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end comfort to it ia totally the the a of the of hia aod connect him by on and interest in the he compare the of the foreign and on the cant � ie i have never j et met a stranger in italy who did not profess to love rome here he and here he returns here though he be of the mould he be to a new and after a little while will find himself getting the feeling of a lover for the desolate places of the old city i have been disappointed in the ruins not in effect but in their condition the the the temple of and a few others they are such mere ruins so changed in and strip ed of their original that only serve to the or puzzle uie with that ef at onr new no wonder that in em i till iu own m in and with oar you bs i would not gin fat � ii in thia ha laid when had kept bit r spent the in wandering broken � � of the palace of the and a tbe roman ue tbe farm of tbe ui ia and at its ii tbe fragment of the wall ef a and a fan of in which wan one of that the modern waa hen though long ago wa mt aa we walked the with broken with dangling ity hanging oat the of the great men had walked and talked here and not than we when the of in rid and all the rf b but are objects in rome that your i honestly scarcely entered into mine these are the scenery of rome end ite the and pillars and e fountains which almost re of oriental as to art in rome antique and modem as you may imagine even my very of our pleasure it for us of uie new world a new life i have as yet said nothing to you of the churches of rome amply because so much has already been said and for another not quite as reason that so much to say i have no power to communicate there is little beauty in their exterior and that little is by being in by other the effect of the of an old village church in � its harmonious is better than that of any church in rome but compared with the interior of these churches any church that i have seen even vn cathedral is like a ed house the churches hare i� � to and with lo ban ib it for � period of nod a to put within the power ef these i a name a and a home with all il vol n � t � ie s h n to tiie art and wealth of tiie old world the columns that the temples of the gods now support the of the temple the and that adorned their palaces and the in which their and heroes were arc now consecrated to tjie of the saints the for water are now the which the pious catholic crosses himself these churches have been enriched too with the spoils of the eastern world with the of and queens from st s days to ours and with the of rich who hoped at the last to drive a good bargain by ng the treasures of the other world with those they could no longer enjoy in infinite industry has been employed on them and art has given them its works � such works as s guide s michael and s how i have sometimes wished for some of y u at home who have worshipped all your lives in a meeting to walk up the of maria ore with me a church very near us double low of most magnificent pillars which once adorned a temple of and passing by and laden with vessels of these are but � an of io for which ma been the either be hot men or they were to from of ter and gold where are forever burning he a re the pictures of saints and mar down with on the steps of the chapel tiie richest in the world it has cost millions and it is but a apartment of the church a rich to a chain there is a beautiful pavement the walls are with oriental the ceiling u painted with there are columns of and rich pictures in and splendid monuments not a square inch is left and yet dear c i think your eye would turn from all this to the lean b ar on th step you the is now a church and the pan once a temple for all the gods is now consecrated to the one true god the statues of the have disappeared from the and tha they are now filled with and the pictures of saints there is a little chapel of the near ttie i with pictures that you would like to see every day in the year but of all the � if i � of writing moat we of tha t that produced tha aod that he f of sl a t worship of tha ba long and with at m the of tha � bnt ia one in he al which we all offer our homage it i a the of feel in rome more than that of you see and el m he died at the age what a he achieved in thia brief period the of the man who never heard the name of without hat not to who been to rome in and i assure you i most renowned of the three and not me among them i hesitate as i except st peter s has given me more than maria it is built a of michael on the of s the roof is supported by hi e granite columns stood in s ball it is in | 6 |
crowd when mr price was only calling out come girls fan come sue take care of yourself keep a sharp i he ould give them his attendance once fairly in the dock yard he began to reckon upon some happy intercourse with as they were yery soon joined by a brother of mr price s who was come to take his daily survey of how things went on and who must prove a far more worthy companion than himself and after a time the two officers seemed very well satisfied in going about together and discussing matters of equal and never failing interest while the young people sat down upon some in the yard or found a seat on board a vessel in the stocks which they all went to look at was most conveniently in want of rest could not have wished her more fatigued or more ready to sit down but he could have wished her sister away a quick looking girl of s age was the very worst third in the world � totally different from lady � all eyes and ears and there was no introducing the main point before her he must content himself with being only generally agreeable and letting have her share of entertainment with the indulgence now and then of a look or hint for the better informed and conscious was what he had mostly to talk of there he had been some time and everything there was rising in importance from his present schemes such a man could come from no place no society without something to amuse his journeys his acquaintance were all of use and was park entertained in a way quite new to her for somewhat more was related than the accidental of the parties he had been in for her approbation the particular reason of his going into at all at this unusual time of year was given it had been real business relative to the renewal of a lease in which the welfare of a large and he believed industrious family was at stake he had suspected his agent of some dealing � of meaning to bias him against the deserving � and he had determined to go himself and thoroughly investigate the merits of the case he had gone had done even more good than he had foreseen had been useful to more than his first plan had comprehended and was now able to congratulate himself upon it and to feel that in performing a duty he had secured agreeable recollections for his own mind he had introduced himself to some tenants whom he had never seen before he had begun making acquaintance with cottages whose very existence though on his own estate had been hitherto unknown to him this was aimed and well aimed at it was pleasing to hear him speak so properly here he had been acting as he ought to do to be the friend of the poor and oppressed i nothing could be more grateful to her and she was on the point of giving him an look when it was all frightened off by his adding a something too pointed of his hoping soon to have an assistant a mend a guide in every plan of utility or charity for a somebody that would make and all about it a dearer object than it had ever been yet fare she turned away and wished he would not say such things she was willing to allow he might have more good qualities than she had been wont to suppose she began to feel the possibility of his turning out well at last but he was and must ever be completely to her and ought not to think of her he perceived that enough had been said of and that it would be as well to talk of something else and turned to he could not have chosen better that was a topic to bring back her attention and her looks almost instantly it was a real indulgence to her to hear or to speak of so long divided from everybody who knew the place she felt it quite the voice of a end when he mentioned it and led the way to her fond exclamations in praise of its beauties and comforts and by his honorable tribute to its inhabitants allowed her to gratify her own heart in the warmest in speaking of her uncle as all that was clever and good and her aunt as having the sweetest of all sweet he had a great attachment to himself he said so he looked forward with the hope of spending much very much of his time there � always there or in the neighborhood he particularly built upon a very happy summer and autumn there this year he felt that it would be so he depended upon it a summer and autumn infinitely superior to the last � as animated as as social but with circumstances of superiority indescribable park he continued � what a society will be in those houses and at perhaps a fourth may be added � some small hunting box in the vicinity of everything so dear for as to any in as once good proposed i hope i foresee two objections � two fair excellent irresistible objections to that plan was doubly silenced here though when the moment was passed could regret that she had not forced herself into the acknowledged comprehension of one half of his meaning and encouraged him to say something more of his sister and it was a subject which she must learn to speak of and the weakness that shrunk from it would soon be quite when mr price and his friend had seen all that they wished or had time for the others were ready to return and in the course of their walk back mr contrived a minute s privacy for telling that his only business in was | 26 |
h w m a fellow and of college author of england under the and ia with maps and illustrations s d a j d net a c see little library the system cr ax the and translated by cr ar d against and by f m a at see little library and l poems cr is td net l m a fellow of king s college cambridge the greek view of life fourth edition cr ax td h n f r met cr m ax u l sees q s see s library and little books on art p h x m a f s a the story of our english towns with an introduction by d d second edition cr s old english customs at the present time cr s see also half crown library w m x m a a of second edition cr s d english poetry from to second edition cr as d n h famous with portraits tv o volumes net may songs of the real cr d net a volume of poems james the man in the pulpit cr as d d d lord bishop of see a library o see books on business general literature r� d d d cl of christ of hebrew in the of oxford sermons on subjects connected with the old testament cr mu f ee also westminster see little guides a k x see little books on see books on business t d sc y a general science with illustrations second m cr v d a b r sc see junior school books and of science of a report on canada with an note v as d ful a v a popular guide to medium vo d mi the with coloured illustrations by frank south cr s see also little guides bishop of or a piece of the world discovered post j as j b r e d a q m g see w wood see s q s w see commercial series pierce see i p l h b m a a history of british policy new r issue ns d net a edition is also c o see the little guides p q see s j stone the history of the life of by c g m a cr s see w h d rouse a book called in latin en and in english the manual of the christian knight from the edition printed by de j ca d net w h m a the of t h green second edition cr s d the garden of asia second edition cr s a edition is also published beauties of the century with illustrations vo d net or the life and opinions of a of ment with coloured plates post x m s d net see little library cr m c e see books on business see standard library w s tory of the english soldier i wars the a see junior examination c h m a army a history the and the cr s o w m a annals of school d edward op from the fifth and last edition with a by mrs and a biography of by � d cr ev or see also miniature library h p a hand book of and wall shrubs d net w h m a d cl of the dean school the students prayer book thb op morning and evening and with an introduction and notes cr as d a w m a dow professor of political economy in m university principles js d mrs see little books on art david a modern or war and in the far east illustrated cr s a edition is also published j p round the world on a wheel with illustrations fourth edition cr s a o edition is also published french w m a see of science von a short manual for the use of students translated by j r m a second cr s d h w m a see s bible c a and p c a john bull s ad in the won by ss with illustrations by f second edition cr is net d and stead d w the complete with an account of the tour of the new in england with d net w m see little guides esq see l mrs see little library and standard library the right rev o s b see s books messrs s catalogue c battles of with w f cr ip a geography of the british empire � � a if h d� b a in in england outlines bt a companion german grammar the history of england � with m pi l cr ii english social c if see series s q si t h e n� an d fall of tke roman empire a new � � map by j b d of ck it cambridge � vm r mm s � � gi ji f v cf or my life and writ by g b m german passages for b and an text book witb lai � a co m a t pf st john � notes on greek and latin cr ii e t x m a sm au i a� ca h m a a history of during republic and the early v d� my vo vol l i j i ii c i� a sm e a the vault of heaven a to c � ti b sec of a by j a cr ji h c l a l and illustrated d my c general literature reading and readers � w is td n� see little health wealth and wisdom cr js net r see little guides heath see s library studies in saint ship translated from the french by v m d b w x fellow of college oxford the life and of the emperor illustrated and vo js d at intervals s d tut t p see little library | 17 |
i added with enthusiasm for i now saw what the poor girl must have suffered didn t try to go further did he he did she said her voice trembling with emotion he set the time and place for the wedding issued the cards provided me with a � a based upon his of what a ought to be and therefore about as satisfactory to a woman a rebellious heroine of taste as that silk costume of the garden party he engaged the chose my � girls i detested � and finally assembled the guests the groom was there at the rail mr whom he had selected to give me away was waiting outside in the clad in his a flower in his button hole and his arm ready for the bride to lean on the minister was behind the rail the wedding march was sounding � and you i cried utterly unable to contain myself longer i was past on the three o clock express � bound hither she answered with a significant toss of her head no one but yourself knows where i am and i have summoned you to explain my action before a summons north you hear of it from him i do not wish to be had his warning but he chose to it and he can get out of the difficulty he has brought upon himself in his own way � possibly he will destroy the whole book but i wanted you to know that while he did not keep the faith i did i suddenly realized the appalling truth my own weakness was responsible for it all i had not told of my interview and her promise feeling that it was not necessary and fearing its effect upon his pride i may add she said quietly that i am bitterly disappointed in your friend i was interested in him and believed in him most of my acts of rebellion � if you can call me rebellious � were prompted by my desire to keep o a rebellious heroine him true to his creed and i will tell you what i have never told to another i regarded almost as an ideal man but this has changed it all if he was what i thought him he could not have acted with so little conscience as to try to force this match upon me when he must have known that i did not love henry he didn t know i said he should have been sure before providing for the ceremony after hearing what i had promised you i would and would not do said but � i never told him anything about your promise i shouted desperately he has done all this is that true didn t you tell him she cried eagerly grasping my hand a summons north her manner left no doubt in my mind as to who the hero of her choice would be � and again i sighed to think that it was not i as true as that i stand here i said i never told him she shrugged her shoulders oh well you know what i mean i said excitedly wherever i do stand it s as true as that i stand there the phrase was awkward but it fulfilled its purpose why didn t you tell him she asked because i didn t think it necessary fact is i added i had a sort of notion that if you married anybody in one of s books if had his own way it would be to the man who tells the o a rebellious heroine a loud noise interrupted my remark and i started up in alarm and in an instant i found myself back in my rooms in town once more the little mountain house near lake george with its interesting and beautiful guest had faded from sight and i realized that somebody was with a stick upon my door there i cried what s wanted it s i � came s voice let me in i unlocked the door and he entered the brown of had gone and he was his broken self again well i said trying to his appearance which really shocked me how s the book got it done he sank into a chair with a groan a summons north hang the book � it s all up with that i m going to to morrow and call the thing off he said she won t work � two weeks steady application gone for nothing oh come i said not as bad as that precisely as bad as that he retorted what can a fellow do if his heroine as completely as if the earth had opened and swallowed her up gone i cried with difficulty my desire to laugh completely � searched high and low for her � no earthly use he answered i can t even imagine where she is all of which my dear i said a superior tone for the moment shows that an imagination that is worth something wouldn t be a a rebellious heroine bad possession for a after all i know where your heroine is she is at a little mountain house near lake george and she has fled there to escape your of a hero whom you should have known better than to force upon a girl like you re getting my dear boy sacrifice something to the american girl but don t sacrifice your art just because the girl likes her stories to end up with a wedding is no reason why you should try to condemn your heroine to life long misery looked at me with a puzzled expression for a full minute how the deuce do you know anything about it he asked i immediately enlightened him i told him every circumstance � even my a summons north suspicion as to the hero of her heart and it seemed to please | 27 |
the matter and had no voice at all asserted they sang together once more and would then resign her place to miss whose performance both and she never could attempt to conceal from herself was infinitely superior to her own with mixed feelings she seated herself at a little distance from the numbers round the instrument to listen frank sang again they had sung together once or twice it appeared at but the sight of mr among the most attentive soon drew away half s mind and she fell into a train of thinking on the subject of mrs s suspicions to which the sweet sounds of the united voices gave only momentary her objections to mr s marrying did not in the least she could see nothing but evil in it it would be a great disappointment to mr john consequently to a real injury to the children � a most change and material loss to them all � a very great from her father s daily comfort � and as to herself she could not at all endure the idea of jane at abbey a mrs for them all to give way to i no mr must never marry little henry must remain the heir of presently mr looked back and came and sat down by her they talked at first only of the performance his admiration was certainly very warm yet she thought but for mrs it would not have struck her as a sort of however she began to speak of his kindness in conveying the aunt and niece and though his answer was in the spirit of cutting the matter short she believed it to indicate only his nation to dwell on any kindness of his own � i often feel concerned said she that i dare not make our carriage more useful on such occasions it is not that i am without the wish but you know how impossible my father would deem it that james should put to for such a purpose quite out of the question quite out of the question he replied but you must often wish it i am sure and he smiled with such seeming pleasure at the conviction that she must proceed another step this present from the said she � this piano is very kindly given yes he replied and without the smallest apparent embarrassment but they would have done better had they given her notice of it surprises are foolish things the pleasure is not and the inconvenience is often considerable i should have expected better judgment in colonel from that moment could have taken her oath that mr had had no concern in giving the instrument but whether he were entirely free from peculiar attachment � whether there were no actual preference � remained a little longer doubtful towards the end of jane s second song her voice grew thick that will do said he when it was finished thinking aloud you have sung quite enough for one evening now be quiet another song however was soon begged for one more they would not fatigue miss on any account and would only ask for one more and frank was heard to say i think you could manage this without effort the first part is so very trifling the strength of the song falls on the second mr grew angry that fellow said he indignantly thinks of nothing but showing off his own voice this must not be and touching miss who at that moment passed near � miss are you mad to let your niece sing herself hoarse in this manner go and interfere they have no mercy on her miss in her real anxiety for jane could hardly stay even to be grateful before she stepped forward and put an end to all further singing here ceased the concert part of the evening for miss and miss were the only young lady but soon within five minutes the proposal of dancing � nobody exactly knew where � was so effectually promoted by mr and mrs that everything was rapidly clearing away to give proper space mrs capital in her country dances was seated and beginning an irresistible and frank coming up with most becoming gallantry to had secured her hand and led her up to the top while waiting till the other young people could pair themselves off found time in spite of the compliments she was receiving on her voice and her taste to look about and see what became of mr this would be a trial he was no in general if he were to be very alert in engaging jane now it might something there was no immediate appearance no he was talking to mrs � he was looking on jane was asked by somebody else and he was still talking to mrs had no longer an alarm for henry his interest was yet safe and she led o� e the dance with genuine spirit and enjoyment not more than five couple could be but the and the suddenness of it made it very delightful and she found herself well matched in a partner they were a couple worth looking at two dances unfortunately were all that could be allowed it was growing late and miss became anxious to get home on her mother s account after some attempts therefore to be permitted to begin again they were obliged to thank mrs look sorrowful and have done perhaps it is as well said frank as he attended to her carriage i must have asked miss and her dancing would not have agreed with me after yours chapter did not repent her condescension in going to the the visit afforded her many pleasant recollections the next day and all that she might be supposed to have lost on the side of dignified seclusion must be amply repaid in the splendor of popularity she must have delighted the � worthy people who deserved | 26 |
hard and groaning her husband was tied to the gaily painted the door of the hut that opened into the street was shut fast and three or four people were sitting with their backs to it knew the manners and customs of the villagers very fairly he argued that so long as they could eat and talk and smoke they would not do anything else but as soon as they had fed they would begin to be dangerous would be coming in before long and if his escort the second book had done its duty would have a very interesting tale to tell so he went in through the window and stooping over the man and the woman cut their pulling out the and looked round the hut for some milk was half wild with pain and fear she had been beaten and all the morning and put his hand over her mouth just in time to stop a scream her husband was only bewildered and angry and sat picking dust and things out of his torn beard i knew � i knew he would come sobbed at last now do i know that he is my son and she to her heart up to that time had been perfectly steady but now he began to tremble all over and that surprised him immensely why are these why have they tied thee he asked after a pause to be put to the death for making a son of thee � what else said the man sullenly look i said nothing but it was at her wounds that looked and they heard him his teeth when he saw the blood whose work is this said he there is a price to pay letting in the the work of all the village i was too rich i had too many cattle therefore she and i are because we gave thee shelter i do not understand let tell the tale i gave thee milk dost thou remember said timidly because thou my son whom the tiger took and because i loved thee very dearly they said that i was thy mother the mother of a devil and therefore worthy of death and what is a devil said death i have seen the man looked up gloomily but laughed see she said to her husband i knew � i said that he was no he is my son � my son son or what good will that do us the man answered we be as dead already yonder is the road to the � pointed through the window your hands and feet are free go now we do not know the my son as � as thou began i do not think that i could walk far and the men and women would be upon our backs and drag us here again said the husband the second book h m said and he the palm of his hand with the tip of his knife i have no wish to do harm to any one of this village � but i do not think they will stay thee in a little while they will have much else to think upon ah he lifted his head and listened to shouting and outside so they have let come home at last he was sent out this morning to kill thee cried thou meet him yes � we � i met him he has a tale to tell and while he is telling it there is time to do much but first i will learn what they mean think where ye would go and tell me when i come back he bounded through the window and ran along again outside the wall of the village till he came within ear shot of the crowd round the tree was lying on the ground and groaning and every one was asking him questions his hair had fallen about his shoulders his hands and legs were from climbing up trees and he could hardly speak but he felt the importance of his position keenly from time to time he said something about devils and singing devils and magic enchantment just to give the crowd a taste of what was coming then he called for water letting in the said chatter � chatter talk talk men are blood brothers of the log now he must wash his mouth with water now he must blow smoke and when all that is done he has still his story to tell they are very wise people � men they will leave no one to guard till their ears are stuffed with s tales and � i grow as lazy as they he shook himself and glided back to the hut just as he was at the window he felt a touch on his foot mother said he for he knew that tongue well what dost thou here i heard my children singing through the woods and i followed the one i loved best little i have a desire to see that woman who gave thee milk said mother wolf all wet with the dew they have bound and mean to kill her i have cut those ties and she goes with her man through the i also will follow i am old but not yet mother wolf reared herself up on end and looked through the window into the dark of the hut in a minute she dropped noiselessly and all the second book she said was i gave thee thy first milk but speaks truth man goes to man at the last maybe said with a very unpleasant look on his face but to night i am very far from that trail wait here but do not let her see thou never afraid of little said mother wolf into the high grass and herself out as she knew how and now said cheerfully as he swung into the hut again they are all sitting | 39 |
and his brothers in law and hit the hi h places for forty mile where they filed on the claims before captain and the creek and was forgotten no word of it reached him his promise weeks afterward when and were from end to end and there was no more r m m a party of late comers pushed over the down to gold bottom where found still at work when told him they were from he was he had never heard o such a place but when they described it rt ni it as rabbit creek then told him of its marvellous richness and as gold hunters of the north relates when realized what he had lost through s treachery he threw down his and went and sat on the bank so sick at heart that it was some time before he could speak then there were the rest of the old the men of forty mile and circle city at the time of the discovery nearly all of them were over to the west at work in the old or for new ones as they said of themselves they were the kind of men who are always caught out with forks when it rains soup in the that followed the news of s strike very few old took part they were not there to take part but the men who did go on the were mainly the worthless ones the and the camp on and while bob away to the east and the heroes away to the west the and went up and but the was not yet done with its joke when fall came on and the heroes returned to forty mile and to circle city they listened calmly to the up river tales of discoveries and prospects and shook their heads they judged by the gold hunters of the north of the men interested and it a game but glowing reports continued to down the and a few of the old went up to see they looked over the ground � the place for gold in all their experience � and they went down the river again leaving it to the again the turned the tables the gold hunter is not so much for his as for his inability to tell the precise truth in a country of he likewise is prone to description of things actual but when it came to he could not stretch the truth as fast as the truth itself stretched first got a dollar pan he lied when he said it was two dollars and a half and when those who doubted him did get two and a half they said they were getting an and lo ere the lie had fairly started on its way they were getting not one but five this they claimed was six but when they filled a pan of dirt to prove the lie they washed out twelve and so it went they continued to lie but the truth continued to them but the s laugh was not gold hunters of the north yet ended when was from mouth to source those who had failed to get in and went up the and was one of these and many men after on it� turned their backs upon their claims and never gave them a second thought one man sold a half interest in five hundred feet of it for a sack of flour other owners wandered around trying to men into buying them out for a song and then showed up it was far far richer than with an average value of a thousand dollars a foot to every foot of it a named had been at work on miller creek the year of the strike and arrived in with a few hundred dollars two who had no decided that he was the proper man upon whom to he was too to approach sober so at considerable expense they got him drunk even then it was hard work but they kept him for several days and finally him into buying no for when up he wept at his folly and pleaded to have his money back but the men who had him were hard hearted gold hunters of the north they laughed at and kicked themselves for not having tapped him for a couple of hundred more nothing remained for but ground this he did and out of it he took over three quarters of a million of dollars it was not till frank who already had big on creek took a hand that the old developed faith in the new received a letter from a man on the calling it the biggest thing in the world and his dogs and went up to investigate and when he sent a letter back saying that he had never seen anything like it circle city for the first time believed and at once was one of the wild est the country had ever seen or ever will see every dog was taken many went without dogs and even the women and children and hit the three hundred miles of ice through the long night for the biggest thing in the world it is related that but twenty people mostly and unable to travel were left in circle city when the smoke of the last disappeared up the since that time gold has been discovered in all manner of places under the grass roots of the hill gold hunters of the north side benches in the bottom of island and in the sands of the sea at and now the gold hunter who knows his business the favorable looking spots confident in his hard won knowledge that he will find the most gold in the least likely place this is sometimes to support the theory that the gold hunters rather than the are the men who will ultimately win to the pole who knows it is in their | 21 |
so but i have not yet long enough to fo et what was tho n rt of the party being scattered � the called mr s attention to i� t� r lay do look at mr and standing � the ceremony were going to be pi not tliey completely the air of it mr smiled his and stepping forward lo s iii in a which only could hear i do nut like to so near the starting lady moved or two but a moment to h and him not much louder � if he would her away i am ail aid should do it awkwardly was hie reply j ft look of at the carried on the joke my word it la really a pity thai it should not if we had bat d proper for hi ru we are all tor g and id in the world could ihe laughed about it wit i comprehension of mr his and her to the whispered of her lover with proper smiles and dignity of its happy event to her whenever it place if were but in cried and run he stood witb and f you were hut in orders now you might perform ttie unlucky that you are not and maria are quite s countenance as spoke might have k er it observer she looked aghast under i ihe was receiving pitied her distress will bo at what said just now passed across her mind miss what are you ti i shall take orders soon after my father s i j � tr t known this i would have r respect and turned j afterwards to the silence and still witli few the j with her led way � they had been there long enough the house been now entirely and t weary in cause and taken w i not � rt s l� e k s� ii � si which many n clearer head not always n are too long going over the ate not time for u to be done out it it put two and are to dine at five mrs and with he aod the how likely to be more agitated and mrs beginning to arrange by of and could be done when young meeting with an outward door on a flight of h led ly to and shrubs and all tlie of pleasure as by one impulse one wish for air and liberty loi walked out suppose we turn down here tar the said ru b taking the hint and here are tbe of plants and here are the mr round � whether wo may not something to employ us here before we go i see of promise mr we on lawn said mrs to her son i believe the will be new to m the party the have never the wilderness f et no was made but for some time there no in to move plan all were attract at first by the or tlie and all dispersed in happy independence mr was the first to move tar co examine the of that end of the on wn bounded on side by a high wall tile planted area a green and beyond the terrace walk backed by iron and a view over them into the tops of the trees of tlie adjoining it a good spot for was soon by miss and mr and after a uttle time tiie others began to form into � were found in busy consultation on the terrace if miss and who seemed a to and who after a of their ri r i ii left them and walked on the i � mrs and were f r happy star no longer was l i i t ride mn and her ui i ti lu lady s slow pace while her aunt having fallen in with ttie i who was come out to feed the was h in gossip with her poor the only one out of w i tolerably satisfied with their lot was now in a i ul penance and as rent from the of t i well be imagined the � t v ap to practise m a � the want of that higher et t el � a � � l principle af right had i u � h her miserable und t tt h is hot said miss the bad � one turn oo tbe and were drawing a door in the middle h opened to the sa i us object to being is a little wood od but get into u what tbe door not be locked but of it is for in these great places the ate the only people who can go they like the door bon ever not to be locked aad they were all t reed in joyfully it and the oc day a considerable flight of steps them io wilderness which was a planted wood of about two acres wi though chiefly of and and cut and laid out with too much regularity was and soil natural beauty compared with the and terrace they all felt the of it and tor some time could only walk and at length after a short began with sa you arc to be a clergyman mr is rather a surprise to me should it surprise you you must suppose me designed ic some profession and might perceive that i am � lawyer a � or a very but in short it bad not occurred to me and you know there is generally an uncle or a grandfather to leave a to tlie second son jl vary practice but not quite universal i am one of the exceptions and o something for myself but are you to be a clergyman i thought s tbe lot of the youngest there were many tc � j yon think he church itself is never chosen then never is a black word bnt yes in the never of | 26 |
her whether they might not as well go home at once � � why inquired who was stooping to tie her and consequently did not perceive s uneasiness � we are very wet � and your cold may be made worse you know i think we might as well go we have been et you mean we are not wet now � and my cold is quite gone oh i think we had better stay � it will seem so odd to go before tea very well said who thought it might seem odd and also dreaded mr s offering to escort them home the miss brother richard who had been expected the night before had arrived at the in their absence and was coming to t ea he presently entered with hie sam good i thought would be here said he to after looking round the room he was here in the � he went home with a headache did he if i had known that i would have looked in on him � i would rather have spent a quiet half hour with him than have come into this noise and bustle for i feel rather stupid this evening myself what an uproar the miss are making with mr did yo have any champagne to day every body seems in tip top spirits i am sure i am not no you look pale and tired ten to one you have increased your cold by getting very warm with walking in the sun in the first place and then sitting on wet grass or standing under a tree where there is always sure to be a draught enough to give half of the party don t put such shocking things into my head well i hope nothing will come of it how i feel this evening mr is with now i suppose he ll the tour of the room i don t think so much of his manners now i have seen is a man of the world but is a man of birth and breeding good heavens what a laugh brown has not much breeding to spare in that quarter i think people may come from london and yet not abound in gen i wonder whereabouts that is they are always talking of a good way from the west end i should fancy why what makes you so bitter to night am i bitter well then to please you i ll try to be sweet what a sweet miss holland has on you ought to offer your services to her at the tea table no no there are men enough to do that without me i shall pretend not to see i am wanted we are such a large party that there are not enough chairs and if i were to leave my place mr would whip it up before i could say jack robinson he has been shifting from one foot to another these ten minutes i dare say he is tired with his walk his walk i what a walk not half so far as i have been to day all over to on foot and nobody at home when i got there if that was not enough to � ha ha ha � what are you laughing at i have found out what makes you so surly i surly colouring if i am surly it is because i am tired and vexed with walking five miles in the sun and five miles back again in the rain and all for nothing there i have caught miss holland s eye now she to i must go what a pity when you and i were so pleasantly talking off our weariness to each other lost his place as he had anticipated and seemed resigned to the change in her companions a noisy tea was succeeded by a more noisy game of for the sake of the young goods though it was carried on with equal spirit by many of the grown up members of the party farmer holland loved to promote merriment and and delighted him by the with which they kept up the game towards nine o clock found himself walking home between his sisters well said he i hope you and mr have been talking nonsense to each other s satisfaction now don t be ill humoured people do not vol i oat to make themselves disagreeable to their hosts and do they why only i think there was rather too of it to night � of what of noise and and � oh i know what else you could call holland s ofi with mr s hat and his running her oh there i with you i thought you were alluding to me and even you � began and even then said appearing not to hear him it was holland s and poor mr ran after his hat very unwillingly it is my opinion said abruptly that grown people ought never to play at children s games they are sure to go too or else look awkward as did tonight when it was her turn to their mirth can never be like the mirth of children ignorance of decorum and wilful forgetfulness of it are two very different things very different repeated and i am sure you wished more than once that my mother had been of the party well said with a sigh altogether it has been a pleasant day i should not have thought a rainy could have been very delightful oh but my dear the rain did not begin till dinner was quite over and even then we amused ourselves very well under the trees how by telling stories mr invented a most beautiful tale i on the spur of the moment i and what do you think i he plays the i i repeated he with emphasis that has lowered him ten per cent in my opinion how ridiculous how | 2 |
it is impossible to do anything with my father especially at this time for he has one of these english officers staying at the dove now who i am afraid and so is sister has come to do some mischief says i must make some appointment with you to see her privately i thought of mrs s but this englishman has a servant staying over there and may be it wouldn t do so major you will have to ride down to the big chestnut on the bank of the river just under the rock that we call the s tower � you know where that is it isn t more than two miles from here i know it well henry i will wait there patiently replied butler as he now returned to his horse haven t we been in luck said henry to get so fine a buck at last this fellow has eight branches it is s rifle tha has done it the during this conversation had taken possession of his spoil and was now busily engaged with his knife in cutting open and preparing the animal for according to the of whilst robinson stood by admiring the dexterity with which this office was performed when the buck was at last thrown by across his horse henry gave him orders to ride forward you will carry our game to your own house and don t forget to morrow to let us have the saddle at the dove and you need not say that we hare found any acquaintances upon the road you understand the man bowed his head in token of obedience and getting upon his long backed behind the buck was soon lost to view in the of the hill sister is sometimes downright melancholy said the young hunter after he had and now rode beside butler horse robinson she is troubled about you and is always telling me of some unpleasant dream i almost think she is over fanciful and then she reads everything about the army and talks almost like a man about do you know she is making a soldier of me i am constantly reading military books and and laying out just as if i was going into camp my father doesn t know a word of it his time is taken up with these english officers writing to them and every now and then there are some of them at our house knows them � a famous spy she would make isn t she an excellent girl major butler a you and i should guard her henry with more care than we guard our lives replied butler with a serious emphasis i hope returned henry she will be in better spirits after she sees you i would to heaven said butler that we all had more reason to be of good cheer than we are likely to have it is as cloudy a day henry as you may ever behold again should you live as i pray you may to the old age henry looked up towards the west there are clouds upon the sky he said and the sun has dropped below them but there is a streak of yellow light near to the line of the mountain that our wise people say is a sign that the sun will rise in beauty to morrow there is a light beyond the mountain replied butler half speaking to himself and it is the best the only sign i see of a dear to morrow i wish henry it were a brighter beam don t you know gates has passed south said henry an has some pretty fellows with him they say and ar n t we all here � every man most ask foster what i am and what will he tell me why that i am his in the mounted is the lieutenant oh i your favor brother officer good master henry and does your father allow you to ride in the ranks of the friends of liberty sister persuaded him that as i am a mere lad as she says � look at me major � a pretty well grown lad i take it there � horse shoe is no harm in my playing soldier so i ride always with foster and got me this light rifle now major i fancy i am pretty nearly as good a as rides in the corps who is this with you asked henry looking back at robinson who some distance in the rear purposely to avoid what might be deemed an intrusion upon the private conference of the two friends that is a famous soldier henry he was at the siege of and last year at he has had some hard blows and can tell you more of war than you have ever read in all your studies he wears a curious uniform said henry for a soldier what is his name robinson � or horse shoe robinson � to give him his most popular distinction but it would be well to keep his name secret i have heard of horse shoe said henry with an expression of great interest so this is the man himself from all reports he is as brave as � as who asked butler smiling at the tone of wonder which henry spoke as who i make no doubt major was about the man in the books butler laughed and applauded the young for his the road from the foot of the hill pursued the left or northern bank of the which shot along with a rapid flood over the rocks that lay scattered in its bed and the of whose flight fell upon the ear like the loud tones of the wind from either margin it was shaded by huge whose tops at this twilight hour were marked in broad lines upon the sky and whose wide spreading boughs met from side to side over the middle | 29 |
gestures and words others in moody silence listen i pray you gathered here i tell you frankly that i know not why your master wages this wild war with me i know not what he seeks by such injustice unless to give me practice in my that of a soldier � i was i deemed he my craft might dip from me let him now own me still a therein permit me your imperial majesty to speak one word in answer which is this no war was wished for by my emperor russia constrained him to it i h � � � the napoleon if that be you are no more a european power � i would point out to him that my resources are not confined to these my here my prisoners of war in route for france will see some marks of my resources there two hundred thousand right fit will join my standards at a single nod and in six weeks prove soldiers to the bone s can scarce become sound warriors in long years but i want nothing on this continent the english only are my enemies ships colonies and commerce i desire yea to advantage you as me let me then charge your emperor my brother to turn his feet the shortest way to peace � all states must have an end the weak the strong ay even may fall the of i the past and laying down of arms by the army continues with monotonous regularity as if it would never end napoleon in a murmur after a while well what cares england i she has won her game i have to threaten her from the act iy her gold it is that forms the of this fair of armies here likewise of russia s drawing steadily nigh but they may see what these see by and by spirit of the years so let him speak the we clearly sight him moved like a figure on a lantern slide which much amazing eyes the all crystal pane but whither the wills spirit and ye t my friend the will itself might smile at this of s men at so done even in your the of the slide might smile at his own art chorus of the years music no ah no i it is as snow � within the great these painted shapes awaken a lesser thrill than doth the gentle lave of yonder bank by s wandering wave within the heights that give it flow i scene vi the spirit of the but o the intolerable of making feel spirit logic s in that it does not i must own quite play the game chorus of spirits music and this day wins for a shady fame which centuries shall not from her old name the procession of continues till the scene is hidden by clouds scene vi london spring gardens before lord s house on a sunday morning in the same autumn pause and gather in the background enters and meets lord good day ay these leaves that the ground with withered voices hint that is well nigh past � and so the game s begun the act it between him and the russian force as second movement in the from shore with which he has us � what has been heard on t have they as yet the emperor francis partly at my instance has thrown the chief command on general a man most capable and far of sight he by the bank at a town well walled and firm for leaning on to the french in their advance from the black forest towards the russian troops approaching from the east if sustain his at the break neck speed that all report they must have met ere now � there is a rumour which i don t believe you still have in as there have been doubts of his far hastily i know i know � i am calling here at s at a somewhat time to ask his help to this dutch print scene vi the the post has brought is great at dutch learning it long at years ago he draws a newspaper from his pocket it and glances it down there s news here unintelligible to me upon the very matter you ll come in they call at lord s he meets them in the hall and them with an apprehensive look of pardon this early call the packet s in and brings me this dutch paper so as the offices are closed to day i have brought it round to you handing the paper what does it say for god s sake read it out you know the tongue th hesitation i have glanced it through already � more than once � a copy having reached me too just now � we are in the presence of a great disaster see here it says that in k the act iv by � from four sides closing round � and with all his force laid down his arms before his conqueror changes a silence outrageous by god my lord these statements must be false these foreign prints are as cheap jack at a country fair i heed no word of it � impossible what eighty thousand nigh in touch with russia s that leads to lay down arms before the war s b un tis too much but i fear it is too true note the source of the report � one beyond thought of of mock tales the writer adds that military wits cry that the little now makes war in a new way using his soldiers legs scene vi the and not their arms to bring him victory ha ha the joke must sting the s foes after a pause o i had she moved had she but planted one foot firmly down all this had been averted � i must go tis sure tis sure i | 45 |
voice is raised to the pitch of which it is capable a sort of on occasion even when most and attacked have i ever known him betray a this is the source of great mortification to his have often seen sir robert labour with his might to the temper of i� rd john but never with effect in ct sir robert and hia party see � g the to be hopeless have all hut ceased to bo severe � rd i i admirable his judgment ji good as to the best course to be pursued in all cases of i am satisfied he in this respect no l in the house am persuaded there is not a man out of the six hundred and fifty seven who would had he been in his situation of leader of the opposition before the of the have acted in the circumstances in which he was then placed with equal judgment and discretion the difficulties of hia position during the did not chiefly arise from the number and ot the adverse party these were enough certainly but the principally arose the of the most zealous and honest of the some of these were day after day intent on bringing forward special motions to bring the question as they said of which party waa to triumph m the house to a decision at once one expedient with this view suggested by a very large number of the radical party and in many others was that of proposing a formal vote of want of confidence in sir robert s government lord john opposed this as step and one which there was every reason to fear would be the means of establishing the very government it was intended to overthrow inasmuch as many sincere r� would have against such a motion on the around that as sir robert demanded a fair trial it would be advisable to let him have it � as then in event of his failing to forward liberal measures the of his government would be hailed by all classes of in the country while the mouths of hia own party would be shut as to any charges against the liberal party of unfair conduct or of sir robert s government being condemned unheard then came the proposition of mr founded on a of sir john in an speech at to stop the supplies mr gave formal notice of a motion to that effect and he was encouraged to in it by a considerable portion of the liberal press and by a very large proportion of the liberal members of the house of lord john saw that the result would f e the very reverse of what mr and others had anticipated � that instead of a majority for such a motion there would be ft considerable majority a it he saw clearly that many would vote against it on the ground that were anxious lo avoid everything which could be into a opposition to sir s government while would be equally adverse to it from an apprehension hit spring tliat if carried it would be attended with serious consequences to the credit of the country sir robert himself saw tlie matter in the fame light and hence to use his own words he panted for either motion being brought forward as the of it could not fail to be the salvation of his government ix rd john in both these respects evinced judgment and also a decision of character which but very few possess for on the one he was to bring forward some such motions himself by means of the most flattery and on the other when he expressed his of such a course he was charged by many less reform members with purposely betraying the liberal cause and playing into the hands of the he wisely determined to wait the first opportunity which would be the of joining issue with the government by sir robert himself bringing forward some motion some great principle the irish bill of sir robert furnished that opportunity as it made no allusion either to the actual existence of any property in the church of ireland or to its lord john determined on moving that no bill for ireland would be satisfactory to the house which did not recognize the principle of to the g purposes of education any in the irish church which might be found to exist this brought the matter to a bearing at once no could shrink from asserting that principle there was no room for the of motives on the part of the liberal party the opportunity of asserting their principles was not of their own seeking however anxiously they may have longed for it the necessity was in a manner imposed on them by sir robert himself as it would have been deemed by the country a cowardly of their principles to have suffered the bill to be read a second time without with it the record of their sentiments on the question of both subjects being so closely associated together in the case of ireland the event proved the of the judgment and the excellence of the of lord john mr spring the of the and member for cambridge is perhaps from the prominent part he takes in the in the house the next member of the cabinet entitled to notice like lord john he is of stature though not nearly so made mr spring rice though small in size he has a rather handsome person of which however he is proud he is somewhat of a he wears a profusion of rings on his fingers i think i have counted on more than one occasion seven or eight though i will not now be positive as to the exact number he usually wears a green and a smart black stock the collar of his shirt is of unusual height james the shepherd in his that the first time he | 24 |
haunt the old spots of which i never tired i haunted them as my memory had often done and lingered among them as my younger thoughts had lingered when i was far away the grave beneath the tree where both my parents lay � on which i had looked out when it was my father s only with such curious feelings of compassion and by which i had stood so desolate when it was opened to receive my pretty mother and her the grave which s own faithful care had ever since kept neat and made a garden of i walked near by the hour it lay a little off the church yard path in a quiet corner not so far removed but i could read the names upon the stone as i walked to and fro startled by the sound of the church bell when it struck the hour for it was like a departed voice to me my reflections at these times were always associated with the figure i was to make in life and the distinguished things i was to do my echoing footsteps went to no other tune but were as constant to that as if i had come home to build my castles in the air at a living mother s side the personal history and experience there were great changes in my old home the ragged nests so long deserted by the were gone and the trees were and out of their remembered shapes the garden had run wild and half the windows of the house were shut up it was occupied but only by a poor lunatic gentleman and the people who took care of him he was always sitting at my little window looking out into the church yard and i wondered whether his rambling thoughts ever went upon any of the fancies that used to occupy mine on the rosy mornings when i peeped out of that same little window in my night clothes and saw the sheep quietly feeding in the light of the rising sun our old neighbours mr and mrs were gone to south america and the rain had made its way through the roof of their empty house and stained the outer walls mr was married again to a tall high wife and they had a little baby with a heavy head that it couldn t hold up and two weak staring eyes with which it seemed to be always wondering why it had ever been born it was with a singular of sadness and pleasure that i used to linger about my native place until the winter sun me that it was time to start on my returning walk but when the place was left behind and especially when and i were happily seated over our dinner by a blazing fire it was delicious to think of having been there so it was though in a softened degree when i went to my neat room at night and turning over the leaves of the book which was always there upon a little table remembered with a grateful heart how i was in having such a friend as such a friend as and such a substitute for what i had lost as my excellent and generous aunt my nearest way to in coming back from these long walks was by a it landed me on the flat between the town and the sea which i could make straight across and so save myself a considerable circuit by the high road mr s house being on that waste place and not a hundred yards out of my track i always looked in as i went by was pretty sure to be there expecting me and we went on together through the frosty air and gathering fog towards the twinkling lights of the town one dark evening when i was later than usual � for i had that day been making my parting visit to as we were now about to return home � i found him alone in mr s house sitting thoughtfully before the fire he was so intent upon his own reflections that he was quite unconscious of my approach this indeed he might easily have been if he had been less absorbed for footsteps fell noiselessly on the sandy ground outside but even my entrance failed to rouse him i was standing close to him looking at him and still with a heavy brow he was lost in his meditations he gave such a start when i put my hand upon his shoulder that he made me start too you come upon me he said almost angrily like a ghost i was obliged to announce myself somehow i replied have i called you down from the stars no he answered no of david up from anywhere then said i taking my seat near him i was looking at the pictures in the fire he returned but you are them for me said i as he stirred it quickly with a piece of burning wood striking out of it a train of red hot sparks that went up the little chimney and roaring out into the air you would not have seen them he returned i this time neither day nor night how late you are where have you been i have been taking leave of my usual walk said i and i have been sitting here said glancing round the room thinking that all the people we found so glad on the night of our coming down might � to judge from the present wasted air of the place � be dispersed or dead or come to i don t know what harm david i wish to god i had had a judicious father these last twenty years my dear what is the matter i wish with all my soul i had been better guided he exclaimed i wish with all my soul i could | 8 |
time has flown dear grace ho said since then they had been talking of that and yet it seems a long long while ago we count by changes and events within us not by years yet we have years to count by too since was with us returned grace six times dear husband counting to night as one we have sat here on her birth day and spoken together of that happy return so eagerly expected and so long deferred ah when will it be when wiu it be her husband attentively observed her as the tears collected in her eyes and drawing nearer said but told you in that farewell letter which she left for you upon your table love and which you read so often that years must pass away before it could be did she not she took a letter from her breast and kissed it and paid yes that through those intervening years however happy she might be she would look forward to the time when you would meet again and all would be made clear and prayed you and to ths battle op life do tho same the letter runs so does it not my dear yes alfred and every other letter she has written since except the last � some months ago � in which she spoke of you and what you then knew and what i was to learn to he looked towards the sun then declining and said that the appointed time was sunset alfred said grace laying her hand upon his shoulder earnestly there is something in this letter � this old letter which you say i read so often � that i have never told you but to night dear husband with that sunset drawing near and all our life seeming to soften and become hushed with the departing day i cannot keep it secret what is it love when went away she wrote me here that you had once left her a sacred trust to me and that now she left you alfred such a trust in my hands praying and me as i loved her and as loved you not to reject the affection she believed she knew she said you would transfer to me when the new wound was healed but to encourage and return if the battle of life d � and make me a proud and happy man again grace did she say so she meant to make myself so and in your love was his wife s answer as he held her in his arms hear me my dear ho said � no hear me so � and as he spoke he gently laid the head she had raised again upon his shoulder i know why i have never heard this passage in the letter until now i know why no trace of it ever showed itself in any word or look of yours at that time i know why grace although so true a friend to me was hard to win to be my wife and knowing it my own i know the value of the heart i within my arms and thank god for the rich possession she wept but not for sorrow ea he pressed her to his heart after a brief space he looked down at the child who was sitting at their feet playing with a little basket of flowers and bade her look how golden and how red the sun was alfred said grace raising her head quickly at these words the sun is going down you not what i am to know before it sets the battle of life and the haunted man the battle of you to know the truth of s history my he ah the truth she said nothing veiled from me any more that was the promise not it was he answered before the sun went down on s birth day and you see it alfred it is sinking fast he put his arm about her waist and looking steadily into her eyes rejoined that truth is not reserved so long for me to tell dear grace it is to come from other lips from other lips she faintly echoed yes i know your constant heart i know how brave you are i know that to you a word of preparation is enough you have said truly that the time is come it is tell me that you have present fortitude to bear a trial � a surprise � a shock and the messenger is waiting at the gate what messenger she said and what intelligence does he bring i am pledged he answered her his steady look to say no more do you think you stand me the battle of i am a to think she said there waa that in his face despite its steady gaze which her again she hid her own face on his shoulder trembling and entreated him to pause � a moment courage my wife i when you have firmness to receive the messenger the messenger is waiting at the gate the sun is setting on s birth day courage courage grace she raised her head and looking at him told him she was ready as she stood and looked upon him going away her face was so like s as it had been in her later days at home that it was wonderful to see he took the child with him she called her back � she bore the lost girl s name � and pressed her to her bosom the httle creature being released again sped after him and grace was left alone she knew not what she dreaded or what hoped but remained there motionless looking at the porch by which they had disappeared ah what was that emerging from its shadow standing on its threshold that figure with its white garments rustling in the evening air its head laid down upon her father | 8 |
the door these ladies were all of them so that they would not speak in company and and n had to do all the talking for them but they used to make the talked and this did just as well they used to say just such things as the ladies did who called on mrs green and and i never left without being urged to stay longer and also to call again which they always promised to do on the whole they were very wonderful at least they were until lady jane came and she was such a fine lady with her white silk dress and her real hair that none of them could shine after that lend and i ii one day lee came � to see i green and to spend the afternoon with her it was in the month of november and the weather was too cold to permit them to play in the garden so they said they would have a good time in the house green had to go away and i and could not play with them was very sorry for this for she not only to have her sister with her but she also wanted the company of lady jane she told how sorry she was and they agreed that it was too bad e ty had to go away for she was older than they and could help them a great deal in their plays besides they wanted j and i one fine among the for they had a certain play which required just such a person y i wish i had brought miss with me i guess she is fine enough said i wish you had but as you have not we can t help it now i dare say miss will do i ll teu you what you can do s and i � what you can just ask to lend you her we won t hurt her a you know we wiu use just as if she were made of glass did not know what to say she did not like to ask to let her play with lady jane for she knew how her sister was of her fine lady and she did not like to t ll her thoughts and i lest she should think her sister was selfish she did not like to have any one think hard of her sister we must have lady jane i don t see how we can get along without her added a little puzzled by the silence of n i don t like to ask said s at last why not she will let you have her of course she and i will let you have her added warmly i don t think she will you know we might break her neck or lose off her legs or arms or we might dirty her white silk di ess but we will be very careful let us go and ask her it won t do any harm to ask her you know she can t do any more than refuse i did not like to be and i refused and she tried to prevent from going any farther in the matter she was sorry to have it appear that her sister was selfish and she thought more of this than she did of being said so much that at last she thought might let her have the and they ran down stairs to the sitting room to have the matter settled and i will you lend us your asked and the tones of her voice showed how doubtful she was of the result of the question what do you mean asked your wax � lady jane i am very sure i shall not replied we will be very careful of her added we won t and i t let her be hurt a bit � you may depend on that i m not going to let you have my to break and spoil � i m sure i shall not said who even seemed to be angry because she was asked but don t i say we won t hurt it a bit continued and when you come over to my house you shall have my just as long as and i you want her and her house too and all the chairs and tables and things i don t want them do please to let us have lady jane i we want her ever so much and i know she won t get broken or dirty please to lend her to us i shan t do any such thing j so it s no use to me why don t you play with your and i own i won t lend lady jane � that s flat felt so bad she could not help crying � not because she could not have the doll but because her sister was so harsh and unkind she would not have cared so much if had not been there for she did not like to have her see her sister behave in this manner poor wanted to cry and i too when she saw how badly is felt but she tried to be brave and placed her arm round her friend s neck as if to let her know that she would be kind to her come let s go up stairs again we won t any thing more about it said and she led her out of the room i ow you won t like after this replied is and i i wiu would have lent us the only aunt jane gave it to her and she is afraid it will be broken if it hadn t been for this she would have lent us lady jane � i know she would added i wiping away her tears i dare say she would but we won t think any thing more about | 36 |
but me tom had never had me out of his thoughts she really believed all the time t had been away tom was the authority for everything tom was evidently the idol of her life never to be shaken on his by any commotion always to be believed in and done homage to with the whole faith of her heart come what might the deference which both she and showed towards the beauty pleased me very much i don t know that i thought it very reasonable but i thought it very delightful and essentially a part of their character if ever for an instant missed the that were still to be won i have no doubt it was when he handed the beauty her tea if his sweet tempered wife could have got up any self assertion against any one i am satisfied it could only have been because she was the beauty s sister a few slight indications of a rather and capricious manner which i observed in the beauty were considered by and his wife as her and natural if she had been born a queen bee and they laboring bees they could not have been more satisfied of that but their self forgetfulness charmed me their pride in these girls and their submission of themselves to all their was the little testimony to their own worth i could have desired to see if were addressed as a darling once in the course of that evening and to bring something here or carry something there of david or take something up or put something down or find something or fetch something he was so addressed by one or other of his sisters in law at least twelve times in an hour neither could they do anything without somebody s hair fell down and nobody but could put it up somebody forgot how a particular tune went and nobody but could hum that tune right somebody wanted to the name of a place in and only knew it something was wanted to be written home and alone could be trusted to write before breakfast in the morning somebody broke down in a piece of knitting and no one but was able to put the in the right direction they were entire of the place and and waited on them how many children could have taken care of in her time i can t imagine but she seemed to be famous for knowing every sort of song that ever was addressed to a child in the english tongue and she sang to order with the little voice in the world one after another every sister issuing directions for a different tune and the beauty generally striking in last so that i was quite fascinated the best of all was that in the midst of their all the sisters had a great tenderness and respect both for and i am sure when i took my leave and was coming out to walk with me to the coffee house i thought i had never seen an obstinate head of hair or any other head of hair rolling about in such a shower of kisses altogether it was a scene i could not help dwelling on with pleasure for a long time after i got back and had wished good night if i had beheld a thousand roses blowing in a top set of chambers in that withered gray s inn they could not have brightened it half so much the idea of those girls among the dry law and the offices and of the tea and toast and children s songs in that grim atmosphere of and red dusty brief and paper law reports and bills of costs seemed almost as pleasantly fanciful as if i had dreamed that the s famous family had been admitted on the roll of and had brought the talking bird the singing tree and the golden water into gray s inn hall somehow i found that i had taken leave of for the night and come back to the coffee house with a great change in my despondency about him i began to think he would get on in spite of all the many orders of chief in england drawing a chair before one of the coffee room fires to think about him at my leisure i gradually fell from the consideration of his happiness to tracing prospects in the live coals and to thinking as they broke and changed of the principal and that had marked my life i had not seen a coal fire since i had left england three years ago though many a wood fire had i watched as it into ashes and mingled with the heap upon the hearth which not figured to me in my despondency my own dead hopes i could think of the past now gravely but not bitterly and could contemplate the future in a brave spirit home in its best sense was for me no more she in whom i might have inspired a dearer love i had taught to be my sister she would marry and would have new the history and experience on her tenderness and in doing it would never know the love for her that had grown up in my heart it was right that i should pay the of my headlong passion what i i had sown i was thinking and had i truly my heart to this and could i resolutely bear it and calmly hold the place in her home which she had calmly held in mine � when i found my eyes resting on a countenance that might have arisen out of the fire in its association with my early little mr the doctor to whose good offices i was indebted in the very first chapter of this history sat reading a newspaper in the shadow of an opposite corner he was tolerably stricken in years by | 8 |
give the family a head and a position is a clear gain to the county and with philip he ll get into the right hands � of course he wants guiding having been out of the country so long all we have to ask is whether a man s a tory and will make a stand for the good of the the try � that s the plain english of the matter and i do beg of you my dear to set aside all these and exert yourself like a woman of sense and spirit as yon are to bring the right people together here sir gave a deep cough took out his snuff box and tapped it he had made a serious speech an exertion to which he was rarely urged by any thing smaller than a matter of conscience and this outline of the whole duty of a tory was matter of conscience with him though the had pointed expressly to sir among others in the co operation of the tones as a conscious selfishness and reckless which however would be defeated by the co operation of all the friends of truth and liberty who the trusted would subordinate all non political in order to return representatives pledged to support the present government i am sure sir lady answered you could not have observed that any thing was wanting in my manners to mrs no no my dear but i say this by way of caution never mind what was done at or whether likes to sit with his heels tucked up we may surely wink at a few things for the sake of the public interest if god almighty does and if he didn t i don t know what would have become of the country � could never have been carried on and many a good battle would have been lost that s the philosophy of the matter and the too good sir gave a deep cough and tapped his box again inwardly remarking that if he had not been such a lazy fellow he might have made as good a figure as his son philip but at this point the carriage which was rolling by a turn passed a well dressed man who raised his hat to sir and called to the coachman to stop excuse me sir said this personage standing uncovered at the carriage door but i have just learned something of importance at which i thought you would like to know as soon as possible ah what s that something about or said sir seeing the other draw a from his pocket no rather worse i fear you will think a new radical candidate i got this by a from the s boy they re posted yet a radical said sir in a tone of incredulous disgust as he took the folded bill what fool is he � he ll have no chance they say he s richer than shouted sir as he read the name in three inch letters i don t believe it � it s a trick � it s a why � why � we ve just been to his place � eh do you know any more speak sir � speak don t deal out your story like a damned who wants to keep people gaping sir pray don t give way so said lady i m afraid there s no doubt about it sir said christian after getting the bill i met mr s clerk he said he had just had the whole story from s clerk the ram inn is engaged already and a committee is being made up he says goes like a when he has a mind although he makes such long speeches be hanged for a two faced rascal i tell to drive on it s of no use to stay chattering here jump up on the box and go home with us i may want you you see i was right sir said the s wife i had an instinct that we should find him an unpleasant person if you had such a fine instinct why did you let us go to court and make fools of ourselves would you have listened to mc but of coarse you will not have him to dine with you dine with me i should think not i d sooner he should dine off me i see how it is clearly enough he has become a regular beast among those � he got neither religion nor morals left he can t know any thing about english politics h e ll go and cut his own nose as a and never know however he won t get in � he ll spend his money for nothing i fear he is a very man said lady we know now why his mother seemed so uneasy i should think she a little poor creature it s a confounded nuisance we didn t meet christian on our way instead of coming back but better now than later he s an uncommonly useful fellow that of philip s i wish would take my man and give me christian i d make him house steward ha might reduce the accounts a little perhaps sir would not have been so sanguine as to mr s economical if he had seen that gentleman himself the same evening among the other distinguished of the family and of the steward s room but a man sir s rank is like those animals whom the system of things condemned to carry such a huge bulk that they really could not inspect their bodily and had no conception of their own tails their doubtless had a merry time of it and often did extremely well when the high bred himself was ill at ease measured from the front saloon to the remotest shed was as large as a moderate sized village and there were certainly more lights | 14 |
he had in hand essay to a passage after him that it might hold a greedy at the feast of his providing when he looked back across his shoulder was it to see if his quick footsteps still fell dry upon the dusty pavement or were already moist and with the red mire that stained the naked feet of he shaped his course for the main western road and soon reached it riding a part of the way then and walking on again he travelled for a considerable distance upon the roof of a stage coach which came up while he was a foot and when it turned out of his road the driver of a return post chaise to take him on with him and then made across the country at a run and saved a mile or two before he struck again into the road at last as his plan was he came up with a certain slow night coach which stopped wherever it could and was stopping then at a while the guard and coachman ate and drank within he for a seat outside this coach and took it and he quitted it no more until it was within a few miles of its destination but occupied the same place all night all night it is a common fancy that nature seems to sleep by night it is a false fancy as who should know better than he the fishes in the cold bright glistening streams and rivers perhaps and the birds on the branches of the trees and in their and pastures beasts were quiet life and adventures of and human creatures slept but what of that when the solemn night was watching when it never winked when its darkness watched no less than its light the stately trees the moon and shining stars the softly stirring wind the lane the broad bright country side they all kept watch there was not a blade of growing grass or corn but watched and the it was the more intent and fixed its watch upon him seemed to be and yet he slept riding on among these of god he slept and did not change the purpose of his journey if he forgot it in his troubled dreams it came up steadily and woke him but it never woke him to remorse or to abandon ment of his design he dreamed at one time that he was lying calmly in his bed thinking of a moonlight night and the noise of wheels when the old clerk put his head in at the door and beckoned him at this signal he arose immediately being already dressed in the clothes he actually wore at that time and accompanied him into a strange city where the names of the streets were written on the walls in characters quite new to him which gave him no surprise or uneasiness for he remembered in his dream to have been there before although these streets were very that to get from one to another it was necessary to descend great heights by that were too short and ropes that moved deep bells and swung and swayed as they were clung to the danger gave him little emotion beyond the first thrill of terror his anxieties being concentrated on his dress which was quite for some festival that was about to be there and in which he had come to take a part already great crowds began to fill the streets and in one direction of people came rushing down an interminable perspective flowers and making way for others on white horses when a terrible figure started from the throng and cried out that it was the last day for all the world the cry being spread there was a wild hurrying on to judgment and the press became so great that he and his companion who was constantly changing and was never the same man two minutes together though he never saw one man come or another go stood aside in a porch fearfully surveying the multitude in which there were many faces that he knew and many that he did not know but dreamed he did when all at once a struggling head rose up among the rest � livid and deadly but the same as he had known it � and him as appointed that day to happen they closed together as he strove to free the hand in which he held a club and strike the blow he had so often thought of he started to the knowledge of his waking purpose and the rising of the sun the sun was welcome to him there were life and motion and a world to divide the attention of day it was the eye of night of watchful silent and attentive night with so much leisure for the observation of his wicked thoughts that he dreaded most there is no glare in the night even glory shows to small advantage in the night upon a crowded battle field how then shows glory s murder aye he made no compromise and held no secret with himself now murder he had come to do it let me get down here he said short of the town eh observed the coachman i may get down where i please i suppose y � ou got up to please yourself and may get down to yourself it won t break our hearts to lose you and it wouldn t have broken em if we d never found you be a quicker that s all the guard had alighted and was waiting in the road to take his money in the jealousy and distrust of what he contemplated he thought this man looked at him with more than what are you staring at said not at a handsome man returned the guard if you want your fortune told i tell you a bit of it you won t be | 8 |
under than free � he said with a sigh � in a state of freedom we may think as we please � and freedom of thought doubt � whereas in a state of we think as we and so god s good man we are gradually forced into an attitude of belief the spread of among the english is entirely due to the wild liberty of opinion allowed them by their forms of faith i do not agree with you i � declared firmly � the spread of is due not to freedom of opinion nor forms of faith but simply to the and weakness of the clergy the bishop looked at him with a smile you always speak straight out john i he said � you always did i and strange to say i like you all the better for it i could if i chose both and command you � but i will do neither you must take your own way as you always have done but there is a of rome even in your little church of st rest � your miracle shrine � your unknown saint in the coffin you and your kneel before that every sunday true � but we do not kneel to it � nor do we pray through it � replied � it stays in the because it was found in the but it does not make a miracle shrine as you say � there is nothing miraculous about it if it contains the body of a saint � said the bishop slowly � it be miraculous i if in the far gone centuries the prayers and tears of sorrowful human beings have cold stone some some tenderness some vitality bom of these prayers and tears must yet remain we preach the supernatural � do we not believe in it the divine supernatural � yes answered � but f the bishop interrupted him by a gesture of his delicate hand there are no in the matter john � he said quietly � what is supernatural is so by its own nature the divine is the human the human is the divine in all and through all things the spirit moves and makes its way our earth and ourselves are but of matter worked by the spirit or essence of force this spirit we can neither see nor touch therefore we call it natural but it all things � the stone as completely as the flower it through that in your church as easily as through your own living veins hence as i say if the mortal remains of a saint are within that the spirit or soul it may work miracles for all we dare to know i he paused and looking kindly at s grave and somewhat troubled face added � some god s good man day when we are in very desperate straits john we will see what your saint can do for us i he smiled returned the smile but nevertheless was conscious of a sorrowful sense of regret at what he considered his friend s leaning toward superstitious and ceremonies at the same time he well knew that any violent opposition on the subject would be worse than useless in the bishop s present mood he therefore contented himself with as he mentally said putting in the thin end of the � and � carefully clear of all matters � contrived in a great measure to the old sway he had been wont to exercise over s more mind when at college � so that before they parted he had obtained from him a promise that there should be no or even preparation for to home till six months had elapsed and if you would only put away that picture � said earnestly pointing towards the virgin and child � or rather if you ould have another one painted of th sweet woman you loved as she really was in life it would be wiser and safer for your own peace the bishop shook his head the virgin and child are a symbol of all � he said � mother and son � present and future i woman holds the human race in her arms � at her breast i � without her chaos would come again and for me all womanhood is in that one face i he raised his eyes to the picture with an almost devout passion � and then abruptly turned away the conversation was not renewed again between them but when parted from his friend he had the satisfaction of knowing that he left him in a brighter more hopeful and condition cheered soothed and by the exchange of that mutual confidence and close sympathy which had linked their two lives together in boyhood and which held them still and tenderly to each other s most intimate emotions as a home at his own domain late on the saturday night had no opportunity to learn anything of the incidents which had occurred during his brief absence letters were waiting for him but he opened none and shut himself up in his study at once to prepare his next day s sermon he wrote on far into the night long after au the servants of his household had retired to rest and himself the next morning in consequence therefore his preparation for the eleven o clock service were necessarily somewhat hurried and he had not time to say more than a cheery good morning even to whom he passed on his way into the church or to adam frost though he fancied that both men looked at him somewhat curiously as with an air of mingled doubt and once within the sacred building he was conscious of an crowded congregation none that he could see were missing from their usual places mary certainly was not there � but as she was not a church he did not expect her to be present hall was | 33 |
and have a right to when they think they have reason was the southern view of the matter you are a part of the union which forms but one nation and to break up the union is rebellion was the northern view but the passions excited by the long and bitter debate over questions relating to slavery lay at the bottom of the struggle neither side dreamed of the weary and bloody conflict which was to follow each expected to settle the matter history of the united states in two or three battles both of them found out what stubborn work it was to fight against americans the were naturally more military than the northern people they were generally accustomed to the saddle and the use of fire arms many of the northern men especially those of the eastern states had to learn to load and fire a gun after they went into the army for a long war the north had several advantages money trade and the mechanical for producing arms ships clothing and other military necessities belonged in a superior degree to the north it had also the advantage of numbers the south the advantage of fighting in of its own ground and of moving on shorter lines the divided sympathies of the people in the border states and the quick sending forward of from the north by many prevented and from in the western part of virginia where the slaves were few the union sentiment was strong and this region in separated itself from virginia and formed a new state which took the name of west virginia several battles though of no great magnitude were fought to secure control of west virginia the union armies here commanded by general george b a small battle at was won by the union troops and a more considerable engagement at rich mountain bull � first western campaign june ii lasting about an hour and a half gave the possession of west virginia to the government the failure to secure the border region was a ous loss to the for this was a land of indian corn most valuable for feeding of armies the south thus lost also the and rivers � the best line of the war had opened with several small actions such as the of ports and navy yards by the the attack on union troops by a mob in several in different parts of the country and battles in the mountains of virginia the had moved their capital from to virginia and the first important battle ground would lie between the two so sure were the people of a short war that battle of bull most of had been called out for only three months and it was thought necessary to fight a battle before their time should the people and newspapers at the north were for a forward movement and the were despised for their caution general moved toward and on the ist of july the battle of bull run was fought chiefly by raw troops on both sides joseph e and commanded the battle was a se bull run � first western campaign were re enforced at the right moment and the union army was at length entirely and fled back to washington in confusion the early struggle in eastern was a little e� � war by itself besides minor colonel afterward president defeated the leader in the little battle of on the th of january another sharp conflict took place at mill spring two days in which general george h thomas was victorious over the general who was killed in the engagement the battles in and proved a side aw i� d in campaign that had for its aim the securing of this state in which opinion was much divided for the union or the the governor of took sides with the in the battle of s creek august general of the united states army was killed and his troops retreated after the fight the general price attacked on the th of september following and captured nearly three thousand union soldiers in november follow ing general pope of the united states army by several movements and captured large bodies of on their way to join the army a severe battle fought at ridge in on the th of march finally pall of history of tub united states secured to the union by preventing the forces from re entering that state the first important movement after bull run was the campaign which broke the line at the west and gave the river above to the control of the government s grant who had already begun to show good military abilities moved against fort henry on the river i v in co operation with the fleet under grant and captured fort henry february the river here runs near to the river on the only about twelve miles from fort henry was the fort after a stubborn battle in which the union loss was hundred men this fort was also surrendered and with it fifteen thousand troops this broke the of the line of in the west and forced them to fall back from and other points general pope supported by now moved against the who blocked the at new and island no new was but in order to capture island no pope who was on the west side of the river must cross below the island and cut off its supplies as the on the island commanded the channel he had to dig a canal across a bend in the river in order to get transport boats below the island so as to across the it took nineteen days to cut this canal could not get through it and the bull run � first western campaign could not cross without their protection two were run past the of the island at night cut off on all sides the island was compelled to surrender with nearly seven | 11 |
sir i have not at present the intention said mr of � ha � exceeding a fortnight that s a very short stay after so long a journey returned mr hum yes said mr but the truth my dear mr that i find a foreign life so well suited to my health and taste that i � hum � have but two objects in my present visit to london first the � ha � the distinguished happiness and � ha � privilege which i now enjoy and appreciate secondly the arrangement � hum � the laying out that is to say in the best way of � ha hum � my money well sir said mr after turning his tongue again if i can be of any use to you in that respect you may command me mr s speech had had more hesitation in it than usual as he approached the topic for he was not perfectly clear how so exalted a might take it he had doubts whether reference to any individual capital or fortune might not seem a affair to so a dealer greatly relieved by mr s offer of assistance he caught at it directly and heaped upon him i scarcely � ha � dared said mr i assure you to hope for so � hum � vast an advantage as your direct advice and assistance though of course i should under any circumstances like the � ha hum � rest of the world have followed in mr s train you know we may almost say we are related sir said mr curiously interested in the pattern of the carpet and therefore you may consider me at your service ha very handsome indeed cried mr ha most handsome it would not said mr be at the present moment easy for what i may call a mere to come into any of the good things � of course i speak of my own good things of course of course cried mr in a tone that there were no other good things � unless at a high price at what we are accustomed to term a very long figure mr laughed in the of his spirit ha ha ha long figure good ha very expressive to be sure however said mr i do generally retain in my own hands the power of some preference � people in general would be pleased to call it favor � as a sort of compliment for my care and trouble and public spirit and genius mr suggested mr a dry action seemed to dispose of those qualities like a then added as a sort of return for it i little d er t a will see if you please how i can exert this limited power for people are jealous and it is limited to your advantage you are very good replied mr you are very good of course said mr there must be the integrity and in these transactions there must be the purest faith between man and man there must be and confidence or business could not be carried on mr hailed these generous sentiments with therefore said mr i can only give you a preference to a certain extent i perceive to a defined extent observed mr defined extent and perfectly above board as to my advice however said mr that is another matter that such as it is oh such as it was mr could not bear the faintest appearance of its being even by mr himself � that there is nothing in the bonds of honor between myself and my fellow man to prevent my parting with if i choose and that said mr now deeply intent upon a dust cart that was passing the windows shall be at your command whenever you think proper new from mr passages of mr s hand over his forehead calm and silence contemplation of mr s waistcoat buttons by mr my time being rather precious said mr suddenly getting up as if he had been waiting in the interval for his legs and they had just come i must be moving towards the city can i take you anywhere sir i shall be happy to set you down or send you on my carriage is at your disposal mr himself that he had business at his banker s his banker s was in the city that was fortunate mr would take him into the city but surely he might not detain mr while he assumed his coat yes he might and must mr insisted on it so mr retiring into the next room put himself under the hands of his and in five minutes came back glorious then said mr allow me sir take my arm then leaning on mr s arm did mr descend the staircase seeing the on the steps and feeling that the light of mr shone by reflection in himself then the carriage and the ride into the city and the people who looked at them and the hats that new off grey heads and the general bowing and crouching before this wonderful mortal the like of which of spirit was not to be seen � no by high heaven no it may be worth thinking of by of all � in westminster abbey and saint paul s cathedral put together on any sunday in the year it was a dream to mr to find himself set aloft in this public car of triumph making a magnificent progress to that destination the golden street of the there mr insisted on and going his way a foot and leaving his poor at mr s disposition so the dream increased in rapture when mr came out of the bank little alone and people looked at mm in of mr and when with the ears of his mind he heard the frequent exclamation as he rolled along a wonderful man to he mr s friend at dinner that day | 8 |
day and the would be ready by to morrow morning i won t go to my aunt s i will be an independent woman i have been as if i were a child of six i ll be your wife if it is as easy as you say they stopped the cab while they held a consultation had rooms and a in the neighbourhood of hill but it would be hardly desirable to take her thither till they were married they decided to go to an hotel changing their direction therefore they went a sketch of a temperament back to the and soon themselves in one of the venerable old of i garden a which in those days was frequented by west country people then left her and proceeded on his errand eastward it was about three o clock when having arranged all by this sudden change of front he began strolling slowly back he felt bewildered and to walk was a relief gazing occasionally into this shop window and that he called a as by an inspiration and directed the driver to gardens arrived here he rang the bell of a and in a minute or two it was answered by a young man in shirt sleeves about his own age with a great on his left thumb o you i thought you were in the country come in i m awfully glad of this i am here in town finishing off a painting for an american who wants to take it back with him followed his friend into the where a pretty young woman was sitting sewing at a signal from the painter she disappeared without speaking i can see from your face you have something the well beloved to say so we ll have it all to ourselves you are in some trouble what ll you drink oh i it doesn t matter what so that it is in some shape or form now you must just listen to me for i have something to tell had sat down in an arm chair and had resumed his painting when a servant had brought in brandy to soothe s nerves and to take off the injurious effects of the brandy and milk to take off the effects of the began his narrative addressing it rather to s and s clock and s than to himself who stood at his picture a little behind his friend before i tell you what has happened to me said i want to let you know the manner of man i am lord � i know already no you don t it is a sort of thing one doesn t like to talk of i lie awake at night thinking about it no said with more sympathy seeing that his friend was really troubled i am under a curious curse or influence i a sketch of a temperament am posed puzzled and perplexed by the of a creature � a deity rather by as a poet would put it as i should put it myself in marble but i forget � this is not to be a wail but a defence � a sort of pro me that s better fire away i i the well beloved her earlier i you are not i know one of those who continue to indulge in the world wide fond superstition that the beloved one of any man always or even usually cares to remain in one nook or shell for any great length of time however much he may wish her to do so if i am wrong and you do still hold to that ancient error � well my story will seem rather queer suppose you say some men not any man all right � fu say one man this man only if you are so particular we are a strange visionary race down where i come from and perhaps that accounts for it the beloved of this one man then has had many � too many to describe in detail each shape or a sketch of a temperament has been a temporary residence only which she has entered lived in a while and made her exit from leaving the substance so far as i have been concerned a corpse worse luck now there is no nonsense in this � it is simple fact put in the plain form that the conventional public are afraid of so much for the principle good go on well the first of her occurred so nearly as i can recollect when i was about the age � of nine her vehicle was a little girl of eight or so one of a family of eleven with hair about her shoulders which attempted to curl but failed hanging like chimney only this defect used rather to trouble me and was i believe one of the main reasons of my beloved s departure from that i cannot remember with any when the departure occurred i know it was after i had kissed my little friend in a garden seat on a hot under a blue umbrella which we had opened over us as we sat that through east might not observe our marks of affection forgetting that our screen must attract more attention than our persons the well beloved when the whole dream came to an end through her father leaving the island i thought my well beloved had gone for ever being then in the condition of adam at sight of the first sunset but she had not had gone for ever but not my beloved for some months after i had done crying for the haired edition of her my love did not then she came suddenly in a situation i should never have predicted i was standing on the of the pavement in outside the preparatory school looking across towards the sea when a middle aged gentleman on horseback and beside him a young lady also mounted | 45 |
ity of travelling over the c compass of nature in quest of instances before w� establish any of philosophy or principles of science bacon i will explain to you the of the between your ud of reasoning and mine and the necessity in order to arrive at a just philosophy of a ad to my method after only a partial collection of phenomena if we undertake to or what i have wc forth into the dark and almost always arrive at and or if perchance they are true we cannot repose with entire confidence and full a iu upon them they do not rest up n the foundation of and when therefore a� them m settled and established truths we undertake to form out of them � a is usually done what i have called or of philosophy wc involve ourselves in a of uncertainty and our reasoning being in the outset only plunge at every step more and more deeply into the error on the other hand reflect upon the method of which i recommend i would have us approach the works of nature for the purpose of contemplation and inquiry under a deep conviction that they present to us a profound obscure into the feeble light of own cannot penetrate and through which reason can make no progress hut with the support and assistance of careful observation our minds from all errors and prejudices or its devotion to the numerous as i call them which occasion to view every object a coloured medium wc should appear at the of the d of nature ax when wc seek to enter into the ae like little f we are to gain ta � k re l � v� � � � � � � � as i d h v bs i i t for tho in which wc engaging wc proceed in the of et cautiously and by a carefully all the phenomena presented to our inspection comparing with utmost attention and which are favourable and those und when wc have advanced far enough in the matter of and experience settle our or principles of science and having attained this in our progress wc must with care and collection of to our or general principle and when by process we to great we can safely take a course and apply to the particular cases that arise in this path us at c ery step in the other we n wander into the dark and hj of uncertainty and error my plan is like building a out of solid and by regular from its foundation iu top your a is like attempting to erect the roof and its a � � before even the is finished to illustrate this matter by the very example with which you have furnished me from works � from the operation of the of and shadow of the � earth upon t c moon you the the earth is a sphere contrary to the opinion of other philosophers of your time but upon your it ought to have been a perfect globe upon mine it has l en found not to be so but a or at the here jou tliat you too to your the earth is a perfect globe and had you gone on in your usual progress to form from this principle as for instance that all bodies upon the s are equally remote from the centre the degrees of at the poles are equal to those at the you would have fallen in your into the errors the plan which i these errors have l avoided by trusting w to fact and experience the truth is that this from a few particular instances to leap to general conclusions to which tl e human mind finds so temptation in the relief which tliey it from the fatigue of in v estimation is the of philosophy and the productive cause of ail those idle theories which have been n � e la dis in n cat ti � et ul mu fe ti iii in iu i il n ii or i � ud w � � ii � � d at � t f na a el i bt iu j ic t et � i v � t v a a e� mm a w t� t� a � � � � � na w i i r s s aid which by fact and like of a vision h v im ht d lit it of truth und the i of man t but of an in tu in it i with the i o and most utterly fail unless it derive its from powerful you to it the requisite support in u c of the by the potent of mode at bent could but to c l ii i tr to clear and ar iti i li thai now begins to in upon my subject perceive that your of which with address have illustrated recommended and in your it one of those which appear in minds to be the work of a� if en then nearer to itself in order that b the of their by and hey may catch from it a beam of ha but before i give way to a sudden in your favour admit your without allow me to inquire are you perfectly certain that you not in this case derived your hint from me you admit i made ok of this thou in a degree and a of its power his ion you of your finest and rob you of honour in great bacon i know thai it has been said that i have copied your works without having the and generosity to acknowledge it out this is a great mistake f to have written upon the of natural philosophy of of of of und und briefly upon almost all tlie branches of science me a of your trade i t i be content | 48 |
together mr was indeed most agreeably his expressive little beamed with delight what a very charming person miss is he exclaimed after they had left the gate what a very charming person indeed very charming said mr with much seriousness a prettier young person i certainly have never seen and those wonderful gowns of hers � oh interrupted mr with natural confusion i � referred to miss though really what you say is very true miss � indeed � i think � in fact miss is quite one might almost say even more charming than her aunt yes admitted mr perhaps one might she is less ripe it i true but that is an objection time will remove there is such a delightful in her manner said mr such an frankness i such a � a � such spirit i it quite carries me away with it � quite he walked a few steps thinking over this delightful and frankness and then burst out afresh � and what a remarkable life she has had too i she actually told me that once in her childhood she lived for months in a camp � the only woman there she says the men were kind to her and made a pet of her she has known the most extraordinary people in the mean time francis returned to lady s safe keeping having done so he made his and left the two to themselves her was it must be confessed a little at a to explain to herself what she saw or fancied she saw in the manner and appearance of her young relative she was persuaded that she had never seen look as she looked this afternoon she had a brighter color in her cheeks than usual her pretty figure seemed more erect her eyes had a spirit in them which was quite new she had x a and laughed with francis she the house and after departure she moved to and fro with a � re not habitual to her he has been making himself agreeable to her said my lady with grim pleasure he can do it if he chooses and he is just the man to please a girl good looking and with a fine air how did you enjoy yourself asked very much said never more thank you oh ejaculated my lady and which of her smart new york gowns did miss wear they were at the dinner table and instead of looking down at her soup looked quietly and steadily across the table at her grandmother she wore a very pretty one she said it was pale color and fitted her like a glove she made me feel very old fashioned and badly dressed lady laid down her spoon sh made you feel old fashioned and badly dressed � ye responded he always does i wonder what she thinks of tht things we wear in and she even went to the length of smiling a little what he thinks of what is worn in lady ejaculated may i ask what weight the opinion of a young woman from america � from � is supposed to have in slow bridge took a of soup in a leisurely manner i don t think it is supposed to have any but � but i don t think she minds that i feel as if i shouldn t if i were in her i have thought her very lucky you have thought her lucky cried my lady you have envied a young woman who dresses like an and loads herself with jewels like a a girl whose conduct toward men is of a character to � to chill one s blood they admire her said simply more than they admire and than they admire me do you admire her demanded my lady a fair yes replied i think i do never had my lady been so as m her life for a moment she could scarcely speak when she recovered herself pointed to the door go to your room she commanded this is american freedom of speech i sup pose go to your room rose she could not help wondering what her s course would be if she had the to disregard her order she really looked quite capable of carrying it out forcibly herself when the girl stood at her bedroom window a few minutes later her cheeks were burning and her hands trembling i am afraid it was very badly done she said to herself i am sure it was but � but it will be a kind of practice i was in such a hurry to try if i were equal to it that i didn t seem to balance things quite rightly i ought to have waited until i had more reason to speak out perhaps there wasn t enough reason then and i was more than i ought to have been ia advantages never i wonder if i was at all i don t think ever means to be i felt a little as if i meant to be i must learn to balance myself and only be cool and frank then she looked out of the window and reflected a little i was not so very brave after all she said rather reluctantly i didn t tell her mr was there i t have done that i am afraid i am sly � th t sounds sly i am sun m a b m am aj chapter contrast j bald will put ft stop to it � the general it will certainly not again this was � aid upon the evening of the first gathering upon miss s grass and at the same time it was that mr francis would soon go away but neither of the proved true mr francis did not return to london and strange to say was seen again and again playing with and was even known to spend evenings with | 13 |
time come when in went through all these acts of as mechanically as n nurse soothing a child and once he had i her weeping eloquent he looked about at the spacious room with its heavy of and the thick velvet which stifled his steps everywhere were the graceful tokens of her presence � the vast draped strewn with silver and the l muslin ed on the the little rose lined slippers she had just put off the lace wrap er m th a scent of in its folds which he had pushed aside when he sat down beside her and he remembered how full of a mysterious and intimate charm these things had once appeared to him it was characteristic that the remembrance made him more patient with her now s after all it was his failure that she was crying over don t be unhappy you decided as seemed best to you he said she pressed her handkerchief against her lips still her head averted hut i hate all these � and a hy should you everything she murmured his mother s words y he removed i � the fruit of the tree hand from her shoulder though he still remained seated bj the bed you are right i see the of it he assented with an note of irony she turned her head at the tone and fixed her plaintive eyes on him you are angry ith me was that troubling you he leaned forward again with compassion in his face was the thought within him i am not angry he went on be reasonable and try to sleep she started upright the light masses of her hair floating about her like silken sea weed lifted on an invisible tide don t talk that i can t endure to be humoured like a baby i am unhappy because i can t see why all these wretched questions should be dragged into our life i hate to have you always with mr who is so clever and has so much experience and yet i hate to see you give way to him because that makes it ap x ar as if as if is he didn t care a straw for mv ideas smiled he doesn t � an l i never dreamed of making him so don t ut either you never dreamed of making him care for your ideas but why do you the fruit of the tree why do i go on setting them forth at such great length smiled again to convince you � that s my only ambition she stared at him shaking her head back to toss a loose lock from her puzzled eyes a tear still shone on her lashes but with the motion it fell and trembled down her cheek to convince but you know i am so ignorant of such things most women are i never pretended to understand thing about � or whatever you call it no he turned and looked at her gently i thought you might have begun to understand something about me about you the colour softly under her clear akin about what my ideas on such subjects were likely to be worth � judging from what you know of me in other respects he paused and away from her well he concluded deliberately i suppose i ve had my answer tonight oh john he rose and wandered across the room pausing a moment to finger the on the the act recalled with a curious the op the tree tain of their first days together when to handle and examine these frail little of her toilet had been part of the wonder and amusement of his new existence he could still hear her laugh as she leaned over him watching his look in the glass till their reflected eyes met there and drew down her lips to his he laid down the fragrant powder puff he had been turning slowly between his fingers and moved back toward the bed in the interval he had reached a decision isn t it natural that i should think so he began again as he stood beside her when we married i never expected you to care or know much about it isn t a a man usually chooses his wife for but i had a fancy � perhaps it shows my conceit � that when we had lived together a year or two and you d found out what kind of a fellow i was in other ways � ways any woman can judge of � i had a fancy that you might take my opinions on faith when it came to my own special business � the thing i m generally supposed to know about he knew that he was touching a sensitive for had to the full her sex s pride of he was human and till others him � then he became a god but in this case a conflicting influence restrained her from complete response to his appeal i the fruit of the tree i do feel sure you know � about the treatment of the bands and all that but you said yourself once � the first time we ever talked about � that the business part was different here it was again the ancient belief in the body and soul even an was supposed to be subject to the old distinction and was ready to co operate with her husband in the of s spiritual part if only its body remained under the law controlled his impatience as it was always easy for him to do when he had fixed on a definite line of conduct it was my that was different not what you call the business part that is bound up with the treatment of the hands if i am o have anything to do with the mills now i can deal with them only as your representative and as | 10 |
saw her this morning she returns to street to day the old lady is come now do not make yourself uneasy with any uncle and permission was giving her ease this was the letter a most scandalous ill natured rumour has just reached me and i write dear to warn you against giving the least credit to it should it spread into the country depend upon it there is some mistake and that a day or two will clear it up � at any rate that henry is and in spite of a moment s thinks of nobody but you say not a word of it � hear nothing nothing whisper nothing till i write again i am sure it will be all hushed up and nothing proved but rush worth s folly if they are gone i would lay my life they are only gone to park and with them but why would not you let us come for you i wish you not repent it yours stood aghast as no scandalous ill natured rumour had reached her it was impossible for her to understand much of this strange letter she could only perceive that it must relate to street and mr and only conjecture that something very had just occurred in that quarter to draw the notice of the world and to excite ber jealousy in miss s apprehension if she heard it miss need not be alarmed for her she was only sorry for the parties concerned and for if the report should spread so far but she hoped it might not if the were gone themselves to as was to be inferred from what miss said it was not likely that any thing unpleasant should have preceded them or at least should make any impression as to mr she hoped it might give him a knowledge of his own disposition convince him that he was not capable of being steadily attached to any one woman in the world and shame him from any loi � er in addressing herself it was very strange she had begun to be really loved her and to fancy his affection for her something more than common � and his sister still said that he for nobody else yet there must have been some marked ay of attentions to her cousin there must have been om m park k since her correspondent was not of a sort to regard a slight one very uncomfortable she was and must continue till she heard from miss again it was impossible to the letter from her thoughts and she could not relieve herself by speaking of it to any human being miss need not have urged secrecy with so much warmth she might have trusted to her sense of what was due to her cousin the next day came and brought no second letter was disappointed she could still think of little else all the morning but when her father came back in the afternoon with the daily newspaper as usual she was so far from expecting any through such a channel that the subject was for a moment out of her head she was deep in other musing the remembrance of her first evening in that room of her father and his newspaper came across her no candle was now wanted the sun was yet an hour and a half above the horizon she felt that she had indeed been three months there and the sun s rays falling strongly into the parlour instead of cheering made her still more melancholy for sunshine appeared to her a totally different thing in a town and in the country here its power was only a glare a stifling sickly glare serving but to bring forward and dirt that might otherwise have slept there was neither health nor gaiety in sunshine in a town she sat in a blaze of oppressive heat in a cloud of moving dust and her eyes could only wander from the walls marked by her father s head to the table cut and by her brothers stood the tea board never thoroughly cleaned the cups and wiped in streaks the milk a mixture of floating in thin blue and the bread and butter growing every minute more greasy than ever s hands had first produced it her father read his newspaper and her mother lamented over the ragged ai pet as usual while the tea was in preparation and wished would mend it and was first roused by his calling out to her after ing and considering over a particular paragraph � s the name of your great cousins in town fan a moment s recollection enabled her to say rush worth sir park don t they live in le street f � yes sir there s the devil to pay among them tbat all there holding out the paper to her � much good may fine relations do you i don t know what sir thomas may think of such matters he be too much of the and fine gentleman to like his daughter the less but by g � if she belonged to m� i d give her the rope s end as long as i could stand over her a little for man and woman too would be the best way of preventing such things read to herself that it was with infinite concern the newspaper bad to announce to the world a matrimonial in the family of mr r of street the beautiful mrs r whose name had not long been in the lists of and who had promised to become so brilliant a leader in the fashionable world having quitted her s roof in company with the well known and mr c the intimate friend and associate of mr r and it was not known even to the editor of the newspaper whither they were gone it is a mistake sir said instantly it must be | 26 |
the well well you saved me from the ice and i have saved you from the water ah who was it that led me to row round by that outer isle last night because i could not sleep but what does it matter god willed it so and here you lie in the mare s stable nay do not me first you must eat then going to the pot she took it from the fire pouring its contents into an basin and at the smell of them for the first time for days felt hungry of what that was she never learned but she ate it to the last and was thankful while seated on the ground beside her watched her with delight from time to time stretching out a long thin hand to touch the brown hair that hung about her shoulders come out and look said when her guest had done eating and she led her through the doorway of the hut gazed round her but in truth there was not much to see the hut itself was hidden away in a little of swamp that grew upon a mound in the midst of a plain broken here and there by patches of reed and walking across this plain for a hundred yards or so they came to more and in them a boat hidden for here was the water of the lake and not fifty paces away what seemed to be the shore of an island the mare bade her get into the boat and rowed her across to this island then round it to another and thence to another and yet another now tell me she said upon which of them is my stable built shook her head helplessly you cannot tell no nor any living man i say that no man lives who could find it save i myself who know the path there by night or by day look and she pointed to the vast surface of the mere on this great sea are thousands of such and before they find me the must search them all for here upon the lonely waters no or hound will help them then she began to row again without even looking round and presently they were in the of from which they had started i must be going home faltered no answered it is too late you have slept long look the sun is fast this night you must stop with me oh do not be afraid my fare is rough but it is sweet and fresh and plenty fish from the mere as much as you will for who can catch them better than i and water fowl that i yes and their eggs moreover dried flesh and bacon which i get from the for there i have friends whom sometimes i meet at night the mare s stable so yielded for the great peace of this lake pleased her oh after all that she had gone through it was like heaven to watch the sun sinking towards the quiet water to hear the wild fowl call to see the fish leap and the flash by and above all to be sure that by nothing short of a could this divine silence broken only of nature s voices be with the sound of the hated accents of the man who had ruined and betrayed her yes she was weary and a strange languor crept over her she would rest there this night also so they went back to the hut and made ready their evening meal and as she the fish over the fire of verily found herself laughing like a girl again then they ate it with appetite and after it was done mother prayed aloud yes and without fear although she knew to be a catholic read from her one treasure a testament crouching there in the light of the fire and saying see lady what a place this is for a to bide in where else may a woman read from the bible and fear no spy or priest a certain story shivered at her words now said the mare when she had finished reading tell me before you sleep what it was that brought you into the waters of the mere and what that spanish man has done to you do not be afraid for though i am mad or so they say i can keep counsel and between you and me are many bonds us van s daughter some of which you know and see and some that you can neither know nor see but which god will in his own season looked at the weird countenance distorted and made by long torment of body and mind and found in it something to trust yes even signs of that sympathy which she so sorely needed so she told her all the tale from the first word of it to the last the mare listened in silence for no story of evil by a seemed to move or astonish her only when had done she said ah child had you but known of me and where to find me you should have asked my aid why mother what could you have done answered done i would have followed him by night until i found my chance in some lonely place and there i would have then she stretched out her bony hand to the red light of the fire and saw that in it was a knife she sank back aghast why are you frightened my pretty lady asked the mare i tell you that i live on for only one thing � to kill yes priests first and then the others oh i have a long count to pay for every time that he was tortured a life for every groan he uttered at the stake a life yes so many for the father and half as many for the son | 18 |
would stand still by themselves in all the din and noise of battle while their masters went to fight on foot the could not have succeeded in their most remarkable art without the aid of these sensible and animals the art i mean is the construction and management of or cars for which they have ever been celebrated in history each of the best sort of these not quite breast high in front and open at the back contained one man to drive and two or three others to fight � all standing up the horses who drew them were so well trained that they would tear at gallop over the most stony ways and even through the woods dashing down their masters enemies beneath their hoofs and cutting them to pieces with the blades of swords or ancient england and the which were fastened to the wheels and stretched out beyond the car on each side for that cruel purpose in a moment while at full speed the horses would stop at the driver s command the men within would leap out deal blows about them � their like hail leap on the on the pole spring back into the anyhow and as soon as they were safe the horses tore away again the had a strange and terrible religion called the religion of the it seems to have been brought over in very early times indeed from the opposite country of france called and to have mixed up the worship of the serpent and of the sun and moon with the worship of some of the heathen and most of its ceremonies were kept secret by the priests the who pretended to be and who carried and wore each of them about his neck what he told the ignorant people was a serpent s egg in a golden case but it is certain that the included the sacrifice of human victims the torture of some suspected and on particular occasions even the burning alive in immense of a number of men and animals together the priests had some kind of veneration for the oak and for the � the same plant that we hang up in houses at christmas time now � when its white grew upon the oak they met together in dark woods which they called sacred groves and there they instructed in their mysterious arts young men who came to them as pupils and who sometimes staid with them as long as twenty years vol i � b a child s history df england these built great and open to the sky of which some are yet remaining on plain in is the most extraordinary of these three curious stones called house on near in form another we know from examination of the great blocks of which such buildings are made that they could not have been raised without the aid of some ingenious machines which are common now but which the ancient certainly did not use in making their own uncomfortable houses i should not wonder if the and their pupils who staid twenty years knowing more than the rest of the kept the people out of sight while they made these buildings and then pretended that they built them by magic perhaps they had a hand in the fi too at all events as they were very powerful and very much believed in and as they made and executed the laws and paid ho taxes i don t wonder that they liked their trade and as they persuaded the people that the more there were the better off the people would be i don t wonder that there were a good many of them but it is pleasant to think that there are no who go on in that way and pretend to carry and eggs � and of course th re is nothing of the kind any where such was the improved condition of the ancient fifty five years before the birth of our when the under their great general were masters of all the rest of the known world had then just conquer ancient england and tbe ed and in a good deal about the opposite island with the white and about the bravery of the who inhabited it � some of whom had been fetched over to help the in the war against him � he resolved as he was so near to come and conquer britain next so came over to this island of ours with eighty vessels and twelve thousand men and he came firom the french coast between and because thence was the shortest passage into britain just for the same reason as our now take the same track every day he expected to conquer britain easily but it was not easy work as he supposed � for the bold fought most bravely and what with not having his horse soldiers with him for they had been driven back by a storm and what with having some of his vessels dashed to pieces by a high tide after they were drawn ashore he ran great risk of being defeated however for once that the bold beat him he beat them twice though not so soundly but that he was very glad to accept their proposals of peace and go away but in the spring of the next year he came back this time with eight hundred vessels and thirty thousand men the british tribes chose as their general in chief d whom the in their latin language called but whose british name is to have been a brave general he was and well he and his soldiers fought the army so well that whenever in that war the roman soldiers saw a great cloud of dust and heard the rattle of the rapid british a child s history of england they trembled in their hearts besides a number of smaller battles there was a battle fought near | 8 |
to the president a man some twenty years older and he wondered at the time how a mere shepherd from the hills could talk on an equality as if they were friends with the president the shepherd he now heard was an but he lived among the hills and joseph remembered the striped shirt the sheep skin and the long stride his memory continued to and he recalled with singular distinctness and pleasure the fine broad brow upwards � a noble arch he said to himself � the distant as stars and the sadness in his voice soft and low but with a cry in it and he remembered how their eyes met and it seemed to joseph that he read in the shepherd s eyes a look of recognition and and now as he walked from the to the he remembered how all one night after that meeting dreams of a mutual destiny him how he slept and was awakened by visions that fled from his mind as he strove to recall them but was this young shepherd the one that saw john in the it cannot be else he said the brook to himself but whither was gone did the brethren know and if they did know would they tell him it was against the rule to put questions only the president could tell him and he dared not go to the president yet consult somebody he must and a few days afterwards he got leave again to visit whom he found lying in his cave sick not very sick though having eaten nothing for nearly two days he begged joseph to fetch him a little water from the rock which joseph did after having drunk a little the seemed to revive and joseph related how he missed on the bank and had no tidings of him except that he was gone into the desert to but the desert is large and i know not which side of the lake he has chosen to which answered john is in the get thee and repent on which he reached out his hand to his store of and while a few he added the is greater than and he is still get thee to at this joseph took offence and returned to the with the intention of his teaching but he was again so possessed of that he could not keep his mind on the lesson before him a pupil was often forced to put a question to him in a loud voice and perhaps to repeat it before joseph s sick reverie was sufficiently broken for him to an answer the pain of the effort to return to them was so apparent in his face that the pupils began to be sorry for him and kept up a fire of questions to save him from the melancholy to which he lately seemed to have become liable the cause of his grief they could not guess but he was not sure they did not suspect the cause and so the classes in which he heretofore took so much pleasure came to be dreaded by him every moment except those in which he sat in dreams was a penance and a pain and at last he pleaded illness and took his class leaving joseph to wander as far as he liked from the which had become hateful to him a the brook he was often met in the public gardens in watch ing the people going by vaguely interested and vaguely wearied by the thoughts that their different shows called up in his mind and he was always painfully conscious that nothing mattered that the great void would never be filled up again and that time would not restore to him a single desire or hope nothing matters he often said to himself as he sat drawing patterns in the gravel with his stick yet he had no will to die only to believe he was the victim of some powerful influence one day as he sat watching the wind in the palm trees it seemed to him that this influence this demon was always moving behind his life disturbing and setting himself to destroy any project that joseph might form another day it seemed to joseph that the demon cast a net over him and that � entangled in the � he was being drawn somebody spoke to him and he awoke so that the gossip could hardly keep himself from laughing outright if the end of the world were at hand let the end come to pass he said but he did not go to john for he knew not why only that he could not rouse himself and it was not till it came to be in that a prophet was gone to egypt to learn greek that he awoke sufficiently to ask why a prophet needed greek the answer he got was that the new doctrine required a knowledge of greek greek being a world wide language and the doctrine being also world wide as there was but one god for all the world it was reasonable to suppose that every man might hope for salvation be he jew or it seemed to joseph that this doctrine could only from the young shepherd he had met in the and he joined a and for fifteen days dreamed of the meeting that awaited him at the end of the journey � and of the delightful instruction in greek that he was going to impart to the heights of mount turned his thoughts backward the brook only for a moment and he continued his dream of continuing without interruption along the shell strewn shores of the sea of on and on into the till he stepped from the into the great in without exactly expecting to find waiting for him in the street he had dreamed of meeting him somewhere in the city he was sure he would recognise | 15 |
was truly not engaged to this fellow quickened and his regret that the girls were inclined to behave so the moment mr turned his back it began � that perpetual going and coming of it really wasn t right sally was a nature but he might speak to mr no that wouldn t do he might speak to but didn t care � he was absorbed in his wife and his speculations his little dinner at mrs s passed in irritation and discomfort he stands at the window his brain full of her graces her fascinating cunning and au her and his mind changed as the sunset that the village he knew nothing yet of his passion nor did he think he could not bear to lose her until he went from the cottage towards his he thought of his portrait of her he wanted to muse on the little eyes as he had rendered them and the strained grace that recalled the manner of the early in this picture at least she was his and his soul drank its fill of enchantment now he saw hardly at all the faults in the drawing and his pain softened and almost ceased in the and romance of but when he put down the the flow of emotion ceased and he stared on the and image of his thought � passing through the shade with the young stranger who was he by whose authority was he there was he one of those men whose only pleasure is to tempt girls spring days to corrupt them had he thought of this before his duty would have been to and he saw himself down the garden and telling that he insisted on her coming back to the to her sister it did not matter if he had no right he was prepared to answer for his conduct to her father and brother did that man look like one of those men who are always sitting with girls in far comers out of sight ah if he were sure th t he was one of those he would seek him out force him to speak his intentions if a girl s father and brother will not look after her a friend must say i will yes he would have to him kill him if it were necessary she might hate him for it at first but in the end she would recognise him as her it was too late now the man was in tomorrow elated with what he deemed duty with what he deemed for the sake of the girl he strode about thinking of the no thought came to him of how much of the sin if sin there was had originated in he saw her merely as a poor little thing led like a lamb following the idea of saving came the idea of possession when she clung to the husband she would tremble at the danger she had escaped their home their table their fireside protection from evil now all wild winds might rage � they would be safe the vision was constitutional and characteristic of his soul he was out of thought of all but himself his dream in pure idea removed from and independent of all � out of concern of the world s favour � mount mr or even the girl s grace as this temper passed as reality again interposed and as he saw the garden with leaving spring days him for another he viewed her conduct suddenly in relation to himself what did she mean by treating him so and for whom one day he would be lord mount the knew nobody he had only met a lot of at their house they did not know any one but the were the father was a vulgar old city man who talked about money and bought ridiculous pictures the girls too were vulgar and coarse god only knew how many lovers they had not had was the best but he was a fool too his and his vegetable shop � hateful the whole place was hateful he wished he had never come there since he had been there he had never been treated even as a gentleman the had treated him the skeleton of frank s soul is easy to trace in this mental crisis � his his wish to sally forth and save women his yearning for a pretty little wife who would sit on his knee and kiss him saying poor old boy you are tired now therefore an and distorted apprehension of things a tendency to think himself a wronged and persecuted person and under much and the that is so in the next morning he thought of her lightly without bitterness and almost without desire but after breakfast his heart began to ache he strove to read he went to his he went to but he saw in all things she was with him � a sort of vague pain that kept him strangely conscious of life once convinced he was a lover he became the man with a mission his heart swelled with mysterious and felt the spur of duty no longer was spring days delay a day an hour might involve the loss of all should he go round to the house and tell of the message he had received to love her and save her she would now be watering her flowers in the green houses but that other fellow might be there � he had heard something about an appointment no he had better write k he wrote at once absolutely at once he would be in time for the six o clock delivery a sheet of paper he wrote dearest i have loved you a long while i remember many things that make me think that i have always loved you but to day i have learnt that you are the one great and absorbing influence � that | 15 |
since you told me of the lady who gave you the the monotonous boy put his head round the beam on the left and said look out there ladies and disappeared the gentleman with the black hair as suddenly put his head round the beam on the right and said look out there and also all the j s rose im � out i funny doing the rest what were y going to hay i c you told mc a lady you the yon funny i not un and want to know a more if you wiu more to me i ow said the boy in the cup the gentleman with hie hair they w n every gone in a moment and the music and the dancing were little but in a golden c giddy by rapid hit sister the were a id during their a voice it od to be that the with the hair was out oil two three four fire ax � go ne two four five six � i � one two four five � go tile stopped und all again more or out breath folding in their und making ready for l stop a moment and let m get away id whispered they were left alone nothing mon happening in the than the boy looking round hi i und saying body at eleven to morrow ij the with the looking round old saying everybody ut en lo i ae they were m was rolled up or by other n got out of the way and there a great empty well before tl looking down into the depths of funny said sow little as h t used to the i i r b out at the bottom of the wiu in an b i with his tn its rugged r ui the old man looked as if the remote high windows v their little strip of sky might ii been the of he descended until he below there to the bottom he had be ti in that nights a week for years but had never n to hit above his book and was to never seen a play there were legends in tlie thai h did aa know tlie popular cm and by and that low liad at in his ni ts for a and he had no of had a joke to the effect that ho was dead without aware of it and the of the pit to pa whole life night and day and sunday aiid u l w tlie tn a few time with of snuff offered he had always to thin attention with a up manner that the of a gentleman in it b � � y anon had any other part in wliat wan thin he a than the part written out tor l j i he i � little i poor some said he was a wealthy hut he said never lifted up his head never varied his it getting his foot from the ground though expecting i w to he summoned hy his niece he did not hear her until she had o en to him three or four times nor was he at all surprised hy presence of two instead of one but merely said in his voice i am coming i am coming and crept forth by hie way which a smell and so said her sister when the three together passed out the door that had such a shame faced consciousness of being different om other doors the instinctively taking s arm as the to be on so you are about me was pretty and conscious and rather and the with which she put aside the superiority of her charms and worldly experience and addressed sister on almost equal iv ins had a vast deal of the family in it i am interested and concerned in anything that concerns so vou are so you are and you are the best of if i am cr a httle provoking i am sure you u consider what a thing it is to my position and feel a consciousness of being superior to it i wouldn t care said the daughter of the of the i� the others were not so of them have come down in e world as we have they are all on their o ii level common little mildly looked at the speaker but did not interrupt her took out her handkerchief and rather angrily ti her eyes was not bom where you were you know perhaps that a difference my dear child when we get rid of uncle you u know all about it we u drop him at the cook s shop where he is ig to dine hey walked on witli him until they came to a dirty shop window in street which was made almost by the steam of hot ts vegetables and but were to be caught of st leg of pork bursting into tears of sage and in a metal foil of of an piece of roast beef and hot in a similar of a stuffed f in rapid cut of a ham in a perspiration the pace it was at of a shallow of baked potatoes together by their richness of a or two of boiled and other sub within were a few wooden behind which j as found it more convenient to take away their dinners � than in their hands packed their purchases in solitude opening her as they surveyed those things produced at a shilling and handed it to uncle uncle after ing at it a little while divined its and muttering � ha yes yes slowly m them into the said her sister come with me if you are not too to street square with which she threw off this distinguished address and the her new bonnet which was more than serviceable little made her sister wonder however she expressed her readiness to go | 8 |
eye now mr now mr i must beg of you � calm yourself what would my guests think if they found you in tears what would they think i had been saying to reduce you to such a condition it is very unfortunate that sally and should act as they do particularly at my place but really you must not give way since the death of their poor mother i am all alone my position is a very trying one then with a sudden burst of laughter however i suppose it will be all the same a hundred years hence x the girls walked to the station with the green was bright in the sunset and the grass was strangely green and sweet and the strangely white it was a evening with the clouds all growing pale towards the sea and the sun was like fire in the elms and the woods showed upon a purple tinge how delightful exclaimed frank the moonlight used to move me more but now the sunset is to me always a source of emotion there is generally a subtle in the sunset that i never weary of that i feel as keenly to day as i did last year how charming this is � this old english green the horse pond at one end the various houses the inn the business the linen drying in that yard the smith and the i don t like that modern queen anne school house and i wish i could remove the dead level of the and see the sea the green is better from this side with the view of the downs � those lines waving against the sky where the grows and the sheep feed and to the road all the fields pale green and deep green but what game are those men playing � what game do you call that bat and trap i have passed the green twenty times before and i never really saw it till now it is charming � so thoroughly spring days english i should like to live here for a month � for two months how nice it would be to breakfast in the morning looking out on the green to see the and and all the children and all this english life how different from pump court i am sick of pump court � dirt and smoke a horrid servant stale eggs i suppose you can always get fresh eggs and new bread hero i would give anything to spend a month on the green well you can cried sally i wish you would and you could come and play with us every afternoon mrs has some rooms to let why it was only last week i heard she had not let her rooms this season and was most anxious to do so there s no use my coming here until i begin to write my novel i am painting now and i must see if i can get my picture finished for one of the autumn i knew you would find some excuse no i assure you but i can t do anything without a and i am not likely to find a on green i don t suppose mrs has a room large enough for a said but i don t see why you should not find a place where you could paint where not in that century house where the two old ladies are standing supposing i were to go and ask them if they would let me have their drawing room to paint in that is the only house on the green all the rest are cottages i suppose you are not very particular where you paint said you don t mind appearances i suppose i wonder if you could manage to fit up a farm building spring days there is the famous bam where charles the first hid himself i don t suppose the authorities would allow me to turn that into a no probably not but i think you might find a house that would do what nonsense said sally who began to grow jealous of her sister why is it nonsense i see no reason why frank should not come to some arrangement with the smith and turn his house into a which is the smith s house i ll tell you in a moment if it could be turned into a that house standing quite by itself in the comer of the green that tall narrow house with the bit of broken wall and the elder bushes yes i i could up a very nice out of that place indeed it looks quite picturesque amid its elder bushes there is the and there is the but i could not live there no you would live at mrs s and you could walk over every morning to the yes i could do that i prefer to live with my work there is nothing like walking from the breakfast table across the room to the of course you can find fault with anything nothing is perfect there goes the train cried sally no use in running now you have missed it how very provoking the next isn t till half past seven just an hour to wait spring days well said if you have missed the train we may as well go at once and ask mrs if she has let her rooms they walked towards a block of cottages � at one end the s arms at the other the business and the cottage that joined the business was remarkable for a bit of green and a wooden balcony now covered with virginia frank at once thought of new laid eggs and the sunlight glancing through a great mass of and he resolved if a sacrifice were necessary to live at that he would put his picture aside and begin his novel the people in the house pleased him and he | 15 |
bewildered as to the purpose of earthly existence the should throw aside the veil and cast an inquiring glance at this figure of death as seeking thence the solution otherwise the only reply would be a stare of the vacant eye and a grin of the skeleton jaws such was the response that the dead man had fancied to receive when he asked of death to solve the riddle of his life and it was his desire to repeat it when the guests of his dismal hospitality should themselves perplexed with the same question what means that wreath asked several of the company while the of the table they alluded to a wreath of which was held on high by a skeleton arm from in the black mantle a h� et it is a crown said one of the not for the but for the when he shall prove his claim to it the guest earliest to the festival was a man of soft and gentle character who had not energy to struggle against the heavy despondency to which his temperament rendered him liable and with nothing outwardly to excuse him from happiness he had spent a life of quiet misery that made his blood and weighed upon his breath and sat like a ponderous night upon every throb of his heart his wretchedness seemed as deep as his original nature if not identical with it it was the misfortune of a second guest to cherish within his bosom a heart which had become so sore that the and of the world the v of an enemy the careless of a stranger and even the faithful and loving touch of a friend alike made in it as is the habit of pie thus afflicted he found his chief employment in exhibiting these miserable to any who would give themselves the pain of them a third guest was a whose imagination wrought in his outward and inward world and caused him to see monstrous faces in the household fire and in the clouds of sunset and in the guise of beautiful women and something ugly or wicked beneath all the pleasant of nature his neighbor at table was one who in his early youth had trusted mankind too much and hoped too highly in their behalf and in meeting with many disappointments had become desperately for several years from an old back this had employed himself in motives for and his race � such as murder lust treachery ingratitude ness of trusted friends instinctive vices of children of women hidden guilt in men of aspect � and in short all manner of black realities that sought to themselves with outward grace or glory but at every fact that was added to his catalogue at every increase of the sad knowledge which he spent his life to collect the native impulses of the poor man s loving and confiding heart made him groan with anguish next with his heavy brow bent downward there stole into the hall a man naturally earnest and impassioned who from his infancy had felt the consciousness of a high message to the world but to deliver it had found either no voice or form of speech or else no ears to listen therefore his whole life was a bitter questioning of himself � why have not men acknowledged mission am i not a self fool what business have i on earth where is my grave � throughout the festival he frequent draughts from the urn of wine hoping thus to the celestial fire that tortured his own breast and could not benefit liis race then there entered having flung away a ticket for a ball a gay gallant of yesterday who had found four or five wrinkles in his brow and more gray hairs than he could well number on his head endowed with sense and feeling he had nevertheless spent his youth in folly but had reached at last that dreary point in life re folly us of her own accord leaving us to the make friends with wisdom if we can thus cold and desolate he had come to seek wisdom at the banquet and wondered if the skeleton were she to out the company the had invited a distressed poet from his home in the and a melancholy idiot from the street corner the latter had just the of sense that was sufficient to make him conscious of a which the poor fellow all his life long had sought to fill up with intelligence wandering up and down the streets and groaning miserably because his attempts were ineffectual the only lady in the hall was one who had fallen short of absolute and perfect beauty merely by the trifling defect of a slight cast in her left eye but this minute as it was so shocked the pure ideal of her soul rather than her vanity that she passed her hfe in solitude and veiled her countenance even from her own gaze so the skeleton sat at one end of the table and this poor lady at the other one other guest remains to be described he was a young man of smooth brow fair cheek and fashionable mien so far as his exterior developed him he might much more have found a place at some merry christmas table than have been numbered among the fate stricken fancy tortured set of ill murmurs arose among the guests as they noted the glance of general scrutiny which the intruder threw over his companions what had he to do among them why did not the skeleton of the dead founder of the feast its rattling joints arise and motion the unwelcome stranger from the board shameful said the morbid man while a new f om an old broke out in his heart he comes to mock us � we shall be the jest of his tavern friends � he will make a farce of our miseries | 35 |
had she property j person and the strand after midnight the police would not have interfered with her and she would have been able to pay for her lodging the following cases are from the police court reports for a single week � police court before and thomas charged with being drunk and and with a rescued a woman from kicked the and threw stones at him s d for the first offence and lor and costs for the assault queen s park police court before john pleaded guilty to his wife there were five previous convictions s county petty john painter a big fellow described as a charged with his wife the woman received two severe black eyes and her face was badly swollen � i including costs and bound over to keep the peace police court richard and george hunt charged with in search of game hunt � i and costs and costs in one month police court before the mayor mr a t carpenter thomas baker charged with sleeping out fourteen days central police court before edward a lad convicted of stealing fifteen a at the station seven days i the people of the abyss police court before and other james m charged under the act with being found in possession of implements and a number of � and costs or one month court before john young a pit head pleaded guilty to alexander by beating him about the head and body with his fists throwing him un the ground and also striking him with a pit � police court before pleaded guilty to a man by striking and knocking him down it was an assault and the magistrate described the accused as a perfect danger to the community ar court before the mayor messrs f j j f e and dr r joseph charged with charles without any provocation struck the a violent blow in the face knocking him down and then kicked him on the side of the head he was rendered unconscious and he remained under medical treatment for a fortnight ij court before david charged with there were two previous convictions the last being three years ago the was asked to deal with who was sixty two years of age and who offered no resistance to the four months court before hon substitute r c john and property i person james charged with and xi ea ch or fourteen days � or one month reading police court before messrs w b f b h m and g alfred masters aged sixteen charged with sleeping out on a waste piece of ground and having no visible means of seven days city petty before the mayor messrs c g e alexander and w james charged with stealing a pair of boots from outside a shop twenty one days police court before the rev w p the rev j and mr n george a young convicted of what the as an altogether and brutal assault upon james foster a man over seventy years of age � and j costs petty before messrs f j s r and s smith john charged with the rev who was drunk was a and pushed it in front of a with the result that the was and the baby in it thrown out the passed over the but the baby was then attacked the driver of the and afterwards the who remonstrated with him upon his conduct in consequence of the injuries inflicted had to consult a doctor j and costs west riding police court before messrs c and g and colonel i the people of the abyss thomas and samuel charged with one month each county police court before admiral j c mr h h and other henry charged with sleeping out seven days police court before major l b messrs r and h a and dr court joseph charged with stealing nine from a garden one month petty before messrs j b w d and m and george hall charged under the act with being found in possession of a number of and john charged with and them hall and � and j� js d including costs the former committed for fourteen days and the latter for one month in of payment south western police court london before mr rose john charged with doing grievous bodily harm to a prisoner had been kicking his wife and also another woman who protested against his the tried to persuade him to go inside his house but prisoner suddenly turned upon him knocking him down by a blow on the face kicking him as he lay on the ground and attempting to him finally the prisoner deliberately kicked the officer in a dangerous part an injury which will keep him off duty for a long time to come six weeks property person police court london before mr baby aged nineteen described as a chorus girl charged with obtaining food and lodging to the value of s by false and with intent to keeper of road prisoner took apartments at her house on the representation that she was employed at the crown theatre after prisoner had been in her house two or three days mrs made inquiries and finding the girl s story gave her into prisoner told the magistrate that she would have worked had she not had such bad health six weeks hard labor chapter xvii i d rather die on the high road under the open blue i d rather starve to death in the sweet air or drown in the brave salt sea or have one fierce glad hour of battle and then a bullet than lead ihe life of a in a hell and gasp my broken breath at la st on a s i stopped a moment to listen to an argument on the mile end waste it was night time and they were all workmen of the better class they had surrounded one of their | 21 |
by speaking of that said tenderly is no need tho case is very simple i think i can hardly judge about it you consult me because i am the only person to whom you confided the most painful part of your experience and i can understand your scruples did not go on immediately waiting for her to recover herself tho silence seemed to full of tho tenderness that she heard in his voice and she had courage to lift up her eyes and look at him as ho said you arc conscious of something which you feel to bo a crime toward one who is ad you think that you have all claim as a wife you shrink from taking what was his you want to keep yourself pure from by his death your feeling even you to some self punishment � some of tho self that your better will � tho will that struggled against temptation i have known something of that myself do i understand you yes � at least i want to bo good � not like what i have been said i will try to bear what you think i ought to bear i have tried to tell you the worst about myself what ought i to do r if do but yourself concerned in this question of income said i should hardly to urge you against any but i take as a guide now your feeling about mrs which seems to mo quite just i can not think that your husband s even to yourself are by any act yon have committed he voluntarily entered into your life and affected its course in what is always the most momentous way but setting that aside it was due from him in his position that he should provide for your mother and he of course understood that if this will took effect she would share the provision he had made for you she has had eight hundred a year what i thought of was to take that and leave the rest said she had been so long inwardly arguing for this as a permission that her mind could not at once take another attitude i think it is not your duty to fix a limit in that way said you would be making a painful for mrs an income from which you shut yourself out must be to her and your own course would become too difficult we agreed at that the burden on your conscience is what no one ought to be admitted to the knowledge of the future of your life will bo best your saving all others from the pain of that knowledge in my opinion you ought simply to abide by the provisions of your husband s will and let your remorse tell only on the use that you will make of your independence in uttering the last sentence took up his hat which he had laid on the floor beside him sensitive to his slightest movement felt her heart giving a great leap as if it too had a consciousness of its own and would hinder him from going in the same moment she rose from her chair unable to reflect that the movement was an acceptance of his apparent intention to leave her and of course also rose advancing a little i will do what you tell me said hurriedly but what else shall i do no other than these simple words were possible to her and even these were too much for her in a state of emotion where her proud secrecy was book tin � as the sentences f m her lips they on her like a picture of her own and not the sob which sent the large tears to her a crashing bnt imminent were visible to him and him to the utmost exertion of conscience when she had pressed her tears away he said in a gently questioning tone will probably be soon going with mrs into the in a week or ten days waited an instant her eyes toward the window as if looking at some i want to bo kind to them all � they can be hi than i can is that the best i think sa it is a duty that can not bo doubtful said d he paused a between his sentences feeling s weight of anxiety on all his word other duties will spring from it looking at your life as a debt may seem the view of things at a distance but it can not really be so what makes life dreary is the want of motive but once ix to act with that loving purpose you have in your mind there will be unexpected � will be newly opening continually coming to carry you on from day to day you will find your life growing like a plant turned her eyes on him with the look of one toward the sound of unseen waters felt the look as if she had been stretching her arms toward him from a forsaken shore his voice took an affectionate when he said this sorrow which has cut down to the root has come to you while you are so young � try to think of it not as a of your life but as a preparation for it let it be a preparation � any one bis tones would have ht he was for his own happiness see i you have been saved from the worst evils that might have come from your marriage which you feel was wrong you have had a vision of injurious selfish action � a vision of possible degradation think that a severe angel seeing you along the road of vol error grasped yoa by tho wrist and showed you the horror of the life you must avoid and it has come to you in spring time think of it as a preparation yon can you | 14 |
with the rope and there was neither sign nor nor whisper down the to show where the others had gone little stared again and again the clearing as he remembered it had grown in the night more trees stood in the middle of it but the and the grass at the sides had been rolled back little stared once more now he understood the the had stamped out more room � had stamped the thick grass and cane to into the into tiny and the into hard earth said little and his eyes were very heavy � my lord let us keep by and go lo s camp or i shall drop from thy neck the third elephant watched the two go away wheeled round and took his own path le may have belonged to some little of the king s establishment fifty or sixty or a hundred miles away two hours later as was eating early breakfast his who had been double chained that night began to trumpet and to the shoulders with very foot sore into the camp little s face was gray and pinched and his hair was full of leaves and with dew but he tried to salute and cried faintly the dance � the elephant dance i have seen it and � i die as sat down he slid off his neck in a dead faint but since native children have no nerves worth speaking of in two hours he was lying very in s with s shooting coat under his head and a glass of warm milk a little brandy with a dash of inside of him and while the old hairy hunters of the sat three deep before him looking at him as though he were a spirit he told his tale in short words as a child will and wound up with now if i lie in one word send men to see and they will find that the elephant folk have trampled down more room in their dance room and they will find ten and ten and many times the book ten tracks leading to that dance room tbey made more room with their feet have seen it me and i saw also is very g little lay back and slept all through the long afternoon and into the twilight and while he slept and followed the track of the two for fifteen miles the had spent eighteen years in catching and he had only once before found such a dance place had no need to look twice at the clearing tu see what had been done there or to scratch ills toe in the packed earth the child speaks truth said he all this was done last night and i have counted seventy tracks crossing the river see where s leg iron cut the bark of that tree yes she was there too tliey looked at each other and up and down and they wondered for the ways of are beyond the wit of any man black or white to p years and five said have i followed my lord the elephant but never have i heart that any child of man had seen what this child has seen by all the of the of the hills it is � what can we say and he shook his head when they got back to camp it was time for the evening meal ate alone in his tent but he gave orders that the camp should have two sheep and some fowls as well as a double of flour and rice and salt for he knew that there would be a feast big had come up hot foot from the camp in the plains to search for his son and his elephant and now that he had found them he looked at them as though he were afraid of them both and there was a feast by the blazing in front of the lines of and little was the hero of it all and the big brown elephant the and drivers and and the men who know all the secrets of breaking the wildest passed him from one to the other and they marked his forehead with blood from the breast of a newly killed cock to show that he was a and free of all the and at last when the flames died down and the red light of the logs made the look as though they had been dipped in blood too the head of all the drivers of all the � s x s s the book other who had never seen a made road m forty years who was so great that he had no other name than � leaped to his feet with little held high in the air above his head and shouted listen my brothers listen too you my lords in the lines there for i am this little one shall no more be called little but of the as his great grandfather was called before him what never man has seen he has seen through the night and the favor of the elephant folk and of the gods of the is with him he shall become a great he shall become greater than i even i he shall follow the new trail and the stale trail and the mixed trail with a clear eye i he shall take no harm in the when he runs under their to rope the wild and if he slips before the feet of the charging bull elephant that bull elephant shall know who he is and shall not crush him my lords in the chains � he whirled up the line of � here is the little one that has seen your dances in your hidden places � the sight that never man saw give him honor my lords my children make your salute to of the to ll i of the � thou hast seen him | 39 |
eaten it all at last yet every one had had enough and the youngest in particular were in sage and to the eyebrows but now the plates being changed by miss mrs left the room alone � too nervous to bear witness � to take the up and bring it in suppose it should not be done enough suppose it should break in turning out suppose somebody should have got over the wall of the and stolen it while they were merry with the goose � a supposition at which the two young be livid all sorts of horrors were supposed a great deal of steam the was out of the copper a smell like a washing day that was the cloth a smell like an eating house and a cook s next door to each other with a s next door to that that was the in half a minute mrs entered � flushed but smiling proudly � with the like a cannon ball so hard and firm smoking hot and with christmas stuck into the top oh a wonderful bob said and calmly too that he regarded it as the greatest success achieved by mrs since their marriage mrs said that now the weight was off her mind she would confess she had her doubts about the quantity of flour everybody had something to say about it but nobody said or thought it was at all a small for a large family it would have been flat to do so any would have blushed to hint at such a thing at last the dinner was all done the cloth was cleared the hearth swept and the fire made up the compound in the being tasted and considered perfect apples and were put upon the table and a full of on the fire then all the family drew round the hearth in what bob called a circle meaning half a one and at bob s elbow stood the family display of glass � two and a cup without a handle these held the hot stuff from the however as well as golden would have done and bob served it out with beaming looks while the on the fire and cracked then bob proposed a merry christmas to us all my god bless us which all the family god bless us every one said tiny tim the last of all he sat very close to his father s side upon his little stool bob held his withered little hand in his as if he loved the child and wished to keep him by his side and dreaded that he might be taken from him expression in this selection we have one of the best pictures of true christmas enjoyment ever composed read it silently again and again and make a friend of every member of the family some of the sentences are long so study each one carefully to get its full meaning and connection now read the lesson aloud paragraph by paragraph in such a way as to make every passage clearly understood study to express the main thoughts in the best possible manner refer to the dictionary for monstrous luxurious exclusive supposition ht thoughts for the new year to be thoughts rule the world � write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year � to day is ours what do we fear to day is ours we have it here let s treat it kindly that it may wish at least with us to stay � pass therefore not to day in vain for it will never come again � om r make yourself nests of pleasant thoughts none of us yet know what fairy palaces we may build of beautiful thoughts proof against all � john those who are accompanied with noble thoughts are never alone � sir philip know the true value of time snatch seize and enjoy every moment of it never put off till to morrow what you can do to day � earl of if time be of all things the most precious then wasting time is the greatest for lost time is never found again � whatever any one does or says i must be good just as if the gold or the or the purple were always saying this whatever any one else does i must be pure and keep my color � the sun does not shine for a few trees and flowers but for the wide world s joy the lonely pine on the mountain top waves its boughs and cries thou art my sun and the little meadow violet lifts its cup of blue and whispers thou art my sun and the grain in a thousand fields in the wind and makes answer thou art my sun � be good sweet maid and let who will be clever do noble things not dream them all day long and so make life death and that vast forever one grand sweet song � charles let us have faith that right makes might and in that faith let us to the end dare to do our duty as we understand it � come to me ye children i come to me ye children for i hear you at your play and the questions that perplexed me have vanished quite away ye open the eastern windows that look toward the sun where thoughts are singing and the of morning run in your hearts are the birds and the sunshine in your thoughts the s flow but in mine is the wind of autumn and the first fall of the snow ah what would this world be to us if the children were no more we should dread the desert behind us worse than the dark before what the leaves are to the forest with light and air for food ere their sweet and tender have been hardened into wood � by henry w that to | 23 |
in the outer world while her mother was and co ling up her thick black hair � a task because it seemed to renew the days of her daughter s � told how she came to send for mr how she had remembered their meeting at sally martin s in the autumn and had felt an irresistible desire to see him and tell him her sins and her troubles i see god s goodness now mother in ordering it so that we should meet in that way to overcome my prejudice against him and make me feel ho was good and then bringing it back to my mind in the depth of my trouble you know what foolish things i used to say about him knowing nothing of him all the while and yet he was the man who was to me comfort and help when everything else failed me it is wonderful how i feel able to speak to him as i never have done to any one before and how every word he says to me enters my heart and has a new meaning for me i think it must be because he has felt life more deeply than others and has a deeper faith i believe everything he says at once his words come to me like rain on the ground it has always to before as if i could see behind people s words as one sees behind a screen but in mr it is his very soul that speaks well my dear child i love and bless him for your sake if he has given you any comfort i never believed the harm people said of him though i had no to go and hear him for i am contented with old fashioned ways i find more good teaching than i can practise in reading my bible at home and hearing mr at church but your wants are differ ent my dear and we are not all led by the same road that was certainly good advice of mr s you told me of last night � that we should consult some one that may interfere for you with your husband and i have been turning it over in my mind while i ve been lying awake in the night i think nobody will do so well as mr for we must have a man that knows the law and that robert is rather afraid of and perhaps he could bring about an agreement for you to live apart your husband s bound to maintain you you know and if you liked we could move away and live somewhere else o mother we must do nothing yet i must think about it a little longer i have a different feeling this morning from what i had yesterday something seems to tell me that i must go ck to robert some time � after a little while i loved him once better than all the world and i have never had any children to love there were s in me that were wrong and i should like to make up for them if i can well my dear i won t persuade you think of it a longer but something must be done soon how i wish i had my bonnet and shawl and black gown here said after a few minutes silence i should like to go to church and hear mr there would be no fear of my meeting robert for he never goes out on a sunday morning i m afraid it would not do for me to pro to the house and fetch your clothes said mrs o no no j must stay quietly here while you two go to church i will be mrs s maid and get the dinner ready for her by the time she comes back dear good woman she was � b tender to me when she took g scenes of life me in in the night mother and all the next day when i could n t speak a word to her to thank her chapter xxi the servants at s felt some surprise when the morning noon and evening of saturday had passed and still their mistress did not it s very odd said the as she trimmed her next week s cap while the cook looked on with folded arms do you think as mrs was ill and sent for the afore we was up oh said if it had been that she d ha been back an for three or four times afore now she d ha sent little ann to let us know there s up more nor between her an the master that you may depend on said i know those clothes as was lying i the drawing room yesterday when the company was come meant i should n t wonder if that was what they ve had a fresh row about she s p gone away an s made up her mind not to come back again an i the right on t too said i d ha him long afore now if it had been me i would n t bein as she is by no husband not if he was the biggest lord i the land it s poor work bein a wife at that price d sooner be a cook wi out an roast an boil an an all to mind at once she may well do as she does i know m glad enough of a drop o myself when i m i feel very low like to night i think i shall put my beer i the an warm it what a one you are for beer i could n t abide it � nasty bitter stuff it s fine if was a cook you d know what belongs to bein a cook it s none so nice to a at your stomach i can | 14 |
i could never have got everything into that little pen which they call a wardrobe she dismissed telling her that she could come up presently and lay away her things and she told her that one particular trunk might be put away in the large cupboard without being they are not things useful for this climate she said by way of explanation as a matter of fact the trunk contained some of her best dresses and the girl s difficulty was this that believing herself to be the princess in reality although only to the world at present she had dressed enough for that position but most for the position of a bright young girl living in such a place as among other apparel she bad some half dozen beautiful tea gowns which she had worn in the evening when she and were not going out to dinner the of these she selected to wear that evening and when she had washed her face and hands and had the masses of her lovely hair she slipped into it with a sigh of relief it was a well cut white gown relieved here and there with a touch of faint green now at that time of day a tea gown was a garment but little known at least in provincial england and was never worn by unmarried women therefore when margaret went down into the drawing room mrs looked up with something of a start my dear she said in rather a scared voice i don t know what you have done to yourself you are very much altered am i dear smiling in what she tried to make a natural and interested sort of way i don t think so oh yes dear child you look ten years older than you used to do you don t look like a girl at all a woman perhaps i shall look more like a girl to morrow dear she suggested i am tired to night but the morrow came and margaret looked no more like the girl who had gone away two years before than she felt like her she put away most of her dresses and as soon as possible she got a couple of new spring made in the mode then most obtaining among young ladies in she also bought a couple of hats to suit them but everybody insisted that never was a girl so utterly and thoroughly changed and altered as margaret north the day after her return a letter reached her by the evening post she took it with an hand although she recognised the writing at a glance thank you she said carelessly then got up well dear i will go and change my dress i am rather late she went upstairs crushing the letter hard in her hand her heart was beating thick and fast and a vague fear her whole being she put the letter on her chimney shelf and tore off her day gown with trembling fingers just her hair and dipping her hands into water and slipping into the loose white gown which she had worn the previous evening then she drew a chair to the dressing table and opened the letter it was long very tender passionate and full of grief and despair i have no words he said in which to ask your forgiveness i know that i have wronged you cruelly and it was that shadow which caused you to think that i was changing towards you � who could not change if i would for the deception i put upon you i have no excuse margaret i have no excuse to offer and i will not even pretend that i am sorry that i did it don t pass the rest of your life thinking me a who goes through existence like a roaring lion seeking whom he may will you believe me � yes i know you will � when i tell you that i have never in my life loved anyone except yourself will you believe me when i tell you that i shall never as long as i live love another woman you tell me to go back to my wife but if you knew what our life was together before i ever knew you and the kind of woman that my wife is i think even if you wished to torture me going back you would not ask me to go back to her after the two years of bliss i have enjoyed with you she has my name and that is more than enough for her when i spend my allotted time in she generally chooses that opportunity to pay her country visits or to take a cure somewhere we have not only nothing in common we have everything out of the common with each other with regard to the child who will one day succeed me he is less than nothing to me i have never seen him for five minutes alone in my life and he regards me entirely with his mother s eyes as to your decision margaret i abide by it it was not necessary to tell me that you would if i annoyed you in the future appeal for protection to your own people the suggestion of your appealing for protection from me has hurt me very cruelly but it is not for me to reproach you in any way you need have no fear still when what you feel now has passed by it is within the bounds of possibility that you may want me if that day should ever come you have but to write or telegraph one word to me at this address i shall not give this place up i shall not touch it if i should never see you again as long as i live i shall keep this as a shrine as a that i may come to when life is too | 30 |
brought hither from other islands for this was like � wise an abode of the they had soon an instance of the courage and ferocity of this race while ihe boat was ou shore a with a few indians two of whom were females came from a distant part of the island and a point of land arrived suddenly in fill view of the ships astonished at what to them must have been so awful and supernatural an apparition they remained for a long time gazing in mute so completely were they in that the boat returning from the shore had stole close upon them before they perceived it seizing their they now attempted to escape but though their light the surface of the waves the steady sweep of the oar gained upon them and the boat being and the land cut off their retreat seeing flight was v n they caught their bows and arrows and turned fiercely upon their the women fought as well as the men one of them appeared to be treated with obedience and reverence as if she were their queen she was accompanied by her a young man martyr strongly made terrible and and a lion s face they plied their bows with vigour and rapidity the were covered with their two of them were quickly wounded and an arrow was sent with such force by one of the as to pass through and through a to avoid this fire which was rendered more formidable from an apprehension that tlie arrows might be poisoned the ran their boat violently upon the � � and it the fierce savages however con to fight while in the water gathering themselves oc p l life and voyages of sunken rocks and g their arrows as as though they had been upon firm land it was with the utmost difficulty they could be overcome and taken one of them was with a lance so that he died after being brought to the ships and the queen s son was wounded when on board the could not but admire their spirit and fierce their hair was long and coarse their eyes encircled with paint so as to give them a hideous expression they had bands of cotton bound firmly above and below the muscular parts of the arms and legs so as to cause them to swell to a � size which was regarded by them as a great beauty a custom which prevailed among various tribes of the new world though in chains and in the power of their enemies they still retained a frowning brow and an air of defiance peter martyr who often went to see them when in spain declares from his own experience and that of others who accompanied him that it was impossible to look at them without a certain inward sensation of horror nature having endowed them with so menacing and terrible an aspect this sensation was doubtless caused in a great measure from the idea of their being in this according to the same writer the indians used poisoned arrows and one of the died within a few days of a he had received from a female warrior pursuing his voyage soon came in sight of a great cluster of islands of various shapes and appearances some and covered with forests but the greater part naked and rising into wild mountains many p martyr l a c ind c ms let of dr t � � t ii of the rocks of which were of a bright colour and others of a white these with his usual vivacity of imagination supposed to contain mines of rich and precious stones the islands lying close together with the sea beating and tossing roughly in the narrow channels which divided them rendered it dangerous to enter among them with the large ships keeping off therefore in the broad sea sent in a small with sails to which returned with the report that there were upwards of fifty islands but apparently to the largest of this group gave the name of and he called the others the eleven thousand the examination of them to some future time he continued his course until he arrived one evening in sight of a great island covered with beautiful forests and with fine it was called by the natives but he gave it the name of st and it is the game since known by the name of this was the native island of most of the who had fled to the ships for refuge from the according to their accounts it was fertile and and under the dominion of a single its inhabitants were not given to and possessed but few they were subject to frequent from the who were their enemies they had become warriors therefore in own defence using the bow and arrow and the war club and in their with their foes they retorted upon them their own devouring their prisoners in sheer revenge p martyr l letter of dr vol i life and voyages of after for a whole day along the of this island they in a bay at the west end which with fish on landing they found an indian village situated as usual round a common square like a market place with one large and well built house from hence a spacious road led to the sea side having fences on each side of fruitful gardens at the end of the road was a kind of terrace or look out neatly constructed with and overhanging the water the whole place had an air of neatness and ingenuity superior to the ordinary of the natives and appeared to be the abode of some important all however was silent and deserted not a human being was to be seen during the time that they remained at the place the natives had fled and concealed themselves at the sight of the after remaining here | 48 |
again possessing a dramatic literature chapter x it is said that young men of genius come to london with great poems and in their pockets and find every door closed against them s death this legend but when i edward came to london in search of literary adventure i found a ready welcome possibly i should not have been accorded any welcome had i been anything but an ordinary person let this be i was as covered with as a distinguished foreigner with stars i wore around my neck was pinned over the heart i carried like a i toy revolver in my waistcoat pocket to be used on an emergency i do not judge whether i was or genius i merely state that i found and ready to listen to me the world may be wicked cruel and stupid but it is patient on this point i will not be it is patient i know what i am talking about i maintain that the world is patient if it were not what would have happened i should have been murdered by the of i will suppress names torn in pieces by the sub and devoured by the office boys there was no wild theory which i did not them with there was no strange plan for the instant of the which i did not press upon them and here i must whisper with a fair amount of success not complete success i am glad to say � that would or a young man have meant for the a change from their to the benches of the union and the plank beds of the when she returned home from the theatre suggested i had an enemy a enemy who dogged my steps but her stage experience led her astray i had no enemy except myself or to put it no enemy except the logical consequences of my past life and education and these caused me a great and real inconvenience french wit was in my brain french sentiment was in my heart of the english soul i knew nothing and i could not remember old sympathies it was like seeking forgotten words and if i were writing a short story i had to return in thought to or the for my characters that i should have forgotten so much in ten years seems incredible and it will be deemed impossible by many but that is because few are aware of how little they know of the details of life even of their own and are incapable of the influence of their past upon their present the visible world is visible only to a few the moral world is a closed book to nearly all i was full of france and france had to be got rid of or pushed out of sight before i could understand england i was like a snake striving to its skin as i was with dangerous ideas and an impossible style defeat was inevitable my english was rotten with french it was like an ill built wall overpowered by huge masses of ivy the weak foundations had given way beneath the weight of the and the ideas i sought to give expression to were green sour and as apples in august therefore before long the leading journal that had printed two poems and some seven or eight critical of a young ceased to send me books for review and i fell back upon obscure society papers fortunately it was not incumbent on me to live by my pen so i talked and watched and waited till i grew akin to those around me and my thoughts blended with and took root in my i wrote a play or two i translated a french opera which had a run of six nights i a novel i wrote short stories and i read a good deal of contemporary fiction the first book that came under my hand was a portrait of a lady by henry james each scene is developed with complete foresight and certainty of touch what mr james wants to do he does i will admit that an artist may be great and limited by one word he may light up an abyss of soul but there must be this one and unique word shakespeare gives us the word sometimes after pages of vain striving gives us the word gives it with miraculous certainty but henry james no a hundred times he about it his whole book is one long flutter near to the one and unique word but the word is not spoken and for want of the word his characters are never resolved out of the haze of you are on a bowing acquaintance with them they pass you in the street they stop and speak to you you know how they are dressed you watch the color of their eyes when i think of a portrait of a lady with its marvellous crowd of well dressed people it comes back to me precisely as an accurate memory of a fashionable � the staircase with its ascending figures the hostess smiling the host at a little distance with his back turned some one calls him he turns i can see his white kid gloves the air is as sugar with the of the ss ov a young han there is brilliant light here there is shadow in the further rooms the women s feet pass to and fro beneath the stiff skirts i call for my hat and coat i light a cigar i stroll up a very pleasant evening i have seen a good many people i knew i have observed an attitude and an earnestness of manner that proved that a heart was beating mr james might say if i have done this i have done a great deal and i would answer no doubt you are a man of great talent great cultivation and not at all of the common | 15 |
no doubt had objected elizabeth was very fond of frank and managed generally to find excellent excuses for his little when she had recovered from her first feeling of irritation too she really was not sure whether it was not rather a relief to feel that some stranger would be at her brother in law s whose presence would make i mrs part i all intimate conversation impossible poor elizabeth had decided to her heart against the past on the day that she laid away her husband s picture sometimes fortunately for us our nature is stronger than our will elizabeth had determined to do violence to her own best instincts but the instincts were by no means dead they stirred within her and gave her a good deal of trouble at times mrs frank s little dinners were always charming they were pretty and they were excellent too mrs frank herself was always delightfully dressed and she had the faculty � which belongs to some women � of keeping you continually aware not merely of what she said but of herself you never forgot that you were in the company of a pretty young woman whose self was more important than either the clothes she wore or the words she said elizabeth who for so long had enjoyed no more lively or inspiring society than a sick room or the somewhat neighbourhood of afforded found herself pleasantly in the intelligent and genial atmosphere of the frank house it was to be with people of her own age to feel that she might say what she liked without any fear of treading on forbidden ground it was refreshing to listen to her companions light gossip and easy criticism to move in their atmosphere she had an uncomfortable sense now and then that watched her rather keenly and tried to draw her out on one or two subjects he did both very gracefully but elizabeth was inclined to resent any appearance of ch xii a sketch in black and white interest on his part she connected him with certain feelings of annoyance and was disposed to find fault with him on the slightest provocation after dinner when the little party had returned to the drawing room and � who were standing together in front of the fire � had a pretty sharp over one of their mutual acquaintances i simply can t understand why you all admire so much mr she said and i can t imagine anybody less fitted for the stage just think of his figure he has such a remarkably bad way of moving why my dear mrs his figure is just his strong point everybody admits that it will make him quite a reputation indeed the public must be easily pleased she answered now can you pretend to tell me that he won t be perfectly appalling in or just think of the severe simplicity of he is pretty i admit but that s a mere matter of colouring � he ll lose it very soon then he looks so foolish � poor said frank must be very fond of him oh i m not the least prejudiced against him said mrs frank quickly i am calm and i let my imagination play quite freely round the subject which we know is the sure sign of high culture it is you who are all prejudiced you are all she added waving her firm little white hands all utterly that s my opinion mrs part i it s no good said frank who had been standing near them turning away and across the room towards elizabeth who was sitting on a broad at right angles to the fireplace never will have the slightest mercy on poor dear and he really is the most innocent creature in the world frank gathered up the tails of his evening coat in either hand and subsided comfortably on to the seat by her side elizabeth had been listening with some amusement to the conversation she was leaning back lazily with her head thrown up and resting against the dusky red covering of the back of the as frank sat down she turned her face towards him without otherwise shifting her easy graceful position and gave him a quiet smile of welcome the evening had gone so brightly and pleasantly thus far that frank had pretty well forgotten the feeling which had prompted him to beg his wife to let some be present on this occasion as elizabeth smiled at him her youthful beauty and the fact of her struck frank as strangely at he remembered her sweet face haggard with long night watches and strange with the dread of death and separation during the days of weary waiting that he had spent with her only nine months ago instinctively he lowered his voice and fell into a somewhat sentimental key thereby producing exactly the results that he had taken such pains to provide against the day before ch xii a sketch in black and white i am so glad you have come to london elizabeth he said gently i can t help feeling that we have more right to you than anybody else in virtue of � for robert s sake you know he paused a moment and then added it would have pained me very much if circumstances had loosened the tie between us elizabeth smiled rather faintly she too remembered those sad days and nights nine months ago and she struggled against the remembrance she did not answer there was a pause i don t care about artistic dressing and i never shall was saying meanwhile to of course it wouldn t do for me in the least and that no doubt does influence me a little but candidly i think people who go in for it generally look fearfully except on great occasions when they are got up and then there is a certain dressing gown and slippers effect | 32 |
will erect round the throat a yellow white is encircled a sort of oval patch on either side below the eye is pure white the of neck is pale brown beyond the most glossy black and purple the back and wings a splendid olive green having rainbow reflections of deeper tints of blue and steel colour and history of the golden beautifully while the belly is white the wings are steel blue or ash with white and chestnut red in parts the tail short black with white at extremity legs a dusky purple red the young have a little more yellow in the the colours of the female are slightly subdued the the golden � the presence or want of a hind toe seems to have decided our upon their distribution of the family there are two species of so called the great the golden also entitled stone and also the grey and the the last of which as the most interesting of the family we take as the head of the list although the smallest of the species it is scarcely ten inches long and its weight is no more than from seven to eight this bird is common in britain on islands where there are few or no inhabitants where they can the ground with their nests and as it were claim its inherent possession it occurs abundantly on our in winter and contrary to the habits of the grey species is seen in vast flocks it is thus known far and wide among the of scotland the of ireland and in our own country in every suitable locality in such when the ceased her t was silence all nothing can well be more noisy than this family let an intruder but approach the brood and off she flies wailing and out her singular cry in very advance of the enemy then after of the absence of danger she will away through the loved by the ere she again returns to her young the breeding begins to change as soon as the bird settles in her the nest is made with great carelessness and lined very indifferently with mere or materials close at hand the nest is a mere the golden ground or scratched hollow towards the young grown birds descend in flocks to the or wet meadows and towards winter they are again on the and become excessively shy just before that period they are killed in great numbers while describing those flight circles which bring them so near to the gun of the they resort greatly to and nothing can be more pleasing to the eye than the summer of this beautiful bird the deep soft rich black about its head and throat the white and yellow immediately with that hue on the sides and under tail the fine pale brown of the back and other parts the forehead streak of white the shot purple of its neck and the of yellow on each feather marking their contrast on this part from the of the neck where the feathers are dark in the and edged with gold colour and so on through the whole brightly the winter dress though not very brings more ash colour and grey to the feathers and a paler yellow while the hues between winter and summer are always richly varied the bill is black the legs grey the female in the distinctness and depth of the colours sir w that the correct limits of the species have not been ascertained and that the and american birds are distinct he is inclined to believe that the foreign golden is the c a smaller natural history of the grey bird but be possesses specimens from america as rt is said agreeing witb our bird in every particular this is the of french authors the third species of the true is a foreign one � the c and a most beautiful creature according to the specimens we have seen of it the the grey or of british authors � this bird is at least twelve inches long and twenty four broad its weight rather more than that of the golden we have no reason to conclude it to be a summer in england but in other parts of the year and after the breeding season it is often found assembled together in small although never in tlie same flocks as the more abundant kind the golden thus we see it on our north eastern in the islands in the south and generally on the borders of scotland its range is greatly more extensive according to different authors we may place it in the islands and northern europe as a summer and winter guest br believes that it in bay egypt and and on the highest hills has seen in june some birds on the islands the shops in london exhibit them early in the season but in the latter case they may have already put on their attire in the former some few birds may have been wounded and unable to the the dress of the grey kind is of different shades in each feather marked with grey ash or yellow while the summer contains a great deal of the richest black and the underneath parts much with white such as the vent tail c the upper portions of back c finely in each feather edged with white upper tail white barred with brown part of the distance central feathers coming to a point feathers black the shares in the nature of the and other birds of similar habits but in an inferior degree as soon as the brood leaves the egg the parent bird leads them about for as they are thickly covered with down they require less care than birds of the poultry kind the characters of the are thus described by the accurate pen of � bill rather strong on the towards the tip which is hard wide more than half | 50 |
t mind me a bit think you could give the usually have my driver do it if you u tell me how � a right say did you hear me putting one over on these that are always in on party wires i hope they heard me well now don t you worry about he s getting along all right tomorrow you or one of the neighbors drive in and get this filled at s give him a every four hours good by lo here s the little fellow my lord it am t possible this is the fellow that used to be so sickly why say he s a great big now � going to be bigger n his s made the child with a delight which could not it was a humble wife who followed the busy doctor out to the carriage and her ambition was not to play better nor to build town halls but to chuckle at babies the sunset was merely a flush of rose on a dome of silver with oak twigs and thin branches against it but a on the horizon changed from a red to a tower of violet over with gray the purple road vanished and without lights in the darkness of a world destroyed they swayed on � toward nothing it was a cold way to the farm and she was asleep when they arrived here was no glaring new house with a proud but a low kitchen smelling of cream and mc was lying on a couch in the rarely used dining room his heavy work wife was shaking her hands in anxiety felt that would do something magnificent and startling but he was casual he greeted the man well well have to fix you up eh quietly to the wife hat die store my bag so � ist s supper got any of that good beer left � he had in four minutes his coat off his sleeves rolled up he was his hands in a tin basin in the sink using the bar of yellow kitchen soap had not dared to look into the farther room while she labored over the supper of beer bread moist and set on the kitchen table the man in there was groaning in her one glance she had seen that his blue flannel shirt was open at a tobacco brown neck the hollows of which were sprinkled with thin black and gray hairs he was covered with a sheet like a corpse and outside the sheet was his right arm wrapped in stained with blood but strode into the other room gaily and she fed main street him with surprising delicacy in his large fingers he the and revealed an arm which below the elbow was a mass of blood and raw flesh the man the room grew thick about her she was very she fled to a chair in the kitchen through the haze of she heard grumbling afraid it will have to come off what did you do fall on a blade well fix it right up couldn t � she couldn t get up then she was up her knees like water her stomach revolving a thousand times a second her eyes her ears full of roaring she couldn t reach the dining room she was going to faint then she was in the dining room leaning against the wall trying to smile flushing hot and cold along her chest and sides while say help mrs and me carry him in on the kitchen table no first go out and those two tables together and put a blanket on them and a clean sheet it was salvation to push the heavy tables to them to be exact in placing the sheet her head cleared she was able to look calmly in at her husband and the while they the wailing man got him into a clean and washed his arm came to lay out his instruments she realized that with no hospital yet with no worry about it her husband � her husband � was going to perform a operation that miraculous boldness of which one read in stories about famous she helped them to move into the kitchen the man was in such a that he would not use his legs he was heavy and of sweat and the stable but she put her arm about his waist her sleek head by his chest she at him she her tongue in imitation of s cheerful noises when was on the table laid a steel and cotton frame on his face suggested to now you sit here at his head and keep the dripping � about this fast see i ll watch his breathing look who s here real hasn t got a better one eh now now take it easy this won t hurt you a bit put you all nice and asleep and it won t hurt a bit bald man kind so bald s as she let the nervously trying to keep the that had indicated stared at her husband with the abandon of hero worship he shook his head bad bad light here mrs you stand right here and hold this lamp und lamp � by that glimmer he worked swiftly at ease the room was still tried to look at him yet not look at the blood the crimson the vicious the were sweet choking her head seemed to be floating away from her body her arm was feeble it was not the blood but the grating of the saw on the living bone that broke her and she knew that she had been fighting off that she was beaten she was lost in she heard s voice sick trot couple minutes will stay under now she was at a door in insulting circles she was on the stoop gasping forcing air into her chest her head clearing as she returned she caught | 42 |
fills i am going away come thou also in his mind had already escaped from the boat and was high in air to find a rest for the sole of his foot his he was really sorry for its gross lay in the stem the water rushing about its knees how very ridiculous he said to himself from his is chief of the bridge the poor beast is going to be drowned too drowned when it s close to shore i m� i m on shore already why does n t it come along to his intense disgust he found his soul back in his body again and that body and choking in deep water the pain of the was but it was necessary also to fight for the body he was conscious of grasping wildly at wet sand and as one strides in a dream to keep in the water till at last he hauled himself clear of the hold of the river and dropped panting on wet earth not this night said in his ear the have protected us the moved his feet cautiously and they among dried this is some island of last year s crop he went on we shall find no men here but have great care the bridge all the of a hundred miles have been out here comes the lightning on the heels of the wind now we shall be able to look but walk carefully was far and far beyond any fear of or indeed any merely human emotion he saw after he had rubbed the water from his eyes with an clearness and trod so it seemed to himself with strides somewhere in the night of time he had built a a bridge that of shining seas but the had swept it away leaving this one island under heaven for and his companion sole of the breed of man an incessant lightning and blue showed all that there was to be seen on the little patch in the flood � a of thorn a of swaying creaking and a grey a shrine from whose dome floated a tattered red flag the holy man whose summer resting place it was had long since abandoned it and the weather had broken the image of his god the two men and heavy eyed over the ashes of a brick set cooking place and dropped down under the shelter of the branches while the rain and river roared together the of the and there was a smell of cattle as a huge and dripping bull shouldered his way imder the tree the flashes revealed the mark of on his flank the insolence of head and the luminous like eyes the brow crowned with a wreath of and the that almost swept the ground there the bridge was a noise behind him of other beasts coming up from the flood line through the thicket a sound of heavy feet and deep breathing here be more beside ourselves said his head against the tree pole looking through half shut eyes wholly at ease truly said thickly and no small ones what are they then i do not see clearly the gods who else look i ah true i the gods surely � the gods smiled as his head fell forward on his chest was eminently right after the flood who should be alive in the land except the gods that made it� the gods to whom his village prayed the gods who were in all men s mouths and about all men s ways he could not raise his head or stir a finger for the trance that held him and was smiling at the lightning the bull paused by the shrine his head lowered to the damp earth a green in the branches his wet wings and screamed against the thunder as the circle imder the tree filled with the shifting shadows of beasts there was a black buck at the bull s such a buck as in his far away life upon th might have seen in a buck with a royal head back silver belly and gleaming straight horns beside him her head bowed to the ground the green eyes burning under the heavy brows with restless the dead grass paced a full and deep the bull crouched beside the shrine and there leaped from the darkness a monstrous grey who seated himself man wise in the place of the fallen image and the bridge the rain like jewels from the hair of his neck and shoulders other shadows came and went behind the circle among them a drunken man flourishing staff and then a hoarse broke out from near the ground the flood even now it cried hour by hour the water falls and their bridge still stands my bridge said to himself that must be very old work now what have the to do with my bridge his eyes rolled in the darkness following the roar a the ford haunting of the herself before the beasts furiously to right and left with her tail they have made it too strong for me in all this night i have only torn away a handful of the walls stand the towers stand they have chained my flood and the river is not free any more heavenly ones take this yoke away give me clear water between bank and bank it is i mother that speak the justice of the gods deal me the justice of the gods what said i whispered this is in truth a of the gods now we know that all the world is dead save you and i the screamed and fluttered again and the her ears flat to her somewhere in the shadow a great trunk and gleaming swayed to and fro and a low broke the silence that followed on the the bridge we be here said a deep voice the great ones one only and very many | 39 |
uncle who seemed to have made up his mind to in extravagance i used to get my coloured gloves from the royal when the war broke out in i was cut off from them for nine years had it not been for a which i specially hired to them might have been reduced to english tan the english are excellent at a flat iron or a kitchen but anything more delicate is beyond them our are good cried my uncle but our lack taste and variety the war has made us more than ever it has cut us off from travel and there is nothing to match travel for the mind last year for example i came upon some new in the square of san at it was yellow with the prettiest little of pink running through it how could i have seen it had stone i not travelled i brought it back with me and for a time it was all the rage the prince took it up yes he usually follows my lead we dressed so alike last year that we were frequently mistaken for each other it tells against me but so it was he often that things do not look as well upon him as upon me but how can i make the obvious reply by the way george i did not see you at the of s yes i was there and lingered for a quarter of an hour or so i am surprised that you did not see me i did not go past the doorway however for undue preference gives rise to jealousy i went early said my uncle for i had heard that there were to be some tolerable d it always pleases me vastly when i am able to pass a compliment to any of them it has happened but not often for i keep to my own standard so they talked these singular men and i looking from one to the other could not imagine how they could help bursting out a laughing in each other s faces but on the contrary their conversation was very grave and filled out with many little bows and opening and shutting of snuff boxes and of handkerchiefs s quite a crowd had gathered silently around and i could see that the talk had been regarded as a contest between two men who were looked upon as rival of fashion it was finished by the of passing his arm through s and leading him off while my uncle threw out his shirt front and shot his as if he were well satisfied with his share in the encounter it is seven years since i looked upon that circle of and where now are their dainty little hats their wonderful and their boots in which one could arrange one s they lived strange lives these men and they died strange deaths � some by their own hands some as beggars some in a s some like the most brilliant of them all in a in a foreign land there is the card room said my uncle as we passed an open door on our way out glancing in i saw a line of little green tables with small groups of men sitting round while at one side was a longer one from which there came a continuous murmur of voices you may lose what you like in there save only your nerve or your temper my uncle continued ah sir i trust that the luck was with you a tall thin man with a hard austere face stone had stepped out of the open doorway his heavily eyebrows covered quick grey eyes and his gaunt features were at the cheek and temple like water flint he was dressed entirely in black and i noticed that his shoulders swayed a little as if he had been drinking lost like the deuce he snapped no you couldn t get very hard hit over that couldn t you he play a hundred a trick and a thousand on the rub losing steadily for five hours and see what you think of it my uncle was evidently struck by the haggard look upon the other s face i hope it s not very bad he said bad enough it won t bear talking about by the way have you got man for this fight yet no you seem to be hanging m the wind a long time it s play or pay you know i shall claim if you don t come to scratch if you will name your day i shall produce my man sir said my uncle coldly this day weeks if you like very good the th of may s i hope to have changed my name by then � how is that asked my uncle in surprise it is just possible that i may be lord what you have had some news cried my uncle and i noticed a tremor in his voice i ve had my agent over at and he believes he has proof that died there anyhow it is absurd to suppose that because a murderer chooses to fly from justice i won t have you use that word sir cried my uncle sharply you were there as i was you know that he was a murderer i tell you that you shall not say so sir s fierce little grey eyes had to lower themselves before the imperious anger which shone in my uncle s well to let that point pass it is monstrous to suppose that the title and the estates can remain hung up in this way for ever i m the heir and i m going to have my rights i am as you are aware lord s dearest friend said my uncle sternly his disappearance has not affected my love for him and until his fate is finally ascertained i shall exert myself to see that his | 4 |
they took they had never taken up such a customer before � the astonished in the manner i had suggested and carried him safe and sound down the area steps while this apparently procession was in progress a gentleman stepped forward and addressed me with a very excited excuse me sir i have but just come and am with the circumstances you are a medical man i see i am connected with the press sir what is the matter sir has happened who is it sir is it a lady or a gentleman and are they dead or only insensible he is a gentleman and at present speechless returned i hurriedly as i accompanied the in question into the house oh the relief of mind and body when i saw that pony deposited safely in our back green the gratitude with which i overwhelmed those of public safety the of expense with which i opened bottle after bottle of superior beer for their refreshment i woke to to her all that i had done our pony and had some to prevent her rushing to the window to look at the new i don t even know what a pony m urged she i be lying awake and trying to picture what unusual at this juncture her doubts were set at rest for ever by the most tremendous that ever issued from the mouth of since the days of it was exactly beneath our bedroom window and sounded like a brass band composed of out of repair why it s only a dreadful donkey alfred cried i with just indignation it s forty cried i and stopping my ears never indeed shall i forget that noise which seems even now to be ringing through the chambers of memory we retired to rest however � that is to say we lay down and listened sometimes we would a hope that all was over that the pony would himself require the blessings of sleep and become quiet and sometimes the real horrors of our situation could not be by any such i think the creature must have been a or lament for his absent mother or other relatives for after very short pauses such as might have been given by any donkey to composition he would burst forth with a torrent of wailing of about fourteen lines in as far as we could judge � and ending in an it was from the first and rapidly grew to be at a m i put on my dressing gown and slippers and taking down the rope from one of the window curtains i forth into the our pony back green sleep had of course been banished from every other of paradise as well as from ourselves a score of human heads regarded me from far and near from first flat to with interest and they believed in their foolish and hearts i knew that i was about to hang the pony i was not going to do anything of the kind i approached the animal uttering sounds such as in the mouths of his late attendants i had observed to give him pleasure but i might just as well have read aloud the act for of cruelty to animals he turned away he fled he even lifted up his heels against me disgusted but not by this conduct i the flying beast with vigour despite the fluttering of my garment and the increasing coolness of my legs i caught him i tied up ins jaw � as i with the curtain rope and retired amid murmurs of applause to my apartment leaving him speechless and better far better would it have been had i never attempted this the great of nature are not to be hushed by the rude hands of man scarcely had my head touched the pillow when the half stifled pitiful more beyond expression than before with hideous and increased in volume with every note presently the rope gave way and the full tide of song burst forth again from that pony as the pent up waters from an dam while the cock imagining no doubt that it was dawn and itself of over sleeping and permitting another creature to be the first to salute the sun added its shrill tribute to the din our pony cat that donkey s throat cried i leaping ont of bed and for a the is situated so low down his that nothing less win stop him him cried you re so fond of that this remark intended to wound my professional feelings was as sometimes happens the veiy best advice that could be given to me i snatched up an enormous of that divine essence and again rushed down to the back green to silence the domestic enemy this time i conquered iu fifteen minutes � it must be confessed after tremendous was standing in my dressing gown and upon that prostrate pony like another a victim to science he like a sleeping who has had enough of his bottle this victory achieved in the sight of respectable though sleepless has been quite an advertisement to me my practice is increasing and the child s ankles are being rapidly strengthened a breach knocked through the wall of our back green the immediate cause of this prosperity to retire after his daily labours to a pasture at a considerable distance is more than she has withdrawn the hasty expression once made use of about something being no more like another thing than a is hke a horse and that a pony is a very good pony after all her sole regret now is that he is not a to persons about to furnish above heading will be familiar to many readers as � having met their eye in the shops of and carpet and they that are or who live in furnished lodgings have doubtless been struck by the apparent solemnity of the address it | 25 |
off this done about me like black and white ing till i longed to punch their heads they pull my coat off and my trousers then thej me into bed this done first one m a run and me in and over ma then like a ram and me in looks at the work and puts the artful at tlie and behold me and then the beneficent with a ty grin that to turn them all ivory i could not believe my senses x had never been tucked in since my mother s time in the morning ont and came down to breakfast took leave of the good who appointed two of my ni t see me out of the wood mode my how to the ladies and away with a heart the conducted me clear of the wood and set me on the broad road then came one of the a poor fellow has to i had friends with the poor and vl h � � them and a little would have so for with them i have often the bitterness of ty bat never i do think as when i parted with my poor at the edge of the wood and was breed to see them go home without a i wish these words could travel across the water and my good host might read them and see i have not forgotten him all these years but dear heart yon may be sure he is not upon the earth now it is years ago and a man tliat had the heart io a stranger and a wanderer why he would ha one of the first to go we and up and down the united states of america on onr return to she loose at midnight slipped into tha town took np the trees on the and them flat went into the market broke into a vegetable shop the entire stock next to a s k a carriage wheel opened the door stripped the cushions and we found her eating the one day at noon we ourselves fourteen miles from the town i its name we had to play in that very night mr had gone on to etc and it ns to be marching after him at this old tom being rather a strong desire to by jack of all trades ho quite and refuses ms brandy and was in no condition to fled with thus if co helpless for an or two we arrive too late for the night s and her off all the while x threatened our two brandy but in vain stuck and sucked was in despair and being in de came to a desperate resolution to try and master myself then a nd were and these i told my started hack aghast he in the light of a madman are jou tired of your life said he i was seven was np i was enraged with my and i was tired of waiting so many years the slave of a q is whose master was a brute are driven with a rod of steel sharpened at the end foot from the end of this weapon is large hook by sticking this hook into an elephant s ear and you make her sensible which wi yon want her to go and persuade h to armed with this tool i walked up to s shed and in the harsh and brutal voice i could bade her come out the shed bnt hesitated i toward i mc very slowly beasts such as lions and great is the thing think for them don t give them time to think or thoughts may he evil i had learned this so i introduced myself by driving the steel into a ribs and then her ear while looked down from a first story window if had known how my was beating she would have killed me then and there but observing no hesitation on my part she it oil as a matter of co walked with me like a lamb i found alone her on the road and fourteen miles of it before us it was a serious situation but i was ripe for it now all the old women s stories and traditions about an elephant s character had been driven out of me by experience and washed with blood i had s art i had got what the fi call the riddle key of and that key was steel on we marched the best of were a number of little hills on the road and as we mounted one a to appear behind us on the crest of the lost between ns and the sky this was the gallant for his s fate bnt desirous of not it if adverse and still the worthy and i marched on the best of friends about a mile out of the town she put out her trunk and tried to it round me in a caressing way i met this by driving the steel into her till the blood out of her if i not the have killed me in the course of the next five minutes whenever she relaxed her speed i drove the steel into her when the afternoon sun smiled on ob and the poor thing felt nature stir in her heart and b an to in her awful clumsy way the great globe i drove the steel into her if i had not i should not be here to relate and w � her stage to tl and delight t strode up with her their ecstasy was great think that the whole business was longer at a s mercy but how did you manage how er did ye win her heart with this said i and showed them the bloody steel wo had not been in the town half by jack of all trades an hour before tom george came in they e not so drunk bnt | 9 |
in the course of eighteen months and that he preached a funeral sermon on each of the occasions from his sermon on the death of e the fourth i make the following extract of his manner of preaching only that i select a passage from that particular sermon not because i think it better than others of his published funeral sermons but because it is the only one on which i can lay my hand at the moment � to you o men i speak and my voice is to the sons of men and i ask you whether the death of your sovereign does not tell you in vol l p the rev dr language of which the force cannot be away that verily every man at his best estate is altogether vanity whether it does not teach you more of the of the world and the vanity of titles than all the volumes in your library o put not your trust in princes nor in any son of man in whom there is no help his breath forth he to his earth in that very day his thoughts perish k then there is no from the of the if it is appointed unto all men once to die are you brethren prepared for death you can surely none of you permit yourselves to doubt for an instant that you must die god has been too good to his creatures to leave any of them without witness as to the certainty of death the whole path of every man s existence and the whole circle of every man s acquaintance is with the of man s and have none of you ever had particular and affecting proof of this have the agonies of a death bed never been presented to the eye of your experience and the rev dr thus brought down irresistibly on your minds the conviction of your own and is it not the end of every private and public to strengthen this conviction i chaise you then not to from the view of that which will ere certainly befall you living as you are in the land of dying men do not think all men mortal but yourselves have not the many sick chambers which you have visited with all their noiseless their mute attendance and their watchful and the many sick beds over which you have hung and the deaths you have witnessed and the tears you have shed over them � have not all these i ask been long ago enough to you from earth and to break that accursed spell which you to its how comes it then to pass that though thousands have died before you and are dying around you you are to this hour unmoved out of your dark and obstinate and though you profess to believe the bible to be the word of god p the rev dr you can treat it as a and book you desire it not as the of your souls and can suffer it to be for days together and miss no necessary food and feel no hunger and experience no for spiritual thus giving evidence that you have no spiritual life o let me call upon you to shake from yourselves this and to awake from these destructive arise this day and call upon that god whom you have so long despised think of your guilt before him and of your utter inability to help or redeem yourselves but look at the same time to him who is able to help and who died to redeem dr published a volume of sermons of a purely practical and nature in the sermons were twenty in number at the request of his congregation in chapel he also brought out in a small volume consisting of lectures on some of the articles of faith of the church of england these lectures were seven in number and were delivered on during lent in the the rev dr year just mentioned both volumes met with a very j ir sale the reverend doctor has published various detached chiefly funeral sermons some of which have reached a third or fourth edition beyond these i am not aware of any other occasions on which he has appeared in the capacity of author it is a fact which may strike some persons as not a little curious that though as before mentioned his views are those of the highest grade of short of the rev mr a name well known to the religious world regularly before imprisoned in the queen s bench for a on certain roman catholic priests as dr s clerk in church when i was first informed of the fact i thought knowing that mr s notions on matters of doctrine are as low as dr s are high that there must be some mistake or in the matter but i find the ct to be as stated to me the mr is in prison at the time i write the rev dr doctor s name also figured a few weeks ago at the head of a for mr gather dr is distant in his manner and inaccessible by his hearers some this to reserve others to a certain degree of it is said though i know not with what truth that he is impatient of opposition or contradiction in the conduct of the religious and benevolent institutions which are connected with his chapel and that a desire to have everything his own way him in most cases to give a preference to of ladies they being more and in every respect more easily managed than persons of a different it is deeply to be regretted that a man of dr s zeal and with his means of usefulness should not be more accessible by his people and more kindly in his in that case he might reasonably expect to be made the instrument 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denied it sure enough said grimly before he died told me he had her to speak what more did the count reveal to you mrs � the conspiracy yes he said he d found mark hiding at half mad with and had taken him up to mrs clear s where it seems he went mad altogether so they locked him up as her husband in a lunatic asylum also told me that he had seen michael clear on the stage and that as he was so like mark and was likely to die of drink and consumption he got him to play the part of mark in square under the name of mrs clear visited her husband there by o the silent house climbing over a back fence and getting down a cellar somehow i know that said i it was mrs clear s shadow i saw on the blind she was fighting with her husband and when i rang the bell they were both so alarmed that they left the house by the back way and got into street then mrs clear went home and the man himself came round into the square by the front way that was how i met him i wondered how people were in the house during his absence mrs clear told me all did she say why her husband made you examine the house asked no but i expect he made me do so that i should not have my suspicions about that back entrance but mrs when confessed that your husband was alive why did you not tell it to the world well got the assurance money you see said with shrewd and i thought the company would make a fuss and take it back � as i suppose they will now wanted me to him but i wasn t so bad as that i did not want to commit but i really held my tongue because told me who killed clear he knew then cried and denied it to me who killed the man did � the man who lived in street and who is at the bottom of the whole plot the silent house said furiously do you know where he is to be found tes said boldly i do but i m not going to tell where he why not because i don t want him punished but i do said angrily he is a wretch who ought to suffer very well said loudly and then make him suffer for this is your own father it was mark who killed michael clear i chapter link sets a trap in the course of their acquaintance had put up with a great deal from the little american owing to her position of but when she heard her the man she had ruined of murder the patience of miss gave way she rose quickly and walking over to where was shrinking in her chair in righteous indignation above the little woman you lie mrs she said in a low distinct voice with a flushed face and indignation in her eyes you know you lie i � i only repeat what told me rather alarmed by the attitude of her i m sure i hope mark didn t kill the man but said that he was in street for that purpose it is not true my father was in the asylum at indeed he wasn t � not at the time clear was killed protested he was not put into the asylum until at least two weeks after christmas is that not so mr it is so assented gravely but even the silent house admitting so much it is impossible to believe that mr was in street for many months before christmas he was in charge of mrs clear at so said replied but he used to get away from mrs clear at times and had to be brought back he wandered when he got the chance said with hesitation i admit as much well then when he was not at he used to live in street as found him out there and tried to get him to go back and he took mrs clear several times to the same place in order to persuade him to return to that was why mrs clear visited street oh mark played his part there as mr i guess there ain t no two questions about that finished triumphantly he is the you bet i don t believe it cried furiously why my father is too weak in the head to have the will let alone the courage to like that he is like a child in leading strings that s his cunning he s enough to pretend madness so that he won t be hanged it is impossible that can be said decidedly i agree with miss he is too weak and to carry out such a deed besides i don t see how you prove him guilty of the murder you do not even know that he could enter the silent house by the secret way the silent house i don t know anything about it except what count told me said and he said that as killed clear but you can easily prove if it s true or not how can we prove it asked coldly by laying a trap for mark you know � at least told me and i suppose mrs clear told you � that she with mark � i mean � in the agony column of the daily telegraph by means of a yes i know that but she hasn t received any answer yet of course not replied with triumph because � that s mark you know � is in the asylum and can t answer her this is all nonsense broke in impatient of this spinning i don t believe a word of s story if lived in street as why should mrs clear visit him to | 12 |
had gone a mile i heard a shrill whistle and suddenly from behind these sprang a number of men quite fifty of them all we could note at the time was that they were savage looking fellows for the most part red haired and bearded although their were rather dark who wore of white goat and carried and i should imagine that they were not unlike the ancient and as they appeared to the at us they came uttering their shrill whistling cries evidently v ith intention of us on the spot ir f i now for it said drawing his sword for escape was impossible they were all round us good bye good bye i answered rather faintly understanding what the and the old had meant when they said that wc should be killed before we ascended the first slope of the mountain meanwhile our ghastly looking guide had slipped behind a great and even then it occurred to me that her part in the tragedy being played she if it were a woman at all was withdrawing herself while we met our miserable fate but here i did her injustice for she had i suppose come to save us from this very fate which without her presence we must most certainly have suffered when the savages were within a few yards suddenly she appeared on the top of the looking like a second witch of and stretched out her arm not a word did she speak only stretched out her draped arm but the effect was remarkable and at the sight of her down on to their faces went those wild men every one of them as a lightning stroke had in an instant swept them out of existence then she let � her arm fall and beckoned whereon a great fellow who i suppose was the leader of the band rose and crept towards her with bowed head as a beaten dog to him she made signs pointing to us pointing to the far off peak crossing and her white wrapped arms but so far as i could hear speaking no word it was evident that the chief understood her however for he said something in a language then he uttered his shrill whistle whereon the band rose and departed thence at full speed this way and the other so that in another minute they had vanished as quickly as they came now our guide to us to proceed and led the � way upward as calmly as though nothing had happened for over two hours we went on thus till our path the messenger brought us from the on to a grassy across which it wound its way here to our astonishment we found a fire burning and hanging above the fire an pot which was on the boil we could see no man tending it the figure to me to pointing to the pot in token that we were to eat the food which doubtless she had ordered the wild men to prepare for us and very glad was i to obey her provision had been made for the horse also for near the fire lay a great bundle of green m the beast and spread the proved der for it taking with me a spare vessel that lay v ready i went to the edge of the torrent to drink and steep my wounded arm in its ice cold stream this relieved it greatly though by now i was sure from various symptoms that the brute master s had fortunately only broken or injured the small bone a discovery for which i was thankful enough having finished attending to it as well as i was able i filled the jar with water on my way back a thought struck me and going to where our mysterious guide stood still as lot s wife after she had been turned into a pillar of salt i offered it to her hoping that she would her face and drink then for the first time she showed some of being human or so i thought for it seemed to me that she bowed ever so little in acknowledgment of the courtesy if so � and i may have been mistaken � this was all for the next instant she turned her back on me to show that it was declined so she would not or for aught i knew could not drink neither would she eat for when tried her afterwards with food she refused it in like fashion meanwhile he had taken the pot off the fire and as soon as its contents grew cool enough we fell on them eagerly for we were starving after we had eaten and drunk re dressed my arm as best he could and we rested awhile indeed i think that being very d ft beg n to for i was awakened by a shadow falling on us and looked up to see our corpse like guide standing close by and pointing first to the sun then at the horse as though to show us that we had far to travel so we up and went on again somewhat refreshed for at least we were no longer all the rest of that day we on up the grassy slopes seeing no man although occasionally we heard the wild whistle which told us that we were being watched by the mountain savages by tlie character of the country had for the grass was replaced with rocks amongst which grew we had left the lower slopes and were beginning to climb the mountain itself the sun sank and we went on through the twilight the twilight died and we went on through the dark our path lit only by the stars and the faint radiance of the glowing pillar of smoke above the peak which was reflected on to us from the mighty mantle of its forward we toiled whilst a few paces | 18 |
man i ll shoot him dead then all story of a sm at once threw himself face downward on the ground crying out mother mother f running to him showed him his telling him that they would both go to see presently but thrust him away you re too little he said you can t understand she s no said s dead � put over his head but s only gone to sleep � frank says so didn t you frank frank turned aside and asked for pen and ink then sat down with on his knee who watched him with deepest interest as he wrote a message to the most famous doctor of the day for diseases of the chest but said who had looked over his shoulder the other doctor will be here soon for master can he not also for master but frank shook his head and having despatched the message returned to who was rapidly developing every symptom of of the lungs and long before nightfall was tossing in his bed the withered flowers still firmly clutched in his burning hand his little wistful for his mother piercing frank s heart he was weary of telling the child that she slept and s absence for he had mysteriously disappeared and could not be found either in the house or grounds caused him a new anxiety story of a s at and alone in the room adjoining s mr lay struck down by the hand of god at the very moment he most required his strength his breathing alone giving sign that he was numbered still in the ranks of the living the great man who arrived from london that afternoon could give small hope of him he feared and that mr might die unconscious but there was no of a change for probably another twenty four hours later in the day came another visitor to the house who took on his knee and asked to see his toys listening as if in play to his chest then after awhile laid him gently back in his little bed and thinking frank the father told the truth the child might live three days it was possible that he would not last out two there was of long standing into violent by a severe chill smiled and waved his hand to the great man when he went away but during the night began to wander and by daybreak had gone a long long step of the journey that was to take him to his mother they had found at last rigid with cold and grief beneath the sheet by s side � her chill in both his own his aching head pressed to the bosom that would never shelter or warm him any more but he did not resist when they brought him away nor did s illness seem to move him story of a sin � he crept into the darkest corner of the nursery thrusting the food they would have him eat frank realized then as he had never done before the intense power of loving that lay in that little heart and knew how of the two body s lot was the happier the tumult of confusion and horror without at the crime committed could not penetrate to the in which night and day frank he would see no one take no steps to assist justice for to him the sick fancies of a dying child were of more moment then than the bringing to death the of his lost and all day long and sleepless he looked at the of body s short young life that the child s to his gaze all the great little events of his three years all told � his childish troubles joys thoughts each secret of the little crystal mind laid bare before him i wonder how many there are of us who could bear such a scrutiny as that to which a child unconsciously itself we our impulses or disguise them but the child has no art to hide his if we had time to pause and study the drama of the child we should no longer dream of god but understand him and so long as there is an innocent little one in our midst there is not one among us who shall dare to say it has not been g ven to him to look into an angel s heart and while he tossed in his little bed story of a six grown old and haggard looking in a night passed to and fro mistress of the situation and of the house recognised even by those who shrank from her as the sole person who had been able to meet the awful of the night and day to the questions of the who had already arrived from town she replied with a and sense that contrasted with the confusion of manner exhibited by the other servants and even when asked if she had made that speech to to which the cook swore she replied in the affirmative but remarked that the man had had no more to do with the crime than herself if it had already crossed more than one mind that she herself with s assistance had committed the crime no one dared utter the accusation in her presence though when she was alone an awful look of fear came into her face and a shuddering memory of the gallows she had seen erected for took possession of her mind ah that day justice waited or moved in the wrong direction while the search for the missing diamonds was carried on from to cellar with the exception of that room in which the dead lay and the nursery as the night drew on became much worse and wandered more � talked of his little begging to take care of it while he was away and lay it in her bed each night to keep | 17 |
money out of and that the seal would go to a hot place when he died was nearly crying with fear and old age he kept walking up and down the room in the half light repeating his son s name over and over again and asking if the seal ought not to make a in the case of his own landlord pulled me over to the shadow in the recess of the carved the boards were up and the rooms were only lit by one tiny oil lamp there was no chance of my being seen if i stayed still presently the groans below ceased and we heard steps on the staircase that was the seal he stopped outside the door as the and at the chain and he told to blow out the lamp this left the place in jet darkness except for the red glow from the two that belonged to and the seal came in and i heard throw himself down on the floor and groan ht b r breath and backed on one y the house op the beds with a shudder there was a cl of something and then shot up a pale blue green flame near the ground the light was just enough to show pressed against one corner of the room with the between her knees with her hands clasped leaning forward as she sat on the bed face down quivering and the seal i hope i may never see another man like that seal he was stripped to the waist with a wreath ot white as thick as my wrist round his forehead a salmon colored cloth round his middle and a steel on each ankle this was not awe inspiring it was the face of the man that turned me cold it was blue gray in the first place in the second the eyes were back till you could only see the of them and in the third the face was the face of a demon � a � anything you please except of the sleek old who sat in the day time over his turning downstairs he was lying on his stomach with his arms turned and crossed behind him as if he had been down his head and neck were the only parts of him off the floor they were nearly at right angles to the body like the head of a at spring it was ghastly in the centre of the room on the bare earth floor stood a big deep brass basin with a pale blue green light floating in the centre like a night light round that basin the man on the floor himself three times how he did it i do not know i could see the muscles ripple along his and fall smooth again but i could not see any other motion the head seemed the only thing alive about him except that slow curl and of the laboring back muscles from the bed was breathing seventy to the minute held her hands before her eyes and old at the dirt a house ofi sl that had got into his white beard was crying to the horror of it was that the creeping thing made no only crawled i and remember this lasted for ten minutes while the and shuddered and gasped and cried i felt the hair lift at the back of my head and my heart like a luckily the betrayed himself by his most impressive trick and made me calm again after he had finished that unspeakable triple crawl he stretched his head away from the floor as high as he could and sent out a jet of fire from his nostrils now i knew how fire is done � i can do it myself � so i felt at ease the business was a fraud if he had only kept to that crawl without trying to raise the effect goodness knows what i might not have thought both the girls shrieked at the jet of fire and the head dropped chin down on the floor with a the whole body lying then like a corpse with its arms there was a pause of five full minutes after this and the blue flame died down stooped to settle one of her while turned her face to the wall and took the in her arms put out an arm mechanically to s and she slid it across the floor with her foot directly above the body and on the wall were a couple of flaming portraits in stamped paper frames of the queen and the prince of wales they looked down on the performance and to my thinking seemed to the of it all just when the silence was getting the body turned over and rolled away from the basin to the side of the room where it lay stomach up there was a faint from the basin � exactly like the noise a fish makes when it takes a y � and the green in the centre revived in the house of i looked at the basin and saw in the water the dried black head of a native baby � open eyes open mouth and shaved it was worse being so very sudden than the crawling exhibition we had no time to say anything before it began to speak read s account of the voice that came from the dying man and you will realize less than one half of the horror of that head s voice there was an interval of a second or two between each word and a sort of ring ring ring in the note of the voice like the of a bell it slowly as if talking to itself for several minutes before i got rid of my cold sweat then the blessed solution struck me i looked at the body lying near the doorway and saw just where the hollow of the throat | 39 |
and or i would have set hand to it the master of ll be a says l and a grand i ken by him said he i wi no it ll be that you u be dealing with said i ah but i ll no tell ye that said little need when i ken was my retort there s just the ae thing ye can be fairly sure of says and that is that try as ye please i m no dealing wi nor yet i goin to he added weu i see i ll have to be speak out plain with you i replied and i told him so much as i thought needful of the facts he heard me out with serious interest and when i had done seemed to consider a httle with said he at last i ll deal with the naked hand it s a queer tale and no very creditable the the bass way you tell it and i m far v at is other than the way that ye believe it ai o ye seem to me rather a like young but me that s and see perhaps a bit further in the job than what ye can and here is the clear and plain to ye there ll be to if i keep ye here far that i think ye ll be a better by it there ll be to the � just ae � a on the hand it would be considerable to me if i would let you free as a an honest to you and an anxious to my the plain fact is that i think ye ll just have to bide here wi an the said i laying my hand upon his knee this s innocent ay it s a about that said he but ye see in this the way god made it we just get a thing that we want chapter xv black s tale of i have yet said little of the they were all three of the followers of james more which bound the accusation very tight about their master s neck all understood a word or two of english but was the only one who judged he had enough of it for general converse in which when once ho got embarked his company was often tempted to the contrary opinion they were simple creatures showed much more courtesy than might have been expected from their and their uncouth appearance and fell to be like three servants for and myself dwelling in that isolated place in the old falling ruins of a prison and among endless strange sounds of the sea and the sea birds i thought i perceived in them early the effects of superstitious fear when there was nothing doing they would either lie and sleep for which their appetite appeared or would entertain the others with stories which seemed always of a strain if neither of these delights were within reach � if perhaps two were sleeping and the third could find no means to follow their example � i would see him sit and listen and look about him in a of uneasiness starting his face hands a man black s tale of strung like a bow the nature of these fears i had never an occasion to find out but the sight of them was catching and the nature of the place that we were in favourable to i can find no word for it in the english but had an expression for it in the from which he never varied ay he would say it an place the bass it is so i always think of it it was an place by night by day and these were sounds of the calling of the and the of the sea and the rock echoes that hung continually in our cars it was chiefly so in moderate weather when the waves were anyway great they roared about the rock like and the drums of armies dreadful but merry to hear and it was in the calm days that a man could himself with listening � not a only as i several times on myself so many still hollow noises and in the of the rock this brings me to a story i heard and a scene i took part in quite changed our terms of living and had a great effect on my departure it chanced one night i fell in a muse beside the fire and that little air of s coming back to my memory began to whistle a hand was laid upon my arm and the voice of bade me to stop for it was not not i asked how can that be na said he it will be made by a and her wanting ta upon his body a learned of my acquaintance s air it has been printed it seems in s of the l well said i there can be no here for it s not likely they would themselves to frighten ay says is that what ye think of it but can tell ye there s been nor here what s than said i said he or a at the least of it and that s a queer tale too he added and if ye would like i ll teu it ye to be sure we were all of the one mind and even the that had the least english of the three set himself to listen with au his might the tale of my peace to his was a lad in his young days wi little wisdom and less grace he was fond of a and fond of a glass and fond of dan but i could hear tell that he was use for honest employment ae thing to he at last for a and was in the garrison of this fort which was the first way that of the to set | 38 |
the but few of them can have been more terrible than that of sixty five years ago which mr describes from to still the miracle goes on here i must explain for the benefit of those readers who may be with the conditions which prevail at that this church of the is the joint possession of various christian who have held their rites in it for many ages in or about the year the traveller de la re lord of ch writes in the church of the holy reside also many other sorts of christians from the country of john and christians of the to come to a later age we have evidence on the point from the pen of the rev henry who was elected of their factory by the company of merchants in and who died while still a young man at in in the interval he visited and wrote an interesting and valuable account of what he saw speaking of the church of the holy he says that in these places almost every christian nation maintained a small society of each society having its proper quarter assigned to it by appointment of the such as the c in his age however most of these had been out by the of the so that only the and were left as in our time each of these had its own and where they possessed the right of their services to the of all others he continues � � but that which has always been the great price for by the several is the and of the a winter pilgrimage holy a privilege with so much fury and especially between the and that in which party should go into it to their mass they have sometimes proceeded to blows and wounds even at the very door of the their own blood with the sacrifices an evidence of which fury the father guardian showed us in a great upon his arm which he told us was the mark of a wound given him by a sturdy greek priest in one of these wars who can expect ever to see these holy places rescued from the hands of or if they should be recovered what deplorable might be expected to follow about them seeing even in their present state of they are made the occasion of such rage and f if the actual described by have the spirit of them remains and well may we echo the questions which conclude his remarks the of the christian are the object of the and mockery of the masters of the holy places whose business it is to and control them i imagine that few visitors who care to take the trouble to think even if they have never questioned the of the site can return � whole from an inspection of the holy the of various and different periods have made the mistake of leaving nothing to the imagination thus in addition to about a dozen to sundry saints and supposed to be connected with them in this way and in that and to the great greek cathedral the � in itself a fine building but to my taste much by its and � there are many other sacred spots each of them fixed to a hair s thus we have the centre of the world accurately if determined and the place of the the church of the burial of the skull of adam who was constructed of taken from this locality then we see the mount of � the reader will remember by the way as i have pointed out that nowhere in the bible is it said that was on a mount � beneath which adam was the blood flowing from the cross brought him to life again too was buried here and the made for the cross in the rock has been carefully preserved and is now lined with silver also the pilgrim is shown � and if he is a russian kisses the place � where stood the crosses of the two next there is an chapel called that of st where the cross was found near the altar too is a seat in which the sat while the cross was unfortunately for the of this as the points out an of the century complained in his day that he had frequently been obliged to renew this seat because the piety of led them to bear it away he adds does the some regard this chapel as part of the ancient city moat to this day play the same as poor father told me of on almost with tears indeed if left alone they would carry off the whole place in this chapel of st and on the staircase leading to it i saw names upon the greatly did such conduct brother a of self advertisement and above all things a gentleman he tells how vanity led some to their names with the tokens of their birth and rank on the walls of the church and even to paint their coats of arms and cut their with and on the pillars and a winter pilgrimage thereby and all men he adds � i have seen some whose pride had brought them to such a pitch of folly that when they went up into the chapel of mount and bowed themselves down upon the holy rock wherein is the secret hole of the cross they would pretend to be praying and within the circle of their arms would secretly scratch with exceeding sharp tools their with the marks � i cannot say of their noble birth but rather of their for a perpetual memorial of their folly but this they were f to do secretly for had the guardian of the holy rock whose name is g seen them doing so he would have dragged them away by the hair of their head the same madness moved some to their 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water s edge and is built in the style � in front of it is erected a low fort surmounted by a � a fit emblem it might be thought of a church near the small town of and above it i noticed a lake of considerable size from from to the position in which i viewed it it seemed in momentary readiness to its banks and pour itself upon the village below it is now about the wind has continued fresh and an half hour ago we parted from the island standing over from s head direct to distant twenty five miles we hope to reach it in three hours my on board are tolerable nothing better the captain is disposed to be obliging enough but as a commander of a vessel seems destitute of skill and some other needful he kept his birth almost the whole of last night even during his own watch which was from to o clock what this criminal neglect of duty was the circumstance that the mate of the vessel was drunk and had been so ever since our weighing anchor half past two p m � the weather having been cloudy all day we did not come within sight of the english coast as soon as i had hoped st bee s head a large high bluff was the first land which we and then it was scarcely five miles distant the captain has since been all hands in the of its to save eighteen shillings or a pound which he would be otherwise obliged to pay to have it removed from the vessel on his getting into harbour the consequence is that she rolls with considerable violence and if the wind should increase the result might be much more unpleasant is the of its coal mines are very valuable and have been worked it is said that the in following several veins of coal after sinking the perpendicular shaft to a great depth have opened passages fairly under the sea that is to say to a considerable distance without the line of low water mark admitting this report to be true it is singular to reflect that in entering the harbour of we may be sailing above the heads of human beings who some hun sketches of an feet at least beneath us are digging in the of the harmless earth � co saturday evening at three p m we anchor in the port of and the next minute found me once more upon english ground this was a pleasure of no small kind and in stepping foot again upon the soil of that country which contains much that i prize and more that i admire i could not refrain from repeating to myself � england with all thy faults i love thee still � the same rich which renders the fields of ireland so lovely i found the hills of the country too immediately round is with low of earth clothed with a fine green turf instead of hedges of thorn � in the same manner as are most of the enclosed lands which i saw in ireland the of are numerous and excellent but the town itself of little beauty the poorer inhabitants whether men women or children wear large clumsy wooden shoes which make a very disagreeable as they tread the pavement but disagreeable as the sound is i am much more pleased with it than being obliged to see the same classes of people walking the streets as is the case among the irish to an inn i learnt that no would proceed to before monday � a place which i wish much to take in my route to � and finding also no post horses disengaged i was obliged though very reluctantly to make up my mind to stay in over sunday but my was of short continuance a few minutes after a vehicle precisely similar to the irish drove to the door and on going to the window from the impulse of curiosity wondering how these singular machines should have found their way into england i ascertained with surprise and pleasure that it was an to conveyance was stopping to take in passengers for a small town somewhat more than half way to � all this by the by though a stated daily arrangement the good landlord for very obvious reasons had taken care not to me of himself � finding one seat i immediately threw my into the vehicle and the next instant it drove off of the other three passengers one was a native of and just landed from the isle of man � a very intelligent and pleasant companion he was familiar with the road and being rather more than englishmen generally are gave me much information of places and things as we drove along the road for the first three or four miles followed pretty close by the coast but afterwards into the interior of the country the face of this was and broken into high but by no means we passed a few villages the houses of which exhibited a neat appearance numerous farm houses and cottages also were scattered in every direction and in front of most of them might be seen little or gardens or the women whom we passed were all neat and those that were young and blooming � improved in this respect contrasted with the irish after a ride of eight miles we came in view of the � a little stream � rolling its waters over a bed of pebbles and through a succession of richly it accompanied us during the remainder of the way and amused me much by its and one mile further i caught the first glimpse of it is not as i conceived a single mountain rising in a lofty but a broken towering chain of loose lazy clouds were floating around their alternately and them to view as we | 48 |
its � the disgrace of churches and the of states � that even make it a question with not men whether on the whole christianity has done more of good or of mischief in the world � that make it no question at all but that if christ were to come again he would be again by the chief priests what shall we do with christianity why if we can improve upon it improve upon paul s christianity as paul improved upon peter s christianity develop it further more widely an than it has ever been developed yet work out its great enduring principles the full length to which they will go as principles in their varied to every department of human thought and life its eternal spirit in new forms of and beauty as the spirit of humanity itself rises to new heights and tries its strength in new modes of being and action work out by the light and with the resources of our own day and generation its grand idea of a kingdom of heaven and of god carry its justice its freedom and its faith into our literature our trade our politics and wherever else freedom and faith can find or make a place for themselves do all we can with this and with every other genuine utterance of the spirit of humanity that shall make us wiser stronger truer men � bring us into nearer intelligence of the laws and sympathy with the spirit of the great world of god � the year has been distinguished with us above any of its by the of valuable works both ancient and modern not only are the latest and poorest blown in the old world re blown in the new but the heavy over which wisdom has grown pale and the iron hand of diligence become weary in the composition are also presented to us not many years ago if we remember rightly a asked the aid of the of his state to enable him to issue s not daring to trust two alone among the valuable works we would name the works of lord vo the letters of april fo s history of the to s history of the saxon church vol vo the speeches of lord vo and the works of lord bacon in royal vo in these volumes we have all the works of lord bacon arranged after the manner of s edition accompanied with his life of that philosopher and furnished with an index more convenient than that in the english edition here we have the substance of seventeen english volumes for about a fifth part of the cost of the original edition and in a very form we love to see elegant books but not the less those of a sort which can find their way to a farmer s fireside we learn that another edition of bacon is in course of publication amongst os in numbers designed for still wider circulation at some period we hope to return to mr s edition of bacon and consider the merit and influence of the method in philosophy some other books we would notice more particularly r i the history of christianity from the birth of christ to the of in the roman empire by the rev h h d c with an by james d d new york vol vo here the three elegant volumes of the original are compressed into one in the american paper and type are such as we usually receive from the press of the messrs the work is written with n good deal of but bears few marks of that at once various exact and profound which we expect from an historian of the church and fewer still it may be of that grasp of mind that philosophic power which and the course and spirit of an age a grasp and a power which we may require of a writer who measures himself against the greatest historical and philosophical problem of the world � the rise extension development and destination of christianity attempts a history of christianity enters upon a vast field where the ground is uncertain and its limits not defined perhaps scarce he must tell us what christianity is in itself and what is its foundation when it was first made manifest in the world under what circumstances and with what when and in whom it reached its highest point and what has been the course of its development and what its influence negative and positive on the human race how it has acted on men and how their superstition and sin have ed upon their notions of christianity these four as we take it present themselves to the philosophic writer who aims to the christian idea and its historical development he must tell us whether christianity be the absolute religion or not the absolute religion if the latter what are its considered in itself if the former what is the history f its successive and of its application in the under what forms has it been contemplated and what have men set to this perfect religion if the author takes the view that christianity is absolute religion then the whole matter itself into this what relation did the form of any time and place bear to this absolute religion or when the absolute religion was proclaimed what did it find and how were they met various preliminary questions must be answered no doubt for example how do we get at the idea of absolute religion in general how that of christianity in particular to look at the latter question and see what it christianity is one historical of religion amongst many other which ar e more or less imperfect we become acquainted with it by means of historical witnesses sacred and profane then the question comes are the witnesses competent to testify in the premises here comes the critical question if they are and we | 37 |
will try to gather a few the most like gold that it may be guessed by the charitable whether or not a once flowed there if there be miracles they are those that are in our own breast what we do not know we call by that name how astonished almost how ashamed are we when the inspired moment comes and we get to know them one is late in learning to lie and late in learning to speak the truth i cannot because i cannot lie fancy not that i take credit for it i cannot just as one cannot play upon the in the meanest hut is a romance if you knew the hearts there so long as we do not take even the injustice which is done us and which forces the burning tears from us so long as we do not take even this for just and right we are in the without dawn with despair � but let it be genuine and you will have a noble harvest misery is ashamed of itself hides itself and does not complain you may know it by that what a commonplace man if he did not live in the same time with us no mortal would mention him have you remarked that whenever lie speaks of the water is always great as is when he speaks of the stars if one were to say you think it easy to be original but no it is difficult it costs a whole life of labor and exertion � you would think him mad and ask no more questions of him and yet his opinion would be altogether true and plain enough withal original i grant every man might be and must be if men did not almost always admit mere into their head and fling them again whoever honestly questions himself and faithfully answers is busied continually with all that presents itself in life and is incessantly had the thing been invented never so long before honesty belongs as a first condition to good thinking and there are almost as few absolute von l� dances as genius would always be al but there are of them genuine they have always enough to be he the tumbled out on me his definition of genius the old distinctions of intellect and heart as if there ever was or could be a intellect with a mean heart when i think of him tears come into my eyes all other men i love with my own strength he teaches me to love my poet slave trade war marriage working and they are astonished and keep and the whole world is properly a tragic em � here the feel that i am as unique as the greatest appearance in this earth the greatest artist philosopher or poet is not above me we are of the same element in the same rank and stand together whichever would the other only himself but to me it was appointed not to write or act but to live i lay in till my century and then was in outward respects so away it is for this reason that i you but pain as i know it is a life too and i think with myself i am one of those figures which humanity was fated to and then never to use more never to have more me no one can comfort � why not be dear friend there are beautiful in life which belong neither to us nor to others beautiful i name them because they give us a freedom we could not get by sound sense who would to have a nervous fever and yet it may save one s life i love rage i use it and it � be not alarmed i am commonly calmer but when i write to a s heart it comes to pass that the laden horizon of my soul breaks out in lightning heavenly men love lightning to one thing i must write to thee what i thought of last night in bed and for the first time in my life that i as a relative and pupil of have from my childhood upwards occupied myself much with death thou believe but never did my own death affect me nay i did not even think of this fact that i was not affected by it now last night there was something i had to write i said must s know this things if he is to think of me after i am dead and it seemed to me as if i must die as if my heart were flitting away over this earth and i must w it and my death gave me pity for never before as i now saw had i thought that it would give anybody pity of thee i knew it would do so and yet it was the first time in my life i had seen this or known that i had never seen it in such solitude have i lived comprehend it i thought when i am dead then first will know what sufferings i had and all his will be in vain the figure of me meets him again through all eternity no more swept away am i then as our poor prince louis is and no one can be kind to me then with the strongest will with the exertion of despair no one and this thought of thee about me was what at last me i must write of this though it thee never so to a younger sister on her marriage in � paris since thy last letter i am sore downcast gone art thou no rose comes stepping in to me with true foot and heart who knows me altogether knows all my sorrows when i am sick of body or soul alone alone thou not to me any more thy room empty quite empty for ever empty thou art | 37 |
merit than smelling like a livery stables and being able to walk across me more like a fly than a human being while the horses were at a a distrust of myself which has often beset me in on small occasions when it would have been better away was assuredly not stopped in its growth by this little incident outside the coach it was in vain to take refuge in of speech i spoke from the pit of my stomach for the rest of the journey but i felt completely extinguished and dreadfully young it was curious and interesting nevertheless to be sitting up there behind four horses well educated well dressed and with plenty of money in my pocket and to look out for the places where i had slept on my weary journey i had abundant occupation for my thoughts in every conspicuous on the road when i looked down at the whom we passed and saw that well remembered style of face turned up i felt as if the s blackened hand were in the bosom of my shirt again when we through the narrow street of and i caught a glimpse in passing of the lane where the old monster lived who had bought my jacket i stretched my neck eagerly to look for the place where i had sat in the sun and in the shade waiting for my money when we came at last within a stage of london and passed the veritable house where mr had laid about him with a heavy hand i would have given all i had for lawful permission to get down and him and let all the boys out like so many we went to the golden cross at cross then a sort of establishment in a close neighbourhood a waiter showed me into the coffee room and a introduced me to my small which smelt like a coach and was shut up like a family vault i was still painfully conscious of my youth for nobody stood in any awe of me at all the being utterly indifferent to my opinions on any subject and the waiter being familiar with me and offering advice to my well now said the waiter in a tone of confidence what would you like for dinner young gentlemen likes poultry in general have a fowl the personal history and experience i told him as as i could that i wasn t in the humour for a fowl ain t you said the waiter young gentlemen is generally tired of beef and mutton have a i assented to this proposal in of being able to suggest anything else do you care for said the waiter with an smile and his head on one side young gentlemen generally has been with i commanded him in my deepest voice to order a and potatoes and all things fitting and to inquire at the bar if there were any letters for � which i knew there were not and couldn t be but thought it manly to appear to expect he soon came back to say that there were none at which i was much surprised and began to lay the cloth for my dinner in a box by the fire while he was so engaged he asked me what i would take with it and on my replying half a pint of thought it a favourable opportunity i am afraid to extract that measure of wine from the stale at the of several small i am of this opinion because while i was reading the newspaper i observed him behind a low wooden which was his private apartment very busy pouring out of a number of those vessels into one like a and making up a when the wine came too i thought it flat and it certainly had more english in it than were to be expected in a foreign wine in anything like a pure state but i was enough to drink it and say nothing being then in a pleasant frame of mind from which i infer that is not always disagreeable in some stages of the process i resolved to go to the play it was garden theatre that i chose and there from the back of a centre box i saw and the new to have all those noble alive before me and walking in and out for my entertainment instead of being the stern they had been at school was a most novel and delightful effect but the mingled reality and mystery of the whole show the influence upon me of the poetry the lights the music the company the smooth changes of glittering and brilliant scenery were so dazzling and opened up such regions of delight that when i came out into the rainy street at twelve o clock at night i felt as if i had come from the clouds where i had been leading a romantic for ages to a link lighted umbrella struggling muddy miserable world i had emerged by another door and stood in the street for a little while as if i really were a stranger upon earth but the pushing and that i received soon recalled me to myself and put me in the road back to the hotel whither i went revolving the glorious vision all the way and where after some porter and i sat revolving it still at past one o clock with my eyes on the coffee room fire i was so filled with the play and with the past � for it was in a manner like a shining through which i saw my earlier life moving along � that i don t know when the figure of a handsome well formed young op david dressed with a easy which i have reason to remember very well became a real presence to me but i recollect being conscious of ins company without having noticed his coming | 8 |
� certainly mr john is an affectionate father the children are all fond of him and then their uncle comes in and them up to the ceiling in a very frightful way but they like it papa there is nothing they like so much it is such enjoyment to them that if their uncle did not lay down the rule of their taking turns whichever began would never give way to the other well i cannot understand it that is the case with us all papa one half of the world cannot understand the pleasures of the other later in the morning and just as the girls were going to separate in preparation for the regular four o clock dinner the hero of this walked in again turned away but could receive him with the usual smile and her quick eye soon discerned in his the consciousness of having made a push � of having thrown a die and she imagined he was come to see how it might turn up his reason however was to ask whether mr s party could be made up in the evening without him or whether he should be in the smallest degree necessary at field if he were everything else must give way but otherwise his friend had been saying so much about his dining with him � had made such a point of it � that he had promised him to come thanked him but could not allow of his his friend on their account her father was sure of his rubber he re urged � she re declined and he seemed then about to make his bow when taking the paper from the table she returned it oh here is the you were so obliging as to leave with us thank you for the sight of it we admired it so much that i have ventured to write it into miss smith s collection your friend will not take it amiss i hope of course i have not beyond the eight first lines mr certainly did not very well know what to say he looked rather rather confused said something about honor glanced at and at and then seeing the book open on the table took it up and examined it very attentively with the view of passing off an awkward moment said � you must make my apologies to your friend but so good a must not be confined to one or two he may be sure of every woman s approbation while he writes with such gallantry i have no hesitation in saying replied mr though hesitating a good deal while he spoke � i have no hesitation in saying � at least if my friend feels at all as i do � i have not the smallest doubt that could he see his little honored as i see it looking at the book again and it on the table he would consider it as the moment of his life after this speech he was gone as soon as possible could not think it too soon for with all his good and agreeable qualities there was a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt to incline her to laugh she ran away to indulge the inclination leaving the tender and the sublime of pleasure to s share chapter x though now the middle of december there had yet been no weather to prevent the young ladies from tolerably regular exercise and on the morrow had a charitable visit to pay to a poor sick family who lived a little way out of their road to this detached cottage was down lane � a lane leading at right angles from the broad though irregular main street of the place and as may be inferred containing the blessed abode of mr a few inferior dwellings were first to be passed and then about a quarter of a mile down the lane rose the � an old and not very good house almost as close to the road as it could be it had no advantage of situation but had been very much up by the present proprietor and such as it was there could be no possibility of the two friends passing it without a pace and observing eyes s remark was � there it is there go you and your riddle book one of these days s was � oh what a sweet house how very beautiful i there are the yellow curtains that miss so much i do not often walk this way now said as they proceeded but then there will be ill an and i shall gradually get intimately acquainted with all the hedges gates pools and of this part of she found had never in her life been the and her curiosity to see it was so extreme that considering and could only class it as a proof of love with mr s seeing ready wit in her we could contrive it said she but i cannot think of any tolerable pretence for going in � no servant that i want to inquire about of his housekeeper no message from my father she pondered but could think of nothing after a mutual silence of some minutes thus began again � i do so wonder miss that you should not be married or going to be married � � charming as you are laughed and replied � my being charming is not quite enough to induce me to marry i must find other people charming � one other person at least and i am not only not going to be married at present but have very little intention of ever marrying at all ah so you say but i cannot believe it i must see somebody very superior to any one i have seen yet to be tempted mr you know herself is out of the question and i do not wish to see | 26 |
day said mr offering hand glad to have seen you in writing by post � in new south wales � or in co with him through have the ness to mention that the particulars and our long account shall be sent to you together w the balance for there is a balance good day we shook hands and he looked hard at me long as he could see me i turned at the door and still looking at me � � o n te tbe shelf seemed to be a and to force ont of swollen a man he was out and though he had been at his he could have done nothing for me i went back to the temple e i found the terrible drinking rum and water and smoking negro iu safety next day the clothes i had ordered all came home sad he put them on whatever he put on became hi n it to me than what he had worn before to my thinking there was in bin di it made it hopeless tn attempt to disguise him the ii i dressed him and the better i dressed him the � he looked like the fugitive on the this effect on my anxious fancy was partly no doubt to his old face and manner grow familiar to me but i believe too that lie � ri d one of hia legs as if there were still a weight on it and that from head to foot there was i in the very grain of the man the influences of his solitary hut life were upon mm besides and gave him a savage air that no dress tame added to these were the influences of hia ij life among men and crowning au that he was and hiding now ill all his ways of sitting and standing and eating and drinking � of brooding about in a high shouldered reluctant style � of taking out his great handled knife and wiping it on his legs and cutting his food � of lifting light glasses and to hia as if they were clumsy � of wed off ills bread and up a � i cf of round and round a e � make the most of aa allowance and on it and then it � and a other small i every minute in the day there was plain as plain could be it had been his own idea to wear that torn powder and i had the powder after coming the but i can compare the effect when on to nothing but the probable effect of i upon the dead ao awful was the manner in everything in him that it was most desirable to n started through that thin of pretence and a to come blazing oat at the crown of his head abandoned as soon as tried and he wore his gi hair cut short words cannot tell what a sense i had at tie time of the dreadful mystery that he was to me lie fell asleep of an evening with his knotted l the sides of the easy chair and ms bald with deep wrinkles falling forward breast i would sit and look at him he had done and him with all the c the until the impulse was powerful on i start up and fly from him every hour s my of him that i even think i might yielded to this impulse in the first agonies of haunted notwithstanding all he had done for me the risk he ran but for the knowledge that si must soon come back once i actually did of bed in the night and begin to dress myself i worst clothes hurriedly intending to leave him w ch else i e as a private soldier expectations if a ghost could have heen more terrible to t p in those lonely rooms in the long evenings and nights with the wind and the rain always rushing a ghost could not have been taken and hanged � a y account and the consideration that he could be the dread that he would ba were no small addition my horrors when he was not asleep or playing a kind of patience with a ragged pack of of his own � a game that i never saw before or face and in which he recorded his by stick his jack knife into the table � when he was not in either of these pursuits he would me ta read to him � foreign language dear boy while i complied he not a single would stand before the fire surveying me with the air of an and i would see him between ihe fingers of the hand with which i shaded my face appealing in show to the furniture to take notice of my the imaginary student by the creature he had made was not more wretched than i pursued by the creature made me and from him with a mi the more he admired me and the he was of me this is written of i am sensible as if it had lasted � year it lasted about five days expecting all the time i dared not go out except when i took for an after dark at length one evening dinner was over and i had dropped into a slumber worn out � for my nights had been agitated and my rest broken by fearful dreams � i was ti welcome footstep on the staircase tv too staggered np at tke no sa and in an instant i saw ms knife in hand quiet it a i said and bursting in with airy freshness of six bu miles of france upon him my dear fellow how are you and how are yon and again how are i seem to been gone a why so i must have for you have grown quite thin and pale � i beg your | 8 |
who lay flat on his face kicking and groaning at intervals she upon the major with so much vehemence that he was almost carried away by the sudden oh you wretch what have you done she panted scarcely able to articulate done madam asked the major gravely yes what have you done to that poor miserable creature � there she actually seized the major and whirled him around with one hand whilst with the other she l last pointed at the prostrate and now motionless george washington what have i been doing with yes with him have you been out your barbarous on his person she gasped the major s eye lit up yes madam he said taking up one of the pistols and i rejoice that you are here to witness its successful george washington has been selected as the victim this year his monstrous lies his habitual drunken his in the open to day of my best coat and waistcoat mai him naturally as the proper sacrifice i had not the heart to cheat any one by selling him to him was therefore constrained to him he was with his usual not killed at the first fire although he appears to be dead i will now finish him by putting a ball into his back observe the shot he advanced and the pistol click � click stuck it carefully in the middle of george washington s fat hack miss gave a piercing shriek and flung herself on the major to seize the pistol but she might have spared george washington s last for george washington suddenly bounded from the ground and with one glance at the weapon rushed crashing through the followed by the laughter of the young people the shrieks of miss and the shouts of the major for him to come back and let him kill him that evening when margaret seated on the major s knee was in his pockets for any loose change which might be there which by custom belonged to her she suddenly pulled out two large round bullets the major seized them but it was too late when however he finally obtained possession of them he presented them to miss and solemnly requested her to preserve them as of george washington s miraculous escape s i had the good fortune to come from the old county of as that particular division of the state of virginia ia affectionately called by nearly all who are so lucky aa to have first seen the light amid its fields and heavy forests and to this happy circumstance i owed the honor of a special visit from one of most loyal citizens indeed the glories o� his native county were bo in his memory and were so generously and imparted to all his acquaintances that he was in the county of his universally known after an absence of forty years aa old i had not been long in f when i was informed that i might in right of the good fortune respecting my to which i have referred expect a visit from my distinguished fellow and thus vas not surprised when one afternoon a was brought in that lis r j p was in the yard and had called to pay his to de man what de honor to come de county i immediately went out followed by my host to find that the visit was attended with a formality which raised it almost to the dignity of a old was accompanied by his wife and was attended by quite a number of other who had followed him either out of curiosity excited by the importance he had attached to the visit or else in the desire to shine in reflected glory as his friends old himself stood well out in front of the rest like an old african chief in state with his followers behind him about to receive an he was arrayed with great care in a style which i thought at first glance was of the calling but which i soon discovered was intended to be merely of to the dignity which was supposed to to that profession he wore a very long and coat which had once been black but was now by exposure to a brown a which looked as if it had been velvet before the years had eaten the nap from it f and changed it into a fabric not unlike leather his shirt was obviously newly washed for the occasion and his clean collar fell over an ample and somewhat white cloth which partook of the qualities of both stock and his skin was of that black which shines as if and his face was closely shaved except for two of short white hair one on each side which shone like snow against his black cheeks he wore an old and very quaint and a pair of large old fashioned silver which gave him an air of dignity when i first caught sight of him he was leaning on a long stick which might have been his staff of state and his face was set in an expression of importance as i appeared however he at once removed his hat and taking a long step forward made me a profound bow i was so much impressed by him that i failed to catch the whole of the speech with which he greeted me i had evidently secured his approval for he boldly declared that he would a me for one of de rail quality ef he had me in a cup p pen i was immediately conscious of the effect which his produced on his companions they regarded me with new interest if any expression so deserved to be thus i tell folks up don t know bout rail quality he asserted with a contemptuous wave of his arm which was intended to embrace the entire section in its comprehensive sweep ain had no it he | 46 |
i can feel gratitude and i assure you that i feel it towards our mutual friend many s the day and many s the in which he has backed me staff and nonsense said mr arthur could not but glance at daniel in the silence though it was evidently in the grain of his character and of his respect for his own case that he should from idle murmuring evident that hie had grown the older the and the poorer long he could not but think what a blessed thing it would been for this man if he had taken a lesson from the gentlemen who were so kind as to take the nation s affairs in charge and had learnt how not to do it was hot and for about five minutes and te b an to cool and clear up come come said he we shall not make this the better by l grim where do you think of going dan i shall go back to the said dan why then we ll all go back to the factory or walk in that direction returned cheerfully mr won t be by its being in bleeding heart yard bleeding heart yard said i want to go there much the better cried mr come along as they went along certainly one of the party and probably more than one thought that bleeding heart yard was no destination for a man who had been in official correspondence and the � and perhaps had a also that might come to look for lodgings in bleeding heart yard some ugly day or other if she over did the chapter xi let loose a dull autumn night was closing in upon the river ine like a looking glass in a gloomy place tne clouds heavily and the low banks leaned over there as if t f y half curious and half afraid to sec their darkening pictures j the water the flat expanse of country about lay a long y streak occasionally made a little ragged by a row of against the sunset on the banks of the river it et and the night deepened fast i ue man slowly moving on towards was the only visible m the landscape might have looked as lonely and avoided an old at his back and a rough stick ut of some wood in his hand his shoes and p en out his hair and beard the cloak he carried over � shoulder and the clothes he wore with wet o in pain and difficulty he looked as if the clouds were iu from him as if the wail of the wind and the shuddering of the grass were directed against him as if the low mysterious of the water murmured at him as if the fitful night were disturbed by him ho glanced here and he there sullenly but and sometimes stopped and turned about and looked all round ham then he on again toiling and muttering to the devil with this plain that has no end to the devil with these stones that cut like knives to the il with this dismal darkness itself about one with a chill i you and he would have visited his hatred upon it all with the he threw about him if he could he a little further and looking into the distance before him stopped again i hungry thirsty weary you where the lights are yonder eating and drinking and warming yourselves at fires i wish i had the of your town i would repay you my children but the teeth he set ut the town and the he shook at the town brought the to i n no nearer and the man was yet and and when his feet were on its jagged pavement and he stood looking about him there was the hotel with its and its smell of cooking there was the with its bright windows and its rattling of there was the s with its of red cloth on the there was the s with its ear rings and its for there was the tobacco dealer s with its lively group of soldier customers coming out pipe in mouth there were the bad of the town und the rain and refuse in tlie and the faint lamps across the road and the huge diligence and its mountain of luggage and its six grey their tails tied up getting under weigh at the coach office but no small for a traveller being within sight he liad to seek one round the dark comer where the lay trodden about the public m at which liad not yet let off drawing water there in the back street he found one the break of da the windows clouded tlie break of day but it seemed light and warm and it announced in with ai of l cue and hall that at the break of day one could play that there one could find meat drink and lodging whether one came on horseback or came on foot and that it kept good and brandy the man turned the handle of the break of day door and in he touched his hat as he came in at the door to a few men who the room two were playing at one of the little tables three or four were seated round the stove conversing as they smoked the table in the centre was left alone for tlie time the of the sat her little counter ng her cloudy l of ba of and leaden for working at her his way to an empty table in a comer of the room behind the stove he put do ti liis s and his cloak upon the as h raised his head from stooping to do so he found tlie landlady beside one can lo here to night little perfectly said the landlady in a high voice good one can � sup � | 8 |
scripture was less likely to run into than the friend he was also less quick to gain new and modern views of refusing to with man the conscience of the forefathers did not shrink from selling indians captured in war into slavery or from buying slaves who appeared to have come into bondage otherwise than by downright these nice distinctions could not be kept up and thousands of negro slaves were sold into new england without any question for conscience sake the scruple about human liberty with which the forefathers had come to this country had been swiftly forgotten some merchants of boston were engaged in the guinea trade of which however was the great before the writings of the lay and had appeared an influential but rather timid voice that of judge was heard opposing the of slaves to he had been led by the narrow spirit in which he was bred into grievous mistakes in the trials but he was an honest and even a scrupulous man fond of popular favor and shrinking from censure it t him a struggle no doubt to give to the press in his little tract against the slave trade entitled the selling of joseph its influence was probably not great land and labor in the early colonies so closed the century the progress in humanity had been very slight the number of bond servants was constantly increasing the black tide of african slavery was ever swelling no voice worthy of the name was yet heard in protest fine and recovery conveyance to uses lease and � all the forms that had been compelled to assume � survived together with the whole of science that had grown up round them once launched into existence the system of private and conveyance had a science and a to the estates created in law which made every title a matter of intimate personal history hence arose the necessity of requiring the most and knowledge of the old body oi law which had left behind it the land laws of england in systems of land p see the note on p of vol i on the alternate forbidding and of lawyers in virginia in the new g had things his own way and admitted in were in the act was made stronger in all acts against were and in a vote of total was taken the particular of the however were very similar to the present the and turf were the simplest method of livery and by the and turf did they give to the when were made to the church a was usually laid on the altar this occurred so frequently that it would be useless to instances in its support a tree growing on a soil was regarded as a part of it hence a branch of it served to g ve when king of gave lands to the church of york he took the horn wherein he was wont to drink and filling it with wine before the altar and deposited it as a symbol of possession in the time of chap vi note i page note a page note page o the of civilization chap vi note page note s page note page note page henry iii william earl of and on a grant made by him to the of st delivered by the hair of his head law of note see the article on horns in s old church lore in some parts of england and ireland are by the custom of some conveyed by a bit of rush straw or hay i have this by report as to ireland and in the present day see also the custom of in on private property in a strip in a common field came in only when fields become permanently north common lands were cultivated one or two years and then left to pasture in the latter part of the century s rural economy new england had land in considerable quantities every year at first land was still allotted thus in england in some places it ought to be remarked here that island was first organized into towns and for a long time was a of independent towns from the vices of that system the state has not yet recovered first assembly of island on account of its was for a long time independent and was built in a s in s manuscript i have seen an account of a town built in a circle about the church mr calls attention to the animated scene in the common fields at the time of planting as described by in the a field full of i there of manner of men the and the and as the world � text b mr in his humour etc of the century gives this a lord that for his more to compass in a common with a was reckoning with his friend about the cost and charge of every and every post but he that his greedy humor said sir provide you posts and without your neighbours round about will find you land and labor in the early colonies and this other there be many rich men both and that for their private hurt a whole country by free yet make as though for common good but i know what i know a penny an acre was the result of knight s fee system as shown by very p towns paid as a whole in new york state there is never any separation of a town into in any state the town the land pays taxes etc and smith s laws of new york vol ii in the and ceremonies of new of and it is provided t hat the lots shall be of certain sizes excepting cities towns and the near lots of by towns were becoming common and the regular laying out of land rules for building each street in and quantities of ground for each house | 11 |
the saints cried is indeed not to be set aside but this is a devil s vow and simple clerk as i i am yet the of the true church when i say that it were mortal sin td fight on such a quarrel what shall two grown men carry malice for years and fly like at each other s throats f no my young clerk no malice black i have not a bitter drop in heart for mine old comrade but the quarrel as he hath told you is still open and unsettled fall not whilst i can stand between cried springing before the it is shame and sin to see two christian englishmen turn swords against each other like the and what is more said john suddenly appearing out of the with the huge board upon which the was rolled if either raise sword i shall him like tide by the black i i shall drive him into the earth like a nail into a door rather than see you do to each other fore god this is a strange way of preaching peace cried black you may find the yourself my friend if you raise your great to me i had as have the castle drop upon my tell me said earnestly with hands outstretched to keep the pair asunder what is the cause of quarrel that we may see whether honorable settlement may not be arrived at the looked down at his feet and then up at the moon he cried the cause of quarrel why mon it was years ago in and how can i bear in mind what was the cause of it there hath it at the end of his tongue not i in replied the other i have had other things to think of there was some sort of over or wine or was it a woman i but you have it cried it was indeed about a woman and the quarrel must go forward for i am still of the same mind as before what of the woman then asked may the strike me if i can call to mind aught about her it was la rose maid at the sign of the at bless her pretty heart i why mon i loved her so did a many i call her to mind now on the very day that we fought over the little she went off with ap a long legged they have a of their own now somewhere on the banks of where the landlord drinks so of the liquor that there is little left for the so ends our then said his sword a v faith c and the more so when she had a jolly and a man at arms to f rom true old lad and it is as well that we can compose our differences for sir had been out at the first dash of steel and he hath sworn that if there be quarrelling in the garrison he would the right hand from the you know him of old and that he is like to be as good as his word yes but there are ale and wine in the and the steward a merry rogue who will not over a or two mon for it is not every day that two old friends come together the old soldiers and john strode off together in all good fellowship had turned to follow them when he felt a touch upon his shoulder and found a young page by his side the lord commands said the boy that you will follow me to the great chamber and await him there but my comrades commands were for you alone followed the messenger to the east end of the where a broad flight of steps led up to the doorway of the main hall the outer wall of which is washed by the waters of the as designed at first no dwelling had been allotted to the lord of the castle and his family but the dark and dismal story of the keep a more civilized or more generation however had refused to be pent up in such a cellar and the hall with its neighboring chambers had been added for their accommodation up the broad steps went still following his boyish guide until at the folding oak doom the latter paused and ushered him into the i ain hall of the castle on the th looked round but seeing no one he to stand his cap in his hand with the greatest interest a chamber which was so different to any to which he was thb days had bj when a nobleman s hall was a barn like l the and eating room of of the castle the had brought back with them experiences of domestic of carpets and of which made them impatient of the hideous and want df privacy which they found in their still however had been the influence of the french war for however well matched the nations might be in martial exercises there be no question but that our neighbors were infinitely superior to us in the arts of peace a stream of returning knights of wounded and of had for a quarter of a continually pouring into england every one of whom exerted an influence in the direction of greater domestic refinement while of french furniture from and other towns had supplied our own with models on which to shape their work hence in most english castles and in castle among the rest chambers were id be found which would to be not wanting either in beauty or in in the great stone fireplace a log fire was and throwing out a ruddy glare which with the four lamps stood at each corner of the room gave a bright and air to the whole above was a wreath work of extending up to the carved and roof while on either side | 4 |
you and you may call him old guilt all the days of your life had set his heart upon her and she was giddy and liked him but his master was resolved that no harm should come of it � more for your sake than for hers � and that that was their business here how could i but believe him i saw soothe and please you by his praise of her i tou were the first to mention her name tou owned to an old admiration of her you were hot and cold and red and white all at once when i spoke to you of her what could i think � what did i think � but that you were a young in everything but experience and had fallen into hands that had experience enough and could manage you having the fancy for your own good oh oh oh i they were afraid of my finding out the truth exclaimed miss getting off the and trotting up and down the kitchen with her two short arms lifted up because i am a sharp little thing � i need be to get through the world at all and they deceived me altogether and i gave the poor unfortunate girl a letter which i fully believe was the of her ever speaking to who was left behind on purpose i stood amazed at the revelation of all this looking at miss as she walked up and down the kitchen until she was out of breath when she sat upon the again and drying her face with her handkerchief shook her head for a long time without otherwise moving and without breaking silence my country rounds she added at length brought me to mr the night before last what i happened to find out there about their secret of david way of coming and going without yon � which was strange � led to my something wrong i got into the coach from london last night as it came through and was here this morning oh oh oh too poor little turned so chilly after all her cry ing and that she turned round on the putting her poor little wet feet in among the ashes to warm them and sat looking at the fire like a large doll i sat in a chair on the other side of the hearth lost in unhappy reflections and looking at the fire too and sometimes at her i go she said at last rising as she spoke it s late you don t me meeting her sharp glance which was as sharp as ever when she asked me i could not on that short challenge answer no quite frankly come said she accepting the offer of my hand to help her over the and looking wistfully up into my face you know you wouldn t me if i was a full sized woman i felt that there was much truth in this and i felt rather ashamed of myself you are a young man she said nodding take a word of advice even from three foot nothing try not to associate bodily defects with mental my good friend except for a solid reason she had got over the now and i had got over my suspicion i told her that i believed she had given me a faithful account of herself and that we had both been instruments in hands she thanked me and said i was a good fellow now mind she exclaimed turning back on her the personal experience way to the door and looking at me with her up again i have some reason to what i have heard � my ears are always open i can t afford to spare what powers i have � that they are gone abroad but if ever they return if ever any one of them returns while i am alive i am more likely than another going about as i do to find it out soon i know you shall know if ever i can do anything to serve the poor betrayed girl i will do it faithfully heaven i and had better have a blood hound at his than little i placed faith in this last statement when i marked the look with which it was accompanied trust me no more but trust me no less than you would trust a full sized woman said the little creature touching me on the wrist if ever you see me again unlike what i am now and like what i was when you first saw me observe what company i am in to mind that i am a very helpless and little thing think of me at home with my brother like myself and sister like myself when my day s work is done perhaps you won t then be very hard upon me or surprised if i can be distressed and serious night i gave miss my hand with a very different opinion of her from that which i had hitherto entertained and opened the door to let her out it was not a trifling business to get the great umbrella up and properly balanced in her grasp but at last i successfully accomplished this and saw it go down the street through the rain without the least appearance of having anybody underneath it except when a heavier fall than from some water sent it top of david over on one side and miss struggling violently to get it right after making one ot two to her relief which were rendered futile by the umbrella s on again like an immense bird before i could reach it i came in went to bed and slept till morning in the morning i was joined by mr and by my old nurse and we went at an early hour to the where mrs and ham were waiting to take leave of us r ham whispered | 8 |
everywhere in the at island and and it was of unusual excellence at cape also at herald and islands water supplied by the was occasionally used during the but as it was from the main without it had that peculiar flavor which rendered it unfit for purposes the articles of food consisting of the regular to which had been added i and the usual such as i l and were of good quality and kept remarkably well some butter in barrels being as good on our return as on the day we left frequent opportunities also occurred to get fish and game the being varied from time to time with salmon and ducks eggs of which great quantities were found on the islands seal bear and these articles proved not only an change from the regular but use was followed by a sense of well being and by improved the ordinary clothing was with a coat of skin seal skin trousers and a foot covering similar to that worn by the over an ordinary pair of stockings were drawn a pair of with the hair turned in the foot being next thrust into an boot of seal skin into the bottom of which a small quantity of straw was as a non conductor and the whole secured by after the manner of a this answered the purposes of warmth and comfort but the effect was anything but picturesque as the foot resembled a extremity that some hospital nurse had endeavored to in a beyond the summary obtained from the signal station at saint michael s e are no extended weather observations to report in regard to any fixed i for the reason that the ship seldom remained longer than a few days at a time in any one place and it was o to get any definite information from the natives whose knowledge in this respect does not extend beyond noticing whether the is great or little during the winter as regards the weather during the past season there is a marked contrast when compared to that experienced on the s former voyage the sea was from ice a fact doubtless owing to the preceding mild winter and other causes but the number of fine days was few and a series of and snow storms continued throughout the summer even as late as july the were covered with snow and hail and a bitter cold wind penetrated of steamer in the ocean our winter in opposition to this was the temperature of july when the while the above is true of the weather in the more northern part of the we found it in sound later in the season much than it was at a corresponding date of the previous year in the latter part of june at saint michael s we found the sun almost overpowering although the but p why this should exist between the sensation of heat as experienced by the human body and the actual temperature as revealed by the we are not prepared to say all that we know from writers on the subject is that the sensations of heat and cold are relative and not absolute in different among the in for instance the opposite condition is often noticed a disagreeable sensation of cold not indicated by the being one of the experiences of in that part of the world the cold is keen and penetrating with the standing at but p an excellent distinction is that which these phenomena as physical cold and cold the former indicating that revealed by the the latter that not indicated by instruments many travellers have noticed this relative sensation of cold as well as the and even a certain degree of comfort with which they can expose themselves to a low temperature which would be attended by serious in a more southern dr relates that in he went swimming in a pool of water on the of an and the captain of a new has frequently gone swimming off the coast of taking advantage of one of these warm days i took a plunge into the icy water with no such motive however as that of nor did i like have the after it on the contrary a swim of no great discomfort was followed by a reaction the actual rise of temperature that follows upon in a cold atmosphere or upon first entering into a cold bath is not one of the least curious phenomena of the function of the nor is the busy activity of the and the of the food within the canal which accounts for the source of the heat of such animals as and the birds a subject to be passed by by what physical and laws can we explain this this action of the in the of energy sufficient to supply bodily heat to such animals as the seal and the whale and enable them by remarkable to withstand the extreme cold of the does the of the whale and of the duck enable them to combine a greater quantity of with and thereby act as a source of heat or is the function of the liver the chief source by what means does the energy yielding material become change l into actual energy f does the nervous system acting as a force like the in a steam engine remove or to the of into energy or do all the internal work of the animal all the mechanical labor of the internal muscular with their accompanying and the labor of the nervous and other a certain amount of heat and thus account for the special function of the foregoing with many others suggested themselves on hearing the statements of and hunters with reference to the sensation produced by the blood while handling the bodies of recently killed animals and it occurred to me that a series of observations something after the manner of the experiments of dr in connection with the | 28 |
public went to work buying up every old cannon he could lay hands on his back yard was soon crowded with broken down and his bam with guns like an when s purpose got wind it was astonishing how valuable that thing became which just now was worth nothing at all best funny stories ha ha thought somebody else is to control of the market but i guess ive got the start of him so he went on buying and buying paying double the original price of the article people in the neighboring towns collected all the worthless they could find and sent it by the cart load to when his barn was full began the rubbish in his cellar then in his he the stock of his store his house his bam his horse and would have himself if any one would have taken him as in order to carry on the grand speculation he was a ruined man and as happy as a lark surely poor was cracked like the majority of his own cannon more or less crazy he must have been always years before this he purchased an elegant coffin and kept it in one of the spare rooms of his residence he even had his name engraved on the silver plate leaving a blank after the word died the blank was filled up in due time and well it was for that he secured so a coffin in his days for when he died his worldly wealth would not have bought him a pine box to say nothing of he never gave up expecting a war with great britain hopeful and radiant to the last his dying words were england � war � few days � great profits men and things it was that sweet old lady dame who told me the story of for these things happened long before my day died in at s death his collection came under the s hammer some of the larger guns were sold to the town and planted at the comers of divers streets others went off to the iron the balance twelve were down on a deserted wharf at the foot of anchor lane where after summer they rested at their ease in the grass and in autumn by the rain and buried by the winter snow it is with these twelve guns that our story has to deal the wharf where they was shut off from the street by a high fence � a silent dreamy old wharf covered with strange weeds and on account of its seclusion and the good fishing it afforded it was much frequented by us boys there we met many an afternoon to throw out our lines or play leap among the rusty cannon they were famous fellows in our eyes what a they had made in the of their youth what stories they might tell now if their lips could only speak once they were lively enough but there the grim sea dogs lay silent and forlorn in spite of all their former they always seemed to me like a lot of best funny stories able stretched out on a lawn in front of a hospital gazing and their lost youth but once more they were destined to lift up their voices � once more ere they over and lay speechless for all time and this is how it jack harry and myself were fishing off the wharf one afternoon when a thought flashed upon me like an inspiration i say boys i cried in my line hand over hand i ve got something what does it pull like asked looking down at the line and expecting to see a big perch at least oh nothing in the fish way i laughing it s about the old guns what about them i was thinking what jolly fun it would be to set one of the old on his legs and serve him out a of up came the three lines in a an enterprise better suited to the disposition of my companions could not have been proposed in a short time we had one of the smaller cannon over on its back and were busy the green from the the mould had the gun so effectually that for a while we fancied we should have to give up our attempt to the old men and things s a long would clear it out said if we only had one i looked to see if sailor ben s flag was flying at the cabin door for he always took in the colors when he went off fishing when you want to know if the admiral s aboard jest cast an eye to the my says sailor ben sometimes in a mood he called himself the admiral and i am sure he deserved to be one the admiral s flag was flying and i soon procured a from his carefully kept before long we had the gun in working order a newspaper lashed to the end of a served as a to dust out the bore jack blew through the and pronounced all clear seeing our task accomplished so easily we our attention to the other guns which lay in all sorts of in the rank grass a rope from sailor ben we managed with immense labor to drag the heavy pieces into position and place a brick under each to give it the proper elevation when we beheld them all in a row like a regular battery we simultaneously conceived an idea the magnitude of which struck us dumb for a moment our first intention was to load and fire a single gun how feeble and insignificant was such a plan compared to that which now sent the light dancing into our eyes best funny stories what could we have been thinking of cried jack we ll give em a to be sure if we die for it we turned | 34 |
priest was admiring for hadn t his reverence given him the clothes himself and if it weren t for the self same clothes he wouldn t have the pound in his pocket to give the priest to marry him it was yourself your reverence yes i remember very well pat had to tell him that there was work to be the lake had in but he didn t dare to show himself in not having any clothes to wear he had stood humbly before the priest in a pair of trousers that hardly covered his and it was as father stood examining and pitying his s poverty it had occurred to him that if he were to buy two suits of clothes in and give one to pat he might wrap the other one in a bundle and place it on the rocks on the side it was not likely that the in would remember after three months that he had sold two suits to the priest but should he remember this the explanation would be that he had bought them for pat now looking at this poor man who had come to ask him if he would marry him for a pound the priest was lost in wonder so you re going to be married pat and pat who hadn t spoken to anyone since the woman whose potatoes he had been digging had said she d as soon marry him as another began to chatter and to in his chatter there was so much to tell that he did not know how to tell it there was his rent and the woman s holding for now they would have nine acres of land money would be required to stock it and he did not know if the bank would lend him the money perhaps the priest would help him to get it but why did you come to me to marry you aren t you two miles nearer to father than you are to me pat hesitated not liking to say that he would be hard the lake set to get round father so he began to talk of the and the for hadn t he heard as he came up the street that mrs had stolen the child from mrs and had had it by the minister and he hoped to obtain the priest s sympathy by saying what a terrible thing it was that the police should allow a black to steal a catholic child and its mother a catholic and all her people before her when mrs snatched the child it hadn t been and was neither a catholic nor a the priest said pat whose knowledge did not extend very far remained silent and the priest was glad of his silence for he was thinking that in a few minutes he would catch sight of the square on the by the pine wood the day being saturday the school was empty he had thought he would like to see again the place where he and rose had stood talking together but a long field lay between the road past the and the road past the priest s house and what would it avail him to see the empty room he looked instead for the bush by which he and rose had lingered and it was a sad pleasure to think how she had gone up the road after bidding him good by but pat had begun to talk again of how he could get an advance from the bank i can back no bill for you pat but i ll give you a letter to father telling him that you can t afford to pay more than a pound the lake rose s letters were in the drawer of his writing table he unlocked it and put the packet into his pocket and when he had a little note to father he said now take this and be off with you i ve other business to attend to besides you and he called to for his now is it out bathing you re going your reverence you won t be swimming out to castle island and forgetting that you have at seven i shall be back in time he answered down the his steps and he began to regret his irritation for he would never see again it was a pity he had answered her but he couldn t go back he must think where he could hide himself and he must find a safe hiding might call might send after him saying his reverence had gone down to or any however his errand might try to seek him out and all errands will be to day he said as he hurried along the shore thinking of the different paths round the rocks and through the bushes his mind was on the big wood there he could anyone following him for while his would be going round one way he would be coming back the other but it would be lonely in the big wood and as he hurried down the old cart track he thought how he might while away an hour among the in the little spare fields at the end of the plantation watching the sunset for the lake hours would have to pass before the moon rose and the time would pass slowly under the melancholy into which the sun had not looked for thousands of years a wood had always been there the had trees in it to build and boats to reach their island castles bears and wolves had been slain in it and thinking how it was still a refuge for cats and how it was with he made his way along the shore through the rough fields he ran a little and after waiting awhile ran on again on reaching the edge of the wood he hid himself behind a bush and did not dare to | 15 |
for angry as she was with for to his own notions and acting on them in defiance of her and she had been so angry that they had hardly parted friends at the ball she could not help thinking of him continually when absent dwelling on his merit and affection and longing again for the almost daily meetings they lately had his absence was long he should not have planned such an absence he should not park have left for a week when her own departure from was so near then she began to blame herself she wished she had not spoken so warmly in their last conversation she was afraid she had used some strong some contemptuous expressions in speaking of the clergy and that should not have been it was ill bred � it was wrong she wished such words with all her heart her vexation did not end with the week all this was bad but she had still more to feel when friday came round again and brought no when saturday came and still no and when through the slight communication with the other family which sunday produced she learned that he had actually written home to his return having promised to remain some days longer with his friend if she had felt impatience and regret before � if she had been sorry for what she said and feared its too strong effect on him � she now felt and feared it all more she had moreover to contend with one disagreeable emotion entirely new to her � jealousy his friend mr had sisters � he might find them attractive but at any rate his staying away at a time when according to all preceding plans she was to remove to london meant something that she could not bear had henry returned as he talked of doing at the end of three or four days she should now have been leaving it became absolutely necessary for her to get to and try to learn something more she could not live any longer in solitary wretchedness and she made her way to the park through difficulties of walking which she had deemed a week before for the chance of hearing a little in addition for the sake of at least hearing his name the first half hour was lost for and lady were together and unless she had to herself she could hope for nothing but at last lady left the room and then almost immediately miss thus began with a voice as well regulated as she could and how do you like your cousin s staying away so long being the only young person at home i consider you as the greatest sufferer you must miss him does his staying longer surprise you i do not know said hesitatingly yes � i had not particularly expected it perhaps he will always stay longer than he talks of it is the general way all young men do he did not the only time he went to see mr before he finds the house more agreeable now he is a very � a very pleasing young man himself and i cannot help being rather concerned at not seeing him again before i go to london as will now undoubtedly be the case i am looking for henry every day and as soon as he comes there will be nothing to detain me at i should like to have seen him once more i confess but you must give my compliments to him yes � i think it must be compliments is there not park a something wanted miss price in our language � a something compliments and � and love � to suit the sort of friendly acquaintance we have had together so many months acquaintance but compliments may be sufficient here was his letter a long one does he give you much account of what he is doing is it christmas that he is staying for i only heard a part of the letter it was to my uncle but i believe it was very short indeed i am sure it was but a few lines all that i heard was that his friend had pressed him to stay longer and that he had agreed to do so a few days longer or some days longer i am not quite sure which oh if he wrote to his father � but i thought it might have been to lady or you but if he wrote to his father no wonder he was who could write chat to sir thomas if he had written to you there would have been more particulars you would have heard of balls and parties he would have sent you a description of everything and everybody how many miss are there three grown up are they musical i do not at all know i never heard that is the first question you know said miss trying to appear gay and which every woman who plays herself is sure to ask another but it is very foolish to ask questions about any young ladies � about any three sisters just grown up for one knows with out being told exactly what they are � all very accomplished and pleasing and one very pretty there is a beauty in every family � it is a regular thing two play on tl e and one on the harp and all sing or would sing if they were taught or sing all the better for not being taught or something like it i know nothing of the miss said calmly you know nothing and you care less as people say never did tone express indifference indeed how can one care for those one has never seen well when your cousin comes back he will find very quiet � all the noisy ones gone your brother and mine and myself i do not like the idea of leaving | 26 |
then what is a guardian for as if you could ever squeeze a resolution out of might to him not he finds everybody charming i never can get him to abuse he will even speak well of the bishop though i tell him it is unnatural in a clergyman what can one do with a husband who so little to the i hide it as well as i can by everybody myself come come cheer up you are well nd of miss a girl who would have been you to see the stars by daylight between ourselves little is worth two of her and likely after all to be the better match for this marriage to is as good as going to a oh on my own account � it is for miss s sake i think her friends should try to use their influence well doesn t know yet but when i tell him you may depend on it he will say why not is a good fellow � and young � enough these charitable people never know wine tiu they have swallowed it and got the however if i were a man i should prefer especially when was gone the truth is you j ve been one and have won the other i can see that she you almost as much as a man expects to be admired if it were any one but me who said so you might think it exaggeration good bye sir james hand mrs to the and then jumped on his horse he was not going to his ride because of his mend s unpleasant news � only to ride the faster in some other direction than that of now why on earth should mrs have been at all busy about miss s marriage and why when one match that she liked to think she had a hand in was should she have straightway contrived the of another was there any ingenious plot any hide and seek course of action which might be detected by a careful watch not at all a might have swept the of and the whole area visited by mrs in her without witnessing any interview that could excite suspicion or any scene from which she did not return with the same of eye and the same high natural colour in fact if that convenient vehicle book i � miss y existed in the days of the seven one of them would doubt k remarked that you con know little of women by following about in their even with a on a water drop we ourselves making which out to be rather coarse for whereas under a weak you nay seem to see a creature exhibiting an active into smaller creatures play as if they were so many animated a stronger to ou certain make for these victims while the waits at receipt of custom in this way a strong to mrs s match making will show a of minute causes producing what may he called thought and to bring ner the sort of food she needed her life was simple quite free from secrets either foul or otherwise important and not affected by he great a of the world all the more did the affairs of the world interest her when communicated in the letters of relations the way in which sons had gone w e dogs by marrying their the fine md blooded f young lord and the furious of old lord the exact crossing of which had brought into a new branch and the relations of scandal � were topics of which she retained details with the utmost ac and them in an excellent of she herself enjoyed the more because she as in birth and no birth as she did in game and she ould never have any one on the ground of poverty a de reduced to take his in a basin would have seemed to an example of pathos worth and i fear his vices would not have her but her feeling towards the rich was a sort of religious hatred they had probably made i their money out of high prices and mrs c de � ted high prices for everything that was not paid in kind at the such people were no part of god s design in making the and their accent was an affliction to the ears a town where � monsters was hardly more than a sort of low comedy which could not be taken account of in a well bred scheme of the let any lady who is inclined to be hard on mrs inquire into the of her own beautiful views ind be quite sure that they afford accommodation for all the lives hich have the honour to with hers with such a mind active as biting everything that came near into the form that it how could mrs fed that the miss and their matrimonial prospects were alien o her especially as it had been the habit of years for her to with the frankness and let him know in � that she him a poor creature from the first arrival � � the young ladies in she had s marriage witli sir james and if it had taken place would have been quite sure that it was her doing that it should not take place after she had it caused her an irritation which every will with she was the of and and for anything to happen in spite of her was an offensive as to like this of miss s mrs had no patience with them and now saw that her opinion of this girl had been with some of her husband s weak those that air of being more religious than the and together came from a deeper and more constitutional disease than she had been willing to believe however said mrs first to herself and afterwards to her husband i throw | 14 |
had the least resemblance to the boyish fancies that we used to joke about i assured her that its was quite and expressed my belief that nothing like it had ever been known somehow as i wrote to on a fine evening by my open window and the remembrance of her clear calm eyes and gentle face came stealing over me it shed such a peaceful influence upon the hurry and agitation in which i had been living lately and of which my very happiness partook in some degree that it soothed me into tears i remember that i sat resting my head upon my hand when the letter was half done a general fancy as if were one of the elements of my natural home as if in the retirement of the house made almost sacred to me by her presence and i must be happier than anywhere as if in love joy sorrow hope or disappointment in all emotions my heart turned naturally there and found its refuge and best friend of of i said i only told her there had been sad grief at on of � r s flight and that on me it made a double wound bj reason of the circumstances attending it i knew how quick she always was to divine the truth and that she would never be the first to breathe his name to this letter i received an answer bj return of post as i read it i seemed to hear speaking to me it was like her cordial in my ears what can i say more while i had been away from home lately had called twice or thrice finding within and being informed by who always volunteered that information to would receive it that she was my old nurse he had established a good acquaintance with her and had stayed to have a little chat with her me so said but i am afraid the chat was all on her own side and of length as she was very difficult indeed to stop bless her when she had me for her theme this reminds me not only that i expected on a certain afternoon of his own which was now come but that mrs had resigned everything to her office the salary until should cease to present herself mrs after holding divers conversations respecting in a very high pitched on the staircase with some invisible familiar it would appear for speaking she was quite alone at those times � addressed a letter to me developing her views beginning it with that statement of universal application which fitted every occurrence of her life namely that she was a the history and experience herself she went on to inform me that she had once seen very different days but that at all periods of her existence she had had a constitutional objection to and she named no names she said let them the cap fitted wear it but and especially in weeds this was she had ever accustomed herself to look down upon if a gentleman was the victim of and but still no names that was his own pleasure he had a right to please himself so let him do all that she mrs for was that she should not be brought in contract with such persons therefore she be ed to be excused from any further attendant on the top set until things were as they formerly was and as they could be wished to be and further mentioned that her little book would be found upon the breakfast table every saturday morning when she requested an immediate settlement of the same with the benevolent view of saving trouble and an ill to all parties after this mrs confined herself to making on the stairs principally with and to into breaking her legs i found it rather to live in this state of siege but was too much afraid of mrs to see any way out of it my dear cried appearing at my door in spite of all these obstacles how do you do my dear said i i am delighted to see you at last and very sorry i have not been at home before but i have been so much engaged � yes yes i know said of course yours lives in london i of � what did yon say she � excuse me � miss d you know said in his great delicacy lives in london i believe oh yes near london mine perhaps you recollect said with a serious look lives down in � one of ten consequently i am not so much engaged as you � in that sense i wonder yon can bear i returned to see her so seldom � said thoughtfully � it does seem a wonder i suppose it is because there s no help for it i suppose so i replied with a smile and not without a blush and because you have so constancy and patience dear me said considering about it do z strike you in that way i didn t know that i had but she is such an dear girl herself that it s possible she may have imparted something of those virtues to me now you mention it i shouldn t wonder at all i assure you she is always forgetting herself and taking of the other nine is she the eldest i inquired h dear no said the eldest is a beauty he saw i suppose that i could not help smiling at the simplicity of this reply and added with a smile upon his own face not of course but that my pretty name i always think the personal and � g very pretty said i not of course but that is beautiful too in my eyes and would be one of the dearest girls that ever was in anybody s eyes i should think but when i say the | 8 |
he w g lo watch her with from the to ue had thrown him be aa i did for job u me i could not know � i do t ow w � will feel me i hare fo that tc love me i am mother t� i lave or heard of me ah life i i chose better for too being me i did ot k that i deprived of thing worth yoa not with me to that affection have been worth having finding that the paused as if the expected him to make a � i don t mean to ill of aid the with proud but i had much affection to give jou i did not want i lad been with il i wanted to live out the life that was in me and not to be with other lives you wonder what i was i was no princess then she rose with a sudden movement and stood as she had done before rose too be felt breathless no princess in this tame life that i live in sow i was a great and i acted as well as i sung all rest poor beside me men followed me from one country to another i was living a lives in one i did not want a child there was a passionate ease in w book � thk and thk son cast all precedent oat of precedent had no for her and she could only seek a justification in the words she could find for her experience she seemed to fling out the last words against some possible reproach in the mind of her son who had to stand and hear h his coat collar as if he were keeping himself above water by it� and feeling his blood in the sort of commotion that might been excited if ho had seen her going through some strange of a religion which gave a to crime wliat else had she to tell him she went on with the same intensity and a sort of pale illumination in her face i did not want to marry i was forced into marrying your father � forced i mean by my father s wishes and commands and besides it was my best way of getting some freedom i could rule my husband but not my father i had a right to be free i had a right to seek my freedom from a bondage that i hated she seated herself again while there was that subtle movement in her eyes and closed lips which is like the suppressed of speech continued standing and after a moment or two she looked up at him with a less defiant pleading as she said and the bondage i hated for myself i wanted to keep you from better could the most loving mother have done t i relieved you from the bondage of having been bom a jew then i am a jew f burst out with a deep energy that made his mother shrink a little backward against her my father was a jew and you are a f yes your father was my cousin said the mother watching him with a change in her look as if she saw something that she might have to be afraid of i am glad of it said in the veiled voice of passion ho could not have imagined beforehand how ho would come to say that which ho had never hitherto admitted he could not have dreamed that it would be in impulsive opposition to his mother lie was shaken by a mixed anger which no reflection could come soon enough to check against this mother who it seemed had borne him unwillingly had willingly made herself a stranger to him and � n a was bow known this last suspicion seemed to flash some explanation over her speech but the mother was shaken by an anger differently mixed and her frame was less equal to any the shaking with her was visibly physical and her eyes looked the for her pallid excitement as she said violently why do yon say yon are glad f you are an english i secured you that you did not know what you secured me could yon choose my for said throwing himself sideways into his chair again almost unconsciously and leaning his arm over the back while he looked away from his mother lie was fired with an that seemed foreign to him bnt ho was now trying hard to master himself and keep silent a horror had swept in upon his anger lest he should say something too hard in this moment which made an epoch never to bo recalled there was a pause before his mother spoke again and when she spoke her voice had become more firmly in its finely varied tones i chose for you what i would have for myself could i know that you would have the spirit of my father in you f could i know that you would love what i hated � if you really love to be a jew the last words had such bitterness in them that any one might have supposed some hatred had arisen between the mother and son but had recovered his fuller self lie was recalling his to what life had been and actually was for her whose best years were gone and who with the signs of suffering in her frame was now herself to tell him of a past which was not his alone but also hers his habitual shame at the acceptance of events as if they were his only helped him even here as he looked at his mother silently after her last words his face regained some of its calm yet it seemed to have a strangely influence over her her eyes were fixed on him with a sort of fascination but not with any repose of maternal delight | 14 |
had a broad white face little eyes and grey whiskers it declared it only caught for their good and for the good of the community it assured he was guilty of a grave error of judgment in attempting to interfere it said a great deal about moral responsibility and the heavy obligations persons of wealth and position owe to themselves just then carrying a square s tin containing an infernal machine under his arm his countenance radiant in the sunshine came down the steps from the dining room window and while ran to greet him the cat crept back the far horizon again � its face was the face of sir barking and it made a spring at the but the pillar broke and the basin over it across the down on to the under the edge of the stone lip oh you ve spoilt my garden you ve spoilt my garden cried the basin has fallen the will never wash in it any more but patted him on the head tenderly do not weep over the fallen basin very dear one he said rather sing aloud te in praise of the glorious goddess of social revolution who has delivered the enemy of the people into our hands this is no affair of cat and bird but of the and the on which he so for a little space let the creature lie there let it understand what it is to have a back broken by the weight of an impossible burden let it try vainly to drag its limbs from beneath an immovable load observe it let it suffer very soon we will finish with it and the system it represents see in the name of humanity of labour of the unknown and millions of the poor i set a match to this good little and with the rapidity of thought blow tyrant capital into a thousand fragments of flesh and bone but to the little boy words and spectacle alike had become painful no no you cannot cure everything that way it is not just he cried and running forward with all his strength he lifted the stone basin off the wounded creature � cat man beast of prey modem be it it might he stopped to gather it up in his arms and repulsive though it was to comfort and protect it but just then came a rattle and h knocking him senseless the far horizon mr sat bolt upright in his chair uncertain of his identity and surroundings shaken and bewildered upstairs de � spent and by the writing of a would be smart on the first night performance of a screaming farce for one of to morrow s evening papers � had stumbled the fire irons as he across his room to bed heard the of the wire as the man flung himself down and that familiar sound restored his sense of actual yet all his mood was changed and softened the return to childhood had made a strange impression upon him filling him with a great for things apparently lost but exquisite and which having once been might though he knew not by what conceivable of time or chance once again be meanwhile he must have slept long for the wind had grown chill the voice of london the monstrous mother had grown weak and and the earthly light along the horizon had grown faint and by the whiteness of approaching dawn chapter iv a e range of high oak well well innocent of or to the human eye visible above it the heads of enormous elm trees in sunshine rising towards the ample curve of the summer sky at intervals with tumultuous rush and the of the hoofs of unseen horses galloping for all they are worth over grass the and rub of breeches against saddle the rattle of a chain or the rings of a bit a call a challenge smothered exclamations the long drawn of the stick through the air and the of the wooden head of it against ball or ground or something softer and more a pause broken only by distant voices and the sound or rather sense of men and horses in quiet and friendly movement followed by the tumultuous rush and and all the moving incidents of the heard yet drama over again for here it was that gallant and costly game beloved of oriental princes � rather described to mr yesterday by the driver of the as a kind of on horseback � in very full swing no doubt only unfortunately found himself on the wrong side of the and since he had learned indirectly from the observations of the police � directing the stream of carriages at the entrance gates � to other would be spectators that to the ground as to so much else obviously desirable in this world there is no admission except by ticket on the wrong side of these same the far horizon he recognised he was fated to stay it was a disappointment not to say an annoyance for he had come forth in accordance with his determination to make observations and inquiries regarding that same matter of amusement and since the influence of that which is to be acts upon us if not quite as strongly as the influence of that which has been the handsome eager countenance of young barking and the graceful figure of his fair companion as seen from the occurred very forcibly in this connection to mind he would go forth and behold that which they had gone forth to behold he would witness the sports of the and rich from these he elected somewhat proudly to take his first lessons in the fine art of amusement so here he was and here too � very much here � were the failure and of purpose fortunately unwonted exercise and the pure atmosphere tended to and agreeable harmony of the mental and physical being it followed | 32 |
done i am not going to be crushed in everything depend upon it i ve been more used ban anybody ever was in this world hers she began to cry and sob and may expect the worst treatment from yon i know bat i don t care for that no i don t mr was made so desperate by the load tone in which she spoke that after looking about him in frantic uncertainty for some means of softening it he rose and shook her until the ornamental bow of hair upon her head nodded like a she was so very much astonished by this assault mat it really had the desired effect i do it again cried mr as he resumed his seat and fetched his breath if yon dare to talk in that loud manner how do you mean about being used if mr chose your sister in preference to you who could help it i should wish to know what have j to do with it wasn t i made a convenience of t my feelings with didn t he address himself to me first sobbed cherry clasping her hands and oh good gracious that i should live to be shook you live to be shaken again returned her parent if you drive me to that means of maintaining the decorum of this humble roof you surprise me i wonder you have not more spirit if mr didn t care for you how could you wish to have him i wish to have him exclaimed cherry i wish to here him pa then what are you making all this piece of work for retorted her father if you didn t wish to have him because i was treated with said cherry and because my own sister and my own father against me i am not angry with her said cherry looking much more angry than ever i pity her i m bony for her i know the fate that s in store for her with that wretch mr will survive your calling him a wretch my child i say said mr with returning re life and of but call him what you like and make an end of it not an end pa said charity no not an end that s not the only point on which we re not agreed i won t submit to it it s better you should know that at once no i won t submit to it indeed pa i am not quite a fool and i am not blind all i have got to say is i won t submit to it whatever she meant she shook mr now for his lame attempt to seem composed was melancholy in the last degree his anger changed to and his words were mild and my dear he said if in the short excitement of an angry moment i resorted to any means of a little outbreak calculated to injure you as well as myself � it s possible i may have done so perhaps i did � i ask your pardon a father asking pardon of his child said mr is i believe a spectacle to soften the most rugged nature but it didn t at all soften miss perhaps because her nature was not rugged enough on the contrary she persisted in saying over and over again that she wasn t quite a fool and wasn t blind and wouldn t submit to it you labour under some mistake my child said mr but i will not ask you what it is i don t desire to know no pray he added holding out his hand and colouring again let us avoid the subject my dear whatever it is it s quite right that the subject should be avoided between us sir said cherry but i wish to be able to avoid it altogether and consequently must beg you to provide me with a home mr looked about the room and said a home my child another home papa said cherry with increasing place me at mrs s or somewhere on an independent footing but i will not live here if such is to be the case it is possible that miss saw in mrs s a vision of enthusiastic men to fall in adoration at her feet it is possible that mr in his new born saw in the suggestion of that same establishment an easy means of himself from an irksome charge in the way of temper and it is undoubtedly a fact that in the attentive ears of mr the proposition did not sound quite like the dismal of all his hopes but he was a man of great feeling and acute sensibility and he squeezed his pocket handkerchief against his eyes with both hands � as such men always do especially when they are observed one of my birds mr said has left me for the stranger s breast the other would take wing to s well well what am i i don t know what i am exactly never mind even this remark made more pathetic perhaps by his breaking down in the middle of it had no effect upon charity she was grim rigid and but i have ever said mr sacrificed my children s happiness to my own � i mean my own happiness to my children s � and i will not begin to my life by other rules of conduct now if you can be happier at mrs s than in your father s house my dear go to mrs s do not think of me my girl said mr with emotion i shall get on pretty well no doubt miss charity who knew he had a secret pleasure in the contemplation of the proposed change suppressed her own and went on to the terms his views upon this subject were at first so very limited that another difference possibly another shaking | 8 |
desires t nice to miss powers grand hotel have lost all at have learnt that d s returns here to morrow please send me one hundred pounds by him and save me from disgrace will await him at eleven o clock and four on the � � � � � i a chapter v five hours after the despatch of that captain de was rattling along the coast railway of the from to nice he was returning to england by way of but before turning he had engaged to perform on miss power s account a peculiar and somewhat disagreeable duty this was to place in s hands a hundred and twenty five which had been demanded from her by a message in s name the money was in his pocket � all in gold in a canvas bag tied up by s own hands which he had observed to tremble as she tied it as he leaned in the comer of the carriage he was thinking over the events of the morning which had in that liberal response at ten o clock before he had gone out from the hotel where he had taken up his quarters which was not the same as the one by and her friends he had been summoned to her presence in a manner so unexpected as to imply that something serious was in question on entering her room he had been by the absence of that independence usually apparent in her bearing towards him notwithstanding the with which he had hovered near her for the previous month and gradually by the position of his sister and the favour of s uncle in one of � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � dare and de io s letters and several of his established himself as an intimate member of the travelling party his entry however this time as always had had the effect of a and it was quite with her customary self possession that she had told him of the object of her message you think of returning to nice this afternoon she inquired de informed her that such was his intention and asked if he could do anything for her there then he remembered she had hesitated i have received a she said at length and so she allowed to escape her bit by bit the information that her whose name she seemed reluctant to utter had travelled from england to nice that week partly to consult her partly for a holiday trip that he had gone on to had there lost his money and got into difficulties and had appealed to her to help him out of them by the immediate advance of some ready cash it was a sad case an unexpected case she murmured with her eyes fixed on the window indeed she could not comprehend it to de there appeared nothing so very extraordinary in s apparent except in so far as that he should have applied to for relief from his instead of elsewhere it was a which a lover would have avoided at all costs he thought yet after a momentary reflection on his theory of s character it seemed sufficiently natural that he should lean persistently on if only with a view of keeping himself linked to her memory without thinking too profoundly of his i a own dignity that the esteem in which she had held up to that hour suffered a tremendous blow by his apparent scrape was clearly visible in her as she was and de while pitying thanked him in his mind for having given a rival an advantage which that rival s attentions had never been able to gain of themselves after a little further conversation she had said since you are to be my messenger i must tell you that i have decided to send the hundred pounds asked for and you will please to deliver them into no hands but his own a curious little blush crept over her face � perhaps it was a blush of shame at the conduct of the young man in whom she had of late been suspiciously interested � as she added he will be on the at four this afternoon and again at eleven to morrow can you meet him there certainly de replied she then asked him rather anxiously how he could account for mr knowing that he captain de was about to return to nice de informed her that he left word at the hotel of his intention to return which was quite true moreover there did not in his mind at the moment of speaking the faintest suspicion that had seen dare she then tied the bag and handed it to him leaving him with a serene and impenetrable bearing which he hoped for his own sake meant an acquired indifference to and his fortunes her sending the a sum of money which she could easily spare might be set down to natural generosity t � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � dare and t e i towards a man with whom she was for the improvement of her home she came back to him again for a moment could you possibly get there before four this afternoon she asked and he informed her that he could just do so by leaving almost at once which he was very willing to do though by so his time he would lose the projected morning with her and the rest at the i may tell you that i shall not go to the either if it is any consolation to you to know it was her reply i shall sit indoors and think of you on your journey the answer had admitted of two but her manner had inclined him to the that her reason | 45 |
still life or vision in his artistic tenderness of conscience and scrupulous self mastery of hand he so closely mr as once at least to provoke the same doubtful sense of jealous and admiring a notable instance of this refined william excess in conscience is the exquisite of the originally exquisite second line in the to evening such things will make us now and then whether some subtle and noble scruple may not in this case also have robbed us of jewels only less costly than two from the text of the miller s daughter full of the colour and breath and of a april twilight if not even of some rapture as rare and precious as we are now forbidden to renew by of the far and fairy light the clear melody of the once revealed and long yet i think and trust he would hardly have left so lovely and a child of his early genius to fade into compelled and unnatural forgetfulness while the brother poem beside which this had appeared as a sister was so refreshed with new blood and into beauty of more wide and deep delight as were the revived and but may claim of us a yet note of praise than this and it is one which could hardly have been sounded by the mouth of his good and true friend johnson he was the first english poet after milton s voice for the upon earth fell silent to blow again the of republican faith and freedom to with the passion of a rapture the divine right and the duty of he too in the high toned phrase of mr like milton and was with us they watch from their graves and on this of the summit of fair fame he stands alone between the of milton and the sunrise of i hardly think there are much nobler verses in all english than those in which the new fancy indeed has sung the sword that rid the sunlight of the first for all her evil report among men on the score of passive obedience and culture oxford has now and then turned out � in a double sense we might say with reference to � sons who have loved the old cause as well as any reared by the nursing mother of milton there is yet another memorable bond of communion which the fame of with that of milton in the past and with that of in the future between the on edward king and the on john came the far and softer note yet full of sweet native purity and sincerity by which set the seal of a gentle on the grave of the the english poets a note to be as gently echoed by in of his own sweeter song and end the mention of s name reminds me of another but a casual coincidence between the fortunes of that great poet s work and of this his and s in both cases the generally accepted of their labour seems to me by no means the poem acceptable as such mr with the loyalty and sound discretion of a wise has noted as much in the case of it is no less a truth in the case of as surely as for instance the to duty is a work of greater perfection and more perfect greatness than that on the of immortality the on the passions is a work of less equal and purity of excellence than for example is the to evening yet of course its grace and vigour its vivid and dexterity of touch are worthy of all their long inheritance of praise and altogether it holds out admirably well to the happy and harmonious end whereas the very to liberty after an worthy of milton s or of s es a that as from beneath the hand of the thunder bearer steadily through many noble but ever less and less noble verses towards a final showing not so much the of failure as the of living both in an age and after an age of critical poetry always alien alike from the better and from the worse influences of his day has shown at least as plentiful a lack of any slightest critical instinct or training as ever did any poet on record in his to on that worthy knight s edition of shakespeare but his though inferior to gray s are generally spirited and competent as well as and smooth the direct sincerity and purity of their positive and straightforward inspiration will always keep his poems fresh and sweet to the senses of all men he was a solitary song bird among many more or less excellent and he could put more spirit of colour into a single stroke more breath of music into a single note than could all the rest of his generation into all the labours of their lives and the sweet name and the memory of his genius could only pass away with all relics and all records of poetry in england charles william to who shall awake the and call in solemn sounds to life the youths whose locks spreading like in sullen hue at once the breath of fear and virtue shedding freedom loved of old to view what new fancy shall sing the sword in at wisdom s shrine awhile its flame concealing what place so fit to seal a deed renowned till she her brightest round revealing it leaped in glory forth and dealt her prompted wound o goddess in that feeling hour when most its sounds would court thy ears let not my shell s power e er draw thy sad thy tears no freedom no i will not tell how rome before thy weeping face with heaviest sound a giant statue fell pushed by 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the first comers who had more wants and more elegant that is to say desires than themselves in entering upon a newly discovered therefore the new comers were but taking of what according to the doctrine was their own property � therefore in opposing them the savages were their just rights the of nature and the will of they were guilty of and on the case � therefore they were hardened af god and they ought to be but a more in right than either that f ham mentioned and the one which will be the most admitted by my reader provided be be blessed with of charity and is the right acquired bj civilization all the world knows the lamentable state i which these poor savages were found not only in the comforts of life but what is still and unfortunately blind to the miseries of situation but no sooner did the benevolent of europe behold their sad condition than they went to work to and improve it introduced among them rum gin brandy and the comforts of life � and it is astonishing to read how sow the poor savages learnt to estimate these blessings they likewise made known to them a thousand which the most diseases are tm healed and that they might comprehend the benefits and enjoy the comforts of these they among them the diseases which they i to care by these and a variety of methods was the condition of these poor savages wonder new fully they acquired a wants of which tbey had before been ignorant and as he has most of happiness who has most wants to be gratified were rendered a much happier race of but the most important branch of civilization and has most been by the zealous lad pious of the is the of the christian it was truly a that might inspire horror to behold these savages stumbling the dark mountains of and guilty of the horrible ignorance of religion it is true they stole nor they were sober and to their word but though they acted habitually it was all in rain unless they acted so torn the new comers therefore used every to induce them to embrace and practise the true � except indeed that of setting them the example but notwithstanding all these complicated labours for heir good such was the obstinacy of these wretches that they refused t� the strangers as their and in he doctrines they endeavoured to most from their conduct be of christianity did not seem to believe in it was not this too much for human patience not one suppose that the from provoked at their incredulity and discouraged by stiff obstinacy would for ever have their shores and consigned them to their original ignorance and misery � but no � so zealous were they to effect the comfort and eternal salvation of these p n that they even proceeded from the means of persuasion to the more painful and troublesome of persecution � let loose among them whole troops of and furious � them by fire and sword by stake and in consequence of which le measures the cause of christian love and charity was so rapidly advanced that in a very few not one fifth of the number of existed m south america that were found there at the time of its discovery what stronger right need the european ov to the have whole of been made acquainted with a imperious and indispensable of whidi were before wholly ignorant � hare they not been literally hunted and smoked out of the and lurking places of ignorance and and absolutely into the right path � hare not the the rain and filthy of this world which were too apt to engage their and selfish thoughts been taken from them and hare they not instead been taught to set their affections on things � and finally to use the words of a spanish in a letter to his superior in spain � can any one hare the presumption to say that these hare yielded any thing more an to their in to them a little pitiful tract of this dirty planet in exchange a glorious inheritance in the kingdom of here then are three complete and sources of right established any one of which was more than ample to a property in the newly regions of america now so it has happened in certain parts of this delightful quarter of the globe that the of has been so asserted tiie of so extended and the progress � i aiid civilization so that what with their attendant wars diseases and other partial that often bang on the skirts of great benefits the hare how or another been utterly and this all s once brings to a fourth right which is worth all tb others put together for the original to the so being all dead aud buried and no other remaining to or dispute the soil the ds as the next occupants entered upon the possession as clearly as t hai man to the of � a as they have and all the learned of the law on their side they may set all actions of ment at defiance � and this last right may be entitled mt or in words by c ba b ii c � t lest of remain ob and to settle tbe of right for pope alexander vi a built j k be the newly discovered quarter e globe to the and who thai ig and gospel on their side and being great showed the pagan savages ir nor bat tbe work of discovery civilization and with ten than ever ml were the who first discovered clearly entitled to the soil and not only entitled e hat likewise to the eternal thanks of these a lor having come so endured so many by and land and taken such pains � other purpose but to improve forlorn | 48 |
nothing could restore him with a faith unbroken a character to nothing could do away the knowledge of what the latter had through his means nor remove the guilt of his conduct towards nothing could him therefore in her former esteem nor injure the interests of colonel had mrs like her daughter heard s story from himself � had she witnessed his distress and been under the influence of his countenance and his manner � it is probable that her compassion would have been greater but it was neither in s power nor in her wish to rouse such feelings in another by her explanation as had at first been called forth in herself reflection had given calmness to her judgment and her own opinion of s deserts she wished therefore to declare only the simple truth and lay open such facts as were really due to his character without any of tenderness to lead the fancy astray in the evening when they were all three together began voluntarily to speak of him again but that it was not without an effort the restless in which she had been for some time previously sitting her rising colour as she spoke and her unsteady voice plainly showed t sense and i wish to e you both she that i every thing as u can desire me to do mi dash wood would have interrupted her instantly soothing s had not who really wished t hear her sister s opinion by an eager sign engaged her silence slowly continued � it is a great relief to me what told me this morning i have now heard exactly what i wished to for some moments her voice was lost but she added and with greater calmness than before j � i am now perfectly satisfied i wish for no change never could have been with mm after knowing as sooner or later i must have known all this i should have had no no esteem nothing could have done it away to my feelings know it i know it cried her mother happy a man of with one who had so injured the peace of the dearest of our friends and the best of men i no � my has not a heart to be made happy with a man her conscience her sensitive conscience have felt all that the conscience of her husband ought to have felt sighed and repeated i wish for no you consider the matter said as i good mind and a sound understanding must consider it and i dare say you perceive as well as myself not only in this in many other circumstances j reason to be convinced that your marriage must have involved you in many certain troubles and disappointments in which yon would have been poorly by an affection on his side much less certain had you married yon must have been always poor his is acknowledged even by himself and whole conduct declares that self denial is a word hardly understood by liim his demands and your together on a small very i income must have brought on would not be the less grievous to you from been entirely ti t du ht of e of and honesty would liave led yon i w en e of your to attempt all the economy that would appear to you and perhaps as as your on your own comfort you might have been suffered to it but beyond that � and bow little could tbe of your single management do to the ruin which had begun before your marriage beyond am f had you endeavoured j however reasonably to u is it not to be feared that instead of prevailing on feelings bo to consent to it you would have lessened your own influence on his heart and made him regret tbe which bad him in such difficulties s lips quivered and she repeated the word selfish t in that implied do you really think him the whole of his behaviour replied from the beginning to the end of the affair has been on it was selfishness which first made him sport witli affections which afterwards when bis own were engaged made him delay the confession of it and which finally carried him from his own enjoyment or his own ease i was in every particular his ra ling principle it is veiy true my happiness never was bis object at present continued be regrets what done and why does he regret it because he finds it not answered towards himself it has not made him happy his are now be suffers from no evil of that kind and he thinks only that he has married a woman of a less amiable temper than yourself but does it ce follow that bad he married you he would have been y the would been different he then have suffered under the pecuniary they are removed be now as he would have bad a wife of whose temper he could make no complaint j bat he would have been always � always poor and probably would soon t j s x o and the com of a clear estate and good of far importance even to domestic happiness than the mere temper of a wife i have not a doubt of it said and i have nothing to regret � nothing but my own folly say your mother s my child mrs dash wood she must be � not let her proceed and that each felt their own error wished to avoid any s of the past that might her sister s spirits she therefore pursuing the first subject immediately continue � owe observation may i think be fairly drawn from the whole of the � that all s difficulties have arisen from the 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better we can put up with the loneliness said with less zest some friends will come no doubt all this being laid down a travelled was called in � a man of many gifts and great experience � and on a fine morning away and pupil went a great reason urged against accompanying her youthful husband was that his attentions to her would naturally be such as to prevent his every hour of his time to learning and seeing � an argument of wise and regular days for were fixed and her exchanged their last kisses at the door and the chaise swept under the into the drive he wrote to her from le as soon as he reached that port which was not for seven days on account of adverse winds he wrote from and from paris described to her his sight of the king and court at and the wonderful marble work and in that palace wrote next from then after a comparatively long interval from his fearful adventures in crossing on and how he was overtaken with a terrific which had well nigh been the end of him and his and his guides then he wrote of italy and could see the development of her husband s mind reflected in his letters month by month and she much admired the of her father in suggesting this education for yet she sighed sometimes a group of noble � her husband being no longer in evidence to her in her choice of him � and timidly dreaded what might be in store for her by reason of this she went out very little for on the one or two occasions on which she had shown herself to former friends she noticed a distinct difference in their manner as though they should say ah my happy s wife you re caught s letters were as affectionate as ever even more affectionate after a while than hers were to him observed this growing coolness in herself and like a good and honest lady was and grieved since her only wish was to act faithfully and it troubled her so much that she prayed for a warmer heart and at last wrote to her husband to beg him now that he was in the land of art to send her his portrait ever so small that she might look at it all day and every day and never for a moment forget his features was nothing loth and replied that he would do more than she wished he had made friends with a in who was much interested in him and his history and he had this artist to make a bust of himself in marble which when finished he would send her what had wanted was something immediate but she expressed no objection to the delay and in his next communication told her that the of his own choice had decided to increase the bust to a full length statue so anxious was he to get a specimen of his skill introduced to the notice of the english aristocracy it was well and rapidly meanwhile s attention began to be occupied a group of noble at home with lodge the house that her father was preparing for her residence when her husband returned it was a small place on the plan of a large one � a cottage built in the form of a mansion having a central hall with a wooden gallery running round it and rooms no bigger than to follow this introduction it stood on a slope so solitary and surrounded by trees so dense that the birds who inhabited the boughs sang at strange hours as if they hardly could distinguish night from day during the progress of at this bower frequently visited it though so secluded by the dense growth it was near the high road and one day while looking over the fence she saw lord riding past he saluted her courteously yet with mechanical and did not halt went home and continued to pray that she might never cease to love her husband after that she and did not come out of doors again for a long time the year of education had extended to fourteen months and the house was in order for s return to take up his abode there with when instead of the accustomed letter for her came one to sir john in the handwriting of the said informing him of a terrible catastrophe that had occurred to them at mr and himself had attended the theatre one night during the of the preceding week to witness the italian comedy when owing to the carelessness of one of the candle the theatre had caught fire and been burnt to the ground few persons had lost their lives owing to the exertions of some of the audience in getting out the senseless a group of noble and among them all he who had risked his own life the most was mr in for the fifth time to save his fellow creatures some fiery beams had fallen upon him and he had been given up for lost he was however by the blessing of providence recovered with the life still in him though he was fearfully burnt and by almost a miracle he seemed likely to survive his constitution being sound he was of course unable to write but he was receiving the attention of several skilful further report would be made by the next mail or by private hand the said nothing in detail of poor s sufferings but as soon as the news was broken to she realized how intense they must have been and her immediate instinct was to rush to his side though on consideration 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of the sea i understood � the bay of where boats were and tall hills that looked like tumbled down castles then came more open country � i suppose � with some sheep once a flock of black ones and then the lovely hues of this rain washed world the water under these dark clouds took on a peculiar it looked at times like steel � at times like muddy lead i felt my heart leap up as i thought of our own george and what he would have done with these scenes and what the english has done though he preferred as a rule another key at four thirty one of the charming english came and asked if we would have tea in the dining car we would we arose and in a few moments were entering one of those dainty little basket cars the tables were covered with white linen and simple pretty china and a silver tea service it was n t as if you were at all i felt as though i were stopping at the house a at forty of a friend or as though i were in the comer of some well known and friendly inn tea was served we ate toast and talked cheerfully this whole trip � the landscape the dining car this tea miss x and her lover miss e and � finally enveloped my fancy like a dream i realized that i was a novel situation which would not soon come again the idea of this pretty mistress coming to england to join her lover and so frankly admitting her history and her purpose rather took my mind as an intellectual treat you really don t often get to see this sort of thing i don t it s in its flavor to me being a man of the world took it as a matter of course � his sole idea being i fancy that the refinement of personality and thought involved in the situation were sufficient to permit him to it i always judge his emotion by that one gleaming eye behind the the other does not take my attention so much i knew from his attitude that and morals and things like that had nothing to do with his selection of what he would consider interesting personal companionship were they interesting could they tell him something new would they amuse him were they nice � in their clothing in their manners in the hundred little material which make up a fashionable lady or gentleman if so welcome if not hence and talent oh yes he had a keen eye for talent and he loves the exceptional and will obviously do anything and everything within his power to foster it having started so late it grew nearly dark after tea and the distant were not so easy to we came presently in the mist to a place called i think where were great black and the ride to london and lights burning wistfully in the dark and then to another similar place and finally to a third � great of manufacture i should judge for there were flaming lights from great golden from open and dark blue smoke visible even at this hour from tall overhead and gleaming electric lights like bright diamonds i never see this sort of place but i think of and and the of western along the line of the railroad i shall never forget the first time i saw and and saw how was fired it was on my way to new york i had never seen any mountains before and suddenly after the low flat plains of and with their pretty little wooden villages so suggestive of the new life of the new world we rushed into and then the mountains of western the it was somewhat like this night coming from only it was not so rainy the hills rose tall and green the of with a red gleam mile after mile until i thought it was the most wonderful sight i had ever seen and then came the beyond mile after mile of them glowing down in the low valleys between the tall hills where our train was following a stream bed it seemed a great sad heroic thing then to me � plain day labor those common ignorant men working before flaming stripped to the waist in some instances fascinated my imagination i have always at the of nature � the way it will give one man a low brow and a narrow mind a narrow round of thought and make a slave or horse of him and another a light mind a quick wit and a at forty air and make a gentleman of him no human being can solve either the question of ability or utility is your gentleman useful yes and no perhaps is your useful yes and no perhaps i should say obviously yes but see the differences in the reward of labor � physical labor one eats his hard earned crust in the sweat of his face the other pick at his of courses and wonders why this or that doesn t taste better i did not make my mind i did not make my art i cannot choose my taste except by instinct and yet here i am sitting in a comfortable english home as i write the poor working man i nature here and now as i always do and always shall do as being unfair unjust i see in the whole thing no scheme but an accidental one � no justice save accidental justice now and then in a way some justice is done but it is accidental no individual man seems to will it he can t he doesn t know how he can t think how and there s an end of it but these queer weird hard sad cities � what great writer has yet sung the song of | 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for seven months it is rarely accessible except on snow shoes it never in the dense forests which bound it and two thirds of its gaunt are of brown bears wolves deer and on its margin i found an irregular wooden inn with a at the door on which war the of a large bear shot behind tho house this morning i had intended to ride ten miles farther but ending that the trail in some places was a blind one and being by the beauty and serenity a lady s life v of i have remained here in the view from the and strolling in the forest at this height there is frost every night of the year and my fingers are the beauty is the sinking sun is out of sight behind the western and all the on this side of the water are rich just with lake deepening here and there into purple the peaks above which still catch the sun are bright rose red and all the mountains on the other side are pink and pink too are the far off on which the snow rest red and orange tints stain the still water which lies solemn and dark against the shore under the shadow of stately pines an hour later and a moon nearly full � not a pale flat but a radiant sphere � has wheeled up into the flushed sky the sunset has passed through every stage of beauty through every glory of colour through riot and triumph through pathos and tenderness into a long dreamy rest succeeded by the profound solemnity of the moonlight and a stillness broken only by the night cries of beasts in the f l l b the mountains letter ii a lady s � � get up � the of h � a tragic a of colour september as night came on the cold and the stove in the parlour attracted every one a san lady much got up in paint green velvet lace and diamonds rattled for the amusement of the company giving descriptions of persons and scenes in a western without the slightest scruple as to what she said in a few years will be in summer with similar vulgarity owing to its of access i sustained the reputation which our bear in america by looking a perfect and feeling that i was a point for the speaker s next sally i was relieved when the landlady a asked me to join herself and her family in the bar room where we had much talk about the neighbourhood and its wild beasts especially bears the forest is full of them but they seem never to attack people unless when o lady s life in ite u wounded or much by dogs or a thinks you are going to her young i of bears so vividly that i woke with a death at my throat but feeling quite refreshed when i mounted my horse after breakfast the sun was high and the air so keen and that giving the animal his head i galloped up and down hill feeling completely truly that air is the of life i had a glorious ride back to the road was not as solitary as the day before in a deep part of the forest the horse and reared and i saw a bear with two cross the track ahead of me i tried to keep the horse quiet that the mother might me of any designs upon her children but i was glad when the party crossed the river then i met a team the driver of which stopped and said he was glad that i had not gone to bay it was such a bad trail and hoped i had enjoyed the driver of another team stopped and asked if i had seen any bears then a man heavily armed a hunter probably asked me if i were the english who had happened on a yesterday then i saw a taking his dinner on a rock the river who touched his hat and brought me a draught of ice cold water which i could hardly wing to the of the horse and ii the mountains gathered me some mountain which i admired i mention these little incidents to indicate the habit of respectful courtesy to women which in that region these men might hare been excused for speaking in a somewhat free and easy tone to a lady riding alone and in an unwonted fashion womanly dignity and manly respect for women are the salt of society in this wild west my horse was so that i avoided the centre of and through a collection of s to the stable where a prodigious horse standing seventeen hands high was produced for my ride to the lake i asked the owner who was as interested in my enjoying myself as a west might have been if there were not about who might make an evening ride dangerous a story was current of a man having ridden through two evenings before with a up human body in a sack behind the saddle and hosts of stories of are there rightly or this man said there s a bad breed of but the among them all won t touch you there s nothing western folk admire so much as pluck in a woman i had to get on a barrel before i could reach the and when i was mounted my feet only came half way down the horse s sides i felt like a fly on him the road first lay through a valley without a lady s life in h a but some nourished some rank swamp grass the first green grass i have seen in america and the pines with their red stems looked beautiful rising out of it i hurried along and came upon the lake quite suddenly to be completely smitten by its beauty it is | 20 |
not help remembering the gossip about tom and the fact that i saw him coming from the red house i wonder if he has not gone to break away from temptation in new he may turn over a new leaf oh i would so like to write to him and to tell him how much i hope for this fresh start but i hardly like to open the envelope i have been this afternoon to call on miss west the are not exactly of my world but it seemed kind to go if you were really honest you would add that you wanted to see what miss west is like it is all very well to put on airs of disinterested virtue but if george had not spoken of this girl it is rather doubtful whether you would have taken the trouble to go to her in your very best and � and you did put on your very best and wondered while you were doing it whether she would appreciate the lace you bought at i understand you wanted to impress her a little though you did try to make yourself believe that you were only wearing your finest clothes to do honor to her what a you are i the of a saint came to the door and asked me into the parlor where i was left to wait some time before miss west appeared i confessed then to myself how i had really half hoped that she would not be in but now the call is over i am glad to have seen her i am a little confused but i know what she is she is the most beautiful creature i ever saw she has a clear color when she like a red in september the last and the richest of all the of the year then her hair curls about her forehead in such dear little that it is enough to make one want to kiss her she speaks with a funny little western to her r s which might not please me in another but is charming from her lips the mouth that speaks is so pretty yes george was right of ber mind one cannot say quite as much she is not entirely well bred it seemed to me but then we are a little old fashioned in she did notice the and asked me where i got it oh she said when i had told her then you have been abroad yes i said i went with my father judge took you abroad several times did n t he put in yes i went with him three times oh my commented miss west how set up you must feel i don t think i do i answered laughing do you feel set up because you have the west that so few of us have visited why i never thought of that she responded you have n t any of you in the west have you january i have n t at least but that ain t anything to compare with going abroad she continued her face falling and going abroad three times too i should put on airs all the rest of my life if i d done that it is not fair to go on putting down in black and white things that she said without thinking i am ashamed of the satisfaction i found myself taking in her i was even so unfair to her that i could not help thinking that she somehow did not ring true i wonder if a woman can ever be entirely just to another woman who has been praised by the man she cares for if not i will be an exception to my sex i i will not be small and mean just because miss west is so lovely that no man could see her without � well without admiring her greatly january i went down to the mill this afternoon to see daniel and to represent to him the of the faithful at frozen prayer meetings he was standing in the door of the mill which was open to the brisk air and his frock gave a picturesque air to his great figure he greeted me pleasantly as he always does i ve come on business i said your own or somebody s else he asked with a grin not exactly mine i admitted what has aunt sent you for now he demanded i laughed at his penetration you are too sharp to be deceived i said aunt did send me they tell me you are trying to destroy the church by them all to death at the prayer meetings the of a saint aunt can t be frozen she s too dry that is n t at all a nice thing to say i said smiling you can t cover your by her he showed his teeth and settled himself against the door post more comfortably why did n t she come herself he inquired she said that she was afraid you d pop her into the you see what a monster you are considered i would n t be willing to spoil my meal daniel likes to play at and if he had ever had a chance might have some skill at it as it is i like to see how he it if i am not always impressed by the wit of what he says i said why do you the people so in the i have n t known of anybody s being frozen but why don t you have a fire i persisted if you don t want to build it there are boys enough that can be hired how is your mother to day was the only answer the vouchsafed she s very comfortable thank you why don t you have a fire makes folks sleepy he declared and once more oflf abruptly to another subject | 3 |
this foolish place where the gospel is not christianity but drink he is the little god of the dull brain and hundreds of such little gods ride on the backs of the poor english people keeping them in slavery worse than that of the and chain and how strange are the which punish crime and yet do nothing to prevent it the noise of the opening door downstairs was repeated and this time it was followed by the movement of footsteps cautiously peered out through the of his own doorway and saw coming slowly up the stairs his was pale and he was talking to himself as he came i must go to my wife � he said i must look upon her once more as she lies asleep � and then � then i will sleep too beside her anxiously watched him himself unseen as he went by with tread straight to the room where s body lay � the room that had belonged to husband i holy orders and wife he saw him open the door and hesitate � then enter and himself in a rush of tears to the little priest a eyes everything from his view poor poor fellow he said softly � if he could only cry like a woman it would do him good his brain is on fire with sorrow or else it is frozen with despair � perhaps the � sight of her so calm so peaceful so may touch the of healing as for me will pray for him but god forgive m if i say for once it seems but little use and with that he smote his breast and muttered many times for this rash utterance which according to the teaching of his church amounted to that sin against the holy ghost known as presumption of god s and kneeling down he buried h s head in hu hands aad earnestly and the loving pity of for his and ring mean little sleeping as he was accustomed to do all alone in his nursery was disturbed and frightened by a strange dream he thought he saw his mother standing near him � there was a pale brightness all round her like moonlight and she had a white dress on and a wreath of white flowers in her hair she looked at him and said very gently father wants you darling and he was so sleepy that he could not quite understand her � so he rubbed his eyes with his two doubled up little fists and for a moment only stared at her without speaking then she came closer to his bedside and bent over him and kissed him her kiss was so quick and light and warm that it was like a flame and the touch of it woke him up yes he was sure he was wide awake and equally sure that his mother stood there smiling at him though her face was very sad � and she said again � y dear father wants you and he was sorry he had not jumped up before in obedience to her call but he answered now at once � all right are you better to this she did not reply and when he looked at her again she was gone he slipped hastily out of bed and the tragedy of a quiet life stood shivering in his little thinking and wondering what he ought to do nurse slept in the next room and there was an open door between � should he call her and tell her that his mother had come in to see him no � he decided it would be best to do exactly what had told him and go to first so he opened the nursery door very and out with his little bare feet on the staircase landing which was almost dark save for the glimmer of a gas turned low down he paused a trifle scared his mother s bedroom was immediately opposite and he was just making up his mind to go thither when some one came out of it a strange drooping figure of a man with a wild white haggard face and hair � a man piteous and terrible to look at whose eyes glared in front of him as though fixed on some monstrous vision of hell was it could it be his father his little heart beat with fear � he ran a step or two forward he cried � mother says you want me back from him struck by sudden awe mother says mother with hands uplifted as though to ward off a blow or a blessing he stared vaguely at the little white thing shining out of the night s blackness � the little white thing with its crown of golden curls that ran towards him trembling on its small bare feet what what was it a child � or an angel was dead in the room behind there � he had tried to rouse her with kisses and prayers � he had knelt beside her watching for some small sign of returning life that should respond to his love in vain and now had she sent a messenger from heaven to comfort him look at it it seemed of him its sweet small voice cried again mother says you want me a nervous shuddering seized him there was a in his throat and he felt as though he were choking involuntarily he stretched out his arms then he gave a great cry holy orders m had forgotten you i god me i had forgotten her child � mine � life of lives oh yes i want you my darling � god knows i want you � come come come to me � i want you my little little child falling on his knees he gathered up the frightened boy closely in his arms and vn d sobs broke from him hard and passionate while | 33 |
had said what he had in jest or to draw miss out and i expected him to say as much when she was gone and we two were sitting before the fire but he merely asked me what i thought of her she is very clever is she not i asked clever she brings everything to a said and it as she has sharpened her own face and figure these years past she has worn herself away by constant she is all edge what a remarkable that is upon her lip i said s face fell and he paused a moment why the fact is he returned � i did that by an unfortunate accident no i was a young boy and she exasperated me and i threw a hammer at her a promising young angel i must have been i was deeply sorry to have touched on such a painful theme but that was useless now of david she has borne the mark ever since as you see said and she bear it to her grave if she ever rests in one � though i can hardly believe she will ever rest anywhere she was the child of a sort of cousin of my father s he died one day my mother who was then a widow brought her here to be company to her she has a couple of thousand pounds of her own and the interest of it every year to add to the principal there s the history of miss for you and i have no doubt she loves you like a brother said i retorted looking at the fire some brothers are not loved over much and some love � but help yourself we drink the of the field in compliment to you and the lilies of the valley that toil not neither do they spin in compliment to me � the more shame for me a moody smile that had his features cleared off as he said this merrily and he was his own frank winning self again i could not help glancing at the with a painful interest when we went in to tea it was not long before i observed that it was the most susceptible part of her face and that when she turned pale that mark altered first and became a dull lead colored streak out to its full extent like a mark in invisible ink brought to the fire there was a little between her and about a cast of the at � when i thought her for one moment in a storm of rage and then i saw it start forth like the old writing on the wall it was no matter of wonder to me to find mrs devoted to her son she seemed to be able to speak or think about nothing else she showed me his picture as an infant in a with some of his baby hair in it she showed me his picture as he had been when i first knew him and she wore at her breast his picture as he was now all the letters he had ever written to her she kept in a cabinet near her own chair by the fire and she would have read me some of them and i should have been very glad to hear them too if he had not interposed and her out of the design it was at mr s my son tells me that you first became acquainted said mrs as she and i were talking at one table while they played at another indeed i recollect his speaking at that time of a pupil younger than himself who had taken his fancy there but your name as you may suppose has not lived in my memory he was very generous and noble to me in those days i assure you ma am said i and i stood in need of such a friend should have been quite crushed without him he is always generous and noble said mrs proudly i to this with all my heart god knows she knew i did for the of her manner already towards me except when she spoke in praise of him and then her air was always lofty it was not a fit school generally for my son said she far from it but there were particular circumstances to be considered at the time of more importance even than that selection my son s high spirit made it desirable that he should be placed with some man who felt its superiority and would be content to bow himself before it and we found such a man there the personal history and experience i knew that knowing the fellow and yet i did not despise him the more for it but thought it a quality in him � if lie could be allowed any grace for not resisting one so irresistible as my son s great capacity was tempted on there by a feeling of voluntary and conscious pride the fond lady went on to say he would have risen against all but he found himself the monarch of the place and he determined to be worthy of his station it was like himself i echoed with all my heart and that it was like himself so my son took of his own will and on no to the course in which he can always when it is his pleasure every she pursued my son me mr that you were quite devoted to him and that when you met yesterday you made yourself known to him with tears of joy i should be an affected woman if i made any pretence of being surprised by my son s inspiring such emotions but i cannot be indifferent to any one who is so sensible of his merit and i am very glad to see you here and can assure you that he feels an unusual | 8 |
that i am not subject to changes the change that i await here is the great change indeed ma am returned mr with a wandering eye little towards the figure of the little on her knee and of her work from the carpet you look nicely ma am i bear what i have to bear she answered do you what you have to do thank you ma am said mr such is my endeavour you are often in this direction are you not asked mrs why yes ma am said rather so lately i have lately been round this way a good deal owing to one thing and another beg mr and his daughter not to trouble themselves by about me when they wish to see me they know i am here to see them they have no need to trouble themselves to send you have no need to trouble yourself to come not the least trouble ma am said mr you really are looking uncommonly nicely ma am thank you good evening the dismissal and its accompanying finger pointed straight at the door was so and direct that mr did not see his way to his visit he stirred up his hair with his expression glanced at the little figure again said good evening ma am don t come down mrs i know the road to the door and out mrs her chin resting on her hand followed him with attentive and darkly eyes and stood looking at her as if she were spell bound slowly and thoughtfully mrs s eyes turned from the door by which had gone out to little rising from the carpet with her chin drooping more heavily on her hand and her eyes and lowering the sick woman sat looking at her until she attracted her attention little colored under such a gaze and looked down mrs still sat intent little she said when she at last broke silence what do you know of that man i don t know anything of him ma am except that i have seen him about and that he has spoken to me what has he said to you i don t understand what he has said he is so strange but nothing rough or disagreeable why does he come here to see you i don t know ma am said little with perfect frankness you know that he does come here to see you i have fancied so said little but why he should come here or anywhere for that ma am i can t think mrs cast her eyes towards the ground and with her strong set face as intent upon a subject in her mind as it had lately been upon the form that seemed to pass out of her view sat absorbed some minutes elapsed before she came out of this and resumed her hard composure little in the meanwhile had been waiting to go but afraid to disturb her by moving she now ventured to leave the spot where she had been standing since she had risen and to pass gently round little by the wheeled chair she stopped at its side to say good night ma am mrs put out her hand and laid it on her arm little confused under the touch stood faltering perhaps some momentary recollection of the story of the princess may have been in her mind tell me little said mrs have you many friends now very few ma am besides you only miss and � one more meaning said mrs with her finger again pointing to the door that man oh no ma am some friend of his perhaps no ma am little earnestly shook her head oh no no one at all like him or belonging to him well said mrs almost smiling it is no affair of mine i ask because i take an interest in you and because i believe i was your friend when you had no other who could serve you is that so yes ma am indeed it is i have been here many a time when but for you and the work you gave me we should have wanted everything we repeated mrs looking towards the watch once her dead husband s which always lay upon her table are there many of you only father and i now i mean only father and i to keep regularly out of what we get have you undergone many you and your father and who else there may be of you asked mrs speaking deliberately and turning the watch over and over sometimes it has been rather hard to live said little in her soft voice and timid way but i think not harder � as to that � than many people find it that s well said mrs quickly returned that s the truth you are a good thoughtful girl you are a grateful girl too or i much mistake you it is only natural to be that there is no merit in being that said little i am indeed mrs with a gentleness of which the dreaming had never dreamed her to be capable drew down the face of her little and kissed her on the forehead now go little said she or you will be late poor child in all the dreams mistress had been up since she first became devoted to the pursuit she had dreamed nothing more astonishing than this her head ached with the idea that she would find the other clever one kissing little next and then the two clever ones embracing each other and into tears of tenderness for all mankind the idea quite stunned her as she attended the light footsteps down the stairs that the house door might be safely shut little on opening it to let little out she found mr instead of having gone his way as in any less wonderful place and among less wonderful phenomena he might have | 8 |
and parade they selected midnight for the time and our tiny cabin for the place they were from two to three inches long there were hundreds of them and they walked all over us when we attempted to pursue them they left solid footing rose up in the air and fluttered about like humming birds they were much larger than on the but ours are young yet and haven t had a chance to grow the of the also the has big ones six inches long we kill them occasionally usually in s i ve been bitten twice by them both times while i was asleep but poor martin had worse luck after being sick in bed for three weeks the first day he sat up he sat down on one sometimes i think they are the wisest who never go to later on we returned to picked up seven up anchor and started to beat out the treacherous entrance the wind was about the current upon the ugly point of setting strong just as we were on the verge of clearing it and gaining open sea the wind broke off four points the attempted to go about but missed stays two of her had been lost at her one remaining anchor was let go chain was let out to give it a hold on the coral her fin struck bottom and her main and shivered as if about to come down upon our heads she fetched up on the slack of the anchor at the moment a big smashed her the chain parted it was our only anchor the swung around on her heel and drove headlong into the reigned all the below and afraid of the sea dashed panic stricken on deck and got in everybody s way at the same time the boat s crew made a rush for the they knew what going ashore on meant � one hand for the ship and the other hand to fight off the natives what they held on with i don t know and they needed to hold on as the lifted rolled and on the coral the clung in the in the too to watch out for the the whale boat was run out with a tow line in a way to prevent the from being flung farther in toward the while captain and the mate the latter pallid and weak with fever were a scrap anchor from out the and up a stock for it mr with his mission boys arrived in his whale boat to help when the first struck there was not a in sight but like down out of the blue began to arrive from every quarter the boat s crew with at the ready kept them lined up a hundred feet away with a promise of death if they ventured nearer and there they clung a hundred feet away black and ominous crowded with men holding their with their on the perilous edge of the breaking surf in the meantime the were down from the hills armed with arrows and clubs until the beach was with them to matters at least ten of our had been from the very ashore who were waiting for the of the tobacco and trade goods and all that we had on board the was honestly built which is the first essential for any boat that is on a some idea of what she endured may be gained from the fact that in the first twenty four hours she parted two anchor chains and eight our boat s crew was kept busy for the and bending new lines there were times when she parted the chains with and yet she held together tree trunks were brought from ashore and worked the of the under her to save her and but the trunks were and and the ropes that held them to fragments and still she and held together but we were than the a big which had gone ashore on several months previously and been promptly hen of � rushed by the natives the captain and crew succeeded in getting away in the whale boats and the and salt water men her clean of everything after driving wind and blinding rain smote the while a heavier sea was making the lay at anchor five miles to but she was behind a point of land and could not know in the of our at captain s suggestion i wrote a note to captain asking him to bring extra and gear to our aid but not a could be persuaded to carry the letter i offered half a case of tobacco but the grinned and held their bow on to the breaking seas a half a case of tobacco was worth three pounds in two iu even against the strong wind and sea a man could have carried the letter and received in payment what he would have labored half a year for on a plantation i managed to get into a and out to where mr was running an anchor with his whale boat my idea was that he would have more influence over the natives he called the up to him and a score of them clustered around and heard the offer of half a case of tobacco no one spoke i know what you think the missionary called out to them you think plenty tobacco on the and you re going to get it i tell you plenty on you no get tobacco you get bullets at last one man alone in a small took the letter and started waiting for relief work went on steadily on the her water were emptied and sails and started there were lively times on board when the rolled one down and then the other a score of men leaping for life and legs as the trade boxes and pigs of iron rushed across from rail to rail and back again | 21 |
man should not appear mrs showed in her face that she fully recognized the difference between a rich bird in hand and a young bird in the bush she looked him curiously up and down i know you would make anybody a very nice husband she said i know that you would be than many men half your age and though there is a great deal of difference between you and her there have been more a young man turned sixty unequal marriages that s true speaking as her mother i can say that i shouldn t object to you sir for her provided she liked you that is where the difficulty will lie i wish you would help me to get over that difficulty he said gently remember i brought back a husband to you twenty years ago yes you did she assented and though i may say no great things as to happiness came of it i ve always seen that your intentions towards me were none the less noble on that account i would do for you what i would do for no other man and there is one reason in particular which me to help you with � that i should feel absolutely certain i was helping her to a kind husband well that would remain to be seen i would at any rate try to be worthy of your opinion come for old times sake you must help me you never felt anything but friendship in those days you know and that makes it easy and proper for you to do me a good turn now after a little more conversation his old friend promised that she really would do everything that lay in her power she did the well beloved not say how simple she thought him not to perceive that she had already by writing to him been doing everything that lay in her power had created the feeling which prompted his entreaty and to show her good faith in this promise she asked him to wait till later in the evening when might possibly run across to see her who fancied he had won the younger s interest at least by the part he had played upon the rocks the week before had a dread of her in full light till he should have advanced a little further in her regard he accordingly was perplexed at this proposal and seeing his hesitation mrs suggested that they should walk together in the direction whence would come if she came at all he welcomed the idea and in a few minutes they started strolling along under the now strong moonlight and when they reached the gates of castle turning back again towards the house after two or three such walks up and down the gate of the castle grounds and a form came forth which proved to be the expected one as soon as they met the girl recognized in a young man turned sixty her mother s companion the gentleman who had helped her on the shore and she seemed really glad to find that her assistant was claimed by her parent as an old friend she remembered hearing at divers times about this worthy london man of talent and position whose were people of her own isle and possibly from the name of a common stock with her own and you have actually lived in castle yourself mr asked the daughter with her innocent young voice was it long ago yes it was some time ago replied the with a sinking at his heart lest she should say how long it must have been when i was away � or when i was very little i don t think you were away but i don t think i could have been here no perhaps you couldn t have been here i think she was hiding herself in the bed said s mother they talked in this general way till they reached mrs s house but resisted both the widow s invitation and the desire of his own heart and went away with the well beloved out entering to risk by visibly her the advantage that he had already gained or fancied he had gained with the required more courage than he could claim in his present mood such evening as these were frequent during the of that summer moon on one occasion as they were all good it was arranged that they should meet half way between the island and the town in which had lodgings it was impossible that by this time the pretty young should not have guessed the ultimate reason of these to be a matrimonial intention but she inclined to the belief that the widow rather than herself was the object of s regard though why this educated and apparently wealthy man should be attracted by her mother � whose was apparent enough to the girl s more modern training � she could not comprehend they met accordingly in the middle of the bank coming from the and the women from the rock crossing the wooden bridge which connected the bank with the shore proper a young man turned sixty they moved in the direction of henry the eighth s castle on the verge of the cliff like the red king s castle on the island the interior was open to the sky and when they entered and the full moon streamed down upon them over the edge of the the whole present reality faded from s mind under the press of memories neither of his companions guessed what was thinking of it was in this very spot that he was to have met the grandmother of the girl at his side and in which he would have met her had she chosen to keep the appointment a meeting which might � nay must � have changed the whole current of his life instead of that forty years | 45 |
i ventured eager to continue the conversation because of its novelty it s a nice little he went on but i would n t call it a tub i really did not know how to reply to this last it took me so by surprise � a child of five in little breeches scarcely larger than my two hands making this fine distinction we surely live and learn i thought and went on my way smiling this house interested me from so many other points of view being particularly english and new that i was never weary of it i had a conversation with the gardener one morning concerning his duties and found that he had an exact of the family which covered every day in the year first i believe he got hold of the boots delivered to him by the maid and did those and then he brought up his coal and wood and built the fires and then he had some steps and paths to look after and then some errands to do i forget what there was the riding pony to and saddle the stable to clean � oh quite a long list of things which he did over and over day after day he talked with such an air of responsibility as so many english servants do that i was led to reflect upon the of english servants in general and he dropped his h s where they occurred of course and added them where they should n t have been he told me how much he received how much he had received how he managed to live on it how and some people were they don t know ow to get along sir he informed me with the same solemn air of responsibility they just doesn t know ow to sir i it some people doesn t sir they gets sixteen or s the same as me sir but they goes and five or six g i thought he said guns � he actually said o beer in the week there t much left fer other things is there sir now that s no sir is it sir i you i had to smile at the rural accent he was so simple minded � so innocent apparently every one called him � not mr as his might in america or john or jack or some but just he was to every one � the master the maid the children the maid was to every one and the nurse it was all interesting to me because it was so utterly new and then this landscape round about the feel of the country was refreshing i knew absolutely nothing about it and yet i could see and feel that we were in a a at forty region of comfortable life i could hear the of guns all day long here � and � this being the open season for shooting not hunting as my host informed me there was no such thing as hunting i could see men strolling here and there together guns under their arms caps on their heads in knee breeches and leather i could see from my writing desk in the drawing room window english girls bounding by on light moving horses and in my limited walks i saw plenty of places � homes i was told by a friend of mine that this was rather a pleasant country section but that i might see considerable of the same thing anywhere about london at this distance the maid interested me very much she was so quiet so silent and so pretty the door would open any time during the day when i was writing and in she would come to look after the fire to open or close the windows to draw the curtains light the candles and serve the tea or to call me to luncheon or dinner usually i ate my luncheon and drank my four o clock tea alone i ate my evening meal all alone once it made no difference � my eating alone the service was quite the same the same candles were lighted � several on different parts of the table the fire built in the there were four or five courses and wine stood behind me watching me eat in silence and i confess i felt very queer it was all so solemn so stately i felt like some old gray baron or bachelor shut away from the world and given to contemplating the follies of his youth when through with nuts and wine � the final glass of port � it was the custom of the house to retire to the drawing room and drink the small cup of black coffee which was served there and on this night although i was quite alone it was the same the coffee the family was served just as promptly and as though there were eight or ten present it interested me greatly all of it and pleased me more than i can say personally i shall always be glad that i saw some rural aspects of england first for they are the most and to me significant london is an amazing city and thoroughly english but the rural districts are more suggestive in what respects do the people of one country differ from those of another since they eat sleep rise dress go to work return love hate and alike in little � mechanically speaking but and even materially they differ in almost every way england is a mood i take it a combination of dull colors and atmosphere it expresses heaven only knows what feeling for order simplicity it is highly individual � more so almost than italy france or germany it is vital � and yet vital in an intellectual way only you would say the feel of the air that england is all mind with convictions prejudices notions poetic terribly the most nation | 43 |
over to see them to show s new dress she had promised that mr would do what he could for him jim on the road next month jim went back to the freight service he preferred dick rail to mrs he got him dick was worse than ever his appetite was by he returned to his attack with renewed zest he never tired � never he was perpetual he was he made jim s life a wilderness jim said nothing just along than ever than ever closer than ever he took to going on sunday to another church than the one he had attended a more fashionable one than that the went there jim sat far back in the gallery very far back where he could just see the top of buy to seed carry s head her big hat and her face and could not see mrs who sat nearer the gallery it had a curious effect on him he never went to sleep there he took to going up town walking by the stores � looking in at the windows of and once he actually went into a shop and asked the price of a new suit of clothes he needed them badly the tailor unfolded many rolls of cloth and talked talked him dizzy jim looked wistfully at them rubbed his hand over them softly felt the money in his pocket and came out he said he thought he might come in again next day he did not have the money wrote him she could not leave home to go to school on their mother s account but she would buy books and she was learning she would learn fast her mother was teaching her and he was the best brother in the world the whole world and they had a secret but he must wait one day jim got a big bundle from down the country it was a new suit of clothes on top was a letter from this was the secret she and her mother had sent for the cloth and had made them they to seed hoped they would fit they had cried over them jim cried a little too he put them on they did not fit were much too large under dick rail s fire jim had grown even thinner than before but he wore them to church he felt that it would have been to his mother and not to wear them he was sorry to meet dick rail on the street dick had on a black coat a velvet and large checked trousers dick looked jim over jim flushed a little he was not so now dick saw it next week dick caught jim in a crowd in the yard waiting for their train he told about the meeting he made a double shot he said boys jim s in love he s got new clothes you ought to see em i dick was he wound up they hung on him like on his old mule i b he was too to buy em and made em himself there was a shout from the crowd jim s face worked he jumped for him there was a lying near and he seized it some one him but he shook him off as if he had been a child why he did not kill dick no one ever knew he meant to do it to seed for some time they thought he was dead he laid off fur over a month after that jim wore what clothes he chose no one ever troubled him so he went on in the same way sleepy thin sting y ill dressed lame he was made a preferred it to being a conductor it led to being an engineer which paid more he ran extra whenever he could up and double straight back he could stand an immense amount of work if he got sleepy he put tobacco in his eyes to keep them open it was bad for the eyes but him up was going to take music next year and that cost money he had not been home for several but was going at christmas they did not have any sight but the new meant to be thorough mr had become a had his eye on the jim was one day sent for and was asked about his eyes they were bad there was not a doubt about it they were he could not see a hundred yards he did not tell them about the extra and putting the tobacco in them dick rail must have told about him they said he to seed must go jim turned white he went to his � little room close up under the roof of a little dingy house in a back street and sat down in the dark thought about his mother and and dimly about some one else wrote his mother and a letter said he was coming home � called it a visit cried over the letter but was careful not to cry on it he was a real cry baby � jim was just run to seed he said to himself bitterly over and over just run to seed then he went to sleep the following day he went down to the railroad that was the last day next day he would be off the train master saw him and called him a special was just going out the were going over the road in the officers car dick rail was the engineer and his had been taken sick jim must take the place jim had a mind not to do it he hated dick he thought of how he had pursued him but he heard a voice behind him and turned carry was standing down the platform talking with some elderly gentlemen she had on a travelling cap and she saw him and came forward � a step run to seed | 46 |
distance in one harmonious view when however you approach them and walk round them you begin to wonder at their colossal size and seek a measuring rod these giants considerably at the base but not more than is required for beauty and safety and the only reason that this seems in some cases excessive is that only a comparatively small section of the shaft is seen at once in near views one that i measured in the king s forest was feet in at the ground and feet in feet above the ground showing that the of the trunk as a whole is fine and when you stand back far enough to see f the massive columns from the swelling to the lofty summit in a dome of you rejoice in the display of combined and beauty about a hundred feet or more of the trunk is usually but its massive simplicity is relieved by the bark which instead of making an irregular run parallel like the of an column and to some extent by of slender that wave lightly in the winds and cast the mountains of of shade seeming to have been pinned on here and there for the sake of beauty only the young trees have slender simple branches down to the ground put on with strict regularity sharply at the top about half way down and drooping in handsome curves at the base by the time the is five or six hundred years old this habit into the m rounded dome form of middle age which in turn takes on the eccentric of old age no other tree in the forest has foliage so or presents outlines so firmly di and so steadily subordinate to a special type a looking branch five to eight feet thick may be seen pushing out abruptly from the smooth trunk as if sm e to throw the regular curve into confusion but as soon as the general outline is reached it stops short and in spreading of law abiding just as if every tree were growing beneath some huge invisible bell glass against whose sides every branch was being pressed and yet somehow indulging in so many small from the regular form that there is still an appearance of freedom the foliage of the is dark green in color while the older trees to a warm yellow tint like the bark is rich brown in young trees and in shady portions of the old while the ground is covered with brown leaves and forming of extraordinary richness not to mention the flowers and that rejoice about them in their seasons walk the woods at any time the forests of year and you will say they are the most beautiful and majestic on earth beautiful and impressive meet you everywhere the colors of tree and flower rock and sky light and shade strength and ance and of bushes tree pillars about as rigid as granite roses and the smallest of their kind blooming around the feet of the giants and of the lowly where the fall then in winter the trees themselves break forth in bloom of small four sided crowd the ends of the slender the whole tree and when ripe the air and the ground with golden the fertile are bright grass green measuring about two inches in length by one and a half in thickness and are made up of about forty firm scales packed with from five to eight seeds at the base of each a single therefore contains from two to three hundred seeds which are about a fourth of an inch long by three wide including a thin flat margin that makes them go glancing and wavering in their fall like a boy s the f of may be illustrated by two specimen branches one and a half and two inches in on which i counted no other produces nearly so many seeds millions are by a single tree and in a fruitful year the product of one of the northern groves would be enough to plant all the mountain of the world nature takes care however that not one seed in a million shall at all and of those that do perhaps not one l the mountains of in ten thousand is to live through the many of storm fire and snow crushing that beset their youth the is the happy of most of the out of every hundred perhaps ninety fall to his share and unless cut off by his ivory they shake out their seeds and remain on the tree for many years watching the at their harvest work in the indian summer is one of the most delightful imaginable the woods are calm and the ripe colors are blazing in all their glory the laden trees stand motionless in the warm air and you may see the crimson the prince of some dead limb or fallen trunk with his bill and ever and anon filling the with his happy the humming bird too dwells in these noble woods and may be seen glancing among the flowers or resting on some here also are the familiar robin of the and the brown and bears so obviously fitted for these majestic and the making more vital stir than all the bears birds and humming wings together as soon as any accident happens to the crown of these such as being stricken off by lightning or broken by storms then the branches beneath the wound no matter how situated seem to be excited like a colony of bees that have lost their queen and become anxious to repair the damage limbs that have grown outward for centuries at right angles to the trunk begin to turn upward to the forests assist in making a new crown each speedily assuming the special form of true even in the case of mere burned half through some mere ornamental will try to go aloft and do its | 28 |
had spread themselves along the regardless of the cold rain of the dawn and there they waited the bridge for the flood only kept his men together behind the swell of the guard tower where the stone boats lay tied fore and aft with wire rope and chains a shrill wail ran along the line growing to a yell half fear and half wonder the face of the river from bank to bank between the stone and the spurs went out in of foam mother had come bank high in haste and a wall of water was her messenger there was a shriek above the roar of the water the complaint of the coming down on their blocks as the were whirled out from under their the stone boats groaned and each other in the that the and their clumsy rose higher and higher against the dim sky line before she was shut between these walls we knew what she would do now she is thus cramped god only knows what she will do said watching the furious turmoil the guard tower oh l fight then i fight hard for it is thus that a woman wears herself out but mother would not fight as desired after the first down stream plunge there came no more walls of water but the river lifted herself bodily as a snake when she drinks in and along the and up behind the till even began to the strength of his work when day came the village ed only last night men said turning to each other it was as a town in the river bed look now i the bridge and they looked and wondered at the deep water the racing water that licked the throat of the the farther bank was veiled by rain into which the bridge ran out and vanished the spurs up stream were marked by no more than and and down un the pent river once freed of her guide lines had spread like a sea to the horizon then hurried by rolling in the water dead men and oxen together with here and there a patch of roof that melted when it touched a pier big flood said and nodded it was as big a flood as he had any wish to watch his bridge would stand what was upon her now but not very much more and if by any of a thousand chances there happened to be a weakness in the mother would carry his honour to the sea with the other worst of all there was nothing to do except to sit still and sat still imder his till his became on his head and his boots were over ankle in mire he took no count of time for the river was marking the hours inch by inch and foot by foot along the and he listened and hungry to the straining of the stone boats the hollow thunder under the and the hundred noises that make the full note of a flood once a dripping servant brought him food but he could not eat and once he thought that he heard a faint from a ck the river and then he smiled the bridge s failure would hurt his assistant not a little but was a yoimg man with his big work yet to do for himself the crash meant everything that made a the bridge hard worth the they would bay the men of his own profession he remembered the things that he had said when i b new burst and broke down in and and s spirit broke in him and he died he remembered what he himself had said when the bridge went out in the big by the and most he remembered poor b face three weeks later when the shame had marked it his bridge was twice the size of b and it carried the as well as the new pier the bolted shoe there were no excuses in his service government might listen perhaps but his own kind would judge him by his bridge as that stood or fell he went over it in his head plate by plate span by span brick by brick pier by pier remembering comparing and lest there should be any mistake and through the long hours and through the flights of that danced and wheeled before him a cold fear would come to pinch his heart his side of the waa beyond question but what man knew mother s even as he was making all sure by the table the river might be a pot hole to the very bottom of any one of those eighty foot that carried his reputation again a servant came to him with food but his mouth was dry and he could only drink and return to the in his brain and the river was still rising in a mat shelter coat crouched at his feet watching now his face and now the face of the river but saying nothing jn the bridge at last the rose and through the mud towards the village but he was careful to leave an ally to watch the boats presently he returned most driving before him the priest of his a fat old man with a grey beard that whipped the wind with the wet cloth that blew over his shoulder never was seen so lamentable a what good are and little lamps and dry grain shouted if in the mud is all that thou do thou hast dealt long with the when they were contented and well wishing now they are angry speak to them what is a man against the wrath of gk ds the priest as the wind took him let me go to the temple and i will pray there son of a pig pray here is there no return for salt fish and powder and dried call i tell mother we have had enough | 39 |
quietly the rate of wages we are paying the free rents we are giving the shorter hours we are running are all with a unless it be a very small one you and i and the may consent to sacrifice our the other do not so consent and yet we have taken away the income of their property in one sphere of life this is what is known as a business transaction in another it is called robbery the color came and went in s cheek and her bosom heaved rapidly you would not have the he continued tells me you said you would give even him up to the police if you knew he was concerned in that affair but you are as effectually destroying the property of the people whose money is in these mills as if you had personally applied the electric current to the mill no i lying yonder in ruins is just as profitable to its owners to day as any of the other six i have helped you to bring about this condition of affairs because i love you � not because i can persuade myself that it is right she stared about the room they robbed us for years she said in a low ton more as if addressing herself than him they gave ii low wages and long hours and kept for themselves sums out of the product of our toil now that we have the opportunity may we not in justice take back our own in the twenty two years that and my r worked for them they received the cost of two � three times over for the love of heaven how much do we owe them now but he answered those who own the great central shares to day are largely men and women who have bought them in recent years some who paid and a share could not sell now for they are not to blame for the injustice of which you speak and yet we make them suffer for it to some of them the loss will mean great hardship to others utter misery you and i have done it let us not seek to our responsibility she spoke with set gaze like a why did they buy the stock she i will tell you they hoped to gain an easy living for themselves through the low labor of the in these mills they knew or could have known by what outrageous oppression the twelve per cent on the watered stock were produced they took a in the as their ancestors did in ships and if the were caught and swung from the yard arm � if the rose and cut the throats of their � who spent their sympathy on the these of stock played at a game of hazard and they have lost i for one shall waste no tears on them he did not answer and after a little time she went on the capital of the is all that was ever invested here is knows he has looked it up they built the first three mills and part of the houses out of that million and the rest have grown from the the has had a famous time he has drawn enormous profits the workman has merely been allowed to exist speaking of his wife and children have been compelled to labor bi his side he and they have produced this immense property the have taken their share it is time he had part of his he waited again but she seemed to have for the present i have a number of he said presently under which i hold shares in these mills for various wards other than the took an oath in every case to protect the interests of my i have asked the courts to relieve me of these when i give up my i wish to hand to my in cash the market value of the shares on the day i was first elected agent i find that my own property if converted into money will suffice for that before we are married i wish this load lifted from my conscience looked at him strangely i see she said you wish to put all the on my shoulders so far as you are personally concerned you mean to clear yourself what you have done in my name you will leave for me to bear it shall be so i will buy all the stock you wish to sell and you shall fix the price i should like if you please to the business at once her tone and manner had become so coldly distant that he took alarm he you are not speaking as my promised wife should speak i � she stopped him with a motion of her hand the i want the stock you wish to sell f i am waiting he bit his lip the are at the agency two strange i ro there of them spoke till they reached the agency and then io more was said than was necessary to complete the transfer when it was finished she said i would like you to do another thing i made you a promise � i said i would marry you i wish a release the clock in the room so loudly that he wondered what it he had half expected the demand so coldly stated but that did not lessen the pain of it his eyes grew you are released he i will tell you why you need not then good good bye he repeated are you going to leave he could feel in fibre of his being under what a strain she was laboring as she stood there hesitating at the threshold i give you my reasons she said i owe it both to you and myself i could not marry a man who turned women and children out of doors in october who cared | 1 |
fear i was alone i could hear no calls or cries � only the sound of the waves made hollow and by the fog a panic in a crowd which of a sort of community of interest is not so terrible as a panic when one is by and such a panic i now suffered whither was i drifting the red faced man had said that the tide was through the golden gate was i then being carried out to sea and the life in which i floated was it not liable to go to pieces at any moment i had heard of such things being made of paper and hollow rushes which quickly became and lost all and i could not swim a stroke and i was alone floating apparently in the midst of a gray i confess that a madness seized me that i shrieked aloud as the women had shrieked and beat the water with my hands how long this lasted i have no conception for a of which i remember no more than one remembers of troubled and painful sleep when i aroused it was as after centuries of time and i saw almost above me and emerging from the fog the bow of a vessel and three sails each the other and filled with wind where the bow cut the water there was a great foaming and and i seemed directly in its path i tried to cry out but was too exhausted the bow the sea wolf plunged down just missing me and sending a of water clear over my head then the long black side of the vessel began slipping past so near that i could have touched it with my hands i tried to reach it in a mad resolve to into the wood with my nails but my arms were heavy and lifeless again i strove to call out but made no sound the stern of the vessel shot by dropping as it did so into a hollow between the waves and i caught a glimpse of a man standing at the wheel and of another man who seemed to be doing little else than smoke a cigar i saw the smoke issuing from his lips as he slowly turned his head and glanced out over the water in my direction it was a careless glance one of those things men do when they have no immediate call to do anything in particular but act because they are alive and must do something but life and death were in that glance i could see the vessel being swallowed up in the fog i saw the back of the man at the wheel and the head of the other man turning slowly turning as his gaze struck the water and casually lifted along it toward me his face wore an absent expression as of deep thought and i became afraid that if his eyes did light upon me he would nevertheless not see me but his eyes did light upon me and looked into mine and he did see me for he sprang to the wheel thrusting the other man aside and whirled it round and round hand over hand at the same shouting orders of some sort the vessel seemed to go off at a to its former course and almost instantly from view into the fog i felt myself slipping into and tried with all the power of my will to fight above the the sea wolf ii and darkness that was rising around me a little later i heard the stroke of oars growing nearer and nearer and the calls of a man when he was very near i heard him crying in vexed fashion why in hell don t you sing out this meant me i thought and then the and darkness rose over me chapter ii i seemed swinging in a mighty through sparkling points of light and shot past me they were stars i knew and that peopled ray flight among the as i reached the limit of my swing and prepared to rush back on the counter swing a great struck and thundered for an period in the rippling of placid centuries i enjoyed and pondered my tremendous flight but a change came over the face of the dream for a dream i told myself it must be my grew shorter and shorter i was jerked from swing to counter swing with haste i could scarcely catch my breath so fiercely was i impelled through the heavens the thundered more frequently and more furiously i grew to await it with a nameless dread then it seemed as though i were being dragged over sands white and hot in the sun this gave place to a sense of intolerable anguish my skin was in the torment of fire the and the sparkling points of light flashed past me in an interminable stream as though the whole system were dropping into the void i gasped caught my breath painfully and opened my eyes two men were beside me working over me my mighty was the and forward plunge of a ship on the sea the terrific was a pan hanging the wall that rattled and with each leap t the sea wolf ij the ship the sands were a man s hard hands my naked chest i under the pain of it and half lifted my head my chest was raw and red and i could see tiny blood starting through the torn and that ll do one of the men said t yer see you ve well rubbed all the s skin the man addressed as a man of the heavy type ceased me and arose awkwardly to his feet the man who had spoken to him was clearly a with the clean lines and weakly pretty almost face of the man who has absorbed the sound of bow bells with his mother s milk a | 21 |
a good time but those that shoot re supposed to drink beer and perhaps are laid out n a when they drink too much beer beer is � ad for boys j principal some of le buildings in are very old and some are ery new � so new in fact that some of them are o t done yet i saw them building one it is fun to s e them build a house in they have a thing sunny shores or like a chain pump to the bricks with puts two bricks in each little box on the chain another one takes the bricks off as they come up to the top the women don t put bricks in their hats they don t wear hats women carry the too only it is not a but a tub which they on their backs they don t go up but inclined they did not look like elegant and refined women if i were old enough and wanted to get married very had i should not want to take a female of these women are not allowed to vote only to carry the the beer at the is about the color of p the old buildings in the are very old the city was started in before i was born there are plenty of odd looking old towers statues watch towers powder towers and bridge towers there is really a great deal that is worth seeing in some of the streets in the new city are as broad and handsome as some in the old city are narrow and ugly the lamp posts have clusters of on each from three to six in number they handsome for lamp posts has a jews quarter which is particular vile dirty and crooked but a great many dirty live there and a great many clean respectable and honest jews live in other parts of the city the jews have had a soft thing compared with the condition of the race in some other cities for they have been honored and respected even by the government when the and the were taken b j the in the citizens made an heroic d v young america in italy and i fence and saved the rest of the city the jews turned out and fought bravely for this patriotic conduct certain privileges were conferred upon them and iii gave them an immense banner which is preserved in the old the people of speak the language � which is an odd fact a great many of them also speak german is spoken mostly by i out a sign in the street it was i don t know what it means the names of tlie streets me are plenty in is suggestive so is when i bought a stick of at mr s shop in i did not feel obliged to pronounce his name sunny shores or chapter xvi and the t charles bridge his is a very remarkable bridge begun in the e of charles iv in and as the work i several times injured by it was not finished till it is composed of arches built remarkably strong so it has resisted the floods of three hundred years there is a remarkably picturesque tower at each end as wide as the bridge itself with an arch through which all and folks must pass this bridge is remarkable for having twenty eight statues � fourteen on each side � the most remarkable of which is the bronze statue of st john this saint was pitched into the river and drowned by order of king iv in s because he would not tell what the queen had said to him at confession st j was a remarkably man the place on the bridge where he went over is marked by five stars in the shape of a which is supposed to look like a remarkable flame of fire of supernatural origin which was seen three days after st j went under over the place where his body lay it was a remarkable blaze because it would not go out and because it did not burn the young america in italy and river up it kept on blazing in a most remarkable manner till folks were compelled to look into the matter and dragging the river the body was recovered about five hundred and fifty years after this remarkable event sl j was made a saint his body was placed in a remarkable silver shrine and planted in the cathedral where i had the pleasure of seeing the silver but not the body from this remarkable circumstance st j is the patron saint of bridges for the catholic world in general and his festival is celebrated every year on the th of june when a is built over his statue on the bridge twenty four priests perform mass for several days to accommodate the crowd and eighty four thousand people come as pious to from all and the surrounding countries the bridge and every street near it are blocked up with people and folks have to cross the river in boats the is a very remarkable bridge and j was a very remarkable patron saint of bridges your composition is remarkably full of of the word remarkable said mr and i recommend you to make it less remarkable by striking out all the except one or two � thank you sir i am remarkably willing to do so replied the student the in means a castle and with the it means the palace of the kings building on a high hill behind which shores or are other high hills i did not count the rooms but there are said to be four hundred and forty of them the ex emperor of uncle of the present emperor who in s s in the castle his apartments are not shown and the others are like those to be seen in all | 36 |
his according to tlie other on account of his it follows that contrary being ma with equal to explain the fact t alike inadequate no founded on tlie local i of the to explain the in ground must be taken in a spirit and tendency of the writings from this of proposition been given cause which determined in the con of the fourth gospel and tliat of the ones accounts al to for their as to the limits they a to the of in other words the delivered by in and recorded by john for a mon mature development of christianity than that in the period tbey were not retained in the primitive of which the writers wore organs and first k to the church by john who wrote christ was in a more advanced j is this at an though it la su than the i or how could the and tlie in the teaching of he with such that the � he to and the to he discourse in the at vi it may be said in he had a mon public around liim and could be more readily in but the could have int more did the jews from hi sl to lost according to john s representation and as in be l the most communion with his we should rather have that would be the of hia more profound � in k t sl t din ii w j ur di in s en du k s it u till life ut lion as i t given a of an final re of in is no p whatever for earlier visits were devoid of and tliat liis on took throughout a higher tone but even allowing all di e� of in and wore th� of the t were performed re � as the of man who had an the of sight on the mind and the of i which from their rank among of christianity l almost mention of those early visits of to during they it is impossible to explain why the writers if they of the earlier visits of to should not have mentioned and it must he hat if be right the e knew of an part ol the earlier of if on the other hand the latter bo u author of the fourth or of tradition by ho was a large k of what he the of or at assigned to it a locality on � closer however the relation between john and writer is not simply that the latter might not know the foi but such thai they must have proceeded from positively for example the writers c h as aa tile time that ho takes up i abode there after tho a neglect to give a particular n anon aa he to from crowd by a viii or that he withdrew into the of the of xiv or he into tlie region of and on account of the offence by at his xv john on the contrary a special reason why es and into u not to contend hia very journey thither appears to be occasioned solely by the invitation to hia departure into the attended by him in his public ia expressly for by the ominous which the number of hia had excited among iv iy hia retirement after the second it al io into the country east of sea of vi i must bo in relation to t ol v immediately after the as n reason for the continuance of in the malignant designs of his enemies wliich rendered his abode in perilous to hia life vii tlie vol between tho feast of and of the to have been spent by in tho capital i p i op of liim to absent himself x on the other band his journey x aiid that into k xl presented as ef of his hy jew the same as tliat i t � and witli to original of parents of is found l l the fourth with respect to the of his as in to bo of abode and th thi adopted circumstances while the representation so in the of the turns on idea until his was the of the of and tiiat he left it from particular motives and for a time while that of john on the contrary turns on i up tliat would have taught ly in ami � liad not to retire into the of these two one only can he true thej were to be o of john w v with of r � allowed to tlie l� wn in of the fourth t and so is this custom that author of the does not c the to the of � numbers it among the to of s gospel that it limits the of to t and has no important ground of doubt to produce ag the of the than the of its author witli the of t if this decision be well founded it rest on a careful consideration ol tlie of the two the greater from e sources and more we have shown in tlie introduction the evidence or testimony for tlie of fourth and of the one tliat of is of about equal i� it nothing in case but leaves tlie decision to evident in relation to this the following question must be con is it more probable was actual in and previous to ins last journey yet at the time whence the arose ail traces of the f had or that on the although never for the of public his last journey thither yet at the time and place of the of the fourth a of social visits had been formed f � l m s m t i l r � t f jl c � r m s t a n x life op s i the above critics seek to first might bo the case in following the they | 14 |
then present � and so much to the awakening of mr s punctual habits in the opening stage of all bill transactions that he could not be from immediately rushing out in the highest spirits to buy the for his notes of hand but his joy received a sudden check for within five minutes he returned in the of a s officer informing us in a flood of tears that all was lost the personal history and experience we being quite prepared for this event which was of course a proceeding of s soon paid the money and in five minutes more mr was seated at the table filling up the with an expression of perfect joy which only that congenial employment or the making of punch could impart in full completeness to his shining face to see him at work on the with the relish of an artist touching them like pictures looking at them sideways taking notes of dates and in his pocket book and contemplating them when finished with a high sense of their precious value was a sight indeed now the best thing you can do sir if you il allow me to advise you said my aunt after silently observing him is to that occupation for madam replied mr it is my intention to register such a vow on the virgin page of the future mrs will it i trust said mr solemnly that my son will ever bear in mind that he had infinitely better put his fist in the fire than use it to handle the that have poisoned the life blood of his unhappy parent deeply affected and changed in a moment to the image of despair mr regarded the with a look of gloomy in which his late admiration of them was not quite subdued folded them up and put them in his pocket this closed the proceedings of the evening we were weary with sorrow and fatigue and my aunt and i were to return to london on the morrow it was arranged that the should follow us after a sale of their goods to a that mr s affairs should be brought to a settlement with all convenient speed under the direction of tr and that should also come to london those arrangements we passed the night at the old house which freed from the presence of the seemed of a disease and i lay in my old room like a wanderer come home we went back next day to my aunt s house � not to mine and when she and i sat alone as of old before going to bed she said trot do you really wish to know what i have had upon my mind lately indeed i do aunt if there ever was a time when i felt unwilling that you should have a sorrow or anxiety which i could not share it is now you have had sorrow enough child said my aunt affectionately without the addition of my little miseries i could have no other motive trot in keeping anything from you i know that well said i but tell me now would you ride with me a little way to morrow morning asked my aunt of course at nine said she i tell you then my dear at nine accordingly we went out in a little chariot and drove to london we drove a long way through the streets until we came to one of the large standing hard by the building was a plain ov david the driver recognised my aunt and in obedience to a motion of her hand at the window drove slowly off we following you understand it now trot said my aunt he is gone did he die in the hospital yes she sat immovable beside me but again i saw the stray tears on her face he was there once before said my aunt presently he was a long time � a shattered broken man these many years when he knew his state in this last illness he asked them to send for me he was sorry then very sorry you went i know aunt i went i was with him a good deal afterwards he died the night before we went to said i my aunt nodded no one can harm him now she said it was a vain threat we drove away out of town to the churchyard at better here than in the streets said my aunt he was born here we alighted and followed the plain coffin to a corner i remember well where the service was read it to the dust six and thirty years ago this day my dear said my aunt as we walked back to the chariot i was married god forgive us all we took our seats in silence and so she sat beside me for a long time holding my hand at length she suddenly burst into tears and said he was a fine looking man when i married him trot � and he was sadly changed it did not last long after the relief of tears she soon became composed and even cheerful her nerves were a little shaken she said or she would not have given way to it god forgive us all so we rode back to her httle cottage at high gate where we found the following short note which had arrived by that morning s post from mi friday my dear madam and the fair land of promise lately on the horizon is again enveloped in impenetrable mists and for ever withdrawn from the eyes of a drifting wretch whose doom is sealed another writ has been issued in his majesty s high court of king s bench at westminster in another cause of v and the in that cause is the prey of the having legal in this now s the day and now s the hour see the front | 8 |
with scorn i should leave you to s tender as it is i must consider now no more talk if you please let me know exactly what took place between you and that thief did not argue further not that he felt any shame but he saw that was too strong for him and felt that his cousin had right on his side would never have admitted the right as his nature was too to honor to anyone but himself in a sulky manner and as if was trying to do him harm instead of good he related what had passed between himself and the at the arms the squire thus learned for the first time that had been in the grounds on the night of the murder and had lost the setting a trap � ornament during the struggle with the unknown man in the avenue and i believed that the fellow was you protested earnestly you had every right to murder every right echoed angrily i mean every reason said himself hurriedly and after the man ran away i went to look in through the windows there was a light in the study and as you know the window had neither curtains nor blinds i saw lying dead on the floor and went home without saying a word lest i should be accused you acted the part of a brave man i must say said contemptuously but it appears that you didn t murder no i certainly did not why i only left this cottage as the church clock eleven and as was murdered at that hour he must have been dead before i reached the i expect the man was hunting for the will and only managed to escape with it when i ran up against him in the avenue but who was he i don t suppose mrs dressed herself as a man to no no that is ridiculous mrs was made a by the same man to get the will without throwing suspicions on him i didn t write that letter if that is what you mean said and uneasily i am aware of that it was who started to his feet impossible he was in town on the night of the murder he was in and he was the man you ran across in the avenue said grimly no wonder he pointed out your on the verge of the hole the lost wherein the will had been buried he dropped it there while my back was turned and allowed me to find it so as to you was he muttered sitting down again oh it is impossible not at all dr came down with in the train which arrives at shortly after nine he wasn t with him you understand but he saw him both at liverpool street and at then why didn t say so at the why should he never connected with the crime he believed that he came down to see me and as was with me the next day of course that gave color to s belief however he mentioned the matter to and she told me and for that reason came to see me yesterday and we arranged that i should see you now you can understand that we must join forces to have arrested i have not the least doubt but what he murdered to get the will and money for it either from you or from me the scoundrel cried highly indignant and to think that he should have dared to accuse me � me � me i was in equal danger of being accused observed coolly oh i don t care about you retorted the other i must look to myself i shall see and have arrested if you do you are sure to make a mess of things warned accepting his cousin s with a shrug we must lay a trap for and get him down here otherwise he may escape and then setting a trap � i matters concerning the murder will never be cleared up what sort of a trap you must write to asking him to come down here � to the big house � for an interview with yourself and with me say that you and i wish to the rights of the property knows that you cannot give him his pound of flesh until we are agreed about the will also he will never suspect that he was seen in on the night of the murder or that we have put two and two together regarding the he will come down will he enter the big house seeing that you have kicked him out asked the host doubtfully oh has no shame where his own interests are concerned replied the squire quietly he wants money and is prepared to go to any to get money let us get him to ourselves and force him to confess meanwhile we will send to for and when the arrives we can have arrested do you understand yes said in a rather subdued tone for him at the moment i shall write as you suggest and you may be sure that i shall so word my letter as to trap the beast what a scoundrel cried in a state of virtuous anger to try and accuse me of a crime which he has committed himself he looks after number one as other people do self self is eaten up with self no wonder i hate the human race when i get the money i shan t give anyone a single penny the lost oh i am aware of that rejoined contemptuously and i shouldn t throw stones at other people if i were you seeing in what a glass house you live yourself now don t argue but do what i tell you if you don t i shall wash my hands of the whole affair and leave you to yourself as best you | 12 |
any apology that could for the the nay the insolence of it henry at a distance not able even to bid him farewell every hope every expectation from him suspended at least and who could say how long who could say when they might meet again and all this by such a man as general so polite so well bred and heretofore so particularly fond of her it was as incomprehensible as it was and grievous from what it could arise and where it would end were considerations of equal perplexity and the manner in which it was done so hurrying her away without any reference to her own convenience or allowing her even the appearance of choice as to the time or mode of her travelling of two days the earliest fixed on and of that almost the earliest hour as if resolved to have her gone before he was stirring in the morning that he might not be obliged even to see her what could all this mean but an i by some means or other she must have had the misfortune to offend him had wished to spare her from so a notion but could not believe it possible that north anger abbey any injury or any misfortune could provoke such ill will against a person not connected or at least not supposed to be connected with it heavily passed the night sleep or repose that deserved the name of sleep was out of the question that room in which her disturbed imagination had tormented her on her first arrival was again scene of agitated spirits and yet how different now the source of her from what it had been then how mournfully superior in reality and substance her anxiety had foundation in fact her fears in probability and with a mind so occupied in the contemplation of actual and natural evil the solitude of her situation the darkness of her chamber the antiquity of the building were felt and considered without the smallest emotion and though the wind was high and often produced strange and sudden noises throughout the house she heard it all as she lay awake hour after hour without curiosity or terror soon after six entered her room eager to show attention or give assistance where it was possible but very little remained to be done had not she was almost dressed and her packing almost finished the possibility of some message from the general occurred to her as his daughter appeared what so natural as that anger should pass away and repentance succeed it and she only wanted to know how far after what had passed an apology might properly be received by her but the knowledge would have been useless here it was not called for neither nor dignity was put to the trial brought no message very little passed between them on meeting each found her greatest safety in silence and few and trivial were the sentences exchanged while they remained upstairs in busy agitation her dress and with more good will than experience intent upon filling the abbey trunk when everything was done they left the room lingering only half a minute behind her friend to throw a parting glance on every well known object and went down to the break st where breakfast was prepared she tried to eat as well to save herself firom the pain of being ui ed as to make her friend comfortable but she had no appetite could not swallow many the contrast between this and her last breakfast in that room gave her misery and strengthened her for everything before her it was not four and twenty hours ago since they had met there to the same but in circumstances how different with what cheerful ease what happy though se security had she then looked around her enjoying everything present and fearing little in future beyond henry s going to for a day happy happy breakfast for henry had been there henry had sat by her and helped her these reflections were long indulged undisturbed by any address from her companion who sat as deep in thought as herself and the appearance of the carriage was the first thing to and recall them to the present moment s colour rose at the sight of it and the with which she was treated striking at that instant on her mind with peculiar force made her for a short time sensible only of resentment seemed now impelled into resolution and speech you must write to me she cried you let me hear from you as soon as possible till i know you to be safe at home i shall not have an hour s comfort for one letter at all risks all i must entreat let me have the satisfaction of knowing that you are safe at and have found your family well and then till i can ask for your correspondence as i ought to do i will not expect more direct to me at lord s and i must ask it under cover to abbey if you are not allowed to receive a letter from me i am sure i had better not write there can be no doubt of my home safe only replied i cannot wonder at your feelings i will not you i will trust to your own kindness of heart when i am at a distance from you but this with the look of sorrow accompanying it was enough to melt s pride in a moment and she instantly said oh i will write to you indeed there was yet another point which miss was anxious to settle though somewhat embarrassed in speaking of it had occurred to her that after so long an absence from home might not be provided with money enough for the expenses of her journey and upon suggesting it to her with most affectionate offers of accommodation it proved to be exactly the | 26 |
famine pack amongst his wild brethren as it was he ran the young wolf down killed and ate him fortune seemed to favor him always when hardest pressed for food he found something to kill again when he was weak it was his luck that none of the larger animals chanced upon him thus he was strong from the two days eating a had afforded him when the hungry wolf pack ran full upon him it was a long cruel chase but he was better nourished than they and in the end them and not only did he them but widely back on his track he gathered in one of his exhausted after that he left that part of the country and over t o th e valley wherein had b bom here in the old he encountered j up to her old tricks she too had fled the fires of the gods and gone back to her old refuge to give birth to her young of this litter but one remained alive when white came upon the scene and this one was not destined to live long young life had little chance in such a famine s greeting of her grown son was anything but affectionate but white did not mind he had his mother so he turned tail and trotted on up the stream at the forks he took the turning to the left where he found the of the whom his mother and he white pang had fought long before here in the abandoned he settled down and rested for a day during the early summer in the last days of the famine he me t lip lip who had likewise taken to the where he had out a miserable existence white came upon him unexpectedly trotting in opposite directions along the base of a high bluff they rounded a corner of rock and found themselves face to face they paused with instant alarm and looked at each other suspiciously white was in splendid condition his hunting had been good and for a week he had eaten his fill he was even from his latest kill but in the moment he looked at lip lip his hair rose on end all along his back it was an involuntary on his part the physical state that in the past had always accompanied the mental state produced in him by lip lip s and persecution as in the past he had and at sight of lip lip so now and he and he did not waste any time the thing was done thoroughly and with despatch lip lip to back away but white struck him hard shoulder to shoulder lip lip was and rolled upon his back white s teeth drove into the throat there was a death struggle during which white walked around stiff legged and observant then he resumed his course and trotted on along the base of the bluff the famine a one day not long after he came to the edge of the crest where a narrow stretch of open land to the he had been over this ground before when it was bare but now a village it still hidden amongst the trees he caused to study the situation sights and sounds ind were familiar to him it was the old changed to a new place but sights and sounds and were different from those he had last had when le fled away from it there was no nor contented sounds saluted his ear and when le heard the angry voice of a woman he knew it to oe the anger that proceeds from a full stomach and was a smell in the air of fish there was food famine was gone he came put boldly from the forest and trotted into camp straight to gray s gray was not there but loo him with glad cries and the whole of a caught fish and he lay down to wait gray s coming f chapter i the enemy of his kind had there been in white s nature any possibility no matter how remote of his ever coming to with his kind such possibility was destroyed when he was made leader of the for now hate hated him for the extra meat bestowed upon him by hated him for all the real and fancied he received hated him for that he fled always at the head of the team his waving brush of a tail and his perpetually retreating hind quarters forever their eyes and white just as bitterly hated them back being leader was anything but gratifying to him to be compelled to run away before the yelling pack every dog of which for three years he had and mastered was almost more than he could endure but endure it he must or perish and the life that was in him had no desire to perish the moment gave his order for the st t that moment the whole team with eager savage cries sprang forward at white white there was no defence for him if he turned upon them would throw the lash of the whip into his face only remained to him to run away he could not encounter that howling with his tail and hind quarters these were scarcely fit weapons with which to meet the many merciless so run away he did his own nature and pride with every leap he made and leaping all day long one cannot the of one s nature without having that nature upon itself such a is like that of a hair made to grow out from the body turning upon the direction of its growth and growing into the body � a thing of hurt and so with white every urge of his being impelled him to spring upon the pack that cried at his heels but it was the will of the gods that this should not be and behind the | 21 |