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I don't want you to feel ashamed to have BPD. I will say there's so much stigma attached to it, personally and professionally. People hear personality disorder and really don't understand what that means. I don't tell people anymore, or not right away at least, because I want to be seen as a person, not a disorder.
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I don’t like being around people either. Just because how it makes me feel and how bad my anxiety and thoughts will become. I don’t like to make people feel uncomfortable with my uncomfortableness. It’s just a horrible feeling. I’m really sensitive to body language as well so when I see people are looking at me weirdly it just makes things so much worse. I just tend to avoid it as much as I can. I wake up in the morning and my goal is isolation, stay inside and to be alone from outsiders. This wasn’t the case in the beginning. I was actually a confident young lad and loved socialising and being around people. It took my years to actually except the change and now (not good for me) im actually in a way content with it. I’ve adapted to it and the thought of going out is just the worst thought ever. I’m happy inside (most of the time). I’m in a situation now though where this has to change and I’m having to fight this battle head on. And not hide inside. Get panic attacks just thinking about it.
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I feel I always ruin things...my husband is so happy and is the most amazing man in the world, and deep down I have a fear this is going to take it's toll on him. I know that from my father leaving the family when I was 1, and my ex-fiance leaving me because he said he couldn't cope with the effects my breakdown had on him and that's why he left (this was during my university years I mentioned before...and I guess I should also take into account he actually left because he was seeing someone else!) I have a huge fear of being left. I had two friends treat me very badly before my wedding and I have fallen out with them, and feel abandonment from them, and all in all, I know I am scared that it will all be too much, as my husband is the most relaxed and amazingly cheerful man, and I know he loves me and just wants to see me happy.
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I feel as I'm in a no win situation. If I pack it up in my mind I will have failed and that might hurt me more than keeping on keeping on. I have always fought things even when I know I should just accept life the way it is. Anyone got a gun.
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I feel your pain. I'm the exact same. I can leave the house if I've got my hubby with me but apart from that I'm basically housebound and the walls are closing in on me!! I've been like this for nearly 2 years and I've had psychologists and psychiatrists but nothing seems to work. I'm now getting CBT so we'll see how that goes. If I try to go out myself I get a panic attack and I lose all the feeling in my fingers and can hardly breathe then I get a terrible headache. I've also got irritable bowel syndrome and neck and shoulder pain because of my anxiety. Its not nice!! So please don't feel you're on your own.
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I first felt pulled to the performing arts during the big Disney channel boom of, when shows like Camp Rock and Hannah Montana made the 10-year-old me want to be a pop star. I sang in choirs and school productions on and off, and received external validation that I had a talent for performing. But when I went to UC Berkeley, I didn't even consider an education in the arts. Computer science was the hot thing, and at the time my desire to do art wasn't as important as my desire to be successful in the more traditional sense. So I graduated with a computer science degree in 2015 and started working at Mozilla.
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I found the face on Aloy really strange, it's like it it was modeled with a few different Mo-cap actors. Sometimes it would look great and other times the facial movements and structure would be a little off or different. Maybe it was just different lighting or camera angles, but either way it really pulled me out of the game
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I fully accept what you are saying & like parenting, caring for a person with mental health illness doesn`t come with a manual. I`m no expert in this area but i do feel i have learnt a lot in the last 2 years, i can see all the signs & i know she`s getting ill again but trying to get her to get help is impossible. By the way my daughter is 31 years old, going on 3 some days,she has led a completely independent life since she was 18, so i don`t feel like i`m over protective or trying to control her in any way. In fact one of the most draining aspects on me is when she starts to deteriorate, she is constantly on the phone, morning, noon & night. She phones just to hear my voice i think, because her anxiety levels get so bad, she`s scared but won`t admit it. I get so frustrated because if she took her meds she wouldn`t be so poorly, she`s an intelligent woman so how come she can`t see the logic of taking the meds to control the symptoms. To be honest i`ve no idea of the best way to support her, everything is trial & error, which is how i feel i`m learning all the time, but whats the point of me being able to recognise the early symptoms if she won`t do anything about it. She really is her own worst enemy & yet i feel for her since her thought patterns are the way they are because she is mentally ill, seems like she`s in a catch 22. How do other carers cope ?, i find she is very draining when i`m with her & yet i worry myself sick when she`s not here or in contact & before anyone tells me she will have to learn the hard way i`ve been down that road several times to no avail. Others on this forum have told me how difficult is was accepting they had mental illness & i guess she must still be in denial. I`m not going to be around forever & its important to me to know she will be able to cope on her own. I`ve told her about this forum & she doesn`t want to know. I guess you can lead a horse to water but you can`t make it drink.
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I get a lot of mood swings. I'll be really depressed and hate everything and everyone and then a few hours later I'll be full of energy and I'll want to go out and do something, I never know what I want to do though, the only way I can put it is it's like I'm a 2 year old on a sugar rush. I'll go from hating life to loving life and my self esstem goes through the roof. My thoughts are always racing, it takes me hours to fall asleep because I can't turn my brain off, sometimes I get no sleep or a couple of hours and I'm more energetic then when I get a good nights sleep. Sometimes I oversleep. My appetite changes a lot, some days I'll eat next to nothing and others I'll eat loads.
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I get that it's on me and this is largely because I've inextricably fetishised hypnosis at this point, but if it happened I'm certain I'd feel practically cheated on, I'm not sure I could look at her as the same again and it'd probably be a step toward the end of our relationship
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I grew up with homeschooling and a mom who was highly supportive of my art ambitions. But that still wasn’t enough to get me to a high level. I guess I didn’t experiment enough? Or didn’t practice enough? Or wasn’t able to get high level tutoring? I’m not really sure. Now, I’m just “pretty good”, but nothing I make particularly impresses anyone except for laymen who know nothing about art.
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I guess it's kind of the same with me. Never have been close to my parents, just worked hard at school. Felt they were pushing too hard for me to get my degree (which I did) but I had to do it all alone - they never helped. I think I just don't know how to get close to people. But then it doesn't seem like there is anyone who wants to know me, so that's not really much of an issue right now.
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I had a roommate once who kind of repressed his curiosities who was into me. I tried to make something happen once but I was way too drunk and he just laughed it off. But he joked about it with me afterward so only I could hear. And there was another time where he was drunk and I was sober and basically said because he didn't get laid at a party, it was my job to suck his dick that night. I laughed it off then too. Still think about him a lot lol
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I had a turkey wing and a half slice of ham, but I mainly hit the sides this year. Baked MacNcheese, quiche and rye bread with dill dip. as for sweets it was just a last minute store bought sweet potato pie that shit on every single pumpkin pie I've had in the last decade. gonna have a cigar before I hit them leftovers.
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I had anorexia for several years in my 20s, I'm now 54. It was a long slow process for me with several hospitalisations. I think there comes a time when you know you want to get better but it's one step forward and two steps back. Looking back I think for me it was the strong urge to have children and as I wasn't having periods my doctor warned me that I was compromising my ability to have kids. I'm not sure how I did it but I got there. I imagine for most anorexics there are issues which need to be looked at, there certainly was for me. I've been married for nearly 30 years with 3 healthy grown up children. To be realistic I still consider myself to have an eating disorder as I have trouble controlling my weight. I'm a bit overweight at the moment and still overeat at times (not binging though). However the eating problems are not in the forefront of my life anymore. I think it would be unrealistic of me to tell you everything is fine once you gain weight and as you get older. I still have a crazy habit of literally falling out of bed onto my scales every morning without fail! I also do this if I wake in the middle of the night so I can be found weighing myself with the light of my mobile phone
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I had really hoped time would lessen the burden for me but it doesn’t seem to be the case for you Connor. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I am constantly reliving and ruminating. I don’t want to leave my wife and kids but I feel like there is no escape
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I had to conjure up some last minute mental resources to go for a long ass walk to the grocery store to get my groceries and walk back to where I told him I would meet him. This was the last 1 hour of our outing. I had told him to go for a walk on his own.
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I happened to have my intuos3 in my backpack, pulled it out. He laughed because I had a 'brand new' tablet. I got it when I was in 8th grade (used btw), at least 6 years older than his tablet. Good thing he was a nice guy and art wasn't too bad because he was an absolute idiot.
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I hate myself, I wish I could look like all the skinny, beautiful women on TV. I've hinted once or twice to my parents that I want to lose weight. One time she was showing off to my aunt about her new jeans that were a size twelve, and I said "you're only a size bigger than me, I feel fat now!" (I'm nearly 15, and my own mother's only 1 size bigger than me!) and she replied with "you're not fat, don't be stupid, its just your height". But I'm not all that tall, I'm about 5"6.
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I have BP which I was diagnosed with just over 2 years ago although I have pretty much suffered with it since becoming an adult I think. I recently spent 3 weeks in a psychiatric unit because I had been on an extremely extended manic period i.e. 10 months and then finally lost the plot completely and was about to leave my husband and 3 kids. Not good. Now I am on quite a downer but am just focusing on one day at a time. If there is anybody with BP out there that wants to chat, I will more than happy. Hopefully we can help each other.
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I have Bipolar I and am quite well at the moment. I get DLA at the middle rate because I am considered a danger to myself. This is because when I get stressed I get a form of dissociation and I get seriously suicidal to the point where I am in danger of killing myself - 3 or 4 times a year. When you get DLA you do get a letter saying why it's been awarded. I don't report changes because I could be well today and seriously ill tomorrow.
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I have Hampton's book and it's great, but not that good for really understanding gesture. He's good for learning anatomy. For Vilppu, you want to focus more on his movements and less on trying to copy exactly what he's putting down on the page. I mean in general I recommend looking at as many instructors as possible for a certain topic to see how each one tackles it. It helps things click faster IMO and you'll find someone's method that you prefer.
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I have been considered to be a good looking guy which makes me feel like my expectations of getting girls are high. I have no problems at all talking to girls but it’s the second I start catching feelings or see she’s in to me that the anxiety overwhelms me to the point I’m so in my head around her that I just get extremely awkward.
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I have been living in South Florida for the past 10 years relocating from Europe - hahaha sunshine state ok . Just in the summer don't plan anything after 2 pm - you will face terrantial downpours almost daily ! Grass? you mean these green weeds out back ? Yikes you dont want to step on it without shoes . Summer time ? yeah prepare yourself to be locked up inside from July to September - the scorching heat and humditiy will knock you out. Oh and then don't forge the friendly people - ever seen the statistics that we have the worst road rage here - I can attest to it . If you feel like spending 1 1/2 hours each way to commute - welcome to Florida . And before you come down here - make sure that you are proficient in Spanish ! You may not be understood in many areas without it .
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I have been sensitive to this pre meds and now with meds I dont think its changed any in pattern, sometimes I could scream n in fact I did used to go n scream under the railway bridge like in the film caberet, Sometimes it just gets so much that I have to clode my eyes n try to make it disapear I havent found anything that combats it Its so f****ing distressing and you darent tell anyone else whot you are experiencing because they would proberly freak out.
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I have been to the doctors and had an ecg and blood test and am back next week to discuss the results. I’ve been assured that it’s probably not lung cancer as I’m only 30 but I’ve been a smoke for years so can’t get the thought out of my head.
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I have experiences I still can't confront, it was not repeated efforts by a single person but lets say a number of different scenarios with different people. They range from experiences abroad when I was 13 all the way through the experiences at work when I was 19 and experiences in my own house at 26 and flipping experiences in a mental health hospital when I was pregnant at 30 and total taken advantage of.
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I have had two different attempts at CBT. The first was delivered by somone with very little experience and understanding and although they were good to the point where I could recognise that I was feeling ill it left me feeling rather inadequate and stupid and eventually I gave up. This was delivered in 40 min session and no clear goals or problems identification was ever drawn up. My second attempt at CBT has been a little more effective but most of all I have felt empowered and in charge of my own treatment. CBT does look at the here and know but it does examine past experiaces that have led to the formulation of thinking patterns. The big DANGER I feel with CBT is when it is delivered by inexperienced professionals who are not able to deliver the full benefits of the therepy because they are not adequatly trained and therefore it can be ineffective and useless. When the therepy is done on the cheap which seems to be happening in the NHS.
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I have kept a close eye on this guys work since he started posting on paheal 4 years ago. Since then he has built quite a following as the best Minecraft porn artist with only a few comparable others. Since no one has been pushing the genre like this guy I subscribed to his patreon too. Unfortunately he has been scamming his patrons for months now and all the 12 year olds subscribed to him refuse to admit it.
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I have my future planned, when I am 70 and scrimping on little or no money, I am going to stop paying my overpriced council tax and get thrown into jail, where I will then get 3 meals a day, lots of people to talk to, activites to do and a warm bed.
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I have social anxiety and a few other psychiatric disorders but I don't think it's the main reason why I have always been single. I think it's more about me being ugly because I haven't had any opportunities with women to begin with. Usually, people will have stories of women being interested in them but ruining their moments but I never had those.
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I have to agree; yes, the name Todd Suck would make an awesome story to tell, I don't think an awesome enough to go way out of the way. There are too many other great little mom and pop places to try. and there are many other fun named cities the OP can go back home and tell their friends and family about. OP, as for good to remember when in AR, I really hate to admit it, but I really don't think we have one dish that says "AR" on it. We have great little places to eat or you can go totally upscale and eat at top of the line eateries, but that still doesn't mean we have one true native dish.
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I hope I'm not speaking out of turn but could it possibly be that your friend was feeling out of sorts himself. I know there have been times (before I was ill) that I had said I was going to do something then really didn't want to. I think you should speak to him and just ask if it was just today he didn't want to go with you or whether he just doesn't feel that he can go with you at all. Theres no point in beating yourself up when you don't really know whats happened. I hope you get it sorted out but if your friend can't go with you can you not maybe make a phone appointment with your doctor? I'm agoraphobic so my doctor always gives me a phone consultation even though she'd rather see me. Could you speak to your practise and see if this is an option?
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I hope you found away to distract yourself xxx i know how you feel and when i need a distraction i guess the best thing for me to do which is always different for people.. i put my ipod on full blast i draw i scribble i write anything that comes into my head or i go online play a game, go on forums.. for me the louder the music the better
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I just played out this absolute beast of a match there, I think I might have uninstalled the game if I lost on penalties. 😂 now 6-4 and I’ll call it a night. Actually thought last week was easier due to loads of people playing for those extra picks and not actually being that good. Back to the hardcore this week, even during TOTY.
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I just wanted to add that when I went for my last interview (last Feb) I was honest and said I had bipolar. I also added that if they wanted to ask me how it affected me, that was fine, as it is a very individual condition and everyone lives with it differently - the same as people without bipolar.
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I know Chengdu has good tourists sites, but I've never been to that city. I did have a foreign exchange student from Chengdu, who actually went to the high school adjacent to Sichuan Univetsity. All he would tell me was that Chengdu isn't as hot as Utah, which they complained about constantly.
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I know dumbnigga, the tutorial assumes you're using the blender project provided which uses a cock for cbbe sse, neither of which im using. If i wanted a different cock id have to import that shit and line it up properly too. If i was autistic enough to do that shit, i'd already have done it.
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I know its been 5ys but god i still get days where i want to stay in bed all day and cry and cry and feel so low..angry and hurt but i DONT as i have Charlie and he gives me the 'kick up the bum' i feel i need.. i know im probably been too 'hard' on myself but im a capriocorn and we i am so lacking in confidence and put myself down..
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I know that Boyata didn't play after the group stages at the 2018 World Cup but whilst he was there he must have looked at the players around him and noticed that almost all were playing for big clubs in the biggest leagues and presumably earning between 5 and 15 times more than him.
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I like Van Buren. Not too big, with a pretty, well-kept, historic downtown. Lots of older neighborhoods with nice older homes, beautiful sugar maples that are absolutely stunning in the fall. Large mall and that kind of shopping right next door in Ft. Smith. Don't know for sure about crime, but assume it's pretty low, as it is all around that area. Don't know how schools are, either. But it's in a beautiful area of the state....if you're into the outdoors, you'll love it, outdoor stuff to do all around it.
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I like both the anonymous factor of glory holes, the fact most guys who do them will drop everything and suck a dick straight away - always on call pretty much, and that they are only focusing on getting you off; no small talk or having to pretend to be interested in the bottom which is just what you want sometimes.
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I mean, first the Salt Lake area was taken away (and, although I thought that that new board would just be about Salt Lake City, when you go there you find it's about all the areas/cities of the SL valley---and some outside the valley), and now, evidently Weber and Davis Counties are removed from 'Utah,' also!
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I might be late to the party but it seems as though the man has finally gotten around to show the full arsenal on his onlyfans as of late, and being that he is literal human perfection I can but hope someone has any other of them to share. Nick Pulos threado.
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I only asked what team he supports, so like I said not really an important question, I just can't help but overthink it. I normally just wait for a couple of says if people don't reply to me, just to give them a chance, and to be fair he has taken 5 days to reply before...
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I read that yesterday on a Stenhousemuir thread and was checking social media this morning, searching for confirmation. I was a big fan of KG and it's a shame it didn't work out for him but if he can recapture the form that led to his move it could be the shot in the arm we need.
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I really like the older urban feel of St. Louis; I grew up in the Ozarks, so it's radically different. Akron strikes me as a lot of the same. I'm not really looking for anything suburban, which Kent does have a suburban feel to it. It looked like a wonderful town, though.
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I really want to go to one, but im too paranoid that I would be filmed, so that cancels the out desire I get each time I want to go.There are so many guys who have hidden cameras, and with every gay having a twitter account for their sex exploits its worse than ever. Even if they didn't show my face, and only had my cock, it still freaks me the fuck out.
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I really wish redditors like you would stop shilling your games here. Leave a comment or whatever about your game, post a screenshot, start ORGANIC discussion. You fucking just plopping your dev notes and change log into the thread and then posting links and telling people to AsK mE aNyThInG is cancerous shit. This isn't fucking reddit.
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I recently came to the realization that my eating habits are really bad. I wanted to lose a tiny bit of weight at the start of 2020 and I started off really healthy, I didn't restrict I just started eating more vegetables and working out. I felt good and I wasn't really happy with my body but I felt like I was doing things right and being smart about it. So it came as a real shock when I was posting in a weight loss forum and people started saying I was small enough and I needed to stop restricting and get help. I'd become very obsessive and restrictive.
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I reckon I’ve been charged 3 times but I hadn’t seen this post before I had sent an email to the club. Does this mean that I do have a subscription for tonight as every time I tried it came up with an error message? Edit: All sorted now [emoji106]
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I remember back in the high school, this girl wanted me to draw her an anime boyfriend who was an androgenous horned demon angel chain smoker with a third eye and a has a neck-choaker and only wore leather and had glassess and carried a briefcase and his nails were long and had a dog tail and was blond with black streaks in his hair and I... I couldnt do it all, I had to scrap some things. Peak 2009.
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I saw an ad for this business on Facebook that made me feel like I was in a hotel during remodeling, or some other time when I’m not supposed to be there. (I would say “in a hotel after hours,” but that’s pretty much the prime time to be in a hotel.) This photo—multiple sets of tables and chairs from a hotel dining nook stacked atop each other—had me sold on paying the place a visit.
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I saw the 50 minute video that was already removed about Q stuff and the guy mentioned it was necessary to test the population if they were to remove a lot of people from the government without people thinking the military were actually doing a coup themselves based on lies. Trump winning would make them understand they could apply the strategy.
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I should have said I have no personal knowledge or connection with the scheme discussed. In Birmingham (where I live) there is a so-called 'Bibliotherapy' scheme but it is quite different - it operates on the basis that GP's can give patients a 'Book Presecription' - a recommendation of a certain book which they can take along to their local library. The library service have ordered lots of copies of these books. But the books are all self-help books and all on a CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy) priniciple. This is fine as far as it goes but not for people (I am one) for whom CBT does not work. It is not really bibliotherapy in the sense in which it is being used in Liverpool (which I had never heard of till I read this article).
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I should probs mention too that I have for about 3 years now had all the symptoms of chronic fatigue syndrome which my doctor loosely banded about as a diagnosis after exhausting the blood tests and ecg tests etc and I have no physical ailment apparently. Now Im wondering if actually it has never been CFS and has been bipolar all along....
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I simply do not know if that is the plan, whether or not a relatively junior colleague can be encouraged or manipulated to back the views of the management and senior clinicians who want to exclude me. Either way, it looks like their master plan for my exclusion is not to argue over categories but just to back the "no formal diagnosis" line.
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I tend to feel positive emotions with far less intensity than negative ones. When it comes to things that are not negative ie neutral or positive my response is either matter of fact/neutral or lacking a full degree of pleasure. I am to some extent anhedonic or in a state of mental greyness as opposed to blackness.
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I think I’m pretty different than most people with ARFID, though. I’m not a picky eater because of the taste or texture or things in terms of senses. I’m a picky eater because I have anxiety and a fear that the food I’m going to eat will make me sick (like get super bloated, instantly uneasily full, nauseous, etc). I get very picky on how foods feel when they settle in my stomach. I don’t eat noodles, spicy things, sushi, hard meat like steak or beef or pork, and lots of other stuff I can’t think of right now. The only fruit I can handle right now is banana but I’ll only eat it if it’s there.
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I think as your daughter is 19 she is old enough to be making her own decisions with regards to her relationships and life choices. I can understand how hard it must be for you to see her making what you consider to be mistakes however mistakes learned by yourself are often the most well learned mistakes.
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I think it's gonna be fine. I've been watching the US for a while and every time it looks like this time for sure it's gonna collapse, but it never does. I think your model (which disallows democracy by design) is actually invincible. People are gonna grumble for a while, but eventually they'll accept this election, the big tech hegemony, the Dem supremacy, the spicx immigration, and all the rest of this crap.
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I think that the list quoted is extremely useful and a good yardstick for anybody to use. Mental illness is hardly an exact science and I think anyone whether they're a diagnosed depressive or not could benefit from it. It could also serve as a useful target for people who want to "attack" their depression. I wouldn't mind ticking a few of those boxes as dealt with as I know it will make me feel better.
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I think they are linked with me, eg due to social anxiety (as well as being a horrible person I suppose) I have no friends, then I get depressed about that, same with my eating problems they are fuelled by both anxiety and depression, and work, I feel too depressed to work, then I get panicky when I do work, because I can't cope, because I'm too depressed etc.
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I understand a little as I had what I would call a nervous breakdown at university about 12 years ago. I have a tendency to over think and analyse anyway, but it feels it is taking control of me again. I got married a month ago to the most amazing and understanding man, and I know this should leave me with nothing but feelings of elation. However, on the run up to the wedding I would spend weeks obsessing over whether I had chosen the right dress, then once I had rested that in my head weeks over whether my hair had been cut too short....and so the pattern goes on....as soon as one worry dissipates the next takes over.
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I wake up drenched in sweat and when I eventually fall back asleep I get the same dream. Its really getting me down now. I'm really not having a good time of it just now mentally so I'm sure it must be connected to that in some way but I just wondered if anyone had a book about dreams.
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I want to tell some things, at the moment I'm unable to post them and share them with others, the vision in my mind is far more detailed than what I can create right now, that's some dissonance, huge disconnect. I need a lot of skill if it's to spread or have a chance at it.
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I was also wondering, does anyone experience paranoia? I've been told a few times i'm being paranoid, but i'm not sure if its paranoia or true. WHen i'm driving i can see police cars behind me and i'm adamant they are following me, so sometimes i end up driving down a different road just to see. The other day I had to ring the Samaritans, but i had to put the phone down on them cos i was so sure the police where listening in and tracking the call to see what I was saying. Sometimes I also believe people know what i'm thinking. WHen i'm suicidal i feel like the police know and so they follow me around. I also feel like im being followed when im walking, sometimes i'll see shadows around me and im sure someon is there too. I also see things fly past the corner of my eye, but when i look theres nothing there. I'm not sure what this is, is it paranoia or is it just my mind playing tricks on me? Or could it even be true?! Has anyone else experienced this?
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I was in an abusive relationship and I can't listen to a particular band because it was my ex's favorite. Before a particularly traumatizing event he sang his favorite song (he was a musician) and it stuck with me. I have to be super careful listening to mixes on spotify or certain radio stations because I will have a full breakdown with hyperventilation, panic attacks and flashbacks.
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I was made redundant because of the virus. I’ve tried warehousing and Hgv class 1 driving, but that wasn’t for me, too physical. I have physical illness too. I’ve had a couple of hundred jobs in those fields, they never last long. At most a few weeks, then they either sack me or I leave.
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I was ok for about 6 days then bang at my girlfriends I have a bad anxiety attack, these anxiety attacks continue for about a week getting worse despite beginning to take Venlafaxine again (75mg) and I feel like im on the verge of a breakdown again, I couldnt cope with work so I called my GP and they recommended taking 150mg ven per day which I have been doing for the past week but right now I don't feel much better. Towards the end of my week off I started feeling better and went to the cinema, shopping etc. and coped ok but today I was going to go to my girlfriends house when I was overwelmed with anxiety and now again I feel terrible.
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I was on another mental health website but it was not working out as there were lots of problems over there so someone told me about this site and said you guys helped her a lot when she was a member here. So I thought I would check it out.
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I was talking to Stan Holey one time at the Iditarod headquarters. He was saying a reporter from back east called wanting help booking hotel rooms along the Iditarod route. When he told her there wasn't any hotels, just scattered cabins and small villages, she said no problem, she'd just rent an RV and stay in it as she drove the route. He had to explain to here that there was no roads either. Just miles and miles of wilderness. Her response: "well, why in the hell would anyone want to travel through such a desolate place?"
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I was telling the school councellor person about all this, and she asked me about me feelings around it and other stuff that they always ask, then said that if she feels I may be in danger she'll have to tell my head of year, and they'll contact my parents. But I'm curious, one teacher already knows (I feel I can talk to her because she had a lot of problems surrounding low self esteem and anorexia, and we both get on well) and she said that she felt exactly the same as I described to her, and she did the same. She said that I may be anorexic, but the school councellor hasn't told me, and I don't know how to approach her and ask about it.
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I wonder what kind of spider that was. I once saw one like that at my old house and it could actually jump! I think Mom called it a Wolf Spider or some such. I don't know what a brown recluse looks like but know several people who've been bitten by one. Not pretty. Doesn't sound like a Tarantula either but they can get pretty big. No idea what the bugs might be. I've never seen anything like that here. Hope you get rid of them and the spider stays away!!
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I wouldn't worry too much about him since a few status screens were uploaded after the fact so he wasn't the one doing them. We don't even know if he translated anything at all but considering how he got triggered over the word nigger I doubt he's been in here for long.
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I wouldnt worry bout the OH thing... most places of work have this in place now to basically see if youre alright to return to work and youre not coming back too early! i had too go see ours at work about a month or so back as id had 4 days off owing to an infection and a day off because i crashed my car and all it was was a nurse asking if im still on any antibiotics, how im feeling etc. i know how youre feeling tho cos i was pretty apprehensive! if you still dont feel up to work they can suggest you reduce your hours to reduce your stress too, thats all theyre there for
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I'm a FL native: born and raised in crime-infested Fort Pierce (southeast coast) and I've been living in Orlando for 13 years. I did live in Rhode Island but had to come back to hell--I mean FL--due to money issues. I've been trying to get back to the northeast ever since.
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I'm a Mum of two from Ireland and have had social anxiety and some ocd's for 10yrs now, i've never been on medication as i seemed to be over it for a while but it has now returned and i know dread taking my child to school as i fear i'm not breathing correctly and will hyperventilate. I also feel dizzy and sick in social occassions unless i'm at the back of the room. I think i fear losing control to a large extent, i could go on forever, anyone else feeling this bad?
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I'm currently having a well paying office job and do art on the side, unironically thinking about going in your direction. Maybe also making a second online persona and getting some furry coombux. I know one furry guy personally, he is a nice person but pays ridiculous amounts of money for really shitty art I could pump out in 1-2 hours while still being /beg/
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I'm currently on 375g of Venlafaxine backed up with Lithium, Mirtazapine and Flupentixol. It was only when my psy added in the mirtazapine that I noticed any difference. I had been on mirtazapine as a stand alone AD but it had done nothing. I have been labelled as drug resistant. While I did notice some difference my mood still fluctuates wildly and has most recently been on a downward tack.
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I'm currently on Mirtazapine and Venlafaxine and I think the greatest effects they have are the side effects. I've been depressed for so long, that I don't even know what medication does to me. I've found CBT and in particular the "Overcoming Depression" book to be far more effective. Problem is, CBT is obviously far more expensive than sticking someone on anti-depressants.
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I'm doing a study on hands and feet right now so that it'll be easier to draw them next time. I agree with you on the jittery lines. Been using my ipad w/procreate to animate these and the surface is much smoother than traditional sketch pad and I'm still getting used to it. I think adding some streamline to the brush will help.
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I'm getting more in to poetry as well, I think it's so cleaver what people can come up with. In the past, on the Have Your Say discussion boards ( on the BBC news website ), some people have written tiny poems about government policies that crack me up. It's good to be in to your arty side
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I'm going to be attending Emory for grad school beginning this fall and am actually going to Atlanta today to try to find an apartment. I've been browsing the forums and there has been a lot of helpful information about housing in Decatur/Atlanta. The consensus seemed to be that living in Decatur, particularly around Emory, is safe. My primary concern in looking for an apartment is safety. I'm willing to up the price that I pay for a 1 BR to ensure safety/security (I'd pay up to 1200ish). I've visited the area twice (most recently in April) and it seemed ok to me. However, I've been reading apartment reviews about many of the apartment complexes within the Emory area (Gables Rock Springs, Paces Park, Highland Square, etc...all of which seem to be pricey/luxury apts) and was surprised to find at least a few reviews for each complex where tenants indicate both car and apartment break-ins to be common. I even read a few (perhaps this was for the Heights at Clairmont...a little further away) reviews saying these apt complexes were right next to crack houses.
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I'm gonna be honest, I see this guy drop all the time, and I don't click, because it's the same fucking sling bikini outfit, with the same barely areola slip only when she moves. I don't even remember the camera being noteworthy. I don't even know why I'm still subscribed. Haven't clicked since subscribing.
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I'm having my up's and down's at the mo but I am so scared of loosing my boyf - we have been together about 5 months but we have really bonded and I love him to bits. He has been great about everything but I don't show my depressed side to him If i can help it.
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I'm just wondering if anybody else gets really embarrased about the way the acted, say, a few months ago. I seem to constantly look back a few months and not recognise myself at all. Looking back, my "embarrasing" moments are when I'm depressed her ratthan optimistic. I dont really take risks when I'm happy. I just tend to be very productive, work hard, have great self-confidence and see bright things for my future. I quite like looking back at myself in these phases. Sometimes I get too loud and friends shush me if we're in public but this isn't too embarassing. They like my eccentric side. I actually see this stuff as part of my character, even if it doesn't happen very often.
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I'm leaning towards Fort Smith. Is there a recommendable alternative to living in Fayetteville that would be a lesser commute? Preferably an area that isn't complete country or at the very least a unique looking place? By that I mean not a bunch of chain places and nothing else. Thanks for your help guys. Much appreciated.
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I'm not a danger, i swear i wouldn't/couldn't hurt anything, other than myself. It lasts about an hour most then i end up feeling down for hours afterwards. I haven't been told yet whether i have bipolar.. but this anger is it something that can be caused by bipolar? Can anyone relate?
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I'm not going to get another bunny now because we just want to concentrate on getting Elvi (surviving bunny) through this. He was next to Harvey and sitting with him when he died, so he knows what's happened. As the vet's receptionist said when we were discussing it afterwards, at least Elvi knows what happened - it's not as if we just took a live Harvey away to the vet and Elvi never saw him again. Both myself and Elvi were with him at the end.
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I'm not usually into the whole "girls who would kick my ass get me horny", but Rider is an exception. She's tall as fuck and can dominate me anytime she wants, would be a dream come true. And the way she is "I've only had Sakura for one week, but if anything were to happen to her, i would kill everyone in this world and then myself" makes me admire her on top of being horny for her.
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I'm on a mood stabilizer an antipsychotic and an antidepressant. My doc said BP depression is hard to treat. My issue is that I have no quality of life. I'm so miserable and unhappy 24/7. I thought the purpose of getting on meds was to improve quality of life. I just survive and that's it sometimes I'm barely doing that. I was happier off meds until I went dangerously into a mixed episode with psychotic features. No I don't want to get off meds I'm just frustrated.
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I'm only going to be in Akron for 1 year then likely will move to an area further south without snow, so I really don't want to get an SUV just for that one year unless it's going to be necessary for me to reliably navigate to my work places during the winter.
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I'm only say this because I think I understand how you are explaining a hypomania, I have on occasions taken some speed in the past & people have said I dont stop talking & i know you can just keep going n going like once I just kept cleaning I just couldnt sit down for about three days, The only reason why I've said this is because I thought that I didnt understand, but I can relate though under normal circumstances I only really understand the lows because I dont have highs.
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I'm really sorry to hear about this and its only natural for you to be thinking about how this affects you. Its not selfish, its just part of the human condition though most people just don't admit it anymore. If its any consolation I think the prognosis for people with brain tumours is a lot better than it used to be. I hope everything goes okay with your friend and you take care of yourself xx
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I'm so glad I found this forum thread as I've been thinking the same things. Whenever I'm in a relationship I end up pushing them away with my negative thinking. Like at the moment, I'm with this guy and he's lovely and really trying to help but I can't seem to take it in at all. He'll give me a compliment and I'll forget it. He's off to uni on Saturday and I'm so scared that he'll meet someone else but instead of relaxing and letting things go a bit, I keep getting angry at him which pushes him away anyway. I don't know what to do anymore. Would it be easier to break up with him even though I care about him a stupid amount? I don't know how to change otherwise. It's easier to say that i'll think more positive but negative thoughts just completely override everything.
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I'm sorry but I had never even heard of kolpophobia before reading your post. It's obviously quite a rare condition. I presume that you have seen doctors where you live. What have they said to you about getting treatment? Have you not been offered any therapy to maybe help you overcome your fears?
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I'm sorry you are not feeling too great. I don't know whether suicidal thoughts are good or bad, but I do think they can get habitual. After years of depression I got into a habit and cycle of suicidal thoughts, even if I wasn't feeling so bad. And of course those suicidal thoughts would bring on those suicidal and depressed feelings and the cycle starts again.
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I'm the commission fag from other mom ntr threads. I never wanted to post any of my written smut because all you autists do is complain about everything but it's the holidays so it's a one time gift. It's not finished yet but it's over 20,000 words so it should tide you guys over a while. Oh yeah it's about a cuck son who loses his fat assed latina mom to his racist white russian bully, if that's not your thing you may as well not read it since like I said it's kinda long. Also the mom is based on 3d camwhore Selena Adams but you can just fantasize about a 2d whore if you want. Feel free to critique all you want but the writer is cheap as hell and at least proofreads his shit. If you guys like it I'll post the rest when it's finished, I guess in whatever mom ntr thread is up atm.
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I've been lucky with my employer but I think they are quite forward thinking. I can beleive it will be difficult for some getting a job although in theory the new Disability Discrimination Act that has been brought in makes it unlawful to reject an application based on mental health issues. But then again its illegal not to offer a job based on age and I am sure that it still goes on they just find a different excuse not to hire
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