"the human body is a highly pressurized system." "*" " The blood pressure measures the force of blood" "Pulsating through the arteries." " great." " What the hell am I gonna do now?" "!" " It's important to keep this pressure regulated." " Damn it!" " Damn it!" " When a heart wasn't available, I opted to continue" "With roy henley's lung transplant..." "Low or inadequate pressure can cause weakness or failure." " It's all in your head." " My name isn't on the o.R. Board." " I checked the schedule." " Nobody wants to work with me, 'cause I'm not on anybody's service." " It's an oversight, okay?" " Just-- just ask around." " Do you know how many things I've screwed up in the last month?" " Stop it." " I'm serious." " Just ask around" "And get on someone's service and get back to work." "... Suggested no pulmonary sepsis." " You smell like you're sweating booze." " Where have you been?" " I want the weekend you had." " What happens in vegas, you know?" " Hey, who's stark?" " I'm supposed to be on stark's service today." " Oh, me, too." " He's the new peds attending," "Since robbins left.  crap." " I can't handle a bunch of sick kids today." " I can't do it." " So was it a bachelor party or" "Shh." " They're talking about cristina." " Oh." " It became clear to dr." " Yang" "That they were gonna need to switch modalities." " The patient was put on ecmo..." "It's when the pressure gets too high" "That problems really occur." " And why did dr." " Yang" "Opt to use the intra-aortic balloon pump over an r-vad?" " I, um..." "I can't answer for dr." " Yang." " And why isn't she here?" " She, um..." "She quit." " She left the program." " I'm sorry." " What?" " She what?" " Dr. Yang cleared the balloon pump with dr." " Mcqueen..." "Who agreed that it was the best" "Go back." " Go back." " Yang quit the program?" " Yeah, where have you been?" " Well, that's the first I've heard of it." " Hunt, what the hell happened?" " She told the chief she quit." " Richard-- if we could just finish the presentation, then" "I have a question." " Can you tell us about" "Your decision to put dr." " Yang in charge of this patient?" " Sorry?" " but she didn't "quit" quit, right?" " Grey." " You're joined at the hip." " What'd she say?" " Uh, she hasn't spoken to me about it." " If the pressure continues to increase," "A closer examination is called for..." "Stop looking at me." " Look up there." " Does torres know anything about this?" " I'm calling torres." " Can we please just" "Look, I guess I'm asking you, why did you choose" "To put dr." " Yang under so much pressure that day?" " I didn't." " I intended the opposite." " I gave her a simple pre-op checklist" "On a stable patient." " stable patient?" " The patient almost died twice." " I couldn't have seen that coming." "*" " I'm sorry." " Is this a, uh, a patient presentation" "Or a postmortem on dr." " Yang?" " Well, you saved the patient." " Because it's the best indicator" "That something is going terribly wrong." " Captioned by closed captioning services, inc." " Hey, mark." " No, no, I was, um..." "I was actually on my way out." " What's up?" " She what?" "!" " I don't know what shepherd's problem is." " What the hell was that?" " How is she doing?" " Is she" "Oh, we're" " I don't know." " She's" "We're good." " We're fine." " It's like nothing has changed," "Yet she refuses to talk about work." " I bring up work, and she goes blank." " Altman, hunt." " Emergent patient ten minutes out." " Can you meet me in the v.I.P. Wing?" " V.I.P. Wing?" " Who is it?" " Oh, you'll find out when we get there." " Listen, hunt, I'm required to send a letter" "To the american board of surgery declaring that dr." " Yang" "Has officially left the residency program." " I have to let 'em know." " I'm asking you," "Is there any reason I need to hold off on sending that letter?" " Yes." " Yes." " Please don't mail it." " Just give us a little more time." " Okay." " Let's go." " Right." " Grey, who are you with today?" " Shepherd." " Damn it." " I've already blown it with shepherd." " I can't ask him." " Uh..." "Bailey." " I haven't blown it with her yet." " He thinks no one wants to work with him." " Are they saying that or are you saying that?" " Here you go, doctor." " Who are you with again?" " Karev." " Uh, I mean stark." " No, you meant karev." " I-- and you don't want to go there." " You don't know where I'm going." " He's right." " You don't want to go there." " I'm not" " I'm not going anywhere." " He's not the guy for you." " Okay?" " Trust me." " And don't be paranoid." " Trust me on that, too." " Oh, but it's okay for you to go there?" " I'm a guy." " I live there." " I gotta find bailey." "*  slow it down, push it to the east coast * * touch down, look around, everyone's the same *" "Hello!" " Cristina!" " Oh, hey." " Hello." " Hello!" " hello!" " Oh!" " Uh..." "What are you doing here?" " I'm not back until next week." " Wait." " So it's true?" " You guys broke up?" " Uh, she's in africa?" " Okay, sloan told me that you quit." " Hey." " What are you doing?" "!" " This." " Go away." " Okay, this is disturbing." " Hey, stop!" " Look, I was unpacking," "But then I didn't enjoy it." " What are you doing?" " What do you mean?" " You don't have a job to go to." " You don't have a girlfriend" "Telling you you have to go to africa." " You're completely free." " You can do whatever you want." " The world is your oyster." " Make lemonade." " I'm trying." " I was gonna get my hair cut today," "Like, make a radical change, but, uh, then I thought," "Hmm, maybe you shouldn't do radical things" "Right after a blonde woman" "Has ripped your heart out of your chest" "And stomped on it." " What are you" "Oh, my god!" " What are you doing?" "!" " Are you insane?" "!" " Let's make lemonade." " oh, my god." " Oh, 97.6" "Stick out your tongue." " Ow!" " Cut it out." " We'll have fun today." " Stark's a got a 4-month-old biliary atresia patient" "Who just found a donor." " a liver transplant on an infant?" " Enough with the damn ping-pong balls!" " Jerkface!" " Whoa." " Inside voices here, please." " So you must be dr." " Karev." " You missed my rounds today." " Oh, sorry." " I" " I had car trouble." " Oh." " Well, there's a classic." " So what, you're here just to kinda yell at my patients and" "Yeah, I'm sorry." " Look, d-dr." " Stark, I am feeling very sick today." " so I think that, you know, well, let's see here." " no fever." " You don't seem to be vomiting." " You retaining control of your bowels?" " Ew." " Yes." " Well, since hangovers are not contagious," "I'd say you're working." " And you can start by prepping my atresia kid." " She's only a few months old, so try not to be a jerkface." " Gimmie that!" " Dr. Webber, ronald dace, state department." " We spoke on the phone." " These your surgeons?" " Uh, yes, this is doctor-- right now, we need to limit access to this area" "To only essential personnel." " Uh, why is that necessary?" " No one can know this man is being hospitalized." " No one can know he's in the country." " evee,e,e,thget e." "board." " Get me a reading." " Got it." " Stand by where you are." " He's in v-fib." " Charge to 200." " And from a global perspective," "It would be great if he didn't die." " Clear." " Clear!" " They faxed more of his records." " these are all in arabic." " Clear!" " It was a car accident?" " The emir's car" "Was hit by a truck as he was leaving the meeting." " What's he doing in seattle?" " He's not." " Let it suffice to say, if he dies," "We've got a serious international incident." " Well, not to mention," "His people are supposed to see their first elections, right?" " I'm not at liberty to d-- unless he dies, in which case," "Then the door is open for al qaeda to move in," "And then your secret meeting was for nothing." " You don't just skip to the crossword, do you?" " Well, I used to work in that neck of the woods." " I know, dr." " Altman-- three years in baghdad," "Two years in landstuhl." " Wow." " You guys are fast." " We are." " Listen, our best outcome here is that we get him stable enough" "To be put on a plane home." " Our best outcome is we save him." " he takes two medications" "One for high blood pressure, one for his cholesterol." " Uh, he was hospitalized late last year for exhaustion." " Did he receive any treatment then?" " No, just rest." " Working too hard." " He works very hard." " Uh, he has a wife, four children..." "Five, uh, if you count me." " He's more than my boss." " He's been, um... he's given me everything, so please..." "We'll do everything we can." " He's in v-fib." " All right, charge to 300." " Clear!" " We'll bring your baby up soon." " Lisa." " Her name is lisa." " The donor was an adult," "So the liver will actually be split between your baby" "Lisa." " Sorry." " We read that" "If the doctor knows your baby's name," "It helps you to kind of bond with her." " We read that's important." " Will dr." " Stark be splitting the liver in situ?" " We know that ex vivo takes less time," "But we also read that in situ gives better results." " W- we're not trying to tell you how to do your job, we" "Oh, no, no, no, of course not." " Please don't apologize." " We'll find out for you." " one second." " Yeah, you want to blow up as many of those guys as you can." " Dr. Stark." " There you go." " You got it." " You got it." " Dr. Stark, uh, can you come talk to the collises, please?" " Oh!" " They've got a lot of questions." " Yeah, I gotta check on that kid's harvest team." " Did you ever hang glide?" " What?" " I-- no." " It's apparently a very good way to become a liver donor." " Wait, sir, are you splitting the liver" "In the body or ex vivo?" " The parents want to know." " Okay." " Those folks have been spending a little too much time" "Consulting dr." " Internet." " Listen, just hold their hands, let them feel smart," "And tell them I am busy getting their baby a liver." " Her name's lisa." " I said I don't need any help." " I've got an easy day-- two laparoscopic surgeries." " I can't use you." " Yeah, well, maybe I can" "I'm sorry, ma'am." " I can't admit you." " Well, you don't need to admit me." " I'll just walk in there myself." " I do it all the time." " Oh" "Uh, chief webber paged me in there." " I'm sorry, ma'am." " Well, who's in there?" " Is it the president or the vice president?" " Is it bono?" " Bono?" " Ma'am, I'm sorry." " I cannot-- bailey, can you take my patients today?" " I got a situation in here." " Oh, of course, sir." " Louise cortez is a readmit after surgery" "For chronic pancreatitis." " C.T. Showed a pancreatic fistula." " And she spiked a fever this morning." " Right." " Uh, sir, you put in a drain?" " Yes, just keep a close eye." " Okay." " Sir." " Is it bono?" " Come on, avery." " I could use you.  yeah." " Okay, but I don't understand." " I'm on your service." " I don't need you." " The craniotomy's been canceled." " I don't have anything for the rest of the day." " So what am I supposed to do now?" " Go study." " Study what?" " I don't care, lexie." " Go somewhere else." " Wh" "Oh, my god." " Mm." " How do we have time for this?" " We have to make time for this." " Mm." " Should I call her?" " Call who?" " Cristina." " Wh-wh-why?" " Because she quit, and I feel like I should do something." " It's not your fault." " You didn't do anything wrong, no matter what she says." " Okay?" " You just need to make time for this." " But-- oh, my god." " Lexie." " What?" " I'm looking for dr." " Meredith grey." " What did you do?" " How's it going?" " can I see?" " Fantastic." " Shut up." " Okay." " Hey, you know what you need" "To, uh, get this place done?" " You need to throw a housewarming party." " Put a little pressure on yourself." " Oh, my god." " We should totally throw a housewarming party." " Mm-hmm." " Oh, my god!" " Oh, my god, no." " Tonight!" " I'll text everyone." " No!" " Yes!" " I have several credit cards and nothing to do." " Okay, that's not what I wanted." " I look" " I-I look injured." " I mean, do you even cut hair?" " I need furniture." " Look at my hair!" " Yeah." " I sorta can't believe you let me do that." " Cristina!" " It's okay." " We'll go to the mall." " You might want a hat." " clear!" " we need to get him to a cath lab." " Yeah, well, if he'd stop coding long enough." " I'm inserting a pacemaker." " You paged?" " Yeah, grey, grab me a pacemaker kit." " Hey, hunt, you're throwing a housewarming party tonight?" " Tonight?" " I am?" " Well, your wife is." " That's a good sign, right?" " It's a weird sign." " Well, but maybe it's an opportunity." " I mean, maybe I could talk to her." " Wait." " Better yet, maybe you could, grey." " Well, we all could." " I mean, it's gonna be hard for her" "To walk out of a room at her own party." " How bad is it?" " I'll tell you when I know." " Maybe a little less party planning." " Hey, I don't tell you how to polish your sunglasses." " Look, between you and me, he's a good man." " And it'd be a shame if something like this" "Screwed up what he was trying to do." " Wow." " Every time I talk to you, I feel a little more relaxed." " The last thing cristina wants is to talk to me." " I just have to give her some space." " We don't have time to give her space." " She's gonna be locked out of this program," "And I do not believe that that is what she wants." " I mean, do you think that's what she wants?" " I'm asking you, grey." " I still don't understand what I'm doing back here." " Dr. Webber said something about a fist." " A fistula." " It's a complication from your surgery" "That's leaking pancreatic fluid." " The drain takes the fluid out of your body" "So it won't go where it's not supposed to." " Okay." " Th-the pancreatic fluid" "Is made to digest your food." " If it leaks in your body," "It starts to digest your other organs." " Well, that wouldn't be good." " Exactly, but not to worry." " Yours is looking just fine." " I just want to keep a close eye on you, okay?" " Well, it seems like I just was home, and here I am again." " You know, I say that every morning." " Dr. Bailey, o.R.'s ready." " Okay." " Um, mrs." " Cortez," "Your temperature is still a little high." " So you just rest," "And we'll get you home in no time." " Okay." " Okay, you're not scrubbing in." " I'm not." " No, watch mrs." " Cortez." " If the fluid in her drain changes color, you page me." " If her fever goes up one digit, you page me." " 'cause the fever could be-- an abscess, early sepsis, pneumonia" "Any number of nasty things." " And remember your first rule of residency" "Eat when you can, sleep when you can... and don't screw with the pancreas." " so much for my easy day." " Nice anastomoses." " No leaks." " How are we doing?" " We good?" " It's not..." "No, it's not quite fitting, is it?" " There's not enough room" "In the peritoneal cavity for the graft." " The liver's too big?" " Uh, the baby is too small." " b.P. 64 over 40." " It's compressing the hepatic vessel." " Sponge." " No, no, no." " Larger, larger, larger." " There we go." " Let's get this sponge tucked up under there," "Take the pressure off the vessels," "And..." "Yeah, that's doing the trick there." " All right." " I think we're done." " But the liver's not gonna fit." " We're not gonna be able to close her up today." " Just wrap her." " This happens with adult split livers." " You just gotta sit tight" "Pe that the swelling goes down enough" "So you can close her up." " Well, how long will that take?" " As long as it takes, karev." " Thank you all." " Great work." " this graft is big." " The swelling-- it's gonna take a lot to go down." " How long can it stay like that, with that sponge in her?" " I don't know." " Isn't it just gonna start to deteriorate?" " I mean, she could get infected." " And-- and what if the swelling doesn't go down enough?" " The liver will die, and she'll be back on the donors' list." " Oh, jeez." " How is this a solution?" " It's not." " Um, how can you not talk to meredith about this?" " She's your best friend." " Ooh, I love that lamp." " You can't just cut yourself off from a person," "Pretend your whole relationship never happened." " I mean, you can," "But it makes you a heartless, soulless monster" "Who I thought I knew, but really didn't." " With wheels on her shoes." " Ugh." " God, how was I okay with that?" " I used to be a lot cooler than that." " I was a lot cooler when I was single." " You were hardly ever single." " I know." " I know." " Oh, I'm actually excited to spend time on my own." " Okay, I thought we were going to a hair salon." " Next." " We're doing me now." " Can I help you find something?" " Yes, I will take that." " That sofa?" " That room." " All of it." " I'll take it." " Uh, you do same-day delivery, right?" " Great." " So it went very well." " The baby looks good, liver looks good," "And I think we can all exhale a little bit now." " When can we see her?" " Soon." " We'd like to keep an eye on her." " There's a little bit of swelling, and I want to see" "That go down, but, uh, yeah, we'll let you know." " Thank you." " Thank you so much, dr." " Stark." " Just..." "Thank you." " Yeah, my pleasure entirely." " You aren't gonna tell them any more than that?" " What would you want me to tell them, karev?" " Well, that there's a chance of infection," "That if the liver doesn't actually conform..." "They could be back on the donors' list." " I mean, they're smart people." " They want to know what could go wrong." " And make them more worried than they already are?" " I think you're not worried enough." " Tell me a better solution." " I, uh" "Can you give me a better solution?" " No." " Well, then keep your mouth shut" "And go do something you can do." " You can start with my post-ops." "*  yeah believe it or not... *" "You tried." "*  what kept me alive is my dream *" "Ow!" " Okay, since when is it okay" "To shoot people in this hospital?" " Now bailey's given up on me, too." " You're on her service." " Why are you still freaking out?" " No." " Bailey's in surgery." " She trusts me" "To watch her post-op drip fluid into a bag every ten minutes." " Ow!" " Okay, inappropriate." " Okay, you should relax." " You get an easy day, you take it." " Shepherd didn't need me," "So I took a nap in the research library." " Give me-- give it to me." " Jerkface." " He's having a rough day." " New robbins is no robbins." " Check this out-- armed escort to get a yogurt." " Okay, who is it?" " Is it bono?" " It's totally bono." " It's all over the hospital." " It's not bono." " Are you going to cristina's tonight?" " I don't know." " okay..." "Not okay.  okay, that's addicting." " Put it away before my guy wrestles you to the ground." " Gimmie that." " No." " Gimmie the ball." " No." " G-- * but I ain't the only one who got problems *" "What's his problem?" " He's having a rough day." " Ahem." " Jeez, I'm coming." "*  but still *" "* I still know how to get down *" "* I stino *" "I'll check in." " The emir's cath confirmed" "That he does have a tear in one of his coronary arteries." " We've stabilized him with a balloon pump, but I am" "Gonna have to perform open-heart surgery to repair the tear." " doctor!" " Doctor!" " Doctor!" " Doctor, please was the tear in his" "Quiet, please." " Please." " Was the tear in his artery" "An injury sustained in the car accident?" " There is no way of-- doctor, don't answer that." " There is no way of knowing if that was the cause." " Can we have assurances that your finest surgeons" "Will be operating on his highness?" " yes." " Uh, these are the chiefs of my cardiothoracic" "And trauma departments." " Sorry." " He was asking your state department." " He didn't mean the finest surgeons in this hospital." " Which is why you might be more comfortable" "Traveling to your own country, where he can" "All right." " All right." " Quiet." " Quiet, please." " Quiet, please." " Thank you." " I understand that there are a lot of concerns" "And agendas here." " But we all have the same goal," "And that is to see this man live." " Now we are out of time, which means we are out of options." " I am your only shot, and you have to take me." " I can only say that if you knew me better..." "You'd feel pretty good about your chances." " Dr. Hunt and I are going to operate," "And we will update you as soon as we can." " Good luck." " you have to tell them to stop." " Tell them they can't operate." " W- why?" " What's the problem?" " Come with me." " He didn't want anyone to know." " He made me swear." " Just tell him what you told us." " Four months ago, the emir was diagnosed with" "An unruptured cerebral aneurysm in his left temporal lobe." " he's in c.T. Now?" " Well, his first neuro came up clear," "But now he's got a blown pupil." " So we think it's burst." " The scan should be up by now." " I swore to him," "I wouldn't say anything till after the election." " I'm still not sure I should've told you." " I might be costing him everything." " You're trying to save his life." " He's trying to save seven million lives," "To make it so seven million people can walk the street" "Without the fear of being murdered by the extremists." " He doesn't, um..." "He risks his life" "Every time he steps out his door." " You're trying to protect him, too," "And I'm sure he'll understand that." " He was headed to surgery?" " Yeah, we're going in on a dissected coronary artery." " oh, yeah, that aneurysm's blown." " Damn it." " That's a huge bleed." " Well, I'm not surprised." " He was shocked seven times and given blood thinner," "Which is unfortunate." " He presented like an m.I. I treated him appropriately." " I couldn't have seen this coming." " Yeah, you've been saying that a lot today." " You know what, shepherd?" " I don't need crap from you." " Apparently I hold the whole fate of the middle east in my hands." " Apparently, now I do, too." " Book an o.R. We're gonna have to work simultaneously." " Oh, can't wait." " Cristina's having a party?" " Cristina yang?" " Yeah, I know, but..." "I'm gonna go." " We're all gonna go and talk to her." " And you should come, too." " I mean, you quit once." " You walked away and came back." " So maybe you have something to say that could help." " No." " No?" " Do you remember" "When you came out to talk to me about coming back?" " Do you remember" "When I hit your engagement ring with a baseball bat?" " Oh, that was a great day." " She's already lashing out." " Don't go and try to confront her." " No intervention on cristina yang." " Do you hear me?" " It's a bad idea." " What are you sterilizing?" " You're kidding me?" " What was so important?" " Uh..." "Sir, I was out of line earlier," "But, uh, I think I found a solution" "For lisa collis' liver." " What is that, a ping-pong ball?" " It's the perfect shape to keep the liver" "From compressing her blood vessels." " It's made of celluloid not plastic," "So it won't break down like a sponge will." " It's gas sterilized, so there's little risk of infection." " I mean, you could leave it in there forever." " Her liver will just grow around it." " I mean, I think it's a..." "You think it won't work." " No." " I was thinking, I left you to do my post-ops," "And here I find you playing with balls." " I don't know, karev." " Am I gonna have to talk to your chief about you?" " Yeah, right." " Mm, I want it sort of, like, badass, you know?" " A little dangerous, a little unpredictable." " Did you bring a picture?" " Mm." " It's more of a feeling." " What do they do all day-- the mall people?" " Look at them." " They move so slowly." " They all mosey." " Look." " Yeah, I, uh, can't turn my head." " Do they just eat things and..." "Buy things" "And complain about their breakups?" " Yes." " Fantastic." " Look at that lady." " She's just gonna eat that pretzel." " That's all she's gonna do." " So what are you gonna do?" " You're just gonna become a mall person, shop and eat?" " This yogurt's pretty good." " I'm serious." "*" " I'm getting a pretzel." " Avery, how's our patient?" " Oh, no change." " Oh, that's what I like to hear." " I'm going into my chole." " So you-- you still don't want me to scrub in or-- no." " I need you to watch" "Mrs. Cortez." " Right." " Well, like I said, no change." " Avery, I need you where I need you." " I don't have time." " No, ma'am." " That's fine." " I get it." " I'm saying, with this letter, there's a time frame now." " You're content to stand back" "And watch cristina lose her spot in this program?" " I'm saying an intervention is not a good plan." " Suction.  it's not an intervention, shepherd." " We just thought, since we were all together-- torsades!" " damn it." " He's in v-fib." " All right, shepherd." " I need you to stop." " We have to shock him." " No, wait." " I'm right in the middle of" "Internal paddles." " All right, charge to 10." " Hold on." " Hold on!" " Shepherd." " Okay." " Clear." " Sinus tach." " Hey, did stark ever respond to my page?" " He's got three discharges." " One of 'em has behe went back in since yesterdon lisa collis." " What?" " Dr. Star" "it's a great idea." " It's so simple." " We'll see if it works." " It is the right shape, and it's celluloid," "So it won't break down." " and the liver will conform to it." " It's a great idea." " Whose idea was it, dr." " Stark, originally?" " Was it yours or dr." " Karev's?" " Let's just see if it works." " And I'm back, mrs." " Cortez." " Did you miss me?" " Would you please let the dog out?" " He won't stop barking." " She's delirious." " Pulse is thready." " I think she's in shock." " Get me her vitals." " Oh, no, no, no." " Damn it!" " All right." " Get me a monitor in here." " Call dr." " Bailey now!" " right away, doctor." " Come on." " I'm almost done here." " Get her into an o.R." "Open her up and wait for me." " I'll be there." " Open-- did you say "open her up"?" " No word from dr." " Bailey?" " Okay." " 10-blade." "*  young girl by * * your side *" "That artery is at the base of the heart." " Bypass would be so much better." " No, I cannot manage this bleed on bypass." " Okay." " Good." " There." " I can clip the aneurysm." " I need you stop doing what you're doing." " I am trying to do a coronary graft" "On a hemorrhaging heart." " What do you suggest I do?" " Do it faster." " All right." " I need you to stop making this my fault." " All right." " Pack that." " I tried everything I could for yang." " I encouraged her into the o.R. I kept her out of the o.R." "I don't know what else I could've done differently." " All right." " Hold pressure." " More." " Okay, good." " Go." " Yang was my student." " Don't you think that I wanted to help her?" " I have no doubt that's what you wanted to do." " But you're saying that I failed." " I'm saying that we all failed." " So now it's time just to back off." " No, shepherd, you need to back off." " She's my wife." " And I'm not gonna give up on her yet." " All right." " It's clear we all have the same goal." " We want her back." " Done." " I got it." "*  that way *" "I'm sorry." "*  that way *" "I have a personal stake in this, too." " I would not be standing here if it wasn't for her." " Right." "*  now it's... *" "But you're asking us to do nothing," "And we can't do that." " I can't do that." " Okay." " Let's start closing." "*  still come here *" "* shouldn't have loved * damn it!" " Time of death--7:41." " son of a bitch!" " This is not my fault." " She's got a fistula." " They get delayed hemorrhage." " Post-op pancreatectomies always get fistulas." " I didn't screw this up." " Avery, I" "No, you listen." " They always get fistulas," "Then they get severe complications," "D." "You told me to open her up, and then you weren't here." " I tried to fix it." " Avery" "This is not my damn fault!" " Dr. Avery!" " Step out of my o.R." "*..." "Way *" "*" "We are awesome." " I can't believe we did all this." " Uh, I-I did all this." " You opened one bottle of wine." " Could you find where the napkins are, please?" " Hello." " Oh, damn it." " Uh, not ready." " Hi." " Hey, if you're here for the party," "You're, like, way too early." " I'm not here for the party." " Are you here to tell me to come back?" " No." " But a bunch of other people are coming to do that." " Oh, god." " Are you okay?" " I'm sorry." " I" " I tried to find you." " He is awful." " He tried to take all the credit." " Well..." "Is the kid okay?" " Is it gonna work?" " Yeah, yeah." " I mean, o- of course it's gonna work." " It's brilliant." " I" " I'm" " I'm gonna talk to the chief..." "Because it-- it is so unfair." " You did every single thing right today." " I mean, you covered that attending's ass," "And you got-- you got crapped on every step of the way." " It-- the chief should know that." " Oh, April" "No, no, no." " You're so..." "What you did today was so great." " You know, you don't deserve this." " I just" "I wanted you to know that somebody knows that," "That I know that." " Oh." " You know I'm a..." "I've never, um..." "This is my first time." " I know." " You wanna stop?" " No." " No, I don't want to stop." " I just-- no." " Can" "Can we-- can we just go a little slower?" " What?" " Um, can you-- can" "Can we please just go a little s-slower?" " I just" " I need" " I'm-- what-- what-- need?" " What?" " What do you need?" " What-- what do you need from me?" " You want to screw?" " Let's screw." " Y- you don't?" " Then get out." " I'm not gonna hold your virgin hand" "And walk you through it, damn it." " You're not a child." " I can't take care of you!" " I can't take care of everybody in this friggin' place!" " Oh." " Hi." " Hey." " Uh, I usually do a post-op exam right now." " Yeah." " Well, he's on a c130" "Halfway across the country by this time." " Oh, so I don't get to check on his recovery?" " He's being well taken care of." " You did a good job." " I can tell you that." " What are you still doing hanging around?" " Well, I wanted to say thank you." " And that it, uh..." "Was nice meeting you." "*" " I'd say the same..." "But you were never here." "*" "*" " Istinct conversations)" "* welcome." " Wine's on the table, beer's in the fridge." " I have a fridge?" " And since you actually live here," "I'll hand over the hosting duties to you." " Where's cristina?" " Haven't seen her, which is sort of rude." " Torres might know." " Hang on." " Callie, yang say where she was" "Oh, um..." "Can I move in with you?" " That might be the rebound talking." " not like that." " Not that." " Just until I can get rid of the subletter in my place." " I'm starting from scratch, and I don't..." "I don't want to do it alone." " Can't we be alone together?" " Isn't it easier to be single in pairs?" " This a riddle?" " No." " I'm drunk." " Come on." " Can I?" " Sure." " yay." " Your hair..." "Is hot." " Right?" " Oh, hi." " Hey." " Um, uh, I'm sorry." " I" " I didn't" "I know I should bring a gift, like a-a housewarming gift," "To things like this, but I didn't..." "I didn't really have time to bring anything." " So I'm just really sorry." " It is really-- it's no problem." " what happened?" " April?" " Hey, hey." " Come on." " Come on." " come on." " Has anybody seen cristina?" "*" " If you're asking my opinion," "I think you should." " I think you absolutely have to." " You should keep..." "And refinish the original floors." " Why do I have to?" " I mean, like, I mean, you guys did what," "Like bamboo or something?" " We're building our house from scratch." " We can put down whatever we want." " You have original oaoodo I n't like it?" " I mean, what if-- what if I hate oak?" " It doesn't matter." " You have to do it." " The building's historic." " Ugh." " I know." " God." " Okay." " Okay, but I mean... okay." " Every pressurized system needs a relief valve..." "*" "There has to be a way to reduce the stress," "The tension..." "I got there as fast as I could." " It was a grade-c fistula with a ruptured splenic artery." " You did everything you could." " Avery, too." " Why don't you go home?" " Yes, sir." " Bailey, look" "Why do we see so many post-op fistulas" "After pancreas surgeries?" " I mean, your operation is flawless." " It doesn't matter." " We still we fistulas in, what, 20% of patients." " I think..." "There's a way to bring that number down." " I just gotta find it." " Miranda" "I needed a win, sir." " I" " I've got a string of big losses," "And..." "I could use a win." " That's all." " Yang..." "Yang was the one I didn't have to worry about." " I know." "*" " I know." " Before it becomes too much to bear." " Look into the pancreatectomy patients." " Figure it out," "And then let me know how I can help." " Uh, can I use avery?" " He actually gave me the idea." " He was great today." " Well, that's good to know." " You know alex karev saved a baby's life" "With a ping-pong ball?" " A ping-pong ball?" " Yes, he did." " alex karev." " There has to be a way to find relief..." "Because if the pressure doesn't find a way out..." "It'll make one." " Oh, listen." " Let me talk to her." " all right." " Come here." " Come on." " Here." " Come on." " It will explode." " Okay, okay." " Okay, okay." " Let's go." " Let's go." " Outside." "*" " It's the pressure we put on ourselves" "That's the hardest to bear..." "You think it was hard for yang..." "To quit, to..." "To just walk away?" " Oh, don't be stupid." " You're not quitting." " Besides, you might have just gotten yourself fired" "Or arrested, probably both." " Yeah, well," "April is the only friend I have left here, so..." "Don't be stupid." "*" " The pressure to be better than we are..." "What the hell were you thinking?" " She's a virgin." " Why would you do that?" " I know." " God-- ow!" " Ow." " I mean, if you needed it that bad, alex," "You should've gone back to vegas." " There's a whole industry there." " I didn't go to vegas." " I went to iowa." " You went to iowa." " I went home." " My brother-- remember aaron?" " Yeah." " The doctors said..." "He got diagnosed schizophrenic," "Just like my mom." " You know how they figured it out?" " He tried to kill our little sister." " She's 16, she's a kid," "And her brother tried to kill her." " And my mom didn't do anything 'cause she's off her meds, and..." "Anyway, I was in iowa." " That's where I went," "To my brother's commitment hearing." " I had to commit him." " Whatever." " The pressure to be better than we think we can be..." "Well, it's good that you were there." " I wasn't there." " I wasn't." "*" " I showed up," "I held my sister's hand in the hospital" "For, like, ten minutes," "I shoved some pills down my mom's throat," "I signed my brother into a nuthouse..." "And I got the hell outta there as fast as I could." " I wasn't there." " I'm the ass who can't stand to be there." " It never..." "Ever lets up." " I should go down there." " Ugh." " I have to go down there." " Yeah." " I should go." "*  sing me to sleep tonight *" "You good?" " Anything else you want to talk about?" "*  it's gonna be all right *" "What are you doing for bathroom tile?" " Oh, bathroom tile." " Uh, ooh." " Uh..." "*" "It just builds and builds and builds."