Today I talk about the reasons I believe I suck both as a Game Master and a Player.  Before Evil Jeff calls in to tell me to stop being hard on myself, this is not about self-flagellation: my purpose has been to analyse the patterns I have fallen into and see what can be done to break bad habits and forge new ones.  While I have felt tempted to give up my hobby in recent weeks - yes, I really have - I feel I owe it to both you and to myself to be honest about the huge mistakes in thinking that I have engaged in over many years.  This episode seeks to exorcise my demons.  Along the way, my hope is that some of this will resonate with other listeners - especially those of you who have become convinced that you can’t have what you desire from a roleplaying game.  I might be very different to you, but I do believe we can find a way to a more compelling, engaging, and fulfilling roleplaying experience.  I want to go beyond mere fun; I want to discover joy.  Before I can work on that, however, I think I need to drive out despair.  Many thanks to Arlen Walker, John Alan Large, and Jon (from Tale of the Manticore) for the call-ins!  Game on!  Roleplay Rescue Theme Song and incidental music by TJ Drennon: patreon.com/TJD Contact Details: Voice Message: anchor.fm/rpgrescue/message Email: hello@rpgrescue.com Patreon: patreon.com/rpgrescue Blog: roleplayrescue.com MeWe Group: mewe.com/join/roleplayrescue (or search "Roleplay Rescue") Facebook Page: facebook.com/roleplayrescue (or search "Roleplay Rescue") Twitter: @ubiquitousrat