and memories, and the next you’re merely a corpse. It’s also crazy to think about the world, everyone in your family, your social circle, etc. living on without you. Sometimes I wonder why living things even have to die, like the fact that most everything on Earth is designed to die at some point sort of blows my mind too. I realize these aren’t quite exactly “normal” person thoughts lol. I’m only in my early twenties and throughout the last couple years I’ve had a few friends who were in my age group pass away, so I guess it just makes death all the more real to me, hence why I start overthinking about it. I guess before death just seemed like this distant thing that I thought was only really likely to happen far down the road, but after having a family member pass away at sixteen and some friends pass away as well I’ve really developed an anxiety about death whenever it crosses my mind. What are your guy’s thoughts on death? Do you have similar anxieties, or have you successfully came to terms with it? Also, what fears you guys the most, the process of dying, or just death itself?

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death anxiety get deep thought come certain topic one obviously inevitable try think often whole concept blow mind start feeling common like fearing loved leaving behind die pain cause deeper crazy day simply cease everything going life right seems important bigger picture temporary end living human full experience memory next merely corpse also world everyone family social circle etc without sometimes wonder thing even fact earth designed point sort realize quite exactly normal person lol early twenty throughout last couple year friend age group pas away guess make real hence overthinking seemed distant really likely happen far road member sixteen well developed whenever cross guy similar successfully came term fear process dying

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Anxiety socialising at school? So glad I found this sub reddit! So I’m 20 years old. Have had anxiety all my life, especially socially. I also tend to zone out from the world when I have a breakdown for 6 months or so and then I basically lose all social skills so I have like no social skills at all. I’m back at TAFE (basically in between high school and uni in Australia) after 4 months holidays and I was told I would be with my group from last year when I started the course in July and then I rock up Monday and I’m not with anyone I know. It’s been 3 days now and I have sat by myself and have struggled to talk to anyone and when they do, I talk really quietly and softly and tend to zone out because I don’t really know how to hold a conversation. Everyone in my class is older than me by at least 10 years so it’s also hard to relate to people. I don’t like people but it’d be nice to be able to learn to socialise as I want to keep studying and if I do, I’ll always be in this situation. I can’t remember what I did last year when I started. I also tend to be an asshole but I don’t really mean it. It’s basically word vomit. I also tend to get too excited when people actually pay attention to me and want to be my friend and then I get clingy and attached and end up annoying them and they just ignore me forever lmao. Any tips would be super helpful!

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anxiety socialising school glad found sub reddit year old life especially socially also tend zone world breakdown month basically lose social skill like back tafe high uni australia holiday told would group last started course july rock monday anyone know day sat struggled talk really quietly softly hold conversation everyone class older least hard relate people nice able learn socialise want keep studying always situation remember asshole mean word vomit get excited actually pay attention friend clingy attached end annoying ignore forever lmao tip super helpful

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Does anyone else feel like life is too LONG? We all know the common expression that "life is short!" but... does anyone else feel like that's BS/overwhelmed by how LONG life is? When I think about the fact that I had a solid 60+ years left (I'm 20), it kinda freaks me out? Like I don't know how the hell I could possibly do this for 60 more years? I'm already so overwhelmed all the time and I haven't taken on real responsibilities. I guess part of it is just not really enjoying day to day life but I genuinely don't understand the concept sometimes... like life is so dauntingly long to me.

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anyone else feel like life long know common expression short b overwhelmed think fact solid year left kinda freak hell could possibly already time taken real responsibility guess part really enjoying day genuinely understand concept sometimes dauntingly

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[advice] How to Break Up with my Therapist I have near crippling social anxiety and some PTSD from childhood traumas. I am a thinker and incredibly self sufficient when it comes to my health. Not like crazy nutso WedMD, but logical and common sense through forums to help uncover the less than ideal places in my brain myself. I have never been one to talk but last fall I decided enough was enough and tried therapy. I wanted it to end and just hurry up to move on with my life so I caved. ​ I have been going to my therapist for about 7+ months now. Over this time, he has never told me or helped me have any significant breakthroughs. Everything we talk about I have already come to those conclusions and coping mechanism myself with the help of the Internet, and this sub (thanks, guys). As of now, it is just a money guzzler and a time waster as it is on the other side of town for me. I just want to end my sessions and free up my time. I don't want to say it is too expensive because they always come at you with lower prices and I always cave because I just want to end the conversation.

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advice break therapist near crippling social anxiety ptsd childhood trauma thinker incredibly self sufficient come health like crazy nutso wedmd logical common sense forum help uncover le ideal place brain never one talk last fall decided enough tried therapy wanted end hurry move life caved going month time told helped significant breakthrough everything already conclusion coping mechanism internet sub thanks guy money guzzler waster side town want session free say expensive always lower price cave conversation

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Replaying traumatic experiences Anyone else every have an anxiety inducing moment so traumatic it’s replayed constantly in the mind?? I’m thinking of a few specific events that led to me having severe panic attacks in public. For me the worst panic attacks are ones where I cannot isolate myself from the situation or ones where I am out of control and do not have the ability to suppress my reactions. I’m sure many of you can relate. Anyways, I’ve been more stressed than usual therefor peaking my general anxiety. recently whenever i try to go to sleep I can’t help but replay these specific events in my head over and over and over, I replay how i felt so vividly that I begin to feel anxiousness and humiliation all over again. This one in particular from September traumatized me so much I literally cannot get it out of my brain. I think about it multiple times a day ever since it happened 4 months ago. At night I try to scroll through social media to divert my attention but nothing really works. I just want to sleep and i want to stop focusing on all these bad things I’ve been through.

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replaying traumatic experience anyone else every anxiety inducing moment replayed constantly mind thinking specific event led severe panic attack public worst one cannot isolate situation control ability suppress reaction sure many relate anyways stressed usual therefor peaking general recently whenever try go sleep help replay head felt vividly begin feel anxiousness humiliation particular september traumatized much literally get brain think multiple time day ever since happened month ago night scroll social medium divert attention nothing really work want stop focusing bad thing

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Anxiety around sexual desire has taken a turn for the worse, and its scaring me. For years now I have had anxiety centered around loss of control. Whether I am anxious that I cannot control when I go pee, or take a shit, or during sex I worry endlessly about if I can control when I orgasm. The control over the orgasm has legitimately been something I can hardly control during a sexual experience, so sex makes me anxious. Not only that, but intrusive thoughts about my Mom and other undesirable sexual objects started consuming me. ​ So I stopped having sex, pursuing sexual partners, and began only masturbating once every week. ​ In short, sex makes me extremely uncomfortable. ​ Recently some weird things have been manifesting. I was at work and I checked out this girl, I found her very attractive. But I suddenly felt unrealistically aroused by just looking at her, which made me very anxious since I was in a public place. I however was able to reel myself in and calm down, preventing any lengthy time of discomfort for me. ​ Then about a week ago I was performing my job, (I work at a car wash) and some air hit my crotch region (like it has for over a year almost everyday) and I felt suddenly aroused. ​ From then on I have been obsessively worried about becoming aroused at the wrong time. At first only at work, while working with certain people. I would get these intrusive thoughts of sex, almost like these thoughts were fighting against me trying to arouse me, and I was running from them trying to avoid their effect on me. ​ I have done this in the bedroom before, but it as never seeped into my daily life like this. ​ And over the last few days I have been carrying an irrational fear that I have no control over sexual feelings and that I might spontaneously ejaculate. I tend to avoid looking at attractive people, or even thinking about sex. The other day before a musical performance (that I was extremely nervous to perform) I saw an attractive lady and felt like I was about to ejaculate. I became disturbed and tried to distract myself. ​ I have been thinking this a product of my sexual repression due to insecurity, frequent sexualized intrusive thoughts, and a product of me repressing my anxiety with various methods. ​ I have been feeling a constant low level of arousal since yesterday morning and I am scared that I have developed PGAD. I can't talk to my mom even somewhat comfortably, I feel constantly uncomfortable and gross, I do not want to tell anyone, I fucking hate myself for this and I have NO IDEA what to do. I don't want another constant worry, problem, anxiety. ​ I feel extremely trapped within this problem, and I could use as much help as you can offer. In any capacity. ​ TLDR: Anxiety and suppression has manifested into a constant feeling of unwanted sexual desire. I am losing my mind and need some advice.

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anxiety around sexual desire taken turn worse scaring year centered loss control whether anxious cannot go pee take shit sex worry endlessly orgasm legitimately something hardly experience make intrusive thought mom undesirable object started consuming stopped pursuing partner began masturbating every week short extremely uncomfortable recently weird thing manifesting work checked girl found attractive suddenly felt unrealistically aroused looking made since public place however able reel calm preventing lengthy time discomfort ago performing job car wash air hit crotch region like almost everyday obsessively worried becoming wrong first working certain people would get fighting trying arouse running avoid effect done bedroom never seeped daily life last day carrying irrational fear feeling might spontaneously ejaculate tend even thinking musical performance nervous perform saw lady became disturbed tried distract product repression due insecurity frequent sexualized repressing various method constant low level arousal yesterday morning scared developed pgad talk somewhat comfortably feel constantly gross want tell anyone fucking hate idea another problem trapped within could use much help offer capacity tldr suppression manifested unwanted losing mind need advice

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I've dropped 3 classes this semester I'm probably going to drop the last two I'm in too, I haven't been in over a month. I'm supposed to graduate in a year but it'll be impossible for me to get the credits I need. I'm just starting to get help but sometimes it feels like it's too late and my anxiety has already fucked up my life beyond repair.

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dropped class semester probably going drop last two month supposed graduate year impossible get credit need starting help sometimes feel like late anxiety already fucked life beyond repair

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After university I’m graduating in the summer, how is searching for jobs and working when you have anxiety??

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university graduating summer searching job working anxiety

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create a positive waves why can't we create a positive waves..i was read a more and more things today and there is a people who can't even wanna live in world and have lots of depressed people in this ****world ..this is a world want us to live..no one gona consider us if we couldn't have proper interact with them

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create positive wave read thing today people even wanna live world lot depressed want u one gona consider proper interact

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Emetophobia +school anxiety I’ve been having a rough time lately so I thought it might help me to just kinda speak my mind or something. Also, I’m writing this on mobile so my apologies if the format is wonky. This is kinda a rant I guess, so sorry if it’s not allowed. Basic info (kinda irrelevant but whatever) - I’m a 17 y/o female in junior year of high school (11th grade). I also have (and am taking medication for) panic disorder. I have really bad emetophobia (fear of vomit) Today was the first day back from spring break, and I had a panic attack on the way to school so didn’t even end up going to school. Two things caused this panic - the fact that I had to go to school in the first place and that I had a stomachache. For some reason, whenever I don’t go to school it makes it extremely hard for me to go to school when I have to go back. Part of my stomachache was caused by insomnia last night due to my anxiety of school. When I don’t get much sleep it makes my stomach hurt. Then it hurts worse because it hurts in the first place, giving me anxiety. But I think my school anxiety was causing me to get stomachache, which then causes my emetophobia to cause me to have more anxiety, which causes my stomachache to get worse, and so on. Being at school gives me anxiety because I’m always afraid of other people vomiting and that giving me a panic attack and that scares me. I almost lost a friend when I was about nine due to emetophobia, which I’m pretty sure made me super insecure about it and therefore also makes me have anxiety about my emetophobia and it’s just a downward spiral of anxiety triggers. So yeah, I don’t know how I’m going to go to school tomorrow. People are so nosy and always ask where I was, so I have to make up an excuse like “I was sick” but nobody believes that. It’s just a fun time. Oh- I also have a fear of failure. And by failure, I mean getting anything below an A in my classes. So that also makes all of this worse, because I’m missing class time. I’m trying to ~~conceive~~ *convince* my mom to let me do online school so that I can still succeed in school, because I don’t mind doing school work, it’s the physical act of going to school. And no, I’m not just lazy. If I was just lazy, this would be an issue from the start, but it’s just shown up within the past year. I’m pretty sure this is because I’ve been struggling to get A’s in my classes. So yeah. Anyways, I hope anyone who reads this has a wonderful day/night/whatever time it is for you. <3 Edit: noticed a silly typo while re-reading after posting

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emetophobia school anxiety rough time lately thought might help kinda speak mind something also writing mobile apology format wonky rant guess sorry allowed basic info irrelevant whatever female junior year high th grade taking medication panic disorder really bad fear vomit today first day back spring break attack way even end going two thing caused fact go place stomachache reason whenever make extremely hard part insomnia last night due get much sleep stomach hurt worse giving think causing cause give always afraid people vomiting scare almost lost friend nine pretty sure made super insecure therefore downward spiral trigger yeah know tomorrow nosy ask excuse like sick nobody belief fun oh failure mean getting anything class missing trying conceive convince mom let online still succeed work physical act lazy would issue start shown within past struggling anyways hope anyone read wonderful edit noticed silly typo reading posting

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Tinnitus from an ear infection. Is my anxiety making it worse? I'm still getting over an ear infection from a little over 2 weeks ago that's gone away except for a fullness feeling in my ear and constant ringing. I'm still tapering off prednisone which isn't helping my anxiety but I can't stop obsessing over the ringing in my left ear and worrying if it's permanent tinnitus. Has anyone experienced anything like this with anxiety and an ear infection? I'm just freaking out that it might be permanent.

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tinnitus ear infection anxiety making worse still getting little week ago gone away except fullness feeling constant ringing tapering prednisone helping stop obsessing left worrying permanent anyone experienced anything like freaking might

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If the relation between alcohol and mental illness is so scientificly established, why is it not so common to professionals of psychology or psychiatry to recommend their patients to stay away from alcohol? So I face mental problems for a while now, and went to several psychiatrists and psychologists over the years, but none of them have even asked me about my habits regarding alcohol consumption, which was a huge part of my lifestyle. It was a big surprise to me when I discovered that alcohol and mental problems are so related and that it's not exactly news. Why are doctors ignoring this or not paying too much attention in this, since everyone today is drinking alcohol?

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relation alcohol mental illness scientificly established common professional psychology psychiatry recommend patient stay away face problem went several psychiatrist psychologist year none even asked habit regarding consumption huge part lifestyle big surprise discovered related exactly news doctor ignoring paying much attention since everyone today drinking

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How do I avoid feeling guilty about the decisions I make? Every time I go to hang out with my friends I end up feeling guilty that I'm with them and not spending more time with my family or spending time cleaning or doing homework and vice versa. This happens with pretty much every decision I make, like when I spend money on something I want (like the movies) I feel guilty for not having saved it or spent it on something more important. How do I avoid this guilt and learn to enjoy the things I'm doing and live in the moment?

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avoid feeling guilty decision make every time go hang friend end spending family cleaning homework vice versa happens pretty much like spend money something want movie feel saved spent important guilt learn enjoy thing live moment

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I don't know how to stop feeling so anxious and heart broken My ex and I have been talking since we broke up, as we wanted to stay friends and be in each others lives. We've always had talks of getting back together and I said that I would like to, but I first would like to work on myself (get over my past, my anxiety and fixing my commitment issues and rampant sex drive). My ex has also reassured me numerous times that she isn't interested in dating anyone else, and not even doing anything sexual flirty. She's had a few flings here and there but ultimately regretted them and told me because she felt guilty. However just earlier, I got 3 images from her. All 3 were selfies, yet the last one had her top all the way up, so you could clearly see her tits. She deleted them instantly and my heart sank. They weren't meant for me. My anxiety sky rocketed, so in defence i got angry, asking her who they were for. She then told me to ''stop trying to guilt trip her''. Am I in the wrong here? I'm 99% sure I know who they were for. Even though she has told me time and time again that her and this 'guy' are just friends, and she has no dating or sexual intentions with anyone, including him. She then got all defensive, telling me that its ''none of my business'' etc, when all I wanted to know was who they were for. I know it isn't, as we aren't together, but its the fact she has the audacity to sit there and promise me that she doesn't want anything sexual with anyone. In a sense I feel betrayed, and every time I think about that 3rd picture, and the fact that she sent that to someone else my anxiety just goes crazy, and I have the worst crushing feeling on my chest and throat. How do I stop this? I want to cry but I can't. I just don't know what to do. On a side note, she said multiple times that it was an accident, but I spoke to my friend about it and he said that it could have been, or it wasn't and she's trying to make me jealous. I'm just so lost on what to do. I haven't answered back. Do I message her? What do I say. I seriously need help

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know stop feeling anxious heart broken ex talking since broke wanted stay friend others life always talk getting back together said would like first work get past anxiety fixing commitment issue rampant sex drive also reassured numerous time interested dating anyone else even anything sexual flirty fling ultimately regretted told felt guilty however earlier got image selfies yet last one top way could clearly see tit deleted instantly sank meant sky rocketed defence angry asking trying guilt trip wrong sure though guy intention including defensive telling none business etc fact audacity sit promise want sense feel betrayed every think rd picture sent someone go crazy worst crushing chest throat cry side note multiple accident spoke make jealous lost answered message say seriously need help

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My mother decided to have a third child. Despite always complaining that our house is not spacious enough for when there was only 4 of us living together, she decided to bring another child into this amazing world. I love my 1 y/o brother to death, but my home life was already my most consistent anxiety fuel and now it's in overdrive. I'm already on edge everyday and my anxiety has gotten so bad that I don't even know how to talk to anyone about it. His cry is piercing. No, I am not exaggerating. Not even a *little*. His daycare has voiced this same opinion. Not only is his cry piercing, but I am always being forced/expected to drop whatever I'm doing to help out with the baby. At first it was no issues with this. I love him and will always love him so it is my duty to help out, but man does it get fucking tiring. Especially knowing I help out twice as much as my father does. I barely get sleep, and have college and my job to fuel my anxiety even more. I am depressed as is and this is just ruining any progress I've made in conquering my extremely apparent anxiety. Feeling guilt whenever I hear the baby crying is the worst. If I don't get up and help I am reprimanded and scolded for it. It has gotten the point where I cannot be at ease at all anymore. Everything is my fault. If it isn't my fault, I'm ungrateful and unappreciative for letting my mother struggle to neutralize the crying. My drug addicted and relapsing grandmother was just sent to a psych ward 2 days ago. My job cut my hours significantly around Christmas time and I failed my remedial class for the 3rd time last semester and it is the only thing holding me back academically. My girlfriend is always mad at me it feels like. Basically what I'm trying to say is I don't know how much longer I can do this. With my depression being so strong for the past 5 years as well as my anxiety, I am getting back to the suicidal abyss I once climbed out of. Anyways, since I don't have anyone I can tell this too without them virtue signaling or dismissing it, I am taking to reddit to vent. **TL;DR** My mother had another child last year, whom is now 1 year old. His presence alone and the demand for me to be essentially another parent has been fueling my anxiety. Being the oldest [20M] sucks. I am stuck with the responsibility of this child far too often and am truly suffering in silence because of it. This is my "rant" about it.

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mother decided third child despite always complaining house spacious enough u living together bring another amazing world love brother death home life already consistent anxiety fuel overdrive edge everyday gotten bad even know talk anyone cry piercing exaggerating little daycare voiced opinion forced expected drop whatever help baby first issue duty man get fucking tiring especially knowing twice much father barely sleep college job depressed ruining progress made conquering extremely apparent feeling guilt whenever hear worst reprimanded scolded point cannot ease anymore everything fault ungrateful unappreciative letting struggle neutralize drug addicted relapsing grandmother sent psych ward day ago cut hour significantly around christmas time failed remedial class rd last semester thing holding back academically girlfriend mad feel like basically trying say longer depression strong past year well getting suicidal abyss climbed anyways since tell without virtue signaling dismissing taking reddit vent tl dr old presence alone demand essentially parent fueling oldest suck stuck responsibility far often truly suffering silence rant

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Hydroxyzine & Buspirone for situational panick attacks? For some background: I am a teacher. Day to day I do not suffer from anxiety. My anxiety is very situational. We are evaluated 3 times a year and when the administrators come I have a full blown panic attack complete with inhability to speak. I’m Not sure why this situation makes me react so strongly but nothing else in my life affects me this way. Since it only happens 3 times a year, my doctor has prescribed me Xanax which for the past few years I take exactly 3 times a year when I am observed and it has worked perfectly. I ran out and this coming week I will be having an observation. I went to urgent care as my doctor is closed on the weekend and instead of Xanax I was given Hydroxyzine and Buspirone. He wants me to take buspirone every day and hydroxyzine when he knows I will be observed. 1. I really don’t want to be on something daily as my anxiety is very situational. 2. The Xanax has worked and I take it extremely infrequently (only 3x per year during observations) I am very worried about the new medication not working correctly and having a full blown panic attack and being unable to speak. Can anyone speak to the effectiveness of these 2 drugs? I am worried if I go back and tell them I just want the Xanax they may accuse me of being a pill-seeker which could not be further from the truth.

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hydroxyzine buspirone situational panick attack background teacher day suffer anxiety evaluated time year administrator come full blown panic complete inhability speak sure situation make react strongly nothing else life affect way since happens doctor prescribed xanax past take exactly observed worked perfectly ran coming week observation went urgent care closed weekend instead given want every know really something daily extremely infrequently per worried new medication working correctly unable anyone effectiveness drug go back tell may accuse pill seeker could truth

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Today's the first day back at university and I can't will myself to get out of my bed Fuck it and fuck them

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today first day back university get bed fuck

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Am I being paranoid? A man in the apartment complex I’m dog sitting in is really freaking me out.. So- I am working for a woman that lives in a homeless housing program. Mostly everyone here is nice- but there is one guy here who is taunting me in really weird ways.. I’m only here 3 days a week- for 3 hours. But the way it’s set up is really unfortunate. The guys lives directly underneath the woman I am dog sitting for AND he lives literally right next to the front door to the complex. So I have to walk past his door that has an eye hole every time I take the dog out. I feel like he’s keeping track of when I come and go. Getting to the weird part/ this guy parts the blinds open and bangs on the window and sticks his fingers and beady eyes to signal at me EVERY time I leave the job and watches me walk away. He “happened to walk out” the second day when I arrived and side stared me down- his eyes jabbed me in the intuition even more- he just has a bad output. And most recently- when I walk downstairs to take the dog out he starts to scream through his door about the dog needing to shut the f*** up and blasts music. He might just be a paranoid tweaker- but from experiences in the city- I am feeling really uncomfortable and anxious. The thing that really sucks is I can’t even be escorted- the woman only has one set of keys- so I have to walk down alone past his stupid door to let her in every time she gets home. I’m sitting right now- and absolutely dreading walking down to let her back in today. The extra cash is really necessary right now- maybe my gut is just overreacting?

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paranoid man apartment complex dog sitting really freaking working woman life homeless housing program mostly everyone nice one guy taunting weird way day week hour set unfortunate directly underneath literally right next front door walk past eye hole every time take feel like keeping track come go getting part blind open bang window stick finger beady signal leave job watch away happened second arrived side stared jabbed intuition even bad output recently downstairs start scream needing shut blast music might tweaker experience city feeling uncomfortable anxious thing suck escorted key alone stupid let get home absolutely dreading walking back today extra cash necessary maybe gut overreacting

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Best jobs for someone with social phobia I've been unemployed for about 6 months now. I need to get a job. I just sit at home all day and it's probably not good for me. I've always had a hard time finding jobs. I'm very picky about it. I have black and white thinking about it, if one thing makes me uncomfortable, I will only focus on that one thing and I will hate it and won't do it. I have an intense fear of judgement, criticism, and making mistakes. My thought process and actions basically revolve around these fears and it makes things, especially jobs, very difficult. What part time jobs would be good for someone who has social phobia and hates people?

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best job someone social phobia unemployed month need get sit home day probably good always hard time finding picky black white thinking one thing make uncomfortable focus hate intense fear judgement criticism making mistake thought process action basically revolve around especially difficult part would people

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Waking up in the middle of the night? I've suffered from anxiety for the past few years and currently manage it with journalling, diet & exercise and therapy every 2-4 weeks. I've been really great the past few weeks but tonight decided to go to sleep when I was feeling a bit on edge hoping the feeling would fade with a good sleep and down time. Oh no. I've been sleeping but not well. Now it's 2 am and I'm wide awake. I was wondering, if I'm already asleep, why/how does my body wake me up with anxiety? I'm not even consciously worring about anything, I didn't have a bad dream, I wasn't even awake and anxiety symptoms affected me.

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waking middle night suffered anxiety past year currently manage journalling diet exercise therapy every week really great tonight decided go sleep feeling bit edge hoping would fade good time oh sleeping well wide awake wondering already asleep body wake even consciously worring anything bad dream symptom affected

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I'm now 18 Years old,from Germany and going to school right now, planning on study psyochologie. The only thing that seems to slow me down right now is chronic panicattack-like illness that seems to destroy everything I've build up for myself. It is a constant strain of thought that I fear the most that developed from the time I was six. Eversince I was six years old I started having weird forced habits like touching certian things for x amount of times or making weird noises. The older I got, the less I had these forced habits and the more I had something like a second "voice" in my head that was thinking of something entirely else and actually disturbing that I couldn't control.

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year old germany going school right planning study psyochologie thing seems slow chronic panicattack like illness destroy everything build constant strain thought fear developed time six eversince started weird forced habit touching certian amount making noise older got le something second voice head thinking entirely else actually disturbing control

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Is there anyone in this sub who has beaten their anxiety long term? 31F here, I feel like my anxiety is only getting worse the older I get. Small things that my anxiety causes me to do have snowball effects in my life, and things have been unraveling for a while now. I’d like to quit wallowing in it and turn things around. I’d like to hear from someone who has done it what WORKS. I am worried that my early childhood experiences of feeling unloved and inferior will never leave me. They will always dominate my psyche. Help?

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anyone sub beaten anxiety long term feel like getting worse older get small thing cause snowball effect life unraveling quit wallowing turn around hear someone done work worried early childhood experience feeling unloved inferior never leave always dominate psyche help

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Does anyone have any info on how different types of drugs affect Norepinephrine and what the effects are? Apparently SNRIs and SSRIs (often used for anxiety) affect Norepinephrine differently. I do better on SSRI VS SNRIs (example, Prozac really works for me) My doc also prescribed me meds for ADHD - trying Dexedrine, then Adderall. It just occurred to me that Adderall might affect Norepinephrine more than the Dex.

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anyone info different type drug affect norepinephrine effect apparently snris ssri often used anxiety differently better v example prozac really work doc also prescribed med adhd trying dexedrine adderall occurred might dex

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I'm getting fed up with School and I'm very angry I'm a junior in high school with GED, OCD(mainly obsessive) and social anxiety, and this year especially(and this semester even more) my performance at school has been suffering. I don't know what it is. It's just so hard for me to focus. My mind is never where it should be, and even when I really try, it seems like I can't grasp information as well as I should. It's like my brain just doesn't work the way it should anymore and I hate this feeling. To make matters worse, my friends are in higher-level classes and get mostly As, whereas every day feels like a struggle for me academically, socially, and mentally. It leaves me feeling inadequate and I've been getting angry at them for no reason and as a result I feel like a dick. I just don't give a shit anymore. I'm so sick and tired of school and it seems like the only thing it's good for is making me angry and depressed. I just want to focus on things I enjoy like video games and creative writing but instead I waste time by getting sucked down a rabbit hole watching videos on youtube and never getting my homework done, and thus I never have time to do anything I actually want to do. I don't know man, I'm just venting I guess. I'm very stressed and I've been going in and out of depression lately, so I just wanted to sort of get my feelings into words. Sorry if I sound entitled or like I'm complaining about first world problems or whatever. I don't even know anymore.

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getting fed school angry junior high ged ocd mainly obsessive social anxiety year especially semester even performance suffering know hard focus mind never really try seems like grasp information well brain work way anymore hate feeling make matter worse friend higher level class get mostly whereas every day feel struggle academically socially mentally leaf inadequate reason result dick give shit sick tired thing good making depressed want enjoy video game creative writing instead waste time sucked rabbit hole watching youtube homework done thus anything actually man venting guess stressed going depression lately wanted sort word sorry sound entitled complaining first world problem whatever

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For the last few months I am unable to fall asleep due to my anxiety. I don't know what it is but whenever I go to sleep my anxiety kicks in and I start to overthink. As a result, I end up falling asleep really late and as a University student it makes it harder for me to get up in the morning/I miss lectures. I've tried drinking calming tea, breathing exercises, music but nothing works. I tried reading before sleeping but I always end up scrolling on my phone. I don't know what to do.

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last month unable fall asleep due anxiety know whenever go sleep kick start overthink result end falling really late university student make harder get morning miss lecture tried drinking calming tea breathing exercise music nothing work reading sleeping always scrolling phone

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eyes floaters came back Im not an alcoholic ,... I use to drink last year like 1-2 time a week a beer or 2 ... but it made me so anxious te next day I stoped... yesterday I drink a glass of wine and tonight my floaters came back lol im brain damaged

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eye floater came back im alcoholic use drink last year like time week beer made anxious te next day stoped yesterday glass wine tonight lol brain damaged

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Intensifying anxiety over finding a new psychiatrist I originally posted a vent post in r/bipolar but my GAD is taking over with this situation so I thought I would take my issue here and post here for the first time. This subreddit seems so supportive and I could definitely benefit from people who understand just how consuming anxiety is. I’ve been seeing my current psychiatrist for 3 years now. I began seeing him during my last hospitalization and I liked him so much I continued seeing him at his practice once I got out. He’s been with me through all my highs and my lows. When I had my worst manic episode of my life last year he brought me back from that. He is kind, understanding, and patient. He listens, provides more than enough feedback, answers all of my questions and concerns. If I feel something isn’t right or is off, he gives thorough advice or he tweeks my meds and tells me why. He explains everything in detail. I have him to thank for finding the perfect med cocktail that works for me which took a lot of trial and error. He and I have such a report that I haven’t had with any other psychiatrist. He is my favorite doctor and I look forward to my appointments. My last therapy session at the same practice the therapist let me know my psychiatrist is resigning the practice and it will be closed as of June 30th. He gave he an information packet explaining it in detail and it provided information as to where else I should go to continue treatment. When I got home I broke down and had a panic attack. The thought of starting over is terrifying. I fear I won’t find a doctor that compares. I also have to find a new therapist. Lot’s of phone calls and appointments in new places are in my future. There’s a chance the new therapist and psychiatrist won’t be a good fit for me so that means more phone calls and more new places. I have a deadline as to not have a gap in having my medications so that is weighing on me as well. Starting over fresh with new faces and the introductions are making me nauseous. I also have pretty bad driving anxiety as well and the thought of driving some place new is keeping me up at night. I’m scared and I can’t procrastinate as I normally would. This is all just so overwhelming and my anxiety is at an all time high. I’m trying to tell myself everything will be okay, that I can do this, and to not let my fear get in the way of my treatment. It’s not helping. I’m terrified. Thank you for reading my rambling. I could really use some support and words of encouragement.

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intensifying anxiety finding new psychiatrist originally posted vent post bipolar gad taking situation thought would take issue first time subreddit seems supportive could definitely benefit people understand consuming seeing current year began last hospitalization liked much continued practice got high low worst manic episode life brought back kind understanding patient listens provides enough feedback answer question concern feel something right give thorough advice tweeks med tell explains everything detail thank perfect cocktail work took lot trial error report favorite doctor look forward appointment therapy session therapist let know resigning closed june th gave information packet explaining provided else go continue treatment home broke panic attack starting terrifying fear find compare also phone call place future chance good fit mean deadline gap medication weighing well fresh face introduction making nauseous pretty bad driving keeping night scared procrastinate normally overwhelming trying okay get way helping terrified reading rambling really use support word encouragement

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Medication questions - anyone been there? Hi all. First time poster in this sub. So I have generalized anxiety as well as depression coupled with worse depression during the winter time (seasonal affective). For about two or so years I've been taking citalopram (brand name Celexa) 10mg worth and I have loved the difference it made for me. While I would still get mild anxiety and stress it was really mostly caused by intense pms or when I would screw up on my routine in taking one every day. Because of the type of medication it is, basically every 90 days I have to go for a check-in in order to be prescribed more. The last time I went my doctor told me that 10mg is considered "half of the starting dose" and he felt that if I took 20, I might be able to be the "best happiest version of myself". There was another time prior where he wanted to start me on 20mg and I didn't want to go that high so I refused. (well technically I took the 20mg script and broke all my pills in half to prolong what I had) Anyway, I agreed to 20 this time and I am not having fun. I'm approaching week 6 soon. This upcoming Friday will be my 5th full week on the 20mg. I think I feel worse. My insides are being torn up, I'm losing weight, my appetite, and I actually feel more depressed than I did before. While my anxiety has calmed down I think it's because I literally cannot bring myself to care about anything. I do not care. I don't care about my job. I'm planning a wedding in the summer and while I'm excited about it i don't feel naturally enthusiastic. I don't want to get out of bed. I want to sleep all the time and literally do nothing. I am NOT suicidal. I just don't care. I don't feel like I have any emotion towards anything - negative or positive. I'm thinking about halving my doses again but wondering if I should pull through and tough it out for the full 6 weeks. because I know the recommended time to let it work is between 4-6 wks. Has this happened to anyone else before? Have you ever increased dosage and felt worse? Is it possible that I don't need more than 10mg and this dose is too much? I know I should discuss this with my doctor before I make any decisions or changes however I'm curious about others' experiences and if there are similarities.

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medication question anyone hi first time poster sub generalized anxiety well depression coupled worse winter seasonal affective two year taking citalopram brand name celexa mg worth loved difference made would still get mild stress really mostly caused intense pm screw routine one every day type basically go check order prescribed last went doctor told considered half starting dose felt took might able best happiest version another prior wanted start want high refused technically script broke pill prolong anyway agreed fun approaching week soon upcoming friday th full think feel inside torn losing weight appetite actually depressed calmed literally cannot bring care anything job planning wedding summer excited naturally enthusiastic bed sleep nothing suicidal like emotion towards negative positive thinking halving dos wondering pull tough know recommended let work wks happened else ever increased dosage possible need much discus make decision change however curious others experience similarity

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My life has spiralled into a area I’m not sure I can survive in much longer. Everyone who was close to me have seemingly all decided to just pretend I don’t exist right as I start my third year of Uni. My anxiety levels are usually pretty high this time of year but this last month has been the worst of my life for my emotional well-being. I’m trying so hard but I’m suffering, and the meds don’t seem to be helping What do I do

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life spiralled area sure survive much longer everyone close seemingly decided pretend exist right start third year uni anxiety level usually pretty high time last month worst emotional well trying hard suffering med seem helping

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Suffering anxiety attacks, and bad anxiety when thinking alone. I suffer from anxiety attacks, which have been common recently. I also have bad anxiety, and I can't think about many things without getting bad anxiety and depressive scenes. I think it comes from my parents, who are sorta mentally abusive. They like to call me and my siblings "stupid" or "idiotic" when we make small mistakes. I don't know how to fix this, as I'm too worried to think about therapy. Could I get some help?

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suffering anxiety attack bad thinking alone suffer common recently also think many thing without getting depressive scene come parent sorta mentally abusive like call sibling stupid idiotic make small mistake know fix worried therapy could get help

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Does anxiety find "logical" excuses in order not to go through with something I like this girl and have for a long time but have avoided pursuing a relationship as I got anxious. I recently noticed I've been creating my own "logical" reasons not to pursue this relationship finding or making up "red flags" into why I should avoid a relationship with this girl. My already existing friendship is being affected by my constant negative critiques of why I shouldn't like this girl and that I should avoid the stressful situation of asking her out.

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anxiety find logical excuse order go something like girl long time avoided pursuing relationship got anxious recently noticed creating reason pursue finding making red flag avoid already existing friendship affected constant negative critique stressful situation asking

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Am I having an anxiety attack? What should I do? My chest kind of hurts and I'm really short of breath. I feel like my chest muscles are contracting. My eyes are watering. I have to pay attention to slow down my breathing. I can't snap out of it and I don't know why. Nothings wrong, I'm totally safe in my home with my dogs. How do I stop it?

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anxiety attack chest kind hurt really short breath feel like muscle contracting eye watering pay attention slow breathing snap know nothing wrong totally safe home dog stop

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Remind Yourself This is my first post here in r/Anxiety and I just wanted to say that it's always good to take stock of your life and remind yourself how good you may have it. Take the time in 2018 to periodically stop and think of positive things in your life, then be grateful for them. It's so easy to get engulfed in the negative that permeates our world and to forget the good things. Even if it's the most minute detail, if it's positive, revel in it. For me, it helps when I get overwhelmed with my anxiety to remind myself that, in the grand scheme of things, my life is actually pretty good. If your life isn't great for whatever reason, keep telling yourself that it will get better because eventually, it will. Happy New Year and I hope this helps anyone who needs a reminder. You're not alone and life is good.

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remind first post anxiety wanted say always good take stock life may time periodically stop think positive thing grateful easy get engulfed negative permeates world forget even minute detail revel help overwhelmed grand scheme actually pretty great whatever reason keep telling better eventually happy new year hope anyone need reminder alone

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Someone i see almost everyday makes me really anxious. So... i had an internet friend. (C). We had known each other since August last year and were best friends. Exactly one month ago i did some awful shit and now i don't think i can say we're friends anymore. I really miss them. However, since what happened whenever i see them around the forums we use i feel anxious, sometimes panicked. They have never done anything bad to me to make me feel this way, but i think that the reason i'm panicking is because they've had to deal with two other toxic friends before me, so i'm worried they think me like they do the other two (although they don't act towards me like they do towards the other two, which is basically never talking to the other two but they'll reply to something i said once in a blue moon). It's weird.. i have another friend who i lost with C, but when she's around i don't feel panicked or anxious (i used to but not anymore and it just kinda stopped randomly). I just want to get over what happened but i can't. What should i do?

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someone see almost everyday make really anxious internet friend known since august last year best exactly one month ago awful shit think say anymore miss however happened whenever around forum use feel sometimes panicked never done anything bad way reason panicking deal two toxic worried like although act towards basically talking reply something said blue moon weird another lost used kinda stopped randomly want get

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Has anyone else ever got this feeling before? What I'm about to describe could sound a bit strange as it is a bit hard to put into words but I'll try to be as precise as possible. I'm not sure if this even falls into category of anxiety but the closest I can name it is "flash of insecurity". The earliest memory of having this kinda feeling was when I was a kid just chilling & jamming I'd be in my undies or whatever and if we had somebody coming over I'd get this felling from the thought of them coming to greet or smth and here I am mr. chill ft. undies. Generally it starts from a troubling thought, if I had something happen that I'm not happy of and I get this flash of insecurity in my chest and kinda travels up around the body a little sorta like a shock. All of this lasts for 3-5 seconds accompanied by the troubling thought. I have no closer words of putting it. It is not the same as being just nervous. Sometimes I can have this 1-2 times a day for a week and then forget this for years. Now this feeling rose not too long ago hence I was wondering.

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anyone else ever got feeling describe could sound bit strange hard put word try precise possible sure even fall category anxiety closest name flash insecurity earliest memory kinda kid chilling jamming undies whatever somebody coming get felling thought greet smth mr chill ft generally start troubling something happen happy chest travel around body little sorta like shock last second accompanied closer putting nervous sometimes time day week forget year rose long ago hence wondering

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What can I do to help my girlfriend when she has an anxiety/panic attack My girlfriend of 9 years has a history of medically diagnosed anxiety issues. Up until this point, she has been able to manage her anxiety without the use of prescription medications or therapy. Over the past couple weeks however, her anxiety issues have taken an ugly turn on her and she’s been calling me crying for no reason, fearing that she’s dying, and stating that she feels like she needs emergency medical attention. Unfortunately, we are not well off financially and cannot afford for her to see a therapist. I try my best to talk to her and calm her down. We do deep breathing exercises and talk about how she’s feeling to try to ease her mind. The minute I get off the phone with her though, she falls back into her anxiety pit. I’m starting to get frustrated that I can’t do anything to help her and it feels like she won’t take my advice to heart because I can’t relate or empathize with her emotions. I would really appreciate some advice on how to handle this situation and be able to empathize with her more on an emotional level.

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help girlfriend anxiety panic attack year history medically diagnosed issue point able manage without use prescription medication therapy past couple week however taken ugly turn calling cry reason fearing dying stating feel like need emergency medical attention unfortunately well financially cannot afford see therapist try best talk calm deep breathing exercise feeling ease mind minute get phone though fall back pit starting frustrated anything take advice heart relate empathize emotion would really appreciate handle situation emotional level

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Do I have anxiety? I would describe my symptoms as a constant sense of unease. That feeling that you’ve forgotten something or that you have something to do that you have been procrastinating and you know it needs to be done. A constant angst with no real reason. Very, very rarely do I have a day where I’m truly relaxed and I feel a huge weight off my shoulders. Once or maybe twice a year. No pattern to when I feel good or why. No significant change in my daily routine or life’s issues. Just a sudden and unexplained feeling of comfort and ease. I’ve seen a therapist and a psychiatrist and I’ve been diagnosed with moderate mood-disorder. I’ve tried two different medications at different times recently (Setraline 150 mg and Duloxetine 60mg) neither has made a difference.

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anxiety would describe symptom constant sense unease feeling forgotten something procrastinating know need done angst real reason rarely day truly relaxed feel huge weight shoulder maybe twice year pattern good significant change daily routine life issue sudden unexplained comfort ease seen therapist psychiatrist diagnosed moderate mood disorder tried two different medication time recently setraline mg duloxetine neither made difference

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Manager at my new job did something I think is inappropriate, but my anxiety makes me super sensitive. I just started a new job working with shelter dogs. It’s really hard for me to be the new person at work. My anxiety tells me all my co workers are making fun of me and hate me. I come off as extremely passive at work. I do whatever they want me to do and I do it well. This can cause issue with people walking all over me. My managers seem pretty laid back/ are silly and funny. It’s definitely not a professional work place. The other day I was watching over a dog and I’m trained to not really pick up/ or get down with our shelter dogs. Due to the fact, we don’t know them and they could be aggressive and bite. My manager and two shift leads see me with this dog. And my manager goes “pick the dog up! He loves being picked up he’s really nervous” so I’m like “ohhh okay” so I get down to pick the dog up and he moves away. I try again and my shift leads go “don’t pick him up!” And they all laugh and my manager goes “no I’m just joking he bites when he is scared” I felt so f*cking stupid I fell for that. Then analyzed for hours if that it had been a test to see how “smart”I was when it came to dogs. But then I thought, why would my manager put me at risk to prove a point? Or to make a joke out of me. If that dog had bitten me, which I was seconds from picking him up, he could have been euthanatized for “aggressive” behavior. Legally we have to report any bites or scratches an animal inflicts to a human. Which sucks but that’s how the shelter in my state works. I don’t know if I’m just being sensitive and it was just a simple joke or if this was inappropriate. It’s hard for me to see the whole picture when I’m so overly sensitive and anxious in the work place. Does anyone have any thoughts? Thank you in Advance.

axienty

manager new job something think inappropriate anxiety make super sensitive started working shelter dog really hard person work tell co worker making fun hate come extremely passive whatever want well cause issue people walking seem pretty laid back silly funny definitely professional place day watching trained pick get due fact know could aggressive bite two shift lead see go love picked nervous like ohhh okay move away try laugh joking scared felt cking stupid fell analyzed hour test smart came thought would put risk prove point joke bitten second picking euthanatized behavior legally report scratch animal inflicts human suck state simple whole picture overly anxious anyone thank advance

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I need some advice regarding medication Hi! Longtime lurker, first time poster here. I (21/f) am currently in therapy for a number of reasons, one of them being my anxiety. I don’t know what it is exactly, but it just goes so far that I’m not able to respond or even read any e-mails, text messages or write papers for my classes - sometimes it even keeps me from leaving my home to go to uni or work. Now, do any of you take medication to fight this? If yes, what kind of medication is it? I don’t want to take it every day but just when my anxiety gets so bad that it stops me from functioning like a normal human being.

axienty

need advice regarding medication hi longtime lurker first time poster currently therapy number reason one anxiety know exactly go far able respond even read mail text message write paper class sometimes keep leaving home uni work take fight yes kind want every day get bad stop functioning like normal human

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I just want left alone I don't feel bad about removing a person from my life forever. I was nasty and final with him. It was the only way I could be sure it would take. I have been crucified over what I did, some of it I know was 100% real, some was based into reality, and some of the static I received was totally fictional. I don't even want to talk to my family anymore. I feel everything is a attack. I think I might be going crazy and there is nothing I can do about it.

axienty

want left alone feel bad removing person life forever nasty final way could sure would take crucified know real based reality static received totally fictional even talk family anymore everything attack think might going crazy nothing

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Wanting to quit lexapro, how should I do it so I don't get nasty side effects? Been taking lexapro for a while now (5-6 months?), and feel I've reached the point where I don't need it and the side effects aren't worth it. I'm only taking 5 mg at the moment, so will it take a while to get off? I was thinking of doing this Week 1 - 2.5 mg Week 2 - stopping all together Is this a smart way to quit without the side effects? Am I going to get any withdraws?

axienty

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