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Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I want sauce (female preteens please leave i dont like you guys)
Ay give me something I can actually dry fk my hand with. so dat the milky goo-ahem.
anyways, i want saaauce. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I cannot go on like this anymoreI used to have specific goals and always have the motivation to do my best in everything but not anymore. For half of this year, I do not see myself as normal anymore. I barely got out of bed, not cleaning myself properly, grew empathy towards everything, including my works at university (which was something super important for me in the past cause I have to keep my scholarship). Nothing seems to matter anymore, I feel like breathing but not living. I stopped talking to my friends for a while now cause all I can think of is how terrible I am right now and how it would be much better if I disappeared. I have an amazing family, which is so amazing that I feel so bad to let them put up with me for this half of the year. I have tried it once and ended up in the hospital for over a week. But even after that, the thoughts still exist in my head as it is the only way. I hate living as not having direction and purpose, motivation like this, I have never been like this before and it scared me that I cannot go back to myself anymore. Believe it or not, I used to be very optimistic and now I'm just a complete mess, my brain feels like mush and things are just so tired. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | If the psychiatrist I'm seeing in an hour can't help me, that's the end of meI just can't anymore | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | might be curtains for mehi. im a 17 yr old student whose parents have just found out is failing hs in their senior yr. i dont i dont have many friends but the few i have were great people. but i cant live with the shame knowing that ill never be what my parents expected of me. maybe a while after this ill already be dead? this is probably gonna be my only post. man this is tough but itll be over soon | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Why do I think about killing myself?Biologically why am I depressed and always think about killing myself?
You can argue that it's chemical imbalance, if that's true. that means I'm defected. Is suicidal thoughts nature way to get rid off the defected genes? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I'd honestly rather end up homeless to die from exposure than face my fearsHow does someone get out of this mess of a mindset?
The summer is almost over, and I'm starting my senior year with bullshit finals. Thinking that school is utter bullshit doesn't help my situation but I digress. Tomorrow I'm supposed to start being tutored. The "greatest" thing about this tutoring is that I'm not going to be alone there. There are going to be other students that I've never seen (but I assume THEY know each other). I've almost completely forgotten how the first day of High School where I didn't know everybody went, so I assume it didn't go that well especially since I negatively exaggerate everything that I do. If I'll have to do another one of these awkward introductions I'll probably just leave and dig a hole to live there.
At this point I just don't want to exist. I know it's such a small and shitty reason to be this scared but I just can't. I tried many times to find friends and honestly, it worked (because my cousin had a lot of friends and helped me but that doesn't matter). Although, I wasn't very honest with myself while I tried to be the extrovert type of person. I certainly don't want to do that again. Not to mention that during the final exams, I'll have to do oral tests which require me to speak to teachers I've never seen in my life. Oh, and there's also the "super cool awesome epic senior party" that I REALLLLLLLLLLY don't want to go to. It just feels like I'm less and less of a member of society. I don't want to work because 99% of workplaces require you to talk to other people. I just want to be myself and sit at home. I recently started learning guitar so that kinda eases my pain. I feel like it's just a pathetic excuse to continue being like this though. Thinking that I'll have to start being what society defines as a successful person honestly makes me want to vomit. What the fuck do I do? I tried all the surface bullshit of "look at the positives" or "just bear through it", fuck all that. I just don't want to do anything ever, I want to be a pathetic loser that never leaves the house and that has the most unhealthy lifestyle in the entire world if that means that I won't have to go outside and face my fears. I swear... if it wasn't for this annoying-ass natural fear of death that we're conditioned to have by our brain's hardwiring I'd be long fucking gone (and I also bet overpopulation would never be a problem if it was that way). pls help, even "it'll be fine" helps
P.S. Sorry if this isn't the sub good for this, I posted this on r/depression and it got no responses. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Does over drinking help with suicide?Not death from alcoholism, but the help of alcohol to make it easier hang yourself or something? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Today I learned that golf is super fucking expensive So where I live every spring there’s this magazine that the youth department sends out to everyone for stuff to do over the summer, and I thought “Ooh! I wanna do golf!” So I looked at the prices for golf, and from 9am-12am, it costs USD$345, *per day*!
Now, I did the math, and assuming a pint of Coffee flavored Ice Cream costs USD$4, then 86.25 pints of Ice Cream, (which is nearly 10 gallons) is worth half a day of golf. 10 gallons of ice cream, is equal to *half a day of golf*. That is ridiculous! | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Is there honestly any reason not to...?I have been suicidal for probably the better part of 5 years and looking back at my life and where I am now I always ask myself "why didn't I just do it then?" Nothing ever improves, I'm too much of a pathetic fuck up to ever improve it. I realize a few people here will still say I have hope, but realistically take a look at my current life and take your mindset off of a suicide relief mentality for a second. If any person in real life read what I am about to describe below they would most likely agree that there is no point.
27 and never been on a date. never had a girlfriend. Still a virgin. First and last kiss at age 9. Only sexual contact I've had at all was with a prostitute.
I am a disgrace and shame to my family. At this point I have 0 relationship with any of them. The only person who has tried to even contact me is my sister and I more or less told her not a single one of them will ever see me again unless it is to identify my body
I have grown to resent the few friends I have because they seriously probably don't give a fuck about me. At this age they are all basically finding partners and settling down. Not one of them has ever even tried to help me, they know my issues but they would never even go out of their way to invite me to do anything with them or introduce me to someone. I know it is not their problem but for others who have suffered the same problems they seem to forget what it is like pretty quick once they find a partner.
Have an extremely shitty job only to afford my studio apartment that I will most likely die alone in. I assume nobody will even notice until another tenant smells my dead body days later and alerts the landlord.
College Dropout. Eventually it started to destroy me seeing every asshole I dormed with bringing home girl after girl after girl. Then even seeing my just as equally as clueless friends get lucky from time to time was devastating as I literally not once got any female attention in college. Now I see all these bastards with great jobs and lives just because they are more charismatic, attractive and better networkers than an introverted, shy pussy like me.
I'm ugly as fuck
- 110lbs soaking wet
- Balding very, VERY badly
- Acne
- 5'5"
- Indian...Is there a bigger kiss of death in America...or anywhere for that matter?
There you have it. Maybe if I die now there will be nothing but a void of eternal sleep, maybe I will be reincarnated as a less pathetic being, don't really care as long as I don't have to live out the rest of this life with the shit cards I have been dealt. I'm not going to put any effort into a complete lost cause. I've tried it before (therapy, medication, traveling, exercise, okcupid, pickup) and have had absolutely zero results. I'm not going to hit the gym, I'm not going to r/mensfashion or r/seduction or r/getmotivated, I am not going to bother. I actually hope a troll see this and pm's me full proof methods of suicide because if I fail at this then I truly am useless. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I feel so m fucking exhausted it hurts - I want to express to the world my pain - in my social media but I don’t want to freak people out - I just feel alone and tried all the time and I’m mentally deteriorated.Don’t know if I can wait till February to end my life I just want to end it now - be in a coma until things get better | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | ..no one cares about me thats the truth and i have to accept it | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Dad jokes daily until I get a girlfriend #229 What do you do when you see a space man?
Park your car, man. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I will probably kill myself in the near future without ever bring the subject up to my psychologist.Why simply because as a minor the government (at least in my state) requires psychologist to break confidentiality if a **minor** is at risk of abuse, self harm, or thinking about/harming others.
So since I am not able to turn to anyone in confidence I will likely die without ever attempting to seek help despite it being available. Isn't it funny how the governments attempt to help me will be a contributing factor in me never being able to use a service that could have potentially saved me. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I’m doing rlly bad and i need friends About me:
16, they/them pronouns, dark humor, diverse taste in music, rlly likes talking abt old books and video games, knows a lot abt sonic, i’m overall cool
but overall, life sucks rn and it’s rlly hard to find friends and i’m going through a lot and need some friends | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Can i make my eyes look red in a safe way? I need to make my eyes look red for halloween and also red eyes look pretty cool, idk why but it is. So I want a way to make it red for a long time | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | On my outBeen abused for 6 years. No way out. Just took 3
bottle of cymbalta and about 40 50mg trazadones and downed it with some vodka. Let’s hope it works this time. Laying with my dog, texted my mom to say goodbye. I’m scared but all I can hope for is a peaceful ending. May god be with me. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | My plan1.gather one of every pill in the cabinet i am allergic to pinasillian which means I have a 5% chance of have an allergic reaction to any other Sillian there are five in their that is a 30 percent chance to die from that get bottle of vodka drink grab knife and rope go into room wait 15 minutes in that time my blood vodka levels should be high enough rub knife in dirt and other contaminants harder to treat if I somehow live
2. Tie robe in hangman’s noose make sure legs can’t reach
The ground stab myself with knife pull knife out vodka makes it go faster and take pills stabs in kidney in leg bigest blood vessel and mussel then in throat high chance of death even if found probably overkill | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | fuckedEveryone said it would get better but it still hasn't. It has been months and i have only gotten sadder. That is all that ever happens. My life is meaningless. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Are normal shaving razors the same as single edge razorsAre the razors people use to shave their body hair the same as the ones people usually use to self harm with? As in are they sharper? Or is there really no difference. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | What do you do to entertain yourself? I was bored for in last couple of days, and had no idea what to do. help | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | SupportIf no one reaches out today from my friends or family I'm pretty sure I'm just gonna give up all together. I know it's wrong and not worth it and that people care and that should stop me but it won't. I'm just ready to give this all up. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore and I don't want to suffer anymore | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Guess the Pokemon! I bet you'll get it wrong! [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EE-xtCF3T94](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EE-xtCF3T94)
So? What'd you guess? | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I’m alone in every possible way and I just wish someone could be there for me.I have not been diagnosed with anything. The way I am is just normal for my age (I’m 13) but everything just sucks.
I have a few friends from elementary but now in middle school, I talk to them less and less and keep finding myself distancing from them. We rarely have anything in common and I have to fake react everything. Even if I did have great friends at school, just the thought of being with them outside of school is scary and I hate that feeling. I want to be alone but I hate feeling alone. I just go along with everything to make it quick.
Everyday I wake up in bed and can barely force myself out of bed. I can’t bring myself to worry about showering,brushing my teeth, going to the bathroom or doing important homework unless it al gets really bad. I want to be in my small, crappy room, listening to music where it is my only outlet.
School work has been driving me crazy and I can’t even complete anything because I’m so stupid. I get distracted and can’t focus clearly during class. When I even miss any part of the lesson, whether it’s my fault or not I start to panic because I worry about my grades. Missing class is my biggest fear and if I do I get mad at myself and injure myself without even realizing it. I hit, cut, scratch and stab my self with anything that’s near me. Luckily nothing has ever left a scar except this one time out of rage. I worry about my grades so much and can’t even accept B’s yet I give up during the work. I can’t keep up with it all because they hand out so many big projects and although we have enough time I always wait until last minute. I don’t ask for help from anyone because I don’t want them to think lower of me or seen as a failure but I can’t count on anyone else to help. It always has to be my way. Why?
There’s more reasons but I’m just tired at this point. I’ve been having these suicidal thoughts around two years ago yet haven’t started injuring since earlier this month because of a pack of blades I found in my molds drawer (thanks mom). I can’t wait until I’m older and just drive away and let go of myself completely. I first hesitated because I didn’t want to hurt my lol form my sisters passing but at this point, I’m desperate. I tried to reach out to her because I may have had social anxiety but nothing is ever done. She forces me to go out now so I will face my fear and it will eventually fade with age but I’ve been this way forever.
One day, hopefully, I’ll get my shit together. I’ll get a job as soon as possible and save up to get an affordable job. I’ll ride that baby up to Fred Hartman Bridge and just look at the view. And then I will let go. Nothing will hold me back. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I need help I asked my crush out a year ago and she said no but it really never hit me until now and i dont know how to get over it any advice? | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Being forced to take ineffective medication with extremely negative side effectsMy mother went to the doctor (**not psychiatrist**) and asked that I be prescribed to a stimulant for ADHD that she has decided that I have. No tests were performed nor questions asked. I forget the name of the drug but it doesn't matter. I have no choice but to take it, she watches me take it every morning and I am not allowed to eat until I do.
Before I was forced to go on this medication (for 2 years or so) I had struggled with depression. Recently (for 2 months or so) this has gotten much better. I've had a positive outlook on lots of things, I have been outgoing, I've been less of a struggle at home and I've developed a better relationship with... everyone.
Now that I'm on this medication, I cannot get more than 5 restless hours of sleep at night (insomnia was already a big problem) and can't wake up due to severe lethargy (which was also already a big problem). The medication does not help anything concentration-wise, it only makes everything worse.
I hate what it's doing to me. Since being on it I've fallen back into an old addiction, depression, self-harm, and thoughts of suicide. I've stopped talking to several people because I have nothing interesting to say. I can't do several hobbies, such as biking and rock climbing, because I no longer have any energy.
My mother is convinced that this medication will make it "easier to deal with annoying people" and "situations [I] don't like". It is a stimulant and is not meant to do either of those things. On top of that, she refuses to go to the doctor or a psychiatrist and find a medication that actually works. She complains about the cost and the time it would take.
I'll likely be dead, literally or just mentally/emotionally/spiritually in a few weeks if this doesn't stop. What can I do? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Everyone hates me, me included.I begged an old friend to let me back into their social circle but they all said no. I'm such a fucking terrible person I want to fucking slit my wrists but I'll never have the courage to do that so I'll just fucking eat and drink myself to death instead | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | The letter I wish I was brave enough to send my loved onesI’m going to kill myself after work tonight. I’ve been preparing my letter for a week now, but I can’t bring myself to send it, so I’m dropping it here. Not sure what compelled me to. Maybe it’s one last cry for help.
Dear Mum, Dad, and everyone.
I’m sorry that I killed myself. I’m sorry if you start to feel like this is your fault. I wish I could say something to take away the pain, but I know that’s likely impossible for you right now. In this letter, I want to say why it happened, because I lived so long in silent suffering.
I’ve killed myself because I have nothing. Everything has been stolen from me.
Depression stole my relationship with you guys from me. I remember how much fun my mates and I used to have, and now look at how it was in the end. I was too broken to even speak. I didn’t have any self esteem whatsoever and I could see how my silence weighed us down. You deserved better.
My job stole my dignity. I couldn’t support myself when they cut my hours, but honestly that feels like my fault for being autistic and unable to adapt to regular work. Now what do I do, I spend my time doing sex work. I should have worked harder at fixing myself but I didn’t.
I guess I just wish I could have said all of this when I was alive. I wish I could admit it, and I hope hearing it provides at least some context for why I did what I did. Never in my life did I want to be diagnosed with autism, or be a prostitute, or lose my connection with those I love, but it happened to me. It happened and it was fair. I couldn’t take looking at myself in the mirror and I couldn’t stand therapy. How does a girl like me stand in the mirror and say affirmations to myself? How can I do the things that I do and tell myself I’m worth it?
I can’t, I couldn’t.
I love you guys. You kept me here for as long as I could stand it. But I’m the end, seeing how my depression was hurting you was enough to make me realise there was no hope for me. I’m just sorry I couldn’t have done more to help you all .
Love,
That’s it I’m sorry if this is a bannable post. I guess I’m just lost and was using a default for one final push for guidance | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I’m a cuddly bastard someone give me some love I want some love and cuddles so much right now, please chat with me. Also look at my profile please | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | the threads that keep me hanginga few years ago, i lost someone important to me. and as a consequence i eventually lost most of the things close to me, from my friends to my identity
i think if i ever separate my thoughts of suicide from this person... will be the day i succeed in killing myself | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I Just Feel Like Everything's PointlessHalf the time I don't get the point of living. I'm turning 21 in a week. I don't have any friends to speak of, so it's probably just gonna be a day of me nursing a Jack Daniels by myself. Honestly, I haven't had a real friend in almost two years, just 'allies' and people I follow on Facebook. If I was living by myself, no one would know if I was gone if I suddenly dropped dead.
It just feels like there's no point to anything. I don't know what I want to do with my life. Fuck, I don't even know how to drive. I'm not creative or talented or even half interesting. Hell, my own relationship's falling apart and it feels like it's only a matter of time before my partner has enough of me.
I used to self harm and I was a lot more suicidal two years ago. I'm supposed to look like I'm doing better. I'm not supposed to still be craving my harming tools after all these months but honestly I still do. I'm transgender (FTM), and I'm supposed to be a success story, not pathetic. People tell me I'm funny, cool, and deserve a chance but it feels kind of empty to me.
I try to do what I can to improve my situation. I join groups and try to get out and meet people. But it feels like I can't connect with anyone. I work from home and it's not because I really wanted to work in my boxers but I don't want to be around people who are going to judge me. i feel like that's all people have ever done to me all my life. I was either fat, a freak, a queer, or stupid.
I was sexually assaulted a year ago by a date and I want to be able to go one day without thinking about what happened anymore. I'm seeing a therapist but I don't feel like it's doing any good. I feel like too much is wrong with me. In fact, the last friend i had basically stopped talking to me after they found out what happened.
Why shouldn't I step out in front of traffic? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I cannot stand my life anymoreAs I'm typing this, my family are getting ready to go on a nature walk. They don't know I'm typing this. They don't know that I've got a Reddit account or spend a lot of my time in r/SuicideWatch.
I couldn't take high-school and so just stopped going, and am now home-schooled. Most of the time I spend the day alone, and I love it like that. I attempted suicide a few months ago but chickened out, and since then I'm trying to prove to myself that I'm not worthless. I've started digital art, I write stories, I've gotten into computer programming, and generally just like to think in peace and quiet.
But now there's the Coronavirus and my family will start staying home, and that will pretty much ruin the next four months, or however long the lockdown is in place.
I quite like video-games, and have recently fallen in love with Elite Dangerous. I find it to be a relaxing experience. But with everybody staying home, the computer is almost constantly used. I can't write, can't draw, can't continue my programming. My two sisters are loud as fuck and never stop running around the house. I have aero-phobia. Every Easter we go to Greece for holidays, but last Easter i refused, to my Dad had to stay behind while everybody else went. I'm breaking the family apart and everybody knows it. Whenever my family have to go out there's this huge drama because I don't want to go see a few flowers for five hours when i could be doing more productive things with my time. My parents have started blaming me for breaking everything apart, and they're right. That's why I'm trying to kill myself. I'm trying to end my life so that they can enjoy more things in the future without me bogging them down.
Due to my stolitary life I have no friends, online or otherwise. I have no one to talk to or confide in. My life just isn't worth living anymore. I can't end myself because I'll be stopped and placed in a hospital for crazy people. My parents have threatened to do that after i tried running away.
I think of myself as a little shitstick and I know from experience when writing that if I go back and edit this, I'll lose confidence and erase it, so please forgive any mistakes. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | A failed attemptAbout 9 days ago, I attempted to commit suicide. It was very rough. But I did go for it. Now still “alive” in a local hospital. I don’t know for sure how the police knew about my attempt, but I believe that someone from OrganDonor(.gov) notified the police. I went there couple of days prior to my suicide to register as a donor; they must have noticed the scars on my wrest. Or I didn’t look well that day. That’s the only place I went to prior to my suicide attempt. Anyway, I still cannot find a single reason to be thankful for that I’m still alive. I don’t think they’d let me go home, but I still want to do it ... they think therapy can fix me. I believe I’m damaged beyond repair. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | At the end of the day.Meaningless world that is fake, nothing means anything to me. There is no intelligence pointing meaning towards me. I’m wired to do a search for something that isn’t there. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | If I can't get on estrogen in the next 6 months im ending itI have my plan ready, I'm sure it will work, I'm not sure why I've decided to post this, but it's what im gonna do. In the mean time I'll just scar up my legs more. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Its hurts please let me dieI'm afraid. This pain is so overwhelming I just want to make it all go away. I'm stuck in this cycle and this hole and the only option is for me to die. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Hi, I'm high home hippie homie double yippie kai yay And my girlfriend is blowing me | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Do I deserve to die?Maybe I am one big scum and i deserve to die. Today i sent nude photos to one guy and he paid $50. I am in bad spot financially and I applied for Visa too (document for moving countries)
I have boyfriend too who knows about me sending nudes and even he approved the other guy suggestion but i feel like shit. My boyfriend was so sweet and treid to comfort me after that saying how much he loves me but I feel bad.
Anyways I imagined that i sent the nudes to him not the other guy to not feel disgusting .
*please no attacks* | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | experte from my google meet context: we were talking about what we would do if a friend was cheating
(names changed)
**Margaret**
**Shara \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:30 AM
I would tell so they can actually learn stuff and pass the class
**You** 8:30 AM
no
​
**Dave \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:30 AM
that smart
**You** 8:30 AM
you stupid
**Dave \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:30 AM
who me?
**Shara \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:30 AM
Excuse me?
**You** 8:30 AM
not\*
**Luke \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:30 AM
oof
**Corey \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:31 AM
😳
**Luke \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:31 AM
thats rough
**Corey \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:31 AM
But I dont disagree @ dave
**Dave \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:31 AM
thanks :)
**Juli \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:31 AM
Thats smart
**Shara \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:31 AM
u/Issac who did you call stupid?
*(note: dumbass misspelled my name)*
**You** 8:31 AM
my self
**Juli\_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:31 AM
thats very smart
**You** 8:31 AM
please im back peddiling here
**Luke \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:32 AM
karmaaaaaaaaaaaaa
**You** 8:32 AM
no u
**Charlie Holovach \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:32 AM
!
**Shara \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:32 AM
\*sighs at all of the random stuff in the chat\*
**You** 8:33 AM
no u
**brayer (in voice)** 8:33
\*something I don't quite remember\*
**Duke \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:33 AM
same u/bryar
**Charlie \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:33 AM
unless they are sherlock they would know
**Luke \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:34 AM
!
**Kata \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:34 AM
None of my best friends would do that anyway so....
**Shara \_ Student - GenericSchoolMS** 8:35 AM
I haven't actually ever seen anyone cheat on a test, just Battleship during recess
\~end of transcript\~ | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | 3 days ago I posted about me quitting self harm and finally starting to work out. 3 days in, I'm going strong and I'll be posting an update every sunday on whether I went clean through the whole week. Thanks for reading :) | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I don't think I want help? (trigger warning)Before you even get to reading this I just want you, whoever you may be, that I do not want your pity. I do not want you to sit there and tell me that "things will get better" and that I should "just wait it out" because in all honesty I do not, nor will I ever, believe it.
In 2014 I was raped but a youth worker, yeah I guess things were bad before hand but when that happened there was no way of stopping what was to come. I wish I could say that I'm no longer effected by it and that I'm stronger now but I cant lie to you like that. It was like a domino effect. As soon as the first domino goes down, they rest of them go crashing down with it.
After that happened I kind of lost it. I stopped eating, I stopped sleeping, I couldn't do anything but hide away and avoid everything. I even attempted suicide a number of times.
Fast forward to October, 2015, my mother kicked me out because she could "no longer help me" although she hadn't tried to help me in the first place. Between October and January I lived in 3 different places plus spent 2 weeks without a home. Again, I tried to kill myself a number of times.
March, 2016, my mother officially cut me off. She said she no longer wanted me to be involved with her, my step dad and all of my siblings. I was "a danger" to them all for the ways I tried to hurt myself.
April, 2016, I turned 17. And as many times before, I tried to kill myself.
I'm sorry for having this dragged on but I'll get to the point of this whole thing now.
Its the 9th of May, 8:00pm, and after 5 years I have finally come to the conclusion that there is nothing here for me. There is no "happy ending". Life DOESNT get better. It will NOT be okay in the end.
| suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Hey haha ur so hot don't kill yourself 😅🥰🥳😝😜💯💯😳 ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | What did i do wrong? So a few weeks ago I got this crazy idea with a girl who lived 12 hours away that when i pass by her city with my family (as we were on a road trip) I would pick her up and we would live together in our other house for like a week. I had a huge crush on her and she seemed interested as well even though we had met only once before. Now I super excited to meet her as this girl was a dream come true for me, she was gorgeous, had a good personality and we shared many interests. Everything went really well and we were cuddling basically all the time for the first two days. I was happier than I've been in a such a long time. Yesterday we Played COD the entire evening and had a lot of fun. However I noticed that she was not so much into cuddling anymore so I gave her some space and asked if she feels okay with me cuddling with her, she said it's fine. However this morning she told me she doesn't want me sleeping with her anymore and doesn't come close to me anymore. It's pretty clear she lost all interest in me and I have no idea why. I hadn't done anything special during the night/evening. This just broke me completely and I have no idea what should I do as she's still going to be here with me for quite some time.
Not only this but we walked into some of my old high school bullies and as usual got told I look like shit etc, she witnessed it all. She obviously tried to cheer me up but Something like that really hurts. With all this and a lot of stress about school I can feel getting deprssed again. I just feel like im a person who's really hard to like in any way and i just know that afterall the problem is me. I just don't know how to change. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I need to die soonI need to die before I go into the army. My girl just left me and I cant make it through the army alone. I’m planning on jumping off a 5 story parking garage, but every time I get to the edge I end up backing out. How do I work myself up to do it. What drugs should I take? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | wanna join a discord server run by people on this sub? it’s called Nova Terri and it’s run by people on this sub. if you’re cool you should join. DM for invite | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | 2020I'm using my throwaway for reasons I hope are obvious.
I understand I may be overreacting but the things that I'm feeling are so overwhelming and I can't distance myself from them anymore. I'm in a constant state of anxiety and stress over the election and the pandemic. I feel like I can't hold on anymore. This year has already taken so much of me away, damaged me so badly, that I feel like there's nothing left to hold out hope on.
I'm exhausted. I'm scared. I'm depressed. I can't even talk to my parents since we have opposing political views. I'm only 16, turning 17 in a few weeks, so I don't have many options. I can't move somewhere else, I can't vote, and I'm still young enough that my voice doesn't really have an opportunity to be heard- I'm 'too naive', 'uneducated', 'gullible', etc.
I just don't know what to do. I fear if Trump is reelected that that will be the tipping point for me. I can't handle another 4 years of pain.
If this post isn't appropriate for this sub or I misunderstood and thus broke a rule, I'm okay with this being deleted. I apologize for any mistakes I may have made. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Just broke up with my first boyfriend…
I was in da phone wid him when walking to school nd He offered to send me money so I could have some breakfast but I didn’t feel comfortable about taking his money he earned from working. But he didn’t like the fact that I wasn’t gonna eat so I tried to ease his mind about it and said I could just take money from my friend who I later told him was gay.
He didn’t like the fact that I would accept money from other guys instead of my own boyfriend. Prior to this he would only respond with one word sentence which is what he does when he’s pissed or upset and wouldn’t acknowledge how I felt overwhelmed with his jealousy so I said if we can’t work this out that I couldn’t do this anymore.
He then said that me accepting money from other guys and not him was apparently fucked up. I’m pretty sure I did what I could but in the end I couldn’t get through to him but at times I feel like an asshole.
I honestly felt like I was the only one trying to Salvage what we had and even said I didn’t wanna break up and apologised but in the end I got frustrated and he used that against me.
I’ve never broken up with someone before and the pain is fresh any advice is welcomed. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | This shit hurts I’m not very social but told myself I would get out there and stop being scared so I made plans with a friend and I was genuinely excited to go, but she just canceled on me last minute. It’s midnight and we had plans for tomorrow morning. That shit hurts. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Stop making your sexuality/gender your whole life Back Story: I was playing Among Us and this dude was saying that he is gay. I told him congrats and stuff, just being inclusive. After the match he says he's gay again, and I said "Okay, no one asked, being gay isn't an accomplishment, stop trying to get attention."
My Point: Homosexuals of Reddit, please know that just because you like the opposite sex, it doesn't mean you're special. Honestly, I don't care about your sexuality or preference. It doesn't matter to me. No, I'm not going to alienate you, or single you out. I just don't give a fuck about you. Sure, coming out the closet is a huge thing, but please don't try and milk attention out of people just because you're different.
Disclaimer: Nothing I say is offensive and if it is then ignore it because I don't care. I just came here to make a point. That's all. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I'm not planning on living past 29 Like nope sorry I'll just kill myself before I get old because growing old is my biggest fear | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | You, yes you, you are very cute Just to be clear I'm talking in the 3rd person point of view about myself, you are definitely not cute | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I feel like I'm definitely going to do it or go to a hospitalWhat happens if I go to a hospital for being suicidal? I have a job. Will I lose my job? What if I get put in a mental hospital? I don't know how to explain that to my boss so that I can keep my job even though I will have at least missed 3 days of work because of it.
Either I go to a hospital and say I feel suicidal, or I hurt myself and then go, or I just kill myself.
I feel like everything is wrong tonight. I've called the suicide hotline 5 times today. Just to talk and then agree on a safety plan, but I don't feel safe. I can watch tv or take a walk or draw but I still feeling like taking all the medicine in this house and going away.
I'm hearing voices, I got new meds for that and I think they're seriously fucking me up. Since I've started them I've felt like offing myself and I think I'm either gonna OD or cut badly enough to get stitches.
What do I do? If I'm not gonna die I don't want to lose my job! But I can't stay in my house alone all night I WILL hurt myself. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Lost......I didnt think I would ever be able to post on this sub reddit but here it goes.
I have been contemplating suicide for awhile. Dealing with past experiences and present life has been difficult. Trauma seems to be a life long battle and recovery but my spirit is so tired. I dont even know what to do anymore. I keep pushing myself to get help, try meds, do something new, spend time in the sun ect. But the thoughts still come.
I dont even know what I am looking for by posting. I guess just to say it out loud. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I'm past the end of my ropeI've struggled with depression most of my life. The last ten years have been rather hard between being homeless on and off to watching my dog die to having another run away and never be seen again. I've tried so hard to be strong. Told myself it's a test I can do it. But I can't anymore. I work my ass off to still be poor. My teeth are aweful but I have no money and my insurance is about to run out. I now owe thousands of money to different companies. And now to add the cherry on top I got thrown out. I had been living with my boyfriend for a while and was finally happy. I still had days but I was getting better. This morning he told me he wanted me to leave because he has " a lot going on" and "can't handle" living with me and my issues. I thought we were doing so well. He stopped drinking and we were making plans to move and everything.. So now in my darkest days, days where I've been to stressed I've barely eaten and the person I thought loved me can't handle my issues... I gave up so much and did so much for him. He knew that I came from abusive shitty relationships and this is how he does it.. I can't do this anymore. I try and try and for what. To be deeper in debt with shit health and no insurance. Why keep this game up. Why I don't see much of a reason anymore. I didn't before for my mother but I can't keep living just to make someone else happy.. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | My therapist used my fear of pain against me today. I'm just afraid now.(Long read, you better have your snacks and your beer.)
I've been getting help for the past three months following an attempt, meds and therapy. During those months, I've been pondering about stuff like the meaning of life, why am I *still* here, is suffering even worth it, do I even care about any of the shit I've been doing, etc. Most of those questions are answered with "I don't know, I don't really care" or "no". So I've been thinking, hey, maybe it's really just a matter of when and how now. It's a little relieving to think, hey, I don't feel like I need to be here anymore; it's kind of like that feeling when you're about to finish a particularly horrible shift at work, almost. The "but my family!!" reason has started to fade too because mostly, I think my parents would be more bothered about the fact that my passing would make them look like they failed as parents (my culture is strange). I love them, I really do, it just doesn't matter anymore. I'd wish they wouldn't have to be in pain but it's just inevitable if I go through with it.
Today, my therapist wanted to talk to me about the fact I had a fit last week (crying, talking more than necessary and generally being at my worst, I didn't feel in control) and told her so many things that were on my chest. Honestly, I just wanted at least one person to know I'm in this much pain, to acknowledge me, to understand this pain is real. I think I just overwhelmed her. Now she's all like "I don't know, I feel like we need to reorient this and adjust our meetings to avoid going in all directions" and she tried to go into what was great about the me I used to be instead of the me now. A kind of buddy-buddy approach, the "let's focus on how to fix yourself" and I'm like, how do I know that? I don't know why I didn't react well to that. I felt like my pain was dismissed, like the me now doesn't matter because the me then was a fucking awesome gal. It just made me realize the gap, how gray I've become, how I don't like any of the things that used to thrill me, how other people matter more than me, how my self-esteem plummeted. It's like "hey, you used to be outgoing and prettier and nicer and people actually wanted to know you, you had less inhibitions and you were okay in your skin and in your goals and you didn't see failure as something that defines you. Where's that girl?" Man, she's gone. She's been gone for a long fucking time.
So she asked me if I'm still thinking about killing myself. I said yes, that I have no plan on ever turning thirty. The deadline I kinda gave myself is somewhere between now to when I'm 27. (I'm 26.) If I live to 28, I guess I'll have to force myself to carry on. I'm supposed to graduate in 2020 but I'm not even holding on to that anymore, I don't really want to do what I do.
She asked me if I had a plan. I said no but I want to not be in pain, so I mentioned a specific method that I'm not going to mention here which involves some science since it's supposed to be painless if you science the thing properly. And she's like "some people tried that, survived and report it really hurts." Aaaaand it makes your body really ugly to look at too. I'm afraid of pain and of being uglier/hard to look at during my funeral service (my parents wouldn't cremate me even if that's what I want.) So, yeah. Awesome.
Now, I'm alive because I'm afraid. It feels awful. I'm too afraid to live, to afraid to die. It sucks. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | wtf is this shit [https://www.reddit.com/submit?source\_id=t3\_idroq8](https://www.reddit.com/submit?source_id=t3_idroq8) | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I want to kill myself sometimosI want to kill myself sometimes. The only thing holding me back is the feeling I would produce in my parents. I don’t want them to feel like they failed at parenting nor that they did something wrong.
Edit:
I just don’t want anyone to feel bad because of my actions. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Ight so like idrk but there’s this girl in my geography class There is an outlet behind me and she’ll sometimes charge her phone or earbuds, she seems fairly nice, but I’ve not even known her for barely a week and she’s trusted me with her phone on my desk
Nothing important, just wanted to share | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | All I think about is killing myselfThat's right, I think about killing myself. All. The. Time. When I was 9 I tried to hang myself. It was a very impulsive attempt that obviously didn't work. It just left me with a rope burn around my neck that no one, including teachers, parents, and classmates even questioned.
Fast forward nearly 2 decades later and I wish I would have died that day. I can honestly say nothing has happened in my life that has made me happy to be alive.
My mom just calls me a "depressed bitch" that "makes everyone else miserable." Honestly, she's right... my misery is toxic. By NOT killing myself I'm being selfish. I'm so numb right now I just want to end this existence as quick and painless as possible. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | im here and im queer filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I can almost feel freedomI'm not quite sure why I'm posting this; I don't think there's anything anyone can do. I suppose I just want someone to hear my last thoughts. Or maybe - deep down - I suppose I want to be missing something.
The world is not a nice place. This is pretty obvious at this point. You're born into a world without your consent, then forced to trade your very limited time and labour just for survival. It's drilled into our heads from a young age that this is completely normal and that it's the only way - which it is. Because humans are so greedy and selfish. In any other system, the minority will fuck over the majority. Most people are fine with this. It's just as primitive as monkeys fighting to get to the top, but we see it as civilised and advanced? You can't stand up to authority for even a SECOND. I'm seen as a problematic student just because I'm curious about why certain rules exist and I don't worship teachers. Everybody is fucking miserable on Earth but only a lucky few make it out early.
As if being born at this time in this hell of a planet isn't enough, I was unlucky enough to get fucked up genes. I'm incredibly ugly, dumb, awkward, lazy, embarrassing, rebellious and sensitive. The approval of others completely controls my emotions. Motivation is completely non-existent - I feel as if there's a slim chance I could try and save myself, but what's the point? Fighting my entire life to be "normal" just to rot away in a nursing home and die anyway after a pitiful existence? And why should I stick around for the few who care about me? I should suffer everyday just so they aren't sad? How fucking selfish. I won't be around to see their sadness, anyway.
I'm turning 15 in less than a month. That's far older than I'm comfortable with. I'm getting closer and closer to being one of the sad masses who slave away; never truly getting anywhere. I think I'd rather just inhale chemicals, jump off a bridge and be a tragedy.
| suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Don't talk to me , you peasants. I found out ,my IQ to be 144, I shall continue my journey with you unintelligent peasants.
May Lord have mercy on your poor soul. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I accidently pushed a guy out of a plane. Now there is no pilot to fly the plane and we're going to hit a building. hehe | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | researching trans mathematician for math and😩 its really fun 🤤 i love my teacher, shes the only adult that i came out as nonbinary too so far :)
math class sure is fun when you don't despise the teacher and its not ONLY math problems 🦎 | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Reddit just added this new award... ...which is more than $120. Why do they think that someone would pay that much? WHO would pay that much for an award?! Why do these awards exist?! With all that money, you could buy something actually worth your time! Give a homeless person food! Buy yourself a couple games! Go on a trip! But instead, that money would go to fake internet points! | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | i have a bump on my shin i already bought the gravestone 😔 | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Day by day, is an inch closer to the break. I need help... that works.Up until a few months ago I was never truly serious about suicidal thoughts. Lately, the prospect of actually not existing is the sweetest thing I can imagine. Here's some background:
I'm not manic depressive or severely unstable. I *am* mildly depressive (obivously) but its not clinically diagnosed. I've gone to a therapist for a while and it's done jack shit; in fact every time I go, one more reason why I hate who I am is brought into light.
My issue is self-loathing. I have always hated who I am since I was able to recognize myself as an independent person in a world of independent people. Through high school and university I am constantly faced with the reality that despite extreme effort in my endeavours and passions, the product is always shit compared to my peers who might be considered "average" by others. My platonic relationships always seem to fade off in the background for no reason - friends just don't call to hang out or I'll just see them in class.
It's particularly difficult for me to explain everything without giving you guys a novel. So a major thing for me is my particular view of existence: No one asks for life. We as persons are raped into being by a forced beyond our control. Many people accept it and exalt life. I detest and struggle with it - it hasn't ever particularly shown me any niceties or reasons to affirm it. I **hope** that the afterlife is nothing. Literal, non-existence void of everything. What's stopping my suicide is a petrifying fear of *what if?* Religion is not a huge part of my life but I do believe in the paranormal. Inductively, if I believe in some sort of notion of ghost or energy, then an afterlife of some sort is the logical conclusion. But fuck I hope not.
I just don't know what to do any more. I have no aspirations. No prodigious talents to my knowledge. My passions in photography fail time and time again despite. My life as outside of myself is wonderful. Everything that's within is a fucked up vortex of hate.
I bought a car recently and I cleaned out my garage. It's just so tempting. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Never been happier, never wanted to die moreF, 19, just moved from my depressing hometown to the beautiful city of Florence. Have gotten quite a few friends here, I eat good food on the daily, walk around looking at gorgeous architecture constantly.
And still, it feels like I have never wanted to die more than I do right now. The fact that Im still this fucked up after moving away from the bad situation I was in just goes to show that no change of scenery is gonna help.
I don't know how to fix me. And I keep fantasizing about floating face down in the river. Or stabbing my wrists spraying blood everywhere. Or just drink myself dead.
Everything is gray and heavy, and I want it to just be over. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I thought it couldn't be worse, then it got worseSo my last post was about friends not being nice and stuff and if you want to read it, you can check my profile and stuff and click it.
I am feeling bad every single day. Every day is the same. I wake up feeling neutral, I think I'm having a good day at school and when I get home it goes downhill. Every single day I think it is going to be better and I hope and I try but it doesn't change. Tomorrow my test week starts and I can not concentrate. My parents know little about how I feel because I don't think they will take it seriously. I don't know if I have depression because I haven't been diagnosed, but what I do know is that I feel dad every day.
Here comes the part where why I chose this title
I was friends with someone, good friends. I was in love with her and I knew I had no chance. After I told her and telling her that was my last effort. Things went downhill. I thought we were good friends, but after I told her I realised I did everything in our friendship. We got into a fight and a couple of days later we talked and it was fine again. She was also in our little friend group and we had a small argument about something stupid. A day after that she didn't want to rant/trash random people anymore in the group, which was basically our humor and still is. I came up with the idea to stop ranting people and become a wholesome group. My entire life I have been changing myself to make others like me or not be annoyed by me. I am absolutely sick of it. And I told the group and they understood as they know my past. Then the girl I used to fancy (by that time not anymore) left the group because she thought our humor went too far. Since my friends know that I am almost always sad and know my situation (including her), I talked about my emotions and mood every day. So I thought I'd ask her if she would still want to know since she had left the group. She read it and completely ignored it. She has been online and talked in our class group multiple times so it's not like she doesn't have time. It feels so much like I wasted my time, effort and love for nothing. I feel like she pretended to care while she didn't. I feel like she took advantage of me, because I try to be a supportive friend. It hurts so much and I don't know what to do. There are others reasons I am almost always sad, but this is a big thing for me.
Idk if I am being a wimp or whatever, but I just wanted to share. I am just kind of lost I guess. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I don't understand girls One of my friends put my hand on her thigh even though she doesn't like it when people touch her in places like that and she told me she has no feelings for me
And apparently boob pain is a sign of periods? How are those related? | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I asked my Crush out! We've been talking together for a while, and we've started liking each other more and more, I've decided to step it up a bit, i asked her, and she said Yes!!
I'm pretty Happy now, thx for reading i guess, have a nice day! | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | When you're the only teen and all the adults are just having their own talks rn | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I hate overly religious people I just can’t stand it when people are like god showed me the way or you should go to church I fucking hate it I think religion is just a bunch of shit made up to make people feel better about death | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Looking for gamer friends Hello, I’ve getting annoyed of always getting in games with toxic people so I was looking for people around my age to play with me! I’m 13 so as long as your near my age we can play together. I play on PS4 (username: snappy_bc). I play Minecraft, Dead by Daylight, Fall Guys, Rainbow six Siege, Hyperscape, and Apex. Feel free to dm me if u wanna play! | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | hey hi okay so right now im really trying to get myself a gf
why? because i feel lonely and iwant someone to hang out with
if so can you give me some advice?
im tired af making this post so id love some advice | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I want my friends to know I'm sufferingIs that selfish? I know I shouldn't burden them with my mental health, but I'd like them to recognise that I am hurting.
Sometimes I think about hospitalising myself just so they can see that I'm suffering.
Life doesnt feel like it can fer much better, or progress. I'd give anything to stop existing. - not die, but just stop existing until things change, if they change. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Worried about my S/OMy S/O has been struggling with the pandemic. He works in an industry that has gotten pulverized by the pandemic. We have been together for a year and moved in together 2 weeks before lockdown. One night this summer he mixed alcohol with an antidepressant that I now believe was causing other mood affects. He had like a psychotic break and was talking about the end times and sounded possessed. I was afraid for myself because he was not in his normal state of mind. He was talking about the end times and started getting angry with me because he felt I would leave him. I locked myself and my cats in the bedroom and he started talking about ending his life. I had a friend come while I got in my car with my cats, basically with the clothes I had on and all the cats things
I immediately called his mom to tell her what had happened because I was so worried about him. The next morning he was still acting odd and paranoid, didn't remember what had happened and didn't trust that I was telling the truth. We talked later that night on the phone and he was back in the right state of mind, embarrassed and apologetic. I stayed with family for a month while he worked with his therapist and doctor. They were under impression in was a bad med for him as it made him agitated other times but never as bad until this incident. Also figured the alcohol played a roll. He has been off meds except for a prn anxiety med. Last night I noticed he seemed to be acting odd, I thought he might just be high as he does smoke weed regularly. He also had 1 drink. He passed out in bed at midnight, woke up at 3 in a rage talking about how terrible the country is currently and that Nazi's were taking over and that he will slit their throat if they ever come near him. He broke a handheld mirror and kindof danced around by it saying weird things and laughing cynically. He kept saying "what's the point" this time I tried to calm him down and made him stay in bed, took a cool rag and blotted the blood from some cuts on his face and just listened to the scary things he was saying until he fell asleep. I don't know what to do, I am worried about this happening again and if it would ever escalate to hurt me (he is normally so gentle) I am worried that if I leave he won't want to live anymore. We are talking to his therapist soon together, then I will go stay with my parents while his new med kicks in. They diagnosed him with depression and anxiety, could this be more? What do I say to his therapist? Looking for advice. My heart is breaking. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | i have a headache that’s it. i just have a headache.
thx for listening | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Not okayNot even a little bit. I joke about being a bad liar, but I am really good at putting on my happy face and pretending. The only time I feel remotely okay is when I am high or drunk, and by the end of the night, I crash hard and feel worse than before.
Nothing is getting better. I've been doing everything in my power to be better, but nothing works and I continue to fuck up everything I touch. It's like the universe is telling me it's time to just kill myself already and stop burdening the people around me with my depressed, awkward bullshit. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I have a pain disorderI suffer from something called trigeminal neuralgia. It’s extremely rare in people my age (24), and in particular how advanced mine is. It sends random unpredictable electric shocks from my ear to my mouth and jaw. The pain is absolutely unbearable, even with medicine and surgery. Nothing helps it. The worst part though is that it’s random. I’m living every second anticipating that shock of pain, never knowing when it will happen.
My only other option is to go on heavy, opioid painkillers but I think is rather just die. My dad had a pain disorder too and was addicted to pain meds (not because he wanted to get high, his pain was so bad he became dependent on them.)
A tiny part of me says to try the painkillers and if it doesn’t work, then do it. But the majority of me says go ahead and just end it.
I don’t know what to do anymore. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Help me prank my freinds So I'm trying to prank my freinds and in order to do so I need tokens but I don't have any of them
So please help my by clicking the link, for every two clicks I get one token.
Help please. I appreciate you all.
Link: [Prank Hotline ](https://prankhotline.com/r/1169277-3377546422) | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Join r/crashthemarket. We can make a change. There was 1% of reddit that did the work to manipulate the stock market. If we all pool in together, we can control the world. This is the first post related to r/crashthemarket, so it may not be fully forged yet. | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Currently obsessing over: Mosh by eminem
(Yes i am listening to Eminem dissing george bush) | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Do these get deleted by the bot now? Anyway, Kahoot.it code 3751453 if you want | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | not that anyone cares im ending iti hate all of you | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Lmao why does it say i have reddit premium swear it should be gone by now ______________________________________________________________________ | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | hated by everyonefuck this world fuck reddit and fuck r/inceltear. People as a whole are terrible and I'm glad I'll never have to see any of you again | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Dont worry bois I did it I removed the toenails of the so called horny jail slut, u/Rumplestiltskin12, they will no longer be a problem | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Aliens do exist, no discussion possible And if you think i mean the green guys with big eyes...no. I mean bacteria and maybe bigger creatures like here on earth. And probably if there’s somewhere intelligent life (we don’t even know if we are intelligent tho) it will be impossible to find because its just too rate. Because if we weren’t intelligent we wound have thought about this | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I'm probably going to kill myself tonightAlready have a note written, got my plan. I'm sick of living so sick. I'm in school right now an ive already researched methods.. I can't do this anymore | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I need to understand the way i feelHello guys I hope this is the right place to talk about my problem since I feel suicidal, so alright.
I'm an 16 years old boy, I'd depression but I overcome it.. my life now is alright, I have everything I wanted but there's always something in my mind that keep me feel suicidal or down when I try to do something or think about something, it feels like I'm not controlling myself. I'd this feeling this past few months and of course I'm not alright with those thoughts, I'd like if someone could help me go trough this feeling but no one can understand me. I feel lost.
| suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Why is suicide illegal?I don't understand the point of having the act of suicide as illegal. Like, killing yourself will not merit you paying fines or having jail time, because you're dead. Seriously, what's the actual point of criminalizing suicide; or am I just misinterpreting what the word illegal means with regards to suicide? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Someone I care for dearly is currently institutionalized due to an attempt. Would anyone be interested in sending him uplifting letters?I know this is a strange request. I hope it's allowed. He has so much going for him and so little self worth. His life hasnt been an easy one. He's beautiful inside and out. Please help. I'm allowed to bring him books, care packages, and letters. He has a long road to recovery ahead of him. I know him well enough to know that any positivity sent his way would benefit him. Pm me for address. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I found a local reddit post expressing suicidal intentions and I'm not sure what to do.I was browsing a subreddit for something in my area and found a month-old post from someone stating that they plan to commit suicide in the next week (a week from now, not the date of their post).
I would like for this person to get help, but when I tried looking into it everything I found was about how to help people you know who are suicidal, not an anonymous stranger who is probably in the same city.
I'm really not sure what to do, can I go to the local police station and show them the post? Will they be able to do anything with this info? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Can you wake up while falling if you’re on sleeping pills?If you take pills then fall off a cliff, would you wake up or would the pills work the whole time? Would it work even when you hit the ground? Would it cause painless death? | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I'm still hereI always post and I'm just annoying a bratty and everyone is probably pissed off. I have nothing left. This is the only place where people listen. I've tried therapist and hospitals and they won't help me. I feel like I'm at the end. I have bpd and I always have low mood like this and I just don't know what to do anymore | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Today I dared to wear a dress with my scars visible for the very first time :) I've had this adorable dress for 1 year and I haven't taken this dress out of my closet ever since some mistakes that I did in the past because of bad mental health. I don't know why or how but I tried it and I find myself really cute in it even if I'm still very insecure but it's a big accomplishment for me :)
Sorry none of my friends are aware of this so I wanted to share this with you guys ;~; | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Well this is very weird There seems to be a 12 legged flying insect in my room | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | I live in a dream world How do i get out 😫 | not suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | My letter short and simpleIt's been quite a day, or year if you want to take it that far. Can't help but think about all the things I've done to get where I'm at. At least I can say I'm still breathing. Not that, that isn't enough..
To live, to love, to be in peace. Do this and you will do fine. On the other hand too many factors. There will always be roadblocks that trip you along the way.
Hell, if I had a penny for everytime I've fallen.. I can't begin to thank the people that have been there for me enough. So thank you. | suicidal |
Below is a reddit post. Label it as "suicidal" or "not suicidal". | Ok... so... Who just scrolls through looking for nsfw posts? And how many of you found this by doing that? | not suicidal |
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