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17F senior in HS and pretty damn close to dropping out due to untreated severe depression. This might be long. [deleted] | self.depression |
Can you make the episodes less powerful by not "leaning into" them? I couldn't think of a better way to word my question, so to explain...
Let's say I start to feel that kinda hypomanic restless sensation, just barely. Like I have that urge to kind of bounce in place and be really loud and silly and I can also feel th... | self.bipolar |
3rd post/second update on recently suicidal GF For those keeping track of my last few posts...thank you for the messages and comments, ilI fowarded the most supportive ones to her and it seemed to make her day.
My girlfriend...or sort of ex girlfriend as I'm moving as I've metioned before.
Her ex obviously is badgerin... | self.SuicideWatch |
What kind of Phone App could help people manage Bipolar disorder and other mental Ilnesses? | self.bipolar |
Am I making a mistake by trying to reach out to ex/old friends in order to stomp out any hard feelings? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Having a disabled kid has made me a believer in eugenics. If I dared to say this outloud, people would think I am this heartless monster.......but I actually think there are merits in eugenics with the severely severely handicapped. I'm not the second coming of Hitler or anything. I'm not talking about euthanasia for m... | self.offmychest |
As someone with depression, it bothers me - it really really reeeeeeaaaaaally fucking bothers me - that non depressed people don't feel what i feel and see what i see I realize that this is speaking from the mind of somebody who is "mentally ill", but it baffles me how any sane person can honestly look around and think... | self.depression |
Why do i even exist? Every day i just wake up with a feel of emptyness slowly eating my soul and i can't do anything about it. I can just feel my depression crumbeling into my heart boiling and boiling. Every day i'm in my room lisening to music in the dark. I'm to shy to talk to anyone in real life eveyone just bullie... | self.depression |
My wife complains about everything She complains constantly about basically any physical discomfort. Cold. Heat. Humidity. Hunger. I don't have the bandwidth to constantly reassure her anymore. Why can't she just handle her shit like literally everyone else?
She's paranoid about her health, and in her mind any ache or... | self.offmychest |
GAD sufferer looking for advice anyway as the title states I have GAD, had it all my life in bouts and I'm pretty sure it'll indirectly kill me as i find it hard to ask for help. I live in Canada where the solution is drugs as it's easier and faster and when I get to the doctor my mind goes blank and all I can muddle ... | self.Anxiety |
Thinking about overdosing Kind of out of energy, I'm 18 years old. Dropped out because of depression, can't seem to get my life together, I'm disappointed in myself and I failed every goal I ever had. Not sure if I should leave a not or not, regardless it won't matter since I'm dead, I guess I just don't want people to... | self.SuicideWatch |
School is ruining my mental health, but everyone will think I’m a loser if I drop out. What do you all do for school/work? I used to be just bipolar with some psychotic features but I have literally become the cliche first year student who has a mental breakdown.
So now after a week in the hospital, I’ve been diagnos... | self.bipolar |
Are things going to be okay? I’m not feeling manic or too depressed, just scared. I’m scared that my bipolar disorder is going to keep me from doing what I want to do in life. I work in the medical field, and I often overhear people with far more training and experience than I have saying really disparaging things abou... | self.bipolar |
it’s back again i’ve struggles with depression since i was about 9 or 10 i’m 20 now. it comes and go sometimes worse than others but i’ve been able lately to keep it in a box and be unaffected by it.
tonight i was playing video games, you know something fun to do after a long week of college classes. Im not good at t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Maid of Honour anxiety way out of my depth [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I think my obsession has died I won't go into details but the obsession was pretty bad and could had further con sequences. Its been nine months for the whole obsession thing. This month I did it a few times but its been seven days and I honestly feel like I won't go back to my behavior of nine straight months. I be... | self.offmychest |
I’m so fucking awkward every time i open my stupid facehole I just want to die | self.depression |
Skipping meds for one day ok? I was drinking all night and now I don't wanna take my Seroquel. Is this a good thing or am I being an idiot?
Doc says I really shouldn't drink (cause of the you-know-what) and for the most part I don't but skipping meds one night for a few drinks can't hurt, right?
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Feeling High after confronting my abuser Before I was depressed. The thought of doing anything to get out of my fucked up life seems inconceivable to me. But after the night I had a verbal that almost turned into a physical fight against my abuser. I’m suddenly filled with energy, and thoughts of actually doing things.... | self.depression |
Currently hypomanic So I'm getting ready for the semester. No real responsibility right now, but trying to get a head start. Had an amazing day. First day back to therapy from the summer. My therapist was super impressed with my personal and professional growth over the summer. I received good news about my financial p... | self.bipolar |
So lonely and worthless. I can't stop being a nihilist I'm just so done. I am bored every single day and lonely. Nobody really gives a fuck. About anyone. If I were to kill myself today no one would care. Its a fucking joke. Life is one big fucking joke and the people like me and you guys are the fucking laughing stock... | self.depression |
Medicaid My state (KY) just became the first in the nation to impose conditions on Medicaid, which I will not meet. This means that, in July, I will lose access to healthcare. Apparently our governor thinks his program will cure my disorder.
I work part-time, but not for enough hours to meet the requirements. Also,... | self.bipolar |
Staying motivated (Doing daily chores) The last month and a half, I've been very unmotivated (even moreso than usual). I've been on a pretty aggressive depressive episode and haven't felt much relief from it. In the meantime, I've left my home a mess. I feel like I've been using all of my energy to work my full time jo... | self.bipolar |
Worried that my old friend is turning people against me [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I’ve relapsed. I’ve relapsed and I feel awful about it. So tucking awful. I’m really giving up. | self.depression |
Is this anxiety or what is it now?! So I've been dealing with anxiety for 3 months, with panic attacks derealization and depersoanlisation, and meditated 12 days in a row, I started to feel these gaps between each thought, which was a good sign and great for my anxiety. So what happened next was that I mentally put mys... | self.Anxiety |
Just got a haircut and makes me look worse... Its not gonna get better. I'll let it grow out again and try something else but I don't even want to fucking leave the house after finals end and break starts. Its sooo fucking hideous.
My face shape and everything is so fucking hideous its beyond me.
Now 'cuse me why I g... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't enjoy being alive and at this point,i'm finding it hard to want to stay alive. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
The only thing I'm good at is being sad and feeling inferior | self.depression |
Has anyone else had this problem with meds? I was on a great combination of lamictal/Klonopin/propanalol & was doing better than I ever had. I took that combo for almost 4 years before I was abruptly taken off them. Before that, I had nothing but problems with finding an antipsychotics & antidepressants just ma... | self.bipolar |
I don't know what to do I hate myself so much. I have no friends. Not even one. I spend all of my time when I'm not at school or work at home. I never hang out with people or go to anyone's house. I thought that it was just because everyone hated me and didn't want to be around me, but my mom told me that it was becaus... | self.depression |
Hit the Blues Oh man. It's like 2:40 in the morning and I have class at 9. I don't know if I'm writing to vent or to justify how I'm feeling. I have diagnosed depression/anxiety but tonight just kinda fucking sucked.
I'm a freshman in college and this girl and I were friends pretty early on in the fall semester and a... | self.depression |
Sometimes I just need someone to shoot the shit with I miss just having people to talk to. It seems like while cutting out toxic people I've hit a point where I never really have anyone to talk to late at night anymore.
Ugh. Ridiculous. | self.bipolar |
Memory loss from meds - common thing? Treatment has been going well. I've almost completely gotten rid of suicidal thoughts, and I haven't been worrying too much about my mortality and what awaits me after death anymore. My mood looks pretty stable. Everything seems to be going perfectly fine, except my doctor asked me... | self.bipolar |
I just wait for a momentum, before I do it. | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you deal with overthinking yourself into a panic attack I have been in situations where I would focus on a very small sensation in my body and blow it up so much in my brain that it results in a panic attack. For example a simple heartburn for me will blow up into heart attack resulting in a panic attack. I have... | self.Anxiety |
anyone else incredibly hung up about people finding out you have bipolar? I feel like bipolar disorder is this massive secret I have to keep from everyone. I've figured out in therapy that it's keeping me from being open in my relationships and causing undue stress... but I don't want to start being open about having b... | self.bipolar |
I usually have mild, very manageable anxiety – but tonight I really need your help. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I can almost feel freedom I'm not quite sure why I'm posting this; I don't think there's anything anyone can do. I suppose I just want someone to hear my last thoughts. Or maybe - deep down - I suppose I want to be missing something.
The world is not a nice place. This is pretty obvious at this point. You're born into... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling Betrayed So my diagnosis got bumped from BP 2 to BP 1. Now my SO is over thinking it because she has anxiety. Last night told me that the statistics say that I will cheat. It’s 98% likely that I will. Feels like she is believing the label over me. I’m very loyal. So much so it has wounded me deeply that she do... | self.bipolar |
What if this isn't really me Am I really who I am on the meds? Do the meds let me be my real self? Or am I better and the meds are holding me back? I've been on meds since 2005 and was just having these thoughts.
I'm not going to quit taking my meds or anything irrational, but my doc just upped me to 400mg of Lamictal... | self.bipolar |
I don't know what's wrong with me I don't really know where to post this
So this morning on Christmas, my siblings and I were surprised with a trip to California. I should've been grateful for this trip, but I felt ungrateful. I felt bad about it and I felt really guilty. I didn't know what to do. I gradually kept fee... | self.depression |
I think this is the first time I have ever been depressed on Christmas. I don't want to my problems. I just had the thought that Christmas is usually a happy time for me but currently it is not. Hope yours is going better than mine. | self.depression |
Why can't I get anybody to like, or talk to me. So there's this girl I like, we kinda talk to each other and I want to get to know her better, but she never seems to talk to me unless I start it. I tend to sit in the back and she always stays in the front talking to a ton of other guys laughing and talking. I want to b... | self.depression |
I had my first therapy session yesterday and have been feeling embarrassed ever since. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
i need advice on how to control my bad impulses related to alcohol, drugs and sex About a month ago I was taking some nootropics, like 5-HTP and L-Tyrosine. I've taken them before and they really seem to make me feel "normal", balanced, in peace and more social and affectionate. However, 2 weeks ago something happened.... | self.bipolar |
Is it possible to go manic while still on meds? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
DAE get headaches/pain from anxiety? Over the last two weeks I've had constant headaches and neck/shoulder pain that won't stop. It coincides with me having quit my job and being stressed about finding a new one, some family stuff, etc. I'm figuring they're intertwined but am not sure of ways to calm both symptoms down... | self.Anxiety |
Health effects of long-term (>6 years) use of lamotrigine? (Particularly related to chronic inflammation and low-grade flu-like symptoms) Hi all,
I've been on 250mg lamotrigine for about 6 years now. It works fantastically. However, during the same period I've slowly developed a kind of background inflammation that... | self.bipolar |
How much sense does it make to not want to exercise for these reasons? - My panic attacks cause my internal body temperature to rise and drain me of all my energy. By nature, exercising also makes people feel hot and drained. Therefore, exercising is essentially emulating a panic attack (minus the actual panic, but s... | self.Anxiety |
I have nothing to stay alive for No, not even myself. I hate myself. I'm fucking useless and can't get a job. There is nothing that I want to do or want to be. I don't really need to be alive. My family? I lost faith in them. I came home from university and realised that all they want from me is money to pay off their ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can someone please give me reasons to keep going? Because I'm honestly running out and ending it all is becoming more and more tempting :( | self.SuicideWatch |
how does one not be a boring person :P I feel like i never have anything to talk about, im not funny, creative (as hard as i try to be).. i just feel like im not a normal person but im not the good type of different either, im the person people will talk to because their lonely and not because we're friends and it real... | self.depression |
Disowned after standing up against pedophile father - I crashed and burned later in life. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
It's been weeks since I planned telling someone about my depression but (for the fifth/sixth time again) it didn't seem like the right time Ever planned exactly what to tell someone what you're honestly actually going through and crying in the process of thinking it through and preparing what way to tell it to someone,... | self.depression |
Time for a medication change or just a bad bout? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety and school Hey
I need help and tips with dealing with my anxiety.
On top of my anxiety problems I have dyslexia, sorry for any misspelling or grammar.
This is my first time posting or even talking about my anxiety publicly.
The situation is that I go to university and working on my bacholer paper. This is t... | self.Anxiety |
I feel empty So I’ve been getting worse and worse over the last couple of years and it’s gotten to the point where suicide is all I can really think about
Around 2 Year’s ago I kinda just stopped feeling emotions except for extreme spells of anger or sadness. I can talk to my friends and family normally and laugh wit... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m not close to my cousin anymore and It’s awkward I need help [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Why Just why.
Why do i need to feel so empty
Why does it feel like everything i do is a mistake
Why am i feeling this way
Why can't i Find motuvation to move on, or to even get out of bed
Why does nothing make me happy
I Just want to take the bullet
But i can't i am to weak for that.
I'm sorry you had to Read this. ... | self.depression |
What should i even do?? Im friecking too young to be in depression [deleted] | self.depression |
I just lost my best friend... Hi, I'm kinda new to this. But I really need someone to talk to. I am in a great deal of emotional pain right now and I need some advice. But I think more than anything, I need to say these words out in the open...
It all started back in April of this year, when I joined a Facebook group ... | self.offmychest |
The 3 M's for Sanity Medicate, Meditate, and Masturbate. You're welcome. LOL. | self.bipolar |
The Modern Age We say “it’s 2017” and it’s okay not to be okay or we need to open up. Honestly I find it more difficult to open up now than when I was younger, still being ridiculed for showing weakness or emotion. “Why should they feel like that?” Etc. I’m different. Wishing I could conform to the norm but can’t. | self.depression |
You can't get upset if you don't care about anything. Does anyone else have trouble having fun or finding satisfaction in anything because you can't block out the truth that you're gonna die one day? Like not just you, but literally everyone you know or have ever seen. All dead. Been thinking about this a lot. The only... | self.depression |
I havent felt this low in a long time. Its like swimming in the ocean for me. I am having fun and swimming a decent distance from the beach but I can always swim back but then the tide comes in and pulls me away from shore. Before I know it I cant even see the shore and I cant breath and no one can tell until I complet... | self.depression |
Akathisia on Saphris vs Vraylar Hi, during a manic episode I was prescribed Saphris and had the worst case of restless leg I have ever experienced. It was excruciating. I've been prescribed Vraylar now to start tonight and I'm freaking out that I will have the same issue with it. How common is akathisia on vraylar? Hav... | self.bipolar |
Should I tell my doctor I'm addicted to clonazepam? I've been taking 1mg of clonazepam about 2-3 times a week, sometimes more, for about two years now. I ran out about two weeks ago, and it's safe to say I've hit the withdrawal period. I'm craving them bad, and I've got all these other symptoms which looks like withdra... | self.bipolar |
Don't know what to do with my life. I am 25 and right now i feel lost. I am not rich but, all my life when I have wanted something I ultimately always got it. Be it a material thing, a job, or social company. In all honesty I have very little experience with failure because once I want something I don't stop. But now I... | self.offmychest |
If you are going to want to know about my life at least remember it My father always asks me about my day at dinner. Being in school I do have a confusing schedule that alternates every day with many different teachers. But two semesters in he still can't manager to know who my teachers are or the order they fall in. I... | self.offmychest |
Should I Ask for a different medication if they one I am on made me gain weight? I am on abilify and I am seeing some horrible things about it on the internet. It made me gain almost 50 pounds. Life sucks rn. But my doctor insists that most bipolar meds will make me gain weight. I am on metformin and losing a bit of we... | self.bipolar |
are mental Illnesses curable? I want someone to be frank with me, I mean I have been in therapy since i was 8 and nothing have changed, I suffer from OCD,depression,anxiety disorder and paranoid personality disorder.
I can't suffer anymore I can't everyone says you will get over it but I won't if I live forever with my... | self.SuicideWatch |
Thoughts on being scared to try meds because others had bad experiences Let me say I do all research necessary before starting a new med. About a month ago I was prescribed risperidone to add to my daily prozac. At first I was so scared to try it because seemingly every piece of input I received was negative. I'm glad ... | self.bipolar |
Woke up from a nice dream Fml, why did I have to fucking wake up, now I am back in this hell | self.depression |
Maybe I'm overreacting, but I still feel the affects and fall into depressive episodes because of a failed audition I had a panic attack during a marching band audition, causing me to completely blank on the memorized piece. I explained what happened to leadership, but they told me they didn't care, and gave me an alte... | self.depression |
Another start to a year alone... Anyone else spending the night alone? I'm just gonna fry me up some pork chops, smoke some bud, and play video games. No one to hang out with and I've already been hit by one drunk driver so bars are a no go. O well fuck it! Right? | self.depression |
My last goodbye I've been depressed for a while now, about 7 years, I'm currently 18, and I've completely had it. Life is no longer something I enjoy, It's a constant struggle, I have to push myself to do everything, why do I have bare this existence that I haven't chosen. My health is at an all time low, both mental a... | self.SuicideWatch |
just a lonely rant, pay no attention to me my girlfriend and i broke up about 2 months ago. it at first was a mutual decision as we both realized that eventually we were gonna part ways, so we might as well have done it when we’re young. general differences like how we would have wanted to raise our kids, things we’d w... | self.depression |
I’m so tired I’m so fucking done. I don’t know how to cope anymore. My life is in shambles and i just don’t want to deal with it anymore. the emotional burden is overwhelming and everything is going wrong. I don’t want to die, but i feel like i have no choice. all my friends leave me once i’m not convenient for them an... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just can't talk to people I have never had any friends, I Just can't talk to people its like I have a mental block due to all this depression and anxiety and anderhia and all the hells in the world up in here. Hell isn't hell, this is hell, this is a never ending purgatory. I can't get friends because I am stuck in m... | self.depression |
Narcissism I am a narcissist. My ego tells me that i need to be the best at everything i do. I am good at nothing, but the problem is that i don't have passion for anything because i do enjoy nothing. I have tried may things in life, when i was a kid i was a skater, then i tried with music production, i have also tried... | self.depression |
“How come the ecstasy always depresses me so?“ One of my favorite lyrics, it’s from a short Frank Ocean song called “Mine”. I figured you guys could relate to it too. Frank probably didn’t write it with Bipolar in mind but it’s still relevant to me especially at moment. I was experiencing some hypomanic symptoms last w... | self.bipolar |
Really freaking out and it's now effecting me at work. Ok so I have always had a fear of death that when thinking about it would give me panic attacks especially at night when trying to fall asleep. My thoughts would go into a downward spiral until peak and it makes me leap out of bed.
For 8 days now my fear has now ... | self.Anxiety |
It's all gonna be over soon I reached out how I could, and I got resources. They've helped me grow so much out of the mentality I had, and it was wonderful spending one of my last days happy. But I know too much and I've seen too much of the abuse, and now I have to go. I can't die a child and then come back at 18 and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Not urgent but need someone to talk to Every time I have a good thing I fuck it up. I have struggled with depression for a while and thought I'd gotten over it. I mostly have but i fucked up today on my one month anniversary with my girlfriend. Probably not as serious a case as the others here but I didn't know where e... | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate to admit it but I get a little anxiety attack whenever I see my ex. He is a sociopath without any ability to emphasize and just use people however he wants and gets rid of them in the cruelest way possible when he is done with them or when he is not getting what he wants anymore. And he is so good at being fake ... | self.offmychest |
I just realized I am an emotional abuser My ex left me about a year ago initially on good terms, but quickly turning bad. I was desperately trying to figure out how to get her back, and thought I could do it by casually acting like I didn't give a shit about her. She saw through that. Fortunately for her, her job moved... | self.offmychest |
i need a dopamine hit so bad right now. know what im talking about? it seems like everything ive ever liked or desired it so foreign to me right now. just from the lack of this chemical. im on the verge of finding a supply of it in an extracurricular manner. just one more shot, please. | self.depression |
Why do people insist on phoning when there are perfectly good texting apps -____- | self.Anxiety |
i don't want to die but it feels like the only way im 19 but ive been suicidal since i was about 13 or 14 when i started to realize that the world is full of scum bags and idiots so i dont trust anyone and i just hide how i feel, i want to talk to someone about the shit ive been through but i get so anxious and I worry... | self.SuicideWatch |
It’s just so logical For quite some time now I’ve been thinking about hurting myself. Sometimes just fantasizing, sometimes wishing, sometimes planning. I struggle with severe depression, obsessive compulsive disorder and attention deficit hyperactive disorder. They always seem to compliment and thwart one another. Whe... | self.SuicideWatch |
It's okay to ignore this I have attempted suicide before. I don't want pity or support I think. I just want evidence that I was here. I existed and it didn't go well. I know I might just be crybaby for letting myself feel this way. I can't tell the difference between self pity and self loathing anymore. I used to love ... | self.SuicideWatch |
When you're going to fail, and your brain won't let you stop it Hi all. Been unemployed a few months I recently moved so that I could prepare to be with my long distance love, but she has another few months until she is able to be with me. I have a limited time to figure out what I am doing for work, and my job search ... | self.depression |
I miss her so much... The only person I've ever loved is gone now, before her I wasn't happy but I did not intend to kill myself.
But now that I know true happiness I want to end it.
She was my happiness and the only thing I lived for, she now hates me and doesn't want to talk to me. I hate myself.
I hate being alone... | self.SuicideWatch |
Going off SSRIs after years, and it's kicking my ass. Help. I've been on SSRIs since I was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety 8 years ago. The doctor kept me on my SSRI for a year and a half after my diagnosis in combination with mood stabilizers, but after reviewing data from Daylio it appears that the SSRI i... | self.bipolar |
A positive Outcome to Bipolar I've never been on Reddit before but somehow I wanted to reach out to other Bipolar people and tell my story which is actually a positive one, remarkably considering everything that I've been though. I became depressed around the age of 15 at school, really dark moods would come over me wh... | self.bipolar |
Seriously I have no talents. Seriously I have no talent at all, im not good at nothing I swear.
Why why man, why in the hell I am this way. | self.depression |
Please help For the past three months I've been unemployed, dropped out of school, gained 20+ pounds, and moved back to my parents house. I haven't spoken to any of my friends for that time too. I have been so embarrassed of my appearance that I've been avoiding everyone and avoiding going out except when I have to. I ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm not handling the net neutrality repeal very well [deleted] | self.depression |
I want to talk but at the same time I am too socially nervous [deleted] | self.depression |
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