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"I feel like I’m close to another mental breakdown. I’ve literally been running around the past 2 months trying to find an apartment for my current SO & I. It’s been very hard, given that his family has literally tried to ruin my life for no reasons. Instances of: sending pictures, harassment on social media, my car almost being towed, my work (now former job) being called, now CPS has been called on my cousin for no reason. I [F24] am literally at my breaking point. There was a day where I was running around trying to seal a deal on an apartment bc they’re first come first serve type of deal. I ran to 3 different cities in one day trying to find my SO [M21] paper work. I did this bc he is busy to accompany me during the day to run around, it’s been stressful finding a place given our income & doing it alone. I just went to a job interview today & got the job, but now they require the certifications I got from my trade school. (Sorry, if this sounds so rushed & grammar isn’t the best I’m really trying to hold it together here w out throwing my phone against the wall & crying in a corner.) I can’t find my LAST certificate, the actual one that says my GPA & completion of the program & I’m freaking out since that’s going to determine my pay rate. Now I don’t know what to do or if they’ll even make an exception w out it. I’m literally having fights w my SO every day bc he’s hurting bc of his family which he doesn’t talk to after everything & im trying to be understanding but I can’t - I can’t deal w everything being my fault even when it’s not. I literally sit there laughing & crying & I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t want to go back to the behavioral health ward in my local hospital for the 3rd time this year. I’m just fucking so overwhelmed I can’t even deal anymore. ",axienty,feel like close another mental breakdown literally running around past month trying find apartment current hard given family tried ruin life reason instance sending picture harassment social medium car almost towed work former job called cps cousin breaking point day seal deal bc first come serve type ran different city one paper busy accompany run stressful finding place income alone went interview today got require certification trade school sorry sound rushed grammar best really hold together throwing phone wall cry corner last certificate actual say gpa completion program freaking since going determine pay rate know even make exception fight every hurting talk everything im understanding fault sit laughing want go back behavioral health ward local hospital rd time year fucking overwhelmed anymore,0.01,Neutral
"GAD - Looking for a non-sSRI, non-Benzo I've suffered from GAD for many many years, pretty much as long as I can remember (I'm a 39 year old male FWIW). Over that time period I've tried various pharmaceutical treatments off and on combined with therapy. 

Most recently, I was put on Lamotrigine about 5 months ago, which I've actually found to be very effective. Unfortunately it may be causing me some skin issues (not Stevens-Johnson syndrome) and I'm looking for something else to try that's not an SSRI and not a benzo. I've read a little about Buspar and read through some of the threads on this sub, and am a little skeptical. 

So my question is, does anyone else who suffers from GAD have experience with any other medication that netted positive results?",axienty,gad looking non ssri benzo suffered many year pretty much long remember old male fwiw time period tried various pharmaceutical treatment combined therapy recently put lamotrigine month ago actually found effective unfortunately may causing skin issue stevens johnson syndrome something else try read little buspar thread sub skeptical question anyone suffers experience medication netted positive result,-0.01,Neutral
"my mind is going to kill me. (i cant add a flair because i’m on mobile but tw. health/heart problems) i’ve hit a point with my hypochondria where i’m convinced that my mind will kill me. the fact that i can’t do things that i love in fear i’m going to have a heart attack is making me flip my shit. as a kid, i had heart “problems” and my family and doctors amplified them because they forced me to go to cardiologist appointments (i would get very high blood pressure because i was very very anxious at doctors, i have always been anxious at doctors ever since i was a little kid.) and they found that out and ever since then i’ve been super mindful of my heart and every time it gets to a speed that is PERFECTLY NORMAL might i mind you, it’s normal for your heart to accelerate when you’re exercising or engaging in sexual activity, IT HAS ME PANICKING. i smoke pot, i’ve been doing it for almost 4 years now and it used to calm me down but if i can’t feel a pulse when i’m high i flip out and send myself into a panic attack. my mind is going to kill my heart and in turn it’s going to kill me. this isn’t a cry for help, or maybe it is, i don’t know. i just don’t know what i should do anymore. i can’t afford to have a therapist, hell right now i don’t even have a primary doctor and i don’t know how to make myself worry less but i’m terrified of this progressing as i get older. i want to not be afraid of my own body and its natural processes, but i’m not even sure how to start to let go of this fear i have that’s taken over a huge part of my life.",axienty,mind going kill cant add flair mobile tw health heart problem hit point hypochondria convinced fact thing love fear attack making flip shit kid family doctor amplified forced go cardiologist appointment would get high blood pressure anxious always ever since little found super mindful every time speed perfectly normal might accelerate exercising engaging sexual activity panicking smoke pot almost year used calm feel pulse send panic turn cry help maybe know anymore afford therapist hell right even primary make worry le terrified progressing older want afraid body natural process sure start let taken huge part life,0.15,Moderately Positive
"People always asking me if I'm ok/what's wrong in public. So I've been diagnosed with general anxiety and have been medicated with Prozac and wellbutrin. It's made a big difference and has taken me from dreading social gatherings of any kind (as well as many other parts of life) to enjoying a relaxed environment like a dive bar or karaoke. That being said, even when I feel like I'm having a good time and enjoying myself people in my group of friends and aquantences zare always asking me if I'm ok or what's wrong. I'm generally a pretty quiet person and most of the time I don't make unnecessary small talk in most situations. I'm completely happy being a wallflower and taking part in conversations but I am never compelled to start them especially with strangers. I'm guessing maybe this is an expected part of going to a bar, maintaining a constant stream of conversations with anyone around, but it's just not me. Has anyone else recovering from anxiety experienced this feeling like your out of place when people are constantly checking up on you? It's like I have a pissed off look on my face or something but in reality I'm happy and relaxed just being around everyone. Just venting a bit and seeing if anyone else has had any experience with it. ",axienty,people always asking ok wrong public diagnosed general anxiety medicated prozac wellbutrin made big difference taken dreading social gathering kind well many part life enjoying relaxed environment like dive bar karaoke said even feel good time group friend aquantences zare generally pretty quiet person make unnecessary small talk situation completely happy wallflower taking conversation never compelled start especially stranger guessing maybe expected going maintaining constant stream anyone around else recovering experienced feeling place constantly checking pissed look face something reality everyone venting bit seeing experience,0.17,Moderately Positive
"I silently suffered from chronic anxiety for the past year, but I think I may have rid myself of it through diet. I really wanted to talk to someone about this, and I'm so happy to see there's a whole Reddit community devoted to it.

A little over a year anxiety started creeping into me. It got so bad I would sometimes arrive at work, with tasks I knew I needed to do, and I literally could not urge myself to do them. I have since discovered that this is called ""executive dysfunction"" and is not uncommon in sufferers of moderate to severe chronic anxiety.

I have talked to no one about it, I never reached out for help... even though I should have, obviously. I've always considered myself the kind of person who deals with his own problems himself, but this was not getting better and was clearly getting in the way of things.

Well... a thing happened.

My daughter has a severe form of autism, which we have linked to a rare genetic mutation (fyi, this is a very rare form of autism. Autism is an umbrella term that actually covers a variety of conditions, but which all have similar treatments). Well someone recommended to my wife and I to try a dietary change for our daughter called the ""Nemechek Protocol.""

The theory behind it is that the Western diet has two major problems: first, an imbalance between Omega-3 and Omega-6 oils, and a lack of pro-biotics. Switching to the diet is relatively easy; you eliminate most vegetable oils and replace them with canola or extra virgin olive oil, and you take a fish oil (omega-3) supplement and a prebiotic supplement (inulin).

Saying I was skeptical would be a massive understatement, but we don't turn down any kind of advice out-of-hand when it comes to our daughter, so I read all of Dr. Nemechek's book to understand the underlying theory and how the diet works. 

And hey, wouldn't you know it, in a very short segment near the back of the book it mentions that this imbalance in the Western diet can cause some negative effects in adults as well as children, the primary one being... wait for it... anxiety.

Still skeptical, we decide to try out the diet, since it's relatively easy, not really expensive at all, and we're willing to try a lot of things if it might help our daughter (as long as we've vetted them to make sure they'll do no harm). I figure I'll try this diet too, because what the heck, why not.

It's been three months.

Our daughter's therapists have seen a significant upturn in her attitude and engagement. She's picking up words more easily and more willingly. It's not like it's miracle-level stuff, it's not like Jesus himself touched her and she is cured, but the diet has very clearly had a positive effect for her and we've been super happy with her improved performance.

And guys. Me? Anxiety is a fraction of what it used to be. If I had to put a number on it, I'd say I'm at a 2 out of 10, where most days I was between 7 to 9 out of ten. And it's only getting better every day, bit by bit.

I'm not trying to sell anyone on this specific diet change, but I am personally a believer. I was looking to this sub to see if anyone had any other specific diet or exercise tips for further reducing anxiety, or if anyone else had a success story that ended in a total or near-total end of their chronic condition without using medications.

Rock on guys!",axienty,silently suffered chronic anxiety past year think may rid diet really wanted talk someone happy see whole reddit community devoted little started creeping got bad would sometimes arrive work task knew needed literally could urge since discovered called executive dysfunction uncommon sufferer moderate severe talked one never reached help even though obviously always considered kind person deal problem getting better clearly way thing well happened daughter form autism linked rare genetic mutation fyi umbrella term actually cover variety condition similar treatment recommended wife try dietary change nemechek protocol theory behind western two major first imbalance omega oil lack pro biotics switching relatively easy eliminate vegetable replace canola extra virgin olive take fish supplement prebiotic inulin saying skeptical massive understatement turn advice hand come read dr book understand underlying hey know short segment near back mention cause negative effect adult child primary wait still decide expensive willing lot might long vetted make sure harm figure heck three month therapist seen significant upturn attitude engagement picking word easily willingly like miracle level stuff jesus touched cured positive super improved performance guy fraction used put number say day ten every bit trying sell anyone specific personally believer looking sub exercise tip reducing else success story ended total end without using medication rock,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Physical symptoms and how to cope? Bad title, but here goes... For those here who have extremely visible symptoms of anxiety, what are they? How do you cope? Whenever I get anxious I start shaking really bad, enough to keep me from doing certain things. It’s recently become more of an issue and I’m considering actually doing something about it. I want to keep medication out of the picture for now but that may change. ",axienty,physical symptom cope bad title go extremely visible anxiety whenever get anxious start shaking really enough keep certain thing recently become issue considering actually something want medication picture may change,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Feeling proud of myself I talked / breathed myself out of an anxiety attack tonight... I know it's something that we all face and its not impressive or anything but I'm proud of myself. I feel more in control than I have in a while. 

I hope everyone is doing great. I love you",axienty,feeling proud talked breathed anxiety attack tonight know something face impressive anything feel control hope everyone great love,0.78,Positive
"Anyone else get so much anxiety trying to buy things? It’s so hard for me to spend money on things even when I need them, sometimes I have anxiety attacks and can’t even get through the process of buying it :(( I was going to buy a record from my favorite band. I found out the didn’t have the most “pretty” pressing of the vinyl that I wanted and this terrible anxiety attack ensued I think bc I felt like I couldn’t justify spending the money if it wasn’t perfect. Does anyone else struggle with this?? Or have tips for improving it?

I really want that vinyl but I feel so much guilt and anxiety at the thought of it :((",axienty,anyone else get much anxiety trying buy thing hard spend money even need sometimes attack process buying going record favorite band found pretty pressing vinyl wanted terrible ensued think bc felt like justify spending perfect struggle tip improving really want feel guilt thought,0.12,Moderately Positive
"What skills/ self-help did your parents teach you, or you have taught your children? First time here: I hope this post does not deviate from group's purpose.  If so, I understand it might not be shown or would be removed.

I would like to give my offspring lifelong tools for managing stress and anxiety.  We have one school aged child and counting.

Is there anything that you were taught early in school for managing how you feel, or have you taught your own children skills to help them manage things like frustration or anxiety regarding their school work?

Specific books, or techniques very welcome!",axienty,skill self help parent teach taught child first time hope post deviate group purpose understand might shown would removed like give offspring lifelong tool managing stress anxiety one school aged counting anything early feel manage thing frustration regarding work specific book technique welcome,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else have anxiety imagining their partner dying? I (25F) have always struggled with anxiety. Lately I can't stop having intrusive thoughts and resulting anxiety about my fiance dying. I think it's largely because I had very little faith in relationships before him and the way he treats and cares for me is so far beyond anything I ever expected. He is my best friend and I can't imagine life without him. 

However, since we got engaged especially, I can't shut off my fear of him dying. He works early mornings and with ice on the roads I worry about him. I worry about his health. I worry a lot about him dying and how I would go on emotionally. Worry, worry, worry. 

Does anyone else experience this? How do you move past it? I want to be able to enjoy life and not constantly be anxious about these things I can't control. ",axienty,anyone else anxiety imagining partner dying always struggled lately stop intrusive thought resulting fiance think largely little faith relationship way treat care far beyond anything ever expected best friend imagine life without however since got engaged especially shut fear work early morning ice road worry health lot would go emotionally experience move past want able enjoy constantly anxious thing control,0.08,Moderately Positive
"progress is real!!! 8 months ago i was so anxious to meet my online friends, and i was a MESS

PERIOD. 

i messed up a lot in an anxious sense - didn't really talk to any of them and was awkward and said stupid shit and thought about it for months. like for months and just hated how dumb i was meeting them for the first time. 

today, i had one of the best days in relaxing and trying to engage more. i've been trying my hardest to step out of my shell and take my meds and calm down. anxiety is tiring, it's hard to live with. but i will try my best to live with it. 

i feel proud that today actually felt like a really good day. i feel good that i held more than one conversation with people. 

a lot can change over time. you just gotta hang in there. ",axienty,progress real month ago anxious meet online friend mess period messed lot sense really talk awkward said stupid shit thought like hated dumb meeting first time today one best day relaxing trying engage hardest step shell take med calm anxiety tiring hard live try feel proud actually felt good held conversation people change gotta hang,0.0,Neutral
"Intrusive Thoughts Hello, first time poster here. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and Panic disorders in 2016. I feel like I have made great personal progress during that time but now I have new symptoms that I do not know what to do with. Firstly, I've been feeling especially good the last few weeks (Sunshine in Northern Germany, a miracle!) but I've been having WAY more intrusive thoughts (about self-harm, to be concrete). I have always had intrusive thoughts on and off, but it confuses me as to why I'm having so many when I've been feeling pretty well lately. To make matters worse, I am spontaneously SUPER angry at little annoyances, which magnifies the thoughts tenfold and I have to resist the urge to break or hit something (including myself), which stresses me out more and fuels the cycle. I'm only finding resources for OCD, which I don't have. Does anyone have any tips on how to lessen this raging, destructive feeling? Or link to resources for those that don't have OCD? Any help would be appreciated",axienty,intrusive thought hello first time poster diagnosed generalized anxiety panic disorder feel like made great personal progress new symptom know firstly feeling especially good last week sunshine northern germany miracle way self harm concrete always confuses many pretty well lately make matter worse spontaneously super angry little annoyance magnifies tenfold resist urge break hit something including stress fuel cycle finding resource ocd anyone tip lessen raging destructive link help would appreciated,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I suck at being employed. This is just a rant.

I have always had trouble attending school and work regularly. I got in trouble for truancy in high school for always skipping. I skated through my first associates degree by showing up the bare minimum amount. 

I'm a former preschool teacher. Sounds like an odd job for someone with anxiety, right? Well, I loved it until I worked at a terrible school with awful management. I don't normally get anxious around kids, but I found myself calling out at least once a week and asking to go down to part-time until I finally quit after a year and a half. 

I was unemployed for 6 months after that. Luckily, my mom has her own business and I worked for her making about $1,000 a month from home which was just enough to get me by since all the bills I have are rent and internet. However I was really secluded and it just wasn't good for my mental health.

I landed a dream job (what I thought was a dream job) back in September with the local school district making $16 hourly. This was a huge step up from the $11.50 I was making at the preschool. While I loved my co-workers, I only liked about two of the kids I worked with. I had no idea I would be working with elementary kids with behavior issues and honestly most of them were just straight assholes. I resigned after 4 months and decided just to be a substitute.

That didn't work out very well because I would get horrible anxiety accepting a job because I never had any idea what the day would be like.

Now, I started a job at a new school, same district, last week. I'm working with older kids with learning disabilities, and most of them are good kids and they seem to really like me. SO WHY AM I CALLING OUT AND GETTING SUCH HORRIBLE ANXIETY EVERY MORNING?! ugh. I feel terrible texting the lead teacher and telling her ""I'm sick"" twice on the 2nd week when that's not entirely true. They've probably been talking shit about me and I feel like I'm going to go in tomorrow and they are going to be mad at me. 

I'm not sure if I just need to switch career fields for awhile or just get help with my anxiety. I've always gotten great performance reviews, I've been told I'm really good at what I do, and I'm really qualified. I don't want to believe my type of job is the problem because I'm not qualified for anything else. I've never been to therapy nor have I tried medication. I don't know what to do at this point and I'm falling into depression.

TLDR; I suck at being employed and call out often in every job/school program I've been in because of my anxiety. I feel like my co-workers talk shit about me and are mad at me. I've never been to therapy or taken medication and I'm not sure what to do anymore because I'm becoming really depressed. ",axienty,suck employed rant always trouble attending school work regularly got truancy high skipping skated first associate degree showing bare minimum amount former preschool teacher sound like odd job someone anxiety right well loved worked terrible awful management normally get anxious around kid found calling least week asking go part time finally quit year half unemployed month luckily mom business making home enough since bill rent internet however really secluded good mental health landed dream thought back september local district hourly huge step co worker liked two idea would working elementary behavior issue honestly straight asshole resigned decided substitute horrible accepting never day started new last older learning disability seem getting every morning ugh feel texting lead telling sick twice nd entirely true probably talking shit going tomorrow mad sure need switch career field awhile help gotten great performance review told qualified want believe type problem anything else therapy tried medication know point falling depression tldr call often program talk taken anymore becoming depressed,0.04,Neutral
"I generally like to finish the stuff I do that I consider to be work related but some things like video games, series or anything like that I don’t want to end. I am scared of finishing them since I know going back to it won’t be the same. After I finish them everything about it just feels so empty, like it has no value anymore. Knowing I can never experience it the same way again makes me not want it to end. I go from loving it and then afterwards never wanting anything to do with it anymore.",axienty,generally like finish stuff consider work related thing video game series anything want end scared finishing since know going back everything feel empty value anymore knowing never experience way make go loving afterwards wanting,0.03,Neutral
"Anxious About The Doomsday Clock I’ve barely known about this thing, I don’t know if it’s legit or not and i’m starting to panic. What is it? Is it reliable and should I be worried?",axienty,anxious doomsday clock barely known thing know legit starting panic reliable worried,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Can I get some advice on physical anxiety problems? So Basically I really struggled with anxiety for a while. I eventually got over most of the mental stuff but the physical problems are still here. My gut always feels shitty, I feel cold and shake a lot. I also notice my face is really tense. This stuff happens constantly even though I am not feeling anxious mentally. Does anyone have advice or something I can do to help this?",axienty,get advice physical anxiety problem basically really struggled eventually got mental stuff still gut always feel shitty cold shake lot also notice face tense happens constantly even though feeling anxious mentally anyone something help,-0.15,Moderately Negative
Looking for support My anxiety has been peaking the past few days. I'm looking for someone to help me focus. I play xbox to try to help so if anyone what's to play sometime please let me know,axienty,looking support anxiety peaking past day someone help focus play xbox try anyone sometime please let know,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"i don't know how to deal with it I have a huge anxiety about eating in front of opposite sex. I can kinda handle it when it's about a friend but if it goes to eating in front of someone who I'm attracted to, it only gets worse. When I had a boyfriend, for the first few meetings (long distance relationship, seeing each other every 3 weeks) when we were eating out, he was ordering something and I was just looking at him pretending I'm not hungry. I was feeling more anxiety than hunger. Once we even did something like ""hey I'll go to the toilet and you can finish my meal if you're hungry"". Maybe it sounds stupid. I wanted but I coudn't. One time I decided to try to fight and we finally started eating together but an unfortunate comment from him about how I am eating and I stopped having meals with him again. I don't know why I am so sensitive about it. How do I deal with it? What do I do when I'll find another love? I don't want to tell ""I'm sorry but I'm scared of eating with you"" to another person ever again. ",axienty,know deal huge anxiety eating front opposite sex kinda handle friend go someone attracted get worse boyfriend first meeting long distance relationship seeing every week ordering something looking pretending hungry feeling hunger even like hey toilet finish meal maybe sound stupid wanted coudn one time decided try fight finally started together unfortunate comment stopped sensitive find another love want tell sorry scared person ever,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Driving while anxious I had to quit my job over not being able to do this. Does anybody have any tips? I used to be a great driver and I love cars and all, but now I can't make the drives I used to without my throat closing up.",axienty,driving anxious quit job able anybody tip used great driver love car make drive without throat closing,0.39,Moderately Positive
"keep getting woken up by anxiety Lately my anxiety has gotten out of control. I've been woken up for around a week now, everyday, by anxiety. My brain will replay a memory that makes me really anxious and it won't stop until I open my eyes. And then when I do, I feel really bad anxiety and my brain keeps pushing that memory on me over and over throughout the day. It makes me just feel absolutely awful the entire day.

I can deal with it during the day but waking up to it every morning is torture. Anyone have any suggestions for getting me out of this vicious cycle? Is there something I can do before bed or during the day to stop this?",axienty,keep getting woken anxiety lately gotten control around week everyday brain replay memory make really anxious stop open eye feel bad pushing throughout day absolutely awful entire deal waking every morning torture anyone suggestion vicious cycle something bed,-0.43,Moderately Negative
"Sertraline/zoloft withdrawals? I started sertraline for anxiety just over a year ago and have been on 100mg for at least a few months now, and I basically left it too late to renew my prescription in time and have had to miss my dose this morning. It's now the evening and I'm on the verge of a full panic attack (which I don't get too frequently, normally just when something has triggered my dissociative issues and I'm not aware of any trigger this time) and in particular quite intense physical symptoms, and I'm just wondering whether it's possible to have withdrawal effects after just one day? It might be worth mentioning I had quite a bad reaction to it the first week or two I started it pushing me into a very deep depression, but it seemed to even out and my psych thought it wasn't too much of an issue. Is it more likely that I'm just overthinking/hyperaware of what I'm feeling at the moment?
Any thoughts would be very much appreciated!",axienty,sertraline zoloft withdrawal started anxiety year ago mg least month basically left late renew prescription time miss dose morning evening verge full panic attack get frequently normally something triggered dissociative issue aware trigger particular quite intense physical symptom wondering whether possible effect one day might worth mentioning bad reaction first week two pushing deep depression seemed even psych thought much likely overthinking hyperaware feeling moment would appreciated,0.04,Neutral
"I missed my mid-semester review So I stayed up the whole night before my review in college, I worked on my assignments but by the time I hit morning, I felt like it isn't enough and if I go it's gonna be absolutely humiliating and a bunch of other stuff. So I actually didn't go, I was too scared, and my teachers were livid and aren't ready to talk, and I don't even know how ask for help or feedback on my assignments. The only thing they've said is for me to write an email stating why I wasn't here, and I don't know what to write in that, I can't lie about being sick because I called one of my teachers and told him I was doubtful of my work and he just said he doesn't care and my attendance was important.
My brain is exploding and I need suggestions.",axienty,missed mid semester review stayed whole night college worked assignment time hit morning felt like enough go gonna absolutely humiliating bunch stuff actually scared teacher livid ready talk even know ask help feedback thing said write email stating lie sick called one told doubtful work care attendance important brain exploding need suggestion,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"New here, not sure if I belong but i'll talk a bit anyways Hello, I'm new here.  I don't have an anxiety disorder but I do get anxiety from pretty much everything.  I mostly post to r/depression when I feel bad.  Today I'm staying home from school because I feel depressed and I don't want to leave my room.  I realized today I missed a quiz last week and I'm freaking out about the consequences that will ensue.  It was only worth 10 points but what if that ends up costing my grade?  On top of that I had applied to an internship and had an interview that went really well, but I haven't heard back from them and it's been a week.  I've been worrying all week about it and now I'm getting the feeling I probably didn't get it.  That was pretty much my dream internship too, dream ruined.  I feel like my parents will be disappointed in my knowing how bad I'm doing right now and especially if I don't get the internship.  Another issue I have is my roommates, while they are all my friends they give me so much anxiety, even if they just walk upstairs a little too loud I get a terrible feeling inside.  I have pretty much come to hate everything and wish I could just not exist so i don't have to feel this way.",axienty,new sure belong talk bit anyways hello anxiety disorder get pretty much everything mostly post depression feel bad today staying home school depressed want leave room realized missed quiz last week freaking consequence ensue worth point end costing grade top applied internship interview went really well heard back worrying getting feeling probably dream ruined like parent disappointed knowing right especially another issue roommate friend give even walk upstairs little loud terrible inside come hate wish could exist way,-0.03,Neutral
"Anyone else experience patterns? I’m about to go for a driving lesson. And I’m super nervous- because this is my second lesson, and my first one went well. I’m sort of convinced (and I know this is irrational) that this lesson will go horribly because the last one went well. Because I think the universe needs to balance out the good and bad that happens to me. So everything good that happens to me, I’m convinced something terrible is around the corner because the universe sent it.
Ugh I’m so scared right now.
Does anyone else experience this? And did anyone figure out how to convince yourself that there is no pattern?",axienty,anyone else experience pattern go driving lesson super nervous second first one went well sort convinced know irrational horribly last think universe need balance good bad happens everything something terrible around corner sent ugh scared right figure convince,-0.02,Neutral
"Is it possible to ever “recover” from anxiety permanently? As stated in title! 
Follow-up questions to explain why I asked this: 
1. How do you know if your “anxiety” is really anxiety, and not just a normal human response? (e.g. like how most people would be nervous to give a presentation in class) 

2. How do you know if you truly have anxiety, or just react very badly to certain situations that cause stress? (like giving presentations). I get that you can be diagnosed by a professional, but what if you happen to see a professional for a one-time situation? 

3. Hence, the big question, can anxiety ever be truly “cured” or will we just have to learn to cope with it? 
Right now for me it’s kind of like a “lifestyle”, if that makes sense. 

To summarise that it goes like this for me:
example: 
1. I have to give a presentation in two weeks 
2. I spend the two weeks panicking and in agony 
3. I waste too much time panicking and don’t prepare well 
4. I start panicking over my unpreparedness
5. I feel like death by the day of the presentation
6. Once it’s over I just feel so drained and I want to sleep and never wake up again. 
And then usually things go alright until the next time I have to stress over something :p 

The thing is, I’ve seen a psychologist on a few occasions (cos of the things I stress over) and I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety. But when I have nothing to stress over, I feel fine most of the time. Hence I was wondering if I “recover” in between stressful situations, but then “relapse”. 
At the same time though, the “recover/relapse” cycle doesn’t feel like it’s really anxiety... like don’t normal people live that way too? (Question 1) Everyone gets stressed over certain things right?  

Sorry for the lengthy post. I hope to hear from all of you about this :) ",axienty,possible ever recover anxiety permanently stated title follow question explain asked know really normal human response like people would nervous give presentation class truly react badly certain situation cause stress giving get diagnosed professional happen see one time hence big cured learn cope right kind lifestyle make sense summarise go example two week spend panicking agony waste much prepare well start unpreparedness feel death day drained want sleep never wake usually thing alright next something seen psychologist occasion co nothing fine wondering stressful relapse though cycle live way everyone stressed sorry lengthy post hope hear,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Health Anxiety / Phobias I'm new here.  I've suffered with anxiety for as long as I can remember, but it took an existential crisis for me to seek treatment about 10 years ago.  I've been medicated ever since.  The meds definitely help me feel more ""normal"", but I'm never 100% without anxiety.  It's still always there.  

I have some chronic health problems, and after suffering for years (see a pattern here?) I have finally gotten up the nerve to try to figure out what is wrong.  For years I've told myself my symptoms are just anxiety related (IBS, body pain, fatigue, extreme migraines, etc.)  It has now gotten to the point where I'm sick more often than not, I'm missing a lot of work and I'm not able to be a good mother or wife.  I'm spending most of my time in the fetal position in bed.   I'm losing weight without trying.  I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality. 

The problem is, I am really freaked out by doctors and all the associated medical tests/procedures.   I have a GP who handles my anxiety meds, and I see her regularly, but I am awful at getting tests done and awful at seeing specialists .... even though I know logically that I need to go do these things to find out what is wrong with me so I can get better.  

In a moment of bravery, I made myself appointments with all of the specialists I've been told to see over the years... gastroenterologist, neurologist, rheumatologist, dentist and oral surgeon.   I've gone to a couple of the appts and of course all of them want me to get tests done or bloodwork done.  I feel paralyzed when I think about getting those things done.  For example, I have orders for bloodwork.  I just have to walk into the lab and let them draw blood.... super easy and no big deal.  I have driven myself there 5 times in the last week and been unable to force myself to walk through the door to get it done.  I break out in a sweat, panic, and get back in the car and leave.  Then I spend the rest of the day hating myself for it.   Feeling like an idiot because I didn't get it done.  

My GI doctor also ordered an ultrasound, which I forced myself to do (I've had two kids and knew US were easy, so this didn't freak me out as much).  However, she called me back to tell me that my US results are abnormal and that they might need to do a biopsy... so of course now I am absolutely freaking out.  

Does anyone else have this problem?  I feel paralyzed and terrified over the simplest things and hate myself for it.  I need to stop being such a coward and get this stuff done so I can figure out why I am so sick and try to fix it. ",axienty,health anxiety phobia new suffered long remember took existential crisis seek treatment year ago medicated ever since med definitely help feel normal never without still always chronic problem suffering see pattern finally gotten nerve try figure wrong told symptom related ibs body pain fatigue extreme migraine etc point sick often missing lot work able good mother wife spending time fetal position bed losing weight trying like grip reality really freaked doctor associated medical test procedure gp handle regularly awful getting done seeing specialist even though know logically need go thing find get better moment bravery made appointment gastroenterologist neurologist rheumatologist dentist oral surgeon gone couple appts course want bloodwork paralyzed think example order walk lab let draw blood super easy big deal driven last week unable force door break sweat panic back car leave spend rest day hating feeling idiot gi also ordered ultrasound forced two kid knew u freak much however called tell result abnormal might biopsy absolutely freaking anyone else terrified simplest hate stop coward stuff fix,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Why is it so hard to have a social life? I feel like it's so hard for me to have a social life. Due to my anxiety it's really hard for me to make new friends and connect with people. On top of that my family puts a lot of emphasis on having a social life with friends so it's difficult for me to do actives with my own family. I feel so alone. For example I've never been to a spa, So I asked my mom if she would want to go for mother's day as a treat. She said no and if I wanted to go I should ask a friend. I have asked my friends multiple times but they've never seem interested. I know this sounds like such a privileged problem, like I am complaining that no one wants to go to the stupid spa with me. It's just that these type of situations happen all the time, whether it's going for coffee or a movie I always get rejected!  I'm so annoyed that it's this difficult for me to do what I want! I feel like I have to pull peoples teeth just for them to hang out with me. So I spend a lot of time alone because I'm so tired of getting rejected. ( sorry for my terrible english)

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Okay I'm done venting, thanks to anyone who's reading this  :)",axienty,hard social life feel like due anxiety really make new friend connect people top family put lot emphasis difficult active alone example never spa asked mom would want go mother day treat said wanted ask multiple time seem interested know sound privileged problem complaining one stupid type situation happen whether going coffee movie always get rejected annoyed pull teeth hang spend tired getting sorry terrible english okay done venting thanks anyone reading,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"I went out to a restaurant by myself and I had fun. For context, I'm a 22 year old female who lives in a college town. I have anxiety that has worsened over the past year and I have isolated myself in my bedroom during the times that I am not at school or at work. I live with a roommate but she has severe depression and often doesn't talk to me/isolates due to her own anxiety, which I understand. I also have a boyfriend but he is on the other side of the world right now, so I don't go out very often. 

I have started doing a lot of things on my own — going to the movie theatre on my own, going to coffee shops and burger joints on my own. However, tonight, I really wanted some sushi, and didn't want to eat in front of my tv. So, I put on a nice outfit, and took myself out on a date. The waitress looked puzzled when she saw just myself enter and asked if there was anything she could help me with — so I politely asked for a table for one. 

I was seated at a rather large table, actually, but it wasn't too bad. The tables beside me must have thought I got stood up but was being a good sport about it — and, honestly? I'm fine with that. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, and it felt really good to leave my house and come home feeling wined and dined all by myself. The staff was more than excellent so I left a hefty tip, and I'm grateful to them for making my venture outside of my comfort zone a little less intimidating. 

Take that, anxiety! ",axienty,went restaurant fun context year old female life college town anxiety worsened past isolated bedroom time school work live roommate severe depression often talk isolates due understand also boyfriend side world right go started lot thing going movie theatre coffee shop burger joint however tonight really wanted sushi want eat front tv put nice outfit took date waitress looked puzzled saw enter asked anything could help politely table one seated rather large actually bad beside must thought got stood good sport honestly fine thoroughly enjoyed felt leave house come home feeling wined dined staff excellent left hefty tip grateful making venture outside comfort zone little le intimidating take,0.18,Moderately Positive
I got hired at my dream job today and have to quit my current job I’ve been at for a year and I’m so so anxious. Any advice will help!! I have to call and quit on the phone because I am a consultant and don’t work in an office with my boss. Please help!! I’m freaking out! ,axienty,got hired dream job today quit current year anxious advice help call phone consultant work office bos please freaking,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"Been brave and got help TW: Self harm

Hello it’s my first time posting gear!

I have been brave and instead of cutting myself during a overwhelming anxiety attack I’ve gone to the walk in centre to get help! Low key proud of myself even though I’m scared. ",axienty,brave got help tw self harm hello first time posting gear instead cutting overwhelming anxiety attack gone walk centre get low key proud even though scared,0.25,Moderately Positive
"How Do I Control My Nerves I was playing Werewolf with my friends tonight and I wanted to be the Narrator for a really long time because I love to indulge in my creative side yet I kept trying to compensate for how someone else thinks how the game works and as a result I kept getting interrupted and it was slow, and even worse for the first time ever the surroundings was so noisy and I ended up embarrassing myself so fucking much. I feel like yelling at someone (maybe my friend) because of how much I was fucking embarrassed and having to bend myself to other people. How do I calm myself without resulting to ranting at my friend, because even making this post isn't fully calming my nerves.",axienty,control nerve playing werewolf friend tonight wanted narrator really long time love indulge creative side yet kept trying compensate someone else think game work result getting interrupted slow even worse first ever surroundings noisy ended embarrassing fucking much feel like yelling maybe embarrassed bend people calm without resulting ranting making post fully calming,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Was this an anxiety attack or something else? So, i deal with anxiety on a general basis, and I'm planning to get myself treated and find out if i have an actual disorder, but over a year ago, and again today, i had a really weird happen to me that could be described as a panic attack, but also has similarities to Pseudobulbar Affect. When, for some reason, my anxiety gets really bad, i sometimes start hysterically laughing, it happened for the first time in late 2017, when getting dizzy triggered some really high anxiety, mostly because i thought i was having a stroke, and i started laughing and crying at the same time, while being terrified for my well-being, and I've had some minor incidents that i could more or less control, including today, when reading an isntagram story where a guy i follow complained about having a panic attack gave me an anxious reaction. For a while i couldn't help myself from laughing, my breathing was weird and I felt kind of shitty, but i managed to control it and calm down. Even then, every now and then for a few minutes i would let out a single laugh and my breathing was still a bit unstable.
What do you guys think? Is the whole crying-laughing thing normal in panic attack or could it be a sign of PBA?",axienty,anxiety attack something else deal general basis planning get treated find actual disorder year ago today really weird happen could described panic also similarity pseudobulbar affect reason bad sometimes start hysterically laughing happened first time late getting dizzy triggered high mostly thought stroke started cry terrified well minor incident le control including reading isntagram story guy follow complained gave anxious reaction help breathing felt kind shitty managed calm even every minute would let single laugh still bit unstable think whole thing normal sign pba,-0.04,Neutral
"I'm not sure how to help myself anymore. I been having a lot of anxiety attacks recently. Everything was doing well. I had slowly returned to running and even camping with some friends but soon after that rush it has gone downhill. I have slowly stopped isolating from them again because I get anxious of their approval or me annoying them. I'm close to failing the last class I need for my masters again. I have read the book so many times and I just feel stupid not understanding concepts. A week or two ago I wasn't able to answer an entire homework because I didn't understand anything. I feel stupid, alone and it's close to be my 30th birthday. I really visualized my life in a complete path and I just want to graduate to be able to get a better job but I just seem to do this. My therapist keeps canceling my appointments after the first evaluation and I just  don't know what else to do. I'm just tired and depressed and I really felt it was changing.",axienty,sure help anymore lot anxiety attack recently everything well slowly returned running even camping friend soon rush gone downhill stopped isolating get anxious approval annoying close failing last class need master read book many time feel stupid understanding concept week two ago able answer entire homework understand anything alone th birthday really visualized life complete path want graduate better job seem therapist keep canceling appointment first evaluation know else tired depressed felt changing,0.0,Neutral
"I stood up for myself! So I was a teacher. had to quit my because the pressure to be perfect was killing me. I have always been extremely afraid of my boss, just my personality type. and it doesn’t help that she can be micromanaging and emotional. I was offered a support staff position and I took it. Unfortunately I’m still at the same school working under the same boss who scares me to death. I have a lot of anxiety just being in this building. So I just try to do my job as best I can and NGAF about anything else :) 

Today I stood up to her! She confronted me about “coming to work a couple minutes late every day”. Took me a minute to process but I told her I don’t think I have been late at all. I clock in A MINUTE late each day because we always have a line of people waiting. But I am always on time. 

I’m just so on fire to have defended myself, which is really difficult at 
work. :-D 

makes me feel like I’m going to be my old self one day! ",axienty,stood teacher quit pressure perfect killing always extremely afraid bos personality type help micromanaging emotional offered support staff position took unfortunately still school working scare death lot anxiety building try job best ngaf anything else today confronted coming work couple minute late every day process told think clock line people waiting time fire defended really difficult make feel like going old self one,0.03,Neutral
"one of my triggers is my dad's voice. He does not yell or express anger violently anymore, however I still get triggered. Idk how to fix this. can anybody help? One of my triggers is my dad. He used to have some anger issues. Now he knows I have anxiety, and is way better at expressing his emotions and won't burst out to me ore my mom anymore. 

However, I still get triggered whenever i  hear his voice get a bit loud or a bit too small.

I don't get triggered when I'm talking to him directly, but i get triggered when he's talking to someone else, like my mom, or someone on the phone, or when he's just talking to himself. It usually happens when I'm in my room and he's in the living room, and then I sense his voice being a bit different than usual. Even though I can hear he is not angry nor emotional, he's just talking about a tv show or the weather or the furniture etc, my heart beat will rise and I will start getting anxious. I try to reassure myself that nothing is happening, and there's nothing to be anxious about but of course that never works.

I tryed to get rid of my anxiousness by going out of my room and see what's happening. Nothing's ever happening, he would be just talking about normal stuff, he's not angry nor agitated. He's just not using a super duper calm voice. Then I'd bug him a bit, joke a bit to check that everything's fine. and everything is fine. And I would go back to my room. but my anxiety is still fucking there and it takes a looooooooong time for it to go away.

For some reason, whenever I'm triggered by my dad, it's one of those anxiety moments which takes a super duper long time for me to recover. Also, I get easily triggered by my dad which makes it worse. it's also a bit weird cuz i wasn't triggered by my dad when he had those anger issues. i guess it made me more rebellious or something so it was easier to brush it off? but now since he got calmer, I get more triggered. 

I want to stop getting triggered by my dad or at least make those sessions? shorter. My dad's just being a normal person now, and I've already talked to him tons of times about my anxiety and how his actions caused them, and he already feels super guilty  and is trying his best to help me. He changed his actions a lot, and I doubt there's nothing more he can do. so I am the only thing that has to change or do something but i don't know what to do",axienty,one trigger dad voice yell express anger violently anymore however still get triggered idk fix anybody help used issue know anxiety way better expressing emotion burst ore mom whenever hear bit loud small talking directly someone else like phone usually happens room living sense different usual even though angry emotional tv show weather furniture etc heart beat rise start getting anxious try reassure nothing happening course never work tryed rid anxiousness going see ever would normal stuff agitated using super duper calm bug joke check everything fine go back fucking take looooooooong time away reason moment long recover also easily make worse weird cuz guess made rebellious something easier brush since got calmer want stop least session shorter person already talked ton action caused feel guilty trying best changed lot doubt thing change,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I'm going to direct a clip for a school project So, as the title says, I'm going to be the director of a clip.
I'm the one who got the idea for that clip so I'm directing it and I'm really stressed about it, I have social anxiety and there are a lot of people that are going to be involved into making it.
I feel like this is more than I can handle but I probably can't back down so I don't know what to do :/
Sorry for bad grammar",axienty,going direct clip school project title say director one got idea directing really stressed social anxiety lot people involved making feel like handle probably back know sorry bad grammar,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"How do I stop giving a shit about things im not even sure about? Sorry its venting as well as advice needed.

I work in HR and im really not happy with my job. I used to be a recruiter for a staffing agency and because of the pressure I wanted to find more of an HR generalist job (no sales focus). When I first got my current job I was told that I would need to start with recruiting and I would always be involved with recruiting but I would pick up other responsibilities. Its been almost 2 years and 80% of my job has been all recruiting. 

Recently my manager, the person who set those expectations left and I am not being managed. Once he left only 2 things came to mind- 1 find a new job or 2 work harder to get a promotion. Ive been looking for a new job and things have not been going well in my search. The CEO of the company and I do not work well together so its not likely that ill be able to get a promotion. 

While all of this has been happening my VP has been in the loop about me being unhappy. Ive been looking for my managers replacement and ive been starting to think maybe I should ride this out maybe ill learn a lot from the new manager. When I expressed my thoughts to the VP she said “if the new manager thinks you have skills to offer maybe she can have you do other things besides recruiting” the way she said it was not rude or with malicious intent but since she said it ive been super anxious. It makes me think she does not think I have any useful skills.

My anxiety is like a wave crashing against a wall going back in forth making me feel pressured and awkward. 

How do I just not give a shit about these types of situations? 

Ive always been told to not be hard on myself and take the small win for the day but ive always been a person who thinks about the big picture. At the end of the day I always end up seeing more negative then positive in my life. 

Please, I could really use some words of wisdoms with everything going on. In my life my friends and family are not people I can rely on anymore. I have never felt this alone and isolated. ",axienty,stop giving shit thing im even sure sorry venting well advice needed work hr really happy job used recruiter staffing agency pressure wanted find generalist sale focus first got current told would need start recruiting always involved pick responsibility almost year recently manager person set expectation left managed came mind new harder get promotion ive looking going search ceo company together likely ill able happening vp loop unhappy replacement starting think maybe ride learn lot expressed thought said skill offer besides way rude malicious intent since super anxious make useful anxiety like wave crashing wall back forth making feel pressured awkward give type situation hard take small win day big picture end seeing negative positive life please could use word wisdom everything friend family people rely anymore never felt alone isolated,0.0,Neutral
"Going to see a doctor I’m planning to go see a doctor about my really bad anxiety. I feel like it’s been especially out of control lately. And I’m so scared, because I’m not diagnosed and I haven’t been to a doctor in years. How does a doctor diagnose anxiety?",axienty,going see doctor planning go really bad anxiety feel like especially control lately scared diagnosed year diagnose,-0.33,Moderately Negative
"I spent the last 6 months losing sleep at night and trying to find another job to avoid the performance review I had today. I had horrible anxiety about my 9 month performance review. When I found out it was a thing I got scared shitless and started looking for another job off and on to avoid having to face the performance review. I realize that this sounds ridiculous, extremely dramatic, and is counterproductive. However, at the time it made complete sense. 

I had the performance review today and it lasted all of 15 minutes and was no big deal at all. This has made me realize that I have a really big problem with handling criticism even when its meant to be constructive and I need to take some serious steps to start dealing with this issue. Whether it be medication or therapy, I need to do something about it. 

The reality of how severe my anxiety actually is has finally hit me. This is embarrassing. 

",axienty,spent last month losing sleep night trying find another job avoid performance review today horrible anxiety found thing got scared shitless started looking face realize sound ridiculous extremely dramatic counterproductive however time made complete sense lasted minute big deal really problem handling criticism even meant constructive need take serious step start dealing issue whether medication therapy something reality severe actually finally hit embarrassing,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"How do I convince parents my problems and struggles are because of my anxiety? They don't fucking get it. I don't go to some things with them because I don't feel comfortable and don't want to deal with questions about my life that I do not enjoy. I do say I'll go to things and then don't go, which I do need to work on. But, I can't predict my anxiety really. It sorta just happens. They always think me not doing things or not going to things are me just ""getting my way"". God it's so aggravating ",axienty,convince parent problem struggle anxiety fucking get go thing feel comfortable want deal question life enjoy say need work predict really sorta happens always think going getting way god aggravating,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hi, I think that I’m dying. Constant anxiety attacks through out the day. Every single thing i feel in my body makes me question whether it’s some unknown disease or health issue that’s gonna kill me. i get lightheaded and this feeling in my chest. i’m constantly feeling my heart to make sure that it’s pumping and working fine. I hear this ringing in my head (not in my ears but yes in my head). it controls when i’m happy, when i sleep, when I socialize and i’m fucking sick of it running and ruining my life. how do I make this stop. I can’t live like this forever",axienty,hi think dying constant anxiety attack day every single thing feel body make question whether unknown disease health issue gonna kill get lightheaded feeling chest constantly heart sure pumping working fine hear ringing head ear yes control happy sleep socialize fucking sick running ruining life stop live like forever,0.11,Moderately Positive
"What methods are useful for anxiety attacks? I currently have anxiety but it's not as severe as before. But, I still have extreme anxiety attacks at least once a week. I have coping mechanisms but sometimes they do not work. May I please get some suggestions as to how others cope with these attacks? ",axienty,method useful anxiety attack currently severe still extreme least week coping mechanism sometimes work may please get suggestion others cope,-0.03,Neutral
Low blood sugar or anxiety? I almost constantly feel the need to eat.  When it comes around meal time I tend to almost get shaky irritable and lightheaded. It has grown into a severe anxiety around dinner time. I looked up the symptoms and they seem identical to low blood sugar or anxiety. I test my sugars and they’re typically in the mid 70s prior to meals. Do other people experience this? Could this just be the anxiety tricking me as mid 70s should not be dangerously low.,axienty,low blood sugar anxiety almost constantly feel need eat come around meal time tend get shaky irritable lightheaded grown severe dinner looked symptom seem identical test typically mid prior people experience could tricking dangerously,-0.16,Moderately Negative
Difference. Going to keep this simple. How do you tell the difference between anxiety and some other chest issue? Haven’t really been diagnosed with either but having some major issues right now and trying not to head to the ER if I don’t need to. ,axienty,difference going keep simple tell anxiety chest issue really diagnosed either major right trying head er need,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I Think I'm Going to Talk to My Friends Again, However.. .. I feel embarrassed for them being associated with me. All I do is whine and complain about the same shit and I don't want to irritate them, let alone with my problems. I've been in a different school since early November and I still have not made any friends. I don't know what to do. I kind of like being off the grid from everyone, but I feel so tired and drained. I don't know what to do, if anything.",axienty,think going talk friend however feel embarrassed associated whine complain shit want irritate let alone problem different school since early november still made know kind like grid everyone tired drained anything,0.02,Neutral
"I am starting to think people in my class hate me I have anxiety and autism and don't really have that much friends in class. I guess some people in my class as I get really poor grades and am socially awkward.

Anyway, I now have this course where we have to do presentation as assignments. My grades for my previous courses tend to be very bad, yet for some reason I find this course easy.

Sometimes when I hear someone say something which I interpret as common sense and yet they don't seem to get it, I will find it funny. I know laughing is rude so I try to hide it but I am scared they can tell I want to giggle at what they presented. I will also sometimes grimace if they say something I don't think makes sense or nod if I agree with what they said or the prof pointing out the things their presentations can work on. I don't know if this comes across as condescending.

Anyway, I tried to stop doing this. I am starting to get the impression they are starting to dislike me. They do not congradulate me when I do well in my presentations. Some of them do laugh out loud when the profs point out the errors in my presentations but it may have to do with how I react when that happens (I tend to laugh at my own errors).

I am now anxious about the fact that people in my class secretly hate me now. I guess I've always had no friends in class and I don't know if I am overthinking these. Some of them want to pick a certain elective course which is competitive and some even explicitly asked me if I would consider picking certain elective courses instead (which they did not pick).

Tl;dr: I don't know if it is rude for me to try not to laugh when someone people say things which aren't logically in their presentations and whether it is condescending for me to naturally nod when I agree with that they've said (or when the prof tells them how their presentations can be improved) and grimace when I don't. I am now starting to notice they seem to dislike me.",axienty,starting think people class hate anxiety autism really much friend guess get poor grade socially awkward anyway course presentation assignment previous tend bad yet reason find easy sometimes hear someone say something interpret common sense seem funny know laughing rude try hide scared tell want giggle presented also grimace make nod agree said prof pointing thing work come across condescending tried stop impression dislike congradulate well laugh loud point error may react happens anxious fact secretly always overthinking pick certain elective competitive even explicitly asked would consider picking instead tl dr logically whether naturally improved notice,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety? Is throbbing pulse on my head also a part of anxiety? It usually happens when I try to sleep and + sweating. And I feel like I lost my drowsiness, I usually feel sleepy and start battling my eyes during long or boring classes but now I haven't felt being sleepy. I do yawn but that's it, my eyes don't feel sleepy. Even with 0 sleep I can't feel sleepy but I want to. ",axienty,anxiety throbbing pulse head also part usually happens try sleep sweating feel like lost drowsiness sleepy start battling eye long boring class felt yawn even want,-0.43,Moderately Negative
"Advice on propranolol Hi guys I'm on 40mg of propranolol 3 times daily and completely forgot to take them to my parents with me. However my dad is on 10mg tablets, but they're a different colour would I be safe to just take 4 of those? ",axienty,advice propranolol hi guy mg time daily completely forgot take parent however dad tablet different colour would safe,0.15,Moderately Positive
"29 years old, no friends, no girlfriend, virgin, hermit. Anxiety and depression has ruined and is ruining my life. Please don't become me. I am 29 years old, turning 30 soon. I have never had a girlfriend, I am a virgin, I have no friends, I come home to an empty apartment every night.

All throughout middle school, high school, and college, all I did was sit at home on the computer and play guitar. Barely ever went out with friends, never went to any social gatherings, never went to any school dances, etc.

Fast forward to now, at 29 almost 30, I am left with what I described above. I have a job that I hate, that turned out was a bait and switch. I went in thinking I would be doing one thing, and it's completely something else, but because the pay and benefits are good, and I can't find anything else, I am stuck here even though I am miserable.  My team doesn't talk to each other, everyone ignores you if you ask for any type of help,  manager is never around.  I get a sense of dread every single day I go to work, and I come home pissed every day.

I only moved out of my parents house last year. For almost the past year I have been living in a 1 bedroom apartment by myself, and to be honest I hate it. I hate sitting around by myself. I have even thought about moving back to the parents.  Little things about the place make it shittier and cause me more anxiety, such as the parking situation, etc.

I am so behind the curve that I don't even think there is any hope for me. At this stage, who would even want to date me? Once someone would find out my history, it would be huge red flags.

I have become so used to sitting alone by myself, that I have no clue what to do even if I want to do something. I have no interest in sitting in bars or going to clubs. All I want to do is sit around and practice guitar and piano.  My idea of a good time is sitting with someone playing video games, or watching netflix/youtube and discussing what we are watching, etc.

I always had an interest in producing music, but I feel like I can't focus on those things because they are isolated activities and I have this large looming cloud over me telling me I better get moving because I have no friends and girlfriend.

I have been saving up for a downpayment on a house, and I'm pretty much there, but now I don't even know why I want that. A house is for a family, why the hell would I want a 3 bedroom house all to myself? Maintenance costs would be through the roof.  Why would I want a house if I'm not with anyone.

I honestly don't know what I want anymore. Every single day is the exact same, go to the job I f'n despise, and then come home to an empty apartment and sit around. It's even worse in these months because it is so bitterly cold outside that there is no point in doing anything else.

I honestly don't see a future for myself. I feel I am at the stage where I am beyond help. I don't see myself ever being with anyone, and I will just become someone who's office job is all they have. I already know my family is disappointed.

My mom actually sat me down a couple months ago and told me she was extremely worried about me because of the no girlfriend/friends thing.

My sister constantly yells at me that I am destroying my life, but her lectures just stress me out even more.

My entire life my family has done what I call ""cheap shots"" at me.  Little mental abuse situations.  Example:  I don't see the ketchup sitting on the table and go to the fridge, not seeing the ketchup i ask ""oh, we're out of ketchup?""  to which my mom will reply ""It's sitting here on the table, what the hell are you, fucking blind?""

Little shit like that, adds up over the years.

I honestly don't think I will make it to 40 years old.

I have had multiple online dating profiles for the last 8 years. I have not once had any luck. I try to make my profile as interesting as possible, soliciting feedback from people. I have not once received a reply from anyone that I message. I have even paid for these services. It has been the biggest waste of time and money.

Another thing that causes me lots of anxiety is my teeth. Cavity after cavity no matter how much I brush and floss. All the teeth in my mouth have fillings, some more than one. I even have 2 crowns. I am pretty certain I will lose all my teeth when I am older. I have been told that I might need braces. All that does is further drive me into deeper depression. I can't mentally handle possibly having braces at this age. Would make me even worse than I am in terms of looks and dating.

I have a ""friend"" whom I text with a lot and he told me that he doesn't ever see me with anyone unless 1. they were a gold digger, or 2. it was a single mom with kids.

Do you know how terrible that feels?

I constantly overthink everything. Thinking about my hopeless future gives me terrible anxiety.  I have a feeling of dread every morning going to work, which I think are mini anxiety attacks.

I posted in another subreddit about finally going to a therapist but I felt like he felt that my problems weren't real.  Saying things like ""It sounds like sitting on the computer has gotten you nowhere.  Have you thought about doing outside activities or joining groups?""  GEEE!!! SUCH CLARITY NOW!!!

The funny thing is, is that when I'm alone on the computer I actually feel comfortable.  But deep inside I have this voice telling me that things aren't OK.

Don't become me.

EDIT:  Thanks for the responses.  A lot of people here say I have independence going for me but I forgot to mention that I pretty much don't.  After work I go to my parents house for dinner every night because I can't cook and that would require me to eat out every night.  On the weekends I sit at my parents all day because I have nothing else to do.  So my apartment is pretty much just a shack for me to sleep in until I have to go to work the next day.",axienty,year old friend girlfriend virgin hermit anxiety depression ruined ruining life please become turning soon never come home empty apartment every night throughout middle school high college sit computer play guitar barely ever went social gathering dance etc fast forward almost left described job hate turned bait switch thinking would one thing completely something else pay benefit good find anything stuck even though miserable team talk everyone ignores ask type help manager around get sense dread single day go work pissed moved parent house last past living bedroom honest sitting thought moving back little place make shittier cause parking situation behind curve think hope stage want date someone history huge red flag used alone clue interest bar going club practice piano idea time playing video game watching netflix youtube discussing always producing music feel like focus isolated activity large looming cloud telling better saving downpayment pretty much know family hell maintenance cost roof anyone honestly anymore exact despise worse month bitterly cold outside point see future beyond office already disappointed mom actually sat couple ago told extremely worried sister constantly yell destroying lecture stress entire done call cheap shot mental abuse example ketchup table fridge seeing oh reply fucking blind shit add multiple online dating profile luck try interesting possible soliciting feedback people received message paid service biggest waste money another lot teeth cavity matter brush floss mouth filling crown certain lose older might need brace drive deeper mentally handle possibly age term look text unless gold digger kid terrible overthink everything hopeless give feeling morning mini attack posted subreddit finally therapist felt problem real saying sound gotten nowhere joining group geee clarity funny comfortable deep inside voice ok edit thanks response say independence forgot mention dinner cook require eat weekend nothing shack sleep next,0.0,Neutral
"I have a strange and horrible form of anxiety I feel Anxiety in my nose/sinuses. It’s like the nerves in my sinuses are going haywire and causing waves of panic and dread. Does that make sense to anyone? I know it sounds weird. I also feel very uneasy in the back of my head, and sometimes that unease moves to the base of my back. It’s terrible and it can be constant for days. It makes be unable to cope. If I do break down and take a clonazapham (which i despise taking due to their addictive nature) it all goes away and I have near 100% relief. Unfortunately this is not a long term solution. I feel like there must be something physically wrong with me to be having these bizarre symptoms. It’s impacting my ability to go to work and it’s making every day pure hell.",axienty,strange horrible form anxiety feel nose sinus like nerve going haywire causing wave panic dread make sense anyone know sound weird also uneasy back head sometimes unease move base terrible constant day unable cope break take clonazapham despise taking due addictive nature go away near relief unfortunately long term solution must something physically wrong bizarre symptom impacting ability work making every pure hell,-0.21,Moderately Negative
"He proposed. . . This is really long but my soon to be hubby has reddit so please understand the vagueness is for anonymity. 

Yes I know this should be nothing but fantastic news for me (27F) and my fiance (27M). We have been together for over 6 years and lived together since we were 20. 

However... since he proposed a month ago, I am feeling like he is less into me now than ever before. Our sex life has slowed, his attentiveness, and quite frankly all the things that made me say yes to his proposal have kind of stopped.

He has had more patience and understanding when it comes to my anxiety issues in the past than anyone else in my life but lately..its out the door. 

For example I brought up our sex life yesterday... it'd been about a week (normally we avg around 3-4 times a week so no sex at all had been really strange to me) and I tried to bring it up playfully, saying he must be getting some action on the side if he wasnt missing sleeping with me yet... he snapped. Like red face totally pissed at me SNAPPED and said accusing him of sleeping with someone else is damn near abusive behavior. 

I dont know if it was his tone of voice or what but I basically lost it. Started getting super emotional and bringing up irrelevant shit to the now heated argument. 

1) you never text me now that were engaged (seriously no texts at all for 4 days and counting) 
2) we havent gone on a date or done anything together since he proposed other than he comes over after work and sleeps in the same bed as me
3) I brought up sex again
4) And fucked it all with well if youre not doing anything wrong...lemme go through your phone.

Obviously I was reacting poorly but what I didnt expect was for him to say fuck it I dont need this Ill just return your ring if youre going to act like this - grow the fuck up and realize relationships arent everything you want all the time.

And I know hes right but I still feel like we need to talk about what I am feeling and why I feel that way or I am going to end up being that girl who is paranoid and screwed up about trusting him all the damn time 

Basically, I need advice on how to reapproach my concerns without it escalating. And I need advice on whether or not its common for men to...Idk exclude themselves for a little bit after becoming engaged? 



",axienty,proposed really long soon hubby reddit please understand vagueness anonymity yes know nothing fantastic news fiance together year lived since however month ago feeling like le ever sex life slowed attentiveness quite frankly thing made say proposal kind stopped patience understanding come anxiety issue past anyone else lately door example brought yesterday week normally avg around time strange tried bring playfully saying must getting action side wasnt missing sleeping yet snapped red face totally pissed said accusing someone damn near abusive behavior dont tone voice basically lost started super emotional bringing irrelevant shit heated argument never text engaged seriously day counting havent gone date done anything work sleep bed fucked well youre wrong lemme go phone obviously reacting poorly didnt expect fuck need ill return ring going act grow realize relationship arent everything want he right still feel talk way end girl paranoid screwed trusting advice reapproach concern without escalating whether common men idk exclude little bit becoming,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Questions for other people with anxiety I have been dealing with anxiety for the past 5-6 years of my life. I am 20 years old and started to notice it when I was 14 or 15, about my freshman year of high school. Before that I don’t remember having any major troubles with it. Whenever I’m in a good place in my life I seem to not have any worst case scenario thoughts or general anxiety, but when I’m in a bad place it seems to overtake me. Recently I had a kidney infection and before I was diagnosed I thought I had a life threatening disease and since I’ve been cured I’ve still been worried every day that something is wrong with me physically. I have never had this before until the past couple of months. Do any of you deal with this or have ways to cope with it? I also have found myself making excuses to skip my classes, or not to work out, knowing that it is not the right decision. Do you guys have tips on how to help be more motivated or be a more reliable person when also dealing with your anxiety? I’m sorry if these questions have been answered on this sub before, I just found it today and did not have time to browse through all the post looking for an answer. Thank you for any help given!",axienty,question people anxiety dealing past year life old started notice freshman high school remember major trouble whenever good place seem worst case scenario thought general bad seems overtake recently kidney infection diagnosed threatening disease since cured still worried every day something wrong physically never couple month deal way cope also found making excuse skip class work knowing right decision guy tip help motivated reliable person sorry answered sub today time browse post looking answer thank given,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"Anyone want to share their bedtime routine? Anxiety me hits hard when I lay down and try to sleep. I've tried so many things over the years, things help for awhile, then I find I need to readjust the routine.

So what do you do to help keep the anxiety at bay while you try to get the much needed sleep us anxiety sufferers so desperately need? ",axienty,anyone want share bedtime routine anxiety hit hard lay try sleep tried many thing year help awhile find need readjust keep bay get much needed u sufferer desperately,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Upping anti-Anxiety medication side effects So I recently saw my doctor and he upped the dosage on my anti-anxiety medication. I was on the same dose for about 4 years, and now he's doubled it (10mg to 20mg - not too huge). After a few days I noticed my anxiety almost getting worse? For no particular reason just a feeling of dread (normally my anxiety is situational).
I'm just wondering if other people have experienced heightened anxiety after changing medication dosage. I'm thinking it's either self inflicted (worrying I'm gonna feel worse so i DO feel worse), or just my body adjusting and it should even out.

Any feedback/advise is greatly appreciated.",axienty,upping anti anxiety medication side effect recently saw doctor upped dosage dose year doubled mg huge day noticed almost getting worse particular reason feeling dread normally situational wondering people experienced heightened changing thinking either self inflicted worrying gonna feel body adjusting even feedback advise greatly appreciated,0.19,Moderately Positive
"Extreme frustration while using fine motor skills? Not sure if this is the right sub, but I'm having a hard time googling exactly what I mean. 
Does anyone else have issues where they get extremely frustrated and physically cannot continuing things that require moderately high accuracy movement? Tasks like threading a needle, piecing together two small components, or even something larger like clicking exact points with a mouse. Sometimes when I try to do things like this my brain and entire body just feels absolutely terrible and I get in an awful mood and can't continue.
The threshold for this kind of response varies depending on the day and recently it's been super low. The past two days I had to stop working on school assignments because I was getting super frustrated just by creating flowcharts and stuff in PowerPoint. 
This really sucks because I feel like I can't do super simple tasks - I'm like a little kid who throws a fit because he can't get his Legos to fit together haha. Does anyone have a similar experience? Does it probably just have to do with stress and anxiety, or might it be something else? Thanks.",axienty,extreme frustration using fine motor skill sure right sub hard time googling exactly mean anyone else issue get extremely frustrated physically cannot continuing thing require moderately high accuracy movement task like threading needle piecing together two small component even something larger clicking exact point mouse sometimes try brain entire body feel absolutely terrible awful mood continue threshold kind response varies depending day recently super low past stop working school assignment getting creating flowchart stuff powerpoint really suck simple little kid throw fit lego haha similar experience probably stress anxiety might thanks,-0.02,Neutral
"Lexapro & Alcohol Wondering what other experiences with mixing Lexapro and alcohol. Since I’ve been on Lexapro, drinking feels better than ever. The effects feel more like a high, are more amplified, and I don’t get nauseous like I used to. Basically, it seems like all of the positives are boosted, and all of the negatives of alcohol are minimized. Anyone else have a similar experience? Not trying to become an alcoholic, but damn is drinking more enjoyable now....",axienty,lexapro alcohol wondering experience mixing since drinking feel better ever effect like high amplified get nauseous used basically seems positive boosted negative minimized anyone else similar trying become alcoholic damn enjoyable,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety with work and possible leave of absence Hello friends. I'm running out of ground as I race towards a wall at 80 miles per hour. My anxiety is getting the better of me, and I need to get it under control. I am posting here in hopes of finding support and a virtual hug to help alleviate some of this pain.

Since January of last year, I was moved into an accounting function within my company. I went from a low-stress work situation to one that I discovered to be high stress and high volume. Not only that, but the work I was doing in accounting was and has been incredibly complex and layered with bureaucracy. To add to this, my manager has been difficult to work with, which adds to the stress. He has the highest turnover of any one manager in accounting, and i wish I had known that before taking this job (there is a story behind how i ended up in his group, but the short of it is that it wasn't my choice).

Accounting wasn't a good fit, but it was manageable. At least, in the beginning. I was actively looking for new positions throughout the year, but had nothing bite. Then the anxiety began to get worse. And worse.  I didn't practice enough self-care until the stress and anxiety REALLY began affecting my health. The most startling and frightening situation was that I went from having perfectly normal blood pressure, and in a few months, discovering that it was fluctuation all over the place. It was a big concern for my doctor and myself. Luckily I don't have to get on medicine, but I have to get it under control

I have been focused on various avenues of self-care (friends, family, meditation, exercise, hobbies, cooking), but since the start of this year, the stress and anxiety with work have seemingly doubled. My biggest concern has been my health, as it's beginning to manifest as chest pains and headaches. For this reason, I am actively searching for a new job (which I'm desperately trying to do), quit and take up a bar job (I can probably find some mental healing in a restaurant for the time being), or take a leave of absence from work and allow myself to heal and figure out a plan of attack for the future.

What would you do in my situation? Taking a leave of absence sounds like the ideal path, and before I call my Human Resources department, I wanted to vet any ideas and outcomes I need to be concerned about. Has anyone else here gone on leave?

Thanks!",axienty,anxiety work possible leave absence hello friend running ground race towards wall mile per hour getting better need get control posting hope finding support virtual hug help alleviate pain since january last year moved accounting function within company went low stress situation one discovered high volume incredibly complex layered bureaucracy add manager difficult highest turnover wish known taking job story behind ended group short choice good fit manageable least beginning actively looking new position throughout nothing bite began worse practice enough self care really affecting health startling frightening perfectly normal blood pressure month discovering fluctuation place big concern doctor luckily medicine focused various avenue family meditation exercise hobby cooking start seemingly doubled biggest manifest chest headache reason searching desperately trying quit take bar probably find mental healing restaurant time allow heal figure plan attack future would sound like ideal path call human resource department wanted vet idea outcome concerned anyone else gone thanks,0.01,Neutral
"Toughed out 2 major panic attacks at the dentist today... Went to the dentist today and had to wait almost 3 hours. As soon as I sat down I started to feel it... heart racing and my face turning red. I tried to calm down but it just kept getting worse than somebody decided to sit down next to me and I lost it... After 15 minutes of deep breathing I finally felt it start to fade. After waiting for another hour a girl infront started to facetime her friend and then tried to point her camera at me without me noticing (I have severe eczema and a very noticeable rash on my face...) I made eye contact and shook my head... I felt angry then felt another panic attack heart beating out of my chest and instead of just saying fuck the appointment altogether I went outside took a deep breath and called my mom and told her I'd be late coming home. Then after another hour I finally saw the dentist fixed my cavities and almost had another panic attack because they were so close to my face but I told myself I'm not leaving and calmed down. 

Sorry if this seems out of place but after dodging human contact for months before after one panic attack I felt this was a major win for me...",axienty,toughed major panic attack dentist today went wait almost hour soon sat started feel heart racing face turning red tried calm kept getting worse somebody decided sit next lost minute deep breathing finally felt start fade waiting another girl infront facetime friend point camera without noticing severe eczema noticeable rash made eye contact shook head angry beating chest instead saying fuck appointment altogether outside took breath called mom told late coming home saw fixed cavity close leaving calmed sorry seems place dodging human month one win,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Does it stop? Can it be cured without pills or am I crazy to think so? I keep having existential crises and I am so exhausted from being so nervous/negative. I just want to feel normal. Needed to get it off my chest. Thank you for reading if you do, I’m sorry if it’s so negative. I’ve had a really bad rough patch and I’m ready to see the light at the end of this stupid tunnel. ",axienty,stop cured without pill crazy think keep existential crisis exhausted nervous negative want feel normal needed get chest thank reading sorry really bad rough patch ready see light end stupid tunnel,-0.26,Moderately Negative
"Death Anxiety Anxiety gets me so deep into my thoughts when it comes to certain topics, one of those being death. Being that death is obviously inevitable, I try to not think about it often. But when I do, the whole concept of it blows my mind. I start feeling the common anxieties, like fearing the deaths of loved ones, or leaving my loved ones behind when I die, and the pain that will cause them. Then I think deeper about how crazy it is that one day we all simply cease to be. Everything going on in our lives right now seems so important, but the bigger picture is that it’s all temporary. Everything is temporary, everything will come to an end. It’s crazy that one day you’re this living human-being with a life full of experiences and memories, and the next you’re merely a corpse. It’s also crazy to think about the world, everyone in your family, your social circle, etc. living on without you. Sometimes I wonder why living things even have to die, like the fact that most everything on Earth is designed to die at some point sort of blows my mind too. 

I realize these aren’t quite exactly “normal” person thoughts lol. I’m only in my early twenties and throughout the last couple years I’ve had a few friends who were in my age group pass away, so I guess it just makes death all the more real to me, hence why I start overthinking about it. I guess before death just seemed like this distant thing that I thought was only really likely to happen far down the road, but after having a family member pass away at sixteen and some friends pass away as well I’ve really developed an anxiety about death whenever it crosses my mind. What are your guy’s thoughts on death? Do you have similar anxieties, or have you successfully came to terms with it? Also, what fears you guys the most, the process of dying, or just death itself? ",axienty,death anxiety get deep thought come certain topic one obviously inevitable try think often whole concept blow mind start feeling common like fearing loved leaving behind die pain cause deeper crazy day simply cease everything going life right seems important bigger picture temporary end living human full experience memory next merely corpse also world everyone family social circle etc without sometimes wonder thing even fact earth designed point sort realize quite exactly normal person lol early twenty throughout last couple year friend age group pas away guess make real hence overthinking seemed distant really likely happen far road member sixteen well developed whenever cross guy similar successfully came term fear process dying,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety socialising at school? So glad I found this sub reddit!

So I’m 20 years old. Have had anxiety all my life, especially socially. I also tend to zone out from the world when I have a breakdown for 6 months or so and then I basically lose all social skills so I have like no social skills at all.

I’m back at TAFE (basically in between high school and uni in Australia) after 4 months holidays and I was told I would be with my group from last year when I started the course in July and then I rock up Monday and I’m not with anyone I know. It’s been 3 days now and I have sat by myself and have struggled to talk to anyone and when they do, I talk really quietly and softly and tend to zone out because I don’t really know how to hold a conversation. 

Everyone in my class is older than me by at least 10 years so it’s also hard to relate to people. I don’t like people but it’d be nice to be able to learn to socialise as I want to keep studying and if I do, I’ll always be in this situation. I can’t remember what I did last year when I started.

I also tend to be an asshole but I don’t really mean it. It’s basically word vomit. I also tend to get too excited when people actually pay attention to me and want to be my friend and then I get clingy and attached and end up annoying them and they just ignore me forever lmao.

Any tips would be super helpful!",axienty,anxiety socialising school glad found sub reddit year old life especially socially also tend zone world breakdown month basically lose social skill like back tafe high uni australia holiday told would group last started course july rock monday anyone know day sat struggled talk really quietly softly hold conversation everyone class older least hard relate people nice able learn socialise want keep studying always situation remember asshole mean word vomit get excited actually pay attention friend clingy attached end annoying ignore forever lmao tip super helpful,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else feel like life is too LONG? We all know the common expression that ""life is short!"" but... does anyone else feel like that's BS/overwhelmed by how LONG life is?

When I think about the fact that I had a solid 60+ years left (I'm 20), it kinda freaks me out? Like I don't know how the hell I could possibly do this for 60 more years? I'm already so overwhelmed all the time and I haven't taken on real responsibilities. I guess part of it is just not really enjoying day to day life but I genuinely don't understand the concept sometimes... like life is so dauntingly long to me. ",axienty,anyone else feel like life long know common expression short b overwhelmed think fact solid year left kinda freak hell could possibly already time taken real responsibility guess part really enjoying day genuinely understand concept sometimes dauntingly,0.08,Moderately Positive
"[advice] How to Break Up with my Therapist I have near crippling social anxiety and some PTSD from childhood traumas. I am a thinker and incredibly self sufficient when it comes to my health. Not like crazy nutso WedMD, but logical and common sense through forums to help uncover the less than ideal places in my brain myself.  I have never been one to talk but last fall I decided enough was enough and tried therapy. I wanted it to end and just hurry up to move on with my life so I caved. 

​

I have been going to my therapist for about 7+ months now. Over this time, he has never told me or helped me have any significant breakthroughs. Everything we talk about I have already come to those conclusions and coping mechanism myself with the help of the Internet, and this sub (thanks, guys). As of now, it is just a money guzzler and a time waster as it is on the other side of town for me. I just want to end my sessions and free up my time. I don't want to say it is too expensive because they always come at you with lower prices and I always cave because I just want to end the conversation. ",axienty,advice break therapist near crippling social anxiety ptsd childhood trauma thinker incredibly self sufficient come health like crazy nutso wedmd logical common sense forum help uncover le ideal place brain never one talk last fall decided enough tried therapy wanted end hurry move life caved going month time told helped significant breakthrough everything already conclusion coping mechanism internet sub thanks guy money guzzler waster side town want session free say expensive always lower price cave conversation,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Replaying traumatic experiences Anyone else every have an anxiety inducing moment so traumatic it’s replayed constantly in the mind?? I’m thinking of a few specific events that led to me having severe panic attacks in public. For me the worst panic attacks are ones where I cannot isolate myself from the situation or ones where I am out of control and do not have the ability to suppress my reactions. I’m sure many of you can relate. Anyways, I’ve been more stressed than usual therefor peaking my general anxiety. recently whenever i try to go to sleep I can’t help but replay these specific events in my head over and over and over, I replay how i felt so vividly that I begin to feel anxiousness and humiliation all over again. This one in particular from September traumatized  me so much I literally cannot get it out of my brain. I think about it multiple times a day ever since it happened 4 months ago. At night I try to scroll through social media to divert my attention but nothing really works. I just want to sleep and i want to stop focusing on all these bad things I’ve been through.",axienty,replaying traumatic experience anyone else every anxiety inducing moment replayed constantly mind thinking specific event led severe panic attack public worst one cannot isolate situation control ability suppress reaction sure many relate anyways stressed usual therefor peaking general recently whenever try go sleep help replay head felt vividly begin feel anxiousness humiliation particular september traumatized much literally get brain think multiple time day ever since happened month ago night scroll social medium divert attention nothing really work want stop focusing bad thing,-0.01,Neutral
"Anxiety around sexual desire has taken a turn for the worse, and its scaring me. For years now I have had anxiety centered around loss of control. Whether I am anxious that I cannot control when I go pee, or take a shit, or during sex I worry endlessly about if I can control when I orgasm.

The control over the orgasm has legitimately been something I can hardly control during a sexual experience, so sex makes me anxious.

Not only that, but intrusive thoughts about my Mom and other undesirable sexual objects started consuming me.

​

So I stopped having sex, pursuing sexual partners, and began only masturbating once every week.

​

In short, sex makes me extremely uncomfortable.

​

Recently some weird things have been manifesting. I was at work and I checked out this girl, I found her very attractive. But I suddenly felt unrealistically aroused by just looking at her, which made me very anxious since I was in a public place. I however was able to reel myself in and calm down, preventing any lengthy time of discomfort for me.

​

Then about a week ago I was performing my job, (I work at a car wash) and some air hit my crotch region (like it has for over a year almost everyday) and I felt suddenly aroused.

​

From then on I have been obsessively worried about becoming aroused at the wrong time. At first only at work, while working with certain people. I would get these intrusive thoughts of sex, almost like these thoughts were fighting against me trying to arouse me, and I was running from them trying to avoid their effect on me. 

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I have done this in the bedroom before, but it as never seeped into my daily life like this.

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And over the last few days I have been carrying an irrational fear that I have no control over sexual feelings and that I might spontaneously ejaculate. I tend to avoid looking at attractive people, or even thinking about sex. The other day before a musical performance (that I was extremely nervous to perform) I saw an attractive lady and felt like I was about to ejaculate. I became disturbed and tried to distract myself.

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I have been thinking this a product of my sexual repression due to insecurity, frequent sexualized intrusive thoughts, and a product of me repressing my anxiety with various methods.

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I have been feeling a constant low level of arousal since yesterday morning and I am scared that I have developed PGAD. I can't talk to my mom even somewhat comfortably, I feel constantly uncomfortable and gross, I do not want to tell anyone, I fucking hate myself for this and I have NO IDEA  what to do. 

I don't want another constant worry, problem, anxiety.

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I feel extremely trapped within this problem, and I could use as much help as you can offer. In any capacity.

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TLDR: Anxiety and suppression has manifested into a constant feeling of unwanted sexual desire. I am losing my mind and need some advice.",axienty,anxiety around sexual desire taken turn worse scaring year centered loss control whether anxious cannot go pee take shit sex worry endlessly orgasm legitimately something hardly experience make intrusive thought mom undesirable object started consuming stopped pursuing partner began masturbating every week short extremely uncomfortable recently weird thing manifesting work checked girl found attractive suddenly felt unrealistically aroused looking made since public place however able reel calm preventing lengthy time discomfort ago performing job car wash air hit crotch region like almost everyday obsessively worried becoming wrong first working certain people would get fighting trying arouse running avoid effect done bedroom never seeped daily life last day carrying irrational fear feeling might spontaneously ejaculate tend even thinking musical performance nervous perform saw lady became disturbed tried distract product repression due insecurity frequent sexualized repressing various method constant low level arousal yesterday morning scared developed pgad talk somewhat comfortably feel constantly gross want tell anyone fucking hate idea another problem trapped within could use much help offer capacity tldr suppression manifested unwanted losing mind need advice,0.01,Neutral
"I've dropped 3 classes this semester I'm probably going to drop the last two I'm in too, I haven't been in over a month. I'm supposed to graduate in a year but it'll be impossible for me to get the credits I need. I'm just starting to get help but sometimes it feels like it's too late and my anxiety has already fucked up my life beyond repair. ",axienty,dropped class semester probably going drop last two month supposed graduate year impossible get credit need starting help sometimes feel like late anxiety already fucked life beyond repair,-0.31,Moderately Negative
"After university I’m graduating in the summer, how is searching for jobs and working when you have anxiety?? ",axienty,university graduating summer searching job working anxiety,0.0,Neutral
"create a positive waves why can't we create a positive waves..i was read a more and more things today and there is 
a people who can't even wanna live in world and have lots of depressed people in this ****world ..this is a world want us to live..no one gona consider us if we couldn't have proper interact with them",axienty,create positive wave read thing today people even wanna live world lot depressed want u one gona consider proper interact,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Emetophobia +school anxiety I’ve been having a rough time lately so I thought it might help me to just kinda speak my mind or something. Also, I’m writing this on mobile so my apologies if the format is wonky. This is kinda a rant I guess, so sorry if it’s not allowed. 

Basic info (kinda irrelevant but whatever) - I’m a 17 y/o female in junior year of high school (11th grade). I also have (and am taking medication for) panic disorder. I have really bad emetophobia (fear of vomit)


Today was the first day back from spring break, and I had a panic attack on the way to school so didn’t even end up going to school. Two things caused this panic - the fact that I had to go to school in the first place and that I had a stomachache. For some reason, whenever I don’t go to school it makes it extremely hard for me to go to school when I have to go back. 

Part of my stomachache was caused by insomnia last night due to my anxiety of school. When I don’t get much sleep it makes my stomach hurt.  Then it hurts worse because it hurts in the first place, giving me anxiety. 

But I think my school anxiety was causing me to get stomachache, which then causes my emetophobia to cause me to have more anxiety, which causes my stomachache to get worse, and so on. 

Being at school gives me anxiety because I’m always afraid of other people vomiting and that giving me a panic attack and that scares me. I almost lost a friend when I was about nine due to emetophobia, which I’m pretty sure made me super insecure about it and therefore also makes me have anxiety about my emetophobia and it’s just a downward spiral of anxiety triggers. 

So yeah, I don’t know how I’m going to go to school tomorrow. People are so nosy and always ask where I was, so I have to make up an excuse like “I was sick” but nobody believes that. 

It’s just a fun time.

Oh- I also have a fear of failure. And by failure, I mean getting anything below an A in my classes. So that also makes all of this worse, because I’m missing class time. 

I’m trying to ~~conceive~~ *convince* my mom to let me do online school so that I can still succeed in school, because I don’t mind doing school work, it’s the physical act of going to school. And no, I’m not just lazy. If I was just lazy, this would be an issue from the start, but it’s just shown up within the past year. I’m pretty sure this is because I’ve been struggling to get A’s in my classes. So yeah. 

Anyways, I hope anyone who reads this has a wonderful day/night/whatever time it is for you. <3



Edit: noticed a silly typo while re-reading after posting ",axienty,emetophobia school anxiety rough time lately thought might help kinda speak mind something also writing mobile apology format wonky rant guess sorry allowed basic info irrelevant whatever female junior year high th grade taking medication panic disorder really bad fear vomit today first day back spring break attack way even end going two thing caused fact go place stomachache reason whenever make extremely hard part insomnia last night due get much sleep stomach hurt worse giving think causing cause give always afraid people vomiting scare almost lost friend nine pretty sure made super insecure therefore downward spiral trigger yeah know tomorrow nosy ask excuse like sick nobody belief fun oh failure mean getting anything class missing trying conceive convince mom let online still succeed work physical act lazy would issue start shown within past struggling anyways hope anyone read wonderful edit noticed silly typo reading posting,-0.12,Moderately Negative
Tinnitus from an ear infection. Is my anxiety making it worse? I'm still getting over an ear infection from a little over 2 weeks ago that's gone away except for a fullness feeling in my ear and constant ringing. I'm still tapering off prednisone which isn't helping my anxiety but I can't stop obsessing over the ringing in my left ear and worrying if it's permanent tinnitus. Has anyone experienced anything like this with anxiety and an ear infection? I'm just freaking out that it might be permanent.,axienty,tinnitus ear infection anxiety making worse still getting little week ago gone away except fullness feeling constant ringing tapering prednisone helping stop obsessing left worrying permanent anyone experienced anything like freaking might,0.04,Neutral
"If the relation between alcohol and mental illness is so scientificly established, why is it not so common to professionals of psychology or psychiatry to recommend their patients to stay away from alcohol? So I face mental problems for a while now, and went to several psychiatrists and psychologists over the years, but none of them have even asked me about my habits regarding alcohol consumption, which was a huge part of my lifestyle. It was a big surprise to me when I discovered that alcohol and mental problems are so related and that it's not exactly news. Why are doctors ignoring this or not paying too much attention in this, since everyone today is drinking alcohol?",axienty,relation alcohol mental illness scientificly established common professional psychology psychiatry recommend patient stay away face problem went several psychiatrist psychologist year none even asked habit regarding consumption huge part lifestyle big surprise discovered related exactly news doctor ignoring paying much attention since everyone today drinking,0.06,Moderately Positive
"How do I avoid feeling guilty about the decisions I make? Every time I go to hang out with my friends I end up feeling guilty that I'm with them and not spending more time with my family or spending time cleaning or doing homework and vice versa. This happens with pretty much every decision I make, like when I spend money on something I want (like the movies) I feel guilty for not having saved it or spent it on something more important. How do I avoid this guilt and learn to enjoy the things I'm doing and live in the moment?",axienty,avoid feeling guilty decision make every time go hang friend end spending family cleaning homework vice versa happens pretty much like spend money something want movie feel saved spent important guilt learn enjoy thing live moment,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I don't know how to stop feeling so anxious and heart broken My ex and I have been talking since we broke up, as we wanted to stay friends and be in each others lives. We've always had talks of getting back together and I said that I would like to, but I first would like to work on myself (get over my past, my anxiety and fixing my commitment issues and rampant sex drive). My ex has also reassured me numerous times that she isn't interested in dating anyone else, and not even doing anything sexual flirty. She's had a few flings here and there but ultimately regretted them and told me because she felt guilty. However just earlier, I got 3 images from her. All 3 were selfies, yet the last one had her top all the way up, so you could clearly see her tits. She deleted them instantly and my heart sank. They weren't meant for me. My anxiety sky rocketed, so in defence i got angry, asking her who they were for. She then told me to ''stop trying to guilt trip her''. Am I in the wrong here? I'm 99% sure I know who they were for. Even though she has told me time and time again that her and this 'guy' are just friends, and she has no dating or sexual intentions with anyone, including him. She then got all defensive, telling me that its ''none of my business'' etc, when all I wanted to know was who they were for. I know it isn't, as we aren't together, but its the fact she has the audacity to sit there and promise me that she doesn't want anything sexual with anyone. In a sense I feel betrayed, and every time I think about that 3rd picture, and the fact that she sent that to someone else my anxiety just goes crazy, and I have the worst crushing feeling on my chest and throat. How do I stop this? I want to cry but I can't. I just don't know what to do.

On a side note, she said multiple times that it was an accident, but I spoke to my friend about it and he said that it could have been, or it wasn't and she's trying to make me jealous.

I'm just so lost on what to do. I haven't answered back. Do I message her? What do I say. I seriously need help",axienty,know stop feeling anxious heart broken ex talking since broke wanted stay friend others life always talk getting back together said would like first work get past anxiety fixing commitment issue rampant sex drive also reassured numerous time interested dating anyone else even anything sexual flirty fling ultimately regretted told felt guilty however earlier got image selfies yet last one top way could clearly see tit deleted instantly sank meant sky rocketed defence angry asking trying guilt trip wrong sure though guy intention including defensive telling none business etc fact audacity sit promise want sense feel betrayed every think rd picture sent someone go crazy worst crushing chest throat cry side note multiple accident spoke make jealous lost answered message say seriously need help,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"My mother decided to have a third child. Despite always complaining that our house is not spacious enough for when there was only 4 of us living together, she decided to bring another child into this amazing world.

I love my 1 y/o brother to death, but my home life was already my most consistent anxiety fuel and now it's in overdrive. I'm already on edge everyday and my anxiety has gotten so bad that I don't even know how to talk to anyone about it.

His cry is piercing. No, I am not exaggerating. Not even a *little*. His daycare has voiced this same opinion. Not only is his cry piercing, but I am always being forced/expected to drop whatever I'm doing to help out with the baby. At first it was no issues with this. I love him and will always love him so it is my duty to help out, but man does it get fucking tiring. Especially knowing I help out twice as much as my father does. 

I barely get sleep, and have college and my job to fuel my anxiety even more. I am depressed as is and this is just ruining any progress I've made in conquering my extremely apparent anxiety. 

Feeling guilt whenever I hear the baby crying is the worst. If I don't get up and help I am reprimanded and scolded for it. It has gotten the point where I cannot be at ease at all anymore. Everything is my fault. If it isn't my fault, I'm ungrateful and unappreciative for letting my mother struggle to neutralize the crying. My drug addicted and relapsing grandmother was just sent to a psych ward 2 days ago. My job cut my hours significantly around Christmas time and I failed my remedial class for the 3rd time last semester and it is the only thing holding me back academically. My girlfriend is always mad at me it feels like.

Basically what I'm trying to say is I don't know how much longer I can do this. With my depression being so strong for the past 5 years as well as my anxiety, I am getting back to the suicidal abyss I once climbed out of. Anyways, since I don't have anyone I can tell this too without them virtue signaling or dismissing it, I am taking to reddit to vent.

**TL;DR** My mother had another child last year, whom is now 1 year old. His presence alone and the demand for me to be essentially another parent has been fueling my anxiety. Being the oldest [20M] sucks. I am stuck with the responsibility of this child far too often and am truly suffering in silence because of it. This is my ""rant"" about it.",axienty,mother decided third child despite always complaining house spacious enough u living together bring another amazing world love brother death home life already consistent anxiety fuel overdrive edge everyday gotten bad even know talk anyone cry piercing exaggerating little daycare voiced opinion forced expected drop whatever help baby first issue duty man get fucking tiring especially knowing twice much father barely sleep college job depressed ruining progress made conquering extremely apparent feeling guilt whenever hear worst reprimanded scolded point cannot ease anymore everything fault ungrateful unappreciative letting struggle neutralize drug addicted relapsing grandmother sent psych ward day ago cut hour significantly around christmas time failed remedial class rd last semester thing holding back academically girlfriend mad feel like basically trying say longer depression strong past year well getting suicidal abyss climbed anyways since tell without virtue signaling dismissing taking reddit vent tl dr old presence alone demand essentially parent fueling oldest suck stuck responsibility far often truly suffering silence rant,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Hydroxyzine & Buspirone for situational panick attacks? For some background:

I am a teacher.  Day to day I do not suffer from anxiety.  My anxiety is very situational.  We are evaluated 3 times a year and when the administrators come I have a full blown panic attack complete with inhability to speak.  I’m
Not sure why this situation makes me react so strongly but nothing else in my life affects me this way.  Since it only happens 3 times a year, my doctor has prescribed me Xanax which for the past few years I take exactly 3 times a year when I am observed and it has worked perfectly.  

I ran out and this coming week I will be having an observation.  I went to urgent care as my doctor is closed on the weekend and instead of Xanax I was given Hydroxyzine and Buspirone.  He wants me to take buspirone every day and hydroxyzine when he knows I will be observed.

1.  I really don’t want to be on something daily as my anxiety is very situational.

2. The Xanax has worked and I take it extremely infrequently (only 3x per year during observations) I am very worried about the new medication not working correctly and having a full blown panic attack and being unable to speak.

Can anyone speak to the effectiveness of these 2 drugs?  I am worried if I go back and tell them I just want the Xanax they may accuse me of being a pill-seeker which could not be further from the truth.",axienty,hydroxyzine buspirone situational panick attack background teacher day suffer anxiety evaluated time year administrator come full blown panic complete inhability speak sure situation make react strongly nothing else life affect way since happens doctor prescribed xanax past take exactly observed worked perfectly ran coming week observation went urgent care closed weekend instead given want every know really something daily extremely infrequently per worried new medication working correctly unable anyone effectiveness drug go back tell may accuse pill seeker could truth,0.14,Moderately Positive
Today's the first day back at university and I can't will myself to get out of my bed Fuck it and fuck them ,axienty,today first day back university get bed fuck,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Am I being paranoid? A man in the apartment complex I’m dog sitting in is really freaking me out.. So- I am working for a woman that lives in a homeless housing program. Mostly everyone here is nice- but there is one guy here who is taunting me in really weird ways..

I’m only here 3 days a week- for 3 hours. But the way it’s set up is really unfortunate. The guys lives directly underneath the woman I am dog sitting for AND he lives literally right next to the front door to the complex. So I have to walk past his door that has an eye hole every time I take the dog out. I feel like he’s keeping track of when I come and go. 
 
Getting to the weird part/ this guy parts the blinds open and bangs on the window and sticks his fingers and beady eyes to signal at me EVERY time I leave the job and watches me walk away. 

He “happened to walk out” the second day when I arrived and side stared me down- his eyes jabbed me in the intuition even more- he just has a bad output.

And most recently- when I walk downstairs to take the dog out he starts to scream through his door about the dog needing to shut the f*** up and blasts music. He might just be a paranoid tweaker- but from experiences in the city- I am feeling really uncomfortable and anxious.

The thing that really sucks is I can’t even be escorted- the woman only has one set of keys- so I have to walk down alone past his stupid door to let her in every time she gets home. 

I’m sitting right now- and absolutely dreading walking down to let her back in today. 
The extra cash is really necessary right now- maybe my gut is just overreacting?



",axienty,paranoid man apartment complex dog sitting really freaking working woman life homeless housing program mostly everyone nice one guy taunting weird way day week hour set unfortunate directly underneath literally right next front door walk past eye hole every time take feel like keeping track come go getting part blind open bang window stick finger beady signal leave job watch away happened second arrived side stared jabbed intuition even bad output recently downstairs start scream needing shut blast music might tweaker experience city feeling uncomfortable anxious thing suck escorted key alone stupid let get home absolutely dreading walking back today extra cash necessary maybe gut overreacting,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"Best jobs for someone with social phobia I've been unemployed for about 6 months now. I need to get a job. I just sit at home all day and it's probably not good for me. 

I've always had a hard time finding jobs. I'm very picky about it. I have black and white thinking about it, if one thing makes me uncomfortable, I will only focus on that one thing and I will hate it and won't do it. I have an intense fear of judgement, criticism, and making mistakes. My thought process and actions basically revolve around these fears and it makes things, especially jobs, very difficult.

What part time jobs would be good for someone who has social phobia and hates people?",axienty,best job someone social phobia unemployed month need get sit home day probably good always hard time finding picky black white thinking one thing make uncomfortable focus hate intense fear judgement criticism making mistake thought process action basically revolve around especially difficult part would people,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Waking up in the middle of the night? I've suffered from anxiety for the past few years and currently manage it with journalling, diet & exercise and therapy every 2-4 weeks. 

I've been really great the past few weeks but tonight decided to go to sleep when I was feeling a bit on edge hoping the feeling would fade with a good sleep and down time. 

Oh no. I've been sleeping but not well. Now it's 2 am and I'm wide awake. 

I was wondering, if I'm already asleep, why/how does my body wake me up with anxiety? I'm not even consciously worring about anything, I didn't have a bad dream, I wasn't even awake and anxiety symptoms affected me. ",axienty,waking middle night suffered anxiety past year currently manage journalling diet exercise therapy every week really great tonight decided go sleep feeling bit edge hoping would fade good time oh sleeping well wide awake wondering already asleep body wake even consciously worring anything bad dream symptom affected,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I'm now 18 Years old,from Germany and going to school right now, planning on study psyochologie. The only thing that seems to slow me down right now is chronic panicattack-like illness that seems to destroy everything I've build up for myself. It is a constant strain of thought that I fear the most that developed from the time I was six. Eversince I was six years old I started having weird forced habits like touching certian things for x amount of times or making weird noises. The older I got, the less I had these forced habits and the more I had something like a second ""voice"" in my head that was thinking of something entirely else and actually disturbing that I couldn't control.",axienty,year old germany going school right planning study psyochologie thing seems slow chronic panicattack like illness destroy everything build constant strain thought fear developed time six eversince started weird forced habit touching certian amount making noise older got le something second voice head thinking entirely else actually disturbing control,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Is there anyone in this sub who has beaten their anxiety long term? 31F here, I feel like my anxiety is only getting worse the older I get. Small things that my anxiety causes me to do have snowball effects in my life, and things have been unraveling for a while now. I’d like to quit wallowing in it and turn things around. I’d like to hear from someone who has done it what WORKS. 

I am worried that my early childhood experiences of feeling unloved and inferior will never leave me. They will always dominate my psyche. 

Help?",axienty,anyone sub beaten anxiety long term feel like getting worse older get small thing cause snowball effect life unraveling quit wallowing turn around hear someone done work worried early childhood experience feeling unloved inferior never leave always dominate psyche help,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Does anyone have any info on how different types of drugs affect Norepinephrine and what the effects are? Apparently SNRIs and SSRIs (often used for anxiety) affect Norepinephrine differently.  I do better on SSRI VS SNRIs (example, Prozac really works for me)


My doc also prescribed me meds for ADHD - trying Dexedrine, then Adderall.  It just occurred to me that Adderall might affect Norepinephrine more than the Dex.


",axienty,anyone info different type drug affect norepinephrine effect apparently snris ssri often used anxiety differently better v example prozac really work doc also prescribed med adhd trying dexedrine adderall occurred might dex,0.19,Moderately Positive
"I'm getting fed up with School and I'm very angry I'm a junior in high school with GED, OCD(mainly obsessive) and social anxiety, and this year especially(and this semester even more) my performance at school has been suffering. I don't know what it is. It's just so hard for me to focus. My mind is never where it should be, and even when I really try, it seems like I can't grasp information as well as I should. It's like my brain just doesn't work the way it should anymore and I hate this feeling. To make matters worse, my friends are in higher-level classes and get mostly As, whereas every day feels like a struggle for me academically, socially, and mentally. It leaves me feeling inadequate and I've been getting angry at them for no reason and as a result I feel like a dick. I just don't give a shit anymore. I'm so sick and tired of school and it seems like the only thing it's good for is making me angry and depressed. I just want to focus on things I enjoy like video games and creative writing but instead I waste time by getting sucked down a rabbit hole watching videos on youtube and never getting my homework done, and thus I never have time to do anything I actually want to do.

I don't know man, I'm just venting I guess. I'm very stressed and I've been going in and out of depression lately, so I just wanted to sort of get my feelings into words. Sorry if I sound entitled or like I'm complaining about first world problems or whatever. I don't even know anymore.",axienty,getting fed school angry junior high ged ocd mainly obsessive social anxiety year especially semester even performance suffering know hard focus mind never really try seems like grasp information well brain work way anymore hate feeling make matter worse friend higher level class get mostly whereas every day feel struggle academically socially mentally leaf inadequate reason result dick give shit sick tired thing good making depressed want enjoy video game creative writing instead waste time sucked rabbit hole watching youtube homework done thus anything actually man venting guess stressed going depression lately wanted sort word sorry sound entitled complaining first world problem whatever,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"For the last few months I am unable to fall asleep due to my anxiety. I don't know what it is but whenever I go to sleep my anxiety kicks in and I start to overthink. As a result, I end up falling asleep really late and as a University student it makes it harder for me to get up in the morning/I miss lectures.

I've tried drinking calming tea, breathing exercises, music but nothing works. I tried reading before sleeping but I always end up scrolling on my phone. I don't know what to do. ",axienty,last month unable fall asleep due anxiety know whenever go sleep kick start overthink result end falling really late university student make harder get morning miss lecture tried drinking calming tea breathing exercise music nothing work reading sleeping always scrolling phone,-0.2,Moderately Negative
"eyes floaters came back Im not an alcoholic ,... I use to drink last year like 1-2 time a week a beer or 2 ... but it made me so anxious te next day I stoped... yesterday I drink a glass of wine and tonight my floaters came back lol  im brain damaged",axienty,eye floater came back im alcoholic use drink last year like time week beer made anxious te next day stoped yesterday glass wine tonight lol brain damaged,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Intensifying anxiety over finding a new psychiatrist I originally posted a vent post in r/bipolar but my GAD is taking over with this situation so I thought I would take my issue here and post here for the first time. This subreddit seems so supportive and I could definitely benefit from people who understand just how consuming anxiety is.

I’ve been seeing my current psychiatrist for 3 years now. I began seeing him during my last hospitalization and I liked him so much I continued seeing him at his practice once I got out. He’s been with me through all my highs and my lows. When I had my worst manic episode of my life last year he brought me back from that. He is kind, understanding, and patient. He listens, provides more than enough feedback, answers all of my questions and concerns. If I feel something isn’t right or is off, he gives thorough advice or he tweeks my meds and tells me why. He explains everything in detail. I have him to thank for finding the perfect med cocktail that works for me which took a lot of trial and error. He and I have such a report that I haven’t had with any other psychiatrist. He is my favorite doctor and I look forward to my appointments.

My last therapy session at the same practice the therapist let me know my psychiatrist is resigning the practice and it will be closed as of June 30th. He gave he an information packet explaining it in detail and it provided information as to where else I should go to continue treatment.

When I got home I broke down and had a panic attack. The thought of starting over is terrifying. I fear I won’t find a doctor that compares. I also have to find a new therapist. Lot’s of phone calls and appointments in new places are in my future. There’s a chance the new therapist and psychiatrist won’t be a good fit for me so that means more phone calls and more new places. I have a deadline as to not have a gap in having my medications so that is weighing on me as well. Starting over fresh with new faces and the introductions are making me nauseous. I also have pretty bad driving anxiety as well and the thought of driving some place new is keeping me up at night. I’m scared and I can’t procrastinate as I normally would. 

This is all just so overwhelming and my anxiety is at an all time high. I’m trying to tell myself everything will be okay, that I can do this, and to not let my fear get in the way of my treatment. It’s not helping. I’m terrified. Thank you for reading my rambling. I could really use some support and words of encouragement.",axienty,intensifying anxiety finding new psychiatrist originally posted vent post bipolar gad taking situation thought would take issue first time subreddit seems supportive could definitely benefit people understand consuming seeing current year began last hospitalization liked much continued practice got high low worst manic episode life brought back kind understanding patient listens provides enough feedback answer question concern feel something right give thorough advice tweeks med tell explains everything detail thank perfect cocktail work took lot trial error report favorite doctor look forward appointment therapy session therapist let know resigning closed june th gave information packet explaining provided else go continue treatment home broke panic attack starting terrifying fear find compare also phone call place future chance good fit mean deadline gap medication weighing well fresh face introduction making nauseous pretty bad driving keeping night scared procrastinate normally overwhelming trying okay get way helping terrified reading rambling really use support word encouragement,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Medication questions - anyone been there? Hi all. First time poster in this sub.

So I have generalized anxiety as well as depression coupled with worse depression during the winter time (seasonal affective). For about two or so years I've been taking citalopram (brand name Celexa) 10mg worth and I have loved the difference it made for me.

While I would still get mild anxiety and stress it was really mostly caused by intense pms or when I would screw up on my routine in taking one every day. Because of the type of medication it is, basically every 90 days I have to go for a check-in in order to be prescribed more.

The last time I went my doctor told me that 10mg is considered ""half of the starting dose"" and he felt that if I took 20, I might be able to be the ""best happiest version of myself"". There was another time prior where he wanted to start me on 20mg and I didn't want to go that high so I refused. (well technically I took the 20mg script and broke all my pills in half to prolong what I had)

Anyway, I agreed to 20 this time and I am not having fun. I'm approaching week 6 soon. This upcoming Friday will be my 5th full week on the 20mg. I think I feel worse. My insides are being torn up, I'm losing weight, my appetite, and I actually feel more depressed than I did before. While my anxiety has calmed down I think it's because I literally cannot bring myself to care about anything. I do not care. I don't care about my job. I'm planning a wedding in the summer and while I'm excited about it i don't feel naturally enthusiastic. I don't want to get out of bed. I want to sleep all the time and literally do nothing. I am NOT suicidal. I just don't care. I don't feel like I have any emotion towards anything - negative or positive. 

I'm thinking about halving my doses again but wondering if I should pull through and tough it out for the full 6 weeks. because I know the recommended time to let it work is between 4-6 wks.

Has this happened to anyone else before? Have you ever increased dosage and felt worse? Is it possible that I don't need more than 10mg and this dose is too much? 

I know I should discuss this with my doctor before I make any decisions or changes however I'm curious about others' experiences and if there are similarities.",axienty,medication question anyone hi first time poster sub generalized anxiety well depression coupled worse winter seasonal affective two year taking citalopram brand name celexa mg worth loved difference made would still get mild stress really mostly caused intense pm screw routine one every day type basically go check order prescribed last went doctor told considered half starting dose felt took might able best happiest version another prior wanted start want high refused technically script broke pill prolong anyway agreed fun approaching week soon upcoming friday th full think feel inside torn losing weight appetite actually depressed calmed literally cannot bring care anything job planning wedding summer excited naturally enthusiastic bed sleep nothing suicidal like emotion towards negative positive thinking halving dos wondering pull tough know recommended let work wks happened else ever increased dosage possible need much discus make decision change however curious others experience similarity,0.17,Moderately Positive
"My life has spiralled into a area I’m not sure I can survive in much longer. Everyone who was close to me have seemingly all decided to just pretend I don’t exist right as I start my third year of Uni. My anxiety levels are usually pretty high this time of year but this last month has been the worst of my life for my emotional well-being. I’m trying so hard but I’m suffering, and the meds don’t seem to be helping What do I do",axienty,life spiralled area sure survive much longer everyone close seemingly decided pretend exist right start third year uni anxiety level usually pretty high time last month worst emotional well trying hard suffering med seem helping,0.01,Neutral
"Suffering anxiety attacks, and bad anxiety when thinking alone. I suffer from anxiety attacks, which have been common recently. I also have bad anxiety, and I can't think about many things without getting bad anxiety and depressive scenes. I think it comes from my parents, who are sorta mentally abusive. They like to call me and my siblings ""stupid"" or ""idiotic"" when we make small mistakes. I don't know how to fix this, as I'm too worried to think about therapy. Could I get some help?",axienty,suffering anxiety attack bad thinking alone suffer common recently also think many thing without getting depressive scene come parent sorta mentally abusive like call sibling stupid idiotic make small mistake know fix worried therapy could get help,-0.29,Moderately Negative
"Does anxiety find ""logical"" excuses in order not to go through with something I like this girl and have for a long time but have avoided pursuing a relationship as I got anxious. I recently noticed I've been creating my own ""logical"" reasons not to pursue this relationship finding or making up ""red flags"" into why I should avoid a relationship with this girl. My already existing friendship is being affected by my constant negative critiques of why I shouldn't like this girl and that I should avoid the stressful situation of asking her out. ",axienty,anxiety find logical excuse order go something like girl long time avoided pursuing relationship got anxious recently noticed creating reason pursue finding making red flag avoid already existing friendship affected constant negative critique stressful situation asking,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Am I having an anxiety attack? What should I do? My chest kind of hurts and I'm really short of breath. I feel like my chest muscles are contracting. My eyes are watering. I have to pay attention to slow down my breathing. I can't snap out of it and I don't know why. Nothings wrong, I'm totally safe in my home with my dogs. How do I stop it? ",axienty,anxiety attack chest kind hurt really short breath feel like muscle contracting eye watering pay attention slow breathing snap know nothing wrong totally safe home dog stop,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Remind Yourself This is my first post here in r/Anxiety and I just wanted to say that it's always good to take stock of your life and remind yourself how good you may have it. Take the time in 2018 to periodically stop and think of positive things in your life, then be grateful for them. It's so easy to get engulfed in the negative that permeates our world and to forget the good things. Even if it's the most minute detail, if it's positive, revel in it.

For me, it helps when I get overwhelmed with my anxiety to remind myself that, in the grand scheme of things, my life is actually pretty good. If your life isn't great for whatever reason, keep telling yourself that it will get better because eventually, it will. Happy New Year and I hope this helps anyone who needs a reminder. You're not alone and life is good.",axienty,remind first post anxiety wanted say always good take stock life may time periodically stop think positive thing grateful easy get engulfed negative permeates world forget even minute detail revel help overwhelmed grand scheme actually pretty great whatever reason keep telling better eventually happy new year hope anyone need reminder alone,0.39,Moderately Positive
"Someone i see almost everyday makes me really anxious. So... i had an internet friend. (C). We had known each other since August last year and were best friends. Exactly one month ago i did some awful shit and now i don't think i can say we're friends anymore. I really miss them. However, since what happened whenever i see them around the forums we use i feel anxious, sometimes panicked. They have never done anything bad to me to make me feel this way, but i think that the reason i'm panicking is because they've had to deal with two other toxic friends before me, so i'm worried they think me like they do the other two (although they don't act towards me like they do towards the other two, which is basically never talking to the other two but they'll reply to something i said once in a blue moon).

It's weird.. i have another friend who i lost with C, but when she's around i don't feel panicked or anxious (i used to but not anymore and it just kinda stopped randomly). I just want to get over what happened but i can't. What should i do?",axienty,someone see almost everyday make really anxious internet friend known since august last year best exactly one month ago awful shit think say anymore miss however happened whenever around forum use feel sometimes panicked never done anything bad way reason panicking deal two toxic worried like although act towards basically talking reply something said blue moon weird another lost used kinda stopped randomly want get,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"Has anyone else ever got this feeling before? What I'm about to describe could sound a bit strange as it is a bit hard to put into words but I'll try to be as precise as possible.

I'm not sure if this even falls into category of anxiety but the closest I can name it is ""flash of insecurity"". The earliest memory of having this kinda feeling was when I was a kid just chilling &
jamming I'd be in my undies or whatever and if we had somebody coming over I'd get this felling from the thought of them coming to greet or smth and here I am mr. chill ft. undies.

Generally it starts from a troubling thought, if I had something happen that I'm not happy of and I get this flash of insecurity in my chest and kinda travels up around the body a little sorta like a shock. All of this lasts for 3-5 seconds accompanied by the troubling thought. I have no closer words of putting it. It is not the same as being just nervous. Sometimes I can have this 1-2 times a day for a week and then forget this for years. Now this feeling rose not too long ago hence I was wondering.",axienty,anyone else ever got feeling describe could sound bit strange hard put word try precise possible sure even fall category anxiety closest name flash insecurity earliest memory kinda kid chilling jamming undies whatever somebody coming get felling thought greet smth mr chill ft generally start troubling something happen happy chest travel around body little sorta like shock last second accompanied closer putting nervous sometimes time day week forget year rose long ago hence wondering,0.12,Moderately Positive
"What can I do to help my girlfriend when she has an anxiety/panic attack My girlfriend of 9 years has a history of medically diagnosed anxiety issues. Up until this point, she has been able to manage her anxiety without the use of prescription medications or therapy.

Over the past couple weeks however, her anxiety issues have taken an ugly turn on her and she’s been calling me crying for no reason, fearing that she’s dying, and stating that she feels like she needs emergency medical attention.

Unfortunately, we are not well off financially and cannot afford for her to see a therapist. I try my best to talk to her and calm her down. We do deep breathing exercises and talk about how she’s feeling to try to ease her mind. The minute I get off the phone with her though, she falls back into her anxiety pit.

I’m starting to get frustrated that I can’t do anything to help her and it feels like she won’t take my advice to heart because I can’t relate or empathize with her emotions. 

I would really appreciate some advice on how to handle this situation and be able to empathize with her more on an emotional level.",axienty,help girlfriend anxiety panic attack year history medically diagnosed issue point able manage without use prescription medication therapy past couple week however taken ugly turn calling cry reason fearing dying stating feel like need emergency medical attention unfortunately well financially cannot afford see therapist try best talk calm deep breathing exercise feeling ease mind minute get phone though fall back pit starting frustrated anything take advice heart relate empathize emotion would really appreciate handle situation emotional level,-0.01,Neutral
"Do I have anxiety? I would describe my symptoms as a constant sense of unease. That feeling that you’ve forgotten something or that you have something to do that you have been procrastinating and you know it needs to be done. A constant angst with no real reason. Very, very rarely do I have a day where I’m truly relaxed and I feel a huge weight off my shoulders. Once or maybe twice a year. No pattern to when I feel good or why. No significant change in my daily routine or life’s issues. Just a sudden and unexplained feeling of comfort and ease. 

I’ve seen a therapist and a psychiatrist and I’ve been diagnosed with moderate mood-disorder. I’ve tried two different medications at different times recently (Setraline 150 mg and Duloxetine 60mg) neither has made a difference. ",axienty,anxiety would describe symptom constant sense unease feeling forgotten something procrastinating know need done angst real reason rarely day truly relaxed feel huge weight shoulder maybe twice year pattern good significant change daily routine life issue sudden unexplained comfort ease seen therapist psychiatrist diagnosed moderate mood disorder tried two different medication time recently setraline mg duloxetine neither made difference,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Manager at my new job did something I think is inappropriate, but my anxiety makes me super sensitive. I just started a new job working with shelter dogs. It’s really hard for me to be the new person at work. My anxiety tells me all my co workers are making fun of me and hate me. I come off as extremely passive at work. I do whatever they want me to do and I do it well. This can cause issue with people walking all over me. My managers seem pretty laid back/ are silly and funny. It’s definitely not a professional work place. 

The other day I was watching over a dog and I’m trained to not really pick up/ or get down with our shelter dogs. Due to the fact, we don’t know them and they could be aggressive and bite. 

My manager and two shift leads see me with this dog. And my manager goes “pick the dog up! He loves being picked up he’s really nervous” so I’m like “ohhh okay” so I get down to pick the dog up and he moves away. I try again and my shift leads go “don’t pick him up!” And they all laugh and my manager goes “no I’m just joking he bites when he is scared” 

I felt so f*cking stupid I fell for that. Then analyzed for hours if that it had been a test to see how “smart”I was when it came to dogs. But then I thought, why would my manager put me at risk to prove a point? Or to make a joke out of me. If that dog had bitten me, which I was seconds from picking him up, he could have been euthanatized for “aggressive” behavior.  Legally we have to report any bites or scratches an animal inflicts to a human. Which sucks but that’s how the shelter in my state works. 


I don’t know if I’m just being sensitive and it was just a simple joke or if this was inappropriate. It’s hard for me to see the whole picture when I’m so overly sensitive and anxious in the work place. 

Does anyone have any thoughts? 

Thank you in Advance. ",axienty,manager new job something think inappropriate anxiety make super sensitive started working shelter dog really hard person work tell co worker making fun hate come extremely passive whatever want well cause issue people walking seem pretty laid back silly funny definitely professional place day watching trained pick get due fact know could aggressive bite two shift lead see go love picked nervous like ohhh okay move away try laugh joking scared felt cking stupid fell analyzed hour test smart came thought would put risk prove point joke bitten second picking euthanatized behavior legally report scratch animal inflicts human suck state simple whole picture overly anxious anyone thank advance,0.02,Neutral
"I need some advice regarding medication Hi! Longtime lurker, first time poster here.

I (21/f) am currently in therapy for a number of reasons, one of them being my anxiety. I don’t know what it is exactly, but it just goes so far that I’m not able to respond or even read any e-mails, text messages or write papers for my classes - sometimes it even keeps me from leaving my home to go to uni or work. 

Now, do any of you take medication to fight this? If yes, what kind of medication is it?

I don’t want to take it every day but just when my anxiety gets so bad that it stops me from functioning like a normal human being. ",axienty,need advice regarding medication hi longtime lurker first time poster currently therapy number reason one anxiety know exactly go far able respond even read mail text message write paper class sometimes keep leaving home uni work take fight yes kind want every day get bad stop functioning like normal human,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I just want left alone I don't feel bad about removing a person from my life forever.  I was nasty and final with him.  It was the only way I could be sure it would take.  I have been crucified over what I did, some of it I know was 100% real, some was based into reality, and some of the static I received was totally fictional.  I don't even want to talk to my family anymore.  I feel everything is a attack.  I think I might be going crazy and there is nothing I can do about it.",axienty,want left alone feel bad removing person life forever nasty final way could sure would take crucified know real based reality static received totally fictional even talk family anymore everything attack think might going crazy nothing,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"Wanting to quit lexapro, how should I do it so I don't get nasty side effects? Been taking lexapro for a while now (5-6 months?), and feel I've reached the point where I don't need it and the side effects aren't worth it. I'm only taking 5 mg at the moment, so will it take a while to get off? I was thinking of doing this 
Week 1 - 2.5 mg
Week 2 - stopping all together

Is this a smart way to quit without the side effects? Am I going to get any withdraws?",axienty,wanting quit lexapro get nasty side effect taking month feel reached point need worth mg moment take thinking week stopping together smart way without going withdraws,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"Feeling unconformable with no trigger Hello everyone, I want to just ask for some help and experience for feeling uncomfortable for no apparent reason. Now I've dealt with this feeling before, it feels as if all my muscles are slightly more tense, I feel somewhat isolated from others, I'm constantly thinking negative and slightly empty, it also feels like there is some danger and tension with everything. It somewhat feels like I am about to go into flight or fight mode. So this started about 2 weeks ago, I've been having anxiety attacks more often, and I feel like everything is so tense and I hate it so much. I just want to be back to where I was before. When I started Fluxovamine I felt totally free of this tension and it has helped me a lot, maybe I need to increase my dosage, the only thing I am worried about is that its going to make me not care about anything, creating a numb feeling which has happened before with other antidepressants I've taken. Anyways I just hate this feeling, I used to feel tension all the time and it made life far more harder which made me unable to really do my best. Anyways I would appreciate some help thank you.   ",axienty,feeling unconformable trigger hello everyone want ask help experience uncomfortable apparent reason dealt feel muscle slightly tense somewhat isolated others constantly thinking negative empty also like danger tension everything go flight fight mode started week ago anxiety attack often hate much back fluxovamine felt totally free helped lot maybe need increase dosage thing worried going make care anything creating numb happened antidepressant taken anyways used time made life far harder unable really best would appreciate thank,-0.12,Moderately Negative
How to find busiprone in stock? My friend takes busiprone but she cannot find it in stock anywhere. I told her I'd help search but haven't had any luck. Does anyone have a suggestion on how to find her anti-anxiety med? Apparently the FDA shutdown one of the facilities making it due to cleanliness issues. ,axienty,find busiprone stock friend take cannot anywhere told help search luck anyone suggestion anti anxiety med apparently fda shutdown one facility making due cleanliness issue,-0.04,Neutral
"I really like my roommate, and my suitemates are cool besides for them being loud at night. I know I'd sleep better in a different place, but...I don't know. I don't want to put up with the hassle. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. I honestly just came here to vent.",axienty,really like roommate suitemates cool besides loud night know sleep better different place want put hassle anyone suggestion please let honestly came vent,0.29,Moderately Positive
"Seeing my boyfriend's ex is unbearable Hi all. Been creeping for a while... I just want to say I've never been diagnosed with anxiety, but I can tell something's not right and wanted to know if anyone has ever felt similarly. 

I've been with my bf for about 1 year. He's my best friend and I love him more than anything. Whenever I see his ex-girlfriend, however, I start shaking and feel weak super weak and nauseous (we have never formally met, but we go to the same school so I've seen her on campus many times). This feeling is usually accompanied by tears, and it takes me about an hour to calm down. I can't help but think about her literally ALL THE TIME and have Googled everything from the Pinterest boards she made when she was 12 to the value of her parents' home. Her Facebook is one of the most visited tabs on my computer.  For some reason her presence just makes me feel so small and unimportant and I am literally ALWAYS thinking about her and it feels like I can't control it. This feeling of worthlessness is compounded by the fact that they still talk and I constantly have the urge to read through their messages. I know making him cut off communication or violating his privacy is out of the question, but this feeling is consuming me and I'm unsure of steps to take to feel better. Can anyone relate? are these at all normal concerns?",axienty,seeing boyfriend ex unbearable hi creeping want say never diagnosed anxiety tell something right wanted know anyone ever felt similarly bf year best friend love anything whenever see girlfriend however start shaking feel weak super nauseous formally met go school seen campus many time feeling usually accompanied tear take hour calm help think literally googled everything pinterest board made value parent home facebook one visited tab computer reason presence make small unimportant always thinking like control worthlessness compounded fact still talk constantly urge read message making cut communication violating privacy question consuming unsure step better relate normal concern,0.16,Moderately Positive
"I sobbed at the dentist today I get really anxious around needles, so needless to say, getting 7 fillings is not exactly a piece of cake for me.

I was going to a new dentist, and I didn’t love them for my last cleaning, but I was running out of options.

Appointment started out ok. I did well with the injections, so I though the rest would be fine. 

WRONG.

The fillings took 2.5 hours, and he was having a lot of trouble with one of my back ones, to the point he was saying things like “dammit” and dropping shit in the back of my mouth and snapping at his assistant.

I started sweating a lot and was holding back tears as he struggled, until the tears just started streaming down the sides of my face and into my ears. He didn’t notice I was crying though because the glasses were tinted.

I’m almost at the point of just getting up and bailing until he asks, “you doing alright?”, and then it is just the hyperventilating type sobbing and I’m trying to tell him I’m “fine” so we could get shit done. 

So I’m just trying to not choke on my sobs and breath as he continues, and then finally I was done. I kept apologizing for being a “nightmare patient” but he said it was totally fine (yeah right). I tried so hard to breath and calm down, but I just couldn’t do it.

It was just so embarrassing and painful and scary and I never want to go back. I just needed to talk about it somewhere because I am still feeling worked up and upset about it. ",axienty,sobbed dentist today get really anxious around needle say getting filling exactly piece cake going new love last cleaning running option appointment started ok well injection though rest would fine wrong took hour lot trouble one back point saying thing like dammit dropping shit mouth snapping assistant sweating holding tear struggled streaming side face ear notice cry glass tinted almost bailing asks alright hyperventilating type sobbing trying tell could done choke sob breath continues finally kept apologizing nightmare patient said totally yeah right tried hard calm embarrassing painful scary never want go needed talk somewhere still feeling worked upset,-0.01,Neutral
"how to get blood taken without passing out? Everytime I get my blood taken. I get so lightheaded, nauseous and then pass out. This happens even thinking  about getting it taken. While I don't like blood or needles, they dont gross me out that much but I have an extreme physical response. I told my doctor Im not letting them take my blood for a routine blood sugar and cholesterol test.",axienty,get blood taken without passing everytime lightheaded nauseous pas happens even thinking getting like needle dont gross much extreme physical response told doctor im letting take routine sugar cholesterol test,-0.04,Neutral
"Does anybody else feel mentally ill with chronic anxiety? I know it is a mental illness in itself but I’m talking about constantly feeling “off”.. like way less intelligent than you used to be, hard to process your thoughts in to words so they come out jumbled or silly sounding, constant headaches and just feeling like you’re on autopilot looking in to someone else’s life.. Idk I’ve been dealing with this for 2+ years and I still find it hard to believe it’s just anxiety. I’m terrified it is something else that the doctor’s are missing which I’m sure is just anxiety fueled hypochondria lol. ",axienty,anybody else feel mentally ill chronic anxiety know mental illness talking constantly feeling like way le intelligent used hard process thought word come jumbled silly sounding constant headache autopilot looking someone life idk dealing year still find believe terrified something doctor missing sure fueled hypochondria lol,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Skipping my birthday party. Not for the first time either :( I’m not going to my family birthday party tonight. My abusive brother was so awful to me this morning I came back to my apartment and had to nurse myself through a massive panic attack. I showered, lathered myself with peppermint, am in my comfy clothes, took a klonopin, and am drinking my favorite herbal tea. I’m just barely managing right now. Going to a loud, crowded family party sounds awful and I beg my mom every year to not make me do this shit. Birthdays have always been dreadful for me and I’ve skipped parties in previous years. I wish I didn’t have a birthday, it’s just extra time for my brother to be extra mean to me and for my anxiety to go wild all over the place with expectations and emotions. ",axienty,skipping birthday party first time either going family tonight abusive brother awful morning came back apartment nurse massive panic attack showered lathered peppermint comfy clothes took klonopin drinking favorite herbal tea barely managing right loud crowded sound beg mom every year make shit always dreadful skipped previous wish extra mean anxiety go wild place expectation emotion,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Help me out, guys Hello guys, I don't mean to spam or anything. But, I'm currently working on a project related to depression and anxiety that will help me understand more about it and potentially find some alternative way to overcome it, and I would LOVE to get your opinions as people who may have experienced it. I remember it was a huge part of my life during my personal growth.

[Here is the link to the survey](https://depre.typeform.com/to/rm1mkV), it should only take a couple of minutes to complete. Thank you so much, guys. Really appreciate your feedback! Keep going!",axienty,help guy hello mean spam anything currently working project related depression anxiety understand potentially find alternative way overcome would love get opinion people may experienced remember huge part life personal growth link survey take couple minute complete thank much really appreciate feedback keep going,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Road trip with friends So my friends and I are going on a short road trip and I’m nervous about , any tips that might help while we are on the road ?",axienty,road trip friend going short nervous tip might help,0.0,Neutral
"I need help I am having some very bad anxiety attacks right now. I want to go to the hospital but I dont have the money to go to just any hospital. I can barely think clearly and calling anyone is impossible for me right now. Can someone please figure out where to go? I'm on my own with no one able to help me. 

I'm in south Houston Tx. ",axienty,need help bad anxiety attack right want go hospital dont money barely think clearly calling anyone impossible someone please figure one able south houston tx,-0.07,Moderately Negative
Talk about your anxieties Do you feel a relief when talking to unknown people about your anxieties? ,axienty,talk anxiety feel relief talking unknown people,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"Nausea induced anxiety all the sudden?k I’ve always been smooth with girls (I’m 17) but had never had a girlfriend until a few months ago. Everything was fine with her until the relationship got a bit sexual. We had planned that we would sneak away and “hang out” in my car. As the clock ticked nearer to the time when we planned I got sicker and sicker. I still went and I remember waiting for her in my car feeling green and like throwing up. It stayed this way for the whole time, only letting up when we kissed. Never went to actual sex of any kind but close to it. After that whenever I hung out with her, sexual or not, I got nausea, it damaged our relationship severely until I had to end it. I never figured out why it happened. I only ever felt nauseated around her in person. I wasn’t grossed out by her at all and really liked her. I still struggle with this problem now to a much lesser extent when talking to certain girls. Can anyone provide any advice or help?
(Btw, I’m actually very confident with my body and personality, so I don’t understand why I would feel like this suddenly)",axienty,nausea induced anxiety sudden always smooth girl never girlfriend month ago everything fine relationship got bit sexual planned would sneak away hang car clock ticked nearer time sicker still went remember waiting feeling green like throwing stayed way whole letting kissed actual sex kind close whenever hung damaged severely end figured happened ever felt nauseated around person grossed really liked struggle problem much lesser extent talking certain anyone provide advice help btw actually confident body personality understand feel suddenly,0.2,Moderately Positive
"Everything else is just background noise ""You're fine love, everything is gonna be okay. We're doing great, the kitties are doing great everything else is just background noise"" is the text from my SO that is getting me through the rest of the day. I can only hope that it helps me next week as well.

Y'all don't have to read the rest of my story. I suppose I'm really just writing it more for me cause I always feel like I have to explain things or justify things to myself. I just wanted to share in the hopes that someone else can find comfort in realizing everything ""bad"" going on is just background noise. I have trouble finding and focusing on the good even when I know it seems to be there so the phrase is helping me.

I haven't been diagnosed but I feel as though I suffer from anxiety and maybe from depression. I had an abusive ex-boyfriend and I want to blame my ex for my anxiety feeling like it's tripled and for me feeling depressed at times. 

For at least a month before my SO and I moved in together I was just completely overwhelmed with moving and unpacking and work. Don't get me wrong, I wanted to live with him and I love living with him. After we completely unpacked I felt great and in control and anxiety free. But not anymore. Me feeling good maybe lasted a week or two.

The senior tech at work is out on leave and I've taken on a portion of his responsibilities. A tiny part of me is proud that my boss believes I can do this but most of me believes I can't. I feel like I'm forgetting things and that I'm going to screw something up soon and people will just be disappointed. I feel like my co-workers will soon resent me for the work I'm giving them and I'm worried they'll feel like I'm not doing enough myself. It's only day 3 of 13. I guess I just have to keep telling myself all this work and stress and anxiety and depression is all background noise. What matters is going home every night to the most amazing guy and our two cats.",axienty,everything else background noise fine love gonna okay great kitty text getting rest day hope help next week well read story suppose really writing cause always feel like explain thing justify wanted share someone find comfort realizing bad going trouble finding focusing good even know seems phrase helping diagnosed though suffer anxiety maybe depression abusive ex boyfriend want blame feeling tripled depressed time least month moved together completely overwhelmed moving unpacking work get wrong live living unpacked felt control free anymore lasted two senior tech leave taken portion responsibility tiny part proud bos belief forgetting screw something soon people disappointed co worker resent giving worried enough guess keep telling stress matter home every night amazing guy cat,0.14,Moderately Positive
Advice on handling a first job? So I’m 17 now and have started driving. Now obviously since I’m driving now I need to pay for gas and stuff and with the increased freedom I can try to be more active with friends and do stuff. I need to get a job but the thought of it makes me extremely anxious and I’m just afraid of it and I’m not sure why. If anyone can offer any advice on why that might be or how they worked up the courage to get their first job I’d love to hear it.,axienty,advice handling first job started driving obviously since need pay gas stuff increased freedom try active friend get thought make extremely anxious afraid sure anyone offer might worked courage love hear,0.04,Neutral
"Obsessing over things you've done wrong The anxiety that has been taking over my mind lately is obsessing over everything I've ever done wrong. I also have severe ADHD so my lack of impulse control has caused me to do bad stuff all throughout my life. When I get anxious they all replay in my head over and over. Its bad too, I've totaled a car, gotten arrested, nearly screwed up my career and ruined friendships. Theres even shit I did as a child that disturbs me. The only advice I've gotten from therapists was to try to make amends with those you have hurt because thats the best you can do. I was able to make amends with most people and resolved pretty much all of those bad situations. With some people its just not the same anymore and I think it triggers the anxiety of it all. I used to be suicidal because of all of this, luckily not anymore, but it still makes me anxious all the time. ",axienty,obsessing thing done wrong anxiety taking mind lately everything ever also severe adhd lack impulse control caused bad stuff throughout life get anxious replay head totaled car gotten arrested nearly screwed career ruined friendship there even shit child disturbs advice therapist try make amends hurt thats best able people resolved pretty much situation anymore think trigger used suicidal luckily still time,0.04,Neutral
"i dont know if this is something i can ask are there any girls reading this. i dont talk to any girls and would like to talk to one. im not a creep. i probably wont get a single response from a girl, but that is to be expected. i am a single, 21 year old male. thanks. in college btw.",axienty,dont know something ask girl reading talk would like one im creep probably wont get single response expected year old male thanks college btw,0.03,Neutral
"Skipping class cause of anxiety I think the root source of my panic is not liking being in a situation where I can't make noise or leave. This manifests itself as a panic attack type thing where breathing becomes very difficult while in class. It feels like my breathing is irregular and could actually be disruptive/noisy to others. I wouldn't mind sitting through class I think but this is so unbearable I don't think I can handle it. Any tips or advice would be great, thanks.",axienty,skipping class cause anxiety think root source panic liking situation make noise leave manifest attack type thing breathing becomes difficult feel like irregular could actually disruptive noisy others mind sitting unbearable handle tip advice would great thanks,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Nothing major, some underage drinking, a little pot, but I wasn't a bad kid. Furthermore, I feel like I matured well and have gone on to be successful for my age (24) IMO. I've also had positive experiences with police. The resource officer at my high school was a really good guy and almost like a mentor to me. When I was 17 I was arrested when police raided a friends house because they were tipped off that there was to be some under-aged drinking.",axienty,nothing major underage drinking little pot bad kid furthermore feel like matured well gone successful age imo also positive experience police resource officer high school really good guy almost mentor arrested raided friend house tipped aged,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I'm scared to fly to Portland this weekend because of the government shutdown. I have never posted here before but stumbled across this sub and I'm glad it exists. thank you in advance for reading this if you do. 

I have a brief trip go Portland this Saturday and I fly back home on Sunday. I'm seeing my grandpa who I haven't seen in 4 years and I'm very close with. it's the only trip I could afford. short and sweet. 

anyway, with this shutdown happening im getting really scared that something will happen with my flight. the TSA agents may not care anymore since they're not getting paid and what if the pilots decide ""fuck it"" and crash the whole thing. im just worried about it because I dont fly very often. 

just needing any kind of solid reassurance that I won't die on this trip. my anxiety is VERY irrational so I'm having lots of crazy thoughts go through my head right now and it's taking every ounce of me not to just back out and cancel my flight (which I dont want to do). 

like what if something happens? what if i miss my flight because the lines are too long? does anyone here know anything about flying and flight safety? will I be okay? 

thank you for the support. much love to you all. ",axienty,scared fly portland weekend government shutdown never posted stumbled across sub glad exists thank advance reading brief trip go saturday back home sunday seeing grandpa seen year close could afford short sweet anyway happening im getting really something happen flight tsa agent may care anymore since paid pilot decide fuck crash whole thing worried dont often needing kind solid reassurance die anxiety irrational lot crazy thought head right taking every ounce cancel want like happens miss line long anyone know anything flying safety okay support much love,0.18,Moderately Positive
"How do I stop overthinking every decision I make no matter the size? I’m only 17 I haven’t made a single choice yet that will actually change how my life plays out, yet I think about any decision I make as if it ruined my life.
Our school won a national event the other week and I felt too anxious to go to the after party and since it I’ve spent every waking moment wondering what if I had gone.
It sounds so stupid to write but it’s taking a huge toll on me when this is how I feel about the most meaningless things.
I cannot imagine what I will be like when I make decisions that alter a lot more.",axienty,stop overthinking every decision make matter size made single choice yet actually change life play think ruined school national event week felt anxious go party since spent waking moment wondering gone sound stupid write taking huge toll feel meaningless thing cannot imagine like alter lot,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"How do I describe my panic attacks to my friends without scaring them off? I don't know how to explain what happens when I experience a panic attack or the irrational thoughts and fears that overwhelm me. I just end up shutting everyone out because I can't explain what I'm feeling, it just sounds crazy. Sometimes I think I'm actually dying, sometimes I don't know why I'm suddenly upset when everything seemed fine. I think the new medication I'm on may be making my panic attacks worsen. I guess I'm just looking for some guidance on how to explain myself instead of isolating myself to my friends and family.",axienty,describe panic attack friend without scaring know explain happens experience irrational thought fear overwhelm end shutting everyone feeling sound crazy sometimes think actually dying suddenly upset everything seemed fine new medication may making worsen guess looking guidance instead isolating family,0.06,Moderately Positive
Just curious Do you guys ever feel like you don't deserve to be happy or move past an experience? ,axienty,curious guy ever feel like deserve happy move past experience,0.15,Moderately Positive
"I’m losing grip I don’t know why but I’ve started doubting everything I know, it’s manifesting mostly in language. If a word is over 4-5 letters long, then I start to question if it’s real or not. The English language fucking looks and sound wrong to me, I mean I’ve always had a pretty wide vocabulary and I can express myself, but it’s scaring me how I have to mentally confirm every word I use. A few days ago the  word that stuck out to me was ‘remind’, I can’t remember the context but I had to mentally prepare for a good 5 minutes before I actually said it, a word I’ve used all my life- I had to picture it in my head, I had to mentally spell it, use it in a sentence in my head and the scary thing is it still didnt even feel right. This paragraph I’ve written I’m not convinced it’s like I know it makes sense but I’m still mentally doubting it, what the fuck is wrong with me- can anyone relate?",axienty,losing grip know started doubting everything manifesting mostly language word letter long start question real english fucking look sound wrong mean always pretty wide vocabulary express scaring mentally confirm every use day ago stuck remind remember context prepare good minute actually said used life picture head spell sentence scary thing still didnt even feel right paragraph written convinced like make sense fuck anyone relate,-0.03,Neutral
"I've started to snoop in my girlfriend's social media accounts and I feel horrible for doing it ​

**TL;DR: Things are going good, yet I find myself looking at my gf's social media convos and have anxiety when not doing so at times. I feel guilty when doing it, but can't seem to stop.**

Long story short, I'm in an LDR with my girlfriend and it's been going on for a year and almost a half. However, two months ago, I began to snoop in her social media accounts, those being Discord and whatnot, just because I'm jealous that she'll go for someone behind my back and I'd be played for a fool for god knows how long. We've had our ups and downs over time, but we've always made up and it never went past the point of not talking for more than a day.

Problem is, I've grown somewhat paranoid over time for one reason or another and found myself looking at who she's texting all the time. Results = nothing that would be alarming. And yet I still do it out of fear of missing out on something happening behind my back. I feel guilty doing it every time and I want to stop feeling this anxiety when staying out of her business as I should be. It's something wrong to do and I understand that, but my anxiety sometimes gets the best of me.",axienty,started snoop girlfriend social medium account feel horrible tl dr thing going good yet find looking gf convos anxiety time guilty seem stop long story short ldr year almost half however two month ago began discord whatnot jealous go someone behind back played fool god know ups down always made never went past point talking day problem grown somewhat paranoid one reason another found texting result nothing would alarming still fear missing something happening every want feeling staying business wrong understand sometimes get best,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Turns out i might have Anxiety So about 8 or so months ago I had to drop out of college due to a cancerous sarcoma growing on the median nerve in my left upper arm. Now 1 surgery latter and after 6 weeks of Radiotherapy I'm still at home even though I will be able to rejoin the course next year once the next opperation happens. While I was having the radiotherapy in February I spoke to a psychologist who told me I might have anxiety due to all the uncertainty I was facing, basically if I don't recover sufficient use back in my hand I am fucked, definitely not idea when I'm 20 but oh well . Sorry for long text.",axienty,turn might anxiety month ago drop college due cancerous sarcoma growing median nerve left upper arm surgery latter week radiotherapy still home even though able rejoin course next year opperation happens february spoke psychologist told uncertainty facing basically recover sufficient use back hand fucked definitely idea oh well sorry long text,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"What I hate the most about my anxiety The thing that upsets me the most when I reflect on my constant anxiety is that I keep fantasizing of the day it'll all be over and I can talk to people and apologize for all the times I've snapped at them or been irrational or unreasonable. That fantasy always seems so close when I think about it, like I'll graduate from anxiety and have a party where everybody is okay with me or something. And then I realize how irrational that thought is and realize nothing is going to get better until I get myself to a psychiatrist... Which also gives me anxiety. I just kind of sit in my room all tensed up hoping it'll all go away but knowing deep down it probably won't. Sorry just needed a place to write this.",axienty,hate anxiety thing upset reflect constant keep fantasizing day talk people apologize time snapped irrational unreasonable fantasy always seems close think like graduate party everybody okay something realize thought nothing going get better psychiatrist also give kind sit room tensed hoping go away knowing deep probably sorry needed place write,0.04,Neutral
"Medication suddenly not working? I'm a bit frightened at the moment.  
I've been taking zoloft to treat my anxiety for a few years now.  It's worked well for me.  Whenever I did get one, I'd take clotiazepam which would calm me down.  If it was really bad, I'd take two and I would be okay.  

Last night I had a bad one, and I had to take two.  However, it only helped me sleep.  I'm at work now and I had to take another because I'm still antsy and keep tearing up at work.  

I don't understand what's going on :(  I had such a good track record...  I started a new job that I love, but I guess I've been pushing myself a bit too hard?  

I'm scared and upset.  I can't turn my brain off.  ",axienty,medication suddenly working bit frightened moment taking zoloft treat anxiety year worked well whenever get one take clotiazepam would calm really bad two okay last night however helped sleep work another still antsy keep tearing understand going good track record started new job love guess pushing hard scared upset turn brain,0.13,Moderately Positive
"I did something that scared me. Making this post because it was a post like this that inspired me, and maybe I can do that for someone else <3

I'm going to start off by saying I LOVED theater in high school. I went to almost every play my school put on but I was always too anxious to audition. 

Anyway, once I started college my anxiety got really bad. I managed to meet some people though. While talking with them I found out this girl had done theater at her school and wanted to audition and asked me to do come with. I almost said no, but I thought back to a post I saw on here about doing the things you want to even if it scares you, so I agreed.

Honestly right after that moment, I instantly regretted it. The next few days was a wave of anxious thoughts begging me to cancel, ultimately panic attacks followed. But I went.

I was insanely nervous, had zero acting experience,  and felt like canceling. I definitely stumbled my lines, but I did it though.

I ended up getting a character that had quite a few scenes and the directors liked my acting.

It's pretty insignificant tbh, but I'm happy I went through with it and you can too! Whatever it is you're too scarred to do, I hope this can be a least a little motivating! 


Thanks for reading
",axienty,something scared making post like inspired maybe someone else going start saying loved theater high school went almost every play put always anxious audition anyway started college anxiety got really bad managed meet people though talking found girl done wanted asked come said thought back saw thing want even scare agreed honestly right moment instantly regretted next day wave begging cancel ultimately panic attack followed insanely nervous zero acting experience felt canceling definitely stumbled line ended getting character quite scene director liked pretty insignificant tbh happy whatever scarred hope least little motivating thanks reading,0.03,Neutral
"i keep blaming my family I just found this sub, and I really hope you guys can help me out here. It is really starting to put me in a position of extreme depression. So here goes.

I'm a 17 yo high school student, who lives in a fairly affluent area. My mom divorced my dad 12 years ago, and shortly after remarried a man who we will call ""Greg."" I didn't used to be anxious, back in elementary school, but shortly after moving in with Greg and his daughter of my same age, ""Cynthia,"" I developed an irrational anxiety when being around him. He is a very gruff man, tall, fat, and one who mumbles their words a lot. We went through a long time of him thinking I hate him, and him and I not really ""jelling,"" so-to-speak. I expressed my feelings to my mom, who of course said we would grow to like each other, but that never happened. Over the years, I have lived in a very toxic and emotionally manipulative home environment, which has contributed to my extreme anxiety (or at least I think).

Fast forward to present day. I have never been the ""top-of-the-line"" academic person, but I am by no means a dumb person, I am just not great with math or physics. I maintain a 3.5 GPA. I don't do drugs. I hang around with friends who care about me and whom I care about. But when it comes to activities, and extracurricular activities, I never hit the mark. I am apart of a few clubs, but I never was able to make it into the desirable honors societies all of my friends made it into.

The talk of college has been going on for some time now, but I am getting entirely deflated because of the things my mom is saying to me. This morning she told me that she was upset because ""Cynthia is already getting on top of some scholarships, and you seem entirely unmotivated! I feel like I am doing all of the work."" she says. So I got frustrated and left the room, but came back to try and reason with her. I told her that *Cynthia is a different person then I am* and that the reason I hate talking about college, and am so unmotivated, is because I feel like a failure. I told her that all of the people around me are rising above and beyond, and I am going down. To this, she responded with, ""Well, if we are being entirely honest, you are right. You haven't done anything."" She said, ""I have presented numerous opportunities for you over the years, but you consistently reject them.""

After this, I left the room and felt angry and ashamed of myself. But she doesn't realize that this ""activities and things"" to which she is referring were all things that put me wildly out of my comfort zone, due to my anxiety. She refuses to understand the idea that my anxiety will over rule *everything else.* I get that by doing this certain club, and by getting in front of these people to talk to about science, it would look great on my resume. **But  my anxiety pushes harder.** I reject her offerings and ideas. And she stops making me try. And I never get it done.

My home life only got worse as I grew older. My mom and step-dad tried to drag me into a lawsuit between my dad and them, and I couldn't do anything. I stopped talking to them during that time. I have to work 20 hours a week to pay for car insurance because I wrecked my car. I have volunteered 150 hours over the last years, but I still feel insanely unmotivated. And my mom doesn't understand. The irrational part of me keeps trying to blame her for my lack of academic prowess. That maybe if she forced me to learn an instrument, or forced me to do these clubs, I wouldn't be so anxious, and I would be better off in this stupid search for college then I am currently. I can't take it any more, and all I want to do is leave, or bash my fucking head into a wall.

Let me know what you guys think. Am I being irrational in thinking my mom is partially to blame for my anxiety? People say this kind of stuff gets better during/after college. Is that really the case?

<3",axienty,keep blaming family found sub really hope guy help starting put position extreme depression go yo high school student life fairly affluent area mom divorced dad year ago shortly remarried man call greg used anxious back elementary moving daughter age cynthia developed irrational anxiety around gruff tall fat one mumble word lot went long time thinking hate jelling speak expressed feeling course said would grow like never happened lived toxic emotionally manipulative home environment contributed least think fast forward present day top line academic person mean dumb great math physic maintain gpa drug hang friend care come activity extracurricular hit mark apart club able make desirable honor society made talk college going getting entirely deflated thing saying morning told upset already scholarship seem unmotivated feel work say got frustrated left room came try reason different talking failure people rising beyond responded well honest right done anything presented numerous opportunity consistently reject felt angry ashamed realize referring wildly comfort zone due refuse understand idea rule everything else get certain front science look resume push harder offering stop making worse grew older step tried drag lawsuit stopped hour week pay car insurance wrecked volunteered last still insanely part trying blame lack prowess maybe forced learn instrument better stupid search currently take want leave bash fucking head wall let know partially kind stuff case,-0.02,Neutral
"Work Anxiety - is this all in my head? Hey all,

This is my first time writing in this forum. In fact, I'm not that big on writing about my self, generally speaking. But maybe this can help. I find people's experiences to be really assuring and they remind me that I'm not the only one on this planet that feels this way...

For as long as I've worked, I've had work anxiety. I used to think I had a problem with authority over me, but this has evolved and developed into social anxiety in the work place as well. The more I ignore my anxieties (or joke about them) the worse I get.

When I started my current position I couldn't have been happier. Its a great job in the field that I studied and it pays more than I was looking to make. On day one I was told that I wasn't hired but that this would be a two week trial to see if I qualify. Everyday, I feared that I was doing something wrong and that I wouldn't pass the trial. And if I were to fail, I wouldn't be able to believe in my self again. Eventually I was told that I was great and that I earned a longterm freelance contract with them. Even with this assurance, I continue to have an intense feeling that I'm not liked and that people are plotting to fire me... Maybe plotting is too harsh of a word, but I do feel as if people may be too polite to tell me what they actually think of my work.

I have thought I was going to get fired every day I worked with this company. I've been here for 3 years now and I still can't sleep certain nights because I'm worried about what I'll do once they fire me. I fell like my work is under par and I'm not getting the assignments that I would like to work on. I feel as if I'm distancing myself from the rest of my team and they are doing the same with me...

Please help me get over this. How do I trick my mind into not caring too much about my job? That if I get fired, its not the worst thing in the world?

I should also mention that I'm an avid Marijuana smoker. I have recently stopped because i think its feeding a lot of my anxieties, but I think my issues are deeper than smoking...

I'm not sure what I'm looking for in this forum, but I just wanted to share my experience and see if there is a ""life changing"" advice out there.

Thanks for reading.

AlGe",axienty,work anxiety head hey first time writing forum fact big self generally speaking maybe help find people experience really assuring remind one planet feel way long worked used think problem authority evolved developed social place well ignore joke worse get started current position happier great job field studied pay looking make day told hired would two week trial see qualify everyday feared something wrong pas fail able believe eventually earned longterm freelance contract even assurance continue intense feeling liked plotting fire harsh word may polite tell actually thought going fired every company year still sleep certain night worried fell like par getting assignment distancing rest team please trick mind caring much worst thing world also mention avid marijuana smoker recently stopped feeding lot issue deeper smoking sure wanted share life changing advice thanks reading alge,0.04,Neutral
"I can't sleep Does anyone has some 'trick' to slow down  ?
My head is driving me insane, I don't know what to do...",axienty,sleep anyone trick slow head driving insane know,-0.65,Negative
"Sudden onset of anxiety ruining my academic opportunities I’ve never posted here, but right now I don’t have a therapist to go to, so maybe some internet support would help me out. 

So the best thing that’s ever happened to me happened this week. I got accepted into an Oxford transfer program against all odds. Some background is that my high school attendance rate was <60% and my ACT scores were shit and I dropped out of college my first semester because it was more of a cult than a college.

The reason for my poor looking transcript is that I had long undiagnosed Graves’ disease and hyperthyroidism. Of course at that age, hyperactive thyroid was a cocktail for depression and anxiety, on top of thyroid storms, frequent nausea and insomnia. Sophomore year I was finally diagnosed and had radiation treatment done. I was out of school for a year from that. But in my free time, ever since I was 15 I was reading philosophy and history in my own time. I found it more comforting and more interesting than my assigned work. So I just did that, focusing a lot on stoicism at the time to help me cope. 

Now I’m well versed in philosophy and history and just by happenstance, I was able to visit oxford to meet some people. I did, and I guess I made a big impact. They wrote me a personal recommendation letter to get into a transfer program that would fast track me from the US to Oxford in two years. I accepted and moved forward with they’re incredibly kind offer. I had an interview with the program director, and in spite of my poor transcript they said I was already working at a master’s level with what I’ve taught myself. So I got accepted.

This should have been the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Ivy League school for my passion just because I took the time to teach myself. But instead I’ve been seized with crippling anxiety. I can’t think, sleep, eat, or anything. I find myself unable to breathe while trying to write my entry essay. Sometimes I get sick. I started to look at myself and ask “why has this triggered these panic attacks?” And while looking back, I’ve suddenly been flooded with memories I had long repressed from when I was in school. I knew it was a bad time for me, but I didn’t know it was that bad. Everything was great since I graduated but now that I got accepted into this program all these memories are coming back and I can’t function most days. I’ve taken off work and canceled plans, and I’m waiting to see if this therapist is on my insurance. But I dunno. Could use some positivity right now.",axienty,sudden onset anxiety ruining academic opportunity never posted right therapist go maybe internet support would help best thing ever happened week got accepted oxford transfer program odds background high school attendance rate act score shit dropped college first semester cult reason poor looking transcript long undiagnosed graf disease hyperthyroidism course age hyperactive thyroid cocktail depression top storm frequent nausea insomnia sophomore year finally diagnosed radiation treatment done free time since reading philosophy history found comforting interesting assigned work focusing lot stoicism cope well versed happenstance able visit meet people guess made big impact wrote personal recommendation letter get fast track u two moved forward incredibly kind offer interview director spite said already working master level taught ivy league passion took teach instead seized crippling think sleep eat anything find unable breathe trying write entry essay sometimes sick started look ask triggered panic attack back suddenly flooded memory repressed knew bad know everything great graduated coming function day taken canceled plan waiting see insurance dunno could use positivity,0.11,Moderately Positive
"So scared not sure if it’s my anxiety or my heart I am a 38 year old male with good health, or at least what I have been told over the years by doctors. No known heart condition and my blood pressure is usually normal during my visits. I have also been struggling with anxiety for almost 20 years. I am currently on Prozac and so far has seemed to work fairly well. The last few weeks I have been having on and off pains in my chest but nothing sustained or heavy just aches and pains. My back has also been hurting and I’m not sure if it’s stress and anxiety. Work has been crazy and I always worry whether I am on medication or not. I keep having these intrusive thoughts that’s I am going to have a massive heart attack and I can’t seem to shake it. Anyone else dealing with this or feels maybe I am really about to have a heart attack? Don’t smoke and slightly overweight but by maybe 15-20 pounds. I could stand to exercise but my work schedule is crazy. Sorry for the wall of text but I am out of town in a hotel all week and worrying I’ll have a heart attack and no one will be able to help me....",axienty,scared sure anxiety heart year old male good health least told doctor known condition blood pressure usually normal visit also struggling almost currently prozac far seemed work fairly well last week pain chest nothing sustained heavy ache back hurting stress crazy always worry whether medication keep intrusive thought going massive attack seem shake anyone else dealing feel maybe really smoke slightly overweight pound could stand exercise schedule sorry wall text town hotel worrying one able help,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Advice or relatable stories? The last two or three months, my husband and I have been struggling financially. As a result, my anxiety and depression has skyrocketed. And I have been slowly losing weight. I would say I’m probably underweight for my height. It’s not that I don’t want to eat; it’s that my body doesn’t want to each much. If that makes sense? Any advice or relatable stories? FYI, I have been going to therapy for about a month or so.",axienty,advice relatable story last two three month husband struggling financially result anxiety depression skyrocketed slowly losing weight would say probably underweight height want eat body much make sense fyi going therapy,-0.03,Neutral
"Brain zaps being linked to nicotine?? Help! So a little background, and I’m sorry if this isn’t the best thread to put this under but I know a lot of users on here have experienced brain zaps at one point or another so I wanted to see if anyone could help me shed some light on what’s going on. I’ve been on a ton of SSRI/SSNRI’s and I’m currently prescribed 20mg Viibryd (been on it for about a year now and so far it’s been good). I’ve experienced brain zaps a couple of times when weening off of other medications when I thought I was able to, mainly Effexor and Prozac were the ones I had trouble with brain zaps during withdrawal. 
I quit smoking cigarettes over two years ago, but I’ve been consistently vaping during this time period. In the past week, I’ve lowered my nicotine levels from 6mg to 3mg, and I’ve started having sensations that feel exactly like brain zaps. Doing research has lead me mostly to dead ends, but I found one scientific article that said that in a lab rat test, rats given nicotine had significantly higher serotonin levels than the control rats. I’ve also found that brain zaps are mainly due to lowered serotonin levels in the brain after cessation of SSRI’s. 
Does this mean I’m having brain zaps due to lowering my nicotine levels? I was wondering if anyone else had any insight to this because I found it odd that I was having these but am still taking my Viibryd consistently and at the same time every night. Any insight would be helpful! Thank you!",axienty,brain zap linked nicotine help little background sorry best thread put know lot user experienced one point another wanted see anyone could shed light going ton ssri ssnri currently prescribed mg viibryd year far good couple time weening medication thought able mainly effexor prozac trouble withdrawal quit smoking cigarette two ago consistently vaping period past week lowered level started sensation feel exactly like research lead mostly dead end found scientific article said lab rat test given significantly higher serotonin control also due cessation mean lowering wondering else insight odd still taking every night would helpful thank,0.13,Moderately Positive
"I start to get an anxiety attack when dealing with an angry customer. I work at a gym and I have dealt with a lot of angry people, but there has been times I feel like I'm going to be assaulted and threatened because I'm just following the company's policies. Not only that the last thing I would want to do is to get into a physical altercation. So whenever I'm having an anxiety attack, I start to worry not for getting hurt but that I will hurt the person I'm dealing with. That is the last thing I ever want to do but I keep getting these thoughts and it's to the point I get scared of these thoughts.

P.S. This actually took a lot of courage for me to post this to be honest. I really don't know who else to talk to without sounding crazy. I hope this community understands me.",axienty,start get anxiety attack dealing angry customer work gym dealt lot people time feel like going assaulted threatened following company policy last thing would want physical altercation whenever worry getting hurt person ever keep thought point scared actually took courage post honest really know else talk without sounding crazy hope community understands,-0.04,Neutral
"idk Idk how to reddit, but I'm not ok and I need a friend.",axienty,idk reddit ok need friend,0.5,Positive
"I have my driving test tomorrow and it's driving me insane Pun not intended

It's 7 am tomorrow.
My mom paid nearly 200 euro only for that test and I really doubt my abilities to pass it, I'm mediocre at best
I'm German so that doesn't help either, considering how strict the test is here

It's less than 12 hours now and I feel so bad, my hands are shaking and I can't even eat anything",axienty,driving test tomorrow insane pun intended mom paid nearly euro really doubt ability pas mediocre best german help either considering strict le hour feel bad hand shaking even eat anything,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"Meds that work? Hi, all. I am just wondering if anyone has ever been on anxiolytics that work and *help*. I was on alprazolam in college a few years ago briefly, and again for a short time frame about 3 years ago. I basically don't sleep anymore, and when I do, it's riddled with nightmares. I can't take it anymore. I'm reaching a breaking point. I've tried to meditate and I exercise regularly, but that's not really doing it for the sleep issue anymore. I feel scared/worried every time I go to bed.",axienty,med work hi wondering anyone ever anxiolytic help alprazolam college year ago briefly short time frame basically sleep anymore riddled nightmare take reaching breaking point tried meditate exercise regularly really issue feel scared worried every go bed,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Cures to one of my main sources of anxiety, depression, and depersonalization Since I was around 7-8, I have been dealing with anxiety, depression and depersonalization. These have shifted over time from separation anxiety, to fear of a terrorist attack, to Germophobia. However as I grew and matured (currently 19) my main fear moved to the fear of the unknown, specifically the afterlife. Whenever I would think about these unanswerable questions I would immediately feel depersonalized and anxiety-ridden. I thought this would only get worse since I went away to college earlier this year.  This was true until I stumbled upon one clip from the Joe Rogan experience feat. Kevin Smith.  Once I viewed this clip, I immediately felt the fear and anxiety leave my body. I still to this day thank Joe Rogan and Kevin Smith for allowing me to live my life once again. 

Link to video:

[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpHiCwztSqE&t=1s](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpHiCwztSqE&t=1s)",axienty,cure one main source anxiety depression depersonalization since around dealing shifted time separation fear terrorist attack germophobia however grew matured currently moved unknown specifically afterlife whenever would think unanswerable question immediately feel depersonalized ridden thought get worse went away college earlier year true stumbled upon clip joe rogan experience feat kevin smith viewed felt leave body still day thank allowing live life link video,0.02,Neutral
"How do you rank your anxiety on a scale from 1 (none) to 10 (really bad)? I'm using this online CBT program called Learn to Live that my company has as a part of our wellness package. The anxiety lessons ask me to rank my anxiety on a scale from 1 to 10 but I'm always worried about picking the ""wrong"" number because I don't have any guidance on what each number means. 

​

Does anyone know of a source similar to the one for [physical pain](https://www.disabled-world.com/health/pain/scale.php) but for anxiety? I've searched but haven't had any luck.",axienty,rank anxiety scale none really bad using online cbt program called learn live company part wellness package lesson ask always worried picking wrong number guidance mean anyone know source similar one physical pain searched luck,-0.31,Moderately Negative
"Motivation to live life how you want I’m about to turn 16 but I feel like I’m wasting my life. I’ve laid in bed every day for the past 3-4 years, I don’t have any hobbies or friends. There are things I want to do, bigger aspirations but I literally long to do such basic things. Redo my room like I want and get rid of all my stuff, eat three healthy meals a day, have the clothes I want. I’m not a materialistic person either, so these aren’t lavish things I’m dreaming about. I’m sure other people have been in my position,
I’m just curious when you found the motivation to live life the way you wanted",axienty,motivation live life want turn feel like wasting laid bed every day past year hobby friend thing bigger aspiration literally long basic redo room get rid stuff eat three healthy meal clothes materialistic person either lavish dreaming sure people position curious found way wanted,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety at work I’ve been lurking the sub for a while trying to see if I relate to anyone and it seems like I do so I figured I’d ask for some advice. I work as a cashier at a restaurant so people are constantly coming up to me and ordering, sometimes we get EXTREMELY busy and it seems to trigger my anxiety so bad that it gets physical. I get nauseous, dizzy, I even thought I was gonna pass out on some occasions. It lasts for a while until the line dies down but it’ll come and go after the rush hour. It’s happened almost every shift for the past month and I have no idea what to do anymore. My school has counseling services and i’m debating going to them but i’m scared they’ll just brush it off. I just want some resources on how to start to get help. ",axienty,anxiety work lurking sub trying see relate anyone seems like figured ask advice cashier restaurant people constantly coming ordering sometimes get extremely busy trigger bad physical nauseous dizzy even thought gonna pas occasion last line dy come go rush hour happened almost every shift past month idea anymore school counseling service debating going scared brush want resource start help,-0.14,Moderately Negative
Uncontrollable shaking? I think I get panic attacks but I'm not 100% sure. I have episodes where I reach a tipping point and start shaking uncontrollably. This lasted for almost 10 hours yesterday. I always have to use the bathroom when this is happening and it feels like my intestines are trying to squeeze everything out. I also have a stomach condition where my rectum doesn't have full muscle control so I'm not sure if the shaking is from anxiety or from my body trying to push everything out but can't do it efficiently. These episodes always happen when I'm really stressed out or I don't get enough sleep. ,axienty,uncontrollable shaking think get panic attack sure episode reach tipping point start uncontrollably lasted almost hour yesterday always use bathroom happening feel like intestine trying squeeze everything also stomach condition rectum full muscle control anxiety body push efficiently happen really stressed enough sleep,0.26,Moderately Positive
"Rolling anxiety attacks? Hey everyone,

I could really use your collective wisdom and experience on something I've had difficulty in finding any information on.

In short, I get rolling anxiety attacks. Instead of 10-15 minutes of intense panic, my anxiety attacks last an hour minimum. However, more frequently than not they become somewhat permanent, lasting up to a month. And when I say they last, I mean my SUDS never dips below a 90, and I have constant racing thoughts, with pacing, lack of appetite, trouble sleeping, shaking and chest pain that starts as soon I wake up until I get exhausted enough where I can sleep again. I can't work because of it and my OCD.

I say rolling anxiety attacks, but it actually feels like one long anxiety attack. I'm just trying to better articulate what happens since even my OCD specialist doesnt believe I experience them as I do because he says its physically impossible. But its like, I know what an anxiety attack feels like, but for me they just keep going. I know something is misfiring in my brain.

This leads me to my question: is there another person alive out there who has some experience with this? It's been really difficult to find any information online whatsoever and I'd like even a nudge in the right direction.",axienty,rolling anxiety attack hey everyone could really use collective wisdom experience something difficulty finding information short get instead minute intense panic last hour minimum however frequently become somewhat permanent lasting month say mean suds never dip constant racing thought pacing lack appetite trouble sleeping shaking chest pain start soon wake exhausted enough sleep work ocd actually feel like one long trying better articulate happens since even specialist doesnt believe physically impossible know keep going misfiring brain lead question another person alive difficult find online whatsoever nudge right direction,-0.04,Neutral
"Please don't just suffer in silence, reach out I know this seems like a stupidly obvious thing to post. But today I contacted CALM (Campaign against living miserably, UK mental health/depression organisation). This is something that I've meant to do for months and months, but I've just been too anxious to do it... ironic, I know.

I spoke on their web helpline for about an hour and it was so so helpful. I've never told anyone about it before. Tomorrow I'm going to contact the student support at my university and talk to them.

What they said to me really didn't amount to much more than reassuring me and encouraging me to take action, but it was such a massive help. I feel like I might be getting my life back on track :)
",axienty,please suffer silence reach know seems like stupidly obvious thing post today contacted calm campaign living miserably uk mental health depression organisation something meant month anxious ironic spoke web helpline hour helpful never told anyone tomorrow going contact student support university talk said really amount much reassuring encouraging take action massive help feel might getting life back track,0.06,Moderately Positive
"My heart beats faster, start sweating and stomach drops when I get anxious is this a panic Attack? I don't *look* like I'm having a panic attack, I don't speak much or do anything when this happens (like cry or something)",axienty,heart beat faster start sweating stomach drop get anxious panic attack look like speak much anything happens cry something,-0.02,Neutral
"Is a MinuteClinic doctor sufficient to confirm/deny panic attack?  Hi everyone - I'm hoping for some advice on how to get assessed quickly for what I *think* is a lingering panic attack? Brief context: I've always wrestled with anxiety but never experienced a panic attack until a week ago while I on antibiotics for a UTI. Out of nowhere my heart rate elevated, followed by shortness of breath and what felt like palpitations. I managed to work through it, but several more occurred over a few days until I was able to switch meds. It’s now been nearly a week since I was on any meds at all, but suddenly today at 4:00 PM while at the movies I began experiencing the same symptoms. Again, it seemed brought on by nothing (my week has been fairly stress-free, and the movie we saw was a slow drama with no suspense) but now, nearly twelve hours later, I’m still fighting the same symptoms: tightness/twinges in my chest, elevated heart rate, and the sensation of being unable to breathe fully unless I’m taking deep breaths through my mouth. The intensity has ebbed over the hours and I’ve calmed myself a few times, but the condition never completely goes away. I’ve begun to feel crazy, unable to tell if I’m “making up” these symptoms or if something is actually medically wrong. On one hand I don’t know why I would be experiencing this panic attack, but I also don’t know why I would have a heart/lung condition either, since I’m a 27-year-old, healthy-eating nonsmoker with no preexisting (physical) health conditions and no family history of heart disease. (Also, due to my UTI visits I’ve had my heartbeat and breathing checked three times over the past few weeks with no voiced concern from any doctors - the most recent time being Sunday.) 

 So sorry for blathering, but does anyone have any advice on the best place to go to get either the anxiety or health concern ruled out? I feel at a loss, because I have crappy insurance that makes finding doctors difficult (and often they can only see me days/weeks later), but I also don’t think I can afford an ER visit right now. My last resort seems to be a Minute Clinic, but I’m worried about whether they’ll have the resources to adequately tell me what’s wrong with me. I really want to find that I’m just being ridiculous, but either way any advice or encouragement would be much appreciated! ",axienty,minuteclinic doctor sufficient confirm deny panic attack hi everyone hoping advice get assessed quickly think lingering brief context always wrestled anxiety never experienced week ago antibiotic uti nowhere heart rate elevated followed shortness breath felt like palpitation managed work several occurred day able switch med nearly since suddenly today pm movie began experiencing symptom seemed brought nothing fairly stress free saw slow drama suspense twelve hour later still fighting tightness twinge chest sensation unable breathe fully unless taking deep mouth intensity ebbed calmed time condition completely go away begun feel crazy tell making something actually medically wrong one hand know would also lung either year old healthy eating nonsmoker preexisting physical health family history disease due visit heartbeat breathing checked three past voiced concern recent sunday sorry blathering anyone best place ruled loss crappy insurance make finding difficult often see afford er right last resort seems minute clinic worried whether resource adequately really want find ridiculous way encouragement much appreciated,0.01,Neutral
"I'm costantly worried about my heart rate. Anxiety? Hello there.
I'm a 20yo guy, I don't currently take any kind of medication and I haven't been diagnosed with anxiety (yet), but since a very stressful period that happened some months ago, the symptoms are totally there. However, at first it was simply paranoia, irrational fear, worrying and such, all in my mind basically.

Until I had a dizzy spell last month and I started noticing physical symptoms that could be related to anxiety: unsteadiness, dizziness, brief sensations of head pulsating. I kept thinking about it, possibly worsening my condition, until they went away after about three days.

Now, I'm having a similar problem with heart rate. After suffering from an anxiety attack a couple days ago, I noticed that I could feel my heartbeat accelerating and since then I cannot stop thinking about it. Yesterday, while I was measuring it at home, I went into full panic mode and it spiked at about 120. After that, I tried to calm down and it stabilized around 90 (still high imho). During the day I'm generally more calm and since I woke up today it's swinging in the 70-80 range. However, at night I panic and I really struggle falling asleep.
My main concern is that there could actually be an underlying heart problem. I've had my last cardiological visit 3 years ago and there wasn't any issue, but I'm still not convinced.

Should I go see a cardiologist or is it all related to stress/anxiety?
I'm fully aware reddit isn't a replacement for medical examination, however I thought I could find some experiences similar to mine on this sub.
Any suggestion is really appreciated, thank you in advance!",axienty,costantly worried heart rate anxiety hello yo guy currently take kind medication diagnosed yet since stressful period happened month ago symptom totally however first simply paranoia irrational fear worrying mind basically dizzy spell last started noticing physical could related unsteadiness dizziness brief sensation head pulsating kept thinking possibly worsening condition went away three day similar problem suffering attack couple noticed feel heartbeat accelerating cannot stop yesterday measuring home full panic mode spiked tried calm stabilized around still high imho generally woke today swinging range night really struggle falling asleep main concern actually underlying cardiological visit year issue convinced go see cardiologist stress fully aware reddit replacement medical examination thought find experience mine sub suggestion appreciated thank advance,0.12,Moderately Positive
"dude is trying to start a fight with me and it's stressing me out dude kept making sexual comments, moaning, and other shit to me today (been doing it for 2 weeks at least) and calling me peter griffin. I may have said that's why his father left him, turns out his dad is in prison. now he threatened to jump me",axienty,dude trying start fight stressing kept making sexual comment moaning shit today week least calling peter griffin may said father left turn dad prison threatened jump,0.0,Neutral
"is this normal. Please advice. Thank you So today (my boyfriend let’s call him yoda)and I went to guitar center to get himself a turntable(he’s really into music). He also mentions that he want to apply and work here. I supported him of course. Then a young woman rang us up and mind you she was GORGEOUS. Like I felt so insecure not gonna lie and felt so little. She started talking about the turntable and how she has one herself. So then yoda asked her what he needed to do to get a job here and she said just apply online and we’ll get back to you.. please guys. Idk if I am crazy but so many scenarios and thoughts were running through my mind. For ex, I imagined him getting the job and them becoming best friends through being music lovers, seeing eachother everyday at work, talking, getting to know each other. I thought of it ALL. I imagined them falling in love and then in the end him breaking up with me. It changed my whole attitude and I didnt really speak to him on the way home. Then we set up the turntable and I was trying to help him but he kept telling me to stop and that he could do it alone and he doesn’t need help with such an attitude so then I cried and I couldn’t stop. Listen guys I know it wasn’t a big deal but I was just having an anxiety attack I couldn’t hold it in. It was so stupid I know. Why am I like this? I don’t understand. Why do I think these thoughts? I really don’t want them in my head. It’s disgusting. It ruins my image of him. And I become blinded and ruin everything good. Can someone please explain.",axienty,normal please advice thank today boyfriend let call yoda went guitar center get turntable really music also mention want apply work supported course young woman rang u mind gorgeous like felt insecure gonna lie little started talking one asked needed job said online back guy idk crazy many scenario thought running ex imagined getting becoming best friend lover seeing eachother everyday know falling love end breaking changed whole attitude didnt speak way home set trying help kept telling stop could alone need cried listen big deal anxiety attack hold stupid understand think head disgusting ruin image become blinded everything good someone explain,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Anxious at night - how can I start sleeping again? It’s exam time for me, and I’m extremely stressed, and it’s when i’m stressed like this that I develop a strange fear of falling asleep/being in a room alone at night. Although this has only happened a few times, last time I was this sleep deprived and under a lot of stress I got sleep paralysis and nightmares. I’m petrified it’ll happen again, and now I’v started imagining things in the dark whenever I go to fall asleep, and I feel like there’s someone in the room watching me. I’ve had to sleep with the light on to make me feel better, but I still can’t get a full nights sleep. I only feel safe if I have someone else in the bed with me. Has anyone else had similar issues and how did you get over it? ",axienty,anxious night start sleeping exam time extremely stressed like develop strange fear falling asleep room alone although happened last sleep deprived lot stress got paralysis nightmare petrified happen started imagining thing dark whenever go fall feel someone watching light make better still get full safe else bed anyone similar issue,0.12,Moderately Positive
"About to give Motherwort a go I’m weening off my SSRI after ~2 Years and i’m determined to never have to go back to it. I know my anxiety will still be present. 
I found some research about motherwort and decided to purchase a vial of the tincture.
From what I’ve read, it could have some excellent coping effects. Can anyone else attest to this?",axienty,give motherwort go weening ssri year determined never back know anxiety still present found research decided purchase vial tincture read could excellent coping effect anyone else attest,0.33,Moderately Positive
"I do not have anxiety. My friend does. How can I comfort my friend when she is having anxiety attacks? She often texts me when she’s having an attack, how can I comfort her to the best of my ability through a screen?",axienty,anxiety friend comfort attack often text best ability screen,1.0,Positive
"College anxiety Anxiety has pretty much ruined university for me. I’m repeating the second semester of second year because of it.
I can’t even bring myself to opening my college emails because I don’t want to have to deal with it. The idea of logging into my student account literally nearly sends me into a panic.
How did you guys get through it? I’m going back in a few weeks and I’m just freaking out about it.",axienty,college anxiety pretty much ruined university repeating second semester year even bring opening email want deal idea logging student account literally nearly sends panic guy get going back week freaking,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I’m so fucking sick of never being able to relax with people. Everytime I interact with someone it’s so forced, awkward, quick, weird, and unenjoyable. Even after a minute of being stuck with someone I will be DRENCHED in sweat and in physical pain.  I’m so sick of anxiety. It’s fucking RUINED all my relationships. I can’t even be alone with my best friends anymore, I’ve lost all of them because I keep postponing and postponing hangouts. I’m getting really tired of this.",axienty,fucking sick never able relax people everytime interact someone forced awkward quick weird unenjoyable even minute stuck drenched sweat physical pain anxiety ruined relationship alone best friend anymore lost keep postponing hangout getting really tired,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"Has Anyone Tried Guided Meditation to Manage their Anxiety? I've been trying to quiet all the negative speak in my mind. I've been looking for some new videos to help me out. I came across this one that is pretty good.

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Has anyone else found any helpful guided meditations or techniques to help them stay calm and pull them off the edge?",axienty,anyone tried guided meditation manage anxiety trying quiet negative speak mind looking new video help came across one pretty good iframe width height src frameborder allow accelerometer autoplay encrypted medium gyroscope picture allowfullscreen else found helpful technique stay calm pull edge,0.18,Moderately Positive
"Advice on How to Avoid Anxiety at Night? I have GAD, and I've been having issues with getting really anxious, depressed and lonely at night when I have nothing to do and no one to be with. I'm searching for some new hobbies and coping mechanisms to fill my time with so I don't descend into that pit of anxiety and despair every night. I love being creative and doing things with my hands, so if they relate to any of those things, then that would be perfect!",axienty,advice avoid anxiety night gad issue getting really anxious depressed lonely nothing one searching new hobby coping mechanism fill time descend pit despair every love creative thing hand relate would perfect,0.3,Moderately Positive
"Anyone ever experience mild chills/a cold fatigue feeling? Recently i’ve been noticing that I’ve been having symptoms like feeling cold when it’s 70 degrees out, specifically in my arms. They feel shaky and fatigued. I don’t have a fever or anything, no other symptoms other than my normal PTSD/ GAD",axienty,anyone ever experience mild chill cold fatigue feeling recently noticing symptom like degree specifically arm feel shaky fatigued fever anything normal ptsd gad,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"I need help with my anxiety (A letter to Myself) I suddenly felt overwhelmed once again and I haven't talked to anyone about it even though this kind of thing has been happening for a while. This time I decided to write down my thoughts. This is what I wrote to myself:

What’s even happening at this point. 

Am I lazy? Why does work of any kind at all just entirely break you down? Why doesn’t making a schedule even work? It worked for 3 days once, but never after. 

Why do I feel myself trapped although I’m technically free to do whatever?

You were pretty depressed a year ago. But you were able to turn that around pretty decently I feel. You went to therapy. You started showering again and went from eating maybe a meal a day to eating on a much more semi-regular basis. You even managed to keep your room clean after coming back to college for the most part (semi-weekly cleanings sort of magically took place). It was so bad that at some point you had maggots in the trashcan and people refused to touch you or enter your room. But it seems like now you’ve got new problems to deal with. 

You’ve gone almost 5 months now with suicide ideas going through your head every day. You play it like a movie. And even when you tell yourself that suicide is not the answer, you seem to counter with “well it would actually solve your problems.” Is this not a problem? 

You know for a fact that you are too much of a wuss to actually follow through, so you have that going for you. You also know that it would be the most disappointing thing to so many people who have known you or currently know you. 

What doesn’t seem to make sense is that you can’t find a source of these bad thoughts. Last time you were able to find a source. But this time the source seems to be elusive. Going out and just talking and hanging with people makes you feel decently happy and puts your mind off (usually) from things that make you anxious. Yet you seem to have weird anxiety pop up at almost all other situations. It hits and you freeze. You can only think about those things that make you anxious. You sweat. You lose all appetite. You have to force food in your mouth to keep the 2 meal a day minimum going. You feel faint headed and almost in a delirious state. But why does the anxiety hit at such random times? 

Sometimes I feel like the only decent solution is to just take a gap semester from college, go home, throw all electronics in a box so that I’m truly alone, and just take time to think without much responsibilities. It’s unrealistic though. I would just be lonely again and because of how it is at home, it could just make you more anxious. But that’s another weird thing. 

I feel lonely when I’m alone doing nothing much, but when I’m alone doing something I love, it’s the best thing ever. But for some reason, I’m unable to truly let myself do stuff I really love without the thought of various other work I have to do. It’s crippling. You need to do something buddy. I know you can because you were once happy. 

(Also, why was this so hard to type buddy? You seem to have the general problem of expressing your feelings properly, even to yourself.)
",axienty,need help anxiety letter suddenly felt overwhelmed talked anyone even though kind thing happening time decided write thought wrote point lazy work entirely break making schedule worked day never feel trapped although technically free whatever pretty depressed year ago able turn around decently went therapy started showering eating maybe meal much semi regular basis managed keep room clean coming back college part weekly cleaning sort magically took place bad maggot trashcan people refused touch enter seems like got new problem deal gone almost month suicide idea going head every play movie tell answer seem counter well would actually solve know fact wuss follow also disappointing many known currently make sense find source last elusive talking hanging happy put mind usually anxious yet weird pop situation hit freeze think sweat lose appetite force food mouth minimum faint headed delirious state random sometimes decent solution take gap semester go home throw electronics box truly alone without responsibility unrealistic lonely could another nothing something love best ever reason unable let stuff really various crippling buddy hard type general expressing feeling properly,0.03,Neutral
"Chairs are ruining my life! So, my boyfriend and I are attending a wedding in a couple of weeks, and I am DREADING it!  I’m so excited to hang out with his friends that we don’t frequently get to see, and it’ll be my birthday weekend so that’s going to be fun! I even have a outfit planned that I’m really excited to wear, but there’s still a huge cloud of anxiety and dread hanging over the whole event for me because of one specific thing....chairs!


I’ve noticed over the past year or so that I’ve become almost agoraphobic, just because I’m so paranoid that I’m too big/heavy for chairs in public places to support me. Anytime we’re planning on going out to eat, to a show/concert or something like that, I do lots of research on yelp and google first trying to find pictures of the seating available at that establishment.


I found the wedding venue on yelp and after looking at the pictures of previous ceremonies and receptions my biggest fears have just been confirmed. The chairs are so flimsy and I know that there is NO WAY they are going to support my weight the whole night. ([Link](https://imgur.com/gallery/s1U2Gx9)  to the pictures from yelp for reference...also I don’t know my weight right now, but I can tell you I’m around 5’9” and a size 28/30)

Am I being ridiculous? I’ve rarely ever had a chair give out on me, but I don’t know if it’s because it’s all in my head or if it’s because I’m so overly cautious!  Am I alone in this fear, or are other plus sized people constantly thinking about these things too?  Does anyone have any advice? Clearly the most obvious solution is to lose weight, but seeing that wedding is in a week, that’s not exactly practical.









(This is a throwaway account because I’m embarrassed that I’ve gotten to this point...)",axienty,chair ruining life boyfriend attending wedding couple week dreading excited hang friend frequently get see birthday weekend going fun even outfit planned really wear still huge cloud anxiety dread hanging whole event one specific thing noticed past year become almost agoraphobic paranoid big heavy public place support anytime planning eat show concert something like lot research yelp google first trying find picture seating available establishment found venue looking previous ceremony reception biggest fear confirmed flimsy know way weight night link reference also right tell around size ridiculous rarely ever give head overly cautious alone plus sized people constantly thinking anyone advice clearly obvious solution lose seeing exactly practical throwaway account embarrassed gotten point,0.12,Moderately Positive
"This morning I’m reaching again my limits... I feel so bad :( I never thought of committing suicide, but maybe to die would be a relief",axienty,morning reaching limit feel bad never thought committing suicide maybe die would relief,-0.7,Negative
"I’m such an idiot. I was diagnosed with anxiety in 7th grade, and I didn’t believe him because the medicine didn’t work with me, so I didn’t believe him. Now I regret it. For context, I was diagnosed with ADHD in 5th grade. I was put on a medicine that worked really well and I got good grades. In 7th grade I was diagnosed with anxiety. I didn’t like my doctor, as when I told him that the medicine affected my appetite and I couldn’t eat lunch, because if I did I felt like I would throw up, he just said that “it’s all up to me.” An actual psychologist saying something like that. My mom didn’t agree with him either but she said that he could have been testing me to see if I had a bad reaction to see if I had anger issues or something. I stayed calm during the whole thing, so that’s good. He also put me on anxiety meds and they had a bad reaction to my brain. It was comparable to having an all nighter, and in the morning, you’re not sure what is real and what isn’t, because you’re so tired and drifting off to sleep. I literally thought that toast couldn’t come out of a toaster. I’m not joking. So my mom took me off of it and we stopped seeing the doctor. This was in 7th grade, when my grades started dropping, and 8th grade was even worse. Fast forward to now, where I went to the doctor and she also diagnosed me with anxiety, but she told me that anxiety can sometimes interfere with ADHD and make you not focus even on medicine. She also said that certain anxiety meds don’t work with some people. My grades dropped in 7th grade, and I was also diagnosed with anxiety in 7th grade. I regret not questioning him and asking what I could take that wouldn’t fuck up my brain. Maybe my grades would have been better. But I still blame him for not telling me that it can effect my ADHD and to try other meds. Hopefully the “anxiety theory” as I call it will work in time for sophomore year.",axienty,idiot diagnosed anxiety th grade believe medicine work regret context adhd put worked really well got good like doctor told affected appetite eat lunch felt would throw said actual psychologist saying something mom agree either could testing see bad reaction anger issue stayed calm whole thing also med brain comparable nighter morning sure real tired drifting sleep literally thought toast come toaster joking took stopped seeing started dropping even worse fast forward went sometimes interfere make focus certain people dropped questioning asking take fuck maybe better still blame telling effect try hopefully theory call time sophomore year,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Worrying about a draft possibility. I'm a 15 year old transgender male with a history of self harm, who is diagnosed with PTSD, depression, ADD, and anxiety.   
And here I sit, googling all the ways to avoid a draft when I am disqualified for so many reasons. I feel so stupid but I can't stop thinking about it and worrying,",axienty,worrying draft possibility year old transgender male history self harm diagnosed ptsd depression add anxiety sit googling way avoid disqualified many reason feel stupid stop thinking,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Sharp chest pain These past 3 days Ive been having this sharp chest pain, which I had before but today it reeeally hurts. I was wondering if anyone else has experienced it. I have reason to be anxious, my gramps died, I worry of other people around me dying, I worry of my own death, Ive been working for six months for free with hopes of getting paid, Ive been living in isolation in my apartment and havent had a girlfriend since I was 16, Im 27. Just getting that out. So, anyone has pains from anxiety, eyeballs hurting, headaches, maybe Ive got a tumor?",axienty,sharp chest pain past day ive today reeeally hurt wondering anyone else experienced reason anxious gramps died worry people around dying death working six month free hope getting paid living isolation apartment havent girlfriend since im anxiety eyeball hurting headache maybe got tumor,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Fire alarm Today I woke up actually feeling normal.  I was leaving my apartment to drive to class (I’m in university) and as soon as I opened one of the doors in the buildings hallway, the fire alarm went off.  Obviously this would be surprising to anyone, but my heart immediately started pounding  and my first thought was that I had opened a door that I somehow wasn’t supposed to be using for some reason and that it was all my fault.  Now my heart won’t stop racing, I’m shaking, chest is tight, and feel so anxious and don’t want to see people.  I got an email that the building was testing the alarms, which I assumed anyways, but either way now I’m sitting in my car taking deep breaths trying to compose myself knowing that I’m going to be anxious for the rest of the day.  I only really feel comfortable telling anyone on here about this, but ugh.  One thing is all it takes to set off anxiety.",axienty,fire alarm today woke actually feeling normal leaving apartment drive class university soon opened one door building hallway went obviously would surprising anyone heart immediately started pounding first thought somehow supposed using reason fault stop racing shaking chest tight feel anxious want see people got email testing assumed anyways either way sitting car taking deep breath trying compose knowing going rest day really comfortable telling ugh thing take set anxiety,0.12,Moderately Positive
"finally feeling better. a lot has been going on in my life. my brother has been causing a lot of problems in my house. he constantly fights with my parents and my sister and i. i was going to move in with my aunt for a little while because i couldn’t take the fighting. november- until this week i have been nothing but a walking ball of anxiety. he recently left our house to go and get some help for his anger issues and other problems, and i feel so relieved. there is no fighting and there is no constant anger from him and my parents. i don’t know what’s going to happen when he comes back but until then i feel so happy. if he does come back then i am going to move in with my aunt and do better for ME 💜",axienty,finally feeling better lot going life brother causing problem house constantly fight parent sister move aunt little take fighting november week nothing walking ball anxiety recently left go get help anger issue feel relieved constant know happen come back happy,0.05,Moderately Positive
Very anxious for my flight today! I hate hate hate flying. I absolutely think I am going to die each time and usually cry or put myself to sleep through alcohol :( just wish travelling was so much easier! Wish I didn’t have anxiety!!!!,axienty,anxious flight today hate flying absolutely think going die time usually cry put sleep alcohol wish travelling much easier anxiety,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Loneliness I find myself thinking a lot lately about how illegitimate and and embarassed I feel about admitting that I feel lonely. Yes, I have an anxiety disorder and I tend naturally to sadness, but these things don't come from thin air like it sometimes feels. They have a basic reason, and for me it's feeling loneliness. I had a discussion about it with my therapist and we agreed that it's a problem I share with a lot of people. That so many of us suffer from the same basic reason and suffer through it alone, and it's funny because we have the cure to each other's pain.

Why is it so hard to admit we need other people?  
Why whenever I want to post about it on groups that I do feel comfortable in, I'm just to scared and feeling too exposed to do it?

I have a weird dichotomy in my life - I'm well aware that most people who know me like me, and I do have some friends, even good friends.  

But yet, I find myself alone most of the time. It's been like this for years. for years I'm trying to make new friends and don't really succeed. I really like going to parties or just drink and hang out with people, but when I want to go out I usually don't have with whom to do that and so many times I suggested and didn't find anyone to go with. So many let downs, disappointments and giving up going to sleep alone. I don't have courage to go dancing alone, for instance, and I'm pretty sure I won't enjoy it anyway although I never tried.

Most of my communication with my friends is through whatsapp. most of them know I have mental health problems and I do talk about it with them, but I almost never admit that I'm just fucking lonely and craving for a good company and that's basically the reason. I know I can be happy if I'll just meet the right people who will give me the attention I need and that I feel like I'm giving others, and will be able to just have fun with them and doing things together. I'm tired so I'm getting less and less coherent and it's long already so I'll stop now:)",axienty,loneliness find thinking lot lately illegitimate embarassed feel admitting lonely yes anxiety disorder tend naturally sadness thing come thin air like sometimes basic reason feeling discussion therapist agreed problem share people many u suffer alone funny cure pain hard admit need whenever want post group comfortable scared exposed weird dichotomy life well aware know friend even good yet time year trying make new really succeed going party drink hang go usually suggested anyone let down disappointment giving sleep courage dancing instance pretty sure enjoy anyway although never tried communication whatsapp mental health talk almost fucking craving company basically happy meet right give attention others able fun together tired getting le coherent long already stop,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Natural supplements for anxiety I'm looking for some natural/herbal remedies to calm my anxiety but don't want to be drowsy as I have low energy most of the time.

 I used to take antidepressants for my anxiety and want to try something natural before considering returning to meds. 
I have anxiety going out with friends, to restaurants, bars etc and rarely enjoy myself now due to the effects of my anxiety. 

Does anyone have any suggestions of a herbal remedy that calms anxiety/panic but doesn't cause too much drowsiness?",axienty,natural supplement anxiety looking herbal remedy calm want drowsy low energy time used take antidepressant try something considering returning med going friend restaurant bar etc rarely enjoy due effect anyone suggestion panic cause much drowsiness,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Vega one or alternative product Hello all, 

I am not a coffee drinker nor an alcohol drinker. I am trying to change my lifestyle by being more active and eat healthy foods. I came across Vega one. Based on the reviews and the health benefits, it looks like a good product to consume if you’re just starting out. One thing I noticed is, there is a caffeine on it. Mind you, I do have panic attacks episodes. So I was wondering if some of you here are Vega one drinkers or is it good or is there an alternative product without a caffeine? 

Thank you. ",axienty,vega one alternative product hello coffee drinker alcohol trying change lifestyle active eat healthy food came across based review health benefit look like good consume starting thing noticed caffeine mind panic attack episode wondering without thank,0.27,Moderately Positive
"Do you feel anxious just trying to comment/post here too? Because I feel it right now I just feel like I need someone to vent to someone to talk to who’s gone thorough this and isn’t just trying to understand. I’ve lost all of my friends and majority of my family doesn’t understand me. I’m trying to be normal like everyone else but it seems like no matter how far I go to try my body just says NOPE you’re fucked up brianna!! Earlier today I was invited to my boyfriends roommates birthday dinner with the roommates girlfriend I’ve never met and already CUE anxiety. Knowing this Ive already taken an Ativan but it hadn’t kicked in fast enough. Restaurants by itself cause me great anxiety, much more being seated in the middle of everyone and that’s exactly what had happened. So there I was an hour ago seated with them and just started panicking and I started tearing up and left the table. I feel like a living fool. What do they think of me now? I know my boyfriend is supportive about it but I just get this feeling that maybe it’s too much sometimes and now I just wonder why I didn’t just say no I don’t want to go because my body will fail me. My name is no longer Brianna it’s anxiety and I hate that feeling. I wanted to be the one willing to get over this anxiety this panic and my body won’t let me. Now what does everyone think of me? A living fucking joke. I just wanted to try and be normal....",axienty,feel anxious trying comment post right like need someone vent talk gone thorough understand lost friend majority family normal everyone else seems matter far go try body say nope fucked brianna earlier today invited boyfriend roommate birthday dinner girlfriend never met already cue anxiety knowing ive taken ativan kicked fast enough restaurant cause great much seated middle exactly happened hour ago started panicking tearing left table living fool think know supportive get feeling maybe sometimes wonder want fail name longer hate wanted one willing panic let fucking joke,0.0,Neutral
"App/Website to access a therapist? Hey guys, I'm going through a rough patch and would like to talk to someone. I have too much social anxiety right now to go to a real live therapist, but would love a safe place to talk with someone qualified. I've heard of apps like 7 Cups and Pacifica, was wondering if any of you knew other apps or websites where you can access a therapist. Thank you very much in advance.",axienty,app website access therapist hey guy going rough patch would like talk someone much social anxiety right go real live love safe place qualified heard apps cup pacifica wondering knew thank advance,0.24,Moderately Positive
"Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) for anxiety, depression, ptsd I'm in my second round of a DBT IOP group, 4 months total now. We meet 4xs a week and the session are 2.5 hours long.

I'm learning so many skills and new ways of thinking to help cope with my depression, social anxiety and ptsd. I love my therapist and the group gets along great. The hardest thing is putting what I learn to use. It's been a great experience overall and I would recommend DBT for almost anyone.


Having learned dbt this long I'm curious about the experiences of others. Anyone else here gotten help from DBT?",axienty,dialectical behavioral therapy dbt anxiety depression ptsd second round iop group month total meet x week session hour long learning many skill new way thinking help cope social love therapist get along great hardest thing putting learn use experience overall would recommend almost anyone learned curious others else gotten,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety around things that are unusual, rude, or weird on what others do, say, or how they look I don’t know if it’s just me but whenever I’m near someone or something going on that is considered weird or rude I get anxious. 

For example, I take the bus to get to and come back from school. In one of the buses I have to take there are sometimes sketchy looking people, like a person with tons of piercings on their face. Or even for their behaviour. Like if they’re talking a lot or swearing or talking in a gangster cool kid kind of way. If im around someone I’m pretty familiar with and they look like that or act that way, I’m fine, but if it’s a stranger I get anxious. What are some tips or ways to think about this situation to not feel anxious? Or is it valid? Maybe I think that I’m not safe around those people or that they might try and cause harm to me.",axienty,anxiety around thing unusual rude weird others say look know whenever near someone something going considered get anxious example take bus come back school one sometimes sketchy looking people like person ton piercings face even behaviour talking lot swearing gangster cool kid kind way im pretty familiar act fine stranger tip think situation feel valid maybe safe might try cause harm,0.15,Moderately Positive
"University makes my anxiety really bad, I'm too scared to ever ask professors for help which makes my grades worse, and I can't make any friends. All this makes my depression worse, so I end up lying in bed all the time because I'm either too depressed to go to class or having a panic attack. I know I'm going to end up failing the semester, and that's just making my anxiety worse. I' sorry for rambling, I just really don't know what to do, and I have no one to help me. Can anyone give me any advice please?",axienty,university make anxiety really bad scared ever ask professor help grade worse friend depression end lying bed time either depressed go class panic attack know going failing semester making sorry rambling one anyone give advice please,-0.53,Negative
"Any good tips for first date anxiety? I’ve been avoiding dating because of my anxiety disorder but finally said ‘fuck it, you can’t hold me back any longer!’

So what are your tips to keep myself calm and have a good time? I’m going on a walk around the city and am expecting it to last like an hour. I’m also aware that it might be weird/awkward  because it’s a tinder date and have never met them in person! ",axienty,good tip first date anxiety avoiding dating disorder finally said fuck hold back longer keep calm time going walk around city expecting last like hour also aware might weird awkward tinder never met person,0.0,Neutral
"Things I have cried over today - not doing my makeup well

- the kitchen being messy

- not knowing why i'm angry

- not being able to stop being angry

- got a small cut on my finger when trying to move a sub

- can't find super glue anywhere even though i know there are 3 tubes somewhere in the apartment ",axienty,thing cried today makeup well kitchen messy knowing angry able stop got small cut finger trying move sub find super glue anywhere even though know tube somewhere apartment,-0.02,Neutral
"I need advice. I have been having a really hard time with anxiety for a while now and it is getting worse. I don't know what to do about it anymore. It is becoming harder to hide it from people who I am close with and I hate to talk about it with anyone. I want to go get professional help, but I am afraid of getting it, because I fear of getting prescribed medicine and becoming to reliant on it or addicted to it over time. Any advice on what I should do would be helpful. Thanks. ",axienty,need advice really hard time anxiety getting worse know anymore becoming harder hide people close hate talk anyone want go get professional help afraid fear prescribed medicine reliant addicted would helpful thanks,-0.2,Moderately Negative
"Fixated on the way my feet feel Hi everyone,

So I've been going through a pretty rough bout of anxiety for the past few weeks. I woke up with some tingling in my hand, which then went to my feet. My hands feel fine now, and my feet don't tingle anymore. But I have this slight ""buzzing"" feeling in my feet whenever I'm at rest. This has been going on for about 2 weeks now, and it's driving me crazy. I can't focus on /anything/ else but my feet. I'm confident that these feelings are all my anxiety playing tricks on me, but you have to break the cycle to get it to stop.

My doc prescribed me Zoloft yesterday to help with my anxiety. Of course now I'm anxious about potential side effects and how long it'll take to work. I've been quite dependent on my parents for these few weeks and now I have panic attacks whenever I have to go back home to my own place.

If only I could get my mind off the feeling in my feet, I feel as though my anxiety would melt away! 

Any tips for dealing with this?",axienty,fixated way foot feel hi everyone going pretty rough bout anxiety past week woke tingling hand went fine tingle anymore slight buzzing feeling whenever rest driving crazy focus anything else confident playing trick break cycle get stop doc prescribed zoloft yesterday help course anxious potential side effect long take work quite dependent parent panic attack go back home place could mind though would melt away tip dealing,-0.02,Neutral
"Diagnoses.   Ive had a doctor diagnose me with GAD, PTSD, and bipolar type II.  A second tell me bipolar type II. and my 3rd and most recent doctor say OCD. I just need help on how to tell them what's going on and how to distinguish a hypomanic episode from a panic attack or OCD flair-up. I guess I'm just tired if not having a clear diagnoses. I've been on so many medications this last year, and none of them work. The best I've found was Seroquel XR and Zoloft. Could this be helpful to tell my doctor to better figure out what is going on with me?",axienty,diagnosis ive doctor diagnose gad ptsd bipolar type ii second tell rd recent say ocd need help going distinguish hypomanic episode panic attack flair guess tired clear many medication last year none work best found seroquel xr zoloft could helpful better figure,0.21,Moderately Positive
I was scared So last night I had I think the worst anxiety maybe panic attack ever. Time was passing by but I didn’t notice and I couldn’t sleep. I had this overwhelming fear that I was going to die and that somebody was going to steal my identity. I have no idea why I thought this but my life seemed to flash before my eyes as I thought someone was going to take it away from me. I told myself that I loved myself and that I didn’t want anyone to take my identity. I honestly felt like a crazy person. This year has been so shitty for me and I just want this anxiety to stop. If anyone has any idea why I would be having anxiety about this please send your love and support in the comments because I really need it. 💕,axienty,scared last night think worst anxiety maybe panic attack ever time passing notice sleep overwhelming fear going die somebody steal identity idea thought life seemed flash eye someone take away told loved want anyone honestly felt like crazy person year shitty stop would please send love support comment really need,0.11,Moderately Positive
"How to manage Anxiety in a plane? Hi Guys, 

I have this irrational fear that I’ll have an anxiety attack during the long haul (13 hrs) flight which is in 4 days. I have flown before as well, and never experienced that. 

But recently due to some changes in my life, I have developed anxiety. And now I have this fear. I am not claustrophobic and I don’t have a phobia of flying. Just the fear that if I get an anxiety attack what will I do!

I want advice and positive suggestions and advice that if it does happen, how to manage it? 
What are some coping mechanisms? ",axienty,manage anxiety plane hi guy irrational fear attack long haul hr flight day flown well never experienced recently due change life developed claustrophobic phobia flying get want advice positive suggestion happen coping mechanism,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"Forced to go to doctor to see about meds My university has this awesome program where you take a 1 hour seminar then get to travel to a different country for only $900. Im going to Scotland and Northern England.

Anywho, first it was an accomplishment that i actually signed up for it, seeing i barely know anyone in the class. And the univetsity requires health clearance to go abroad. 

I went for my physical and because I have been going to counseling since November for anxiety they wont clear me until i talk to my primary care about anxiety and depression meds. Ive honestly been thinking about meds since january because of panic attacks and depression but have not found the courage to go because of the stigma behind it all. What is your experience with meds? Im just so scared of them (mostly because my parents are very anti-mental health). I think im just  in denial that my anxiety is a problem even though i can clearly recognize it interferes with daily life. ",axienty,forced go doctor see med university awesome program take hour seminar get travel different country im going scotland northern england anywho first accomplishment actually signed seeing barely know anyone class univetsity requires health clearance abroad went physical counseling since november anxiety wont clear talk primary care depression ive honestly thinking january panic attack found courage stigma behind experience scared mostly parent anti mental think denial problem even though clearly recognize interferes daily life,0.15,Moderately Positive
"How to explain anxiety to someone who has never had it? Me and my ex girlfriend broke up because we fought a lot. I was insecure, I was protective and once there was a disagreement I feel like my anxiety sky rocketed the issue, I went from 0 to 100 so quickly and there was no calming me down until it was figured out. I know I was wrong a lot of the time.

I went to the doctor and I finally got the help I needed. I got put on medicine and I’ve been taking it for almost 8 months now. I do genuinely feel a lot better. 

Me and her reconnected, and it’s been good but she can’t move any farther forward because she still thinks that deep down that’s the person I am.  I try to explain to her that anxiety takes things that I know are wrong and makes them seem right. I never hit her or did anything like that, there’s no excuse for that. But I’m trying to explain to her that with anxiety you just can’t control certain things and it makes you think in a way you normally wouldn’t. I just don’t know how to explain that to her. She doesn’t think anxiety is that big of a deal and that if it was meant to be I would have given it my all the first time, when really I did give it my all I just wasn’t capable of a lot because of anxiety attacks and I don’t know how to explain that. The way I am now is so much different than before but she doesn’t believe me.

How do you explain it to someone who just doesn’t get it?",axienty,explain anxiety someone never ex girlfriend broke fought lot insecure protective disagreement feel like sky rocketed issue went quickly calming figured know wrong time doctor finally got help needed put medicine taking almost month genuinely better reconnected good move farther forward still think deep person try take thing make seem right hit anything excuse trying control certain way normally big deal meant would given first really give capable attack much different believe get,0.11,Moderately Positive
Is it my fault that I'm anxious? I blame myself a lot due to anxiety.,axienty,fault anxious blame lot due anxiety,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"Feeling anxious, can anyone hear my story and give advice for falling asleep? cant sleep at all Hi all,

I am not even quite sure if this is considered anxiety and i apologize whole-heartedly if its not and im just being a pussy. But heres my story:

Just some backstory, im 25 years old and i was born not being able to hear completely out of my left ear, but my right ear is very good and ive always been protective of it. About a month ago i had some vertigo in the middle of the night. woke up, started throwing up. I am almost certain that it was due to the fact that I was recovering from the flu and before i went to sleep i was shoveling snow for about an hour. After this, ive been scared shitless about multiple things. At first I was terrified that the vertigo meant that I had Menieres disease and that I would eventually lose hearing out of my right ear. This led to me not being able to sleep or eat properly. After a visit to the ENT doctor, and a hearing test, he reassured me that I didnt have Menieres and I was freaking out for no reason. I told him that i was scared about getting vertigo, but whats giving me ease is when he responded back with ""Im scared that theres going to be an earthquake and this building is going to fall down on me, but its unlikely and i wont lose sleep over it. I felt good and ""Normal"" for about a couple hours, until i started freaking out about getting vertigo again and still possibly getting Menieres disease after. Because of this I think my body is tricking me and giving me a slight headache and a very stiff neck. I felt very anxious at work, and im sorry for rambling on but this all stems down to whats going to happen at night before i go to sleep. My anxiety is the worst at night and although im dead exhausted i cant go to sleep because of the fear that ill wake up with vertigo again. I know for a fact that im just freaking myself out but I cant seem to have my body and mind give me ease. It feels like im walking around with cobwebs in my head that I cant clear. Does anyone have any good advice on how to sleep at night with anxiety?",axienty,feeling anxious anyone hear story give advice falling asleep cant sleep hi even quite sure considered anxiety apologize whole heartedly im pussy here backstory year old born able completely left ear right good ive always protective month ago vertigo middle night woke started throwing almost certain due fact recovering flu went shoveling snow hour scared shitless multiple thing first terrified meant meniere disease would eventually lose hearing led eat properly visit ent doctor test reassured didnt freaking reason told getting whats giving ease responded back there going earthquake building fall unlikely wont felt normal couple still possibly think body tricking slight headache stiff neck work sorry rambling stem happen go worst although dead exhausted fear ill wake know seem mind feel like walking around cobweb head clear,-0.03,Neutral
"Health Anxiety? Do I have MS? I am brand new to Reddit so I'm not sure if I'm breaking any rules by posting here but I think I need some help, I'll keep it relatively short. 

Before we start: I have pre existing bilateral tinnitus and used to crack my neck for a year. 

About a month ago when I was on Holiday in the great Australia, I cracked my neck and started feeling very dizzy, I panicked like sh*t and booked it to my Mums room where I started freaking out thinking I was going to die (spoiler: I didn't) I managed to get to sleep after a while and It went away when I woke up.

When I got home, I was getting freaked out about what could have happened and whether something else will happen. Later that night I had an anxiety attack and suddenly there was a higher level of tinnitus in my left ear accompanied by pressure. Went out to the GP and turned out I have fluid behind my eardrum (maybe from flight?) 

Another week passed and I was chilling in bed when suddenly I couldn't breath deeply, my chest felt restricted and I ended up yawning about 3 times a minute for a few days. Went to the GP again and tests came back normal, just a slightly overactive thyroid (or was it¿) Recently however, which is the point I'm making this post, I've started getting slight tremors in my hands during normal activity (not at rest so I know it isn't parkinsons), and most predominantly, slight pins and needles in my right limbs whenever I lay down accompanied with a bit of weakness too. And my mind feels blurry as hell, I keep forgetting short term things like an idea, or where I left something.

I have no f*cking idea what is going on, all signs point to early MS (worst case scenario i know) and I seriously couldn't live being paralysed (a symptom of severe MS) Maybe my anxiety is causing this? I don't know, but any sort of insight or second opinion into my paragraph of context would be absolutely amazing.

Many thanks - Max

PS. Eyes are another thing, I keep getting visual interference, very odd but it's like 'visual snow'. ",axienty,health anxiety m brand new reddit sure breaking rule posting think need help keep relatively short start pre existing bilateral tinnitus used crack neck year month ago holiday great australia cracked started feeling dizzy panicked like sh booked mum room freaking thinking going die spoiler managed get sleep went away woke got home getting freaked could happened whether something else happen later night attack suddenly higher level left ear accompanied pressure gp turned fluid behind eardrum maybe flight another week passed chilling bed breath deeply chest felt restricted ended yawning time minute day test came back normal slightly overactive thyroid recently however point making post slight tremor hand activity rest know parkinson predominantly pin needle right limb whenever lay bit weakness mind feel blurry hell forgetting term thing idea cking sign early worst case scenario seriously live paralysed symptom severe causing sort insight second opinion paragraph context would absolutely amazing many thanks max p eye visual interference odd snow,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Just need to get this off my chest (18/F) My birthday is on wensday, and I have no one to celebrate it with. I went home to visit my family this weekend and my mother didn’t even know what age I was turning. Furthermore, I recently broke off my closest friendship after realizing the relationship was toxic. I talk to other aquaintances but I always try to end the conversations as fast as possible, even though I’m really lonely. 

I’ve never self harmed before but I wanted too more than ever tonight. I’ve been doing so well with my anxiety up until now, but now I just feel burnt out. I had a panic attack during a lecture today, and I haven’t been able to eat much this past week. I have an apointment with my counselor tomorrow, and I don’t want to tell her how I feel because I think she’ll be disappointed in me for relapsing. And if she isn’t disapointed, I’m worried that she’ll think it’s a ploy to get more hours of counseling from the university since I was going to finish treatment soon. 

I don’t expect many people to read this, but I just really needed to say this somewhere.",axienty,need get chest birthday wensday one celebrate went home visit family weekend mother even know age turning furthermore recently broke closest friendship realizing relationship toxic talk aquaintances always try end conversation fast possible though really lonely never self harmed wanted ever tonight well anxiety feel burnt panic attack lecture today able eat much past week apointment counselor tomorrow want tell think disappointed relapsing disapointed worried ploy hour counseling university since going finish treatment soon expect many people read needed say somewhere,0.01,Neutral
"New Mediciation hi! i’ve been diagnosed with gad for like 2ish years. i was originally given prozac which is an ssri i think. my mom is like really against ssri’s but it was sort of a last resort thing ig, took them for a bit, stopped when i felt better, then it hit me again. ssris really didnt do anything horrid to me, just weight gain and drowsiness
so i went to the psychiatrist again, and got new medication because panic attacks and anxiety arent very fun
i got prescibed 10mg buspar for morning use for now, and then hydroxyzine for if i get a panic attack. can’t take benzos because i don’t want a risk of addiction and i’m a teenager who doesn’t want to rely on drugs 
anyways, took the buspar and idk nothing was bad, felt weird for like 45 minutes (my eyes felt odd? sort of alertish? it was a weird feeling i can’t explain) and i was sort of dizzy. then it wet away and everything was normal. not helping with how late im sleeping, though. today was nice though, only felt anxious like once or twice which is cool 

havent tried the hydroxyzine since i didnt have a panic attack today, heard it makes you super sleepy and relieved physical symptoms which is good (especially since the physical symptoms are the things that REALLY screw with me). i think its like 5 or 10 mg.

has anyone had any experiences with these medications? i’d love to hear them! ty

",axienty,new mediciation hi diagnosed gad like ish year originally given prozac ssri think mom really sort last resort thing ig took bit stopped felt better hit didnt anything horrid weight gain drowsiness went psychiatrist got medication panic attack anxiety arent fun prescibed mg buspar morning use hydroxyzine get take benzos want risk addiction teenager rely drug anyways idk nothing bad weird minute eye odd alertish feeling explain dizzy wet away everything normal helping late im sleeping though today nice anxious twice cool havent tried since heard make super sleepy relieved physical symptom good especially screw anyone experience love hear ty,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I can't stop the anxious feeling from happening and I can't make it go away, all I can do is wait until it passess I feel light-headed, my chest hurts, my stomach hurts, my hands are shaking. I can't stop this happening unless I never leave the house again. And look, I'm doing the right thing, I'm not running away, I'm facing the thing I'm scared of. But I just want to not be in pain, is that really such a bad thing? 


I can't make this feeling go away, because it's not just abstract anxiety, it's fear of an actual thing that's going to happen, and this fear won't go away until it's over. I'm trapped. ",axienty,stop anxious feeling happening make go away wait pass feel light headed chest hurt stomach hand shaking unless never leave house look right thing running facing scared want pain really bad abstract anxiety fear actual going happen trapped,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Medication without brain fog or weight gain? I’m a student and I binge eat when I’m anxious (basically always lately). It’s starting to interfere with my studies, so I’m planning to go on anxiety medication. Can anyone recommend a medication that causes neither brain fog nor weight gain? I know everyone has different side effects, but I could really use some ideas before I go to my doctor’s appointment. He doesn’t speak English (I’m studying abroad), so we won’t be able to have a conversation about any of this.

Tl;dr OP needs an anxiety medication recommendation that doesn’t cause brain fog or weight gain ",axienty,medication without brain fog weight gain student binge eat anxious basically always lately starting interfere study planning go anxiety anyone recommend cause neither know everyone different side effect could really use idea doctor appointment speak english studying abroad able conversation tl dr op need recommendation,0.08,Moderately Positive
"told my friend I love them in a poorly done way, they dont feel the same my chest hurts when I think about it",axienty,told friend love poorly done way dont feel chest hurt think,0.05,Moderately Positive
"UPDATE - Can Anxiety Lower Your Libido? Hey guys, I posted here roughly 2 years ago now and thought I would share an update. 

www.reddit.com/r/Anxiety/comments/4ris4v/can_antidepressants_lower_my_libido/

TLDR: 17 year old me had just started taking a small dosage of citalopram and completely lost my sex drive 

Now onto the update! 

I'm 19 now, still on citalopram (a higher dosage) and found a solution to my libido problem. I wasn't happy. I still suffer from anxiety and depression and still do get really bad days but overall I am much more confident in myself, I overcame several self esteem issues, fears and traumatic events during this time. I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years and met someone new and am in a much healthier relationship, I have friends I can count on, a job I love and I am pursuing a degree I love. 

My advice to people struggling right now? It will get better, I still get panic attacks, I still get anxious in certain situations but I handle it much better using breathing techniques and knowing when to walk away. Not everybody is the same and each person suffers anxiety differently, but we can all get through it. 

TLDR: still on meds, libido is back and life is better
",axienty,update anxiety lower libido hey guy posted roughly year ago thought would share tldr old started taking small dosage citalopram completely lost sex drive onto still higher found solution problem happy suffer depression get really bad day overall much confident overcame several self esteem issue fear traumatic event time broke boyfriend met someone new healthier relationship friend count job love pursuing degree advice people struggling right better panic attack anxious certain situation handle using breathing technique knowing walk away everybody person suffers differently med back life,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Why do I procrastinate to the point of having anxiety about it? I'm not sure what causes me to put off things, but put them off to the point where they actually affect me. It could be a bill payment, it could be sending someone an email. Anything... Anyone identify with this?",axienty,procrastinate point anxiety sure cause put thing actually affect could bill payment sending someone email anything anyone identify,0.25,Moderately Positive
"Guess ill die So I have severe anxiety and depersonalization disorder. I've made a lot of progress over many years but I still feel like a pathetic mess.

I just always come back to thinking I'm a piece of shit who can't do anything right and am afraid that people stop caring about me.

Something that happens during these anxiety attacks is that I just can't get myself out of it, it's hard to describe but it basically feels like a voice telling me not to seek help and to push everyone away and it takes hours or even days before I can get enough mental power to get into a mindset that lets me ask for help and help myself. I don't really know how to describe it other than someone who has me chained to a wall by all four limbs and I have to press a button with my foot but the button is on the ceiling and they slightly loosen the chains and I have to keep testing how far I can do but each time I test it it resets to the starting position. The button being a metaphor for helping myself.

Another thing that happens during that feeling is if I'm trying to convince myself that my best friend doesn't hate me, and even if they're telling me at the moment I just can't process it.

Does this happen to anyone else? because I can't find anything on it and I need to find a way to deal with it. 

",axienty,guess ill die severe anxiety depersonalization disorder made lot progress many year still feel like pathetic mess always come back thinking piece shit anything right afraid people stop caring something happens attack get hard describe basically voice telling seek help push everyone away take hour even day enough mental power mindset let ask really know someone chained wall four limb press button foot ceiling slightly loosen chain keep testing far time test reset starting position metaphor helping another thing feeling trying convince best friend hate moment process happen anyone else find need way deal,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"Advice on Sleeping with Anxiety? I know, I should take her to dinner first (bah-dum-tiss!). But in all seriousness, I find my anxiety worst at night and it's very hard, rather, almost impossible to fall asleep naturally. So I've been using gravol for the past few weeks.

I have racing thoughts at night and usually bad dreams. I might have undiagnosed PTSD (definitely not sure yet) but I am going through trauma from abuse from my mother whom I thankfully am not living with or around. So despite journaling, deep breathing and watching fun movies, I'm still a wreck of a nervous Nancy before bed.

My question is, what helps you guys sleep when your brain is wild with fearful, sometimes angry thoughts? I personally don't want to rely on gravol forever. I've tried melatonin but it unfortunately doesn't help at all.

TL;DR: What do you suggest to help a very anxious person sleep instead of gravol?",axienty,advice sleeping anxiety know take dinner first bah dum ti seriousness find worst night hard rather almost impossible fall asleep naturally using gravol past week racing thought usually bad dream might undiagnosed ptsd definitely sure yet going trauma abuse mother thankfully living around despite journaling deep breathing watching fun movie still wreck nervous nancy bed question help guy sleep brain wild fearful sometimes angry personally want rely forever tried melatonin unfortunately tl dr suggest anxious person instead,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"SSRIs not working prescribed wellbutrin for anxiety Hey r/anxiety this is my first post here
I've been dealing with anxiety for most of my life but it has severely worsened during my time in college. First I want to mention that I go to therapy and that has helped immensely however I still struggle with acute and general anxiety sometimes quite severely.  I've tried a variety of medications but have had problems with all of them. For starters benzodiazepines work wonders for me, however I have absolutely no self control with them and have wound up abusing them every single time I've been around them which has seriously impacted my life negatively and lead to rebound anxiety which likely worsened my situation in the end. I've tried a variety of SSRIs (lexapro, Paxil, zoloft...) and they have somewhat helped my anxiety but have all come with unbearable side effects (difficulty sleeping, blurred vision, allergic reaction to the lexapro, just to list a few.) I was prescribed hydroxyzine for acute panic attacks which does work, however I can't take it at work, school, or really any time I need to think because it totally zonks me out and makes me want to sleep. I smoke weed regularly and it definitely helps me quite a bit however it's currently illegal in my state and I haven't been able to get a medical card which makes ingestion expensive and difficult. I have just recently discovered phenibut, and it does wonders for my anxiety! Unfortunately you can only take it twice a week maximum due to rapid tolerance buildup but it got me thinking. Phenibut works on the GABA a and GABA b receptors so after doing some research I discovered gabapentin is also sometimes prescribed for anxiety. I mentioned this to my doctor and he agreed it's worth looking into but he told me the down side to gabapentin is it also builds tolerance which can definitely be an issue. So after all that he prescribed me Wellbutrin to try out before considering gabapentin. From what I've read on reddit it seems not many people had luck with Wellbutrin for anxiety but I'm going to keep an open mind.

Does anyone here have experience with Wellbutrin and anxiety?

Also does anyone have any experience with gabapentin and or advice/warnings? I know it's not a commonly prescribed med for anxiety but I think it has a high chance of working for me considering there really aren't many options left to consider.

Is there any drugs similar to phenibut/gabapentin that might serve as a better alternative?

thank you!",axienty,ssri working prescribed wellbutrin anxiety hey first post dealing life severely worsened time college want mention go therapy helped immensely however still struggle acute general sometimes quite tried variety medication problem starter benzodiazepine work wonder absolutely self control wound abusing every single around seriously impacted negatively lead rebound likely situation end lexapro paxil zoloft somewhat come unbearable side effect difficulty sleeping blurred vision allergic reaction list hydroxyzine panic attack take school really need think totally zonks make sleep smoke weed regularly definitely help bit currently illegal state able get medical card ingestion expensive difficult recently discovered phenibut unfortunately twice week maximum due rapid tolerance buildup got thinking gaba receptor research gabapentin also mentioned doctor agreed worth looking told build issue try considering read reddit seems many people luck going keep open mind anyone experience advice warning know commonly med high chance option left consider drug similar might serve better alternative thank,0.0,Neutral
"Has anybody had any long-term success with Propranolol (Beta-blockers) long term? Propranolol is brilliant for me when it comes to the physical aspect of chronic anxiety. 
However a psychiatrist told me today that some people find that the drug has diminishing returns if you use it regularly. 
I’m hoping to get another psychiatrist’s opinion soon, but this is the first time I’ve heard that one can build a tolerance to Propranolol. It’s a real bummer if it turns out that I can’t use it regularly. It’s the best medication I’ve tried, by a mile. 

Thanks. ",axienty,anybody long term success propranolol beta blocker brilliant come physical aspect chronic anxiety however psychiatrist told today people find drug diminishing return use regularly hoping get another opinion soon first time heard one build tolerance real bummer turn best medication tried mile thanks,0.31,Moderately Positive
"Severe fear of rabies? I've got pretty extreme rabies anxiety that has resulted in my lying to get the vaccine twice. The first time was probably 3 years ago and I told the hospital I found a bat in my room and got the whole series of shots. The second time was like 6 months ago I lied again and got just the once vaccine booster type shot. So logically I know I'm immune, which helped for a bit. 

A week or so ago my friend put a dead cat he found on the street in front of his house in the back of his truck to take it to the animal shelter to get it scanned. It had been run over by a car. It had been dead for a few hours. His dog seemed to lick the spot where it's head had been (it got hit on the head). An hour or so later maybe the dog came up and her mouth touched my knee and was very wet ( I think she had just drank water cause it was also very cold) it was through my pants and there were no cuts on my knee. 

I'm still obsessing so bad and am really trying to figure out how to get another vaccine. ",axienty,severe fear rabies got pretty extreme anxiety resulted lying get vaccine twice first time probably year ago told hospital found bat room whole series shot second like month lied booster type logically know immune helped bit week friend put dead cat street front house back truck take animal shelter scanned run car hour dog seemed lick spot head hit later maybe came mouth touched knee wet think drank water cause also cold pant cut still obsessing bad really trying figure another,-0.04,Neutral
"How to break through the mental block? Hey guys. Im a 23 year old woman who has struggled with anxiety since my early teens. Although I've come a long way since then and I am pretty confident in myself, at work/Uni I find myself shutting off due to this instinctive fear, kind of like a 'fight or flight' response as if something bad is going to happen. Which I know isn't the case. I find myself sweating and nervous in some social situations and I honestly don't know why? 

So do you guys have any tips to helping overcome this?",axienty,break mental block hey guy im year old woman struggled anxiety since early teen although come long way pretty confident work uni find shutting due instinctive fear kind like fight flight response something bad going happen know case sweating nervous social situation honestly tip helping overcome,0.1,Moderately Positive
"My laptop is soaked and I'm having an anxiety attack now Okay it isn't soaked, i splashed a tablespoon or so of sugary beer on my trackpad and keyboard, dried it immediately, turned it back on for a minute stupidly, turned it back off, sprayed the keyboard with canned air and am letting it dry upside down now. I know its very minimal and I did almost everything right but I can't breathe help. Will it be okay? Sorry if this is the wrong sub to ask this in but I've had this before maybe it can help someone in my position later on.",axienty,laptop soaked anxiety attack okay splashed tablespoon sugary beer trackpad keyboard dried immediately turned back minute stupidly sprayed canned air letting dry upside know minimal almost everything right breathe help sorry wrong sub ask maybe someone position later,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Beta blockers and Hair Loss I was prescribed propranolol (a beta blocker) about 6 months ago.  I was taking an average of 40mg/day for about 2 months.  I reduced this to an average of 20mg/day 4 months ago, then 10mg/day two weeks after that, and then completely stopped for about 3 months.  I was having a lot of anxiety earlier, and was thinking about taking 10mg of the beta blocker.  

Does anyone have any experience with occasional beta blocker use?  And/Or, does anyone know how much of an effect occasional beta blocker use has versus regular use?  Any personal anecdotes are very much welcome.  Thanks!

(Oh, and, for those that are looking for information to help them, my hair loss has definitely decreased since I stopped taking the beta blocker, although I also stopped taking some other medications as well, which may have contributed to the hair loss as well.)
",axienty,beta blocker hair loss prescribed propranolol month ago taking average mg day reduced two week completely stopped lot anxiety earlier thinking anyone experience occasional use know much effect versus regular personal anecdote welcome thanks oh looking information help definitely decreased since although also medication well may contributed,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Nervous about getting first job I'm 21 years old and in community college, I have a habit putting off applying for part-time jobs since I graduated high school. My goal is to send in applications this weekend, I just feel weird being 21 and applying for a first job.",axienty,nervous getting first job year old community college habit putting applying part time since graduated high school goal send application weekend feel weird,0.0,Neutral
"Are there any other teenagers who have been to a therapist for anxiety? I've known I've had anxiety since I was twelve. My mother tried to get me help, my father wouldn't let her- he doesn't believe in mental illness of any kind, he says it's something made up that you just have to get over and stop being a pussy, basically. My mother passed away last year- and this past December, I ended up in the emergency room over what I could only assume was a heart attack or some shit. Dramatic? maybe, but I thought I was having heart problems. It turned out to be a prolonged anxiety attack, they diagnosed me with an anxiety disorder, and gave me a prescription for Ativan. (lorazepam, close to Xanax). It made me depressed, and I only had ten pills in the first place. I could never finish them, I couldn't deal with how disoriented they made me feel. I got a job in February, my first panic attack there was when they put me on front cash register. There were maybe seven people, and suddenly I couldn't breathe. I felt like the room was spinning, and I thought I was going to pass out. They moved me back after that, and I knew either I was going to have to see a therapist, or I was going to lose my job. skip to my third panic attack, and that was it for me. I told them I needed to go home, and then I quit. It happens when I'm alone, sometimes for no reason. I could be cleaning, or painting my nails, or watching a show, or trying to sleep- and suddenly, I feel like I have to panic. I can't stay still, I feel like I can't breathe. It happens more when there are people- I feel like someone's staring at me, or judging me, and I have to panic. the room starts to spin, and I need to leave. I'm sixteen, and because of my age, I'm scared to see a therapist. I'm worried they won't take me seriously, and won't help me. But I need help, I can't deal with this anymore. it's killing me. Has any teenager here seen a therapist for anxiety? how was your experience doing so?",axienty,teenager therapist anxiety known since twelve mother tried get help father let believe mental illness kind say something made stop pussy basically passed away last year past december ended emergency room could assume heart attack shit dramatic maybe thought problem turned prolonged diagnosed disorder gave prescription ativan lorazepam close xanax depressed ten pill first place never finish deal disoriented feel got job february panic put front cash register seven people suddenly breathe felt like spinning going pas moved back knew either see lose skip third told needed go home quit happens alone sometimes reason cleaning painting nail watching show trying sleep stay still someone staring judging start spin need leave sixteen age scared worried take seriously anymore killing seen experience,-0.04,Neutral
Don’t know how to make college friends I have been at college for 1 semester so far. I have only one really close friend at my college but I really want to have more friends. I don’t know when or how to approach people to become friends with them. Nobody invites me to things because of my lack of friends. Any idea when to talk to other college students and how? I find myself in my dorm room a lot being lonely.,axienty,know make college friend semester far one really close want approach people become nobody invite thing lack idea talk student find dorm room lot lonely,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety at work Hi all,

Made a throwaway for this, because you never know, right?

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So, where do I start... I'm sorry if this is all over the place, but I need to vent and kinda write down how I feel and what issues I have.

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I've always felt like I was different than others. Social cues, etc, were never really obvious to me. I tend to overthink things, I don't get all jokes (I rarely make jokes because of this reason. Or maybe I'm just not funny?). Although I can joke around with my best friends...

But in general I'm doing fine I guess? I think most people like me, although I've heard – when having those drunken conversations with friends and they become completely honest – that I'm definitely kinda... ""weird"" is how they described me. As in, I'm not super ""normal"", and that's fine, but not everyone can handle that or can get along with me because of that.

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I definitely feel that: eye contact is not super easy for me with some people, especially not with strangers. Heck, I've been working at my new job for 10 months and I still have issues in keeping eye contact with my boss. It's super weird and kind of annoying... I get super self conscious about it and I start noticing my facial features. It's weird. We get along fine and I don't think he really notices it, but I find it annoying.  


Which brings me to the next topic, and is actually the reason why I made this thread.

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Now, I work together with my boss – face to face – (it's retail, but we're focusing on the online at the moment). The others are all doing the retail jobs: sales, administration, etc, typical retail job. I don't come into contact with the others a lot. I do get along with most of them, but to be fair: I'm the youngest of them all, and they really don't have anything interesting to say. That might sound arrogant, but seriously: you won't have any intelligent conversations with them (except with my boss). They've all been in retail for years and they sound miserable – plus they only complain and complain. I'm just there to work and build my career with the online stuff, I don't give a rats ass about making friends with them.   


Anyway,  there's this one guy (he's around 50 years old, I'm 27ish) that keeps making jokes. Teasingly. Like, at my previous job there was also this one guy. Making jokes about you, trying to get under your skin. I know he's joking, and I know that the right thing is to ""joke back"", but it's SUPER exhausting for me. Like, I'm busy with other stuff, I don't have time to make jokes or to think of a great comeback. And because I'm more of an introverted, serious guy, he probably feeds on it. He probably thinks my hesitance or lack of ""making a joke"" is some sign of weakness or something? It's just exhausting and I don't know what to do. There are a million things I'd like to say, but frankly, I don't think it's worth it? I just don't want to be offensive.

There's also this new woman (40-ish) that joined, and she's also seeing my friendliness and kindness as a weakness, and I don't know what to do to make this obvious. I've tried ignoring her requests but it doesn't really help? I'm starting to think she's just too dumb to understand it.  


The thing is, I don't know if I'm overreacting or if I would be in the right to just tell her to fuck off and stop talking to me like I'm a kid or her employee or something. I really want to tell that guy to just stop joking because he's not funny and to me, he seems like a miserable piece of shit trying to sound superior.  


But again, I'm not sure if I would be overreacting.  


This post is all over the place, typed on mobile, but I hope you can kind of grasp what I'm trying to say. Not sure if this fits in anxiety either. I do have other questions concerning anxiety, but this thread would get too big.

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​",axienty,anxiety work hi made throwaway never know right start sorry place need vent kinda write feel issue always felt like different others social cue etc really obvious tend overthink thing get joke rarely make reason maybe funny although around best friend general fine guess think people heard drunken conversation become completely honest definitely weird described super normal everyone handle along eye contact easy especially stranger heck working new job month still keeping bos kind annoying self conscious noticing facial feature notice find brings next topic actually thread together face retail focusing online moment sale administration typical come lot fair youngest anything interesting say might sound arrogant seriously intelligent except year miserable plus complain build career stuff give rat as making anyway one guy old ish keep teasingly previous also trying skin joking back exhausting busy time great comeback introverted serious probably feed hesitance lack sign weakness something million frankly worth want offensive woman joined seeing friendliness kindness tried ignoring request help starting dumb understand overreacting would tell fuck stop talking kid employee seems piece shit superior sure post typed mobile hope grasp fit either question concerning big thanks reading,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Wtf is happening to me? Let me first say that I definitely suffer from moderate anxiety, but this is just weird and I’m not sure if it’s related or a whole separate issue. 

So...lately, while driving...I’ll suddenly start feeling chills...then I’ll get hot...then back to chills again. Then, I get lightheaded, like I’m fading away and about to pass out. Ugh...it’s such a strange feeling and I absolutely hate it.  Of course, I start freaking out and check my pulse and it’s always racing like crazy. I’ll pull over, take some deep breaths, get out of my car...chug water or Gatorade and after a few minutes, I’ll feel fine enough to continue driving. 

What’s strange, is that it comes out of nowhere and only when I’m behind the wheel. It happens during the day and at night...while I’m on the highway or side roads.  It doesn’t happen everyday, but at least once every couple of weeks. 

Is it anxiety? It’s scaring me as I’m on the road a lot due to the distance between my home and job. I’ve never passed out, but feel like I’ve been pretty close...although I don’t know what passing out actually feels like.

I’ve gone to the E.R. and had multiple doctor and cardiologist visits and tests...and so far, nothing has been found. 

Has anyone else ever experienced this? I’m tired of worrying and need answers.",axienty,wtf happening let first say definitely suffer moderate anxiety weird sure related whole separate issue lately driving suddenly start feeling chill get hot back lightheaded like fading away pas ugh strange absolutely hate course freaking check pulse always racing crazy pull take deep breath car chug water gatorade minute feel fine enough continue come nowhere behind wheel happens day night highway side road happen everyday least every couple week scaring lot due distance home job never passed pretty close although know passing actually gone multiple doctor cardiologist visit test far nothing found anyone else ever experienced tired worrying need answer,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Books to Share Hi! In an effort to minimize anxiety around my house, I’m trying to downsize and be more minimal. I’m finally going through all my books and have several on the topics of anxiety, mindfulness, etc that I would like to send to someone who would like to read them. I’d prefer to just send them to one person in bulk to minimize costs. If you’d like them, let me know and I’ll ship them out this week. Thanks!",axienty,book share hi effort minimize anxiety around house trying downsize minimal finally going several topic mindfulness etc would like send someone read prefer one person bulk cost let know ship week thanks,0.02,Neutral
"Do I need talked down, or am I being rational? I struggle with suspicion of my spouse when my anxiety gets bad. We have a great relationship, but I occasionally suspect she's hiding things from me. I don't think she'd ever physically cheat, but I'm becoming increasingly suspicious that she's hiding a social media affair. 
She's on Instagram more often, and for far longer, than i can imagine the number of people she follows justifies, and she gets on when she tells me she's doing other things. 
On one hand, i want to do the right thing and just trust her, on the other hand,  I feel like if I just snooped it would likely prove my suspicions wrong and put my mind at ease.",axienty,need talked rational struggle suspicion spouse anxiety get bad great relationship occasionally suspect hiding thing think ever physically cheat becoming increasingly suspicious social medium affair instagram often far longer imagine number people follows justifies tell one hand want right trust feel like snooped would likely prove wrong put mind ease,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I think my SSRI profoundly damaged me Hi. I used Zoloft for severe acute anxiety (2-3 months of absolute hell) 3 different times in my life between ages 18-20. We all know the sexual side effects (ED, anorgasmia etc). Every time I used it and came off I tapered and no side effects were left over. Until this time. I’ve been off the meds for 3 or 4 months. Since then I have gotten pretty severe erectile dysfunction, a general numb feeling in my genitals, destroyed libido, etc. I looked up possible causes and apparently there’s this thing called PSSD that happens sometimes permanently and I think I have it. this alone has caused my anxiety to spike to high levels and for the last week I haven’t thought of anything besides that fact that I’m broken by what was supposed to help me. I just traded one terrible thing for another. I’m not sure why I’m posting, coping strategy I guess. But it sucks, I feel fucking awful and I’m not sure what I’ll do. If you've gone through anything similar it would mean a lot if you told your story. Sexuality is such a central component of what makes you who you are, to have that stripped is beyond terrifying. Thanks for listening everybody, and think twice before a doctor pushes pills on you.",axienty,think ssri profoundly damaged hi used zoloft severe acute anxiety month absolute hell different time life age know sexual side effect ed anorgasmia etc every came tapered left med since gotten pretty erectile dysfunction general numb feeling genitals destroyed libido looked possible cause apparently thing called pssd happens sometimes permanently alone caused spike high level last week thought anything besides fact broken supposed help traded one terrible another sure posting coping strategy guess suck feel fucking awful gone similar would mean lot told story sexuality central component make stripped beyond terrifying thanks listening everybody twice doctor push pill,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"What do you have going on this week that's giving you anxiety? Lets talk about it, and see if we can help each other find ways to relieve our anxious minds :)   

We can do this together - you're not alone in this <3

ri0t",axienty,going week giving anxiety let talk see help find way relieve anxious mind together alone ri,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"Boyfriends anxiety Me and my boyfriend have been together nearly 5 months. I haven’t got a good home life, I have a very verbally abusive relationship with my parents and it’s toxic. My boyfriend suffers with very bad anxiety and depression, he is often disconnected from everything and overthinks himself into panic attacks. Medication isn’t working for him and he wants to start therapy but his family will make his home life harder and be pissy with him over it. I love him with all my heart and owe him everything, I want him in my life forever. Our relationship is incredibly intimate and serious for our age. We are each other’s worlds and it’s not fake love. It’s so strong. His anxiety is causing me anxiety though, and I feel so hopeless. It obviously doesn’t make home life better either. I don’t know how to help his anxiety and make it better. What are the best tips to beat anxiety or control it (not how to support him bc I know everything like that thank you ❤️)

I’m not leaving him, that’s not a discussion. I just need to know some solutions to help his anxiety and also know If there’s any hope for us. He’s only 18, we’re so young but madly in love",axienty,boyfriend anxiety together nearly month got good home life verbally abusive relationship parent toxic suffers bad depression often disconnected everything overthinks panic attack medication working want start therapy family make harder pissy love heart owe forever incredibly intimate serious age world fake strong causing though feel hopeless obviously better either know help best tip beat control support bc like thank leaving discussion need solution also hope u young madly,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Just quit job, I have no plan, help :( I quit a good job a year and a half ago because of anxiety and depression. I didn't realize it at the time though, and blamed my issues on the job.
I've been working part time for the past year and just quit four days ago. I'm freaking out because I have no plan and feel like I can't ever fit into our work environments. 
My boss blamed me for something I didn't do, he was doing that fairly regularly...i felt like I was always trying to explain myself. Well he did it again with something that was clearly not my fault, yet I apologized as usual...the next day he texted a co-worker for her to tell me I need to make a 150km round trip delivery using my own car. He should have asked me directly. I said no because I had other things I needed to get done for him, and I wasn't happy with the situation and how he was directing me as if he owned the use of my car. He called right away and got upset saying I had 3 weeks to get work done and why hadn't I got it done? So I went over all the other things he asks me to do that I say yes to and push aside my true job responsibilities...he sort of got it, but i said I didn't think it was working out anymore because I frequently feel like I'm doing things wrong even though I'm trying, and the atmosphere of unorganized chaos that he creates....his response was a rude ""Oh, you can't handle it?""
So I said I think I'm done, worked my butt off to finish  things so he wouldn't be struggling to get them done, and now I don't think I'm going in tomorrow? I just don't know what to do? I keep quitting things, but I feel like life is just trying to crush me at work.
I'm so tired of feeling crushed. I'm a introverted person, not super shy but anxious...i really can't believe I quit again, but is being treated like you're small and stupid at work a reason to quit? 


",axienty,quit job plan help good year half ago anxiety depression realize time though blamed issue working part past four day freaking feel like ever fit work environment bos something fairly regularly felt always trying explain well clearly fault yet apologized usual next texted co worker tell need make km round trip delivery using car asked directly said thing needed get done happy situation directing owned use called right away got upset saying week went asks say yes push aside true responsibility sort think anymore frequently wrong even atmosphere unorganized chaos creates response rude oh handle worked butt finish struggling going tomorrow know keep quitting life crush tired feeling crushed introverted person super shy anxious really believe treated small stupid reason,-0.03,Neutral
Waiting to hear back I got through an on-site interview for a job last Thursday and I think it went well. My would-be-boss said I should even hear from him the next day or this week. he even mentioned how new hires get treated to dinner as a tradition and even asked if I would be available one day before a possible start date in April. Now it’s Thursday and they told my recruiter that it’s between me and another candidate... this wait is killing me. I was going to follow up but apparently I’m supposed to go through the recruiter? I’m going insane I can’t even think of applying to other jobs. I was supposed to have an informational interview today and I totally screwed that up by providing my phone number with one digit off. Fuck fuck fuck what the hell do I do? What the hell can I do? What the hell am I supposed to do?,axienty,waiting hear back got site interview job last thursday think went well would bos said even next day week mentioned new hire get treated dinner tradition asked available one possible start date april told recruiter another candidate wait killing going follow apparently supposed go insane applying informational today totally screwed providing phone number digit fuck hell,-0.08,Moderately Negative
Guanfacine? Anyone try this for anxiety/racing thoughts? ,axienty,guanfacine anyone try anxiety racing thought,0.0,Neutral
"Accidentally staring at people, then getting paranoid about them thinking you are staring at them. Then you end up staring at them to see if they realized that you were staring at them, and they did realize it. So now you made someone uncomfortable, and then I continue to stare again to see if I've stopped making them uncomfortable. Lol, anxiety is a fucking bitch. ",axienty,accidentally staring people getting paranoid thinking end see realized realize made someone uncomfortable continue stare stopped making lol anxiety fucking bitch,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"High anxiety about losing my job due to health issues. I used to have just mild anxiety. I was still productive and didn't have problems being in public or talking to others.  
Then I started having crazy heart issues. I ignored it since they were fleeting. I started getting stomach pains. Ignored it. I rarely missed work so no big deal.   
Then it happened. I was just relaxing and felt a sharp pain in my stomach. My heart went so fast that I started sweating, my ears felt clogged, I was dizzy. I felt like I suddenly had the worst flu ever all at once. And I passed out and went into convulsions. And it started happening once or twice a year. Took me 5 yrs to get a doctor that would help but just diagnosed me with the common faint. Said it happened to him after staying up all night and drinking red bull. I tried to emphasize I wasn't putting much stress on my body and got a shrug. He tested me for all sorts of things but it came back ok.  
I started getting better but always still feel close to passing out sometimes. Only reason I got better was I stopped living a normal life so I could lay on the floor anytime I want.   
The only thing I left for was work. But then I started getting vertigo that varied from extreme to rocking but was always there. I was throwing up all the time. Everyday was torture. Then I started getting panic attacks every time I felt anything wrong with my body. I started hitting curbs when driving.  
Those we're diagnosed as migraines. I was put on an ssri but it made me so much worse I missed an entire week of work getting episodes of what felt like shock.   
Now I'm on a TCA which helps just a bit but has made my fainting issue worse.   
I am in so much debt that I'm at the point I just can't afford this anymore. Yes I've done all I could to mitigate bills.   
I can't stop thinking about what I'm going to do if I lose my job. They're accommodating me to the point no other job would hire me in this shape. I don't really have any solid diagnoses. I don't even think I qualify for disability because there would be no way for me to continue seeing a doctor (which is required during) if I have no job. I'm so young too (32).  What the hell do people do in these situations??
",axienty,high anxiety losing job due health issue used mild still productive problem public talking others started crazy heart ignored since fleeting getting stomach pain rarely missed work big deal happened relaxing felt sharp went fast sweating ear clogged dizzy like suddenly worst flu ever passed convulsion happening twice year took yr get doctor would help diagnosed common faint said staying night drinking red bull tried emphasize putting much stress body got shrug tested sort thing came back ok better always feel close passing sometimes reason stopped living normal life could lay floor anytime want left vertigo varied extreme rocking throwing time everyday torture panic attack every anything wrong hitting curb driving migraine put ssri made worse entire week episode shock tca bit fainting debt point afford anymore yes done mitigate bill stop thinking going lose accommodating hire shape really solid diagnosis even think qualify disability way continue seeing required young hell people situation,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety Symptoms, Anyone Else? Hi! I have been struggling in college, it is almost the end of my second year and I never really made friends. This has affected me a lot. I have been struggling with depression, anxiety and manic crying episodes. Earlier this year I worked hard to be confident, and not care what anyone things about me. All of a sudden my anxiety is back and with symptoms that is making me more conscious as ever! (Gross I'm sorry) I have had mucus in my throat for months now, I think it is because I am nervous, and am so not used to talking to anyone that when I do encounter a conversation I am a nervous wreck with a scratchy throat barely able to utter out words! When I hear myself respond I feel like I make no sense. I always used to eat lunch in the cafeteria by myself, but now I eat so fast I get a stomach ache. I feel like people think ""She is always alone,"" ""Does she even have any friends,""  ""I've never seen her at parties."" I just eat in 2 minutes and run out of there as fast as I can because I now hate eating by myself and feel like people are watching me. Does anyone have any tips, or experience in overcoming related situations? ",axienty,anxiety symptom anyone else hi struggling college almost end second year never really made friend affected lot depression manic cry episode earlier worked hard confident care thing sudden back making conscious ever gross sorry mucus throat month think nervous used talking encounter conversation wreck scratchy barely able utter word hear respond feel like make sense always eat lunch cafeteria fast get stomach ache people alone even seen party minute run hate eating watching tip experience overcoming related situation,-0.03,Neutral
"Extreme Anxiety For the past 5 days I woke up with the most extreme anxiety I have ever felt before. It's caused me to vomit and go into hyperventalation which made my muscles all lock up. I went to the er the first time and they gave me adavan which helped ig. They sent me home with 25mg vistaral and I can only take one every 8 hours and it doesn't help even the tiniest bit. I even tried taking my gfs .25 Xanax on top of it and I still can't seem to get out of this loop of anxiety and panicking. Any suggestions appreciated.
",axienty,extreme anxiety past day woke ever felt caused vomit go hyperventalation made muscle lock went er first time gave adavan helped ig sent home mg vistaral take one every hour help even tiniest bit tried taking gfs xanax top still seem get loop panicking suggestion appreciated,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I'm ""officially depression"" free after 4 years! After being diagnosed with depression back in 2015...With sleepless nights, panic attacks & severe anxiety, I got stuck with Fluoxetine...

I was cured of the symptoms after 1 year, however i was surprised that my body was now a slave and dependent of this anti-depressant. My doctor advised to reduce the dosage gradually...

Here i am after 3 years, i can say i am free of that substance, which at some point was th source of my anxiety since it reminded of the dark days, and i was still chained to it.

I can't deny the fact that I've noticed some effects since I've stopped, but the feeling of being finally ""pill free"" tops it all. 

I can only say to anyone reading this post to stay strong, i can understand it's not easy at all, but remember you're not alone. I hope i gave some positive vibes to someone out there...",axienty,officially depression free year diagnosed back sleepless night panic attack severe anxiety got stuck fluoxetine cured symptom however surprised body slave dependent anti depressant doctor advised reduce dosage gradually say substance point th source since reminded dark day still chained deny fact noticed effect stopped feeling finally pill top anyone reading post stay strong understand easy remember alone hope gave positive vibe someone,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Just moved into an apartment and derealization set in So I've had anxiety for about 3 years now but it was mild for about two years then a year ago it got pretty crazy. I had my first panic attack a year ago and I ended up get poor sleep or no sleep for three months straight. Then I got gastritis and became super concerned about my health. Flashforward a bit and I'm getting back on track and then I lose this job I had lined up after college and my girlfriend breaks up with me. From there I've kinda been on an emotional rollercoaster. I worked a shit job for months where they didn't give me any work to do so I'd just live in my head all day and I'd go home to my parents house and just chill on my PC all night. I went out with friends and such but not very often, not because of anxiety just because people were still busy with school and I graduated. So I finally said okay I have anxiety so I picked up a self help book which I'll admit I've been slacking on but initially it helped me a lot. So everything was going pretty good then yesterday I moved about 2 hours away from home for a new job I'll be starting and as soon as my family left from moving me in I just felt like it wasn't real. I felt like I wasn't supposed to be here and I didn't know why I was here and I couldn't really rationalize being here for 12 months because it just didn't seem real. I've gotten good about letting myself have feelings of anxiety and letting them pass but I'm just afraid of these feelings persisting and never letting me feel comfortable in this new space and such. Or I'm afraid of my sleeping issues returning and being to anxious to sleep in a new place. I guess is it normal to feel things like this when you make a huge change while dealing with anxiety to begin with?",axienty,moved apartment derealization set anxiety year mild two ago got pretty crazy first panic attack ended get poor sleep three month straight gastritis became super concerned health flashforward bit getting back track lose job lined college girlfriend break kinda emotional rollercoaster worked shit give work live head day go home parent house chill pc night went friend often people still busy school graduated finally said okay picked self help book admit slacking initially helped lot everything going good yesterday hour away new starting soon family left moving felt like real supposed know really rationalize seem gotten letting feeling pas afraid persisting never feel comfortable space sleeping issue returning anxious place guess normal thing make huge change dealing begin,0.09,Moderately Positive
Alcohol and Anxiety I usually have one drink during the work week and a few on Friday night Saturday night and Sunday nights. I’m slowing down for health reasons (I know it’s not great for you and I’m trying to lose those stubborn five pounds) I was wondering if anyone has experienced less anxiety when they stopped drinking as much ? ,axienty,alcohol anxiety usually one drink work week friday night saturday sunday slowing health reason know great trying lose stubborn five pound wondering anyone experienced le stopped drinking much,0.39,Moderately Positive
"Afraid I might fail grad school Hello. I am in a grad program for CSD. I am taking 7-week prerequisite courses before I start real grad courses since I didn’t major in CSD during undergrad. I had to take an 8-week remediation class because I did not earn a high enough grade in one of my classes to meet certain standards. 
I just took my test for the remediation class and I blanked on half the questions. I need an 80% to pass. Otherwise I need to repeat the course. 
I think I might be reacting irrationally since this doesn’t necessarily mean I’m going to fail out of the program.  I am really afraid of failing and disappointing everybody. I’m also embarrassed that I’ve been struggling so much. 
I’m just really nervous and making myself sick thinking about all the things that can go wrong. I just wanted to post here to vent and see if anyone can relate. Thanks for reading if you got this far. ",axienty,afraid might fail grad school hello program csd taking week prerequisite course start real since major undergrad take remediation class earn high enough grade one meet certain standard took test blanked half question need pas otherwise repeat think reacting irrationally necessarily mean going really failing disappointing everybody also embarrassed struggling much nervous making sick thinking thing go wrong wanted post vent see anyone relate thanks reading got far,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"Like a breath of really scary fresh air I just got off the phone with a therapist's assistant. I have known I needed therapy for literally 10 years. I struggled with finding one online and worse with actually calling. 

The assistant screened me and is running my insurance; the next call I get from them should be to schedule something.

I'm terrified... And so, so relieved. I want to get better and be better.

Phone anxiety is such a bitch.",axienty,like breath really scary fresh air got phone therapist assistant known needed therapy literally year struggled finding one online worse actually calling screened running insurance next call get schedule something terrified relieved want better anxiety bitch,-0.02,Neutral
"Adult Separation Anxiety Disorder When I was around 10 years old, my mom was diagnosed with a brain tumor. She survived, but it was traumatizing at the time and spawned some separation issues. I was never really ever capable of doing sleepovers, going to sleep away camps, band trips, etc because of my damn anxiety over being separated from my parents. As I got older, I was obviously diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I've been on plenty of medications, and when I was about 20, a doctor finally did one of those cheek swab tests to get a chemical breakdown of what medicines would work best for me. Turns out all the ones I had been put on prior, didn't work with my chemical makeup. I was put on a medication that finally helped. (I highly recommend the cheek swab test btw.)

While the general anxiety and depression are kept on the back burner so to speak, the separation anxiety is still there. I'm nearly 23 years old and it's embarrassing as hell to have this issue. I want to go on and live a fun life, move out, go on trips with friends, etc. But my separation anxiety won't let me. I always fear the worst happening and that it will happen to my parents. I can however go out and shop by myself, do most things by myself, and don't have to be near them 24/7. This just flares up when they go away on a trip. They're also in their mid-60s, so my stupid ass feels like I'm running out of time with them. Also, for some reason I think my life will basically be over when they pass away, because I assume I'll be such an absolute mess over their passing that I won't be able to live a normal life.

They will be leaving soon for a 10 day vacation and I really don't want to spiral out. I have family friends who are nearby, and a cop for a neighbor, so there is no reason for me to spiral out, but I'm afraid I might again (I did when they went on a trip before.) I'm embarrassed that this is an issue for me at my age, and feel horribly embarrassed crying over separation issues in front of family friends, but I literally can't control it or how I think. Any tips, tricks, or advice will help. I also have a cute puppy who will be staying with me and loves cuddles and attention, so that is nice. Lol",axienty,adult separation anxiety disorder around year old mom diagnosed brain tumor survived traumatizing time spawned issue never really ever capable sleepover going sleep away camp band trip etc damn separated parent got older obviously depression plenty medication doctor finally one cheek swab test get chemical breakdown medicine would work best turn put prior makeup helped highly recommend btw general kept back burner speak still nearly embarrassing hell want go live fun life move friend let always fear worst happening happen however shop thing near flare also mid stupid as feel like running reason think basically pas assume absolute mess passing able normal leaving soon day vacation spiral family nearby cop neighbor afraid might went embarrassed age horribly cry front literally control tip trick advice help cute puppy staying love cuddle attention nice lol,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else get anxiety from not having anxiety anymore? I was anxious about something earlier this week, but haven't really thought about it.  I don't really feel anxious about the issue anymore, instead I feel anxiety that I should feel anxiety about the issue and I wonder why I don't.

Ugh",axienty,anyone else get anxiety anymore anxious something earlier week really thought feel issue instead wonder ugh,-0.02,Neutral
"Cancelling flights because of the shutdown My husband and I are supposed to be going on vacation next week. I read an article last night about the increased danger of flying during the government shutdown. I am already terrified of flying. I have only ever been on two flights and I avoid it at all costs. 
We leave next Thursday and I don’t know what to do. I can’t stop these panic attacks over the flight and I’m about to cancel them and just drive the 20 hours to our vacation. Or cancel the whole thing together. My husband is wonderful and supportive of whatever I decide, and I do have anti anxiety medication from my dr but I don’t think it’s going to help once I get to the airport I am that panicked about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. ",axienty,cancelling flight shutdown husband supposed going vacation next week read article last night increased danger flying government already terrified ever two avoid cost leave thursday know stop panic attack cancel drive hour whole thing together wonderful supportive whatever decide anti anxiety medication dr think help get airport panicked advice would greatly appreciated,0.32,Moderately Positive
"I don’t know what I have I jus created a new account for this and I really would like to hear opinions or experiences that could help in any way

So , I’m a young man that is between introversion and extroversion - sometimes I’m silent , sometimes I’m the person who fills the room with energy , depends on my mood 

I’ve been improving my social skills for some time and I went from not knowing what to say to going very deep with someone , even if sometimes I don’t pick the right moments for that ( lack of social intelligence I suppose )

I have something that no one knows -  excepts two friends , and are these shakings and blockages that I have in my body . I’ve been searching for a long time about this but I cannot find a definite answer 

When I’m in places where there’s people , my neck starts to shake af and my body feels blocked . This always happens when I’m near a girl , but not when I’m around one that I know ( ex : school girls ) 

Even if I improved my social skills , this uncontrollable and unreasonable shaking is always there . Sometimes I feel my throat or chest blocked , sometimes not only my neck shakes but also the rest of my body 

I come from an abusive family and that made me repress my sexuality ( but even before that repression I felt this ) . I sometimes wanted to talk with girls in the street and it was a draining experience  , I simply couldn’t do it 

Normally this doesn’t happen around boys but depends in the situation 

Does this happen to anyone or have heard about this ?

Would love to hear anything that may be helpful 



",axienty,know jus created new account really would like hear opinion experience could help way young man introversion extroversion sometimes silent person fill room energy depends mood improving social skill time went knowing say going deep someone even pick right moment lack intelligence suppose something one excepts two friend shaking blockage body searching long cannot find definite answer place people neck start shake af feel blocked always happens near girl around ex school improved uncontrollable unreasonable throat chest also rest come abusive family made repress sexuality repression felt wanted talk street draining simply normally happen boy situation anyone heard love anything may helpful,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I need help I had had a horrible first week of the new year, Im not working right now, cant sleep at night and want to sleep all day, I don't go outside unless I'm with someone else and it's almost impossible to get me out.. ",axienty,need help horrible first week new year im working right cant sleep night want day go outside unless someone else almost impossible get,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"i have anxiety and i need advise I'm 18 and I'm 100% sure I have anxiety but my family doesn't really have enough money to get a doctor to diagnose me. I just want advise on what I can do.
My anxiety manifests itself through anxiety attacks and serious indigestion and its horrible. I usually have moments when my mind is like blurry and I can't think straight at all and I shiver, but worse of all I have gas and nausea. If it's bad enough, I will throw up. So far I can kinda handle it, but it's getting worse and worse and it affects my normal life and I just don't know what to do at this point. Any help is appreciated. ",axienty,anxiety need advise sure family really enough money get doctor diagnose want manifest attack serious indigestion horrible usually moment mind like blurry think straight shiver worse gas nausea bad throw far kinda handle getting affect normal life know point help appreciated,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Any tips on how to keep calm when renovating my visa? Hey guys. 

I’m living in Germany and we can get our visas here instead of our home country. First time I got a 3 month visa. At first I couldnt get it, and it took a while and most people passed in front of me and I noticed something was wrong. Second time, I had a number when I was waiting for it to be called, which wasnt because of a system failure. This time I ended up getting my visa.

Point is, as a person with anxiety these 2 waitings were HELL. I dont know how I didnt throw up. My stomach was just horrible, my hands were shaking, I felt very hot the entire time and the only thing that I could do is stop myself from crying. I was therw for hours and I couldnt even touch the food and water I brought with me.  

Now I have to go to that hell place again to ask for more 4 months of visa and I dont wanna go through that again. I thought about all worse case scenarios, coming back to my country, being deported, not being able to come back to europe when the fact is, it’s 90% chance everything is gonna be fine, but my anxiety kicks in and wont let be rational. 

Any tips? When I get my visa I can bring anything, computer, food, cellphone.. anything that might help me stay calm before and during the process? ",axienty,tip keep calm renovating visa hey guy living germany get instead home country first time got month couldnt took people passed front noticed something wrong second number waiting called wasnt system failure ended getting point person anxiety hell dont know didnt throw stomach horrible hand shaking felt hot entire thing could stop cry therw hour even touch food water brought go place ask wanna thought worse case scenario coming back deported able come europe fact chance everything gonna fine kick wont let rational bring anything computer cellphone might help stay process,-0.04,Neutral
"Breathing or calming tips when having a panic attack? I'm currently sitting in our small bathroom, scared to go out because I heard a door make a noise or creek or something. I don't have any ideas how to deal with my Panik attacks (except from writing or texting, helps a little bit) and I would like to hear your tips, like breathing or just other things.
I'll probably be sitting here for a while so I appreciate every comment!

Edit: finally made it back into my room after sitting downstairs for a total of 1 hour... ",axienty,breathing calming tip panic attack currently sitting small bathroom scared go heard door make noise creek something idea deal panik except writing texting help little bit would like hear thing probably appreciate every comment edit finally made back room downstairs total hour,-0.07,Moderately Negative
Idk how titles here work I recently switched schools and I've never been social but I've had some friends but now that I've switched I don't know how to talk to anyone and in one class we're doing a group project that I'm doing alone bc I Don't know anyone or how to talk to anyone. I haven't spoken to anyone in a month hoping I would slowly get used to it but I still have a huge amount of anxiety daily and I don't know how to deal with it,axienty,idk title work recently switched school never social friend know talk anyone one class group project alone bc spoken month hoping would slowly get used still huge amount anxiety daily deal,0.02,Neutral
"Anyone have “career anxiety”? I have a constant worry that my current job or prospective jobs are not the “right” decision for my own career development.

",axienty,anyone career anxiety constant worry current job prospective right decision development,0.1,Moderately Positive
"What if the way you feel is justified? What if you are frustrated 

and emotional

And angry

And hopeless

And keep crying

And keep trying to fix the thing that’s wrong

But keep messing it up

So you go through the cycle again

What if you get upset for a perfectly justifiable reason. It’s not an imaginary fear. It’s not making a mountain out of a molehill. It’s real and it’s there all the time. And you can’t just give up it’s not like you’re trying too hard or reaching for an unachievable goal. It’s something that most people can easily do, and you can’t. 

What if you’re honest to goodness justified in your response to your situation. If it is genuine and appropriate and nobody would say that you’re overreacting? “If I was you I would feel the same way” is told to you when you explain your predicament. 

What do you do then?
",axienty,way feel justified frustrated emotional angry hopeless keep cry trying fix thing wrong messing go cycle get upset perfectly justifiable reason imaginary fear making mountain molehill real time give like hard reaching unachievable goal something people easily honest goodness response situation genuine appropriate nobody would say overreacting told explain predicament,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hi I’m trying hard to accept I have an anxiety issue, it’s hard though. I always feel like I make things more than they are. For instance, I’m on my period which was only 2 days late, somehow still worrying that I’m pregnant. 

I worry about the world; the news terrifies me. Sometimes I can’t breathe because I get so freaked out. 

The worst part is when I tell myself “this isn’t how most people think”

And I know that it’s true. It is not how most people think. I know that what I’m thinking probably isn’t true and it shouldn’t eat me alive, but for some reason it does. 

Please someone, give me some advice or support.. I’m so confused.",axienty,hi trying hard accept anxiety issue though always feel like make thing instance period day late somehow still worrying pregnant worry world news terrifies sometimes breathe get freaked worst part tell people think know true thinking probably eat alive reason please someone give advice support confused,-0.17,Moderately Negative
Having separation anxiety lately Afraid to be alone and book my nights full to make sure I’m alone as little as possible. I’m exhausted and know that I need down time... but that means hanging out by myself. Not quite sure how to remedy,axienty,separation anxiety lately afraid alone book night full make sure little possible exhausted know need time mean hanging quite remedy,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Has anyone had wellbutrin cause shortness of breath and tightness in their chest? Its made me quite anxious, and honestly my anxiety has been okay for a few years. I just added this to help with lack of motivation/depression and I wanted to hear if these effects went away for anyone. Let me know your experiences with it!",axienty,anyone wellbutrin cause shortness breath tightness chest made quite anxious honestly anxiety okay year added help lack motivation depression wanted hear effect went away let know experience,0.28,Moderately Positive
"Small wins are adding up So I have been in active treatment for my anxiety for about a year now. Lifelong anxiety sufferer with only experiencing severe panic attacks in the past two years. I have been to hell and back. So it’s been 6 months with my newest therapist and 4 months on a low dose of Remeron. The combination of medication and therapy actually does work- if you do the work too (which is the hardest part) I never thought I would get here honestly- where I can actually feel and see change happening in my body and brain. I do a pretty aggressive treatment plan (practically a partial hospitalization plan) daily filled with ERP. I had my first natural positive thought about my phobia a few days ago and it happened so naturally I stopped everything and cried a little. Because the thought was matched with the belief as well. This is after a year of CBT. I never thought in my life my mind would change its belief about my phobia (emetophobia). But it is. And twice now while doing exposures I have succuessfuly sat with my panic and allowed it to pass without it going into a full blown panic attack. But I’m always okay with it if it does because I am teaching my brain that I’m just not afraid anymore. To bring the panic on keep it coming. I ask for it- and then it dissipates. Hardest thing in the entire world, but today was easier than the first time. I still have such a long way to go- but I’m getting there. With hard work every single day. It is possible, I truly believe it for all of us. ",axienty,small win adding active treatment anxiety year lifelong sufferer experiencing severe panic attack past two hell back month newest therapist low dose remeron combination medication therapy actually work hardest part never thought would get honestly feel see change happening body brain pretty aggressive plan practically partial hospitalization daily filled erp first natural positive phobia day ago happened naturally stopped everything cried little matched belief well cbt life mind emetophobia twice exposure succuessfuly sat allowed pas without going full blown always okay teaching afraid anymore bring keep coming ask dissipates thing entire world today easier time still long way go getting hard every single possible truly believe u,0.06,Moderately Positive
Just a Sunday night Hello! Having a bit of a struggle tonight. The thought of spreading some happiness cheered me up so I wanted to wish everyone a great evening and a happy Monday tomorrow!,axienty,sunday night hello bit struggle tonight thought spreading happiness cheered wanted wish everyone great evening happy monday tomorrow,0.77,Positive
"I have a sore throat, but I’ve convinced myself it’s mouth cancer, a flesh eating virus, and also septis This is where I would insert a punchline if it was a joke, but alas, it’s just me. 


What the fuck is health anxiety anyway. I needed to write this down so others could read it, so I could reread it later. Anxiety tells me that I have to keep myself convinced that these things are true so they don’t actually happen. If I start to think i might be having irrational thoughts, anxiety tells me that it will actually happen. 

It’s just a cold. I barely even have a fever. 


“No”, anxiety says. “If you go to sleep, your sore throat will close up and you will choke and die”. 


Who the fuck is this cruel entity that says these things to me. It’s so mean. ",axienty,sore throat convinced mouth cancer flesh eating virus also septis would insert punchline joke ala fuck health anxiety anyway needed write others could read reread later tell keep thing true actually happen start think might irrational thought cold barely even fever say go sleep close choke die cruel entity mean,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"Ways to help with Stomach Knots from anxiety? Whenever my anxiety flairs up, I get these stomach knots that make me feel uneasy all the time.  Just wondering if any of you have found ways of getting that feeling down to a manageable amount?  I've already tried deep breathing and drinking warm water.  I also do have quick acting meds for the anxiety, but that only helps slow my mind down.  My body still has the symptoms of my anxiety.",axienty,way help stomach knot anxiety whenever flair get make feel uneasy time wondering found getting feeling manageable amount already tried deep breathing drinking warm water also quick acting med slow mind body still symptom,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety on holiday pls help Hey guys I’m 13 and on holiday. I’m getting anxiety because i have to go visit my cousins today there having sort of a party type thing. And also my moms not here she’s gone to another state and left me here :( what should I do :,( I’m so worried that my stomach is aching and I feel sick. I don’t have any one to talk to the only person is my mom who understands but she’s not here. Plssss i think I’m gonna cry 😭 ",axienty,anxiety holiday pls help hey guy getting go visit cousin today sort party type thing also mom gone another state left worried stomach aching feel sick one talk person understands plssss think gonna cry,-0.36,Moderately Negative
How’s everyone hanging in there today ? Just checking in on everybody hopefully everyone’s getting thru today smoothly there is light at the end of the tunnel !!!!!! ,axienty,everyone hanging today checking everybody hopefully getting thru smoothly light end tunnel,0.4,Moderately Positive
"How far in advance of something do you start to get anxious? I have a psychiatric appointment on Wednesday and all of a sudden, I'm panicking. Usually I don't get anxious until right before I have to be somewhere but I am panicking bad!

",axienty,far advance something start get anxious psychiatric appointment wednesday sudden panicking usually right somewhere bad,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Feeling like running away Sometimes I feel a desperate need to run far away, to escape. Mostly in stressful situations (which also means when posting something on Reddit) or when I see the stress is coming.
One time I gave in to the urge and actually did run away and hide. It happened at a Scout camp a couple years ago. I received an immense amount of support from my troop, but I still felt like a failure, even more than I usually do.
I have since then leant to somewhat suppress the urge, but when I do, I feel it tenfold to the point my head feels like it's going to burst. Sorry, it's difficult to explain. Since the start of the year, I've been feeling like this more and more and I don't think I can do this anymore.

Should I seek a professional? Did I suffer a panic attack back then?

Sorry for any mistakes, I'm on mobile, and posting this at 2 in the morning. Also, English isn't my first language.",axienty,feeling like running away sometimes feel desperate need run far escape mostly stressful situation also mean posting something reddit see stress coming one time gave urge actually hide happened scout camp couple year ago received immense amount support troop still felt failure even usually since leant somewhat suppress tenfold point head going burst sorry difficult explain start think anymore seek professional suffer panic attack back mistake mobile morning english first language,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Rantings to myself that I thought to share with you in this trip of life . One of my self ramblings on life, anxiety and depression, hope it resonates with some of you if even a percent as it did with me at the time.


As a people we've lost vision and what it means to live, the very essence of being alive, the very will to fight for it, is fading.
We indulge ourselves with fake things, fake people, fake talks, fake food, fake love, fake intimacy and a fake life. Surround ourselves with dozens of distractions every hour to help us forget, and we do, we forget to forgive, not others for wiping their feet in our souls, but for allowing ourselves to be this shadow of a former self, but you never forgave yourself and so a shadow you will remain.

We've become so broken that were no longer the hunters we once were, instead we hunt eachother dead and its become so easy we no longer need to use sticks or stones, we started to kill each other with words. so fragile that if someone were to hold our hands and said lets do it, let's count to 3 and jump together and end it all, there would not be a moment of hesitation because In this moment you've convinced yourself you would be something bigger than just yourself and that for a second you think that there is more to life than dying but you're too blind to see that in this very moment you allowed yourself to die, you planned for it.

But you didn't because there's more to you than you've allowed yourself to see. And One day you wake up, and the sun still shines, you can see the arching rays.... but they're Gray, it's touch upon your skin now incandescent, wrapping around you holding you tight in place blindening to your very soul thats been burried alive under all the numb, yelling trying to reassure you, trying to speak, and for a moment you are listening and you hear it (the sign you've been waiting for, the sign of life not as a shell but as whole) speaking back, traces of its existence that its not yet gone, because it didn't give up and that it would rather suffer than to not make itself heard by you. And that small glimpse, that tiny spec of a sound was all you really needed to force yourself awake from this never-ending nightmare, now fight for it, don't wait to be fought for.
Know your worth, stand up for yourself, and forgive. 
And more importantly, every now and then take a moment to yourself, breathe, clear your mind and listen, listen to what we've been programmed to ignore.
",axienty,ranting thought share trip life one self ramblings anxiety depression hope resonates even percent time people lost vision mean live essence alive fight fading indulge fake thing talk food love intimacy surround dozen distraction every hour help u forget forgive others wiping foot soul allowing shadow former never forgave remain become broken longer hunter instead hunt eachother dead easy need use stick stone started kill word fragile someone hold hand said let count jump together end would moment hesitation convinced something bigger second think dying blind see allowed die planned day wake sun still shine arching ray gray touch upon skin incandescent wrapping around holding tight place blindening thats burried numb yelling trying reassure speak listening hear sign waiting shell whole speaking back trace existence yet gone give rather suffer make heard small glimpse tiny spec sound really needed force awake ending nightmare wait fought know worth stand importantly take breathe clear mind listen programmed ignore,-0.01,Neutral
"Does anyone else experience this? I have an irrational mental block that I have to get over every single day. 

For some reason, whenever I go to class, work, or any public place, I get the automatic feeling that the people there either

A.) Don’t like me (sounds stupid bc people in my classes don’t even know me!), 

OR

B.) Think negatively of me, like that I’m just a lazy college student who doesn’t try hard enough or something like that (I’m an intern in the Accounting office at my campus bookstore, and all my coworkers are in their mid 30s and older). 

I try to get around these thoughts by telling myself I’m an awesome individual and a great friend/coworker to those who do know me personally. I know this is true, but it’s still really difficult sometimes to curb those thoughts. 

TL;DR: I assume everyone I come into contact with doesn’t like me, and the only remedies are trying to tell myself I’m being ridiculous OR somebody outright complimenting me, saying something nice or comforting, and even then I sometimes don’t believe it. ",axienty,anyone else experience irrational mental block get every single day reason whenever go class work public place automatic feeling people either like sound stupid bc even know think negatively lazy college student try hard enough something intern accounting office campus bookstore coworkers mid older around thought telling awesome individual great friend coworker personally true still really difficult sometimes curb tl dr assume everyone come contact remedy trying tell ridiculous somebody outright complimenting saying nice comforting believe,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Missed the first week of school and I feel scared to go back. It's the beginning of second semester of my 3rd year at university and I missed the first week because I'm sick with the flu. I'm having a lot of anxiety about having to go back. Even though I probably haven't missed much, the anxious thoughts I'm having is enough to make me stay home. Last year I was debating whether to take this semester off because I wasn't doing well in my courses and I was losing motivation in continuing. I wanted a break from university but I knew that I'd do nothing with the free time I would have but climb into a hole of depression (it has happened before during my year off after high school). I'm also a bit stressed out because I have this job opportunity to work while being at school but I've never done this before even though I want the job desparately and taking a lighter course load would do wonders for me. I guess I'm really scared of this new experience but I know it's going to help me find balance in the long run and get my priorities straight. I've never been the type of person to try new experiences and I've always stayed at home if there was no reason to go outside. Right now I'm struggling to simply take care of myself and mentally prepare to go back to school tomorrow now that I'm almost recovered from being sick. The weather isn't helping much either (I live in Ontario, Canada, and even though we just got out of that deep freeze, the thought of going outside makes me feel uneasy). Any advice for how to get over these thoughts?

TL;DR: Just having anxious thoughts about going back to university after missing the first week of school. Got any advice to get over this phase?",axienty,missed first week school feel scared go back beginning second semester rd year university sick flu lot anxiety even though probably much anxious thought enough make stay home last debating whether take well course losing motivation continuing wanted break knew nothing free time would climb hole depression happened high also bit stressed job opportunity work never done want desparately taking lighter load wonder guess really new experience know going help find balance long run get priority straight type person try always stayed reason outside right struggling simply care mentally prepare tomorrow almost recovered weather helping either live ontario canada got deep freeze uneasy advice tl dr missing phase,0.01,Neutral
"Convinced I'm going to die from visiting auto body shop Hi everyone,

So basically I’m freaking out because I’m thinking about how I used to visit my estranged dad’s body shop from time to time growing up during the summer. I can’t imagine that I would have gone more than 10-15 times or so in a given summer, and some years I probably only went a couple of times, others none at all.

I would go to work with him to wash/vacuum cars, answer the phone, and sometimes wetsand cars. However, there would be times where I would follow him around to his back shop to check on his employees. Or, I would go back there to let him know that a customer was waiting for him. I’m currently freaking out bc I can’t imagine that being in that environment while guys were doing work could have been good for me, even though I wasn’t doing any sanding or painting myself. His back shop is rather large, and he would keep his garage doors open for ventilation https://imgur.com/FviJwNq see building on the left). I think I remember a couple of times in the winter I was there and he had the doors shut though. I probably opened the door to the paint booth a handful of times to scream in there that someone was waiting for him. 

My biggest fear is that I’ll wind up getting cancer or something years down the line from now. I probably first went to his shop when I was 5, and stopping visiting after I was 18 or 19. I have no idea how secondhand exposure to this stuff works. Does this limited secondhand exposure to dust/paint as a kid pretty much guarantee problems down the road? Or does that typically require years of direct exposure? 

Was my dad 100% in the wrong for letting me come to work with him in the first place? Part of me thinks that its quite common for kids to go their family-owned businesses, but still.

It’s gotten to the point where these thoughts dominate my mind, and its very difficult to care about anything, since I feel like I’m dead anyway.

I think its entirely possible that I’m overreacting, and this anxiety is brought on by the fact that I just graduated college and started my first job. 

Can someone please let me know what they think?

Edit: I found some pictures of his shop so that you can see what the environment was like, for what its worth https://www.facebook.com/pg/Sudden-Impact-Autobody-INC-161287353937984/photos/?ref=page_internal",axienty,convinced going die visiting auto body shop hi everyone basically freaking thinking used visit estranged dad time growing summer imagine would gone given year probably went couple others none go work wash vacuum car answer phone sometimes wetsand however follow around back check employee let know customer waiting currently bc environment guy could good even though sanding painting rather large keep garage door open ventilation see building left think remember winter shut opened paint booth handful scream someone biggest fear wind getting cancer something line first stopping idea secondhand exposure stuff limited dust kid pretty much guarantee problem road typically require direct wrong letting come place part quite common family owned business still gotten point thought dominate mind difficult care anything since feel like dead anyway entirely possible overreacting anxiety brought fact graduated college started job please edit found picture worth,0.01,Neutral
"Is obsessive thought still anxiety? I have all kinds of thoughts all the time mostly worrisome and depressing and confusing. The doctor said due to my conditions that we won't start therapy any soon. I'm on antidepressants and anti-psychotics. I feel very confused and scared, I find it difficult to study. I get anxiety attacks but a major one only like every 2 days or so. Doctor gave me a vague diagnosis for depression and social anxiety and later stressed obsessive thinking. Doctor sighs but my thoughts don't stop.",axienty,obsessive thought still anxiety kind time mostly worrisome depressing confusing doctor said due condition start therapy soon antidepressant anti psychotic feel confused scared find difficult study get attack major one like every day gave vague diagnosis depression social later stressed thinking sigh stop,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Public Presentation - University Has anyone been able to get out of a public presentation at a university? I would prefer to have an alternative assignment instead of the presentation. I just can’t stand them.

How would I phrase an email to my professor requesting this without mentioning my diagnosis for anxiety and depression?

Has anyone had a situation like this? What’d you do?

I reallyyy can’t stand speeches. I’ve had far too many bad experiences and nearly faint each time.",axienty,public presentation university anyone able get would prefer alternative assignment instead stand phrase email professor requesting without mentioning diagnosis anxiety depression situation like reallyyy speech far many bad experience nearly faint time,-0.02,Neutral
"Some random anxieties that I’m wondering if other people have 1. Afraid of questions/every time someone asks you a question you shut down and panic
2. Afraid of people going through anything you own ( even if you have nothing to hide)
3. Afraid of leaving the house whatsoever 
4. Afraid of talking to anyone who is a parental figure about anything 


Mainly curious about #1 and #2 cause I’ve never heard anything like it ",axienty,random anxiety wondering people afraid question every time someone asks shut panic going anything even nothing hide leaving house whatsoever talking anyone parental figure mainly curious cause never heard like,-0.4,Moderately Negative
"I'm finally making progress. I'm really excited about it and I wanted to share it with you guys! I've had anxiety for about 8 years now. I never went to a therapist because I thought I could handle it on my own, which was partly true.. in the beginning. Somewhere along the line it got so much worse and I was tired of fighting and getting nowhere. So I found a psychiatrist, and he put me on Zoloft for everyday, Klonopin as needed, & Ambien every night for my severe insomnia. 
So for a little backstory, I've always had driving anxiety. I got my license when I was 16 (I'm 20 now), but I never really got comfortable driving. But I was at a good point in my life mentally and somehow got a job and was driving myself to and from work everyday in LA traffic! The drive was about 35 minutes from where I lived at the time, and I was completely comfortable driving. I didn't think I'd ever be able to say that! 
However, things didn't really work out at my job, so I decided to resign. Since I wasn't going to work everyday, I didn't really have anywhere to drive to so it wasn't a routine thing anymore. I also moved about an hour away from where I grew up, so being in a new environment, not knowing the streets, etc. really made me afraid of driving. I moved out here March 2017, and only drove twice on the streets with my mom in the car to the store and felt so uncomfortable and filled with anxiety the entire time. 
Around November is when I decided to go for therapy. I started my medication, and I noticed it working because I no longer had a panic attack at the mere THOUGHT of driving. so March 16, 2018, my brother (who also suffers from anxiety, especially with driving too) drove us to the mall. I felt that if he could get the courage to drive, and on the freeway at that, I could too! So when we were walking out of the mall I told him I'll drive, and I did it! I was super comfortable and it felt good to be gaining some type of independence back. And yesterday, March 21, I drove myself to my doctor's appointment! I'm really proud of myself. This may seem small to some people, but this is huuuuge for me. I just wanted to share this with all of you, and I hope you all are making progress towards your goals as well :) ",axienty,finally making progress really excited wanted share guy anxiety year never went therapist thought could handle partly true beginning somewhere along line got much worse tired fighting getting nowhere found psychiatrist put zoloft everyday klonopin needed ambien every night severe insomnia little backstory always driving license comfortable good point life mentally somehow job work la traffic drive minute lived time completely think ever able say however thing decided resign since going anywhere routine anymore also moved hour away grew new environment knowing street etc made afraid march drove twice mom car store felt uncomfortable filled entire around november go therapy started medication noticed working longer panic attack mere brother suffers especially u mall get courage freeway walking told super gaining type independence back yesterday doctor appointment proud may seem small people huuuuge hope towards goal well,0.01,Neutral
"Alcohol and anxiety? Hey guys, I have a medicine that gives me a pretty bad anxiety in the evenings and usually when I take it, I don’t drink alcohol so if i know I’m going out that day, i don’t eat the medicine but on friday I’ll have to take the medicine and later that day me and some friends are going out drinking. What will happen with the anxiety? Will it disappear? Will it be delayes? Will i have anxiety and be drunk at the same time? NOTE, I dont get anxious without this medicine.",axienty,alcohol anxiety hey guy medicine give pretty bad evening usually take drink know going day eat friday later friend drinking happen disappear delayes drunk time note dont get anxious without,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"I'm too afraid to eat - Eating disorder or anxiety? So recently my anxiety started getting the best of me again. I'm having huuuge anxiety about eating.

It all started when I tried intervall fasting. Big mistake. I got out of my normal eating habits and started eating way less. A week in I had gastritis. It was pretty bad, I had strong stomach cramps and was very dizzy for a few days before I went to the doctor. She gave me some medication and told me to be careful about what I eat. So I was.

For 1,5 Weeks I ate very carefully (mostly rice, crackers and yogurt). Then I tried to get back to my normal eating habits. But that didn't quite work out. I tried eating a chocolate cookie and had a very bad burning sensation on my tongue. Same happened when I tried eating salmon the next day, or strawberry jam the next one. I decided to stick with what I was eating while I was sick because I was afraid it might be an allergic reaction. But the next time I ate, I had a very strong headache and got pretty scared. I also had the feeling that my throat was swelling, so I called an ambulance.

By the time the ambulance arrived, I was okay. I believe that it might have been a panic attack. They checked all my vitals and I was fine. But they convinced me to still go to the E. R. because even though my mouth and throat looked okay, they thought my neck was swollen. So I went in, and even though I wasn't having further problems they gave me a cortizon shot and antihistamins and told me to take this allergic reaction serious.

And now I'm really afraid to eat. My gastritis started again and I just feel generally so afraid to eat that I don't think it will get better if I continue like this. I went in for allergy testing and I have to wait 4 weeks for the results.

I'm afraid I will have some serious vitamin and mineral deficiencies by then since it will be nearly 2 months without eating normal food. And now I'm also afraid of eating the little variations of food I have eaten in the last few weeks (rice, oats) because I'm afraid that they might be bad. I found something black and soft in my rice today and now I can't get myself to eat it because I'm afraid it might be mold.

I just have no idea what to do about this, mostly since the doctors I talked to didn't really consider the whole context I was in and I don't know where to go, since the therapist I talked to said that I'll have to wait for my allergy testing and the doctors I talked to just told me to sleep more or prescribed some drugs.

I would really appreciate it if you have some kind words, resources where I can get more information about how to deal with this (like everything, from how to deal with this type of anxiety or what would be okay to try to eat), or some idea to whom I could talk to. I really hope that my health doesn't get worse.",axienty,afraid eat eating disorder anxiety recently started getting best huuuge tried intervall fasting big mistake got normal habit way le week gastritis pretty bad strong stomach cramp dizzy day went doctor gave medication told careful ate carefully mostly rice cracker yogurt get back quite work chocolate cookie burning sensation tongue happened salmon next strawberry jam one decided stick sick might allergic reaction time headache scared also feeling throat swelling called ambulance arrived okay believe panic attack checked vitals fine convinced still go even though mouth looked thought neck swollen problem cortizon shot antihistamins take serious really feel generally think better continue like allergy testing wait result vitamin mineral deficiency since nearly month without food little variation eaten last oat found something black soft today mold idea talked consider whole context know therapist said sleep prescribed drug would appreciate kind word resource information deal everything type try could talk hope health worse,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety and muscle tension I've had a problem with anxiety and tension for years and I'm not sure why.

Around 10 years ago when I was in my early 20s I had some anxiety and I consciously tensed up my muscles in response and have never gotten back to normal. This has caused a bunch of problems physically with the most important part being that it makes my breathing very shallow.

I've had this problem for 10 years and I've gone back and forth so many times about whether this is a physical problem that I need to fix or a mental one. I feel very confident that I can overcome the issue as long as I can figure out what the root cause is. I've gone to multiple doctors who can never diagnose my problem which makes me think it is mental.

One thing I've realized recently is that I am constantly tensing my muscles in one area of my body or another. I tried to manually keep them relaxed and then I notice that my breathing gets better and I feel better but once I stop consciously doing this things go back to normal. It seems like anxiety can cause muscle tension and affect people differently who suffer from this.

My assumption is that I have very consistent anxiety from something that I've become so accustomed to that I don't realize it isn't ""normal"" anymore. It makes sense to me that anxiety should be related to a cause that you're passionate about since that's what you would focus on more and I think that's my weight for me. I'm not fat but I'm heavier than I want to be and I do have a bit of a belly that I'm very self conscious about. I notice it all the time when I'm sitting in meetings or walking or pretty much doing anything. I tried to actively not suck in my stomach or try to hide it but I didn't feel like that made a huge difference. The approach I've taken lately is ignoring my stomach size altogether and I've been feeling better since doing that.

Do you guys think I'm on the right track? Does what I'm thinking make sense? Do you have any other ideas for what my problem could be? 

I'd appreciate any help because this has been a big mystery to me and I really want to get better.",axienty,anxiety muscle tension problem year sure around ago early consciously tensed response never gotten back normal caused bunch physically important part make breathing shallow gone forth many time whether physical need fix mental one feel confident overcome issue long figure root cause multiple doctor diagnose think thing realized recently constantly tensing area body another tried manually keep relaxed notice get better stop go seems like affect people differently suffer assumption consistent something become accustomed realize anymore sense related passionate since would focus weight fat heavier want bit belly self conscious sitting meeting walking pretty much anything actively suck stomach try hide made huge difference approach taken lately ignoring size altogether feeling guy right track thinking idea could appreciate help big mystery really,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Nothing phases me It's weird to explain it. Living seems a daily chore that gets harder and harder. But death is also something that makes me equally scared, of course. 

I'm still stuck in the middle. I feel like I am not fully committed to anything. 

I just don't care, life just feel like it's on auto-pilot and I'm just being dragged along for the ride that I don't wanna be on.

Nothing phases me, nothing makes me feel one way or another. 

​

(Not sure if any of this made any sense, idk these were just my thoughts this morning, sorry!)",axienty,nothing phase weird explain living seems daily chore get harder death also something make equally scared course still stuck middle feel like fully committed anything care life auto pilot dragged along ride wanna one way another sure made sense idk thought morning sorry,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Had a really shitty panic attack last night over school. I’ve got a shit ton of work due Friday that I let get out of hand, and when I went to tackle more of it yesterday I had a really bad panic attack, and a spout of derealization. I’m still fucked up today over it and don’t know what to do. ",axienty,really shitty panic attack last night school got shit ton work due friday let get hand went tackle yesterday bad spout derealization still fucked today know,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"My anxiety has always caused paranoia and major jealousy issues for me, but tonight... I recently had bloodwork that stated that my thyroid levels were ridiculously high. One of the signs of this is, among other things, anxiety. I’ve struggled really badly with anxiety for as long as I can remember. I found that my most anxious moments were when I felt insecure which lead to paranoia and jealousy, which has honestly been a consistent problem in my relationship with my husband. I’d often find myself upset about things that I knew weren’t rational, and things that I didn’t want to be upset by, but I was. 
Since starting my medication, I’ve noticed that I haven’t been anxious in situations that used to leave me a wreck, but it hadn’t been enough to allow myself to feel good about it. Until tonight. 
My husband brought something up and my mind jumped, as it does, you know? And at first I was upset. And then I started talking to him about it, and we talked it out and got myself to the point of understanding and genuinely believing there was nothing for me to be upset about. And when we moved on from the conversation, I had told him that I wasn’t upset and I genuinely meant it. I knew I wasn’t just saying it to move on, only to be upset later. I felt good. I didn’t feel crazy, for the first time in so long. And so I cried. I’ve wanted to be able to do this for so long, and it genuinely feels so good to  be able to work through something in the moment and not feel crazy in the end. God. It’s genuinely such an insanely good feeling. ",axienty,anxiety always caused paranoia major jealousy issue tonight recently bloodwork stated thyroid level ridiculously high one sign among thing struggled really badly long remember found anxious moment felt insecure lead honestly consistent problem relationship husband often find upset knew rational want since starting medication noticed situation used leave wreck enough allow feel good brought something mind jumped know first started talking talked got point understanding genuinely believing nothing moved conversation told meant saying move later crazy time cried wanted able work end god insanely feeling,0.0,Neutral
I’m going to a psychiatrist for the first time tomorrow to get medication. Any advice? I’m a first year college student and I’ve started to panic simply by engaging in discussion about classes. I also am paranoid often and struggle to leave my dorm to pee...😂 I know it’s ridiculous,axienty,going psychiatrist first time tomorrow get medication advice year college student started panic simply engaging discussion class also paranoid often struggle leave dorm pee know ridiculous,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Manual breathing I have been struggling with anxiety for as long as I can remember. As a child I would pace my family room in order to calm down emotionally. I would be playing in a school soccer match and have paralyzing fear strike me in the middle of the game. I would get extremely nauseous while on car trips and have to pull over to a turnpike gas station…

As a teenager I was formally evaluated and diagnosed as having an anxiety disorder. This was my first experience with a SSRI. Fast forward nearly 20 years and I am still on them.

The issues I have been experiencing lately are related to breath and a fear that I will stop breathing and not being about to get out of the situation. Manual breathing. Right? How to stop these thoughts? 
My mind warps and I blame my medicine. Maybe I should increase the dosage. Maybe lower it. Maybe it is wearing off? Weaning myself off my current medication isn’t an idea I wish to entertain.
Call the local therapists office and I can’t get an appointment for many weeks. The former therapist I used to see there went to a bigger city and I have been back since he left. 

Going to work lately has been hard. Need to do it. Have to do it. 


",axienty,manual breathing struggling anxiety long remember child would pace family room order calm emotionally playing school soccer match paralyzing fear strike middle game get extremely nauseous car trip pull turnpike gas station teenager formally evaluated diagnosed disorder first experience ssri fast forward nearly year still issue experiencing lately related breath stop situation right thought mind warp blame medicine maybe increase dosage lower wearing weaning current medication idea wish entertain call local therapist office appointment many week former used see went bigger city back since left going work hard need,0.04,Neutral
"Meditation is making me anxious I do a couple sessions a day on headspace. Just opening the app gets my heart racing. The silence, I can’t run from my worries or drown them out. It’s torture. Just me and my mind. How long until it gets easier? I’m about two days in right now and it’s my most dreaded part of the day.",axienty,meditation making anxious couple session day headspace opening app get heart racing silence run worry drown torture mind long easier two right dreaded part,0.0,Neutral
"Intrusive thoughts I’ve always struggled with my mental health but after over 10 years I’ve learnt how to cope and get by until recently. 

About a week ago I started getting really negative intrusive thoughts and they won’t stop. It’s almost constant and its really affecting my day to day life, they even trigger me when I’m in work (which is normally a good distraction)

I’ve been having anxiety fuelled nightmares every night and it’s physically and emotionally exhausting. They’re always about my general anxieties e.g. my relationship, my job, my appearance. I’m in my mid twenties, I don’t know why this has started so suddenly? 

I really just want to make it stop. 

",axienty,intrusive thought always struggled mental health year learnt cope get recently week ago started getting really negative stop almost constant affecting day life even trigger work normally good distraction anxiety fuelled nightmare every night physically emotionally exhausting general relationship job appearance mid twenty know suddenly want make,-0.01,Neutral
"Normal med side effects? Hi everyone,
I posted on here last week to get opinions on Effexor as I was starting it and needed some reassurance. Fast forward to now and I’m taking 37.5 mg of Effexor each day. Today is day 3. I’m also still weaning off Zoloft- my doctor has me taking 50 mg every other day. She said I can discontinue it then next week but I may take 25 mg every other day for a week instead before stopping, just to make it a little easier on myself.

Since I started Effexor, I’ve been keeping track of side effects and this is what I’ve noticed so far-

(1/3) Day 1: very tired for several hours, nausea, surge of energy and jittery, shaky, lightheaded, hot and cold flashes 

(1/4) Day 2: nausea, upset/sour stomach, tired for an hour or two, hot and cold flashes, poor appetite, heartburn/acid reflux 

(1/5) Day 3: took 2 hours late- mild heartburn/acid reflux, stomach ache/gassy, nausea, headache, some nervousness,  

The nausea, stomach upset, and headache/lightheadedness is most concerning to me and I was wondering if this is a normal side effect? My doctor said it’s okay for me to take Dramamine so I’ve been taking that each day and it helps so so much, I just notice these symptoms when it wears off and some of the nausea is still there through the day. I’m just wondering if I’ll deal with these symptoms forever now or if they’ll wear off...I notice my anxiety isn’t nearly as bad today, it’s just physically feeling like crap I don’t enjoy. ",axienty,normal med side effect hi everyone posted last week get opinion effexor starting needed reassurance fast forward taking mg day today also still weaning zoloft doctor every said discontinue next may take instead stopping make little easier since started keeping track noticed far tired several hour nausea surge energy jittery shaky lightheaded hot cold flash upset sour stomach two poor appetite heartburn acid reflux took late mild ache gassy headache nervousness lightheadedness concerning wondering okay dramamine help much notice symptom wear deal forever anxiety nearly bad physically feeling like crap enjoy,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Is this normal?? So I had what I think was a really bad panic attack a while back and I'm wondering if it's happened to anyone else?? Pretty much what happened is a felt like I couldn't quite take in a deep breath.. Like, it didn't hit the satisfactory point that would naturally change to breathing out (if that makes sense??) so I felt I had to keep yawning to try and reach that point, but I couldn't yawn either.. It was so bad the first night, my husband took me to Emerg at 2am. The doctors gave me air, but said that my oxygen levels were perfectly normal.. After a long night there, they put me on steroids for my lungs and after a week, i says able to breathe properly again... This has happened to me before, waking me up in the middle of the night but had never lasted more than an hour.. Has anyone ever heard of this or experienced it?? ",axienty,normal think really bad panic attack back wondering happened anyone else pretty much felt like quite take deep breath hit satisfactory point would naturally change breathing make sense keep yawning try reach yawn either first night husband took emerg doctor gave air said oxygen level perfectly long put steroid lung week say able breathe properly waking middle never lasted hour ever heard experienced,0.12,Moderately Positive
The waiting When i wake up i play the waiting game. Is this gonna start right away or will I feel like normal  for a few hours and then the feelings creep in. Am I hungry or this the beginning and I'm feeling the weight starting on my chest. Ughhh the feelings that this anxiety  causes me.,axienty,waiting wake play game gonna start right away feel like normal hour feeling creep hungry beginning weight starting chest ughhh anxiety cause,0.01,Neutral
"Passing out at my doctors office made my panic attacks come back after 3 years I am a 19 year old female and I got diagnosed with GAD, panic disorder and agoraphobia in 2012. I had panic attacks every single day and I was never NOT nervous, I had to start homeschooling because of it. I got it under control in late 2015 when I got a job, I still had panic attacks here and there but I could actually leave my house at this point without freaking out. I still get very nervous and feel it physically but I haven’t had one of my full blown panic attacks since 2016. Let me note that a full blown panic attack for me is ALL of the following; a racing heart, shortness of breath, lightheadedness, finger numbness, and vomiting, i’ve learned to tolerate anything else/ a combo of a few of these symptoms. But, January 21st I got my blood drawn at my doctors office which resulted in me briefly losing consciousness but the build up felt so long and awful. Since then I have had three full blown panic attacks and a LOT of mini ones which is really bad for me, I’m afraid of passing out and not waking up, passing out while driving, passing out alone and having no one to help me, or passing out in public. My doctor requested more blood work (for bone pain I have) and I refused due to anxiety which just made the situation with him awkward. I went back to my doctors office today for allergy testing but I ended up having a full on panic attack (throwing up in the office) because I was afraid of being asked for more blood work AND I didn’t eat before going so I already felt lightheaded which didn’t help. 
What do I do to get over my fear of passing out? I honestly don’t know what I did to overcome my  bigger panic attacks in the first place so ANY advice is welcome. 

TL;DR: I’ve had panic attacks since 2012 but I’ve been able to control them since 2016, then in late January I passed out at my doctors office and it triggered a whole new fear in me and has made my anxiety come back full force. What do I do to get my attacks under control again?",axienty,passing doctor office made panic attack come back year old female got diagnosed gad disorder agoraphobia every single day never nervous start homeschooling control late job still could actually leave house point without freaking get feel physically one full blown since let note following racing heart shortness breath lightheadedness finger numbness vomiting learned tolerate anything else combo symptom january st blood drawn resulted briefly losing consciousness build felt long awful three lot mini really bad afraid waking driving alone help public requested work bone pain refused due anxiety situation awkward went today allergy testing ended throwing asked eat going already lightheaded fear honestly know overcome bigger first place advice welcome tl dr able passed triggered whole new force,-0.02,Neutral
"I don't know how to cope with the paranoia. Constantly all day I worry about someone breaking into my house, and raping me day or night. I worry about suddenly dying any second, and other shit like that. My mom is usually the person that helps me calm down, but for financial reasons my mom needs about 3 or 4 jobs,(I would work if I could) and one of them might require her to work a job that requires her to go in at 5 pm leave at 11 pm. I can cope without her, but barely. She then expects me to go to bed right when she gets home while I have been freaking out all day, and she won't have enough energy to help me calm down even if I am having a panic attack. I am not trying to make my mom look bad she is amazing, but pragmatically this will lead to disaster mainly because she won't let me sleep by myself because I could have a psychotic break again, so then the pressure is on me to go to sleep within an hour while I have been freaking out for the past 3 hours or so. I also have insomnia, and pressure to sleep quickly just makes it 5 times worse. I won't be able to sleep, and then she will say we will be homeless because of that. She has a ridiculous plan, and after having an argument with me I think she realizes this now, and she has told me she is trying to find another job.

The problem is still there that I have to cope without here while she works. My paranoia is, so painful that it makes me feel suicidal sometimes. I don't feel truly suicidal anymore, but still. I already tried to kill myself once because of my paranoia.

Constantly reasoning myself out of my paranoia is exhausting, and very painful. It is maddening. Does anybody know how to decrease the pain?",axienty,know cope paranoia constantly day worry someone breaking house raping night suddenly dying second shit like mom usually person help calm financial reason need job would work could one might require requires go pm leave without barely expects bed right get home freaking enough energy even panic attack trying make look bad amazing pragmatically lead disaster mainly let sleep psychotic break pressure within hour past also insomnia quickly time worse able say homeless ridiculous plan argument think realizes told find another problem still painful feel suicidal sometimes truly anymore already tried kill reasoning exhausting maddening anybody decrease pain,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I just had an anxiety attack. I always thought people were exaggerating I'm at some sort of party, and I wanted to dance, but within a few moments of standing at the side I immediately started feeling extremely nauseous. I sat back down and almost threw up while basically hyperventilating because I couldn't breathe right. I'm still shaking right now. I want to get better as social things, but it's a vicious downwards cycle.",axienty,anxiety attack always thought people exaggerating sort party wanted dance within moment standing side immediately started feeling extremely nauseous sat back almost threw basically hyperventilating breathe right still shaking want get better social thing vicious downwards cycle,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"How can I overcome my anxiety when I’m going to present in front of the classroom? I actually don’t have anxiety in general, I can easily talk to a group of people normally. However, when I have to talk in front of everyone in the classroom in my high school, my heart start beating hard and I get scared if they couldn’t understand what I’m trying to say. I guess you could count that as anxiety. I was hoping if you can help me out on how I can overcome my worries when I’m going to present in front of my classroom? I’m just going to present about my slideshow.",axienty,overcome anxiety going present front classroom actually general easily talk group people normally however everyone high school heart start beating hard get scared understand trying say guess could count hoping help worry slideshow,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Tips for forgiving self for being moody? I’m really embarrassed about a recent trip I took with my husband to see his parents. It went ok or was even good at some points. But when it got bad it felt *really bad*, almost traumatic. I felt waves of wanting to escape and run away.

because of internal issues that I’ve been facing lately in intensive therapy, I did not sleep well for three days. And lack of sleep heightens my moodiness even to the point of being very anxious/depressed. It felt like there was a darkness I’ve never encountered before and it was kinda scary. I was warned by the therapist that this may happen bc we are doing trauma therapy that tends to make things worse before better. 

The parents have known me for years and I suppose that there is forgiveness for being a bit weird or unpleasant. At the same time, I feel really awful and sick each time I think about it. The worst thing I did was wake up and go for a walk while others were out socializing in the great room, and seemed antisocial again. And I prob seemed very sad at one pint when I was close to tears but stayed in the other room. Nothing awful but just out of character, and unpleasant, like not being as positive as normal. I knew his mom could tell I was feeling a bit sad bc she often makes jokes or seems more focused on me which is embarrassing and unnecessary. I don’t want to be a black sheep who is unwelcome, or the odd one out. It hurts. I’ve screwed up a lot socially. It’s embarrassing to be an emotionally unbalanced person who others cannot always trust, even though my heart is in the right place I think.

One thing I did well was listen and try to smile a lot, go with the flow and laugh at jokes (I laugh a lot). I tried to speak up and give people space. I try to be friendly and positive.

How do you forgive yourself for past moments of being a bit crazy or unbalanced? Maybe people can’t tell that much, but maybe there are opportunities to apologize. I may have to suck it up, rely on new meds, and accept the hard reality that mental illness is off putting to others even if it hurts me more than them.
",axienty,tip forgiving self moody really embarrassed recent trip took husband see parent went ok even good point got bad felt almost traumatic wave wanting escape run away internal issue facing lately intensive therapy sleep well three day lack heightens moodiness anxious depressed like darkness never encountered kinda scary warned therapist may happen bc trauma tends make thing worse better known year suppose forgiveness bit weird unpleasant time feel awful sick think worst wake go walk others socializing great room seemed antisocial prob sad one pint close tear stayed nothing character positive normal knew mom could tell feeling often joke seems focused embarrassing unnecessary want black sheep unwelcome odd hurt screwed lot socially emotionally unbalanced person cannot always trust though heart right place listen try smile flow laugh tried speak give people space friendly forgive past moment crazy maybe much opportunity apologize suck rely new med accept hard reality mental illness putting,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Panic vs Anxiety attacks? I need help dissecting this! I'm sorry if this is a stupid question, but in what way are panic attacks different from anxiety attacks? Or are they the same? Because I think I've only had one panic attack in my life, considering all I have read about them -- I wasn't able to move, my heart was racing, I thought I was going to die, I felt terrified and despite being in the room with someone I couldn't say anything. It passed and I fell asleep, but everything was different in the morning. I have concluded that this was probably derealization; it lasted for 6 months or so until it subsided. It was truly awful. That was 6 or 7 years ago and I haven't experienced those things since.   


On the other hand, I am a very anxious person and mainly am triggered by social situations, in addition to food/eating and a few other things. I have intense anxiety every single day in a variety of situations. I dread going places, dread seeing people, so much dread and fear in my life all the time for such minuscule things. When I feel these moments of 'dread', they feel different than the 'panic attack' that I think I had. I tend to feel very scared, I have a terrible feeling of dread in my stomach and chest, my mind is racing and I have an extreme inability to focus. What are all of your experiences? I just want to know exactly what is happening to me, and whether I'm right to call it anxiety or panic attacks, because I feel like I invalidate lots of people by saying I have 'panic attacks' when I really don't even know if that's the right term. Thanks for listening and reading!",axienty,panic v anxiety attack need help dissecting sorry stupid question way different think one life considering read able move heart racing thought going die felt terrified despite room someone say anything passed fell asleep everything morning concluded probably derealization lasted month subsided truly awful year ago experienced thing since hand anxious person mainly triggered social situation addition food eating intense every single day variety dread place seeing people much fear time minuscule feel moment tend scared terrible feeling stomach chest mind extreme inability focus experience want know exactly happening whether right call like invalidate lot saying really even term thanks listening reading,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"The uncontrollable scares me Not knowing, not controlling are horrifying concepts to me. Is there a way to combat this efficiently?

The only option is to accept it or try to and understand it which could be impossible ",axienty,uncontrollable scare knowing controlling horrifying concept way combat efficiently option accept try understand could impossible,-0.78,Negative
"Successfully overcame anxiety today! Hello all! Been lurking on this sub for a while, but I was feeling on top of the world today and wanted to share!

My wife and I got a letter in the mail yesterday that our state taxes from 2016 were audited, and we owed a bunch more money. Instantly my anxiety kicked in and I could feel my blood pressure rising.

My wife tasked me with reaching out to the folks who did our taxes that year to argue with them that since they messed up we shouldn't have to pay. I'm AWFUL at confrontation and conflict, and I HATE it, but with my job it's easier for me to get away for a few minutes to make a personal phone call during the day.

Well, I was getting more and more anxious about it until I finally told myself ""fuck it, I'm calling now. The more I wait the longer I'm gonna sit here and stew on it"". It ended up working out in an acceptable compromise, and my wife actually said ""You did really well handling that and I'm proud of you"". THAT made me feel like king of the world!

I'm still learning how to deal with anxiety and this is the first time I've conquered it in a HEALTHY way that my wife even acknowledged! It feels really good and I wanted to share! Best of luck to everyone else out there, and know that you CAN do it! Just keep on keepin' on!",axienty,successfully overcame anxiety today hello lurking sub feeling top world wanted share wife got letter mail yesterday state tax audited owed bunch money instantly kicked could feel blood pressure rising tasked reaching folk year argue since messed pay awful confrontation conflict hate job easier get away minute make personal phone call day well getting anxious finally told fuck calling wait longer gonna sit stew ended working acceptable compromise actually said really handling proud made like king still learning deal first time conquered healthy way even acknowledged good best luck everyone else know keep keepin,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Health anxiety in high gear, talk me down please I am 46. I have battled health anxiety since I was 19. I had a major episode when I was 19, again at about 28, then at 38, and now I've been hit again. These have lasted months but I've managed to get them under control with time. 

The last episode when I was 38 was pretty bad. I had this feeling that I had to go to the bathroom all the time and just pain and discomfort all in the groin area. This lasted about 5 months and I went to numerous urologists, pelvic therapists, and GI's without any diagnosis.  

Recently, I went to the Gastro on Dec 20th to get a checkup for constipation and he noticed I had 3 internal hemorroids. There is a banding technique they do in the office so he did the banding on 1 of the hemorroids. I felt crappy for about 3 days but everything was fine until last week.  The scary thing about this banding technique was that the side effect for a couple of days matched the same issues I had when I was 38.  For whatever reason, just last week, I started having this discomfort again, feeling like I have to go to the bathroom, etc.  I haven't completely gone off the rails but there are times when I feel like I want to run away from myself and I feel the fight or flight kicking in.  

You'd think after these episodes and the fact that I'm 46, that I would have learned to cope with this better... I feel like I may be coping better than last time but time will tell...",axienty,health anxiety high gear talk please battled since major episode hit lasted month managed get control time last pretty bad feeling go bathroom pain discomfort groin area went numerous urologist pelvic therapist gi without diagnosis recently gastro dec th checkup constipation noticed internal hemorroids banding technique office felt crappy day everything fine week scary thing side effect couple matched issue whatever reason started like etc completely gone rail feel want run away fight flight kicking think fact would learned cope better may coping tell,0.02,Neutral
"Help me deal with online friend that has anxiety and autism and used to have depression So I have this friend online and out of concern I do try to help but he always just gets mad and leaves. It might be how I say things I don't know but it can get annoying  for me he also doesn't get jokes sometimes and takes them seriously and I havento almost beg and plead so he knows it's not a joke when it's not my fault he saw us in a bad way if u understand what I mean. 

He lives in a place where they take care of people with that kind of issues and I don't wanna be mean but i think they do baby him a bit  he isn't depressed anymore he said it himself but has autism and anxiety and I'm troubled by the thought that sometimes he might use the anxiety and autism as an excuse for other things he does.

One time I asked about that place and he said they like make his laundry and buy him groceries and will get him an apartment for free when he gets out. To that he said that they do that because he can't make a routine out of things but like isn't everyone? Today he was starving himself because there was no more food and they were going to bring groceries tomorrow. I asked why he can't go buy something even maybe for the machines so he doesn't have to talk to anyone and he said he cannot because of anxiety like it might be mean but I don't think me as an introvert for example I don't enjoy doing that either but he is 21 I believe and he will have to do it someday. Everyday I try to make him do these small steps he sulks and leaves its just that I don't like the thought of them baby them too much when he is doing better now. I wanted to get some opinions because I don't really understand if autism is part of u and your personality or just an external problem that u can't really control. If needed I'll explain myself better. ",axienty,help deal online friend anxiety autism used depression concern try always get mad leaf might say thing know annoying also joke sometimes take seriously havento almost beg plead fault saw u bad way understand mean life place care people kind issue wanna think baby bit depressed anymore said troubled thought use excuse one time asked like make laundry buy grocery apartment free routine everyone today starving food going bring tomorrow go something even maybe machine talk anyone cannot introvert example enjoy either believe someday everyday small step sulk much better wanted opinion really part personality external problem control needed explain,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Past traumatic relationship issues surfacing now? Hi Everyone,

Not sure where to begin.  I have always had anxiety and some GAD.  About 6 years ago I got out of an emotionally abusive relationship.  Everything started out wonderfully, I became friends with the family, met the relatives, etc.  All was great.  Then the emotional abuse started and years later things ended.  It was hell on earth.  I spent weeks at a time curled up in a ball with my stomach so full of knots I thought I wouldn’t make it.  I worried about everything.

Fast forward to now. I’ve made some new friends where I moved and I went on vacation with one of them last week.  This is a friend, nothing more, but I am really close with them.  Probably the closest I have been with someone in a while.  I met some of the family, siblings while I was there.  It was great.  I always over think what I say and when I got home I started to worry that maybe I acted weird and my friend would pull away or something. I started overanalyzing everything I said and how I talked about how glad I was we were close.  Was I weirding them out? Pushing them away?  Would they start ignoring me when we returned home to our normal lives? 

Then it hit when I got home Saturday.  I had panic and anxiety like I did back when I was being “dumped” one of the multiple times by my emotionally abusive ex.  It felt like the sky looked the same, the days were the same....it just flooded through me when I got home.  I had flashbacks of meeting my ex’s family and how last week I met my friend’s family and then the pain of how much it hurt when I had to disconnect from my ex’s siblings. I literally felt like I couldn’t breathe. I keep over analyzing every conversation we have through text or email and nothing that my friend said triggered this, but I keep looking for the negatives in everything now.  It’s like I’m waiting to feel those same feelings I did when I was left before.  It’s terrifying to feel these emotions and physical pains again.  Maybe meeting the family triggered pain from meeting my ex’s family because some of it was similar.

My friend lives a few towns over, so we don’t see other but a few times a month.  What am I doing to myself?   I don’t want to bring it up because I will sound just bizarre because I know this is all in my own head. I am generally anxious but this coming back and these replicated feeling I had years ago is really scary.  

If anyone has some suggestions on how to get past this or experience with something like this, I would love some advice.  Did I trigger some sort of post traumatic stress?  I just want to feel normal again and not like I am waiting for something terrible to happen.",axienty,past traumatic relationship issue surfacing hi everyone sure begin always anxiety gad year ago got emotionally abusive everything started wonderfully became friend family met relative etc great emotional abuse later thing ended hell earth spent week time curled ball stomach full knot thought make worried fast forward made new moved went vacation one last nothing really close probably closest someone sibling think say home worry maybe acted weird would pull away something overanalyzing said talked glad weirding pushing start ignoring returned normal life hit saturday panic like back dumped multiple ex felt sky looked day flooded flashback meeting pain much hurt disconnect literally breathe keep analyzing every conversation text email triggered looking negative waiting feel feeling left terrifying emotion physical similar town see month want bring sound bizarre know head generally anxious coming replicated scary anyone suggestion get experience love advice trigger sort post stress terrible happen,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I Feel Like I can't breathe when I'm anxious- What Can I Do? I've had issues with anxiety in the past, but for the last year or so I feel like my stress and anxiety are within a normal range. Lately I've had trouble breathing, heart palpitations and sometimes chest pain,  and taking Xanax helps (I have some left over from an old prescription). My problem here is that even though my anxiety is not bad enough to interfere with my life, the breathing issues are. Additionally, the only reason I even still have Xanax is because it makes me feel high and I can't get anything done- and I'm really only anxious when I have a lot to do! Does anyone have any advice on breathing techniques or another medication to look into that could help the physical effects of anxiety without affecting me mentally?

btw, I'm definitely not having panic attacks- I've had them before and its different. This is a low level awareness that I can't get enough air that can last all day. There will be little episodes as well where I get so frustrated by it that I nearly hyperventilate- that's when I feel like I have to take Xanax. But the only thing I'm ""panicking"" about when this happens is the panic of not being able to breathe.",axienty,feel like breathe anxious issue anxiety past last year stress within normal range lately trouble breathing heart palpitation sometimes chest pain taking xanax help left old prescription problem even though bad enough interfere life additionally reason still make high get anything done really lot anyone advice technique another medication look could physical effect without affecting mentally btw definitely panic attack different low level awareness air day little episode well frustrated nearly hyperventilate take thing panicking happens able,-0.06,Moderately Negative
 It cleared up and I was okay but. On Monday I was thinking about humans and how the brain works and it tripped me out I got worried that because I was thinking about how the brain works that I would lose sleep and I did. That night was bad just like last time.   Also yesterday my sleep was bad I woke up like every hour of the night just like last time. I got kind of scared like I did last time but this time I think that this is fake life which is absurd but I just think about it then get really scared then I think rationally then calm down.,axienty,cleared okay monday thinking human brain work tripped got worried would lose sleep night bad like last time also yesterday woke every hour kind scared think fake life absurd get really rationally calm,-0.01,Neutral
"Good effort So I’ve been diagnosed with GAD for a little over a year now. It’s a daily obstacle but I’m striving and with the help of my loved ones who I adore so much, I have the strength to keep going. I started a new job this week and it’s been quite stressful. From learning everything quick to absorbing how fast paced the job is has been a lot. But I really like it so I’m glad I am a part of the team. My boss coordinated a bowling event and it was this evening and I was hesitant in going at first. One because I’m brand spanking new and I don’t know anyone and two because I couldn’t bring anyone to make me feel more comfortable. I went because this is the opportunity to get to know everyone and to see them in a different setting than the office. It was 45 of us and I never really cared for bowling (but I made a strike and I’m so happy for that!)
I was pretty anxious all throughout though but I’m glad I went. Sorry if this seems like a ramble but I took this opportunity of something completely different and even though there was anxiety right there hovering over me, it was still nice to be part of this group of new people and the next step in my career. ",axienty,good effort diagnosed gad little year daily obstacle striving help loved one adore much strength keep going started new job week quite stressful learning everything quick absorbing fast paced lot really like glad part team bos coordinated bowling event evening hesitant first brand spanking know anyone two bring make feel comfortable went opportunity get everyone see different setting office u never cared made strike happy pretty anxious throughout though sorry seems ramble took something completely even anxiety right hovering still nice group people next step career,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Do you feel like life is short? There's never been a phrase that worries me more than ""Life is short"" do you guys agree with that notion?",axienty,feel like life short never phrase worry guy agree notion,0.0,Neutral
"Does anyone know the solution to anxiety that makes your head all tired and slow? I know what it is, its the adrenaline rush that goes through your head when you're nervous, how do I make it stop? Its making me really slow mentally",axienty,anyone know solution anxiety make head tired slow adrenaline rush go nervous stop making really mentally,-0.27,Moderately Negative
"Abnormal symptoms?  Hello everyone,

I have the hardest time convincing myself that it's ""just my anxiety"". I feel like my anxiety has so much control over my state of being. I have GAD with somatic symptoms. I'm 29, been living with anxiety and panic attacks since 16. Suffered from anorexia and depression as a teen. Recently tried wellbutrin which I honestly feel intensified my symptoms. 

Sometimes I feel like I'm going to blackout and have a seizure. Sometimes I worry that I won't be able to move my legs or lift my arms. I worry that I'm losing my mind as my paternal aunt has schizophrenia and my mother had bipolar disorder. I feel like it's only a matter of time before this happens to me. I feel dizzy and worried about everything. 

What are some of your atypical symptoms? Has anyone experienced anything like this and been able to overcome it? I've tried so many things. 

Thank you...",axienty,abnormal symptom hello everyone hardest time convincing anxiety feel like much control state gad somatic living panic attack since suffered anorexia depression teen recently tried wellbutrin honestly intensified sometimes going blackout seizure worry able move leg lift arm losing mind paternal aunt schizophrenia mother bipolar disorder matter happens dizzy worried everything atypical anyone experienced anything overcome many thing thank,0.34,Moderately Positive
"A line from a book that helps me a lot There’s a moment in Kenneth Oppel’s Firewing where the main character is told by his dad (who is a hero by this point) that bravery is “being scared and doing something anyway.” 

That idea that the difference between bravery and fearlessness is whether or not you were scared to do something in the first place has really bolstered my belief that anxious people who push back on their anxiety, especially when they’re totally confused by what their body is doing, are truly brave. 

So let’s be brave, folks. ",axienty,line book help lot moment kenneth oppel firewing main character told dad hero point bravery scared something anyway idea difference fearlessness whether first place really bolstered belief anxious people push back anxiety especially totally confused body truly brave let folk,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Constantly thinking about how people hurt me and other nasty stuff is making me resent my friends. Hi, so, I posted about this in /r/depression too, but I will post here. I hope the title doesn't cause anxiety.


I've never understood what anxiety was, because for me, being worried 24/7 is the norm. But now I realise I have a problem.


Long story short, these past months have been a mess, and I have been getting worse. I have been thinking about bad things that loved ones said to me, and I also remember that most of the time they never apologised to me, or at least acknowledged that they made me sad.


I keep thinking about a conversation that happened via instant message years ago with my friend. I was feeling extremely sad and he got angry at me. I tried to forgive and forget but now, I cannot simply let it pass.


Others have gotten angry at me for being ""negative"" and depressed, too. And it's not like I can control it.


I'm starting to resent humans and kinda just want to stop contact forever with everyone. If this happens, I'll be ending a 7 year friendship and become even more lonely than I already am. But I feel like it's the only way for me to live.
",axienty,constantly thinking people hurt nasty stuff making resent friend hi posted depression post hope title cause anxiety never understood worried norm realise problem long story short past month mess getting worse bad thing loved one said also remember time apologised least acknowledged made sad keep conversation happened via instant message year ago feeling extremely got angry tried forgive forget cannot simply let pas others gotten negative depressed like control starting human kinda want stop contact forever everyone happens ending friendship become even lonely already feel way live,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Can anxiety affect your learning and grades? Im not in school at the moment, but I still have always been overambitious as a way to distract myself from my anxiety that I have had all my life and also feel rewarded when I would do well and understand something challenging. 

When I was in high school, I took hard classes, had decent  grades but my test scores were not all too great. I aspired to get into an Ivy League and when I look back at it, it was incredibly silly and naive to aspire for that because I didn’t need to go to an Ivy League to know i can be successful. But I think in my mind at the time,  I’d see the top kids in school all going to Harvard and Yale and thought I wanted that too. I didn’t get into any of those schools of course (I don’t think I applied to either but whatever ivy I applied to I got rejected) but I got into a school in a state one of my parents is in and got into a difficult program I wasn’t too happy with but felt I wasn’t smart enough to leave and pursue something else. Anyway, long story short, my GPAs for two degrees I pursued were in the low 3s (below 3.5). I have had a lot of experiences I would consider traumatic during and before starting my degree programs, one including a loss of a sibling due to sudden illness, which contributed to increased anxiety and depression, but I never partied or did anything necessarily to distract myself. In fact, I spent most of not all my free time just trying to study. I do feel I used school as an unhealthy coping mechanism where I’d be excited to take challenging classes, but when it came to work, I’d burn out quickly and procrastinate till the last minute. I have been thinking about applying for a PhD, but the more I think about it, the less I feel I deserve it due to my grades and tendency to burn out. I also think it would be nice for me to find better ways to cope with my anxiety and I’m wondering if anybody here has had similar experiences. I know some people who have anxiety have great grades, so it’s not that I’m blaming my anxiety but perhaps wondering if anxiety can be responsible for poor learning and grades for some and how if anybody has experienced this was able to manage. ",axienty,anxiety affect learning grade im school moment still always overambitious way distract life also feel rewarded would well understand something challenging high took hard class decent test score great aspired get ivy league look back incredibly silly naive aspire need go know successful think mind time see top kid going harvard yale thought wanted course applied either whatever got rejected state one parent difficult program happy felt smart enough leave pursue else anyway long story short gpa two degree pursued low lot experience consider traumatic starting including loss sibling due sudden illness contributed increased depression never partied anything necessarily fact spent free trying study used unhealthy coping mechanism excited take came work burn quickly procrastinate till last minute thinking applying phd le deserve tendency nice find better cope wondering anybody similar people blaming perhaps responsible poor experienced able manage,0.15,Moderately Positive
"What helps minimize your anxiety? What have you found that helps you calm down during anxious moments or reduces the amount of anxiety attacks you have? Has anyone “gotten over” something they are anxious about or anxiety in general (if that’s even possible). I’ve heard meditation, yoga, less caffeine, and working out all help. If these have helped you please let me know, but I am also interested in knowing what else has worked for other people. Thank you in advanced! ",axienty,help minimize anxiety found calm anxious moment reduces amount attack anyone gotten something general even possible heard meditation yoga le caffeine working helped please let know also interested knowing else worked people thank advanced,0.13,Moderately Positive
"What happens after? I'm a teenager living in socal. I have no friends, no emotional connection to any of my family, and a deteriorating mental and physical state due to anxiety, depression, loneliness. It has always been like this. I've always just been in my room, on my computer after going to school and hugging the walls in silence sweating, occasionally vomiting in the bathrooms because the stress and anxiety just gets to me. I go to a school now that isn't exactly a normal school, but one for troubled individuals who just happen to make me even more of a target. I don't belong here, but I have no choice because of my truancy(due to my illness). My parents absolutely despise me and it just makes everything worse. I 'm getting kicked out as soon as I graduate(and I probably won't as my grades and attendance have been equally garbage) I get 3 hours of sleep on the week days because as soon as I take out my earbuds and stop distracting myself with the escapism everything catches up to me and I can't sleep. Then on the weekends and days where I decide to skip school all I can do is lay in my bed crying and sleeping. I forget to eat everyday. I have been institutionalized 4 separate times against my will and they have done nothing but diagnose me with things I don't have and give me medications which didn't work and instead deteriorate my health further. 

What happens after? When I graduate and I'm kicked out on the street without a car, without friends, without any social skills? I can barely talk out loud without slurring, stuttering, talking too low, etc. What the fuck am I going to do?",axienty,happens teenager living socal friend emotional connection family deteriorating mental physical state due anxiety depression loneliness always like room computer going school hugging wall silence sweating occasionally vomiting bathroom stress get go exactly normal one troubled individual happen make even target belong choice truancy illness parent absolutely despise everything worse getting kicked soon graduate probably grade attendance equally garbage hour sleep week day take earbuds stop distracting escapism catch weekend decide skip lay bed cry sleeping forget eat everyday institutionalized separate time done nothing diagnose thing give medication work instead deteriorate health street without car social skill barely talk loud slurring stuttering talking low etc fuck,-0.07,Moderately Negative
Scared for no reason? How to not be scared of the dark and shadow people? I always feel like something is behind me or touching my head :( or anywhere! I dont want to be scared. Please help! Its 3am here. I hate seeing shadows I’m so scared. I think its making it worse the more i think about it,axienty,scared reason dark shadow people always feel like something behind touching head anywhere dont want please help hate seeing think making worse,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"I just wanna say hello to everyone and tell you all that I’m happy to become a part of this community! I posted to share this small yet still exciting victory. Today I started reading a book on anxiety and I joined this subreddit. It’s a small step but it’s still a step in the right direction. 

As hard as things have been I still just know that it’s going to get better. Sometimes it seems like it will never end and feels impossible to overcome but I wanted to tell you all that anxiety is treatable and we can all overcome it together. It’s hard to stay optimistic when times are tough but it’s important so don’t second-guess yourself when you think something might help you or is helping you get better. 

Thank you all for being here for me and for each other. Just the existence of this community makes me feel better because I know we have a place where we can all speak freely about what we’re facing and help each other through things like advice and support. 

Tell me about what you’ve been doing recently that’s been helping you and how you’ve been working towards feeling better! ",axienty,wanna say hello everyone tell happy become part community posted share small yet still exciting victory today started reading book anxiety joined subreddit step right direction hard thing know going get better sometimes seems like never end feel impossible overcome wanted treatable together stay optimistic time tough important second guess think something might help helping thank existence make place speak freely facing advice support recently working towards feeling,0.09,Moderately Positive
"I'm always fearful of everything. For years, I always have feared everything. When I say everything, I mean it: having tests at school, talking to people, calling people or even chatting online behind a nickname.

I'm always scratching my hands or hitting my head (that kinda helps with thinking about something else), and avoiding contact with anyone IRL, fearing to say something wrong.

Even at my place which is nearly completely soundproof, alone, I avoid talking loud when I'm VCing fearing neighbors might get disturbed.

Also, now, whenever I'm at school, I literally shake. Not because it's cold or because I'm hungry, no, just out of stress. I've started to get headaches and a lot of nosebleeds, presumably because of lack of sleep which is..you guessed it..caused by fearing the next day.

I don't know why I'm like this... even teachers started noticing that I was always apologizing.

I don't have a therapist or have talked to anyone IRL about it apart a friend who now has changed high schools due to grades.

I probably need a bit of reassurance, I guess...

(oh, and sorry for the probably bad grammar, English is not my primary language)",axienty,always fearful everything year feared say mean test school talking people calling even chatting online behind nickname scratching hand hitting head kinda help thinking something else avoiding contact anyone irl fearing wrong place nearly completely soundproof alone avoid loud vcing neighbor might get disturbed also whenever literally shake cold hungry stress started headache lot nosebleed presumably lack sleep guessed caused next day know like teacher noticing apologizing therapist talked apart friend changed high due grade probably need bit reassurance guess oh sorry bad grammar english primary language,-0.23,Moderately Negative
"I made an animated summary of the book ""The Power of Now"" By Eckhart Tolle, I thought maybe it could be of use to you. I hope it is. Link to the video: [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wa7mAlLhD3w&t=35s](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wa7mAlLhD3w&t=35s)

Any suggestions on future books would be great!

or any suggestions on how to improve the video itself would also be awesome

If you'd like to subscribe to my channel for more summaries: [https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfbLDMh6uGOZePAfqqjVZ-g?sub\_confirmation=1](https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfbLDMh6uGOZePAfqqjVZ-g?sub_confirmation=1)",axienty,made animated summary book power eckhart tolle thought maybe could use hope link video suggestion future would great improve also awesome like subscribe channel,0.6,Positive
"An endless cycle of anxiety Hey everyone.

So I have a problem, I can’t stop eavesdropping (I know it’s rude and I really try not to do it).


I subconsciously think that people are talking shit behind my back all the time (Teenage-syndrome? Don’t know what it’s called) ,which they inevitably do since I eavesdrop. To top it all off I’m not really stealthy about it, shoulders rise up and stiffen.


To avoid this I listen to music with headphones, problem then is that I can’t hear my breathing which makes it uneven and loud.



And I have to take the Commuter-train to work every day because gas is too expensive.


So no matter what I do I’m bound to annoy everyone around me, which makes more anxious.


And I know myself that this is stupid train of thought, but I can’t stop doing it.


So any here got any tips on how to solve it? (I got an answer before that I need to improve my confidence, but it’ll take a lot of years before that changes)",axienty,endless cycle anxiety hey everyone problem stop eavesdropping know rude really try subconsciously think people talking shit behind back time teenage syndrome called inevitably since eavesdrop top stealthy shoulder rise stiffen avoid listen music headphone hear breathing make uneven loud take commuter train work every day gas expensive matter bound annoy around anxious stupid thought got tip solve answer need improve confidence lot year change,-0.13,Moderately Negative
Can I die from biting my arm ? This sounds stupid but it’s just anxiety. But basically I was bored and started chewing on my upper arm near my shoulder on the underside of a it but I bit down a little to hard and I bit some fatty flesh. I didn’t bite down too hard or anything but I felt it in my teeth. It doesn’t hurt or anything but there is a very small red mark on my arm. Am I being irrational or can something bad actually happen?,axienty,die biting arm sound stupid anxiety basically bored started chewing upper near shoulder underside bit little hard fatty flesh bite anything felt teeth hurt small red mark irrational something bad actually happen,-0.2,Moderately Negative
"Has anyone tried chlorpromazine for anxiety/sleep help - what are your experiences? I've just been prescribed this, and I'm kinda worried about it... it's a very old anti psychotic. The list of side effects are quite frightening to me also, since I've always had trouble with side effects of almost every drug i've tried. I've been prescribed 25mg tablets, but i take half a tablet 'as needed' thoughout the day, and 1 full tablet at night before sleep. Can anyone else share their experience with this drug?",axienty,anyone tried chlorpromazine anxiety sleep help experience prescribed kinda worried old anti psychotic list side effect quite frightening also since always trouble almost every drug mg tablet take half needed thoughout day full night else share,-0.15,Moderately Negative
Vivid dreams after taking anxiety medication I have been taking my anxiety medication for about a month and ever since I have been having several extremely vivid dreams at night. Has this happened to anyone? Is it normal?,axienty,vivid dream taking anxiety medication month ever since several extremely night happened anyone normal,0.04,Neutral
"Afraid I lost myself along the way and scared I won't find myself again. Where do I begin? I suppose I'll give a backstory... I have always been anxious. Always been afraid. Afraid of being alone but too afraid to say hi, afraid of not saying anything but afraid if I do it will come out all wrong and I'll be rejected. A constant over thinker of the mynute (I googled that word 3 times to make sure I got it right). In Highschool I was the kid that spent in between class periods hyperventilating in the bathrooms. I was so afraid and nervous that when I graduated I left without a single friend to say bye too. I never spoke to counselors because I panicked before I got there. I had no plan and no direction because I was too afraid of failing. Somehow I did manage to meet a guy who became my boyfriend. He was/is my bestfriend... but... He has his friends and I have...him. anyways, skip two years post graduating. I was better! I had a job and some friends life was ok! He then tells me that he is moving 900 miles away with his family. Anxiety caves in on me like an ocean flooding the cracks in a sunken ship. The fear of being alone hit like a train and I was tied to the tracks. I tried to keep my grip. I did. But 3 months later, my dad was diagnosed with GBM (brain cancer). Just like that... my life, my world, everything I ever known felt like a massive rock slide beneath my feet, everything slipping away and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Night after night and day after day I thought about everything I hadn't done for my dad. He never saw me make something of myself. I never showed him what I could be because of fear! because I could only see my self worth when I was looking into the eyes of a guy who I loved but depended to much on. But...I couldn't do it... I couldnt prove anything because... before my bf...  I was alone. And that alone paralyzed me. Anyways, skip ahead. My bf moves away, and after months of fighting we break up. I am alone. But I have my dad. I wasn't in college at the time and I lost my job because of my depression and anxiety began affecting my work. Our days spent together in the garage that followed the next year are my most precious memories. Well, to put short, I was with him when he got ""bad"". I was there through the seizures on easter. The coma like state that wasnt a coma that followed... The 3 day 3 night hospice stay. I cleaned his mouth, checked his oxygen and co2, adjusted his laying position. and I never wanted anything more than I wanted to just  take him home and to have him sit outside and talk to me. This upcoming April 7th 2019, will mark one year since he has been gone. I feel like I died with him you guys. My anxiety towards everything since then has been killing me. I cant sleep without remembering. I cant see trucks without remembering. I cant go into hospitals, listen to songs, socialize like I used to, anything. The world has become foreign. I need help. I cling to the few people in my life because I am afraid of losing them but they want me to be independent and I want that too! but simultaneously, independence feels like trying to fly with a ball and chain tied around my feet. If nothing else... I feel better telling my very shortened story. So thank you to this site for granting that. I am sorry if I went all over the place... I dont talk about these events much...",axienty,afraid lost along way scared find begin suppose give backstory always anxious alone say hi saying anything come wrong rejected constant thinker mynute googled word time make sure got right highschool kid spent class period hyperventilating bathroom nervous graduated left without single friend bye never spoke counselor panicked plan direction failing somehow manage meet guy became boyfriend bestfriend anyways skip two year post graduating better job life ok tell moving mile away family anxiety cave like ocean flooding crack sunken ship fear hit train tied track tried keep grip month later dad diagnosed gbm brain cancer world everything ever known felt massive rock slide beneath foot slipping nothing could stop night day thought done saw something showed see self worth looking eye loved depended much couldnt prove bf paralyzed ahead move fighting break college depression began affecting work together garage followed next precious memory well put short bad seizure easter coma state wasnt hospice stay cleaned mouth checked oxygen co adjusted laying position wanted take home sit outside talk upcoming april th mark one since gone feel died towards killing cant sleep remembering truck go hospital listen song socialize used become foreign need help cling people losing want independent simultaneously independence trying fly ball chain around else telling shortened story thank site granting sorry went place dont event,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Pregnancy and Anxiety My partner and I are planning to start trying for a second baby soon. In the summer of 2018, I had a very bad flare up of anxiety - panic attacks that lasted hours, chest pains, etc. While I have managed the anxiety better over time, I'm not back to where I was. I worry about being pregnant and having anxiety. 

I don't want horror stories, please. Frankly, I am looking for reassurance from others who have done it. How did you handle it?

Also, yes, I am going to talk with my ob/gyn about this and I am in the (very long) process of getting a therapist (it's been hard to find someone who fits my needs, but I'm trying!). Just looking for some anecdotal positive stuff to remind myself of - thanks! ",axienty,pregnancy anxiety partner planning start trying second baby soon summer bad flare panic attack lasted hour chest pain etc managed better time back worry pregnant want horror story please frankly looking reassurance others done handle also yes going talk ob gyn long process getting therapist hard find someone fit need anecdotal positive stuff remind thanks,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Immediate Relief of anxiety? I think I have depression and/or anxiety. 

I typically go through months of feeling perfectly fine, then out of no where, I go through bouts of anxiety/depression systems. 

My emotions are easily altered by what people say. If I am watching a movie, I feel a lot of empathy for the tragedy of the characters, even if I know it is fiction. If someone I respect does something disrespectful towards me, I over think it, and it can ruin my whole day. Growing up, my mother was really judgmental and  negative, and always made me paranoid about everything. Growing up, my mom would make me feel bad about doing stuff like working out, hanging out with friends (especially girls), and watching movies. My dad was uber successful, and she wanted me to just be like him. I still feel a little bit of shame when I do stuff like that. 

My bouts are manifested in one of two ways. 

One of the ways is that I feel a lot of fatigue. Even walking half a mile wears me out and can induce an anxiety attack. No matter how much I sleep, I feel shitty, and awful. If I push my body, it gives out and I get a full on panic attack, and doesn't get better until I take a nap. 

With the other kind of anxiety I have is negative energy. I feel jittery, my muscles tense up, my neck is tight, I speak at a fast pace, and sometimes my face hurts until I leave where I am (and this scares me a lot when it happens). Sometimes I get really bad headaches, but I'm surprisingly sharp and can recall a lot of details. 

I've tried journaling, meditating 20 minutes a day, and exercise. 

Is there anything I can do for immediate relief? ",axienty,immediate relief anxiety think depression typically go month feeling perfectly fine bout system emotion easily altered people say watching movie feel lot empathy tragedy character even know fiction someone respect something disrespectful towards ruin whole day growing mother really judgmental negative always made paranoid everything mom would make bad stuff like working hanging friend especially girl dad uber successful wanted still little bit shame manifested one two way fatigue walking half mile wear induce attack matter much sleep shitty awful push body give get full panic better take nap kind energy jittery muscle tense neck tight speak fast pace sometimes face hurt leave scare happens headache surprisingly sharp recall detail tried journaling meditating minute exercise anything,0.03,Neutral
"Does anyone else tremble so hard it’s painful? I’ve developed an anxiety issue over the last five months and I’m seeing a therapist and am on meds. That being said, when I start to get even a little anxious my body trembles. My muscles start contracting harder and my shakes get more violent the worse my anxiety gets. My trembling gets painful. As I wind down after an anxiety attack my body will randomly tense and shake until it subsides. It’s exhausting when it’s an all day thing until it peaks and I come down from like that tension. 

It was like this before meds and therapy. Does anyone else experience anything like this?",axienty,anyone else tremble hard painful developed anxiety issue last five month seeing therapist med said start get even little anxious body muscle contracting harder shake violent worse trembling wind attack randomly tense subsides exhausting day thing peak come like tension therapy experience anything,-0.31,Moderately Negative
"Panick attack inducing suicide ideation? I've heard a lot about panick attacks but have often had trouble identifying to the symptoms.
One I have heard the most about is thinking you might die. I have never experienced that, however I almost always convince myself I desperately WANT to die during my ""attacks""

Does anyone know if that could be a sign of panick attack? Or has ever experienced one this way?
I know I suffer from anxiety, but labelling these thoughts as a side effect of an anxiety attack could really help me stop taking them so seriously",axienty,panick attack inducing suicide ideation heard lot often trouble identifying symptom one thinking might die never experienced however almost always convince desperately want anyone know could sign ever way suffer anxiety labelling thought side effect really help stop taking seriously,-0.27,Moderately Negative
"Suffering from ""L'appel du vide"". (The call of the void). Hello everyone! 

I'm creating this thread because I really need help with my problem. 
I'm suffering from what we call ""L'appel du vide"".  Examples for this disorder: make a sudden 90 degree turn while driving, jumping off a cliff. We can also call that Suicidal Ideation.

So I'm driving for approximately a year now and everything was fine until a month ago. Now, I'm not suicidal at all, but when I'm driving I feel like I have the urge to make sudden 90 degree turns. It's even worse when I'm driving on the highway. I'm also aware that there are other drivers around me and it would be really... selfish to do this kind of move. 

In about a month I'll have to drive a lot and I really need to get rid of this. The worst part is, I was so excited to drive all by myself and now I suffer from this. 

I really need to talk to someone about this but I came here first for advices/help on getting rid of my disorder.
",axienty,suffering appel du vide call void hello everyone creating thread really need help problem example disorder make sudden degree turn driving jumping cliff also suicidal ideation approximately year everything fine month ago feel like urge even worse highway aware driver around would selfish kind move drive lot get rid worst part excited suffer talk someone came first advice getting,-0.02,Neutral
"i concentrate on all my symptoms way too hard hey guys! so i (female, 18) have had severe emetophobia (fear of vomiting) from anxiety for 10+ years now. i had it under control for a really long time but my anxiety is getting a lot worse now, causing me to miss class and other things (i’m a freshman in college). lately i’ve been experiencing a lot of depersonalization/derealization during my panic attacks, and in general feeling like the world is a step away. i am constantly scared of going crazy because in the throes of an attack i’ll think about things like how weird it is to be a person (like, “how does my body know how to make me talk when i tell it to” or idk if i concentrate on it, it’s weird to think that “i” am basically just a brain piloting a body) and obviously that just makes me feel totally insane. 

i also don’t sleep much/well due to a combination of classes and anxiety, so during the day i’m often falling asleep. i have the experience many people have when going to sleep where your thoughts are all over the place, except it happens when i’m not trying to fall asleep (more like actively trying to resist it), so it scares me to have random thoughts pop into my head, especially because i usually have a very ordered thought process. (these aren’t intrusive/violent, just random) i’m scared that it’s going to escalate into hallucinations or a psychotic episode or something. i’m always checking myself to see how i’m feeling, if i’m perceiving sensations in what checks out to me as a “normal” way.

has anyone else had these fears or feelings? it’s honestly very hard to deal with because i can’t get away from it - it’s my body. i just started seeing a therapist finally, after a long time without, but i won’t see her again until saturday. if you have similar experiences i’d love to hear it/your advice :-)",axienty,concentrate symptom way hard hey guy female severe emetophobia fear vomiting anxiety year control really long time getting lot worse causing miss class thing freshman college lately experiencing depersonalization derealization panic attack general feeling like world step away constantly scared going crazy throe think weird person body know make talk tell idk basically brain piloting obviously feel totally insane also sleep much well due combination day often falling asleep experience many people thought place except happens trying fall actively resist scare random pop head especially usually ordered process intrusive violent escalate hallucination psychotic episode something always checking see perceiving sensation check normal anyone else honestly deal get started seeing therapist finally without saturday similar love hear advice,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"What to do about self destructive thoughts and an overall depressed feeling late at night when getting ready for bed? Does anyone else notice these types of feelings happening to them regularly? I tend to get these types of feelings fairly often. Feelings of failure, of not being good enough and just an overall sense of uncertainty.

I'm going through a rough patch in my life currently and I'm not sure how to fix my Outlook or my attitude on my situation.",axienty,self destructive thought overall depressed feeling late night getting ready bed anyone else notice type happening regularly tend get fairly often failure good enough sense uncertainty going rough patch life currently sure fix outlook attitude situation,0.07,Moderately Positive
Paranoid that people will be able to find my threads in Reddit I sometimes ask for advice on how to deal with office politics or relationship problems on the relationships sub. I am often scared that the people I am talking about in those threads will happen to come across my threads and know that I am talking about them. Am I being paranoid? ,axienty,paranoid people able find thread reddit sometimes ask advice deal office politics relationship problem sub often scared talking happen come across know,0.5,Positive
"I hate not having anyone to talk to Everyone always says that I can always talk to them if I need to but they don’t understand. Every time I try talking to someone on here, they start getting really creepy really fast. 

If I try to talk to my boyfriend I feel like i’m being manipulative and abusive. So now I’m just sitting here by myself feeling like shit. Getting anxious and paranoid about everything and there’s nothing I can do. I hate myself and I just want this shit to be over.",axienty,hate anyone talk everyone always say need understand every time try talking someone start getting really creepy fast boyfriend feel like manipulative abusive sitting feeling shit anxious paranoid everything nothing want,-0.31,Moderately Negative
"What do you talk about in therapy? This might sound like a stupid question but what do you talk about during a therapy session? Is it just ways to deal with anxiety? Do you just talk about what’s going on in your life?

Genuinely curious as I have never gone but have been tossing the idea around. ",axienty,talk therapy might sound like stupid question session way deal anxiety going life genuinely curious never gone tossing idea around,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"Are SSRIs (like zoloft) effective for anxiety without Depression? My doctor has just prescribed me 25mg Zoloft for my anxiety. I think I mentioned feeling sad in my life before but this was not due to depression (because I definitely do feel happy on most days).
I heard antidepressants such as SSRIs could really affect mood and cause ""emotional blunting"".
To anyone with GAD without depression, how has this affected you? 
I'm wondering if I should take it or speak to my doctor about another possibility. Thanks.",axienty,ssri like zoloft effective anxiety without depression doctor prescribed mg think mentioned feeling sad life due definitely feel happy day heard antidepressant could really affect mood cause emotional blunting anyone gad affected wondering take speak another possibility thanks,0.15,Moderately Positive
"School trip has me anxious as hell! Tomorrow I leave for a school trip to NYC with our symphony band to play in front of judges at a competition. I’m not worried about that part, or being away from home, but mostly the fact that I’ll be traveling and exploring the city with a friend group that makes me worried about disagreements/enjoying myself, and that my girlfriend will be there with me. 

That sounds terrible. I love my girlfriend very very much, but spending three days together nonstop makes me terrified of being clingy or smothering. She’s a very chill, go-with-the-flow person, while I’m very Type A, need to know what’s happening all the time, and usually an anxious mess. I’m so so worried about being too clingy while we’re on the trip, but at the same time I’m worried about if she tells me she needs some space because she told me that she definitely wants to spend time with friends (of course she does, I have absolutely nothing against that at all). What do I do then? I’m a big girl, I know for sure I’m not reliant on my girlfriend, but it’s the matter of my ego taking a hit and feeling unwanted (plus I don’t have a ton of other friends going I can hang out with). 

The friend group I’ll be hanging out with is made up of me and my girlfriend, a mutual friend and her boyfriend, and two other friends. One of my friends in this group is very bold and assertive, which is by no means a bad thing, but I find it super hard to disagree with her. What if I can’t say no to something I don’t want to do? What if everyone else wants to do something that I don’t want to do? What if I want to do something that no one else wants to do? What if there’s a disagreement of some kind and things get awkward for three whole days? There are so many things that could go wrong!!!

This turned into an anxious rant. Guess I just needed to get that off my chest. I guess what I need is advice on how to get through a trip that’s already making me anxious, not suffocate my girlfriend, learn how to give her space, and navigate group dynamics. 

If you read all that, thanks a ton for reading my stream of consciousness. I would give you a cookie if I could.",axienty,school trip anxious hell tomorrow leave nyc symphony band play front judge competition worried part away home mostly fact traveling exploring city friend group make disagreement enjoying girlfriend sound terrible love much spending three day together nonstop terrified clingy smothering chill go flow person type need know happening time usually mess tell space told definitely want spend course absolutely nothing big girl sure reliant matter ego taking hit feeling unwanted plus ton going hang hanging made mutual boyfriend two one bold assertive mean bad thing find super hard disagree say something everyone else kind get awkward whole many could wrong turned rant guess needed chest advice already making suffocate learn give navigate dynamic read thanks reading stream consciousness would cookie,0.05,Moderately Positive
"It’s funny how you think you’ve beating it, but really it’s always been there in the background I went 8 years of complete normalcy while on Celexa. It was wonderful. I moved to a new city with my girlfriend at the time. I had many jobs, I even landed a record deal. So what’s wrong right now? I’m currently taking benzos again because I can’t fucking deal with this shit again. I know that’s a train ride you don’t want to take, and my doctor and I have a really good relationship over taking benzos, it’s just I’m tired, I’m defeated. 

To feel the grips of GAD again is horrifying. The waking up with cold sweats, the awful cold tension over your body, and eventually you puke, you cry, whatever. Insane cognitive distortions that make every illogical thought, logical. 

I’m in therapy and for the past 5 weeks it’s been a blast, but for some reason this weekend I felt like I got hit by a truck. Maybe it’s time to switch off Celexa, maybe 8 years is too long, I don’t know. I just know that for some reason I can’t shake this mentally with the tools I’ve learnt from therapy and to take an Ativan/Klonopin seems blissfully correct.

What’s funny is that this morning, I felt all the symptoms above and figure why not take an Ativan, my doctor takes them sometimes too. And for some dumb reason it wasn’t working. Which makes you think, wow I’m really in deep water now that 1mg does dick all. It’s only the second time I’ve taken it too!

This whole block of text is convoluted, but it does feel good to write about it.  

",axienty,funny think beating really always background went year complete normalcy celexa wonderful moved new city girlfriend time many job even landed record deal wrong right currently taking benzos fucking shit know train ride want take doctor good relationship tired defeated feel grip gad horrifying waking cold sweat awful tension body eventually puke cry whatever insane cognitive distortion make every illogical thought logical therapy past week blast reason weekend felt like got hit truck maybe switch long shake mentally tool learnt ativan klonopin seems blissfully correct morning symptom figure sometimes dumb working wow deep water mg dick second taken whole block text convoluted write,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Cure for anxiety disorder but not nofap Nofap is just a distraction not the cure..while using nofap it ofcourse feels good because  
1.u are proud of your streak
2.u have only one negative thought in ur mind that is to fap but u are controlling that.every time u r lonely the only negative thought comes is u want to fap
..but the truth is that one day u are going to fap and u r gonna feel terrible than ever before
3. Happy people does not do nofap.. If they do they r not gonna get any benefits
4.if u r doing nofap since u r depressed, it is likely u have anxiety disorder
5.the only way to overcome anxiety disorder  is to change ur thought... 
    How to change ur thought.. 
     1.now what u are trying to do is believing on something like nofap that it will change ur future.. The truth is that u need to believe yourself.. If u completely believe on nofap, even though u feel like u got superpowers during nofap, one day when u relapse the things r upside down and u will be depressed than ever before. So what is the final cure
    2.u must accept ur bad incidents and keep on moving...
        What we actually do? 
      We will be depressed thinking of the bad incidents that had happened and will start searching for the cure like ""I shouldn't have behaved in such a way.. I must be cured""..finally reaching for something like nofap.. This is the wrong thing
          What me must do? 
 We must change our thinking.. But it is not that easy.. Whenever we come across any stressful situations we must not hurt ourself by asking for cure in the internet from feeling in such a way.. It actually worsens ur stress.. Instead we must accept the feeling and think like ""it's OK all is well""...every time u feel bad or getting nervous say ""it's OK.. All is well""..its may sound like a waste thing for many suffering from depression, but this thing actually works because u have no more reason to get worry and waste time..the people suffering from anxiety disorder it may take an year of this practice to recover or make ur brain rewire...u will finally understand what really is anxiety disorder..
     ",axienty,cure anxiety disorder nofap distraction using ofcourse feel good proud streak one negative thought ur mind fap controlling every time lonely come want truth day going gonna terrible ever happy people get benefit since depressed likely way overcome change trying believing something like future need believe completely even though got superpower relapse thing upside final must accept bad incident keep moving actually thinking happened start searching behaved cured finally reaching wrong easy whenever across stressful situation hurt ourself asking internet feeling worsens stress instead think ok well getting nervous say may sound waste many suffering depression work reason worry take year practice recover make brain rewire understand really,0.08,Moderately Positive
"I went to the doctor for my anxiety today and it went terribly Hey guys, I've been a lurker on this sub for a while now, but because of what happened today I've decided to post this just to vent because it didn't go the way I hoped it would. Sorry about this long wall of text!

Just to preface this i'm 17 and have had social anxiety and general anxiety for years at this point and have wanted to get help for it, but... well, I've been too anxious to :P. I always just said i'd sort it out later and just tried to avoid or deal with the anxiety. This sub has been pretty helpful, especially seeing people who go through the same things that I do but recently its been getting pretty bad. About 3 days ago I started developing a ""tic"" which involves my head jerking back or to the side every couple of minutes/seconds depending on how anxious I am. I think this happened because I've realised how close exams are and how unprepared/unrevised I am for them and other anxiety causing things (like other people existing xD).  

Anyways, my parents decided I needed to get this sorted out if its getting too bad, so they decided to make an appointment. I was already anxious because I only had one days warning which made me double anxious. Anyways, onward to my appointment, I was already anxious because I was in public and looked crazy because of my tic and also  I was at my normal doctor but I wasn't seeing my regular GP, instead I was seeing another doctor that I didn't know.

I waited in the waiting room for a while and then got called into the room (I was there with my dad so he came as well). When I went in there was a man in what I would say was his mid 50's, with a blank expression and judging eyes (lol). He was the most monotone and slow (as in the way he acted and moved) person I have ever met. Imagine the sloth from Zootopia mixed with a ""SHHHHH"" librarian and a sprinkle of judgement and dissmisiveness. I honestly think he may have been on some sedative/drug by the way he acted TBH.  I thought this appointment would be the ""Hi, what are your symptoms, does this happen ? oh you probably have this, do this and this to make it easier/ to help"" type , I guess not. 

When I went in and sat down he just glared at me for a solid 5 seconds (why tho ?). For the next part ill be paraphrasing because I don't remember the exact things he said but ill try my best. The first thing he said to me was ""why are you here then"" in a bored voice, me being the anxious person I am just said ""well, i'm anxious, I think i have social anxiety and general anxiety"", he then said ""OK"" in the slowest and most untrusting tone I've heard for a while. He asked me a couple of questions like ""what is your default state of mind"", again being anxious I said ""anxious most of the time"", ""What is your social life, do you have any friends?"", ""Non existent and pretty much no because I'm too anxious to talk to people"". He asked about school and I said I'm doing OK, but that it's hard because I cant ask the teacher questions in class etc because I'm too anxious and don't want to be looked at or else my face goes red and my eyes start to water and also all the other things that come with general and social anxiety. At this point my face started to go red and I just blinked a lot so I was obviously visibly anxious (as well as the tics lol).   He then preceded to tell me that he ""cant do anything"" and that I should talk to a school councillor (my school doesn't have one) and maybe I should come back when I'm 18 because I could then get adult counselling and also he wouldn't want to treat it medically. Probably the funniest part was when he said that I should ""look online"" to get some help. Wow thank you! I had never thought of that!!! \\s

 The whole time I explained he had the blankest look I've ever seen on a human face. The only thing he did was print of a sheet with some websites on like the Samaritans and 2 other websites and said I should have a look. The way he went to print off that sheet literally looked like he was doing it in slow motion though with how slow/tranquillised he was. He did talk about a place in my city where I could go to look for help which is in the town centre. I'm pretty sure he didn't understand I would be too anxious to go there (my dad says hes gonna make me go there anyways :P). My dad asked about the tics and he said ""Its a physical manifestation of the anxiety"" which was probably the longest sentence he managed to say about my anxiety during this whole thing. I'm sure I didn't do this conversation justice but just imagine the most ""whatever"" doctor and then imagine them being sedated with horse tranquilliser.

That appointment was full of loooong pauses which made it even worse. Anyways, in the aftermath I'm pretty sure I don't want to go to the doctors again. My dad said hes going to get me an appointment with his doctor who's much nicer once I'm 18 (in 1-2 months) but I'm not sure if I want to. My dad agrees he was terrible so at least It wasn't just me. The only upside to this is that my mum contacted my school to tell them why I was off and apparently I might be able to get concessions (I think that's what it's called) where exams are marked more leniently. Although my head of year is going to tell all of my  teachers whats wrong with me (I think they just assumed i was awkward) because I never told them but I haven't in the first place because I never got a diagnosis ( technically still don't but I am not going to try to go back and go through that again, but he did say it was anxiety at one point sooo) and also I'm too anxious to.

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Because of this, it has really put me off trying to get help if it will just make it worse than I started. I wish I was just a normal, non anxious human :P

​

Sorry if I over exaggerated at all, this  just happened to me so it's probably gonna be on my mind for a while ;P. ATM i just feel defeated and sad. I really hope this doesn't come off as a pity post because I just wanted to vent. Anybody else gone though the same ? ",axienty,went doctor anxiety today terribly hey guy lurker sub happened decided post vent go way hoped would sorry long wall text preface social general year point wanted get help well anxious always said sort later tried avoid deal pretty helpful especially seeing people thing recently getting bad day ago started developing tic involves head jerking back side every couple minute second depending think realised close exam unprepared unrevised causing like existing xd anyways parent needed sorted make appointment already one warning made double onward public looked crazy also normal regular gp instead another know waited waiting room got called dad came man say mid blank expression judging eye lol monotone slow acted moved person ever met imagine sloth zootopia mixed shhhhh librarian sprinkle judgement dissmisiveness honestly may sedative drug tbh thought hi symptom happen oh probably easier type guess sat glared solid tho next part ill paraphrasing remember exact try best first bored voice ok slowest untrusting tone heard asked question default state mind time life friend non existent much talk school hard cant ask teacher class etc want else face red start water come blinked lot obviously visibly preceded tell anything councillor maybe could adult counselling treat medically funniest look online wow thank never whole explained blankest seen human print sheet website samaritan literally motion though tranquillised place city town centre sure understand he gonna physical manifestation longest sentence managed conversation justice whatever sedated horse tranquilliser full loooong pause even worse aftermath going nicer month agrees terrible least upside mum contacted apparently might able concession marked leniently although whats wrong assumed awkward told diagnosis technically still sooo really put trying wish exaggerated atm feel defeated sad hope pity anybody gone,-0.04,Neutral
"Anxiety vent I honestly just feel so fed up.  I just feel like I am spinning out some days. I don’t even know what my damn triggers are half the time. Or if I even have them when it comes to general anxiety. I don’t even know why I get so upset and then I go on these day long crying jags that leave my SO wondering how he can fix me even though so many times I tell him that he can’t and also that it isn’t his responsibility to do so.

Thank you for reading if you did. I hope this doesn’t break any rules, I just wanted to try & put some words to how I’m feeling and honestly it just feels like spinning out of control. All rational thought just goes on the window.",axienty,anxiety vent honestly feel fed like spinning day even know damn trigger half time come general get upset go long cry jag leave wondering fix though many tell also responsibility thank reading hope break rule wanted try put word feeling control rational thought window,0.19,Moderately Positive
"[17F] Extreme fear of vomiting and right on the verge of throwing up. Has anyone else experienced this? I’m currently in tears right now, my stomach is in knots and I’m huddled over the toilet. I don’t know if I’ll get any responses in time but if anyone could possibly help me calm down or at least attempt to I’d really appreciate it. I’m very scared and I know the logical thing to do would just be to throw up but I can’t do it. I’m so so close but i just don’t know how to let it happen without freaking out. ",axienty,extreme fear vomiting right verge throwing anyone else experienced currently tear stomach knot huddled toilet know get response time could possibly help calm least attempt really appreciate scared logical thing would throw close let happen without freaking,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I've been having bathroom anxiety lately and it's ruining my life. This has come up in the past few months of my life. I have panic attacks if I don't have access to a bathroom and a feeling like I have to pee or I'll wet myself. The crazy thing is I have never wet myself as an adult, but when ever I sit still I feel like like I'm gonna pee myself. If I'm sitting in class and realize that I just went to the bathroom and would be weird to keep getting up. I have this feeling of being trapped and start to panic. I don't know what to do about it and it's hindering my ability to have a normal life. ",axienty,bathroom anxiety lately ruining life come past month panic attack access feeling like pee wet crazy thing never adult ever sit still feel gonna sitting class realize went would weird keep getting trapped start know hindering ability normal,-0.23,Moderately Negative
"I [22F] have had a panic attack every time I drink, even just one beer, since October. DAE have similar symptoms? Possible trigger: going over the details of my panic attacks 

In October of 2018 I went to a musical festival with my friends and we all got very drunk. I had a blast at the festival but when we got home around 2 am I was sobering up and had the worst panic attack of my life. Luckily my best friend was there to help me but I was crying hysterically on the bathroom floor asking my friend to kill me to make it stop. It lasted 2 hours. I tried taking Ativan but I was so upset I kept throwing it up. 

When I came back to my college town after the festival I talked to my doctor and she upped my Ativan prescription and prescribed me a rescue inhaler which has been tremendously helpful. Things have gone pretty much back to normal but now I can't drink alcohol. It's not a huge deal but I'm confused because I've drank socially since I was like 16 but now even if I have 1 beer I have a panic attack about 2 hours after I drink. Does anyone else feel this way? It's not while I'm drinking it's always an hour or two after when I get home. I drank 1 beer at dinner last night and while I was trying to fall asleep I thought I was going to die and had to pile a bunch of blankets on top of me to calm down. I'm at the point I'll probably never drink again but I was wondering if other people with anxiety have the same symptoms even when they drink enough to be drunk. Sorry for the long post ",axienty,panic attack every time drink even one beer since october dae similar symptom possible trigger going detail went musical festival friend got drunk blast home around sobering worst life luckily best help cry hysterically bathroom floor asking kill make stop lasted hour tried taking ativan upset kept throwing came back college town talked doctor upped prescription prescribed rescue inhaler tremendously helpful thing gone pretty much normal alcohol huge deal confused drank socially like anyone else feel way drinking always two get dinner last night trying fall asleep thought die pile bunch blanket top calm point probably never wondering people anxiety enough sorry long post,-0.02,Neutral
"She's been attack free for months now. There seems to be a downside to this though, our relationship is taking a turn for the worst. The doctor said one of the side effects would be a loss of sex drive, which I understood and was ok with as long as it helped her. Lately though she's been just colder to me. We had a talk the other day and she says she still loves me, but more as a friend.",axienty,attack free month seems downside though relationship taking turn worst doctor said one side effect would loss sex drive understood ok long helped lately colder talk day say still love friend,0.01,Neutral
"Does anyone else find depression a relief? I suffer mostly from anxiety and it’s pretty severe a lot of days even though I’m high functioning.  Today I’m suffering from depression, which comes less frequently for me but I had to just stop and think about how much of a relief it is to go from giving too much of a shit about everything to giving no shits at all about anything. ",axienty,anyone else find depression relief suffer mostly anxiety pretty severe lot day even though high functioning today suffering come le frequently stop think much go giving shit everything anything,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Buspar is making me sick...? I have been taking various doses of Buspirone for probably 4 years now.  I started at 10mg per day, and now i take 45mg total per day.  
It has always been fine for me.  If I take it on a completely empty stomach it might make me a little queasy.  
But about a month ago, every time I take one, even if I take it with plenty of food, theres a good 20 minutes of 'oh god, I am seriously about to throw up.'
Its gotten to the point where I just dont take it anymore.  Sometimes I can really feel the anxiety and know I need it, so I give them another chance and they make me sick.

I read that they can cause nausea, but why would it just be starting now?",axienty,buspar making sick taking various dos buspirone probably year started mg per day take total always fine completely empty stomach might make little queasy month ago every time one even plenty food there good minute oh god seriously throw gotten point dont anymore sometimes really feel anxiety know need give another chance read cause nausea would starting,0.0,Neutral
"Yet my job requires me to always be reachable and the staff under me always ask me to help them, but I can't even help myself. I'm torn between wanting to be alone, wanting to reach out for help, talking to people just so I can yell and push them away. I don't know what to do. That's a lie, I think I do but I don't want to. Any effort is exhausting and I can't bring myself to fix it.",axienty,yet job requires always reachable staff ask help even torn wanting alone reach talking people yell push away know lie think want effort exhausting bring fix,-0.4,Moderately Negative
"My first time home alone and I'm extremely anxious. I'm 17 years old and suffer with anxiety. My parents are going away this weekend and it will be my first weekend alone. I've never been alone over night because I've always been extremely anxious and afraid of doing it. I always have worries of bad things happening and it makes me panic.

If anyone has any advice for how to cope with this situation I would be extremely grateful. Thank you.",axienty,first time home alone extremely anxious year old suffer anxiety parent going away weekend never night always afraid worry bad thing happening make panic anyone advice cope situation would grateful thank,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"Theatre is an absolute nightmare So I’m currently in a theatre arts class at my school, which I thought would be a great thing to sign up for since I really liked tech theatre. The main problem is that I have to perform in front of my small class of 20 ish. (no really big plays because only honors theatre students can do that) I worked really hard memorizing my small monologue because it’s a test grade, and I didn’t think I’d have a problem acting it out. The moment I gave my teacher my script I went full on panic. (I have a long history of panic attacks and anxiety) I knew my lines I just couldn’t speak and I was visibly shaking. After I repeated my second line almost 3 times, I covered my face and almost broke out in tears, and I finally asked if I could start over. My teacher let me start over,luckily, and I got through it. I honestly feel really embarrassed, and I will have to do the same monologue again soon. Does anyone have any strategies to help me not panic when I have to act out my monologue? ",axienty,theatre absolute nightmare currently art class school thought would great thing sign since really liked tech main problem perform front small ish big play honor student worked hard memorizing monologue test grade think acting moment gave teacher script went full panic long history attack anxiety knew line speak visibly shaking repeated second almost time covered face broke tear finally asked could start let luckily got honestly feel embarrassed soon anyone strategy help act,0.16,Moderately Positive
"How do you fight the sense of impending doom? I feel it all the time. It's usually mild, in the background, with some peaks of fear or even seconds of absolute panic, but it never goes away. It's the feeling that something terrible is just around the corner, but nothing ever happens.  I know it's pretty common. How do you deal with it?",axienty,fight sense impending doom feel time usually mild background peak fear even second absolute panic never go away feeling something terrible around corner nothing ever happens know pretty common deal,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Anyone else having difficulty getting Xanax prescription? I’ve been on .5 Xanax for over ten years. I take maybe 30/year, whenever i fly or am out of town or feel like I’m far away from a hospital. I live in a big city and the doctor’s and PAs in my doctor’s office are constantly changing, and now I’ve moved and switched doctors, and every time i feel like my doctors are suspicious and the last couple of times I’ve had difficulty getting my prescription. Once my doctor was flat out rude to me. I have a friend who is a pharmacist and says there is a database that keeps track of my prescriptions that the doctors have access to, so I know they can see that I’m not some kind of addict. Is there something going on that is making it hard to get prescriptions? I’m starting to panic a little bit. I couldn’t get a refill filled despite having only gotten ten pills this year and now have to go into the office tomorrow morning. I have flights booked for a vacation this weekend and I just don’t understand why it’s so difficult to get the prescription.",axienty,anyone else difficulty getting xanax prescription ten year take maybe whenever fly town feel like far away hospital live big city doctor pa office constantly changing moved switched every time suspicious last couple flat rude friend pharmacist say database keep track access know see kind addict something going making hard get starting panic little bit refill filled despite gotten pill go tomorrow morning flight booked vacation weekend understand difficult,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Treatment through Primary Care Hi all, I'm asking this primarily for a friend (though I suffer from anxiety as well). How many of you have successfully treated your anxiety primarily through your PCP? I'm curious about the effectiveness.",axienty,treatment primary care hi asking primarily friend though suffer anxiety well many successfully treated pcp curious effectiveness,0.39,Moderately Positive
"Waking up? I just woke up in the middle of the night in an EXTREME panic for, what seems to be no specific reason?! It was about 10 minutes ago and it's better but its still super intense. I have really irregular sleep habits so I was surprised I fell asleep that early. I'm debating whether I'm awake for a while nor or if I should try to sleep again. ",axienty,waking woke middle night extreme panic seems specific reason minute ago better still super intense really irregular sleep habit surprised fell asleep early debating whether awake try,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Dealing with Weight How do you deal with weight gain from Meds? 
Any GAD Meds that don’t cause weight gain? 
Any tips/advice is greatly welcomed and appreciated. 

I’ve been dealing with weight gain from taking Lexapro for almost a year now. I haven’t gained a tremendous amount (10ish pds), but I’ve never been very big and have been dealing with anxiety about the weight gain.. 

I’ve tried to diet/gym/join programs, but I have such a hard time staying motivated. 
When it comes to the gym/working out in general, I get paranoid and discouraged when I’m not able to perform as well as my mind wants me to. So I end up giving up. 

I live at the beach and I’m dreading summer because none of my bikinis fit.. also have a cruise coming up in July, a bridesmaid in November, and my wedding next May... ",axienty,dealing weight deal gain med gad cause tip advice greatly welcomed appreciated taking lexapro almost year gained tremendous amount ish pd never big anxiety tried diet gym join program hard time staying motivated come working general get paranoid discouraged able perform well mind want end giving live beach dreading summer none bikini fit also cruise coming july bridesmaid november wedding next may,0.21,Moderately Positive
I have never felt more anxious and overwhelmed I don’t know what’s wrong with me I’m shaking I feel like I’m close to a break down I can’t cope with this I’ve been so good for so long I’m so alone ,axienty,never felt anxious overwhelmed know wrong shaking feel like close break cope good long alone,-0.03,Neutral
"I want to delete all social media but cannot bring myself to do it. I’m a senior in high school, the real world is coming at me fast. I’ve been able to get by in school without paying much attention in class, not having to study too much. Whenever I’m not at school, I’ve found myself glued to my phone. I’m always looking at other people’s lives. People I absolutely do not care about at all. I fully acknowledge this and still do it. I guess it’s extreme FOMO? Don’t want to lose snapchat streaks for fear of losing friends? Snapchat is really the main way of communication between friends from my old school and myself (transferred away this year). I don’t want to lose my friends, but I know I need to get rid of the pointless distractions in my life in order to get focused. Anybody else have the same problems?",axienty,want delete social medium cannot bring senior high school real world coming fast able get without paying much attention class study whenever found glued phone always looking people life absolutely care fully acknowledge still guess extreme fomo lose snapchat streak fear losing friend really main way communication old transferred away year know need rid pointless distraction order focused anybody else problem,0.13,Moderately Positive
"First Doctor's Appointment Tomorrow (Need Help) Hi everyone,

This is my first post official post here. Tomorrow I have an appointment with a psychiatrist in order to get my medication back on track, and I'm absolutely terrified. A few years ago I was diagnosed with panic disorder and agoraphobia. I was seeing a doctor who was able to come see me in my house, but this doctor is now no longer in practice. I am unable to find another doctor who is able to come see me, and I have been spreading my anxiety medication incredibly thin until I could see someone else. However, I will have to go to their office, up three stories, and sit in an office, and it's all sounding incredibly overwhelming. I don't have any family where I live, so I will have to do this alone and it's sounding pretty impossible. I know that there are good things that will come out of this, but right now I can't seem to get past how anxious it is making me. To me, such a simple task seems like climbing Mt. Everest, and I thought that maybe some of you might be able to relate. I'm feeling pretty hopeless, so I hope that I can speak with some of you about this.

Thanks so much.",axienty,first doctor appointment tomorrow need help hi everyone post official psychiatrist order get medication back track absolutely terrified year ago diagnosed panic disorder agoraphobia seeing able come see house longer practice unable find another spreading anxiety incredibly thin could someone else however go office three story sit sounding overwhelming family live alone pretty impossible know good thing right seem past anxious making simple task seems like climbing mt everest thought maybe might relate feeling hopeless hope speak thanks much,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I worry about terrible things I could do. Does anyone else do this? I constantly worry about what terrible things I could do even though I would never do them. I could be sitting and petting my cat and feel super anxious about what would happen if I lost control of myself and threw her down the stairs. Those thoughts would consume me for a few minutes before going away for a while. Another common one is thinking about what would happen if I beat up an elderly person I'm with. Again, I think about what would happen if I just lost control and started doing it. I think about the pain they'd be in and the bleeding and it makes me feel like a terrible person even though I would never do it.

  


TL;DR; I feel anxious about anything I could do to cause others pain, even though I'd never do them.",axienty,worry terrible thing could anyone else constantly even though would never sitting petting cat feel super anxious happen lost control threw stair thought consume minute going away another common one thinking beat elderly person think started pain bleeding make like tl dr anything cause others,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"Anyone committed to meds after counselling didn't work? Hi all, as per the title.

I haven't tried counselling/therapy, although I have completed a program in CBT and know how it works (how to spot thoughts, counter unhelpful or emotional thinking etc) as well as knowing various mindfulness techniques (grounding myself, body scans etc). I haven't gone to counselling because it would cost about €200 a month, and while technically I can afford it, I have better uses for that money than spending it on something I don't feel will work overall. My doctor's approach is to wean me off meds (Escitalopram) under the assumption I'll somehow learn to manage anxiety without them. I don't think I ever will. My anxiety is rising now while on them, and even with all my thought rationalization and grounding techniques, I'm struggling to stay positive or sleep.

So my question is, has anyone essentially committed to meds as the solution to managing their anxiety, and if so, how did your doctor come to the conclusion that that was the way to go over counselling etc?",axienty,anyone committed med counselling work hi per title tried therapy although completed program cbt know spot thought counter unhelpful emotional thinking etc well knowing various mindfulness technique grounding body scan gone would cost month technically afford better us money spending something feel overall doctor approach wean escitalopram assumption somehow learn manage anxiety without think ever rising even rationalization struggling stay positive sleep question essentially solution managing come conclusion way go,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Excessive Anxiety when getting text messages, emails, and even Reddit notifications! Wat do? Hello.
I take 100 mg Zoloft which helps me a lot. However, I find it doesn’t get me out of a spiral of worry when there there’s notifications, especially when it’s someone who normally doesn’t text me. 

Now I’m also a student in college (my ex is trying to make me lose my job. He has very poor mental health as well. I feel like this is slowly turning into what Ariana grande Mac Miller situation and how she was wrongfully blamed for his PD ), which is added anxiety.

Now therapy is sort of a thing. I start and stop a lot. I’m better when I’ve got a good therapist, but it doesn’t help our schools hospital doesn’t have enough time ( once every three weeks isn’t enough!!!)....

What can I do to help my excessive  stress response and freaking out about making a mistake, which is unavoidable...

I’m open to adjusting medication as well, but I feel like Zoloft is for general happiness! If an anxiety stimulus is strong enough, it cannot help me. ",axienty,excessive anxiety getting text message email even reddit notification wat hello take mg zoloft help lot however find get spiral worry especially someone normally also student college ex trying make lose job poor mental health well feel like slowly turning ariana grande mac miller situation wrongfully blamed pd added therapy sort thing start stop better got good therapist school hospital enough time every three week stress response freaking making mistake unavoidable open adjusting medication general happiness stimulus strong cannot,0.11,Moderately Positive
Hypochondria/Health Anxiety. Any tips to stop having it? Its 2 AM right now and I’m worrying I have undiagnosed brain cancer I’ll soon be dead from. It doesn’t help that my grandfather died from a brain tumor. ,axienty,hypochondria health anxiety tip stop right worrying undiagnosed brain cancer soon dead help grandfather died tumor,0.04,Neutral
"In the past few months anxiety got the most out of me. Since then, I don’t feel love for my partner. Is that normal? Throwaway account because obvious reasons. 

I feel guilty that I can’t say ‘I love you’ back most of the time because I simply don’t feel that way. 

Last years I’ve been working so hard to be someone I am not and right know I lost who I actually am. Most of the time that results in anxiety attacks because of big choices I need to make or I get depressed by disappointing so many people. Since I lost myself, and don’t know who I am, I’m struggling to love myself in the process. Let alone love someone else. But it feels wrong to live life with someone that I don’t have feelings for anymore. Is this normal because I’m focused on myself and this is just part of the process?",axienty,past month anxiety got since feel love partner normal throwaway account obvious reason guilty say back time simply way last year working hard someone right know lost actually result attack big choice need make get depressed disappointing many people struggling process let alone else wrong live life feeling anymore focused part,-0.04,Neutral
"Anxiety with a break up? Hey everyone, let me start by saying I haven't been diagnosed or anything but I plan on seeing a dr soon. I've always been a really anxious person, I had a lot of nervous habits as a child, I've never been great socially, I always worry and feel bad things will happen and I prefer to be alone at home. Looking back I don't know how I didn't see how much it affected my life choices and now I'm almost 40 my life is a mess. Not entirely because of that but I can see it's an issue now. In recent years I really isolated myself to the point I have one friend, no social life, and I don't work but that's because my daughter has issues and needs me around. Anyway, I was recently broken up with by someone I had made my whole world. He never treated me well and it's much better it's over but I'm having a really hard time letting go and moving on. I've been a complete nutcase emotionally which is probably normal but I'm sure it's some kind of obsession more than genuine feelings, and I now have a constant feeling of panic, im hurt and sad sure but mostly I can physically feel this anxious, panicky feeling all the time and now it's even waking me up at night and it's stopping me not thinking about him, Has anyone else experienced that? I'm so desperate to start dealing with it. ",axienty,anxiety break hey everyone let start saying diagnosed anything plan seeing dr soon always really anxious person lot nervous habit child never great socially worry feel bad thing happen prefer alone home looking back know see much affected life choice almost mess entirely issue recent year isolated point one friend social work daughter need around anyway recently broken someone made whole world treated well better hard time letting go moving complete nutcase emotionally probably normal sure kind obsession genuine feeling constant panic im hurt sad mostly physically panicky even waking night stopping thinking anyone else experienced desperate dealing,0.01,Neutral
"I can't bear the thought of losing my mom or brother so much that I want to die before them If I die while we're  still living together, it'll kinda be like I'm just drifting into a dreamless sleep and the next day we'll all hang out as usual (though it never comes obviously for me obviously)",axienty,bear thought losing mom brother much want die still living together kinda like drifting dreamless sleep next day hang usual though never come obviously,-0.01,Neutral
"Constantly tensing parts of your body? catching myself with tense shoulders/hands without realizing it, feeling dumb about it maybe its some sort of stimming thing or aspergers as one therapist suggested i might have (and i really dont want to have) but i catch myself literally all the time, even as im typing this, with raised tense shoulders, and if im just using the mouse my other hand is almost clenched. part of it is poor blood circulation and feeling cold but i also feel its anxiety, idk.  wondering if anyone else experiences this",axienty,constantly tensing part body catching tense shoulder hand without realizing feeling dumb maybe sort stimming thing aspergers one therapist suggested might really dont want catch literally time even im typing raised using mouse almost clenched poor blood circulation cold also feel anxiety idk wondering anyone else experience,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"Tried to get help but doctor gave me more anxiety (venting) I won't go into too much detail but I had actually made a post on Reddit asking if the doctor was inappropriate due to some comments he made and I got a resounding YES. so I've had to fire him. 

Now I'm just anxious about waiting another year for help when I'm absolutely bombing my college classes that I'm retaking now because I failed due to anxiety last year!! It feels like a repeat except now instead of wasting just 5 grand it's 10. 

I can tell I'm not doing well and things with my boyfriend are becoming strained. I feel anxious about that as well because if we break up I essentially have no where to go and he knows that so I often wonder how much he puts up with because he feels sorry for me. He's supporting me while I go to school and we have a lot riding in my passing in order for us to become financially stable. 

I just desperately wanted a doctor who will know my meds and help me with cbt/dbt but its essentially back to self regulating. I had a really shit childhood and a lot of emotional baggage but I have nowhere to express these problems. I can hardly vent to friends, its far beyond their paygrade. My boyfriend says I only have negative things to say half the time so I've tried to stop bringing it up but I just sometimes want to get it out. 

Bleh sorry this was just a word vomity mess. I just needed to vent and you guys seem to understand. Thanks if you read.",axienty,tried get help doctor gave anxiety venting go much detail actually made post reddit asking inappropriate due comment got resounding yes fire anxious waiting another year absolutely bombing college class retaking failed last feel like repeat except instead wasting grand tell well thing boyfriend becoming strained break essentially know often wonder put sorry supporting school lot riding passing order u become financially stable desperately wanted med cbt dbt back self regulating really shit childhood emotional baggage nowhere express problem hardly vent friend far beyond paygrade say negative half time stop bringing sometimes want bleh word vomity mess needed guy seem understand thanks read,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Undiagnosed anxiety? Hello all! I vented a problem I have with overthinking and being sensitive on the relationships advice forum if you guys want a bit of background. But the gist is I worry about past issues that happened a year ago and they cause me to stress out, shake, sweat, and I can’t control it. Am I having a hard time forgiving? Or should I go get checked for a form of anxiety?",axienty,undiagnosed anxiety hello vented problem overthinking sensitive relationship advice forum guy want bit background gist worry past issue happened year ago cause stress shake sweat control hard time forgiving go get checked form,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"How does one 'deal' with social anxiety  Abit of context here, i just started my first job in a advertising agency(my dad arranged a job interview without letting me know). I just got off an introductory meeting with the whole staff and i felt like it was sucking the life out of me. I was told to present my portfolio to show what i can do and bring to the team. I can't stand the spotlight, i feel sick in the stomach whenever i do, my mind immediately becomes clouded and i'm unable to think straight. Needless to say, it went badly, i was stuttering alot and i often lose track of what i wanted to say. After the meeting, my supervisor even pulled me aside to lecture me about how unprepared i was. It's only my first day and i already feel like quitting. It was only after the day had ended, i found out that i have social anxiety. I keep getting told that i have to learn to 'deal' with it, but no one ever told me HOW to deal with it???",axienty,one deal social anxiety abit context started first job advertising agency dad arranged interview without letting know got introductory meeting whole staff felt like sucking life told present portfolio show bring team stand spotlight feel sick stomach whenever mind immediately becomes clouded unable think straight needle say went badly stuttering alot often lose track wanted supervisor even pulled aside lecture unprepared day already quitting ended found keep getting learn ever,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"Worry Script Long time lurker. I started going through anxietybc.com tools and I'd heard and read about worry scripts before. I tried it for the first time. 

I feel my imagination/anxiety really runs free. In this worry script, I lose my job, partner, and end up suicidal. It was pretty intense. I know that it is supposed to be. 

But should I be doing a debrief or trying to challenge these thoughts? Have other people done worry scripts on their own. Was it helpful?",axienty,worry script long time lurker started going anxietybc com tool heard read tried first feel imagination anxiety really run free lose job partner end suicidal pretty intense know supposed debrief trying challenge thought people done helpful,0.21,Moderately Positive
"GP Doctor ignoring my requests for help Hi all, long time lurker here but first time poster. I have a question about my general practitioner and if shes purposely ignoring my symptoms and if I should go somewhere else. So I have never talked to a doctor about my anxiety or depression till this month. I havent had insurance in about six years so I finally decided it was time. In the last year I started experiencing what I called being high. I didnt know how to explain my symptoms for a while but now I know its panic attacks. Bouts of dizziness, eye fog, feeling tingly and terrible ear ringing almost constantly. These would last anywhere from an thirty minutes to 4 hours sometimes. I wake up every day and go to sleep with my ears rinding. In the last three months it has become so common that its interfering with my work pretty often. So I found a local female general practitioner and scheduled an appointment. I had to talk my boyfriend out of taking me to the emergency room a few times before my appointment in hopes she'd have some type of answers for me (without the emergency room bill)

​

So I get to my appt, explain to her my symptoms and she started going through the different medications she could put me on, and tried to talk me in to Zoloft. This was before any type of blood work or anything was done. I told her I'm not interested in Zoloft because I'm not comfortable with the side effects and also why would anyone just agree to something to serious without giving it thought? So we agreed we'd do bloodwork to see if anything was off and she'd get back together with me and we'd discuss sending me over to a neurologist to make sure nothing else could be causing these episodes (My mom had a brain tumor so needed to rule that out)

​

So my results show up, nothing is off and theres a note from her asking for me to schedule with her in a YEAR for my yearly appt...nothing else. I called the office so ask for clarification and after some run around the nurse finally told me they were working on scheduling me with their neurologist. 

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Its now been almost a month, I havent heard from any neurologist, nor my doctor about follow ups. I start school in less than a month and am terrified this will cause me even more problems. What do I do? Do I find a different doctor and try again?",axienty,gp doctor ignoring request help hi long time lurker first poster question general practitioner shes purposely symptom go somewhere else never talked anxiety depression till month havent insurance six year finally decided last started experiencing called high didnt know explain panic attack bout dizziness eye fog feeling tingly terrible ear ringing almost constantly would anywhere thirty minute hour sometimes wake every day sleep rinding three become common interfering work pretty often found local female scheduled appointment talk boyfriend taking emergency room hope type answer without bill get appt going different medication could put tried zoloft blood anything done told interested comfortable side effect also anyone agree something serious giving thought agreed bloodwork see back together discus sending neurologist make sure nothing causing episode mom brain tumor needed rule result show there note asking schedule yearly office ask clarification run around nurse working scheduling heard follow ups start school le terrified cause even problem find try,0.01,Neutral
"Bad anxiety tonight- any methods for relief? I don’t want to have a drink. I’m periodically crying and am constantly shaking.

I’m a 28 year-old male.",axienty,bad anxiety tonight method relief want drink periodically cry constantly shaking year old male,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"Work screw up I screwed up at work. I didn’t fess up to it, my boss had to email me about it. 
I know the email is in my inbox, haven’t read the whole thing. 
It’s not a fireable offense or anything, but I’m so anxious about it. I have my response crafted in my head, it’s just sitting down and reading the email that is holding me up. 
does anyone else get anxiety about reading messages?",axienty,work screw screwed fes bos email know inbox read whole thing fireable offense anything anxious response crafted head sitting reading holding anyone else get anxiety message,-0.02,Neutral
"First love at 30 I'm a 30 year old, diagnosed with social anxiety disorder, and panic disorder with agoraphobia. My whole life, I've struggled with loneliness and an inability to maintain friendships. In my twenties, I had a few short term flings and hookups, but never anything that lasted.

That just changed. I've been dating a wonderful woman for the last couple of months and in spite of my caution and fears, I've fallen so hard. I told her I loved her and she told me she loved me too! I'm still giddy, I'm in love for the first time ever!! Therapy works. 😁

I just needed to share that with someone, but a little advice would be quite welcome. What are your ""must knows"" about dating someone with anxiety or dating as an anxious person?",axienty,first love year old diagnosed social anxiety disorder panic agoraphobia whole life struggled loneliness inability maintain friendship twenty short term fling hookup never anything lasted changed dating wonderful woman last couple month spite caution fear fallen hard told loved still giddy time ever therapy work needed share someone little advice would quite welcome must know anxious person,0.22,Moderately Positive
"I Hid In My Closet During a Fire I’m currently studying at University and having a very difficult time. It’s my fourth semester and I haven’t made any friends that I’ve seen more than two or three times, so I spend the vast majority of my time alone. I live alone now because I had a roommate for two semesters and being that manic and paranoid for a whole year took a massive toll on me. I always had to fall asleep after him and wake up before him. 

Anyway, today there was a fire in my building. I heard the alarm and wasn’t sure what to do, so I paced around for a bit. I heard people moving through the hallway and I saw people lining up outside, so I shut all my lights off and tried to stay quiet. I stayed in my apartment for half an hour, pacing around, obsessively checking on the people outside, and eventually hiding in a closet in case a firefighter or something came in looking for people.

I don’t know anyone in the building and I haven’t gotten any emails or anything about what happened, I smelled smoke for sure but everyone seems to have come back in just fine. However, it was very upsetting for me to realize that I would rather suffocate or burn in a cramped closet alone than stand outside with other people for a little while. It scares me and it really upsets me and I don’t want to be like this but I can’t connect with other people. Even walking down the hallways when no one is there terrifies me because someone could be there and they could see me, or someone inside could hear my footsteps or something.

Last semester was very rough and I only got credit for two classes because my anxiety got to a point where I was scared to sleep and leave my apartment and even check my email/texts and look out the window. I stayed inside for 12 days straight at the worst point and I’m very lucky I was able to power through and make up a ton of work and testing for those two classes to still somehow get credit, but nothing has changed since then and I’m scared it’s just going to happen again.

I’m awake right now and I’m scared to do my homework which I have a ton of because it almost feels like by doing homework I’m accepting that I’m a part of those classes and I’m going to need to leave my apartment again soon. 

I’m sorry for ranting and writing so much but I’m very upset and worried and I have no idea what to do ",axienty,hid closet fire currently studying university difficult time fourth semester made friend seen two three spend vast majority alone live roommate manic paranoid whole year took massive toll always fall asleep wake anyway today building heard alarm sure paced around bit people moving hallway saw lining outside shut light tried stay quiet stayed apartment half hour pacing obsessively checking eventually hiding case firefighter something came looking know anyone gotten email anything happened smelled smoke everyone seems come back fine however upsetting realize would rather suffocate burn cramped stand little scare really upset want like connect even walking one terrifies someone could see inside hear footstep last rough got credit class anxiety point scared sleep leave check text look window day straight worst lucky able power make ton work testing still somehow get nothing changed since going happen awake right homework almost feel accepting part need soon sorry ranting writing much worried idea,0.04,Neutral
"25 years ago today my dad committed suicide. We thought everything was fine, normal. My dad gave my mom roses and chocolates, and my dad decided it'd be fun to all go to the movies as a family for Valentine's day. We hauled out the newspaper, selected a movie family-friendly enough (Sommersby with Jodie Foster and Mel Gibson), and everyone got ready to go. About 45 minutes after my dad suggested we all go see a movie, we were ready to walk out the door.

""Actually, guys, I'm not feeling that well. Why don't you guys go on and I'll see you when you get back?""

We all hemmed and hawed, but my dad clearly just wasn't feeling it, so we decided to just go. We walked out to the garage, waved our goodbyes as we piled in the car, and went off to the theater. 

The movie sucked and was super sad. None of us really liked it.

We came home, and all the lights were off in the house. Huh, that's strange. There were glowing embers in the fireplace, the last remnants of a recent fire. Dad was nowhere to be found, we split up and started looking all throughout the house for him. I went into my parent's bathroom, and there was a videocamera on a tripod facing the mirror. Ok, that's super weird. I found my brother in a spare bedroom inspecting the carpet floor. I asked him what he was doing. He said he was looking for blood.

Not having found my dad anywhere, we all somehow converged in the garage. There was one place we hadn't looked--the shed. It was more of a garage closet than an actual shed, but that's what we called it, and that's where he was.

My brother threw open the door, and I remember my mom crying out and screaming. My brother screaming. I did not scream. Instead, I threw our cordless phone down on the cement garage floor, breaking it. To this day, I still don't know why I did that, it was a reflex of some sort I suppose. I tried the phone in the kitchen, but because I had broken the cordless, the line was...jammed, I guess? It didn't work, I just got a long angry beeeeeeeeeeeep instead of a dial tone. I remembered my brother had just gotten his own phone line, so I ran into his room and called 911. The police came. The coroner came. He was dead and gone, killing himself with carbon monoxide from the lawnmower in the shed.

He had planned this too, meticulously. He had a note pinned to his chest, pleading not to be revived. He killed himself on a Sunday, and on the following Tuesday we all received a letter from him in the mail, that he had mailed out on the previous Friday. The videocamera on the tripod? That was for his apology/goodbye video. I've watched it many times. I remember not recognizing this sobbing, hurt man. He looked like my dad, but he also looked *vastly* different.

This tragedy is the ground zero event for my anxiety. Constant fear, constant waiting for the other shoe to drop. Constant worry. My expectations of people were insanely warped, I desperately needed love and acceptance, and I spent literal *decades* doing my best to ""get over"" his death. Thousands in therapy, medications, all sorts of ""tricks"" and suggestions. Exercise! Eat better! Write in a journal! Take 10 seconds of deep breaths! No matter what I did, it didn't change the fact that when I was a kid, I thought everything was okay, and suddenly it wasn't. I was terrified at how everything can change in just a flash of a moment, and I thought all I could ever hope to attain was stillness. Motionless time, that didn't tick by because the future was more unpredictable than I felt I could handle.

25 years. It's been 25 years since that horrible day. 

Valentine's Day was ruined for a good decade or so. Couldn't celebrate it, didn't want to. It just made me sad and guilty. It made me feel like it was *his* day now, and I should be in mourning.

I'm 38 now. I still have anxiety, but nowhere near the level it used to be. I developed some nasty OCD symptoms about 8 years ago, which was tied up into my guilt, and with the help of an amazing therapist and support system I was able to free myself from those symptoms and get my intrusive thoughts and general anxiety under control. 

I have never been happier now. I've worked so hard and come so far, and I'm proud of myself for being able to overcome all of this shit, *somehow*. I have an amazing husband, who I am celebrating Valentine's day with, and have celebrated it with him for the past several years. I know I no longer need to feel guilty, that this isn't his day. His suicide *took* this day from me, this fun sweet day that should be all about love and romance, and made it about himself and his selfish choices. For a long time, I was mad at him for that. But now I just know that he was sick. He was a sick man, who had made some poor choices, and he took a coward's way out.

25 years ago from his suicide, today, I'd just like to announce that I'm better than that. I am better than my father, I am stronger than my father, and I am no longer angry with my father. I pity him? But the anger--that's not eating me up inside anymore. 

Thanks for reading.",axienty,year ago today dad committed suicide thought everything fine normal gave mom rose chocolate decided fun go movie family valentine day hauled newspaper selected friendly enough sommersby jodie foster mel gibson everyone got ready minute suggested see walk door actually guy feeling well get back hemmed hawed clearly walked garage waved goodbye piled car went theater sucked super sad none u really liked came home light house huh strange glowing ember fireplace last remnant recent fire nowhere found split started looking throughout parent bathroom videocamera tripod facing mirror ok weird brother spare bedroom inspecting carpet floor asked said blood anywhere somehow converged one place looked shed closet actual called threw open remember cry screaming scream instead cordless phone cement breaking still know reflex sort suppose tried kitchen broken line jammed guess work long angry beeeeeeeeeeeep dial tone remembered gotten ran room police coroner dead gone killing carbon monoxide lawnmower planned meticulously note pinned chest pleading revived killed sunday following tuesday received letter mail mailed previous friday apology video watched many time recognizing sobbing hurt man like also vastly different tragedy ground zero event anxiety constant fear waiting shoe drop worry expectation people insanely warped desperately needed love acceptance spent literal decade best death thousand therapy medication trick suggestion exercise eat better write journal take second deep breath matter change fact kid okay suddenly terrified flash moment could ever hope attain stillness motionless tick future unpredictable felt handle since horrible ruined good celebrate want made guilty feel mourning near level used developed nasty ocd symptom tied guilt help amazing therapist support system able free intrusive general control never happier worked hard come far proud overcome shit husband celebrating celebrated past several longer need took sweet romance selfish choice mad sick poor coward way announce father stronger pity anger eating inside anymore thanks reading,0.01,Neutral
"I’m having an anxiety attack I tried laying down and closing my eyes. I feel my heart racing.

I’m on the edge of tears

I miss my ex. It’s been 8 months. I don’t know why it’s hitting me like his rn. I feel alone. I feel unworthy. He left me for someone else. I keep flashing through memories I have with him. They won’t stop. They’re memories I’ve been suppressing and purposely not thinking about for months. And it’s overwhelming me. I loved him. I was so happy with him. He loved me. But he left me and now is with someone else. 

Why am I acting like this? It’s been 8 months. I had been fine. I had been happy. 

It feels like it was all a dream. That I should wake up and he should be next to me and cuddle me. 

**EDIT** Thank you everyone. That was the first time I ever had a panic attack. Too much to even explain, but I don’t think it was so much to do with my ex as it was just feeling isolated and alone. Called my brother, and he helped talk me down. Got out of my apartment so I could go socially interact with people. A big wave of relief. Like reaching the shore when you were drowning in the ocean. ",axienty,anxiety attack tried laying closing eye feel heart racing edge tear miss ex month know hitting like rn alone unworthy left someone else keep flashing memory stop suppressing purposely thinking overwhelming loved happy acting fine dream wake next cuddle edit thank everyone first time ever panic much even explain think feeling isolated called brother helped talk got apartment could go socially interact people big wave relief reaching shore drowning ocean,0.26,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety over Altitude Sickness Hey everyone, I’m spending the week in Park City, UT with friends for a ski trip. I’ve started feeling the effects of altitude sickness, and the high altitude was something I worried about immensely going into the trip, and now I fear I will have a panic attack. What can I do to calm down while I’m actively feeling the effects of altitude (shortness of breath, headache, lethargy, chest pain, etc.)",axienty,anxiety altitude sickness hey everyone spending week park city ut friend ski trip started feeling effect high something worried immensely going fear panic attack calm actively shortness breath headache lethargy chest pain etc,0.08,Moderately Positive
"I went on a job interview today.... AND I didn't at all feel overall anxious or nervous!

It helps my friend and I did a fake interview two days before. However, I couldn't really get to sleep last night but when I did, I woke up refreshed and managed not to be stuttering mess.

I feel like this is a major improvement for me.",axienty,went job interview today feel overall anxious nervous help friend fake two day however really get sleep last night woke refreshed managed stuttering mess like major improvement,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Does your anxiety make you eat obsessively and constantly? My anxiety flairs up in different ways. I feel like a big part of my anxiety is trying to distract myself from it. I am a serious nail biter. I bite my nails to the point that they bleed and hurt and I have to put bandaids on all my finger tips. My boyfriend does the dishes because my fingers are so bloody and sore all the time, the dishsoap will sting.

Another thing I do is eat, constantly. I can't sit in silence, and i cant just focus on tv or a book or something. It's like I have to constantly be doing two things at once to distract myself from inner pain and anxiousness. So I eat and I feel like I can't stop eating. When I stop eating, I have to be chewing my nails.

I've gained 40lbs in the last year, and it's only getting worse. I've tried gum and mints, but I eat the gum and the mints and then continue on to other things. Whenever I get food, like make supper or something, I try to make meals that last a really long time. Like nachos, or fries. I try to eat slow so it will last because the whole time I'm awake I need to be chewing.

This is basically ruining my life. I'm getting huge and I hate it and all it does is make me feel worse. Does anyone else do this? Any suggestions? Is this a normal symptom of anxiety? I don't know what to do. ",axienty,anxiety make eat obsessively constantly flair different way feel like big part trying distract serious nail biter bite point bleed hurt put bandaids finger tip boyfriend dish bloody sore time dishsoap sting another thing sit silence cant focus tv book something two inner pain anxiousness stop eating chewing gained lb last year getting worse tried gum mint continue whenever get food supper try meal really long nacho fry slow whole awake need basically ruining life huge hate anyone else suggestion normal symptom know,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"The first six months I had her she lived in a cage that could have fit two rats, the next year and a half she lived in a cage that could have fit four rats (this is following the formula where you multiply the dimensions of the cage in inches and divide it by 3456. The result tells you how many rats you can comfortably have in one cage.) I loved buying her new toys and treats and seeing how she took them. Trying new foods on her was one of my favorite things to do. The only issue is that I didn't really let her out of the cage much.",axienty,first six month lived cage could fit two rat next year half four following formula multiply dimension inch divide result tell many comfortably one loved buying new toy treat seeing took trying food favorite thing issue really let much,0.24,Moderately Positive
"Either I’m imagining bugs or there is really some. Hey guys. ): Bad night for me sadly. 17F here.

I have the same bedtime routine, I close off my apartment so my cats can only access the bedroom and bathroom (for litter box) and they cannot access the kitchen or living room. It works out great but that’s not the issue. I walked over to the hallway to close off that door that the bathroom has and I turned on the light to check my AC. Then I turned off the light and turned around to get the cats and I ready for bed, but when I did I noticed some dark/black circle? or shape that I’m gonna call a bug on the doorway/whatever you call it. I’m scared as hell right now and just got off the phone with a friend that was trying to calm me down, and I told him my cat went to the hallway and did not react like he would if there was a bug. I never went back over there to check for myself, I just couldn’t. I was shaking and it felt like I was going to die. I wanted to call my parents but it’s midnight here and what would that do? They’d ignore me anyways...

I’m really nervous for when I get up in the morning and have to go grocery shopping and head to class. What if I get up tomorrow and a bug IS there? what do i do? 😕 This ruined my whole day, I’m really scared and just need some reassurance. ",axienty,either imagining bug really hey guy bad night sadly bedtime routine close apartment cat access bedroom bathroom litter box cannot kitchen living room work great issue walked hallway door turned light check ac around get ready bed noticed dark black circle shape gonna call doorway whatever scared hell right got phone friend trying calm told went react like would never back shaking felt going die wanted parent midnight ignore anyways nervous morning go grocery shopping head class tomorrow ruined whole day need reassurance,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Lost opportunity I'll spare the extreme streneous details, but after several months of unemployment I found a job that was willing to pay me well despite my experience. I last one week before I called and quit due to extreme stress and anxiety. Nothing was wrong with the place, however, the moment I was off Friday I couldn't stop thinking about going back and was clouded with doubt and fear. Monday I was literally sick to my stomach..I called in...and quit... They were shocked.

The next day I was hooked up with a life coach and a booked a therapist. I'm overcome with shame, guilt, and regret. I feel broken. I don't even feel like praying and my spouse feels lost.

Please tell me I'm not alone. 
",axienty,lost opportunity spare extreme streneous detail several month unemployment found job willing pay well despite experience last one week called quit due stress anxiety nothing wrong place however moment friday stop thinking going back clouded doubt fear monday literally sick stomach shocked next day hooked life coach booked therapist overcome shame guilt regret feel broken even like praying spouse please tell alone,-0.21,Moderately Negative
"The only time I feel good is when I'm gaming/streaming I am struggling lately. I always feel like I'm on the verge of an attack. That build up in your chest right before the hyperventilating starts... It's the most annoying thing to me. The only time I don't feel like this is when I'm gaming and streaming. I can't clean, cook, or accomplish anything outside of the virtual world.. I can't be playing video games all day..but idk what else to do with myself. As soon as I get off the game that pressure comes back and I feel like I can't do anything. Anyone else feel like this? Or am I just insane?",axienty,time feel good gaming streaming struggling lately always like verge attack build chest right hyperventilating start annoying thing clean cook accomplish anything outside virtual world playing video game day idk else soon get pressure come back anyone insane,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"I've been getting more abd more anxious about school. I'm a homeschooler so my education is a little inconsistent, my mom has been stricter on math recently, because my plan is to get a GED when I'm old enough, I need to be 16 where I live to take the test, I've passed 2 different practice tests even with a so-so math credit, I do school at a table with my brother and mom, I always feel stressed out and would much prefer to do school online but I'm too afraid to ask.",axienty,getting abd anxious school homeschooler education little inconsistent mom stricter math recently plan get ged old enough need live take test passed different practice even credit table brother always feel stressed would much prefer online afraid ask,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Is this normal I always feel like im a fraud and one day im going to get caught out by someone. I’m also tired of my personality changing depending on who I’m around, it’s like I’m made up of different people. I feel like im living just to exist and not doing anything.",axienty,normal always feel like im fraud one day going get caught someone also tired personality changing depending around made different people living exist anything,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Not really sure what it was... This happened last Friday, even though I've experienced it before, it was never this severe.

Let me explain

On Friday, we had a meeting in my company, I just recently started on a new position and, we are still meeting and greeting and telling something about ourselves.

English is not my native language, but the company I work for is American and English is used for all of the work we do, which makes sense. That is not a problem for me, however, since the interview I had for this position, I noticed something strange is going on with my body whenever I speak in English. This never happened before, sure there was some shyness in the first few sentences when meeting someone new but mostly I cruised through it.

Now, on the interview for this new position, everything was perfectly fine until the interviewer asked me a question. I sensed the heart in my chest start to pound like crazy, my palms got sweaty, my voice started shaking and I was overwhelmed with sweat, but I managed to control myself and calm down. After a couple of minutes, we were talking, laughing as if nothing happened to me but, I knew something was wrong with me.

This happened again, after I got the position. 
On the first meeting we had as a team, same thing as described above as we were introducing ourselves. Only this time, after I was done talking, my whole body started to shake.

I have never experienced something like that.
My head was shaking, my chest, my heart felt as if it's going to burst out of my chest... A cold sweat swept over me. I tried to control it, to calm down but, I think it only got worse. I just lowered my head, feeling ashamed and broken. My body felt alien to me, like I wasn't in control anymore.
I remember thinking, what the fuck is going on!? What is happening to me!? Screaming inside me. Wondering how many of my coworkers there noticed it. I was sitting at the middle of the table, of course they noticed. Even the guys on the TV(we use TVs with cameras connected through hangouts to communicate with our offices in the US) seemed freaked out.

I've had what I think are panic attacks before in my life but, nothing came even close to this.

Is this what a panic/anxiety attack is or is this something else, also, what would you recommend for me to?

I also experience light head tremors during social events when trying to drink out of a cup or drink from a glass or trying to eat. Like if I'm surrounded with people I don't know. Not always, depends on the location, who's with me, who's around me....

I would love to hear your thoughts or similar experiences and any advice you have for me. ",axienty,really sure happened last friday even though experienced never severe let explain meeting company recently started new position still greeting telling something english native language work american used make sense problem however since interview noticed strange going body whenever speak shyness first sentence someone mostly cruised everything perfectly fine interviewer asked question sensed heart chest start pound like crazy palm got sweaty voice shaking overwhelmed sweat managed control calm couple minute talking laughing nothing knew wrong team thing described introducing time done whole shake head felt burst cold swept tried think worse lowered feeling ashamed broken alien anymore remember thinking fuck happening screaming inside wondering many coworkers sitting middle table course guy tv use camera connected hangout communicate office u seemed freaked panic attack life came close anxiety else also would recommend experience light tremor social event trying drink cup glass eat surrounded people know always depends location around love hear thought similar advice,0.05,Moderately Positive
Paranoia about choking/breathing/hyperchondriac Does anyone ever get bad anxiety about choking on food? It got so bad before i was on meds i refused to eat. And also what about the breathing anxiety? Ive had asthma tests that came back clear yet i still carry around an inhaler and use it often. Its exhausting being a hypochondriac. Its been alot better since ive been on citalopram but still manages to creep its way back ,axienty,paranoia choking breathing hyperchondriac anyone ever get bad anxiety food got med refused eat also ive asthma test came back clear yet still carry around inhaler use often exhausting hypochondriac alot better since citalopram manages creep way,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"Is it my imagination or not? I get a random feeling when around a lot of people that my mind is being read, and that they know what im thinking. And me, being a teenager going through puberty, i have some pretty... *cough*... sexual thoughts, and i just cant control them, so yea thats *WONDERFUL (If you havent noticed thats sarcasm).* My parents go through my stuff, (Journals, texts, notebooks, search history, watch history, etc) and its caused paranoia, depression, and anxiety. Im always afraid people are reading my mind, or my journals, or texts. My parents will randomly, out of nowhere question me like: ""So, \[my name\], whos \_\_\_\_\_\_?""

Im lesbian and one time they said ""Why did you ask another girl out on a date? Do you hate being a girl? If so, your a disgrace to God.""

​

anyways, is it right to fear people are going through my stuff? Will that help me or cause problems? If it causes problems, how can i fix it? (Im already seeing a therapist, but its not helping much)",axienty,imagination get random feeling around lot people mind read know im thinking teenager going puberty pretty cough sexual thought cant control yea thats wonderful havent noticed sarcasm parent go stuff journal text notebook search history watch etc caused paranoia depression anxiety always afraid reading randomly nowhere question like name who lesbian one time said ask another girl date hate disgrace god anyways right fear help cause problem fix already seeing therapist helping much,-0.02,Neutral
"I Just Want To Talk To People; What Am I doing Wrong? Hey everyone


I have a lot of trouble getting past the acquaintance stage with people. Despite the fact I'm in university, I never seem to get classmates' numbers, grab a coffee, hang out in dorms, or socialize with others outside of pre-booked activities (like classes).

I've tried just about everything I can think of. I've joined different clubs at school relating to my hobbies. I try to speak to people in & outside classes. I've been told numerous times that there's no obvious social faux-pas I'm committing (bad dress/hygiene as an example). I have several decent hobbies, I'm in shape, I think I'm well put together. What gives?


As a bit of backstory/reference
I suffered from a fair bit of bullying & social isolation in middle school, which led to me (several years later) being diagnosed with moderate/severe social anxiety. I've had a therapist, been on medication, tried CBT, etc.. since. This anxiety makes it much harder for me to ""put myself out there"", even when doing so is just going to a new club or asking a classmate out for a coffee. Almost more importantly, it has made me seemingly unable to see subtle social clues. I recognize emotions and feelings; if someone loves/hates me, is passionate about something, is being sarcastic, etc... But it's the smaller cues that I do not see or (what I think happens much more often) I don't react to. My best guess is I try to hide my feelings/look nervous, which leads to people think I'm not interested in carrying on conversation/getting their #/whatever.


The ironic part is,  love talking to people. I'll talk for hours with people about  just about anything. Even if the conversation's one-sided. Listening to someone complain about their job or their term papers or their relationship; anything.

The other ironic part is; when I'm forced into social situations, I'm fine. Last summer I was volunteering in another continent for 10 days with guys/girls my age, and I hit it off with them. I was perfectly fine in conversation/daily activities with them, and we still keep in contact via WhatsApp. I'm even going to meet up with a few of them this summer.

Anyways, what tips/advice can you give me? How can I get over this hump? Another school year has come and gone, yet I feel like my progress has been minimal. PMs are welcome.


Cheers


P.S. Sorry if my formatting/grammar is shite; I'm currently on mobile.",axienty,want talk people wrong hey everyone lot trouble getting past acquaintance stage despite fact university never seem get classmate number grab coffee hang dorm socialize others outside pre booked activity like class tried everything think joined different club school relating hobby try speak told numerous time obvious social faux pa committing bad dress hygiene example several decent shape well put together give bit backstory reference suffered fair bullying isolation middle led year later diagnosed moderate severe anxiety therapist medication cbt etc since make much harder even going new asking almost importantly made seemingly unable see subtle clue recognize emotion feeling someone love hate passionate something sarcastic smaller cue happens often react best guess hide look nervous lead interested carrying conversation whatever ironic part talking hour anything one sided listening complain job term paper relationship forced situation fine last summer volunteering another continent day guy girl age hit perfectly daily still keep contact via whatsapp meet anyways tip advice hump come gone yet feel progress minimal pm welcome cheer sorry formatting grammar shite currently mobile,0.01,Neutral
"always scared someone is going to kill me. i told my therapist this issue and she told me it's just anxiety and im not insane; i just always have a fear someone is hiding in my home or going to enter my home and kill me, and it prevents me from sleeping.  

right now, my boyfriends grandmother is in the hospital so we're staying at her house (in a 55+ community) to care for the dog and the home. my boyfriend left for work and now my anxiety kicked in and woke me up, so i'm just laying here wishing i could fall back asleep but i'm too anxious.  

is there anyway to manage this easier? and i do have means to protect myself; but im still scared!!",axienty,always scared someone going kill told therapist issue anxiety im insane fear hiding home enter prevents sleeping right boyfriend grandmother hospital staying house community care dog left work kicked woke laying wishing could fall back asleep anxious anyway manage easier mean protect still,-0.21,Moderately Negative
"I'm not comfortable being myself at all Through out my life I have felt incredibly insecure in anything that makes me, me. For example I'm uncomfortable with my laugh, my body, my personality, my interests, my music taste, and just expressing myself in any way shape or form.

I have a few ideas as to why this is. First of all I grew up in a home with a highly critical mother, I was always afraid of getting in trouble and I remember feeling like I was the problem as opposed to that I was just a kid who sometimes misbehaved. That on top of the fact that I was homeschooled in my elementary school years and didn't have enough social interaction. When I did enter the school system I was unprepared for how cruel people would be. 

With this foundation of insecurity I've found that every time I have been criticized or made fun of my confidence just takes another hit leaving my deeper in this place of self loathing and uncomfortability. Because of this I've developed horrible social anxiety.

I've had brief times of confidence usually on drugs or alcohol but I've never completely come to a place of being comfortable in myself. I always feel a need to behave a certain way and hide my true self to please others but I think it just makes me come off as disingenuous.

How do I go from here? I just wish I could do a reset on my brain so I could forget the subconscious belief that I can't be myself. I don't think I'm naturally a shy and unconfident person. ",axienty,comfortable life felt incredibly insecure anything make example uncomfortable laugh body personality interest music taste expressing way shape form idea first grew home highly critical mother always afraid getting trouble remember feeling like problem opposed kid sometimes misbehaved top fact homeschooled elementary school year enough social interaction enter system unprepared cruel people would foundation insecurity found every time criticized made fun confidence take another hit leaving deeper place self loathing uncomfortability developed horrible anxiety brief usually drug alcohol never completely come feel need behave certain hide true please others think disingenuous go wish could reset brain forget subconscious belief naturally shy unconfident person,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Had a good weekend, went to a movie together the 19th. Feb 22 she started full dose of Zoloft. Feb 23 weekend, we hung out again, but mostly stayed in because I was tired from traveling for work again. She seemed a bit more distant than I'd seen her but still content, and we had a good weekend together. Everything remained normal up til Feb 26 or so, regular texting, sexy texts, etc.",axienty,good weekend went movie together th feb started full dose zoloft hung mostly stayed tired traveling work seemed bit distant seen still content everything remained normal til regular texting sexy text etc,0.21,Moderately Positive
"Nudexta. Has anyone used it to cope? I heard it has off label usage as a social anxiety medication. Otherwise it is used for MS or Alzheimers patients who display pseudobulbar affect (inappropriate show of emotion).

I don't know how to go about asking my psychiatrist since most do not know about its usage in anxiety.",axienty,nudexta anyone used cope heard label usage social anxiety medication otherwise m alzheimers patient display pseudobulbar affect inappropriate show emotion know go asking psychiatrist since,0.03,Neutral
"I think I may be developing some form of agoraphobic-like (open spaces) anxiety. Sorry if this sounds ridicolous but... for some reason or the other I'm starting to hate going out in open spaces when the sky is clear blue, or I have to walk my dog at night if there are stars. The endless space is all of a sudden scaring the crap out of me, making me feel small and crushed and big at the same time \-\-\> and I sometimes feel like I'll be sucked into the sky. I don't know what to do about this developing ""anxiety"". I used to have social anxiet in the past, but it's gone now, and up until recently, my life has been hella fine. I'm not sure if I should tell my therapist or my Family about this. I also fear it might lead me to drop going to school, because my way to school has a lot of open spaces, including a courtyard with huge buildings surrounding it. This evening for example, I wanted to walk my dog, but I rushed back inside because I couldn't handle the cloudless sky full of stars.

The world also sort of feels like it's spinning around like a rollercoaster, it's making me dizzy and feel weird With my Balance.",axienty,think may developing form agoraphobic like open space anxiety sorry sound ridicolous reason starting hate going sky clear blue walk dog night star endless sudden scaring crap making feel small crushed big time sometimes sucked know used social anxiet past gone recently life hella fine sure tell therapist family also fear might lead drop school way lot including courtyard huge building surrounding evening example wanted rushed back inside handle cloudless full world sort spinning around rollercoaster dizzy weird balance,-0.04,Neutral
"I am not always sure of who i really am!? Am i the only one? Its weird but in my pre anxiety times i never wasted a thought on who i actually am. Everything just came natural and yeah i did behave different in situation but always would say it was a side of me.
Now after my anxiety i have these deeper thoughts and often wonder who i actually am? I can have a grest time with friends one night and the next day i would think "" was i just acting? Did i really enjoy the time? Dobmy friends actually know who i really am?"" i dont know howbto explain. Its like i havent found my true self yet. Im turning 31 soon but ... Hmmm dont know lol...",axienty,always sure really one weird pre anxiety time never wasted thought actually everything came natural yeah behave different situation would say side deeper often wonder grest friend night next day think acting enjoy dobmy know dont howbto explain like havent found true self yet im turning soon hmmm lol,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Stuck Anxiety/Helplessness I have dealt with anxiety since I was 7-8 and it’s triggered by different things depending on my life at that moment. My anxiety is accompanied with nausea, not being able to eat and racing thoughts. I throw up sometimes but not every time. 

Lately I feel stuck in life and in situations and worried about others being stuck too. It’s weird to explain and I don’t know how to word it. I’m worried about my mom because she’s clearly in a mid life crisis, I’m worried about my dad because he’s getting old, I’m worried about going back to school next week because I am scared of being stuck there, I am worried about all of my siblings and their life and their mental health, and I feel really scared of losing everyone around me whether to death or something along those lines. I lost an extremely close friend/lover in September and I’ve never dealt with a death before especially one so close and unexpected. 

When I go back to school we get 5 free counseling sessions so I’ll try that to get all of this out. Does anyone else ever feel “stuck” or helpless? I don’t even know what I’m trying to get unstuck from or how I’ll get stuck or what I need to fix but that’s how it feels. I haven’t even been able to eat dinner or anything. I just wanna throw up and I can’t stop crying  ",axienty,stuck anxiety helplessness dealt since triggered different thing depending life moment accompanied nausea able eat racing thought throw sometimes every time lately feel situation worried others weird explain know word mom clearly mid crisis dad getting old going back school next week scared sibling mental health really losing everyone around whether death something along line lost extremely close friend lover september never especially one unexpected go get free counseling session try anyone else ever helpless even trying unstuck need fix dinner anything wanna stop cry,0.02,Neutral
"I usually get arms crossed when talking to people. it sicks me a lot! Any tip? Hi everyone!

I am okey with my social anxiety except when I creep people and that makes me a lot of anxious and depressed, because the big and fat GUILT.

For some reason a creep people unintentional. If I look at another direction people get bored and ignore me, If I look at them the they cross their arms. If I keep up people get angry at me.

I try to be relaxed and blink but it doesn't work. I think I look like a mad person. Please help.",axienty,usually get arm crossed talking people sick lot tip hi everyone okey social anxiety except creep make anxious depressed big fat guilt reason unintentional look another direction bored ignore cross keep angry try relaxed blink work think like mad person please help,-0.31,Moderately Negative
"Does anyone here have experience with using anti-anxiety meds to curb anxiety caused by antidepressants? Hi all, new here. I've been on antidepressants (bupropion and fluoxetine) for a while, and have had some anxiety ever since. Not so bad that I need to get off the meds, because they seem to be working, a little bit I guess. If I can, I think it'd be best to take something else to lessen the anxiety caused by the antidepressants. Is this common? Is this stupid? I don't know. If it isn't, any suggestions based on experience are appreciated.
Thanks.",axienty,anyone experience using anti anxiety med curb caused antidepressant hi new bupropion fluoxetine ever since bad need get seem working little bit guess think best take something else lessen common stupid know suggestion based appreciated thanks,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety regarding my health... Hoping to find some advice on how to relax. Also looking for reassurance that everything will be okay. It is a bit of a long winded story, so feel free to skip down to the TLDR!

So I'll try to keep this as short as possible. I (F25) ate lots of sweets as a kid, skipped some nights of brushing my teeth, and started to grind my teeth when I was in college a couple of years ago. I wore a mouth guard on some nights to try to combat it. 

I went to the dentist back in the summer of 2017 after not going for 2 years. They told me I had taken some damage from grinding my teeth. I expected it. I was hoping there would only be cavities, but I was told I needed a root canal w/ a crown on a molar. They did it that summer, and did another root canal w/ a crown on another molar of mine half a year later in January 2018. I needed time to save money for other teeth they saw problems with. Fast forward to January of 2019, they crown another of my molars (no RCT on this one). I was told I needed another tooth crowned. I was so distraught at the news. I told them I was going to seek a second opinion from another dentist.

I visited another dentist about 2 weeks ago. He did a full oral examination of my teeth, telling me which cavities needed to be retouched a little. Nothing big. He then did an x-ray of my teeth and informed me the first root canal I had done a year and a half ago hasn't healed yet. He also told me the crown I had done recently back in January of this year is not a good fit and is bulky (This could explain the pain I was feeling from this tooth for the past two months, sensitivity to cold drinks and hurts when biting down on food).

I am mostly just looking for the light at the end of the tunnel here. My main concerns are that my root canal doesn't heal properly and will have to be retreated (more money and more pain). If that doesn't work, it would have to possibly be extracted and I'd have to get an implant (tons of money). The crowned tooth that is hurting me right now would have to be potential recrowned. If that doesn't work, I'd have to get another root canal... 

I know it's not the end of the world. I'm lucky I can save up enough money for the treatments I need now. But I am so stressed about how much more I could potentially spend on my teeth. I'm worried about all my root canals failing in the future and needing to replace them all with implants. I am just so worn down, and my thoughts are constantly about my teeth. ""Will I be okay? Will the root canal heal? Do I really need more of these?? When will they fail? Will my other cavities turn into crowns and root canals?"" Every day I am online looking at dental forums and reaching out to dentists, asking for answers. My anxiety is on full blast as I'm stuck in the middle of all of these procedures. My mind hates not knowing what is to come. I am thinking of the ""what ifs"" and am creating worst case scenarios in my head...

But amidst my thoughts, I realized I also needed to vent and to have a good cry as I type this out. If you fully read this, I can't thank you enough. This is what has been on repeat in my brain for the past couple of months. I've been crying everyday as soon as I get off of work. My anxiety has been terrible. My body has been so tight. My throat gets a bump in it that I can't burp away. I can't catch my breath. If anyone has any advice on how I can be positive, how I can try to get my mind off of everything, or if you've been in a situation like this before, I would love to hear from you. Even if it's just a simple ""feel better"", it would help me immensely. Thank you.


TLDR; I have had two root canals w/ crowns done, have a crowned tooth, and have a couple other cavities. Was recently told one of the root canals is not healing well, and that my crowned tooth might have to get recrowned or have a root canal done on it. I'm stressed out about not knowing what will happen. I'm low on funds. I'm so anxious.",axienty,anxiety regarding health hoping find advice relax also looking reassurance everything okay bit long winded story feel free skip tldr try keep short possible ate lot sweet kid skipped night brushing teeth started grind college couple year ago wore mouth guard combat went dentist back summer going told taken damage grinding expected would cavity needed root canal crown molar another mine half later january time save money saw problem fast forward rct one tooth crowned distraught news seek second opinion visited week full oral examination telling retouched little nothing big ray informed first done healed yet recently good fit bulky could explain pain feeling past two month sensitivity cold drink hurt biting food mostly light end tunnel main concern heal properly retreated work possibly extracted get implant ton hurting right potential recrowned know world lucky enough treatment need stressed much potentially spend worried failing future needing replace worn thought constantly really fail turn every day online dental forum reaching asking answer blast stuck middle procedure mind hate knowing come thinking ifs creating worst case scenario head amidst realized vent cry type fully read thank repeat brain everyday soon terrible body tight throat bump burp away catch breath anyone positive situation like love hear even simple better help immensely healing well might happen low fund anxious,-0.01,Neutral
"Anyone else struggle using public toilets? The most horrible thing about my anxiety is that I really struggle going to the toilet in public. I've been mega desperate before and I just can't go, which is just awful and painful. Gotten to the point, where I purposefully avoid situations where I would need to go in public (Multiple drinks in the pub etc). 

Does anyone get this? Not sure how common a symptom it is. Also, if anyone does and has found a way to be able to go then please share. 

I think it's subconscious because I don't feel anxious, but I literally cannot go. I think I've narrowed the trigger down to being aware of other people in the loo - Particularly if they're in the cubicle next to me. 

I just have no idea how I can go. I'm going on a long flight in a few months which will require me to spend 20+ hours in public (Airports, the airplane etc) and it's terrifying me. ",axienty,anyone else struggle using public toilet horrible thing anxiety really going mega desperate go awful painful gotten point purposefully avoid situation would need multiple drink pub etc get sure common symptom also found way able please share think subconscious feel anxious literally cannot narrowed trigger aware people loo particularly cubicle next idea long flight month require spend hour airport airplane terrifying,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Alcohol induced anxiety I've never had anxiety in my life before. This is something new and it's worrisome. 

I went on a cruise a few weeks ago and got pretty hammered for the first time in my life. I'm pretty sure I was something close to having alcohol poisoning. I threw up for about six hours and had the shakes. 

I figured it was a one time bad night of drinking so I shook it off. Now New year's Eve comes around and I get pretty buzzed but not drunk. I didn't have the spins or dizziness but 4 hours after finishing drinking I started to get nauseous and the shakes. I couldn't get to sleep because I was hyperventilating a little and struggled to shake the bad feeling. Despite hydrating and eating breakfast the next day was pretty rough feeling on my stomach. 

Once again, I figured I drank too much and didn't Pace myself. Recently, I had some bourbon with dinner and about an hour after dinner I feel myself starting to freak out depite the fact I know I can handle one shot of bourbon. I feel pretty helpless and that I can't drink anymore without being sick. 

I think the horrific experience from the cruise is messing with my mind and making me feel like I'm going to be sick even though I shouldn't be. Anyone have any suggestions or relationship to the symptoms I've been having? Any help is greatly appreciated.",axienty,alcohol induced anxiety never life something new worrisome went cruise week ago got pretty hammered first time sure close poisoning threw six hour shake figured one bad night drinking shook year eve come around get buzzed drunk spin dizziness finishing started nauseous sleep hyperventilating little struggled feeling despite hydrating eating breakfast next day rough stomach drank much pace recently bourbon dinner feel starting freak depite fact know handle shot helpless drink anymore without sick think horrific experience messing mind making like going even though anyone suggestion relationship symptom help greatly appreciated,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Exercising with Anxiety I have been battling with anxiety for 4 years now and I am finally getting to a point where I am starting to break free of it's chains. However, the last hurdle (if you will) is exercise.. whenever I start to exercise or engage in anything physical my breath becomes very short and i start focusing on my heart rate, which in turn normally leads to me having a panic attack. Has anyone else dealt with this? How did you combat it?   ",axienty,exercising anxiety battling year finally getting point starting break free chain however last hurdle exercise whenever start engage anything physical breath becomes short focusing heart rate turn normally lead panic attack anyone else dealt combat,0.08,Moderately Positive
"please help me defeat my anxiety. I can't stop thinking about rejection from my dream job opportunity. I have always loved animals. When I was in pre-school I wanted to be a vet, but I dont think anybody really took it seriously. Not even me. I didn't get the grades for it in High School so for a few years I was a bit lost on what I wanted to do with my life...I have this insane passion and drive to want to help and protect animals and knew that deep down, I wouldn't be happy unless that's what I was doing in my life. 

After debating going to Vet School or not I finally decided that I would try my best, follow my dreams and not let anxiety hold me back. My first massive step was reaching out to my family vet and asking if I could come in for work experience - they said yes! I was super excited and they seemed to be too. I went in last Tuesday and had a blast. I was lucky enough to see a surgery, ultra sound, dental and even a euthanasia all in one day. After the entire 10hr shift I felt like I could still stay back and help some more. It felt incredible being able to help these animals and seeing other people show such love towards them. This is truly what I would love to be able to do. I left feeling great, I spoke to the Vet (who also owns the clinic) and I confirmed I'd love to be back, he was happy to have me back and said I could sit in on some consults, and since I was doing work experience by myself I was welcome to come as long as I want. He said Brooke (his partner) usually deals with that sort of stuff so to get in contact with her. I sent them an e-mail the following day thanking them and stating that I would love to come back, and hope to arrange another time soon.

My problem is I can't shake the feeling they don't want me back. It's been six days and I still haven't heard back from them. I know they are busy, and I can think of a million logical reason as to why she wouldn't have replied back yet - but I can also think of one reason that scares me and it's holding me back from sending a follow up email. 

I can't bring myself to typing it without tearing up. I can't even talk about it to my boyfriend without my voice shaking. I would consider myself a good writer, I've always helped my friends and family with assignments and writing but I can't bring myself to write another e-mail to the vet without feeling pathetic. 

I was so, so excited and I feel like this is yet another blow. I can't bring myself to get too excited about things because I'm always let down, I didn't want to be this time but every day that passes that I don't get a reply the more anxious and worried I get. 

I'd love to be able to write a follow up email letting them know my study plans, the type of cases I'd be most interested in and asking if I could come in on a regular weekly basis but I am having incredible trouble writing it. Our own family dog needs to be brought in for a blood test and vaccine so I'd love to mention that too and maybe ask if I can shadow on that day?

I had such a confidence boost yesterday when I remembered how enthusiastic vets are about others wanting to learn about animals and how to care for them, but I am now back in this deep pit of already accepting a negative outcome without any real reason. 

It's so hard to shake. I have been doing breathing exercises all day but I still can't type the e-mail without my hands shaking. 

I guess I'm looking for reassurance, or maybe somebody who has had a similar experience. I don't really know...

Thank you for those who are reading. I really appreciate this sub. ",axienty,please help defeat anxiety stop thinking rejection dream job opportunity always loved animal pre school wanted vet dont think anybody really took seriously even get grade high year bit lost life insane passion drive want protect knew deep happy unless debating going finally decided would try best follow let hold back first massive step reaching family asking could come work experience said yes super excited seemed went last tuesday blast lucky enough see surgery ultra sound dental euthanasia one day entire hr shift felt like still stay incredible able seeing people show love towards truly left feeling great spoke also owns clinic confirmed sit consults since welcome long brooke partner usually deal sort stuff contact sent mail following thanking stating hope arrange another time soon problem shake six heard know busy million logical reason replied yet scare holding sending email bring typing without tearing talk boyfriend voice shaking consider good writer helped friend assignment writing write pathetic feel blow thing every pass reply anxious worried letting study plan type case interested regular weekly basis trouble dog need brought blood test vaccine mention maybe ask shadow confidence boost yesterday remembered enthusiastic others wanting learn care pit already accepting negative outcome real hard breathing exercise hand guess looking reassurance somebody similar thank reading appreciate sub,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Fixation is a bitch Fixation is fucking awful. I have recently been thinking about getting tested for PCOS, as I line up with quite a few of the symptoms. Not a guarantee, as I have a lot of stress and don't sleep well(also fucks with your hormones) but a strong possibility. I made the mistake of wandering over to the /r/PCOS subreddit, and reading multiple posts about women losing their hair/it thinning on there. 

I became instantly convinced that I was going to go bald/lose my hair, and spiraled. Had a full panic attack tonight about it. Nevermind that I don't know if I have it/don't know if that symptom will happen to me, I was convinced. I have had a spot of baby hair on my temple since middle school, but I was just knew it would be the death of me.

This shit is awful. I'm on the tail end of it now after talking to a friend about it, but I just needed to vent. My mind loves to torture itself over the strangest of things.",axienty,fixation bitch fucking awful recently thinking getting tested pcos line quite symptom guarantee lot stress sleep well also fuck hormone strong possibility made mistake wandering subreddit reading multiple post woman losing hair thinning became instantly convinced going go bald lose spiraled full panic attack tonight nevermind know happen spot baby temple since middle school knew would death shit tail end talking friend needed vent mind love torture strangest thing,-0.03,Neutral
"Starting dose of medication? I recently visited my primary care doc to get a new lexapro rx after being off it for a few years. She just gave me the dose I had last been on (20 mg) and didn’t say anything about working up to it. 

Should I start by cutting the pills in half or should I be fine starting with 20? 

Thanks :) ",axienty,starting dose medication recently visited primary care doc get new lexapro rx year gave last mg say anything working start cutting pill half fine thanks,0.04,Neutral
"How can I calm myself down after a misunderstanding with a work security guard got out of hand? Tl;dr - misunderstanding with security at work got out of hand about 8 hours ago and I still can’t calm down. Please help me relax!

Well that escalated quickly, and now I’m having trouble turning my red alert mode off!

In hindsight, I was at fault. I still need to calm down though.

One of my team had some bad news, terrible news in fact. I needed to get him out of the building to get some air. His pass happened to malfunction and he couldn’t get through the turnstile, so I used my pass to swipe him out.

Normally I’d never do that, I’m particularly security conscious, but I was worried my guy was going to have a panic attack and or throw up if he didn’t get some space, and the security guards were just sat there not offering any help or advice.

It was like that scene from Monsters Inc where the guy shouts “23-19” and all hell breaks loose.

Three security guards fly at my guy, I stand between him and them and say, very calmly, my friend here just had some bad personal news. He needs some air, and we’ll be right back to sort out this problem with his pass.

“You can’t do that, you can’t do that.”

“My friend here is pretty upset, I want to get him outside”

“You need to come back in”.

A couple more exchanges and I explain what the terrible news is, they back off and go to make a new pass while we walk around the building for a few minutes and agree some next steps for dealing with the bad news.

I get told off by the head of security, who backs down when I explain what happened. I ask him to please be very gentle with my guy when he gives him his new pass and not to have a go.

That was 8 hours ago. I’m still wired. I’ve been in bed for an hour and it’s not getting any better.

Any ideas for how to lower the adrenaline that is apparently still coursing through my body?

Thanks.

PS - This doesn’t sound like anxiety, certainly not chronic anyway, but you seemed like a sub with relevant experience and knowledge, so sorry for being slightly off topic.",axienty,calm misunderstanding work security guard got hand tl dr hour ago still please help relax well escalated quickly trouble turning red alert mode hindsight fault need though one team bad news terrible fact needed get building air pas happened malfunction turnstile used swipe normally never particularly conscious worried guy going panic attack throw space sat offering advice like scene monster inc shout hell break loose three fly stand say calmly friend personal right back sort problem pretty upset want outside come couple exchange explain go make new walk around minute agree next step dealing told head ask gentle give wired bed getting better idea lower adrenaline apparently coursing body thanks p sound anxiety certainly chronic anyway seemed sub relevant experience knowledge sorry slightly topic,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I just had a weird panic attack I’ve had panic attacks for years and just now I had a strange one. 
It should be noted that 
-I’ve been sick all week and taking antibiotics & a couple of cold medicines
-I wasn’t taking my Zoloft because I was taking all the other meds though I started taking Zoloft again today
-It was my first day out since I’ve been sick
-I’d only eaten breakfast and nothing since
-I had a cup of regular coffee
-My husband and I are going through a rough patch financially
-I need to find a second job but due to anxiety and being sick all week I’ve missed a lot and worry that I won’t get a decent reference 
-I’m worried about my daughter who also has anxiety and depression 

I felt jittery all of a sudden like I do if it’s been too long since eating or if I have caffeine. I began to eat an apple but it was hard to chew it and it was acidic. I began to feel derealization and also sad all at once. My stomach cramped and I got the chills for a little. 
I had a 1/4 dose of my Xanax pill. I’m now in bed with a massager and soup which I do t feel like eating and don’t want to leave my room for the time being. 
I know this will pass as it has before but it was an odd episode for me. Writing this helped me feel a little better. Just knowing you all are out there makes me feel better. 
I just let myself cry and I’m going to let this pass, even though I had another spurt of worry thinking about not having any desire to leave my bed-I’m just going to accept that for now and let it pass. I love myself and I deserve to live a life where I can handle anxiety, & I will. It’s just a bump and I’m going to be ok. 

-
",axienty,weird panic attack year strange one noted sick week taking antibiotic couple cold medicine zoloft med though started today first day since eaten breakfast nothing cup regular coffee husband going rough patch financially need find second job due anxiety missed lot worry get decent reference worried daughter also depression felt jittery sudden like long eating caffeine began eat apple hard chew acidic feel derealization sad stomach cramped got chill little dose xanax pill bed massager soup want leave room time know pas odd episode writing helped better knowing make let cry even another spurt thinking desire accept love deserve live life handle bump ok,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Thoughts since years and they don't stop coming Hey dear anxiety community,

​

one of my biggest problems is that I always think too much, I'll overthink everything and that for years now. When I get no time to think my mind is like a dam, the thoughts get more and more and they tend to flood over. I am currently in a job that's not good for me, but it's just for a short period of time because I am waiting for a place at the university and since I am in retail my thoughts are going insane. 

Do you have some tips on dealing with that thoughts? Is there some way to calm them down?

I hope you have all a great week. =)",axienty,thought since year stop coming hey dear anxiety community one biggest problem always think much overthink everything get time mind like dam tend flood currently job good short period waiting place university retail going insane tip dealing way calm hope great week,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Did anyone ever have a realization that your anxiety was way worse than you thought? I knew I had anxiety at certain times but only recently have I noticed how much it impacts my life every day. It's almost like the symptoms are so much apart of my interactions with everyone that in my mind it is just who I am, rather than a symptom of anxiety. I'm relieved that I've caught on and started to notice so I can help bring myself back down when it's happening but I'm also scared that I won't be able to and I'll just be this way forever. ",axienty,anyone ever realization anxiety way worse thought knew certain time recently noticed much impact life every day almost like symptom apart interaction everyone mind rather relieved caught started notice help bring back happening also scared able forever,0.09,Moderately Positive
"When your friend thinks you can be better... ​

*Processing gif o5loa2m1htj21...*",axienty,friend think better processing gif loa htj,0.5,Positive
"What do I do? Hi. I’ve been suffering from OCD for 10 years, and for the past few months (old doctor dropped me because she thought my case was too difficult, had to go cold turkey on medication) I’ve been suffering from severe, debilitating OCD. I have panic attacks while working, driving, going to bed, just living gives me panic. My last medication made me extremely suicidal and I had an attempt in November of last year. Recovering from that attempt, I had to get off the problematic medication myself. My doctor had refused to help me switch to a new medication despite my suicidal ideation. I never wanted to stop medication as I know what life is like without it, but I was put in a situation where it was the only choice. I wish my old doctor could’ve helped me get onto a different medication.

Anyway, my OCD has returned to full extremes. I can’t sleep. I can’t function. My mind is just constantly going and going with the obsessive thoughts and I spend (literal) hours a day on the compulsions. I got a new doctor and will be seeing her in a few weeks but everything now is so difficult and seems to be getting terribly worse day by day. I think one day my symptoms are bad, the next day they’re even worse. I live in an unsupportive environment where mental illness is something you can just “stop thinking about and live your life happy!” I had a panic attack while driving today and had to pull over and could not function for 30-45 min. I can’t stand living in constant fear.

How do I keep my sanity for another 2-3 weeks....
I’m losing my hope extremely fast. ",axienty,hi suffering ocd year past month old doctor dropped thought case difficult go cold turkey medication severe debilitating panic attack working driving going bed living give last made extremely suicidal attempt november recovering get problematic refused help switch new despite ideation never wanted stop know life like without put situation choice wish could helped onto different anyway returned full extreme sleep function mind constantly obsessive spend literal hour day compulsion got seeing week everything seems getting terribly worse think one symptom bad next even live unsupportive environment mental illness something thinking happy today pull min stand constant fear keep sanity another losing hope fast,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I messed up Hi everyone 

I've made a genuine mistake and there's going to be consequences and that's not my anxiety talking it's verified. My anxiety is going haywire I feel sick and my chest hurts. I'm so anxious I'm too scared to write out the mistake I made sorry for being cryptic. 

Right now I'm in the calm before the storm and I don't know how bad it'll be. I know nothing THAT bad will happen but there will be badness. :-(

Does anyone hear me? I hate myself right now. ",axienty,messed hi everyone made genuine mistake going consequence anxiety talking verified haywire feel sick chest hurt anxious scared write sorry cryptic right calm storm know bad nothing happen badness anyone hear hate,-0.25,Moderately Negative
Media request Can we start a thread linking what art / music recommendations are helping us individually ? For example I’ve found that whenever I’m anxious looking at Fanelli Francesco paintings really helps me out. Is this a dumb idea?,axienty,medium request start thread linking art music recommendation helping u individually example found whenever anxious looking fanelli francesco painting really help dumb idea,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"My anxiety is low but my chest feels tight and heart feels fast. Even when you have your anxiety managed and under control, can it still peek through sometimes? Like subconsciously?",axienty,anxiety low chest feel tight heart fast even managed control still peek sometimes like subconsciously,0.01,Neutral
Emotional numbing I wanted to know if anyone has experienced something similar to what I’m feeling now. I’ve been dealing with OCD and anxiety for a long time now. I’ve tried all different meds and nothing has really worked. My brain always has worries on its mind. It’s gotten to the point now where I have these worries but I don’t feel any anxiety with it. Sad things are happening in my life and I don’t have a sad reaction. I get stressed out and then my body just goes numb. I don’t feel anything. Has this happened to anyone?,axienty,emotional numbing wanted know anyone experienced something similar feeling dealing ocd anxiety long time tried different med nothing really worked brain always worry mind gotten point feel sad thing happening life reaction get stressed body go numb anything happened,-0.02,Neutral
"So I traveled 2 hours to London with a rail replacement and did a 5 hour training course. I dislike London, I really hate rail replacement services and new places get my anxiety real high. 

Did it though, just need to get home now :)

Also we've got a cool new thing for our flat and knowledge on how to make more :)",axienty,traveled hour london rail replacement training course dislike really hate service new place get anxiety real high though need home also got cool thing flat knowledge make,-0.02,Neutral
"I don't know how to deal with my social anxiety anymore. Lately I've just been cutting myself off from people and generally just not putting myself out there because I'm too afraid that people will judge me. I barely even go out of the house right now and I just wish I could find other people to play games with because I'm severely burning out on them.

Sorry for the rant post I'm just overwhelmed right now",axienty,know deal social anxiety anymore lately cutting people generally putting afraid judge barely even go house right wish could find play game severely burning sorry rant post overwhelmed,-0.21,Moderately Negative
"Image issues I guess I just need to vent. I constantly feel like I am not attractive enough. I always always want to lose more weight despite the fact that everyone one I know tells me I am skinny. As a matter of fact, they make comments about it regularly. One guy said I am one the skinniest people he knows, they say I need to eat something, I need more meat on my bones. I swear I can see a look of relief on my mom's face when I eat ""bad"" foods and always pushes me to eat more. A girl I was with told me she was with me cause she likes skinny guys. Whenever I joke about how fat I am they all give me these bizzare looks like I lost my mind ( maybe I have). I am an 18 year old male, 6 foot. Was 245 pounds, am down to 165 or so. Everyone always asks me how. Diet and exercise? Some of it was but most of it was by not eating whenever I could get away with it and purging when I couldn't. I still purge every few days. I feel like just a fucking fraud when people ask me how I lost the weight. Because I lost it in a bit more than a year and a half  everyone of course wants to know how. This obsession with my weight is driving me insane. I logically know I am fine and it makes no sense but I can't shake it. When I see someone with a similar weight and build as me I would think they don't need to lose weight but I see myself as fat. I would never judge someone for their weight if they had a healthy bmi. I think having a little meat on your bones is healthy and something I find attractive. But on me, an ounce of fat is unacceptable. And it isn't like I am unattractive to other people. No one has ever told me so. I have been with 4 people in the last 4 months. I get constant matches on tinder but I never feel good enough. I am killing myself purging in order to lose a few more pounds. I swear I am going to have a freaking heart attack at 22 from the stress I am putting my body under. I know it is awful for you but I just need to be better. Just a bit thinner. I do 200 pushups, squats, and sit ups a day. When will it be enough for me. I know this isn't healthy, these thoughts are not helpful but I can't stop",axienty,image issue guess need vent constantly feel like attractive enough always want lose weight despite fact everyone one know tell skinny matter make comment regularly guy said skinniest people say eat something meat bone swear see look relief mom face bad food push girl told cause whenever joke fat give bizzare lost mind maybe year old male foot pound asks diet exercise eating could get away purging still purge every day fucking fraud ask bit half course obsession driving insane logically fine sense shake someone similar build would think never judge healthy bmi little find ounce unacceptable unattractive ever last month constant match tinder good killing order going freaking heart attack stress putting body awful better thinner pushup squat sit ups thought helpful stop,-0.03,Neutral
"Job anxiety I’m new to anxiety. I’ve always had a bit, and it runs in my family, but I thought I’d escaped the family curse.

Not so much. I took a break from work, thinking I’d clear my head and then find something pretty easily. I didn’t. It was a pretty difficult 8 months where I waffled between starting my own business, interviewing and doing consulting. I finally took a job and it was terrible.

I vomited every morning from anxiety and dread. I worked 18 hours a day because if I wasn’t working, I was having painful anxiety about work. I lost a ton of weight. I couldn’t eat. I genuinely felt like anxiety just took over my entire life.

Because I’d never experienced this level of anxiety, I assumed it was the job. I switched jobs. The new place is a better fit, job wise anyway.

It’s a little better, but I’m still having anxiety. I still vomit some mornings. I’m still getting into repeat patterns about getting fired and failing. I have some social anxiety and I’ve never had that before either. It’s like I’m a completely different human.

Part of my anxiety has been dealing with my ADHD. I got drugs for that, hoping I’d eliminate one of the stressors. It’s sort of helped, but there’s still the vomit.

I’m afraid my anxiety about losing my job is actually going to cause me to lose my job. I don’t think I can afford therapy right now. Any resources people can recommend? Has anyone tried online CBT?",axienty,job anxiety new always bit run family thought escaped curse much took break work thinking clear head find something pretty easily difficult month waffled starting business interviewing consulting finally terrible vomited every morning dread worked hour day working painful lost ton weight eat genuinely felt like entire life never experienced level assumed switched place better fit wise anyway little still vomit getting repeat pattern fired failing social either completely different human part dealing adhd got drug hoping eliminate one stressor sort helped afraid losing actually going cause lose think afford therapy right resource people recommend anyone tried online cbt,-0.02,Neutral
"Found out I'm on academic suspension after attending 4 classes c: My GPA suffered last semester because i wasn't in a good mental state the last few months. With work, finding out my parents are trying to sell our place and just trying my best to not let my thoughts and emotions drown me I wasn't focusing on my studies like I should've. 

Even with the good things about finally getting my mum to accept I have mental issues and seeking out help (2nd counselor i seeked out was really helpful and cool. Super intelligent and instead of asking me why I felt the way i feel he just straight up explained what parts in the brain were causing this) I'm freaking out because I don't want to lie to my parents about not being able to study for a semester but also because I just found out today and they're gonna assume I knew before hand. My parents are reasonably supportive but studies is one thing they're hard on (they want me to be a professional and post sec is expensive). 

I don't want to lie to them but at the same time I'm scared that me telling them will destroy the good mood they've been in the last few days. I also don't want to lie because it'll be a lot worse once they find out. 

Just when I finally was able to regain my balance, I get knocked back down. 

",axienty,found academic suspension attending class gpa suffered last semester good mental state month work finding parent trying sell place best let thought emotion drown focusing study like even thing finally getting mum accept issue seeking help nd counselor seeked really helpful cool super intelligent instead asking felt way feel straight explained part brain causing freaking want lie able also today gonna assume knew hand reasonably supportive one hard professional post sec expensive time scared telling destroy mood day lot worse find regain balance get knocked back,0.15,Moderately Positive
"pretty sure i'm going Crazy... So I know that the title sounds overdramatic but for a lack of a better phrase I really don't know how else to describe what I'm going through. And fyi this is going to be a long post because I've really never fully expressed how I'm feeling and going thru so my apologies if I ramble. Within the past year, I was clinically diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety although I feel like that I've been depressed since like middle school because I genuinely can't remember when I haven't had this perpetual feeling of unhappiness underlying everything that I go through on a daily basis. Despite these feelings, I was EXTREMELY involved in my church and school growing up and have played sports all of my life. I held many leadership positions in the programs I partook in like being a captain of my football team, president of youth organizations in church, the whole shebang. I come from a low middle class family but still extremely privileged none the less ( I grew up in Naperville, Il for christ sake). All in all, I was a very social kid. But then as I went off to college, one of the top 5 schools in the country it all started to go downhill. (I'm not trying to brag I just want to explain that objectively I really have nothing to be sad about) I played a sport and tried to get involved yet I never got along with the majority of the student population, probably due to the fact that I am inherently a shy dude and I've always downplayed my own strengths so I always unnecessarily felt inadequate in most interactions. 

Anyways, these constant failures in these social interactions simply made me feel like weirdo that no one wanted to talk to, making me hyper-conscious of everything I do in ALL social interactions even when having convos with my family (one of my siblings goes to school with me). I retreated to my apt and rarely went outside somedays missing classes and barely got involved in student organizations out of fear. previously smoked weed everyday as an escape from my own mind. I became so self-concious that I started to appear really spacy and ""high"" all the time because I can never take my mind off of how dumb I think I sound/appear with literally every person I talk to. Essentially increasing my depressed feelings and initiated my onset of anxiety. I stopped smoking last year because of this reason and because it started making me more anxious (heart palpitations, racing thoughts, panic attacks, etc). I'm in above average shape and I get compliments about being handsome all the time but yet I have zero confidence in anything I do. It's literally gotten to the point where I can barely speak in complete sentences at times and started developing auditory hallucinations where I can hear the voices of people I know in my head clear as day beratting me on everything I do throughout the day and especially before I go to bed. The voices are all of people that I actually know. For example, I went camping 2 weeks ago and I could literally hear a friend of mine screaming to me about all the wrong things I'm doing with my life keeping me from sleeping. Even though I know she would never do that. (It was a girls voice and I was in a tent with 2 dudes in the middle of a freaking forest like 5 states away) 

 I'm a senior now, fixing to graduate this spring and yet I feel like my social skills have regressed to that of a child. I can barely focus on anything anymore let alone homework because of how fast my mind is racing with all of these thoughts and still not have the energy and right mindset to do anything about it because, of course, depression. How can I expect to get a job and sustain myself knowing all of this?? I talked to my parents and started seeing a psychiatrist and therapist to help me recover but due to my constant habit of pushing everyone and anyone away out of some stupid self-loathing pity, I rarely go to my sessions now either. It's like as soon as I start recovering I instantly digress, knowing that I shouldn't but I can't control it anymore. I've been trying some CBT and meditation techniques my therapist suggested but it seems to be futile at this point. It's not like I'm looking for affirmations either, I just want to be able to live comfortably with myself. I feel trapped and isolated from the world to the point where I only feel 'okay' when I'm sleeping, i.e. away from reality. I'm not suicidal, although I don't really cling to life at all at this point, I just don't know what to do with my life anymore that honestly doesn't seem worth all of this pain.

I know this is super long and probably hella incoherent but thanks for taking the time out to read about my woes.
TD;RL: I've been dealing with socially crippling depression and anxiety that is making me go mad and burn bridges with everyone I know. Despite my privileged background I can't seem to get over my overbearing feelings of inadequacy, which makes my life hell literally 24/7.",axienty,pretty sure going crazy know title sound overdramatic lack better phrase really else describe fyi long post never fully expressed feeling thru apology ramble within past year clinically diagnosed severe depression anxiety although feel like depressed since middle school genuinely remember perpetual unhappiness underlying everything go daily basis despite extremely involved church growing played sport life held many leadership position program partook captain football team president youth organization whole shebang come low class family still privileged none le grew naperville il christ sake social kid went college one top country started downhill trying brag want explain objectively nothing sad tried get yet got along majority student population probably due fact inherently shy dude always downplayed strength unnecessarily felt inadequate interaction anyways constant failure simply made weirdo wanted talk making hyper conscious even convos sibling retreated apt rarely outside somedays missing barely fear previously smoked weed everyday escape mind became self concious appear spacy high time take dumb think literally every person essentially increasing initiated onset stopped smoking last reason anxious heart palpitation racing thought panic attack etc average shape compliment handsome zero confidence anything gotten point speak complete sentence developing auditory hallucination hear voice people head clear day beratting throughout especially bed actually example camping week ago could friend mine screaming wrong thing keeping sleeping though would girl tent freaking forest state away senior fixing graduate spring skill regressed child focus anymore let alone homework fast energy right mindset course expect job sustain knowing talked parent seeing psychiatrist therapist help recover habit pushing everyone anyone stupid loathing pity session either soon start recovering instantly digress control cbt meditation technique suggested seems futile looking affirmation able live comfortably trapped isolated world okay reality suicidal cling honestly seem worth pain super hella incoherent thanks taking read woe td rl dealing socially crippling mad burn bridge background overbearing inadequacy make hell,0.03,Neutral
I don’t understand the club Here now. The music is loud. The people are awkward and I’m really hot. I don’t like this,axienty,understand club music loud people awkward really hot like,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Taking anti-anxiety drugs irregularly? Hey, everyone! I've had anxiety for a few years now, mostly I think because I don't go out much and don't like to socialize. Recently I had a presentation for my bachelor's, which I was extremely anxious for and was contemplating not going at all, but then I thought whatever happens happens and decided to drink some alcohol before going, since alcohol relaxes your nerves, I would take some meds if I could get them. I have to say drinking worked really well, I had absolutely no anxiety before or during the presentation. This got me thinking that I could get some anti-anxiety medication and take it only in cases where it's extremely needed like a job interview a conference or something like that, basically using it irregularly without a plan. Of course it's not the ideal solution, because there are situations where you are surrounded by people all day so you need to be anxiety free all day, but if that's not the case this might be a decent solution. This could help you not get as addicted and not have as many side effects. Thoughts? Maybe some experience?",axienty,taking anti anxiety drug irregularly hey everyone year mostly think go much like socialize recently presentation bachelor extremely anxious contemplating going thought whatever happens decided drink alcohol since relaxes nerve would take med could get say drinking worked really well absolutely got thinking medication case needed job interview conference something basically using without plan course ideal solution situation surrounded people day need free might decent help addicted many side effect maybe experience,0.22,Moderately Positive
"i really don't know what do to well, this is the thing  
today was my first day in university and to be honest, i was really excited because i have a huge passion for my career. The classes were amazing and the teachers too.  
Even with all of that, my anxiety didn't go away.  
I spend two years in treatment, trying my best to not feel like this. And when i thought i was getting better, things started to turn bad.  
I was crying after my first class.  
The reason? I have to do presentations and group projects, just think about it made me have a panic attack.  
Second class the same. But nobody noticed, i was hiding my teary eyes, it was so pathetic.  
I feel ashamed of being such a coward  
two years and nothing, i'm clearly a lost case.   
I really want to study, but i'm afraid of people seeing me cry in front of them. They will surely think i'm a weird person, my hands shake violently, my voice breaks, my breath accelerate, i dont want that.  


  
I'm studying psychology. I want to help people like me because having a mental illness is a hell, so..... i'm afraid of not being able to do that or do something awful that i will probably regret.    
But i don't see another solution now.  


(sorry for this mess, english is not my first language and also, this is my first post here)  
",axienty,really know well thing today first day university honest excited huge passion career class amazing teacher even anxiety go away spend two year treatment trying best feel like thought getting better started turn bad cry reason presentation group project think made panic attack second nobody noticed hiding teary eye pathetic ashamed coward nothing clearly lost case want study afraid people seeing front surely weird person hand shake violently voice break breath accelerate dont studying psychology help mental illness hell able something awful probably regret see another solution sorry mess english language also post,-0.04,Neutral
"Smoking made me realize how I anxious I really I am Always noticed that when ever I smoked, it felt like there was such a weight lifted off my shoulders that I couldn’t describe and felt so much more at ease. I could sit and enjoy a movie without constantly worrying that I could be doing something else and my mind was racing. I forgot that feeling of being totally at ease.",axienty,smoking made realize anxious really always noticed ever smoked felt like weight lifted shoulder describe much ease could sit enjoy movie without constantly worrying something else mind racing forgot feeling totally,0.09,Moderately Positive
Social and general anxiety don’t mix well with Ibsd You tell yourself you’re going to go to sleep early and when you try and can’t you start to have anxiety and then you find yourself in the bathroom. Then you have to wake up pretty early in the morning and you’re already worried about the little amount of sleep you got and you feel your stomach hurting a bit and when you’re about to leave you think about having stomach problems in a public area with people around and then you find yourself in the bathroom again. It never ends. ,axienty,social general anxiety mix well ibsd tell going go sleep early try start find bathroom wake pretty morning already worried little amount got feel stomach hurting bit leave think problem public area people around never end,0.04,Neutral
"I am confident but when I try to explain something I choke and have a physical panic attack I believe this is more chemical than psychological. I overdosed on a weed brownie several years ago and since then my life has been damaged. I had full on psychosis and panic attacks.

I have suffered with panic attacks ever since but overcome them on occasion using CBD oil.

For some odd reason I can't seem to stop, ride out or overcome a sudden rush of intense and uncontrollable panic when I have to explain something, such as in a job interview.

I have no issue with fear, I have no issue with confidence, it is like i'm wired for this to trigger everytime.

CBD seems to help a lot but I can't live my life on CBD just to live.

This panic only trigger when explaining things and I don't understand why it doesn't trigger at other times.",axienty,confident try explain something choke physical panic attack believe chemical psychological overdosed weed brownie several year ago since life damaged full psychosis suffered ever overcome occasion using cbd oil odd reason seem stop ride sudden rush intense uncontrollable job interview issue fear confidence like wired trigger everytime seems help lot live explaining thing understand time,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I just don't know what to do anymore Preface: this is just a rant, I needed to get this off my chest. Long story short I grew up with unbearable anxiety, have tried every self help process/exercising/getting a job everything, but I think it's just my chemistry. I don't know what to do. I feel hopeless.


I've been dealing with anxiety for as long as I can possibly remember. Every since I was a little kid I remember there would be moments or times when I would enter situations where a ""switch"" would just flip, and I wouldn't be the same person I was a minute ago. I would fell taken over, as if I had lost control of my own mind body and everything. I'm sure this is a common experience for everyone. Throughout the years this has led to some severe social isolation, and I think that I'm finally at my breaking point.

I don't know exactly what my anxiety is. I've never seen a professional which I'm now making arrangements to do. I started experiencing OCD like symptoms as a child. I would get stuck in repetitive thought loops, trying to ""think something the right way"". It makes no sense I would think the same sentence over and over again, but it would feel like I never really ""thought it"". I grew up in a heavily religious family and these thoughts were related to religion typically, so I would be trying to think a pure thought because I just had a terrible intrusive thought. I think this deeply affected my decision making abilities because nowadays I have an extremely hard time determining what I think about something because of so many years of trying to ""think things right"". 

I also experienced more physical symptoms like checking the lock on the door 40 times before going to sleep or adjusting the placement of something until I knew it was just right. The physical symptoms had a much lower impact on my life, but the internal thoughts gave me more trouble with each year. I remember having my first real panic attack in the year 2007. I was about 11 years old at the time. It was the most terrifying experience of my life. After this they became more and more frequent. The first week of high school I had four in a single week.

I remember this made me terrified of going to school, and thus terrified of being around people. I was scared in the middle of conversation I would have a panic attack and embarrass myself(because this actually happened). This spiraled into a very serious social anxiety condition. I was terrified of speaking to anyone new because of the way my mind might go.

Luckily, I had a few great friends who got me through those years. If it weren't for them I'm scared the kid I was might have just ended it. It wasn't until after high school that anything truly changed though. I had a psychedelic experience that equated to an 8 hour long panic attack worse than any I had ever experienced before. I don't want to go into details but I have never felt more fear in my life, though, something strange happened. I let go. I accepted the fear near the end of the trip. Suddenly, all my anxieties melted. I think this is the first time I had touched reality in so long. 

After this I started living my way out of anxiety. I felt like I could feel for the first time in my life. I could make a decision and act upon it. The whole world looked different. This feeling lasted for a few weeks, but slowly my anxiety returned. Not in the same way though. I've been able to make progress the previous me could not have hoped for. I've gotten a job that requires me to be very social, enrolled in community college, got my GPA to a 3.7 when I was a straight D student in university, transferred to university for Computer Science (I used to be ABISMAL at any science or math course), started running and doing calisthenics, changed my entire diet, gained new friends, attend social events. I even got a girlfriend for awhile, but this is where things take a turn.

My girlfriend and I clicked very hard right away. It was amazing she was everything I could have wanted in a girlfriend. We practically shared a friend group. We always had fun, great sex life, but my anxiety started taking over. She wanted to take things slow because of current life situations and I was totally cool with that. I have a very heavy work load so I was more than fine with this. But I don't know it just started coming back, I didn't really become clingy or anything like I have in previous relationships but she broke up with me because her feelings weren't developing any further. She said the energy wasn't right. I was doing all the right things but something was missing and I think it was my true personality. Little things I logically knew were no big deal would act as triggers. I've really analyzed it over the past two months after this happened and I wasn't pushing the relationship along or anything, and I was making time for her going on fun dates, we had a few deep moments where we shared secrets like it was good. But at times I know I was noticeably different, I would be somewhere else, the switch would flip. I would no longer be able to be in a genuine fun conversation with her because I was hardly there. I've gotten incredibly good at listening and faking the conversation/feeling despite how I'm feeling but sometimes it just can't work..

This is the way it has been all my life with people. It's so hard for me to connect with anyone on a personal level because of this ""tuning out"" I do. I remember when it was at it's extreme in high school I was totally silent all day because I was so consumed by this nervous feeling, it was never outwardly shown, in fact I was so quiet half my grade didn't even know my name and the other half thought I was perpetually stoned because I was so out of it(I also came in with huge bags under my eyes due to spending half the night checking my door locks).

I've done everything I can think. I've fought all my personal insecurities (social rejection, body image issues, intellectual inadequacies), I've achieved goals I never thought I would have in a million years, I literally look like an entirely different person, I took a goddamn heroic dose of mushrooms, experienced trauma panic attacks for a full year after, read every self help and philosophy book I could get my hands on. I've given my whole life to fighting this, and I'm so goddamn lonely. I miss out on so many good moments because I simply can't be present. I can change everything in my entire life but I can't change this fucking switch in my brain, I can't change my goddamn neuro-chemistry. When I'm with people I care about I want to be present. I want to be able to hear what they're saying, feel and respond. I want to feel like I'm really with people and in the moment. But there's this shadow, this nervousness, this uncomfort, this dissocation I carry with me everywhere I go. I don't want my whole life to be lived in my head. Facing things was my only hope, and if that doesn't work I don't know what will.

I feel utterly hopeless. I've broken down crying everyday for the past five days. I just don't know what else to do anymore. I'm sorry for how disorganized and long this is. I'm never gonna give up on getting better. I just wanted someone to hear me. A sincere thank you to anyone who read all of this.",axienty,know anymore preface rant needed get chest long story short grew unbearable anxiety tried every self help process exercising getting job everything think chemistry feel hopeless dealing possibly remember since little kid would moment time enter situation switch flip person minute ago fell taken lost control mind body sure common experience everyone throughout year led severe social isolation finally breaking point exactly never seen professional making arrangement started experiencing ocd like symptom child stuck repetitive thought loop trying something right way make sense sentence really heavily religious family related religion typically pure terrible intrusive deeply affected decision ability nowadays extremely hard determining many thing also experienced physical checking lock door going sleep adjusting placement knew much lower impact life internal gave trouble first real panic attack old terrifying became frequent week high school four single made terrified thus around people scared middle conversation embarrass actually happened spiraled serious condition speaking anyone new might go luckily great friend got ended anything truly changed though psychedelic equated hour worse ever want detail felt fear strange let accepted near end trip suddenly melted touched reality living could act upon whole world looked different feeling lasted slowly returned able progress previous hoped gotten requires enrolled community college gpa straight student university transferred computer science used abismal math course running calisthenics entire diet gained attend event even girlfriend awhile take turn clicked away amazing wanted practically shared group always fun sex taking slow current totally cool heavy work load fine coming back become clingy relationship broke developing said energy missing true personality logically big deal trigger analyzed past two month pushing along date deep secret good noticeably somewhere else longer genuine hardly incredibly listening faking despite sometimes connect personal level tuning extreme silent day consumed nervous outwardly shown fact quiet half grade name perpetually stoned came huge bag eye due spending night done fought insecurity rejection image issue intellectual inadequacy achieved goal million literally look entirely took goddamn heroic dose mushroom trauma full read philosophy book hand given fighting lonely miss simply present change fucking brain neuro care hear saying respond shadow nervousness uncomfort dissocation carry everywhere lived head facing hope utterly broken cry everyday five sorry disorganized gonna give better someone sincere thank,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Am I overreacting? Can’t see past the anxiety? Hi. I have panic disorder. We just moved in to a new house and i have been struggling to feel comfortable being ground level. (Been living in apartments the last few years)  made lots of progress the past two weeks. Then today I’m home alone and a big guy walks across my front deck (right in front of my entrance/living room window) and then circles my house fully. He hangs in the backyard for a bit and leaves out the back gate. I go into full anxiety mode and text my boyfriend to ask if he could stay home tonight because what happened has me scared, panicking and I need to wake up for work at 6am and would be way more at ease with someone here. He says no because he is going out with his friends and that I’m being selfish and overreacting. He says I’m being childish. Stops by the house checks out the backyard  and leaves.  I try to explain I didn’t need him to check the house for anything. I needed him home tonight to help me feel safe and get some rest for work. Now he isn’t replying to me. My phones outgoing calls are cut off (forgot to pay the bill) and I’m anxious, alone and can’t tell if I’m being a terrible person and was asking way too much. He works hard and we have a good relationship usually. But I’m so hurt he would rather go drinking than help me feel safe. He knows how this would mess with me.

I’m so tired of having to figure out if what I’m feeling is valid or anxiety based? I wish I could trust myself.

TLDR; weird man circles my house, triggers anxiety, ask boyfriend to come home for night, he wants to go out with friends, feel upset and not sure if I’m being ridiculous ",axienty,overreacting see past anxiety hi panic disorder moved new house struggling feel comfortable ground level living apartment last year made lot progress two week today home alone big guy walk across front deck right entrance room window circle fully hang backyard bit leaf back gate go full mode text boyfriend ask could stay tonight happened scared panicking need wake work would way ease someone say going friend selfish childish stop check try explain anything needed help safe get rest replying phone outgoing call cut forgot pay bill anxious tell terrible person asking much hard good relationship usually hurt rather drinking know mess tired figure feeling valid based wish trust tldr weird man trigger come night want upset sure ridiculous,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Adding Wellbutrin to my 50mg Zoloft Anyone had good luck with this combo? Zoloft works for my anxiety but it does make me a bit lazy/tired. Also losing weight is difficult on it but I've tried to wean off under Dr's supervision and unfortunately end up going back on after a few weeks to months. My Dr suggested adding Wellbutrin SR.

​

tl;dr I'm adding wellbutrin to my zoloft combo, any experience? ",axienty,adding wellbutrin mg zoloft anyone good luck combo work anxiety make bit lazy tired also losing weight difficult tried wean dr supervision unfortunately end going back week month suggested sr tl experience,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"I'm starting with a new therapist next week, and have some questions about a form... So, I have an intake appointment next week with a new therapist and I'm going through the paperwork they need for it and I'm kind of confused with one of the forms. 

https://i.imgur.com/T4I3eF6.png This is the form (the blacked out parts are the therapists logo/address/information)  and the top lines with patient name etc are obvious enough, but I'm not sure what to fill in for Individual or Organization/Address/Phone/fax/email part. 

Is that supposed to just be their information copied from the top? I thought that at first, but the text says 'Give permission to the individuals or organization listed above' and the lines to fill in are below that block of text. Or is it supposed to be my primary care physician or something else entirely?

I feel stupid, I just haven't filled out all that many forms for medical things and am super uncomfortable asking for help with it.",axienty,starting new therapist next week question form intake appointment going paperwork need kind confused one blacked part logo address information top line patient name etc obvious enough sure fill individual organization phone fax email supposed copied thought first text say give permission listed block primary care physician something else entirely feel stupid filled many medical thing super uncomfortable asking help,0.1,Moderately Positive
"New Years Resolution: less social media I find that social media sites, specifically for me, Facebook & Instagram make me crazy.

I end up only stalking people I hate to hate read/watch. I've been on Facebook for 11 years and Instagram for 5. I cannot bear the thought of looking back on my life and realizing how much time I wasted being on social media/being negative.

So my resolution is to be off those sites as long as I can. I've been weaning myself off the past week and so far it's been wonderful. I know I'll be challenged as soon as I go back to work. 

Anyone have similar resolutions? Feel the same about social media? Share away!
",axienty,new year resolution le social medium find site specifically facebook instagram make crazy end stalking people hate read watch cannot bear thought looking back life realizing much time wasted negative long weaning past week far wonderful know challenged soon go work anyone similar feel share away,-0.06,Moderately Negative
Good apps? Hey! I just dropped my Android in a sink full of water and someone in my family gave me their old iphone as a replacement .  I used to really like this app called worry box on android but they don’t have it for Apple . if something was stressing me out i could write it down and put it away in the box and look at it later if i wanted to. is there anything like that for iPhones?,axienty,good apps hey dropped android sink full water someone family gave old iphone replacement used really like app called worry box apple something stressing could write put away look later wanted anything iphones,0.27,Moderately Positive
"My anxiety is going through the roof; I’m having to choose suffering through the worst pain I’ve experienced, or go completely broke. I’m a 23F who moved out of my parents’ last May. I have an incredible job at a local hospital with the most amazing coworkers. I also have the best, most supportive boyfriend and roommate. Lately though, I’ve been so incredibly stressed and full of anxiety. At the end of May, I was diagnosed with Endometriosis and told I would eventually require surgery. I tried to postpone the surgery closer to when I would qualify for FMLA. However the last month and some change, I have been in the most extreme, never ending pain. I’ve been in and out of the ER and told there was nothing that could be done. I caved and scheduled surgery for February 23rd. The problem is I haven’t been able to make it through more than 2 days of work without almost passing out from the pain. But I need to work so I can build up substantial PTO for when I’m out in recovery after the surgery. I could get a leave of absence until February 23rd and then a separate one for after the surgery, but the first would be unpaid and I’d have no PTO for after the surgery. Guys, I can’t go broke. I have a car, a dog, and I need to pay my bills. But at this point I’m so raw from anxiety and emotions; I feel like I can’t keep this up. ",axienty,anxiety going roof choose suffering worst pain experienced go completely broke moved parent last may incredible job local hospital amazing coworkers also best supportive boyfriend roommate lately though incredibly stressed full end diagnosed endometriosis told would eventually require surgery tried postpone closer qualify fmla however month change extreme never ending er nothing could done caved scheduled february rd problem able make day work without almost passing need build substantial pto recovery get leave absence separate one first unpaid guy car dog pay bill point raw emotion feel like keep,0.25,Moderately Positive
"threw away my future because of anxiety, is there any hope for me? i am 25 years old. i dropped out of high school my senior year due to the crippling anxiety and depression and have done nothing but exist since. i've slowly gotten a little better over time, i can leave the house now but i still don't drive and the thought of public transportation gives me a panic attack. i've been living off a small inheritance sum the past 8 years but now that's out so i have to get some form of income or i die now.

but i have no skills, no work experience, no high school diploma, no form of transportation besides my feet, and i can't find a job online that i would be able to do (besides filling out surveys for maybe 3 bucks a day)

and the worst part was, i deluded myself for 8 years thinking i was fine and i could function at any time, that i just ""wasn't quite ready"" yet, and i would be good to go when my money eventually ran out. been on meds for most of the past 8 years and saw a psychologist once who couldn't help me but beyond that i never sought out any help, because in that little sheltered life i never was forced to confront that i needed it. now reality has hit and i am so, so scared. i don't want to die

i need advice from anyone who has been in a hole similar to this and managed to crawl their way out. my last week has been hopelessness and despair and i just want to go back to not having to worry constantly",axienty,threw away future anxiety hope year old dropped high school senior due crippling depression done nothing exist since slowly gotten little better time leave house still drive thought public transportation give panic attack living small inheritance sum past get form income die skill work experience diploma besides foot find job online would able filling survey maybe buck day worst part deluded thinking fine could function quite ready yet good go money eventually ran med saw psychologist help beyond never sought sheltered life forced confront needed reality hit scared want need advice anyone hole similar managed crawl way last week hopelessness despair back worry constantly,0.01,Neutral
"I’m currently having my first anxiety attack: please help by talking me through it Gonna keep this short-ish to avoid having to describe in too much detail the horror I began feeling 9 hrs ago and am still feeling now.

I was traveling this week for work. Not far, 1.5 hr flight. 9 hrs ago, I got on my flight back extremely exhausted from what was essentially a work bender for three days. To make matters worse, I hadn’t eaten almost anything all day today. I’m 27 yo guy, if it matters.

Flight is delayed on the tarmac for 40 min, so I tried to sleep but couldn’t. That feeling when you’re so tired that you’re not tired. Thats the one. Finally we push back and take off and I start to realize my attention is being drawn to my pulse. It wasn’t necessarily going faster, but it was more present and slightly, yet noticeably, stronger. 

I’ve never had a panic/anxiety attack before or seen one first hand, so that has not even crossed my mind at this point while I begin to worry about my health as we’re ascending up to 30 thousand ft in this steel fucking box. 

I know my body pretty well, and people who know me have told me I handle stressful situations very calmly. I almost never get worked up. 

Still in my seat, I try my best for 5 minutes to breathe deeply, be silent, and focus on my body. That’s when my chest started to tighten up. I turned to the couple in my row and told them I had to stand up because I was feeling light headed. In my head I’m thinking, there’s a chance I could go into cardiac arrest on this plane and I need to do something to here, or at least not be in a fucking window seat with two people blocking me in when it happens.

*just took a 20 min break.. my body feels saturated with adrenaline*

Got up. Slid by the flight attendants passing out snacks and went straight to the back of plane and cracked open a ginger ale and started steadily drinking it, trying to stay calm. Flight attendant comes over, ‘can we get you something?’ Clearly asked because she heard me open it and wanted to say ‘why are opening you’re own shit back here when we’re in the middle of serving everything?’

I looked at her and tried to speak but couldn’t the first time. Managed to point to myself and mutter ‘not feeling well’. She knew it was serious and started getting me water/juice/pretzels to counter dehydration/low blood sugar/etc because I told them I was feeling faint. I was so worried that if I mentioned my heart rate, it would immediately triple the stressfulness of the situation, which I wasn’t sure I could handle.

they tried to distract me from my ‘lightheaded-ness’ once they gave me snacks/water, and they were not good at it. One lady said I should definitely get checked because her friend used to get lightheaded sometimes and when we went to the doctor it turned out to be a semi serious heart issue..

Thank you. Thank you flight attendant. For that wonderful story. 🤦🏼‍♂️

Anyway, they asked if I wanted the paramedics upon arrival and I said yes but tell them it’s not an emergency. I think at this point I was trying to calm them down in order to convince myself I was okay. They checked vitals, did EKG, blood sugar/pressure etc. blood pressure was a bit high but ekg was normal, thank god. 

Symptoms have persisted with chest pain, but far more mental anxiety and overall body pain. I’m in a real dark place still thinking about work, life’s stresser and if that played a role. Anyway, still pretty scared but the ekg being normal did make me feel better. 

Well, that wasn’t short-ish but my gf is being weird about it and I needed to talk to someone. Thanks for listening. 

",axienty,currently first anxiety attack please help talking gonna keep short ish avoid describe much detail horror began feeling hr ago still traveling week work far flight got back extremely exhausted essentially bender three day make matter worse eaten almost anything today yo guy delayed tarmac min tried sleep tired thats one finally push take start realize attention drawn pulse necessarily going faster present slightly yet noticeably stronger never panic seen hand even crossed mind point begin worry health ascending thousand ft steel fucking box know body pretty well people told handle stressful situation calmly get worked seat try best minute breathe deeply silent focus chest started tighten turned couple row stand light headed head thinking chance could go cardiac arrest plane need something least window two blocking happens took break feel saturated adrenaline slid attendant passing snack went straight cracked open ginger ale steadily drinking trying stay calm come clearly asked heard wanted say opening shit middle serving everything looked speak time managed mutter knew serious getting water juice pretzel counter dehydration low blood sugar etc faint worried mentioned heart rate would immediately triple stressfulness sure distract lightheaded ness gave good lady said definitely checked friend used sometimes doctor semi issue thank wonderful story anyway paramedic upon arrival yes tell emergency think order convince okay vitals ekg pressure bit high normal god symptom persisted pain mental overall real dark place life stresser played role scared better gf weird needed talk someone thanks listening,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Hello people with anxiety, you are not alone and you can overcome it. Hello I just wanted to share my story with you, to give all the people in need help with anxiety because I have been there.  I was in my junior year in high school and I was enjoying life but it took a twist that I would have never have expected. I was playing video games and my heart beat went to 150 at a constant rate and I freaked out. I went to the hospital and they held me overnight and keep in mind that I thought I was gonna die that day because it was something that I never experienced.  They told me that I had a pretty bad anxiety attack. After that I didn’t wanna go to school and I just wanted to go to stay in bed no matter what consequence it would have on my life at the moment.  I got put on antidepressants which was a huge thing because those are pretty heavy duty drugs. I have been on them for a year and now am off with them happy with life. I just wanna say I am a survivor with heavy anxiety and if you are on antidepressants you are not alone and there is light at the tunnel. Set goals and you can reach them you are not the only one. Please get help because it might be hard but it is the best thing for you. No man I don’t care how strong or smart you are you need a helping hand with anxiety because it can overcome you. Everyone with anxiety can win the war and there is living proof!! Have a good day everyone and anyone who had sudden anxiety and found out the start is rough but keep a clear mind. ",axienty,hello people anxiety alone overcome wanted share story give need help junior year high school enjoying life took twist would never expected playing video game heart beat went constant rate freaked hospital held overnight keep mind thought gonna die day something experienced told pretty bad attack wanna go stay bed matter consequence moment got put antidepressant huge thing heavy duty drug happy say survivor light tunnel set goal reach one please get might hard best man care strong smart helping hand everyone win war living proof good anyone sudden found start rough clear,0.23,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety and relationships don’t mix well 23m/23f She’s busy a lot of the time and In a bad mood because of it and we don’t talk as much as we did before classes started. Every day I’m afraid that she’s going to end it with me because she doesn’t have the time, sending me into a never ending panic most of the time she’s around. It really sucks. I crave acknowledgement and take it too personally when I don’t get it. I know this and yet It brings me more anxiety when I try to find peace in it all. I need some sort of way to get through this, is there anyone with any advice they could give me?",axienty,anxiety relationship mix well busy lot time bad mood talk much class started every day afraid going end sending never ending panic around really suck crave acknowledgement take personally get know yet brings try find peace need sort way anyone advice could give,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"Is it possible to be over-conscious? Even as I write this, im cognitively attributing my words to why I feel the way I do. Every arm cross, clap, every weird step of the foot. For each facial expression my mind makes note. I pace around the house sometimes because I'm waiting for my next conscious step. I respond to everything internally; anger, happiness, excitement, jealousy, embarrassment. I let it pile over the years and now I get anxiety attacks. So now I try to live as though not to trigger an attack, but I'm also contemplating whether or not having an unconscious attack means I'm mentally weak. I've always understood subtext when a person speaks, unless they speak their minds. However, this leaves me judging their subtext, which in turn makes me distrust. The term 'overthinking' is often prevalent, but is overthrowing just a term used to marginalize deeper thought? Are you really overthinking a situation or are you getting more information than others would? Then you have to apply that to everyday situations, when or when not to ""over think."" 
Is there any advice anyone can give that lets how I feel match up more with my rationality? It's easy to say everything will be okay, it's harder to feel it. ",axienty,possible conscious even write im cognitively attributing word feel way every arm cross clap weird step foot facial expression mind make note pace around house sometimes waiting next respond everything internally anger happiness excitement jealousy embarrassment let pile year get anxiety attack try live though trigger also contemplating whether unconscious mean mentally weak always understood subtext person speaks unless speak however leaf judging turn distrust term overthinking often prevalent overthrowing used marginalize deeper thought really situation getting information others would apply everyday think advice anyone give match rationality easy say okay harder,-0.01,Neutral
The anxiety while driving a car. How do you deal with this besides obviously confronting the fear itself? Anyone else here able to relate?,axienty,anxiety driving car deal besides obviously confronting fear anyone else able relate,0.25,Moderately Positive
"A solution for Anxiety? Hey guys, there is something i just started to do every morning, after i take a bath i search on Youtube a Motivational speech, and i listen to it while i dress and prepare for the day, and believe it or not, at the end of the speech i feel so motivated and happy, cause i know that i can do anything and i can deal with Anxiety.

Cause i realize something, if i want to be succesfull, if i want people to respect me, if i want to be important, i need to get out of my comfort zone, and do things im not used to do, and learn something new and ask for respect, cause you know what, nothing in life is free, succes have a high prize and im here to be succesfull no matter what. 

And every time i wake up, im just one step forward to succes.",axienty,solution anxiety hey guy something started every morning take bath search youtube motivational speech listen dress prepare day believe end feel motivated happy cause know anything deal realize want succesfull people respect important need get comfort zone thing im used learn new ask nothing life free succes high prize matter time wake one step forward,0.38,Moderately Positive
"What is wrong with me? (26F) It is a symptom I get when I am anxious, watching something that makes me uncomfortable or just anything that makes me feel uncomfortable to begin with. It also happens occasionally without feeling any type of way. So it literally can last any where from a second to 2 seconds. I don’t think it has lasted any longer than that but it has happened multiple times in a matter of a couple minutes. During it feels like my optic nerves are being compressed by something. Like an increase in pressure to where I almost feel I lose my vision but I am never sure because its so short. I wonder if it’s a side effect to my medication (antidepressant – Viibryd) or if its just something physical that came along the way with my anxiety. It drives me insane and I tried to bring it up to my psych doc but it is so hard for me to explain and he didn't really seem to think it was an issue. I feel like its gotten worse but I am at a high level of stress at the moment. Does anyone experience anything like this? ",axienty,wrong symptom get anxious watching something make uncomfortable anything feel begin also happens occasionally without feeling type way literally last second think lasted longer happened multiple time matter couple minute like optic nerve compressed increase pressure almost lose vision never sure short wonder side effect medication antidepressant viibryd physical came along anxiety drive insane tried bring psych doc hard explain really seem issue gotten worse high level stress moment anyone experience,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"Anyone else struggle with employment due to anxiety? Pretty much as the title says; 

I have been struggling to keep a job since my hospitalization in June. The job I was in earlier in 2017 was causing a lot of stress (I was a social worker) to the point where I left and was hospitalized three days later. I was at the hospital for ten days. I was diagnosed with Major depressive disorder, GAD, and social anxiety disorder.

My last job went fairly well (I was a deli clerk at a grocery store); my managers were kind and I liked the work...until they moved me to another store in another city and put me in a different position where I worked alone with no backup. I didn’t last a day. I tried going back to work this week after I was offered another deli job at another grocery store, but I didn’t make it a full day (the girl that was suppose to train me didn’t show up to work and I cracked after three hours of being on my own). 

I have a wonderful husband who loves me no matter what and assures me that it’ll take time to feel normal again, but I feel I’m disappointing him. I’m going back to school to be a chef so I can (hopefully) work in the back of the house with a small crew to deal with. It’ll be two years though before I complete that.

Does anyone else struggle with work? How did you overcome it? I want to be able to pull my weight around the house, but I feel trapped.",axienty,anyone else struggle employment due anxiety pretty much title say struggling keep job since hospitalization june earlier causing lot stress social worker point left hospitalized three day later hospital ten diagnosed major depressive disorder gad last went fairly well deli clerk grocery store manager kind liked work moved another city put different position worked alone backup tried going back week offered make full girl suppose train show cracked hour wonderful husband love matter assures take time feel normal disappointing school chef hopefully house small crew deal two year though complete overcome want able pull weight around trapped,0.16,Moderately Positive
Stop FOLLOWING POLITICS AND STOP LIVING A LIFE OF FEAR! Seriously do it you can still vote but man all that 24 hours new cycle shit is going to do is end up breaking you. just quit that shit.,axienty,stop following politics living life fear seriously still vote man hour new cycle shit going end breaking quit,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"I think my anxiety is the root of this? Okay I'm on mobile so sorry if this is formatted weird. and idk tw for demons? just to be safe I guess?


To start this off I'm 13 and I've had anxiety for awhile but lately I've been suuuuper paranoid of like...demons.

Like actual demons, when I go to bed I have to cover my face because im scared I'll see something in my room! 
When I'm home alone I feel so paranoid that somthing will just walk down the hallway or jump out of my closet! 

And mirrors I cannot look in a mirror if its night time!  I'm afraid I'll  see something looking at me.

My ma just blows me off n says I'm fine but I wanna know if anyone else is paranoid as hell like me 😂",axienty,think anxiety root okay mobile sorry formatted weird idk tw demon safe guess start awhile lately suuuuper paranoid like actual go bed cover face im scared see something room home alone feel somthing walk hallway jump closet mirror cannot look night time afraid looking blow say fine wanna know anyone else hell,-0.06,Moderately Negative
Visual problems from anxiety? Does anyone have any experience or information on visual problems some people have from anxiety?  Who experience this even when they are not feeling anxious?,axienty,visual problem anxiety anyone experience information people even feeling anxious,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"I am constantly questioning reality. I'm feeling overwhelmed.

Ever since I became more aware of my mental health problems (cyclothimia with severe anxiety), I have been questioning every relation I have. Family and friends.

I have this feeling of looking back and realizing many absurd things and ways people treated me.

But it is overwhelming because I constantly find myself with the feeling that the closest people to me are bad for my mental health.

And then I question, can this be real? Am I the problem? Am I looking at things from the past with this tainted vision? Am I trying to find problems?

How can I at the same time, feel like people I love so much are bad for me?

How can I feel that about so many close people?

Am I ungrateful? Am I one of those people they say ""she thinks shes too good for us now""?

If these people are indeed bad for me, how can I have chose so many wrong people to share my life with?

What about the good things they did? How can I let that go?

At the same time, do those things ""pay off"" the bad things?

I feel a panic/axienty comming... :(",axienty,constantly questioning reality feeling overwhelmed ever since became aware mental health problem cyclothimia severe anxiety every relation family friend looking back realizing many absurd thing way people treated overwhelming find closest bad question real past tainted vision trying time feel like love much close ungrateful one say think shes good u indeed chose wrong share life let go pay panic axienty comming,0.04,Neutral
"I think my medication is causing a relapse? 4 years ago I had a major stressor that really kicked off my anxiety, well over the years I've learned to cope with it and eventually I was not even troubled by the thoughts that stemmed from it.

However recently I've been at a point in my life where depression has hit at a stressful time and I have opted for medication,  Amitryptilan 10 mg at bed time.. I was very anxious whilst taking my first pill, as I was aware of possible side effects.. well, I think the real anxiety is coming back when I thought I had it all under control, the anxiety of good ol' has returned.. Hello cold sweats & intrusive thoughts.

I honestly wish I had never taken that pill, when I knew that whole business about how antidepressants are supposed to make you worse then better. I only took 1 prescribed pill on Saturday night and that was it.. and now I feel like the withdrawals and side effects have hit me 4 days later. I also have a dry mouth, flu like symptoms and migraines. 

This fucking sucks. I'd rather be depressed and unmotivated than anxious and in a state of panic... panicking over shit that happened 4 years ago. ",axienty,think medication causing relapse year ago major stressor really kicked anxiety well learned cope eventually even troubled thought stemmed however recently point life depression hit stressful time opted amitryptilan mg bed anxious whilst taking first pill aware possible side effect real coming back control good ol returned hello cold sweat intrusive honestly wish never taken knew whole business antidepressant supposed make worse better took prescribed saturday night feel like withdrawal day later also dry mouth flu symptom migraine fucking suck rather depressed unmotivated state panic panicking shit happened,0.02,Neutral
"Anxiety hangover So I had a panic attack after drinking (I always drink) which made it worse Sunday night. I still feel anxious. Just not a full blown panic attack. It’s making me mad because I havnt had a panic attack since I was 16 and i’m 22 now. So 6 years! It happened randomly when I went to go to bed.  I closed my eyes and my heart starting racing and I felt dizzy. I could only think of panicking. I knew I was having a panic attack. I tried to breathe but I couldnt calm myself. I was in my bed tipsy and thinking about my own living room scared me. I went to the bathroom and threw up so much. I didnt wake my partner because if I even acknowledge to him that i’m having a panic attack it will be worse. I eventually fell asleep. I do have slight anxiety, but it was so under control I only had it when I went out in public sometimes, but it never was a problem in my life. After I got control of it. I havnt been on meds for 5 years. Well after my panic attack I have constant anxiety. Even around my boyfriend and in my house. It sucks so bad. I don’t know why I feel like this. I just want it to go away. I think I’m having anxiety because i’m so scared it will happen again, but I always remind myself I didn’t die and wont die during one, but still when it happens its hard not to think bad. Have any of you experienced this?",axienty,anxiety hangover panic attack drinking always drink made worse sunday night still feel anxious full blown making mad havnt since year happened randomly went go bed closed eye heart starting racing felt dizzy could think panicking knew tried breathe couldnt calm tipsy thinking living room scared bathroom threw much didnt wake partner even acknowledge eventually fell asleep slight control public sometimes never problem life got med well constant around boyfriend house suck bad know like want away happen remind die wont one happens hard experienced,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Relationships with anxiety Ok, so I have GAD and I usually keep myself from being put into stressful situations because as I assume you guys know it leads to a lot of overthinking. Now I recently decided to finally put myself out there. I met a girl and she makes me happy. I really love and trust her but my mind keeps poisoning those happy thoughts. I don't know what to do. I have bad trust issues and constantly think about what she says and does. What should I do? Go to a therapist? Medicine? I just want to stop thinking this way once and for all.",axienty,relationship anxiety ok gad usually keep put stressful situation assume guy know lead lot overthinking recently decided finally met girl make happy really love trust mind poisoning thought bad issue constantly think say go therapist medicine want stop thinking way,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Feeling that someone is behind me during an anxiety attack Some days when I’m feeling super on edge and especially if I’ve had coffee I can start to feel like there’s someone behind me even when I’m alone in my room.

I’m a 24 year old male with anxiety issues since I was about 5 (by my recollection) but had a lot of years where I had 0 anxiety and recently it came back.

I don’t really have social anxiety, I’m mostly anxious for no reason at all, which lead me to being obsessed with going insane getting schizophrenia etc.

However, i cant seem to find anyone who has this feeling that only has anxiety. 

To clarify further: I know there is nobody behind me, it’s just a general feeling of unease and uncomfortability, like after watching a horror movie when you were a kid and constantly looking behind your back after it was over.

Is this an anxiety thing or am I becoming paranoid?",axienty,feeling someone behind anxiety attack day super edge especially coffee start feel like even alone room year old male issue since recollection lot recently came back really social mostly anxious reason lead obsessed going insane getting schizophrenia etc however cant seem find anyone clarify know nobody general unease uncomfortability watching horror movie kid constantly looking thing becoming paranoid,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"What makes someone a man child? Why some characters in movies are called dumb or some are unlikeable? 

Like why some people like batman but i feel like he has no sense of humor and most consider him as manly.. do i have to be like him to be a man? My question is what makes someone a man??

Maybe im overthiking by trying to be ""perfect"" and that overthinking is making me go crazy and end up not doing anything to improve. And fap all day. 

I cant even fucking make friends. I try my hardest to be liked. In fact my depression makes me think no one even cares about me enough to even know i exist. 

Maybe i should be like indiana jones... he has quiet cool traits. But i dont know how.


Thanks.",axienty,make someone man child character movie called dumb unlikeable like people batman feel sense humor consider manly question maybe im overthiking trying perfect overthinking making go crazy end anything improve fap day cant even fucking friend try hardest liked fact depression think one care enough know exist indiana jones quiet cool trait dont thanks,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Can someone maybe help me figure out what this is? I don't think I've ever had a classical ""panic attack"" but I think I might have had something similar. The other day I was working on something on my computer when I started to become very aware of my own heartbeat. It felt like it was beating irregularly and pumping too hard, but when I felt my pulse it was normal. Then I got dizzy and started to get this sort of static in my peripheral vision. I thought it might be from looking at a screen for too long so I turned off the computer and went to lie down on the sofa. I was still having the weird heartbeat and the visual static and then it became difficult to breathe all of a sudden, like I wasn't gasping for air but I had to put more effort into breathing than I usually do and I felt a sharp pain in my chest every time I inhaled. This went on for a few hours until I was eventually able to go to sleep, then when I woke up the next morning I felt a little ""off"" but otherwise fine. I'm an otherwise healthy 21 year old woman so I doubt it could have been a heart problem, especially since it's been a few days and I feel fine now. I'm not sure what to call it though. ",axienty,someone maybe help figure think ever classical panic attack might something similar day working computer started become aware heartbeat felt like beating irregularly pumping hard pulse normal got dizzy get sort static peripheral vision thought looking screen long turned went lie sofa still weird visual became difficult breathe sudden gasping air put effort breathing usually sharp pain chest every time inhaled hour eventually able go sleep woke next morning little otherwise fine healthy year old woman doubt could heart problem especially since feel sure call though,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Pretty sure my brain is broken.. Bear with me this is a long one.
So back during Thanksgiving in October (i'm Canadian) I went through something tramatizing (atleast for me) I forced myself to go to thanksgiving dinner 30 minutes away to see my dads side of the family. I'm agoraphobic. I only went to make my dad happy cause I didn't want him to get fed up because I didn't go somewhere again because of my anxiety. The WHOLE time was absolute hell. I had panic attack after panic attack and had to eat infront of everyone at the table. I'm not comfortable with this side of the family and it sucked. I sucked it up even though I wanted to leave 10 minutes in. I was tired of letting people down. When we finally left my anxiety was so damn bad. I remember repeating to myself over and over ""im almost home. Almost to my room. Almost to my comfort."" I dry heaved so bad in the car which doesn't help my emetephobia thinking that I was sick and I don't need that ontop of what I thought was me dying. Once I got home the derealization kicked in. Everything looked foreign to me and I was still anxious as hell. The anxiety lasted all night and I slept like crap and kept waking up with my heart racing. The next day I couldn't eat and was dry heaving due to the anxiety and worrying that I possible got sick somehow. I had a loose stool which further ingrained that hell im sick! GREAT! I felt like I had no control over anything. My body, my thoughts. It was fucking awful and I remember saying that i'm never leaving the house again after feeling like this. The anxiety gradually went away after a week but I still would eat and then get anxious about having a loose stool which would make me anxious which would stir up my guts. I kept thinking something was wrong with me cause of the nervous poops. It went away and I went back to normal. Then about 3 weeks later I went to see my therapist and I came home and went on Netflix and then fell asleep. I dont remember falling asleep. I woke up within an hour full of a lump in my throat and bad derealization. I thought ""what is wrong with me?!"" I can't feel like this again. I'm dying! That night the anxiety came back and still hasn't left. I remember wanting my mom because she knows how to deal with this and she didnt live with me at the time as my parents seperated a year and a half ago. I then convinced myself that something bad would happen without my mom coming home. I needed her around. She would always be with me during my bad times when I was younger and I wanted her to be around this time because my dad nor my sisters helped and made me more anxious. I got set in my mind that I was gonna get them to let my mom come home no matter what. They kept telling me no because she and my dad are toxic with eachother and it would do no good. They called me dramatic and too old to have my mother around. I cried and threw things and tried to get them to understand. My mom came and stayed the night with me for 2 nights and on the second night I was determined for her to stay and move back in. My sisters and dad did not agree. It was a shit show. Arguing, my grandparents came over and me and my sister got physical. I was so set that if I didn't have my mom with me with this anxiety, or what felt like my brain dying then something bad would happen. I remember she said she had to go and that she couldn't move back in with these people who didn't treat her well. (They don't) And I remember thinking ""okay If I sit here and stare at the wall and not say anything then they'll think i'm bad enough that I need my mom to come home and get me through this bad time like she used too.) I did that. Nothing happened. She left and I cried for hours till I finally fell asleep. I couldn't eat cause everytime I did I would dry heave. My mom suggested that I go to the ER. I did and I explained the family situation, my anxiety ect. This was fucking tramatizing because back when I was 13 and my panic attacks first started I had to go because I was so anxious and thought I was dying so this brought back those memories which furthured the anxiety. I went home and I still wanted my mom home so I shut my family that I lived with out. I told them to leave my alone, thinking they would get the message that ""hey shes not okay we'll try to help her"" They just ignored me and didn't talk to me. The nights were the worst. I would get intrusive thoughts because I punched my sister in the face during our argument and I kept thinking ""oh my god what I could kill her!?"" So I avoided her. I would never hurt a fly. The intrusive thoughts, the anxiety, the tramautic hospital flashback, it all felt like my brain was breaking. My dad told me my moms not coming back it's not happening and she and I should get a place. I still wasn't listening. I wanted my family to be a family again. I wanted her home. I remember telling my dad I was running away when I just went to the forest and sat there because I was expecting him to see that I was bad and that he would let my mom come home. He didn't do anything. I came back home and I woke him up and just kept asking her ""why? why cant she come back home"" He explained rationally and such but my brain couldn't take it. I wasn't going to go through anxiety without my mom in the house to tell me im okay. To be a family again. We all fell apart when she left and I kept it inside and didn't deal with it. I got mad and I went to my room and cut myself. I felt out of control of everything. I was just trying every way to get them to see how I was suffering. He grabbed me and asked my why I did that. I didn't want to die nor was I suicidal. I just needed them to see. It was stupid now looking back on it. After that I looked online and applied to all the places and was just rushing. I had to be with my mom. I wasn't gonna stay there and have horrible anxiety where nobody cared. We got a place and I had to leave the house to sign the lease twice which was terrible. I had 40 heart palpatations in a 24 hour period and thought If i did any walking or exersize my heart would give out. I wasn't thinking I was rushing when I went to the rental office. I would tell my mom ""lets get this over with"" I couldnt even enjoy any of it cause of my anxiety over my symptoms and what happened. We got the place and moved in on January 5th. It's now the 16th and the anxiety is still here. When I shut out everyone and didnt touch my phone or do anything that would show them I was getting better so they wouldn't think that this was a one time thing im stuck in that cycle. I still get intrusive thoughts. I watch tv and wonder ""do we ever wonder why we live day in and day out doing the same old thing?"" If I hear a song or something that I heard in my childhood during that first scary hospital time then my whole body flares up in anxiety. If I get a text, anxiety through my body. Eveything is so hypervigilant and I feel out of my body and all that is in my head is what happened and how I felt. I still feel derealization, depersonlization. Whenever I see cops or abulances I panic. When I see my own father and sisters I get instant panic. I only feel semi normal if i'm in my room on my computer and even then i'm still always anxious. My thoughts don't stop. ""Why do we do this? What is the point of life? How come i'm not like so and so? Does that person worry about things?"" My mind wont shut up. I'm scared to exersize because of the heart palpatations and getting my heart rate up. I still get scared to eat heavy foods because it might lead to a loose stool which might lead me into thinking I will throw up. The only time I feel calm is when I take my Seroquel at night and sleep. Even then I wake up every hour or so. I sleep all day and im up all night. I feel like my brain is broken. It's a tumor. I'll never feel normal again. If I become fixated on a show, for example i've been watching ER and I can't watch anything else because I get a surge of anxiety. Like what the hell? I swear my brain is misfiring. What the hell happened to me?",axienty,pretty sure brain broken bear long one back thanksgiving october canadian went something tramatizing atleast forced go dinner minute away see dad side family agoraphobic make happy cause want get fed somewhere anxiety whole time absolute hell panic attack eat infront everyone table comfortable sucked even though wanted leave tired letting people finally left damn bad remember repeating im almost home room comfort dry heaved car help emetephobia thinking sick need ontop thought dying got derealization kicked everything looked foreign still anxious lasted night slept like crap kept waking heart racing next day heaving due worrying possible somehow loose stool ingrained great felt control anything body fucking awful saying never leaving house feeling gradually week would stir gut wrong nervous poop normal later therapist came netflix fell asleep dont falling woke within hour full lump throat feel wanting mom know deal didnt live parent seperated year half ago convinced happen without coming needed around always younger sister helped made set mind gonna let come matter telling toxic eachother good called dramatic old mother cried threw thing tried understand stayed second determined stay move agree shit show arguing grandparent physical said treat well okay sit stare wall say think enough used nothing happened till everytime heave suggested er explained situation ect first started brought memory furthured shut lived told alone message hey shes try ignored talk worst intrusive punched face argument oh god could kill avoided hurt fly tramautic hospital flashback breaking happening place listening running forest sat expecting asking cant rationally take going tell apart inside mad cut trying every way suffering grabbed asked die suicidal stupid looking online applied rushing horrible nobody cared sign lease twice terrible palpatations period walking exersize give rental office couldnt enjoy symptom moved january th touch phone getting better stuck cycle watch tv wonder ever hear song heard childhood scary flare text eveything hypervigilant head depersonlization whenever cop abulances father instant semi computer stop point life person worry wont scared rate heavy food might lead throw calm seroquel sleep wake tumor become fixated example watching else surge swear misfiring,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Is anyone else in a constant dread and anxious state? Its 24/7 right when I wake up... gets worse through the day and worst at night where I get horrible intrusive thoughts about death, hell, afterlife... its literally 24/7 i cant enjoy my life anymore at ALL, like everything is hard to do... DPDR and stuff too btw...",axienty,anyone else constant dread anxious state right wake get worse day worst night horrible intrusive thought death hell afterlife literally cant enjoy life anymore like everything hard dpdr stuff btw,-0.28,Moderately Negative
"Need quick advice: anxiety + peer pressure let me front this by saying im in highschool. most of my friends either vape nicotine or smoke weed and i used to aswell. recently though the school found out about me smoking and i decided just to up and stop for a while until my brain is fully developed, for financial and emotional reasons. 

so anyways, all my friends still do that shit. im going out to see a movie with a few of them later and one of them wants me to buy him $17 worth of vape juice. im a highschool student, saving money is a priority of mine. he's asked other friends that are going to buy it for him, saying we can vape in the theater we going to and get a good buzz during the movie. the thing is i just dont want to. however hes hyping up the rest of my friends getting them exited to hit his juul in the movies. my mind is telling me not to waste money on something im not going to do, but my anxiety is asking all these questions like; what if they dog on you for being a square? what if they no longer want to hang out? do they only like you because you did these things?

Anyone have suggestions as to what I should do? I like my friends for who they are not what they do. Is there a way I can just brush all these things I used to do behind me. Is it just an issue of confidence? No clue.",axienty,need quick advice anxiety peer pressure let front saying im highschool friend either vape nicotine smoke weed used aswell recently though school found smoking decided stop brain fully developed financial emotional reason anyways still shit going see movie later one want buy worth juice student saving money priority mine asked theater get good buzz thing dont however he hyping rest getting exited hit juul mind telling waste something asking question like dog square longer hang anyone suggestion way brush behind issue confidence clue,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Scared of change I have noticed that whenever I think of doing something new, I feel like flinching or i actually flinch. This nervous feeling lasts for about a second or two, but it's happening every time and I am a bit concerned. Literally, I would try to change text editors and get anxious about it. I feel weird when I change positions sitting, and get scared or nervous about almost everything. I feel nervous talking to people and get tension headaches. When something changes it almost is like a wave of energy passes through my brain. It's hard to explain. I'm not sure if I have anxiety.",axienty,scared change noticed whenever think something new feel like flinching actually flinch nervous feeling last second two happening every time bit concerned literally would try text editor get anxious weird position sitting almost everything talking people tension headache wave energy pass brain hard explain sure anxiety,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"anxiety in the form of regret and shame I regret every time I've expressed myself to others and put myself in an emotionally vulnerable position. Why? I feel horribly embarrassed at everything I've revealed to people. Nothing specific, I just feel like people do nothing but judge me. I don't know why I feel so much shame over any time I've allowed myself to express myself spontaneously. Especially on social media for some reason... I want to delete every account so that everyone I know will forget about me. I don't know what's wrong with me but I can't escape it and it's making me wish I was completely invisible. I just want to disappear at this point, I've embarrassed myself too many times.",axienty,anxiety form regret shame every time expressed others put emotionally vulnerable position feel horribly embarrassed everything revealed people nothing specific like judge know much allowed express spontaneously especially social medium reason want delete account everyone forget wrong escape making wish completely invisible disappear point many,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Tonight I had dinner with my boyfriend’s family without letting anxiety get the best of me! I have been with him for a year now and have had a small handful of dinners with his family. I usually tense up and over analyze what I am saying, which causes me to not say much at all. And if he’s ever out of the room and it’s just me and his parents, I especially panic. Today I vowed to try to hush my social anxiety and just be myself. This was especially important for me because I skipped out on a dinner with my boyfriend and his band mates the night before because of my social anxiety.
But tonight ended up being the best evening I have had with everyone so far! :)",axienty,tonight dinner boyfriend family without letting anxiety get best year small handful usually tense analyze saying cause say much ever room parent especially panic today vowed try hush social important skipped band mate night ended evening everyone far,0.14,Moderately Positive
"hospitalized for panic attack woke up in the middle of the night not being able to breathe..went outside to get fresh air and still couldnt breathe. tried drinking water, i started getting tremors and i couldnt move my hands. i was weak and feeling light-headed. ended up in an ambulance on the way to the hospital. when i got there, i heard the paramedic complain that i kept crying uncontrollably to the nurse, which was news to me because i was so out of it. one ativan pill later, and hours passed, i was finally able to breathe. apparently, it had been a panic attack. i never had one before, it felt like i was dying. my parents still dont ""understand why it happened."" quite honestly, neither do i. the nurse said they can come out of the blue. i've been doing meditation and doing journaling to bring stress down. i'm also going to start exercising. what other tips and tricks are there to help with this besides medicine?",axienty,hospitalized panic attack woke middle night able breathe went outside get fresh air still couldnt tried drinking water started getting tremor move hand weak feeling light headed ended ambulance way hospital got heard paramedic complain kept cry uncontrollably nurse news one ativan pill later hour passed finally apparently never felt like dying parent dont understand happened quite honestly neither said come blue meditation journaling bring stress also going start exercising tip trick help besides medicine,0.14,Moderately Positive
But that was 5 years ago... When things that happened to you 5 years ago (that probably the other person doesn’t even remember) keeps you up at night... anxiety why do you do this... :/,axienty,year ago thing happened probably person even remember keep night anxiety,0.0,Neutral
"Panicing!! Am I about to be fired? I was recently diagnosed with anxiety, depression, PTSD, ADHD and they think that I might also be Bipolar. 

I've been struggling with this stuff off and on my whole life but the last 6 months have been some of the worst I've dealt with. It's affecting my performance/attendance at work. I get my stuff done but it's lacking detail sometimes and I don't really go above and beyond because right now I just can't.

I have days where I can't get out of bed because the anxiety is so crippling. I work somewhere with unlimited vacation so I use that benefit to help me get better on the days I need it. Problem is that there have been a lot more of those days recently.

My boss and I have weekly 1:1 meetings and I haven't yet disclosed any of this to him. 

Here's why I'm panicing. We have our weekly meeting scheduled for today. As I was looking at my calendar this morning, I also noticed that we have another meeting scheduled for tomorrow (Friday) at 4pm. People are notoriously let go EOD on Fridays so now I'm thinking I'm about to be fired. I haven't been talked to at all about my performance or attendance. Logically, I have no reason, externally, to believe that I'm going to be fired. I know it's all internal dialog but that doesn't make it any less real right now.

I love this company. I love my team. As the sole provider for my children and husband, I need this job. We spent our savings moving here FOR THIS JOB. I'm in full on panic mode right now and I can't calm the fuck down. I have the shakes. I've cried so much this morning over this that my eyes are puffy and no amount of makeup covers this shit up.

I've already reached out to HR this morning to ask them for a meeting today so I can disclose my medical condition. Should I give them the whole list or leave it to just a couple of things?

Should I ask my boss what the meeting is about tomorrow in our meeting today? Should I disclose my medical issues to my boss?

I haven't said anything before now to my boss or HR. The guys on my team know some of what I'm dealing with but not everything. I told one person I trust that I'm dealing with intrusive thoughts of killing myself. To be clear, I don't want to die, I just want to be on the other side of this and I feel hopeless as fuck that I'm never going to get there.

I normally thrust all of myself into whatever I am tasked with but I'm just so debilitated by everything and life just overwhelms me. I am trying so hard to focus and to get help (I see a therapist weekly and am on Zoloft). 

Advice please!",axienty,panicing fired recently diagnosed anxiety depression ptsd adhd think might also bipolar struggling stuff whole life last month worst dealt affecting performance attendance work get done lacking detail sometimes really go beyond right day bed crippling somewhere unlimited vacation use benefit help better need problem lot bos weekly meeting yet disclosed scheduled today looking calendar morning noticed another tomorrow friday pm people notoriously let eod thinking talked logically reason externally believe going know internal dialog make le real love company team sole provider child husband job spent saving moving full panic mode calm fuck shake cried much eye puffy amount makeup cover shit already reached hr ask disclose medical condition give list leave couple thing issue said anything guy dealing everything told one person trust intrusive thought killing clear want die side feel hopeless never normally thrust whatever tasked debilitated overwhelms trying hard focus see therapist zoloft advice please,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I just wanted to share because I'm proud of myself, and there is nothing wrong with that. Night shifts aren't easy for me, and I have had some anxiety on and off, but zi have been able to manage it all on my own. Breathing and mindfulness have been very helpful, a little bit of acceptance and making sure my blood sugar doesn't drop. It hasn't been easy but I'm almost at the finish line. Then I can go home and sleep!",axienty,wanted share proud nothing wrong night shift easy anxiety zi able manage breathing mindfulness helpful little bit acceptance making sure blood sugar drop almost finish line go home sleep,0.26,Moderately Positive
"Can’t even go to the gas station I’m a senior in high school with terrible anxiety.  This past year I’ve taken many strides and am trying my best to get involved with my old extracurricular activities, which for about a year now, I’ve been too embarrassed to take up again because I essentially ghosted on everyone.  

Despite all this, sometimes, it feels like I’ve made no progress.  My dad asked me to put gas in the car before he had to drive into the city the other day.  We had roughly 30 miles left in the tank, and I knew I really needed to get gas, but the thought of going to the station, possibly causing an accident, taking up someone’s time, or embarrassing myself in any way paralyzed me, and so I just kept driving home, where I lied and said I forgot about it.  I feel like such an asshole, but I know that given the exact same scenario now, I’d probably do it again.",axienty,even go gas station senior high school terrible anxiety past year taken many stride trying best get involved old extracurricular activity embarrassed take essentially ghosted everyone despite sometimes feel like made progress dad asked put car drive city day roughly mile left tank knew really needed thought going possibly causing accident taking someone time embarrassing way paralyzed kept driving home lied said forgot asshole know given exact scenario probably,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I hate my heartbeat. Right now, my thoughts aren’t particularly stressful, but I know I must be having anxiety because my heartbeat just won’t leave me alone. I can feel it pulsing in my head and rattling away in my chest, going off like some kind of alarm. 

The feel of my heartbeat puts me on edge because it’s so often symptomatic of my anxiety. If I could just make peace with the feeling of it, I’d be able to relax way more easily. 

Any pointers? ",axienty,hate heartbeat right thought particularly stressful know must anxiety leave alone feel pulsing head rattling away chest going like kind alarm put edge often symptomatic could make peace feeling able relax way easily pointer,0.2,Moderately Positive
"I’m losing my mind I realize I just posted earlier today, but I really do t have anyone else to talk to about my anxiety and those I have talked to about it, well they’ve never experienced it like I had. They’re normal and I think it annoys them with all my ups and downs. 

I’ve recently quit my antidepressants, about three weeks ago. And today has just been bad. Ive been pulling my hair out and my mind won’t stop racing. I can’t focus on my job and I keep crying randomly and getting frustrated. I’m in a weird, fucked up situation with my ex that I’m still in love with and Im stressed beyond belief. I just feel like I’m losing my mind and my emotions are very erratic today.",axienty,losing mind realize posted earlier today really anyone else talk anxiety talked well never experienced like normal think annoys ups down recently quit antidepressant three week ago bad ive pulling hair stop racing focus job keep cry randomly getting frustrated weird fucked situation ex still love im stressed beyond belief feel emotion erratic,-0.23,Moderately Negative
"I hadn't laught and felt so wanted in litterally years ! So how come I'm so what ever it is I can't just say: hey want to go out to starbucks or something? I just want to be myself I guess I really want to at least try, if I get yes or maybie or no. I don't want to the regret of not even just trying. Thanks!",axienty,laught felt wanted litterally year come ever say hey want go starbucks something guess really least try get yes maybie regret even trying thanks,-0.05,Moderately Negative
How can I tell if I’m having an anxiety attack? How can I tell if I’m having an anxiety attack and how can I stop it?,axienty,tell anxiety attack stop,0.0,Neutral
"Having my first awful day in a while and need advice Hi,

Before I start, I don’t really know what I’m asking but I just need some general advice or anything that will help me.

I was prescribed 20mg of Citalopram for anxiety and depression and I thought I was getting better. I’m studying for my masters degree and everything was going okay, I got an unconditional offer for a PhD  and I thought things were looking up.

Lately, I have had so much work to do and at the moment I can’t afford my prescription so I don’t have any tablets left. For the past couple of weeks I’ve been working so hard and I feel like I’ve burned myself out. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep I’m trying to do work and I haven’t had a good night sleep in weeks.

Today I had a meeting with my masters supervisor (who will also be my PhD supervisor). He kept asking me complicated questions about my work and asking me to code things there and then. If i was having a good day, this would be fine, but I’m not. It felt like my brain just stopped working. I couldn’t concentrate at all on what he was saying and couldn’t answer anything he was asking me, apart from saying “I don’t know”. 

Now that I’ve left the meeting I feel so utterly stupid, worthless, depressed, useless, disappointing. I feel like my supervisor is probably regretting offering me a PhD now. He knows I have anxiety disorder and I’m hoping he could tell something was wrong and doesn’t just think I’m an idiot. 

Regardless, I feel like a piece of shit, I really really REALLY hate myself.  I hate being this way and it feels like whenever things start to look up, it all gets swept from under my feet and I’m back at square one.

Can someone please give me any words or advice that will help me feel better. I can’t explain the amount of self-loathing I feel right now, I just want to disappear",axienty,first awful day need advice hi start really know asking general anything help prescribed mg citalopram anxiety depression thought getting better studying master degree everything going okay got unconditional offer phd thing looking lately much work moment afford prescription tablet left past couple week working hard feel like burned wake go sleep trying good night today meeting supervisor also kept complicated question code would fine felt brain stopped concentrate saying answer apart utterly stupid worthless depressed useless disappointing probably regretting offering disorder hoping could tell something wrong think idiot regardless piece shit hate way whenever look get swept foot back square one someone please give word explain amount self loathing right want disappear,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"First psychology appointment. What were some of y’alls first experiences like? Hi everyone, first time posting. 

So I’m going to my first ever psychology appointment later today and I’m going crazy overthinking it. To those of you who’ve experienced these kinds of appointments before, what is it like? What kind of questions do they ask? What kind of things should I be talking about? Was the experience good? 

",axienty,first psychology appointment alls experience like hi everyone time posting going ever later today crazy overthinking experienced kind question ask thing talking good,0.29,Moderately Positive
"I can't stop worrying about my chest I was recently diagnoised with s aeart murmur. Apparently one of my main arteries pumps too much blood out, which is the opoosite from the common problem (I think?). 

Anyway, the heart doctor said to make yearly appointments with him and to monitor it for unusual activity. So now I'm lying in bed, worrying if my chest hurts.

Problem is, I get chronic heartburn AND my chest aches when I'm anxious. This doesnt feel like either of those, but I have also been known to get horrible Placebo Effect pains. So I don't know for sure if this is my chest or not. I mean, I know it's probably not.

But I'm gonna have a real hard time falling asleep wondering if each pound of my chest is an indication of something scary.",axienty,stop worrying chest recently diagnoised aeart murmur apparently one main artery pump much blood opoosite common problem think anyway heart doctor said make yearly appointment monitor unusual activity lying bed hurt get chronic heartburn ache anxious doesnt feel like either also known horrible placebo effect pain know sure mean probably gonna real hard time falling asleep wondering pound indication something scary,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Can’t make friends because of my social anxiety and my ADHD meds Ughhh alright so for starters in school I don’t have any friends 0 at all no one talks to me it’s almost like I’m not there it’s mostly my fault I don’t talk to anybody because of my anxiety, I’ve got GAD and I also take adderall for my ADHD (which makes me antisocial as it is).  anyway after about 2 months of school I was super depressed one night and tried to crawl out of my hell hole and make some friends so I made a “potential friends” list and marked down people I thought would be cool to be friends with, I found one of the people on my list on Instagram (I follow my school on Instagram and she was in my suggestions). anyway I requested to follow her 2-3 times and kept getting declined well today she blocked me and it’s a big set back for me (idk if she knows it’s my instagram I mean she knows my name but I use my shortened nickname in my username), it’s been a sad school year for me I come home kind of sad everyday that no one talks to me when it’s almost 1000% my fault, who would want to talk to someone who doesn’t talk ? But at the same time it sucks man no one sits with me at lunch, no one says hi when they see me idk what to do. This is abnormal for me because about 2-3 years ago I used to have a ton of friends at my school I used to be the funniest kid in the school and I got on my ADHD medication and I can’t even talk to anyone anymore I feel like I could make some friends if someone would talk to me first idk what to do. ",axienty,make friend social anxiety adhd med ughhh alright starter school one talk almost like mostly fault anybody got gad also take adderall antisocial anyway month super depressed night tried crawl hell hole made potential list marked people thought would cool found instagram follow suggestion requested time kept getting declined well today blocked big set back idk know mean name use shortened nickname username sad year come home kind everyday want someone suck man sits lunch say hi see abnormal ago used ton funniest kid medication even anyone anymore feel could first,0.09,Moderately Positive
"The never ending circus of guilt and depression, with our ringleader anxiety. I’ve never posted here before, and I just did a general search for the word “anxiety”. Reading some of these posts really helped me not feel so alone. 

I’m going to put it blunt, so please excuse my language. How does one fucking disassociate from their job at the end of the day?

Guilt, depression, shame, anxiety are all parasites that decided to choose me as their host. 
My job is stressful. I work with high needs offenders, stretched thin to a caseload of 42 very needy clients, working 12 hours a day, in an entry level position. 

I feel so much guilt that I leave my dog alone for that long. When I come home, I can’t turn my brain off from work. I’ve been actively looking for a new job, hell even something that’s not in my field but is better on the stress factor is okay by me. 

But in the meantime, I’m dreaming about work when I’m not there. I feel sick to my stomach when I think of tasks I have to do. The Sunday Blues cripples me to staying in bed and crying. 

I think my job would be bearable if i was able to turn it off. But I can’t. I’ve downloaded meditation apps but they don’t seem to work. 

I’m sorry I needed to vent. If anyone has any suggestions, I’d be open to anything. I feel like such an awful person. 
",axienty,never ending circus guilt depression ringleader anxiety posted general search word reading post really helped feel alone going put blunt please excuse language one fucking disassociate job end day shame parasite decided choose host stressful work high need offender stretched thin caseload needy client working hour entry level position much leave dog long come home turn brain actively looking new hell even something field better stress factor okay meantime dreaming sick stomach think task sunday blue cripple staying bed cry would bearable able downloaded meditation apps seem sorry needed vent anyone suggestion open anything like awful person,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Does anyone else get more anxious when your anxiety comes out of the blue (as opposed to anxiety caused by one of your normal triggers)? I find that’s it’s easier to calm myself down during a bout of anxiety/panic when it’s caused by one of the things that typically triggers my anxiety.  Maybe it’s easier to ensure myself that what I’m experiencing is actually JUST anxiety and not something worse. (I always convince myself I’m dying/about to die as I’m sure many others here can relate to. Lol)

This morning, however, I was just driving down the road in a perfectly good mood when I suddenly felt a wave of anxiety come over me. This made me more anxious than usual because driving in my car is typically a “safe space” for me. 

I guess after dealing with anxiety for so long, I thought I knew all of my triggers. So for one to just come out of the blue like it did really threw me off and I’m having a hard time convincing myself that I’ll be ok this time. Can anyone else relate?",axienty,anyone else get anxious anxiety come blue opposed caused one normal trigger find easier calm bout panic thing typically maybe ensure experiencing actually something worse always convince dying die sure many others relate lol morning however driving road perfectly good mood suddenly felt wave made usual car safe space guess dealing long thought knew like really threw hard time convincing ok,0.17,Moderately Positive
I’m feeling a major attack coming on My heart has been beating really hard for over an hour. Not so much fast but just hard like a banging. Anything heart related sends me into an instant panic and I’m wondering if it’s the meds. I’ve been on lexapro 10mg for about 3 weeks now. I’m also on antibiotics for an infection I’m dealing with so I’m wondering if antibiotics can cause weird heart symptoms. I’m so worried and trying to relax right now but it’s hard. I just need someone to chat with for a few for distraction ,axienty,feeling major attack coming heart beating really hard hour much fast like banging anything related sends instant panic wondering med lexapro mg week also antibiotic infection dealing cause weird symptom worried trying relax right need someone chat distraction,-0.03,Neutral
"An interaction with a paramedic I have PTSD with panic attacks and this has been a rough week.

I work in a youth shelter, we deal with a lot of drug activity. One of the youth was displaying signs of serious withdrawal in the middle of the night. As per our policy I called for an ambulance and police. The youth refused to go with the paramedics and when I tried to explain to the paramedic that we had a policy about youth being discharged to the hospital when there are suspected issues related to drugs the paramedic lashed out at me saying it was ridiculous. He began belittling me in front of my other staff, the other paramedics and the police. When I asked him to stop being rude and to relocate the conversation to another area away from the youth he continued to belittle me saying that I shouldn’t question his medical knowledge. Which I wasn’t, I was just trying to explain our policy. He turned to the police officer and sarcastically asked if he was being rude. Which the office agreed he was. He laughed it off and continued to say that the policy is stupid and that he knew what he was doing. The police officer pulled me aside after and reassured me that he was being rude and should not have talked to me like he did.

I feel super attacked and now I’m questioning my decision and trying not to have a panic attack because I have 5 more hours in my shift.",axienty,interaction paramedic ptsd panic attack rough week work youth shelter deal lot drug activity one displaying sign serious withdrawal middle night per policy called ambulance police refused go tried explain discharged hospital suspected issue related lashed saying ridiculous began belittling front staff asked stop rude relocate conversation another area away continued belittle question medical knowledge trying turned officer sarcastically office agreed laughed say stupid knew pulled aside reassured talked like feel super attacked questioning decision hour shift,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Im taking a placement test for my ged tomorrow I turn 27 in March. I left high school at 17 and in 11th grade because of my anxiety. This means so much to me. I don't expect a miracle or anything, but I hope to at least have it before the fall semester to start college. My anxiety is too bad for a fast food job. I'm hoping a desk job is more my style. I have had my car and driver's license for about 4 months now so it's time to start. 

I'm hoping I don't start throwing up everything I eat and feeling constant adrenaline again. But if i do I'll ask to be put back on meds. I'm so hoping this works out. I could really use something to devote my time to (and also something I can make a decent amount on money from) besides just my house and my son while he is out of school. (I'll be going to study at a center when he is in school.) 

I have zero social life. I am bad at making/keeping friends. I'm hoping this will be something good for me, my family, and my marriage.

Sorry, I know most of you probably don't care, but I'm very excited and dont have anyone to tell. Sorry if this isn't relevant. But the whole reason I'm without a diploma or job is because of the anxiety/ panic attack disorder so I'm hoping this is okay to go here. I don't really have many in my corner rooting for me. (Actually just one and I'm not even completely certain his reasons are pure.)",axienty,im taking placement test ged tomorrow turn march left high school th grade anxiety mean much expect miracle anything hope least fall semester start college bad fast food job hoping desk style car driver license month time throwing everything eat feeling constant adrenaline ask put back med work could really use something devote also make decent amount money besides house son going study center zero social life making keeping friend good family marriage sorry know probably care excited dont anyone tell relevant whole reason without diploma panic attack disorder okay go many corner rooting actually one even completely certain pure,0.09,Moderately Positive
"What do you usually listen to before going to sleep? I usually just listen to podcasts/news channel/sporcenter (I don't even like sports)
I'd listen to anything tbh as long as I'm not alone with my own toughts",axienty,usually listen going sleep podcasts news channel sporcenter even like sport anything tbh long alone toughts,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"DAE get pre-anxiety anxiety? I have extreme call anxiety & tomorrow at 8:30am I have to call a new psychiatrist and make an appointment. It's 1:56am now and I'm anxious just thinking about how anxious I'm going to be during the call, let alone just dialing the number.

This is constantly happening.

DAE get like this?",axienty,dae get pre anxiety extreme call tomorrow new psychiatrist make appointment anxious thinking going let alone dialing number constantly happening like,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Want to give meds a try but pretty nervous about it. TL;DR: I’m seeing my PCP tomorrow and I want to ask about medication that could help with agoraphobia that is triggered by driving but I am feeling very unsure due to a lot of negativity surrounding SSRI meds. 

Hey guys, I’ve been lurking on this sub for the last few months under a different username and I’ve finally decided to post. 

I’ve dealt with anxiety and panic attack on and off my entire life. Nearly everyone on my dad’s side of the family deals with it and it somehow decided to pass along to me. 

I usually go spans of 3 to 4 years without having any panic attacks and during those times I’m very happy and feeling positive about life. Then something usually happens that sets me back 10 steps and the anxiety and panic will manifest in different ways.

• high school; performance anxiety that would affect me only when I would perform on stage. 
• post college: unexpected death of my father would come as me being constantly afraid of death. 
• most recent: a panic attack woke me up from a bad dream and sent me to the ER cause the panic attack was so bad. My husband drove me to the ER and I have the worst panic attack of my life while we were merging on the highway and I felt like i was trapped and was going to die if we didn’t pull over and call 911. 

Now because I had that panic attack in the car and felt trapped and helpless, I’ve been having a really hard time with driving just about anywhere. Driving to and from work is so painful because I work 11 miles (40 minutes) from my place. 

My PCP gave me 0.5mg of Xanax (haven’t taken it yet cause I’m terrified of it and all the horror stories I’ve hear) and propanolol to help ease the very physical symptoms I get. I just don’t think that that is enough because I am suffering. 

I’ve only been going through this since November and I feel like this has been the worst anxiety has ever been for me because I am constantly worried I am going to have a panic attack and kill myself or someone else while driving. Not driving is NOT an option because my city is suuuuuper spread out and you have to drive about 20 minutes just to get anywhere. 

I guess what I’m asking here is what made you guys finally want to try meds? I was doing therapy with EMDR but I had to cancel due to sessions being $100 a week and me not being able to afford that for very long. 

I feel like I’m running out of options (and sanity) here. ",axienty,want give med try pretty nervous tl dr seeing pcp tomorrow ask medication could help agoraphobia triggered driving feeling unsure due lot negativity surrounding ssri hey guy lurking sub last month different username finally decided post dealt anxiety panic attack entire life nearly everyone dad side family deal somehow pas along usually go span year without time happy positive something happens set back step manifest way high school performance would affect perform stage college unexpected death father come constantly afraid recent woke bad dream sent er cause husband drove worst merging highway felt like trapped going die pull call car helpless really hard anywhere work painful mile minute place gave mg xanax taken yet terrified horror story hear propanolol ease physical symptom get think enough suffering since november feel ever worried kill someone else option city suuuuuper spread drive guess asking made therapy emdr cancel session week able afford long running sanity,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"My meds did nothing I was going though a rough patch a few months ago, and my doctor prescribed me some pills. She insisted that I didn't take them often, because they could be addictive. Also that I shouldn't do anything important afterwards because they were very potent.

​

Well, I tried them twice, and I felt nothing. She even said she was surprised, because I was supposed to feel drugged when taking them.

​

Any idea what happened? Can I have some natural tolerance to the substance? Was my doctor exagerating the effects? For context: the name of the meds was Sobril, it's a benzo. I used to take paroxetine, have been off for over a year.",axienty,med nothing going though rough patch month ago doctor prescribed pill insisted take often could addictive also anything important afterwards potent well tried twice felt even said surprised supposed feel drugged taking idea happened natural tolerance substance exagerating effect context name sobril benzo used paroxetine year,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Because of social anxiety I have few friends and accordingly, few social media followers. Felt embarrassed about my little followers and left IG. I want to get back on IG now but I'm still nervous. What do I do? Here's my dilemma.
I've just graduated secondary school and will be going on to tertiary education soon. So, rejoining Instagram will mean keeping in touch with old classmates and schoolmates and also as a platform to make more connections in my new school. I'm constantly thinking about this and just need to make a decision.

What would you do?

EDIT: thanks for the advice, it was very reassuring. I think I'm probably going to dive in. After all, if I don't like it, I could just quit again.",axienty,social anxiety friend accordingly medium follower felt embarrassed little left ig want get back still nervous dilemma graduated secondary school going tertiary education soon rejoining instagram mean keeping touch old classmate schoolmate also platform make connection new constantly thinking need decision would edit thanks advice reassuring think probably dive like could quit,-0.03,Neutral
"How to find the right therapist after several bad matches? Hi guys, would value your inputs. Wife in London is struggling with anxiety / panic. She has been to a number of therapists accredited by the right bodies, but hasn’t found anyone that she has found useful. She has been to 5 or 6 different people, but found them to be very generic / unhelpful. I have also been through therapy and have passed on everything I can think of that is relevant, and maybe that means she is struggling to find someone that appears insightful. 

My wife is driven by a lot of fear that we think comes from growing up in an unstable family and political environment. She is hoping for someone to help her explore that and help her trace her current behaviour and fears back to their origins, to help her understand and overcome them. 

TLDR: I feel that therapy would be useful for her but she has almost given up hope. How do we find the right therapist that will help her explore her past to link it to her current fears?

Thanks a million for any help you can provide!
",axienty,find right therapist several bad match hi guy would value input wife london struggling anxiety panic number accredited body found anyone useful different people generic unhelpful also therapy passed everything think relevant maybe mean someone appears insightful driven lot fear come growing unstable family political environment hoping help explore trace current behaviour back origin understand overcome tldr feel almost given hope past link thanks million provide,-0.01,Neutral
"The weekend, i felt like the sensations I have while in a panic attack is kind of the same as the one I have when overly (sexually) excited, and this troubles me. **tl:dr, because I always speak too much**: I kind of discovered that some of the hardest physical feeling I have in a panic attack can be the same as when I have intense physical pleasure, but I feel one being negative and painful and the other as positive and pleasurable. And it does not make any sense to me. Am I alone in this!?

I've had panic attack (while sleeping or in between being awaken and asleep) for over 20 years now, those are common to me, and being the [too] rational type of guy, I've tried to analyse them a lot over the years... Up to where, at some point, I decided that they where part of life and tried to accept them without trying to think about them too much.

So it's been a while (years!) since I've ""analysed"" the attacks, and the feeling of them. So I might just be realizing something that was there all along, or is just not there at all, I don't know. I guess I'm posting this to see if anyone relates because this feels so... Weird, I can't wrap my head around the fact that this is something. Here it goes.

Last friday I had one of my attacks. Was sleeping, woke up in panic because if the idea that I will one day die. Had the usual search for my breath, heartbeat accelerated and _that heavy feeling_ in the chest that I can never really describe well. Like always, I calmed down, knowing what was happening and went back to sleep some time later in the night.

Then the usual happened. Since my early twenties, every one of those attacks triggers some kind of libido surges in the following days. It's like the idea of one day dying triggers a need for _sensations_ (seems reasonable I guess). Now I'm married with a low libido woman, and I don't often have sex... So when it does occur, it's normally _really good_ and, last sunday, it did happen, when I was on that ""sensation need"" phase of the attacks.

At some point, my wife touched me and I had an immense burst of good sensations that culminated as what I can only describe and felt as _the exact same heavy feeling in my chest_ that I have while in a panic attack.

But it was a bad feeling, a difficult or negative one. It was so good. It physically felt the same in my chest, but it wasn't painful, in was intense pleasure.

Since then, I've only had that on my mind. I can't seem to be able to bring together in my head that I have (or had) the same physical sensation on two such different and opposite end of the scale.

Does it make sense!?",axienty,weekend felt like sensation panic attack kind one overly sexually excited trouble tl dr always speak much discovered hardest physical feeling intense pleasure feel negative painful positive pleasurable make sense alone sleeping awaken asleep year common rational type guy tried analyse lot point decided part life accept without trying think since analysed might realizing something along know guess posting see anyone relates weird wrap head around fact go last friday woke idea day die usual search breath heartbeat accelerated heavy chest never really describe well calmed knowing happening went back sleep time later night happened early twenty every trigger libido surge following dying need seems reasonable married low woman often sex occur normally good sunday happen phase wife touched immense burst culminated exact bad difficult physically mind seem able bring together two different opposite end scale,0.0,Neutral
"recently been feeling these “brain shocks” and i dont know what to do like im seriously lost, this has only happrned recently and ive never used the devils lettuce and anti depressants.",axienty,recently feeling brain shock dont know like im seriously lost happrned ive never used devil lettuce anti depressant,-0.17,Moderately Negative
Lockerrooms... Does any one else get major anxiety in locker rooms? I always have to change in the bathroom stalls or in the showers because the thought of changing in front of someone is worse than death,axienty,lockerrooms one else get major anxiety locker room always change bathroom stall shower thought changing front someone worse death,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"DAE go to school and feel like everything just happens around you New to this sub. Perhaps it'll be therapeutic in some way.


Does anyone else go to school/work and sit down at lunch or in class and notice everything just go on without you? Makes me feel like I mean nothing to everyone :/",axienty,dae go school feel like everything happens around new sub perhaps therapeutic way anyone else work sit lunch class notice without make mean nothing everyone,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"How do you know if your anxiety is caused by a chemical imbalance? Being prescribed anti-anxiety and anti-depressant medication, I am wondering how much of it is caused by imbalances. Ideally I’d like to take nothing - or perhaps something strictly as needed. This is something my psychiatrist has never brought up and I’m curious to hear some unbiased answers.",axienty,know anxiety caused chemical imbalance prescribed anti depressant medication wondering much ideally like take nothing perhaps something strictly needed psychiatrist never brought curious hear unbiased answer,0.4,Moderately Positive
"My friend is coming to get me in the grocery store parking lot where I wound up after. It is, legally, without a doubt my fault, although actually not because the cops cut the guy in front of me off to let some school busses go past without traffic or whatever, the roads were slick, and I couldn’t stop in time, but I’m still freaking out in my head. Ugh. Mentally just not alright right now. I should not have gone out today.",axienty,friend coming get grocery store parking lot wound legally without doubt fault although actually cop cut guy front let school bus go past traffic whatever road slick stop time still freaking head ugh mentally alright right gone today,-0.02,Neutral
"Experience with Trintellix? I have severe chronic depression, have had it for most of my adult life. I got on Welbutrin last year and that helped a lot. This past year though my anxiety that often goes along with my depressive episodes has been crippling. It's been affecting my work, and sleep. I get so overwhelmed with anxiety at work that I can't mentally function. And I keep waking up almost every hour of the night, often with terrifying nightmares. I spoke with my doctor who recommended I try Trintellix with my Welbutrin, and if it helps to then wean off the latter. 

Anyone here take this medication or have experience with it? I know everyone's body is different so how one person reacts won't be how everyone does. Just am curious of what I might expect, and maybe hear some encouraging success stories with it if they're there. Or advice to help with things like nausea (my doc said that's a common initial/temporary side affect) Thanks!",axienty,experience trintellix severe chronic depression adult life got welbutrin last year helped lot past though anxiety often go along depressive episode crippling affecting work sleep get overwhelmed mentally function keep waking almost every hour night terrifying nightmare spoke doctor recommended try help wean latter anyone take medication know everyone body different one person reacts curious might expect maybe hear encouraging success story advice thing like nausea doc said common initial temporary side affect thanks,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"Let’s talk about things we know we are doing wrong. I’d like to hear some of the habits you all have, as anxiety sufferers, that you believe are bad for you but, that you do any way.

Here are some of mine: drinking coffee, diagnosing myself/ researching my countless aches and pains, drinking alcohol, staying close to hospitals, having an escape plan for every situation, and oversharing my disorder (GAD). Writing all this, instead of going out and living my life. ",axienty,let talk thing know wrong like hear habit anxiety sufferer believe bad way mine drinking coffee diagnosing researching countless ache pain alcohol staying close hospital escape plan every situation oversharing disorder gad writing instead going living life,-0.4,Moderately Negative
"Kinda freaking out, advice please? Quick Backstory: I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety when I was 10, but I think I'm more generalized anxiety tbh, I'm 24 now, no medications, briefly went through therapy in college for it. I'm married (2 years in March), and we've been healing from a rough season of life recently. A lot of the problem is I don't know how to handle it when someone is angry with me. I get so afraid of my husband coming home from work, when I know he will be mad at me for something. He's never done anything to warrant the fear - I know its irrational. He's never hit me or ever even implied he wanted to or was going to. Basically not violent. I think only ever yelled at me once and I was raising my voice too, never swears, or anything. Typically handles his anger pretty well - will leave a room to cool off before saying something he will regret, etc.

Another backstory is my husband is severely allergic to some type of chemical that we are trying to pin down.

We have a cat, that my husband is not very fond of. He's never had a pet before, and is adjusting to having something you can't really control around. The cat is sweet, she can be difficult at times (doesn't let us pick her up, is scared of everything), and this morning she did something she's never done before: peed on the carpet.

Now it's in her litter closet, so its not like in the middle of the room or anything. And its my fault because I was sick and completely forgot to sift it so I get why she did it. So I spend all morning freaking out trying to clean this spot, its smelling up the whole house, and she's been doing a lot of random things recently that have been aggravating my husband. I didn't know what to do, and was sob cleaning trying to get the smell to go away.

I made the decision to go get an enzyme cleaner to get the ammonia smell out.

It did it, I don't smell anything. I texted my husband about it, and he is mad at me for bringing the cleaner into the house. We've had to go chemical free to keep his reactions at bay - and this was within the last month and a half so still adjusting. The ingredient list doesn't specify what types of surfactant cleaners are in it, so it probably has something he's allergic to.

I can't stop crying. He's so mad. He texted me that he has to work overtime hours after our initial conversation and isn't responding to my question of when he will be home.

I haven't been able to do my school work today because I can't stop thinking about: how stupid I am, how I've hurt him - physically, why I didn't try baking soda first, how mad he's going to be, will he want to get rid of our cat, the list goes on. And the fact that I couldn't get what I needed done today is making me more anxious. I just want to shut everything off, sleep, do something to make it stop.

I don't know what to do. There's at least an hour until he was supposed to be home initially.

What can I do to stop my head from this?",axienty,kinda freaking advice please quick backstory diagnosed social anxiety think generalized tbh medication briefly went therapy college married year march healing rough season life recently lot problem know handle someone angry get afraid husband coming home work mad something never done anything warrant fear irrational hit ever even implied wanted going basically violent yelled raising voice swears typically anger pretty well leave room cool saying regret etc another severely allergic type chemical trying pin cat fond pet adjusting really control around sweet difficult time let u pick scared everything morning peed carpet litter closet like middle fault sick completely forgot sift spend clean spot smelling whole house random thing aggravating sob cleaning smell go away made decision enzyme cleaner ammonia texted bringing free keep reaction bay within last month half still ingredient list specify surfactant probably stop cry overtime hour initial conversation responding question able school today thinking stupid hurt physically try baking soda first want rid fact needed making anxious shut sleep make least supposed initially head,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"How to instantly calm down? I'm at a huge public library right now, can't leave for an hour, I feel so tense and sick with all these people around, even when I'm at a computer! How can I stop these feelings so I can relax? ",axienty,instantly calm huge public library right leave hour feel tense sick people around even computer stop feeling relax,-0.01,Neutral
"That feeling of relief after a panic attack I had a panic attack today after not having a big one in a while. Whew. I forgot what it's like. At first I just had a really bad pain in my chest, and when it wouldn't go away I started worrying I had carbon monoxide poisoning, so I checked the co monitor and then ran outside for fresh air, almost fainted and could barely walk. After I didn't die, I was convinced I was having a stroke. I only realized it was a panic attack after I started to calm down, and once I realized that, it's like the biggest feeling of relief and happiness that I didn't die. Does anyone else get that feeling? If not, how do you feel afterwards?",axienty,feeling relief panic attack today big one whew forgot like first really bad pain chest go away started worrying carbon monoxide poisoning checked co monitor ran outside fresh air almost fainted could barely walk die convinced stroke realized calm biggest happiness anyone else get feel afterwards,0.11,Moderately Positive
"The Mirror Exercise - for social anxiety I actually figured out a way that really helps me with my social skills. It's called the ""Mirror Exercise"" 

I used to suffer from social anxiety before this and it's helped me a lot

People who are getting ready to do speeches, go to sensitive networking events, or spend the night picking up girls, also do this exercise.

Go to you bathroom or your room where there is a mirror. Be alone so you are not worried about people judging you. Then look in the mirror and affirm ""it's okay! I am okay! It's all going to be fine"" out loud, with firm conviction. Do this for a few minutes while staring at your right eye

Then have a conversation with yourself. Ask yourself about your day. Just talk as if you are talking to another person.

Your mind will fight and argue saying this is stupid, it's not going to work, you're wasting your time etc. just smile every time a feeling like that comes up, like you would smile at the antics of a complaining baby. 

Continue you to talk to yourself for about 10-15 minutes. In the beginning, do this for about 3-2 times per day. Then once you've established a habit, cut down the duration or to once per day. 

Remember, in the beginning this will help you, then it will improve you. 

Doing it the first thing waking up and last thing before going to sleep really helped me.

I don't want to get into the details of why or how it works. Because the benefits will be incredibly apperant after you've done  a few times. Good luck with your struggles and god bless.",axienty,mirror exercise social anxiety actually figured way really help skill called used suffer helped lot people getting ready speech go sensitive networking event spend night picking girl also bathroom room alone worried judging look affirm okay going fine loud firm conviction minute staring right eye conversation ask day talk talking another person mind fight argue saying stupid work wasting time etc smile every feeling like come would antic complaining baby continue beginning per established habit cut duration remember improve first thing waking last sleep want get detail benefit incredibly apperant done good luck struggle god bless,0.19,Moderately Positive
"Do I have Anxiety or am I Overreacting?            So, I have been looking up articles and essays on social anxiety because I think I may have it. I'm not completely sure if I really do have it or if I'm just being dramatic. I have had what i think are anxiety attacks twice now, and the most difficult one happened in an overcrowded Cosco.        There were too many people, and the building just seemed really small, and there was so much noise that it just all mashed together until I felt like I couldn t breathe- I don't know if I was overreacting or have a real attack, but it got better (not by much, but still better) once i was out in the parking lot and could see the sky. I'm kind of afraid/nervous to go back into a grocery store. This happened a month ago and I still haven't gone into a grocery store yet. Would anyone be able to tell me if I am overreacting or if I have anxiety. I would really like to know if I should see a doctor or something else. Thank you.",axienty,anxiety overreacting looking article essay social think may completely sure really dramatic attack twice difficult one happened overcrowded cosco many people building seemed small much noise mashed together felt like breathe know real got better still parking lot could see sky kind afraid nervous go back grocery store month ago gone yet would anyone able tell doctor something else thank,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety about a moldy utility room in my old house. Since 2001 to 2016 I lived in this one story bungalow, it was a fairly old house from the 60s, but fairly nice. Most of the rooms were very clean save for two, the bathroom and utility room. The Bathroom had quite a bit of mold, but there wasn't a smell and no one else in the house appeared to get sick. And what mold that did develop on the ceiling from vapors from the shower were typically cleaned. 

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The room that worried me was the Utility, I had my clothes sometimes washed in there though I barely spent time in it, it did smell pretty bad and it was very moldy. It wasn't a part of the main house (it was a part of the Garage next to the house) thank god, but I keep thinking about it since I deal with anxiety and depression related issues to this day. 

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In the last year before we moved, there was an issue with the shower boiler and there was a leak in the wall, a nasty patch of mold developed, but no one else got sick from it and we covered it up to negate the spore transfer in the air. We have however moved to a newer and actually clean house so things are fine now...

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But I keep thinking the mold affected me and I dunno how to get it out of my mind. ",axienty,anxiety moldy utility room old house since lived one story bungalow fairly nice clean save two bathroom quite bit mold smell else appeared get sick develop ceiling vapor shower typically cleaned worried clothes sometimes washed though barely spent time pretty bad part main garage next thank god keep thinking deal depression related issue day last year moved boiler leak wall nasty patch developed got covered negate spore transfer air however newer actually thing fine affected dunno mind,-0.04,Neutral
"How do I keep my (F24) anxiety from making me a clingy girlfriend to my SO (M28)? [repost from r/longdistance bc I thought I’d get some good advice from anxiety sufferers as well]

I’m diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder, and clinical depression. + fibromyalgia. But I guess I’m mostly here for the anxiety part. 

we met in korea, he moved to the UK, we've been LD since he moved with a 9 hour time difference. I will be moving to Canada in a week (thank god) so the distance will be shorter, and i see him every 3 months ish

but i have severe depression and anxiety, and LD is hard enough as it is without adding those spices into the mix. 

because of my anxieties of him finding someone else, forgetting about me, falling in love with another girls smile, having so much fun that he realizes he'd rather be single, etc etc etc I call him very often. we have our set time to video chat once a week, but i always call so much during the week and im driving him insane. 

he is really busy with school and also a type of person that likes to be left alone more than i like to be. he is also the one that left so i feel like it's always easier for the one that left than for the one that got left behind. 


literally the only thing we ever get into fights about is me not giving him enough space, and me feeling like he doesn't miss me because he wont talk to me for 2 hours every day. I guess in my head, i would love to talk to him for 2 hours a day because miss him so much, and when he says he wants to hang up or that i call too much, my anxiety is screaming "" he doesn't miss you. he doesn't love you anymore.""


he is really nice because even when he's busy or i've called for the 2nd or 3rd time that day, he still answers the phone. he answers, rightfully annoyed or pissed but still listens to me. 


and it's this weird and annoying loop where it's like i call him, and then he gets angry or annoyed and i hang up to give him space but then i start getting anxious that he's finally got so annoyed he'll leave me so i call him again 5 minutes later to apologize and he accepts it but i still feel anxious so i keep him on the phone and then he gets annoyed again (obviously) and then part of my mind is telling me to stop and put the phone down where the other half is saying ""you fucked up you pushed him and now he's gonna leave so you gotta stay on the phone and get him to reassure you of everything you're worried about""


he does miss me. and he does like talking to me. he's expressed this. but i just do it way too much. 


i dunno if im making any sense. basically im just a hot mess in this ldr and am seeking any advice for anyone whos been in my position. the LDR is much easier for my boyfriend than it is for me & i hate being clingy and suffocating and want tips on how to stop 


i'm re-starting therapy when i move back to Canada in one week
we will only have a 5 hour time difference when i move back 
i'll have more distractions from missing him so much 

so there's that. 

but any tips besides ""keep busy"" ? 


TLDR; my anxiety and depression cause me to be a very clingy girlfriend. how do i stop? ",axienty,keep anxiety making clingy girlfriend repost longdistance bc thought get good advice sufferer well diagnosed generalized disorder borderline personality clinical depression fibromyalgia guess mostly part met korea moved uk ld since hour time difference moving canada week thank god distance shorter see every month ish severe hard enough without adding spice mix finding someone else forgetting falling love another girl smile much fun realizes rather single etc call often set video chat always im driving insane really busy school also type person like left alone one feel easier got behind literally thing ever fight giving space feeling miss wont talk day head would say want hang screaming anymore nice even called nd rd still answer phone rightfully annoyed pissed listens weird annoying loop angry give start getting anxious finally leave minute later apologize accepts obviously mind telling stop put half saying fucked pushed gonna gotta stay reassure everything worried talking expressed way dunno sense basically hot mess ldr seeking anyone who position boyfriend hate suffocating tip starting therapy move back distraction missing besides tldr cause,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"muscle tension, emotional numbness, hard to describe feelings So I keep getting muscle tension ESPECIALLY around my head/temples and jaw. I do have bruxism but it never was a thing during the day. Especailly when something stimulating happens, even if its good or bad, (like excitement or looking forward to something....) I will start to get super tense and uncomfortable especially around those muscles i mentioned, and I will feel some kind of emotional numbness... its hard to explain the feeling but... 

Is it possible that my anxiety and excitement is almost ""numbed"" out by my body now? I show all the symptoms of being anxious like stiffening up.. shallow breaths... but I don't really feel anxiety. I DO feel anxiety still for lots of other stuff, but this sometimes happens still. 

",axienty,muscle tension emotional numbness hard describe feeling keep getting especially around head temple jaw bruxism never thing day especailly something stimulating happens even good bad like excitement looking forward start get super tense uncomfortable mentioned feel kind explain possible anxiety almost numbed body show symptom anxious stiffening shallow breath really still lot stuff sometimes,-0.04,Neutral
"It really hurts. It’s physical pain. I can’t take it, everyday it cuts inside me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know if it’s even anxiety at this point.",axienty,really hurt physical pain take everyday cut inside know anymore even anxiety point,0.0,Neutral
"on to friends, I recently moved into my first apartment with my college roommate, her boyfriend, and another girl. I just feel lie everyone else in the house is so much closer and its really nerve wracking living with people in the first place especially because I know the boyfriend is a bit more reserved and having trouble adjusting i think to living with three girls. my roommate from last year is trying to be supportive but i know my low energy along with her own problems is sucking the life out of her som im trying not to bother her. in the past month, i've broken up with a creepy guy, taken my friend to the ER, constantly felt ignored because technology sucks and i'm left on read if i even try, an ex has obsessively messaged me, and then the whole issues with the friends also in the leadership of clubs with me. im just a fucking mess.",axienty,friend recently moved first apartment college roommate boyfriend another girl feel lie everyone else house much closer really nerve wracking living people place especially know bit reserved trouble adjusting think three last year trying supportive low energy along problem sucking life som im bother past month broken creepy guy taken er constantly felt ignored technology suck left read even try ex obsessively messaged whole issue also leadership club fucking mess,-0.01,Neutral
"Upping my lexapro dose? Please share advice! I've been on 10mg of lexapro since October and it's done wonders for my depression. Not perfect, but I'm generally in a much better place than I was before. Buuuut my anxiety almost feels like it's gotten worse. It's like depression kept it down, and now that I'm not quasi-suicidal, anxiety has the energy it needs to rock my world all the fucking time. Currently, I'm still using ativan multiple times a week for panic attacks. My doctor has suggested I move to 15mg of lexapro but I'm worried about side effects. I'd really love to hear about anyone's experiences with this, or any words of wisdom.

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Being anxious about the things that are supposed to make you less anxious is a real bag of dicks.",axienty,upping lexapro dose please share advice mg since october done wonder depression perfect generally much better place buuuut anxiety almost feel like gotten worse kept quasi suicidal energy need rock world fucking time currently still using ativan multiple week panic attack doctor suggested move worried side effect really love hear anyone experience word wisdom anxious thing supposed make le real bag dick,0.11,Moderately Positive
"CBT therapy in Raleigh Looking for recommendations for CBT therapy in Raleigh. I did that years ago and it helped me become more confident, which is something I really needed at the time for my professional career. Today my daughter asked why I complained about the way I look. I didn't even realize I did that and want to improve myself so my insecurity doesn't trickle down to her. Should I see a same gender therapist or does that not really matter? How do I weed out the really good therapists from the bad ones? Thanks!",axienty,cbt therapy raleigh looking recommendation year ago helped become confident something really needed time professional career today daughter asked complained way look even realize want improve insecurity trickle see gender therapist matter weed good bad one thanks,0.1,Moderately Positive
"The feeling to want to delete my entire history And I don’t mean on Google Chrome.

Going through a rough patch with my anxiety at the moment. Cringe at a lot of things I say, but even worse I can’t sleep at night for analysing my entire history. 

It’s quite self absorbed as I’m sure other people can’t remember these little things, but this is a rational thought and it’s not comforting. 

Someone help me put my mind to rest :(",axienty,feeling want delete entire history mean google chrome going rough patch anxiety moment cringe lot thing say even worse sleep night analysing quite self absorbed sure people remember little rational thought comforting someone help put mind rest,-0.03,Neutral
Anxiety friends! If you ever need someone to talk to day or night I’m here....you can vent to me talk to me about anything I’ll never judge you! I’m a 28 year old female. I’m divorced and I have one daughter. I have anxiety and it can be very hard it sucks...I always don’t have many friends a lot of mine turned on me or lost touch. Feel free to send me a message :),axienty,anxiety friend ever need someone talk day night vent anything never judge year old female divorced one daughter hard suck always many lot mine turned lost touch feel free send message,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Replaying past events Hard to explain :
Does anyone here replay a past event and wish they were more firm / did something else?

Meaning - say you had an argument with someone, and you know them to be a bully. Already being intimidated- Instead of conceding / ignoring/ taking the higher road, do you ever wish you did something else, even if it would have caused a fight? Said something to support your position, etc?

How does one get out of this mind game loop?

",axienty,replaying past event hard explain anyone replay wish firm something else meaning say argument someone know bully already intimidated instead conceding ignoring taking higher road ever even would caused fight said support position etc one get mind game loop,-0.18,Moderately Negative
Going to see a doctor for my anxiety for the first time. Any tips/what to expect? Very excited to finally start taking real steps to help my anxiety. Though I’m not sure what medication to expect as I’ve never done this before. Any tips? What to ask? How expensive is medication for anxiety and depression? I’ve really been looking forward to this and don’t want to miss my chance for relief. Any advice is greatly appreciated!,axienty,going see doctor anxiety first time tip expect excited finally start taking real step help though sure medication never done ask expensive depression really looking forward want miss chance relief advice greatly appreciated,0.15,Moderately Positive
"A small step, but I am so proud of myself. I am so proud of myself. Currently I am waiting in the waiting room of a dentist office! I’ve only been able to seek dental treatment for emergencies, and those have all been traumatizing experiences. After a really rough childhood and constant decaying teeth, anxiety and depression took over and I just stopped caring. I am overcoming one of my greatest fears to try and fix one of my biggest insecurities, and I’m doing it on my own. I’m not sure how this appointment will play out,  but the fact that I’m here just shows how far I’m coming in my recovery. I really have to thank CBD oil for this. It really is effective and anyone with access to medical grade, full spectrum CBD should absolutely try it out. ",axienty,small step proud currently waiting room dentist office able seek dental treatment emergency traumatizing experience really rough childhood constant decaying teeth anxiety depression took stopped caring overcoming one greatest fear try fix biggest insecurity sure appointment play fact show far coming recovery thank cbd oil effective anyone access medical grade full spectrum absolutely,0.28,Moderately Positive
"Starting to feel like I’m getting panic attacks I don’t know what to do. I’m 21 years old/male. I’m starting to get this feeling inside of me like I’m about to literally “break down” and embarrass myself. Even at the gym I can’t even look when I’m walking and I start doubting the way I walk. I feel like people think I look like an idiot and that I’m an embarrassment. I told my parent about my panic attacks and they gave me a sarcastic answer “very good”.  They think it’s all bs. A part of me wants to kill myself at night but I never do it, because I need to finish school for my parents and provide them a good future and take care of them. ",axienty,starting feel like getting panic attack know year old male get feeling inside literally break embarrass even gym look walking start doubting way walk people think idiot embarrassment told parent gave sarcastic answer good b part want kill night never need finish school provide future take care,0.01,Neutral
"Quit my job recently... Hey there anxious friends,

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I  just left my position Monday at a small software company and am feeling pretty anxious and guilty over it.

I left the job purely for mental health reasons and was honest with them about my reason for leaving, my Lead (supervisor) was incredibly thoughtful throughout our whole talk and assured me that there were no hard feelings but I just can't seem to get over the guilt from quitting. I found a new position working for a friends small company that will be much lower stress and will hopefully have more room for growth within the company, but it is not in my field and is paying less. 

I have three more weeks at my current job before starting over and am feeling really anxious and guilty about it, suddenly replying to emails and answering support calls is causing me even more anxiety than it was before. It's been such a struggle to keep my voice calm and my demeanor calm lately. I am looking into going to a therapist soon but it will be a few days before I can make it to an appointment. 

Any tips for dealing with my mental health these last few weeks here? I want to leave on a good note and feel like a left a good impression, but today has been killing me.",axienty,quit job recently hey anxious friend left position monday small software company feeling pretty guilty purely mental health reason honest leaving lead supervisor incredibly thoughtful throughout whole talk assured hard seem get guilt quitting found new working much lower stress hopefully room growth within field paying le three week current starting really suddenly replying email answering support call causing even anxiety struggle keep voice calm demeanor lately looking going therapist soon day make appointment tip dealing last want leave good note feel like impression today killing,0.05,Moderately Positive
"What strategies can I initiate to off-set severe anxiety for a presentation tomorrow? Hello all, 

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I am new here - and really new at seeking help for something I've dealt with in one form or another my whole life. I have my first counselling appointment in three days, so I will be sure to pursue this further than this post.

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The context: 

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I am set to give an academic presentation late tomorrow. It's to my peers, and is really the first initiation for me to show what I've been working on. I am still preparing ( would say that I am 'relatively' prepared), but I am going through my natural stages of pre-presentation severe anxiety. I'm having frequent panic attacks preventing me from continuing my preparations, massive self-doubts and negative thoughts, and physiological impacts - nausea, diarrhea, heart racing, can't sleep, etc.. 

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I was just wondering if anybody has any tips for 'what works for them' in the dying hours of a presentation to come. I have tried box breathing and going for a walk, but the moment I return to preparation my anxiety increases and is more heightened than the last. 

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Anything at all as a suggestion would be helpful. I'm feeling pretty hopeless. ",axienty,strategy initiate set severe anxiety presentation tomorrow hello new really seeking help something dealt one form another whole life first counselling appointment three day sure pursue post context give academic late peer initiation show working still preparing would say relatively prepared going natural stage pre frequent panic attack preventing continuing preparation massive self doubt negative thought physiological impact nausea diarrhea heart racing sleep etc wondering anybody tip work dying hour come tried box breathing walk moment return increase heightened last anything suggestion helpful feeling pretty hopeless,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Persistent Anxiety For Years.... Hi all, looking for some general advice or insight into a problem that has plagued me from when I was around 19 years old. I'm currently 30 years old.

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I'll try to keep this short and then edit with more detailed information if needed.

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I have suffered from a persistent feeling of anxiety which has slowly, progressively gotten worse over the years. So much so that it is becoming debilitating. The odd thing is that it is very much a physical feeling, the physical feeling on your stomach and chest that other people that suffer from deep anxiety will be familiar with. The thing I find most troubling is that I don't believe I have the associated anxious thoughts or cycles of thought that would bring on that physical feeling (at least to my knowledge?). 

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I am very confident in social situations, historically I have never had any problems, in fact, comparatively (to others) I am usually the most confident person in the room. I am a very independent person and do not feel any need for others to take responsibility in my life in regard to normal day to day living. 

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I run my own business which is relatively successful and I consider my self to be financially successful. I mention this because this could be a large source of worry for some people, and ultimately this can't be a source of the anxiety.

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I have a three-year-old son who really is no trouble and my feeling of anxiety hasn't seemed to have been adversely affected since he was born.  


I can and will happily go into more detail on my personal life if needed, but thought I'd just keep it to the obvious points initially.   


Despite all the major points in my life being good or better than good, I still wake up every day with about 10 seconds of normality before a rush of sinking anxiety descends over my body. As I say, it really seems like a physical feeling only. Almost like a rush of adrenaline that never goes away. The persistent feeling ultimately ends up numbing my emotions leading me wanting to avoid doing pretty much anything and since leaving university (and having a group of great friends) I have all but lost all contact with friends (except my work colleagues). The feeling mutes any interests I once had and now my life is very empty besides my business which I am able to run with little to no problem.  


I'm really worried it's going to end up ruining my life. I have been to doctors in the past and all the usual medication doesn't agree with me and as such doesn't work as a solution. I also want to be clear that I have spent countless hours reading and seeking help and information to no real avail.    


My question - Is there anyone out there that has suffered in the same way? Did you ever find a solution or good coping mechanisms? 

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As I mentioned earlier, I am happy to go into more detail if anyone has any questions.

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Thankyou!

​",axienty,persistent anxiety year hi looking general advice insight problem plagued around old currently try keep short edit detailed information needed suffered feeling slowly progressively gotten worse much becoming debilitating odd thing physical stomach chest people suffer deep familiar find troubling believe associated anxious thought cycle would bring least knowledge confident social situation historically never fact comparatively others usually person room independent feel need take responsibility life regard normal day living run business relatively successful consider self financially mention could large source worry ultimately three son really trouble seemed adversely affected since born happily go detail personal obvious point initially despite major good better still wake every second normality rush sinking descends body say seems like almost adrenaline away end numbing emotion leading wanting avoid pretty anything leaving university group great friend lost contact except work colleague mute interest empty besides able little worried going ruining doctor past usual medication agree solution also want clear spent countless hour reading seeking help real avail question anyone way ever coping mechanism mentioned earlier happy thankyou,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Anybody willing to lend me their ear to tell some worries I cant tell anybody else? So today was a really shitty and stressfull day for me. And sometimes some burdens just get very heavy and on those days, it really makes me anxious... Does anybody  want to listen to some things going on in my life? Or just a casual chat to calm me down? :) ",axienty,anybody willing lend ear tell worry cant else today really shitty stressfull day sometimes burden get heavy make anxious want listen thing going life casual chat calm,-0.03,Neutral
Relatable? Is it normal to feel so anxious that you don’t want to leave the house yet you’re anxious being inside all the time? ,axienty,relatable normal feel anxious want leave house yet inside time,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"I failed and it felt kind of good? So I'm in med school and I finally failed my first test. 

I'd been sort of close before but this one was spectacular. Well below my average performance for this type of knowledge. I wasn't thinking clearly at all while taking it, panicking, and couldn't remember really basic stuff which seemed obvious walking in to and even walking out of this exam. No clue why I couldn't just calm down and think straight but there we go, some negative consequences of the way I process things finally happened like I'd been dreading and waiting for.

Anyway. I got the notification that I failed and will have to remediate and it felt awful. I called my parents and girlfriend, watched a movie, called my girlfriend again, and cried for the first time since I was a little kid. 

I feel sort of unstuck, like the numbness of the past couple months has finally gone away and I'm really living in my body, really experiencing this situation. Can anyone relate to this? 

Also- any advice on how to use a failure as a turning point rather than another ignored reminder to get myself together? 

Current plan is just to study my ass off and do ok on this remediation exam I have to do, if I fail they'll make me repeat the entire year. I am comfortable with my knowledge and will work hard, but I want this to be a turning point for me in terms of maturity and dealing with my paranoia, worst-case speculation, self isolation, and procrastination. I need to grow from this and I need help on how to make sure I do that. ",axienty,failed felt kind good med school finally first test sort close one spectacular well average performance type knowledge thinking clearly taking panicking remember really basic stuff seemed obvious walking even exam clue calm think straight go negative consequence way process thing happened like dreading waiting anyway got notification remediate awful called parent girlfriend watched movie cried time since little kid feel unstuck numbness past couple month gone away living body experiencing situation anyone relate also advice use failure turning point rather another ignored reminder get together current plan study as ok remediation fail make repeat entire year comfortable work hard want term maturity dealing paranoia worst case speculation self isolation procrastination need grow help sure,-0.01,Neutral
"Hate myself Emo, I know. I'm just so frustrated with this shit  feeling. I try so hard to be ""normal"" but it doesn't work. I'm exhausting my gf with my mood swings. She wants to understand and help, but you all know if they don't have anxiety they can never understand it and I suck at explaining what's going on. I hate this feeling, I just want to be ok. I'm not ok. ",axienty,hate emo know frustrated shit feeling try hard normal work exhausting gf mood swing want understand help anxiety never suck explaining going ok,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"As a high school junior, I'm always severely depressed whenever I make poor grades on something to the extent I'm always on the verge of crying. Every time this happens, I always feel like my future is bleak and hopeless, my rank is gonna drop like hell, and I'm worthless compared to the other people who do better than me. I'm always driven to think lesser of myself in comparison to other people and I always hate myself because of it. Now the pain is becoming unbearable to the point I nearly start screaming, sobbing alone in my bedroom out of grief. It's only the beginning of my junior year and I feel like hell has already descended upon me and there's little I can actually do.",axienty,high school junior always severely depressed whenever make poor grade something extent verge cry every time happens feel like future bleak hopeless rank gonna drop hell worthless compared people better driven think lesser comparison hate pain becoming unbearable point nearly start screaming sobbing alone bedroom grief beginning year already descended upon little actually,-0.26,Moderately Negative
"Calming down at the doctor Hi... I have a problem where my blood pressure spikes when I get my readings at the doctor. As soon as the cuff goes on I can feel my heart start pounding through my chest and I've gotten readings as high as 145/90. After I calm down a bit it goes into the normal range (120/70 or so), but the measurements themselves scare me and make me worried about going to the doctor. Anyone else dealt with this and know how to overcome it? I'm thinking of telling the nurse beforehand that taking blood pressure makes me very anxious and I need some time to calm down in order to get an accurate reading but that seems too simple, has anyone tried that?",axienty,calming doctor hi problem blood pressure spike get reading soon cuff go feel heart start pounding chest gotten high calm bit normal range measurement scare make worried going anyone else dealt know overcome thinking telling nurse beforehand taking anxious need time order accurate seems simple tried,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Anybody else struggle with jaw/teeth clenching? I clench my jaw so often it will become sore by the end of the day. I only do it when I'm awake, never in my sleep. Anybody else struggle with this/have any solutions that have worked for you? I'm afraid of developing jaw problems! ",axienty,anybody else struggle jaw teeth clenching clench often become sore end day awake never sleep solution worked afraid developing problem,-0.6,Negative
Start of a new school semester What advice can you give about meeting new people in class or speaking in front of the class? I literally get too scared for even raise my hand and ask a simple question in front of the class,axienty,start new school semester advice give meeting people class speaking front literally get scared even raise hand ask simple question,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I’ve been having trouble falling asleep for the past two weeks or so. Convinced it’s Insomnia. So I’ve been having trouble falling asleep for the past two weeks. This comes in bursts for me and has been happening for about a year now. I’ll be fine for a month, and then out of nowhere I’ll start freaking out which leads to trouble falling asleep. It doesn’t help that when I started researching this I came across Fatal Familial Insomnia which freaked me out even more. Just found out about this subreddit and just need some pep talk, and some wise words to clear my mind. ",axienty,trouble falling asleep past two week convinced insomnia come burst happening year fine month nowhere start freaking lead help started researching came across fatal familial freaked even found subreddit need pep talk wise word clear mind,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Had the worst anxiety attack ever. Boyfriend says I traumatized him. I feel worse.. We got into an argument. My anxiety was triggered earlier that night so I went to meditate before it became anything. It didn't work so I tried other things to help such as going for a walk. Boyfriend gets frustrated with me because I wasn't communicating well enough. I ask to use the tv he says he'll be done in a couple seconds. After a minute I ask if he had an eta. He gets frustrated and tells me 5 minutes in a bad tone. I need to go meditate again because that triggers more anxiety so I tell him nvm. I come back out after and ask to use it again. He says a few minutes but I'm uncomfortable waiting around. I tell him nevermind again because I need to do something immediately to keep my mind off things. He then asks if I want to use the tv but I say no. After a few seconds of thought I change my mind and change the channel. This gets him mad at me and he leaves the house for an hour. I call him when I feel better and ask where he is and he's in the lobby. I go down to ask him if we can talk but he said we had all night to talk and that ship had sailed, he doesn't want to. I ask again if he can come up and we talk and he says he will try. We try to talk but he won't respond to me. I ask if I'm wasting my time waiting for him to respond and he gets mad and tells me he told me he couldn't talk so he can't talk. At that point my anxiety boils over and my first thought is to grab a knife and hurt myself. It all happened so fast and I couldn't tell you why I did it but he rushed over screaming what are you doing and tried to take it from me. I cut my hand in the process of him trying to take the knife. I just wanted to die, I couldn't take my anxiety anymore. I couldn't take him being there anymore. 

Fast forward to later, we try talking but he hardly looks at me. I tell him I need something, anything, and he yells at me telling me how about I apologize for the shit of a night and how I traumatized him. I feel worse now and I'll never forget that. I want to die again, I can't stop these feelings. I'm not going to commit suicide but the thoughts are there. We ended up going to a therapist the next day which helped a bit. This morning I woke up and I'm depressed and can't stop thinking of what he said and figured I'm better off not being here anymore.. ",axienty,worst anxiety attack ever boyfriend say traumatized feel worse got argument triggered earlier night went meditate became anything work tried thing help going walk get frustrated communicating well enough ask use tv done couple second minute eta tell bad tone need go trigger nvm come back uncomfortable waiting around nevermind something immediately keep mind asks want thought change channel mad leaf house hour call better lobby talk said ship sailed try respond wasting time told point boil first grab knife hurt happened fast rushed screaming take cut hand process trying wanted die anymore forward later talking hardly look yell telling apologize shit never forget stop feeling commit suicide ended therapist next day helped bit morning woke depressed thinking figured,-0.2,Moderately Negative
"My father is getting out of prison in 5 days. My(23m) father(66m) is getting out of prison in 5 days. He’s been incarcerated for nearly 10 years. I’m so on edge right now, because I love my father dearly and I’m so worried that he may get killed or in trouble before he gets out. I know I’m overthinking it, but man my head is spinning. I’ve been diagnosed with GAD and depression, but it’s been so much better lately. I haven’t felt this anxious in a while. My nerves are shot rn. My heart breaks for him because I’m sure he may be more stressed out than I am. Plus he’s going to have to adjust. He’s trying his best to sound confident but I can tell he’s a little nervous about getting out. He chose not to go into protective custody, but he also gets in fights a bit. Any words/advice/techniques are welcomed. Thank you. ",axienty,father getting prison day incarcerated nearly year edge right love dearly worried may get killed trouble know overthinking man head spinning diagnosed gad depression much better lately felt anxious nerve shot rn heart break sure stressed plus going adjust trying best sound confident tell little nervous chose go protective custody also fight bit word advice technique welcomed thank,0.2,Moderately Positive
"People would be happier if I wasn't here My anxiety? makes me feel like I'm just such a burden to everyone that I'd be doing everyone a favor if I wasn't here. I make everything awkward and I don't think anyone likes me, they just pity me. I guess it'd just be, I dunno, easier? if I wasn't here. Anyone else kinda feel this way?",axienty,people would happier anxiety make feel like burden everyone favor everything awkward think anyone pity guess dunno easier else kinda way,-0.35,Moderately Negative
"Neti pot fears brought me my 2nd Anxiety attack. Hi all 

I had my first anxiety attack September of last year. I don't know what triggered it but it turned my world upside down. I received some support from my family and I got over the hump thinking I would never have another episode again. I thought this was a one off thing 

10 days ago I used a neti pot for a few days because i was feeling stuffy. I don't know what I was thinking but I used tap water. I didn't think anything of it until I looked it up and using tap water can lead to some rare brain eating amoeba. When I read that I fell into instant panic and have not been mentally well since.

I've been living in constant fear of dying and making myself sick by internalizing everything I read on webmd and Google. It's hard to function everyday without feeling like im about to break down. I know this will sound silly and I will be made fun of but this is debilitating. I am seeing my doctor today to talk about my anxiety and the options I have. It feels like I have lost control of me .",axienty,neti pot fear brought nd anxiety attack hi first september last year know triggered turned world upside received support family got hump thinking would never another episode thought one thing day ago used feeling stuffy tap water think anything looked using lead rare brain eating amoeba read fell instant panic mentally well since living constant dying making sick internalizing everything webmd google hard function everyday without like im break sound silly made fun debilitating seeing doctor today talk option feel lost control,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety insulted I have literally written and deleted this post 4 separate times. 

Today I was told ‘anxiety is just used to try to bend rules and guilt people’. This has caused me a day of anxiety, tears, yelling, feeling like my skin is trying to jump off my body. What makes this worse is that when I objected to this I was accused of shaming the person who said it and banned from the sub. I admit that I lost my cool when told this but the more I think about it the more I think that any reasonable person would loose their cool at this.

These are the people that make anxiety a taboo subject. That make us stay silent when our anxiety is getting bad or too much to handle. The people that make us huddle silent in corners. Like many here, this is not the first time I’ve heard anxiety belittled. Not the first time I’ve been treated as weak, wrong or pathetic for suffering from anxiety. 

I’ve now lost a support group that helped me immensely and made to feel like a villain. ",axienty,anxiety insulted literally written deleted post separate time today told used try bend rule guilt people caused day tear yelling feeling like skin trying jump body make worse objected accused shaming person said banned sub admit lost cool think reasonable would loose taboo subject u stay silent getting bad much handle huddle corner many first heard belittled treated weak wrong pathetic suffering support group helped immensely made feel villain,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"How do i stop being so tense when showing affection with a guy? I met this guy last night that I was talking to on tinder. We drove around for a while and talked and then we went into a parking lot. We talked some more and he sang to a song on the radio. He grabbed my hand and held it and was like, ""seriously you need to relax. You're 23. Gain some confidence."" He ended up kissing me (my first kiss) and then kissed me again. He kept telling me to relax and was like, ""do u want me to touch you?"" I told him no. He guided me on how to give a handjob and then he finished and I dropped him off and gave me a hug. How do I relax when with a guy and sex?",axienty,stop tense showing affection guy met last night talking tinder drove around talked went parking lot sang song radio grabbed hand held like seriously need relax gain confidence ended kissing first kiss kissed kept telling want touch told guided give handjob finished dropped gave hug sex,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"Any advice? I feel as if I’ll only find satisfaction and happiness in my life if I can just be in love with someone again. The problem is I’m horrible at meeting new people and I have really picky standards. I don’t necessarily have “high” standards but there’s just a certain type of person that I like 
I’m mainly just typing this to maybe feel better but feel free to leave me advice or something idk",axienty,advice feel find satisfaction happiness life love someone problem horrible meeting new people really picky standard necessarily high certain type person like mainly typing maybe better free leave something idk,0.18,Moderately Positive
"So... what the hell just happened and is everything back to normal? Anxiety Nuke? For context, I have absolutely no idea why I had anxiety. I never expired a traumatic event or anything. 6 months ago I got a severe anxiety attack for no reason as I watched prank Youtube videos. It was so bad, I literally thought I was going to get a heart attack from how fast my heart was beating. I even had to be restrained by emergency personnel and even then they struggled.


Days later, I get a prescription for Xanax and Setraline. I try the Setraline for two months and I see no difference so I stop it. I get the Xanax to use in case of emergency. During this time, I get anxiety attacks twice a week and my life is miserable.  I begin to buy different things to try and help it. L-Thianine, Magnesium, Honokiol, Vitamin D, etc. None of seems to work and I simply have anxiety throughout the entire day. I struggle with regular anxiety attacks for months until exactly one week ago ... 


One week ago I said ""Fuck it"" and I decided to ""nuke"" anxiety by taking all of my medication at once. I took a Xanax, a setraline pill, L-thianine pill, Honokiol pill, Vitamin D, Vitamin B complex, Magnesium and then I proceeded to take an anxiety tea and passionflower tea. Let me tell you I was dazed, confused and dizzy as fuck. After drinking it all I thought man this was a terrible idea. I couldn't handle how dizzy I was so I climbed into bed and fell asleep. I always get anxiety when I sleep but this day I slept like a baby. I wake up and I'm still dizzy as fuck. I go about my day. I end the day and I realize I have not had any anxiety. I wonder if I should try the anxiety nuke again and decide not to. I go to bed and anticipate the anxiety I feel every day. I get nothing. Next thing I know I wake up and I feel perfect. Repeat this for a week and ever since then, I have had absolutely no anxiety whatsoever. In fact, maybe the only time I've had anxiety was yesterday when I wondered why I don't have anxiety. Other than that, panic attacks have totally gone away. I wonder what exactly ""worked"" or why it worked?

But I do have questions. I mean ... is this the end of my anxiety, probably? Should I drink coffee? I avoided coffee when I was anxious because it was a guaranteed anxiety attack. Now though ... I feel somewhat confident to try it. Should I just not to do so I don't exacerbate my anxiety? ",axienty,hell happened everything back normal anxiety nuke context absolutely idea never expired traumatic event anything month ago got severe attack reason watched prank youtube video bad literally thought going get heart fast beating even restrained emergency personnel struggled day later prescription xanax setraline try two see difference stop use case time twice week life miserable begin buy different thing help thianine magnesium honokiol vitamin etc none seems work simply throughout entire struggle regular exactly one said fuck decided taking medication took pill complex proceeded take tea passionflower let tell dazed confused dizzy drinking man terrible handle climbed bed fell asleep always sleep slept like baby wake still go end realize wonder decide anticipate feel every nothing next know perfect repeat ever since whatsoever fact maybe yesterday wondered panic totally gone away worked question mean probably drink coffee avoided anxious guaranteed though somewhat confident exacerbate,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Health Anxiety Hello everyone. First time posting here. I have been living with health anxiety for a little over two years now. I get physical symptoms out of no where though.  They come and go. Learning to deal with them with deep breathing , meditation and eating right I guess. No meds for me. I want to say  moving to a new city, new job, excitement and of course being anxious triggered these symptoms one morning. Never have I experienced an anxiety attack like that morning. HORRIBLE feeling. So since then. These symptoms  occur every now and then. They go away for sometime. I feel great. Then they're back and I'm in survival mode cause I'm in fear of dying. Sometimes. Don't understand them. I just want them to go away for good. I'd like to hear from everyone here what you think or know that triggered your anxiety. Either mentally or physically. ",axienty,health anxiety hello everyone first time posting living little two year get physical symptom though come go learning deal deep breathing meditation eating right guess med want say moving new city job excitement course anxious triggered one morning never experienced attack like horrible feeling since occur every away sometime feel great back survival mode cause fear dying sometimes understand good hear think know either mentally physically,0.03,Neutral
"I'm afraid someone kills I'm an animal killer I drove right over a dead cat earlier. Didn't run it over, or even so much as harm the carcass as far as I'm aware, as my car is almost one of those coupes pretending to be an SUV.

I though she was asleep but she didn't move. So I stopped, left my car, obviously blocking a one-car lane, and hurriedly moved the cat to the sidewalk after another car had also driven over it. Another car approached and waited for me to do my thing. But at that point I'm pretty sure everyone thought I was the one that killed the cat.

We have a problem with street cats here so someone typically comes by the next morning and picks them up.

It's just that now I can't help but think a bunch of strangers think I killed a cat. It's making my head spin ... almost feel like I wanna track those people down and explain myself.",axienty,afraid someone kill animal killer drove right dead cat earlier run even much harm carcass far aware car almost one coupe pretending suv though asleep move stopped left obviously blocking lane hurriedly moved sidewalk another also driven approached waited thing point pretty sure everyone thought killed problem street typically come next morning pick help think bunch stranger making head spin feel like wanna track people explain,0.03,Neutral
"Getting annoyed I’ve had diagnosed anxiety for about 5 years and actually the first time I’m speaking about it on the internet. I don’t take medication because I do not have health insurance but I never thought I needed it and that I could learn to cope with it on my own. Well it’s been 5 years now and if anything it’s gotten deeper. I was reaching a good point until I experienced a very close and personal death suddenly about a year and a half ago. I sunk back into this state I had never experienced before. I don’t shower if I do it’s maybe once a week and just a quick shampoo, I stay in my room and lay in bed and watch tv until night time and I go and smoke and then I come home sleep and do it all over again. I’ve quit/never shown up to jobs because I’ve put myself in the mindset of I just can’t do it. A couple months ago I moved into a new house and I’ve gotten myself into this idea that I’ll set a new routine and get into good habits and I’ll get better. At this point I feel like I’ve tried everything; taking relaxing baths, cbd, exercising, eating healthy, talking to people, sometimes I’m even able to force myself to go out but I catch myself thinking these terrible thoughts while I’m out and it’s not long before I retreat back into my room by 3 pm. I feel like I’m running low on options and I don’t know what else to do which is why I decided to look up this subreddit and maybe I’ll hear something I’ve never heard of. I’m failing my classes this semester and I’m calling out sick everyday on my second job this year. I’m willing to try pretty much anything at this point ",axienty,getting annoyed diagnosed anxiety year actually first time speaking internet take medication health insurance never thought needed could learn cope well anything gotten deeper reaching good point experienced close personal death suddenly half ago sunk back state shower maybe week quick shampoo stay room lay bed watch tv night go smoke come home sleep quit shown job put mindset couple month moved new house idea set routine get habit better feel like tried everything taking relaxing bath cbd exercising eating healthy talking people sometimes even able force catch thinking terrible long retreat pm running low option know else decided look subreddit hear something heard failing class semester calling sick everyday second willing try pretty much,0.09,Moderately Positive
Was drunk don't remember what i said So i heard my friend's sister got engaged and i called my friend (not engaged one). I don't remember the call at all since i had a few drinks. I am getting really anxious about what i said since I don't know what i said. Ik it is a small chance i said something stupid/mean but since I can't remember there is still that chance. I messaged my friend asking if we are friends still this morning but she never gets up early so u have to wait hours to know.   Kinda having a panic attack and i have to go to work soon. Guess i have to wait but i will be super anxious about it. ,axienty,drunk remember said heard friend sister got engaged called one call since drink getting really anxious know ik small chance something stupid mean still messaged asking morning never get early wait hour kinda panic attack go work soon guess super,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"Help me I thought this week was going great, I felt super proud and confident of myself, but my roommate just left for the long weekend and now I’m alone and I feel like a fucking loser and a failure, why can’t I be alone with myself without freaking out why can’t I just breathe normally and have a regular heart beat and be okay with myself, why am I like this. Why do I need to be around other people to feel okay. Whenever I’m alone I fall into a deep hole of thoughts on eating disorders and convince myself that I have one or that I should get one, but in the back of my head I think I just want the attention, but why, why do I need attention, or do I really have an eating disorder. What the fuck is wrong with me, help me, i can’t handle this anymore",axienty,help thought week going great felt super proud confident roommate left long weekend alone feel like fucking loser failure without freaking breathe normally regular heart beat okay need around people whenever fall deep hole eating disorder convince one get back head think want attention really fuck wrong handle anymore,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Unnecessary surgery Hi,

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I am not really sure where to post this but I'm not sure how I am supposed to move along, if I can.

Approximately a year ago I did a jaw surgery that was not necessary, yes, you heard it right.

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It all started a few years earlier when I was taken off my braces and the process started of wearing a plastic attachment for my teeth for a few months ahead. I was sloppy with it and the result ended in a gap between my teeth, quite a big one.

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Jumping forward approximately two years ago I once again started to wear braces and the process of fixing the gap started. For some reason I did not want to tell the dentist that it was most likely due to me being sloppy with the plastic attachment, I am not sure if I felt ashamed or similar. The issue with me is that I have a really hard time to be honest about my feelings and this is not the first time I have been in situations where I have just accepted it, for example being bullied, being quite lonely, left jobs due to social phobia. It feels like eventually I am gonna realize all the stuff I never dared to tell people and feel loads of anxiety.

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As I sit here and write I feel nauseous and that I have let down family. That I do not have the courage to tell people how I feel or when I feel bad keeps getting me into situations I do not want. Luckily enough, the surgery was quite minimal and I look pretty much the same. But it is not about that, it is about taking an issue that I do not dare to tell family or others and elevate it to something like this.

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I have no clue how to move forward from this, almost every evening I think about it and it makes me feel so so bad about myself.",axienty,unnecessary surgery hi really sure post supposed move along approximately year ago jaw necessary yes heard right started earlier taken brace process wearing plastic attachment teeth month ahead sloppy result ended gap quite big one jumping forward two wear fixing reason want tell dentist likely due felt ashamed similar issue hard time honest feeling first situation accepted example bullied lonely left job social phobia feel like eventually gonna realize stuff never dared people load anxiety sit write nauseous let family courage bad keep getting luckily enough minimal look pretty much taking dare others elevate something clue almost every evening think make,-0.02,Neutral
"I just started taking clonazepam and I feel more like myself than ever. Weirdly enough I feel like there’s a hole in me. Not like depression. I’ve had that, and continually have to manage it. It’s just a emotional hole if anybody can relate?",axienty,started taking clonazepam feel like ever weirdly enough hole depression continually manage emotional anybody relate,0.0,Neutral
"Put in my two weeks.. severe anxiety next few days. Help, I'm struggling  

Hi,

A little background. I'm 25 years old, and a male. I recently started having anxiety right after I put in my two weeks at work. Oddly enough, I've only dealt with anxiety twice in my life before. Once when I was young and I was being bullied about ""possibly"" being gay although I wasn't.. they convinced my mind that maybe I was? (I was 10). Another time two years ago when I revisited a mistake that I made when I was in college. I slipped up w/ that mistake again and it ATE at me.. not sure why because I hadn't felt that type of guilt/anxiety before and it was a long ordeal until all was solved.

This time was different. I've wanted to leave this job for awhile, and financially I can afford to take a month or two to find my career path. My girlfriend, and family support me.. but my mind won't let me understand things. This all started on Tuesday, right after I put in my two weeks. After that, I instantly had anxiety constantly worried and scared of my future. I cannot understand why.. and people around me are so supportive etc but for some reason my mind won't let me wrap around the fact that I'm okay and things will be fine. I have zero debt, financially I have money to survive for multiple months, I have a college degree. It's hit or miss though.. for an hour I'll feel great and be like ""Wtf are you even sad about dude????"" and then it comes back when my mind runs and I cannot stop my mind from running. I'm genuinely scared because this happens to me so rarely but its so intense that I start tearing up for no reason. I never cry, ever and it just breaks me down so badly. I feel like I'm fighting my mind but for no reason because my mind is forcing so many negative thoughts through me.

I could use any advice/help. I talked to someone last time, but that situation was much more severe and I had a reasonable reason to be feeling the way I am. I feel as though this isn't reasonable and I shouldn't be feeling this way.. and it scares me that it'll never go away. I'm genuinely scared to live if I have to feel like this off and on every day of my life.. which is ridiculous because I've only dealt with it a few times in my life.. but it's still a thought.",axienty,put two week severe anxiety next day help struggling hi little background year old male recently started right work oddly enough dealt twice life young bullied possibly gay although convinced mind maybe another time ago revisited mistake made college slipped ate sure felt type guilt long ordeal solved different wanted leave job awhile financially afford take month find career path girlfriend family support let understand thing tuesday instantly constantly worried scared future cannot people around supportive etc reason wrap fact okay fine zero debt money survive multiple degree hit miss though hour feel great like wtf even sad dude come back run stop running genuinely happens rarely intense start tearing never cry ever break badly fighting forcing many negative thought could use advice talked someone last situation much reasonable feeling way scare go away live every ridiculous still,0.08,Moderately Positive
"DAE feel like they can’t breathe? I don’t know if I could have asthma or not. I always feel like I’m not getting enough air with my breaths. On top of that my chest is almost always tight. No matter how many breaths I take or if I use breathing exercises, I’ll always feel like I’m not getting enough breath.

If you experience this, what are some ways to help this?",axienty,dae feel like breathe know could asthma always getting enough air breath top chest almost tight matter many take use breathing exercise experience way help,0.21,Moderately Positive
"Is is just in my head? I was at work today and the work load was unmanageable to the extent I had to stay behind for an extra few hours. Everything had to be completed by today. I was also taking on another person's workload as they were away.

At first I realised I  wasn't feeling well I had this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach like nausea but not quite. Was it the food that I ate? I was sweating, more then when I have a hardcore workout at the gym. Maybe it was just hot in the office? My mouth was dry. Was my hand shaking as I picked up that piece of paper? Was I just stressed? About maybe letting down my team? About maybe letting down my manager? About them realising that they made a mistake when they hired me? 

Is this anxiety?",axienty,head work today load unmanageable extent stay behind extra hour everything completed also taking another person workload away first realised feeling well sick pit stomach like nausea quite food ate sweating hardcore workout gym maybe hot office mouth dry hand shaking picked piece paper stressed letting team manager realising made mistake hired anxiety,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"An improv teacher poked fun at my speech impediment. She asked me to do a monologue in front of her and then she laughs to herself saying ""I'm sorry. I'm just laughing at the way you talk. Go on"".

The school email me asking if I'd be interested in their upcoming courses. I replied asking them to take me off their mailing list and to never contact me again.",axienty,improv teacher poked fun speech impediment asked monologue front laugh saying sorry laughing way talk go school email asking interested upcoming course replied take mailing list never contact,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety is getting so much worse, I feel like I’m constantly vibrating I feel like my body is constantly vibrating, the thought of even moving makes my heart race and I don’t know how to stop it. The only anxiety medication that’s ever helped me was klonopin but my psych took me off it months ago. To him, I didn’t need it since I’d get addicted. I feel so sick. I was taking a medication for months that was messing up my vision badly until I stopped feeling any effect from it with the occasional vision problem, it’s like taking nothing but my psych also said, “it must be working in the background.” And continues not to listen to me. It feels hopeless ",axienty,anxiety getting much worse feel like constantly vibrating body thought even moving make heart race know stop medication ever helped klonopin psych took month ago need since get addicted sick taking messing vision badly stopped feeling effect occasional problem nothing also said must working background continues listen hopeless,-0.37,Moderately Negative
How can i get taken more seriously at the doctor? No one takes me seriously because of my anxiety/OCD. It’s so hard to communicate when I’m dealing with anxiety. All they can see is how anxious I am. So they just don’t take my true issues seriously. ,axienty,get taken seriously doctor one take anxiety ocd hard communicate dealing see anxious true issue,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"The bittersweet sleep When I turn off my lamp and start falling asleep I finally feel at ease, but when I wake up to the sun rising and my alarm blaring my anxiety is at a high.",axienty,bittersweet sleep turn lamp start falling asleep finally feel ease wake sun rising alarm blaring anxiety high,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else feel the same way I do sometimes? Idk where else to come, so here I am. 
Do I have anxiety or something like that?

Sometimes, I will feel absolutely dead inside. I will want to do nothing but lay in bed on my phone. It’s hard to breathe. I overthink an insane amount, and it drives me crazy. Often I find myself thinking that my friends actually hate me and they are just pretending to like me as to not hurt my feelings. Sometimes I’m asked to do a small task and I burn inside. I don’t know if this is actually something I need to be worried about or I am just overreacting. Yeah. I might add more later.",axienty,anyone else feel way sometimes idk come anxiety something like absolutely dead inside want nothing lay bed phone hard breathe overthink insane amount drive crazy often find thinking friend actually hate pretending hurt feeling asked small task burn know need worried overreacting yeah might add later,-0.45,Moderately Negative
"That weird head feeling... Not quiet a headache, or dizziness, but almost. Maybe my head feels numb, or is it actuallu tingling? Am I about to fall asleep or stroke out? Is my brain not getting enough oxygen or is my skull about to explode from internal pressure? How can I be experiencing all the sensations at once? Anyone relate to this? It's the (hopefully) anxiety symptom I hate most.",axienty,weird head feeling quiet headache dizziness almost maybe feel numb actuallu tingling fall asleep stroke brain getting enough oxygen skull explode internal pressure experiencing sensation anyone relate hopefully anxiety symptom hate,-0.32,Moderately Negative
"When you feel a breakdown coming soon, how do you try to stop it? Okay. When you feel a breakdown coming soon, how do you try to stop it? Or make it less harmful? 

I usually drink red bull or monsters, smoke cigarettes and drink coffee in coffee places.

In some cases I just want to see my anxiety face to face and stop my copying mechanisms.

And you? ",axienty,feel breakdown coming soon try stop okay make le harmful usually drink red bull monster smoke cigarette coffee place case want see anxiety face copying mechanism,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Making phone calls Hello 
Does anyone else have a big problem with making phone calls?
It's not that I'm not used to making phone calls or that I don't know how to make them, but I just feel so uncomfortable, whether I have to make an important call or someone else calls me. I don't even like phoning with my friends, but with my bf I don't have any problems. 

I don't know what exactly makes me anxious about it, because every time I finish a phone call, I think 'Yeah, that wasn't a big deal', but whenever I know that I have to make one in the evening, I'm already frightened about it in the morning. 

Every time my phone rings I'm anxious as fuck and most of the time I don't answer it and whenever I have to call someone, I try to avoid it and to find other ways. 

Do you have any tips for me? 

",axienty,making phone call hello anyone else big problem used know make feel uncomfortable whether important someone even like phoning friend bf exactly anxious every time finish think yeah deal whenever one evening already frightened morning ring fuck answer try avoid find way tip,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"Every once in a while I get the concept of death stuck in my mind. Thinking I’m not going to be here anymore, thinking my parents won’t be here, thinking what’s going to happen after I die. Just thinking about how we all are mortal. That gives me such bad anxiety I disassociate and I try to go back to normal, I can’t. I’m in that state right now and I really don’t know what to do.",axienty,every get concept death stuck mind thinking going anymore parent happen die mortal give bad anxiety disassociate try go back normal state right really know,-0.01,Neutral
"I don’t want to self harm again, I just want my brain to stop panicking I’ll be short and sweet.....my desire to harm myself is coming back. My doctors make me feel worse and my ability to connect is all but gone again. Why does my brain have to ruin everything? I don’t want to hurt myself but it’s the only thing that stops the endless chatter in my head going over all the things wrong with me. 

My only bright spot is my pets seem to know I’m not ok and are smothering me with love. ",axienty,want self harm brain stop panicking short sweet desire coming back doctor make feel worse ability connect gone ruin everything hurt thing endless chatter head going wrong bright spot pet seem know ok smothering love,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety from Remembering the Distant Past It usually happens when I’m working and focusing, I’ll start thinking about something and it leads to a painful memory or experience, to which I start talking to myself. I’ve always done this but I think it’s gotten worse over the last few years. I don’t know if this is common, normal or if I’m a complete freak.  ",axienty,anxiety remembering distant past usually happens working focusing start thinking something lead painful memory experience talking always done think gotten worse last year know common normal complete freak,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"DAE constantly question is they actually have anxiety? I’m very bad at identifying my feelings because I’ve never attempted to take much notice of them. 
I’ve always been a stressed and worrying person but because of this I can’t tell if its at a normal level or something anxiety/mental health related. 

It’s a constant state of not believing myself. My doctor gave me some medication but he always prescribes stuff without much questioning. Maybe it’s denial? I just want an answer and some understanding of my mind :( 


(I’m not asking for medical help. Just having a bit of a vent/type-a-thon sorry)",axienty,dae constantly question actually anxiety bad identifying feeling never attempted take much notice always stressed worrying person tell normal level something mental health related constant state believing doctor gave medication prescribes stuff without questioning maybe denial want answer understanding mind asking medical help bit vent type thon sorry,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"People with health anxiety/hypocondria...how do you calm your thoughts when you think you have some kind of severe illness? The past few days I've been thinking I have some kind of cancer and when I'm not being disctracted my thoughts can really make me think and feel all kinds of things...like now alone on the train.
I'm only 20 and have no family history of cancer, still thinking rational is difficult.
",axienty,people health anxiety hypocondria calm thought think kind severe illness past day thinking cancer disctracted really make feel thing like alone train family history still rational difficult,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety and Driving I'm going to start driving soon. The thought terrifies me. At first, I was really excited but then I realized how fast cars need to be going on the highway, or how many sharp turns there are in my neighbourhood. Don't even get me started on the Canadian winter weather. My excitement is slowly being replaced with crippling anxiety. I know I need to learn how. My mom is dealing with arthritis and has troubles driving her standard, so in the coming years, I will have to drive the long distance trips.

​

I either walk or bus nearly everywhere I go. I like walking more so since I feel safe and grounded. I realize it isn't always the best option if I'm walking 45 minutes to my hairdresser and back in cold weather or something of the likes, but I would rather walk than drive if I had the choice. 

​

I feel like the second I drive, I will somehow end up crashed and either hurt someone or hurt myself. I can't get the thought of all the possible things that could go wrong out of my head.

​

How do you deal with the anxiety associated with driving, and keeping your head clear?",axienty,anxiety driving going start soon thought terrifies first really excited realized fast car need highway many sharp turn neighbourhood even get started canadian winter weather excitement slowly replaced crippling know learn mom dealing arthritis trouble standard coming year drive long distance trip either walk bus nearly everywhere go like walking since feel safe grounded realize always best option minute hairdresser back cold something would rather choice second somehow end crashed hurt someone possible thing could wrong head deal associated keeping clear,0.07,Moderately Positive
"i know this is a common problem that many people have but i dont know what to do. i dont sleep at all on sunday nights and it fucks up my whole week. im scared of the sadness i will feel as soon as i wake up, im scared of having to repeat the same day over and over until friday, im scared of waking up in a panic attack, im scared of having a long complex dream and then waking up not remembering it or not liking it. the stupidest things freak me out and im so sad and tired. i brought this up to my therapist towards the end of my session but she didnt really have an answer, and i didnt bring it up the next week.",axienty,know common problem many people dont sleep sunday night fuck whole week im scared sadness feel soon wake repeat day friday waking panic attack long complex dream remembering liking stupidest thing freak sad tired brought therapist towards end session didnt really answer bring next,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Podcasts about work related anxiety? Anyone know of any?
Would be very helpful right now.",axienty,podcasts work related anxiety anyone know would helpful right,0.14,Moderately Positive
Feels Like I’m Falling For the past 3 days I’ve been having problems falling asleep and waking up. I would be too anxious to fall asleep and would wake up anxious with my heart pounding. It’s as if I’m falling but I know I’m not. What can help this? Have any of you gone through this? Thank you so much for any help. ,axienty,feel like falling past day problem asleep waking would anxious fall wake heart pounding know help gone thank much,-0.1,Moderately Negative
College swimmer with anxiety Hey guys im 20 year old guy and a college swimmer. This is also my 12 and final year swimming! Im swimming at my conference meet and keep getting random attacks while im on the pool deck. They just come in waves at random times and i dont know why i feel relaxed with me team but everytime im on deck i get an attack at this meet. Does anybody know anything about this form of anxiety?,axienty,college swimmer anxiety hey guy im year old also final swimming conference meet keep getting random attack pool deck come wave time dont know feel relaxed team everytime get anybody anything form,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety flaring up after terror-type attack up the street from me Hi all, this is going to be a long one. I feel like my anxieties are coming true around me, and it's flaring up other anxieties, including some new ones. Recently I was on holidays and a car went through a crowd of pedestrians at the end of the street I was staying on, at an intersection I'd been crossing all week. I have pretty bad anxiety about terrorist attacks, so I'd actually been looking for out of control cars all week at every intersection, given that's been a common thing lately. And it was kind of terrifying to me that it actually happened a block from me. I couldn't get back to my apartment for over 5 hours because the whole area was cordoned off by police.

Anyway, I'm having a bit of a strange anxiety reaction to it. When it happened, I couldn't stay indoors. I got overwhelmed with claustrophobia (which I don't normally suffer from) and got really nauseous. Then I got really anxious about throwing up, another of my major anxieties. Which in turn lead to more claustrophobia, and then a vicious spiral started. So basically, all I wanted to do was walk around the street even though it happened on the street. And that feeling hasn't really gone away. Every time I go to the shops, a restaurant, anything... if I'm not near an exit I get overwhelmed with nausea and fall apart. And I'm constantly scanning any room I'm in now. People with backpacks or baggy clothing freak me out, as do unattended bags or anyone just acting a bit odd in general.

The state of the world is really not helping me with this part of my anxiety. I was in Nice on the Promenade Des Anglais just before the truck attack happened. Then in London on the bridges where the attacks there happened, again just before it. Now in Melbourne as it was happening. Has anyone else had the experience of their anxiety kind of coming true around them? How do you cope with it? And for those of you who are dealing well with emetophobia in closed spaces.... how? I've got a lot of solo flying coming up as well as a concert to go to, and I really really need to get a grip before then because I'm really not coping well right now.",axienty,anxiety flaring terror type attack street hi going long one feel like coming true around including new recently holiday car went crowd pedestrian end staying intersection crossing week pretty bad terrorist actually looking control every given common thing lately kind terrifying happened block get back apartment hour whole area cordoned police anyway bit strange reaction stay indoors got overwhelmed claustrophobia normally suffer really nauseous anxious throwing another major turn lead vicious spiral started basically wanted walk even though feeling gone away time go shop restaurant anything near exit nausea fall apart constantly scanning room people backpack baggy clothing freak unattended bag anyone acting odd general state world helping part nice promenade de anglais truck london bridge melbourne happening else experience cope dealing well emetophobia closed space lot solo flying concert need grip coping right,-0.02,Neutral
"Anyone else's anxiety give them lasting stomach upset, bloating and gas? What do you do? My anxiety has increased lately and my body is so physically messed up even though I haven't eaten anything different or done anything different. I get so frustrated and embarrased about looking fat and being gassy and I just want it to go away :( Anyone if you have advice that's great but I just wanted to know I'm not alone in this. ",axienty,anyone else anxiety give lasting stomach upset bloating gas increased lately body physically messed even though eaten anything different done get frustrated embarrased looking fat gassy want go away advice great wanted know alone,-0.03,Neutral
"Fear of Choking & Anxiety... Hello, first time poster here!

Ah, so, for a little background... I'm a 22 year old female who was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder five years ago. For the most part, I can handle the majority of my symptoms despite not being on any medication(yet?). Except one.

Despite fluctuating in intensity throughout the years, I've seriously struggled with a fear of choking while eating. It's the most likely thing to send me into full blown panic mode. On a really good day, I might be able to eat a salad...maybe even a few bites of steak or pork. On a bad one, I can barely touch a milkshake or smoothie. I havent eaten while home alone or in solitude since I've developed GAD for fear of panicking...

Because of this, I eat a lot of ""safe"" foods, err...processed ones that won't panic me as much or that I can st least coerce myself into eating. I'm 5""1 at 105 lbs with a very small appetite, and while I'm not at risk of starving to death my calorie consumption probabky barely reaches 900 cals/day...

I want to eat healthier, especially now that I'm older with a steady S/O whom I'd like to eventually, far in the future, have kids with but I know my eating habits would be terrible for that.

I have more mediocre days than good, and even diced apple in an apple crisp might trigger anxiety... I feel like I'm at my wits end. :( globus sensation is almost constant as well...

Would medication potentially improve this? My doctor had wanted to try me on Zoloft, but I was reluctant as my dad was previously prescribed it and he hated how it made him feel emotionless.

Any tips would be appreciated...",axienty,fear choking anxiety hello first time poster ah little background year old female diagnosed generalized disorder five ago part handle majority symptom despite medication yet except one fluctuating intensity throughout seriously struggled eating likely thing send full blown panic mode really good day might able eat salad maybe even bite steak pork bad barely touch milkshake smoothie havent eaten home alone solitude since developed gad panicking lot safe food err processed much st least coerce lb small appetite risk starving death calorie consumption probabky reach cals want healthier especially older steady like eventually far future kid know habit would terrible mediocre diced apple crisp trigger feel wit end globus sensation almost constant well potentially improve doctor wanted try zoloft reluctant dad previously prescribed hated made emotionless tip appreciated,-0.03,Neutral
"I am 100% convinced my parents will get lung cancer. My parents have smoked for as long as I've been alive, and any attempt they've made at quitting (which there hasn't been many) resulted in failure. It wasn't until recently that I convinced them to stop smoking in the house, though my mom still does it regardless, but only when I'm upstairs.

I received complaints from my counselors that I reek of cigarette smoke all because of my parents. Multiple pieces of furniture in our house have burn holes in them. The house is incredibly dusty, though I'd be lying if I said there wasn't multiple causes of this (owning 2 cats being one of them).

I am completely convinced my parents will die while I'm still young. Every night I have to hear my dad coughing constantly. At one point in my life, it became so severe that my dad used to faint after coughing so much. It happened in the pool once, and I had to grab his head out of the water. I was probably about 11 years old.

They *will* get cancer. I am sure of this. The older they get, the more I expect them to land in the hospital. They won't quit. Every time I mention my fear to them, I'm told to shut up. My parents are killing themselves, but they don't care. Soon I believe I will no longer have a mom or dad. If my dad dies first, my mom and my brother and I will have no where to go, because my dad is controlling of all the money in the house. I'm crying. They're going to die in the next few years. I know I'm right.",axienty,convinced parent get lung cancer smoked long alive attempt made quitting many resulted failure recently stop smoking house though mom still regardless upstairs received complaint counselor reek cigarette smoke multiple piece furniture burn hole incredibly dusty lying said cause owning cat one completely die young every night hear dad coughing constantly point life became severe used faint much happened pool grab head water probably year old sure older expect land hospital quit time mention fear told shut killing care soon believe longer dy first brother go controlling money cry going next know right,0.04,Neutral
"This one guy I swear So I have a huge fear of being touched (Haphephobia). I don't even like being touched by my family. I get all tense and my anxiety goes through the roof and normally takes a few minutes afterward to settle down. But there is this one guy in my engineering class who know full well I hate being touched. But he does it anyway, like everyday. He makes it worse by being all creepy about it. He normally lets his hand trail off my body when he finally leaves. 

Dude is gonna either cause a panic attack or cause me to punch him.",axienty,one guy swear huge fear touched haphephobia even like family get tense anxiety go roof normally take minute afterward settle engineering class know full well hate anyway everyday make worse creepy let hand trail body finally leaf dude gonna either cause panic attack punch,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"First anxiety/panic attack in years. Need advice please Theres been far more financial, medical, emotional and personal life problems lately making me constantly stressed and exhausted. I guess A few things that just happened sent it over the edge because i just had my first massive panic/anxiety attack in years, im feeling slightly better now but im still hyperventilating and shaking and i feel like i might pass out if anyone has any advice on how to calm down fast PLEASE let me know ",axienty,first anxiety panic attack year need advice please there far financial medical emotional personal life problem lately making constantly stressed exhausted guess thing happened sent edge massive im feeling slightly better still hyperventilating shaking feel like might pas anyone calm fast let know,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Check if she's okay? Hey everyone, ex broke up with me a few weeks ago, and I'm  wondering if it's a good idea to check up on her? For the most part, we broke up because she couldn't handle the uncertainty brought on by her anxiety and some part because of the long distance. She was saying how it's all her fault it's ended, super apologetic, and hope we can be friends, possibly more one day. 

She's in a very intense program in a remote country and I don't want her to beat herself up for our break up or feel alone. I've read up on anxiety to better understand it and I want her to know I know it's not her fault she has these thoughts. But I also know we broke up for a reason and I don't want to cause any more stress/grief. I'm usually a believer of no contact until everyone has had space, but I don't know about this one because of the anxiety factor. Does anyone have any thoughts?",axienty,check okay hey everyone ex broke week ago wondering good idea part handle uncertainty brought anxiety long distance saying fault ended super apologetic hope friend possibly one day intense program remote country want beat break feel alone read better understand know thought also reason cause stress grief usually believer contact space factor anyone,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Is this anxiety or something else? So...I have been having a hard time lately and I am not sure that I am have a good enough understanding of myself to realize what is going on.  This winter I have fallen on what feels like anxiety/depression but it is expressing itself in a somewhat strange way.  I've started to become afraid of being alone and have been spending as much time as I can with my wife mostly out of fear of being alone.  I've also started to become anxious when I do things (or think of doing things) that I used to like. For example...I can't watch TV, listen to music, read books, or listen to podcasts that I used to enjoy because whenever I try to, I get really overwhelmed and have to turn it off.  I have been spending a lot of time in the comfort of silence although I'm afraid that I'm losing the things that I used to love.  Has anyone else gone through times like this?  Was it anxiety or something else?  Did you find a way to get yourself out of it and if so, what helped?",axienty,anxiety something else hard time lately sure good enough understanding realize going winter fallen feel like depression expressing somewhat strange way started become afraid alone spending much wife mostly fear also anxious thing think used example watch tv listen music read book podcasts enjoy whenever try get really overwhelmed turn lot comfort silence although losing love anyone gone find helped,0.15,Moderately Positive
"anxiety about dad's remarriage hi all, first time poster on this thread. not really expecting to much feedback, just need to get out of my anxiety loop and share with a safe community.

My parents have been divorced for 20 years and my dad is getting remarried in March. It was a really rough, spiteful separation and there has not been a lot of love in my family since. I've grown up with extreme anxiety and depression that was exacerbated by my family situation.  I'm happy for my dad, his fiancee is already like family to me, but I have so much anxiety around marriage, especially remarriage. I had always thought to myself that, even though my parents were divorced, at least they weren't remarrying. Changing the family dynamic even more, in ways that I don't have control over, terrifies me. It doesn't help that my dad didn't talk to me or my sister about proposing to his then-girlfriend. I have a lot of emotions and stress around the whole situation. I thought at least that I would be able to bring someone to the wedding, a buffer of sorts, so I won't get to overwhelmed by anxiety or feelings of isolation and sadness. But I just found out that I can't bring anyone with me. Even though my sister was allowed to bring her boyfriend and my cousins are bringing S/Os, I don't get a plus one. 

I'm really freaking out. I know I have time to prepare for this wedding, but I am so scared that I am not going to be able to make it through the ceremony or party or speeches or toasts without completely breaking down and ruining my dads wedding. I don't want to make a scene and ask my dad and his fiancee to alter the entire table setting so I can bring someone. They don't understand my mental health needs and I don't think they would be receptive to my need for a buffer. I don't want to remember it as something I wasn't strong enough for or remembering it as one of the most stressful days of my life. I see my therapist in two weeks, but in the meantime, I don't want to revel in these thoughts during that time. If anyone has any experience coping with family events, any support is appreciated.

thank you for letting me share. i'm glad there's a place I can come to and find that i'm not alone.",axienty,anxiety dad remarriage hi first time poster thread really expecting much feedback need get loop share safe community parent divorced year getting remarried march rough spiteful separation lot love family since grown extreme depression exacerbated situation happy fiancee already like around marriage especially always thought even though least remarrying changing dynamic way control terrifies help talk sister proposing girlfriend emotion stress whole would able bring someone wedding buffer sort overwhelmed feeling isolation sadness found anyone allowed boyfriend cousin bringing o plus one freaking know prepare scared going make ceremony party speech toast without completely breaking ruining want scene ask alter entire table setting understand mental health think receptive remember something strong enough remembering stressful day life see therapist two week meantime revel experience coping event support appreciated thank letting glad place come find alone,0.19,Moderately Positive
"I've been procrastinating on posting this for weeks. I don't post to reddit much, but this is important to me. It's pretty late, so if you see this please help. I'll post the tldr at the top in case you want to skip the wall of text. I don't care if you comment without reading everything.",axienty,procrastinating posting week post reddit much important pretty late see please help tldr top case want skip wall text care comment without reading everything,0.21,Moderately Positive
phone calls make me anxious English is not my first language. I can understand  everything when having a face to face chat. But when it comes to making phone calls I get so anxious that I don’t even know what the other guy is saying. I just messed up a phone call and I feel terrible right now.,axienty,phone call make anxious english first language understand everything face chat come making get even know guy saying messed feel terrible right,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"What are some of your hobbies? I feel like i need something to occupy my free time and give me something to look forward to. I’ve taken up hobbies in the past and get super excited in the beginning, then lose interest after a month or two.

What hobbies do you enjoy and/or how do you stick to a hobby or find pleasure in one?",axienty,hobby feel like need something occupy free time give look forward taken past get super excited beginning lose interest month two enjoy stick find pleasure one,0.25,Moderately Positive
"I don't feel like the same person after having a mental breakdown and taking Zoloft Long story short I had a mental breakdown about my SO at work, SO reassured me everything was ok, started taking Zoloft for anxiety because I like to convince myself that people hate me (which is what I did with my SO), and now I don't feel like the same person.

It's not in a bad sort of different. I just feel like the person preceding me was a fucking emotional monster. I was told it would take a week for the Zoloft to make any noticeable differences but I'm on day 2 and I'm already feeling better. Maybe it was because of my constant thinking, maybe because I had such an intense mental break down my mind literally changed, I have no idea honestly. 

Honestly I've been more emotionally damaged and numb the past couple days than I have my entire life. My SO has stopped responding to my snaps so I have no idea what's going on there, not sure if it's my anxiety speaking or I fucked our relationship up. Although I wouldn't honestly blame her for breaking up with me because I behaved like a child. More than once I had to get confirmation that she still liked me (we've been dating for a month so saying love is a bit early), and honestly I feel like I weirded her out just by being myself. 

Either way, I'm just going to put one foot in front of the other and just keep going. I can't undo the past, I can only change the future. That's the only thing that comforts me. I want to talk to my SO about it but I'm afraid she'd either ignore me again or I'd just be back right where I started.",axienty,feel like person mental breakdown taking zoloft long story short work reassured everything ok started anxiety convince people hate bad sort different preceding fucking emotional monster told would take week make noticeable difference day already feeling better maybe constant thinking intense break mind literally changed idea honestly emotionally damaged numb past couple entire life stopped responding snap going sure speaking fucked relationship although blame breaking behaved child get confirmation still liked dating month saying love bit early weirded either way put one foot front keep undo change future thing comfort want talk afraid ignore back right,-0.02,Neutral
"need help with my existential anxiety  

i  recently posted about my fear of schizophrenia, i talked to my doctor  and stopped risperidone, its been a week and im not hearing or seeing  anything extra so im pretty relieved that i dont have it. However  yesterday i was playing farcry and a weird thought came to my mind ""what  if my life also a first person game"" which triggered the questions i  used to have like ""what if im dreaming everything"", ""what if nothing is  real"" ,""what if life is a simulation"" making me very uncomfortable. i  know that my thoughts are completely illogical but still everytime they  hit my fear goes to extreme.

anyone with the same problem? or any tips on how to manage myself",axienty,need help existential anxiety recently posted fear schizophrenia talked doctor stopped risperidone week im hearing seeing anything extra pretty relieved dont however yesterday playing farcry weird thought came mind life also first person game triggered question used like dreaming everything nothing real simulation making uncomfortable know completely illogical still everytime hit go extreme anyone problem tip manage,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Completely foreign and terrible experience I'm a 28 year old male. This Monday I woke up and as I got around for work I noticed feeling strange. Since then i've been experiencing anxiety symptoms almost non stop throughout the day. It gets worse and better through out the day but never goes completely away. My symptoms include not being able to regulate my body temperature, a kind of an uncomfortable ""body load"" feeling in my hands and feet and head, heart beat varying throughout the day, lack of appetite, and on edge. My mind has been going uncontrollably the past 4 days trying to figure out what's going on and what could be causing it. I can't think of anything out of the ordinary that would cause me to be super stressed and i'm normally a super laid back person. I got blood work and urine analysis labs this morning and they said i'm perfectly healthy. I've been reading Internet articles for the past 4 days on stress and anxiety and stuff to try to figure out why I feel like this so sudden and persistent with no luck. I think part of what is fucking with me is trying to come to terms with how or what i'm feeling since I really haven't experienced this before. I guess i'm just looking for some advice or insight or something on wtf is up. Thanks for any help! ",axienty,completely foreign terrible experience year old male monday woke got around work noticed feeling strange since experiencing anxiety symptom almost non stop throughout day get worse better never go away include able regulate body temperature kind uncomfortable load hand foot head heart beat varying lack appetite edge mind going uncontrollably past trying figure could causing think anything ordinary would cause super stressed normally laid back person blood urine analysis lab morning said perfectly healthy reading internet article stress stuff try feel like sudden persistent luck part fucking come term really experienced guess looking advice insight something wtf thanks help,0.0,Neutral
"I need help but can’t get it Though I am getting a little better, I am still struggling so much. I’ve had a long history of anxiety and depression and a few really traumatizing things have happened to me. My parents don’t believe me when I tell them that I need help. I’m a college student so I went to the free counseling here, and it was helping a lot, but my counselor was arrested for raping and beating his ex girlfriend, and now I’m terrified to go back. 

I feel like I’m at the end of my ropes, I’m so frustrated because it feels like everything gives me an anxiety attack. I can’t be around other people without having anxiety. I can’t last a conversation without having anxiety. I constantly think about and pick apart everything I say, do, think and feel. I’m in a relationship but I feel so much constant anxiety that I can barely enjoy it, and it’s long distance so I can’t even hug him. I feel like every time we’re together I feel the anxiety bubble up in my chest and get worse and worse and I can barely focus on enjoying his company, even though I really love him, because being around others is so stressful for me. I only get to see him one week every 6 months and I almost can’t take it anymore because it feels like my anxiety ruins that one week and then he’s gone again.

I can’t afford therapy, I’m too scared to go back to the free counseling, I’m too scared to reach out to my friends. I’m so tired of living like this. I don’t know what to do anymore. ",axienty,need help get though getting little better still struggling much long history anxiety depression really traumatizing thing happened parent believe tell college student went free counseling helping lot counselor arrested raping beating ex girlfriend terrified go back feel like end rope frustrated everything give attack around people without last conversation constantly think pick apart say relationship constant barely enjoy distance even hug every time together bubble chest worse focus enjoying company love others stressful see one week month almost take anymore ruin gone afford therapy scared reach friend tired living know,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Numb is the new freaking out. Anybody experienced this? Basically you freaked out so much in your life that you grew numb. People would think you are nonchalantly calm and you usually are upon friends freaking out and even calming them down but in fact you would not even raise an eyebrow if you see something shocking -- like an accident across the street. That when life continues to turn upside down you only poker face back at it.

I think this is what depression is about. When you can't get anxious you get depressed. And vice versa.

Edit: I need to further elaborate. Numb isn't the same as calm. Numb is when suddenly shit happens and you don't even know what to feel or do because feeling anxious is just too much and ridiculous to everyone.",axienty,numb new freaking anybody experienced basically freaked much life grew people would think nonchalantly calm usually upon friend even calming fact raise eyebrow see something shocking like accident across street continues turn upside poker face back depression get anxious depressed vice versa edit need elaborate suddenly shit happens know feel feeling ridiculous everyone,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I have to get a blood test... im so nervous ive always had a phobia of blood and needles and have anxiety attacks every time. I really dont want to get one but its for a good reason...:( Im so scared i dont want to get it. Any advice please?:( 
(P.s i dont know why the flair is school/exams haha)",axienty,get blood test im nervous ive always phobia needle anxiety attack every time really dont want one good reason scared advice please know flair school exam haha,0.37,Moderately Positive
Stinging heart pain when trying to fall asleep? I had this last night. Anytime you get heart area pain is just makes anxiety worse and worse. Makes you feel like you're going to panic attack yourself into a heart attack. Anyone deal with pain when lying down/falling asleep? ,axienty,stinging heart pain trying fall asleep last night anytime get area make anxiety worse feel like going panic attack anyone deal lying falling,-0.2,Moderately Negative
There's just something about you Has anyone ever told you that there is just something about you that they cannot figure out? Or that people just don't receive you in your profession? I assume it's all because of my social anxiety. I'm just not one to be some sort of outgoing person all day long. I have to warm up to people. ,axienty,something anyone ever told cannot figure people receive profession assume social anxiety one sort outgoing person day long warm,0.19,Moderately Positive
"Anyone else has tears to his eyes when walking outside ? First, sorry for my bad english. 

It's been a long time now since walking outside brings tears to my eyes. I've always been very sensitive to light (i often have to squint my eyes when the sun is out), but it feels very weird to me that just walking outside has this type of reaction. Honestly i don't know if it's related to anxiety, i'm not a very anxious person, but i feel like my eyes are crying a lot more when i'm around some crowd of people, and a lot less when i'm ""confident"". The thing is that it's not 100% regular, there is some situation where i would wait for some tears to show up (walking on the middle of a place for exemple), but they don't, and vice-versa. I don't really know what to think about that, i didn't find anything in google so i'm asking you guys if you have this same unconfortable thing too ?",axienty,anyone else tear eye walking outside first sorry bad english long time since brings always sensitive light often squint sun feel weird type reaction honestly know related anxiety anxious person like cry lot around crowd people le confident thing regular situation would wait show middle place exemple vice versa really think find anything google asking guy unconfortable,0.0,Neutral
"How to work with anxiety I've been suffering from pretty major anxiety (I'm dissociating to some extent basically all the time) for a number of months. I'm trying to figure out how it could be possible for me to make money when I'm like this. I've been living with my mother for a number of months but unfortunately, she is a large contributor to my anxiety. I need to start making money somehow, but whenever I try to work, my anxiety gets way worse and forces me to leave. I've been trying to get on BC financial assistance for upwards of a month, but the number of hoops they're making me jump through is ridiculous, and now I'm finding out that they're only going to give me $400, which doesn't cover much of anything.

How can I deal with this? What have all of you done? I'm pretty desperate, but again, my anxiety is kicking my ass.",axienty,work anxiety suffering pretty major dissociating extent basically time number month trying figure could possible make money like living mother unfortunately large contributor need start making somehow whenever try get way worse force leave bc financial assistance upwards hoop jump ridiculous finding going give cover much anything deal done desperate kicking as,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety has left me jobless and hopeless... please let me know it gets better Last night was only my 2nd day at my new job and I had to quit. I feel horrible. I feel like a loser. But mostly  feel like my anxiety is crippling me.  

It was data entry for a manufacturing company. Sounds simple but it wasn’t really the work. It was the fact that I was in a box surrounded by warehouse workers and my supervisors way of explaining things sent me into a mental whirlwind. Navigating that huge warehouse to get the logs etc was just too much to bare as well. I hate that I’m like this. I do not feel normal nor have I ever felt capable of doing normal things. I’m 29! I can’t let this continue on. 

I felt nauseated on my way there and ended up going to the bathroom and puking halfway through holding back tears. I left and balled my eyes out on my ride home while hyperventilating. I’m down to $21 in my bank account. It seems like my anxiety is getting worse and I have no idea what to do. I can’t allow myself to be broke just bc I feel like I can’t do certain things. 

I feel like no one understands except this sub. I feel so alone on top of it all and haven’t been able to eat bc of all this.

I’m waiting to hear back from some other positions.

Does anyone have any words of encouragement or advice? I greatly appreciate it. 





",axienty,anxiety left jobless hopeless please let know get better last night nd day new job quit feel horrible like loser mostly crippling data entry manufacturing company sound simple really work fact box surrounded warehouse worker supervisor way explaining thing sent mental whirlwind navigating huge log etc much bare well hate normal ever felt capable continue nauseated ended going bathroom puking halfway holding back tear balled eye ride home hyperventilating bank account seems getting worse idea allow broke bc certain one understands except sub alone top able eat waiting hear position anyone word encouragement advice greatly appreciate,0.08,Moderately Positive
"My mood/feelings changes within minutes?? So I’ve been having anxiety pretty bad for the last few months (haven’t had it like this in years). I’ve also noticed that my mood changes literally within minutes. I can be happy, positive, motivated, and satisfied one moment.... then not even 5 minutes later, I’ll be thinking negatively, won’t be happy, I’ll have no motivation to do my hobbies, ETC. This gets 3X worse whenever on LSD. I can go from strong feelings of happiness & bliss to a negative headspace where I just CAN’T be positive. I’m not sure as to what this could be at all because I’m not sad and nor do I express any clinical depression symptoms besides the mood issues. Do any of you go through this? Could all of this just be something as simple as anxiety controlling my thoughts? BTW, NOT asking for any type of diagnosis... just opinions and experiences! ",axienty,mood feeling change within minute anxiety pretty bad last month like year also noticed literally happy positive motivated satisfied one moment even later thinking negatively motivation hobby etc get worse whenever lsd go strong happiness bliss negative headspace sure could sad express clinical depression symptom besides issue something simple controlling thought btw asking type diagnosis opinion experience,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Thank god that’s over My home delivery prescription was two weeks late so I was forced to withdraw until they came. (I requested another temporary refill in person but was denied). It was the worst two weeks. I rarely have bad anxiety attacks while on my prescription but it was as if when I stopped, everything came back 100x worse. My boyfriend and I fought all the time, I felt like nobody loved me, and I lost all focus in class and started failing. I felt like everything I done, I shouldn’t have. Well my prescription came and I yelled at my pharmacy and of course they shared that it wasn’t their fault and I should’ve ordered them earlier. As if two weeks wasn’t early enough. Anyways, I am back to normal now but I have more anxiety than before while taking it. Hopefully it’ll go away overtime.",axienty,thank god home delivery prescription two week late forced withdraw came requested another temporary refill person denied worst rarely bad anxiety attack stopped everything back worse boyfriend fought time felt like nobody loved lost focus class started failing done well yelled pharmacy course shared fault ordered earlier early enough anyways normal taking hopefully go away overtime,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"I desperately miss my childhood and I wish I could have it back. After being molested, I feel that it was cut short. I'm afraid of getting older, and getting to the age where l have less time left than I've already lived. I think about it every day and it consumes me entirely. I'm obsessed with extending my lifespan on one end, and just killing myself on the other",axienty,desperately miss childhood wish could back molested feel cut short afraid getting older age le time left already lived think every day consumes entirely obsessed extending lifespan one end killing,-0.22,Moderately Negative
"even when my mind is 'calm', My body still shows effects/symptoms of anxiety. I just joined this sub today, but have had anxiety for the last 10+ years, if not longer. I'm pretty sure it all stems from my childhood from ages 5 and under(several types of abuse, physical, verbal, sexual) however it has gotten worse as i've grown up (now 34). There are days when my head is constantly spinning with thoughts and actual panic attacks happen but EVERY day I feel the symptoms even if I am not actively worried/anxious. By symptoms I mean excessive sweating , heart racing, chest pains, jaw pain from clenching, irritable, insomnia, crazy ass dream, stomach pains and emergency runs to the bathroom. 

I have been on SSRI's and SNRI's in the past, none have made me feel better, in fact they heightened my symptoms. I am also prescribed xanax but I hate having to take that due to it's habit forming nature and being numb while it's in my system. Most recently I was prescribed prozac but I really don't want to take it. Don't wanna go down under rabbit hole of symptoms and loosing my sanity. 

I have cut out caffeine, try my best to meditate (clearing the mind is hard man!!!!), use essential oils like lavender and when I can afford it (money is hella tight) I take CBD tinctures. BTW that works wonders and without side effects but unfortunately  as mentioned above without the insurance covering it I am having issues being able to always have it.

I don't really know the point of this post..... maybe to see if anyone else always has to deal with all these physical symptoms and how they have found relief? Maybe for support? I dunno.... today is a really rough one and to top it off my anxiety has been ruining my relationship of 15 years. Like I said, today is just an extra hard day.

Thanks for reading and any replies/advice you might have.",axienty,even mind calm body still show effect symptom anxiety joined sub today last year longer pretty sure stem childhood age several type abuse physical verbal sexual however gotten worse grown day head constantly spinning thought actual panic attack happen every feel actively worried anxious mean excessive sweating heart racing chest pain jaw clenching irritable insomnia crazy as dream stomach emergency run bathroom ssri snri past none made better fact heightened also prescribed xanax hate take due habit forming nature numb system recently prozac really want wanna go rabbit hole loosing sanity cut caffeine try best meditate clearing hard man use essential oil like lavender afford money hella tight cbd tincture btw work wonder without side unfortunately mentioned insurance covering issue able always know point post maybe see anyone else deal found relief support dunno rough one top ruining relationship said extra thanks reading reply advice might,-0.01,Neutral
"chest pain...even when not feeling anxious Starting about a month ago, I started experiencing some chest pain fairly regularly, mostly on the left side of my sternum. A few weeks ago, after having a panic attack from worrying about the chest pain, I went to an urgent care clinic where they took and EKG and a chest x-ray and everything came back fine. They said it was either a musculoskeletal problem or just anxiety. 

I've dealt with some anxiety in the past, though my problem is more with depression than anxiety. I saw my PCP who also said everything seemed fine and have started talking with a social worker every week. I'm feeling a lot less anxious lately, but I'm still getting the same/similar chest pain, usually anywhere from dull to sharp that only lasts for a second or two. Despite 3 doctors telling me everything's fine, I can't seem to convince myself that it's okay. Does anyone have some advice for dealing with it? My anxiety lately has largely been from the chest pain...which is likely giving me more chest pain... so I feel trapped.

Thanks in advance.",axienty,chest pain even feeling anxious starting month ago started experiencing fairly regularly mostly left side sternum week panic attack worrying went urgent care clinic took ekg ray everything came back fine said either musculoskeletal problem anxiety dealt past though depression saw pcp also seemed talking social worker every lot le lately still getting similar usually anywhere dull sharp last second two despite doctor telling seem convince okay anyone advice dealing largely likely giving feel trapped thanks advance,-0.03,Neutral
"The world's deepest pit is in my stomach Went through a breakup 2 weeks ago. The worst breakup to ever happen imo. Stopped eating. Stopped sleeping. Stopped enjoying things and forced laughed when I knew I was supposed to find something funny. The pit in my stomach hasn't gone yet. And it's coming to the point where I am getting angry at it. I'm not as sad anymore. I'm just so fucking angry. But this pit doesn't want to leave. And I know it's an anxiety pit. I break out in sweat and can't breathe. I started hyperventilating and feel dizzy. It happens a few times a day and I'm just getting sick of it. I've been to CBT a few years ago and know it's nothing to freak about but I hate that I have no control over my own body. I want to tell it to stop doing it to me but it's not listening. Keeping occupied with stuf only helps when I'm out doing things.... As soon as I'm alone I start to panic and go through it over and over again until I fall asleep for 2 hours and when I remember what happpened.. it starts all over again.

Everyone keeps telling me it'll get better and because I've been through something similar a few years back I am sure it will but right now I see nothing but black.",axienty,world deepest pit stomach went breakup week ago worst ever happen imo stopped eating sleeping enjoying thing forced laughed knew supposed find something funny gone yet coming point getting angry sad anymore fucking want leave know anxiety break sweat breathe started hyperventilating feel dizzy happens time day sick cbt year nothing freak hate control body tell stop listening keeping occupied stuf help soon alone start panic go fall asleep hour remember happpened everyone keep telling get better similar back sure right see black,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"Struggling with my anxiety I've tried just about every conventional means a doctor has told me and i'm really reaching a breaking point. I really want to get back to how I was before all the anxiety, and I just can't seem to figure out how. 

Anytime I get asked to go out with friends especially some where of distance, where a car ride might be like 30-45 minutes. My stomach gets pretty intense pains which usually will lead to diarrhea, i'll get nauseous, light headed and just extremely quiet. There's been time where i've even had to ask the person driving to pull over to a store so I can use the bathroom or meeting someone new and being in a pre drink situation with a small group and sneaking off to take a shit in this strangers bathroom. 

A lot of this has been pretty discouraging/embarrassing and my social life has taken a pretty big decline, I find myself saying no to any of those situations and feeling like i'm on the outs really and just missing out on my life.

Does anyone have similar experiences and if so how did you over come them ?    25/Male if that's helpful to the context at all.",axienty,struggling anxiety tried every conventional mean doctor told really reaching breaking point want get back seem figure anytime asked go friend especially distance car ride might like minute stomach pretty intense pain usually lead diarrhea nauseous light headed extremely quiet time even ask person driving pull store use bathroom meeting someone new pre drink situation small group sneaking take shit stranger lot discouraging embarrassing social life taken big decline find saying feeling out missing anyone similar experience come male helpful context,-0.01,Neutral
"Severe Anxiety Hi everyone, so lately I've been having really severe anxiety about one thing. World War 3. Now I know that's probably weird but it's so bad that I basically just lay in bed all day looking at news updates etc. I need help....  Anyone able to help me out? ",axienty,severe anxiety hi everyone lately really one thing world war know probably weird bad basically lay bed day looking news update etc need help anyone able,-0.12,Moderately Negative
Thinking my dreams are real? I’m not sure if this is part of my anxiety or not. I’ve always had very vivid dreams but especially taking anxiety/sleep meds my dreams only got more realistic. Some dreams actually make me mad at people. I’ve been mad at my boyfriend because of things that happened in my dreams! Is this normal? Sometimes in the middle of the night I’ll be confused after waking up and literally think I’m at work or something... I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I can’t even tell if some memories I had have actually happened or if it was just a dream. Not to mention my derealization for the longest time made my whole life feel like a dream. It is strange though that I can actually get mad at someone like they offended me over a dream but kinda think it’s real? Has anyone experienced this? ,axienty,thinking dream real sure part anxiety always vivid especially taking sleep med got realistic actually make mad people boyfriend thing happened normal sometimes middle night confused waking literally think work something know wrong even tell memory mention derealization longest time made whole life feel like strange though get someone offended kinda anyone experienced,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety hard on my relationship. I get such bad anxiety when it comes to school. When I have panic attacks my boyfriend tries to solve my problems which gives me more anxiety, even though he is just trying to help. When I get anxiety I become really hard to talk to and get snappy. 

We have been together for years but I am always worried that my anxiety will one day drive him away from me. 

How can I stop taking out my school stress on our relationship when I often have to do school work at night when we are together? ",axienty,anxiety hard relationship get bad come school panic attack boyfriend try solve problem give even though trying help become really talk snappy together year always worried one day drive away stop taking stress often work night,-0.26,Moderately Negative
"Fear of rabies Ok, to keep things simple, I'm afraid I may have rabies. Here's the story:

My sister's dog ran outside to our front yard to pee, peed, found a dead mouse's head, ran back inside, and chewed/licked the mouse's head for a good 2-3 minutes before my brother caught her and stopped her. 

She hasn't recieved her Rabies shot yet and she is about 6 months old I believe, and so I'm afraid that she might've gotten rabies through the mouse.

My parents don't care about giving her a shot for Rabies, (atm, I hope) and my mom thinks I'm an idiot for being afraid for her, so she just made my sister give her a bath and clean her mouth.

What's worse is, 6 hours later, she licked my finger and my toe when I was trying to grab her(mom wanted me to bring her to her), there weren't any cuts but now I'm freaking out, and her nose was also literally like a few inches away of mine.

I'm freaking out now and I'm super scared because I don't know if it was possible for her to get it, and I don't know if it was possible for her to transfer the disease over to me, and my parents don't care to check if she's alright or if I got rabies, and now I'm afraid that I have rabies and within 5 days I'm going to get the symptons and die a terrible death.


What I'm basically asking is; Does anybody know if it was possible for her to get Rabies from the mouse? Is it possible for her to transfer it to me 6 hours afterward by licking me/being close to my face? Should I be worried? 

I'm sorry if I seem like such an idiot, my parents never explained anything in life and seemed to make very poor parenting decisions, it seems like everyday I find out I could've been in a dangerous situation by them and had died.

They Never gave me vaccinations, never teached me anything about sex, I literally found out about why condoms existed a few months ago and I'm 17, I didn't know that hiv/aids existed until like 2 weeks ago. They are also homophobic/anti atheist and would hate me if I ever came out to them.(I'm gay and athiest)

Thanks to everyone who comments, sorry if this is all kinda written out terribly, my parents are close and I'm in a rush to get off the pc.",axienty,fear rabies ok keep thing simple afraid may story sister dog ran outside front yard pee peed found dead mouse head back inside chewed licked good minute brother caught stopped recieved shot yet month old believe might gotten parent care giving atm hope mom think idiot made give bath clean mouth worse hour later finger toe trying grab wanted bring cut freaking nose also literally like inch away mine super scared know possible get transfer disease check alright got within day going symptons die terrible death basically asking anybody afterward licking close face worried sorry seem never explained anything life seemed make poor parenting decision seems everyday find could dangerous situation died gave vaccination teached sex condom existed ago hiv aid week homophobic anti atheist would hate ever came gay athiest thanks everyone comment kinda written terribly rush pc,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"No insurance, medication almost gone, and I am having bad episodes I am not sure if aomeone may be able to give an opinion on this, but if not then at least I have typed out my toughts and fears. 

I recently moved cross-country and landed a new job. This job is a 1-year contract with no insurance, however. I have sever anxiety, depression, mild insomnia, and BPD. I know I was taking a risk moving and leaving my insurance and doctors behind. 

But now I face an issue where the only medicine I have been taking (Ativan .5mg, maybe a couple times a month, usually) is running out. I have a few pills left and they are mostly powder because they are old. (I was doing good for a year, less attacks and breakdowns)

Now I am trying to settle in and I have really bad anxiety coming in and my sleeping is starting to dwindle. I know Ativan could help me but I have just a little left.


Does anyone know if it's possible to see a doctor and request a perscription even if you don't have insurance? 

Also... what do you do when you have no support person near you? The closest one for me is 5 hours away by car. I don't have anyone and I may be freaking out like... a lot? I spent the whole night with severe nausea and pain which made sure I didn't sleep.

And here I am ranting. Sorry. I figure someone here at least gets my troubles, though.",axienty,insurance medication almost gone bad episode sure aomeone may able give opinion least typed toughts fear recently moved cross country landed new job year contract however sever anxiety depression mild insomnia bpd know taking risk moving leaving doctor behind face issue medicine ativan mg maybe couple time month usually running pill left mostly powder old good le attack breakdown trying settle really coming sleeping starting dwindle could help little anyone possible see request perscription even also support person near closest one hour away car freaking like lot spent whole night severe nausea pain made sleep ranting sorry figure someone get trouble though,0.03,Neutral
"Having a really difficult time managing my anxiety Hi everyone. This will probably be quite lengthy, so I’ll apologize in advance. I’ve been struggling for years with health related anxiety which I “managed” for a long time on my own. By manage, what I really mean is just deal and push through it. I’m at a point where it’s more than I can handle now and it’s crippling. 

My mother has had Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis for 21 years and I grew up watching her deteriorate from an independent, strong woman into someone who is now dependent on someone else for even the most basic tasks. I think this is the root of my health anxiety. 

I am terrified of getting MS. Over the last 4-5 years I’ve had varying degrees of symptoms ranging from tingling in hands and feet to constant headaches. I’ve had a number of tests done which all come back either normal, or with some other explanation. The most recent being a constant left sided headache and pain in my left eye. My primary care physician ordered an MRI based on my family history of MS which came back abnormal with some extremely small white spots which they were unable to make a diagnosis of. Their recommendation was to see a neurologist and get a lumbar puncture. This was in November...

I live in Massachusetts which makes me extremely fortunate to have access to some of the best hospitals in the country. I was able to schedule an appointment with a neuro at Mass General, currently #3 in the country for neurology. The doctor was extremely nice and listened to everything I had to say. He flat out said “I do not think you have MS”. He explained to me that MS has certain patterns that show in an MRI which mine did not show. He said he believes my headaches are being caused by a combination of tension from clenching my jaw at night, which I absolutely do, and migraines with aura, which has happened twice. I asked about the lumbar puncture and he told me if I really wanted one and if it would put my mind at ease, he would gladly order one, but he felt it would come back negative. 

I certainly do not want to put myself through that unnecessarily and I’m afraid it still wouldn’t placate me. He also completed a full neurological exam, which I passed. I left there feeling pretty relieved. That lasted for about an hour. I started thinking about what if he’s wrong?? He’s basically just assuming this is due to headaches, but he really doesn’t know for sure. 

I really don’t know what to do at this point. My anxiety is out of control and I can’t stop thinking about this. It consumes every thought of my day and it is exhausting. I hate feeling like this. I do have a NP Psych who I see every six months who is very nice and tries to prescribe medication for me, but I can never bring myself to take it. I read the side effects and they scare the crap out of me so much that I’m too scared to take them. The only thing I will take is Xanax, which usually isn’t often, but lately it’s been almost every day. 

I also see a therapist who also is very nice, but if I’m being honest, isn’t very helpful. Whether that is my own fault, I don’t know. I originally went to her because I have issues with control and wanted to try to work on that. I just don’t find it to be doing anything for me though... 

I just wish I knew how to RELAX my thoughts and stop being such a worry wart. I’m wound so tight I’m ready to snap at any given minute. I get up every day, shower, go to work and then come home and lay in bed until I fall asleep because I’m so exhausted. I don’t know if I’m exhausted because of my mental health, work hours, or if something is really physically wrong with me. 

I’m honestly not even sure what I’m looking for in writing this, maybe I just needed to vent. But if anyone can relate or offer any advice I would be open to hearing anything you have to say. 

Life is so hard...

Edit: Also posted on health anxiety",axienty,really difficult time managing anxiety hi everyone probably quite lengthy apologize advance struggling year health related managed long manage mean deal push point handle crippling mother primary progressive multiple sclerosis grew watching deteriorate independent strong woman someone dependent else even basic task think root terrified getting m last varying degree symptom ranging tingling hand foot constant headache number test done come back either normal explanation recent left sided pain eye care physician ordered mri based family history came abnormal extremely small white spot unable make diagnosis recommendation see neurologist get lumbar puncture november live massachusetts fortunate access best hospital country able schedule appointment neuro mass general currently neurology doctor nice listened everything say flat said explained certain pattern show mine belief caused combination tension clenching jaw night absolutely migraine aura happened twice asked told wanted one would put mind ease gladly order felt negative certainly want unnecessarily afraid still placate also completed full neurological exam passed feeling pretty relieved lasted hour started thinking wrong basically assuming due know sure control stop consumes every thought day exhausting hate like np psych six month try prescribe medication never bring take read side effect scare crap much scared thing xanax usually often lately almost therapist honest helpful whether fault originally went issue work find anything though wish knew relax worry wart wound tight ready snap given minute shower go home lay bed fall asleep exhausted mental something physically honestly looking writing maybe needed vent anyone relate offer advice open hearing life hard edit posted,0.02,Neutral
"How do i stop thinking everyone has good intentions? I feel like my whole life i’ve always encountered people who treat me like shit the majority of the time, but i always believe that they have good intentions and that it would be wrong of me to not forgive them. like, someone will do something awful to me and i’ll think “i’m sure they had a valid reason to do that and i’m just taking it the wrong way, they had good intentions, they didn’t mean to hurt me” or they’ll start being nice to me out of nowhere and i feel guilty i don’t accept their kindness due to their previous shitty actions towards me. does anyone know how i can stop feeling this way and reassure myself? this has always made it so hard for me to get rid of toxic people and let people walk all over me. i feel like this is a product of my anxiety but who knows honestly. ",axienty,stop thinking everyone good intention feel like whole life always encountered people treat shit majority time believe would wrong forgive someone something awful think sure valid reason taking way mean hurt start nice nowhere guilty accept kindness due previous shitty action towards anyone know feeling reassure made hard get rid toxic let walk product anxiety honestly,-0.03,Neutral
"my anxiety and hitting my head on a wall yesterday i guess i had a pretty bad breakdown after 7 panic attacks. i already went to the er but forgot to mention i had banged my head into the wall a couple of times. my question is do i need to go back? i'm now scared during an anxious and crazy state of mind i have majorly damaged my brain or caused a concussion. i'm showing no signs i've seen (nausea, disorientation, forgetting key details like date ect) but my head does slightly hurt when i touch it and i do feel sore there. i had a headache and got Tylenol for it at the hospital... but they didn't know about me banging my head into the wall. please, i just want to sleep. do i need to go back?",axienty,anxiety hitting head wall yesterday guess pretty bad breakdown panic attack already went er forgot mention banged couple time question need go back scared anxious crazy state mind majorly damaged brain caused concussion showing sign seen nausea disorientation forgetting key detail like date ect slightly hurt touch feel sore headache got tylenol hospital know banging please want sleep,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Could my suppressed emotions be causing my anxiety in this situation? I’m having a hard time expressing my feelings to someone I’m in a relationship with. I’m keeping them inside and it feels like it’s making my anxiety worse. There’s the fear of saying what I feel aloud, fear of ruining how well things are going with being too emotional/serious. But I feel like I’m going crazy keeping these feelings inside. (It’s not like it’s a new relationship, we’ve been together for nine months.) Could this be making my anxiety worse? How do I let go? I know the obvious answer would be to just tell him how I feel, but that’s easier said than done. ",axienty,could suppressed emotion causing anxiety situation hard time expressing feeling someone relationship keeping inside feel like making worse fear saying aloud ruining well thing going emotional serious crazy new together nine month let go know obvious answer would tell easier said done,-0.21,Moderately Negative
"I need help page So, like most of you, I have anxiety. I lurk here a little, but I've noticed something that could be improved. When looking at the [I need help page](https://www.reddit.com/r/Anxiety/wiki/ineedhelp) I noticed a whole bunch of phone numbers. That's great and all, but two of the things I can't handle are talking about my self and talking on the phone with strangers. I was hoping to see some website links or something that I'd find easier. Like an online chat similar to tech support or something. I'm not in need now, this is just anticipatory. If anyone knows of anything like that I know I'd appreciate it.",axienty,need help page like anxiety lurk little noticed something could improved looking whole bunch phone number great two thing handle talking self stranger hoping see website link find easier online chat similar tech support anticipatory anyone know anything appreciate,0.2,Moderately Positive
"How do you experience anxiety? Physically and emotionally. I'm wondering how anxiety manifests itself physically and/or emotionally in different people. Also, can anyone relate with my experience? Thanks for sharing. 

When I am going through an ""episode"" of anxiety, which could last a couple of weeks or months, I've noticed a pattern. Usually in the morning- shortly after waking up- I will experience a sensation of discomfort (not pain) close to my belly, and a mild shaking sensation will radiate throughout my body. No other person can see me shaking, but I feel like I am. 

This is always accompanied by negative thoughts. I am not sure which comes first - the bodily sensation of fear, or the thoughts. I tell myself that I will not accomplish my career/academic goals, or that I won't find a partner in life, or that people are judging me. It also always feels like something bad is about to happen. I can sometimes hear my heartbeat in my ears as well. It is very hard to do anything productive when I am deep in this feeling. 

I usually find relief after a couple of hours. The feeling of dread will dissipate gradually. On days like this, the evenings are relatively calm and I can think straight and in a healthier manner. But such evenings barely compensate for the suffering and dread earlier in the day. I often feel like I am coming out of the day having had the crap beaten out of me. I am always exhausted. 

I had these feelings of high anxiety despite my nightly dose of 10 mg Escitalopram (Cipralex/Lexapro). Last week my GP increased my dose to 20 mg, but 4-5 days in on this higher dose the anxiety is still there. 

Can anyone relate? Does anyone have any tips on how I can manage this- it is terrifying and it substantially hinders my productivity during the day. I appreciate you reading this. ",axienty,experience anxiety physically emotionally wondering manifest different people also anyone relate thanks sharing going episode could last couple week month noticed pattern usually morning shortly waking sensation discomfort pain close belly mild shaking radiate throughout body person see feel like always accompanied negative thought sure come first bodily fear tell accomplish career academic goal find partner life judging something bad happen sometimes hear heartbeat ear well hard anything productive deep feeling relief hour dread dissipate gradually day evening relatively calm think straight healthier manner barely compensate suffering earlier often coming crap beaten exhausted high despite nightly dose mg escitalopram cipralex lexapro gp increased higher still tip manage terrifying substantially hinders productivity appreciate reading,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I'm 29 years old, have by all accounts a great life and i can't keep feeling anxiety and having panic attacks. I'm a 29 year old man.  I've been married to an amazing supportive woman for nearly five years now.  We made a go of it with me running my own business for the last few years and it just hasn't worked financially.  So i accepted a position at a new day job and it's perfect.  Little to no stress, regular flexible hours that aren't crazy and fit around our schedule.  Salary is good, and i get to leave work at work.  I keep coming home and freaking out.  I'm downstairs right now while my wife and friends are upstairs playing D&D and my wife is DMing and playing my character because i couldn't make it over an hour without shaking and freaking out.  I've been seeing a therapist for a few years and it's helped but i keep slipping back and feel like i'm utterly failing.

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I feel like i've failed at being a business owner.  I feel like i'm failing my wife everytime she has to comfort me when i have a panic attack.  I feel like i'm failing at being a human being because i'm broken somehow.  I feel like i'm living a charade in which i pretend to be ok and healthy but i'm really not that good of an actor.  

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I know we're on our way to what we talked about things we wanted to me together but i'm not even sure what i want anymore.  I'm not suicidal but some days I wonder what it would be like to have no anxiety at all even if that meant having nothing else.  

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We've talked about having kids soon, i'm terrified of what kind of father i'll be with my anxiety.  i'm terrified of cursing a child with anxiety themselves.  This has been mostly just a rant so thank you for reading if you have.  ",axienty,year old account great life keep feeling anxiety panic attack man married amazing supportive woman nearly five made go running business last worked financially accepted position new day job perfect little stress regular flexible hour crazy fit around schedule salary good get leave work coming home freaking downstairs right wife friend upstairs playing dming character make without shaking seeing therapist helped slipping back feel like utterly failing failed owner everytime comfort human broken somehow living charade pretend ok healthy really actor know way talked thing wanted together even sure want anymore suicidal wonder would meant nothing else kid soon terrified kind father cursing child mostly rant thank reading,0.21,Moderately Positive
"How to deal with anxiety that leaves a heavy feeling in your chest constantly I have dealt with anxiety for quit some time now but the last year or so it has worsened to where I experience small panic attacks daily. Usually I’ll be doing fine just going on with my day as usual and then suddenly I fear that I cannot breath and then try to take in a deep breath but feel no matter how deep I breath in, it’s not deep enough. I know that over thinking my breathing is just making it worse but I don’t know how to not focus on it. Even when I distract myself I still feel that heaviness in my chest which makes me feel I can’t breath and that something terrible is going to happen to me. I hate feeling this way and especially when I’m around others and have to play it off like I’m fine but in reality all of these things are going through my mind. 

Also recently the last few days I will have sudden thoughts that I am not myself and I may have multiple personalities trying to take over( I watched a movie the other day where a guy had multiple personalities  so I believe this is where it’s coming from) I know it’s ridiculous but it terrifies me and sends me into a panic immediately even though I am aware that there’s nothing wrong it’s like I’m doing this to myself and I just don’t know how to stop. 

Tl;dr : constantly feeling unable to breath also experiencing intrusive thoughts that I have multiple personalities. ",axienty,deal anxiety leaf heavy feeling chest constantly dealt quit time last year worsened experience small panic attack daily usually fine going day usual suddenly fear cannot breath try take deep feel matter enough know thinking breathing making worse focus even distract still heaviness make something terrible happen hate way especially around others play like reality thing mind also recently sudden thought may multiple personality trying watched movie guy believe coming ridiculous terrifies sends immediately though aware nothing wrong stop tl dr unable experiencing intrusive,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Deadly flu!?? So, a ""deadly Australian flu"" is coming to the UK (where I live) and I'm a absolutely terrified. My immune system isn't the best because I didn't leave my house very often for a few years and I'm terrified of catching it. The news is full of its usual fear mongering and unfortunately I can't help but be super anxious... ",axienty,deadly flu australian coming uk live absolutely terrified immune system best leave house often year catching news full usual fear mongering unfortunately help super anxious,0.13,Moderately Positive
"I hate myself for the first time in a month i went to sleep on a normal time and cleaned my room, i forced myself to go out to make friends next night and this Portuguese kid who wouldnt shut up made me stay up till 8 am, i didnt have the balls to tell him to be quiet, now i cant sleep and i work tomorrow in two hours, i probably wont make it

i had sleep medication but when i moved to the uk i lost my health insurance, and my former doctor quit primary care so i switched doctors and they took away my sleeping meds and adderall because i tested positive for weed which i rarely smoke because if i drink im a mess.

i cant function, i hate looking at myself in the mirror, just did for the first time in a week and realize im going bald, my toilet water wont shut off because i clogged it, i have no friends im half way across the world from anyone i know, which i like but its nice like this that make me wanna fucking off myself, afforded all this privilege and fumbled it greatly.",axienty,hate first time month went sleep normal cleaned room forced go make friend next night portuguese kid wouldnt shut made stay till didnt ball tell quiet cant work tomorrow two hour probably wont medication moved uk lost health insurance former doctor quit primary care switched took away sleeping med adderall tested positive weed rarely smoke drink im mess function looking mirror week realize going bald toilet water clogged half way across world anyone know like nice wanna fucking afforded privilege fumbled greatly,0.04,Neutral
"Visiting dying family members? Hey all, I'm sorry to be so morbid right off the bat. I have a great aunt that I've always been in good touch with my whole life, I love her. And she has lived a very long life, into her nineties. The past week, she was in the hospital with kidney failure. And then her body decided that it didn't want to eat anymore. She is dying, bluntly. My dad is going to visit her tomorrow, and I have class. I'm sure I could blow off if I really wanted to, but I don't think that I could handle it. My dad said he'll probably break down. If that happened to him then I can't imagine what I'll do. The moment I heard that she was saying her goodbyes, I barely made it back to my dorm before breaking down and crying. I couldn't handle going to see her. I couldn't put on a brave face. I feel like 20 is too young to be so close to death. And I'm not ready for it. My dad said it's my choice, but I don't want to go. Is that fucked up? I really just probably wouldn't even be able to set foot in the room.",axienty,visiting dying family member hey sorry morbid right bat great aunt always good touch whole life love lived long ninety past week hospital kidney failure body decided want eat anymore bluntly dad going visit tomorrow class sure could blow really wanted think handle said probably break happened imagine moment heard saying goodbye barely made back dorm breaking cry see put brave face feel like young close death ready choice go fucked even able set foot room,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Reviewing conversations over and over in my head... I’m an introverted person, and I have some social anxiety. When I am done socializing my brain wants to go through every interaction and analyze how the person said something, how I responded, how I should or shouldn’t respond to someone in the future, etc. It is exhausting. I have such a hard time sleeping or relaxing after a party or group social setting because of this. Consequently, it makes me feel even less inclined to go to social events, even though, I do have a good time once I get settled at the event. Does anyone else experience this? Do you have any tips on allowing yourself to experience something without analyzing every detail? ",axienty,reviewing conversation head introverted person social anxiety done socializing brain want go every interaction analyze said something responded respond someone future etc exhausting hard time sleeping relaxing party group setting consequently make feel even le inclined event though good get settled anyone else experience tip allowing without analyzing detail,0.01,Neutral
"Skiing anxiety. Any tips? I love to ski. And I'm a natural (or so I've been told.)

I've mastered techniques it takes some people months to get the hang of and I'm now starting intermediate slopes. I'm good at them, I can feel it. And for someone who is really only a beginner, I apparently ""*look* like a pro!""

The above isn't me being boastful. It's something I'm ashamed of. I've got all this potential ...and yet I'm underachieving. My anxiety keeps kicking my ass and wasting what I ought to be great at. I'll be a short way down, I'll look at the steep steep slope and suddenly my stomach is in my throat, my eyes are watering, I'm too hot, my neck warmer is too tight, I can't breathe, I can't move, my goggles are steaming up and I can't even see... It's Hell. And the worst part? I start crying. And not just weeping either: big ugly babyish blubbery sobs and gasps with swollen eyelids and a red flushed face. It's so embarrassing. I apologize a lot when I panic because my parents, friends, and friends' parents were always super impatient with my panicking as a child. As an adult, I'm terrified of the people around me losing patience with me as well. And when people yell or scold me, my panicking intensifies. I can't cope at all.

And then I try to get over it. I tell myself I'll just take it slow. 

And taking it slow means I have less control.

So I fall.

Yesterday, I fell on every slope. So I went to the green slopes to calm down and remember my techniques. I was so rattled that I fell there too. My tailbone and spine hurt, my arms are a mess, my legs are spotted with bruises. I'm so sore that I've chosen to take today off. I feel like such a loser. I am panicking in the lead up to pushing off the slope and then I'm panicking even more *while* hurtling down the slope. That's actually pretty dangerous because suddenly I can't remember what I'm meant to do.

Then there's my husband. He's a darling. He's handsome, athletic, strong, and insanely smart. He began skiing at age 2 and now at 27 years old he is an almost Olympic-level skier. He wants me to ski with him. He says I have lots of potential and believes we will one day be skiing black slopes together. Until just recently, he was very supportive and patient with my panicking. But yesterday, when I had the million-and-first meltdown on a slope he actually lost his temper. He didn't yell, not really, he just told me how pissed off he was and how he couldn't believe this kept happening.

""You were skiing fine. Then you fell. Again! What the hell?""

Me: ""I know. I panicked. I started going really fast and then I couldn't think and I...""

Him: ""Exactly. You panicked. You're not learning anything. I can't teach you anything.""

Me: ""I'm sorry.""

Him: ""You should be *past* this! We should've been on the advanced track *days* ago!""

Me: ""...""

Him: ""You skied well for all of five minutes today. *Five minutes!*""

Me: ""...""

Him: ""You've got the skill. You've got the techniques. You just won't use them. Now we're stuck up here. We've got a long walk back. I'd ski back with you but I know you're just going to bloody panic again. So we're walking now.""

Me: ""C-couldn't we get a ride? Snow patrol? Or a shuttle?""

Him: ""Are you fucking kidding?! All the way out here? I'm not paying for that!""

Me: ""Okay. I'm sorry.""

Him: ""STOP FUCKING APOLOGIZING!""

The thing I was most afraid of: him losing his temper at me because of my stupid panic attacks, finally happened. I'm mortified.

He left to go skiing this morning. He wanted me to come but I refused. I am very sore after yesterday and frankly, I don't want to ski with someone who talks to me like that. 

Sorry this is so long. I've decided to cut it a little short. Other things were said yesterday too. Things that stung a lot. 

Someone help?",axienty,skiing anxiety tip love ski natural told mastered technique take people month get hang starting intermediate slope good feel someone really beginner apparently look like pro boastful something ashamed got potential yet underachieving keep kicking as wasting ought great short way steep suddenly stomach throat eye watering hot neck warmer tight breathe move goggles steaming even see hell worst part start cry weeping either big ugly babyish blubbery sob gasp swollen eyelid red flushed face embarrassing apologize lot panic parent friend always super impatient panicking child adult terrified around losing patience well yell scold intensifies cope try tell slow taking mean le control fall yesterday fell every went green calm remember rattled tailbone spine hurt arm mess leg spotted bruise sore chosen today loser lead pushing hurtling actually pretty dangerous meant husband darling handsome athletic strong insanely smart began age year old almost olympic level skier want say belief one day black together recently supportive patient million first meltdown lost temper pissed believe kept happening fine know panicked started going fast think exactly learning anything teach sorry past advanced track ago skied five minute skill use stuck long walk back bloody walking ride snow patrol shuttle fucking kidding paying okay stop apologizing thing afraid stupid attack finally happened mortified left go morning wanted come refused frankly talk decided cut little said stung help,-0.01,Neutral
"For once, my fight or flight response worked the way it's supposed to. I thought I'd share this here:

I was riding my bike home tonight, when two guys tried to grab me in the middle of the street. Not sure if they wanted to mug me or steal my shitty bike, but my fight or flight response kicked in, time slowed down (for real!) and I managed to fend them off, keep my balance and ninja my way out of the situation.

I'm still a liittle shook up, but it's nice to know that this thing is not only good for giving me panic attacks etc... It can actually be useful once in a while!",axienty,fight flight response worked way supposed thought share riding bike home tonight two guy tried grab middle street sure wanted mug steal shitty kicked time slowed real managed fend keep balance ninja situation still liittle shook nice know thing good giving panic attack etc actually useful,0.38,Moderately Positive
"Recently my anxiety has gotten really bad, possibly the worse it has ever been and I’ve been experiencing panic attacks, but I still can’t justify taking my medication because I feel like I deserve to suffer. I also struggle with the feeling like I’m making all this up and none of my problems exist which I know rationally cannot be true when I’ve struggled with this for most my life, however I still can’t shift it. I don’t know if this is part of my anxiety making me feel like this or whether it is another thing I’ve made myself believe. I guess I’m just looking for some advice and reassurance. I’m just really tired of feeling this way and constantly being in turmoil with my mind.",axienty,recently anxiety gotten really bad possibly worse ever experiencing panic attack still justify taking medication feel like deserve suffer also struggle feeling making none problem exist know rationally cannot true struggled life however shift part whether another thing made believe guess looking advice reassurance tired way constantly turmoil mind,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety, Insomnia and Sleep Paralysis Recently, my sleep schedule has been the worst it has been for years. I've previously struggled with insomnia before, but never to this degree. I'm 18 and I feel like my life has changed so much in the past 6 months with starting university and such, and all of these changes have now just caught up with me and it keeps me up at night (alongside all of the general things I over-think at night anyway).

I've never frequently suffered from sleep paralysis, I used to get it very occasionally when I was feeling extremely anxious) but recently I've been getting it almost every night for the past month. I also don't know its link to anxiety, and was wondering if anyone else experienced the same thing when they're particularly anxious. It ranges from auditory hallucinations to seeing people standing at the side of my bed or in the corner of my room, and I feel like if I didn't have my boyfriend with me I would actually go insane. 

Does anyone else suffer from sleep paralysis as a by-product of feeling particularly anxious, and if so, how would you suggest I get rid of it, or at least lessen the frequency of it occurring?",axienty,anxiety insomnia sleep paralysis recently schedule worst year previously struggled never degree feel like life changed much past month starting university change caught keep night alongside general thing think anyway frequently suffered used get occasionally feeling extremely anxious getting almost every also know link wondering anyone else experienced particularly range auditory hallucination seeing people standing side bed corner room boyfriend would actually go insane suffer product suggest rid least lessen frequency occurring,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Getting A Job... I'm not good at dealing with people, especially in a situation where I know I'm at a disadvantage (job training). I've been wanting to get a job to pay for gas and buy myself cool things I really want. I'm currently a junior in high school and my parents want me to get a job so I can get out of the house more. I don't know where to go, what to do, where to apply that won't make me feel like I'm dying of a nervous breakdown and I need help. Where did you all get your first jobs? Any suggestions for calm, friendly environments that might make me feel a little more comfortable?",axienty,getting job good dealing people especially situation know disadvantage training wanting get pay gas buy cool thing really want currently junior high school parent house go apply make feel like dying nervous breakdown need help first suggestion calm friendly environment might little comfortable,0.23,Moderately Positive
"Guilt and anxiety are making me avoid applying to jobs Basically I've suffered with anxiety my entire life. I remember lying awake all night as a 6 year old kid worrying about my parents getting old and how to make sure I absolutely don't miss any precious moments with them or my sisters.

I'm 25 years old now, a doctor, and I can not apply to jobs. I worry that moving abroad means that I won't be close to my family anymore and that by leaving, there will be no one to keep a close eye on things and to make sure everyone is okay. It's making me miserable because for me to further my career, I have to apply for jobs abroad. I do not have the choice to stay in the same country anyway. But I've been avoiding even applying for this reason.

I was a straight A student my whole life. My seniors and supervisors only have good things to say about me and I've always been a really smart kid. It's been months since I voluntarily left the house, I avoid people at all costs. I avoid weddings, hanging out with friends from college and even doing things that make me happy. 

I also feel guilty about things like my CV for example. I always think I'm making myself sound better than I actually am. I want to even remove entire sections because I feel like it makes me look like I worked harder than I did. For example, I have a 6 month period of work where I wasn't getting paid, and the hours were very flexible. I was allowed to do the work from home (it was mostly reading and reviewing research papers) and I was even allowed to travel for exams and stuff like that as long as I got the work done. The thing is, even though it was 6 months, I feel like I shouldn't write that down because for a few months all I did was learn more about the topic I was researching to make sure I understood it very well. In my head, I don't deserve acknowledgement for that. 

This is not the only instance of course, it's just an example. If any of my friends or colleagues asked me if that kind of work deserved to be on their CV I'd say YES OF COURSE. It's just that I don't seem to think that I deserve to be happy or not stressed while also doing something I love. 

Anyway since my last job at a hospital I've been focusing on research. I'm very good at what I do and none of this has ever affected my work. I'm just tired of feeling this way you know? I want to believe in myself as much as I believe in everyone else without feeling like I've been lying about how much work I do or feeling like doing what I love will somehow hurt my family.",axienty,guilt anxiety making avoid applying job basically suffered entire life remember lying awake night year old kid worrying parent getting make sure absolutely miss precious moment sister doctor apply worry moving abroad mean close family anymore leaving one keep eye thing everyone okay miserable career choice stay country anyway avoiding even reason straight student whole senior supervisor good say always really smart month since voluntarily left house people cost wedding hanging friend college happy also feel guilty like cv example think sound better actually want remove section look worked harder period work paid hour flexible allowed home mostly reading reviewing research paper travel exam stuff long got done though write learn topic researching understood well head deserve acknowledgement instance course colleague asked kind deserved yes seem stressed something love last hospital focusing none ever affected tired feeling way know believe much else without somehow hurt,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Physical Anxiety To start out simply, I’m 22 and I’ve suffered anxiety for as long as I can remember. It started as separation anxiety with certain family members, as long as one of them was around I’d be fine; never having it addressed opened the gate to social anxiety once I started school. I couldn’t bare to be away from my mom as it was, throw me into a room with a dozen other children - which at this point in my life I’d never interacted with other children my age - who were loud and rowdy. Quickly, the consistent stress of being away from home every day made me an easy target on the school yard, and I was bullied as a result (stress = crying). 

Anxiety has plagued me for as long as I can remember, and it has always been mental - like anxiety is. Fast forward a dozen years and by the time I’m 20 I’m moving out to go to college: own apartment with my bf at the time, first time living on my own, moved to a whole new city. It was fantastic and for a while I really started to climb up, especially when dealing with the social anxiety that blocked me from forming friendships for the majority of my life. Forward a bit more, I’ve moved out of that place and am living with a new relationship — I nearly lost everything at one point and it started this whole new experience with my anxiety. 

I started waking up out of a dead sleep in the mornings, sweaty and panicked, usually having to run to the bathroom physically sick with how scared and anxious I was about EVERYTHING. It felt like my mind started to overload trying to manage all the events, stressful and not, and as a result my subconscious has crammed it all into physical reactions now. 

There’s times I’ll go weeks, months almost without an episode and then it’ll start, usually I can tell when it’s starting to get bad again because I’ll start waking up middle of the night,  not so much morning, clammy and heart racing until eventually I’m waking up in the mornings in full panic. 

It’s cost me jobs = financial security and eating, which I’m sick of.

I’m finally about to reach passed the three month probation with my current job, securing my position with them. But I can feel it, deep unsettling in my stomach when I go to bed and when I wake up. 

I’ve tried everything: meditation (which actually sends me into anxiety attacks), therapy, counselling, exercise and whatever other neurotypical classics even... I even started medicating myself in order to try regaining balance of my life. Barely there. 

I don’t know what kind of response I’m looking for, it doesn’t matter: vent back, relate, support, share.",axienty,physical anxiety start simply suffered long remember started separation certain family member one around fine never addressed opened gate social school bare away mom throw room dozen child point life interacted age loud rowdy quickly consistent stress home every day made easy target yard bullied result cry plagued always mental like fast forward year time moving go college apartment bf first living moved whole new city fantastic really climb especially dealing blocked forming friendship majority bit place relationship nearly lost everything experience waking dead sleep morning sweaty panicked usually run bathroom physically sick scared anxious felt mind overload trying manage event stressful subconscious crammed reaction week month almost without episode tell starting get bad middle night much clammy heart racing eventually full panic cost job financial security eating finally reach passed three probation current securing position feel deep unsettling stomach bed wake tried meditation actually sends attack therapy counselling exercise whatever neurotypical classic even medicating order try regaining balance barely know kind response looking matter vent back relate support share,0.04,Neutral
"Permanence of the Past Hi everyone. I have a serious anxiety problem that is getting worse every day, and nothing has helped. My loved ones have given me advice that I immediately discredit in my mind due to my horrible patterns of logic that caused this in the first place. Maybe someone here can help.

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It was triggered today by a bad evaluation at work. It was triggered yesterday by a reminder that I didn't get into a certain college when I was younger. The day before that, from getting pulled over and getting a warning for speeding. Every day it's something new, ranging from a blemish on my professional record to something strange I said in high school. But to me, every mistake or criticism big or small is a stain on my life. I could say it's anxiety about the past, but for me there's no different between time periods. If I make a mistake, it's permanent. I can move on or fix it, but nothing can change the fact that I made the mistake. Every day I get farther away from perfection and satisfaction with the course of my life. I may be improving and I may be a different person than I once was, but there was still a point where I wasn't good enough. Nothing changes that, not even moving on.

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I've heard every piece of advice and logic about this. ""Move on."" ""The past is in the past."" ""That doesn't matter anymore."" But my mind doesn't work like that. I could compare the way I see life events to a bunch of scars: The injuries may have healed, but they still left something permanent. Nothing changes the fact that something happened, even the outcome.

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Things I see or that happen to me just solidify this part of me that thinks everything is permanent. Like the other day in a conversation, my mom was laughing with my wife about something gross I did as a kid. I'm a different person now, but I still did that thing and she still remembers it. In the news, I see every politician and celebrity have their entire pasts dug up. Everything is permanent, and no amount of moving on or bettering myself changes anything that has already happened.

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So what do I do? It's at a point now where bringing up any part of my past, even completely normal parts, brings on a strong panic attack. That bad evaluation today makes me want to quit my job or kill myself, and it's not the first time I have seriously felt either of those from documented criticism. What do I do? How do I live with myself? And don't tell me to just move on. I know I need to move on, but my mind and anxiety won't let me.",axienty,permanence past hi everyone serious anxiety problem getting worse every day nothing helped loved one given advice immediately discredit mind due horrible pattern logic caused first place maybe someone help triggered today bad evaluation work yesterday reminder get certain college younger pulled warning speeding something new ranging blemish professional record strange said high school mistake criticism big small stain life could say different time period make permanent move fix change fact made farther away perfection satisfaction course may improving person still point good enough even moving heard piece matter anymore like compare way see event bunch scar injury healed left happened outcome thing happen solidify part think everything conversation mom laughing wife gross kid remembers news politician celebrity entire dug amount bettering anything already bringing completely normal brings strong panic attack want quit job kill seriously felt either documented live tell know need let,-0.02,Neutral
"I don't know if I can do it. Life is falling apart real hard. House is in foreclosure, have no water, no money. No friends, no family. Just my wife.

I know I shouldn't drink but I have a problem, the problem made me want to escape this weekend and I binged hard again. The alcohol didn't even make me feel better, I ended up drunk and having a panic attack, and that panic hasn't gone away in two days. One of my longest straight attacks and it feels like constant torture.

Now I'm facing the consequences of my poor choices, overwhelming anxiety and fucked up brain. I can't stop thinking about what's going to happen when we're evicted, no money, no credit and no support in this town.

I'm so very tired of myself. I'm so very tired of being me.

I have to sneak over to a construction site just to fill water barrels so we can flush the toilet. That alone sets my anxiety off on a good day, right now it's going to be unbearable. 

How did I let things get this bad. Lots of people have lost family and don't fall apart this bad. Why is my anxiety so bad sometimes that I don't want to live.",axienty,know life falling apart real hard house foreclosure water money friend family wife drink problem made want escape weekend binged alcohol even make feel better ended drunk panic attack gone away two day one longest straight like constant torture facing consequence poor choice overwhelming anxiety fucked brain stop thinking going happen evicted credit support town tired sneak construction site fill barrel flush toilet alone set good right unbearable let thing get bad lot people lost fall sometimes live,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"About to get on a flight but I don’t think I can do it. I can’t handle the anxiety anymore, I’ve had it every second of every moment of what was supposed to be a relaxing vacation. Since I’m traveling, my body has been on high alert. 

I don’t have ANY medication or anything and am panicking about getting on the 3 hour flight from Austin to California. Is there anything I can get at the airport or do to possible make this any better? ",axienty,get flight think handle anxiety anymore every second moment supposed relaxing vacation since traveling body high alert medication anything panicking getting hour austin california airport possible make better,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Going to an unfamiliar place with an unfamiliar environment. Hello, so I am getting interested in Warhammer 40k. I have asked a person who runs a store in my area if he would mind showing me around and teaching me some things, like where to start. That will happen tomorrow and I feel really really scared. I feel like the back of my throat is blocked and my hands have a wierd pain inside them and my legs feel wierd. I don't know what to do. If you know any methods to help me overcome this fear then, please, anything will help at this point. Thank you so much for reading if you got to this point!",axienty,going unfamiliar place environment hello getting interested warhammer asked person run store area would mind showing around teaching thing like start happen tomorrow feel really scared back throat blocked hand wierd pain inside leg know method help overcome fear please anything point thank much reading got,0.16,Moderately Positive
"If anxiety/self doubt are holding you back from pursuing a goal I obsess relentlessly about my job.  My anxiety gives me tremendous self-doubt.  Recently, a new job opportunity has come up at work and my boss wants me to take it.  This is a great opportunity and I'm objectively qualified...

Regardless, this has caused me so many panic attacks.  I've considered turning this down, and ""playing it safe"".  I just know that right now I need to find a way to believe in myself.

[This Article](https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/201505/anxiety-and-self-doubt-perfect-recipe-underachievement) is giving me the courage to push forward.  If anyone else out there is in a similar boat, I hope it helps you as well.",axienty,anxiety self doubt holding back pursuing goal ob relentlessly job give tremendous recently new opportunity come work bos want take great objectively qualified regardless caused many panic attack considered turning playing safe know right need find way believe article giving courage push forward anyone else similar boat hope help well,0.28,Moderately Positive
"Scared of Visa Interview Tomorrow, Anxiety. Help!! I am applying for a work visa at the border tomorrow, there is an interview, I am very stressed and anxious right now. Can anyone suggest ways I can mentally control the stress! ",axienty,scared visa interview tomorrow anxiety help applying work border stressed anxious right anyone suggest way mentally control stress,-0.02,Neutral
"I never stopped feeling anxious around my boyfriend We broke up over two month ago after dating for eight months and after processing some stuff, i’ve realized that I always felt really anxious being with him. Whenever I would drive down to see him (it was never the other way around), it would take me hours of being around him each time to not feel so anxious.

The anxiousness resulted in me being too afraid to initiate anything intimate. He almost always had to be the one to take my hand or kiss me. The thing was, I really wanted to, but I was scared to do it because I wasn’t sure if he wanted me to or not. I believed that if he didn’t do it himself then he didn’t want me to do it to him, if that makes sense? And I knew that was wrong (as he himself told me)  but when the time came to do it, I never could shake the feeling.

I guess I just wanted to hear your thoughts about it. Is that normal for people with anxiety disorders? ",axienty,never stopped feeling anxious around boyfriend broke two month ago dating eight processing stuff realized always felt really whenever would drive see way take hour time feel anxiousness resulted afraid initiate anything intimate almost one hand kiss thing wanted scared sure believed want make sense knew wrong told came could shake guess hear thought normal people anxiety disorder,-0.04,Neutral
"4-5 Months of brain fog? help me I believe I am suffering from Depersonalization or Derealization or brain fog (maybe all the same?), but I'm not 100% sure. This started about 4-5 months ago and is still affecting me. (I am 17 and a senior in highschool)


Symptoms:

-Bad memory. I have trouble remembering things even if it happened yesterday or even a couple of hours ago. I have to think really hard to remember. I went to ""Camp Flog Gnaw 2017"" which is a music festival.  It seemed like it went by like a blur and I can only remember random things, things I recorded, or really memorable things such as losing my phone in the crowd or something crazy happening.

-Hard time focusing. I zone out VERY EASILY when I'm in school. It has gotten so bad that it is affecting my grades. I can't even read a paragraph of a book and remember what I read, which really hurts my scores on tests. I just absolutely cannot focus on things that don't interest me like I used to be able to.

-Overthinking. I overthink thinks a lot and always think of the worst possible outcome.


The start (I believe):

I am a hypochondriac and have bad anxiety when it comes to my health. I had suffered from headaches and other symptoms that lasted 4-5 months that had me in fear that I had cancer. This really messed me up and made me lose sleep in fear. I believe this was the cause of this. The headaches and symptoms are gone now and my fear of a medical condition has gone down, but I still am suffering from the symptoms that came with this (seeing life as a blur).


Possible causes:

-Anxiety/Hypochondria <Most Likely

-Social Isolation. I have friends online that I talk with and occasionally play video games with almost everyday, but the only time I interact with people in real life is with my friends at school. The only time I go out is to go to school or on an occasion.

-Lack of sleep. I get really distracted on my phone or excited about something which makes me wide awake.

-Loneliness. I haven't dated in years and I do want to, but I have had the option to with many girls, but I just don't feel interested.


Can anyone help figure out what I am suffering from and give me advice on how to cure it?",axienty,month brain fog help believe suffering depersonalization derealization maybe sure started ago still affecting senior highschool symptom bad memory trouble remembering thing even happened yesterday couple hour think really hard remember went camp flog gnaw music festival seemed like blur random recorded memorable losing phone crowd something crazy happening time focusing zone easily school gotten grade read paragraph book hurt score test absolutely cannot focus interest used able overthinking overthink lot always worst possible outcome start hypochondriac anxiety come health suffered headache lasted fear cancer messed made lose sleep cause gone medical condition came seeing life hypochondria likely social isolation friend online talk occasionally play video game almost everyday interact people real go occasion lack get distracted excited make wide awake loneliness dated year want option many girl feel interested anyone figure give advice cure,-0.02,Neutral
"So I may have been REALLY rude to a co-worker without realizing it and some advice would be appreciated I work at a car dealership where the median age is probably 65. I’m the receptionist. Most of the guys here are probably the nicest and funniest people I’ve ever worked with (and those are just the salesmen!) 

Tonight, I was staying late waiting for my Lyft (my car got in an accident) and was kinda coming down a little bit of a scare (couldn’t get a Lyft. called partner to try and figure it out. while on phone caught Lyft). While I was tracking to see where my driver was, my favorite salesman, Bob, walked over to my desk with a HUGE cardboard box. 

“Hey, loveandpoprocks, do you want any of these?” 

And there, dear Reader, I saw the one thing I love the most. My drug of choice. My kryptonite. My Achilles’s Heel. 

3 boxes of sweet, sweet Samoas. That coconutty, chocolatey, caramely goodness. 

An animal instinct came over me. Before I knew what was happening, I had all 3 in my arms. 

“Oh, you like those?” He asked.

“They’re the BEST!” I exclaimed. 

“Well, in that case I want one back.”

“Omg. Of course, here you go!” 

“Nah, take it. Here’s the box!”

Then my Lyft came and before you know it. There I am sitting with all of his Samoas. 

YOU GUYS. I FEEL AWFUL.

WHY DID I HAVE TO TAKE ALL 3?!? I FEEL LIKE SUCH A GREEDY GOOSE. ONE BOX MAYBE BUT 3?!? COME ON THIS ISN’T r/fatpeoplestories! IM NOT A HAMPLANET. 

So, what do I do here? Do I give all the cookies back to him? Or do I keep them? Or do I get rid of all them to other people so they’re not my “anxiety cookies”?!

",axienty,may really rude co worker without realizing advice would appreciated work car dealership median age probably receptionist guy nicest funniest people ever worked salesman tonight staying late waiting lyft got accident kinda coming little bit scare get called partner try figure phone caught tracking see driver favorite bob walked desk huge cardboard box hey loveandpoprocks want dear reader saw one thing love drug choice kryptonite achilles heel sweet samoa coconutty chocolatey caramely goodness animal instinct came knew happening arm oh like asked best exclaimed well case back omg course go nah take know sitting feel awful greedy goose maybe come fatpeoplestories im hamplanet give cooky keep rid anxiety,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Having to wear glasses is making me panic. Last night I had some drinks with my best friend and when we crashed, I drunkenly took out my contacts and threw them in the trash instead of in the proper case. Now I am forced to wear my glasses. The thing is, I have confidence issues exaserbated (sp?) by my anxiety. I feel super ugly and homely in my glasses but have no choice but to wear them since I am practically blind. I ordered new contacts but they won't be here until january 29th! I am panicking and cant calm down. I have to go to new york in a week to visit my friend and go out and the thought of doing that in my glasses makes me want to die. And my new classes start tomorrow. I can't seem to calm myself down and I don't know what to do ",axienty,wear glass making panic last night drink best friend crashed drunkenly took contact threw trash instead proper case forced thing confidence issue exaserbated sp anxiety feel super ugly homely choice since practically blind ordered new january th panicking cant calm go york week visit thought make want die class start tomorrow seem know,0.03,Neutral
"How to deal with brothers girlfriend I'm 16 yr female and my brother has had a girlfriend for 6 months now and I've been trying to deal with it and at first it was okay but I just can't anymore I feel so stressed and uncomfortable in my own home all the time and she stays over most nights. They are quite loud and I can hear them from my room which is at times disturbing and others very annoying, I just haven't been able to sleep lately and I don't know who to talk to. I don't want to come off as disruptive to the family but I just wish I could move out. They're all over eachother 24/7 tbh I don't really want to see that. I honestly can't stand them being so loved up anymore, I never want a boyfriend in the future if it makes me act like that. I just miss the times when my home felt like my home.",axienty,deal brother girlfriend yr female month trying first okay anymore feel stressed uncomfortable home time stay night quite loud hear room disturbing others annoying able sleep lately know talk want come disruptive family wish could move eachother tbh really see honestly stand loved never boyfriend future make act like miss felt,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Panic attack (PMDD). Need advice. Hey all, I've been suspecting that I have PMDD for a while now (not been diagnosed), I've been talking to my counselor about it some. I have told him that the smallest things make my hands shake and I get super dizzy and anxious (like even before a fight with my boyfriend begins over text / before an exam), the week before my period. The anxiety had been pretty chronic over the past two months, and got a lot worse the week before my period, and then would get loads better after the first day of my period. Just like that. Also over the past few years, I've had a lot of trouble controlling my rage and my tears, and tended to irrationally explode a lot, but managed to improve that over many months with meditation and exercise.

I assumed it would help my anxiety as well, so I restarted meditation and cut down on caffeine, and my mood did improve a lot. Most of last week went well. Until it didn't. The smallest incident made me really upset two nights ago, but I don't even think it was the emotion as much as the bodily change, where my heart rate suddenly shot through the roof, and my whole body began shaking violently. No amount of deep breaths could stop it. This had only happened to me twice before, before exams (I'm in medical school). But this time it was way worse. It lasted around 30 minutes, after which I was just exhausted and confused and mad at myself for losing it (I was on the phone with my boyfriend and started crying hysterically even though he hadn't done anything wrong). In the past my emotions has caused us to argue because no matter how much I meditate or take deep breaths I just can't control it. All this time I thought it was in my head but after that crazy panic attack, I'm not sure any amount of lifestyle change can fix this.

The birth control that my school clinic suggested, Yaz, had extremely terrible reviews on reddit (deep vein thromboses, breathlessness etc), and I admit I am a bit unsure of starting on an SSRI. Should I go to Planned Parenthood to ask about more options? I'm not sure what to do at this point. I would be grateful for any advice right now!",axienty,panic attack pmdd need advice hey suspecting diagnosed talking counselor told smallest thing make hand shake get super dizzy anxious like even fight boyfriend begin text exam week period anxiety pretty chronic past two month got lot worse would load better first day also year trouble controlling rage tear tended irrationally explode managed improve many meditation exercise assumed help well restarted cut caffeine mood last went incident made really upset night ago think emotion much bodily change heart rate suddenly shot roof whole body began shaking violently amount deep breath could stop happened twice medical school time way lasted around minute exhausted confused mad losing phone started cry hysterically though done anything wrong caused u argue matter meditate take control thought head crazy sure lifestyle fix birth clinic suggested yaz extremely terrible review reddit vein thromboses breathlessness etc admit bit unsure starting ssri go planned parenthood ask option point grateful right,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"I think i’m being gaslighted I’ve been thinking about this group of people i hangout with for awhile now. One goal i had for myself is to distance myself from negativity and not partake in it. However, sometimes i can be blunt without meaning to be. My humor is sometimes sarcastic which also makes it worse. 

This group for the the most part don’t care much about me.
Which isn’t that important, but lately its been more verbally apparent. To the point where it’s actually uncomfortable. I never had a chance coming into the group, they dismissed me before i even actually spoke to them. They treated me and others like a disposable rag.
Then they try to make me feel like i’m just the one making all of this up.",axienty,think gaslighted thinking group people hangout awhile one goal distance negativity partake however sometimes blunt without meaning humor sarcastic also make worse part care much important lately verbally apparent point actually uncomfortable never chance coming dismissed even spoke treated others like disposable rag try feel making,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"does anyone have experience working with horses to reduce anxiety? I've come across a facebook event for a session with horses as a way to relax, improve focus and leadership.   
  
I used to ride horses when I was younger and still really love horses and miss being around them.  
  
This event/session is kind of pricey, and I'm really tempted to do it, and I'm curious if anyone here has used horses as a way to reduce anxiety?  
  
How was your experience? What did you do with the horses and for how long?  

(This session is supposed to be sort of a promo for a program they offer.)",axienty,anyone experience working horse reduce anxiety come across facebook event session way relax improve focus leadership used ride younger still really love miss around kind pricey tempted curious long supposed sort promo program offer,0.19,Moderately Positive
"Advice for confidence around friends? I have decently bad social anxiety (sweating/stuttering a lot) and I’m also generally not that popular. I have a couple friends, and idk but I feel like it would help me a lot to be in social settings with people I feel comfortable with. However, I can never build up the confidence to even consider asking anyone stuff like this. Any advice?",axienty,advice confidence around friend decently bad social anxiety sweating stuttering lot also generally popular couple idk feel like would help setting people comfortable however never build even consider asking anyone stuff,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Not sure what this falls under or what I'm really dealing with I'm Jake, 17 and graduating from high school in a few months. I've had a pretty average high-school experience; some dating, some drugs and parties, judt general things I guess. 

The main source of (what I believe is, at least) my anxiety is from romantic relationships. As much as I care for, love, and enjoy being with my significant other, I always have had horrible trust issues. Not debilitating, but small petty things. 

An example would be  her going and hanging out with her group of friends, mix of guys and girls from our grade. As hard as I try and I can't give a reason as to why her doing that upsets me. I know it shouldn't and I have no reason to be upset by it but it still rubs me the wrong way and it puts me in a noticeably worse mood. 

There's also a general anxiety around her that revolves around other guys. These could be people she talks to or snapchat or whatever, or even just random guys who like her pictures on Instagram. I know she loves me and isn't going to go and cheat, but regardless of that it still just puts me in a shitty mood seeing her talk to other guys or whatever. 

Not sure if this is even the correct way to post here, so if this post gets taken down I'll understand it. ",axienty,sure fall really dealing jake graduating high school month pretty average experience dating drug party judt general thing guess main source believe least anxiety romantic relationship much care love enjoy significant always horrible trust issue debilitating small petty example would going hanging group friend mix guy girl grade hard try give reason upset know still rub wrong way put noticeably worse mood also around revolves could people talk snapchat whatever even random like picture instagram go cheat regardless shitty seeing correct post get taken understand,-0.03,Neutral
"Help my day has been turned upside down My ex that I've dated for 6 years called me today to exchange our stuff because he is moving away. 
I've been working hard on eating right and excersising for two weeks and my anxiety has greatly diminished. 
Just the thought of seeing him is putting me in such a frantic state and I don't feel like I can do anything including seeing him. My brain is having so many rushing thoughts and I feel sick",axienty,help day turned upside ex dated year called today exchange stuff moving away working hard eating right excersising two week anxiety greatly diminished thought seeing putting frantic state feel like anything including brain many rushing sick,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else experience episodes of extreme anxiety every few weeks? [xpost from r/mentalhealth] In the recent years , I've become fairly decent at dealing with my anxiety, and while it still affects my life, I no longer feel like it prevents me from living my basic, day-to-daylife. However, at seemingly random times every few weeks (or if I'm lucky, months) I just snap back, and for some time (from a few hours to a few days) I become extremely self aware and anxious. Just today, I was having a conversation, and an uncomfortable topic came up, and boom, suddenly I feel super anxious all day. I feel like I have sensory overload, I feel disconnected from reality. I often tend to start shaking and hyperventilating, sometimes almost having a complete mental breakdown. However, as I said, the strangest part about all this is how it just randomly comes and goes. Like, despite this happenig today, now I feel comfortable again, like nothing happened. Is this normal? ",axienty,anyone else experience episode extreme anxiety every week xpost mentalhealth recent year become fairly decent dealing still affect life longer feel like prevents living basic day daylife however seemingly random time lucky month snap back hour extremely self aware anxious today conversation uncomfortable topic came boom suddenly super sensory overload disconnected reality often tend start shaking hyperventilating sometimes almost complete mental breakdown said strangest part randomly come go despite happenig comfortable nothing happened normal,-0.02,Neutral
"Can't get over a (past) pregnancy scare, how to move forward Short version: I had a very late period 2 months ago and it sent me into a spiral of fearing I'm pregnant. I've had numerous negative tests and have since started taking a birth control pill, but I can't seem to shake the feeling. Some days I'm okay, but other days I'm so convinced I'm pregnant that I struggle to function (pregnancy is something I hope to avoid for YEARS to come).

Long version: Honestly, my post history should speak for itself. I had a two-week late period back in November that gave me and my partner a bit of a scare. After a few negative tests, I relaxed enough that my period finally came and it should've been the end of it (especially considering I started birth control as well). It was far from over when it came to worrying. I've fallen into this vicious cycle of anxiety I just can't seem to shake. When I got the initial negative, I felt fine for a few days. Then I had (what I thought to be) ""pregnancy symptoms"" that would send my brain down a path of convincing myself I'm pregnant, struggling to make it through the next few days, then caving and taking another test. I'd temporarily feel better until something else convinced me otherwise and the cycle began again. 

Random stomach ache? More like morning sickness.

Random cramp? Implementation.

Peeing more? Ignore the 30oz of water you drank with lunch, clearly pregnant. 

I'm getting sick of it, but I'm not sure what to do and how to start feeling better. My partner can only tell me I'm being irrational so many times before it doesn't mean anything. Nevermind the increasing sum spent on too many tests (which only act as a temporary fix anyways) that I can't continue to afford.

I've never considered anxiety as the root of my problems, but it seems to be heading down that route with how debilitating it's becoming. I've also heard its possible for birth control to increase feelings of anxiety, so I'm wondering if that's a factor in what I've been feeling? Either way, I'm just hoping someone could provide any advice on my situation. Or even just general support/well wishes...

\[Additionally, I really hope this type of post is alright for this subreddit. I'm a first-time poster here and honestly didn't even know it existed until about 10 minutes ago. Seems like exactly the type of place that could help me, so I'm glad I found it!\]

​",axienty,get past pregnancy scare move forward short version late period month ago sent spiral fearing pregnant numerous negative test since started taking birth control pill seem shake feeling day okay convinced struggle function something hope avoid year come long honestly post history speak two week back november gave partner bit relaxed enough finally came end especially considering well far worrying fallen vicious cycle anxiety got initial felt fine thought symptom would send brain path convincing struggling make next caving another temporarily feel better else otherwise began random stomach ache like morning sickness cramp implementation peeing ignore oz water drank lunch clearly getting sick sure start tell irrational many time mean anything nevermind increasing sum spent act temporary fix anyways continue afford never considered root problem seems heading route debilitating becoming also heard possible increase wondering factor either way hoping someone could provide advice situation even general support wish additionally really type alright subreddit first poster know existed minute exactly place help glad found,0.07,Moderately Positive
Sertraline increase Increasing my sertraline from 125 to 150. Every time I increase I get extreme nausea and dizziness/foggy. I increased to 125 about 4 months ago. Just wondering how long my side effects may last this time and if it’s worth increasing. ,axienty,sertraline increase increasing every time get extreme nausea dizziness foggy increased month ago wondering long side effect may last worth,0.03,Neutral
"Muscle spasms since starting sertraline Hi everyone -

I started taking 50mg of Sertraline at the beginning of January and switched to 100mg after about 2 weeks.  Since then, I've had random, visible muscle spasms in my right bicep/tricep area as well as the left inner corner of my eyelid.

The arm spasms happen about once/week but the eyelid spasms are every other day multiple times/day.  They don't hurt but they are super annoying.  Of course when I look up anything related to spasms, ALS is the top result..

Has anyone else had this happen since starting sertraline or another SSRI?  It's been 3 months, so I was hoping my body would be adjusted.  I told my doctor about this a month ago and she said it's not an uncommon side effect; however, it's not going away.  If anything, the eye spasm feel like they are getting more common.",axienty,muscle spasm since starting sertraline hi everyone started taking mg beginning january switched week random visible right bicep tricep area well left inner corner eyelid arm happen every day multiple time hurt super annoying course look anything related al top result anyone else another ssri month hoping body would adjusted told doctor ago said uncommon side effect however going away eye feel like getting common,0.03,Neutral
"feels like a lot today. My dad had a heart attack yesterday, my older, racist, bigotted brother is driving to my house and spending the night with his 5 year old son.  He just told me.  Together, we are driving another 3 hours to spend weekend in the ICU with dad.  We don't get along, and he's making this some kind of bonding thing.  I have done my best to avoid him for years, he was horrible bully when we were children and he is still an antagonistic asshole as a 40 year old. I can't say no, because - well, dad had a heart attack.  I have to just do this, things will be fine. sigh.",axienty,feel like lot today dad heart attack yesterday older racist bigotted brother driving house spending night year old son told together another hour spend weekend icu get along making kind bonding thing done best avoid horrible bully child still antagonistic asshole say well fine sigh,0.21,Moderately Positive
"Looking for gifs or images Anyone have anything preferably on reddit but doesn’t really matter, have any gifs that calm them? ",axienty,looking gifs image anyone anything preferably reddit really matter calm,0.25,Moderately Positive
"Dealing with work anxiety So I am in a situation where I want to be working up to a full time job. I recently started a part time job and it has been rough. I worked part time in college but this job basically has me managing the office, and I also feel the pressure to be working full time for health insurance and other benefits. I am not lazy, and I work really hard, but it is exhausting. I have a great boss and it’s a great environment so I don’t know what else I can do. Sometimes in the morning I’ll have panic attacks. Once I push through and get to work I am usually fine, but I don’t want to feel like this for the rest of my life. I know work is exhausting in general but how do you keep anxiety out of the equation? ",axienty,dealing work anxiety situation want working full time job recently started part rough worked college basically managing office also feel pressure health insurance benefit lazy really hard exhausting great bos environment know else sometimes morning panic attack push get usually fine like rest life general keep equation,0.06,Moderately Positive
"anyone else get really bad jumps/shakes? its honestly one of the worst parts of anxiety for me because its so embarrassing. 
like anytime theres a startling noise in a quiet room like in a classroom i jump and everyone looks over and stares and sometimes even giggle and it makes me wanna die inside. or when im at the doctors office and they open the door my body just like freaks out and its so embarrassing because then they know your nervous and their also thinking why are they so nervous? 
especially when people comment about it is the worst. like i worked with this one lady who would try to scare me on purpose cuz she knew i would jump and it was just the worst :( 
i just wanna know if anyone feels this also. ",axienty,anyone else get really bad jump shake honestly one worst part anxiety embarrassing like anytime there startling noise quiet room classroom everyone look stare sometimes even giggle make wanna die inside im doctor office open door body freak know nervous also thinking especially people comment worked lady would try scare purpose cuz knew feel,-0.23,Moderately Negative
First date I got asked out for the first time yesterday. But bailed at the last minute. My anxiety just wouldn't let me go out on a date.,axienty,first date got asked time yesterday bailed last minute anxiety let go,0.12,Moderately Positive
"My anxiety is through the roof. My heart rate is constantly high, I'm constantly wanting to be active, and I suffer from insomnia. I have constant pain in my heart region. I take Clonazepam at night, which helps me mellow out. I live in a small city, which I never wanted to move to, I did it for work 10 years ago, currently unemployed.

This past Christmas I spent at my mom's place in my hometown, and my heart magically stopped hurting, and my anxiety levels dropped while I was there. It's a small, conservative, quiet, scenic town. It was surreal.

I constantly feel like one of my heart arteries is going to burst, it's nuts. Like a sled dog pushing its limits. Yet I'm not an active person. Even at rest, my bp is off the charts. 

I need change. I need to get back to my roots, I'm not from this area, I really dislike it.

Thanks for reading ",axienty,anxiety roof heart rate constantly high wanting active suffer insomnia constant pain region take clonazepam night help mellow live small city never wanted move work year ago currently unemployed past christmas spent mom place hometown magically stopped hurting level dropped conservative quiet scenic town surreal feel like one artery going burst nut sled dog pushing limit yet person even rest bp chart need change get back root area really dislike thanks reading,0.05,Moderately Positive
"What does this sound like? For about a period of 6-7 months I believed reality was video game and we were just a simulation on a computer. I would talk to the ""programmers"" much how others talk to god. I really believed it but have since stopped caring due to other mental health problems arising. I really did believe it, and that was at age 17 or 18. At one point I believed that all people were aliens in human bodies. Is that delusional disorder? I can't take it man, OCD, anxiety, depression, and delusional? I feel crazy sometimes.",axienty,sound like period month believed reality video game simulation computer would talk programmer much others god really since stopped caring due mental health problem arising believe age one point people alien human body delusional disorder take man ocd anxiety depression feel crazy sometimes,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"My unique SSRI usage I have a prescription for Zoloft, but I don't take it everyday, i take it once every week or two when I'm having a bad day.  I don't like taking it every day, because it makes me feel numb, but I've found that it gives me a boost if I just take it every once in a while.  Understand, I don't have severe anxiety anymore, mostly mild with the occasional spike of moderate anxiety, and that's when I take the Zoloft.  It works for me.",axienty,unique ssri usage prescription zoloft take everyday every week two bad day like taking make feel numb found give boost understand severe anxiety anymore mostly mild occasional spike moderate work,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Extremely drowsy with Zoloft Hey guys, I was prescribed Zoloft today and took my first dose of 25 mg earlier this afternoon. Almost immediately I realized that it is making me EXTREMELY drowsy. I can barely keep my eyes open. Does anyone else have this issue? Is it a temporary side effect and will it go away/get better with time? 

Thanks",axienty,extremely drowsy zoloft hey guy prescribed today took first dose mg earlier afternoon almost immediately realized making barely keep eye open anyone else issue temporary side effect go away get better time thanks,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I'm trying to help myself, but I feel terrible I've been struggling with anxiety for a few years now. Although I've overcome fears, more and more keep piling on. Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed and chat to people about it.

I'm 19 and study at uni at the moment. I'm doing a course that I really enjoy, which is great. I'm not doing too bad either, in terms of grades. It's just these last few weeks I've been over thinking so many things. ""This isn't good enough"" or ""I'm not spending enough time studying"" are some things that go through my mind. I've got a major deadline coming up and I struggle to stop thinking about it. It's one of the thoughts that keep me up until 4 in the morning.

If it's not that, it's worries about after uni, getting a job. I've never held a job for over a week because I've struggled to gain the courage to do the job. I always think I'm too dumb and will fail at the simplest of things. I tell myself that it's just negative thoughts that aren't true, but it's like part of me doesn't believe it.

There's lots of other stuff too, whether it's loneliness, being boring, feeling like a loser, gaining weight and more. I've been getting some help. I'm on antidepressants at the moment that help me sleep. But if I don't take them, I'm usually awake until morning.

I keep reminding myself that things will be better and that I can overcome my fears, but it is still difficult to block out the negatives. I just feel alone at the moment. Thanks, if you've read this. It's just something I need to get out.",axienty,trying help feel terrible struggling anxiety year although overcome fear keep piling sometimes overwhelmed chat people study uni moment course really enjoy great bad either term grade last week thinking many thing good enough spending time studying go mind got major deadline coming struggle stop one thought morning worry getting job never held struggled gain courage always think dumb fail simplest tell negative true like part believe lot stuff whether loneliness boring feeling loser gaining weight antidepressant sleep take usually awake reminding better still difficult block alone thanks read something need get,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I had an unusual anxiety attack I’m not stranger to having anxiety attacks, in the past couple months I have really learned how to pinpoint was is causing my anxiety and I know I how to calm myself down. The other day while I was at work I got this strange feelings in my chest like it was heavy and my heart started racing (which isn’t normal for me), I ended up going to the bathroom and crying. I tried to calm myself down like I usually do but nothing was working. I was in the bathroom for like 30 minutes before I started to feel better. This was an attack out of the blue and I never figured out what caused it, work usually doesn’t cause me to have an anxiety attack. Just wondering if anyone has tips to help me. I’m just afraid I’ll encounter this again and not know what to do. ",axienty,unusual anxiety attack stranger past couple month really learned pinpoint causing know calm day work got strange feeling chest like heavy heart started racing normal ended going bathroom cry tried usually nothing working minute feel better blue never figured caused cause wondering anyone tip help afraid encounter,0.0,Neutral
"I don’t really know what to do anymore I hate making these sad posts but I need help. My anxiety/depression literally consumes me. And for me, I’m more anxious about losing the people I love around me. I latch on to anyone, especially my boyfriend. This leads to people using me. I don’t even want to say he’s using me. Because he loves me and he says he’s going to marry me. But I’m so nervous about him all the time and I know he will be mad at me and then completely ignore me if I tell him that I want him to do better in life. Like he needs to wake up earlier, go to work more, and take care of his stuff. Right now, I have to wake him up by calling him so he can go to work. And if I ask him to set an alarm (because I work all day and I can’t always call) and he’s gotten angry at me for asking before. And right now I’m paying for his speeding ticket that he got driving my car when I told him now to because he can’t pay it. And I’ve snuck him into my house for weeks because he gets kicked out. I’m just so anxious about him and tired all the time. I’ll probably delete this soon. I just wanted to write it out. I love him more than anyone. But I don’t know how to talk to him ",axienty,really know anymore hate making sad post need help anxiety depression literally consumes anxious losing people love around latch anyone especially boyfriend lead using even want say going marry nervous time mad completely ignore tell better life like wake earlier go work take care stuff right calling ask set alarm day always call gotten angry asking paying speeding ticket got driving car told pay snuck house week get kicked tired probably delete soon wanted write talk,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"The Power of Now - this teaches you to look behind your mind, to be the observer of your life. Please share your experiences and how you get through anxiety. I am more than pleased to see video, read books, articles etc;. Thank you and I hope that this will help you to pursuit your true nature and live happily. P.S Not a native English, sorry for grammar mistakes.",axienty,power teach look behind mind observer life please share experience get anxiety pleased see video read book article etc thank hope help pursuit true nature live happily native english sorry grammar mistake,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Is this feeling anxiety? What do i do? This is my first time on this subr and I apologize in advance if these kinds of posts are not allowed on here.
I've had a rough month and often start panicking about the smallest things, usually school or family related. My father's health isn't great, my friend passed away this month, and I've still tried to keep up with all of my classes and extracurriculars but my grades have not been as good as I could've done. But whenever I take a step back and think about all these things, I start crying and it often takes me a while to stop. I tried writing an email to my school counselor explaining my shitty month and if there's any way to explain this to colleges I've been deferred from which ask for my grades, but I cannot get myself to send it and worry that I'm just overreacting even though my brain is screaming about how my entire future is on the line here (even though it's really not). I received a total of 2 Bs this semester (the rest all As) but one grade still hasn't been posted and I'm impulsively checking every few hours. As I type this now, the email still sits in my drafts and I feel like I'm overreacting. 

Not limited to just this month, but it's been increasingly common recently for me to need to confirm plans MULTIPLE times because I'm afraid the other person/people are going to stand me up (while they have absolutely no reason to). Sometimes while I'm driving to work, I also begin to stress out that I've been secretly fired (even though I absolutely have not been fired). 

I often regret ranting and such as soon as my brain calms down. ",axienty,feeling anxiety first time subr apologize advance kind post allowed rough month often start panicking smallest thing usually school family related father health great friend passed away still tried keep class extracurriculars grade good could done whenever take step back think cry stop writing email counselor explaining shitty way explain college deferred ask cannot get send worry overreacting even though brain screaming entire future line really received total b semester rest one posted impulsively checking every hour type sits draft feel like limited increasingly common recently need confirm plan multiple afraid person people going stand absolutely reason sometimes driving work also begin stress secretly fired regret ranting soon calm,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I have no motivation left. Please help. This is not a suicidal post. This is a post about me not wanting to do anything anymore.

I've given up.

On physical health
Emotional health
My job
My friends

I don't want to move anymore. I don't want to try.
I'm sitting here about to call out of a shift that I'm leaving for in 5 hours that I KNOW nobody can cover and that I WILL get in trouble for it.

I'm about to ruin my job and I don't care, and I know that I should. I can't say no to anybody and I put myself under a huge stress load.

I'm a fucking pusher and I let everyone walk all over me. And I'm done trying to fix it.

Use me to better your life situation then throw me the fuck away for the next person.

I realise it now. I always pinned depression to suicide. But no. It can be lots different than wanting to die.

This is depression. I want to live. I just don't want to try anymore.

Help.",axienty,motivation left please help suicidal post wanting anything anymore given physical health emotional job friend want move try sitting call shift leaving hour know nobody cover get trouble ruin care say anybody put huge stress load fucking pusher let everyone walk done trying fix use better life situation throw fuck away next person realise always pinned depression suicide lot different die live,-0.01,Neutral
"When did you first discover what anxiety was and that you had it? I didn’t know what anxiety was until the 8th grade. Ever since I can remember, I’ve always felt overly self conscious, anxious about my surroundings and had a constant feeling of dread. I thought everyone felt that way and that people who are confident are just those who ignore that feeling or “get over it”.

Is this experience common? When did you realize that you weren’t just shy or someone who has a tendency to worry?",axienty,first discover anxiety know th grade ever since remember always felt overly self conscious anxious surroundings constant feeling dread thought everyone way people confident ignore get experience common realize shy someone tendency worry,-0.03,Neutral
"Day Two of An Anxiety attack, and i'm worn out My husband is out of work, and I don't work due to disability.  He lost  his job bacik in November.  Up until now, I have been doing really well with keeping my anxiety in check.

Yesterday, things changed.  After a terrible night of sleep, I woke up feeling the same horrible symptoms that I always get: can't eat at all, diarrhea, shaking, trembling, hyperventilating, feelng frightened and helpless.  I had been doing so well.  This has hit me like a freight train.  And in spite of my experiences with anxiety and these attacks and how they always work themselves out, I feel totally overwhelmed.

I'm shaking all over from all of this adrenaline, but all I want to do is sleep, if I could.

Thanks for listening.",axienty,day two anxiety attack worn husband work due disability lost job bacik november really well keeping check yesterday thing changed terrible night sleep woke feeling horrible symptom always get eat diarrhea shaking trembling hyperventilating feelng frightened helpless hit like freight train spite experience feel totally overwhelmed adrenaline want could thanks listening,-0.29,Moderately Negative
"Seroquel 300mg for Anxiety and Sleep Disturbance Hey all,

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I've recently been prescribed this medication and have been finding the whole ""waking up"" routine to be quite hard. Usually a cup of joe will mitigate the drowsiness every morning when I wake up but even making a cup of coffee can be a hard task. Luckily, it obviously helps with my sleep and it has reduced my anxiety and ""clouded thoughts"" to a great degree; I really only have complaints with respect to how hard it is to just get out of bed.

Does anyone here have a routine that worked for them?

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​",axienty,seroquel mg anxiety sleep disturbance hey recently prescribed medication finding whole waking routine quite hard usually cup joe mitigate drowsiness every morning wake even making coffee task luckily obviously help reduced clouded thought great degree really complaint respect get bed anyone worked,0.02,Neutral
Anyone wanna talk Idc what about or who just anyone,axienty,anyone wanna talk idc,0.0,Neutral
"How do you live by yourself without being anxious about someone breaking in? Any tips? I just had an interview today for a job in a big city. I currently live in a small town with my spouse, but if I take this job, I would have to move out to the new city a year ahead of him. My parents live closer to the job, so I was considering living with them but then, with traffic, I would have to commute 2 hours each way which would suck. I’m looking into the idea of finding a small apartment closer to the job. I have never lived by myself though, and I think I would be terrified of someone breaking in if I was alone (I’m also afraid of random roommates though). I know logically that having someone else there doesn’t change the chances of a break in, but when I’m alone I get rather terrified. I don’t even have the job yet, but I’m just trying to mentally prepare for all options. Do you guys have any tips on how to lower anxiety while living alone?? ",axienty,live without anxious someone breaking tip interview today job big city currently small town spouse take would move new year ahead parent closer considering living traffic commute hour way suck looking idea finding apartment never lived though think terrified alone also afraid random roommate know logically else change chance break get rather even yet trying mentally prepare option guy lower anxiety,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"Not sure how to convey a thing to a friend without making them spiral I'm the type of person who can't say no to friend, I feel like I always need to be there for them. And I want to be there for my friends, but I can't realistically always be there. I'm dealing with my own anxiety and depression things and an ass ton of life stressors are going down rn, so I don't have the mental capacity to take on a friend's anxieties and stressors as well. It makes me feel like a shitty friend for not being able to do that, but I can't. This friend and I had some issues last year where they spiraled and overstepped some boundaries in our friendship, and they hurt me. I know they didn't mean to and that it was a result of them spiraling into a bad mental place, but that doesn't change the fact that some of their actions crossed boundaries and hurt me. I've since reestablished the boundaries, especially on how much of their emotional load I can take. But it still seems like I get a message every week where they expect me to be a friend and a therapist to unload on, and without asking if I have the mental capacity for it, just expecting me to take in deep emotional things and also provide affirmations. I'm not sure how I can tell them that I can't deal with all their life problems and depressive swings on top of my own shit without making them spiral into a worse place. It's not that I don't want to be there, but I can't carry all that weight.",axienty,sure convey thing friend without making spiral type person say feel like always need want realistically dealing anxiety depression as ton life stressor going rn mental capacity take well make shitty able issue last year spiraled overstepped boundary friendship hurt know mean result spiraling bad place change fact action crossed since reestablished especially much emotional load still seems get message every week expect therapist unload asking expecting deep also provide affirmation tell deal problem depressive swing top shit worse carry weight,-0.01,Neutral
"I made plans to have lunch with a new friend today and I’m terrified I met this girl through my job. I am a desk receptionist and she is a resident here. She asked if I wanted to hang out! I was happy because I don’t have many friends (i’m a junior in college) and she seems nice!

we made plans for lunch today but I’m terrified. I am really bad at small talk so i’m scared it’ll be awkward and we won’t talk about anything. 

any advice?? ",axienty,made plan lunch new friend today terrified met girl job desk receptionist resident asked wanted hang happy many junior college seems nice really bad small talk scared awkward anything advice,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I have been struggling lately. As my title states - I have been struggling with anxiety (and I think also depression). I have been cycling between okay and holy shit I can barely stop from crying. It doesn’t take much to set me off. 

I think a big part of it - is that I always am worrying about something. It feels like if I am not thinking of the next thing to worry about then I’m worried about not being conscious enough of the things I should be worried about. 

 Mainly I am looking for some tips in order to break this cycle. 

I am currently seeing a therapist, however when I see her I have other issues I am trying to resolve and cope with. So then during the sessions we only briefly touch on it or I forget to tell her how much my anxiety is messing with me. It doesn’t seem like an hour is enough for me.

",axienty,struggling lately title state anxiety think also depression cycling okay holy shit barely stop cry take much set big part always worrying something feel like thinking next thing worry worried conscious enough mainly looking tip order break cycle currently seeing therapist however see issue trying resolve cope session briefly touch forget tell messing seem hour,0.04,Neutral
"Strange Physical Symptoms? Hi all,

I'm going to see a doctor on Monday but I'm out of state until then. 

I've been having a LOT of health anxiety lately among anxiety about other things. I was fine until my period started and then got really sick (aside from cramps) for some reason. Since about the 18th, I've been having morning nausea and then random times during the day, I get warm and weak when I'm standing for too long, lightheaded, and I haven't been able to stay at the gym for too long without feeling exhausted. 

Anyone felt this way with anxiety? Some of the symptoms seem to have gotten slightly better but they're still concerning. 
",axienty,strange physical symptom hi going see doctor monday state lot health anxiety lately among thing fine period started got really sick aside cramp reason since th morning nausea random time day get warm weak standing long lightheaded able stay gym without feeling exhausted anyone felt way seem gotten slightly better still concerning,-0.03,Neutral
"find myself finding comfort in repetitive activities, anyone else do this? I like rereading the same books, watching the same shows, and sticking to a fairly consistent routine. For some reason it's comforting knowing what will happen not being dissapointed or stressed.  Is this healthy? I think it's an outlet of my anxiety but is it something I should work to change? Or does it not really matter? ",axienty,find finding comfort repetitive activity anyone else like rereading book watching show sticking fairly consistent routine reason comforting knowing happen dissapointed stressed healthy think outlet anxiety something work change really matter,0.18,Moderately Positive
"Hard to accept that this is all anxiety. Ok ive got so many symptoms that i cant keep track of them, so before i fully just accept that anxiety has me feeling this bad and it would just make me feel better knowing anyone else here experienced:
Light uncoordinated limbs that dont feel like they are mine.
vision problems that include hazy/dream like, double vision, warping objects, black spots/floaters.
hard to breathe.
chest pains, left arm pains and numbness.
feeling as if im walking on wet sand, sinking into the floor.
off balance/lightheaded/dizzy.
feeling as if something is pulling me to one side.
feeling like my head is heavy.
the feeling as if my brain has completely shut off for a split second, kinda like a mini blackout.
feeling like im watching the world on tv.
the list goes on honestly it even just felt good to write this down!",axienty,hard accept anxiety ok ive got many symptom cant keep track fully feeling bad would make feel better knowing anyone else experienced light uncoordinated limb dont like mine vision problem include hazy dream double warping object black spot floater breathe chest pain left arm numbness im walking wet sand sinking floor balance lightheaded dizzy something pulling one side head heavy brain completely shut split second kinda mini blackout watching world tv list go honestly even felt good write,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Dealing with/challenging my dating anxiety I have massive, crushing anxiety that rears its head when romantic or sexual relationships (or the possibility of same) are involved. This is perpetual and lasts as long as there's a serious possibility of a relationship and/or sex -- I get instant relief as soon as I'm turned down.

My shrink has been pretty aggressive in encouraging me to step outside my comfort zone, and I've been willing to in the past. The problem with this particular stressor is metering the exposure. Dates take time to set up and go on, other people are involved; when I make a serious attempt to work on this I pretty much commit to feeling awful for a week -- minimum.

I'm wondering how other people have worked on this problem. I don't think it's reasonable or sustainable to just eat all this stress in the hopes it'll eventually die down (if nothing else, it has an effect on my work). But I'm not sure what else to do about it. Ideas?",axienty,dealing challenging dating anxiety massive crushing rear head romantic sexual relationship possibility involved perpetual last long serious sex get instant relief soon turned shrink pretty aggressive encouraging step outside comfort zone willing past problem particular stressor metering exposure date take time set go people make attempt work much commit feeling awful week minimum wondering worked think reasonable sustainable eat stress hope eventually die nothing else effect sure idea,0.07,Moderately Positive
"My health anxiety is affecting my children I will preface this by saying I have intense, raging anxiety. A lot of it stems from growing up with an alcoholic, neglectful, narccisstic mother but I will spare the details of that story.

I have anxiety relating to my health since I was probably around 7. I was convinced I was going to get lead poisoning from touching a pencil. I was afraid I was going to die in my sleep. It was intense, particularly for being so young. It had times where it peaked and subsided, like it does today, but the peaks are HIGH and extremely intense, and I go into full blown panic mode.

My first pregnancy was a huge trigger for me. I was convinced I was going to lose the baby/develop some scary pregnancy condition to the point where I look back and feel like I barely enjoyed the pregnancy at all. It was, remarkably to me, a very uneventful pregnancy and my daughter was born at exactly 39 weeks as perfect as could be.

I spent a good portion of her first two years of life worry free. I of course panicked when she got sick, and has intrusive thoughts of something bad happening every now and then, but it was manageable and the good times outweighed the bad by a long shot.

Then she started getting petechiae. If you’re not familiar, petechiae can be a symptom of blood platelets being low, which is a big sign of leukemia. Despite tons of blood tests and probably over 10 doctors telling me hers were superficial and not the scary kind, I was so utterly convinced she was sick I was driving myself insane. My SO was ready to separate from me as he felt like I was losing touch with reality, and it was plain awful. I ended up seeing a counselor and it helped, but then I went into preterm labor with my second daughter unexpectedly (which was thankfully stopped) but I stopped going to therapy because I was so focused on the baby and preparing.

All was well for a few months-I was way too tied up with a toddler and newborn to feed my health obsessions, so the constant googling had stopped. Mind you, I really only worry about things my child could develop (particularly cancers, and recently diabetes). Health anxiety for myself has completely shifted from myself to my daughter. And only my oldest, for some odd reason.

Over the last 6 months I’ve been convinced she’s had tumors, cancers, and all kinds of other rare but scary stuff. And I am now starting to realize I’ve taken her to the doctor and had tests performed on her that were probably unnecessary, but my mind can’t accept that. With everything that comes back normal I wonder if they’re missing something or if they’re not right. It fucks with my head so badly.

She is nearing 3 and now fears the doctors because I’ve brought her there so much. I feel fucking terrible but my anxiety drives me to do shit like this. My mind literally convinces me that there is something wrong that needs to be immediately investigated. It always goes to the “fight or flight” mode. I feel like I’m constantly analyzing my daughter: how much is she sleeping, is she drinking more than usual, is she acting normal. I hate it.

I’ve found that triggers include sites like babycenter.com, where a lot of sad stories get posted and I feel doom that we will be the next ones to have this happen to.

I know I am a good mom. But this anxiety is so crippling that I feel it destroying me everyday more and more. I can’t enjoy my children the way I wish I could because I always fear that something dooming is lurking around the corner.

I have no one to talk to in real life so this is the only place I felt comfortable sharing. And if anyone has any advice, I would love to hear it.",axienty,health anxiety affecting child preface saying intense raging lot stem growing alcoholic neglectful narccisstic mother spare detail story relating since probably around convinced going get lead poisoning touching pencil afraid die sleep particularly young time peaked subsided like today peak high extremely go full blown panic mode first pregnancy huge trigger lose baby develop scary condition point look back feel barely enjoyed remarkably uneventful daughter born exactly week perfect could spent good portion two year life worry free course panicked got sick intrusive thought something bad happening every manageable outweighed long shot started getting petechia familiar symptom blood platelet low big sign leukemia despite ton test doctor telling superficial kind utterly driving insane ready separate felt losing touch reality plain awful ended seeing counselor helped went preterm labor second unexpectedly thankfully stopped therapy focused preparing well month way tied toddler newborn feed obsession constant googling mind really thing cancer recently diabetes completely shifted oldest odd reason last tumor rare stuff starting realize taken performed unnecessary accept everything come normal wonder missing right fuck head badly nearing fear brought much fucking terrible drive shit literally convinces wrong need immediately investigated always fight flight constantly analyzing sleeping drinking usual acting hate found include site babycenter com sad posted doom next one happen know mom crippling destroying everyday enjoy wish dooming lurking corner talk real place comfortable sharing anyone advice would love hear,-0.02,Neutral
"ROCD ( Relationship Obsessive Compulsive Disorder ) dealing with the constant anxiety . So i’ve been in a relationship for about 6 months now and i still find myself constantly being obsessed and worried about me not being better than guys in her past ( she has my virginity but i don’t have hers ). It’s constantly on my mind and i can never get it out of my head no matter what i do or try . It’s caused quite a few panic attacks and i’m always wondering if i’m good enough while needing constant reassurance from her . I always think she’s doing something disloyal or talking to other guys and i can never get those thoughts to disappear , she’s been nothing but faithful and understand with me . So much anxiety builds up every time these thoughts appear so i was wondering if any of you have had this same problem and if so how do you overcome it ? someone told me i would just never be fit for relationships but i really want to make it work . 
Thank you ! ",axienty,rocd relationship obsessive compulsive disorder dealing constant anxiety month still find constantly obsessed worried better guy past virginity mind never get head matter try caused quite panic attack always wondering good enough needing reassurance think something disloyal talking thought disappear nothing faithful understand much build every time appear problem overcome someone told would fit really want make work thank,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety and friends Heya,

My depression has recently relapsed, and with it my anxiety has gotten a gazillion times worse. In the past two weeks, I’ve managed to lose my boyfriend and all our mutual friends due to my behaviour. He had originally asked for a break and space without explanation and I just couldn’t stop worrying so I texted all our mutual friends to figure out what he was thinking. He understands now, but our friends aren’t talking to me anymore. We are officially broken up and are no-contact. My dad flew to the UK from Hong Kong to pick me up and take me home because I couldn’t do it alone, and i’m terrified of going back to literally 0 friends, which’ll make everything worse. ",axienty,anxiety friend heya depression recently relapsed gotten gazillion time worse past two week managed lose boyfriend mutual due behaviour originally asked break space without explanation stop worrying texted figure thinking understands talking anymore officially broken contact dad flew uk hong kong pick take home alone terrified going back literally make everything,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Is anyone else plagued with constant anxiety/guilt that you're a bad person? I have this recurring problem where I get overwhelmed with stomach-churning guilt that I do nothing but make the world a worse place.

It's never around anything in particular, so there's not even any behavioral change I could make to alleviate the guilt, or feel like I'm working towards self-improvement.

It's so frustrating! I don't know what to do.",axienty,anyone else plagued constant anxiety guilt bad person recurring problem get overwhelmed stomach churning nothing make world worse place never around anything particular even behavioral change could alleviate feel like working towards self improvement frustrating know,-0.31,Moderately Negative
"Brain fog and anxiety? Hey y'all. Any tips for combatting brain fog and dizziness caused by anxiety? Some days the only symptom I'll get is being super disoriented, foggy, forgetful, unable to process concepts I usually can, etc. It used to send me into a panic attack (the ol' am-I-going-crazy spiral), but I've been able to calm myself from those as of late by reminding myself that brain fog doesn't actually hurt me and is just temporary, but I still hate feeling like I'm not present and can't think straight, focus, or concentrate - I'm a college student, I have to get my attention back. Oftentimes smoking weed helps me clear the fog for a bit but it's not the best mechanism at ALL and has its own pros and cons so I'm looking for any other solutions. 

tl;dr The only thing that eases my brain fog besides waiting is out is marijuana and I'm looking for a more sustainable and uhhh legal solution if anyone has advice ",axienty,brain fog anxiety hey tip combatting dizziness caused day symptom get super disoriented foggy forgetful unable process concept usually etc used send panic attack ol going crazy spiral able calm late reminding actually hurt temporary still hate feeling like present think straight focus concentrate college student attention back oftentimes smoking weed help clear bit best mechanism pro con looking solution tl dr thing eas besides waiting marijuana sustainable uhhh legal anyone advice,0.01,Neutral
Anxious over Marriage.. My husband is making me feel like ive wasted my time giving him my all and I'm currently 4 months pregnant.. He doesn't respect my boundaries,axienty,anxious marriage husband making feel like ive wasted time giving currently month pregnant respect boundary,-0.03,Neutral
Suboxone Does anyone know anything about Suboxone.  Can it make you feel high?  Or cause a euphoric type feeling?  How is it abused? ,axienty,suboxone anyone know anything make feel high cause euphoric type feeling abused,0.16,Moderately Positive
"How do I not overthink things? I notice every little thing people do like:
- rubbing their face
- clearing their throats
- scratching 
- sighing/breathing pattern 
- where their eyes are looking 

My thoughts tend to snowball into this never-ending abyss that leads to me thinking they’re doing those things because of me. It makes me anxious and not want to engage in socializing. 

When I drink, all my anxiety is gone and I can actually hold conversations. Though I don’t want alcohol to be my “solution” to this. 

Any suggestions on not overthinking the little things? ",axienty,overthink thing notice every little people like rubbing face clearing throat scratching sighing breathing pattern eye looking thought tend snowball never ending abyss lead thinking make anxious want engage socializing drink anxiety gone actually hold conversation though alcohol solution suggestion overthinking,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"Obsessing over electrolytes! How are you supposed to get 3,800mg of Potassium every day? That's like 10+ bananas!

It has just been brought to my attention that my symptoms; derealization, depersonalization, brain fog, memory impairment, dizziness, fatigue and ""brain rot"" can be caused by Magnesium deficiency, which apparently - depending on the country - 60-90% of people have.

DRI of Magnesium is 400mg. Potassium is 3,800mg. I'm looking at supplements right now, but I am freaking out because I'm afraid that I have a serious deficiency. My Potassium is fine (had bloodwork done 5.1.2019), but the standard bloodwork doesn't account for Magnesium, so I can't tell.

Do you guys take supplements for Magnesium/Calcium/Potassium? I eat fruits, nuts and vegetables pretty much every day to some degree, but I highly doubt that I am getting 400mg of Magnesium and I am certainly not getting 3,800mg of Potassium.",axienty,obsessing electrolyte supposed get mg potassium every day like banana brought attention symptom derealization depersonalization brain fog memory impairment dizziness fatigue rot caused magnesium deficiency apparently depending country people dri looking supplement right freaking afraid serious fine bloodwork done standard account tell guy take calcium eat fruit nut vegetable pretty much degree highly doubt getting certainly,0.06,Moderately Positive
NEED ADVICE will ER give me anxiety medicine? I have been searching for relief from severe anxiety resulting from trauma for the last week. I have been seeking therapy and have called many therapists but they either haven’t answered or have no available times. I just want some relief until I can get into therapy. I have been breaking down multiple times every day. Is it possible if I go to the emergency room that they’ll give me an medication for anxiety?,axienty,need advice er give anxiety medicine searching relief severe resulting trauma last week seeking therapy called many therapist either answered available time want get breaking multiple every day possible go emergency room medication,0.18,Moderately Positive
"What is this? I got depression and soon terrible anxiety after a girl kept torturing me. She messed me up so bad that I can’t even hear her name without having terrible memories and a panic attack. Why does this happen to me. I hate this, my own girlfriend kept saying that name over and over to make a point and I started to breath faster and faster. Please, let me know why this happens from just a name being mentioned ",axienty,got depression soon terrible anxiety girl kept torturing messed bad even hear name without memory panic attack happen hate girlfriend saying make point started breath faster please let know happens mentioned,-0.83,Negative
"Anxiety at College Does anybody else here have unbearable anxiety when they have to leave home for college? The first night back is always terrible for me and there are time where I just want to start crying for no reason. I usually go home every weekend where I am fully at peace with myself, but would really like to break the habit of doing so. Most of my days are spent thinking about how I’m going to manage living the next 4 months feeling like this. If anybody can relate and has any tips, please let me know. Thanks ",axienty,anxiety college anybody else unbearable leave home first night back always terrible time want start cry reason usually go every weekend fully peace would really like break habit day spent thinking going manage living next month feeling relate tip please let know thanks,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"My anxiety and overthinking makes it so I doubt myself and don't allow myself to get upset when I should, or to speak up when someone has made me upset. I just sort of let things happen and always try to remain to the pacifist and nonchalant. Whenever someone hurts my feelings or makes me uncomfortable I doubt that I even have a reason to be upset, even though I KNOW I should be.

It's like I feel upset but then get embarrassed and start to feel like I have no right to be upset. So instead I sit in anxiety with uncomfortable situations and then something small happens and I spiral, by getting overly snappy and mad about something small and unrelated or getting blackout drunk just so I can feel reprieve from the anxiety of the situation.

I just don't stand up for myself because I feel like I have no right to be upset ever, and then all the anxiety and emotions sit inside me like a weight pulling me down.",axienty,anxiety overthinking make doubt allow get upset speak someone made sort let thing happen always try remain pacifist nonchalant whenever hurt feeling uncomfortable even reason though know like feel embarrassed start right instead sit situation something small happens spiral getting overly snappy mad unrelated blackout drunk reprieve stand ever emotion inside weight pulling,-0.32,Moderately Negative
"Claustrophobia I’ve just noticed lately this has kept me from doing a lot in my life and seems to be the biggest trigger to my anxiety. I thought I just had social anxiety but I realized when I had the anxiety it’s usually in spaces I feel I can’t escape. I didn’t really recognize that it was the problem until last year I went on a day trip and we went on a tour in a cave, the cave triggered an anxiety but it wasn’t bad until they turned the lights off for a few minutes to experience pitch black darkness and I had the worse panic attack of my life. I also avoid going back to school because being closed in, in a classroom. Also standing in line or simply being in a room full of people or anywhere with no windows makes me feel a ton of anxiety. I’ve unknowingly been working my life to avoid situations but I want to overcome it and if anyone would share their success stories of getting rid of this phobia I’d love to hear them. ",axienty,claustrophobia noticed lately kept lot life seems biggest trigger anxiety thought social realized usually space feel escape really recognize problem last year went day trip tour cave triggered bad turned light minute experience pitch black darkness worse panic attack also avoid going back school closed classroom standing line simply room full people anywhere window make ton unknowingly working situation want overcome anyone would share success story getting rid phobia love hear,-0.01,Neutral
"When spikes around irrational worries feels so real.. Anxiety is something I've lived with for a long time.. I first noticed it around 15 and ever since up to now at 31.. I have a pretty good coping  mechanisms for the big worries I have mainly if I'm dying of cancer or contracted some kind of deadly disease.. that shit I can deal with which is fucking bonkers.. it's more the day to day stuff I cant get a handle on.. like a constant fear of getting fired, or that I've fucked up a job, left the gas on, done something illegal, offended a relative, that I under cooked food and will kill someone and, I shit you not, panic about how I'm going to get off the bus.. that shit drives me up. The. Fucking. Wall... and it happens to the max when I have time off.. like today, I've been exhausted from work so took 2 days off on the build up to Easter..  boom anxiety kicks in first thing telling me that I fucked up at work and they're planning my exit and that I'm definitely going to end up dying alone in a cave in Scotland.. I'm not even anywhere near Scotland but that's where my head goes.. like 100 steps ahead in the worst possible direction.. I know half the shit I worry about makes no sense at all but in my head I feel like it's completely real.. it feels like paranoia.. Meh.. this was more of a rant than anything..",axienty,spike around irrational worry feel real anxiety something lived long time first noticed ever since pretty good coping mechanism big mainly dying cancer contracted kind deadly disease shit deal fucking bonkers day stuff cant get handle like constant fear getting fired fucked job left gas done illegal offended relative cooked food kill someone panic going bus drive wall happens max today exhausted work took build easter boom kick thing telling planning exit definitely end alone cave scotland even anywhere near head go step ahead worst possible direction know half make sense completely paranoia meh rant anything,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety of the unknown at work I feel like I read into body language/pitch/tone too much...I notice it in people like seeing the color red and blue: it feels obvious and loud. 

And my anxiety latches on and makes me think they don’t like me or that they want to fire me or that something is wrong and I hate that feeling...",axienty,anxiety unknown work feel like read body language pitch tone much notice people seeing color red blue obvious loud latch make think want fire something wrong hate feeling,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Drank orange juice that was fermenting, chances of getting sick? A lot of my anxiety revolves around vomiting/health. This morning I went out to breakfast and ordered some orange juice. Got half way through the glass before realizing something was a little off. The taste wasn't that bad, but it was slightly bubbly? And smelt a little alcoholic? It tasted very similar to a mimosa. Anyways I talked to the server and they fresh squeeze their juice and I'm guessing it was starting to ferment. I'm worried because who knows what yeast or bacteria was causing it to though.

Its been 5 hours and I still feel ok, aside from the constant fear I'm going to get sick. Has anyone else drank fermenting juice and been ok? If I was going to get sick do you think it would have happened by now?",axienty,drank orange juice fermenting chance getting sick lot anxiety revolves around vomiting health morning went breakfast ordered got half way glass realizing something little taste bad slightly bubbly smelt alcoholic tasted similar mimosa anyways talked server fresh squeeze guessing starting ferment worried know yeast bacteria causing though hour still feel ok aside constant fear going get anyone else think would happened,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"Doing the hard things hey r/anxiety, i suffer from generalized anxiety disorder, and have never posted here before but i think today is a good day tio start. i decided to break up with my girlfriend today, as the relationship was causing me more anxiety. i talked to my social worker at my PHP program, the group at PHP, my therapist and my brother and mom about it. they all told me the same thing: ""take care of yourself."" this really sucks and hurts but i haven't made myself priority in years. it was a big first step twowards getting my anxiety to a consistently manageable level, i'd say an earth shattering first step haha, but that just means it'll get easier from here on out. thanks for listening",axienty,hard thing hey anxiety suffer generalized disorder never posted think today good day tio start decided break girlfriend relationship causing talked social worker php program group therapist brother mom told take care really suck hurt made priority year big first step twowards getting consistently manageable level say earth shattering haha mean get easier thanks listening,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Wellbutrin is giving me more anxiety... looking for alternatives So I am really trying to tackle my social anxiety/general anxiety. For the past week, I have been feeling great about myself, have had a great attitude, feeling positive and a good sense of well-being.


I started wellbutrin about 3 weeks ago, and I ahve started to notice that my anxiety is actually getting slightly worse -mainly my social anxiety.  It's been really helping  with the depression, however.


It is only fueling everything I have been trying to treat - it is making me extremely nervous, making me sweat/blush/flush extremely bad, no matter the social situation.  I am currently also on buspirone, which I have noticed as helped with my general anxiety, not so much social anxiety. I have propranolol which I take, but even that doesn't help with the physical symptoms at all (or very, very slightly). I also have 15 ativan which I save for panic attacks.


I see my doctor this Wednesday, so I have been doing some research on what other medications may help me for social anxiety. My doctor is extremely open minded  and is very supportive of me trying different medications. I am also in the process of trying to contact therapist to try out CBT counseling alone with the medications.



Being said - I am deathly afraid of SSRIs and their side effects. I do not want to try them at all.  


What other medications are out there? I have social anxiety and also extremely bad blushing/face turning red and sweating - no matter the degree of the social situation. The social anxiety fuels the flushing, which then just fuels the social anxiety right back. 


Buspirone is helping, so I am not going to stop that. What medications may help with social anxiety and sweating/blushing?



It is really starting to take a toll on my life - friends, goals, meeting new people, etc. I am 24 years old and in the prime of my life, yet can't get out of my head.


Suggestions/advice?? 


**TL;DR**
What other medications help with social anxiety and sweating/blushing? I am open to trying any medications except SSRIs or others that may cause very bad side effects (yes I know some people have had success with them, but I am not trying them). Currently on buspirone and propranolol",axienty,wellbutrin giving anxiety looking alternative really trying tackle social general past week feeling great attitude positive good sense well started ago ahve notice actually getting slightly worse mainly helping depression however fueling everything treat making extremely nervous sweat blush flush bad matter situation currently also buspirone noticed helped much propranolol take even help physical symptom ativan save panic attack see doctor wednesday research medication may open minded supportive different process contact therapist try cbt counseling alone said deathly afraid ssri side effect want blushing face turning red sweating degree fuel flushing right back going stop starting toll life friend goal meeting new people etc year old prime yet get head suggestion advice tl dr except others cause yes know success,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Panic Attack Symptom? Hello everyone, I’m not sure if I experience panic attacks, as this has never happened to me until recently. What happens is I’ll start hyperventilating and crying, but I don’t feel like I’m doomed. I can still comprehend everything around me.

Just recently, I believed what I think was a panic attack happened, and my hands curled and locked in place. I looked up this symptom, and it looks like it’s called “tetany”. Has anyone else experienced this before? What did you do?",axienty,panic attack symptom hello everyone sure experience never happened recently happens start hyperventilating cry feel like doomed still comprehend everything around believed think hand curled locked place looked look called tetany anyone else experienced,0.43,Moderately Positive
"anxiety whenever i see a certain person hello whoever’s reading this. i’ll get right to the point. i’m 18 years old and a senior in high school. i used to be best friends with this guy. around 2 months ago i found out that he was lying about multiple things and realized how selfish and manipulative he really was. i stopped talking to him and we would give each other dirty looks whenever we’d pass each other at school.  eventually things escalated, and at a party he said things to me that i didn’t think were possible to come out of a former friend’s mouth. spring break was shortly after that so i didn’t have to deal with him for a few weeks. now i’m back at school and i’m extremely stressed and anxious at the thought of even seeing his face. i go throughout my day worrying about running into him and i’m scared of what he’s gonna do or say. 
how do i navigate this?",axienty,anxiety whenever see certain person hello whoever reading get right point year old senior high school used best friend guy around month ago found lying multiple thing realized selfish manipulative really stopped talking would give dirty look pas eventually escalated party said think possible come former mouth spring break shortly deal week back extremely stressed anxious thought even seeing face go throughout day worrying running scared gonna say navigate,0.03,Neutral
"Anxiety from news Hi guys, the news is making me terrified of waking up every day. I don't follow news sites on social media or get any news notifications, I've been actively trying to reduce my exposure to the news for months now.

But I can't escape it entirely and I get panic attacks when I accidentally come across bad world news. Heart rate increase, sweating, crying, the works. Sometimes it happens when I scroll twitter at work and then I can't focus for the rest of the day. It is ruining my life and I have no idea what to do anymore. I'm not really able to seek counseling at this point in my life due to extenuating factors.",axienty,anxiety news hi guy making terrified waking every day follow site social medium get notification actively trying reduce exposure month escape entirely panic attack accidentally come across bad world heart rate increase sweating cry work sometimes happens scroll twitter focus rest ruining life idea anymore really able seek counseling point due extenuating factor,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I struggle to know what it is I should do most of the time... during this anticipatory stage. If my anxiety oscillated between normal followed by panic, I wouldn’t feel so confused and constantly question what I should be doing right now. There aren’t any damn patterns. Further, It seems like most of the anxiety coping techniques (deep breathing, exercise, meditation, etc) are only effective at keeping the feelings at bay while you’re doing them. 30 minutes later you’re right back where you started.",axienty,struggle know time anticipatory stage anxiety oscillated normal followed panic feel confused constantly question right damn pattern seems like coping technique deep breathing exercise meditation etc effective keeping feeling bay minute later back started,0.08,Moderately Positive
"On New Year's Resolutions I'm subscribed a meditation app and I saw a great suggestion for New Year's resolutions:

They suggested not setting yourself hard goals which you can fail and beat yourself up with, but rather on what kinds of qualities you want to have as a person.

This will give you room to improve, even if it's slight, you can say you became slightly more x(organized, respectful, kind to yourself, etc.).

I think those of us with mental health issues can easily struggle with failure, and then we tend to make a hard commitment and when we fail once it twice, we tend to think of ourselves as failures. I love the idea of making progress towards becoming who you want to be, growing into your desires rather than setting harsh limits on what you're allowed to do.

Just something to keep in mind. It's okay to fail. Just keep trying.",axienty,new year resolution subscribed meditation app saw great suggestion suggested setting hard goal fail beat rather kind quality want person give room improve even slight say became slightly organized respectful etc think u mental health issue easily struggle failure tend make commitment twice love idea making progress towards becoming growing desire harsh limit allowed something keep mind okay trying,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Freaking out So I'm freaking out because I accidentally tapped 'add friend' on Facebook to add my aunt, and as soon as I did, I I untapped it. I was pretty quick because I was scrolling. But I'm freaking now that she got the notification and the request is gone.  I have to see her in a few weeks for a Communion and its going to be so awkward.. Too much time has passed now this evening to go back and add her again ffs why do I have to overthink this shit",axienty,freaking accidentally tapped add friend facebook aunt soon untapped pretty quick scrolling got notification request gone see week communion going awkward much time passed evening go back ffs overthink shit,0.0,Neutral
"student teacher with anxiety I am a student teacher, and today my cooperating teacher told me that i will be teaching/planning for the rest of my time as a student teacher... i literally started sweating and my heart started beating really fast and felt like my chest was tightening.. what are some coping mechanisms i could use for this?",axienty,student teacher anxiety today cooperating told teaching planning rest time literally started sweating heart beating really fast felt like chest tightening coping mechanism could use,0.2,Moderately Positive
"Need advice for my partner suffering from anxiety crossposted from r/socialanxiety

My partner suffers from what has been diagnosed as a generalised anxiety disorder but from what I can see has mainly been in response to social interactions. Neither him or I really understand why it happens. He doesn't have a lot of ""inner monologue"" so as much as we've tried to track his feelings, thoughts, or talk stuff out, it doesn't seem to get anywhere, because if he's not feeling anxious or stressed he can rationalise with himself really well.

But all of a sudden (or so it seems as I can't read his mind so it might not be), he'll like go for a haircut or something and get so jittery and uncomfortable that he'll pace around the shopping centre and not get it done. He says he can't figure out what he's thinking at all, his head is totally blank, there's almost no use talking to him when he's like this, I just try to relax him physically (via massages, make him food, etc.) and take on the responsibilities for the day so he gets a chance to truly wind down.

The big issue for him right now is going back to uni. He's been putting it off for over a year since he flunked a few classes due to lack of attendance (which I think happened because of his anxiety, back then he really had no idea what was happening and would just keep fibbing and avoiding the issue so no one knew he wasn't going). The goal is to try and get him back to uni as he's only got 1 year left, let me be clear that this is something that he wants to do and I could really care less if he went back to uni or not. It doesn't change how I view him though I understand there's societal pressure and he doesn't want to let down his parents (who aren't harsh on him for not finishing uni but think it's better that he finishes for the sake of just having the degree there if he wants to go straight into work).

I know there's probably a lot going on in terms of his relationship with uni and his anxiety around it, he really shuts down when I mention it (or when anyone mentions it for that matter). He can't function at all. He's been at home doing nothing for 2 weeks because whenever he does anything else that isn't organising going back to uni he feels guilty. He's been really irritable as well. But it's really hard to explore any of that with him, I think he's not ready.

He knows that a psych is a good start but when he saw a psychologist last time he wasn't able to open up about anything because of that feeling that just makes him shut down and his head go absolutely blank. Then he eventually just stopped going altogether. Which makes me wonder if going to a psychiatrist instead and trying medication might be better to take the pressure off.

I know with absolute certainty that he won't be able to make that phone call to a psychologist or a psychiatrist so I'll have to help him out. Would I be doing the right thing? Can anyone relate to what he's going through and point me in the right direction? I just don't want to smother him at all. Any advice would be super appreciated.",axienty,need advice partner suffering anxiety crossposted socialanxiety suffers diagnosed generalised disorder see mainly response social interaction neither really understand happens lot inner monologue much tried track feeling thought talk stuff seem get anywhere anxious stressed rationalise well sudden seems read mind might like go haircut something jittery uncomfortable pace around shopping centre done say figure thinking head totally blank almost use talking try relax physically via massage make food etc take responsibility day chance truly wind big issue right going back uni putting year since flunked class due lack attendance think happened idea happening would keep fibbing avoiding one knew goal got left let clear want could care le went change view though societal pressure parent harsh finishing better finish sake degree straight work know probably term relationship shuts mention anyone matter function home nothing week whenever anything else organising feel guilty irritable hard explore ready psych good start saw psychologist last time able open shut absolutely eventually stopped altogether wonder psychiatrist instead trying medication absolute certainty phone call help thing relate point direction smother super appreciated,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I feel like none of my friends understand or care about me I have been struggling with anxiety for years. I act like and tell people its not a big deal, but i’m starting to think it really is. I constantly think about death wherever I go, even at sleepovers or with my friends, and especially while im in bed all day. I can’t enjoy life anymore. i feel like all of my friends hate me and are excluding me because of it. i could really use someone to talk to or PM",axienty,feel like none friend understand care struggling anxiety year act tell people big deal starting think really constantly death wherever go even sleepover especially im bed day enjoy life anymore hate excluding could use someone talk pm,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Thinking things are lies I am an orthodox Christian and I have been suffering from constant thoughts of doubt. My doubts are about if Saints actually existed as people and if I look at their writings I’ll think they’re forgeries. I also doubt things in the Bible like if Paul was actually persecuted for his faith. I also think what I read is lies, usually it’s with something on Christianity like a book by a Saint or Christian apologetics when I get doubts about the authenticity of the Bible. I constantly search for people with the exact doubts and it’s driving me crazy. ",axienty,thinking thing lie orthodox christian suffering constant thought doubt saint actually existed people look writing think forgery also bible like paul persecuted faith read usually something christianity book apologetics get authenticity constantly search exact driving crazy,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"A cake day reflection. A year ago I was in a terrible place, the sole reason I joined Reddit was because of crippling anxiety and no one to talk to. My relationship was the most toxic thing I’ve ever been in. My friends stopped asking me to hang out, I quit my job. All due to anxiety. 

Now? Haven’t had a panic attack in 6 months. Got rid of the toxic relationship finally. Beautiful new girlfriend (who started as my best friend of a few years), who’s so supportive and relieves my anxiety instead of adding to it. Date your best friend, it’s the best thing in the world. Real friends who I take trips with and am able to talk about anything to. Doing everything anxiety told me I couldn’t. 

It gets better, y’all. Happy cake day to me. ",axienty,cake day reflection year ago terrible place sole reason joined reddit crippling anxiety one talk relationship toxic thing ever friend stopped asking hang quit job due panic attack month got rid finally beautiful new girlfriend started best supportive relief instead adding date world real take trip able anything everything told get better happy,0.31,Moderately Positive
"I'm constantly worried about my loved ones, especially my boyfriend I worry about him so much. I don't know how to stop. It makes me feel like a bad girlfriend. I ask him to text me immediately when he gets home from work because I worry about his safety. If he gets home later than usual and he hasn't texted me, I panic and feel sick because I think he's hurt or in some sort of trouble. Whenever I don't hear from for awhile in general I panic, even when I know logically that he's okay because he's just at work or busy with family. 

It's the worst when he's sick. I worry so much. I can barely get through the day because I just want to be there to take care of him but I can't be. I'm always afraid it's worse than it actually is. I'm never truly calm unless I know for certain he's 100% healthy and okay and happy. 

But I feel like a horrible girlfriend half the time because I'm always bugging him to text or call me because I have to be reassured because of my anxiety. I snap at him sometimes because my anxiety makes me angry and makes me feel horrible because he never loses his patience with me. I wish he knew that my anxiety and unhappiness isn't his fault, because he makes me happier than anyone else ever could. I've tried to explain but I feel like it wasn't good enough. I'm just so tired of feeling this way all the time. I wish I knew how I could make it stop. ",axienty,constantly worried loved one especially boyfriend worry much know stop make feel like bad girlfriend ask text immediately get home work safety later usual texted panic sick think hurt sort trouble whenever hear awhile general even logically okay busy family worst barely day want take care always afraid worse actually never truly calm unless certain healthy happy horrible half time bugging call reassured anxiety snap sometimes angry loses patience wish knew unhappiness fault happier anyone else ever could tried explain good enough tired feeling way,-0.08,Moderately Negative
Hello everyone I have a question. How can I stop worrying about getting in trouble at school? I said something really really bad on my snap and people screenshotted it and I’m worried that they are going to show the school so I can’t stop thinking about it. How can I stop worrying and not assume that?,axienty,hello everyone question stop worrying getting trouble school said something really bad snap people screenshotted worried going show thinking assume,-0.45,Moderately Negative
"How do you handle your anxiety when it emerges before a date? I've got a tinder date tomorrow and I'm bricking it and worried about having an episode. Do you ever be honest about it on a first date? On a first date I generally do the usual thing of acting like a completely different person. I act confident and upbeat and happy. Stick with the standard since it's only a first date?

""Hi, how are you? :)""


""~~Panicking terribly, so nauseous I nearly vomited and tearing up because I suffer from medical problem that makes normal situations a nightmare~~ Fine thanks, and you? :)""",axienty,handle anxiety emerges date got tinder tomorrow bricking worried episode ever honest first generally usual thing acting like completely different person act confident upbeat happy stick standard since hi panicking terribly nauseous nearly vomited tearing suffer medical problem make normal situation nightmare fine thanks,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Finally prescribed meds for my anxiety after a long time of not taking any...anyone have experience with these? I have Fluexotine to take when I wake up. It's an SSRI.

I have Seroquel to take to help me sleep. I've heard this might not be a good idea to take for sleep, but I'll listen to my doctor and at least try it.

And then for when I have bad panic attacks I have beta blockers. 

Anyone have experience taking any of these? I'm fairly nervous, especially about the beta blockers. ",axienty,finally prescribed med anxiety long time taking anyone experience fluexotine take wake ssri seroquel help sleep heard might good idea listen doctor least try bad panic attack beta blocker fairly nervous especially,0.05,Moderately Positive
"All I do is worry about my family and I’s health So I knew I had a touch of hypochondria, literally ever since I can remember.

1st grade a girl threw up in class and that was it. I was scared to go to school, I was scared to get sick, and I was especially scared to get sick at school.

Well I’m a junior in college now, and it has only gotten worse.

This week I’m on my spring break vacation, and my little sister isn’t feeling the best. It’s literally all I can think about. I can’t even enjoy myself, cause I’m constantly worried about her. 

I’m scared that it will be something more than just a bug, and I’m also scared that someone else in our family will get it, and I’m also scared we will look back on this trip and say we didn’t have fun because she was sick or someone else was.

I don’t know how to get past this. Health is honestly almost the upfront thing in my mind. It was especially bad last semester.

Any tips or tricks to help me out? I always think of the worst case scenario.",axienty,worry family health knew touch hypochondria literally ever since remember st grade girl threw class scared go school get sick especially well junior college gotten worse week spring break vacation little sister feeling best think even enjoy cause constantly worried something bug also someone else look back trip say fun know past honestly almost upfront thing mind bad last semester tip trick help always worst case scenario,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I took myself off my anti-psychotics because I was too anxious to find another psychologist in my new city. I just need to vent because I think I’ve made a terrible mistake. It’s obviously a mistake to do something like that without consulting my doctor.


My prescription was running out and my psychologist in my old city (3 hours away) refused to give me a refill. She said I have to find a psychologist and get a prescription through them instead. 


I started getting bad at taking them consistently. When I didn’t take them twice daily I would start getting really bad reactions; dizziness, fatigue, nausea etc. 


I started lowering my dosage until I finally stopped them all together because I don’t have the courage to find a new psychologist. It was so hard the first time.


Now I’m back to having extreme paranoia episodes. It doesn’t take much for me to start thinking someone is actually plotting against me or screwing with me, or that people just hate me. I finally had it all cleared up and I’m right back to where I started. I fucked up.


Don’t do this, people.",axienty,took anti psychotic anxious find another psychologist new city need vent think made terrible mistake obviously something like without consulting doctor prescription running old hour away refused give refill said get instead started getting bad taking consistently take twice daily would start really reaction dizziness fatigue nausea etc lowering dosage finally stopped together courage hard first time back extreme paranoia episode much thinking someone actually plotting screwing people hate cleared right fucked,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Anyone else annoyed that benzodiazepines have such a bad rep? Not talking about those who have adverse side affects. I don’t know how many times my doctor or psychiatrists don’t even think about putting me on the stuff even though SSRI’s don’t seem to have the wanted FULL effects. I’ve heard ppl going on benzos for up to 9 years and only reaching 2mg. Doctors can be so ignorant. There’s such a stigma with mental health drugs that makes it seem like everyone’s a drug addict. 


If you’re gonna try to lecture me on how horrible Xanax or Benzos are, I’ll block you.",axienty,anyone else annoyed benzodiazepine bad rep talking adverse side affect know many time doctor psychiatrist even think putting stuff though ssri seem wanted full effect heard ppl going benzos year reaching mg ignorant stigma mental health drug make like everyone addict gonna try lecture horrible xanax block,-0.22,Moderately Negative
"I want to leave my job, but I can't bring myself to search for a new one. Just the thought of them phoning me at any time or meeting them for an interview is terrifying to me. Anyone else? I can't even imagine giving in a letter of resignation to say I'm leaving ",axienty,want leave job bring search new one thought phoning time meeting interview terrifying anyone else even imagine giving letter resignation say leaving,-0.43,Moderately Negative
"I know that I can't be unemployed forever but I'm just too anxious to really do anything. And everyone in my family keeps asking what my plan is and I keep lying because saying I've got nothing is just too humiliating. I'm just stuck. Have any of you gone through something similar, and have any advice? I appreciate it.",axienty,know unemployed forever anxious really anything everyone family keep asking plan lying saying got nothing humiliating stuck gone something similar advice appreciate,-0.02,Neutral
"Is it okay to not be able to explain your anxiety? I dont know if this is quite normal but, I just sometimes get a large amount of fear and uncomfortableness that makes it so I cannot speak or really much of anything, like I've had past anxiety where I could at least somewhat see where my thought process was (ie. Not wanting to say something because my anxiety told me it was stupid) but now, I've been having points where it's not even explainable like that, just pure anxiety without a thought process, locking me down so I dont even do anything, just frozen in place with a blank mind. Is this even anxiety anymore?",axienty,okay able explain anxiety dont know quite normal sometimes get large amount fear uncomfortableness make cannot speak really much anything like past could least somewhat see thought process ie wanting say something told stupid point even explainable pure without locking frozen place blank mind anymore,0.04,Neutral
"How to cope with anxiety attacks during class? I'm almost 100% sure that I have anxiety attacks, but I can't even imagine approaching my mom about it. I definitely don't want my teachers to know and I feel like I can't tell them anyway because since I'm not diagnosed they might think I'm faking it. I was wondering how I can manage these when I have them in the middle of class without my teachers knowing? Like what are some techniques to calm down?",axienty,cope anxiety attack class almost sure even imagine approaching mom definitely want teacher know feel like tell anyway since diagnosed might think faking wondering manage middle without knowing technique calm,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Constant anxiety about girlfriend So me and my girlfriend have been together about a year. I have some anxiety and depression issues and she usually handles them very very well, being very supportive when I freak out which isn’t that often.

2 weeks ago I started coming off of my antidepressant Wellbutrin and I’ve had extremely intense paranoia and anxiety. I explained to my girlfriend beforehand that I apologize for any strange behavior that might happen.

My girlfriend has become extremely busy with school as well as her job and trying to hang out with other people. I have this crippling anxiety every single day that she’s starting to not like me as a partner anymore. I get extremely anxious if she doesn’t respond after a few hours, and then I call her or visit her to make sure things are alright between us.
She tells me things are fine and that I’ve been very anxious and paranoid lately. I almost always feel great after I stop talking to her, but then inevitably within the next 24 hours I’ll become overwhelmed with anxiety that I’m scaring her with my paranoia and anxiety. I try to contact her to make sure things are ok and she’s becoming increasingly annoyed.

I called her today to see if things were ok and she got more frustrated than usual. I just get so overwhelmingly anxious that she’s had the last straw with me and is going to leave me. She told me not to talk to her for the rest of today and that we should talk tomorrow.

I can’t take my mind being like this anymore and I don’t know what to do. I’m constantly, throughout every day, overwhelmed with anxiety about her and I can’t do anything productive. I can’t exercise, I can’t do new activities, I can’t focus on my job, and I get so anxious I want to quit my job. 

I just feel like I love my girlfriend so much that it’s pushing her away. What should I do? Sorry for this rant I’m just feeling a lot of stuff right now.",axienty,constant anxiety girlfriend together year depression issue usually handle well supportive freak often week ago started coming antidepressant wellbutrin extremely intense paranoia explained beforehand apologize strange behavior might happen become busy school job trying hang people crippling every single day starting like partner anymore get anxious respond hour call visit make sure thing alright u tell fine paranoid lately almost always feel great stop talking inevitably within next overwhelmed scaring try contact ok becoming increasingly annoyed called today see got frustrated usual overwhelmingly last straw going leave told talk rest tomorrow take mind know constantly throughout anything productive exercise new activity focus want quit love much pushing away sorry rant feeling lot stuff right,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else feel incompatible with most people?  

To clarify, this isn’t about dating, *this is about friendships*.

I know that sounds weird, but it’s how I feel.

I have to push so much against my anxiety just to interact with people last semester, and now I just feel burnt out and unmotivated to hang out with the people I know.

I feel like everyone is on a different page from me; I just can’t keep up and can contribute meaningfully (saying something that isn’t immediately forgotten.) People are always on their phones and are on each other’s social media 24/7, which is something I don’t do nor have any interest in doing. In the end I’m just a replaceable friend that sits there and nods while the interesting and valuable friends talk to each other.

I want to make new friends.

It is taking everything in my power to talk to another person and I’m so scared that I’ll never be able to find someone I click with. 

I just wanted to rant for a bit since this is causing me so much stress.",axienty,anyone else feel incompatible people clarify dating friendship know sound weird push much anxiety interact last semester burnt unmotivated hang like everyone different page keep contribute meaningfully saying something immediately forgotten always phone social medium interest end replaceable friend sits nod interesting valuable talk want make new taking everything power another person scared never able find someone click wanted rant bit since causing stress,0.1,Moderately Positive
"I feel like everyone is staring at me My boyfriend and I are on our first date in a really long time. We came to this restaurant we've never been too and right when we walked in, I swear everyone stopped talking and stared at us. It was so weird and now the restaurant has weird vibes. 

It's kind of a nice, new place and everyone looked at us like we were rats off the street. We are dressed nice though.

Did I just hallucinate this? Am I delusional? Im having serious anxiety and I just want to enjoy my date with my boyfriend but I'm getting super weird vibes from everyone here and they keep looking at me. Even our waiter seems a little off. 

I'm hiding in the bathroom now... to make things worse, i accidentally walked in on an old lady using the toilet because she didn't lock the door.  

",axienty,feel like everyone staring boyfriend first date really long time came restaurant never right walked swear stopped talking stared u weird vibe kind nice new place looked rat street dressed though hallucinate delusional im serious anxiety want enjoy getting super keep looking even waiter seems little hiding bathroom make thing worse accidentally old lady using toilet lock door,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Everyone thought I was being dramatic. But I was right. I knew for awhile something just didn’t feel right. I just had that gut instinct. One day in October 2018, I got sick at work. Completely out of the blue. I went to the ER that day and an MRI showed a tumor on my adrenal gland the size of my fist. 2 months later, I had my left adrenal gland removed. But even after surgery, I knew something still was not right. This time it was worse. I lost 30lbs in 2 weeks (I was a healthy 132 at 5’4” before) stopped sleeping, became extremely paranoid, started hallucinating, and I was not pleasant at all to be around. My specialists ran weekly labs and my hormones were extremely elevated, but I suddenly became infertile. My endocrinologist kept saying,”This wasn’t supposed to happen!” Yeah, no shit. 

Nobody could tell me how it was possible I was losing weight and yet, my cortisol was elevating quickly (high cortisol levels usually means you gain weight). I felt like my case was so far fetched, that people thought I was just seeking attention or making shit up. I should note, I work as a tech at a veterinary hospital that does specialty surgery, so I’d often get the question “how is that even possible?” in such a way that made me feel like they thought I was bullshitting. I really got that vibe that nobody believed that things got so much worse after surgery. 

But today, 3 months after my adrenalectomy, my doctor called. They found another tumor, this time on my pituitary gland (brain). I’ve been turned into a case study and nobody can tell me how on earth I got so lucky to have two rare benign tumors at the same fucking time (assuming my pituitary gland tumor is also benign because it’s even more rare if it was malignant). So yeah, I wasn’t as crazy as I thought. And I am relieved to know they found an answer, although because it’s a rare occurrence, more research needs to be done.

I think I can finally sleep tonight knowing it wasn’t just my anxiety overthinking everything this time. Again. ",axienty,everyone thought dramatic right knew awhile something feel gut instinct one day october got sick work completely blue went er mri showed tumor adrenal gland size fist month later left removed even surgery still time worse lost lb week healthy stopped sleeping became extremely paranoid started hallucinating pleasant around specialist ran weekly lab hormone elevated suddenly infertile endocrinologist kept saying supposed happen yeah shit nobody could tell possible losing weight yet cortisol elevating quickly high level usually mean gain felt like case far fetched people seeking attention making note tech veterinary hospital specialty often get question way made bullshitting really vibe believed thing much today adrenalectomy doctor called found another pituitary brain turned study earth lucky two rare benign fucking assuming also malignant crazy relieved know answer although occurrence research need done think finally sleep tonight knowing anxiety overthinking everything,-0.02,Neutral
Am I supposed to take vitamins with Prozac? My doctor didn't say anything but my Physcologist said to take B12 and other vitamins to work with it. ,axienty,supposed take vitamin prozac doctor say anything physcologist said work,0.0,Neutral
"What anxiety medication has worked best for you? I've been putting it off forever, but the heart palpitations combined with the huge anxiety toward doing *anything* difficult for me is getting out of hand. Doctors have recommended I try a plethora of meds over the years, but I really wanted to avoid all those nasty side effects. 

There are things I desperately want to get better at, but I just can't bring myself to do them. I think it might be performance anxiety. Petrified I'm going to fail and just choosing not to do it instead. 

I also get random bouts of anxiety accompanied by heart palpitations, which only makes the anxiety much worse since I know they greatly increase your chance at a stroke. I've had them 3 hours before bed, 4 hours rolling around unable to sleep in bed, then finally waking up 5 hours later, so when it happens it's bad. The only thing that makes them go away is exercise, but I can't be constantly doing that. 

So I'm thinking of bugging my current doctor for some kind of anxiety medication. Are there any that have improved your motivation and made it easier to do things you wouldn't otherwise do? I was on Adderall years ago and it was incredibly helpful for that, but I could not sleep at all while on it, and I was only at 10mg. ",axienty,anxiety medication worked best putting forever heart palpitation combined huge toward anything difficult getting hand doctor recommended try plethora med year really wanted avoid nasty side effect thing desperately want get better bring think might performance petrified going fail choosing instead also random bout accompanied make much worse since know greatly increase chance stroke hour bed rolling around unable sleep finally waking later happens bad go away exercise constantly thinking bugging current kind improved motivation made easier otherwise adderall ago incredibly helpful could mg,-0.02,Neutral
"Sometimes after a stressful situation I tend to feel high Sometimes after stressful situations I end up feeling like Im high even though I havent smoked. Like everything feels high, balance and all. 
I dont know if this information helps, but I have anxiety and some other stuff going on that still needs diagnosing. But I keep forgetting Im not high. But it feels like I am. Am I dying? Is this a thing or am I crazy?",axienty,sometimes stressful situation tend feel high end feeling like im even though havent smoked everything balance dont know information help anxiety stuff going still need diagnosing keep forgetting dying thing crazy,-0.22,Moderately Negative
"Hypercritical family as an adult It's been an issue my entire life. My family (grandparents/aunts/cousins) are hypercritical. My mom constantly has a motive and my dad is apathetic. Its resulted in extreme anxiety. I'm nearing thirty, have two great kids, a good job and I'm working towards my Masters but I'm constantly (and quite rudely) criticized by my family. I'm the black sheep because I am an artist and in school to teach literature. I think/dress/live differently than my family and am constantly picked apart. 
My grandparents track my every move and question my decisions as a mother, even though every thought is in my kids best interest and I am fully dedicated and work hard for them. 
Anyone experiment similar or have any advice? It is getting to where I can hardly go around them anymore. ",axienty,hypercritical family adult issue entire life grandparent aunt cousin mom constantly motive dad apathetic resulted extreme anxiety nearing thirty two great kid good job working towards master quite rudely criticized black sheep artist school teach literature think dress live differently picked apart track every move question decision mother even though thought best interest fully dedicated work hard anyone experiment similar advice getting hardly go around anymore,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Anxiety and depression is keeping me from doing anything productive. What can I do? Lately my anxiety has been at an all time high with having to juggle getting a job and going to college in a small amount of time.  I’m constantly fearing that every little pain in my neck, back, or chest is something fatal, I can’t focus on anything anyone is saying to me, and I’ve been having trouble communicating my thoughts and plans to other people as well.  I don’t have much money at all but I used to have a therapist who gave me a prescription for Wellbutrin to help me with my depression but I can’t remember if it helped. 

I guess what I’m looking for is advice.  As I mentioned, I don’t really have any money to spare so what are some of your methods I could try in order to relax?  I would like to try Wellbutrin again but I’m not sure that it’s worth it to spend money to see someone when I really just need the meds.  Is there anything I can do (not illegal, of course) to get the prescription without having to make weekly visits to a therapist?",axienty,anxiety depression keeping anything productive lately time high juggle getting job going college small amount constantly fearing every little pain neck back chest something fatal focus anyone saying trouble communicating thought plan people well much money used therapist gave prescription wellbutrin help remember helped guess looking advice mentioned really spare method could try order relax would like sure worth spend see someone need med illegal course get without make weekly visit,-0.01,Neutral
"Drinking alcohol gives me anxiety (even though I [21/F] really want to drink) Bit of backstory: I have been drinking since I was 17 (socially). Never had a problem with it and really enjoyed myself. I’ve gotten very intoxicated about 3 times, but all in all they were good nights. Also, I’m pretty healthy and work out regularly. 

Last November, I started having anxiety and had a few panic attacks. I was drinking one night my usual amount and wasn’t feeling anxious or thinking about anxiety at all. Then all of the sudden, I get a huge sense of panic. I tried to drink again another night and it happened again, only this time I had an actual panic attack. Again, anxiety wasn’t even on my mind. 

Since then, every time I attempt to drink, even if it’s just a little, I start feeling really weird and have to stop myself in order to avoid a panic attack. At this point I’m just really annoyed and miss being able to see alcohol as a fun way to connect with my friends and let loose instead of a way to make myself have a panic attack.

TL;DR: Alcohol gives me anxiety even though I’ve never had a problem with it in the past. Has anyone experienced the same thing, and how did you overcome it?",axienty,drinking alcohol give anxiety even though really want drink bit backstory since socially never problem enjoyed gotten intoxicated time good night also pretty healthy work regularly last november started panic attack one usual amount feeling anxious thinking sudden get huge sense tried another happened actual mind every attempt little start weird stop order avoid point annoyed miss able see fun way connect friend let loose instead make tl dr past anyone experienced thing overcome,0.11,Moderately Positive
"A major win (for me anyways) anxiety recluse -> driving freedom :) So having had anxiety so bad I pretty much didn’t leave my flat for several months, I’ve worked very hard (and had a lot of help) to get better and small wins would be enough (get to the shops, or go to work), but this is a big win kind of day... I passed my driving test!

This seemed so far away for so long, the number of little hills to climb before I got this far seemed insurmountable to me. I know other people have different struggles, but this is my Everest

Doesn’t seem real yet so going to keep telling myself for a while until it sinks it. I did it

I DID IT!!!",axienty,major win anyways anxiety recluse driving freedom bad pretty much leave flat several month worked hard lot help get better small would enough shop go work big kind day passed test seemed far away long number little hill climb got insurmountable know people different struggle everest seem real yet going keep telling sink,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Pre-Interview Panicking Longtime lurker, but I feel like I need to get this off of my chest.  I'm freaking myself out over something that I should be excited about.  It's a long one.  

I was medically retired from the Army two months ago.  My anxiety became horrible since I don't have a purpose other than SAHM activities and the panic/PTSD making me a hermit.  

I applied for a part-time job at a barn scooping poop, feeding, etc.  It shouldn't be a big deal since I did it as a volunteer for years at my previous duty station.  

My mind is already thinking of ways I can get out of it and why I'm not qualified.  I'm petrified of messing up the interview.  I tend to panic in new situations and talking to new people - my brain shuts down and I don't remember anything if I don't write it down.  

It's been a few hours since she called, but I'm still shaking and my stomach is in knots.  

I've also got to work out before/after school daycare since I have one kid doing part time preschool and my husband has a crazy schedule (which has me worried about working evenings).  Part of me wishes it was another volunteer position so I can let the kids play around the barn while I work.  

I'm obsessive over planning for *everything* that could go wrong and preparing as much as possible, and I'm not sure what to expect and it's driving me up the wall.  ",axienty,pre interview panicking longtime lurker feel like need get chest freaking something excited long one medically retired army two month ago anxiety became horrible since purpose sahm activity panic ptsd making hermit applied part time job barn scooping poop feeding etc big deal volunteer year previous duty station mind already thinking way qualified petrified messing tend new situation talking people brain shuts remember anything write hour called still shaking stomach knot also got work school daycare kid preschool husband crazy schedule worried working evening wish another position let play around obsessive planning everything could go wrong preparing much possible sure expect driving wall,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"Overthinking..do I have anxiety? Warning: a wall of text. People mention that I could have anxiety when I describe my feelings + physical symptoms to them, so I thought I'd ask for more opinions on here.

I tend to overthink a lot of simple situations. This often leads to indecision and stems from (what I think) a lack of self-confidence. My thoughts always tend towards some type of ""Shit. I did xx wrong. (Insert worst case scenario) will happen.""

A few weeks back, I felt queasy out of the blue. Last block math class on a Friday. I was replaying all these scenarios in my head; how every little thing that could go wrong went wrong. My hands are usually sweaty and cold, so I didn't notice that they were colder and sweatier than normal. I excused myself because I thought I needed to go to the bathroom, but in the bathroom I found it hard to breathe. I started crying for some odd reason. All I could think in my head was how much I've disappointed everyone around me: my parents, friends, teachers. In particular, this one image of not being good enough at school repeated. How my teachers were probably disappointed in my lack of effort, my bad grades, or just how I spoke in class (I think I often come across as rude).

I can't stop thinking about how rude I am, how stupid I am, and how undeserving of everything I am. I want to be a better person, and this is making me overthink every little step I make.

Today I made a mistake and apologized for doing it. But I can't let go of the fact that this person's perception of me has changed for the worse. That I could've done better. That I maybe should've. Fuck.

tl;dr: I'm a stupid person who overthinks too much. I get really scared and nervous when this happens and can't breathe. I make a lot of mistakes. I think people don't respect me anymore. Do I have anxiety?",axienty,overthinking anxiety warning wall text people mention could describe feeling physical symptom thought ask opinion tend overthink lot simple situation often lead indecision stem think lack self confidence always towards type shit xx wrong insert worst case scenario happen week back felt queasy blue last block math class friday replaying head every little thing go went hand usually sweaty cold notice colder sweatier normal excused needed bathroom found hard breathe started cry odd reason much disappointed everyone around parent friend teacher particular one image good enough school repeated probably effort bad grade spoke come across rude stop thinking stupid undeserving everything want better person making step make today made mistake apologized let fact perception changed worse done maybe fuck tl dr overthinks get really scared nervous happens respect anymore,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"Muscle Tense-Up / Loss of Motor Control from Anxiety??? Throwaway because this is embarrassing.

Hello all. I have always had significant anxiety issues, but in the last year I'm beginning to have some crippling and embarrassing physical symptoms.


In periods of high anxiety - especially at work or in social situations with unfamiliar people - I begin to have involuntary muscle contractions and/or muscle lock up. It's almost as if my muscles are just tensing up uncontrollably - my posture shrinks into an old man and worst of all: I literally lose the ability to speak! Like I can't even focus enough to spit out a sentence without my mouth and face muscles locking up.


There is clearly a psychological component as this is clearly triggered by eye contact, attention, knowing I need to sit still, and/or being with unfamiliar people.


I am currently taking Welbutrin and Gabapentin, but I'm not seeing a therapist. I'm not looking for a diagnosis, but I'd like to know if anyone has anyone else ever experienced anything like this???

Thanks.",axienty,muscle tense loss motor control anxiety throwaway embarrassing hello always significant issue last year beginning crippling physical symptom period high especially work social situation unfamiliar people begin involuntary contraction lock almost tensing uncontrollably posture shrink old man worst literally lose ability speak like even focus enough spit sentence without mouth face locking clearly psychological component triggered eye contact attention knowing need sit still currently taking welbutrin gabapentin seeing therapist looking diagnosis know anyone else ever experienced anything thanks,0.02,Neutral
"I have anxiety about even applying for simple jobs I first had a job at 14. Unfortunately they didn’t keep me long. I searched again and finally got a job at 16. They fired me for a really stupid reason completely out of my control. I did trails at different jobs but even when I told them I wished to have training for my anxiety I was never hired because “I didn’t have enough training” and I couldn’t find anyone who wanted to train me. 

I have really bad anxiety but have done volunteering so I can talk to people so I can do customer service jobs. I have finished school, I have my RSA and RCG, I have a diploma, I have plenty of volunteer work. 

However I cannot work anywhere I have to wear long pants, so fast food is out. However around here a lot of waitresses wear shorts and skirts, same with some other stores 

My other problem is that to me it’s embarrassing that I am 19 and have never had a proper job. I have never been kept for more than a week. I also worry that because of my age everywhere will just hire someone younger because it will be cheaper. 

I feel like I will never get a job and it’s embarrassing enough.",axienty,anxiety even applying simple job first unfortunately keep long searched finally got fired really stupid reason completely control trail different told wished training never hired enough find anyone wanted train bad done volunteering talk people customer service finished school rsa rcg diploma plenty volunteer work however cannot anywhere wear pant fast food around lot waitress short skirt store problem embarrassing proper kept week also worry age everywhere hire someone younger cheaper feel like get,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Support/advice about being jobless First, I'm very, very lucky in that my husband has a decent job that can support us so that I don't have to work if I can't. After my anxiety got so bad that I was having constant panic attacks, stopping by the side of the road to throw up almost every day, I had to take some time off and get my medicine sorted out. 

Well, it's been two years and I'm somewhat better than I was, but still bad. I've been through five different medicines, all with varying successes. And even the thought of going back to the workplace makes me panic because what if I can't handle it again? It was a nightmare. There are few other careers I can really pursue where we live with my degree, so I'm a bit stuck in that one. And I've been out of the workforce so long, how can I explain my absence to an employer? ""Mental breakdown"" doesn't seem great.

I feel like a bum. I've been trying to start writing fiction because I've always wanted to do that, but I just hate everything I write. I volunteer for a few places but shortly learned I couldn't make a huge commitment anywhere because I'd panic and not be able to show up. Am I just commitment phobic? I don't understand what's wrong with me. I just want to do something with my life.

I don't want my whole life to be this way. I hate having to explain my employment situation to friends and acquaintances and people I meet, so socializing is difficult too. Everyone's first question is always, ""What do you do?"" I'm so frustrated with myself. ",axienty,support advice jobless first lucky husband decent job u work anxiety got bad constant panic attack stopping side road throw almost every day take time get medicine sorted well two year somewhat better still five different varying success even thought going back workplace make handle nightmare career really pursue live degree bit stuck one workforce long explain absence employer mental breakdown seem great feel like bum trying start writing fiction always wanted hate everything write volunteer place shortly learned huge commitment anywhere able show phobic understand wrong want something life whole way employment situation friend acquaintance people meet socializing difficult everyone question frustrated,0.02,Neutral
"Sunsets make me feel weird? Ever since I was a kid sunsets have always given me a strange feeling. I can't tell if it's good or bad, it seems completely neutral and very hard to explain. It feels familier and safe but also scary and wrong, like something bad is about to happen. I didn't motice it for years but it's come back very strongly within the last few months. I have suffered with anxiety all my life but I only really have good memories regarding sunsets. I also suffered depersonalisation for almost two years, which recently went away in November, and since then the feeling has reappeared. I still dissociate, usually derealisation. 

Does anyone else get this feeling with anything? 
",axienty,sunset make feel weird ever since kid always given strange feeling tell good bad seems completely neutral hard explain familier safe also scary wrong like something happen motice year come back strongly within last month suffered anxiety life really memory regarding depersonalisation almost two recently went away november reappeared still dissociate usually derealisation anyone else get anything,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety causing Bowel changes.. So I never really had bad anxiety in my life. It started happening last year in very specific scenarios (like going on a plane for example). But lately it hit me hard. Im 24 btw.

The bad first started up when I checked for a lump on my testicle and found a marble sized lump on the top. My stomach dropped when I found it and I never been the same since. Many times a day I would think about it, wondering if it was cancer and if it spread blah blah blah. Once I found that, my stress levels have obviously increased by a lot, and at that week I also started having bowel changes. Yellow stool, thin stool, diarrhea, constipation. I went to a urologist and was diagnosed with an epididymal cyst (harmless) and that relieved me, but my poop hasn't changed. Its causing me the same anxiety I would get when finding the lump on my testicle and i'm still very worried about it. 

Anyway, i plan on getting a colonoscopy (rather be safe than sorry!) but I just want to know if anyone has had a similar experience? I think it could be IBS because it only started when I started getting bad anxiety but its been 2 weeks now. Could the anxiety keep the symptoms going longer?

Thanks for replies!",axienty,anxiety causing bowel change never really bad life started happening last year specific scenario like going plane example lately hit hard im btw first checked lump testicle found marble sized top stomach dropped since many time day would think wondering cancer spread blah stress level obviously increased lot week also yellow stool thin diarrhea constipation went urologist diagnosed epididymal cyst harmless relieved poop changed get finding still worried anyway plan getting colonoscopy rather safe sorry want know anyone similar experience could ibs keep symptom longer thanks reply,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Just had my first anxiety attack at 22 from a choking phobia ive been having issues eating food recently, afraid im going to choke on it. It's only been an issue with food so i just always have a full glass of liquid nearby to put myself to ease. Today when I got home from work I tried to eat some left over sushi, already taking a very small bite. As soon as it was in my mouth I felt the sensation of my throat tightening up and opening rapidly. I spit out the food and try to drink some water but find I can't. I immediately felt overcome by some deep worry I guess? My heart started beating fast, I felt like I couldn't feel my hands (I don't know how to explain the feeling), and I felt a deep pit (?) in my throat. I had to sit down and text my wife about it. She told me to breathe deep and now I feel a bit better.

Does this happen to any of you? What do yall do when this hits, and how do you get food down? I still havent had any food yet and I cant drink my water.

Tl;dr- choking phobia lead to what I think was my first ever anxiety and i dont know where to go from here",axienty,first anxiety attack choking phobia ive issue eating food recently afraid im going choke always full glass liquid nearby put ease today got home work tried eat left sushi already taking small bite soon mouth felt sensation throat tightening opening rapidly spit try drink water find immediately overcome deep worry guess heart started beating fast like feel hand know explain feeling pit sit text wife told breathe bit better happen yall hit get still havent yet cant tl dr lead think ever dont go,0.06,Moderately Positive
School At 19,axienty,school,0.0,Neutral
"Dreams & Anxiety Ive had anxiety all of my life but Its slowly getting more crippling. 

On Thursday night I had an end-of-world dream involving meteors and the earth spinning too fast and off into space and I know that's not even close to scientifically accurate but the emotions I felt right at the climax of it all is really staying with me. Its like I experienced the emotions and feelings of it all and now I have some sort of mild PTSD from it. 

Since the dream, I've developed fears of living on a floating globe (but theres nowhere else for me to exist) and i can barely look at the sky. 

Im getting vertigo panic attacks top. 

Has anyone else experienced this or know what i do to even try to begin to overcome this? ",axienty,dream anxiety ive life slowly getting crippling thursday night end world involving meteor earth spinning fast space know even close scientifically accurate emotion felt right climax really staying like experienced feeling sort mild ptsd since developed fear living floating globe there nowhere else exist barely look sky im vertigo panic attack top anyone try begin overcome,0.26,Moderately Positive
"Need to know if anyone can relate. My anxiety (what I think is anxiety at least) manifests in a few ways. I get a burning feeling in my stomach that I wake up with and go to bed with. Omeprazole doesn’t help at all. 

I don’t feel like myself and am constantly worried about what other people are thinking. Oftentimes I’ll be having conversations and completely blank on what to say. I almost feel like I have lost my jokey, fun personality completely and I have no idea where it went. I feel extremely detached from friends and family and feel like I live inside of my head. 

I once felt this way for about three years and it eventually went away and I was happy and had no idea what happened. I’m back on birth control and have a feeling it’s related. 

I think I’m going to stop taking it but was hoping someone out there could relate. I really can’t shake this feeling and it feels like it’s consuming me. 

Thanks for any words at all ",axienty,need know anyone relate anxiety think least manifest way get burning feeling stomach wake go bed omeprazole help feel like constantly worried people thinking oftentimes conversation completely blank say almost lost jokey fun personality idea went extremely detached friend family live inside head felt three year eventually away happy happened back birth control related going stop taking hoping someone could really shake consuming thanks word,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I wish i could go back in time and be that kid that didn't worry too much about his problems. Now I'm 24 and it seems that I can't stop thinking about things. I'm thinking about therapy tho, 75% decided to start it ",axienty,wish could go back time kid worry much problem seems stop thinking thing therapy tho decided start,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Changing up my meds Hi! I have depression and severe general anxiety. I’ve been on lexapro for the past 1.5 years but 2 days ago my doctor prescribed me Wellbutrin to take along with my lexapro. Since I’ve started the Wellbutrin, my brain feels fuzzy, I have a loss of appetite, and my brain just feels cloudy and out of it. Is this normal for switching to a new medication or should I talk to my doctor about coming off of Wellbutrin? ",axienty,changing med hi depression severe general anxiety lexapro past year day ago doctor prescribed wellbutrin take along since started brain feel fuzzy loss appetite cloudy normal switching new medication talk coming,0.02,Neutral
"Is it safe to take 50 mg of buspar if i regularly take 30mg? I have a prescription. I'm on several different meds, but I've recently run out of everything but the buspar. I also use weed to help with my anxiety, but I ran out last night.

This morning I took 50mg of Buspar instead of 30mg like I usually do, but I am worried if this is safe, or if I've just made a gigantic mistake? 

Please help.",axienty,safe take mg buspar regularly prescription several different med recently run everything also use weed help anxiety ran last night morning took instead like usually worried made gigantic mistake please,0.04,Neutral
"everytime i get invited somewhere i get super anxious im just tired of this.

i can't go on about things thinking that's so cool someone wants me to be on their bday party, 

but instead i get anxious and immediately think about excuses not to go.

then if i can't find ones, or feel like i should go to that person's party because they're friends or because socializing then i'm anxious up until the party and it's driving me nuts.

is it even possible for me not to feel anxious like that? jesus...",axienty,everytime get invited somewhere super anxious im tired go thing thinking cool someone want bday party instead immediately think excuse find one feel like person friend socializing driving nut even possible jesus,0.0,Neutral
"Meds changed back to where i was so i finally got tired of being anxious and depressed, crying daily, not leaving the house a few months ago and decided it was time to see a doctor again. I would only leave to work, and couldnt hold a job very long due to the anxiety(eventually stop going after successfully alienating myself from everyone) and went to see a psychiatrist. He started me on 40mg of fluoxetine and 50mg atenolol a day with 1mg lorazepam 3x daily as needed. I averaged about 2 of the lorazepam a day, some days 3 some days 1 or even 0, and 1 time i took 4(christmas with the family, not all at once but over the course of the evening) I went back after about 2 and a half months and he increased my atenolol to 100mg and switched me to .5mg alprazolam 1x a day(from the past i knew this wouldnt be an effective dose but he wouldnt listen) For the 2 and a half months i felt like i was leading a normal life, doing well in school, seeing friends again, working, going on dates(have a girlfriend who understands my anxiety and we met when  i was drinking to deal with it so this is the worst shes ever seen me and wants me to find a new doctor) interacting with my family and not hiding in my room all day. With the switch to xanax ive gone back to my old ways of hiding away, crying, not eating, and have almsot purchased cigarettes again(quit smoking about 10 months ago). When i call my psychiatrist he doesnt have time for me but seems to have time to take phone calls during my appointments with him. I know benzo withdrawl is basically anxiety so its hard to judge whats actually going on with me, and dont even know what i want to be responded to just had to get this out of a notebook and into the world outside of my little circle. my family and friends wish i could get back on a higher benzo dose because they all said i was me again on them, and i understand the addiction thing as why he doesnt want me to be on them but is it really better to not be dependent on a chemical and live half a life at best, or be dependent on a chemical and live a full life?",axienty,med changed back finally got tired anxious depressed cry daily leaving house month ago decided time see doctor would leave work couldnt hold job long due anxiety eventually stop going successfully alienating everyone went psychiatrist started mg fluoxetine atenolol day lorazepam needed averaged even took christmas family course evening half increased switched alprazolam past knew wouldnt effective dose listen felt like leading normal life well school seeing friend working date girlfriend understands met drinking deal worst shes ever seen want find new interacting hiding room switch xanax ive gone old way away eating almsot purchased cigarette quit smoking call doesnt seems take phone appointment know benzo withdrawl basically hard judge whats actually dont responded get notebook world outside little circle wish could higher said understand addiction thing really better dependent chemical live best full,0.01,Neutral
"Starting a totally new job tomorrow. Im excited and really anxious. I can't think of anything that will go wrong, but I also have no clue what to expect besides that I start at 9am. ",axienty,starting totally new job tomorrow im excited really anxious think anything go wrong also clue expect besides start,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Coping strategies for a figure skater? This is for my sixteen year old daughter. She's been skating since she was 9, and has always had some issues with other skaters ""encroaching"" on her space.  Fortunately, our club and the number of skaters using the Freestyle ice that the arena provides were small. The past year however our club has doubled in size and there are a lot more skaters on the ice whom my daughter has to share the space with. Some days she can handle this. Some days are horrible. 

When she's having a bad day, every perceived encroachment is a personal attack and she becomes much more rigidly fixed in her protection of her personal space. The more skaters seem to skate too close to her (in her perception) the more upset and stressed out she will become. 

The strategies she's been given to use in other places (school, home, public places) don't translate well to an ice rink. For example, she can't put in ear buds, she can't have a fidget toy, she can't use a small ball of putty/clay.  She claims that she loves skating and doesn't want to stop, but it's getting harder and harder for her to not tense up and become frustrated on the ice. This is naturally affecting her practice time, so she's not doing as well as she would like, which leads to more frustration and it's a constant cycle. 

Does anyone have any suggestions that might help her relax and focus on the ice? ",axienty,coping strategy figure skater sixteen year old daughter skating since always issue encroaching space fortunately club number using freestyle ice arena provides small past however doubled size lot share day handle horrible bad every perceived encroachment personal attack becomes much rigidly fixed protection seem skate close perception upset stressed become given use place school home public translate well rink example put ear bud fidget toy ball putty clay claim love want stop getting harder tense frustrated naturally affecting practice time would like lead frustration constant cycle anyone suggestion might help relax focus,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"How do I build up the courage to call someone? I need to call a few companies to ask if they still have some jobs open but I don't know how to go about this? I mean it should be pretty simple. Dial the number, call and just ask. At least that's how it should go but my mind is running wild with anxious thoughts and irrational fears that I don't know how to fight. Normally I would just apply via email but that hasn't gotten me that far in the last few months so I need to try something new.",axienty,build courage call someone need company ask still job open know go mean pretty simple dial number least mind running wild anxious thought irrational fear fight normally would apply via email gotten far last month try something new,-0.01,Neutral
"-What are you gonna do with that strange looking super shiny thing over there? -That's not really going anywhere *near* me, **is** it??? ? -Wish I could go on my phone right now and play a silly game to distract myself but I've just got to sit here while Dr. fiddles around in my mouth. -I love the way the drill makes a sound like kittens.",axienty,gonna strange looking super shiny thing really going anywhere near wish could go phone right play silly game distract got sit dr fiddle around mouth love way drill make sound like kitten,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Is this Anxiety? Or an urge to do well? Thought I would post this in here. Really curious. Recently (I'm 18 btw) I have noticed a funny feeling in my gut almost 24/7. I feel like I'm procrastinating for something, but I don't know what. I feel bad if I sit at home after college and don't do anything productive. I feel bad if I don't hit up a girl or if I have no plans for the weekend. I don't know if this is anxiety from wanting to succeed or just that I have an urge/desire to constantly improve my life.",axienty,anxiety urge well thought would post really curious recently btw noticed funny feeling gut almost feel like procrastinating something know bad sit home college anything productive hit girl plan weekend wanting succeed desire constantly improve life,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Anxious partner needs me to stay, I need to get space. I have this issue with my GF, who has pretty extreme anxiety attacks, spirals, self-harm, abandonment issues. She's medicated and has a therapist, and has been getting much better over the years, but this one issue still plagues us. 

I have dealt with past traumas being with her, when she put me in impossible situations (don't leave or i'll hurt myself, that kind of stuff), and my boundary has been that when it gets too much (circular crying, toxic venting, accusations, threats of self-harm) I walk out to calm myself down. 

Now, she has become much more independent in dealing with her panic attacks, they are super rare. But when they happen, it seems worse than before. 

When it gets really bad, my own anger and anxiety begins to flare up and i need to get away, otherwise i'll just yell at her because I feel trapped. Thing is, she says she can't be alone when she begins to panic, she ""needs me"". Most times, I can help her, soothe her. But not always, sometimes, I just need to get out. So this ends up with me trying to leave the house and her screaming and crying and grabbing my legs trying to force me to stay. Or once I'm out, she'll call me raging and threatening with vague or dramatic suicidal terms.

It's really destructive, because walking away is all i can do to not yell at her for being so immature and manipulative (this is not judgement, this is just how her panic attack brain works). 

How can we find a middle ground here? I can't handle her panic, sometimes, i just break down myself and I make things worse. I have to go, but she won't let me leave.",axienty,anxious partner need stay get space issue gf pretty extreme anxiety attack spiral self harm abandonment medicated therapist getting much better year one still plague u dealt past trauma put impossible situation leave hurt kind stuff boundary circular cry toxic venting accusation threat walk calm become independent dealing panic super rare happen seems worse really bad anger begin flare away otherwise yell feel trapped thing say alone time help soothe always sometimes end trying house screaming grabbing leg force call raging threatening vague dramatic suicidal term destructive walking immature manipulative judgement brain work find middle ground handle break make go let,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"I had a major panic attack at work and made a fool of myself I was in a meeting with two managers and all of a sudden I felt faint and light headed. My mouth went really dry and I felt suddenly extremely unwell. I stood up and sort of staggered to the door and said I'm feeling faint and the moment I got out of the room I started to hyperventilate. I sat down in the break space where about 20 of my co-workers were sitting and was hyperventilating so bad I couldn't see clearly. People immediately start surrounding me and I just couldn't bear it and lurched to my feet and ran into the bathroom and pretty much collapsed in one of the stalls, still hyperventilating. By then I thought I was about to die and then an ambulance crew was there and they took me out of there on a stretcher and put me in an ambulance. I slowly came down out of it, but they took me to the hospital anyway. I have worked for my company for over a decade and am incredibly embarrassed. Im sitting here feeling absolutely awful and wonder how badly I damaged my reputation. This is the 2nd time in my life that this has happened, but the first time I was alone. The first time happened almost 7 years ago. ",axienty,major panic attack work made fool meeting two manager sudden felt faint light headed mouth went really dry suddenly extremely unwell stood sort staggered door said feeling moment got room started hyperventilate sat break space co worker sitting hyperventilating bad see clearly people immediately start surrounding bear lurched foot ran bathroom pretty much collapsed one stall still thought die ambulance crew took stretcher put slowly came hospital anyway worked company decade incredibly embarrassed im absolutely awful wonder badly damaged reputation nd time life happened first alone almost year ago,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Can you describe your anxiety in one sentence? I’m a bookbinder & graphic designer and thought it would be interesting to hear other thoughts and maybe make it into a little zine for an upcoming project! I want to help illustrate how constricting and scary anxiety can be. 

For me... Imagine you’re walking down stairs and you miss a step, your heart jumps up into your throat, but imagine that feeling staying with you all day. ",axienty,describe anxiety one sentence bookbinder graphic designer thought would interesting hear maybe make little zine upcoming project want help illustrate constricting scary imagine walking stair miss step heart jump throat feeling staying day,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"New to this I've recently started getting overwhelming senses of anxiousness, they seem to come from nowhere. I've had a rougher upbringing but I'm doing really good in life now. I can't breathe and it's really hard for me to find a sense of self? The weird part is my GF is getting the SAME feelings I'm getting. It hits completely randomly and we can't find anything on it. ",axienty,new recently started getting overwhelming sens anxiousness seem come nowhere rougher upbringing really good life breathe hard find sense self weird part gf feeling hit completely randomly anything,0.01,Neutral
"Concerned about the GRE I'm taking the GRE on Thursday for grad school applications. I'm really panicking about it because I waited way too long to get prepared. I had an anxiety attack during a practice exam I did online today. I have ADHD as well as GAD and I definitely qualify for the GRE's disability accommodations, but I waited too long to apply for it and now I have to take the exam without them. I am so mad at myself for procrastinating so much, and its hindering the very little amount of studying and preparing I am able to do at this point. I have a very strong application aside from GRE scores, but if my GRE score is really bad I'm afraid that I won't get in. 

",axienty,concerned gre taking thursday grad school application really panicking waited way long get prepared anxiety attack practice exam online today adhd well gad definitely qualify disability accommodation apply take without mad procrastinating much hindering little amount studying preparing able point strong aside score bad afraid,-0.08,Moderately Negative
Last few weeks I’ve overcome some serious issues and I was traveling most the time and it helped me a lot. But now that I’m home I’m falling back to my old self I’m isolating myself in my house. I barely go out again I can’t even manage to get myself a haircut and I don’t want fall back in this hole again. I picked myself up and going falling back can someone help me.,axienty,last week overcome serious issue traveling time helped lot home falling back old self isolating house barely go even manage get haircut want fall hole picked going someone help,-0.04,Neutral
"Work based anxiety My employer has been bullying me for years now. They are making me go to a coach. My feeling is that they are gaslighting and trying to document issues to fire me. I'm not an at will employee so they need cause.

In about a week I will have to meet with the coach. I'm extremely anxious. I will likely have a panic attack before I meet him. I'd like to avoid it if possible. 

I've been off work for anxiety previously and my employer retaliated for taking FMLA leave. I complained to the department of labor. DOL determined in my favor.

I can meet the coach but I really don't feel I have anything to gain from that. It will give my bullying employer ammunition against me.

If I don't meet with the coach I will likely be further punished and it will be ammunition against me too. However, I think I'd be able to see a Dr and get time off if I need to.  Legally I'd be protected from punishment or job loss. Reality is different.

I know what they are doing is not legal but it's hard to enforce employment laws. I don't know what to do.

Any advice?",axienty,work based anxiety employer bullying year making go coach feeling gaslighting trying document issue fire employee need cause week meet extremely anxious likely panic attack like avoid possible previously retaliated taking fmla leave complained department labor dol determined favor really feel anything gain give ammunition punished however think able see dr get time legally protected punishment job loss reality different know legal hard enforce employment law advice,0.01,Neutral
"Have severe phone anxiety, finding it hard to find a job due to it, any advice ? I have always had really bad phone anxiety. I don't pick up any numbers I don't know and let them go to voicemail. I don't know why. I've been trying to job hunt but it's hard to find a job that has little phone duties, and the other day someone finally called and left a voicemail saying to call back for an interview but I've been terrified to call back. That was 2 days ago. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be moving to another city next month and feel too scared to call back and say never mind I won't be able to go to that job. I feel really guilty about it and don't want to waste their time but every time I think I should call I am paralyzed in fear :( it sounds so silly because I'm fine going somewhere and talking to someone in person just not on the phone. Does anyone else have this issue? Any tips? ",axienty,severe phone anxiety finding hard find job due advice always really bad pick number know let go voicemail trying hunt little duty day someone finally called left saying call back interview terrified ago pretty sure going moving another city next month feel scared say never mind able guilty want waste time every think paralyzed fear sound silly fine somewhere talking person anyone else issue tip,-0.03,Neutral
"Wet blanket My anxiety’s as bad as it’s ever been lately, and it is turning me into a wet blanket in my life. I can’t say yes to some potentially lucrative situations or fun adventures because I’m afraid of what people are going to think or say. I have this paralyzing need for approval, reassurance and permission and it’s making me sick and hurting the people I love. ",axienty,wet blanket anxiety bad ever lately turning life say yes potentially lucrative situation fun adventure afraid people going think paralyzing need approval reassurance permission making sick hurting love,-0.2,Moderately Negative
"Read something today in NatGeo that may help some people down the road. On face value this is gonna sound horrible, but in a way it kinda makes sense. Anxiety is caused by past traumas, and our brains gearing up for something similar to happen again, thereby running our fight-or-flight systems all the time. But, perhaps to alleviate some of the symptoms, if you experience a trauma, however terrible, whatever it might be, DON'T go try to sleep it off and make it feel better (which I myself have done). As perfect as that sounds at face value, sleeping can actually dedicate the trauma to long(er) term memory, thereby making it a chronic issue. Hope this helps somebody out there deal with something in the future. As much as we'd all love for terrible things to never happen, they inevitably will, it's how we deal with them that makes all the difference.",axienty,read something today natgeo may help people road face value gonna sound horrible way kinda make sense anxiety caused past trauma brain gearing similar happen thereby running fight flight system time perhaps alleviate symptom experience however terrible whatever might go try sleep feel better done perfect sleeping actually dedicate long er term memory making chronic issue hope somebody deal future much love thing never inevitably difference,0.01,Neutral
"Family issues I don't know if this the the best place to post this or if anyone cares but I need a place to vent. My family just had the biggest fight yet and everything seems to be coming down. We were just eating and out of nowhere my mom got really pissed off at a comment my sister said and that of broken the last straw. 

A little background, we are 5 people living in a house (parents, sister and her husband and me) since I can recall my sister and mom always had issues since they think they are right all the time and want thing to be their way. The get along and love each other but at some moments one of the loses their shit and goes ape shit. My sister and I lived away from them for a long time (I was 5 and my sister 16 when we started living away) during this time my sister and I lived with an aunt (she is basically a second mother for us) but talked on the phone with them often. They worked their ass off to give us the life they never had since there were basically poor growing up. They sacrificed so many things to make sure we had everything, now this came with dad having some kind of thing about us. He always causes us for being good for nothing and pretty much that we were a waste of time and money (that's the way I take it at least ) I don't really have bad thoughts towards him but he is done some things that don't sit well with me. He accused accused my mom of cheating, he was on some kind of drugs for a while and there was some suspicious activities he is done that would imply that he sleep with some man(he was doing this shit when I was living with him and my mom). I moved back with my dad  when I was a freshman in high school and my mom was working out of town. Then my mom moved back with us when she could and all that stuff happened (drugs, etc). I'VE SEEN MY MOTHER CRY BECAUSE OF HIM AND THAT IS ALWAYS IN MY HEAD. As for my sister we is not really emotionally that stable and could be considered a control freak. She has broken down a couple times and even attempted to jump of a balcony. 

At some point my sister and fiance at the time moved with us because that's the only place they could go. We lived in an apartment at the moment after a couple month my now brother in law found a job and they my sister and him moved to a house. Now some time forward (I'm in college at this point, my timeline my be a bit messed up) something happened to the complex we lived in. One of the apartments caught fire and that spread to the other apartments  but somehow the fire didn't reach ours (my parents and mine) most people lost all of their stuff either by the fire or water damage, only 3 of the 12 apartment we saved. The complex didn't let us get anything from them because of ""SAFETY"" but guess what happened the next 2-3 days.... Well some people broke into the apartments that we saved and stole everything, there we're things on  the parking lot, and the apartment looked like a fucking tornado was inside and not only did they do it once but twice and they even had time to open some drinks we had there. Anyways after all this shit we did have a place to go BUT WAIT my sister and husband have a house and they offered to help us. My mom was on crutches because she had a knee operation and it was  really rough. Here we stayed for a while and fights happened often but the ended fairly fast. My sister is a borderline control freak and wants stuff the way they like it. She wants her place to be like in the magazines at all the times and my parents are not like this. 

If our luck wasn't shitty enough my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer so we had to deal with that while the tension was building up every since day and night. The treatment worked but he still has therapies and check up. We moved to this current house  and fight keep happening but they didn't seem to be that severe. We support each other me and my parents pay rent, my parents buy the groceries and sister/her husband pay for appliances and whatever. I would say we are a good family but when things like this happen idk anymore. Recently my dad got fired and my mom is working 2 jobs and stress is running super high then this happens and it doesn't seem to be any better, all the years of fighting kind of  reached the limit. We all need each other since it a good relief money wise and emotionally (not at this point it seems). My parents are tired of this and are planning on moving by the end of the month and they looked like they are ready to end the family relationship or at least keep it faaaar away. So this happened not too long ago I was just sitting in the middle of this bullshit going on  while a bunch of yelling was happening 


I don't know what to do anymore, I was having a mini panic attack, I couldn't breathe so I decided to write it all down as a way of letting everything out. As you can tell we are not a healthy family from what is seems and I'm not sane at this point. It took my a while to get over the anxiety I had when I was a kid and depression and the lack of motivation have always been there.

Sorry for this mess of wall text my head is not in a healthy place and I guess I just need someone to tell me everything is going to be OK. 
If you made it this far I appreciate you for taking the time on reading my story it may be convoluted and it's not even all of the things that have happened but I needed it to let it out",axienty,family issue know best place post anyone care need vent biggest fight yet everything seems coming eating nowhere mom got really pissed comment sister said broken last straw little background people living house parent husband since recall always think right time want thing way get along love moment one loses shit go ape lived away long started aunt basically second mother u talked phone often worked as give life never poor growing sacrificed many make sure came dad kind cause good nothing pretty much waste money take least bad thought towards done sit well accused cheating drug suspicious activity would imply sleep man moved back freshman high school working town could stuff happened etc seen cry head emotionally stable considered control freak couple even attempted jump balcony point fiance apartment month brother law found job forward college timeline bit messed something complex caught fire spread somehow reach mine lost either water damage saved let anything safety guess next day broke stole parking lot looked like fucking tornado inside twice open drink anyways wait offered help crutch knee operation rough stayed ended fairly fast borderline magazine luck shitty enough diagnosed prostate cancer deal tension building every night treatment still therapy check current keep happening seem severe support pay rent buy grocery appliance whatever say happen idk anymore recently fired stress running super happens better year fighting reached limit relief wise tired planning moving end ready relationship faaaar ago sitting middle bullshit going bunch yelling mini panic attack breathe decided write letting tell healthy sane took anxiety kid depression lack motivation sorry mess wall text someone ok made far appreciate taking reading story may convoluted needed,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Rapid onset of panic attacks for the span of about two months, now they’ve left as quickly as they came - anyone else experience this? I (25/F) will try to explain this as simply as possible. In the beginning of October I had a really bad panic attack, which is the first time I’ve had one in about two years. After that first one, it was happening two, three, even four times a week. I couldn’t even drive 5 minutes up the road to pick up pizza or grab something at target. It got so bad that I actually left my job (I was already on the fence about it and have my own business - so I was financially stable). 

I was taking Xanax almost every day for the span of about four weeks. Now I take it maybe once a week, but haven’t had a panic attack for more than a month. I only take it because I’m scared of having one in certain situations. 

It feels so they left as quickly as they came. Has this happened to anyone? I’m just confused as to why it hit me so hard, and now I’m all the sudden doing so much “better”. I know I shouldn’t question it - but I’m just perplexed.  ",axienty,rapid onset panic attack span two month left quickly came anyone else experience try explain simply possible beginning october really bad first time one year happening three even four week drive minute road pick pizza grab something target got actually job already fence business financially stable taking xanax almost every day take maybe scared certain situation feel happened confused hit hard sudden much better know question perplexed,0.02,Neutral
"Anyone have very strange, obnoxious, social tendencies and behavior when anxious? Hey all, long-time lurker. Currently working with a counselor, but recently realized the effect of my anxiety on my social relationships. 

Although I've always viewed myself as unique..I've come to realize my awkward/strange social tendencies of my mother and how I exhibit the same. Overall, I never recognize myself doing them. 

These include - 

\- voice changes pitch, can become very nasally or even child like

\- Obnoxious, non-stop, talking to keep conversation going

\- Wide eyes when speaking; overall my eyes can make other uncomfortable

\- Dramatic way of speaking, even normal things

\- Rapid talking, often without pause. very panic-like 

\- Absolutely no regard for other person's feelings in any conversation

I'm also very controlling of others over anything, which I realized my mother has always done too me too. 

Has anyone else experienced similar behavior? What helped? ",axienty,anyone strange obnoxious social tendency behavior anxious hey long time lurker currently working counselor recently realized effect anxiety relationship although always viewed unique come realize awkward mother exhibit overall never recognize include voice change pitch become nasally even child like non stop talking keep conversation going wide eye speaking make uncomfortable dramatic way normal thing rapid often without pause panic absolutely regard person feeling also controlling others anything done else experienced similar helped,-0.03,Neutral
Hospitality work anxiety I work for a part time recruitment agency in the hospitality industry and have been called in for work in 2 days time. Problem is that I have severe workplace anxiety due to another hospitality job I worked in for 5+ years and the last time I worked this job didn't go too well as I had no idea what to expect and all the plates came straight out of the oven and to us. The three layers of gloves and six teatowels did nothing to stop my arms from burning. The people were also unfriendly as you are just a hired help for a few hours and I'm not in a position to refuse work due to a lack of money. It's only six hours but it feels like a lifetime when you are there. Thank you for listening.,axienty,hospitality work anxiety part time recruitment agency industry called day problem severe workplace due another job worked year last go well idea expect plate came straight oven u three layer glove six teatowels nothing stop arm burning people also unfriendly hired help hour position refuse lack money feel like lifetime thank listening,0.03,Neutral
"Does anyone else's anxiety effect them physically? I get terrible chest pains and pains in my upper back, jaw pain from clenching my teeth and leg pain from unconsciously tightening my leg muscles for long periods of time until they're suddenly aching and I realize I'm doing it. Just curious about the ways other people's anxiety effects them.",axienty,anyone else anxiety effect physically get terrible chest pain upper back jaw clenching teeth leg unconsciously tightening muscle long period time suddenly aching realize curious way people,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"How can I learn to be independent? I want to get a job, and move out eventually but I don't know anything. My parents didn't teach me anything about being on my own. My only source of income is from selling my art online so I have zero Job experience. Well Unless you count my very first job which I promptly got fired in one week because I was too quiet and not aggressive enough, which I know I shouldnt take personally but it still killed me on the inside. :( I have no idea how anyone lives on their own because if I did I would be having anxiety attacks left and right over the smallest things. Any advice?",axienty,learn independent want get job move eventually know anything parent teach source income selling art online zero experience well unless count first promptly got fired one week quiet aggressive enough shouldnt take personally still killed inside idea anyone life would anxiety attack left right smallest thing advice,0.04,Neutral
"I am quite introverted and the broken friendship I had with my previous roommate made me feel very anxious, so I moved into an apartment on my own. I love living alone, but when I have severe anxiety attacks it becomes lonely and almost unbearable. I sometimes think so much that it feels like I am going crazy. I have terrifying thoughts and I make up scenarios in which I have some terrible condition, or I am dying. My parents know that I have anxiety, but never took it too seriously.",axienty,quite introverted broken friendship previous roommate made feel anxious moved apartment love living alone severe anxiety attack becomes lonely almost unbearable sometimes think much like going crazy terrifying thought make scenario terrible condition dying parent know never took seriously,-0.32,Moderately Negative
"cant tell if what im suffering from is a panic attack?? majourity of my panic attacks happen because of arguments or fights and mostly stem from childhood trauma (me and my mom would get into fights, she would turn verbally abusive and physically abusive. so my brain now is convinced that argument = being beaten.)

but im not sure if what im having is a panic attack??  my symptoms are shortness of breath, inability to breath, shaking violently, fast heartbeat, a sick feeling in my stomach and i cant think clearly. it lasts for around an hour.


i wish i could be diagnosed so i know what is wrong with me.

does anyone have this?? if so, does anyone know how to calm it down?? i tried deep breathing but it calms me down for a few seconds and then ill go back to having a panic attack ://",axienty,cant tell im suffering panic attack majourity happen argument fight mostly stem childhood trauma mom would get turn verbally abusive physically brain convinced beaten sure symptom shortness breath inability shaking violently fast heartbeat sick feeling stomach think clearly last around hour wish could diagnosed know wrong anyone calm tried deep breathing second ill go back,-0.02,Neutral
A new semester is starting at 9 am and I want to puke There’s so much pressure to do well and I literally can not fuck up because I’m on scholarship. I’m taking organic 2 and just the thought of being in a lab again makes my chest tight. I used to love school but ever since I transferred to university all it does is give me this overwhelming anxiety to the point where I can’t put hold a conversation or think. Everything is just one long panic attack with more subtle moments in between to break it up. I’m staying up just to make the night as long as possible.,axienty,new semester starting want puke much pressure well literally fuck scholarship taking organic thought lab make chest tight used love school ever since transferred university give overwhelming anxiety point put hold conversation think everything one long panic attack subtle moment break staying night possible,0.04,Neutral
"Just realized what I’ve been feeling is anxiety. This is pretty recent. I’ve started noticing every once in a while feeling week legged, scared, Nervous, with a pit in my stomach. 

The reason is I’m 23 (and I do maintenance/renovations for an apartment community) and I’ve been considering a career change  (well I’m going to make it, so...), I’m looking to teach myself to code and I’d like to get into computer science / programming / engineering or something. Perhaps I’ll go to school and get my undergraduate, which pisses me off because in a way because I totally kinda blew 5 years and could have already had it....but i didn’t know what I wanted to do back then. 

Well I just read [this](https://www.anxietycentre.com/anxiety-symptoms.shtml) (and had an “attack”...wasn’t too serious) just searching google what anxiety feels like and correctly identified it. I opened headspace and took a breather for a sec. 

Well that’s why I’m here and I’ll read what I see and typing this out might have helped me so thanks for reading. 🙂",axienty,realized feeling anxiety pretty recent started noticing every week legged scared nervous pit stomach reason maintenance renovation apartment community considering career change well going make looking teach code like get computer science programming engineering something perhaps go school undergraduate piss way totally kinda blew year could already know wanted back read attack serious searching google feel correctly identified opened headspace took breather sec see typing might helped thanks reading,0.0,Neutral
"I can't sleep F. 23y.
Is already two days. I can't sleep, my feet are cold, l feel like my heart gonna explode, and is so hard to breathe
I guess is something about my medicate, l don't really take those pills at the way that I should...sometimes I have stopped by my own, and now l return...
I have shame to admit that to my doctor, because I have lie to him...
Sorry for the bad English.. ",axienty,sleep already two day foot cold feel like heart gonna explode hard breathe guess something medicate really take pill way sometimes stopped return shame admit doctor lie sorry bad english,-0.32,Moderately Negative
"Intense anxiety of making some sort of mistake while ""adulting"" I know it's irrational, but my anxiety involves fear of being in trouble. I've never even had a speeding ticket! I fear owing some vastly large amount of money I don't know about, such as a bill I didn't know I was supposed to be paying. I live in fear of messing something up and accidentally ending up in a legal situation. I'm that person who checks their taxes 39485 times, and is constantly on the internet reassuring myself about this and that. If I pull over for a fire truck to pass I worry I didn't do it fast enough. If I write a check I worry it will bounce even though I *KNOW* it won't. I spend hours reasearching laws in my state and the town where I live. I memorize speed limit zones. I keep meticulous records of anything financial which is a good thing, but I know I do it to excess. 

This has affected so many areas of my life. I have been terrified of the utility company, voting, taxes, and going to the bmv. I'm afraid of checking my mail. I have never messed any of those things up, to my knowledge, and I pay my taxes and all my bills, I vote, and don't let this fear STOP me, but it makes everything so hard. Always afraid to screw things up and not find out about it till years later. Im exhausted. 

Does anyone else feel this way? I'm 26 and moved out at 20.  I've been on my own for a long time. Why am I dealing with this? Does this feeling ever go away? ",axienty,intense anxiety making sort mistake adulting know irrational involves fear trouble never even speeding ticket owing vastly large amount money bill supposed paying live messing something accidentally ending legal situation person check tax time constantly internet reassuring pull fire truck pas worry fast enough write bounce though spend hour reasearching law state town memorize speed limit zone keep meticulous record anything financial good thing excess affected many area life terrified utility company voting going bmv afraid checking mail messed knowledge pay vote let stop make everything hard always screw find till year later im exhausted anyone else feel way moved long dealing feeling ever go away,0.04,Neutral
Terrified of starting a new semester at a new college tomorrow Transferred to a better college in NYC and I’m dreading it. Been taking online classes for the last 2 semesters. I’m so nervous and shaky. I know it’s going to show in class tomorrow. Wish I can relax and just breeze through this. ,axienty,terrified starting new semester college tomorrow transferred better nyc dreading taking online class last nervous shaky know going show wish relax breeze,0.06,Moderately Positive
"How can I stop being so paranoid? I am always terrified that my friends are secretly mad at me and hate me or my fiancé is cheating on me. It’s gotten to the point at times where I convince myself that they don’t like me and secretly hate me. Any way I can work on this? 

A little background: when I was in love with my high school sweetheart, I was very far into the relationship and she was secretly talking to other men and having relationships. And when all of that came to a head and I found out, it really hurt deeply and made me feel really horrible. I was in a slump and made some pretty bad decisions after. I’ve moved on and forgiven the person but I always have that gut wrenching fear that it’s going to happen again.

One of my friends recommended therapy, but I don’t think I want to pursue that. It’s not something that happens often, but it does happen sometimes. 

What advice can you give me?",axienty,stop paranoid always terrified friend secretly mad hate fianc cheating gotten point time convince like way work little background love high school sweetheart far relationship talking men came head found really hurt deeply made feel horrible slump pretty bad decision moved forgiven person gut wrenching fear going happen one recommended therapy think want pursue something happens often sometimes advice give,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"Does anyone else have blackout sort of experiences? I have these like memory gaps. It’s started happening recently when I’m at work. I know the process of doing it but my brain is on autopilot. When I get home I freak out and have panic attacks and end up being up all night worrying that I didn’t do something that was really important because I can’t remember doing it. This last night for example I am still worrying that I didn’t put the till in the safe and lock it. I can’t remember at all. I remember dropping the deposit, but I can’t remember if I put the till in the safe at all. I’m trying to go back and remember my footsteps and everything and my surroundings of the area when I dropped the deposit but it’s all blank. It’s scaring the shit out of me. ",axienty,anyone else blackout sort experience like memory gap started happening recently work know process brain autopilot get home freak panic attack end night worrying something really important remember last example still put till safe lock dropping deposit trying go back footstep everything surroundings area dropped blank scaring shit,0.1,Moderately Positive
"I've felt too paralyzed to work on my thesis in months, and now the deadline is too close and I'm panicking. I'm a master's student, and I need to finish my thesis. My entire time in grad school has been a nightmare. My committee chair is very unresponsive. She won't interact with me without multiple promptings (and even then she cancels like half our meetings). I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing. I've finished all my coursework and research, and now I just need to finish my thesis. But my research essentially yielded no results, and so I don't know what to write about. My chair won't give me any more guidance than that I just need to demonstrate that I did my methods correctly. I'm floundering.

I've been putting off working on my thesis for months, and now the deadline is coming up. I have to defend my thesis and have it turned in completely in three weeks. I don't even know if that is possible (there is so much I still have to do -- actually finish writing, have my committee chair approve what I wrote, get all of my committee members to agree to meet for my thesis defense, etc.) I feel like I fucked up, and it's too late, and I don't know what to do. 

It doesn't help that I started a new job at the beginning of the year, and it's been sucking away all of my time. I knew my thesis deadline was upcoming, but I didn't ever look up exactly when (because I thought I had until the end of March, not the beginning). I know it's my fault for not staying on top of it, but I still feel blindsided.  

I have too much on my plate, and I'm dropping the ball left and right. I'm completely panicking. I've been too paralyzed to work all morning. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I've been on and off shaking and crying. I don't know how to turn my anxiety off enough to work because I feel like I already fucked everything up and it's too late to fix it.

I don't even really know why I'm posting this. Advice? Support? Perspective? Reassurance that I did indeed fuck everything up and that I should just curl up in a ball on the floor and give up?",axienty,felt paralyzed work thesis month deadline close panicking master student need finish entire time grad school nightmare committee chair unresponsive interact without multiple prompting even cancel like half meeting feel idea finished coursework research essentially yielded result know write give guidance demonstrate method correctly floundering putting working coming defend turned completely three week possible much still actually writing approve wrote get member agree meet defense etc fucked late help started new job beginning year sucking away knew upcoming ever look exactly thought end march fault staying top blindsided plate dropping ball left right morning going throw shaking cry turn anxiety enough already everything fix really posting advice support perspective reassurance indeed fuck curl floor,0.01,Neutral
"Could someone help me out I don't know how else to describe it besides being faced with reoccuring memories of dumb cringey stuff I did as a teen that haunts me to this day. When I see something that triggers a memory I feel like my brain subconciously tries to shield me from it and I blurt out random words and swears until I realise what I'm doing and stop, you could easily mistake me for someone with tourettes. I don't want to block out and repress these memories anymore, I just want someone to let them out to so I can get some perspective and hopefully walk away laughing about how dumb they are.",axienty,could someone help know else describe besides faced reoccuring memory dumb cringey stuff teen haunt day see something trigger feel like brain subconciously try shield blurt random word swears realise stop easily mistake tourette want block repress anymore let get perspective hopefully walk away laughing,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Disney family trip ruined in a matter or seconds.  *long story*
 Back story/about me: I'm a 20-year-old girl who has a lot of mental health issues. I have a severe panic attack disorder, severe anxiety, insomnia, depression, and bipolar disorder. I started having severe panic attacks back in middle school they make me feel very nauseous to the point I'm crying, shaking and sitting by the toilet. I have minor panic attacks almost every day but everyone in a while i have a huge attack where I'm sobbing and thinking I'm gonna vomit. So the back story is my brother Ryan had bought my family (3 brothers) me and my parents Disney world tickets for Christmas. i have four brothers and one sister, Ryan is married and has a son, and my sister is engaged. So my family including their spouses and one of my best friends went to Disney World on Saturday. I also took my panic attack medicine at night, therefore, it would be less effective by the afternoon, because of my insomnia, i only had 2 hours of sleep. We went to the animal kingdom in the morning where at lunchtime i ate at Pandora, i had a really sweet drink and a hotdog. 
   Here's where the story begins. After eating at pandora we headed over to magic kingdom. Slowly through the after noon i realized i had to go number 2, but when i went to the bathroom i had diarrhea but not much came out . During the day i went to the bathroom at least 3 times to try to go but still barely anything. Around 8:00pm my best friend, my second to youngest brother, and i went to ride thunder mountain. In the line i started getting the urge to go #2 again but held it in. It got so bad i thought i was gonna poop my pants. Slowly without me noticing my panic and anxiety were escalating. I started to feel a bit nauseous like all my other panic attacks and just tried to shrug it off. 
    By the time we got to the front of the line all hell broke loose i literally started pooping my self but just a tiny bit which made me feel sick. My panic and anxiety made it ten times worse where i was grabbing for my brother cause i thought ""this is it, imma be sick"". Nothing. At this point i can't ride the ride and i need the bathroom NOW! Thank God were at the end of the line. I tell the cast member i feel sick and need out fast. He clears a couple people and points to the exit and directs me out. I go out the exit and as I'm quickly going down the stairs ,my friend and brother are pissed and yelling while following me cause they were leaving the line we just waited 40 minutes in.  While heading to the bathroom i instruct my brother to call my mom cause she knows how to help me with panic attacks. Though at this moment i didn't know it was a panic attack and i thought the sick feeling was real because i had bad diarrhea. My brother is yelling from behind telling me that mom was at Pirates of the Caribbean and says we have to go there. My friend is getting mad at me too but i don't stop and keep going to the nearest bathroom. I got super upset and since i was in distress my bipolar acted up and i snapped really fast and yelled at them to "" just leave, i don't care go"". They didn't. I finally made it to the bathroom and went to the bathroom. I didn't throw up and again nothing really came out. When i realized nothing more was coming out i headed out. Walking was agonizing as each step made me more nauseous, but i didn't stop till right outside the bathroom. My whole family was outside the bathroom about 30 feet away mingling my friend and brother were right outside the bathroom and told everyone I'm out. My friend asked me if i finally went number 2 and if i feel better. Not be able to talk cause i feel so sick i shake my head no. I sat down and tried to calm my stomach and panic. Finally my mom comes over and started talking to me, i tell her what I'm feeling and she right away knows its a panic attack. My sister also came over aggravated not really knowing the severity of my panic attack and starts getting mad at me for making them late for a fast pass. I try to tell them to leave and go ahead to their ride and that"" ill be fine its just a panic attack"". My dad also comes over not really knowing how to handle this but tells my friend to get me a paper towel cause at this point i started crying because i felt bad for keeping them from our rare family trip. My friend now knowing that this is really bad suggested that we go home for me and her took her car and drove to Disney behind the rest of our family. I really didn't want to leave and ruin this for my friend but she insisted and said her feet hurt really bad anyway. My friend got the house key from my dad. My dad being really worried said he didn't want to just leave me but at this point i calmed down a bit and told him i was fine and to go and enjoy the rest of their night. He was hesitant but my bff assured him she would look after me so he and my family left. It may sound cruel but they knew i wasn't
  physically in any danger and i had stopped crying and was calming down. Though the texted me and called me a couple times as my and my friend slowly walked to the exit. As we were slowly walking and my friend kept talking to me to get my mind off my attack i started feeling a bit better. My friend drove me home and told me that my das asked her to stay with me till they got home. I told her that's not necessary ill be okay because i felt a lot better, plus she was really tired so i called my dad and told him I'm gonna be fine and that I'm sending my friend home. About an hour or 2 they got home by that time it was like nothing happened. They kept asking if i was okay and and even asked the next morning when i woke up. I assured them i was completely fine.
   ",axienty,disney family trip ruined matter second long story back year old girl lot mental health issue severe panic attack disorder anxiety insomnia depression bipolar started middle school make feel nauseous point cry shaking sitting toilet minor almost every day everyone huge sobbing thinking gonna vomit brother ryan bought parent world ticket christmas four one sister married son engaged including spouse best friend went saturday also took medicine night therefore would le effective afternoon hour sleep animal kingdom morning lunchtime ate pandora really sweet drink hotdog begin eating headed magic slowly noon realized go number bathroom diarrhea much came least time try still barely anything around pm youngest ride thunder mountain line getting urge held got bad thought poop pant without noticing escalating bit like tried shrug front hell broke loose literally pooping self tiny made sick ten worse grabbing cause imma nothing need thank god end tell cast member fast clear couple people exit directs quickly going stair pissed yelling following leaving waited minute heading instruct call mom know help though moment feeling real behind telling pirate caribbean say mad stop keep nearest super upset since distress acted snapped yelled leave care finally throw coming walking agonizing step till right outside whole foot away mingling told asked better able talk shake head sat calm stomach come talking aggravated knowing severity start making late pas ahead ill fine dad handle get paper towel felt keeping rare suggested home car drove rest want ruin insisted said hurt anyway house key worried calmed enjoy hesitant bff assured look left may sound cruel knew physically danger stopped calming texted called walked kept mind da stay necessary okay plus tired sending happened asking even next woke completely,0.04,Neutral
"Tips for coping with an anxiety attack when coming off medication Hi,

I’ve been slowly coming off my medicine for two months. Today has been kinda bad and I’m having really bad anxiety. Does anyone have any tips that could help? Im really struggling. Thanks. ",axienty,tip coping anxiety attack coming medication hi slowly medicine two month today kinda bad really anyone could help im struggling thanks,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"Lexapro dosage doubled because of side effects? Hi everyone!! I wanted to ask your opinion on something. My husband and I are Americans living in Japan and our Japanese isn't the best. My husband has been seeing a doctor for his anxiety and depression and has been on Lexapro for a while. He has been on it before, but he always stops taking it because it makes him REALLY unmotivated, but then he ends up going back on because without it he has sleepless nights and bad anxiety. It's just a vicious cycle. I told him to talk to his doctor about his side effects so maybe they could change his medication, but the doctor just doubled his dose. Is this normal? Has this happened to you? ",axienty,lexapro dosage doubled side effect hi everyone wanted ask opinion something husband american living japan japanese best seeing doctor anxiety depression always stop taking make really unmotivated end going back without sleepless night bad vicious cycle told talk maybe could change medication dose normal happened,-0.04,Neutral
"My family doesn't understand my anxiety I've struggled with anxiety my whole life. I've had full panic attacks over little things since I can remember, shame spiral after shame spiral. It's like the two halves of my brain are at war. However, my family (who should be a source of support) loves to disregard my worsening mental health. They continue to uphold that I'll just grow out of it and provide stupid solutions like meditation (which makes me even more anxious) while continuing to say:
""Get over yourself!""
""Suck it up!""
""Just calm down already!""
I'm sick and tired of having to deal with this. Everyone always says to reach out to loved ones if you're struggling. I always just thought that eventually they would believe me, but that's just not the case, is it? I just want help, but by the looks of it, I'll just have to find it myself.",axienty,family understand anxiety struggled whole life full panic attack little thing since remember shame spiral like two half brain war however source support love disregard worsening mental health continue uphold grow provide stupid solution meditation make even anxious continuing say get suck calm already sick tired deal everyone always reach loved one struggling thought eventually would believe case want help look find,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Physical Anxiety Since I was about 25, I realized that when I'm put in stressful or nerve-racking situations, I get red and blotchy on my neck and chest. The first time it happened I went to the bathroom after a talk w/ a former boss (just a casual one, nothing serious) and as I looked in the mirror while washing my hands, I was all red and broken out on my chest. Of course that made me more anxious.

  
Every since then, I know something similar is going to happen when I'm put in a stressful situation. If I know I'll have a meeting at work, I'll wear something to cover up my chest. It's a small thing, but it's still embarrassing because I know it's going to happen and I can't stop it. I'm sure the person I'm talking to notices it because I'm fair-skinned. I also sometimes break out in hives on my face here and there and they get itchy and red. I know I need to live with my anxiety and know I'll have it forever, but has anyone had similar physical symptoms like this? If so, are there any methods to stop this? Just thinking about it not happening isn't enough so please don't recommend that. ",axienty,physical anxiety since realized put stressful nerve racking situation get red blotchy neck chest first time happened went bathroom talk former bos casual one nothing serious looked mirror washing hand broken course made anxious every know something similar going happen meeting work wear cover small thing still embarrassing stop sure person talking notice fair skinned also sometimes break hive face itchy need live forever anyone symptom like method thinking happening enough please recommend,-0.01,Neutral
"Coping strategies So heres the thing. I have to attend school I hate. Every day is a fucking nightmare filled with anxiety. I don't want to change anything, I've only got two more years, really not that much.
The other thing is that my mornings and evenings are terrible. I wake up with trembling hands and tightening chest. 
I try to fight anxiety at school and when I get home I usually lay down and do the bare minimum. I just feel this lump in my throat and I just do my homework and dont usually study. I force myself to take a shower and then I go to sleep around 2am. 
Any tips to calm myself down during those situations? How to actually implement them into my life? ",axienty,coping strategy here thing attend school hate every day fucking nightmare filled anxiety want change anything got two year really much morning evening terrible wake trembling hand tightening chest try fight get home usually lay bare minimum feel lump throat homework dont study force take shower go sleep around tip calm situation actually implement life,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"I had a really bad review this morning I dislike the team I work on at my job, and this morning I had a meeting scheduled which looks at my recent work.

The example selected was a bad one. A really bad one, apparently. It's a complete anomaly compared to my other work, I've been assured, but I still feel inadequate and bad at what I do and I'm really, really conscious of myself and my work right now.

God, I hate anxiety.",axienty,really bad review morning dislike team work job meeting scheduled look recent example selected one apparently complete anomaly compared assured still feel inadequate conscious right god hate anxiety,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"Anyone else get anxiety about teeth? I feel like this is a weird thing to be anxious about, but I get so much anxiety about my teeth. They're sensitive, and there's some areas where the gums have receded a little bit, and it drives me crazy. It sucks because I don't have dental insurance. I always brush twice a day (sometimes I'll drink too much and fall asleep and forget to), and I usually floss. And I clench my teeth at night ( I do use a mouth guard for it), so I know that doesn't help my teeth situation. It's all just too much sometimes. I'm worried I ruined my teeth at 23 and they're just going to fall out, and then people will think I'm weird and gross. ",axienty,anyone else get anxiety teeth feel like weird thing anxious much sensitive area gum receded little bit drive crazy suck dental insurance always brush twice day sometimes drink fall asleep forget usually floss clench night use mouth guard know help situation worried ruined going people think gross,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"DAE find space and science frightening? Just the thought of how huge space is and all the crazy things in it like black holes and burning balls of gases, and the fact that earth can potentially be destroyed so easily...it blows my mind while also terrifying me. ",axienty,dae find space science frightening thought huge crazy thing like black hole burning ball gas fact earth potentially destroyed easily blow mind also terrifying,-0.2,Moderately Negative
"My brother is about to leave on a 2 year religious sabbatical and I'm not sure I can handle the separation In less then a month he leaves for two years. We do practically everything together, and I start panicking just thinking about how much I'll miss him. 

Any advice on how to deal with separation?",axienty,brother leave year religious sabbatical sure handle separation le month leaf two practically everything together start panicking thinking much miss advice deal,0.23,Moderately Positive
"[TriggerWarning]My dad's harassing my mom and it's causing me crippling anxiety. I'm from India.

My dad has been harassing my mother since they were married, which was 25 years ago. And he lately started hating on me too. He is drunk everyday, picks fight with my mom, and today and I yelled at him too. I stay in another city and I am worried about my mom, and it's causing me insufferable anxiety. 

We tried breaking off with him, but he got us into there huge debts, and the people around us are narcissistic patriarchs who thinks it's the women's sacred duty to get harassed by her husband.

I am using meds for Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depression since 3 years. And this is too much and I am not able to take it anymore. 

I'm sorry if this is the wrong platform. Any advice is appreciated. Thank you all in advance.",axienty,triggerwarning dad harassing mom causing crippling anxiety india mother since married year ago lately started hating drunk everyday pick fight today yelled stay another city worried insufferable tried breaking got u huge debt people around narcissistic patriarch think woman sacred duty get harassed husband using med generalized disorder depression much able take anymore sorry wrong platform advice appreciated thank advance,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Has Xanax helped your tremors? Hey guys. 

I've had anxiety for about 3-4 years now. I'm 21, and everything my doctor has prescribed seems to be shite (pardon my French). I've told him that what he is giving me isn't working, I've told him I need something new so he gives me another AD and I still feel the same. 

I've constantly told him my anxiety makes me shake, which gives me more anxiety because people can see me shaking and then my voice just goes, it's like it's very hard to get my words out. He just gives me AD again and I'm back to square 1. 

I have been looking in Xanax. A lot of people seem to have reduce there anxiety with it, wondering how people responded who suffered extreme shaking. 

Have any of you guys taken these? I just need something that works man. I'm 21 now and fuck me, I hate life. I'm not doing shit I want to be doing because - well I don't know why, every time j try to do something my anxiety says 'No' :(",axienty,xanax helped tremor hey guy anxiety year everything doctor prescribed seems shite pardon french told giving working need something new give another ad still feel constantly make shake people see shaking voice go like hard get word back square looking lot seem reduce wondering responded suffered extreme taken work man fuck hate life shit want well know every time try say,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"How to cope? Losing patience with my anxious SO Hi everyone,

I’ve been with my boyfriend for over 10 years. He’s generally a friendly, charming, curious individual and is well-liked by most. He suffers from anxiety, and it took years for him to come to terms with this. I used to think he was just an insensitive jerk when he would have one of his numerous anxious episodes, but after begging him for years to go see a specialist to help him deal with his anger and stress, he was diagnosed with anxiety and has since been learning how to cope. He is doing much better, but as you all know, there is no cure so his anxiety is very much still present. If anything, these episodes now seems even more frequent/intense to me than they did pre-therapy as everything is out in the open now and I’m not constantly making other excuses for his behaviour. 

I’ve read hundreds of articles and posts on living with someone with anxiety. The majority of these touch on supporting/loving a person with anxiety. I do my best to support him, and I am equipped with knowledge on how to do so...but I feel I have grown insensitive to it all. I have almost no patience left. I know that this is hard for him, and that it’s an illness, but I can’t help but get angry and find it absurd that our lives are being utterly controlled by his fears. We have altered our lifestyle in order to allow him to cope better. Some of the “bigger” changes, or those I struggle the most with are:

- We pretty much avoid alcohol and coffee as these seem to trigger him (which may seem minor, but our love of wine is one of our biggest shared interests that we used to bond over) 
- We can’t go to the movies or any form of crowded/enclosed space (escape rooms, arcades, axe throwing, etc) as he fears an attack could happen and we would be trapped
- We can’t travel because he is terrified of flying, terrorism, driving in non-perfect conditions, and of unknown territory in general
- I have been relentlessly deep cleaning our entire house on a weekly basis as he gets so stressed out by clutter or being unable to find something, but he has no idea how to be organized or properly clean and gets overwhelmed easily as soon as there is more than 1-2 things to do (I.e if he has to do dishes AND vacuum in the same day, he stresses and mopes around all day) 
- We can’t take on any projects together around the house or in general as he gets overwhelmed with anything that is unpredictable or not sufficiently structured
- We can’t invite people over or hang out with friends and family for too long as he turns into the biggest asshole whenever he is nervous about something. He has had episodes in the past in front of my friends and family. He doesn’t want me to tell them about his anxiety, so i’ve respected that, but i’m fairly certain my friends/family think that he is verbally abusive and their opinion of him is negative as a result. 
- Our finances have struggled as he is all over the place with money. I happen to be great with money, but I’m being held back as he is constantly in a cycle of accumulating debt due to stress and wanting to treat himself, then being so stressed by his debts that he goes into extreme repayment mode where he allows himself no wiggle room and then the cycle starts again.

I’m struggling to find willingness to stay in this relationship. I love him, the real him that is hidden under all this anxiety, but I feel utterly defeated thinking that I will have to have a lifestyle so different from the one I’ve always hoped for just so that his anxiety can be slightly more controlled. When he is anxious, he is cruel and insensitive and there is nothing I can say/do to make things easier. When he is calm, he can openly talk about anxiety and the impact it has on his life. Whenever he is anxious/angry, he is in denial about it and blames his behaviour on outside sources - i.e “I am yelling at you right now cause you ask too many questions” or “I’m tense and angry because we haven’t had sex in X amount of days”. I hate being made to feel like a selfish jerk for being annoyed that his mental health issues are taking control of my life, but I feel like they truly are. It’s becoming more and more difficult for me to accept his behaviour, to see the real him, to retain attraction towards him, and to not be interested in other people. I find myself fantasizing about being single just because I could finally escape the feeling of always walking on eggshells and I could at last feel like I am in control of my own life. I haven’t ended the relationship as I care deeply about him and would miss him badly if I did, and I guess I am holding on to hope that my patience will magically reappear or his anxiety will improve and no longer control our lives. 

Do any other partners feel this way or am I a horrible human being? How do you cope? Did things ever get better/easier?

For those of you who have anxiety - have your partners ever expressed this kind of frustration? What impact did it have on you if so?",axienty,cope losing patience anxious hi everyone boyfriend year generally friendly charming curious individual well liked suffers anxiety took come term used think insensitive jerk would one numerous episode begging go see specialist help deal anger stress diagnosed since learning much better know cure still present anything seems even frequent intense pre therapy everything open constantly making excuse behaviour read hundred article post living someone majority touch supporting loving person best support equipped knowledge feel grown almost left hard illness get angry find absurd life utterly controlled fear altered lifestyle order allow bigger change struggle pretty avoid alcohol coffee seem trigger may minor love wine biggest shared interest bond movie form crowded enclosed space escape room arcade axe throwing etc attack could happen trapped travel terrified flying terrorism driving non perfect condition unknown territory general relentlessly deep cleaning entire house weekly basis stressed clutter unable something idea organized properly clean overwhelmed easily soon thing dish vacuum day mope around take project together unpredictable sufficiently structured invite people hang friend family long turn asshole whenever nervous past front want tell respected fairly certain verbally abusive opinion negative result finance struggled place money great held back cycle accumulating debt due wanting treat extreme repayment mode allows wiggle start struggling willingness stay relationship real hidden defeated thinking different always hoped slightly cruel nothing say make easier calm openly talk impact denial blame outside source yelling right cause ask many question tense sex amount hate made like selfish annoyed mental health issue taking control truly becoming difficult accept retain attraction towards interested fantasizing single finally feeling walking eggshell last ended care deeply miss badly guess holding hope magically reappear improve longer partner way horrible human ever expressed kind frustration,0.0,Neutral
"SO suffering intrusive thoughts and now trying to numb her emotions to cope. Throwaway account for anonymity.

Hi all.

My SO had a pretty rough childhood. Disruptive parental status and went into care around 11 years old. 

A few weeks ago (about 3) we went to the Dr because she was in a low mood. There has been some on going health frustrations and I think it has been whittling away at her. The Dr prescribed citalopram and within a matter of days we had gone from low mood to full on panic attacks and feelings of despair. We spoke to the Dr again and they referred her to the crisis team. Crisis team believed it was the citalopram making it worse and suggested changing to sertraline and prescribed some diazepam to take the edge off.

In between all of this she started experiencing horrible intrusive thoughts about hurting children which is so against her personality that it all but sent her over the edge, throwing her into panic and conviction that she was a monster because she was thinking these thoughts. It particularly escalated when these thoughts transferred to making her think about hurting her nephew.

The crisis team and Dr said that this was part of the normal initial stages of starting an SSRI and that she would need to wait it out for it to get better. It was only getting worse and I saw her get worse within hours of a new dose. She has been using cbd oil and that seems to be helping a bit with the anxiety. She has been trying to address the thoughts as intrusive and not put any energy into them. However this quickly turns into guilt that because she ISNT getting upset that they're only confirming she is someone who would hurt kids. We tried talking to someone on the MH team but they were so useless I almost wanted to punch them. The guy pushed way too hard and sounded like he didn't care about how distressed she was. Because of this and the nature of her thoughts, she doesn't want to talk to anyone in a professional capacity. She also went through lot of counselling as a kid and struggles to see they could be beneficial.

Fast forward to now. We came off the SSRI meds. It was getting insane after every dose and I was sick of being told that she just needed to wait it out when every time I swear I could hear her mind fracture a bit more. She has shown significant improvement however she is stuck in a cycle of self doubt and she is stuck in the feeling that it is never going to end. I have tried to reassure her otherwise and that I have seen the improvement. She doesn't believe me and has told me today that she doesn't dare feel anything any more in the worry that it will turn into an intrusive thought. She is punishing herself and convinced she deserves it and I am struggling to help her break this cycle.

She is also struggling with the fact she has never had anxiety like this and doesn't understand why she is feeling and thinking this way which pulls her back into the doubt and feeling that she deserves it somehow.

I'm really starting to struggle with how to help her and am looking for some guidance.

Ty all.",axienty,suffering intrusive thought trying numb emotion cope throwaway account anonymity hi pretty rough childhood disruptive parental status went care around year old week ago dr low mood going health frustration think whittling away prescribed citalopram within matter day gone full panic attack feeling despair spoke referred crisis team believed making worse suggested changing sertraline diazepam take edge started experiencing horrible hurting child personality sent throwing conviction monster thinking particularly escalated transferred nephew said part normal initial stage starting ssri would need wait get better getting saw hour new dose using cbd oil seems helping bit anxiety address put energy however quickly turn guilt isnt upset confirming someone hurt kid tried talking mh useless almost wanted punch guy pushed way hard sounded like distressed nature want talk anyone professional capacity also lot counselling struggle see could beneficial fast forward came med insane every sick told needed time swear hear mind fracture shown significant improvement stuck cycle self doubt never end reassure otherwise seen believe today dare feel anything worry punishing convinced deserves struggling help break fact understand pull back somehow really looking guidance ty,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Sensitive to change I've dealt with anxiety since I was a kid. Later in life, it got worse with panic. 

They're probably a million reasons why I have more anxiety than the average person. Stepfather was abusive, real father left, did not meet family's expectations based on grades and assumed intellect and more recently, nearly homeless for 2 years. 

I say nearly homeless because it was a combination of motels and Airbnbs. My mom and I finally got a permanent home about 6 months ago. 

It was odd because even though I should have been excited, I had quite a bit of anxiety like how is this real. 

Up until last month, I was sleeping on an air mattress. We finally saved enough money for me to buy a real bed off Craigslist. Once again, it was like how can this be... Not as much anxiety but omg that air mattress rocked my back. 

I had some really good investments that funded the time in the Airbnbs, so the first couple of months I just tried to relax and let my mom settle into her new job. 

I started driving for Postmates to help expenses. At first I was excited to contribute but lately I've been down on myself. Like who would want to date a guy in their 30's who drives for Postmates and lives with their mom. 

My anxiety was hitting me hard today. I went through some of my old CBT material and remembered there should never be ""shoulds"". 

I guess what I'm trying to say is everyone is doing their best with their own circumstances. It's easy to get caught up in where you should be via social media, society, etc. 

Funny enough, one of the downsides to Postmates is you see how well others are doing with their gated communities and high rise apartments. A lot of times the customer is younger than me. 

But once again, I'm assuming everything else in their life is great. Maybe it is but I really have no idea. 

I need to be more grateful for what I have.",axienty,sensitive change dealt anxiety since kid later life got worse panic probably million reason average person stepfather abusive real father left meet family expectation based grade assumed intellect recently nearly homeless year say combination motel airbnbs mom finally permanent home month ago odd even though excited quite bit like last sleeping air mattress saved enough money buy bed craigslist much omg rocked back really good investment funded time first couple tried relax let settle new job started driving postmates help expense contribute lately would want date guy drive hitting hard today went old cbt material remembered never shoulds guess trying everyone best circumstance easy get caught via social medium society etc funny one downside see well others gated community high rise apartment lot customer younger assuming everything else great maybe idea need grateful,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Scared to talk to landlord about emotional Support Animal My therapist and I agreed that an emotional support dog could help with my anxiety. Then I can work with a trainer to train the dog to help with my anxiety in other ways. But the next part is actually asking my landlord if I can have a dog. I'm so scared of emailing him. My lease is up in August, so I'm afraid he'll not renew it or something.

One of my biggest anxiety triggers is having to ask for things, especially from people I know or have long prolonged contact with. Like, I won't go to the bathroom on a 6 hour flight if I'm in the window seat because I don't want to ask the aisle person to get up. So I guess my question is how did you ask your landlord for accommodations, if you have? 

I want to tell him that any dog I get will almost never be unattended in the apartment, since my work is dog-friendly, but I don't know if that would help. Thank you for any advice.",axienty,scared talk landlord emotional support animal therapist agreed dog could help anxiety work trainer train way next part actually asking emailing lease august afraid renew something one biggest trigger ask thing especially people know long prolonged contact like go bathroom hour flight window seat want aisle person get guess question accommodation tell almost never unattended apartment since friendly would thank advice,-0.04,Neutral
"Sleep tips! Hey all!

Having trouble sleeping at the moment - too many thoughts racing and racing and racing PLUS a big ol knot in my tummy!
What are your sleep tips and tricks? ",axienty,sleep tip hey trouble sleeping moment many thought racing plus big ol knot tummy trick,0.1,Moderately Positive
Anxiety I have horrible anxiety and well i have a hard time meeting new people. I never get out but im  fine with that i am independent. The provlem with me is i do want to find friends but i do have anger spikes and i can yell and get loud if someone offends me. Are these symptoms normal for an anxiety disorder?,axienty,anxiety horrible well hard time meeting new people never get im fine independent provlem want find friend anger spike yell loud someone offends symptom normal disorder,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"How to help someone with money anxiety when their coping mechanisms give you anxiety? My spouse has money anxiety. I don’t 100% get it, but basically his mind has convinced him that he always needs more. He’s basically a money hoarder. We have plenty in savings, enough to not work for a good year or two, but his anxiety is telling him it’s never enough. So we fight a lot. 

The thing is, I also have money anxiety but it’s the opposite. I don’t like being aware of money. Sometimes it matches with his (I don’t like spending large sums of money either) but most of the time, our fears are opposite. Sometimes I get anxiety from opening my banking app, making me wait days before having enough courage to pay a bill. On the other hand, he needs to know every few hours how our financial situation is.  

And sometimes he’ll insist just a little too much and I get overwhelmed and we start fighting. By not telling him how our financial situation is frequently, he gets anxious and suicidal. By telling me frequently how our financial situation is, I get anxious and suicidal. Today we got in another fight because he didn’t realize that I wasn’t done paying a bill and I am currently not working (in between transitioning fields). So he’s anxious that for the next few weeks, our savings will go down.The bill is less than 100 dollars out of tens of thousands of savings in my account. He kept talking about it until I got frustrated and anxious. It’s to a point where I buy things cash behind his back so he doesn’t get nervous and in return, make me nervous. 

What should we do to help each other and ourselves? What can each of us do to calmly discuss our financial situation, in a way that isn’t overwhelming to the other? ",axienty,help someone money anxiety coping mechanism give spouse get basically mind convinced always need hoarder plenty saving enough work good year two telling never fight lot thing also opposite like aware sometimes match spending large sum either time fear opening banking app making wait day courage pay bill hand know every hour financial situation insist little much overwhelmed start fighting frequently anxious suicidal today got another realize done paying currently working transitioning field next week go le dollar ten thousand account kept talking frustrated point buy cash behind back nervous return make u calmly discus way overwhelming,0.04,Neutral
"I've been trying multiple medications for 20 years and I have literally tried them all. The highest doses possible of insomnia medication can't even put me to sleep. Multiple psychiatrist and even my pharmacist are stumped. Every SSRI, SNRI, tricyclic, beta blockers, benzos, group therapy, sleep studies, MRIs, blood work, CBT, EMDR, talk therapy, group therapy, art therapy, psychiatric hospitals, wilderness retreats, traveling, moved 6 times, I've been to college 3 times(no degree), have over 20 different jobs. It's like my brain is bound and determined to make me suffer.",axienty,trying multiple medication year literally tried highest dos possible insomnia even put sleep psychiatrist pharmacist stumped every ssri snri tricyclic beta blocker benzos group therapy study mri blood work cbt emdr talk art psychiatric hospital wilderness retreat traveling moved time college degree different job like brain bound determined make suffer,0.0,Neutral
"how to start and actually meet with girls?  

over time thing left to another and i became lonelier the ever before, and i have this ongoing need for people and love.

but obviously my social skills didnt get better with time.

i had few opportunities to meet with some girls i met from facebook/tinder etc. to the point where they asked too meet by themselves.

a lot of the times girls wont respond back. those who do, rarely it goes over to the phone number and even more rarely they actually want to meet,

but when they actually do, i dont have the courage and ambition i need to actually make it happen...

so texting to women isnt that hard, maybe i past that barrier. but how do i actually suppose to make the first meeting happen from start to end?

yea im overthinking it. but when it comes to actually meeting, im getting anxious. ''what should i look like?'' ''what faces should i be doing?'' ''should ill try to be funny or is it overdoing it?'' etc... and then i think about that its a girl that i didnt meet yet and didnt even get to feel attracted to first, witch makes my motivation to do this scary thing really low and eventually it just ends there...

im 23y male, i had girlfriends and dates before but never from a dating site or without knowing the person first.

for example, a girl i was talking with about few weeks ago from facebook who gave me her number and we went to whatsup, she asked me if i wanted to meet and i said that i do, we never did, we stop talking for few weeks and than she started massaging me again

another girl i met from online site, were talking in watsup for few months and talking about meeting for a while but it keep not happening. somtimes because of her, but when shes finally up to meet im the one making problems...

obviously this attitude will do me more bad the good...

and i keep trying telling myself that i should step up and face my fears, but this shit keeps happening again and again...

theres also a chance me and the second girl i mentioned will meet today. we set the place but i didnt ask her about what time yet.

seriously, any tips are more the welcome. thank you",axienty,start actually meet girl time thing left another became lonelier ever ongoing need people love obviously social skill didnt get better opportunity met facebook tinder etc point asked lot wont respond back rarely go phone number even want dont courage ambition make happen texting woman isnt hard maybe past barrier suppose first meeting end yea im overthinking come getting anxious look like face ill try funny overdoing think yet feel attracted witch motivation scary really low eventually male girlfriend date never dating site without knowing person example talking week ago gave went whatsup wanted said stop started massaging online watsup month keep happening somtimes shes finally one making problem attitude bad good trying telling step fear shit there also chance second mentioned today set place ask seriously tip welcome thank,0.01,Neutral
I don't know... I don't know what to do. I just want out of here. It's too hard. With this house and school work.,axienty,know want hard house school work,-0.29,Moderately Negative
"Anxiety because I don't want to go to bed because I don't want to deal with daily life tommorow I have nothing big happening tomorrow or anything, I have some money in my savings...it's just, I don't want to deal with life. I don't want to have to talk to people, I don't want to have to plan out and execute my day even though I need to, I don't want to deal with being alone another day, and something about the weekday just makes all of this sink in way harder and sharper. I think I'm really sad and don't know how to deal with these feeling. Christ, why is life so hard? On paper, it seems so simple; wake up, go to work, eat three meals, take a shit, and go to bed. But I just feel so empty and, for lack of a better way to say it, dead inside, everyday. What do I need to do to get my shit together? ",axienty,anxiety want go bed deal daily life tommorow nothing big happening tomorrow anything money saving talk people plan execute day even though need alone another something weekday make sink way harder sharper think really sad know feeling christ hard paper seems simple wake work eat three meal take shit feel empty lack better say dead inside everyday get together,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"I get sick on dates cause I’m nervous So I’ve never done this before cause past relationships were more innocent because we were young. I didn’t date anyone for a while, but I’ve been going out with this guy for two months now. I still haven’t had my first kiss and I feel so bad because I don’t want it to seem like I don’t like him. But the past two dates I have had awful stomach aches the whole time and then when he went to kiss me on Valentine’s Day I threw up a few minutes later cause I panicked and got extra anxious. Then our last date a week later I got sick again but kept myself from throwing up. It usually feels worse after we eat dinner. And I feel gross eating around him cause I think I’m getting a mild form of anorexia? That’s a whole other thing but basically I just get so so anxious that I’m sick and I just want to enjoy time with my boyfriend. How do I just relax and kiss him? Btw I am on 100mg Zoloft for anxiety and depression and have been for about 3 years now",axienty,get sick date cause nervous never done past relationship innocent young anyone going guy two month still first kiss feel bad want seem like awful stomach ache whole time went valentine day threw minute later panicked got extra anxious last week kept throwing usually worse eat dinner gross eating around think getting mild form anorexia thing basically enjoy boyfriend relax btw mg zoloft anxiety depression year,-0.1,Moderately Negative
in a few minute then going to bed since eric hate me and wont run around with me,depression,minute going bed since eric hate wont run around,-0.8,Negative
another set of ipod earbuds dying left going quiet apple charge gbp 0 for replacement better option at around that price point,depression,another set ipod earbuds dying left going quiet apple charge gbp replacement better option around price point,0.17,Moderately Positive
im in the mood for some chocolate i want miniature reeses cup now,depression,im mood chocolate want miniature reeses cup,0.0,Neutral
gloomy weather again,depression,gloomy weather,0.0,Neutral
hero is soooo boring ugh and i just found out there are more episode this season,depression,hero soooo boring ugh found episode season,-1.0,Negative
abacab 9 still sore come put tomorrow though,depression,abacab still sore come put tomorrow though,0.0,Neutral
finding it incredibly unfair that mom got more tan than i even though i spent more time in the sun miss him like crazy,depression,finding incredibly unfair mom got tan even though spent time sun miss like crazy,-0.4,Moderately Negative
is fucked to go back to ic,depression,fucked go back ic,-0.3,Moderately Negative
still feel feckin arseholed a sign of old age me think,depression,still feel feckin arseholed sign old age think,0.1,Moderately Positive
miss om aww i know i felt like that yesterday at work,depression,miss om aww know felt like yesterday work,0.3,Moderately Positive
drinking milk being on youtube lonely emiliiee,depression,drinking milk youtube lonely emiliiee,-0.1,Moderately Negative
foot is out of commission ouch running this morning did not help not smart,depression,foot commission ouch running morning help smart,0.21,Moderately Positive
billybush she admitted to being a fake,depression,billybush admitted fake,-0.5,Negative
off to work ahhhh such is life for the poor amp unknown wa thinking earlier how much loot that miley cyrus ha at age,depression,work ahhhh life poor amp unknown wa thinking earlier much loot miley cyrus ha age,-0.08,Moderately Negative
so dissappointed right now guess it not meant to be,depression,dissappointed right guess meant,0.29,Moderately Positive
splont i have a meeting all morning today if that make you feel better though i finish tomorrow until next wed to make you hate me,depression,splont meeting morning today make feel better though finish tomorrow next wed hate,-0.1,Moderately Negative
diannepulham oooooooo who with im not neither but thats because i need to study,depression,diannepulham oooooooo im neither thats need study,0.0,Neutral
alydesigns i wa out most of the day so didn t get much done,depression,alydesigns wa day get much done,0.2,Moderately Positive
followsavvy i never found her everytime i click on her twitter thing through your myspace it go to some dude s page,depression,followsavvy never found everytime click twitter thing myspace go dude page,0.0,Neutral
got up an hou ago now lerning again really boring stuff,depression,got hou ago lerning really boring stuff,-1.0,Negative
bored from doing homework what is pingping doing,depression,bored homework pingping,-0.5,Negative
skinnylatte it a great article but quite sad we are the saddest pinnacle of evolution,depression,skinnylatte great article quite sad saddest pinnacle evolution,0.15,Moderately Positive
i don t want to be a grown up yet,depression,want grown yet,0.0,Neutral
this trolley ha up packed in like sardine padre game and they remove a car good call mt,depression,trolley ha packed like sardine padre game remove car good call mt,0.15,Moderately Positive
i am soooo tired work,depression,soooo tired work,-0.4,Moderately Negative
it april stop snowing,depression,april stop snowing,0.0,Neutral
helenvking i feel for you commuting on packed train is hideous,depression,helenvking feel commuting packed train hideous,0.0,Neutral
i need a hug,depression,need hug,0.0,Neutral
i sooo can not afford to get an iphone,depression,sooo afford get iphone,0.0,Neutral
yayitsfoogie aww well i thought it wa a fun website anyway don t be lonely,depression,yayitsfoogie aww well thought wa fun website anyway lonely,0.17,Moderately Positive
waiting for my cisco ip phone to load,depression,waiting cisco ip phone load,0.0,Neutral
vomitto ahh ai dreptate pixar,depression,vomitto ahh ai dreptate pixar,0.0,Neutral
bout to start poor linny couldn t keep her eye open she tired and ha to work tomorrow morning night ilovefatsusan,depression,bout start poor linny keep eye open tired ha work tomorrow morning night ilovefatsusan,-0.27,Moderately Negative
march sale report done hardly worth it,depression,march sale report done hardly worth,0.3,Moderately Positive
updatingffe that give me nothing to do for a good twenty minute,depression,updatingffe give nothing good twenty minute,0.7,Positive
not anymore how doe daisy manage to take up of the bed,depression,anymore doe daisy manage take bed,0.0,Neutral
someone need to give this baby a home i would but it s a bit too soon http tinyurl com dzbppd,depression,someone need give baby home would bit soon http tinyurl com dzbppd,0.0,Neutral
watched smallville x last nite http twurl nl iyar d ep could ve been so much more but yet again the decision made fail to impress,depression,watched smallville last nite http twurl nl iyar ep could much yet decision made fail impress,-0.1,Moderately Negative
http twitpic com y e cant see the flower falling i dont have a camera just my cellphone,depression,http twitpic com cant see flower falling dont camera cellphone,0.0,Neutral
it s going to be a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnngggggggg night at work,depression,going loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnngggggggg night work,0.0,Neutral
feeling really really ill,depression,feeling really ill,-0.5,Negative
brandizzzle0 yoyoyo my internet ha been rude tonight it just reconnected and i m about to go to bed,depression,brandizzzle yoyoyo internet ha rude tonight reconnected go bed,-0.3,Moderately Negative
creepy outdoor on the speedway alli is now in portugal seems not so good losing weight not healthy,depression,creepy outdoor speedway alli portugal seems good losing weight healthy,0.23,Moderately Positive
is really really tired and hasn t slept in day can barely keep my eye open really missing my sanity,depression,really tired slept day barely keep eye open missing sanity,-0.14,Moderately Negative
good god they ruined my belly button,depression,good god ruined belly button,0.7,Positive
no phantasy star yesterday going to work,depression,phantasy star yesterday going work,0.0,Neutral
simx yeah i always slow down at the end also take that i win,depression,simx yeah always slow end also take win,0.25,Moderately Positive
dhughesy thats when i have my birthday but we already have plan,depression,dhughesy thats birthday already plan,0.0,Neutral
surely is this is the first time i have tried to do this,depression,surely first time tried,0.25,Moderately Positive
is not really feeling twitter at all,depression,really feeling twitter,0.2,Moderately Positive
i don t like lukewarm shower,depression,like lukewarm shower,0.0,Neutral
khensu i always feel like that too have an amazing day though xx,depression,khensu always feel like amazing day though xx,0.6,Positive
no electricity today so no tweet,depression,electricity today tweet,0.0,Neutral
chauncey hey did u talk to mom r they home yet i hope they r ok wish i wa coming home easter,depression,chauncey hey talk mom home yet hope ok wish wa coming easter,0.5,Positive
ok so hour into the self imposed shopping ban and i am already aching for a shoe fix this is going to be harder than i thought,depression,ok hour self imposed shopping ban already aching shoe fix going harder thought,0.2,Moderately Positive
is cry inside please oh please let it rain so warm,depression,cry inside please oh let rain warm,0.6,Positive
officialrandl where s the update or have i missed something,depression,officialrandl update missed something,0.0,Neutral
disobedientgirl wonderful i ll be slogging at 9 you get up at 9 eh,depression,disobedientgirl wonderful slogging get eh,1.0,Positive
beeen awake for awile sick,depression,beeen awake awile sick,-0.71,Negative
syekr is myki really horrible,depression,syekr myki really horrible,-1.0,Negative
it s just fever,depression,fever,0.0,Neutral
really now time for sleep dreaming of my city more tattoo and other great thing waking up to early morning sociology,depression,really time sleep dreaming city tattoo great thing waking early morning sociology,0.37,Moderately Positive
awlred they dont exist however anodising service do exist so i could get it done,depression,awlred dont exist however anodising service could get done,0.0,Neutral
tried to download tweetdeck but it wont download,depression,tried download tweetdeck wont,0.0,Neutral
drjackdr oh did you see the disaster really an horrible situation,depression,drjackdr oh see disaster really horrible situation,-1.0,Negative
jammed my finger and it hurt really badly,depression,jammed finger hurt really badly,-0.4,Moderately Negative
poor ando he just got shot,depression,poor ando got shot,-0.4,Moderately Negative
swati swati omg i missed you soo much have you heard the new jls song ahaa youre probs all jetlagged right now,depression,swati omg missed soo much heard new jls song ahaa youre probs jetlagged right,0.21,Moderately Positive
sigh i think my pm is making my mind totally over analyse thing and making me sad,depression,sigh think pm making mind totally analyse thing sad,-0.25,Moderately Negative
is she still up is she is then u shud be online dunno how to find out,depression,still shud online dunno find,0.0,Neutral
theonewithkatie please i need someone to go to it with me,depression,theonewithkatie please need someone go,0.0,Neutral
is ready to go to bed long day tomorrow,depression,ready go bed long day tomorrow,0.08,Moderately Positive
currently at work,depression,currently work,0.0,Neutral
is missing his favourite friend,depression,missing favourite friend,-0.2,Moderately Negative
d trix my mom just had a root canal also i feel your pain buddy,depression,trix mom root canal also feel pain buddy,0.0,Neutral
tyjanetrev i agreee clearly they only want attention sorry i couldn t catch the train mateee,depression,tyjanetrev agreee clearly want attention sorry catch train mateee,-0.2,Moderately Negative
my dog can t move anymore praying that he will be okay,depression,dog move anymore praying okay,0.5,Positive
ientje 9 aw i m fine too thanks yeah i miss you so much on the mfc but hope we can talk later on today kiss huglove,depression,ientje aw fine thanks yeah miss much mfc hope talk later today kiss huglove,0.2,Moderately Positive
im just a little bit bored down here in warrnambool only so many animal docos you can handle,depression,im little bit bored warrnambool many animal docos handle,-0.06,Moderately Negative
i have a hole in my favourite top i bought it in the sale before christmas so i can t even get an exchange might try fixing it later,depression,hole favourite top bought sale christmas even get exchange might try fixing later,0.25,Moderately Positive
edict just been announced no social networking using the office system ok tweet this then evening chap,depression,edict announced social networking using office system ok tweet evening chap,0.27,Moderately Positive
gavlp yes i hope these shock are going to stop soon i think i m getting angry with earth itself,depression,gavlp yes hope shock going stop soon think getting angry earth,-0.5,Negative
celycarmo i m sorry i don t understand your last comment,depression,celycarmo sorry understand last comment,-0.25,Moderately Negative
bridgetsbeaches thank you for letting people know but now i m sad that the direct message i got wasn t actually from bridget,depression,bridgetsbeaches thank letting people know sad direct message got actually bridget,-0.13,Moderately Negative
atekinzz where in the world are you,depression,atekinzz world,0.0,Neutral
ugh cant sleep it 0am,depression,ugh cant sleep,0.0,Neutral
now i m down to 0 battery,depression,battery,0.0,Neutral
hate waiting for mail,depression,hate waiting mail,-0.8,Negative
anyone else having trouble accessing their reply when i click on the link on the right nothing happens i can t access them,depression,anyone else trouble accessing reply click link right nothing happens access,0.04,Neutral
aw snapcase arent getting back together i must have dreamt it,depression,aw snapcase arent getting back together must dreamt,0.0,Neutral
vacation make me feel sick,depression,vacation make feel sick,-0.71,Negative
emmaketurah i m sorry emma is swarley a goldfish i m sad for u,depression,emmaketurah sorry emma swarley goldfish sad,-0.5,Negative
su yin huen tweeted i feel unbearable guilt i made my staff cry http tinyurl com cw l9t,depression,su yin huen tweeted feel unbearable guilt made staff cry http tinyurl com cw,0.0,Neutral
shutting off twitter,depression,shutting twitter,0.0,Neutral
francesdath not bad transitioning being visited by many globe wandering gypsy queer at the moment but you are missing,depression,francesdath bad transitioning visited many globe wandering gypsy queer moment missing,-0.13,Moderately Negative
i can ha migraine,depression,ha migraine,0.0,Neutral
cant eat drink or breath thanks to the bad throat infection,depression,cant eat drink breath thanks bad throat infection,-0.25,Moderately Negative
ill make fresh start i promise xtra sad puppy face,depression,ill make fresh start promise xtra sad puppy face,-0.23,Moderately Negative
gaspitsnicole sigh me too mostly i miss hsnging out with my friend damn growing up p oh yeah i miss being able to spell too lol,depression,gaspitsnicole sigh mostly miss hsnging friend damn growing oh yeah able spell lol,0.6,Positive
enibeni i would if i knew them ed si que se duerme temprano s,depression,enibeni would knew ed si que se duerme temprano,0.0,Neutral
eyrro awwwww bummerr sorry missed it again,depression,eyrro awwwww bummerr sorry missed,-0.5,Negative
cant sleep ugh if this is going to be a trend i ll need to find something to do with my wakeful night hour read learn a language,depression,cant sleep ugh going trend need find something wakeful night hour read learn language,0.0,Neutral
thastevieg but what i really want is my old bass back,depression,thastevieg really want old bass back,0.04,Neutral
off to pick up the dog doctor s note and back to work,depression,pick dog doctor note back work,0.0,Neutral
it just make me happy over and over again i wish i wan t afraid to fly http tinyurl com skpp,depression,make happy wish wan afraid fly http tinyurl com skpp,0.2,Moderately Positive
m0nkfish eww hershys kiss are ok but not amazing,depression,nkfish eww hershys kiss ok amazing,0.55,Positive
nothing wa sick all day it sucked im just up late cant sleep,depression,nothing wa sick day sucked im late cant sleep,-0.51,Negative
so fucking bored of work,depression,fucking bored work,-0.5,Negative
shaksiyya what wa going on with you guy over the weekend shak wa not happy my cd collection is outdated,depression,shaksiyya wa going guy weekend shak happy cd collection outdated,0.2,Moderately Positive
tuesday ll start with reflection n then a lecture in stress reducing technique that sure might become very useful for u accompaniers,depression,tuesday start reflection lecture stress reducing technique sure might become useful accompaniers,0.4,Moderately Positive
blooming great change of weather now i have a cold just my luck don t seem to be having much luck lately life suck at the mo,depression,blooming great change weather cold luck seem much lately life suck mo,-0.03,Neutral
is procrastinating i feel ill but don t want to go to bed,depression,procrastinating feel ill want go bed,-0.5,Negative
went to the doctor s today and my blood sugar level wa,depression,went doctor today blood sugar level wa,0.0,Neutral
michigan state you make me sad,depression,michigan state make sad,-0.5,Negative
good morning i am going for a run this morning then it off to the dentist for some drilling,depression,good morning going run dentist drilling,0.7,Positive
jessdubb lmao u may have to wait for another season to come thru it summe boo hot nd dry as weather,depression,jessdubb lmao may wait another season come thru summe boo hot nd dry weather,0.26,Moderately Positive
i m having a panic attack so i can t sleep distracting myself with tv and internet hope this go away soon,depression,panic attack sleep distracting tv internet hope go away soon,0.0,Neutral
bleach on my hair for the third time in four day ho hummm got to go out later to post the gazillion thing ive sold too bad,depression,bleach hair third time four day ho hummm got go later post gazillion thing ive sold bad,-0.23,Moderately Negative
wanting some sunshine so we can lay in the pool,depression,wanting sunshine lay pool,0.0,Neutral
kevchoice i just don t get it what in a person mind could even have them on some ish like this my prayer are with her fam for real,depression,kevchoice get person mind could even ish like prayer fam real,0.2,Moderately Positive
i m going to love this season of the hill i can tell spartan sucked goodnight,depression,going love season hill tell spartan sucked goodnight,0.5,Positive
frumiousme t wa the antibiotic for root canal will take polaramine tonight for hive other symptom have gone now thank goodness,depression,frumiousme wa antibiotic root canal take polaramine tonight hive symptom gone thank goodness,0.0,Neutral
jonathanrknight awww i soo wish i wa there to see you finally comfortable im sad that i missed it,depression,jonathanrknight awww soo wish wa see finally comfortable im sad missed,0.1,Moderately Positive
work laptop is officially dead not happy at all,depression,work laptop officially dead happy,0.3,Moderately Positive
octolinz it it count idk why i did either you never talk to me anymore,depression,octolinz count idk either never talk anymore,0.0,Neutral
italian lesson now bored,depression,italian lesson bored,-0.25,Moderately Negative
hellobebe i also send some update in plurk but i upload photo on twitter you didnt see any of my update on plurk zero,depression,hellobebe also send update plurk upload photo twitter didnt see zero,0.0,Neutral
hate his pill oh god why do they have to taste so fuckin horrible 0 liter of coke to flush them down isnt even enough,depression,hate pill oh god taste fuckin horrible liter coke flush isnt even enough,-0.6,Negative
bored and lonely,depression,bored lonely,-0.3,Moderately Negative
why do most video i play skip and jump,depression,video play skip jump,0.0,Neutral
baby i miss you so much,depression,baby miss much,0.2,Moderately Positive
ainz dj mate what time you gettin there not gon na be able to hang around for the late bit but comin down to support you fo sho,depression,ainz dj mate time gettin gon na able hang around late bit comin support fo sho,0.1,Moderately Positive
tomatosalsa hope you aren t referring to me say hello to your new stalker lol,depression,tomatosalsa hope referring say hello new stalker lol,0.47,Moderately Positive
just finished watching the new hero episode god i can t wait for next week episode hero ftw,depression,finished watching new hero episode god wait next week ftw,0.07,Moderately Positive
finding it really hard to use twitter,depression,finding really hard use twitter,-0.29,Moderately Negative
mrsfr yes unfortunately the date clashed with an important and long standing family party got to do it on my own,depression,mrsfr yes unfortunately date clashed important long standing family party got,-0.05,Moderately Negative
charliecondou skinmusic more like,depression,charliecondou skinmusic like,0.0,Neutral
banned from sims forum for the rest of the week aww it feel weird i wa only sticking up for chanel,depression,banned sims forum rest week aww feel weird wa sticking chanel,-0.1,Moderately Negative
i don t think i like the saw ride at thorpe park the tv ad make me feel sick so goodness know what the ride would do,depression,think like saw ride thorpe park tv ad make feel sick goodness know would,-0.71,Negative
watching quot house quot,depression,watching quot house,0.0,Neutral
is annoyed with the amount of glass on dublin road and the number of puncture i am getting,depression,annoyed amount glass dublin road number puncture getting,-0.4,Moderately Negative
dynoisthename haha you better watch those two they might actually kill each other,depression,dynoisthename haha better watch two might actually kill,0.23,Moderately Positive
carli chick i can t get photo x,depression,carli chick get photo,0.0,Neutral
my sister s kitty eva had three baby kitten yesterday but something is wrong with her and need to go to the vet,depression,sister kitty eva three baby kitten yesterday something wrong need go vet,-0.5,Negative
yo that wa hella weird my twitter got deleted,depression,yo wa hella weird twitter got deleted,-0.5,Negative
tonight s gyratory system show at the vibe bar will be electronic due to drummer illness,depression,tonight gyratory system show vibe bar electronic due drummer illness,-0.12,Moderately Negative
davedynamix i m still sad over marley amp me also that damn clearance dog,depression,davedynamix still sad marley amp also damn clearance dog,-0.5,Negative
is not sleeping damnit t minus hour and counting until i have to get the kid up for school,depression,sleeping damnit minus hour counting get kid school,-0.1,Moderately Negative
why oh why do i watch video of people dying right before i m going to sleep,depression,oh watch video people dying right going sleep,0.29,Moderately Positive
where s my search bar how come aoife got one and i didn t twitter must like her better than me,depression,search bar come aoife got one twitter must like better,0.5,Positive
gawd my laptop is fucked up now system error just using my lil brother s laptop,depression,gawd laptop fucked system error using lil brother,-0.6,Negative
not going swimming,depression,going swimming,0.0,Neutral
lghague just uni ruining my life a per usual,depression,lghague uni ruining life per usual,-0.25,Moderately Negative
can not upload my pic,depression,upload pic,0.0,Neutral
reldred yes babypunch is totally addictive,depression,reldred yes babypunch totally addictive,0.0,Neutral
i m really cold i don t want to go to sleep yet but there s nothing to do,depression,really cold want go sleep yet nothing,-0.6,Negative
anybody know where my ipod went,depression,anybody know ipod went,0.0,Neutral
annoying place pm and half the hawker s closed i want otah,depression,annoying place pm half hawker closed want otah,-0.36,Moderately Negative
is waiting for the scrapper to come to pick up his old saab,depression,waiting scrapper come pick old saab,0.1,Moderately Positive
sister s cat meatball ha had it leg crushed need to be amputated now poor little thing,depression,sister cat meatball ha leg crushed need amputated poor little thing,-0.23,Moderately Negative
omkar kurode you won coz i created quot avenue quot for you and yeah i made the mistake of choosing tango over zone,depression,omkar kurode coz created quot avenue yeah made mistake choosing tango zone,0.0,Neutral
sigh rain why did you decide to show up move away you were not invited to the tuesday party this is not the start i hoped for,depression,sigh rain decide show move away invited tuesday party start hoped,0.0,Neutral
still waiting and missing my baby boy,depression,still waiting missing baby boy,-0.2,Moderately Negative
happy for coach stringer hof c o 009 now if i can only finish my term paper on her,depression,happy coach stringer hof finish term paper,0.8,Positive
feeling low today,depression,feeling low today,0.0,Neutral
tacce dang i ll get house off itunes i hear it wa a devastating episode,depression,tacce dang get house itunes hear wa devastating episode,-1.0,Negative
im up i slept an hour last night death,depression,im slept hour last night death,0.0,Neutral
just got a tennis top in the post but i don t like it and it too big shame,depression,got tennis top post like big shame,0.25,Moderately Positive
amazon mp downloads down to 9p so much for my 0 cheer jodiedoubleday http tinyurl com dg qtg,depression,amazon mp downloads much cheer jodiedoubleday http tinyurl com dg qtg,0.2,Moderately Positive
http twitter com freddybust status thats right,depression,http twitter com freddybust status thats right,0.29,Moderately Positive
just microwaved a kashi chicken and spinach thing and put in the milk dvd anyone seen it i bet it s good i still havent seen slumdog,depression,microwaved kashi chicken spinach thing put milk dvd anyone seen bet good still havent slumdog,0.05,Moderately Positive
really hungry and sad that i had to throw my breakfast in the bin,depression,really hungry sad throw breakfast bin,-0.15,Moderately Negative
headtotail thank you i feel sad but hope we can give her a nice life til the end now,depression,headtotail thank feel sad hope give nice life til end,0.05,Moderately Positive
so cold,depression,cold,-0.6,Negative
only more day left in london where did the time go,depression,day left london time go,0.0,Neutral
doing make up shit,depression,make shit,-0.2,Moderately Negative
what is common between chidambaram and george bush http news oneindia in 009 0 0 sikh journalist hurl shoe at p chidambaram html,depression,common chidambaram george bush http news oneindia sikh journalist hurl shoe html,-0.3,Moderately Negative
week till sister home i missed her call again it the worst feeling in the world,depression,week till sister home missed call worst feeling world,-1.0,Negative
heidimontag just got done watching the hill loved it excited for the next episode and im sad this is the last season,depression,heidimontag got done watching hill loved excited next episode im sad last season,0.12,Moderately Positive
mizzchievouz am sorry to say but it is still in the air,depression,mizzchievouz sorry say still air,-0.5,Negative
kaeeeep yeah i know it wa horrible ugh saddening,depression,kaeeeep yeah know wa horrible ugh saddening,-1.0,Negative
my website is down,depression,website,0.0,Neutral
damm back to school tomorrow,depression,damm back school tomorrow,0.0,Neutral
on the train sans guardian,depression,train sans guardian,0.0,Neutral
crummyasshole i don t like that they only had him in the first movie cillian murphy is hot,depression,crummyasshole like first movie cillian murphy hot,0.25,Moderately Positive
i have had an allergic reaction to my contact stuck with my spec until it clear up mean and end to my breast feeding tho,depression,allergic reaction contact stuck spec clear mean end breast feeding tho,-0.11,Moderately Negative
feeling very poorly and sorry for myself can t swallow ow stupid gland,depression,feeling poorly sorry swallow ow stupid gland,-0.65,Negative
kel marshall tell me about it had some mortgage quote last sat going to be skint for the next 0 year,depression,kel marshall tell mortgage quote last sat going skint next year,0.0,Neutral
i wish i could go bed with out having take an allergy pill,depression,wish could go bed take allergy pill,0.0,Neutral
winggato no free comp lol,depression,winggato free comp lol,0.6,Positive
nbensalem i m sitting at my house and i m sooo not looking forward to my one class tomorrow,depression,nbensalem sitting house sooo looking forward one class tomorrow,0.0,Neutral
back to bed for me,depression,back bed,0.0,Neutral
not liking being back at work this morning,depression,liking back work morning,0.0,Neutral
computer internet is hating me tonight i swear and i can t find my usb cord for my sidekick,depression,computer internet hating tonight swear find usb cord sidekick,0.0,Neutral
bed is painfully tempting right now but if i take a nap i ll probably wake up at pm,depression,bed painfully tempting right take nap probably wake pm,-0.21,Moderately Negative
mtsiaklides aw i wish i could i can t really speak to my yia yia because she doesn t speak english,depression,mtsiaklides aw wish could really speak yia english,0.1,Moderately Positive
neevd know of any more site to play game on i ll never get past the second footpath on frogger,depression,neevd know site play game never get past second footpath frogger,-0.22,Moderately Negative
wordpress is being a bitch as bitch otherwise there d be a new silence remix up,depression,wordpress bitch otherwise new silence remix,0.14,Moderately Positive
actinglikeamama oh you have a recipe for gyro i developed an addiction in germany and haven t been able to find any i like in au,depression,actinglikeamama oh recipe gyro developed addiction germany able find like au,0.3,Moderately Positive
meh almost lover is the exception this track get me depressed every time,depression,meh almost lover exception track get depressed every time,0.0,Neutral
pizza night and i feel too sick,depression,pizza night feel sick,-0.71,Negative
marge inovera i tried tweetdeck once and i hated it with a passion or it hated me i m not sure,depression,marge inovera tried tweetdeck hated passion sure,-0.2,Moderately Negative
theblondetheory between that and the italy earthquake it s been a very sad news day,depression,theblondetheory italy earthquake sad news day,-0.5,Negative
childrensjewell so damn annoying when that happens isn t it hope she doesn t copy your work,depression,childrensjewell damn annoying happens hope copy work,-0.8,Negative
i m so cold,depression,cold,-0.6,Negative
no southpark for me,depression,southpark,0.0,Neutral
pelf but work is demanding for so much more,depression,pelf work demanding much,0.2,Moderately Positive
it s a nice day for once and chibi and i are stuck at home waiting for a parcel,depression,nice day chibi stuck home waiting parcel,0.6,Positive
nicholasbraun aww no fair you didn t check the pic i sent you,depression,nicholasbraun aww fair check pic sent,0.5,Positive
trying really hard not to get sick from all of the stuff i just took to get rid of my cough,depression,trying really hard get sick stuff took rid cough,-0.5,Negative
awake why can t i sleep got to work am hour,depression,awake sleep got work hour,0.0,Neutral
tombot oh dear that mean i won t be driven away to do something more productive,depression,tombot oh dear mean driven away something productive,-0.31,Moderately Negative
slessard but but but i wan na listen to the master too,depression,slessard wan na listen master,-0.2,Moderately Negative
trying to extend reading the watchman by not reading it at all i dont want it to end,depression,trying extend reading watchman dont want end,0.0,Neutral
ryanseacrest is it just me or she hate anoop i mean seriously she s kinda mean to him,depression,ryanseacrest hate anoop mean seriously kinda,-0.48,Moderately Negative
am trying to fit all my stuff in a tiny bag so i can take it on a hand luggage dont think it gon na work,depression,trying fit stuff tiny bag take hand luggage dont think gon na work,0.2,Moderately Positive
airlie is sick and now mason is sick too he is going to miss his school disco,depression,airlie sick mason going miss school disco,-0.71,Negative
the life is cool but not for me,depression,life cool,0.35,Moderately Positive
ow i totally ate pavement this morn at stephen green luas stop so sore and there wa a freaking tv camera there of all the time to fall,depression,ow totally ate pavement morn stephen green luas stop sore wa freaking tv camera time fall,-0.1,Moderately Negative
stupid glass and it s ability to cut my foot,depression,stupid glass ability cut foot,-0.8,Negative
just wrote a pg paper n 0 min studied n now off bed got ta wake up n hour oh joy nite all,depression,wrote pg paper min studied bed got ta wake hour oh joy nite,0.8,Positive
set my alarm to wake up wanted to speak to my si in africa on skype i miss her sooo much,depression,set alarm wake wanted speak si africa skype miss sooo much,0.2,Moderately Positive
need a mouse look like my lappy s touch pad is giving up na http plurk com p n0ni,depression,need mouse look like lappy touch pad giving na http plurk com ni,0.0,Neutral
owww just hit my elbow really hard on a door,depression,owww hit elbow really hard door,-0.29,Moderately Negative
whinging my client amp bos don t understand english well rewrote some text unreadable it s written by v good writer amp reviewed correctly,depression,whinging client amp bos understand english well rewrote text unreadable written good writer reviewed correctly,0.35,Moderately Positive
working rite now but have a massive headache building and feeling very sick,depression,working rite massive headache building feeling sick,-0.36,Moderately Negative
not to self licking off pudding from a seafood fork not so enjoyable a slowly licking off of a spoon,depression,self licking pudding seafood fork enjoyable slowly spoon,0.1,Moderately Positive
switchfoot http twitpic com y zl awww that s a bummer you shoulda got david carr of third day to do it d,depression,switchfoot http twitpic com zl awww bummer shoulda got david carr third day,0.2,Moderately Positive
ajiee thnx ajeng i will have to skip that class im totally unprepared,depression,ajiee thnx ajeng skip class im totally unprepared,0.0,Neutral
snaprebelx omg i love that show i would be so mad i feel ur pain im sorry they spoiled it for u,depression,snaprebelx omg love show would mad feel ur pain im sorry spoiled,-0.21,Moderately Negative
dindle manksniff food corp founder dindle manksniff disappears on midnight trip to fridge presumed dead,depression,dindle manksniff food corp founder disappears midnight trip fridge presumed dead,-0.2,Moderately Negative
my baby s heading for perth,depression,baby heading perth,0.0,Neutral
dougiemcfly hey saw u guy play pushover didn t get meet u tho cuz of th huge line i wa very upset lol a msg would make up it,depression,dougiemcfly hey saw guy play pushover get meet tho cuz th huge line wa upset lol msg would make,0.6,Positive
willie day can t sleep it and i have to be at work at 0 don t know what the problem is,depression,willie day sleep work know problem,0.0,Neutral
tooo early im running late,depression,tooo early im running late,-0.1,Moderately Negative
streetwearbear yes i am thanks for reaveling to the world bro fuck my life hahaha,depression,streetwearbear yes thanks reaveling world bro fuck life hahaha,0.0,Neutral
they killed off a character on one of my favorite show and now i m upset,depression,killed character one favorite show upset,0.15,Moderately Positive
i have decided my room need to be more quirky so angel gave me a mirror and my a button isn t working too well either,depression,decided room need quirky angel gave mirror button working well either,0.0,Neutral
ooh hungry before anything creep out of the kitchen with leg and or arm attack fridge ah cold chicken how exciting,depression,ooh hungry anything creep kitchen leg arm attack fridge ah cold chicken exciting,-0.3,Moderately Negative
laying in bed with no voice,depression,laying bed voice,0.0,Neutral
got formal invitation what am i gon na do about my date i should ve said to put quot nick amp guest quot,depression,got formal invitation gon na date said put quot nick amp guest,0.0,Neutral
savicevic aww i won t be that roommate next year,depression,savicevic aww roommate next year,0.15,Moderately Positive
nicolerichie gossip girl wa a repeat,depression,nicolerichie gossip girl wa repeat,0.0,Neutral
ktml i think it itunes fault i cant download it on my mac now quot store busy quot if you got it anything awesome in the camerakit update,depression,ktml think itunes fault cant download mac quot store busy got anything awesome camerakit update,0.55,Positive
kristenkreuk fiuhh nice to get info from you i m one of your fan from indonesia and still waiting for your movie in my country thanx,depression,kristenkreuk fiuhh nice get info one fan indonesia still waiting movie country thanx,0.6,Positive
thinking the short and flip flop may have been a bad idea,depression,thinking short flip flop may bad idea,-0.35,Moderately Negative
bah hairline fracture in the impellor hub titsuptuesday,depression,bah hairline fracture impellor hub titsuptuesday,0.0,Neutral
missed the gig,depression,missed gig,0.0,Neutral
is feeling like dancing in the rain like a pixie but the rain stopped ohh well lol i ll watch flight of the conchords instead,depression,feeling like dancing rain pixie stopped ohh well lol watch flight conchords instead,0.8,Positive
this is exactly why a city burn worry me quot a city burn s third and most likely final outing quot from their new album review,depression,exactly city burn worry quot third likely final outing new album review,0.08,Moderately Positive
in the university in the classroom on the computer shit my day is boring,depression,university classroom computer shit day boring,-0.6,Negative
powerpoole some people try to be tricky some stop using twitter at all i guess it s a good a it get i had to try,depression,powerpoole people try tricky stop using twitter guess good get,0.7,Positive
still in bed and don t want to do anything else university is callung too loud,depression,still bed want anything else university callung loud,0.1,Moderately Positive
chauv i ha so many thing to do,depression,chauv ha many thing,0.5,Positive
km on bike i m all hot n sweaty the rem marathon continues,depression,km bike hot sweaty rem marathon continues,0.25,Moderately Positive
britney wa fucking amazing after we just went back to the hotel i hate travelling with cheapos,depression,britney wa fucking amazing went back hotel hate travelling cheapos,-0.07,Moderately Negative
lolitariot oh no hope you re not getting sick too,depression,lolitariot oh hope getting sick,-0.71,Negative
cry my friend is moving away tomorrow,depression,cry friend moving away tomorrow,0.0,Neutral
heading to bed have to be at work in hour,depression,heading bed work hour,0.0,Neutral
imaginarypeach now your leaving me get sad,depression,imaginarypeach leaving get sad,-0.5,Negative
right got a stinking headache but i need to run i m not a happy bunny,depression,right got stinking headache need run happy bunny,0.54,Positive
huntermoore i don t want him to ever punch me,depression,huntermoore want ever punch,0.0,Neutral
gvenk thanks alexandernl sorry,depression,gvenk thanks alexandernl sorry,-0.15,Moderately Negative
greyhoundgal omg front page i d be so excited congratulation sorry about torres hurting his paw tho is that your dog,depression,greyhoundgal omg front page excited congratulation sorry torres hurting paw tho dog,-0.06,Moderately Negative
borning thats me with a cold virus all bunged up and eye all squinty bah,depression,borning thats cold virus bunged eye squinty bah,-0.6,Negative
this earthquake in italy ha me sadden it s only three hour away from naples where my family is,depression,earthquake italy ha sadden three hour away naples family,0.0,Neutral
wyldceltic so i read i m glad you re doing better,depression,wyldceltic read glad better,0.5,Positive
i am really tired but cant go to sleep,depression,really tired cant go sleep,-0.4,Moderately Negative
just saw dan off neighbour walking down chapel street random feeling like they are going to fire me at work any got a job going,depression,saw dan neighbour walking chapel street random feeling like going fire work got job,-0.5,Negative
it seems that twitter lost some update yesterday again twitter fail,depression,seems twitter lost update yesterday fail,-0.5,Negative
last day in my nice little office dont wan na move,depression,last day nice little office dont wan na move,0.05,Moderately Positive
lol honeybaby i sound like a ny quil commercial that word only look right with a green background i want to sleep but i can t,depression,lol honeybaby sound like ny quil commercial word look right green background want sleep,0.26,Moderately Positive
winetweat sorry but follow u we re going to publish picture and video and sometimes also in english,depression,winetweat sorry follow going publish picture video sometimes also english,-0.25,Moderately Negative
i hope not all is lost sigh,depression,hope lost sigh,0.0,Neutral
urgh my head hurt think i ve had about hour sleep but the cat wa miaowing no rest for the wicked,depression,urgh head hurt think hour sleep cat wa miaowing rest wicked,0.0,Neutral
wishing i wa again,depression,wishing wa,0.0,Neutral
definitely no vacation for me http plurk com p mzygb,depression,definitely vacation http plurk com mzygb,0.0,Neutral
cash rule everything around me,depression,cash rule everything around,0.0,Neutral
okie dokie my tweoples it been a long day and i have to be in the city by 0 am boooooooooooo good night my lovely lt,depression,okie dokie tweoples long day city boooooooooooo good night lovely lt,0.38,Moderately Positive
i loved mari trini s song when i wa a child,depression,loved mari trini song wa child,0.7,Positive
ryleebeth ye im not very sad but weirdly enough shes lettin me go da party how confusing parent r lol,depression,ryleebeth ye im sad weirdly enough shes lettin go da party confusing parent lol,0.0,Neutral
i never thought that i could hate sombody but i really hate you tobe d i only gave you all of my love and you pay me so bad,depression,never thought could hate sombody really tobe gave love pay bad,-0.2,Moderately Negative
my stomach is feeling satisfied now been starving for hour,depression,stomach feeling satisfied starving hour,0.5,Positive
mattycus cry,depression,mattycus cry,0.0,Neutral
http twitpic com y bg this is ashley from kick s afternoon show he s not impressed with the twitter,depression,http twitpic com bg ashley kick afternoon show impressed twitter,1.0,Positive
majesticflame ouch sound very sucky,depression,majesticflame ouch sound sucky,0.4,Moderately Positive
stephen just left i miss him sooo much,depression,stephen left miss sooo much,0.1,Moderately Positive
i have chapped lip boo,depression,chapped lip boo,0.0,Neutral
at my mama ji s place everybody keep giving me new option to study or work now i get more confused with each passing day,depression,mama ji place everybody keep giving new option study work get confused passing day,-0.13,Moderately Negative
silverlines aaaah jadi tiba pingin butter sugar toast huhuu,depression,silverlines aaaah jadi tiba pingin butter sugar toast huhuu,0.0,Neutral
candicenicolepr i haven t heard from you in while,depression,candicenicolepr heard,0.0,Neutral
i have to be out of my place in day any help i can get packing painting cleaning is much appreciated oh and rip my wall,depression,place day help get packing painting cleaning much appreciated oh rip wall,0.2,Moderately Positive
i am worried that i won t get my 900 even though i paid a buttload of tax last year,depression,worried get even though paid buttload tax last year,0.0,Neutral
rebeccamayne that doe sound boring a hell becs,depression,rebeccamayne doe sound boring hell becs,-0.3,Moderately Negative
added the dns system compatibility is okay and am looking forward to the possibility now open but i need to rework the intro sequence,depression,added dns system compatibility okay looking forward possibility open need rework intro sequence,0.25,Moderately Positive
loaded with the cold great fun,depression,loaded cold great fun,0.17,Moderately Positive
just a head up site s being wonky so will like probably post late today flippin technical issue,depression,head site wonky like probably post late today flippin technical issue,-0.2,Moderately Negative
eazydoesit negative you lost my vote of confidence,depression,eazydoesit negative lost vote confidence,-0.3,Moderately Negative
i wish i were playing reindeer game up at fowler,depression,wish playing reindeer game fowler,-0.4,Moderately Negative
sheritingle really busy load of project to complete,depression,sheritingle really busy load project complete,0.1,Moderately Positive
mum s been taken to hospital they don t know what s wrong she s been vomiting since yesterday rushing back to get to the hospital,depression,mum taken hospital know wrong vomiting since yesterday rushing back get,-0.25,Moderately Negative
sminchin 9 sorry to hear you re unwell it s the school holiday syndrome again,depression,sminchin sorry hear unwell school holiday syndrome,-0.5,Negative
my condolence to natasha richardson s family,depression,condolence natasha richardson family,0.0,Neutral
stooopppiddd abbey national i need to get dosh out and it blooming shut,depression,stooopppiddd abbey national need get dosh blooming shut,0.0,Neutral
errrggggg my tummy hurt,depression,errrggggg tummy hurt,0.0,Neutral
ow ow ow tummy ache too much candy i never learn,depression,ow tummy ache much candy never learn,0.2,Moderately Positive
im awake people got nothing to do today probably watch tv and get rid of all my program on sky planner the joy not,depression,im awake people got nothing today probably watch tv get rid program sky planner joy,0.8,Positive
off to the drs it too early,depression,drs early,0.1,Moderately Positive
pratama same imac came out 0 more in indonesia than the state,depression,pratama imac came indonesia state,0.0,Neutral
http twitpic com y lt i feel so bad for the band right now,depression,http twitpic com lt feel bad band right,-0.21,Moderately Negative
russyrhubarb a new twitter name without telling me boo by the way i think oberon is dead haven t seen him for age,depression,russyrhubarb new twitter name without telling boo way think oberon dead seen age,-0.03,Neutral
what a mistake buying that dress i dont even want to go to grad anymore,depression,mistake buying dress dont even want go grad anymore,0.0,Neutral
sick today and i have a lot to do at work,depression,sick today lot work,-0.71,Negative
and they advertising fake louis bag a 00 authentic on google i m pissed,depression,advertising fake louis bag authentic google pissed,0.0,Neutral
hannahsix cream for his eye and he may have herpes not ocular herpes but a different strain he s doing okay though,depression,hannahsix cream eye may herpes ocular different strain okay though,0.25,Moderately Positive
lenesha but im not feeling well mommy,depression,lenesha im feeling well mommy,0.0,Neutral
coming down with a cold or bad allergy either way i m miserable,depression,coming cold bad allergy either way miserable,-0.77,Negative
is not looking forward to working today,depression,looking forward working today,0.0,Neutral
throat killing me and missing gordon,depression,throat killing missing gordon,-0.2,Moderately Negative
just checked my user timeline on my blackberry it look like the twanking is still happening are ppl still having probs w bgs and uids,depression,checked user timeline blackberry look like twanking still happening ppl probs bgs uids,0.0,Neutral
can t sleep how frustrating,depression,sleep frustrating,-0.4,Moderately Negative
stewiebrittany no i dont even know how to ride it,depression,stewiebrittany dont even know ride,0.0,Neutral
last day at home today catching the train at 0am tomorrow ha been a nice break but now i need some breakfast a shower and a shave,depression,last day home today catching train tomorrow ha nice break need breakfast shower shave,0.4,Moderately Positive
so bored still no internet at home,depression,bored still internet home,-0.5,Negative
i don t wan na leave co am is coming too soon,depression,wan na leave co coming soon,-0.2,Moderately Negative
i don t like the previously on skin thing that start at season two i like it when it went straight into the intro like before,depression,like previously skin thing start season two went straight intro,0.02,Neutral
i have no idea how to use twitter no one want to follow me cause i m a bland person,depression,idea use twitter one want follow cause bland person,-0.17,Moderately Negative
i had hour of sleep and now i cant go back to sleeping im thirsty,depression,hour sleep cant go back sleeping im thirsty,0.0,Neutral
pauliwhirl omg whine whine whine whine housing lotery is over stfu i had to explain to qidong that he wa fucked,depression,pauliwhirl omg whine housing lotery stfu explain qidong wa fucked,-0.6,Negative
watching fallon with mom and working on a project school is hard,depression,watching fallon mom working project school hard,-0.29,Moderately Negative
misswyn i bet you are i remember easter a a kid wa so excited you ll have a great day,depression,misswyn bet remember easter kid wa excited great day,0.59,Positive
acummings i ve got return ticket booked for this weekend if the exchange rate wasn t so bad i d go but don t mind missing it really,depression,acummings got return ticket booked weekend exchange rate bad go mind missing really,-0.23,Moderately Negative
agh snow,depression,agh snow,0.0,Neutral
and it wa a great song too,depression,wa great song,0.8,Positive
contactabe i m so jealous i missed all of opening day this year,depression,contactabe jealous missed opening day year,0.0,Neutral
quot it not how you are alike it how you are diferent quot i just cried in that montage flashback in hp make me cry every time,depression,quot alike diferent cried montage flashback hp make cry every time,0.0,Neutral
coughing up a lung again i ve had this on and off since xmas,depression,coughing lung since xmas,0.0,Neutral
i have packed off hubby to bristol missing him already,depression,packed hubby bristol missing already,-0.2,Moderately Negative
nickynocky i m looking for other utility supplier tonite now,depression,nickynocky looking utility supplier tonite,0.0,Neutral
laniefuller feeling really sick today how about you,depression,laniefuller feeling really sick today,-0.71,Negative
i miss you twitter my phone broke now i m using a stupid nokia phone ughhh i miss my advance phone,depression,miss twitter phone broke using stupid nokia ughhh advance,-0.8,Negative
tayswift i wa up at am btw congrats on winning album of the year you deserve it i can t not shed a tear to white horse,depression,tayswift wa btw congrats winning album year deserve shed tear white horse,0.25,Moderately Positive
i m not worried about them cutting my hour down so i start at 0 00am every day except i may have to give up my morning starbucks,depression,worried cutting hour start every day except may give morning starbucks,-0.6,Negative
jasonarnopp our membership had expired and to renew them we have to do a new induction which can t happen til next tuesday,depression,jasonarnopp membership expired renew new induction happen til next tuesday,0.07,Moderately Positive
http tr im imov i b c h i tho i th l gi t cu c i r i m nh v n c n nh c i nh t p th b t c a b c ch tr i,depression,http tr im imov tho th gi cu nh ch,0.0,Neutral
missykesson cant find u on it,depression,missykesson cant find,0.0,Neutral
misscassandra still on my quot lion amp tiger amp bear quot shyt but god is good consequently i will be too,depression,misscassandra still quot lion amp tiger bear shyt god good consequently,0.7,Positive
wellreadkitty oh poor thing i used ot love squeezing out the pu when i wa a vet nurse kinda gross really,depression,wellreadkitty oh poor thing used ot love squeezing pu wa vet nurse kinda gross really,0.08,Moderately Positive
taking angus for a check up today i always quietly dread it but this time he s poorly so i know the lung function test will be crap,depression,taking angus check today always quietly dread time poorly know lung function test crap,-0.4,Moderately Negative
having a coffee and going through my twitter facebook and other social network it seems to become a full time job to keep up,depression,coffee going twitter facebook social network seems become full time job keep,0.19,Moderately Positive
or should i say my brain need to optimise my neural search pathway to find my muscle again,depression,say brain need optimise neural search pathway find muscle,0.0,Neutral
another long and slow day ahead sigh,depression,another long slow day ahead sigh,-0.18,Moderately Negative
whoisariston no problem tongue in cheek remark lot of acronym but no nz,depression,whoisariston problem tongue cheek remark lot acronym nz,0.0,Neutral
dreadkey i m k o d battered and bruised my arm the tambourine self conflicted pain,depression,dreadkey battered bruised arm tambourine self conflicted pain,0.0,Neutral
scarlettdane no mary amp i were going to go dress shopping tomorrow,depression,scarlettdane mary amp going go dress shopping tomorrow,0.0,Neutral
darn it i woke up with a great idea for a lime article and i forgot what it wa,depression,darn woke great idea lime article forgot wa,0.8,Positive
jpfurry poor john this is what happens when you play with fruit and a microwave seriously though have you seen a doctor xxx,depression,jpfurry poor john happens play fruit microwave seriously though seen doctor xxx,-0.37,Moderately Negative
slept badly still feel like hell but maybe not a bad a yesterday why am i always ill when i take time off work,depression,slept badly still feel like hell maybe bad yesterday always ill take time work,-0.63,Negative
started his week training it s going tobbr tough with so many birthday currently at work http twitpic com y k,depression,started week training going tobbr tough many birthday currently work http twitpic com,0.04,Neutral
can not sleep wide awake and i got ta go to work later too boy am i going to have a crappy day,depression,sleep wide awake got ta go work later boy going crappy day,-0.05,Moderately Negative
bedtime school tomorrow and i still have no book being broke suck,depression,bedtime school tomorrow still book broke suck,0.0,Neutral
im having a miley nite no sleeping boo,depression,im miley nite sleeping boo,0.0,Neutral
head got bashed by a door today,depression,head got bashed door today,0.0,Neutral
sad that the time shift mean it s dark when we go home,depression,sad time shift mean dark go home,-0.32,Moderately Negative
i m not there is on hbo in 0 minute got excited then remembered i should get some sleep tonight and why is it not on again soon sad,depression,hbo minute got excited remembered get sleep tonight soon sad,-0.06,Moderately Negative
darraghdoyle ah pox say it isn t so,depression,darraghdoyle ah pox say,0.0,Neutral
is still effinggggg sick when will i get better ughh,depression,still effinggggg sick get better ughh,-0.11,Moderately Negative
mikebreed it all up to u mike i understand what you say but i think it u that need to change my opinion but yours is good too lol,depression,mikebreed mike understand say think need change opinion good lol,0.75,Positive
summer camp or summer school both are boarding lol,depression,summer camp school boarding lol,0.8,Positive
rustyrockets will you be showing me some love you sexy swine feeling abit lonely go on you know you wan na x,depression,rustyrockets showing love sexy swine feeling abit lonely go know wan na,0.18,Moderately Positive
nicolerichie yes we had the vhs i cried when the old man died,depression,nicolerichie yes vhs cried old man died,0.1,Moderately Positive
watching who framed roger rabbit make me miss toon town,depression,watching framed roger rabbit make miss toon town,0.0,Neutral
dr black yes i wa invited but will be in san francisco very sorry to miss it,depression,dr black yes wa invited san francisco sorry miss,-0.33,Moderately Negative
j xx is the white guy manager there the one that shout when you walk in i wan na go back and feast,depression,xx white guy manager one shout walk wan na go back feast,-0.07,Moderately Negative
marlonjenglish,depression,marlonjenglish,0.0,Neutral
wish i wa on the spring fling tour with dawn amp neecee sigh g knight,depression,wish wa spring fling tour dawn amp neecee sigh knight,0.0,Neutral
nevadawolf sorry to hear about your dnf run tonight always a risk to get bad coords on an ftf,depression,nevadawolf sorry hear dnf run tonight always risk get bad coords ftf,-0.6,Negative
luxuryprgal hahaha suriously i feel like everyone know this show is a joke except lc,depression,luxuryprgal hahaha suriously feel like everyone know show joke except lc,0.2,Moderately Positive
josordoni yeah it wa good news a y combinator interview next week dunno bout the oyster will just suck it up i guess,depression,josordoni yeah wa good news combinator interview next week dunno bout oyster suck guess,0.35,Moderately Positive
driving back to la quinta tomorrow i should sleep but i m oddly wired,depression,driving back la quinta tomorrow sleep oddly wired,-0.08,Moderately Negative
is physically tired but can t sleep,depression,physically tired sleep,-0.4,Moderately Negative
whyvee welcome home sound like a hell of a journey back,depression,whyvee welcome home sound like hell journey back,0.4,Moderately Positive
sooo sick of the snow ughh,depression,sooo sick snow ughh,-0.71,Negative
just heard that they found sandra cantu she wa only yr old,depression,heard found sandra cantu wa yr old,0.1,Moderately Positive
made it into dc on saturday afternoon after hour in air and am now in south fl jetlag suck haven t had a full sleep since thurs,depression,made dc saturday afternoon hour air south fl jetlag suck full sleep since thurs,0.35,Moderately Positive
djginaturner no le gusta house of house min intro,depression,djginaturner le gusta house min intro,0.0,Neutral
good morning world s we got snow again,depression,good morning world got snow,0.7,Positive
but i have to work now so no time to play,depression,work time play,0.0,Neutral
iamnipper last week they ve got the bike minus a saddle,depression,iamnipper last week got bike minus saddle,-0.05,Moderately Negative
paulaabdul awww good luck paula please don t work too hard but i hope you have fun your new album is gon na be amazing xxx,depression,paulaabdul awww good luck paula please work hard hope fun new album gon na amazing xxx,0.31,Moderately Positive
savethestrib dang i would have done this if i knew it wa there earlier any other outing planned,depression,savethestrib dang would done knew wa earlier outing planned,0.0,Neutral
yea it is so quiet around here cuz everyone ha to work im bored to death with nobody to talk to,depression,yea quiet around cuz everyone ha work im bored death nobody talk,-0.25,Moderately Negative
planting a friend today not been to a funeral in gt 0 year,depression,planting friend today funeral gt year,0.0,Neutral
dachesterfrench i emailed you yesterday and u never responded,depression,dachesterfrench emailed yesterday never responded,0.0,Neutral
arhh i think i ll end up going alone but i will see it at some point,depression,arhh think end going alone see point,0.0,Neutral
still sick feeling a bit better got some new medicine hope i feel good after a night of sleep ohh and it s suppose to snow wtf,depression,still sick feeling bit better got new medicine hope feel good night sleep ohh suppose snow wtf,0.02,Neutral
gracedent it s her quot hair quot i can t deal with,depression,gracedent quot hair deal,0.0,Neutral
there s an inch of snow on the ground and counting i m worried about the poor flower,depression,inch snow ground counting worried poor flower,-0.4,Moderately Negative
i m going to put myself out of this misery and go to freakin bed ugh,depression,going put misery go freakin bed ugh,0.0,Neutral
petemc they re horrible they re out to get me,depression,petemc horrible get,-1.0,Negative
can t upload my pic,depression,upload pic,0.0,Neutral
ad not yet appeared google adsense team said it may delay hr on http womenissues info,depression,ad yet appeared google adsense team said may delay hr http womenissues info,0.0,Neutral
started getting mailshots aimed at pensioner it s all downhill now,depression,started getting mailshots aimed pensioner downhill,0.0,Neutral
i fell tired i want to sleep but im almost done with some work and i need to go to the bathroom,depression,fell tired want sleep im almost done work need go bathroom,-0.4,Moderately Negative
i miss my ex soo much,depression,miss ex soo much,0.2,Moderately Positive
glavas lol u read my bio but spelt my name wrong darylo ahem,depression,glavas lol read bio spelt name wrong darylo ahem,0.15,Moderately Positive
my heart is broken every morning dropping foo at pre school now i understand when mom say quot he ha my heart broken quot,depression,heart broken every morning dropping foo pre school understand mom say quot ha,-0.4,Moderately Negative
is poorly sick,depression,poorly sick,-0.71,Negative
henrygooden oddchicken i went there about a month and a half ago wa still open then smelt really good but i wa getting sick,depression,henrygooden oddchicken went month half ago wa still open smelt really good getting sick,-0.05,Moderately Negative
missed today s ellen,depression,missed today ellen,0.0,Neutral
i m sweating my forthcoming trip to e if i can t find someone to crash with while i m out there i may be screwed,depression,sweating forthcoming trip find someone crash may screwed,0.0,Neutral
my phone is broke too bad i could have been sending you exciting tweet today on how the city election are going election judge day,depression,phone broke bad could sending exciting tweet today city election going judge day,-0.2,Moderately Negative
my night went to the bar felt up a marred woman went home hard and alone,depression,night went bar felt marred woman home hard alone,-0.29,Moderately Negative
this week is not going a i had hoped,depression,week going hoped,0.0,Neutral
hert jesus camp yeah,depression,hert jesus camp yeah,0.0,Neutral
fuck i can t sleep,depression,fuck sleep,-0.4,Moderately Negative
roxy yeah yep a loser,depression,roxy yeah yep loser,0.0,Neutral
i wan na come with them to bohol,depression,wan na come bohol,-0.2,Moderately Negative
i m stuck awake in the middle of the night for the second day in a row and i felt terrible yesterday,depression,stuck awake middle night second day row felt terrible yesterday,-0.33,Moderately Negative
too much internet how it plague me,depression,much internet plague,0.2,Moderately Positive
the last season of the hill what will one do with oneself when it end,depression,last season hill one oneself end,0.0,Neutral
craigelder proof reading defra greener living fund bid only a govt dept could have a grant application deadline this close to easter,depression,craigelder proof reading defra greener living fund bid govt dept could grant application deadline close easter,0.0,Neutral
argh i wa suuuper sleepy an hour ago now i m wide awake hope i don t stay up all night,depression,argh wa suuuper sleepy hour ago wide awake hope stay night,-0.1,Moderately Negative
crazytwism i know they block orkut in dubai in oman they have orkut access but skype is banned ru from the gulf,depression,crazytwism know block orkut dubai oman access skype banned ru gulf,0.0,Neutral
i still feel toss though i wa better yesterday but actually realised im not when i woke up at am feeling sick,depression,still feel toss though wa better yesterday actually realised im woke feeling sick,-0.07,Moderately Negative
nikrosser i don t think there is any kind of good stroke i ll wait to hear from you i love that little cat l xxx,depression,nikrosser think kind good stroke wait hear love little cat xxx,0.4,Moderately Positive
twitter is a lot le interesting since cute people suddenly stopped flirting with me,depression,twitter lot le interesting since cute people suddenly stopped flirting,0.33,Moderately Positive
not feeling so hot,depression,feeling hot,0.25,Moderately Positive
heatherlibby oh well she seems like trouble christian slater is trying to kill her at the moment,depression,heatherlibby oh well seems like trouble christian slater trying kill moment,-0.1,Moderately Negative
revising my essay and talking to my hubby on aim,depression,revising essay talking hubby aim,0.0,Neutral
stuff finding a small enough picture i will jsut have to be this weird face for the rest of my twitter life lol,depression,stuff finding small enough picture jsut weird face rest twitter life lol,0.01,Neutral
just going to cry myself to sleep after watching marley and me,depression,going cry sleep watching marley,0.0,Neutral
good morning hope everyone is feeling better than me this cold ha really got hold now,depression,good morning hope everyone feeling better cold ha really got hold,0.2,Moderately Positive
wish for good old cartoon to come back ie captain planet where s wally daria sadness,depression,wish good old cartoon come back ie captain planet wally daria sadness,0.27,Moderately Positive
wrote exactly three line of dialogue tonight then gave up,depression,wrote exactly three line dialogue tonight gave,0.25,Moderately Positive
back at work john muir dr http loopt u koqabg,depression,back work john muir dr http loopt koqabg,0.0,Neutral
duchess rebecca man intervention is soo sad,depression,duchess rebecca man intervention soo sad,-0.5,Negative
plip would love to try trillian astra but it s a closed beta and they won t let me in,depression,plip would love try trillian astra closed beta let,0.2,Moderately Positive
ohhh not very well and i ve lost my voice,depression,ohhh well lost voice,0.0,Neutral
i wish i wa better at writing it s taking me so long to write this paper,depression,wish wa better writing taking long write paper,0.22,Moderately Positive
what a bad day need comfort drink sipping on a mocha frap here at starbucks with tricia so tired,depression,bad day need comfort drink sipping mocha frap starbucks tricia tired,-0.55,Negative
someone please take gossip girl away from me i m addicted,depression,someone please take gossip girl away addicted,-0.4,Moderately Negative
i just let my everquest subscription lapse just don t play it anymore don t have the time,depression,let everquest subscription lapse play anymore time,0.0,Neutral
http is gd r zf http is gd r zy and http is gd r zg test footage with my girlfriend in hd the dark one is underxposed,depression,http gd zf zy zg test footage girlfriend hd dark one underxposed,-0.15,Moderately Negative
redpr no look like housework for me,depression,redpr look like housework,0.0,Neutral
quot who is your favorite vintage designer quot lucy quot topshop quot i miss cycle of britain s ntm,depression,quot favorite vintage designer lucy topshop miss cycle britain ntm,0.5,Positive
oops havnt been on a while so much school work hardly any time myself,depression,oops havnt much school work hardly time,-0.05,Moderately Negative
broadband plan a massive broken promise http tinyurl com dcuc via www diigo com tautao still waiting for broadband we are,depression,broadband plan massive broken promise http tinyurl com dcuc via www diigo tautao still waiting,-0.2,Moderately Negative
timvansas no not yet but also need to finish the rest of it,depression,timvansas yet also need finish rest,0.0,Neutral
just got up and nappy very wet and split at the back going for a nice baby bath and then back in nappy i go,depression,got nappy wet split back going nice baby bath go,0.17,Moderately Positive
bored amp tired miss the stay back time,depression,bored amp tired miss stay back time,-0.3,Moderately Negative
poor cameron the hill,depression,poor cameron hill,-0.4,Moderately Negative
time to get dressed i suppose gah another workday,depression,time get dressed suppose gah another workday,0.0,Neutral
moreshannon he isn t here he is down south for day working,depression,moreshannon south day working,0.0,Neutral
lovebscott umm nope think im an insomniac plus i got the flu i lll be sleepin like a phuckin fish outta water any minute now,depression,lovebscott umm nope think im insomniac plus got flu lll sleepin like phuckin fish outta water minute,0.0,Neutral
it already in the a m i need to sleep especially since i have to be at school for hour,depression,already need sleep especially since school hour,0.0,Neutral
stephenkruiser oh my sympathy it s a hard decision i always hope my old border collie will go in her sleep she s too hug,depression,stephenkruiser oh sympathy hard decision always hope old border collie go sleep hug,-0.1,Moderately Negative
why do those project report for school need so many word am 00 word short,depression,project report school need many word short,0.25,Moderately Positive
i just grew another chin,depression,grew another chin,0.0,Neutral
mum soup made my stomach make nasty noise,depression,mum soup made stomach make nasty noise,-1.0,Negative
why can t airfare go down or why do i have to live in texas i don t know if i ll be able to make it to iowa,depression,airfare go live texas know able make iowa,0.32,Moderately Positive
naar haddow racket mee wahey,depression,naar haddow racket mee wahey,0.0,Neutral
a day of nothing bliss miss my boy tho,depression,day nothing bliss miss boy tho,0.0,Neutral
ozesteph 99 shame to hear this stephan,depression,ozesteph shame hear stephan,0.0,Neutral
too cold and tired to write good twitter everyone wa obeying the cop tonight total dissappointment we were so close,depression,cold tired write good twitter everyone wa obeying cop tonight total dissappointment close,-0.08,Moderately Negative
why is it always the fat one,depression,always fat one,0.0,Neutral
miamiiboii dead yu gettin on wen im leavin,depression,miamiiboii dead yu gettin wen im leavin,-0.2,Moderately Negative
can not believe she is awake at am on a tuesday yawn and i had a bad dream bummer,depression,believe awake tuesday yawn bad dream bummer,-0.7,Negative
motivated to sleep but i m feeling quite icky,depression,motivated sleep feeling quite icky,-0.3,Moderately Negative
maxime darn can t open it on my work computer not supposed to have fun at work but thanks anyway,depression,maxime darn open work computer supposed fun thanks anyway,0.17,Moderately Positive
turn out there had been earthquake warning in italy and they were ignored http bit ly dvyg,depression,turn earthquake warning italy ignored http bit ly dvyg,0.0,Neutral
just burnt my finger on a hot cup of tea ouch,depression,burnt finger hot cup tea ouch,0.25,Moderately Positive
thesage 0 i wish i could got ta work though,depression,thesage wish could got ta work though,0.0,Neutral
today is the day the government kill u all,depression,today day government kill,0.0,Neutral
the company i work for shuts down on thursday joblessville here i come,depression,company work shuts thursday joblessville come,0.0,Neutral
ballinbitch haha im not that ballin i still got bill to paaaaay,depression,ballinbitch haha im ballin still got bill paaaaay,0.2,Moderately Positive
feel like a cramp quite disconcerting,depression,feel like cramp quite disconcerting,0.0,Neutral
kijuto em ng t h s ng gt h tr a d y n c m n xong ng ti p n t n b y gi m m t m m t,depression,kijuto em ng gt tr xong ti gi,0.0,Neutral
andrerib oh today it is not possible for me family matter but i will try to attend next,depression,andrerib oh today possible family matter try attend next,0.0,Neutral
stustone your show is whack way worse than whack it s wiggety whack,depression,stustone show whack way worse wiggety,-0.4,Moderately Negative
bivancamp did you update itunes to the new version b you lost it new software update killed my ipod,depression,bivancamp update itunes new version lost software killed ipod,-0.03,Neutral
the first serial about my city so stupid,depression,first serial city stupid,-0.27,Moderately Negative
miss kabalin hate me,depression,miss kabalin hate,-0.8,Negative
done feeding horse this snowy windy april morning,depression,done feeding horse snowy windy april morning,0.0,Neutral
it pm here and i dont wan na go to chemistry course i dont wan na meet jordi thats the main reason,depression,pm dont wan na go chemistry course meet jordi thats main reason,-0.02,Neutral
just got home from watching michigan state get tromped,depression,got home watching michigan state get tromped,0.0,Neutral
im on val s mac in iitsc clubroom still sweating,depression,im val mac iitsc clubroom still sweating,0.0,Neutral
stupid arranged marriage i ll convert so you can marry me love you,depression,stupid arranged marriage convert marry love,-0.15,Moderately Negative
mrbigglesrox hey emily you lie meanie,depression,mrbigglesrox hey emily lie meanie,0.0,Neutral
why doe school take over your life so much you don t get sleep anymore i am still doing school work and have more to do a well,depression,doe school take life much get sleep anymore still work well,0.2,Moderately Positive
sleep soon i just hate saying bye and see you tomorrow for the night,depression,sleep soon hate saying bye see tomorrow night,-0.8,Negative
ouch my toenail aaaaaaaa,depression,ouch toenail aaaaaaaa,0.0,Neutral
krist0ph r thats damn sad hope thing will be fine after gud lunch,depression,krist ph thats damn sad hope thing fine gud lunch,-0.04,Neutral
jennlopez i had to get an hd tivo and just got it set up tonight in order to get channel 0 9,depression,jennlopez get hd tivo got set tonight order channel,0.0,Neutral
simon felice is no longer playing with the felice brother i m not sure how i feel about that,depression,simon felice longer playing brother sure feel,0.5,Positive
is no longer on google,depression,longer google,0.0,Neutral
why don t the hot guy from my gym get on my train in the morning it s always full of dullard,depression,hot guy gym get train morning always full dullard,0.3,Moderately Positive
samsungimaging better get your auto feature ironed out that blast of advertisement wa nothing le than industrial strength spam,depression,samsungimaging better get auto feature ironed blast advertisement wa nothing le industrial strength spam,0.5,Positive
emperoremil yup i m at work i m on midshift na e,depression,emperoremil yup work midshift na,0.0,Neutral
i hate being away from her i cant sleep alone anymore,depression,hate away cant sleep alone anymore,-0.8,Negative
is at beso in hollywood so tired,depression,beso hollywood tired,-0.4,Moderately Negative
dannymcfly haha tell me about it i dont get it either x,depression,dannymcfly haha tell dont get either,0.2,Moderately Positive
choadmalma i wish i could link thing a good a you,depression,choadmalma wish could link thing good,0.7,Positive
ilovedt that s what i thought bummer,depression,ilovedt thought bummer,0.0,Neutral
i don t want to wake up early tomorrow damn you work,depression,want wake early tomorrow damn work,0.1,Moderately Positive
twitter please fix this http sp ro b bdb because it brake all external twitter avatar search,depression,twitter please fix http sp ro bdb brake external avatar search,0.0,Neutral
sparkly devil hug i m trying really hard to concentrate on the nice dream instead i m sorry you had a bad one too hon,depression,sparkly devil hug trying really hard concentrate nice dream instead sorry bad one hon,-0.22,Moderately Negative
ugh 9 degree tomorrow,depression,ugh degree tomorrow,0.0,Neutral
madninjacurl hey neighbor neither can i,depression,madninjacurl hey neighbor neither,0.0,Neutral
miss david actually,depression,miss david actually,0.0,Neutral
fuck omg austin always there though man lt love you,depression,fuck omg austin always though man lt love,0.05,Moderately Positive
can t sleep dam nap lol and it hot,depression,sleep dam nap lol hot,0.52,Positive
for once in age i cant hear that bloody tap driping but now we have no cold tap in the bathroom rip tap,depression,age cant hear bloody tap driping cold bathroom rip,-0.7,Negative
appomattox news thank you however i hate to be on the same list that includes convict,depression,appomattox news thank however hate list includes convict,-0.8,Negative
finished making chocolate and foot really hurt,depression,finished making chocolate foot really hurt,0.2,Moderately Positive
i want to be back in la,depression,want back la,0.0,Neutral
lookin like an all nighter i hate it when i do this to myself,depression,lookin like nighter hate,-0.8,Negative
my dog is in my room snoring,depression,dog room snoring,0.0,Neutral
i m so upset that i missed my chat and quiz online because my free internet ha ceased,depression,upset missed chat quiz online free internet ha ceased,0.4,Moderately Positive
randomlynat jeez i wa just trying to help haha,depression,randomlynat jeez wa trying help haha,0.2,Moderately Positive
olabini still here though the site is gone,depression,olabini still though site gone,0.0,Neutral
wondering where the sunshine went,depression,wondering sunshine went,0.0,Neutral
kev nz lol better let aboy0 know if he s doing the deploy before his 9 0 bedtime hope you are feeling better being sick sux,depression,kev nz lol better let aboy know deploy bedtime hope feeling sick sux,0.2,Moderately Positive
didnt announce reading lineup,depression,didnt announce reading lineup,0.0,Neutral
twitter woke me up,depression,twitter woke,0.0,Neutral
anyone else having problem accessing ttb i cant get on,depression,anyone else problem accessing ttb cant get,0.0,Neutral
doing my tax not in the best mood because of this,depression,tax best mood,1.0,Positive
the one day i really need to go into school and i m not well,depression,one day really need go school well,0.2,Moderately Positive
i still can t find my key,depression,still find key,0.0,Neutral
amberpacific i know i dont know why i said that,depression,amberpacific know dont said,0.0,Neutral
i am having my coffee i see frost on the car window i suspected there would be some this am i hope i am not so tired today,depression,coffee see frost car window suspected would hope tired today,-0.4,Moderately Negative
i don t wan na go to work i wan na go to bed,depression,wan na go work bed,-0.2,Moderately Negative
you shouldn t have gone,depression,gone,0.0,Neutral
jonnypotter the simpson on demand thing doesn t work in the uk,depression,jonnypotter simpson demand thing work uk,0.0,Neutral
sadly though i ve never gotten to experience the post coitus cigarette before and now i never will,depression,sadly though never gotten experience post coitus cigarette,-0.5,Negative
can t sleep need to talk to someone,depression,sleep need talk someone,0.0,Neutral
martiy ouchies have a good day and goodnight supertim,depression,martiy ouchies good day goodnight supertim,0.7,Positive
marleyuk i think you spoke too soon big black rain cloud charging towards town now,depression,marleyuk think spoke soon big black rain cloud charging towards town,-0.08,Moderately Negative
plug on train once again doesnt work,depression,plug train doesnt work,0.0,Neutral
seaghostdesigns what happened to you on saturday you didnt show up,depression,seaghostdesigns happened saturday didnt show,0.0,Neutral
masha is alone and sad http apps facebook com catbook profile view 0 0,depression,masha alone sad http apps facebook com catbook profile view,-0.5,Negative
clarianne knot serious april 9th isn t coming soon enough,depression,clarianne knot serious april th coming soon enough,-0.17,Moderately Negative
today s plan driving back to vienna spring cleaning in my flat,depression,today plan driving back vienna spring cleaning flat,-0.01,Neutral
donniewahlberg donnie when are you coming back to the uk it s been toooo long x,depression,donniewahlberg donnie coming back uk toooo long,-0.02,Neutral
think im an insomniac i just cant sleep birthday in day oh yay,depression,think im insomniac cant sleep birthday day oh yay,0.0,Neutral
working at home,depression,working home,0.0,Neutral
riry is being a pain and nomming on my hand should not have sprayed her with that cat nip mist a a joke now she is craaaazy,depression,riry pain nomming hand sprayed cat nip mist joke craaaazy,0.0,Neutral
twilight didn t come yesterday finger crossed for today,depression,twilight come yesterday finger crossed today,0.0,Neutral
a bit under the weather the last coupla day workout have been low in energy,depression,bit weather last coupla day workout low energy,0.0,Neutral
luckyrivera and it wa a great song too,depression,luckyrivera wa great song,0.8,Positive
i always get insomnia at the most inopportune time,depression,always get insomnia inopportune time,0.0,Neutral
nobody ever speaks to me now,depression,nobody ever speaks,0.0,Neutral
seekin for a new job,depression,seekin new job,0.14,Moderately Positive
septmourningm texas is far from phx lol what part,depression,septmourningm texas far phx lol part,0.45,Moderately Positive
shannanstedman haha i got to be up at and sit through a hr mass umm like ish is that alright is that too late,depression,shannanstedman haha got sit hr mass umm like ish alright late,-0.05,Moderately Negative
jennchambless me neither and nobody is awake nobody i m drunk and alone,depression,jennchambless neither nobody awake drunk alone,-0.5,Negative
stephenkruiser i m so sorry to hear about your dog wishing you happier day to come,depression,stephenkruiser sorry hear dog wishing happier day come,-0.5,Negative
is boarding ek a usual no upgrade from ek colombo,depression,boarding ek usual upgrade colombo,-0.25,Moderately Negative
why do other pet care people try to run others out of business or send suspicious e mail fishing for info,depression,pet care people try run others business send suspicious mail fishing info,0.0,Neutral
going on holiday with my friend tomorrow exited but no twitter,depression,going holiday friend tomorrow exited twitter,0.0,Neutral
ircmaxell i think i need to find better anti depressant i think this paxil wellbutrin combo is losing it efficacy,depression,ircmaxell think need find better anti depressant paxil wellbutrin combo losing efficacy,0.5,Positive
wonder if jon lost the net,depression,wonder jon lost net,0.0,Neutral
are you vaccinated against chicken pox should i vaccinate my yr old i am so confused about this damn thing,depression,vaccinated chicken pox vaccinate yr old confused damn thing,-0.3,Moderately Negative
ahhhhhhh everyones doing laundry except me,depression,ahhhhhhh everyones laundry except,0.0,Neutral
lilylauren i get sad when ppl shave their moustache i don t know if i d cry about it tho,depression,lilylauren get sad ppl shave moustache know cry tho,-0.5,Negative
my search deck on tweetdeck are not working since yesterday anyone else have this problem,depression,search deck tweetdeck working since yesterday anyone else problem,0.0,Neutral
lost suck because i have to work today,depression,lost suck work today,0.0,Neutral
i hate when software update downloads update without telling me i never know what s downloading when it is,depression,hate software update downloads without telling never know downloading,-0.8,Negative
jmielcarz send some of that warmness my way it s cold,depression,jmielcarz send warmness way cold,-0.6,Negative
last one but still not done,depression,last one still done,0.0,Neutral
is cold,depression,cold,-0.6,Negative
at work plus im sick blah,depression,work plus im sick blah,-0.71,Negative
curse my yoghurt exploded in my bag on the way to work now everything smell like toffee,depression,curse yoghurt exploded bag way work everything smell like toffee,0.0,Neutral
leaving koh tao start of journey back to bangkok http twitpic com y uv,depression,leaving koh tao start journey back bangkok http twitpic com uv,0.0,Neutral
morning all so tired today should ve stayed in bed,depression,morning tired today stayed bed,-0.4,Moderately Negative
ok i m sick and spent an hour sitting in the shower cause i wa too sick to stand and held back the puke like a champ bed now,depression,ok sick spent hour sitting shower cause wa stand held back puke like champ bed,-0.08,Moderately Negative
jbeauty lol goodnight,depression,jbeauty lol goodnight,0.8,Positive
anyshalyke oh you went clubbing without me lol next time we can do it together,depression,anyshalyke oh went clubbing without lol next time together,0.4,Moderately Positive
i don t get statistic it all a bunch of mumbo jumbo for me,depression,get statistic bunch mumbo jumbo,0.0,Neutral
katsun at this point i m trying to remain optimistic that it won t be a delayed a live but it s getting harder each day,depression,katsun point trying remain optimistic delayed live getting harder day,0.02,Neutral
meganh9 same it ha been drizzling all day if u are going to rain might a well pour,depression,meganh ha drizzling day going rain might well pour,0.0,Neutral
josephheustess well there wa this really cool part where i wont spoil it,depression,josephheustess well wa really cool part wont spoil,0.35,Moderately Positive
angry barista i baked you a cake but i ated it,depression,angry barista baked cake ated,-0.5,Negative
larrissar please don t leave stay for grant s bday,depression,larrissar please leave stay grant bday,0.0,Neutral
why do people keep following me and then randomly stop it make me sad,depression,people keep following randomly stop make sad,-0.33,Moderately Negative
my interwebs is so fraked up that i can google map something on my iphone bar gprs no g faster than my 0mbps cable connection,depression,interwebs fraked google map something iphone bar gprs faster mbps cable connection,0.0,Neutral
headache still a little sleepy i miss ma babyy soo damn much right noww wakee upp,depression,headache still little sleepy miss babyy soo damn much right noww wakee upp,0.05,Moderately Positive
s kinda bummed an agency just told me that i didn t have the look that they were going for lady please help me create the look,depression,kinda bummed agency told look going lady please help create,0.0,Neutral
feel yucky sick this morning,depression,feel yucky sick morning,-0.71,Negative
three cheer for fiber to the home now we only have to wait year for it,depression,three cheer fiber home wait year,0.0,Neutral
my throat is raw,depression,throat raw,-0.23,Moderately Negative
fucking boredom make me wan na go have a smoke,depression,fucking boredom make wan na go smoke,-0.4,Moderately Negative
synching my contact from my old mobile to iphone import doe not work well,depression,synching contact old mobile iphone import doe work well,0.1,Moderately Positive
an thank you i have to now do it all again today,depression,thank today,0.0,Neutral
another sale pitch today for a potential surface customer i do more sale than development these day,depression,another sale pitch today potential surface customer development day,0.0,Neutral
trishzw megafast trip you have time during day tom wed or you going out tonight want to see you bad tried to warn you tech fail,depression,trishzw megafast trip time day tom wed going tonight want see bad tried warn tech fail,-0.6,Negative
maybe one of these year i ll get a tax return a girl can dream right,depression,maybe one year get tax return girl dream right,0.29,Moderately Positive
lilbucknuts not an option,depression,lilbucknuts option,0.0,Neutral
deadline ahead,depression,deadline ahead,0.0,Neutral
chester see yes i often take the risk of running down the dlr step but today i just missed that last step and twisted my ankle,depression,chester see yes often take risk running dlr step today missed last twisted ankle,-0.25,Moderately Negative
elanorelle niceee we ran out of filter coffee art work not good forgot my bread to make toast bad start to the day,depression,elanorelle niceee ran filter coffee art work good forgot bread make toast bad start day,0.0,Neutral
why doe it take so long to go through one lecture which only took min to give and it s sunny outside someone is mocking me,depression,doe take long go one lecture took min give sunny outside someone mocking,-0.02,Neutral
at wye river it s really cold this internet is really expensive,depression,wye river really cold internet expensive,-0.55,Negative
just had a great time that is if i forget about the fight on the way back,depression,great time forget fight way back,0.4,Moderately Positive
hmm shoulder is making some bad noise if i move my arm back and forth i know don t do it fear a return to physio may be required,depression,hmm shoulder making bad noise move arm back forth know fear return physio may required,-0.35,Moderately Negative
feel slightly ill guess i shouldnt have eaten mc d after all,depression,feel slightly ill guess shouldnt eaten mc,-0.5,Negative
featherinair call me back,depression,featherinair call back,0.0,Neutral
is that snow,depression,snow,0.0,Neutral
about to shower which i hope will wake me up at last oh and the synth experiment yielded nothing last night,depression,shower hope wake last oh synth experiment yielded nothing night,0.0,Neutral
smokey robinson you fell off my list did i offend you,depression,smokey robinson fell list offend,0.0,Neutral
i am officially alone on my twitter,depression,officially alone twitter,0.0,Neutral
shelikescute that s so sad,depression,shelikescute sad,-0.5,Negative
my heart ha been broken,depression,heart ha broken,-0.4,Moderately Negative
i m frankly disappointed and offended that there is a blogger writing against fu penguin,depression,frankly disappointed offended blogger writing fu penguin,-0.75,Negative
i still don t understand how to setup subversion for a website,depression,still understand setup subversion website,0.0,Neutral
broke my tooth yesterday it feel like it s spilt in half,depression,broke tooth yesterday feel like spilt half,-0.17,Moderately Negative
my cousin can t stop playing frozen bubble twisted amp resco bubble bye bye n see you after a week or two,depression,cousin stop playing frozen bubble twisted amp resco bye see week two,-0.5,Negative
i really need to go to a dentist,depression,really need go dentist,0.2,Moderately Positive
spencer is not a good guy,depression,spencer good guy,0.7,Positive
getting ready to clean the house from top to bottom,depression,getting ready clean house top bottom,0.36,Moderately Positive
kristenjstewart just watched the trailer for adventureland on itunes look so funny pity i don t think we get it in australia,depression,kristenjstewart watched trailer adventureland itunes look funny pity think get australia,0.08,Moderately Positive
there is just something wrong with stupid vista i hate it,depression,something wrong stupid vista hate,-0.7,Negative
can t sleep again,depression,sleep,0.0,Neutral
heidimontag i wish we would get it the same time at the rest of world unfornately i am in cairo and have to wait for mtva to play it,depression,heidimontag wish would get time rest world unfornately cairo wait mtva play,0.0,Neutral
rootbeerfloats you hate billy now,depression,rootbeerfloats hate billy,-0.8,Negative
cube creepin me out dude may have to cancel my trip to sydney now lol,depression,cube creepin dude may cancel trip sydney lol,0.8,Positive
donniewahlberg ooh i m excited and not even going be there long love youtube,depression,donniewahlberg ooh excited even going long love youtube,0.27,Moderately Positive
may hold off on hawk getting a job first might be a better idea but i want it,depression,may hold hawk getting job first might better idea want,0.38,Moderately Positive
missed brent at praise band no fun to not have your lead guitarist lt pout gt,depression,missed brent praise band fun lead guitarist lt pout gt,0.3,Moderately Positive
need a hug,depression,need hug,0.0,Neutral
swapping song through email with carrie damn the tasman damn it to hell i wan na jam,depression,swapping song email carrie damn tasman hell wan na jam,-0.2,Moderately Negative
tryin to take a nap i can t sleep,depression,tryin take nap sleep,0.0,Neutral
caught myself looking up the iphone promised i wouldn t torcher myself a i still have month left on my current contract,depression,caught looking iphone promised torcher still month left current contract,0.0,Neutral
area nightclub making out of the bewilldered uni student who have arrived home while the poor folk like me have to struggle on,depression,area nightclub making bewilldered uni student arrived home poor folk like struggle,-0.4,Moderately Negative
alexrussin lucky i missed it,depression,alexrussin lucky missed,0.33,Moderately Positive
re 0 congrats bella miss you,depression,congrats bella miss,0.0,Neutral
i wa woken up from a deep sleep just to be let go for mad max not happy and now i can not sleep,depression,wa woken deep sleep let go mad max happy,0.06,Moderately Positive
don t have any hot water,depression,hot water,0.25,Moderately Positive
cherrytreerec oh man i can t see the vid it ot available in my country,depression,cherrytreerec oh man see vid ot available country,0.4,Moderately Positive
i wish my new glass weren t so expensive,depression,wish new glass expensive,-0.18,Moderately Negative
report from italy 9 death missing 00 injured italy earthquake via rai http tinyurl com c mja,depression,report italy death missing injured earthquake via rai http tinyurl com mja,-0.2,Moderately Negative
man i want some nike air yeezy s but a i don t live in state have no chance in hell ahh well spend the 00 on pair of sb s instead,depression,man want nike air yeezy live state chance hell ahh well spend pair sb instead,0.14,Moderately Positive
i miss family guyyy,depression,miss family guyyy,0.0,Neutral
im so tired this morning and there wa only cold shower water not happy,depression,im tired morning wa cold shower water happy,-0.07,Moderately Negative
i don t feel so hot,depression,feel hot,0.25,Moderately Positive
mark mulligan exactly that wa the core of my concept for virgin just a shame the money ran out before we could realise it,depression,mark mulligan exactly wa core concept virgin shame money ran could realise,0.25,Moderately Positive
this is way to early to go to work,depression,way early go work,0.1,Moderately Positive
been sent to the naughty boy corner in work http twitpic com y s,depression,sent naughty boy corner work http twitpic com,-0.15,Moderately Negative
chelserlynn haha it so cooooold in the d and no but you should still go to the show they do some incredible stuff,depression,chelserlynn haha cooooold still go show incredible stuff,0.55,Positive
got woken up this mornng at am damn lorry van and car accident just outside on our main road also causing car alarm to go off,depression,got woken mornng damn lorry van car accident outside main road also causing alarm go,0.08,Moderately Positive
my nap wa interrupted so many time today going out for japanese with the rent again,depression,nap wa interrupted many time today going japanese rent,0.25,Moderately Positive
doesn t want to go to school tomorrow it s the last day but it s also twyla s day off,depression,want go school tomorrow last day also twyla,0.0,Neutral
i really should be sleeping already but just can t seem to get to bed before the sun come up progress on sorting out life is slow hard,depression,really sleeping already seem get bed sun come progress sorting life slow hard,-0.13,Moderately Negative
nathnaelb i would love to be ill next week dude but no pay,depression,nathnaelb would love ill next week dude pay,0.0,Neutral
stupid movie we watched mirror ugggggh stooopeeed rip off,depression,stupid movie watched mirror ugggggh stooopeeed rip,-0.8,Negative
ellendeg ellen do my message not get to you if you didn t notice i m sad i try so hard to communicate wif u,depression,ellendeg ellen message get notice sad try hard communicate wif,-0.4,Moderately Negative
i m at work and i m sick and it helluva lot todo this blow,depression,work sick helluva lot todo blow,-0.71,Negative
melamachinko now i feel bad for unfollowing,depression,melamachinko feel bad unfollowing,-0.7,Negative
honeyortar the hinge broke it work just doesn t open smoothly and it s pissing me off i dunno i ll see if it can be fixed first,depression,honeyortar hinge broke work open smoothly pissing dunno see fixed first,0.19,Moderately Positive
catdevnull nah same one rang up to see what progress wa someone else ha offered but been rejected they reckon to get it,depression,catdevnull nah one rang see progress wa someone else ha offered rejected reckon get,0.0,Neutral
arghh my hand are itchy could it be that on top of my alergy to beef i also can not eat chicken no more,depression,arghh hand itchy could top alergy beef also eat chicken,-0.05,Moderately Negative
still doing homework,depression,still homework,0.0,Neutral
will have a meeting in an hour to explain quot which version of oaw we use quot what to say none atm it s just a heap of unbundled emf tool,depression,meeting hour explain quot version oaw use say none atm heap unbundled emf tool,0.0,Neutral
jsparsons i am starting my prep for the pmp exam tomorrow can relate the feeling,depression,jsparsons starting prep pmp exam tomorrow relate feeling,0.0,Neutral
off to work,depression,work,0.0,Neutral
morning people away to get some breakfast and then sort myself out and then must start on hwm no lazing about today xx,depression,morning people away get breakfast sort must start hwm lazing today xx,0.0,Neutral
why isn t the hill available online yet soo disappointing,depression,hill available online yet soo disappointing,-0.1,Moderately Negative
my girl tjlefebvre is missing anyone seen her this evening,depression,girl tjlefebvre missing anyone seen evening,-0.2,Moderately Negative
pigman i love the cooler trenchcoat weather but dnw the darker evening a it s scary to run at night,depression,pigman love cooler trenchcoat weather dnw darker evening scary run night,0.0,Neutral
alexfoster re cat prob have amazing effect on vet bill too watch for change in character of remaining cat pus,depression,alexfoster cat prob amazing effect vet bill watch change character remaining pu,0.6,Positive
danielhalpin gon na try and find a sport bar to watch that at not got a chance though i don t think,depression,danielhalpin gon na try find sport bar watch got chance though think,0.0,Neutral
i hate the new facebook look either so messy and everything is all over the place i want the old one back,depression,hate new facebook look either messy everything place want old one back,-0.15,Moderately Negative
goodd nightt sweet dream to everyonee jared neveerr chat on kyte lol,depression,goodd nightt sweet dream everyonee jared neveerr chat kyte lol,0.57,Positive
laptop is running out of battery,depression,laptop running battery,0.0,Neutral
had a moment with run fatboy run,depression,moment run fatboy,0.0,Neutral
rip sandra it so sad how can someone do something like that,depression,rip sandra sad someone something like,-0.5,Negative
mizzchievouz hey girl the site is back girlyvue is back and they have even more video,depression,mizzchievouz hey girl site back girlyvue even video,0.0,Neutral
it s going to be a long year for a s fan,depression,going long year fan,-0.05,Moderately Negative
a usual cooking what i hate,depression,usual cooking hate,-0.52,Negative
gym attire today wa puma singlet adidas short and black business sock and leather shoe lucky did not run into any cute girl,depression,gym attire today wa puma singlet adidas short black business sock leather shoe lucky run cute girl,0.17,Moderately Positive
markhardy 9 me too itm,depression,markhardy itm,0.0,Neutral
thomasgudgeon well yes shame that you can only get the plastic one for the first generation,depression,thomasgudgeon well yes shame get plastic one first generation,0.25,Moderately Positive
katyrullman this is why you need to not be over in the old world i miss hanging out and being awkward with you,depression,katyrullman need old world miss hanging awkward,-0.25,Moderately Negative
jap girl they re leaving,depression,jap girl leaving,0.0,Neutral
damn it down,depression,damn,0.0,Neutral
damnnn i missed,depression,damnnn missed,0.0,Neutral
penalty scored at tynecastle still got beat though,depression,penalty scored tynecastle still got beat though,0.0,Neutral
got ta repeat whole art folio cuz old one with a whole term work got wet,depression,got ta repeat whole art folio cuz old one term work wet,0.07,Moderately Positive
ha to wait a week to find out if her writing is any good sux,depression,ha wait week find writing good sux,0.7,Positive
ryanseacrest tie bar i missed it on wednesday,depression,ryanseacrest tie bar missed wednesday,0.0,Neutral
dramaa assignmenting is gay too sick but i have to do it,depression,dramaa assignmenting gay sick,-0.15,Moderately Negative
at work w asma nawal in fe obeerate alwatan tv,depression,work asma nawal fe obeerate alwatan tv,0.0,Neutral
someone ratsofatsorat left a few sip of mocha in the reusable coffee mug last week now it s chunky,depression,someone ratsofatsorat left sip mocha reusable coffee mug last week chunky,0.0,Neutral
i don t want to talk to advisor they don t advise the judge your arse off,depression,want talk advisor advise judge arse,0.0,Neutral
sentricmusic suffice to say their offer wa ignored then emi com launched and they all laughed rather a lot,depression,sentricmusic suffice say offer wa ignored emi com launched laughed rather lot,0.7,Positive
i am bored nothing to do,depression,bored nothing,-0.5,Negative
avisionofbeauty your phone doesn t like it sorry,depression,avisionofbeauty phone like sorry,-0.5,Negative
so now it s just a wait amp see game i fall asleep amp it might or might not be there when i wake,depression,wait amp see game fall asleep might wake,-0.4,Moderately Negative
it not enough to say that imiss u,depression,enough say imiss,0.0,Neutral
isnt feelin 00 day,depression,isnt feelin day,0.0,Neutral
i totally forgot we were going to do fisheye night what u doing thursday btw i m so late with the hill lol,depression,totally forgot going fisheye night thursday btw late hill lol,0.17,Moderately Positive
is looking at the gray sky the sun ha been stolen again,depression,looking gray sky sun ha stolen,0.0,Neutral
falling asleep just heard about that tracy girl s body being found how sad my heart break for that family,depression,falling asleep heard tracy girl body found sad heart break family,-0.5,Negative
shannamoakler i m afraid to fly too i straight up refuse to get on a plane it suck because it really limit where you can go,depression,shannamoakler afraid fly straight refuse get plane suck really limit go,0.15,Moderately Positive
dra on now i am sad co u r sad,depression,dra sad co,-0.5,Negative
look like rain today bet it bucket down a soon a i step outside front door always the way downhill all the way from today,depression,look like rain today bet bucket soon step outside front door always way downhill,0.0,Neutral
one thing i hate about dozing off in lects i wake up to a sheaf of wet and badly smudged note,depression,one thing hate dozing lects wake sheaf wet badly smudged note,-0.53,Negative
is feeling terribly sick right now,depression,feeling terribly sick right,-0.21,Moderately Negative
ugh doe anyone know what i can do to stop anxiety attack pleeease i need help,depression,ugh doe anyone know stop anxiety attack pleeease need help,0.0,Neutral
i know i shouldn t feel upset about losing a follower who wa probably a porn star or trying to sell me something and yet i do,depression,know feel upset losing follower wa probably porn star trying sell something yet,0.0,Neutral
ugh just read on cnn that they found the cantu girl s body in a pond near their home how terrible for her family,depression,ugh read cnn found cantu girl body pond near home terrible family,-0.45,Moderately Negative
i totally just lied about going on a trip to get out of hanging out with someone airport wa the only excuse that came to mind,depression,totally lied going trip get hanging someone airport wa excuse came mind,-0.02,Neutral
i m so tired for no reason other than going to bed late and sleeping in lately it make me angry,depression,tired reason going bed late sleeping lately make angry,-0.38,Moderately Negative
uni suck have to leave home at 00 to attend a lecture at 0 to 0 amp roadworks everywhere mt installing fibre cable,depression,uni suck leave home attend lecture amp roadworks everywhere mt installing fibre cable,0.0,Neutral
silverlines tadi di pim udah sempet lirik mesra tapi baru abis makan definitely putting it in my agenda next time i go to pim,depression,silverlines tadi di pim udah sempet lirik mesra tapi baru abis makan definitely putting agenda next time go,0.0,Neutral
tubeyornot b you and me both i thought i found a tweetheart but i guess not so the search continues,depression,tubeyornot thought found tweetheart guess search continues,0.0,Neutral
picked mich st to win it all from the get go wa feeling pretty good about that pick all the way up until tonight a s lost too,depression,picked mich st win get go wa feeling pretty good pick way tonight lost,0.58,Positive
germ damn it it s so true i need help,depression,germ damn true need help,0.35,Moderately Positive
arse totally forgot about a webinar that i wanted to attend this morning now i ll never know how to secure virtualised environment,depression,arse totally forgot webinar wanted attend morning never know secure virtualised environment,0.2,Moderately Positive
penndbad send me the dvd co i have missed out on heap not happy about that,depression,penndbad send dvd co missed heap happy,0.8,Positive
benpritchett goodness me how did you find me it s good to hear from you ben i still have your video game and book i apologize,depression,benpritchett goodness find good hear ben still video game book apologize,0.15,Moderately Positive
kittcat ya i wa basically screwed just rewrote it i will seriously go with you if you want i dont know anyone else who want to goo,depression,kittcat ya wa basically screwed rewrote seriously go want dont know anyone else goo,-0.33,Moderately Negative
hello world i dont like to do physic,depression,hello world dont like physic,0.0,Neutral
ha insomnia and a headache,depression,ha insomnia headache,0.0,Neutral
keeping my finger crossed for my buddy he is not feeling well,depression,keeping finger crossed buddy feeling well,0.0,Neutral
being in pain a i have done my back in,depression,pain done back,0.0,Neutral
blazing row with boy tantrum all round missed train and now standing on platform feeling guilty,depression,blazing row boy tantrum round missed train standing platform feeling guilty,-0.35,Moderately Negative
my teef hurt,depression,teef hurt,0.0,Neutral
damn stiff neck day,depression,damn stiff neck day,-0.21,Moderately Negative
i am layin in bed am co my tummy is beatboxn so bd so i hd wake up can t eat unburnable calorie nt gd for my quot ab quot i am hungry,depression,layin bed co tummy beatboxn bd hd wake eat unburnable calorie nt gd quot ab hungry,0.0,Neutral
running nose spinning head not a good combination for a meeting,depression,running nose spinning head good combination meeting,0.7,Positive
grum wah i can t see clip must be el stupido work filter can t wait till i get a puter something else blame ex he broke mine,depression,grum wah see clip must el stupido work filter wait till get puter something else blame ex broke mine,0.0,Neutral
is coldd,depression,coldd,0.0,Neutral
can t sleep and wondering why my following keep going down guess i got ta try and be more interesting haha,depression,sleep wondering following keep going guess got ta try interesting haha,0.23,Moderately Positive
just bought sour gummi worm peach gummi o s and cheeto puff and a ounce soda i m such a fat as had a huge dinner too,depression,bought sour gummi worm peach cheeto puff ounce soda fat huge dinner,0.13,Moderately Positive
spring break is over school amp work are monster that have taken over my life seriously,depression,spring break school amp work monster taken life seriously,-0.33,Moderately Negative
txbrad i need coffee lol i saw you tweet this on mcintec net lol it come up before mibbit mibbit is so slow on twitter it suck,depression,txbrad need coffee lol saw tweet mcintec net come mibbit slow twitter suck,0.17,Moderately Positive
i m sooo sad they killed off kutner on house whyyyyyyyy,depression,sooo sad killed kutner house whyyyyyyyy,-0.35,Moderately Negative
i wan na rock a maxi dress coachella but lacking funding,depression,wan na rock maxi dress coachella lacking funding,-0.2,Moderately Negative
dajbelshaw sound like my every day except gym,depression,dajbelshaw sound like every day except gym,0.4,Moderately Positive
jonathanrknight you sure did do some tweet and i missed them glad to see you re enjoying urself always nice to hear from you x,depression,jonathanrknight sure tweet missed glad see enjoying urself always nice hear,0.52,Positive
gurumn but this is canada canada is weird we re supposed to get snow through wednesday ugh,depression,gurumn canada weird supposed get snow wednesday ugh,-0.5,Negative
tony ha changed so much why did he have to change,depression,tony ha changed much change,0.2,Moderately Positive
rcompo rachel hang outage is neccessary i wa gon na be home this wekend but dumb folk make me work so im free f and sat until,depression,rcompo rachel hang outage neccessary wa gon na home wekend dumb folk make work im free sat,0.01,Neutral
okay bb lt doe anyone know where i can get info on how night club in l a cost i wan na rent one out next year please i ll invite yall,depression,okay bb lt doe anyone know get info night club cost wan na rent one next year please invite yall,0.1,Moderately Positive
it so tired that im cry for no reason at all im about to try to get an hour and a half in for tonight half what i got last night,depression,tired im cry reason try get hour half tonight got last night,-0.19,Moderately Negative
born broadway lost and it wa st ignacius prepatory school haha,depression,born broadway lost wa st ignacius prepatory school haha,0.2,Moderately Positive
but the international font look ugly going back to original font after all who d tweet in malayalam,depression,international font look ugly going back original tweet malayalam,-0.08,Moderately Negative
yes it is and i got ripped off do not shop at wow,depression,yes got ripped shop wow,0.1,Moderately Positive
claireboyles thought a much,depression,claireboyles thought much,0.2,Moderately Positive
sinktoswim hopefully it will be,depression,sinktoswim hopefully,0.0,Neutral
abhian abey lalloo me n dake then went for the pm show cp u cud ve made it chal koi nahi nxt weekend try karenge again,depression,abhian abey lalloo dake went pm show cp cud made chal koi nahi nxt weekend try karenge,0.0,Neutral
im soooo cold right now,depression,im soooo cold right,-0.16,Moderately Negative
got up at mistakenly it should ve been,depression,got mistakenly,0.0,Neutral
is missing playing my trumpet,depression,missing playing trumpet,-0.2,Moderately Negative
i feel soooo bad for my doglet she is not understanding why her mouth is so sore poor little thing,depression,feel soooo bad doglet understanding mouth sore poor little thing,-0.43,Moderately Negative
ilearn is down and out great considering final are this week,depression,ilearn great considering final week,0.4,Moderately Positive
wow my x 0 is dead,depression,wow dead,-0.05,Moderately Negative
i m laying in bed facing the wall and trying to relax but i m hearing so many thing plus the air conditioning sound is so louad,depression,laying bed facing wall trying relax hearing many thing plus air conditioning sound louad,0.45,Moderately Positive
"Numb face, suicidal ideation, dizziness, and severe headaches (head feels off balance) only during crashes though.  However during the peak of Vyvanse I feel euphoric and motivated with clear/coherent thought processes.  Getting off of this drug would also cause those really shitty symptoms I'm sure so I feel kind of fucked.  Can anyone relate that's on or have been on vyvanse? Thanks",adhd,numb face suicidal ideation dizziness severe headache head feel balance crash though however peak vyvanse euphoric motivated clear coherent thought process getting drug would also cause really shitty symptom sure kind fucked anyone relate thanks,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Heard that lie so many times during my earlier years in school. And now what? I can proudly state that i'm fairly unsuccessful with adult life. No real work, no education, still a virgin.

Why did they get my hopes up? It was all just them lying.

""You could be so much if you applied yourself""

""I don't even know why i bother with you""

""Just do it, it's not that hard""

""No wonder no one likes you""

But who knows? Maybe i could have been so much more than this? If i didn't have ADHD and autism?",adhd,heard lie many time earlier year school proudly state fairly unsuccessful adult life real work education still virgin get hope lying could much applied even know bother hard wonder one like maybe adhd autism,0.28,Moderately Positive
"Ive been newly diagnosed and  have been reading  a lot of reddit post lately about others experiences with ADD/ADHD since then ive been wanting to talk about these discoveries in myself about how ive always been but my familly makes my feelings feel invalid because they think im letting these post get to my head and essentially ""playing up my ADD"" because of what im reading. But to be honest I do this because i want to be hear and want them to understand how i feel. Plus reading these post makes me feel less lonely in this process. Any advice or similar experiences?

",adhd,ive newly diagnosed reading lot reddit post lately others experience add adhd since wanting talk discovery always familly make feeling feel invalid think im letting get head essentially playing honest want hear understand plus le lonely process advice similar,0.06,Moderately Positive
My second task is mostly feeling the air go through my nose in and out. This keeps my mind so busy that I don't get distracted that easily.,adhd,second task mostly feeling air go nose keep mind busy get distracted easily,0.26,Moderately Positive
"Well haha, i've been lurking here pretty much and I encouraged myself to go to a doctor this december!

At first I felt really bad because I've always been told that this problem are for children and it's pretty taboo down here (I'm from Chile and it's kind of difficult to speak out this)

* The doctor was really nice and actually wants to help me, he made me go to a psychoneurologist first tho to get some tests done so he can give me a medicine, for now he told me to stay in Wellbutrin XL (it makes me feel energized and super happy! Still I can't focus and control myself, i'm jumping everywhere HAHA I'm like a rabbit)

I've been going to a Neurologist since 23rd of December and I have another appointment for this 19th of January.
I'll start with meds that day! And I'm super excited hahah.

I've got a few questions tho, how was your first med treatment? How you felt?

Anyone knows if Wellbutrin will affect my dosage of X medicine in the future?

Some of my friends tell me that I would be better without being ""medicine dependent"" but i feel that this will help me out to get my life together, I'm an illustrator and since i'm a freelancer i can't barely get a schedule done and I'm always at last minute doing everything.

**TLDR**: I went to the doc, gonna get a treatment, happy about that",adhd,well haha lurking pretty much encouraged go doctor december first felt really bad always told problem child taboo chile kind difficult speak nice actually want help made psychoneurologist tho get test done give medicine stay wellbutrin xl make feel energized super happy still focus control jumping everywhere like rabbit going neurologist since rd another appointment th january start med day excited hahah got question treatment anyone know affect dosage future friend tell would better without dependent life together illustrator freelancer barely schedule last minute everything tldr went doc gonna,0.18,Moderately Positive
Anyone else feel insulted  when someone says you are quirky? Like you know they want to call you weird but are trying to be nice?,adhd,anyone else feel insulted someone say quirky like know want call weird trying nice,0.03,Neutral
"I have a bad habit of trying to change the subject when I am in a conversation about a difficult or unpleasant topic. That is, something I don't want to talk about. It really irritates my partner in particular and it often leads to conflict as a result.

I am wondering if anyone else does something similar or if this is even a personality rather than an ADD issue?

Also, if you do have experience of this, any tips or hacks on how to stop doing it. I am more conscious of it than before but I still do it and then only realise after!",adhd,bad habit trying change subject conversation difficult unpleasant topic something want talk really irritates partner particular often lead conflict result wondering anyone else similar even personality rather add issue also experience tip hack stop conscious still realise,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"Does anyone else get unreasonably angry for little reason? I'm really tired of it when it happens and I feel so devasted after.

I'm scared that I'll  hurt the people I love with these outbursts.

EDIT: Thanks to all for your helpful responses! I'm trying to get to replying to everyone, but I find myself sitting down at my computer less than I'd like. I do have to say that I love this community.",adhd,anyone else get unreasonably angry little reason really tired happens feel devasted scared hurt people love outburst edit thanks helpful response trying replying everyone find sitting computer le like say community,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Hi All,

First and foremost, this isn't meant to make anyone self conscious or criticize people. But, is this place just a giant echo chamber? I've gone through my whole life thinking I'm a normal, healthy person and all my struggles are the same things that everyone goes through. It wasn't until a little over a month ago that I even considered ADHD a possibility. I was tested recently and am now waiting to hear results. 

In the meantime, I've been researching everything I can about ADHD. And part of my research has led me to this sub. And there have been soooooo many stories and posts on this sub that I strongly identify with. But how could I make it through highschool and college and am now several years into a career without this coming up before? I'm almost 30 years old, and the first time this was suggested to me was about 2 months ago.

Doctors are people and they make mistakes. Is ADHD so prevalent that it should be considered commonplace? Or are a lot of people here misdiagnosed and the stories that I find myself identifying with just me identyfing with being human? 
Like I said, I haven't received my test results yet. So maybe I have ADHD and the reason why so many stories and anecdotes resonate with me is because we share this thing. But after reading SO many stories and struggles that sound just like me, I began to doubt everything. Is there really something abnormal with my brain that causes me to be the way that I am?

But really, what do I know? It's almost 3 AM here and I've been in bed since 9:30 and can't really tell you what I've been doing for the last 5+ hours instead of sleeping so that I can get up for work in the morning.",adhd,hi first foremost meant make anyone self conscious criticize people place giant echo chamber gone whole life thinking normal healthy person struggle thing everyone go little month ago even considered adhd possibility tested recently waiting hear result meantime researching everything part research led sub soooooo many story post strongly identify could highschool college several year career without coming almost old time suggested doctor mistake prevalent commonplace lot misdiagnosed find identifying identyfing human like said received test yet maybe reason anecdote resonate share reading sound began doubt really something abnormal brain cause way know bed since tell last hour instead sleeping get work morning,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Or perhaps I should be asking, How do I convince myself to not quit said job. A bit of background:-

I've been diagnosed adhd for well over a decade, and been on and off the meds as most of you here.  I've keep ending up in high stress jobs, and generally end up quitting due to not being able to manage multiple things at once and burning out quite rapidly. I finally found a decent job where I am stable, I can actually manage all the tasks without the need of any stimulants barring a cup of coffee in the morning, and there is very low risk of burn out.

The only problem is that a few months in, i'm bored AF and just about the only thing on my mind anymore is how do I quit and find a job that is more stimulating, and that allows me to make an impact and all that nonsense. Help. ",adhd,perhaps asking convince quit said job bit background diagnosed adhd well decade med keep ending high stress generally end quitting due able manage multiple thing burning quite rapidly finally found decent stable actually task without need stimulant barring cup coffee morning low risk burn problem month bored af mind anymore find stimulating allows make impact nonsense help,0.03,Neutral
i just realized that my non verbal communication is good and im not sensitive to touch. i just realized i am hyperactive most of the times and feel like a motor often. i realized i can go so deep in my Imagination to the point i get distracted from things or even abandon a task i need to complete because i feel restless.,adhd,realized non verbal communication good im sensitive touch hyperactive time feel like motor often go deep imagination point get distracted thing even abandon task need complete restless,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Some people on here have said caffeine doesn't affect them much, or even may have a calming/focusing effect on them. 

Caffeine makes me really wired, discombobulated, unsettled, and jittery. Beyond my morning coffee (I do Americanos--one shot of espresso with a lot of water or I can't breathe) I don't like caffeine or stimulants. 

I was on Strattera and even though that was not an amphetamine, holy shit is was AWFUL! Same as caffeine except I felt even MORE cracked out. 

Does this mean there is no hope for me?",adhd,people said caffeine affect much even may calming focusing effect make really wired discombobulated unsettled jittery beyond morning coffee americanos one shot espresso lot water breathe like stimulant strattera though amphetamine holy shit awful except felt cracked mean hope,-0.22,Moderately Negative
"After my first round of Concerta (18mg), my psychiatrist and I decided to try Adderall (10mg) so I could have closer control of when the medication was active, and ideally avoid the ""speedy"" side effects I was getting from the Concerta (when it was still working), namely insomnia, lack of appetite, and jaw clenching.

In theory, Adderall is better. It's a more immediate release so I can have it when I need it, and not when I don't (I don't take it when I'm not in school.)

I've been reading a lot of posts lately about Adderall ""euphoria"" that I am just not feeling. I knew almost immediately that I prefer Concerta to Adderall. It just doesn't seem to *DO* anything. 

With Concerta, I had speedy effects, but I also was able to focus. Even on the small 18mg dose, the first 2-3 weeks were spectacular. I had laser-like focus and I could direct it where I wanted to, but I was inclined to keep it on productive things, not time-wasters. I had so much energy and I couldn't wait to go to the gym (I'm typically pretty lethargic).

Today is the fifth day that I've taken Adderall, and in general, I don't really feel any effects. There's no jaw-clenching, teeth grinding, shaking, insomnia, or decreased appetite (I'm actually hungry on it!) But it also appears to have very little effect on my focus. In fact, I'd almost go so far as to say that it makes me MORE spacy than I typically am. 

The first day, I took 10mg at 4:30 in the morning (no food, obviously), slept until 6, then cleaned my entire house before 2, when I came down (I was ridiculously spacy for about 45 minutes and then felt back to myself). 

The second day, I stayed at 10mg without food and had okay results. I was still spacy and daydreamy in class, but there was a moderate improvement. 

The third day, I took 10mg with food around 8:30 and made it through the morning okay, but by 4 I was done and frustrated and ready to leave school (for the day.)

The fourth day, I took 10mg around 6:30 after having a little bit of food. I never felt it come on, noticed maybe a *very slight* improvement in focus, followed by intense spaciness by 1. I took another 5mg (as my psychiatrist told me I could) and never felt it at all.

Today I took 15 mgs with food, and I believe now is about my comedown time. I've not noticed the effect of the medication at all today, but I had a not-as-good-as-I'd-hoped meeting with campus disability services and I'm on the verge of tears, which is not an appropriate reaction.

TL;DR: Has anyone else had less-than-stellar results with Adderall? Or anything similar where they're seeing little to no effect of the medication?",adhd,first round concerta mg psychiatrist decided try adderall could closer control medication active ideally avoid speedy side effect getting still working namely insomnia lack appetite jaw clenching theory better immediate release need take school reading lot post lately euphoria feeling knew almost immediately prefer seem anything also able focus even small dose week spectacular laser like direct wanted inclined keep productive thing time waster much energy wait go gym typically pretty lethargic today fifth day taken general really feel teeth grinding shaking decreased actually hungry appears little fact far say make spacy took morning food obviously slept cleaned entire house came ridiculously minute felt back second stayed without okay result daydreamy class moderate improvement third around made done frustrated ready leave fourth bit never come noticed maybe slight followed intense spaciness another told believe comedown good hoped meeting campus disability service verge tear appropriate reaction tl dr anyone else le stellar similar seeing,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Video games are the main cause to about 90% of my problems. Procrastination, relationships, ditching out on friends, not eating enough, extreme anger which puts me in a bad mood, grades and just about anything that requires motivation to do. Sometimes I day dream about video games in school when I should be paying attention and find myself to talk about them with my friends even though a lot of them don’t even care. I’m a college student and I gotta say in all honesty it is twice as bad as weed or alcohol for my desire to get things done. My father was also addicted who probably had adhd as well and he taught me how to play quake 2 when I was only 2 years old. My favorite games are guitar hero 3 for pc, call of duty and dark souls/bloodborne which are all difficult and addicting as hell. Anybody trying to quit playing video games or succeeded got an experience to share?

Tl;dr addicted af to video games and trying to quit so they don’t ruin my life",adhd,video game main cause problem procrastination relationship ditching friend eating enough extreme anger put bad mood grade anything requires motivation sometimes day dream school paying attention find talk even though lot care college student gotta say honesty twice weed alcohol desire get thing done father also addicted probably adhd well taught play quake year old favorite guitar hero pc call duty dark soul bloodborne difficult addicting hell anybody trying quit playing succeeded got experience share tl dr af ruin life,-0.2,Moderately Negative
"Hey r/adhd, let me introduce myself first. I am a 17 year old guy who was  diagnosed with ADD when I was 11. Pretty much, I don't know what to do, concerning going back on medication. I stopped taking adderall when I was 15, I hated the way it made me feel. I never had an appetite, it made me feel like a zombie, and I was embarrassed about the fact of taking it whenever I ate at lunch. Ever since I went off the pills my grades have been slipping, I try my best to focus in school but it seems like whatever I do they still go down. My grades were better when I took Adderall, but I can't decide if it's worth the downsides. I've talked to my doctor and he thinks if I take a lower dose then it might help a little bit, but I'm just not sure. What do I do Reddit? Do I finish my graduating year next year without any meds, or go back on them and become an emotionless zombie and probably lose weight? Thanks for the help.

TL;DR Don't want to go back on pills, but grades are going down. What do I do?",adhd,hey adhd let introduce first year old guy diagnosed add pretty much know concerning going back medication stopped taking adderall hated way made feel never appetite like zombie embarrassed fact whenever ate lunch ever since went pill grade slipping try best focus school seems whatever still go better took decide worth downside talked doctor think take lower dose might help little bit sure reddit finish graduating next without med become emotionless probably lose weight thanks tl dr want,0.15,Moderately Positive
"So I went to a therapist yesterday, and was tested for ADHD, and was told that all signs point to a fairly definite yes. He recommended me to someone who would be able to give me a prescription for something. (I don't remember if he said what it was or not.)

I'm going back to see him on the 18th, but I'm wondering if you guys have any advice/tips/warnings now that I know I have ADHD, and will be taking medication for it?",adhd,went therapist yesterday tested adhd told sign point fairly definite yes recommended someone would able give prescription something remember said going back see th wondering guy advice tip warning know taking medication,0.17,Moderately Positive
"I work in a small 3 person team. We're programmers, we do various things, it's kind of a jack-of-all-trades position. I work with one coworker at the office and our manager works from home (out of the city). 

Anyway, I started about a year ago with a running start, getting tons of praise and accolades and raises because everything was new and challenging and I was able to master it very quickly. Recently, though, we've been given a basic website creation project with a really tight deadline. Web site work, for me, is just way too easy. There's no thinking required, it's just messing with styles and creating repetitive html pages. Since it's easy, I can't concentrate worth a crap and it takes me 5x longer to do anything than it should.

My manager has thought that since I am so slow at the work, that it is just too hard for me, so she has given me easier and easier work until now I'm at the point where I just copy-paste, and I literally can't do it; no amount of medication is going to make me not want to kill myself when I have to mindlessly ctrl-v for 5 hours straight.

Basically now she thinks I'm a huge idiot because despite giving me easier and easier tasks I get progressively worse at them. However, she never says anything about it, never once has complained about my performance, or anything; she is very passive and uncommunicative. I can guess at what she is thinking in her head but I have no idea.

I am getting so frustrated from being relegated to these easy roles that I am on the verge of quitting, if I don't get fired first, but I don't have any savings so I can't just get up and leave. What do I do? I don't think I can just go to my boss and say ""I can't do this because it's too easy for me"". Everybody has to do the boring stuff sometimes, right? I don't think she'll be too interested in me using my ADHD as an excuse, either - I'm stumped.",adhd,work small person team programmer various thing kind jack trade position one coworker office manager home city anyway started year ago running start getting ton praise accolade raise everything new challenging able master quickly recently though given basic website creation project really tight deadline web site way easy thinking required messing style creating repetitive html page since concentrate worth crap take longer anything thought slow hard easier point copy paste literally amount medication going make want kill mindlessly ctrl hour straight basically think huge idiot despite giving task get progressively worse however never say complained performance passive uncommunicative guess head idea frustrated relegated role verge quitting fired first saving leave go bos everybody boring stuff sometimes right interested using adhd excuse either stumped,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Just had another panic attack. I don't know how to explain to my loved ones that I am not in fact ok. 8 days out of 7 are a struggle. I'm not always depressed, it's just that things are hard and they just can't understand it. Just getting ready for work in the morning is an accomplishment. 

Do I try to explain to them or do I need to find some other form of support in a therapist, support group or coach?",adhd,another panic attack know explain loved one fact ok day struggle always depressed thing hard understand getting ready work morning accomplishment try need find form support therapist group coach,0.28,Moderately Positive
"I guess I want to blame somebody or something, but I have no idea. My parents? Hard to blame them.. they grew up in a time where the information on ADHD just wasn't all that readily available.

My school? My elementary teachers noticed an issue with focusing, but I don't think they trained teachers to recognize the symptoms back then like they do now. I'm thankful that they at least made notes of my difficulties on my report cards.

I can't really blame myself, because it was an unknown unknown for 99% of my life.

There's just nobody really to blame. It's like my own personal natural disaster. It just happened, and I have to deal with it.",adhd,guess want blame somebody something idea parent hard grew time information adhd readily available school elementary teacher noticed issue focusing think trained recognize symptom back like thankful least made note difficulty report card really unknown life nobody personal natural disaster happened deal,0.01,Neutral
"I have started a blog about my daily walk with ADHD.  Can you all take a look at the blog and give me some honest feedback on the contents?  Just curious, If you had a blog what are things about ADHD you would include in your blog?  Thanks for all the help in advance, and I really am enjoying the support group here on Reddit.com http://onedayatatimewithadd.blogspot.com/",adhd,started blog daily walk adhd take look give honest feedback content curious thing would include thanks help advance really enjoying support group reddit com,0.24,Moderately Positive
"I suggested to my doctor that I could try Dexedrine... it is way less popular but the reviews all say that it is much better and cleaner.

Adderall IR 20mg 3x a day
to
Dexedrine IR 10mg 3x a day

Anybody have their experiences they could help me with?
I took some today and I definitely feel calmer than I would on Adderall. More of my natural laid back self, but I am able to focus great too.

Less physical side effects as well.",adhd,suggested doctor could try dexedrine way le popular review say much better cleaner adderall ir mg day anybody experience help took today definitely feel calmer would natural laid back self able focus great physical side effect well,0.31,Moderately Positive
"Right now, I'm not medicated and the only time that I'm creative is when I'm going off on an ADHD tangent. I have no control over when I am creative, being in a good mood/happy seems to bring out the ADHD symptoms and sometimes if I can focus it, or find some motivation, I can bring about a tangent. If/When I go on meds, how will it affect my creativity? I know that the meds usually level you out, so will it eliminate my tangents, or will it allow me to focus and be creative when I want?

TL; DR: The effect of meds on creativity",adhd,right medicated time creative going adhd tangent control good mood happy seems bring symptom sometimes focus find motivation go med affect creativity know usually level eliminate allow want tl dr effect,0.41,Moderately Positive
"Why did I

- just turn my x box on before leaving my apartment, so that it would be on (simply on, nothing running lol) when I get back? 

-it just seemed like the thing I needed to do",adhd,turn box leaving apartment would simply nothing running lol get back seemed like thing needed,0.27,Moderately Positive
"**I was searching Audible.com for ADHD books**. Found a good book, checked out the description, bought it and downloaded it to my iPod.

Today on the way home from work I thought I'd listen to it. **Imagine my surprise when the author started talking about Dyslexia, and not ADHD.** 

I think it's possible I got distracted when I bought the book, and didn't pay attention to what I was buying...

**What can you do in a situation but LOL and listen to the book anyway?**

Does anyone have a similar experience to share?

",adhd,searching audible com adhd book found good checked description bought downloaded ipod today way home work thought listen imagine surprise author started talking dyslexia think possible got distracted pay attention buying situation lol anyway anyone similar experience share,0.38,Moderately Positive
"I can't focus on anything.

Something too hard? Fuck it

Too boring? Fuck it

Something actually interesting but for some reason you just can't stick with it? Well Fuck it

Something actually good for your health and rest of your life like, oh you know, actually getting tested for adhd? Nah, well pretend like it's not there, fuck it!

I keep putting off asking to get tested because I already asked once, and my dad just disregarded it! Like nah fuck that it sounds expensive and I want you to be normal. Fuck you! And he wonders why I can't focus when he tells me stuff, why I'm slipping in all my classes, why I make generally shitty decisions even though I know I shouldn't, and why even though I have friends I've always felt like they knew something I didn't. Like they got the guide telling them all the details and I got a lecture I didn't take notes on.

I'm literally sitting here crying because I'm having a damn panic attack about what I'm going to major in

What if I dont like it? What if I'm not good enough to live up to my familys expectations? If I change majors it will be expensive and I'll be fucked over with debt.

I'm so confused by my drive to be the best, but not being able to put the work in. Like am I just lazy? If I don't have adhd my life will fucking aimless, because I wouldnt even know what the problem is, let alone be able to  deal with it.

There's just such a weight on my shoulders, and I have a feeling like I just need to go a little further, wait a little longer, but I just can't anymore. I need to deal with what ever the hell is wrong with me.

I'm sorry if this is the wrong place for this, I'm sorry for  not even being sure if I have adhd, I'm just sorry for being like this. but from what I've read here, I've never related to any other group of people in my life.

So if you understand what I'm trying to say in this mess, please help. I'm so confused ",adhd,focus anything something hard fuck boring actually interesting reason stick well good health rest life like oh know getting tested adhd nah pretend keep putting asking get already asked dad disregarded sound expensive want normal wonder tell stuff slipping class make generally shitty decision even though friend always felt knew got guide telling detail lecture take note literally sitting cry damn panic attack going major dont enough live family expectation change fucked debt confused drive best able put work lazy fucking aimless wouldnt problem let alone deal weight shoulder feeling need go little wait longer anymore ever hell wrong sorry place sure read never related group people understand trying say mess please help,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Ok I have 2 separate questions but I dont want to spam posts.
1. Have you ever fake studied, I am talking with people watching over you and with out people watching over you. For example, when I was in highschool before major exams I would open up my laptop and prepare some study related tabs and do what ever I wanted. Then if my parents, little brother or little sister would walk in I would act like I was studying. I do this even when I am alone at home.
2. Not sure if it is pressure or what, but occasionally I start feeling like my whole life is collapsing before me and I start panicking even though I have nothing going on, and then when I have an exams I (most of the time) am extremely relaxed and don't care.",adhd,ok separate question dont want spam post ever fake studied talking people watching example highschool major exam would open laptop prepare study related tab wanted parent little brother sister walk act like studying even alone home sure pressure occasionally start feeling whole life collapsing panicking though nothing going time extremely relaxed care,0.04,Neutral
"My husband was diagnosed with ADHD, finally at age 42.  We've known it all along but never had it official. When he was a child his dad refused to believe ADHD was real and refused to get him any help. Instead he just yelled at him all the time and heavily implied he was stupid and couldn't think properly. 

He cannot take Adderall. He went off the deep end in his 30s and was a full blown meth addict (he's been clean now for about 8years).  We decided to give Adderall a try last year, and although he said it really helped and he could finally focus, he just immediately went into addict mode and started thinking about how he could take more and just abuse it. So unfortunately it is not a solution for us. 

But he refuses to even give simple techniques a try.  His biggest issues are time management and losing items, but for now I just want help for us with losing things.  I've suggested a catch-all table by the front door so that keys, wallet, etc. just live there at all times but he won't even give it a try. He just says, ""No, I will just get better at keeping track of things, starting right now."" I've suggested Tile or other tracking things for the wallet and keys and I get the same response as with the table suggestion. He's so frustrated about losing stuff and he gets embarrassed that he is always late to meet clients because he has to hunt down keys and wallet every morning, yet his only response is to say he will just change, like he can snap his fingers and suddenly be a different person. 

I try really hard to empathize. I try to help work with the ADHD and just fill in the gaps to make things easier, like taking care of stuff I know he will never get to. But I don't understand why he won't even try certain things. Is it because he thinks I'm being like his dad and telling him he is too stupid to track things? Does Tile or a table by the door feel like I'm treating him like a child? I get frustrated with the constant daily crisis of having to look for every day items and so then I get frustrated when he refuses to try a solution to that problem. ",adhd,husband diagnosed adhd finally age known along never official child dad refused believe real get help instead yelled time heavily implied stupid think properly cannot take adderall went deep end full blown meth addict clean year decided give try last although said really helped could focus immediately mode started thinking abuse unfortunately solution u refuse even simple technique biggest issue management losing item want thing suggested catch table front door key wallet etc live say better keeping track starting right tile tracking response suggestion frustrated stuff embarrassed always late meet client hunt every morning yet change like snap finger suddenly different person hard empathize work fill gap make easier taking care know understand certain telling feel treating constant daily crisis look day problem,-0.02,Neutral
"Well, this week's off to a good start...


I'm in bed right now. I took 3mg of melatonin and cut off electronics for the past 3 hours, but I'm still awake.

I missed my Monday and Tuesday classes so far. And from last week. And since...the beginning of the summer semester. 

Come to think of it, I've gone to...enough classes to fill my right hand and part of my left. What 4 or 5 classes out of...23 so far?

I'm frustrated as all hell right now. I slept through my exam last Friday and I'm terrified of losing my upcoming exam this Thursday. In these situations I just stay up all night.

I honestly wish I knew what was wrong with me. Jesus, these sleep problems are seriously screwing with my sense of self...

Uh, there, /rant I suppose.

Anyone else have sleep problems? I do, apparently. Had them for...a long, long, *long* time.",adhd,well week good start bed right took mg melatonin cut electronics past hour still awake missed monday tuesday class far last since beginning summer semester come think gone enough fill hand part left frustrated hell slept exam friday terrified losing upcoming thursday situation stay night honestly wish knew wrong jesus sleep problem seriously screwing sense self uh rant suppose anyone else apparently long time,-0.01,Neutral
"Hey, I am 15 and have (relatively)recently been diagnosed with ADD. I'm questioning whether medication is appropriate. If you feel so inclined please do read why:
I was diagnosed with ADD (ADHD - hyperactivity) and as a result, was offered medication to remedy the problem that I hadn't felt was that severe anyway. Regardless, I took the prescription with the idea that I may be able to use the meds to my benefit around exam time.
Gradually, more and more pressure was put upon me to take the medication (Ritalin) more regularly.

I am now essentially in the situation; where I feel if I take Ritalin, I will achieve grades which are above my capability without medication. I fear some sort of dependence may occur due to the potentially higher grades. I'm in a situation where I feel I may acquire a job as a result of these grades and then essentially be unofficially 'obliged' to take the medication to match those I may achieve in my exams.

Any ideas about my rambling mess of a dilemma would be appreciated, Cheers!
",adhd,hey relatively recently diagnosed add questioning whether medication appropriate feel inclined please read adhd hyperactivity result offered remedy problem felt severe anyway regardless took prescription idea may able use med benefit around exam time gradually pressure put upon take ritalin regularly essentially situation achieve grade capability without fear sort dependence occur due potentially higher acquire job unofficially obliged match rambling mess dilemma would appreciated cheer,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I've just recently been diagnosed with ADHD + OCD and I've been having this problem for a long time and really want to know why and wondering if there are others out there with similar experiences and how they deal with these problems.

Since I was a child I've had typical OCD behavior of counting sidewalk cracks I've stepped on, symmetry, and symmetrical number counting (5's), it's mostly been on a subconscious level and is not really a problem in my daily life.

ADHD wise I am fine in terms of intelligence, I have a good memory (for a biology student at a top 50 uni). I have always been horrible at listening and remembering what I have been listening, my brain does not register this way. I've only really been weak at pure mathematics in college but for some reason am good in physics, IDK, but this is irrelevant to my question. 

According to my psychiatrist and online research, ADHD and OCD dual diagnosed individuals are usually better off as the OCD helps to induce a work ethic and drive to achieve goals.

This describes me perfectly, as in college at least I am average or slightly above average in most classes but I have an INSANE work ethic and I do better than I should by a large margin. 

With that said, I am fine in almost all aspects of daily living when it comes down to it except this:

I have trouble following conventional ways to learn and think about things.
I think differently. Something so simple to learn and master, such as general directions on how to build something or conduct an experiment (in class), specific directions given vocally, or confidence in my thought process are terribly difficult for me to deal with. 

Basically, if there is a task that doesn't have a nearly 100% chance of being executed in a certain way, I fall victim to it because I overanalyze things and I often will come up with a solution that is logical and very creative, even though it is incorrect ultimately according to nature/logic/professor. 

Here are some things I struggle with for instance:

ex: answering a free response question of what caused X to perform in such a way when you did steps 1 +2a in comparison to steps 1+2b to do it, following a cooking recipe, answering a broad question that can be answered in multiple ways even though there is either one or two right answers, verbally being told to do something relatively simple and doing it differently or wrong because thinking about things that can be occur (which are rare to occur)





So how do you deal with these issues?


Thanks for all your feedback in advance.",adhd,recently diagnosed adhd ocd problem long time really want know wondering others similar experience deal since child typical behavior counting sidewalk crack stepped symmetry symmetrical number mostly subconscious level daily life wise fine term intelligence good memory biology student top uni always horrible listening remembering brain register way weak pure mathematics college reason physic idk irrelevant question according psychiatrist online research dual individual usually better help induce work ethic drive achieve goal describes perfectly least average slightly class insane large margin said almost aspect living come except trouble following conventional learn think thing differently something simple master general direction build conduct experiment specific given vocally confidence thought process terribly difficult basically task nearly chance executed certain fall victim overanalyze often solution logical creative even though incorrect ultimately nature logic professor struggle instance ex answering free response caused perform step comparison cooking recipe broad answered multiple either one two right answer verbally told relatively wrong thinking occur rare issue thanks feedback advance,0.02,Neutral
"I guess I'll never know , but I would like to share my story if that is ok. Please excuse my grammar, it suck.

In highschool once I started junior year everything was falling apart and at the time I did not understand why. My grades dropped significantly, so teacher and counselor called my parents for a meeting. Got caught by surprise when I got called to the meeting as well. Imagine the fear if your parents has never met a single one of your teachers in your entire life because you worked so damn hard in school to keep them away. Now there are both of them in the same room with the vice principle and counselor discussing my grades. Im asian by the way , if that helps explains certain things. 

They asked my parents to take me to a psychiatrist to get help for my mental health.Knowing my parents that is not happening...After a long meeting, my parents thanked the VP and counselor pretending everything is solved and they'll get me help.

 When I got picked up that day by my dad, I feared for my life as he sped home at around 100 mph...on a 35mph road. My dad was furious, he got into the kitchen and grab the kitchen knives and threw i them at my feet. Then asked me to ether kill myself or him because he does not deserve a son like me. He was so ashamed that he had to be in a meeting like that. 

Now this was before I even knew I had adhd and the Rejection sensitive dysphoria associated. So not knowing anyway to regulate, I was sure I was going to die. Thankfully the thought of not being able to see my sweet 3 year old sister grow up and not being able to be there for her stopped me from causing more pain for everyone around me. I struggled my way to graduation , missed out on opportunities.

 The cycle of  lack of sleep, anxiety of missing sleep, and the fear that you miss your exam so you don't sleep because you know you might miss your alarm because you've been up too long not studying much at all, lasted till sophmore year of college. After getting help on my own and learning ways to cope and live with adhd I can't help but imagine where I would be now if I had gotten help earlier. I've written this post my time , but always forget to click post.




tldr: highschool ask parent to take me to doctor for mental health. They don't. father feel dishonor to famiry and told me to kill myself or him. Got help on my own during college and got diagnosed with ADHD. Is still bitter.",adhd,guess never know would like share story ok please excuse grammar suck highschool started junior year everything falling apart time understand grade dropped significantly teacher counselor called parent meeting got caught surprise well imagine fear met single one entire life worked damn hard school keep away room vice principle discussing im asian way help explains certain thing asked take psychiatrist get mental health knowing happening long thanked vp pretending solved picked day dad feared sped home around mph road furious kitchen grab knife threw foot ether kill deserve son ashamed even knew adhd rejection sensitive dysphoria associated anyway regulate sure going die thankfully thought able see sweet old sister grow stopped causing pain everyone struggled graduation missed opportunity cycle lack sleep anxiety missing miss exam might alarm studying much lasted till sophmore college getting learning cope live gotten earlier written post always forget click tldr ask doctor father feel dishonor famiry told diagnosed still bitter,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I was never diagnosed with ADHD, but reading a lot of these threads feels like I could have written them.

I guess my question is on the topic of internet addiction and how it relates with ADHD 

 I know this is a kind of self selected group because reddit is kind of an addicting site and there is likely to be more people addicted to the internet here than elsewhere, but do ADHD and internet addiction go together?

It started off for me putting in way too many hours playing video games, but also youtube, reddit, Netflix, social media etc. can be a problem for me

I feel most likely people with ADHD have a bigger problem with internet addiction because it's so stimulating.  It's especially hard to try and get work done (I'm learning programming), when I am on my computer and I know I am 15 seconds and two mouse clicks away from being stimulated and excited doing something else, that I can easily be relieved of the uncomfortable frustration with intentional focus on something not very stimulating.  I'm sure ""normal"" people have these same problems too, but maybe it's not as big of a deal to them compared to people with ADHD?

So, do you have a problem with internet addiction?  If so, what helps you manage it (if at all)?  And just any general thoughts on the subject would be appreciated. 

Thanks. ",adhd,never diagnosed adhd reading lot thread feel like could written guess question topic internet addiction relates know kind self selected group reddit addicting site likely people addicted elsewhere go together started putting way many hour playing video game also youtube netflix social medium etc problem bigger stimulating especially hard try get work done learning programming computer second two mouse click away stimulated excited something else easily relieved uncomfortable frustration intentional focus sure normal maybe big deal compared help manage general thought subject would appreciated thanks,0.05,Moderately Positive
"At 1:00p.m EST time I took my first OMEGA-3 pill. I will keep taking it 3 times a day after every meal. I will update this post every week. Next Post will be on November 30th, 2012
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EDIT (06/12/2012):
Sorry I've been hibernating because of projects and finals...I've basically modified my lifestyle: 
stopped coffee and started drinking green tea. REGULAR exercise...I run every other day for 30 minutes.
I have more energy and I am less distracted... Did the omega-3 help in the short term...NO...you really have to change your habits...know what distracts you...and take precautions before it happens:
Things that help me: 
* [StayFocusd] (https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/stayfocusd/laankejkbhbdhmipfmgcngdelahlfoji) extension on chrome
* Static on simple noise...I really like the rain also: http://simplynoise.com/",adhd,est time took first omega pill keep taking day every meal update post week next november th edit sorry hibernating project final basically modified lifestyle stopped coffee started drinking green tea regular exercise run minute energy le distracted help short term really change habit know distracts take precaution happens thing stayfocusd extension chrome static simple noise like rain also,0.02,Neutral
"So I got told by my GP that I had ADHD. He then said that I need to see the specialist though for a formal diagnoses and recommendation of medication. The specialist will be able to specify which meds will help with my symptoms and will fit in with my life/work etc is what I was told. 


But my question is... what should I expect? 


I've learnt many things over the years, guitar etc for example. Usually I get motivated for a brief period and then give up. Or I get motivated but only do what I enjoy rather than what I need to do to get better. I'm hoping that meds will give me that focus? I just... sorry I'm finding it hard to accurately explain what I'm hoping to get from these meds, possibly as I feel like I want them to 'solve' everything in my life and make me some perfect human. But that chasing perfection is part of adhd and isn't realistic. Essentially I'm asking for what changes you found you got from taking meds, and a rough idea of what changes I may experience. 

Thanks",adhd,got told gp adhd said need see specialist though formal diagnosis recommendation medication able specify med help symptom fit life work etc question expect learnt many thing year guitar example usually get motivated brief period give enjoy rather better hoping focus sorry finding hard accurately explain possibly feel like want solve everything make perfect human chasing perfection part realistic essentially asking change found taking rough idea may experience thanks,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Hey guys, I'm new to my meds (Adderall) and I was wondering, is it normal for classes to feel this long?
I'm not bored during class I'm just overly aware of the time and it feels like it's been increased 5 fold without my permission.  Is this normal?

Edit - autocorrect screwed me ",adhd,hey guy new med adderall wondering normal class feel long bored overly aware time like increased fold without permission edit autocorrect screwed,0.0,Neutral
"I was just prescribed Adderal and it is helping at work. However, I had a scrimmage the other day and had difficulty breathing and a ramped up heart rate. I had to see the medics an leave the scrimmage for 20 minutes or so it was so bad. I usually have a lower heart rate, so i was really surprised.

Anyone else experience this?",adhd,prescribed adderal helping work however scrimmage day difficulty breathing ramped heart rate see medic leave minute bad usually lower really surprised anyone else experience,-0.28,Moderately Negative
"Imma go on alittle rant, sorry if i'm all over the place. I just recently found this forum and can relate with so many things. Darn my friend who gave me her prescription. I've been medicated by her for so long and she just ran out, and i havent exactly talked to a doctor. My friend was psychiatrist for a month and a half haha. I'm finally back to being the old me, and I hate it. I can't accomplish anything anymore, and i keep thinking about what other people are thinking of me. I miss being confident. I've talk to a doctor while i was on it. Im not gunna lie im 19 and went through some major changes in my life this year. I told her about this, but she diagnosed me with adjustment disorder. She tried medicating me, but i said no. Didn't want to give her the idea i just want pills, random black guy who i never seen(I never go to the doctors). Sometimes i honestly think it might be just in my head and that I really dont have adhd, because sometimes when my friend gives it to me, i get excited and feel it kick in right away. That's after i haven't had in a while. I hate feeling like an addict, but things are so messed up in my life. Im really going off topic. Before my friend, I was managing it, but never was informed about adhd. I come from a family of muslims. We think god will rid  us of our problems when we pray and etc. I'm not muslim as of this year. This is due to taking a psychology class, and smoking heavy weed. I dont smoke anymore, i hate it because it gets me paranoid. It some how intensifies my thinking, and gets me paranoid of what people are thinking. I dont know how people with adhd smoke weed. My routine has been fucked up, and praying to god hasnt been a option for me anymore. What i really hate is my communication with others when im not on it. I lost my motivation to pursue my goals and im wasting time when i could be more productive. Depression has been hitting me hard lately because i convinced myself i have adhd. I know all the symptoms. One thing i love about myself is i do research on everything. Googles literally my best friend. I'm asking for help right now. Should i be upfront with my doctor and tell her everything(my friend, etc)? They gave me a therapist, or should i try that first? i gave up on finishing this, lost my motivation to type.",adhd,imma go alittle rant sorry place recently found forum relate many thing darn friend gave prescription medicated long ran havent exactly talked doctor psychiatrist month half haha finally back old hate accomplish anything anymore keep thinking people miss confident talk im gunna lie went major change life year told diagnosed adjustment disorder tried medicating said want give idea pill random black guy never seen sometimes honestly think might head really dont adhd get excited feel kick right away feeling like addict messed going topic managing informed come family muslim god rid u problem pray etc due taking psychology class smoking heavy weed smoke paranoid intensifies know routine fucked praying hasnt option communication others lost motivation pursue goal wasting time could productive depression hitting hard lately convinced symptom one love research everything google literally best asking help upfront tell therapist try first finishing type,0.04,Neutral
"Hello everyone!

I recently started dating a guy with ADHD, he has his medication and I am trying to understand it (and him) better. I have been reading a lot about it, but I would like to hear from some of you about experiences you have had and how do you manage to overcome the difficulties. At first, everything it absolutely exhilarating. The energy!  The intense focus! He showered me with sweet texts message, love, gift ect... he introduced me to his kids and all his best friend. Like i was a center of his world, we spend so much time together everything was perfect but it didnt last long. Everything seem to change dramatically. Someday he would seem to distance himself from me and someday he seem fine. He would spend a whole day golfing and doing other thing with his friends. Which i dont mind at all but at least let me know where he is. I would be so worry all the time. I can barely get a text back from him now and i know he used his phone all the time. I feel lonely, ignored, and unappreciated. I am confused not sure that he wasn't into me like he used to or just his normal behavior. I am trying to be patient and understand by not saying anything to him. I love him and wanted to be there for him but everyday my feeling is hurt and i feel unwanted. I would cried myself to sleep right next to him and he didnt even know noticed. What can i do to help our relationship? Or should i just let go?",adhd,hello everyone recently started dating guy adhd medication trying understand better reading lot would like hear experience manage overcome difficulty first everything absolutely exhilarating energy intense focus showered sweet text message love gift ect introduced kid best friend center world spend much time together perfect didnt last long seem change dramatically someday distance fine whole day golfing thing dont mind least let know worry barely get back used phone feel lonely ignored unappreciated confused sure normal behavior patient saying anything wanted everyday feeling hurt unwanted cried sleep right next even noticed help relationship go,0.21,Moderately Positive
"Ok, so I've been thinking alot about my issues as of late, and I can't come to any definite answer about why I seem to ride an emotional rollercoaster, feel exhausted, lack focus and day dream endlessly, and feel anxious and depressed so much. The truth is I don't know what I have (ADHD, anxiety disorder, depression, etc) or if I even do at all. I'm curious what happens to other people's minds when they are just alone in their room, or walking down the street alone or working on a paper. How do your thoughts work as you are puttering? I feel mindless often, losing any internal goal quite easily, and wondering why I can't think of anything to say to someone. 

I'm just asking for people's help here because I need it, badly. I've been taking medication for 3 years now, tried a few kinds, and they helped me organize my thoughts and focus on conversing with others more efficiently for a short while but that has faded with time. I often catch myself not really thinking of anything for extended periods of time, or having random thoughts move in and out quickly therein not allowing me to really process them. I can't really think about anything for lengths of time beyond a minute or two, and because my attention is so dispersed conversation is challenging as well. I struggle with social interactions and exert endless amounts of mental energy just trying to listen and think in a linear way that lets me talk about the same subject without running off on tangents. It's incredibly debilitating and when you combine it with a lack of energy, high level of anxiety in my daily life, the pressure of high grades in University and a terminally ill father. I just don't know how to make sense of all of this.

 I've adopted meditation as a practice for the last 4 months, been to a psychologist for a few years and sought others diagnostic opinions, but nothing has ever been concretely obvious in their diagnoses, and medication has not removed any problem well enough for me to have a better idea. I'm lost and I'm sorry if any of you are for this mess of a post but your thoughts would be appreciated.",adhd,ok thinking alot issue late come definite answer seem ride emotional rollercoaster feel exhausted lack focus day dream endlessly anxious depressed much truth know adhd anxiety disorder depression etc even curious happens people mind alone room walking street working paper thought work puttering mindless often losing internal goal quite easily wondering think anything say someone asking help need badly taking medication year tried kind helped organize conversing others efficiently short faded time catch really extended period random move quickly therein allowing process length beyond minute two attention dispersed conversation challenging well struggle social interaction exert endless amount mental energy trying listen linear way let talk subject without running tangent incredibly debilitating combine high level daily life pressure grade university terminally ill father make sense adopted meditation practice last month psychologist sought diagnostic opinion nothing ever concretely obvious diagnosis removed problem enough better idea lost sorry mess post would appreciated,0.02,Neutral
"Please, someone help me out. 

I don't know if I have ADHD or what but I am also broke and don't know if I should see a doctor, and don't want to unless I know I'll be prescribed something.

Basically, I should start by saying, I have taken adderall before. I sought out adderall specifically because from what I read about the positive affects it can have, which I felt I needed. And I did. I took it a few times, but eventually had a friend who gave me a lot of his because he just didn't always like taking it. I started taking it kind of regularly and it had the most positive affect on my life and myself. 
Without adderall, my room is a mess, I run an Etsy shop and everything is horrifingly unorganized. I cannot organize at all, but on adderall I could organize everything and it was for me a beautiful thing to experience because I always wondered what it was like being organized. I would write down my plans for the day / grocery lists, I would divide my hours throughout the day on what tasks I needed to do like cleaning, working, then working on etsy, etc. and would get everything done.

I was on it maybe a few months, but had to take sparingly because I had a limited amount. I believe I took my last one in March and have been off it since. Today has been a breaking point for me. I can't take it all anymore. I want help again and adderall gave me that like nothing else in my life before. 

I don't know if I have ADHD. From what I understood as a child, children with ADHD were hyper in class and would interrupt, etc.. I never did that. I was not always the best with focusing in class however, example: drawing on pages, not listening to teacher, daydreaming

However, I started homeschooling in 6th grade. I dropped out of school around 11th/12th since I started working.

Problems in life started mostly when I was 15-16 when I started working. Focusing is my biggest problem. I can NOT focus, ever. I can't get work done, it is almost impossible. Another weird thing about me is when multiple people speak near me at the same time, even if I am in the middle of a conversation, I have to stop talking and just close my eyes and hold my ears. It's like there is too much at once and it gives me anxiety and I feel like I'll go crazy.

There are other things too. But I just am wondering if any of these things may align with having ADHD? I am not asking for an actual diagnosis but if any of you can relate. I don't know what I have but it has to be something. I can't take living this way anymore. 

Also another thing possibly worth noting is I have taken a few online tests (which are probably dogsh*t but maybe worth noting) that my score said I probably should see a doctor and show many symptoms of ADHD. I am asking for personal advice if maybe I should see a doctor. I don't have a lot of money to do so.

TL;DR Can't focus, can't think straight, can barely function in life, does this sound familiar to anyone who has ADHD and should I see a doctor for these things even though I am broke?",adhd,please someone help know adhd also broke see doctor want unless prescribed something basically start saying taken adderall sought specifically read positive affect felt needed took time eventually friend gave lot always like taking started kind regularly life without room mess run etsy shop everything horrifingly unorganized cannot organize could beautiful thing experience wondered organized would write plan day grocery list divide hour throughout task cleaning working etc get done maybe month take sparingly limited amount believe last one march since today breaking point anymore nothing else understood child hyper class interrupt never best focusing however example drawing page listening teacher daydreaming homeschooling th grade dropped school around problem mostly biggest focus ever work almost impossible another weird multiple people speak near even middle conversation stop talking close eye hold ear much give anxiety feel go crazy wondering may align asking actual diagnosis relate living way possibly worth noting online test probably dogsh score said show many symptom personal advice money tl dr think straight barely function sound familiar anyone though,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I dont drink often - I'm way too lightweight and I prefer pot because no hangover. But I went to a rugby game this weekend and decided to drink with everyone else. 

I got kinda fucked. No regrets from the actual day itself though, had a great time with friends and given how antisocial I've been the last year it was good to get out.

But 2 days later - holy shit. I still feel hungover. I still have a stomach ache. I can not get hydrated. Dr says that the Dexadrine can make alcohol effects more potent but my god this is awful. I don't think I'm ever going to drink again. ",adhd,dont drink often way lightweight prefer pot hangover went rugby game weekend decided everyone else got kinda fucked regret actual day though great time friend given antisocial last year good get later holy shit still feel hungover stomach ache hydrated dr say dexadrine make alcohol effect potent god awful think ever going,-0.02,Neutral
"TL;DR I was that super smart kid who would do the dumbest shit. Bullied because of it and had no support. Run on adrenaline to get through uni and can't do this shit anymore because it's ruining my life.


Sorry, this is gonna be long and non-succinct, but I just gotta spurt it out because my mind is a mess, and I am currently procrastinating exam revision  :P.

Since year 1, I could tell I was different than everyone else. I was extremely smart at school but could never understand the jokes and social games happening at school. I was the kid that would get A+ in math but do the stupidest shit. I've done things like put diesel in a petrol car, flood the house because I left the tap on, almost rolling the car because I wasn't paying attention, locked the keys in the car multiple times, almost lighting a bush fire because I forgot to put out a fire at night. I can't count the amount of times I have almost died being on the road because I keep getting distracted in the car. I achieved all this by the time I was 18.


I was immensely bullied because I just didn't get things. My parents were not supportive at all because my dad (who I suspect also ADHD) was a narcissist and mum was too occupied with him to worry about what was going on. In the midst of all of this, I thought schooling all the way to year 10 was a breeze. I hardly did any homework. In the subjects I did need to homework, I work procrastinate like hell to the point I would do all nighters. I even failed a few subjects, such that I was getting A+ in math and science but getting a F in Health and Religion because I simply did't hand up work. Many times teachers would comment that I rush my work and miss details, and I would easily get distracted by other people in class. Even so, I was a pretty quiet kid, and was a delight to teach according to most of my reports and parents. I suspect that this is the reason why I have slipped through the cracks, as I was acing school and easy to teach, who would suspect an issue?

The bullying at school eventually led me to a psychiatrist (out of my own intuition, not my parents). He diagnosed with anxiety and depression (which I had at the time) and gave me pills. Tried a few, and all it did was numb me, but didn't change anything at all. I would constantly tell him that my problems were because I felt different and I mind wasn't clear because of this ""brain fog"" that I have always had, which made it much harder to understand what's going on.  


Coming to today, I have always struggled with being consistent with doing work. Being in my 6th year of uni, my GPA is around 6.5/7 (around 3.8/4 in America) doing engineering and physics, but I don't know shit because every exam and assignment I have done I have crammed to the last minute because I need adrenaline to study. 

I also find it very hard to focus on anything that requires some level of cognitive ability when I am not under stress. I find it very hard to expand on my music taste, to maintain social relationships and be consistent with people in general. It has made me somewhat of a robot because I can't relate to many people. Most of what I am about is involved with what I learn at uni because that's the only thing that gives me some structure and gives me enough stress/adrenaline to actually do anything. I do gym and running alot, and I guess that's an outlet, but it has never really made me feel any better or improved my sleep (my sleep is amazing btw).


I had a massive breakdown 3 years ago where I abused substances and started failing all my classes. After dealing with that episode, and realizing I have issues with gluten, dairy etc. as well as finding I have a C677t homozygous mutuation that renders my methylation ability to 20% of normal, I have been able to create a framework that gives me some ability to actually do stuff rather then be constantly comatose and enable to do anything I want. (This includes supplementation with methylb12 and b9, which actually has helped a bit).

Right now, I am productive maybe 1 day out of a week. If anything falls to shit outside of my strict framework (less sleep, less exercise, nofap, supplements, some alcohol) I have days of being essentially useless. Even in the days I can do something, I still find it very hard to do things I actually want to do. I am an idea's man like my dad, and super passionate about so many things, but I can't actually execute any of my ideas. It's literally the most frustrating thing.


During exam time I have to sacrifice my whole life (socially, family etc) to muster the energy to focus, and even then I procrastinate for exams. It's coming to the point now where something has to happen but life can't be like this anymore. I have now since seen a GP and on my way for extensive testing so I can get an adequate diagnosis and then a proper treatment plan set up.

I know we shouldn't self diagnosis, but in the last 6 years I have gone through 10's of GPs and countless specialists to work out what the hell is going on. Essentially I have this brain fog that I have had since I can first remember. Nothing seems clear or obvious. I have solved my issues with anxiety and depression thought mindfullness and life changes, but this 'thing' hasn't budged one bit. I feel like I am a chronic underachiever, running at 10-20% of my actual potential. That idea kills me.


In Australia, most Doctors believe ADHD doesn't exist in adults, and for the ones that do, most don't diagnose Adults. It happened to my most recent GP visit, who insisted ADHD wasn't a thing as the diagnosis criteria are so wishy washy (her words). But, I am also open to the idea that maybe it's not ADHD and maybe I am being OCD about all this and I am fine. I dunno what to think.

However, I am worried about dependence on medication if I am diagnosed with ADHD (pi), as time goes on and I solidify this strict framework, I can somewhat cope with everything. I have been trying to use mindfullness to further improve symptoms. I have asked if a friend of mine to give me some vyvanase so I can see if a stimulant can improve my symptoms, which probably will give me an indication of where I am at. 

(Again, sorry of this is everywhere, my mind is a mess).",adhd,tl dr super smart kid would dumbest shit bullied support run adrenaline get uni anymore ruining life sorry gonna long non succinct gotta spurt mind mess currently procrastinating exam revision since year could tell different everyone else extremely school never understand joke social game happening math stupidest done thing like put diesel petrol car flood house left tap almost rolling paying attention locked key multiple time lighting bush fire forgot night count amount died road keep getting distracted achieved immensely parent supportive dad suspect also adhd narcissist mum occupied worry going midst thought schooling way breeze hardly homework subject need work procrastinate hell point nighters even failed science health religion simply hand many teacher comment rush miss detail easily people class pretty quiet delight teach according report reason slipped crack acing easy issue bullying eventually led psychiatrist intuition diagnosed anxiety depression gave pill tried numb change anything constantly problem felt clear brain fog always made much harder coming today struggled consistent th gpa around america engineering physic know every assignment crammed last minute study find hard focus requires level cognitive ability stress expand music taste maintain relationship general somewhat robot relate involved learn give structure enough actually gym running alot guess outlet really feel better improved sleep amazing btw massive breakdown ago abused substance started failing dealing episode realizing gluten dairy etc well finding homozygous mutuation render methylation normal able create framework stuff rather comatose enable want includes supplementation methylb helped bit right productive maybe day week fall outside strict le exercise nofap supplement alcohol essentially useless something still idea man passionate execute literally frustrating sacrifice whole socially family muster energy happen seen gp extensive testing adequate diagnosis proper treatment plan set self gone gps countless specialist first remember nothing seems obvious solved mindfullness budged one chronic underachiever actual potential kill australia doctor believe exist adult diagnose happened recent visit insisted criterion wishy washy word open ocd fine dunno think however worried dependence medication pi go solidify cope everything trying use improve symptom asked friend mine vyvanase see stimulant probably indication everywhere,0.04,Neutral
"I've read this a few different places... adderall xr dose mulitplied by 1.85 would give you your vyvanse mg dose equivalent?

Is this true?

I was on 20mg 3x a day for IR adderall.  Now I am 30mg 2x a day for Adderall XR.

So x 1.85 would be 111.  So probably 60mg 2x a day.  But do doctors prescribed vyvanse for 2x a day dosing?  Online it says max dose is 70mg... I find that hard to believe they wouldnt go above that.... 60mg of adderall IR or XR does nothing for me....so 70mg may be more effective as an individual dose but theres no way itll be enough for the entire day...

",adhd,read different place adderall xr dose mulitplied would give vyvanse mg equivalent true day ir probably doctor prescribed dosing online say max find hard believe wouldnt go nothing may effective individual there way itll enough entire,0.09,Moderately Positive
"being watched while I do anything/everything is by far the most uncomfortable feeling I can feel in the entire world.  I hate it.  I hate it so much that it seems like I hate it more than most people.  

If I know someone is staring at me I will shoot them a look and I don't care how dirty it is because I need it to stop so I'm coming in hot.  If it still doesn't stop then it becomes the only thing I can think about until it stops or I snap.  I cannot do it.  I sweat and go red and shake too, it's not just my thoughts.  I don't hate the person but I'm sure I seem like it in the moment.  

I haven't found this to be a stand out symptom when I research ADHD.  Does anyone else feel this way?  I don't enjoy it.  I wish I could chill and let someone stare if they wanna stare.  ",adhd,watched anything everything far uncomfortable feeling feel entire world hate much seems like people know someone staring shoot look care dirty need stop coming hot still becomes thing think snap cannot sweat go red shake thought person sure seem moment found stand symptom research adhd anyone else way enjoy wish could chill let stare wanna,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"TL;DR Have to appear in court for a super speeder ticket on Monday. Attorney asked me to take a defensive drivers course before appearing in court so that he can use it to reduce the fine. Had a class today morning at 9.30. Reached there one hour late. And they didn't allow me to attend the course. 


I have been talking to several lawyers regarding this traffic ticket since I was using international drivers license when I got caught. Also a super speeder ticket means I have to pay the fine of $850 + $200 for the state of Georgia. And, my car insurance can go up anywhere from 20-40% for the next 3 to 5 years, and it might end up costing around $2000-3000 extra.


The lawyers whom i spoke to had their fee from $400-$700 for representing me and all they promised me was that they would help me keep this off my records to prevent my increase in insurance. But I'd have to pay the full fine of $850 + $200 for super speeder + $400-700 depending on the lawyer who is representing me.


I was still unsure whether I should spend on an attorney for me since I don't own a car and I'm not planning to get a car anytime soon. I talked to one of my friend(used to be a lawyer in Real estate) regarding this, and he suggested me to talk to the county lawyer(the lawyer who represents the court). He asked me to expect nothing from the county's lawyer. But he said that knowing who I'm going to face will help me make the decision of whether need a lawyer to represent me or not. 


I ended up calling the court and had a conversation with the county's lawyer. He asked me to get the defensive driving course certificate and bring it to court on Monday. And he promised me that he would help me with reducing the reported speed so that I don't get super speeders and he said he'll make sure this won't get on the record. But all I have to do was to take the defensive driving course and bringing the certificate with me to the court along with all the documents which I have to carry while I'm driving. 


I was overjoyed when he said all I have to do was to take the defensive driving course and I don't have to pay the super speeder fine($200), this violation won't go on my record, and I don't have to hire a lawyer.


Small info before I continue: I have like 8 alarms from when I wake up till I leave my apartment to work, each reminding me that it's time to do the next routine in the morning. And on Saturdays and Sundays, I give myself off days, and I just have alarm at 10 to wake me up.


Usually, I sleep very late on Friday and Saturday nights. But since I had to be in the class at 9.30, I slept early. But I forgot to set an alarm. So I woke up to the usual 10am alarm and I some how made it to the class at 10.30. But the instructor didn't let me attend the class because it word be unfair for the people who were in the class for an hour already. But she suggested I can reschedule and attend the course sometime next week. I explained that I had court on Monday and it's very important to me. And she suggested that there were classes at other locations of the same driving school on Sundays. And finally I found out a place approx 30 miles from my apartment which has a class tomorrow from 10.30 to 5.30.


Because of this, I have to miss a friend's farewell party who is moving to a different place in a week. 


All because I forgot to set an alarm. 😐",adhd,tl dr appear court super speeder ticket monday attorney asked take defensive driver course appearing use reduce fine class today morning reached one hour late allow attend talking several lawyer regarding traffic since using international license got caught also mean pay state georgia car insurance go anywhere next year might end costing around extra spoke fee representing promised would help keep record prevent increase full depending still unsure whether spend planning get anytime soon talked friend used real estate suggested talk county represents expect nothing said knowing going face make decision need represent ended calling conversation driving certificate bring reducing reported speed sure bringing along document carry overjoyed violation hire small info continue like alarm wake till leave apartment work reminding time routine saturday sunday give day usually sleep friday night slept early forgot set woke usual made instructor let word unfair people already reschedule sometime week explained important location school finally found place approx mile tomorrow miss farewell party moving different,0.02,Neutral
"A bit of background. Im an American living in London. I’m a 22 year old Male, and I took Adderall as a child and quit taking it when I finished college around 20 thinking I didn’t need it anymore. Now I’m discovering how much it helped me, and being an actor I realise how much I need it again to be able to focus while I’m reading scripts and filming. And I told me GP but he can’t just prescribe me Adderall because I have to get diagnosed again now that I live in London, which I understand. Is there anyway to speed up the process? My GP referred me to get diagnosed about 2 weeks ago.",adhd,bit background im american living london year old male took adderall child quit taking finished college around thinking need anymore discovering much helped actor realise able focus reading script filming told gp prescribe get diagnosed live understand anyway speed process referred week ago,0.16,Moderately Positive
"**(Background- skip this for the actual question)**

22 year old female- a little over a month ago I was diagnosed with the inattentive type and prescribed 20 mg Vyvanse, instructed to increase to 40 mg after a week to see which dose was better. Due to insurance red tape, I also had to try generic Adderall (20 mg XR), but I found Vyvanse to be a bit ""smoother"" (for lack of a better word) so I'm back to that now. So to summarize this is what I've had so far:

 * Week 1: 20 mg Vyvanse
 * Week 2: 40 mg Vyvanse
 * Week 3: 20 mg Adderall XR (generic)
 * Week 4 : 40 mg Vyvanse (where I'm at now)

I could go on about the psychological wonders of these pills forever; for the first time in my life, I feel like I have total control over my brain. Even though I've got a decent amount of work (I am a college student), I've never felt calmer or more productive, and it's awesome! I'm kicking myself for not getting help for this earlier, but the future certainly looks bright. :)

However, I'm concerned about the physical effects of the stimulants. For the first 2 weeks, appetite loss was a *huge* issue while the meds were in effect and I've lost a bit of weight, but that's gotten slightly better, thanks in part to your guys' advice [here](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/rfdbp/vyvanse_side_effect_my_appetite_is_severely/). Also, I don't know how to describe this, but I can sort of feel the drug's presence *physically* when I'm on it, like a slight increase in heart rate, and that freaked me out a bit at first, but then I had to remind myself that *it is a drug* (and a stimulant at that) so of course I'm going to feel something. Nothing painful or uncomfortable though, so I stopped worrying about that.

**Actual question**

**So the physical side effects when I'm *on* the meds are pretty mild, but in the middle of week 3 (adderall) I sometimes started feeling stronger side effects when they start wearing *off*. The first time, it was like slight jittery feeling with a mild tightness in my chest and I felt like I had to breathe more deeply, although there wasn't actually any shaking, pain, or hyperventilating--it was more just a weird feeling in the chest area and an unpleasant awareness of the vital processes.**

I'd never experienced anything like that pre-medication, so the first time it happened, I made the mistake of consulting Dr. Google and silently *freaked the fuck out* convinced I was having a heart attack. This led to a brief feedback loop where the panicking made it worse, which in turn made me think the symptoms were getting worse, etc--but after I looked it up more and realized that 1. I'm young, healthy, and have no preexisting medical conditions or family history and 2. Other people have reported [similar issues](http://www.addforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=50683) and lived to tell the tale, so I calmed down after that, but the ""baseline"" discomfort still lasted for 60-90 minutes or so.

I took the adderall for a few more days and experienced a similar comedown one more time. Switched back to Vyvanse this week and didn't have that problem at all yesterday, but felt it again today. Again, it seems to last for 60-90 minutes after the drug wears off (as indicated by my usual brain fog slowly rolling in again). 

Now that I think about it, the only days where this has been a problem were days spent slaving over Excel data all day in my cheap-ass folding chair which makes my shoulders and back ache like crazy, so I wonder if there's a connection between that and the chest discomfort. However, I've occasionally spent long hours in this shitty chair before starting meds and it didn't feel like the amphetamine comedown I just described, so maybe it's a weird interactive effect? Or maybe it's just a coincidence.. I don't know.

Again, this comedown is not painful or incapacitating in any way, but since I've never had a similar feeling without the meds, it still freaks me out a little bit and makes me wonder if it's like overworking my heart or something.

I'm a cautious and paranoid person in general, so I had a huge internal conflict over whether I even wanted meds in the first place given the lack of solid long-term studies, but I finally decided that life is inherently risky and I don't want to let my occasionally irrational fear of the unknown prevent me from fully living my life *now*. Plus, I reasoned that if (non-abusive use of) these drugs were highly dangerous, they wouldn't be prescribed to little kids. But the same time, I don't want to naively ignore a side effect and proceed have a heart attack when I'm 35 or something.

**Of course I'm going to talk to my doc, but has anyone else experienced similar effects when your medication wore off? Do you know why it happens some days but not others? Is it a serious problem that warrants stopping the medication, or is it just a weird quirk that you have to learn to live with? Any insight would be great. Thanks for reading!**

EDIT: Made the formatting more ADD-friendly ;)",adhd,background skip actual question year old female little month ago diagnosed inattentive type prescribed mg vyvanse instructed increase week see dose better due insurance red tape also try generic adderall xr found bit smoother lack word back summarize far could go psychological wonder pill forever first time life feel like total control brain even though got decent amount work college student never felt calmer productive awesome kicking getting help earlier future certainly look bright however concerned physical effect stimulant appetite loss huge issue med lost weight gotten slightly thanks part guy advice know describe sort drug presence physically slight heart rate freaked remind course going something nothing painful uncomfortable stopped worrying side pretty mild middle sometimes started feeling stronger start wearing jittery tightness chest breathe deeply although actually shaking pain hyperventilating weird area unpleasant awareness vital process experienced anything pre medication happened made mistake consulting dr google silently fuck convinced attack led brief feedback loop panicking worse turn think symptom etc looked realized young healthy preexisting medical condition family history people reported similar lived tell tale calmed baseline discomfort still lasted minute took day comedown one switched problem yesterday today seems last wear indicated usual fog slowly rolling spent slaving excel data cheap as folding chair make shoulder ache crazy connection occasionally long hour shitty starting amphetamine described maybe interactive coincidence incapacitating way since without freak overworking cautious paranoid person general internal conflict whether wanted place given solid term study finally decided inherently risky want let irrational fear unknown prevent fully living plus reasoned non abusive use highly dangerous kid naively ignore proceed talk doc anyone else wore happens others serious warrant stopping quirk learn live insight would great reading edit formatting add friendly,0.02,Neutral
"I am thinking about changing my diet to try to be healthier over all and I was wondering what, if any, effects diet change could have on my ADHD symptoms. 

Has anybody here noticed what kind of effects certain types of diets have had on their symptoms?",adhd,thinking changing diet try healthier wondering effect change could adhd symptom anybody noticed kind certain type,0.41,Moderately Positive
"First off I will not be posting my channel name or link to the videos right away because I want to get some solid input as well as I do not want to be accused of spamming this awesome community. 

My general troubles:

* Great start but I am losing my original focus
* Starting to mentally spread out my goals and ideas and I feel my momentum starting to evaporate
* Finally worked out the general recording settings, but editing is still non-existent (no full software atm)
* Not sure how to organize the channel in the first place
* Where to gain viewers

What I WOULD like some input on:

* What are some topics I should explore?
* Should I include posts made on here and talk about them?
* If people want to hear the conversations but do not wish to watch the games, how can I provide content for them?
* How often should I post content?
* Should I make longer or shorter videos?

Any help would be appreciated and if the mods feel this is not appropriate to post here let me know and I will delete this post

Sincerely,

/u/hohnsenhoff

* NOTE: I always include the link to this subreddit in the video description",adhd,first posting channel name link video right away want get solid input well accused spamming awesome community general trouble great start losing original focus starting mentally spread goal idea feel momentum evaporate finally worked recording setting editing still non existent full software atm sure organize place gain viewer would like topic explore include post made talk people hear conversation wish watch game provide content often make longer shorter help appreciated mod appropriate let know delete sincerely hohnsenhoff note always subreddit description,0.24,Moderately Positive
"My partner of 3 years (fiancé of 1 month) came home today and said he was thinking on the drive home and asked himself if he could reach into my brain and pull out the ADHD, would he? He decided he wouldn't because It's part of what makes me me.  

Good God help us to stay supportive of each other. 
Adhd'ers: this person exists. If you can believe it, mine is an engineer and still supports me. I'm writing this because earlier this year my boss of 7 years finally abandoned me. I knew he was frustrated with me but I thought I brought enough good to the table to warrant continued loyalty. The loss brought up self-doubt I have never felt before. 
My point is- our differences cause much pain in our lives, and for every person unable or unwilling to let those differences roam free, there is one who WILL. Cherish them. ",adhd,partner year fianc month came home today said thinking drive asked could reach brain pull adhd would decided part make good god help u stay supportive er person exists believe mine engineer still support writing earlier bos finally abandoned knew frustrated thought brought enough table warrant continued loyalty loss self doubt never felt point difference cause much pain life every unable unwilling let roam free one cherish,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Hi everyone.  I'm fairly convinced I have a form of ADHD (inattentive type) that causes me to space out constantly.  Because of my natural intelligence, I've always performed above average in school by cramming for tests at the last minute.  However, ADHD effects all aspects of my life.  I am constantly losing things, forgetting things, missing deadlines, forgetting responsibilities in my life.  The only reason I succeeded in school was fear of failure and the structured life my parents provided.  Now that I'm on my own, it's a daily struggle to finish even half of the things I have to do.

I've been seeing a psychologist on my college campus, and after 4 meetings and much discussion, filling out forms, etc. she recommended I see a psychiatrist.  I've scheduled an appointment for next week, but I'm really nervous.  Any advice for what to bring, how to talk to the doctor, etc.  Thanks so much guys.  I'm really afraid the doctor will see I did well and school and blow me off; I just can't live with myself anymore when I can't even focus or remember what my own girlfriend says to me.",adhd,hi everyone fairly convinced form adhd inattentive type cause space constantly natural intelligence always performed average school cramming test last minute however effect aspect life losing thing forgetting missing deadline responsibility reason succeeded fear failure structured parent provided daily struggle finish even half seeing psychologist college campus meeting much discussion filling etc recommended see psychiatrist scheduled appointment next week really nervous advice bring talk doctor thanks guy afraid well blow live anymore focus remember girlfriend say,0.01,Neutral
"I was diagnosed with ADHD 6 years ago at the age of 21. I went to a psych to get meds and help organizing my life (managing tasks and not living like a pig). I was referred to a counselor to help with with emotion regulation, but no help for my primary issue of not organizing things/not seeing things as messy.

Have any of you been able to find a counselor who helps with executive functioning? Or how should I explain to my current counselor that I need another form of therapy? I've seen personal organizers but clearly aren't covered under insurance.",adhd,diagnosed adhd year ago age went psych get med help organizing life managing task living like pig referred counselor emotion regulation primary issue thing seeing messy able find executive functioning explain current need another form therapy seen personal organizer clearly covered insurance,0.13,Moderately Positive
"So I figured out a mental trick to short circuit the 'I spend ages going round in circles in my head planning out a conversation and then filed it under 'done' and moved on and forgot I never actually had the conversation in real life' or 'I have done this and it is boring now so I throw it out the window and say something new and random' problem.

Don't have the full conversation. Plan the *steps*. Make a to do list of all things you want to say/cover/do, and *don't spend time planning out the minor details*. This means you have a rough checklist to guide you through, *and* that there is still something new to figure out so your brain is more engaged.

(You do need to catch yourself doing it, but often I know it's a problem, I just didn't know how to solve it, and this gives me a way to fix it).

Example:
I need to tell person to do the dishes. 

Option A: Spend two hours having the conversation in my head. Never actually have it or if I do have it, my hours of talking to myself aren't much help.

Option B: Plan out the things I need to cover; dishes, X times a week, using water, and then just take that list into the conversation. Have to have that conversation just to tick off all the points, so it feels more urgent and interesting.
",adhd,figured mental trick short circuit spend age going round circle head planning conversation filed done moved forgot never actually real life boring throw window say something new random problem full plan step make list thing want cover time minor detail mean rough checklist guide still figure brain engaged need catch often know solve give way fix example tell person dish option two hour talking much help week using water take tick point feel urgent interesting,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"I graduate with my bachelors degree today. Despite getting 3/4 of the way through before getting diagnosed I didn't fail a single class. 

Today I get the pleasure of sitting through a long boring ceremony with a short break where I awkwardly walk across a stage, shake some old guys hand and receive a particularly expensive piece of --paper-- goatskin parchment. 

To all of you who are currently studying, whether it is high school or PhD: you can do it!  this stranger on the Internet believes in you. ",adhd,graduate bachelor degree today despite getting way diagnosed fail single class get pleasure sitting long boring ceremony short break awkwardly walk across stage shake old guy hand receive particularly expensive piece paper goatskin parchment currently studying whether high school phd stranger internet belief,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"I find my symptoms and co-symptoms (anxiety/depression) too unbearable. And with no sign of the adhd getting any better and with some recent posts on here stating that it's unlikely things will get better(with age), i don't really have the desire to keep playing this pointless game. 

anyone else feel the same way at times?  

adhd really has no plus sides for me. I'm 25 and my life is a haze that goes where ever the wind blows me and now i've become unable to cope with basic living, ie; job, rent, food, friendships, family.  my only option is to be homeless or kill my self.  I don't really have any problem with being homeless but i know in 5-10 years i'll hate my self for it.  

I've been to doctors/psychiatrists and what not, but no one seems to take me seriously.. Bi-polar might be a problem but i have no way of knowing for sure. 

My only life line is going to school to study but i've dropped out of post secondary 5 times now, and i'm starting to realize maybe that adhders just can't make it in academia and i'm just too stupid. 

I'm so desperate that i've considered making meth(desoxyn) in my house just so i can feel normal.  I've also considered leaving a suicide note saying that adhd treatment should be more readily available for people like me.. 


anyways , i'm not quite sure what to do. 
",adhd,find symptom co anxiety depression unbearable sign adhd getting better recent post stating unlikely thing get age really desire keep playing pointless game anyone else feel way time plus side life haze go ever wind blow become unable cope basic living ie job rent food friendship family option homeless kill self problem know year hate doctor psychiatrist one seems take seriously bi polar might knowing sure line going school study dropped secondary starting realize maybe adhders make academia stupid desperate considered making meth desoxyn house normal also leaving suicide note saying treatment readily available people like anyways quite,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"I'm studying for part two of my medical school boards, and the test is only 6 days away.  I was doing well for a while, but now my pre-tests are starting to slip, and I'm getting **super frustrated.**

I'm on Adderall, and while it helps me focus, I still keep finding material I don't know.  **I never feel as if my results represent my level of understanding.**  Have any of you had issues with standardized testing, and were able to overcome it?  How?  What was your strategy?

Please, I'm getting desperate.  ",adhd,studying part two medical school board test day away well pre starting slip getting super frustrated adderall help focus still keep finding material know never feel result represent level understanding issue standardized testing able overcome strategy please desperate,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Just got my genetic test results and instead of flushing dopamine too quickly, my brain actually retains it more than average. I am so confused. Is it possible to have the opposite of a classic ADHD brain trait and still have ADHD? I have been on ritalin and it has totally changed my life for the better after years (decades, really) of struggle and frustration. So in a way, I guess the test results don't matter except that I don't want to be misdiagnosed. Is there anybody else out there in this situation?",adhd,got genetic test result instead flushing dopamine quickly brain actually retains average confused possible opposite classic adhd trait still ritalin totally changed life better year decade really struggle frustration way guess matter except want misdiagnosed anybody else situation,0.06,Moderately Positive
"How do you do it? Is it possible to try to get someone ""normal"" to know the feeling of having ADHD? I get looks from people like I'm mad. I try to say to them that I WANT to do all the things, but I can't DO any of them. I try to say I can't even enjoy video games because the interest disappears instantly. I try to say I simply CAN'T read or do work, because I simply fade away without knowing it. I can't listen because I daydream without consent or control. But nobody gets it. They think I'm lazy, dumb, and useless. They hear what I say, but none of it clicks. All excuses, get this bum away from me. How can one explain what ADHD is? Have you done it?",adhd,possible try get someone normal know feeling adhd look people like mad say want thing even enjoy video game interest disappears instantly simply read work fade away without knowing listen daydream consent control nobody think lazy dumb useless hear none click excuse bum one explain done,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"I just wrote in another post that if I were 22 again *I would live the fuck out of life*.

But this comes out of a daydream fantasy I have. You seen the film. You get to enter in a machine and get teleported back in time to replace yourself. And *this time* you *know what to do!* 

But it is nonsense. I realized that even if such a thing was possible, I wouldn't be better off. A second chance? I do not think I could somehow overcome my diagnoses or bypass them, or manage them differently. So i would be double frustrated as to why I *still* can't - and you fill it in. Approach that girl, do my homework, be social, have more friends. Learn guitar so that as I catch up with the time I left for my younger days, I'd be really good!

22 or 14. I would have to back in time farther, 10, 6? And then explain my issues clearly to parents. Force them to have me examined. More understanding, less dysfunction. More self-esteem, medication, better school results, re-enforcing cycles of self-worth. Belonging. Girls, a wife, kids. And the **ecstasy** of all those myriad problems people can have. Gawd I wanna fight with a wife about taking the trash out. The sincere **joy** of having a kid that turns out to have ADHD...or be just fine! The concept!

And what if...this already happened! That *I* already came back into myself to do it all over again. And that I forgot, as part of the process. Aah, the universe is laughing behind my back. 

Regret is *the* single-most annihilating, brutal human emotion. The acid that draws blisters on the soul and in which you burn in an ocean of fire, the very substance out of which a devil would craft a hell.

And as such necessarily the most divine of inspirations. Can't you tell?

",adhd,wrote another post would live fuck life come daydream fantasy seen film get enter machine teleported back time replace know nonsense realized even thing possible better second chance think could somehow overcome diagnosis bypass manage differently double frustrated still fill approach girl homework social friend learn guitar catch left younger day really good farther explain issue clearly parent force examined understanding le dysfunction self esteem medication school result enforcing cycle worth belonging wife kid ecstasy myriad problem people gawd wanna fight taking trash sincere joy turn adhd fine concept already happened came forgot part process aah universe laughing behind regret single annihilating brutal human emotion acid draw blister soul burn ocean fire substance devil craft hell necessarily divine inspiration tell,0.05,Moderately Positive
"We miss deadlines, and as ADHD people, we miss a lot of deadlines or forget shit even existed until two weeks later. I'm annoyed of this, and need a better app to keep track of my life and all the stuff I have to do. Does anyone have any suggestions? I use apple calandra as of right now but that app sucks. ",adhd,miss deadline adhd people lot forget shit even existed two week later annoyed need better app keep track life stuff anyone suggestion use apple calandra right suck,0.04,Neutral
"My first psychiatrist prescribed 80mg of Strattera per day. And due to change in my country of residence, I was introduced to a new psychiatrist, and the new one is recommending Strattera 80mg and Concerta 36mg .... Have anybody here got the same or similar prescription? Any side effects, I need to worry about?",adhd,first psychiatrist prescribed mg strattera per day due change country residence introduced new one recommending concerta anybody got similar prescription side effect need worry,0.07,Moderately Positive
"From what I'm seeing, Concerta and its generic comes in the following strengths: 18mg, 27mg, 36mg, and 54mg. 

But there [is also a 20mg](https://www.drugs.com/imprints/k76-23326.html) extended release Methylphenidate. 

Is this pretty much the same as the other generic Concerta, except 2 more mg than the 18mg? I just find it weird that it's 2mg off and makes me wonder if there's any other difference and what the explanation might be. ",adhd,seeing concerta generic come following strength mg also extended release methylphenidate pretty much except find weird make wonder difference explanation might,-0.01,Neutral
"I can't remember my passwords to everything as there are too many, so I got a password app. I set it up yesterday, and just went to log in. I've forgotten the password. I have no idea what it is. And now all my other passwords are locked away, 'cause I ripped up the random bits of paper they were on. Fuck my fucking life.

Edit: more concise",adhd,remember password everything many got app set yesterday went log forgotten idea locked away cause ripped random bit paper fuck fucking life edit concise,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"I need to start seeing a doctor in Sydney so I can continue my medication now that I live here- I’ve anecdotally been told most psychiatrists don’t treat adult ADHD with medication, but I’d like to just keep going on the same script. If anyone has a doctor that they find listens to them and allows for active participation in care, please let me know! Feel free to PM if you prefer. ",adhd,need start seeing doctor sydney continue medication live anecdotally told psychiatrist treat adult adhd like keep going script anyone find listens allows active participation care please let know feel free pm prefer,0.13,Moderately Positive
I've been on Adderall xr 15mg for the past months. Although I've noticed some benefits they're aren't as great as I had hoped. Is this as good as it gets or should I pursue a higher dose? or perhaps a new medication all together?,adhd,adderall xr mg past month although noticed benefit great hoped good get pursue higher dose perhaps new medication together,0.33,Moderately Positive
"So I would like to play some PC games on occasion, I.E. Starcraft 2. The problem is that my only PC is my laptop which I take to work everyday. It is essential that I do not have access to video games during the workday due to my ADHD issues. Does anyone know of a way that I can limit my access either with a time limiter (as I do to my internet) or by installing SC2 partially on an external HD which I leave at home? Thank you!",adhd,would like play pc game occasion starcraft problem laptop take work everyday essential access video workday due adhd issue anyone know way limit either time limiter internet installing sc partially external hd leave home thank,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"Hey everyone, I'm dealing with a late diagnosis at the age of 20 (though I've known for years but was prevented from testing by parent's denial) and am now researching medications in order to discuss different options with my doctor. 

I've always had an issue with ADD medications due to their amphetamine status, and recently my friend who's also diagnosed and dealing with ADD told me about Strattera, which I'm sure most of you know is a non-stimulant, but has a pricing difference of $180/month vs. $60/month for something like Dexedrine here in Canada.

My only concern is that every resource I've read about Strattera uses words like ""may provide relief for ADHD symptoms"" or ""Is believed to treat.."" which concerns me that the research is incomplete. If I'm going to be paying the price of financing a new compact car every month for my meds, I want them to work and be safe for me.

Could anyone speak to their experiences with the drug, and tell me how it compares to a stimulant based treatment?",adhd,hey everyone dealing late diagnosis age though known year prevented testing parent denial researching medication order discus different option doctor always issue add due amphetamine status recently friend also diagnosed told strattera sure know non stimulant pricing difference month v something like dexedrine canada concern every resource read us word may provide relief adhd symptom believed treat research incomplete going paying price financing new compact car med want work safe could anyone speak experience drug tell compare based treatment,0.1,Moderately Positive
"I've smoked for about 10 years now, and I've quit once before but only for like three months. However I was not on adderall at the time, and the meds make me want to smoke like a chimney. 

It used to be about 4-5 cigarettes a day, but now I'm doing about half to a full pack a day. I work as a bartender so smoke breaks are really common, and it's really easy to smoke more when I'm bored at work. Plus adding on a few shots doesn't help either. 

Combining the meds, boredom, and booze I feel like it's impossible. 

Just wondering if anyone has had success with quitting and how you did it? ",adhd,smoked year quit like three month however adderall time med make want smoke chimney used cigarette day half full pack work bartender break really common easy bored plus adding shot help either combining boredom booze feel impossible wondering anyone success quitting,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Hope this isn't breaking any rules. I'm pretty certain I have ADHD as I deal with pretty much every inattentive symptom to the extreme but I'm terrified of asking my mother about getting a diagnosis or booking a GP appointment myself. I'm worried that I'm overthinking my symptoms and my GP won't think it's ADHD. Despite how much this affects me every second of every day I always worry that I've just been making it up and I'm just lazy. I'm scared that actually booking an appointment for this is silly and because of that I haven't even tried to book any kind of appointment before and I'm afraid I won't ever get the confidence. ADHD (maybe?) is seriously affecting my life and my future more and more with every day but I can't seem to push myself into doing anything about it. 

I'm wondering if any other ADHDers have had this problem, and if anyone has advice on how to get over it. 

TL;DR Want to get a diagnosis but too nervous bc I'm scared the symptoms are my fault and my GP will think I'm an idiot for suggesting ADHD",adhd,hope breaking rule pretty certain adhd deal much every inattentive symptom extreme terrified asking mother getting diagnosis booking gp appointment worried overthinking think despite affect second day always worry making lazy scared actually silly even tried book kind afraid ever get confidence maybe seriously affecting life future seem push anything wondering adhders problem anyone advice tl dr want nervous bc fault idiot suggesting,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"I looked at the bottle and it said D-Amphetamine Salt Combo is there a difference between that and actual Aderall. 

How long does it take to work? 

And how does it effect you normally? ",adhd,looked bottle said amphetamine salt combo difference actual aderall long take work effect normally,0.03,Neutral
"Not specifically because of the medication making you lose weight. But how successful have others gotten in their weight-loss goals and weight management abilities after starting ADHD medication? If that makes sense? I am starting testing for ADHD on the 18th. I am pretty sure I have been this way since elementary school. My mother was just not very supportive emotionally and just told me I was weird and not smart enough.

32/f with ADHD and kids you are both ADHD and Autistic. ",adhd,specifically medication making lose weight successful others gotten loss goal management ability starting adhd make sense testing th pretty sure way since elementary school mother supportive emotionally told weird smart enough kid autistic,0.16,Moderately Positive
"I'm not going to attribute all of my procrastination and disorganisation to ADHD... I have a range of other issues as well relating to perfectionism and anxiety (probably a result of how much of my self worth derived from my academic success) Although ADHD probably accentuates all of these deeper, underlying issues.

Anyway, long story short I might fail my favourite subject due to my excessive procrastination... and also because of how fucking depressed I've been this past month... but I can't blame it just on that, since I've always been a master procrastinator. Anyway, I think the subject tutor will be quite understanding, especially considering I did well in my first assignment... and he is incredibly nice. But I don't know. I guess I might fail... which is putting me under a lot of fucking anxiety.

Though I am proud of myself because instead of continually avoiding the problem, I emailed the tutor back within 15 or so minutes of receiving it... so that's a good start. It's just extremely frustrating because I'm so fucking capable, yet so inept at the same time... because of the fucking pathways in my brain.

I don't know - feel free to share similar experiences or whatever or advice or anything just so I can feel a little better but even if I do fail, okay whatever, but goddamn I really do not want to fail. I also don't want to succumb to self hatred again either. I really fucking hate this. I feel like a dysfunctional, manic, hyperactive retard :(

EDIT: and now I'm having a massive fucking identity crisis and am going absolutely insane and also just took a Valium so I feel insanely disorientated and depressed goddamn it help",adhd,going attribute procrastination disorganisation adhd range issue well relating perfectionism anxiety probably result much self worth derived academic success although accentuates deeper underlying anyway long story short might fail favourite subject due excessive also fucking depressed past month blame since always master procrastinator think tutor quite understanding especially considering first assignment incredibly nice know guess putting lot though proud instead continually avoiding problem emailed back within minute receiving good start extremely frustrating capable yet inept time pathway brain feel free share similar experience whatever advice anything little better even okay goddamn really want succumb hatred either hate like dysfunctional manic hyperactive retard edit massive identity crisis absolutely insane took valium insanely disorientated help,-0.04,Neutral
"Laptop has no battery, has to be plugged in. Worked since breakfast on a graphics project. Saved at lunch. Came unplugged half an hour ago, because people weren't paying attention where they were shoving vacuum cleaners.

I'm ticked off, but kind of glad I'm ticked off. Didn't yell at anyone, and I'm getting back to work on it instead of being depressed.

Just hope I can get it done before the meds wear off. Otherwise I'll be out of it until tomorrow morning.

Grrr.

EDIT: Done. Unhappy with the time it took, but successful.",adhd,laptop battery plugged worked since breakfast graphic project saved lunch came unplugged half hour ago people paying attention shoving vacuum cleaner ticked kind glad yell anyone getting back work instead depressed hope get done med wear otherwise tomorrow morning grrr edit unhappy time took successful,0.04,Neutral
"I have so many things I need to do. Finding a doctor, renewing my licence, actually cleaning the apartment, figure out what I'm doing about school, get on meds...the list goes on. I have been procrastinating for way too long. Though I'm sure it's also linked to my depression/ lack of motivation to do just about anything, ever. How do I start being more productive and getting things done?",adhd,many thing need finding doctor renewing licence actually cleaning apartment figure school get med list go procrastinating way long though sure also linked depression lack motivation anything ever start productive getting done,0.24,Moderately Positive
"I was prescribed my first ADHD medication a little over a month ago. I was on Ritalin 20mg, twice a day. I didn't feel like it was doing anything, so my doctor switched me to Adderall, 20mg twice a day. I've been taking it for a little less than a week.

I haven't felt any beneficial effects. No clarity of thought, no rush of energy, no increased determination... nothing. 

While on Ritalin, I also didn't feel like it was helping my ADHD, but I did feel an increase in energy and my body felt like it was trying to work faster than I needed it to. But nothing mentally, really. 

Has this happened to anyone else? Is 20mg a small dose? And even if it is, shouldn't I feel something?",adhd,prescribed first adhd medication little month ago ritalin mg twice day feel like anything doctor switched adderall taking le week felt beneficial effect clarity thought rush energy increased determination nothing also helping increase body trying work faster needed mentally really happened anyone else small dose even something,0.0,Neutral
"I am curious to find out what the most effective way for you to take your medicine is. I personally use Adderall XR. I have found that it works best for me when I take it on an empty stomach with a full glass of water, first thing in the AM. 

I realize this might vary with certain meds, but what works for you? 

Also have you found that you avoid certain foods, intentionally, while on the medication?

Please list your medication and dosage in the post if possible. ",adhd,curious find effective way take medicine personally use adderall xr found work best empty stomach full glass water first thing realize might vary certain med also avoid food intentionally medication please list dosage post possible,0.25,Moderately Positive
"Haven't tried any other adhd meds so I'm somewhat optimistic, just wanted to hear some stories about what other people have gone through. Should I keep trying different meds until I'm functional 90% of the time, or is that just a pipe dream?",adhd,tried adhd med somewhat optimistic wanted hear story people gone keep trying different functional time pipe dream,0.0,Neutral
"Like the title says, I took my meds at 10am this morning and then just got a call to come in for 730PM-730AM. I take Dexedrine 25mg once a day in the AM. I haven't been in this position yet and I know I'll be a dumb zombie by the time I'm a couple hours into my shift. Already emailed my psych but he takes forever to get back. 

Any advice?",adhd,like title say took med morning got call come pm take dexedrine mg day position yet know dumb zombie time couple hour shift already emailed psych forever get back advice,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"I have reason to suspect I have ADHD or something along those lines. Is there any scientific testing to determine if this is so? Are ADHD diagnosis's entirely made based on patient history? 

I'm interested in being tested, but I'm somewhat sceptical of a diagnosis not based on some kind of objective testing.

Finally, does anyone know of a place in Toronto in Canada that does this kind of testing?

Thanks
",adhd,reason suspect adhd something along line scientific testing determine diagnosis entirely made based patient history interested tested somewhat sceptical kind objective finally anyone know place toronto canada thanks,0.18,Moderately Positive
"It helps me remember whether or not I took a pill, at least.",adhd,help remember whether took pill least,-0.3,Moderately Negative
"Hey everyone. I'm unmedicated and not interested in medication, so please don't recommend any thanks!

I notice when I'm talking to someone I'll get distracted by my surroundings a lot and it will come off like I'm not interested in them. Also sometimes I'll get kind of stuck on one particular thing and can't divert. Like their shirt has a cool logo, that's all I'll talk about, and then ask them what school they went to four times cause I'm never listening when they tell me.

What do?",adhd,hey everyone unmedicated interested medication please recommend thanks notice talking someone get distracted surroundings lot come like also sometimes kind stuck one particular thing divert shirt cool logo talk ask school went four time cause never listening tell,0.31,Moderately Positive
So many ADHDers are depressed and feel like their lives are out of control. I *know* there must be some among us who are managing. What are the big things that really improved your quality of life?,adhd,many adhders depressed feel like life control know must among u managing big thing really improved quality,0.23,Moderately Positive
Just wanted to share with someone :),adhd,wanted share someone,0.0,Neutral
"It explains why bullet journalling works so well for me (ADHD-PI unmedicated sadly). 

[Here's](https://youtu.be/ym6OYelD5fA) a link to a great TEDx video where he talks about some great organizing ideas and how to sort through thoughts and goals to get rid of the chaff!",adhd,explains bullet journalling work well adhd pi unmedicated sadly link great tedx video talk organizing idea sort thought goal get rid chaff,0.15,Moderately Positive
"""We derailed the 07:21 train as planned. Why wasn't he on there?""  
""He missed the train because he spent 20 minutes looking for his phone while using it as a flashlight""

\-

""Boss, we waited for him on central street for an hour. This is the shortest way to his work, why didn't he show up?""  
""He thought he heard a cool bird and took a 2km detour to follow it.""

\-

""Our source confirmed that he planned to meet up with his friend at 19:30. Where is he?""  
""He kinda was on autopilot thinking about a programming problem, and went home by accident""",adhd,derailed train planned missed spent minute looking phone using flashlight bos waited central street hour shortest way work show thought heard cool bird took km detour follow source confirmed meet friend kinda autopilot thinking programming problem went home accident,0.16,Moderately Positive
"My ADHD medication went missing from my bag at work. I had left it my bag and realized it when I got home. I work at a restaurant and I believe one of the employees took it out of my bag during my shift.

I had nearly three weeks left on my prescription and now this happens. This is really embarrassing and I don't know what to do. Do I tell my store owner both outing my condition and highlighting my egregious mistake? Do I just sit content for the next three weeks until my renewal? Is there a liability for my medication being out there?

If I were to file a police report, what would happen? Would they file it away like a missing bike and never do anything with the only thing know being that they know I'm missing my bike per say?

Would they contact the people working that day and ask about it? Would they review the store tapes? Would they have to mention that it was stolen from me? Is this really the way to go?

Honestly, I haven't a clue. This never happened to me before. What should I do?

 Thank you. ",adhd,adhd medication went missing bag work left realized got home restaurant believe one employee took shift nearly three week prescription happens really embarrassing know tell store owner outing condition highlighting egregious mistake sit content next renewal liability file police report would happen away like bike never anything thing per say contact people working day ask review tape mention stolen way go honestly clue happened thank,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else here experience this? I have a lot of experience with recording music but it’s boring now. I love to do it but it’s just boring so I get ideas for other things, get super excited, and usually give up when I can’t figure out how to start it or I realize that it’s not worth it or whatever. For example I wanted to get into freelance writing I stopped, I wanted to start my own blog stopped, wanting to learn programming stopped, wanted to start graphic design stopped. Nothing can really interest me for long and I don’t see myself doing one thing for a long Time.

Also I’m always thinking about what I should be doing but I never do anything. I feel like I waste my days away sitting in the house, on the computer blah blah. There’s really nothing to do imo. I like nature but I’ve been to all of the nature trails and parks near me. 

Life is weird, is this something else linked with my adhd?
I just got prescribes Adderall again, it may be too low because when I’m on it I can hyper focus but only on things that excite me. 

Sorry for the rant guys. I’m ok. ",adhd,anyone else experience lot recording music boring love get idea thing super excited usually give figure start realize worth whatever example wanted freelance writing stopped blog wanting learn programming graphic design nothing really interest long see one time also always thinking never anything feel like waste day away sitting house computer blah imo nature trail park near life weird something linked adhd got prescribes adderall may low hyper focus excite sorry rant guy ok,-0.01,Neutral
"diagnosed w/ ADHD & depression at 21; now i'm 29. wellbutrin, adderall, strattera, and concerta have all helped somewhat, but only a little bit.

here's my problem:

the act of learning -- of encountering new information and putting it in my brain -- feels like i'm scooping skinny noodles of angel hair pasta into a wide-holed colander. it all slips out. it's like, i know i can learn information and even briefly memorize things -- i go to great lengths to do this, even transcribing news articles word for word -- but it's always a fleeting and impermanent experience. and more importantly, this phenomenon seems to exert far more influence on my day-to-day life than does the more typical ADHD tendency to get distracted easily.

does any1 else here feel this way? how do u cope? it's effing up my life.",adhd,diagnosed adhd depression wellbutrin adderall strattera concerta helped somewhat little bit problem act learning encountering new information putting brain feel like scooping skinny noodle angel hair pasta wide holed colander slip know learn even briefly memorize thing go great length transcribing news article word always fleeting impermanent experience importantly phenomenon seems exert far influence day life typical tendency get distracted easily else way cope effing,0.09,Moderately Positive
"[""Your Life Can Be Better, Using strategies for adult ADD/ADHD"" by Douglas A. Puryear.](http://www.amazon.com/Your-Better-Using-strategies-adult/dp/1937600432)

I started reading this a couple days ago and I love it. The author is a psychiatrist who has ADHD and he draws from his own very relatable experiences when talking about strategies. 

Example: He has one system that uses different colored index cards to organize his todo's and make them more approachable. He uses a **red card**, an **orange card** and a **blue card** to signify how important the item is. The red card is the one he works off of, and he only lets **five items** on that card. Once he completes a red card item, it gets scratched off and an item from the orange card replaces it. 

I implemented this strategy in [Astrid](http://astrid.com) and I managed to get a bunch of things done that I've been putting off for *months*. Only allowing five items on my todo list has been brilliant as I don't get overwhelmed by the sheer amount of things I need to get done.

I highly recommend this book, especially if you're a kindle user and can grab it for $1.95.",adhd,life better using strategy adult add adhd douglas puryear started reading couple day ago love author psychiatrist draw relatable experience talking example one system us different colored index card organize todo make approachable red orange blue signify important item work let five completes get scratched replaces implemented astrid managed bunch thing done putting month allowing list brilliant overwhelmed sheer amount need highly recommend book especially kindle user grab,0.23,Moderately Positive
"Hi, this is my first time posting here, I hope this is okay! 
So I've been diagnosed with adhd about 3 or 4 years ago and I was prescribed Vyvanse to help with it. When I first started Vyvanse, I took it everyday because I assumed that's what you do with new meds, but my psychiatrist (psychologist? Never could remember the difference) at the time told me to take it when I wanted to. 
I was fine with that because it was giving me side effects I wasn't stoked about. And it seemed like it was losing effectiveness on me. 
My new psych says taking it as I want is indeed fine but I still wonder what it'd be like if I took it every day. Do any of you on Vyvanse take it every day? ",adhd,hi first time posting hope okay diagnosed adhd year ago prescribed vyvanse help started took everyday assumed new med psychiatrist psychologist never could remember difference told take wanted fine giving side effect stoked seemed like losing effectiveness psych say taking want indeed still wonder every day,0.22,Moderately Positive
"As an ADHDer who's never had a formal relationship, this is something I've always wondered. It's buzzed about in my mind recently whether I'd feel happier being with someone who understands the way my brain works and all the weight that comes with ADHD, or someone without it who is more capable of having a stable life, and I want to know firsthand from my ADHDers who have been there what they think.",adhd,adhder never formal relationship something always wondered buzzed mind recently whether feel happier someone understands way brain work weight come adhd without capable stable life want know firsthand adhders think,0.1,Moderately Positive
I feel like I am never really bored. I have so many different things I want to do all the time and I never really have a down minute do be bored and worry about what I want to do. Does anyone else have a similar experience? ,adhd,feel like never really bored many different thing want time minute worry anyone else similar experience,0.19,Moderately Positive
"On 25 mg Adderall XR and 50 mg Zoloft now. Never really had to increase the amount of Zoloft, probably because I don't have depression anymore, and my situations where I get super-anxious are ones where I can usually deal with it or go somewhere to calm down in a few minutes.

I'm rambling but I meant the question mainly in reference to the Adderall XR. After a few months, there's always that point where it starts to feel like it's not working as well as it should, wanted to know how you guys are when you hit that point (if at all) and what it's like for you guys to double-check whether it's the medicine tolerance or me just not sleeping/eating as well as I should.",adhd,mg adderall xr zoloft never really increase amount probably depression anymore situation get super anxious one usually deal go somewhere calm minute rambling meant question mainly reference month always point start feel like working well wanted know guy hit double check whether medicine tolerance sleeping eating,0.03,Neutral
"I have been always the kid who didn't fit in properly.I was active too hyper average grades . Used to ask interesting questions.
But was a social outcast .Been bullied mentally , socially, physically.
To this day I bare the effects of the bullying . Just wondered why they couldn't be more accepting",adhd,always kid fit properly active hyper average grade used ask interesting question social outcast bullied mentally socially physically day bare effect bullying wondered accepting,0.1,Moderately Positive
"About 6 years ago [I was 23ish], I did the ADD/ADHD testing at a local mental health clinic. I completely understand there is no one easy way to test for ADD, but I was kind of surprised with the methods of testing. After a series of tests, I came back with no diagnosis of ADD/ADHD, but was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. The doctor kept me on Vyvanse since it was therapeutic for me and helped with focus. He surmised that my inability to focus was induced by my anxiety. Yeah, maybe so.

My testing included being asked **several** mental health questions. Then a computerised thing where a series of letters would flash across the screen and I would have to hit the space bar only when an ""X"" appeared, and another test where the doctor would hold up a card that said [for example] ""blue"" but would be written in the color red... I'd have to say the color it appeared in (red) and not read the word. 

It really didn't shock me that I came back with a negative ADD diagnosis based on the methods they used for testing. Yes, the ""X"" test and the color test could be a little ""tricky"" and did require me to pay attention, but those tests are in general very short. I felt like maybe those types of tests were geared more towards kids, maybe? I don't know how to say this and be ""politically correct"", so no offense meant.... but, I'm not an idiot, I have no problem recognizing the letter ""X"" and acknowledging it by pressing the space bar. And once that test sped up, showing random letters quicker and quicker, it felt more like a test of ""hand/eye coordination"" than anything. As an adult, it just didn't seem like a good indicator of anything, really... especially ADD. Feel free to educate me if someone knows more about the ""science"" behind these tests than me.

I am the poster child for ADD. Including the lesser known symptoms that seem to be connected with the disorder. There's literally not one that I *don't* have. 

With that being said, I recently began thinking about all my symptoms and wondering if it's not ADD/ADHD as we know it (I mean, I *did* test negative), but instead the lingering effects of a ""brain injury"" from when I was young. 

When I was 5, my mom and brother were in the back yard practicing baseball while I was playing on a swing set nearby. I don't know why, but not thinking, I ran behind my brother right as he swung the bat. He didn't mean to, it was totally my fault, but he whacked me across the forehead full swing knocking me to the ground. It split my forehead open gushing blood, fractured my skull, and gave me a concussion. Went to the ER... got stitches...etc.

I can't help but wonder if the concussion to my frontal lobe at such a young, still developing age, is the reason for my ADHD mimicking symptoms. Including some pretty insane long duration sleep issues. People think I'm kidding, but if I don't set an alarm, I will sleep 15+ hours. Even then, I can still go back to sleep within minutes and sleep even longer. 

So, how were you tested for ADD? Anyone that came back negative? Thoughts on concussion having lingering effects?

Tl;dr: Thoughts on the tests used to diagnose ADD/ADHD being inadequate for adults. Also, theory on childhood concussion to frontal lobe being the cause of symptoms.

",adhd,year ago ish add adhd testing local mental health clinic completely understand one easy way test kind surprised method series came back diagnosis diagnosed generalized anxiety disorder doctor kept vyvanse since therapeutic helped focus surmised inability induced yeah maybe included asked several question computerised thing letter would flash across screen hit space bar appeared another hold card said example blue written color red say read word really shock negative based used yes could little tricky require pay attention general short felt like type geared towards kid know politically correct offense meant idiot problem recognizing acknowledging pressing sped showing random quicker hand eye coordination anything adult seem good indicator especially feel free educate someone science behind poster child including lesser known symptom connected literally recently began thinking wondering mean instead lingering effect brain injury young mom brother yard practicing baseball playing swing set nearby ran right swung bat totally fault whacked forehead full knocking ground split open gushing blood fractured skull gave concussion went er got stitch etc help wonder frontal lobe still developing age reason mimicking pretty insane long duration sleep issue people think kidding alarm hour even go within minute longer tested anyone thought tl dr diagnose inadequate also theory childhood cause,0.0,Neutral
"I lost financial aid due to bad grade/skipping classes. I had problems in school my entire life and I honestly thought I was just a lazy person with no hope. Within the last year I've realized all the symptoms I had, went to a psych. and eventually got diagnosed with ADHD. I just got my medication and was wondering if this would help me get my financial aid back... I REALLY want to go back to school.",adhd,lost financial aid due bad grade skipping class problem school entire life honestly thought lazy person hope within last year realized symptom went psych eventually got diagnosed adhd medication wondering would help get back really want go,-0.03,Neutral
"So I have let my life pass me by for too long and over the last few months, pressure has been building up inside me (moral and spiritual, not...physical) and I am wanting to get my life put back together more and more. Problem is I don't have insurance. (Tl;dr on my past - was diagnosed ADD at like 8 years old, medicated for 8 years, stopped because I didn't like it and my life slowly unspooled from there)

So, I had to do math and I need a doctor to write a script and the visit will be $80. I started asking about my area and for good old fashioned ritalin, it will be an estimated $90+ per bottle. FML. Good news, if I go to costco I can get the generic bottle for $27. So that's nice.

Anyone here have tricks they use to make this process easier? This Dr. visit will be uncomfortable. I have been diagnosed with ADHD, but that was 10 years ago (was 20, now 30) by a psych and I don't know if my GP will accept my old diagnosis as still valid. If he doesn't I don't know what I'll do because *as far as I'm aware* I need a psych eval to determine if I still have it and I can't afford that. Hell this $80 Dr. visit is taking a few weeks of saving.

I hate being poor, I want to get myself put back together, but the one tool that can help me is only accessible if I have the money to burn on an expensive test. AAAAHHHHH!",adhd,let life pas long last month pressure building inside moral spiritual physical wanting get put back together problem insurance tl dr past diagnosed add like year old medicated stopped slowly unspooled math need doctor write script visit started asking area good fashioned ritalin estimated per bottle fml news go costco generic nice anyone trick use make process easier uncomfortable adhd ago psych know gp accept diagnosis still valid far aware eval determine afford hell taking week saving hate poor want one tool help accessible money burn expensive test aaaahhhhh,-0.04,Neutral
"This isn't in any way meant to be scientific, or informative, but I feel that we all need a little bit of positivity at times, especially when it seems like every day we live in this constant fear of making mistakes, forgetting important tasks, and ignorantly doing things at the detriment of ourselves and others.

ADHD is hard. it is very fucking hard. My apologies to the guy born without legs (Man you condition is about ten thousand times worse than mine, and I am thankful I was born with nothing worse than ADHD), but this illness is hard to deal with because of how transparent it is. Having observed the day-to-day lives of our peers has eventually given us the realization and self-assurance, that we are in fact very different from our peers, and that our brains don't work the same as everyone else. Yet, we are most often held to the same standard as everyone else. We get labelled as smart-but lazy, careless, or just as people who have major attitude problems.

So this leads me to the part where I try to be optimistic. Despite every fuck-up, every setback, every time I have been ridiculed, every time I have let others and more importantly myself down, Every period of time I have lived in mediocrity and have been unaware of it, I still solemnly believe that there is a light to the end of this tunnel, pardon the cliche. I do believe that there will be a day where I can look back and say, ""Man I have conquered this illness of mine and made it my bitch"". Why can I say that? Because when I look back at the past two years, I can honestly say that overall, I have become much beter at managing my ADHD and more importantly, I have cultivated a stronger sense of self-awareness to help me fight ADHD. This leads me to my next point.

This fight has no shortcuts. Its like learning to play an instrument. There is no lesson book that can take you from beginner to expert in the span of a month. This fight is multi-stepped and takes years. Think about how strong the human habit is, it doesn't take a neuroscientist to know that changing ones natural disposition takes years. There are no shortcuts, it will never be as easy as ""just sit down and do your work"", medication as we have learned, is a treatment but not a cure. However, looking back to where I was two years ago, and how much more I depended on medication back then, I can honestly say I know there will be a day in the far future where this illness won't be on my mind every day, and won't be something that I have to fixate on. 

TLDR; ADHD can be overcome, but we got to be tortoises and not hares. ",adhd,way meant scientific informative feel need little bit positivity time especially seems like every day live constant fear making mistake forgetting important task ignorantly thing detriment others adhd hard fucking apology guy born without leg man condition ten thousand worse mine thankful nothing illness deal transparent observed life peer eventually given u realization self assurance fact different brain work everyone else yet often held standard get labelled smart lazy careless people major attitude problem lead part try optimistic despite fuck setback ridiculed let importantly period lived mediocrity unaware still solemnly believe light end tunnel pardon cliche look back say conquered made bitch past two year honestly overall become much beter managing cultivated stronger sense awareness help fight next point shortcut learning play instrument lesson book take beginner expert span month multi stepped think strong human habit neuroscientist know changing one natural disposition never easy sit medication learned treatment cure however looking ago depended far future mind something fixate tldr overcome got tortoise hare,-0.03,Neutral
"One month later, Concerta has began losing effect for me, and even thought in a few weeks I will see my Shrink again for follow up and dosage adjustments, I fear that symptoms coming back again in a future will always be a recurring thing.

Lately I have been working on an an ADHD ""Plan B"", since I am able to feel the symptoms again but they are weak enough to analyse them and find coping mechanisms that work. I have improved on procrastrination by distraction removal to a point that I'm building good habits, I can keep the storm of random thoughts inside my brain under control when I need to focus, and I can resist the urge to take a small break that will turn into a whole lost hour. So far, so good. Heck, I even have a good journaling system that is working much better than my old Moleskine weekly planner.


But there's that one little thing I can't fix: Heavy daydreaming. While Ritalin and Concerta worked, I was able to daydream in a normal way: I'd realise it was happening after a few seconds and stop it. Now it's the kind that when it happens, your brain goes offline until an alarm brings it back much later.

And I don't know how to solve this one. While the others symptoms were all about knowing why they happen and what disarms them, this happens for almost no reason. It took me some considerable time until I was able to ""Be in the zone"" and nullify the daydreaming and complete the final lesson of the course. Maybe there's something about making an annoying task interesting or challenging enough to get your focus onto it, but I just can't hit the nail.


Tomorrow I'm doing a 3 days drug vacation to see if I can decrease tolerance a bit  since the ""studying and understanding"" part is over and the next days will be about practical exercises, revieweing and memorising / practising exam questions with a study group, which makes things far more dynamic and engaging, so I should not have to worry (for now).",adhd,one month later concerta began losing effect even thought week see shrink follow dosage adjustment fear symptom coming back future always recurring thing lately working adhd plan since able feel weak enough analyse find coping mechanism work improved procrastrination distraction removal point building good habit keep storm random inside brain control need focus resist urge take small break turn whole lost hour far heck journaling system much better old moleskine weekly planner little fix heavy daydreaming ritalin worked daydream normal way realise happening second stop kind happens go offline alarm brings know solve others knowing happen disarms almost reason took considerable time zone nullify complete final lesson course maybe something making annoying task interesting challenging get onto hit nail tomorrow day drug vacation decrease tolerance bit studying understanding part next practical exercise revieweing memorising practising exam question study group make dynamic engaging worry,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Anyone here thinks that ADHD is one of the reasons why you smoke? I feel like it helps the boredom and the restlessness, because when your out in the street and there is nothing to do, it's great so smoke one, and it also creates a moment to relax my mind and to reflect on stuff, which is something I normaly struggle with because my mind is always going a bit too fast. Obviously I know it's bad for me but I love it, and feel like it helps me in a way to relax.",adhd,anyone think adhd one reason smoke feel like help boredom restlessness street nothing great also creates moment relax mind reflect stuff something normaly struggle always going bit fast obviously know bad love way,0.16,Moderately Positive
"So, this is more of a rant than anything, but...DAE here have this issue as well?

My story:

I have been working for 8 years now - I took long to find out what I wanted to study in the first place - and have been working for 4 different companies now.

I am currently working on a limited contract at an automotive supplier that will not be extended or made indefinite due to a restructuring within that company, and my employment will be over in August.

The one before (also automotive supplier), I left because I got married to my then LDR guy, but I worked there for 3,5 years.

Before that, I was employed at a temp agency as a last resort (customer service), because before that, I was employed (first job) at a company (varnishes and glues for food-industy related products) that realized they needed someone else with different qualifications (think sales and acquisition vs. website maintenance and office work).

I am beyond stressed out that despite my hard work in all of those companies, I am once more out of a job. I am also aware that the industry I have been working in for the last five years is usually rather stressful, which normally means that whatever job I have leaves me tired, strung-out and mopey when I come home. (Before anyone asks, yes, I am on medication and their level is right for me - I got to test that out during the last 12 years.  Taking a year off is also not in the cards for me due to limited funds).

Now, I am wondering if it is maybe not that I am bad at my job *as such* but rather that I made the wrong decision with my degree.

All of that would not be too bad, because you can always switch industries, right?

I feel, however, that with my experience in various industries in the last years, it might not be *them*, it might be *me*. It doesn't help that I am so tired usually that I don't really have any hobbies that might be turned into a job. I mostly like to read and sing in a choir.

I am also aware that there are several tools, mostly online, that help you figure out which job might be the best for you - however, whenever I do one of those, the results tend to vary wildly due to my having eaten lunch, time of test-taking, general level of anxiety, and last night's dreams.

As such, my job suggestions vary between manager - gardener - nurse - shepard - writer - secretary - fill-in-your-own-suggestion type of work.

So, I guess my question is: how have you found your niche? Do you have any new suggestions for me how I might find out what kind of job suits me? I really want to find something that will work for me (and my husband) in the long run, I am tired of starting over again and again without any financial security.

TL; DR:
Have degree, am willing to work, have been working in various industries during the last 8 years. Now I have to find a new job **again** due to my company restructuring, and am wondering if the mental and physical fatigue is due to whatever job I am working in, and how to find out what else is there for me when I am not even sure where my strengths lie?

Thanks for reading and maybe even advice!

How did *you* find your job that you like?",adhd,rant anything dae issue well story working year took long find wanted study first place different company currently limited contract automotive supplier extended made indefinite due restructuring within employment august one also left got married ldr guy worked employed temp agency last resort customer service job varnish glue food industy related product realized needed someone else qualification think sale acquisition v website maintenance office work beyond stressed despite hard aware industry five usually rather stressful normally mean whatever leaf tired strung mopey come home anyone asks yes medication level right test taking card fund wondering maybe bad wrong decision degree would always switch feel however experience various might help really hobby turned mostly like read sing choir several tool online figure best whenever result tend vary wildly eaten lunch time general anxiety night dream suggestion manager gardener nurse shepard writer secretary fill type guess question found niche new kind suit want something husband run starting without financial security tl dr willing mental physical fatigue even sure strength lie thanks reading advice,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Who else does that? I'm literally enrolled in over 10 courses on Udemy but I can't manage to stick to a single one, some random topic / course would just grab my attention I go ahead and press enroll with good intent to stick, but that ends up not happening.",adhd,else literally enrolled course udemy manage stick single one random topic would grab attention go ahead press enroll good intent end happening,0.04,Neutral
"Hello everybody!
I was wondering if anybody has any ebooks on epub format that they can share or reccomend.
cheers",adhd,hello everybody wondering anybody ebooks epub format share reccomend cheer,0.0,Neutral
"One of my symptoms to lead me to getting diagnosed, treatment, and medication (currently on generic adderall) is that I constantly am picking at myself. Yes, this sounds like I am sort of meth head (trust me I did this before ever doing adderall so its not the drugs).

It all started with chewing my nails. Fairly normal habit to have, especially at a young age. Do it cause of nervousness Ive always been told and in my head im thinking... But im not nervous right now? And still, I have never stopped.

Since then I have found that I chew cuticles, pick skin (especially scabs+zits if they are there), chew on inside of my lip, at one point I counted my teeth with my tongue over and over again (yes, I got the same amount every time...), and a few years ago I developed the worst thing yet. I yank out my eye brows. Started out slow, filled in a couple gaps when I did too much and for a couple years now I basicically draw on my brows... This is really hard to talk about because I am so insecure about them.

But basically, with a little more info than just my constant picking, I went and got tested and got medication. Things have improved, but the picking not necessarilly. At least it hasnt gotten worse.

Then I tried really really hard to pay attention to when and why I would pick. And honestly, its all the fucking time. And im starting to wonder if maybe I dont have as much ADHD issues, as anxiety issues. I have grown up being a very busy and involved child. I do have my breaks, so its not that I just need to ""slow down"". Even on vacations/breaks I do this. And right now, I have school and a job and am in a play, but I have some nice hours to myself quite a few times a week and yet I never stop the picking. And if I somehow tell myself to NOT FUCKING touch my brows, I will go to my nails. Then my cheeks, etc. 


Anyway, is the picking a form of anxiety? Im afraid to ask my doctor for both but I dont know about giving up my adderall precription yet either, cause it helps too.

Thanks for reading this far.

**TL;DR: I constantly pick at myself and absolutely cant stop. Pretty sure I have constant anxiety but I also think I have ADHD. What the hell do I do??**",adhd,one symptom lead getting diagnosed treatment medication currently generic adderall constantly picking yes sound like sort meth head trust ever drug started chewing nail fairly normal habit especially young age cause nervousness ive always told im thinking nervous right still never stopped since found chew cuticle pick skin scab zit inside lip point counted teeth tongue got amount every time year ago developed worst thing yet yank eye brow slow filled couple gap much basicically draw really hard talk insecure basically little info constant went tested improved necessarilly least hasnt gotten worse tried pay attention would honestly fucking starting wonder maybe dont adhd issue anxiety grown busy involved child break need even vacation school job play nice hour quite week stop somehow tell touch go cheek etc anyway form afraid ask doctor know giving precription either help thanks reading far tl dr absolutely cant pretty sure also think hell,0.0,Neutral
"I've been putting off a small contract. I got paid upfront and I figured it would be like 30 hours of work tops. I ran into some issues. This is why you should start early.  

I have slept about 8-12 hours in the last  three days. I am running on amphetamines and existential dread. The word ""component"" doesn't look real anymore (lol ReactJS). I caught myself doing some lazy, bad security shit in my exhaustion (AWS admin keys stored in the client baaaad) but the site doesn't go live for a while so I can fix it in the DL.

Website due for review in 3 hours. It *looks* done so that's probably gonna be okay, most clients focus on the pretty design and don't click on everything.... And I have another 1-2 weeks for testing and deployment.

Don't procrastinate kids. Don't do it. I'm so tired and wired. I'm gonna go to the meeting then crash the fuck out. Not even taking Dexadrine today. Maybe an IR 2.5mg for the meeting only.

I'm a *little* bit impressed at my ability to write a (mostly) functional 50k lines of code in 3 days. I'm also unimpressed with my time management.

Wish me luck.

Edit: **THEY FUCKING POSTPONED THE MEETING TO NEXT WEEK HOLY FUCK I HAD A WHOLE OTHER WEEK I DIDNT NEED TO GO CRAZY**

I guess it's good it's done as much as it is. I gotta fix up all my exhaustion code though...",adhd,putting small contract got paid upfront figured would like hour work top ran issue start early slept last three day running amphetamine existential dread word component look real anymore lol reactjs caught lazy bad security shit exhaustion aws admin key stored client baaaad site go live fix dl website due review done probably gonna okay focus pretty design click everything another week testing deployment procrastinate kid tired wired meeting crash fuck even taking dexadrine today maybe ir mg little bit impressed ability write mostly functional line code also unimpressed time management wish luck edit fucking postponed next holy whole didnt need crazy guess good much gotta though,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Good Morning! Ill just get right into it. Recently I was diagnosed with ADHD. I am in the Army and I was diagnosed about 7 months ago. I was taking Concerta and I hated it. I got to my new duty station and my new doctor put me on Adderall. Its been okay so far. I was originally given a lot of 5 Mg XR and 10 MG XR. I was told to start with 10 and go up by 5 till my next appointment which was a little more than a month. I ended up taking 40 Mg XR for about two days before my appointment and it was felt fine. I went to my doctor and told him, he told me I wasn't suppose to go to the maximum dosage and so he decided to give me 30 Mg XR and then have me taking 10 IR in the afternoon since I have been crashing before the day was over. Last Friday I didn't have to go into work until 1300 so I slept in till about 1100. I woke up and took the IR pill just to help me get through the rest of the day of work. Well, it was a horrible mistake. I had a horrible reaction to the IR pill. I was shaking and sweating and I felt just awful. I was terrified and anxious for the rest of the day. Its almost the afternoon where I am and I need to know if it was just because I hadn't taken my 30 Mg XR that I had the bad reaction, or if its because I just cant handle a 10 Mg IR. 

TL;DR Does it matter if I take my 30 XR pill before the 10 IR? or do I just have a bad reaction to the IR.  ",adhd,good morning ill get right recently diagnosed adhd army month ago taking concerta hated got new duty station doctor put adderall okay far originally given lot mg xr told start go till next appointment little ended two day felt fine went suppose maximum dosage decided give ir afternoon since crashing last friday work slept woke took pill help rest well horrible mistake reaction shaking sweating awful terrified anxious almost need know taken bad cant handle tl dr matter take,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"Recently diagnosed just wanna attempt to share some some of my own experience this past week on my medication.

Let me explain to you my ADHD first of all. For as long as I can remember i have always been a troublemaker. Always distracted. In my younger days K through 3rd grade i had excellent reading skills and almost was put into advanced courses. I believe my skills in reading came from a ""hyperfocus"" i had at the time. Because my reading helped me comprehend the cool sciency stuff i liked. Math and History did not quite catch my interest and i fell behind in those. 

From kinder to 8th grade and beyond i remember staying up for hours without any distractions just trying to get an hours worth of homework done, but it didnt work. My brain needed instant stimulation, instant gratification. Oh is that a pencil? Let me chew on it. Oh is that a book about frogs and how cool they are with pictures and quick facts? let me binge on that. 

In junior high I specifically remember one english class i would get kicked out of almost every single day. Sometimes i didnt even know why i was getting kicked out, i simply thought i was participating. 

In high school i remember countless teachers changing where i sit constantly to try to keep me from distracting other students, i guess i was somewhat of a class clown at times.  But i managed to get by by copying homework doing good on tests (reading, comprehension skills, context clues,).  

Come college i flunked out of community 3x. I also took their college skills class 3x and passes with an A every time. So i knew what to do i just couldnt do it!! I remember i would brew some coffee go to a room with zero distractions and would think to myself ""OK you made some coffee, this stuff is supposed to help you focus and get work done, this what all the people do when they cant focus.!"" And sometimes things would get done, but 9x out of 10 they wouldnt.

All my life since i can remember i have chewed my finger nails to till they would bleed and sting. People would be grossed out by it, my dad hated that i did that. But i could not stop no matter what i did the gross nail polish nope. Mavala stop, NOPE! I would just get used to the gross taste! So recently (im 24 now) i finally stopped biting my nails! But then i started chewing and peeling and picking the skin off my lips until they bleed a little too! Great! One fidget gone, replaced by another! How delightful LOL. 

OK THERES MORE BUT YEA Hyperactive as fuckkkk you get the point. I cant stop thinking moving i need instant stimulation, furious masturbation, smoking cigs no cessation, sex addict, smoking weed makes me panic.

FIRST WEEK ON MEDS!!!!!!!!!!

I havent chewed on my nails of my lips for these past 5 days.. maybe a finger will come near my mouth but now.. i notice it. And i can stop. And i can focus on.. my laundry.. or the dishes. I can choose to not look at my phone.. Or choose to not make a mess from being so eager to get the thing done that i cause a tornado LOL. 

My thoughts are more streamlined into my attention now. The other static spontaneoys thoughts are still there but i can CHOOSE to put them in standby. I can choose to not act on them before i even realize im acting or being dustracted. I can notice all the points throughout my day where i would normally be trumped by my hyperactive mind. I can calculate and plan things and execute them. And not make a mess, and be on time. And choose the more important or urgent task. 

I was smoking half a pack of cigarettes before. This week ive had one cigarette way after i have come down from my meda, gunna make it 0 soon.
I havent had any caffeine whatsoever all week. Before i was a caffeine addict. 
(2 or 3 sugar free) rockstars a day. 
If i didnt have this stimulation its the phone  or the food or the masturbation. 

The comedown is subtle, i realize its happening when i start acting like a juvenile sociopath again at work LOL. 
Thats it im tired 😴 



",adhd,recently diagnosed wanna attempt share experience past week medication let explain adhd first long remember always troublemaker distracted younger day rd grade excellent reading skill almost put advanced course believe came hyperfocus time helped comprehend cool sciency stuff liked math history quite catch interest fell behind kinder th beyond staying hour without distraction trying get worth homework done didnt work brain needed instant stimulation gratification oh pencil chew book frog picture quick fact binge junior high specifically one english class would kicked every single sometimes even know getting simply thought participating school countless teacher changing sit constantly try keep distracting student guess somewhat clown managed copying good test comprehension context clue come college flunked community also took pass knew couldnt brew coffee go room zero think ok made supposed help focus people cant thing wouldnt life since chewed finger nail till bleed sting grossed dad hated could stop matter gross polish nope mavala used taste im finally stopped biting started chewing peeling picking skin lip little great fidget gone replaced another delightful lol there yea hyperactive fuckkkk point thinking moving need furious masturbation smoking cigs cessation sex addict weed make panic med havent maybe near mouth notice laundry dish choose look phone mess eager cause tornado streamlined attention static spontaneoys still standby act realize acting dustracted throughout normally trumped mind calculate plan execute important urgent task half pack cigarette ive way meda gunna soon caffeine whatsoever sugar free rockstars food comedown subtle happening start like juvenile sociopath thats tired,0.14,Moderately Positive
"After benignly googling some behaviors of mine after a particularly difficult first year at college (to put it lightly), I came across a webpage about ADHD. I thought to myself that I couldn't possibly have it. I had diagnosed anxiety, OCD, and depression I couldn't possibly have this. ADHD was a mental illness that several rambunctious boys in my grade school obviously had, but not me, often commended for my calm behavior and good grades. 

 

I was convinced I was just lazy and depressed and that I needed to motivate myself to be more mindful of my possessions, motivate myself to do daily tasks and work, start early on projects.  But it was never that simple. Color coding everything and downloading every organizational app under the sun never improved my forgetfulness and my procrastination. I put off 4, 10-12 page papers that had been assigned day one of a class until the week they were due. I was constantly asking for homework extensions, even with a set homework schedule in most classes. My finances were in shambles. I felt like this was all my fault. My neurotypical roommate absolutely did not understand why I could not accomplish basic work or remember to bring her something of hers if she couldn't make it back to the dorm. I didn't know, either. As far as I was concerned it was all my fault and my failure to learn basic time management skills as a child/teenager. 

 

I read a few ADHD articles, mostly about how it manifests in adult women and saw myself described in eerily accurate ways. I finally talked to my mother about my concerns, about how I could check off almost every box in [this list](http://caddac.ca/adhd/wp-content/uploads/2017/03/Adult-ADHD-Symptoms-and-Red-Flags.pdf). And she told me that it sounded like talking to herself at my age. 

 

She was very receptive to me getting testing, and we quickly set up an appointment with a psychiatrist in my college's town. And oh, man the proof is in the family pudding. I come from a family with a rich mental health history (once again putting it *very* lightly), and it took one quick phone call to my aunt to figure out that she (who was diagnosed shortly after one of her kids) and a few of her children all have diagnosed ADHD...and that my mom shows symptoms exactly like my aunt...and I show symptoms exactly like my mom. It all made sense. I made sense. My mom's parenting style made sense.  

 

At first I was angry at my school for never screening its students. At my parents for not noticing. At my child psychiatrist for not believing half the things I said as a kid and slapping a big fat OCD label on a 9 y/o without much prior consultation. But that's all in the past now. I'm getting the help I need (and so is my mom), and I will hopefully be able to get the treatment necessary to succeed in ways I never imagined possible. 

 

TL;DR After struggling severely during my first year of college, I realized that I most likely have ADHD. Family history and self-screening have supported this idea about my mental health, and I'm finally shedding the guilt of feeling lazy and unmotivated while getting the help I need. ",adhd,benignly googling behavior mine particularly difficult first year college put lightly came across webpage adhd thought possibly diagnosed anxiety ocd depression mental illness several rambunctious boy grade school obviously often commended calm good convinced lazy depressed needed motivate mindful possession daily task work start early project never simple color coding everything downloading every organizational app sun improved forgetfulness procrastination page paper assigned day one class week due constantly asking homework extension even set schedule finance shamble felt like fault neurotypical roommate absolutely understand could accomplish basic remember bring something make back dorm know either far concerned failure learn time management skill child teenager read article mostly manifest adult woman saw described eerily accurate way finally talked mother concern check almost box list told sounded talking age receptive getting testing quickly appointment psychiatrist town oh man proof family pudding come rich health history putting took quick phone call aunt figure shortly kid mom show symptom exactly made sense parenting style angry screening student parent noticing believing half thing said slapping big fat label without much prior consultation past help need hopefully able get treatment necessary succeed imagined possible tl dr struggling severely realized likely self supported idea shedding guilt feeling unmotivated,0.07,Moderately Positive
"So 2 days ago I was diagnosed with add, she then prescribed 18 mg of Concerta. She told me if it has no effect on me for at least 3 days I could take 2 in the morning to equal 36 mg. I took 18 mg this morning and did not feel anything the whole day. Will this work the same as a 36 mg tablet?",adhd,day ago diagnosed add prescribed mg concerta told effect least could take morning equal took feel anything whole work tablet,-0.03,Neutral
"I've tried to explain to my boyfriend how it affects me, and he tends to respond with things like ""yeah, that happens to me too sometimes"". Sure, but these things happen to me every. single. day. 

It might be good ol' self-doubt creeping in again, but I feel like he doesn't believe or understand how much of a real problem ADHD is. I'd really like to send him something he could read to start to understand, because I kinda feel like I can't explain it to him from scratch without, like... undergoing the emotional strain of feeling like I have to justify my illness as real?

Any material you think is good for ADHD beginners would be greatly appreciated.",adhd,tried explain boyfriend affect tends respond thing like yeah happens sometimes sure happen every single day might good ol self doubt creeping feel believe understand much real problem adhd really send something could read start kinda scratch without undergoing emotional strain feeling justify illness material think beginner would greatly appreciated,0.25,Moderately Positive
"I'm an OIF veteran.  After I left the service I never bothered seeking any sort of health benefits from the VA.  In the years between then and now I've made significant use of the psychological health services offered on campus, but this will be ending shortly.

Was wondering if anyone else has gotten involved with the VA regarding adhd-like symptoms, or what the experience is like with them ... I've heard that since most people consider adhd to be something that arises in childhood, that b/c it is a pre-existing condition, they won't help.

thanks
",adhd,oif veteran left service never bothered seeking sort health benefit va year made significant use psychological offered campus ending shortly wondering anyone else gotten involved regarding adhd like symptom experience heard since people consider something arises childhood pre existing condition help thanks,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Long story: next month my SO will be 32 and I will be 29. We have been together for 5 years, lived together for 4. For a couple of years we had a lot of fights because he was simply not paying attention to me (immersed in hobbies), not helping around the house, and not listening to/remembering the things I said to him and/or asked him to do. Over time I got him to achieve a better balance between chores/hobbies/time spent at home, but it took a lot of arguing and ""hard evidence"" to make him see the light regarding those things.

He started helping out more around the house, and not taking off to ""play in the woods"" ALL the time anymore (he is a rock climber/we live in the mountains). He was more physically present and helpful, but he turned into an emotional wreck. He was depressed and every time we would fight he would say he wanted to kill himself. So naturally I was walking on eggshells unless something very serious came up. I am a very straightforward and no-nonsense person, so I felt like I was suppressing so much of myself trying to keep him from going into his black hole. I was silently taking on way too much responsibility and receiving forgotten promises in return. I felt trapped.

This past fall I could not take it anymore, and I told him he had to find help or move out temporarily to give me some space to breathe. After a month (the very last minute) he finally set up an appointment with a therapist that one of his best friends was seeing post-divorce.

He went alone to his first meeting. The therapist requested that I attend the second because he wasn't really able to tell her why he was there, other than ""my girlfriend is unhappy with me"" (?????). I did attend the second meeting, and we talked about how my SO was depressed and forgetful and seemingly only physically present in the relationship...almost completely unable to communicate wants/needs/feelings...prone to (sometimes scary and dangerous) angry outbursts/saying awful things that he claims he doesn't mean.

Apparently it didn't occur to her at the time that these could be symptoms of ADHD, which is fine because the idea did not occur to me until this past February. My SO had been in therapy for 6 months and things were not improving at all. I ended up spending the entire month of February in bed due to the exhaustion of living such a confusing life of broken and forgotten promises. By this point there was a bill I had been reminding him to pay for two months. TWO MONTHS! I started to google crazy things. ""Why can't my partner remember anything I say?"" ""Why does my partner say things and then claim he didn't say them 5 minutes later?"" ""Why can my partner remember the name of every single rock climb he's ever done, but can't remember to pay one bill on the SAME DAY every month even after being reminded several times???"" You get the idea.

Surprisingly, there were answers to my crazy google inquiries. Other people had partners with the same problems. The culprit was untreated adult ADHD, and my boyfriend displayed a majority of the classic symptoms. Our relationship was classic...I'd turned into his nagging parent. I immediately told him I thought he had ADHD and that he needed to bring up the possibility first thing at his next therapy session.

I was surprised when he exited said therapy session and said, ""Yep. She says I have ADD. But not the 'H' part."" This confused me for a couple of reasons. 1.) She is a psychologist, so I thought she'd refer him to a psychiatrist or doctor for an ADHD evaluation. She ""diagnosed"" him herself. Am I wrong in my belief that psychologists/therapists are not trained to give such a diagnosis? 2.) I've lived with the man for 4 years - he ""has the 'H' part.""

He went to several more sessions on his own, and then started asking me to come with him so I could ""hear about ways that I could help."" I was open to this. I understood that I was exhausted and exasperated and I myself wanted some relief.

Her suggestion, repeatedly for the past 3 sessions that we have attended together, is for me to act as his ""personal assistant, but not his mother."" I immediately was skeptical. It felt like the solution I was being offered was to enable him further (we do not need to get into how much money he owes me/how much debt I have forgiven him for, the fact that it's June and that bill from February STILL HASN'T BEEN PAID, among other things...). Needless to say, I have been hearing him say ""you should have reminded me"" a lot lately.

I know that our relationship is *already* co-dependent as it is. I feel like she is asking me to dig myself in deeper by keeping up with all of HIS adult shit! We aren't even married!!!!!!! Doesn't he need to learn how to function as an adult? He says he wants to own a business some day....who is gonna pay those bills for him because he never learned to do it????

TL; DR: 32 year-old boyfriend diagnosed with ADHD by his psychologist (??) six months ago, she says I can help him and our relationship dynamic by acting as ""his personal assistant, not his mother."" This feels like enabling and co-dependency to me, not a solution to him getting his life on track and living as a functioning adult. I also don't think she is taking his suicidal threats very seriously.",adhd,long story next month together year lived couple lot fight simply paying attention immersed hobby helping around house listening remembering thing said asked time got achieve better balance chore spent home took arguing hard evidence make see light regarding started taking play wood anymore rock climber live mountain physically present helpful turned emotional wreck depressed every would say wanted kill naturally walking eggshell unless something serious came straightforward nonsense person felt like suppressing much trying keep going black hole silently way responsibility receiving forgotten promise return trapped past fall could take told find help move temporarily give space breathe last minute finally set appointment therapist one best friend seeing post divorce went alone first meeting requested attend second really able tell girlfriend unhappy talked forgetful seemingly relationship almost completely unable communicate want need feeling prone sometimes scary dangerous angry outburst saying awful claim mean apparently occur symptom adhd fine idea february therapy improving ended spending entire bed due exhaustion living confusing life broken point bill reminding pay two google crazy partner remember anything later name single climb ever done day even reminded several get surprisingly answer inquiry people problem culprit untreated adult boyfriend displayed majority classic nagging parent immediately thought needed bring possibility session surprised exited yep add part confused reason psychologist refer psychiatrist doctor evaluation diagnosed wrong belief trained diagnosis man asking come hear open understood exhausted exasperated relief suggestion repeatedly attended act personal assistant mother skeptical solution offered enable money owes debt forgiven fact june still paid among needle hearing lately know already co dependent feel dig deeper keeping shit married learn function business gonna never learned tl dr old six ago dynamic acting enabling dependency getting track functioning also think suicidal threat seriously,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I'm giving a presentation on ADHD as part of my coursework and I was wondering if you guys could give me some insight into how you manage your ADHD. I know there is drug and behavioural therapy used to manage it but I'm more interested in techniques you have conjured up yourself as I know there are a lot of individual differences.

Also, I think it'll be useful for those who are looking for ideas to manage their own ADHD. ",adhd,giving presentation adhd part coursework wondering guy could give insight manage know drug behavioural therapy used interested technique conjured lot individual difference also think useful looking idea,0.18,Moderately Positive
"I've just been noticing that they seem a bit similar. I have ADHD (the inattentive type), but I've been wondering if perhaps I'm slightly autistic too.

For example, I had speech pathology all throughout elementary school, and I'm wondering whether this is more characteristic with autism/asperger's than it is with ADHD. Also, even now, sometimes it takes me a long time to learn how to pronounce a word (one reason I don't think I could ever pick up a second language). I'm also bad at interrupting and I'm a bit socially inept (at least I think so, my friends say I'm fine but a little quirky). I also read that autistic people like to argue/debate and tend to be analytic or rigid thinkers... well, that's me too, lol. So that's the social stuff... I don't know which is more characteristic of autism or ADHD, but they both seem to fit.

I was also a gullible kid, pretty oblivious to my surroundings, and had difficulty picking up jokes (especially sarcasm). I'm still not the best at detecting jokes or telling jokes even as an adult. Then I'm also quick to anger, forgetful, and fairly impulsive. I know these are ADHD traits, but, again, it seems appropriate for autism/asperger's too (at least the anger and impulsiveness).

Then I also have pretty bad anxiety - like I don't sleep if I'm worried even about the simplest thing (then spend hours or days procrastinating) or I have heart palpitations if I try to work faster when I'm worried about doing well; not to mention I'm a nervous driver. I know anxiety is a symptom of ADHD, but is it also a symptom of autism?

I also cannot sleep unless there is no noise and I'm at the perfect temperature. It drives my significant other nuts, lol.

",adhd,noticing seem bit similar adhd inattentive type wondering perhaps slightly autistic example speech pathology throughout elementary school whether characteristic autism asperger also even sometimes take long time learn pronounce word one reason think could ever pick second language bad interrupting socially inept least friend say fine little quirky read people like argue debate tend analytic rigid thinker well lol social stuff know fit gullible kid pretty oblivious surroundings difficulty picking joke especially sarcasm still best detecting telling adult quick anger forgetful fairly impulsive trait seems appropriate impulsiveness anxiety sleep worried simplest thing spend hour day procrastinating heart palpitation try work faster mention nervous driver symptom cannot unless noise perfect temperature drive significant nut,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Started Vyvanse 20mg a few days ok. Very subtle not too overwhelming not sweaty and throbby. Feels like there is a light on in the front of my head that isn't usually there, like less fog.


Just made sense of a whole bunch of chaos, doing 8 organizational tasks at once like I usually do, except making more progress on them


Now what. Do you have tips for applying this new focus. Thinking of it as a compliment not mandatory I can organize without it!


",adhd,started vyvanse mg day ok subtle overwhelming sweaty throbby feel like light front head usually le fog made sense whole bunch chaos organizational task except making progress tip applying new focus thinking compliment mandatory organize without,0.16,Moderately Positive
"So my psychiatrist, whom I've been visiting since I was 7, said that people don't usually have ADD at my age anymore. I am turning 20 this year and I'm wondering if it's normal to still have it? ",adhd,psychiatrist visiting since said people usually add age anymore turning year wondering normal still,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"I am going to Grand Teton National Park in Wyoming. I did not realize my camera bag was not in my stuff. I did not realize until I got in the cab to the airport. I checked my duffle and found that the camera bag was not there.

I called my mom and told her about it. I asked her to overnight ship it and offered to reimburse her plus $20. She agreed to do that. It will not arrive at the lodge until Monday. In the meantime, I will have to use my phone. I am an avid photographer. The quality of the pictures on my phone are bad, especially in comparison to my DSLR. I cannot photograph wildlife until Monday when my camera arrives.

I feel incredibly dumb. I started the Alpha Stem treatment several weeks ago. My forgetfulness went down than came back after I discontinued it. I just hope I find a solution to my forgetfulness.

I have lower digestive issues. I speculated that the forgetfulness and lower digestive problems have the same root cause. I am just praying that I find a solution so this doesn't happen again.",adhd,going grand teton national park wyoming realize camera bag stuff got cab airport checked duffle found called mom told asked overnight ship offered reimburse plus agreed arrive lodge monday meantime use phone avid photographer quality picture bad especially comparison dslr cannot photograph wildlife arrives feel incredibly dumb started alpha stem treatment several week ago forgetfulness went came back discontinued hope find solution lower digestive issue speculated problem root cause praying happen,-0.05,Moderately Negative
Everytime I walk past the dry goods at my work I lose my train of thought.  What threshold do you pass that you lose your train of thought or am I the only one?,adhd,everytime walk past dry good work lose train thought threshold pas one,0.13,Moderately Positive
"## UPVOTE for visibility. (I get no karma whatsover) 

## /r/ADHD has a MUCH higher post frequency and these weekly threads get pushed down pretty quick because they aren't new and shiny anymore. 

######Last week had 4 upvotes ಠ\_ಠ

**Holy cow! 30 upvotes already!?** Now people will see this on their front page and we will have even MORE comments. Thanks everyone!!!! **I upvoted EVERY SINGLE COMMENT as a thank you!**

***
As /r/adhd increases in size, we find ourselves in a critical stage of development. We as a subreddit can either fall into a pattern of repetition (allowing our community to get bored/overwhelmed with repeated topics/questions), lost in a sea of memes/pictures/questions/noise, or we can proactively shift the tides towards making /r/ADHD a perpetually flourishing community based on scientific findings and personal discovery.

***
## The main purpose of this thread:

* Provide a place for people to **ask simple questions** which may not need a dedicated post.
* Give people **new to the  /r/ADHD community (and there are thousands of you)** a chance to say hello and share a bit about their strengths, struggles, and dreams.

***
We decided to start a new weekly thread on Fridays in an **attempt to consolidate the frequent “beginner” questions and introductions into one place.** After discussing this in our [/r/ADHD chatroom](http://webchat.freenode.net/?channels=/r/ADHD) the conclusion is that we must **address the increase in basic questions posted in /r/adhd.**

***

##### Also, if you’re new to our little community, (or even if you’re not and you just want to do this anyway!) this is the place to say hello!!

*By the way, these threads are going to help build /r/ADHD’s FAQ page, the current version of which can be found [here!](http://code.reddit.com/wiki/help/faqs/ADHD)*

**So, to get to the point of this thread, allow me to introduce /r/ADHD's introductory and basic question thread!**
",adhd,upvote visibility get karma whatsover adhd much higher post frequency weekly thread pushed pretty quick new shiny anymore week upvotes holy cow already people see front page even comment thanks everyone upvoted every single thank increase size find critical stage development subreddit either fall pattern repetition allowing community bored overwhelmed repeated topic question lost sea meme picture noise proactively shift tide towards making perpetually flourishing based scientific finding personal discovery main purpose provide place ask simple may need dedicated give thousand chance say hello share bit strength struggle dream decided start friday attempt consolidate frequent beginner introduction one discussing chatroom conclusion must address basic posted also little want anyway way going help build faq current version found point allow introduce introductory,0.03,Neutral
"1. An impulse to touch things of a particular substance. Especially interesting, squishy materials, pieces of art, etc. For example, there are these bath gels usually contained in some animal shape which I always felt like squeezing so hard until the gel exploded out. 

2. A desire to know everything, to seek new information about things and people, to research obsessively. Often results in extreme invasiveness, questioning, curiosity. 

3. A love for conflict. Hate to admit it but I get excited by the prospect of a nuclear war even though I know that it'd be totally disastrous in the long-term and must be avoided (...well the pessimist in me kind of wants the world to end, but that's unrelated) But fuck, it excites me. I wish it didn't, but luckily I don't feel guilty either. 

4. Excessive and irrepressible laughter. I'm not sure if this relates to bad inhibition and impulse control, perhaps originating in the limbic system (?) I've always had trouble repressing laughter. I'd constantly laugh in class and get sent out of the class for laughing too much. I've also pissed myself laughing on numerous occasions. Though luckily that doesn't happen much anymore. Had bad bladder control as a kid. Also procrastinate going to the toilet, but that's another behaviour.

I'll probably think of more things later that aren't so obviously related to ADHD, in that they don't explicitly appear on diagnostic criteria. 

Are there any other behaviours you've tried to understand within the framework of ADHD? 

EDIT: Thought of a fifth one - Intense sensitivity to (really good) music. I get extremely immersed, like I'm swimming inside the song. On that note, also reluctance to listen to new songs because I'm not sure if that song will satisfy me, so I can't assure that I'm going to get a dopamine release and feel satisfied as a result of listening to it. ",adhd,impulse touch thing particular substance especially interesting squishy material piece art etc example bath gel usually contained animal shape always felt like squeezing hard exploded desire know everything seek new information people research obsessively often result extreme invasiveness questioning curiosity love conflict hate admit get excited prospect nuclear war even though totally disastrous long term must avoided well pessimist kind want world end unrelated fuck excites wish luckily feel guilty either excessive irrepressible laughter sure relates bad inhibition control perhaps originating limbic system trouble repressing constantly laugh class sent laughing much also pissed numerous occasion happen anymore bladder kid procrastinate going toilet another behaviour probably think later obviously related adhd explicitly appear diagnostic criterion tried understand within framework edit thought fifth one intense sensitivity really good music extremely immersed swimming inside song note reluctance listen satisfy assure dopamine release satisfied listening,0.04,Neutral
"Original post: http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/16h0dk/add_and_nervous_ticsgetting_ready_to_readjust_my/

I had my concerta increased from 36mg to 54mg and have noticed my tics are essentially gone. They increase as my medication wears off but are not as severe.

Still getting used to higher dose. I can focus/get started quicker and easier than before. Does come with slight headache in right temporal region, seems so have slowed down my racing thoughts but I also seem a bit muted in personality. Hoping these symptoms will subside eventually.

Anyone else with a similar experience?",adhd,original post concerta increased mg noticed tic essentially gone increase medication wear severe still getting used higher dose focus get started quicker easier come slight headache right temporal region seems slowed racing thought also seem bit muted personality hoping symptom subside eventually anyone else similar experience,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Hey everyone, I got some news that I thought appropriate to share here, if not let me know :) 

I was diagnosed with adhd when I was 4. This year I will be 22 and since I was 19 I have been trying to come off the xenidate.

My dosage when I was 19 was around the 60mg mark and recently I have just gone down to 18mg which is the lowest I can go according to my doctors. After a few months of this dose i can properly start the weaning off process and I won't have to take them any more!!

I'm really excited to embrace this new part of my life, I have always had to take these drugs on a daily bases for as long as I can remember and I feel proud of myself for coming this far, learning how to control my impulses, learning how to handle money and most importantly (although still a work in progress) learning to not over eat and how to manage my health but most importantly how to manage my time and organisation.

I feel like reading everyone's stories on here has helped me along as well, it's made me realise that having adhd does not make you a retard or stupid. Some of the best stories I have read and the best people I have met are either autistic or have adhd (I have both) so yeah.... Thank you for reading. I'm feeling really good and positive right now",adhd,hey everyone got news thought appropriate share let know diagnosed adhd year since trying come xenidate dosage around mg mark recently gone lowest go according doctor month dose properly start weaning process take really excited embrace new part life always drug daily base long remember feel proud coming far learning control impulse handle money importantly although still work progress eat manage health time organisation like reading story helped along well made realise make retard stupid best read people met either autistic yeah thank feeling good positive right,0.1,Moderately Positive
"This is the most honest I have ever been.

I was diagnosed with ADHD and dyslexia about 15 years ago. I stopped taking the medication about 10 years ago. I have experimented with other things that might curb my ADHD tenancies. IE trouble sleeping and concentrating. In a random chain of events I tried cocaine at a rave. 

Due to the similar chemical structure and effects that it produces is a dangerous path for people who suffer from ADHD.

Please be careful to understand that we as a people enjoy the calming effect of stimulants. I think it is possible that it is more possible for us to become addicted to such drugs. 

They have the same effect as the drugs we are taught to use for our benefit. 

Anyone else have this feeling? Caffeine? Stimulants? I drink 5 cokes a day and feel off if I don't? 



",adhd,honest ever diagnosed adhd dyslexia year ago stopped taking medication experimented thing might curb tenancy ie trouble sleeping concentrating random chain event tried cocaine rave due similar chemical structure effect produce dangerous path people suffer please careful understand enjoy calming stimulant think possible u become addicted drug taught use benefit anyone else feeling caffeine drink coke day feel,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"I feel as though I'm falling apart at a young age. I tell myself I'm capable of doing something more than work in retail my entire life. So I went to school, there I procrastinated my homework for days and days, sometimes not even handing it in because I surpassed the due date. I feel as though all of my energy from adhd is going towards Netflix, daydreaming and mostly sleep. it's summer and instead of going out and finding a job the loop of procrastination starts. I'm frustrated and although I have anti depression and add meds I can't seem to take them daily. *sigh*",adhd,feel though falling apart young age tell capable something work retail entire life went school procrastinated homework day sometimes even handing surpassed due date energy adhd going towards netflix daydreaming mostly sleep summer instead finding job loop procrastination start frustrated although anti depression add med seem take daily sigh,0.0,Neutral
"I've been working on my BS for about 20 years. I'm finally, FINALLY, done with the course requirements specific to the degree program. Now I still have about 5 'base' courses to complete (courses all students must complete), but there is light at the end of the tunnel!

This course was about wireless networking. Not an exciting topic, but I had many, many challenges hit me to give me great excuses to not get my work done on time and I took them all. (needed to help my dad move 1500 miles away, family vacation etc etc).

I passed in most of my work on the last weekend of the course, and completely missed two assignments. Somehow I still pulled off an A- ! Most of the work was done in the 11th hour, typical for me. It's the deadline pressure that really drives things home for me. A professor who runs the class 'no late work will be accepted' gets much better results from me than the 'oh it's okay, just turn it in when you are finished' approach.

Remember, sometimes we can get by in life without a college degree, but it's always better to have one if you can. I'm 45 now and still working on my degree...  hang in there people!",adhd,working b year finally done course requirement specific degree program still base complete student must light end tunnel wireless networking exciting topic many challenge hit give great excuse get work time took needed help dad move mile away family vacation etc passed last weekend completely missed two assignment somehow pulled th hour typical deadline pressure really drive thing home professor run class late accepted much better result oh okay turn finished approach remember sometimes life without college always one hang people,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Coffee does what ADHD meds do for me, but only for about 45 minutes. I'm taking a break from meds to prevent tolerance. 

Coffee cured me for 45 minutes. I cleaned my car, did some other minor chores, and planned a manageable workload for the next few hours that I wouldn't have done otherwise. I even had a good amount of coffee, so I was not jittery.

Now, as I just start my manageable workload, the effect of coffee has been replace by a horrible crash. The manageable workload is now a LOT harder. 

Luckily, I've been hanging around on r/ADHD enough to have picked up these tips: 

* Keep your work opened on your PC or out in front of you if the work is offline. 

* Eating helps stimulant crashes. I'll eat something and tell you guys if it helps. 

I'm in-between doing my work and playing video games on my PC. My work will make my head literally hurt. Video games are fun, but I'd rather be doing my work. If work isn't gonna happen, I'd rather get offline. **Someone say something to override my brain's autopilot while I still have a some functionality.** 

Well, at least I did some chores. 

**tl;dr Stimulant is wearing off, but I want to be productive. I'm not that flexible. Someone kick my ass for me. Oh, and thanks r/ADHD for the kick-ass advice.**",adhd,coffee adhd med minute taking break prevent tolerance cured cleaned car minor chore planned manageable workload next hour done otherwise even good amount jittery start effect replace horrible crash lot harder luckily hanging around enough picked tip keep work opened pc front offline eating help stimulant eat something tell guy playing video game make head literally hurt fun rather gonna happen get someone say override brain autopilot still functionality well least tl dr wearing want productive flexible kick as oh thanks advice,-0.03,Neutral
"So, I went out on a limb and went to a specialist for a second opinion/testing, and wow did she get me to a tee!

I'm still kind of flabbergasted cause I wasn't expecting a diagnosis at all, but I just want to share something I noticed between the first round of testing and the second that was a big lightbulb moment for me:

Basically the first test I took a a few months ago was essentially all about my scores, and as someone who has an IQ on the higher end/good coping skills (to an extent), my scores were not significant.

However, the second time around, the person evaluating me really paid attention to how I was thinking and how hard I was thinking/how hard it was for me to stay focused. So even though my scores would qualify as good, in context I was working a lot harder to do the task and stay focused.

Anyone have any thoughts on this/similar experiences?

Tl;dr: I feel like when you're testing for ADHD, how you think means a lot more than just a number. Thoughts?

",adhd,went limb specialist second opinion testing wow get tee still kind flabbergasted cause expecting diagnosis want share something noticed first round big lightbulb moment basically test took month ago essentially score someone iq higher end good coping skill extent significant however time around person evaluating really paid attention thinking hard stay focused even though would qualify context working lot harder task anyone thought similar experience tl dr feel like adhd think mean number,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Is anyone here with severe ADHD (I'll leave ""severe"" up to interpretation) in a long term relationship? How is that going?

Edit: I'm a neurotypical... After 4 years of being in a relationship with my partner who truly is a wonderful  person and also suffers from severe ADHD, I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I have to take care of nearly everything, and that any money he earns will likely get spent right away which is also frustrating as I have to then compensate financially (he is employed - which I realize, given his situation, is a huge achievement on its own). His executive memory is terrible and makes it almost impossible for him to remember anything that has to do with day to day stuff even though he takes meds and says the dosage is right. If he gets started on something (repairs, etc.), it almost never gets completed. After 4 years, I've gotten to know him extremely well, know that he's a trustworthy person and do believe him when he says that he tries his best every day but simply cannot help me as much as I need (the reality is, he is barely able to do anything aside from occasionally cooking and grocery shopping). I am now trying to come to terms with this fact... and to be honest, as much as I love him (and do feel we are kindred spirits), I'm not sure how I feel about taking on all responsibilities (practical and financial) for the remainder of our time together, however long that may be. (note: I've read up tremendously on ADHD and have also been to counselling for a year with an ADHD specialist).

Edit: Wow! All these personal stories/anecdotes as well as feedback are amazing!! Thanks everybody!!

Whiteboards and list do not work. I've tried all of that. Alarms, text and phone call reminders work well enough. He is paid cash mostly (tips). 
I might be enabling him, that's possible. I could leave but I'd miss all the awesome parts of him way too much. He's a human encyclopedia and one of the most interesting people I know, an incredibly good hearted person, loyal, optimistic, has tons of friends - the close ones are all great people, great kids, great family... The trade-offs though have been very tough to deal with... He does not want to go to therapy (says he has done enough in his lifetime). 
He got a membership at the gym recently but forgets to go. He eats a lot of junk food (so much so that I worry he might get diabetes some day). He doesn't seem to sleep well or much (a few hours per night). He works nights and weekends, I work weekdays...

What a character he is and what a ride this relationship has been so far!! Crazy really.",adhd,anyone severe adhd leave interpretation long term relationship going edit neurotypical year partner truly wonderful person also suffers trying come fact take care nearly everything money earns likely get spent right away frustrating compensate financially employed realize given situation huge achievement executive memory terrible make almost impossible remember anything day stuff even though med say dosage started something repair etc never completed gotten know extremely well trustworthy believe try best every simply cannot help much need reality barely able aside occasionally cooking grocery shopping honest love feel kindred spirit sure taking responsibility practical financial remainder time together however may note read tremendously counselling specialist wow personal story anecdote feedback amazing thanks everybody whiteboards list work tried alarm text phone call reminder enough paid cash mostly tip might enabling possible could miss awesome part way human encyclopedia one interesting people incredibly good hearted loyal optimistic ton friend close great kid family trade offs tough deal want go therapy done lifetime got membership gym recently forgets eats lot junk food worry diabetes seem sleep hour per night weekend weekday character ride far crazy really,0.16,Moderately Positive
"I'm a nurse.  I'm in my mid 30's and finally diagnosed with severe ADHD.  I've told a few other nurses and my manager because A. It explains a lot B. They pretty much already know and C. I'm an open book

However every single nurse I've told about my recent official diagnosis  has said ""I wish I could be on Adderall so I could lose weight.""   

To me this just highlights how mental health issues are seen as a joke.  They'd never say that to someone on chemo.  It kinda upsets me and I wanted to vent.

Thanks for listening. ",adhd,nurse mid finally diagnosed severe adhd told manager explains lot pretty much already know open book however every single recent official diagnosis said wish could adderall lose weight highlight mental health issue seen joke never say someone chemo kinda upset wanted vent thanks listening,0.05,Moderately Positive
EDIT: Thanks for all the ideas. I have talk to him about it. I have decided that I will give him 20 bucks each week he is without incident. That way he will be able to earn it and if he has a bad week it wont kill his chances of getting one even if its a month or so past Christmas.. HEAR* ,adhd,edit thanks idea talk decided give buck week without incident way able earn bad wont kill chance getting one even month past christmas hear,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"OK so here's my story - Skip to the end if it's TLDR haha - I'm 35 years old now, and I have known I was ADHD since around my early 20s when I decided to research into why I kept losing jobs, was crap at relationships and couldn't pay attention to anything that didn't intensely interest me.
After taking this revelation to the NHS in about 2003 and waiting 6 months for a psychologist's appointment, I was swiftly rebutted and pretty much told I was just immature and needed to grow up - that ADHD only occurred in children and magically disappeared aged 16. Also that I had really bad anxiety. No shit Sherlock. That's because I can't pay attention to anything important for more than 5 minutes and I've been subject to constant childhood trauma due to being called useless and lazy for most of it. I'd clearly displayed heavy symptoms of inattentive type since I was about 6 or 7yrs old, but apparently that didn't matter. 

Because of this - and around the same time nearly dying when I got my tonsils out in my 20s because my GP didn't seem to think the previous 10 years of frequent tonsillitis was a cause for concern - I developed an intense distrust of doctors. Being called a manchild and vomiting up a pint of blood will do that to you. I developed my own strategies for dealing with my ADHD, and lo and behold they worked.. a bit.. things got better. Oddly many of the strategies (being accountable to others instead of yourself, making things urgent, constantly apologizing and politely asking people to repeat themselves etc) I recently found out were already advocated for ADHD! Thankfully as an adult asking for clarification or help is not as frowned upon as it is by most schoolteachers, but it is hard to get over those years of negative reinforcement by primary and secondary education.

After losing yet another shit job (for having a day off to look after my sick girlfriend) I decided I'd had enough and applied to university. I had no A levels having dropped out of 6th form twice, but I had a lot of amateur experience in the subject I chose (Audio engineering) - Thankfully I'd just produced a metal album that got 9/10 in Zero Tolerance magazine - they gave me an unconditional offer as an adult student.
I absolutely destroyed my first and second years, although I struggled massively with my attention and only my passion for the subject and good relationships with my fellow students (accountability works good with collaborative stuff) got me through. The wheels fell of in the 3rd year and I had a nervous breakdown. I needed an extension for my final dissertation and thankfully my tutors recognised my talent so granted me it to avoid all my hard work going down the shitter at the last hurdle.

I got a job in my field of study at another uni, I'd managed to keep my amazing long-term girlfriend throughout and things were going well.. until shit went bad at work and my then long-distance relationship became stressful due to all the commuting. I became heavily addicted to internet pornography and social media (political arguments taking up half my day etc) and my impulsive spending got worse when I should have been saving money. Last year I had a nervous breakdown and went for help. I finally registered with a GP in my new town and he suggested I had anxiety and prescribed me Sertraline after about 10 minutes conversation. It gave me fucking insomnia, I felt suicidal and had to take time off work while my girlfriend basically cared for me for a few days till it fully wore off. I was once again angry that a clearly unqualified doctor would nonchalantly piss about with someone's seratonin levels while they're having an emotional crisis. I went for CBT but the waiting list is extremely long (I'm still waiting now) and paid good money for specialist therapy to do with the porn stuff - this helped massively. The initial appointment with a psychologist I told her about ADHD and she suggested going private.

Thankfully one of the users on here recommended me an online psychology service in the UK, and it's probs gonna work out about £600 in total to get fully diagnosed and treated along with a follow up. I gave them absolutely tons of info, my girlfriend and mother were hugely supportive giving their own evidence along with my self-assessment, and we even found school/special needs reports that I was shocked to see pointed directly at attention and impulse control problems.. how this remained undiagnosed as a child I have no idea, it was all there on paper! I did a video conference assessment for an hour with the doctor and she pretty much laughed at the end and said there was absolutely no doubt that I had ADHD.

I can't describe how this felt. It was a revelation. Thankfully so many of my mates have been patient over the years with my attention problems but it's good to just be able to explain it to them without feeling like a liar anymore because it was undiagnosed. There is so much closure, and such a feeling of ""fuck you"" to the doctors and teachers who played it down and ignored me.

I start on a small dose of Concerta next week, hopefully it helps. Although the good news is I also just found out my job is secure again and this means my girlfriend can move in with me.

This has been a good week. ",adhd,ok story skip end tldr haha year old known adhd since around early decided research kept losing job crap relationship pay attention anything intensely interest taking revelation nh waiting month psychologist appointment swiftly rebutted pretty much told immature needed grow occurred child magically disappeared aged also really bad anxiety shit sherlock important minute subject constant childhood trauma due called useless lazy clearly displayed heavy symptom inattentive type yr apparently matter time nearly dying got tonsil gp seem think previous frequent tonsillitis cause concern developed intense distrust doctor manchild vomiting pint blood strategy dealing lo behold worked bit thing better oddly many accountable others instead making urgent constantly apologizing politely asking people repeat etc recently found already advocated thankfully adult clarification help frowned upon schoolteacher hard get negative reinforcement primary secondary education yet another day look sick girlfriend enough applied university level dropped th form twice lot amateur experience chose audio engineering produced metal album zero tolerance magazine gave unconditional offer student absolutely destroyed first second although struggled massively passion good fellow accountability work collaborative stuff wheel fell rd nervous breakdown extension final dissertation tutor recognised talent granted avoid going shitter last hurdle field study uni managed keep amazing long term throughout well went distance became stressful commuting heavily addicted internet pornography social medium political argument half impulsive spending worse saving money finally registered new town suggested prescribed sertraline conversation fucking insomnia felt suicidal take basically cared till fully wore angry unqualified would nonchalantly piss someone seratonin emotional crisis cbt list extremely still paid specialist therapy porn helped initial private one user recommended online psychology service uk probs gonna total diagnosed treated along follow ton info mother hugely supportive giving evidence self assessment even school special need report shocked see pointed directly impulse control problem remained undiagnosed idea paper video conference hour laughed said doubt describe mate patient able explain without feeling like liar anymore closure fuck teacher played ignored start small dose concerta next week hopefully news secure mean move,0.0,Neutral
"It’s a weird double edged sword because other people might be a distraction, but I’ve never able to do any significant work at home or at my own desk. 

I don’t know if it’s the anxiety of being alone or what. I’m just annoyed at myself for investing so heavily in a mini home office when I’m still forced to venture to a coffee shop to accomplish anything.

Anyone else struggle with this?


Edit for quick rant: what the hell is with the Automod “no DAE” rule? Most of the value of this sub is hearing stories of people who struggle with similar things.",adhd,weird double edged sword people might distraction never able significant work home desk know anxiety alone annoyed investing heavily mini office still forced venture coffee shop accomplish anything anyone else struggle edit quick rant hell automod dae rule value sub hearing story similar thing,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"An app called Silence will suppress notifications and alerts (based on your settings) according to scheduled time periods, or by events in your Google calendar.  Might be useful to some for being distraction free for specific time periods when you have to get things done.  It has recently been upgraded to version 2.0. 

https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=net.epsilonlabs.silence.ads",adhd,app called silence suppress notification alert based setting according scheduled time period event google calendar might useful distraction free specific get thing done recently upgraded version,0.18,Moderately Positive
"In particular, what was your dosage on Concerta, and what was your long term dosage on Vyvanse?",adhd,particular dosage concerta long term vyvanse,0.06,Moderately Positive
"(I'm adding bold for what I think is the most important stuff because idk about you but I would struggle to read a post this long lol)

**In March last year I was failing in my final year of university so I decided to take a break to fix my mental health. Recently I was diagnosed with autism and I am on the waiting list for the ADHD service;** I meet all the criteria for inattentive subtype so I think I will get that diagnosis.

I always try to make a timetable and set alarms on my phone to wake up, eat, go to bed, exercise, get work done, look for part time jobs. I've tried using various calendar apps, habit trackers, to do/notetaking apps. I've also tried doing all of this on paper using portable diaries and notebooks.

**I usually manage to stick to a new habit for about a week (if I'm lucky, sometimes I even make it to a couple of months) before I find that something gets me off-task and I can't figure out how to get back into it again.** I feel like I'm always starting out from scratch and still struggling to remember to do about half of the basic tasks that I'm supposed to do.

The truth is that **I haven't managed to do anything since I started living away from my family. My family kept me on a very strict schedule** and would yell at me if I forgot to eat lunch or load the dishwasher or whatever, **so I never really had to organise myself until I left home** when I was 18, and then I really struggled. I got A*AA grades at school but I was barely managing to get through university with C average at best and usually lower.

**I just don't know how to sustain the effort of motivating and organising myself for more than a short amount of time before I get distracted and my schedule falls apart. Is this something I'm even capable of doing right now or am I going to need ADHD medication before I have any hope of getting my shit together?**

Also I have no idea how I'm supposed to go back to university when I can't even concentrate long enough to read properly. I get out some academic books and they're so dense that I have no idea how I ever managed to comprehend any of this stuff. I really feel like I must have used to have been a lot smarter to have managed to get this far?",adhd,adding bold think important stuff idk would struggle read post long lol march last year failing final university decided take break fix mental health recently diagnosed autism waiting list adhd service meet criterion inattentive subtype get diagnosis always try make timetable set alarm phone wake eat go bed exercise work done look part time job tried using various calendar apps habit tracker notetaking also paper portable diary notebook usually manage stick new week lucky sometimes even couple month find something task figure back feel like starting scratch still struggling remember half basic supposed truth managed anything since started living away family kept strict schedule yell forgot lunch load dishwasher whatever never really organise left home struggled got aa grade school barely managing average best lower know sustain effort motivating organising short amount distracted fall apart capable right going need medication hope getting shit together idea concentrate enough properly academic book dense ever comprehend must used lot smarter far,0.09,Moderately Positive
"After taking a year long break in 2017 to decide what I want to do with my life, I decided that I would like to return to school and continue with my studies. For those that are curious, I am planning on undertaking a MA in Positive Psychology (Keen on helping make the world a happy place).
Due to having a short attention span and suffering greatly from my ADHD, I have never been able to hit my full academic potential in my previous qualifications something which I would like to change with my masters. So for the postgrad crowd in r/adhd, I would like to know from you what steps, measures, etc. you took to help with focusing on your studies.

TL:DR About to begin my masters studies, need advice to help improve my academic performance.",adhd,taking year long break decide want life decided would like return school continue study curious planning undertaking positive psychology keen helping make world happy place due short attention span suffering greatly adhd never able hit full academic potential previous qualification something change master postgrad crowd know step measure etc took help focusing tl dr begin need advice improve performance,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Pretty sure my social skills after high school toileted. It's probably co morbid with depression and anxiety. It's fairly common, but anyways... holy shit, how does one seek out help especially if they're lone wolfing it? Like I moved coast to coast, from CA to MA, and my family sorta hates me because of this stupid mental dysfunction and I was homeless before I moved to MA. I'm working at a shitty full service gas station, haven't made a single friend in the 8+ months I've been here, and I'm snapping left and right at work even though I keep reassuring myself that, ""It's my job"" and whatnot. My confidence and self esteem have plummeted. I'm wildly uninterested.... in everything. I can't hold conversations. People fuckin' make me tense. When someone calls my boss cause I usually snap for no reason and he tells me what happened, I can't recall shit. I forget hella fast. I stopped smoking weed and drinking alcohol, it's been over a month since I quit cigs. Weed used to make me feel good and concentrated-ish, more mellow than anything, but now it makes my anxiety go crazy. I feel out of control. I push myself into isolation. Making money isn't making me feel good like everyone said it would. I bought a 900$ guitar and I hardly play it. I bought a ps4 and bought 6-700$ worth of games and she just sits there. I talk to the woman of my dreams but she feels neglected and unheard. Supposedly I'm an ass, unknowingly. So I'm assuming I'm impulsive af. I have intrusive thoughts due to anxiety and adhd makes it like 100x worse which makes me depressed. My inner critic sounds like a fucking judgmental cunt and I try to breathe and meditate, but in 10 seconds my anger impulses have me forgetting to do that when I repeat it like a mantra, but it just disappears so fast. I suck at being articulate, as you can read. And talking is much much worse which makes me feel alone. I dive into relationships (romantic or casual) with a strong drive, being friendly and whatnot, and then it stops, I don't want to be social, I feel drained. Conversations turn from awesome to being misinterpreted and they don't understand me nor I them. I feel delusional sometimes. Like something is making me fail. I blame my brain. I'm rambling. I ramble. If you made it this far thanks lol. I'm 22 years old. And yeah. Advice is appreciated. Or just some love. This is my first post so.... be as fucking rude as you want. Lol",adhd,pretty sure social skill high school toileted probably co morbid depression anxiety fairly common anyways holy shit one seek help especially lone wolfing like moved coast ca family sorta hate stupid mental dysfunction homeless working shitty full service gas station made single friend month snapping left right work even though keep reassuring job whatnot confidence self esteem plummeted wildly uninterested everything hold conversation people fuckin make tense someone call bos cause usually snap reason tell happened recall forget hella fast stopped smoking weed drinking alcohol since quit cigs used feel good concentrated ish mellow anything go crazy control push isolation making money everyone said would bought guitar hardly play p worth game sits talk woman dream neglected unheard supposedly as unknowingly assuming impulsive af intrusive thought due adhd worse depressed inner critic sound fucking judgmental cunt try breathe meditate second anger impulse forgetting repeat mantra disappears suck articulate read talking much alone dive relationship romantic casual strong drive friendly stop want drained turn awesome misinterpreted understand delusional sometimes something fail blame brain rambling ramble far thanks lol year old yeah advice appreciated love first post rude,0.0,Neutral
"So I went to some lectures and information meetings about ADD, and I seriously think I have been misdiagnosed. Sure there are some things I have, but I can concentrate, sleep well, am a fairly calm person.
But they have officially diagnosed me with ADD and I think this just isn't fair. How can I set this straight? I could really use your help Reddit! Thanks.",adhd,went lecture information meeting add seriously think misdiagnosed sure thing concentrate sleep well fairly calm person officially diagnosed fair set straight could really use help reddit thanks,0.25,Moderately Positive
I have noticed a huge difference when taken together. I am calm no long jittery no longer have the irratblity I had with vyvanse alone. Will this last?,adhd,noticed huge difference taken together calm long jittery longer irratblity vyvanse alone last,0.16,Moderately Positive
"I’m on concerta 36. I’m 20 years old, I’m in four classes in UNI.I need to pass all of them but I can’t get myself to study. What apps can help me? what habits should I get into? I’m working towards a healthy sleeping shcedule... Honestly I feel like my body just doesnt want to do what my brain needs it to do and it’s scary. I don’t wanna fail. I’m so far back behind already.....",adhd,concerta year old four class uni need pas get study apps help habit working towards healthy sleeping shcedule honestly feel like body doesnt want brain scary wanna fail far back behind already,-0.01,Neutral
"I'm not really open about my ADHD because I've never felt like is something relevant or important to let people know, but whenever I have to tell family or friends that I have ADHD most of them don't believe me and tell me I'm just lazy or I'm just playing the victim. My parents, which were with me when I was 9 and was diagnosed with ADHD, always tell me that I'm cured now, or that the doctor was wrong, or that the pills didn't worked when I used them or that my ADHD is lighter. I've never used my ADHD to justify my mistakes, just to let people know how hard is for me some things that they can do normally. How do I explained my ADHD without people telling me I'm lying?

(I'm 17)",adhd,really open adhd never felt like something relevant important let people know whenever tell family friend believe lazy playing victim parent diagnosed always cured doctor wrong pill worked used lighter justify mistake hard thing normally explained without telling lying,-0.02,Neutral
"Diagnosed at 36, two weeks after my daughter was diagnosed. If only it was picked up when I was a kid, but hey that's life and I'm glad I know now. I've been put on Dex and it's working fantastic. 

1) As a kid I got my ears tested loads of times at request of school teachers. which I, of course, aced since there was never anything wrong with my ears. But what I've noticed, was while they had the headphones on me, and I was listening with all my attention for the beeps, my vision would dim and sort of go black and that once I stop focusing so hard on listening, my vision would return. Is that a part of ADD?

2) Up to 3rd/4th grade I was a ""little terrorist"", hyper af. But then I mellowed out and became 'lazy'. Is that common?",adhd,diagnosed two week daughter picked kid hey life glad know put dex working fantastic got ear tested load time request school teacher course aced since never anything wrong noticed headphone listening attention beep vision would dim sort go black stop focusing hard return part add rd th grade little terrorist hyper af mellowed became lazy common,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"So bit of background:

I've been recently seeing a psych for my anxiety/depression and just overall confusing life because I always felt different. My psych only touched on what the autism spectrum is and told me to do my research on it before I see her next but my general doc told me my reaction to Duromine (Phentermine) appetite suppressant wasn't working how it does in most people for me. I told him I wanted to stop taking it since it didn't do anything in terms of my appetite. I felt calmer/stopped caring about my weight and still ate impulsively etc but it made my anxiety worse and I was super sensitive to sounds and my doc said that's more how someone with ADHD would respond on it?

So I decided to look up the differences and I leaned more towards ADHD when it came down to the more detailed side of and relationship problems that come from it.

My problem at the moment is initiating sex, I'll have the urge but it's random and goes just as quick as it came and I find if he is initiating it I get restless and think of other things like smells, sounds or washing that needs to be done or peeing/drinking cause I'm thirsty a lot, that I can only get off if I rub myself really fast while doing it with my boyfriend or on my own..but I need to have about 4-10 orgasms to actually feel satisfied (thats bout as far as my arm energy goes LOL), it's practically a chore and my boyfriend has no idea why I don't find sex as appealing as him lol.

I'm a female and I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years..would adhd meds make sex feel less of a chore and increase my desire to initiate and not get distracted? I get really mentally tired easy so that doesn't help when I want to just sleep most of the time, especially after watching netflix. It's horrible and it ruins my relationship. I have no urge to go about having sex with randoms, sex didn't even appeal to me as a teenager..I just masturbated to get the energy out but if I looked at someone, I dont generally think of sex no matter how 'hot' they might be. I'm also a heavy gamer..

",adhd,bit background recently seeing psych anxiety depression overall confusing life always felt different touched autism spectrum told research see next general doc reaction duromine phentermine appetite suppressant working people wanted stop taking since anything term calmer stopped caring weight still ate impulsively etc made worse super sensitive sound said someone adhd would respond decided look difference leaned towards came detailed side relationship problem come moment initiating sex urge random go quick find get restless think thing like smell washing need done peeing drinking cause thirsty lot rub really fast boyfriend orgasm actually feel satisfied thats bout far arm energy lol practically chore idea appealing female year med make le increase desire initiate distracted mentally tired easy help want sleep time especially watching netflix horrible ruin randoms even appeal teenager masturbated looked dont generally matter hot might also heavy gamer,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I overslept today and woke up at 12pm and wanted to force myself to sleep at 12am tonight. I reached into my drawer for some melatonon about 2 hours ago and took one (so I thought) it was pitch black. After I took it I layed down and started reading a book. After awhile I layed down though I didn't feel that tired but was almost asleep until I felt like I was waking up. Looked and found I had one less vyvanse. I'm annoyed I made such a dumb decision but I'm now really anxious for no reason.

I'm fine with staying up later since I have nothing to do tomorrow. I had a glass of milk and cereal earlier but will I be okay? I read some other threads regarding this but none mentioned extreme anxiety. My neck also feels extra stiff",adhd,overslept today woke pm wanted force sleep tonight reached drawer melatonon hour ago took one thought pitch black layed started reading book awhile though feel tired almost asleep felt like waking looked found le vyvanse annoyed made dumb decision really anxious reason fine staying later since nothing tomorrow glass milk cereal earlier okay read thread regarding none mentioned extreme anxiety neck also extra stiff,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Does anyone else find that EDM is the best music for concentration? If so, I'm curious about what type or genre helps you the most. Is there any other type of music (or sound or white noise) that is as good or better? ",adhd,anyone else find edm best music concentration curious type genre help sound white noise good better,0.42,Moderately Positive
"There are a lot of questions posted about medication and reactions to medication. This is a good thing and provides activity to the community. However there is some level of information we all need to understand about the different medications. I have seen many posts where people are asking about their medication and the underline issue is they don't understand the medication. This seems to be especially common with the Amphetamine medications. It is very important everyone understands the medication they are taking.

Here are some Wikipedia pages everyone should read and understand to the best of their ability.

[ADHD](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attention_deficit_hyperactivity_disorder)

These are some of the most common and a few less common chemicals used for primary or supportive aid in the treatment of ADHD.


[Amphetamine](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amphetamine)

>Example(s): Adderall, Dexedrine and Vyvanse.

[Methylphenidate](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methylphenidate) 

>Example(s): Ritalin and Concerta.

[Atomoxetine](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atomoxetine)

>Example(s): Strattera.

[Nortriptyline](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nortriptyline)

>Example(s): Pamelor, Sensoval, and Aventyl.

[Clonidine](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clonidine)

>Example(s): Catapres.

[Guanfacine](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guanfacine)

>Example(s): Tenex.


[Modafinil](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Modafinil)

>Example(s): Provigil

[Armodafinil](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Armodafinil)

 >Example(s): Nuvigil

>Note(s): This contains only the active (R)-enantiomer of Modafinil.


Guanfacine is being specifically targeted for ADHD as the brand name Intuniv.

Big note for the blood pressure ADHD meds - Do not take Clonidine or Guanfacine if you have low blood pressure or are prone to hypotension. If you experience symptoms of hypotension when taking it - IMMEDIATELY CALL YOUR PRESCRIBING DOCTOR!

Get yourself checked out for any potential co-morbidities before starting any stimulant medication. They do run the risk of increasing the chance of a hypomanic or manic episode.





**Summed up Information:**

Stimulants: 

>The stimulants, aka psychostimulants, used in ADHD treatment are Amphetamine and Methylphenidate. 
The main difference between the two stimulants is the way they effect [dopamine](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dopamine), [norepinephrine](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norepinephrine), and [serotonin](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Serotonin) levels. Amphetamine primarily causes the release of these chemicals while Methylphenidate is a reuptake inhibitor meaning it keeps the chemicals from being reabsorbed and thus leaving them to stay and build up in the neural synapses, it also has some releasing effect but much less than that of Amphetamine.
Stimulants excite the brain so it is common that they can cause sleep problems. If you are experiencing sleep problems you may need a lower does, a sleep aid, or a different medication all together.

>Amphetamine medication: Ampetamine is a racemic mixture of the isomers Dextroamphetamine and Levoamphetamine, it is largely thought that the d-amphetamine is primary in dopamine release while the l-amphetamine is primary in norepinephrine release. Two commonly used Amphetamine medications are Adderall and Vyvanse. 
Adderall is a mixture of the separated d-amphetamine salts and two amphetamine racemic mixture. Giving it a 1:3 ratio of l-amphetamine to d-amphetamine. Half being pure d-amphetamine and 2/8 from the two racemic mixtures.
Vyvanse is a molecular structure called lisdextroamphetamine. it is the d-amphetamine bound with l-lysine protein. The purpose of bonding the amphetamine to lysine is to reduce abuse risks, making it a ""pro-drug"". Vyvanse can not be absorbed directly through the blood stream, so it can not be snorted or injected. It must be delivered via the small intestine where your body can break the lysine from the amphetamine.





**Remember it is very important that you understand both ADHD as a disorder as well as the medication you are taking.**


EDIT: Thank you to everyone for posting more information. Keep posting information about medication in this thread!

EDIT: Added more suggested information.",adhd,lot question posted medication reaction good thing provides activity community however level information need understand different seen many post people asking underline issue seems especially common amphetamine important everyone understands taking wikipedia page read best ability adhd le chemical used primary supportive aid treatment example adderall dexedrine vyvanse methylphenidate ritalin concerta atomoxetine strattera nortriptyline pamelor sensoval aventyl clonidine catapres guanfacine tenex modafinil provigil armodafinil nuvigil note contains active enantiomer specifically targeted brand name intuniv big blood pressure med take low prone hypotension experience symptom immediately call prescribing doctor get checked potential co morbidity starting stimulant run risk increasing chance hypomanic manic episode summed aka psychostimulants main difference two way effect dopamine norepinephrine serotonin primarily cause release reuptake inhibitor meaning keep reabsorbed thus leaving stay build neural synapsis also releasing much excite brain sleep problem experiencing may lower together ampetamine racemic mixture isomer dextroamphetamine levoamphetamine largely thought commonly separated salt giving ratio half pure molecular structure called lisdextroamphetamine bound lysine protein purpose bonding reduce abuse making pro drug absorbed directly stream snorted injected must delivered via small intestine body break remember disorder well edit thank posting thread added suggested,0.16,Moderately Positive
"I'm trying to get my medicine from my University health center, but they say that my evaluation from middle school is too old and I need to get another full eval before I can get my prescription, as if it just GOES AWAY after a few years, that makes sense! My old hospital won't refill my prescription because it's been more than six months since I last asked them to refill. I have no insurance and my parents can't afford to give me the 1,200 it takes to get ANOTHER eval, and to hell with being able to afford it myself! What the hell am I supposed to do? I'm freaking out here.",adhd,trying get medicine university health center say evaluation middle school old need another full eval prescription go away year make sense hospital refill six month since last asked insurance parent afford give take hell able supposed freaking,0.14,Moderately Positive
Do you find it difficult to concentrate and do work when you're sitting at a desk? What kind of environment do you find is most conducive to your productivity?,adhd,find difficult concentrate work sitting desk kind environment conducive productivity,0.05,Moderately Positive
"*I hear the term RSD a lot on this sub. I have problems with the way it is used, so I've been meaning to do this for a while. You may not like what I have to say, but I will do my damndest to be scientific. Hopefully it will be interesting and not offensive. It shouldn't be and if it is, have a think about why. 'Cause this is science, and if it ain't the mods are welcome to delete my post. I will try and observe APA referencing and style from here on out, mostly for shits and giggles, but I need the practice too. I don't know how to properly do the formatting on reddit, so hopefully no one will be offended by the lack of double-line spacing:*

Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) is a term used to describe a group of symptoms which appear to have a significant, detrimental effect on relationships (Dodson, 2013). Dodson presents it as a distinct clinical diagnosis, characterized by an impaired ability to cope with percieved, or actual rejection (2013). He suggests it is seperate from Attention Defecit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) yet found exclusively in those with ADHD and experienced by most, but not all those with the condition. There are many problems with this which shall be discussed here. 

   Although Dodson describes this condition as a valid clinical diagnosis and suggests treatments(2013) there is currently a lack of rigorous scientific research. The condition is not recognized by any edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM), and International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems (ICD), which are the most widely used diagnostic manuals worldwide (APA, 2013; WHO, 2010). The evidence base for this as a distinct condition is Dodson's clinical experience(2013). He refers to the observation of symptoms in his own patients, and succesful treatment of the condition as evidence for its existence. The symptoms Dodsons observes have been observed in peer-reviwed studies (Asherson). Asherson's study found those with ADHD reported significantly more difficulties with impulsive anger, frustration tolerence, low mood, and anxiety than the control group with no diagnosis or symptoms of ADHD. Meta-analysis also suggests that individuals with diagnosed ADHD are significanlty less likely than the general population to be in long term relationships, and significantly more likely to be divorced.

   The characterization of these symptoms as a condition however, is problematic. Emotional dysregulation is a core feature of many conditions listed in the DSM-V(APA, 2013), which suggests these problems are not specific to ADHD. However, Dodson used an unspecified number of participants, all of whom were diagnosed with ADHD(2013). The lack of a control group makes this evidence scientificallly unrigorous. Dodsons hypothesis that these symptoms can be attributed to a distinct condition also has falsification issues. Dodson suggests this condition is experience by most individuals with ADHD(2013). 
He suggests no null hypothesis - both the presence and absence of these symptoms in individuals with ADHD is used to confirm his prediction.
  A key component of scientific methadology is Ontological Parsimony. Causes should not be multiplied uneccessarily. Theories should be based on the simplest explanation of all the evidence. It is neatly explained in the phrase ""when you hear hooftbeats, think horses, not Zebras"" (Sotos, 2006, p1.). 

A more ontologically parsimonious explanation of these symptoms is that they are caused by ADHD. Evidence in the literature has implicated genes involved with dopamine reuptake as a cause of ADHD(). Specifically, brain imaging studies of those with ADHD have shown lower levels of dopamine in the prefrontal cortex. This region has been implicated in self-control and impulse inhibition. The symptoms Dodson describes could be adequately explained by the nerobiological dysfunction already observed in those with ADHD.

  More research is needed to establish the prevelence of these symptoms in those with ADHD. Emotional dysregulation is not currently listed as a core symptom of ADHD in the DSM-V, however there is a growing body of evidence to suggests it is experienced by the majority of those with ADHD. This could have implications for both its diagnosis and treatment. The current sub-groupings - inattentive, hyperactive and combined - may prove uneccessary, if symptoms such as impulsive anger are found in those diagnosed as primarily innatentive, or low mood in thos diagnosed as primarily hyperactive. Future research should explore these symptoms in a clinical setting, in order to build a more robust and useful model of the condition.",adhd,hear term rsd lot sub problem way used meaning may like say damndest scientific hopefully interesting offensive think cause science mod welcome delete post try observe apa referencing style mostly shit giggle need practice know properly formatting reddit one offended lack double line spacing rejection sensitive dysphoria describe group symptom appear significant detrimental effect relationship dodson present distinct clinical diagnosis characterized impaired ability cope percieved actual suggests seperate attention defecit hyperactivity disorder adhd yet found exclusively experienced condition many shall discussed although describes valid treatment currently rigorous research recognized edition diagnostic statistical manual mental dsm international classification disease related health icd widely worldwide evidence base experience refers observation patient succesful existence dodsons observes observed peer reviwed study asherson reported significantly difficulty impulsive anger frustration tolerence low mood anxiety control meta analysis also individual diagnosed significanlty le likely general population long divorced characterization however problematic emotional dysregulation core feature listed specific unspecified number participant make scientificallly unrigorous hypothesis attributed falsification issue null presence absence confirm prediction key component methadology ontological parsimony multiplied uneccessarily theory based simplest explanation neatly explained phrase hooftbeats horse zebra sotos ontologically parsimonious caused literature implicated gene involved dopamine reuptake specifically brain imaging shown lower level prefrontal cortex region self impulse inhibition could adequately nerobiological dysfunction already needed establish prevelence growing body majority implication current grouping inattentive hyperactive combined prove uneccessary primarily innatentive tho future explore setting order build robust useful model,0.07,Moderately Positive
"It was a miracle I graduated high school considering the amount of work I didn't hand in due to being unable to focus. I managed to get into university the first time through a program with my school, but failed most of the subjects and ended up dropping out.

Fast forward a few years and I finally received an ADHD diagnosis and medication! I went back to University and had to complete a year in Arts before having the option to transfer. I finished the year with straight As and got accepted into Biomedicine, which was my first choice! I just finished enrolling in my subjects and it still doesn't feel real, I'm so elated and nervous!",adhd,miracle graduated high school considering amount work hand due unable focus managed get university first time program failed subject ended dropping fast forward year finally received adhd diagnosis medication went back complete art option transfer finished straight got accepted biomedicine choice enrolling still feel real elated nervous,-0.02,Neutral
"Iv taken Vyvanse, Adderal XR, IR, for years and for the first few years it was great and worked well but now if i take it i get severely depressed, like hopeless.

I have also tried methylphenidate and i have the same issue.

Low or high does doesnt seem to matter. Are there any alternatives for me? Thinking of trying Concerta again.",adhd,iv taken vyvanse adderal xr ir year first great worked well take get severely depressed like hopeless also tried methylphenidate issue low high doesnt seem matter alternative thinking trying concerta,0.3,Moderately Positive
"Well I was on concerta 54mg before but switched because I couldn’t stand the side effect anymore. 

It’s been 2 weeks, of adderal. Usually on concerta if I want to do something like a task I just think and I would do it. Now on adderal it seems I have to tell my body to do things. For example I practice taekwondo (a Korean martial art) I’m used to getting in a sparring match and acting on reflex, now it seems that I need to tell my body ever move I want to do. Which at the speed a fight is at makes me go ridiculously slow? When I say tell I mean I have to think about every move vs. being a reflex. 

The same happens for studying, usually ill just read and remember but now, I can read but unless I thought I need to remember this, I don’t remember any of it. 

I feel my brain is a really old computer like those that would follow tasks imputed to it through punch cards, where it only does what it’s asked to do and nothing more.


is this a temporary effect or its this one of the side effects i just need to accept?",adhd,well concerta mg switched stand side effect anymore week adderal usually want something like task think would seems tell body thing example practice taekwondo korean martial art used getting sparring match acting reflex need ever move speed fight make go ridiculously slow say mean every v happens studying ill read remember unless thought feel brain really old computer follow imputed punch card asked nothing temporary one accept,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Got asked to organize out-of-town visitors with multiple individual meetings/moving from place to place/dinners. Why oh why, please let me go back to writing and brainstorming. If they didn't know I have ADHD before...",adhd,got asked organize town visitor multiple individual meeting moving place dinner oh please let go back writing brainstorming know adhd,0.0,Neutral
"I'm a 29 year old male, who was diagnosed with ADHD as a child (14) and have never been treated for it. I haven't been to a doctor since entering the ninth grade at 15, so I do not have a current Primary Doctor. 

The effects of ADHD describe all of the issues I am currently having, and I'd like to approach the subject with a professional, but am extremely anxious about doing so, especially considering the fact I am approaching a doctor with this information. I do have other medical concerns, but none are as concerning to me as my possible ADHD.

My question is, how do I approach a Doctor with my concerns about ADHD, and how will this likely affect the relationship with a new Doctor in the future? Does anyone have any experiences that might help? Any information is appreciated.",adhd,year old male diagnosed adhd child never treated doctor since entering ninth grade current primary effect describe issue currently like approach subject professional extremely anxious especially considering fact approaching information medical concern none concerning possible question likely affect relationship new future anyone experience might help appreciated,0.03,Neutral
"EDIT: I am presribed 10 mg of adderall 2x a day, once in morning, once in afternoon. They are generics for adderall from Walmart pharmacy. It says they are amphetamine/dextroamphetamine made by Teva. 

I saw a doctor, and got prescribed meds about a month ago, after having been diagnosed with an attention disorder 4 years ago (but I knew I couldn't focus and found it hard to have a normal life had for another long before an official diagnoses). I found out it I have depression, and it also helps with it. 

Only 10mg twice a day. My work is easier bc I can be attentive during meetings, and not get derailed to non work duties. I also finished things in a couple hours I pushed off finishing for several months. 

But it helped me to not only to finish things I've started, but it also makes me feel normal. 

Specifically, I realized before the meds I was having these feelings of depression/unhappiness/sadness that I hadn't noticed before bc it was with me for so long. I didn't know these feelings weren't right - to me they were the status quo, normal feelings of day-to-day. 

Now when I am on meds, I get the feeling of being normal/content/okay. I feel I'm at a level of ""normal state"". I realized what I was feeling before the meds was the feeling of I guess not enough natural levels of endorphine/dopamine. 

I guess it sucked to suck back then.",adhd,edit presribed mg adderall day morning afternoon generic walmart pharmacy say amphetamine dextroamphetamine made teva saw doctor got prescribed med month ago diagnosed attention disorder year knew focus found hard normal life another long official diagnosis depression also help twice work easier bc attentive meeting get derailed non duty finished thing couple hour pushed finishing several helped finish started make feel specifically realized feeling unhappiness sadness noticed know right status quo content okay level state guess enough natural endorphine dopamine sucked suck back,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Since I can't find much about this topic and when I do find something the answers range from 'amphetamines eat away your muscle like nothing else' to 'I've made the best gains in my life while I was on ADHD medication', I figured I'd make a post.

I've been using dexamphetamine for a week now (3 x 2.5mg, dose will propably increase in a couple of days). So far I have much more motivation and my attention is way better. 
Since one of my hobbies is fitness/bodybuilding 6x a week I don't want the meds to have a negative effect on my physique. 

Did you guys noticed, apart from appetite reduction, any negative effect when you wanted to gain mass, or in maintaining muscle mass during a cut? Also do you noticed an increase in metabolism? (again, some people say it will increase metabolism like crazy where others say that the only reason for losing weight is the appetite suppression and thus not getting enough calories.)

I had some appetite suppression first, but that is gone now. So I think eating won't be much of an issue when my doc increases the dose and I get used to that.

TL:DR

Do ADHD meds (in particular dexamphetamine) have any effects on gaining/maintaining muscle mass? (other than appetite reduction)








",adhd,since find much topic something answer range amphetamine eat away muscle like nothing else made best gain life adhd medication figured make post using dexamphetamine week mg dose propably increase couple day far motivation attention way better one hobby fitness bodybuilding want med negative effect physique guy noticed apart appetite reduction wanted mass maintaining cut also metabolism people say crazy others reason losing weight suppression thus getting enough calorie first gone think eating issue doc get used tl dr particular gaining,0.15,Moderately Positive
"This is my first time making a post on reddit after using the site for multiple hours a day for probably three years. I feel like I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown, even though I know I can cope with it, after years upon years of failure and the resulting anxiety and depression. It's kind of laughable how numerous my problems are and how large they have become, but it makes sense that I got to this point considering I found a fairly stable coping strategy involving a lot of self-medicating. My goal isn't to be some ultra successful doctor or lawyer or businessman - I just want to reach a level where I can successfully start to fulfill the responsibilities of an adult on a daily basis, using the skills I already know and have employed before, without the sheer agony of fighting my own thoughts. 

Now that the above is off my chest, the reason for my post: I am nearly 100% sure that I have adult ADD (as well as health anxiety, and previously panic disorder), but I am putting off seeking any professional help because I know for a fact I will not be helped by any medication as a result of my past experiences. When I was diagnosed with panic disorder, my neurologist tried to put me on an SSRI. Because of my extensive health anxiety, I sat up all night with a bucket next to me ready to throw up after I had taken my first pill. When I reported this result to the doctor, he just shook his head in disbelief because the ""pill doesn't even have an effect for about seven days."" Apparently I have this fear of taking medication that will alter my mental state that manifests in real, physical symptoms of anxiety. I also had to completely quit caffeine after being a VERY heavy drinker for the same reason. Because I have heard that medication used to treat ADHD can have similar side effects to that of SSRI's, I don't dare think medication would be an option for me. 

Has anyone had success seeking professional help with the intention of never taking any sort of medication? Because all though I feel overwhelmed and anxious 24/7 when I can't get any work done, I don't think I would trade that for the way I feel in the midst of strong health anxiety. I know this post was unnecessarily long for the purpose of just asking the above question, but some part of me feels like writing this down somewhere where people can see will somehow serve as an important first step in getting help. Anyways, thanks for your help.",adhd,first time making post reddit using site multiple hour day probably three year feel like edge nervous breakdown even though know cope upon failure resulting anxiety depression kind laughable numerous problem large become make sense got point considering found fairly stable coping strategy involving lot self medicating goal ultra successful doctor lawyer businessman want reach level successfully start fulfill responsibility adult daily basis skill already employed without sheer agony fighting thought chest reason nearly sure add well health previously panic disorder putting seeking professional help fact helped medication result past experience diagnosed neurologist tried put ssri extensive sat night bucket next ready throw taken pill reported shook head disbelief effect seven apparently fear taking alter mental state manifest real physical symptom also completely quit caffeine heavy drinker heard used treat adhd similar side dare think would option anyone success intention never sort overwhelmed anxious get work done trade way midst strong unnecessarily long purpose asking question part writing somewhere people see somehow serve important step getting anyways thanks,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I've been on Wellbutrin XL off label for adhd, for almost four months now. What the hell is it supposed to be doing? Last month they upped me from 150mg to 300mg. All that seems to have done is given me tachycardia and higher blood pressure. I had mild improvement early on, but that was also the time I was getting over anemia.

I don't feel anymore motivated or organized than without it. Concerta worked. It worked well. 

TLDR; wellbutrin sucks, did it work for you?

(and why I'm not on Concerta, this is a new practice and I'm still waiting for their mandatory adhd testing, even though I was diagnosed in childhood and college, so they can't or won't prescribe the things I've had good experience with. I think the guy is using me as Guinea pig.) ",adhd,wellbutrin xl label adhd almost four month hell supposed last upped mg seems done given tachycardia higher blood pressure mild improvement early also time getting anemia feel anymore motivated organized without concerta worked well tldr suck work new practice still waiting mandatory testing even though diagnosed childhood college prescribe thing good experience think guy using guinea pig,0.25,Moderately Positive
"We are both academics. I mentioned how I was proud that I had been able to read a journal article a day so far this week (better than my normal rate of one every few weeks). She looked puzzled, and mentioned how she used to read several journal articles each day. I know she didn't mean to undermine me, but it feels kinda crappy. Maybe some of you can relate.",adhd,academic mentioned proud able read journal article day far week better normal rate one every looked puzzled used several know mean undermine feel kinda crappy maybe relate,0.22,Moderately Positive
"I'm doing data entry for a company and I have to say it's really difficult to focus on it for more than 5 seconds.

It brings up all these fears about not being good enough for other jobs, but maybe other jobs will be nicer when I can care about the work I'm doing.

I don't know... Advice?",adhd,data entry company say really difficult focus second brings fear good enough job maybe nicer care work know advice,0.05,Moderately Positive
Basically it is just as written in the title. One of my roommates who has ADD showed me some videos and articles and is pretty convinced I have ADD and after hearing some people describe it I'm actually starting to think I might as well. So is does anyone one know of a good site to go and find a place or maybe a fellow redditor in Seattle knows of a place I can go. I only ask because I have noticed not all people even some doctors take it that seriously.,adhd,basically written title one roommate add showed video article pretty convinced hearing people describe actually starting think might well anyone know good site go find place maybe fellow redditor seattle ask noticed even doctor take seriously,0.15,Moderately Positive
"I've always been very good at self learning. I read about it, I learn it, I've got it. But for some reason, whenever someone else is trying to teach me something, it's like there is a veil over my mind. I'm watching what they're doing,...but for the life of me I cannot force myself to listen. It's like they're just background noise while I stare blankly at what they're trying to teach me. I've always had this issue and it's harmed me greatly in school because my mind just goes every way aside from the right way. But, when I teach myself things, I get it down very quickly...it's so confusing.

EDIT: feeling*",adhd,always good self learning read learn got reason whenever someone else trying teach something like veil mind watching life cannot force listen background noise stare blankly issue harmed greatly school go every way aside right thing get quickly confusing edit feeling,0.3,Moderately Positive
"If you are (mostly) happy with your getting things done (or whatever you'd call it), please share your system and technique and also, what motivates you to stick with it. 

*EDIT 3:* Forget the ""if""-part of the question. What techniques or strategies help you? 

For me, implementation is quite problematic. At the moment, my most important time management technique consists of getting into the library (quiet and productive surrounding). Once I am there, I have no choice but to do something productive. Other than that, some ideas that helped me so far:

* motivation: I think about death often, it wakes me up. Life feels so precious, one moment ago I was a child, watching our old black cat chase imaginary birds in the garden, now I live in a strange city alone; only I remember the cat. Streets and faces rushing by, one day it will all be gone, how can I bring this moment of my fleeting life to light up? This, even if it is not optimal, I only have this, here, now. - what do?

* consistency: It became a ritual to spend 2 minutes with the time stuff every evening, at least. I still forget it pretty often, some mayhem later, I ruefully come back to it. Also, on an unstructured day, I feel crappy, which reminds me to get back to it again. 

* paper: Everything I write by hand gets somehow marked as important. Probably the movement of the hand (more effort makes it ""stick""). On the iPod/iPhone, everything looks so beautiful, I don't perceive it as real, plus I get distracted. Paper system.

* Month - week -day: In my notebook I keep a list with the things I hope to get done this year and in the next three months. Also, I have a paper calendar that I 'tuned' with additional lists: One list for what I want to get done this month (only most important), one list for most important things to get done this week, seven individual sheets for each week, with a rough sketch of the day and the most important things I want to get done today. 

* chains for the Regular: For regular tasks like writing and doing some sport, I have a printed monthly calendar over my desk. Every day I do one of these I mark an x. I forgot who invented this technique but it helps a lot.

* timeboxing: I try to dedicate longer stretched of time to projects. I found the Pomodori Technique very helpful, although I just use a boiled down version (working in 25-minute-blocks, counting them) 

* willpower: Two years ago I was so desperate about my adhd that I started with Zen. Since then, I am sitting on a cushion (more or less) every morning, staring against the wall. This became a habit, and the days usually go downhill when I forget. I found the book from Roy Baumeister very inspiring (""willpower""). Being able to implement the plan, I find it more important than the details of the 'technique'. And of course, medication whenever necessary.

* Challenges: After completing my dissertation, suddenly I became a cave man. I discovered that for my 'time management' to work, I need to feel challenged by goals I perceive as worthy – no one needs time management just to decide when go shopping and bring out the trash. My current problem: I need to do more!

* inspiring people: Meeting people who have a lot of energy, who get loads of shit done, especially the right kind of it, I find it inspiring. Once I want to be part of it, I become more productive. I am glad that I met quite a few people who are very successful *and* friendly, it is important to know that this is not a contradiction.

* tactical mediocricy: Most of the tasks I should (sic) do can be done less than perfect, so I'd focus on doing a shit job, fast. 

* gratitude and forgiveness: All that said, I mess up pretty badly, often. But I found it only gets worse if I berate myself for it, or feel ashamed – then I spiral back into depression and that's it for time management. Currently reading David Burns' ""Feeling Good"", many good ideas here for self-acceptance. I still find it hard to focus on the positive, but very gratifiying whenever I do.

* environment: For me, the library works best (working atmosphere + people working). Also, headphones with some relaxing white/brown/pink noise in it. 

* internet-less : when nothing else works, applications like ""freedom"" do. I feel a bit ashamed every time I use it, but sometimes it is unavoidable, and it always helps to refocus.

* motivation II: Once I found a goal that I perceive as worthy, I want to be able to complete it, no matter what. Hyperfocus, if you want to call it that way. Still figuring out how to direct the laser beam....

Of course, what I've done for the past hour was not a good example of time mangement at all. I am still recovering from a cold, and if Baumeister has it right, willpower gets reduced then. But this is not an excuse: Goodbye to the internet now, I will start freedom for 60 minutes and use the time to take a shower, do some zen and move to the library for the rest of the day, to write at least one application.

*EDIT*: Almost 3pm, I am still at home. !!!!! Does it still make sense to go to the library? My time management is in pieces at the moment, I hate living alone. Shitshitshit. Anyways, time to leave, if only for two hours.

*EDIT 2*: It is hard not to feel like a failure at times like these. I decided to stay at home, this place is a mess. 1h of cleaning my apartment. Desk is clear again, tomorrow it'll be easier to out of here early. Now again, time to work on those lists. I want at least one thing done today.

*EDIT 4*: Finally caught the day by its tail, sort of: 6 Pomodoros, clean apartment, preparations for tomorrow done (layed out clothes and packed my bag to go). Tomorrow.

**TL;DR**: Despite some theoretical knowledge about time management, OP sets a negative example. How do you get things done yourself, how do you get out of a rut? ",adhd,mostly happy getting thing done whatever call please share system technique also motivates stick edit forget part question strategy help implementation quite problematic moment important time management consists library quiet productive surrounding choice something idea helped far motivation think death often wake life feel precious one ago child watching old black cat chase imaginary bird garden live strange city alone remember street face rushing day gone bring fleeting light even optimal consistency became ritual spend minute stuff every evening least still pretty mayhem later ruefully come back unstructured crappy reminds get paper everything write hand somehow marked probably movement effort make ipod iphone look beautiful perceive real plus distracted month week notebook keep list hope year next three calendar tuned additional want seven individual sheet rough sketch today chain regular task like writing sport printed monthly desk mark forgot invented lot timeboxing try dedicate longer stretched project found pomodori helpful although use boiled version working block counting willpower two desperate adhd started zen since sitting cushion le morning staring wall habit usually go downhill book roy baumeister inspiring able implement plan find detail course medication whenever necessary challenge completing dissertation suddenly cave man discovered work need challenged goal worthy decide shopping trash current problem people meeting energy load shit especially right kind become glad met successful friendly know contradiction tactical mediocricy sic perfect focus job fast gratitude forgiveness said mess badly worse berate ashamed spiral depression currently reading david burn feeling good many self acceptance hard positive gratifiying environment best atmosphere headphone relaxing white brown pink noise internet nothing else application freedom bit sometimes unavoidable always refocus ii complete matter hyperfocus way figuring direct laser beam past hour example mangement recovering cold reduced excuse goodbye start take shower move rest almost pm home sense piece hate living shitshitshit anyways leave failure decided stay place cleaning apartment clear tomorrow easier early finally caught tail sort pomodoros clean preparation layed clothes packed bag tl dr despite theoretical knowledge op set negative rut,0.12,Moderately Positive
"1) Medicine

2) Dosage

3) How long you've been taking it

4) What you do to make sure you have a productive day

I'll start.

- Vyvanse

- 100 mg

- 2+ years 

- Take the medicine on an empty stomach

- Start being productive the second I feel the medicine kick in

- Take no breaks once I become productive --> Once I take a break, it ends my ability to study & learn difficult topics, prep for presentations, etc. 

- Eat healthy, gluten free diet, work out almost daily, sleep at least 6 hours

- Drink A LOT of water. I mean take a few gulps every minute or so. Always be drinking water, and always have more ready.  

- Drink green tea. 

- Write down a list of things to do, and an order to do them in. Don't think about too many things at once. 

- Avoid interacting with parents. Anyone that can cause the slightest amount of annoyance, frustration, or negativity. Anything like that cuts into my productivity. ",adhd,medicine dosage long taking make sure productive day start vyvanse mg year take empty stomach second feel kick break become end ability study learn difficult topic prep presentation etc eat healthy gluten free diet work almost daily sleep least hour drink lot water mean gulp every minute always drinking ready green tea write list thing order think many avoid interacting parent anyone cause slightest amount annoyance frustration negativity anything like cut productivity,0.05,Moderately Positive
"My insomnia is out of control, and while something I've always struggled with, Dex has made it so much worse. However, after trying pretty much every combo known to man, the drug and dosage works really great otherwise. Spoke to a doctor, who suggested I counteract it with prescribed sleeping pills, and another daily upper to counteract the weight gain caused by the the sleepers. I said, no, I'm not doing that,  and am now slowly working my way through herbal sleep remedies. I've found a couple I like, but am curious if anyone else is dealing with this. Any suggestions/combos you'd recommend? ",adhd,insomnia control something always struggled dex made much worse however trying pretty every combo known man drug dosage work really great otherwise spoke doctor suggested counteract prescribed sleeping pill another daily upper weight gain caused sleeper said slowly working way herbal sleep remedy found couple like curious anyone else dealing suggestion recommend,0.04,Neutral
"  
  Because I love to read and have previously thought of myself as a creative person, one aspect of studying for a recent exam that I've struggled to come to grips with, is my inability to come up with examples of concepts if I haven't heard them before.   
  

  As an example: I'm studying for a logic exam and KNOW what a Straw Man Fallacy is, I'm able to remember examples of this fallacy from the book and recall other examples of that I've heard in real life or from reading other books, but find it EXTREMELY difficult to come up with examples of my own or different TYPES of examples if I haven't been exposed to them. 
  
  When prompted to come up with original examples with a tutor, I stall and struggle and am frustrated that I sound like I haven't studied, when I UNDERSTAND the material.   
  
  
It makes me feel extremely uncreative, when I've always felt that creativity was one of my strengths!


  I'll understand the flaw or how I can fix what's wrong with an argument, but then struggle to come up with alternative examples that I haven't heard before. 

  
I otherwise think of myself as an intuitive person, and can see themes and connections in life and in literature easily, but in thinking about it now, it's because I can RECALL past examples, and see connections between things that I already understand, not generate new concepts.

  
Anyone see similar struggles with abstract thinking/ways of overcoming it?

TL;DR I suck at generating new examples of abstract concepts.",adhd,love read previously thought creative person one aspect studying recent exam struggled come grip inability example concept heard logic know straw man fallacy able remember book recall real life reading find extremely difficult different type exposed prompted original tutor stall struggle frustrated sound like studied understand material make feel uncreative always felt creativity strength flaw fix wrong argument alternative otherwise think intuitive see theme connection literature easily thinking past thing already generate new anyone similar abstract way overcoming tl dr suck generating,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Pertinant Info: On Strattera, proper dosage for my weight. Traditional stimulants don't really work for me anymore.

The past few months have been exceptionally difficult for me, it felt increasingly like my meds weren't being effective and I was relying more and more on my behavior modifications to get through the day. I was still productive at work, but other things are suffering. Before work would even be done, I'd be exhausted.

So enter this week. It honestly feels like I just started on Strattera again. I'm much more able to focus, and my side effects have returned after several months of being intermittent as well. Up until that, I thought it might just be stress -- I'm moving, my husband was finishing up his first year teaching, etc, and these haven't changed -- but the side effects returning makes me wonder about if something was physically wrong with my meds.

Has this happened to anyone else?

TL&DR: Strattera seemed to lose effectiveness, suddenly returns to full force. Makes me curious if it's happened to others.",adhd,pertinant info strattera proper dosage weight traditional stimulant really work anymore past month exceptionally difficult felt increasingly like med effective relying behavior modification get day still productive thing suffering would even done exhausted enter week honestly feel started much able focus side effect returned several intermittent well thought might stress moving husband finishing first year teaching etc changed returning make wonder something physically wrong happened anyone else tl dr seemed lose effectiveness suddenly return full force curious others,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I hate family gatherings, but today was a MUST for my bday.
Got picked on and felt attacked because I can't hold down a job.  Got told to suck it up and work for income and that my rent will be raised.  Of course I blurt out something stupid like ""If I'm not happy with a job, I won't waste my life on it.""  Iunno.. just needed somewhere to vent as you guys understand how hard it is for some of us to focus on the future.. that we don't realize things until it hits us NOW.  Hate negative talk, but I just feel so done a lot..  Someone tell me a funny joke I want to smile again haha

EDIT:  Thanks everyone for the jokes and the kind words.  I feel a whoooole lot better now I'm ready to party! haha not really its late.. I should sleep.. but cant.. but thanks again!! :)",adhd,hate family gathering today must bday got picked felt attacked hold job told suck work income rent raised course blurt something stupid like happy waste life iunno needed somewhere vent guy understand hard u focus future realize thing hit negative talk feel done lot someone tell funny joke want smile haha edit thanks everyone kind word whoooole better ready party really late sleep cant,0.02,Neutral
"I here a lot of talk on here that many stims mess with guy's junk. That being said the combo i'm doing might make it harder (i'm sorry) for me to tell if it's the stims giving me limp dick or just my brain getting used to not getting my dopamine fix off porn. 

I'm probably thinking of this too much but i just wondered what people thought (5mg of dexedrine seeing the doctor friday though)",adhd,lot talk many stims mess guy junk said combo might make harder sorry tell giving limp dick brain getting used dopamine fix porn probably thinking much wondered people thought mg dexedrine seeing doctor friday though,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"I am wondering how the psychological tests work for ADHD. Is it possible to get a falsely negative result, but still have it? 

I acknowledge that I am asking since I passed the screening test (it was an IQ test), and I was told I did not have it. I am aware of the rule that says 'do not ask for a diagnosis', so here Im only giving you the context for you to understand why Im asking that question. So, my therapist referred me to another general therapist who made me pass what I believe was the Weschler or WAIIS or something with a 'W' test. My therapist and I were both very surprised to have a negative result, but we were both also very surprised to be told that I have a very average IQ (not to brag, but Ive been to gifted schools). He used the word 'underperforming'. Ive always been told one of my main assets is my high intelligence, Im very good in maths, science, arts, in French, my mother tongue in which I passed the test). Btw the test seemed to be logical thinking, culture, spatial attention, and language. I found the test interesting and I was motivated to accomplish the task, like I do when I solve algorithm/programming assignments.
However, I have all the symptoms: distracted (always forgetting what I just did or said, always lost in my thoughts), impulsive attention (my attention keeps being distracted and I keep staring at random stuff, so it seems like Im not listening to the person Im talking to). Despite my efforts, I'm always at least 20 mins late everywhere I go because I lose track of time...  Im even late to most of my job interviews... I took driving lessons, but I never want to drive since I know I was very dangerous (I didnt even pass the practical exam anyways)... Im also fidget, very driven, passionate. It's very hard for me not to interrupt people when they're talking because Im afraid I will forget what I want to say... but I managed to find tricks (like using my phone calendar, writing on a sheet of paper what I have to remember and putting it in front of my exit door so I dont forget anything before I leave, etc.). Luckily, Im in 2 very small programs in university, and my professors agree to give me extensions on my assignments. Otherwise, I would never complete university.

So again, even if Im putting you in context, Im not looking here for your opinion on whether I have it or not personally. 
Im wondering if it is possible, in theory, for the screening test to not be 100% reliable. 
",adhd,wondering psychological test work adhd possible get falsely negative result still acknowledge asking since passed screening iq told aware rule say ask diagnosis im giving context understand question therapist referred another general made pas believe weschler waiis something surprised also average brag ive gifted school used word underperforming always one main asset high intelligence good math science art french mother tongue btw seemed logical thinking culture spatial attention language found interesting motivated accomplish task like solve algorithm programming assignment however symptom distracted forgetting said lost thought impulsive keep staring random stuff seems listening person talking despite effort least min late everywhere go lose track time even job interview took driving lesson never want drive know dangerous didnt practical exam anyways fidget driven passionate hard interrupt people afraid forget managed find trick using phone calendar writing sheet paper remember putting front exit door dont anything leave etc luckily small program university professor agree give extension otherwise would complete looking opinion whether personally theory reliable,-0.02,Neutral
I'm tossing around the idea of therapy but would like to know your experiences. I'm afraid to take this step.,adhd,tossing around idea therapy would like know experience afraid take step,-0.6,Negative
"**TL;DR:** fiancé annoyed bc hyperactivity appears to be worse after diagnosis; maybe I’m so relieved my anxiety has “disappeared” and I’m my “true self”??

* I tried searching previous posts but could only find before and after medication
* for years I’ve been treated for depression & anxiety but I still felt as though there was an underlying reason
* I [25F] was officially diagnosed with ADHD-C a week ago (with D&A being secondary, not comorbid) and it felt like everything about my life suddenly made sense and a weight had been lifted off of me
* since my diagnosis I’ve felt elated bc I was starting to understand myself, why I do the things I do etc 
* evidently my hyperactivity behaviors(?) Have gone through the roof since finding out, like my anxiety disappeared and I could finally relax so I’m just the “true me”??
* anyway, my fiancé (non-ADHD) said last night that he couldn’t wait till I got medication bc I’ve gotten worse since finding out (I.e. I’m annoying)
* I’m not really sure whether I’m posting this for advice on how to handle that comment (obviously I don’t want him thinking I’m annoying) and while I AM pursuing medication to help with school, the comment kinda hurt and idk how to approach it
* but also curious if others have experienced this “worsening” of symptoms",adhd,tl dr fianc annoyed bc hyperactivity appears worse diagnosis maybe relieved anxiety disappeared true self tried searching previous post could find medication year treated depression still felt though underlying reason officially diagnosed adhd week ago secondary comorbid like everything life suddenly made sense weight lifted since elated starting understand thing etc evidently behavior gone roof finding finally relax anyway non said last night wait till got gotten annoying really sure whether posting advice handle comment obviously want thinking pursuing help school kinda hurt idk approach also curious others experienced worsening symptom,-0.02,Neutral
"Hi, 

I'm coming around to the idea I might have ADD. Have currently wasted half the day reading threads and pages about it. 

Just found [this article](https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/may-i-have-your-attention/201209/everybody-has-adhd-no-they-dont). 

It shows the responses of people with ADHD vs. non-adhd community when asked about various symptoms. 

I was pretty surprised. Honestly thought at least half of these ""symptoms"" were normal. 

Anyone else surprised? Any thoughts? Have had low self esteem forever due to my underachieving and thinking I was just lazy or ... depressed or something. 

",adhd,hi coming around idea might add currently wasted half day reading thread page found article show response people adhd v non community asked various symptom pretty surprised honestly thought least normal anyone else low self esteem forever due underachieving thinking lazy depressed something,0.01,Neutral
"I've been struggling in school this semester. mega overload, disorganization, and procrastination. I've forsaken help with the the university services, and they're helping me with scheduling and time management. But my problem lies with STARTING things. I'll sit down and wont even start any actual work for like an hour or so, and then nothing will ever get done. Im okay when im in the zone, but getting to the zone is a major obstacle. Just wondering what kind of strategies you all use for this dilema. Thanks.",adhd,struggling school semester mega overload disorganization procrastination forsaken help university service helping scheduling time management problem lie starting thing sit wont even start actual work like hour nothing ever get done im okay zone getting major obstacle wondering kind strategy use dilema thanks,0.23,Moderately Positive
"First, let me acknowledge that overall, medication has helped my life tremendously. I don't think I would have been able to succeed in High School and get into a good college without it.  

That being said, as I have cultivated a better sense of self-awareness and have been able to notice the key differences between my mind on and off medications, I can only describe this shift on mental state like being Jekyll and Hyde. When I'm on my meds, I am baffled at all of things I previously did that day before I took my medication and wonder what made me do them (I have short lasting meds I take three times a day, have to time when I can take them). 

Furthermore, when I'm on my meds I am very productive, yet I find myself becoming super anti-social (which has its drawbacks as well) and later after they wear off, I wonder why I was acting so rude or drawn in, even with my close friends. 

TL;DR: It feels like my medicated and unmedicated self do whatever they can to sabotoge one another. ",adhd,first let acknowledge overall medication helped life tremendously think would able succeed high school get good college without said cultivated better sense self awareness notice key difference mind describe shift mental state like jekyll hyde med baffled thing previously day took wonder made short lasting take three time furthermore productive yet find becoming super anti social drawback well later wear acting rude drawn even close friend tl dr feel medicated unmedicated whatever sabotoge one another,0.15,Moderately Positive
"I'd like to take some sort of ADHD meds to keep me focused, but I really don't want my tourettes coming back (just tics, not yelling and whatnot, to clarify). Please let me know what you guys think!

Edit: Thanks for the replies guys. I can always count on Reddit to help me out!",adhd,like take sort adhd med keep focused really want tourette coming back tic yelling whatnot clarify please let know guy think edit thanks reply always count reddit help,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Thinking about getting my GF who has ADHD one of those weighted blankets for Christmas. Was wondering if anyone had experience with them, whether they worked well or were worth it or what brands you would recommend? I’m looking at this Mossaic one now.

She likes when I kind of sleep on top of her and put weight on her before bed so it seems like it would be good for her. Something like divide their weight by 10 and add 2 lbs for how heavy to get. Probably looking to get between a 10-16 lb one.

Thanks!",adhd,thinking getting gf adhd one weighted blanket christmas wondering anyone experience whether worked well worth brand would recommend looking mossaic like kind sleep top put weight bed seems good something divide add lb heavy get probably thanks,0.35,Moderately Positive
"I keep getting more and more anxious every day. I think my adhd is getting worse, causing me to lose focus, which ends up in me getting poor grades in school. I haven't seen my friends as much lately either. and I think my adhd is making all of this worse.",adhd,keep getting anxious every day think adhd worse causing lose focus end poor grade school seen friend much lately either making,-0.34,Moderately Negative
"As /r/adhd increases in size, we find ourselves in a critical stage of development. We as a subreddit can either fall into a pattern of repetition (allowing our community to get bored/overwhelmed with repeated topics/questions), lost in a sea of memes/pictures/questions/noise, or we can proactively shift the tides towards making /r/ADHD a perpetually flourishing community based on scientific findings and personal discovery.

***
## The main purpose of this thread:

* Provide a place for people to **ask simple questions** which may not need a dedicated post.
* Give people **new to the  /r/ADHD community (and there are thousands of you)** a chance to say hello and share a bit about their strengths, struggles, and dreams.

***
We decided to start a new weekly thread on Fridays in an **attempt to consolidate the frequent “beginner” questions and introductions into one place.** After discussing this in our [/r/ADHD chatroom](http://webchat.freenode.net/?channels=/r/ADHD) the conclusion is that we must **address the increase in basic questions posted in /r/adhd.**



## Also, if you’re new to our little community, (or even if you’re not and you just want to do this anyway!) this is the place to say hello!!

*By the way, these threads are going to help build /r/ADHD’s FAQ page, the current version of which can be found [here!](http://code.reddit.com/wiki/help/faqs/ADHD)*

**So, to get to the point of this thread, allow me to introduce /r/ADHD's introductory and basic question thread!**",adhd,adhd increase size find critical stage development subreddit either fall pattern repetition allowing community get bored overwhelmed repeated topic question lost sea meme picture noise proactively shift tide towards making perpetually flourishing based scientific finding personal discovery main purpose thread provide place people ask simple may need dedicated post give new thousand chance say hello share bit strength struggle dream decided start weekly friday attempt consolidate frequent beginner introduction one discussing chatroom conclusion must address basic posted also little even want anyway way going help build faq page current version found point allow introduce introductory,-0.03,Neutral
"My doctor told me I (37M) have mild OCD traits and it could be connected to my ADHD. Is this common?

My daughter has been diagnosed with OCD so I know the symptoms and that mine are pretty mild. I don't want to be one of those people who have common behaviors but convince themselves ""I must be OCD lol"" (I hate that and so does my daughter!)

But I do have certain OCD traits and would like to get some feedback from you all on any connection to ADHD. ",adhd,doctor told mild ocd trait could connected adhd common daughter diagnosed know symptom mine pretty want one people behavior convince must lol hate certain would like get feedback connection,0.08,Moderately Positive
"**Exercise Bikes**

I bought an exercise bike to sit and read on, while peddling. Loved it ... except for the squeaking. Even the graphite and/or silicone lube wasn’t enough. So, avoid the cheap and squeaky ones. 

The simple little peddle wheels you can put under your desk ... I have yet to find one that doesn’t squeak ... and doesn’t keep moving on the ground while peddling. 

**Huge Yoga Balls**

I have a yoga ball that can be filled between 70 - 90 cm in diameter. It’s enough to make it so I can barely touch the ground with my toes. I have the bed behind me, for when I fall (roll) backwards.

I love to sit on it, and lift my toes off the ground, and balance while reading.

Be careful. It burns your ab muscles very slowly. You won’t feel the soreness until the next day. Similar to first using the no-arch support minimalist shoes. 

**Standing Desks**

I also have an adjustable standing desk I purchased from Home Depot for $120. They go in and out of stock. Worth it. They can support 300+ lbs (OP’s mom) and are very sturdy. Don’t get those IKEA ones for $400+ unless you’re willing to put a lot of heavy stuff on them to avoid the wobbling.

[Husky adjustable work bench](http://www.homedepot.com/p/Husky-62-in-x-24-in-D-Work-Table-Black-HOLT62XDB11/206698778)

With standing desks, a $20 fatigue mat is worth it for where you’re standing. I do fatigue mat and croc shoes ... amazing. You can also buy fatigue mats by the roll from Home Depot and Lowe’s. The quality is okay. 

**The End**",adhd,exercise bike bought sit read peddling loved except squeaking even graphite silicone lube enough avoid cheap squeaky one simple little peddle wheel put desk yet find squeak keep moving ground huge yoga ball filled cm diameter make barely touch toe bed behind fall roll backwards love lift balance reading careful burn ab muscle slowly feel soreness next day similar first using arch support minimalist shoe standing also adjustable purchased home depot go stock worth lb op mom sturdy get ikea unless willing lot heavy stuff wobbling husky work bench fatigue mat croc amazing buy lowe quality okay end,0.16,Moderately Positive
"I was diagnosed with ADHD 6 months ago, and have been grateful ever since. It gives me a decent excuse as to why part of me tells me to do something, and the other part actively disagrees. It's like my brain is split into a liberal and conservative party. The liberal side is constantly proposing for changes (potentially harmful ones as well as productive ones), and the conservative disagrees, no matter what the change is. This has become an immense dilemma when it comes to socialising. I'll put the thought in my head that I need to talk to someone, stranger or friend, and do fuck all with it. Do any of you share this issue? Do any of you have any workarounds?",adhd,diagnosed adhd month ago grateful ever since give decent excuse part tell something actively disagrees like brain split liberal conservative party side constantly proposing change potentially harmful one well productive matter become immense dilemma come socialising put thought head need talk someone stranger friend fuck share issue workarounds,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I'm a current user of 30mg of Adderall twice a day, also self medicate with caffeine on weekends.  But I only seem to be content when I'm on my medication or on caffeine, once I come down I'm a disaster again. I forget to eat and have trouble sleeping when I'm on my meds, but if I take any less I don't really feel any benefits. 

Should I maybe be looking to stop medication, as it seems to only be a short term solution for me?  (No offense to anyone who stimulants work excellent for, maybe they're just not for me)

Are other stimulant users content when off of their medicine?  I've heard that being properly stimulated during the day actually makes people sleep better at night, so stimulants help them sleep.

I forgot to mention that I've been diagnosed with ADD, ADHD, depression, and possibly anxiety (in progress)...",adhd,current user mg adderall twice day also self medicate caffeine weekend seem content medication come disaster forget eat trouble sleeping med take le really feel benefit maybe looking stop seems short term solution offense anyone stimulant work excellent medicine heard properly stimulated actually make people sleep better night help forgot mention diagnosed add adhd depression possibly anxiety progress,0.17,Moderately Positive
"I can't find a way to tell my teachers about it without sounding like i'm making excuses (just got diagnosticated, wont have meds for at least a few months so i'm kind of a huge mess atm)

What's your experience about this?",adhd,find way tell teacher without sounding like making excuse got diagnosticated wont med least month kind huge mess atm experience,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Does anyone else have this problem. I've been diagnosed with ADHD since I was eight. I took took Ritalin until the age of 14, then stopped because I couldn't stand taking it anymore. 

Within the past two years, I started taking medication again, but this time it was Adderall. I've had some amazing results with it and will continue to take it, but I've always felt I had Petit Mal Seizures. 

It didn't matter what I would be doing at the time, but I've noticed that when I get ""excited"" (no not sexually) I would begin to twitch and smile uncontrollably. My parents have noticed this as well, but we've never put two and two together. 

Does anyone have Petit Mal Seizures and ADHD that could explain how I would go about treating this. ",adhd,anyone else problem diagnosed adhd since eight took ritalin age stopped stand taking anymore within past two year started medication time adderall amazing result continue take always felt petit mal seizure matter would noticed get excited sexually begin twitch smile uncontrollably parent well never put together could explain go treating,0.31,Moderately Positive
"I live in California.  I recently got diagnosed and was prescribed Dexedrine.  My doctor told me he had to charge me $20 to ""write it on this special pad"" and that it wasn't covered by my insurance.  So it had to be 100% out of pocket.   Then I took my 'script to the pharmacy, so it's not like the charge was to actually fill the prescription.  This is completely new and very strange to me as I have really amazing insurance ($0 co-pay for visits or medication).  

 
I tried to google, but it's pretty hard to find any related information and I don't know anyone else in CA that will openly discuss their ADHD diagnosis or medication. 

Is this normal, just a California thing, or is my doctor up to something duplicitous.

**TL;DR: Is my California doctor jerking me around by charging me extra to write prescriptions?**",adhd,live california recently got diagnosed prescribed dexedrine doctor told charge write special pad covered insurance pocket took script pharmacy like actually fill prescription completely new strange really amazing co pay visit medication tried google pretty hard find related information know anyone else ca openly discus adhd diagnosis normal thing something duplicitous tl dr jerking around charging extra,0.1,Moderately Positive
So this year I'm preparing taxes and the last thing I had to do was renew my PTIN and finish an open book test. The first thing takes literally like a min and the other is an open book 20 question test so there's no way to fail it. It took me 8 hours to eventually force myself to sit down and just do it. I ended up retaking that dam test 10 times because it was so painful to focus on it that I just refused to look for the answers and mostly guessed until I passed it. It was way easier than i made it and it frustrates the hell out of me when I get like this. It's like hitting the runners wall but in my head. I can do it but I just won't. ,adhd,year preparing tax last thing renew ptin finish open book test first take literally like min question way fail took hour eventually force sit ended retaking dam time painful focus refused look answer mostly guessed passed easier made frustrates hell get hitting runner wall head,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Context: Im turning 21 and just found out i have adhd. I had internalized much of relatives telling me off for being forgetful, being lazy and inattentive. While the diagnosis made sense, it wasnt until my boyfriend said this that I really realized how much I blamed myself for my own shortcomings. I needed to hear that its not my fault for forgetting, and if any of you need to hear it too- its not your fault, you are trying and that is amazing, and it is possible to be loved and accepted exactly as you are /sap

EDIT: Wow, this kind of blew up. Glad this resonated with folks and thanks so much for all the kind words and well wishes. It does mean a lot. ",adhd,context im turning found adhd internalized much relative telling forgetful lazy inattentive diagnosis made sense wasnt boyfriend said really realized blamed shortcoming needed hear fault forgetting need trying amazing possible loved accepted exactly sap edit wow kind blew glad resonated folk thanks word well wish mean lot,0.19,Moderately Positive
"Took me about a year and a half to get to the point of my meds just relieving my symptoms and not giving me an instant, speedy feeling.",adhd,took year half get point med relieving symptom giving instant speedy feeling,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"I see this recommended often as a helpful tip on this subreddit, but I have to be honest...even this already seems like a lot of work and I've been procrastinating on NEEDING to do this first before even getting started on writing one word for a big paper, for instance.",adhd,see recommended often helpful tip subreddit honest even already seems like lot work procrastinating needing first getting started writing one word big paper instance,0.28,Moderately Positive
"Hello r/ADHD, 

With the help of this subreddit, I was able to find a doctor here in Egypt to assist me in getting help with my ADD. I have been taking Ritalin twice a day for the last 2 months. It has really done wonders for me in every aspect of my life. Today I went to get my medication at the only pharmacy that sells Ritalin in all of Egypt and they are completely out and have no idea when they will get more. So now after 2 months of having a new life, I am back to square one. Is there anything I can do to help keep myself on point until the medication is back in stock? Any tips would be great. Thanks in advance  ",adhd,hello adhd help subreddit able find doctor egypt assist getting add taking ritalin twice day last month really done wonder every aspect life today went get medication pharmacy sell completely idea new back square one anything keep point stock tip would great thanks advance,0.24,Moderately Positive
"My 7-year-old son was just diagnosed with moderate ADHD-primarily inattentive type and mild (although I disagree with with ""mild"") ODD, and I just want to discuss it and ask questions.  

I am feeling very happy about the diagnoses. It means that our struggles are not our fault, nor his, and that is a big relief to me. I have tried to raise him the ""respectful parenting"" way, and I had been feeling some guilt about it, thinking that maybe I wasn't hard enough on him. I asked him about it, and he said he doesn't want to have ADHD. I tried to make him feel comfortable with it by telling him about the fact that Dad has it, and that a school friend also has ADHD and ODD. He hasn't said anything else about it.

We are going to a follow-up BTW, but I'm really just wondering how it goes from here.  I would appreciate hearing if/how how medication or counseling has helped you. My husband did not have a good experience with medication when he was a kid, so he it's hesitant, but willing to let our son try it. Is there anything you wish your parents had done for you?

As a side note: the evaluator also said he tested as above average for verbal and nonverbal IQ, and that he should be considered for gifted and talented classes at school. How is this supposed to work when he had trouble focusing in regular classes as it is?",adhd,year old son diagnosed moderate adhd primarily inattentive type mild although disagree odd want discus ask question feeling happy diagnosis mean struggle fault big relief tried raise respectful parenting way guilt thinking maybe hard enough asked said make feel comfortable telling fact dad school friend also anything else going follow btw really wondering go would appreciate hearing medication counseling helped husband good experience kid hesitant willing let try wish parent done side note evaluator tested average verbal nonverbal iq considered gifted talented class supposed work trouble focusing regular,0.19,Moderately Positive
"I'm on Dexamphetamines (Dexedril, I think they call it in the US?) and every time I take my meds, I can just *feel* them kick in half an hour later. I can feel my heartrate go up and mind become clearer. I love it.

I've been diagnosed for 7 years, but quit medication (methylfenidate) after a year and a half originally because of the rebound. About a year ago a friend recommend I try Dex, so I took an intake with an institute that specializes in ADHD for adults and requested to try Dex. It helps so much. My mind goes much quieter, the distractions are still there but I'm not compulsed to act on them, and most of all I don't feel... empty... like I did with Methylfenidate, especially in the rebound. I feel productive but not numb.

I have an exam this friday. I'm going to work my ass off and get a good grade for it.",adhd,dexamphetamines dexedril think call u every time take med feel kick half hour later heartrate go mind become clearer love diagnosed year quit medication methylfenidate originally rebound ago friend recommend try dex took intake institute specializes adhd adult requested help much quieter distraction still compulsed act empty like especially productive numb exam friday going work as get good grade,0.1,Moderately Positive
"For those with ADHD, are we being selected for, or against? I have done my fair share of research and digging up articles on the evolution of ADHD and I find that there are articles that say ADHD is detrimental to the human gene pool and should be weeded out, whilst other articles say that ADHD has an evolutionary benefit.

 I'm not sure what to believe. By today's standards ADHD is selected against considering the way of life is not supposed to be based of impulse and chaos, rather it is orderly and focused. 

So are ADHD'ers not fit for human survival? ",adhd,adhd selected done fair share research digging article evolution find say detrimental human gene pool weeded whilst evolutionary benefit sure believe today standard considering way life supposed based impulse chaos rather orderly focused er fit survival,0.32,Moderately Positive
I just want to schedule the damn appointment. Why cant i bring the shit then. Fucking hell.,adhd,want schedule damn appointment cant bring shit fucking hell,-0.4,Moderately Negative
"Is it as simple as slowly lowering your dosage over time with your doctor? 

For those of you that have already done it, any tips/advice for making it a positive and smooth transition?",adhd,simple slowly lowering dosage time doctor already done tip advice making positive smooth transition,0.08,Moderately Positive
"u/ freedomhamburger posted here earlier today about dreaming to open an all ADHD university. I like the idea.

And it had me thinking, if such a university (or high school) existed, what would you want from it? What irks you most about formal education and what would you like to change?",adhd,freedomhamburger posted earlier today dreaming open adhd university like idea thinking high school existed would want irks formal education change,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Hey everyone,

I took my first dosage of medication for ADD this morning, around 8:30 A.M. It's one Adderall XR, 20mg. I felt like I had quite a bit more focus, still some mental chatter going on (I decided to finish a book that I've been trying to continue for the past two months). It wore off at about Noon or 1 P.M. I was hoping it would last longer, since it's an extended release. I have problems with excessive sleepiness, which, now, at 6:45 p.m., is gone. But the concentration and focus I had early this morning is no longer there.

My doctor told me to contact her if I feel like the dosage isn't where it should be. Has anybody else had a similar experience in regards to dosage/efficacy?",adhd,hey everyone took first dosage medication add morning around one adderall xr mg felt like quite bit focus still mental chatter going decided finish book trying continue past two month wore noon hoping would last longer since extended release problem excessive sleepiness gone concentration early doctor told contact feel anybody else similar experience regard efficacy,-0.04,Neutral
"TL;DR on weird regression of symptoms.  Bitter and depressed.  Suggestions and advice needed. 

I was dx a few years back (praise be r/ADHD).  I was on strattera to begin with which was amazing,  but made me too nauseous to function no matter what I tried. 

I tried Concerta.  I tried another one (I think). Since then I have been on dexedrine (dexamphetamine). It was great.  Not anything like the strattera but I could focus more.  I didn't feel foggy.  Except for premenstrual,  I was like an adult.  Well,  late teen maybe... 

Anyway.  This past few months I am all over the place.  My house is hell again.  My notes from uni are non-existant.  My essay writing is a nightmare (great,  as this is yr two so the marks count).  I feel like I'm not on them at all,  or maybe on 1/4 dose. 

I'm currently on 15-20mg a day (depends on amount of lectures etc).  Normally 10 first thing then the others as needed throughout the day.  Yesterday I tried 15 at once and still no use.  I am not at a date my hormones should normally screw me over. 

I'm just getting more low and frustrated.  Knowing I don't have to be THIS anymore and then going backwards is breaking me and the fragile self confidence I was building up.

I know I need to sort seeing my psych (helpfully a new one,  my fifth since dx....), but I don't know what to ask for.  Have I eliminated all the UK meds?  Is increasing possible? Am I just immune? It's not a levelling off situation,  it's full regression.  Should I say fuck it and see if I can handle strattera again??",adhd,tl dr weird regression symptom bitter depressed suggestion advice needed dx year back praise adhd strattera begin amazing made nauseous function matter tried concerta another one think since dexedrine dexamphetamine great anything like could focus feel foggy except premenstrual adult well late teen maybe anyway past month place house hell note uni non existant essay writing nightmare yr two mark count dose currently mg day depends amount lecture etc normally first thing others throughout yesterday still use date hormone screw getting low frustrated knowing anymore going backwards breaking fragile self confidence building know need sort seeing psych helpfully new fifth ask eliminated uk med increasing possible immune levelling situation full say fuck see handle,0.0,Neutral
"I've been on 30mg Adderall XR for a little under a year now and it definitely works, but the high peaks and the crash are a little too much for me, and I need a few more hours of coverage than it offers. She switched me to 40mg Vyvanse- which I thought would work really well, but the last two days have been hell. I feel like I'm in a fog, have no focus, and have been getting migraines. My doctor told me to return what I had left from my XR script into the pharmacy but I didn't just in case the Vyvanse didn't work at all. I'm very busy and don't have time for ""days off."" I try to stick out the Vyvanse but have been taking 10-15mg of my leftover XR in the afternoon just to get by. 

I finally went and read the XR/Vyvanse conversions and realized I'm on what is effectively a 15mg dose of XR- what the hell? It's not a problem with the Vyvanse, I'm having withdrawal symptoms. I won't make it a week on this dose; my school life could very well fall apart. My doctor said to call her in about two weeks and see if we need to adjust the dose- is calling her on Monday too soon? I don't think three days is long enough to evaluate the effectiveness of a new med, but I also don't think switching me to effectively half of what I've been doing is going to work either. Anyone else had this problem? Help! ",adhd,mg adderall xr little year definitely work high peak crash much need hour coverage offer switched vyvanse thought would really well last two day hell feel like fog focus getting migraine doctor told return left script pharmacy case busy time try stick taking leftover afternoon get finally went read conversion realized effectively dose problem withdrawal symptom make week school life could fall apart said call see adjust calling monday soon think three long enough evaluate effectiveness new med also switching half going either anyone else help,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I'm prescribed 20mg of vyvanse. It's fine, even 20mg I find to strong in the ""speedy"" sense. It works very well for immeadiate tasks such as re-organizing data. But it does *absolutely nothing* for long term, sustained attention for a project that might last three months.

Is there medicaiton out there that is known for helping with long term motivation? Or halps with remembering to stay ""on task"" over several weeks?",adhd,prescribed mg vyvanse fine even find strong speedy sense work well immeadiate task organizing data absolutely nothing long term sustained attention project might last three month medicaiton known helping motivation halps remembering stay several week,0.17,Moderately Positive
I'm wondering if only having one active application window at a time might help with keeping on task. Makes it a much more involved and conscious decision to switch from your word document or whatnot to Reddit. What do you all think?,adhd,wondering one active application window time might help keeping task make much involved conscious decision switch word document whatnot reddit think,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I was diagnosed with add when I was young. But I had bad anxiety from the meds and I was taken off it shortly after. I am now 18 and concerned for my future. It appears I can struggle to get my life together for a matter of 3 days. I'm jogging, sleeping, eating a plant based diet and studying. I make to do lists and routines in this obsessive way. But soon enough I crumble from fatigue and starting any task is a life sentence hardly worth attempting. Then all the effort to take care of myself falls away cos I've failed. I'm hoping to be medicated again soon and see if I keep this stability to last in some form. 

So I'm wondering if anyone has any advice for holding out this normality. What do you do to stay fresh and focused? And do you feel any guilt around asking for add medication? A part of me feels worried about going to the doctor and being rejected a script. 

Tl;DR I can only get my life together for 3 days Untill it falls apart. What can i do make this last? ",adhd,diagnosed add young bad anxiety med taken shortly concerned future appears struggle get life together matter day jogging sleeping eating plant based diet studying make list routine obsessive way soon enough crumble fatigue starting task sentence hardly worth attempting effort take care fall away co failed hoping medicated see keep stability last form wondering anyone advice holding normality stay fresh focused feel guilt around asking medication part worried going doctor rejected script tl dr untill apart,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"[X-post of my art: A Distracted Mind](https://www.reddit.com/r/bipolar/comments/7kvg23/a_distracted_mind_a_picture_i_drew_to_depict_the/?st=JBE07BMW&sh=399be5a3)

The link is a link to a picture I drew and posted on the bipolar sub. I guess I can't post pics here, which is why I did it this way. Meh, they can relate there too, so no problem. 

Anyway, this picture is called A Distracted Mind and depicts how it feels to be in my mind. I'm sure all of you could relate. ",adhd,post art distracted mind link picture drew posted bipolar sub guess pic way meh relate problem anyway called depicts feel sure could,0.5,Positive
"I usually enjoy playing video games.  However lately all I do is get angry when other players do something I can't  predict.

It is more than just losing too.  If I can see I am going to lose by being outplayed it usually is fine.  It's when I can't understand what just happened that I get absolutely livid.",adhd,usually enjoy playing video game however lately get angry player something predict losing see going lose outplayed fine understand happened absolutely livid,-0.03,Neutral
"#####Hello my people!

I have been volunteering at [ADD Resources](http://www.addresources.org) (website sucks. Volunteers to help re-design the site wanted...), and I just got hired as their Operations Manager to help plan for the conference, answer phone calls, and create a proper workflow....So I will get PAID to help others with ADHD! I am going to attempt to build an IRL community throughout their membership modeled after /r/ADHD and what I learned here...

***



Anyways, enough about me. The organization has been around almost 20 years and has made a lot of contacts in the ADHD field (almost everyone). I would be happy to play the middleman for you guys/gals.I will contact a majority of the people requested and see if there is any interest. Hopefully we can get one within the next couple weeks...

I will also encourage them to come hang out and be a part of the community (of over 6000). So...request away!

***

*EDIT: AMA = Ask Me Anything. A Q&A format. For those not 'hip' about Reddit and come here just for /r/ADHD*",adhd,people volunteering add resource website suck volunteer help design site wanted got hired operation manager plan conference answer phone call create proper workflow get paid others adhd going attempt build irl community throughout membership modeled learned anyways enough organization around almost year made lot contact field everyone would happy play middleman guy gal majority requested see interest hopefully one within next couple week also encourage come hang part request away edit ama ask anything format hip reddit,0.2,Moderately Positive
"This morning I was talking to my two older boys, both of whom have ADHD, as they were getting ready for school. I mentioned how high energy our house is when my 11 year old said, 

""Yep, because we have ADHD, and that makes us special because we're not the same as everyone else.""

My 10 year old weighed in and said, ""no, my friend Aiden has ADHD too,"" and the 11 year old responded, ""Well he's special too, and so are any of my friends who have it.""

Honestly, I think this may be my greatest achievement as a parent to date. Our house is hectic with 4 kids. The 11 year old has a very tough time in school and socially, the 10 year old has sensory and impulse control issues that lead to disciplinary problems in school and at home. Yet, despite these challenges and them knowing that many of those are a result of ADHD, they see it in a positive light and don't feel alone. I thought I'd share because i'm really glad they don't have to feel the same way many of us did growing up. ",adhd,morning talking two older boy adhd getting ready school mentioned high energy house year old said yep make u special everyone else weighed friend aiden responded well honestly think may greatest achievement parent date hectic kid tough time socially sensory impulse control issue lead disciplinary problem home yet despite challenge knowing many result see positive light feel alone thought share really glad way growing,0.3,Moderately Positive
"I'm currently on Adderall XR 10 mg and Adderall IR 5 mg. I just started taking them together in the morning as I'm smartest in the morning anyway (I can tell b/c I play Spell Tower and am much better at it in the morning). 

I've always taken two day breaks over the weekends. While I love how the meds help my brain to be calm, obviously my weekend brain is the one I'm used to -- creative, daydreaming, absence of urgency/eternal present. 

However, I took a longer break (4 days?) over Memorial Day Weekend and the transition back to meds has been bumpy with a headache I suspect is caffeine withdrawal :(! At the same time it's hard to know if it's meds or caffeine b/c I love coffee so much -- I mean it was how I dealt inadequately with ADHD before I started on meds a few months ago with an official diagnosis.

Anyway, was wondering how other people deal or react. Do most people take weekend meds breaks?

Thanks for the information. Very grateful.",adhd,currently adderall xr mg ir started taking together morning smartest anyway tell play spell tower much better always taken two day break weekend love med help brain calm obviously one used creative daydreaming absence urgency eternal present however took longer memorial transition back bumpy headache suspect caffeine withdrawal time hard know coffee mean dealt inadequately adhd month ago official diagnosis wondering people deal react take thanks information grateful,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Anyone else here find filing any papers whether it school work, important documents etc etc.... incredibly difficult to do? I don't think I've ever successfully filed paperwork. It always lands up in piles on my desk, floor, bed, anywhere and everywhere but in a file.
",adhd,anyone else find filing paper whether school work important document etc incredibly difficult think ever successfully filed paperwork always land pile desk floor bed anywhere everywhere file,0.22,Moderately Positive
"I'm 19 and she told me if I really had ADHD I'd be diagnosed by now so it's very unlikely for me to have it. She also told me both the most commonly used medications in my country (ritalin and strattera) are not covered by insurance. Then she told me she doesn't prescribe either of them anyways, as she doesn't really deal with ADHD being an adults psychiatrist. She said she thinks my problems all have a neurotypical root (or something like that?) so she doesn't see me as someone who has ADHD.

The only good thing about today's appointment was that I got referred to a psychologist, but it wasn't because I mentioned ADHD, it was because she thought I also need someone to talk to about stuff on a deeper level. Psychologists are very expensive in my country, so having the ability to go for free is amazing. 

... But should I try to find one that also specializes in ADHD and bring it up again? At this point I'm really scared and disappointed and I don't want to feel this way again. One part of me wants to pursue a diagnosis (mind you, even a negative one, but I want to go through to process and find out), since right now I feel like everything in my life is crumbling and I see this as the only possible way out, and the other part of me wants to give up completely. What should I do?",adhd,told really adhd diagnosed unlikely also commonly used medication country ritalin strattera covered insurance prescribe either anyways deal adult psychiatrist said think problem neurotypical root something like see someone good thing today appointment got referred psychologist mentioned thought need talk stuff deeper level expensive ability go free amazing try find one specializes bring point scared disappointed want feel way part pursue diagnosis mind even negative process since right everything life crumbling possible give completely,0.0,Neutral
"When I started back to college (University instead of the Community Colleges I was used to), I thought I should get on meds to try to prevent any sort of catastrophic event due to my ADHD.

Since the semester began in August, I've had a very hard time. Trying different meds, different doses, different routines. I have not found anything that reliably works for me as far as any of that goes.

Before I was on meds, I managed okay. I was nervous that college would kick my ass, but I handled my day-to-day at an acceptable level. Since starting them, I have felt lost, helpless and out of control. I've not been able to control my emotions, and I haven't been able to regulate myself at all. My mom taught me when I was young how to meditate, how to realize that I needed to slow down, and basically how to handle my fast-moving brain/thoughts.

Since getting back on meds, I have felt like ADHD is a brand new thing to me, like I have no idea how to manage, handle or control it. Today my psychiatrist and I made the decision that I'll be attempting next semester without medication. I just feel like the meds have created more catastrophic events than I would have created on my own.

So wish me luck, folks. I'm diving headfirst into an engineering degree without medication.",adhd,started back college university instead community used thought get med try prevent sort catastrophic event due adhd since semester began august hard time trying different dos routine found anything reliably work far go managed okay nervous would kick as handled day acceptable level starting felt lost helpless control able emotion regulate mom taught young meditate realize needed slow basically handle fast moving brain getting like brand new thing idea manage today psychiatrist made decision attempting next without medication feel created wish luck folk diving headfirst engineering degree,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I found this post from ADDitude Magazine to be very inspiring: Celebrities with  ADHD  http://bit.ly/2F3JKYA

Emma Watson is listed, and I have always really respected her so it's pretty inspiring to hear she also has ADHD!

Any others not listed there? Or share your own success stories! 
I want to focus on the positives of ADHD for a while :)",adhd,found post additude magazine inspiring celebrity adhd emma watson listed always really respected pretty hear also others share success story want focus positive,0.3,Moderately Positive
"I'm a wife of a husband who got diagnosed with ADHD-I a few years ago. I've done my best to be supportive and do research and talk to my husband about his diagnosis and what I can do to help. We're both currently back in school and he's already on academic probation because he wouldn't go to class and didn't do his homework. We both know he can get the grades ""if only he applied himself"". Obviously, that's not the answer here but what can I do to help him succeed? 

**The frustration:** 
He doesn't know. He always comes back at me with that he just doesn't know what to do but anything I recommend he shoots down saying that he knows it won't work. I've been asking him for the past couple of years to see a therapist and go to an ADD/ADHD self-help group to talk to others but it's been like pulling teeth. I want him to do well but from my perspective, he's seemingly not doing anything to help himself. 

**""Switching Gears""** - He says if he gets interrupted while doing something else it's hard for him to switch gears. But this is literally everything. If I ask him to make me a tea then get a hug on the way into the kitchen, that already is too much because, from his perspective, I've interrupted what he was doing by asking him for two things. So I get this, but how am I suppose to ask him to do anything?

**Doing House Work** - He just doesn't do it. If I don't ask him he won't do it, if I ask him he probably still won't do it. I have to nag him a lot of the time. Writing to-do lists falls on me. Writing events on calendars / planning anything falls on me. I've tried to get him into doing this but he can't form the habit and forgets to even start. 

**Forgetting Everything** - We could have just had a conversation about what we were going to the mall for and five minutes later he can't remember. It's insanely frustrating when making plans in the future because he never remembers the conversations. He won't take notes or write anything down though because he claims he'll forget to take notes or check back in on them. I agree with him there because we've tried this and it hasn't worked historically. 

**Doing *Anything* That He Doesn't Want To Do**** - Usually met with sighs. Complaints that he's tired. Wants another two hours to finish playing his games / surfing the net, etc. Going to class, doing homework, contacting important people in his life, going to sleep, waking up, not napping in the day, not staying on the computer past 9pm for good sleep hygiene... etc. 

I feel like I should end this by saying that we're both 29 yrs old. I also have learning disabilities and have been seeing my own therapist for mental health issues stemming from psychological abuse from my parents. So I realize that I may have a skewed perspective on the matter. 

**TLDR**: I want to be supportive of my husband but he keeps throwing up roadblocks when I try to help him by saying it won't work and that he knows it won't work but refusing to find out what will work. He won't willingly see a therapist or attend any ADD/ADHD self-help groups. We're 29 years old and back in university but he's already on academic probation because he refused to go to class and do his school work.

I want him to succeed, please help! 
Also, any other supporting members out there who know how to deal with this frustration? I sometimes take it out on him and that's not fair but in that moment I feel like it's fair and that's not healthy for either of us.

Edit: We do housework together once a week and have a chart of what needs to get done but it's always at my initation. It's my initiation that's the frustrating part for me. 

",adhd,wife husband got diagnosed adhd year ago done best supportive research talk diagnosis help currently back school already academic probation go class homework know get grade applied obviously answer succeed frustration always come anything recommend shoot saying work asking past couple see therapist add self group others like pulling teeth want well perspective seemingly switching gear say interrupted something else hard switch literally everything ask make tea hug way kitchen much two thing suppose house probably still nag lot time writing list fall event calendar planning tried form habit forgets even start forgetting could conversation going mall five minute later remember insanely frustrating making plan future never remembers take note write though claim forget check agree worked historically usually met sigh complaint tired another hour finish playing game surfing net etc contacting important people life sleep waking napping day staying computer pm good hygiene feel end yr old also learning disability seeing mental health issue stemming psychological abuse parent realize may skewed matter tldr keep throwing roadblock try refusing find willingly attend university refused please supporting member deal sometimes fair moment healthy either u edit housework together week chart need initation initiation part,0.09,Moderately Positive
"I've been on 20mg of Vyvanse for about 3 months. I've always had a real issue with my reading speed. My mind, of course, wanders and it takes me forever to get through a single page. I was so excited when I finally started medication because I thought it would affect my speed, but nothing has changed. I read at the same dragging pace and get distracted the same amount. I also thought it would help me write faster and get thoughts out of my head in a more focused way, but that hasn't changed either. Studying is equally slow-going. I'm talking hours and hours what might take someone a quarter of the time. It's incredibly frustrating and I'm exhausted by the end of these activities.

On the plus side, the medication has given me motivation (which was seriously lacking) and has taken away whatever block was in my way to simply start tasks and follow through. I feel happier and brighter, too. So, I am getting positive things from it.

I haven't been able to discuss this with my psych because he's been unavailable for 2 months. But I plan to speak with him this week. I would really appreciate it if I could have an idea of other people's experiences to know what is a **realistic expectation**. Is this something I just have to accept?

**TLDR: Has anyone who previously had reading speed and focus problems improved once going on medication?**",adhd,mg vyvanse month always real issue reading speed mind course wanders take forever get single page excited finally started medication thought would affect nothing changed read dragging pace distracted amount also help write faster head focused way either studying equally slow going talking hour might someone quarter time incredibly frustrating exhausted end activity plus side given motivation seriously lacking taken away whatever block simply start task follow feel happier brighter getting positive thing able discus psych unavailable plan speak week really appreciate could idea people experience know realistic expectation something accept tldr anyone previously focus problem improved,0.0,Neutral
"Hey guys. I've been contemplating getting properly tested for ADHD. I've done some questionnaires and compared my experiences with some posts here and there. I have also done a preliminary screening at my college's health center in which the lady said I have  74.5% probability of being diagnosed. I am just conflicted on going through with this.

I want to do better with school and social life and maybe ADHD is what is holding me back. But at the same time I'm afraid that I and just wasting my time and money when it may just be me generally being bad at school and awkward. I am also afraid of what will happen after I get tested and have to take meds. It seems like such a life 180 and I'm afraid I'd lose my identity that I have made for my messed up self for so many years.

Also it feels like the questionnaires seem really general and ambiguous that anyone ""normal"" would check off the ADHD symptoms. So I'm not sure.


TLDR: both scared of wasting time and money and actually a bad student and scared of getting diagnosed and having to take meds in fear I will become someone else",adhd,hey guy contemplating getting properly tested adhd done questionnaire compared experience post also preliminary screening college health center lady said probability diagnosed conflicted going want better school social life maybe holding back time afraid wasting money may generally bad awkward happen get take med seems like lose identity made messed self many year feel seem really general ambiguous anyone normal would check symptom sure tldr scared actually student fear become someone else,-0.02,Neutral
So none of my friends have ADHD so its hard to explain certain things or to even understand things. So what's it like talking to someone with ADHD. Does anyone find it helps with anything?,adhd,none friend adhd hard explain certain thing even understand like talking someone anyone find help anything,-0.04,Neutral
"I'm on Ritalin 80 mg and fluoxetine 20 mg daily, since 9 months. I notice some kind of a mental resistance to having my twice daily doses of Ritalin. In other words, I somehow, mentally, do not look forward to my Ritalin doses. I am indifferent to the fluoxetine and can pop in one easily without a second thought.

Any ideas why this could be?",adhd,ritalin mg fluoxetine daily since month notice kind mental resistance twice dos word somehow mentally look forward indifferent pop one easily without second thought idea could,0.14,Moderately Positive
"My memory lets me down so often, its getting ridiculous. Even if I look at myself in the mirror and say ""You will not forget! You will NOT forget!"", then I still forget. I swear, one of these days Im gonna forget wich side of the road to drive on...",adhd,memory let often getting ridiculous even look mirror say forget still swear one day im gonna wich side road drive,-0.33,Moderately Negative
"Hello. So, I'm fairly new on this sub, I asked how to get myself help with my ADHD a while back, and that was so great of you to help me out like that. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Anyway, what do you do that you focus on so hard? For me, its throwing pottery. I love the tactile feeling of the clay in my hands and the feeling of peace and serenity it brings, however, its been nearly 8 months since I've touched a wheel. So, I'm looking to trying new things to see if they stick. Your input is appreciated, and anticipated. Thanks everyone!",adhd,hello fairly new sub asked get help adhd back great like thank bottom heart anyway focus hard throwing pottery love tactile feeling clay hand peace serenity brings however nearly month since touched wheel looking trying thing see stick input appreciated anticipated thanks everyone,0.21,Moderately Positive
"I've finally booked an appointment but I wish I did this about 2-3 months ago. Anyway I know that this psychiatrist is good because of the reviews and the fact that he is entirely booked out until February. 

And if the results come out positive (??) I will be 19 when diagnosed but that is arbitrary anyway. I was really just hoping to get evaluated before the end of the year. I'm also anxious because the appointment will be about a week before university starts again and I don't know if I'll be able to get diagnosed and treated in time. 

The receptionist has asked me to bring school reports along but I'm tentative about this. My school reports combined do not reflect my behaviour at all and I mostly did well in school even though my academic success was very inconsistent. I do however have a couple of pages which do reflect me as a person so maybe I'll hunt for those.

I have no idea what the process will be like. I'm a bit nervous even though it's 2 months away. I want to book an appointment with my psychologist in the meantime to update her. Or maybe I'll see her in the new year.  But I'll need information from her to send to my psychiatrist anyway. 

I'm nervous! And there's way too much to cover in an hour. I just wish the appointment was sooooooner. But oh well! I guess this is good progress, right? 

But ugh I want to be evaluated already!!!!! 

It just makes me sad because I can't believe it's taken this long for me to seek a diagnosis and to realise what the problem is. I've been reflecting on my ADHD symptoms for about 7 months now and it'll be 9 months by the time I finally see the psychiatrist. 

Edit: I guess I also just feel weirdly emotional and I mean a lot could happen in 2 months or a lot couldn't happen. I guess I'm also dreading my birthday.  

Edit 2: I'm wondering if I'd be better off just seeing another psychiatrist who is available at an earlier date? Is it worth the wait? I don't know what to do ",adhd,finally booked appointment wish month ago anyway know psychiatrist good review fact entirely february result come positive diagnosed arbitrary really hoping get evaluated end year also anxious week university start able treated time receptionist asked bring school report along tentative combined reflect behaviour mostly well even though academic success inconsistent however couple page person maybe hunt idea process like bit nervous away want book psychologist meantime update see new need information send way much cover hour sooooooner oh guess progress right ugh already make sad believe taken long seek diagnosis realise problem reflecting adhd symptom edit feel weirdly emotional mean lot could happen dreading birthday wondering better seeing another available earlier date worth wait,0.14,Moderately Positive
Diagnosed with ADHD in January. Currently taking aderall. First few months were excellent. The medicine still works well for the most part. However I snap or get down(not quite depressed) at the drop of a hat. I realize it minutes after. Is there anything I can combine or switch to that may help?  I don't want any ssri's. In the past they cause me to not ejaculate. Any suggestions? Combine aderall with clonidine? Swap to focaline and combine?,adhd,diagnosed adhd january currently taking aderall first month excellent medicine still work well part however snap get quite depressed drop hat realize minute anything combine switch may help want ssri past cause ejaculate suggestion clonidine swap focaline,0.25,Moderately Positive
Just found out my boyfriend of several years has ADHD and I've been doing everything to try to understand him more. It explains a ton of his behavior and I've picked up several books on dating someone with ADHD and have learned a ton. Wanted to know if you guys had any advice? ,adhd,found boyfriend several year adhd everything try understand explains ton behavior picked book dating someone learned wanted know guy advice,0.0,Neutral
"People smile at me. Not those fake smiles, but a genuine one where you can see the glimmer of light in their eyes. I can have meaningful conversation and feel like I am making a real true connection with people. I can make people laugh with ease. Girls approach me, sometime with compliments. Not all the time, but more than before. My co-worker invites me to lunch and we have a good time. I feel like I am starting to see where I fit in this magnificent world.

I feel like I'm truly alive and happy...but only because of adderall. If I am not on my meds, I somehow become an unlikable human being. I'm not mean, rude or inconsiderate to others but I've always felt this 'distance' from pretty much everyone I have ever met, including my family.

I don't feel confident when I'm on my meds. Honestly, I just feel the same exact way without my meds. I don't act or communicate any differently when I'm on my meds vs not on meds, but people only accept me when I'm my medication. People will only smile at me and be friendly when I'm on my meds. If I'm not on my meds, I don't even exist in most people's eyes.

My medication didn't change me in any fundamental way, or at the very least that's what I believe but obviously to others I'm only truly accepted when I'm on adderall.

Don't get me wrong, my medication has done wonders for me as far as being productive but as for establishing meaningful relationship with people and feeling like I truly belong in this world, it kind of makes me feel like I was never meant to be here. I'm not suicidal or anything but the fact that I have to keep taking my meds to feel like I am somebody that can truly connect with others and society in general kind of makes me feel like I'm not living for myself but for the sake of being accepted by others. I feel like most people will only accept me and interact with me if I am on my meds. If not, however, I become a person who is not worthy of their time, or at least that's what I've felt most of my life prior to getting help.

I really don't know how to feel about this and honestly, I try not to think about it too much because the more I think about it, the more bitter I feel towards people.

I'm starting to dislike people, leading me to resent them because people only gave me a chance when I started taking adderall. Before meds, most people made me feel like I was not worthy of their time and I've experienced that so many times and honestly it just hurts, even when I did my best to be friendly.

I apologize if I came across as a selfish being. I guess I wrote all of this to see if anyone felt the same way and how they personally dealt with a similar issue.",adhd,people smile fake genuine one see glimmer light eye meaningful conversation feel like making real true connection make laugh ease girl approach sometime compliment time co worker invite lunch good starting fit magnificent world truly alive happy adderall med somehow become unlikable human mean rude inconsiderate others always felt distance pretty much everyone ever met including family confident honestly exact way without act communicate differently v accept medication friendly even exist change fundamental least believe obviously accepted get wrong done wonder far productive establishing relationship feeling belong kind never meant suicidal anything fact keep taking somebody connect society general living sake interact however person worthy life prior getting help really know try think bitter towards dislike leading resent gave chance started made experienced many hurt best apologize came across selfish guess wrote anyone personally dealt similar issue,0.21,Moderately Positive
"I've noticed this as an obvious side effect for me. I simply don't feel like eating when my medication is in effect. Since I already have problems with this (I'm actually underweight, which sucks), how do those of you who experience similar effects deal with it?",adhd,noticed obvious side effect simply feel like eating medication since already problem actually underweight suck experience similar deal,0.0,Neutral
"The [Conversation](https://theconversation.com/these-four-easy-steps-can-make-you-a-math-whiz-82552) has a good piece by Jennifer Ruef, from the University of Oregon on the latest research about learning maths. The key message of the article is:

'New brain research validates what mathematics educators have been saying for decades: Pictures help us think. '

I have ADHD, and am also a very visual person. I reckon this approach would help me learn and solve lots of problems.

What do other people with ADHD think? 

Do you already do this type of thing and do you have any tips and tricks?

Looking forward to hearing your thoughts and personal experiences!

",adhd,conversation good piece jennifer ruef university oregon latest research learning math key message article new brain validates mathematics educator saying decade picture help u think adhd also visual person reckon approach would learn solve lot problem people already type thing tip trick looking forward hearing thought personal experience,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Ok, so I was diagnosed with ADHD and anxiety about two years ago by a psychotherapist. I went to this psychotherapist because I was pretty much undergoing a intense mental breakdown and failing and getting D's and C's in my classes. My mother was also constantly punishing me during this time. She verbally put me down. She took all of my things away in an attempt to make me focus better, which only made it worse. After this psychologist told me I had ADHD, I almost couldn't believe it, but after looking it up online in detail it was such a breath of fresh air because I related to it so much. Here's where the issue comes in: my parents don't believe ADHD truly exists. And even worse: I talked to my doctor about it and she said that she couldn't even believe I struggled at all in school to begin with. She gave me information on where to go for a psychiatrist but privately told my mom to not put me on any medication, ever. The perception people seem to have is that I'm too smart to have it, apparently.

Fast-forward two years later. It's senior year now, and things aren't much better, although my grades are a bit better now because I stopped taking advanced classes. It's the same deal: Every day feels like I'm in a constant chase with a runaway ball. I forget almost everything, and I've tried just about every organizational tool at this point. I post reminders on the wall. I don't see the reminders anymore after a few hours. I set alarms. Those alarms go off and I stop them, but I squeeze in one last thing to do and abandon what I originally have to do. I organize my books. I find a charger. I try to figure out what the charger is for. I test to see if it works. I forget to organize the books. I even missed the damn November SAT deadline because I didn't put it on my calendar. I fucking hate this. I feel like I'm in a constant battle with my mind, trying to wrestle control from it so I can get things done. I've always been scared to death of taking medication due to the frightening side effects, but I'm seriously considering it due to how much of a mess I still am. I get frustrated and overloaded so easily; I snap at people and I curse and scream. I can't imagine how I'll handle college or even being an adult. I'm going to have to live on my own. I'm majoring in Physics, which is extremely intensive in terms of workload. I just feel helpless and lost, and I don't know what to do.

TL;DR I have diagnosed ADHD; It's seriously screwing with my life and my parents and the people around me either don't even believe in it or think I'm too smart to have it. I almost can't function, and as a high school senior that's going to live on her own during college and have a intensive Physics major, I'm worried as hell about my future and I really want some kind of help.",adhd,ok diagnosed adhd anxiety two year ago psychotherapist went pretty much undergoing intense mental breakdown failing getting class mother also constantly punishing time verbally put took thing away attempt make focus better made worse psychologist told almost believe looking online detail breath fresh air related issue come parent truly exists even talked doctor said struggled school begin gave information go psychiatrist privately mom medication ever perception people seem smart apparently fast forward later senior although grade bit stopped taking advanced deal every day feel like constant chase runaway ball forget everything tried organizational tool point post reminder wall see anymore hour set alarm stop squeeze one last abandon originally organize book find charger try figure test work missed damn november sat deadline calendar fucking hate battle mind trying wrestle control get done always scared death due frightening side effect seriously considering mess still frustrated overloaded easily snap curse scream imagine handle college adult going live majoring physic extremely intensive term workload helpless lost know tl dr screwing life around either think function high major worried hell future really want kind help,0.05,Moderately Positive
"It's not hard to find info on the right foods to eat from a nutrition standpoint. However, for many on stimulants there is no interest in eating. Have you found any ways that help you get nutrition into your body when your brain isn't interested? 

My tricks were protein smoothies and protein bars but my mornings have gotten very busy and I like to make sure I have eaten before my meds so they have become my breakfast leaving me lost at lunchtime. ",adhd,hard find info right food eat nutrition standpoint however many stimulant interest eating found way help get body brain interested trick protein smoothy bar morning gotten busy like make sure eaten med become breakfast leaving lost lunchtime,0.22,Moderately Positive
"So basicly does anyone have a hard time figuring out who they are. Cant define them selfs? To describe what im talking aboult ima use a life experence and sports anology. Im also 22m and have adhd and ocd.

Well ive played sports my whole life, hockey and track mainly a bunch of other stuff to. But i was allways really good at hockey. Travel teams, was playing highschool ice hockey when i was in middle school. Was allways picked for what ever team i tryied out for. Was even going to play college hockey. The thing was i never was the best at anything. I was just really good at everything, no set place. I was a center, left and right wing and defense. I was a pentally killer and an enforcer. I was really good at all of these spots. Id start playing wing then next shift be d then after that wing then center some times id stay out and keep going in other sports. I was allways put where i was needed. They needed a goal real fast they put me out. If they needed player b stoped i was on deffense. I never really had a position. I just did wat was needed, what benfited the team at the time. Idk if anyone else feels like this in life. Like there is no actully grouping for people like us.

In real life i had the same proplem socialy. I was a jock, but i was also a nerd. I was smart but i was also ""retarded"". I was funny and i was serious. I was fearless, but had crippling anxeity at times.

By this i mean i never had a group. I had a small group of close freinds all from different groups. I would hang out with different groups but never fully fit in. I fit in everywhere but at the same time no where. I was popular also which is weird being adhd, and really not being able to read anyone. But it got me thinking some times who am i really. I got along with the jocks but i found them stuiped and idiotic. I got along with the nerds but found them pathetic. I got along with the band kids but found some things they did to weird. I got along with the skaters and didnt skateboard. I hung out with goths and punks and didnt like there music. Hung out with stoners and didnt smoke.

In school people consideried me a genius while others completly stuiped.. i even joked all the times saying im a ""smart retard"" since i could do amazing work figure stuff out. But then have a hard time the next day on something else.

Finally i also feel like its all a game. When iam out its like theres rules. I dont honestly know when some one is joking or being serious. If some one is picking on me or just being funny. I tend to take everything light heartly as a joke. I have a hard time comunicating with people of lesser knowledge then me. I dont really understand others emotions constant proplem with that one with my gf. I dont understand how people can still be mad over something a day later. I have a hard time knowing if people are mad. So in this case i feel like even here i cant define my self since im constantly adjusting my behavior based on what needs to be done.

So in short i feel like i just fill the roles that need to be done. Whats needed off me. What either benfits me personally, socialy basicly as long as i gain. If im in a group or helping someone the samething. Since i basicly learn everything get bored and drop it its basicly like being good at everything but cursed with never finding a perminit spot.",adhd,basicly anyone hard time figuring cant define self describe im talking aboult ima use life experence sport anology also adhd ocd well ive played whole hockey track mainly bunch stuff allways really good travel team playing highschool ice middle school picked ever tryied even going play college thing never best anything everything set place center left right wing defense pentally killer enforcer spot id start next shift stay keep put needed goal real fast player stoped deffense position wat benfited idk else feel like actully grouping people u proplem socialy jock nerd smart retarded funny serious fearless crippling anxeity mean group small close freinds different would hang fully fit everywhere popular weird able read got thinking along found stuiped idiotic pathetic band kid skater didnt skateboard hung goth punk music stoner smoke consideried genius others completly joked saying retard since could amazing work figure day something finally game iam there rule dont honestly know one joking picking tend take light heartly joke comunicating lesser knowledge understand emotion constant gf still mad later knowing case constantly adjusting behavior based need done short fill role whats either benfits personally long gain helping someone samething learn get bored drop cursed finding perminit,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"I've spent the last couple hours or so on this sub and I've never seen anyone talk about the feeling like your mind just goes blank when you try to think about / focus on something. 

The best way I can describe it is that my head feels like it's filled with cotton balls, my eyes unfocus, and I have to try to kickstart a train of thought a few times to get going again. 

I feel like this might happen more when I'm on my meds (40mg Vyvance and Welbutrin (dont remember dosage)), or when I don't sleep as much. 

I definitely have issues with getting distracted and whatever like everyone else on this sub, but I feel like this is my biggest issue for getting shit done. 

TL;DR: mind goes blank, eyes unfocus, can't think, need to try to kickstart any train of thought a few times to get going again",adhd,spent last couple hour sub never seen anyone talk feeling like mind go blank try think focus something best way describe head feel filled cotton ball eye unfocus kickstart train thought time get going might happen med mg vyvance welbutrin dont remember dosage sleep much definitely issue getting distracted whatever everyone else biggest shit done tl dr need,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Since 2008 when the first google Android smartphone came out my life has gotten more and more organized.

Contacts are always backed up.  Now, when I loose or break a phone I never have to start fresh with all my contacts. 

Calendar makes it easy to add and edit events no matter where I am or what device I am using. The minute I think of something it goes directly into my phone instead of my TERRIBLE memory. 

REMINDERS. I set reminders via ""ok google"" every. single. DAY and I would literally forget to eat food without it.  

KEEP. The KEEP app is a cloud app that stores notes with lists, reminders or even pictures attached so you never miss anything you need to remember and you never loose the DAMN LIST. 

Drive: is an excellent backup tool that saves time and helps me upload business Documents to save paper. 

I am just so appreciative of all this and more and rely on it so much that I could not even imagine my life without it. 

If you aren't using this, you should be. Totally worth selling my privacy for. ",adhd,since first google android smartphone came life gotten organized contact always backed loose break phone never start fresh calendar make easy add edit event matter device using minute think something go directly instead terrible memory reminder set via ok every single day would literally forget eat food without keep app cloud store note list even picture attached miss anything need remember damn drive excellent backup tool save time help upload business document paper appreciative rely much could imagine totally worth selling privacy,0.21,Moderately Positive
"I think I'm a smart guy (no brag), I have a university degree in business administration and I'm pretty good with computers. Basically, I'm tailor made to work in an office. Which I currently do. 40 hours a week. And I'm so f'ing sick of it!

My dream job would be something where I can kind of alternate administrative work with physical labour. One thing (actually the only thing) I could think of is doing like a self-employed personal training thing, where I'm alternating working on my website, acquiring clients or writing out workout schedules with actually training my clients in a gym. 

Do you guys have any other ideas? Please be creative. And know that I don't have a lot of true skills. I'm decent at exercising and cooking, that's pretty much it. I'm open to learning something new though. 

Thanks in advance.",adhd,think smart guy brag university degree business administration pretty good computer basically tailor made work office currently hour week ing sick dream job would something kind alternate administrative physical labour one thing actually could like self employed personal training alternating working website acquiring client writing workout schedule gym idea please creative know lot true skill decent exercising cooking much open learning new though thanks advance,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Should I use them eye-watering thingies one uses when wearing contacts?

Also, I've used Concerta regularly until about two years ago. In that regular period I formed a little red bulge next to my iris. It's kind of annoying and feels really crappy now. Does anyone else have that and does anyone know if something like that can manifest because of long term dry eyes?",adhd,use eye watering thingies one us wearing contact also used concerta regularly two year ago regular period formed little red bulge next iris kind annoying feel really crappy anyone else know something like manifest long term dry,-0.03,Neutral
"Hello all,

I have recently received a higher dose of generic adderall 30mg xr 2 times daily and everything was going great until last week. I had a great work review and my bosses have noticed a change in productivity as well as focus which I am pleased about however my home life feels terrible.

Last week my 8yr relationship started to fall apart. My gf mood completely changed and I have helped her through depression as I know she has episodes once in a while. However this was different... 

It stared from one day when She went to hang out with one of our friends and met this guy. She hid this from me for a few days. I was trying to do anything I could to cheer her up through this episode. I Brought flowers and chocolate to her at work, brought her home surprises and took her out to the park to get her out of the house and then she dropped that she is having feelings for this guy and he told her that he doesn't want to be friends as she said she has a bf. She was upset that he didn't even want to be friends and give her a try.

They stopped talking from what I understood and things seemed to get better. Well i find out saturday that they are talking again as friends now because he is apparently dating someone. We had plans to do stuff that day however she was too tired so I played on my computer. A couple hours goes by and I hear her opening the door and saying goodbye. She said she was hanging out with our friend and leaves. I was ok bc he is moving soon and I didn't think this guy would be there.

It hurt me so much to find put that apparently he was there and they hung out till 330am. I text her twice as it was getting late and no response. The next day She tells me she has feelings for him. She says that I don't focus on her, show her I love her or talk about my feelings... She said he does and he listens to her even though they only have hung out 3 times... this I found out yesterday. It was a really rough day. We talk things over and things seem ok as we went to bed.

Today comes around and I feel good. Busy and focused and she is texting me to come out with her and some work friends after work and I do however as I come up behind her, she is texting this guy a very long text. This tore me up inside and all I can think about is her talking to this guy she has feelings for that is making her happy... She tells me after we hang out with coworkers that I should Start looking at apartments bc it would be a good change for me.  We currently live at her parents as we are saving up for a house. I am so fucked up from this. Yes I know it's time however it does not seem like she will be moving with me. I am just so lost, hurt, tired, and sick of this feeling in my gut of worrying.

We then started to drive home in separate cars as we met up there after work and I couldn't bring myself to go straight home. Thought about it on every turn but needed some time to myself so I text her I'll be home in a bit. She immediately calls and ask me what's wrong and I thought everything was ok. I told her I just need some alone time. She tells me that she feels like an awful person and that I am hurting her. I say I just needed to be alone. I went to the beach near by and looked for places. Well an hour or so goes by and she's texting me to come home and sounds like she really wants me home. Well when I get home she's asleep so I continue to look at places and stew with these thoughts of my relationship crumbling down.

If I had been able to focus more, give her the emotion and passion she wants, maybe we wouldn't be going through this. I know adhd is not the reason for all of this however it certainly contributed to it in my mind.

I see relationship post all the time here and always see how helpful you guys are with dealing with these and understanding what it's like with adhd being a contributor. 

I don't know what I can do, what I should do or how to go about all of this. I really need help if any of you have any advice. I have no friends at all to talk to and all my family spreads my personal life's matters like wildfire. 

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I know it's long and I'm sorry.
",adhd,hello recently received higher dose generic adderall mg xr time daily everything going great last week work review boss noticed change productivity well focus pleased however home life feel terrible yr relationship started fall apart gf mood completely changed helped depression know episode different stared one day went hang friend met guy hid trying anything could cheer brought flower chocolate surprise took park get house dropped feeling told want said bf upset even give try stopped talking understood thing seemed better find saturday apparently dating someone plan stuff tired played computer couple hour go hear opening door saying goodbye hanging leaf ok bc moving soon think would hurt much put hung till text twice getting late response next tell say show love talk listens though found yesterday really rough seem bed today come around good busy focused texting behind long tore inside making happy coworkers start looking apartment currently live parent saving fucked yes like lost sick gut worrying drive separate car bring straight thought every turn needed bit immediately call ask wrong need alone awful person hurting beach near looked place sound asleep continue look stew crumbling able emotion passion maybe adhd reason certainly contributed mind see post always helpful dealing understanding contributor help advice family spread personal matter wildfire thank taking read sorry,0.03,Neutral
"I have a really annoying problem, that when I think I sayed or did something wrong I always say sorry, as a normal person do, right?, But I tend to push away people as I say that, I think that I made a really bad thing to them, when is not that bad I also think they do not want to talk to me again and I just simple slowly go a way. I don't know if that is normal in people with adhd but I want to chance and try to make thing easier to me


I don't know if I made a clear argument, my English is not that great, bit thanks for replying in advance. :)",adhd,really annoying problem think sayed something wrong always say sorry normal person right tend push away people made bad thing also want talk simple slowly go way know adhd chance try make easier clear argument english great bit thanks replying advance,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"I have ADHD, I was diagnosed as an adult in college. To say the least it was a hard jorney for me. I lliteraly failed out of college, and was forced into therapy as a condition for being readmitted under the exemption of my extreme anexity.

After seeing my Therapist she had me screened, and then last sent me to a specailist who diagnoised my condition. 

To me it was a godsend. Knowing that I wasn't lazy, or stupid, and I was working as hard as I believed I was I just had a slight flaw.

My experience is that ADHD gave me hope, and getting help from a Dr, has literally changed my life. I when form 1.4 at a major university to a 2.1 in one semester. I feel like my diagnosis was almost like a life raft and it showed me that it wasn't for lack of trying on my part but because something out of my control in my body wasn't functioning correctly.

I'm very curious as to why so many people on this subreddit post negatively about their ADHD. To me it gave a face to a name, and th medication finally made my head go from a busy room, to a peaceful one.",adhd,adhd diagnosed adult college say least hard jorney lliteraly failed forced therapy condition readmitted exemption extreme anexity seeing therapist screened last sent specailist diagnoised godsend knowing lazy stupid working believed slight flaw experience gave hope getting help dr literally changed life form major university one semester feel like diagnosis almost raft showed lack trying part something control body functioning correctly curious many people subreddit post negatively face name th medication finally made head go busy room peaceful,-0.12,Moderately Negative
I'm exhausted from trying to squeeze my round ass into a square hole. I want to crawl into a hole and stay there forever. ,adhd,exhausted trying squeeze round as square hole want crawl stay forever,-0.3,Moderately Negative
"While I'm still struggling with meal prepping and cooking (less from ADHD and more from POTS and chronic fatigue) I recently decided meal prepping more than just breakfast would be more helpful than not and I better practice before school starts up again for me. I live across the street from a lot of restaurants and bakeries so on top of eating a terrible diet for someone with POTS and chronic fatigue, I was impulsively living on baked goods, freezer meals, and blowing so much money on sea salt teas at a bakery I can't even work at (no wifi). 

Roughly followed this pattern:

* breakfast
* 1 whole piece of fruit
* lunch (4oz of chicken plus veggies, or a 4ish oz mix of chicken and no grains)
* 1 more piece of fruit
* dinner
* either another piece of fruit, or more realistically some tea or smaller portion of hummus.


Restrictions (mainly because of the dysautonomia for me and some other illnesses...I need to keep carbs low and 6 meals of day and low fodmaps is ideal but not totally required...I've just decided to cut out bread and obviously gassy foods to feel less bloated and keep things simpler. For just ADHD obviously you don't need to be so strict. [this video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IoG1xh446h8)  ) 

* no bread
* no desserts or obvious junk food
* try to meal prep everything on Sunday 
* one cheat meal is ok after week one as a reward for doing well during the week, however on week 1 I wanted to see how often I'm likely to cheat after the first 3 days since your taste buds will change...I literally just craved a glass of milk twice
* avoid dairy or heavier foods...though not totally off limits


**what helped tremendously**:

* [this video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IoG1xh446h8) yes I know it's a kardashian and buzzfeed, but the structure the nutritionist gives and the reasoning is helpful. It's also much easier than I expected if you do meal prep
* /r/mealprepsunday
* /r/cooking
* www.budgetbytes.com
* I bought a google home mini on black friday for ~$25
* I set up If this then that app on my phone and someone had a premade widget to periodically remind you on your phone to drink water
* similarly I made ""meal time"" calendar events on google calendar and told my google home to remind me when it's a meal time. On top of having meals in tupperware ready to go in the fridge this is the biggest gamechanger since with adhd I often forget to eat even if I am hungry. 


**what didn't work**

* a meal prep buddy: a friend who also was trying to eat a low fodmaps diet and I decided to cook together one day and split the food in half for each other. I ended up getting more distracted than usual and she ended up being messier and not as experienced of a cook as I am. I say this as an ADHDer who's not exactly the cleanest or best at staying organized...so it really made a lot of extra work for me in the end I could've done without. 

* meal prepping fish

* thinking I'll eat or actually make anything that can't be meal prepped

* bread and high dairy stuff...I somehow have less energy, and not in a good way. 


",adhd,still struggling meal prepping cooking le adhd pot chronic fatigue recently decided breakfast would helpful better practice school start live across street lot restaurant bakery top eating terrible diet someone impulsively living baked good freezer blowing much money sea salt tea even work wifi roughly followed pattern whole piece fruit lunch oz chicken plus veggie ish mix grain dinner either another realistically smaller portion hummus restriction mainly dysautonomia illness need keep carbs low day fodmaps ideal totally required cut bread obviously gassy food feel bloated thing simpler strict video dessert obvious junk try prep everything sunday one cheat ok week reward well however wanted see often likely first since taste bud change literally craved glass milk twice avoid dairy heavier though limit helped tremendously yes know kardashian buzzfeed structure nutritionist give reasoning also easier expected mealprepsunday bought google home mini black friday set app phone premade widget periodically remind drink water similarly made time calendar event told tupperware ready go fridge biggest gamechanger forget eat hungry buddy friend trying cook together split half ended getting distracted usual messier experienced say adhder exactly cleanest best staying organized really extra end could done without fish thinking actually make anything prepped high stuff somehow energy way,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I've been having pain in my arm quite a bit since I've started XR. At first it was in my fingers, which I brushed off because I've had growth hormone deficiency issues for a very long time and carpal tunnel-like symptoms come as a result of that. Anyways, I was pretty sure it was just that until I started getting pains in my shoulder area and in my forearm close to my elbow.

When I did research about this all I could find were people attesting to similar issues, and people saying that it's just a symptom of adderall, which causes muscle pains and tenderness.

Is there a way to rid it that any of you may know? It's very distracting and although the pain moves I still feel it somewhere everyday on my right arm.",adhd,pain arm quite bit since started xr first finger brushed growth hormone deficiency issue long time carpal tunnel like symptom come result anyways pretty sure getting shoulder area forearm close elbow research could find people attesting similar saying adderall cause muscle tenderness way rid may know distracting although move still feel somewhere everyday right,0.13,Moderately Positive
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_tpB-B8BXk0,adhd,,0.0,Neutral
"Have you ever had static noise in the background like a TV, heavy traffic, construction, or radio noise, and you get so used to the white noise you forget it is there. Then the noise stops and suddenly you realize what *real silence* sounds like. You hadn't even been aware of the static in your ears.   
  
That's what I felt last night, mentally. After taking several steps lately towards homeopathic treatment, I had a moment of clarity last night I have never experienced before. Like someone turned down the volume in my head, turned off the static.  
  
What helpful metaphors have you found for describing the condition to others? Probably my favorite was a guy on youtube who said trying to think with ADHD feels like walking through 3 feet of water. That one really clicked with me.  
  
TLDR: Getting treatment for ADHD is like turning off the white noise of a TV in the background that you hadn't even realized was there all along.",adhd,ever static noise background like tv heavy traffic construction radio get used white forget stop suddenly realize real silence sound even aware ear felt last night mentally taking several step lately towards homeopathic treatment moment clarity never experienced someone turned volume head helpful metaphor found describing condition others probably favorite guy youtube said trying think adhd feel walking foot water one really clicked tldr getting turning realized along,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Hi, ADHD—

Most of the time from this community, I hear people say taking your meds EVERY day is an ideal situation.

I've brought it up to my (amazing) doctor, and she seems mostly indifferent when it comes to me taking them 24/7 versus me taking them only on work days.

When we first started the journey with trying different medications, I remember asking if I SHOULD take them every day, and her answer was: ""I'd prefer you didn't,"" but that was when we were trying Adderall. Adderall in the end was absolute hell for me and sent me down a terrible depression spiral on days where I didn't take it. But even on days where I did take it, after 3-4 days of it in my system I was just becoming a robot.

Vyvanse (20mg) ended up being the one! Super low dose, but it's just right.

I only take it on workdays and it has totally transformed my life in the best way:

1. It does its job of helping me focus on my work so I can actually start and finish things, stay on track, and get things done even if my work tasks for that day aren't particularly interesting (I'm a copywriter, so there's a lot of sitting and staring at screens and completing work that can be occasionally tedious)

2. It has the added advantage of nixing my anxiety/depression without making me feel non-human. I have a lot of intrusive thoughts and random feelings, and usually being anxious or depressed causes me to do self-soothing behaviors that keep me from staying on top of my work...but the Vyvanse doesn't just put those things to sleep...it gives me a CHOICE of what to think about...intrusive thoughts don't demand attention anymore...

3. My mood is just improved overall. I'm more patient with almost everyone. Less overwhelmed.

I don't take this on the weekend...and it's not TERRIBLE when I don't. Mentally/emotionally, I'm just me. I'm fine. I can do my house chores, I can run a few errands...

The only draw back is that on Saturday by lunch and throughout the evening I have terrible muscle pain as if I spent the day before just working out...

Then Saturday night to Sunday I feel like I could spend the whole weekend sleeping and napping. I fall asleep HARD at night (usually pretty early) and sleep so hard for upwards of 10+ hours if I could.

So, if I don't take the meds I'm not miserable or anything but the side effects are just kinda annoying.

I worry that if I start taking them daily, even on the weekends, that I'll miss myself sometimes...like I miss the more difficult things about being me...I also worry that if I ever take a day off or two day off after being medicated for weeks and weeks and weeks on end, those withdrawal symptoms will be 100x worse.

I know it's a personal decision for everyone...I think I feel guilty taking them every day (my parents were high functioning drug addicts)...and I feel even MORE guilty that they actually help me and make me feel better. 

I'm just not sure what to do or how to feel, I guess. Or what I want to do. ",adhd,hi adhd time community hear people say taking med every day ideal situation brought amazing doctor seems mostly indifferent come versus work first started journey trying different medication remember asking take answer prefer adderall end absolute hell sent terrible depression spiral even system becoming robot vyvanse mg ended one super low dose right workday totally transformed life best way job helping focus actually start finish thing stay track get done task particularly interesting copywriter lot sitting staring screen completing occasionally tedious added advantage nixing anxiety without making feel non human intrusive thought random feeling usually anxious depressed cause self soothing behavior keep staying top put sleep give choice think demand attention anymore mood improved overall patient almost everyone le overwhelmed weekend mentally emotionally fine house chore run errand draw back saturday lunch throughout evening muscle pain spent working night sunday like could spend whole sleeping napping fall asleep hard pretty early upwards hour miserable anything side effect kinda annoying worry daily miss sometimes difficult also ever two medicated week withdrawal symptom worse know personal decision guilty parent high functioning drug addict help make better sure guess want,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I know they have a different health policy, so I just can't help but be curious. Like, is it treated the same? Do people think it doesn't exist over there? I'm just curious.

Edit: I guess I should include Australia, too.",adhd,know different health policy help curious like treated people think exist edit guess include australia,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"My biggest issue is letting clothes pile up. I don't do laundry as regularly as I should, and I have too much clothes that I do not wish to get rid of and can't always fit everything in my drawers so I started this system of just having my clothes in a pile. I usually don't fold and put away my laundry, and if I do, I end up messing everything up when I'm looking for that one shirt/something I want to find. So I find keeping my clothes in a messy pile ends up being easier for me trying to find my clothes.

I'm 20 years old and don't want to live in piles of clothes for the rest of my life. I often feel overwhelmed by all the clothes I have around me. But my clothes don't satisfy me, and I don't feel like I have a lot to wear, even though I do.",adhd,biggest issue letting clothes pile laundry regularly much wish get rid always fit everything drawer started system usually fold put away end messing looking one shirt something want find keeping messy easier trying year old live rest life often feel overwhelmed around satisfy like lot wear even though,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I take it as prescribed and have been since 2016. However I notice if I try to not take it on a weekend, I feel a mild crave for it. I usually end up taking it anyways by 4 or 5pm. I don't like this since I feel mildly anxious about skipping a day when I try too. Has anyone had similar issues and how have you dealt with it? 

",adhd,take prescribed since however notice try weekend feel mild crave usually end taking anyways pm like mildly anxious skipping day anyone similar issue dealt,-0.04,Neutral
"Things I didn't think to ask when I was talking to my doctor but I encounter as I go through the motions of my usual habits

My doctor knows that I consume marijuana medicinally. He didn't say I have to stop but does anyone have experience in this? I'm not trying to get super high or anything, it just helps with my back pain and my anxiety. Would it be a good idea to eat some oil like an hour before I go to bed and then maybe it'll help me sleep? This is ideally a once a week thing 

I like to drink coffee in the morning when I'm waking up. Is this not a thing anymore? Is decaf okay? I just really love the ritual of drinking coffee 

Alcohol and Vyvanse! I don't drink a lot but like once or twice a week I like to go to the bar and get a drink after work with my husband. Is this also a no-go? My doctor knows I drink and he didn't mention not drinking anymore. 

I am under the impression that I should take my meds every single day? Or can I skip using Vyvanse on my days off because I don't mind being a person with ADHD on a day when it doesn't matter

How has Vyvanse changed your lives, I guess? Like what habits have you had to change because of being medicated? ",adhd,thing think ask talking doctor encounter go motion usual habit know consume marijuana medicinally say stop anyone experience trying get super high anything help back pain anxiety would good idea eat oil like hour bed maybe sleep ideally week drink coffee morning waking anymore decaf okay really love ritual drinking alcohol vyvanse lot twice bar work husband also mention impression take med every single day skip using mind person adhd matter changed life guess change medicated,0.31,Moderately Positive
"**NO KARMA SELF POST PLEASE UPVOTE FOR VISIBILITY!**

ADHD all-time bestof  and FAQ thread!

**All Time Best:**

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1. [Must read post by /u/thebananaking on what having ADHD is like](http://www.reddit.com/r/explainlikeimfive/comments/16joxj/people_with_adhd_what_adhd_is_like_how_does/c7wnp37)

2. [A very insightful post about how ADHD makes /u/waitasecbec feel on a daily basis.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/10kffv/an_attempt_to_explain_how_adhd_makes_me_feel/)

3. [An insightful post by /u/heroftoday based on the /u/thebananaking post.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/16nxmj/i_dont_wonder_how_the_doorknob_works/)

4. [/u/eternalvoyageur’s post on the gifts and strengths of ADHD](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ujzcr/what_are_the_gifts_and_strengths_that_adhd_has/)

5. [/u/Peri123 on ADHD in general](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/17akdm/i_have_read_a_lot_online_and_on_this_subreddit/)



**Medication:**

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1. [/u/Peri123 made a compilation of medication I recommend anyone on or planning to use medication to read.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/17iss8/i_made_a_compilation_of_information_on_medication/)

2. [Another Compilation of medication that was posted to an /u/opiates_ blog](http://blog.piemania.net/adhd-stimulant-medication-guide/)

3. [/u/kanashimoo asking how you should feel if an ADHD drug works](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/147ckw/if_an_adhd_drug_works_for_you_how_should_you_feel/)

4. [/u/hopelessadhd’s post about feeling hopeless because ADHD meds don’t work.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/t1b63/medications_dont_work_it_feels_hopeless/)

**ADHD Pro-tips:**

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There are too many helpful links to leave out, so I have made a list of the top 10 most helpful.  The rest are listed below the top 10.

1. [/u/Peri123 with tips on ADHD.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/17akdm/i_have_read_a_lot_online_and_on_this_subreddit/)

2. [Ari Tuckman AMA.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/172qlv/radhd_expert_ama_meet_ari_tuckman_author_of_more/)

3. [/u/Peri123 with a helpful study guide of tips for ADHD.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/17ddv9/adhd_studyguide_for_school_enjoy/)

4. [/u/zenskysix with tips from his first ADHD coaching session.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/165thy/i_went_to_my_first_adhd_coaching_session_today/)

5. [/u/Airiin with a guide to sleeping.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/170mor/having_trouble_sleeping_i_wrote_a_guide_for/)

6. [/u/rva2paix with some ADHD life-pro tips](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/1058ho/adhd_lifepro_tips/)

7. [/u/Marzipanstar asks for tips on driving with ADHD](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/vq29z/radhd_i_need_some_tips_about_driving/)

8. [/u/chestylaroux asks for help with money](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/qgzu0/i_have_adhdpi_and_i_cant_manage_money_at_all_its/)

9. [/u/endlesslycomplicated makes a guide on eating while on ADHD medication.  HIGHLY RECOMMEND READING THIS](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/t7543/some_tips_for_eating_on_vyvance_and_other_such/)

10. [/u/Nihilism0 asks for help with social skills](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/zr0av/tips_or_guides_for_social_skills/)

Other:

[Advice about phone calls.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/102rp6/tip_when_making_a_call_write_down_bullet/)

[/u/Schmin shares her first week in Cognitive behavioral therapy.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/16s6pj/tip_thursday_my_first_week_in_cognitive/)

[Week 2 of Schmin’s CBT class](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/176cje/tip_thursday_tales_from_cognitive_behavioral/)

[Week 3 of Schmin’s CBT class](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/17ngfj/tip_thursday_tales_from_cognitive_behavioral/)

[A 17 year old asks for advice for the future](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/s1ra5/as_a_17_year_old_with_adhd_what_are_some_tips_you/)

[Tips on not getting mad](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/11fiub/do_you_guys_have_any_good_tips_to_not_get_mad/)

[Help sleeping](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/149h5w/how_do_you_fellow_adhders_fall_asleep_ive_tried/)

[Anyone have some tips?](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/152rdu/i_havent_been_on_here_long_but_i_have_yet_to_see/)

[Recommended if you are in need of housekeeping advice.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/uqiae/adhd_housekeeping/)


**Sex and Relationships:**

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1. [m_s_m182 asks a question on how ADHD has affected people’s relationships.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/15t3yf/does_anyone_else_find_adhd_has_effected/)

2. [/u/hiketheglobe how ADHD affects one’s sex life.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/12cutt/do_you_find_that_adhd_has_an_impact_positive_or/)

3. [/u/lenaxia asks how ADHD affects interaction with friends and SOs](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/125fyc/adhd_and_relationships_how_has_adhd_affected_your/)

4. [/u/Bad_Bird asks about ADHD before and during sex.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/raonc/adhd_before_and_during_sex/)

5. [/u/krazykid1337 asks if anyone has noticed changes in sex drive while on meds](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/trsw0/question_have_you_experienced_a_noticeable_change/)


**Getting Diagnosed:**

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1. [/u/sliceofbutter is currently being diagnosed and does not know how to confront parents](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/124s2d/currently_in_the_long_process_of_getting/)

2. [/u/WEARESAVIORS : Getting tested tomorrow and scared.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/17kgly/im_getting_tested_tomorrow_and_im_scared/)

3. [/u/shatteredjack asks for the best process to getting diagnosed.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/tyoya/best_process_for_getting_diagnosed/)

4. [/u/Lasig asks if getting diagnosed will screw with his insurance.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/15gwnh/will_getting_diagnosed_with_adhd_screw_with_my/)

5. [/u/NewShinyCD asks where to begin getting diagnosed.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ov0xj/where_to_begin_getting_diagnosed/)

**Talking to parents:**

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1. [/u/Chas_lapin on a psychiatrist that won’t help because of good grades](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/160zql/a_psychiatrist_said_i_cant_have_adhd_because_i/)

2. [/u/Eatthemenu’s parent are extremely nervous about Adderal](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/qvxyo/parents_are_extremely_nervous_about_me_taking/)

3. [(unknown user) parents see ADHD as an excuse for laziness.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/sitoj/my_parents_see_add_as_an_excuse_for_laziness/)

4. [/u/Rickles360 rants about dealing with unsupportive parents.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/16u0jq/can_i_rant_for_a_bit_dealing_with_unsupportive/)

5. [/u/ADHD1990 needs help with convincing parents to allow medication](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/17n9li/need_help_with_my_parents_i_want_to_start/)

**ADHD and Marijuana:**

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1. [/u/rip_lux asks if marijuana overwhelming the senses is part of ADHD](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/158rjv/marijuana_intolerance_related_to_adhd_tldr/)

[/u/Dickdatchery asks if adult ADHDers still smoke pot.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/s1vue/how_many_adults_over_20_with_adhd_are_chronic/)

[/u/Missballcuzzi asks if you can use marijuana as medication.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/t2m4c/have_any_of_you_experimented_with_marijuana_as_a/)


**ADHD and Meditation:**

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1.  [/u/tacooftwister22 asks if anyone on /r/ADHD has tried meditation](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/uz1qd/anyone_ever_tried_meditation/)

2. [/u/Heisgone talks about his experience with meditation](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/pdb42/adhd_and_meditation_my_experience/)

3. [/u/Eyenteepee asks /r/ADHD how meditation has worked for them.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/s9fpy/did_you_try_meditation_did_it_work)

**Social Situations:**

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1.  [/u/Wiremaster on explaining why talking is hard to friends.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/12kk78/me_explaining_to_friends_why_talking_is_hard/)

2.  [/u/DoubleTapThat asks if ADHD has affected anyone else’s social abilities.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/u019i/has_anyones_adhd_negatively_impacted_their_social/)

3.  [/u/Nekrosis 13 :  a game that everyone is playing.. that I don’t know the rules to.  Social situations.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/si1ld/social_situations_a_game_everyone_is_playingthat/)

4. [/u/Yukomono on stuttering because of ADHD](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/zkjr6/does_anyone_else_have_a_bit_of_a_stutter_because/)

5. [/u/Cosmine asking if they should tell a potential employer about ADHD.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/16xomk/should_i_tell_to_a_potential_employer_that_i_have/)

**School:**

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1. [/u/Tendie : Academia hates us and it pisses me off.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r82v4/academia_hates_us_and_it_kind_of_pisses_me_off/)

2. [/u/Pandemonix : meds don’y help with school.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14l5ub/taking_ritalin_doesnt_help_me_with_my_schoolwork/)

3. [/u/Reject_the_ho asks if anyone else is trying to get through graduate school](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/13fs1n/any_one_else_trying_to_get_through_graduate/)

4. [/u/puppetlegs is unhappy with reddit at the moment and needs studying tips.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/rg8pq/screw_you_reddit_i_need_to_study_unusual_tips/)

5. [/u/Rob13869 is starting college soon and needs a few tips.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/zbary/starting_college_soon_i_need_some_help_with_a_few/)

**Sleep:**

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1. [/u/Konman2007 : How do you fellow ADHDers fall asleep at night?](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/149h5w/how_do_you_fellow_adhders_fall_asleep_ive_tried/)

2. [/u/potayto_potahto : can’t stop thinking at night.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/yyf55/cant_stop_thinking_at_night_anyone_else_have_this/)

3. [/u/sista on ADHD and sleep problems](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/u9xnn/adhd_and_sleep_problems/)

4. [/u/McFreedom with techniques to get to sleep at night.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/tazw9/techniques_for_getting_to_sleep_at_night/)

5. [/u/TruthNews on ADHD sleep problems causes and tips.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r5174/adhd_sleep_problems_causes_and_tips_to_rest/)

**Parents whose children have just been diagnosed:**

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1. [/u/Fake3489 : ADHD father raising a kid](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/wtgq7/raising_a_toddler_as_a_father_with_adhd/)

2. [/u/xoxota99 : my 8 year old son has been diagnosed and I need help.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/qvru0/my_8yearold_son_has_been_diagnosed_with_adhd_need/)

3. [/u/Kelseama : my daughter was just diagnosed.](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/suklk/my_daughter_was_just_diagnosed/)

4. [/u/iwasntmeoverthere : What can I do to help my son?](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/p2nvz/as_the_parent_of_a_boy_diagnosed_with_adhd_what/)

5. [My 5 year old is being tested soon.  Advice?](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/rqpk8/dad_needs_advice_about_son_5_yr_old_being_tested/)

**Depression:**

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1. [/u/Andhellfollowed with : ADHD is the root cause of my depression](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/16i880/i_think_inattentive_add_is_the_root_cause_of_my/)

2. [/u/Rabbitkiller : I hate my life](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/10qexv/i_hate_my_life_and_its_getting_hard_to_convince/)

3.  [/u/Marty_marz : Has anyone else considered suicide because ADHD is so bad?](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/10qexv/i_hate_my_life_and_its_getting_hard_to_convince/)
4. [/u/Extraltodeus : stop taking Ritalin = depression](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/10qexv/i_hate_my_life_and_its_getting_hard_to_convince/)

5. [/u/moduspwnt : Rant about currently f’d up life](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/12il05/ive_lost_and_fd_up_so_much_recently_how_do_you/)

**Miscellaneous:**

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[Jack of All trades master of none](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14b59d/jack_of_all_trades_master_of_none/)

[Happy ADHDers what is your secret?](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14c3hd/happy_adhders_what_is_your_secret/)

[So ducking frustrated with my brain](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14ctui/im_so_fucking_frustrated_with_my_brain/)

[Struggling with identity issues](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14dtxg/struggling_with_identity_issues/)

[I fail because of...](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14flkd/i_fail_because_of_trouble_focusing_my_failures/)

[You are not lazy if you are trying](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14g8zx/remember_you_are_not_lazy_if_you_are_trying_and/)

[How to handle an ADHD preschooler in a classroom](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/14glsm/how_to_handle_an_adhd_preschooler_in_a_classroom/)

[I am extremely good at procrastinating with or without meds](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ztfp8/i_am_extremely_good_at_procrastinating_with_or/)

[So I have ADHD now what?](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q89x6/so_i_have_adhd_now_what/)
",adhd,karma self post please upvote visibility adhd time bestof faq thread best must read thebananaking like insightful make waitasecbec feel daily basis heroftoday based eternalvoyageur gift strength peri general medication made compilation recommend anyone planning use another posted opiate blog kanashimoo asking drug work hopelessadhd feeling hopeless med pro tip many helpful link leave list top rest listed ari tuckman ama study guide zenskysix first coaching session airiin sleeping rva paix life marzipanstar asks driving chestylaroux help money endlesslycomplicated eating highly reading nihilism social skill advice phone call schmin share week cognitive behavioral therapy cbt class year old future getting mad recommended need housekeeping sex relationship question affected people hiketheglobe affect one lenaxia interaction friend so bad bird krazykid noticed change drive diagnosed sliceofbutter currently know confront parent wearesaviors tested tomorrow scared shatteredjack process lasig screw insurance newshinycd begin talking chas lapin psychiatrist good grade eatthemenu extremely nervous adderal unknown user see excuse laziness rickles rant dealing unsupportive convincing allow marijuana rip lux overwhelming sens part dickdatchery adult adhders still smoke pot missballcuzzi meditation tacooftwister tried heisgone talk experience eyenteepee worked situation wiremaster explaining hard doubletapthat else ability nekrosis game everyone playing rule yukomono stuttering cosmine tell potential employer school tendie academia hate u piss pandemonix reject ho trying get graduate puppetlegs unhappy reddit moment studying rob starting college soon sleep konman fellow fall asleep night potayto potahto stop thinking sista problem mcfreedom technique truthnews cause whose child fake father raising kid xoxota son kelseama daughter iwasntmeoverthere depression andhellfollowed root rabbitkiller marty marz considered suicide extraltodeus taking ritalin moduspwnt miscellaneous jack trade master none happy secret ducking frustrated brain struggling identity issue fail lazy handle preschooler classroom procrastinating without,-0.03,Neutral
"TL;DR: If you're a student, just download the app named ""Student Agenda""(not sure if it's on Apple store). I'm pretty sure you'll thank me later! 


Disclaimer: I am not in any way affiliated to the app developer or the app and I'm not advertising for this app.


So the name of the app is [Student Agenda](https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.clawdyvan.agendadigitalaluno) on Google play store. Not sure if it's available in Apple store. 


So basically, you can add all the courses that you're taking and info about the course such as course timings, teacher's name, teacher's email, location of the class, and also, for each course, you can add all the assignments, tests and their scores along with weight for each assignment and test. Apart from all these, it has 2 widgets: one for daily timetable and the other for the upcoming events(includes assignments, tests and other deadlines) 


I used to use just Google calendar and todoist and added everything about my coursework in there. But now since I found this app, I've been using only this for everything related to school. 


This app has really helped me keep track of my upcoming assignments, tests and my previous scores for all the courses that I'm taking.


Just try the app once. All you have to do is the initial setup in the beginning of each semester as soon as you get the syllabus. And you're set for the whole semester(unless there are some changes in due dates). ",adhd,tl dr student download app named agenda sure apple store pretty thank later disclaimer way affiliated developer advertising name google play available basically add course taking info timing teacher email location class also assignment test score along weight apart widget one daily timetable upcoming event includes deadline used use calendar todoist added everything coursework since found using related school really helped keep track previous try initial setup beginning semester soon get syllabus set whole unless change due date,0.11,Moderately Positive
"So I had a business dinner last night, and I'm pretty sure that, like always, I dominated the conversation and forgot to ask enough questions about the new project manager and probably interrupted or talked over people a few times.

I've read a lot of these are highly correlated to ADHD, so my question is if those of you who take meds have found that if you had these behaviors in the past, do the meds help you stop doing that? I've read they make you better able to focus on listening when you do it, but do you also do it more and stop like...being unable to listen much because you always have a thing you want to say?

I'm especially in need of this world work, but I'm sure it will help with my wife and friends. I asked a close friend once and he assured me I'm not as bad as I think I am at this, but I think he was being nice.",adhd,business dinner last night pretty sure like always dominated conversation forgot ask enough question new project manager probably interrupted talked people time read lot highly correlated adhd take med found behavior past help stop make better able focus listening also unable listen much thing want say especially need world work wife friend asked close assured bad think nice,0.1,Moderately Positive
Like writing a novel or something.,adhd,like writing novel something,0.0,Neutral
"A little over a year ago my son (11 now) was diagnosed with ADHD.  This wasn't a surprise as I have it, and I'm pretty sure my wife does as well, and he has exhibited all of the signs since he was young.  It really started affecting him at school in 4th grade, so we made an appointment with a child psychiatrist to try out medication.  This wasn't something we really wanted to do, but felt it was necessary in order for him to be able to function in school.

The doctor started him out on Vyvanse at 20mg.  This seemed to work ok, but it ran out prior to the school day ending, and due to the school rules we couldn't give him more during the day, even through the nurse.  We went back to the Dr. and he upped the dosage to 30mg, which lasted all through the school day, but the ensuing side effects were horrible.  Loss of appetite, depression, insomnia, all of these became very prevalent at the 30mg dosage.  Sure, he was doing better in school, but he was an emotional wreck and we couldn't stand watching him feel that way, knowing it was the drugs that were causing it.

We went back to the Dr., and he informed us that all the drugs would be the same, and was unwilling to work with us finding a medication that would work for our son.  I know that each medication affects each person differently, but the Dr. was adamant that they would all be the same, and the only thing he would do would be to change the dosage back to 20mg.   

We ended the last school year with him on the medication, then kept him off of it over the summer.  My wife and I made the decision that due to the side effects and lack of help from the Dr. that we were going to try and let him go through this year without medication and just try some behavioral therapy.  He has had a rough year, and unfortunately we feel we need to get him back on some sort of medication.   We have found a pediatrician locally that we hope can be a little more open minded than a psychiatrist who seemed to be more interested in the kickback from Vyvanse than helping our son.

What medications should I ask the new doctor about to try that may have different/less drastic side effects than the Vyvanse we were on?  ",adhd,little year ago son diagnosed adhd surprise pretty sure wife well exhibited sign since young really started affecting school th grade made appointment child psychiatrist try medication something wanted felt necessary order able function doctor vyvanse mg seemed work ok ran prior day ending due rule give even nurse went back dr upped dosage lasted ensuing side effect horrible loss appetite depression insomnia became prevalent better emotional wreck stand watching feel way knowing drug causing informed u would unwilling finding know affect person differently adamant thing change ended last kept summer decision lack help going let go without behavioral therapy rough unfortunately need get sort found pediatrician locally hope open minded interested kickback helping ask new may different le drastic,0.05,Moderately Positive
"So this year I've been drinking black coffee on and off. I've never had any energy or rush that people talk about. I never had any comedown or withdrawal even though I would drink coffee everyday for 6 months straight. I would actually feel calmer. I went cold turkey for 3 months. I had a 200mg caffeine Monster and I didn't feel anything. I felt a little jittery for like 5 minutes, but I think it was more of a placebo to be honest. Anyway I heard that some people with ADHD don't have this feeling of energy from coffee and that is actually calms them down. What have your, people with ADHD, experiences with coffee been like? Btw I'm 18 if that means anything ",adhd,year drinking black coffee never energy rush people talk comedown withdrawal even though would drink everyday month straight actually feel calmer went cold turkey mg caffeine monster anything felt little jittery like minute think placebo honest anyway heard adhd feeling calm experience btw mean,-0.04,Neutral
"Hey, 

This is my first post (and on a throwaway) - apologies if I am breaking any rules. I am sorry if this is long too, I just need to vent.

I am a 23-year-old from Australia and have not been diagnosed with ADHD, but I feel like after reading through the symptoms of the inattentive type, I fit this category. 

I saw a general Psychologist (doesn't specialise in ADHD) a few days ago with the intentions of talking about overcoming a family breakdown. In the 30 minutes that I was there, she forced me to talk about my concerns of having ADHD (the referral from my GP that I had to give her stated 1) anxiety/depression, 2) concerned she's showing ADHD symptoms). 

I had a list of symptoms to show the professional I would be speaking to about my concerns, but she read them, laughed (yep!) at the list and said things along the lines of:

* The kicker: ""*You have witnessed something traumatic in your childhood leading to all these symptoms*"" I did witness my biological mother burning to death in front of me when I was close to 3 years old, but I do NOT remember this AT all. No flashbacks, no nightmares, none of her screaming or her body being engulfed in fire - NONE of that. I have since gone on to have a happy childhood and the only parents that I consider are my adoptive parents.
* A lot of people can't concentrate in work meetings because it's boring and you can't focus on conversations because the topic might be boring,
* She said: ""*You don't have ADHD, you have depression and anxiety. If you had ADHD, you wouldn't be able to hold a job at all and maintain focus while conversing with me*"" - Point to note: She knew nothing about my life at this stage (other than above) and the things I have gone through. She reckons I have had depression my ENTIRE life since the traumatic event. 
* ""*Since you are convinced you have ADHD and want medicine-*"" I cut her off here and told her that if I wanted medicine I could take the anti-depressants (that didn't work) or the oxycodone (after surgery earlier this year) sitting in my drawers at home. 

She wasn't a very nice Psychologist (she walked out 5 minutes before our appointment and made me wait 15 minutes then blamed me for not picking her phone calls which were on no caller ID/didn't leave a voicemail, she was constantly laughing and grunting, body posture was super bad etc. to name a few).

I now feel like maybe I don't have ADHD and I am just plain stupid and lazy. The symptoms that led me to believe I may have ADHD has stemmed since childhood (report cards, teachers, education, hyper-focusing on interesting subjects, to name a few) - it hasn't miraculously popped up in the last 6 months. 

I am now torn to find a new Psychologist specialising in ADHD/a Psychiatrist or just say ""stuff it, maybe I am dumb and lazy and work even harder"". 

Should I just work harder, drink more coffee (3 cups per day currently) and see how I progress? Or just find a Psychiatrist? I am torn. 

Thank you and apologies for this long wall of text. Have a great day/night.",adhd,hey first post throwaway apology breaking rule sorry long need vent year old australia diagnosed adhd feel like reading symptom inattentive type fit category saw general psychologist specialise day ago intention talking overcoming family breakdown minute forced talk concern referral gp give stated anxiety depression concerned showing list show professional would speaking read laughed yep said thing along line kicker witnessed something traumatic childhood leading witness biological mother burning death front close remember flashback nightmare none screaming body engulfed fire since gone happy parent consider adoptive lot people concentrate work meeting boring focus conversation topic might able hold job maintain conversing point note knew nothing life stage reckons entire event convinced want medicine cut told wanted could take anti depressant oxycodone surgery earlier sitting drawer home nice walked appointment made wait blamed picking phone call caller id leave voicemail constantly laughing grunting posture super bad etc name maybe plain stupid lazy led believe may stemmed report card teacher education hyper focusing interesting subject miraculously popped last month torn find new specialising psychiatrist say stuff dumb even harder drink coffee cup per currently see progress thank wall text great night,0.03,Neutral
"https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensory_processing_sensitivity
>...an increased sensitivity of the central nervous system.... People with high SPS report having a heightened response to stimuli such as pain, caffeine, hunger, and loud noises.[4] According to Boterberg et al., these individuals are ""believed to be easily overstimulated by external stimuli....""

If you've heard of the concept of HSPs and rolled your eyes, you're not alone. I thought it sounded like a contrived reason to label yourself special. I also thought that about ADHD, and I have both, so. Here we are.

Like ADHD, it appears to be a biological difference: a more reactive nervous system. But it means I've confused people for a long time. Emotional pop music makes me feel intense despair in two seconds flat. My neighbor yelling across the street multiple times makes me want to go strangle him. Ugly overhead lighting means I would rather sit in the dark. If I ever drink a full pot of coffee, I'll probably need to go to the hospital. 

Also, more reactive emotions. Once, as a kid, I got startled by a neighbor's dog, and was too afraid to pet him. When I got home, I sobbed for hours because I thought I'd hurt the dog's feelings. That kind of thing. (Yes, sometimes I feel like a psycho, LOL.)

Since accepting both of these things about myself, my life has gotten 10x better. But it's a pain in the arse to figure out how to manage both at once. I'm easily bored, and crave novelty, but am also overcautious, and easily overwhelmed. 

Anyone else out there? Gripes, tips, success stories? 

EDIT: Y'all's stories are super interesting. Keep 'em coming! It's great to hear it's not just us. ",adhd,increased sensitivity central nervous system people high sps report heightened response stimulus pain caffeine hunger loud noise according boterberg et al individual believed easily overstimulated external heard concept hsps rolled eye alone thought sounded like contrived reason label special also adhd appears biological difference reactive mean confused long time emotional pop music make feel intense despair two second flat neighbor yelling across street multiple want go strangle ugly overhead lighting would rather sit dark ever drink full pot coffee probably need hospital emotion kid got startled dog afraid pet home sobbed hour hurt feeling kind thing yes sometimes psycho lol since accepting life gotten better arse figure manage bored crave novelty overcautious overwhelmed anyone else gripe tip success story edit super interesting keep em coming great hear u,0.08,Moderately Positive
"I've posted before. and this years been shit. first week lost 1 job, took another & moved for it thinking it was awsome, only to be fired after 6 weeks. (blowing all kinds of savings) since have boucned 7-8 jobs, never longer than 10 weeks. (some as little as hours)
  
Now I've moved myself & my family back in with my parents, moving cross country, sort of running from debts & debt collectors & have only a thin prospect of work at a job in my field (long term IT Engineer) having horrible bout of depressive & anxious thoughts & no meds for the ADHD. I should try to find low/no cost drugs, but I'm soo freaking broke.. *(hyperventilate)*. leave me some advice or thoughts. Going AFK",adhd,posted year shit first week lost job took another moved thinking awsome fired blowing kind saving since boucned never longer little hour family back parent moving cross country sort running debt collector thin prospect work field long term engineer horrible bout depressive anxious thought med adhd try find low cost drug soo freaking broke hyperventilate leave advice going afk,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"ADHD is not a life ending disorder. It's not a happiness ending disorder. It's side effects are not a moral failure of me and it's not a moral failure of you. It's just the circumstances at this moment. I feel trapped inside a box sometimes like tonight and this depressing box trapping me and holding my abilities back is smaller than most people's box. However I have me and me is pretty cool, right? Why? Cause I can think and live without seeing the box if I let myself. If I let myself. IF I LET MYSELF. Let yourself be kind to yourself.  Let go. Just for a second have the thought of not caring you have ADHD and about all the shit you missed out on and shit you were misunderstood on because you have this dysfunctional brain. Wait. On second thought... have that thought for just 2 seconds this time, no big deal just 2 seconds. All of us have the attention span for at least 2 seconds (hopefully?) but do it RIGHT NOW before you forget!!! Then try it for 3...4...5...10...100....1000 seconds and so on. You just invested. Practice not investing your thoughts into that dark place in your mind. Your thoughts are your investment. Do you want to grow that dark place or the good space? Well no shit you want to feel good but the only way is to practice feeling good. Start practicing right this second and you will be more likely to see a return on your investment faster than before. You and I are still amazing people even if we do dabble some thoughts into the dark place still. You can't reinvest your portfolio into an entirely different sector in a day cause that's just asking for trouble. You will never not have bad thoughts And you HAVE to be OK with that. Because you are OK (still an amazing person though I swear it). You are average (still amazing though just let me explain!). You have an average amount of legs and arms and you have an average amount of brains. You have an average amount of emotions you can feel (congratulations, you're not a sociopath). Take pride in being OK. Believe it or not but most people are just OK. Take pride in having faults and laughing at them and moving on. It's not easy. It's not easy. It's NOT easy. BUT YOU HAVE TO. it's do or die sink or swim pal. Support yourself and others can join you on your platform and even have the ability to help build a bigger one (if you let them). Right now you're Tom Hanks stuck on that stupidly small island in Cast Away. Start with building a raft and hit those waves with everything you got as many times as you got in you and push past. You're going to fail more times than Mr. Hanks or Bear Grillz but god damnit It's your right to pursue happiness but it's not your god given right...No one owes you happiness and no one can give you it. You can't buy it on amazon and you can't swallow a happiness pill, but you can float. Not only that but you have tools. Your raft is floating. You're still breathing and have at least some coherent thoughts. Those thoughts are your tools. Let those thoughts run wild. That's what people like us are great at doing anyways right? Invest those thoughts into good places. Start building your boat and set sail my friend. You have many directions you can go in life and it doesn't always matter what direction (nothing probably matters in the end just sayinggg (but don't think about that!!)). Just like it doesn't matter or make you a bad person if you hyperfocus. You are at least going in a direction and living life now that you're practicing and that's more than a lot of people can say. Keep going and going because that's how people like us thrive. That's the ONLY way people like us thrive actually. Appreciate those who join you on your boat and don't hate yourself when they need to leave. As long as your raft or boat can still support your weight you're A OK in my book and you most definitely still have the right to keep pursuing happiness. And one last thing. Your ship should only fit people who are giving you happiness. If they are fulfilling some fundamental need and you are reciprocating a need of theirs back to them, you have just earned a great relationship. Sometimes that relationship will deteriorate or end and again, it's okay. Don't pursue them if it's their time to go because you're sailing on that big ocean and you got places you need to be and people to meet. You are smart. You are kind. You are important. Yeah I just did that. And you might sail alongside them one day if the conditions are right but just keep being you and worst case scenario is those memories you made will always be there to remind you that you have goodness in you (just pray hopefully you didn't score any sexual touchdowns meeting all those people...). Anyways, you have all of that within you and no one can take that away. Let your happiness motivate you to be more happy. Let your sadness remind you that you are human. But don't let ANYONE even try to take that away from you because you earned those memories and good times. You have earned that happiness in some way shape or form and you can't let those filthy rats win. You are OK and you're going to be OK. But whether or not you're pursuing your own happiness is up to you and the person you want to be. Allow yourself the option for these two people to meet half way. You will be amazed and what such an OK person like yourself can accomplish ;)

TL;DR: you have ADHD. Cool. Now get off that island Mr. Hanks, you got shit to do and people to meet. ",adhd,adhd life ending disorder happiness side effect moral failure circumstance moment feel trapped inside box sometimes like tonight depressing trapping holding ability back smaller people however pretty cool right cause think live without seeing let kind go second thought caring shit missed misunderstood dysfunctional brain wait time big deal u attention span least hopefully forget try invested practice investing dark place mind investment want grow good space well way feeling start practicing likely see return faster still amazing even dabble reinvest portfolio entirely different sector day asking trouble never bad ok person though swear average explain amount leg arm emotion congratulation sociopath take pride believe fault laughing moving easy die sink swim pal support others join platform help build bigger one tom hank stuck stupidly small island cast away building raft hit wave everything got many push past going fail mr bear grillz god damnit pursue given owes give buy amazon swallow pill float tool floating breathing coherent run wild great anyways invest boat set sail friend direction always matter nothing probably end sayinggg make hyperfocus living lot say keep thrive actually appreciate hate need leave long weight book definitely pursuing last thing ship fit giving fulfilling fundamental reciprocating earned relationship deteriorate okay sailing ocean meet smart important yeah might alongside condition worst case scenario memory made remind goodness pray score sexual touchdown meeting within motivate happy sadness human anyone shape form filthy rat win whether allow option two half amazed accomplish tl dr get,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Another one of these posts! So many exclamation marks!

I've been posting to r/ADHD for quite awhile, since just before I was diagnosed last November. It's been such a journey. The biggest step, probably, was identifying my issues with those so very often expressed in this community. That some of them are SO SPECIFIC actually made me feel, for the first time, that maybe it's not such a noisy incomprehensible mess of (what may or may not be) ""symptoms"", but that there was some kind of pattern behind my struggles. Details like:

- having had all the tags cut out of my shirts as a child to keep me from freaking out at the sensation

- crafting constant, nearly **compulsive** strategies to try to keep my mind from slipping away from me (and becoming VERY good at computer programming meanwhile, like it's totally natural)

- watching movies with subtitles on even when I speak the language, cos it keeps me engaged

- and mostly, the deep existential dread/depression because no matter what I do, I feel like I've spent most of my time falling behind, missing out, either building up or recovering energy, and/or ""going through the motions"" to do things that make no visceral sense to me (because they're supposed to be ""good"")

...Like I said, it was a BIG STEP, because frankly I'd gotten so used to dealing with these things that the burnt-out, hollow shell left at the end of the day was ME, it was how I saw myself, and I couldn't reliably imagine that there could be anything more.

(After all, I've been trying for YEARS.)

*****

Can anyone relate to how good it feels even just to believe that other people understand your problems, and that there is a possible solution? The weight that's lifted when it no longer seems like a constantly-shifting labyrinth of obstacles designed by the devil to keep you from having a purpose?

There is more to this, but I'll post it in a comment below.",adhd,another one post many exclamation mark posting adhd quite awhile since diagnosed last november journey biggest step probably identifying issue often expressed community specific actually made feel first time maybe noisy incomprehensible mess may symptom kind pattern behind struggle detail like tag cut shirt child keep freaking sensation crafting constant nearly compulsive strategy try mind slipping away becoming good computer programming meanwhile totally natural watching movie subtitle even speak language co engaged mostly deep existential dread depression matter spent falling missing either building recovering energy going motion thing make visceral sense supposed said big frankly gotten used dealing burnt hollow shell left end day saw reliably imagine could anything trying year anyone relate believe people understand problem possible solution weight lifted longer seems constantly shifting labyrinth obstacle designed devil purpose comment,0.07,Moderately Positive
"**HEY YOU GUYS!** It’s totally

##### WIN WEDNESDAY!!! #24 (Nearing half a year of wins! Wow!)

***The Sacred Creed of Win Wednesday:***

**Each and every one of us have victories every week, be they great or small. But in Win Wednesday, *no* victory is truly a small one. Whatever ""level"" you happen to be at, progress is *always* a cause for celebration! Please don’t discount anything you have done. The whole point is to share how YOU won, and did not let your ADHD win! Check out the examples to see what we mean!**

***
#### PHENOMENAL EXAMPLES FROM LAST WEEK:

☺ Took awesome pictures!

☺ Exercised a lot!

☺ Vacationed!

☺ Learned to snap!

☺ Didn't fail exams!

☺ **P38sheep flew a freaking helicopter holy crap!**

☺ Played with kittens1

☺ ...and other things!

##### We love you, /r/adhd! BE PROUD, for you are awesome.-- your community managers
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#### Hey, did you notice?? 
**We try to update the above example list roughly every week or two, so keep an eye out and maybe we’ll be talking about YOU in the OP! Also, we are looking for some feedback on this very thing. We’re playing around with mentioning names in the example list, and even linking to comments from the previous week. Any thoughts about that? Like or dislike this idea, or have more to add? Let us know!!**

**...we also tried to make this OP less wall-of-texty. better?**",adhd,hey guy totally win wednesday nearing half year wow sacred creed every one u victory week great small truly whatever level happen progress always cause celebration please discount anything done whole point share let adhd check example see mean phenomenal last took awesome picture exercised lot vacationed learned snap fail exam sheep flew freaking helicopter holy crap played kitten thing love proud community manager notice try update list roughly two keep eye maybe talking op also looking feedback playing around mentioning name even linking comment previous thought like dislike idea add know tried make le wall texty better,0.17,Moderately Positive
"This is so much more difficult than I ever thought it would be. I've been on the Covered CA website for hours and on/off the phone with representatives all morning.  
First I had an account already on file, but couldn't reset my password without calling. 15 minute wait time, finally got it fixed.   
Then I finally submitted my application only to prompted for my employer tax information. I'm self employed, I file a 1099. So I must've made a mistake and have to call again.  
Now I've deleted the mistake and added income under self employment, but it's forcing me to answer specific questions about WHY that ""employment income"" no longer exists, none of the optional answers being ""I made a fucking mistake."" Somehow, all this and entering my other information has taken three hours and I'm losing it.  
I'm fighting 100% against my nature to stay focused and dedicated and follow this through, and the two times I just had to get up I only allowed myself to do ""chores"" which I quickly lost interest in and came back to the application. Why am I so scared just to apply for health insurance that I'll pay for *with my own money?*  
OH, and if you arent active on the page for like 5 minutes it automatically signs you out, signing back in starts you back at the home page. Wtf?",adhd,much difficult ever thought would covered ca website hour phone representative morning first account already file reset password without calling minute wait time finally got fixed submitted application prompted employer tax information self employed must made mistake call deleted added income employment forcing answer specific question longer exists none optional fucking somehow entering taken three losing fighting nature stay focused dedicated follow two get allowed chore quickly lost interest came back scared apply health insurance pay money oh arent active page like automatically sign signing start home wtf,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Hi great start to this day. 
Im a ADHD bipolar person that yesterday got some bad news regarding my disability payment and that triggered a major panic attack. Haven sleep anything as of yet. Using this sub to just focus my mind on something else than how utterly useless I am. 

Sorry for the inconvenience if there is any grammatical errors ( not my native language) 
 Anyway hope your day is turning out better then mine. 
Happy trails  ",adhd,hi great start day im adhd bipolar person yesterday got bad news regarding disability payment triggered major panic attack sleep anything yet using sub focus mind something else utterly useless sorry inconvenience grammatical error native language anyway hope turning better mine happy trail,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Just got through the two worst midterms of my college career so far. Worst not because of my awful performance (although it was awful) - worst because this time that performance marked the end of what felt like a long and successful win streak. Up until yesterday afternoon I had been doing well, turning in all of my assignments (on time and of good quality), not turning in late labs for my computer science class - except for the really difficult labs which everyone in the class turned in late - and showing up to all my classes, even paying good attention in the lectures, taking notes, and making an effort to participate in class discussions. My first two midterms, a calculus exam (for a calc class so easy it was almost remedial, not being arrogant, we were literally going over middle school algebra) and a history paper went well. After completing those I did something that I'd only managed once before. I actually devoted a sizable amount of my time to studying! Just sitting down and making flash cards, outlines, reviewing information for hours on end. I did this for about two days. Then the first final (my politics final) came. 

Lord it was awful. One glance at the paper and I realized that I had been studying ALL THE WRONG FUCKING THINGS IN ALL THE WRONG FUCKING WAYS! The flashcard summaries I had made of the assigned readings didn't at all provide me with detailed enough knowledge to answer the questions. I hadn't studied the lecture slides or my notes enough, and had mostly focused on covering material from the study guide he gave us in class: because of this and my consequent gaps in knowledge the multiple choice section took me forever and I ended up writing a shitty and rushed (and, especially awful for a politics class, preachy) essay.

I came out of it feeling pretty bad, but still ready to study for computer science the next day. Thing is as I was heading back to my dorm to grab CS stuff I ran into a friend of mine who also suffers from ADHD. I told him about the exam, and in response he gave me a packet of papers on ADHD management that he'd been meaning to give to me for some time. Later that evening, I made the mistake of reading the paper my friend said contained information on what he believed causes our ADHD. Which turned out to be brain damage, specifically lesions of the frontal lobe (the part of the brain which controls executive function). This made me very depressed (because I very much don't like the idea of having brain damage) and led to me reading about various types of physical injuries while watching Community until 7AM this morning (great show!) and not studying CS at all (and not going over concepts that were essential knowledge for the exam). At 10AM I walked into the exam room, depressed and sleep-deprived, and fucking bombed the entire thing.

Anyways. I took my medication this morning before the exam, so I'm still awake and feeling like shit over my relapse into old habits. I'm also genuinely worried over whether my ADHD is caused by a neurochemical imbalance, or is the result of brain damage that causes deficits in executive function. How do I prevent this whole episode from throwing me off track?

tl;dr - Bombed two of my midterms, the first because of studying incorrectly, the second because I felt really shitty about the first and (prodded by some reading about brain damage) relapsed into old habits. How do I get back on track? Also how do I know that my ADHD is not the result of brain damage?",adhd,got two worst midterm college career far awful performance although time marked end felt like long successful win streak yesterday afternoon well turning assignment good quality late lab computer science class except really difficult everyone turned showing even paying attention lecture taking note making effort participate discussion first calculus exam calc easy almost remedial arrogant literally going middle school algebra history paper went completing something managed actually devoted sizable amount studying sitting flash card outline reviewing information hour day final politics came lord one glance realized wrong fucking thing way flashcard summary made assigned reading provide detailed enough knowledge answer question studied slide mostly focused covering material study guide gave u consequent gap multiple choice section took forever ended writing shitty rushed especially preachy essay feeling pretty bad still ready next heading back dorm grab c stuff ran friend mine also suffers adhd told response packet management meaning give later evening mistake said contained believed cause brain damage specifically lesion frontal lobe part control executive function depressed much idea led various type physical injury watching community morning great show concept essential walked room sleep deprived bombed entire anyways medication awake shit relapse old habit genuinely worried whether caused neurochemical imbalance result deficit prevent whole episode throwing track tl dr incorrectly second prodded relapsed get know,0.01,Neutral
"Well, it's been quite the journey. September of last year I had the incredible opportunity to go on a backpacking trip across China with some friends. It was two weeks of pure bliss. My life sucked horribly before hand, so this trip was an incredible escape. Now one of my friends on that trip is diagnosed and over the course of those two weeks we talked a lot one on one. After having many conversations, I recognized that most of the problems he has in his day to day life I have too. When those two weeks were over, I came home more depressed than I had ever been in my entire life. I realized just how shitty everything was. I remember the day after I got back, I was sitting on my bed hopeless and my mother walked in and sat down at the edge. She asked me if everything was ok, and that's when I completely fell apart. I started to cry. Thirteen years or so of sadness and confusion poured out of me. I told her about how I've always been sad, how I've always known something wasn't quite right. We all know what problems we have to deal with, so no need to make a big ass list. Anyways, that was at the end of September. It was time for things to change and that meant getting help. To get started I made an appointment with my GP. Few weeks later I went in and discussed my depression and concern for having symptoms of ADHD. He prescribed me Wellbutrin and referred me to a therapist and psychologist.

Fast forward seven months to today, May 15th, 2017. This morning at 11 am I went in to see my psychologist and was able to look at my report from the neuropsychologist I visited in April. I walked out with a prescription for 10mg of Ritalin and I'm due back in a month from now. Here's what the diagnostic impression from the report said, followed by a summary of the report:

**Diagnostic Impression**: Based on the ADHD Rating Scales and cognitive testing, he clearly meets criteria for moderate to marked ADHD symptoms. He has both inattentive and hyperactive symptomology. He would benefit significantly from psychotropic treatment of these symptoms.

**Summary**: Peter is an 18-year-old young man with a lifelong history of inattention, lack of focus, and poor concentration and sustained attention, which has resulted in poor school performance, not being able to get academic or other tasks accomplished in a timely fashion, and feelings of failure. He has also experienced significant depression symptoms, but these are now under substantially better control as a result of his ongoing treatment over the last 6 months.

There it is. I finally have the answer to my life's biggest question. Everything that's gone horribly wrong in my life has a reason why. It's not my fault, it's beyond my control. 

I will forever be grateful to my close friend, Kavin, for posting a picture of him asking if anyone wanted to go to China on his snapchat story lol. He unintentionally led me on a path that would change my life. And I thank each and every one of you guys. This subreddit helped me in more ways than you can think. 

I'm well aware that this is just the beginning, that there's still a ways to go, and a lot to do. Nonetheless, I'm happy. 

Chapter 1 of my life is finished. Tomorrow I start Chapter 2.

Much love.",adhd,well quite journey september last year incredible opportunity go backpacking trip across china friend two week pure bliss life sucked horribly hand escape one diagnosed course talked lot many conversation recognized problem day came home depressed ever entire realized shitty everything remember got back sitting bed hopeless mother walked sat edge asked ok completely fell apart started cry thirteen sadness confusion poured told always sad known something right know deal need make big as list anyways end time thing change meant getting help get made appointment gp later went discussed depression concern symptom adhd prescribed wellbutrin referred therapist psychologist fast forward seven month today may th morning see able look report neuropsychologist visited april prescription mg ritalin due diagnostic impression said followed summary based rating scale cognitive testing clearly meet criterion moderate marked inattentive hyperactive symptomology would benefit significantly psychotropic treatment peter old young man lifelong history inattention lack focus poor concentration sustained attention resulted school performance academic task accomplished timely fashion feeling failure also experienced significant substantially better control result ongoing finally answer biggest question gone wrong reason fault beyond forever grateful close kavin posting picture asking anyone wanted snapchat story lol unintentionally led path thank every guy subreddit helped way think aware beginning still nonetheless happy chapter finished tomorrow start much love,0.15,Moderately Positive
"I've been on a trial period of Adderall for 4 days, and I'm learning a lot. For the first time, I think I'm understanding what it really is to be ADHD.

The ADHD stereotype is a person who overreacts to inputs that come their way. A butterfly floats by -- ""OOH... pretty, I must catch it"". But after trying Adderall I've now realized that I normally *underreact* to inputs just as often! 

My new view of ADHD is not just that you over-respond to inputs, but that **ADHD is responding to inputs with an inappropriate amount of action, either too much or too little.**

Here's a personal example. Over a month ago, I noticed my co-worker had small tasks like ""call your family"" or ""Take out garbage"" on his calendar. In an effort to get more organized, I decided to do the same thing and added a weekly ""call your family"" event to my own calendar.

Every week, I would see the notification, and even if I was free, I just *wouldn't do it*. There was no good reason. I just simply didn't respond to the input and went back to whatever I was doing.

This week, I had taken Adderall, and for the first time upon seeing that notification, I actually did the thing I had scheduled for myself. It was easy. I just picked up the phone and called, something I hadn't done in a very long time. My mom was so happy to hear from me.

Another example: Normally, if I sit down at my computer and a window is open that has Facebook, it can spell doom for my productivity. I have to rush to close the window as soon as possible or else risk getting drawn in for a very long time.

With Adderall, I neither over nor underreact to the input. I check my notifications, maybe respond to a post or two, and then close the window. No big deal.

I just wanted to share these experiences with you. Has anyone had similar experiences?",adhd,trial period adderall day learning lot first time think understanding really adhd stereotype person overreacts input come way butterfly float ooh pretty must catch trying realized normally underreact often new view respond responding inappropriate amount action either much little personal example month ago noticed co worker small task like call family take garbage calendar effort get organized decided thing added weekly event every week would see notification even free good reason simply went back whatever taken upon seeing actually scheduled easy picked phone called something done long mom happy hear another sit computer window open facebook spell doom productivity rush close soon possible else risk getting drawn neither check maybe post two big deal wanted share experience anyone similar,0.14,Moderately Positive
Could I take this as I need it? or will it mess me up too much?,adhd,could take need mess much,0.01,Neutral
"Just a kind of brag / moan: My wife is currently in hospital (she's ok), so today I am: in charge of our girls (4 and 1); working full time; trying to think of and buy presents from me and the girls for my wife and mother in law who both have birthdays this week; visiting wife in hospital; getting the water pump fixed so my house has running water; dealing with some finance and insurance stuff; going to the dr myself; reading a book; trying not to read politics; and remembering to take my meds. Which is all normal people stuff, and I have people to help, but my head feels like it's full of bouncy rubber balls pinging off the inside of my skull.",adhd,kind brag moan wife currently hospital ok today charge girl working full time trying think buy present mother law birthday week visiting getting water pump fixed house running dealing finance insurance stuff going dr reading book read politics remembering take med normal people help head feel like bouncy rubber ball pinging inside skull,0.24,Moderately Positive
"Does this happen to anyone else?  I've spent my entire Saturday being bored to death.  There are plenty of enjoyable things that I **could** do (or productive things that I **should** do), but all of them seem to equate to some degree of work today, and I just haven't had the motivation to make myself do any of them.  Yeah, I could take adderall, but my desire to not work even makes me not want to take the adderall.",adhd,happen anyone else spent entire saturday bored death plenty enjoyable thing could productive seem equate degree work today motivation make yeah take adderall desire even want,-0.02,Neutral
"I know this is a pretty common problem so I was wondering if you guys have figured it out. Unfortunately I cant take my meds until I get to work or they wear off too soon and any amount of caffeine when I wake up results in me nearly crapping myself on the subway to work so I cant do that either.

I found an app called Alarmy Pro that I've made force me take a picture of the shower faucet being on with me in it but I've noticed I just end up losing track of time in the shower so it doesn't really work either.

I asked my boss to cut my paycheck each time I was late but he won't cooperate so Im looking for some kind of self imposed punishment like an app that basically bills me huge amounts of money if I don't deactivate it from my work pc by a set time or take a picture of something in the office.

It sounds ridiculous I know but does anyone know of something like that? ",adhd,know pretty common problem wondering guy figured unfortunately cant take med get work wear soon amount caffeine wake result nearly crapping subway either found app called alarmy pro made force picture shower faucet noticed end losing track time really asked bos cut paycheck late cooperate im looking kind self imposed punishment like basically bill huge money deactivate pc set something office sound ridiculous anyone,0.05,Moderately Positive
It won't get me a job that's for sure.,adhd,get job sure,0.5,Positive
"First time I posted this it got removed because I linked to the subreddit.

The exchange went as follows:

>I'm ""diagnosed ADHD"" and definitely get wired off amphetamines, ADHD's just an excuse to prescribe kids drugs.

>You're moronic. I can hardly think straight if I'm not on a stimulant. I can't remain focused on one task for more than five minutes without a stimulant. Sure stims are overprescribed but some people legitimately need them. But it's not like I want to need them, it sucks.

>Sounds more like an amphetamine addiction to me.

It's hard to have so many people view ADHD as a case of someone just being lazy. I would never have imagined the amount of people who don't really think it 'exists' before I got diagnosed.

After going onto stimulants, I'm a lot more productive and have been able to manage my ADHD more than have it cured. You still have to put in the work, it just makes it more reasonable. For whatever reason, a lot of ADHD people tend to do above average on standardized testing, but then not as great GPA wise. I only got diagnosed after highschool and it's been a weird transition. Being completely responsible for my own life in college is wild, and going from coasting in highschool to having to learn to study and manage my time has been hard, but there's a whole host of other side effects to being on amphetamines on a day to day basis. The anti-social qualities and anxiety that comes with is awful.  I have no desire to eat for literally days, and I end up feeling weak. That combined with the dizziness and low blood pressure is not a good feeling. I'm on vyvanse, so I don't really even get the euphoria or recreational side of that, either. Hard to really be 'addicted' when there's days I'll forget to take my meds because I'm not medicated. It's not like this started after I got onto the medication, this has just been my entire life up until I started taking them.",adhd,first time posted got removed linked subreddit exchange went follows diagnosed adhd definitely get wired amphetamine excuse prescribe kid drug moronic hardly think straight stimulant remain focused one task five minute without sure stims overprescribed people legitimately need like want suck sound addiction hard many view case someone lazy would never imagined amount really exists going onto lot productive able manage cured still put work make reasonable whatever reason tend average standardized testing great gpa wise highschool weird transition completely responsible life college wild coasting learn study whole host side effect day basis anti social quality anxiety come awful desire eat literally end feeling weak combined dizziness low blood pressure good vyvanse even euphoria recreational either addicted forget take med medicated started medication entire taking,0.08,Moderately Positive
I know we have these stimulants that help a lot but they cannot cure ADHD and there may not be any way to cure ADHD. I'm just wondering if we're stuck with the medication we have from now on or if researchers are still making progress towards new meds,adhd,know stimulant help lot cannot cure adhd may way wondering stuck medication researcher still making progress towards new med,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I also have a vape I do daily, but something just about lighting up that cigarette and stepping outside, no phone, no nothing and just smoking it. I'm going to try to find organic non tobacco cigarettes online lol. ",adhd,also vape daily something lighting cigarette stepping outside phone nothing smoking going try find organic non tobacco online lol,0.27,Moderately Positive
"Hi Fellow ADHDers, 

Just wanted to share some info regarding Evernote since I have been using them for the past few months after my ADHD diagnosis. I am not in anyway affiliated with, nor am I payed by Evernote (although I wish I could be!). I am also in graduate school, and own my own business. 

**Why I love it**
1. It keeps everything in one place! - I use it for journaling, class readings (you can insert PDF's and write directly on the PDF). You can even connect it with their other app to scan documents, and draw.(Penultimate and Sannable)

2. It synchronises to all devices - Because of this, I always have the information/notes that I need. I have heard of some people that upload pictures of their insurance cards, bank information etc. *You have to upgrade for all devices, otherwise, you can choose two devices for the free version. I also post pictures for inspiration or reference. 

3. It's really easy to use. After playing with the functions for a few days, I figured out how to keep all of my essentials in it. (See below). 

**I use it for the following**
1. Journaling - I have a daily journal for my personal life and also for my business. 
2. Business - I've started to use it to keep track of my taxes, projects, and communication. 
3. School - I have notebooks for each of my classes, download the PDF readings and take notes directly on the PDFs or in the document. 
4. Project management/Task Management - I recently created a template to keep track of due dates and projects/tasks that I'm working on. Evernote isn't as great as other apps, but I like that everything is in one place and it's not distracting. 
5. Travel Pack List - Whenever I travel, I use a similar checklist to make sure I don't forget anything. 

If you want to try premium for free you can use my link, or test out the free version on your own - [Click Here For Evernote Trial](https://www.evernote.com/referral/Registration.action?sig=ca462c7b86342bee49d32a813d140b449fa822209187a81ce83441d1beb2cdcc&uid=174909431) or [Here for Evernote Website](https://evernote.com/) 

Anyone else love Evernote for their ADHD? ",adhd,hi fellow adhders wanted share info regarding evernote since using past month adhd diagnosis anyway affiliated payed although wish could also graduate school business love keep everything one place use journaling class reading insert pdf write directly even connect app scan document draw penultimate sannable synchronises device always information note need heard people upload picture insurance card bank etc upgrade otherwise choose two free version post inspiration reference really easy playing function day figured essential see following daily journal personal life started track tax project communication notebook download take pdfs management task recently created template due date working great apps like distracting travel pack list whenever similar checklist make sure forget anything want try premium link test click trial website anyone else,0.17,Moderately Positive
"All the qualifications I don't meet, the clicking and scrolling and clicking and scrolling and clicking and scrolling and clicking and school and -- you get the idea.

Has my mind racing like all hell now. Though I've also been awake for around fourteen hours or so, perhaps that has something to do with it.

Going back at it tomorrow and during a period of time where I haven't avoided it for over twelve hours (began two hours ago, recently ended the search for now, going back in the morning), and when my medication is active. But at least, if nothing else, it's made me realize that I'm not going to be the best at dealing with future financial-related stress, so I'll have to map out my lifestyle accordingly.

**TL;DR:** Job hunting with a lot of clicking and scrolling is a fine way to get overstimulated with a racing mind to boot.",adhd,qualification meet clicking scrolling school get idea mind racing like hell though also awake around fourteen hour perhaps something going back tomorrow period time avoided twelve began two ago recently ended search morning medication active least nothing else made realize best dealing future financial related stress map lifestyle accordingly tl dr job hunting lot fine way overstimulated boot,0.11,Moderately Positive
"**Yesterday:** 

• Remember it's someone's birthday soon. 

• Think it's that date today and panic about having not sent present yet

• Realise it's not for two days but that means you HAVE TO SORT THE PRESENT TODAY

• Go to work

• Be late

• Go home, realise you didn't get the goddamn present

• Go to store to buy two items

• Go home and later find the things you bought aren't in your bag

• Realise you left them on the self check out in the store when you left 

• Go out in the evening and switch tables a couple of times for the perfect one

• Have a bartender come over to you and ask 'is this your handbag, it was left by a table over there'

**Today:**

• Go to work

• Be late

• Despite knowing you'll be late, decide you needed to buy 6 McDonalds hash browns to take to work with you

• Leave work and actually remember you need a present

• Buy present and card, go back to work to borrow a pen to write the card then and there so you don't forget to post it in the time it takes you to go back home

• Post the card

• Walk all the way to the train station home 

• Realise you don't have your phone

• Walk all the way back to work to get phone

• Go home

• Get distracted by million different youtube videos in seven tabs

• Realise you need to do laundry so you have clothes for tomorrow

• Post on Reddit

• Still don't do laundry

Yep.

I mean, this stuff is super typical of me but I found this was an extra intense couple of days for my ADHD brain.

**TLDR; Rant, I forget things a lot, I'm procrastinating from doing laundry**",adhd,yesterday remember someone birthday soon think date today panic sent present yet realise two day mean sort go work late home get goddamn store buy item later find thing bought bag left self check evening switch table couple time perfect one bartender come ask handbag despite knowing decide needed mcdonalds hash brown take leave actually need card back borrow pen write forget post walk way train station phone distracted million different youtube video seven tab laundry clothes tomorrow reddit still yep stuff super typical found extra intense adhd brain tldr rant lot procrastinating,0.06,Moderately Positive
"On week 1 of 5mg Adderall Xr.

Absolutely no issues with sleep compared to normal (except maybe the first 2 days).
My anxiety hasn't been impacted either.

However I think I should increase my dosage. Possibly just by 5mg. It has helped my focus but just slightly. Like, in conversation I can chat for more than 5 min at a time without losing it, and I don't forget what I'm saying all of the time now.

While doing work tasks it's also helped me a bit with not forgetting other tasks.
I just don't feel this is my optimal dosage, like I'm still dragging? It's really hard to describe.

I feel like I'm on the edge of ""being normal"" but am not quite there yet.

So, should I just ask my doctor to increase the dosage? I can probably just wait until our follow up in a few weeks since it'd likely be beneficial for my body to adjust to this, but idk. She said I'm allowed to email her but I'm wary of asking for dosage increase online.",adhd,week mg adderall xr absolutely issue sleep compared normal except maybe first day anxiety impacted either however think increase dosage possibly helped focus slightly like conversation chat min time without losing forget saying work task also bit forgetting feel optimal still dragging really hard describe edge quite yet ask doctor probably wait follow since likely beneficial body adjust idk said allowed email wary asking online,-0.04,Neutral
"My girlfriend's ADHD son is 10, and she's trying to gear up for what she's sure is the coming storm. Can anyone recommend a good book about parenting ADHD teens and pre-teens?",adhd,girlfriend adhd son trying gear sure coming storm anyone recommend good book parenting teen pre,0.4,Moderately Positive
"*I decided to make this after recieving many responses on [comments](http://www.reddit.com/r/science/comments/16faaz/could_a_dopamine_gene_be_the_answer_to_a_longer/c7vjwco)
my  in a /r/TrueReddit post.*

**I have yet only began by some of the most important links, but there's more to come, I will be adding many useful stuff within the course of next several days, like for example a bunch of one or two sentences TL;DR sort of info that we all love.**

**Also some brief personal opinions, theories and hypothesies to which I came by connecting dots from all the stuff I've seen or heard, (also called: stupid fucking biased emotionally tainted anecdotal BS with no scientific basis whatsoever).** 

**If you have any constructive criticism regarding that, please PM me, I will take a careful look at it, consider it deeply and thoughtfully and then proceed to nod approvingly.**

First of all watch this 2,5 minute video :)  
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AeC040DqzFk

If you have ADHD and you tend to prefer sleeping at day and rockin' it out at night, your're not the only or even one of a few:

[Delayed sleep phase disorder](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delayed_sleep_phase_disorder)

[Exemplary illustration of your sleep patterns](http://27.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2p0ddcXTS1qzcv7no1_400.gif)

**Gabor Maté:**

Different speeches on addiction:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLki68uLfjw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpHiFqXCYKc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oivcav-voqw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66cYcSak6nE

Effects of mental health on physical health (*the main source of informations behind my comment*):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wfqwl57q23I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QrNxvpTDo_s
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qf92l7FPyKo

Attachment and Brain Development (the real origins of ADHD and related disorders):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uKES1nyitAg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGmADfU5HGU

Interesting compilations of Gabor Maté, Robert Sapolsky, James Gillian and Richard Wilkinson about the myths of genetics (hint: humans are not really stuck with anything, you can always change what you really want to be changed):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36HquPzdxf4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-brqskIoBw

**Robert Sapolsky:**

First one from a course of 25 lectures about Human Behavioral Biology (strongly reccommended for anyone who wants to understand humans, after watching this, you will have much better understanding and perspective of all the other stuff):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NNnIGh9g6fA

The uniqueness of humans, interesting info about Dopamine:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yrnn57sHGYg

**NOTE: I haven't sat down and watched a single one of any of the hour+ long videos, I merely listened to them while for example playing Heroes of Might and Magic, working, waiting at a bus stop or doctor's waiting room, cleaning my room, drawing, running, working out, writing something for school or just lying in bed before I fell asleep.**

Except for this one: Stress, Portrait of a Killer with robert Sapolsky, it's the shit:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYG0ZuTv5rs

Basically the same thing in a form of a lecture:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvMQQsyPirM

**Jacque Fresco:** 

Depression, Self Image:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HM7wViv5YjQ

Are we educated yet?:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OEH9zKHTZqQ

I reccomend anything and everything from Jacque Fresco.

**Dr. Russel Barkley** (I think his view of ADHD is a little skewed but I strongly recommend his videos for understanding of ADHD behavior and neuro-biology/anatomy/chemisty)

My compilation of Barkley which I have posted on /r/adhd several months ago:
http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/rvj3x/must_watch_an_excellent_adhd_researcher_dr_russel/

**Every male here should read this thread:**
http://www.reddit.com/r/AskMen/comments/14ot1r/what_societal_pressures_are_there_on_men_to_man_up/c7f1p04
",adhd,decided make recieving many response comment truereddit post yet began important link come adding useful stuff within course next several day like example bunch one two sentence tl dr sort info love also brief personal opinion theory hypothesies came connecting dot seen heard called stupid fucking biased emotionally tainted anecdotal b scientific basis whatsoever constructive criticism regarding please pm take careful look consider deeply thoughtfully proceed nod approvingly first watch minute video adhd tend prefer sleeping rockin night even delayed sleep phase disorder exemplary illustration pattern gabor mat different speech addiction effect mental health physical main source information behind attachment brain development real origin related interesting compilation robert sapolsky james gillian richard wilkinson myth genetics hint human really stuck anything always change want changed lecture behavioral biology strongly reccommended anyone understand watching much better understanding perspective uniqueness dopamine note sat watched single hour long merely listened playing hero might magic working waiting bus stop doctor room cleaning drawing running writing something school lying bed fell asleep except stress portrait killer shit basically thing form jacque fresco depression self image educated reccomend everything russel barkley think view little skewed recommend behavior neuro anatomy chemisty posted month ago every male read thread,0.06,Moderately Positive
"This happened a while ago and I was a little shit at the time but he was really helpful and I still remember his words once in a while. :)


Basically, his argument was, ""in order to do even homework with ease, you must have a complete logical argument for why studying this is the best thing in your life.""


Great guy. Head of the physics department in an ivy league university. I just wanted to share it with you guys.",adhd,happened ago little shit time really helpful still remember word basically argument order even homework ease must complete logical studying best thing life great guy head physic department ivy league university wanted share,0.28,Moderately Positive
"Hey, I've only been recently diagnosed with ADD at 20, so I'm really still trying to adjust with medication Vyvanse. It wasn't a problem when I was college taking a more practical, engineering program because it was math and diagrams. Now that I'm in a health care program, it is all reading every day, 24/7, please save me, I will cry.

Never ever been a reader in my whole life, and now I know why (ADD).  I'm 'struggling' when it comes to studying, but I'm still managing to get high marks. I did 'tank' one of my midterms though, and it got me upset so I want to kind of rework a study schedule/plan to help me focus.

I've been trying to smash all of my studying into during the day, because the meds wear off near the late afternoon/evening at which point studying is like climbing Mt.Everest. Issue is, my psychiatrist has said I am experiencing stress migraines from jamming it all in and my trying to focus on so much reading. Doesn't help that the one mid term I did not so well on is a very late class at which point I zombie through the lecture.

Do you friends have any tips for how to go about structuring a study plan? Any good apps or accessories that might help? Thanks friends! Have a great day!",adhd,hey recently diagnosed add really still trying adjust medication vyvanse problem college taking practical engineering program math diagram health care reading every day please save cry never ever reader whole life know struggling come studying managing get high mark tank one midterm though got upset want kind rework study schedule plan help focus smash med wear near late afternoon evening point like climbing mt everest issue psychiatrist said experiencing stress migraine jamming much mid term well class zombie lecture friend tip go structuring good apps accessory might thanks great,0.24,Moderately Positive
"My brother was diagnosed with ADHD when he was little, and my mom went to the doctor to get him help. I've questioned many times wether I have it or not, I'm easily scatterbrained, I can't focus for very long. School is terrible for me because my concentration level decrease rapidly after a few minutes in. I forgot stuff very easily and often blank out of concentration. I've tried convincing my mom when I was younger to get me checked out, but she refused saying there was no way I could have it.
 Being an adult now and about to head off to college, I worry that if I may be ADHD my school work will be affected heavily just like all throughout high school. What are common signs of ADHD and is it better to be on meds? ",adhd,brother diagnosed adhd little mom went doctor get help questioned many time wether easily scatterbrained focus long school terrible concentration level decrease rapidly minute forgot stuff often blank tried convincing younger checked refused saying way could adult head college worry may work affected heavily like throughout high common sign better med,0.04,Neutral
Started playing at 5:30 and ended at 11:30 when my roommate knocked on my door.  It feels like I time traveled. I stopped for only bathroom/beer breaks. But I was so zoned in. I made some pretty good stuff too. Time really isn’t a thing to me. ,adhd,started playing ended roommate knocked door feel like time traveled stopped bathroom beer break zoned made pretty good stuff really thing,0.38,Moderately Positive
"I've always found it hard to debate or conclude certain things through logic and reasoning. It's like I know how I feel about things but I have difficulty explaining why or holding an argument. It's frustrating because I need much longer than 5 minutes to have an answer.

I'm sure there are some on here who have better critical thinking skills, but do you guys understand what I'm talking about? And advice is welcomed.",adhd,always found hard debate conclude certain thing logic reasoning like know feel difficulty explaining holding argument frustrating need much longer minute answer sure better critical thinking skill guy understand talking advice welcomed,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hi everyone!
I figure if ANY subreddit would be understanding of a bunch of incoherent questions, this one will.  I did a brief search to see if my questions had been answered, and some had, but I figured I'd ask anyways.

My situation:  Discovered I had ADHD in college (2 years and 2 points of GPA too late :( ) and have been on meds since.  Law school---lawyer now.  I need to focus, but not for my current job (so it will be important later!).  I have hypertension (kidneys) as well as ADHD. 

1)  I was on strattera.  My prescription ran out, so now I'm on nothing until I A) get new health insurance (just moved) and B) can afford it (yes the legal market SUCKS).  I was on adderal before, but it made me too hyper, I think as a result of the hypertension+stimulant.  I was also drinking caffeine nonstop and smoked back then, so it might not be as bad now.
2)  I've managed to cut back on my caffeine (one cup of coffee a day) and sugar intake, and I no longer smoke.  This has helped bring down my blood pressure, but it's still slightly high (can't be helped).  

I've seen the (very helpful) advice given by many about routines, sleep, and exercise.  Great.  I'm doing that.  My question is whether anybody with the knockout combo of hypertension+ADHD (it's frightening how derailed elevated blood pressure can get you) has taken any stimulant drugs for ADHD.  Did they work?  Heart racing, etc?  If not, what did you take?  Are there any non-stimulants that aren't absurdly expensive?

Sorry about the disorganization, but like I said. . . off the meds for awhile now, lol.  

I appreciate any help anyone can give.  And yes, I know, you are providing non-medical anecdotal/general advice, and I should see a doctor.  I just want personal experiences.

Thanks",adhd,hi everyone figure subreddit would understanding bunch incoherent question one brief search see answered figured ask anyways situation discovered adhd college year point gpa late med since law school lawyer need focus current job important later hypertension kidney well strattera prescription ran nothing get new health insurance moved afford yes legal market suck adderal made hyper think result stimulant also drinking caffeine nonstop smoked back might bad managed cut cup coffee day sugar intake longer smoke helped bring blood pressure still slightly high seen helpful advice given many routine sleep exercise great whether anybody knockout combo frightening derailed elevated taken drug work heart racing etc take non absurdly expensive sorry disorganization like said awhile lol appreciate help anyone give know providing medical anecdotal general doctor want personal experience thanks,0.03,Neutral
"I was diagnosed about 3 weeks ago. Just got a prescription a few days ago.  First day was amazing, i was shocked by how much i had been missing.  Second day i was a little out of it, drowsy, no positive effect,  and the negatives weren't bad, other than a temporary nearly complete loss of ability to make any decisions...  Third day (today) got off my first day of work (college student, so work weekends, school weeks...) and a few minutes after work, i had a few side effects i wasn't expecting, including a small panic attack, luckily was NOT driving, but was about to be, and when i got a ride home from mom (community college...) we called the doc on the after hours number, (it was almost 5).
We told him the symptoms, and for the most part he was going to say ride it out for a few more days, but adderall should not make me drowsy... he was surprised, and recommended i stop taking it until he can see me monday... which i had already decided. i had hoped yesterday was the ""low"" after the ""high"" of wednesday... but today was as bad or worse, when i should have been balancing out...  shit...",adhd,diagnosed week ago got prescription day first amazing shocked much missing second little drowsy positive effect negative bad temporary nearly complete loss ability make decision third today work college student weekend school minute side expecting including small panic attack luckily driving ride home mom community called doc hour number almost told symptom part going say adderall surprised recommended stop taking see monday already decided hoped yesterday low high wednesday worse balancing shit,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Been struggling to find ADHD and anti-depressant meds that work for two years. It's been especially bad the last six months.

Got contacted by the admin of a senior leader in my organization to set up a thirty minute ""one on one"" discussion. He's not up my managerial chain so I knew it wasn't disciplinary, but I've had it out with some folks in his organization who are inept so I went in prepared for anything, including a stern taking to.

Instead he told me the executive leader in my org had identified me as ""key talent"" and since he didn't know me he just wanted us to talk so he could get to know me better.

So much irony. I've been feeling like a slacker for months at this job! Also ironic that I just started on new meds today. Hope they work!",adhd,struggling find adhd anti depressant med work two year especially bad last six month got contacted admin senior leader organization set thirty minute one discussion managerial chain knew disciplinary folk inept went prepared anything including stern taking instead told executive org identified key talent since know wanted u talk could get better much irony feeling like slacker job also ironic started new today hope,0.01,Neutral
"It seems like one thing I've always been really good at is learning my way around places and learning maps. Even when I was little I could go on a car ride and remember every street name that I saw along the way. 

It's like I draw a map in my head without even thinking about it. No matter where I am, I never feel like I'm lost, and it really confuses me when people drive one block off the beaten path and say that they're completely lost. 

Does anybody else with ADHD do any of this stuff or feel this way when it comes to your sense of direction? ",adhd,seems like one thing always really good learning way around place map even little could go car ride remember every street name saw along draw head without thinking matter never feel lost confuses people drive block beaten path say completely anybody else adhd stuff come sense direction,0.2,Moderately Positive
"I was first diagnosed at 17 and it explained why I was struggling in school, starting in middle school. When I was put on Vyvanse it was like night and day on how I performed in school and my memory. Well about a year later after school I decided to stop taking my meds. I was tired of seeing the doctor once a month and thought I was fine without it. Well I am 19 now and lately I noticed my symptoms of forgetting and not paying attention, and fidgeting in my seat have gotten worse so I wanted to be put back on my meds again. I had to see a different doctor this time, and she was saying how I should of grown out of this by now and was relatively rude while I was with her. She was treating me as though I just really wanted these meds for other purposes. I now have to get drug tested once a month in order to stay on the meds, to prove that I have them in my system and not selling them. Can I really grow out of ADHD? I feel a little as though she was treating me as a criminal even though I have never done anything wrong in my past and have been on these meds before.",adhd,first diagnosed explained struggling school starting middle put vyvanse like night day performed memory well year later decided stop taking med tired seeing doctor month thought fine without lately noticed symptom forgetting paying attention fidgeting seat gotten worse wanted back see different time saying grown relatively rude treating though really purpose get drug tested order stay prove system selling grow adhd feel little criminal even never done anything wrong past,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"**TLDR:I did really well in college. Suffered in medical school, but struggled to get an appropriate diagnosis because it wasn't believable that you could make it this far with ADHD.**

Hi everyone, I wanted to post this as a warning to others who may find themselves in a similar position to me.

I am a fourth year medical student. For my whole life I have been ridiculously crazy disorganized. Nothing in the world could make me clean up. I cant keep deadlines. I cant focus in class.

 I went to a competitive college, never went to lecture at all, and essentially slept in every class-- reading the books at home. I just couldnt focus in class no matter what I did. But I ended up doing really well in school especially in the sciences  and was accepted to medical school early from college, and graduated early from college as well-- entering med school, believing that I was a champion.

In medical school my performance really deteriorated and everything that was a weakness before became an issue. I have gotten professionalism forms for not responding to emails. I have lost points on important rotations for not turning things on time. I cant study effectively at all-- getting distracted by my research projects. I suffered so much from my inability to focus and couldnt even think straight talking sometimes. 
 The dean of my medical school pushed me to see a psychiatrist after a series of unprofessional incidences of not turning things on time. My first psychiatrist said that it was unlikely to be ADHD since I did not have a childhood history (little did I know,I did have one which my parents never told me about). 


I was finally diagnosed on Friday at the age of 25 and everything makes sense to me now. Today was my first day of adderall. I did not study today since I was hangnig with ym friends-- but I  felt so much clarity in my thoughts for once. I could articulate much better, and was not constantly losing things. I am so hopeful for the future, and also pretty sad that it took this long to figure out what was wrong with me. 

I wanted to put a warning to people who discount ADHD diagnoses later in life. **You dont have to be a poor student to have it.** I was not initially, until the pressures of medical school led me to be unable to compensate. I thought I had ADHD too since my symptoms fit so well, but then couldn't understand how I made it to medical school in the first place, but it is possible. **There are 2 ADHD students in my year that i know of, and one of them was diagnosed in medical school too.** PLEASE IF YOU HAVE A SUSPICION THAT YOU HAVE ADHD GO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST.",adhd,tldr really well college suffered medical school struggled get appropriate diagnosis believable could make far adhd hi everyone wanted post warning others may find similar position fourth year student whole life ridiculously crazy disorganized nothing world clean cant keep deadline focus class went competitive never lecture essentially slept every reading book home couldnt matter ended especially science accepted early graduated entering med believing champion performance deteriorated everything weakness became issue gotten professionalism form responding email lost point important rotation turning thing time study effectively getting distracted research project much inability even think straight talking sometimes dean pushed see psychiatrist series unprofessional incidence first said unlikely since childhood history little know one parent told finally diagnosed friday age sense today day adderall hangnig ym friend felt clarity thought articulate better constantly losing hopeful future also pretty sad took long figure wrong put people discount later dont poor initially pressure led unable compensate symptom fit understand made place possible please suspicion go,0.04,Neutral
"**TLDR: what do you do if you want to be medicated in the evening?**


I'm playing my first gig since starting ritalin tomorrow night and I'm trying to figure out how best to time my doses. 


I'm probably going to take 5mg twice during the day, the first dose late morning and then the second late afternoon. I'll need to do some solo practice during the day, sound check and rehearsal around 6pm and then the gig will be around 9 or 10.


My concerns are that I'll come down before the gig and not be in great form and that I'll probably have a few drinks before and after the gig.


Do I just try to pick a time that the effects of the ritalin will be wearing off before I start drinking and hope that the booze will buoy me up for the gig? Do any of you take ritalin later for nightime activities? And does that affect  your sleep? Presumably I need to be careful mixing drink with ritalin, right?


Thanks in advance! ",adhd,tldr want medicated evening playing first gig since starting ritalin tomorrow night trying figure best time dos probably going take mg twice day dose late morning second afternoon need solo practice sound check rehearsal around pm concern come great form drink try pick effect wearing start drinking hope booze buoy later nightime activity affect sleep presumably careful mixing right thanks advance,0.23,Moderately Positive
"I'm on Quillivant currently(hoping to be switched soon. I've heard good things about vyvanse), and I try not to take meds every day if I don't need them. I try to avoid weekends if I can since I don't have work or school. I took a med break yesterday, and took them again today, and I am so on edge, super anxious and nervous. Is this a common med problem? I'd like to have unmedicated days, but with the way this is going, I don't think I will be able to. I currently don't have a doctor, as my previous psychiatrist stopped practicing, and my appointment with my new psychiatrist isn't until  July, so I'm stuck right now. ",adhd,quillivant currently hoping switched soon heard good thing vyvanse try take med every day need avoid weekend since work school took break yesterday today edge super anxious nervous common problem like unmedicated way going think able doctor previous psychiatrist stopped practicing appointment new july stuck right,0.14,Moderately Positive
My doctor prescribed this to me after having years of attention deficiency symptoms and I took my first pill this morning. I have never felt this clear and collective especially with my thoughts in my entire life. Is this just the initial reaction I am having or can I expect this for the duration I take this? Everything just clicks in my head and I'm really hoping this effect will remain. The dosage I was prescribed is 10mg. If anyone can share their experiences that would be great as well.,adhd,doctor prescribed year attention deficiency symptom took first pill morning never felt clear collective especially thought entire life initial reaction expect duration take everything click head really hoping effect remain dosage mg anyone share experience would great well,0.19,Moderately Positive
"As implied by the title I was on Concerta and it was giving me a lot of trouble with my stomach. It started about 2.5 months in - the best description of it would be a pressure in the solar plexus, radiating upwards in to the chest area and making it feel as if it's harder to breath (it isn't, just feels that way).

Naturally I reported this to my psychatrist as well as my doctor and I've been taking Omeprazol (proton pump inhibitor) for it without any considerable result. Eventually it was decided that I go off meds for one week to see if the issue subsided - it did, markedly so. After which I was to try Elvanse (Vyvanse on the U.S market) to see if that worked better. It took 2 days for it to go back to unmanagable again.

I am at a loss here. I eat pretty regularly and I don't eat a lot of junk food. I also sleep regularly 9 times out of 10. Have any of you experienced anything like this? If so, do you know what caused it? And what did you do to remedy it?

Thank you in advance.",adhd,implied title concerta giving lot trouble stomach started month best description would pressure solar plexus radiating upwards chest area making feel harder breath way naturally reported psychatrist well doctor taking omeprazol proton pump inhibitor without considerable result eventually decided go med one week see issue subsided markedly try elvanse vyvanse market worked better took day back unmanagable loss eat pretty regularly junk food also sleep time experienced anything like know caused remedy thank advance,0.23,Moderately Positive
"I have been reading and saw that people say that 80mg is too much, can someone here just confirm they have the same dose as me or higher so i know psychiatrist isn't trying to fuck me up or something.

Also i have been taking 80mg a day now for 2 years and i feel like my tolerance is getting worse for some weird reason. ",adhd,reading saw people say mg much someone confirm dose higher know psychiatrist trying fuck something also taking day year feel like tolerance getting worse weird reason,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"Like most people with ADHD I spent a lot of time in school doodling, writing, and imagining big things. It became a detriment to my schoolwork. I dropped out of college because I quickly realized it would be a waste of money. I decided I wanted to work on my own creative projects...

...except I just couldn't, and can't, seem to do it. I'm far past the point where I won't even start working on projects I have ideas for, because I know no matter how passionate I am at first, I'll lose interest soon enough. I always feel like I'm really unaccomplished compared to my potential. It turns into a really self-defeating loop.

It just stings that I can't even dedicate sustained attention to my highest passions. It makes me feel so numb and disconnected from the world because other artists and creators are out there forging their own paths with passion and vigor, and I'm over here unable to summon the focus. I heard a quote ""if it matters to you, you'll find a way to do it."" I can never find a way to do it, so I have to ask... Does it really matter to me? It makes me wonder if I've just been wasting my time for a quarter century and should just move on.",adhd,like people adhd spent lot time school doodling writing imagining big thing became detriment schoolwork dropped college quickly realized would waste money decided wanted work creative project except seem far past point even start working idea know matter passionate first lose interest soon enough always feel really unaccomplished compared potential turn self defeating loop sting dedicate sustained attention highest passion make numb disconnected world artist creator forging path vigor unable summon focus heard quote find way never ask wonder wasting quarter century move,-0.02,Neutral
"I'm 21 and have adhd combined type. I just finished my associates and I'm now working at an office job and I'm struggling to manage symptoms in this new environment. When I'm busy with work it's not bad, however, when I don't have something to keep me busy I start to get distracted and restless. I have a witty personality (like many others with adhd) and I love joking around/ telling stories. This usually turns into getting carried away goofing around with coworkers and behavior that doesn't really belong in the work place.

When I look back I can obviously recognize immaturity but in the moment I guess I just don't think it through. During feedback with my boss he said I was doing really well with the job but did mention that at times I can distract others or goof around too much. I really don't want to be perceived as the immature coworker or get in trouble at work so I was wondering if anyone found any good preventative techniques. Thanks!

Tldr; embarrassed that I'm too goofy at work. Any tips?",adhd,adhd combined type finished associate working office job struggling manage symptom new environment busy work bad however something keep start get distracted restless witty personality like many others love joking around telling story usually turn getting carried away goofing coworkers behavior really belong place look back obviously recognize immaturity moment guess think feedback bos said well mention time distract goof much want perceived immature coworker trouble wondering anyone found good preventative technique thanks tldr embarrassed goofy tip,0.16,Moderately Positive
"Hey guys, so I was diagnosed with ADHD last year, and have just recently started taking Vyvanse since I'm back in school.

This is my second week taking it, and I take it every other day. Is it just me or 40mg only lasts around 4-5 hours for me?

I thought it was supposed to last for 12 hours.

Thanks guys!",adhd,hey guy diagnosed adhd last year recently started taking vyvanse since back school second week take every day mg around hour thought supposed thanks,0.04,Neutral
"####Just post ONE HABIT you want to start this week!  

##If you need to get some other things done in advance, either planning of the habit, or things bought or organized to start your new healthy habit, feel free to list those, and check them off, as needed.

(You can still do your lists/projects, etc., and we'll still help you with accountability!  Look at *[a previous week's KSS](http://redd.it/zlfpp)* if you need more direction/structure.)

***
Don’t forget to **brag about your accomplishments in Win Wednesday** on Wednesday.  ",adhd,post one habit want start week need get thing done advance either planning bought organized new healthy feel free list check needed still project etc help accountability look previous ks direction structure forget brag accomplishment win wednesday,0.33,Moderately Positive
"To summarize, Got diagnosed with adhd, got put on concerta 18mg and didnt feel much difference, upped it to 36 mg and the side effects began. Now im just tired all day long and dont feel like doing anything and got no energy to do anything. Asked my doctor about it and he seemed confused like he didnt know what to say and his reply was basically ""its not supposed to do that"". Anyone has any explination or knows if this is normal? Thanks",adhd,summarize got diagnosed adhd put concerta mg didnt feel much difference upped side effect began im tired day long dont like anything energy asked doctor seemed confused know say reply basically supposed anyone explination normal thanks,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"I dont know if this is the right place

Im 20 and a girl and gay and I have adhd. I dont have anywhere to turn and I can't cope with my workload. I lied to my parents about what I have due becase I have 4 essays to resit and theyre due tomorrow or I might get kicked out of uni.

I've been crying all night because I only have 1 done and I dont know how to make myself be productive. I really hate myself and wish I was normal. I don't know how to be a normal person and get work done

its 1.45am and the stuff is due at noon tomorrow and i need help?? i am so sad and feel so useless all the time. the university thinks im an idiot and this is my last chance",adhd,dont know right place im girl gay adhd anywhere turn cope workload lied parent due becase essay resit theyre tomorrow might get kicked uni cry night done make productive really hate wish normal person work stuff noon need help sad feel useless time university think idiot last chance,-0.21,Moderately Negative
"I caught a very bad case of the flu and was prescribed Codeine (an opiate) by my GP so I could sleep without coughing my brains out.

""Aww yeah"", I thought. I started to feel slightly dizzy and tired. Finally! Sleep, here I come.

It's been 30 minutes since and sleep is the probably only thing I could not do if my life depended on it. I NEED to clean my fucking apartment. Right now. Does anyone know how to remove strains off a textile couch?",adhd,caught bad case flu prescribed codeine opiate gp could sleep without coughing brain aww yeah thought started feel slightly dizzy tired finally come minute since probably thing life depended need clean fucking apartment right anyone know remove strain textile couch,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"Hey all, I recently went into an ADHD specialist office to take testing for ADHD. I was diagnosed with ADD at a young age, but don't really have great records of it. Anyways the doctor had me take a qb test and according to her, it was different from the normal, but not a large enough difference to think that I had ADHD. She also said I don't have history of ADHD, despite having been previously diagnosed and my father being diagnosed with it as well.

My question is should I consider a second opinion? I think that either way I want to see another psychologist, because despite the psychologist I saw saying that my brain seemed normal, I don't feel normal. I also relate to much of what was posted here. I think she was concerned that I was looking for a prescription to abuse. I'm not sure if it's worth mentioning this to a second psychologist and definitely don't want to spend money on another doctor telling me that they don't have a diagnosis for me. Any help would be appreciated.",adhd,hey recently went adhd specialist office take testing diagnosed add young age really great record anyways doctor qb test according different normal large enough difference think also said history despite previously father well question consider second opinion either way want see another psychologist saw saying brain seemed feel relate much posted concerned looking prescription abuse sure worth mentioning definitely spend money telling diagnosis help would appreciated,0.16,Moderately Positive
"So I recently had a change of health insurance, and I discovered when I went to my pharmacy that they do not cover the generic version of Adderall XR. I called them up and apparently they do cover the name brand, which would cost me more.  I currently have an appointment with my doctor in a few days to find a more affordable medication. I was wondering if anyone knows which long acting medications have generic version available, and what their names they might be. ",adhd,recently change health insurance discovered went pharmacy cover generic version adderall xr called apparently name brand would cost currently appointment doctor day find affordable medication wondering anyone know long acting available might,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I just thought I would throw this out here since people with ADHD are more likely to have undergone psychiatric testing.  I am an adult now but I took two IQ tests as a child with very different scores.  The first one I took at a very stressful time in my life, at the age of 13, and it came out at 94.  The second time I took it at a somewhat less stressful time, at the age of 15, it came out at 111.  I'll also note that I was not yet being treated for ADHD at the time, as my Generalized Anxiety Disorder masked that diagnosis until later on.  Also, I was experiencing physical abuse on a regular basis at the time which may have affected my score, and I had barely attended school at all since about the 5th grade.  There were things on the test that I hadn't been exposed to due to being out of school, such as some of the math concepts and ""general knowledge"" questions.  I recall not even knowing how many weeks were in a year.

Anyway, I'm sure my scores were still accurate for the most part, since the average person has an average IQ.  I always get frustrated when people tell me that their IQ score is 130, 140, 160 ... And I think back to mine being so ""low.""  Although, technically, the average range for IQ is about 90 - 115.  100 is average.  Is the entire world really gifted?  I would assume probably not.  Also, half the time people then go on to tell me that they ""took an Internet IQ test one time.""

I don't want to start a discussion about the validity of online IQ tests.  I just want to get some feedback from others who underwent actual psychiatric testing, with a licensed professional.  Usually, they won't even tell you what test you are taking if you don't ask (although I know that I took the WISC), and they will definitely not tell you that it is an IQ test.  It usually includes other psychiatric testing as well.

Has anyone else taken a test such as the WISC?  If your scores were just average, or maybe a bit lower or higher, do you get annoyed with the number of people out there bragging about their gifted IQ scores?  Sure, some people are gifted, and that's wonderful.  It's not a subject that comes up often in my day-to-day life, but I just find it hard to believe that so many of the people I have come across throughout my life have told me that their score is 130 or more.  It doesn't seem to jive with statistics or the way that the scoring is supposed to work.  I suppose it's possible that I just surround myself with geniuses ...

Edited to Add: A couple of the comments reminded me that my scores in different areas were very different.  There were such big differences on the first one I took that the psychologist asked my mom if I'd ever had a head injury.  She was super offended and took that as an insult ... lol.  It actually made me feel a little better though, knowing that I was smart in at least some areas.  I was in the 99 percentile for whichever area has to do with writing, and the psychologist told my mom I should focus on a career in writing.  (Unfortunately, I never found that career.)  And I ""struggled"" with visual perception (One test was replicating pictures with blocks in which the sides were squares divided into two red and white triangles.  And another where you had to find what was missing in a picture ... I remember the psychologist looking at me like, ""REALLY, you do not see what is missing??""  lol)  I also did terrible in ""common social knowledge""  which might be explained by the social isolation/ADHD noted above.  ",adhd,thought would throw since people adhd likely undergone psychiatric testing adult took two iq test child different score first one stressful time life age came second somewhat le also note yet treated generalized anxiety disorder masked diagnosis later experiencing physical abuse regular basis may affected barely attended school th grade thing exposed due math concept general knowledge question recall even knowing many week year anyway sure still accurate part average person always get frustrated tell think back mine low although technically range entire world really gifted assume probably half go internet want start discussion validity online feedback others underwent actual licensed professional usually taking ask know wisc definitely includes well anyone else taken maybe bit lower higher annoyed number bragging wonderful subject come often day find hard believe across throughout told seem jive statistic way scoring supposed work suppose possible surround genius edited add couple comment reminded area big difference psychologist asked mom ever head injury super offended insult lol actually made feel little better though smart least percentile whichever writing focus career unfortunately never found struggled visual perception replicating picture block side square divided red white triangle another missing remember looking like see terrible common social might explained isolation noted,0.03,Neutral
"I was diagnosed with ADHD-PH when I was 12, and taking meds saved my life. I was so awful in school and I had no friends because I was so crazy and all over the place, I'm sure everybody else on this subreddit knows the feeling. I've been thin my whole life and it runs in the family, but most/all ADHD medications make me have absolutely no appetite. I'm currently 17, 5'10"" and 115 lbs. I'm super skinny, and it's awful. I've had discussions with all of my doctors because both I and my mother are worried about my weight. All of them have told me that it's fine and just to eat more, but they don't understand that I physically can't eat because of my meds. Food makes me feel so sick and I can't force myself to eat it during the day. People also constantly say ""oh you're so skinny"" and say how much they want to be my size. As a girl, it's so awful because I wish I could fit into clothes and be able to go have lunch with my friends, but while I'm on my meds I can't eat at all. I hope somebody knows what this is like because I have no idea what to do. ",adhd,diagnosed adhd ph taking med saved life awful school friend crazy place sure everybody else subreddit know feeling thin whole run family medication make absolutely appetite currently lb super skinny discussion doctor mother worried weight told fine eat understand physically food feel sick force day people also constantly say oh much want size girl wish could fit clothes able go lunch hope somebody like idea,0.0,Neutral
"So I am down to my last Vyvanse today. My GP didn't renew my prescription since I was late on getting bloodwork - she wanted me to get it done before re-prescribing. My last visit was right after a heavy lifting session and my HR was way up but slowly dropped during my visit. This clinic is starting to get annoying - random drug screens and I had to sign a promise to not get my prescription filled at more than one pharmacy or to not ask another professional for the same prescription.

I left a message for her on Tuesday that I had gotten my bloodwork done and was down to few doses. Nothing.

Part of me wants to rant and rave and make it known that I will be changing doctors and taking my buisiness elsewhere but I don't want to be flagged for medication-seeking behavior. Of course this is vyvanse - a prodrug - and cannot be abused, my GP is appropriately illiterate on ADHD and the medical options for it and was more concerned about my blood pressure and heart rate despite my saying *several* times that it was because I just had a heavy squat session. 

Anyone have experience dealing with this bullshit?

TL;DR: Running low on meds, doctor unresponsive, what do to not sound like an addict after a fix?

I will be on a hunt for a new doctor soon and probably a proper psych who will treat my like an adult (I am 29, have a masters, and was at one point trusted to run an 80 person organization). The original GP here was awesome and understood but left me with this one. Even considering complaining to the PA medical board about her depending on the outcome this week.",adhd,last vyvanse today gp renew prescription since late getting bloodwork wanted get done prescribing visit right heavy lifting session hr way slowly dropped clinic starting annoying random drug screen sign promise filled one pharmacy ask another professional left message tuesday gotten dos nothing part want rant rave make known changing doctor taking buisiness elsewhere flagged medication seeking behavior course prodrug cannot abused appropriately illiterate adhd medical option concerned blood pressure heart rate despite saying several time squat anyone experience dealing bullshit tl dr running low med unresponsive sound like addict fix hunt new soon probably proper psych treat adult master point trusted run person organization original awesome understood even considering complaining pa board depending outcome week,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Hi!! Soooo I normally take Strattera with an Adderall booster (I have anxiety so I keep my adderall intake pretty low but the strattera doesn't help my focus/motivation as much) but when I get PMS, I feel like my normal dose isn't as helpful anymore. I know I need to exercise more and this would probably help in the long-term, but do you guys do anything medication-wise for that week and a half from hell? I feel like all the blood from my brain leaves my head and goes..... well, ya know. I have a billion euphamisms I could use to complain about PMS but I'll save them for myself. :) 

Anyway, I take slightly more Adderall than normal in order to maintain a feeling of normalcy, but then I run out a day or two early. It's annoying, I have severe inattention so those couple of days end up being difficult if I have a lot to do. Does your doctor recommend anything ? Thank you in advance!!",adhd,hi soooo normally take strattera adderall booster anxiety keep intake pretty low help focus motivation much get pm feel like normal dose helpful anymore know need exercise would probably long term guy anything medication wise week half hell blood brain leaf head go well ya billion euphamisms could use complain save anyway slightly order maintain feeling normalcy run day two early annoying severe inattention couple end difficult lot doctor recommend thank advance,-0.01,Neutral
[Read it here](http://www.psypost.org/2017/07/study-ritalin-use-childhood-cause-long-lasting-alterations-neurotransmission-49241).,adhd,read,0.0,Neutral
"They do *just what I need.* problem is I build a tolerance for them quickly and start abusing them. Had to go off adderall because the “this drug is going to destroy you” writing was on the wall (started at 20mg IR/day, peaked at 50.) Now I have a deadline approaching and where one small Red Bull used to do now I need three times the amount for the same effect. Ugh. Any stimulant abusers here that have had good luck with non stimulant meds?",adhd,need problem build tolerance quickly start abusing go adderall drug going destroy writing wall started mg ir day peaked deadline approaching one small red bull used three time amount effect ugh stimulant abuser good luck non med,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hey guys, so I'm planning on making a third attempt at university this Fall and I'm TERRIFIED, to be perfectly honest. I've always gotten good grades up until I started going to university. Community  college was even fine, I was in honors the majority of the time I was there. Then I went to university and failed not once, but twice. It's been 3 years and I'd like to try going for my BA, but I want to be really careful and not impulsive about it this time. 

The first time I went, I wasn't diagnosed with ADHD yet (actually decided to start that journey right after I dropped out). The second time, I was newly diagnosed and hadn't found the right medication yet (in fact I tried about 4-5 different kinds in one semester, which was nerve-wracking in itself). 

I feel like I'm at a fairly stable point in my life where I can probably pass a few classes per semester if I put in the effort. I would really like to try taking online classes, because I work a 9-5 job and support myself. I feel like online classes would be a good fit because in the past, I've had SO much trouble navigating university campuses (I get lost really easily) and get distracted by other things easily. Online classes would allow me to be at home, where I'm already relaxed and there are less distractions for me to worry about. The only thing I worry about is a schedule. I would need to manage my time really well and I haven't done this well in the past... 

Has anyone else taken online classes before, and how was it for you? Has anyone graduated and taken online classes? I'd love to hear feedback from fellow non-neurotypicals because I am s-c-a-r-e-d to death!

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TLDR: Planning on taking online classes for my BA while working full-time. Terrified bc I dropped out of college twice. Any advice/experience with taking online college courses?",adhd,hey guy planning making third attempt university fall terrified perfectly honest always gotten good grade started going community college even fine honor majority time went failed twice year like try ba want really careful impulsive first diagnosed adhd yet actually decided start journey right dropped second newly found medication fact tried different kind one semester nerve wracking feel fairly stable point life probably pas class per put effort would taking online work job support fit past much trouble navigating campus get lost easily distracted thing allow home already relaxed le distraction worry schedule need manage well done anyone else taken graduated love hear feedback fellow non neurotypicals death tldr working full bc advice experience course,0.22,Moderately Positive
"So I'm aware that the effects of stimulants are specific for everyone and also that these kind of questions are something I should (and will) take up with my doctor. With that said, I'm curious about others  experience with concerta. I was diagnosed in the spring (age 29) and I've been taking concerta for roughly 2 months now, with 18 mg the first two weeks, 36 the three weeks after that and I'm now at 56 mg. The months prior medication was rough, with somewhat depression-like feelings and no will to do anything really. Right from the start the 18 mg gave me a boost (especially including the honeymoonphase) and I've felt my energy increasing with every change of dosage. However, I still feel like it's very hard to focus on anything for a reasonable period of time and I'm prone to changing activity every time something feels hard. With the 56 mg dosage I also feel slightly more anxiety, something i haven't had problems with for several years. All in all I often feel that the medication gives me a big amount of energy but even with structures like my bulletjournal and plans, it feels like I can't seem to focus that energy on one particular thing for enough time to get anything done. It kind of feels like too much energy to handle effectively, and I'm still very hesitant in many of my actions which makes it harder to fint output for the energy. Does anyone have a similiar experience and what did you make of it? Is this likely a problem outside of medication, or should i maybe request trying vyanse? 

I should add that I don't have any sideeffects other than slight weightloss and shaky hands. Have been sleeping 8 hours a night on every dosage and can't say I notice much difference the days i've gone without medication other than lower energy. I'm usually happier and more confident during a 4 hour period about one hour after the meds kick in. Have to my knowledge never been clinically depressed but I am reflective and somewhat anxious in a low-intensity type of way.",adhd,aware effect stimulant specific everyone also kind question something take doctor said curious others experience concerta diagnosed spring age taking roughly month mg first two week three prior medication rough somewhat depression like feeling anything really right start gave boost especially including honeymoonphase felt energy increasing every change dosage however still feel hard focus reasonable period time prone changing activity slightly anxiety problem several year often give big amount even structure bulletjournal plan seem one particular thing enough get done much handle effectively hesitant many action make harder fint output anyone similiar likely outside maybe request trying vyanse add sideeffects slight weightloss shaky hand sleeping hour night say notice difference day gone without lower usually happier confident med kick knowledge never clinically depressed reflective anxious low intensity type way,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Those who have taken ADHD medication or something of that sort, what was your experience? If you don't take medication, is there something specific you do or recommend?

I (27F) just got diagnosed with ADHD and I'm thinking about what to do next. I've suffered from anxiety, social anxiety and depression since I was younger and I've been on and off antidepressants for years. I recently started seeing my therapist again and we have been making a lot of progress lately. I had actually lost all hope that I would ever live a day without anxiety (I'm really dramatic..) so this diagnosis has made me really hopeful that things could change for the better. ",adhd,taken adhd medication something sort experience take specific recommend got diagnosed thinking next suffered anxiety social depression since younger antidepressant year recently started seeing therapist making lot progress lately actually lost hope would ever live day without really dramatic diagnosis made hopeful thing could change better,0.03,Neutral
"TLDR: Got diagnosed, vented my feelings in a blog post which has some helpful book quotes. Happy to read any other posts others have made. Please post text of links.


>**“Runaway train never going back
 Wrong way on a one way track. 
Seems like I should be getting somewhere 
Somehow I’m neither here nor there.”**

This chorus plays through my mind as I stare vacantly out the train window. Everyone in the carriage is glued to their phones. Meanwhile, I’m mentally scrolling through the past few months of my life specifically, losing my job and playing with the fantasy of leaving this all behind.

Because, I am neither here nor there. I’ve been travelling at full speed over the past few years through another country and two states but here I am, feeling so far from where I should be. Still feeling so disconnected and disengaged. So down and lost.

>**“I ain’t never found no place for me to fit. Seems like all I do is start over. It ain’t nothing to find no starting place in the world. You just start from where you find yourself.” – August Wilston** 

But one thing I’m definitely closer to is understanding myself. I’ve been working with a psychiatrist for the treatment of attention deficit disorder (ADD). I actually start medication today. I’ve always preferred the ‘natural’ route, but I’ve come to understand that rather than giving into stigma, I should do what’s best for me.

I should also be optimistic about the journey ahead and the direction I’ve been given. But there’s a stop I have to make first on this journey to healing. It involves mourning the person I’ve always wanted to be and the life I could of possibly had if I started treatment earlier. Visions of a stable career, stable living arrangements, a long term relationship, children and a house flash through my mind — the lives that people around me seem to be living.

In the book, Scattered Minds, Dr Gabor Mate, describes this experience perfectly, rightly because he has been diagnosed with ADD himself. He understands the challenge of changing the self-defining narratives that have been securely laid down over time, like the tracks under this train.

>**“The shock of self-recognition many adults experience on learning about ADD is both exhilarating and painful. It gives coherence, for the first time, to humiliations and failures, to plans unfulfilled and promises unkept, to gusts of maniac enthusiasm that consume themselves in their own mad dance, leaving emotional debris in their wake, to the seemingly limitless disorganisation of activities, of brain, car desk, room.” – Dr Gabor Mate**

So here I am, resisting the urge to run like I have before. I know there is work to be done. I’m riding this one out while working to accept that blame doesn’t lie on my school teachers, parents or myself. I’m going to try to think less about the past and more about the future, where hopefully, those things I mentioned are all waiting for me somewhere down the track.

>**“You don’t punish yourself for where you find yourself. If you want to go further in the direction of healing, you do not chastise yourself for wherever you happen to be along that road. You don’t berate yourself for not having got there faster.” – Dr Gabor Mate**",adhd,tldr got diagnosed vented feeling blog post helpful book quote happy read others made please text link runaway train never going back wrong way one track seems like getting somewhere somehow neither chorus play mind stare vacantly window everyone carriage glued phone meanwhile mentally scrolling past month life specifically losing job playing fantasy leaving behind travelling full speed year another country two state far still disconnected disengaged lost found place fit start nothing find starting world august wilston thing definitely closer understanding working psychiatrist treatment attention deficit disorder add actually medication today always preferred natural route come understand rather giving stigma best also optimistic journey ahead direction given stop make first healing involves mourning person wanted could possibly started earlier vision stable career living arrangement long term relationship child house flash people around seem scattered dr gabor mate describes experience perfectly rightly understands challenge changing self defining narrative securely laid time shock recognition many adult learning exhilarating painful give coherence humiliation failure plan unfulfilled promise unkept gust maniac enthusiasm consume mad dance emotional debris wake seemingly limitless disorganisation activity brain car desk room resisting urge run know work done riding accept blame lie school teacher parent try think le future hopefully mentioned waiting punish want go chastise wherever happen along road berate faster,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Those with kids on ADHD meds, how frequently do you have to take them in for a meds check?

My pediatrician tried telling me today that the AAP guidelines changed this year from every 6 to every 3 months and because of that insurance won't pay unless you are seen every 3 months.

I smell malarkey. A quick search told me that nothing's changed in med management since 2011. Am I missing something?

Update, 8/17: just got off the phone with Aetna and they have no such policy. Time to find a new ped who is going to be 100% honest with me. I don't have time or tolerance for that kind of crap.",adhd,kid adhd med frequently take check pediatrician tried telling today aap guideline changed year every month insurance pay unless seen smell malarkey quick search told nothing management since missing something update got phone aetna policy time find new ped going honest tolerance kind crap,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I was diagnosed with ADHD two months ago, I was given a script for 30 tabs. 

10mg a day. I did that for 3 days, nothing, I then uped it to 20mg a day, nothing. I then tried 30mg again nothing.

I told this to my doctor, and he prescribed me ritalin again but this time told me to try 40mg. 

Should I just try 60 mg and see if it has any effect? 

How often does ritalin just not work? 

I havn't really been very consistent with my consumption but from what I can tell it's a stimulant and should have an effect immediately, some people suggest waiting several weeks or months. ",adhd,diagnosed adhd two month ago given script tab mg day nothing uped tried told doctor prescribed ritalin time try see effect often work havn really consistent consumption tell stimulant immediately people suggest waiting several week,0.12,Moderately Positive
"It's incredible what dehydration can do to one's mental state.

On top of my medication working infinitely better today compared to before, my head is spinning much less and everything feels far more ""bright"" than it otherwise would. Even on medication, often I'd notice that it just would not as well on some days. Beginning to suspect that, on those days, I neglected to properly hydrate myself.

Give it a shot. Keep around two cups (or 500ml) by your bedside and drink it down when you get up. Wait maybe ten to twenty minutes or so, shower/chill during that time (unless you need to rush out to work), take medication. Recipe for a great day.

**TL;DR:** Dehydration will probably worsen your mental state. Drink water immediately after getting up.",adhd,incredible dehydration one mental state top medication working infinitely better today compared head spinning much le everything feel far bright otherwise would even often notice well day beginning suspect neglected properly hydrate give shot keep around two cup ml bedside drink get wait maybe ten twenty minute shower chill time unless need rush work take recipe great tl dr probably worsen water immediately getting,0.36,Moderately Positive
"..just wanted to pout to those who understand.

Thank you for being an awesome community!",adhd,wanted pout understand thank awesome community,1.0,Positive
"I'm currently in the process of getting assessed and I'm still waiting on my psych to write up the report, which takes a few weeks. My parents know that I'm getting assessed for ADHD but I feel like they do not think I have it. I don't really have much of an idea of what they think about it. 

Anyway, I'm 90% certain I'm ADHD-PI, and while I know everyone here is a big fan of not deciding on anything until an official diagnosis happens, I've never related to anything more than I relate to all the stories of everyone here who has ADHD, and honestly I'd be surprised if I didn't have it.

I graduated with a 3.74 in HS and now I'm a sophomore and I'm absolutely drowning academically. I started with 16 hours and had to drop my calculus class because I couldn't handle the workload. That, and I also marked the wrong date for an exam and was very rudely surprised by it. 

After dropping calculus, I'm at 12 hours which is the minimum for a full time student - and I'm still struggling. I've been actively trying to change my habits by not putting off assignments/studying and getting a head start but it seems like it's always 2 steps forward and one back, and I'm always playing catch up. As soon as I feel like I have things under control, there's always something else.

How do I tell my parents? They've been pressing me for how my grades have been and I can't bring myself to tell them... I just keep saying ""I don't know yet - nothing has been put online."" They're expecting good grades from me since I'm taking a ""light load"", and my mom seems disappointed whenever I tell her I have a C. I have a feeling they think I'm doing well because they know how much time I spend in the library, but they just don't get how long it takes me to do things... How do I deal with this? I've explained to them what I feel like all my symptoms are but I don't feel like they are going to understand, and are just going to get angry and tell me to try harder when I'm already kicking my own ass to catch up and pass my courses...

Help? Anyone else have to deal with this? I understand this is an ADHD subreddit so thank you if you made it through all that.

TL:DR; Graduated with 3.74 in high school, now failing all but one course. Currently getting assessed and parents are aware of it but still have high expectations and keep pressing me about grades but I have no idea how to tell them I'm doing the worst I've ever done.",adhd,currently process getting assessed still waiting psych write report take week parent know adhd feel like think really much idea anyway certain pi everyone big fan deciding anything official diagnosis happens never related relate story honestly surprised graduated h sophomore absolutely drowning academically started hour drop calculus class handle workload also marked wrong date exam rudely dropping minimum full time student struggling actively trying change habit putting assignment studying head start seems always step forward one back playing catch soon thing control something else tell pressing grade bring keep saying yet nothing put online expecting good since taking light load mom disappointed whenever feeling well spend library get long deal explained symptom going understand angry try harder already kicking as pas course help anyone subreddit thank made tl dr high school failing aware expectation worst ever done,-0.03,Neutral
"When I found this subreddit and read some of the posts that people had, I broke down crying. I have never in my life had anyone who understood what it was like to have ADHD and I would never be able to explain why I could never pay attention or why I procrastinated. But the posts I see here explain my problems so well, its scary. And now all I have to do is show these to my parents and teachers and they will understand. Thank you.",adhd,found subreddit read post people broke cry never life anyone understood like adhd would able explain could pay attention procrastinated see problem well scary show parent teacher understand thank,0.0,Neutral
"This is going to sound ridiculous from the title, but allow me to explain.

I am 99% sure I have ADHD, and this is masked by 2 things, comorbid anxiety and good grades.
I went on the NHS as I live in the and I am 16, so it was through an adolescent service where they almost immediately rejected me because my school reports didn't reflect ADHD symptoms, and I had good grades. With stressful exams happening right now, I have noticed that I am struggling more, but due to the difficulty of the exams still being easily within my level of intellect, I don't suspect that my grades will reflect these struggles. 

After I was told I had anxiety and I was refused ADHD without any real investigation, my parents are willing to let me go private through our insurance. Now, if the same thing happens this time, where they overlook it and treat the anxiety, bearing in mind there are countless stories of people well into adulthood who has undiagnosed ADHD due to exactly this, then I've blown my chances of ever having a diagnosis. 

However, and this is going to sound like I'm manipulating a diagnosis, but I'm not, I'm just trying to get rid of the things that may mask my possible ADHD, I know next year I have much tougher exams that are likely to expose more symptoms and lead to a diagnosis. 

Do you think it could be worth waiting until then?",adhd,going sound ridiculous title allow explain sure adhd masked thing comorbid anxiety good grade went nh live adolescent service almost immediately rejected school report reflect symptom stressful exam happening right noticed struggling due difficulty still easily within level intellect suspect struggle told refused without real investigation parent willing let go private insurance happens time overlook treat bearing mind countless story people well adulthood undiagnosed exactly blown chance ever diagnosis however like manipulating trying get rid may mask possible know next year much tougher likely expose lead think could worth waiting,0.18,Moderately Positive
"We ending things a week ago, and I know I shouldn’t contact him. I want someone who shows they care. It’s driving me insane wondering if he does care or thinks about me at all. this is why I avoid relationships. I always hyper focus on us ending and it takes forever for me to move on",adhd,ending thing week ago know contact want someone show care driving insane wondering think avoid relationship always hyper focus u take forever move,-1.0,Negative
"Uhhh, okay. Um, I'd just like to start this off with this is my first post ever to reddit so sorry about this. D:


Well, I've been diagnosed with recurrent major depressive disorder and ADHD, so I wasn't sure exactly which reddit I should be posting this into, but since it's mostly to do with ADHD (I think?), I figured it should be in here. 


Anyway, I'm kind of a mess right now. Everything is flying in five hundred directions and I don't even have the energy to wake up or put myself to bed. My apartment is a freakin' disaster and I can't bring myself to care and do anything about it beyond becoming more and more depressed. I've been sick with a chest infection, sinus infection (but this was beginning before that). I'm weeks behind on my classes. 


I tried to go to the disability services for help, but they wouldn't take me for two weeks, which obviously isn't going to help me right now. 


Oh my god I need to get to my point. ANYWAY


I'm generally feeling like a piece of crap that can't function whatsoever, and a failure at life for not being able to do ANYTHING it feels like. I can't even do school right. I don't know what to do with myself. 


Even worse, I have almost no motivation to do anything. I'm overweight, poor as hell right now (I just had to put my rent on my credit card), my family is another mess entirely, so there's no support there. I can't even get a freakin' appointment to get back on medication because it takes a month to two months to go through. 


I feel like life is out of my hands and just generally down in the dumps. My friends don't seem to understand what I'm going through, or they just don't care. Either way, it's not helping. I'm pretty much all by myself and really don't know what to do. There's things I need to do but I'm not sure where to start or what to do and I'm just entirely overwhelmed and utterly depressed. I sleep at least 12 hours a day and am only up for about 4 hours before I'm tired again. 


I just feel like I'm a waste of space, and a disappointment to anyone who knows me. I'm very ashamed, embarrassed and very depressed and trying to sort through things but everyone is just getting really angry with me and/or giving up on me and ignoring me. 


I was on SSRI's from when I was eight until I was sixteen, and then went off them because I was still very depressed and nothing was really helping whatsoever. I'm on ritalin right now, but I try to take it and I don't know, I just... don't? Like maybe when I'm feeling good I'll be like ""oh yeah, gotta take my medicine!"" but if I'm feeling like crap, it really just fails to matter in my mind. 


Like nothing matters, and I hate it. People always say ""I can't help you if you don't want to help yourself"" but I'm really trying, just NOTHING seems to work EVER. 


I'm just... lost? 
",adhd,uhhh okay um like start first post ever reddit sorry well diagnosed recurrent major depressive disorder adhd sure exactly posting since mostly think figured anyway kind mess right everything flying five hundred direction even energy wake put bed apartment freakin disaster bring care anything beyond becoming depressed sick chest infection sinus beginning week behind class tried go disability service help take two obviously going oh god need get point generally feeling piece crap function whatsoever failure life able feel school know worse almost motivation overweight poor hell rent credit card family another entirely support appointment back medication month hand dump friend seem understand either way helping pretty much really thing overwhelmed utterly sleep least hour day tired waste space disappointment anyone ashamed embarrassed trying sort everyone getting angry giving ignoring ssri eight sixteen went still nothing ritalin try maybe good yeah gotta medicine fails matter mind hate people always say want seems work lost,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I have to make fun of my self right now. I just spoke with my father and after babbling a list of ideas & goals I'm attempting this 2013 year earlier, I ask him calmly..do I have enough Goals?

Hey Everyone, ADD is great! Its like being on crack..Shiny THINGS! Squirrels! EVERYWHERE! 

What are some ways you enjoy laughing at yourself about (after micro focusing on 47 different things in a minute?) Also, how do you break your diagnosis to newcomers without sounding ridiculous?",adhd,make fun self right spoke father babbling list idea goal attempting year earlier ask calmly enough hey everyone add great like crack shiny thing squirrel everywhere way enjoy laughing micro focusing different minute also break diagnosis newcomer without sounding ridiculous,0.18,Moderately Positive
"We get wordy on this sub, but I'll _try_ to keep this brief.

I gave NaNoWriMo a shot this year, for the first time, and I got 20,000 words.  I wrote for 9 days in a row but then went on a holiday and missed a couple days.  I fell behind, and catching up seemed like it was too hard, too much effort.  I didn't try.  Well, I did try but nothing came of it.  You know what it's like when the gears in your brain all jam up.

I'm disapointed that I let myself stop like that, but you know what?  

Life happens.  

NaNoWriMo doesn't happen in a bubble.  November isn't some magical 'life pauses so writing can happen' period.  My medications are in upheaval, good but strongly emotional things happening at therapy, holidays are being planned, regular events still happen.  It's so easy to become focused, in a cycling and obsessive way, on the internal glowing red [FAIL] stamp that you have given yourself.

But this time, I can see what I accomplished.  I wrote something worth writing.  I've shown some people along the way, and after some consideration they came back and responses were great.

I'm still interested in the story.  I'm still going to finish it.  A lot of editing will be needed but I'm actually happy with what I wrote and I'm proud of myself for giving it a try.

Now I have a high score to beat for next time.  20,000.  But next time I'll have more tools and knowledge at my disposal to do it.",adhd,get wordy sub try keep brief gave nanowrimo shot year first time got word wrote day row went holiday missed couple fell behind catching seemed like hard much effort well nothing came know gear brain jam disapointed let stop life happens happen bubble november magical pause writing period medication upheaval good strongly emotional thing happening therapy planned regular event still easy become focused cycling obsessive way internal glowing red fail stamp given see accomplished something worth shown people along consideration back response great interested story going finish lot editing needed actually happy proud giving high score beat next tool knowledge disposal,0.21,Moderately Positive
"You'll need to register with the site first, then join the group. Get in on the ground floor - I'm the only member so far!",adhd,need register site first join group get ground floor member far,0.18,Moderately Positive
"Hey all, newly diagnosed and newly medicated here.

Today is day 4 on generic adderall xr 20 and I am not handling it well. I had the usual dry mouth and all that on day 1 and 2 but felt relaxed and focued, but day 3 I had a panic attack. I chocked it up to caffeine, stress and lack of sleep after a big argument with my narcissistic sister at the end of day 2. Today I am really nauseated, dizzy, and have a pounding headache, the doc told me to stop taking it for now, which I agree with her, but I am still extremely nauseated and dizzy. Any tips on how to cope with that?

Feeling a little defeated, the first 48 hours made me feel unstoppable but these last two days have been awful. Thanks all.",adhd,hey newly diagnosed medicated today day generic adderall xr handling well usual dry mouth felt relaxed focued panic attack chocked caffeine stress lack sleep big argument narcissistic sister end really nauseated dizzy pounding headache doc told stop taking agree still extremely tip cope feeling little defeated first hour made feel unstoppable last two awful thanks,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"I'm looking for a good app to help organize my day to day life. From when school work is due to chores that need to be done. Some specifically every day, some bi weekly etc. Basically an app to organize my entire day as well as add specific event dates and such. If it allowed me to block out times for my daily tasks that would be ideal.

 There are so many to choose from so I was hoping someone might have a good app they would recommend. I don't even mind paying for it if it has all the features I need. Adderall helps me concentrate so much better, however it isn't a wonder drug that helps my poor time management skills... unfortunately lol.",adhd,looking good app help organize day life school work due chore need done specifically every bi weekly etc basically entire well add specific event date allowed block time daily task would ideal many choose hoping someone might recommend even mind paying feature adderall concentrate much better however wonder drug poor management skill unfortunately lol,0.29,Moderately Positive
"This might come off as an odd request, but... Would anyone like to make Internet friends with someone who has ADHD? I have no friends with it, and I feel I need to talk to somebody in the same situation as me.

I was self-referred to a neuropsychologist and was told I most likely have ADHD-PI. I'm in the process of trying to find a psychiatrist who understands the disorder, but I'm not having much luck yet.

Since this is a small subreddit, and I don't have any qualms about sharing a few IM addresses, I'll just list them:

**Skype:** thorthenorse

**AIM:** thorthenorse

**MSN/YIM:** thor@ninjafrogs.com

I'm 29 a year old guy from Norway. My interests include music making, drawing, computer science and electronic circuits, in no particular order. Maybe we can discuss and help each other with projects?

If you're going to contact me on Skype, chat to me first. I can't answer calls from people I haven't chatted with first. :-)

*If anybody contacts me, I might put everyone in touch with each other in some way. I run a few websites off my dedicated server, and could set some stuff up there, maybe?*",adhd,might come odd request would anyone like make internet friend someone adhd feel need talk somebody situation self referred neuropsychologist told likely pi process trying find psychiatrist understands disorder much luck yet since small subreddit qualm sharing im address list skype thorthenorse aim msn yim thor com year old guy norway interest include music making drawing computer science electronic circuit particular order maybe discus help project going contact chat first answer call people chatted anybody put everyone touch way run website dedicated server could set stuff,0.04,Neutral
"I was just recently diagnosed with ADHD-PI at 21 years old. I was given Adderall 15mg for this month to see how it helps. So far it's like night and day. My attitude is more positive, my energy is up, I'm less irritable, less forgetful, and more focused. I just don't like the idea of being on meds, but nothing else helps this much. Anyway, I've been reading the top posts in this subreddit through out the day.

Now I know I'm not just weird, lazy, unambitious, etc. I always felt like I was on a different page than everyone else in high school and up till I was diagnosed. I never knew why. My friends seemed to have the drive and motivation that I just didn't feel. Sure, we would talk about our dreams and ambitions, but when it came to starting a path towards those goals, I couldn't bring myself to do it. I would see these people do proactive things to achieve these goals while I sit in my apartment wondering why I haven't started the week long project that's due in the morning. I know I wouldn't sleep those nights because I'll need all those precious hours to make up for my unwillingness to start anything.

Now I understand why I haven't finished a book in years. I've started plenty, but I lose interest quickly. There's too many more interesting distractions for me to focus on large blocks of small text. There's Netflix, reddit, friends, and food for god's sake.

Now I understand why, in elementary school, I was always getting in trouble for moving in my seat, getting distracted too easily, fidgeting with my hands... Now I know why my 3rd grade teacher put me on a ""contract"" saying I couldn't move too much in class, or else I'd lose points. And my mom had to sign it every week to see how much I was paying attention. And now I know why no other classmates had to do that.

Now I understand why I had a bit of a breakdown at the end of last semester. All my due dates were within the immediate future, but I hadn't made enough headway on any of my projects to make it out safely. I realized this, dropped everything, took the hour long drive back home, and had to attempt to explain to my parents what was happening.

Now I know that I'm not alone. I can finally talk about it and not feel like I'm just a lazy slacker. I'm a very extroverted person and I like to talk to people, but this is one of the things that I never talk about. People don't take it as seriously as other neurological disorders. I'll be spending a lot more time in here.",adhd,recently diagnosed adhd pi year old given adderall mg month see help far like night day attitude positive energy le irritable forgetful focused idea med nothing else much anyway reading top post subreddit know weird lazy unambitious etc always felt different page everyone high school till never knew friend seemed drive motivation feel sure would talk dream ambition came starting path towards goal bring people proactive thing achieve sit apartment wondering started week long project due morning sleep need precious hour make unwillingness start anything understand finished book plenty lose interest quickly many interesting distraction focus large block small text netflix reddit food god sake elementary getting trouble moving seat distracted easily fidgeting hand rd grade teacher put contract saying move class point mom sign every paying attention classmate bit breakdown end last semester date within immediate future made enough headway safely realized dropped everything took back home attempt explain parent happening alone finally slacker extroverted person one take seriously neurological disorder spending lot time,0.1,Moderately Positive
"I don't know about anyone else here, but I'm consistently self-destructive in my life. I have a very negative outlook on my intelligence, my ability to ""adult"", I have constant imposer syndrome at work, and I tend to go all out on projects and create an elaborate mess out of something that could have been easily solved.

I've always felt mocked by the phrase ""work smarter, not harder"" because I just feel like I always end up with the most convoluted solution to any given problem. My sentences are too long. My writing is too flowery and overly-descriptive. My graphic design work is bogged down by too many unnecessary steps and changes. My attempts at getting my life in order involve too many ""in the future"" steps that I can't seem to organize or start on. 

I've been focusing on weight loss and general health, but it all seems so overwhelming. I always make everything harder than it needs to be, and sometimes I wonder if it's perfectionism or self-destruction so I don't have to be too overwhelmed or upset when it doesn't work out. Is this a defense mechanism so I don't have to have a bruised ego after my ADHD blocks my focus? 

I felt really good on adderall. Like I was really making some lifestyle changes. I'm on vyvance now after an insurance change, but I don't think it's working. I still feel stuck and self-destructive. 

It's hard to feel motivated when I ruin things for myself subconsciously so I don't have to deal with negative emotions. ",adhd,know anyone else consistently self destructive life negative outlook intelligence ability adult constant imposer syndrome work tend go project create elaborate mess something could easily solved always felt mocked phrase smarter harder feel like end convoluted solution given problem sentence long writing flowery overly descriptive graphic design bogged many unnecessary step change attempt getting order involve future seem organize start focusing weight loss general health seems overwhelming make everything need sometimes wonder perfectionism destruction overwhelmed upset defense mechanism bruised ego adhd block focus really good adderall making lifestyle vyvance insurance think working still stuck hard motivated ruin thing subconsciously deal emotion,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I am 19 years old. For the past two years I have been planning on joining the NAVY and then going into law enforcement once I got out. I have spent an entire year preparing my body and conditioning for basic training. 

Just 10 minutes ago I found out that it's damn near impossible to get into the military if you have been prescribed medication for ADHD or depression and it's illegal to lie about it. It's the same for the damn law enforcement field I built my life around. 

What the hell am I supposed to do? I can't think of anything else I could do. I have no proper skills... Im a little scatterbrained at the moment... If anyone has any experience with a situation like this it would be much appreciated.

TLDR: I can't go into the career I chose for myself due to my medical history.",adhd,year old past two planning joining navy going law enforcement got spent entire preparing body conditioning basic training minute ago found damn near impossible get military prescribed medication adhd depression illegal lie field built life around hell supposed think anything else could proper skill im little scatterbrained moment anyone experience situation like would much appreciated tldr go career chose due medical history,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"**Hi guys, I have the hardest time being motivated for things, especially when they are long term.**

I have a standardized exam (think SAT but with a LOT of material to memorize, problems to learn how to solve, concepts to understand, etc.) coming up in 5 months and I KNOW I won't be motivated enough to study for it.

I'm scared I'll have to retake it or delay the exam because I wouldn't have studied enough.

**Some things about my situation:**

- I get bored easily (like most others here), and get this horrible / sick / sinking feeling when I try to work in this state.

- When I set myself small deadlines, I end up not sensing any real urgency because I know the actual exam is so far away. So I get no drive from my personal deadlines.

- Planning / scheduling works the same way. I won't be able to study with dedication because the absence of a hard deadline makes me want to procrastinate more than study.

- I can't find an accountability buddy for the life of me. Though I'm still trying.

- I have never really been able to study for a standardized exam before, except for APs. I'm scared I won't be able to study for this one either.

- The only thing I've seen that maybe works is when I don't take medication for a few days (let's say due to sickness) and then start meds again. The stimulants then give me a mild motivation boost. However, I do get some withdrawal (sleepiness, moodiness) when I stop taking meds. Is there a way I can use this to my advantage?

- Are there any meds (both stims, non-stims, off-label) that have increased motivation for you?

**tl;dr:** I want to take this exam so badly, but I know I probably won't be able to because I can't stay motivated. Any tips for how to manage meds / myself so I can study for this thing? PLEASE help.",adhd,hi guy hardest time motivated thing especially long term standardized exam think sat lot material memorize problem learn solve concept understand etc coming month know enough study scared retake delay studied situation get bored easily like others horrible sick sinking feeling try work state set small deadline end sensing real urgency actual far away drive personal planning scheduling way able dedication absence hard make want procrastinate find accountability buddy life though still trying never really except aps one either seen maybe take medication day let say due sickness start med stimulant give mild motivation boost however withdrawal sleepiness moodiness stop taking use advantage stims non label increased tl dr badly probably stay tip manage please help,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"The chat is pretty new and not very crowded yet, and if you don't get a reply within minutes: don't give up! We do see a lot of conversations there, but not everyone is behind their keyboards every hour of the day.

Personally, I've found it to be a great place to talk with people during my first days on medication, still getting a grip on my diagnosis. The subreddit is great for discussion and sharing of experience, but check out the chat to for a little real time conversation.

An active subreddit means an active chat, and vice versa.",adhd,chat pretty new crowded yet get reply within minute give see lot conversation everyone behind keyboard every hour day personally found great place talk people first medication still getting grip diagnosis subreddit discussion sharing experience check little real time active mean vice versa,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I recently formed a band with my friends and we had our first show and it was a blast! The reception was way more positive than I was expecting. The thing is, I'm the singer, so I've been writing all the lyrics for the songs.  It ended up going okay, but it made me wonder about certain tasks and the ramifications of taking my medication. 

I've finally found a medication that works for me with Vyvanse, with mild side effects, and a generally beneficial reaction, but I've noticed that, like other medications, it dulls my creativity to some extent. At the same time, however, it was pretty difficult for me to st down and bang some lyrics out, like it is with any other task.

So my question is, how can I be focused and creative?",adhd,recently formed band friend first show blast reception way positive expecting thing singer writing lyric song ended going okay made wonder certain task ramification taking medication finally found work vyvanse mild side effect generally beneficial reaction noticed like dulls creativity extent time however pretty difficult st bang question focused creative,0.15,Moderately Positive
"Guanfacine is apparently a blood pressure medication which has been shown to improve concentration but is not technically approved for people with ADHD. Nevertheless, my doctor thinks it is a good option for me as I don't want to take stimulant as they triggered a manic episode in me in the past as I also suffer bipolar. I also had a bad experience with strattera causing dysphoria. I thought there were no meds out there for me so I am hopeful this will be my saviour, I've just never heard of it before today.

Has anyone tried Guanfacine before? Does it help with your symptoms? Are there any side effects you experienced? I can't find much information about its use for ADHD.",adhd,guanfacine apparently blood pressure medication shown improve concentration technically approved people adhd nevertheless doctor think good option want take stimulant triggered manic episode past also suffer bipolar bad experience strattera causing dysphoria thought med hopeful saviour never heard today anyone tried help symptom side effect experienced find much information use,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Boyfriend and I are 25. Have been dating for over a year and live together. Reading through this subreddit makes me realize that my boyfriend's lack of motivation really may not be intentional ""laziness"".
I will try to cut right to it. I suspect my boyfriend might have ADHD for a few reasons.. 

1. He was diagnosed but untreated as a child. This was something he brought up to me as ""Yeah I was diagnosed with ADHD as a kid...along with everyone else.""

2. He has ideas he never works to complete. Such as wanting to be a streamer on twitch. He has no computer. I have suggested a savings account to save for a computer. Never happened - he says his regular checking account is just as good as a savings account. Lack of organization? Because the checking account money is never saved..it's spend on bills, video games, etc.  

3. He dropped out of college (years before we met). He told me because he had no focus - no interest in what he was studying and he was forced to be there by family members. 

4. Promises to help out around the house more often..Will complete a requested task (clean the bathroom for instance) but then goes back to the norm until I ask him in a week to do something else. Promises to look at jobs which would offer full time and better hours (does currently work part time). Doesn't happen unless I sit down with him and look too.

5. When playing a video game he also usually has open my computer playing a youtube video. At work I know he has a set up where he has his 3DS open, phone on Facebook, youtube on one computer monitor, work on the other monitor, and iPad in front of him. Luckily he works nights and with 1 other person so no one sees this and reports him. We often do not sleep in the same room because he likes to fall asleep watching something and I can't fall asleep with noise.

Mainly, I am concerned but also excited that possibly there is a fix? I spoke with him about the potential of ADHD affecting him and he seemed open to the idea. He seemed to really listen to what I said and suggested. He even brought up stuff I didn't know about like how sometimes he has to read the same thing multiple times because he starts thinking too many things to comprehend what he read. 

He said he is going to try very hard to change his motivation levels and do things such as look at schooling again and look for a better job. But if even with his efforts he does not feel successful, then he will consider getting diagnosed again.

He told me he does not want to be dependent on a medication to feel normal. Does anyone here feel like they are dependent on their meds to feel normal? I don't want him to change...I just want him to work for a better life for himself and a better future for us both. 

I am currently working to get into a masters program and working full time in the education field and I just wish I saw the same effort from him. 

Would medication fix this? Have any of you been in the same boat as  me or him? 

I have read posts here where it seems like the person gets on medication and they instantly get a job and finish college and get straight A's. This doesn't seem realistic? ",adhd,boyfriend dating year live together reading subreddit make realize lack motivation really may intentional laziness try cut right suspect might adhd reason diagnosed untreated child something brought yeah kid along everyone else idea never work complete wanting streamer twitch computer suggested saving account save happened say regular checking good organization money saved spend bill video game etc dropped college met told focus interest studying forced family member promise help around house often requested task clean bathroom instance go back norm ask week look job would offer full time better hour currently part happen unless sit playing also usually open youtube know set d phone facebook one monitor ipad front luckily night person see report sleep room like fall asleep watching noise mainly concerned excited possibly fix spoke potential affecting seemed listen said even stuff sometimes read thing multiple start thinking many comprehend going hard change level schooling effort feel successful consider getting want dependent medication normal anyone med life future u working get master program education field wish saw boat post seems instantly finish straight seem realistic,0.15,Moderately Positive
"I absolutely can't stand it when I'm in a conversation or a discussion with someone, and they suddenly tell me something along the lines of ""Can you relax?"" I have no clue why, and if I'm the only one expiriencing this but this really just pisses me off. I know it's kinda irrational to act like this, but I can't help but get irritated. Any if you who expirience this?",adhd,absolutely stand conversation discussion someone suddenly tell something along line relax clue one expiriencing really piss know kinda irrational act like help get irritated expirience,0.13,Moderately Positive
"I graduate with a projected 3.8 GPA as a math major and go off to grad school for a program that's 12th in the nation. ADHD has been a struggle and it still is. I have to pass a standardized test with a B to be fully accepted into the program and I still I put off studying for it too often. However, the point is that one has to try harder with ADHD to achieve the same things as people without it. Just as there is hope for me to study enough to pass this test, there is hope for you. Now that I've gotten to the end of the road, I just want everyone to know that there's hope that you can do something that you consider great if you put your mind to it. Whether it be going to school, going back to school, starting a family, making a daily routine, having a successful relationship or friendship, or anything that you currently struggle with, there is hope that you can achieve it.",adhd,graduate projected gpa math major go grad school program th nation adhd struggle still pas standardized test fully accepted put studying often however point one try harder achieve thing people without hope study enough gotten end road want everyone know something consider great mind whether going back starting family making daily routine successful relationship friendship anything currently,0.17,Moderately Positive
"So, I am in the UK, and after a failed referral, a year wait for nothing, a calamatous break down, and a formal complaint, I got my diagnosis for ADHD- C yesterday. With any luck, I will be picking up my first prescriprion of Ritalin tomorrow. Does anyone have any advice for this period?",adhd,uk failed referral year wait nothing calamatous break formal complaint got diagnosis adhd yesterday luck picking first prescriprion ritalin tomorrow anyone advice period,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"When I don't work I normally don't take my meds. I have noticed that I literally cannot motivate myself to get out of bed on these days. My brain is always foggy and stuff. Are these withdrawal symptoms? Should I just take the pill on my days off? 

I hate taking these meds...",adhd,work normally take med noticed literally cannot motivate get bed day brain always foggy stuff withdrawal symptom pill hate taking,-0.32,Moderately Negative
"Hello,

my former psychiatrist (I moved, sadly) believed there was a link between skipping the crawling phase as a child and AD(H)D. 

Of all the people with these conditions (including myself) I asked, only one of them said NOT to have skipped the crawling phase. (Something like ten people in total). I'm interested, people of r/ADHD, did you skip this phase too, or something else in your early years which you believe is linked to AD(H)D?

Can anyone offer me possible theories as to why there may or may not be a link? Is skipping this phase related to development of spatial abilities, motorics, or even developing a higher verbal than performal intelligence (for example, I'm just speculating.)

I haven't seen this discussed before on here, I'm intrigued!",adhd,hello former psychiatrist moved sadly believed link skipping crawling phase child ad people condition including asked one said skipped something like ten total interested adhd skip else early year believe linked anyone offer possible theory may related development spatial ability motorics even developing higher verbal performal intelligence example speculating seen discussed intrigued,0.01,Neutral
"Just found out that you can get iridescent/rainbow colored band for the fitbit blaze. The impulse to get the watch because of the band was pretty strong, but I stopped myself. (for now)

So, question is, do you have any experience with the fitbit blaze? I had the fitbit charge hr and loved the tracking of heartrate and sleep, but it broke. Tracking these things manually doesn't work for me in the long run.

I guess I'm basically asking for pros and cons + reminding other people that it can be a super helpful tool.",adhd,found get iridescent rainbow colored band fitbit blaze impulse watch pretty strong stopped question experience charge hr loved tracking heartrate sleep broke thing manually work long run guess basically asking pro con reminding people super helpful tool,0.33,Moderately Positive
"I've tried the PE based versions of pseudophedrine and the ingredients make me drowsy. 

I've googled quite a bit. I'm hoping someone has a remedy I missed. ",adhd,tried pe based version pseudophedrine ingredient make drowsy googled quite bit hoping someone remedy missed,0.0,Neutral
"Especially when I’m super stressed. 

It’s song after song after song. I️ can try to quiet it but sometimes is impossible and I️ can’t really focus on what anyone is telling me at the time. And then it looks like I’m not focusing on them or giving enough attention which makes them upset which makes me more stressed which makes the songs more prominent in my head and loopty loop. 

And then...I️ was want to take my foggy ass to sleep and shut down. 

*shrug* ",adhd,especially super stressed song try quiet sometimes impossible really focus anyone telling time look like focusing giving enough attention make upset prominent head loopty loop want take foggy as sleep shut shrug,0.12,Moderately Positive
"and I took it.

I started seeing a new doc, one whom I saw years ago but then moved out of the area.  He's nice enough, pleasant, listens well, but somehow got the dose wrong for my Vyvanse.  I've been taking Vyvanse 40 mg for the past 9 months.  I was taking Vyvanse 70 mg but thought a.) it wasn't doing anything or b.) it was doing too much and I felt overstimulated.  Lately, I don't feel much different but I guess that means it's working.  I paid an $80 co-pay (insurance just changed so I figured ""Maybe that's the price I pay) before I realized the bottle was wrong and so I took a dose.  It's been a couple hours and I don't feel worlds different.  I guess I kind of do feel a little more focused and it's a nice feeling.  I have some 40's left at home still...but should I bother?  I paid $80 for a higher dose of a drug that helps me.  I took a dose so it's not like I can return it.  Obviously I know what to watch out for - agitation, tachycardia, high blood pressure, etc.  Do I just roll with it and see how things go, calling my doc for a lower dose if this becomes too much and just see this as a blessing?  

",adhd,took started seeing new doc one saw year ago moved area nice enough pleasant listens well somehow got dose wrong vyvanse taking mg past month thought anything much felt overstimulated lately feel different guess mean working paid co pay insurance changed figured maybe price realized bottle couple hour world kind little focused feeling left home still bother higher drug help like return obviously know watch agitation tachycardia high blood pressure etc roll see thing go calling lower becomes blessing,0.07,Moderately Positive
"At the comment of a coworker, who mentioned my work ethic seems awfully similar to their child's, I went and began seeking treatment.  This was in February of this year.

Between February and August, I began calling different clinics within my HMO plan (I'm in the US).  I've never sought treatment for any form of illness so all of this was new to me.  Frustrating part was probably waiting a few weeks between when I called and when I went into an appointment with anyone.  

I started by using the obtuse website my healthcare provider had.  I remember how slow it queried and how useless the review system was.  I sent off a few calls and almost all of them told me to get a referral from a general practitioner.  I went to my general practitioner and he said all he could do was sign off on refills of medication - I would either want a psychiatrist or a therapist.  I made sure to ask him to give me a signed note that I was seeking a referral, just in case I was once again shutdown by the therapists or psychiatrists.

I continued my search and finally was able to begin seeing a specialist, waiting one to two weeks between appointments.  Chatted with a therapist, who then scheduled an appointment to get tested, then scheduled an appointment to review the results.  From there, they asked me to speak with a psychiatrist, it showed I had 99% confidence index for ADHD.  

I think the most odd interaction was with the psychiatrist.  She said it was very rare for her to see such a high confidence index for someone with ADHD as an adult who successfully went through high school and college.  I didn't know what to tell her but I told her I was good at following authority - probably because of my father's background in the Navy - but was miserable when it came to deadlines, passion projects, goal setting, and time management.

Not sure what to expect.  The psychiatrist asked me to follow up with an email after 3 days to see if the dosage she prescribed will work.  She also recommended more therapy.

TLDR: Nine months later, diagnosed.  Process was grueling but I stuck to it.  Not sure what to expect but it's relieving to know that maybe it's not all my fault.",adhd,comment coworker mentioned work ethic seems awfully similar child went began seeking treatment february year august calling different clinic within hmo plan u never sought form illness new frustrating part probably waiting week called appointment anyone started using obtuse website healthcare provider remember slow queried useless review system sent call almost told get referral general practitioner said could sign refill medication would either want psychiatrist therapist made sure ask give signed note case shutdown continued search finally able begin seeing specialist one two chatted scheduled tested result asked speak showed confidence index adhd think odd interaction rare see high someone adult successfully school college know tell good following authority father background navy miserable came deadline passion project goal setting time management expect follow email day dosage prescribed also recommended therapy tldr nine month later diagnosed process grueling stuck relieving maybe fault,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Hopefully this helps those with similar attention/ stimuli conditions! 

I'm really into podcasts and used to have a job where I would listen to new material because the task was repetitive and podcasts got me through it. I moved a little slower but my QA checks improved and my tolerance for the job did, too. 

Now my job is essentially a higher level of thinking. More reading, calculations, note taking and writing and my old podcast method doesn't work so well. Neither does putting on a hyper familiar show on in the background- I usually do this when cleaning or more physical based tasks as it's something my brain click in and out of easily when it's bored, satisfying that itch letting me get back to work. The more involved the task is, the harder it is to not succumb to the ""fun"" option. 

""Why not music, 8kinsugi?"" I have a weird relationship with music and, unless hyper focused, listening to music I know can be too emotionally involved and listening to new music takes all my attention- who's this artist, do I like this song? Should I write it down? Oh got what's this, no no no! The only exception which usually works is some sort of ambient music, or a couple albums that I love.  Anyway.

In comes ""Sleep with me"", a podcast designed to help people drift off to sleep. It's a man kind of droning, he does a usual podcast intro for about 5 minutes and then gets to a ""bedtime story"" which, in all honesty, sounds like it could have been written by someone with ADHD, random meandering plots where the author forgot to include a climax. When listening to get to sleep, I usually don't make it past the adds. 

I started listening to it at work in place of my favorite podcasts, and it has helped me get back on track! 

The thing is, the story is banal enough it's not worth wholly listening to, but refers to enough real things that it feels like it's something? It's mildly repetitive in the same way a book is repetitive, the same names get said throughout, the plot carries through so when you cut in and out of it it feels like it's *something* yet it's so boring it doesn't pull me from the task at hand. 


Anyway, the podcast is cleverly written to interest listeners without being exciting, there's a hug backlog and I'd recommend it to anyone trying to get to sleep or who likes to have background noise of a certain intensity. 
Hope this helps someone!
",adhd,hopefully help similar attention stimulus condition really podcasts used job would listen new material task repetitive got moved little slower qa check improved tolerance essentially higher level thinking reading calculation note taking writing old podcast method work well neither putting hyper familiar show background usually cleaning physical based something brain click easily bored satisfying itch letting get back involved harder succumb fun option music kinsugi weird relationship unless focused listening know emotionally take artist like song write oh exception sort ambient couple album love anyway come sleep designed people drift man kind droning usual intro minute bedtime story honesty sound could written someone adhd random meandering plot author forgot include climax make past add started place favorite helped track thing banal enough worth wholly refers real feel mildly way book name said throughout carry cut yet boring pull hand cleverly interest listener without exciting hug backlog recommend anyone trying noise certain intensity hope,0.04,Neutral
Its amazing how much effort needs to be put into reading and following a simple set of instructions. I have to reread the same exact step about 10 times before I am able to even make an attempt at doing it. ,adhd,amazing much effort need put reading following simple set instruction reread exact step time able even make attempt,0.26,Moderately Positive
"I have ADHD and used to take adderall xr for a few months and hated it. My pdoc would only prescribe xr to me because she thought I would abuse instant release (I wouldn't). It made me lose too much weight, smoke like a train, rip my hair out, have intense insomnia and anger issues. But I'm desperate to do better at work and school and want to give meds another shot. I heard Strattera is the only nonstimulant drug available. What are the pros and cons and does it work? Thanks :)",adhd,adhd used take adderall xr month hated pdoc would prescribe thought abuse instant release made lose much weight smoke like train rip hair intense insomnia anger issue desperate better work school want give med another shot heard strattera nonstimulant drug available pro con thanks,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"*please be nice every post I've ever published to reddit has gone to shit*

So, the title. Between my once great job going sideways on me (only a matter of time, right?) and a very sympathetic, perceptive, and encouraging therapist, I'll be calling the only facility within two hours drive to begin the medication process. She and my fiancé have both vowed to come with me, and she's going to be pulling every string she has to make sure I walk out with a script. 

I plan to call tomorrow (lol) to set up an appointment for next week, but I have no idea what I'm walking in to (which is my worst nightmare) and would like any advice you can give.

For those of you who have run through quite a few brands and sub-brands, what meds did you find really delivered on their nasty side effects? Unexpected positive plot twists? 

What was notable for you about the adjustment period and nailing your dosage?

Should I wear... Like... Slacks? (idfk I haven't seen a doctor besides my therapist in fifteen years)

Any funny stories?

ANYTHING relevant that my brain accidentally shut out in the five-alarm lockdown (I might be panicking)?

TL;DR: send help",adhd,please nice every post ever published reddit gone shit title great job going sideways matter time right sympathetic perceptive encouraging therapist calling facility within two hour drive begin medication process fianc vowed come pulling string make sure walk script plan call tomorrow lol set appointment next week idea walking worst nightmare would like advice give run quite brand sub med find really delivered nasty side effect unexpected positive plot twist notable adjustment period nailing dosage wear slack idfk seen doctor besides fifteen year funny story anything relevant brain accidentally shut five alarm lockdown might panicking tl dr send help,0.19,Moderately Positive
"I'm 16 and in the UK, and going private luckily this Summer after my exams. It's hard enough trying to get them on board with the whole idea of ADHD (they're only really letting me go private because we are lucky to have insurance), but although people will say get over this hurdle first, then medication, it's something important because we need to factor in any post-diagnosis costs.

After previously being seen to by an adolescent mental health service (NHS), they narrowed it down to anxiety and made clear that my good grades eliminated the possibility of ADHD. My mum claims the lady told her that I wouldn't have medication even if diagnosed because it wouldn't be needed for my severity. A popular post I made here on an old account quickly made me realise that this psychiatrist likely didn't know much about ADHD, which I should have realised after she dismissed it due to good academic performance.

So my main question, I don't understand how it couldn't be ""bad enough"", and I don't understand how I can get my parents to actually understand and acknowledge the disorder through things like research rather than using pre-empted ideas on what ADHD is. **What can I do about this?** The annoying this I feel like my dad actually has it himself.

 

**Slightly off-topic questions:**

- For those of you in the UK who got diagnosed privately, could you switch your medications from private to NHS so you don't have to consistently pay a fortune for them?
- If I need to be assessed for comorbid anxiety and ADHD, I assume that I can't just go to a normal ADHD psychiatrist. If anyone has comorbid anxiety and ADHD, could you please tell me what kind of doc you got diagnosed by? Anyone who has done so in the UK would be even better :)",adhd,uk going private luckily summer exam hard enough trying get board whole idea adhd really letting go lucky insurance although people say hurdle first medication something important need factor post diagnosis cost previously seen adolescent mental health service nh narrowed anxiety made clear good grade eliminated possibility mum claim lady told even diagnosed needed severity popular old account quickly realise psychiatrist likely know much realised dismissed due academic performance main question understand bad parent actually acknowledge disorder thing like research rather using pre empted annoying feel dad slightly topic got privately could switch consistently pay fortune assessed comorbid assume normal anyone please tell kind doc done would better,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hello! I am a 15 year old boy who has had ADHD, for at least as long as I can remember. It's definitely been since I was a young child. I have many of the same symptoms of ADHD that lots of people have and I'd love to go over them.

I'm always moving around. In school and at home, I am always forced to move around in one way or another. Whether it be shaking my leg around or scooting my chair back and forth or scratching myself, I always have to move around.

Continually shifting interests. I tend to get into something, focus on it intensely for a week or two, and then get tired of it and move to something else. These interests include certain video games, coins, airplanes, cartoons, videos made by YouTubers, disasters and death, and most recently guns. I really wanna keep focus on a certain topic but there are so many things I enjoy that I can't just keep focus.

I can't pay attention. This is a big problem for me in school. I can't keep focus and I am always daydreaming about things that I wanna do when I get home. This causes me to not focus on whatever lesson I'm learning, causing me to do poorly on classwork and exams, and this leads to me getting a poor grade in the class. I wanna do good, but my brain won't let me.

I take medicines to help control my ADHD. It also helps me repress my appetite because I have a big appetite. I am also diagnosed with Asperger's, HFA, and depression, where I consistently have bouts of anxiety. I don't have much more to say about it though.",adhd,hello year old boy adhd least long remember definitely since young child many symptom lot people love go always moving around school home forced move one way another whether shaking leg scooting chair back forth scratching continually shifting interest tend get something focus intensely week two tired else include certain video game coin airplane cartoon made youtubers disaster death recently gun really wanna keep topic thing enjoy pay attention big problem daydreaming cause whatever lesson learning causing poorly classwork exam lead getting poor grade class good brain let take medicine help control also repress appetite diagnosed asperger hfa depression consistently bout anxiety much say though,0.05,Moderately Positive
"**TL;DR:**

**In short, I'm not happy, despite having all reasons TO BE HAPPY, health, partner, home, money, all great! But I just feel ""empty"", can't feel motivated to do anything. Feel like I'm just ""existing"".
Need help before I become depressed for real =(**

Maybe a hobby? Something to make me feel motivated again in life, work, etc

 

*****

Hi everyone.

I have ADHD *(PI)* and severe GAD.

I'm currently medicated for both disorders but since the last two or three months I'm feeling more and more depressed...

 

And when I think about it, the reasons behind this feeling, I feel even worse... Worse because I SHOULD BE HAPPY DAMMIT! I have no ""real"" reasons to be sad!

 

I'm 26 yo, married, have my own house, a wonderful wife, I don't have any problems with money or health issues, I have a GREAT job.
Really, just to give you some perspective, estatisticaly speaking, I get more money than 95% of the population in my country (and no, I'm not exagerating...) what is impressive (in ths country) considering that I'm black, relatively *young* and from a small city. **I ABSOLUTELLY SHOULD NOT BE FEELING SAD ABOUT MY LIFE!** 

 

I'm taking the medications like prescribed, nothing changed in my life, but I just... **FEEL SAD, PURPOSELESS, USELESS...** I feel like I'm just ""existing"", going through the day, going back home, sleeping and repeat.

 

I always loved playing online video games and even this now is just a source of frustration.
The same goes for books. I always read 4~5 books per month. ALWAYS loved doing this, as I live a bit far from my work and use public transport I have plenty of time.

Now I can't even make me start a new book. All of them just look boring as fuck.

 

I stopped going to the Gym, stopped going to my swiming classes, I barelly can make myself groom my bunny. I just do it because if I don't his fur will be completely entangled in 2~3 days.

 

I think I should urgently find a hobby or something that make me happy and motivated again. I just don't know from where to start and what to do... Any advice that you can give me will be greatly appreciated.

I'm also afraid of the damage that all this lack of motivation can cause to my work... I usualy have been a great employee, but I see that I'm producing less and less each day...
",adhd,tl dr short happy despite reason health partner home money great feel empty motivated anything like existing need help become depressed real maybe hobby something make life work etc hi everyone adhd pi severe gad currently medicated disorder since last two three month feeling think behind even worse dammit sad yo married house wonderful wife problem issue job really give perspective estatisticaly speaking get population country exagerating impressive th considering black relatively young small city absolutelly taking medication prescribed nothing changed purposeless useless going day back sleeping repeat always loved playing online video game source frustration go book read per live bit far use public transport plenty time start new look boring fuck stopped gym swiming class barelly groom bunny fur completely entangled urgently find know advice greatly appreciated also afraid damage lack motivation cause usualy employee see producing le,0.03,Neutral
"Despite being horribly forgetful and just bad at calling people ( I hate the phone ) I followed through and called the female dr and the neurologist that my shrink wants me to see. Yay me! 

This may not seem like a big deal but to me it is!",adhd,despite horribly forgetful bad calling people hate phone followed called female dr neurologist shrink want see yay may seem like big deal,-0.32,Moderately Negative
"My pdoc prescribed me reboxetine, mirtazipine and said if they don't work it's unlikely that strattera will work.

They work via the same or similar pathway. Strattera is an NRI. It is expensive and generics still. There are other meds that is also NRI why can't we use those? 

Don't just reason that because it is approved for adhd. Gimme the science mechansim. 

Yes I am addressing this for people with chemistry knowledge. May not be the best place but where else do I go??",adhd,pdoc prescribed reboxetine mirtazipine said work unlikely strattera via similar pathway nri expensive generic still med also use reason approved adhd gimme science mechansim yes addressing people chemistry knowledge may best place else go,0.0,Neutral
"I am precribed and take 70 mg Vyvanse in the morning and 20 mg Dexedrine 4-5 hours later. Sometimes (on long days), I take an additional 20mg 3 hours after that. This has been working fairly well, except I spoke to a new Dr. who told me this is way too much medication and there's a risk I can go psychotic or have a heart attack. The first Dr. was fine with me occasionaly taking a 2nd Dexedrine dose, yet the 2nd one seemed shocked at this amount of medication.  Is this a dangerous amount of stimulants? Should I be worried?

Tl;dr is 70 mg Vyvanse once a day and 20 mg Dexedrine twice a day a crazy amount of medication to be taking?",adhd,precribed take mg vyvanse morning dexedrine hour later sometimes long day additional working fairly well except spoke new dr told way much medication risk go psychotic heart attack first fine occasionaly taking nd dose yet one seemed shocked amount dangerous stimulant worried tl twice crazy,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I sometimes have days (or weeks, as this has been so many days in a row at this point...) where it seems like my spatial judgment (including situations where it's just the order in which I try to do things) is just especially doofy. It's really challenging not to get really down on myself, especially when my own clumsiness leads to epic comedies-of-errors.

Any tips you guys have to reset mentally, and hopefully become less clumsy on those days? Or for avoiding as much mishap as possible? :\",adhd,sometimes day week many row point seems like spatial judgment including situation order try thing especially doofy really challenging get clumsiness lead epic comedy error tip guy reset mentally hopefully become le clumsy avoiding much mishap possible,0.11,Moderately Positive
"First of all sorry if this isn't the correct sub for guestions like this.
According to my mother I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 6-7 years old, however I've never used medicine to treat it before. I'm considering medicine now because I applied for further education after a little break. I struggled a lot in high school however personally I can't judge if it was due to ADHD or something else. Infact I'm not sure if I even really have ADHD even though the symptoms check and I have the prior diagnosis.

I'm unsure of the diagnosis because when I went to a medical examination prior to starting my military service they asked for medical details and I told them about the ADHD. They checked my medical details and couldn't find any proof of it so they asked me to bring in proof about it. I asked my mother about it and she couldn't find any papers about it either. Later on in a health check during the service ADHD was listed in my medical details even though I never brought in any proof about it. I do remember that I went through some odd examinations as a kid but it could have been due to my severe migraines as well.

I had another health checkup in february after my service and the doctor asked about my future plans. I mentioned that I'm going to apply for a school and during the chatting I also mentioned my troubles in highschool. Thats when the doctor recommended me to consider medicine and suggested that I get an appointment to talk to another doctor about it.

I would have propably went to a doctor already but what makes me hesitate is that there seems to be no mentions about my ADHD diagnosis in my medical info. Another factor is that I used lots of alcohol before and answered honestly about my alcohol consumption in my various health checkups so it is in my medical files. Could they label me as a junkie if I suddenly go to discuss ADHD meds now that I'm 21 years old?
Sorry if I explained my situation unclearly, I don't express myself very well in text form. Please ask any questions if needed and thanks in advance for any help!",adhd,first sorry correct sub guestions like according mother diagnosed adhd year old however never used medicine treat considering applied education little break struggled lot high school personally judge due something else infact sure even really though symptom check prior diagnosis unsure went medical examination starting military service asked detail told checked find proof bring paper either later health listed brought remember odd kid could severe migraine well another checkup february doctor future plan mentioned going apply chatting also trouble highschool thats recommended consider suggested get appointment talk would propably already make hesitate seems mention info factor alcohol answered honestly consumption various file label junkie suddenly go discus med explained situation unclearly express text form please ask question needed thanks advance help,0.03,Neutral
"I want to get a watch with a vibrating alarm/count down, but I'm a bit lost - anything I order has to be from overseas and cost me quite a lot, so I'd rather get it right the first time.

- The 'Wobl' and mini Vibralite watches are too small.
- The larger Vibralite might work, but is pricier and isn't water resistant like a 'normal' watch so I'll probably destroy it quickly
- The Timex Expedition watch looks neat and very durable, but doesn't normally ship to my country so will be hard to get
- The Casio W-735H-8A2VCF looks alright, but only has a couple of alarms and apparently has a weak vibration
- the Sense solar watch would be neat, but the reviews are terrible.

Does anyone have any opinions or other recommendations?",adhd,want get watch vibrating alarm count bit lost anything order overseas cost quite lot rather right first time wobl mini vibralite small larger might work pricier water resistant like normal probably destroy quickly timex expedition look neat durable normally ship country hard casio vcf alright couple apparently weak vibration sense solar would review terrible anyone opinion recommendation,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"I hate the way it affects my life. At the moment I'm on medication, Ritalin 18mg extended release. It helps with my attention spam, which has helped me fight slowly but steadily to win my life back. But I still feel like it's too slow, I'm already 24yo and I want to become better and accomplish my goals in life. My therapist and doctor would've increased my dosage if I asked, but I want to avoid it for as long as I can. I don't want to become dependent on increasing the dosage every time I feel worse. So, at the moment I'm trying to implement good habits like exercise, healthy diet, meditation, more sun on my face, etc., but it's so hard. Like I said, I have made good progress since I started medication last year, more progress than I have done in the last 6 years, but I need it to be quicker. I feel like I'm wasting my life. 

ADHD makes it so my attention spam is really low on everything that I don't care about, plus spacing out to the point that I forget where I was in the first place. Medication helped reducing this by around 50%. Thankfully, my OCD didn't get worst with the medication and actually got around 15% better. My OCD makes me want to control everything and gets my anxious if I can't control everything in my life. The more important what is making me woried is, the more I OCD about it. The combination of both is just plain horrible. I'm worried about something that I really need to get done, I start stressing and OCDing about it, my ADHD doesn't allow me to focus decently, I know I have ADHD, so I overcompensate with OCD to re-check everything a ton of times. Since I'm barely paying attention, this keeps on going until I manage to get enough focus to process what I'm doing and my OCD feels like I actually got it done right this time. So, basically my ADHD makes me want to skip everything that I'm not interested in, and skim through stuff, but my OCD doesn't allow this and enteres an overeactive state trying to make sure I read/do it enough times. Because I read it so many times, my ADHD gets worse and worse because I get more and more uninterested in whatever I'm doing. They push me in different directions making each other worse through the course of engaging in a task.

Just now I was trying to read the book ""Freedom from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder"". I read a sentence but I skimmed it because of ADHD, so I had to go back and re-read it 5 times until my OCD felt like I understood it. My biggest problem is that I feel like I have 2 opposite instincts. Instead of being able to read at a normal pace in which I can both understand and not have to go back. I'm compeled to skim it 5 times or more instead. Unable to read normally, but also unable to move forward. It's the most counter productive way to read a book.

I hope that I managed to explain what I feel in a way that is easly understood. I'm sorry if my English is bad. If any of you have both conditions, how do you deal with it? Or even, if you only have one, do you have any suggestions? I'm happy with anything that could help me get better faster. 

Thank you

TL;DR: My biggest problem is that I feel like I have 2 opposite instincts. Instead of being able to read at a normal pace in which I can both understand and not have to go back. I'm compeled to skim (ADHD) it 5 times or more (OCD) instead. Unable to read normally, but also unable to move forward.",adhd,hate way affect life moment medication ritalin mg extended release help attention spam helped fight slowly steadily win back still feel like slow already yo want become better accomplish goal therapist doctor would increased dosage asked avoid long dependent increasing every time worse trying implement good habit exercise healthy diet meditation sun face etc hard said made progress since started last year done need quicker wasting adhd make really low everything care plus spacing point forget first place reducing around thankfully ocd get worst actually got control anxious important making woried combination plain horrible worried something start stressing ocding allow focus decently know overcompensate check ton barely paying keep going manage enough process right basically skip interested skim stuff enteres overeactive state sure read many uninterested whatever push different direction course engaging task book freedom obsessive compulsive disorder sentence skimmed go felt understood biggest problem opposite instinct instead able normal pace understand compeled unable normally also move forward counter productive hope managed explain easly sorry english bad condition deal even one suggestion happy anything could faster thank tl dr,0.02,Neutral
"Ever since my formal diagnosis in August, I have endured a rather frustrating process of trying to identify the right medication and dosage for my particular set of difficulties.

I was put on different dosages of IR ritalin for just over two months and now I have been taking Vyvanse for the past week and a half.

I did show some very encouraging signs of improvement on ritalin but my ADHD team concluded that I should try something else because of its inconsistency and the nosebleeds it MIGHT have caused. 

Even though it's early days, I have to say that Vyvanse has been tremendously disappointing so far. Perhaps it's because my dose is too low at 20mg but I've been withdrawn, unfocused and no longer feel inclined to socialise, which I did on the ritalin. My mind seems rather blank and I am remarkably lethargic on the drug.

Even though I believe I am primarily inattentive, my formal diagnosis is combined-type ADHD.

These were my biggest issues before taking ritalin:

- Brain fog.
- Forgetfulness. For instance, I never remembered why I would go upstairs.
- Processing difficulties. I wouldn't take in what people were telling me, could never remember song lyrics or directions and my reading comprehension was dreadful.
- Inattentiveness.
- Procrastination.
- Disorganisation.
- Frequently 'spaced out'.

Unfortunately these have all returned now that I am taking Vyvanse.

It would be interesting to know how long it took fellow ADHDers to settle on an effective medication for their respective symptoms.",adhd,ever since formal diagnosis august endured rather frustrating process trying identify right medication dosage particular set difficulty put different ir ritalin two month taking vyvanse past week half show encouraging sign improvement adhd team concluded try something else inconsistency nosebleed might caused even though early day say tremendously disappointing far perhaps dose low mg withdrawn unfocused longer feel inclined socialise mind seems blank remarkably lethargic drug believe primarily inattentive combined type biggest issue brain fog forgetfulness instance never remembered would go upstairs processing take people telling could remember song lyric direction reading comprehension dreadful inattentiveness procrastination disorganisation frequently spaced unfortunately returned interesting know long took fellow adhders settle effective respective symptom,-0.01,Neutral
"I'm taking Bupropion HCL 75mg along with buspirone 5mg and everyday I have a headache, dry patch in my throat, slight nausea, and my neck and back feels sore/stiff like when your body aches from the flu, yet have no fever. Not sure if this is a thing and if so what I should do?",adhd,taking bupropion hcl mg along buspirone everyday headache dry patch throat slight nausea neck back feel sore stiff like body ache flu yet fever sure thing,-0.02,Neutral
"Yeah, I know, every one of us has been there.

I'm looking for something that will help me keep track of time. I lose so much of it, especially at work (where my duties are horribly boring) to the internet on both my work computer and phone. Needless to say it's affecting my performance...

Are there any apps on the iPhone that will block certain other apps and their associated websites (facebook, tumblr, twitter) during certain hours?  

I almost wish I would get in trouble with the boss and have my internet taken away. I cannot resist it.  And then I log in in the morning, check a message board, and look up and it's almost noon.  I know there are programs you can download to block sites on the computer, but I'm not allowed to download anything to the work computer.

I have no idea how I'm going to do this. I need to do this.",adhd,yeah know every one u looking something help keep track time lose much especially work duty horribly boring internet computer phone needle say affecting performance apps iphone block certain associated website facebook tumblr twitter hour almost wish would get trouble bos taken away cannot resist log morning check message board look noon program download site allowed anything idea going need,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"After years of self medicating and struggling with my ADHD symptoms, I'm finally getting help. My appointment is Tueday. I've procrastinated long enough! I was on Ritalin all throughout middle school (I'm 32 now). I feel like I've been doing okay, but I've definitely noticed a change in my behavior that leads me to believe my ADD and/or ADHD is an issue again. I have a clear lack of motivation, easily distracted, social anxiety, can't focus, loss of interest in things that used to interest me (photography; almost a sort of creative writer's block), I feel bored, impulsiveness (however controlled), lack of excitement/enjoyment/emotion, forgetful, lack of attention to detail, huge reliance on caffeine and other safe ""stimulants"", sex with another person is also a challenge because I can't focus and take absolutely forever to orgasm. I'm really thinking I'd do well on Wellbutrin/Bupropion. Would it be weird/unusual to specifically request to try this to see if my symptoms improve? I don't really want to try anything that could deminish my sex drive and I think Adderall or Ritalin would be too strong.",adhd,year self medicating struggling adhd symptom finally getting help appointment tueday procrastinated long enough ritalin throughout middle school feel like okay definitely noticed change behavior lead believe add issue clear lack motivation easily distracted social anxiety focus loss interest thing used photography almost sort creative writer block bored impulsiveness however controlled excitement enjoyment emotion forgetful attention detail huge reliance caffeine safe stimulant sex another person also challenge take absolutely forever orgasm really thinking well wellbutrin bupropion would weird unusual specifically request try see improve want anything could deminish drive think adderall strong,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Hello,

I'm 28 years old and was just diagnosed with ADHD. I've always been sure I had something but until a friend mentioned I might have [executive functioning disorder](https://www.additudemag.com/executive-function-disorder-adhd-explained/) I never followed up on my suspicion. 

I am very disorganized, my life is a mess financially, I don't have much work and frequently think I am unable to perform to my ability. The reason I'm saying this is because I am unsure of how good the testing was. 

I went in for two sessions, one we did cognitive tests to find my abilities and two was to hand in forms (which i didnt fully complete and had to complete there (hah)) which had questions. I was told by the only clinic in Toronto, Ontario, Canada that diagnoses ADHD that with 100% confidence I have this problem.

I'm to be sent to my GP to get a referral to a cardiologist so I can find out if I can take the drugs. 

My questions are; how good is this testing? So far I've told a few people and they are saying ""don't use this as a crutch"" ""you're just lazy"" ""we all have a little ADHD"" which is extremely hurtful but puts doubts in my mind about the testing. I know I have something, but is it really that minor? 

What help should I seek out in Toronto, Ontario, Canada?

Are there any questions I should ask my doctor, next? 

I was so happy to be given this diagnosis but I'm kind of raining on my own parade here. I just want to be productive. Thanks for your responses. ",adhd,hello year old diagnosed adhd always sure something friend mentioned might executive functioning disorder never followed suspicion disorganized life mess financially much work frequently think unable perform ability reason saying unsure good testing went two session one cognitive test find hand form didnt fully complete hah question told clinic toronto ontario canada diagnosis confidence problem sent gp get referral cardiologist take drug far people use crutch lazy little extremely hurtful put doubt mind know really minor help seek ask doctor next happy given kind raining parade want productive thanks response,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hey guys/gals I am a 24 year old college student who has currently lost his girlfriend due too ""not being solid"" being ""disgustingly stupid"" and a slew of other things all related to my ADD.. I don't have much confidence in myself and because of that and I often second guess everything I do. Or, I just stop caring. I truly wish to learn and develop as an individual but I am always tired and often feel the need to sleep. This has been a problem for years now. I often feel like I am in a dream and because of that it is very difficult for me to identify with my own sensitivities. My brain sometimes feels very ""numb"" and as a result my speech tends to trail off and I can not seem to focus on what I want to say. This also becomes very difficult after physical activities. This is just a few of my problems.. Is there anyone here that has went through this and has over come it? I really need someone to talk to as this is in fact ruining me as a person. Please help me.. thank you",adhd,hey guy gal year old college student currently lost girlfriend due solid disgustingly stupid slew thing related add much confidence often second guess everything stop caring truly wish learn develop individual always tired feel need sleep problem like dream difficult identify sensitivity brain sometimes numb result speech tends trail seem focus want say also becomes physical activity anyone went come really someone talk fact ruining person please help thank,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Hi everyone,

I suppose I should begin by owning up to my mistake here, which is that I had a lot of work to catch up on last weekend and I took twice my usual dose of 40mg Vyvanse. I mistakenly told my doc I was out of meds and asked for a refill a day early, and he realized that I should have one more and called me out, and I froze up and lied and said I don't know what happened to it (that I wasn't sure if I accidentally took it twice one day and forgot, or the pharmacy shorted me one, or a sibling took it). [This all happened by text message btw]

I ended up having to go to work one day without meds (I'm a teacher) and it was tough but I made it through. I have to say though that I just feel like such a better version of myself when I'm on Vyvanse, and it not only helps me do paperwork but also gives me so much confidence in the classroom and interacting with people in general (and supervisors/administrators in particular).

At the end of the school day he said he was busy ""dealing with several patient crises,"" and that he sent in my refill, but I ended up only getting a partial refill (5 day supply) because it's all the pharmacy had. The pharmacy told me though that when I ran out my doc would have to put in a new prescription, and that they couldn't just fill the rest of the original script when they got more in stock.

I'm scheduled to talk to my doctor tomorrow evening by phone (because I can't make it out to the office on time after work), and I'm just a little nervous about the conversation, and I'm not sure what I should say, and whether I should tell the truth (or rather how much of the truth I should tell). 

I guess this all stems from an anxiety that he won't fill the prescription again because I abused it (however slightly, but I admit it's also not the first time I've done this and he's known about it, which I have to imagine is why he's suspicious), and I'm a little afraid that he won't. But then I have another anxiety branching off that, which is that for me to feel this fear that he won't fill it, I must have some degree of emotional dependence on the drug to feel confidant at work, and I wonder whether or not that's healthy. I suppose these are all things I'll talk about with my doc tomorrow, and I already told him I'm worried about this emotional dependence, but I'm really hoping I can get some advice from you nice folks on how to proceed here. What should I tell him (or what should my story be)? And should I be worried that I feel like I need the meds to be comfortable and successful at work?

(First post on this sub, and I'm sorry if I've broken any rules. Thanks a million in advance for your help/advice.) 

Edit: Thank you everyone so far for your help. Just as an added tidbit, I did make this mistake once before, and it resulted in my doctor increasing my dose from 30mg to 40mg, but I guess he has some reason to be suspicious because of that. He also had thought I'd asked early the last couple times when I wasn't because the pharmacy entered dates in the registry wrong, so it's not helping now that I actually asked a day early. Just wanted to add that.",adhd,hi everyone suppose begin owning mistake lot work catch last weekend took twice usual dose mg vyvanse mistakenly told doc med asked refill day early realized one called froze lied said know happened sure accidentally forgot pharmacy shorted sibling text message btw ended go without teacher tough made say though feel like better version help paperwork also give much confidence classroom interacting people general supervisor administrator particular end school busy dealing several patient crisis sent getting partial supply ran would put new prescription fill rest original script got stock scheduled talk doctor tomorrow evening phone make office time little nervous conversation whether tell truth rather guess stem anxiety abused however slightly admit first done known imagine suspicious afraid another branching fear must degree emotional dependence drug confidant wonder healthy thing already worried really hoping get advice nice folk proceed story need comfortable successful post sub sorry broken rule thanks million advance edit thank far added tidbit resulted increasing reason thought couple entered date registry wrong helping actually wanted add,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I've been on 30mg of vyvanse for about a year now. At this point I generally take it the 5 days during the week, but not the weekend. I have realized this may be changing its effectiveness, and possibly making things harder for me. Does anyone have any information to share?",adhd,mg vyvanse year point generally take day week weekend realized may changing effectiveness possibly making thing harder anyone information share,-0.02,Neutral
Jesus. I've been trying to get into writing. It's been ok so far. I make a Twitter and now I set up a patreon.(can provide links if you want but I'm not shilling) I'm just really scared. I've never done something like this. Ahhhhh!,adhd,jesus trying get writing ok far make twitter set patreon provide link want shilling really scared never done something like ahhhhh,0.27,Moderately Positive
"So I was diagnosed with ADHD.

The problem I'm having for a long time is that I do everything just to finish them, I'm insanely impatient!

When I watch movies o constantly toggle between 2x or 1.5x to 1x because I can't stand them. Sometimes I just read the story on Wikipedia because I can't stand waiting for them!

Playing video games like world of Warcraft has been tourture for me(I gave up for now tbh, but I still have 18 days left on my account) I can't stand Leveling up I can't stand reading story texts and all that, when a quest tells me to walk somewhere more than a yard I kinda want to pull my hair out!

Anyone else dealed with these? How can I fix them? Are they even related to ADHD?",adhd,diagnosed adhd problem long time everything finish insanely impatient watch movie constantly toggle stand sometimes read story wikipedia waiting playing video game like world warcraft tourture gave tbh still day left account leveling reading text quest tell walk somewhere yard kinda want pull hair anyone else dealed fix even related,-0.11,Moderately Negative
See this brief summary here (short sentences and bullet points): https://wmpeople.wm.edu/asset/index/cvance/sanity.,adhd,see brief summary short sentence bullet point,0.0,Neutral
"Hey I'm 18. I'm really annoyed as of recently. My entire life, as long as I can remember, I have lost interest in things so quickly. I will discover something and it will literally be my life for a few days, sometimes weeks or months if I'm lucky, then suddenly it's not something I care about anymore. It's still cool to me, but I'm not as interested as before. I want to go to college and major in film production. I'm afraid that I won't stick to this. I have literally wanted to be everything in life. An artist, singer, a hippie, a writer, an actor... everything. But not anymore. Also, let's say I'm watching a movie and discover a particular actor has died, or something.. I'd look them up and Id know literally everything there is to know about them by the end of the day. Like I obsess over things when I become interested and then won't care much later. I am so tired of being this way. I really am. I started reading about detoxing the other day, fell in love with the idea, bought some detox tea, developed a daily plan, drunk the tea for one day and never looked back. I posted here because this where other posts like this are. Help me out what should I do?",adhd,hey really annoyed recently entire life long remember lost interest thing quickly discover something literally day sometimes week month lucky suddenly care anymore still cool interested want go college major film production afraid stick wanted everything artist singer hippie writer actor also let say watching movie particular died look id know end like ob become much later tired way started reading detoxing fell love idea bought detox tea developed daily plan drunk one never looked back posted post help,0.01,Neutral
"As many of you may know, vyvanse inhibits your desire to eat, greatly, and more often than not I'll go 12 to 16 hours without eating, both due to the medication and because of work. I may have a quick granola bar or a drink, but many times there has been legit no food for that length of time. 

On top of that I'm looking to build my body, especially after my weight loss journey over the last 2 years (290 to 200). Because of the physical nature of my job I've inevitably built a decent amount of muscle, but I'm hitting a plateau on the kind of muscle mass increase I can achieve without proper protein intake. 

I've heard that for my weight I'd need between 150 and 250g of protein a day. That seems ludicrously high, especially given finances and the amount I eat. So currently my biggest source of protein is a homemade nut crumble mixed with yogurt. If I had to guess I'd say that one bowl is probably between 50 and 100g of protein.  Oftentimes I'll have 4 eggs for dinner, and that is about 25g, maybe some milk, another 25g? And after that ... I am lost. 

Meat is not a financially viable avenue for protein intake (I can't guarantee how often I'll eat it), and I don't eat, or want to eat, enough eggs to offset everything else. 

So, my question is this. Anyone that is on hunger inhibiting medication, and works out, what do you guys do for protein? It has to be reasonably priced and versatile enough that I won't blow my brains out eating it every day. And, ideally, something I don't have to fork over a huge chunk of cash for upfront (protein powder). 

Thanks guys!!",adhd,many may know vyvanse inhibits desire eat greatly often go hour without eating due medication work quick granola bar drink time legit food length top looking build body especially weight loss journey last year physical nature job inevitably built decent amount muscle hitting plateau kind mass increase achieve proper protein intake heard need day seems ludicrously high given finance currently biggest source homemade nut crumble mixed yogurt guess say one bowl probably oftentimes egg dinner maybe milk another lost meat financially viable avenue guarantee want enough offset everything else question anyone hunger inhibiting guy reasonably priced versatile blow brain every ideally something fork huge chunk cash upfront powder thanks,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Not sure if this is a Misaphonia thing or an AD/HD thing…. Or a combination of both, but people constantly tell me that I have *supersonic* hearing. I can always pick out noises that people right next to me cannot hear. I can tell the difference between my two children walking down the stairs or on the second floor without even looking. I can easily hear people whisper to one another on the other side of my cubicle at work. 

I have found that some people really don’t like it. They have said that they have to walk away from me just to have a private conversation on the phone because I can usually hear what the person on the phone is saying. I don’t know if this is a Misaphonia or ADHD thing because I have both. I feel like my ADD makes it so I can easily notice sounds that others just ignore, but then the Misaphonia causes me to be on guard all the time for trigger sounds. 

Has anyone else in this sub experienced anything like this?
",adhd,sure misaphonia thing ad hd combination people constantly tell supersonic hearing always pick noise right next cannot hear difference two child walking stair second floor without even looking easily whisper one another side cubicle work found really like said walk away private conversation phone usually person saying know adhd feel add make notice sound others ignore cause guard time trigger anyone else sub experienced anything,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Hey so I've struggled most of my life with this mysterious inability to get myself to do the ""right"" things.

Heck, I'm not even doing the ""right"" thing right now (English paper to write), but if this turns up anything for me, I figure it could help me out in the long run.

In any case, I and my brother were diagnosed with ADHD last year.  We both went on meds, but I suffered from serious depression, and as a result, haven't been interested in trying something different. Plus I don't even have the motivation to go do it, which brings me to my concern.

I watched the videos by Dr. Barkley that were posted on a thread here, and as much truth as he speaks, it depresses me.  I believed that there was something I could do about my ADHD, my lack of motivation, and my nearly complete inability to manage my time wisely, but what he tells me says otherwise.  Especially this video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3VuV5Jvazs

I guess I'm just looking for other's response to his videos and/or some advice/help on what to do next. I want to be motivated (I want to be a talented and great designer one day), but now I fear that my ADHD will keep me from doing so.  Actually, I've always feared/known that, but now it's been articulated for me.
So.. advice? Help? Stories of awesomeness?  Links to a thread where this is already been done? 
Thanks. :)",adhd,hey struggled life mysterious inability get right thing heck even english paper write turn anything figure could help long run case brother diagnosed adhd last year went med suffered serious depression result interested trying something different plus motivation go brings concern watched video dr barkley posted thread much truth speaks depresses believed lack nearly complete manage time wisely tell say otherwise especially guess looking response advice next want motivated talented great designer one day fear keep actually always feared known articulated story awesomeness link already done thanks,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Today is not a good day. I am letting a lot of people down nowadays and that's the breeze that usually knocks over my house of cards.

It's just so painful walking around hating myself. It's hard to focus on anything because the disappointment in myself is suffocating me and exhausting. 20% of my energy is spent stopping myself from hurting myself. I feel like one big punchable face.

Is this my life now? Every year my meltdowns are so disruptive everything hangs from a thread. The only reason I still have my job is because I'm friends with my boss. I just can't see myself going anywhere career wise. I'm having a hard time seeing myself as a parent.

Not sure what I'm looking for. I just couldn't keep it in any longer. I'm not expecting any replies just needed somewhere to post this. Maybe interested in knowing if you've been here and is 5+years past it. I'm just in a very hopeless place mentally right now.",adhd,today good day letting lot people nowadays breeze usually knock house card painful walking around hating hard focus anything disappointment suffocating exhausting energy spent stopping hurting feel like one big punchable face life every year meltdown disruptive everything hang thread reason still job friend bos see going anywhere career wise time seeing parent sure looking keep longer expecting reply needed somewhere post maybe interested knowing past hopeless place mentally right,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"##### Please upvote the post for visibility. This post is self-less and certified karma-free! The more upvotes = more eyes = more visits = more wins!
***

#### WIN WEDNESDAY!!!

###***The Sacred Creed of Win Wednesday:***

**Each and every one of us have victories every week, be they great or small. But in Win Wednesday, *no* victory is truly a small one. Whatever ""level"" you happen to be at, progress is *always* a cause for celebration! Please don’t discount anything you have done. The whole point is to share how YOU won, and did not let your ADHD win! Check out the examples to see what we mean!**

***
##### PHENOMENAL EXAMPLES FROM PREVIOUS WEEKS:

* **Someone brand-new to /r/ADHD committed (and made) an appointment to finally get diagnosed. Sharing this with us help him get the courage to do it!**

* **Another guy went to his first ADHD group session and met another /r/ADHDer there! I haven't even met any of you yet! Awesome!**

* **Made an appointment with psychiatrist to hope to get re-medicated after 5 years!** I see these every Wednesday and seems for most of them it ends up helping a lot!

* **Went to pick up an iphone, told there was a 2 hour wait, started bitching and complaining impulsively...THEN APOLOGIZED** Great awareness and humility!

* **Finished most of the homework and starting to work really hard on work for school for first time in their life.** Wow. That is huge! Effort makes a difference!

* **Had a huge art project and didn't put it off until the last minute! Still was working on it the night before...but finished!**

* AND MANY MANY MORE AWESOME WINS...

##### We love you, /r/adhd! BE PROUD, for you are awesome! -- *your community managers.*",adhd,please upvote post visibility self le certified karma free upvotes eye visit win wednesday sacred creed every one u victory week great small truly whatever level happen progress always cause celebration discount anything done whole point share let adhd check example see mean phenomenal previous someone brand new committed made appointment finally get diagnosed sharing help courage another guy went first group session met adhder even yet awesome psychiatrist hope medicated year seems end helping lot pick iphone told hour wait started bitching complaining impulsively apologized awareness humility finished homework starting work really hard school time life wow huge effort make difference art project put last minute still working night many love proud community manager,0.27,Moderately Positive
It definitely had a positive effect but damn am I feeling exhausted. I don't know if it's worth it.,adhd,definitely positive effect damn feeling exhausted know worth,0.04,Neutral
"I've lost count of the number of well-meaning people who have told me that I need to draw up a daily todo list. I agree: when I have such a list I can usually do a pretty good job of staying on track. But my problem is: how do I get myself to regularly, every day, start it off drawing up a todo list - I just seem to sort of bump into the day and cope with it, rather than me taking control. Any hints, tips, techniques for getting to take this vital first step gratefully received! How do you boot yourselves up each day?",adhd,lost count number well meaning people told need draw daily todo list agree usually pretty good job staying track problem get regularly every day start drawing seem sort bump cope rather taking control hint tip technique getting take vital first step gratefully received boot,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Just went to see GP for a referral, got one only to find out that any treatment I receive from a diagnosis won't be covered by my B.S. insurance company. Something about them being a Christian ministry based health share means they get to decide what healthcare is legitimate in reference to their beliefs and which isn't. 

Now I'm stuck fending for myself against whatever the fuck is going on in my head. ADHD or anxiety, the world will never know...",adhd,went see gp referral got one find treatment receive diagnosis covered insurance company something christian ministry based health share mean get decide healthcare legitimate reference belief stuck fending whatever fuck going head adhd anxiety world never know,-0.24,Moderately Negative
"For the life of me, I just CANNOT seem to overcome this issue. I think the biggest problem this affects is groceries. The way my kitchen is laid out, the majority of my non-fridge foods go in a pantry. The pantry has no doors to obscure the food, but I never think to go in the stinkin' pantry. And how many bags of spinach, vegetables, defrosted meat just go bad because I never look. Sometimes I think of getting a white board to write a sort of inventory and hang it in my kitchen. But 1) never remember to put the white board on my shopping list 2) I know damn well that I really would not stick with it.

I live alone, so it's up to me to remember things like this. I'll forget that I need shower gel because the second I'm out of the shower, *poof* it's out of my brain and doesn't even make it to the shopping list.

I try to set up my place so that most of the super important things are out and visible, but it's not like I can staple EVERYTHING to my face so I don't forget.

I have to get back into therapy to discuss skills/techniques and eventually a med change. But for now, unless I'm staring directly at something, it's like it never even existed in the first place.

I'm sure several people here can relate.",adhd,life cannot seem overcome issue think biggest problem affect grocery way kitchen laid majority non fridge food go pantry door obscure never stinkin many bag spinach vegetable defrosted meat bad look sometimes getting white board write sort inventory hang remember put shopping list know damn well really would stick live alone thing like forget need shower gel second poof brain even make try set place super important visible staple everything face get back therapy discus skill technique eventually med change unless staring directly something existed first sure several people relate,0.13,Moderately Positive
"I'm going to bring it up to my doctor of course, but it seems like my job gets all of the organized version of myself when I take my vyvanse before I go. I get a lot done, but when I'm home I'm starting to crash a little and don't feel much like taking on any big projects. I don't expect any replies, I just felt I needed to say that.  Thanks ",adhd,going bring doctor course seems like job get organized version take vyvanse go lot done home starting crash little feel much taking big project expect reply felt needed say thanks,0.04,Neutral
"I'm not surprised that I was diagnosed with ADHD about a year ago at age 28. I've always felt different, and like there was something holding me back. I've always been socially awkward, messy, unorganized. I've never been able to sit still. I constantly fidget and think best when I am doodling. I'm impetuous. I don't think before I act and I make decisions based on emotion rather than logic. I have trouble keeping friends over long periods of time, though I am great at having ""moments of friendship"" that are beautiful and intense and fun even if when one of us moves, we don't keep in touch. 


But I've always been able to push through, get good grades in school, get recognized at work... until now. 

I started a job about a year and a few months ago. I felt qualified for it. But it is a nightmare. I cannot keep organized. I cannot keep all this documentation that they want me to do. I am constantly in ""triage"" mode: staving off the next disaster, and getting things done at the last minute. It's always worked fine for me before, I guess because of the nature of my previous positions. I think it's dragging down the team now. 

There is so little structure, but I can't balance either asking for help/permission/support with everything or just doing it all on my own and, I guess, not communicating what I'm doing. 

I take 10 mg adderall in the mornings, usually with 1-2 cups of coffee (yes, doc knows, she said with a low dose of adderall it should be fine). I hate being on it, but I can tell a difference when I am on it or not. It helps, but it doesn't solve my problems for me. 

Unfortunately, I can't get a job in my dream field without a MA. I can't get a MA while my husband is in school because it would literally drain our meager savings and put us in debt in our early 30s. It seems irresponsible to do that at this point. I'm tied down to where I am living now for the next 4-5 years because he's in school and isn't comfortable moving. 

I'm just wondering: when you have a job with so many moving parts, how do you keep them together? I'm supervising 6 part-time people whose education ranges from high school to having a PhD, working in 3 distinct communities, and last year literally met with over 250 people for networking purposes in the course of my job. I have dealt with stressful work environments and jobs before, but this is so hard for me to grasp... 

How do you deal with personality issues (communication, I think, in this situation) that are ADHD related that impact your work?  

How do you deal with feeling and believing that your job is over your head, you can't do it, and the guilt that comes with knowing that in this crazy economy, there are probably dozens of people who would LOVE this job who could do it better... but not leaving because there's nothing I've found that would work for me right now? 

I have a therapist, but she hasn't really helped lately. I also have tried lamictal and wellbutrin in the last 8 months to help with things but had horrible side effects with both and can't really handle them. ",adhd,surprised diagnosed adhd year ago age always felt different like something holding back socially awkward messy unorganized never able sit still constantly fidget think best doodling impetuous act make decision based emotion rather logic trouble keeping friend long period time though great moment friendship beautiful intense fun even one u move keep touch push get good grade school recognized work started job month qualified nightmare cannot organized documentation want triage mode staving next disaster getting thing done last minute worked fine guess nature previous position dragging team little structure balance either asking help permission support everything communicating take mg adderall morning usually cup coffee yes doc know said low dose hate tell difference solve problem unfortunately dream field without husband would literally drain meager saving put debt early seems irresponsible point tied living comfortable moving wondering many part together supervising people whose education range high phd working distinct community met networking purpose course dealt stressful environment hard grasp deal personality issue communication situation related impact feeling believing head guilt come knowing crazy economy probably dozen love could better leaving nothing found right therapist really helped lately also tried lamictal wellbutrin horrible side effect handle,0.03,Neutral
"Just got out of an appointment with a psychiatrist that I had been waiting for for months. It was... frustrating. 


I've been struggling with attention issues my whole life, but it has become more and more difficult over time. Reading this subreddit was eye opening. A doctor had suggested ADHD as a diagnosis in elementary school, but my mother rejected it because she didn't want me to take drugs. I'm female and ADHD often gets worse in life in women, so it's not too surprising to me that it's gotten worse over the years.


I'm 30 now and got fired from two jobs this year because I'm too disorganized, can't complete projects, can't prioritize or follow up. An IQ test last year said that I have high intelligence, I just can't pay attention. It feels like my life is like sand running through my fingers because my brain isn't cooperating. 


This doctor, like all other doctors so far, didn't believe me that it could be an attention deficit disorder. She asked me if I feel bad sometimes. Of course I feel bad after losing job after job. Of course I get anxious every time I'm failing again, and letting people down. I want to do things, and I can't get anything done. 


She doesn't want to give me anything with ""street value"". Maybe she thinks I want to sell drugs?! 
She offered to prescribe me with an antidepressant. She thinks women my age often struggle with anxiety and depression. 
All I could get is an antidepressant so that my struggles and failures feel less bad to me. 


This is so obviously false to me. I'm not feeling depressed, I have no trouble going out with friends, I love meeting new people. This isn't depression. I just can't focus or prioritize or stay organized. 


This is the third doctor in a row that wants to give me antidepressants because that's what women in their 30s get. I'm starting to lose hope that I will ever be able to have a decent productive life. 

So I got an antidepressant now, and I guess if I complain that I still feel bad about being unproductive, she'll just increase the dose. FML",adhd,got appointment psychiatrist waiting month frustrating struggling attention issue whole life become difficult time reading subreddit eye opening doctor suggested adhd diagnosis elementary school mother rejected want take drug female often get worse woman surprising gotten year fired two job disorganized complete project prioritize follow iq test last said high intelligence pay feel like sand running finger brain cooperating far believe could deficit disorder asked bad sometimes course losing anxious every failing letting people thing anything done give street value maybe think sell offered prescribe antidepressant age struggle anxiety depression failure le obviously false feeling depressed trouble going friend love meeting new focus stay organized third row starting lose hope ever able decent productive guess complain still unproductive increase dose fml,-0.01,Neutral
"I've been on Vyvanse and Adderall for a few months and am still really struggling with awareness of what I'm eating, and whether it's enough. I want to be confident that I'm getting enough nutrition so that I can weed out possible side effects/other health concerns from issues caused by malnutrition. I know that the answer to this is to use an app that logs your food. But those sorts of things are ADHD HELL for me - I'm too much of a perfectionist to be able to log food right after I eat it if I'm in a hurry or doing anything else, and I don't remember to log it if I don't do it right away. I've tried a couple times and it honestly causes me more anxiety than it's worth, and I end up deleting it to stop obsessing over it. 

Has anyone else had this problem and found a solution or another way of keeping track of nutrition that's a little more ADHD-friendly?",adhd,vyvanse adderall month still really struggling awareness eating whether enough want confident getting nutrition weed possible side effect health concern issue caused malnutrition know answer use app log food sort thing adhd hell much perfectionist able right eat hurry anything else remember away tried couple time honestly cause anxiety worth end deleting stop obsessing anyone problem found solution another way keeping track little friendly,0.25,Moderately Positive
"I haven't been medicated since childhood, and am now trying to get my doctor to acknowledge me as a patient give my an appointment or a call back and hopefully finally medicate me. I'm really curious to know what it will be like.

P.S sorry for the ramble x",adhd,medicated since childhood trying get doctor acknowledge patient give appointment call back hopefully finally medicate really curious know like sorry ramble,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"I've noticed that I can very easily understand material in school but at the same time I do not pay attention like at all in class or just BS my studying or homework. I tend to just wing exams or tests and use whatever jumbled mess of information I've somehow accumulated to pass. Hell, I'll know an answer and be like ""how the hell did I know that?"". I legit did not even open the book for my HIT coding class the entire semestar and passed with a B. This actually worries me because I'm going into the nursing program feeling like im just conning my way through. It's even more frustrating when teachers tell me how smart I am and I'm thinking it's all lying on my part. I don't want to go into this profession and get someone killed.",adhd,noticed easily understand material school time pay attention like class b studying homework tend wing exam test use whatever jumbled mess information somehow accumulated pas hell know answer legit even open book hit coding entire semestar passed actually worry going nursing program feeling im conning way frustrating teacher tell smart thinking lying part want go profession get someone killed,-0.02,Neutral
"I already searched the subreddit to see if there were posts about this. I see there are lots of suggestions for books about how to handle ADHD and are more self-care oriented, but I'm looking for books on the neuroscience behind it - what is actually going on in the brain on the chemical level of a person with ADHD. How dopamine, the pre-frontal cortex, etc, are involved. I don't mind if it's a long or difficult read; I'm studying neuroscience and find that I can somewhat easily maintain focus on books of this nature, because I am so passionate about neuroscience.

And if you feel that books like ""More Attention, Less Deficit,"" or ""Taking Charge of Adult ADHD"" (I love Russell A. Barkley) delve into the neuroscience sufficiently, let me know! Thanks.",adhd,already searched subreddit see post lot suggestion book handle adhd self care oriented looking neuroscience behind actually going brain chemical level person dopamine pre frontal cortex etc involved mind long difficult read studying find somewhat easily maintain focus nature passionate feel like attention le deficit taking charge adult love russell barkley delve sufficiently let know thanks,0.03,Neutral
"I was diagnosed with ADD when I was in first grade. I am now a freshman in college. I recently got back on my medication after a year-long break. I'm noticing that while I am studying or taking notes in class, I'll be reading the material and typing the notes, but it seems like my brain puts that stuff on auto-pilot and my thoughts are in a completely different place. I will be reading a sentence and simultaneously be thinking about something completely different. It's kind of frustrating, as most of the time it just happens, even when I am trying not to do it. It feels like my mind can't be in only one place at a time. 
Does anyone else know what I'm talking about? Any tips on keeping my mind on the task at hand?",adhd,diagnosed add first grade freshman college recently got back medication year long break noticing studying taking note class reading material typing seems like brain put stuff auto pilot thought completely different place sentence simultaneously thinking something kind frustrating time happens even trying feel mind one anyone else know talking tip keeping task hand,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I'm fairly new to the ADHD bandwagon, but with medication, not only is work affected, but so is my home life. While I thought I was a good husband, apparently I could be an even better husband if I didn't have ADD. 

My wife has been tremendously flexible, and I imagine she has developed certain habits or tendencies to deal with my full ADD brain for 15 years, but I'm curious with so much changing, is there literature I can get for her to make both of us understand how to work with ADHD and not stumble on the abundant tripwires?",adhd,fairly new adhd bandwagon medication work affected home life thought good husband apparently could even better add wife tremendously flexible imagine developed certain habit tendency deal full brain year curious much changing literature get make u understand stumble abundant tripwires,0.25,Moderately Positive
"

I'm a 35yo female and I've already been diagnosed with clinical depression, generalized panic disorder and bipolar I, however I believe the bipolar I diagnosis is incorrect since it was diagnosed only a few years ago and doesn't fit my symptoms. After doing a lot of research and talking with friends and family about my behaviors I feel that adult ADHD fits my symptoms much better. I've talked to two separate psychiatrists about it, however trying to get re diagnosed is proving to be rather difficult. Has anyone else here experienced an adult re diagnosis from bipolar to ADHD? ",adhd,yo female already diagnosed clinical depression generalized panic disorder bipolar however believe diagnosis incorrect since year ago fit symptom lot research talking friend family behavior feel adult adhd much better talked two separate psychiatrist trying get proving rather difficult anyone else experienced,0.22,Moderately Positive
It lights up aswell. I can't help but feel he is trying to tell me something..,adhd,light aswell help feel trying tell something,0.4,Moderately Positive
"I’m a police dispatcher so I have to do a LOT at once. Every file is different and has to be tackled a in it’s own unique way. I have 3 screens to watch with new information popping up all the time. I  must respond to a barrage of incoming messages and mail, draw from policy and protocols on the fly, organize tactical set up, determine appropriate resource deployments, answer the phone, read the new files coming in and triage them and while the rest of this is happening I still have to respond to every radio transmission a police officer makes and log what they say into their appropriate call.  The job is a godsend for my fragmented brain. 

Having said that, because of my ADD, my personal, financial and family life suffer, as do my relationships with my colleagues and my dependability in the workplace. I was diagnosed with ADD as a child and visiting this sub-reddit has really been enlightening and is helping me to come to terms with the stigma (I built myself) about confronting it and taking something (medication) for it.

I want to take action, to gain some control, but I’m afraid my job performance will suffer.

Is there anyone out there who takes meds and is still able to do a high functioning multi-tasking job or will I have to take one or the other?

*there was a very similar post a few months ago (from another user) didn’t get many responses so I’m trying again! ",adhd,police dispatcher lot every file different tackled unique way screen watch new information popping time must respond barrage incoming message mail draw policy protocol fly organize tactical set determine appropriate resource deployment answer phone read coming triage rest happening still radio transmission officer make log say call job godsend fragmented brain said add personal financial family life suffer relationship colleague dependability workplace diagnosed child visiting sub reddit really enlightening helping come term stigma built confronting taking something medication want take action gain control afraid performance anyone med able high functioning multi tasking one similar post month ago another user get many response trying,0.2,Moderately Positive
"**tl;dr friends always rip on me for doing things late, even though the balance is in my favour**

I usually dedicate heaps of time to getting things done, because I factor in that I'm going to get distracted heaps. So I'll spend 10 hours 'working' on homework, but a fair chunk of that is just being spaced out. Occasionally, I'm busy all weekend, or I get sick, or I just have *something else* going on and I don't get my work done as early as I'd like to, or it isn't as good as I'd like it to be. 

It's always those occasions when my friends will ask me if I've done something yet (usually to ask a question on it), and they really rip into me when I tell them I haven't started yet. I'm stereotypically over-prepared from their viewpoint so fair enough they'd make a comment, but they don't let it go. They'll harp on and on about how they're so much better than I am for **weeks** because they did something faster than I did, or because they got 1 point more than me on some assignment. I *never* make comments against them, so it just feels horribly unjustified. I work so hard 99% of the time to push through my focus problems, and then they just shit on me constantly for that 1% when I drop the ball. They still mock me for failing one test 3 years ago in the middle of a suicidal episode, which they're aware of. Any mark that's even slightly lower than usual and they'll call me a ""fucking idiot"" for weeks. I get that it's meant to be a joke, but it wears thin after the first day. 

The urge to punch them in the face when they say things like that is almost overwhelming. They'll gloat endlessly about how easy all of the work is and how they're so organised and on top of it all and better than me, but I can't ever say anything back or dish out the same kind of treatment because I know how horrible it is. I don't know if I should just tell them exactly how shitty their comments are the next time they make one, or just suck it up and keep trying to ignore it. ",adhd,tl dr friend always rip thing late even though balance favour usually dedicate heap time getting done factor going get distracted spend hour working homework fair chunk spaced occasionally busy weekend sick something else work early like good occasion ask yet question really tell started stereotypically prepared viewpoint enough make comment let go harp much better week faster got point assignment never feel horribly unjustified hard push focus problem shit constantly drop ball still mock failing one test year ago middle suicidal episode aware mark slightly lower usual call fucking idiot meant joke wear thin first day urge punch face say almost overwhelming gloat endlessly easy organised top ever anything back dish kind treatment know horrible exactly shitty next suck keep trying ignore,-0.03,Neutral
"Recently I got aware about adhd and boooooiii It feels like home here. Like every behaviour(s) I dislike(but I cant take action, e.g interruptive speaking) about myself finally makes sense.


Anyway, I went to see a psychiatrist(at my university) and we chatted for sometime about the adhd I might have.
 She told me the waiting time to get an assesment mostly takes 2 years. I had no choice but to signed up. 


She advised me to:


 * To go school's Health Service Center and look for a Psychiatrist that can do trials of medication for Adhd


* To see our Fam Phys and ask him the same things about trials of medication.
(I'll prob go to see our Fam Phys)


My question: Has anyone been in my situation? And how likely that you ended up getting diagnose with Adhd when you received the assesment?


**Thanks for reading** !",adhd,recently got aware adhd boooooiii feel like home every behaviour dislike cant take action interruptive speaking finally make sense anyway went see psychiatrist university chatted sometime might told waiting time get assesment mostly year choice signed advised go school health service center look trial medication fam phys ask thing prob question anyone situation likely ended getting diagnose received thanks reading,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I can't look people in the eyes when I talk to them. Especially if there is conflict.

When you look at a persons face look at the point between their eyes. Try it! They can't tell, to them you maintain focused eye contact the whole time. 

Thank you Everyone. 

Some many people, so much wisdom and such a willingness to share.

",adhd,look people eye talk especially conflict person face point try tell maintain focused contact whole time thank everyone many much wisdom willingness share,0.22,Moderately Positive
"So I need a new password for things, that must be reasonably strong, and one that I'll remember. Tips for choosing one /remembering it?  ",adhd,need new password thing must reasonably strong one remember tip choosing remembering,0.28,Moderately Positive
I know I might be out of place because I technically are not diagnosed but I and my mother believe I have ADHD even my school agrees but I have been pushing for 6 years and we have been knocked back and are low on money I need to vent to someone so I've started a diary. I know this story is not to drama filled or tragedy but it was to me my depression and self harm hit me hard and my journey to the light at the end of the tunnel bye!,adhd,know might place technically diagnosed mother believe adhd even school agrees pushing year knocked back low money need vent someone started diary story drama filled tragedy depression self harm hit hard journey light end tunnel bye,0.08,Moderately Positive
"So I'm 28 (guy) and I finally got myself diagnosed a few months ago. The first thing I tried was Strattera.  Doctor first gave me a one month trial pack that built me up to 80mg doses in 15 days. Since my followup was going to be a bit longer than a month, I tried spacing them out a bit, ended up being short anyways.  Since I didn't really know what it was doing for me (other than making me tired all the time), I had him give me a prescription for a month of the 80mg pills.

After a while, I realized that in addition to being tired all the time, it was getting harder for my to urinate (kept dribbling on the flap in the front of my pants).  Since I didn't really notice any benefit, I stopped taking it.  I've got 18 pills left that I don't know what to do with. The average person would tell me to just throw them away, but the prescription also cost me $230...",adhd,guy finally got diagnosed month ago first thing tried strattera doctor gave one trial pack built mg dos day since followup going bit longer spacing ended short anyways really know making tired time give prescription pill realized addition getting harder urinate kept dribbling flap front pant notice benefit stopped taking left average person would tell throw away also cost,-0.02,Neutral
"This is a common phrase I have heard from my teachers and parents my entire life. I couldn't understand why I just couldn't live up to my potential and complete assignments on time and be engaged in class. Now that I found out I have adhd it makes so much more sense. I always wondered how I would do decently well on standardized tests, impress teachers by getting difficult problems correct but make so many small mistakes and miss out on easy points and feel like the basics (diet, sleep, and being on time) felt like it was a battle. Have you guys experienced the same?",adhd,common phrase heard teacher parent entire life understand live potential complete assignment time engaged class found adhd make much sense always wondered would decently well standardized test impress getting difficult problem correct many small mistake miss easy point feel like basic diet sleep felt battle guy experienced,0.1,Moderately Positive
"I can never broach any serious subject matter with my ADHD SO. Depending on the subject matter - even if I start with “I feel..” but continue it with something that feels like a criticism of himself, he gets immediately and irrationally defensive. I have read that ADHDers may have low self esteem or feel already critical of themselves, and have difficulty managing emotions or separating emotions from physical feelings. But I just feel like I have no way of ever talking to him about my feelings ever. It can only be happy and saccharine - if it’s seems serious in nature, forget it. 

What is your perspective/feeling in an argument? So that I can better understand how to approach him. I feel like I’ll never get what I’m looking for ..",adhd,never broach serious subject matter adhd depending even start feel continue something like criticism get immediately irrationally defensive read adhders may low self esteem already critical difficulty managing emotion separating physical feeling way ever talking happy saccharine seems nature forget perspective argument better understand approach looking,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Hi reddit! I know it says no medical advice and thats not what I'm looking for just looking for your anecdotal experiences or links to any good articles on the subject. After about 20 minutes of searching I didnt find anything useful. 

I went to see a therapist a few months ago and he confirmed my suspicion that I have been living with a mild to moderate case of ADHD. My parents didn't want to take me to the Dr for this as a child even though I had almost all the symptoms because they were very afraid of the medication that would be offered. Now that I'm 27 I took it upon myself to have this resolved as my career advances and becomes more and more challenging.

After all that my Dr. agreed to prescribe me with 5mg of Methylphenidate. I'm not taking it daily just on the more challenging days because I am also cautious of long term medication use. I find the effects to be very helpful in my day to day. More focus, motivation, energy and I'm much less forgetful. The only complaint I really have is how inconsistent it seems to be. One day I take it and its super effective and other times it seems to not do much of anything at all. 

My Dr. was very hesitant to suggest Adderall and Vyvanse because of the more addictive and stimulating qualities. I am curious about the differences in the effects between the medications and if I should consider trying to pressure a trial of one of the other alternatives or stick with what I have. ",adhd,hi reddit know say medical advice thats looking anecdotal experience link good article subject minute searching didnt find anything useful went see therapist month ago confirmed suspicion living mild moderate case adhd parent want take dr child even though almost symptom afraid medication would offered took upon resolved career advance becomes challenging agreed prescribe mg methylphenidate taking daily day also cautious long term use effect helpful focus motivation energy much le forgetful complaint really inconsistent seems one super effective time hesitant suggest adderall vyvanse addictive stimulating quality curious difference consider trying pressure trial alternative stick,0.11,Moderately Positive
"The user has ADHD and just lays it on the line, very refreshing. Check it out in the comment section.

https://www.reddit.com/r/philosophy/comments/6x75z7/adhd_diagnosis_based_on_illogical_rhetoric/?ref=share&ref_source=link",adhd,user adhd lay line refreshing check comment section,0.5,Positive
...and of course basically nobody but this sub will ever know.,adhd,course basically nobody sub ever know,0.0,Neutral
"I really don't want to make this long, as I am very good at doing that.

Nothing is working. Nothing has worked since my diagnosis. I have been to so many health professionals. Some referred me during our first session to other people because they couldn't help. Have tried the first-line ADHD med treatments - no difference.

Since the diagnosis and the non-success, I was told by some t hat I had things like ranging from: mood disorders, depression, anxiety, etc.

I never noticed ANY of these in my life nor has my life ever been THAT bad - why do I suddenly have it just because my problems are more challenging now?

I give these health professionals the benefit of the doubt as I'm sure they are inclined to help. But just recently, after no success and my continuing difficulties and falling behind with my workload at college/uni, I've been told to sample on a med for my anxiety (although it's generally an anti-depressant).

Now this is a doctor who sometimes I feel yes may understand my situation, but doesn't really ask more about what I'm dealing with, etc. How can you understand my situation to know these things will help in a 15-20 minute consultation? Am I underestimating they know me more than myself, or are my judgements valid here? I tell them of all the things I'm currently doing including counselling/psychology, etc, and what I've been told by them and the doctor listens, but he doesn't inquire further most times. I know he's not a therapist, but... surely more inquiries is better?! No?!

Yes, fine, I agree there may be some anxiety, but if it wasn't as bad before where I didn't need meds, why should I take them now? There seems to be lots of side-effects, and these anti-depressants can arguably change your brain structure long-term.

I want to just continue with non-pharmalogical interventions such as trying to get back in my old ways where I did exercise, and more generally, getting more sleep, getting more sun, going outside my comfort zone (cold showers?!), socialise more, etc. And perhaps incorporate in some counselling / therapy / CBT.

But surely I can do this on my own without these meds?

What do you think? Anyone can share their experience if they've been through the same thing?

Sometimes I feel as though the people who I've lost around me, everyone's moving along with their lives and has such a balance in their life, whereas I still feel really behind... the ADHD makes everything so much worse and one step forward is two steps back. Even if the anxiety is there, can someone please tell me that it DOES get better having ADHD? Can you eventually go back to being 'close' to normal and/or have a balance in life?

I've been told that despite all these issues I have, I am a high functioning person, but I just think ... who cares? That doesn't mean anything to me if there is no balance in my life between the domains (work / social / school / personal / hobbies). I feel I've lost out and missed out on so much already prior to my diagnosis. Since the diagnosis, it hasn't gotten any better. I feel like I've been let down and ""fucked around by health professionals"" [sic] (quote from a psychologist I'm now recently seeing).

* -> sometimes when I'm around friends and/or the occasional social outings - I always appear to others as happier, and I think some people think I have it all together, when I clearly don't. The people I've known for several years, who I've hinted to at my struggles this year since my diagnosis, don't appear to take my struggles at college/uni seriously or believe it - so they don't help (i.e. asked for tips/notes for my college subjects) as they know I've done fairly well in the past.

* -> so in a way, being high functioning appears to actually have been disadvantageous for me.

* -> I was told by a few good friends that I always had a smile on even during the worst of times not that long ago prior to my diagnosis, but recently, when things were bad & so I went to see a random doctor at the college, he said I see lots of patients everyday and I know when someone looks out of the ordinary. He said I **didn't look good, pale, looked like I was being held as a hostage with a gun to my head and surprised I haven't fainted yet**. That's when it greatly concerned me, because I was afraid other people around me had perceived me like that too and hence made me look unapproachable. But he **did mention it most likely be caused because of the lack of sleep (I had 3 hours that day**), but he wasn't sure if it was something else like a mood disorder, or some other disease. It's funny, I never had issues with being so tolerable of sacrificing sleep because of college studying but everything is just taking much longer now and there's so many deadlines...

* -> **I was glad he told me though in terms of how he saw me, because no-one else did**

* -> **I was given sleep meds. Didn't take it. Went to my doc who prescribes my ADHD meds, he said I should. So I did. It didn't work (doesn't make me sleepy). I was surprised but also unsurprised, as **my tolerance is fairly high (so far dex hasn't worked [up to 60mg], few days ritalin didn't work, vyvanse for a few weeks [up to 50mg; didn't want 70mg as dex doesnt work and 50mg vyvanse doesn't work, so why would I try 70mg - Vyvanse is expensive here!] didn't work, coffee doesn't work, need lots of alcohol to even start to feel tipsy, etc)**

Looks like I lied to myself and made this longer than I expected - this always happens lol.


**I know you hear of only the bad things online (response bias), but even prior to my diagnosis, and now, I've read some peoples experience of how once they started with these longer-term meds, and all this trial and error, sometimes it makes them go down a path full of meds and dependence and addiction and withdrawal symptoms are so challenging that people relapse. I don't want this to be me. This is not me. Surely there are other ways?**

I may not have an addictive personality and can easily put things off. i.e. I've drank heaps, socially smoked a lot, done the usual experimental chill/party drugs, but don't become addicted to any of them. Still, these ones given for mental illnesses seem more serious and I know it's a trial and error thing, but, it seems like a dangerous path to go down in that I don't feel is necessary or warranted yet.

I know I'm also fairly young (21) and have a whole life ahead of me, but
1) I don't want things to get worse, or spend the next 30 years on these depression/anxiety meds
2) Afraid of re-experiencing the shitty things that have happened as a result of the ADHD (i.e. loss of relationships due to poor time-management and organistion which makes you look like a selfish, self-centered person but that you want to spend more time with people but you're always so busy and / or late to things)

Thoughts?

**tl;dr: nothing has worked so far. Got told recently to try (alongside the ADHD meds) some depression/anxiety meds (for the purpose of treating the anxiety) but hesitant to as it seems like a scary road to go down, esp since many 'drugs' work differently on me (my high tolerance of medication/drugs in general doesn't help either). Surely there are lifestyle changes and/or non-pharmalogical approaches (CBT, etc) that I can force myself to get back into that can help instead?**",adhd,really want make long good nothing working worked since diagnosis many health professional referred first session people help tried line adhd med treatment difference non success told hat thing like ranging mood disorder depression anxiety etc never noticed life ever bad suddenly problem challenging give benefit doubt sure inclined recently continuing difficulty falling behind workload college uni sample although generally anti depressant doctor sometimes feel yes may understand situation ask dealing know minute consultation underestimating judgement valid tell currently including counselling psychology listens inquire time therapist surely inquiry better fine agree need take seems lot side effect arguably change brain structure term continue pharmalogical intervention trying get back old way exercise getting sleep sun going outside comfort zone cold shower socialise perhaps incorporate therapy cbt without think anyone share experience though lost around everyone moving along balance whereas still everything much worse one step forward two even someone please eventually go close normal despite issue high functioning person care mean anything domain work social school personal hobby missed already prior gotten let fucked sic quote psychologist seeing friend occasional outing always appear others happier together clearly known several year hinted struggle seriously believe asked tip note subject done fairly well past appears actually disadvantageous smile worst ago went see random said patient everyday look ordinary pale looked held hostage gun head surprised fainted yet greatly concerned afraid perceived hence made unapproachable mention likely caused lack hour day something else disease funny tolerable sacrificing studying taking longer deadline glad saw given doc prescribes sleepy also unsurprised tolerance far dex mg ritalin vyvanse week doesnt would try expensive coffee alcohol start tipsy lied expected happens lol hear online response bias read started trial error path full dependence addiction withdrawal symptom relapse addictive personality easily put drank heap socially smoked usual experimental chill party drug become addicted mental illness seem serious dangerous necessary warranted young whole ahead spend next experiencing shitty happened result loss relationship due poor management organistion selfish self centered busy late thought tl dr got alongside purpose treating hesitant scary road esp differently medication general either lifestyle approach force instead,-0.01,Neutral
"I searched r/adhd and found a lot of good ideas, ie. Ensure protein shakes, but I want to know what everyone else does for breakfast. I've heard a lot of different things; ""eat a huge breakfast,"" ""don't eat a huge breakfast,"" ""pile on the protein,"" blah blah blah. I've been trying to eat larger breakfasts before I take my meds, but I get really bloated and end up with an upset stomach. I have no idea if the upset stomach is from the larger breakfast or if it's a side affects of the Adderall (XR 20mg, fyi). So, reADHDitors, what do you eat for breakfast?",adhd,searched adhd found lot good idea ie ensure protein shake want know everyone else breakfast heard different thing eat huge pile blah trying larger take med get really bloated end upset stomach side affect adderall xr mg fyi readhditors,0.26,Moderately Positive
"PLEASE TRY TO READ IN ENTIRETY

Hi, so I figured out I have pretty severe ADHD-PI a few years ago and a lot improved when I began medication.

Two issues that it did not help, were having songs, movie clips, tv clips, past conversations, potential conversations etc. playing on repeat in my head, All. Fucking. Day.

The other issue was that of having difficulty initiating voluntary action or movement. Not just forcing myself to do shit i didn't want to but doing stuff that was not the least bit unpleasant like getting up to go to the bathroom.

The only way I can describe it is picture yourself playing a game console, with a standard controller, and you push the joystick forward to move your character and he just doesn't move no matter how many buttons you press, or reasons why you want to move the character forward it just doesn't happen.

So I started to suspect that these two things had nothing to do with my adhd. My question is as follows: Do the above anecdotes have any relation to issues that people on the autism spectrum deal with? More specifically is it possible that all the internal noise on loop is a form of internalized echolalia? Am i on the right track? Please respond, i'm desperate for answers.",adhd,please try read entirety hi figured pretty severe adhd pi year ago lot improved began medication two issue help song movie clip tv past conversation potential etc playing repeat head fucking day difficulty initiating voluntary action movement forcing shit want stuff least bit unpleasant like getting go bathroom way describe picture game console standard controller push joystick forward move character matter many button press reason happen started suspect thing nothing question follows anecdote relation people autism spectrum deal specifically possible internal noise loop form internalized echolalia right track respond desperate answer,-0.12,Moderately Negative
I have an appointment with a psych scheduled for an hour. I told her about my struggling with ADHD-esq symptoms and my strong family history of it. She said that she should be able to come up with a diagnosis within an hour of chatting with me--does this seem accurate or is she just trying to get my money,adhd,appointment psych scheduled hour told struggling adhd esq symptom strong family history said able come diagnosis within chatting seem accurate trying get money,0.44,Moderately Positive
"We, as in those with ADHD. It's just weird cuz I notice that way more in this subreddit than in any others.",adhd,adhd weird cuz notice way subreddit others,-0.5,Negative
"I can't seem to do anything lately. It's like everything is a huge deal and I'm so afraid of running out of time that I just don't do anything. It's even worse because I don't feel like my I actually know how long any particular task might take. And since I've already procrastinated I'm more unlikely to have enough time to get anything done. It's like batting cages with the balls comong too fast. But it's just laundry! But since I put it off it's either no clothes but get homework done, or don't do homework & have nothing to wear to class. So instead of choosing I came here because its just overwhelming. Jesus. I'm a graduate student, this should be cake! Sorry for the rant, but wanted to know what y'all do. ",adhd,seem anything lately like everything huge deal afraid running time even worse feel actually know long particular task might take since already procrastinated unlikely enough get done batting cage ball comong fast laundry put either clothes homework nothing wear class instead choosing came overwhelming jesus graduate student cake sorry rant wanted,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"The post yesterday, the one about the ADHD coach thing. Standing while working is so much easier. Like... damn.

>If you have chores to do when you get home don't sit down. Once you sit down it is game over.
 
and

>Consider a standing desk. It's much easier for someone with ADHD to concentrate while standing rather than sitting.

You know what I'm doing right now? I just cleaned off my counter and am doing math homework. 

These two things never happen.  Ever.

I don't understand why this witchcraft is working, but it is! As a plus I feel all nice and tall! 

Anyway back to work.",adhd,post yesterday one adhd coach thing standing working much easier like damn chore get home sit game consider desk someone concentrate rather sitting know right cleaned counter math homework two never happen ever understand witchcraft plus feel nice tall anyway back work,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Hey peeps, first post on Reddit (after becoming addicted a few weeks ago)!

Has anyone ever heard of Retained Primitive Reflexes? And more importantly, has anyone here any experiences with them?

I've just gotten complete brain block, so I'll see where this goes and engage in any possible discussion!

I'll add quickly, that in the short time I done a few of the related exercises that my concentration in class improved a lot, I eventually gave up after getting slightly sickly for a few weeks.

/I'll add again, that I'm a lad with ADHD PI!",adhd,hey peep first post reddit becoming addicted week ago anyone ever heard retained primitive reflex importantly experience gotten complete brain block see go engage possible discussion add quickly short time done related exercise concentration class improved lot eventually gave getting slightly sickly lad adhd pi,0.01,Neutral
"Hello all. According to my psychological profile, I'm a 22 year, 5 month old caucasian male. Whatever that means.
After a couple of months of tests, referals, and mostly waiting, i have been diagnosed with the combination subtype of ADHD. I was prescribed 40mg Vyvanse daily for the next month.
I have finished more projects today than I ever have in one day, and I feel euphoric. I feel less restless than I ever have. Most of all, I feel like I can navigate interpersonal relationships better.
To keep it short (since you all have ADHD :P), I can only define how i feel as awake for the first time. I look forward to contributing to this subreddit, but most of all i look forward to a long career of lurking :)
-ManiacalMania (I suppose MellowMelody would be more appropriate now)",adhd,hello according psychological profile year month old caucasian male whatever mean couple test referals mostly waiting diagnosed combination subtype adhd prescribed mg vyvanse daily next finished project today ever one day feel euphoric le restless like navigate interpersonal relationship better keep short since define awake first time look forward contributing subreddit long career lurking maniacalmania suppose mellowmelody would appropriate,0.12,Moderately Positive
"So, I started Vyvanse in late July, 50 mg. I was a bit skeptical t first, I'm a big guy, and I had smaller friends on 50, but I figured the guy with the MD knew his shit. It worked really well at first, but as school started, it's started to taper down. Let's say pre-medication I was a 3. Starting Vyvanse up me up to about a 7 or 8, and now I've leveled out to about a 5. I know overall it's helping, but when I really NEED to study, it isn't really there. 

Anyone else gone through this before? Any advice? Should I talk to my doc and try to get 70, and then not take it every day? Should I take 2 50s when I need to really study hard?

TL;DR Study Drive not where it needs to be after time on Vyvanse, what do?

Thanks, guys.",adhd,started vyvanse late july mg bit skeptical first big guy smaller friend figured md knew shit worked really well school taper let say pre medication starting leveled know overall helping need study anyone else gone advice talk doc try get take every day hard tl dr drive time thanks,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Good morning. I got diagnosed with ADHD at the beginning of January and managed to clean up the mess I made earlier in the semester grades wise, but I’m having bad anxiety about the new semester that starts tomorrow. Does anyone have any suggestions about how to keep up with school work and activities without feeling like you’re drowning in planning?",adhd,good morning got diagnosed adhd beginning january managed clean mess made earlier semester grade wise bad anxiety new start tomorrow anyone suggestion keep school work activity without feeling like drowning planning,0.15,Moderately Positive
I am a 19 year old average sized male who just got put on 18mg today. It has been several hours and I have felt no different. Would it be ok if I took two tomorrow morning>,adhd,year old average sized male got put mg today several hour felt different would ok took two tomorrow morning,0.08,Moderately Positive
"The other day we had a department meeting where we had to work on our inquiry projects together. This is a rare thing as I always do my work alone in my classroom. I really don't like working with others around but tried to get on with it. 

I was typing away as I normally do when one of my colleagues asked if I could please stop pounding at the keyboard. It was only then that I noticed how softly everyone else types. I tried to type more softly but without really consciously thinking about it I immediately revert.  

I'm not a touch typer, I use two fingers for the most part, but I am pretty fast, with my fingers only just able to keep up with my thoughts. Being called out for my furious typing made me aware of it and I now wonder if this is a common thing among ADHD people since we tend to do everything fast and impatiently.  

Now I've got one more reason to avoid working nearby other teachers. I already avoided it because I generally can't stop trying to talk to people and because they are able to chat and work at the same time whereas I get nothing done because every time they talk I lose my train of thought.  

TL;DR: I'm a furious typer, I pound at the keys as fast as I can go and it makes a lot of noise which annoys my colleagues. Wondering if this typing style is common among ADHDers or just a quirk I've picked up. ",adhd,day department meeting work inquiry project together rare thing always alone classroom really like working others around tried get typing away normally one colleague asked could please stop pounding keyboard noticed softly everyone else type without consciously thinking immediately revert touch typer use two finger part pretty fast able keep thought called furious made aware wonder common among adhd people since tend everything impatiently got reason avoid nearby teacher already avoided generally trying talk chat time whereas nothing done every lose train tl dr pound key go make lot noise annoys wondering style adhders quirk picked,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Picking the face unti there are sores. 
Pulling hair to bald.
Angry over nothing.
Childish.
Aggressive. 
Compulsive. 
Overeating.
Always tired.
Never sleeping.
Confused. 
Obese.
Awkward. 
Not funny.

Not self depreciating, just honest.

Where do you go for help? 

I'm destroying my body and reputation.

I know it's happening but I space out and go unthinking.

Empty, agitated, living torture.
",adhd,picking face unti sore pulling hair bald angry nothing childish aggressive compulsive overeating always tired never sleeping confused obese awkward funny self depreciating honest go help destroying body reputation know happening space unthinking empty agitated living torture,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"For example, I'm inattentive and I find it hard to listen during conversation. I've learned to actively listen to people, and I have to use that skill for 8 hours a day in my customer service job which becomes taxing at times. After and during work (when I'm not with a customer), I find myself spacing out a lot. I especially space out when I'm tired out from all my efforts to actively listen to people all day. It feels like some sort of coping mechanism. Does anyone else feel that way? 

**TL;DR: Is spacing out a coping mechanism from overexertion/listening for too long?",adhd,example inattentive find hard listen conversation learned actively people use skill hour day customer service job becomes taxing time work spacing lot especially space tired effort feel like sort coping mechanism anyone else way tl dr overexertion listening long,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Guess my ADHD won :/ - Luckily the paper was only worth 20 points (the semester grade is a total of 1000 and I currently have an A), but it still kills me because I worked really hard on the essay and now it's 2 hours passed due because I forgot to submit it to our online eCampus even though it was done hours before the deadline. 

I already emailed the professor with it attached explaining that I forgot. His syllabus says that he doesn't accept late work, but in my email I told him that I understood that and that I wanted to email him to let him know that I didn't just blow off the assignment since I worked hard on it. 

So now I'm just sitting here hating myself for forgetting to click a button :(

tl;dr - I forgot to turn in a paper and now I'm sitting here feeling sad",adhd,guess adhd luckily paper worth point semester grade total currently still kill worked really hard essay hour passed due forgot submit online ecampus even though done deadline already emailed professor attached explaining syllabus say accept late work email told understood wanted let know blow assignment since sitting hating forgetting click button tl dr turn feeling sad,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"So I have ADHD and for a few years I was taking anti-depressants; I told my psychiatrist that they didn't really feel like they were helping so I slowly went off of them. I told him that I felt exactly the same off of them (that is, usually feeling miserable or neutral)

He said that i probably don't have MDD like I thought I did if the AD felt like they did nothing for me. Is there anything with ADHD that gives depression symptoms? If so is there anything I can do to get rid of it?

I take adderall for my ADHD and it does help a bit with my mood, I think.  But I'm still tired all the time and can sleep all day (and still feel like I hadnt slept at all) and generally hate myself and feel like I'm a piece of garbage.

I'm pretty tired of it tbh and i was hoping if somebody else with ADHD had similar symptoms and knew how to deal with it.",adhd,adhd year taking anti depressant told psychiatrist really feel like helping slowly went felt exactly usually feeling miserable neutral said probably mdd thought ad nothing anything give depression symptom get rid take adderall help bit mood think still tired time sleep day hadnt slept generally hate piece garbage pretty tbh hoping somebody else similar knew deal,-0.29,Moderately Negative
"I've been off of ADHD medicine for about ten years with minimal issues. But now I'm curious if my worsening anxiety is from not being on ADHD meds, or if it is something separate. Has anyone here had anxiety with ADHD itself being the cause? (I've got a doctors appointment in about a week and a half to see what my options are, I'm just coming here to see what others experiences are).",adhd,adhd medicine ten year minimal issue curious worsening anxiety med something separate anyone cause got doctor appointment week half see option coming others experience,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"Boredom is my niggest adhd related issue and school is 6 hours of horrific boredom. I am usually motivated but i dont care anymore, i know i can achieve something when im doing what i like but i cant deal woth this bullshit inbetween. I just want to skip school and drink/smoke.",adhd,boredom niggest adhd related issue school hour horrific usually motivated dont care anymore know achieve something im like cant deal woth bullshit inbetween want skip drink smoke,-0.42,Moderately Negative
"Hi, I'm a 19 year old male from Portland Oregon. I was born 3 months premature and I only weighed 1lb 3 ounces when I was born. I've always had trouble with math and everything, and my mom took me to get tests done when I was about 13, and she's always told me I've had poor executive functioning.

As I'm getting to adulthood, I'm realizing how hard things are. My girlfriend gets mad sometimes because I constantly forget what she just said, or don't think before I do stuff. I thought this was normal. I thought misplacing my phone every half an hour was normal. I thought not being able to think of what to say in an argument was normal. I thought I was just bad at math. 

I feel like if it's this bad now, then I really can't do anything in life. I'm not going to be able to pass my college classes because of my shitty procrastination and organization and inability to retain information or pay attention. 

I really need some support. Someone to talk to.

I was just doing a health assignment for my class (at the last minute of course) and I realized that I often forget stuff, and have trouble reading things and retaining all of the information. So I looked up ""poor executive functioning"" and was reading everything. I have every single symptom on [this](https://manhattanpsychologygroup.com/executive-functioning-problems-adults) and [this] (https://www.additudemag.com/executive-function-disorder-in-adults-symptoms/) article.

I don't know if I have ADHD, I tend to fidget and move quite a lot. Every time I wait for a bus I have to walk around in circles or pace, I pace on the phone too. I see people standing completely still and have no idea how they do it. I also have restless leg syndrome. I've never really had a problem interrupting people or not waiting for my turn or anything though. I'm a pretty shy person.

Anyways, I've been crying and been anxious for the past 4 hours. Just want some support. My girlfriend is asleep.",adhd,hi year old male portland oregon born month premature weighed lb ounce always trouble math everything mom took get test done told poor executive functioning getting adulthood realizing hard thing girlfriend mad sometimes constantly forget said think stuff thought normal misplacing phone every half hour able say argument bad feel like really anything life going pas college class shitty procrastination organization inability retain information pay attention need support someone talk health assignment last minute course realized often reading retaining looked single symptom article know adhd tend fidget move quite lot time wait bus walk around circle pace see people standing completely still idea also restless leg syndrome never problem interrupting waiting turn though pretty shy person anyways cry anxious past want asleep,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"My gf has been diagnosed with ADHD a couple of months ago. It seems to me she has Rejection Sensitivity as well, like many ADHD’s. 

She will overreact to anything that looks like criticism/judgement, especially when it’s from people that are “important” to her. 

Anyway, she used to love being with my family. Until she didn’t anymore. Misunderstandings happened, criticism happened, and then boom… I didn’t know anything about ADHD before, nor did she. 

Now, in her head, it’s as if my family is constantly offending her, or making she and her family inferior somehow. 

My family, specially my mom, can be very critical. It’s fucked up but it’s also manageable. The whole year I’ve reflected about how my family can be. And stood by my gf and helped her get some space, to get some healing. 

But now when she’s with my family, it’s kinda like she’s traumatized, with the past always replaying in her head. Even though nothing actually, seriously traumatizing happened.

And then she’ll find offense when there’s none. The other day my mother made her a compliment. Later she told me she thought it was offensive. 

But it was just an ordinary comment, a freaking compliment. It’s hard to stand by her side when she’s actually making stuff up, imagining threats that aren’t even real against my family. Do you know what I mean? It’s like literally anything can be turned into offense. 

I told her that a few days ago. She said she’s sorry and that she’s trying. 

I remember what it was like when we would all just have fun and enjoy every moment normally. Now my family doesn’t quite understand what happened to that person that used to be. And I’m devastated because, in one year, our relationship went from being basically perfect to one full of touchy subjects, touchy situations, anxiety and anxiety pills. 

She’s going to therapy (already was before all of this). And changed her psychiatrist. She’s not taking medication for ADHD yet, he started with sertraline about a month and a half ago (was taking a low dose of another SSRI before). 

Anyway, I just wanted to vent. I wish the universe would just give me a break. Sorry for the long post, wasn’t able to make it short. If you’ve got anything positive to say, any tips, I’d really appreciate… thanks for the attention too. 

 ",adhd,gf diagnosed adhd couple month ago seems rejection sensitivity well like many overreact anything look criticism judgement especially people important anyway used love family anymore misunderstanding happened boom know head constantly offending making inferior somehow specially mom critical fucked also manageable whole year reflected stood helped get space healing kinda traumatized past always replaying even though nothing actually seriously traumatizing find offense none day mother made compliment later told thought offensive ordinary comment freaking hard stand side stuff imagining threat real mean literally turned said sorry trying remember would fun enjoy every moment normally quite understand person devastated one relationship went basically perfect full touchy subject situation anxiety pill going therapy already changed psychiatrist taking medication yet started sertraline half low dose another ssri wanted vent wish universe give break long post able make short got positive say tip really appreciate thanks attention,0.07,Moderately Positive
"My PDOC decided to switch me from Vyvanse to Strattera, and I said ""fine"". I've been on it for 3 days, today being the 4th day. I was given a sample pack that starts at 25mg and moves up every 5 days until it reaches 80mg. 

I was wondering if this side effect is normal, and whether it has happened to anyone else or not? I'm getting absolutely no beneficial effects yet, but that's probably because I've only been on Strattera for 3 days. I've also been sleeping 12 hours per day for school now(Strattera makes me extremely tired 1 hours after I take it), but I always wake up and feel like I've only gotten 4 hours of sleep. 

WHEN WILL THIS GO AWAY!?",adhd,pdoc decided switch vyvanse strattera said fine day today th given sample pack start mg move every reach wondering side effect normal whether happened anyone else getting absolutely beneficial yet probably also sleeping hour per school make extremely tired take always wake feel like gotten sleep go away,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Missed my first appointment due to thinking it was on a Friday rather than on a Wednesday. Called Thursday to confirm. Doc called back to say I missed it by a day but he had the wrong number so he couldn't get a hold of me. I apologized profusely. Rescheduled. 


Called today to confirm tomorrow's appointment. Doc called back; ""appointment was yesterday at 3:15pm"". This time I am pissed off. I had Google calendared this and read it back to him THREE times AS I DID IT. I had reminders emailed daily and set for hourly for tomorrow. The doc did not try to reach out to confirm at any point over the week or get a hold of me regarding a missed appt even though he now had my number. 

When I call his office I get vm, always, he then calls me back - no assistant. 

**edit: after writing/reading that last sentence I just realized that he had my number from the very beginning, otherwise he wouldn't have been able to call and set up the first appointment. Urrrg!**

Each time he suggested an appt date and time it sounded like he was guessing. Also during the second scheduling he was a bit condescending about me remembering the appointment time since I missed the first. It's funny because I have a really good memory when I can filter the crap and access it. And this anger is crystallizing my memory and now I can recall with clarity our entire conversation. How much more clear can I be than repeating the day and time and saying ""Valentine's Day?"" to make sure I have it right.

Well I've wasted two weeks on this guy and have put in a call to another Doctor. Hopefully he calls back. And this time I will request an email confirmation or will be moving on. 

Thanks for letting me vent Readhdit! 

edit again: Still pissed off! But this is excellent motivation - I called two more doctors for appointments since posting my rant. Left msgs for both. With this many lines in the water I should see some progress!",adhd,missed first appointment due thinking friday rather wednesday called thursday confirm doc back say day wrong number get hold apologized profusely rescheduled today tomorrow yesterday pm time pissed google calendared read three reminder emailed daily set hourly try reach point week regarding appt even though call office vm always assistant edit writing reading last sentence realized beginning otherwise able urrrg suggested date sounded like guessing also second scheduling bit condescending remembering since funny really good memory filter crap access anger crystallizing recall clarity entire conversation much clear repeating saying valentine make sure right well wasted two guy put another doctor hopefully request email confirmation moving thanks letting vent readhdit still excellent motivation posting rant left msg many line water see progress,0.09,Moderately Positive
"I’ve been taking Concerta via my doctor since about May. Usually I’m a very happy person, it takes a lot to get me down. Depression is never something I’ve experienced even though I’ve been through some shit. Anyway, since about May I’ve been feeling down. I don’t feel suicidal or anything like that, but I just feel like nothing matters anymore, the world is a shit place and everything I’m doing is meaningless. I stopped working out (which i used to LOVE doing). I also started replaying horrible scenarios in my head over and over (my boss suddenly firing me, my friends/family dying, me getting attacked). I wouldn’t say it’s paranoia - I don’t think for a second these things would happen - more like a “what if” story my brain is telling itself. The only thing I want to do is sleep.

I don’t know if it’s the Concerta or what. I had something else major happen to me in May when the depression started, but I somehow don’t think it’s that.

I stopped the Concerta by accident the last two days (genuinely forgot to take them) & I feel great. I feel motivated and want to go for a run. I’ve done tonnes of chores and about to start studying..shall I quit them???",adhd,taking concerta via doctor since may usually happy person take lot get depression never something experienced even though shit anyway feeling feel suicidal anything like nothing matter anymore world place everything meaningless stopped working used love also started replaying horrible scenario head bos suddenly firing friend family dying getting attacked say paranoia think second thing would happen story brain telling want sleep know else major somehow accident last two day genuinely forgot great motivated go run done tonne chore start studying shall quit,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I'm on 54mg of Concerta, which I take at 8:30 AM every morning half an hour before class. Even with the medication, I need to exercise about 3 hours a day for it to work. This does not leave me a lot of time to do homework or study and by the time night falls around 7:00 PM, I keep sinking back into my bad habits. I eat unhealthily, I obsess over things I shouldn't, and I keep getting distracted when I should be working on my assignments. It's almost like a reflex at this point. What can I do about this? I just can't help but feel like I'm undoing a lot of the progress I made during the day.

**TL;DR**: I keep screwing up when the meds wear off. What should I do?

Edit: Well, it was around 6:30 PM today when the meds started wearing off and I started getting all up in my feelings.",adhd,mg concerta take every morning half hour class even medication need exercise day work leave lot time homework study night fall around pm keep sinking back bad habit eat unhealthily ob thing getting distracted working assignment almost like reflex point help feel undoing progress made tl dr screwing med wear edit well today started wearing feeling,-0.32,Moderately Negative
"Hey all,

I've been on Daytrana about 4 months. It is great. I had been on regular short acting methylphenidate for years and I had no idea what I was missing out on until I switched to Daytrana. It's much smoother, I don't have to deal with peaks and valleys. Also I was always forgetting to take my 2nd does so one patch all day is great. 

The problem is is it super hard to get ahold of. My first month I guess I was lucky. The pharmacy had to order it but they had it in 3 days.  But these other months have been awful. Pharmacies have been saying they ordered it and then after a week on not hearing anything i check in and they tell me there was a supply issue and to try elsewhere because they can't estimate when it will arrive. Sometimes I've gotten lucky and a pharmacist has been able to locate the one store in my area with it in stock and I've zipped over there to obtain it. But most pharmacies are telling me they cant do a lookup and even within the same store I am sometimes told they cant look it up even though It's previously been looked up there. And even if they do look it up sometimes the info is out of date.

I live in manhattan. So I'm not in the middle of no where and the amount of pharmacies within walking distance of my apartment is huge. The problem is no one carries it and finding one with it in stock is not easy.

I work a ton and really just don't have time to do this each month. I tried getting a prescription for 3 months which my psychiatrist was able to do even thought it's controlled by using a special code. But my insurance only was able to cover one month at a time so i had to fill it for only one month, because this stuff is list price about $200 a box so I can't afford to pay an extra $400 out of pocket. Also finding a pharmacy with 3 boxes is a likely as finding a unicorn.

Ive been bouncing around between pharmacies this month. Things are worse this time because I went out of town for a week on business. So now I'm remaining with 3 patches left and it's dropped off at a pharmacy who says they cant even know if they'll have it until a week from now (and chances are they won't have it in a week). I've tried calling the daytrana locator line and I've not found them to be responsive or helpful. 
I'm at a loss of what to do. This is the most helpful ADHD drug I've used, but I can't go through this stress of thinking I'm going to run out each month or spending this much time on locating the drug.

I have trouble swallowing pills. I can take pills which can be put in food, but can't take any extended release type pills because those can not be crushed. Please don't lecture me about your pill taking methods because trust me I've tried everything. I'm sick of vomiting while trying (and failing) to take a pill so I just can't deal with extended release pills. So this means if I want an extended release med a patch is the way to go. 

Has anyone else had this kind of trouble with daytrana? Have you figured out a solution for dealing with it? I have short acting methylphenidate so I won't be medicine less when I run out, but I've gotten so used to how much better daytrana is that the regular methylphenidate is kind of frustrating now.

As far as I can tell daytrana is my only option for patch. My pdoc is pretty flexible about things and I work in a related field so he tends to be receptive to suggestions I have about med changes. Daytrana was actually my idea, he didn't know it existed. There's no other alternative out there though that meets my need to XR and non-pill though right?

",adhd,hey daytrana month great regular short acting methylphenidate year idea missing switched much smoother deal peak valley also always forgetting take nd one patch day problem super hard get ahold first guess lucky pharmacy order awful saying ordered week hearing anything check tell supply issue try elsewhere estimate arrive sometimes gotten pharmacist able locate store area stock zipped obtain telling cant lookup even within told look though previously looked info date live manhattan middle amount walking distance apartment huge carry finding easy work ton really time tried getting prescription psychiatrist thought controlled using special code insurance cover fill stuff list price box afford pay extra pocket likely unicorn ive bouncing around thing worse went town business remaining left dropped say know chance calling locator line found responsive helpful loss adhd drug used go stress thinking going run spending locating trouble swallowing pill put food extended release type crushed please lecture taking method trust everything sick vomiting trying failing mean want med way anyone else kind figured solution dealing medicine le better frustrating far option pdoc pretty flexible related field tends receptive suggestion change actually existed alternative meet need xr non right,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Hey, r/ADHD!

I'm a 27 year old woman working in STEM. I've had people tell me for the past few years that I'm ""ADD"", super-energetic, spacey, etc., and after taking some of the screens for diagnosing, [e.g., here](https://psychology-tools.com/adult-adhd-self-report-scale/), they suggest my behavior is highly consistent with ADHD, and that I get tested. I always kind of thought that everyone was like that: forgetting things...despising unimaginative work...not particularly keen on meetings. I knew I was a lot more on the go than a lot of people, but I thought that was just a personality thing.

I guess my fear of assessment is multi-pronged: if I get diagnosed, what is this going to change; and if I don't, am I just a procrastinating degenerate?

So, when did you folks realize that all the symptoms meant you needed to get tested? What parts of your careers were being affected? What did a typical day at work look like for you? What were meetings like? If you worked in SW, what was your productivity like?

Any insight would be greatly appreciated.


Thanks,
ScaredSTEMGirl",adhd,hey adhd year old woman working stem people tell past add super energetic spacey etc taking screen diagnosing suggest behavior highly consistent get tested always kind thought everyone like forgetting thing despising unimaginative work particularly keen meeting knew lot go personality guess fear assessment multi pronged diagnosed going change procrastinating degenerate folk realize symptom meant needed part career affected typical day look worked sw productivity insight would greatly appreciated thanks scaredstemgirl,0.19,Moderately Positive
"I was recently diagnosed with ADHD, and was initally prescribed 80 10mg tablets of Adderall. I was told to start with 1 tablet in the morning and if I wasn't seeing results, to up the morning dose to 2 tablets (20mg), which is when I started noticing a difference - both good and bad.

**PROS**

**I am lot more alert, motivated and productive.**

I've got 2 kids and sometimes I don't bother getting out of the house, as I get overwhelmed by how long it takes for all of us to get ready and go. But recently, I've been taking action, doing what I need to do and getting out and about with just me and the kids.

I've also been a lot more productive when it comes to daily household chores and my tasks at work. I don't procrastinate and get right down to business. This has made a difference in my relationship, as my girlfriend's pet peeve was coming home to a dirty house. I'm also up for a promotion at my job.

I used to drink a ton of caffeine to make it through my day, but I'm down to a single cup of coffee that I pour in the morning and sip on it until the afternoon.



**CONS**

**I've been a lot more irritable, argumentative and aggressive.**

Around 5:00 PM or so (10 hours after taking my morning dose), I tend to get really irritable. I feel impatient and get annoyed at things that I would normally let roll off my back. This could be at work, on the road, etc. I have been pretty good with getting through it and not letting it show, but it's noticeable to me.

I'm typically easygoing and non-confrontational, but recently, I've been really passionate about my opinions. I can hear it in my tone, which is much more aggressive than usual and I can't seem to help it. I'm stubborn as it is, but I've been fixating on little things that I should be able to let go of, and I don't like that.

Anyway, the reason I'm writing this is because I'm looking to discuss if anyone has experienced anything similar. I like how much I've been getting done in my day-to-day life, but it comes with the cost of getting into altercations/arguments with friends and family. I've since stopped taking any medication at all and feel lethargic and unmotivated.

Any feedback or advice is appreciated. Thank you.


**TL;DR** - I've been taking 20mg of Adderall every morning for a month and have been much more productive, but also much more aggressive. Recently got into a fight with my little brother and have since stopped taking the medication because that's not normal behavior for me. I now feel lazy and unmotivated.





",adhd,recently diagnosed adhd initally prescribed mg tablet adderall told start morning seeing result dose started noticing difference good bad pro lot alert motivated productive got kid sometimes bother getting house get overwhelmed long take u ready go taking action need also come daily household chore task work procrastinate right business made relationship girlfriend pet peeve coming home dirty promotion job used drink ton caffeine make day single cup coffee pour sip afternoon con irritable argumentative aggressive around pm hour tend really feel impatient annoyed thing would normally let roll back could road etc pretty letting show noticeable typically easygoing non confrontational passionate opinion hear tone much usual seem help stubborn fixating little able like anyway reason writing looking discus anyone experienced anything similar done life cost altercation argument friend family since stopped medication lethargic unmotivated feedback advice appreciated thank tl dr every month fight brother normal behavior lazy,0.02,Neutral
"Starting my first year of college in a few days and I'm honestly really nervous. Yes I'm nervous about all the typical things but what I'm really nervous about is my organization and staying on top my work. I've suspected myself of ADHD for the past year or so after learning about it and all the symptoms etc. and how I relate to my friends with it when they're off their meds. Anyways, I'm coming out of an easy and very structured high school and I'm now going into a more independent, less structured and more difficult situation in college and I'm nervous of how I'm going to stay on task and organized and really just everything. I just don't have any motivation for anything and don't know how to inspire myself. I'm not lazy, I wanna do good, I just can't idk. I've tried every thought and others have tried to help me and I just can't get motivated. I'm extremely forgetful, disorganized and totally unmotivated. I'm honestly just kinda scared and don't know what to do or how to handle myself. I've always had my parents and friends and teachers staying on top of me for my deadlines and my projects and grades and homework and now I'm going to be living on campus. Sorta ranting but also does anybody have any tips or anything or experiences relating? 

Tl;dr...tips to get motivated, organized, and not as forgetful for my first year in college?",adhd,starting first year college day honestly really nervous yes typical thing organization staying top work suspected adhd past learning symptom etc relate friend med anyways coming easy structured high school going independent le difficult situation stay task organized everything motivation anything know inspire lazy wanna good idk tried every thought others help get motivated extremely forgetful disorganized totally unmotivated kinda scared handle always parent teacher deadline project grade homework living campus sorta ranting also anybody tip experience relating tl dr,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I'm 22 now and recently finished university, and started a consulting job mainly working from home. I've accomplished these things, and although I was on the verge of failing many courses, I never failed one. I am however worried about my job from home and failure to do personal things I care about, and I constantly feel like I'm fighting a losing battle with the issues below.

Things that are constantly a problem for me:

* Procrastinating everything to the point where I often do entire projects on the morning they're due at 5am. I've been doing this more with age, but have gotten better at it too.

* I have time to do a lot of things (which are important to me), but neglect most of them when I need to do an urgent/critical task (job, exam). Most of the time I'm not working on the urgent thing, just neglecting other things because I'm anticipating it.

* Usually when something is overwhelming to begin I do nothing useful, but sometimes I end up doing easy things I need done like cleaning or buying something I need

* Sometimes I have days or hours of energy where I feel like I can do everything. It always feels like all my problems are solved but then they come right back. It seems to be a cycle with low and high, but I do accomplish a lot in the short high times, or when under sufficient pressure, which is how I've achieved most things. 

* Always do simple things that I don't enjoy *at all* (Reddit, *simple* mobile games) and feel compelled to it. I'd rather ""waste"" my time watching a show for example but it feels overwhelming to commit to (unless I'm already addicted to the show). Most things I do I can take 1 minute at a time 

* Cycle of letting my place become a complete mess (ex. not one clean dish left) then making everything spotless in like a 2h span

* I want to do a lot of personal projects, but I can't focus to work on them

* Zone out in meetings

A lot of this contradicts itself, which is why I want to reach out to you guys who may understand some of it. To be clear, I've never been diagnosed with ADHD or any mental condition, and never talked to mental professional. 

**Disclaimer**: I don't have any level of depression and really feel only small amounts of anxiety - I see these things in a lot of posts here, so I'm afraid I'm belittling ADHD by saying I may have it. I usually fiddle with things but I don't feel hyperactive. I sometimes zone out when people talk and cut them off with an unrelated comment but generally have no problem keeping conversations. I’ve taken Adderall (maybe 5 occasions ever), which is why I didn’t fail certain courses, but the dosage was probably too high (20-25mg). **Edit**: I’m also worried about becoming too dependent if I do get a prescription.

Sorry to make this all about me but I hope this post resonates with some people and can help them out! You guys are an awesome community :)",adhd,recently finished university started consulting job mainly working home accomplished thing although verge failing many course never failed one however worried failure personal care constantly feel like fighting losing battle issue problem procrastinating everything point often entire project morning due age gotten better time lot important neglect need urgent critical task exam neglecting anticipating usually something overwhelming begin nothing useful sometimes end easy done cleaning buying day hour energy always solved come right back seems cycle low high accomplish short sufficient pressure achieved simple enjoy reddit mobile game compelled rather waste watching show example commit unless already addicted take minute letting place become complete mess ex clean dish left making spotless span want focus work zone meeting contradicts reach guy may understand clear diagnosed adhd mental condition talked professional disclaimer level depression really small amount anxiety see post afraid belittling saying fiddle hyperactive people talk cut unrelated comment generally keeping conversation taken adderall maybe occasion ever fail certain dosage probably mg edit also becoming dependent get prescription sorry make hope resonates help awesome community,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I find that it's hard for me to intensely focus on things deeply in a social situation, like if I'm at a movie or with a group of people watching a YouTube video I can't focus on all of the subtleties of that video that may cause me to miss some of the humor that I would get had I been alone focusing by myself. Do you guys go through this too? Can you get better? What is this?",adhd,find hard intensely focus thing deeply social situation like movie group people watching youtube video subtlety may cause miss humor would get alone focusing guy go better,0.11,Moderately Positive
"My partner is the one with ADHD, and he's had an off-kilter sleeping pattern for as long as I can remember (tries to sleep sometime before midnight, tosses and turns for a few hours, can't get out of bed before 9-11am). After living together for about a year, I've noticed it's starting to impact my sleeping pattern as well. I've always been able to bounce out of bed between 7-7:15am. Now I find myself struggling to get out of bed in the mornings, and sleeping in until 8. His work has been pretty accommodating of his frequent late starts, but even they're starting to ask questions. 

We've tried melatonin, as prescribed by his doctor. We've tried herbal remedies (valerian, passionflower). We hoped starting him on ritalin 6 weeks ago would help balance him out, but there has been zero change to his sleeping pattern. And having had a browse through this sub, it's clear that there is no easy answer to ""what can he do/take to induce a solid and restful sleep"". I was hoping I could come here and people would advise whether there is a sure-proof technique to help fix the problem.

Is there any hope? Is it just a matter of finding the right drug, or having a stringent sleep routine? Or is this going to be an issue he/we're going to struggle with long-term? 
",adhd,partner one adhd kilter sleeping pattern long remember try sleep sometime midnight toss turn hour get bed living together year noticed starting impact well always able bounce find struggling morning work pretty accommodating frequent late start even ask question tried melatonin prescribed doctor herbal remedy valerian passionflower hoped ritalin week ago would help balance zero change browse sub clear easy answer take induce solid restful hoping could come people advise whether sure proof technique fix problem hope matter finding right drug stringent routine going issue struggle term,0.17,Moderately Positive
"Working on a personal programming project. The next thing I know, I'm researching the effects of consuming caffeine while on adderall.

I don't know when I switched tasks. I knew what I wanted to do next. It's like I wanted to walk right, so naturally I walked left.

If my brain had a nose, I'd give it a firm thump -.-",adhd,working personal programming project next thing know researching effect consuming caffeine adderall switched task knew wanted like walk right naturally walked left brain nose give firm thump,0.03,Neutral
"I started recieving psych treatment as a child at the age of 10. While I was underage I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder with minor psychotic tendencies. When I turned 18 that was changed to BPD (borderline) and bipolar type one. My inability to keep appointments have always rendered treatment useless. I loose interest or just straight up forget appointments constantly and I'd get kicked off or I would just stop going all together because I would get really bad anxiety after doing multiple no call no shows. Eventually at 22 I made myself go back into treatment because I felt like my whole life was chasing after me and closing up on me because I couldn't keep up. There was always a bill due and I never had the money for it. I always had something to do and it was constantly looming. I was diagnosed with bipolar type two th is time. When I told them that made no sense they didn't listen to me.

Eventually my best friend since childhood moved in with me. She was diagnosed when we were in middle school and she mentioned that I seemed to have a lot of the symptoms. I started doing research and it finally made sense. They thought I was psychotic when I a kid because I told them ""the voice in my head talks to fast and I can't keep up with it"". They though I was hearing voice when all it was was racing thoughts. 

This past three weeks have been dedicated to me forcing myself to go to psych appointments and making sure I don't forget any of them. I made sure they were all for the same day and time (right after I drop my son off at school). I'm so happy to say that today after years of struggling to find out what is wrong I finally got diagnosed. I was started on wellbutrin for two weeks to see how it goes and then work from there.",adhd,started recieving psych treatment child age underage diagnosed major depressive disorder minor psychotic tendency turned changed bpd borderline bipolar type one inability keep appointment always rendered useless loose interest straight forget constantly get kicked would stop going together really bad anxiety multiple call show eventually made go back felt like whole life chasing closing bill due never money something looming two th time told sense listen best friend since childhood moved middle school mentioned seemed lot symptom research finally thought kid voice head talk fast though hearing racing past three week dedicated forcing making sure day right drop son happy say today year struggling find wrong got wellbutrin see work,0.03,Neutral
"I picked up my prescription for Concerta 27mg (generic) the other day and it turned out that the dosage was way too high for me. I took it two days in a row before deciding that I wasn't going to continue. It's been three days since I've taken it but I've been really out of it and more anxious than I've felt in a long time. Does it sound like this could be a direct after-effect of the medication? I develop dependency to stimulants pretty quickly but two days on 27mg still seems too quick and too little. 


",adhd,picked prescription concerta mg generic day turned dosage way high took two row deciding going continue three since taken really anxious felt long time sound like could direct effect medication develop dependency stimulant pretty quickly still seems quick little,0.11,Moderately Positive
"My professor told me this not even 15 minutes ago. He said it as parting words. This is after he allowed me to come in & stay a whole class period revising two essays I should have already turned in. (I was the only student in the room.) Apparently I was recommended for a job helping tutor other students. He said he seconded my recommendation but wanted to make an observation. 

""I want you to know that I like you. In fact, I favor you. I think you're well spoken and I think your writing is superb. I think you have great potential and will excel throughout college. But I also think you are a lousy student.

""I don't know why you didn't get these essays in on time. Maybe it was inattention, a poor work ethic or poor organizational skills. Whatever the reason, you should know that there are people who don't have the advantage of being as gifted as you, but will be making a much better grade than you because they worked for it. I think you're brilliant but you'll never excel on brilliance alone.""

Man, pre-diagnosis me would have been crushed. It would have felt like the ultimate rejection. I would have been holding back tears as he spoke.

Now? I didn't even feel myself getting emotional. I was able to take it in & realize that he was totally right. Not only that, but because I didn't freak out, I was able to talk to him about getting my ADHD diagnosis & how amazing it was to hear him make an objective diagnosis that was so spot on.

I'm posting this because I've been seeing a lot of RSD-related stuff lately & I want y'all to know it does get better. I keep a thought log so I can monitor my automatic thoughts & change them, I meditate semi-daily & I try to practice being kind to myself. I can finally have normal social interactions where someone says something negative & I don't burst into tears or isolate myself. 

It's a good day, y'all.",adhd,professor told even minute ago said parting word allowed come stay whole class period revising two essay already turned student room apparently recommended job helping tutor seconded recommendation wanted make observation want know like fact favor think well spoken writing superb great potential excel throughout college also lousy get time maybe inattention poor work ethic organizational skill whatever reason people advantage gifted making much better grade worked brilliant never brilliance alone man pre diagnosis would crushed felt ultimate rejection holding back tear spoke feel getting emotional able take realize totally right freak talk adhd amazing hear objective spot posting seeing lot rsd related stuff lately keep thought log monitor automatic change meditate semi daily try practice kind finally normal social interaction someone say something negative burst isolate good day,0.2,Moderately Positive
"So I've been recently having some issues with Adderall generic IR brands.
Long story short, the only brand that worked EXTREMELY well for me was discontinued.
Switched between a few different brands and now I'm on Sandoz Adderall IR (literally only haven't tried brand name & Mylan).
Originally it was going to be Adderall IR in the morning, and Adderall XR in the afternoon, but the Adderall XR didn't work well for me, so now I'm on Adderall IR AND Vyvanse in the morning.

Before the medication was discontinued (~June) I was using 15mg Adderall IR to get me through the school day (5hrs). After messing with the different brands and how they all seemed to affect me less... I'm now at around 25-30ish mg for Sandoz to actually work.

I was originally prescribed 20mg Adderall IR + 50mg Vyvanse to both be taken in the morning. However I found the Vyvanse took a solid 1:30-2 hours to kick in. At 20mg Adderall IR, it didn't have any effect on me in the morning, groggy, like a zombie... pretty much up until Vyvanse kicked in.

I've tried 30mg the past two days but its giving me a bit of extra Anxiety so I'm going to lower my dose to 25mg of adderall IR.

One of my primary concerns currently is the anxiety, I feel like all this medication has me overstimulated.
Sometimes it can get pretty bad, and usually it can last an hour or so, on and off.
Boredom also triggers anxiety, seems like when I'm bored I get pretty anxious and restless.

Any solutions to this? Do you guys think I'm taking too much? I'd like to trust my doctor as the medical professional, but I honestly feel like she started me off with too much Vyvanse.
They're a single 50mg pill, so I can't really even split them.
Keep in mind I've pretty much always only been on one dose of Adderall IR in the morning, I took adderall XR for a total of three days before I discontinued taking it due to the tenseness and extreme anxiety.
So... essentially I'm getting a 50mg STARTING dose of Vyvanse ON TOP of my adderall IR dose right away... ",adhd,recently issue adderall generic ir brand long story short worked extremely well discontinued switched different sandoz literally tried name mylan originally going morning xr afternoon work vyvanse medication june using mg get school day hr messing seemed affect le around ish actually prescribed taken however found took solid hour kick effect groggy like zombie pretty much kicked past two giving bit extra anxiety lower dose one primary concern currently feel overstimulated sometimes bad usually last boredom also trigger seems bored anxious restless solution guy think taking trust doctor medical professional honestly started single pill really even split keep mind always total three due tenseness extreme essentially getting starting top right away,0.02,Neutral
"Ok so this is just a list of the 10 things that I can think of that have made my first year at Uni a really difficult year. Bear in mind that I am 25 years old and I still struggle with these things in this environment. 

My list is in no particular order because when have I ever done anything in a particular order? I'm sure some people can relate...

1. Halls of residence are small and your personal space is heavily encroached upon by other people.

2. You have almost zero accountability.

3. You have almost zero external encouragement.

4. Booze culture makes ADHD way worse and can encourage the onset of substance abuse.

5. In the UK, support networks for mental health, even in universities, is very poor. 

6. You get virtually no sleep and keeping a regular sleeping schedule is almost impossible.

7. You hate having to conform to the relentless deadlines that come flooding in all the time.

8. Lectures are soooo incredibly difficult to pay attention to (worse if your lecturer is as flat as a pancake in tone).

9. You don't care what money is but you're given 2 and a half thousand pounds every semester and nobody cares what you do with it.

10. You have to cook, clean, wash dishes, socialise, do your work for seminars. (This list of chores is almost never completed and never maintained regularly. During exam period - you get virtually none of this list done for the whole duration...)


So, there's a few to chew on. I could think of a lot more actually, but I'd like to hear from you guys. What did you struggle with when you went to University? Or even at college?
",adhd,ok list thing think made first year uni really difficult bear mind old still struggle environment particular order ever done anything sure people relate hall residence small personal space heavily encroached upon almost zero accountability external encouragement booze culture make adhd way worse encourage onset substance abuse uk support network mental health even university poor get virtually sleep keeping regular sleeping schedule impossible hate conform relentless deadline come flooding time lecture soooo incredibly pay attention lecturer flat pancake tone care money given half thousand pound every semester nobody cook clean wash dish socialise work seminar chore never completed maintained regularly exam period none whole duration chew could lot actually like hear guy went college,-0.02,Neutral
"I've been taking adderall(now vyvanse) for a few months now and a huge problem I have with it is the loss of appetite. I am constantly forgetting to eat and I lost a lot of healthy weight. When I take breaks from my medication, I end up binge eating which I believe is my body trying to hoard calories before I go starvation mode again. I always end up feeling sick after these food escapees and guilty. I can also tell that my body is not alright and these months of starving has done a toll on it. Anyone have advice/tips/tricks on maintaining weight and not starving/binge eating while taking medication?",adhd,taking adderall vyvanse month huge problem loss appetite constantly forgetting eat lost lot healthy weight take break medication end binge eating believe body trying hoard calorie go starvation mode always feeling sick food escapee guilty also tell alright starving done toll anyone advice tip trick maintaining,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I have been struggling to get a morning routine going, but I have recently discovered some of what Google Assistant (GA) can do and it has been a game changer....

I now wake up, tell GA ""Good Morning"", and then it tells me the following:  

* The current Temperature outside

* Forecasted High

* What the weather will be like

* How long my commute to work will be

* Any reminders I put in the phone for the morning

* and then starts playing some news!




Has anyone else figured out any other tricks to help with their morning routine?
",adhd,struggling get morning routine going recently discovered google assistant ga game changer wake tell good following current temperature outside forecasted high weather like long commute work reminder put phone start playing news anyone else figured trick help,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I'm afraid of taking medication for ADD because I fear it's going to change me as a person.

As much as it hindered me, my ADD is a big part of my personality, spending tens of hours on end just reading Reddit or Wikipedia is fun, and possibly a result of my ADD.

There's a thread on [ADHD superpower's](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/yx8u9/what_is_your_adhd_superpower/), and I wonder if I'm going to lose mine with medication.

I guess what I'm asking is, has medication changed you as a person, and if it did, are you better now? (I realise now the title didn't need any further clarification)",adhd,afraid taking medication add fear going change person much hindered big part personality spending ten hour end reading reddit wikipedia fun possibly result thread adhd superpower wonder lose mine guess asking changed better realise title need clarification,0.0,Neutral
"I understand, this might probably be the last thing you want to hear.

Sometimes this thought might come across your mind when you're struggling with work or when you are thinking about yourself as person; using ADHD/ADD to define yourself, your thoughts, your actions, and everything about you. I do it too.

But recently, I got really tired of it. I wasn't mad at myself, I wasn't mad at my teachers and the people around me, I wasn't even mad at my ADHD/ADD.

I was mad at the fact that ADHD/ADD has become the answer and reason that has prevented me from reaching my full potential. Yeah, having accommodations at school help, having understanding teachers and family is great, but it seems like I'm the only one who doesn't want to say, ""You know what? Fuck this ADD. Why does it have to put me on another platform without anywhere to go. Why does it have to be some sort of characteristic that I am bound by, with everyone around me treating me like a special human with special needs, unable to go left or right, up or down?""

I see posts here all the time saying how nobody understands what they're going through, as if they are restricted by an idea that they are and *always* will be slower than others.

What? Really? Doesn't anyone want to overcome their ADHD/ADD? Is everybody just relieved they've found a reason?!

I am not saying ADHD/ADD is false or a real thing, we have all experienced these symptoms as they are very similar and relevant to one another, but can't we have a sense of initiative and drive?

Does ADHD/ADD settle things with one single diagnosis? Has your fate been sealed?

**NO**.

I am tired of going through these struggles and being placed on another special platform. I want to pave my own path according to my initiative and drive; in this way, let ADHD/ADD be an obstacle, not a burden.

LET ADHD/ADD BE AN OBSTACLE. A TEMPORARY HURDLE. NOT A LIFELONG BURDEN.

It would be so easy to dismiss this post and go about your day, being another human with ADHD/ADD. Wouldn't it?

It's not about being lazy, it's about being indifferent and unmotivated. That shouldn't be related to ADHD/ADD shouldn't it?

**TL;DR I'M TIRED OF BEING HELD DOWN BY ADHD/ADD. WHY CAN'T WE TRY AND OVERCOME IT INSTEAD OF ACCEPTING OUR FATE?** ***LET ADHD/ADD BE AN OBSTACLE, NOT A BURDEN.***",adhd,understand might probably last thing want hear sometimes thought come across mind struggling work thinking person using adhd add define action everything recently got really tired mad teacher people around even fact become answer reason prevented reaching full potential yeah accommodation school help understanding family great seems like one say know fuck put another platform without anywhere go sort characteristic bound everyone treating special human need unable left right see post time saying nobody understands going restricted idea always slower others anyone overcome everybody relieved found false real experienced symptom similar relevant sense initiative drive settle single diagnosis fate sealed struggle placed pave path according way let obstacle burden temporary hurdle lifelong would easy dismiss day lazy indifferent unmotivated related tl dr held try instead accepting,0.04,Neutral
"Like many of you out there, I've struggled with accomplishing projects, staying focused, being organized, being driven, being detail oriented and just trying to start/finish projects. I struggled in school a lot and somehow I managed to graduate college. Anyway, I finally found a job that keeps me motivated, focused, driven, and happy. It's a crazy feeling when these stressors do not interfere with my daily life. 

So if I can encourage anyone today. Remember that you can do it and not give up. It takes a lot WORK to overcome personal problems. But if I can do it, you can. Someday you will find a job or path in life that leads you to satisfaction.",adhd,like many struggled accomplishing project staying focused organized driven detail oriented trying start finish school lot somehow managed graduate college anyway finally found job keep motivated happy crazy feeling stressor interfere daily life encourage anyone today remember give take work overcome personal problem someday find path lead satisfaction,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Hi, apologizes in advance for my english.
 
I'm 23 and currently on my fourth year of what in EEUU you call ""med school"", to become a doctor (I don't know if saying that after med school is redundant) 

I've been diagnosed with ADHD early this year.

Before the diagnosis, i used to study at best 1 hour a day. The struggle was so intense that, even before considering the possibility of having adhd, I adopted techniques to make that time count and without distractions.

1 hour a day (or normally 2 sessions of 30 min). timed, without distractions, pure reading.  

All this years, when my classmates said they studied an average of 6 hours a day, i thought they were lying, or at least that they counted in their sessions all the time spent in their cellphones and that kind of stuff. 
Obviously, normal claims like ""12 hours a day, 2 weeks before an exam"" were ridiculous to me, and even then, everyone seemed to do the same.

Of course my grades were barely enough to pass, but so they were for a lot a people claiming to study all day. 

Now, with medication (ritalin 40mg 2 times a day) i can study something like 3 hours a day (5 when a test is approaching). Finally I can have good grades, but still feel like i should be studying more.


Anyone on the same boat?  

 
 ",adhd,hi apologizes advance english currently fourth year eeuu call med school become doctor know saying redundant diagnosed adhd early diagnosis used study best hour day struggle intense even considering possibility adopted technique make time count without distraction normally session min timed pure reading classmate said studied average thought lying least counted spent cellphone kind stuff obviously normal claim like week exam ridiculous everyone seemed course grade barely enough pas lot people claiming medication ritalin mg something test approaching finally good still feel studying anyone boat,0.12,Moderately Positive
"TL;DR I got threatened very intensely by some drag racer dudes for fucking up their cans I had confiscated. 

So tonight (Sunday) in the last 1/2 hour of my shift at work a group of people turned up in loud ass cars (which pisses me off anyway) with drinks which is a no no. I took it off them and was assured that was all they had. I then had to tip out 4 of their open drinks while being berated for it. I took another unopened can to give back to them when they left and had to walk back to the shop being insulted by several of them for doing my job. I normally would have not fussed but I have worked 17 hours this weekend, I was tired and these guys being dickheads was just the cherry on top of the shit sundae that has been my Sunday. I took their drinks (bourbon and cola cans) and threw them on the ground to burst them in the car park before going home. Obviously when they found them they were pissed, they shouted at and threatened my work mate until he told them my name. One of them found me on Facebook, threatened me, threatened my work mate and my work property. I eventually managed to meet this one dude and just buy him another box of cans and everything is sweet but I feel like such a dick for stressing my mate out so much having like 6 dudes shouting in his face and I knew they knew me and where I work and everything I just did it without thinking and have had to take until 11pm to get home on Sunday night after an exhausting week. Could have just gone home for a beer and everything would have been fine but they baited me and I just had to bite. I always have to bite.",adhd,tl dr got threatened intensely drag racer dude fucking can confiscated tonight sunday last hour shift work group people turned loud as car piss anyway drink took assured tip open berated another unopened give back left walk shop insulted several job normally would fussed worked weekend tired guy dickhead cherry top shit sundae bourbon cola threw ground burst park going home obviously found pissed shouted mate told name one facebook property eventually managed meet buy box everything sweet feel like dick stressing much shouting face knew without thinking take pm get night exhausting week could gone beer fine baited bite always,0.0,Neutral
"Hello - I've been taking 30-40mg adderal daily for about 6 months. Doc is gonna switch me to 40mg of vyvanse to try it out. Doc says other patients really like vyvanse. 

One unexpected but very very important benefit of adderal was that I became more confident with public speaking / presenting things at work / speaking up in meetings, etc... These things used to make me very nervous and I love having adderal as a ""tool"" to make those things easier. I avoid the tunnel vision, shaky voice, shaky hands, being flustered, etc... (FYI, I'm a very social person so this is really only an issue at work).  

QUESTION: Will vyvanse provide a similar benefit or will I lose that aspect of my medication after I switch?

Also, I saw some other posts about ED being an issue on vyvanse. Is that something I should be concerned about? I don't have that issue with adderal. 
",adhd,hello taking mg adderal daily month doc gonna switch vyvanse try say patient really like one unexpected important benefit became confident public speaking presenting thing work meeting etc used make nervous love tool easier avoid tunnel vision shaky voice hand flustered fyi social person issue question provide similar lose aspect medication also saw post ed something concerned,0.14,Moderately Positive
"So, been taking vyvanse for a few months now, 40mg. When I first started for the first few weeks I felt weird, kinda floaty all day long. It went away after a while. 

Fast forward. After 2 weeks off meds while travelling I'm on day 3 and whooooa its happening again. Almost feels like I did a ton of weed, but without the fogginess. 

Anyone else experience this?

210lbs, 26 male. ",adhd,taking vyvanse month mg first started week felt weird kinda floaty day long went away fast forward med travelling whooooa happening almost feel like ton weed without fogginess anyone else experience lb male,-0.02,Neutral
"I was diagnosed with ADHD last year, after a 2-year struggle to figure out who I am, why I'm here, and how 15 years in my career had led to such unhappiness.

I work in an industry I do not believe in. It is ultra-conservative and does more harm to the world than good. I progressed from a Technician, to an Engineer, to an Assistant Project Manager over 15 years and now make good money while feeling pigeon-holed into it. EVERY day is a struggle and my performance is less than stellar. Mainly, the quality of my work is low because my interest in what we do is low.

I'm struggling to change careers, as ADHD always seems to kick in to squash my motivation and follow-through. I've daydreamed for 2 years about finding ""the perfect fit for someone like me"", feeling like I'd flourish if I could only find it. I go between hits of serotonin, produced by the thought of loving what I do everyday, to bouts of depression from feeling like I'll never make any of it happen. I've been described as a race horse whose gate never opens. It's hell to be driven but have nothing to show for it.

1) Can you relate?
2) ARE there specific jobs suited for adults with ADHD?
3) How do you commit to a direction when interest/motivation varies so wildly from day to day?  ",adhd,diagnosed adhd last year struggle figure career led unhappiness work industry believe ultra conservative harm world good progressed technician engineer assistant project manager make money feeling pigeon holed every day performance le stellar mainly quality low interest struggling change always seems kick squash motivation follow daydreamed finding perfect fit someone like flourish could find go hit serotonin produced thought loving everyday bout depression never happen described race horse whose gate open hell driven nothing show relate specific job suited adult commit direction varies wildly,0.24,Moderately Positive
"I was diagnosed as having ADHD around the first-grade when I was very young. I was bad enough that at random times, I would stand up and walk out of the classroom to find something interesting. Over the years I've been on various different dosages of each- Ritalin, Strattera, Concerta and Adderall XR and a few others that didn't work out so well and I can't remember the names of. Ritalin worked for a while, but I kept adjusting to it and it would stop being effective, the doctor would bump the dosage and I'd be good for a while, repeat vicious cycle. I switched to Strattera, my parents tell me it did next to nothing. Concerta did the same thing as Ritalin. Eventually, went onto Adderall after all the others and it works- it works amazingly well and really really fixes my issues with concentration, compulsiveness and focus...but the side effects S U C K. Every time I use it, it's like playing Russian roulette- except the ""blanks"" are headaches, and the ""bullets"" are severe migraines. It is not worth improving my productivity and being able to function, work and study at the cost of constant headaches and migraines.

I'm 23 now, I work full time for a support company in an IT role. I love working in the IT industry, and want to get into more. My workplace is giving me opportunities to advance myself because I've been pushing myself very hard to make progress and go beyond the basics of my job, but I need to learn new fields like networking and programming. I absolutely LOVE these new fields and want nothing more than to study and work away at it, but I feel like at all times, pushing myself to study can be nearly impossible. I want this so badly, but I feel like unless I'M getting stimulation, I can't do it! I feel like I'm standing with a noose hanging around my neck, and Its not doing anything. My goal (sit down and study for a couple hours each day) is right there in front of me. I want it and I need it. I take a couple of steps forward and this noose is suddenly holding me back, and the more I try to force myself, the worse it gets. Sometimes, I have good days and I'm feeling pretty perky and good to go and I can just go at it for hours on end (ignoring literally everything else because this is whats stimulating me), and sometimes I can't bring myself to study properly for weeks at a time. Sometimes, just working is a chore- I have a list of things to do each day, and it can be laborious to just make myself go through this simple list of tasks and get everything done.

I feel like I'm going on and on, and I admit that my writing skills are very lacking, and I appreciate anybody taking the time to read and understand all of this. I'm just at this weird spot where every day I feel like crying because I'm not lazy, and I want to build my career and my life, and I try so hard but I feel like I'm holding myself back. I feel useless and tired and frustrated. I feel like I can't confide in anybody really, because everyone says to just try harder, or they think I'm just lazy. These feelings of hopelessness and struggling worsen over time, to the point of trying to find a subreddit for some help from others with the same thing. I don't know what to do. All of the medications I've taken in the past (excluding Adderall) did not work in the long term (or at all in some cases), and Adderall makes me feel like utter crap, so the way I see it, I'm barely functional without medications, and medications aren't working well for me.

How on earth do you get by this stuff? What do you think I should do? Do you have any advice that could help? I'm going to talk to my doctor this wednesday about trying Ritalin once again and switching off of Adderall just to see if it works this time, so if anybody has suggestions on which medication I should inquire about if thats a bad idea, I'd appreciate that too. 

TL;DR: ADHD has been destroying my focus and ability to pursue education and ruining my ability to work, and affecting my happiness for a long time. Medications mostly stop working after a while, and Adderall gives me migraines and headaches every day I use it. Extremely unhappy and feeling like a failure, tired of feeling like I'm struggling to do the same things other people do without trying so hard. I need advice on how to cope with this or what to do next.",adhd,diagnosed adhd around first grade young bad enough random time would stand walk classroom find something interesting year various different dosage ritalin strattera concerta adderall xr others work well remember name worked kept adjusting stop effective doctor bump good repeat vicious cycle switched parent tell next nothing thing eventually went onto amazingly really fix issue concentration compulsiveness focus side effect every use like playing russian roulette except blank headache bullet severe migraine worth improving productivity able function study cost constant full support company role love working industry want get workplace giving opportunity advance pushing hard make progress go beyond basic job need learn new field networking programming absolutely away feel nearly impossible badly unless getting stimulation standing noose hanging neck anything goal sit couple hour day right front take step forward suddenly holding back try force worse sometimes feeling pretty perky end ignoring literally everything else whats stimulating bring properly week chore list laborious simple task done going admit writing skill lacking appreciate anybody taking read understand weird spot cry lazy build career life useless tired frustrated confide everyone say harder think hopelessness struggling worsen point trying subreddit help know medication taken past excluding long term case utter crap way see barely functional without earth stuff advice could talk wednesday switching suggestion inquire thats idea tl dr destroying ability pursue education ruining affecting happiness mostly give extremely unhappy failure people cope,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Hi ! 

After a longtime with my bf , I did have one experience of unprotected sex . I completely forgot about the condom the day . 

I am now doing all the check ups but I have to admit that I am scared . 

I would like to know your coping mechanisms to never forget about using condoms in the future and a hug . 
I live alone , I am all by myself over this one, and I regret it deeply as I am terrified.
",adhd,hi longtime bf one experience unprotected sex completely forgot condom day check ups admit scared would like know coping mechanism never forget using future hug live alone regret deeply terrified,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I'm a senior in college and in my opinion, my vyvanse has pretty much kept me from flunking out. I take it every school day and occasionally on sundays when I know I have a busy week ahead of me and want to get a head start. This week though is crazy for me, I have 2 tests coming up that I am hardly prepared for and a 5 page paper due that I have 3 pages of. Normally when my medication wears off, I've done enough work for the day but this week I need to study/work later than normal. The problem is, studying is virtually useless to me without it and I'll end up reading the same page over and over and over without retaining anything at all. Or I'll just sit there looking at the paper I'm supposed to write but I can't connect it all together/make it flow and not seem like a random train of thought. I am not going to take anymore medicine to try to keep working because I don't want to stay up all night (I believe a good nights rest is better than late nighting). Are there any tricks or tips to keep me going after the medication has worn off? Thanks for the help in advanced. Sincerely, a stressed out student. ",adhd,senior college opinion vyvanse pretty much kept flunking take every school day occasionally sunday know busy week ahead want get head start though crazy test coming hardly prepared page paper due normally medication wear done enough work need study later normal problem studying virtually useless without end reading retaining anything sit looking supposed write connect together make flow seem like random train thought going anymore medicine try keep working stay night believe good rest better late nighting trick tip worn thanks help advanced sincerely stressed student,0.04,Neutral
"I think these may be left over from when I had temper tantrums as a kid. It's almost like physically melodramatizing the emotional effect things have on me (think a sentence of Hamlet's monologue translated into a physical reaction). If I'm alone, and something 'hits me', even if it's something minor, I might 'spasm' for a second and grab onto my heart. Sometimes I even punch the skin above my ~~heat~~ heart to keep down a 'pang' of whatever kind. I often get these pangs late at night when I'm alone, and they are accompanied by a strange kind of sadness or existential worrying, including uncomfortable introspection and sensitivity to my own emotions.

Can anyone else relate? I feel like this is related to ADHD in that it involves the inability to physically surpress emotion, impulses, motor functions, etc.

Edit: heart, not heat. I hope that didn't make my post inadvertently obscene.",adhd,think may left temper tantrum kid almost like physically melodramatizing emotional effect thing sentence hamlet monologue translated physical reaction alone something hit even minor might spasm second grab onto heart sometimes punch skin heat keep pang whatever kind often get late night accompanied strange sadness existential worrying including uncomfortable introspection sensitivity emotion anyone else relate feel related adhd involves inability surpress impulse motor function etc edit hope make post inadvertently obscene,-0.03,Neutral
"But I try everyday. It is an animation project, and I just don't what I am doing half of the time. It really discourages me. I want to I tell him that I have ADHD and depression, but I am afraid he will just laugh. ",adhd,try everyday animation project half time really discourages want tell adhd depression afraid laugh,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"I'm planning on starting to take meds again. i remember i would go days without sleeping or only sleep for about an hour and wake up not feeling rested. What can I do to get some sleep once I start taking medication again?
Thanks for any input! You guys have been really encouraging so far.",adhd,planning starting take med remember would go day without sleeping sleep hour wake feeling rested get start taking medication thanks input guy really encouraging far,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I'm 28 F, and inattentive. Psych gave me Ritalin 10mg twice a day to start off with, which is what I took today, and I can DO THINGS and it's really really nice and really really weird.

My fiance has been telling me for years to get diagnosed, but I also suffer from pretty severe anxiety (which I'm now realising has definitely been inflamed by ADHD for a very long time) and I was scared that the meds would trigger panic attacks the way coffee does with me.

My whole life I've felt like I was wasting my potential. I have old school reports from dozens of my teachers saying they were disappointed in my efforts because they ""knew I could do better"". I was that bright kid who never finished work because I was daydreaming, but somehow passed under the radar because I did ok in exams. I've started and dropped out of university on three separate occasions (and from three very different courses). I've been struggling more and more at my job where organisation and self motivation are really important.

But today I cleaned a room entirely in one go, without stopping to play on my phone, and without being distracted by the papers and rubbish I was sorting through. I'd pick a thing up, make a decision about it, and put it where it needed to go. Before today, this would have taken me weeks of tiny spurts of action.

For the first time, I feel like I can live a normal life and do normal things that normal people do, and it's a really nice feeling. I know it's only the first day, and I'm sure there are lots of adjustments I'm going to have to make to continue to improve my life, and I know that I'm literally high on a stimulant right now, but I'm feeling really positive about my future. More than I have for maybe decades.

If you're pre-diagnosis, and scared for whatever reason, please talk to your doctor about getting diagnosed. My life just instantly because a thousand times easier and I want that for whoever can get it. It's worth it.

TL;DR
just got diagnosed, meds actually work! life is easier, get yoself diagnosed and treated <3
 ",adhd,inattentive psych gave ritalin mg twice day start took today thing really nice weird fiance telling year get diagnosed also suffer pretty severe anxiety realising definitely inflamed adhd long time scared med would trigger panic attack way coffee whole life felt like wasting potential old school report dozen teacher saying disappointed effort knew could better bright kid never finished work daydreaming somehow passed radar ok exam started dropped university three separate occasion different course struggling job organisation self motivation important cleaned room entirely one go without stopping play phone distracted paper rubbish sorting pick make decision put needed taken week tiny spurt action first feel live normal people feeling know sure lot adjustment going continue improve literally high stimulant right positive future maybe decade pre diagnosis whatever reason please talk doctor getting instantly thousand easier want whoever worth tl dr got actually yoself treated,0.14,Moderately Positive
"EDIT: 
I'm sorry, I realized it was a long post. 
TL;DR 

>> Please help with:
- tips on how to help my 9 year old calm down (easily frustrated/angry) 
- tips on getting him to listen more 
- respect privacy 
- stop talking to strangers 





My eccentric little boy was diagnosed with ADHD and ODD at the age of 6. He constantly ignores what I say. I ask him not to touch something, he looks right at me and touches it; I ask him not to talk to strangers, he bombards the next person he sees with questions. Of course a lot of it has to do with his extremely short attention span. 

Constant physical reminders (paper bracelets) or simple memory tricks I've learned (eg: doing a physical activity while reciting something) seem to help but when he's having a bad day, it's difficult to calm him down. 

I have a discipline/reward system which works some times. He gets to earn fake money which goes towards things like extra game time or a toy or going to the movies. If he doesn't listen he gets 3 time outs and if he still doesn't listen then no games/tv then early bed time. 

Can you please share some insights/tips that have helped you? 
A few things I'm trying to work on with him is:
 - not talking to strangers 
 - to take the time to use the washroom instead of dirtying his underwear 
 - respect privacy 
 - control his temper (esp with his 2yr old sister) --> he hates it when people don't listen to him; gives up fast if something is too hard to do the first time around

That's just a few things and anything you can give me would be helpful. It's been challenging and extremely difficult to keep calm when he's losing it. 

I'm sorry if I'm posting in the wrong subreddit, but I'm new and desperate.",adhd,edit sorry realized long post tl dr please help tip year old calm easily frustrated angry getting listen respect privacy stop talking stranger eccentric little boy diagnosed adhd odd age constantly ignores say ask touch something look right talk bombard next person see question course lot extremely short attention span constant physical reminder paper bracelet simple memory trick learned eg activity reciting seem bad day difficult discipline reward system work time get earn fake money go towards thing like extra game toy going movie out still tv early bed share insight helped trying take use washroom instead dirtying underwear control temper esp yr sister hate people give fast hard first around anything would helpful challenging keep losing posting wrong subreddit new desperate,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"I have dated a number of people with mental illnesses. Here are my experiences:

Falling in love with someone else with ADHD: So much fun! That first six months in particular, you just become totally obsessed with each other. Then one day you get evicted or something because you realized you both suddenly have no money and have been neglecting literally everything that wasn't each other.

Dating someone with unipolar Major Depression: I'm not very hyperactive, I fidget some but I'm not an active person. So a night  in with Netflix, cuddles, and maybe sex is totally cool with me. It's okay if she kinda neglects personal hygiene sometimes, because who am I to talk?

Dating someone with bipolar spectrum/type II bipolar: You are definitely not bored! The endless crises will make sure you stay engaged in the relationship. Any semblance of personal stability you might have managed to cobbled together goes out the window, though. On the other hand, hypomania can mimic the hyperfocus side of ADHD at times, so during those periods of time it's equivalent to the above description of the ADHD + ADHD combo.

Dating someone with OCD: BAD COMBO. THE WORST COMBO. Having to watch someone engage in incredibly boring tasks repetitively, until they eventually rope me into taking part in their compulsions? The constant questions about the same obsessive thoughts over and over again? (""Is my hand dirty because I touched this thing which touched this other thing 3 hours ago?"") It's basically ADHD hell. I am basically completely incapable of empathizing with OCD, sad to say.

Of course, the ironic part is that we both end up being similar in some contexts, but for opposite reasons. We both take incredibly long to get ready -- me, because I have to factor in 2 hours for sitting around, just so I can get into the shower at the last possible minute, her, because she spends 1.5 hrs in the shower and 1 hour getting dressed. We both take forever to do chores: me, because I spent the first 2 hours on Youtube, and then spend 30 minutes washing pots and pans, her, because it takes her 2.5 hours to wash the same number of dishes. (""Do you think they're really clean?"")

What's your experience been like?",adhd,dated number people mental illness experience falling love someone else adhd much fun first six month particular become totally obsessed one day get evicted something realized suddenly money neglecting literally everything dating unipolar major depression hyperactive fidget active person night netflix cuddle maybe sex cool okay kinda neglect personal hygiene sometimes talk bipolar spectrum type ii definitely bored endless crisis make sure stay engaged relationship semblance stability might managed cobbled together go window though hand hypomania mimic hyperfocus side time period equivalent description combo ocd bad worst watch engage incredibly boring task repetitively eventually rope taking part compulsion constant question obsessive thought dirty touched thing hour ago basically hell completely incapable empathizing sad say course ironic end similar context opposite reason take long ready factor sitting around shower last possible minute spends hr getting dressed forever chore spent youtube spend washing pot pan wash dish think really clean like,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"Idk what else to say, title. I'm freaking out now because I don't feel like anyone hears me out or takes me seriously and I have tried to talk to my so but got nowhere because she doesn't believe me",adhd,idk else say title freaking feel like anyone hears take seriously tried talk got nowhere believe,-0.33,Moderately Negative
"I somehow have somewhat good time orientation. I have clocks nearly everywhere so unless I’m hyper focusing I vaguely know how much time I have left until I have to do X,X,X and X like I planned. By that is always reduced to what is due tomorrow. 

But when I’m in the toilet where there are no clocks. The time just swims away like Nemo . I can spend here like over an hour without realising it. It’s a nightmare. 

Normally I’d try to come up with a solution but setting a timer doesn’t seem right. Having a fixed amount of time allocated for pooping seems abstract. 

Any other ideas??",adhd,somehow somewhat good time orientation clock nearly everywhere unless hyper focusing vaguely know much left like planned always reduced due tomorrow toilet swim away nemo spend hour without realising nightmare normally try come solution setting timer seem right fixed amount allocated pooping seems abstract idea,0.08,Moderately Positive
"I'm new to this subreddit, and glad I discovered it. 25 M here, diagnosed at 16 with ADHD, auditory/visual processing disorder, and generalized anxiety. I'm happy to report I have a great job, supportive family and girlfriend. 

However, I've been having issues with my relationships lately and I suspect that ADHD and my other learning disabilities may play a role in my behavior. I sometimes feel that I have missed certain social cues that everyone else has managed to pick up on. I was wondering if anyone else has had similar issues, or may have general advice or resources. 

To simplify, I will break down my observations into a few bullets, and I hope others can relate. 

*I find myself much more careful around people I don't know well. I'm more reserved and tend to be shy and mask my true personality. But, as I get closer to people, I find myself being comfortable and I let my guard down. Here, I become more socially unaware. I say things that are unintentionally hurtful, thoughtless, stupid, or embarrassing. I hate the cycle, and it causes me to distance myself from others to avoid the embarrassment.
 
*I seem to have trouble with intimacy and romance. I feel love, but I seem to be unaware of how little I show it. I often forget or miss something that would otherwise be thoughtful. It's as if I need to make a ""to do"" list of how to be a good boyfriend. 

*It takes a long time to adjust to from one social situation to another. If conversation quickly changes topic or emotion, I seem to have trouble keeping up. For example, moving from a joke to a serious discussion, or moving from a confrontation to a resolution. 

**TL;DR New to this subreddit, mid-20s guy who feels that ADHD/LD/anxiety has negatively affected his ability to socialize and maintain relationships and would like some general advice or resources in this area.**",adhd,new subreddit glad discovered diagnosed adhd auditory visual processing disorder generalized anxiety happy report great job supportive family girlfriend however issue relationship lately suspect learning disability may play role behavior sometimes feel missed certain social cue everyone else managed pick wondering anyone similar general advice resource simplify break observation bullet hope others relate find much careful around people know well reserved tend shy mask true personality get closer comfortable let guard become socially unaware say thing unintentionally hurtful thoughtless stupid embarrassing hate cycle cause distance avoid embarrassment seem trouble intimacy romance love little show often forget miss something would otherwise thoughtful need make list good boyfriend take long time adjust one situation another conversation quickly change topic emotion keeping example moving joke serious discussion confrontation resolution tl dr mid guy ld negatively affected ability socialize maintain like area,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Brain why you doooo thiiiis. I got distracted by a song reference and started singing, took my card, then walked home. 
Returned 10 minutes later upon the realisation of my stupidity aaaaand of course the $20 was gone.",adhd,brain doooo thiiiis got distracted song reference started singing took card walked home returned minute later upon realisation stupidity aaaaand course gone,-0.3,Moderately Negative
"ENLGISH IS NOT MY MAIN LANGUAGE, AND I JUST REALIZED HOW BAD I WROTE THIS, I HOPE I MADE A POINT SOMEWHERE, PROBABLY THIS POST IS GOING TO BE REMOVED ANYWAY. 

Hey there,

I am a high school exchange student in the U.S. and I started to be interested about me not being able to do work etc. I always knew that I am not being able to learn stuff at school and wasn't really interested because I come from a developing country in Europe which has a shitty education and now living for a year in the U.S. made me realize how behind I am, I am 18 and was supposed to be a senior but they put as a junior because my classes from back home didn't match up to be a graduated student in the U.S., but this is not really about my bad grades because it's the same thing with other students who did good in school. I am having a hard time now in the U.S. to keep a good average so my program officers keep me in the program and don't send me home, is not that bad, some classes are easier here and I have to cheat time to time in science classes.

I have a great host family, I was expecting a hardcore Christian host family because they sent to Alabama, in the fucking bible belt. So living with them for more than 5 months now made me think more about my problems, because my parents back home didn't really know what was happening with me because they grew up in a low standard life, pretty much with the rest of the country. I am not talking about school education, I am talking about being world-wise etc. So I've been talking with my host family and trying to find ways to help me be better with school. They even read books just for me, to help me on  how to treat ADHD without drug use. I am eating way less sweets, not drinking a lot of soda, but even when I drink they are diet but aspartame is the shit anyway. I am taking daily vitamins and fish oil.

I also think I have sleep apnea because I didn't really visit a doctor for either of these because it costs me a lot of money to enable my insurance. Not being able to get resting sleep no matter when I go to bed it's been a huge problem for past few years because I am also over weight even though I am losing weight being in the U.S. Another thing I am trying to do with my Host-dad whom is a dentist. I am going to see and get those plastic things you put in your mouth to keep your jaw opened.

I wanna try Adderall because I wanna to wake up in the morning and feel rested, fresh and ready to go. But now it's 9:07pm and I am dead, I am probably going to sleep after this.

TL;DR: Confused exchange student with ADHD and Sleep apnea",adhd,enlgish main language realized bad wrote hope made point somewhere probably post going removed anyway hey high school exchange student started interested able work etc always knew learn stuff really come developing country europe shitty education living year realize behind supposed senior put junior class back home match graduated grade thing good hard time keep average program officer send easier cheat science great host family expecting hardcore christian sent alabama fucking bible belt month think problem parent know happening grew low standard life pretty much rest talking world wise trying find way help better even read book treat adhd without drug use eating le sweet drinking lot soda drink diet aspartame shit taking daily vitamin fish oil also sleep apnea visit doctor either cost money enable insurance get resting matter go bed huge past weight though losing another dad dentist see plastic mouth jaw opened wanna try adderall wake morning feel rested fresh ready pm dead tl dr confused,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Welcome to part III of To Accomplish Tuesday! 

We made the jump from 14 participants the first week to **28 participants and >100 comments**! ([Check out last weeks thread](http://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/rr7em/to_accomplish_tuesday_share_one_thing_you_would/)) 

***
By sharing your goal semi-publically we can keep each other and **accountable**...and **celebrate in our small successes!**

By getting one small task done it creates **momentum**, **trust** in yourself, **confidence**, and you will feel like doing more. 

♥ **Never posted on Reddit before?** I welcome you to make this your first! ☺☺☺

***
*Suggested Rules*

â–º **Just put ONE goal.** One thing you want to get done (or start). What is the most important thing for you? (If making a list works best for you feel free to do that too!)

â–º **When would you like to finish OR start it by?** By commiting to a date/time, we can check on your progress.

â–º **Edit your comment when done** - Come back and edit your comment when you have finished your goal. We can celebrate that (and then people won't check on you).

â–º **Create another when finished** - When you finished your first task feel free to add another! 

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**Tips**

* Your tasks/goals should ideally be SMART goals: **Specific, measurable, attainable, relevant, and time-bound**
* **Measurable** - Make sure you can be able to say YES I DID THIS. **Study enough** is not measurable. Study 2 hours is. 

* **Break it down** - Instead of saying clean my room...it might help to say. Clean room for 10 minutes or pick up trash in room.
* **Write it down elsewhere** - Sticky note by computer. Google calendar. Agenda. Write it down so you don't forget. Our working memories are flaky...
* **Start small** - We want to build on small successes so committing to cleaning your entire house might be a bit too much to handle. Pick a room instead. **Want to study for 2 hours a day?** Commit to studying one hour to make it easier on you..


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☼**Examples from previous weeks:**☼

☻ Unload the dishwasher

☻ Study X hours a day (though I suggest starting small with minutes)

☻ Make an appointment with doctor

☻ Clean car (get trash out)

☻ many more....

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I made it easier this week to respond Just copy/paste the below into your comment. (*I fixed it! Copy the code below and you will automatically have bullets on each line (and bold)*) **Edit: Added Reward! (doesn't have to cost money!)**

    * **What?** - 
    
    * **How much time?** - 
    
    * **When?** - 
    
    * **Potential Obstacles?** - 
    
    * **Check in on me? When?** -
    
    * **Reward** -
    

",adhd,welcome part iii accomplish tuesday made jump participant first week comment check last thread sharing goal semi publically keep accountable celebrate small success getting one task done creates momentum trust confidence feel like never posted reddit make suggested rule put thing want get start important making list work best free would finish commiting date time progress edit come back finished people create another add tip ideally smart specific measurable attainable relevant bound sure able say yes study enough hour break instead saying clean room might help minute pick trash write elsewhere sticky note computer google calendar agenda forget working memory flaky build committing cleaning entire house bit much handle day commit studying easier example previous unload dishwasher though suggest starting appointment doctor car many respond copy paste fixed code automatically bullet line bold added reward cost money potential obstacle,0.24,Moderately Positive
Edit: Thanks everyone for the responses. They are really helpful. I appreciate it. ,adhd,edit thanks everyone response really helpful appreciate,0.2,Moderately Positive
"I just came to the realization today that between increased productivity this weekend and having just started to keep my tv on in the background blaring uninteresting random stuff on netflix, background viewing was never about multitasking. It was about appeasing the part of my brain that wants to be a douche and ignore something. 

I started thinking back to school and how my peak creativity and productivity was in class with a lecturer speaking to me/the class. Of course, in college, I worked really hard to break this habit because that's just *rude* as hell and I also didn't want to go in and waste my money. But still, that urge in my brain was *there* and it's like having a stubborn toddler at the helm of my brain when it gets like this.

I usually had music or tv in the background when I was doing work but stopped for years as I lost a lot of interest in television and tended to just work in spurts in silence. I kind of forgot having something in the background was a thing I could do.

So recently, I started doing this again. That's when I realized that I'm getting stuff done again and it's because it's pleasing that jerk toddler running my brain by giving it something to purposefully ignore while I focus on what I want to get done.

I mean, it's no cure-all for sure, I still struggle terribly and absolutely need to get back on meds soon. It's just an interesting little something that I noticed about myself today and I'm wondering if this is a common thing people with ADHD-pi do to cope with the way our brains kind of disagree with everything else we need to do.",adhd,came realization today increased productivity weekend started keep tv background blaring uninteresting random stuff netflix viewing never multitasking appeasing part brain want douche ignore something thinking back school peak creativity class lecturer speaking course college worked really hard break habit rude hell also go waste money still urge like stubborn toddler helm get usually music work stopped year lost lot interest television tended spurt silence kind forgot thing could recently realized getting done pleasing jerk running giving purposefully focus mean cure sure struggle terribly absolutely need med soon interesting little noticed wondering common people adhd pi cope way disagree everything else,-0.04,Neutral
"My doctor, at my request switched me from 20 mg SR to 40 mg XR .  I tried 20 mg XR, but that didn't seem to touch me.  I'm now on 40 mg of XR, and so far so good.

Anyone else have experience switching from SR to XR?  How long does it last for you?",adhd,doctor request switched mg sr xr tried seem touch far good anyone else experience switching long last,0.19,Moderately Positive
"Freshman at college. I got a 95/100 which happens to be my highest scoring paper in the class cause I always procrastinate too much and turn things in late. It's not too long and it should be worth the read. 

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1PoN6HrUHGL6gJ4ODo_Ht43D-bTPRyWIZOdeNed8ey-A/edit?usp=sharing

BTW, thank you so much if you filled out my survey I posted a week or so ago.

Edit: Forgot the link lol",adhd,freshman college got happens highest scoring paper class cause always procrastinate much turn thing late long worth read btw thank filled survey posted week ago edit forgot link lol,0.22,Moderately Positive
Looking for recommendations from my people on good books for adult ADHD. I was diagnosed 30 years ago and feel like the only advice I received was take this pill and stop being lazy. It's only been the last year I realized maybe some of the things I hate about myself are the disorder and not necessarily any moral deficits. Maybe I can do something about it.,adhd,looking recommendation people good book adult adhd diagnosed year ago feel like advice received take pill stop lazy last realized maybe thing hate disorder necessarily moral deficit something,-0.04,Neutral
"35m here..... and just officially joined the club after being 95% sure on my self diagnosis for the past few months.  It's been about 4 months since I stumbled across a video on Dr. Barkley on /r/videos and subsequently onto r/adhd/ .  The light bulb after light bulb went off after digging into posts and videos about ADHD and I felt like I had finally found an explanation for SOOOOO many behaviours and aspects of my life that frustrated and puzzled me!


I went to see my doctor last week because my referal to a psychiatrist was taking so long and I was worried my work was being affected so he started me on low-dose vyvanse while I waited for my appointment with the psych today for the official diagnosis.


The psychiatrist today said I'm a textbook case...no doubt about it.  He also commended me on doing the research and making the steps to get answers and improve my life......so that felt pretty damn good.  I feel like this is such a huge thing for me, and it feels like the beginning of a new and much happier and more productive chapter of my life.  Wooo.


I love this sub.  You guys are all so helpful and supportive.",adhd,officially joined club sure self diagnosis past month since stumbled across video dr barkley subsequently onto adhd light bulb went digging post felt like finally found explanation sooooo many behaviour aspect life frustrated puzzled see doctor last week referal psychiatrist taking long worried work affected started low dose vyvanse waited appointment psych today official said textbook case doubt also commended research making step get answer improve pretty damn good feel huge thing beginning new much happier productive chapter wooo love sub guy helpful supportive,0.18,Moderately Positive
"It seems that I am too hyper. mostly everyone around me loves me , I have a large circle of friends, yet with woman I just can't seem to relax and I go a bit overbaord and they probably think i'm too out there. I love being the center of attention, but it seems most people can't handle that romantically/sexually.


It's gotten tot he point where i think its time to go back on adderall again.

How do you guys deal with this in terms of energy and dating?
It seems on med's im alot more chill and a listener and they like that.. but then i can't get it up.

Lmao, lose lose ",adhd,seems hyper mostly everyone around love large circle friend yet woman seem relax go bit overbaord probably think center attention people handle romantically sexually gotten tot point time back adderall guy deal term energy dating med im alot chill listener like get lmao lose,0.32,Moderately Positive
"Hey there all.  This is my first post in this subreddit after finding it a few weeks ago, and I just want to start by saying thanks to the mods for talking with me about some things a few days ago, and to everyone in the community for contributing.  My story has some unique things about it and could get long--not a surprise--but just a warning.  I will try to condense and make this as linear as possible.

I was diagnosed with ADD (or, ADHD inattentive, the proper diagnosis) at age 21, near the end of my first semester junior year of college.  I had been dealing with many issues beforehand, mostly social anxiety and sexual issues.  I had heard of Adderall for the first time in high school, but had no idea what ADD truly was.  I just knew that a kid sold it to students and you apparently would get a month of work done in a day.  I started hearing more about it and other medications in college, and while I was tempted to try it, I was afraid of putting something new in my body and wondered how the heck I could have ADHD at age 20/21?  Why did nobody notice it?  Is this actually real?

Some of those questions were answered when I did see a psychiatrist at my school.  She started me on Concerta, first at 18mg, then 36mg after a couple of weeks, and after a month adding 15mg Ritalin (generic IR tablets) in the afternoon to counteract rebound effects.  

**Here is where things get tricky and complicate my situation:** I started taking the IR tablets in ways other than as prescribed (use your imagination, describing this is not necessary for this subreddit), and in turn affected other addictions I was dealing with.  I ended therapy a few months after being diagnosed, so I didn't go back until later in college.  I did ask my doctor, though, what the effects of not taking my medication as prescribed would be, and she said that after a few days, the meds should work as usual.  Just continue to eat as healthy as possible and get sleep.

So this went on until I graduated.  I would take Concerta as prescribed but not the IR tablets...and every 1-2 months this would create a big issue (no sleep, poor performance at work/class for a few days, withdrawing from people, etc.).  Same after graduation applied when I got a new doctor after graduating and getting a full-time job.  He's a good guy, but doesn't spend that much time with patients it seems.  I kept my regiment and gradually increased dosage (before switching to Adderall last month I was up to 54mg Concerta and 40mg Ritalin daily, the Ritalin more on an as-needed basis).  The misuse still goes on, more for work purposes when I'm under lots of pressure, but I've become dependent on it also in social situations.  I would almost always run out of my meds early also...and I would cope with this the best I could.  By around April, the Concerta seemed to do very little and my anxiety would in fact increase.  Life has been hectic lately (new job recently, moving, financial issues).  I wasn't sure if this was due to using generic Concerta (a generic was released several months ago), switching to Ritalin SR when out of work (and health insurance) in late 2010/early 2011, or if I just had to ""deal with it"".

So like I said, I switched recently to Adderall, **where it gets worse**.  It has been a gift.  And a curse.  A gift because it works wonders, a curse because it has turned into a spiral of continously taking to keep going, being unable to sleep for 48+ hours at times, wanting to perform well at work and still be socially outgoing, and crashing super-hard once I decide to lay off.  Now that a big work deadline has been reached, I'm laying off for a few days and will hopefully do some research on my options.  In the meantime, here are some questions.

1) My current Adderall dosage is 75mg a day (IR tabs, 30 at morning, 30 at noon, 15 in afternoon.  Doctor started at 60 and upped me after a week).  This is **A LOT**, I have learned.  I *need* a lower dosage--my doctor sorta 'converted' my dosage rather than titrating up.  Can I ever get to a point where a lower dosage can work for me?  The addictive,  happy, ""speedy"" feeling that I am getting is a sign that I have too much, in my opinion.

2) Does anyone here want to share using Strattera or any other non-stimulant medication?  Is anyone here not medicated but able to cope with ADHD in other ways?  I ask this in case I truly need to seek alternatives, lest this cycle continues to the point where Adderall is no longer effective at all.

3) A dumb one, but how should the doctor/patient relationship work?  How often do you see your doc?  What should appointments be like?  I see mine every 2 months usually.  We meet for an hour but spend little time talking about my actual regimen and such.  That said, should I truly desire to get back on track, finding a new doctor appears to be a must.

4) Does ADHD naturally worsen with meds that work better?  Before getting stuck in this ""cycle"", I noticed the crashes were hard to begin with.  Again, could be a dosage thing, could be something I need to just ""learn to deal with"".

This was a bit all over the place (I left my meds at work intentionally to have at least a couple days off, if not longer).  If anything needs clarification, I'll be happy to explain as soon as I can.  Ask away.

**TL;DR--was diagnosed in college, didn't take meds ""as directed"" and didn't take having ADHD seriously due to the usual stigmas we know too well and hear too often, meds no longer work due to tolerance or anxiety or different brands, switched to Adderall, probably got prescribed too much and could be spiraling into something bad.  What do?**",adhd,hey first post subreddit finding week ago want start saying thanks mod talking thing day everyone community contributing story unique could get long surprise warning try condense make linear possible diagnosed add adhd inattentive proper diagnosis age near end semester junior year college dealing many issue beforehand mostly social anxiety sexual heard adderall time high school idea truly knew kid sold student apparently would month work done started hearing medication tempted afraid putting something new body wondered heck nobody notice actually real question answered see psychiatrist concerta mg couple adding ritalin generic ir tablet afternoon counteract rebound effect tricky complicate situation taking way prescribed use imagination describing necessary turn affected addiction ended therapy go back later ask doctor though said med usual continue eat healthy sleep went graduated take every create big poor performance class withdrawing people etc graduation applied got graduating getting full job good guy spend much patient seems kept regiment gradually increased dosage switching last daily needed basis misuse still purpose lot pressure become dependent also almost always run early cope best around april seemed little fact increase life hectic lately recently moving financial sure due using released several sr health insurance late deal like switched worse gift curse wonder turned spiral continously keep going unable hour wanting perform well socially outgoing crashing super hard decide lay deadline reached laying hopefully research option meantime current tab morning noon upped learned need lower sorta converted rather titrating ever point addictive happy speedy feeling sign opinion anyone share strattera non stimulant medicated able case seek alternative lest cycle continues longer effective dumb one relationship often doc appointment mine usually meet actual regimen desire track appears must naturally worsen better stuck noticed crash begin learn bit place left intentionally least anything clarification explain soon away tl dr directed seriously stigma know hear tolerance different brand probably spiraling bad,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I received 3 months worth of scripts from my old doctor when I moved, just to be safe, as i was worried about running out if i couldnt see a doctor before the 3 months were up. I told myself i was just overreacting and stressing about seeing a new doctor, there was nothing to worry about, BOY I WAS WRONG.   I made an  appt with new doctor, was 15 minutes late to the hour long intake appt as i got lost. I was told to go home. A few weeks later i went for my intake appt, it didnt even take a full hour. Im finding that the people in this clinic are some real time nazis. Their policy is 5 minutes late you go home.
 
I was scheduled a month out for my next appt (2 hours) 1 hour with nurse, 1 hour with doctor) received a call saying come 10 minutes early to fill out paperwork. i was stressed out when i arrived the roads were icy and i got lost again, but turns out i didnt have to drive like a crazy woman because ..... there was no paperwork to fill out.  I saw the nurse, answered questions, doctor came in gave me that fake smile you get, then proceeded to tell me he could fill this script, that script, but wouldnt fill my add script or my klonopin script. 
Reason: this doctor actually told me a new law was passed restricting doctors to only prescribing one controlled substance to a patient. HE LIED. I checked with 2 doctors 3 pharmacists and the legislative rep for my county. I cant believe this a**hat actually looked me in the face and lied, like i was too stupid to doubt him. I asked why if i had to take all the tests before getting add meds he wasnt filling my klonopin script, get this, he said because i would possibly in the future be taking add meds he didnt want to fill the klonopin script, what!!!!   
Dr. seemed to think we were in valley of the dolls, you know, a yellow one to wake up and red to go to sleep, and a variety of colors in between. When, in reality, I take short acting add meds in the am and 13 hours later take my klonopin.
Dr then disagreed with me saying  ""your chart shows you take one klonopin during the day, one at night "" so i guess now im not only a drug addict but a liar as well. 
Dr talked about the street value of drugs, I explained to him that I hadn't known the street value as i was not a street walker, that I had no interest in the street value since i can only refill 2 days early and if i sell them i cant take them duh... 
I have not seen a mental health care  professional in 4 months, all that matters to the people who are supposed to be concerned about my mental health first and foremost  is street value of drugs dirty urine re-doing at quite a high cost my add tests and making me feel like sh*t, something Im quite capable of doing myself free of charge.  Number one priority for them is that i get a urine test which has to come back negative or they won't schedule me for an appt??? for me to take add tests over again  to prove what has already been proved that i have add!! They dont care if it takes months of feeling like sh** before i get my meds back, they have no consideration for the fact that this will affect my work production and finances, the depression that will come back, etc etc    I have never been so upset, outraged, demeaned and humiliated as i was when leaving that office.
May be the add, but i want to burn his office down, call the ethics board, and tell him exactly what i think of his behavior, lack of compassion, empathy, and patients well-being, along with sending the link to the Maine psychiatrists guide to ethics. Has anyone else had this happen to them? Isn't it unethical to lie to a patient? Isnt it unethical to let a patient go 4 months without any supportive care especially with a major stressor like moving 4 hours away, alone, to a town where you don't know a soul? Now i have to stress about the 3 weeks before my meds run out, on top of being completely pissed off all the time about what happened.  this DR is a joke but the only game in town. Does anyone else get this obsessed and crazy about some guy controlling their life, telling them what to do, and being suspicious about them for  no good reason?? I honestly felt like someone must feel who is arrested for drugs, and has to go to their probation office for a urine test.",adhd,received month worth script old doctor moved safe worried running couldnt see told overreacting stressing seeing new nothing worry boy wrong made appt minute late hour long intake got lost go home week later went didnt even take full im finding people clinic real time nazi policy scheduled next nurse call saying come early fill paperwork stressed arrived road icy turn drive like crazy woman saw answered question came gave fake smile get proceeded tell could wouldnt add klonopin reason actually law passed restricting prescribing one controlled substance patient lied checked pharmacist legislative rep county cant believe hat looked face stupid doubt asked test getting med wasnt filling said would possibly future taking want dr seemed think valley doll know yellow wake red sleep variety color reality short acting disagreed chart show day night guess drug addict liar well talked street value explained known walker interest since refill sell duh seen mental health care professional matter supposed concerned first foremost dirty urine quite high cost making feel sh something capable free charge number priority back negative schedule prove already proved dont feeling consideration fact affect work production finance depression etc never upset outraged demeaned humiliated leaving office may burn ethic board exactly behavior lack compassion empathy along sending link maine psychiatrist guide anyone else happen unethical lie isnt let without supportive especially major stressor moving away alone town soul stress run top completely pissed happened joke game obsessed guy controlling life telling suspicious good honestly felt someone must arrested probation,0.0,Neutral
"I'm relatively new to the world of ADHD meds. A few weeks ago my doctor prescribed me 20 mg of Vyvanse. I took that for a week and it did nothing for me so I got bumped up to 40 mg. On this dose I feel much more focused and I'm able to complete tasks with minimal procrastination. I recently had a followup appointment with my doctor and got bumped up to 60 mg. I took my first dose of 60 mg today and I haven't noticed much difference from the 40 mg dose. As far as side effects go, the main one I experience is decreased appetite but this seems to be slowly coming back and I'm getting hungry again around lunch. I still experience some euphoria but this has been decreasing every day, which is fine. I'm not taking it for the euphoria. I've also noticed that when I'm focused on something I don't really want to talk to people, and I feel like I come across as very cold and uninterested if I do have to talk to someone.

Anyway, to my main point.

While Vyvanse has done a lot for my focus I don't really feel any kind of increase in motivation or initiative. Is this normal, or are my expectations just too high? If I'm working on something I can usually see it through until it's done. I still procrastinate but I feel like on Vyvanse I have more control over it and can easily choose to stop and get back to work. But I still have a lot of difficulty getting motivated to do tasks that aren't straightforward or interesting. I'm a software developer and if I'm told, ""Go write some software to implement this feature,"" I can sit down and do it. But if I'm told something like, ""We want to implement this feature, do some research and give us a report on it,"" I'm not that motivated to do it because it's not straightforward and requires the type of mental effort that I don't really enjoy, so it's much harder to get started and stop procrastination. My wife also hasn't really noticed that I'm more motivated to help out with chores around the house. She'll give me a list of a few things she needs help with and I might do half of them before blowing off the rest. That isn't really a change from my normal self.

So are my expectations too high? Is Vyvanse doing what it's supposed to? I've read a lot of stories from people who have said ADHD meds changed their lives and how they want to be busy all the time but I haven't really experienced that. I lack focus and motivation. Vyvanse helps with the focus part but the motivation part still seems missing.",adhd,relatively new world adhd med week ago doctor prescribed mg vyvanse took nothing got bumped dose feel much focused able complete task minimal procrastination recently followup appointment first today noticed difference far side effect go main one experience decreased appetite seems slowly coming back getting hungry around lunch still euphoria decreasing every day fine taking also something really want talk people like come across cold uninterested someone anyway point done lot focus kind increase motivation initiative normal expectation high working usually see procrastinate control easily choose stop get work difficulty motivated straightforward interesting software developer told write implement feature sit research give u report requires type mental effort enjoy harder started wife help chore house list thing need might half blowing rest change self supposed read story said changed life busy time experienced lack part missing,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I have about 12 hours of work I need to do, and I've had since monday to do so. I could have started on friday, and given myself extra time. Now it's a crunch.

Why do I keep doing this to myself? I'll spend all day being distracted. Not really working, not really doing anything I actually want to do either. Just surfing the internet, or bouncing from one distraction to another.

For the right tasks, I can be an EXTREMELY hard worker. I'm a photographer, and when I'm on a movie set I'll put in 10-15 hour days and be engaged like crazy for a month straight.

Then I'll struggle to even start work that is easy.

Once I actually start working in earnest it is always easy. Why does it take me so long to start?",adhd,hour work need since monday could started friday given extra time crunch keep spend day distracted really working anything actually want either surfing internet bouncing one distraction another right task extremely hard worker photographer movie set put engaged like crazy month straight struggle even start easy earnest always take long,0.02,Neutral
"I'm just a few days into taking meds (Vyvanse 30 mg /day to start) and SO happy to be seeing the positive side of treatment.

One thing I haven't figured out... Is dealing with the frustration of my little time window. Today I had taken my med, was at the peak of it working, and working in a focused way on some paperwork that I'm way overdue on - in a location where I could work well.

Then I got interrupted for 90 minutes, now i have to go home where i can't work as well, my med is wearing off, and i feel like the day is a total loss now. To be honest, I'm really mad.

I'm hoping this will lessen over time as I get to the point where I'm not so far behind and don't feel like every moment is precious. Im also hoping that as we titrate this I'll get a longer working period than the 4-5 hours max that I get now.

Is this a common feeling worth being newly medicated? Will it get less frustrating? ",adhd,day taking med vyvanse mg start happy seeing positive side treatment one thing figured dealing frustration little time window today taken peak working focused way paperwork overdue location could work well got interrupted minute go home wearing feel like total loss honest really mad hoping lessen get point far behind every moment precious im also titrate longer period hour max common feeling worth newly medicated le frustrating,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Like everyone here I've struggled with sleep my whole life. Until very recently.

I wouldn't feel tired enough to go to bed until after midnight. Once I was in bed I'd lie there, submerged in a torrent of thoughts for *hours*. When the time came to wake, I'd be so tired and so zombified I'd just lie in bed for hours *again*.

All of this changed **instantly** when I switched my covers for a very thin blanket and left the window open. At least so long as the nights are cool. I fall asleep within 15 minutes, I wake up instantly, ready to go, without alarm, even after just a couple hours of sleep, as soon as there's light outside.

Over the past couple months I was able to observe a 1:1 ratio of awesome nights of sleep to nights that were colder. Just this week there were five cold nights and five awesome nights of sleep. A heat wave came the past two days and I'm here, still in my pajamas at 1:30 PM.

I am now aware, after re-reading what I've written a dozen times like I always do, that this sounds like salesman-talk. But it really is like magic. Try it out. Either do what I did, or us AC, or get cooling mats that are specifically designed for this. Find the temperature perfect for you.

Just don't get over-enthused like I did at first and don't push the cold too much. If it's cold enough to make you shiver it's definitely cold enough to give you pneumonia.

This **is** from my personal experience, but there are dozens of papers on google scholar that show this same relationship of body temperature and sleep quality. If you find one that's free and most relevant to us let me know, I for sure won't read them all!",adhd,like everyone struggled sleep whole life recently feel tired enough go bed midnight lie submerged torrent thought hour time came wake zombified changed instantly switched cover thin blanket left window open least long night cool fall asleep within minute ready without alarm even couple soon light outside past month able observe ratio awesome colder week five cold heat wave two day still pajama pm aware reading written dozen always sound salesman talk really magic try either u ac get cooling mat specifically designed find temperature perfect enthused first push much make shiver definitely give pneumonia personal experience paper google scholar show relationship body quality one free relevant let know sure read,0.16,Moderately Positive
"You might remember me from my hastily written [panic attack from sitting in a work meeting too long](https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/6wzknd/i_almost_burst_into_tears_at_our_work_meeting/) thread I made a while back. Well, the day after I made that thread, I finally went back to my psychiatrist (several months after the nightmare Straterra put me through) and he agreed to put me on a stimulant. Which was Vyanese. They gave me a month's supply free, 30mg once a day.

Here's what I've noticed so far:

* I take it in the morning after I get to work, with food (commute is long so I just pack breakfast and eat it while answering emails). The doctor told me that the usual duration is 10-12 hours, which has been pretty consistent. What I did notice is that I have a lot of trouble now actually going to sleep. Like, at the point at night where I usually start to get sleepy, my brain doesn't recognize it as sleepy. It just recognizes it as ""ehhh going to open and close games for 30 minutes or lie on the floor with the cats but not actually get ready for bed."" It's like I feel that the drug's worn off, but it still wants to kind of keep me awake. If I don't force myself to physically climb in bed, turn off the lights/computer and not TOUCH my phone, I just kind of stay awake in a zombie-like state. 

* The first few days taking it were kind of a mess. I admit that this was partly my fault, as I'm so used to not eating anything until lunch time. With Vyanese, if I don't make sure I stay hydrated, or if I haven't gotten enough protein, I get headaches/head pressure. Now, I make sure to eat a cup or small container of yogurt before taking the pill. It's predictably killed my appetite, though, and I still have trouble figuring out what it is my body wants - food or drink or nothing. I think the first day I took it, we had pizza for lunch. I can't eat pizza anymore on Vyanese because my body will act like I've eaten virtually nothing and start freaking out.

* When it's kicked in and I've eaten what I'm supposed to and kept myself hydrated, it works GREAT. I've been so focused at work. I find myself more open and friendly, more prone to initiating conversation or simply just saying hi to my coworkers. I feel more confident, I can think quicker, and I'm somehow suddenly able to explain things better without having to backtrack too much or completely forgetting what I was going to say. I can talk to a single person in a room and not have part of my brain trying to see what's going on with the people on the other side of the room. Part of me feels like I'm high, but it's a good high, I think? I keep wanting to crawl back into my cave before I fuck something up with this new weird confidence thing.

* When the meds wear off, the deep introspection/depression/sad thoughts about past events comes back. It's nothing too bad though as long as I can distract myself.

* I no longer have an almost panicky urge to buy things. Went to a friend's house and we played with his and his girlfriend's Nintendo Switch. That thing is beautiful. But I was able to rationally come to the conclusion, ""no, Drej, we're paying off our credit card that got ran up because of this impulsive bullshit. We save for things like normal fucking humans now. Also, you're either beating or uninstalling all those games on Steam before we even think about another console we don't have time for."" I want to see how long this thought pattern lasts. It's nice to be able to window shop on Amazon and put things on the wishlist instead of in the basket.

* If there's one thing it's easy to get me engrossed in, it's building stuff, on games or otherwise. It is not a good idea to let me build things while on Vyanese. It will be five hours later and I'm still plugging away at whatever I was doing.

* I feel a bit more optimistic about life and what I could be doing. Making plans and such.

I don't know if Vyanese just managed to put some brakes on ADHD, depression, and anxiety all at the same time, but it did. I guess the only thing I want to know now is, how do you know when it's time to up your dose, or when to stop taking the pills for a bit? Do they stick around in your system like other drugs? Can I just not take them on the weekends or on days when I'm not going to be working?

Also, does the high ever go away? Because I don't know if I'm ever going to get used to feeling like my brain is a mildly chaotic yet steadily moving line of traffic, as opposed to [this scene from the Fate of the Furious](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AoB_mdZxNlY).

____________________________________________________________________________

TL;DR: Is this how people are supposed to feel?",adhd,might remember hastily written panic attack sitting work meeting long thread made back well day finally went psychiatrist several month nightmare straterra put agreed stimulant vyanese gave supply free mg noticed far take morning get food commute pack breakfast eat answering email doctor told usual duration hour pretty consistent notice lot trouble actually going sleep like point night usually start sleepy brain recognize recognizes ehhh open close game minute lie floor cat ready bed feel drug worn still want kind keep awake force physically climb turn light computer touch phone stay zombie state first taking mess admit partly fault used eating anything lunch time make sure hydrated gotten enough protein headache head pressure cup small container yogurt pill predictably killed appetite though figuring body drink nothing think took pizza anymore act eaten virtually freaking kicked supposed kept great focused find friendly prone initiating conversation simply saying hi coworkers confident quicker somehow suddenly able explain thing better without backtrack much completely forgetting say talk single person room part trying see people side high good wanting crawl cave fuck something new weird confidence med wear deep introspection depression sad thought past event come bad distract longer almost panicky urge buy friend house played girlfriend nintendo switch beautiful rationally conclusion drej paying credit card got ran impulsive bullshit save normal fucking human also either beating uninstalling steam even another console pattern last nice window shop amazon wishlist instead basket one easy engrossed building stuff otherwise idea let build five later plugging away whatever bit optimistic life could making plan know managed brake adhd anxiety guess dose stop stick around system weekend working ever go feeling mildly chaotic yet steadily moving line traffic opposed scene fate furious tl dr,0.1,Moderately Positive
I sleep like a rock even on meds and I have to set 2-3 alarms to wake me up for anything. I also have to place this alarm on the other side of the room and i still just get up push snooze and go back to sleep. I wait till I have like ~20 minutes to get ready to actually get up. Just interested in seeing if this is the ADHD or me just having a love affair with staying in bed.,adhd,sleep like rock even med set alarm wake anything also place side room still get push snooze go back wait till minute ready actually interested seeing adhd love affair staying bed,0.24,Moderately Positive
"In the past seven days I have:

Had a co-worker die

Learned a friend committed suicide

Got evicted from my apartment

Had to give up my dog (this was actually the hardest of them all)

I'm not thinking of any self harm or anything like that.

I still have a job I've been at going on 5 years.

I have the car I just bought that I've wanted all my life (Jeep!)

I just... I don't know. Feel like I need a couple of days to regroup. But I don't have a chance for that any time soon.

I'm pretty sure I have a new place already, which.. wow. I mean, I got my notice yesterday. I have awesome friends.

I don't know. I guess I'm having a hard time knowing which way is up right now and I don't really know where to begin to actually start processing and for real dealing with everything that's happened in such a short amount of time. 

tl;dr: How do you guys deal when life throws you curve balls out of a gatling gun?
",adhd,past seven day co worker die learned friend committed suicide got evicted apartment give dog actually hardest thinking self harm anything like still job going year car bought wanted life jeep know feel need couple regroup chance time soon pretty sure new place already wow mean notice yesterday awesome guess hard knowing way right really begin start processing real dealing everything happened short amount tl dr guy deal throw curve ball gatling gun,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I am graduating college next year, and have recently started applying for internships/other career opportunities. Many of these companies require drug testing before being offered any position. Now I understand that having a prescription for the medication makes it legal to be taking them, but how do I explain this to an employer after a drug screening comes back with amphetamines? Pharmacy receipts, doctor papers? 


- Explaining to a friend seems easier then explaining your diagnosed with ADHD to an employer. ",adhd,graduating college next year recently started applying internship career opportunity many company require drug testing offered position understand prescription medication make legal taking explain employer screening come back amphetamine pharmacy receipt doctor paper explaining friend seems easier diagnosed adhd,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Hello, thank you all for reading, wondering if some of you just rather help me with my homework than do your own ;)

So I'm am doing this ADHD CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) training and the assignment this week is to analyse some negative statements you think about yourself, as an example in my book: 'I am a bad mother.'

For me this is: 'I am lazy.' which is something I don't think about myself most of the time. I don't know anyone who has as much projects going as me on the other hand I also can't regularly do my dishes. Anyway I'm currently doing a fulltime internship and most weeks on Friday when I'm home, I can only think about all the things I wanted to do that week and how much time I could've spend more productively. This is when my medication wears off so I know that doesn't help but at that point I accuse myself of being lazy.

The assignment is this:

1. Write down the positive characteristics and qualities of someone who is not lazy, someone you would look up to (can be a fictional person)

2. Write down the negative characteristics of someone who is not lazy that you despise (can be a fictional person)

3. Put all these opposite characteristics on a line, one on 0 and the other on 10 and give a number where you would put yourself on that line.

I'm already having a hard time defining the opposite of lazy. So I'm hoping, guessing all of you have ever been called lazy or may have these thoughts about yourself as well, that you could help me a little.

Some nuances in the assignment might have gotten lost in translation, I wasn't able to find a link about this type of CBT assignment in English but I'll look some more. Literally translating the title: multi dimensional nuanced evaluation.

Thanks for reading :)",adhd,hello thank reading wondering rather help homework adhd cbt cognitive behavioural therapy training assignment week analyse negative statement think example book bad mother lazy something time know anyone much project going hand also regularly dish anyway currently fulltime internship friday home thing wanted could spend productively medication wear point accuse write positive characteristic quality someone would look fictional person despise put opposite line one give number already hard defining hoping guessing ever called may thought well little nuance might gotten lost translation able find link type english literally translating title multi dimensional nuanced evaluation thanks,-0.04,Neutral
"I was originally taking the 27mg which had a very small effect, then my Dr increased it to 36mg and I've been on that since the 2nd week of January. Since taking it I noticed a huge jump in my productivity and ability to get work done. However now that we're in the middle of February I'm not sure whether I'm just going through a burnout period or if it's related to concerta but I don't feel it anymore, and I'm back to the days where I have to mentally force myself to work and it feels like how it used to be where I feel unmotivated and barely get anything done. I even have some extra 18mg concerta laying around and I've had 36mg + 18mg and a few hours later 100mg of caffeine and still no noticeable effect.",adhd,originally taking mg small effect dr increased since nd week january noticed huge jump productivity ability get work done however middle february sure whether going burnout period related concerta feel anymore back day mentally force like used unmotivated barely anything even extra laying around hour later caffeine still noticeable,0.09,Moderately Positive
"I'm taking medikinet 30mg and have been doing that for a little week

My side effects are heart beat is faster than usual
Hands feel cold or hand sweat
Dry mouth
Eating to a degree
And I'm yawning very much and I feel tired

Can I fix this problem?",adhd,taking medikinet mg little week side effect heart beat faster usual hand feel cold sweat dry mouth eating degree yawning much tired fix problem,-0.3,Moderately Negative
"And I feel amazing, literally today was the first day I've felt this focused, this clear headed, this happy in years. Today my mom and I had a normal conversation, we laughed and went out. I took my girlfriend out on a nice simple lunch date, we had a clear focused conversation. I cleaned my car, I sorted my mail, I called and wrote down information on doctors. I feel free and liberated, like I was able to take the chains off. But I'm scared, the medication I have now is leftover from when I was in highschool, it works, but I only have 3 days worth of pills now. I have been in contact with a service about getting my medication, and I am within all the criteria for them to cover it all for free. The issue being I need a doctor to sign it off and write the prescription. So I'm hoping and praying so hard that when I go to the 2 doctors I've narrowed down tomorrow they'll give me the good news and write me up for the medication. If not I'll go back to being able to do one, maybe two things a day before being mentally burnt out. 

So TL;DR I took my medication, I feel amazing, only have a couple days worth before running out. Going to see a doctor to hopefull get a prescription.",adhd,feel amazing literally today first day felt focused clear headed happy year mom normal conversation laughed went took girlfriend nice simple lunch date cleaned car sorted mail called wrote information doctor free liberated like able take chain scared medication leftover highschool work worth pill contact service getting within criterion cover issue need sign write prescription hoping praying hard go narrowed tomorrow give good news back one maybe two thing mentally burnt tl dr couple running going see hopefull get,0.31,Moderately Positive
"So yesterday I'm casually entering my weekly Swedish class.
I'm having a typical boring Thursday and is hardly keeping up with being social, concentrated and functioning as a human being at the same time.

What I didn't know about this typical Thursday was that I was soon be reminded of a presentation I was going to have that same day, that same class in fact. 
What is it about you may ask, well just a casual presentation about the scale of the universe starting at the very smallest thing one could observe (Plank length = (10^-35m)) to the whole observable universe (93 billion light years across and growing) also mentioning pretty much everything worth mentioning there in between.

My Swedish-class professor walks up to me and says:
You ready Oscar? 

It's amazing how much 3 words can make your brain-system collapse, and all my stupid face could respond with was:
Yeah sure, I'm ready.

As soon as those words had left my mouth, I wanted to slowly sink through the floor and never return, leaving just a note in which it said ""Sorry I'm a stupid ass-face and I'm sorry for wasting your time, kind regards Ass-face""
For I had not completed a presentation about the universe, nor had I written a single word, or even thought about doing so.

I had simply been procrastinating. Saying to myself (and to the professor) that ""No I'll do the presentation next week on the next class"" or ""Oh, I need a little more time to prepare"" knowing full and well that a ""little more time to prepare"" makes it sounds like I'm soon to be finished, which I was not. Not at all. 

He says:
Well perfect, how about in 20 minutes you do the presentation?

Yeah, that'll be perfect! I respond with a little bit too confident of a tone.

Well fucking great, now I have 20 minutes to read up on everything between the plank length and the observable universe, write a manuscript, make a power point and learning it somewhat, in order to perform a decent presentation without having a sheet of paper in my (ass) face the whole time.

I look over at my friend and he just looks back at me shaking his head and says:
-Well, it can be done, but be fast Oscar, be fast.

And he was right. Somewhat. He was wrong in the sense that one could read, learn, write, produce power point, hold presentation all in 20 minutes. Especially about a topic so wide like mine.

I end up translating YouTubers Exurb1a's video about the universe in 4 minutes (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mheHbVev1CU&t=8s)

Making a quick and simple power point, and reading the manuscript for a total of 3 times before walking up to the front of the classroom about to hold a presentation my classmates had worked on for 3 weeks, but I had only worked on for 17 minutes.

It all worked out for the better. And surprisingly enough, given the short amount of time I prepared, the presentation ended up not so bad (and by that I mean, not being a disaster).

The whole point of this story is that I think it is interesting how I can procrastinate for 5 weeks straight about something, and then finally sitting down working like a super-machine for 17 minutes making a 6-minute presentation happening.

ADHD is weird, but I like it.

If you want to see the presentation there is a version on Exurb1a's channel.




TL;DR
I didn't write a presentation. 
And then yesterday the professor came up to me and asked if I wanted to do the presentation.
And I, without thinking, saying yes, knowing I had not written a single word.

I end up translating a video, making a presentation, learning it and then presenting it in under 20 minutes.
ADHD is weird. But I like it.
",adhd,yesterday casually entering weekly swedish class typical boring thursday hardly keeping social concentrated functioning human time know soon reminded presentation going day fact may ask well casual scale universe starting smallest thing one could observe plank length whole observable billion light year across growing also mentioning pretty much everything worth professor walk say ready oscar amazing word make brain system collapse stupid face respond yeah sure left mouth wanted slowly sink floor never return leaving note said sorry as wasting kind regard completed written single even thought simply procrastinating saying next week oh need little prepare knowing full sound like finished perfect minute bit confident tone fucking great read write manuscript power point learning somewhat order perform decent without sheet paper look friend back shaking head done fast right wrong sense learn produce hold especially topic wide mine end translating youtubers exurb video making quick simple reading total walking front classroom classmate worked better surprisingly enough given short amount prepared ended bad mean disaster story think interesting procrastinate straight something finally sitting working super machine happening adhd weird want see version channel tl dr came asked thinking yes presenting,0.05,Moderately Positive
"This job sucks. I think it's literally killing me. I do residential Loan Origination. I picked it because I love houses, but it turned out to be a mountain of paperwork to the point where I'm drowning in suicidal thoughts.

The worst part is, I felt this way when I was in school, I just didn't know it. I've had other jobs where I was extremely productive and happy too.

Anyone else have an experience like this? What did you do? Did it get better?",adhd,job suck think literally killing residential loan origination picked love house turned mountain paperwork point drowning suicidal thought worst part felt way school know extremely productive happy anyone else experience like get better,0.14,Moderately Positive
I'm alittle scared but I'm trying not to think about it. Anybody else get panicky about Dr stuff?,adhd,alittle scared trying think anybody else get panicky dr stuff,0.0,Neutral
So I'm thinking about starting my own business. How the do you guys not move on to something else or just keep focused on your business? I'm so worried I'm going to invest all this money and time and then give it up like I do all of my many rotating hobbies. Any tips?,adhd,thinking starting business guy move something else keep focused worried going invest money time give like many rotating hobby tip,0.25,Moderately Positive
"Next wednesday I have to finish my thesis and I'm at a loss. To make it even worse it is my third and last chance. Usually you get two chances but because I recently got diagnosed with ADHD and the school recognized my potential they gave me a third chance based on 'medical reasons' (I failed my previous two chances because I started way too late. Also they expect the thesis to be VERY structural according to school rules which is very difficult for me). So I HAVE to finish it or I'm gonna let a lot of people, including myself down + I'll have to start a new thesis and I really really don't want to have to do that.  

I am not really interested in the topic and regret my decision for choosing this bachelor. But I have spent 4 years getting to this point and I need to finish it to be able to have a basis so I can take a different life direction. I had 4 weeks to edit my thesis. I barely did anything. Procrastinating it constantly. Whenever I start I get immense anxiety and even when I fight through that I just can't focus on it. I exercise, try yoga, eat healthy, meditate (for some reason I can do all those things consistently now!) but the thesis is still sitting there.

I really need advice because I'm at a loss and I don't want to start under immense pressure on monday and run the risk of failing. What should I do? How should an ADHDer fill in the next few days to be productive, reduce anxiety and get this thesis done.",adhd,next wednesday finish thesis loss make even worse third last chance usually get two recently got diagnosed adhd school recognized potential gave based medical reason failed previous started way late also expect structural according rule difficult gonna let lot people including start new really want interested topic regret decision choosing bachelor spent year getting point need able basis take different life direction week edit barely anything procrastinating constantly whenever immense anxiety fight focus exercise try yoga eat healthy meditate thing consistently still sitting advice pressure monday run risk failing adhder fill day productive reduce done,-0.01,Neutral
"I know I'm not alone in this, but I feel like I am. When I work, or have to think in general, I can't have any distractions, which includes audio and video. If the TV is on, or music is playing, that's what I'm focused on, nothing else. I love music, and I struggle to not listen while I work, but if I listen, I don't work.. 


I work from home (which is a huge struggle for me in general), and I require silence. It drives my wife crazy, but she gets it and is supportive, and so she'll wear headphones a lot. 


This morning was a particularly bad morning, and I just couldn't get it together and stay on task. Somehow I ended up on Spotify, because squirrel, and this playlist was on the front page.


Title: Productive Morning

Description: Get into a morning flow with this focus playlist

Link: [https://open.spotify.com/user/spotify/playlist/37i9dQZF1DX6T5dWVv97mp](https://open.spotify.com/user/spotify/playlist/37i9dQZF1DX6T5dWVv97mp)


Definitely not my style of music, at all, but I'll be damned if it didn't help me re-focus my efforts into something meaningful and productive. I figured I'd pass it a long, and maybe it'll help someone else too. 


TL;DR: Super distracted this morning, found interesting playlist that helped me out. ",adhd,know alone feel like work think general distraction includes audio video tv music playing focused nothing else love struggle listen home huge require silence drive wife crazy get supportive wear headphone lot morning particularly bad together stay task somehow ended spotify squirrel playlist front page title productive description flow focus link definitely style damned help effort something meaningful figured pas long maybe someone tl dr super distracted found interesting helped,0.13,Moderately Positive
"I recently started taking 15mg pills of XR Adderall to help me focus in university and I told my friends just to keep them up to date and also so they can help me out and tell me if I start acting weird. My friend asked me ""If it wasn't for having to focus on school, do you think you would rather have ADD or not have it?"" I wasn't sure how to respond at first but then realized that ADD is a big part of who I am and that I wouldn't change that if I could. Part of what makes me unique is that I always have random thoughts popping into my head constantly, and I am occasionally creative and funny with my speech. Anyone else feel the same way as me?

TL;DR Asked if I would prefer not to have ADD if schoolwork wasn't a factor, I said I prefer it.",adhd,recently started taking mg pill xr adderall help focus university told friend keep date also tell start acting weird asked school think would rather add sure respond first realized big part change could make unique always random thought popping head constantly occasionally creative funny speech anyone else feel way tl dr prefer schoolwork factor said,0.09,Moderately Positive
"So yesterday I got my results back from my ADHD evaluation that was performed 3.5 months ago. I'm meh about them. Not in the diagnosis itself, ADHD - Inattentive with Anxiety non-specified but may be tied to ADHD, but the lack of real information. 

1.5 page narrative most of which was rehashing what I said during the interview portion, with a couple paragraphs of diagnosis. And 1 page of test results with no explanation besides score number and whether they were low or high on the scale.  (things like Moderate Impermanent and High, Borderline High, etc.)

Recommendations were just medication and see a therapist, which I've already been doing while waiting for these results.   I'm hoping my next therapy session will further explain the results.  I can't afford to go to the evaluator for a longer explanation, he doesn't take my insurance.
",adhd,yesterday got result back adhd evaluation performed month ago meh diagnosis inattentive anxiety non specified may tied lack real information page narrative rehashing said interview portion couple paragraph test explanation besides score number whether low high scale thing like moderate impermanent borderline etc recommendation medication see therapist already waiting hoping next therapy session explain afford go evaluator longer take insurance,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I'm curious if anybody else has issues getting to bed (I'm assuming it's not just me since we're generally all shit at doing things on time lol). It's probably the thing I am worst at above all else, and it fucks me over real bad since my symptoms are way worse if I'm sleep deprived (primarily inattentive, I have almost no hyperactivity), and it makes it exponentially harder to wake up on time the next day. 

To be clear, I thankfully don't have any issues actually falling asleep once I go to bed. I'll just fail repeatedly and consistently to get in my goddamn bed on time.

Any tips or tricks that work for you?",adhd,curious anybody else issue getting bed assuming since generally shit thing time lol probably worst fuck real bad symptom way worse sleep deprived primarily inattentive almost hyperactivity make exponentially harder wake next day clear thankfully actually falling asleep go fail repeatedly consistently get goddamn tip trick work,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"It's not because I don't like them or don't miss them. I just don't think calling or mailing them a letter or whatever. All of my relatives are on facebook and I cannot be bothered to write a single goddamn post to them.

I fucking suck. I hope I'm not the only one who does this...or well, I hope I am the only one cause then...yeah...I hope someone can relate.",adhd,like miss think calling mailing letter whatever relative facebook cannot bothered write single goddamn post fucking suck hope one well cause yeah someone relate,-0.22,Moderately Negative
"For me it's like I'm just passively moving through life, not quite present. I haven't quite been able to pinpoint why I feel like this or wether it's an ADHD issue. It wasn't so bad when I was in high school around 15-18 years old. But over the last few years 19-21 it's been getting worse and worse. I completely stoped smoking weed for months at a time and started working out, but I still don't feel clear minded.  The side effects of medication (Vyvanse/Ritalin/Adderall) is just too much to be viable for me,I just get too wired. I've also tried avoiding screens (phones/TV's/etc...). It's really starting to lead me into depression and anxiety. I live with my sweet beautiful girlfriend in an alright apartment and have a consistent job yet this feeling of Brain fog is starting to cripple my life. I've always been an extremely extroverted person, yet these days I'm starting to become a hermit who would rather just sit at home and avoid hanging out with friend and co workers.


EDIT: proof read/added some more

",adhd,like passively moving life quite present able pinpoint feel wether adhd issue bad high school around year old last getting worse completely stoped smoking weed month time started working still clear minded side effect medication vyvanse ritalin adderall much viable get wired also tried avoiding screen phone tv etc really starting lead depression anxiety live sweet beautiful girlfriend alright apartment consistent job yet feeling brain fog cripple always extremely extroverted person day become hermit would rather sit home avoid hanging friend co worker edit proof read added,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hi everyone,

I came on here today to ask for some advice. Right now I work at my gf's uncles company. I am an account manager there and work directly under her uncle and her father. The work is in a very legal field. Everything needs to be done exactly the right way and on time or we can suffer very large law suits if things do go wrong. I started in the field last September with zero experience in the field. I was just doing paperwork, basically data entry. Fast forward to April of this year and the woman who was in my current position now (account manager) quit/let herself get fired. I was then put into the role that had many many many more responsibilities. They moved me here for convenience and to save money on me instead of hiring someone with more experience. I did well at my other job so they thought I would be able to handle this job well. Long story short, I can't handle this job at all. There are so many things that need to get done each day with very very strict deadlines. If any of these things do not get done then the company can get in large financial trouble. (we have e&o insurance but filing a claim would obviously not go over well). This is random but I wanted to add it somewhere...this is a small company and only has 5 employees and 4 sales but the boss wants more sales people. 

I am not able to do the job well enough. I am not able to stay on top of the paperwork that I need to do each day and I am not able to stay on top of all the strict deadlines. I am not sure what to do at this point. My bosses think that I am doing a great job but I am barely able to clean up the messes that I have already made without them knowing. I am 22 years old and doing the job of someone with 20-30 years of experience in the industry. I dropped out of college but I am a great test taker and got the highest score on the license test that my boss or most people have seen in the industry so everyone thinks I can do anything just fine but that test was my peak and its been downhill from here. I am not currently medicated, I am going to the gym and eating better to get my heart rate down to take adderall. 

I want to transition to the sales side of things but I do not know how to bring this up to my boss. They think that I am doing well at my job. Telling them I have adhd will not help. I will just be called a pussy. I can tell my boss that I cannot handle the responsibility of my job and ask to try sales but I think there is a 50% of him letting me do sales and a 50% chance of firing me. What can I do at this point? He also will not be very happy about hiring someone else for my roles because he is saving about $30k on me instead of hiring someone more experienced. $$ is above all to him. I am not sure what to do. The stress that this job's responsibilities and repercussions of not completing my tasks are bringing me to thoughts of ending everything almost nightly. I  already told my girlfriend that and I told her that I would never do anything without talking to her or a dr. (and I really wouldn't, I love her so much and would never do that to her). 

tldr

I have a very legal job. I am very stressed from it. Everyone thinks I am doing well but it is only a matter of time before something happens that I cant fix by myself. I want to move my job to sales. How do I tell my boss that I want to move to sales without telling him how shit I have done at my job. ",adhd,hi everyone came today ask advice right work gf uncle company account manager directly father legal field everything need done exactly way time suffer large law suit thing go wrong started last september zero experience paperwork basically data entry fast forward april year woman current position quit let get fired put role many responsibility moved convenience save money instead hiring someone well job thought would able handle long story short day strict deadline financial trouble insurance filing claim obviously random wanted add somewhere small employee sale bos want people enough stay top sure point boss think great barely clean mess already made without knowing old industry dropped college test taker got highest score license seen anything fine peak downhill currently medicated going gym eating better heart rate take adderall transition side know bring telling adhd help called pussy tell cannot try letting chance firing also happy else saving experienced stress repercussion completing task bringing ending almost nightly told girlfriend never talking dr really love much tldr stressed matter something happens cant fix move shit,0.18,Moderately Positive
"So I'm looking for accommodations that help adults with ADHD, in the workplace. I'm starting a new job in two weeks, and this is my first job working with other people, and with an employer that is not a friend of mine. Previously I have worked relativity solo jobs with a boss who was my friend and where, social interactions where for the most part optional.",adhd,looking accommodation help adult adhd workplace starting new job two week first working people employer friend mine previously worked relativity solo bos social interaction part optional,0.06,Moderately Positive
"i’ve tried not using my phone but that doesn’t seem to help as my mind can’t shut off. there’s always something going on and i’ve got that “ting goes skkrrrraa, pap pap kakaka skiddiki pap pap” song stuck in my head and it’s ruining me ",adhd,tried using phone seem help mind shut always something going got ting go skkrrrraa pap kakaka skiddiki song stuck head ruining,0.0,Neutral
"So at work I've delivered a presentation on ADHD today as part of world mental health day and how it affects me and the reality of life with it...

One of the audience spoke to me after and said I was inspirational and he's now taking a second look at how he approaches his lads ADHD.  Wow. That tugged the heart strings. 

They didn't even know they were getting talks on ADHD either.",adhd,work delivered presentation adhd today part world mental health day affect reality life one audience spoke said inspirational taking second look approach lad wow tugged heart string even know getting talk either,0.12,Moderately Positive
"I'm 22 years old, living in Seattle, and just graduated from university a month ago. Around a year ago it was suggested to me by my girlfriend and a bit later my mom that I might have ADD or ADHD. At first I brushed it off, but having thought about it a lot since then and having done research on it for a while I'm beginning to think that I might actually have ADD or ADHD and that it's been negatively impacting my life. I don't want to diagnose myself with anything before talking to a doctor but having read up on the symptoms of ADD I relate to a lot of them, and feel like they've been causing a lot of negative impact in my life. My aunt (mom's sister) and cousin (aunt's daughter) are both diagnosed with ADD, and my mom thinks my dad has it as well but he won't see someone about it out of stubbornness. 

I want to talk to a doctor about this but the actual process of doing so seems so overwhelming. I feel like if I call up a regular psychiatrist and tell them I'm 22 and think I have ADD they're going to think I'm a drug seeker and hang up on me. I don't have a general practitioner to ask, the last GP I had was my pediatrician who I haven't seen since I was 18. I tried filling out the web form for a psychiatry service in Seattle that lists adult ADD/ADHD as one of their specialties but they never got back to me, which they said on the site they wouldn't if they don't think they can help you. I also doubt I have any medical history in my files relating to any ADD/ADHD like symptoms, since I never visited doctors that much as a kid, just for the serious stuff like strep throat or broken bones...

I don't even know if I had ADD or ADHD, I just want to talk to someone about my symptoms and get an expert opinion. Like I said I don't want to diagnose myself with anything, but I've taken Adderall a few times given to me by my friend and it made a world of difference in getting my day to day tasks actually done; I think some kind of medication or medical assistance could vastly improve my quality of life.

How do I go about talking to an expert about this? I've read the diagnosis FAQ on the sidebar but honestly it didn't answer many of my questions. Should I find a general practitioner to talk to about my symptoms first, since I don't have one? Should I try to make an appointment with just any psychiatrist, or do I need to be looking at ""adult ADHD specialization"" ones specifically? It seemed ridiculously hard to actually get a new patient appointment with those. I feel very lost and would appreciate any guidance, this seems so overwhelming.",adhd,year old living seattle graduated university month ago around suggested girlfriend bit later mom might add adhd first brushed thought lot since done research beginning think actually negatively impacting life want diagnose anything talking doctor read symptom relate feel like causing negative impact aunt sister cousin daughter diagnosed dad well see someone stubbornness talk actual process seems overwhelming call regular psychiatrist tell going drug seeker hang general practitioner ask last gp pediatrician seen tried filling web form psychiatry service list adult one specialty never got back said site help also doubt medical history file relating visited much kid serious stuff strep throat broken bone even know get expert opinion taken adderall time given friend made world difference getting day task kind medication assistance could vastly improve quality go diagnosis faq sidebar honestly answer many question find try make appointment need looking specialization specifically seemed ridiculously hard new patient lost would appreciate guidance,0.06,Moderately Positive
"**Welcome to the 10th edition of Win Wednesday!**

This week we have nearly 3300 members with about 20% of that in the last couple weeks!  We have also recently observed an increase in hate/frustration towards our ADHD...and it’s good to be honest with your feelings, but it can be off-putting to many *with* ADHD, including some of the mods.  

...Now it is time to make a turn for the positive and come up with the things we are proud about!

***
So here is your chance to **brag about ANYTHING you got done.** We ALL had wins both big and small. *You basically get free comment karma as well!*

**If you can't think of any ""wins"" you may need to rethink your definition of success** -- when I started, I counted ‘shower, eat breakfast, get ready, go outside EVERY day, go to sleep before 2 am for the last 6 days....”  **The point is to focus on how YOU won, and did not let your ADHD win.**  =)

***
Some examples from past weeks

☺ **Started taking ADHD medication**

☺ **Called doctor** to set up an appointment x4

☺ **Working out** and eating a healthy diet

☺ Got to work...**on time**!

☺ Went to **sleep by 2AM** for 6 nights

☺ FINALLY GOT A **DIAGNOSIS** (a few people) **VERY AWESOME**

☺ Started **working out** again

☺ Made the first call towards getting diagnosed (got a referral) or made my first appointment.

***
By sharing our wins every Wednesday...**I hope you will start to be on the lookout for the positive things you do each week. You will start to gain awareness and see that everything isn't all bad!** *This MIGHT even become a routine as you excitedly log on every Wednesday night to share.*",adhd,welcome th edition win wednesday week nearly member last couple also recently observed increase hate frustration towards adhd good honest feeling putting many including mod time make turn positive come thing proud chance brag anything got done big small basically get free comment karma well think may need rethink definition success started counted shower eat breakfast ready go outside every day sleep point focus let example past taking medication called doctor set appointment working eating healthy diet work went night finally diagnosis people awesome made first call getting diagnosed referral sharing hope start lookout gain awareness see everything bad might even become routine excitedly log share,0.23,Moderately Positive
"Hi guys. I found this sub through /r/videos funnily enough. I wanted to make an introduction thread because I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was about 7 or 8 and I guess until now I kind of put a lot of what happened behind me and wanted some advice on if I should address any of it.

Like I said I was diagnosed with ADHD probably around 7 or 8. I am 30 years old now so it's been a while. To be blunt and to the point I was a troublemaker in school from kindergarten through maybe like 5th grade. Failing to cooperate in class and getting into fights and such. They had a huge trial period where my doctors had me go on multiple medications to see what would stick. I recall going on ritalin for ONE day and immediately being taken off of it due to it not calming me but making me go absolutely crazy. Eventually they made the decision to put me on a mix of adderal and clonodine from middle school through high school. Gradeschool was always a struggle because I had no interest in my academics. I almost dropped out but thankfully because of family I was able to pass. I should mention that my homelife was a mess by the way. My parents were awful at being parents and I went through a lot of emotional abuse, nothing physical but I've known for years I needed a therapist. 

Anyway after highschool I took a year off of schooling in general because I was absolutely tired of it and around that time I got off of my meds as well. I don't know if it was because my hormones were quieting down or something else but I started to manage my impulsiveness and hyperactivity better I suppose. I went to college and eventually moved out (which honestly took longer than most normal people in America at least) and I now am living on my own. I have a nice balanced life and am in a healthy committed relationship with my girlfriend.

But I go through these symptoms and recall all those years of being medicated and I observe my behaviors and I think to myself if I should go back on them. Where I work at I largely manage my time myself and I perform tasks in a timely fashion and perhaps that is because I have much more agency over my life now. But I still get insanely frustrated over not remembering the simplest things, I've had a terrible memory my whole life. I'm often quite good on the spot and am able to work off of other people but when I try to recall specifics or often when my GF says we've already watched that movie or done that activity I wonder how well I've been managing on my own. I guess some of this is that I just want closure and also I feel like a shit ton of this has changed, I largely believe I was growing up when this was blowing up and have no idea how the professional climate has changed. I haven't seen a doctor in years and have never seen a therapist and I imagine the simple advice would be to do those things lol

But what I'm asking is if any of you are living today unmedicated and how you are doing and if you can relate. Also if you have gone back on meds after being unmedicated and if that has helped you. Again this is me just getting a lot off my chest and I commend you if you read all of this. Most of all I just hate not remembering things, I realize that this might be due to my inattentiveness combined with perhaps my lack of outlet physically (I work at an office and only do calisthenics about 3 times a week). And most of all I never had anyone to talk about this, only doctors and teachers and my parents so I guess I'm looking for some comradery as well lol ",adhd,hi guy found sub video funnily enough wanted make introduction thread diagnosed adhd guess kind put lot happened behind advice address like said probably around year old blunt point troublemaker school kindergarten maybe th grade failing cooperate class getting fight huge trial period doctor go multiple medication see would stick recall going ritalin one day immediately taken due calming making absolutely crazy eventually made decision mix adderal clonodine middle high gradeschool always struggle interest academic almost dropped thankfully family able pas mention homelife mess way parent awful went emotional abuse nothing physical known needed therapist anyway highschool took schooling general tired time got med well know hormone quieting something else started manage impulsiveness hyperactivity better suppose college moved honestly longer normal people america least living nice balanced life healthy committed relationship girlfriend symptom medicated observe behavior think back work largely perform task timely fashion perhaps much agency still get insanely frustrated remembering simplest thing terrible memory whole often quite good spot try specific gf say already watched movie done activity wonder managing want closure also feel shit ton changed believe growing blowing idea professional climate seen never imagine simple lol asking today unmedicated relate gone helped chest commend read hate realize might inattentiveness combined lack outlet physically office calisthenics week anyone talk teacher looking comradery,0.02,Neutral
"I just read this somewhere else and it kind of scared me, so I thought it would be worth putting here. I found a link for how it relates to video games.

http://uofmhealthblogs.org/cardiovascular/before-you-buy-that-xbox/26272/

Maybe this is less likely to affect ADHDers because we also tend to be fidgety and change position a lot, but just in case. I know I can literally sit in one position for hours at a time because I get a weird sensation in my legs when I stand up eventually.

You can help yourself avoid this by:

- Using a smart watch or fitness band with one of those built in monitors which alerts you if you're sedentary for too long in one go. Just literally jump up and stretch or walk around for a bit, no need to actually stop what you're doing. (= no excuse to procrastinate on doing it!)

- Have a small glass/mug for your drinks and make sure that you have to stand up and walk to another room for refills.

- Or if your problem is normally not drinking enough, bring a huge bottle of drink to your desk so you'll be forced to leave for the toilet regularly.

- Arrange your normal sitting space so that you have several places to put your feet - alternating between up on the chair, down on the ground, to a foot rest, etc.

Stay safe!",adhd,read somewhere else kind scared thought would worth putting found link relates video game maybe le likely affect adhders also tend fidgety change position lot case know literally sit one hour time get weird sensation leg stand eventually help avoid using smart watch fitness band built monitor alert sedentary long go jump stretch walk around bit need actually stop excuse procrastinate small glass mug drink make sure another room refill problem normally drinking enough bring huge bottle desk forced leave toilet regularly arrange normal sitting space several place put foot alternating chair ground rest etc stay safe,0.06,Moderately Positive
"Because it enrages me.

Because of people like them, I'm too scared to lodge my prescription with the campus pharmacy (history of having suspicions of people who claim to have ADD/ADHD and probing people who do have it, as a result) and I'll just do it through the CVS a couple blocks down from my dorm. I hate these people and their perceived idea that this is some miracle drug; sure, it brings YOU a high and focus, but it makes me feel less crazy and more in control of my mind. I need it to focus and live a more controlled life, and what these people do trivializes ADD/ADHD and medication completely. It disgusts me to no end.

TLDR: Hate (with a thousand burning suns) non-ADD/ADHD people abusing medication. Do you?",adhd,enrages people like scared lodge prescription campus pharmacy history suspicion claim add adhd probing result cv couple block dorm hate perceived idea miracle drug sure brings high focus make feel le crazy control mind need live controlled life trivializes medication completely disgust end tldr thousand burning sun non abusing,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"I've been on adderrall for 3 years and recently came off of it after learning I was pregnant. I'm finding it really difficult to stay motivated and focused, especially at work. Before I was prescribed meds, I took recreational drugs to help cope with the issues ADHD creates. Now that I don't use any external devices to cope, I'm having a hard time staying productive. I use To Do lists and productivity apps but I really fail at just being motivated. Any tips or suggestions for preggers over here? ",adhd,adderrall year recently came learning pregnant finding really difficult stay motivated focused especially work prescribed med took recreational drug help cope issue adhd creates use external device hard time staying productive list productivity apps fail tip suggestion preggers,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"Hey there, this is my first post here. Been ADHD (primarily inattentive) my whole life but was diagnosed at age 17 (I'm 28 now). I've been taking Adderall in some capacity or another for the past 5-ish years and it's worked pretty well—life-changing, I would even say. Lately, however, I've been going through some pretty stressful life circumstances (changed jobs, just finished moving for the 4th time since April, long distance boyfriend recently admitted to being an alcoholic, etc.) and it seems like it's not working as well anymore. Not only is it not helping me focus, but the crashes have become worse, my anxiety is through the roof, and either I can't sleep or I'm sleeping way too much. 

I guess what I'm wondering is, can this happen? It would seem like if a certain medication worked at one point, it should work forever? Can crashes ""get worse""? Should I stop taking Adderall until I can properly deal with these life stressors? 

Of course, I'm afraid to stop taking Adderall because, as I'm sure some of you know, the first few days off Adderall are terrible and I'm working 2 jobs and need to be ""on"" from 9 am to 11 pm Monday through Friday, and also 12-6 on weekends. 

I've been reading that crashes are less intense on Vyvanse; is it generally ok to ask my doctor about other medications? I'm afraid he'll see it as drug-seeking behavior; last time I went I mentioned that the 20 mg of Adderall XR I'm taking doesn't seem to work as well anymore, that it seemed to wear off at around 2 pm everyday, followed by a crash—and he told me to just not take it on weekends. I understand how that would help the effectiveness, but not the crash. He's already diagnosed me 10 mgs of IR to take every other day, those just make the crash worse. Anyway, would it be bad to ask about switching to Vyvanse?

I guess that was a lot of questions, I'm just having a hard time lately and I can't seem to catch a break. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist this Friday so hopefully we can figure something out. 

For reference, my ""cocktail"" is: 
20 mg Wellbutrin every day
30 mg Lexapro every day
2.5 mg Abilify every day
20 mg Adderall XR every day
10 mg Adderall IR every other day

Sorry this is so rambling...ADHD and all that...",adhd,hey first post adhd primarily inattentive whole life diagnosed age taking adderall capacity another past ish year worked pretty well changing would even say lately however going stressful circumstance changed job finished moving th time since april long distance boyfriend recently admitted alcoholic etc seems like working anymore helping focus crash become worse anxiety roof either sleep sleeping way much guess wondering happen seem certain medication one point work forever get stop properly deal stressor course afraid sure know day terrible need pm monday friday also weekend reading le intense vyvanse generally ok ask doctor see drug seeking behavior last went mentioned mg xr seemed wear around everyday followed told take understand help effectiveness already ir every make anyway bad switching lot question hard catch break appointment psychiatrist hopefully figure something reference cocktail wellbutrin lexapro abilify sorry rambling,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"So... I'm sitting at my office (college intern at a marketing firm) and I took my adderall on my way to work this morning as I usually do and I have found a pattern...  About half an hour after I take this stuff, I feel like I can conquer the world, the sun is much brighter, the day is a lot better, and I feel like the overall quality of life is just that much better.  It's a weird feeling I hope many of you ADHD people enjoy starting your day. 

I think of it as I am the incredible HULK.  I take whatever potion I have to take, and then for the next half hour, I am in between stages of hyperactivity and focus. I am in the middle of some sort of transformation, but the final result is not there yet.  You know when the HULK is like half huge, half small, huge arms, tiny hands, like hes one of the MONSTARS from space jam half fizzling out and half giant... i kinda feel like that .  Its the only way to articulate it... Does ANYONE else know what I am talking about or am I just procrastinating???",adhd,sitting office college intern marketing firm took adderall way work morning usually found pattern half hour take stuff feel like conquer world sun much brighter day lot better overall quality life weird feeling hope many adhd people enjoy starting think incredible hulk whatever potion next stage hyperactivity focus middle sort transformation final result yet know huge small arm tiny hand he one monstars space jam fizzling giant kinda articulate anyone else talking procrastinating,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Ok, so I ran out of adderall a few days ago and have to wait til tomorrow to get my refill. It’s not a huge deal, I’m more annoying and hopeless in classes but whatever. The main issue is that I’ve been sleeping like 16+ hours a day since I stopped taking it. And even when I’m awake I’m exhausted. I get my refill tomorrow but does this mean my body is dependent on the stimulants to stay awake? Is that a bad thing? Or do you think it’s just a weird coincidence? I usually have a bit of insomnia and take naps during the day sometimes but this schedule of waking up only for class and meals is not ordinary and I worry it’s because I’m not taking adderall. ",adhd,ok ran adderall day ago wait til tomorrow get refill huge deal annoying hopeless class whatever main issue sleeping like hour since stopped taking even awake exhausted mean body dependent stimulant stay bad thing think weird coincidence usually bit insomnia take nap sometimes schedule waking meal ordinary worry,-0.21,Moderately Negative
"I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a while now to deal with some issues.

I have seen many psychologists and grew up in foster care/respite so I didn't have a steady family that could see how I acted when I was growing up. 

A few days ago he diagnosed me with ADHD PH & Bipolar. He has given me Lithium and Ritalin. 

I have never felt so calm, concentrated and steady for the first time in my life. At work, (which I love) my boss basically gave me my final warning because I basically couldn't.. function.. to say the least.

I just wanted to let you all know that reading all your insights, vents and solutions, you've really helped me figure out I'm not alone and I'm not that 'weird', 'out-there' person that everyone and I thought I was. 

I finally believe that I can be better, functioning, and *whats that word for ~~normal~~, because I hate the term?*

Thanks guys.",adhd,seeing psychiatrist deal issue seen many psychologist grew foster care respite steady family could see acted growing day ago diagnosed adhd ph bipolar given lithium ritalin never felt calm concentrated first time life work love bos basically gave final warning function say least wanted let know reading insight vent solution really helped figure alone weird person everyone thought finally believe better functioning whats word normal hate term thanks guy,0.08,Moderately Positive
And my initial plan was to have the job application done about a month ago.,adhd,initial plan job application done month ago,0.0,Neutral
"I already struggle to get anything useful done at work most days. I occasionally get hyperfocused and work all day, but most days I struggle just to get an hour or two of productive work done.

Any time I have a bad morning - usually a bad series of interactions with my wife - I can't seem to get *anything* done, even when stuff is urgent and I can't just get away with it.

Is there a reason for this? Can I do something to fix this pattern?",adhd,already struggle get anything useful done work day occasionally hyperfocused hour two productive time bad morning usually series interaction wife seem even stuff urgent away reason something fix pattern,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"Hi, I'm in my first job and may have the opportunity to work abroad in the coming years. I'm based in the UK and I'm on Concerta 54mg. 

Is there anywhere I can find guidance on how to prepare to work in specific countries? Are there many countries in which taking prescribed medication is illegal?

Thanks!",adhd,hi first job may opportunity work abroad coming year based uk concerta mg anywhere find guidance prepare specific country many taking prescribed medication illegal thanks,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Basically everything in the title, I'm trying to write reports and do some math and its really difficult when I can't even hold my hand steady. I hear that a lot of people on methylphenidates are prone to hypoglycemia. I eat big breakfasts but the idea of food after the concerta kicks in makes me nauseous so I don't eat for about 7 hours. Its been for the last 4 days.

",adhd,basically everything title trying write report math really difficult even hold hand steady hear lot people methylphenidate prone hypoglycemia eat big breakfast idea food concerta kick make nauseous hour last day,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Tl;Dr: Does it happen to you guys too to you feel like meds don't always work in the same way?
You know why? Advices?

-----------------

Most of days my meds are doing their job well, but once in a while, especially on weekends, I can still experience some of the symptoms such as foggy mind and tiredness.


I maintain an healthy lifestyle.
Doing good on diet, excercise, sleep routine and meditation but this keeps happening almost every week for a day or two.

Any suggestions?",adhd,tl dr happen guy feel like med always work way know advice day job well especially weekend still experience symptom foggy mind tiredness maintain healthy lifestyle good diet excercise sleep routine meditation keep happening almost every week two suggestion,0.4,Moderately Positive
"**TL;DR:** I went for an ADHD diagnosis and they concluded it's likely ASD, but get to try medication anyway woop :)

[*this will probably be a long post - sorry!*]

I've been gearing up for my ADHD diagnosis for quite a while and finally had it this Tue. I already had a diagnosis of (mild) asperger's syndrome and have a history of depression (that didn't respond to treatment). Academically I'm pretty bright :p, I did drop out of University the first time round due to struggles concentrating (at the time, attributed to depression), but then went on to get a 1st class Psychology degree and PhD in Cognitive Neuroscience.

Reasons I went for an ADHD diagnosis:

 * Massive troubles with concentration/focus, both at work and with hobbies (e.g. TV shows or films/reading for pleasure)
 * The above was leading to considerable guilt/frustration at work, as I kind of have my dream job but seemed incapable of performing, causing intense depressive episodes (short in length but no less potent for it!)
 * Struggle to initiate tasks, even those I'm easily capable of doing
 * Impulsive spending and eating (binge eat regularly, to the point I've put on about 18kg/40lbs since I last cut out junk food)
 * Easily distracted, and struggle to listen during conversations
 * I struggle to sit through long, boring lectures/meetings or when someones talking slowly, I get quite agitated and often have 'bouncy leg' haha
 * I'm very forgetful and need quite a structured routine to make sure I remember everything
 * Often have trouble getting to sleep due to racing thoughts
 * I struggle a bit with emotions, I often don't notice them until they hit me like a sledgehammer
 * I keep picking up and dropping new hobbies, usually they last about 2-3 hours XD

So that's all stuff I kind of attributed to ADHD, in terms of ASD, well I guess we have the following:

 * The routines bit mentioned above, I'm currently not sure if they're a coping strategy or an autistic trait. I hate the routine and feel like I'm stuck in 'mental prison' sometimes, but do need it! (I can find change very hard sometimes)
 * Socially I've been very isolated a lot of my life. Primary school (up to age of 12 ish) I was fine, lots of friends and popular. In secondary school I started losing friends though. At current point in time I have great friends and I'm quite happy with level of socialisation
 * Dating - well I'd basically never dated until I was like 25 ish, and only lost virginity last year, big tick in the ASD box I guess ;p (I do desire romantic relationships as much as the next person though)
 * I take things literally, and can miss even obvious sarcasm
 * I eat the same things quite regularly, personally I hate this - for me it's more I get overwhelmed by trying to decide what to eat, and just 'default' back to a safe option, then complain about it all week :p
 
In either camp I have:

 * Very poor memory, both episodic (e.g. past memories) and declarative (e.g. facts)
 * Poor visualisation skills (can't picture anything in my head)
 * Poor working memory

So that's it, as far as I can recall right now. I leaned towards the ADHD camp (okay I was very biased that way haha), but the psychiatrist suggested that actually the existing ASD diagnosis might explain most of it, so he concluded I probably don't have ADHD. Initially I was very resistant to this, but after a couple of days have passed I think I'm accepting that  at the very least, right now I don't know either way.

He's agreed to do a trial of 30mg lisdexamfetamine (vyvanse/elvanse) for 2 weeks to see how we go (yay!), so I'm going to reevaluate after that - hopefully remove the 'ADHD symptoms' and see what's left!

Sorry for a ridiculously long post, had to type it out just to get my head around it really, and either way ASD or ADHD this reddit group is fantastic and I'll keep browsing - I relate a lot to you guys and it's been a massive help :)",adhd,tl dr went adhd diagnosis concluded likely asd get try medication anyway woop probably long post sorry gearing quite finally tue already mild asperger syndrome history depression respond treatment academically pretty bright drop university first time round due struggle concentrating attributed st class psychology degree phd cognitive neuroscience reason massive trouble concentration focus work hobby tv show film reading pleasure leading considerable guilt frustration kind dream job seemed incapable performing causing intense depressive episode short length le potent initiate task even easily capable impulsive spending eating binge eat regularly point put kg lb since last cut junk food distracted listen conversation sit boring lecture meeting someone talking slowly agitated often bouncy leg haha forgetful need structured routine make sure remember everything getting sleep racing thought bit emotion notice hit like sledgehammer keep picking dropping new usually hour xd stuff term well guess following mentioned currently coping strategy autistic trait hate feel stuck mental prison sometimes find change hard socially isolated lot life primary school age ish fine friend popular secondary started losing though current great happy level socialisation dating basically never dated lost virginity year big tick box desire romantic relationship much next person take thing literally miss obvious sarcasm personally overwhelmed trying decide default back safe option complain week either camp poor memory episodic past declarative fact visualisation skill picture anything head working far recall right leaned towards okay biased way psychiatrist suggested actually existing might explain initially resistant couple day passed think accepting least know agreed trial mg lisdexamfetamine vyvanse elvanse see go yay going reevaluate hopefully remove symptom left ridiculously type around really reddit group fantastic browsing relate guy help,0.06,Moderately Positive
"My understanding is that Antipsychotics are essentially Dopamine Antagonist, where most ADHD meds. are the opposite and act as Dopamine Agonist, or Re-uptake Inhibitors.

Why then would my Dr. prescribe me Seroquel as a sleeping med.? Wouldn't this be counter-productive? I gave it a try last night and not only did it not induce somnolence, but it also gave me the worst headache of my life in the morning.",adhd,understanding antipsychotic essentially dopamine antagonist adhd med opposite act agonist uptake inhibitor would dr prescribe seroquel sleeping counter productive gave try last night induce somnolence also worst headache life morning,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"So I have always struggled focusing whether it was at school or in the work place. I am one that would start reading and my mind wanders off and 3-5 pages later, I have no idea what I just read and found myself re-reading those pages. In my college years I was diagnosed with mild ADD and mild anxiety. I was placed on Adderall XR 20 MG. The medication was amazing and I would have to say it is why I graduated college. My mind was no longer wandering off and it felt like my brain was finally working and information was being retained.

I then got off of Adderall after college due to how I was taking it. I would wake up in the morning and not eat anything, take my medication then end up not eating much throughout the day. I got to the point where I also felt I should not need a drug to be ""normal"". 

Fast forward to present day, now at the age of 27 I have new very demanding job in corporate america and I am finding my mind wandering again and having trouble retaining all the information at the new job. It has become VERY frustrating for me and I want nothing but to succeed at my new job. 

Now I have gotten to the point where I wonder if I should get back on medication. I am now living a ""normal"" life working an 8-4 and I eat breakfast and I feel as though before I wasn't taking the medication as directed and is why I had slight negative effects (not eating/suppressed apetite), which I know is a common side effect.

A long time friend of mine who also has ADD let me have a single 10 MG Adderall and I took it with a meal the other morning before work. I am not one to abuse drugs even though this may come off as I  might be. I was prescribed this drug before so I am familiar with it but wanted to experience it in a more ""mature"" state in my life and see how it affected me. This was also a step I wanted to take before actually spending the time and money to go back and seek help. Please do not judge me as I know this step may be frowned upon but I felt it was necessary in telling my story. A wrong step in testing, most would say yes, but it was a step I took.

The day went very well and I was able to stay focused and retain information. It felt like my brain was properly ""working"" for once and I felt good. I did experience slight loss of apetite but still ate throughout the day. I guess I am just looking for some thoughts/input to see what others may think of my situation and maybe this was a way for me to ""vent"" a bit. 
",adhd,always struggled focusing whether school work place one would start reading mind wanders page later idea read found college year diagnosed mild add anxiety placed adderall xr mg medication amazing say graduated longer wandering felt like brain finally working information retained got due taking wake morning eat anything take end eating much throughout day point also need drug normal fast forward present age new demanding job corporate america finding trouble retaining become frustrating want nothing succeed gotten wonder get back living life breakfast feel though directed slight negative effect suppressed apetite know common side long time friend mine let single took meal abuse even may come might prescribed familiar wanted experience mature state see affected step actually spending money go seek help please judge frowned upon necessary telling story wrong testing yes went well able stay focused retain properly good loss still ate guess looking thought input others think situation maybe way vent bit,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I have issues learning from others with everything I do, and t's gotten a tiny bit better lately, but I'm still constantly reinventing the wheel and it's wasted so much time, stressing me out, and holding me back. I have a mental block when it comes to copying others, I feel like I'm cheating or something despite that imitating is a good way to learn. The things I do manage to learn from others help me out immensely, yet it doesn't help me want to learn from them more. It's like something to do with pride. 

 I'm 23 and don't really know what it is and can't find anyone online with similar issues. ",adhd,issue learning others everything gotten tiny bit better lately still constantly reinventing wheel wasted much time stressing holding back mental block come copying feel like cheating something despite imitating good way learn thing manage help immensely yet want pride really know find anyone online similar,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Hi everybody,
I was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD just before I turned 19. I’m 20 now, and in college. I can’t stand how hard it is for me to get stuff done. I just got back from a meeting with a professor talking about how I could not fail the class. She said that she’d normally recommend that someone doing the same as I am come to office hours and ask questions, but that I don’t need to because I do great on everything I do manage to get done and turn in. It’s a class I really enjoy too! 

To make matters worse, I’m here on an academic scholarship that I’ll lose if my GPA falls too much. 

I just can’t get everything done! I’m in 4 classes — none of which are too bad — but the work we do outside of class kills me. I just can’t focus long enough to finish anything.

I really enjoy college and don’t want to do poorly, but I can’t seem to help it. My classes are so interesting — I just can’t focus outside of them. 

I don’t think I’m in danger of losing my scholarship this term, but I might be in the future. 

I’m also worried this will ruin my chances at things like research opportunities and internships and grad school. ",adhd,hi everybody diagnosed inattentive adhd turned college stand hard get stuff done got back meeting professor talking could fail class said normally recommend someone come office hour ask question need great everything manage turn really enjoy make matter worse academic scholarship lose gpa fall much none bad work outside kill focus long enough finish anything want poorly seem help interesting think danger losing term might future also worried ruin chance thing like research opportunity internship grad school,-0.02,Neutral
"I’m not sure I have ADHD, but this is what my life feels like every day. Not looking for an internet-diagnosis, just sharing.

•	It’s trying to avoid TV because you know that you can’t just watch one episode – it’s realizing you’ve watched three seasons of Community in less than 72 hours.

•	It’s telling yourself you’ll get started early when you know you won’t even start until after the deadline.

•	It’s having 30 tabs open at any given time.

•	It’s frustration at the fact that the perfect version of you is just out of your grasp. That if you could just get your shit together, you would be awesome. 

•	It’s becoming a master liar so that you can avoid turning in assignments.

•	It’s being frustrated that you can ace a test by cramming from a summary sheet on the way to class but that you can’t write that damn essay.

•	It’s going off on a strange train of thought and then realizing that you are in an exam and have just wasted 10 minutes.

•	It’s the pain you feel when people tell you to “just do the work” and your frustration when they ignore your explanations about how hard that is.

•	It’s having the occasional gold few days of productivity that make your teachers wonder why you’re not always like that.

•	It’s mastering the art of looking like you’re working – playing Minesweeper while watching TV to make it look like I’m doing something active.

•	It’s that hollow feeling in your chest and the desire to cry because you just can’t do it.

•	It’s dreading any week with multiple deadlines.

•	It’s frustration at taking IB.

•	It's being great at menial tasks because all you have to do is work in the moment.

•	It’s the knowledge that you could have so much stress-free free time.

•	It’s the knowledge that you should probably pull an all-nighter to finish all the work you’ve put off, then going to sleep anyway because you know you won’t do it.

•	It’s procrastinating on work that’s been overdue for weeks.

•	It’s that feeling you don’t have the right to complain because your problem seems like such a small deal compared to others’ problems.

•	It’s your parents not taking you seriously when you ask to seek help.

•	It’s taking complicated routes to class so you can avoid all the teachers you owe work to.

•	It’s pretending you’re sick you can avoid turning in the work, and then wasting your sick day instead of being productive.

•	It’s “breaking” every time management method after a small golden period where it works.

•	It’s being perfectly organized – knowing exactly what you need to do and when you need to do it – and then not doing any of it.

•	It’s getting perfect grades and then having your teacher complain about your lack of effort and how you “coast”. 

•	It’s actively avoiding work because your to-do list is so daunting.

•	It’s hating yourself for being so lazy.

TL;DR All I want to do is get my shit together, but I can't.
",adhd,sure adhd life feel like every day looking internet diagnosis sharing trying avoid tv know watch one episode realizing watched three season community le hour telling get started early even start deadline tab open given time frustration fact perfect version grasp could shit together would awesome becoming master liar turning assignment frustrated ace test cramming summary sheet way class write damn essay going strange train thought exam wasted minute pain people tell work ignore explanation hard occasional gold productivity make teacher wonder always mastering art working playing minesweeper watching look something active hollow feeling chest desire cry dreading week multiple taking ib great menial task moment knowledge much stress free probably pull nighter finish put sleep anyway procrastinating overdue right complain problem seems small deal compared others parent seriously ask seek help complicated route owe pretending sick wasting instead productive breaking management method golden period perfectly organized knowing exactly need getting grade lack effort coast actively avoiding list daunting hating lazy tl dr want,0.09,Moderately Positive
"I just read a really depressing NYT article about this kid who abused ADHD medication until he killed himself. I'm disturbed when people associate me, a person with ADHD, with a drug addict. The truth is, we both take similar medication, so on a low level I can understand the need to take meds just to get things done... The only difference is that he went up in dosage, where I stay the same. There is a psychological addiction here that needs to be addressed...",adhd,read really depressing nyt article kid abused adhd medication killed disturbed people associate person drug addict truth take similar low level understand need med get thing done difference went dosage stay psychological addiction addressed,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"I just took a QB test again while on my new meds and tested normal! The doctor said that he was astounded at how small of a dose it took to help me. Even the assistant looked at them and said ""I didn't do as well as you and I don't even have ADHD""

I know the medicine is not going to magically fix my life but it's felt like I was running in a race where I have to run on sand while everyone else gets the track. Well now I'm on the track and can finally learn how to run and win the race!",adhd,took qb test new med tested normal doctor said astounded small dose help even assistant looked well adhd know medicine going magically fix life felt like running race run sand everyone else get track finally learn win,0.22,Moderately Positive
"I'm just so upset that I'm really really trying and making everything work and yet I still can't go more than a couple of days without some kind of disaster!

Today also: I forgot my wallet at home all day, and broke my phone by accidentally letting it get rained on.

Where do I go from here??? I can't fucking live like this!

Medication is not an option for me right now (healthcare in canada is free but slowwwww, if I got a referral tomorrow it would be at least six months till I got seen. It's on my list.)

I'm pretty depressed about this honestly.",adhd,upset really trying making everything work yet still go couple day without kind disaster today also forgot wallet home broke phone accidentally letting get rained fucking live like medication option right healthcare canada free slowwwww got referral tomorrow would least six month till seen list pretty depressed honestly,0.27,Moderately Positive
"I've been on Vynase since Thursday, and the first day I felt a very slight improvement, but yesterday and today there's been no difference from before I started taking it. (In fact, I think Thursday was more power of suggestion than anything.) From what I've read, it sometimes takes a few days to start working, but I'm thinking that I might need a larger dose (the doctor gave me a small dose to test it out). Still, I don't want to jump to conclusions. How long should I wait before I start being concerned?",adhd,vynase since thursday first day felt slight improvement yesterday today difference started taking fact think power suggestion anything read sometimes take start working thinking might need larger dose doctor gave small test still want jump conclusion long wait concerned,-0.04,Neutral
"I take immediate-release Ritalin 20mg 3 times per day (for a total of 60mg per day) in order to study. However, in order for this to work properly I need to take 1 day per week off of medication completely - a Medication Break Day. During that Break Day I have *horrible* withdrawal symptoms: 

I often slap myself on the head, am always screaming indiscriminately throughout the day, literally cannot do even the most basic tasks without someone at my side pulling me by the arm from one room to another, etc... Thankfully, I have a person who helps me out on my Break Days and is fine with doing so. I take Magnesium both on the Break Day when the withdrawal gets particularly bad to help calm me down and it helps a little but not much. I also take Magnesium on the weekdays when I'm taking Ritalin 20mg tablets to study (2 hours before the first tab and also once in the evening/night). This help slow down the buildup of tolerance to the Ritalin during the week - I don't have any scientific evidence from it, but in my personal experience this has been the case (and I've seen that many others have reported similar benefits with using magnesium to reduce the rate of building up Ritalin tolerance). 

And yes, I've tried other meds beside Ritalin and the tolerance issues were even worse. Ritalin is the best medication for me in terms of efficacy and the tolerance issues and withdrawal on break day aren't unique to it at all for me. 

My psychiatrist suggested taking 10mg once in the morning on Break Days rather than Zero all day. I tried this, but it really compromised the efficacy of my Ritalin on the weekdays when I needed it to study. So I had no choice but to go back to Zero on Break Days. 

Do you have any tips for how to reduce withdrawal symptoms without taking a low dose of Ritalin on those Break Days? Because when I do, it ruins the efficacy of my Ritalin on the days I need it to study. And I just can't afford to take any risks academically like that. 



",adhd,take immediate release ritalin mg time per day total order study however work properly need week medication completely break horrible withdrawal symptom often slap head always screaming indiscriminately throughout literally cannot even basic task without someone side pulling arm one room another etc thankfully person help fine magnesium get particularly bad calm little much also weekday taking tablet hour first tab evening night slow buildup tolerance scientific evidence personal experience case seen many others reported similar benefit using reduce rate building yes tried med beside issue worse best term efficacy unique psychiatrist suggested morning rather zero really compromised needed choice go back tip low dose ruin afford risk academically like,0.04,Neutral
"Just got a diagnosis that I don't have adhd and I'm really upset over it. The psychologist that I worked with gave me an iq test along with some other adhd tests and said I don't exhibit any adhd symptoms except for a trouble with concentration. I don't understand where to go from here; I really identify with the symptoms listed as predominantly inattentive but apparently I only have trouble concentrating according to the psychologist. 

Some red flags popped up during the visits and I really just don't know if I should seek a second opinion. They claimed most people grow out of adhd which made me really question her knowledge on adhd. They also said for me to sleep more and study harder... as if I haven't tried that already. I just don't think a 300 questionaire was that good of an indicator of adhd symptoms. Simply because the questions were worded weirdly and some answers brought out completely wrong information about me. For example, it said I was in the at risk category for mania... I am quite sure I don't experience mania like those of bipolar people. 

I just don't know where to go from here. I really feel I have adhd but the psychologist seemed to dismiss me right from the start because I have good grades. I don't know if I am delusional or not and was wondering what advice you guys could give me, because I have no clue what to do from here.",adhd,got diagnosis adhd really upset psychologist worked gave iq test along said exhibit symptom except trouble concentration understand go identify listed predominantly inattentive apparently concentrating according red flag popped visit know seek second opinion claimed people grow made question knowledge also sleep study harder tried already think questionaire good indicator simply worded weirdly answer brought completely wrong information example risk category mania quite sure experience like bipolar feel seemed dismiss right start grade delusional wondering advice guy could give clue,0.04,Neutral
"My caffeine intake is absolutely obscene (upwards of 4 cups a day, easily, and I'm ~125 lb female), and I was prescribed adderall a few months ago. I don't take my adderall every day, but I take it enough that I know I shouldn't be drinking as much coffee as I do. 

Anyone have any advice on how to cut back on caffeine? HELP.",adhd,caffeine intake absolutely obscene upwards cup day easily lb female prescribed adderall month ago take every enough know drinking much coffee anyone advice cut back help,0.08,Moderately Positive
"I have no patience for adults who talk down to my children (2 of whom have ADD/ADHD) or don't allow them to explain themselves. I also get really frustrated with teachers who think my kids should be subjected to ""tough love"", but my kids aren't processing the ""lessons"" like traditional students, so it's not productive.",adhd,patience adult talk child add adhd allow explain also get really frustrated teacher think kid subjected tough love processing lesson like traditional student productive,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"So i've come to understand that there is a connection between RLS and ADHD so i thought i throw this out there if anyone else has the same issues.

RLS has fucked with my sleep ever since i was a kid but ever since i started Wellbutrin It's almost completely gone.

Be aware that insomnia is a common side effect and some report Wellbutrin causing RLS to so it most certainly won't be a good fit for everyone but it has majorly improved my sleep and since it also has some effects against adhd symptoms and depression it might be a good fit for someone else around here to.

TL;DR
Wellbutrin nearly cured my RLS and has improved my sleep drastically. Be aware that it also may cause sleep issues but if you suffer from it too it might be worth a shot.",adhd,come understand connection rls adhd thought throw anyone else issue fucked sleep ever since kid started wellbutrin almost completely gone aware insomnia common side effect report causing certainly good fit everyone majorly improved also symptom depression might someone around tl dr nearly cured drastically may cause suffer worth shot,0.11,Moderately Positive
"Okay so i posted a few weeks ago and everything has been pretty good so far still. I get how the euphoria has worn off, but honestly i know the medication is still working cause if i wait to take it before i get my day started its a lot harder to do individual tasks haha.

I gotta say though that first week was great! The second week i had a problem though, i think i tore my labrum in my shoulder arm wrestling! Im so fucking mad LOL everything was going great and bam the next day i woke up and felt normal adhd even with the meds,, but ive accepted my injury. i think i was just depressed that i have a new problem to deal with. FUCK!! 

But either way fuck it! I can tackle this problem. Im probably going to need surgery to repair it, but ive already downloaded some courses from udemy that ive been focusing on for the past week. So gotta keep looking on the brightside! 

Also my ex gf has been calling me after like 10 months of us being split up again! So basically my whole life has changed maybe its not good since i always fall for it. LOL. But still staying optimistic ive been learning ableton live and ive been using my dslr everyday before going to work, so hopefully i can get through this.

Just pissed cause i was making some serious gains!! 

DRUG INFO

But yeah i think adderall is the drug for me.  I am sleeping normal now after the first week. 7. Hours average. It helps me with my intermittent fasting a little bit i guess. 
Still havent chewed my fingernails or smoked much except when im drinking. By that time my meds have worn off too.

The comedown is subtle i still cant really notice it. And my hands get cold? I think thats all ive noticed so far. Also my resting heart rate is a little higher. I hope this keeps working. Dont think i wanna up the dose when i go back the 23rd. 

Anyway the future is a little unsure right now hopefully my ex doesnt fuck me over and i can keep my head above the water with my impending surgery im probably gunna need. I'll keep yall posted. 
I can use my brain now instead of getting lost in the static.
",adhd,okay posted week ago everything pretty good far still get euphoria worn honestly know medication working cause wait take day started lot harder individual task haha gotta say though first great second problem think tore labrum shoulder arm wrestling im fucking mad lol going bam next woke felt normal adhd even med ive accepted injury depressed new deal fuck either way tackle probably need surgery repair already downloaded course udemy focusing past keep looking brightside also ex gf calling like month u split basically whole life changed maybe since always fall staying optimistic learning ableton live using dslr everyday work hopefully pissed making serious gain drug info yeah adderall sleeping hour average help intermittent fasting little bit guess havent chewed fingernail smoked much except drinking time comedown subtle cant really notice hand cold thats noticed resting heart rate higher hope dont wanna dose go back rd anyway future unsure right doesnt head water impending gunna yall use brain instead getting lost static,0.09,Moderately Positive
"So the other day I was studying, and I was really congested so in addition to my daily dose of concerta I took 2 mucinex dm (thought thats how much you're supposed to take, didn't read label until afterwards).  I felt kind of weird, as if my medicine was more calming than usual.  Normally I can't really concentrate if I'm listening to music and doing homework, but this time I listened to music the entire time and go so much done.  More than usual.  It was as if the ambient noise in my head had been calmed much more than normal, and I could stay on task much more easily. So here's my questions:

* has anyone had this experience before?
* is this potentially dangerous?
* why did this happen?

tl;dr  took mucinex with concerta, unintentionally was abnormally productive.  Not advocating trying this.",adhd,day studying really congested addition daily dose concerta took mucinex dm thought thats much supposed take read label afterwards felt kind weird medicine calming usual normally concentrate listening music homework time listened entire go done ambient noise head calmed normal could stay task easily question anyone experience potentially dangerous happen tl dr unintentionally abnormally productive advocating trying,0.03,Neutral
"High school senior diagnosed for two-three years here. Basically, I have my national exams coming up this year, I have more than enough will to study, but simply cannot. I topped my Concerta from 36mgs a day to 54 after talking with my psych about it, and it did help some, but I’m still doing terribly. Lectures at school are impossible. I learn things in cram school, a lot of things, and I’m actually able to listen then, I even do well on tests we take in that same class on the topics we just covered, but at any other time I mix everything up to a ridiculous extent, can’t revise, can’t study, even when I do I can’t recall anything, and when I recall things I get them so mixed up that I could’ve done better if I hadn’t studied at all! Is studying a myth? How do I make a functional human being out of myself? ",adhd,high school senior diagnosed two three year basically national exam coming enough study simply cannot topped concerta mg day talking psych help still terribly lecture impossible learn thing cram lot actually able listen even well test take class topic covered time mix everything ridiculous extent revise recall anything get mixed could done better studied studying myth make functional human,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"I just want to give you guys some encouragement. I finally graduated community college over summer with an AS in Natural Sciences with 3.33 gpa (should have been spring but had to retake a math class over summer....oops). Not great gpa, but I did it. I am starting UC Davis in the fall. I am 42 and always dreamed of doing it...but could never get my shit together enough to pull it off. I spent the majority of my life putting out personal fires, going from one job to the next, and raising kids. Still am raising kids. But just know its never too late and never give up, even if you have some false starts along the way. I know it will be even harder at UC Davis, especially working on a biology degree...but I know I can do it.",adhd,want give guy encouragement finally graduated community college summer natural science gpa spring retake math class oops great starting uc davis fall always dreamed could never get shit together enough pull spent majority life putting personal fire going one job next raising kid still know late even false start along way harder especially working biology degree,-0.02,Neutral
"It's been a *long fucking road* academically for me. I am so proud of myself for finally getting my BA! A number of times I wanted to throw in the towel with school, and also my life. So many last-minute assignments. So much crying. So much weed. So many Frasier episodes!

I got my AA in 2008 (took me four years) and I ""graduated"" last week with a BA in Health Studies. Technically the focus was public health, but it's got the most generic fucking name. I say that in quotes because I don't get my actual diploma until August, because I have one more class to take over summer to finish. But I walked in the ceremony and was so happy to do it (I didn’t walk for my AA, only highschool).  

**To the point of my question**: I fucked myself financially because I dropped a class last quarter for personal reasons, so now I gotta pay $1700 for my one summer class out of pocket :( I'm trying to muster up the energy and focus to start applying for scholarships. I been wanted to apply for scholarships, but it was always so disheartening and seemed like so much effort that I just said fuck it. Also, I’m kinda unsure as to which ones are available to students who aren’t going to be continuing the following year. I hate how many hoops they make people jump through, but maybe I’m just being whiney about it. I am beyond grateful for the financial aid I had throughout school. It just irks me how hard it is sometimes for students to get help, especially us ADHDers who are struggling to stay afloat as-is and attempting to deal with what’s already in front of us. The resources can be there but that doesn’t mean my brain can put 2 and 2 together to make it happen. I’ve got $1300 saved from my tax returns already but was hoping to save that so I can move the fuck outta my current living situation that is killing me. So, I’m hoping y’all have some experience or encouragement you can share with me if you’ve been in the same boat! Much love, my neuroatypicals ❤ 

**TL;DR**: Halp. Dropped a class last quarter because of personal reasons. Now need to pay $1700 out of pocket for my last class. Need scholarship funds and feeling overwhelmed by the process of finding legit ones and applying for them. Any suggestions?",adhd,long fucking road academically proud finally getting ba number time wanted throw towel school also life many last minute assignment much cry weed frasier episode got aa took four year graduated week health study technically focus public generic name say quote get actual diploma august one class take summer finish walked ceremony happy walk highschool point question fucked financially dropped quarter personal reason gotta pay pocket trying muster energy start applying scholarship apply always disheartening seemed like effort said fuck kinda unsure available student going continuing following hate hoop make people jump maybe whiney beyond grateful financial aid throughout irks hard sometimes help especially u adhders struggling stay afloat attempting deal already front resource mean brain put together happen saved tax return hoping save move outta current living situation killing experience encouragement share boat love neuroatypicals tl dr halp need fund feeling overwhelmed process finding legit suggestion,0.01,Neutral
"What have you guys found to be the best way to keep track of time, to do lists and schedules? ",adhd,guy found best way keep track time list schedule,1.0,Positive
"I used to level people with withering ""jokes."" They were funny, to be sure, but not nice. I didn't even mean to say them. The thoughts just popped out of my head. After awhile, I began to think of myself as a curmudgeon. It was easier to say I was just a lovable grump than that I had no control over what came out of my mouth. For that matter, until I was diagnosed, I didn't realize I had no choice. 

Since beginning treatment, I've had to reconstruct my impression of myself. Several people I've met since starting treatment have independently and unbidden commented that I am really kind. I always wanted to be kind. 

So although Vyvanse may a bunch of side-effects that I don't care for, it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make. ",adhd,used level people withering joke funny sure nice even mean say thought popped head awhile began think curmudgeon easier lovable grump control came mouth matter diagnosed realize choice since beginning treatment reconstruct impression several met starting independently unbidden commented really kind always wanted although vyvanse may bunch side effect care sacrifice willing make,0.24,Moderately Positive
"Earlier this year I finally accepted that my mental instability was preventing me from progressing as I would like. I was fully aware that I was suffering severe, lifelong depression and crippling social anxiety that I had initially learned to cope with and compensate for, but couldn't overcome. 

After starting medication I found that while my anxiety and depression were lessened, I was still unable to focus my thoughts and *counter-intuitively* had become **more** impulsive. I had considered ADHD as a possibility before, it appears to run in the family along with many other mental disorders, substance abuse, criminality, ect. but I wanted to get a handle on my depression/anxiety first. 

To put it bluntly, these issues are no longer acceptable. 
I'm going to be starting a more demanding position at work, I want to be able to have healthy romantic and platonic relationships, I want to finally feel like a human!
I've scheduled an evaluation in a couple weeks but I'm worried that my hypochondria and obsession in researching mental health disorders along with a tendency to *'self-diagnose'* are going to prevent me from having a proper evaluation. I'm concerned that if I try to speak honestly about my concerns I may come off as fishing for meds or being too interested. 

To those of you that have gone through the evaluation process; 
**What ways can I best prepare for and facilitate my evaluation?** 
**Should I bring up my interest as partially why I'm seeking an ADHD eval, or will that impede my practitioner?**  ",adhd,earlier year finally accepted mental instability preventing progressing would like fully aware suffering severe lifelong depression crippling social anxiety initially learned cope compensate overcome starting medication found lessened still unable focus thought counter intuitively become impulsive considered adhd possibility appears run family along many disorder substance abuse criminality ect wanted get handle first put bluntly issue longer acceptable going demanding position work want able healthy romantic platonic relationship feel human scheduled evaluation couple week worried hypochondria obsession researching health tendency self diagnose prevent proper concerned try speak honestly concern may come fishing med interested gone process way best prepare facilitate bring interest partially seeking eval impede practitioner,0.15,Moderately Positive
"I’ve been thinking about how other people view ADHD and how it’s such a weird disorder to explain. I’ve seen plenty of different methods of explaining, and I know that particular subject has been addressed time and time again here. I just can’t help but think about how people choose WHO to explain it to. 

For me, I’m very reluctant to share my condition with other people due to misconceptions. I’ve shared with a few people already, but they’ve just given me the “try harder” lecture. Sooo, yeah, I pretend I don’t have ADHD. It’s easier if people didn’t know, so they don’t assume anything about me based on how ADHD is generally perceived. 

My parents know (they helped me get diagnosed), my s/o knows (because she understands), and... that’s it. I know I SHOULD have told my teachers already, but I was worried about it coming off wrong like “hey I have this thing, can you make your class easier for me? thanks”. It’s silly, I know. I’m afraid of them responding like “Oh, I’m sorry to hear that. But you’re an adult and you need to be able to keep up like everyone else, unfortunately.” Like they take ADHD as an excuse, as if I know I’m going to do poorly unless they cater to me. It’s all negative thinking, but I’ve dealt with this at least one time already. 

So, who do you share your disorder with? How do you go about it? Casual and blunt? Serious but carefully? Does nobody know you have ADHD? 

TL;DR: Essentially the title. ADHD is a tricky thing to explain and it’s already generally misunderstood, so sometimes it’s easier to keep quiet. But sometimes it may be necessary to let someone know. 

I’m going to email my teachers an apology for all the missing worked I’ve accrued this semester and try to explain my ADHD so they don’t think I just didn’t give a damn the whole time. I don’t want pity, I want to be understood. Hopefully it goes over well. ",adhd,thinking people view adhd weird disorder explain seen plenty different method explaining know particular subject addressed time help think choose reluctant share condition due misconception shared already given try harder lecture sooo yeah pretend easier assume anything based generally perceived parent helped get diagnosed understands told teacher worried coming wrong like hey thing make class thanks silly afraid responding oh sorry hear adult need able keep everyone else unfortunately take excuse going poorly unless cater negative dealt least one go casual blunt serious carefully nobody tl dr essentially title tricky misunderstood sometimes quiet may necessary let someone email apology missing worked accrued semester give damn whole want pity understood hopefully well,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"I used the search function but the meds don't give me dry mouth. I'm eating regularly and I drink lots of water (more than usual). Is it something to do with the Vyvanse, itself? I also use a tongue scraper regularly but it really seems like it's coming from my stomach.",adhd,used search function med give dry mouth eating regularly drink lot water usual something vyvanse also use tongue scraper really seems like coming stomach,-0.03,Neutral
I started Bupropion almost 2 weeks ago now and I'm really struggling with it. Falling asleep is difficult and I usually end up waking up after 4-5 hours and not being able to fall back asleep. Has anyone else had these problems? Were you able to get through them?,adhd,started bupropion almost week ago really struggling falling asleep difficult usually end waking hour able fall back anyone else problem get,-0.01,Neutral
"So, I'm normally prescribed 3 meds that I take, a prescribed dose of melatonin, vyvanse, and prozac. 

I usually take 2 of my melatonin pills before going to bed, however, tonight I wasn't paying attention and I'm pretty sure I accidentally took vyvanse, since I have them so close and I do it so often. The reason why I'm fairly sure I think I took vyvanse is because I went to bed at 3 in the morning, and then 2 hours later was still staring at the cieling and I was starting to get my vyvanse side-effects. It's 8 in the morning, I still haven't slept and I'm leaving for vacation soon.

Merely posted this to see if there was a way to possibly negate the effects of vyvanse towards sleep if this ever happens again? Or what to do in this situation because I've never done this before and it's kind of frustrating since I've been up for 6 hours straight doing absolutely nothing since my Wi-Fi is usually cut before I go to bed. Also I think it'd be interesting to share this story, and show what'd actually happen if you took this before going to bed.

TL;DR: Probably took 2 vyvanse 20mg instead of 2 10mg melatonin pills, result being, I stayed awake the entire night, side effects were actually minor and can't remember most of what I was thinking during the night, only one specific topic, which was repetitive. Didn't really notice the time fly by either which is odd. ",adhd,normally prescribed med take dose melatonin vyvanse prozac usually pill going bed however tonight paying attention pretty sure accidentally took since close often reason fairly think went morning hour later still staring cieling starting get side effect slept leaving vacation soon merely posted see way possibly negate towards sleep ever happens situation never done kind frustrating straight absolutely nothing wi fi cut go also interesting share story show actually happen tl dr probably mg instead result stayed awake entire night minor remember thinking one specific topic repetitive really notice time fly either odd,0.11,Moderately Positive
"My brain fights back when I try to do stuff that are ""boring"", aka things you have to get done. Finishing them will always make you feel good, but my brain will always prevent me from starting them.

Just so you know, I don't feel like taking a crap when I'm outside home, it just doesn't happen. I always take my dumps before a shower at home, to make it more time optimized (also I find it nasty to just wipe).

Well, consider I haven't dropped a deuce yet today. If I start doing something really boring (like that huge essay I have to write) I'll feel instantly in need to unload some timber.
Then I'll stop doing the boring thing and will get into something enjoyable, like browsing around the internet. Guess what: The urge to use the big white telephone goes away.

What the heck, brain?
Can anyone relate?
Thank you for your feedback.",adhd,brain fight back try stuff boring aka thing get done finishing always make feel good prevent starting know like taking crap outside home happen take dump shower time optimized also find nasty wipe well consider dropped deuce yet today start something really huge essay write instantly need unload timber stop enjoyable browsing around internet guess urge use big white telephone go away heck anyone relate thank feedback,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"I'm going off to college this year, and I just recently started Adderall, which has been a revelation compared to Concerta. The only problem is that if I miss a day or two then go back on it, it feels like Concerta for a day where I can't eat at all and I'm depressed as hell. So staying on it is really important, but now that my parents won't be there I won't have a reminder, which sucks because the medicine isn't in effect when I need to focus and take my medicine, making it easier to forget. Also, I need to lock it up and hide it because in college Adderall is obviously a big commodity, so that makes it extra-hard to remember (out of sight, out of mind).

Are there any sure-fire way you guys find useful? Maybe a certain alarm app that's good at getting your attention until you've completed a task fully, or maybe hiding it in a certain place in my room?",adhd,going college year recently started adderall revelation compared concerta problem miss day two go back feel like eat depressed hell staying really important parent reminder suck medicine effect need focus take making easier forget also lock hide obviously big commodity make extra hard remember sight mind sure fire way guy find useful maybe certain alarm app good getting attention completed task fully hiding place room,0.18,Moderately Positive
"Not always the case, but sometimes when I socialise during the day, I come home and I am just so tired I need a nap. 

Or when socialising for an extended period of time, I just gradually lose the mental capacity to socialise. It just feels like words are thrown at me from all directions and I just cannot filter which words are from the sentence I was meant to focus on. 

I don't know if that makes sense. I'm tired and I'm still trying to wake up. 

TL;DR: does socialising drain your energy?",adhd,always case sometimes socialise day come home tired need nap socialising extended period time gradually lose mental capacity feel like word thrown direction cannot filter sentence meant focus know make sense still trying wake tl dr drain energy,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"Fellow takers of Adderall SR,

I have a lot of weirdness around the surges of Adderall I seem to get around right before I go eat at lunch, or at night.  

I get that overwhelming that I'M ON DRUGS crazy frenetic panic attack feeling I get around 11:45AM , before i go grab a sandwich is always super freaky, and it happens every single day for me in the same way.   It even happens towards the end of the day when it should frankly be wearing off.

My whole Adderall taking life experience is usually like this:


-take drugs at 6:00 am before i shower<br>
-7:00am, get to work at and drugs are just barely starting to kick in, can start doing a little bit of work maybe.

-8:00am  drugs are totally kicking in, still ramping up....

-9:00am  drugs are perfect and i feel relaxed and organized do things i want to do in a controlled and reasonably manner....

-10:00am  drugs are awesome awesome awesome and i can do anything in the whole world, maybe 4 things at one time....

-11:00am  drugs are getting a little freaky feeling, but I can still get a lot done in an OK way in the whole world, maybe 4 things at one time....

-11:59am  drugs are TOTALLY TOTALLY freaky feeling, and my head kind of hurts maybe (until i eat)




then basically that on repeat from 1pm to 5pm.






The only way i've noticed that makes it happen a little different if if i eat something? but it usually just seems like it destroys any benefit i'm getting from the adderall, and i have to start all over with ramping up the the point where i can actually get anything done again.

Does the group have any ideas on the best ways to manage this?
",adhd,fellow taker adderall sr lot weirdness around surge seem get right go eat lunch night overwhelming drug crazy frenetic panic attack feeling grab sandwich always super freaky happens every single day way even towards end frankly wearing whole taking life experience usually like take shower work barely starting kick start little bit maybe totally kicking still ramping perfect feel relaxed organized thing want controlled reasonably manner awesome anything world one time getting done ok head kind hurt basically repeat pm noticed make happen different something seems destroys benefit point actually group idea best manage,0.25,Moderately Positive
"So I just got off the phone with my doctor and I was denied a prior authorization on Metadate CD (no information whatsoever on the Vyvanse they prescribed as well!).  Does anyone else have experience in getting a prior authorization?  Is it difficult?  Did they not authorize it because of generics available?  What generics do you guys take?  What should I do?

Edit: Well, still no information about why I was rejected. I have to wait for a letter to be sent to my doctor. I hate this.",adhd,got phone doctor denied prior authorization metadate cd information whatsoever vyvanse prescribed well anyone else experience getting difficult authorize generic available guy take edit still rejected wait letter sent hate,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"I typically take my vyvannse around 7 am... around 10am - about 12pm I am extremely nervous/anxious for no reason. My mind tries to figure out why, but there is no reason. Anyone else experience this? ",adhd,typically take vyvannse around pm extremely nervous anxious reason mind try figure anyone else experience,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"My oldest son was diagnosed with ADHD some years ago, and his diagnosis caused me to consider myself and my own issues. There were so many similarities between us that it seemed possible I had it too, though I had never been diagnosed. My doctor agreed, and we started trying various medications in low doses.

Now, while I thought the medications might be helpful for my memory and anxiety, I was never truly convinced I for-really-real *had* ADHD. Not really. People with ADHD were amped up and hyper all the time, right? That wasn't me. If anything, I was as mild a case as there could be, and maybe the meds could help a little bit.

**Then I discovered this sub.**

I discovered your personal anecdotes. I discovered your good and bad days. I discovered all your echoes of my own life. And they've gotten me to finally believe it.

*I have ADHD, for real, and it's been haunting me my entire life.*

So many of what I used to think were personal failings - forgetfulness, resistance to responsibility, complete inability to study, hyperfocus - they're just more ADHD symptoms. Your stories taught me that I can stop beating the hell out of myself every goddamned day. It's *not* all my fault. I really *have* been doing the best I can, even if it often feels like ""better"" is clearly visible from the other side of bulletproof glass.

Because of you guys, I've accepted that this is a real thing I've been struggling with my whole life. It's shown me a much more confident way forward where I can deal with things more directly and, ultimately, more effectively.

So, **TL;DR:** Thanks. :)",adhd,oldest son diagnosed adhd year ago diagnosis caused consider issue many similarity u seemed possible though never doctor agreed started trying various medication low dos thought might helpful memory anxiety truly convinced really real people amped hyper time right anything mild case could maybe med help little bit discovered sub personal anecdote good bad day echo life gotten finally believe haunting entire used think failing forgetfulness resistance responsibility complete inability study hyperfocus symptom story taught stop beating hell every goddamned fault best even often feel like better clearly visible side bulletproof glass guy accepted thing struggling whole shown much confident way forward deal directly ultimately effectively tl dr thanks,0.19,Moderately Positive
"After countless years of struggle with attention and memory issues, I decided it was time to get some help.  I am a 32F returning to school to get my undergrad.  I found a great psychologist and had my first of many appointments last month.  I did self reports, interviews etc.... and by the end of those sessions she said she was confident that I had ADHD-PI which was no surprise to me.  But, as part of their diagnostic procedure, I had some psychological testing as well.  Last week I went in for results and I got a bomb dropped on me.  While they believe that I have ADHD-PI, they also discovered a very severe impairment in my cognitive processing speed.  


So Reddit, I also have a learning disability that I have most likely struggled with since birth that no one caught.  From initial testing, it's considered severe although I will spend the next few weeks getting additional tests.  Interestingly enough, it mimics many/if not all of the same symptoms of ADHD-PI or ADHD-C.  I am incredibly well spoken, highly intelligent, held high level jobs but I couldn't focus amongst a myriad of other symptoms all covered under the ADHD-PI diagnosis. TIL that it's common to have a co-morbid learning disability especially with ADHD-PI. 

So please, do not self diagnose.  Find a psychologist and get tested.    It's 100% worth it.  

TL;DR: Got tested for ADHD, received diagnosis of ADHD-PI and very surprisingly a severe learning disability.  ",adhd,countless year struggle attention memory issue decided time get help returning school undergrad found great psychologist first many appointment last month self report interview etc end session said confident adhd pi surprise part diagnostic procedure psychological testing well week went result got bomb dropped believe also discovered severe impairment cognitive processing speed reddit learning disability likely struggled since birth one caught initial considered although spend next getting additional test interestingly enough mimic symptom incredibly spoken highly intelligent held high level job focus amongst myriad covered diagnosis til common co morbid especially please diagnose find tested worth tl dr received surprisingly,0.26,Moderately Positive
"I really don't know what to do. I'm so tired of school but, I still want to graduate and at least get a 2 year degree..

And here I am probably going to fail trig tomorrow. For the last week + I've just felt a tired sense of dread knowing I should have pushed myself to do better this semester and I did try to study but, It just never panned out.

I've begun to feel like in so many ways I just don't really exist in the same realm as  I should.",adhd,really know tired school still want graduate least get year degree probably going fail trig tomorrow last week felt sense dread knowing pushed better semester try study never panned begun feel like many way exist realm,0.0,Neutral
"Good read (too long for ADHD people) but still good read 

https://hbr.org/2017/09/5-ways-to-focus-at-work-from-an-executive-whos-struggled-with-adhd?",adhd,good read long adhd people still,0.32,Moderately Positive
"I just came home from a school exam. I was allowed to sit for 6 hours - I sat for 2.5. I do this every time I have exams - I write intensely for like 2 or maybe 3 hours, and then it's just full stop. I always get super stressed that it means I've done a bad job, but honestly I just think that my brain works a lot quicker? Like I have no patience to sit and fiddle with the small details - I write big picture, which means I can usually manage a c or a b, but never the a because I'm lacking the details. 

Just out of curiosity - how do you guys deal with exams of that type? Where you have to write longer texts? Anyone else like me? I know it's common for some people with ADHD to need longer time because they can't concentrate, but I go off the wall if I have to sit there for too long. (I have inattentive ADHD btw)",adhd,came home school exam allowed sit hour sat every time write intensely like maybe full stop always get super stressed mean done bad job honestly think brain work lot quicker patience fiddle small detail big picture usually manage never lacking curiosity guy deal type longer text anyone else know common people adhd need concentrate go wall long inattentive btw,-0.03,Neutral
"In about an hour from now I will be going into my final assessment for culinary. 

I’ve been doing an accelerated program that fit a years worth of material into 4 weeks (yay hyper focusing) 

I will be preparing a 5 course menu from scratch within a timeframe of 3.5 hours of prep and 1 hour of service. 

I know this will go well. But you all know how hard it is to stick to a schedule, not only that but being graded on schedule, cleanliness, organization, procedures (no short cuts). And then for the actual dishes: taste, texture, temperature, consistency, etc. 

I’m super proud of myself because I walked away with 80% (need 70% to pass) and now this assessment if I fail it, I can pay to do it over again. 

But I’ve spent about $6000 this month on equipment, food, gas, and the amount of ingredients to do this menu 3 times over. 

I have my timeline set so the first 1.5 hours are the most crucial. Getting all my menial tasks prepped so I don’t procrastinate doing that. But it’s still a stressful task. 

I currently took my adderall with an energy drink, which is why this post is all over the place. 

Thought I should share 

I GOT THIS ",adhd,hour going final assessment culinary accelerated program fit year worth material week yay hyper focusing preparing course menu scratch within timeframe prep service know go well hard stick schedule graded cleanliness organization procedure short cut actual dish taste texture temperature consistency etc super proud walked away need pas fail pay spent month equipment food gas amount ingredient time timeline set first crucial getting menial task prepped procrastinate still stressful currently took adderall energy drink post place thought share got,0.09,Moderately Positive
"I'm not experiencing increased focus, concentration or anything. Am I missing something? When I read similar experience on the site It's supposed to be noticeably effective after half an hour but I got nothin'.
Also the side effects are not there - no dry mouth, no head-ache and no crash or rebound. I think I could have even slept during the day. The worst thing is, after two days of free weekend - my room is still a huge mess! ;)

Is it possible I'm given some sort of placebo as a test or something? Is this how they do these double blind tests? Will upping the dosage make a big difference? Or is it possible that I'm not affected at all by Concerta, for both effects and side-effects ?",adhd,experiencing increased focus concentration anything missing something read similar experience site supposed noticeably effective half hour got nothin also side effect dry mouth head ache crash rebound think could even slept day worst thing two free weekend room still huge mess possible given sort placebo test double blind upping dosage make big difference affected concerta,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Is other people's reaction to you in jobs. If you tell someone you have a medical condition, like diabetes or epilepsy, coworkers and bosses will try to understand and extend some empathy towards you. Is your body not producing enough insulin or too much? Go get a shot of insulin, or eat a snack, get yourself better then come back.

Some part of your job causes an epileptic fit? Excuse yourself from this part of the job, and work on something else, it's not your fault that you're sick!

Tell someone you have a mental health issue, like ADD/ADHD and no one wants to understand or extend any empathy to you. You're brain doesn't develop like everyone else does so you forget everything at least 12 times, skip steps, keep making the same mistakes, can't force yourself to slow down and/or focus? 

It takes you longer to learn something then it does others? That's annoying to deal with let me talk to you and treat you like you are stupid, let me fire you during your probation period, or write you up 20 times trying to build a case against you to get you fired.

Even though it's not my fault my brain acts like it does just like it's not the diabetics or epileptic fault their bodies act like it does, no one wants to treat you the same. 

Then when you get better, stop making those mistakes and remembering what you're supposed to do, it takes them *forevor!* to notice. No one wants to notice you got better, until you've been better for a month or more, they just want to remember all the times you messed up, and how long it took you to get there. 

I'm getting tired of feeling shame, humiliation, self blame and self hatred when I'm getting ""let go"" or written up again because no one wants to be a little extra patient with you, give you some extra time to learn, try to understand you and understand that it's not your fault! It's not something you can control or change, all you can do is learn to adapt around it.

I'm venting because of what happened in my last post on this ADHD subreddit and because of what is now happening at my 2nd job. The newly promoted manager, who noticed I would cover people's shifts and come in when I could, even when I was scheduled off, and saw that I was a hard worker had decided to keep me while 4 others were let go.

I left a post about the aftermath of that. The comments from my coworkers who thought I shouldn't be there, I'm useless, and one assistant manager telling another coworker that I have a learning disorder, so I guess according to her that alone is enough to let me go.

I worked the other night with the newly promoted manager, and he told me that at first when he had to let those 4 people go, the others wanted him to fire me (that was obvious) but he told them I was a hard worker, but they didn't see it because of how many mistakes I made at the beginning. But he didn't want to keep on people who stood around, or played on their phones.

He said now they're seeing I'm a hard worker now, and that I'm blowing them all out of the water.

And all it took was transferring the assistant manager who kept writing me up for every infraction  (to try to get me fired) to the other side of the store, a patient person who saw passed my forgetfulness and mistakes and saw the hard work I was putting in, and being able to finally know everything I need to do to get the others to see it too.

TL;DR: it bothers me that people can't show the understanding and empathy they show to those with medical problems to those with mental health problems, and an update on my 2nd job. It finally got better.",adhd,people reaction job tell someone medical condition like diabetes epilepsy coworkers boss try understand extend empathy towards body producing enough insulin much go get shot eat snack better come back part cause epileptic fit excuse work something else fault sick mental health issue add adhd one want brain develop everyone forget everything least time skip step keep making mistake force slow focus take longer learn others annoying deal let talk treat stupid fire probation period write trying build case fired even though act diabetic stop remembering supposed forevor notice got month remember messed long took getting tired feeling shame humiliation self blame hatred written little extra patient give control change adapt around venting happened last post subreddit happening nd newly promoted manager noticed would cover shift could scheduled saw hard worker decided left aftermath comment thought useless assistant telling another coworker learning disorder guess according alone worked night told first wanted obvious see many made beginning stood played phone said seeing blowing water transferring kept writing every infraction side store person passed forgetfulness putting able finally know need tl dr bother show understanding problem update,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I've never felt like I had ADHD until a couple of years ago when I realized that it's still possible to ongoing symptoms as an adult (always believed that once you hit a certain age, it goes away). I always showed the symptoms, but I attributed that to laziness or lack of motivation. I've seen counselors and they have never considered that I might have ADHD, so I never thought to take it seriously. My sister, who always said I was lazy and a bum throughout middle school, high school, and parts of college, recommended bout a year that I should get tested. Well, now a year later, I want to get tested, but I am recently unemployed and without health insurance. Is there any I can still receive help? 

It doesn't help that whatever mood I am in now is hindering my abilities to look for a job. ",adhd,never felt like adhd couple year ago realized still possible ongoing symptom adult always believed hit certain age go away showed attributed laziness lack motivation seen counselor considered might thought take seriously sister said lazy bum throughout middle school high part college recommended bout get tested well later want recently unemployed without health insurance receive help whatever mood hindering ability look job,-0.01,Neutral
"Just now I heard a commercial with a cat meowing like it was in pain (it wasn't) I cried for several minutes, then bf helped me calm down.  

I've always wanted to help animals, and at this moment in time have such a strong urge to do so- but it's night, late, I'm tired, mom isn't home. I always have these strong swings of motivation or determination at the times when I can't do much- then, the next day or week the feelings remain at almost no intensity whatsoever.  

Guilt too- I pushed my cat away because she bugged me and I got angry, and now I feel very guilty to the point of tears and am 'making it up to her' with cuddles.  

I just want to know this is normal. I hate feeling like this all the time- I barely made this post, my motivation was/is so weak. Posts hardy ever make it to reddit, pics especially.  

/endrant. Sorry guys, just.... thank you. This subreddit makes me feel so normal.
",adhd,heard commercial cat meowing like pain cried several minute bf helped calm always wanted help animal moment time strong urge night late tired mom home swing motivation determination much next day week feeling remain almost intensity whatsoever guilt pushed away bugged got angry feel guilty point tear making cuddle want know normal hate barely made post weak hardy ever make reddit pic especially endrant sorry guy thank subreddit,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"I have extreme difficulty waking up. Can just sleep in till the afternoon

Vyvanse doesn't help with that haha

And you",adhd,extreme difficulty waking sleep till afternoon vyvanse help haha,0.04,Neutral
"I'm good at setting up my appointments but sometimes I get so depressed and angry about going because I'd rather be locked in my house doing nothing. 

When I feel like this, nothing can convince me that it's worth the effort. All help feels abrasive and forceful. If someone tries to help me I will lock them out of my room and yell at them. I threw an empty plastic bottle near the door to scare my boyfriend away.

Nobody deserves to be around me. But I can't take care of myself. I'm 18 and too old to go back to foster care. And the hospital doesn't help anymore. I don't want to kill myself because I love my boyfriend and his family but the ADHD and depression never got treated properly in care and now I don't know how to act. 

I currently live by myself in a dirty rented out townhouse and my boyfriend wants me to move in but I don't see it going well for me. I'll ruin it.

I hate myself.",adhd,good setting appointment sometimes get depressed angry going rather locked house nothing feel like convince worth effort help abrasive forceful someone try lock room yell threw empty plastic bottle near door scare boyfriend away nobody deserves around take care old go back foster hospital anymore want kill love family adhd depression never got treated properly know act currently live dirty rented townhouse move see well ruin hate,-0.01,Neutral
"not lazy, but i will stare at projects and stare and think and desire and worry.... crap this sucks, going to try wellbutrin,just got a script.

anyone used this? im not sure about speed, i have high blood pressure.",adhd,lazy stare project think desire worry crap suck going try wellbutrin got script anyone used im sure speed high blood pressure,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"People who don't have adhd, dont realize how much it has an impact on romantic relationships. 

I'm either too much or not enough.  No happy medium. 
I become so focused on what makes me happy that I forget it's ""too much.""  

Recently found someone who doesn't think I'm too much but then I'm in constant fear of them leaving so I guess I'm just a mess, ha. ",adhd,people adhd dont realize much impact romantic relationship either enough happy medium become focused make forget recently found someone think constant fear leaving guess mess ha,0.12,Moderately Positive
"you took your adhd medicine?


Currently took methylphenidate 10mg and feel very zoned in
It's almost an odd feeling. Family called when I was on computer and was almost had to talk since I was previously so engaged in researching online. Im sort of excited!
",adhd,took adhd medicine currently methylphenidate mg feel zoned almost odd feeling family called computer talk since previously engaged researching online im sort excited,0.01,Neutral
"I'm on medication on my day off, let's do this.

I feel it is appropriate to give a little info about myself, a sort of presentation.
I am Potatomatic, 26, have been a lurker for over a year, lost the account, made a new one.
I would really like to get involved in /r/ADHD .

Currently trying to get an associate degree in information technology. Former lazy genius in high school, I slacked and still got high grades until I hit a wall in college, 8 years ago. I tried again and again and will finally be done this spring. I plan on keeping you guys up to date on this.

I am lucky enough to have a great part-time job, and after so many years of slacking and being supported by my parents, it felt good to be able to pay for everything I need. It seriously saved me from myself.

My social life is somewhat diminutive, and I am working on it. I learned how to be alone and I am learning how to make friends. No need to tell you it is a challenge every day.

**Depression**
I used to be depressed, suicidal thoughts at least once a week.

Medication helped me concentrate on something else, but only when I had a clear goal, like studying. For this reason, the summer breaks were a terrifying prospect.

My depression stemmed from feeling different, useless, inadequate. Counseling helped me understand why I felt like that and how I wasn't that ""strange"".

**Social anxiety**
I lost most of my friends mostly through my own assholery, but also due to irreconcilable differences. 
At that time, I was pretty snobby and couldn't bring myself to be even a little bit mainstream. I was the first in my group of friends to be in a relationship, break up, live by myself, get a sound system, have parties, drink tea, use Linux, listen to EDM... I introduced them to some of their favorite things, which I ditched when they got popular. I felt edgy, but the truth is I couldn't be bothered to care about anything long enough to actually call it a hobby. 

I identified strongly with ADD and thought it was a personality trait. I'm still a bit of a hipster, but I also enjoy common things like commercial radio, cheap coffee and stuff made in China, which would all have been out of the questions a few years ago. 

I try to maintain interest and persevere when things get boring. I got tired of Linux and abandoned it altogether 6 years ago, when I couldn't get it to read my usb flash drive. Last week, I aced my Linux server administration exam. The same applies to people. Now I know that everybody has their own story. I don't want to judge them anymore, I want to *understand* them, not to find faults to exploit, but to get to know them better and develop a close relationship, based on trust and honesty.

But making new friends is fucking hard. At my age, everybody around me already have their own life, a solid group of friends and it's difficult to squeeze in. The only trick I found is to not care about my self-doubts.

I first decide to go out. THEN, I throw invitations around.
""Alex, Jess, I'm going to the bar, let's meet there at eight.""
I don't care if they come or not, I'm going anyway, and it shows that, although I might feel insecure and needy about asking, I am confident and independant. It worked for me and as a bonus, even though I still feel a bit weird, I can go out alone without panicking. Not so bad, considering it used to be a challenge for me to get out of my apartment simply to buy groceries.

Also, reading [Murray Bown](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murray_Bowen#Differentiation_of_self) and David Schnarch on differentiation + [George R. Bach and Laura Torbet](http://books.google.ca/books?id=gsO2YpShumUC&printsec=frontcover&hl=fr&source=gbs_ge_summary_r&cad=0#v=onepage&q&f=false) on caring about others, ~~helped me~~ *changed my life* and helped me be less harsh on myself and deal with rejection. 

**Compulsive buying**
When not on medication, I am very good at avoiding doing things, including researching products I am interested in. I often give up after reading a few reviews or looking up one or two retailers.
On Adderall, I am a shopping machine. I find exactly what I want super fast and I get easily fooled by marketing. Everything becomes so fantastic, perfect and I need it now.

Tomorrow, I have an appointment with my banker. The plan is to get rid of all that surplus money and make it work for me instead. Investing is good for me because even though the rates are shit right now, it stops me from spending too much. I create the impression of being poor while being responsible.

**Alcohol**
*On adderall, be careful !*
When I'm on medication, alcohol doesn't have the same effects on me. Past three or four drinks, I don't get more ""drunk"". It is VERY easy to go way past my limit.

I was at a party and was feeling very nervous. I drank more and more, but the feeling wouldn't go. Everyone crashed, but I wasn't sleepy, so I drank some more, feeling nothing of my impending plight. I came to my senses in an ambulance. I supposedly threw up in my ""sleep"" but wouldn't wake up, so they called 911. I spent the most miserable day of my life at the hospital, puking, blacking out, crying and generally waiting for the world to stop spinning so fast.

I stopped at two drinks a night for a while after that. Know your limits.

**TL;DR**
What I learned through all of this :

* Medication helps, but seeing a psychologist will really get things going.

* If you decide that your therapist is right for you, trust them and be completely honest.

* No one is a loser. It's a state of mind, not a fact and that feeling can change.

* being considerate with others helps you being considerate with yourself and reciprocally.

* Exchanging ideas with others enables us to develop self-consciousness.
> In contrast, for [Deleuze](http://www.raymondvandewiel.org/deleuze-sartre.html) the Other expresses a possible world. This possible world is not in the consciousness of the other, he or she expresses it. It is not an expression of the subjectivity of the Other.^1

^1 (I wrote an essay on why we need to have a Marxist (rather than Hegelian) perspective on social medias in order to do so. If anyone would like to have a discussion on the matter, we could carry it over to a more appropriate subreddit. It is also in that [Marxist](http://www.marxists.org/archive/marx/works/1844/james-mill/index.htm#081) set of mind that I am not really asking any questions here. I am sharing my experience in the hope that someone might enjoy or use it and subsequently share their thoughts about it.)


Lastly, sorry for hogging the spotlight on ALL my issues at once ! I am a slow writer and often feel it is too late to add my grain of salt to a thread. If anybody wants to share something but feels like this too, don't worry, you're not too late ! I won't leave anyone behind in this thread. ",adhd,medication day let feel appropriate give little info sort presentation potatomatic lurker year lost account made new one would really like get involved adhd currently trying associate degree information technology former lazy genius high school slacked still got grade hit wall college ago tried finally done spring plan keeping guy date lucky enough great part time job many slacking supported parent felt good able pay everything need seriously saved social life somewhat diminutive working learned alone learning make friend tell challenge every depression used depressed suicidal thought least week helped concentrate something else clear goal studying reason summer break terrifying prospect stemmed feeling different useless inadequate counseling understand strange anxiety mostly assholery also due irreconcilable difference pretty snobby bring even bit mainstream first group relationship live sound system party drink tea use linux listen edm introduced favorite thing ditched popular edgy truth bothered care anything long actually call hobby identified strongly add personality trait hipster enjoy common commercial radio cheap coffee stuff china question try maintain interest persevere boring tired abandoned altogether read usb flash drive last aced server administration exam applies people know everybody story want judge anymore find fault exploit better develop close based trust honesty making fucking hard age around already solid difficult squeeze trick found self doubt decide go throw invitation alex jess going bar meet eight come anyway show although might insecure needy asking confident independant worked bonus though weird without panicking bad considering apartment simply buy grocery reading murray bown david schnarch differentiation george bach laura torbet caring others changed le harsh deal rejection compulsive buying avoiding including researching product interested often review looking two retailer adderall shopping machine exactly super fast easily fooled marketing becomes fantastic perfect tomorrow appointment banker rid surplus money work instead investing rate shit right stop spending much create impression poor responsible alcohol careful effect past three four drunk easy way limit nervous drank everyone crashed sleepy nothing impending plight came sens ambulance supposedly threw sleep wake called spent miserable hospital puking blacking cry generally waiting world spinning stopped night tl dr help seeing psychologist therapist completely honest loser state mind fact change considerate reciprocally exchanging idea enables u consciousness contrast deleuze express possible expression subjectivity wrote essay marxist rather hegelian perspective medias order anyone discussion matter could carry subreddit set sharing experience hope someone subsequently share lastly sorry hogging spotlight issue slow writer late grain salt thread anybody worry leave behind,0.02,Neutral
"I know there are several temporal treatments for ADHD but are there any documented cases where people were ""cured"" of their ADHDs or rather stopped having dopamine deficiency which Is supposed to be the main cause of ADHD ?",adhd,know several temporal treatment adhd documented case people cured rather stopped dopamine deficiency supposed main cause,0.08,Moderately Positive
"My brother is pretending he has ADHD. What the fuck.     
We all, in my house, know he routinely lies to get sympathy or get excuses to be lazy. He has been doing poorly in college so far and, instead of admitting to my parents that he is just slacking off and partying with friends as usual, he is passing it off as, 'Oh poor poor me I have a disorder it's not my fault'.     
Having ADHD myself I can easily tell he doesn't have it. The difference is night and fucking day. He doesn't even have hyperattention for chrissake. But guess what? After a 30 minute doctor visit he got prescribed the medication. He refuses to tell anyone what went on at the doctor's- Exercising his shiny new 'right' as an 18 year old not to disclose I guess- and gives short, 2 word vague answers whenever anyone asks him if the meds are doing anything. Words cannot describe how pissed off I am.    
So much of society has no goddamn *clue* what ADHD actually is. It is not oh look a fucking squirrel.

ARGHHHH.",adhd,brother pretending adhd fuck house know routinely lie get sympathy excuse lazy poorly college far instead admitting parent slacking partying friend usual passing oh poor disorder fault easily tell difference night fucking day even hyperattention chrissake guess minute doctor visit got prescribed medication refuse anyone went exercising shiny new right year old disclose give short word vague answer whenever asks med anything cannot describe pissed much society goddamn clue actually look squirrel arghhhh,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"If it's free that's great but I'd be willing to spend a small amount of money if the features are good enough.

My main problem is that alot of the ones I'm looking into look to official or like work (if that makes any sense). Like looking at it causes an informational overload. Do you guys use any ones with graphics that stand out, like colorful charts etc, or that has a sleek design?

Just wanting something visually distinctive enough that it doesn't all blend together.
",adhd,free great willing spend small amount money feature good enough main problem alot one looking look official like work make sense cause informational overload guy use graphic stand colorful chart etc sleek design wanting something visually distinctive blend together,0.24,Moderately Positive
"It might be silly to those tho don't have ADHD and understand how I struggle. But when I put on some music, turn on the fairylights in my room and start writing away on my computer, eventually I'll get a flow. It doesen't always happen, but when it does, it's one of the best feelings in the world for me, and I just feel like I can sit there and write forever. Writing is one of the only things I feel like I can focus on, and one of the only things I'm actually kind of good at. I guess that's where my hyperfocus kicks in. And that feeling, when you actually accomplish something you want to, something that makes you very happy, is gold worth. I really can't describe it, but it just feels so damn good!!!!!!!!!

Looking forward to writing the rest of the book. Just to all of you peeps out here, you CAN DO IT!!!! No matter the struggles. No, I'm not saying ""just try your best and you will reach all of your goals"" but really, I believe in you. After so many failures and getting to tired and beating yourself up because you have such a hard time actually getting things done, it's good to have someone believe in you. Believe me, cauze I know the feeling.",adhd,might silly tho adhd understand struggle put music turn fairylights room start writing away computer eventually get flow doesen always happen one best feeling world feel like sit write forever thing focus actually kind good guess hyperfocus kick accomplish something want make happy gold worth really describe damn looking forward rest book peep matter saying try reach goal believe many failure getting tired beating hard time done someone cauze know,0.24,Moderately Positive
"Right now I am working with my family and it can be a real struggle because I have to do a lot of tedious paperwork(which I'm sure already has some of you cringing). But I think the payoff will be worth it so i plow forward.

One year I took some time off from college, I had a job as a mover. I worked 7 days a week sometime 12+ hours. I loved it. It was tiring but it was so easy to see the progress we were making that i was always motivated to keep moving stuff. and the days just flew buy.  I also happened to be working right before the bubble burst so people were spending money like madmen.

So how about it? What jobs have you guys enjoyed?",adhd,right working family real struggle lot tedious paperwork sure already cringing think payoff worth plow forward one year took time college job mover worked day week sometime hour loved tiring easy see progress making always motivated keep moving stuff flew buy also happened bubble burst people spending money like madman guy enjoyed,0.3,Moderately Positive
"[My friend and I were chatting at work](http://imgur.com/kmMr5) and it got me thinking. Most of my life, especially during times when my medication wasn't quite right, I've had this ""mental radio,"" a constant stream of chatter, mostly music, that I am unable to turn off. My best example of this was when I was a senior in high school. I was taking a test and, for the life of me, I couldn't stop looping this song in my head that I'd heard on the radio. I was on Concerta back then, at 120 mg (yikes! and I hated it. I was drugged off my ass and the damn radio STILL chattered on.). Whenever I try explaining ADHD to someone who doesn't have it, I tell them it's like having a radio in your head that you can't turn off no matter what you do. 


I've been taking Vyvanse for a few years now and I've found that the radio is still there, though not as often and much, much quieter. In fact, I am *able to meditate* if I concentrate. When my medicine begins to wear off, the radio comes back, though, having lived most of my life with it, I barely notice it anymore. Still, there are times when I'm really trying to concentrate and I just can't make it stop. This is the reason why songs just stick in head for days on end. I'll hum it or sing the same part over and over again without noticing it. My poor husband, lol. 

**TL;DR: How do you deal with mental chatter, i.e. the radio in your head you can never turn off?**",adhd,friend chatting work got thinking life especially time medication quite right mental radio constant stream chatter mostly music unable turn best example senior high school taking test stop looping song head heard concerta back mg yikes hated drugged as damn still chattered whenever try explaining adhd someone tell like matter vyvanse year found though often much quieter fact able meditate concentrate medicine begin wear come lived barely notice anymore really trying make reason stick day end hum sing part without noticing poor husband lol tl dr deal never,0.11,Moderately Positive
"I (26M) was diagnosed last week. I don't have my degree yet and currently working as a banker. I have struggled in school, work, etc. for so long I don't know what is me and what's the ADHD at this point. 

I have no wife or kids so I want to take this opportunity to go back to school and start a business. I've always wanted to do these things but every time I tried I could not follow through. I think treatment and medication will give me the edge I need to attain these goals. Even if the business doesn't work out I will finally have earned a degree to fall back on just in case.

I'm really just looking to ""fill in the gaps"" my life has had for so long. Finish college, get into a fulfilling career, get a girlfriend, improve relationships with family and friends.

Anyone experience this after diagnosis? Like a complete 180 of your life? ",adhd,diagnosed last week degree yet currently working banker struggled school work etc long know adhd point wife kid want take opportunity go back start business always wanted thing every time tried could follow think treatment medication give edge need attain goal even finally earned fall case really looking fill gap life finish college get fulfilling career girlfriend improve relationship family friend anyone experience diagnosis like complete,0.04,Neutral
"here’s the link 
https://youtu.be/ouZrZa5pLXk",adhd,link,0.0,Neutral
"I recently got re-admitted to college cause the first time I guess I wasn't feeling the school part. Although I feel I have learned a valuable lesson over the past year and will actually study and what not. 

What I'm really nervous about is my sleep pattern. Has anyone else on adderall noticed a huge change in their sleep pattern? If so how do you cope with it. I have a 8 am class two days a week and its a class I cannot miss. I'm afraid I will over sleep cause now I can't fall asleep before like three am and that's with pure darkness and no sound. I just lay in my bed wide awake just thinking about stuff. I've tried melatonin and it doesn't help much any ideas that could help me out? 

Thanks in advance. ",adhd,recently got admitted college cause first time guess feeling school part although feel learned valuable lesson past year actually study really nervous sleep pattern anyone else adderall noticed huge change cope class two day week cannot miss afraid fall asleep like three pure darkness sound lay bed wide awake thinking stuff tried melatonin help much idea could thanks advance,0.08,Moderately Positive
"So my doctor has prescribed me Adderall, and I am  trying to get used to using it.  It works well for keeping me focused, but my issue is this: if I am not doing the right thing when my medicine kicks in (it takes about an hour from when I take the meds),  then I will get stuck focused on something besides what I need to be doing. For example, if I am reading the morning news when the medicine kicks in, I will get stuck reading news four hours until I have read ""ALL of the news"". Then I won't get any work done for half the day. 

 Anyone on Adderall have any suggestions about how to steer myself in the right direction as I'm waiting for the meds to kick in? Thanks in advance! 

Edit: Adderal 20mg IR, if that helps anyone.",adhd,doctor prescribed adderall trying get used using work well keeping focused issue right thing medicine kick take hour med stuck something besides need example reading morning news four read done half day anyone suggestion steer direction waiting thanks advance edit adderal mg ir help,0.11,Moderately Positive
I am a 24f who just realized I might have ADHD and think that my alcohol consumption could be a result of a need to be calmer and more focused (although it inevitably ends in drowsiness and an excuse to aimlessly flip channels/eat/cruise the internet). I was wondering if that is common among people with ADHD.,adhd,realized might adhd think alcohol consumption could result need calmer focused although inevitably end drowsiness excuse aimlessly flip channel eat cruise internet wondering common among people,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"I'm 51 and diag'd w/ADHD a year ago. Doc started me off on what he called ""the Cadillac of ADD meds,"" Vyvanse (12hr). That was alright, but left me no control over my situation - I HAD to be dosed up all day long. It ruined my sleep schedule, and even worse made my digestive tract a stellar mess. So I switched to Adderall 30 IR. I break them up into quarters and take them about 4 hrs apart throughout the day to give me an even and smoother dosing, which allows me to stop taking it about 3-5 hrs before bedtime. If I didn't do that, I'd be up way too late and my schedule would keep shifting off by an hour or two every day.

But it seems I'm running into a problem...

Some nights, if I have been off the med for a few hours and I'm tired, the unholy dark passenger of rage that has lived inside me since I was brought into this world can explode with untold fury if provoked. Last night I burst into a rage that was near-blackout level, but not quite. I exploded at a beloved family member (also struggling with ADHD but as-of-yet unmedicated) and though he is an adult male, he immediately fell into an intense state of fear due to my explosive rage. The rage was triggered by something he said, but in all honesty, what he said is not the kind of thing that would normally (either on meds, or prior to taking any ADHD meds) upset me like that. 

So I started to wonder, does anyone else have a problem with emotional regulation when your meds wear off? Or am I an anomaly? I have to admit, feeling like I can explode like that without the medication worries me and I am starting to wonder who, or what, I might be if I were to stop? Does taking these meds for too long a time and then stopping them cause deleterious problems? Or do they eventually help you to ""get over"" being ADHD? I honestly doubt that anything could help us get over this ... nightmare... of a dis-ease. It's a real bitch, no matter how you slice or dice it. 

Any thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated. And to those of you struggling with this thing, my heart goes out to you. ",adhd,diag adhd year ago doc started called cadillac add med vyvanse hr alright left control situation dosed day long ruined sleep schedule even worse made digestive tract stellar mess switched adderall ir break quarter take apart throughout give smoother dosing allows stop taking bedtime way late would keep shifting hour two every seems running problem night tired unholy dark passenger rage lived inside since brought world explode untold fury provoked last burst near blackout level quite exploded beloved family member also struggling yet unmedicated though adult male immediately fell intense state fear due explosive triggered something said honesty kind thing normally either prior upset like wonder anyone else emotional regulation wear anomaly admit feeling without medication worry starting might time stopping cause deleterious eventually help get honestly doubt anything could u nightmare dis ease real bitch matter slice dice thought advice greatly appreciated heart go,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I'm currently studying Political Science in my University and for the first couple of weeks I was doing alright but slowly my attention got worse and worse and seeing I have to research a lot for papers in this college I struggle to finish assignments.
My ADHD this year has been getting far too out of hand, previous years I was able to focus at least when i had too or put myself in a tight spot now I can't, I can't get anything done and my grades are starting to reflect that, getting straight C's to D's to F's currently.
I've been trying to focus but all I've been able to do were half-assed papers and I don't feel it's my choice anymore and this is eating me alive, it bothers me that I can focus on unimportant things like League of Legends or similar activities but I can't focus on what I want to focus on, it's currently 6:00 AM for me and I have a final paper due in a couple of hours and I haven't even started I've been trying for the past three days to focus on researching for it but I just can't focus, I've already accepted that I'll fail it and re-do it in summer however I still don't know how I'll do it then.... 
My parents aren't allowing me to take the medications for my case, I've tried to explain things to them more than once but they don't listen to any of this; if anyone here can offer any tips to help that would be great and I'd really appreciate it.
Finally sorry for my terrible English right now I'm currently just panicking.",adhd,currently studying political science university first couple week alright slowly attention got worse seeing research lot paper college struggle finish assignment adhd year getting far hand previous able focus least put tight spot get anything done grade starting reflect straight trying half assed feel choice anymore eating alive bother unimportant thing like league legend similar activity want final due hour even started past three day researching already accepted fail summer however still know parent allowing take medication case tried explain listen anyone offer tip help would great really appreciate finally sorry terrible english right panicking,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"My friend will often be working, get distracted by something, kinda realize they have gotten derailed and not be able to stop. Do you guys have an tricks you use to get your self back on task and working on what you need to? ",adhd,friend often working get distracted something kinda realize gotten derailed able stop guy trick use self back task need,0.25,Moderately Positive
"Feel so desperate and  I just want  to feel  normal. I am 27 year old, don't have a medical insurance and my previous owned business falling apart. So I partially sold my business and trying to back to school. But I just don't have ability to execute things. And is not that I don't know what I have to do. I just do not have the ability to. The words ""Just do It"" gives me to a stress after 30.I am just constantly stressed as I am distracted to any kind of stimulus. 

So I need medical treatment but I don't know from where do I start. I even don't know who is my general physician as I'm basically don't have issues beside this one with health. I am willing to pay out pocket. But my savings is limited ( about $2000 ) and I don't know where to go, do I have to see physician, or psychiatrist or psychology therapist. Who can evaluate the severity of my ADHD and prescribe a drugs that will eventually lift me up from this constant loophole. I am just reading dozens of stories, but all stories is so different that my brain can't make a plan like:
 1. Find in your area .... 2. Call and ask for ... 3. Etc.

I can answer any question you ask guy. Just please help me to find the way that I should move on. I'm really rely on you. Thank you.
",adhd,feel desperate want normal year old medical insurance previous owned business falling apart partially sold trying back school ability execute thing know word give stress constantly stressed distracted kind stimulus need treatment start even general physician basically issue beside one health willing pay pocket saving limited go see psychiatrist psychology therapist evaluate severity adhd prescribe drug eventually lift constant loophole reading dozen story different brain make plan like find area call ask etc answer question guy please help way move really rely thank,0.03,Neutral
"Hey guys. I've got severe attention problems that look more like the result of a head injury than merely ADD. I'm also diagnosed OCD. I'm 26 credit hours away from a psych degree. School has been getting more and more horrific. I'm reasonably intelligent, but my study/student skills are severely underdeveloped. My effort is extraordinary. My return is average, until this past semester when I failed 2 of my 3 classes. If I am not eating or working out, I'm studying. I just can't seem to figure out how I should be spending my time while doing so. 

**Basically, I need to learn how to be a student—how to organize assignments, break down projects into smaller tasks, and how to pull the right information out of reading materials and lectures.** It's like I'm at work, but my boss isn't. So I'm ready to work, I just have no idea what I should do, and I wing it. kind of aimlessly meandering my way through assignments, taking far more time to do them than I ought to. I fucking such at being a student. I'm actually taking this semester off because I've had enough. I love to learn and I want so badly to be able to focus sufficiently. School doesn't have to be a painful, horrible experience. I am convinced that if I can learn how to learn, that I would love school. Does anyone have any suggestions or recommendations for how to achieve this end? I need to learn how to learn.

TLDR: I've gone as far in college as I can go w/o help. I need to learn how to learn. Any suggetions?",adhd,hey guy got severe attention problem look like result head injury merely add also diagnosed ocd credit hour away psych degree school getting horrific reasonably intelligent study student skill severely underdeveloped effort extraordinary return average past semester failed class eating working studying seem figure spending time basically need learn organize assignment break project smaller task pull right information reading material lecture work bos ready idea wing kind aimlessly meandering way taking far ought fucking actually enough love want badly able focus sufficiently painful horrible experience convinced would anyone suggestion recommendation achieve end tldr gone college go help suggetions,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"I think it's have been like 5 years since the last book I read from start to finish. I have never been a good reader, I think I have finished at most 5 books in my entire life, and I'm 23 lol. This have been a source of frustration for me because there are topics that are really interesting to me, and there are novels that I have wanted to read for a long time, but each time I try to read a book, I end up losing focus quickly and I have to read the same paragraphs over and over, and it ends up being tedious. 

I feel like my ADHD prevents me from enjoying that kind of things :( . And I would like to change that, but I don't know how. Any advice?",adhd,think like year since last book read start finish never good reader finished entire life lol source frustration topic really interesting novel wanted long time try end losing focus quickly paragraph tedious feel adhd prevents enjoying kind thing would change know advice,0.18,Moderately Positive
I’m (30F) starting Adderall tomorrow - 5 mg twice a day. Any advice or tips? Thanks for the support!,adhd,starting adderall tomorrow mg twice day advice tip thanks support,0.1,Moderately Positive
"I have an issue with comprehending what I read and analyzing it. I read, feel I have no clue what I'm reading. Read it three times and don't get the message straight away and then struggle to analyze and draw conclusions. When I do draw any or feel I got an aha moment I then struggle to retain the info.

I was wondering if this is something any of you have or is this not ADHD related. If you have experienced this and have found a way to improve both aspects, what did you do?



Thank you in advance",adhd,issue comprehending read analyzing feel clue reading three time get message straight away struggle analyze draw conclusion got aha moment retain info wondering something adhd related experienced found way improve aspect thank advance,0.33,Moderately Positive
"So here it is, another rant style venting post. I've read plenty like this but just feeling so frustrated I needed to share. 

I'm tired of feeling like a child, and in my eyes lately, a good for nothing piece of shit (forgive the hyperbole, I'm usually not that down on myself). 

I'm 25 and hold down a full time job, I rent a house and have a wonderful friend as a housemate. Right now there are so many little things in my list of simple failures regarding my professional and home life that I hardly know where to begin. 

I constantly leaving the heat on when I'm the last to leave to work. Constantly! My poor friend and I can barely afford oil as it is and despite their best efforts to make sure it gets adjusted accordingly by both of us, I let her (and myself) down again and again. She left a nice note right on the front door trying to remind me to turn it off. She reminds me to do it all the time per my request. But, still, I fail again and again to do this most simple of things. I have an alarm reminder, the note on the door, I think about it obsessively before I leave. I was about to turn it down this morning when...i get a text message! ...that's it. One random text derailed my entire intention I had been prepping for all morning. 

You know the whole ""you had *one* job!"" sentiment? That's how it is with this heat thing. I'm sitting at my desk when i just get hit with a wave of disappointment, disgust, and regret. I had PROMISED to shut it off today. Just today, you know? So frustrating. My excuse isn't even a real excuse. I'm sure my roommate can barely understand how a text message could derail me that bad. I know people here can understand lol.

I also missed a lot of simple things at work that my boss asked. Completely missed something that was said yesterday that messed something ip pretty bad. My boss is understanding...but...This happens a lot and I'm just tired of this being the norm and me trying to compensate and apologize and say I'll do better with no actual results. That's the hardest. The constant promises and apologies. It's so demoralizing. I'm medicated and go to coaching weekly. It's just never enough...

End rant.",adhd,another rant style venting post read plenty like feeling frustrated needed share tired child eye lately good nothing piece shit forgive hyperbole usually hold full time job rent house wonderful friend housemate right many little thing list simple failure regarding professional home life hardly know begin constantly leaving heat last leave work poor barely afford oil despite best effort make sure get adjusted accordingly u let left nice note front door trying remind turn reminds per request still fail alarm reminder think obsessively morning text message one random derailed entire intention prepping whole sentiment sitting desk hit wave disappointment disgust regret promised shut today frustrating excuse even real roommate understand could derail bad people lol also missed lot bos asked completely something said yesterday messed ip pretty understanding happens norm compensate apologize say better actual result hardest constant promise apology demoralizing medicated go coaching weekly never enough end,0.04,Neutral
"I am a 24 year old life long ADHD-er who is on his 2nd month back on Adderall after a long hiatus.

currently I am on Adderall 25mg XR

I switched over about 20 days ago from 3 10mg IR tablets.

The problem is that my Adderall is wearing off around 3 in the afternoon and my doc has said that she is uncomfortable upping my dose at all or even going back to 3 10 mg IR pills. (another doc in the practice put me on that). 

My question is this am I really at the limit of how much I can have?
If not what should I do?

I am a full time middle school teacher and working on my masters at night so I really do need to have my meds working from 8am - 9pm on days I have masters classes. ",adhd,year old life long adhd er nd month back adderall hiatus currently mg xr switched day ago ir tablet problem wearing around afternoon doc said uncomfortable upping dose even going pill another practice put question really limit much full time middle school teacher working master night need med pm class,0.01,Neutral
"Hi All!

I'm 26 years old. Over the last few months I've hit a wall of frustration in regards to never being able to get anything done ever (no matter how much I want to!), my dozens of hobbies I've started, invested in, researched heavily, only to not touch it again for week that now litter my bedroom, and my inability to somehow not remember to brush my teeth without writing it down to remind myself.... every single day. I've done a little (okay a lot) research and decided to seek an ADHD diagnosis. My first appointment is this Friday. 

Problem is, while my personal life is in shambles, I'm doing well at work. The reason for that is my job is the only thing I care about, its my dream job, I'm good at it, and of course I enjoy it (most of the time). My hyper energy and need for constant changes in environment are kind of an asset for me. Because of this, nobody takes me seriously when I mention my suspicions. ""Oh yeah I forget what I'm doing all the time, too,"" ""Oh I don't think that sounds like ADHD,"" ""You know, it helps to write stuff down so you remember"" (meanwhile my bullet journal has things like ""wake up"" and ""brush teeth"" and ""move laundry to dryer"" and I'm STILL lucky if it gets done).... I'm not doing this to get meds or to find a magic solution to all of my problems, I just want to know what the heck is wrong with me and how to do better. 

Are there any resources you all would recommend so that I can learn how to approach this topic with my friends/loved ones in a constructive way? Should I even bother? I'm tired of people thinking I am just lazy and fickle.

Tl;dr I am an adult seeking an ADHD diagnosis and because I'm good at/happy at work, everyone just thinks I'm lazy at home and aren't taking me seriously.",adhd,hi year old last month hit wall frustration regard never able get anything done ever matter much want dozen hobby started invested researched heavily touch week litter bedroom inability somehow remember brush teeth without writing remind every single day little okay lot research decided seek adhd diagnosis first appointment friday problem personal life shamble well work reason job thing care dream good course enjoy time hyper energy need constant change environment kind asset nobody take seriously mention suspicion oh yeah forget think sound like know help write stuff meanwhile bullet journal wake move laundry dryer still lucky med find magic solution heck wrong better resource would recommend learn approach topic friend loved one constructive way even bother tired people thinking lazy fickle tl dr adult seeking happy everyone home taking,0.16,Moderately Positive
"hey, so a little back story,

 I was diagnosed with ADHD as a kid and was in child psychology right up till I came of age, I could have taken adult psychology there and then, but i turned it down. including medication. i think the whole ""drug holiday"" thing was working for the hyperactivity i used to have.

however since then (I'm 22 now) I've noticed over the years that I've slowly become more inattentive and still fully exhibit most of the symptoms, Insomnia, low attention during conversations & work, low memory, next-to-nothing organisational skills, low motivation, etc.

i have a doctor's appointment today, and i am pretty nervous, I'm hoping to get referred back to adult psychology.

I'm kinda worried they'll try and convince me nothing's wrong, or that I don't have ADHD any more, or that I'm just unaffected by it. it's getting me pretty down thinking about all the ways it can go wrong... i'm worried they might try to test me again and it might come up negative for some reason.

if anyone could advise me on the best way to get back into treatment (UK) I'd be grateful.

*TL/DR: i have a doctor's appointment, and want to get back into treatment, nervous and not sure what to do, any advice would be great*

[Update: success! i got the referral ;)]",adhd,hey little back story diagnosed adhd kid child psychology right till came age could taken adult turned including medication think whole drug holiday thing working hyperactivity used however since noticed year slowly become inattentive still fully exhibit symptom insomnia low attention conversation work memory next nothing organisational skill motivation etc doctor appointment today pretty nervous hoping get referred kinda worried try convince wrong unaffected getting thinking way go might test come negative reason anyone advise best treatment uk grateful tl dr want sure advice would great update success got referral,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Basically, as the title says, every time I finally manage bring myself to plan a day schedule for the following day AND I've also managed to do it several times in a row - I need several days every time to actually start following my schedule/to-do lists - I am still completely and utterly demolished by the slightest change from what I had in mind.

For example, even if my wife just asked me to bring her something from the other room when I planned to brush my teeth, my productivity plummets like a ten ton boulder and I'm ten times more likely to be sucked into video games/phone/blankly staring at the wall - this happens not necessarily if my morning routine is slightly interrupted, but also hours afterwards as well, when I already started actually being productive.

All of this while I've been medicated for the last several years with (at first) Ritalin, Ritalin XR, then Concerta, Vyvanse and now trying out Adderall while with most of them (except Concerta) I, at least initially, *felt* better and more productive and then it started tapering off, leaving me with the feeling that it might've just been the ""buzz"" of the first few weeks/months and now I am just wondering whether they ever actually worked against my ADHD or was I just, well... sort-of high.

To get back to the original topic I meant to make - does anyone else experiences it as well? Do you have any tips, tricks and advice to perhaps allow me to better cope with such minute and, to be frank, utterly not **really** a distraction?

**tl;dr** - Need advice as I'm having a hard time planning a schedule and once that's actually done, everything in existence can easily take me out of ""the zone"" even if I already managed to create a routine for myself that I was able to follow for several days.",adhd,basically title say every time finally manage bring plan day schedule following also managed several row need actually start list still completely utterly demolished slightest change mind example even wife asked something room planned brush teeth productivity plummet like ten ton boulder likely sucked video game phone blankly staring wall happens necessarily morning routine slightly interrupted hour afterwards well already started productive medicated last year first ritalin xr concerta vyvanse trying adderall except least initially felt better tapering leaving feeling might buzz week month wondering whether ever worked adhd sort high get back original topic meant make anyone else experience tip trick advice perhaps allow cope minute frank really distraction tl dr hard planning done everything existence easily take zone create able follow,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I was answering some questions for /u/WillCode4Cats and realized that I've given a very important piece of advice several times over the last few days and I wanted to share it a little more broadly... so here it is.

*****

We are constantly giving people the advice that they may need to change their meds and/or it's dosage.  There is, however, a component that is even more important to change though it can be a little harder; **The Doctor**.  I recently posted 

>If there are 2 people (other than yourself) in the world you should be honest with it's your Doctor and your SO, IN THAT ORDER.

I truly believe that you have to be absolutely honest with your doctor.  First and foremost, this is for your own safety, some of the drugs that doctors give us can have incredibly dangerous side effects either on their own when mixed with certain other drugs or even when mixed with certain habits or behaviors.  As an extreme example; If you are an IV drug user and you don't disclose this to your doctor and he decides that you need to be on warfarin, which is an incredibly powerful blood thinner, your doctor will warn you about the fact that even small cuts will bleed a lot more than normal.  Well, if you use IV drugs that needle may well cause you to bleed a lot, like enough to threaten your life.  That all comes before we even think about how opiates (most common iv drugs) might interact with that drug. Now that doesn't say anything about why changing your doctor is sometimes important but keep reading, I'm getting there.

If the relationship with your doctor is such that you don't feel like you can trust him/her well enough to disclose some of your darkest secrets then you should make an effort to find someone you can trust.  **You and your Doctor MUST have mutual trust with each other.**  Now the sorts of issues that we address in this sub, ADHD, are the hardest to be trusted with.  Psychological issues are always hard in part because in most cultures they carry a very significant stigma, in part because they are hard if not impossible to understand if you aren't experiencing them yourself.  These issues can also be incredibly hard to put into words to express.  All of this leads to a lot of anxiety which makes being honest harder.  Your doctor should always be working for your best interest, after all doing so is in his best interest.  You and your insurance are directly paying the doctor to work in your best interest.  **If you don't feel like your doc is doing the things you need or if you don't feel like you can trust your doctor, then look for another.**

*****

**TLDR; Your doctor should work *WITH* you and if he isn't or you can't trust him then fire him and find someone new.**",adhd,answering question willcode cat realized given important piece advice several time last day wanted share little broadly constantly giving people may need change med dosage however component even though harder doctor recently posted world honest order truly believe absolutely first foremost safety drug give u incredibly dangerous side effect either mixed certain habit behavior extreme example iv user disclose decides warfarin powerful blood thinner warn fact small cut bleed lot normal well use needle cause like enough threaten life come think opiate common might interact say anything changing sometimes keep reading getting relationship feel trust darkest secret make effort find someone must mutual sort issue address sub adhd hardest trusted psychological always hard part culture carry significant stigma impossible understand experiencing also put word express lead anxiety working best interest insurance directly paying work doc thing look another tldr fire new,0.02,Neutral
"Today I wanted to get up early and study for my [CCNA](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ccna). I woke up kind of late, and made a sandwich. I jacked around and didn't get much done. I cracked my book, tried to focus, tried to do a little bit, and just re-worked two of the problems that I had done the other day, and probably before that. I had taken my medication (10mg of Adderall IR), and it didn't really seem to help much.

I've been on higher doses, but I have a serious problem with crashing on the stuff, and with insomnia. 

I'm studying for my CCNA because I don't have money to pay for university, which is where I'd really rather be. I used to have money, but my parents stopped giving it to me after I did really horribly two semesters in a row. I really feel like I tried my best, and I feel like I was genuinely interested in the material, but something was just in the way. I'd sit and do calculus **all day**. Sometimes I'd focus on one problem for hours, which was bad. SOmetimes I got lots done. But I guess I just couldn't study fast enough. However, the material that I did cover, I really, genuinely *understood* it. I could explain it to other people. I was excited about it. I would discuss it with another friend who really liked math. I was curious and wanted more. I craved it. 

But I failed that class twice, along with another one, and now I'm here trying to study for an IT certification that I really genuinely need right now. It's my ticket to paying for university. It's also my ticket to having at least some chance of being able to either see my girlfriend now and then (she's out of state) or eventually actually be with her. And on top of both of those things, it'd be a solid bet at getting some good income and independence to do other things in addition to pursuing a degree that I want and being able to maintain a relationship with the woman I love. 

I should have more than enough motivation. I have plenty of reasons. I don't even think it's that hard. I'm just having trouble with proceeding through the material because I can't stop assing around.

Can someone please tell me what in the **fuck** is wrong with me and what I can do to fix it? 

",adhd,today wanted get early study ccna woke kind late made sandwich jacked around much done cracked book tried focus little bit worked two problem day probably taken medication mg adderall ir really seem help higher dos serious crashing stuff insomnia studying money pay university rather used parent stopped giving horribly semester row feel like best genuinely interested material something way sit calculus sometimes one hour bad got lot guess fast enough however cover understood could explain people excited would discus another friend liked math curious craved failed class twice along trying certification need right ticket paying also least chance able either see girlfriend state eventually actually top thing solid bet getting good income independence addition pursuing degree want maintain relationship woman love motivation plenty reason even think hard trouble proceeding stop assing someone please tell fuck wrong fix,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I have been in a relationship for six years with a girl, who I love and want to be with. We are self employed as photographers, and we are lucky enough to be able to work from home.  

She started taking Adderall a couple of years ago, and it has helped in a lot of ways, but I think it hinders her in a few ways as well. She used to be extremely easy to distract, and still kind of is.  She edits photos for most of the day, and then the rest of the day she is on her phone. There is a lot she doesn't do, but should be doing. Personal development things, budgeting, handling bills, cleaning, learning, etc. She has developed an obsession for Asian culture (kpop, kdramas, anime, etc), which is totally fine. It doesn't bother me at all. She watches Netflix while editing photos, but since it's not in English, she is reading subtitles more than she is actually working (in my opinion). I feel like the Adderall gives her a type of laser focus, to the point where she doesn't want to do more than those two things every day. Editing, and phone/Netflix. Occasionally she will craft, but almost never does stuff that needs doing.   

I have brought this up a lot. As soon as I do, she immediately goes on the defensive, which includes telling me my flaws, and/or tuning me out and being quiet, but it never changes. I do most of everything, bills, errands, anything that needs to be done except for photo editing (though I do that too).  

I don't know what to do. I know what she's capable of, but she lacks interest in pretty much anything except Asian culture. I am the passionate one about photography, she can take good photos but stopped learning a long time ago, or showing any interest to learn or make progress. It's like shes stuck in a rut and she doesn't know how to get out. Is it the medication? She also takes Effexor.  

All that being said, when she worked for a small marina, she did what she was supposed to do, no issues. Got to work on time, did her job, and then left. She has told me it's hard for her to take direction from me because she feels like she is underneath me when she does that, which I can kind of understand.  

I want to do what I can to help the situation, to get us working exercising, and handling things like a team instead of me doing everything. Is it plain laziness? Is it a side effect of the meds? Is it ADHD? Do I have an angle on this?   

Thanks to anyone who can provide any type of insight.  ",adhd,relationship six year girl love want self employed photographer lucky enough able work home started taking adderall couple ago helped lot way think hinders well used extremely easy distract still kind edits photo day rest phone personal development thing budgeting handling bill cleaning learning etc developed obsession asian culture kpop kdramas anime totally fine bother watch netflix editing since english reading subtitle actually working opinion feel like give type laser focus point two every occasionally craft almost never stuff need brought soon immediately go defensive includes telling flaw tuning quiet change everything errand anything done except though know capable lack interest pretty much passionate one photography take good stopped long time showing learn make progress shes stuck rut get medication also effexor said worked small marina supposed issue got job left told hard direction underneath understand help situation u exercising team instead plain laziness side effect med adhd angle thanks anyone provide insight,0.14,Moderately Positive
"Background: My dad is a doctor, a primary care physician. He knows all about ADHD and the various medications. My whole family, him included, has some form of ADHD. All through high school, I've been taking 36mg of Concerta daily and 5mg of amphetamine when I had big projects or assignments and needed the extra push while at home.

So we have just changed insurance, and now we have to pay a lot more for medications, and ADD meds ain't cheap. Not to mention my college is quite expensive, too. In order to cut down on costs, my dad wants to switch my main medication from concerta to adderall. He says it makes more sense anyway, because I don't need medication that lasts twelve hours if I only have, say, a single class in the morning. 

While I can see his point, and feel bad about all the money I'm costing him, I really don't like taking adderall. I only do it when I have to. When taking ADHD medication, there is a fine line between becoming a focused, motivated person and becoming a stimulant-driven *monster* who has to do ALL the things! And for me, even my little 5mg of adderall squashes my appetite and shoves my personality out of the way.  
**Tl;dr: My dad (a doctor) wants me to switch from my 12-hour-lasting concerta to adderall because I won't be taking classes all day long and won't need it. But, I feel that adderall suppresses both my appetite and my personality and hate taking it.**

So my question is, how can I make my medication work for college?",adhd,background dad doctor primary care physician know adhd various medication whole family included form high school taking mg concerta daily amphetamine big project assignment needed extra push home changed insurance pay lot add med cheap mention college quite expensive order cut cost want switch main adderall say make sense anyway need last twelve hour single class morning see point feel bad money costing really like fine line becoming focused motivated person stimulant driven monster thing even little squash appetite shove personality way tl dr lasting day long suppresses hate question work,0.0,Neutral
"Today I had a job interview. I thought it went pretty poorly. I lied and told them what I thought they wanted to hear, but the general tone and body language I was getting from the interviewers was cold and abrasive.

After the interview, I went grocery shopping. I sat in the parking lot for a solid 20 to 30 minutes just trying to process. I felt defeated. I felt angry. I felt like blaming others. I felt like giving up on the idea of ever having a decent life. I tried asking myself ""why"" questions to shed some light on why I couldn't go into the store, why I felt the way I did, why I wanted to get my butt into the store but still couldn't.

The questions didn't help at all. Eventually I looked at my shopping list, saw it was just a few items all on one side of the store. Suddenly I felt I could do it now. I abandoned the emotions and opened my car door.

While shopping, I got an e-mail saying I had passed the interview. All of that anxiety and stress and loathing was meaningless.

I used to be better at not letting things get to me. I used to realize there was nothing I could do to influence a thing, and that would keep the pointless emotions away. This past year though, it's destroyed the foundation that I once had. Maybe that is a good thing. Maybe it can be rebuilt better than it was before.

Why did I do that to myself and how do I prevent it in the future?",adhd,today job interview thought went pretty poorly lied told wanted hear general tone body language getting interviewer cold abrasive grocery shopping sat parking lot solid minute trying process felt defeated angry like blaming others giving idea ever decent life tried asking question shed light go store way get butt still help eventually looked list saw item one side suddenly could abandoned emotion opened car door got mail saying passed anxiety stress loathing meaningless used better letting thing realize nothing influence would keep pointless away past year though destroyed foundation maybe good rebuilt prevent future,-0.03,Neutral
"I sometimes find that my husband doesn’t initiate - I never mind being more aggressive but it’s getting a bit boring for me, as well as plays on insecurities if I have to keep asking for sex. Also in terms of intimacy he doesn’t ever talk much or show any vulnerability. Maybe cuddling with the dogs but that’s different from sharing insecurities, hopes and dreams. Plus most of the time he has to be watching tv or listen by to a podcast while having sex. And I’ve shared my fantasies but he rarely shares his and if he does they actually seem tame and generic... I’ve read that since adhd is an initiation issue that it’s not uncommon for someone with adhd to not be able to initiate or sustain interest. What have your experiences been like? How should an SO talk to you about this being an issue - especially if you already have trouble being intimate and showing vulnerability?",adhd,sometimes find husband initiate never mind aggressive getting bit boring well play insecurity keep asking sex also term intimacy ever talk much show vulnerability maybe cuddling dog different sharing hope dream plus time watching tv listen podcast shared fantasy rarely share actually seem tame generic read since adhd initiation issue uncommon someone able sustain interest experience like especially already trouble intimate showing,0.05,Moderately Positive
"So I went up to the fish and chip shop to pick up some food for everyone. I had what everyone wanted in my head clear as day. I was with my sister. I got in and it was heaving. There were people everywhere - I didn't know where the queue started or ended. I thought it was my turn and this woman who was standing at the back pushed in front of me (she had been waiting there but I didn't see her). Then I got flustered and the man asking me what I wanted didn't understand what I was asking and I basically waffled and got confused. My sister stepped in and gave the instructions perfectly and paid the man and they looked at each other knowingly.

I don't know why, but it hurt in a humiliating kind of way when they glanced at each other like that. The other people were all there listening to me make a fool of myself as well - bumbling on like I was. Sometimes I wish I could keep my head on and not garble the fuck out of what I'm trying to say. 

It really gets me down sometimes and makes me feel super inadequate. ",adhd,went fish chip shop pick food everyone wanted head clear day sister got heaving people everywhere know queue started ended thought turn woman standing back pushed front waiting see flustered man asking understand basically waffled confused stepped gave instruction perfectly paid looked knowingly hurt humiliating kind way glanced like listening make fool well bumbling sometimes wish could keep garble fuck trying say really get feel super inadequate,0.18,Moderately Positive
"I've been taking Ritalin for my ADHD for years, but a year ago, as soon as I turned 18, I quit because I feared it was affecting my body in unwanted ways, even though I had no negative side effects. I struggled to maintain my grades in college and decided to try to take it again for the sake of my education. However, within 10 minutes of taking it, I thought, ""My fingers are pale, were they always that pale? Look, they look blue! And I have a headache, I shouldn't have taken it, I'm getting lighteaded, am I going to pass out? Is anxiety a side effect? Oh look, hallucinations are also a side effect. Was that shirt there before? And my leg won't stop twitching, and..."" You get the point. So, how can I overcome this? I've learned that I can't handle things on my own; I really do need these meds. However, I can't take them without freaking out. Any advice would be very helpful. ",adhd,taking ritalin adhd year ago soon turned quit feared affecting body unwanted way even though negative side effect struggled maintain grade college decided try take sake education however within minute thought finger pale always look blue headache taken getting lighteaded going pas anxiety oh hallucination also shirt leg stop twitching get point overcome learned handle thing really need med without freaking advice would helpful,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"When I was little, I could never focus on my homework. It took me hours to do simple math problems. I have never been able to read chapters in books because I get distracted after just a few minutes, and when I do read, I have to reread the chapters a few times because I zone out and start day dreaming. My mom also tells me I forget everything, and that's pretty accurate. To this day, I can't remember to do the simplest of things. Also, when I'm talking to a big group of people, or even talking to just a few or one person, I usually feel out of place because I never can focus on talking, I'm always zoning out and day dreaming to myself. I've also been known to have troubles sitting still. My feet are always bouncing or I'm wiggling my toes or picking at my fingernails to the point of them bleeding.
This year was my first year in college. Last semester was rough. I started to deal with a lot of depression, social anxiety, sleeping problems, and a lot of other issues, but this semester has been much better. My social anxiety has seemed to disappear and my depression is at the lowest it has been in years and I'm sleeping normally again, but I'm still having horrible trouble focusing on my school work. In high school, I started out in a very good high school. Lots of kids, lots of different classes that challenged me, and I had a bit of trouble. Then, sophomore year I transferred to a really small school where the academics weren't nearly as good. This made me do a lot better in school, mostly because I could do all my homework in the class beforehand when I forgot to do it the night before. Now, I'm going to a very challenging university and I'm noticing that I'm having more problems like this than before. Last semester I ended up failing some really easy classes just because I couldn't focus enough to read a text book. So, my question is that if this isn't ADHD, then what could it be? How do I bring up these concerns with my doctor, when I've said nothing to him about it in the past?

Edit: Just to clarify, I've only seen my doctor 2 or 3 times, and I've never said anything to him about my mental problems, though I've been contemplating going to counseling to see if they could help, but I haven't brought myself to do it yet.

Update: I went to the counseling center today and met with a woman to talk about my concerns, my depression, social anxiety, and where to go from here. She gave me ways to help my ability to focus and we scheduled a follow up meeting. She did tell me that I definitely show symptoms of ADHD, but she isn't able to tell whether or not it is ADHD or depression. Now, I realize that I wasn't clear on when I was depressed. She thinks that it's something I've struggled with my entire life, even though it's mostly been only the past semester. If I were to go through my school, it would take a really long time for me to even by diagnosed, so she suggested that I go see a psychiatrist or doctor sooner rather than later. They would be able to evaluate me and help me faster than anyone else, so, I'm going to try to find a doctor in the area that takes me insurance. If not, I've gotta wait until spring break to see anyone.",adhd,little could never focus homework took hour simple math problem able read chapter book get distracted minute reread time zone start day dreaming mom also tell forget everything pretty accurate remember simplest thing talking big group people even one person usually feel place always zoning known trouble sitting still foot bouncing wiggling toe picking fingernail point bleeding year first college last semester rough started deal lot depression social anxiety sleeping issue much better seemed disappear lowest normally horrible focusing school work high good kid different class challenged bit sophomore transferred really small academic nearly made mostly beforehand forgot night going challenging university noticing like ended failing easy enough text question adhd bring concern doctor said nothing past edit clarify seen anything mental though contemplating counseling see help brought yet update went center today met woman talk go gave way ability scheduled follow meeting definitely show symptom whether realize clear depressed think something struggled entire life would take long diagnosed suggested psychiatrist sooner rather later evaluate faster anyone else try find area insurance gotta wait spring break,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I got re-diagnosed and re-medicated this past February. They started me on 30mg of Vyvanse, which was a noticeable positive difference in mood... but nothing else. So she upped me to 40mg. Nothing really changed there, so she upped me one final time to 50mg. No difference at all in focus or motivation, but just general mood.

So after I told my psychiatrist this, in addition to my feelings of constant depression, she decided to switch me to 10mg of Adderall to be taken at both morning and afternoon, as well as 150mg of Welbutrin in the morning.

I've decided to take make an effort to get more sleep, and attempting meditation (even though the music in my head and back pains make it really fucking difficult). In addition to that, also getting a bullet journal and making to do lists every day.

Are there any quirks about either medication I should know about?",adhd,got diagnosed medicated past february started mg vyvanse noticeable positive difference mood nothing else upped really changed one final time focus motivation general told psychiatrist addition feeling constant depression decided switch adderall taken morning afternoon well welbutrin take make effort get sleep attempting meditation even though music head back pain fucking difficult also getting bullet journal making list every day quirk either medication know,-0.03,Neutral
"Wouldn't anything that adds dopamine improve ADHD symptoms? IE, alcohol, pain killers, weed?

Basically, if dopamine is the 'big deal', then would not just going after increasing it lead to the temporary benefit? 

Like, why can't I just get dopamine with depressants such as alcohol and have an improved attention span? Or with hydrocodones, etc? When I was taking hydrocodones(prescribed), I felt a good combination of stimulated and yet relaxed, like how Adderall fans describe the drug...


Where am I wrong here? Why does this logic(increase dopamine/improve adhd) fail?
",adhd,anything add dopamine improve adhd symptom ie alcohol pain killer weed basically big deal would going increasing lead temporary benefit like get depressant improved attention span hydrocodones etc taking prescribed felt good combination stimulated yet relaxed adderall fan describe drug wrong logic increase fail,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Anyone found anything to significantly help with dry mouth from meds? I've tried biotene mouthwash and xylimelts mints but both only help for 20 mins or so, then right back to being super dry. My poor bf says he enjoys my blowies with no saliva, but I know he's just trying to be nice. Lol. ",adhd,anyone found anything significantly help dry mouth med tried biotene mouthwash xylimelts mint min right back super poor bf say enjoys blowies saliva know trying nice lol,0.24,Moderately Positive
"My coping mechanisms take advantage of my high energy and spontaneity. I know medication gives me the potential to be more productive, but I don't know what perspective or strategies I can employ. What is now possible that was not easy before? Remembering things, organization, focusing, etc. I am conditioned to not waste effort on weaknesses I cannot effect. Is there something pliable about my nature now that will move with effort instead of stubbornly resisting? What remains the same? What should I try?


I know it varies by individual, but sometimes patterns emerge. I'd like to know what you've learned from experience when it comes to this.",adhd,coping mechanism take advantage high energy spontaneity know medication give potential productive perspective strategy employ possible easy remembering thing organization focusing etc conditioned waste effort weakness cannot effect something pliable nature move instead stubbornly resisting remains try varies individual sometimes pattern emerge like learned experience come,0.07,Moderately Positive
So basically my life is going down hill and I need help Dealing with other people  I don't Like and My anger is ruined my life,adhd,basically life going hill need help dealing people like anger ruined,-0.7,Negative
I have one vacation day left to get work done before I go back to work tomorrow. My family is having a lunch and I'm in the middle of getting things done. The 3 hour break would hurt me greatly by trying to regain momentum. I'm unmediated and Have to wait until the holidays are over to get an appointment. I hate the feeling of them talking behind my back and not understanding. I already feel like a failure by the amount of time it takes to get started or to complete a peoject. I really don't need them thinking I'm already worse person than I am. I don't know how to convince them to understand my condition. The qualities of my adhd are the ones they hate. I just want them to understand and accept me. ,adhd,one vacation day left get work done go back tomorrow family lunch middle getting thing hour break would hurt greatly trying regain momentum unmediated wait holiday appointment hate feeling talking behind understanding already feel like failure amount time take started complete peoject really need thinking worse person know convince understand condition quality adhd want accept,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"So a little fast backstory, I recently discovered I have adult ADHD after moving away from home for the first time at the age of 26. After a lifetime of healthy but doomed relationships I now find myself unbearable. 

Whenever I find someone new, inside of a week i feel deeply enthralled. It's like someone's taken my emotions and swapped them for a crazy person. I'm normally so balanced and downright empty (aside from a bit of loneliness because hey, no friends!) so this feels just out of place. 

I'm not able to safely judge when something is the right thing to say or to even prevent myself from saying things at inopportune times that I really do know better about. Worse yet, i feel things so intensely, disappointment and frustration can be paired just as actively with excitement if i don't get the return i'm expecting.  Just this last week i met a girl online, developed a crush on her, and am pretty sure I drove her away because she won't talk to me anymore. 

Is this normal for ADHD or am I just in serious need of some sort of magical program that forces me to figure out how to be human again in romantic relationships? 

Hell, if this is part of ADHD what can I do to stop this? I'm sick of driving people i like away. 


**TL;DR**

Found out I had ADHD after a big move brought it out of me, drove off a girl with insane neediness. Is this a quirk of ADHD?",adhd,little fast backstory recently discovered adult adhd moving away home first time age lifetime healthy doomed relationship find unbearable whenever someone new inside week feel deeply enthralled like taken emotion swapped crazy person normally balanced downright empty aside bit loneliness hey friend place able safely judge something right thing say even prevent saying inopportune really know better worse yet intensely disappointment frustration paired actively excitement get return expecting last met girl online developed crush pretty sure drove talk anymore normal serious need sort magical program force figure human romantic hell part stop sick driving people tl dr found big move brought insane neediness quirk,0.02,Neutral
"Writing this to perhaps help someone else in the future.

Been on Vyvanse for a year, no problems in the beginning but over the months i started to double or triple my dosage and spend entire days just binge watching porn and jerking off. It got to the point where i could skip work, lie to my girlfriend etc, so really an addiction.. 

Anyhow, contacted my doctor and told about my manic behavior on Vyvanse. He described 1mg Intuniv which i have been on for a week now, while also continuing on 50mg Vyvanse.


**Positive effects**

* No urge to get a rush from the Vyvanse with higher dosage and massive amounts caffeine
* No urge to browse porn
* Easier to eat
* Less sensitive to external noises
* Sleeps better
* Lower heart rate
* The ability to stop mid task, reflect and start the same or another task. 
* Lowered my social anxiety 

**Negative effects**

* Very tired the first 3 days
* Nasty crash in the afternoon/evening with bad temper and brain fog
* Super limp dick


Super stoked about the result and I hope and think the negative effects will fade away with time.

TL;DR
Started with Intuniv, reduces unwanted side effects of Vyvanse.",adhd,writing perhaps help someone else future vyvanse year problem beginning month started double triple dosage spend entire day binge watching porn jerking got point could skip work lie girlfriend etc really addiction anyhow contacted doctor told manic behavior described mg intuniv week also continuing positive effect urge get rush higher massive amount caffeine browse easier eat le sensitive external noise sleep better lower heart rate ability stop mid task reflect start another lowered social anxiety negative tired first nasty crash afternoon evening bad temper brain fog super limp dick stoked result hope think fade away time tl dr reduces unwanted side,-0.04,Neutral
"About 6 months ago I did a neuropsych evaluation because I was certain I had ADHD. Like many people here I would get obsessed with hobbies to the point where I couldn't think about anything else, and then suddenly not be interested anymore. I learn a lot of things due to my curiosity but can't get myself to sit down and apply it in a project for any extended period of time. I couldn't focus in lectures in college because my brain was moving faster than the professor's mouth. I am addicted to whatever is new and challenging to me rather than sticking with the things that should be important to me and have the best consequences. Though I am intelligent, I feel like I am not living up to my potential because my focus is scattered across so many things and I never stay interested in anything long enough to do anything significant.

This is affecting my life in several significant ways. I am working as a software engineer and while I used to love programming because there was so much new to learn, but after I learned everything I was curious about I became bored with the field and now hate my job and can rarely ever focus on it long enough to get anything done. I worry constantly that someone will see this eventually and fire me. At the same time I don't know what new career I could ever move to that would hold my interest for long enough. I have this dream of creating something great too, that I feel I'll never be able to achieve because I focus on or stay interested in anything long enough to do so. It also affects my dating life, I can't get in a relationship because I get obsessed with new guys all the time even when I've been seeing one for longer.

However, my diagnosis was instead dysthymia (long lasting depression) and anxiety. I get where this is coming from, however I took a leave of absence when the suicidal thoughts and lack of focus became terrible to do a behavioral health outpatient program. There I learned how to set goals and started feeling better because I was taking actions in my own life to do the things I enjoy and making baby steps towards figuring out my career.

After stressing out about my attention issues still, my psychiatrist put me on Adderall, which helped a little bit when I eventually returned to work, I was more on task. However my patterns of obsession/disinterest came back (at my worst I was interested in nothing), as I find myself blowing tons of money now on Japanese candy, plushies, figures, arts and craft supplies, that eventually I know I'll lose interest in and they'll just sit there. Like the $400 worth of hobby electronics purchased during my college years. I'm trying to study music now, but I worry it's all futile and even still I don't feel functioning enough to sit down and write a composition or practice an instrument.

This all culminated in a breakdown yesterday when I felt absolutely powerless at work following a switch to Vyvanse (so I could focus the entire day instead of being unable to focus after 3). I couldn't do anything. I kept looking at other things online, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't do it. My focus instantly wavered. I have since added the Adderall back into my routine, but I wonder how I'm ever supposed to make it through this and reach my work, personal, and relationship goals without a diagnosis. Even now my psychiatrist does not think I have ADHD because I didn't really have functioning issues at an early age. I did well in school, and while I've always had obsessions, didn't have any problems with focus until my teens.

But nothing anyone else has said explains what's going on with me. As my depression and anxiety get better, my attention and interest stay exactly the same. I guess at this point I do have stimulants, but I don't know what else to do. Seek another neuropsych evaluation? I absolutely failed at the CPT which some people say is an indicator but for some reason the doctor threw out the results because I was pressing the spacebar too early. Seek life coaching? I don't know. I'm hopelessly lost and tired of fighting my own brain and not getting answers on what's going on, and I don't see myself progressing towards my goals until I get through these hurdles.",adhd,month ago neuropsych evaluation certain adhd like many people would get obsessed hobby point think anything else suddenly interested anymore learn lot thing due curiosity sit apply project extended period time focus lecture college brain moving faster professor mouth addicted whatever new challenging rather sticking important best consequence though intelligent feel living potential scattered across never stay long enough significant affecting life several way working software engineer used love programming much learned everything curious became bored field hate job rarely ever done worry constantly someone see eventually fire know career could move hold interest dream creating something great able achieve also affect dating relationship guy even seeing one longer however diagnosis instead dysthymia lasting depression anxiety coming took leave absence suicidal thought lack terrible behavioral health outpatient program set goal started feeling better taking action enjoy making baby step towards figuring stressing attention issue still psychiatrist put adderall helped little bit returned work task pattern obsession disinterest came back worst nothing find blowing ton money japanese candy plushies figure art craft supply lose worth electronics purchased year trying study music futile functioning write composition practice instrument culminated breakdown yesterday felt absolutely powerless following switch vyvanse entire day unable kept looking online matter hard tried instantly wavered since added routine wonder supposed make reach personal without really early age well school always problem teen anyone said explains going exactly guess stimulant seek another failed cpt say indicator reason doctor threw result pressing spacebar coaching hopelessly lost tired fighting getting answer progressing hurdle,0.03,Neutral
"Hello All,
I'm 26 years old and this is the first time I have taken medication after being diagnosed about 6 months ago. Its literally my first day taking it so I may be freaking out and jumping the gun. Lol. However, I'm taking Vyvanse 30mg and about halfway through the day my left hand went cold and numb. I felt it in my arm a little too but that went away. It is now 415pm and my left hand is still numb and a little cold. I have read up on this and it states that can occur quite frequently but I'd rather ask y'alls opinion and experiences. Is this that serious, should I be worried? Should I wait it out a few days since this is the first time I'm on medication? Any info will help, Thanks.",adhd,hello year old first time taken medication diagnosed month ago literally day taking may freaking jumping gun lol however vyvanse mg halfway left hand went cold numb felt arm little away pm still read state occur quite frequently rather ask alls opinion experience serious worried wait since info help thanks,-0.03,Neutral
"How do you respond when a friend tells you that they think they have ADHD?

Friend One:
She thinks she has ADHD because she is very creative, doesn't like working a normal job, sometimes forget things, and hates sitting still for long periods of time. 

I tell her ""I don't think you have ADHD.""

We get to her place and she proceeds to bring down her dirty clothes, do her laundry, fold it, hang it up, come back down and make dinner and then clean it up. I ask her ""How did you do that?"" ""Do what?"" ""Uh, you finished your laundry and there was still time for dinner and to clean up. Did you need help with that? Or did someone remind you? Or?"" ""No"" ""Yea... I really doubt you have ADHD""

But she insists that there is still something wrong with her. I don't normally like to be dismissive about people's struggles (I do think she is slow when it comes to learning and grasping abstract concepts), but... there's just no way someone who can consistently perform daily household chores in a complete and timely fashion has ADHD to me. Am I being rude?

Friend Two:
She is in school and someone slipped her some adderall. She loved it. She said she stopped feeling anxiety for her test, felt like she could read and understand everything. I admit, yes, she is very slow in school. it takes her maybe 4x as long as her peers to learn and understand concepts (she is studying sciences).

She thinks because the adderrall (10mg) made her feel good that she has ADHD.

I disagreed. She is annoyingly on time for everything. And she remembers EVERYTHING you say and the order you said it in, so when she messes up she confidently comes back with a ""the instructions were specifically ...""

What do you guys think? Or if someone tells me they think they have ADHD, I just keep my mouth shut?

TL;DR - Friends tell me they have ADHD. I don't believe them. Am I rude or helpful?",adhd,respond friend tell think adhd one creative like working normal job sometimes forget thing hate sitting still long period time get place proceeds bring dirty clothes laundry fold hang come back make dinner clean ask uh finished need help someone remind yea really doubt insists something wrong normally dismissive people struggle slow learning grasping abstract concept way consistently perform daily household chore complete timely fashion rude two school slipped adderall loved said stopped feeling anxiety test felt could read understand everything admit yes take maybe peer learn studying science adderrall mg made feel good disagreed annoyingly remembers say order mess confidently instruction specifically guy keep mouth shut tl dr believe helpful,0.0,Neutral
"So I've been trying to be good. I quit drinking, I exercise a fair amount...I volunteer now. I go to events.

But the thing is that I don't volunteer or go to events quite as often as I say I will! The time will come and often I'll think, I would rather die than go to that thing. And then I feel terrible for the rest of the day because I didn't go to the thing.

Aside from how terrible this makes me feel already, it's also scary - I'm planning to go back to school in January and I DEFINITELY cannot just not go to class. Been there, done that. Still have the debt and the shame...

Does anyone have any advice?? I know that commonly in posts like this people say ""just do the thing"" and I agree, but I'd also argue that there are ways of making it MORE LIKELY that I just do the thing.

Something that I've noticed helps is telling somebody, either in person or via text or facebook, that I'll definitely be there. Then I can't let them down.

Also: planning to go with a friend, for the same reason.

Also: keeping it in my head all day that I'm going to the thing tonight. Then it's not a surprise at 8pm or whatever that oh shit I have to leave in twenty minutes mmm might just sit this one out...

Also: thinking of all the cool stuff and benefits I could get from going. This can get me excited about going!

Anyone??",adhd,trying good quit drinking exercise fair amount volunteer go event thing quite often say time come think would rather die feel terrible rest day aside make already also scary planning back school january definitely cannot class done still debt shame anyone advice know commonly post like people agree argue way making likely something noticed help telling somebody either person via text facebook let friend reason keeping head going tonight surprise pm whatever oh shit leave twenty minute mmm might sit one thinking cool stuff benefit could get excited,0.01,Neutral
"I find myself keeping stuff of no useful or sentimental value. Lots of books that I probably won't read again, camping stuff (in case of). I haven't been camping in 10 years. ",adhd,find keeping stuff useful sentimental value lot book probably read camping case year,0.02,Neutral
How long after taking my Adderall XR *must I wait** before drinking OJ to avoid mitigation?,adhd,long taking adderall xr must wait drinking oj avoid mitigation,-0.05,Moderately Negative
"Say I get a 3-month prescription from my doctor, get a 30-day dose, and the next month I happen to be near the pharmacy and think of refilling my prescription. It's a day or two before it's going to expire, and I want to feel good about remembering it ahead of time, and knowing that I don't have to worry about heading back to get it.

So, I go in, talk to the pharmacist, and get told, ""No, you have to wait until [the day it runs out] before you can get a refill."" Well, fuck. Any other drugs I've been prescribed I could get refilled a few days ahead of time, but apparently not my Adderall. So much for trying to feel good about myself, and now I just feel like an idiot.

Being on the meds doesn't make everything go away--I'm still rather scatter-brained, forget to do things, procrastinate, etc.--but they help a LOT to deal with it. The day my prescription runs out, I don't have time to go in and get it refilled. Or I think of it that morning when I empty the bottle, but forget by the time I get home, and the pharmacy is closed.

Now it's the next day, I reach for my bottle, and... it's empty. Fuck. I call myself an idiot for not remembering the day before, and don't have time to go in before work. So now I'm at work, fidgety and unfocused. My memory has gone from halfway decent on meds to my usual, ""what memory?""

I leave work, after a grueling 8 hour day that now feels like 20 hours. I'm tired, I'm forgetful, and I procrastinate. The thought of going to the pharmacy might glimmer past my mind, but is quickly forgotten, or I'll say, ""I'll go home, have dinner, then head over."" It never happens.

Now it's the next morning, and I really feel like an idiot.

This might continue for a few days until I *finally* remember to go in, and actually pick up a refill. Now I have to wait 30 days from when *this* fill ends, not when the last one did.


I know it's a controlled substance and all, because somebody might stockpile it and decide to sell it. If somebody's going to sell it, they'll do it anyway. Instead, all you're doing is punishing the people who need it, who need its effects to actually be *able* to get more. When they decide to try and do the right thing, they get put down for it.

It's a bloody frustrating system, and I hate it. At least for me, it forces me to just skip every now and then, form a own stockpile (exactly what they're trying to prevent), and use that to tide me over until I remember.

This kills the reserve stockpile.

The one I rely on to keep in my car in case I forget to take one in the morning.

If I go in 2 days before a prescription runs out, why not just give me my goddamned refill, but keep the date for my next one as though I'd let it run out first?

Just a rant of something that's been pissing me off for awhile. I don't know if it's just my pharmacy, that chain, or an Ontario Law thing, but it still pisses me off.",adhd,say get month prescription doctor day dose next happen near pharmacy think refilling two going expire want feel good remembering ahead time knowing worry heading back go talk pharmacist told wait run refill well fuck drug prescribed could refilled apparently adderall much trying like idiot med make everything away still rather scatter brained forget thing procrastinate etc help lot deal morning empty bottle home closed reach call work fidgety unfocused memory gone halfway decent usual leave grueling hour tired forgetful thought might glimmer past mind quickly forgotten dinner head never happens really continue finally remember actually pick fill end last one know controlled substance somebody stockpile decide sell anyway instead punishing people need effect able try right put bloody frustrating system hate least force skip every form exactly prevent use tide kill reserve rely keep car case take give goddamned date though let first rant something pissing awhile chain ontario law piss,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I was hoping for a drastic change. The educational psychologist said she has only had one other child in her career that has such a big difference in IQ scores and she was adamant that we'll see a huge scholastic difference. My daughter scored in the ""very superior"" range - the highest possible. Yet her functioning is in the ""high average"". She skipped the ""superior"" range altogether (which I've heard is very rare and shows how significantly her ADD-pi has affected her learning). She is on Ritalin LA 10mg for two weeks. Then upping it to 20mg.",adhd,hoping drastic change educational psychologist said one child career big difference iq score adamant see huge scholastic daughter scored superior range highest possible yet functioning high average skipped altogether heard rare show significantly add pi affected learning ritalin la mg two week upping,0.21,Moderately Positive
"I’ve always wanted to have some kind of occupation, but I change my mind pretty much every 2 weeks. I’ll be really into something, and then I’ll come across something else and change my mind to wanting to do that instead.

Also absolutely everything seems interesting to me to some extent, so I seem to have a limitless pool of ideas to pull from.

How do I find something that I’ll enjoy doing longer term? I’ve started but not finished 5 different courses since finishing high school. I haven’t had a job in the last 5 years (but I have a 1 1/2 year old daughter now).

Basically how did you people find jobs that you enjoy doing for long enough to actually study them or spend more than a week or two on before finding a better idea?",adhd,always wanted kind occupation change mind pretty much every week really something come across else wanting instead also absolutely everything seems interesting extent seem limitless pool idea pull find enjoy longer term started finished different course since finishing high school job last year old daughter basically people long enough actually study spend two finding better,0.2,Moderately Positive
I took my first dose of adderall this morning. I have gotten 4 projects done. It seems easier to string together thoughts and tasks. I don't feel as dumb. Doing a task doesn't take a tremendous amount of will power which may leave me overwhelmed for days after. If this is how it feels to get 4 projects done in a hour that I have collectively took a month to even start on all 4. Anyway. Don't want to raise the bar to high in getting stuff done. 😂,adhd,took first dose adderall morning gotten project done seems easier string together thought task feel dumb take tremendous amount power may leave overwhelmed day get hour collectively month even start anyway want raise bar high getting stuff,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Technically, I got all the laundry washed I put the whites in the dryer last night and took them out this morning  Technically I did the laundry in one day (not including folding)!! ☺ Although the downside is I went out for lunch and I was trying to save my money for a new otter box next month. Stupid cravings. 

Does anyone else have cravings and the have to have it right now or at least have it for dinner? Could that be an ADHD thing?",adhd,technically got laundry washed put white dryer last night took morning one day including folding although downside went lunch trying save money new otter box next month stupid craving anyone else right least dinner could adhd thing,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"I was recently prescribed Strattera, starting at 40mg for four days and then increased to 80mg. I don't know if it was just a placebo effect but during the first few days my mind did seem much less noisy/busy. I started taking the full dose on Friday and I know that it takes about a month until you really start to notice any real difference, though I do still feel the same quietness upstairs. So far, I have only experienced some lightheadedness upon standing, my hands getting cold more easily, and a heart rate increase of about 20 bpm, all of which I can handle. I wanted to know if those who have been taking Strattera for a while have noticed if any of these feelings subsided after your body adjusted to it or if they tend to be more permanent?",adhd,recently prescribed strattera starting mg four day increased know placebo effect first mind seem much le noisy busy started taking full dose friday take month really start notice real difference though still feel quietness upstairs far experienced lightheadedness upon standing hand getting cold easily heart rate increase bpm handle wanted noticed feeling subsided body adjusted tend permanent,0.17,Moderately Positive
"So I’ve gone to the Rod Power Psychology Clinic in Macquarie University to get diagnosed. I paid about $400 for a 4 hour testing session and got my results 2 weeks after. I got diagnosed with ADHD-C. 

I was wondering if there are any psychiatrists that bulk bill that I could go to to be prescribed medication. 

Also, will the psychiatrist put me through another psychometric testing session even though I’m already diagnosed? (I was diagnosed roughly 3 weeks ago, so pretty recent). 

If it’s of any importance I am M/18 and plan on starting TAFE early next year. ",adhd,gone rod power psychology clinic macquarie university get diagnosed paid hour testing session got result week adhd wondering psychiatrist bulk bill could go prescribed medication also put another psychometric even though already roughly ago pretty recent importance plan starting tafe early next year,0.04,Neutral
"I'm  not great at introducing myself so I'm just going to dive into my situation if you want to read a bit of it. I need advice. I bring notes in folders to remember what to tell him because of my memory. But what if he thinks I take them because I wrote down symptoms from the dsm? (i havent by the way) I guess what I'm saying is.. do you have any ideas how I can like start believing in his diagnoses without feeling like garbage. I've always done horrible in tertiary school. I abhorred everything about highschool- sitting through classes and pretending to pay attention so I didn't get in trouble for one. I got out of high school and for two years I did really well in state college. My desire to prove to myself that I'm not an idiot drove me. I'd do hours and hours of studying all day (uncharacteristic of adhd ? what do you think?) I got the highest score in calculus 1 and that's like the biggest thing boosting my self esteem now. I did two semesters at a university and I withdrew. I couldn't handle the stress. But, there wasn't really stress there right? Iv'e been a hermit in my room for like 8 or 9 months now and I can't seem to focus on anything. Reading comprehension is terrible (i have to read something a million times to 'understand') I lose track of my 'point' when in a conversation. I can't understand what people say to me unless I really put in a lot of mental effort. I know that sounds lazy but I dont know how else to explain it. people sound like the adults in charlie brown if im not repeating what they say in my head. Disorganization is all over my life. Family told me I only ever talk about what I want to talk about and I've been told I have a horrible memory ever since I was young. I feel like its even worse now. My boyfriend has pretty overt adhd and we have so many similarities that I started going to a psychiatrist who's said I have adhd. I've seen him twice and he's getting an ekg I did and said he wants to control my anxiety before starting stimulants, but I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I feel like he doesnt really believe me. I've always had problems getting my point across.  My family is really supportive but everyone tells  me I think too much and don't take enough action. They're right. I'm 'stuck in my head' all day. Sometimes it's worry, but mostly I can only manage 2 minutes of reading before I get this urge to do ANYTHING else. I can't describe the feeling. I think I've been conditioned to be lazy. I don't know. Alright I got to stop typing or I'll go all night. Sorry the post is so long haha. ",adhd,great introducing going dive situation want read bit need advice bring note folder remember tell memory think take wrote symptom dsm havent way guess saying idea like start believing diagnosis without feeling garbage always done horrible tertiary school abhorred everything highschool sitting class pretending pay attention get trouble one got high two year really well state college desire prove idiot drove hour studying day uncharacteristic adhd highest score calculus biggest thing boosting self esteem semester university withdrew handle stress right iv hermit room month seem focus anything reading comprehension terrible something million time understand lose track point conversation people say unless put lot mental effort know sound lazy dont else explain adult charlie brown im repeating head disorganization life family told ever talk since young feel even worse boyfriend pretty overt many similarity started psychiatrist said seen twice getting ekg control anxiety starting stimulant wrong doesnt believe problem across supportive everyone much enough action stuck sometimes worry mostly manage minute urge describe conditioned alright stop typing go night sorry post long haha,-0.03,Neutral
"In high school, I remember my AP Lit teacher wrote me the most glowing letter of recommendation and absolutely loved me. 

Meanwhile, my Chemistry teacher asked me if I was going to go to college and told me that wasn't a good idea if I was thinking about it.


How that impression comes off really seems to be mostly luck of the draw, really. Am I productive during that time of day? Am I productive with the way that class is set up? I never really know until it happens.",adhd,high school remember ap lit teacher wrote glowing letter recommendation absolutely loved meanwhile chemistry asked going go college told good idea thinking impression come really seems mostly luck draw productive time day way class set never know happens,0.45,Moderately Positive
"I'm not suicidal. I would very much like to like to see my life out. But I do feel like just don't care if I die. I could count on one hand the people who would care if I die.

I thought a friend (since 2007). He knew I had ADHD. Tonight I told him I started taking ritilan again. I told him I would only tell him and family. He said No need to. I have never opened up to anyone. This as about as far as it gets and I feel like I just really got put down. This wasn't the first sign of losing friendship. Just the final confirmation. 

So where do that leave me? Depressed as shit. I have absolutely no one that can relate to me. 

I just want someone to shoot the shit with about ADHD for maybe 10 minutes a day. Just so I know I'm not alone out there. Anyone? Steam? Whatever?",adhd,suicidal would much like see life feel care die could count one hand people thought friend since knew adhd tonight told started taking ritilan tell family said need never opened anyone far get really got put first sign losing friendship final confirmation leave depressed shit absolutely relate want someone shoot maybe minute day know alone steam whatever,0.11,Moderately Positive
"So after 11 years knowing I was ADD, and living with the disorder my entire life, I have never actually talked about it with other people who actually live with it. Usually I just describe it the best I can to people who want to know more about me. It's so... For lack of a better word I'll say refreshing. It's so refreshing to talk with people who know exactly what life without the ability to easily follow an entire conversation is like. And it's even more refreshing to be able to talk with people about how hard certain things are without being told to stop complaining or something along those lines.

I don't really have any specific questions or profound realizations I want to focus on here, I just want to say thank you for showing me that it doesn't have to be so difficult to find support working around ADD. ",adhd,year knowing add living disorder entire life never actually talked people live usually describe best want know lack better word say refreshing talk exactly without ability easily follow conversation like even able hard certain thing told stop complaining something along line really specific question profound realization focus thank showing difficult find support working around,0.17,Moderately Positive
"So, I finally got diagnosed with ADHD. After failed attempts of trying to cure depression or cope with nonexistent Asperger's I have a concrete enemy I can fight against. Except the diagnosis was long, and ate all me money - and for the next few months I won't have the needed cash for therapy. Don't want to use medication for now.

I'm in desperate need of methods how to cope with loss of concentration. I'm talking about the case (dunno if it's common) where you're trying to focus on something, and it sort of slips away from your grasp. And all energy you put into it gets wasted, only makes you more tired and irritated that you can't do a simple task. The problems it generates for me are huuge.

So, are there any methods you'd recommend? Books to read? Or won't I be able to tackle this problem unless I take meds?

TL;DR: I can't cope with loss of concentration and it's destroying me.",adhd,finally got diagnosed adhd failed attempt trying cure depression cope nonexistent asperger concrete enemy fight except diagnosis long ate money next month needed cash therapy want use medication desperate need method loss concentration talking case dunno common focus something sort slip away grasp energy put get wasted make tired irritated simple task problem generates huuge recommend book read able tackle unless take med tl dr destroying,-0.13,Moderately Negative
"I'm just starting to work with a psychiatrist again for ADHD. This time, the medication we started with is a lot better than what I took when I tried this years ago, so I think I'm on the right track.

At the same time, I'm not all the way there I think. I can focus on 75% of the lecture instead of 40%. I used to average 30 minutes of work for every 1 hour browsing the internet. Now it's more like 2 hours work to 45 minutes of browsing.

I'm hoping I can catch all of a lecture and work pretty continuously without getting distracted. Is that too high of expectation?",adhd,starting work psychiatrist adhd time medication started lot better took tried year ago think right track way focus lecture instead used average minute every hour browsing internet like hoping catch pretty continuously without getting distracted high expectation,0.17,Moderately Positive
"So I think it's pretty clear that medication is only half the battle for a lot of people with ADHD and I've found this to be especially true for me- I (20F) was diagnosed a little over a year ago and although medication (50mg Vyvanse) has helped a lot, I still have a lot of residual anxiety and confidence issues that have been hard to kick due to years of bad habits/coping mechanisms. 

Reality set in a few weeks ago when I read two of my professors' recommendation letters that they had written for an internship- I probably wasn't supposed to read them but had access to them through my online application (come on, you would read yours too). They basically confirmed everything I knew about myself- I bite off more than I can swallow, appear to ""lack focus and determination,"" and that I haven't ""realized my potential"". They said a lot of good things too, but all of that is frustrating to hear nonetheless, especially when I realize that my lack of self control and focus can be misinterpreted as a lack of ability. I spent most of January in a depression after being fired from my job (""inability to learn quickly enough"") and feeling like a huge fuck up/failure/disappointment. 

So, I figured I'd share everything that I'm doing and see if anyone else wanted to share their own experiences, offer tips, or ask questions. It seems like a lot of people on this sub (myself included) have been kinda down/struggling lately and I don't like people feeling like their situation is hopeless. Sorry for the long post, I tried to break it up as much as possible and keep my sentences to-the-point. 

1. **Seeing a therapist:** I had my first appointment last week! I did therapy once before (after my parents divorce when I was sixteen) and really liked it so I'm optimistic about trying it again. We've started tackling my issues with anxiety- her first two assignments for me were to 1) pay attention to my negative thoughts, what they were saying, etc. and write some down for our next session, and 2) if I start thinking them- let them go and just stop thinking them. Obviously easier said than done but it's nice to have someone tell me to do it. I'm going back again at the end of the month and will eventually see her every week/every other week probably. 

2. **Exercise:** I've decided to run another half marathon in May. I ran my first in September (I think) of last year and haven't done much running since because I've been overwhelmed with school. My training plan is 17-21 miles a week which will be really difficult but I'm looking forward to it- running was one of the best things I ever did for my ADHD and sleep patterns. I'm also easing my way into a ketogenic diet (/r/keto), which may help with ADHD as well as a number of other neurological disorders (disclaimer: please do your own research before becoming a low-carb nut, it's a big change and you shouldn't screw around with your health). 

3. **Reading:** I'm a student so I don't really just ""read to read"" on top of everything else but I had some audible.com credits to use up and downloaded two books: *Spark* by John. J. Ratey and *The Willpower Instinct* by Kelly McGonigal- so far they're really interesting! Spark is about how exercise affects the brain's functioning and confirms a lot of the things I felt when I was training for my first half marathon; it's been really good for motivating me to train for this second one. I'm not far into The Willpower Instinct but I think it's something I'd recommend to a lot of other ADHD-ers. It's easy to read (or listen to, in my case) and is helping me pick apart where/why/how I lack self control and the ability to form good habits. For example, I learned that people who tend to be most optimistic about a new diet/habit are the most likely to fail- this completely contradicts everything I've heard about ""being positive"" about my abilities and whatever. I tend to be ridiculously optimistic when starting something new, so I'm really interested to read/hear the rest of the book. 

4. **NO MORE MULTITASKING:** This has been a bad habit of mine I realize and a huge reason that I only get things halfway done. When I want to be productive I want to do everything at once which means trying to clean while getting ready in the morning while also trying to organize my iTunes playlist and plan my day. I'm also really bad about texting and driving (terrible habit, I know) but am starting to do it much less (or only at stoplights). If I feel the urge to do a side activity I tell myself ""no"" and keep doing the one task I need to finish; for example, I paused my audiobook before starting this post. Usually I'd just keep it going and miss a ton of info. This has made a much bigger impact than I expected. I don't get overwhelmed with half-finished tasks nearly as much as I used to; in general, I'm much more ""present"" in whatever activity I'm doing. 

5. **Meditation:** This is so silly- I am really not some crazy hippie (or whatever stereotype you identify with meditation) but I have meditated twice in the last week and have really liked how I felt afterwards. It's really hard to explain, but my mind just felt very *clear* afterwards- like I was in control of my thought processes. I've been using [these Youtube videos](http://www.youtube.com/user/YouProductionsUS?feature=watch) to guide my meditation, beginning with ""Concentration Meditation"" (about 18 minutes long). 

6. **Motivating myself:** The past 2 semesters have been really rough for me because I'm not certain what I want to be doing or if I'm even capable of doing what I want to do. I'm a chem major (which I love) but not sure if I want to pursue grad school or a medical/physican's assiting degree- and even if I wanted to do an MD I don't know that my grades are good enough to get me in, which is really frustrating. I got the opportunity to shadow a physician a few days ago and it was a really good experience. It made the whole thing very real for me- I could actually see myself doing that as a career. I started classes yesterday feeling much more confident and driven than I have in a while. 

On a more general note- learning to ask for help has been really important for me in the last year. I feel a huge sense of personal responsibility which makes me feel very guilty about my bad habits. I don't like to make excuses for myself and can really beat myself up over procrastinating or not reaching my goals, which just combines with my anxiety and gets me caught in a vicious cycle. 

A real turning point for me has been telling myself ""It's okay that I can't do this on my own and there's nothing wrong with getting help to be happy."" I'm feeling hopeful/capable/in control (but not overly optimistic!) for the first time in a while. 

EDIT: I finished up this post and was listening to The Willpower Instinct a little, and I ended up right where they begin discussing meditation: ""Meditation is not about getting 'rid' of all your thoughts. It's learning not to get so lost in them that you forget what your goal is. Don't worry if your focus isn't perfect when you're meditating, just practice coming back to the breath again and again."" ",adhd,think pretty clear medication half battle lot people adhd found especially true diagnosed little year ago although mg vyvanse helped still residual anxiety confidence issue hard kick due bad habit coping mechanism reality set week read two professor recommendation letter written internship probably supposed access online application come would basically confirmed everything knew bite swallow appear lack focus determination realized potential said good thing frustrating hear nonetheless realize self control misinterpreted ability spent january depression fired job inability learn quickly enough feeling like huge fuck failure disappointment figured share see anyone else wanted experience offer tip ask question seems sub included kinda struggling lately situation hopeless sorry long post tried break much possible keep sentence point seeing therapist first appointment last therapy parent divorce sixteen really liked optimistic trying started tackling assignment pay attention negative thought saying etc write next session start thinking let go stop obviously easier done nice someone tell going back end month eventually every exercise decided run another marathon may ran september running since overwhelmed school training plan mile difficult looking forward one best ever sleep pattern also easing way ketogenic diet keto help well number neurological disorder disclaimer please research becoming low carb nut big change screw around health reading student top audible com credit use downloaded book spark john ratey willpower instinct kelly mcgonigal far interesting affect brain functioning confirms felt motivating train second something recommend er easy listen case helping pick apart form example learned tend new likely fail completely contradicts heard positive whatever ridiculously starting interested rest multitasking mine reason get halfway want productive mean clean getting ready morning organize itunes playlist day texting driving terrible know le stoplight feel urge side activity task need finish paused audiobook usually miss ton info made bigger impact expected finished nearly used general present meditation silly crazy hippie stereotype identify meditated twice afterwards explain mind process using youtube video guide beginning concentration minute past semester rough certain even capable chem major love sure pursue grad medical physican assiting degree md grade got opportunity shadow physician whole real could actually career class yesterday confident driven note learning important sense personal responsibility make guilty excuse beat procrastinating reaching goal combine caught vicious cycle turning telling okay nothing wrong happy hopeful overly time edit listening ended right begin discussing rid lost forget worry perfect meditating practice coming breath,0.04,Neutral
"I have a final in 3 hours worth 40% of my grade, but u know what my brain thinks is more important, cleaning my room it only takes 10 min, but oh I better organize my to do list so i know what to do. ah but my laundry isn't done and i can't go around smelling. I'll basically do anything that makes me feel like Im being productive even tho im just procrastinating. Anyone relate to this? Adderall only slightly helps this for me",adhd,final hour worth grade know brain think important cleaning room take min oh better organize list ah laundry done go around smelling basically anything make feel like im productive even tho procrastinating anyone relate adderall slightly help,0.21,Moderately Positive
"I've been on 30 mg Vyvanse once a day for the last year - which (with additional help writing papers/outlines) has improve my marks enormously. 

Lately though. I've been feeling nearly constantly anxious/jittery, and had a tight feeling in my chest. I've cut my coffee intake down over the last several months (from several cups a day, to 1 and a pepsi, or 2 cups of coffee) and I don't drink energy drinks.

 I did talk to the doctor about it, and she just said to watch it. I don't know if this is a pill side effect (and should I be concerned? why now and not months ago? Do side effects get worse as you lose weight?) or if its just my anxiety getting out of control. Anybody else with anxiety on vyvanse (or any other stimulate medication for ADD/ADHD) and how do you deal with it?",adhd,mg vyvanse day last year additional help writing paper outline improve mark enormously lately though feeling nearly constantly anxious jittery tight chest cut coffee intake several month cup pepsi drink energy talk doctor said watch know pill side effect concerned ago get worse lose weight anxiety getting control anybody else stimulate medication add adhd deal,-0.19,Moderately Negative
"tl;dr: not all docs are equal

I've been hit by depression pretty hard over the last week so I've decided to go back on meds. Bear in mind, I'm actually wanting a non-stimulant depression med which has off-label use for ADHD that I spent some time on as a child, but the wording still makes me concerned:

> **Policy Regarding Prescriptions for Pain and ""Nerve"" Medications**
>
> We are seeing a rise in inappropriate use and abuse of prescription drugs. Commonly abused prescription drugs fall into three categories: pain relievers (opioids), sedatives and tranquilizers, and stimulants. The CDC reports that drug overdose, particularly due to the increase in nonmedical use of prescription pain-relief drugs, is the second leading cause of deaths from unintentional injuries in the United States.
>
> We would like to let you know that while we treat many types of medical problems, we do not treat chronic pain or nerve problems, and that we do not prescribe medications for these conditions. If you need help with these types of problems, we will be glad to arrange referrals for you to the appropriate specialists.

First, really, did you have to put quotes on ""nerves,"" or are you aware that nerves are actually things that people can experience problems with?

B, It's really weird that you seem to be building this really vague umbrella about conditions you won't treat without mentioning their actual names, like you want to be able to build a gray area where you can decide whether or not any variety of somewhat controversial diagnoses/prescriptions should be denied.

Three, I swear I totally mentioned ADHD and depression when I was calling for the appointment, so if you guys wind up charging me for a referral I am going to be upset about it.

Ugh...

What do you think? They're just trying to cast a wide net to avoid drug-seeking behavior, or they're building an excuse to avoid dealing with things like ADHD or fibromyalgia? Should I cancel this appointment and find a doctor outside of this medical system? Because I also sort of want to lose weight and am way overdue for a physical, so this is something of a one-stop shop for me, but the big #1 is getting myself some get-off-your-ass medicine.",adhd,tl dr doc equal hit depression pretty hard last week decided go back med bear mind actually wanting non stimulant label use adhd spent time child wording still make concerned policy regarding prescription pain nerve medication seeing rise inappropriate abuse drug commonly abused fall three category reliever opioids sedative tranquilizer cdc report overdose particularly due increase nonmedical relief second leading cause death unintentional injury united state would like let know treat many type medical problem chronic prescribe condition need help glad arrange referral appropriate specialist first really put quote aware thing people experience weird seem building vague umbrella without mentioning actual name want able build gray area decide whether variety somewhat controversial diagnosis denied swear totally mentioned calling appointment guy wind charging going upset ugh think trying cast wide net avoid seeking behavior excuse dealing fibromyalgia cancel find doctor outside system also sort lose weight way overdue physical something one stop shop big getting get as medicine,0.05,Moderately Positive
"**BACKGROUND:**

My old doc used to see me every 3 months and give me 3 backdated scripts, but she moved. 

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With my new doc, I have to pick up a script ***every*** month at his office.

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I'd drive to pick it up, but 

1. I'm being sent 5 hours away
2. We're allowed 5 ""personal"" days off for the entire year, for things like doctor's appointments, so I need to save them. 


*****

**WHAT I'VE DONE SO FAR:**
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I sent a message to the practice a few days ago asking how to handle this situation without a response. 

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I understand since my being overwhelmed doesn't constitute an *actual* emergency hahaha ;_;, but I'm thinking of calling on Monday to ask nicely what to do.

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In the meantime, I've been searching everywhere for people in this situation, but I can't find anything. I'm probably searching too specifically. 


*****

**CURRENT STATUS:**

To put it lightly, I'm freaking the fuck out about everything. 

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I was already terrified of starting rotations, but the news of being sent away *and* having my surgery rotation 1st, as the *biggest* *klutz*, was **my nightmare** come true. 

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I can see myself unintentionally breaking the sterile field right and left T_T.

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To cope, I've been hoarding information on how to prepare for rotations, but I'm having a hard time controlling my racing thoughts and it's making it really hard to sleep.


*****
**TL;DR** ヽ(д｀ヽ彡ﾉ´д)ﾉ 

Please give me advice about refills, rotations, surgery... or even life! ^I'm ^desperate.

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*Thank you in advance.*

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**EDIT:** Talked with the office over the phone. They said they'd fax it if I contact them 3 days beforehand. Hallelujah! Thank you everyone so much for your comments! It really helped me put my worries to rest. ",adhd,background old doc used see every month give backdated script moved new pick office drive sent hour away allowed personal day entire year thing like doctor appointment need save done far message practice ago asking handle situation without response understand since overwhelmed constitute actual emergency hahaha thinking calling monday ask nicely meantime searching everywhere people find anything probably specifically current status put lightly freaking fuck everything already terrified starting rotation news surgery st biggest klutz nightmare come true unintentionally breaking sterile field right left cope hoarding information prepare hard time controlling racing thought making really sleep tl dr please advice refill even life desperate thank advance edit talked phone said fax contact beforehand hallelujah everyone much comment helped worry rest,0.07,Moderately Positive
"After about 2 weeks being medicated once again now that I'm 23, I finally decided to act upon my want to use a journal.

I'm using it to write down what I feel and kind of track the effects I get from medication, I'm only two days in so far but its fun to write down the random things I'm thinking and the stupid thoughts or feelings I have throughout the day. I'm hoping I can look more into things and see if there is a connection between events and how I react, and if I continually think about certain things that I constantly forget about.

Does anyone else have a journal/diary? What do you use it for??",adhd,week medicated finally decided act upon want use journal using write feel kind track effect get medication two day far fun random thing thinking stupid thought feeling throughout hoping look see connection event react continually think certain constantly forget anyone else diary,-0.01,Neutral
"I just switched pharmacies so I get a different brand of adderall now (I know I know adderall is a brand but I'm not gonna type ""dextroamp-amphetamine"" if I don't need to). The old brand was gross cuz it was hella bitter. The new brand is gross cuz it's sickly sweet. Now I'm super curious why that is, and it seemed vaguely relevant to this subreddit so, yeah, any of you know why that is? (Also, those of you also on adderall, is yours sweet or bitter?) ",adhd,switched pharmacy get different brand adderall know gonna type dextroamp amphetamine need old gross cuz hella bitter new sickly sweet super curious seemed vaguely relevant subreddit yeah also,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Hey, there was something I saw here earlier this week about relationships and ADHD, there was a link to how an ADHD person typically acts in a relationship and the problems it causes. Can anyone help me out with this?",adhd,hey something saw earlier week relationship adhd link person typically act problem cause anyone help,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"I was doing a task at work, and I would have sworn on the lives of everyone I hold dear that I was doing it correctly, and I wasn't. This isn't the first time I've done the task. This isn't the second, this is like the tenth. I taking my medication today. I had music that I'm extremely familiar with going on in the background. I had enough sleep last night. And. I. Still. Fucked. Up. 

I found the mistake before it went out, but that means I wasted an hour, so now I have to work through my lunch unpaid (my choice) to fix it. 

This is happened to me so much, I am seriously considering that I may be a candidate for disability.",adhd,task work would sworn life everyone hold dear correctly first time done second like tenth taking medication today music extremely familiar going background enough sleep last night still fucked found mistake went mean wasted hour lunch unpaid choice fix happened much seriously considering may candidate disability,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I was getting so anxious leading up to today, but it feels REALLY good to have a diagnosis of ADHD!!! I am a female and I have always wondered what made me ""different"" in my mind and I've heard many times in my adult life, ""if ONLY you could just FOCUS"" because I have this ""gift"" of hyper focusing (which feels like a curse most of the time) .... and because I don't finish things I start, I procrastinate WELL and I am interested in so many things! I'm really looking forward to treatment.

TL;DR After almost 31 years of life as a female, I have been formally diagnosed with moderate to severe ADHD. It feels great; so, I wanted to share!",adhd,getting anxious leading today feel really good diagnosis adhd female always wondered made different mind heard many time adult life could focus gift hyper focusing like curse finish thing start procrastinate well interested looking forward treatment tl dr almost year formally diagnosed moderate severe great wanted share,0.23,Moderately Positive
"...I know we all are procrastinating hard as fuck haha. 
Oh, one day left to do my shit for Monday? 
Divert task, open reddit, get lost as time slips away and so do my distractions. Then bam! Fuck I where did that hour go? 
I gotta do my work now ",adhd,know procrastinating hard fuck haha oh one day left shit monday divert task open reddit get lost time slip away distraction bam hour go gotta work,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"I guess because I'm new to being medicated. I can kind of feel when I think its working and I literally 'feel' more productive.  

My doc says it lasts 12 hours. Sometimes I forget to take it first thing in the morning.  I really need it to focus between the hours of 12-10pm since I work on and off while the kids are asleep or at school.   So, I just started taking it around 12. However, I only have that ""feel"" until around 5 or so.

Anyway, just wondering how long does it last for you guys? I'm assuming everyone is different because of metabolism or whatever. But, I'm still curious about an average.

Is there anything I can do to make sure the medicine is still working for whole 12 hours?

Thanks!

",adhd,guess new medicated kind feel think working literally productive doc say last hour sometimes forget take first thing morning really need focus pm since work kid asleep school started taking around however anyway wondering long guy assuming everyone different metabolism whatever still curious average anything make sure medicine whole thanks,0.15,Moderately Positive
"No specific examples provided. I just wanted to say this. There have been a lot of times when I procrastinated on something, and it turned out that I never needed to do anything for whatever reason.

So quit being so hard on yourselves for it.

Maybe you can share a story? idk. Cut me some slack. :)",adhd,specific example provided wanted say lot time procrastinated something turned never needed anything whatever reason quit hard maybe share story idk cut slack,-0.15,Moderately Negative
"LOW PRESSURE, a haiku in honor of my ADHD

Four weeks, low pressure  
Three journeys to tire air pumps  
Two caps gone: lost, crushed  

Seriously, it took THREE trips and the loss of TWO valve stem caps to finally get my tires back up to pressure. But, at least I can finally check it off the to do list. -_-",adhd,low pressure haiku honor adhd four week three journey tire air pump two cap gone lost crushed seriously took trip loss valve stem finally get back least check list,-0.12,Moderately Negative
"I've had Add since childhood, and have been prescribed meds the duration. Some years ago i slipped into an abusive pattern, taking way more than prescribed. This lasted for a couple years and finally it broke and i tapered down to about a quarter of the meds i was taking. It's been about a year and since then the overall quality of my life has plummeted - i'm less social, make more mistakes, and the worst of it is i just feel dull. Obviously i don't ever want to enter a state of abuse again. However, is there a middle ground i'm missing? At what point is it worth it to increase dosage to achieve a quality of life where i am productive, social and confident again? ",adhd,add since childhood prescribed med duration year ago slipped abusive pattern taking way lasted couple finally broke tapered quarter overall quality life plummeted le social make mistake worst feel dull obviously ever want enter state abuse however middle ground missing point worth increase dosage achieve productive confident,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"Which digital calendar or planner do you use & why does it work for you?
",adhd,digital calendar planner use work,0.0,Neutral
"Me, when I realized that ADHD was more than just an inattention disorder",adhd,realized adhd inattention disorder,0.0,Neutral
"Just wanted to share this tidbit of irony with you guys. My past self likes to send my future self on stressful and extremely difficult scavenger hunts. My adderall script was sitting on my living room floor for days (a safe spot for it, I know) and at some point I decided ""I'll move this to somewhere more secure."" That was the last memory I had.

I started to worry that I threw it away by accident, but I was determined that past me rarely makes mistakes that are irreversible. Sure enough, I found it folded up inside of a cardboard box in the back of my closet. Fucking. Genius. It doesn't get much more secure than that. 

I'm off to bed now, but in the morning I'm going to have to sit myself down and have a talk with myself because this stressful hide-and-seek shit is going to give me grey hair",adhd,wanted share tidbit irony guy past self like send future stressful extremely difficult scavenger hunt adderall script sitting living room floor day safe spot know point decided move somewhere secure last memory started worry threw away accident determined rarely make mistake irreversible sure enough found folded inside cardboard box back closet fucking genius get much bed morning going sit talk hide seek shit give grey hair,0.02,Neutral
It seems like when I am having a song in my head. Everything becomes much better. How is it for you guys? Some songs really become annoying like The Ting Goes. So it really depends on what lands in my head.,adhd,seems like song head everything becomes much better guy really become annoying ting go depends land,-0.03,Neutral
I've been having a lot of trouble this year focusing in lectures. My motivation to listen in class has been very lacking lately so im looking for some tips or inspiration to help get me back on track.,adhd,lot trouble year focusing lecture motivation listen class lacking lately im looking tip inspiration help get back track,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"Everytime I'm sitting there, not doing anything, coming up with excuses, the most debilitating thoughts are the guilt and shame for the time being wasted, things not done, and potential missed out on.  The worst part is as you keep thinking these thoughts you start to develop an inner narrative as if a smarter, better version of what you should be is talking down on you.  Even worse, it is based completely on those thoughts of guilt and shame usually caused by other people and what they have said to you.

But you can't do anything about time already gone by, what could or should have happened, and there is no potential for the past.  A memory doesn't have to happen again with every recall.  That voice is you; why are you berating yourself?    Do you even know why you hate yourself or do you just repeat the things people have said to you over and over again until they sound like you?

And yet you keep calling yourself a piece of shit despite knowing that it makes no sense.  Why?  Because the person that you think you are is not who you are.  It's a cognitive dissonance.  You're mistaking your idea of who you are for yourself, and you are attacking the idea because it is false.  But the parasite lives by making you sit there and think about it as yourself.  

That idea doesn't exist.  It's not you.  You are the voice.  You are yourself in the present moment.  Nothing that has happened before exists, and neither does anything that could still happen.  There's just you.  

If you question each of your ideas about yourself to their limit you'll realize just how many are based in falsehoods and in fact have nothing to do with you.

If still you make observations about your behavior that are accurate but unpleasant, again realize you're observing behavior, not who you are.  You are the present.  To change who you are, all you have to do is do something.  Right now.  You are the present.  Now you are doing something.  

That's it.  If you hate yourself you're hating what you're currently doing, which is hating yourself.  If you ever hate yourself, all you need to do is something else.",adhd,everytime sitting anything coming excuse debilitating thought guilt shame time wasted thing done potential missed worst part keep thinking start develop inner narrative smarter better version talking even worse based completely usually caused people said already gone could happened past memory happen every recall voice berating know hate repeat sound like yet calling piece shit despite knowing make sense person think cognitive dissonance mistaking idea attacking false parasite life making sit exist present moment nothing exists neither still question limit realize many falsehood fact observation behavior accurate unpleasant observing change something right hating currently ever need else,-0.11,Moderately Negative
"So I get these memory gaps that seem to last 15-30 seconds at times.  Apparently I appear normal when this happens.  The only way I know it happend its if something is out of place or someone tells me.  
I asked my neuro about it and he said its ""classic add."" I have never heared or read about add causing gaps like that.  It will even happen on meds. 
I have thought maybe its seizure activity. ",adhd,get memory gap seem last second time apparently appear normal happens way know happend something place someone tell asked neuro said classic add never heared read causing like even happen med thought maybe seizure activity,0.07,Moderately Positive
"Just wondering. I'm don't want to go down this discussion of jobs that are or aren't suitable for people with ADHD, blah blah blah. But basically my aim, career-wise, is to some day get a job working with sound in a creative industry - ideally in audio post-production for film or TV. My plan is to try and look for work as a runner after uni as that's the way in.

While I'm fairly confident in my abilities working with sound... I feel like the main things that hold me back are my disorganisation, careless mistakes, time management. I try to be organised, haven't quite got there yet. But recently I've been doing some audio editing / sound design for some film mixes at uni, and the main things that I think are an issue for me are how long it takes me, and how I make the process take so much longer than it should. At least that's how I perceive it. Things take me twice as long because when I'm working editing something, no matter how on top of things I try to stay, my project always ends up as a mess, a shitload of tracks, and it gets me confused - I don't work through everything in the right order, I put things in the wrong place without realising, I accidentally delete tracks I need, or I just constantly miss errors I've made and it takes me ages to notice and all of this ends up making the process a lot longer. There's almost always something that I miss until it's too late. It makes me feel so stupid, but I do try. Given enough time, I can always get there. It just takes me a while to get there, and I worry that it's more time than I'll have in 'the real world'.

I save multiple copies of my work to account for issues I make if I have to go back to previous one, but obviously this still wastes time in itself. And I often confuse myself and make more mistakes and waste time in the process of switching between versions.

Most of my issues, I've come to terms with, I have ups and downs like us all, but the one thing I really wish I could be better at was organising myself. Just being on the ball, having everything neat, not having to do do-overs.

Obviously this is applicable to so many things in life, I just ask about creative industries as that' what's been on my mind and what's relevant to me personally.

I'm medicated, and it helps a lot, but... I'm still not really any more organised as a result. My room is still a mess. I still can't manage my time very well. Everything always takes longer than I think I will. I always miss things. I'm not under any illusion that these problems are for my life, but is there anything practical I can do to improve in the short term?

And, if anyone here *does* work in a job similar to what I describe, could you tell me how you deal with these things, and how you still be successful as a result?

Thanks.",adhd,wondering want go discussion job suitable people adhd blah basically aim career wise day get working sound creative industry ideally audio post production film tv plan try look work runner uni way fairly confident ability feel like main thing hold back disorganisation careless mistake time management organised quite got yet recently editing design mix think issue long take make process much longer least perceive twice something matter top stay project always end mess shitload track confused everything right order put wrong place without realising accidentally delete need constantly miss error made age notice making lot almost late stupid given enough worry real world save multiple copy account previous one obviously still waste often confuse switching version come term ups down u really wish could better organising ball neat over applicable many life ask mind relevant personally medicated help result room manage well illusion problem anything practical improve short anyone similar describe tell deal successful thanks,0.11,Moderately Positive
">You are 20 years old, you can't have ADHD.

This is what she told me when I told her that I wanted to be checked for ADHD. 

I told her that my parents don't believe in ADHD and think that I am lazy, so they never took me to the doctor for it when I was a kid, but she insisted that they would have seen it in school. 

When I told her that since third grade I always got in trouble for being unable to stay quiet sitting down she told me that some kids are more active than others. She asked about my grades, and said that if I got As and Bs it was impossible to have ADHD, dismissing the fact that they were always lowered because of not doing my homework.

I described all the struggles I have in my daily life that could be related to ADHD, including arriving late to the appointment because Wikipedia, but she kept insisting that it could be explained in some way or another, and that a psychiatrist wasn't necessary for that.

In the end, I told her that the reason I had finally decided to get it checked was because I am going back to university to study engineering, which is NOT easy at all, and that it is really important for me, so if I have ADHD I would need professional help to have it under control. She said that I should try it first on my own and if I had any problem related to that I should get another appointment with her (bitch, I already told you that I alreaddy dropped out of college once due to related problems). That if I was able to hold a job I didn't need professional help. 

So, I had to lie. I am not proud of it, but I can't afford a private psychiatrist. I had to tell her that I was fired from my previous job because of related issues. And even then she didn't completely believe me. In the end she gave me an appointment in half a year, which is useless because I am starting university in two months.

I can't believe I had to go through all this in this day and age. Sorry for the rant guys, I just needed to vent and didn't know where.",adhd,year old adhd told wanted checked parent believe think lazy never took doctor kid insisted would seen school since third grade always got trouble unable stay quiet sitting active others asked said b impossible dismissing fact lowered homework described struggle daily life could related including arriving late appointment wikipedia kept insisting explained way another psychiatrist necessary end reason finally decided get going back university study engineering easy really important need professional help control try first problem bitch already alreaddy dropped college due able hold job lie proud afford private tell fired previous issue even completely gave half useless starting two month go day age sorry rant guy needed vent know,-0.03,Neutral
"So it's been one week now I'm running on a very limited supply of underwear, survival style. 

Monday :
I put the laundry in the machine / dryer. 
I forget about it. 
With condensation, the clothes get wet again. 

Tuesday :
I run the drying cycle one more time. 
I forget about it. 
With condensation, the clothes get wet again. 

Wednesday :
I decide to re-run a full cycle (washing + drying) 
I forget about it. 
With condensation, the clothes get wet again. 

Thursday :
I run the drying cycle one more time. 
I forget about it. 
With condensation, the clothes get wet again. 

We are Friday. 
Wish me luck for tonight. ^_^",adhd,one week running limited supply underwear survival style monday put laundry machine dryer forget condensation clothes get wet tuesday run drying cycle time wednesday decide full washing thursday friday wish luck tonight,0.06,Moderately Positive
Just curious about something.,adhd,curious something,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"I want to try more meditation, and do some as it is now, but want to expand to different types. Any suggestions?  
  
Right now, I envision myself at a separate location (usually a lake in the mountains) and observe the feeling of what I project around me, like the grass, the birds, the wind, the water. And other times I imagine myself as water wherever I am, and focus on how my surrounding feel as I spread out or move. So if I were on my couch, how I would feel dripping to the ground etc.  
  
Those are the only techniques I do, so I'm open to more! Thanks!",adhd,want try meditation expand different type suggestion right envision separate location usually lake mountain observe feeling project around like grass bird wind water time imagine wherever focus surrounding feel spread move couch would dripping ground etc technique open thanks,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I was prescribed tranquilyn (methylphenidate) and picked it up this afternoon. I took my first 10mg dose, as instructed, at around 2pm and then ate straight after (however I had barely eaten anything all day, up until that point). 

It took about 35/40 mins to kick in. I felt focused and motivated and clear, but also very weird. Like everything felt too bright, almost? It's like I was living in a dark foggy cloud and then tranquilyn came along and amped up the brightness and saturation. My hands were buzzing, and my chest felt tight, and I could hear my heart going at about 30 miles an hour which was uncomfortable.
However, like I said, the motivation and focus was great - I immediately started working (my exams aren't even for another 2/3 months, I was planning to start revision in about a month or so) and got a solid 30 minutes done before the usual lapse in concentration came along. And honestly, I know it's not very long, but I was proud of that - it's been a long time since I've been able to focus like that.

However, like I said, those sensations died down quite quickly and by 5pm I was pretty sure it was out of my system. That being said, I have just sat down and typed out this entire paragraph so who knows? 

Just wanted to know if it was a typical first-timer experience or whether mine was particularly odd? 



EDIT: I've now figured out why it wore out so quickly. 
I dislike coffee, so my source of caffeine has been from lucozade, specifically the Brazillian flavour (mango and orange). I've become addicted to it of late - I drink about 2/3 bottles a day. Was just browsing reddit and stumbled across something saying acidic fizzy drinks should be avoided when on meds because they decrease effectiveness of them. Amusingly, I washed down my first dose of tranquilyn with a bottle of lucozade, definitely explains a lot. ",adhd,prescribed tranquilyn methylphenidate picked afternoon took first mg dose instructed around pm ate straight however barely eaten anything day point min kick felt focused motivated clear also weird like everything bright almost living dark foggy cloud came along amped brightness saturation hand buzzing chest tight could hear heart going mile hour uncomfortable said motivation focus great immediately started working exam even another month planning start revision got solid minute done usual lapse concentration honestly know long proud time since able sensation died quite quickly pretty sure system sat typed entire paragraph wanted typical timer experience whether mine particularly odd edit figured wore dislike coffee source caffeine lucozade specifically brazillian flavour mango orange become addicted late drink bottle browsing reddit stumbled across something saying acidic fizzy avoided med decrease effectiveness amusingly washed definitely explains lot,0.11,Moderately Positive
"The psychologist at the university counseling center that has given me my tentative/temporary diagnosis told me that ADHD people have to manage the condition by keeping the days very structured. Which seems to be completely the opposite of what life as a PhD student is like!

&nbsp;

I would try writing myself a schedule, but I've done that before, and I already know there is pretty much 0 chance that I am going to follow it! I will end up laying on the couch playing with my phone searching for articles on how to dry-roast canned beans.

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Is it actually possible to create a structure and stick to it when you have ADHD (and live alone)? Or is that just something psychologists feel like they should tell you to do, but that almost never works?

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And if you *have* managed to create structure and stick to it and make progress on your dissertation... HOW???",adhd,psychologist university counseling center given tentative temporary diagnosis told adhd people manage condition keeping day structured seems completely opposite life phd student like would try writing schedule done already know pretty much chance going follow end laying couch playing phone searching article dry roast canned bean actually possible create structure stick live alone something feel tell almost never work managed make progress dissertation,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I'm prescribed 40 MG vyvanse and I take it around 8 or so. It lasts me until around 3 PM or so and then it starts to dull down. I was wondering what would be the best option for a booster?

I'm debating if I should take a 5 MG IR Addy, or even ask for a 20mg vyvanse script and split it to take a 10 mg of vyvanse at around lunch time. Any thoughts?",adhd,prescribed mg vyvanse take around last pm start dull wondering would best option booster debating ir addy even ask script split lunch time thought,0.24,Moderately Positive
"So my daughter has been struggling with school and life in general these past years. 

I have had 3 teen girls already and let me say, none of them have been like this one. I have never considered ADD but my friend suggested it the other day I told her about my daughter. Regardless, I’m taking her to the doctor. I’m just wanting some feedback from people who actually have it. 

Some of her signs: 
- cannot go to sleep. She paces the house for about 2 hours after getting ready for bed. We take her electronics so I don’t think that’s the problem. She tells me that she just can’t shut her mind off. She has never had piano lessons but will often stay up teaching herself songs just for the heck of it. 

- has a very hard time following instructions and always has. She tells me she often gets embarrassed when teachers instruct her to do things because she does not understand what they mean. 

- school was a breeze for her in elementary and middle school. High school is so much harder because, according to her, the organization demands and attention demands are so much more strict. Elementary and middle school she could get by with natural intelligence. 

- highly intelligent. Knows something about everything, however her knowledge is shallow because she cannot stick to one thing. She has talked to me about how to learn to like to read, but she cannot force herself to stick to one thing that long. 

- moody. And I mean moody. Her emotions are unpredictable despite being a fairly rational person. 

- she is a mix of extreme extrovert and extreme introvert. 

- gets angry easily. Sometimes it’s best not to confront her or scold her because of the blow ups she can have. 

- all kids hate cleaning but she despises it. Her room is a MESS. I usually cave and clean it for her despite my constant push for her to clean. 

- she isn’t extremely lazy. She has a consistent routine of exercising for about 1-2 hours a day. 

- she lives in her head. Sometimes she talks to herself or the imaginary conversation partner in her head. 

- I have never met someone so clumsy. She spills or breaks at-least 1 thing a day. 

- she goes from being the most talkative in the room to the quietest. She speaks articulately and with ease. The words flow out and she has an extensive vocabulary for her age. When she’s quiet, she blankly stares and just thinks. 

- she says her dream would be to lay in bed for the rest of her life and just daydream. She LOVES to just sit around and think. 

- she never gets any of her assignments done in time and has tons of 0s from it. 

- somehow manages to have As and Bs because her test scores are so high. She lives on khan academy and researches herself material because she does not pay attention in class at all. 

- she struggles in science the most because of its long winded processes. She easily loses attention. 

- she often forgets what she is doing and is always just walking around cluelessly almost. 

- finishes tests long after everyone else in the class. (Anywhere 30-50 minutes) has often complained to me about this and how embarrassing it is. 

- some of her teachers are more laid back and allow students to talk during class when they get their work done. If she is still working, this makes her extremely frustrated as she cannot think at all with the noise. 

- handles pressure well. Big things/events do not bother her but small details do. Her hair slightly parted the wrong way is more upsetting than her coach being absent for the game. 




Anyways I’m just really nervous. She says she has always felt like there is something wrong. I don’t know how this whole ADD thing works. ",adhd,daughter struggling school life general past year teen girl already let say none like one never considered add friend suggested day told regardless taking doctor wanting feedback people actually sign cannot go sleep pace house hour getting ready bed take electronics think problem tell shut mind piano lesson often stay teaching song heck hard time following instruction always get embarrassed teacher instruct thing understand mean breeze elementary middle high much harder according organization demand attention strict could natural intelligence highly intelligent know something everything however knowledge shallow stick talked learn read force long moody emotion unpredictable despite fairly rational person mix extreme extrovert introvert angry easily sometimes best confront scold blow ups kid hate cleaning despises room mess usually cave clean constant push extremely lazy consistent routine exercising head talk imaginary conversation partner met someone clumsy spill break least talkative quietest speaks articulately ease word flow extensive vocabulary age quiet blankly stare dream would lay rest daydream love sit around assignment done ton somehow manages b test score khan academy research material pay class struggle science winded process loses forgets walking cluelessly almost finish everyone else anywhere minute complained embarrassing laid back allow student work still working make frustrated noise handle pressure well big event bother small detail hair slightly parted wrong way upsetting coach absent game anyways really nervous felt whole,-0.03,Neutral
"I have an awful memory, even when it comes to things I'm actually interested in. For example (btw it just took me far too long to remember the word example) I really like photography and cameras. I read camera reviews all the time, even reading the same one more than once, and I barely remember any of it. 
     Does any one else have this problem? How do you get around it?",adhd,awful memory even come thing actually interested example btw took far long remember word really like photography camera read review time reading one barely else problem get around,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"Hello all, sorry for the long post, I'm not entirely sure where to start but I'll give it a go. 

Just some background info I'm a 20 year old male in college and it's currently 4 am and I can't sleep even though I have to get up at 8am for a test at 930. 

I've never been diagnosed with ADHD and actually on accident stumbled across this subreddit. As I've been reading these posts pretty much every single one hits the nail on the head in regards to the way that I feel. I can't sleep because I have a song looping in my head, I am always doing something with my hands or feet, it's very hard to sit still or concentrate for more than 10-20 minutes at a time. One recent post about the constant thought of perfection struck me as well. The list keeps going on and on.

I honestly have always thought I act and think like this just because I'm me but it's also warming and comforting to know that there are people like me. 

As I mentioned above I've never been diagnosed but I've had a suspicion for a long time that I have at least ADD. Most namely over the summer at least 3 people told me straight up that I for sure have ADD or ADHD. 

I want to ask the community, where do I start and is worth me going to get diagnosed and possibly medication? If so how well does the medication work, I'm not a huge fan of pills, my grandma and some friends have been wrecked by xanax and I've done adderall/vyvanse a couple of times to help out with studying but I wasn't a huge fan of the way they made me feel. I hope this doesn't break the rules of the subreddit by saying this but I've smoked weed a bit and that helps out and calms me down (in small doses) but obviously I can't and don't want to be high all the time.  

One thing I've noticed is that it comes in waves, some days are alright and I can control myself. Other days I want to sprint 10 miles then climb a mountain. I'm afraid if I go a see a doctor I'll go in on one of my down days and they'll just blow me off. 

This post is a little all over the place but if any of you all could give me some guidance or even bits of advice that would be great. 

Thanks ",adhd,hello sorry long post entirely sure start give go background info year old male college currently sleep even though get test never diagnosed adhd actually accident stumbled across subreddit reading pretty much every single one hit nail head regard way feel song looping always something hand foot hard sit still concentrate minute time recent constant thought perfection struck well list keep going honestly act think like also warming comforting know people mentioned suspicion least add namely summer told straight want ask community worth possibly medication work huge fan pill grandma friend wrecked xanax done adderall vyvanse couple help studying made hope break rule saying smoked weed bit calm small dos obviously high thing noticed come wave day alright control sprint mile climb mountain afraid see doctor blow little place could guidance advice would great thanks,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I know there's a thread similar to this because the guy's doctor lost his license, but I am wanting to switch docs entirely of my own volition. I wanted to know how to go about this. My current doc keeps prescribing the newer meds and I suspect she does this only because the patents on them are haven't lapsed. What's more alarming, though, is that she threatened to stop prescribing different meds to me if this one does not work and rescind her ADHD diagnosis. Though this current med is working--certainly much better than anything before it that she gave me--it has its side-effects and other issues that I would like to try to address with other medication that she obviously pre-empted me from. So......what do I say to the new doc about this? Will the older doc talk to him? Send him her notes and reasoning and telling him that she no longer thinks I have ADHD? Thanks for your help...",adhd,know thread similar guy doctor lost license wanting switch doc entirely volition wanted go current keep prescribing newer med suspect patent lapsed alarming though threatened stop different one work rescind adhd diagnosis working certainly much better anything gave side effect issue would like try address medication obviously pre empted say new older talk send note reasoning telling longer think thanks help,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Anybody find a good way to counteract the desire to have certain textures in your mouth? Like for me I eat more candy than I should because it feels better to have that in my mouth when I'm trying to do anything.

I tried gum but can't stand the texture.",adhd,anybody find good way counteract desire certain texture mouth like eat candy feel better trying anything tried gum stand,0.47,Moderately Positive
"Hello fellow scatterbrains!

Like the title says, I've been on adderall for about 9 months now. It's been extremely helpful, and I've finally felt like I was in charge of my mind and could work on anything I set my attention to. This feeling was amazing! I had been unable to focus my whole life, and my prescription was a life changer.

Recently I've been experiencing side effects that I think are being caused by my adderall. While I've experienced moderate depression in the past and some social anxiety, I had my first full blown panic attack yesterday and have felt quite depressed. 

I don't feel like myself at all - there are moments of clarity, like right now, but it feels like my emotions are torn out of my control and run rampant.

I'm afraid to quit cold turkey for multiple reasons - withdrawals scare me, and I don't want to make this problem even worse. 

School is about to start and I can't go back to the mess I was. What are my options? I don't like feeling like this and I'm honestly quite scared.

Thank you for any wisdom you guys can offer.",adhd,hello fellow scatterbrain like title say adderall month extremely helpful finally felt charge mind could work anything set attention feeling amazing unable focus whole life prescription changer recently experiencing side effect think caused experienced moderate depression past social anxiety first full blown panic attack yesterday quite depressed feel moment clarity right emotion torn control run rampant afraid quit cold turkey multiple reason withdrawal scare want make problem even worse school start go back mess option honestly scared thank wisdom guy offer,0.02,Neutral
"**tl;dr:** I'm curious, how do /r/ADHDers ""feel"" on their correct dose, and how does that feeling change when the dose is too low or too high?

Hi, new ADHDer here. I was diagnosed 2 months ago as an 18 y/o male by a Ph.D and then by an M.D. pshrink, who started me on Adderall shortly thereafter. I took Adderall for about a month and a half, but about halfway through i began feeling dominated by anxiety while on the drug and dominated by anxiety and depression during the rebound. My doc had me do a once-daily 15-30-45 titration at a 5-5-4 day schedule, which I faithfully followed for the first seven days before jumping to 45. On the second day of taking 45 mg, maybe 4-5 hours after the adderall, I consumed ~150+ mg caffeine. This may have been the worst day of my life, emotionally speaking. 

I went back down to 30 the next day, and after my neg symptoms persisted for a week or so, went down again to 22.5 (3/4 of a 30 mg). I thought I had found the sweet spot so my doc finalized me on a twice daily 22.5 mg (which, as we had discussed, sometimes became 22.5-15-15). This seemed to effectively control my ADHD symptoms, but the anxiety and rebound persisted, so I asked my doc for trials of ritalin and dexedrine. I have yet to try the Dexedrine - Adderall has left me wary of amphetaminess - but the Ritalin seems to have less negative side effects than the Adderall. Adderall left me avoiding eye contact and playing with my hands constantly while walking around, especially while I was still experimenting with 30 mg doses. 

The anxiety seems to have an obsessive-compulsive component to it. For instance, on stressful occasions, when my rx dose is too high, or during the rebound, I sometimes mentally latch onto a word and mental repeat it intermittently until the anxiety diminishes. (Last two: methylphenidate, which is actually a fun word to say, and sympathomimetic, which is challenging but also fun xD). 

Is my experience normal or common? Any tips from veterans of ADHD meds?",adhd,tl dr curious adhders feel correct dose feeling change low high hi new adhder diagnosed month ago male ph pshrink started adderall shortly thereafter took half halfway began dominated anxiety drug depression rebound doc daily titration day schedule faithfully followed first seven jumping second taking mg maybe hour consumed caffeine may worst life emotionally speaking went back next neg symptom persisted week thought found sweet spot finalized twice discussed sometimes became seemed effectively control adhd asked trial ritalin dexedrine yet try left wary amphetamine seems le negative side effect avoiding eye contact playing hand constantly walking around especially still experimenting dos obsessive compulsive component instance stressful occasion rx mentally latch onto word mental repeat intermittently diminishes last two methylphenidate actually fun say sympathomimetic challenging also xd experience normal common tip veteran med,0.0,Neutral
"Hey ADHD. (I'll try to keep this short winded)

I have had denial of my condition for many years, to the point of burying it in the back of my mind. I was diagnosed with ADD my freshman year and did not believe how I was prescribed and never took the riddlin that I was prescribed.  

Fast forward 20 something years and getting married my wife started to really notice the symptoms of adhd. It was causing issues in our marriage and because she is the most rock solid awesome girl on earth she started looking into it. But I didn't really believe her at first. However.... I started to notice some of the things that she would point out and it really got me thinking. 

Then I found r/ADHD and I was incredibly blessed by this community. Almost to the point of tears. I've struggled with self doubt and anger at my inability to follow anything through with anything among many other things, and seeing how supportive this community is to each other I was blown away. (side note - I'm writing this cracking up because Without You by Harry Nilsson just started playing through some playlist on iTunes.) 

So I decided to go talk to my doctor with my wife and at first it seemed like he didn't really believe me at the beginning of our session, but by the end of our appointment he was very agreeable about my ADHD and prescribed me Adderall XR 10MG

So that was on wednesday, and my first dose was this morning and it doesn't really seem to be doing all that great.  I had a good breakfast with it, stayed away from acidic juices (after research through this r/) and I still feel like there is a slight edge to distraction. I will admit that I have been more focused doing my work. But I can still feel my mind battling a bit. 

Sorry, I did say I would try to make this short winded. But.... 

Again, thanks again for all of you being you. And thanks for any help you can give me! 

edit: spelling",adhd,hey adhd try keep short winded denial condition many year point burying back mind diagnosed add freshman believe prescribed never took riddlin fast forward something getting married wife started really notice symptom causing issue marriage rock solid awesome girl earth looking first however thing would got thinking found incredibly blessed community almost tear struggled self doubt anger inability follow anything among seeing supportive blown away side note writing cracking without harry nilsson playing playlist itunes decided go talk doctor seemed like beginning session end appointment agreeable adderall xr mg wednesday dose morning seem great good breakfast stayed acidic juice research still feel slight edge distraction admit focused work battling bit sorry say make thanks help give edit spelling,0.24,Moderately Positive
"Hello everyone!

Important but short question:

Should your emotions be cared for by your family and friends?

I recently went through a breakup due to one of my family members ruining the relationship and everyone is telling me to just get over it. They seem to bypass how I feel about the whole situation and they come off as cold and robotic. Even worse, they scold me for the my emotions I feel and seem to care more about how wrong it is to be this upset over an emotional experience. They call me crazy for feeling so hurt and upset over it.  

What do you all think considering most of with ADHD seem to be emotional as well?

tl;dr Feeling overwhelmed by emotions but no empathy?",adhd,hello everyone important short question emotion cared family friend recently went breakup due one member ruining relationship telling get seem bypass feel whole situation come cold robotic even worse scold care wrong upset emotional experience call crazy feeling hurt think considering adhd well tl dr overwhelmed empathy,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"Dealing with hell right now.  Pharmacy stopped carrying Watson generic and used the round tab instead of cylinder.  DOES NOT WORK. 

So PSA.  Ask and find another pharmacy before you have to go through the hell I am trying to get the correct one.  

Have them mark your info that you can only have certain ones.  Ugh ugh ugh. 

Rant over. ",adhd,dealing hell right pharmacy stopped carrying watson generic used round tab instead cylinder work psa ask find another go trying get correct one mark info certain ugh rant,0.07,Moderately Positive
"So I’m going to see a doctor about my ADD today. I’m nervous to be put on medication. I’ve lived 17 years of my life well enough. I have alright grades in school. I don’t feel like any school related struggles are related to an inability to focus. Will medication really help me all that much? How will it affect my mood? I watched my younger sister go through ADHD medication and she does worse with them. It affected her mood a lot. I guess I’m scared it’ll do the same to me. I don’t really have a question or a ton of a point with this- I guess I just wanted a place to vent to and see if anyone else has had any similar experiences. 

Edit:
Thanks for the responses! Y’all have helped calm the nerves a bit. I’ll know the verdict soon. Thank you!",adhd,going see doctor add today nervous put medication lived year life well enough alright grade school feel like related struggle inability focus really help much affect mood watched younger sister go adhd worse affected lot guess scared question ton point wanted place vent anyone else similar experience edit thanks response helped calm nerve bit know verdict soon thank,0.06,Moderately Positive
"I have been on Ritalin for approximately two months, this medication has helped me so much! My thoughts are more organized, my attention span has increased, and my productivity levels have increased too. 

How has your medications changed your life?  What are some of the positive effects?  What are some of the negative effects if any?  I look forward to reading your responses.",adhd,ritalin approximately two month medication helped much thought organized attention span increased productivity level changed life positive effect negative look forward reading response,-0.07,Moderately Negative
"I find i have tunnell vision and forget to check my surroundings because im sooo focused on only one thing at a time like a laser, anyone exp anything similar? its a saftey hazard... ",adhd,find tunnell vision forget check surroundings im sooo focused one thing time like laser anyone exp anything similar saftey hazard,0.0,Neutral
"My son is 5 and, though he's too young to be diagnosed as ADHD, that is the treatment plan that his doctor is following. We've told her that we don't want to put him on medication and we're working on behavior modification. We talked some about his diet, though we already don't do artificial sweeteners or dyes, HFCS, or dairy. She did mention that some parents think going gluten free helps, but the studies don't support it. From the research I've been doing on my own I've come across mention of the feingold diet multiple times with many people swearing by it- the diet program through the website is fairly expensive though and anything like that, to me, automatically smells like a scam- so I'm wondering if anyone has tried or has successfully tried this diet and was hoping you could explain it a little more. Thanks in advance! ",adhd,son though young diagnosed adhd treatment plan doctor following told want put medication working behavior modification talked diet already artificial sweetener dye hfc dairy mention parent think going gluten free help study support research come across feingold multiple time many people swearing program website fairly expensive anything like automatically smell scam wondering anyone tried successfully hoping could explain little thanks advance,0.07,Moderately Positive
"a serious and recurrent issue i've run into in some of the most important relationships i've been in has been not being able to access my emotions in real time.

scattered thoughts and running memories equals sudden onslaughts of deep emotions at times when i am alone and don't have the people i need to tell it the most to by my side. all the times they've poured their hearts out to me and i've wanted to do the same but my cluttered brain just goes blank and forgets everything i don't have the ability to articulate.. and that's how you lose real friends when they take your inability to express your thoughts as disinterest. ",adhd,serious recurrent issue run important relationship able access emotion real time scattered thought running memory equal sudden onslaught deep alone people need tell side poured heart wanted cluttered brain go blank forgets everything ability articulate lose friend take inability express disinterest,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Hello all , I'm an 18 year old dude in my last year of school , which naturally means I have big exams coming up.

I'm not gonna go on about how schools been a struggle my whole life because I'm sure you guys are understanding of that , I was diagnosed at 7 and have been taking ritalin since primary school and for the most part it worked fine 

However after a year long ""break"" from school (fourth year of Irish schools have something called TY where you don't do much class) so for that whole year I was off ritalin , and then fifth year I didn't do much just because I want bothered 

So my point is that I reckon I'm out of the loop on how to maximise my ritalin use and have a productive study session .. can anyone help me out ? Many Thanks for any help atall :)",adhd,hello year old dude last school naturally mean big exam coming gonna go struggle whole life sure guy understanding diagnosed taking ritalin since primary part worked fine however long break fourth irish something called ty much class fifth want bothered point reckon loop maximise use productive study session anyone help many thanks atall,0.15,Moderately Positive
"I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit but I'll give it a shot. My partner has struggled with his ADD all his life. Even with medication, its been very difficult to get him to complete tasks. I've taken over all but a small handful of the household duties because I cannot trust him to do them without me being there to prompt him or check his work. He is currently unemployed and looking for work. It has put a heavy strain on our relationship, especially when he's home alone all day and I come home and nothing I've asked him to do is done. Does anyone have any advice for the partner of someone with ADD? I feel like I'm helping him too much and too little at the same time.",adhd,sure right subreddit give shot partner struggled add life even medication difficult get complete task taken small handful household duty cannot trust without prompt check work currently unemployed looking put heavy strain relationship especially home alone day come nothing asked done anyone advice someone feel like helping much little time,-0.03,Neutral
"I remember waking up, eating a banana, then pulling the pill bottle out of the pantry... That is it. I swear I took the meds, but have no recollection of actually taking the pills out of the bottle. I don't feel any usual effects like being able to focus well, I am hungry which is unusual and I went for a 30 minute nap which is extremely unusual after taking dex. There is no point counting the pills as I always have a surplus from experimenting with dosage in the beginning...
I take Dexedrine... Is there any other way to tell?

lol I am such a dum-dum",adhd,remember waking eating banana pulling pill bottle pantry swear took med recollection actually taking feel usual effect like able focus well hungry unusual went minute nap extremely dex point counting always surplus experimenting dosage beginning take dexedrine way tell lol dum,0.19,Moderately Positive
it’s mainly every night that i either stay awake until the sun comes up and go to school exhausted or go to sleep at 4am and get to school late. i’ve tried taking melatonin pills and those don’t seem to work for me. anyone have advice to KO at night ,adhd,mainly every night either stay awake sun come go school exhausted sleep get late tried taking melatonin pill seem work anyone advice ko,-0.18,Moderately Negative
"Yes or no is fine. If you want to add to it, its fine too.",adhd,yes fine want add,0.42,Moderately Positive
"So after monitoring time, and watching my moods, I figured out something about my ADHD medication: it causes depression for some reason.

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I tested it on both a fasted, and fed state, still the same results, I've exercised to try to stave it off, but nothing works. It has a specific time window when it starts, approx 4 hrs after I take it, I spiral into an extreme anxiety, then a strange sort of, ""depression,"" takes over. 

&nbsp; 

Whenever I take my anti-anxiety medication, it does work, but I am still left with that depression, and I thought it was initiated by the anxiety, so I am just at a loss as to why this is happening.

&nbsp;

I don't like adderall because the drop-off, non-stims don't work on me, and the only other medication, modanifil, that I've never tried, is something that is hush-hush in most clinics for some reason; You'd think it would be adderall since that's the one most abused on the streets.

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Anyways, I was wondering if someone, ANYONE, had any kind of advice. The only thing I found online, (besides switching meds, intertwining other meds with the Vyvanse), was lowering the dose, and that's what my psychiatrist recommended too. I will be lowering it 10mg, and report back, but in the meantime, anyone know what the hizzle is going on?",adhd,monitoring time watching mood figured something adhd medication cause depression reason tested fasted fed state still result exercised try stave nothing work specific window start approx hr take spiral extreme anxiety strange sort whenever anti left thought initiated loss happening like adderall drop non stims modanifil never tried hush clinic think would since one abused street anyways wondering someone anyone kind advice thing found online besides switching med intertwining vyvanse lowering dose psychiatrist recommended mg report back meantime know hizzle going,0.07,Moderately Positive
"This is the second time in my life I had a panic attack. The first was yesterday. 

I keep dissappearing into my head around 3 or 4pm. I'm on 25mg of Adderall XR which lasts me until 5pm. 

Why do I keep having panic attacks in class near 3 or 4pm?

**tl;dr Panic attacks and sudden onset of innattiveness in class. Teachers think I'm high. Why is this happening?!?!?**

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**Edit**: After thinking about it for a bit, I'm pretty sure the panic is caused by me suddenly and, seemingly uncontrollably, dissappearing into my head. Then it gets worse when I notice teacher's and classmates looking at me like I'm high (I checked in the mirror. I do look high. Wtf!). **It seems like my meds are crashing earlier than before, and the brain fog is waaaaay harder.** 

The biggest change I've made lately is eating before my meds. Also, I might not be getting enough water while on meds. ",adhd,second time life panic attack first yesterday keep dissappearing head around pm mg adderall xr last class near tl dr sudden onset innattiveness teacher think high happening edit thinking bit pretty sure caused suddenly seemingly uncontrollably get worse notice classmate looking like checked mirror look wtf seems med crashing earlier brain fog waaaaay harder biggest change made lately eating also might getting enough water,0.0,Neutral
"It annoys me when people say that adhd just makes you hyper. For example, take freshman year me: I just enrolled into high school, starry eyed just like the rest of the kids looking to make friends, get into college, and find some passions. However, the honeymoon phase quickly ran its course, replaced by the constant stress of grades and most importantly, making friends. For me, I was basically friendless for my first two years; I never even hung out with one person. Now, as a college freshman armed with more knowledge about our condition, I decided to make a small tidbit on what adhd can affect in your social life, and how to overcome it.


First of all, we need to deal with out physical and (most importantly) mental hyperactivity. Physically, hyperactivity can sometimes be a pain, but I found that the mental aspect was much more damaging to my social life. Not being able to listen, talking too much, and not being able to self regulate are the three main problems that plagued my life. Also, it’s important to realize that I was never physically hyperactive, but spinning something or twirling a pencil can really help.


The first item to tackle is our lack of self regulation. This encompasses the fact that we have sudden, intense emotions that have a hard time going away. This, from my experience, had proven to be the most destructive, as the constantly impassioned emotions we get can tire out other people quickly. To tackle this issue, I found it easiest to just excuse myself from the classroom/lunchtable and just walk out whatever emotion is making us irrational. The process of identifying your sudden mood bursts is extremely helpful, and can help you develop better ways to balance out your emotions.


The other problem we need to focus on is, for a lack of a better word, narcissism. While we may not all be narcissists, after reflecting back on my high school career, I found that I was a massive narcissist, and I bet that a few of you can really benefit from the advice below. First of all, even though you may not realize it, there is a high chance that you are talking too much, drowning out other conversations. In conjunction with not being able to listen as well as others, this makes us come off as massive narcissists, which can be very unappetizing to other people. To counteract this, make sure that you can identify when you are talking too much. I usually find this when I change the story subject within the original story, making a 10 second example turn into a 5 minute epilogue. 


To be honest, the hardest part about add/adhd for me was not having the ability to make friends as well as others. This is usually overlooked by online articles, but plays a much more damaging role in our personal lives. I know that there are thousands of kids just like me, too hyper to be accepted into the normality of society, but fortunately, this can be fixed. By combining the use of a vigorous monitoring system and empathetic self reflections, I hope that kids will be able to not repeat the same mistakes I did and live more emotionally balanced lives, filled with plenty of friends.


End note: This is just my ramblings after I took the wrong meds before going to sleep. This definitely isn’t the shining example of a good essay, but the overall message is to find kids that are going through the same predicament, and help them. If you’re struggling with social isolation/ alienation, I would love to hear your story. At the end of the day, we all need a friend to talk too, right?


",adhd,annoys people say adhd make hyper example take freshman year enrolled high school starry eyed like rest kid looking friend get college find passion however honeymoon phase quickly ran course replaced constant stress grade importantly making basically friendless first two never even hung one person armed knowledge condition decided small tidbit affect social life overcome need deal physical mental hyperactivity physically sometimes pain found aspect much damaging able listen talking self regulate three main problem plagued also important realize hyperactive spinning something twirling pencil really help item tackle lack regulation encompasses fact sudden intense emotion hard time going away experience proven destructive constantly impassioned tire issue easiest excuse classroom lunchtable walk whatever u irrational process identifying mood burst extremely helpful develop better way balance focus word narcissism may narcissist reflecting back career massive bet benefit advice though chance drowning conversation conjunction well others come unappetizing counteract sure identify usually change story subject within original second turn minute epilogue honest hardest part add ability overlooked online article play role personal know thousand accepted normality society fortunately fixed combining use vigorous monitoring system empathetic reflection hope repeat mistake live emotionally balanced filled plenty end note ramblings took wrong med sleep definitely shining good essay overall message predicament struggling isolation alienation would love hear day talk right,0.09,Moderately Positive
"Basically half way through right now, will update you when done if I survive.

Edit: Guys I'm actually finished! Took me like the whole day but it feels great!",adhd,basically half way right update done survive edit guy actually finished took like whole day feel great,0.22,Moderately Positive
"Knowing I’m procrastinating gives me such guilt and shame and anxiety and it makes me procrastinate more. I’m trying not to be hard on myself but I can’t really help it.  

About to do some wood working which is something I love. And I’m sitting in my car outside the Shop and procrastinating even more.  :/",adhd,knowing procrastinating give guilt shame anxiety make procrastinate trying hard really help wood working something love sitting car outside shop even,0.1,Moderately Positive
"Folks, I'm having a bit of a conundrum. I was prescribed 30 mg of Vyvanse and started on it last Monday. As with most taking medication for the first time... WOW. Sure, the euphoria was cool, but having a brain that could complete tasks sequentially? SUPER cool. Sitting still in meetings without nodding off? Amazeballs. Reading the entire medication guide for Vyvanse in one sitting?? Is this real??

All that jazz continued for a couple days, but then the positives subsided a good bit, and I thought ""well, a higher dose may do the trick, but I'll stay with this one for now""... and then the negatives flooded in. Headache, palpitations, muscle tension, and, later in the week, a double shot of anxiety that ended in a panic attack. No bueno. I called the doctor, dropped my dose to 20 mg for a day, and called it quits the next.

All this is to ask: has anyone had experience with awful side effects on one stimulant but minimal to none on another? The days when it worked were enough to make me wonder about going back to college, pursuing advancement at my job, and just getting myself on track in a big way. I would like to think there's something I can take that might be more cooperative with me.

EDIT: To clarify, I'm not looking for recommendations on what to take, just personal accounts of success after something like what I described above.",adhd,folk bit conundrum prescribed mg vyvanse started last monday taking medication first time wow sure euphoria cool brain could complete task sequentially super sitting still meeting without nodding amazeballs reading entire guide one real jazz continued couple day positive subsided good thought well higher dose may trick stay negative flooded headache palpitation muscle tension later week double shot anxiety ended panic attack bueno called doctor dropped quits next ask anyone experience awful side effect stimulant minimal none another worked enough make wonder going back college pursuing advancement job getting track big way would like think something take might cooperative edit clarify looking recommendation personal account success described,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Hi there, I am a newbie to this subreddit. Googled a question that was addressed on a 2 year old post here. Never thought to searc/subscribe until now.

Thought I could reach out for some advice. I was feeling in a very good mood today and for *some reason* found it impossible to stop my mouth from running all day!

Now my jaw and throat are sore, my head hurts from restless thoughts (trying to be positive n not get anxious) and I have this insufferable nagging guilt over what I subject my family/friends to.

This is way more excessive than usual. The sense of awareness after hearing criticism/advice is hard, because I feel that my loved ones don't quite understand how frustratingly compulsive this behavior can be.

What sucks is the self consciousness of realizing what it must be like for them to be inundated by me, expressing this, and then doing it all over again. 

I look like I'm not trying, to them. Maybe sometimes I'm not taking the best measures to be mindful. But I'm letting the sense of powerlessness and futility get me down. 

Anyone have a few words of encouragement or advice? ",adhd,hi newbie subreddit googled question addressed year old post never thought searc subscribe could reach advice feeling good mood today reason found impossible stop mouth running day jaw throat sore head hurt restless trying positive get anxious insufferable nagging guilt subject family friend way excessive usual sense awareness hearing criticism hard feel loved one quite understand frustratingly compulsive behavior suck self consciousness realizing must like inundated expressing look maybe sometimes taking best measure mindful letting powerlessness futility anyone word encouragement,0.04,Neutral
"**Please excuse the formatting, on mobile**

First time on Strattera was pretty much a breeze.30 mg a day. The only side effect I had was occasional spotting, not much of an appetite and a runny nose. Nothing significant. It helped me a lot .


I was off of it for about two years and decided I would go ahead and speak with my doc about it again to restart treatment. 
I opted for a lower dose to avoid any side effects and was quickly prescribed 18mg once a day. However the side effects are much worse. 

About two weeks in.
Stomach pain is off and on, constant diarrhea and my blood pressure and heart rate are inconsistent. I don't understand the significance behind the two year hiatus and why the medicine that was once so helpful before is now giving me grief.


  Has this happened to you? I feel like I should wait a bit longer to see if it goes away, as it's one of the only things my doc is willing to prescribe given my blood pressure is easily effected by stimulants.


**TL;DR**
Used to take amazing non stim Strattera when I was 18-19, went off of it for about 2 years and jumped back on and I can't handle that hurricane harbor diarrhea. Help.",adhd,please excuse formatting mobile first time strattera pretty much breeze mg day side effect occasional spotting appetite runny nose nothing significant helped lot two year decided would go ahead speak doc restart treatment opted lower dose avoid quickly prescribed however worse week stomach pain constant diarrhea blood pressure heart rate inconsistent understand significance behind hiatus medicine helpful giving grief happened feel like wait bit longer see away one thing willing prescribe given easily effected stimulant tl dr used take amazing non stim went jumped back handle hurricane harbor help,0.07,Moderately Positive
"I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 21, but took medications only briefly before deciding that I would move on and achieve my goals without psychotropics. 6 years later and still in college, I'm coming to terms with the idea that some things may be beyond my control. 

My question is, how do you *know*? Isn't it just that maybe I don't really want to be an economist and just like computer games too much? How do I genuinely know I have a disorder other than relying on the authority of someone else? 

Descartes once said that even the rational mind could't be trusted, and that therefore the only thing that could be asserted with absolute certainty was the existence of the mind. How can I know for certain that I suffer from the disorder without engaging in self-fulfilling prophecy-making?",adhd,diagnosed adhd took medication briefly deciding would move achieve goal without psychotropics year later still college coming term idea thing may beyond control question know maybe really want economist like computer game much genuinely disorder relying authority someone else descartes said even rational mind could trusted therefore asserted absolute certainty existence certain suffer engaging self fulfilling prophecy making,0.13,Moderately Positive
"So sorry for the length. :/

So, hi. I am currently working with my doctor to discover my diagnosis and she's suggested ADHD as a strong option. She put me on 30mg of Vyvanse and I have noticed some differences. I also have spoken with several people in my life who've known me for a long time and suffice it to say that everyone feels ADHD fits like a glove. 

Thing is, I'm 29 years old and I've been thinking this way for a very long time. I'm starting to realize that I may not have been 'understanding symptoms' for a long time. But how do you know what's 'normal' thought processes vs rushing thoughts? I always saw it as having a million thoughts at once; but I never identified with that. What I do identify with is having one thought that skips to another in a heartbeat. I can't tell a story without telling at least  3 stories. One of my most cherished possessions from childhood was a bumper sticker that said ""people who don't know me think I'm quiet. People who do, wish I was"". I guess I never connected that 'thoughts' included the 'thoughts I'm spewing from my mouth currently""

Which leads me to why I'm posting. 

This morning I was thinking about executive function disorder. The other night my boyfriend and I had a mini fight over our cat's drinking water. I usually refresh it, and I generally just pour in more water. Thing is, our cats are very cat like and enjoy dropping things in their water. My hair ties, toys, food, etc. Most mornings I notice this, I do have the thought that I need to dump it and refresh it.. but I am also focused on getting them water and how cold it is outside, what I have to do at work today (I'm a social worker so my days are crazy), make sure I check for my phone, both sets of keys and my phone before I leave, etc. Its not like I'm having all those thoughts together at once, but they are things I'm trying to sort through and keep in my head. 

Anyway, my boyfriend called me out on not dumping and refreshing the water, pointing out it's a health issue. I, of course, felt awful. Not just for being called out, but because I GENUINELY did not connect the thought ""it should be refreshed"" with the importance of doing it first. When called out on it, it's obvious. And it's a re-occuring pattern in my life. I have never been able to understand why I don't consider things like this. Over and over people have gotten so frustrated with me... and no one more than myself. 

I guess what this rambling is going for is... could this be what they mean by not being able to assign importance to thoughts? I'm not looking for a diagnosis. I'm honestly just afraid that I'm looking for excuses for my behaviors. But at the same time... to actually know what's going on and how to address it.... would be amazing. 

Sorry for the long ass post. I hope someone is able to read it XD. ",adhd,sorry length hi currently working doctor discover diagnosis suggested adhd strong option put mg vyvanse noticed difference also spoken several people life known long time suffice say everyone feel fit like glove thing year old thinking way starting realize may understanding symptom know normal thought process v rushing always saw million never identified identify one skip another heartbeat tell story without telling least cherished possession childhood bumper sticker said think quiet wish guess connected included spewing mouth lead posting morning executive function disorder night boyfriend mini fight cat drinking water usually refresh generally pour enjoy dropping hair tie toy food etc notice need dump focused getting cold outside work today social worker day crazy make sure check phone set key leave together trying sort keep head anyway called dumping refreshing pointing health issue course felt awful genuinely connect refreshed importance first obvious occuring pattern able understand consider gotten frustrated rambling going could mean assign looking honestly afraid excuse behavior actually address would amazing as post hope someone read xd,-0.02,Neutral
"So, my husband and I are trying to get pregnant which means I am off meds. Not to mention I was taking Ritalin which was giving me vertigo, so I haven’t even gone to the doctor to try something new.  But yeah, no meds. Not cool. 

Because I am off meds I cannot convince myself to do anything. I get myself out of bed with enough time to get ready before I leave for work, then I come home and lay on my bed doing nothing productive for the rest of the day. My husband is getting frustrated, I am frustrated, we end up fighting. 

We bought a house and are living through the renovation (which my husband and father in law are doing).  I don’t have ceilings in at least half of my house, and my kitchen is barely functional. I don’t have a living room or dining room. Literally all of our stuff is in the basement or garage, there is absolutely no routine or organization happening in our household. I handled it well for awhile, but I am now drowning in it. 

I started a new job and it is stressful and I still have no clue what I am actually doing. 

My dog has been shitting on the floor instead of outside and I don’t know how to fix it. 

I didn’t realize my student loan payments started and they are waaayyyy overdue and most likely something bad will happen if I don’t figure it out, but I literally cannot get myself to do anything about it. 

My debit card has been deactivated for at least a month and I haven’t gone to the bank to get a new one. 

Drowning. I am drowning. 

How’s your life going? 



",adhd,husband trying get pregnant mean med mention taking ritalin giving vertigo even gone doctor try something new yeah cool cannot convince anything bed enough time ready leave work come home lay nothing productive rest day getting frustrated end fighting bought house living renovation father law ceiling least half kitchen barely functional room dining literally stuff basement garage absolutely routine organization happening household handled well awhile drowning started job stressful still clue actually dog shitting floor instead outside know fix realize student loan payment waaayyyy overdue likely bad happen figure debit card deactivated month bank one life going,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I always feel like everything has to be done **now** and that there's no such thing as ""later today"" or ""later this week"". There exists only two times in my ADHD brain: *now*, and *not now*. I'm afraid of ""not now"" because I will forget what I needed to do, so all I have in a practical sense is ""now"". No reminder == no get done.

Reminders aren't that great either, because by the time it goes off I'm too mentally detached from the context which I set the reminder in. The thoughts, feelings, and motivations that convinced me to set the reminder in the first place don't exist anymore (yay memory problems), so ""meh, not important"".

My inability to sense time in combination with no persistent long-term mental context (for lack of a better term) makes setting and living by priorities nearly impossible. Everything feels urgent and important.

I feel like a slave to the moment and whatever it may bring to my senses until that occasional reminder kicks in, and I hope I'm still in tune with my past self that set it.",adhd,always feel like everything done thing later today week exists two time adhd brain afraid forget needed practical sense reminder get great either go mentally detached context set thought feeling motivation convinced first place exist anymore yay memory problem meh important inability combination persistent long term mental lack better make setting living priority nearly impossible urgent slave moment whatever may bring sens occasional kick hope still tune past self,0.02,Neutral
"It's like my brain needs everything to be black or white. Yes or no. Hot or cold. Now or never. There can't be an ""in-between"", there can't be a ""sometimes"" or a ""later"", and heaven forbid something is ever a ""maybe.""",adhd,like brain need everything black white yes hot cold never sometimes later heaven forbid something ever maybe,-0.1,Moderately Negative
"I've been a full time professional software engineer for 7 years now.  I've been in very senior positions.  This is a senior position, not the most senior I've ever had, but one of the highest paying I've ever had.  Most of my life I've contracted, because I liked the flexibility of being able to get the hell out of a situation that I felt was about to go bad, or that was going bad, and jump straight into a fresh new situation at any time.  Contracting let me make so much money I could breathe.  Then, a contract ended abruptly, it was a bad situation not entirely due to my own ADHD but certainly didn't help, and all of a sudden I didn't have a fallback.  And we had just blasted our savings by moving house to be closer to work, so that I could reduce the stress I get from commutes.

The pressure was on, but it's always been a hugely high demand market for software engineers, so I thought I could just put my name out there again like I always do and have an offer from at least 2 places by the end of the week, like always.  Cause I interview so damn well.  And then.... there was very little interest.  It was before End of Financial Year so there were slim pickings anyway (people were waiting for budgets to be approved before going ahead with new projects)

The ones that WERE out there had standards so high no mortal could reach, and hence had been trying to fill those roles for months and months and months on end.  But I went for them anyway, and got rejected even after thinking I did very well in some cases.

I rarely get rejected.  But I thought ""it's ok, it's a huge market, just keep applying.  Apply for everything you can find that fits the criteria.""

Kept getting rejections.  Left right and centre.  I'd never faced this kind of adversity before.  Bills were being extended, rent was due, stress was at the highest it's ever been in my life.  What the hell has happened, maybe I'm asking too much?  Maybe I'm the one who is too picky?  Maybe I'm just not as good as I thought I was?

Then I finally landed a job.  A perm job.  Seemed like a dream kind of job.  I won't go into details just yet, but it was great.  Very high pay.  Huge corporate.  And I was so good at the interview they skipped some parts just to get me on board asap.

Today, I still love this job, and this place, and these people, and I have made it my obsession to succeed and to be the kind of developer they wanted me to be.  But I am still so far from the mark.  I've already been through several performance conversations.  Including with HR.  They've told me I have limited time to demonstrate my capacity to perform at the level that they expect.  What they mean by that is, they expect a high output developer.  They also expect someone who is capable of full autonomy without assistance.  I knew the second part coming in, but not really the first part.  I made it clear that I am a ""Go slow to go fast"" developer.  I'm the kind of person with an encyclopaedic knowledge of all technical subjects they can throw at me, and very friendly, and nice, and kind, and wanting to help.  And the quality of the work I produce is consistently the highest quality of anyone in any team.  That's just the fact of the matter.  But I am slow.  I am fucking slow.  I can't not be slow.  They tell me ""you need to learn to sacrifice quality for delivering value sometimes"" - I know how to take shortcuts, but the problem is it does not make any difference to the speed of my delivery.  It honestly doesn't.  I've tried this so many times, I've tried so hard, I could write the most shortcut-riddled trash and get it out just the same speed, or even slower, than I would if I had written it as the pinnacle of engineering prowess.

I completely, completely understand the need to deliver in a company that has users that it needs to keep satisfied.  I do.  I understand, and I agree in many situations it's better to just take the shortest path from a - b rather than the most beautiful, smartest, idealistic approach.  But good god in heaven how the fuck does one get from A to B any faster that way?

I know it's possible because I've SEEN it.  I see other people do this every day.  The colleagues who surround me can be so quick in their delivery.  But funny thing, much of the work done by the colleagues around me, has imprints of my encyclopaedic knowledge in them, here and there.  Because I'm often lending a hand to help others.  Because I am best when I am ENABLING OTHERS TO DO THEIR  BEST WORK, but NOT when I am expected to deliver things of my own.

I like to call myself an enabler.  I enable other developers, who are the best ""do-ers"" you can find.  I am like an on-demand supply of high-quality information, solutions, ideas and sound technical skill that can be drawn on by folks who are better at moving from A - B at high speed.  I'm best at helping those folks on their journey and ensuring the wheels don't fall off.

Right now I know I will not meet their mark.  But I'm so tired, so tired of job hunting, so tired of rejection, so tired of failure.  I have recruiters asking me if I'd be open to chatting about all these jobs they have going atm, because the market has picked up like crazy right now, and I could just find something new like I always do and move on.

But what's the chance it will be the one I dream about?  What's the chance that I'll be tricked into thinking it's the one I've been looking for all my life, like all the ones before it, only to have it crumble away beneath me again as reality rears its ugly head?

How many times do I have to refine my interview questions to weed out the roles that are too good to be true before it actually starts working the way I intend?

What do I have to do to put myself in a spot where I can finally stop this crisis mode, take a breath, and settle in to do something that I not only love, but that pays my bills too?

If I'm fired before I get a chance to resign with a fallback job in place, shit is gonna explode.  Our finances were just coming back under control, but are not there yet.  I'll be back in that disaster and this time, I may not be able to avert it before it wipes us out.

I guess this is what it's like when you dance too close to the edge.",adhd,full time professional software engineer year senior position ever one highest paying life contracted liked flexibility able get hell situation felt go bad going jump straight fresh new contracting let make much money could breathe contract ended abruptly entirely due adhd certainly help sudden fallback blasted saving moving house closer work reduce stress commute pressure always hugely high demand market thought put name like offer least place end week cause interview damn well little interest financial slim picking anyway people waiting budget approved ahead project standard mortal reach hence trying fill role month went got rejected even thinking case rarely ok huge keep applying apply everything find fit criterion kept getting rejection left right centre never faced kind adversity bill extended rent happened maybe asking picky good finally landed job perm seemed dream detail yet great pay corporate skipped part board asap today still love made obsession succeed developer wanted far mark already several performance conversation including hr told limited demonstrate capacity perform level expect mean output also someone capable autonomy without assistance knew second coming really first clear slow fast person encyclopaedic knowledge technical subject throw friendly nice wanting quality produce consistently anyone team fact matter fucking tell need learn sacrifice delivering value sometimes know take shortcut problem difference speed delivery honestly tried many hard write riddled trash slower would written pinnacle engineering prowess completely understand deliver company user satisfied agree better shortest path rather beautiful smartest idealistic approach god heaven fuck faster way possible seen see every day colleague surround quick funny thing done around imprint often lending hand others best enabling expected call enabler enable er supply information solution idea sound skill drawn folk helping journey ensuring wheel fall meet tired hunting failure recruiter open chatting atm picked crazy something move chance tricked looking crumble away beneath reality rear ugly head refine question weed true actually start working intend spot stop crisis mode breath settle fired resign shit gonna explode finance back control disaster may avert wipe u guess dance close edge,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Here is the link:

https://www.reddit.com/r/askscience/comments/6bk8hr/why_do_so_many_medicines_require_you_to_stop/


Any ideas?",adhd,link idea,0.0,Neutral
"**This is a game changer.**

Ever since college I have suspected that I had ADHD, I even spoke to my general practitioner during my last year about it.  After a 5 minute conversation she put me on Strattera.  It did nothing for me, plus she didn't really explain the medication to me.  

After that experience I figured that I didn't have ADHD and moved on.  She wasn't a great doctor, and I don't see her anymore.  Fast forward 7 years.  I was getting to the point in my job where I am taking on more and more responsibilities for longer term assignments.  The motivation of short term deadlines was gone, my motivation drive and organization had to come from within.  It most certainly wasn't going well and concerning me to the point that I might lose my job.  As an architect this scares me, because it's tough to get a new job in my field now.  Firms and clients are realizing that they can do more with less people.  

I spoke to my new GP who is great, and he referred me to a Psychiatrist.  I met with her a week ago and she confirmed my earlier suspicion and diagnosed me with ADHD-PI, and started me on ritalin (5mg twice daily, upping to three times as needed after the first week).

Holy crap, I've gone from no energy/willpower/drive/desire to wanting TO DO ALL THE THINGS!  There is not a single aspect of my life that this has not had a positive impact on.  I am better socially, no more near uncontrollable sleepiness in certain situations.  The list goes on and on.  This make me so happy and for the first time in years happily looking toward the future and what new challenges it will bring.  

Finally to my question, I hope these don't fall under the no side-effects discussion rule.  Earlier this week I had only gotten 4 hours of sleep due to house project that snowballed.  In my older age I can't not sleep like I used to.  I noticed that my meds didn't really work and I was all over the place mentally.  I was alert but couldn't focus.  I've also noticed a huge uptick in my need for water consumption.  Is Ritalin a water soluble drug?  I'm starting to notice a correlation between the amount of water I drink and the effectiveness of a dose.  

**TL:DNR** Finally diagnosed, life is awesome now.  Can no sleep and not enough water minimize effectiveness of meds?",adhd,game changer ever since college suspected adhd even spoke general practitioner last year minute conversation put strattera nothing plus really explain medication experience figured moved great doctor see anymore fast forward getting point job taking responsibility longer term assignment motivation short deadline gone drive organization come within certainly going well concerning might lose architect scare tough get new field firm client realizing le people gp referred psychiatrist met week ago confirmed earlier suspicion diagnosed pi started ritalin mg twice daily upping three time needed first holy crap energy willpower desire wanting thing single aspect life positive impact better socially near uncontrollable sleepiness certain situation list go make happy happily looking toward future challenge bring finally question hope fall side effect discussion rule gotten hour sleep due house project snowballed older age like used noticed med work place mentally alert focus also huge uptick need water consumption soluble drug starting notice correlation amount drink effectiveness dose tl dnr awesome enough minimize,0.14,Moderately Positive
"I self diagnosed myself with ADHD about a year ago and it has taken that whole year for me to be officially diagnosed and provided with medication.

I just want to thank you guys for being so open about your experiences and so caring with your advice. For my whole life I thought I was a lazy underachiever who didn't want things enough to succeed at them. As soon as I came out of my depression and the more manic aspects of my brain came out, people started thinking I was attention seeking and arrogant. I knew not to take any of this to heart because of the conversations I've read here.

It's so great to be able to talk about your mental and psychological experiences openly with people, especially in a world where a lot of people don't understand ADHD. Even now, my parents and some of my friends are a bit sceptical and think I'm inventing it or pathologising myself. It's so great to have a community outside your personal sphere that's got your back. We're not insane, we're just not normative! That's cool too!

Peace and love guys, I hope everyone reading this has an awesome day. ",adhd,self diagnosed adhd year ago taken whole officially provided medication want thank guy open experience caring advice life thought lazy underachiever thing enough succeed soon came depression manic aspect brain people started thinking attention seeking arrogant knew take heart conversation read great able talk mental psychological openly especially world lot understand even parent friend bit sceptical think inventing pathologising community outside personal sphere got back insane normative cool peace love hope everyone reading awesome day,0.12,Moderately Positive
"This is an issue I've experienced twice, separately, and both from movies. Both happened in high-anxiety situations in their movies, ones where I was all but sure of the negative outcome. 

**[Pacific Rim Spoilers]** The second time this happened was while watching Pacific Rim *during the scene where two Kaiju first appeared and the Russian Jaeger had its cockpit compromised, specifically the drowning scenes and implied helplessness of the pilots. I remember my heart racing, feeling panicky, and basically going into fight or flight mode. I had to remove myself from the room, as even closing my eyes didn't help when I could still hear it.* 

The first time was worse, though

It happened while watching Ip Man 2 **[again, spoilers ahead]** *during the scene where the master is fighting the boxer, and it got to the point where you knew he would lose the fight, and his life. Basically the same as the Apollo Creed fight with the boxer in Rocky IV, complete with the protagonist being in a position to stop it but being urged by the fighter not to do so. The fight was crucial to the story so I understood it being drawn out. Once I realized the guy was going to get killed, my anxiety started to skyrocket until I began to feel panicked, to the point where I felt like I was in fight or flight mode. That time was so bad that I even started crying, and not from the death because it hadn't even happened, I just knew it would.*

I was still able to finish both movies, I mean I definitely wanted to, but I felt physically compelled to walk away and stop watching during those scenes. 

I've never had this issue before, but I've also only been on medication (Adderall) for the past few years and haven't had a ton of examples to compare it to since then. 

**TL;DR: Experiencing increasing anxiety during intense scenes of helpless deaths in movies, to the point where I began to panic and couldn't finish the scenes.**

Has anyone else experienced anything like this?",adhd,issue experienced twice separately movie happened high anxiety situation one sure negative outcome pacific rim spoiler second time watching scene two kaiju first appeared russian jaeger cockpit compromised specifically drowning implied helplessness pilot remember heart racing feeling panicky basically going fight flight mode remove room even closing eye help could still hear worse though ip man ahead master fighting boxer got point knew would lose life apollo creed rocky iv complete protagonist position stop urged fighter crucial story understood drawn realized guy get killed started skyrocket began feel panicked felt like bad cry death able finish mean definitely wanted physically compelled walk away never also medication adderall past year ton example compare since tl dr experiencing increasing intense helpless panic anyone else anything,0.02,Neutral
"Hi there,

I'm looking to find a psychiatrist to look into diagnosis for ADHD. Since learning about ADHD, I'm amazed at how I didn't look into this before. 

Firstly, I'm pretty broke. I have savings, but I'd rather not spend too much. I have a medicare card though, and I've been looking for psychiatrists that bulk bill. Turns out, they're not that easy to find (at least for me!) over the internet.

Does anyone have any experience in finding a bulk-billed psychiatrist in Melbourne? Particularly, I'm South, South-eastern suburbs.

I think the Alfred Hospital does psychiatrist services but I'm not sure if they bulk-bill or if they would do ADHD.

I know, I could just call up places and ask. But I don't want to seem like an idiot, my GP had a ""well what do you want me to do I'm not a psychiatrist"" kind of attitude and it's scared me off talking to people a bit. I've never seen a psychiatrist before, and I'm too scared to reach out to friends as I still feel there is a stigma with it. Plus, I really don't want to say why - If I am diagnosed with ADHD, I'd probably keep it private.

Thanks for any help anyone can give regarding this. I'm just not sure where to start and I keep stalling and I really want to look into this!",adhd,hi looking find psychiatrist look diagnosis adhd since learning amazed firstly pretty broke saving rather spend much medicare card though bulk bill turn easy least internet anyone experience finding billed melbourne particularly south eastern suburb think alfred hospital service sure would know could call place ask want seem like idiot gp well kind attitude scared talking people bit never seen reach friend still feel stigma plus really say diagnosed probably keep private thanks help give regarding start stalling,0.13,Moderately Positive
My mom rarely talks about the fact that I got diagnosed last year with minor ADHD. I'm not sure if it's still minor. I want to try going on meds but so far whenever I bring it up she says things like you don't need it or you don't have ADHD which makes me feel like I'm crazy but she's the one who delivered my diagnoses after I was tested and she sometimes brings it up around family friends. I think she says these things because she doesn't believe in them. But I want to at least try them. I know for some people it really helps and for others not at all. It's hard for me to talk to her about because as I said earlier she makes me feel like I'm crazy.,adhd,mom rarely talk fact got diagnosed last year minor adhd sure still want try going med far whenever bring say thing like need make feel crazy one delivered diagnosis tested sometimes brings around family friend think believe least know people really help others hard said earlier,-0.01,Neutral
"All of those times that I would meditate before a homework assignment during college, and before going to the gym when I had a more consistent routine. Always, it proved to be easier. And why?

Because that was the tool I used to access normal, sustained focus. And the thing is, when you stop using the tool to access that normal focus, it only becomes that much harder if not near impossible to maintain continual access.

Medication worked similarly, in that it made it easier for me to shift to regular focus, but even then, it hasn't proven to be a magic cure-all. Seems that this aspect of my personality will remain with me for life.

**TL;DR:** Hyperfocus is able to be accessed, whereas regular focus requires additional lifestyle alterations to make it obtainable.",adhd,time would meditate homework assignment college going gym consistent routine always proved easier tool used access normal sustained focus thing stop using becomes much harder near impossible maintain continual medication worked similarly made shift regular even proven magic cure seems aspect personality remain life tl dr hyperfocus able accessed whereas requires additional lifestyle alteration make obtainable,0.08,Moderately Positive
"My hubs, with a late diagnosis of ADHD is on generic Adderall, he recently noticed that his meds isn't benefiting him as well as it normally does.  So he figures that his body is getting used to the chemicals and is building a tolerance.  He's been on this medication for about 3-4 years now.

So I figure I ask you all what he can do to avoid the ever increasing tolerance.  He already takes two 20mg pills a day and I heard that 40mg is typically the max dosage psychiatrists would prescribe.  I also heard there was such a thing as Adderall withdrawal, despite it not being an addictive medication.

So please educate me on this, I've done my research, but it's all theorized.  So I thought I could use some anecdotes from someone who found what works for themselves.  I may have to do the same for our daughter at some point, though she is only 4 and she doesn't need medication right now.

Also, I told my hubs to make an appointment with his psychiatrist ASAP.

Edit: someone clarified that Adderall *is* an addictive medication. My apologies.

Edit 2: Apparently a few posts got deleted for breaking the sub rules.  If there is something you'd like to say that might get deleted, you're welcome to PM me.

Edit 3: Thanks everyone for helping me better understand ADHD, you're making me a better and more patient wife my husband deserves.


",adhd,hub late diagnosis adhd generic adderall recently noticed med benefiting well normally figure body getting used chemical building tolerance medication year ask avoid ever increasing already take two mg pill day heard typically max dosage psychiatrist would prescribe also thing withdrawal despite addictive please educate done research theorized thought could use anecdote someone found work may daughter point though need right told make appointment asap edit clarified apology apparently post got deleted breaking sub rule something like say might get welcome pm thanks everyone helping better understand making patient wife husband deserves,0.14,Moderately Positive
I can't read books. I can hardly read summaries. I can't stay out of my head long enough to focus throughout a full page it's pathetic. I just admire people who love to read and get enough stimulus out of it and I want to learn how to do it. What are some tips to get out of my own head and just enjoy reading? ,adhd,read book hardly summary stay head long enough focus throughout full page pathetic admire people love get stimulus want learn tip enjoy reading,-0.01,Neutral
"Hello /r/adhd

this is my first post to the thread, and I have some questions.
Over a long period of time, trying to understand things in my life, ie
difficulty concentrating, poor grades in HS (better in College) despite studying hard and knowing Im a bright kid, distractions of mood during sex (was a big factor in trying to discover what's up). And realizing most my whole family (brother and father diagnosed with adhd, mom and grandma definitely seem to have it - not professionally diagnosed), and additionally me being diagnosed with anxiety and depression

I'm beginning to think I might have add/adhd. I'm not necessarily hyperactive, but often times I feel like just doing impulsive things or blurting out random things for the sake of being dumb. And I think socially it's become acceptable in my life since I'm know as the goofy person, yet often shy.

Does any of this seem familiar to you? How did you go about getting diagnosed or going to a doctor about it?


edit: I also lose things on the regular (keys), get distracted to do things while Im heading on my way out and often time am rushing out the door haha -_-",adhd,hello adhd first post thread question long period time trying understand thing life ie difficulty concentrating poor grade h better college despite studying hard knowing im bright kid distraction mood sex big factor discover realizing whole family brother father diagnosed mom grandma definitely seem professionally additionally anxiety depression beginning think might add necessarily hyperactive often feel like impulsive blurting random sake dumb socially become acceptable since know goofy person yet shy familiar go getting going doctor edit also lose regular key get distracted heading way rushing door haha,0.04,Neutral
"So, anyway, this is a throwway, since my friends and family don't have clue what I'm thinking of and that I'm seeking help for a condition that seems to be making my life as shitty as possible.

Anyway, I'm in college, first year, history, and there's a hell of a lot literature that *I just can't handle*. No concentration, my mind's a mess, everything each and every one of you is already familiar with.

The thing is, I never had to study, but got away with it because I know with words. It's not that I *never* studied, just never as much as I should have to have straight A's. I went for the pass since it was the easy way out, and studying was torture, no matter how interesting it got; the only thing I got right away were languages and history. And now, college + ADD are making one of my loves hell.

I have no idea how to study, since no method I ever heard from my friends ever worked (which I can now atrribute to ADD), and now I *really* have to study if i want this, and it's killing me that I just can't. The wall is more appealing that the books they give us!

Please, if you have any tips for studying and actually not getting consumed by fear and distractions, share!

Thank you in advance! ;)


**TL;DR - Newly self-diagnosed ADD 19yo needs tips for studying so she wouldn't flunk first year of college and have to go home and give up completly.**

EDIT; There are very few experts on the matter in my small country, and all *four or five* of them are in the capital. There is only one institution and a private clinic. So I turned to the institution for a testing and am waiting for a reply. Will update when/if I get a response! :)",adhd,anyway throwway since friend family clue thinking seeking help condition seems making life shitty possible college first year history hell lot literature handle concentration mind mess everything every one already familiar thing never study got away know word studied much straight went pas easy way studying torture matter interesting right language add love idea method ever heard worked atrribute really want killing wall appealing book give u please tip actually getting consumed fear distraction share thank advance tl dr newly self diagnosed yo need flunk go home completly edit expert small country four five capital institution private clinic turned testing waiting reply update get response,0.2,Moderately Positive
"Hello all,
I'm 23M in Michigan who has been recently diagnosed with ADHD by a neurophysiologist. I am currently prescribed methylphenidate ER 20 mg which I have been told is Ritalin by that specialist. I have been wondering if I can transfer the script/diagnosis to my primary care doctor, as it was said possible by my primary care doctor. He told me this could be done to manage the meds at his office rather than the specialist practice. I've actually never heard this before and I'm not sure if others have had experience with this. I'd like to hear what your guys thoughts are on this (good, bad, and why?)

Thank you :)",adhd,hello michigan recently diagnosed adhd neurophysiologist currently prescribed methylphenidate er mg told ritalin specialist wondering transfer script diagnosis primary care doctor said possible could done manage med office rather practice actually never heard sure others experience like hear guy thought good bad thank,0.11,Moderately Positive
"**Start momentum for your week RIGHT NOW with Kick-Start Sunday and Momentum Monday** -- 
##Special welcome to the first-time participants and all you new reADHDitors!  -- We're at 4000 members today!  

♥ ♥ ♥ **Never posted on Reddit before?** I welcome you to make this your first! ☺☺☺

***

Kick-Start Sunday is where /r/adhd can share the goals, tasks, or habits we want to accomplish this week.  By sharing here you will be held gently accountable (which is a good thing!) and we can check in with you...helping YOU get things done.

*I suggest you read the whole post -- you* can *skip it and just make your list, but you’ll usually be more successful if you put in the little extra initial effort and continue reading....*

***
## Choose the participation method that works for you:
* **Most important task** - Share one (or a couple) **HIGH-PRIORITY** tasks that you really would like to finally finish.  *(Ex. Set a doctors appointment, finish assignment, clean the kitchen...whatever YOU think is most important.)*
* **Make a list** - Post a list of all the things you want to accomplish this week.  *(I highly recommend identifying the top 3 priorities.)*
* **Feed your soul** - Sometimes by relaxing and having fun we have more energy to get more done. **List a couple FUN items to make your list more exciting.**

**Need/Want to copy last week's list *verbatim*?  Absolutely DO SO!**  *Those might be your keystone habits. Once you start doing those regularly you are able to do more. soon they will be automatic and you can put your focus elsewhere.*

***
By sharing our goal(s) with this understanding community, we can keep each other **accountable**...and **celebrate our successes**, large or small!  **Don’t forget to return for [Win Wedenesday] to flaunt your successes!**  ;-)

By getting one small task done it creates **momentum**, **trust** in yourself, **confidence**, and you will feel like doing more.


***
## Suggested Guidelines
* **Prioritize your list.** One thing you want to get done (or start). What is the most important thing for you? (If making a list works best for you feel free to do that too!)
* **Add a finish OR start deadline.** By committing to a date/time, we can check on your progress.
* **Edit your comment when done.** - Come back and edit your comment when you have finished your goal. We can celebrate that (and then people won't check on you).
* **Small start.** - Share what SMALL (under 10 minutes) commitment you can make towards your goal.  *I found when my clients didn’t reach their goals 90% of the time they never started...this will help you break through the initial barrier.*

***
## Tips
* Your tasks/goals should ideally be S.M.A.R.T goals: **Specific, measurable, attainable, relevant, and time-bound**
* **Measurable** - Make sure you can be able to say YES I DID THIS. **Study enough** is not measurable.  Study 2 hours is.
* **Break it down** - Instead of saying clean my room...it might help to say, “Clean room for 10 minutes or pick up trash in room.”
* **Write it down elsewhere** - Sticky note by computer.  Google calendar.  Agenda.  Write it down so you don't forget.  Our working memories are flaky....
* **Start small...build up slowly** - We want to build on small successes so committing to cleaning your entire house might be a bit too much to handle.  Pick a room (or a task like ‘pick up dirty laundry’)  instead. 
* **Want to study for 2 hours a day?** *Commit to studying 30 minutes to make it easier on you.*

***
## Examples from previous weeks:
* Unload the dishwasher.
* Study X hours a day (though I suggest starting small with minutes).
* Make an appointment with doctor.
* Get ready and *leave the house* for *any* reason.
* Clean car (get trash out).
* **Start** *[something]*. “Spend 5 minutes on writing my paper.”
*  many more....

***
## *It’s now easier to respond!  Just copy/paste the below into your comment.*

    ## Daily Habit / Procrastinated Project / Soul-Feeding
    * **What?** -
    * **How much time?** -
    * **When?** -
    * **Potential Obstacles?** -
    * **Check in on me? When?** -
    * **Small Start** -
    * **Reward** -
    * **Something fun you want to do this week** -
    * **Daily Habit** -

***
Daily list template, if that suits you better.

    ## Monday --  
    * Item
    ## Tuesday -- 
    ## Wednesday -- 
    ## Thursday -- 
    ## Friday -- 
    ## Saturday --  
    ## Sunday -- 
  
***
Don’t forget to **brag about your accomplishments in Win Wednesday** on Wednesday.  **Celebrating/acknowledging your wins is just as important as actually getting stuff done.**

*** 
**TL,DR: Share what you want to accomplish this week and how you will do it. Having people check on you via Reddit is extremely helpful!**",adhd,start momentum week right kick sunday monday welcome first time participant new readhditors member today never posted reddit make adhd share goal task habit want accomplish sharing held gently accountable good thing check helping get done suggest read whole post skip list usually successful put little extra initial effort continue reading choose participation method work important one couple high priority really would like finally finish ex set doctor appointment assignment clean kitchen whatever think highly recommend identifying top feed soul sometimes relaxing fun energy item exciting need copy last verbatim absolutely might keystone regularly able soon automatic focus elsewhere understanding community keep celebrate success large small forget return win wedenesday flaunt getting creates trust confidence feel suggested guideline prioritize making best free add deadline committing date progress edit comment come back finished people minute commitment towards found client reach started help break barrier tip ideally specific measurable attainable relevant bound sure say yes study enough hour instead saying room pick trash write sticky note computer google calendar agenda working memory flaky build slowly cleaning entire house bit much handle dirty laundry day commit studying easier example previous unload dishwasher though starting ready leave reason car something spend writing paper many respond paste daily procrastinated project feeding potential obstacle reward template suit better tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday brag accomplishment celebrating acknowledging actually stuff tl dr via extremely helpful,0.21,Moderately Positive
"I've just started Intuniv 4mg/d in addition to 50mg Methylphenidate DR. Actually this is my first day. 

The package insert says it might take a few days for the effects, but I'm rather sure something changed already: I'm much more calm and cool with things than on just Methylphenidate. Not really sedated or drowsy but simply more aloof. Clearer thinking. More detached from events and much better able to reflect. 

Anyone else has any experience with this medication and would like to share? I'm quite curious, thanks in advance!",adhd,started intuniv mg addition methylphenidate dr actually first day package insert say might take effect rather sure something changed already much calm cool thing really sedated drowsy simply aloof clearer thinking detached event better able reflect anyone else experience medication would like share quite curious thanks advance,0.27,Moderately Positive
"The adderall was helping me focus at first and then I lost the ""good energy"" during the honey moon period. Like it was intended, it still made me focus after I lost the euphoria but I'm very impassionate, like I'm back to my state of mind before being diagnosed but now I can work but at a slower rate. I looked at other Reddit posts and I've come to the conclusion from observation that I still feel unmotivated, I care little for the euphoria (I've used it recreationally in the past and I've decided to stop, I can control myself pretty well), but i feel as if my non motivation stems from both ADD and because sometimes I feel like sad? Like I'm sad but the adderall is just making me do it.  It made me think that perhaps I'm naturally just more sad when I'm sober and the euphoria (even if the dopamine was over the top) was more of the factor that made me push myself to handle day to day activity. But I don't care for that excited feeling I just want a balance, like some sort of rationale 

A lot of other forums are saying Wellbutrin is perfect for such a situation but obviously I'm just labeling myself off of intuition. But my intuition is usually right and I truly just want to be able to work without having these thoughts. Any thoughts? I'm thinking Wellbutrin and Adderall would be good for me and obviously I can't just go asking my psychiatrist like that. ",adhd,adderall helping focus first lost good energy honey moon period like intended still made euphoria impassionate back state mind diagnosed work slower rate looked reddit post come conclusion observation feel unmotivated care little used recreationally past decided stop control pretty well non motivation stem add sometimes sad making think perhaps naturally sober even dopamine top factor push handle day activity excited feeling want balance sort rationale lot forum saying wellbutrin perfect situation obviously labeling intuition usually right truly able without thought thinking would go asking psychiatrist,0.22,Moderately Positive
"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wVDG47fe1OA

TL;DW: A short doc from 2014 by a person describing their ADHD/ADD. 

I thought it was OK and worth sharing.",adhd,tl dw short doc person describing adhd add thought ok worth sharing,0.27,Moderately Positive
"#### Wow.  This place *exploded* with Bananaking's /r/BestOf post!  I figure this is a good time for people to introduce themselves and ask those niggling little questions that have been floating in the back of their heads.

***  
## The main purpose of this thread:

* Provide a place for people to **ask simple questions** which may not need a dedicated post.  
* Give people **new to the  /r/ADHD community (and there are thousands of you)** a chance to say hello and share a bit about their strengths, struggles, and dreams.  
* Reduce the amount of threads asking a simple question in /r/ADHD

***  
**This is the place for questions like:**

* How do I force myself to eat despite a depressed appetite?  
* What was your experience on [medication]?  
* I took Adderall for the first time yesterday, and now I have tentacles growing out of my back!  
* Did you tell your friends, coworkers, family about your ADHD?   
* Do you feel like your ADHD makes you special?  
* I just put a donut on my head.
* How do I talk to [doctor, psych, parents] about getting an ADHD diagnosis?   

**We will answer every question in this thread (within a week). Hopefully others will help us out...but we won’t leave you hangin'!**

***  
Another method of communicating is to [](http://webchat.freenode.net/?channels=/r/ADHD).

## The idea is to consolidate all of these kinds of questions into a single place that is more easily searched.  As we migrate from my temporary wiki to the new reddit wiki, these threads will be helpful.

",adhd,wow place exploded bananaking bestof post figure good time people introduce ask niggling little question floating back head main purpose thread provide simple may need dedicated give new adhd community thousand chance say hello share bit strength struggle dream reduce amount asking like force eat despite depressed appetite experience medication took adderall first yesterday tentacle growing tell friend coworkers family feel make special put donut talk doctor psych parent getting diagnosis answer every within week hopefully others help u leave hangin another method communicating idea consolidate kind single easily searched migrate temporary wiki reddit helpful,0.21,Moderately Positive
"*venting because fb/twitter sure as hell won't get it*

After a year of struggling to make a therapy appointment (2 yrs after being diagnosed) I sent out a bunch of inquiries to doctors in my area.

Two responses: ""Sure thing, send us more info and we'll set up an appointment with your son!""

I don't have a son!  *I* need therapy! And the fact that women aren't diagnosed as often because symptoms are only associated with hyper little boys was just reinforced by the people I'm trying to get help from. I've had symptoms since middle school and didn't figure this out til I was 22. Even then I was diagnosed and nothing came of it. Fucking hell. 

I just feel so erased already. Like I'm making this all up and complaining about nothing. I'm so freaking annoyed that I'm literally less seen than a non-existent boy.",adhd,venting fb twitter sure hell get year struggling make therapy appointment yr diagnosed sent bunch inquiry doctor area two response thing send u info set son need fact woman often symptom associated hyper little boy reinforced people trying help since middle school figure til even nothing came fucking feel erased already like making complaining freaking annoyed literally le seen non existent,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"By asking for your top 5, I am hoping to get both the common strategies that many of us need to be reminded of along with some strategies or tools that might be less well-known. ",adhd,asking top hoping get common strategy many u need reminded along tool might le well known,0.23,Moderately Positive
"Adult, female, pretty sure I had ADHD - Inattentive for a while now. Helped my son through his adhd-hyperactive journey for several years and have learned a lot about the condition. I have so many of the symptoms, I share so many of the experiences on this sub. My childhood is full of therapy, special schools, private testing, etc. I relate to my son much more than my ""normal"" husband. So I finally decide to go get an evaluation to try medication, as I was exhausted struggling in life. But to my surprise, the psychologist said I likely did NOT have adhd, and instead suffered from depression and anxiety. She said the symptoms can overlap and seem similar to adhd but the reason for them is different. I'm not entirely convinced.  She said the best idea is to treat for depression, see if that clears up along with the anxiety, and then we can address any leftover adhd symptoms if they still remain. She started me on wellbutrin. I really do wish for some relief, no matter how it comes, and I'm keeping an open mind. But I had started to form an identity matching my son and now I'm at a loss. 

Edit: I meant psychiatrist did the eval and medication. I'm also seeing a therapist for weekly talk sessions too. Sorry for the confusion.

Edit2: Thanks everyone for the reassuring comments. I'm glad wellbutrin can also help with adhd. And I will keep an open dialogue with my psych and not back down until I feel fully understood - it IS her job, so I shouldn't feel bad. ",adhd,adult female pretty sure adhd inattentive helped son hyperactive journey several year learned lot condition many symptom share experience sub childhood full therapy special school private testing etc relate much normal husband finally decide go get evaluation try medication exhausted struggling life surprise psychologist said likely instead suffered depression anxiety overlap seem similar reason different entirely convinced best idea treat see clear along address leftover still remain started wellbutrin really wish relief matter come keeping open mind form identity matching loss edit meant psychiatrist eval also seeing therapist weekly talk session sorry confusion thanks everyone reassuring comment glad help keep dialogue psych back feel fully understood job bad,0.1,Moderately Positive
"I’m writing this because I just woke up in the middle of the night sweating, and thinking 

&nbsp;


> “What if they find out?” 

&nbsp;

I had to write out my thoughts.

&nbsp;



I constantly fluctuate between a state of feeling extremely smart and capable of anything, and the state of complete uselessness. 

&nbsp;


I live either on top of the world, or in the shadows…but rarely in-between. 

&nbsp;


I go between peacefully knowing I’ll do just fine, and anxiously realizing I’m not prepared in the slightest.

&nbsp;


I’ll jump from calmly accepting tasks that I have never done before, to quickly realizing I’m over-estimating myself, to then confidently showing my success, as if I knew I could do it all along. 

&nbsp;

Hour by hour I switch between thinking I’m suffering Imposter Syndrome, and knowing I truly am an imposter. 

&nbsp;

Since I was a kid, people have been telling me I’m smart…but I almost flunked out of college. 

Since I was a kid, people have been telling me I’m lazy…but I spend countless hours at night researching and learning new topics. 

&nbsp;

The internet says that for people going through Imposter Syndrome,

>  “Proof of success is dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be.” 

&nbsp;

But what if you *are* deceiving others, but just fake it so well you become what you are pretending to be?

&nbsp;

In grade school and all through high school, I’d get straight As, was in honors classes and even skipped math grade levels multiple times because it was “too easy” for me. 

&nbsp;

If only they knew that the only reason I knew all this math was because I went from private school, to home school, to public school in a 3-year period. My private school taught math quicker than public school, at home school I picked up the wrong math book (a year ahead of me), and when I got to high school, I was already “2 years ahead”, but it wasn’t because I was some math genius…it was a curriculum mistake due to switching schools for 3 years in a row. 

&nbsp;


**I’m an imposter.**

&nbsp;

All through high school, I never studied. I wrote my essays the night before (and sometimes the morning of). I’d get to my exams, and I’d somehow know the answers…but I never studied, and I never did the homework. How? Because the teachers taught us everything we needed to know in class. As long as you were occasionally hearing some of the words coming out of their mouths, you’d have all you needed to know for the exams, and if not…it wasn’t that hard to figure stuff out when given context. It’s called bullshitting. Having a good memory doesn’t make you smart. 

&nbsp;

**I *am* the imposter.**

&nbsp;

I almost failed out of college, because bullshitting exams doesn’t work as well there, but I got through it. How did I get through it? By bullshitting the system instead of the academics. By waiting until the very last part of the semester, and begging for forgiveness and help. By taking advantage and talking to the right people. 

&nbsp;

One time, I got a 0% on a final exam. I didn’t write a single word in the notebook that I handed in. I put my head down and waited until everyone was done and gone. I handed in a blank stack of papers and quickly walked out. I met with the dean of students, where I cried and desperately asked for help. They contacted my professor, telling them my “situation” and how the final didn’t reflect my knowledge of the subject. The professor agreed to give me whatever I had gotten on the last project…which turns out was a 98%. I walked away with a smile on my face. 

&nbsp;


**I’m worse than an imposter…*I’m a conman*.**

&nbsp;

However, I couldn’t have just conned my way through an engineering degree at one of the top  engineering schools in America, right? I hadn’t been diagnosed with ADHD yet, so I didn’t have any help, and I just thought I was lazy…but then how did I make it? 

&nbsp;


There were times when I couldn’t just act my way out of a class or a project.  I forget about how I’d sometimes procrastinate, and in one night hyperfocus and finish engineering projects that others had been working on for over a week. I’d finish 20-page research papers in one day, that were supposed to be done over the course of the whole semester, and I’d get As. 

&nbsp;

Maybe it’s just Imposter Syndrome hiding memories of the actual work I put in. Or maybe I’m picking and choosing little instances that make me sound competent. Yea. That’s the one. 

&nbsp;

**I’m an imposter.**

&nbsp;

Right before I graduated, I posted my resume on the university website that helps students find jobs. My resume was all types of embellished bullshit (at least I perceived it that way), with my “major GPA” instead of “overall GPA”. It was cheating. Within 4 hours, I got an email for an interview. I had uploaded my resume at the right time. It was luck. I somehow bullshitted 3 interviews, and got the job. On the first day of work…I still didn’t even know what the hell type of job I had taken (It was software QA). Luckily for me, it was a solid company, in my field, and with great benefits.

&nbsp;

**Luck.** 

&nbsp;


After I started working, I couldn’t focus. I lost interest. I didn’t know what it meant to be “professional”. They hated me, and within a year, I was told I was close to being fired. 

&nbsp;

Wait. I’m overlooking a few details here. 

&nbsp;

They over-worked the “newly graduated” employees to the point where we were working 12 hours a day every day, and expected to work every weekend for months in a row. But only the “new hires”. They tracked everything we did on our computers, and they would then gather us, and rank us by how many “clicks” we made on a certain page, or how much time the mouse was spent moving around…none of which meant anything in terms of productivity…just that we were “busy”. 

&nbsp;


I was put on termination notice because I didn’t make as many “clicks” as my coworkers during testing hours on a Sunday, while I was in the hospital with my mother, who was dying of cancer. I was told that was “my problem, not theirs”. My mother passed away that week.

&nbsp;

I decided it was time to look for another job, but how the hell would I get another job, when I didn’t know shit? It was all an act, so how would I con my way into a position…again?! I remembered how I uploaded a resume on my university website and easily got an interview. Maybe they still had that for alumni! Looking for it, I accidentally misspelled the link and landed on a wrong page that had job openings. I stumbled onto a position that sounded like it was in my field…a job that I might be able to pretend like I knew what I was doing. 

&nbsp;


**Bumbling Luck.**

&nbsp;

I also happened to have a connection with the organization. I found out who the hiring manager was, and what exactly they were looking for. I tweaked my resume and wrote an amazing cover letter that made me look perfect for the job. I got a phone interview. In the days leading up to the interview, I taught myself a programming language I had never used and learned technical concepts I never cared to grasp before. I read books, watched lectures, I did practice projects, I knew what I was doing. I bullshitted enough on the phone interview to get the real interview.

&nbsp;

I walked into the building on interview day, and I put on an act that would’ve won an Oscar. I was confident, I answered all their questions, I made up scenario solutions on the spot. I passed multiple interviews with 7 managers of all levels. Then the technical questions came. I aced them all, and even answered with alternate solutions and the concepts and theories behind each solution. Those fools. They thought I knew what I was talking about, when I had not seen any of this before last week. 

&nbsp;

**I’m an impostor, a conman, and a fraud.**

&nbsp;

Over the next few months, I became great at my job. It was easy, though. All the information you need about a subject is online. Anybody could do it. It wasn’t long before I was getting projects more complicated than anyone else in my team. It was easy. They probably just didn’t Google it like I did. Before I knew it, they were coming to me asking questions. In my mind, I thought 

> “I’ve been here less than a year, and they’ve been here for much more. I didn’t know any of this a year ago. Maybe I’m not the imposter after all”.

&nbsp;

Then one day, my boss asked me if I had ever done front end web development. I smiled and said yes.

&nbsp;

**I *am* the imposter**

&nbsp;

About 3 months later, after seeing JavaScript, HTML, CSS and PHP for the first time in my life, I had a fully functioning web application securely integrated with the database, using data visualization APIs for business intelligence and tools for GIS analysis that was being used by over 100 people in the organization. HA! Joke’s on them. I was only pretending to know what I was doing. I learned it all as I went!

&nbsp;


**I *am* the imposter.**

&nbsp;

I quickly realized I could learn everything I wanted by using the resources around me, and fool everyone into thinking that I knew what I was doing. I learned all about databases, blockchain development, back-end and middleware development, video game development, sensor design, nutrition, game physics development, virtual reality development, business, cloud computing, distributed systems, 3D printing, bridge architecture, neurology basics, video editing, 3D modeling and so on.

&nbsp;

**I have been conning the world.** 

&nbsp;


In that time, I’ve given presentations about mobile app development, I’ve given lectures on the neurology behind virtual reality technology and the design concepts of engineering database systems.  I’ve joined research projects with biology PhD students implementing new innovative systems for education. I’ve started websites talking about this stuff I learned as if I knew what I was doing. I partnered my website with a big company, because I fooled them into thinking I knew what I was talking about. I was contracted to work as editor of a film submitted to Sundance. I was hired to create many more videos that thousands have seen. I started a software company working with government agencies. I weaseled my way into being a project manager and developer of a huge gaming project, with articles being written about it all over the world. 

&nbsp;

That’s just been in the last two years. And nobody has caught on yet. Nobody suspects it.

&nbsp;

I don’t have imposter syndrome. 

**I am the ultimate imposter.**
",adhd,writing woke middle night sweating thinking find write thought constantly fluctuate state feeling extremely smart capable anything complete uselessness live either top world shadow rarely go peacefully knowing fine anxiously realizing prepared slightest jump calmly accepting task never done quickly estimating confidently showing success knew could along hour switch suffering imposter syndrome truly since kid people telling almost flunked college lazy spend countless researching learning new topic internet say going proof dismissed luck timing result deceiving others intelligent competent believe fake well become pretending grade school high get straight honor class even skipped math level multiple time easy reason went private home public year period taught quicker picked wrong book ahead got already genius curriculum mistake due switching row studied wrote essay sometimes morning exam somehow know answer homework teacher u everything needed long occasionally hearing word coming mouth hard figure stuff given context called bullshitting good memory make failed work system instead academic waiting last part semester begging forgiveness help taking advantage talking right one final single notebook handed put head waited everyone gone blank stack paper walked met dean student cried desperately asked contacted professor situation reflect knowledge subject agreed give whatever gotten project turn away smile face worse conman however conned way engineering degree america diagnosed adhd yet act forget procrastinate hyperfocus finish working week page research day supposed course whole maybe hiding actual picking choosing little instance sound yea graduated posted resume university website job type embellished bullshit least perceived major gpa overall cheating within email interview uploaded bullshitted first still hell taken software qa luckily solid company field great benefit started focus lost interest meant professional hated told close fired wait overlooking detail worked newly employee point every expected weekend month hire tracked computer would gather rank many click made certain much mouse spent moving around none term productivity busy termination notice coworkers testing sunday hospital mother dying cancer problem passed decided look another shit con position remembered easily alumnus looking accidentally misspelled link landed opening stumbled onto sounded like might able pretend bumbling also happened connection organization found hiring manager exactly tweaked amazing cover letter perfect phone leading programming language used learned technical concept cared grasp read watched lecture practice enough real building oscar confident answered question scenario solution spot came aced alternate theory behind fool seen impostor fraud next became though information need online anybody getting complicated anyone else team probably google asking mind le ago bos ever front end web development smiled said yes later seeing javascript html cs php life fully functioning application securely integrated database using data visualization apis business intelligence tool gi analysis ha joke realized learn wanted resource blockchain back middleware video game sensor design nutrition physic virtual reality cloud computing distributed printing bridge architecture neurology basic editing modeling conning presentation mobile app technology joined biology phd implementing innovative education partnered big fooled contracted editor film submitted sundance hired create thousand government agency weaseled developer huge gaming article written two nobody caught suspect ultimate,0.09,Moderately Positive
"So today I started a new bottle of Ritalin after finishing the previous one. Now, the previous one I had been working on for quite a while as I had forgotten doses here and there so they were a few months old...
Anyhow, Today I just feel ""off"". The low-level anxious feeling that I have (that Ritalin usually takes care of) is present and I'm just a wee bit edgy. I have had this feeling before between refills and one time I returned a bottle because I was sure there was something wrong with it. The other time I can remember it happening (looking back) I just passed it off as coincidence or my quirky brain.
Anyone notice this?",adhd,today started new bottle ritalin finishing previous one working quite forgotten dos month old anyhow feel low level anxious feeling usually take care present wee bit edgy refill time returned sure something wrong remember happening looking back passed coincidence quirky brain anyone notice,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"My wife believes she may have undiagnosed adhd, and has reached a point in her career where she feels that she is needing some kind of assistance in order to keep up with the pace of her work. 
What is the process she would need to follow to seek diagnosis and medication (Ritalin or similar)? We are Australian, if that matters. ",adhd,wife belief may undiagnosed adhd reached point career feel needing kind assistance order keep pace work process would need follow seek diagnosis medication ritalin similar australian matter,0.2,Moderately Positive
"Hi all, I hope everyone is well and is having a great weekend. 

I finally have an ADHD assessment with a psychiatrist via the NHS (my GP has been amazing at pushing for an appointment due to my circumstances at work). If you have been through the assessment can you give me an idea of what to expect?  The appointment letter didn't explain anything other than confirm the appointment date and time. 

I'm in the process of being performance managed at work due to my forgetfulness, inattentiveness to details, poor organisational and time management skills. I've been told I'm inconsistent, I have great days and catastrophic days   I'm currently receiving coaching to improve.  Despite being a hard worker hasn't been the first time. 

Some background about me. 

- Female, 34 years old tomorrow. 

- My thinking is foggy most of the time, I never feel like I'm alert or on the ball. Recalling information on the spot can be a struggle but I can recall useless information in great detail from 20 years ago.

- I was performance managed in a job in 2014

- I've been passed over for salary increases and promotion 

- I've never been fired but twice a temporary contract was not extended because of my time keeping, repetitive mistakes 
 
- my concentration wanes in meetings at work, after 15 mins I'm gone (I hate those 2 hour company updates!)

- tasks and projects are always at various stages of completion at work (and at home).  I have a tendency to jump from task to task to task.  

- put things off until they're at a critical point or a state of emergency because I get extreme anxiety to start.  It's a miracle I managed to get through university! 

- told I was ""bright"", ""had potential"", ""easily distracted"", ""poor concentration"".  Sometimes I struggled at school in certains subjects like Biology but found subjects like Art, Music, easy but I was deterred by my parents from pursuing them but they're huge interests to this day

- Sometimes it can take me a day or two to finish watching a film because I pause it and go off to do something online or round the house 

- I can't remember the last time I sat down to enjoy a book without putting it down after a few pages because the words won't sink in. 

- I hate engaging in back and forth text messages as I get bored.  And lengthy telephone calls are annoying and I tend to zone out after about 10-15 minutes 

- sometimes I can become fixated on hobbies and subjects (obsessed even?) but then I loose interest and move on to the next thing.  I know a little about a lot, especially music!  But I can become focused on photography then it shifts to working out and being healthy. 

- If I didn't have a message board to tack letters on to I'd forget my appointments, or if I didn't have a fixed place to keep my keys and wallet I'd lose them all the time. 

- I'm pretty impulsive... especially when it comes to buying things. Spontaneous, if an idea pops into my head I run with it.  Action first, deal with consequences later.   I'm rubbish with money. 

- When I'm talking to friends, family, colleagues, I have a bad habit of launching into a conversation causing people to say ""what are you on about"" so I have to go back and start again because I missed the first part.  When someone's telling me something my mind is thinking of questions and I ask them before they've had a chance to finish what they're saying.  It's either that or I'm not listening at all.  

I plan on taking the following to my appointments 

- School reports from 5-16 years old (thanks for keeping those, mum!)
- my performance management write ups from my line manager from our weekly meetings (I have about 10 weeks worth)
- evidence of where I have made errors (emails, letters, data input etc) 

TLTR - I have an assessment on 21 December (NHS Scotland).  What can I expect to happen at my appointment? tests? discussion? I'm nervous! ",adhd,hi hope everyone well great weekend finally adhd assessment psychiatrist via nh gp amazing pushing appointment due circumstance work give idea expect letter explain anything confirm date time process performance managed forgetfulness inattentiveness detail poor organisational management skill told inconsistent day catastrophic currently receiving coaching improve despite hard worker first background female year old tomorrow thinking foggy never feel like alert ball recalling information spot struggle recall useless ago job passed salary increase promotion fired twice temporary contract extended keeping repetitive mistake concentration wane meeting min gone hate hour company update task project always various stage completion home tendency jump put thing critical point state emergency get extreme anxiety start miracle university bright potential easily distracted sometimes struggled school certains subject biology found art music easy deterred parent pursuing huge interest take two finish watching film pause go something online round house remember last sat enjoy book without putting page word sink engaging back forth text message bored lengthy telephone call annoying tend zone minute become fixated hobby obsessed even loose move next know little lot especially focused photography shift working healthy board tack forget fixed place keep key wallet lose pretty impulsive come buying spontaneous pop head run action deal consequence later rubbish money talking friend family colleague bad habit launching conversation causing people say missed part someone telling mind question ask chance saying either listening plan taking following report thanks mum write ups line manager weekly week worth evidence made error email data input etc tltr december scotland happen test discussion nervous,0.02,Neutral
"Hello.

Never even set foot in this subreddit before. So hi. How are ya. Here's me: Throughout college I've struggled with striking the balance between responsibilities and a social life. I'm sure most of us do. Since I was young, all sorts of little pills have found their way onto my tongue. All prescribed. Never taken as an absolute necessity, but an aid in the effort to fulfill my potential. I suppose.

Lately I've been taking the no pill approach. Things are  going pretty well in a lot of ways. It's not solely due to my abstinence, but I'd say its a factor. I feel more calm and levelheaded. My mood is balanced and I don't get so anxious. I'm more social, more funny, more engaged and generally more happy.

But here's the thing. Despite all this, I find myself more apathetic than ever. More than when I was prescribed the ""depressed"" medications. I'm a senior in college. This is the time I should be buckling down and getting my life together but I genuinely can't find the motivation to do so.

I took a few vyvanse I had laying around this week. Had some exams to study for. While in the library cramming away, I decided to embark on an epic facebook status in a fit of procrastination. Now I've always been a good writer but never felt compelled to do so unless absolutely necessary. But for that hour, I wanted too. I wrote about the election and american politics, completely supported by facts and crafted with love.

People liked it. People really liked it. I've gotten multiple offers to have it published. I've gotten compliments from people I don't speak to anymore. It felt good. For the first time in a while I felt I was being appreciated for my work on a large scale. I wanted to keep the feeling going. I wanted to write more. But then a real shitty thought came over me:

It's not really me writing.

Well it's my hands and mind, I suppose. But the me that exists on a day to day basis could never apply enough interest to write something like that. I could take the pills, I suppose. But that means my interest peaks in all ways. In the anxiety I feel when I wonder what I'm supposed to do and say in every social setting. That feeling where everything just makes you uncomfortable, and your demenour is no longer relaxed and approachable. That feeling I have felt, over and over again, whenever I take little ADD pills.

So, I'm interest deficient. Meds help, but the side effects aren't worth it. Any similar stories? Advice? Sorry this is a bit longwinded. ",adhd,hello never even set foot subreddit hi ya throughout college struggled striking balance responsibility social life sure u since young sort little pill found way onto tongue prescribed taken absolute necessity aid effort fulfill potential suppose lately taking approach thing going pretty well lot solely due abstinence say factor feel calm levelheaded mood balanced get anxious funny engaged generally happy despite find apathetic ever depressed medication senior time buckling getting together genuinely motivation took vyvanse laying around week exam study library cramming away decided embark epic facebook status fit procrastination always good writer felt compelled unless absolutely necessary hour wanted wrote election american politics completely supported fact crafted love people liked really gotten multiple offer published compliment speak anymore first appreciated work large scale keep feeling write real shitty thought came writing hand mind exists day basis could apply enough interest something like take mean peak anxiety wonder supposed every setting everything make uncomfortable demenour longer relaxed approachable whenever add deficient med help side effect worth similar story advice sorry bit longwinded,0.13,Moderately Positive
"First off, I have been having motivation/focus/distraction issues at work and home for years.  I have a psychologist who is awesome and thinks I very clearly have most of the symptoms of ADHD.  She suggested trying drugs, so sent me to one of her psychiatrists.  After 2 chats, he put me on 40mg Strattera.  I've never taken a prescription drug except for physical illness in my life.

Was this the right place for me to start?  Should I have started at a lower dose?  Any idea why he would have started me on this vs one of the stimulant types?  

I don't even know how big of a problem I have.  i don't know if this is going to help.  I already do a good job (or I wouldn't still have my marriage or job) of keeping my shit together, I just feel like I could be better at it.  Is this the right move?  WHy am I so effing sweaty?  :-)

Thanks",adhd,first motivation focus distraction issue work home year psychologist awesome think clearly symptom adhd suggested trying drug sent one psychiatrist chat put mg strattera never taken prescription except physical illness life right place start started lower dose idea would v stimulant type even know big problem going help already good job still marriage keeping shit together feel like could better move effing sweaty thanks,0.21,Moderately Positive
"Hi Reddit! I'm a 16 year old guy with ADHD level 6 (i think) And this happened in January of last year. My parents have refused to get me any treatment and have just been blaming my inability to focus and my disorganization on myself, calling me lazy and saying that ""everyone has something to deal with, why can't you deal with yours?""

Well, more than a year later, the problem have persisted and actually have gotten far worse than before. I'm getting really worried abut my future and i want to know if there's either 

A.) A good way to treat myself unprofessionally 
B.) A way to get medicine without parental consent
C.) Something that'll taper off my ADHD completely 

I just wanna stop disappointing my parents, please help me if you can",adhd,hi reddit year old guy adhd level think happened january last parent refused get treatment blaming inability focus disorganization calling lazy saying everyone something deal well later problem persisted actually gotten far worse getting really worried abut future want know either good way treat unprofessionally medicine without parental consent taper completely wanna stop disappointing please help,0.0,Neutral
"I've dabbled in mindfulness/meditation for a couple years but overall haven't been particualrly successful.  Just started using Aware and I immediately like it better than anything other ones I've used before.  Reasons:
1) singles (i.e., one-off meditation tracks that aren't part of a program) let you choose how much time you have/want to do, like 5, 10, 20 min, etc.  That lowered the activation energy for me.  5 min isn't as intimidating/inconvenient as 10 or 20 min.
2) foundational program is really accessible. He emphasizes that the first couple sessions are more about setting time aside for yourself rather than actually doing anything, which makes me feel like less of a failure when I'm unable prevent my thoughts from barging in. He's also supportive and made me feel like I had accomplished something after the first session (which, let's be real, I had! I successfully sat still for like TEN WHOLE MINUTES attempting to meditate).
3) first session of the foundational program also included a section where you *stop focusing and let all of the thoughts in.*  I don't think any of the other guided meditations I've tried have done that, or at least have done that in a way that really resonated with me.  I couldn't really do it, but it seems like a great skill that hopefully it'll help me develop!

I'll try to remember to update after I've been using it for longer, but I REALLY like it so far and wanted to post this before I forget lol.

",adhd,dabbled mindfulness meditation couple year overall particualrly successful started using aware immediately like better anything one used reason single track part program let choose much time want min etc lowered activation energy intimidating inconvenient foundational really accessible emphasizes first session setting aside rather actually make feel le failure unable prevent thought barging also supportive made accomplished something real successfully sat still ten whole minute attempting meditate included section stop focusing think guided tried done least way resonated seems great skill hopefully help develop try remember update longer far wanted post forget lol,0.2,Moderately Positive
"Even though Wednesday is (almost) over...I invite you to still participate and let us know what awesome things you have done lately!

***

**Welcome to the 4th edition of Win Wednesday!** It's the moment that ~~3~~ **24** of you have been waiting for! We had 12 participants the first week, 24 last week...(and down to 15 last week *sad face*) **If you can't think of anything put something you are grateful for. We all can express some gratitude.**?
***
At the beginning of each ADHD support group, I like to have everyone share their ""win"" for the month. What surprised me was **most people couldn't even come up with ONE positive thing they accomplished the past 30 days**! *If I asked for the bad things that happened each person probably could name 20 before pausing...*

So here if your chance to **brag about something small you got done.** We ALL had wins both big and small. *You basically get free comment karma as well!*
***
Some examples from past weeks

* Started taking ADHD medication x2
* Called doctor to set up an appointment x4
* Working out and eating a healthy diet
* Got to work...on time!
* Started going to bed an hour earlier

***
By sharing our wins every Wednesday...**I hope you will start to be on the lookout for the positive things you do each week. You will start to gain awareness and see that everything isn't all bad!** *This MIGHT even become a routine as you excitedly log on every Wednesday night to share.*

",adhd,even though wednesday almost invite still participate let u know awesome thing done lately welcome th edition win moment waiting participant first week last sad face think anything put something grateful express gratitude beginning adhd support group like everyone share month surprised people come one positive accomplished past day asked bad happened person probably could name pausing chance brag small got big basically get free comment karma well example started taking medication called doctor set appointment working eating healthy diet work time going bed hour earlier sharing every hope start lookout gain awareness see everything might become routine excitedly log night,0.17,Moderately Positive
Recently prescribed and I haven't taken it yet. Anything I should expect/need to know? Thanks!,adhd,recently prescribed taken yet anything expect need know thanks,0.1,Moderately Positive
"**20 days later: Outcome edited into the bottom. Hopefully it helps someone in a similar situation and, if nothing else, helps demonstrate for people how large of an effect stress levels have on the effectiveness of your meds.**

I've been prescribed stimulants for my ADHD (executive dysfunction, to be specific) for 16 years, so I have a bit of a history with medications that I'll outline below (if it's not important just skip it):

Tried Concerta/Ritalin first (age 11). Gave me facial tics so a no-go.
Switched to Adderall and eventually settled at 30mg XR in the morning followed by 10mg IR after school. This is what I was prescribed until I was 20 or so, but only probably took it twice a week because I was an edgy kid who didn't think I needed it.

Eventually took school seriously and started taking it more regularly. Got switched to Adderall IR 15mg twice a day since not every day I needed to be able to focus for 8 hours.

I hated the side effects for the 10 years I took Adderall. Sweaty/smelly pits/feet, oily skin, felt ""cracked out, super dry mouth which resulted in bad breath. I'd joke with my friends that it was the least attractive drug.

Doc switched me to Vyvanse after 10 years of complaints. I don't like XR meds since I like the option of only being stimulated for 4 hours if I want. I was extremely sensitive to it and even 30mg would force me awake for 18 hours. I got none of the bad sides of Adderall but couldn't handle the insomnia.

I switched back to Adderall IR and was miserable again.

Two years ago, after 2 years of being on Adderall IR 10mg 4x/day as needed, I moved and started seeing a new doctor. He told me they had instant release Vyvanse, called Dexedrine IR. He put me on 10mg 4x/day of that and things were swell for the last 2 years.

**Read from here if my medication history is unimportant:**

So now I take 10mg 4x/day of Dexedrine IR. One detail I forgot to mention is that when I was prescribed 4 10mg Adderall a day, as well as with my 4 Dexedrine now, I was told I could take the 4 a day in any way I like. I've been taking 20mg twice a day of this Dexedrine IR for the last 2 years. First dose around 6am and next before lunch at noon (I eat very fast before it kicks in). Each dose used to last 6 hours or so, with my noon dose usually helping me focus until 8pm.

My problem is that now I'm able to still focus just as well as always from this dose, but I'm yawning and getting cloudy headed 3 hours after taking it. It seems like it's lasting half as long as it used to, at best. I'm having trouble even staying awake after 6pm. It's really affecting my work and my preparation for my son who will be born in 8 weeks.

Basically, I'm wondering why/how this could be happening now when this dose has worked well for 2 years? I never abuse my medication. I exercise 5 days a week and sleep 8 hours a night. I'm a health nut.

Would asking my doctor to bump me up to 20mg 3x/day be an excessive amount? I'm 5' 11"" 210lbs with low bodyfat (bodybuilder) so I am a large guy. If he doesn't move me up, what can I do? Vyvanse just didn't agree with me and my insurance doesn't cover it.

PS - Any dose under 20mg IR at once doesn't allow me to focus or work how I need to, so spacing it out more isn't an option.

TL:DR - Taking 20mg Dexedrine IR 2x/day. Worked well for 2 years and now it's not lasting long enough. Would taking 20mg 3x/day be excessive? Obviously I'll ask my doctor but I don't want to worry him by asking for an excessive amount (even though I have taken amphetamine-based medications for 16 years with no abuse and never filling a prescription early). If my doc doesn't bump my prescription up, what can I do? I work as a programmer at a fast paced job so taking a break isn't an option.

**Edit:**

""Ended up just telling my doctor the situation and he suggested moving up to 20mg 3x/day. He said he is sometimes weary about prescribing 60mg/day of dextroamphetamine; But considering my size, my history of having a high natural tolerance to amphetamine meds, and my history of never once asking for a prescription early or abusing my meds in the 16 years I've been taking them, he felt the benefits would outweigh the minimal (for me) risks of dependence.

Having that third booster works great! However, I noticed that with my stressful tasks all done (have all the baby stuff bought/ready, fixed my wife's car, got her on my health insurance, signed up for birthing classes, etc), I've notice my dexedrine working much better. I started taking 15mg 3x/day because 20mg actually started to make me feel overstimulated, which hasn't happened in months. It's either the much lowered stress or my increased sleep quality/quantity much improved; But one of them is making my meds work extra well. My conclusion is to never write off how much Stress could be affecting you.

So, long story short, I moved up to 20mg 3x/day. Worked great when I was super stressed but I actually need less now that things are more stable. Still going to stay at 20mg 3x/day though because why not? I always can up it to the full 20mg 3x/day if I'm in a rough spot again.

Sorry for the novel. Just hoping someone in a similar situation finds this thread and gets some insight as to why their medication stopped being as effective. NEVER underestimate the power that stress levels have over your body.""",adhd,day later outcome edited bottom hopefully help someone similar situation nothing else demonstrate people large effect stress level effectiveness med prescribed stimulant adhd executive dysfunction specific year bit history medication outline important skip tried concerta ritalin first age gave facial tic go switched adderall eventually settled mg xr morning followed ir school probably took twice week edgy kid think needed seriously started taking regularly got since every able focus hour hated side sweaty smelly pit foot oily skin felt cracked super dry mouth resulted bad breath joke friend least attractive drug doc vyvanse complaint like option stimulated want extremely sensitive even would force awake none handle insomnia back miserable two ago moved seeing new doctor told instant release called dexedrine put thing swell last read unimportant take one detail forgot mention well could way dose around next lunch noon eat fast kick used usually helping pm problem still always yawning getting cloudy headed seems lasting half long best trouble staying really affecting work preparation son born basically wondering happening worked never abuse exercise sleep night health nut asking bump excessive amount lb low bodyfat bodybuilder guy move agree insurance cover p allow need spacing tl dr enough obviously ask worry though taken amphetamine based filling prescription early programmer paced job break edit ended telling suggested moving said sometimes weary prescribing dextroamphetamine considering size high natural tolerance abusing benefit outweigh minimal risk dependence third booster great however noticed stressful task done baby stuff bought ready fixed wife car signed birthing class etc notice working much better actually make feel overstimulated happened month either lowered increased quality quantity improved making extra conclusion write story short stressed le stable going stay full rough spot sorry novel hoping find thread get insight stopped effective underestimate power body,0.02,Neutral
"I've always been bad at losing stuff but this is fucking awful. I remember putting the bottle in my backpack but I was looking for it today before school and I can't find it anywhere.

Update: I feel like an idiot. I was sure I emptied my backpack this morning at 7:30 searching **everywhere** for the bottle. I got to my second class and reached in to grab a pencil and I pulled up the bottle... 😐 ",adhd,always bad losing stuff fucking awful remember putting bottle backpack looking today school find anywhere update feel like idiot sure emptied morning searching everywhere got second class reached grab pencil pulled,-0.4,Moderately Negative
"I was supposed to turn in a form when I checker in, but I forgot the form along with my phone and wallet at home... Luckily my boyfriend saved my ass and brought my stuff to the clinic! I did terrible on the first portion of the test, which was computerized. Letters would flash, and you had to press the space bar on every letter BUT X. I hit space anyways 😫
 The second portion was all paper. I forgot to complete the back side of one of the sheets... So even if the last 2 portions of the test say I'm not ADHD, my actions that day may show otherwise... I'll find out my results next month anyways!!",adhd,supposed turn form checker forgot along phone wallet home luckily boyfriend saved as brought stuff clinic terrible first portion test computerized letter would flash press space bar every hit anyways second paper complete back side one sheet even last say adhd action day may show otherwise find result next month,-0.02,Neutral
"At the age of 30, (I'm 31 now) I decided to get some psychiatric help. Mainly due to short term relationships, going from job to job and not being able to concentrate for more than 10 minutes. Ya know, the usual. (On a side note, I was recommended to do this when I briefly date a psychiatrist and she suggested I see someone) 

Now with the diagnosis of ADD comes a host of other problems. Namely, how to tell your family. 

So when visiting family for Christmas, my mother noticed the medication I was taking by the bathroom sink (double trigger to take meds and brush teeth at the same time) 

She had already looked up what this medication was and knew it was treatment for ADD. So was confused as to why I was taking it. 

She had me tested as a child and was told that I had ADD. She had made to active decision to not put me on medication then as she wasn't sure what the side effects were. 

Now for someone who has struggled their whole life, and someone who was oblivious to actually having ADD. I am a little bit angry at my mother for this new revelation, to the point we had a massive argument about it. I'm not sure how to progress forward. We weren't close before anyway and this is just another divisive point, but not sure on where to go from here. 

Any advice would be appreciated, as well as if this is a common problem amongst people? It's all very new to me.",adhd,age decided get psychiatric help mainly due short term relationship going job able concentrate minute ya know usual side note recommended briefly date psychiatrist suggested see someone diagnosis add come host problem namely tell family visiting christmas mother noticed medication taking bathroom sink double trigger take med brush teeth time already looked knew treatment confused tested child told made active decision put sure effect struggled whole life oblivious actually little bit angry new revelation point massive argument progress forward close anyway another divisive go advice would appreciated well common amongst people,-0.02,Neutral
"So, Ive always blamed my symptoms on other factors e.g. Had trouble with sexuality growing up. But now as a 35 YO man I have come to terms with what a couple of people have told me before ... that I should go to a doctor to get diagnosed properly. 
Ive been doing research the past year, and the more I read about ADHD, the more I saw myself in the patterns and ""habits"". I am scared of medication and their side effects and has been my biggest factor against going to get help. 
But I'm tired of dealing with the lack of concentration, guessing what people said to me, impulsive decisions, etc., etc., etc. ( I even blanked out writing this). 
I guess this is more of a vent/self realization rant. If you guys want to comment on anything, I guess, the different type of medications and how they worked/affected yall? 
",adhd,ive always blamed symptom factor trouble sexuality growing yo man come term couple people told go doctor get diagnosed properly research past year read adhd saw pattern habit scared medication side effect biggest going help tired dealing lack concentration guessing said impulsive decision etc even blanked writing guess vent self realization rant guy want comment anything different type worked affected yall,-0.17,Moderately Negative
"I was just prescribed adderall, with no insurance it was $90 for a 2 week one a day run. I nearly didn't get it. I'm not sure what to do, I'm not going to be able to afford it. Worst part is the adderall is helping, a lot.

Anyone have suggestions, experiences, or advice?",adhd,prescribed adderall insurance week one day run nearly get sure going able afford worst part helping lot anyone suggestion experience advice,0.03,Neutral
I've always been calm and effective under pressure. Now that I'm on meds and approaching a fast deadline my mind is racing and I can't seem to get anything done. Advice? Too much stimulation?,adhd,always calm effective pressure med approaching fast deadline mind racing seem get anything done advice much stimulation,0.26,Moderately Positive
The only problem is that I want to use this interest to begin making games. How can I keep myself on track for this without burning myself out in the process? I'm currently not taking meds to control my ADHD due to various negative side-effects that I've had while taking them.,adhd,problem want use interest begin making game keep track without burning process currently taking med control adhd due various negative side effect,-0.16,Moderately Negative
"I am good at taking tests that you can explain your self in a rational manner and show reasoning but for some reason when it comes to multiple choice i freeze up and get really bad test anxiety and fail horribly. i have an accounting final next Thursday that is all multiple choice, we are given a note card and 2 hours to complete the 11 chapter  comprehensive final. any suggestions or advice that other ADHD'ers have for taking multiple choice tests?

Edit: had a Multiple choice test today and it went well thanks to your advice. i took a little bit of everyones advice and combined it together like a true ADHD person would. ",adhd,good taking test explain self rational manner show reasoning reason come multiple choice freeze get really bad anxiety fail horribly accounting final next thursday given note card hour complete chapter comprehensive suggestion advice adhd er edit today went well thanks took little bit everyones combined together like true person would,-0.09,Moderately Negative
"So I've always jokingly considered myself having ADHD. But after doing some more research on the matter, I'm starting to really convince myself that I do have it. For instance, I've always been an uncontrollably hyperactive child, I can't seem to control myself when I get slightly excited or am in a comfortable environment (talk too loudly and too fast), I ALWAYS misplace things, frequently forget about meetings/class, and lately I've been having trouble paying attention to what somebody is saying when they are talking to me (my thoughts wonder elsewhere). But my question is, where do you draw the line between having ADHD and just being an incompetent human being?",adhd,always jokingly considered adhd research matter starting really convince instance uncontrollably hyperactive child seem control get slightly excited comfortable environment talk loudly fast misplace thing frequently forget meeting class lately trouble paying attention somebody saying talking thought wonder elsewhere question draw line incompetent human,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Today I feel so overwhelmed. 

I hate how when I get a task done, it's never done: I have to do it again in a week/month etc. For example, I have unpaid bills and everytime I pay them (and get proud for doing that), there are new bills coming in... Or I call the physiotherapist to make an appointment (proud at myself again for not waiting a month) turns out they need information from my insurance, which means I have to go and call the insurer... and I hate making calls.

I promised people to call them and I forget, I am forgetting tasks I was supposed to fulfil for my volunteer work, and all of this gets my mind so busy with worrying about letting people down. Shame and guilt. Ah it makes me so tired.

And that I stopped taking my adhd medicine because trying to conceive (baby/getting pregnant) doesn't help either.


",adhd,today feel overwhelmed hate get task done never week month etc example unpaid bill everytime pay proud new coming call physiotherapist make appointment waiting turn need information insurance mean go insurer making promised people forget forgetting supposed fulfil volunteer work mind busy worrying letting shame guilt ah tired stopped taking adhd medicine trying conceive baby getting pregnant help either,0.01,Neutral
"I'm 23 with a full time job. Right now I'm living with my parents to save money to move out.  My question is: ""Does anyone else feel lost?"" Like all I do is work and then chores and watch Netflix a little when I get home for a couple episodes and then rinse repeat. My friends are all married, and my girlfriend who broke up with me recently was the one who I shared all my adventures with. She pulled me out and we did so much together. I planned on marrying her to start my next adventure but that didn't work out and now she is off partying and finishing her year of college and I'm just here. 
I guess I want adventures still. I want to have fun but feel like my ""life force"" has been taken away where I don't really have much time to go on trips or do crazy fun things. Anyone else feel the same?",adhd,full time job right living parent save money move question anyone else feel lost like work chore watch netflix little get home couple episode rinse repeat friend married girlfriend broke recently one shared adventure pulled much together planned marrying start next partying finishing year college guess want still fun life force taken away really go trip crazy thing,0.08,Moderately Positive
"Brief backstory, I’m a girl my late twenties who’s felt stuck in a dead-end call center job for seven years now. I was diagnosed with ADHD as an adult and that’s helped me realize that some jobs just aren’t for me. On the plus side, my job has helped me, since dealing with only inbound calls I don’t have to worry about time-management so much. However, I still have bad stats compared to newer agents. I’m burnt out and I’m not super great at my job. But I was too scared to change fields due to how slowly I learn.

Now I’m dealing with an existential crisis, I’m tired of feeling abused by rude clients for the pay.
I wanted to learn to stick weld back in Junior high. I took a class, I was one of two girls. I could solder but I remember being too scared to actually weld back then, because I was so timid. 
Now I want to change that. I remember our instructor mentioning that welders will always be in demand. Some on the pipeline making great money if their work is decent enough. However, that was pre-2008.

I’ve always put welding on as a dream if my life went to hell, maybe I could pursue it. But I had it in my head that I needed to go to school for an associates degree in welding at the community college and I could never do that. Most of my twenties have been spent working and treating my depression. I’ve struggled with a lot of self hate and failures. I’m a decent artist, but I have no degree (college flunk out).
But today I actually sat down and looked at it all—what it would actually take. My vocational school offers a 1-year full time course that would certify me (if I pass). I’m a very hands on person. The only math I excelled in was trig and geometry. I was tested at having above-average visual memory (not to humble-brag). However, I still struggle with time management. 
Maybe dealing with the responsibilities of school will help. I plan on taking a small part-time stick welding class in spring to see if I enjoy it. 
I guess I’ll go through all this and it won’t work out. I’ll have to lose my benefits just to make full-time school possible. 

Any advice?",adhd,brief backstory girl late twenty felt stuck dead end call center job seven year diagnosed adhd adult helped realize plus side since dealing inbound worry time management much however still bad stats compared newer agent burnt super great scared change field due slowly learn existential crisis tired feeling abused rude client pay wanted stick weld back junior high took class one two could solder remember actually timid want instructor mentioning welder always demand pipeline making money work decent enough pre put welding dream life went hell maybe pursue head needed go school associate degree community college never spent working treating depression struggled lot self hate failure artist flunk today sat looked would take vocational offer full course certify pas hand person math excelled trig geometry tested average visual memory humble brag struggle responsibility help plan taking small part spring see enjoy guess lose benefit make possible advice,-0.04,Neutral
"i tend to overthink situations which leads me to become overly jealous. logically, i know i shouldn't be but my inner emotions just overwhelm me with anger and jealousy. soon after, i experience a depressive state and even suicidal thoughts that can last for days due to even the smallest thing. 

i depend on certain important people way too much for my happiness and RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria) makes it so much worse. i get so worked up from even the tiniest indication that they don't ""value"" me, even to the point where i think they don't care about me if we didn't talk as much that day. i feel like i need constant reassurance and i know it sounds selfish but if i don't i start to second guess and panic. it's a really toxic mindset that i'm aware of but can't get out of

i hate going through this cycle constantly, is there anything i can do? ",adhd,tend overthink situation lead become overly jealous logically know inner emotion overwhelm anger jealousy soon experience depressive state even suicidal thought last day due smallest thing depend certain important people way much happiness rsd rejection sensitive dysphoria make worse get worked tiniest indication value point think care talk feel like need constant reassurance sound selfish start second guess panic really toxic mindset aware hate going cycle constantly anything,0.0,Neutral
"I don't know about you other dear folks in r/ADHD, but driving long distances along makes me absolutely *crawl out of my skin*!  Yesterday, I started at 6:00 am (also not an easy task, as some of you might understand) and did what turned out to be a ten hour drive from my home in SF to my best friend's place in SD.  


For those of you who also hate long drives, what do you do to keep yourselves sane during the long, tedious hours of highway? Living in San Francisco, I hardly ever drive, and can usually keep myself happily occupied when I ride the bus or train.  However, driving anywhere that takes more than thirty minutes to get there drives me nuts.  I usually take it out on my iPod and listen to the first minute of every song on shuffle.  I'm going to try audiobooks this time. 

Ideally, I'd like to be able to do the return drive without guzzling tons of coffee compulsively, or smoking half a pack of cigarettes (I'm not even a full-time smoker, but driving makes me want to smoke!)  

**TL;DR** Any of you guys hate long car trips?  What do you do to keep from completely spazzing out?",adhd,know dear folk adhd driving long distance along make absolutely crawl skin yesterday started also easy task might understand turned ten hour drive home sf best friend place sd hate keep sane tedious highway living san francisco hardly ever usually happily occupied ride bus train however anywhere take thirty minute get nut ipod listen first every song shuffle going try audiobooks time ideally like able return without guzzling ton coffee compulsively smoking half pack cigarette even full smoker want smoke tl dr guy car trip completely spazzing,0.18,Moderately Positive
"Finished the way of the superior man. Great book! 

Connecting this theory to people with ADHD and ENTP's (I believe that ENTP'S and ADHD is the same thing), and so if we pull apart the Myer Brigs ENTP personality model, it seems like ADHD males have multiple femanine traits:

1) Intuition 
2) Perceiving 

And one strong male trait: 

3) Thinking instead of feeling (ENTP/ADHD) 

ADHD/ENTP'S feel strongly, but we can't regulate feelings well, our strengh is thinking. We are disorganised, forgetful, spontaneous, innovative, intelligent, powerful thinkers. 

That's why we get so stuck sometimes when emotions come into play. 

Anyways, I'm wondering how many males with ADHD had distant relationships with their dads? My dad was always working and innattentive and I was much closer with my mum growing up. At school, I had male friends, but enjoyed hanging out with the females, too. I was not a jock. 

Actually, perhaps because of these femanine traits, I often get along better with females than I do males, I'm never lost for words with females, while I am often more uncomfortable around males. 

I remain masculine and have the ability to slice through emotion with  pure logic/dominant masculine thinking, but I can also work with, and create emotion, art and science. Masculine and feminine energies. 

Thoughts on the above? What's your experience? Please share.. ",adhd,finished way superior man great book connecting theory people adhd entp believe thing pull apart myer brig personality model seems like male multiple femanine trait intuition perceiving one strong thinking instead feeling feel strongly regulate well strengh disorganised forgetful spontaneous innovative intelligent powerful thinker get stuck sometimes emotion come play anyways wondering many distant relationship dad always working innattentive much closer mum growing school friend enjoyed hanging female jock actually perhaps often along better never lost word uncomfortable around remain masculine ability slice pure logic dominant also work create art science feminine energy thought experience please share,0.28,Moderately Positive
"I up at 7, and go to bed at 11. How late is the latest I should take my adderall before it affects my sleep? Asking because I should be staying a prescription for Adderall for the first time at about 10:30 today, I'll probably have it in my hand by 12 but I'm assuming that would be way too late to take it. Thanks!",adhd,go bed late latest take adderall affect sleep asking staying prescription first time today probably hand assuming would way thanks,0.16,Moderately Positive
"**Warning:** Even I barely have the attention span to read this post, and I wrote it. I tried to break it up with ***~~EXCESSIVE FORMATTING.~~*** I don't think I succeeded.

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I've spent my whole life wondering why I procrastinate on things I enjoy doing. I think I've figured it out, and it's really fucking stupid.

Intellectually, I know that the future is a real thing. There is, in fact, a time other than now. I *know* that. But I don't *believe* it. 

My brain thinks time is a myth and there's no such thing as tomorrow. No matter how many times tomorrow comes, it refuses to believe that it will happen again. It's like I think the world is going to end in 15 minutes.

And if the future doesn't exist, future happiness can't exist either. I should be writing right now. I enjoy writing. But I'm not currently writing, so the happiness I would derive from writing is obviously fake. ~*Obviously*~.

I do this shit with everything. Writing, reading, talking to friends, going to the gym, throwing the ball for my dog, even playing a fucking video game. I like all those things, but at this precise moment I'm not experiencing pleasure derived from them, so it clearly can't be real. 

Instant gratification is the only gratification I understand. If it doesn't make me happy in the next .04 seconds, it's never going to, right?

That's why I spend hours dicking around on the internet. I'd enjoy going to the gym more than clicking on a link, but I enjoy the link *instantly*. There would be at least 5 minutes between getting out of my chair and enjoying the gym, and my brain can't comprehend that those 5 minutes will actually pass.

**Having ADHD is like being handcuffed to a moron who is also a heavyweight boxing champion.**

* You can tell him to go the ice cream shop. 

* You can give him directions. 

* You can explain that he is dragging you both toward a pit of cottonmouths and starving hyenas. 

* You can show him a PowerPoint presentation explaining in detail why the ice cream shop would be superior.

But it doesn't matter. He's too stupid to listen. If you want your sundae, you are going to have to overpower him. Good fucking luck.

**The medication helps, but it isn't a key to the handcuffs. It's a tranquilizer dart for the boxer.** I still have to drag his ass behind me whenever I go somewhere.

I hate this. I hate having to fistfight my ADHD every time I want to switch tasks. I hate having to explain that time is real, *SOMETHING I KNOW TO BE TRUE*, to my idiot brain every single day. I hate that my brain never believes me.

My inability to overcome inertia is probably the biggest problem in my life. I'm talking to a therapist, trying to figure out how to quit doing this bullshit, but I can't seem to make her even understand what the problem is. She'll tell me, ""Ask yourself why you're procrastinating. Pay attention to your thoughts and feelings when you do it.""

Motherfucker, *I've been doing that my entire life*. I ask myself why I'm not doing the things I want to be doing every. goddamn. day. And my brain just replies with a blue screen of death, or 10,000 question marks, or TV static. The closest thing I've gotten to a real answer is ""the future is fake, the things I enjoy are in the future, so they're also fake.""

I've tried to explain that to her. But she can't understand how I, the conscious person, and my brain, the subconscious asshole who's actually got the reins, can disagree on something. She doesn't get the difference between *knowing* and *believing*. 

And I don't get why she doesn't get it. Hasn't she ever had to fight a part of herself? Do normal people never feel like their brain is a separate entity that they have to fight for control? The constant struggle between your innate-but-baseless beliefs and your rationality seems like such a fundamental part of being a person. Is it really not a thing for her, or am I just explaining it poorly?

The part of me that tells me ""the future isn't real"" is the same part of me that screams ""YOU'RE GONNA DIE"" every time I see a moth. Both statements are wrong, and I know full well they're wrong, but that doesn't change anything. My heart rate still triples like the moth is an acid-spitting honey badger. I still fuck around like I'm frozen in time.

I've been banging my head against this wall my entire goddamn life and made minimal progress. I don't think I'm making any progress now. I have no idea where to even start.

I guess the moral of this rambling bitchfest is that ADHD is really, really dumb.

---

**TL;DR**: My ADHD thinks the future is fake. I know the future is real, but I'm not in charge. I can't get started on things I enjoy because the enjoyment is in the future, which doesn't exist to me. The fuck am I supposed to do?",adhd,warning even barely attention span read post wrote tried break excessive formatting think succeeded spent whole life wondering procrastinate thing enjoy figured really fucking stupid intellectually know future real fact time believe brain myth tomorrow matter many come refuse happen like world going end minute exist happiness either writing right currently would derive obviously fake shit everything reading talking friend gym throwing ball dog playing video game precise moment experiencing pleasure derived clearly instant gratification understand make happy next second never spend hour dicking around internet clicking link instantly least getting chair enjoying comprehend actually pas adhd handcuffed moron also heavyweight boxing champion tell go ice cream shop give direction explain dragging toward pit cottonmouth starving hyena show powerpoint presentation explaining detail superior listen want sundae overpower good luck medication help key handcuff tranquilizer dart boxer still drag as behind whenever somewhere hate fistfight every switch task something true idiot single day belief inability overcome inertia probably biggest problem therapist trying figure quit bullshit seem ask procrastinating pay thought feeling motherfucker entire goddamn reply blue screen death question mark tv static closest gotten answer conscious person subconscious asshole got rein disagree get difference knowing believing ever fight part normal people feel separate entity control constant struggle innate baseless rationality seems fundamental poorly scream gonna die see moth statement wrong full well change anything heart rate triple acid spitting honey badger fuck frozen banging head wall made minimal progress making idea start guess moral rambling bitchfest dumb tl dr charge started enjoyment supposed,0.0,Neutral
"I just got back from an evaluation session at a ADHD clinic. I started to feel really depressed because all the questions asked about me were all negative. It made me feel worthless. However, I realize it’s all in my mind. If I think positive, I feel better! 

I always knew this to be true in the past. But after feeling really negative. I forced myself to think positively and I feel much better.",adhd,got back evaluation session adhd clinic started feel really depressed question asked negative made worthless however realize mind think positive better always knew true past feeling forced positively much,-0.02,Neutral
"Hey 

So tomorrow I'm due to have a DIVA telephone assessment with a nurse in regards to ADHD diagnosis. Apparently, I'll be asked questions about my behaviour in childhood and adulthood. I'm actually looking forward to because I literally have everything written down and ready to unleash it tomorrow.

Has anyone had a telephone assessment before? I know they can't actually diagnose over the phone, but what can I expect apart from the obvious? After this, I assume they'll refer me to a psychiatrist for a proper assessment. ",adhd,hey tomorrow due diva telephone assessment nurse regard adhd diagnosis apparently asked question behaviour childhood adulthood actually looking forward literally everything written ready unleash anyone know diagnose phone expect apart obvious assume refer psychiatrist proper,0.02,Neutral
"I recently quit a fast paced / high stress job with lots of autonomy and travel. The job was unsustainable for me - for several reasons. My Adhd was one. 

I landed in a job with another organization. Great work life balance, less responsibility and pressure, but it's an office job. I have to sit at a desk for 8 hours a day! How tf do I manage that??? After 2 days of it I am feeling a depression coming on. 

I am trying to get up and walk around frequently. 

Anyone here successfully adjusted to the office lifestyle? Right now it feels impossible. Hopefully I can make it work.....! ",adhd,recently quit fast paced high stress job lot autonomy travel unsustainable several reason adhd one landed another organization great work life balance le responsibility pressure office sit desk hour day tf manage feeling depression coming trying get walk around frequently anyone successfully adjusted lifestyle right feel impossible hopefully make,0.18,Moderately Positive
"I am having trouble being a fully functioning adult at the age of 32. I have lots of ideas around starting to actually cook, quit smoking, and pick up running again. And maybe read or do other things besides Netflix and video games. I come home from work with the best intentions, but I typically smoke up a bit and find myself having done absolutely nothing for 4 hours on the couch. 
The pot is a factor, absolutely, but it isn't always a factor. I have a ton of things I want to do, but can't seem to get myself motivated. Especially quitting smoking!

Any ideas???

Update: well I was way more productive this week! I mailed something that was in my purse for a week, did other important errands and managed to clean done of the house and walk the dogs a few times! I think the external motivation from making this post was also very helpful - maybe we should start a sponsor type thing like they do in AA/NA! Thanks for all the support friends!",adhd,trouble fully functioning adult age lot idea around starting actually cook quit smoking pick running maybe read thing besides netflix video game come home work best intention typically smoke bit find done absolutely nothing hour couch pot factor always ton want seem get motivated especially quitting update well way productive week mailed something purse important errand managed clean house walk dog time think external motivation making post also helpful start sponsor type like aa na thanks support friend,0.12,Moderately Positive
"Hey everyone, I am currently in the process of being diagnosed (sort of, my psychiatrist is currently treating depression and anxiety but is going to look into ADHD if my focus does not improve soon -- and it is not improving) and a lot of realizations are clicking into place. 

One thing that I always felt self-conscious about was my inability to retain details about stories weeks or days after I had read them. I can get into and follow a story perfectly fine (so long as I don't take a long break), but no matter how much I enjoy it, if you were to ask me details about the plot or even what the characters names were a few weeks later there is at least a 50% I wouldn't know. I could tell you the overall feeling of the story and themes, if there is romance and if there is a twist and how it made me feel etc., but the rest disappears or is there but inaccessible. Sometimes I can recall specific details about characters and specific sub-plots if I'm prompted with names and settings, but not always. It's also the same with movies, and all stories really. I am there and can be involved and deeply analytical in the moment but I won't be able to retain anything past a few weeks. Naturally I also don't get references (quotes, inside jokes, etc.) very often.

My best friend and one of my girlfriends are both heavily into reading and watching movies then deconstructing them, so I often feel self-conscious because I cannot delve into rich conversations about the stories we both love without them leading the entire conversation most of the time. I feel dumb even though at the time I'm reading it I can have pretty rich insight. Consequentially I prefer to read/watch things after they've already read/watched it and fangirl with them over it as I experience it.

I've read a lot of posts about people with ADHD who deal with brain fog and was wondering if it takes this form for anyone else, and if treatment was able to help.",adhd,hey everyone currently process diagnosed sort psychiatrist treating depression anxiety going look adhd focus improve soon improving lot realization clicking place one thing always felt self conscious inability retain detail story week day read get follow perfectly fine long take break matter much enjoy ask plot even character name later least know could tell overall feeling theme romance twist made feel etc rest disappears inaccessible sometimes recall specific sub prompted setting also movie really involved deeply analytical moment able anything past naturally reference quote inside joke often best friend girlfriend heavily reading watching deconstructing cannot delve rich conversation love without leading entire time dumb though pretty insight consequentially prefer watch already watched fangirl experience post people deal brain fog wondering form anyone else treatment help,0.13,Moderately Positive
"Hello. I'm 18yo ADHD-C from Lithuania. To be short:
I was on Ritalin modified release (5-7h) for a month  while In Norway. My effects were vanishing after 4h. Dose: 40mg once in the morning.
Now in Lithuania I have Medikinet XL (8-10h) 
It lasts me for about 4-5h. Dose: 10mg once in the morning.
It has a spike of euphoria on the first couple hours. Both of those had it.

**The release time is a lot shorter than it should be.** I will talk about this with my psych after a month.

Well, there are no alternatives apart Strattera which is not really affordable (150$ with 700$ montly minimum wage, for economic comparison).
I may have an opportunity to try other release mechanisms such as Concerta but what I mean methylphenidate is the only available stimulant. (And it's very strictly regulated, even the prescription lasts only for 5 days and you are carefully examined at the pharmacy when buying it)

Not asking for a medical advice, as understandably I cannot do that here in /r/ADHD, since we are not doctors.

Just wondering, anybody relating to this? I have reflux when I eat too much. I take meal with the meds. I try to minimize sugar intake as well (educated about keto). 

Maybe I should manage my meals somehow? 

Excuse me if I sound douche, this post is not structurized properly.
Just write down your thoughts, perhaps I'm not searching for a specific answer but I love this subreddit and what kind of marvelous thoughts it generates. 

*(Wow that wasn't short at all)*",adhd,hello yo adhd lithuania short ritalin modified release month norway effect vanishing dose mg morning medikinet xl last spike euphoria first couple hour time lot shorter talk psych well alternative apart strattera really affordable montly minimum wage economic comparison may opportunity try mechanism concerta mean methylphenidate available stimulant strictly regulated even prescription day carefully examined pharmacy buying asking medical advice understandably cannot since doctor wondering anybody relating reflux eat much take meal med minimize sugar intake educated keto maybe manage somehow excuse sound douche post structurized properly write thought perhaps searching specific answer love subreddit kind marvelous generates wow,0.19,Moderately Positive
"I feel so terrible because I worked 7 years towards my degree in neurobiology :(
I guess the silver lining is that I double majored so at least I get to go to the other ceremony for my second major tomorrow",adhd,feel terrible worked year towards degree neurobiology guess silver lining double majored least get go ceremony second major tomorrow,-0.25,Moderately Negative
"[Link to article](https://mobile.nytimes.com/2009/12/10/fashion/10SPY.html?referer=)

I deal with this problem quite frequently. When I do bother to read, it takes me forever to do so now. I get exhausted with having to focus so much or become distracted. I haven't tried deep reading since being on meds out of fear. All of this is unfortunate and embarrassing because I'm an English major who's graduating soon. I also used to **love** reading. It's a miracle of bullshit and workarounds I'm graduating with the grades that I have. Today, I think I'll try a tip discussed in the article about finding the right format to read. I found my Nook to be a good match for me last time I deeply read (that was literally a year ago tho). Back then, reading in designated chunks helped. Just had to make sure I stayed on schedule. Schedules and I didn't get along that well tho back then. And the reading in chunks... Didn't help a lot, but helped some. Haha.

What methods do y'all use to ""deep read""? Do you have any advice you'd like to share?",adhd,link article deal problem quite frequently bother read take forever get exhausted focus much become distracted tried deep reading since med fear unfortunate embarrassing english major graduating soon also used love miracle bullshit workarounds grade today think try tip discussed finding right format found nook good match last time deeply literally year ago tho back designated chunk helped make sure stayed schedule along well help lot haha method use advice like share,0.11,Moderately Positive
"i was diagnosed with ADHD as a kid, i think i was around 6, and im not sure if i still have it. im not as hyperactive as i used to be, and i also am doing quite well academically. is it something that can go away over time? im not on any medication, i tried it when i was around 9 and it didnt help (made me feel very drowsy and out of it) ive been reading stuff on this subreddit and i feel like i have some of the symptoms but im not sure.  ",adhd,diagnosed adhd kid think around im sure still hyperactive used also quite well academically something go away time medication tried didnt help made feel drowsy ive reading stuff subreddit like symptom,0.5,Positive
"This is for those **already** diagnosed and prescribed. Also, only referring to psychiatrists; not family doctors.

**Pattern Based on Location?**

I'm probably seeing a false pattern. But, curious if any of you have seen the following pattern:

**Urban** psychiatrists = Most knowledgeable. Most willing to prescribe meds. But, overworked, and little time for questions. 

**Rural** psychiatrists = Less knowledgeable. Believes ADHD isn't that bad. But, have plenty of time to discuss any questions. And is willing to prescribe older meds ( aka Adderall before Concerta ).

**University Student Medical Center** psychiatrists = Most overworked. Gives least amount of time. They know ADHD is real, but are most hostile to ADHD, even if patient has been treated for years. Least likely to prescribe meds and/or increase dosage. ",adhd,already diagnosed prescribed also referring psychiatrist family doctor pattern based location probably seeing false curious seen following urban knowledgeable willing prescribe med overworked little time question rural le belief adhd bad plenty discus older aka adderall concerta university student medical center give least amount know real hostile even patient treated year likely increase dosage,-0.08,Moderately Negative
"I'm sort of lost..

After a psychologist's report that said I didn't have ADHD, I got referred to a psychiatrist for depression.

After I mentioned that I didn't feel depressed all the time, and that I felt like ADHD makes more sense. After about 15-20 minutes, he wanted to prescribe medications because I displayed massive procrastination, distractedness, fidgeting... He also said I didn't have ""ADHD"", but just a lot of the symptoms. It was rather shocking to me because it happened so quickly. I was expecting something longer that practically went over my entire life to try to figure it out...

He gave me Focalin XR for 30 days. First day was really weird. I felt like.. maybe zombie-ish for 5 hours, after which I was as hyperactive and daydreamy as ever (perhaps more?). I thought it wore off, but then at the 12 hour mark, I had palpitations and insomnia and such. This scared me away for about a week. After I started taking it again, I didn't feel any of these things, but I also didn't feel like it helped any of the ADHD-like things very much. The one exception is that after I took it in the morning as my alarm went off, it's almost trivial to get up 30-45 minutes later (whereas before, it was absolutely impossible). I also wasn't able to fall asleep again like I usually do, which doesn't make much sense because the pill probably hasn't had time to dissolve or whatever yet.

So I'm thinking of finding a new psychiatrist because this 30-minute appointment seemed irresponsibly fast to diagnose me (or rather, not diagnose me?). Another issue is that I don't really care about meds. I just want to know whether it was ADHD holding me back all these years.

I'm still somewhat at an identity crisis with that. The psychological report said I don't have it, but I find my scores rather odd. I took two intelligence tests. One scored me at 127 (not administered face-to-face, was via computer) and the other at 109 (through the psych). However, from the WAIS, my working memory was 102, and my processing speed was 89. However, my other tests seemed to go okay. The Connors Continuous Performance Test said everything was average except for one score of impulsive on one part. The final conclusion was that attention-demanding tasks were my worst scores but not deficient enough to be disorder-level.

But I still have all these issues. Looking back on my transcript, so many of just my good grades were borderline, only low As because I either did near-perfect on tests or made up a bunch of work at the last second. And chronic tardiness to school because of issues getting up have plagued me since 8th grade and have gotten me detentions, failing grades, and in-school suspensions. And (usually in private) I daydream constantly, and if I get too lost in that, I'm running around and jumping on things and not even aware of it. And I fidget a lot (tap my leg, play with my shirt or some fabric, etc.)

But then when I see someone else mention that they procrastinated the entire night or keep hitting snooze, or see someone tapping their foot, I get discouraged and think that maybe I'm just normal and failed all this time because of my own willpower or whatever. It's getting tiring not having a yes or no diagnosis..

(Well that was a rather long and scattered post...)
tl;dr: I don't have ADHD. I got meds. I still think I have it. But what if I'm just regular? And how do I figure it out when the process of going from doctor to doctor is taking so long? :(",adhd,sort lost psychologist report said adhd got referred psychiatrist depression mentioned feel depressed time felt like make sense minute wanted prescribe medication displayed massive procrastination distractedness fidgeting also lot symptom rather shocking happened quickly expecting something longer practically went entire life try figure gave focalin xr day first really weird maybe zombie ish hour hyperactive daydreamy ever perhaps thought wore mark palpitation insomnia scared away week started taking thing helped much one exception took morning alarm almost trivial get later whereas absolutely impossible able fall asleep usually pill probably dissolve whatever yet thinking finding new appointment seemed irresponsibly fast diagnose another issue care med want know whether holding back year still somewhat identity crisis psychological find score odd two intelligence test scored administered face via computer psych however wais working memory processing speed go okay connors continuous performance everything average except impulsive part final conclusion attention demanding task worst deficient enough disorder level looking transcript many good grade borderline low either near perfect made bunch work last second chronic tardiness school getting plagued since th gotten detention failing suspension private daydream constantly running around jumping even aware fidget tap leg play shirt fabric etc see someone else mention procrastinated night keep hitting snooze tapping foot discouraged think normal failed willpower tiring yes diagnosis well long scattered post tl dr regular process going doctor,0.0,Neutral
"All while I was supposed to be working on a project. Good fucking job, Noah.",adhd,supposed working project good fucking job noah,0.05,Moderately Positive
"I'd just like to know what's wrong with me. I'm laying in bed at the moment having skipped class for the 12th day in a row. Attendance is a part of our final grade and even though i've gotten above a 95% on all of my papers for the semester (all were turned in late) my grade is a C- because I never show up. It's not that i don't care or even that I don't want to go- I actually really enjoy the class and really like the professor, but every single day I find some way to rationalize not going because I just never feel like going in the morning. 
Today I was supposed to give a speech in class but didn't go because in the 3 weeks since it was assigned i didn't write down one word- but it's not for a lack of trying. I've sat down at my laptop every day with the intention of writing something or at least brainstorming, but I never do. Last night i got off work at 9 PM and immediately went home to finally write it, but instead i picked all the dead leaves off the plants in my room and cleaned my bathroom. I decided i can't focus when i'm at home so i decided to walk to the school library where there'd be fewer distractions. It's about a 10 minute walk from my apartment but i turned it into a 45 minute walk around town - just because I felt like it. When i got to the library I spent 30 minutes reading a book i've been working on instead of writing my paper - just because I felt like it. . Then I finally focused for a while and made an outline, just to decide that I didn't like it and delete the whole thing. After that I left the library and climbed a tree, took another walk, decided to mess around on the garageband app for a while, and ordered some new books on amazon - all because I felt like it. Then i went to a friends house to smoke, went home and cooked a meal at 4:30 AM, cleaned my room, looked out my window at the sunrise for about 20 minutes, and took a bath - all just because I felt like it. 

By the time class rolled around I had stayed up all night to write this speech and hadn't written a single word. This happens all of the time. Pretty much every assignment i've ever turned in has been turned in late. It's as if my brain has no sense of long term planning or impulse control. I cannot force myself to ever do anything that I don't want to do. I thought social media was distracting me so i deactivated all of my accounts for 2 weeks. Not a thing changed, I just found new ways to waste time. Last month my rent was 15 days late, not because i didn't have the money but because i never took the time to go to the bank and reorder checks because I never felt like it. 
It seems like my life is falling apart but it's 100% my fault and I'll admit that. To an outsider it just looks like i'm lazy and don't care, and it makes me feel stupid. I do care and I'm not lazy, and I really am trying my best, but at the end of the day I just cannot do anything that doesn't immediately stimulate me and because of that I can never achieve anything and my life is falling apart. 

Constantly feeling behind in life because of my inability to control my impulses has made me incredibly anxious. In fact I lost my last job in June because I never showed up because I was too anxious to come in. I've also been struggling with depression for about 8 months. I've also had a circadian rhythm disorder my whole life that makes it hard for me to go to sleep and wake up on time, and i've bitten my nails since kindergarten. 

I've been drinking matcha tea which usually helps slow my thoughts down and gives me energy, but it doesn't do anything for my impulse control and it doesn't make it any easier to focus on things that i don't find interesting- like my paper. My doctor wants me to go back on stims and when taken as prescribed stims really help me. The issue is that I can't seem to take them as prescribed. The last time I was on stims I snorted a month's worth of adderall in about a week, and then when I was switched to ritalin as a trial run I stayed up for 3 days straight snorting that. That's when I decided I couldn't be on stims and have the temptation around. 

I know this all sounds stupid. But please don't tell me ""just don't snort your mess"", ""just go to class"", ""just go to the bank and get new checks"", ""just sit down and write your paper"". I hear it from parents and counselors and friends and professors. It's not that easy. I am trying, but I can't. Does anyone else have this issue? ",adhd,like know wrong laying bed moment skipped class th day row attendance part final grade even though gotten paper semester turned late never show care want go actually really enjoy professor every single find way rationalize going feel morning today supposed give speech week since assigned write one word lack trying sat laptop intention writing something least brainstorming last night got work pm immediately went home finally instead picked dead leaf plant room cleaned bathroom decided focus walk school library fewer distraction minute apartment around town felt spent reading book working focused made outline decide delete whole thing left climbed tree took another mess garageband app ordered new amazon friend house smoke cooked meal looked window sunrise bath time rolled stayed written happens pretty much assignment ever brain sense long term planning impulse control cannot force anything thought social medium distracting deactivated account changed found waste month rent money bank reorder check seems life falling apart fault admit outsider look lazy make stupid best end stimulate achieve constantly feeling behind inability incredibly anxious fact lost job june showed come also struggling depression circadian rhythm disorder hard sleep wake bitten nail kindergarten drinking matcha tea usually help slow energy easier interesting doctor back stims taken prescribed issue seem take snorted worth adderall switched ritalin trial run straight snorting temptation sound please tell snort get sit hear parent counselor easy anyone else,-0.01,Neutral
"To start of im a 17 year old boy and i have been suffering from OCD for quite a while so i am currently taking 40mg of Prozac and just stopped taking .5mg of Risperidone. I just got diagnosed with ADD yesterday, (which to me was no surprise) so the doctor prescribed me 25mg of Vyvanse and i just took my first dose today. It helped me focus a great deal, but also made me very jittery. I also had a noticeable loss of appetite, but that isn't something that concerns me.  


So what should i expect these coming weeks? I noticed that Vyvanse takes away a lot of social anxiety as well as OCD which to me was awesome because the Prozac doesn't have any noticeable effects. 

How has Vyvanse worked for you? 

Any informative feedback welcome. 

TL;DR 17 year old boy, diagnosed with ADD taking 25mg Vyvanse. What should i expect? What is your experience/benefits from this medication? Thanks",adhd,start im year old boy suffering ocd quite currently taking mg prozac stopped risperidone got diagnosed add yesterday surprise doctor prescribed vyvanse took first dose today helped focus great deal also made jittery noticeable loss appetite something concern expect coming week noticed take away lot social anxiety well awesome effect worked informative feedback welcome tl dr experience benefit medication thanks,0.4,Moderately Positive
"So this semester I took two online classes because A) I knew I'd be moving in the middle of the school year and B) I couldn't wake up on time for any of my classes last semester and had terrible attendance.


I was reluctant at first because I'm terrible when it comes to self-discipline and forcing myself to sit down and do things on my own. I bought a planner, filled in when everything was due at the beginning of the semester and when it came time for my first quiz.... I could open up my book and look for the answers while I was taking it. Midterm time came around, and I was googling answers while flipping through my book at the same time. Same thing for finals. I got an A in both of my classes and I don't think I've received an A since elementary school.


I'm 30 and I've been trying to graduate for over 10 years now. Yes, I know it's technically cheating, but if this is how all online classes work I think I might actually see a light at the end of the tunnel now. Has anyone else done online classes? What was your experience? ",adhd,semester took two online class knew moving middle school year wake time last terrible attendance reluctant first come self discipline forcing sit thing bought planner filled everything due beginning came quiz could open book look answer taking midterm around googling flipping final got think received since elementary trying graduate yes know technically cheating work might actually see light end tunnel anyone else done experience,0.02,Neutral
"Hello,

I'm 37 years old and recently diagnosed with adhd, I'm not sure how severe but I have some questions and experience with being newer to the drugs.

I did a week trial of dex 10mg and the week after 20mg, it definately mellowed me out but I felt its time was short... took the edge off everything, I felt better... not as intense.  Now I've been almost a week on methhylphenidate 20mg and it's a stark difference.  I'm more intense but focused.  I'm arguing with my wife and kids more, they've noticed a difference in a bad direction.

My questions are

* generally, am I just this person?  I'm concerned as I love my family and it kind of terrifies me I'm that much of a jerk.

* dex is while nice, i've heard it can stop working, my thought is I was moved onto the methyl as it might have the same effect but last longer and have no ""drop off"" effect where my body gets used to it?  

* those of you that have been on the same kind of trial or more experience would adderall be a better alternative?

I'm not looking for drugs to ""change"" me but I simply don't like myself on the Methylphenidate.

I am seeing my doctor today to discuss, but I feel if I talk about this stuff it can help so I can start changing how I react to things in a positive way, and exercise to focus and help family more.

If it matters, I poor a huge amount of energy at work, I make lists and I am in charge all times I am there, I find when I get home that focus is gone leaving my poor wife to do most of the work, I do help but I just can't think of the things that need to be done.  My biggest concern is, can this be learned behaviour.. if so I need to move to break it, I do not find this acceptable.

thank you for your time.",adhd,hello year old recently diagnosed adhd sure severe question experience newer drug week trial dex mg definately mellowed felt time short took edge everything better intense almost methhylphenidate stark difference focused arguing wife kid noticed bad direction generally person concerned love family kind terrifies much jerk nice heard stop working thought moved onto methyl might effect last longer drop body get used would adderall alternative looking change simply like methylphenidate seeing doctor today discus feel talk stuff help start changing react thing positive way exercise focus matter poor huge amount energy work make list charge find home gone leaving think need done biggest concern learned behaviour move break acceptable thank,0.14,Moderately Positive
"So a while back I was researching good jobs for people with adhd, and I noticed a trend on almost every list I looked at. Almost every job on every list said ""with proper medication"" or something along those lines. Like no shit, I can function normally while heavily medicated? Grass is green? water is wet? Anyway, sorry for the rant.

So long story short, what are some good career choices for someone with ADHD that don't require medication. ",adhd,back researching good job people adhd noticed trend almost every list looked said proper medication something along line like shit function normally heavily medicated grass green water wet anyway sorry rant long story short career choice someone require,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"**I just got back from my first therapy session.**

We get free access to psychology services through my work, so I booked one as lately I’ve been feeling like I have no idea who I am or what I want, and it’s been causing me some sort of strange mental distress.

She was aware of my ADHD as I wrote in the referral email that I had it and I wanted to figure out how to deal with it post diagnosis and how to deal with the constant emotional rollercoaster I seem to create within myself, and the effect this has on my fiancé.
So I went to my session.

I was meant to make a list of things to discuss as I had all this stuff running through my head the past week, but obviously I didn’t make a list. So of course when I got to my session I was stumbling around between a million different things trying to articulate to the lady why I was even there!

**This is what I ended up blurting out, in no logical order.**

It is a painful reality to know that your problem is ADHD, but not being able to understand what it is that needs to be addressed to fix this problem. Because you know it can’t be fixed. Not fully, and not ever. This has been putting me in a spiral recently! I’ll take my meds during the day and be able to get through work (mostly) like is expected of me. But then when my meds wear off at around 4pm I feel insane. It feels like medication places a gate on my brain and all the usual shit that floods in just doesn’t anymore. And I can breathe knowing that I’ve got this for 6.5 hours. But then it wears off and that gate blows open and my brain is like, “I’m back motherfucker!”. 


But I don’t really want to be back. I don’t want to feel like I’m insane, that I can’t articulate my thoughts in a way that makes sense to me or others, I don’t want to lay on my bed and browse reddit for hours knowing full well that I have other things that I WANT to do, but just can’t seem to do. I don’t want to feel like I never have anything solid to stand on and that I’m CONSTANTLY trying to stay afloat in a world that doesn’t work well for me. I’m sick of trying to pave my own way but stumble around endlessly because I never thought to make a plan. I’m sick of having no idea what fun looks like because I’m unable to do something long enough to actually enjoy it. I hate that my brain lights up like a firecracker when I’m trying to sleep and that my person who loves me isn’t able to keep up or make sense of where the heck my head is at. I’m sick of not knowing where my head is at and overwhelming everyone close to me by blurting out things with no context or reason.

**I can’t seem to accept the fact that my brain is always going to be like this, and that medication is helpful but it’s not a fix.**

It hurts to look at my therapist and feel like she is getting overwhelmed just by being around me and trying to make sense of my head. To know that the strategies she gave me were given with best intentions, and to predict the outcome of my attempts to implement them in my life and know that I’ll fail.


The session is over.


I feel like I’ve confused myself more by attempting to make sense of the way I am. Every “mmm hmm” she made in a response to my illogical rambling felt like it hurt more each time. 
I want to be a better person, to be dependable to my fiancé, to remember my friend’s birthdays, and to be able to think clearly without being flooded by a million things that don’t ever ask to enter my thoughts. But it feels like my brain is divided into medicated/un-medicated and that those divisions are constantly at war!


I don’t know what I need, or how I feel.


But this has made me feel better than my therapy session did. Which is frustrating because I don’t want to host my own pity party.
Anyway, I’m done now.


***TLDR; Went to a therapist, walked out feeling like shit. Struggling to find solitude within myself.***
",adhd,got back first therapy session get free access psychology service work booked one lately feeling like idea want causing sort strange mental distress aware adhd wrote referral email wanted figure deal post diagnosis constant emotional rollercoaster seem create within effect fianc went meant make list thing discus stuff running head past week obviously course stumbling around million different trying articulate lady even ended blurting logical order painful reality know problem able understand need addressed fix fixed fully ever putting spiral recently take med day mostly expected wear pm feel insane medication place gate brain usual shit flood anymore breathe knowing hour blow open motherfucker really thought way sense others lay bed browse reddit full well never anything solid stand constantly stay afloat world sick pave stumble endlessly plan fun look unable something long enough actually enjoy hate light firecracker sleep person love keep heck overwhelming everyone close context reason accept fact always going helpful hurt therapist getting overwhelmed strategy gave given best intention predict outcome attempt implement life fail confused attempting every mmm hmm made response illogical rambling felt time better dependable remember friend birthday think clearly without flooded ask enter divided medicated un division war frustrating host pity party anyway done tldr walked struggling find solitude,-0.01,Neutral
"I've just watched a video on YouTube called ""The Secret to Self-Motivation"" by Mel Robbins.  This may be the single most useful video that I have ever seen.  It details a method for eliminating procrastination.
",adhd,watched video youtube called secret self motivation mel robbins may single useful ever seen detail method eliminating procrastination,-0.06,Moderately Negative
"I found my insurance wants prior authorization from my Dr for 10mg Vyvanse last week. I come in Monday for neuro cog testing and the tech/assistant/guy in scrubs told me since a few people quit (wtf, that much turnover lol) that it would be a month til they would get to me. I asked him if he could expedite this and he said he'd try and call that day.

I think a month is excessive. Gonna give it a day and call on Wednesday and ask if they called. The thing is I don't want to seem like a drug seeking weirdo. Has anyone had experience dealing with this type of situation? ",adhd,found insurance want prior authorization dr mg vyvanse last week come monday neuro cog testing tech assistant guy scrub told since people quit wtf much turnover lol would month til get asked could expedite said try call day think excessive gonna give wednesday ask called thing seem like drug seeking weirdo anyone experience dealing type situation,0.04,Neutral
"Last month I was leaving my driveway when I remembered something I needed to get from the house. I hopped out of my car and watched in horror as it slowly rolled into my husband's car. I had forgotten to put it in park. 

A few weeks ago I was backing out of a parking space and hit the parked car beside me. A woman was loading her groceries in the trunk. I was staring right at her car and did not see it. I would have sworn up and down that there was no car there. At first I thought she must have been backing out too, then saw she had been loading groceries. 

These are the main reasons I'm going to get adhd testing next month. Luckily, I am a sahm, so I don't have to drive often. In the meantime, what strategies have helped you to pay more attention while driving? My husband is constantly telling me to pay attention and I have never found that to be helpful advice. It's like, I don't know what I'm not doing, or else I would have changed it by now. 

**edit** I want to add that I am almost 30 and have only been in two other accidents, so this is not a common occurrence, but these two incidents being close together was a wake up call for me. ",adhd,last month leaving driveway remembered something needed get house hopped car watched horror slowly rolled husband forgotten put park week ago backing parking space hit parked beside woman loading grocery trunk staring right see would sworn first thought must saw main reason going adhd testing next luckily sahm drive often meantime strategy helped pay attention driving constantly telling never found helpful advice like know else changed edit want add almost two accident common occurrence incident close together wake call,0.05,Moderately Positive
"Fuck it was hard writing that. Despite knowing that I am not all the things I have been labelled/described as my entire life, its one thing to rationalize a medical condition that you have and the symptoms that come with it, its an entirely different thing to stop believing that I am somehow ""less"" than everyone else because of all the times as a child/teenager I was put down and punished for displaying signs of a disorder I didn't even know I had. (note I was diagnosed at about 20)",adhd,fuck hard writing despite knowing thing labelled described entire life one rationalize medical condition symptom come entirely different stop believing somehow le everyone else time child teenager put punished displaying sign disorder even know note diagnosed,-0.14,Moderately Negative
"After a divorce, I've lost touch with many of my mutual friends and feel socially isolated. How can I rebuild my social life and find companionship as a newly single person?",social isolation,divorce lost touch many mutual friend feel socially isolated rebuild social life find companionship newly single person,,
"As a caregiver for a sick family member, I've had to prioritize their needs over my own social life, leaving me feeling isolated and alone. How can I find support and maintain connections while caring for my loved one?",social isolation,caregiver sick family member prioritize need social life leaving feeling isolated alone find support maintain connection caring loved one,,
" Co-parenting is challenging, especially during holidays and special occasions. Navigating the new family dynamic feels awkward, and I miss having a partner to share these experiences with. The loneliness is especially harsh during these times.",social isolation,co parenting challenging especially holiday special occasion navigating new family dynamic feel awkward miss partner share experience loneliness harsh time,,
"Despite the illusion of connectivity, social media leaves me feeling more isolated than ever. The digital noise amplifies my loneliness, highlighting the stark contrast between virtual connections and real-life connections. I'm ready to confront this isolation and rebuild genuine relationships.",social isolation,despite illusion connectivity social medium leaf feeling isolated ever digital noise amplifies loneliness highlighting stark contrast virtual connection real life ready confront isolation rebuild genuine relationship,,
"Brunch used to be a delightful weekend ritual - catching up with friends over bottomless mimosas and fluffy pancakes. Now, watching groups clink glasses and share laughter makes me feel like a third wheel to someone else's happiness. How can I find ways to connect with friends who might be feeling similarly isolated, turning brunch into a haven for those seeking genuine connection?",social isolation,brunch used delightful weekend ritual catching friend bottomless mimosa fluffy pancake watching group clink glass share laughter make feel like third wheel someone else happiness find way connect might feeling similarly isolated turning seeking genuine connection,,
"The clinking of glasses and bursts of laughter from the neighboring table stab at my ears. I love a good Italian meal, but dining solo feels like a performance, me as the awkward audience member to a play I wasn't invited to. How can I overcome the fear of eating alone and embrace the public experience?",social isolation,clinking glass burst laughter neighboring table stab ear love good italian meal dining solo feel like performance awkward audience member play invited overcome fear eating alone embrace public experience,,
"I work in a big office and have a decent social circle, but I still feel incredibly alone most of the time.  Conversations feel superficial, and I don't feel like I truly connect with anyone.  Is this social isolation, or am I just imagining things?",social isolation,work big office decent social circle still feel incredibly alone time conversation superficial like truly connect anyone isolation imagining thing,,
"Over the past year, I've noticed that I've become increasingly socially isolated to the point where the only things I go outside for are work, the gym, grocery shopping, and walking the dog by myself - and I find myself doing exactly the same routine every day. As this has gone on, I don't really even speak to the 3 or 4 people I would sometimes chat with online any more. This has led to me becoming incredibly down and lonely, as I don't think it's normal to be so isolated at this age. Most of the people I used to be friends with have moved away with jobs, university, etc. and the closest one is almost 2 hours away. Is it possible to start building a social life from scratch at this age? If so, how do you begin, and get around being anxious talking to new people? I'm comfortable hanging out with 1 -3 people, but large gatherings can make me very uncomfortable.",social isolation,past year noticed become increasingly socially isolated point thing go outside work gym grocery shopping walking dog find exactly routine every day gone really even speak people would sometimes chat online led becoming incredibly lonely think normal age used friend moved away job university etc closest one almost hour possible start building social life scratch begin get around anxious talking new comfortable hanging large gathering make uncomfortable,,
"I often feel like I'm living in my own little bubble, disconnected from the world around me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like living little bubble disconnected world around,,
"Prayers for connection go unanswered, leaving a sense of helplessness and despair.  Is loneliness a burden to be endured, or can I take steps towards finding the human connection I crave?",social isolation,prayer connection go unanswered leaving sense helplessness despair loneliness burden endured take step towards finding human crave,,
I'm a teenager who feels isolated and misunderstood by my peers and family. How can I express myself authentically and find acceptance while navigating the challenges of adolescence?,social isolation,teenager feel isolated misunderstood peer family express authentically find acceptance navigating challenge adolescence,,
I'm a survivor of intimate partner violence who has severed ties with my abuser but struggles with feelings of isolation and fear. How can I rebuild my life and cultivate healthy relationships that empower me?,social isolation,survivor intimate partner violence severed tie abuser struggle feeling isolation fear rebuild life cultivate healthy relationship empower,,
"iam 28,female. I feel like I can't win on social media. You either have to be incredibly funny, perfectly fit, or traveling the world to get any attention. I post something, and it barely gets any likes, while my friends are racking up hundreds. It makes me feel insecure and inadequate.",social isolation,iam female feel like win social medium either incredibly funny perfectly fit traveling world get attention post something barely friend racking hundred make insecure inadequate,,
"With each tap and swipe, social media becomes a lonely echo chamber. I'm suffocating in a world of superficial interactions, yearning for genuine human connection. It's time to break free from this digital isolation and rediscover the beauty of authentic relationships",social isolation,tap swipe social medium becomes lonely echo chamber suffocating world superficial interaction yearning genuine human connection time break free digital isolation rediscover beauty authentic relationship,,
"Whenever I try to plan a group hangout, everyone seems to have an excuse not to come. I can't help but feel like they'd all rather just stay home and be on their phones.",social isolation,whenever try plan group hangout everyone seems excuse come help feel like rather stay home phone,,
"Scrolling through travel blogs filled with breathtaking landscapes and exotic experiences fuels wanderlust. But the idea of traveling solo feels daunting, the fear of being utterly alone in a new place overwhelming.  Can I conquer the fear and embark on a solo adventure, embracing the potential for unexpected connections?",social isolation,scrolling travel blog filled breathtaking landscape exotic experience fuel wanderlust idea traveling solo feel daunting fear utterly alone new place overwhelming conquer embark adventure embracing potential unexpected connection,,
I want to share my art on TikTok but feel intimidated by the competition. How can I overcome this fear?,social isolation,want share art tiktok feel intimidated competition overcome fear,,
I feel pressure to constantly update my LinkedIn profile with new skills and accomplishments.  It's exhausting trying to keep up with everyone else's online persona.  I'm worried about what people will think if my profile isn't constantly growing.,social isolation,feel pressure constantly update linkedin profile new skill accomplishment exhausting trying keep everyone else online persona worried people think growing,,
"Whenever I go to a party or event, everyone is just on their phones the whole time and no one is actually talking to each other. It makes me feel so awkward and lonely.",social isolation,whenever go party event everyone phone whole time one actually talking make feel awkward lonely,,
"I want to capture these special memories and connect with other moms, but I also want to be present and enjoy motherhood without the pressure of social media.  Can you help me find a healthy balance?  I want to embrace this time without feeling isolated or missing out.",social isolation,want capture special memory connect mom also present enjoy motherhood without pressure social medium help find healthy balance embrace time feeling isolated missing,,
"I used to be so involved in my school's sports teams and clubs, but now I just come home and mindlessly scroll on my phone instead. I feel like I've lost touch with that part of my life.",social isolation,used involved school sport team club come home mindlessly scroll phone instead feel like lost touch part life,,
"I feel like I'm a leaf in the wind, blown about with no direction.

 ",social isolation,feel like leaf wind blown direction,,
"I feel empty inside. Like I float from day to day, moment to moment. I don’t really feel anything anymore. Just this emptiness and hollowness in my chest, right on my heart. I feel cold when I look at people, and I feel nothing towards the things that used to bring me such joy. Will this last forever? Because this is not the forever I wish to have. I am numb. I have nothing left. Sometimes I feel a part of me reaching for the happiness I once knew deep down. But every time it escapes me, I feel the void deepen. How long will it be until I can feel something other than complete emptiness? I can’t take much more. Thanks for listening.",social isolation,feel empty inside like float day moment really anything anymore emptiness hollowness chest right heart cold look people nothing towards thing used bring joy last forever wish numb left sometimes part reaching happiness knew deep every time escape void deepen long something complete take much thanks listening,,
"I lack close relationships or friendships, feeling disconnected from others.

 ",social isolation,lack close relationship friendship feeling disconnected others,,
"As a survivor of trauma, I struggle with trust issues and find it hard to open up to others. How can I overcome my fear of vulnerability and build healthy relationships that alleviate feelings of isolation?",social isolation,survivor trauma struggle trust issue find hard open others overcome fear vulnerability build healthy relationship alleviate feeling isolation,,
"My phone screen, once a constant stream of notifications, lies dormant. Silence reigns, both from the device and within me.  Have I become numb to social interaction, or is this a conscious choice to seek solace in solitude?",social isolation,phone screen constant stream notification lie dormant silence reign device within become numb social interaction conscious choice seek solace solitude,,
I'm a member of a religious or cultural minority group that faces discrimination and ostracism from the larger community. How can I find solidarity and belonging within my own community while also challenging prejudice and intolerance?,social isolation,member religious cultural minority group face discrimination ostracism larger community find solidarity belonging within also challenging prejudice intolerance,,
"I often feel like I'm alone in the world, and I struggle to connect with those around me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like alone world struggle connect around,,
"I'm constantly worried about my online reputation and what my classmates are saying about me behind my back, it's causing me so much anxiety at school.",social isolation,constantly worried online reputation classmate saying behind back causing much anxiety school,,
"Everyone already has their established friend groups, . Joining a new college mid-semester feels like trying to fit into a puzzle that's already complete. There's always an awkward tension, and I haven't found anyone to fully connect with yet.",social isolation,everyone already established friend group joining new college mid semester feel like trying fit puzzle complete always awkward tension found anyone fully connect yet,,
"Feeling isolated can be a real struggle. Looking for some inspiration and hope. Anyone willing to share their stories of overcoming social isolation? What steps did you take, and what resources helped you?",social isolation,feeling isolated real struggle looking inspiration hope anyone willing share story overcoming social isolation step take resource helped,,
I'm a caregiver for a family member with a chronic illness and often feel isolated and overwhelmed by my responsibilities. How can I prioritize self-care and maintain social connections while balancing my caregiving duties?,social isolation,caregiver family member chronic illness often feel isolated overwhelmed responsibility prioritize self care maintain social connection balancing caregiving duty,,
"Ever since COVID, my friends and I barely hang out in person anymore. We just talk online, and I feel so disconnected from them.",social isolation,ever since covid friend barely hang person anymore talk online feel disconnected,,
"I feel disconnected from those around me and struggle to form meaningful relationships.

 ",social isolation,feel disconnected around struggle form meaningful relationship,,
Feeling burnt out after applying for so many jobs. Social media is just noise right now. What can I take a break from?,social isolation,feeling burnt applying many job social medium noise right take break,,
How can I support a friend who’s going through social isolation and doesn’t want to reach out?,social isolation,support friend going social isolation want reach,,
"Due to a chronic illness, I'm often unable to leave my house and socialize with others. How can I prevent feelings of loneliness and find ways to connect with people despite my limitations?",social isolation,due chronic illness often unable leave house socialize others prevent feeling loneliness find way connect people despite limitation,,
" I was hoping to find a supportive online community of new moms.  But some of the negativity and judgment online is overwhelming.  Instead of feeling connected, I feel even more isolated and alone.",social isolation,hoping find supportive online community new mom negativity judgment overwhelming instead feeling connected feel even isolated alone,,
"As a remote worker, I've been feeling increasingly isolated from my coworkers and friends. How can I combat loneliness while working from home?",social isolation,remote worker feeling increasingly isolated coworkers friend combat loneliness working home,,
"I feel like I have no one to talk to or share my thoughts and feelings with.

 ",social isolation,feel like one talk share thought feeling,,
"Scrolling through social media, I'm struck by the profound loneliness that accompanies each swipe. The illusion of connection fades, leaving me longing for meaningful interactions. I'm eager to explore strategies for breaking free from this cycle and fostering genuine connections.",social isolation,scrolling social medium struck profound loneliness accompanies swipe illusion connection fade leaving longing meaningful interaction eager explore strategy breaking free cycle fostering genuine,,
"I envy people who seem comfortable and confident in social settings. They make friends easily and have this natural charisma I lack. I feel like an outsider, longing to belong but too afraid to put myself out there.",social isolation,envy people seem comfortable confident social setting make friend easily natural charisma lack feel like outsider longing belong afraid put,,
"Whenever I [19M] see my ex-girlfriend [19F] or even anything related to her, I lose my mind and get very depressed out of nowhere which lasts for atleast a day and ruins whatever plans I had for the week. How should I overcome this? A little background - I have had a very rough childhood and by that I mean my parents treated me like shit and they still do. They never cared about the life I was living outside academics which is quite true for every student here, coz its India. I had many friends till 8th grade but after that everybody's lifestyle changed and they started getting into relationships, partied with everyone, all the usual teen stuff. But my parents didn't allow me any of this shit coz they're conservative as hell. They just wanted me to score better in exams, get a job, add to the population and die. So, all of this made me isolated from everyone and I lost many of my friends and was very lonely most of the times.",social isolation,whenever see ex girlfriend even anything related lose mind get depressed nowhere last atleast day ruin whatever plan week overcome little background rough childhood mean parent treated like shit still never cared life living outside academic quite true every student coz india many friend till th grade everybody lifestyle changed started getting relationship partied everyone usual teen stuff allow conservative hell wanted score better exam job add population die made isolated lost lonely time,,
"Longing for someone to share life with, feeling lost. I feel like I'm wandering through life aimlessly, with nobody by my side to share the journey with. It's a lonely feeling, and I'm hoping to find someone who can fill that void.",social isolation,longing someone share life feeling lost feel like wandering aimlessly nobody side journey lonely hoping find fill void,,
only way I make besties are on social media and  I'll make sure that they will be the ones I will never meet in person,social isolation,way make besties social medium sure one never meet person,,
I have social anxiety; if it's not on social media platforms.,social isolation,social anxiety medium platform,,
Is social isolation a sign of depression? I want to stop communicating with my family and I already have no friends. Is it a sign of depression?,social isolation,social isolation sign depression want stop communicating family already friend,,
"all my social media feeds are filled with baby pictures and milestones.  The problem is, it's mostly stuff from other new moms.  While I'm happy for them, I miss connecting with people outside of the mommy bubble.  I feel like I'm losing touch with the rest of the world.",social isolation,social medium feed filled baby picture milestone problem mostly stuff new mom happy miss connecting people outside mommy bubble feel like losing touch rest world,,
"In the digital realm, I'm drowning in a sea of superficial interactions, each one reinforcing my sense of isolation. The allure of social media fades as I long for deeper connections. I'm eager to uncover ways to cultivate real-life relationships and reclaim my sense of belonging.",social isolation,digital realm drowning sea superficial interaction one reinforcing sense isolation allure social medium fade long deeper connection eager uncover way cultivate real life relationship reclaim belonging,,
"Feeling alone I live in the United states and i’m a senior in high school. I pretty much have everything I could ever want. I have a gf, some friends, and i’ve got into a couple colleges, but i still don’t know why i feel so alone and worthless.",social isolation,feeling alone live united state senior high school pretty much everything could ever want gf friend got couple college still know feel worthless,,
I'm a new parent and feel isolated from my friends who don't have children. How can I find a balance between caring for my baby and maintaining my social life?,social isolation,new parent feel isolated friend child find balance caring baby maintaining social life,,
"I'm estranged from my family due to unresolved conflicts, and I'm struggling with feelings of loneliness and abandonment. How can I cope with the loss of familial support and find healing on my own?",social isolation,estranged family due unresolved conflict struggling feeling loneliness abandonment cope loss familial support find healing,,
"As a caregiver for my elderly parent, I often feel socially isolated and overwhelmed by my responsibilities. How can I find balance in my life and make time for social activities and self-care?",social isolation,caregiver elderly parent often feel socially isolated overwhelmed responsibility find balance life make time social activity self care,,
" I've posted a few things, but they barely get any views or engagement.  It feels like I'm shouting into the void.  Now I'm discouraged and worried that no one is interested in what I have to offer.",social isolation,posted thing barely get view engagement feel like shouting void discouraged worried one interested offer,,
"I feel like I'm disconnected from those around me, and I struggle to form meaningful relationships.

 ",social isolation,feel like disconnected around struggle form meaningful relationship,,
"Whenever I see my friends posting about all the fun they're having without me, I can't help but feel really lonely and left out, even if I know it's not the full picture.",social isolation,whenever see friend posting fun without help feel really lonely left even know full picture,,
"I often feel like I'm a stranger in my own life, disconnected from everything.

 ",social isolation,often feel like stranger life disconnected everything,,
I've read about how loneliness can be bad for your health.  It worries me.  I don't want to get sick or become a burden on the healthcare system.  What can I do to stay healthy and connected?,social isolation,read loneliness bad health worry want get sick become burden healthcare system stay healthy connected,,
I miss my friends and family from back home. How can I cope with homesickness?,social isolation,miss friend family back home cope homesickness,,
I'm worried about opening up to my friends about my feelings. They might think I'm weak. Is it okay to be vulnerable with friends?,social isolation,worried opening friend feeling might think weak okay vulnerable,,
"The once bustling house echoes with silence.  My children have flown the coop, leaving me with a void in my routine and a pang of loneliness.  Can I redefine my life in this new stage, finding connection beyond the role of a parent?",social isolation,bustling house echo silence child flown coop leaving void routine pang loneliness redefine life new stage finding connection beyond role parent,,
I've recently become disabled and find it difficult to participate in social activities and events like I used to. How can I adapt to my new circumstances and find opportunities for social engagement that accommodate my disability?,social isolation,recently become disabled find difficult participate social activity event like used adapt new circumstance opportunity engagement accommodate disability,,
"Feeling overwhelmed and unprepared is common for new dads. Remember, you're not alone. There are many resources available to help you navigate the joys and challenges of fatherhood. Focus on communication with your partner, taking an active role in caring for your baby, and building a strong bond with your child.",social isolation,feeling overwhelmed unprepared common new dad remember alone many resource available help navigate joy challenge fatherhood focus communication partner taking active role caring baby building strong bond child,,
I worry that my mental health issues are being overlooked because everyone is focused on physical health. What should I do?,social isolation,worry mental health issue overlooked everyone focused physical,,
"I've noticed a few of my students seem to be constantly anxious and preoccupied with their online reputations, to the detriment of their academics and wellbeing.",social isolation,noticed student seem constantly anxious preoccupied online reputation detriment academic wellbeing,,
I'm finding it hard to meet new people in my new town. Social media feels superficial. What are some alternatives?,social isolation,finding hard meet new people town social medium feel superficial alternative,,
"I often feel like I don't belong anywhere, and I struggle to connect with those around me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like belong anywhere struggle connect around,,
I'm a survivor of childhood trauma who finds it difficult to trust others and form healthy relationships. How can I overcome barriers to intimacy and connection and cultivate meaningful connections with others?,social isolation,survivor childhood trauma find difficult trust others form healthy relationship overcome barrier intimacy connection cultivate meaningful,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the job search and like a failure. Social media isn't helping. Are there online resources for mental health during tough times?,social isolation,feeling overwhelmed job search like failure social medium helping online resource mental health tough time,,
The constant bullying and nasty comments I get on TikTok are really bringing down my mood and self-esteem.,social isolation,constant bullying nasty comment get tiktok really bringing mood self esteem,,
I'm constantly terrified of being targeted by bullies online and it's causing me so much anxiety that I've isolated myself from my classmates.,social isolation,constantly terrified targeted bully online causing much anxiety isolated classmate,,
"Due to a conflict with my family, I've distanced myself from them, but now I'm feeling incredibly lonely. How can I navigate repairing these relationships while also coping with my emotions?",social isolation,due conflict family distanced feeling incredibly lonely navigate repairing relationship also coping emotion,,
"Struggling with bipolar disorder and social isolation during mood swings. Manic episodes make me crave social interaction, but depressive episodes make it hard to leave the house or talk to people. How do you maintain healthy social connections despite mood fluctuations?",social isolation,struggling bipolar disorder social isolation mood swing manic episode make crave interaction depressive hard leave house talk people maintain healthy connection despite fluctuation,,
"Conversations with family feel strained, one-sided efforts to bridge the gap.  Their questions hang heavy in the silence, my responses lacking genuine connection.  Is the distance a product of growing up, or a symptom of social isolation that affects all generations?",social isolation,conversation family feel strained one sided effort bridge gap question hang heavy silence response lacking genuine connection distance product growing symptom social isolation affect generation,,
I've moved to a new city for work and don't know anyone here. How can I start building a social life in an unfamiliar place?,social isolation,moved new city work know anyone start building social life unfamiliar place,,
I feel like a fraud and everyone is going to find out I'm not good enough.,social isolation,feel like fraud everyone going find good enough,,
" Crisis text line I want to text them, but when I do I get no where. I'm socially awkward, so talking to people is hard, and It does nothing to help me. I just want a hug and for this dread in my chest to go away. I wish it helped me, I really really do. I need something, I'm slipping.",social isolation,crisis text line want get socially awkward talking people hard nothing help hug dread chest go away wish helped really need something slipping,,
Feeling sick all the time makes it hard to stay motivated. How can I find the energy to do things I enjoy?,social isolation,feeling sick time make hard stay motivated find energy thing enjoy,,
"After retiring, I've lost touch with many of my former coworkers and find myself feeling lonely without the daily social interactions of the workplace. How can I cultivate new friendships and stay socially engaged in retirement?",social isolation,retiring lost touch many former coworkers find feeling lonely without daily social interaction workplace cultivate new friendship stay socially engaged retirement,,
"Kids are all grown up and have moved out. The house feels empty, and I miss the constant social interaction. Trying to find new hobbies and activities to meet people, but it's tough at this stage in life. Anyone else going through this?",social isolation,kid grown moved house feel empty miss constant social interaction trying find new hobby activity meet people tough stage life anyone else going,,
"My depression makes it hard to leave the house or socialize. I'm slowly losing touch with friends, which just deepens the depression and isolation. Feeling trapped in this negative cycle. Any advice on how to break free?",social isolation,depression make hard leave house socialize slowly losing touch friend deepens isolation feeling trapped negative cycle advice break free,,
I feel like social media is negatively impacting my sleep. How can I improve my sleep hygiene?,social isolation,feel like social medium negatively impacting sleep improve hygiene,,
For years I believed that there was something wrong with me and that I wasn't able to socialize at all. For a while I was even convinced that I might even have Aspergers. I've just began to realise that it was due to the influence of my Nparents. Its a relief to discover this but its also upsetting to think that I missed out on having a proper childhood.,social isolation,year believed something wrong able socialize even convinced might aspergers began realise due influence nparents relief discover also upsetting think missed proper childhood,,
"My grocery bags felt heavy, not just from the contents, but from the hollowness inside me.  The cashier's small talk felt like a foreign language.  How was your week? she chirped.  A forced smile stretched across my face. Fine, I mumbled, my voice rusty from disuse. Back in my silent apartment, surrounded by unopened groceries, a tear rolled down my cheek.  Maybe a simple hello at the store was more connection than I'd had in weeks.  Can I bridge the gap between my isolated world and the small moments of human connection?",social isolation,grocery bag felt heavy content hollowness inside cashier small talk like foreign language week chirped forced smile stretched across face fine mumbled voice rusty disuse back silent apartment surrounded unopened tear rolled cheek maybe simple hello store connection bridge gap isolated world moment human,,
"As a new parent, I've been so focused on caring for my child that I've neglected my relationships with friends and family. Now I'm feeling lonely and isolated. How can I reconnect with my loved ones while balancing parenthood?",social isolation,new parent focused caring child neglected relationship friend family feeling lonely isolated reconnect loved one balancing parenthood,,
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the thought of socializing again. How can I ease back into it without feeling anxious?,social isolation,sometimes feel overwhelmed thought socializing ease back without feeling anxious,,
"I often feel like I'm invisible to those around me, like no one notices or cares about me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like invisible around one notice care,,
"Park's packed - kids screamin', dogs barkin', couples all lovey-dovey. Here I am, solo on a bench, feeding pigeons like some kinda bird lady. Feels like that's my whole life - alone, picking up the crumbs.  Then this sweet old lady sits next to me, all smiles, Gorgeous day, right? I just mumbled something and scurried away.  Seriously, even the birds chirpin' felt loud. I kinda hate being alone, but talking to people is scary too. Ugh, gotta find a way to chill and maybe make a friend, even if it's just a chat with a friendly grandma, you know?",social isolation,park packed kid screamin dog barkin couple lovey dovey solo bench feeding pigeon like kinda bird lady feel whole life alone picking crumb sweet old sits next smile gorgeous day right mumbled something scurried away seriously even chirpin felt loud hate talking people scary ugh gotta find way chill maybe make friend chat friendly grandma know,,
"it's been hard to reconnect with old friends after the divorce.  Everyone seems to be coupled up and busy with their families.  I feel awkward trying to insert myself into their lives, and I worry they won't understand what I'm going through.",social isolation,hard reconnect old friend divorce everyone seems coupled busy family feel awkward trying insert life worry understand going,,
" Seeing my ex's happy posts on social media with their new partner triggers feelings of inadequacy. I compare myself constantly, wondering if I made the wrong decision. It fuels the loneliness and makes me feel like I'm falling behind in life.",social isolation,seeing ex happy post social medium new partner trigger feeling inadequacy compare constantly wondering made wrong decision fuel loneliness make feel like falling behind life,,
I'm a survivor of domestic violence who feels isolated and unsafe in my own home. How can I access resources and support networks that empower me to rebuild my life and break free from the cycle of abuse?,social isolation,survivor domestic violence feel isolated unsafe home access resource support network empower rebuild life break free cycle abuse,,
" I know I should be focusing on making friends, but I'm constantly swamped with work.  Between classes, assignments, and my part-time job, there's barely any time left for socializing.  By the time I'm free, everyone else seems busy with their own plans.",social isolation,know focusing making friend constantly swamped work class assignment part time job barely left socializing free everyone else seems busy plan,,
"I'm a caregiver for a loved one with Alzheimer's disease, and I feel increasingly isolated as the demands of caregiving consume my time and energy. How can I prioritize self-care and seek support from others?",social isolation,caregiver loved one alzheimer disease feel increasingly isolated demand caregiving consume time energy prioritize self care seek support others,,
"Since moving to a new city for work, I've struggled to maintain connections with my friends from back home. How can I cope with the loneliness of being away from my support network?",social isolation,since moving new city work struggled maintain connection friend back home cope loneliness away support network,,
I feel really lonely since I've started doing online schooling. How can I feel more connected to my classmates?,social isolation,feel really lonely since started online schooling connected classmate,,
"I've really isolated myself from friends and all social media this summer. Even though it is lonely at times, I don't really miss it. I keep telling myself this is a temporary thing, and once i get my shit together I'll make a come-back.",social isolation,really isolated friend social medium summer even though lonely time miss keep telling temporary thing get shit together make come back,,
The financial burden of job loss makes socializing difficult. I can't afford to go out to lunch with friends or participate in expensive activities. This adds another layer to the feeling of isolation.,social isolation,financial burden job loss make socializing difficult afford go lunch friend participate expensive activity add another layer feeling isolation,,
"I crave a steaming cup of coffee, but the thought of navigating the crowded cafe feels daunting.  Longing for the warmth of the space clashes with the fear of feeling invisible amidst the social buzz.  Can I find a middle ground, enjoying the atmosphere without forced interaction?",social isolation,crave steaming cup coffee thought navigating crowded cafe feel daunting longing warmth space clash fear feeling invisible amidst social buzz find middle ground enjoying atmosphere without forced interaction,,
"Ever since I was 15, I have been social isolated with zero friends and have been completely withdrawn from any type of socialization except around my two parents, both of which are toxic people. I was diagnosed with clinical depression then but didn't get any help as I didn't have a support network and wasn't motivated enough to seek help. I am now almost 22(F), a university student (all online so far), and I am possibly going to be moving to a place where I will be around people my own age, will need to socialize, get a job, and appear normal. I have lost over six years where I could have been doing so much, but I let anxiety and lack of motivation stop me. This makes me extremely ashamed. To me, this is enough to end my life now. I lack experience in everything. I was isolated in crucial social/emotional developmental years. When I was around a family friend recently (whom I am incredibly attracted to), it became very apparent that I was a little weird and immature compared to him. I spend much of my time currently pretending like I am talking to people, daydreaming all day. I find it very difficult to articulate what I would like to say and I appear very air headed (honestly though, I am). I am also very ugly so, I hate people looking at me in general. I find that I also come across very childlike and I am guessing that it is because the last time I socialized, I was practically a child. I have no job experience, haven't attended an in person class since I was 15, no relationship experience, and I am not intelligent. I am about to try lurasidone since I also have symptoms of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, and I am hoping this will help things. I have tried numerous meds already and none have helped. What do you suggest I do from here on out? Is life still really worth living? Any advice at all would be greatly appreciated, and I apologize for the long post.",social isolation,ever since social isolated zero friend completely withdrawn type socialization except around two parent toxic people diagnosed clinical depression get help support network motivated enough seek almost university student online far possibly going moving place age need socialize job appear normal lost six year could much let anxiety lack motivation stop make extremely ashamed end life experience everything crucial emotional developmental family recently incredibly attracted became apparent little weird immature compared spend time currently pretending like talking daydreaming day find difficult articulate would say air headed honestly though also ugly hate looking general come across childlike guessing last socialized practically child attended person class relationship intelligent try lurasidone symptom schizophrenia bipolar disorder hoping thing tried numerous med already none helped suggest still really worth living advice greatly appreciated apologize long post,,
"I struggle to engage in activities outside my home due to social anxiety or fear of judgment from others.

 ",social isolation,struggle engage activity outside home due social anxiety fear judgment others,,
"Due to health concerns, I've been advised to limit my in-person interactions with others. How can I stay connected and combat feelings of isolation while practicing social distancing?",social isolation,due health concern advised limit person interaction others stay connected combat feeling isolation practicing social distancing,,
Feeling like I'm losing touch with friends since I lost my job. Social media feels fake. How can I reconnect with people who care?,social isolation,feeling like losing touch friend since lost job social medium feel fake reconnect people care,,
"I often feel like I'm on the outside looking in, and I struggle to connect with those around me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like outside looking struggle connect around,,
I miss hanging out with my friends and I'm starting to feel really down about it. How can I deal with these feelings of loneliness?,social isolation,miss hanging friend starting feel really deal feeling loneliness,,
"I feel like I'm disconnected from society, and I struggle to find my place in it.

 ",social isolation,feel like disconnected society struggle find place,,
"I feel like I'm invisible, nobody sees me.",social isolation,feel like invisible nobody see,,
"Being a full-time caregiver for a loved one is incredibly rewarding, but it can also be isolating. Don't have much time for myself or social interaction. Any advice for caregivers to avoid burnout and maintain social connections?",social isolation,full time caregiver loved one incredibly rewarding also isolating much social interaction advice avoid burnout maintain connection,,
The constant trolling and harassment I face on Twitter from my peers has made me too anxious to even interact with anyone at school.,social isolation,constant trolling harassment face twitter peer made anxious even interact anyone school,,
"I've been socially isolated since I was 10 due to a form of homeschool call unschooling (it's like homeschooling but you don't follow a normal curriculum or schedule) and it ruined my late childhood and so far all of my tween/teen years when you yk learn how to interact with other people your age, and I really want help to undo and damage I can. Any sort of advice will help",social isolation,socially isolated since due form homeschool call unschooling like homeschooling follow normal curriculum schedule ruined late childhood far tween teen year yk learn interact people age really want help undo damage sort advice,,
"Since my spouse passed away, I've felt a profound sense of loneliness. What are some ways I can combat this feeling?",social isolation,since spouse passed away felt profound sense loneliness way combat feeling,,
"Is Aspergers related to depression in any way? Sometimes I feel like I just want to curl up and die, especially when I'm around other people. Everything from the talking and the eye contact and everything else that's socially expected, it makes me feel like I'm living in someone else's world, and not my own. It's a lot worse with members of the opposite sex. Girls seem so...distant from me. Like something I will never have the privilege of having. Whenever I'm around them, I feel so lonely and helpless. I want to talk to them, but the best I can manage is a basic hello.",social isolation,aspergers related depression way sometimes feel like want curl die especially around people everything talking eye contact else socially expected make living someone world lot worse member opposite sex girl seem distant something never privilege whenever lonely helpless talk best manage basic hello,,
"Social situations feel like a performance. I try to act a certain way to fit in, but it feels inauthentic. I worry about being judged for who I truly am, so I end up presenting a fake version of myself.",social isolation,social situation feel like performance try act certain way fit inauthentic worry judged truly end presenting fake version,,
"I miss hanging out with my college friends, but social media just makes me feel more alone. How can I stay connected without feeling isolated?",social isolation,miss hanging college friend social medium make feel alone stay connected without feeling isolated,,
" the financial burden of going solo after the divorce is stressful. It limits my options for going out or joining social groups. I feel stuck at home, and the loneliness is compounded by the lack of resources to do things I used to enjoy.",social isolation,financial burden going solo divorce stressful limit option joining social group feel stuck home loneliness compounded lack resource thing used enjoy,,
I'm feeling down and overwhelmed after scrolling through social media for hours. What can I do to feel better?,social isolation,feeling overwhelmed scrolling social medium hour feel better,,
"I've heard social isolation can cause brain damage. If I start socializing really hard for the next couple of years, can I repair the damage? Or should I just give up and accept that I should get a lower life expectancy? I was isolated during crucial years during my teens and early 20s, plus Covid isolation made it all worse. I already have big plans for next year but if I can't fix the damage, there is no point in trying I guess.",social isolation,heard social isolation cause brain damage start socializing really hard next couple year repair give accept get lower life expectancy isolated crucial teen early plus covid made worse already big plan fix point trying guess,,
"I'm trying to use YouTube to learn new skills, but I end up getting distracted by entertainment videos. How can I stay focused?",social isolation,trying use youtube learn new skill end getting distracted entertainment video stay focused,,
"I feel like everyone else has their life together, and I'm just struggling to get by. Is this normal?",social isolation,feel like everyone else life together struggling get normal,,
The constant fear of being targeted by bullies on Discord is giving me so much anxiety that I've completely withdrawn from my classmates.,social isolation,constant fear targeted bully discord giving much anxiety completely withdrawn classmate,,
"I frequently experience feelings of loneliness and isolation, even in crowded places.

 ",social isolation,frequently experience feeling loneliness isolation even crowded place,,
"I often feel like I'm stuck in a time loop, repeating the same patterns with no change.

 ",social isolation,often feel like stuck time loop repeating pattern change,,
"it's hard to admit, but I need help with some things now.  My body isn't as strong as it used to be.  Depending on others makes me feel like a burden.  I also feel invisible sometimes, like people don't see me or care about what I have to say.",social isolation,hard admit need help thing body strong used depending others make feel like burden also invisible sometimes people see care say,,
"Feeling lost and disconnected, unsure how to move forward. I feel like I'm drifting aimlessly, disconnected from the world around me. It's hard to find my way when I'm not sure where I'm headed or how to move forward.",social isolation,feeling lost disconnected unsure move forward feel like drifting aimlessly world around hard find way sure headed,,
I don't even remember the last time I went out and met new people in the real world because I'm always scrolling through social media instead.,social isolation,even remember last time went met new people real world always scrolling social medium instead,,
"Losing my job made me question my identity and purpose. I used to define myself by my career, and now I feel like nobody needs me. This self-doubt fuels the social isolation and makes me withdraw from others.",social isolation,losing job made question identity purpose used define career feel like nobody need self doubt fuel social isolation make withdraw others,,
I'm worried about falling behind in school because of all the missed classes. What can I do to keep up?,social isolation,worried falling behind school missed class keep,,
"After a falling out with my best friend, I've been feeling lonely and unsure of how to move forward. How can I heal from this loss and rebuild my social circle?",social isolation,falling best friend feeling lonely unsure move forward heal loss rebuild social circle,,
"Since the lockdown started, I've been feeling really isolated. What can I do to feel more connected, even if I can't meet my friends in person?",social isolation,since lockdown started feeling really isolated feel connected even meet friend person,,
I'm a senior citizen who lives alone and feels isolated from family and friends. How can I stay connected with others and maintain a sense of purpose and fulfillment in my golden years?,social isolation,senior citizen life alone feel isolated family friend stay connected others maintain sense purpose fulfillment golden year,,
"Feeling alone, wishing for someone to talk to. Sometimes, I find myself sitting alone, wishing there was someone I could share my thoughts and feelings with. It gets lonely being by myself, and having someone to talk to would make a world of difference.",social isolation,feeling alone wishing someone talk sometimes find sitting could share thought get lonely would make world difference,,
"I cant do it this time Back when I was in college (dropped out after my freshman year due to mental health, this would have been my sophomore year), I used to have these nights where everything was terrible. My anxiety would be off the charts, I wouldnt be able to sleep or calm my heart down, and I would just cry and cry and cry until around 6 or 7 in the morning when I could either sleep, or drag myself to class.This is the first night like this since I left school in May. I feel so anxious and sick, and I cant stop crying, and I know I wont be able to sleep. ",social isolation,cant time back college dropped freshman year due mental health would sophomore used night everything terrible anxiety chart wouldnt able sleep calm heart cry around morning could either drag class first like since left school may feel anxious sick stop know wont,,
I'm a survivor of childhood trauma who struggles to trust others and form meaningful connections. How can I heal from past wounds and cultivate healthy relationships that alleviate feelings of isolation?,social isolation,survivor childhood trauma struggle trust others form meaningful connection heal past wound cultivate healthy relationship alleviate feeling isolation,,
"Whenever I'm with my family, we're all just staring at our phones the whole time. I barely even talk to them anymore.",social isolation,whenever family staring phone whole time barely even talk anymore,,
"Perpetual loneliness and sadness, seeking relief and wondering if it ever gets better.",social isolation,perpetual loneliness sadness seeking relief wondering ever get better,,
The isolation from not attending school in person is really getting to me. How can I deal with these feelings?,social isolation,isolation attending school person really getting deal feeling,,
I'm afraid to seek professional help because of the stigma surrounding mental health. What should I do?,social isolation,afraid seek professional help stigma surrounding mental health,,
I feel constantly irritable and everything seems to annoy me.,social isolation,feel constantly irritable everything seems annoy,,
"I tell myself things like ‘oh I don’t know if I’ll live in this city forever, there’s no point in building a community of friends when I might leave in the future’. I’m so lonely and know having friends and a community is the missing thing. I push everyone away. My friends from my hometown try to video call me and i say I’m busy or about to sleep etc. I don’t know why, maybe it’s my poor self-esteem. It’s like I know I could change my life but I’m scared so I keep myself stuck in my room all by myself. I am so sad, and annoyed at myself. I am also have big life goals and can’t relate to people that drink and go out at night or just talk about random stuff other than self-growth or business. I feel bored when I hang out with a lot of people yet I crave the intimacy of close friendships and relationships. I am looking a lot into people like tony Robbins and grant cardone and really want to change my life!!!",social isolation,tell thing like oh know live city forever point building community friend might leave future lonely missing push everyone away hometown try video call say busy sleep etc maybe poor self esteem could change life scared keep stuck room sad annoyed also big goal relate people drink go night talk random stuff growth business feel bored hang lot yet crave intimacy close friendship relationship looking tony robbins grant cardone really want,,
"ever since my spouse passed away, the house feels so empty.  My friends are all gone too, some moved away, some passed on.  I feel so alone, especially in the evenings.  It's hard to know what to do with myself.",social isolation,ever since spouse passed away house feel empty friend gone moved alone especially evening hard know,,
"I feel lonely and isolated, especially on weekends when everyone seems to have plans. How can I meet new people?",social isolation,feel lonely isolated especially weekend everyone seems plan meet new people,,
I feel like I can't take care of myself because the baby needs me all the time. Is it okay to ask for help?,social isolation,feel like take care baby need time okay ask help,,
"social media used to be my lifeline at home.  Now, it just makes me feel worse. Seeing everyone's perfect college lives on Instagram only highlights how alone I feel.  I know I shouldn't compare, but it's hard not to feel like I'm missing out.",social isolation,social medium used lifeline home make feel worse seeing everyone perfect college life instagram highlight alone know compare hard like missing,,
I live in a rural area with limited access to social events and community resources. How can I combat the isolation that comes with living in a remote location and foster connections with others?,social isolation,live rural area limited access social event community resource combat isolation come living remote location foster connection others,,
How can I maintain a sense of normalcy in my daily routine when everything feels so uncertain?,social isolation,maintain sense normalcy daily routine everything feel uncertain,,
"I've lost touch with so many of my old friends because we just don't make the effort to get together in person anymore, we just interact online.",social isolation,lost touch many old friend make effort get together person anymore interact online,,
I feel like the lack of social interaction is starting to affect my mental health. What steps can I take to protect my well-being?,social isolation,feel like lack social interaction starting affect mental health step take protect well,,
"I have difficulty maintaining friendships and often feel like I don't fit in.

 ",social isolation,difficulty maintaining friendship often feel like fit,,
"I feel like I'm drifting through life, disconnected from those around me.

 ",social isolation,feel like drifting life disconnected around,,
My family doesn’t understand why I feel isolated since we’re all home together. How can I explain this to them?,social isolation,family understand feel isolated since home together explain,,
"I grew up in a family that were basically hermits, and was extremely socially isolated for nearly all life till I got out to college. It would sometimes be years between conversations with anyone outside my immediate family much less peers. I have a lot of social issues as a result, which is kinda led me to a weird place. When looking at socializing guides and stuff, I can't find much for people who had so little social experience and models to pull from when developing. If its about anxiety yes, ND yes, insecurity yes, but literally nothing? Usually people have family/peers/church groups/whatever to look towards and observe. I got nothing but like, 2 semesters of being avoidant at college before the pandemic, some work stuff, and an unhealthy amount of TV/movies/internet before the pandemic hit and I was back in the original situation. Where do I go from here besides making people deal with my awkward self and hoping for the best? Is it possible to 'recover' from this far behind?",social isolation,grew family basically hermit extremely socially isolated nearly life till got college would sometimes year conversation anyone outside immediate much le peer lot social issue result kinda led weird place looking socializing guide stuff find people little experience model pull developing anxiety yes nd insecurity literally nothing usually church group whatever look towards observe like semester avoidant pandemic work unhealthy amount tv movie internet hit back original situation go besides making deal awkward self hoping best possible recover far behind,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the job search and feeling like a failure. Social media isn't helping. Are there online resources for mental health during tough times?,social isolation,feeling overwhelmed job search like failure social medium helping online resource mental health tough time,,
"Lonely after a breakup, seeking companionship again. After going through a recent breakup, I've been feeling incredibly lonely. I miss having someone to share my life with, and I'm hoping to find companionship again.",social isolation,lonely breakup seeking companionship going recent feeling incredibly miss someone share life hoping find,,
"all my close friends from high school are at different colleges now. We try to stay connected online, but it's not the same. I miss that sense of shared experience and everyday friendship. College feels a lot less exciting without them here.",social isolation,close friend high school different college try stay connected online miss sense shared experience everyday friendship feel lot le exciting without,,
"I was struggling with mental health for a good portion of my life, but never have I been so fucked up until I isolated myself. After disengaging with society, I started spending months in my room alone. At first it was a relief, since I was a heavily socially anxious, but as the time went on I became increasingly insane.",social isolation,struggling mental health good portion life never fucked isolated disengaging society started spending month room alone first relief since heavily socially anxious time went became increasingly insane,,
"Depression makes me feel like a burden on others. I don't want to bring them down with my negativity. So I push people away, even close friends, which intensifies the feeling of isolation.",social isolation,depression make feel like burden others want bring negativity push people away even close friend intensifies feeling isolation,,
I'm worried social media use might be contributing to my FOMO (fear of missing out). Are there ways to manage this?,social isolation,worried social medium use might contributing fomo fear missing way manage,,
"i only follows accounts that reinforce my existing beliefs, creating a social media bubble. This isolates me from diverse viewpoints and limits her opportunities to connect with people who hold different perspectives",social isolation,follows account reinforce existing belief creating social medium bubble isolates diverse viewpoint limit opportunity connect people hold different perspective,,
"Hi. I just wanted to share my thoughts on my life at this stage. As I got older, I've noticed a pattern in my social life. Every time I communicate with anyone, be it strangers or more close knit people, especially when there is more than me and the other person talking, something feels super alienating. I don't know how to explain it, but something tells me, that I'm kinda not welcome in a group setting. Everyone is happy go lucky and then there is me desperately trying my best to feel home in the setting, but I really just can't feel as chilled like the rest are. This is very isolating being just inside my apartment, with my dog. There have been many times I've wondered if any of my past friends would even notice that I'm not here. Just feeling very heavy inside right now.",social isolation,hi wanted share thought life stage got older noticed pattern social every time communicate anyone stranger close knit people especially person talking something feel super alienating know explain tell kinda welcome group setting everyone happy go lucky desperately trying best home really chilled like rest isolating inside apartment dog many wondered past friend would even notice feeling heavy right,,
I'm a member of the Deaf community who feels excluded from mainstream society due to communication barriers. How can I advocate for accessibility and inclusion in public spaces and social events?,social isolation,member deaf community feel excluded mainstream society due communication barrier advocate accessibility inclusion public space social event,,
"I just want someone to talk to, but I don't know where to start.",social isolation,want someone talk know start,,
The lack of physical touch has been really hard on me. What are some ways to cope with this?,social isolation,lack physical touch really hard way cope,,
"After a disagreement with my close friend, we've drifted apart, leaving me feeling lonely and unsure of how to repair the relationship. How can I initiate a conversation and reconnect with my friend?",social isolation,disagreement close friend drifted apart leaving feeling lonely unsure repair relationship initiate conversation reconnect,,
"I feel like I'm adrift at sea, with no one to navigate the waves with.

 ",social isolation,feel like adrift sea one navigate wave,,
I'm worried about talking to my parents about feeling lonely because I don’t want to burden them. What should I do?,social isolation,worried talking parent feeling lonely want burden,,
I work remotely from home and struggle with feelings of loneliness and isolation. How can I maintain social connections and boundaries while working in a solitary environment?,social isolation,work remotely home struggle feeling loneliness isolation maintain social connection boundary working solitary environment,,
"I've recently come out as LGBTQ+ to my family, and the distance between us has grown as they struggle to accept my identity. How can I cope with the loneliness of feeling rejected by my family?",social isolation,recently come lgbtq family distance u grown struggle accept identity cope loneliness feeling rejected,,
The humiliation and embarrassment I feel after being publicly shamed on YouTube has made me too ashamed to even show my face at school anymore.,social isolation,humiliation embarrassment feel publicly shamed youtube made ashamed even show face school anymore,,
" the truth is, I'm scared to put myself out there.  What if I get rejected? What if no one wants to be friends with me?  This fear keeps me trapped in my comfort zone, but it's also making me incredibly lonely.",social isolation,truth scared put get rejected one want friend fear keep trapped comfort zone also making incredibly lonely,,
"My usual escape route - music blasting through headphones - is cut off due to a broken wire.  The sudden silence feels deafening, the isolation amplified by the lack of distraction.  Can I learn to embrace quiet moments without relying on external stimuli to fill the void?",social isolation,usual escape route music blasting headphone cut due broken wire sudden silence feel deafening isolation amplified lack distraction learn embrace quiet moment without relying external stimulus fill void,,
I'm a survivor of childhood neglect who struggles with feelings of unworthiness and detachment from others. How can I cultivate self-compassion and form healthy attachments that alleviate feelings of isolation?,social isolation,survivor childhood neglect struggle feeling unworthiness detachment others cultivate self compassion form healthy attachment alleviate isolation,,
"I often feel like I'm invisible, like no one sees or acknowledges me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like invisible one see acknowledges,,
"My online persona thrives - witty comments, engaging posts. But in real life, social interaction feels like a foreign language. A text from a friend sits unanswered, the pressure to respond overwhelming.  Is it easier to curate a digital life than face the complexities of real connection?",social isolation,online persona thrives witty comment engaging post real life social interaction feel like foreign language text friend sits unanswered pressure respond overwhelming easier curate digital face complexity connection,,
I feel like I should be more manly according to what I see online. It's putting a lot of pressure on me. How can I develop a healthy sense of masculinity?,social isolation,feel like manly according see online putting lot pressure develop healthy sense masculinity,,
The cyberbullying I've faced on Reddit has made me so distrustful of my classmates that I've completely isolated myself from everyone.,social isolation,cyberbullying faced reddit made distrustful classmate completely isolated everyone,,
 the divorce has shaken my confidence.  I question my judgment and wonder if I'll ever find happiness again.  The loneliness stems from this deep-seated insecurity about being alone and starting over.,social isolation,divorce shaken confidence question judgment wonder ever find happiness loneliness stem deep seated insecurity alone starting,,
"I am completely in love with this man and from the beginning he has always been very honest about his depression and how it has affected him. I just need advice on how I can help him and how I can be happy myself without being extremely affected by his state. I've realized that I've been limiting myself to avoid triggering his depression. For example, he doesn't like going out, but I enjoy dance nights with my friends. I feel guilty when I go out and he gets sad. How can I navigate this situation?",social isolation,completely love man beginning always honest depression affected need advice help happy without extremely state realized limiting avoid triggering example like going enjoy dance night friend feel guilty go get sad navigate situation,,
"A smile offered to a stranger is met with a confused stare.  The desire for connection seems lost in translation, a reminder of the cultural barriers that can create isolation.  Can I find common ground despite differences, or is genuine connection limited to those who share my background?",social isolation,smile offered stranger met confused stare desire connection seems lost translation reminder cultural barrier create isolation find common ground despite difference genuine limited share background,,
I feel like social media makes me compare myself to others and it's affecting my self-esteem. What can I do differently?,social isolation,feel like social medium make compare others affecting self esteem differently,,
"I find it hard to trust people and often feel like I don't belong.

 ",social isolation,find hard trust people often feel like belong,,
"Despite having hundreds of online friends, I feels a deep sense of loneliness. I realizes that online interactions lack the depth and intimacy of real-life friendships.",social isolation,despite hundred online friend feel deep sense loneliness realizes interaction lack depth intimacy real life friendship,,
It's been months since I've had a real conversation with someone outside my family. How can I find someone to talk to who understands what I'm going through?,social isolation,month since real conversation someone outside family find talk understands going,,
Being publicly shamed and humiliated online by my peers has made me feel so embarrassed and ashamed to even show my face at school.,social isolation,publicly shamed humiliated online peer made feel embarrassed ashamed even show face school,,
"As a teenager, I struggle with social anxiety and find it hard to make friends at school. How can I break out of my comfort zone and cultivate meaningful relationships with my peers?",social isolation,teenager struggle social anxiety find hard make friend school break comfort zone cultivate meaningful relationship peer,,
"Scared of my phone Often times when I'm depressed I go into isolation mode and disconnect from the outside world. When I'm like this I get an intense feeling of anxiety and fear that a friend will text me or call me inviting me to hang out. I get so scared and I don't want to answer bc while I know it would be good for me to get out and be around people, my depression wants me to stay in my dark apartment alone. Anyone else get scared that you will have to answer your phone when/if someone is reaching out?",social isolation,scared phone often time depressed go isolation mode disconnect outside world like get intense feeling anxiety fear friend text call inviting hang want answer bc know would good around people depression stay dark apartment alone anyone else someone reaching,,
"Social media makes me feel worse about myself. I see all these perfect girls online, and it makes me feel inadequate. How can I develop a healthier online experience?",social isolation,social medium make feel worse see perfect girl online inadequate develop healthier experience,,
"The world of online gaming used to be a thrilling escape, a chance to connect with people across the globe. Lately, the camaraderie feels forced, the guild chats filled with inside jokes that leave me on the outside. How can I find a gaming community that fosters genuine friendships, where connection goes beyond virtual victories?",social isolation,world online gaming used thrilling escape chance connect people across globe lately camaraderie feel forced guild chat filled inside joke leave outside find community foster genuine friendship connection go beyond virtual victory,,
“Want to sit on social media whole day for a month?”,social isolation,want sit social medium whole day month,,
Just finished a week-long digital detox and feel a surprising sense of connection to the real world. Realized how much social media can create a distorted view of social interaction and actually contribute to isolation. Anyone else had a similar experience?,social isolation,finished week long digital detox feel surprising sense connection real world realized much social medium create distorted view interaction actually contribute isolation anyone else similar experience,,
"I often feel like I'm a castaway, shipwrecked on a deserted shore.

 ",social isolation,often feel like castaway shipwrecked deserted shore,,
"I just graduated and moved to a new town for my first job. Everyone seems to have their own friend groups already, and I feel really isolated. Social media isn't helping much.",social isolation,graduated moved new town first job everyone seems friend group already feel really isolated social medium helping much,,
I was always a bit akward but still talkative. But when Covid isolation began I completely stopped socializing and ever since then I've isolated myself from others. My social skills became so bad to the point some people think I am some kind of disabled/autistic. Now that I realized that this isolation was very bad for me I want to change things. I am 17 and will start to put myself in social situations by will,social isolation,always bit akward still talkative covid isolation began completely stopped socializing ever since isolated others social skill became bad point people think kind disabled autistic realized want change thing start put situation,,
I spend so much time mindlessly scrolling Instagram and obsessing over my online image that I feel completely disconnected from my classmates and the school community.,social isolation,spend much time mindlessly scrolling instagram obsessing online image feel completely disconnected classmate school community,,
"I'm starting to develop feelings for another girl at school, but I'm terrified of rejection. How can I navigate this?",social isolation,starting develop feeling another girl school terrified rejection navigate,,
"The silence in my apartment grows deafening at night. The absence of conversation, of shared laughter, feels like a physical weight pressing down on me. I crave the comfort of another presence, even if it's just someone watching TV in the next room. How can I find ways to combat the loneliness that creeps in during the quiet hours?",social isolation,silence apartment grows deafening night absence conversation shared laughter feel like physical weight pressing crave comfort another presence even someone watching tv next room find way combat loneliness creep quiet hour,,
I'm an international student studying abroad and struggle to connect with my classmates and peers due to language and cultural barriers. How can I overcome these challenges and build meaningful relationships in a foreign country?,social isolation,international student studying abroad struggle connect classmate peer due language cultural barrier overcome challenge build meaningful relationship foreign country,,
"I find it challenging to trust others or form meaningful relationships, contributing to my social isolation.

 ",social isolation,find challenging trust others form meaningful relationship contributing social isolation,,
Scrolling through endless reels filled with viral content and massive followings makes me question my own ideas. Is anything I create even interesting enough? This constant comparison is killing my creativity and making me doubt myself.,social isolation,scrolling endless reel filled viral content massive following make question idea anything create even interesting enough constant comparison killing creativity making doubt,,
"Reflecting on my recent social media activity, I realize how it's fueling my growing sense of isolation. Each scroll leaves me feeling more disconnected, comparing my life to curated perfection. I yearn to break this cycle and rebuild genuine connections.",social isolation,reflecting recent social medium activity realize fueling growing sense isolation scroll leaf feeling disconnected comparing life curated perfection yearn break cycle rebuild genuine connection,,
I feel overwhelmed and exhausted all the time. Taking care of a baby is so much harder than I expected. Is this normal?,social isolation,feel overwhelmed exhausted time taking care baby much harder expected normal,,
"Coffee shops used to be my haven, a place to fuel my creativity and people-watch. Lately, the clatter of cups and murmur of conversations feels like background noise to my own isolation. Everyone seems to be deeply engrossed in their laptops or engrossed in conversations, oblivious to the person sitting alone with a lukewarm latte. How can I transform coffee shops from a lonely observation point into a potential launching pad for connection?",social isolation,coffee shop used place fuel creativity people watch lately clatter cup murmur conversation feel like background noise isolation everyone seems deeply engrossed laptop oblivious person sitting alone lukewarm latte transform lonely observation point potential launching pad connection,,
"As an older adult, I've noticed that many of my friends have passed away or moved away, leaving me feeling isolated. How can I rebuild my social circle and find companionship in my later years?",social isolation,older adult noticed many friend passed away moved leaving feeling isolated rebuild social circle find companionship later year,,
"I'm a survivor of a traumatic event who struggles with feelings of shame and self-blame, leading to social withdrawal and isolation. How can I overcome these barriers to seek support and connection with others?",social isolation,survivor traumatic event struggle feeling shame self blame leading social withdrawal isolation overcome barrier seek support connection others,,
"After graduating from college, I've moved back in with my parents temporarily, but I'm struggling with the loss of independence and feeling disconnected from my friends. How can I maintain my social life while living at home?",social isolation,graduating college moved back parent temporarily struggling loss independence feeling disconnected friend maintain social life living home,,
How can I create a sense of community while everyone is physically apart?,social isolation,create sense community everyone physically apart,,
"I know LinkedIn can be a valuable tool, but it's also impacting my self-esteem.  Can you help me find ways to use it strategically for learning and connecting, without getting caught up in the comparison trap or feeling isolated by the focus on achievements?",social isolation,know linkedin valuable tool also impacting self esteem help find way use strategically learning connecting without getting caught comparison trap feeling isolated focus achievement,,
"Since I’ve moved out here and started as a freshman last semester, my contact with my friends from home has gone down, and the level of social interaction I once had has not come close to being matched. I have a few friends here on campus who I see pretty rarely. Dating life? Ha. So I’ve been trying to go to club meetings and whatnot, following all the conventional wisdom. Like I said, made a few friends but it all feels so surface level and at the end of the day, I still feel pretty alone. That being said, it’s not the end of the world. I’ve been trying to just approach and engage strangers in conversation, and I’ve gotten to know some people that way, although not very deeply. Idk, I guess I just feel stuck or inert socially.",social isolation,since moved started freshman last semester contact friend home gone level social interaction come close matched campus see pretty rarely dating life ha trying go club meeting whatnot following conventional wisdom like said made feel surface end day still alone world approach engage stranger conversation gotten know people way although deeply idk guess stuck inert socially,,
"I'm an introvert who enjoys spending time alone, but I'm starting to feel the negative effects of prolonged isolation. How can I strike a balance between solitude and social connection to maintain my mental and emotional well-being?",social isolation,introvert enjoys spending time alone starting feel negative effect prolonged isolation strike balance solitude social connection maintain mental emotional well,,
"I often feel like I'm shouting into the void, with no one listening or responding.

 ",social isolation,often feel like shouting void one listening responding,,
I'm retired and find that most of my social interactions were tied to my job. How can I build a new social network?,social isolation,retired find social interaction tied job build new network,,
"I've been struggling with chronic illness, and it's severely limited my ability to socialize and engage in activities outside the home. I feel isolated and misunderstood by friends and family who don't fully grasp the extent of my condition.",social isolation,struggling chronic illness severely limited ability socialize engage activity outside home feel isolated misunderstood friend family fully grasp extent condition,,
Seeing all my classmates' perfect lives on Facebook is making me feel so inadequate and left out of the school community.,social isolation,seeing classmate perfect life facebook making feel inadequate left school community,,
I'm terrified of public speaking and presentations at school.,social isolation,terrified public speaking presentation school,,
"iam a young womani feel whenever i removed my VR headset and looks around my empty apartment.The virtual world is so much more exciting, but why do I feel so empty when I take the headset off?  Is there anyone even out there anymore?",social isolation,iam young womani feel whenever removed vr headset look around empty apartment virtual world much exciting take anyone even anymore,,
"The idea of exchanging letters with a pen pal across the globe feels intriguing, a chance to connect with a different culture.  But the fear of awkward silences or unanswered letters deters me from reaching out.  Can I embrace the uncertainty and find joy in the slow burn of a long-distance friendship?",social isolation,idea exchanging letter pen pal across globe feel intriguing chance connect different culture fear awkward silence unanswered deters reaching embrace uncertainty find joy slow burn long distance friendship,,
"I've read the patterns in the Socail Media, every time I want to work on a project no matter how small the scale is, the universe is kidding and the Social Meida is welcoming.  I use a heart distracter, okay dude now I can't be defeated anymore.",social isolation,read pattern socail medium every time want work project matter small scale universe kidding social meida welcoming use heart distracter okay dude defeated anymore,,
"I hate every single thing about myself and I don't know how to stop. My looks, my personality, my body, my voice, everything I do makes me hate myself a little more. If i didn't have a family that loved me and if I had the guts then I wouldn't stick around. It's too painful to be in this state of mind all the time. I'm ruining my relationship with the love of my life because I hate myself so much that I can't bear to be intimate with him. I truly am disgusted by myself. I avoid showering because I feel like crying every time I look in the mirror. I need to know how to stop hating myself. My therapist tells me I need to learn self-compassion but I feel like that's literally impossible. Sorry, just need to get it all out but I really am at a loss. At this point it honestly blows my mind that there are people that actually like themselves. What I wouldn't give to feel that way.",social isolation,hate every single thing know stop look personality body voice everything make little family loved gut stick around painful state mind time ruining relationship love life much bear intimate truly disgusted avoid showering feel like cry mirror need hating therapist tell learn self compassion literally impossible sorry get really loss point honestly blow people actually give way,,
"In the digital age, social media offers the illusion of connection, yet I find myself drowning in a sea of superficial interactions. Each scroll deepens my sense of isolation, highlighting the stark contrast between virtual connections and genuine relationships. I'm ready to embark on a journey of self-discovery, seeking ways to break free from this digital isolation and rediscover the beauty of authentic connections.",social isolation,digital age social medium offer illusion connection yet find drowning sea superficial interaction scroll deepens sense isolation highlighting stark contrast virtual genuine relationship ready embark journey self discovery seeking way break free rediscover beauty authentic,,
"I often feel like I'm standing on the edge of a cliff, looking into the abyss.

 ",social isolation,often feel like standing edge cliff looking abyss,,
"I'm struggling with loneliness. I have 0 humans in my life that I can talk to. Usually I cope well. Lately my life is going downhill badly and I desperately wish I had somebody to cry to, or to say, I'm not doing OK and just have them say 'I'm here for you' not to do anything but just to be listened to. I feel so isolated and alone. There are literally 0 people in the world who are affected by me. I'm to an extent worthless.",social isolation,struggling loneliness human life talk usually cope well lately going downhill badly desperately wish somebody cry say ok anything listened feel isolated alone literally people world affected extent worthless,,
Financial difficulties make it hard to afford going out or participating in social activities. Feeling increasingly isolated because of it. Anyone else struggling with social isolation due to financial limitations? How do you cope,social isolation,financial difficulty make hard afford going participating social activity feeling increasingly isolated anyone else struggling isolation due limitation cope,,
" I miss adult conversations that go beyond diaper changes and feeding schedules.  I crave genuine connection with other people who understand what I'm going through.  But between the lack of sleep and the constant needs of my baby, it's hard to find the time or energy to reach out.",social isolation,miss adult conversation go beyond diaper change feeding schedule crave genuine connection people understand going lack sleep constant need baby hard find time energy reach,,
" my divorce is final, and the kids are off to college.  The silence in the house is deafening.  I thought I'd be relieved to be on my own after all these years, but now I feel incredibly lonely.  I don't know how to navigate this new reality.",social isolation,divorce final kid college silence house deafening thought relieved year feel incredibly lonely know navigate new reality,,
Several of my students have confided that the social isolation from being excluded and bullied online is really affecting their mental health and ability to engage in class.,social isolation,several student confided social isolation excluded bullied online really affecting mental health ability engage class,,
"As a parent, I'm overwhelmed with responsibilities and feel isolated from my peers. How can I find time to socialize?",social isolation,parent overwhelmed responsibility feel isolated peer find time socialize,,
i had a very eventful sad childhood and was isolated a lot from people my age which i feel caused me to miss out on important social learning or whatever & I’ve actually been called weird and creepy by at least two different people to my face.. its making me not even want to try at life to be honest.,social isolation,eventful sad childhood isolated lot people age feel caused miss important social learning whatever actually called weird creepy least two different face making even want try life honest,,
"I feel like I'm always missing out on things because of my illness. My friends are going to parties and having fun, and I'm stuck at home. How can I cope with this?",social isolation,feel like always missing thing illness friend going party fun stuck home cope,,
"I'm feeling very alone and lost right now. Today, I told the girl I am deeply infatuated with that I couldn't be as close to her because it hurt me so much to see her take interest in other guys and that I couldn't get over her if I was as close to her as I was.",social isolation,feeling alone lost right today told girl deeply infatuated close hurt much see take interest guy get,,
Technology is a barrier for me.  I can't seem to keep up with all these social media apps everyone uses.  It makes it hard to connect with family who live far away.  And my limited mobility makes it difficult to get out and socialize in person.,social isolation,technology barrier seem keep social medium apps everyone us make hard connect family live far away limited mobility difficult get socialize person,,
I haven't been sleeping well and I'm exhausted all the time.,social isolation,sleeping well exhausted time,,
I feel constantly on edge and everything feels overwhelming.,social isolation,feel constantly edge everything overwhelming,,
"Crying in public unnoticed, feeling invisible in society's eyes.",social isolation,cry public unnoticed feeling invisible society eye,,
"I often feel left out or excluded from social events and activities.

 ",social isolation,often feel left excluded social event activity,,
"I've recently experienced a significant loss, and I'm finding it hard to reach out to others for support. How can I navigate this period of grief and connect with others who understand what I'm going through?",social isolation,recently experienced significant loss finding hard reach others support navigate period grief connect understand going,,
The hateful messages and rumors spreading about me on TikTok have been really triggering my depression and making me isolate from all my school friends.,social isolation,hateful message rumor spreading tiktok really triggering depression making isolate school friend,,
" social media makes it seem like everyone else has this magical, effortless motherhood experience.  They're glowing, well-rested, and have time for all these elaborate activities with their babies.  It makes me feel like I'm the only one struggling.",social isolation,social medium make seem like everyone else magical effortless motherhood experience glowing well rested time elaborate activity baby feel one struggling,,
"I am worries about the constant online scrutiny and feels a loss of privacy. This anxiety makes her hesitant to share anything personal online, further isolating her from potential connections.",social isolation,worry constant online scrutiny feel loss privacy anxiety make hesitant share anything personal isolating potential connection,,
"What do you call it when you are afraid/extremely uncomfortable having people in your home? I am in my 30's, and have lived alone for about 7 years now and more and more i find i have almost a phobia about letting people in my home. I will go to great lengths to avoid it, putting off hiring a handyman, lying and making excuses to friends. While i am not a very social person, often preferring the tv to live people, i do have friends that i am comfortable spending time with - in public or at their house. I am also not classically agorophobic. Years ago when i battled severe depression i was, but now i have no problem leaving the house, and sometimes go somewhere just to get out of the house for a while. I am not sure what the problem is but i think i may be offending or hurting my friends. Even though they dont say anything after a while i think they realize im just making excuses to keep them out. I dont want to hurt anyone's feelings but i dont know what to do as it seems the older i get the stronger this aversion becomes. ",social isolation,call afraid extremely uncomfortable people home lived alone year find almost phobia letting go great length avoid putting hiring handyman lying making excuse friend social person often preferring tv live comfortable spending time public house also classically agorophobic ago battled severe depression problem leaving sometimes somewhere get sure think may offending hurting even though dont say anything realize im keep want hurt anyone feeling know seems older stronger aversion becomes,,
"Feeling overwhelmed, stressed, and isolated is common for college students. Remember, you're not alone. There are many resources available on campus, such as counseling centers, student support groups, and academic advisors. Don't be afraid to reach out for help if you need it.",social isolation,feeling overwhelmed stressed isolated common college student remember alone many resource available campus counseling center support group academic advisor afraid reach help need,,
"What are some tips for living in social isolation? More people more than ever live in a state of social isolation with no prospects of having that change. What are some tips, advice, or ideas for those who may not have others to spend their time with?",social isolation,tip living social isolation people ever live state prospect change advice idea may others spend time,,
"Hello I need your help. I never had met any friends in the my town of origin, my parents divorced when I was 5, I lived with my grandma and and grandpa in a small village and was the only child there, to kindergarden I went only for one year because I hated it there and didn't have any friends there. My mom found a douchy boyfriend and sent me to school, where I didn't know anyone and was 14 km away from where I lived, had 2 friends in school and 2 girls as friends at home. And I was okay with that for that time, but when I went to high school I have become very close with 3 guys there and we became very close but over the course of time (now I am in 3rd year of HS) the friends started to get closer between each other, while I started to get more distant from them. Now I feel extremly lonely, and probably have depression, live with my mom and her douchy boyfriend that I hate for his anger issues and how stupid he can be and just want to end it all, I feel like my life has no goal and that I will end up lonely, sad and unloved by everyone",social isolation,hello need help never met friend town origin parent divorced lived grandma grandpa small village child kindergarden went one year hated mom found douchy boyfriend sent school know anyone km away girl home okay time high become close guy became course rd h started get closer distant feel extremly lonely probably depression live hate anger issue stupid want end like life goal sad unloved everyone,,
The only way my brain understands socialization is through the media,social isolation,way brain understands socialization medium,,
"Uncertain about the future, struggling to connect with others. Lately, I've been feeling lost and uncertain about what the future holds. It's hard for me to connect with others, and I often wonder if anyone truly understands what I'm going through.",social isolation,uncertain future struggling connect others lately feeling lost hold hard often wonder anyone truly understands going,,
" I'm working hard on learning this new AI specialization, but seeing all these accomplished professionals online makes me feel like a complete fraud. What if I'm not good enough for this field?  Everyone seems so much further ahead than me.",social isolation,working hard learning new ai specialization seeing accomplished professional online make feel like complete fraud good enough field everyone seems much ahead,,
"The bustling farmers market overflows with fresh produce and vibrant colors. The friendly banter between vendors and customers seems like a language I can't decipher. How can I overcome the awkwardness of initiating conversation at a market stall, transforming a shopping trip into a potential springboard for friendly connections with local vendors and fellow shoppers?",social isolation,bustling farmer market overflow fresh produce vibrant color friendly banter vendor customer seems like language decipher overcome awkwardness initiating conversation stall transforming shopping trip potential springboard connection local fellow shopper,,
I'm a freelancer who works from home and struggles with the lack of social interaction and structure in my day. How can I create a sense of community and routine to combat the isolation of remote work?,social isolation,freelancer work home struggle lack social interaction structure day create sense community routine combat isolation remote,,
I'm a person with hearing loss who struggles to communicate with others in social settings. How can I advocate for accommodations and accessibility measures that enable me to participate more fully in community activities?,social isolation,person hearing loss struggle communicate others social setting advocate accommodation accessibility measure enable participate fully community activity,,
The thought of dating again terrifies me.  I feel vulnerable and insecure after the divorce.  Will anyone want to be with me?  Can I trust myself to open up to someone new?,social isolation,thought dating terrifies feel vulnerable insecure divorce anyone want trust open someone new,,
I feel like there's no one who understands what I'm going through as a young lesbian. Is that true?,social isolation,feel like one understands going young lesbian true,,
"I'm considering deleting my social media accounts because they're affecting my mental health, but I'm worried about losing touch with friends. What should I do?",social isolation,considering deleting social medium account affecting mental health worried losing touch friend,,
"Grocery shopping used to be a mindless errand, now it's an exercise in navigating the bustling aisles without breaking down. The friendly banter between cashiers and customers, the shared smiles over forgotten coupons - it all feels a universe away. How can I find small moments of connection during everyday tasks, even if it's just a cashier asking how my day is?",social isolation,grocery shopping used mindless errand exercise navigating bustling aisle without breaking friendly banter cashier customer shared smile forgotten coupon feel universe away find small moment connection everyday task even asking day,,
"Why do I only have friends after experiencing significant trauma? Up until relatively recently my life's been rather normal (or so I thought). I've always had little problems here and there but apparently that was normal. However I had the worst social skills I had literally zero friends, even the people I thought were friends I have now realized that I just followed them around and they just accepted it but we rarely talked.",social isolation,friend experiencing significant trauma relatively recently life rather normal thought always little problem apparently however worst social skill literally zero even people realized followed around accepted rarely talked,,
"I'm starting to feel burnt out from work. I don't want to let my boss down, but I also need a break. What should I do?",social isolation,starting feel burnt work want let bos also need break,,
"I'm a college student living away from home for the first time, and I'm feeling overwhelmed by the transition and the pressure to make new friends. How can I cope with feelings of isolation and homesickness while adjusting to campus life?",social isolation,college student living away home first time feeling overwhelmed transition pressure make new friend cope isolation homesickness adjusting campus life,,
"I'm a single parent with limited support from family and friends, and I often feel isolated and overwhelmed by my responsibilities. How can I build a support system and find opportunities for respite?",social isolation,single parent limited support family friend often feel isolated overwhelmed responsibility build system find opportunity respite,,
One of the worst things about growing up with my particular brand of nmom is that I’ve been gaslighted so much that I no longer think anything I would contribute to a conversation is worth the effort. I have almost zero social media presence because I honestly don’t believe anyone cares what I have to say/what’s going on in my life. Even in this sub I’ve tried to engage with other people who have similar experiences and I end up erasing my comments. I gaslight myself now that my experiences are invalid and I’m being too sensitive. I tell myself that she wasn’t as bad as other nparents so no one cares about my experiences. I’m an adult now (36f) and I feel so isolated and unable to maintain relationships. Why would I reach out to old friends when I’d have nothing of interest to contribute to a conversation? Why would I call my family when i have nothing to say? If it wasn’t for my partner I wouldn’t interact with anyone outside of work.,social isolation,one worst thing growing particular brand nmom gaslighted much longer think anything would contribute conversation worth effort almost zero social medium presence honestly believe anyone care say going life even sub tried engage people similar experience end erasing comment gaslight invalid sensitive tell bad nparents adult feel isolated unable maintain relationship reach old friend nothing interest call family partner interact outside work,,
I fixates on the number of likes and comments she receives on her posts. This dependence on external validation fuels my social anxiety and hinders my ability to connect authentically with others.,social isolation,fixates number like comment receives post dependence external validation fuel social anxiety hinders ability connect authentically others,,
"Feeling anxious, emotional drained and need help? Hi everyone, i'm Faye and I'm a 21 year old female in the UK. So I've been diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression and been taking Sertraline 100mg antidepressants for just under a year now. I feel like my heart is constantly working over time and always exhausted. I'm not talking about a bit sleepy like, I can sleep for almost 15 hours straight and still be exhausted. I've tried everything and I'm still exhausted, I still feel low in self esteem and low in mood and honestly feel like I'm in a constant dream state? Like I'm not actually awake in the real world. Maybe I'm just strange but I just wanted to see if anyone had any advice to help me out? Or someone who can relate with me? So I feel less alone. Thanks everyone for reading x",social isolation,feeling anxious emotional drained need help hi everyone faye year old female uk diagnosed anxiety depression taking sertraline mg antidepressant feel like heart constantly working time always exhausted talking bit sleepy sleep almost hour straight still tried everything low self esteem mood honestly constant dream state actually awake real world maybe strange wanted see anyone advice someone relate le alone thanks reading,,
"The bookstore aisles, once a treasure trove of literary adventures, now feel like a labyrinth of loneliness. I yearn to discuss the latest thriller with a fellow bookworm, to argue the merits of a classic novel, but courage fails me. How can I bridge the gap between browsing silently and sparking a conversation about the written word?",social isolation,bookstore aisle treasure trove literary adventure feel like labyrinth loneliness yearn discus latest thriller fellow bookworm argue merit classic novel courage fails bridge gap browsing silently sparking conversation written word,,
The constant rumors and bullying I face on Snapchat from my peers have left me feeling so alone and excluded at school.,social isolation,constant rumor bullying face snapchat peer left feeling alone excluded school,,
"I often feel like I'm on the outside looking in, unable to fully engage with those around me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like outside looking unable fully engage around,,
"Living the dream of traveling the world and working remotely, but the constant movement makes it hard to build lasting friendships. Anyone else experience social isolation as a digital nomad? How do you combat loneliness on the road?",social isolation,living dream traveling world working remotely constant movement make hard build lasting friendship anyone else experience social isolation digital nomad combat loneliness road,,
"None of my friends ever want to hang out in person anymore, we just talk on social media all the time. I feel so disconnected from them.",social isolation,none friend ever want hang person anymore talk social medium time feel disconnected,,
"Ever since I lost my job, I feel adrift. I miss the daily routine and the sense of structure work provided. More importantly, I miss the social interaction with colleagues. It's isolating working from home all day.",social isolation,ever since lost job feel adrift miss daily routine sense structure work provided importantly social interaction colleague isolating working home day,,
"The dating app match seems perfect, witty banter and shared interests igniting excitement.  But the thought of a real date triggers anxiety - the fear of rejection and the pressure to perform.  Can I manage my expectations and take a chance on a potential connection, or will fear keep me isolated?",social isolation,dating app match seems perfect witty banter shared interest igniting excitement thought real date trigger anxiety fear rejection pressure perform manage expectation take chance potential connection keep isolated,,
Feeling isolated and want to find a new hobby that also allows me to meet people with similar interests. Any recommendations for social hobbies that are beginner-friendly and don't require a lot of experience?,social isolation,feeling isolated want find new hobby also allows meet people similar interest recommendation social beginner friendly require lot experience,,
"The enticing energy of a board game cafe fills me with longing.  Observing others laughing and connecting over games stings with loneliness.  The fear of interrupting established groups or appearing awkward holds me back.  Can I muster the courage to join a game or strike up a conversation, turning observation into participation?",social isolation,enticing energy board game cafe fill longing observing others laughing connecting sting loneliness fear interrupting established group appearing awkward hold back muster courage join strike conversation turning observation participation,,
Seeing all the picture-perfect friend groups on Instagram is really making me feel like an outcast and total loner at school.,social isolation,seeing picture perfect friend group instagram really making feel like outcast total loner school,,
"I often feel lonely even when surrounded by people, and I struggle to connect with them.

 ",social isolation,often feel lonely even surrounded people struggle connect,,
"Feeling envious of others' lives on social media, seeking fulfillment. Whenever I see the highlight reels of other people's lives on social media, I can't help but feel envious. It's like everyone else has it all figured out, while I'm still searching for fulfillment.",social isolation,feeling envious others life social medium seeking fulfillment whenever see highlight reel people help feel like everyone else figured still searching,,
"I'm not going to make an overly detailed explanation because I'm not in the right mental state but how do you deal with being socially isolated? My circumstances are that, I have very few people in my life who I get to socialize with and lately for the past month or so they have been very distant and unavailable. It is not them having malice or anything, just a circumstance of our lives. However, those few friends I had were basically all I had... and now all I do is sit in my room and be depressed with no avenue to talk to anybody just about ever. I have no personal connection to anybody right now. Before anybody suggests things that won't work... I don't have a car, can't go places. I don't have money. can't buy things. I can't fix these issues at the moment. I do not do well online with others as I find most people to just be mean spirited and it only makes my situation worse anytime I try to interact with people like that... I just don't know what to do",social isolation,going make overly detailed explanation right mental state deal socially isolated circumstance people life get socialize lately past month distant unavailable malice anything however friend basically sit room depressed avenue talk anybody ever personal connection suggests thing work car go place money buy fix issue moment well online others find mean spirited situation worse anytime try interact like know,,
"I often feel like I'm drowning in a sea of faces, unable to find a lifeboat.

 ",social isolation,often feel like drowning sea face unable find lifeboat,,
"I want to use LinkedIn to build a network and learn from others in the field, but all these overly polished profiles feel inauthentic.  I wish people would be more open about their struggles and learning experiences. Maybe then it wouldn't feel so isolating.",social isolation,want use linkedin build network learn others field overly polished profile feel inauthentic wish people would open struggle learning experience maybe isolating,,
"Social events are my worst nightmare. My anxiety goes through the roof, and I end up feeling even more isolated. Any tips for people with social anxiety to navigate social gatherings without having a panic attack",social isolation,social event worst nightmare anxiety go roof end feeling even isolated tip people navigate gathering without panic attack,,
I spend so much time obsessing over my online image that I feel completely disconnected from my classmates and the school community.,social isolation,spend much time obsessing online image feel completely disconnected classmate school community,,
I find myself scrolling through Instagram and feeling disconnected from real friends. How can I use social media more positively?,social isolation,find scrolling instagram feeling disconnected real friend use social medium positively,,
"I'm a person with chronic pain or illness who faces skepticism and disbelief from others, leading to feelings of isolation and frustration. How can I educate others about my condition and find empathy and support within my community?",social isolation,person chronic pain illness face skepticism disbelief others leading feeling isolation frustration educate condition find empathy support within community,,
I feel like I'm the only one struggling with social isolation. Is this normal?,social isolation,feel like one struggling social isolation normal,,
I'm struggling with anxiety about going to college because I'm worried about finding my place and making friends. What can I do to prepare?,social isolation,struggling anxiety going college worried finding place making friend prepare,,
"Board game pieces sit untouched on the coffee table, a testament to a solitary evening.  The thought of reaching out feels exhausting, yet the silence weighs heavy.  Can I overcome the hurdle of initiating connection, or is the comfort of loneliness winning?",social isolation,board game piece sit untouched coffee table testament solitary evening thought reaching feel exhausting yet silence weighs heavy overcome hurdle initiating connection comfort loneliness winning,,
"I’m 21 (M). Been working full time since forever. It’s depressing because I’ve been living alone. I just want to meet people my age who are in the same boat. I don’t like going to bars and clubs because it’s really not my thing. Idk if there’s any group for adults where u can meet and just chit chat (peer support ) or probably more options like hiking, exploring nearby trails or camping. I just want to go out and stop holding myself from exploring but make new friends at the same time. Thanks. I’m happy to receive DMs.",social isolation,working full time since forever depressing living alone want meet people age boat like going bar club really thing idk group adult chit chat peer support probably option hiking exploring nearby trail camping go stop holding make new friend thanks happy receive dm,,
"Feeling like nobody understands, seeking someone to talk to. It feels like nobody truly understands what I'm going through, and it's hard to find someone to talk to who gets it. I'm longing for someone who can empathize with me and offer support.",social isolation,feeling like nobody understands seeking someone talk feel truly going hard find get longing empathize offer support,,
"I feel completely unprepared for fatherhood. The baby seems so fragile, and I'm worried I'll mess something up. What can I do?",social isolation,feel completely unprepared fatherhood baby seems fragile worried mess something,,
Snapchat makes me feel pressured to always show the fun and exciting parts of my life. How can I alleviate this pressure?,social isolation,snapchat make feel pressured always show fun exciting part life alleviate pressure,,
"I don't want to be a bother to my children.  They have their own lives and families.  I wouldn't want to impose.  So I keep to myself most of the time, but the loneliness is getting unbearable.",social isolation,want bother child life family impose keep time loneliness getting unbearable,,
"Lately, social media feels like a double-edged sword, amplifying my loneliness instead of alleviating it. Despite countless virtual interactions, I'm left craving authentic connections. I'm eager to explore strategies to bridge the gap between my online and offline worlds",social isolation,lately social medium feel like double edged sword amplifying loneliness instead alleviating despite countless virtual interaction left craving authentic connection eager explore strategy bridge gap online offline world,,
"I often feel like I'm an outsider, looking in on a world that doesn't understand me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like outsider looking world understand,,
When living abroad sometimes because I didn’t speak the language very well. I go backpacking and live in a tent once in a while and have zero contact with any ‘civilization’ (no cellphone or internet service up in the mountains!). And one of the great things about living in a city is that I don’t have any ‘real life’ friends so simply by not getting on my computer I can be as isolated as I wish. (Does reading 19th century novels count as far as ‘being isolated’? Or is that just connecting to a different society than the one around me today?),social isolation,living abroad sometimes speak language well go backpacking live tent zero contact civilization cellphone internet service mountain one great thing city real life friend simply getting computer isolated wish reading th century novel count far connecting different society around today,,
"I was in a bit of a funk during these winter months, particularly December and January when the days were dark, and I went to check in with my doctor about it. He told me that since I live alone, I’m socially isolated and need to look into joining clubs, gyms, etc in order to feel more connected. For context, I’m quite social - I see my friends/family on the weekends and talk to them everyday. I’m also an elementary school teacher and go to work everyday and am always around large groups of people. My doctor is saying that this isn’t enough. I would’ve never considered myself socially isolated until he brought it up. Any thoughts on this?",social isolation,bit funk winter month particularly december january day dark went check doctor told since live alone socially isolated need look joining club gym etc order feel connected context quite social see friend family weekend talk everyday also elementary school teacher go work always around large group people saying enough would never considered brought thought,,
All the mean comments and bullying I'm getting on TikTok from my classmates are really making me feel left out and alone.,social isolation,mean comment bullying getting tiktok classmate really making feel left alone,,
Every day feels the same and I'm losing track of time. How can I break this cycle of monotony and feel more engaged with life?,social isolation,every day feel losing track time break cycle monotony engaged life,,
I feel like I'm falling behind everyone else in life.,social isolation,feel like falling behind everyone else life,,
"for some years now I (19f) don't have any social life whatsoever. no friends, no relationships, not even acquaintances. I only talk to my family now. don't even know how that happened honestly, my mental health kinda deteriorated during school so I started to sit in my room all day, and all my friends just... disappeared. it's not my fault that I am like this, but it is my responsibility to change and grow. I just don't really know how. while I sat in my room, miserable and alone, my peers were hanging out, learning, having fun, experiencing stuff. I don't think I have anything to bring to the table, yk? who in their right mind would talk to me, rather than a normal person that has their stuff together? but what can I do about this? I can't go back in time and just have those experiences. people form connection on the base of sharing fun stories about their past, but there's nothing to share about me.",social isolation,year social life whatsoever friend relationship even acquaintance talk family know happened honestly mental health kinda deteriorated school started sit room day disappeared fault like responsibility change grow really sat miserable alone peer hanging learning fun experiencing stuff think anything bring table yk right mind would rather normal person together go back time experience people form connection base sharing story past nothing share,,
"iam a teenager.Every post is a highlight reel, a vacation, a celebration.  My life feels so ordinary in comparison.  I crave connection, but these filtered realities make me feel invisible.  The more I scroll, the lonelier I become.  Is there something wrong with me because I can't find happiness online?",social isolation,iam teenager every post highlight reel vacation celebration life feel ordinary comparison crave connection filtered reality make invisible scroll lonelier become something wrong find happiness online,,
I'm a survivor of domestic violence who has isolated myself from friends and family out of fear and shame. How can I break free from this cycle of isolation and rebuild my support network?,social isolation,survivor domestic violence isolated friend family fear shame break free cycle isolation rebuild support network,,
"I want to document these precious moments with my baby, but I'm also worried about oversharing online.  There's so much conflicting information out there about privacy and safety.  Now I'm afraid to post anything at all.",social isolation,want document precious moment baby also worried oversharing online much conflicting information privacy safety afraid post anything,,
"Nice picture. this response on the social media is the only thing; that ever makes me happy, these days",social isolation,nice picture response social medium thing ever make happy day,,
"I feel so alone and disconnected, even when I'm surrounded by people on social media, because I don't have any genuine, in-person relationships anymore.",social isolation,feel alone disconnected even surrounded people social medium genuine person relationship anymore,,
"The pressure to attend family gatherings weighs heavily on me. While I cherish my family, the constant questions about why are you single? or don't you have any friends? leave me feeling judged and isolated. How can I manage these situations without feeling defensive and navigate family gatherings with a sense of peace?",social isolation,pressure attend family gathering weighs heavily cherish constant question single friend leave feeling judged isolated manage situation without defensive navigate sense peace,,
"I feel like I'm on the outside looking in, unable to break through the barrier to connection.

 ",social isolation,feel like outside looking unable break barrier connection,,
"i am at school cafeteria,iam a teenagerwho sits alone at a lunch table,my eyes glued to my phone.i see everyone else laughing and talking in groups.Maybe I should put my phone down... but what if they don't want to talk to me?  Ugh, this is so much easier online.  At least I can pretend to be someone cool there.",social isolation,school cafeteria iam teenagerwho sits alone lunch table eye glued phone see everyone else laughing talking group maybe put want talk ugh much easier online least pretend someone cool,,
I feel like I'm constantly on display and everyone is judging my every move.,social isolation,feel like constantly display everyone judging every move,,
I keep comparing myself to other guys online and feeling inadequate. How can I stop this unhealthy habit?,social isolation,keep comparing guy online feeling inadequate stop unhealthy habit,,
"Attending one meetup after another feels exhausting, the constant search for connection overwhelming.  Stepping back feels scary, the fear of missing out holding me back from finding a genuine connection.  Can I approach meetups with intentionality, focusing on quality interactions over quantity?",social isolation,attending one meetup another feel exhausting constant search connection overwhelming stepping back scary fear missing holding finding genuine approach meetups intentionality focusing quality interaction quantity,,
I'm terrified of being judged by others. It stops me from putting myself out there.,social isolation,terrified judged others stop putting,,
I'm a person with disabilities who faces barriers to accessing public spaces and social events. How can I advocate for inclusivity and create opportunities for social participation in my community?,social isolation,person disability face barrier accessing public space social event advocate inclusivity create opportunity participation community,,
"I feel terrible about this, but sometimes I get so caught up scrolling through social media that I neglect my baby's needs.  It's like my phone is a drug, and I can't seem to put it down.  I want to be present and enjoy this time, but the constant notifications keep pulling me away.",social isolation,feel terrible sometimes get caught scrolling social medium neglect baby need like phone drug seem put want present enjoy time constant notification keep pulling away,,
"I’ve tried reaching out online, but I still feel disconnected from my peers. What else can I do?",social isolation,tried reaching online still feel disconnected peer else,,
Holidays and family gatherings are the worst.  Seeing my ex with their new partner brings back all the pain of the divorce.  I miss the sense of belonging and the traditional family dinners we used to have.  How do I navigate these situations without feeling excluded?,social isolation,holiday family gathering worst seeing ex new partner brings back pain divorce miss sense belonging traditional dinner used navigate situation without feeling excluded,,
I feel so alone and excluded since my classmates have been bullying me online and leaving me out of everything.,social isolation,feel alone excluded since classmate bullying online leaving everything,,
I'm overwhelmed by the negativity on Facebook. How can I create a more positive space there?,social isolation,overwhelmed negativity facebook create positive space,,
"Everything feels unfamiliar here. I don't know the streets, the best places to hang out, or the local events. This unfamiliarity makes it hard to feel comfortable and explore new possibilities for socializing.",social isolation,everything feel unfamiliar know street best place hang local event unfamiliarity make hard comfortable explore new possibility socializing,,
"School is making me suicidal I want to sum this up as fast as possible..I failed my grade last year so I am back in freshmen year. My grades have dropped so low, every class I am failing at. My school doesn't have anything alternative and my mom won't do homeschooling. And I asked my brother (since he sorta raised me) but he will only do what my mom tells him and she says no.I can't stand to wake up everyday and go to a school where the kids will just judge me and the teachers will complain about my lack of work.And like a post I read on here, I have never really envisioned my future. I never pictured myself living in my own house, all grown up.I just feel like it would be better on my end to call it quits and be done. I feel like completely giving up. I am too weak, I hate myself and don't want to care anymore.There is no other option, and I am so scared ",social isolation,school making suicidal want sum fast possible failed grade last year back freshman dropped low every class failing anything alternative mom homeschooling asked brother since sorta raised tell say stand wake everyday go kid judge teacher complain lack work like post read never really envisioned future pictured living house grown feel would better end call quits done completely giving weak hate care anymore option scared,,
"I often feel like I'm a ghost, invisible to those around me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like ghost invisible around,,
"I'm an introvert, and while I enjoy spending time alone, I also crave meaningful connections with others. Finding a balance between solitude and socializing is challenging, especially in a world that values extroversion.",social isolation,introvert enjoy spending time alone also crave meaningful connection others finding balance solitude socializing challenging especially world value extroversion,,
"I feel like no one understands me or cares about what I have to say.

 ",social isolation,feel like one understands care say,,
"I recently retired, and while I initially enjoyed the freedom, I now feel aimless and lonely. My former coworkers have moved on, and I miss the sense of purpose and camaraderie that came with my job.",social isolation,recently retired initially enjoyed freedom feel aimless lonely former coworkers moved miss sense purpose camaraderie came job,,
"I feel disconnected from those around me, like I'm on a different wavelength.

 ",social isolation,feel disconnected around like different wavelength,,
"Ever since I joined Twitter, I feel like I'm just shouting into the void. How can I make my experience more interactive?",social isolation,ever since joined twitter feel like shouting void make experience interactive,,
"The constant betrayals and harassment I've faced on TikTok have made it so hard for me to trust anyone, even my closest classmates at school.",social isolation,constant betrayal harassment faced tiktok made hard trust anyone even closest classmate school,,
"Having Hard Time Preparing For Future , I can never get enough liked on social media ",social isolation,hard time preparing future never get enough liked social medium,,
"i am a grandparent, today i had a video call with my grand son,i asked him to look at how pretty the flowers are blooming in my garden!  I wish you could see them in person, sweetie.But my grandkid said:  Maybe next time. Gotta go, Mom's calling me for another game.",social isolation,grandparent today video call grand son asked look pretty flower blooming garden wish could see person sweetie grandkid said maybe next time gotta go mom calling another game,,
"I see people laughing and connecting around me, but I'm too afraid to initiate conversations. I worry about saying the wrong thing or seeming awkward. I miss out on so many opportunities to make friends.",social isolation,see people laughing connecting around afraid initiate conversation worry saying wrong thing seeming awkward miss many opportunity make friend,,
"Missing having someone to share life with after a breakup. Since my breakup, I've been missing the companionship and intimacy that comes with being in a relationship. It's hard to adjust to being alone again after having someone by my side for so long.",social isolation,missing someone share life breakup since companionship intimacy come relationship hard adjust alone side long,,
"I prefer spending time alone rather than with others, and I often avoid social gatherings.

 ",social isolation,prefer spending time alone rather others often avoid social gathering,,
"Online games provide a sense of community and connection, but I rarely interact with people outside the gaming world. Is this a healthy way to combat social isolation, or am I just replacing one form of isolation with another?",social isolation,online game provide sense community connection rarely interact people outside gaming world healthy way combat social isolation replacing one form another,,
"My partner thrives in social situations and constantly wants to be around people. I, on the other hand, need a healthy dose of solitude to recharge. This difference in social needs is causing friction in our relationship. How can we find a balance?",social isolation,partner thrives social situation constantly want around people hand need healthy dose solitude recharge difference causing friction relationship find balance,,
I feel like I'm stuck in a rut and nothing will ever change.,social isolation,feel like stuck rut nothing ever change,,
The hateful messages and rumors about me online have been really triggering my depression and making me withdraw from all my school friends.,social isolation,hateful message rumor online really triggering depression making withdraw school friend,,
"I've noticed one of my students has become increasingly depressed and withdrawn, and they've confided that hateful messages and rumors online have been triggering suicidal thoughts.",social isolation,noticed one student become increasingly depressed withdrawn confided hateful message rumor online triggering suicidal thought,,
I've become so isolated from my hobbies and interests because I'm always mindlessly scrolling on social media instead of pursuing them.,social isolation,become isolated hobby interest always mindlessly scrolling social medium instead pursuing,,
"I often spend time online seeking validation from others and comparing myself to them.

 ",social isolation,often spend time online seeking validation others comparing,,
I'm constantly worried about the future and what might go wrong.,social isolation,constantly worried future might go wrong,,
"There's a new content creation trend every other day! I feel this constant pressure to keep up, but it's impossible.  This fear of missing out on the next big thing is paralyzing and keeps me from focusing on building something meaningful",social isolation,new content creation trend every day feel constant pressure keep impossible fear missing next big thing paralyzing focusing building something meaningful,,
How can I deal with online harassment on social media platforms like Twitter and Instagram?,social isolation,deal online harassment social medium platform like twitter instagram,,
I keep getting into arguments with loved ones because I'm so easily frustrated.,social isolation,keep getting argument loved one easily frustrated,,
I’m starting to feel indifferent about reconnecting with my pre-pandemic social life. Is it okay to feel this way?,social isolation,starting feel indifferent reconnecting pre pandemic social life okay way,,
Dating apps feel overwhelming and impersonal. Is there another way to meet LGBTQ+ girls?,social isolation,dating apps feel overwhelming impersonal another way meet lgbtq girl,,
"I'm a caregiver for a loved one with a chronic illness or disability, and I often feel isolated and unsupported in my role. How can I reach out for help and connect with others who understand what I'm going through?",social isolation,caregiver loved one chronic illness disability often feel isolated unsupported role reach help connect others understand going,,
"Board games line my shelf, gathering dust. The memories of laughter and competition with friends fade.  Reaching out to reconnect feels awkward, a reminder of the distance that has grown.  Can I bridge the gap and reignite the fun of playing games with those I care about?",social isolation,board game line shelf gathering dust memory laughter competition friend fade reaching reconnect feel awkward reminder distance grown bridge gap reignite fun playing care,,
"After being targeted by cyberbullying, i withdraws from social media altogether. i feels ostracized and excluded from the online community i once enjoyed.",social isolation,targeted cyberbullying withdraws social medium altogether feel ostracized excluded online community enjoyed,,
"He picked my name, suddenly said I was playing victim ..Gosh. Have you met the new prey to gaslight and groom there?..Abusive men are dangerous. Abusive men who suddenly know the vocab social justice is even worse. Be careful everyone and block liberally. blocking on social media is the only way I know how to find peace.",social isolation,picked name suddenly said playing victim gosh met new prey gaslight groom abusive men dangerous know vocab social justice even worse careful everyone block liberally blocking medium way find peace,,
Feeling anxious and stressed about negative news on social media. The constant barrage of negative news on social media has been weighing heavily on my mind lately. It's hard not to feel anxious and stressed out about everything that's going on in the world.,social isolation,feeling anxious stressed negative news social medium constant barrage weighing heavily mind lately hard feel everything going world,,
Feeling really down and alone.,social isolation,feeling really alone,,
"The bustling city street is a sea of faces, yet I feel utterly alone.  Thousands brush past, oblivious to my internal world.  Can connection be found amidst the urban anonymity, or am I destined to remain a stranger in a crowd?",social isolation,bustling city street sea face yet feel utterly alone thousand brush past oblivious internal world connection found amidst urban anonymity destined remain stranger crowd,,
I'm a member of a remote or rural community that lacks access to mental health services and support groups. How can I cope with feelings of isolation and find resources to address my mental health needs?,social isolation,member remote rural community lack access mental health service support group cope feeling isolation find resource address need,,
How can I make new friends and connect with people when it feels like I'm stuck inside all the time?,social isolation,make new friend connect people feel like stuck inside time,,
"Volunteering at a soup kitchen used to be a way to give back and feel a part of something bigger. Lately, the shared mission feels overshadowed by the surface-level interactions. How can I move beyond small talk with fellow volunteers and forge deeper connections, fostering a sense of community while serving those in need?",social isolation,volunteering soup kitchen used way give back feel part something bigger lately shared mission overshadowed surface level interaction move beyond small talk fellow volunteer forge deeper connection fostering sense community serving need,,
"The group chat explodes with weekend plans - movie nights, brunches, adventures. My fingers hover over the keyboard, a witty reply forming, then vanishing.  Is the fear of rejection stronger than the desire to connect, or can I push past the anxiety and join the fun?",social isolation,group chat explodes weekend plan movie night brunch adventure finger hover keyboard witty reply forming vanishing fear rejection stronger desire connect push past anxiety join fun,,
"I feel so cut off from my community because I'm always glued to my phone, and I rarely participate in local events or activities anymore.",social isolation,feel cut community always glued phone rarely participate local event activity anymore,,
"I often feel like I don't belong anywhere, and I struggle to find my place in social settings.

 ",social isolation,often feel like belong anywhere struggle find place social setting,,
"I feel like I'm living in a world of my own, disconnected from those around me.

 ",social isolation,feel like living world disconnected around,,
"My usual creative spark feels extinguished, the inspiration for writing, painting, or music lost.  The solitude that once fueled my creativity now suffocates it.  Can I find a balance between solitude and connection, where inspiration thrives?",social isolation,usual creative spark feel extinguished inspiration writing painting music lost solitude fueled creativity suffocates find balance connection thrives,,
"I am almost done with my junior of high school and I have been alone since middle school. I go to school every day with over 2000 people but I barely even know any of them. I never do anything on weekends because I am not even relatively close with anyone. It has been like this for years and I am tired of it. I don't really feel angry at any of my peers but just myself. I am scrawny, painstakingly pale, I have no money so I have bad clothes and basically wear two alternating outfits. I stick out and am just known as that creepy kid, which I've been called to my face in class. Every day I go to school I feel pathetic and humiliated. Most of my school is filled with preppy mean kids and homophobic, racist people. At the same time I know there are some nice people and I feel incredibly isolated from all of them. I'm tired of being alone.. I want friends, I want a relationship, I want anything. People say to just get out there, join a club, or something. I've tried all of that, I've gone to different clubs, but it's no different. I don't know anyone there so I just sit by myself and end up not coming back.",social isolation,almost done junior high school alone since middle go every day people barely even know never anything weekend relatively close anyone like year tired really feel angry peer scrawny painstakingly pale money bad clothes basically wear two alternating outfit stick known creepy kid called face class pathetic humiliated filled preppy mean homophobic racist time nice incredibly isolated want friend relationship say get join club something tried gone different sit end coming back,,
"I feel like I'm lost in a fog, unable to see the path ahead.

 ",social isolation,feel like lost fog unable see path ahead,,
"Spending evenings alone, longing for companionship. There are evenings when I find myself all alone, and the silence can be deafening. I long for someone to share those moments with, someone who can fill the void of loneliness.",social isolation,spending evening alone longing companionship find silence deafening long someone share moment fill void loneliness,,
"I'm a member of a tight-knit community that values conformity and tradition, making it difficult for me to express my true identity and beliefs. How can I find acceptance and connection without compromising who I am?",social isolation,member tight knit community value conformity tradition making difficult express true identity belief find acceptance connection without compromising,,
"Feeling lonely and disconnected, looking for a friend. I often feel like I'm drifting through life, disconnected from those around me. Having a friend to share my journey with would make all the difference in the world.",social isolation,feeling lonely disconnected looking friend often feel like drifting life around share journey would make difference world,,
"The festive decorations are packed away, the holiday cheer replaced by an emptiness.  Forced interactions and cheerful small talk left me feeling more alone.  Do holidays amplify loneliness, or is it a reflection of a deeper need for connection throughout the year?",social isolation,festive decoration packed away holiday cheer replaced emptiness forced interaction cheerful small talk left feeling alone amplify loneliness reflection deeper need connection throughout year,,
"As an older adult, I've noticed that many of my friends and peers are starting to retire or move away, leaving me feeling increasingly isolated. How can I maintain social connections and find purpose in my later years?",social isolation,older adult noticed many friend peer starting retire move away leaving feeling increasingly isolated maintain social connection find purpose later year,,
I feel like there's no one who understands what I'm going through. Is it true?,social isolation,feel like one understands going true,,
"How can I help my friends who are struggling with isolation, but don't want to talk about it?",social isolation,help friend struggling isolation want talk,,
"Since retiring, I've found myself with more free time but fewer social interactions, leading to feelings of loneliness. How can I stay connected with others and combat isolation in retirement?",social isolation,since retiring found free time fewer social interaction leading feeling loneliness stay connected others combat isolation retirement,,
"I know it's silly, but seeing fewer likes on my baby pictures than other moms makes me anxious.  Is something wrong with my baby?  Am I doing a bad job?  I know I shouldn't compare, but it's hard not to in the social media world.",social isolation,know silly seeing fewer like baby picture mom make anxious something wrong bad job compare hard social medium world,,
"it feels like I'm going through the motions. I used to enjoy things like [mention a hobby or activity], but now I just don't have the energy or motivation to do them anymore. I find myself sleeping a lot more than usual, but even then, I wake up feeling tired.
On top of that, this constant feeling of worry and nervousness has been creeping in. It's like there's this voice in my head that keeps telling me everything is going to go wrong, even with small things. It makes it hard to concentrate and relax, and it's starting to interfere with my daily life.",social isolation,feel like going motion used enjoy thing mention hobby activity energy motivation anymore find sleeping lot usual even wake feeling tired top constant worry nervousness creeping voice head keep telling everything go wrong small make hard concentrate relax starting interfere daily life,,
"As a military spouse, I've had to move frequently, making it challenging to maintain friendships and feel a sense of belonging. How can I cope with the loneliness of military life and build a support network in each new location?",social isolation,military spouse move frequently making challenging maintain friendship feel sense belonging cope loneliness life build support network new location,,
I'm a single parent and often feel isolated from my friends who don't have children. How can I find support and camaraderie with other single parents in similar situations?,social isolation,single parent often feel isolated friend child find support camaraderie similar situation,,
I'm a stay-at-home parent who feels isolated and lonely during the day when my children are at school. How can I prioritize my own social needs and cultivate friendships outside of my role as a caregiver?,social isolation,stay home parent feel isolated lonely day child school prioritize social need cultivate friendship outside role caregiver,,
The thought of social gatherings fills me with dread. Negative self-talk takes over. I convince myself everyone will judge me or find me boring. This self-doubt keeps me isolated and lonely.,social isolation,thought social gathering fill dread negative self talk take convince everyone judge find boring doubt keep isolated lonely,,
"I spend excessive amounts of time online, seeking virtual connections to compensate for my lack of real-life relationships.

 ",social isolation,spend excessive amount time online seeking virtual connection compensate lack real life relationship,,
"Working from home offers flexibility, but the isolation takes its toll.  Joining a co-working space feels tempting, but the fear of disrupting others or seeming like an outsider holds me back.  Can I find a balance between independent work and a sense of community in a co-working space?",social isolation,working home offer flexibility isolation take toll joining co space feel tempting fear disrupting others seeming like outsider hold back find balance independent work sense community,,
"people seem to have me figured out before I even say a word. Because I'm good at math, they assume I'm some antisocial genius.  But I just want to find friends who share similar interests!   It's hard to break out of this stereotype.",social isolation,people seem figured even say word good math assume antisocial genius want find friend share similar interest hard break stereotype,,
"Even though I am an extrovert, social isolation has contributed or even fully caused my symptoms of: dissociation in social situations, not knowing what to say or how to act to people, missing social cues, anxiety attacks, fear of confrontation, mistrust, etc etc. The effects are profound and it’s a lot harder to learn social skills when you are an adult.",social isolation,even though extrovert social isolation contributed fully caused symptom dissociation situation knowing say act people missing cue anxiety attack fear confrontation mistrust etc effect profound lot harder learn skill adult,,
"I keep putting things off until the last minute, even when I know it stresses me out.",social isolation,keep putting thing last minute even know stress,,
"Lately, I’ve been feeling disconnected from my own feelings and motivations. Is there a way to overcome this emotional numbness?",social isolation,lately feeling disconnected motivation way overcome emotional numbness,,
The isolation has made my home feel like a prison. How can I change this feeling?,social isolation,isolation made home feel like prison change feeling,,
"My parents and little sister left an hour ago to go to a party. Im home alone and have been walking around my house picking out spots in the house that are capable of holding a 180 lb male. I dont even know how to tie a noose and im going around laughing at myself while saying 'Thats no strong enough' or 'That could probably hold my weight'. I got rejected a couple hours ago to someone who i now realize doesnt care about me. She claims to but I know she doesnt. She acts just like how Ive been acting for the past 4 years pretending to be happy whenever someone else is present. I don't think my parents would care if I did rid myself, every night I hear them talking about how stupid and worthless I am but during the day they pretend like they care alot. I know they dont. Funny thing is whenever I think about ending myself I dont get sad. I feel some kind of joy, some kind of hope. I have attempted to take my life 5 times so far (I will spare you details) however I have a different feeling about attempt #6. I think it might actually work, which makes me happier than almost everything else. I am lucky to go 5 minutes without thinking of suicide. I have an amazing life that people would kill for yet I feel empty inside. I have 'friends' but I can tell that they don't care about me",social isolation,parent little sister left hour ago go party im home alone walking around house picking spot capable holding lb male dont even know tie noose going laughing saying thats strong enough could probably hold weight got rejected couple someone realize doesnt care claim act like ive acting past year pretending happy whenever else present think would rid every night hear talking stupid worthless day pretend alot funny thing ending get sad feel kind joy hope attempted take life time far spare detail however different feeling attempt might actually work make happier almost everything lucky minute without thinking suicide amazing people kill yet empty inside friend tell,,
"I feel guilty for feeling lonely after initiating the divorce.  The marriage was unhappy, and I know I made the right decision, but the loneliness is overwhelming.  Was it all a mistake?",social isolation,feel guilty feeling lonely initiating divorce marriage unhappy know made right decision loneliness overwhelming mistake,,
"I often feel like I'm trapped in my own thoughts, unable to escape.

 ",social isolation,often feel like trapped thought unable escape,,
The constant fear of being targeted by bullies online is giving me so much anxiety that I've completely isolated myself from my classmates.,social isolation,constant fear targeted bully online giving much anxiety completely isolated classmate,,
I'm a parent of a child with special needs who struggles to find inclusive and supportive activities for my family. How can I advocate for accessibility and acceptance in my community and create opportunities for connection for my child?,social isolation,parent child special need struggle find inclusive supportive activity family advocate accessibility acceptance community create opportunity connection,,
"As I navigate the digital landscape, I'm confronted by the stark reality of my social isolation. Despite the constant stream of notifications, I feel increasingly disconnected from the world around me. I'm eager to explore ways to break free from this digital loneliness and cultivate authentic connections.",social isolation,navigate digital landscape confronted stark reality social isolation despite constant stream notification feel increasingly disconnected world around eager explore way break free loneliness cultivate authentic connection,,
" everyone online seems to have this picture-perfect life with their newborn.  These mommy bloggers have their babies on these perfect sleep schedules, eating organic everything, and looking adorable in designer outfits. Meanwhile, I'm here with a screaming baby, sleep deprivation, and milk stains on everything.  I feel like such a failure.",social isolation,everyone online seems picture perfect life newborn mommy blogger baby sleep schedule eating organic everything looking adorable designer outfit meanwhile screaming deprivation milk stain feel like failure,,
"Due to the COVID-19 pandemic, I've been stuck at home for months and haven't seen my friends or family in person. How can I cope with the feelings of isolation and maintain social connections while staying safe?",social isolation,due covid pandemic stuck home month seen friend family person cope feeling isolation maintain social connection staying safe,,
"I'm a young person who feels pressured to conform to social norms and expectations, leading to feelings of alienation and disconnection. How can I embrace my individuality and find acceptance among my peers?",social isolation,young person feel pressured conform social norm expectation leading feeling alienation disconnection embrace individuality find acceptance among peer,,
Social media is making me feel like I need to constantly present a perfect online persona. It's exhausting!,social isolation,social medium making feel like need constantly present perfect online persona exhausting,,
" I know I'm not the most outgoing person. I actually enjoy my alone time. But lately, it feels different.  Everyone seems to have their squad, and I'm just stuck on the outside looking in. I crave some genuine connection, but putting myself out there feels exhausting.",social isolation,know outgoing person actually enjoy alone time lately feel different everyone seems squad stuck outside looking crave genuine connection putting exhausting,,
"I'm a recent immigrant to a new country, and I feel isolated and disconnected from my culture and community. How can I navigate the challenges of assimilation while maintaining my cultural identity and finding belonging in my new home?",social isolation,recent immigrant new country feel isolated disconnected culture community navigate challenge assimilation maintaining cultural identity finding belonging home,,
"I'm a stay-at-home parent, and while I love my children, I sometimes feel isolated and disconnected from the adult world. My days revolve around childcare and household chores, leaving little time for socializing with other adults.",social isolation,stay home parent love child sometimes feel isolated disconnected adult world day revolve around childcare household chore leaving little time socializing,,
"Whenever I try to plan an in-person hangout now, my friends always seem to have an excuse not to come, like they're worried about COVID. I feel so isolated.",social isolation,whenever try plan person hangout friend always seem excuse come like worried covid feel isolated,,
"Nothing brings me joy anymore and I just feel like sleeping and drinking copious amounts of coffee is the only thing that gets me through the day. I know I'm depressed and have been depressed as hell since I was little. I just have been depressed to the point where I just feel like breaking down crying and  I have no friends, my parents are too busy to care, and my only goal in life is ruined. I'm tired of having to worry about anything anymore. I want it to be over.",social isolation,nothing brings joy anymore feel like sleeping drinking copious amount coffee thing get day know depressed hell since little point breaking cry friend parent busy care goal life ruined tired worry anything want,,
" 2019...looks the same as 2018. I love her, but I let my issues get in the way. He came into the picture. He was someone I thought was a friend, a confidant. I trusted him. He used my negative thoughts I had about myself against me and convinced her I didn't love her. Had to leave because I couldn't deal with it. So now I'm alone.",social isolation,look love let issue get way came picture someone thought friend confidant trusted used negative convinced leave deal alone,,
"Even when I'm hanging out with a group of people, I find myself just staring at my phone the whole time because I don't know how to have a real conversation anymore.",social isolation,even hanging group people find staring phone whole time know real conversation anymore,,
"This is a little different because not all my problems are due to homeschool, I’ve got mental stuff going on as well and social anxiety. Homeschool just kind of gave me the perfect environment for my bad tendencies to thrive. But I figure some of you are in the same place as me and were socially isolated for a long time. So I guess what I’m asking is if you were isolated how did it affect you? Because it literally drove me insane and made me question my reality among other things. Like am I even real if I don’t affect anyone or anything? I believed I had an inability to have conversations with people and I felt so different than everyone else. I’m just trying to figure out exactly what my issues are here and which ones are due to social isolation. Thanks for any input.",social isolation,little different problem due homeschool got mental stuff going well social anxiety kind gave perfect environment bad tendency thrive figure place socially isolated long time guess asking affect literally drove insane made question reality among thing like even real anyone anything believed inability conversation people felt everyone else trying exactly issue one isolation thanks input,,
I'm a recovering addict who has lost touch with friends and family due to my past behaviors. How can I rebuild trust and connection with loved ones while maintaining my sobriety and mental health?,social isolation,recovering addict lost touch friend family due past behavior rebuild trust connection loved one maintaining sobriety mental health,,
I feel really alone lately.,social isolation,feel really alone lately,,
"Since starting a demanding job, I've had less time to spend with my friends and family, and I'm feeling lonely as a result. How can I balance my work responsibilities with maintaining my relationships?",social isolation,since starting demanding job le time spend friend family feeling lonely result balance work responsibility maintaining relationship,,
"I've noticed a few of my students have become increasingly withdrawn and distrustful of their peers after facing cyberbullying, which is really concerning.",social isolation,noticed student become increasingly withdrawn distrustful peer facing cyberbullying really concerning,,
The cyberbullying I've faced has made me so distrustful of my classmates that I've completely isolated myself from everyone.,social isolation,cyberbullying faced made distrustful classmate completely isolated everyone,,
"Party invitations used to fill me with excitement, now they spark a wave of anxiety. The thought of navigating crowded rooms, small talk with strangers, and the inevitable so, what do you do for work? feels exhausting. How can I approach social gatherings with a more positive attitude and maybe even find my people in the midst of the chaos?",social isolation,party invitation used fill excitement spark wave anxiety thought navigating crowded room small talk stranger inevitable work feel exhausting approach social gathering positive attitude maybe even find people midst chaos,,
"My parents are always nagging me to put down my phone and engage with them more, but I just feel so much more comfortable talking to my online friends.",social isolation,parent always nagging put phone engage feel much comfortable talking online friend,,
I miss hanging out with my friends in person. How can we stay connected without being able to meet?,social isolation,miss hanging friend person stay connected without able meet,,
I'm a remote student who feels disconnected from campus life and struggles to make friends outside of class. How can I engage with campus resources and student organizations to build a sense of belonging and connection?,social isolation,remote student feel disconnected campus life struggle make friend outside class engage resource organization build sense belonging connection,,
"Scrolling through social media all day since I lost my job. It feels like everyone else is having fun and moving forward, while I'm stuck. What should I do?",social isolation,scrolling social medium day since lost job feel like everyone else fun moving forward stuck,,
"My parents were always busy taking care of my sibling. But growing up, and what I'm kicking myself now to see, is that I didn't have the best parents, (extremely short-tempered mom and apathetic dad), and their attention was always diverted to my sibling. I have no friends at my university, the friends I made at university only used me and I feel so alone here. I can't trust others to not use me again. I'm too stubborn, and perfectionism for my own good and I know thats alienating in itself. I can't take the loneliness anymore.",social isolation,parent always busy taking care sibling growing kicking see best extremely short tempered mom apathetic dad attention diverted friend university made used feel alone trust others use stubborn perfectionism good know thats alienating take loneliness anymore,,
"I'm a recent graduate who has moved back home with my parents, and I feel disconnected from my peers who are starting their careers and building their own lives. How can I find a sense of purpose and connection during this transitional period?",social isolation,recent graduate moved back home parent feel disconnected peer starting career building life find sense purpose connection transitional period,,
"I'm constantly comparing myself to other guys online, especially when it comes to physical appearance. How can I stop this unhealthy habit?",social isolation,constantly comparing guy online especially come physical appearance stop unhealthy habit,,
"I feel like I don't have anyone who truly knows me or accepts me for who I am.

 ",social isolation,feel like anyone truly know accepts,,
"I feel like I'm constantly searching for something, but I don't know what it is.

 ",social isolation,feel like constantly searching something know,,
I'm a person with depression who isolates myself from others due to feelings of shame and worthlessness. How can I reach out for help and build a support network that uplifts and validates me?,social isolation,person depression isolates others due feeling shame worthlessness reach help build support network uplift validates,,
"I was completely normal child until 11. Then I started having zero friends and zero social interaction with peers. I thought I wanted to be a loner. I didn't know this would break me. Humans are social animals. Brains evolved with constant socialize. Eversince 13, I gradually lost interest in things and joy in life, further and further and further as the ages passed. Now at 22, my anhedonia is huge and I've realized most people with zero interaction in childhood grow up to be majorly depressed for life.",social isolation,completely normal child started zero friend social interaction peer thought wanted loner know would break human animal brain evolved constant socialize eversince gradually lost interest thing joy life age passed anhedonia huge realized people childhood grow majorly depressed,,
"I feel like coming out online would help me feel less alone, but I'm scared of the negative reactions. How can I decide what to do?",social isolation,feel like coming online would help le alone scared negative reaction decide,,
"I feel so lonely I’d honestly rather die Why do I feel so lonely that it physically hurts? I have a few friends who are always very supportive and kind to me, but I just find myself feeling like there’s not a single soul on this earth except for me. Even if I was with the person I loved most right now, I still think I’d feel this empty pit in me. Do things get easier?",social isolation,feel lonely honestly rather die physically hurt friend always supportive kind find feeling like single soul earth except even person loved right still think empty pit thing get easier,,
"I miss spending time with my friends and going out. Now that I have a baby, it feels like I can never leave the house. What can I do?",social isolation,miss spending time friend going baby feel like never leave house,,
"Coming to a new school was supposed to be this exciting adventure,  Instead, I feel completely lost and alone. My old friends are all over the country, and I haven't clicked with anyone in my dorm yet. I'm worried I'll be stuck like this the whole time",social isolation,coming new school supposed exciting adventure instead feel completely lost alone old friend country clicked anyone dorm yet worried stuck like whole time,,
The constant rumors and gossip spreading about me on Twitter have made me too anxious to even talk to my peers at school anymore.,social isolation,constant rumor gossip spreading twitter made anxious even talk peer school anymore,,
Being publicly humiliated on YouTube by classmates has left me feeling so ashamed and embarrassed to show my face at school.,social isolation,publicly humiliated youtube classmate left feeling ashamed embarrassed show face school,,
"Joining a book club feels like a good way to meet people, but the thought of discussing literature in a group setting sparks anxiety.   Will my interpretations be judged? Can I overcome the fear of public speaking and find connection through shared literary passion?",social isolation,joining book club feel like good way meet people thought discussing literature group setting spark anxiety interpretation judged overcome fear public speaking find connection shared literary passion,,
I'm a person with autism who struggles to navigate social interactions and build meaningful connections with others. How can I find acceptance and understanding within my peer group and broader community?,social isolation,person autism struggle navigate social interaction build meaningful connection others find acceptance understanding within peer group broader community,,
"I'm feeling increasingly isolated, but I'm not sure how to reach out and make new friends. Any advice?",social isolation,feeling increasingly isolated sure reach make new friend advice,,
"I'm not going to make an overly detailed explanation because I'm not in the right mental state but how do you deal with being socially isolated? My circumstances are that, I have very few people in my life who I get to socialize with and lately for the past month or so they have been very distant and unavailable. It is not them having malice or anything, just a circumstance of our lives. However, those few friends I had were basically all I had... and now all I do is sit in my room and be depressed with no avenue to talk to anybody just about ever. I have no personal connection to anybody right now.Before anybody suggests things that won't work... I don't have a car, can't go places. I don't have money. can't buy things. I can't fix these issues at the moment. I do not do well online with others as I find most people to just be mean spirited and it only makes my situation worse anytime I try to interact with people like that... I just don't know what to do. I'd flair this as mental health but I couldn't find that option",social isolation,going make overly detailed explanation right mental state deal socially isolated circumstance people life get socialize lately past month distant unavailable malice anything however friend basically sit room depressed avenue talk anybody ever personal connection suggests thing work car go place money buy fix issue moment well online others find mean spirited situation worse anytime try interact like know flair health option,,
"I (24m) have been without social media other than reddit (twitter, instagram, snapchat) for over a year now. I know its for the better, and there has been noticeable benefits for me like helping me not compare myself and get into my head about things. Although, I can’t help but feel socially isolated in a way. As many of you around my age know, we grew up with things like snapchat and instagram being a large part of our adolescence and social lives. When at rock bottom dealing with depression and scrolling through instagram noticing how fake it all is I deleted all my profiles. Went of the map. Obviously some of my friends and colleagues thought it was really weird and uncalled for. I haven’t really missed it at all. But fast forward to these days. I’m feeling those isolating feelings in certain situations pretty heavily. Like when I’ve gone on dates or met new girls or coworkers. Or met people while traveling. They all ask for my socials. When I say I don’t have social media I get brushed off and dismissed quite often by people my age or younger. Its really hard to not feel isolated when people react like that.",social isolation,without social medium reddit twitter instagram snapchat year know better noticeable benefit like helping compare get head thing although help feel socially isolated way many around age grew large part adolescence life rock bottom dealing depression scrolling noticing fake deleted profile went map obviously friend colleague thought really weird uncalled missed fast forward day feeling isolating certain situation pretty heavily gone date met new girl coworkers people traveling ask say brushed dismissed quite often younger hard react,,
"Since I've been on Reddit, I feel like I'm getting sucked into endless debates. How can I navigate the platform without feeling drained?",social isolation,since reddit feel like getting sucked endless debate navigate platform without feeling drained,,
Feeling isolated and decided to join a gym to meet new people. The problem? I'm completely new to working out and feel intimidated. Any advice for overcoming gym anxiety and making social connections in a fitness setting?,social isolation,feeling isolated decided join gym meet new people problem completely working feel intimidated advice overcoming anxiety making social connection fitness setting,,
"Curled up with a good book, a blissful escape from reality. Yet, a pang of longing pierces the fictional world.  Can books truly replace the warmth of human connection, or are they a temporary solace for a deeper need to belong?",social isolation,curled good book blissful escape reality yet pang longing pierce fictional world truly replace warmth human connection temporary solace deeper need belong,,
"Another weekend spent binging movies alone. The comfort of familiar characters fades, replaced by a longing for real-life interactions.  Can I break free from the cycle of solo entertainment and find a way to connect with others who share my love for film?",social isolation,another weekend spent binging movie alone comfort familiar character fade replaced longing real life interaction break free cycle solo entertainment find way connect others share love film,,
" everyone on LinkedIn seems to be these AI or machine learning superstars. Their profiles are filled with groundbreaking research, industry awards, and connections with tech giants.  The algorithm keeps showing me these thought leaders and now I feel completely inadequate",social isolation,everyone linkedin seems ai machine learning superstar profile filled groundbreaking research industry award connection tech giant algorithm keep showing thought leader feel completely inadequate,,
I'm a recent immigrant or refugee who feels isolated and disconnected from my new surroundings. How can I build relationships and integrate into my new community while preserving my cultural identity?,social isolation,recent immigrant refugee feel isolated disconnected new surroundings build relationship integrate community preserving cultural identity,,
I struggle with social anxiety and find it challenging to initiate conversations or attend social events. How can I overcome my fears and start building meaningful relationships with others?,social isolation,struggle social anxiety find challenging initiate conversation attend event overcome fear start building meaningful relationship others,,
"Since becoming a caregiver for my aging parent, I've had less time for social activities and find myself feeling isolated from my peers. How can I find balance between caregiving duties and maintaining my social life?",social isolation,since becoming caregiver aging parent le time social activity find feeling isolated peer balance caregiving duty maintaining life,,
"The constant betrayals and harassment I've faced online have made it so hard for me to trust anyone, even my closest classmates at school.",social isolation,constant betrayal harassment faced online made hard trust anyone even closest classmate school,,
The fear of rejection holds me back from putting myself out there. What if I try to join a social group and no one wants to talk to me? The possibility of rejection makes me hesitant to take the first step in making new connections.,social isolation,fear rejection hold back putting try join social group one want talk possibility make hesitant take first step making new connection,,
"Feeling stuck in a cycle of social isolation and depression. The more isolated I feel, the less motivated I am to reach out to others, and then the depression gets worse. How do you break free from this negative cycle and build healthier social connections?",social isolation,feeling stuck cycle social isolation depression isolated feel le motivated reach others get worse break free negative build healthier connection,,
I suspect social media use might be making my anxiety worse. Are there any online tools that can help?,social isolation,suspect social medium use might making anxiety worse online tool help,,
I'm worried about missing out on important milestones in my baby's life because of my own exhaustion. What matters most?,social isolation,worried missing important milestone baby life exhaustion matter,,
Anxiety makes it difficult to leave the house. I experience physical symptoms like racing heart and nausea at the thought of social interaction. This fear keeps me isolated and trapped in my own home.,social isolation,anxiety make difficult leave house experience physical symptom like racing heart nausea thought social interaction fear keep isolated trapped home,,
"I've noticed a dramatic increase in my students' distraction and lack of focus, and I suspect their excessive social media use and worries about their online reputation are to blame.",social isolation,noticed dramatic increase student distraction lack focus suspect excessive social medium use worry online reputation blame,,
i've been feeling really disconnected from my community since I started working from home. How can I feel more connected without physically being there?,social isolation,feeling really disconnected community since started working home feel connected without physically,,
"Feeling isolated and overwhelmed is common for young moms. Remember, you're not alone. Reach out for support and don't be afraid to ask for help. There are many resources available to help you navigate this challenging but rewarding time.",social isolation,feeling isolated overwhelmed common young mom remember alone reach support afraid ask help many resource available navigate challenging rewarding time,,
"I feel like I'm on the outside looking in, disconnected from the world around me.

 ",social isolation,feel like outside looking disconnected world around,,
I feel overwhelmed by negative thoughts and can't seem to stop them.,social isolation,feel overwhelmed negative thought seem stop,,
"So I’m in my early thirties and lucky/unlucky to work for a company that supplies P&G, so the pandemic caused me to work an ungodly amount of mandatory OT and I was given bonus for working voluntarily OT for the last few years. As a result I was able to save up enough money and purchase our dream home last July, a large 3 story if you count the finished walk out basement,4 with attic I want to finish latter, 4 bed 2 bath located downtown in the walkable historic area of our small city. I’m very proud of my home, and I know my parents, aunts and uncles are. However I’ve noticed I’ve since been more distant with most of my siblings, cousins and many of my friends. Many people who would come hangout when I lived in the trailer park 2 minutes away (I’m a nerdy table top gamer) , I’ve since only see when we meet at someone else’s. Has any one else experience this?",social isolation,early thirty lucky unlucky work company supply pandemic caused ungodly amount mandatory ot given bonus working voluntarily last year result able save enough money purchase dream home july large story count finished walk basement attic want finish latter bed bath located downtown walkable historic area small city proud know parent aunt uncle however noticed since distant sibling cousin many friend people would come hangout lived trailer park minute away nerdy table top gamer see meet someone else one experience,,
"I struggle to find my place in social settings, feeling like I don't belong.

 ",social isolation,struggle find place social setting feeling like belong,,
I’ve been avoiding social media because it makes me feel more isolated seeing others pretend everything’s okay. Is this normal?,social isolation,avoiding social medium make feel isolated seeing others pretend everything okay normal,,
Seeing everyone else's seemingly perfect friend groups on Snapchat is making me feel so isolated and alone at school.,social isolation,seeing everyone else seemingly perfect friend group snapchat making feel isolated alone school,,
"I have two best friends and we all hang out together, except most of the time I don't want to hang out because I just can't bring myself to be around people and they are very introverted so I get worn out easily. They know I'm depressed but I think it's really difficult for them to actually relate or understand. They know that majority of the time I'll refuse to hang out so they just hang out without me most of the time. It's strange but it still feels really shitty like it's some sort of betrayal. They are the only two friends I have. It sucks.",social isolation,two best friend hang together except time want bring around people introverted get worn easily know depressed think really difficult actually relate understand majority refuse without strange still feel shitty like sort betrayal suck,,
 I'm sad about everything in my life. Nothing I do is good or will be appreciated. I'm laying down in bed every day and playing some video games all day and sometimes I play guitar but I can't do it. I wanted to make my own song but everything I play just sucks. I'm depressed for 4 years by now and I can't really hold any longer. I barely have social interactions because I don't have friends.,social isolation,sad everything life nothing good appreciated laying bed every day playing video game sometimes play guitar wanted make song suck depressed year really hold longer barely social interaction friend,,
I've become so accustomed to communicating through screens that I feel awkward and anxious in real-life social situations now.,social isolation,become accustomed communicating screen feel awkward anxious real life social situation,,
All the time I spend scrolling through Instagram and seeing my classmates having fun without me is making me really depressed.,social isolation,time spend scrolling instagram seeing classmate fun without making really depressed,,
I feel like I'm constantly on edge and everything feels like a threat.,social isolation,feel like constantly edge everything threat,,
Several of my students have expressed insecurity and negative body image issues that they attribute to the unrealistic beauty standards they see on social media.,social isolation,several student expressed insecurity negative body image issue attribute unrealistic beauty standard see social medium,,
"Been feeling increasingly isolated lately, and I'm starting to notice physical symptoms like headaches and fatigue. Is there a connection between social isolation and physical health?",social isolation,feeling increasingly isolated lately starting notice physical symptom like headache fatigue connection social isolation health,,
"real talk, people who hate, talk shit, slut shaming other people on social media, actually in real life, how can you have a zero attitude like that, you just hide behind the keyboard. it's nice to look at or not what to brag about. constantly in this kind of thoughts.",social isolation,real talk people hate shit slut shaming social medium actually life zero attitude like hide behind keyboard nice look brag constantly kind thought,,
"I often feel detached from the world around me, finding it difficult to connect with others.

 ",social isolation,often feel detached world around finding difficult connect others,,
"As a solo traveler, I've been exploring new places and having incredible experiences, but I'm starting to feel the loneliness of being on the road alone. How can I find companionship and connection while traveling solo?",social isolation,solo traveler exploring new place incredible experience starting feel loneliness road alone find companionship connection traveling,,
"STRANGE!!! My constant worry is that Netizens sprayed criticism, slurs, and even blasphemy on social media.",social isolation,strange constant worry netizens sprayed criticism slur even blasphemy social medium,,
"I never knew i would be socially isolated so much during upsc preparation,never been all my I felt so depressed and lonely Feels like I am all alone From a college hostel to literally a place where everyone is busy Please help me how I deal with it",social isolation,never knew would socially isolated much upsc preparation felt depressed lonely feel like alone college hostel literally place everyone busy please help deal,,
"My social media feed reflects my own interests, a curated echo chamber of agreement.  Opposing viewpoints and uncomfortable conversations are absent.  Is this a self-imposed isolation, or a way to avoid the friction of social interaction?",social isolation,social medium feed reflects interest curated echo chamber agreement opposing viewpoint uncomfortable conversation absent self imposed isolation way avoid friction interaction,,
The constant cyberbullying I face on Twitter from my classmates has made me too afraid to even engage with them at school anymore.,social isolation,constant cyberbullying face twitter classmate made afraid even engage school anymore,,
"Looking to make some changes Hi all, I’ve been having on-off episodes where I feel very down and depressed and lonely. I feel anxious about other people and my lack of friends, and then I get really down and feel very alone. However, since they only came on and off again- I’d have brief periods of happiness, then deep depressive episodes which didn’t last too long- I wrote it off as a non-problem. However, a few days ago I had a severe episode where I had some awful thoughts about being alone and hurting myself and drank a dangerous amount, making myself really sick. It might have been worse, had my friend not been there to help me. It’s this that’s made me think that something has to change, and I need to confront this problem before I have another episode. What would you guys recommend? I’m not sure what direction to go in- for all I know, I could be overreacting, and there’s nothing wrong. Would you recommend I talk to a GP about this? Thank you!",social isolation,looking make change hi episode feel depressed lonely anxious people lack friend get really alone however since came brief period happiness deep depressive last long wrote non problem day ago severe awful thought hurting drank dangerous amount making sick might worse help made think something need confront another would guy recommend sure direction go know could overreacting nothing wrong talk gp thank,,
"Dust gathers on my once-loved painting supplies. The thought of joining a local art class feels exciting, but the fear of being the least talented student holds me back.  Can I embrace the joy of creation for myself and find a supportive community to share this passion with?",social isolation,dust gather loved painting supply thought joining local art class feel exciting fear least talented student hold back embrace joy creation find supportive community share passion,,
I'm worried about my future because of my illness. Will I ever be able to live a normal life?,social isolation,worried future illness ever able live normal life,,
"I'm just so alone right now and whenever I address anything, I'm overreacting. But I really don't feel like I am. I just really want one person who won't leave me. Its something I've dealt with my whole life and I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough for people.",social isolation,alone right whenever address anything overreacting really feel like want one person leave something dealt whole life tired feeling good enough people,,
"The holiday season amplifies the emptiness. Joyful carols on the radio, twinkling lights on houses, families gathered around tables laden with food - it all underscores my isolation. How can I navigate the holidays without succumbing to the loneliness that often accompanies this time of year?",social isolation,holiday season amplifies emptiness joyful carol radio twinkling light house family gathered around table laden food underscore isolation navigate without succumbing loneliness often accompanies time year,,
"I'm a military spouse who moves frequently due to my partner's assignments, and I struggle to maintain friendships and social connections in new locations. How can I cultivate a sense of belonging and stability despite constant change?",social isolation,military spouse move frequently due partner assignment struggle maintain friendship social connection new location cultivate sense belonging stability despite constant change,,
"I am a 23 year old soon to be 24 with social anxiety. I have also been socially isolated ever since the end of 2019. I'm beginning to get tired of isolation and wanting social connection but idk how. Whenever I am in a social situation I get anxious and leave the room. I know the ways I could make friends such as showing up to my uni classes, joining clubs and so on. But I can't seem to get over the hurdles of actually going and doing it. As I said before, I rarely last 5 min before I decide to leave a room and go home. Then there is the fear of messing up in the conversation and whatnot all the different ways it could go wrong. So how do I address this problem and actually start living again?",social isolation,year old soon social anxiety also socially isolated ever since end beginning get tired isolation wanting connection idk whenever situation anxious leave room know way could make friend showing uni class joining club seem hurdle actually going said rarely last min decide go home fear messing conversation whatnot different wrong address problem start living,,
"Feeling lonely after a mediocre New Year's Eve. My New Year's Eve wasn't anything special, and now I'm feeling lonelier than ever. It's like everyone else is out there having fun and celebrating, while I'm stuck here feeling alone.",social isolation,feeling lonely mediocre new year eve anything special lonelier ever like everyone else fun celebrating stuck alone,,
I feel like I have no control over my life and everything is happening to me.,social isolation,feel like control life everything happening,,
Watching stories on Instagram makes me feel like I'm missing out on life. How can I combat this FOMO?,social isolation,watching story instagram make feel like missing life combat fomo,,
"Never been able to have a basic conversation with people I'm not close with, I just focus on how I look to the point I don't listen to what I'm being said and always end up looking like an idiot I have forgotten many words in my native language, I can't form proper sentences anymore I find myself reading some basic sentences like 4-5 times before I understand, sometimes I just give up. I can't have a conversation with anyone anymore due to this because I need so much time to process the information and think of a reply compared to a normal human being Can't do the most basic tasks, I always end up fucking things up And I think it will just keep becoming worse",social isolation,never able basic conversation people close focus look point listen said always end looking like idiot forgotten many word native language form proper sentence anymore find reading time understand sometimes give anyone due need much process information think reply compared normal human task fucking thing keep becoming worse,,
"The gym floor is a battlefield of grunts and determined strides. Everyone seems to have a workout buddy, a spotter, a high five waiting at the end of their set. I shuffle through my routine, invisible and alone. How can I break the ice and find a gym partner who motivates and supports, not intimidates?",social isolation,gym floor battlefield grunt determined stride everyone seems workout buddy spotter high five waiting end set shuffle routine invisible alone break ice find partner motivates support intimidates,,
I'm constantly terrified of being targeted by bullies on Discord and it's causing me so much anxiety that I've isolated myself from my classmates.,social isolation,constantly terrified targeted bully discord causing much anxiety isolated classmate,,
"Feeling isolated and bored, looking for a friend. I often find myself feeling isolated and bored, with nobody to share my time with. Having a friend to talk to and spend time with would make a world of difference.",social isolation,feeling isolated bored looking friend often find nobody share time talk spend would make world difference,,
"The thought of joining a club sparks a flicker of hope, then gets extinguished by fear. Book clubs seem intimidating, sports teams overwhelming, and hobby groups filled with established friendships. How can I overcome the initial awkwardness of joining a new group, finding my place and forging connections based on shared interests?",social isolation,thought joining club spark flicker hope get extinguished fear book seem intimidating sport team overwhelming hobby group filled established friendship overcome initial awkwardness new finding place forging connection based shared interest,,
"The co-working space is supposed to be a hub of collaboration and creativity. Yet, surrounded by busy freelancers and bustling startups, I feel like a ghost at a networking event. How can I overcome the fear of self-promotion and strike up conversations with potential collaborators, transforming a shared workspace into a springboard for professional connections?",social isolation,co working space supposed hub collaboration creativity yet surrounded busy freelancer bustling startup feel like ghost networking event overcome fear self promotion strike conversation potential collaborator transforming shared workspace springboard professional connection,,
"So, Aspergers makes you unable to connect with others. It’s a fact. This makes me feel so hopeless. I am not depressed, but i sometimes want to end my life. I don’t see the point of living. (also, I've tried to talk to a psychologist. I can't. It makes me feel small, unimportant and nothing insightful comes out of my mouth)",social isolation,aspergers make unable connect others fact feel hopeless depressed sometimes want end life see point living also tried talk psychologist small unimportant nothing insightful come mouth,,
"My furry companion showers me with unconditional love, a beacon of warmth in an otherwise isolated world.  But can the love of a pet truly replace the complexity of human connection, or is it a beautiful substitute?",social isolation,furry companion shower unconditional love beacon warmth otherwise isolated world pet truly replace complexity human connection beautiful substitute,,
"Feeling lonely, seeking genuine friendship after a lifetime of introversion and bullying.",social isolation,feeling lonely seeking genuine friendship lifetime introversion bullying,,
I've been feeling increasingly lonely and isolated lately after spending a lot of time on social media. Is there anything I can do to improve my mood?,social isolation,feeling increasingly lonely isolated lately spending lot time social medium anything improve mood,,
I'm having trouble controlling my eating habits. I either eat way too much or not at all.,social isolation,trouble controlling eating habit either eat way much,,
" I want to join in on the fun, but social anxiety makes everything so difficult. The thought of large gatherings or introducing myself to new people fills me with dread.  I miss out on opportunities because I'm too scared to take the first step.",social isolation,want join fun social anxiety make everything difficult thought large gathering introducing new people fill dread miss opportunity scared take first step,,
"Social media seems to be all about portraying a perfect, connected life. But in reality, I feel more isolated than ever. Is technology actually making social connection harder, or am I just using it wrong?",social isolation,social medium seems portraying perfect connected life reality feel isolated ever technology actually making connection harder using wrong,,
"I have constant physical aches and pains, but doctors can't find anything wrong.",social isolation,constant physical ache pain doctor find anything wrong,,
I'm a member of a remote or rural community with limited access to resources and social opportunities. How can I foster connection and collaboration with others to combat the isolation of living in a secluded area?,social isolation,member remote rural community limited access resource social opportunity foster connection collaboration others combat isolation living secluded area,,
First-year on campus right now. Everyone seems to have friend groups already that they do stuff with and always hang out with and me not having one feels really isolating and lonely. Is it normal to experience this much social isolation here so early into the year? Does it ever get better? I try to put myself out there and talk to people but the friendships don’t seem to “stick.” It’s just difficult going through a pandemic and a lack of social interaction on top of that.,social isolation,first year campus right everyone seems friend group already stuff always hang one feel really isolating lonely normal experience much social isolation early ever get better try put talk people friendship seem stick difficult going pandemic lack interaction top,,
"Whenever I try to make plans to hang out with my friends, they always seem to bail or just want to do something online instead. It makes me feel so left out.",social isolation,whenever try make plan hang friend always seem bail want something online instead feel left,,
"I feel a sense of loneliness and emptiness, even when surrounded by others.

 ",social isolation,feel sense loneliness emptiness even surrounded others,,
I'm struggling with feelings of depression and isolation. Where can I find help?,social isolation,struggling feeling depression isolation find help,,
I'm a person with a rare or stigmatized medical condition who struggles to find others who understand my experiences. How can I connect with online support groups and advocacy organizations that provide validation and community?,social isolation,person rare stigmatized medical condition struggle find others understand experience connect online support group advocacy organization provide validation community,,
"I feel like I'm stranded on an island, with no one to share my experiences with.

 ",social isolation,feel like stranded island one share experience,,
Feeling down lately and social media isn't helping. Are there online resources for young adults struggling with loneliness?,social isolation,feeling lately social medium helping online resource young adult struggling loneliness,,
Yeayy tomorrow is a day off from work. I can be on social media every second of the day.,social isolation,yeayy tomorrow day work social medium every second,,
"There's nothing happy in my new year. It's been the same for 10 fucking years: my parents get drunk, they start fighting and later they start bothering me and my big brother. It isn't fucking fair. This happens every goddamn holiday. Christmas, New Years Eve, birthdays, every fucking holiday... but I hope someone else had a much better New Years Eve...",social isolation,nothing happy new year fucking parent get drunk start fighting later bothering big brother fair happens every goddamn holiday christmas eve birthday hope someone else much better,,
" I feel so alone. I wish that I was anyone else in the world. I feel stuck and trapped, like I'm never good enough. I'm truly alone in this world, with no one there who cares about me. I try so hard for other people to make them happy, but the fights I have with my partner show me that they don't care about me like I care about them. They have no qualms hurting me, and I'm the manipulative one when I let them know I'm being hurt. But I have no one else in the world who is even remotely there for me. I've always been ugly and alone and scared. It won't change.",social isolation,feel alone wish anyone else world stuck trapped like never good enough truly one care try hard people make happy fight partner show qualm hurting manipulative let know hurt even remotely always ugly scared change,,
"I struggle to form meaningful connections with others, feeling like no one truly understands me.

 ",social isolation,struggle form meaningful connection others feeling like one truly understands,,
I'm starting to feel depressed about being sick all the time. How can I stay positive?,social isolation,starting feel depressed sick time stay positive,,
"My phone buzzes with a new follower, a tiny burst of excitement in my quiet apartment. But then it hits me - another person online, but still no one to grab coffee with or watch a movie.  Seriously, these perfect online lives are making my real life feel kinda lonely. Maybe it's time to ditch the phone and find a real friend, someone to share the silence, you know?",social isolation,phone buzz new follower tiny burst excitement quiet apartment hit another person online still one grab coffee watch movie seriously perfect life making real feel kinda lonely maybe time ditch find friend someone share silence know,,
"I struggle to connect with others on a deeper level and often feel misunderstood.

 ",social isolation,struggle connect others deeper level often feel misunderstood,,
"Does social isolation makes you permanently stupid? i've never been much of a social guy but i had a couple friends i could talk to when i needed, a year ago i moved to a different county and have zero friends, i can spend the whole day without talking to anyone of saying a single word. i feel more and more stupid, i don't know if its just in my mind or if my brain is rotting (figuratively)",social isolation,social isolation make permanently stupid never much guy couple friend could talk needed year ago moved different county zero spend whole day without talking anyone saying single word feel know mind brain rotting figuratively,,
"I need help, but the thought of reaching out to friends or family feels like a burden. I don't want to add to their worries. The isolation makes it difficult to connect and ask for support.",social isolation,need help thought reaching friend family feel like burden want add worry isolation make difficult connect ask support,,
"The irony isn't lost on me. I'm in a room overflowing with people, all seemingly connected, yet here I am, tethered to my screen. Every laugh, every conversation feels a world away.  Online, I curate a perfect persona, but face-to-face interactions fill me with dread.  How do I bridge the gap between my digital self and the real world?",social isolation,irony lost room overflowing people seemingly connected yet tethered screen every laugh conversation feel world away online curate perfect persona face interaction fill dread bridge gap digital self real,,
"I used to enjoy spending time with friends, but now everything feels pointless.",social isolation,used enjoy spending time friend everything feel pointless,,
"My phone's draft folder overflows with unsent messages - heartfelt greetings, witty replies, casual check-ins.  The fear of being a burden or seeming desperate holds me back.  Can I overcome the hesitation and reach out, or will these messages remain unspoken confessions?",social isolation,phone draft folder overflow unsent message heartfelt greeting witty reply casual check in fear burden seeming desperate hold back overcome hesitation reach remain unspoken confession,,
The hateful messages and rumors constantly spreading about me on TikTok have been really triggering my depression and making me withdraw from all my school friends.,social isolation,hateful message rumor constantly spreading tiktok really triggering depression making withdraw school friend,,
"I love getting lost in a good book, but sometimes I worry it keeps me isolated from the real world. Are there ways for book lovers to connect with others who share their passion for reading?",social isolation,love getting lost good book sometimes worry keep isolated real world way lover connect others share passion reading,,
I’m worried about the long-term impact of this isolation on my social skills and relationships. What can I do?,social isolation,worried long term impact isolation social skill relationship,,
I struggle with social anxiety and find it difficult to initiate conversations and make small talk with others. How can I overcome my fears and build meaningful relationships that alleviate feelings of isolation?,social isolation,struggle social anxiety find difficult initiate conversation make small talk others overcome fear build meaningful relationship alleviate feeling isolation,,
My sleep schedule is all over the place due to anxiety and lack of a daily routine. How can I fix this?,social isolation,sleep schedule place due anxiety lack daily routine fix,,
I'm a person with a history of substance abuse who has distanced myself from friends and family due to my addiction. How can I rebuild trust and connection with loved ones and find support in my journey to recovery?,social isolation,person history substance abuse distanced friend family due addiction rebuild trust connection loved one find support journey recovery,,
"Hoping for a distraction from loneliness. Sometimes, I wish there was something, anything, to distract me from the overwhelming feeling of loneliness. Something to take my mind off of it, even if just for a little while.",social isolation,hoping distraction loneliness sometimes wish something anything distract overwhelming feeling take mind even little,,
" Working Full Time with Depression/Anxiety. I don't know what I can do to make my life tolerable. My job sucks so much out of me mentally. My anxiety makes my memory worse, and I often feel burnt out.",social isolation,working full time depression anxiety know make life tolerable job suck much mentally memory worse often feel burnt,,
"I have suffered from anxiety and depression my entire life. Recently, I’ve started to get help and follow a strict plan. I am getting better and steadily improving. I enjoy being in public. Now, I want to make friends and develop relationships, especially after spending a chunk of my life alone and isolated. The problem is, I don’t know where to go to find meaningful friends. I’ve tried to find events near me but community and township pages don’t lead to much. A lot of meet up groups near me are also dead and haven’t met in months. So how can I make friends with such limited opportunities and find my group of people?",social isolation,suffered anxiety depression entire life recently started get help follow strict plan getting better steadily improving enjoy public want make friend develop relationship especially spending chunk alone isolated problem know go find meaningful tried event near community township page lead much lot meet group also dead met month limited opportunity people,,
I'm a person with social anxiety who finds it difficult to initiate and maintain relationships. How can I overcome my fears and develop social skills that allow me to connect with others more easily?,social isolation,person social anxiety find difficult initiate maintain relationship overcome fear develop skill allow connect others easily,,
"iam 16,female,everyone at school seems to have this amazing social media life. They're always hanging out, going to parties, and posting pictures on Instagram. I barely have any followers, and I feel like I'm missing out on everything. It's making me feel lonely and left out.",social isolation,iam female everyone school seems amazing social medium life always hanging going party posting picture instagram barely follower feel like missing everything making lonely left,,
Seeing everyone else's perfectly curated lives on Instagram is making me feel like such a failure as a teenager.,social isolation,seeing everyone else perfectly curated life instagram making feel like failure teenager,,
"I'm a college student studying abroad, and I'm struggling to make friends in a foreign country. How can I break out of my shell and build meaningful connections with others despite the language and cultural barriers?",social isolation,college student studying abroad struggling make friend foreign country break shell build meaningful connection others despite language cultural barrier,,
"Chronic illness has me down again. My disability hearing is in october so here's hoping I get it. Honestly if I don't I probably will actually end it. But today I want to die because I've been in constant pain for days and apparently because of it i made the one person who cares about me, for some reason, feel bad. And got mad at him over it. I think I'm just gonna stop eating for a few days so I feel something else.",social isolation,chronic illness disability hearing october hoping get honestly probably actually end today want die constant pain day apparently made one person care reason feel bad got mad think gonna stop eating something else,,
"We used to talk for hours on car rides.  Now, the only sounds are the click-clack of the train and the occasional sigh from him.  Texting seems to be his preferred language, and my attempts at conversation fall flat.  I miss the days of shared experiences and genuine connection.  Is technology stealing my son from me?",social isolation,used talk hour car ride sound click clack train occasional sigh texting seems preferred language attempt conversation fall flat miss day shared experience genuine connection technology stealing son,,
"I feel like I'm constantly letting people down, even when I try my best.",social isolation,feel like constantly letting people even try best,,
"This question is for betrayed spouses; have you found it difficult to interact socially with friends & family since dday? If yes, how did you get back into it? I’m roughly 6 weeks out from dday and it dawned on me that I’m avoiding interacting with most of my friends and family. I have kept my situation private and they don’t know about my husband’s infidelity. I’ve been mostly engaging in activities that I can do alone and if a family member or friend wants to get together I quickly make an excuse. My friends and family absolutely adore my WH. Of course, I used to like this, but now it stings when they ask me how my “awesome” husband is doing and go on to tell me how amazing & loving he is. IT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM. How have you navigated this? Do I just need to rip off the bandaid and go have fun? How do you not get triggered and spill your guts? I feel like I won’t be able to keep this shit a secret forever, but I also don’t want to deal with the outside scrutiny.",social isolation,question betrayed spouse found difficult interact socially friend family since dday yes get back roughly week dawned avoiding interacting kept situation private know husband infidelity mostly engaging activity alone member want together quickly make excuse absolutely adore wh course used like sting ask awesome go tell amazing loving scream navigated need rip bandaid fun triggered spill gut feel able keep shit secret forever also deal outside scrutiny,,
Seeing everyone's picture-perfect friend groups on Snapchat is making me feel so inadequate and isolated in my own school community.,social isolation,seeing everyone picture perfect friend group snapchat making feel inadequate isolated school community,,
I'm feeling anxious and stressed about finances now that I have a baby. How can I manage on a limited income?,social isolation,feeling anxious stressed finance baby manage limited income,,
"As a person with a chronic illness, I often feel misunderstood and isolated from my friends and family who don't understand what I'm going through. How can I find support and connection with others who share similar experiences?",social isolation,person chronic illness often feel misunderstood isolated friend family understand going find support connection others share similar experience,,
"I just graduated high school and everyone else seems to be going to college or starting new jobs. I don't have a clear plan yet, and it's making me feel anxious and isolated. What should I do?",social isolation,graduated high school everyone else seems going college starting new job clear plan yet making feel anxious isolated,,
Social media is making me feel insecure about not having a significant other. How can I deal with this?,social isolation,social medium making feel insecure significant deal,,
"we are couples,  Maybe we should put the phones away for a bit?we don’t talk to each other much",social isolation,couple maybe put phone away bit talk much,,
"After relocating to a new country, I've struggled to make friends and feel a sense of belonging. How can I overcome cultural barriers and build meaningful connections in my new community?",social isolation,relocating new country struggled make friend feel sense belonging overcome cultural barrier build meaningful connection community,,
My parents are getting older and their social circle is shrinking. They seem lonely and isolated. What are some resources or activities that can help combat social isolation in seniors?,social isolation,parent getting older social circle shrinking seem lonely isolated resource activity help combat isolation senior,,
All the time I spend scrolling through Instagram and seeing my classmates having fun without me is really bringing my mood down.,social isolation,time spend scrolling instagram seeing classmate fun without really bringing mood,,
Not a day goes by when I do not blame my parents for bringing me to this world.,social isolation,day go blame parent bringing world,,
Social media is making me feel like I need to constantly keep up with trends and challenges. It's overwhelming!,social isolation,social medium making feel like need constantly keep trend challenge overwhelming,,
I'm constantly exhausted but can't seem to fall asleep at night.,social isolation,constantly exhausted seem fall asleep night,,
"Struggling with feelings of loneliness despite online interactions. Even though I have interactions with people online, I still can't shake the feeling of loneliness. It's like no matter how many virtual connections I make, it's never enough to fill the void inside.",social isolation,struggling feeling loneliness despite online interaction even though people still shake like matter many virtual connection make never enough fill void inside,,
"“If anyone could help me get through a problem. that must be the social media, because the only people nice on the earth are on the social media”",social isolation,anyone could help get problem must social medium people nice earth,,
"Going to a huge university, but feeling lost in the crowd. Everyone seems to have their own friend groups already, and I haven't been able to connect with anyone. Any advice for overcoming social isolation in a college setting?",social isolation,going huge university feeling lost crowd everyone seems friend group already able connect anyone advice overcoming social isolation college setting,,
The hateful messages and rumors constantly spreading about me on TikTok have been really triggering my depression and making me withdraw from my friends at school.,social isolation,hateful message rumor constantly spreading tiktok really triggering depression making withdraw friend school,,
"im 45 yrs old single father, anyone else out there scroll through endless feeds feeling more isolated than ever?  I spend hours connecting online, but I never feel truly seen.  Maybe it's time for a digital detox? #alonetogether #socialmediastruggles",social isolation,im yr old single father anyone else scroll endless feed feeling isolated ever spend hour connecting online never feel truly seen maybe time digital detox,,
"I'm feeling pressure to go to college, but I'm not sure if that's the right path for me. How can I decide?",social isolation,feeling pressure go college sure right path decide,,
"I feel like I'm invisible, fading into the background.

 ",social isolation,feel like invisible fading background,,
"Having to be “Bed Ridden” after being Run Over by a Truck at work , I find it difficult to converse and physically function with any continuity of thought and function.. One ends up Living in their own “Nut Shell.” Altho I stay abreast of current social activities , I am now unable to function at my/any “Normal/Acceptable” Level.!! A true “Bummer” for Real.!!",social isolation,bed ridden run truck work find difficult converse physically function continuity thought one end living nut shell altho stay abreast current social activity unable normal acceptable level true bummer real,,
" I want to find my own voice and create content that feels genuine, not just a copy of what's trending.  But it's hard to break out of the mold when everyone seems focused on replicating viral trends",social isolation,want find voice create content feel genuine copy trending hard break mold everyone seems focused replicating viral trend,,
"I'm a teenager who has recently moved to a new school, and I'm struggling to make friends and fit in. How can I navigate social dynamics and combat feelings of isolation in a new peer group?",social isolation,teenager recently moved new school struggling make friend fit navigate social dynamic combat feeling isolation peer group,,
"Recently out of a toxic relationship, feeling lonely amidst friends in relationships.",social isolation,recently toxic relationship feeling lonely amidst friend,,
I'm finding it hard to motivate myself to do anything because I feel so isolated. What can help me get back on track?,social isolation,finding hard motivate anything feel isolated help get back track,,
"I feel like I don't have anyone who truly understands me or accepts me for who I am.

 ",social isolation,feel like anyone truly understands accepts,,
"Raindrops race down the window, mirroring the tears blurring my vision.  The world outside seems vibrant, filled with laughter and connection, while I remain trapped within my lonely bubble.  Can I muster the courage to step outside and join the world, or will I remain a silent observer?",social isolation,raindrop race window mirroring tear blurring vision world outside seems vibrant filled laughter connection remain trapped within lonely bubble muster courage step join silent observer,,
"I'm a remote worker who travels frequently for work, and I struggle to maintain relationships with friends and family who live far away. How can I stay connected and combat feelings of isolation while on the road?",social isolation,remote worker travel frequently work struggle maintain relationship friend family live far away stay connected combat feeling isolation road,,
"Noticed a lot of talk about social isolation online, but not much focused on men specifically. Do men tend to experience social isolation differently than women? Is it harder for men to form close friendships?",social isolation,noticed lot talk social isolation online much focused men specifically tend experience differently woman harder form close friendship,,
The constant bullying and exclusion I face on Snapchat from my classmates has left me feeling so alone and disconnected from my school community.,social isolation,constant bullying exclusion face snapchat classmate left feeling alone disconnected school community,,
"My language learning app gathers dust. The initial excitement of connecting with a new culture has waned, replaced by the struggle of practicing alone.  Can I find a language exchange partner or online community to keep me motivated and create meaningful connections across borders?",social isolation,language learning app gather dust initial excitement connecting new culture waned replaced struggle practicing alone find exchange partner online community keep motivated create meaningful connection across border,,
"I feel like I'm stuck in a glass cage, watching the world pass me by.

 ",social isolation,feel like stuck glass cage watching world pas,,
The betrayals and harassment I've faced from classmates on Reddit have completely shattered my ability to trust anyone at school.,social isolation,betrayal harassment faced classmate reddit completely shattered ability trust anyone school,,
"Even before COVID, I was already struggling with feeling isolated because of social media. But the pandemic has just made everything so much worse.",social isolation,even covid already struggling feeling isolated social medium pandemic made everything much worse,,
I'm constantly broke and worried about money. How can I manage my finances better?,social isolation,constantly broke worried money manage finance better,,
"Living in a remote area, I don't have many opportunities to socialize with people my age. How can I combat the feelings of isolation and loneliness that come with living in a small community?",social isolation,living remote area many opportunity socialize people age combat feeling isolation loneliness come small community,,
"I used to love going to parties and events, but now with COVID, no one wants to host anything in person anymore. I just feel so isolated, even when I'm online with my friends.",social isolation,used love going party event covid one want host anything person anymore feel isolated even online friend,,
How can I deal with the frustration of not knowing when things will go back to normal?,social isolation,deal frustration knowing thing go back normal,,
"Even though my history is Mulfand from 2010, but if the situation is 3 groups that you like to be in Top social artist... aren't you drunk?  Right now I can only focus on 1 group... My world revolved around groups and grouping on social media.",social isolation,even though history mulfand situation group like top social artist drunk right focus world revolved around grouping medium,,
The constant fear of being targeted by bullies on Discord is giving me such severe anxiety that it's interfering with my ability to focus in class.,social isolation,constant fear targeted bully discord giving severe anxiety interfering ability focus class,,
"My parents are always pestering me to put down my phone and have real conversations with them, but I just feel so much more comfortable communicating through texts and social media.",social isolation,parent always pestering put phone real conversation feel much comfortable communicating text social medium,,
Being publicly humiliated and shamed on YouTube by my peers has left me feeling so embarrassed and ashamed to even show my face around school.,social isolation,publicly humiliated shamed youtube peer left feeling embarrassed ashamed even show face around school,,
I constantly compare myself to others on social media and it makes me feel worse about myself.,social isolation,constantly compare others social medium make feel worse,,
I'm afraid to tell potential romantic partners about my illness. What if they reject me?,social isolation,afraid tell potential romantic partner illness reject,,
Just the thought of 2018 fills me with dread.,social isolation,thought fill dread,,
Dating as a young lesbian feels overwhelming. Where do I even begin?,social isolation,dating young lesbian feel overwhelming even begin,,
I feel so isolated because I can't participate in many activities with my friends. Is it okay to ask them to visit me more?,social isolation,feel isolated participate many activity friend okay ask visit,,
"I want to spend less time on social media, but I'm worried I'll miss out on events or connecting with people. How can I find a balance?",social isolation,want spend le time social medium worried miss event connecting people find balance,,
"Talking to friends who still have their jobs feels awkward. I envy their stability and sense of purpose. Work conversations become a source of pain and remind me of what I've lost, so I tend to avoid them altogether.",social isolation,talking friend still job feel awkward envy stability sense purpose work conversation become source pain remind lost tend avoid altogether,,
I'm a person with disabilities who faces barriers to accessing social events and venues. How can I advocate for inclusivity and create opportunities for social participation in my community?,social isolation,person disability face barrier accessing social event venue advocate inclusivity create opportunity participation community,,
"I miss hanging out with my friends from high school, but everyone seems so busy now. How can I stay connected?",social isolation,miss hanging friend high school everyone seems busy stay connected,,
"Making friends as an adult feels harder than I expected. People seem busy with their own lives, and I don't know where to start building new connections. I feel out of place in this new environment.",social isolation,making friend adult feel harder expected people seem busy life know start building new connection place environment,,
"My self-esteem suffers as a result of my social isolation, feeling unworthy or unlovable.

 ",social isolation,self esteem suffers result social isolation feeling unworthy unlovable,,
"I experience feelings of sadness or depression due to my lack of social connections.

 ",social isolation,experience feeling sadness depression due lack social connection,,
"I hate myself since the end of college I dropped out, stopped going to classes because I got overwhelmed, hid behind symptoms I had because I couldn't clean my room and manage my life, have been masking my pain with weed and drugs, I'm young and have guaranteed arthritis, my family doesn't love me and gave up on supporting me, I no longer have any contact with most of my extended family nor do I want any because I'm so embarrassed by failing and not accomplishing anything meaningful, I'm so fucking lonely and I was always obsessive and I used those relationships to people please and ignore my own issues, I've lived in a car for two months and I'm not sure if I'm ready to accept that pain again, turns out I'm pretty fortunate but I feel really really stuck and I'm tired of hating myself I hope there's a brighter future out there.",social isolation,hate since end college dropped stopped going class got overwhelmed hid behind symptom clean room manage life masking pain weed drug young guaranteed arthritis family love gave supporting longer contact extended want embarrassed failing accomplishing anything meaningful fucking lonely always obsessive used relationship people please ignore issue lived car two month sure ready accept turn pretty fortunate feel really stuck tired hating hope brighter future,,
"Love the peace and quiet of country life, but the lack of social opportunities can be tough. Meeting new people is difficult when your nearest neighbor is miles away. Anyone else dealing with social isolation in rural areas? How do you cope with it?",social isolation,love peace quiet country life lack social opportunity tough meeting new people difficult nearest neighbor mile away anyone else dealing isolation rural area cope,,
"Now an again I feel so alone, empty and that I have nothing going for me. I use to go out with friends every weekend, play sports etc but now I spend 99% of my life inside and do nothing. A year plus ago my doctor put me down for anxiety and gave me some pills and i felt ok after awhile but lately I just feel the same. This time I don't feel the self harming will be enough. I make excuses when friends want to do something as i just don't want to go outside. There are all off having familys and i'm here doing nothing. Ive been seeing the doctor recently for passing blood and apart of me wants it to be something serious. I found some of my olds pills and i'm just going to see where the night goes....",social isolation,feel alone empty nothing going use go friend every weekend play sport etc spend life inside year plus ago doctor put anxiety gave pill felt ok awhile lately time self harming enough make excuse want something outside family ive seeing recently passing blood apart serious found old see night,,
"The bus ride home after work is a blur of faces glued to phones, a sea of silent isolation on wheels. Longing for a simple conversation, a shared observation about the weather, anything to break the ice. How can I initiate small talk with strangers in everyday situations, turning fleeting moments into potential connections?",social isolation,bus ride home work blur face glued phone sea silent isolation wheel longing simple conversation shared observation weather anything break ice initiate small talk stranger everyday situation turning fleeting moment potential connection,,
A few of my students have confided in me that the constant social media comparisons are really hurting their self-esteem and contributing to anxiety.,social isolation,student confided constant social medium comparison really hurting self esteem contributing anxiety,,
"Due to the COVID-19 pandemic, I've been unable to visit my elderly parents in assisted living facilities. How can I support them emotionally and prevent feelings of isolation during this challenging time?",social isolation,due covid pandemic unable visit elderly parent assisted living facility support emotionally prevent feeling isolation challenging time,,
"During the pandemic, I started spending way more time on social media to try to stay connected. But now I feel like I've lost touch with my real hobbies and interests.",social isolation,pandemic started spending way time social medium try stay connected feel like lost touch real hobby interest,,
"Lost my job recently and feeling super isolated. Social media is just a bunch of highlight reels, making me feel worse. Any advice?",social isolation,lost job recently feeling super isolated social medium bunch highlight reel making feel worse advice,,
"Envious of others on social media, feeling inadequate. Whenever I scroll through social media, I can't help but feel envious of other people's seemingly perfect lives. It makes me question my own worth and leaves me feeling inadequate.",social isolation,envious others social medium feeling inadequate whenever scroll help feel people seemingly perfect life make question worth leaf,,
"The isolation is hitting me harder at night, making it tough to sleep. Any advice?",social isolation,isolation hitting harder night making tough sleep advice,,
"I enjoy spending time alone and recharge through solitude, but lately I've been feeling genuinely lonely. Is this just introversion, or am I actually experiencing social isolation? How can I tell the difference?",social isolation,enjoy spending time alone recharge solitude lately feeling genuinely lonely introversion actually experiencing social isolation tell difference,,
"I often feel like I'm missing out on meaningful connections with others.

 ",social isolation,often feel like missing meaningful connection others,,
I'm a single parent who feels isolated and overwhelmed by the demands of raising children on my own. How can I build a support network and find time for self-care amidst my parenting responsibilities?,social isolation,single parent feel isolated overwhelmed demand raising child build support network find time self care amidst parenting responsibility,,
"You would think just the cptsd-worthy childhood would be enough, but we have to go through social isolation to heal? Wow. And right now a lot of the world has joined us. Personally, I was just starting to stand up and get out there when covid hit, and I isolated. I reveled in the isolation. And now I get to own pretty much that whole list. And I can't be bitter, not really, because I so enjoyed falling back. And the few extra years of healing were great, although I think I ended up a lot deeper than I needed to be for a good life. So, any advice? I'm probably awfulizing, but it seems to me the types of therapies needed for social isolation are probably going to get my trauma stirred up, something I would rather avoid.",social isolation,would think cptsd worthy childhood enough go social isolation heal wow right lot world joined u personally starting stand get covid hit isolated reveled pretty much whole list bitter really enjoyed falling back extra year healing great although ended deeper needed good life advice probably awfulizing seems type therapy going trauma stirred something rather avoid,,
I'm worried that my social media use might be contributing to my depression. What resources are available?,social isolation,worried social medium use might contributing depression resource available,,
Social isolation is making me feel increasingly hopeless. What can I give me some hope for the future?,social isolation,social isolation making feel increasingly hopeless give hope future,,
I'm worried about returning to work or school after maternity leave. How can I manage childcare and everything else?,social isolation,worried returning work school maternity leave manage childcare everything else,,
My friends seem to be oblivious to the challenges of fatherhood. They still want to go out and party all the time. How can I navigate these friendships?,social isolation,friend seem oblivious challenge fatherhood still want go party time navigate friendship,,
"I'm a young adult living in a small town where everyone knows each other, and I feel like I don't fit in. How can I embrace my uniqueness and find acceptance within a close-knit community?",social isolation,young adult living small town everyone know feel like fit embrace uniqueness find acceptance within close knit community,,
"I’m a 39 year old male. Single, childless, 5 years sober…and haven’t socialised with anyone since before the pandemic. I work during the week and spend weekends sitting on the couch watching films, playing games, reading etc., which was an OK routine to begin with, but after doing it for years it’s well and truly lost its appeal",social isolation,year old male single childless sober socialised anyone since pandemic work week spend weekend sitting couch watching film playing game reading etc ok routine begin well truly lost appeal,,
"I spend most of my time alone, rarely interacting with others or participating in social activities.

 ",social isolation,spend time alone rarely interacting others participating social activity,,
"My wife passed of cancer 4 years ago this May. After about 2 years I was starting to come out of the depression and turn everything around. I have money, nice cars, nice home and have managed to have an amazing woman in my life again that understands all that I have dealt with. I know Im not the only one with this type of story but I need to share. At 50 years old I have alot going, full time musician and always busy. In other words my life is very good but I feel finished. I'm tired and still suffer from depression. I don't drink or do drugs. I work out almost every day, have had therapy and cannot shake what goes on in my head. I didn't kill myself because of our 23 year old son otherwise I would've been gone long ago. If anybody reads this I'm just sharing my thoughts and I too go through life not wanting to be here. Honestly the worlds a pretty shitty place to be but there is alot of good out there somewhere.",social isolation,wife passed cancer year ago may starting come depression turn everything around money nice car home managed amazing woman life understands dealt know im one type story need share old alot going full time musician always busy word good feel finished tired still suffer drink drug work almost every day therapy cannot shake go head kill son otherwise would gone long anybody read sharing thought wanting honestly world pretty shitty place somewhere,,
"I've become so isolated from my family because we're all just glued to our phones and screens, even when we're in the same room.",social isolation,become isolated family glued phone screen even room,,
"Trying to keep up this image of having the perfect social life online is draining all my energy, and I'm neglecting my real-life relationships as a result.",social isolation,trying keep image perfect social life online draining energy neglecting real relationship result,,
Everyone on these reels seems to be a born content creator. They're naturally charismatic and effortlessly churn out engaging content. I feel like such a fake trying to emulate them. What if I don't have what it takes to be successful in this space?,social isolation,everyone reel seems born content creator naturally charismatic effortlessly churn engaging feel like fake trying emulate take successful space,,
"I feel like I'm a fish out of water, struggling to find my place.

 ",social isolation,feel like fish water struggling find place,,
Celebrating it by myself in my car. Cheers.,social isolation,celebrating car cheer,,
"All my life i've been going through shit (only 17 years old) and when things started to get better i crashed. I can't get myself to get out of bed no matter how much i try, my family understands but do still not approve since my grades dropped from all A's to E-C. It has been like this for 1-2 years now and none of my friends understands how It's like, I can't really blame them either since I don't like talking about it and i've always been taught to be a man and keep this stuff to myself. They just see a lazy fuck who is too irresponsible to go too school, same with my teachers. Idk if typing here is going to help at all but if anyone has some tips/advice on how to get motivated again i would be super happy.",social isolation,life going shit year old thing started get better crashed bed matter much try family understands still approve since grade dropped like none friend really blame either talking always taught man keep stuff see lazy fuck irresponsible go school teacher idk typing help anyone tip advice motivated would super happy,,
I'm worried about the financial burden of having a child. How can I manage our budget?,social isolation,worried financial burden child manage budget,,
Seeing all the picture-perfect friend groups on Facebook is really making me feel like an outcast and total loner at school.,social isolation,seeing picture perfect friend group facebook really making feel like outcast total loner school,,
I feel like I'm missing out on real-life experiences because I'm glued to my phone. How can I find a better balance?,social isolation,feel like missing real life experience glued phone find better balance,,
"Dinner arrives at my door, a steaming reminder of the company I lack.  The delivery guy's small talk feels like a social interaction for the week.  Is technology replacing human connection, or is it a band-aid for a deeper loneliness?",social isolation,dinner arrives door steaming reminder company lack delivery guy small talk feel like social interaction week technology replacing human connection band aid deeper loneliness,,
"I often feel like I'm trapped in my own thoughts, unable to connect with those around me.

 ",social isolation,often feel like trapped thought unable connect around,,
"I am struggling with this. Recently, I lost my only access to transportation and I will be unable to leave the house until like November if the person’s car can be fixed. I just need ways to cope with being the inside house for long periods of time. I feel it impacts my mental health being unable to see outside people or places. The people I live with I can’t really interact with because it’s not a good living situation. Are there ways to cope without involving other people? I don’t like bothering with online friends or online support groups because bad past experiences and I feel I can’t trust people anymore. When I am isolated for long periods of time I feel I lose my sense of reality like derealization/disassociating. I have to ration my food because I ran out of money for the month so binge eating as way to cope is not option. I try mindfulness, gratitude exercises, and meditation but hasn’t really helped. If anyone that has been through this social isolation because poverty that has suggestions I will appreciate it greatly.",social isolation,struggling recently lost access transportation unable leave house like november person car fixed need way cope inside long period time feel impact mental health see outside people place live really interact good living situation without involving bothering online friend support group bad past experience trust anymore isolated lose sense reality derealization disassociating ration food ran money month binge eating option try mindfulness gratitude exercise meditation helped anyone social isolation poverty suggestion appreciate greatly,,
I feel completely numb and disconnected from my emotions.,social isolation,feel completely numb disconnected emotion,,
" Holidays and New Years just makes me realise how sucky it is to be alone. Recently over the holidays I have literally gone to the cinema alone twice these past few days and plan to do it this weekend again. I just feel so alone and the holidays bring it out because I see so many people busy celebrating, and it made me realise that the only reason I don't actively think about it and only when I have time off is because work numbs it.",social isolation,holiday new year make realise sucky alone recently literally gone cinema twice past day plan weekend feel bring see many people busy celebrating made reason actively think time work numbs,,
"Since COVID hit, my parents have basically banned me from hanging out with friends in person. They're so worried about the virus that they've made me give up all my social activities.",social isolation,since covid hit parent basically banned hanging friend person worried virus made give social activity,,
My partner is exhausted and overwhelmed. How can I be more supportive?,social isolation,partner exhausted overwhelmed supportive,,
"I feel like i'm isolating myself In the last two years my social life has changed quite a bit. I dropped out of the swimming team i used to be in a year and a half ago and stopped talking to all the friends i had there (they were literally like my family) and also changed the friend group i used to be in cuz i felt i did not fit in at all. From that new friend group i feel like I only like 3 people. I've ditched so many people that i feel like i don't really care about anyone else anymore. I'm currently on school break and i have avoided all the gatherings that they have planned and i only talk to one of the three girls I'm genuinely friends with through text messages. The only people I've talked with in the past two months have been my parents and my sister and i feel kind of lonely, but every opportunity i have to see my friends i just pass because i prefer just staying at home doing nothing and avoid minor dicomforts. What should I do?",social isolation,feel like isolating last two year social life changed quite bit dropped swimming team used half ago stopped talking friend literally family also group cuz felt fit new people ditched many really care anyone else anymore currently school break avoided gathering planned talk one three girl genuinely text message talked past month parent sister kind lonely every opportunity see pas prefer staying home nothing avoid minor dicomforts,,
"I feel like Pinterest sets unrealistic expectations for DIY projects, home decor, and lifestyle. How can I use it more healthily?",social isolation,feel like pinterest set unrealistic expectation diy project home decor lifestyle use healthily,,
I work remotely from home and haven't interacted with colleagues face-to-face in months. How can I combat the feelings of isolation and maintain a sense of connection with my coworkers?,social isolation,work remotely home interacted colleague face month combat feeling isolation maintain sense connection coworkers,,
I feel left out of the bonding process between my partner and the baby. Is this normal?,social isolation,feel left bonding process partner baby normal,,
I'm a survivor of natural disaster or community tragedy who feels isolated and overwhelmed by grief. How can I find support and solidarity within my community and heal from the trauma of loss?,social isolation,survivor natural disaster community tragedy feel isolated overwhelmed grief find support solidarity within heal trauma loss,,
"I was a shy kid but I always had a few friends throughout my early years. When I went to college I straight up did not make a single friend for my 4 years there. Once I graduated it just got even more extreme because there was less opportunity to socialize. I live with my dad right now so I occasionally interact with him, but besides that I don't socialize. I don't really get along with my dad, so even with him I try to limit our contact. I guess I didn't really notice how bad I had gotten in this regard. I think I just avoided thinking about it because I feel slightly ashamed to be the person that no one likes to interact with. It doesn't bother me on an extreme level, but I do feel insecure about it. I think of going on a date or something and being asked what I like to do with my friends. That would be awkward lol. I guess I'm curious if other people have fallen into this trap, and maybe any advice on how to get out of it. I have it so in my head that socializing will never be enjoyable and people will just find me annoying. I don't think I'll ever be a social butterfly, but I also think I'd be better off if I didn't spend all of my time by myself.",social isolation,shy kid always friend throughout early year went college straight make single graduated got even extreme le opportunity socialize live dad right occasionally interact besides really get along try limit contact guess notice bad gotten regard think avoided thinking feel slightly ashamed person one like bother level insecure going date something asked would awkward lol curious people fallen trap maybe advice head socializing never enjoyable find annoying ever social butterfly also better spend time,,
"The ringing silence of my phone is a constant reminder. No missed calls, no texts checking in, no invitations to break the monotony. How can I take the initiative in reaching out to others, fostering friendships that go beyond silence and likes on social media?",social isolation,ringing silence phone constant reminder missed call text checking invitation break monotony take initiative reaching others fostering friendship go beyond like social medium,,
" I Need Someone To Talk. I need help, this is my cry for help. I'm struggling and suffering. My boyfriend of four years recently dumped me, and I don't know where else to go. If anyone would like to try and help me through this tough time so I don't let those thoughts consume me, please do. I need you, Please help me.",social isolation,need someone talk help cry struggling suffering boyfriend four year recently dumped know else go anyone would like try tough time let thought consume please,,
"I feel constantly criticized and misunderstood, even by my closest friends.",social isolation,feel constantly criticized misunderstood even closest friend,,
"My partner travels frequently for work, leaving me alone for long periods. How can I maintain my emotional well-being and prevent feelings of isolation while they're away?",social isolation,partner travel frequently work leaving alone long period maintain emotional well prevent feeling isolation away,,
"I often feel like I'm invisible to those around me, and I struggle to make meaningful connections.

 ",social isolation,often feel like invisible around struggle make meaningful connection,,
I'm a person with a history of mental health challenges who finds it difficult to reach out for support due to stigma and shame. How can I break the cycle of isolation and find acceptance within my community?,social isolation,person history mental health challenge find difficult reach support due stigma shame break cycle isolation acceptance within community,,
"I avoid social gatherings and events, preferring to stay at home alone.

 ",social isolation,avoid social gathering event preferring stay home alone,,
The constant cyberbullying from my classmates has made me too afraid to even engage with my peers at school anymore.,social isolation,constant cyberbullying classmate made afraid even engage peer school anymore,,
"I often feel anxious and stressed after scrolling through social media, but I can't seem to stop.",social isolation,often feel anxious stressed scrolling social medium seem stop,,
"The chorus of crickets chirping outside my window mocks my longing for connection. Dating apps feel superficial, bars intimidating, and striking up conversations with strangers seems like a foreign language. How can I put myself out there in a genuine way, opening myself up to the possibility of romantic connection?",social isolation,chorus cricket chirping outside window mock longing connection dating apps feel superficial bar intimidating striking conversation stranger seems like foreign language put genuine way opening possibility romantic,,
I feel so alone and disconnected from my real-life friends because we're always just communicating through social media.,social isolation,feel alone disconnected real life friend always communicating social medium,,
Feeling anxious about my future after losing my job. Are there any online support groups for people going through something similar?,social isolation,feeling anxious future losing job online support group people going something similar,,
Seeing everyone else's flawless lives on Facebook is making me feel so inadequate and isolated as a student who doesn't fit in.,social isolation,seeing everyone else flawless life facebook making feel inadequate isolated student fit,,
"I'm an introvert who enjoys spending time alone, but I worry that I'm becoming too isolated from others. How can I strike a balance between solitude and social engagement that feels fulfilling to me?",social isolation,introvert enjoys spending time alone worry becoming isolated others strike balance solitude social engagement feel fulfilling,,
Being publicly shamed and humiliated on YouTube by my peers has made me feel so embarrassed and ashamed to even show my face at school.,social isolation,publicly shamed humiliated youtube peer made feel embarrassed ashamed even show face school,,
I'm worried that my social media use might be contributing to my anxiety. Are there any online tools that can help?,social isolation,worried social medium use might contributing anxiety online tool help,,
Seeing everyone else's thriving social lives on Instagram is making me feel like such a total outcast and failure as a student.,social isolation,seeing everyone else thriving social life instagram making feel like total outcast failure student,,
I constantly compare myself to others on social media and it's affecting my self-esteem. What can I be doing differently?,social isolation,constantly compare others social medium affecting self esteem differently,,
"Even when I'm physically with my friends, I find myself constantly checking my phone and scrolling through social media instead of being present. I hate that I've gotten so addicted to it.",social isolation,even physically friend find constantly checking phone scrolling social medium instead present hate gotten addicted,,
Feeling anxious about starting over socially in a new town. Are there online resources to help?,social isolation,feeling anxious starting socially new town online resource help,,
"Joining an online forum dedicated to a specific interest feels like a lifeline, a chance to connect with like-minded people.  But the fear of online trolls and negativity deters me from participating.  Can I find a safe and supportive online community where I can learn, share, and connect without judgment?",social isolation,joining online forum dedicated specific interest feel like lifeline chance connect minded people fear troll negativity deters participating find safe supportive community learn share without judgment,,
Seeing everyone else's seemingly perfect lives on Facebook is making me feel like such a loser and outsider at my school.,social isolation,seeing everyone else seemingly perfect life facebook making feel like loser outsider school,,
only thing I ever want to want to hug and release is the social media.,social isolation,thing ever want hug release social medium,,
I'm a remote worker who misses the camaraderie and collaboration of an office environment. How can I stay connected with colleagues and maintain a sense of community while working from home?,social isolation,remote worker miss camaraderie collaboration office environment stay connected colleague maintain sense community working home,,
"Sometimes I just feel so alone, even when I'm scrolling through all my social media feeds and seeing my friends seemingly having a great time without me.",social isolation,sometimes feel alone even scrolling social medium feed seeing friend seemingly great time without,,
"I often feel like no one understands what I'm going through, and I struggle to find support.

 ",social isolation,often feel like one understands going struggle find support,,
my constant worry is that Not all things can be shown off on social media.,social isolation,constant worry thing shown social medium,,
"The fear of judgment from friends and family is crippling. I don't want to be seen as a failure. So I avoid social interaction, especially in large gatherings where job status often comes up in conversation.",social isolation,fear judgment friend family crippling want seen failure avoid social interaction especially large gathering job status often come conversation,,
I'm an individual with a chronic illness or disability that limits my ability to engage in social activities. How can I find alternative ways to connect with others and combat feelings of isolation?,social isolation,individual chronic illness disability limit ability engage social activity find alternative way connect others combat feeling isolation,,
The constant rumors and gossip spreading about me online have made me too anxious to even talk to my peers at school anymore.,social isolation,constant rumor gossip spreading online made anxious even talk peer school anymore,,
I feel like I'm dropping the ball at work because I'm constantly thinking about the baby. How can I manage this transition?,social isolation,feel like dropping ball work constantly thinking baby manage transition,,
"The thought of volunteering fills me with a desire to help others, but the fear of commitment and awkward social interactions holds me back.  Can I find a volunteer opportunity that aligns with my interests and allows me to connect with like-minded people while making a difference?",social isolation,thought volunteering fill desire help others fear commitment awkward social interaction hold back find volunteer opportunity aligns interest allows connect like minded people making difference,,
I've recently retired and find myself struggling with a sense of purpose and connection now that I no longer have the structure of work and social interactions. How can I combat feelings of isolation and find fulfillment in this new phase of life?,social isolation,recently retired find struggling sense purpose connection longer structure work social interaction combat feeling isolation fulfillment new phase life,,
"Due to the COVID-19 pandemic, I've been unable to visit my elderly parents, and I'm feeling guilty and lonely. How can I maintain a sense of connection with them while keeping them safe?",social isolation,due covid pandemic unable visit elderly parent feeling guilty lonely maintain sense connection keeping safe,,
"Ive been pretty socially isolated for about 6 years now. I live alone. I have a really high paying job. My co workers view me as very normal and have no idea what I used to be like (from a depression and anxiety standpoint). People think I have a normal social life and friends. I do not. I sit in my apartment alone most weekends and hate it. I have a fair amount of acquaintances, but almost no legitimate friends. Its actually easier for me to date at this point than find a few legitimate guy friends that I can hang out with regularly. All I want out of life right now is a great group of guy friends. Have I missed the boat? Is it even possible to get an awesome group of guy friends in your late 20s? Basically everyone I run into hangs out with their college buddies. I dont have any. And its really hard to relate to people because I didnt do anything normal/social for about 5 years in my life. Im way behind on the boat. I cant relate to any drinking activities because I never did any of that. No concerts. No college friends I can talk about. Im basically a loner. How do I change this? I need to gain some social momentum for an upward spiral to occur socially for me",social isolation,ive pretty socially isolated year live alone really high paying job co worker view normal idea used like depression anxiety standpoint people think social life friend sit apartment weekend hate fair amount acquaintance almost legitimate actually easier date point find guy hang regularly want right great group missed boat even possible get awesome late basically everyone run college buddy dont hard relate didnt anything im way behind cant drinking activity never concert talk loner change need gain momentum upward spiral occur,,
"Feeling isolated and lost after losing my job. Spending a lot of time on social media, but it's making me feel worse. What are some alternatives?",social isolation,feeling isolated lost losing job spending lot time social medium making feel worse alternative,,
"Pet ownership is supposed to be a source of companionship and unconditional love. While my furry friend offers comfort, the walks in the park often turn into a solitary parade of me and my pup. How can I use dog parks or doggy daycare as a chance to connect with other pet owners, building friendships through our shared love for our furry companions?",social isolation,pet ownership supposed source companionship unconditional love furry friend offer comfort walk park often turn solitary parade pup use dog doggy daycare chance connect owner building friendship shared companion,,
Seeing everyone else's amazing social lives online is making me feel like such a loser and total outsider at my school.,social isolation,seeing everyone else amazing social life online making feel like loser total outsider school,,
"Scrolling through social media, I'm bombarded with friends' seemingly perfect lives - vacations, celebrations, achievements.  Envy creeps in, highlighting my own quiet existence.  Can I break free from the comparison trap and find value in my own journey, or will social media continue to fuel loneliness?",social isolation,scrolling social medium bombarded friend seemingly perfect life vacation celebration achievement envy creep highlighting quiet existence break free comparison trap find value journey continue fuel loneliness,,
I'm a survivor of elder abuse who feels isolated and ashamed of my experiences. How can I break the silence and seek support from others who have gone through similar situations?,social isolation,survivor elder abuse feel isolated ashamed experience break silence seek support others gone similar situation,,
I'm cyberbullied sometimes on social media. What should I do?,social isolation,cyberbullied sometimes social medium,,
Scrolling through social media all the time makes me feel like everyone else is having more fun exploring the town than me. It's discouraging.,social isolation,scrolling social medium time make feel like everyone else fun exploring town discouraging,,
"I don't have a disorder but I don't really like to be around lots of people otherwise I begin to feel anxious, I also randomly cut myself off from people. Typing this now and I haven't been on social media for atleast 3 weeks, spoken to anyone or bothered as I like to keep my distance. I focus on things that benefit me to make sure I stay levelled and happy — I study and exercise and do still talk to a few people in terms of family so I'm not totally isolated. It's a tough one isn't it",social isolation,disorder really like around lot people otherwise begin feel anxious also randomly cut typing social medium atleast week spoken anyone bothered keep distance focus thing benefit make sure stay levelled happy study exercise still talk term family totally isolated tough one,,
"The constant stream of social media feels draining, a curated reality that amplifies my sense of isolation.  Taking a break feels risky, the fear of missing out a powerful motivator to stay plugged in.  Can I disconnect from social media and reconnect with myself and the world around me?",social isolation,constant stream social medium feel draining curated reality amplifies sense isolation taking break risky fear missing powerful motivator stay plugged disconnect reconnect world around,,
"Sharing my knowledge at a local skill-share workshop feels exciting, a chance to connect with others who share my passion.  But the fear of judgment and public speaking triggers anxiety.  Can I overcome my fear and use this platform to connect, learn, and teach?",social isolation,sharing knowledge local skill share workshop feel exciting chance connect others passion fear judgment public speaking trigger anxiety overcome use platform learn teach,,
I'm a member of a marginalized community and often feel excluded and isolated from mainstream society. How can I find spaces where I feel accepted and valued for who I am?,social isolation,member marginalized community often feel excluded isolated mainstream society find space accepted valued,,
"One of my students was publicly humiliated and shamed online by their classmates, and now they're reluctant to even participate in class due to the embarrassment.",social isolation,one student publicly humiliated shamed online classmate reluctant even participate class due embarrassment,,
"I used to be really into gaming, but now I just end up spending most of my time on social media instead. I feel like I've lost touch with that part of myself.",social isolation,used really gaming end spending time social medium instead feel like lost touch part,,
"I often feel like I'm swimming against the current, struggling to find a place where I belong.

 ",social isolation,often feel like swimming current struggling find place belong,,
"Friends used to fill my weekends with laughter and adventures. Now, invitations are met with silence. My social calendar, once a vibrant tapestry, is a blank canvas.  Is it me? Have I become the invisible friend, or have I simply drifted away?",social isolation,friend used fill weekend laughter adventure invitation met silence social calendar vibrant tapestry blank canvas become invisible simply drifted away,,
"all the time I want to complain on social media, but I don't think it's appropriate to see the age and status of these gentlemen.",social isolation,time want complain social medium think appropriate see age status gentleman,,
Feeling overwhelmed by feeling like I have to keep up with social media trends. What can I do?,social isolation,feeling overwhelmed like keep social medium trend,,
"After the death of a loved one, I've withdrawn from social interactions and find myself feeling increasingly isolated. How can I cope with grief while also maintaining connections with my support network?",social isolation,death loved one withdrawn social interaction find feeling increasingly isolated cope grief also maintaining connection support network,,
"Trying to keep up this perfect social media image on Snapchat is draining all my energy, and I'm neglecting my real-life friendships as a result.",social isolation,trying keep perfect social medium image snapchat draining energy neglecting real life friendship result,,
I feel awkward and out of practice with social interactions after being isolated for so long. How can I ease back into socializing?,social isolation,feel awkward practice social interaction isolated long ease back socializing,,
"I'm constantly comparing myself to other students on social media, especially their seemingly perfect college experiences. How can I develop a healthier online presence?",social isolation,constantly comparing student social medium especially seemingly perfect college experience develop healthier online presence,,
"Whenever I see my friends posting about all the fun they're having online during COVID, I can't help but feel really lonely and left out, even though I know that's not the full picture.",social isolation,whenever see friend posting fun online covid help feel really lonely left even though know full picture,,
"Feeling down and lonely after losing my job. Spending all day on social media, but it's not helping. What can I do differently?",social isolation,feeling lonely losing job spending day social medium helping differently,,
"With everything being online for school during the pandemic, my family stopped making as much effort for in-person bonding time. Now I barely even talk to them.",social isolation,everything online school pandemic family stopped making much effort person bonding time barely even talk,,
" While I admire some creators, I crave a sense of community with other learners, not just following these online celebrities.  I wish there was a space for genuine interaction and support, where we can learn from each other's experiences",social isolation,admire creator crave sense community learner following online celebrity wish space genuine interaction support learn experience,,
I feel like I can't express myself authentically because I'm worried about being judged. Is it okay to hide parts of myself?,social isolation,feel like express authentically worried judged okay hide part,,
"With retirement and all the changes, I feel like I've lost my purpose.  The days seem long and uneventful.  How do I find meaning and connection again in this new chapter of my life?",social isolation,retirement change feel like lost purpose day seem long uneventful find meaning connection new chapter life,,
"I'm a member of a marginalized community that faces systemic discrimination and exclusion, leading to feelings of isolation and alienation. How can I advocate for change and create spaces where all voices are heard and valued?",social isolation,member marginalized community face systemic discrimination exclusion leading feeling isolation alienation advocate change create space voice heard valued,,
I feel constantly lonely and nobody understands me. It's affecting my schoolwork and I don't want to leave my room.,social isolation,feel constantly lonely nobody understands affecting schoolwork want leave room,,
" everyone on campus seems to have this amazing social life. They're always at parties, events, or out with friends. I'm constantly surrounded by people, but I feel so isolated. I go to class, do my homework, even join clubs, but I haven't made any real connections.  Is there something I'm doing wrong?",social isolation,everyone campus seems amazing social life always party event friend constantly surrounded people feel isolated go class homework even join club made real connection something wrong,,
My social anxiety makes it terrifying to meet new people or put myself out there. Feeling increasingly isolated because of it. Are there any tips for people with social anxiety to overcome these challenges and build connections?,social isolation,social anxiety make terrifying meet new people put feeling increasingly isolated tip overcome challenge build connection,,
 I spend so much time documenting everything on social media that I miss out on actually enjoying time with my baby.  I'm worried I'll be looking back at perfectly curated pictures instead of remembering the real-life moments.,social isolation,spend much time documenting everything social medium miss actually enjoying baby worried looking back perfectly curated picture instead remembering real life moment,,
"I feel paralyzed by indecision, even over small things.",social isolation,feel paralyzed indecision even small thing,,
Feeling down on myself because everyone on social media seems to have their dream job. How can I deal with these comparisons?,social isolation,feeling everyone social medium seems dream job deal comparison,,
"I find myself doomscrolling through news about the pandemic, making me feel worse. How can I stop?",social isolation,find doomscrolling news pandemic making feel worse stop,,
"Since COVID hit, none of my friends want to do anything fun together in person anymore. They all just want to hang out online instead. I feel so left out.",social isolation,since covid hit none friend want anything fun together person anymore hang online instead feel left,,
"I've noticed several of my students seem really withdrawn and depressed lately, and I suspect it's due to the nasty comments and bullying they're facing online.",social isolation,noticed several student seem really withdrawn depressed lately suspect due nasty comment bullying facing online,,
"After every social interaction, I replay it in my head, analyzing every word and gesture. I dwell on perceived mistakes and cringe at things I might have said wrong. This overthinking fuels my anxiety and makes me avoid social situations.",social isolation,every social interaction replay head analyzing word gesture dwell perceived mistake cringe thing might said wrong overthinking fuel anxiety make avoid situation,,
I recently moved to a new town and haven't made any friends yet. I feel really alone and spend most of my time online. Is this normal?,social isolation,recently moved new town made friend yet feel really alone spend time online normal,,
I'm a remote student who struggles with the lack of in-person interaction and support from classmates and teachers. How can I combat feelings of isolation and stay motivated to succeed academically?,social isolation,remote student struggle lack person interaction support classmate teacher combat feeling isolation stay motivated succeed academically,,
"I recently came out to my friends, but it feels like things haven't changed much. They don't seem to understand what it's like to be gay. What now?",social isolation,recently came friend feel like thing changed much seem understand gay,,
I feel like I'm losing my social skills because I'm not interacting with people in real life. How can I maintain or improve these skills while isolated?,social isolation,feel like losing social skill interacting people real life maintain improve isolated,,
"I often feel like I'm stuck in a rut, unable to break free and connect with others.

 ",social isolation,often feel like stuck rut unable break free connect others,,
" I want to create my own content, but the thought of putting myself out there and potentially failing is terrifying.  The pressure to be perfect and entertaining keeps me stuck in the cycle of just watching, never creating.",social isolation,want create content thought putting potentially failing terrifying pressure perfect entertaining keep stuck cycle watching never creating,,
Seeing everyone else's thriving social lives on social media is making me feel like a total outcast and failure as a student.,social isolation,seeing everyone else thriving social life medium making feel like total outcast failure student,,
I recently retired and find myself feeling lonely without the structure and social interaction of the workplace. How can I adjust to this new phase of life and find fulfillment outside of work?,social isolation,recently retired find feeling lonely without structure social interaction workplace adjust new phase life fulfillment outside work,,
"The park used to be my sanctuary, a place to lose myself in a good book surrounded by the gentle hum of nature. Lately, the chirping birds and rustling leaves mock my isolation. Every couple holding hands, every group picnicking on the grass, feels like a neon sign flashing lonely above my head. Can I reclaim the park as a place of peace, even if it means peaceful solitude?",social isolation,park used sanctuary place lose good book surrounded gentle hum nature lately chirping bird rustling leaf mock isolation every couple holding hand group picnicking grass feel like neon sign flashing lonely head reclaim peace even mean peaceful solitude,,
"Volunteering used to be a way to give back, to feel a sense of purpose. Now, even surrounded by people with a common goal, I struggle to break out of my shell. Everyone seems to have established friendships and inside jokes. How can I overcome the initial awkwardness and find my place within a volunteer group, building connections while making a difference?",social isolation,volunteering used way give back feel sense purpose even surrounded people common goal struggle break shell everyone seems established friendship inside joke overcome initial awkwardness find place within volunteer group building connection making difference,,
"My parents are always telling me to put down my phone and have real conversations, but it's just so much easier for me to communicate through text and social media, especially with COVID.",social isolation,parent always telling put phone real conversation much easier communicate text social medium especially covid,,
"I'm a young adult who recently moved to a new city for work, and I'm having difficulty making friends and building a social network. How can I overcome feelings of isolation and loneliness in a new environment?",social isolation,young adult recently moved new city work difficulty making friend building social network overcome feeling isolation loneliness environment,,
I'm bored and lonely waiting for something to happen.,social isolation,bored lonely waiting something happen,,
"I feel like I'm constantly comparing myself to others on social media, especially people from college. What can I help?",social isolation,feel like constantly comparing others social medium especially people college help,,
The hateful messages and rumors constantly spreading about me online have been really triggering my depression and making me withdraw from all my school friends.,social isolation,hateful message rumor constantly spreading online really triggering depression making withdraw school friend,,
I feel a pressure to be the strong one and hide my anxieties about fatherhood. Is it okay to ask for help?,social isolation,feel pressure strong one hide anxiety fatherhood okay ask help,,
"I want to post about my own  projects on LinkedIn, but I'm terrified of putting my work out there.  What if it's not good enough?  What if everyone else criticizes it?  This fear of imperfection keeps me silent and isolated online.",social isolation,want post project linkedin terrified putting work good enough everyone else criticizes fear imperfection keep silent isolated online,,
"I tried to invite some guys from school to hang out, but they all just said they were too busy and would rather talk on Instagram. I feel so left out.",social isolation,tried invite guy school hang said busy would rather talk instagram feel left,,
"I crave connection and friendships. I'm tired of feeling isolated. I know I need to overcome my social anxiety and awkwardness, but I don't know where to start. Can you help me face these fears?",social isolation,crave connection friendship tired feeling isolated know need overcome social anxiety awkwardness start help face fear,,
"I just graduated high school and everyone else seems to have their plans figured out. I feel lost and alone, especially because I can't be myself around most people here. What should I do?",social isolation,graduated high school everyone else seems plan figured feel lost alone especially around people,,
"Learning a new language used to be an exciting challenge, a window into a different culture. Now, the online lessons feel sterile, the practice apps impersonal. I crave the energy of conversation, the opportunity to stumble through phrases with a native speaker. How can I find language exchange partners or communities that make learning a language a social experience?",social isolation,learning new language used exciting challenge window different culture online lesson feel sterile practice apps impersonal crave energy conversation opportunity stumble phrase native speaker find exchange partner community make social experience,,
"hi, from this random account.. the tweet account is really made as a backup for reading/backup/reviews of what i watch or read or whatever. if you're uncomfortable, just block and unblock it. ..let's be as comfortable as possible on social media, enjoy!  as the only ONE way I have fun is through social media accounts.",social isolation,hi random account tweet really made backup reading review watch read whatever uncomfortable block unblock let comfortable possible social medium enjoy one way fun,,
Going through a divorce and feeling incredibly isolated. My social circle was mostly centered around my ex-partner's friends and family. How do you rebuild your social life after a major life change like divorce?,social isolation,going divorce feeling incredibly isolated social circle mostly centered around ex partner friend family rebuild life major change like,,
"Graduated college recently and feeling adrift. Most of my friends moved away, and I haven't made new connections yet. Is social isolation a normal experience for young adults, or should I be worried?",social isolation,graduated college recently feeling adrift friend moved away made new connection yet social isolation normal experience young adult worried,,
"After moving to a new country, I'm finding it difficult to adjust to the cultural differences and make friends in my community. How can I integrate into my new environment and overcome feelings of isolation?",social isolation,moving new country finding difficult adjust cultural difference make friend community integrate environment overcome feeling isolation,,
"I need a friend. I need anyone. I'm alone. I have suffered with loneliness for a long time. 6 months ago, I fell in love with a man who I thought loved me too. He moved in, but left in the middle of the night with all of his things. Yesterday night in my sleep, he sent me a text message breaking up with me.",social isolation,need friend anyone alone suffered loneliness long time month ago fell love man thought loved moved left middle night thing yesterday sleep sent text message breaking,,
Loneliness and longing for a girl at work who led me on but chose someone else.,social isolation,loneliness longing girl work led chose someone else,,
"Ever since moving to a new school, I’ve felt isolated and haven’t made any friends. What can I do to change this?",social isolation,ever since moving new school felt isolated made friend change,,
"I'm a member of the military who has recently returned from deployment, and I'm finding it difficult to readjust to civilian life and reconnect with loved ones. How can I navigate this transition and overcome feelings of isolation?",social isolation,member military recently returned deployment finding difficult readjust civilian life reconnect loved one navigate transition overcome feeling isolation,,
"I often feel like I'm a lone wolf, howling into the void.

 ",social isolation,often feel like lone wolf howling void,,
"Late-night movie screenings offer a unique atmosphere, a shared experience with strangers. But the thought of initiating conversation feels intimidating, the fear of rejection looming large.  Can I muster the courage to strike up a conversation and find connection in the shared love for cinema?",social isolation,late night movie screening offer unique atmosphere shared experience stranger thought initiating conversation feel intimidating fear rejection looming large muster courage strike find connection love cinema,,
"Can social isolation cause brain damage? For several reasons, including covid and autism, I have been very isolated for many years, especially during high school and most of my 20s (28 now), very important years when it comes to social development. I missed out on a lot of stuff and I am very isolated still today. I am very afraid that because of this, I have not been able to develop proper social skills and now I have all kinds of mental issues. Sometimes I think that my brain is under-developed, that I am not able to learn social skills and forming relationships. I wonder if I, besides talking to a mental health professional, also need to talk to a doctor about physical problems with my brain. For example, is it possible that I could benefit from taking medicine, ECT or some kind of magnetic stimulation? It's really hard for me to connect with people and I need all the help I can get. Something tells me that working on my social skills won't be enough, that's why I'm asking if anybody has tried something else?",social isolation,social isolation cause brain damage several reason including covid autism isolated many year especially high school important come development missed lot stuff still today afraid able develop proper skill kind mental issue sometimes think developed learn forming relationship wonder besides talking health professional also need talk doctor physical problem example possible could benefit taking medicine ect magnetic stimulation really hard connect people help get something tell working enough asking anybody tried else,,
"I struggle to initiate or maintain conversations with others, leading to social isolation.

 ",social isolation,struggle initiate maintain conversation others leading social isolation,,
"Since the lockdown, my social life's gone virtual, but it just isn't the same. How can I make these online interactions feel more meaningful?",social isolation,since lockdown social life gone virtual make online interaction feel meaningful,,
"Scrolling through social media feels like peering into a world through a dusty window. Everyone's having brunch dates, attending concerts, celebrating birthdays with friends. My feed is a stark contrast - a landscape of solitary activities and forced smiles in selfies. How can I bridge the gap between the online world and real-life connection?",social isolation,scrolling social medium feel like peering world dusty window everyone brunch date attending concert celebrating birthday friend feed stark contrast landscape solitary activity forced smile selfies bridge gap online real life connection,,
I feel guilty about relying on my family for help with everything. They must be so tired of taking care of me. How can I lessen the burden?,social isolation,feel guilty relying family help everything must tired taking care lessen burden,,
"STRANGE!!! CLEARLY MAKES A FATAL MISTAKE, BUT WHY DON'T YOU ASK FOR SORRY, YES...?  I only can behave and feel better; if it's on Social Media; otherwise I can't bring out my best matters in real life.",social isolation,strange clearly make fatal mistake ask sorry yes behave feel better social medium otherwise bring best matter real life,,
"I feel, deep down, incredibly alone... my whole entire life. From the time I was very little, I knew I was incredibly different from everybody else. I couldn't understand other people. I couldn't understand other kids my age. Yes, I could play the part as human being who says all the right small talk with other human beings, and pretend to understand they're the same as me, but they're not. I'm an alien. I have nobody to truly connect to. I feel like I'm the only person on this entire planet of nearly 8 billion people who it truly, and totally, irrevocably DIFFERENT from everybody else. On a cosmic level, I feel utterly alone and alien.",social isolation,feel deep incredibly alone whole entire life time little knew different everybody else understand people kid age yes could play part human say right small talk being pretend alien nobody truly connect like person planet nearly billion totally irrevocably cosmic level utterly,,
"As I navigate social media, the facade of connectivity only magnifies my isolation. Endless likes and shares can't fill the void of meaningful human connection. I'm ready to confront this loneliness and seek guidance on fostering genuine relationships beyond the screen.",social isolation,navigate social medium facade connectivity magnifies isolation endless like share fill void meaningful human connection ready confront loneliness seek guidance fostering genuine relationship beyond screen,,
"I feel like I'm lost in a crowd, unable to find my way to connection.

 ",social isolation,feel like lost crowd unable find way connection,,
"Just lost my job and feeling pretty down. Social media isn't helping much, just seeing everyone else seemingly doing great. What can I do?",social isolation,lost job feeling pretty social medium helping much seeing everyone else seemingly great,,
" Help. I just need someone to talk to, even for just a couple of minutes. I'm having really bad thoughts and need to talk about literally anything else. I feel like I'm falling apart.",social isolation,help need someone talk even couple minute really bad thought literally anything else feel like falling apart,,
"As an international student studying abroad, I'm feeling isolated and disconnected from my family and friends back home. How can I overcome the distance and stay connected with my loved ones?",social isolation,international student studying abroad feeling isolated disconnected family friend back home overcome distance stay connected loved one,,
"At coffee shop.i am a  young man who sits hunched over his laptop, surrounded by people, yet completely alone.",social isolation,coffee shop young man sits hunched laptop surrounded people yet completely alone,,
"Amidst the digital noise, my sense of isolation grows louder. Despite being surrounded by virtual friends, I feel disconnected and unseen. I crave guidance on navigating this loneliness and rediscovering genuine connections that transcend the confines of social media.",social isolation,amidst digital noise sense isolation grows louder despite surrounded virtual friend feel disconnected unseen crave guidance navigating loneliness rediscovering genuine connection transcend confines social medium,,
"Hoping to find someone to talk to regularly. I'm longing for someone to talk to on a regular basis, someone I can share my thoughts and feelings with. Having someone to confide in would mean the world to me.",social isolation,hoping find someone talk regularly longing regular basis share thought feeling confide would mean world,,
"I have a stutter and after learning that I wont grow out of it, I feel as if I would never achieve my dreams due go my lack of ability to fluently speak. It's making me feel worthless. I know that I will never get a girlfriend because of it and it just makes me feel like shit.",social isolation,stutter learning wont grow feel would never achieve dream due go lack ability fluently speak making worthless know get girlfriend make like shit,,
"The thought of going out and meeting people face-to-face scares me, but online interactions feel overwhelming too. Is there a middle ground for people who struggle with social anxiety in both settings?",social isolation,thought going meeting people face scare online interaction feel overwhelming middle ground struggle social anxiety setting,,
"I feel like I'm stranded on an island, with no way to escape.

 ",social isolation,feel like stranded island way escape,,
"Belting out tunes in the privacy of my shower feels liberating, but the idea of singing karaoke in public sparks anxiety.  Can I push past the fear and embrace the joy of singing, potentially finding connection with others who share this passion?",social isolation,belting tune privacy shower feel liberating idea singing karaoke public spark anxiety push past fear embrace joy potentially finding connection others share passion,,
"I've been feeling increasingly isolated lately, especially since moving to a new city where I don't know anyone. What are some strategies I can use to connect with others and overcome this loneliness?",social isolation,feeling increasingly isolated lately especially since moving new city know anyone strategy use connect others overcome loneliness,,
"As a new parent, I find it challenging to maintain friendships and social activities outside of caring for my child. How can I prevent social isolation and prioritize my own well-being amidst the demands of parenthood?",social isolation,new parent find challenging maintain friendship social activity outside caring child prevent isolation prioritize well amidst demand parenthood,,
"My partner is a happy introvert who needs a lot of alone time. On the other hand, I'm an extrovert who gets energized from social interaction. Can a relationship between two people with such different social needs work in the long run?",social isolation,partner happy introvert need lot alone time hand extrovert get energized social interaction relationship two people different work long run,,
"After a particularly heated online debate, i feels a strange disconnect with my friends who hold opposing views. i wonders if their online personas are a facade and struggles to connect with them authentically offline.",social isolation,particularly heated online debate feel strange disconnect friend hold opposing view wonder persona facade struggle connect authentically offline,,
I miss the motivation I had when working/studying around others. How can I find motivation again?,social isolation,miss motivation working studying around others find,,
I feel disconnected from nature and the outdoors. How can I reconnect without risking my health?,social isolation,feel disconnected nature outdoors reconnect without risking health,,
"I'm actually a very extroverted and expressive person and it appears like I have above-average social skills in certain settings, but I don't know how people see me or read me. I can seem like a brave and confident guy but without social support I often retreat back to isolation after social failures. I can often times be the life of the party given the right circumstance, but I haven't been my happier social self in a long time.",social isolation,actually extroverted expressive person appears like average social skill certain setting know people see read seem brave confident guy without support often retreat back isolation failure time life party given right circumstance happier self long,,
"Whenever I try to talk to my parents about how lonely I feel because of social media, they just don't seem to understand. They think I should just stop using it so much.",social isolation,whenever try talk parent lonely feel social medium seem understand think stop using much,,
"I'm a frontline worker who has experienced trauma and burnout in my role, leading to feelings of isolation and disconnection from colleagues and loved ones. How can I prioritize my mental health and seek support from others in similar situations?",social isolation,frontline worker experienced trauma burnout role leading feeling isolation disconnection colleague loved one prioritize mental health seek support others similar situation,,
Seeing everyone else's perfect friend groups and social lives on social media is making me feel like a total outcast at school.,social isolation,seeing everyone else perfect friend group social life medium making feel like total outcast school,,
"I often feel like I'm walking through life alone, with no one to share my experiences with.

 ",social isolation,often feel like walking life alone one share experience,,
"I find it hard to relate to others and often feel like I'm on the outside looking in.

 ",social isolation,find hard relate others often feel like outside looking,,
"As a person with social anxiety, I often avoid social interactions and find it difficult to connect with others, leading to feelings of loneliness. How can I overcome my anxiety and build meaningful relationships?",social isolation,person social anxiety often avoid interaction find difficult connect others leading feeling loneliness overcome build meaningful relationship,,
I'm a member of a low-income community that lacks access to affordable transportation and community resources. How can I overcome barriers to social participation and advocate for change in my neighborhood?,social isolation,member low income community lack access affordable transportation resource overcome barrier social participation advocate change neighborhood,,
I recently lost my job and am now spending most of my days at home. How can I cope with the loss of social interaction that came with my workplace and find new ways to stay engaged with others?,social isolation,recently lost job spending day home cope loss social interaction came workplace find new way stay engaged others,,
I feel like a burden to everyone around me. They'd all be better off without me.,social isolation,feel like burden everyone around better without,,
hese creators all seem to have these flawless lives and perfect online personas.  It's exhausting trying to keep up with this illusion. I wish they were more honest about the struggles and hard work behind the scenes. Maybe then it wouldn't feel so isolating.,social isolation,hese creator seem flawless life perfect online persona exhausting trying keep illusion wish honest struggle hard work behind scene maybe feel isolating,,
Seeing everyone else's picture-perfect lives online is making me feel so inadequate and left out as a student who doesn't fit in.,social isolation,seeing everyone else picture perfect life online making feel inadequate left student fit,,
"Art museums, with their masterpieces hanging on pristine walls, used to ignite my imagination. Now, I wander the halls, a lone figure dwarfed by the grandeur. The beauty feels inaccessible, the artistic conversations happening around me a language I can't seem to speak. How can I appreciate art in a more communal way, sparking conversations and enriching the experience?",social isolation,art museum masterpiece hanging pristine wall used ignite imagination wander hall lone figure dwarfed grandeur beauty feel inaccessible artistic conversation happening around language seem speak appreciate communal way sparking enriching experience,,
None of my friends ever want to do anything fun or adventurous anymore. They're always just content to stay home and scroll through their phones. It makes me feel so bored and unchallenged.,social isolation,none friend ever want anything fun adventurous anymore always content stay home scroll phone make feel bored unchallenged,,
"I find myself comparing my life to others on social media, and it's making me feel inadequate. How can I stop this cycle?",social media addiction,find comparing life others social medium making feel inadequate stop cycle,,
"I miss having deep conversations with myself, and sometimes it feels like social media is taking up too much space in my life.",social media addiction,miss deep conversation sometimes feel like social medium taking much space life,,
"Lately, I've noticed that I spend more time on social media than I should. It's become a habit that's hard to break. How can I regain control of my time and reduce my dependence on social media?",social media addiction,lately noticed spend time social medium become habit hard break regain control reduce dependence,,
"I spend way too much time on social media, especially comparing myself to other students. It makes me feel like I'm falling behind. What can I do differently?",social media addiction,spend way much time social medium especially comparing student make feel like falling behind differently,,
"I came across this randomly on Instagram and couldn't believe it. Theres so many excuses women have for not wanting girls, a lot of them based in sexism and misogyny, but this was a new one for me! ",social media addiction,came across randomly instagram believe there many excuse woman wanting girl lot based sexism misogyny new one,,
"Whenever I try to get my grandson to put down his phone and have a real conversation, he just gets defensive and irritable. I'm worried he might have a serious problem.",social media addiction,whenever try get grandson put phone real conversation defensive irritable worried might serious problem,,
"I find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media for hours, even when I have other responsibilities to attend to.",social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium hour even responsibility attend,,
Sometimes I feel like I'm spending more time scrolling through TikTok and Instagram than I am doing my actual schoolwork. It's really impacting my grades.,social media addiction,sometimes feel like spending time scrolling tiktok instagram actual schoolwork really impacting grade,,
I feel like I'm missing out on important updates and events when I'm not constantly checking social media. How can I overcome this fear of missing out (FOMO)?,social media addiction,feel like missing important update event constantly checking social medium overcome fear fomo,,
"I constantly compare my life to others' on social media, and it makes me feel inadequate and lonely.",social media addiction,constantly compare life others social medium make feel inadequate lonely,,
"Sometimes, I feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster. I can go from being extremely happy to feeling worthless in no time",social media addiction,sometimes feel like emotional rollercoaster go extremely happy feeling worthless time,,
I worry that my social media use might be affecting my creativity. I feel stuck and uninspired.  Should I take a break?,social media addiction,worry social medium use might affecting creativity feel stuck uninspired take break,,
Sometimes I find myself so obsessed with getting likes and comments on my social media posts that I start neglecting my real-world friendships and relationships.,social media addiction,sometimes find obsessed getting like comment social medium post start neglecting real world friendship relationship,,
" I'm here because I'm worried about my online shopping habits. I've started hiding packages from my partner because I know they'll be upset about how much I'm spending. I feel ashamed of my behavior, but I can't seem to stop myself from clicking 'buy' even when I know I can't afford it.",social media addiction,worried online shopping habit started hiding package partner know upset much spending feel ashamed behavior seem stop clicking buy even afford,,
"I am a business owner,Social media portrays entrepreneurship as a glamorous, nonstop hustle.  It's making me feel overwhelmed and anxious about not being productive enough.  How can I establish realistic work-life boundaries and find a healthy perspective on online portrayals of success?",social media addiction,business owner social medium portrays entrepreneurship glamorous nonstop hustle making feel overwhelmed anxious productive enough establish realistic work life boundary find healthy perspective online portrayal success,,
"I've experienced cyberbullying on social media, and it's deeply affecting my self-esteem. How can I cope with this?",social media addiction,experienced cyberbullying social medium deeply affecting self esteem cope,,
"How can I tell if I'm addicted to social media, and what steps can I take to cut back?",social media addiction,tell addicted social medium step take cut back,,
"hello, I'm looking for a mutual. only thing we both want to do in life is make each other's social media networks perfect.",social media addiction,hello looking mutual thing want life make social medium network perfect,,
I find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media when I should be focusing on important tasks.,social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium focusing important task,,
I feel pressured to constantly share updates and photos on social media to maintain my online image. How can I break free from this need for validation?,social media addiction,feel pressured constantly share update photo social medium maintain online image break free need validation,,
"I'm starting to realize that my social media use is negatively impacting my mental health. It's causing me anxiety and stress, yet I can't seem to stop scrolling. How can I break free from this addictive cycle?",social media addiction,starting realize social medium use negatively impacting mental health causing anxiety stress yet seem stop scrolling break free addictive cycle,,
Social media use seems to be impacting his mood or causing feelings of isolation.,social media addiction,social medium use seems impacting mood causing feeling isolation,,
I find it difficult to concentrate on work or studies because I keep checking social media. Is this a typical experience?,social media addiction,find difficult concentrate work study keep checking social medium typical experience,,
I feel like I'm constantly seeking validation and approval through likes and comments on social media.,social media addiction,feel like constantly seeking validation approval comment social medium,,
" I feel like I'm losing myself trying to be what I think people want to see online. My content feels inauthentic, and I'm starting to resent the whole influencer thing. The negative comments don't help either. They sting, and it's hard not to let them get to me.",social media addiction,feel like losing trying think people want see online content inauthentic starting resent whole influencer thing negative comment help either sting hard let get,,
"I've tried setting time limits on my social media use, but I always end up ignoring the alarms and just keep scrolling endlessly.",social media addiction,tried setting time limit social medium use always end ignoring alarm keep scrolling endlessly,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the pressure to be a perfect dad. Social media reinforces unrealistic expectations. What can I help?,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed pressure perfect dad social medium reinforces unrealistic expectation help,,
"I find myself endlessly scrolling through Instagram and TikTok for hours, neglecting other aspects of my life like exercise and hobbies.",social media addiction,find endlessly scrolling instagram tiktok hour neglecting aspect life like exercise hobby,,
"I feel overwhelmed by the workload and constantly stressed. Social media feels like a distraction, but I can't seem to stop scrolling. How can I find balance?",social media addiction,feel overwhelmed workload constantly stressed social medium like distraction seem stop scrolling find balance,,
I'm struggling to find a balance between my online life and my real life. It feels like I'm missing out on experiences because I'm constantly glued to my phone. How can I break free from this cycle and live more in the moment?,social media addiction,struggling find balance online life real feel like missing experience constantly glued phone break free cycle live moment,,
"I've tried deleting social media apps from my phone, but I just end up reinstalling them a few hours later because I feel so anxious and disconnected without them.",social media addiction,tried deleting social medium apps phone end reinstalling hour later feel anxious disconnected without,,
"I've experienced a cycle of addiction and insecurity fueled by Instagram, where the pursuit of likes and followers has consumed my thoughts and negatively impacted my self-esteem. Despite recognizing the toxicity of this behavior, I struggle to break free from the cycle and find myself constantly comparing myself to others. Seeking advice on how to overcome this obsession and regain confidence in myself.",social media addiction,experienced cycle addiction insecurity fueled instagram pursuit like follower consumed thought negatively impacted self esteem despite recognizing toxicity behavior struggle break free find constantly comparing others seeking advice overcome obsession regain confidence,,
"My friends constantly check their social media, and so do I. Is this just how people use social media these days?\n\nAnswer:",social media addiction,friend constantly check social medium people use day nanswer,,
"I've noticed my wife will spend hours mindlessly scrolling through social media on her phone, even when we're supposed to be enjoying quality time together. It makes me feel so disconnected.",social media addiction,noticed wife spend hour mindlessly scrolling social medium phone even supposed enjoying quality time together make feel disconnected,,
"I often feel envious of others' lives on social media, and it makes me question my own worth and accomplishments.",social media addiction,often feel envious others life social medium make question worth accomplishment,,
I feel disconnected from my friends and family because our interactions mainly happen on social media.,social media addiction,feel disconnected friend family interaction mainly happen social medium,,
I feel anxious if I don't check social media every few minutes. What can I do to lessen this anxiety?,social media addiction,feel anxious check social medium every minute lessen anxiety,,
I feel a sense of accomplishment or validation from likes and positive comments on my social media posts. Is this a healthy way to feel good?,social media addiction,feel sense accomplishment validation like positive comment social medium post healthy way good,,
I have been addicted to phone and specially reels and Netflix for the past few months. I want to get over and focus on my actual life and it's problems.,social media addiction,addicted phone specially reel netflix past month want get focus actual life problem,,
"I was wondering if there is something that could help me break my phone addiction. I was thinking of getting a flip phone, but I use social media to chat and connect with brands (I'm a freelancer). My main problem is with reels",social media addiction,wondering something could help break phone addiction thinking getting flip use social medium chat connect brand freelancer main problem reel,,
" I am 20yrd old,a young adult constantly compares my achievements, relationships, and possessions to those portrayed by influencers and celebrities on social media. i feel inadequate and unsuccessful in comparison.",social media addiction,yrd old young adult constantly compare achievement relationship possession portrayed influencers celebrity social medium feel inadequate unsuccessful comparison,,
I'm hesitant to open up about my social media use in a support group setting.  Will confidentiality be maintained?,social media addiction,hesitant open social medium use support group setting confidentiality maintained,,
"Whenever I try to take a break from social media, I get intense cravings and feelings of withdrawal. It's starting to feel like an addiction.",social media addiction,whenever try take break social medium get intense craving feeling withdrawal starting feel like addiction,,
I've noticed that I spend more time on social media than I do interacting with people in real life. It's starting to impact my social skills and relationships. How can I break free from this addiction?,social media addiction,noticed spend time social medium interacting people real life starting impact skill relationship break free addiction,,
" I am a young adult I have feelings of worthlessness and self-doubtwhen seeing all posts, doubting my abilities and talents despite external validation and success.",social media addiction,young adult feeling worthlessness self doubtwhen seeing post doubting ability talent despite external validation success,,
I'm a middle-aged adult who recently retired and find myself spending too much time on social media.  Is this a common issue for my age group?,social media addiction,middle aged adult recently retired find spending much time social medium common issue age group,,
 “I’ve been missing rise in the followers on my social media accounts so I’m a little down in the dumps.”,social media addiction,missing rise follower social medium account little dump,,
" my son who is a teenager constantly compares himselves to others on social media, feeling inadequate and unworthy due to perceived flaws and shortcomings.",social media addiction,son teenager constantly compare himselves others social medium feeling inadequate unworthy due perceived flaw shortcoming,,
"an individual constantly compares their life to others on social media, leading to feelings of inadequacy and low self-esteem.  there are consequences of this habitual comparison and its impact on mental health.",social media addiction,individual constantly compare life others social medium leading feeling inadequacy low self esteem consequence habitual comparison impact mental health,,
I feel like I need to constantly post updates on social media to feel validated.,social media addiction,feel like need constantly post update social medium validated,,
"I find myself checking social media constantly throughout the day, almost every hour.",social media addiction,find checking social medium constantly throughout day almost every hour,,
My social media usage has started to interfere with my work or school responsibilities. How can I better manage this?,social media addiction,social medium usage started interfere work school responsibility better manage,,
I feel like I've lost control over my social media usage and it's affecting my daily life.,social media addiction,feel like lost control social medium usage affecting daily life,,
"I've tried to limit my social media use in the past, but I always end up going back on excessively.  How can I break the cycle?",social media addiction,tried limit social medium use past always end going back excessively break cycle,,
"I struggle to limit my social media use, even when I set time restrictions or try to take breaks. I often find myself ignoring the alarms and just keep scrolling endlessly.",social media addiction,struggle limit social medium use even set time restriction try take break often find ignoring alarm keep scrolling endlessly,,
"A person experiences heightened levels of anxiety and stress whenever they receive negative feedback or lack engagement on their social media posts. They constantly seek validation through likes and comments.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience heightened level anxiety stress whenever receive negative feedback lack engagement social medium post constantly seek validation like comment answer,,
"I spend a lot of time on social media, but I still feel disconnected from others and like I don't belong anywhere.",social media addiction,spend lot time social medium still feel disconnected others like belong anywhere,,
"Social media seems to consume my every waking moment. Even when I try to take a break, I find myself reaching for my phone. How can I break this addictive cycle and reclaim my life?",social media addiction,social medium seems consume every waking moment even try take break find reaching phone addictive cycle reclaim life,,
"I feel pressure to portray a perfect, happy life on social media as a therapist.  It's creating a disconnect from my real experiences and anxiety about maintaining a professional online image.  How can I use social media authentically while upholding ethical boundaries?",social media addiction,feel pressure portray perfect happy life social medium therapist creating disconnect real experience anxiety maintaining professional online image use authentically upholding ethical boundary,,
Feeling like you're missing out on life back home because you're constantly deployed and can't be on social media all the time.,social media addiction,feeling like missing life back home constantly deployed social medium time,,
"Look, I'm 20, and within the last year I've developed a reel addiction. I don't want to spend 2-3 hours a day watching reels. It's not making me unproductive. The issue is, what do I do with that time instead, to relax?",social media addiction,look within last year developed reel addiction want spend hour day watching making unproductive issue time instead relax,,
"Whenever I try to put my phone down, I get intense feelings of anxiety and FOMO (fear of missing out). I just can't seem to stop checking my social media.",social media addiction,whenever try put phone get intense feeling anxiety fomo fear missing seem stop checking social medium,,
I feel like I need to constantly be on and maintain a perfect online image on social media.,social media addiction,feel like need constantly maintain perfect online image social medium,,
I feel like I'm too old to understand all these new social media trends. Is it worth trying to keep up?,social media addiction,feel like old understand new social medium trend worth trying keep,,
Seeking advice on real estate investment opportunities and navigating online courses. Any insights appreciated.,social media addiction,seeking advice real estate investment opportunity navigating online course insight appreciated,,
" I am a young adult who finds it difficult to focus on tasks or activities when not online, constantly thinking about checking their phone or computer for updates and notifications.",social media addiction,young adult find difficult focus task activity online constantly thinking checking phone computer update notification,,
"I've noticed that my mood and self-esteem have really suffered since I started constantly comparing myself to the perfect, curated lives I see on Instagram.",social media addiction,noticed mood self esteem really suffered since started constantly comparing perfect curated life see instagram,,
I feel pressure to maintain a perfect image on social media. How can I ease this pressure?,social media addiction,feel pressure maintain perfect image social medium ease,,
" I keep making these impulsive online purchases. I'll see an ad for something and have to have it right away, but then once it arrives, I barely use it or I realize I don't actually need it. I end up feeling frustrated and regretful about the wasted money.",social media addiction,keep making impulsive online purchase see ad something right away arrives barely use realize actually need end feeling frustrated regretful wasted money,,
Feeling envious of people my age who seem to be having exciting and fulfilling lives online.,social media addiction,feeling envious people age seem exciting fulfilling life online,,
"I often feel like I don't know who I am, and my relationships are always unstable.",social media addiction,often feel like know relationship always unstable,,
I constantly compare myself to others on social media and it makes me feel depressed. What can I do?,social media addiction,constantly compare others social medium make feel depressed,,
I just don't get why my grandson would rather sit alone in his room endlessly scrolling on social media than come out and play with the family. It makes me so sad to see him isolating himself.,social media addiction,get grandson would rather sit alone room endlessly scrolling social medium come play family make sad see isolating,,
"I wonder if I feel pressure to portray a perfect online life, especially when I'm facing challenges.",social media addiction,wonder feel pressure portray perfect online life especially facing challenge,,
"I'm feeling neglected by my boyfriend who's always on Instagram. Should I start messaging him there, maybe even sexting, to get his attention?",social media addiction,feeling neglected boyfriend always instagram start messaging maybe even sexting get attention,,
"The art of listening, not only by opening your social media, but also by closing your mouth",social media addiction,art listening opening social medium also closing mouth,,
I use social media to procrastinate on important tasks. How can I develop better time management skills?,social media addiction,use social medium procrastinate important task develop better time management skill,,
"Lately, I've been feeling like I need to constantly post.",social media addiction,lately feeling like need constantly post,,
"Feeling anxious about staying constantly connected on social media, especially when deployed in dangerous areas.",social media addiction,feeling anxious staying constantly connected social medium especially deployed dangerous area,,
"I have thousands of followers on social media, but I still feel like nobody really knows or understands me.",social media addiction,thousand follower social medium still feel like nobody really know understands,,
I’m worried about the amount of personal information I share online. How can I be more private on social media?,social media addiction,worried amount personal information share online private social medium,,
"I've noticed that I've been staying up way too late at night endlessly scrolling through TikTok and Instagram, even when I know I need to be sleeping.",social media addiction,noticed staying way late night endlessly scrolling tiktok instagram even know need sleeping,,
I need to break free from the constant anxiety and stress caused by social media. How can I find peace of mind?,social media addiction,need break free constant anxiety stress caused social medium find peace mind,,
" I myself a  parent and I  neglects spending quality time with their family, opting to scroll through social media instead, and feeling guilty afterward for prioritizing online interactions over real-life connections.",social media addiction,parent neglect spending quality time family opting scroll social medium instead feeling guilty afterward prioritizing online interaction real life connection,,
I often feel left out when I see my friends posting about events or gatherings that I wasn't invited to on social media.,social media addiction,often feel left see friend posting event gathering invited social medium,,
I'm interested in learning more about healthy social media habits.  Can a support group offer guidance?,social media addiction,interested learning healthy social medium habit support group offer guidance,,
"I feel anxious and stressed when I see negative news and conflicts on social media, but I can't stop scrolling.",social media addiction,feel anxious stressed see negative news conflict social medium stop scrolling,,
" I'm a YouTuber, and lately, the pressure to constantly create content is overwhelming. I feel like I have to be 'on' all the time, coming up with new ideas and editing videos to stay relevant. It's affecting my sleep, my relationships, and my overall well-being. I don't know how to disconnect and take a break without feeling like I'm letting my audience down.",social media addiction,youtuber lately pressure constantly create content overwhelming feel like time coming new idea editing video stay relevant affecting sleep relationship overall well know disconnect take break without feeling letting audience,,
I feel like I'm missing out on life experiences because I'm too preoccupied with documenting them on social media.,social media addiction,feel like missing life experience preoccupied documenting social medium,,
I feel like I'm missing out on real-life experiences because I'm too focused on social media.,social media addiction,feel like missing real life experience focused social medium,,
"I've been feeling more anxious and stressed out lately, and I think my social media usage might be contributing to it.",social media addiction,feeling anxious stressed lately think social medium usage might contributing,,
"A person feels a constant need to compete with others on social media, striving to gain more followers, likes, or attention than their peers.

Answer:",social media addiction,person feel constant need compete others social medium striving gain follower like attention peer answer,,
mentally down because social media is not that good :/ you're worried but can't do anything :((,social media addiction,mentally social medium good worried anything,,
I'm starting to feel like social media is taking over my life. It's the first thing I check in the morning and the last thing I check before bed. How can I regain control and find a healthier balance?,social media addiction,starting feel like social medium taking life first thing check morning last bed regain control find healthier balance,,
"I think I might have a problem with online shopping. Lately, I find myself constantly browsing websites and adding things to my cart, even if I don't necessarily need them. There's this thrill I get from making the purchase, but then I feel guilty and worried about my finances when the bills come.",social media addiction,think might problem online shopping lately find constantly browsing website adding thing cart even necessarily need thrill get making purchase feel guilty worried finance bill come,,
"Often, others in my life complain to me about the amount of time I spend online.",social media addiction,often others life complain amount time spend online,,
Social media makes me feel constantly on and pressured to respond to messages immediately. It's exhausting. What are some boundaries I can set?,social media addiction,social medium make feel constantly pressured respond message immediately exhausting boundary set,,
"There's this issue with my husband, that's been bothering me. It seems like he can't put his phone down, even during dinner dates! He's constantly checking social media, and it makes me feel disrespected and disconnected. It's like our conversations and our time together aren't important to him. I'm worried about his compulsive phone use and how it's impacting our relationship.",social media addiction,issue husband bothering seems like put phone even dinner date constantly checking social medium make feel disrespected disconnected conversation time together important worried compulsive use impacting relationship,,
Difficulty concentrating on spiritual texts due to the constant notification buzz of social media (if the monastery allows it).,social media addiction,difficulty concentrating spiritual text due constant notification buzz social medium monastery allows,,
Feeling tempted to scroll through social media during quiet reflection or prayer time.,social media addiction,feeling tempted scroll social medium quiet reflection prayer time,,
I have ADHD and find it hard to resist the constant stimulation of social media.  Is this a common issue?,social media addiction,adhd find hard resist constant stimulation social medium common issue,,
" I am  24yrs old  adult, I  frequently stays up late watching videos or playing games online, feeling guilty the next day for sacrificing sleep and feeling tired at work or school.",social media addiction,yr old adult frequently stay late watching video playing game online feeling guilty next day sacrificing sleep tired work school,,
"Absolutely, I often experience difficulty concentrating on tasks or conversations because I'm thinking about social media.",social media addiction,absolutely often experience difficulty concentrating task conversation thinking social medium,,
"I'm concerned I might be falling for scams or misinformation online, especially with all the phishing attempts out there.",social media addiction,concerned might falling scam misinformation online especially phishing attempt,,
"I feel left out when I see my friends having fun at social events without me, even though I wasn't invited.",social media addiction,feel left see friend fun social event without even though invited,,
I'm struggling to find a healthy balance between my online and offline life.,social media addiction,struggling find healthy balance online offline life,,
I've been neglecting my responsibilities due to social media.,social media addiction,neglecting responsibility due social medium,,
"my daughter is a 18yrs old young adult who  frequently adds strangers on social media platforms and engages with their content, leaving comments and likes on posts to establish a connection.",social media addiction,daughter yr old young adult frequently add stranger social medium platform engages content leaving comment like post establish connection,,
"I often find myself comparing my relationships to those I see on social media, and it's causing conflicts with my partner. How can I stop this behavior and prioritize my real-life connections?",social media addiction,often find comparing relationship see social medium causing conflict partner stop behavior prioritize real life connection,,
"I can't seem to go more than an hour without checking my social media feeds, even when I know I should be focusing on other important tasks.",social media addiction,seem go hour without checking social medium feed even know focusing important task,,
"I feel like I'm constantly checking my phone for social media updates, even when I'm with friends or family. How can I stop this habit and be more present in the moment?",social media addiction,feel like constantly checking phone social medium update even friend family stop habit present moment,,
I can't seem to stop checking my social media accounts.,social media addiction,seem stop checking social medium account,,
Social media makes me feel like everyone else has a perfectly organized classroom and engaged students all the time. Is this normal?,social media addiction,social medium make feel like everyone else perfectly organized classroom engaged student time normal,,
"A luxury hotel chain has introduced 'selfie rooms' for Instagram enthusiasts, equipped with state-of-the-art lighting and mirrors. While enjoying this trend, remember to disconnect from your phone and cherish real-life moments.",social media addiction,luxury hotel chain introduced selfie room instagram enthusiast equipped state art lighting mirror enjoying trend remember disconnect phone cherish real life moment,,
"Social media is wasting my time, triggering my urges, and ruining my dopamine receptors. I reinstall it when I feel lonely or sad. Any tips?",social media addiction,social medium wasting time triggering urge ruining dopamine receptor reinstall feel lonely sad tip,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the constant pressure to document everything on social media. There's so much perfect parent content. How can I deal with this?,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed constant pressure document everything social medium much perfect parent content deal,,
"Previously, I found myself ensnared by the endless scroll of Instagram reels, but now I've shifted my focus to Reddit. I'm grappling with the question: Is a Reddit addiction any better? While I acknowledge that Reddit offers more informative content compared to platforms like TikTok or Instagram, I still recognize that spending excessive amounts of time on any social media platform can be detrimental. Despite the potential for engaging and educational content on Reddit, it's essential to maintain a balanced approach to screen time and prioritize activities that contribute to overall well-being.",social media addiction,previously found ensnared endless scroll instagram reel shifted focus reddit grappling question addiction better acknowledge offer informative content compared platform like tiktok still recognize spending excessive amount time social medium detrimental despite potential engaging educational essential maintain balanced approach screen prioritize activity contribute overall well,,
"As an older adult, I worry that social media is isolating me from real-life connections.  What can I do?",social media addiction,older adult worry social medium isolating real life connection,,
an individual's oversharing on social media has led to privacy concerns and potential repercussions. the blurred lines between personal and public life in the digital realm takes toll on mental well-being.,social media addiction,individual oversharing social medium led privacy concern potential repercussion blurred line personal public life digital realm take toll mental well,,
"I'm trying to use social media to stay in touch with my family, but it's overwhelming. Where should I start?",social media addiction,trying use social medium stay touch family overwhelming start,,
I want to rediscover my passions and reduce my social media usage. How can I achieve this?,social media addiction,want rediscover passion reduce social medium usage achieve,,
"I miss having deeper connections with other lesbians, but social media feels superficial. What are some alternatives?",social media addiction,miss deeper connection lesbian social medium feel superficial alternative,,
"Yes, I do not expect much and expect anything from this real world. Being able to understand social media and being a good avatar on social media is enough.",social media addiction,yes expect much anything real world able understand social medium good avatar enough,,
"My parents have tried to limit my screen time, but I just end up sneaking extra time on social media when they're not looking. I can't seem to control myself.",social media addiction,parent tried limit screen time end sneaking extra social medium looking seem control,,
I need to reduce my screen time and reconnect with the people around me. How can I do this effectively?,social media addiction,need reduce screen time reconnect people around effectively,,
You're concerned about the potential for negativity and misinformation online.,social media addiction,concerned potential negativity misinformation online,,
" Both my partner and I crave validation online. We spend hours editing photos and crafting captions to get the most likes and comments. It's become a competition, and if a post doesn't perform well, we feel insecure and disappointed. It's affecting our self-esteem and our relationship.",social media addiction,partner crave validation online spend hour editing photo crafting caption get like comment become competition post perform well feel insecure disappointed affecting self esteem relationship,,
Social media makes me feel like I'm missing out on real-life experiences.,social media addiction,social medium make feel like missing real life experience,,
"I've come to realize that I've become too engrossed in my online life, particularly on Instagram. It's taking away time from important tasks, and even when I manage to focus on them, I find myself rushing through just to get back to the app. I want to prioritize activities like reading, studying, and playing, but I keep wasting time online, only to feel tired and forgetful afterwards. Any advice on how to break this cycle would be greatly appreciated.",social media addiction,come realize become engrossed online life particularly instagram taking away time important task even manage focus find rushing get back app want prioritize activity like reading studying playing keep wasting feel tired forgetful afterwards advice break cycle would greatly appreciated,,
I'm worried that my teenage child spends too much time on social media.  What are some signs to look for?,social media addiction,worried teenage child spends much time social medium sign look,,
"I know content creators can be inspiring, but these reels are starting to consume my learning time.  Can you help me find a way to use them for inspiration and community, without getting lost in the comparison trap or feeling isolated by the focus on fame?",social media addiction,know content creator inspiring reel starting consume learning time help find way use inspiration community without getting lost comparison trap feeling isolated focus fame,,
Seeing social media posts from family and friends back home makes you feel homesick and disconnected.,social media addiction,seeing social medium post family friend back home make feel homesick disconnected,,
I'm finding it difficult to maintain boundaries between my personal and professional life because of social media. How can I achieve a healthier balance?,social media addiction,finding difficult maintain boundary personal professional life social medium achieve healthier balance,,
"I keep comparing my body to the people I see on social media, and it's really affecting my self-image. How can I feel better about myself?",social media addiction,keep comparing body people see social medium really affecting self image feel better,,
"I've noticed that my mood and mental health have really suffered from constantly using social media, but I just can't seem to cut back.",social media addiction,noticed mood mental health really suffered constantly using social medium seem cut back,,
I find myself constantly seeking validation and approval from others through likes and comments on social media.,social media addiction,find constantly seeking validation approval others like comment social medium,,
"It's really good after I open social media, I don't feel sleepy ever; so it's really good",social media addiction,really good open social medium feel sleepy ever,,
Is it good to do social studies or art and culture assignments first? because those are the popular ones on social media,social media addiction,good social study art culture assignment first popular one medium,,
" There's this pattern I've noticed. Whenever I'm feeling stressed or down, I turn to online shopping. It's like a temporary mood booster, but it doesn't solve the real problem. I know it's not healthy, but I don't know how to cope with difficult emotions in a different way.",social media addiction,pattern noticed whenever feeling stressed turn online shopping like temporary mood booster solve real problem know healthy cope difficult emotion different way,,
"I've noticed a concerning trend of people prioritizing Instagram over enjoying real-life experiences, where even moments at tourist attractions are reduced to photo opportunities for social media. This constant need for validation through online platforms is affecting genuine connections and the ability to fully engage in the present moment.",social media addiction,noticed concerning trend people prioritizing instagram enjoying real life experience even moment tourist attraction reduced photo opportunity social medium constant need validation online platform affecting genuine connection ability fully engage present,,
"I'm finding it challenging to disconnect from social media, even when I know it's not good for my mental health. How can I break free from this addiction?",social media addiction,finding challenging disconnect social medium even know good mental health break free addiction,,
I feel like I need to constantly check social media for updates and notifications. Is this normal?,social media addiction,feel like need constantly check social medium update notification normal,,
"I've been experiencing anxiety and depression, and I often turn to social media for distraction and comfort. How can I break this unhealthy coping mechanism?",social media addiction,experiencing anxiety depression often turn social medium distraction comfort break unhealthy coping mechanism,,
"I feel like I need to document every aspect of my life on social media, even mundane activities.  Is this a healthy approach?",social media addiction,feel like need document every aspect life social medium even mundane activity healthy approach,,
"How come it's on social media, it's on your shoulder . considering everything on social media is my responsibility

",social media addiction,come social medium shoulder considering everything responsibility,,
" I am 30 yrs old  individual experiencing mood swings and feelings of depression when offline for an extended period, seeking solace in online interactions and distractions.",social media addiction,yr old individual experiencing mood swing feeling depression offline extended period seeking solace online interaction distraction,,
"Hey everyone, I'm selling Instagram likes, followers, and comments at incredibly low prices. Everything is done by real people, no bots. If you're interested, feel free to DM me for more information and custom pricing.",social media addiction,hey everyone selling instagram like follower comment incredibly low price everything done real people bot interested feel free dm information custom pricing,,
I feel pressured to constantly engage with social media to stay relevant in my field or community. How can I manage this pressure?,social media addiction,feel pressured constantly engage social medium stay relevant field community manage pressure,,
"Come to my House , we will watch do social media the whole time.",social media addiction,come house watch social medium whole time,,
"My wife's pregnancy posts on Instagram have become overwhelming, dominating her feed with constant belly photos. Despite my concerns about overexposure and repetitiveness, she insists it's her personal space. How can I address this without causing further conflict?",social media addiction,wife pregnancy post instagram become overwhelming dominating feed constant belly photo despite concern overexposure repetitiveness insists personal space address without causing conflict,,
"Yes, I often block out disturbing thoughts about my life with soothing thoughts of the Internet.",social media addiction,yes often block disturbing thought life soothing internet,,
Not getting enough likes on my Instagram posts triggers anxiety. It's as if my self-esteem depends on social media approval.,social media addiction,getting enough like instagram post trigger anxiety self esteem depends social medium approval,,
"I am 30 yrs old and I feels frequently cancels plans or sacrifices personal time to attend social events or gatherings, fearing that I will miss out on opportunities for connection and fun.",social media addiction,yr old feel frequently cancel plan sacrifice personal time attend social event gathering fearing miss opportunity connection fun,,
You're worried social media comparisons might be discouraging him.,social media addiction,worried social medium comparison might discouraging,,
"After spending 8 hours on Instagram today, I feel mentally drained. Anyone else experiencing social media consuming their life?",social media addiction,spending hour instagram today feel mentally drained anyone else experiencing social medium consuming life,,
I feel anxious when I'm not checking my social media. Is this normal?,social media addiction,feel anxious checking social medium normal,,
"Absolutely, my self-esteem is heavily influenced by the number of likes, comments, or shares I receive on social media posts.",social media addiction,absolutely self esteem heavily influenced number like comment share receive social medium post,,
Celebrating two years of sobriety! I've reclaimed control of my life and no longer rely on substances to cope or have fun.,social media addiction,celebrating two year sobriety reclaimed control life longer rely substance cope fun,,
"I've noticed a concerning trend on Instagram where micro-influencers, particularly stay-at-home moms, excessively promote and purchase makeup products, leading to clutter and overspending. Do others share these concerns about consumerism on social media?",social media addiction,noticed concerning trend instagram micro influencers particularly stay home mom excessively promote purchase makeup product leading clutter overspending others share concern consumerism social medium,,
"I feel a constant urge to check my social media feeds, even when I'm trying to focus on schoolwork or conversations with friends and family.",social media addiction,feel constant urge check social medium feed even trying focus schoolwork conversation friend family,,
Seeking help with social media addiction. Any advice appreciated.,social media addiction,seeking help social medium addiction advice appreciated,,
" My partner and I are constantly one-upping each other on social media. We try to outdo each other with the perfect vacation photos, the trendiest outfits, and the most exciting hobbies. It feels like a competition, and it's taking the fun out of sharing our lives online and with each other.",social media addiction,partner constantly one upping social medium try outdo perfect vacation photo trendiest outfit exciting hobby feel like competition taking fun sharing life online,,
" The more reels I watch, the more the algorithm seems to know exactly what will keep me glued to the screen.  Now, all I see are videos triggering unhealthy habits or unrealistic beauty standards.  It feels like I'm losing control.",social media addiction,reel watch algorithm seems know exactly keep glued screen see video triggering unhealthy habit unrealistic beauty standard feel like losing control,,
"Spending too much time on social media makes me feel anxious and stressed. I know I should be focusing on work, but I can't seem to stop scrolling. What are some options?",social media addiction,spending much time social medium make feel anxious stressed know focusing work seem stop scrolling option,,
I'm interested in therapy for social media addiction.  What kind of therapy might be helpful?,social media addiction,interested therapy social medium addiction kind might helpful,,
" I am a  college student and I  feels overwhelmed and incompetent in my academic pursuits,compared with other success posts and doubting my intelligence and ability to succeed.",social media addiction,college student feel overwhelmed incompetent academic pursuit compared success post doubting intelligence ability succeed,,
Feeling pressure to portray a perfect online image as a fiancé.,social media addiction,feeling pressure portray perfect online image fianc,,
I use social media to procrastinate on important tasks or deadlines.  Is this a common issue with social media?,social media addiction,use social medium procrastinate important task deadline common issue,,
 I am a young adult livestreams who themselves driving recklessly or participating in illegal activities to attract viewers and gain popularity on streaming platforms.,social media addiction,young adult livestreams driving recklessly participating illegal activity attract viewer gain popularity streaming platform,,
"I am a parent constantly I feels guilty and inadequate in my parenting role, comparing myselves unfavorably to other parents in social media posts and feeling like I am failing my children.",social media addiction,parent constantly feel guilty inadequate parenting role comparing myselves unfavorably social medium post feeling like failing child,,
"A person experiences withdrawal-like symptoms, such as irritability and restlessness, when they try to reduce their social media usage or take a break from the internet.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience withdrawal like symptom irritability restlessness try reduce social medium usage take break internet answer,,
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My sleep is suffering because I stay up late scrolling through social media. How can I improve my sleep hygiene?,social media addiction,sleep suffering stay late scrolling social medium improve hygiene,,
"I often find myself comparing my appearance to others' on social media, and it leaves me feeling insecure.",social media addiction,often find comparing appearance others social medium leaf feeling insecure,,
I worry that my social media use is affecting my physical health because I neglect sleep and exercise.  What can I do?,social media addiction,worry social medium use affecting physical health neglect sleep exercise,,
I'm finding it difficult to maintain a healthy balance between my online interactions and face-to-face relationships. How can I prioritize meaningful connections?,social media addiction,finding difficult maintain healthy balance online interaction face relationship prioritize meaningful connection,,
"Is there a way to find a social media support group in my area?  Online options are also an option, right?",social media addiction,way find social medium support group area online option also right,,
I'm worried that attending support groups means I'll have to completely give up social media.  Is there room for moderation?,social media addiction,worried attending support group mean completely give social medium room moderation,,
"So, there have been a lot of motivational videos popping up on my YouTube feed, especially those dopamine detox ones. I know dopamine detox is not a foolproof method, but I've been spending hours on reels and TikTok, maybe 6 hours in total, sometimes more. It's harder for people with ADHD to break the addiction (it's an addiction for me), but I'm willing to try!",social media addiction,lot motivational video popping youtube feed especially dopamine detox one know foolproof method spending hour reel tiktok maybe total sometimes harder people adhd break addiction willing try,,
Feeling burnt out from constantly comparing myself to others on social media. It discourages me from pursuing my goals. How can I deal with these feelings?,social media addiction,feeling burnt constantly comparing others social medium discourages pursuing goal deal,,
I'm ashamed of my online behavior and feel like I'm living a double life on social media.,social media addiction,ashamed online behavior feel like living double life social medium,,
At least this morning my burden has reduced @thank you; someone responded positively on my social media.,social media addiction,least morning burden reduced someone responded positively social medium,,
I have trouble falling asleep because I spend so much time on social media before bed.,social media addiction,trouble falling asleep spend much time social medium bed,,
I feel overwhelmed by the negativity and constant news cycle on social media.  What can I do to manage this?,social media addiction,feel overwhelmed negativity constant news cycle social medium manage,,
"I'm constantly seeking validation from likes and comments on social media, and it's affecting my self-esteem. How can I stop relying on external validation for my self-worth?",social media addiction,constantly seeking validation like comment social medium affecting self esteem stop relying external worth,,
I've noticed a decline in my mental health since I started using social media excessively.,social media addiction,noticed decline mental health since started using social medium excessively,,
I often find that I stay online longer than I intended.,social media addiction,often find stay online longer intended,,
"Witnessing negativity and conflict online, which can be challenging for someone devoted to peace and compassion.",social media addiction,witnessing negativity conflict online challenging someone devoted peace compassion,,
"My partner is constantly on Instagram reels, spending hours daily even during quality time together. I'm worried about his addiction and lack of interest in hobbies",social media addiction,partner constantly instagram reel spending hour daily even quality time together worried addiction lack interest hobby,,
I've noticed that I spend more time on social media than I do on activities that used to bring me joy. It's like I'm constantly seeking validation from likes and comments. How can I break free from this addiction?,social media addiction,noticed spend time social medium activity used bring joy like constantly seeking validation comment break free addiction,,
I've noticed that the constant pressure to post and share on social media is really taking a toll on my mental health and self-esteem.,social media addiction,noticed constant pressure post share social medium really taking toll mental health self esteem,,
"Therapist, I'm having a concern about my husband, Mark. He's become really withdrawn lately, and he's super secretive about his phone. He takes it everywhere with him, even to the bathroom, and gets really defensive if I even mention it. It makes me wonder if there's something he's hiding on social media. I don't want to accuse him, but I'm worried and don't know how to approach the situation.",social media addiction,therapist concern husband mark become really withdrawn lately super secretive phone take everywhere even bathroom get defensive mention make wonder something hiding social medium want accuse worried know approach situation,,
"“Social media is the new frontier of persuasion.” 
",social media addiction,social medium new frontier persuasion,,
"Absolutely, I often spend much more time on social media than I initially intended.",social media addiction,absolutely often spend much time social medium initially intended,,
My teen doesn't seem interested in activities they used to enjoy before social media took over their life.  What can I do?,social media addiction,teen seem interested activity used enjoy social medium took life,,
"A person's online behavior begins to interfere with their personal relationships, as they prioritize digital connections over spending time with friends or family.

Answer:",social media addiction,person online behavior begin interfere personal relationship prioritize digital connection spending time friend family answer,,
"I spend way too much time on social media, especially when I should be playing with my toddler. I feel guilty, but scrolling feels like a break. What can I do?",social media addiction,spend way much time social medium especially playing toddler feel guilty scrolling like break,,
I constantly refresh my social media feed hoping to see new posts or messages.  Is this normal behavior?,social media addiction,constantly refresh social medium feed hoping see new post message normal behavior,,
Sometimes I get so caught up in getting likes and comments on my social media posts that I find myself neglecting my real-world relationships.,social media addiction,sometimes get caught getting like comment social medium post find neglecting real world relationship,,
"“Feeling so bad today, like nothing is going to get better. Because; all I see on social media is against me.",social media addiction,feeling bad today like nothing going get better see social medium,,
"I've tried deleting my social media accounts before, but I always end up reactivating them after a few days because I feel so disconnected and anxious without them.",social media addiction,tried deleting social medium account always end reactivating day feel disconnected anxious without,,
I've noticed that my social media usage has started to affect my real-life relationships. How can I repair the damage?,social media addiction,noticed social medium usage started affect real life relationship repair damage,,
" I myself a parent spends most of their time following the lives of celebrities and influencers on social media, feeling a sense of connection and excitement through their glamorous lifestyles.",social media addiction,parent spends time following life celebrity influencers social medium feeling sense connection excitement glamorous lifestyle,,
I feel pressured to maintain a certain image on social media.,social media addiction,feel pressured maintain certain image social medium,,
I mostly follow celebrities and influencers on social media. Their perfect lives make me feel inadequate about my own. Is this healthy?\n\nAnswer:,social media addiction,mostly follow celebrity influencers social medium perfect life make feel inadequate healthy nanswer,,
"My partner's Instagram addiction has escalated to the point where it's affecting our relationship and my well-being. Despite her upcoming PhD studies, she spends most of her waking hours scrolling through the app, even during meals and conversations. I'm at a loss for how to help her and maintain my own happiness.",social media addiction,partner instagram addiction escalated point affecting relationship well despite upcoming phd study spends waking hour scrolling app even meal conversation loss help maintain happiness,,
" I am a 20yrs old  college student feels a sense of emptiness and loneliness when not online, relying on social media and virtual interactions to feel connected and validated.",social media addiction,yr old college student feel sense emptiness loneliness online relying social medium virtual interaction connected validated,,
I feel anxious and uneasy when I'm not constantly checking my social media accounts. How can I overcome this dependency?,social media addiction,feel anxious uneasy constantly checking social medium account overcome dependency,,
I've been spending too much time on social media lately.,social media addiction,spending much time social medium lately,,
Discouraged by comparing yourself to other guys on social media.,social media addiction,discouraged comparing guy social medium,,
Concerned about the amount of time I spend looking at other lesbians' profiles. It's starting to feel obsessive. What can I do?,social media addiction,concerned amount time spend looking lesbian profile starting feel obsessive,,
I've been feeling anxious about missing out on important updates or events if I'm not constantly checking social media.,social media addiction,feeling anxious missing important update event constantly checking social medium,,
"As I navigate through my pregnancy journey, I've noticed an increasing amount of time spent on Instagram reels. However, I'm starting to feel overwhelmed by the constant stream of content, especially considering that much of it may not be relevant or beneficial in the long run. In an effort to regain control over my screen time and focus on what truly matters during this pivotal time, I'm contemplating temporarily deleting the app.",social media addiction,navigate pregnancy journey noticed increasing amount time spent instagram reel however starting feel overwhelmed constant stream content especially considering much may relevant beneficial long run effort regain control screen focus truly matter pivotal contemplating temporarily deleting app,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the negativity and superficiality of social media.,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed negativity superficiality social medium,,
I'm always feeling like I need to post something on social media. I feel like I'm not a real person if I'm not constantly updating my status or sharing photos.,social media addiction,always feeling like need post something social medium feel real person constantly updating status sharing photo,,
"Social media negativity and political arguments are stressful, especially when deployed.",social media addiction,social medium negativity political argument stressful especially deployed,,
I need to prioritize my well-being over social media. How can I achieve a healthier balance?,social media addiction,need prioritize well social medium achieve healthier balance,,
"I often feel lonely and disconnected, so I turn to social media for comfort. However, it only makes me feel worse in the long run. How can I break free from this cycle?",social media addiction,often feel lonely disconnected turn social medium comfort however make worse long run break free cycle,,
I recently deleted my social media accounts because I felt overwhelmed by negativity. Was that a bad decision?\n\nAnswer:,social media addiction,recently deleted social medium account felt overwhelmed negativity bad decision nanswer,,
" I can't stop checking my YouTube analytics! The number of views, likes, and comments has become an obsession. If the numbers aren't good, I feel like a failure. It's gotten to the point where I'm sacrificing my mental health for validation from online strangers.",social media addiction,stop checking youtube analytics number view like comment become obsession good feel failure gotten point sacrificing mental health validation online stranger,,
" I am a college student who becomes fixated on a popular influencer's social media accounts, constantly refreshing their feed to see their latest posts and updates.",social media addiction,college student becomes fixated popular influencer social medium account constantly refreshing feed see latest post update,,
I feel anxious and lonely even though I'm constantly connected on social media.,social media addiction,feel anxious lonely even though constantly connected social medium,,
"I've noticed that I feel worse about myself and my life after spending time on social media, but I can't seem to break the habit.",social media addiction,noticed feel worse life spending time social medium seem break habit,,
I've noticed that my mood and self-esteem have really suffered since I started constantly comparing myself to the perfect lives I see on Instagram.,social media addiction,noticed mood self esteem really suffered since started constantly comparing perfect life see instagram,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the pressure to portray a perfect image of a nun on social media (if the monastery allows it).,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed pressure portray perfect image nun social medium monastery allows,,
"I find myself spending more and more time on social media, but I still feel lonely and disconnected from others.",social media addiction,find spending time social medium still feel lonely disconnected others,,
"When anything important happens in life, Please choose a topic for the social media presentation.  what happens in life is of much less importance than what happens on social media",social media addiction,anything important happens life please choose topic social medium presentation much le importance,,
"Instagram promotes shallow values, fostering an illusion of reality and damaging mental health with unrealistic standards. Its focus on vanity and destructive incentives detracts from genuine experiences and meaningful pursuits. Consider reevaluating your Instagram use for a healthier perspective on social media.",social media addiction,instagram promotes shallow value fostering illusion reality damaging mental health unrealistic standard focus vanity destructive incentive detracts genuine experience meaningful pursuit consider reevaluating use healthier perspective social medium,,
"I've noticed that I feel anxious and stressed out after spending time on social media, but I can't seem to break the habit.",social media addiction,noticed feel anxious stressed spending time social medium seem break habit,,
"I notice many discussions here about the struggle of gaining attention on social media platforms, particularly Instagram. I wonder if most artists on IG rely on their art for income, making it crucial to attract a broader audience, or if they're simply hobbyists seeking recognition, which is equally valid. I'm curious about the primary motivation behind seeking likes and followers on IG.",social media addiction,notice many discussion struggle gaining attention social medium platform particularly instagram wonder artist ig rely art income making crucial attract broader audience simply hobbyist seeking recognition equally valid curious primary motivation behind like follower,,
My teen spends more time talking to their online friends than their real-life friends.  Should I be concerned?,social media addiction,teen spends time talking online friend real life concerned,,
"I've noticed that my social media usage has become a compulsive behavior, and I'm struggling to break free from it. What should I do?",social media addiction,noticed social medium usage become compulsive behavior struggling break free,,
"A person neglects important responsibilities, such as work, school, or household chores, due to spending excessive time on social media or gaming, leading to negative consequences.

Answer:",social media addiction,person neglect important responsibility work school household chore due spending excessive time social medium gaming leading negative consequence answer,,
"I'm going to make it sharp and short. I am addicted to Instagram. I have a public page with around 1,000 followers and every second of my life I want to be on it. There's something addictive about social media (and I'm sure others can relate, too). I'm gaining so fast & love the people there... but I fear I might get eye problems etc. Any advice or help please really really appreciated. Thank you in advance.",social media addiction,going make sharp short addicted instagram public page around follower every second life want something addictive social medium sure others relate gaining fast love people fear might get eye problem etc advice help please really appreciated thank advance,,
"I've tried to take breaks from social media, but I always end up feeling incredibly anxious and irritable when I do. I think I might have a serious addiction problem.",social media addiction,tried take break social medium always end feeling incredibly anxious irritable think might serious addiction problem,,
My child's grades are dropping because they're constantly checking social media during homework time.  What can I do?,social media addiction,child grade dropping constantly checking social medium homework time,,
"I've realized that my constant consumption of photos of people on social media has become addictive, to the point where I feel unable to stop. Recognizing this pattern, I'm concerned about the impact it's having on my well-being and relationships. I'm seeking advice on how to address and overcome this addiction.",social media addiction,realized constant consumption photo people social medium become addictive point feel unable stop recognizing pattern concerned impact well relationship seeking advice address overcome addiction,,
I get into arguments with friends and family because of things I see on social media.,social media addiction,get argument friend family thing see social medium,,
"last night he had a dream, only dream he gets every night is; his social media becoming real life as in a fairy tale story.",social media addiction,last night dream get every social medium becoming real life fairy tale story,,
" There are so many successful YouTubers out there, and it makes me feel inadequate. I constantly compare myself to others, their content, their subscriber count, and their perfect lives they portray online. It's affecting my creativity and making me feel insecure about my own channel.",social media addiction,many successful youtubers make feel inadequate constantly compare others content subscriber count perfect life portray online affecting creativity making insecure channel,,
" I am a college student and I feels pressured to join multiple clubs and organizations on campus, fearing i'll miss out on networking opportunities and social connections.",social media addiction,college student feel pressured join multiple club organization campus fearing miss networking opportunity social connection,,
"A person finds themselves constantly reaching for their phone to check social media, even in situations where it's inappropriate or unsafe, such as while driving.

Answer:",social media addiction,person find constantly reaching phone check social medium even situation inappropriate unsafe driving answer,,
"I feel isolated and disconnected from friends and family, but social media feels so impersonal. Are there alternatives?",social media addiction,feel isolated disconnected friend family social medium impersonal alternative,,
"I'm thinking about deleting my social media accounts. I'm fed up of seeing misogynistic reels, cringe content and unrealistic life of such influencers...I compare my life to theirs and get sad...This is taking a toll on my mental health as I'm a huge IG addict. So the people here who don't use Instagram how do you spend ur time!?? and is life really boring without insta..??",social media addiction,thinking deleting social medium account fed seeing misogynistic reel cringe content unrealistic life influencers compare get sad taking toll mental health huge ig addict people use instagram spend ur time really boring without insta,,
"Whenever I try to take a break from social media, even for just a day, I get these intense cravings and feelings of withdrawal. I'm starting to realize I might have a real addiction problem.",social media addiction,whenever try take break social medium even day get intense craving feeling withdrawal starting realize might real addiction problem,,
"A person experiences mood swings or irritability when they're unable to engage with social media or gaming for an extended period, often becoming agitated or frustrated.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience mood swing irritability unable engage social medium gaming extended period often becoming agitated frustrated answer,,
"A person experiences feelings of guilt or shame after spending excessive time on social media or gaming, recognizing the negative impact on their mental health and productivity.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience feeling guilt shame spending excessive time social medium gaming recognizing negative impact mental health productivity answer,,
"I've struggled with a history of addiction to short-form content on Instagram, particularly reels, and I'm seeking help to block them using UBO. Can anyone provide filters or solutions to address this issue? Thank you!",social media addiction,struggled history addiction short form content instagram particularly reel seeking help block using ubo anyone provide filter solution address issue thank,,
How can I protect my mental health while using social media?,social media addiction,protect mental health using social medium,,
I struggle to focus on work or chores because I keep getting sidetracked by social media.  Can medication for ADHD help with this?,social media addiction,struggle focus work chore keep getting sidetracked social medium medication adhd help,,
I find myself mindlessly scrolling on social media during playtime with my toddler. How can I be more present in the moment?,social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium playtime toddler present moment,,
I feel left out when I see others' perfect vacations and exciting lives on social media.,social media addiction,feel left see others perfect vacation exciting life social medium,,
"My friend seems glued to their phone all the time, even during breaks between studying.",social media addiction,friend seems glued phone time even break studying,,
"Definitely, I prioritize social media interactions over face-to-face interactions most of the time.",social media addiction,definitely prioritize social medium interaction face time,,
"Social media has become a major distraction in my life, affecting my productivity and relationships. How can I break this habit?",social media addiction,social medium become major distraction life affecting productivity relationship break habit,,
"I've been feeling isolated lately, and social media seems to be my only connection to the outside world. How can I build more meaningful relationships offline?",social media addiction,feeling isolated lately social medium seems connection outside world build meaningful relationship offline,,
I feel like I miss out on things if I'm not constantly checking social media.,social media addiction,feel like miss thing constantly checking social medium,,
I feel like I need to constantly check social media to stay connected with my friends and keep up with what's happening in their lives.,social media addiction,feel like need constantly check social medium stay connected friend keep happening life,,
I often feel left out or excluded when I see my friends posting photos or updates of events I wasn't invited to on social media. How can I cope with these feelings?,social media addiction,often feel left excluded see friend posting photo update event invited social medium cope feeling,,
I find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media during important tasks. It makes it hard to focus and be productive. What can I do?,social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium important task make hard focus productive,,
I'm hesitant to join a support group because I worry it might be filled with teenagers.  Are there groups specifically for adults struggling with social media addiction?,social media addiction,hesitant join support group worry might filled teenager specifically adult struggling social medium addiction,,
"Oh.! please, help me do this.. my social media is never at it's best.. crying over this for days and months",social media addiction,oh please help social medium never best cry day month,,
"I find myself constantly switching between English and German keyboards because I prefer using English in most contexts, despite being German. I wish there was a feature to automatically change the keyboard language based on different scenarios like specific contacts in WhatsApp or Twitter accounts. This habit stems from the convenience of auto-complete features, but it's becoming cumbersome.",social media addiction,find constantly switching english german keyboard prefer using context despite wish feature automatically change language based different scenario like specific contact whatsapp twitter account habit stem convenience auto complete becoming cumbersome,,
Sharing my struggles with social media use feels embarrassing.  Will a support group be judgmental?,social media addiction,sharing struggle social medium use feel embarrassing support group judgmental,,
"A person finds themselves neglecting their physical health and well-being due to excessive social media use. They spend hours sitting in front of screens, often skipping meals and physical activities.

Answer:",social media addiction,person find neglecting physical health well due excessive social medium use spend hour sitting front screen often skipping meal activity answer,,
How can I detox from social media without feeling completely cut off?,social media addiction,detox social medium without feeling completely cut,,
"So, my boyfriend and I are having some trouble finding a balance with social media. I love sharing photos and updates on my profiles, but he feels uncomfortable with our entire life being documented online. It's caused some arguments, and I don't want social media to be a wedge between us. Maybe you could help us find a compromise where we can both be happy?",social media addiction,boyfriend trouble finding balance social medium love sharing photo update profile feel uncomfortable entire life documented online caused argument want wedge u maybe could help find compromise happy,,
"I often find myself feeling anxious or stressed after scrolling through social media, but I can't seem to stop. How can I break this cycle and protect my mental health?",social media addiction,often find feeling anxious stressed scrolling social medium seem stop break cycle protect mental health,,
I need to prioritize my relationships over social media. How can I achieve a healthier balance?,social media addiction,need prioritize relationship social medium achieve healthier balance,,
 my mood swings are exactly according to how people respond to my posts on social media,social media addiction,mood swing exactly according people respond post social medium,,
"I wake up multiple times at night to check my social media, even though I know I need sleep. Does this indicate social media addiction?",social media addiction,wake multiple time night check social medium even though know need sleep indicate addiction,,
I'm struggling to maintain authenticity on social media and feel pressured to portray a perfect life.,social media addiction,struggling maintain authenticity social medium feel pressured portray perfect life,,
my phone says I spend about 5 hours daily on social media alone. It’s shocking.,social media addiction,phone say spend hour daily social medium alone shocking,,
I'm struggling to balance my professional and personal life because of my social media usage. How can I achieve a healthier relationship with technology?,social media addiction,struggling balance professional personal life social medium usage achieve healthier relationship technology,,
 We constantly argue about social media. My partner gets upset if I don't want to document everything we do online. They have this fear of missing out (FOMO) and feel the need to share every experience. I value privacy and find it overwhelming. Can we find a compromise?,social media addiction,constantly argue social medium partner get upset want document everything online fear missing fomo feel need share every experience value privacy find overwhelming compromise,,
I often find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media when I should be focusing on more important tasks. How can I improve my productivity and stay focused?,social media addiction,often find mindlessly scrolling social medium focusing important task improve productivity stay focused,,
I can't seem to focus on anything because I keep picking up my phone to check social media. Is this affecting my mental health?,social media addiction,seem focus anything keep picking phone check social medium affecting mental health,,
I'm spending so much time on social media that my grades are slipping. How can I manage my time better?,social media addiction,spending much time social medium grade slipping manage better,,
I'm always comparing myself to others on social media.,social media addiction,always comparing others social medium,,
I've noticed my mood declines after using social media.,social media addiction,noticed mood decline using social medium,,
"I deleted TikTok due to its negative comments, but now Instagram's algorithm is making me feel overwhelmed. I want to enjoy social media without it consuming my life.",social media addiction,deleted tiktok due negative comment instagram algorithm making feel overwhelmed want enjoy social medium without consuming life,,
" iam a teenager who is 16 yrs old posts videos of themselves performing dangerous stunts, such as jumping off rooftops or performing parkour, to gain followers and likes on social media.",social media addiction,iam teenager yr old post video performing dangerous stunt jumping rooftop parkour gain follower like social medium,,
" I am a college studentwho spends hours each day watching live streams of others playing video games, feeling a sense of excitement and adventure through their virtual experiences.",social media addiction,college studentwho spends hour day watching live stream others playing video game feeling sense excitement adventure virtual experience,,
Hearing about other people's struggles with social media might make me feel worse.  Is a support group a good idea?,social media addiction,hearing people struggle social medium might make feel worse support group good idea,,
"Whenever I try to go a day without using social media, I feel incredibly anxious and irritable. I think I might have a real addiction problem.",social media addiction,whenever try go day without using social medium feel incredibly anxious irritable think might real addiction problem,,
"Feeling burnt out from grading, lesson planning, and managing student behavior. Social media is full of seemingly energetic and enthusiastic teachers. How can I deal with these feelings?",social media addiction,feeling burnt grading lesson planning managing student behavior social medium full seemingly energetic enthusiastic teacher deal,,
I worry I feel isolated from friends and family who aren't online as much as I am.,social media addiction,worry feel isolated friend family online much,,
I feel overwhelmed by the constant negativity and arguments I see on social media.  Can a support group help me navigate this negativity?,social media addiction,feel overwhelmed constant negativity argument see social medium support group help navigate,,
Finding it difficult to balance the demands of ministry with the constant on nature of social media.,social media addiction,finding difficult balance demand ministry constant nature social medium,,
"I want to copy it but if it's published on social media, it will become a Jariyah sin.  this makes me depressed.",social media addiction,want copy published social medium become jariyah sin make depressed,,
I'm worried that attending a support group might be expensive.  Are there affordable or free options available?,social media addiction,worried attending support group might expensive affordable free option available,,
"“Feel like I can't do anything right these days, unless it's on social media.”",social media addiction,feel like anything right day unless social medium,,
"Life is cheap, what is expensive is your social media presence.",social media addiction,life cheap expensive social medium presence,,
"A person experiences difficulty focusing on tasks or conversations in real life due to constant distraction from social media notifications or the urge to check their phone.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience difficulty focusing task conversation real life due constant distraction social medium notification urge check phone answer,,
"I've recently deleted Instagram from my phone, and I've noticed how instinctively I reach for it, especially during tough times. It's made me realize the dependency I had on it. Despite occasional urges to reinstall it, I recognize the toxicity. Has anyone else faced similar struggles or benefits after quitting?",social media addiction,recently deleted instagram phone noticed instinctively reach especially tough time made realize dependency despite occasional urge reinstall recognize toxicity anyone else faced similar struggle benefit quitting,,
My friend is posting concerning things on social media. How can I help them without invading their privacy?,social media addiction,friend posting concerning thing social medium help without invading privacy,,
A recent study conducted in Switzerland explores the concept of self-designing ethical nudges to combat social media addiction without compromising privacy. How can users create their own nudges using shortcuts to scroll mindfully on social media?,social media addiction,recent study conducted switzerland explores concept self designing ethical nudge combat social medium addiction without compromising privacy user create using shortcut scroll mindfully,,
"Whenever I try to have conversations with my family, I find myself constantly glancing at my phone and getting distracted by social media notifications.",social media addiction,whenever try conversation family find constantly glancing phone getting distracted social medium notification,,
"A person becomes secretive or defensive about their social media or gaming habits when questioned by friends or family, often downplaying the amount of time they spend online.

Answer:",social media addiction,person becomes secretive defensive social medium gaming habit questioned friend family often downplaying amount time spend online answer,,
Feeling isolated from family and friends who are constantly connected online.,social media addiction,feeling isolated family friend constantly connected online,,
Feeling drained from mindless social media scrolling after work.,social media addiction,feeling drained mindless social medium scrolling work,,
I've noticed that my mood and self-confidence have really suffered since I started constantly comparing my life to the idealized images I see on Instagram and other platforms.,social media addiction,noticed mood self confidence really suffered since started constantly comparing life idealized image see instagram platform,,
I can't seem to focus on work because I keep checking social media. How can I improve my concentration?,social media addiction,seem focus work keep checking social medium improve concentration,,
Exam are Comimg I  m already  Feeling Very Depressed. Major reason is because of no time to spend on social media.,social media addiction,exam comimg already feeling depressed major reason time spend social medium,,
"Instagram isn't just for teens; even adults in their 40s and 50s are influencers. There's potential for B2B engagement, albeit within niche industries.",social media addiction,instagram teen even adult influencers potential engagement albeit within niche industry,,
I've noticed that my sleep is getting affected because I'm on my phone late into the night. What can I do to improve my sleep?,social media addiction,noticed sleep getting affected phone late night improve,,
I've noticed that my mood is often influenced by the content I see on social media. How can I protect my mental health?,social media addiction,noticed mood often influenced content see social medium protect mental health,,
"I'm addicted to Instagram, checking girls' pictures multiple times a day. I've tried quitting but failed. It's affecting my arousal and consuming a lot of my time. Help?",social media addiction,addicted instagram checking girl picture multiple time day tried quitting failed affecting arousal consuming lot help,,
"A person reports feeling a constant need to compare their life to others on social media. They experience feelings of inadequacy and low self-esteem when they perceive others as more successful or happier.

Answer:",social media addiction,person report feeling constant need compare life others social medium experience inadequacy low self esteem perceive successful happier answer,,
"I see a lot of people in the subreddit asking for a way to force them to spend less time on reels. I think a good way to do it without breaking the app would be a setting that disabled scrolling between reels, so you would just see the one that you clicked on and not an infinite loop. I think this would be a more sensible and easy path than trying to disable reels or remove reels.",social media addiction,see lot people subreddit asking way force spend le time reel think good without breaking app would setting disabled scrolling one clicked infinite loop sensible easy path trying disable remove,,
"Yes, I feel extremely anxious and uneasy if I haven't checked my social media accounts for even a short period.",social media addiction,yes feel extremely anxious uneasy checked social medium account even short period,,
"Wondering if social media can be a tool for spreading messages of faith and inspiration, even within the limitations of a monastery (if allowed).",social media addiction,wondering social medium tool spreading message faith inspiration even within limitation monastery allowed,,
"I feel an overwhelming urge to keep scrolling through TikTok, even when I've already spent hours mindlessly watching videos and it's interfering with my sleep.",social media addiction,feel overwhelming urge keep scrolling tiktok even already spent hour mindlessly watching video interfering sleep,,
"I just don't understand why my grandkids are always glued to their phones, scrolling endlessly on those social media apps. It seems like such a waste of time.",social media addiction,understand grandkids always glued phone scrolling endlessly social medium apps seems like waste time,,
the real world always make me overwork. social media is the ONLY fair place in the world.,social media addiction,real world always make overwork social medium fair place,,
You miss the real-life connection you used to have with him.,social media addiction,miss real life connection used,,
I feel like I'm missing out on life because I see all the fun activities my peers are doing on social media.,social media addiction,feel like missing life see fun activity peer social medium,,
"I am a 20 yrs old male,The online gaming community I frequent is full of negativity and rage.  The constant toxicity is ruining my enjoyment of the games.  How can I find a more positive and supportive online gaming experience?",social media addiction,yr old male online gaming community frequent full negativity rage constant toxicity ruining enjoyment game find positive supportive experience,,
" constantly checking their social media accounts throughout the day, even in the midst of other activities",social media addiction,constantly checking social medium account throughout day even midst activity,,
I need to break free from seeking validation on social media and find it within myself. How can I achieve this?,social media addiction,need break free seeking validation social medium find within achieve,,
"I tried to get my wife to put down her phone and go for a nice walk with me, but she just got annoyed and said she needed to check her social media. I felt so ignored and dismissed.",social media addiction,tried get wife put phone go nice walk got annoyed said needed check social medium felt ignored dismissed,,
" I used to cherish my sleep, but now I find myself scrolling through reels late into the night, sacrificing rest for that next dopamine hit.  The next day, I'm exhausted and irritable, impacting everything from my work to my relationships.",social media addiction,used cherish sleep find scrolling reel late night sacrificing rest next dopamine hit day exhausted irritable impacting everything work relationship,,
"I feel exhausted after spending hours scrolling through social media, but I can't seem to stop.",social media addiction,feel exhausted spending hour scrolling social medium seem stop,,
"I feel constantly behind on social media updates and interactions, causing anxiety.   Is this specific to adults with ADHD?",social media addiction,feel constantly behind social medium update interaction causing anxiety specific adult adhd,,
"Feeling conflicted about using technology, which can feel isolating, while also recognizing its potential for connecting with others in faith.",social media addiction,feeling conflicted using technology feel isolating also recognizing potential connecting others faith,,
I want to break free from the constant validation and attention I seek on social media. How can I achieve peace of mind?,social media addiction,want break free constant validation attention seek social medium achieve peace mind,,
I feel anxious and stressed if I can't access social media for a short period.  Is this a sign of addiction?,social media addiction,feel anxious stressed access social medium short period sign addiction,,
"I need to talk about something that happened with my partner, this weekend. We had planned to do some chores together around the house, but after going out with friends, I woke up to a ton of notifications on my phone and ended up getting sucked into social media most of the morning. Completely forgot about the chores, and she was pretty disappointed. I feel awful because I promised I'd help, and then I blew it off. This kind of thing seems to be happening more and more, and I don't know how to break free from the constant need to check my phone.",social media addiction,need talk something happened partner weekend planned chore together around house going friend woke ton notification phone ended getting sucked social medium morning completely forgot pretty disappointed feel awful promised help blew kind thing seems happening know break free constant check,,
Nothing beats the feeling of achieving something on the social media. Feeling proud and happy to be on social media all my day!,social media addiction,nothing beat feeling achieving something social medium proud happy day,,
I spend so much time on social media that I neglect my hobbies and friendships. What's wrong with me?,social media addiction,spend much time social medium neglect hobby friendship wrong,,
" I am 30yrs old individual and I engages in negative self-talk and self-criticism with facebook friends, constantly berating myselves for perceived failures and shortcomings.",social media addiction,yr old individual engages negative self talk criticism facebook friend constantly berating myselves perceived failure shortcoming,,
I've noticed I'm spending more money on products promoted by influencers on social media.,social media addiction,noticed spending money product promoted influencers social medium,,
"My medication helps me focus on work tasks, but I still struggle to resist social media distractions.  Are there additional strategies I can try?",social media addiction,medication help focus work task still struggle resist social medium distraction additional strategy try,,
"A person becomes preoccupied with social media or gaming to the detriment of other areas of their life, such as neglecting work or personal responsibilities.

Answer:",social media addiction,person becomes preoccupied social medium gaming detriment area life neglecting work personal responsibility answer,,
"Yes, I frequently neglect household chores to spend more time online.",social media addiction,yes frequently neglect household chore spend time online,,
" Seeing my partner 'like' other people's social media posts triggers jealousy. I start questioning if they find those people more attractive, or if they're not happy with our relationship. It leads to arguments and unnecessary insecurities.",social media addiction,seeing partner like people social medium post trigger jealousy start questioning find attractive happy relationship lead argument unnecessary insecurity,,
"They often share personal details online, making me worry about professionalism.",social media addiction,often share personal detail online making worry professionalism,,
I use social media filters heavily to alter my appearance in photos before posting. Is this necessarily a bad thing?,social media addiction,use social medium filter heavily alter appearance photo posting necessarily bad thing,,
"I feel pressured to portray a perfect online persona on social media, even if it's not entirely true. Is this a healthy approach?",social media addiction,feel pressured portray perfect online persona social medium even entirely true healthy approach,,
"Social media can be a time suck, especially when you should be focusing on training or missions.",social media addiction,social medium time suck especially focusing training mission,,
I feel increasingly isolated despite being constantly connected on social media.,social media addiction,feel increasingly isolated despite constantly connected social medium,,
"Yes, I frequently form new relationships with fellow online users.",social media addiction,yes frequently form new relationship fellow online user,,
"Hey everyone! I hope you're all doing well. I've been struggling with social media addiction, particularly on platforms like Instagram and YouTube. While I've managed to cut off some platforms that weren't productive for me, I find it challenging to control my usage on Instagram, especially the explore/reels feature. Does anyone have tips on blocking these features or setting app limits on an iPhone? Your help would be greatly appreciated <3",social media addiction,hey everyone hope well struggling social medium addiction particularly platform like instagram youtube managed cut productive find challenging control usage especially explore reel feature anyone tip blocking setting app limit iphone help would greatly appreciated,,
"Whenever I visit my in-laws, I can't help but notice how everyone is so absorbed in their smartphones, barely acknowledging each other. It's like they've forgotten how to connect in person.",social media addiction,whenever visit law help notice everyone absorbed smartphones barely acknowledging like forgotten connect person,,
I'm starting to realize that my social media use is getting out of control. It's affecting my relationships and productivity. How can I break free from this addiction and regain balance in my life?,social media addiction,starting realize social medium use getting control affecting relationship productivity break free addiction regain balance life,,
"I find myself staying up way too late at night endlessly scrolling through social media, even when I know I need to be sleeping.",social media addiction,find staying way late night endlessly scrolling social medium even know need sleeping,,
"I've noticed that I'm spending more time on social media than I intended, and it's affecting my productivity. How can I regain control of my time?",social media addiction,noticed spending time social medium intended affecting productivity regain control,,
I constantly compare myself to others on social media and feel inadequate. Is this normal?,social media addiction,constantly compare others social medium feel inadequate normal,,
Social media is starting to impact my sleep because I stay up scrolling through feeds. How can I break this habit?,social media addiction,social medium starting impact sleep stay scrolling feed break habit,,
I get defensive or argumentative when someone criticizes my social media posts. Is this a healthy reaction?,social media addiction,get defensive argumentative someone criticizes social medium post healthy reaction,,
"Yes, I compare my life to others on social media all the time, and it makes me feel inadequate.",social media addiction,yes compare life others social medium time make feel inadequate,,
"If this reaches 2 million users, I can eat my food and sleep.",social media addiction,reach million user eat food sleep,,
"I spend way too much time on social media, especially after grading papers and lesson planning. I feel burnt out, but scrolling feels like a mindless break. What can I do differently?",social media addiction,spend way much time social medium especially grading paper lesson planning feel burnt scrolling like mindless break differently,,
"One negative comment on a reel can ruin my entire day.  Now I'm constantly worried about how others will perceive me online, and it's making me anxious and paranoid.",social media addiction,one negative comment reel ruin entire day constantly worried others perceive online making anxious paranoid,,
Social media makes me feel lonely even though I'm constantly connected.,social media addiction,social medium make feel lonely even though constantly connected,,
"I find myself excessively focusing on Instagram stories, creating elaborate narratives based solely on what I see, and feeling upset if friends don't watch my stories. Despite recognizing the irrationality of these thoughts, I struggle with managing my behavior and maintaining friendships. Seeking advice on how to overcome this obsession and improve my mental well-being.",social media addiction,find excessively focusing instagram story creating elaborate narrative based solely see feeling upset friend watch despite recognizing irrationality thought struggle managing behavior maintaining friendship seeking advice overcome obsession improve mental well,,
"“I’m tired of being treated like crap, etc.” “I just said I felt so alone.” and because of the bad treatment from people; I go to Social Media",social media addiction,tired treated like crap etc said felt alone bad treatment people go social medium,,
How can I encourage my teenager to develop healthy social media habits?,social media addiction,encourage teenager develop healthy social medium habit,,
"I find myself constantly checking social media, even when I'm supposed to be working or sleeping. How can I manage this habit?",social media addiction,find constantly checking social medium even supposed working sleeping manage habit,,
"I've been feeling isolated lately, and I think my excessive use of social media might be contributing to it.",social media addiction,feeling isolated lately think excessive use social medium might contributing,,
"Every time I go online, I end up feeling worse about myself compared to others. What can I do to stop this cycle?",social media addiction,every time go online end feeling worse compared others stop cycle,,
Seeing constant updates from everyone makes me feel like I'm missing out. How can I overcome FOMO?,social media addiction,seeing constant update everyone make feel like missing overcome fomo,,
"A person's self-esteem is heavily influenced by their online presence, with their mood and confidence fluctuating based on the number of likes, comments, or followers they receive.

Answer:",social media addiction,person self esteem heavily influenced online presence mood confidence fluctuating based number like comment follower receive answer,,
It's been two years since I'm celebrating when I'm not popular on social media anymore.,social media addiction,two year since celebrating popular social medium anymore,,
"I spend hours every day scrolling through my feed, and I feel like I can't live without it. I'm starting to feel like I'm not good enough because I'm not as popular as other people on social media. I'm also starting to have trouble focusing on my work and relationships because I'm so focused on social media.",social media addiction,spend hour every day scrolling feed feel like live without starting good enough popular people social medium also trouble focusing work relationship focused,,
I'm frustrated with the trend of Instagram grids displaying fragmented images that clutter my feed. I just want to see complete pictures of my favorite idols without having to navigate through grids. Does anyone else share this sentiment?,social media addiction,frustrated trend instagram grid displaying fragmented image clutter feed want see complete picture favorite idol without navigate anyone else share sentiment,,
I've noticed a decline in my mental health due to my excessive social media usage. How can I improve my mental well-being?,social media addiction,noticed decline mental health due excessive social medium usage improve well,,
 I see a group of teenagers vandalizes public property and records themselves doing it to share on social media and gain notoriety among their peers.,social media addiction,see group teenager vandalizes public property record share social medium gain notoriety among peer,,
"Not getting enough likes on Instagram triggers anxiety, tying my self-worth to social media validation.",social media addiction,getting enough like instagram trigger anxiety tying self worth social medium validation,,
"I am 68 years old male,Social media feels overwhelming and confusing.  The constant notifications and updates make me anxious.  I miss the simplicity of life before the internet.  How can I navigate social media at my own pace and avoid feeling pressured to be constantly connected?",social media addiction,year old male social medium feel overwhelming confusing constant notification update make anxious miss simplicity life internet navigate pace avoid feeling pressured constantly connected,,
"A person's sleep patterns are disrupted due to staying up late to browse social media or play online games, leading to fatigue and daytime sleepiness.

Answer:",social media addiction,person sleep pattern disrupted due staying late browse social medium play online game leading fatigue daytime sleepiness answer,,
"I often feel overwhelmed by worry, and it's hard for me to relax or concentrate on anything.",social media addiction,often feel overwhelmed worry hard relax concentrate anything,,
How can I keep from getting addicted to scrolling through social media?,social media addiction,keep getting addicted scrolling social medium,,
"He seems easily distracted by social media notifications, impacting his focus.",social media addiction,seems easily distracted social medium notification impacting focus,,
I feel anxious and irritable whenever I can't check my social media for updates. Is this normal?\n\nAnswer:,social media addiction,feel anxious irritable whenever check social medium update normal nanswer,,
" I am a  young adult and I feels envious and inadequate when seeing posts of others traveling to exotic locations or attending parties on social media, fearing I am missing out on exciting experiences.",social media addiction,young adult feel envious inadequate seeing post others traveling exotic location attending party social medium fearing missing exciting experience,,
I procrastinate by scrolling through social media instead of working on my studies. How can I develop healthier habits?,social media addiction,procrastinate scrolling social medium instead working study develop healthier habit,,
I'm feeling overwhelmed by the negativity and toxicity I encounter on social media platforms. How can I protect my mental health while staying connected?,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed negativity toxicity encounter social medium platform protect mental health staying connected,,
an individual's excessive social media use hinders their productivity at work or in academic pursuits. this habit challenges of maintaining focus and setting boundaries.,social media addiction,individual excessive social medium use hinders productivity work academic pursuit habit challenge maintaining focus setting boundary,,
The pressure to portray a perfect online image seems stressful.,social media addiction,pressure portray perfect online image seems stressful,,
"I used to love playing video games with my friends, but now we just end up messaging each other on social media the whole time instead. I feel like I've lost that genuine connection.",social media addiction,used love playing video game friend end messaging social medium whole time instead feel like lost genuine connection,,
I feel like I need to constantly post on social media to feel validated. Is this healthy?,social media addiction,feel like need constantly post social medium validated healthy,,
"I often find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media, even when I have other tasks to complete. How can I stop this habit?",social media addiction,often find mindlessly scrolling social medium even task complete stop habit,,
I struggle to find the motivation to participate in hobbies or activities that don't involve social media.  Can a support group help me rediscover my interests?,social media addiction,struggle find motivation participate hobby activity involve social medium support group help rediscover interest,,
"I find myself comparing my body and appearance to others on social media, and it's making me feel self-conscious and unhappy with myself.",social media addiction,find comparing body appearance others social medium making feel self conscious unhappy,,
I find it challenging to maintain boundaries between my personal and online life. How can I create a healthier balance?,social media addiction,find challenging maintain boundary personal online life create healthier balance,,
"I can't stop checking my social media feeds, even when I know it's making me neglect my homework and other responsibilities.",social media addiction,stop checking social medium feed even know making neglect homework responsibility,,
I sleep with my phone next to my bed and wake up to check social media before anything else. Is this a bad habit?,social media addiction,sleep phone next bed wake check social medium anything else bad habit,,
I find myself comparing my artistic skills to what I see on social media and feel discouraged. Is this a healthy way to use social media?,social media addiction,find comparing artistic skill see social medium feel discouraged healthy way use,,
I spend most of my free time creating content for social media but feel burnt out and uninspired.  Should I take a break?,social media addiction,spend free time creating content social medium feel burnt uninspired take break,,
The pressure to be on all the time on social media feels exhausting.,social media addiction,pressure time social medium feel exhausting,,
"I've noticed that my self-esteem has really suffered because I'm constantly comparing myself to the curated, perfect lives I see on Instagram.",social media addiction,noticed self esteem really suffered constantly comparing curated perfect life see instagram,,
"I hyperfocus on specific social media platforms or trends, neglecting other aspects of my life.  Is this related to ADHD?",social media addiction,hyperfocus specific social medium platform trend neglecting aspect life related adhd,,
I have guilt that Social media is very dangerous for mental health. yet; major part of my day is spent on social media,social media addiction,guilt social medium dangerous mental health yet major part day spent,,
I feel like I'm missing out if I don't keep up with social media. How can I overcome this fear of missing out (FOMO)?,social media addiction,feel like missing keep social medium overcome fear fomo,,
"I'm constantly comparing my life to the curated images and stories I see on social media, and it's making me feel inadequate. How can I overcome this cycle of comparison?",social media addiction,constantly comparing life curated image story see social medium making feel inadequate overcome cycle comparison,,
"Every time I try to have a meaningful conversation with my daughter, she's constantly glancing down at her phone and responding with one-word answers. It's so disheartening.",social media addiction,every time try meaningful conversation daughter constantly glancing phone responding one word answer disheartening,,
I'm interested in finding old friends and reconnecting with them through social media. Any tips on how to start?,social media addiction,interested finding old friend reconnecting social medium tip start,,
"My partner's excessive use of social media, particularly Instagram, has become a source of frustration in our relationship. Despite my attempts to address it, they continue to prioritize their phone over our conversations and quality time together, making me feel neglected and unimportant. I'm unsure of how to proceed or help them see the impact of their behavior.",social media addiction,partner excessive use social medium particularly instagram become source frustration relationship despite attempt address continue prioritize phone conversation quality time together making feel neglected unimportant unsure proceed help see impact behavior,,
"I feel like I'm constantly comparing myself to others on social media, which is making me feel inadequate and unhappy. How can I break free from this cycle and improve my self-esteem?",social media addiction,feel like constantly comparing others social medium making inadequate unhappy break free cycle improve self esteem,,
I've noticed that my grades have really started to suffer because I'm spending more time scrolling through social media than I am on my schoolwork.,social media addiction,noticed grade really started suffer spending time scrolling social medium schoolwork,,
I'm worried that my teen is cyberbullied or exposed to inappropriate content on social media.  What can I do?,social media addiction,worried teen cyberbullied exposed inappropriate content social medium,,
"  I used to be passionate about [mention a creative hobby]. Now, all those ideas and inspiration seem to have vanished.  I think it's because I'm constantly bombarded by pre-made content on reels, leaving me feeling uninspired to create anything myself.",social media addiction,used passionate mention creative hobby idea inspiration seem vanished think constantly bombarded pre made content reel leaving feeling uninspired create anything,,
My teen feels pressured to present a perfect image online and compares themselves to others.  How can I help?,social media addiction,teen feel pressured present perfect image online compare others help,,
"I'm constantly checking social media, even when I know it's not good for my mental health. How can I break this habit?",social media addiction,constantly checking social medium even know good mental health break habit,,
"I am 19 yrs old, Scrolling through Instagram makes me feel inadequate. Everyone seems to have perfect lives, and mine feels ordinary.  Now I'm feeling depressed and anxious.  How can I avoid comparing myself to others online and focus on appreciating my own life?",social media addiction,yr old scrolling instagram make feel inadequate everyone seems perfect life mine ordinary feeling depressed anxious avoid comparing others online focus appreciating,,
"I've struggled with a growing obsession with Instagram, feeling pressured to conform to unrealistic standards and constantly seeking validation through likes and followers. This addiction has affected my self-esteem, relationships, and overall well-being. I'm seeking advice on how to break free from this cycle and regain control of my life.",social media addiction,struggled growing obsession instagram feeling pressured conform unrealistic standard constantly seeking validation like follower addiction affected self esteem relationship overall well advice break free cycle regain control life,,
"I caught my bf looking up Instagram women and sexualizing them using their pictures to get off and I caught him ‘showering’ but he’s actually watching something on his phone helping himself I caught him but still lied to me. This is not the first time he did this to me when I am always ready and willing, and I have told him how I don’t like it and how it hurts me but still continue to do it he just told me he’s ‘sorry’ he has addictions.",social media addiction,caught bf looking instagram woman sexualizing using picture get showering actually watching something phone helping still lied first time always ready willing told like hurt continue sorry addiction,,
I feel pressured to present a perfect image online and constantly curate my social media presence.  Can a support group help me embrace authenticity?,social media addiction,feel pressured present perfect image online constantly curate social medium presence support group help embrace authenticity,,
Feeling drained from mindlessly scrolling through social media after deployment.,social media addiction,feeling drained mindlessly scrolling social medium deployment,,
"My wife is fixated on turning our daughter into an Instagram model, spending excessive amounts of money on clothes and neglecting other responsibilities. I'm torn between supporting her and addressing the harmful message this sends to our child. Any advice on how to navigate this situation?",social media addiction,wife fixated turning daughter instagram model spending excessive amount money clothes neglecting responsibility torn supporting addressing harmful message sends child advice navigate situation,,
"I often find myself comparing my life to the curated versions of others on social media, and it's making me feel inadequate. How can I stop feeling this way?",social media addiction,often find comparing life curated version others social medium making feel inadequate stop feeling way,,
I get anxious if I'm not up to date with every social media trend. How can I lessen this anxiety?,social media addiction,get anxious date every social medium trend lessen anxiety,,
"My mom is constantly on her phone, prioritizing Instagram over our time together. I feel like she values her phone more than me.",social media addiction,mom constantly phone prioritizing instagram time together feel like value,,
"I feel pressured to maintain a certain image on social media, even if it doesn't align with my true self. How can I be more authentic online?",social media addiction,feel pressured maintain certain image social medium even align true self authentic online,,
"I'm worried that my social media use is becoming an addiction, but I'm not sure how to address it. What steps can I take to regain control?",social media addiction,worried social medium use becoming addiction sure address step take regain control,,
I'm addicted to social media and I can't stop using it. It's taking over my life.,social media addiction,addicted social medium stop using taking life,,
I find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media whenever I'm bored or stressed. It's become a habit that's hard to break. How can I break free from this cycle and find healthier ways to cope?,social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium whenever bored stressed become habit hard break free cycle healthier way cope,,
"As a former TikTok addict who used to spend 4 hours daily on that app, we should really start worrying... From 2-hour movies to 10-minute YouTube videos to now 15-second TikToks, it's scary how successful TikTok is. Every other social media knows how successful this strategy is and are all now rolling out YouTube SHORTS, Instagram REELS, Snapchat SPOTLIGHT. We're sooo fucked.",social media addiction,former tiktok addict used spend hour daily app really start worrying movie minute youtube video second tiktoks scary successful every social medium know strategy rolling short instagram reel snapchat spotlight sooo fucked,,
Worried about misinformation about military operations being spread on social media.,social media addiction,worried misinformation military operation spread social medium,,
"I feel like I need to constantly be checking social media for updates, even if it disrupts my sleep or daily tasks. Is this a sign of addiction?",social media addiction,feel like need constantly checking social medium update even disrupts sleep daily task sign addiction,,
 my son whos a teenager spends most of their free time watching videos of others traveling to exotic locations and living luxurious lifestyles on social media. he feel envious and dissatisfied with his own life.,social media addiction,son who teenager spends free time watching video others traveling exotic location living luxurious lifestyle social medium feel envious dissatisfied life,,
I spend hours scrolling through social media at night. How can I break this habit and get better sleep?,social media addiction,spend hour scrolling social medium night break habit get better sleep,,
"A person describes feeling increasingly isolated and disconnected from friends and family. They spend most of their time browsing social media and struggle to engage in face-to-face interactions.

Answer:",social media addiction,person describes feeling increasingly isolated disconnected friend family spend time browsing social medium struggle engage face interaction answer,,
"Whenever I see someone post about their vacation or new purchase on social media, I feel envious and dissatisfied with my own life.",social media addiction,whenever see someone post vacation new purchase social medium feel envious dissatisfied life,,
"He seems constantly on and connected, even during meals or family time.",social media addiction,seems constantly connected even meal family time,,
My social media usage has become a constant source of stress and overwhelm in my life. How can I manage this better?,social media addiction,social medium usage become constant source stress overwhelm life manage better,,
How come my friends always get to know strangers and respond on social media before me.!,social media addiction,come friend always get know stranger respond social medium,,
I spend so much time on social media that I neglect my work and relationships. I feel anxious when I'm not scrolling.,social media addiction,spend much time social medium neglect work relationship feel anxious scrolling,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the constant pressure to be a perfect teacher on social media. Everyone seems to have these amazing classroom setups and creative lesson plans. How can I deal with this?,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed constant pressure perfect teacher social medium everyone seems amazing classroom setup creative lesson plan deal,,
"Social media platforms keep suggesting new content and notifications, making it hard to disconnect.  What can I do?",social media addiction,social medium platform keep suggesting new content notification making hard disconnect,,
I get into arguments with people online over trivial matters. Does social media make healthy discussions harder?,social media addiction,get argument people online trivial matter social medium make healthy discussion harder,,
I am ready to buy chicken rendang in a tin if it's to buy and waste for the unreal people on the social media; but never for the hungry ones around me,social media addiction,ready buy chicken rendang tin waste unreal people social medium never hungry one around,,
The stark contrast between older men with their first loves and the younger trophy wives they're often seen with on social media raises questions about the superficial nature of these relationships and the influence of materialism and appearance.,social media addiction,stark contrast older men first love younger trophy wife often seen social medium raise question superficial nature relationship influence materialism appearance,,
"I often find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media, even when I have other tasks to complete. How can I break this habit?",social media addiction,often find mindlessly scrolling social medium even task complete break habit,,
"I feel like I can't take a break from social media, even when I know it's unhealthy.",social media addiction,feel like take break social medium even know unhealthy,,
"I find it difficult to resist checking social media notifications, even when I'm busy. Is this a normal reaction?\n\nAnswer:",social media addiction,find difficult resist checking social medium notification even busy normal reaction nanswer,,
"You've noticed your son spends a lot of time on social media, neglecting other activities.",social media addiction,noticed son spends lot time social medium neglecting activity,,
I'm afraid to open up about my social media use with friends and family for fear of judgment.  Will a support group be more understanding?,social media addiction,afraid open social medium use friend family fear judgment support group understanding,,
"Lately, I've noticed that I spend more time on social media than I do interacting with people in real life. It's starting to impact my social skills and relationships. How can I break free from this addiction?",social media addiction,lately noticed spend time social medium interacting people real life starting impact skill relationship break free addiction,,
I feel disconnected from the real world because I spend most of my time on social media.,social media addiction,feel disconnected real world spend time social medium,,
"myself a  parentwho becomes agitated and restless when unable to access their work email or check news updates online, feeling disconnected from the world.",social media addiction,parentwho becomes agitated restless unable access work email check news update online feeling disconnected world,,
" I keep reading that social media helps with depression, I literally spend lot of time on social media everyday and  I still want to stop existing so now what.",social media addiction,keep reading social medium help depression literally spend lot time everyday still want stop existing,,
All the time! I often lose track of time when I'm scrolling through social media feeds.,social media addiction,time often lose track scrolling social medium feed,,
I have trouble sleeping because I stay up late scrolling through social media. How can I improve my sleep hygiene?,social media addiction,trouble sleeping stay late scrolling social medium improve sleep hygiene,,
"So far my venturing out brings out tons of people who think I am strange for not being on social media platforms outside of Facebook. For context, I talked with a woman a few days ago that apparently was not a fan of my 'I don't really use it if ever'. What is your social media experience? I guess I'm old in that I like an old-fashioned text session tossing in some photos... or phone call to start with.",social media addiction,far venturing brings ton people think strange social medium platform outside facebook context talked woman day ago apparently fan really use ever experience guess old like fashioned text session tossing photo phone call start,,
" I keep seeing all these cool products and trends advertised on reels. It fuels my impulse buying, and before I know it, I've spent way more than I can afford.",social media addiction,keep seeing cool product trend advertised reel fuel impulse buying know spent way afford,,
"I've noticed a trend on Instagram where accounts focused on recovery heavily emphasize protein intake, to the point where it feels like an obsession rather than genuine recovery. This fixation on macros and tracking despite claiming to be recovered raises concerns about the authenticity of their approach to health and well-being.",social media addiction,noticed trend instagram account focused recovery heavily emphasize protein intake point feel like obsession rather genuine fixation macro tracking despite claiming recovered raise concern authenticity approach health well,,
"A person's academic or work performance declines due to spending excessive time on social media or gaming, leading to missed deadlines and poor grades or evaluations.

Answer:",social media addiction,person academic work performance decline due spending excessive time social medium gaming leading missed deadline poor grade evaluation answer,,
"Ptn! What do you think about fasting on social media after utbk? I'm really worried that I don't want to open social media, but I can't use Twitter because I need information to register",social media addiction,ptn think fasting social medium utbk really worried want open use twitter need information register,,
Social media makes me feel like everyone else has a perfect life and successful grad school experience. Is this normal?,social media addiction,social medium make feel like everyone else perfect life successful grad school experience normal,,
I get into arguments with people online and it ruins my mood. How can I avoid this?,social media addiction,get argument people online ruin mood avoid,,
I'm a young adult and constantly compare my life to the seemingly perfect lives portrayed by influencers on social media.  Is this a common issue?,social media addiction,young adult constantly compare life seemingly perfect portrayed influencers social medium common issue,,
"I feel a strong urge to post on social media constantly, even if there's nothing particularly interesting to share. Is this a sign of addiction?",social media addiction,feel strong urge post social medium constantly even nothing particularly interesting share sign addiction,,
I compare my life to others on social media and always feel inadequate. What steps can I take to stop this comparison?,social media addiction,compare life others social medium always feel inadequate step take stop comparison,,
"I've noticed I'm comparing my body to unrealistic standards portrayed on social media, and it's affecting my self-esteem.",social media addiction,noticed comparing body unrealistic standard portrayed social medium affecting self esteem,,
 someone experiences heightened anxiety and anticipation waiting for social media notifications. the emotional toll and potential consequences are being overly dependent on online validation.,social media addiction,someone experience heightened anxiety anticipation waiting social medium notification emotional toll potential consequence overly dependent online validation,,
I'm worried that social media addiction is affecting my productivity at work or school.  Can a support group offer tips for managing this?,social media addiction,worried social medium addiction affecting productivity work school support group offer tip managing,,
I feel like I need to post something on social media every day to maintain my online presence and keep my followers engaged.,social media addiction,feel like need post something social medium every day maintain online presence keep follower engaged,,
“Social media is the fastest way to spread ideas.”,social media addiction,social medium fastest way spread idea,,
"I feel like I'm constantly comparing myself to other lesbians online, and it's affecting my self-esteem. What can I do differently?",social media addiction,feel like constantly comparing lesbian online affecting self esteem differently,,
my day is so gloomy like the likes I receive on my socail media.,social media addiction,day gloomy like receive socail medium,,
"the more we mature, the social networks should look more perfect with people always giving only positive feedbacks and showering love all the time",social media addiction,mature social network look perfect people always giving positive feedback showering love time,,
"My social life revolves around social media, and I struggle to make connections offline. How can I improve my in-person social skills?",social media addiction,social life revolves around medium struggle make connection offline improve person skill,,
"Congratulations to my friends who don't ask me to make tiktok, boomerangs, hands free videos when they are busy, don't ask me to do a tiktok, hands-free video...Just a formal photo after that.",social media addiction,congratulation friend ask make tiktok boomerang hand free video busy formal photo,,
"Although I've deleted my porn accounts on Instagram, I keep relapsing. Any advice to prevent reinstalling it?",social media addiction,although deleted porn account instagram keep relapsing advice prevent reinstalling,,
"I'll call my daughter to chat, but half the time she's barely paying attention because she's scrolling through her Facebook feed the whole conversation. It's so frustrating.",social media addiction,call daughter chat half time barely paying attention scrolling facebook feed whole conversation frustrating,,
 I myself a adult who posts photos and videos of themselves consuming alcohol excessively or using drugs to gain attention and followers on social media.,social media addiction,adult post photo video consuming alcohol excessively using drug gain attention follower social medium,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the pressure to constantly be on and available to students and parents. Social media reinforces the always connected culture for teachers. What can I help?,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed pressure constantly available student parent social medium reinforces always connected culture teacher help,,
Feeling burnt out from lack of sleep and constant toddler care. Social media is full of parents seemingly thriving. How can I deal with these feelings?,social media addiction,feeling burnt lack sleep constant toddler care social medium full parent seemingly thriving deal,,
"I'm worried that social media use is negatively impacting my mental health, causing anxiety and depression.  Can a support group be helpful?",social media addiction,worried social medium use negatively impacting mental health causing anxiety depression support group helpful,,
"During the COVID-19 pandemic, I embarked on a three-month social media detox and experienced heightened productivity. However, since rejoining, I've found myself heavily relying on Instagram to connect with new classmates. How can I regain control over my social media usage to maintain productivity and personal growth?",social media addiction,covid pandemic embarked three month social medium detox experienced heightened productivity however since rejoining found heavily relying instagram connect new classmate regain control usage maintain personal growth,,
"my son who is a teenager spends hours each day scrolling through social media profiles of strangers, obsessively studying their photos, posts, and personal details.",social media addiction,son teenager spends hour day scrolling social medium profile stranger obsessively studying photo post personal detail,,
How can I balance my time on social media with my schoolwork?,social media addiction,balance time social medium schoolwork,,
"Whenever I try to take a break from social media, even for a little while, I start feeling really anxious and on edge. I think I might be developing an actual addiction.",social media addiction,whenever try take break social medium even little start feeling really anxious edge think might developing actual addiction,,
"I'm 16 and addicted to Instagram and YouTube shorts, especially during holidays. I'm trying to stop to focus on studying for JEE 2024.",social media addiction,addicted instagram youtube short especially holiday trying stop focus studying jee,,
"“Social media is not about technology. It’s about relationships.” 
",social media addiction,social medium technology relationship,,
The earth is getting stronger because of social media on the earth.,social media addiction,earth getting stronger social medium,,
"I've noticed a concerning trend of social media obsession among my acquaintances and even at my gym, where people seem more focused on their Instagram feeds than on real-life interactions. It's becoming increasingly frustrating to witness, especially when it affects genuine connections and self-esteem.",social media addiction,noticed concerning trend social medium obsession among acquaintance even gym people seem focused instagram feed real life interaction becoming increasingly frustrating witness especially affect genuine connection self esteem,,
I want to go to a swim but I'm afraid I'll miss my tweets.,social media addiction,want go swim afraid miss tweet,,
I constantly compare myself to others on social media and feel inadequate as a result.,social media addiction,constantly compare others social medium feel inadequate result,,
I'm worried that social media is affecting my sleep. What can I do to improve my sleep hygiene?,social media addiction,worried social medium affecting sleep improve hygiene,,
"Whenever I try to have an in-person conversation with my family, I find myself constantly glancing at my phone and getting distracted by social media notifications.",social media addiction,whenever try person conversation family find constantly glancing phone getting distracted social medium notification,,
I get into arguments with friends and family online because of differing opinions seen on social media.,social media addiction,get argument friend family online differing opinion seen social medium,,
"someone engages in prolonged social media use late into the night, impacting their sleep patterns and overall well-being. There are potential negative effects on mental health and daily functioning.",social media addiction,someone engages prolonged social medium use late night impacting sleep pattern overall well potential negative effect mental health daily functioning,,
I have trouble falling asleep at night because I stay on my phone in bed.,social media addiction,trouble falling asleep night stay phone bed,,
"It's true that social media is fun, you have to look for health, if it only makes you nervous, what do you do. I feel guilt about using social media; however can't hold back",social media addiction,true social medium fun look health make nervous feel guilt using however hold back,,
"Absolutely, I feel a strong urge to immediately respond to notifications or messages on social media.",social media addiction,absolutely feel strong urge immediately respond notification message social medium,,
"Is it true that these platforms are designed exactly and meticulously to make users addicted? In personal experience, I find it difficult to turn it off when I watch a few videos. It is like quick repetitive dopamine bursts that are accessible from anywhere with a phone. I have friends who have mentioned that they watch one video and zone out and all of a sudden 'wake up' and realize they have spent hours swiping. Is this by design? How bad is this for our health?",social media addiction,true platform designed exactly meticulously make user addicted personal experience find difficult turn watch video like quick repetitive dopamine burst accessible anywhere phone friend mentioned one zone sudden wake realize spent hour swiping design bad health,,
Feeling disconnected from your fiancée due to social media comparisons.,social media addiction,feeling disconnected fianc due social medium comparison,,
"A person's social life revolves almost entirely around social media or online gaming communities, with minimal face-to-face interactions with friends or family.

Answer:",social media addiction,person social life revolves almost entirely around medium online gaming community minimal face interaction friend family answer,,
"I've noticed that my social media usage has become excessive, and I'm struggling to find a balance. How can I regain control of my time and focus on what truly matters?",social media addiction,noticed social medium usage become excessive struggling find balance regain control time focus truly matter,,
" myself a parent I often spends excessive amounts of time browsing forums and chat rooms, actively seeking out conversations with strangers and sharing personal information.",social media addiction,parent often spends excessive amount time browsing forum chat room actively seeking conversation stranger sharing personal information,,
I need to break free from the comparison trap on social media and regain my self-confidence. What steps should I take?,social media addiction,need break free comparison trap social medium regain self confidence step take,,
"Absolutely, I've neglected important tasks and responsibilities many times because of my social media use.",social media addiction,absolutely neglected important task responsibility many time social medium use,,
"I've been hooked on phone reels and Netflix, neglecting real-life issues. I want to break free from this addiction",social media addiction,hooked phone reel netflix neglecting real life issue want break free addiction,,
I feel constantly pressured to keep up with social media trends and feel outdated if I don't participate.  Is this healthy?,social media addiction,feel constantly pressured keep social medium trend outdated participate healthy,,
"Quite often, I prefer the excitement of the Internet to intimacy with my partner.",social media addiction,quite often prefer excitement internet intimacy partner,,
I feel left out if I miss something on social media (FOMO - Fear Of Missing Out). What can I do about this?,social media addiction,feel left miss something social medium fomo fear missing,,
"I feel anxious and stressed when I'm not on social media, but I know it's not healthy. How can I overcome this dependence?",social media addiction,feel anxious stressed social medium know healthy overcome dependence,,
"I'm constantly comparing my achievements to others' on social media, and it's making me feel inadequate.",social media addiction,constantly comparing achievement others social medium making feel inadequate,,
I need to regain control of my life from social media. How can I achieve this?,social media addiction,need regain control life social medium achieve,,
I find myself reaching for my phone out of boredom. What are some alternatives to mindless scrolling?,social media addiction,find reaching phone boredom alternative mindless scrolling,,
Social media makes me feel like I'm not good enough because everyone seems to have perfect lives. How can I deal with this?,social media addiction,social medium make feel like good enough everyone seems perfect life deal,,
I feel isolated despite spending a lot of time on social media.  Can a support group help me build meaningful connections?,social media addiction,feel isolated despite spending lot time social medium support group help build meaningful connection,,
"They seem easily distracted by social media notifications, impacting their focus during lectures.",social media addiction,seem easily distracted social medium notification impacting focus lecture,,
I feel anxious or stressed if I don't check my social media for a few hours. Is this a sign of social media dependence?,social media addiction,feel anxious stressed check social medium hour sign dependence,,
"Feeling down and lonely after a breakup. Social media is full of happy couples, making me feel worse. Any advice?",social media addiction,feeling lonely breakup social medium full happy couple making feel worse advice,,
"I've been feeling really down lately, and I don't have the energy to do anything I used to enjoy.",social media addiction,feeling really lately energy anything used enjoy,,
"I'm worried I spend too much time on my tablet, neglecting my physical therapy exercises.",social media addiction,worried spend much time tablet neglecting physical therapy exercise,,
"I've tried deleting my social media apps, but I always end up reinstalling them within a day or two because I feel so disconnected and anxious without them.",social media addiction,tried deleting social medium apps always end reinstalling within day two feel disconnected anxious without,,
I often feel overwhelmed by the constant stream of information and opinions on social media. How can I create a healthier relationship with technology?,social media addiction,often feel overwhelmed constant stream information opinion social medium create healthier relationship technology,,
" I've tried deleting the app, turning off notifications, and setting time limits, but nothing seems to work.  I have this constant urge to check my phone for reels, even when I know it's unproductive and unhealthy.",social media addiction,tried deleting app turning notification setting time limit nothing seems work constant urge check phone reel even know unproductive unhealthy,,
I can't help but feel lonely even though I'm constantly interacting with people on social media. Why is this?,social media addiction,help feel lonely even though constantly interacting people social medium,,
You're worried he might be struggling with social media addiction.,social media addiction,worried might struggling social medium addiction,,
I'm starting to compare my body to influencers I see online and it's making me feel bad about myself. How can I stop this?,social media addiction,starting compare body influencers see online making feel bad stop,,
I feel like I have no control over my social media use.  Is there help available to overcome this addiction?,social media addiction,feel like control social medium use help available overcome addiction,,
everything will be very valuable when it's not listed under my social network,social media addiction,everything valuable listed social network,,
I use social media to learn new things and stay updated on current events.  Can social media be a valuable educational tool?,social media addiction,use social medium learn new thing stay updated current event valuable educational tool,,
“I’m tired of being treated like crap on social media.” “I just feel like I am not worth to exist any more and wish to end my life.”,social media addiction,tired treated like crap social medium feel worth exist wish end life,,
It's crazy to sleep without social media access,social media addiction,crazy sleep without social medium access,,
"Feeling isolated and disconnected from other teachers. Social media seems like the only way to connect, but it feels impersonal. What are some alternatives?",social media addiction,feeling isolated disconnected teacher social medium seems like way connect feel impersonal alternative,,
I use social media to connect with friends and family who live far away. Is this a healthy use of social media?\n\nAnswer:,social media addiction,use social medium connect friend family live far away healthy nanswer,,
"Yes, I've tried several times to cut back on my social media usage, but I always fail.",social media addiction,yes tried several time cut back social medium usage always fail,,
"Feeling pressure to portray a macho image online, especially when deployment can be tough.",social media addiction,feeling pressure portray macho image online especially deployment tough,,
 my confidence levels are majorly positively correlated with the responses I receive on social media,social media addiction,confidence level majorly positively correlated response receive social medium,,
"I feel pressured to maintain a certain image on social media, and it's taking a toll on my mental health. What can I do to feel more authentic?",social media addiction,feel pressured maintain certain image social medium taking toll mental health authentic,,
"I constantly feel the need to check my social media accounts, even when I know it's not productive. What should I do?",social media addiction,constantly feel need check social medium account even know productive,,
I participate in online challenges or trends just to get more attention on social media. Is this a healthy approach?,social media addiction,participate online challenge trend get attention social medium healthy approach,,
 my daughter who is a teenager feels anxious and irritable when unable to access their social media accounts for an extended period. They experience physical symptoms such as headaches and restlessness.,social media addiction,daughter teenager feel anxious irritable unable access social medium account extended period experience physical symptom headache restlessness,,
I'm worried that quitting social media completely might damage my personal brand or online business.  Are there ways to use social media more moderately?,social media addiction,worried quitting social medium completely might damage personal brand online business way use moderately,,
I'm finding it difficult to concentrate on tasks because I keep getting distracted by social media notifications. How can I stay focused?,social media addiction,finding difficult concentrate task keep getting distracted social medium notification stay focused,,
It feels like I can't enjoy moments unless I share them on social media. How can I change this mindset?,social media addiction,feel like enjoy moment unless share social medium change mindset,,
"I have trouble paying attention, and I'm always fidgeting or interrupting others.",social media addiction,trouble paying attention always fidgeting interrupting others,,
"They express frustration with the negativity and misinformation online, especially around medicine.",social media addiction,express frustration negativity misinformation online especially around medicine,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the pressure to present a perfect image on social media. Everyone seems to have these amazing lives. How can I deal with this?,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed pressure present perfect image social medium everyone seems amazing life deal,,
I've been using Instagram to cope with anxiety by looking at pretty girls. I've had this addiction since childhood and feel like a creep now. Any advice?,social media addiction,using instagram cope anxiety looking pretty girl addiction since childhood feel like creep advice,,
Feeling a sense of missing out on current events and social issues because of the limited access to social media in the monastery.,social media addiction,feeling sense missing current event social issue limited access medium monastery,,
I cannot stop scrolling instagram. It’s not even the posts it’s the mindless infinite scroll reels of instant gratification quick pops of dopamine.,social media addiction,cannot stop scrolling instagram even post mindless infinite scroll reel instant gratification quick pop dopamine,,
I'm starting to feel anxious when I'm not on social media.,social media addiction,starting feel anxious social medium,,
"A person feels a compulsive need to document every aspect of their life on social media, constantly posting updates and photos to maintain an online presence.

Answer:",social media addiction,person feel compulsive need document every aspect life social medium constantly posting update photo maintain online presence answer,,
I feel like I'm constantly bombarded with images and messages on social media that make me feel inadequate and insecure.,social media addiction,feel like constantly bombarded image message social medium make inadequate insecure,,
"Social media makes me feel like everyone else has a perfect, happy family life. Is this normal?",social media addiction,social medium make feel like everyone else perfect happy family life normal,,
Struggling to manage the time commitment of social media with the demands of monastic life.,social media addiction,struggling manage time commitment social medium demand monastic life,,
"Every time I post something, I obsess over likes and comments. How can I stop letting these numbers affect my self-esteem?",social media addiction,every time post something ob like comment stop letting number affect self esteem,,
"A person experiences heightened levels of stress or anxiety related to social media, such as worrying about missing out on events or feeling pressured to maintain a perfect online image.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience heightened level stress anxiety related social medium worrying missing event feeling pressured maintain perfect online image answer,,
"I find myself constantly comparing my life to what I see on social media, and it's making me feel like I'm not good enough.",social media addiction,find constantly comparing life see social medium making feel like good enough,,
I often compare myself to others on social media and feel inadequate as a result. How can I overcome this constant need for validation?,social media addiction,often compare others social medium feel inadequate result overcome constant need validation,,
I follow a lot of influencers on social media and feel pressured to keep up with their lifestyle.  Is this healthy?,social media addiction,follow lot influencers social medium feel pressured keep lifestyle healthy,,
Feeling a disconnect with younger parishioners due to their reliance on social media.,social media addiction,feeling disconnect younger parishioner due reliance social medium,,
I spend hours scrolling through social media without realizing it. How can I become more mindful of my usage?,social media addiction,spend hour scrolling social medium without realizing become mindful usage,,
I always just count on what's been missing on my social media profiles!!,social media addiction,always count missing social medium profile,,
"I am 16 yrs old female, I posted a picture from a party that got me in trouble with my parents.  Now, my friends are keeping their distance, and I feel isolated.  How can I rebuild trust with my friends and family after a social media misstep?",social media addiction,yr old female posted picture party got trouble parent friend keeping distance feel isolated rebuild trust family social medium misstep,,
"I wake up with a strong urge to check social media, even if I'm tired and need more sleep.  What does this suggest?",social media addiction,wake strong urge check social medium even tired need sleep suggest,,
I feel like I need to constantly refresh my social media feed to see new posts or messages.  Is this normal behavior?,social media addiction,feel like need constantly refresh social medium feed see new post message normal behavior,,
"Feeling isolated and disconnected from other dads. Social media seems like the only way to connect, but it feels isolating too. What are some alternatives?",social media addiction,feeling isolated disconnected dad social medium seems like way connect feel isolating alternative,,
I feel left out when I see my friends hanging out without me on social media. What should I do to deal with this feeling?,social media addiction,feel left see friend hanging without social medium deal feeling,,
"Spending too much time on social media makes me feel like I'm wasting my time, but I don't know how to disconnect.",social media addiction,spending much time social medium make feel like wasting know disconnect,,
Constantly checking Twitter during work feels compulsive. How can I break this cycle of addiction?,social media addiction,constantly checking twitter work feel compulsive break cycle addiction,,
I've been losing interest in my hobbies and passions because I'm spending too much time on social media.,social media addiction,losing interest hobby passion spending much time social medium,,
"I see that she confides in these accounts and promotes them - these Baldwin family accounts that are so obsessed with her kids. Believe it or not, Instagram is a hotspot for pedophiles to find links to child pornography. She needs to be careful promoting those accounts.",social media addiction,see confides account promotes baldwin family obsessed kid believe instagram hotspot pedophile find link child pornography need careful promoting,,
"I often make impulsive decisions, like buying things online based on social media recommendations.  Is this related to ADHD and social media?",social media addiction,often make impulsive decision like buying thing online based social medium recommendation related adhd,,
I compare my artistic skills to what I see on social media and feel discouraged. Is this a healthy way to use social media?,social media addiction,compare artistic skill see social medium feel discouraged healthy way use,,
I miss the deep study sessions and intellectual discussions we used to have.,social media addiction,miss deep study session intellectual discussion used,,
My child seems anxious and depressed.  Could social media use be contributing to their mental health?,social media addiction,child seems anxious depressed could social medium use contributing mental health,,
I spend way too much time on social media and feel anxious when I'm not checking it. Is this normal?,social media addiction,spend way much time social medium feel anxious checking normal,,
"I often experience sudden episodes of intense fear and physical symptoms like sweating and trembling, even when there's no real danger",social media addiction,often experience sudden episode intense fear physical symptom like sweating trembling even real danger,,
I feel anxious and stressed after spending time on social media. Is social media bad for my mental health?,social media addiction,feel anxious stressed spending time social medium bad mental health,,
My sleep suffers because I stay up late scrolling through social media.,social media addiction,sleep suffers stay late scrolling social medium,,
I feel pressured to constantly post updates on social media to maintain my online image. How can I overcome this pressure?,social media addiction,feel pressured constantly post update social medium maintain online image overcome pressure,,
I feel invisible or unimportant unless I get a lot of likes and comments on my social media posts. Does this suggest social media addiction?,social media addiction,feel invisible unimportant unless get lot like comment social medium post suggest addiction,,
"I use social media to avoid feeling overwhelmed by daily tasks, but it often makes me feel worse.  Is this a healthy coping mechanism for ADHD?",social media addiction,use social medium avoid feeling overwhelmed daily task often make feel worse healthy coping mechanism adhd,,
"I see my friends hanging out without me on social media, and it makes me feel left out and unwanted.",social media addiction,see friend hanging without social medium make feel left unwanted,,
"I've noticed that my social media usage is negatively impacting my mental health, but I don't know how to change my habits. What should I do?",social media addiction,noticed social medium usage negatively impacting mental health know change habit,,
"A person notices a decline in their productivity at work or school. They often find themselves distracted by social media notifications and spend a significant portion of their day browsing various platforms.

Answer:",social media addiction,person notice decline productivity work school often find distracted social medium notification spend significant portion day browsing various platform answer,,
I've noticed that my relationships are suffering because I prioritize social media over spending time with loved ones. How can I change this?,social media addiction,noticed relationship suffering prioritize social medium spending time loved one change,,
"Whenever I try to limit my screen time or take a break from social media, I get so angry and argumentative with my parents. I think I might have a real addiction problem.",social media addiction,whenever try limit screen time take break social medium get angry argumentative parent think might real addiction problem,,
"I worry that my social media use might be affecting my mental health, but I don't know how to cut back.  What can I do?",social media addiction,worry social medium use might affecting mental health know cut back,,
I'm feeling isolated and lonely because I don't have as many followers or likes on social media as others. How can I cope with these feelings?,social media addiction,feeling isolated lonely many follower like social medium others cope,,
Social media anxiety is causing stress and hindering productivity.,social media addiction,social medium anxiety causing stress hindering productivity,,
"Social media makes me feel like everyone else has a fulfilling career, while I'm stuck in a dead-end job. It's discouraging. What can I help?",social media addiction,social medium make feel like everyone else fulfilling career stuck dead end job discouraging help,,
"I feel anxious if I don't check social media frequently. Is this normal, and how can I reduce this anxiety?",social media addiction,feel anxious check social medium frequently normal reduce anxiety,,
"Social media addiction recovery I have been addicted to social media and my own smartphone for as long as I remember. I am starting to feel the negative effects on my mental health - forgetfulness, trivial mistakes, clumsiness. Now that I have acknowledged the problem, I am determined to fix it. Aside from ditching social media (which I will do), what advice could you give me to restore my mental health? Any brain training exercises?",social media addiction,social medium addiction recovery addicted smartphone long remember starting feel negative effect mental health forgetfulness trivial mistake clumsiness acknowledged problem determined fix aside ditching advice could give restore brain training exercise,,
My relationships are suffering because I spend too much time on social media. How can I balance my online and offline life?,social media addiction,relationship suffering spend much time social medium balance online offline life,,
Spending too much time on social media makes me feel like I'm missing out on precious moments with my toddler. What can I do?,social media addiction,spending much time social medium make feel like missing precious moment toddler,,
"I notice my grandkids are always on their phones at family gatherings, and it makes me feel disconnected from them. How can I bridge this gap?",social media addiction,notice grandkids always phone family gathering make feel disconnected bridge gap,,
"I spend way too much time scrolling on social media, especially after work. I feel exhausted, but it feels like a mindless way to unwind. What can I do differently?",social media addiction,spend way much time scrolling social medium especially work feel exhausted like mindless unwind differently,,
"I feel like I'm missing out on important events and updates when I'm not on social media, but it's making me feel anxious and overwhelmed. How can I find a balance?",social media addiction,feel like missing important event update social medium making anxious overwhelmed find balance,,
I'm scared of missing out on news or updates from my friends if I cut back on social media. What should I do?,social media addiction,scared missing news update friend cut back social medium,,
"I know I should stop spending so much time on reels, but it's like an addiction.  The short bursts of entertainment feel good in the moment, but then I crash and feel even worse.",social media addiction,know stop spending much time reel like addiction short burst entertainment feel good moment crash even worse,,
"A person experiences a loss of interest in activities they used to enjoy, preferring to spend most of their time on social media or gaming platforms.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience loss interest activity used enjoy preferring spend time social medium gaming platform answer,,
Difficulty focusing on important tasks like mission planning due to the constant temptation to check social media.,social media addiction,difficulty focusing important task like mission planning due constant temptation check social medium,,
I compare myself to others on social media and it brings me down. How can I develop a healthier self-image?,social media addiction,compare others social medium brings develop healthier self image,,
The pressure to constantly create engaging content and maintain a high follower count is causing me burnout and anxiety.  Social media feels like a never-ending performance.  How can I establish healthy boundaries with social media and prioritize my mental well-being?,social media addiction,pressure constantly create engaging content maintain high follower count causing burnout anxiety social medium feel like never ending performance establish healthy boundary prioritize mental well,,
I only use social media for a limited time each day and avoid negativity. Is this considered social media addiction?\n\nAnswer:,social media addiction,use social medium limited time day avoid negativity considered addiction nanswer,,
"Yes, I constantly feel the need to update my status and share details about my life on social media.",social media addiction,yes constantly feel need update status share detail life social medium,,
I spend so much time scrolling through TikTok and YouTube that I'm finding it hard to focus on my schoolwork and other important tasks.,social media addiction,spend much time scrolling tiktok youtube finding hard focus schoolwork important task,,
"I find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media for hours, and I want to break this habit. What steps should I take to regain control?",social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium hour want break habit step take regain control,,
"Yes, I often sacrifice sleep or rest time to spend more time on social media.",social media addiction,yes often sacrifice sleep rest time spend social medium,,
Feeling like you're missing out on life because of social media addiction.,social media addiction,feeling like missing life social medium addiction,,
"The increasing trend of cosmetic enhancements driven by Instagram culture raises concerns about the long-term effects on self-image and physical health. Will we look back on these decisions with regret, considering the potential risks and consequences of these procedures?",social media addiction,increasing trend cosmetic enhancement driven instagram culture raise concern long term effect self image physical health look back decision regret considering potential risk consequence procedure,,
I find myself spending countless hours on social media every day and feel like I can't control it. What should I do?,social media addiction,find spending countless hour social medium every day feel like control,,
I've noticed that my grades have started to suffer because I'm spending more time scrolling through social media than I am on my schoolwork.,social media addiction,noticed grade started suffer spending time scrolling social medium schoolwork,,
I'm struggling with my social media use. It's taking up too much of my time and I feel like it's affecting my mental health. How can I cut back and regain control of my life?,social media addiction,struggling social medium use taking much time feel like affecting mental health cut back regain control life,,
"A person's relationships suffer as they prioritize online interactions over face-to-face interactions with friends and family, leading to feelings of loneliness and isolation.

Answer:",social media addiction,person relationship suffer prioritize online interaction face friend family leading feeling loneliness isolation answer,,
I feel like I need to constantly document my life on social media to feel validated.,social media addiction,feel like need constantly document life social medium validated,,
"I feel like I'm missing out when I'm not on social media, but I know it's taking a toll on my mental health. How can I find a balance?",social media addiction,feel like missing social medium know taking toll mental health find balance,,
"I find myself comparing my life to others' highlight reels on social media, and it's making me feel inadequate. How can I stop comparing and focus on my own journey?",social media addiction,find comparing life others highlight reel social medium making feel inadequate stop focus journey,,
"Yes, my excessive social media use has caused negative consequences in both my personal and professional life.",social media addiction,yes excessive social medium use caused negative consequence personal professional life,,
"I feel a constant pressure to post and share content on social media, and I've started to neglect my real-world friendships and hobbies as a result.",social media addiction,feel constant pressure post share content social medium started neglect real world friendship hobby result,,
Comparing yourself to other soldiers on social media who seem to be racking up awards and promotions.,social media addiction,comparing soldier social medium seem racking award promotion,,
"I'm feeling pressured to maintain a perfect image on social media, and it's taking a toll on my mental health.",social media addiction,feeling pressured maintain perfect image social medium taking toll mental health,,
"As a psych attending, I'm struggling with residents' time management issues. Despite discussing efficiency improvements, they're often on their phones or computers, engaging in non-work activities like social media. How can I address this effectively?",social media addiction,psych attending struggling resident time management issue despite discussing efficiency improvement often phone computer engaging non work activity like social medium address effectively,,
"I see all these amazing dance routines and challenges on reels. Now I feel this pressure to create my own perfect video, but I'm nowhere near that skilled.  The fear of failing or looking silly keeps me from even trying, which makes me feel even worse.",social media addiction,see amazing dance routine challenge reel feel pressure create perfect video nowhere near skilled fear failing looking silly keep even trying make worse,,
I just don't know what to do. My son is failing his classes because he spends all his free time watching TikTok videos and scrolling Instagram instead of studying.,social media addiction,know son failing class spends free time watching tiktok video scrolling instagram instead studying,,
"Whenever my parents try to limit my screen time or take away my phone, I get so angry and argumentative. I think I might have an addiction problem.",social media addiction,whenever parent try limit screen time take away phone get angry argumentative think might addiction problem,,
"Whenever I try to cut back on social media, even for a little while, I get these intense feelings of anxiety and irritability. I think I might have a serious addiction problem.",social media addiction,whenever try cut back social medium even little get intense feeling anxiety irritability think might serious addiction problem,,
"Sometimes I get frustrated with online arguments or negativity, which can worsen my mood.",social media addiction,sometimes get frustrated online argument negativity worsen mood,,
"They seem constantly on and connected, even during study sessions or group work.",social media addiction,seem constantly connected even study session group work,,
"“Social media is not media. It’s a conversation.”
",social media addiction,social medium conversation,,
Feeling overwhelmed by the pressure to constantly be productive. Social media reinforces the hustle culture mentality. What can I help?,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed pressure constantly productive social medium reinforces hustle culture mentality help,,
 I think I need to take a step back from YouTube for a while. The constant pressure and negativity are taking a toll on me. But I'm scared of what will happen to my channel if I take a break. Will my audience forget about me? Will I lose everything I've built?,social media addiction,think need take step back youtube constant pressure negativity taking toll scared happen channel break audience forget lose everything built,,
"Quite often, my job performance or productivity suffers because of the Internet.",social media addiction,quite often job performance productivity suffers internet,,
Can social media support groups be helpful in overcoming social media addiction?,social media addiction,social medium support group helpful overcoming addiction,,
I do not want to sleep; because I want to the first responder for everything happening on the social media,social media addiction,want sleep first responder everything happening social medium,,
"I'm sure we're all addicted to some degree, and I'm sure I'm not as bad as some but I find the whole thing so frustrating! If I let myself I can easily loose hours a day just doom scrolling and I hate it. I only have FB, IG and YT but even those three are enough to suck my time.",social media addiction,sure addicted degree bad find whole thing frustrating let easily loose hour day doom scrolling hate fb ig yt even three enough suck time,,
Even the rhythm of my heartbeat follows the responses I receive on my social media,social media addiction,even rhythm heartbeat follows response receive social medium,,
I compare my life to the seemingly perfect lives portrayed on social media and feel inadequate.  Can a support group help me challenge these negative thoughts?,social media addiction,compare life seemingly perfect portrayed social medium feel inadequate support group help challenge negative thought,,
Social media notifications seem to distract me from focusing on important tasks or enjoying hobbies.,social media addiction,social medium notification seem distract focusing important task enjoying hobby,,
"I'm worried they might be struggling with social media addiction, impacting their studies.",social media addiction,worried might struggling social medium addiction impacting study,,
I get super jealous seeing my friends' posts about hangouts I wasn't invited to. How can I deal with these feelings?,social media addiction,get super jealous seeing friend post hangout invited deal feeling,,
an individual's excessive use of social media has led to a decline in face-to-face interactions with friends and family. Discuss the challenges of maintaining meaningful relationships in the digital age.,social media addiction,individual excessive use social medium led decline face interaction friend family discus challenge maintaining meaningful relationship digital age,,
"I spend way too much time on social media lately, especially looking at lesbian content creators. It feels good at first, but then I just feel lonely and inadequate. What can I do differently?",social media addiction,spend way much time social medium lately especially looking lesbian content creator feel good first lonely inadequate differently,,
"Yes, my grades or school work often suffer because of the amount of time I spend online.",social media addiction,yes grade school work often suffer amount time spend online,,
Feeling burnt out and like I'm failing as a grad student. Social media is full of people seemingly succeeding. How can I deal with these feelings?,social media addiction,feeling burnt like failing grad student social medium full people seemingly succeeding deal,,
I've been feeling disconnected from reality because of my constant scrolling on social media.,social media addiction,feeling disconnected reality constant scrolling social medium,,
"“Social media is the ultimate equalizer. It gives a voice and a platform to anyone willing to engage.”
",social media addiction,social medium ultimate equalizer give voice platform anyone willing engage,,
"I can't seem to put my phone down, even during meals or conversations. How can I manage my social media use better?",social media addiction,seem put phone even meal conversation manage social medium use better,,
"I keep having nightmares and flashbacks of a traumatic event, and it's affecting my daily life.",social media addiction,keep nightmare flashback traumatic event affecting daily life,,
I often feel anxious and stressed when I see negative news or comments on social media. How can I protect my mental health while staying informed?,social media addiction,often feel anxious stressed see negative news comment social medium protect mental health staying informed,,
"I often feel pressured to portray a perfect life on social media, even when things aren't going well in reality. How can I be more authentic without fearing judgment?",social media addiction,often feel pressured portray perfect life social medium even thing going well reality authentic without fearing judgment,,
The pressure to portray a perfect med student life online seems stressful.,social media addiction,pressure portray perfect med student life online seems stressful,,
"I often feel lonely and disconnected from others, even though I spend a lot of time interacting with people on social media.",social media addiction,often feel lonely disconnected others even though spend lot time interacting people social medium,,
"I've been struggling with social media addiction for a long time, spending up to 10 hours daily. Even after a 30-day detox, I can't seem to control myself.",social media addiction,struggling social medium addiction long time spending hour daily even day detox seem control,,
You're concerned about the potential privacy risks associated with social media.,social media addiction,concerned potential privacy risk associated social medium,,
I spend so much time on social media that I'm starting to neglect my hobbies and interests that used to be important to me. I feel like I'm losing touch with that part of myself.,social media addiction,spend much time social medium starting neglect hobby interest used important feel like losing touch part,,
Feeling pressure to maintain a perfect online image as a priest.,social media addiction,feeling pressure maintain perfect online image priest,,
"Good social media showing the good avatar, now I see real world is like a crab teaching children to walk straight, social media is better any time.",social media addiction,good social medium showing avatar see real world like crab teaching child walk straight better time,,
 an individual's self-worth is heavily influenced by the feedback and engagement they receive on social media. seeking validation through online interactions.,social media addiction,individual self worth heavily influenced feedback engagement receive social medium seeking validation online interaction,,
"Feeling isolated and disconnected from classmates. Social media feels fake, but it's the only way I connect with people sometimes. What are some alternatives?",social media addiction,feeling isolated disconnected classmate social medium feel fake way connect people sometimes alternative,,
"I find myself constantly comparing my life to the highlight reels of others on social media, and it's making me feel inadequate. How can I stop this unhealthy habit?",social media addiction,find constantly comparing life highlight reel others social medium making feel inadequate stop unhealthy habit,,
"I have a mountain of work to do, but every time I sit down to focus, I find myself mindlessly scrolling through reels for just a quick break.  Those quick breaks turn into hours, and my deadlines keep looming closer.",social media addiction,mountain work every time sit focus find mindlessly scrolling reel quick break turn hour deadline keep looming closer,,
" iam a college student participates in online challenges that involve self-harm or dangerous activities, such as the choking game or Tide Pod challenge, to gain views and likes on social media.",social media addiction,iam college student participates online challenge involve self harm dangerous activity choking game tide pod gain view like social medium,,
"Porn isn’t as bad, as the act of switching from one video to another in the interval of a few minutes, or even seconds. Everything that gives sharp dopamine releases in such short intervals (changing from one porn video to another, reels on insta, memes, tiktoks) is detrimental to focus in general, because the mind creates a dependency on such neurological sparks of pleasure.",social media addiction,porn bad act switching one video another interval minute even second everything give sharp dopamine release short changing reel insta meme tiktoks detrimental focus general mind creates dependency neurological spark pleasure,,
"I have hundreds of online friends, but I still feel like I have nobody to talk to about my problems.",social media addiction,hundred online friend still feel like nobody talk problem,,
I get into heated arguments with friends and family over things I see on social media.  Is social media making these relationships more difficult?,social media addiction,get heated argument friend family thing see social medium making relationship difficult,,
"These things are just soul-sucking, and I'm searching for a way out of that non-stop scrolling shithole. If anyone knows how to delete at least YouTube shorts, I will be grateful. I can always delete Insta, but I need YouTube, and I'm addicted. Send help.",social media addiction,thing soul sucking searching way non stop scrolling shithole anyone know delete least youtube short grateful always insta need addicted send help,,
My social media habits are affecting my sleep. How can I prevent this?,social media addiction,social medium habit affecting sleep prevent,,
"Yes, I feel a strong sense of withdrawal and discomfort when I can't access social media.",social media addiction,yes feel strong sense withdrawal discomfort access social medium,,
"I took a break from Instagram to focus on mental health, and now I've lost a significant number of followers.  It's discouraging and makes me question whether I even want to be an influencer anymore.  How can I rebuild my online presence after a hiatus and reconnect with my audience?",social media addiction,took break instagram focus mental health lost significant number follower discouraging make question whether even want influencer anymore rebuild online presence hiatus reconnect audience,,
"I feel like I'm constantly competing for attention and validation on social media, and it's draining. How can I break free from this cycle?",social media addiction,feel like constantly competing attention validation social medium draining break free cycle,,
I feel a pressure to constantly curate a perfect online image on social media.,social media addiction,feel pressure constantly curate perfect online image social medium,,
"My social media usage has become a compulsive behavior, and I'm struggling to break free from it. What should I do?",social media addiction,social medium usage become compulsive behavior struggling break free,,
I feel overwhelmed by the constant pressure to maintain a certain image on social media. How can I be more authentic and true to myself online?,social media addiction,feel overwhelmed constant pressure maintain certain image social medium authentic true online,,
I find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media during my planning period. How can I be more productive during my break time?,social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium planning period productive break time,,
" I can't seem to tear myself away from reels.  It starts with just checking a few funny videos, but then hours have flown by.  I miss deadlines, neglect chores, and even forget to eat because I'm so sucked into the endless loop.",social media addiction,seem tear away reel start checking funny video hour flown miss deadline neglect chore even forget eat sucked endless loop,,
My teenager gets angry and upset if I try to limit their social media use.  Is this a typical reaction of someone with social media addiction?,social media addiction,teenager get angry upset try limit social medium use typical reaction someone addiction,,
" I myself a  parentwho constantly worries about not being present for their child's milestones or events, fearing i'll miss out on important moments in their child's life.",social media addiction,parentwho constantly worry present child milestone event fearing miss important moment life,,
I've noticed I'm losing sleep because I stay up late scrolling through social media feeds.,social media addiction,noticed losing sleep stay late scrolling social medium feed,,
Social media use seems to be impacting their mood or causing anxiety.,social media addiction,social medium use seems impacting mood causing anxiety,,
"I use social media to escape from boredom or loneliness, but it often makes me feel worse.  Is this a healthy coping mechanism?",social media addiction,use social medium escape boredom loneliness often make feel worse healthy coping mechanism,,
"I find myself constantly checking my social media feeds, even when I'm supposed to be focusing on important tasks like schoolwork or chores.",social media addiction,find constantly checking social medium feed even supposed focusing important task like schoolwork chore,,
my motto at work is Shift 7am-6pm doesn't really work. Just add social media to the work.,social media addiction,motto work shift pm really add social medium,,
"I am a parent who  spends excessive amounts of money on in-app purchases or online shopping, feeling guilty afterward for overspending and financial irresponsibility.",social media addiction,parent spends excessive amount money app purchase online shopping feeling guilty afterward overspending financial irresponsibility,,
"Certain products designed for children, such as McDonald's Happy Meals, are marketed to be addictive, much like screen time. Should regulations similar to those for screen time be imposed on such products?",social media addiction,certain product designed child mcdonald happy meal marketed addictive much like screen time regulation similar imposed,,
I'm worried about the impact of social media addiction on my relationships with loved ones.  What can I do?,social media addiction,worried impact social medium addiction relationship loved one,,
" my brother who is 12 years old who spends hours each day immersed in online gaming with his friends , where they create and control virtual characters and live out adventurous and exciting lives.",social media addiction,brother year old spends hour day immersed online gaming friend create control virtual character live adventurous exciting life,,
"I am a female professional ,Seeing everyone's seemingly perfect vacations and outings on social media makes me feel like I'm missing out (FOMO).  Now I constantly feel stressed and anxious about not spending enough time with my family.  How can I manage FOMO and create a positive social media experience that reflects my own reality?",social media addiction,female professional seeing everyone seemingly perfect vacation outing social medium make feel like missing fomo constantly stressed anxious spending enough time family manage create positive experience reflects reality,,
"I feel like I'm constantly bombarded with negativity and drama on social media, and it's affecting my mental health. How can I create a more positive online experience for myself?",social media addiction,feel like constantly bombarded negativity drama social medium affecting mental health create positive online experience,,
"I feel like I need to constantly check social media for updates, even if it disrupts my sleep.  Is this a sign of ADHD and social media addiction?",social media addiction,feel like need constantly check social medium update even disrupts sleep sign adhd addiction,,
"I feel pressure to maintain a certain image on social media, and it's exhausting trying to keep up appearances.",social media addiction,feel pressure maintain certain image social medium exhausting trying keep appearance,,
" I am a parent spends hours each day browsing parenting forums and groups, seeking advice and guidance from strangers on topics related to child-rearing.",social media addiction,parent spends hour day browsing parenting forum group seeking advice guidance stranger topic related child rearing,,
I'm struggling with being constantly bombarded by Instagram content that feels shallow and wasteful. It's frustrating to see young teens engaging in behaviors that seem superficial and unsustainable.,social media addiction,struggling constantly bombarded instagram content feel shallow wasteful frustrating see young teen engaging behavior seem superficial unsustainable,,
I feel pressure to maintain a certain online image that doesn't reflect my real life.,social media addiction,feel pressure maintain certain online image reflect real life,,
"A person spends excessive amounts of money on social media-related purchases, such as buying virtual currency or upgrading their profile on gaming platforms.

Answer:",social media addiction,person spends excessive amount money social medium related purchase buying virtual currency upgrading profile gaming platform answer,,
I've noticed I'm comparing my life to others' highlight reels on social media and it's making me feel inadequate.,social media addiction,noticed comparing life others highlight reel social medium making feel inadequate,,
I feel like I'm missing out if I'm not on social media.,social media addiction,feel like missing social medium,,
Sometimes I worry about the privacy of my information online. How can I ensure I'm using social media safely?,social media addiction,sometimes worry privacy information online ensure using social medium safely,,
"A person feels a constant need to portray a perfect image of their life on social media, carefully curating their posts and hiding any signs of struggle or imperfection.

Answer:",social media addiction,person feel constant need portray perfect image life social medium carefully curating post hiding sign struggle imperfection answer,,
"I spend hours scrolling through social media, but it never fills the void of loneliness I feel inside.",social media addiction,spend hour scrolling social medium never fill void loneliness feel inside,,
I'm worried about relapsing into social media addiction after a period of recovery.  What can I do?,social media addiction,worried relapsing social medium addiction period recovery,,
"“Social media is like a cocktail party. You join in, you share, you connect.”
",social media addiction,social medium like cocktail party join share connect,,
"I'm spending more time on social media than I intended, and it's affecting my relationships and productivity. How can I regain control?",social media addiction,spending time social medium intended affecting relationship productivity regain control,,
I've noticed I'm neglecting my responsibilities because I'm too absorbed in social media.,social media addiction,noticed neglecting responsibility absorbed social medium,,
i run small business and heavily relies on social media marketing. my husband feels neglected as her focus seems to be constantly on the business's online presence. How can i manage my business while prioritizing my relationship,social media addiction,run small business heavily relies social medium marketing husband feel neglected focus seems constantly online presence manage prioritizing relationship,,
Scrolling through social media all day makes me feel like everyone else has a perfect girlfriend and a thriving social life. It's discouraging. What can I help?,social media addiction,scrolling social medium day make feel like everyone else perfect girlfriend thriving life discouraging help,,
"I find myself spending hours mindlessly scrolling through social media feeds, and it's affecting my productivity and well-being. How can I break this habit?",social media addiction,find spending hour mindlessly scrolling social medium feed affecting productivity well break habit,,
"Hi everyone! I'm currently on vacation from my undergraduate studies, but I'm struggling with my smartphone and internet addiction, which seems to peak during breaks. Rather than relaxing after a busy semester, I find myself addicted to anime, Netflix, Instagram, and other social media platforms. I had planned to be productive during this vacation, but I've ended up wasting a lot of time online. I really want to break free from this addiction, as I've managed to do so in the past. Any suggestions or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!",social media addiction,hi everyone currently vacation undergraduate study struggling smartphone internet addiction seems peak break rather relaxing busy semester find addicted anime netflix instagram social medium platform planned productive ended wasting lot time online really want free managed past suggestion advice would greatly appreciated thank,,
"I find myself mindlessly scrolling through social media for hours, even when I know I should be using that time for more productive or meaningful activities.",social media addiction,find mindlessly scrolling social medium hour even know using time productive meaningful activity,,
"iam 51,male, I'm starting to worry about all the information I've shared online over the years.  Is it safe?  What if it comes back to haunt me later?  This fear is making me hesitant to share anything personal anymore, which feels ironic considering the nature of social media",social media addiction,iam male starting worry information shared online year safe come back haunt later fear making hesitant share anything personal anymore feel ironic considering nature social medium,,
 My apartment is becoming overrun with clutter from all this online shopping. Most of the stuff I buy just sits around unused. The worst part is the debt I'm accumulating. I'm worried about how I'm going to manage my finances if this keeps up.,social media addiction,apartment becoming overrun clutter online shopping stuff buy sits around unused worst part debt accumulating worried going manage finance keep,,
I often feel like I'm worthless and that life isn't worth living.,social media addiction,often feel like worthless life worth living,,
I don’t if they portrayed him like that or his real life had pierces through reel life but he looks old and like someone who is fighting addiction.,social media addiction,portrayed like real life pierce reel look old someone fighting addiction,,
 I'm worried about the accuracy of the information I see on reels.  How can I tell what's real and what's fake?  I don't want to be spreading misinformation.,social media addiction,worried accuracy information see reel tell real fake want spreading misinformation,,
I've noticed that my social media usage is negatively impacting my productivity and focus. How can I regain control?,social media addiction,noticed social medium usage negatively impacting productivity focus regain control,,
I'm losing sleep because I stay up late on social media.,social media addiction,losing sleep stay late social medium,,
I need to be more present in real-life moments and less glued to my screen. How can I achieve this?,social media addiction,need present real life moment le glued screen achieve,,
"I think I’m addicted to social media. I spend hours scrolling, and it’s affecting my life. ",social media addiction,think addicted social medium spend hour scrolling affecting life,,
I'm puzzled by a video where a teen starts happy but becomes upset when her mom intervenes about using Instagram. It seems to suggest a deeper issue with social media dependence and parental control.,social media addiction,puzzled video teen start happy becomes upset mom intervenes using instagram seems suggest deeper issue social medium dependence parental control,,
"I'm worried I'm addicted to social media, but it's the only place I feel connected to the lesbian community. What are some alternatives?",social media addiction,worried addicted social medium place feel connected lesbian community alternative,,
Checking Twitter every hour feels like a compulsion. How can I break this cycle of addiction?,social media addiction,checking twitter every hour feel like compulsion break cycle addiction,,
"Yes, I frequently check my email before doing anything else that I need to do.",social media addiction,yes frequently check email anything else need,,
"I'm addicted to Instagram, constantly checking out girls' pictures and profiles. It's impacting my relationships and mental health. Please help me.",social media addiction,addicted instagram constantly checking girl picture profile impacting relationship mental health please help,,
"My boyfriend's past infidelity has left me feeling insecure, and his continued behavior of frequently looking up other women on Instagram is adding to my distress. I'm unsure whether I should accept this as harmless behavior or if it's a sign of deeper issues in our relationship.",social media addiction,boyfriend past infidelity left feeling insecure continued behavior frequently looking woman instagram adding distress unsure whether accept harmless sign deeper issue relationship,,
I feel like I'm missing out on real-life experiences because I'm constantly glued to my phone on social media. How can I be more present?,social media addiction,feel like missing real life experience constantly glued phone social medium present,,
"I feel like I'm wasting too much time on social media, and it's affecting my productivity and relationships. How can I regain control over my digital habits?",social media addiction,feel like wasting much time social medium affecting productivity relationship regain control digital habit,,
I constantly compare myself to others on social media and feel inadequate.,social media addiction,constantly compare others social medium feel inadequate,,
I feel like my friends and family don't understand my struggle with social media addiction.  Can a support group help with that?,social media addiction,feel like friend family understand struggle social medium addiction support group help,,
I'm worried my daughter is neglecting her own health and hygiene because she's spending all her free time mindlessly scrolling through TikTok videos.,social media addiction,worried daughter neglecting health hygiene spending free time mindlessly scrolling tiktok video,,
They've mentioned feeling discouraged after comparing themselves to others online.,social media addiction,mentioned feeling discouraged comparing others online,,
I feel pressured to constantly seek validation and approval from others on social media.,social media addiction,feel pressured constantly seek validation approval others social medium,,
I'll often catch myself hiding in the bathroom or sneaking extra screen time just so I can post on social media without my parents knowing.,social media addiction,often catch hiding bathroom sneaking extra screen time post social medium without parent knowing,,
"While I enjoy some of the humor and creativity on reels, a part of me craves something more authentic.  I want to connect with people on a deeper level, beyond the perfectly curated snippets of life displayed in those videos.",social media addiction,enjoy humor creativity reel part craves something authentic want connect people deeper level beyond perfectly curated snippet life displayed video,,
"Yes, I become defensive or secretive when anyone asks me what I do online.",social media addiction,yes become defensive secretive anyone asks online,,
"Spending so much time on social media feels like a waste of time, but I don't know how to stop. There are so many great lesbian creators I follow!",social media addiction,spending much time social medium feel like waste know stop many great lesbian creator follow,,
"social media has both positive and negative aspects.  I want to stay connected and informed, but I also don't want to get sucked into the negativity or comparison trap.  Can you help me find a healthy balance and manage my social media use in a way that benefits my well-being?",social media addiction,social medium positive negative aspect want stay connected informed also get sucked negativity comparison trap help find healthy balance manage use way benefit well,,
"Whenever I try to have a conversation with my family, I find myself constantly glancing at my phone and getting distracted by social media notifications. I hate that I can't be present.",social media addiction,whenever try conversation family find constantly glancing phone getting distracted social medium notification hate present,,
I'm a teenager and feel immense pressure to be popular and get likes on social media.  Is this normal for my age group?,social media addiction,teenager feel immense pressure popular get like social medium normal age group,,
"I've tried deleting my social media accounts before, but I always end up reactivating them after a few days because I feel so disconnected and left out.",social media addiction,tried deleting social medium account always end reactivating day feel disconnected left,,
I've been experiencing headaches and eye strain from staring at screens for too long while using social media.,social media addiction,experiencing headache eye strain staring screen long using social medium,,
I'm worried about the privacy of my data on social media. How can I protect myself?,social media addiction,worried privacy data social medium protect,,
" I hate being alive when I feel so dead inside, and this feeling is much higher if I am asked to stay away from Social Media",social media addiction,hate alive feel dead inside feeling much higher asked stay away social medium,,
" my son who is a teenager constantly checks his social media feeds to see what their friends are doing, fearing they'll miss out on events or experiences if they're not constantly connected.",social media addiction,son teenager constantly check social medium feed see friend fearing miss event experience connected,,
I feel like I'm constantly seeking validation through the number of likes and followers I have on social media.,social media addiction,feel like constantly seeking validation number follower social medium,,
"Iam 37,female, i used to love creating fashion content on Instagram.  But now it feels like the trends change so quickly that I can't keep up.  I'm constantly worried about staying relevant and getting enough engagement. This pressure to be trending is taking the fun out of expressing myself creatively.",social media addiction,iam female used love creating fashion content instagram feel like trend change quickly keep constantly worried staying relevant getting enough engagement pressure trending taking fun expressing creatively,,
"A person experiences a decline in their physical appearance and hygiene due to spending excessive time on social media or gaming. They neglect grooming and personal care tasks.

Answer:",social media addiction,person experience decline physical appearance hygiene due spending excessive time social medium gaming neglect grooming personal care task answer,,
"I've noticed I spend hours watching Instagram reels, but now the app limits me to three before I have to engage with other content. While it's helping my addiction, it's also frustrating. Anyone else experiencing this?",social media addiction,noticed spend hour watching instagram reel app limit three engage content helping addiction also frustrating anyone else experiencing,,
"My girlfriend's obsession with Instagram and portraying the perfect life is taking a toll on our relationship. Even our camping trips have turned into photo sessions, making it difficult for me to enjoy the experience. I'm frustrated and unsure of how to address this issue without resorting to extreme measures.",social media addiction,girlfriend obsession instagram portraying perfect life taking toll relationship even camping trip turned photo session making difficult enjoy experience frustrated unsure address issue without resorting extreme measure,,
I've noticed I'm spending more time on social media than with my friends and family.,social media addiction,noticed spending time social medium friend family,,
I'm considering a digital detox to break my social media addiction.  What does this involve?,social media addiction,considering digital detox break social medium addiction involve,,
I get frustrated and irritable when I can't access social media.,social media addiction,get frustrated irritable access social medium,,
I'm a parent worried that my child is addicted to social media.  Are there warning signs to look out for?,social media addiction,parent worried child addicted social medium warning sign look,,
"I'm finding it difficult to disconnect from social media, even when it's negatively impacting my mental health. How can I break free from this cycle?",social media addiction,finding difficult disconnect social medium even negatively impacting mental health break free cycle,,
My social media usage has escalated to the point where it's affecting my sleep patterns. What steps should I take to improve this?,social media addiction,social medium usage escalated point affecting sleep pattern step take improve,,
"The constant barrage of unrealistic fitness models on Instagram is negatively affecting my body image.  I feel anxious about not being good enough, leading to depression about my workouts.  How can I cultivate a healthy body image and find inspiration online that motivates rather than discourages me?",social media addiction,constant barrage unrealistic fitness model instagram negatively affecting body image feel anxious good enough leading depression workout cultivate healthy find inspiration online motivates rather discourages,,
"The prevalence of acronyms in online communication can be frustrating and exclusionary. It's important to ensure clarity and accessibility in our language, especially when communicating with diverse audiences.",social media addiction,prevalence acronym online communication frustrating exclusionary important ensure clarity accessibility language especially communicating diverse audience,,
"Two weeks after quitting a social media app, I've noticed significant improvements in my mental well-being. I no longer feel the pressure to compare myself to others or endure depressing content on my feed, allowing me to focus more on personal growth",social media addiction,two week quitting social medium app noticed significant improvement mental well longer feel pressure compare others endure depressing content feed allowing focus personal growth,,
"Sometimes I struggle to navigate the technical aspects of social media, which can be frustrating.",social media addiction,sometimes struggle navigate technical aspect social medium frustrating,,
"I feel left out if I don't participate in the latest viral challenge on social media, even if I find it risky or embarrassing.  Is this a healthy way to connect with others?",social media addiction,feel left participate latest viral challenge social medium even find risky embarrassing healthy way connect others,,
"It's important for me to stay informed, but sometimes the constant news cycle on social media can be overwhelming.",social media addiction,important stay informed sometimes constant news cycle social medium overwhelming,,
 someone turns to social media as a means of escaping real-life challenges or stressors. there are potential adverse consequences of using social media as a coping mechanism.,social media addiction,someone turn social medium mean escaping real life challenge stressor potential adverse consequence using coping mechanism,,
I'm constantly comparing myself to others on social media and it's affecting my self-esteem. How can I break free from this cycle?,social media addiction,constantly comparing others social medium affecting self esteem break free cycle,,
" Date nights used to be special. Now, my partner seems more interested in scrolling through their phone than spending quality time with me. Dinner conversations are interrupted by notifications, and I feel like I'm competing with their phone for attention. It's making me feel lonely and disconnected.",social media addiction,date night used special partner seems interested scrolling phone spending quality time dinner conversation interrupted notification feel like competing attention making lonely disconnected,,
I've been feeling overwhelmed by the constant notifications on my phone from social media apps.,social media addiction,feeling overwhelmed constant notification phone social medium apps,,
"I've been struggling with quality issues on Instagram, despite trying various solutions. My photos appear blurry on certain devices, while others show them perfectly. I'm considering extreme measures like buying an old iPhone just for posting. Any advice on how to solve this?",social media addiction,struggling quality issue instagram despite trying various solution photo appear blurry certain device others show perfectly considering extreme measure like buying old iphone posting advice solve,,
"I spend hours crafting the perfect posts on social media, but I still feel empty and unfulfilled afterward.",social media addiction,spend hour crafting perfect post social medium still feel empty unfulfilled afterward,,
I've noticed my attention span has decreased because I'm constantly switching between social media apps.,social media addiction,noticed attention span decreased constantly switching social medium apps,,
I feel like I'm missing out on real-life experiences because I spend so much time on social media. Is this a common worry?,social media addiction,feel like missing real life experience spend much time social medium common worry,,
Feeling concerned about the spread of misinformation related to faith and religion online.,social media addiction,feeling concerned spread misinformation related faith religion online,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I even deserve to be happy, filling me with self-doubt and guilt. It's like I'm punishing myself for something I can't control.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether even deserve happy filling self doubt guilt like punishing something control,,
"I adopted a rescue dog and shared pictures online. However, I am facing constant criticism from self-proclaimed dog experts who nitpick everything from the dog's diet to training methods. The negativity makes me feel inadequate as a pet parent.",cyberbullying,adopted rescue dog shared picture online however facing constant criticism self proclaimed expert nitpick everything diet training method negativity make feel inadequate pet parent,,
I express frustration and anger over being cyberbullied by strangers online. I don't know how to stop the harassment. What steps would you recommend I take?,cyberbullying,express frustration anger cyberbullied stranger online know stop harassment step would recommend take,,
" I am 27, male,I am  on vacation and i posts a picture of a local landmark. Iam getting offensive comments mocking my cultural insensitivity or criticizing my tourist behavior, making me feel unwelcome.",cyberbullying,male vacation post picture local landmark iam getting offensive comment mocking cultural insensitivity criticizing tourist behavior making feel unwelcome,,
"I'm feeling embarrassed because I'm being cyberbullied for expressing my opinions online. People are attacking me for what I believe in, and it's making me doubt myself. How would you advise me to handle this criticism?",cyberbullying,feeling embarrassed cyberbullied expressing opinion online people attacking believe making doubt would advise handle criticism,,
I'm 19 and I've been receiving hateful comments on my social media posts. It's really affecting my mental health.,cyberbullying,receiving hateful comment social medium post really affecting mental health,,
"David, a 22-year-old barista, here. I recently came out as gay to my friends and coworkers. Now, a group of customers keeps leaving negative reviews about the coffee shop on social media, specifically targeting me with homophobic slurs and accusing me of unprofessional behavior. It's creating a hostile work environment and making me feel unwelcome at my job. How can I handle cyberbullying that discriminates against sexual orientation in a customer service setting?",cyberbullying,david year old barista recently came gay friend coworkers group customer keep leaving negative review coffee shop social medium specifically targeting homophobic slur accusing unprofessional behavior creating hostile work environment making feel unwelcome job handle cyberbullying discriminates sexual orientation service setting,,
"I'm Ethan, a 40-year-old restaurant owner. A food blogger with a large following posted a negative review of my restaurant online, filled with exaggerated complaints and harsh criticism. Now, reservations are down, and customers keep mentioning the review. It's damaging my business and making me question the quality of my food. How can I respond to cyberbullying that targets a small business owner?",cyberbullying,ethan year old restaurant owner food blogger large following posted negative review online filled exaggerated complaint harsh criticism reservation customer keep mentioning damaging business making question quality respond cyberbullying target small,,
"Despite my efforts to brush off the hurtful comments, they continue to chip away at my self-esteem, leaving me feeling like I'm not good enough. It's like I'm constantly measuring myself against an impossible standard.",cyberbullying,despite effort brush hurtful comment continue chip away self esteem leaving feeling like good enough constantly measuring impossible standard,,
My grandson seems embarrassed to talk about the cyberbullying he's experiencing. How can I make him feel more comfortable opening up?,cyberbullying,grandson seems embarrassed talk cyberbullying experiencing make feel comfortable opening,,
"I've been receiving anonymous emails that belittle my work and suggest I quit my job. How should I handle these emails, and should I inform my employer?",cyberbullying,receiving anonymous email belittle work suggest quit job handle inform employer,,
"I've been targeted with a barrage of offensive memes and images with my face superimposed on them, shared across social media platforms. It's like my image is being mocked, and it's causing me emotional distress.

",cyberbullying,targeted barrage offensive meme image face superimposed shared across social medium platform like mocked causing emotional distress,,
"I'm Daniel, a 16-year-old boy. A classmate keeps recording me in class without my permission and posting the videos online with mocking commentary. It's a huge invasion of privacy and makes me feel unsafe at school. How can I deal with cyberbullying that involves unauthorized recordings?",cyberbullying,daniel year old boy classmate keep recording class without permission posting video online mocking commentary huge invasion privacy make feel unsafe school deal cyberbullying involves unauthorized,,
"After confronting a cyberbully who targeted me online, they've escalated their harassment and threats, leaving me feeling scared and helpless. How can I protect myself from further cyberbullying and seek help from authorities?",cyberbullying,confronting cyberbully targeted online escalated harassment threat leaving feeling scared helpless protect cyberbullying seek help authority,,
"I am elder male DIY enthusiast ,Reading negative comments makes me question my skills. I see younger YouTubers with fancy equipment and perfect editing, and I compare myself to them. I wonder if the trolls are right, if my old-school DIY projects aren't good enough anymore. It destroys my confidence and makes me doubt myself.",cyberbullying,elder male diy enthusiast reading negative comment make question skill see younger youtubers fancy equipment perfect editing compare wonder troll right old school project good enough anymore destroys confidence doubt,,
"I am a politician , 60 yrs old,Since taking office, I've received a constant stream of hateful messages online and even some through traditional mail. It targets both my political views and personal life. It's disheartening and makes me question the purpose of public service. What steps can I take to manage this negativity and focus on doing my job?",cyberbullying,politician yr old since taking office received constant stream hateful message online even traditional mail target political view personal life disheartening make question purpose public service step take manage negativity focus job,,
" I posted a picture of my beloved dog online, but it attracted some cruel comments about his breed. People stereotype the breed as aggressive, even though my dog is the sweetest animal.  The negativity is upsetting and makes me feel defensive about my furry friend.",cyberbullying,posted picture beloved dog online attracted cruel comment breed people stereotype aggressive even though sweetest animal negativity upsetting make feel defensive furry friend,,
"In an online game, I've been subjected to constant harassment and discrimination based on my gender, with other players making sexist remarks and treating me differently because of it. It's like I'm being judged unfairly, and it's ruining my gaming experience.

",cyberbullying,online game subjected constant harassment discrimination based gender player making sexist remark treating differently like judged unfairly ruining gaming experience,,
My social anxiety makes it hard for me to stand up for myself online. Cyberbullies seem to pick up on this and target me more. Feeling helpless and isolated. Are there any resources available to help people with social anxiety deal with online harassment?,cyberbullying,social anxiety make hard stand online cyberbullies seem pick target feeling helpless isolated resource available help people deal harassment,,
I'm having a hard time trusting people because of the nasty rumors spreading about me online.,cyberbullying,hard time trusting people nasty rumor spreading online,,
"I'm Olivia, a 30-year-old baker and owner of a small bakery. I recently started offering online cake decorating tutorials. Unfortunately, a competitor keeps leaving negative comments on my videos, criticizing my teaching style and claiming my techniques are outdated. It's confusing potential customers and discouraging viewers from subscribing to my channel. How can I deal with cyberbullying from a competitor in the online learning space?",cyberbullying,olivia year old baker owner small bakery recently started offering online cake decorating tutorial unfortunately competitor keep leaving negative comment video criticizing teaching style claiming technique outdated confusing potential customer discouraging viewer subscribing channel deal cyberbullying learning space,,
"I'm Michael, a 22-year-old writer. I write fanfiction for a popular TV show and post it online. Recently, a group of readers who dislike my interpretation of a character have flooded my comment section with hateful messages and personal attacks. They're even harassing other fans who enjoy my writing. How can I deal with cyberbullying from fans who target my creative work?",cyberbullying,michael year old writer write fanfiction popular tv show post online recently group reader dislike interpretation character flooded comment section hateful message personal attack even harassing fan enjoy writing deal cyberbullying target creative work,,
"In an online game, I've been the target of persistent trolling and harassment from other players, who have been bombarding me with offensive comments and taunts during matches. It's like I'm being attacked, and it's ruining my gaming experience.

",cyberbullying,online game target persistent trolling harassment player bombarding offensive comment taunt match like attacked ruining gaming experience,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the spread of humiliating photos and videos of me online. It's like my privacy has been violated, and I don't know how to regain control.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied spread humiliating photo video online like privacy violated know regain control,,
The constant cyberbullying I'm experiencing is really starting to take a toll on my mental health and making me dread going online.,cyberbullying,constant cyberbullying experiencing really starting take toll mental health making dread going online,,
"I am 14, female,I used to be bullied at school, but now the harassment continues online.  Anonymous accounts spread rumors and embarrassing photos, making her life a nightmare even outside the classroom.",cyberbullying,female used bullied school harassment continues online anonymous account spread rumor embarrassing photo making life nightmare even outside classroom,,
"How can I help my grandkids understand the long-term impact of their online actions, including cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,help grandkids understand long term impact online action including cyberbullying,,
"I am a influencer, I  struggles with online negativity after posting a sponsored content campaign some followers disapprove of. They face accusations of selling out and manipulative comments designed to induce guilt and shame.",cyberbullying,influencer struggle online negativity posting sponsored content campaign follower disapprove face accusation selling manipulative comment designed induce guilt shame,,
"I recently joined an online forum for people interested in historical reenactments.  However, some members seem hostile to newcomers.  They've made fun of my lack of knowledge and criticized my interpretation of history in a condescending way. I feel unwelcome and hesitant to participate.",cyberbullying,recently joined online forum people interested historical reenactment however member seem hostile newcomer made fun lack knowledge criticized interpretation history condescending way feel unwelcome hesitant participate,,
"Sophia, a 18-year-old high school student (still appropriate for the category), here. I'm a competitive coder and participate in online coding challenges. While I enjoy the competition, a group of more experienced coders frequently belittle my code and leave discouraging comments. They make me feel like I'll never be good enough and discourage me from continuing to learn and compete. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets a new coder in online programming challenges?",cyberbullying,sophia year old high school student still appropriate category competitive coder participate online coding challenge enjoy competition group experienced frequently belittle code leave discouraging comment make feel like never good enough discourage continuing learn compete deal cyberbullying target new programming,,
"I've been the target of anonymous online messages filled with derogatory comments and threats, which are making me feel unsafe. It's like I'm being hunted online, and I'm scared for my well-being.

",cyberbullying,target anonymous online message filled derogatory comment threat making feel unsafe like hunted scared well,,
I don't feel like I can trust anyone anymore after being cyberbullied. How can I rebuild trust in others?,cyberbullying,feel like trust anyone anymore cyberbullied rebuild others,,
"Posted a picture of myself in cosplay, feeling proud of the work I put in. Now I'm getting a flood of unsolicited messages sexualizing my outfit. Feeling gross and unsafe. Is there a way to enjoy cosplay online without inviting harassment?",cyberbullying,posted picture cosplay feeling proud work put getting flood unsolicited message sexualizing outfit gross unsafe way enjoy online without inviting harassment,,
"I've noticed that someone has been impersonating me online and posting inappropriate content under my name, damaging my reputation. It's like my identity has been hijacked, and I'm struggling to clear my name.

",cyberbullying,noticed someone impersonating online posting inappropriate content name damaging reputation like identity hijacked struggling clear,,
"I'm Layla, a 19-year-old woman. I write fanfiction online and recently received a message from a reader threatening to share my personal information if I don't take down my story. I'm scared and don't know how to respond. What should I do about cyberbullying that uses threats and intimidation?",cyberbullying,layla year old woman write fanfiction online recently received message reader threatening share personal information take story scared know respond cyberbullying us threat intimidation,,
"Despite trying to focus on the positive aspects of my life, the cyberbullying weighs heavily on my mind, overshadowing any moments of joy or accomplishment. It feels like I'm constantly battling against a tide of negativity, struggling to stay afloat amidst the relentless attacks.",cyberbullying,despite trying focus positive aspect life cyberbullying weighs heavily mind overshadowing moment joy accomplishment feel like constantly battling tide negativity struggling stay afloat amidst relentless attack,,
My child confided in me that they are being bullied online by classmates. How can I support my child and work with the school to address this issue?,cyberbullying,child confided bullied online classmate support work school address issue,,
How can I teach my grandkids to critically assess the information they encounter online to prevent them from cyberbullying others or being influenced by harmful content?,cyberbullying,teach grandkids critically ass information encounter online prevent cyberbullying others influenced harmful content,,
"Iam a coming comedian, I recently posted a stand-up routine online and it got panned by critics.  The negativity is harsh, with people calling me unfunny and untalented.  It's discouraging and makes me question whether I should pursue comedy.  How can I deal with online criticism in a way that doesn't destroy my confidence?",cyberbullying,iam coming comedian recently posted stand routine online got panned critic negativity harsh people calling unfunny untalented discouraging make question whether pursue comedy deal criticism way destroy confidence,,
"I am a male influencer, i discovered someone created a fake account impersonating me online.  They're copying my content and interacting with my followers.  It's confusing my audience and potentially damaging my brand.  How can I report this identity theft and regain control of my online image?",cyberbullying,male influencer discovered someone created fake account impersonating online copying content interacting follower confusing audience potentially damaging brand report identity theft regain control image,,
I'm tired of feeling like a victim and want to take back control of my life. What steps can I take to empower myself and move past the cyberbullying?,cyberbullying,tired feeling like victim want take back control life step empower move past cyberbullying,,
"I am 38, female,Office drama spills over to social media as colleagues create a fake account to target a specific co-worker with rumors and insults about their work performance.",cyberbullying,female office drama spill social medium colleague create fake account target specific co worker rumor insult work performance,,
"Daniel, a 35-year-old musician, here. I recently released a new song that explores a social justice issue. While some listeners appreciate the message, others vehemently disagree and resort to cyberbullying. They target my music with negativity and threaten boycotts if I continue creating music with social commentary. It's stifling my creative voice and making me hesitant to speak out on important issues. How can I navigate cyberbullying in response to music with a social justice message?",cyberbullying,daniel year old musician recently released new song explores social justice issue listener appreciate message others vehemently disagree resort cyberbullying target music negativity threaten boycott continue creating commentary stifling creative voice making hesitant speak important navigate response,,
"During online classes, someone keeps making demeaning remarks about me in the chat. What steps can I take to stop this without escalating the situation?",cyberbullying,online class someone keep making demeaning remark chat step take stop without escalating situation,,
"I feel like I'm addicted to social media, and it's the first thing I check in the morning and the last thing at night. How can I break this habit?",cyberbullying,feel like addicted social medium first thing check morning last night break habit,,
The hateful messages and rumors spreading about me online have been really triggering my depression and suicidal thoughts.,cyberbullying,hateful message rumor spreading online really triggering depression suicidal thought,,
"I'm Sophia, a 32-year-old yoga instructor. Someone keeps creating fake profiles and signing up for my online classes just to disrupt them with rude comments and inappropriate behavior. It's ruining the experience for my paying students and making me feel unsafe leading classes online. How can I create a safe and inclusive space for my online yoga classes?",cyberbullying,sophia year old yoga instructor someone keep creating fake profile signing online class disrupt rude comment inappropriate behavior ruining experience paying student making feel unsafe leading create safe inclusive space,,
I'm feeling scared and unsafe because someone is impersonating me online and spreading false information about me. How would you recommend I handle this situation?,cyberbullying,feeling scared unsafe someone impersonating online spreading false information would recommend handle situation,,
" I finally gathered the courage to post my artwork online, but then the comments started. People were making fun of my style, calling me a wannabe artist.  Now I'm afraid to share anything else.  My dream of connecting with other artists online feels shattered.",cyberbullying,finally gathered courage post artwork online comment started people making fun style calling wannabe artist afraid share anything else dream connecting feel shattered,,
"I am an young artist, Someone stole my artwork online and is claiming it as their own.  I feel powerless and frustrated.  It discourages me from sharing my art online anymore.  What can I do to protect my intellectual property and fight back against online art theft?",cyberbullying,young artist someone stole artwork online claiming feel powerless frustrated discourages sharing art anymore protect intellectual property fight back theft,,
"The constant fear of being targeted has made me hesitant to engage with anyone online, even friends and family. It's like I'm isolating myself to protect myself, but it only makes me feel more alone.",cyberbullying,constant fear targeted made hesitant engage anyone online even friend family like isolating protect make feel alone,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells, afraid to express myself freely for fear of attracting more negative attention. It's like I've lost my voice in a sea of hostility.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like constantly walking eggshell afraid express freely fear attracting negative attention lost voice sea hostility,,
"I am a writer,The fear of negative comments is stopping me from sharing my writing online.  Social media feels overwhelming, and I worry about putting my work out there.  How can I overcome the fear of rejection and find a supportive online writing community?
",cyberbullying,writer fear negative comment stopping sharing writing online social medium feel overwhelming worry putting work overcome rejection find supportive community,,
"I've been a huge fan of this celebrity for years.  Recently, they had a public disagreement with another star, and now some of their fans are attacking me online for being a loyal follower.  It feels unfair and hurtful.  How can I navigate online negativity when it stems from someone else's actions?",cyberbullying,huge fan celebrity year recently public disagreement another star attacking online loyal follower feel unfair hurtful navigate negativity stem someone else action,,
"Layla, a 53-year-old retiree, here. I enjoy participating in online book clubs and discussing literature with like-minded people. However, one member keeps dominating discussions, making condescending remarks about other members' opinions and interpretations of the books. It's stifling conversation and making me feel unwelcome to share my thoughts. How can I deal with cyberbullying within an online book club community?",cyberbullying,layla year old retiree enjoy participating online book club discussing literature like minded people however one member keep dominating discussion making condescending remark opinion interpretation stifling conversation feel unwelcome share thought deal cyberbullying within community,,
"I know I need help dealing with this cyberbullying. It's affecting my well-being, and I don't want to let it continue. Can you help me develop strategies to cope and feel safe online again?",cyberbullying,know need help dealing cyberbullying affecting well want let continue develop strategy cope feel safe online,,
The constant mean comments and trolling I get on TikTok are really starting to mess with my self-confidence.,cyberbullying,constant mean comment trolling get tiktok really starting mess self confidence,,
"In an online game, I've been subjected to constant mockery and humiliation from other players, who have been targeting me with jokes and insults during matches. It's like I'm being laughed at, and it's damaging my self-esteem.

",cyberbullying,online game subjected constant mockery humiliation player targeting joke insult match like laughed damaging self esteem,,
"Despite my efforts to confront the cyberbullies and stand up for myself, their relentless attacks leave me feeling powerless and defeated. It's like no matter what I do, they always find a way to tear me down.",cyberbullying,despite effort confront cyberbullies stand relentless attack leave feeling powerless defeated like matter always find way tear,,
"A teenager discovers their personal photos have been shared without consent on social media, leading to widespread mocking and ridicule. What actions should they consider to address the situation and protect their privacy?",cyberbullying,teenager discovers personal photo shared without consent social medium leading widespread mocking ridicule action consider address situation protect privacy,,
"I'm Michael, a 24-year-old aspiring actor. I recently landed a small role in a popular TV show and built a social media presence. While many fans are supportive, a group keeps leaving negative comments about my acting skills and appearance. They compare me to other actors and make fun of any perceived flaws. It's affecting my self-confidence and making me question my abilities. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets a new actor in the online spotlight?",cyberbullying,michael year old aspiring actor recently landed small role popular tv show built social medium presence many fan supportive group keep leaving negative comment acting skill appearance compare make fun perceived flaw affecting self confidence making question ability deal cyberbullying target new online spotlight,,
Someone I used to date is sharing explicit photos of me online without my consent. Feeling violated and scared. What legal actions can I take to get this taken down and hold them accountable?,cyberbullying,someone used date sharing explicit photo online without consent feeling violated scared legal action take get taken hold accountable,,
"I am a single parent,suspect someone is trying to groom my child online.  They're posing as someone their age and gaining their trust.  I'm terrified and don't know how to approach this conversation with my child without scaring them.  How can I protect my child from online predators and equip them with online safety skills?",cyberbullying,single parent suspect someone trying groom child online posing age gaining trust terrified know approach conversation without scaring protect predator equip safety skill,,
"I'm feeling overwhelmed by the hateful comments I've been receiving online, and it's affecting my self-esteem. How would you help me cope?",cyberbullying,feeling overwhelmed hateful comment receiving online affecting self esteem would help cope,,
I'm constantly anxious about what people are saying about me online and it's affecting my ability to focus.,cyberbullying,constantly anxious people saying online affecting ability focus,,
"In an online game, I've been the target of repeated attacks and insults from a group of players, who have been coordinating their efforts to harass me during matches. It's like I'm being mobbed, and I'm powerless to stop it.

",cyberbullying,online game target repeated attack insult group player coordinating effort harass match like mobbed powerless stop,,
"While engaging on social media platforms, I've faced persistent harassment and threats from certain users who seem intent on intimidating me. It's like I'm constantly under siege, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,engaging social medium platform faced persistent harassment threat certain user seem intent intimidating like constantly siege affecting mental well,,
"I've been targeted with repeated messages and emails containing threats and derogatory language, leaving me feeling frightened and anxious. It's like I'm being harassed online, and I don't know how to make it stop.

",cyberbullying,targeted repeated message email containing threat derogatory language leaving feeling frightened anxious like harassed online know make stop,,
"Despite my attempts to stand up to the cyberbullies, their attacks leave me feeling powerless and defeated. It's like I'm fighting an uphill battle with no end in sight.",cyberbullying,despite attempt stand cyberbullies attack leave feeling powerless defeated like fighting uphill battle end sight,,
A group of seniors at my school keeps making fun of me on social media. They use my nickname in a mean way and tag me in posts that make me feel humiliated. Dreading going to school because of it.,cyberbullying,group senior school keep making fun social medium use nickname mean way tag post make feel humiliated dreading going,,
I'm so stressed and overwhelmed trying to maintain this perfect image online that I'm neglecting my mental health.,cyberbullying,stressed overwhelmed trying maintain perfect image online neglecting mental health,,
"I'm Isabella, a 45-year-old single mom and nurse. After a difficult divorce, I decided to start online dating again. However, I keep matching with men who turn out to be rude and disrespectful online. They pressure me for personal information, send inappropriate messages, and then ghost me when I don't respond. It's making me feel discouraged and unsafe about online dating. How can I create a safe and positive experience for myself in the world of online dating despite cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,isabella year old single mom nurse difficult divorce decided start online dating however keep matching men turn rude disrespectful pressure personal information send inappropriate message ghost respond making feel discouraged unsafe create safe positive experience world despite cyberbullying,,
"I'm Matthew, a 17-year-old boy. Someone keeps creating negative online events about me, like fake birthday parties or award ceremonies where everyone hates me. It's hurtful and feels like a public humiliation. What can I do about cyberbullying that uses fake online events to target me?",cyberbullying,matthew year old boy someone keep creating negative online event like fake birthday party award ceremony everyone hate hurtful feel public humiliation cyberbullying us target,,
I'm 21 years old and I've been bullied online for a while now. It's making me feel really anxious and depressed.,cyberbullying,year old bullied online making feel really anxious depressed,,
"Despite my best efforts to stay positive, the cyberbullying has left me feeling drained and defeated. It's like I'm fighting a losing battle, with no end in sight.",cyberbullying,despite best effort stay positive cyberbullying left feeling drained defeated like fighting losing battle end sight,,
"I've been the victim of cyberbullying campaigns, where individuals have coordinated attacks against me online. It's like I'm being ganged up on, and it's making me feel helpless.

",cyberbullying,victim cyberbullying campaign individual coordinated attack online like ganged making feel helpless,,
"I love cosplaying my favorite characters, but some people online leave cruel comments about my body type or the way I portray certain characters. It makes me feel insecure and self-conscious, taking away from the fun of cosplay. How can I develop thicker skin against online body shaming and keep enjoying this hobby?",cyberbullying,love cosplaying favorite character people online leave cruel comment body type way portray certain make feel insecure self conscious taking away fun cosplay develop thicker skin shaming keep enjoying hobby,,
"Daniel, a 33-year-old gamer, here. I enjoy streaming my gameplay online and interacting with viewers. Lately, a group of followers has turned negative. They constantly criticize my gameplay choices, backseat game, and use abusive language in the chat. It's making streaming stressful and discouraging me from interacting with my audience. How can I manage a healthy online presence as a streamer while dealing with cyberbullying from viewers?",cyberbullying,daniel year old gamer enjoy streaming gameplay online interacting viewer lately group follower turned negative constantly criticize choice backseat game use abusive language chat making stressful discouraging audience manage healthy presence streamer dealing cyberbullying,,
Someone created a fake profile in my name and is posting inappropriate content to tarnish my image. What steps should I take to have this profile taken down and clear my name?,cyberbullying,someone created fake profile name posting inappropriate content tarnish image step take taken clear,,
I feel so alone because of all the bullying I've faced online.,cyberbullying,feel alone bullying faced online,,
I'm concerned my granddaughter's online friendships are exposing her to negative influences. How can I discuss the importance of choosing friends wisely?,cyberbullying,concerned granddaughter online friendship exposing negative influence discus importance choosing friend wisely,,
The hateful messages and rumors constantly spreading about me online have been really triggering my depression and making me suicidal.,cyberbullying,hateful message rumor constantly spreading online really triggering depression making suicidal,,
"A group is using social media to spread lies about me, significantly impacting my social and professional life. How can I effectively counteract their narrative?",cyberbullying,group using social medium spread lie significantly impacting professional life effectively counteract narrative,,
"As a small business owner, I've encountered cyberbullying from competitors who spread false reviews and negative comments about my products and services online. How can I protect my business from cyberbullying and maintain a positive reputation?",cyberbullying,small business owner encountered cyberbullying competitor spread false review negative comment product service online protect maintain positive reputation,,
"Lucas, a 24-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category), here. I'm part of an online anime fan community. I enjoy discussing my favorite shows and characters. However, a group of users frequently gatekeep the community, mocking newcomers like me for not knowing obscure trivia or having unpopular opinions. It's making it difficult to feel comfortable participating in discussions. How can I deal with cyberbullying based on fandom knowledge within online communities?",cyberbullying,lucas year old college student still appropriate category part online anime fan community enjoy discussing favorite show character however group user frequently gatekeep mocking newcomer like knowing obscure trivia unpopular opinion making difficult feel comfortable participating discussion deal cyberbullying based fandom knowledge within,,
"I've been targeted with repeated harassment and threats on my social media accounts, with users creating fake profiles to stalk and intimidate me. It's like I'm being watched, and it's making me feel unsafe.

",cyberbullying,targeted repeated harassment threat social medium account user creating fake profile stalk intimidate like watched making feel unsafe,,
"I'm Lucas, a 30-year-old web developer. A competitor's company keeps leaving negative comments on my portfolio website, criticizing the design and functionality of my work. It's affecting my ability to attract potential clients and showcase my skills. How can I address cyberbullying that targets a freelancer's online portfolio?",cyberbullying,lucas year old web developer competitor company keep leaving negative comment portfolio website criticizing design functionality work affecting ability attract potential client showcase skill address cyberbullying target freelancer online,,
"Daniel, a 29-year-old history teacher, here. I use online educational resources to supplement my classroom lessons. Recently, a student discovered my social media profile and started leaving negative comments about my teaching style and personal opinions. It's creating an uncomfortable situation and blurring the lines between professional and personal online presence. How can I maintain a healthy online identity as a teacher while avoiding cyberbullying from students?",cyberbullying,daniel year old history teacher use online educational resource supplement classroom lesson recently student discovered social medium profile started leaving negative comment teaching style personal opinion creating uncomfortable situation blurring line professional presence maintain healthy identity avoiding cyberbullying,,
My online friend confided that they are being cyberbullied and it's affecting their mental health. How can I offer support and help them through this tough time?,cyberbullying,online friend confided cyberbullied affecting mental health offer support help tough time,,
"I am 22, male,i used to be really active on Twitter until this whole thing happened. I made a sarcastic comment on a trending topic, and now it feels like everyone's attacking me online. I'm getting nasty messages and trolls are harassing me. I'm scared to even check my phone anymore.",cyberbullying,male used really active twitter whole thing happened made sarcastic comment trending topic feel like everyone attacking online getting nasty message troll harassing scared even check phone anymore,,
"On social media platforms, I've been the target of persistent trolling and harassment from certain individuals who seem to take pleasure in making me feel uncomfortable. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's negatively impacting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform target persistent trolling harassment certain individual seem take pleasure making feel uncomfortable like constantly attacked negatively impacting mental health,,
I'm being blamed and shamed online for something I didn't do. How can I defend myself and correct the misinformation being spread about me?,cyberbullying,blamed shamed online something defend correct misinformation spread,,
"Lucas, a 35-year-old web developer, here. I manage the social media presence for a local animal shelter. Recently, someone keeps leaving negative comments on the shelter's posts, accusing them of mistreating animals and discouraging people from adopting. It's affecting the shelter's ability to find homes for animals in need. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets a non-profit organization and hinders its ability to help animals?",cyberbullying,lucas year old web developer manage social medium presence local animal shelter recently someone keep leaving negative comment post accusing mistreating discouraging people adopting affecting ability find home need handle cyberbullying target non profit organization hinders help,,
"a parent unhappy with my grading method took to social media to attack me. It's a one-sided story, and now I'm facing online judgment from the entire school community.  It's affecting my relationship with other parents and making my job even more stressful.",cyberbullying,parent unhappy grading method took social medium attack one sided story facing online judgment entire school community affecting relationship making job even stressful,,
"I'm being cyberbullied, and it's affecting my relationships and mental health. How can I protect myself from further harm?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied affecting relationship mental health protect harm,,
I found myself getting caught up in a group that was targeting an individual online. I feel guilty and want to help the victim now. What steps can I take to support them and correct my actions?,cyberbullying,found getting caught group targeting individual online feel guilty want help victim step take support correct action,,
"I keep getting harassed by the same person online, and no matter how many times I block them, they keep finding ways to contact me. It's like I'm trapped in a cycle of abuse, and I don't know what to do.

",cyberbullying,keep getting harassed person online matter many time block finding way contact like trapped cycle abuse know,,
The hateful messages I've been getting have been really triggering my depression.,cyberbullying,hateful message getting really triggering depression,,
"I've been receiving threatening messages from an anonymous account on social media, and the sender claims to have personal information about me. It's like I'm being stalked online, and it's causing me significant distress.

",cyberbullying,receiving threatening message anonymous account social medium sender claim personal information like stalked online causing significant distress,,
I just don't understand why people feel the need to be so cruel online. These anonymous comments on my YouTube videos are really getting to me. I'm feeling angry and frustrated that I can't do anything about it.,cyberbullying,understand people feel need cruel online anonymous comment youtube video really getting feeling angry frustrated anything,,
"The loneliness and isolation I feel as a result of the cyberbullying are suffocating, like I'm trapped in a bubble with no way out. It's hard to reach out for help when it feels like no one understands what I'm going through.",cyberbullying,loneliness isolation feel result cyberbullying suffocating like trapped bubble way hard reach help one understands going,,
"Despite my efforts to block the cyberbullies, their attacks find new ways to infiltrate my digital spaces. It's like I'm constantly playing a game of whack-a-mole, trying to keep up with their relentless onslaught.",cyberbullying,despite effort block cyberbullies attack find new way infiltrate digital space like constantly playing game whack mole trying keep relentless onslaught,,
My child is experiencing cyberbullying on a popular gaming platform. The insults are affecting their mental health. What strategies can I implement to protect my child from online harassment and ensure a safer gaming environment?,cyberbullying,child experiencing cyberbullying popular gaming platform insult affecting mental health strategy implement protect online harassment ensure safer environment,,
"I've been cyberbullied by classmates, who have created fake profiles to spread lies about me online. It's like I'm being targeted by a group, and I don't know how to stop them.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied classmate created fake profile spread lie online like targeted group know stop,,
"I'm Michael, a 19-year-old man. A group of online trolls keep making negative comments about my appearance in online games. It's affecting my self-esteem and making me self-conscious. How can I develop thicker skin and deal with cyberbullies focused on looks?",cyberbullying,michael year old man group online troll keep making negative comment appearance game affecting self esteem conscious develop thicker skin deal cyberbullies focused look,,
"Noah, a 25-year-old climate activist, here. I frequently participate in online discussions about environmental issues. However, a group of people who advocate for continued use of fossil fuels constantly target me with insults and accusations. They try to silence my voice and discredit my activism efforts. It's discouraging and making me wonder if it's worth speaking up about climate change online. How can I stay safe and effective as an activist facing cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,noah year old climate activist frequently participate online discussion environmental issue however group people advocate continued use fossil fuel constantly target insult accusation try silence voice discredit activism effort discouraging making wonder worth speaking change stay safe effective facing cyberbullying,,
"Broke up with my ex a month ago, but he keeps blowing up my social media with nasty comments and embarrassing pictures. Blocked him everywhere but he keeps creating fake accounts to harass me. I'm scared and don't know what to do.",cyberbullying,broke ex month ago keep blowing social medium nasty comment embarrassing picture blocked everywhere creating fake account harass scared know,,
"While using social media, I've encountered repeated bullying and negative comments from certain users who seem intent on making me feel inferior. It's like I'm constantly under attack, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,using social medium encountered repeated bullying negative comment certain user seem intent making feel inferior like constantly attack affecting mental well,,
Got cyberbullied for a while and felt terrible about myself. Found a supportive online community that helped me heal and regain my confidence. Just wanted to share a positive story.,cyberbullying,got cyberbullied felt terrible found supportive online community helped heal regain confidence wanted share positive story,,
"I'm Ethan, a 16-year-old gamer. I finally reached a high rank in my favorite online game, but a group of players from a rival team keeps spamming my inbox with taunts and insults referencing my username. They're making fun of my real name in a way I can't escape, even if I change my in-game persona. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets my real identity hidden behind a username?",cyberbullying,ethan year old gamer finally reached high rank favorite online game group player rival team keep spamming inbox taunt insult referencing username making fun real name way escape even change persona deal cyberbullying target identity hidden behind,,
I confide in you that I am being cyberbullied by a group of classmates who are spreading rumors and making fun of me online. I feel embarrassed and ashamed. How would you help me regain my confidence and self-esteem?,cyberbullying,confide cyberbullied group classmate spreading rumor making fun online feel embarrassed ashamed would help regain confidence self esteem,,
"I recently joined a dating app, and someone I rejected is now spreading false information about me in local online groups. How can I deal with this cyberbullying and protect my reputation in the community?",cyberbullying,recently joined dating app someone rejected spreading false information local online group deal cyberbullying protect reputation community,,
"Despite my efforts to maintain a positive outlook, the cyberbullying takes its toll on my mental health, leaving me feeling drained and defeated. It's hard to muster the strength to keep fighting when it feels like the whole world is against you, when every click of the mouse brings another wave of negativity crashing down. I cling to the hope that someday the tide will turn, that the voices of kindness and compassion will drown out the shouts of hate and cruelty.",cyberbullying,despite effort maintain positive outlook cyberbullying take toll mental health leaving feeling drained defeated hard muster strength keep fighting feel like whole world every click mouse brings another wave negativity crashing cling hope someday tide turn voice kindness compassion drown shout hate cruelty,,
"I am 19 yrs old college student,I fell for someone online who turned out to be a fake profile.  They built a whole relationship based on lies, and now I feel heartbroken and foolish.  How can I trust people online again after this experience?",cyberbullying,yr old college student fell someone online turned fake profile built whole relationship based lie feel heartbroken foolish trust people experience,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I even want to participate in online discourse anymore. It's like I'm tiptoeing through a minefield, afraid of triggering another explosion of hate.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether even want participate online discourse anymore like tiptoeing minefield afraid triggering another explosion hate,,
"I'm Ben, a 20-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category). I recently joined a dating app, but keep getting bombarded with rude messages and unsolicited comments about my appearance. It's making me feel unattractive and discouraged from online dating altogether. How can I create a safe and positive experience for myself in the world of online dating despite cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,ben year old college student still appropriate category recently joined dating app keep getting bombarded rude message unsolicited comment appearance making feel unattractive discouraged online altogether create safe positive experience world despite cyberbullying,,
"Seeing all the flawless, edited bodies and faces on Instagram is really messing with my already fragile body image and self-esteem.",cyberbullying,seeing flawless edited body face instagram really messing already fragile image self esteem,,
"While using social media platforms, I've encountered relentless trolling and harassment from certain users who seem to take pleasure in making me feel uncomfortable. It's like I'm constantly under attack, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,using social medium platform encountered relentless trolling harassment certain user seem take pleasure making feel uncomfortable like constantly attack affecting mental well,,
"A student is excluded from an online study group chat where important academic resources are shared, under the guise that they are not 'smart enough' to contribute. What implications might this form of cyberbullying have on the student's academic performance and social relationships?",cyberbullying,student excluded online study group chat important academic resource shared guise smart enough contribute implication might form cyberbullying performance social relationship,,
"I'm Ben, a 15-year-old boy. Someone keeps sending me friend requests on social media with fake profiles and then sends me nasty messages when I accept. It feels like a constant game and I don't know how to make it stop. How can I avoid cyberbullies who use fake profiles to harass me?",cyberbullying,ben year old boy someone keep sending friend request social medium fake profile sends nasty message accept feel like constant game know make stop avoid cyberbullies use harass,,
"Made a harmless post about my cat on a popular subreddit. Now I'm getting flooded with comments calling my cat ugly and making fun of its name. I know it shouldn't bother me, but it just makes me feel anxious and like I can't trust anyone online.",cyberbullying,made harmless post cat popular subreddit getting flooded comment calling ugly making fun name know bother make feel anxious like trust anyone online,,
"I'm Layla, a 40-year-old teacher. A student in my class is constantly disrupting my online lessons by making inappropriate comments in the chat and posting distracting memes. I've tried addressing it privately, but the behavior continues. It's making it difficult to teach effectively and maintain a positive learning environment in my online classroom. How can I deal with cyberbullying that disrupts online classes?",cyberbullying,layla year old teacher student class constantly disrupting online lesson making inappropriate comment chat posting distracting meme tried addressing privately behavior continues difficult teach effectively maintain positive learning environment classroom deal cyberbullying disrupts,,
"Every time I receive a notification on my phone, I'm filled with dread, fearing it might be another hurtful message or comment from the cyberbullies. It's like I'm constantly on edge, unable to relax or enjoy any moment of peace.",cyberbullying,every time receive notification phone filled dread fearing might another hurtful message comment cyberbullies like constantly edge unable relax enjoy moment peace,,
"I've been cyberbullied by anonymous individuals online, who have made threats against me and my family. It's like I'm being targeted by strangers, and I don't know how to protect myself.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied anonymous individual online made threat family like targeted stranger know protect,,
"As an environmental activist, I often face online criticism for not being perfect in my own life choices.  People call me a hypocrite if I fly somewhere or use a plastic straw occasionally.  It feels demotivating and makes me question the effectiveness of activism altogether.  How can I deal with eco-shaming while continuing to fight for environmental change?",cyberbullying,environmental activist often face online criticism perfect life choice people call hypocrite fly somewhere use plastic straw occasionally feel demotivating make question effectiveness activism altogether deal eco shaming continuing fight change,,
"My partner loves making sarcastic and edgy jokes online, but some of them target specific groups of people. They don't seem to understand how hurtful it can be, even if they claim it's just a joke. Don't know how to address this without sounding controlling.",cyberbullying,partner love making sarcastic edgy joke online target specific group people seem understand hurtful even claim know address without sounding controlling,,
I'm constantly terrified of being targeted by bullies online and it's causing me severe anxiety that's impacting every part of my life.,cyberbullying,constantly terrified targeted bully online causing severe anxiety impacting every part life,,
"In an online game, I've been the target of relentless trolling and harassment from other players, with offensive comments and derogatory language directed at me during matches. It's like I can't enjoy the game without being attacked.

",cyberbullying,online game target relentless trolling harassment player offensive comment derogatory language directed match like enjoy without attacked,,
"I've been targeted with rumors and gossip spread about me online, and it's ruining my reputation. It's like I'm being attacked from all sides, and I don't know how to defend myself.

",cyberbullying,targeted rumor gossip spread online ruining reputation like attacked side know defend,,
I'm a 17-year-old boy and lately I've been feeling worthless because of all the negativity I see online. People constantly put others down and it makes me feel like I'm not good enough.,cyberbullying,year old boy lately feeling worthless negativity see online people constantly put others make feel like good enough,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I even deserve happiness or success. It's like I'm constantly sabotaging myself, convinced that I'm unworthy of anything good in life.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether even deserve happiness success like constantly sabotaging convinced unworthy anything good life,,
"I'm Noah, a 32-year-old environmental activist. After organizing a local protest against pollution, I've been targeted by a group promoting the polluting industry online. They're spreading misinformation about my motives and using personal attacks to discredit me. It's making it difficult to raise awareness about the environmental issue. How can I stay safe and effective as an activist facing cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,noah year old environmental activist organizing local protest pollution targeted group promoting polluting industry online spreading misinformation motif using personal attack discredit making difficult raise awareness issue stay safe effective facing cyberbullying,,
"Someone took screenshots of my private messages and shared them on social media, leading to public ridicule. How can I manage the fallout from this breach of privacy?",cyberbullying,someone took screenshots private message shared social medium leading public ridicule manage fallout breach privacy,,
"I'm Michael, a 21-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category). I have a stutter, and I recently joined an online public speaking club to overcome my fear of speaking in front of others. However, some members keep mocking my stutter in the chat during practice sessions, making fun of my speech impediment. It's discouraging me from participating and hindering my progress. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets a speech impediment in an online support group?",cyberbullying,michael year old college student still appropriate category stutter recently joined online public speaking club overcome fear front others however member keep mocking chat practice session making fun speech impediment discouraging participating hindering progress deal cyberbullying target support group,,
"Iam female tutor, I tutor students online, but some parents get angry if their child doesn't see immediate results.  They take their frustrations out on me online, leaving negative reviews and spreading rumors.  It's discouraging and makes me question my teaching skills.  How can I set boundaries with parents and manage unrealistic expectations while tutoring online?",cyberbullying,iam female tutor student online parent get angry child see immediate result take frustration leaving negative review spreading rumor discouraging make question teaching skill set boundary manage unrealistic expectation tutoring,,
"There's this girl, Sarah, at school.  We used to be best friends, but lately, she's been acting weird.  I saw her phone light up with a notification, and it looked like a nasty message about me.  I don't know if she's involved or just saw it, but things are different between us now.",cyberbullying,girl sarah school used best friend lately acting weird saw phone light notification looked like nasty message know involved thing different u,,
I'm 20 years old and I've been dealing with cyberbullying on social media for a while now. It's really taking a toll on my mental health.,cyberbullying,year old dealing cyberbullying social medium really taking toll mental health,,
"I'm a 17-year-old high schooler and there's a rumor going around online that I started a fight. It's completely untrue, but everyone seems to believe it. I feel anxious all the time and can't concentrate in school.",cyberbullying,year old high schooler rumor going around online started fight completely untrue everyone seems believe feel anxious time concentrate school,,
"I've been the target of a coordinated online harassment campaign, with multiple users attacking me with hateful comments and threats across various platforms. It's like I'm being ganged up on, and it's overwhelming.

",cyberbullying,target coordinated online harassment campaign multiple user attacking hateful comment threat across various platform like ganged overwhelming,,
"ve noticed that every time I post pictures on my social media, a particular user leaves mean and derogatory comments that really hurt my feelings. How can I deal with these negative comments and protect my mental health?",cyberbullying,noticed every time post picture social medium particular user leaf mean derogatory comment really hurt feeling deal negative protect mental health,,
"I am 14 yrs old Male,i love streaming games online, but my chronic illness sometimes affects my gameplay.  Viewers get frustrated and leave rude comments about my performance.  It makes me feel self-conscious and like I don't belong in the online gaming community.  How can I build a supportive online space where I can stream comfortably despite my limitations?",cyberbullying,yr old male love streaming game online chronic illness sometimes affect gameplay viewer get frustrated leave rude comment performance make feel self conscious like belong gaming community build supportive space stream comfortably despite limitation,,
"I'm Lucas, a 33-year-old journalist. I'm working on an investigative piece exposing a corrupt corporation. After publishing some initial findings online, I received an anonymous message threatening to dox me, leak my personal information publicly. I'm worried about my safety and security. How can I handle cyberbullying that involves threats of doxing?",cyberbullying,lucas year old journalist working investigative piece exposing corrupt corporation publishing initial finding online received anonymous message threatening dox leak personal information publicly worried safety security handle cyberbullying involves threat doxing,,
"I am 40, female, I showcased my beautiful garden online. However, some followers resort to gaslighting tactics,  and making me doubt my own skills, impacting my enjoyment of the hobby.",cyberbullying,female showcased beautiful garden online however follower resort gaslighting tactic making doubt skill impacting enjoyment hobby,,
"I'm Ava, a 41-year-old painter. Someone keeps creating parody accounts on social media, mimicking my artistic style and deliberately producing bad art in my name. It's confusing viewers and damaging my reputation as a serious artist. How can I stop cyberbullies from impersonating me online and using my art style to mock me?",cyberbullying,ava year old painter someone keep creating parody account social medium mimicking artistic style deliberately producing bad art name confusing viewer damaging reputation serious artist stop cyberbullies impersonating online using mock,,
"Iam a young entrepreneur, i  was trying to buy equipment for my new business online and ended up on a fake website.  I used my credit card and now I'm worried someone has my information.  What can I do to stop them from using my credit card and protect my business finances?",cyberbullying,iam young entrepreneur trying buy equipment new business online ended fake website used credit card worried someone information stop using protect finance,,
"I'm Sophia, a 60-year-old retiree. I recently started online dating, but keep matching with people who turn out to be catfishers. They create fake profiles with stolen photos and disappear after a few messages. It's making me feel disillusioned and hesitant to continue online dating. How can I avoid cyberbullying from catfishers who target online daters?",cyberbullying,sophia year old retiree recently started online dating keep matching people turn catfishers create fake profile stolen photo disappear message making feel disillusioned hesitant continue avoid cyberbullying target daters,,
"After a disagreement in a forum, another user has started to dox me, threatening to reveal my personal information online. This invasion of privacy is terrifying. What are my options for protecting myself and my personal information from being exposed?",cyberbullying,disagreement forum another user started dox threatening reveal personal information online invasion privacy terrifying option protecting exposed,,
I've developed an eating disorder as a way to cope with the emotional pain of being cyberbullied. How can I recover and develop a healthy relationship with food and my body?,cyberbullying,developed eating disorder way cope emotional pain cyberbullied recover develop healthy relationship food body,,
"I'm Layla, a 52-year-old community organizer. Someone keeps creating fake event pages online, mimicking upcoming events for my organization and spreading misinformation about the purpose or location. It's confusing potential participants and hindering our community outreach efforts. How can I combat cyberbullying that targets a community organization's events and activities?",cyberbullying,layla year old community organizer someone keep creating fake event page online mimicking upcoming organization spreading misinformation purpose location confusing potential participant hindering outreach effort combat cyberbullying target activity,,
"I'm Olivia, a 16-year-old girl. I recently joined a volunteer group and someone found my social media profile. Now they're leaving negative comments about my appearance on the volunteer organization's page. It's making me feel uncomfortable volunteering and judged for how I look. How can I deal with cyberbullying that follows me from online to real-life activities?",cyberbullying,olivia year old girl recently joined volunteer group someone found social medium profile leaving negative comment appearance organization page making feel uncomfortable volunteering judged look deal cyberbullying follows online real life activity,,
"I'm Nadia, a 19-year-old woman. Someone keeps leaving hateful messages in the comments section of my gaming live streams. It makes me scared to interact with viewers and takes the fun out of gaming. How can I create a safe and inclusive online space during streams?",cyberbullying,nadia year old woman someone keep leaving hateful message comment section gaming live stream make scared interact viewer take fun create safe inclusive online space,,
"I'm Chloe, a 55-year-old college professor. A student who failed my class keeps leaving negative comments about my teaching style on a professor rating website. It's unfair and doesn't reflect the majority of my students' experiences. How can I address cyberbullying from a student who disagrees with my teaching methods?",cyberbullying,chloe year old college professor student failed class keep leaving negative comment teaching style rating website unfair reflect majority experience address cyberbullying disagrees method,,
"Iam 42yrd old Female ,My recent investigative report sparked outrage online. I'm being bombarded with threats and insults across social media platforms. It's scary and makes me question the safety of continuing this kind of journalism. What steps can I take to protect myself from online harassment and ensure my safety while reporting the truth?",cyberbullying,iam yrd old female recent investigative report sparked outrage online bombarded threat insult across social medium platform scary make question safety continuing kind journalism step take protect harassment ensure reporting truth,,
"My heart sinks as I open my social media accounts, bracing myself for the onslaught of hateful comments and cruel messages. Every notification feels like a punch to the gut, each word piercing deeper into my already fragile self-esteem. I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of negativity, struggling to keep my head above water amidst the relentless waves of cyberbullying.",cyberbullying,heart sink open social medium account bracing onslaught hateful comment cruel message every notification feel like punch gut word piercing deeper already fragile self esteem drowning sea negativity struggling keep head water amidst relentless wave cyberbullying,,
"I shared vacation photos on Instagram, but some comments made me feel out-of-touch with younger generations.  Now I'm hesitant to use social media for fear of seeming irrelevant.  How can I bridge the generational gap online and connect with family and friends on platforms like Instagram?",cyberbullying,shared vacation photo instagram comment made feel touch younger generation hesitant use social medium fear seeming irrelevant bridge generational gap online connect family friend platform like,,
I report receiving threatening emails and messages from an anonymous sender. I feel scared and anxious about my safety. What steps would you recommend for me?,cyberbullying,report receiving threatening email message anonymous sender feel scared anxious safety step would recommend,,
"Olivia, a 42-year-old single parent and small business owner. I run a bakery from home and sell my treats online. A disgruntled customer recently left a scathing review, exaggerating a minor issue with their order and accusing me of unprofessional service. Now, I'm worried potential customers will be discouraged by the negativity. How can I address cyberbullying through a negative online review of a small business?",cyberbullying,olivia year old single parent small business owner run bakery home sell treat online disgruntled customer recently left scathing review exaggerating minor issue order accusing unprofessional service worried potential discouraged negativity address cyberbullying negative,,
"While playing an online game, I've been targeted with repeated harassment and insults from another player, who has been singling me out for attacks and taunts during matches. It's like I'm being targeted, and it's ruining my gaming experience.

",cyberbullying,playing online game targeted repeated harassment insult another player singling attack taunt match like ruining gaming experience,,
"In an online study group, I'm being excluded and mocked for my questions. What can I do to stop this behavior without dropping out of the group?",cyberbullying,online study group excluded mocked question stop behavior without dropping,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the use of fake accounts spreading hate speech and derogatory comments about me online. It's like I'm being attacked from all directions, and it's causing me emotional distress.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied use fake account spreading hate speech derogatory comment online like attacked direction causing emotional distress,,
"Has anybody else had no genuine friendships as a child? Will the feeling ever go away? I was bullied since I was 3. When I was 4, a girl I tried to be friends with told me she hated me. By the time I was around 7, I believed that the concept of a friendship where your friends “have your back” and want to spend time with you was a ideal fantasy created by the media, because I was often warned that media portrayals of romantic relationships weren’t always realistic. So I thought that since other children always preferred to insult and exclude me and never showed interest in treating me in a positive way, friendships as seen in books and television must’ve been made up like magic and superpowers. My parents encouraged this idea and told me I expected too much from other children and that if nobody wanted to be nice to me, it’s because something is wrong with me and I must be a bad person. I’ve had psychiatrists who were abusive as well.",cyberbullying,anybody else genuine friendship child feeling ever go away bullied since girl tried friend told hated time around believed concept back want spend ideal fantasy created medium often warned portrayal romantic relationship always realistic thought preferred insult exclude never showed interest treating positive way seen book television must made like magic superpower parent encouraged idea expected much nobody wanted nice something wrong bad person psychiatrist abusive well,,
" I feel so alone and unsafe because of this online harassment. I don't feel comfortable going online anymore, and it's cutting me off from my friends and activities. I just want this to stop so I can feel like myself again.",cyberbullying,feel alone unsafe online harassment comfortable going anymore cutting friend activity want stop like,,
"Someone is using my pictures to catfish others on dating apps, and it's affecting my personal life. How can I address this situation and prevent further misuse of my images?",cyberbullying,someone using picture catfish others dating apps affecting personal life address situation prevent misuse image,,
"I'm experiencing cyberbullying, and it's making me question my self-worth. How can I regain my confidence?",cyberbullying,experiencing cyberbullying making question self worth regain confidence,,
I've noticed an increasing number of anonymous messages attacking me on various social media platforms. I suspect someone from my school is behind it. How can I uncover the identity of the cyberbully and put an end to this harassment?,cyberbullying,noticed increasing number anonymous message attacking various social medium platform suspect someone school behind uncover identity cyberbully put end harassment,,
"The anonymity of the internet seems to bring out the worst in people, as they feel emboldened to unleash their cruelty without fear of consequence. It's like I'm surrounded by faceless tormentors, with no way to defend myself.",cyberbullying,anonymity internet seems bring worst people feel emboldened unleash cruelty without fear consequence like surrounded faceless tormentor way defend,,
How can I confront someone who's cyberbullying me without making things worse?,cyberbullying,confront someone cyberbullying without making thing worse,,
"I'm a 19-year-old college student and lately I've been feeling really down and anxious. I used to love being on social media, but recently there have been rumors going around about me that aren't true. People keep tagging me in mean comments and I can't escape it.",cyberbullying,year old college student lately feeling really anxious used love social medium recently rumor going around true people keep tagging mean comment escape,,
"I am 26 yrs olf female influencer,advocate for body positivity, but I recently received criticism from people in the eating disorder recovery community who feel my message undermines their struggles.  I don't want to cause harm, but I also want to promote healthy body image.  How can I navigate this online debate and ensure inclusivity in my message?",cyberbullying,yr olf female influencer advocate body positivity recently received criticism people eating disorder recovery community feel message undermines struggle want cause harm also promote healthy image navigate online debate ensure inclusivity,,
I've been receiving hurtful messages and comments online. How can I deal with cyberbullying?,cyberbullying,receiving hurtful message comment online deal cyberbullying,,
I feel like I'm not good enough because of the constant criticism and ridicule I face on social media. How can I overcome this feeling?,cyberbullying,feel like good enough constant criticism ridicule face social medium overcome feeling,,
"Getting more and more frustrated with toxic voice chat in online games. People spew racist, sexist, and homophobic comments with no filter. Shouldn't voice chat be a way to strategize and connect with teammates?",cyberbullying,getting frustrated toxic voice chat online game people spew racist sexist homophobic comment filter way strategize connect teammate,,
"Despite my best efforts to brush off the hurtful comments and stay positive, it's hard not to internalize the negativity and let it eat away at my self-esteem. I find myself constantly questioning my worth and validity as a person, wondering if there's any truth to the cruel words being thrown my way.",cyberbullying,despite best effort brush hurtful comment stay positive hard internalize negativity let eat away self esteem find constantly questioning worth validity person wondering truth cruel word thrown way,,
"Iam 60 yrs old male,i  was tricked by a catfisher online.  They pretended to be someone else, built an emotional connection, and then started cyberstalking me when I refused to send them money.  I feel foolish and embarrassed.  How can I recover from this online scam and protect myself from future manipulation?",cyberbullying,iam yr old male tricked catfisher online pretended someone else built emotional connection started cyberstalking refused send money feel foolish embarrassed recover scam protect future manipulation,,
"On social media platforms, I've been targeted with continuous bullying and negative comments from certain users who seem intent on making me feel inferior. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's negatively impacting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform targeted continuous bullying negative comment certain user seem intent making feel inferior like constantly attacked negatively impacting mental health,,
"I'm a 22-year-old woman and ever since someone started posting embarrassing photos of me online, I've felt constantly on edge and I can't sleep at night. I've deleted my social media but I keep checking if there are new posts about me.",cyberbullying,year old woman ever since someone started posting embarrassing photo online felt constantly edge sleep night deleted social medium keep checking new post,,
"I am 55 , male,a student recently posted a distorted and negative review of my teaching style online. It's gone viral, and now I'm facing online harassment and threats.  It's affecting my mental health and making me question my entire career.",cyberbullying,male student recently posted distorted negative review teaching style online gone viral facing harassment threat affecting mental health making question entire career,,
"I'm Michael, a 22-year-old activist. After speaking out on a social justice issue, I've been bombarded with hateful messages and online threats. It's scary and making me question whether I should continue speaking up for what I believe in. How can I stay safe and engaged in online activism despite facing cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,michael year old activist speaking social justice issue bombarded hateful message online threat scary making question whether continue believe stay safe engaged activism despite facing cyberbullying,,
"Isabella, a 32-year-old advocate for body positivity, here. I recently started a podcast discussing body image and self-love. While the response has been mostly positive, some listeners leave hateful comments body-shaming me and questioning my qualifications to speak on this topic. It's discouraging and makes me wonder if I should continue advocating for body positivity online. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets the host of a body positivity podcast?",cyberbullying,isabella year old advocate body positivity recently started podcast discussing image self love response mostly positive listener leave hateful comment shaming questioning qualification speak topic discouraging make wonder continue advocating online handle cyberbullying target host,,
"Despite my attempts to stay positive, the cyberbullying has invaded every aspect of my life, leaving me feeling overwhelmed and defeated. It's like I'm fighting a losing battle against an invisible enemy.",cyberbullying,despite attempt stay positive cyberbullying invaded every aspect life leaving feeling overwhelmed defeated like fighting losing battle invisible enemy,,
Built up the courage to come out as bisexual on a social media platform. Immediately bombarded with hateful messages and insults. Starting to question if I should just stay hidden.,cyberbullying,built courage come bisexual social medium platform immediately bombarded hateful message insult starting question stay hidden,,
"I'm Daniel, a 24-year-old college student. I matched with someone on a dating app and went on a few dates. After things didn't work out, they refused to accept it. Now, they keep following me on every social media platform I use, leaving creepy comments and liking all my posts. It's making me feel uncomfortable and followed. How can I deal with cyberbullying that involves social media stalking?",cyberbullying,daniel year old college student matched someone dating app went date thing work refused accept keep following every social medium platform use leaving creepy comment liking post making feel uncomfortable followed deal cyberbullying involves stalking,,
My online gaming sessions are being disrupted by players who harass me every time they see me online. What actions can I take to enjoy my gaming experience without facing harassment?,cyberbullying,online gaming session disrupted player harass every time see action take enjoy experience without facing harassment,,
"Iam a therapist,A former client who felt I didn't help them is now harassing me online.  They're spreading lies about my therapeutic methods and making personal attacks.  It's affecting my professional reputation and causing me emotional distress.  How can I address this online harassment while maintaining confidentiality and ethical boundaries?",cyberbullying,iam therapist former client felt help harassing online spreading lie therapeutic method making personal attack affecting professional reputation causing emotional distress address harassment maintaining confidentiality ethical boundary,,
My grades have suffered because of the emotional distress caused by cyberbullying. How can I get back on track academically?,cyberbullying,grade suffered emotional distress caused cyberbullying get back track academically,,
I'm 19 years old and I've been receiving hateful comments on my social media posts. It's really taking a toll on my mental health.,cyberbullying,year old receiving hateful comment social medium post really taking toll mental health,,
I received a suspicious email pretending to be from a brand I work with.  I almost clicked on a link that could have given them access to my accounts.  This experience is making me paranoid about online communication.  How can I recognize phishing scams and avoid compromising my online security?,cyberbullying,received suspicious email pretending brand work almost clicked link could given access account experience making paranoid online communication recognize phishing scam avoid compromising security,,
"iam 20, an accidental influencer,a funny video I posted went unexpectedly viral. Now I have a large following, but with it comes a wave of negativity.  People nitpick everything I do, leave nasty comments, and even create fake accounts to spread rumors.  I miss the days before the online scrutiny started",cyberbullying,iam accidental influencer funny video posted went unexpectedly viral large following come wave negativity people nitpick everything leave nasty comment even create fake account spread rumor miss day online scrutiny started,,
"I'm a 22-year-old college student and lately I've been feeling really down. People on social media keep making fun of my appearance in comments, and it's affecting my self-esteem. I don't even want to leave my dorm room anymore.",cyberbullying,year old college student lately feeling really people social medium keep making fun appearance comment affecting self esteem even want leave dorm room anymore,,
" I am a freelance writerbut unknowingly I shared personal information with a dishonest client. The client threatens to expose the information online unless i agrees to work for free, creating a terrifying situation.",cyberbullying,freelance writerbut unknowingly shared personal information dishonest client threatens expose online unless agrees work free creating terrifying situation,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm constantly under attack, with no safe haven from the relentless barrage of negativity. It's like I'm suffocating under the weight of their words.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like constantly attack safe relentless barrage negativity suffocating weight word,,
"While playing an online game, I've been targeted with personal attacks and insults from another player, who has been harassing me with offensive language and derogatory remarks. It's like I'm being verbally assaulted in the virtual world.

",cyberbullying,playing online game targeted personal attack insult another player harassing offensive language derogatory remark like verbally assaulted virtual world,,
All the mean comments and bullying I'm getting on social media from my peers are really bringing me down.,cyberbullying,mean comment bullying getting social medium peer really bringing,,
" I'm being cyberbullied at school. These kids keep sending me nasty messages and leaving me out of online groups. They make me feel invisible and worthless. I don't know what I did to deserve this, and I don't know how to make it stop.",cyberbullying,cyberbullied school kid keep sending nasty message leaving online group make feel invisible worthless know deserve stop,,
"I am her family member,The Senator's teenage daughter gets harassed online after expressing a political opinion different from her father's. Online trolls target her to pressure and silence the politician.",cyberbullying,family member senator teenage daughter get harassed online expressing political opinion different father troll target pressure silence politician,,
I'm feeling isolated because I'm being cyberbullied by a group of people online. They're excluding me from conversations and spreading rumors about me. How would you help me cope with this social rejection?,cyberbullying,feeling isolated cyberbullied group people online excluding conversation spreading rumor would help cope social rejection,,
"I've noticed a colleague spreading false rumors about me in a work-related chat group, leading to ostracization and professional setbacks. How can I address this cyberbullying in the workplace and protect my reputation?",cyberbullying,noticed colleague spreading false rumor work related chat group leading ostracization professional setback address cyberbullying workplace protect reputation,,
"Recently, I found out someone has been spreading false rumors about me through messaging apps and social media, which has led to friends distancing themselves from me. What steps can I take to address these rumors and restore my reputation?",cyberbullying,recently found someone spreading false rumor messaging apps social medium led friend distancing step take address restore reputation,,
"I work in retail and constantly deal with customers who take their frustrations out on me online, leaving negative reviews and posting rude comments about my service. It feels unfair and makes me feel undervalued. What strategies can I use to manage online negativity related to my customer service job?",cyberbullying,work retail constantly deal customer take frustration online leaving negative review posting rude comment service feel unfair make undervalued strategy use manage negativity related job,,
"I'm David, a 15-year-old boy. A group of classmates keeps editing my schoolwork assignments online and changing my answers to wrong ones. My grades are suffering, and the teacher thinks I'm not paying attention. How can I deal with cyberbullying that sabotages my schoolwork?",cyberbullying,david year old boy group classmate keep editing schoolwork assignment online changing answer wrong one grade suffering teacher think paying attention deal cyberbullying sabotage,,
"It feels like I'm constantly under attack, with no safe haven from the relentless barrage of negativity. Even offline, I can't escape the fear and anxiety that comes with being targeted by cyberbullies.",cyberbullying,feel like constantly attack safe relentless barrage negativity even offline escape fear anxiety come targeted cyberbullies,,
"While playing an online game, I've been targeted with offensive messages and threats from another player, who has been stalking me across multiple matches. It's like I'm being hunted in the virtual world, and it's making me feel unsafe.

",cyberbullying,playing online game targeted offensive message threat another player stalking across multiple match like hunted virtual world making feel unsafe,,
I've started using drugs and alcohol to numb the pain of being cyberbullied. How can I stop this dangerous coping mechanism?,cyberbullying,started using drug alcohol numb pain cyberbullied stop dangerous coping mechanism,,
"Sharing some tips I've learned on how to stay safe from cyberbullies. Strong passwords, privacy settings, and knowing when to report are key!",cyberbullying,sharing tip learned stay safe cyberbullies strong password privacy setting knowing report key,,
"Iam a male reporter,A story I wrote sparked outrage on social media, even though it was based on facts.  I'm being accused of bias and misinformation.  The online threats and insults are making me question the safety of investigative journalism.  How can I handle this online backlash and ensure my safety while reporting the truth?",cyberbullying,iam male reporter story wrote sparked outrage social medium even though based fact accused bias misinformation online threat insult making question safety investigative journalism handle backlash ensure reporting truth,,
"Iam a single mom, i noticed unfamiliar charges on my credit card statement.  There are online purchases I never made, and I'm terrified someone has stolen my identity.  I'm a single mom and can't afford to be financially ruined.  How can I stop the fraudulent activity and recover my stolen identity?",cyberbullying,iam single mom noticed unfamiliar charge credit card statement online purchase never made terrified someone stolen identity afford financially ruined stop fraudulent activity recover,,
"I'm Matthew, a 30-year-old photographer. I recently shared a photo series online that got some negative attention from a prominent critic. Now, trolls are flooding my social media with hateful comments and insults about my artistic style. It's affecting my self-confidence and making me question my work. How can I develop thicker skin and deal with cyberbullies who target professional artists?",cyberbullying,matthew year old photographer recently shared photo series online got negative attention prominent critic troll flooding social medium hateful comment insult artistic style affecting self confidence making question work develop thicker skin deal cyberbullies target professional artist,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the manipulation of my online accounts and profiles. It's like someone is controlling my online presence, and I don't know how to regain control.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied manipulation online account profile like someone controlling presence know regain control,,
"I'm Ethan, a 23-year-old barista. A customer I had a disagreement with keeps leaving negative reviews about me on the coffee shop's social media page, calling me rude and unprofessional. It's affecting my reputation at work and making me anxious about interacting with customers. How can I deal with cyberbullying that stems from a customer service issue?",cyberbullying,ethan year old barista customer disagreement keep leaving negative review coffee shop social medium page calling rude unprofessional affecting reputation work making anxious interacting deal cyberbullying stem service issue,,
"I'm feeling hopeless because I'm being cyberbullied by someone at school, and it feels like there's no escape. How would you help me regain a sense of control over this situation?",cyberbullying,feeling hopeless cyberbullied someone school feel like escape would help regain sense control situation,,
"I receive constant online harassment for my political views, making me fear for my safety. What precautions can I take to protect myself both online and offline?",cyberbullying,receive constant online harassment political view making fear safety precaution take protect offline,,
"It feels like there's no escape from this cyberbullying. I've tried blocking the accounts, but they just create new ones. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel trapped.",cyberbullying,feel like escape cyberbullying tried blocking account create new one know anymore trapped,,
"Lucas, a 19-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category) here. I joined a gaming forum to connect with other players of my favorite online game. Unfortunately, a group of more experienced players keeps mocking me for my lower skill level and using racial stereotypes in their insults. It's making it difficult to improve my skills and enjoy the game. How can I deal with cyberbullying based on race and skill level within an online gaming community?",cyberbullying,lucas year old college student still appropriate category joined gaming forum connect player favorite online game unfortunately group experienced keep mocking lower skill level using racial stereotype insult making difficult improve enjoy deal cyberbullying based race within community,,
"I've been the target of a campaign to discredit me online, with individuals spreading false information and lies about me across various platforms. It's like my credibility is being undermined, and I'm struggling to defend myself.

",cyberbullying,target campaign discredit online individual spreading false information lie across various platform like credibility undermined struggling defend,,
"I'm constantly worried about my online reputation and what people are saying about me, it's really affecting my mental health.",cyberbullying,constantly worried online reputation people saying really affecting mental health,,
"Iam 30 yrd old ,Fashion blogger, recently posted a sponsored content piece that some people found offensive.  Now I'm facing a wave of negative comments and even threats to boycott my brand partnerships.  It's overwhelming and makes me question everything I've built online.  How can I navigate online backlash and rebuild trust with my audience?",cyberbullying,iam yrd old fashion blogger recently posted sponsored content piece people found offensive facing wave negative comment even threat boycott brand partnership overwhelming make question everything built online navigate backlash rebuild trust audience,,
I feel isolated and alone after being cyberbullied. How can I reconnect with others and find support?,cyberbullying,feel isolated alone cyberbullied reconnect others find support,,
I feel like the cyberbullying will never end and I'll always be a target. How can I regain a sense of hope and optimism for the future?,cyberbullying,feel like cyberbullying never end always target regain sense hope optimism future,,
"I'm Liam, a 18-year-old man. I recently joined an online forum for my favorite sports team, but some members constantly target me with opposing viewpoints and personal attacks. It's making it impossible to participate in discussions. How can I handle cyberbullying within online communities?",cyberbullying,liam year old man recently joined online forum favorite sport team member constantly target opposing viewpoint personal attack making impossible participate discussion handle cyberbullying within community,,
"I'm Ava, a 37-year-old artist. After showcasing my work at a local gallery, someone posted a scathing review online, filled with personal attacks on my artistic style. It's discouraging and making me hesitant to put my art out there again. How can I build resilience against cyberbullying that targets an artist's creative expression?",cyberbullying,ava year old artist showcasing work local gallery someone posted scathing review online filled personal attack artistic style discouraging making hesitant put art build resilience cyberbullying target creative expression,,
"I'm a 22-year-old college student and lately I've been feeling really down and anxious. People on social media have been posting rumors about me, and it's affecting my self-esteem. I constantly check my phone to see if there are new messages.",cyberbullying,year old college student lately feeling really anxious people social medium posting rumor affecting self esteem constantly check phone see new message,,
"I'm Charlotte, a 18-year-old woman. Someone found out about my learning disability and started a social media group mocking my struggles. It's affecting my self-confidence and making me feel ashamed to ask for help in school. What can I do about cyberbullying that targets a personal disability?",cyberbullying,charlotte year old woman someone found learning disability started social medium group mocking struggle affecting self confidence making feel ashamed ask help school cyberbullying target personal,,
"I am 30 yrs old male ,i befriended someone online while playing a game, but now I suspect they created a fake character to manipulate me into giving them in-game resources.  It feels like a betrayal, and I don't know who to trust online anymore.  How can I find genuine connections within online gaming communities?",cyberbullying,yr old male befriended someone online playing game suspect created fake character manipulate giving resource feel like betrayal know trust anymore find genuine connection within gaming community,,
Noticed students leaving hateful comments on each other's work in the online classroom. How can I address cyberbullying and create a safe learning environment?,cyberbullying,noticed student leaving hateful comment work online classroom address cyberbullying create safe learning environment,,
The amount of time I spend scrolling and comparing myself to others is making me feel really isolated and lonely.,cyberbullying,amount time spend scrolling comparing others making feel really isolated lonely,,
"I'm a 17-year-old boy and lately I've been feeling excluded from my online friend group. They used to message me all the time, but now they barely talk to me. I see them posting jokes and memes together and I feel left out.",cyberbullying,year old boy lately feeling excluded online friend group used message time barely talk see posting joke meme together feel left,,
"I'm Sophia, a 20-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category). I joined a social media group for my college dorm. It's supposed to be a space for residents to connect and share information. However, a group of students keeps using the platform to spread rumors and gossip about me. They're targeting my personality and social life, making me feel isolated and anxious in my dorm. How can I deal with cyberbullying within a closed online community for a specific group (like dorm residents)?",cyberbullying,sophia year old college student still appropriate category joined social medium group dorm supposed space resident connect share information however keep using platform spread rumor gossip targeting personality life making feel isolated anxious deal cyberbullying within closed online community specific like,,
"I'm Layla, a 42-year-old public speaker. After a controversial presentation, I received a wave of online backlash, including hateful comments and threats. It's impacting my mental health and making me afraid to speak publicly again. How can I cope with cyberbullying after facing negative feedback on my work as a public speaker?",cyberbullying,layla year old public speaker controversial presentation received wave online backlash including hateful comment threat impacting mental health making afraid speak publicly cope cyberbullying facing negative feedback work,,
"I am experiencing subtle forms of cyberbullying in online games like gaslighting.  Other players subtly belittle my skills, question my decisions, creating a confusing and demoralizing environment.",cyberbullying,experiencing subtle form cyberbullying online game like gaslighting player subtly belittle skill question decision creating confusing demoralizing environment,,
"After a breakup, my ex-partner is using their social media to post harmful content about me. What are my options for dealing with this kind of personal attack?",cyberbullying,breakup ex partner using social medium post harmful content option dealing kind personal attack,,
"I'm a creator on a video-sharing platform, and lately, I've been receiving a barrage of coordinated harassment from a group that disagrees with my content. It's affecting my motivation to create. How can I handle this situation without giving up on my passion for creating content?",cyberbullying,creator video sharing platform lately receiving barrage coordinated harassment group disagrees content affecting motivation create handle situation without giving passion creating,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the spread of false accusations and rumors about me online, affecting my relationships and reputation. It's like I'm being unfairly targeted, and it's causing me distress.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied spread false accusation rumor online affecting relationship reputation like unfairly targeted causing distress,,
"As a teacher, I've witnessed cyberbullying among students in online classrooms and group chats. The hurtful comments and exclusionary behavior are affecting the learning environment. How can I address cyberbullying and promote respectful online interactions among students?",cyberbullying,teacher witnessed cyberbullying among student online classroom group chat hurtful comment exclusionary behavior affecting learning environment address promote respectful interaction,,
Saw someone cyberbullying another user and reacted angrily in the comments. Now I'm worried I escalated the situation and made things worse for the victim. Should I have just reported the bully and kept quiet?,cyberbullying,saw someone cyberbullying another user reacted angrily comment worried escalated situation made thing worse victim reported bully kept quiet,,
"I've discovered that my child is being cyberbullied by classmates through messaging apps and social media. Their self-esteem has plummeted, and they're reluctant to talk about their experiences. How can I support my child and address the cyberbullying effectively?",cyberbullying,discovered child cyberbullied classmate messaging apps social medium self esteem plummeted reluctant talk experience support address cyberbullying effectively,,
"Despite my efforts to stay positive, the cyberbullying has made it difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's like I'm stuck in a perpetual storm, with no reprieve from the darkness.",cyberbullying,despite effort stay positive cyberbullying made difficult see light end tunnel like stuck perpetual storm reprieve darkness,,
"iam 20yrs old female ,Someone online is threatening to expose my personal information publicly (doxing) if I don't do what they say.  I'm scared and don't know how to handle this situation.  What steps can I take to protect my privacy and stop this cyber threat?",cyberbullying,iam yr old female someone online threatening expose personal information publicly doxing say scared know handle situation step take protect privacy stop cyber threat,,
"Layla, a 50-year-old advocate for mental health awareness. I share my personal experiences and mental health resources online to help others. Lately, a group of online bullies keep leaving dismissive comments, accusing me of attention-seeking and making light of mental health struggles. It's discouraging and makes me question the impact of my advocacy efforts. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets someone who advocates for mental health awareness?",cyberbullying,layla year old advocate mental health awareness share personal experience resource online help others lately group bully keep leaving dismissive comment accusing attention seeking making light struggle discouraging make question impact advocacy effort handle cyberbullying target someone,,
"The cyberbullying has left me feeling like I'm trapped in a never-ending nightmare, unable to wake up no matter how hard I try. It's like I'm caught in a cycle of despair with no way out.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying left feeling like trapped never ending nightmare unable wake matter hard try caught cycle despair way,,
I'm facing cyberbullying from someone spreading rumors about me online. How can I deal with this situation?,cyberbullying,facing cyberbullying someone spreading rumor online deal situation,,
I saw a hurtful meme shared about my granddaughter on social media. How should I address this with her and offer support?,cyberbullying,saw hurtful meme shared granddaughter social medium address offer support,,
I'm scared to post anything now because of how harshly people judge. How can I regain my confidence?,cyberbullying,scared post anything harshly people judge regain confidence,,
"Olivia, a 45-year-old artist, here. I showcase my work at local galleries and online art communities. Recently, a negative review of my art exhibition appeared on a popular art blog. The reviewer used inflammatory language and made personal attacks on my artistic style. It's discouraging me from exhibiting my work again and making me question my artistic value. How can I cope with cyberbullying in the form of a scathing art review?",cyberbullying,olivia year old artist showcase work local gallery online art community recently negative review exhibition appeared popular blog reviewer used inflammatory language made personal attack artistic style discouraging exhibiting making question value cope cyberbullying form scathing,,
" Iam a musician,someone leaked a demo of my unfinished song online.  It's getting negative feedback because it's not polished, and people are comparing it to my previous work.  It's discouraging and makes me hesitant to share my creative process online anymore.  How can I deal with online criticism of unfinished work and maintain confidence in my creative vision?",cyberbullying,iam musician someone leaked demo unfinished song online getting negative feedback polished people comparing previous work discouraging make hesitant share creative process anymore deal criticism maintain confidence vision,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I'm worth of love and acceptance. It's like I am constantly seeking validation from others, but no matter how hard I try, I never feel good enough.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether worth love acceptance like constantly seeking validation others matter hard try never feel good enough,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm walking a tightrope, constantly teetering between defending myself and succumbing to their attacks. It's like I'm trapped in a never-ending battle with no clear path to victory.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like walking tightrope constantly teetering defending succumbing attack trapped never ending battle clear path victory,,
I'm having a hard time trusting people because of all the nasty rumors that have been spreading about me on social media.,cyberbullying,hard time trusting people nasty rumor spreading social medium,,
"On social media platforms, I've been targeted with constant harassment and derogatory comments from certain individuals who seem intent on making me feel unworthy. It's like I'm constantly under attack, and it's greatly affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform targeted constant harassment derogatory comment certain individual seem intent making feel unworthy like constantly attack greatly affecting mental well,,
How can I help a friend who's being cyberbullied but doesn't want to talk about it?,cyberbullying,help friend cyberbullied want talk,,
"I'm constantly worried about my online reputation and what people are saying about me behind my back, it's causing me so much anxiety.",cyberbullying,constantly worried online reputation people saying behind back causing much anxiety,,
"I am a retiree,I recently fell victim to an online scam.  Now I'm constantly bombarded with spam messages and feel embarrassed about being targeted.  It's shaken my trust in using the internet.  How can I avoid future scams and regain confidence in navigating the online world?",cyberbullying,retiree recently fell victim online scam constantly bombarded spam message feel embarrassed targeted shaken trust using internet avoid future regain confidence navigating world,,
" I exposed unethical practices at my former company anonymously online.  Now, they've launched a smear campaign, using fake profiles to spread rumors and discredit me.  I'm living in constant fear of my identity being revealed and facing retaliation",cyberbullying,exposed unethical practice former company anonymously online launched smear campaign using fake profile spread rumor discredit living constant fear identity revealed facing retaliation,,
"iam 20yrs old female,My ex won't leave me alone online.  He keeps creating fake accounts to contact me, sending harassing messages, and even posting embarrassing photos from our relationship.  It's affecting my schoolwork and social life.  How can I deal with this cyberstalking and protect myself online?",cyberbullying,iam yr old female ex leave alone online keep creating fake account contact sending harassing message even posting embarrassing photo relationship affecting schoolwork social life deal cyberstalking protect,,
Seeing everyone else's picture-perfect lives on Instagram is seriously hurting my self-confidence as a student.,cyberbullying,seeing everyone else picture perfect life instagram seriously hurting self confidence student,,
I'm receiving threatening messages from someone online. How should I respond to ensure my safety?,cyberbullying,receiving threatening message someone online respond ensure safety,,
" I shared a news article online, but a misunderstanding sparks outrage. An online mob misinterprets my post and bombards me with hateful messages, accusing me of promoting harmful views.",cyberbullying,shared news article online misunderstanding spark outrage mob misinterprets post bombard hateful message accusing promoting harmful view,,
The shame and embarrassment from being publicly humiliated online is really taking a toll on my mental health.,cyberbullying,shame embarrassment publicly humiliated online really taking toll mental health,,
I'm struggling with anxiety and depression because of the cyberbullying I've experienced. How can I start feeling better about myself?,cyberbullying,struggling anxiety depression cyberbullying experienced start feeling better,,
"I am 45 yrs old male,i tried online dating to find someone special, but I keep encountering fake profiles.  It's discouraging and makes me question whether genuine connections are even possible online.  What are some strategies for spotting fake profiles and avoiding online dating scams?",cyberbullying,yr old male tried online dating find someone special keep encountering fake profile discouraging make question whether genuine connection even possible strategy spotting avoiding scam,,
"I've been targeted with fake accounts impersonating me on social media, and the impersonators are spreading false information about me. It's like my identity has been stolen, and I'm struggling to regain control.

",cyberbullying,targeted fake account impersonating social medium impersonator spreading false information like identity stolen struggling regain control,,
"After speaking out about a social issue online, I've received a flood of negative and threatening comments. How can I cope with the overwhelming negativity and maintain my stance on the issue?",cyberbullying,speaking social issue online received flood negative threatening comment cope overwhelming negativity maintain stance,,
"Despite my best efforts to stay positive, the cyberbullying has left me feeling like I'm drowning in a sea of negativity. It's like no matter how hard I try to keep my head above water, I keep getting pulled under.",cyberbullying,despite best effort stay positive cyberbullying left feeling like drowning sea negativity matter hard try keep head water getting pulled,,
"The constant fear of being targeted has made me hyper-aware of every online interaction, second-guessing every post and comment for fear of attracting more negative attention. It's exhausting to live in a state of perpetual vigilance, never knowing when the next attack will come.",cyberbullying,constant fear targeted made hyper aware every online interaction second guessing post comment attracting negative attention exhausting live state perpetual vigilance never knowing next attack come,,
I'm feeling overwhelmed because I'm being cyberbullied by someone I thought was my friend. They've been sharing private information about me online and making hurtful comments. How would you help me cope with this betrayal?,cyberbullying,feeling overwhelmed cyberbullied someone thought friend sharing private information online making hurtful comment would help cope betrayal,,
I'm feeling scared and intimidated because someone is threatening me online. How would you advise me to stay safe?,cyberbullying,feeling scared intimidated someone threatening online would advise stay safe,,
"I used to find solace in connecting with others online, but now it feels like I'm walking on eggshells, constantly on guard against the next wave of cyberbullying. The anonymity of the internet emboldens my tormentors, allowing them to unleash their cruelty without consequence. I long for a reprieve from the constant onslaught, a moment of peace in a virtual world filled with hostility.",cyberbullying,used find solace connecting others online feel like walking eggshell constantly guard next wave cyberbullying anonymity internet emboldens tormentor allowing unleash cruelty without consequence long reprieve constant onslaught moment peace virtual world filled hostility,,
I express concern that my child is being cyberbullied but I don't know how to help. What advice would you offer to me?,cyberbullying,express concern child cyberbullied know help advice would offer,,
"The thought of logging on to social media fills me with dread, knowing that I'll be met with more hurtful comments and malicious attacks. It's like I'm walking into a battlefield unarmed, with no defense against the onslaught of negativity.",cyberbullying,thought logging social medium fill dread knowing met hurtful comment malicious attack like walking battlefield unarmed defense onslaught negativity,,
I confide in you that I am being cyberbullied by my classmates. I describe receiving hurtful messages and comments on social media. How would you address this situation?,cyberbullying,confide cyberbullied classmate describe receiving hurtful message comment social medium would address situation,,
"The cyberbullying has shattered my trust in others, leaving me feeling paranoid and suspicious of everyone's intentions. It's like I'm constantly questioning the authenticity of every online interaction, unable to let my guard down",cyberbullying,cyberbullying shattered trust others leaving feeling paranoid suspicious everyone intention like constantly questioning authenticity every online interaction unable let guard,,
How can I make new friends online that share my interests without risking my safety or privacy?,cyberbullying,make new friend online share interest without risking safety privacy,,
"While playing an online game, I've been targeted with repeated harassment and verbal attacks from a group of players, who have been ganging up on me during matches. It's like I'm being bullied by a virtual mob, and it's making me feel powerless.

",cyberbullying,playing online game targeted repeated harassment verbal attack group player ganging match like bullied virtual mob making feel powerless,,
My grandson seems reluctant to talk about his online interactions. How can I encourage open communication without prying?,cyberbullying,grandson seems reluctant talk online interaction encourage open communication without prying,,
"Ben, a 19-year-old high school student, here. I recently joined an online forum to discuss movies. I enjoy sharing my opinions and engaging in civil debates. However, a group of users frequently silence my views with downvotes and dismissive comments. They make fun of my taste in movies and mock my attempts to participate in discussions. It's making me feel unwelcome and discouraged from sharing my opinions online. How can I deal with cyberbullying based on differing taste or opinions within online communities?",cyberbullying,ben year old high school student recently joined online forum discus movie enjoy sharing opinion engaging civil debate however group user frequently silence view downvotes dismissive comment make fun taste mock attempt participate discussion making feel unwelcome discouraged deal cyberbullying based differing within community,,
"My professor keeps making passive-aggressive comments about students' work in the online discussion forum. It's unnecessary and hurtful. Shouldn't a professor be encouraging us, not putting us down?",cyberbullying,professor keep making passive aggressive comment student work online discussion forum unnecessary hurtful encouraging u putting,,
 This online harassment is affecting everything in my life. I can't focus on schoolwork because I'm constantly worried about what they're going to say next. It's also hurting my friendships because I don't feel like I can confide in anyone.,cyberbullying,online harassment affecting everything life focus schoolwork constantly worried going say next also hurting friendship feel like confide anyone,,
" There's this person at school who keeps harassing me online. They say horrible things and threaten me. I'm scared to tell anyone about it, not even my parents. I don't want things to get worse, but I'm starting to feel hopeless.",cyberbullying,person school keep harassing online say horrible thing threaten scared tell anyone even parent want get worse starting feel hopeless,,
I feel intimidated and threatened by someone online who keeps harassing me. How can I ensure my safety?,cyberbullying,feel intimidated threatened someone online keep harassing ensure safety,,
"I've been participating in an online gaming community, and I've noticed that other players are targeting me with insults and threats during matches. It's like I'm being singled out, and it's making the gaming experience unpleasant.

",cyberbullying,participating online gaming community noticed player targeting insult threat match like singled making experience unpleasant,,
I've been feeling really down lately because of all the nasty comments and bullying I've been getting online.,cyberbullying,feeling really lately nasty comment bullying getting online,,
"Despite my attempts to stay positive, the cyberbullying has left me feeling drained and defeated. It's like I'm fighting a losing battle, with no end in sight.",cyberbullying,despite attempt stay positive cyberbullying left feeling drained defeated like fighting losing battle end sight,,
"I'm being cyberbullied at school, and it's affecting my academic performance. How can I manage the situation?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied school affecting academic performance manage situation,,
"After breaking up with my partner, they've turned to cyberbullying as a means of retaliation. The hurtful messages and public shaming have left me feeling anxious and powerless. How can I protect myself from this cyberbullying and move forward with my life?",cyberbullying,breaking partner turned cyberbullying mean retaliation hurtful message public shaming left feeling anxious powerless protect move forward life,,
"I streams video games for a living, but a group of online trolls have fixated on my appearance and constantly make sexist and misogynistic comments in the chat.  The harassment creates a hostile environment and discourages me from engaging with viewers.",cyberbullying,stream video game living group online troll fixated appearance constantly make sexist misogynistic comment chat harassment creates hostile environment discourages engaging viewer,,
"I'm being cyberbullied by someone I know, and it's causing me significant distress. How can I handle the situation?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied someone know causing significant distress handle situation,,
"I am passionate about learning a new language and shared my progress online.  Online trolls exploit my mistakes, make fun of my accent, and discourage me from practicing, creating a hostile learning environment.",cyberbullying,passionate learning new language shared progress online troll exploit mistake make fun accent discourage practicing creating hostile environment,,
I'm afraid to report the cyberbullying because I don't want to make things worse. What should I do?,cyberbullying,afraid report cyberbullying want make thing worse,,
"I am a female artist,Someone copied my artwork and created a fake online portfolio using my style.  They're even trying to sell prints of my stolen work.  It's a violation of my intellectual property, and I feel helpless.  How can I protect my art online and fight back against art theft?",cyberbullying,female artist someone copied artwork created fake online portfolio using style even trying sell print stolen work violation intellectual property feel helpless protect art fight back theft,,
"I've been targeted with a barrage of offensive messages and comments on my social media posts, with users attacking my appearance and personality. It's like I'm being judged and ridiculed, and it's affecting my self-esteem.

",cyberbullying,targeted barrage offensive message comment social medium post user attacking appearance personality like judged ridiculed affecting self esteem,,
"Despite my efforts to brush off the hurtful comments, they continue to gnaw at my self-esteem like a persistent itch. It's like I'm stuck in a cycle of self-doubt and insecurity.",cyberbullying,despite effort brush hurtful comment continue gnaw self esteem like persistent itch stuck cycle doubt insecurity,,
"Put my heart and soul into making music, but online reviews are harsh and discouraging. People are calling my music noise and saying I should quit. Starting to doubt my passion.",cyberbullying,put heart soul making music online review harsh discouraging people calling noise saying quit starting doubt passion,,
"Ava, a 38-year-old professional athlete. I train and compete at a high level. While I win some and lose some, online trolls relentlessly criticize my performance after every competition. They use excessive negativity and personal attacks, regardless of the outcome. It's affecting my mental well-being and making it difficult to stay focused on my sport. How can I develop resilience against cyberbullying that constantly criticizes an athlete's performance?",cyberbullying,ava year old professional athlete train compete high level win lose online troll relentlessly criticize performance every competition use excessive negativity personal attack regardless outcome affecting mental well making difficult stay focused sport develop resilience cyberbullying constantly criticizes,,
"Iam 14 yrs old male,i followed this super cool celebrity online, but then I found out their whole account was a fake!  They were pretending to be famous and had thousands of followers.  It makes me question everything I see online.  How can I tell the difference between real and fake accounts on social media?",cyberbullying,iam yr old male followed super cool celebrity online found whole account fake pretending famous thousand follower make question everything see tell difference real social medium,,
"I'm Michael, a 21-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category). I joined an online club for my major, but some upperclassmen keep making condescending remarks and excluding me from discussions because I'm a freshman. It's discouraging and making me feel unwelcome in the online community. How can I deal with cyberbullying based on academic seniority within online communities?",cyberbullying,michael year old college student still appropriate category joined online club major upperclassmen keep making condescending remark excluding discussion freshman discouraging feel unwelcome community deal cyberbullying based academic seniority within,,
"I'm Sophia, a 35-year-old virtual world enthusiast. I built a beautiful virtual world space for relaxation and socializing. Recently, a group of users from another virtual world known for negativity raided my space, causing chaos and harassing my regular visitors. How can I create a safe and inclusive space within a virtual world despite the threat of cyberbullying raids?",cyberbullying,sophia year old virtual world enthusiast built beautiful space relaxation socializing recently group user another known negativity raided causing chaos harassing regular visitor create safe inclusive within despite threat cyberbullying raid,,
"I'm Sophia, a 16-year-old girl. Someone keeps creating parody accounts of me on social media, mimicking my voice and posting embarrassing things. It feels like they're stealing my identity and making me look bad to others. What can I do about cyberbullies who impersonate me online?",cyberbullying,sophia year old girl someone keep creating parody account social medium mimicking voice posting embarrassing thing feel like stealing identity making look bad others cyberbullies impersonate online,,
"I'm Sarah, a 16-year-old high school student and aspiring musician. Someone keeps creating fake social media profiles pretending to be me, posting embarrassing childhood photos and mean comments. It's affecting my reputation at school and making me afraid to share my music online. How can I deal with cyberbullying that uses impersonation?",cyberbullying,sarah year old high school student aspiring musician someone keep creating fake social medium profile pretending posting embarrassing childhood photo mean comment affecting reputation making afraid share music online deal cyberbullying us impersonation,,
"I used to enjoy spending time on social media, but now it feels like a minefield, with every post and comment carrying the potential for backlash from the cyberbullies. It's like I'm tiptoeing around my own digital life, afraid of setting off an explosion.",cyberbullying,used enjoy spending time social medium feel like minefield every post comment carrying potential backlash cyberbullies tiptoeing around digital life afraid setting explosion,,
"I'm Olivia, a 48-year-old single parent. After posting a heartfelt message on a social media forum about the challenges of single parenting, I received a barrage of judgmental comments questioning my parenting choices. It's making me feel inadequate and ashamed to share personal experiences online. How can I navigate online support groups while dealing with cyberbullying from other parents?",cyberbullying,olivia year old single parent posting heartfelt message social medium forum challenge parenting received barrage judgmental comment questioning choice making feel inadequate ashamed share personal experience online navigate support group dealing cyberbullying,,
"Despite my efforts to project confidence and resilience, the truth is that each hurtful comment chips away at my self-worth. I find myself questioning everything about myself, from my appearance to my intelligence, as if the opinions of faceless strangers hold the power to define my worth. It's a constant battle to remind myself that I am more than the sum of their hateful words.",cyberbullying,despite effort project confidence resilience truth hurtful comment chip away self worth find questioning everything appearance intelligence opinion faceless stranger hold power define constant battle remind sum hateful word,,
The cyberbullying has made me question whether I can ever trust anyone online again. It's like the anonymity of the internet has turned everyone into a potential threat.,cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether ever trust anyone online like anonymity internet turned everyone potential threat,,
People can be so awful online. Why do strangers feel the need to tear others down? Just needed to express my frustration over the constant negativity and bullying I see everywhere.,cyberbullying,people awful online stranger feel need tear others needed express frustration constant negativity bullying see everywhere,,
"I am 50 yrs old female entrepreneur, Someone created fake profiles to post negative reviews about my business online.  It's damaging my reputation and driving away potential customers.  What steps can I take to address fake online reviews and protect my business?",cyberbullying,yr old female entrepreneur someone created fake profile post negative review business online damaging reputation driving away potential customer step take address protect,,
Confused by how quickly people get attacked online for mistakes. Is there a healthy way to hold people accountable without resorting to cyberbullying?,cyberbullying,confused quickly people get attacked online mistake healthy way hold accountable without resorting cyberbullying,,
"I am a 16yrs old gamer,i won a big online gaming tournament, and now someone is threatening to swat me.  They're spreading my address online and encouraging people to call in a fake emergency to my house.  It's terrifying and makes me scared to play games online anymore.  How can I deal with online threats like swatting and ensure my safety?",cyberbullying,yr old gamer big online gaming tournament someone threatening swat spreading address encouraging people call fake emergency house terrifying make scared play game anymore deal threat like swatting ensure safety,,
"I  writes fan fiction for a popular TV show, but my work is copied and posted on another platform without credit. The plagiarized version gains more traction, leaving me feeling unrecognized.",cyberbullying,writes fan fiction popular tv show work copied posted another platform without credit plagiarized version gain traction leaving feeling unrecognized,,
I'm worried about a friend who posts about feeling hopeless and lonely. How can I help them?,cyberbullying,worried friend post feeling hopeless lonely help,,
"After experiencing cyberbullying in an online support group for mental health, I'm hesitant to seek help or share my struggles with others. How can I find a safe and supportive online community without risking further cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,experiencing cyberbullying online support group mental health hesitant seek help share struggle others find safe supportive community without risking,,
Seeing everyone else's perfect lives online is really hurting my self-esteem.,cyberbullying,seeing everyone else perfect life online really hurting self esteem,,
I feel left out and isolated because I'm not invited to things I see on social media. How can I deal with these feelings?,cyberbullying,feel left isolated invited thing see social medium deal feeling,,
"A parent of a student is constantly harassing me online, making personal attacks and accusations about my teaching methods. It's affecting my work performance and causing me emotional distress. How can I deal with this online bullying and maintain a professional online presence?",cyberbullying,parent student constantly harassing online making personal attack accusation teaching method affecting work performance causing emotional distress deal bullying maintain professional presence,,
"Seeing all the perfect, happy lives on Instagram is making me feel so inadequate and depressed.",cyberbullying,seeing perfect happy life instagram making feel inadequate depressed,,
I admit to feeling depressed and anxious due to cyberbullying on social media. I am hesitant to report it out of fear of retaliation. How would you encourage me to seek help?,cyberbullying,admit feeling depressed anxious due cyberbullying social medium hesitant report fear retaliation would encourage seek help,,
"The constant barrage of hateful messages and hurtful comments leaves me feeling raw and exposed, like an open wound that never has a chance to heal. I wonder how people can be so cruel, how they can derive pleasure from tearing others down from behind the safety of their screens. It's a sobering reminder of the darker side of human nature, one that I'm forced to confront every time I log on to social media.",cyberbullying,constant barrage hateful message hurtful comment leaf feeling raw exposed like open wound never chance heal wonder people cruel derive pleasure tearing others behind safety screen sobering reminder darker side human nature one forced confront every time log social medium,,
"I'm Olivia, a 34-year-old single mom. A group of people from my online parenting forum keeps making negative comments about my parenting choices. It's making me feel judged and insecure about my abilities as a mother. How can I deal with cyberbullying within online communities meant for support?",cyberbullying,olivia year old single mom group people online parenting forum keep making negative comment choice feel judged insecure ability mother deal cyberbullying within community meant support,,
"Layla, a 58-year-old retiree, here. I joined an online genealogy forum to research my family history. However, another member keeps making harassing comments about my family lineage, questioning the validity of my research, and using insensitive language. It's turning a hobby into a stressful experience and making me feel unwelcome in the online community. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets genealogy research online?",cyberbullying,layla year old retiree joined online genealogy forum research family history however another member keep making harassing comment lineage questioning validity using insensitive language turning hobby stressful experience feel unwelcome community deal cyberbullying target,,
"I'm Noah, a 15-year-old boy. A rumor spread online that I cheated on a school test. Everyone's talking about it and I'm failing classes because I can't focus on schoolwork. How can I deal with cyberbullying that hurts my academic performance?",cyberbullying,noah year old boy rumor spread online cheated school test everyone talking failing class focus schoolwork deal cyberbullying hurt academic performance,,
I'm being targeted by a cyberbully who's spreading false information about me online. How can I stop this?,cyberbullying,targeted cyberbully spreading false information online stop,,
"The constant fear of being targeted by bullies online is giving me so much anxiety, I'm having a hard time functioning.",cyberbullying,constant fear targeted bully online giving much anxiety hard time functioning,,
"It's disheartening to see how quickly friends and acquaintances turn against me, joining in on the cyberbullying instead of offering support. The betrayal cuts deep, leaving me feeling isolated and abandoned in my darkest hour. I wonder what I did to deserve such cruelty, why my mere presence online seems to provoke such vitriol from others.",cyberbullying,disheartening see quickly friend acquaintance turn joining cyberbullying instead offering support betrayal cut deep leaving feeling isolated abandoned darkest hour wonder deserve cruelty mere presence online seems provoke vitriol others,,
I'm 20 and I've been receiving hateful messages on social media. It's really affecting my mental health.,cyberbullying,receiving hateful message social medium really affecting mental health,,
I discovered a website that has posted personal information about me alongside derogatory remarks. What legal actions can I take to have this content removed and hold the posters accountable?,cyberbullying,discovered website posted personal information alongside derogatory remark legal action take content removed hold poster accountable,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I can ever feel safe online again. It's like I'm constantly looking over my shoulder, expecting the next attack to come at any moment.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether ever feel safe online like constantly looking shoulder expecting next attack come moment,,
"I'm Sarah, a 15-year-old girl. Everyone at school knows me for my love of singing, but lately, anonymous comments on my YouTube channel tear my performances apart. My voice cracks, they say, and I should just give up. How can I deal with online negativity that targets my passion?",cyberbullying,sarah year old girl everyone school know love singing lately anonymous comment youtube channel tear performance apart voice crack say give deal online negativity target passion,,
"A video was shared online that makes fun of a presentation I did, and it's going viral. How can I deal with the embarrassment and the negative attention it's bringing?",cyberbullying,video shared online make fun presentation going viral deal embarrassment negative attention bringing,,
"The constant harassment and betrayals I've faced online have made it so hard for me to trust anyone, even my closest friends in real life.",cyberbullying,constant harassment betrayal faced online made hard trust anyone even closest friend real life,,
"I am a 22 yrs old Female Youtuber , the hateful comments on my YouTube channel are really getting to me. People, mostly men, write these nasty things, criticizing my gaming skills, my appearance, even calling me names. It makes me feel worthless and discouraged from streaming.,i dont know what to do?",cyberbullying,yr old female youtuber hateful comment youtube channel really getting people mostly men write nasty thing criticizing gaming skill appearance even calling name make feel worthless discouraged streaming dont know,,
"i am a high school kid. I just don't get it.  At school, things are okay, you know?  There's some teasing, sure, but nothing major.  But online, it's like a different world.  It all started with this stupid meme someone made about my debate team outfit.  It wasn't even that bad, but it just blew up.  Now everyone's calling me plaid girl and tagging me in awful photoshops.  I've tried blocking them, but there are just so many accounts, and it feels like everyone at school has seen it by now.  I just... I don't even want to look at my phone anymore",cyberbullying,high school kid get thing okay know teasing sure nothing major online like different world started stupid meme someone made debate team outfit even bad blew everyone calling plaid girl tagging awful photoshops tried blocking many account feel seen want look phone anymore,,
"iam 28 yrs old female,Someone created a fake social media account impersonating me.  They're messaging my followers and damaging my reputation.  I'm worried about losing brand deals and sponsorships.  How can I report this impersonation and protect my online identity?",cyberbullying,iam yr old female someone created fake social medium account impersonating messaging follower damaging reputation worried losing brand deal sponsorship report impersonation protect online identity,,
"life is useless and not worth living for as I constantly get bullied online, no one cares about being and a lot of loved people in 2018 have died. I'm currently 14 and have been depressed for around 2 almost 3 years, I'm getting weaker and weaker",cyberbullying,life useless worth living constantly get bullied online one care lot loved people died currently depressed around almost year getting weaker,,
I'm having a hard time trusting my classmates and peers because of the nasty rumors spreading about me on social media.,cyberbullying,hard time trusting classmate peer nasty rumor spreading social medium,,
"I feel like I'm being cyberbullied because I'm different from others, and it's causing me a lot of distress. How would you support me?",cyberbullying,feel like cyberbullied different others causing lot distress would support,,
"I'm feeling hopeless and powerless because my peers are spreading rumors about me online, and it's affecting my reputation. How would you help me regain control of the situation?",cyberbullying,feeling hopeless powerless peer spreading rumor online affecting reputation would help regain control situation,,
"Trying to keep up this perfect, curated image online is draining all my energy and I'm neglecting my actual self-care as a result.",cyberbullying,trying keep perfect curated image online draining energy neglecting actual self care result,,
"I'm Ava, a 17-year-old girl. A group of classmates started a social media poll asking if I should be expelled. It's causing a lot of tension at school and making me feel unwelcome. How can I handle cyberbullying that tries to isolate me socially?",cyberbullying,ava year old girl group classmate started social medium poll asking expelled causing lot tension school making feel unwelcome handle cyberbullying try isolate socially,,
"I am 68 yrs old male, i received a phone call claiming to be from the Social Security Administration, threatening to suspend my benefits.  They asked for my personal information.  Now I'm worried I might have fallen for a scam.  Is there any way to recover my information and protect myself from future scams?",cyberbullying,yr old male received phone call claiming social security administration threatening suspend benefit asked personal information worried might fallen scam way recover protect future,,
"I (17 F) don't know why I even bother posting anything anymore. Every time I share a selfie, someone comments about my acne. If I write something funny, people say I'm attention-seeking. I just want to connect with people online, but it feels like everyone is waiting to tear me down.  Starting to think I'm better off staying offline.",cyberbullying,know even bother posting anything anymore every time share selfie someone comment acne write something funny people say attention seeking want connect online feel like everyone waiting tear starting think better staying offline,,
"I've noticed my sibling engaging in cyberbullying behavior towards others on social media, and it's causing tension within our family. How can I address the cyberbullying with my sibling and encourage them to seek help?",cyberbullying,noticed sibling engaging cyberbullying behavior towards others social medium causing tension within family address encourage seek help,,
I feel constantly on edge and hypervigilant after being cyberbullied. How can I feel more relaxed and secure?,cyberbullying,feel constantly edge hypervigilant cyberbullied relaxed secure,,
"I've discovered that my elderly parent is being cyberbullied by scammers and online predators, leading to financial exploitation and emotional distress. How can I protect my parent from cyberbullying and ensure their safety in the digital world?",cyberbullying,discovered elderly parent cyberbullied scammer online predator leading financial exploitation emotional distress protect cyberbullying ensure safety digital world,,
"I leads walking tours of my historic city. A disgruntled tourist posts a scathing review online, filled with exaggerations and fabrications, damaging my reputation and bookings",cyberbullying,lead walking tour historic city disgruntled tourist post scathing review online filled exaggeration fabrication damaging reputation booking,,
"I'm David, a 17-year-old guy. A group chat I used to enjoy has turned toxic. They constantly make fun of my clothes and taste in music. Leaving feels dramatic, but staying is making me anxious. What's the best way to handle cyberbullying within a friend group?",cyberbullying,david year old guy group chat used enjoy turned toxic constantly make fun clothes taste music leaving feel dramatic staying making anxious best way handle cyberbullying within friend,,
All the nasty comments and bullying I'm getting on social media are making me feel so down.,cyberbullying,nasty comment bullying getting social medium making feel,,
m feeling frustrated and angry because someone is spreading lies about me online. How would you help me address this situation?,cyberbullying,feeling frustrated angry someone spreading lie online would help address situation,,
"Iam a driver who drive for a rideshare company, and a recent passenger gave me a terrible rating based on a personal disagreement we had.  Now it's affecting my ability to get good rides and earn a living.  It feels unfair and makes me question the fairness of online rating systems.  How can I protect myself from unjustified negative reviews in the gig economy?",cyberbullying,iam driver drive rideshare company recent passenger gave terrible rating based personal disagreement affecting ability get good ride earn living feel unfair make question fairness online system protect unjustified negative review gig economy,,
"I've been receiving threats and intimidation online, and it's making me fear for my safety. It's like I'm being stalked and harassed, and I don't know how to protect myself.

",cyberbullying,receiving threat intimidation online making fear safety like stalked harassed know protect,,
I've been having suicidal thoughts after being cyberbullied. What should I do to stay safe?,cyberbullying,suicidal thought cyberbullied stay safe,,
"its serious.Someone keeps sending me private messages threatening to hurt me if I don't do what they say.  I'm so scared, and I don't know what to do.",cyberbullying,serious someone keep sending private message threatening hurt say scared know,,
"I'm Isabella, a 29-year-old graphic designer. Someone keeps creating parody accounts of me on social media, mocking my professional work and personal life. It feels like an invasion of privacy and a way to discredit me professionally. What can I do about cyberbullies who impersonate me online and target my career?",cyberbullying,isabella year old graphic designer someone keep creating parody account social medium mocking professional work personal life feel like invasion privacy way discredit professionally cyberbullies impersonate online target career,,
" I shared my love of birdwatching online, posting beautiful pictures and insightful observations. However, i encountered online trolls who mock myhobby, make fun of the birds, and spread misinformation about responsible birdwatching practices.",cyberbullying,shared love birdwatching online posting beautiful picture insightful observation however encountered troll mock myhobby make fun bird spread misinformation responsible practice,,
I'm 25 and I've been targeted by cyberbullies on social media. It's affecting my self-esteem and mental health.,cyberbullying,targeted cyberbullies social medium affecting self esteem mental health,,
The humiliation and embarrassment I feel after being publicly shamed online has completely crushed my self-worth and confidence.,cyberbullying,humiliation embarrassment feel publicly shamed online completely crushed self worth confidence,,
"I'm so anxious about what people are saying about me online, it's making it hard to focus in school.",cyberbullying,anxious people saying online making hard focus school,,
"I've been the target of relentless trolling and harassment on a forum I frequent, with users bombarding me with offensive comments and threats. It's like I'm being hounded, and it's making me dread going online.

",cyberbullying,target relentless trolling harassment forum frequent user bombarding offensive comment threat like hounded making dread going online,,
"The trolling and harassment I've faced online has made me really distrustful of people, even in my real life relationships.",cyberbullying,trolling harassment faced online made really distrustful people even real life relationship,,
"An old tweet of mine resurfaced, and now I'm being cancelled on Twitter.  The negativity is overwhelming, and I'm worried about losing my career.  How can I handle online controversy and rebuild my reputation after a social media misstep?",cyberbullying,old tweet mine resurfaced cancelled twitter negativity overwhelming worried losing career handle online controversy rebuild reputation social medium misstep,,
I'm afraid to interact with others online now due to fear of being bullied again. How can I overcome this social anxiety?,cyberbullying,afraid interact others online due fear bullied overcome social anxiety,,
"I'm Lucas, a 18-year-old man. A group of classmates keeps making fun of my stutter in a private chat, but somehow, I keep getting added to the conversation. It's making me self-conscious about speaking up in class and participating in group projects. What should I do about cyberbullying that targets a speech impediment?",cyberbullying,lucas year old man group classmate keep making fun stutter private chat somehow getting added conversation self conscious speaking class participating project cyberbullying target speech impediment,,
"I'm Daniel, a 25-year-old software developer. I recently launched a new app, but a group of anonymous users keeps flooding the review section with negative comments and one-star ratings. It's discouraging and making it hard to get my app noticed. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets my professional work?",cyberbullying,daniel year old software developer recently launched new app group anonymous user keep flooding review section negative comment one star rating discouraging making hard get noticed deal cyberbullying target professional work,,
Seeing all my peers thriving online is making me feel like a total failure and I can't shake these feelings of inadequacy.,cyberbullying,seeing peer thriving online making feel like total failure shake feeling inadequacy,,
"I used to love checking Twitter, but now I get anxious every time I open the app. There's this anonymous account that keeps sending me nasty messages. It's making me doubt myself and wonder if what they say is true.",cyberbullying,used love checking twitter get anxious every time open app anonymous account keep sending nasty message making doubt wonder say true,,
"I'm Layla, a 50-year-old freelance writer. I recently completed a project for a client on a freelancing platform. However, the client refused to pay me and left a scathing review filled with lies about my work ethic and professionalism. Now, it's difficult to find new clients because of this negative review. How can I address cyberbullying through fake reviews on freelance platforms?",cyberbullying,layla year old freelance writer recently completed project client freelancing platform however refused pay left scathing review filled lie work ethic professionalism difficult find new negative address cyberbullying fake,,
I've been receiving online death threats for my political stance.  It's affecting my mental health and making me question my safety.  What legal actions can I take against these cyber threats and how can I ensure my security?,cyberbullying,receiving online death threat political stance affecting mental health making question safety legal action take cyber ensure security,,
"I am 28 yrs old, i  promote body positivity on social media, but it attracts a lot of negativity. People leave nasty comments about my appearance or the message I'm trying to spread. It's tough to stay motivated when dealing with trolls. What strategies can I use to manage online harassment and maintain a safe space for my community?",cyberbullying,yr old promote body positivity social medium attracts lot negativity people leave nasty comment appearance message trying spread tough stay motivated dealing troll strategy use manage online harassment maintain safe space community,,
My younger sibling is being cyberbullied on a social media platform. I want to help them but don't know where to start. What actions can be taken to stop the harassment and ensure their safety online?,cyberbullying,younger sibling cyberbullied social medium platform want help know start action taken stop harassment ensure safety online,,
I'm being pressured by peers to share risky photos online. How can I handle this pressure without losing friends?,cyberbullying,pressured peer share risky photo online handle pressure without losing friend,,
I'm feeling frustrated because I'm being cyberbullied by someone I don't know. They keep sending me hateful messages and making threats. How would you advise me to cope with this constant harassment?,cyberbullying,feeling frustrated cyberbullied someone know keep sending hateful message making threat would advise cope constant harassment,,
"On a gaming platform, I am often singled out with negative comments about my identity, which makes me dread participating in multiplayer games I once enjoyed. How can I address or report this behavior to create a more inclusive and respectful gaming environment?",cyberbullying,gaming platform often singled negative comment identity make dread participating multiplayer game enjoyed address report behavior create inclusive respectful environment,,
I overheard my grandson getting upset over something he read online. How can I approach the topic without seeming intrusive?,cyberbullying,overheard grandson getting upset something read online approach topic without seeming intrusive,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question my own worth, leaving me feeling like I'm not good enough no matter what I do. It's like I'm trapped in a cycle of self-doubt and self-criticism.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question worth leaving feeling like good enough matter trapped cycle self doubt criticism,,
I'm hesitant to talk about being cyberbullied because I'm afraid people will judge me or not take me seriously. How would you reassure me and encourage me to seek help?,cyberbullying,hesitant talk cyberbullied afraid people judge take seriously would reassure encourage seek help,,
"Despite my efforts to brush off the hurtful comments, they continue to chip away at my self-esteem, leaving me feeling like I'm not good enough. It's like I'm constantly measuring myself against an impossible standard. ",cyberbullying,despite effort brush hurtful comment continue chip away self esteem leaving feeling like good enough constantly measuring impossible standard,,
"I've been the target of online trolling, where individuals are deliberately provoking me with inflammatory comments and memes. It's like I'm being baited into arguments, and it's exhausting.

",cyberbullying,target online trolling individual deliberately provoking inflammatory comment meme like baited argument exhausting,,
I feel like I can't escape the cyberbullying because it follows me everywhere online. How can I create a safer and more positive online environment for myself?,cyberbullying,feel like escape cyberbullying follows everywhere online create safer positive environment,,
"Despite my attempts to brush off the hurtful comments, they continue to gnaw at my self-esteem like a persistent itch. It's like I'm stuck in a cycle of self-doubt and insecurity.",cyberbullying,despite attempt brush hurtful comment continue gnaw self esteem like persistent itch stuck cycle doubt insecurity,,
I'm being cyberbullied by a group of individuals online. How can I cope with the overwhelming harassment?,cyberbullying,cyberbullied group individual online cope overwhelming harassment,,
"I'm Chloe, a 15-year-old girl. I joined an online forum for aspiring writers, but some members constantly criticize my work and leave harsh comments. It's discouraging me from wanting to share my writing with anyone. How can I stay motivated when cyberbullies target my creative writing?",cyberbullying,chloe year old girl joined online forum aspiring writer member constantly criticize work leave harsh comment discouraging wanting share writing anyone stay motivated cyberbullies target creative,,
"I've been targeted with a stream of hateful comments and messages on my blog, criticizing my writing style and attacking my personal life. It's like my work is being torn apart, and it's demoralizing me.

",cyberbullying,targeted stream hateful comment message blog criticizing writing style attacking personal life like work torn apart demoralizing,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm constantly walking on a tightrope, trying to maintain balance between defending myself and succumbing to their attacks. It's like I'm trapped in a never-ending battle with no clear path to victory.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like constantly walking tightrope trying maintain balance defending succumbing attack trapped never ending battle clear path victory,,
"On social media platforms, I've been targeted with relentless trolling and harassment from certain users who seem to take pleasure in making me feel uncomfortable. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform targeted relentless trolling harassment certain user seem take pleasure making feel uncomfortable like constantly attacked affecting mental well,,
I'm 19 and I've been receiving hateful messages on social media. It's really affecting my mental health.,cyberbullying,receiving hateful message social medium really affecting mental health,,
I feel targeted and humiliated because someone created a fake account pretending to be me and posted embarrassing content. How would you empower me to address this identity theft?,cyberbullying,feel targeted humiliated someone created fake account pretending posted embarrassing content would empower address identity theft,,
I feel pressured to share more online than I'm comfortable with to fit in. How can I handle this pressure?,cyberbullying,feel pressured share online comfortable fit handle pressure,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the spread of false information and rumors about me online. It's like my reputation is being destroyed, and I don't know how to set the record straight.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied spread false information rumor online like reputation destroyed know set record straight,,
"I'm experiencing cyberbullying from classmates, and it's affecting my performance at school. How should I handle it?",cyberbullying,experiencing cyberbullying classmate affecting performance school handle,,
"i created unique digital art and build a following online. i discovered another account stealing my artwork, slightly altering it, and claiming credit. The impersonator gains traction, leaving me frustrated and struggling to prove my own work's authenticity.",cyberbullying,created unique digital art build following online discovered another account stealing artwork slightly altering claiming credit impersonator gain traction leaving frustrated struggling prove work authenticity,,
"Daniel, a 30-year-old freelance writer, here. I specialize in writing historical fiction novels. A reviewer for a popular book blog recently panned my latest book, using inflammatory language and making personal attacks on my writing style and historical accuracy. It's discouraging and damaging my reputation as an author. How can I handle cyberbullying in the form of a scathing book review?",cyberbullying,daniel year old freelance writer specialize writing historical fiction novel reviewer popular book blog recently panned latest using inflammatory language making personal attack style accuracy discouraging damaging reputation author handle cyberbullying form scathing review,,
"my  pet hamster has become an online sensation, but the pressure is on!  Fans constantly demand new content, specific tricks, and unrealistic behaviors for the hamster, causing stress for both me and the pet.",cyberbullying,pet hamster become online sensation pressure fan constantly demand new content specific trick unrealistic behavior causing stress,,
"After experiencing cyberbullying from classmates, my child no longer wants to attend school or participate in online learning activities. How can I work with the school to address the cyberbullying and ensure my child feels safe and supported?",cyberbullying,experiencing cyberbullying classmate child longer want attend school participate online learning activity work address ensure feel safe supported,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I even belong online anymore. It's like I'm an outsider in my own digital spaces, unable to find a sense of belonging amidst the hostility.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether even belong online anymore like outsider digital space unable find sense belonging amidst hostility,,
"I'm Noah, a 26-year-old athlete. After a disappointing performance at a competition, someone started a social media hashtag mocking my skills. Now, it's trending and I'm receiving hateful messages from online trolls. How can I handle cyberbullying during a period of low performance in my athletic career?",cyberbullying,noah year old athlete disappointing performance competition someone started social medium hashtag mocking skill trending receiving hateful message online troll handle cyberbullying period low athletic career,,
"As I scroll through my feed, I can't escape the venomous words and malicious attacks directed at me. It's like being trapped in a nightmare where I'm constantly under siege, unable to find refuge from the relentless barrage of online hate. With each new insult, my confidence crumbles a little more, leaving me feeling exposed and vulnerable.",cyberbullying,scroll feed escape venomous word malicious attack directed like trapped nightmare constantly siege unable find refuge relentless barrage online hate new insult confidence crumbles little leaving feeling exposed vulnerable,,
"As a parent, I'm concerned about the impact of cyberbullying on my child's mental health and well-being. How can I educate my child about cyberbullying and teach them strategies to cope with online harassment?",cyberbullying,parent concerned impact cyberbullying child mental health well educate teach strategy cope online harassment,,
"I'm a 20-year-old who's been cyberbullied on social media for a while now. It's really affecting my mental health, and I don't know what to do.",cyberbullying,year old cyberbullied social medium really affecting mental health know,,
" My recent performance at a major event was disappointing. It was captured on video and shared all over social media, with countless critics calling me a failure.   The online negativity is affecting my confidence and making me doubt my abilities.",cyberbullying,recent performance major event disappointing captured video shared social medium countless critic calling failure online negativity affecting confidence making doubt ability,,
I'm a 25-year-old woman and I've been getting nasty comments on my social media posts. People are calling me names and making fun of my appearance. It's affecting my confidence and I don't even want to leave the house anymore.,cyberbullying,year old woman getting nasty comment social medium post people calling name making fun appearance affecting confidence even want leave house anymore,,
"While using social media, I've encountered persistent bullying and negative comments from certain users who seem determined to undermine my self-esteem. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's taking a toll on my mental health.

",cyberbullying,using social medium encountered persistent bullying negative comment certain user seem determined undermine self esteem like constantly attacked taking toll mental health,,
"I'm Sophia, a 40-year-old teacher. A group of parents from my class keeps creating a hostile environment online, spreading rumors about my teaching methods and making personal attacks. It's impacting my job satisfaction and making me question my ability to teach effectively. What can I do about cyberbullying from parents of students?",cyberbullying,sophia year old teacher group parent class keep creating hostile environment online spreading rumor teaching method making personal attack impacting job satisfaction question ability teach effectively cyberbullying student,,
Found out my child is being targeted by classmates online. They're feeling isolated and depressed. Looking for advice on how to help them through this.,cyberbullying,found child targeted classmate online feeling isolated depressed looking advice help,,
"I'm being bullied on social media, and it's causing me significant distress. How can I protect my mental health?",cyberbullying,bullied social medium causing significant distress protect mental health,,
I regret sharing something personal online and now I'm getting bullied for it. What should I do?,cyberbullying,regret sharing something personal online getting bullied,,
"I'm Liam, a 28-year-old musician. After a bad performance at a local venue, someone recorded a shaky video and posted it online with mocking commentary. Now it's being shared everywhere, and I'm getting negative comments on my music videos. How can I handle the embarrassment of a cyberbullying incident that keeps resurfacing?",cyberbullying,liam year old musician bad performance local venue someone recorded shaky video posted online mocking commentary shared everywhere getting negative comment music handle embarrassment cyberbullying incident keep resurfacing,,
"The cyberbullying has left me feeling isolated and alone, like I'm cut off from the world by a thick barrier of negativity. It's like I'm screaming for help, but no one can hear me over the roar of the online hate.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying left feeling isolated alone like cut world thick barrier negativity screaming help one hear roar online hate,,
"While playing an online game, I've been the target of targeted harassment and bullying from another player, who has been following me from match to match to taunt and insult me. It's like I'm being stalked in the virtual world.

",cyberbullying,playing online game target targeted harassment bullying another player following match taunt insult like stalked virtual world,,
"Made a lighthearted joke on Twitter, but it completely backfired. People are twisting my words and making it seem like I said something offensive. Now I'm getting flooded with hate comments.",cyberbullying,made lighthearted joke twitter completely backfired people twisting word making seem like said something offensive getting flooded hate comment,,
"I'm Michael, a 19-year-old man. Someone keeps creating fake news articles about me online, making up outrageous stories that make me look bad. It's damaging my reputation and making it hard to trust people online. How can I fight back against cyberbullying that uses fake news?",cyberbullying,michael year old man someone keep creating fake news article online making outrageous story make look bad damaging reputation hard trust people fight back cyberbullying us,,
"Despite my efforts to ignore the hurtful comments and block the perpetrators, their words linger like a dark cloud over my online presence. It's as if I'm living in a digital battleground, where every post I make becomes fodder for their relentless attacks. The constant fear of being targeted has turned my once-beloved social media platforms into sources of anxiety and dread. ",cyberbullying,despite effort ignore hurtful comment block perpetrator word linger like dark cloud online presence living digital battleground every post make becomes fodder relentless attack constant fear targeted turned beloved social medium platform source anxiety dread,,
Was watching a popular streamer play a game when they accidentally outed another gamer with a homophobic slur. The chat flooded with hateful comments. The whole thing was awful. Shouldn't gaming be a welcoming space for everyone,cyberbullying,watching popular streamer play game accidentally outed another gamer homophobic slur chat flooded hateful comment whole thing awful gaming welcoming space everyone,,
I've read about cyberbullying leading to serious consequences. What can I do to ensure my grandkids know they can come to me if they're being bullied online?,cyberbullying,read cyberbullying leading serious consequence ensure grandkids know come bullied online,,
"I'm being harassed by someone online, and it's making me anxious and fearful. How can I protect my mental well-being?",cyberbullying,harassed someone online making anxious fearful protect mental well,,
"My child is confused because they see people being kind to each other at school, but online it seems everyone is mean. How can I explain the difference between online and offline behavior?",cyberbullying,child confused see people kind school online seems everyone mean explain difference offline behavior,,
"I've always loved writing fantasy novels, but I kept it a secret hobby. Recently, I decided to self-publish my first book and created an online author profile. However, some reviews have been scathing and personal attacks, leaving me questioning my writing ability and making me want to abandon my dream.",cyberbullying,always loved writing fantasy novel kept secret hobby recently decided self publish first book created online author profile however review scathing personal attack leaving questioning ability making want abandon dream,,
"i am 16yrs old soccer player,A teammate who didn't get as much playing time as me is now cyberstalking me.  They're spreading rumors online and posting negative comments about my skills.  It's creating a toxic team environment, and I don't know how to handle it.  How can I deal with this online bullying and maintain a positive team dynamic?",cyberbullying,yr old soccer player teammate get much playing time cyberstalking spreading rumor online posting negative comment skill creating toxic team environment know handle deal bullying maintain positive dynamic,,
"I'm William, a 16-year-old boy. An anonymous user keeps leaving racist comments on my gaming streams. It makes me feel unwelcome and ruins the fun of playing online games with others. How can I create a safe and inclusive space for everyone during my streams?",cyberbullying,william year old boy anonymous user keep leaving racist comment gaming stream make feel unwelcome ruin fun playing online game others create safe inclusive space everyone,,
I saw someone being bullied online in our class group chat. What's the best way to support them without becoming a target myself?,cyberbullying,saw someone bullied online class group chat best way support without becoming target,,
"Recently, I posted a photo from a party on social media, and I received a barrage of hateful comments about my appearance. It's like my confidence has been shattered, and I'm starting to question my self-worth.

",cyberbullying,recently posted photo party social medium received barrage hateful comment appearance like confidence shattered starting question self worth,,
"i am 14 yrs old.it's like I'm invisible at school, but online, everyone sees me.  Only, it's not in a good way.  These anonymous accounts keep leaving nasty comments on my posts, and it feels like everyone is judging me.  I'm starting to wonder if I should just delete all my social media.",cyberbullying,yr old like invisible school online everyone see good way anonymous account keep leaving nasty comment post feel judging starting wonder delete social medium,,
What steps can I take if I discover my grandchild is being cyberbullied by someone they know from school?,cyberbullying,step take discover grandchild cyberbullied someone know school,,
I'm 24 and I've been targeted by cyberbullies on social media. It's really affecting my mental health and I don't know what to do.,cyberbullying,targeted cyberbullies social medium really affecting mental health know,,
I'm feeling devastated and betrayed because someone I trusted shared my private information online without my consent. How would you support me in coping with this breach of trust?,cyberbullying,feeling devastated betrayed someone trusted shared private information online without consent would support coping breach trust,,
I have panic attacks when I think about the cyberbullying. How can I manage these attacks and reduce their frequency?,cyberbullying,panic attack think cyberbullying manage reduce frequency,,
"I'm Liam, a 22-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category). I joined an online forum for my political views, but a group with opposing ideologies keeps shutting down my arguments with personal attacks and logical fallacies. It's making it impossible to have a productive conversation and discourages me from participating in online political discourse. How can I deal with cyberbullying within online political communities?",cyberbullying,liam year old college student still appropriate category joined online forum political view group opposing ideology keep shutting argument personal attack logical fallacy making impossible productive conversation discourages participating discourse deal cyberbullying within community,,
"I'm Olivia, a 16-year-old girl. There's a constant stream of hateful comments on my art on social media. People say my work is childish and derivative. It's discouraging me from wanting to create. How can I stay motivated when cyberbullies target my artistic expression?",cyberbullying,olivia year old girl constant stream hateful comment art social medium people say work childish derivative discouraging wanting create stay motivated cyberbullies target artistic expression,,
"I feel like I'm being excluded from online groups, and it's making me feel lonely and isolated. How would you help me overcome this?",cyberbullying,feel like excluded online group making lonely isolated would help overcome,,
"Noah, a 23-year-old college student, here. I recently came out as non-binary to my friends and classmates. While many have been supportive, a group of students keeps using the wrong pronouns and making insensitive jokes online. It's invalidating my identity and creating a hostile environment on campus. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets someone's gender identity online?",cyberbullying,noah year old college student recently came non binary friend classmate many supportive group keep using wrong pronoun making insensitive joke online invalidating identity creating hostile environment campus handle cyberbullying target someone gender,,
"I'm experiencing cyberbullying from multiple individuals online, and it's overwhelming. How can I cope with this situation?",cyberbullying,experiencing cyberbullying multiple individual online overwhelming cope situation,,
"Despite my attempts to block and report abusive accounts, the cyberbullying persists, a relentless onslaught that follows me wherever I go online. It's exhausting to constantly be on guard, to second-guess every post and comment for fear of attracting more negative attention. I find myself withdrawing from social media altogether, seeking refuge from the toxicity that permeates every corner of the internet.",cyberbullying,despite attempt block report abusive account cyberbullying persists relentless onslaught follows wherever go online exhausting constantly guard second guess every post comment fear attracting negative attention find withdrawing social medium altogether seeking refuge toxicity permeates corner internet,,
"Ava, a 32-year-old plus-size fashion blogger, here. I use my platform to promote body positivity and self-love for all body types. Recently, a group of trolls keeps leaving hateful comments on my posts, criticizing my appearance and using fat-shaming language. It's discouraging and making me question whether I should continue promoting this message online. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets body image and size inclusivity?",cyberbullying,ava year old plus size fashion blogger use platform promote body positivity self love type recently group troll keep leaving hateful comment post criticizing appearance using fat shaming language discouraging making question whether continue promoting message online handle cyberbullying target image inclusivity,,
"In an online community I'm part of, a few members have started targeting me with personal attacks and isolating me from group activities. This has made me feel very lonely and excluded. How can I navigate this situation to either improve my standing in the community or find a new supportive space?",cyberbullying,online community part member started targeting personal attack isolating group activity made feel lonely excluded navigate situation either improve standing find new supportive space,,
My parents don't understand why cyberbullying is a big deal. How can I explain it to them?,cyberbullying,parent understand cyberbullying big deal explain,,
"I was recently catfished online, and now the person I connected with is harassing me.  They're threatening to expose personal information I shared with them.  I feel foolish and embarrassed.  How can I recover from this online harassment and safely navigate the world of online dating?",cyberbullying,recently catfished online person connected harassing threatening expose personal information shared feel foolish embarrassed recover harassment safely navigate world dating,,
"I'm Alex, a 14-year-old boy. A meme is circulating online with my picture and a mean caption. People are tagging me and it's showing up everywhere. I feel humiliated and don't want to go to school. What should I do about a viral cyberbullying attack?",cyberbullying,alex year old boy meme circulating online picture mean caption people tagging showing everywhere feel humiliated want go school viral cyberbullying attack,,
"Left a mean comment on a post without thinking, now I feel terrible. How can I apologize and make things right with the person I hurt?",cyberbullying,left mean comment post without thinking feel terrible apologize make thing right person hurt,,
"I've been sharing my creative work online, and I've noticed that other users are plagiarizing my content without giving credit. It's like my hard work is being stolen, and it's demotivating me from continuing.

",cyberbullying,sharing creative work online noticed user plagiarizing content without giving credit like hard stolen demotivating continuing,,
"I'm Chloe, a 31-year-old lawyer. Someone keeps leaving negative comments on my professional website, questioning my qualifications and experience. It's damaging my reputation in the legal field and making it difficult to attract new clients. How can I address cyberbullying that targets my professional credentials?",cyberbullying,chloe year old lawyer someone keep leaving negative comment professional website questioning qualification experience damaging reputation legal field making difficult attract new client address cyberbullying target credential,,
"Iam 35 yrs old,i almost fell victim to a rental scam online.  The listing looked perfect, but it turned out to be fake.  I lost money on application fees and feel frustrated.  How can I identify legitimate rental listings online and avoid scams?",cyberbullying,iam yr old almost fell victim rental scam online listing looked perfect turned fake lost money application fee feel frustrated identify legitimate avoid,,
"In an online game, I've been subjected to constant ridicule and mockery from other players, who have been targeting me with insults and jokes during matches. It's like I'm being laughed at, and it's affecting my enjoyment.

",cyberbullying,online game subjected constant ridicule mockery player targeting insult joke match like laughed affecting enjoyment,,
How can I help my grandkids develop resilience against cyberbullying?,cyberbullying,help grandkids develop resilience cyberbullying,,
"On social media platforms, I've been the target of persistent bullying and derogatory comments from certain users who seem intent on making me feel unwelcome. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's affecting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform target persistent bullying derogatory comment certain user seem intent making feel unwelcome like constantly attacked affecting mental health,,
"I am 18 yrs old Non Binary Fashion Vlogger ,The thought of engaging with the negativity online scares me. I worry about escalating arguments or attracting more trolls. Disabling comments altogether seems like the easiest solution, but that feels like giving up on interacting with my audience, especially other young people who might appreciate my content.",cyberbullying,yr old non binary fashion vlogger thought engaging negativity online scare worry escalating argument attracting troll disabling comment altogether seems like easiest solution feel giving interacting audience especially young people might appreciate content,,
I'm feeling overwhelmed and stressed because I'm being cyberbullied by someone I know from school. How would you help me cope with this?,cyberbullying,feeling overwhelmed stressed cyberbullied someone know school would help cope,,
"I've been receiving mocking and humiliating comments on my photos and videos on social media, and it's making me reluctant to share anything online. It's like my online presence is being ridiculed, and it's hurting my self-esteem.

",cyberbullying,receiving mocking humiliating comment photo video social medium making reluctant share anything online like presence ridiculed hurting self esteem,,
"Sarah, a 18-year-old high school student, here. I'm a passionate gamer who enjoys live streaming my gameplay. Recently, a group of viewers started targeting me because I'm a girl. They make sexist comments in the chat, question my skills, and constantly tell me to get back in the kitchen. It's creating a hostile environment and making me feel unwelcome in the gaming community. How can I address cyberbullying based on sexism in the online gaming world?",cyberbullying,sarah year old high school student passionate gamer enjoys live streaming gameplay recently group viewer started targeting girl make sexist comment chat question skill constantly tell get back kitchen creating hostile environment making feel unwelcome gaming community address cyberbullying based sexism online world,,
I feel isolated and hopeless due to being a victim of cyberbullying. I believe no one cares about my situation. How would you provide me with emotional support?,cyberbullying,feel isolated hopeless due victim cyberbullying believe one care situation would provide emotional support,,
"I'm receiving hateful comments and messages online, and it's affecting my self-esteem. How can I protect myself?",cyberbullying,receiving hateful comment message online affecting self esteem protect,,
"I'm Isabella, a 19-year-old woman. I recently started a small business selling handmade crafts online. Someone keeps leaving negative reviews about my products, even though I haven't made any sales yet. It's discouraging and making me question my abilities. How can I handle cyberbullies who try to sabotage my business before it even starts?",cyberbullying,isabella year old woman recently started small business selling handmade craft online someone keep leaving negative review product even though made sale yet discouraging making question ability handle cyberbullies try sabotage start,,
I'm afraid to report the cyberbullying because I don't want to be seen as a snitch or a troublemaker. What should I do?,cyberbullying,afraid report cyberbullying want seen snitch troublemaker,,
"I've been the target of a fake news campaign online, with false stories being circulated about me to tarnish my reputation. It's like my character is being assassinated, and I'm powerless to stop it.

",cyberbullying,target fake news campaign online false story circulated tarnish reputation like character assassinated powerless stop,,
I blame myself for the cyberbullying. How can I stop feeling guilty and ashamed?,cyberbullying,blame cyberbullying stop feeling guilty ashamed,,
I'm having trouble sleeping and concentrating after being cyberbullied. What can I do to improve my sleep and focus?,cyberbullying,trouble sleeping concentrating cyberbullied improve sleep focus,,
"I've been targeted with fake rumors about me spread across multiple social media platforms, and it's tarnishing my reputation. It's like I'm being slandered online, and it's damaging my personal and professional life.

",cyberbullying,targeted fake rumor spread across multiple social medium platform tarnishing reputation like slandered online damaging personal professional life,,
"I run a small local bakery with excellent in-person reviews. However, a group of online influencers with a large following visit my bakery, have a negative experience (possibly staged), and leave scathing reviews that damage my online reputation.what can i do now",cyberbullying,run small local bakery excellent person review however group online influencers large following visit negative experience possibly staged leave scathing damage reputation,,
Tried posting a poolside pic to celebrate my weight loss journey. Woke up to comments about how I'm still fat and shouldn't wear a swimsuit. Feeling defeated and ashamed of my body now.,cyberbullying,tried posting poolside pic celebrate weight loss journey woke comment still fat wear swimsuit feeling defeated ashamed body,,
"I've noticed my friend engaging in cyberbullying behavior towards others on social media, but they don't seem to realize the harm they're causing. How can I confront my friend about their cyberbullying and encourage them to change their behavior?",cyberbullying,noticed friend engaging cyberbullying behavior towards others social medium seem realize harm causing confront encourage change,,
"Lately, I've been feeling really isolated. There's a group of people on Instagram who keep leaving mean comments on my posts. It makes me not want to share anything online anymore, and I feel like I'm losing touch with my friends.",cyberbullying,lately feeling really isolated group people instagram keep leaving mean comment post make want share anything online anymore feel like losing touch friend,,
" I speak out on social justice issues online, and that's attracted the attention of some nasty online bullies.  They target me with racist, sexist attacks, and even threats of violence.  It's scary, but I don't want to be silenced by fear.",cyberbullying,speak social justice issue online attracted attention nasty bully target racist sexist attack even threat violence scary want silenced fear,,
"As an older man, I feel like I'm being targeted by cyber bullies on social media because of my age. What should I do?",cyberbullying,older man feel like targeted cyber bully social medium age,,
"I've been cyberbullied, and it's making me question my self-worth and value. How can I regain my confidence?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied making question self worth value regain confidence,,
Someone is anonymously threatening me online and making me genuinely scared. Is there anything I can do legally to stop this harassment?,cyberbullying,someone anonymously threatening online making genuinely scared anything legally stop harassment,,
"There's a rumor circulating on Facebook about me, and it's completely untrue. People are messaging me about it, and I'm scared of what everyone thinks. It's making me feel insecure and embarrassed.",cyberbullying,rumor circulating facebook completely untrue people messaging scared everyone think making feel insecure embarrassed,,
"After joining a popular online forum, I find myself targeted by relentless cyberbullying. The hurtful comments and messages have taken a toll on my mental health, leaving me feeling isolated and vulnerable. How can I cope with this cyberbullying and regain my confidence?",cyberbullying,joining popular online forum find targeted relentless cyberbullying hurtful comment message taken toll mental health leaving feeling isolated vulnerable cope regain confidence,,
"I've been targeted with relentless cyberbullying, with individuals using fake accounts to spread hate and harass me across social media platforms. It's like I'm under constant attack, and it's taking a toll on my mental health.

",cyberbullying,targeted relentless cyberbullying individual using fake account spread hate harass across social medium platform like constant attack taking toll mental health,,
"Posted my art online for the first time, feeling pretty proud. Scrolled through the comments to find people calling it cringe and saying I should give up. Feel like I wasted my time and talent now.",cyberbullying,posted art online first time feeling pretty proud scrolled comment find people calling cringe saying give feel like wasted talent,,
I've become socially withdrawn and avoid interacting with others after being cyberbullied. How can I reconnect with people and rebuild my social life?,cyberbullying,become socially withdrawn avoid interacting others cyberbullied reconnect people rebuild social life,,
" iam 12 , male, I was once a child actor, but after retiring, he finds his old embarrassing childhood videos circulating online with cruel comments.  It's a constant reminder he can't escape past experiences.",cyberbullying,iam male child actor retiring find old embarrassing childhood video circulating online cruel comment constant reminder escape past experience,,
"I'm Charlotte, a 35-year-old writer. After publishing my first novel, I received a flood of negative reviews online, many of them containing personal attacks and hateful language. It's discouraging and making me doubt my writing abilities. How can I handle cyberbullying after receiving negative feedback on my creative work?",cyberbullying,charlotte year old writer publishing first novel received flood negative review online many containing personal attack hateful language discouraging making doubt writing ability handle cyberbullying receiving feedback creative work,,
I feel anxious and depressed after being cyberbullied on social media. What can I do to cope with these feelings?,cyberbullying,feel anxious depressed cyberbullied social medium cope feeling,,
"Noah, a 27-year-old entrepreneur, here. I recently launched a new fitness app. While I've received positive reviews, a group of anonymous users keeps flooding the app store with negative comments, complaining about bugs and glitches that don't actually exist. It's discouraging downloads and hurting my app's reputation. How can I address cyberbullying that uses fake reviews to sabotage a new app?",cyberbullying,noah year old entrepreneur recently launched new fitness app received positive review group anonymous user keep flooding store negative comment complaining bug glitch actually exist discouraging downloads hurting reputation address cyberbullying us fake sabotage,,
"While engaging on social media platforms, I've faced relentless bullying and negative comments from certain users who seem intent on targeting me. It's like I'm constantly under attack, and it's affecting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,engaging social medium platform faced relentless bullying negative comment certain user seem intent targeting like constantly attack affecting mental health,,
"I'm Isabella, a 18-year-old woman. Someone keeps creating fake dating profiles using my pictures. I've matched with people who get angry when they find out it's not me. It's damaging my reputation and feels like a huge invasion of privacy. What can I do to stop this kind of cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,isabella year old woman someone keep creating fake dating profile using picture matched people get angry find damaging reputation feel like huge invasion privacy stop kind cyberbullying,,
I reveal that I am being harassed and bullied by classmates on a social media platform. I feel scared and ashamed to go to school. How would you empower me to deal with the cyberbullying?,cyberbullying,reveal harassed bullied classmate social medium platform feel scared ashamed go school would empower deal cyberbullying,,
"I'm Chloe, a 17-year-old girl. Someone hacked into my social media account and posted private messages meant for my best friend. Now everyone thinks I'm gossiping and starting drama. I feel betrayed and unsure who to trust. How can I recover from cyberbullying that exposes private information?",cyberbullying,chloe year old girl someone hacked social medium account posted private message meant best friend everyone think gossiping starting drama feel betrayed unsure trust recover cyberbullying expose information,,
I am a female activist i speaks out on social justice issues online but faces retaliation from anonymous trolls who threaten to reveal her personal information and harass her family.,cyberbullying,female activist speaks social justice issue online face retaliation anonymous troll threaten reveal personal information harass family,,
"I am 58 yrs old public speaker, i recently gave a controversial lecture that was recorded and shared online.  Now I'm facing a wave of hate speech and personal attacks for my views.  It's hurtful and makes me question the value of speaking out on important issues.  How can I handle online negativity without compromising my right to free speech?",cyberbullying,yr old public speaker recently gave controversial lecture recorded shared online facing wave hate speech personal attack view hurtful make question value speaking important issue handle negativity without compromising right free,,
"Witnessed someone relentlessly cyberbullying another user. Decided to use my tech skills to find the bully's identity and expose them publicly. Not proud, but it felt good to see the bully face consequences. Just a reminder, there can be repercussions for online cruelty.",cyberbullying,witnessed someone relentlessly cyberbullying another user decided use tech skill find bully identity expose publicly proud felt good see face consequence reminder repercussion online cruelty,,
"I feel so ashamed and embarrassed after being publicly humiliated online, it's really hurting my mental health.",cyberbullying,feel ashamed embarrassed publicly humiliated online really hurting mental health,,
"I am a young athlete ,Someone hacked into my social media account and posted embarrassing content.  Now I'm worried about facing repercussions from my coaches and sponsors.  How can I recover my hacked account and improve my social media security?",cyberbullying,young athlete someone hacked social medium account posted embarrassing content worried facing repercussion coach sponsor recover improve security,,
"Daniel, a 50-year-old politician, here. I'm running for re-election and have been increasingly targeted by online trolls. They spread misinformation about my policies, distort my past remarks, and use personal attacks to discredit me. It's affecting my campaign and making it difficult to connect with voters online. How can I handle cyberbullying during a political campaign?",cyberbullying,daniel year old politician running election increasingly targeted online troll spread misinformation policy distort past remark use personal attack discredit affecting campaign making difficult connect voter handle cyberbullying political,,
This cyberbullying is starting to affect my daily life. I can't concentrate on my schoolwork because I'm constantly worrying about what people are saying online. I'm having trouble sleeping too.,cyberbullying,cyberbullying starting affect daily life concentrate schoolwork constantly worrying people saying online trouble sleeping,,
"I feel like I'm living in a constant state of anxiety, always waiting for the next hurtful comment or malicious message to appear. It's like I'm walking on eggshells, never knowing when the ground will give way beneath me.",cyberbullying,feel like living constant state anxiety always waiting next hurtful comment malicious message appear walking eggshell never knowing ground give way beneath,,
"I am 20 yrs old female influencer, i recently partnered with a brand that some of my followers don't like.  Now I'm facing accusations of selling out and inauthenticity.  It's discouraging and makes me question the ethics of influencer marketing.  How can I navigate online negativity when it comes to brand collaborations?",cyberbullying,yr old female influencer recently partnered brand follower like facing accusation selling inauthenticity discouraging make question ethic marketing navigate online negativity come collaboration,,
Noticed parents of my students leaving nasty comments about each other's children in the online classroom environment. This sets a terrible example and creates a hostile atmosphere for learning. How can I address this issue effectively?,cyberbullying,noticed parent student leaving nasty comment child online classroom environment set terrible example creates hostile atmosphere learning address issue effectively,,
I'm 19 and I've been targeted by cyberbullies on social media. It's really affecting my mental health and I don't know what to do.,cyberbullying,targeted cyberbullies social medium really affecting mental health know,,
"iam 16 yrs old male,Someone hacked into my online gaming account and used all my in-game currency.  They also changed the password so I can't access it anymore.  I've spent a lot of time and money on this account, and I'm devastated.  How can I recover my stolen gaming account and protect my online gaming identity?",cyberbullying,iam yr old male someone hacked online gaming account used game currency also changed password access anymore spent lot time money devastated recover stolen protect identity,,
"While using social media, I've faced continuous harassment and threats from certain users who seem intent on intimidating me. It's like I'm constantly under siege, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,using social medium faced continuous harassment threat certain user seem intent intimidating like constantly siege affecting mental well,,
"The cyberbullying has made me hesitant to share anything about myself online, fearing it might be used against me as ammunition by the bullies. It's like I'm constantly censoring myself, afraid of what might happen if I let my guard down.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made hesitant share anything online fearing might used ammunition bully like constantly censoring afraid happen let guard,,
"Lucas, a 26-year-old environmental scientist. I frequently share scientific research and climate change data on my social media platforms. However, a group of climate change deniers persistently target my posts with misinformation and conspiracy theories. They try to discredit my expertise and spread doubt about established science. It's discouraging and makes it difficult to have a productive conversation about climate science online. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets scientific research and factual information?",cyberbullying,lucas year old environmental scientist frequently share scientific research climate change data social medium platform however group denier persistently target post misinformation conspiracy theory try discredit expertise spread doubt established science discouraging make difficult productive conversation online handle cyberbullying factual information,,
"Despite my efforts to stay positive and hopeful, it's hard not to feel defeated by the constant barrage of negativity. It's like I'm fighting a losing battle, with no end in sight.",cyberbullying,despite effort stay positive hopeful hard feel defeated constant barrage negativity like fighting losing battle end sight,,
"Ava, a 43-year-old professional cosplayer, here. I enjoy creating elaborate costumes and attending cosplay conventions. Recently, someone online started a rumor that I purchased my costumes instead of making them myself. They're posting critical threads and photoshopped images to make it seem like I'm a fraud. It's damaging my reputation in the cosplay community and affecting my enjoyment of the hobby. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets the authenticity of a cosplayer's work?",cyberbullying,ava year old professional cosplayer enjoy creating elaborate costume attending cosplay convention recently someone online started rumor purchased instead making posting critical thread photoshopped image make seem like fraud damaging reputation community affecting enjoyment hobby handle cyberbullying target authenticity work,,
"On social media platforms, I've been the target of continuous bullying and derogatory comments from certain users who seem intent on making me feel inferior. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's affecting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform target continuous bullying derogatory comment certain user seem intent making feel inferior like constantly attacked affecting mental health,,
"I'm being cyberbullied on social media, and it's taking a toll on my mental health. How can I protect myself?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied social medium taking toll mental health protect,,
"While playing an online game, I've been targeted with repeated harassment and threats from another player, who has been singling me out for attacks and insults during matches. It's like I'm being hunted down, and it's affecting my enjoyment.

",cyberbullying,playing online game targeted repeated harassment threat another player singling attack insult match like hunted affecting enjoyment,,
I'm feeling anxious and vulnerable because someone is cyberbullying me by constantly commenting on my posts with hurtful messages. How would you advise me to handle this ongoing harassment?,cyberbullying,feeling anxious vulnerable someone cyberbullying constantly commenting post hurtful message would advise handle ongoing harassment,,
The constant comparison to others on social media is really taking a toll on my self-esteem.,cyberbullying,constant comparison others social medium really taking toll self esteem,,
"iAM 55 YRS old male,I recently started using online forums to connect with students outside the classroom. Unfortunately, one student keeps harassing me with personal attacks and accusations about my teaching style. It's discouraging and makes me question using online platforms altogether. How can I address this harassment without escalating the situation?",cyberbullying,iam yr old male recently started using online forum connect student outside classroom unfortunately one keep harassing personal attack accusation teaching style discouraging make question platform altogether address harassment without escalating situation,,
The stress from online harassment is causing me to have panic attacks that are interfering with my ability to focus in school.,cyberbullying,stress online harassment causing panic attack interfering ability focus school,,
"I've been cyberbullied through private messages, where individuals have sent me threatening and derogatory messages. It's like I'm being attacked in private, and it's taking a toll on my mental health.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied private message individual sent threatening derogatory like attacked taking toll mental health,,
"The cyberbullying has left me feeling like I have to constantly monitor and filter every aspect of my online presence, afraid that anything I say or do could be twisted and used against me by the bullies. It's like I can't even be myself anymore.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying left feeling like constantly monitor filter every aspect online presence afraid anything say could twisted used bully even anymore,,
"i started a homebrewing hobby and shares my experiences online. I  encountered online experts who leave aggressive comments, and created a fear about potential safety hazards.",cyberbullying,started homebrewing hobby share experience online encountered expert leave aggressive comment created fear potential safety hazard,,
I feel angry and wanting revenge on the people who cyberbullied me. Is this normal?,cyberbullying,feel angry wanting revenge people cyberbullied normal,,
"On social media platforms, I've been targeted with persistent bullying and derogatory comments from certain users who seem intent on making me feel unwelcome. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's affecting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform targeted persistent bullying derogatory comment certain user seem intent making feel unwelcome like constantly attacked affecting mental health,,
My grades are dropping because I can't stop scrolling through social media instead of studying. How can I manage my time better?,cyberbullying,grade dropping stop scrolling social medium instead studying manage time better,,
"I keep receiving hateful comments and insults on my social media posts, and it's making me feel worthless. It's like I'm being attacked for expressing myself, and I don't know how to cope.

",cyberbullying,keep receiving hateful comment insult social medium post making feel worthless like attacked expressing know cope,,
I've been receiving subtle but hurtful comments on my blog posts from an anonymous user. Is there a way to track who this might be or how to stop them without shutting down my blog?,cyberbullying,receiving subtle hurtful comment blog post anonymous user way track might stop without shutting,,
"While using social media, I've faced relentless trolling and harassment from certain users who seem to take pleasure in making me feel uncomfortable. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,using social medium faced relentless trolling harassment certain user seem take pleasure making feel uncomfortable like constantly attacked affecting mental well,,
" I am 23, male, i  used to love streaming my gameplay online. But lately, there's been a surge of hateful comments and trolls in my chat.  They make fun of my skills, criticize every move, and even threaten me with doxing.  Streaming has become a source of anxiety, not enjoyment",cyberbullying,male used love streaming gameplay online lately surge hateful comment troll chat make fun skill criticize every move even threaten doxing become source anxiety enjoyment,,
"I'm being cyberbullied, and it's affecting my self-esteem and mental health. How can I cope with the emotional impact?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied affecting self esteem mental health cope emotional impact,,
"Layla, a 55-year-old yoga instructor, here. I recently started offering online yoga classes. Unfortunately, a student keeps leaving negative comments about my body type and suggesting I'm not qualified to teach yoga. It's affecting my self-confidence and making me question whether I should continue offering online classes. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets a yoga instructor's appearance or qualifications?",cyberbullying,layla year old yoga instructor recently started offering online class unfortunately student keep leaving negative comment body type suggesting qualified teach affecting self confidence making question whether continue handle cyberbullying target appearance qualification,,
"I spend a lot of time on social media, and lately I've been feeling down and anxious. Could it be related to how I'm using these platforms?",cyberbullying,spend lot time social medium lately feeling anxious could related using platform,,
"I've been excluded from group chats and events by my peers on social media, and it's really taking a toll on my self-esteem. How can I cope with this?",cyberbullying,excluded group chat event peer social medium really taking toll self esteem cope,,
"I'm Ben, a 15-year-old boy. A classmate keeps following me around school and recording me on their phone without my permission. They threaten to post the videos online if I don't do what they say. I feel scared and intimidated. What can I do about cyberbullying that involves threats and blackmail?",cyberbullying,ben year old boy classmate keep following around school recording phone without permission threaten post video online say feel scared intimidated cyberbullying involves threat blackmail,,
"Iam 17 yrs old Female, I love streaming games online, but lately, the comments section has become a nightmare. Mostly male viewers write hateful messages about my appearance, my skills, or just random insults. How can I deal with this negativity without letting it silence my passion for gaming?",cyberbullying,iam yr old female love streaming game online lately comment section become nightmare mostly male viewer write hateful message appearance skill random insult deal negativity without letting silence passion gaming,,
I don't believe in myself anymore after being cyberbullied. How can I regain my confidence and self-worth?,cyberbullying,believe anymore cyberbullied regain confidence self worth,,
I'm 18 and I've been targeted by cyberbullies on social media. It's really affecting my mental health and I don't know what to do.,cyberbullying,targeted cyberbullies social medium really affecting mental health know,,
I feel worthless and ashamed after being cyberbullied. How can I rebuild my self-esteem?,cyberbullying,feel worthless ashamed cyberbullied rebuild self esteem,,
I keep having flashbacks of the cyberbullying incidents. How can I cope with these intrusive memories?,cyberbullying,keep flashback cyberbullying incident cope intrusive memory,,
How can I educate my grandkids about the importance of privacy settings to protect themselves from cyberbullying?,cyberbullying,educate grandkids importance privacy setting protect cyberbullying,,
m feeling anxious and stressed because someone has been spreading rumors about me on social media. How would you advise me to handle this?,cyberbullying,feeling anxious stressed someone spreading rumor social medium would advise handle,,
"I am business owner female,My online store is being targeted by fake negative reviews.  Competitors are posting false claims about our products and deterring potential customers.  It's damaging our reputation and hurting our business.  What legal and ethical options do I have to fight back against fake online reviews?",cyberbullying,business owner female online store targeted fake negative review competitor posting false claim product deterring potential customer damaging reputation hurting legal ethical option fight back,,
I'm constantly worried about being bullied online again. How can I manage this fear and anxiety?,cyberbullying,constantly worried bullied online manage fear anxiety,,
I'm feeling anxious because I'm being cyberbullied on social media. People are leaving hurtful comments on my posts and spreading lies about me online. How would you suggest I handle this situation?,cyberbullying,feeling anxious cyberbullied social medium people leaving hurtful comment post spreading lie online would suggest handle situation,,
"Despite my efforts to block the cyberbullies, their words linger like a dark cloud over my head, casting a shadow on everything I do. It's like I can't escape the echo of their cruelty, no matter how hard I try.",cyberbullying,despite effort block cyberbullies word linger like dark cloud head casting shadow everything escape echo cruelty matter hard try,,
"Despite my attempts to stay positive, the cyberbullying has made it difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's like I'm stuck in a perpetual storm, with no reprieve from the darkness.",cyberbullying,despite attempt stay positive cyberbullying made difficult see light end tunnel like stuck perpetual storm reprieve darkness,,
I'm feeling overwhelmed and anxious because I'm receiving hateful messages online from someone I know. How would you advise me to cope with this situation?,cyberbullying,feeling overwhelmed anxious receiving hateful message online someone know would advise cope situation,,
"I used to love spending time on social media, but now everything feels toxic. I've lost interest in connecting with people online because of the cyberbullying. I miss the positive aspects of social media.",cyberbullying,used love spending time social medium everything feel toxic lost interest connecting people online cyberbullying miss positive aspect,,
I'm 21 years old and I've been receiving hateful comments on social media. It's really affecting my mental health.,cyberbullying,year old receiving hateful comment social medium really affecting mental health,,
"Despite my attempts to reach out for help, I feel like no one truly understands the depth of my pain. It's like I'm shouting into the void, hoping for someone to hear me amidst the noise of the online world.",cyberbullying,despite attempt reach help feel like one truly understands depth pain shouting void hoping someone hear amidst noise online world,,
"While playing an online game, I've been targeted with relentless harassment and abuse from another player, who has been stalking me across matches to taunt and insult me. It's like I'm being followed, and it's making me feel unsafe.

",cyberbullying,playing online game targeted relentless harassment abuse another player stalking across match taunt insult like followed making feel unsafe,,
"I recently reported unethical practices within my company. Now they're running a smear campaign against me online, trying to discredit me and silence my voice. It feels like a fight I can't win. How can I stay strong and continue to fight for what's right despite the online harassment?",cyberbullying,recently reported unethical practice within company running smear campaign online trying discredit silence voice feel like fight win stay strong continue right despite harassment,,
"I'm so anxious about the rumors and gossip going around about me online, it's making it hard for me to focus in my classes.",cyberbullying,anxious rumor gossip going around online making hard focus class,,
The constant fear of being targeted online is making me really anxious and paranoid.,cyberbullying,constant fear targeted online making really anxious paranoid,,
"My best friend posted a group picture online and intentionally left me out of the caption. Everyone's commenting on how much fun they had, and I feel left behind. Is this a sign our friendship is over?",cyberbullying,best friend posted group picture online intentionally left caption everyone commenting much fun feel behind sign friendship,,
I see so much hate and negativity online every day. How can I keep it from affecting my mental health?,cyberbullying,see much hate negativity online every day keep affecting mental health,,
Looking for ways to stand up to cyberbullies without resorting to insults or negativity. Are there any clever or creative ways to shut them down and support the victim?,cyberbullying,looking way stand cyberbullies without resorting insult negativity clever creative shut support victim,,
"Isabella, a 30-year-old vegan food blogger, here. I promote healthy and delicious plant-based recipes on my blog and social media channels. Lately, a group of meat enthusiasts keep leaving negative comments on my posts, accusing me of promoting an unhealthy lifestyle and using scare tactics. It's discouraging and making me question the impact of my work. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets veganism and healthy eating habits?",cyberbullying,isabella year old vegan food blogger promote healthy delicious plant based recipe blog social medium channel lately group meat enthusiast keep leaving negative comment post accusing promoting unhealthy lifestyle using scare tactic discouraging making question impact work handle cyberbullying target veganism eating habit,,
"I am a doctor,Someone created a fake profile and left a negative review of my practice online.  It's discouraging and might deter potential clients.  What ethical steps can I take to address this fake review and protect my professional reputation?",cyberbullying,doctor someone created fake profile left negative review practice online discouraging might deter potential client ethical step take address protect professional reputation,,
"I'm Noah, a 18-year-old man. I recently shared a funny video of myself online, but it went viral and now everyone's making fun of me. I feel humiliated and wish I could take it all back. How can I handle the embarrassment of a cyberbullying incident that's already gone viral?",cyberbullying,noah year old man recently shared funny video online went viral everyone making fun feel humiliated wish could take back handle embarrassment cyberbullying incident already gone,,
"After receiving a barrage of hateful messages and threats from an online troll, I've deactivated my social media accounts and withdrawn from online communities. How can I rebuild my confidence and overcome the fear of cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,receiving barrage hateful message threat online troll deactivated social medium account withdrawn community rebuild confidence overcome fear cyberbullying,,
I think I might have developed PTSD from the cyberbullying. What are the signs and how can I get help?,cyberbullying,think might developed ptsd cyberbullying sign get help,,
I'm worried that the cyberbullying will have a long-term impact on my mental health and well-being. How can I build resilience and protect myself from future harm?,cyberbullying,worried cyberbullying long term impact mental health well build resilience protect future harm,,
"My online therapy platform was hacked, and my patients' data may be exposed.  I feel terrible about this breach of confidentiality.  What steps can I take to address this and regain my patients' trust?",cyberbullying,online therapy platform hacked patient data may exposed feel terrible breach confidentiality step take address regain trust,,
"I'm Gabriela, a 14-year-old girl. I love to cosplay and share pictures online, but lately, I've been getting bombarded with negative comments about my costumes and looks. It's making me self-conscious and afraid to express myself creatively. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets my cosplay hobby?",cyberbullying,gabriela year old girl love cosplay share picture online lately getting bombarded negative comment costume look making self conscious afraid express creatively deal cyberbullying target hobby,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm constantly under attack, with no refuge from the storm of negativity. It's like I'm drowning in a sea of hate with no lifeline to pull me out.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like constantly attack refuge storm negativity drowning sea hate lifeline pull,,
I'm 23 years old and I've been cyberbullied on social media. It's really affecting my mental health and I don't know what to do.,cyberbullying,year old cyberbullied social medium really affecting mental health know,,
"I'm spending too much time on social media, and it's starting to affect my sleep and schoolwork. How can I cut back?",cyberbullying,spending much time social medium starting affect sleep schoolwork cut back,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the spread of private information and personal details about me online, including my address and phone number. It's like my privacy has been invaded, and I'm concerned for my safety.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied spread private information personal detail online including address phone number like privacy invaded concerned safety,,
" every political decision I make is dissected and criticized online by anonymous users.  Some of the comments are so vicious and personal, it's affecting my family. It's hard to stay focused on public service with this constant barrage of negativity.",cyberbullying,every political decision make dissected criticized online anonymous user comment vicious personal affecting family hard stay focused public service constant barrage negativity,,
I'm 18 and I've been bullied online for a while now. It's making me feel really anxious and depressed.,cyberbullying,bullied online making feel really anxious depressed,,
I'm 22 years old and I've been cyberbullied on social media. It's really affecting my mental health and I don't know what to do.,cyberbullying,year old cyberbullied social medium really affecting mental health know,,
"I feel like the cyberbullying has changed me as a person, and I don't know who I am anymore. How can I rediscover my identity and sense of self?",cyberbullying,feel like cyberbullying changed person know anymore rediscover identity sense self,,
"I've been subjected to constant ridicule and mockery in an online game, with other players targeting me for my skills and performance. It's like I'm being singled out, and it's affecting my confidence in playing.

",cyberbullying,subjected constant ridicule mockery online game player targeting skill performance like singled affecting confidence playing,,
"My grandkids are always on their devices, and I worry they're missing out on real-life interactions. How can I encourage more balance?",cyberbullying,grandkids always device worry missing real life interaction encourage balance,,
"I'm Ben, a 17-year-old high school student. During our online classes, a group of students keeps hacking into the video conferencing software and disrupting the lessons with loud noises and offensive content. It's making it impossible to learn and the teacher is struggling to regain control. How can I deal with cyberbullying that disrupts the online learning environment?",cyberbullying,ben year old high school student online class group keep hacking video conferencing software disrupting lesson loud noise offensive content making impossible learn teacher struggling regain control deal cyberbullying disrupts learning environment,,
"Ben, a 15-year-old high school student, here. I'm a passionate writer and enjoy sharing my short stories online. Unfortunately, a classmate discovered my online pen name and keeps leaving critical comments, mocking my writing style and plotlines. It's discouraging me from continuing to write and share my work online. How can I deal with cyberbullying from a classmate who targets my creative writing online?",cyberbullying,ben year old high school student passionate writer enjoy sharing short story online unfortunately classmate discovered pen name keep leaving critical comment mocking writing style plotlines discouraging continuing write share work deal cyberbullying target creative,,
"I'm Lucas, a 28-year-old entrepreneur. A competitor in my industry keeps spreading false information about my business online. It's confusing potential customers and hindering my company's growth. How can I address cyberbullying that uses misinformation to sabotage my business?",cyberbullying,lucas year old entrepreneur competitor industry keep spreading false information business online confusing potential customer hindering company growth address cyberbullying us misinformation sabotage,,
"I'm facing cyberbullying on a gaming platform, and it's ruining my gaming experience. How should I deal with it?",cyberbullying,facing cyberbullying gaming platform ruining experience deal,,
I'm feeling overwhelmed and anxious because I'm being cyberbullied through anonymous messages on social media. How would you advise me to protect my mental well-being?,cyberbullying,feeling overwhelmed anxious cyberbullied anonymous message social medium would advise protect mental well,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the spread of private information and personal details about me online. It's like my privacy has been violated, and I don't know how to protect myself.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied spread private information personal detail online like privacy violated know protect,,
I'm 18 years old and I've been receiving hateful messages on social media. It's making me feel worthless and anxious all the time.,cyberbullying,year old receiving hateful message social medium making feel worthless anxious time,,
"On social media platforms, I've been subjected to relentless bullying and derogatory comments from certain users who seem intent on making me feel unwelcome. It's like I'm constantly being attacked, and it's negatively impacting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform subjected relentless bullying derogatory comment certain user seem intent making feel unwelcome like constantly attacked negatively impacting mental health,,
"I am 15 yrs old, male,Someone at school keeps spreading rumors about me online.  They've posted embarrassing pictures and created fake profiles to harass me.  It's affecting my mental health and making me afraid to go to school.  How can I deal with this cyberbullying and regain control over my online presence",cyberbullying,yr old male someone school keep spreading rumor online posted embarrassing picture created fake profile harass affecting mental health making afraid go deal cyberbullying regain control presence,,
"I'm Maya, a 16-year-old girl. Someone created a fake social media profile pretending to be me. They're posting embarrassing childhood photos and spreading rumors. I feel violated and exposed. How can I report this kind of cyberbullying and get my identity back?",cyberbullying,maya year old girl someone created fake social medium profile pretending posting embarrassing childhood photo spreading rumor feel violated exposed report kind cyberbullying get identity back,,
"I'm Sophia, a 17-year-old girl. Someone keeps editing my photos online in a mean-spirited way and posting them on social media. It's hurtful and feels like a violation of my image. How can I stop cyberbullies from manipulating my photos online?",cyberbullying,sophia year old girl someone keep editing photo online mean spirited way posting social medium hurtful feel like violation image stop cyberbullies manipulating,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm constantly walking on a tightrope, trying to maintain balance between my online presence and protecting my mental health. It's like one wrong move could send me tumbling into a pit of negativity.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like constantly walking tightrope trying maintain balance online presence protecting mental health one wrong move could send tumbling pit negativity,,
I'm feeling isolated and alone because I'm being excluded from online group chats and activities by my classmates. How would you support me in dealing with this exclusion?,cyberbullying,feeling isolated alone excluded online group chat activity classmate would support dealing exclusion,,
I'm experiencing cyberbullying in the form of constant online harassment. How should I respond to stop it?,cyberbullying,experiencing cyberbullying form constant online harassment respond stop,,
Someone keeps posting fake negative reviews of my restaurant online. It's damaging my reputation and affecting business. I feel helpless and don't know how to fight back against this online harassment. What options do I have to deal with fake reviews and protect my business?,cyberbullying,someone keep posting fake negative review restaurant online damaging reputation affecting business feel helpless know fight back harassment option deal protect,,
"I'm Sophia, a 18-year-old competitive dancer. After a disappointing performance at a regional competition, a video of me messing up a routine went viral on social media. Now, I'm bombarded with negative comments mocking my skills and making fun of my appearance. It's affecting my self-confidence and making me question whether I should continue dancing competitively. How can I build resilience against cyberbullying that targets an athlete's performance?",cyberbullying,sophia year old competitive dancer disappointing performance regional competition video messing routine went viral social medium bombarded negative comment mocking skill making fun appearance affecting self confidence question whether continue dancing competitively build resilience cyberbullying target athlete,,
"Iam 38 yrs old single parent ,i'm worried about my teenager who is being contacted by a stranger online.  The person is pretending to be someone their age and asking for personal information.  It's giving me nightmares, and I don't know how to talk to my child about online predators without scaring them.  How can I keep my child safe from online grooming?",cyberbullying,iam yr old single parent worried teenager contacted stranger online person pretending someone age asking personal information giving nightmare know talk child predator without scaring keep safe grooming,,
"Despite my attempts to stand up for myself, the cyberbullying has left me feeling like I'm invisible, as if my voice doesn't matter amidst the cacophony of hate. It's like I'm shouting into the void with no one to hear me.",cyberbullying,despite attempt stand cyberbullying left feeling like invisible voice matter amidst cacophony hate shouting void one hear,,
"I've been the target of a coordinated harassment campaign on social media, where multiple accounts are attacking me with hateful comments and threats. It's like I'm being ganged up on, and I don't know how to protect myself.

",cyberbullying,target coordinated harassment campaign social medium multiple account attacking hateful comment threat like ganged know protect,,
"Is it too late to start fixing my deteriorating mental health Hello, this my first post here, I have been dealing with depression and bullying since a young ago and it has taken a tool on me and my mental health. I have been dealing with suicidal thoughts every day for about a year before that it was less common. Now with no bullying but with the stress of life and loss of direction at 20 i can tell on myself that mentally I am not gonna make it far and that makes me even more scared and even more stressed. I make noises sometimes i lash out sometimes and my temper is less tolerant to everyday bullshit. I spend a lot of time alone in my room listening to music and daydreaming of a better tommorow that will never come because it hard for me to even be average and quite honestly I am growing tired of it. I am taking the most important step so I want to know if i start breathing peoperly, meditating or anything can my mental health impeove or is it gonna only get worse from here on out, be honest with me",cyberbullying,late start fixing deteriorating mental health hello first post dealing depression bullying since young ago taken tool suicidal thought every day year le common stress life loss direction tell mentally gonna make far even scared stressed noise sometimes lash temper tolerant everyday bullshit spend lot time alone room listening music daydreaming better tommorow never come hard average quite honestly growing tired taking important step want know breathing peoperly meditating anything impeove get worse honest,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question my own worth, leaving me feeling like I'm drowning in a sea of self-doubt. It's like no matter how hard I try, I can't shake the feeling of inadequacy.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question worth leaving feeling like drowning sea self doubt matter hard try shake inadequacy,,
"I got a mean comment on my latest post, and it's been bothering me all day. How should I deal with it?",cyberbullying,got mean comment latest post bothering day deal,,
The stress from dealing with online harassment is causing me to have panic attacks and severe anxiety.,cyberbullying,stress dealing online harassment causing panic attack severe anxiety,,
"I've been targeted with fake accounts impersonating me on social media, spreading false information and damaging my reputation. It's like my identity has been stolen, and I'm struggling to regain control.

",cyberbullying,targeted fake account impersonating social medium spreading false information damaging reputation like identity stolen struggling regain control,,
"Iam a female influencer, i recently went through a public breakup, and now my ex's fans are harassing me online.  They're accusing me of everything and making assumptions about the relationship.  It's overwhelming and makes me question sharing my personal life online.  How can I navigate online negativity surrounding a personal situation?",cyberbullying,iam female influencer recently went public breakup ex fan harassing online accusing everything making assumption relationship overwhelming make question sharing personal life navigate negativity surrounding situation,,
"I've been the target of a campaign to ostracize me from online communities I'm a part of, with users spreading rumors and encouraging others to avoid interacting with me. It's like I'm being socially isolated, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,target campaign ostracize online community part user spreading rumor encouraging others avoid interacting like socially isolated affecting mental well,,
I've noticed a change in my granddaughter's behavior since she started using social media more frequently. How can I subtly check if it's related to cyberbullying?,cyberbullying,noticed change granddaughter behavior since started using social medium frequently subtly check related cyberbullying,,
"I've been targeted with persistent trolling and harassment on social media, with users creating fake accounts to mock and belittle me. It's like I'm being hounded, and it's affecting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,targeted persistent trolling harassment social medium user creating fake account mock belittle like hounded affecting mental health,,
I'm feeling really isolated because of all the bullying I've experienced on social media.,cyberbullying,feeling really isolated bullying experienced social medium,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I even deserve happiness or success. It's like I'm constantly sabotaging myself, convinced that I'm unworthy of anything good in life. ",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether even deserve happiness success like constantly sabotaging convinced unworthy anything good life,,
"As a high school student, I've become the victim of cyberbullying on social media. The anonymous attacks and spreading of rumors have made me dread going online. How can I protect myself from cyberbullying and find support from friends and family?",cyberbullying,high school student become victim cyberbullying social medium anonymous attack spreading rumor made dread going online protect find support friend family,,
" After a tragic accident takes a young life, online trolls exploit the tragedy by creating fake accounts impersonating the deceased and posting insensitive content, causing further pain to my grieving family.",cyberbullying,tragic accident take young life online troll exploit tragedy creating fake account impersonating deceased posting insensitive content causing pain grieving family,,
Online bullying is making my life miserable.  The constant negativity and gossip are triggering anxiety and depression.  I'm afraid to go to school because of what people might say online.  How can I deal with cyberbullying and protect myself from online harassment?,cyberbullying,online bullying making life miserable constant negativity gossip triggering anxiety depression afraid go school people might say deal cyberbullying protect harassment,,
I spend so much time mindlessly scrolling and obsessing over my online image that I feel totally disconnected from my real-life friends and family.,cyberbullying,spend much time mindlessly scrolling obsessing online image feel totally disconnected real life friend family,,
"Lucas, a 22-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category) here. I'm part of an online club for aspiring writers. While I share my work and receive constructive criticism, there's one member who constantly belittles my writing and leaves overly harsh comments. It's making me feel discouraged and insecure about my writing abilities. How can I navigate online critique communities while dealing with cyberbullying from other aspiring writers?",cyberbullying,lucas year old college student still appropriate category part online club aspiring writer share work receive constructive criticism one member constantly belittles writing leaf overly harsh comment making feel discouraged insecure ability navigate critique community dealing cyberbullying,,
"I play online games competitively, but I have a visual impairment.  Many players make fun of my disability in chat, calling me a noob or accusing me of cheating.  It's incredibly discouraging and makes it difficult to enjoy the games I love",cyberbullying,play online game competitively visual impairment many player make fun disability chat calling noob accusing cheating incredibly discouraging difficult enjoy love,,
I'm feeling hurt and upset because I've been receiving hurtful messages online from anonymous users. How would you help me cope with this?,cyberbullying,feeling hurt upset receiving hurtful message online anonymous user would help cope,,
"Iam a college student, i clicked on a suspicious email that looked like it was from my bank.  Now, I think someone has stolen my debit card information.  I'm scared and don't know what to do next.  How can I recover from this mistake and protect myself from future online scams?",cyberbullying,iam college student clicked suspicious email looked like bank think someone stolen debit card information scared know next recover mistake protect future online scam,,
"After sharing my political views on social media, I've become the target of cyberbullying from individuals with opposing beliefs. The hateful messages and threats have left me feeling unsafe and anxious. How can I protect myself from cyberbullying while expressing my opinions online?",cyberbullying,sharing political view social medium become target cyberbullying individual opposing belief hateful message threat left feeling unsafe anxious protect expressing opinion online,,
"The hurtful comments and malicious messages I receive online make me question whether I'm worthy of love and acceptance. It's like I'm constantly seeking validation from others, but no matter how hard I try, I never feel good enough.",cyberbullying,hurtful comment malicious message receive online make question whether worthy love acceptance like constantly seeking validation others matter hard try never feel good enough,,
"I am a retiree, i recently received a letter saying a company I use had a data breach, and my Social Security number might be exposed.  I'm worried about identity theft and don't know how to monitor my credit.  What steps can I take to protect myself from the consequences of this data breach?",cyberbullying,retiree recently received letter saying company use data breach social security number might exposed worried identity theft know monitor credit step take protect consequence,,
Someone I thought was my friend has been spreading rumors about me online. What can I do?,cyberbullying,someone thought friend spreading rumor online,,
"I'm David, a 21-year-old college student. A former classmate from high school found my social media and keeps leaving negative comments about my appearance and life choices. It's bringing back old insecurities and making me feel uncomfortable online. How can I deal with cyberbullying from someone you barely know?",cyberbullying,david year old college student former classmate high school found social medium keep leaving negative comment appearance life choice bringing back insecurity making feel uncomfortable online deal cyberbullying someone barely know,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I even belong in online communities anymore. It's like I'm an outsider looking in, unable to find my place amidst the sea of hostility.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether even belong online community anymore like outsider looking unable find place amidst sea hostility,,
"I've been targeted with persistent online harassment, including threats and insults, from an individual I used to be friends with. It's like they're trying to ruin my life, and it's causing me immense stress.

",cyberbullying,targeted persistent online harassment including threat insult individual used friend like trying ruin life causing immense stress,,
"The anonymity of the internet emboldens my tormentors, allowing them to unleash their cruelty without consequence. I long for a reprieve from the constant onslaught, a moment of peace in a virtual world filled with hostility. Every interaction feels like walking through a minefield, never knowing when the next explosion of hate will come.",cyberbullying,anonymity internet emboldens tormentor allowing unleash cruelty without consequence long reprieve constant onslaught moment peace virtual world filled hostility every interaction feel like walking minefield never knowing next explosion hate come,,
"I am 41 yrs old female, i connected with someone online who seemed perfect.  We talked for months, but then they suddenly stopped responding and disappeared.  Now I'm worried it was all a lie.  It's hard to trust people online after this experience.  How can I navigate online dating safely and spot warning signs of fake profiles?",cyberbullying,yr old female connected someone online seemed perfect talked month suddenly stopped responding disappeared worried lie hard trust people experience navigate dating safely spot warning sign fake profile,,
"I'm Ethan, a 16-year-old boy. A group of classmates keeps spamming my phone with nasty texts. Blocking their numbers doesn't stop them from creating new ones. I feel like I'm being harassed constantly. How can I stop cyberbullies from using texting to target me?",cyberbullying,ethan year old boy group classmate keep spamming phone nasty text blocking number stop creating new one feel like harassed constantly cyberbullies using texting target,,
It's understandable that you're feeling anxious and on edge given the circumstances. Let's work on developing coping strategies to manage your anxiety and find ways to navigate social media without feeling constantly threatened.,cyberbullying,understandable feeling anxious edge given circumstance let work developing coping strategy manage anxiety find way navigate social medium without constantly threatened,,
"Despite trying to focus on the positive aspects of my life, the cyberbullying weighs heavily on my mind, overshadowing any moments of joy or accomplishment. It feels like I'm constantly battling against a tide of negativity, struggling to stay afloat amidst the relentless attacks. ",cyberbullying,despite trying focus positive aspect life cyberbullying weighs heavily mind overshadowing moment joy accomplishment feel like constantly battling tide negativity struggling stay afloat amidst relentless attack,,
"I am a blogger, accidentally used an image without proper attribution on my blog.  Now the copyright holder is threatening legal action and publicly calling me out online.  I feel terrible about the mistake and the online negativity is overwhelming.  How can I resolve this copyright issue and rebuild trust with my readers?",cyberbullying,blogger accidentally used image without proper attribution blog copyright holder threatening legal action publicly calling online feel terrible mistake negativity overwhelming resolve issue rebuild trust reader,,
"On social media platforms, I've been subjected to continuous harassment and threats from certain individuals who seem intent on intimidating me. It's like I'm constantly under siege, and it's greatly affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,social medium platform subjected continuous harassment threat certain individual seem intent intimidating like constantly siege greatly affecting mental well,,
How can I support peers who are experiencing cyberbullying without drawing negative attention to myself?,cyberbullying,support peer experiencing cyberbullying without drawing negative attention,,
"David, a 45-year-old mechanic, here. I run a local auto repair shop and have a positive reputation in the community. Lately, a competitor keeps leaving fake negative reviews online, accusing me of doing shoddy work and overcharging customers. It's hurting my business and causing confusion among potential customers. How can I address cyberbullying through fake reviews targeting a small business owner?",cyberbullying,david year old mechanic run local auto repair shop positive reputation community lately competitor keep leaving fake negative review online accusing shoddy work overcharging customer hurting business causing confusion among potential address cyberbullying targeting small owner,,
"I'm Ava, a 40-year-old streamer who focuses on educational content for kids. During a recent live stream, someone called in a fake emergency report (swatting) to my home address. The police showed up, causing a major disruption and scaring me and my family. How can I protect myself from cyberbullying that involves swatting pranks?",cyberbullying,ava year old streamer focus educational content kid recent live stream someone called fake emergency report swatting home address police showed causing major disruption scaring family protect cyberbullying involves prank,,
"I am 40 female I run a small online charity for animals. A disgruntled donor who didn't receive the recognition they expected uses fake accounts to spread rumors of financial mismanagement, jeopardizing the charity's reputation.",cyberbullying,female run small online charity animal disgruntled donor receive recognition expected us fake account spread rumor financial mismanagement jeopardizing reputation,,
"I've become the victim of revenge porn, with intimate images shared without my consent on social media and messaging platforms. The cyberbullying has left me feeling violated and ashamed. How can I take legal action against the perpetrators and reclaim my privacy?",cyberbullying,become victim revenge porn intimate image shared without consent social medium messaging platform cyberbullying left feeling violated ashamed take legal action perpetrator reclaim privacy,,
"In an online game I play, I've been subjected to constant harassment and verbal abuse from other players, with insults hurled at me during matches. It's like I can't escape the toxicity, and it's ruining my gaming experience.

",cyberbullying,online game play subjected constant harassment verbal abuse player insult hurled match like escape toxicity ruining gaming experience,,
"I've been targeted with a relentless stream of hate comments and insults on my social media posts, and it's affecting my mental health. It's like I'm constantly under attack, and it's wearing me down.

",cyberbullying,targeted relentless stream hate comment insult social medium post affecting mental health like constantly attack wearing,,
"I've been receiving hurtful messages online from someone I don't even know. It's like they're targeting me for no reason, and it's really affecting my mental health.

",cyberbullying,receiving hurtful message online someone even know like targeting reason really affecting mental health,,
The hateful messages I've been getting have been really triggering my depression and making it hard for me to get my schoolwork done.,cyberbullying,hateful message getting really triggering depression making hard get schoolwork done,,
I feel like I'm not worthy of love and respect anymore because of the cyberbullying. How can I rebuild my sense of self-worth and open myself up to healthy relationships?,cyberbullying,feel like worthy love respect anymore cyberbullying rebuild sense self worth open healthy relationship,,
"I'm an elderly widower, and I've been getting harassed online by people making fun of my loneliness. How can I cope with this?",cyberbullying,elderly widower getting harassed online people making fun loneliness cope,,
"After repeatedly receiving demeaning comments on their blog posts, a writer starts to lose confidence in their writing abilities. How might such cyberbullying affect their future willingness to share creative work online?",cyberbullying,repeatedly receiving demeaning comment blog post writer start lose confidence writing ability might cyberbullying affect future willingness share creative work online,,
"Iam 35yrs old male teacher,A student I failed in class is now cyberstalking me.  They're posting defamatory comments about me online and even making threats.  It's a hostile work environment, and I'm worried about reporting this to the school.  How can I address this cyberstalking and feel safe in my classroom?",cyberbullying,iam yr old male teacher student failed class cyberstalking posting defamatory comment online even making threat hostile work environment worried reporting school address feel safe classroom,,
I'm 22 and I've been targeted by cyberbullies on social media. It's really affecting my mental health and I don't know what to do.,cyberbullying,targeted cyberbullies social medium really affecting mental health know,,
"i run a popular vegan recipe blog. Some followers constantly pressure me for perfection, criticizing me for  use of certain ingredients or questioning my commitment to veganism, creating anxiety and guilt",cyberbullying,run popular vegan recipe blog follower constantly pressure perfection criticizing use certain ingredient questioning commitment veganism creating anxiety guilt,,
My partner with bipolar disorder recently posted something online during a manic episode. Now they're getting trolled and ridiculed. Worried about the impact this will have on their mental health. How can I support them through this?,cyberbullying,partner bipolar disorder recently posted something online manic episode getting trolled ridiculed worried impact mental health support,,
I've started self-harming to cope with the pain of being cyberbullied. How can I stop and find healthier coping mechanisms?,cyberbullying,started self harming cope pain cyberbullied stop find healthier coping mechanism,,
"I'm being cyberbullied at school, and it's affecting my academic performance and mental health. What should I do?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied school affecting academic performance mental health,,
"I've been excluded from online groups and conversations by my peers, and it's making me feel isolated and alone. It's like I'm being intentionally left out, and it's really hurting my self-esteem.

",cyberbullying,excluded online group conversation peer making feel isolated alone like intentionally left really hurting self esteem,,
I feel so isolated and alone because of all the bullying I've faced online from my classmates.,cyberbullying,feel isolated alone bullying faced online classmate,,
"In an online game, I've been the target of persistent harassment and trolling from other players, who have been bombarding me with offensive comments and taunts during matches. It's like I'm being attacked, and it's ruining my gaming experience.

",cyberbullying,online game target persistent harassment trolling player bombarding offensive comment taunt match like attacked ruining gaming experience,,
I confide in you that I have been cyberbullied by a former friend who is spreading rumors and posting hurtful comments about me online. How would you advise me to handle the situation?,cyberbullying,confide cyberbullied former friend spreading rumor posting hurtful comment online would advise handle situation,,
"I feel pressure to be strong and resilient in the face of cyberbullying, but sometimes I just want to break down and cry. Is it okay to show vulnerability and ask for help?",cyberbullying,feel pressure strong resilient face cyberbullying sometimes want break cry okay show vulnerability ask help,,
"I'm a young actress trying to build my online presence.  Unfortunately, one fan has become obsessed, leaving creepy comments on my social media and sending me unwanted gifts.  It's getting scary and makes me hesitant to continue building my online platform.  How can I set boundaries with fans and maintain control over my online space?",cyberbullying,young actress trying build online presence unfortunately one fan become obsessed leaving creepy comment social medium sending unwanted gift getting scary make hesitant continue building platform set boundary maintain control space,,
I worry about the cyberbullying my grandkids might face but also about violating their privacy by monitoring their online activity too closely. How can I find a balance?,cyberbullying,worry cyberbullying grandkids might face also violating privacy monitoring online activity closely find balance,,
"I'm Noah, a 22-year-old aspiring model with a birthmark on my face. I recently signed with a modeling agency and built an online presence. While I've received positive feedback, some comments target my birthmark with negativity and hurtful jokes. It's affecting my self-confidence and making me question whether I can succeed in the modeling industry. How can I deal with cyberbullying that focuses on physical appearance beyond what makeup can cover?",cyberbullying,noah year old aspiring model birthmark face recently signed modeling agency built online presence received positive feedback comment target negativity hurtful joke affecting self confidence making question whether succeed industry deal cyberbullying focus physical appearance beyond makeup cover,,
I feel like I'm not a good person anymore because of the way the bullies treated me. How can I separate their opinions from my own self-image?,cyberbullying,feel like good person anymore way bully treated separate opinion self image,,
"I've been sharing my opinions on a forum, and I've noticed that certain users are repeatedly attacking me with derogatory comments and personal insults. It's like I'm being targeted for expressing my views, and it's discouraging me from participating.

",cyberbullying,sharing opinion forum noticed certain user repeatedly attacking derogatory comment personal insult like targeted expressing view discouraging participating,,
"A client who felt I didn't help them is now harassing me online, threatening to reveal my personal information. It's terrifying and makes me question my safety and the ethics of online therapy. How can I handle this doxxing threat and protect myself while continuing to help people?",cyberbullying,client felt help harassing online threatening reveal personal information terrifying make question safety ethic therapy handle doxxing threat protect continuing people,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question my own identity, forcing me to hide behind a mask of anonymity to protect myself from further harm. It's like I'm losing sight of who I am in the face of the relentless attacks.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question identity forcing hide behind mask anonymity protect harm like losing sight face relentless attack,,
"The cyberbullying has left me feeling like I'm constantly walking on eggshells, afraid to express myself freely for fear of attracting more negative attention. It's like I've lost my voice in a sea of hostility.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying left feeling like constantly walking eggshell afraid express freely fear attracting negative attention lost voice sea hostility,,
The constant fear of being targeted by bullies online is giving me so much anxiety that it's impacting my academic performance.,cyberbullying,constant fear targeted bully online giving much anxiety impacting academic performance,,
"Iam an athlete ,I've been in a performance slump recently, and online critics are having a field day.  They're calling me washed up and past my prime.  It's affecting my mental game and making me doubt my abilities.  How can I manage online negativity and stay focused on improving my performance?",cyberbullying,iam athlete performance slump recently online critic field day calling washed past prime affecting mental game making doubt ability manage negativity stay focused improving,,
"A group of classmates keeps making fun of me online. They spread rumors, tag me in embarrassing memes, and message me hateful things. It's affecting my school life and I don't know how to make it stop.",cyberbullying,group classmate keep making fun online spread rumor tag embarrassing meme message hateful thing affecting school life know make stop,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the spread of edited photos and memes mocking me on social media. It's like my image has been distorted, and it's making me feel humiliated.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied spread edited photo meme mocking social medium like image distorted making feel humiliated,,
All the fake perfectionism and unrealistic beauty standards on social media are giving me really negative body image issues.,cyberbullying,fake perfectionism unrealistic beauty standard social medium giving really negative body image issue,,
I feel like I have to be perfect now to avoid being bullied again. How can I let go of this perfectionism?,cyberbullying,feel like perfect avoid bullied let go perfectionism,,
I blame myself for the cyberbullying and feel unworthy of help. How would you reassure me and encourage me to seek support?,cyberbullying,blame cyberbullying feel unworthy help would reassure encourage seek support,,
How can I stay updated on the latest trends in social media and technology to better relate to my grandkids?,cyberbullying,stay updated latest trend social medium technology better relate grandkids,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm losing my sense of self, as if my identity is being eroded by the relentless attacks. It's like I'm disappearing piece by piece, with nothing left to hold onto.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like losing sense self identity eroded relentless attack disappearing piece nothing left hold onto,,
"I am 18, male, now I am applying to top universities.  I  discovers a forum where students from his high school anonymously criticize each other's applications, including cruel attacks on his academic achievements.",cyberbullying,male applying top university discovers forum student high school anonymously criticize application including cruel attack academic achievement,,
"I used to be really confident about posting my art online, but recently, someone keeps leaving negative critiques on my work. They're so harsh that I'm starting to think I'm not good enough and maybe I should just stop creating art altogether.",cyberbullying,used really confident posting art online recently someone keep leaving negative critique work harsh starting think good enough maybe stop creating altogether,,
A small artist I follow got commissioned by a big influencer. The influencer ended up hating the artwork and is now publicly bashing the artist online. It's disgusting how they have so much power to bully someone's caree,cyberbullying,small artist follow got commissioned big influencer ended hating artwork publicly bashing online disgusting much power bully someone caree,,
"I am 24 yrd old singer,I released my first single online, and while some people love it, others leave scathing reviews and personal attacks.  It's discouraging and makes me hesitant to put out more music.  How can I deal with online criticism in a healthy way and keep pursuing my musical dreams?",cyberbullying,yrd old singer released first single online people love others leave scathing review personal attack discouraging make hesitant put music deal criticism healthy way keep pursuing musical dream,,
"I'm a 25-year-old who recently joined a new online gaming community. Lately, I've been excluded from group activities and some members even send me private messages with insults. It's making me feel depressed and lonely.",cyberbullying,year old recently joined new online gaming community lately excluded group activity member even send private message insult making feel depressed lonely,,
Getting harassed by a troll online? Try responding with nothing but kindness and compliments. Confuses them every time!,cyberbullying,getting harassed troll online try responding nothing kindness compliment confuses every time,,
"I've been participating in online debates, and I've noticed that certain users are targeting me with personal attacks and smear campaigns. It's like they're trying to discredit me, and it's affecting my credibility.

",cyberbullying,participating online debate noticed certain user targeting personal attack smear campaign like trying discredit affecting credibility,,
"I promote body positivity and healthy living through online fitness tutorials.  However, some viewers leave negative comments about my own body type, contradicting the message I'm trying to spread.  It's hurtful and hypocritical.  How can I deal with online body shaming while keeping my content inclusive and inspiring?",cyberbullying,promote body positivity healthy living online fitness tutorial however viewer leave negative comment type contradicting message trying spread hurtful hypocritical deal shaming keeping content inclusive inspiring,,
" work with a marginalized community, and speaking out on their behalf has attracted online bullies.  They use hate speech, spread misinformation, and even dox personal information.  It's scary, but I'm determined to keep fighting for what's right despite the fear.",cyberbullying,work marginalized community speaking behalf attracted online bully use hate speech spread misinformation even dox personal information scary determined keep fighting right despite fear,,
"Despite my attempts to stay positive and hopeful, it's hard not to feel defeated by the constant barrage of negativity. It's like I'm fighting a losing battle, with no end in sight.",cyberbullying,despite attempt stay positive hopeful hard feel defeated constant barrage negativity like fighting losing battle end sight,,
"I'm Lucas, a 18-year-old man. Someone figured out where I work and is posting negative reviews about me online. Now my boss is questioning my performance and customers are treating me differently. How can I address cyberbullying that impacts my job?",cyberbullying,lucas year old man someone figured work posting negative review online bos questioning performance customer treating differently address cyberbullying impact job,,
The cyberbullying has made me question whether I'll ever be able to trust anyone online again. It's like the anonymity of the internet has turned every interaction into a potential threat.,cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether ever able trust anyone online like anonymity internet turned every interaction potential threat,,
"The cyberbullying has made me question whether I even belong on social media anymore. It's like I'm an outsider looking in, watching everyone else enjoy their online interactions while I struggle to find my place in this digital world.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made question whether even belong social medium anymore like outsider looking watching everyone else enjoy online interaction struggle find place digital world,,
I'm feeling really hopeless and suicidal because of the constant bullying I face online.,cyberbullying,feeling really hopeless suicidal constant bullying face online,,
"iam an accidental meme now,an old picture of me recently resurfaced online and became a meme. While it's kind of funny, the comments section is filled with negativity and insensitive jokes.  I feel like I have no control over my own image online, and it's becoming a source of anxiety.",cyberbullying,iam accidental meme old picture recently resurfaced online became kind funny comment section filled negativity insensitive joke feel like control image becoming source anxiety,,
"Ever since a group chat turned on me and started excluding me, I've felt lonely and depressed. I don't feel like going out or socializing anymore.  (25-year-old male)",cyberbullying,ever since group chat turned started excluding felt lonely depressed feel like going socializing anymore year old male,,
"As someone who made a joke online that went too far and now realizes it hurt someone's feelings, how can I make amends and ensure I don't repeat this behavior?",cyberbullying,someone made joke online went far realizes hurt feeling make amends ensure repeat behavior,,
"Sarah, a 17-year-old high school student, here. I'm a talented artist and enjoy sharing my work on social media. However, a popular art account with a large following keeps reposting my work without credit, claiming it as their own. They even disable comments on those posts, preventing me from clearing my name. It's discouraging and makes me hesitant to share my art online anymore. How can I handle cyberbullying that involves online art theft and impersonation?",cyberbullying,sarah year old high school student talented artist enjoy sharing work social medium however popular art account large following keep reposting without credit claiming even disable comment post preventing clearing name discouraging make hesitant share online anymore handle cyberbullying involves theft impersonation,,
I'm feeling really hopeless and suicidal because of the constant bullying I face online from my classmates.,cyberbullying,feeling really hopeless suicidal constant bullying face online classmate,,
I feel overwhelmed and distressed because someone has been cyberbullying me by spreading false rumors about me online. How would you support me in addressing these malicious rumors?,cyberbullying,feel overwhelmed distressed someone cyberbullying spreading false rumor online would support addressing malicious,,
"As an aspiring content creator, I've encountered cyberbullying in the form of negative comments and harassment on my videos and social media posts. The constant criticism has taken a toll on my mental health and creativity. How can I navigate cyberbullying in the online community and stay focused on my passion?",cyberbullying,aspiring content creator encountered cyberbullying form negative comment harassment video social medium post constant criticism taken toll mental health creativity navigate online community stay focused passion,,
"I run a successful online dating profile review service.  However, a disgruntled client who didn't find love blames me, leaving negative reviews and spreading rumors to discredit my expertise.",cyberbullying,run successful online dating profile review service however disgruntled client find love blame leaving negative spreading rumor discredit expertise,,
"I've been targeted by a cyberbullying campaign after a disagreement online, with multiple people sending me threatening messages. How can I safeguard myself from these coordinated attacks?",cyberbullying,targeted cyberbullying campaign disagreement online multiple people sending threatening message safeguard coordinated attack,,
"Excited to share pictures from my first cosplay event, but a creepy commenter keeps leaving harassing messages and invading my privacy. Feels like I can't escape them even offline.",cyberbullying,excited share picture first cosplay event creepy commenter keep leaving harassing message invading privacy feel like escape even offline,,
I'm 22 and I've been receiving hateful comments on my social media posts. It's really affecting my mental health.,cyberbullying,receiving hateful comment social medium post really affecting mental health,,
" There's this group of kids at school who keep targeting me online. They post mean comments and rumors about me on social media, and it's really affecting me. I feel anxious and embarrassed to go to school, and I don't know who to trust anymore.",cyberbullying,group kid school keep targeting online post mean comment rumor social medium really affecting feel anxious embarrassed go know trust anymore,,
" I poured my heart and soul into crafting this cosplay costume. I was so excited to share pictures online, but the comments were filled with negativity.  People made fun of my body type, criticized the accuracy of the costume, and even accused me of cultural appropriation. Now I'm afraid to participate in the cosplay community online.
",cyberbullying,poured heart soul crafting cosplay costume excited share picture online comment filled negativity people made fun body type criticized accuracy even accused cultural appropriation afraid participate community,,
"I've tried everything to escape the cyberbullying, from deleting my accounts to changing my online persona, but it feels like they always find a way to track me down and continue their attacks. It's like I'm trapped in a never-ending nightmare.",cyberbullying,tried everything escape cyberbullying deleting account changing online persona feel like always find way track continue attack trapped never ending nightmare,,
"I'm experiencing cyberbullying from an anonymous user, and it's making me feel anxious. What should I do?",cyberbullying,experiencing cyberbullying anonymous user making feel anxious,,
"Iam a female entrepreneur,Someone left a scathing review of my new business on Yelp, full of lies and exaggerations.  It's affecting our online presence and driving away potential customers.  I feel helpless and don't know how to fight back against this online attack.  What can I do to address negative online reviews and protect my business?",cyberbullying,iam female entrepreneur someone left scathing review new business yelp full lie exaggeration affecting online presence driving away potential customer feel helpless know fight back attack address negative protect,,
"The constant negativity online is taking a toll on me emotionally. I feel down most of the time, and I've even started crying myself to sleep sometimes. I need help to cope with these feelings.",cyberbullying,constant negativity online taking toll emotionally feel time even started cry sleep sometimes need help cope feeling,,
"I'm Ben, a 25-year-old social media manager. A group of trolls keeps hijacking the comment section on my client's social media pages, posting hateful messages and disrupting marketing campaigns. It's making it difficult to manage the client's online presence and maintain a positive brand image. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets a business's social media presence?",cyberbullying,ben year old social medium manager group troll keep hijacking comment section client page posting hateful message disrupting marketing campaign making difficult manage online presence maintain positive brand image handle cyberbullying target business,,
"I'm Emily, a 19-year-old woman. I confided in a friend about a personal struggle, but they took what I said and twisted it into a nasty rumor they spread online. I feel betrayed and don't know who to trust anymore. How can I heal from cyberbullying by someone you thought was a friend?",cyberbullying,emily year old woman confided friend personal struggle took said twisted nasty rumor spread online feel betrayed know trust anymore heal cyberbullying someone thought,,
"I am 62 yrs old male, A fake investment opportunity appeared on my social media feed.  I lost a significant amount of money before realizing it was a scam.  I feel embarrassed and unsure how to trust online financial information anymore.  What resources can help me learn about online safety and avoid future scams?",cyberbullying,yr old male fake investment opportunity appeared social medium feed lost significant amount money realizing scam feel embarrassed unsure trust online financial information anymore resource help learn safety avoid future,,
"Olivia, a 40-year-old hairstylist, here. I share my work and hairstyling tips on social media. Recently, a competitor keeps copying my signature styles and posting them online as their own work. They even go so far as to leave negative comments under my posts, discrediting my originality. It's frustrating to see my creativity stolen and discouraging potential clients from coming to me. How can I handle cyberbullying that involves plagiarism of creative work online?",cyberbullying,olivia year old hairstylist share work hairstyling tip social medium recently competitor keep copying signature style posting online even go far leave negative comment post discrediting originality frustrating see creativity stolen discouraging potential client coming handle cyberbullying involves plagiarism creative,,
"Ben, a 31-year-old travel blogger, here. I document my adventures and travel tips on my blog and social media. After posting photos from a recent trip to a developing country, I received criticism accusing me of cultural appropriation and inauthentic travel experiences. It's making me question my approach to travel blogging and hesitant to share future adventures. How can I navigate cyberbullying related to cultural sensitivity in travel blogging?",cyberbullying,ben year old travel blogger document adventure tip blog social medium posting photo recent trip developing country received criticism accusing cultural appropriation inauthentic experience making question approach blogging hesitant share future navigate cyberbullying related sensitivity,,
I've become a target of cyberbullying in a professional online community related to my field of work. The false rumors are jeopardizing my career. How should I approach this situation to mitigate the damage and clear my name?,cyberbullying,become target cyberbullying professional online community related field work false rumor jeopardizing career approach situation mitigate damage clear name,,
"Someone created a fake Twitter account pretending to be me and posting embarrassing things.  My friends are confused, and I feel violated.  How can I get fake accounts suspended and protect my online identity?",cyberbullying,someone created fake twitter account pretending posting embarrassing thing friend confused feel violated get suspended protect online identity,,
"As an LGBTQ+ activist, I'm constantly targeted by online harassment campaigns. It includes hateful messages, threats, and even attempts to dox me. It's exhausting and scary, but I also feel a responsibility to keep speaking up. How can I advocate for my community while protecting myself from online attacks?",cyberbullying,lgbtq activist constantly targeted online harassment campaign includes hateful message threat even attempt dox exhausting scary also feel responsibility keep speaking advocate community protecting attack,,
I'm constantly feeling down and worthless because of the mean comments people make about me on social media. I don't know how to stop feeling this way.,cyberbullying,constantly feeling worthless mean comment people make social medium know stop way,,
I'm struggling to forgive myself for not standing up to the bullies sooner. How can I let go of this self-blame and move forward?,cyberbullying,struggling forgive standing bully sooner let go self blame move forward,,
"Despite my efforts to ignore the hurtful comments, they continue to haunt me, echoing in my mind long after I've logged off. It's like there's no escape from the torment, even in the silence of my own thoughts.",cyberbullying,despite effort ignore hurtful comment continue haunt echoing mind long logged like escape torment even silence thought,,
"Ben, a 26-year-old software developer, here. I recently launched a new language learning app. While most reviews are positive, a competitor keeps spamming the app store with negative comments, criticizing features and claiming the app is a copy of their product. It's discouraging downloads and making it difficult for my app to stand out. How can I address cyberbullying from a competitor in the mobile app market?",cyberbullying,ben year old software developer recently launched new language learning app review positive competitor keep spamming store negative comment criticizing feature claiming copy product discouraging downloads making difficult stand address cyberbullying mobile market,,
I'm feeling ashamed because I'm being cyberbullied by strangers online. They're making fun of my appearance and spreading hate messages. How would you advise me to deal with this harassment?,cyberbullying,feeling ashamed cyberbullied stranger online making fun appearance spreading hate message would advise deal harassment,,
I'm worried about my granddaughter sharing personal information online that might make her a target for cyberbullies. How can I talk to her about this?,cyberbullying,worried granddaughter sharing personal information online might make target cyberbullies talk,,
"The cyberbullying has made me feel like I'm living in a constant state of fear and paranoia, always looking over my shoulder for the next attack. It's like I can never relax or feel safe, even in the comfort of my own home.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying made feel like living constant state fear paranoia always looking shoulder next attack never relax safe even comfort home,,
"Just got kicked from another online match because I'm a girl. Honestly, the insults get old fast. Go back to the kitchen, Nobody wants to hear a girl gamer, You're probably just bad anyway. Guys, I just want to play the game like everyone else.",cyberbullying,got kicked another online match girl honestly insult get old fast go back kitchen nobody want hear gamer probably bad anyway guy play game like everyone else,,
"While playing an online game, I've been targeted with repeated threats and intimidation from another player, who has been trying to coerce me into quitting matches or giving up items. It's like I'm being extorted in the virtual world.

",cyberbullying,playing online game targeted repeated threat intimidation another player trying coerce quitting match giving item like extorted virtual world,,
I feel guilty for not being able to protect others from the same bullies who targeted me. How can I let go of this guilt and focus on my own healing?,cyberbullying,feel guilty able protect others bully targeted let go guilt focus healing,,
"My teenager is reluctant to talk but shows signs of distress, and I suspect cyberbullying. How can I open a dialogue to understand and address the issue?",cyberbullying,teenager reluctant talk show sign distress suspect cyberbullying open dialogue understand address issue,,
"I have a disability that affects my gameplay, but I love streaming anyway. Unfortunately, some viewers make fun of my disability or accuse me of cheating. It's hurtful and makes me want to give up streaming altogether. How can I build a positive gaming community free from harassment?",cyberbullying,disability affect gameplay love streaming anyway unfortunately viewer make fun accuse cheating hurtful want give altogether build positive gaming community free harassment,,
"Witnessing a friend get cyberbullied online. The bully deleted their posts, but my friend is worried they might resurface later. Is there a safe way to archive this content as evidence in case it's needed?",cyberbullying,witnessing friend get cyberbullied online bully deleted post worried might resurface later safe way archive content evidence case needed,,
"i gets into a minor dispute with a neighbor. The neighbor retaliates by creating a fake online review site accusing me of being a terrible neighbor, impacting her property value.",cyberbullying,get minor dispute neighbor retaliates creating fake online review site accusing terrible impacting property value,,
"Despite my best efforts to stand up to the cyberbullies, their attacks leave me feeling drained and defeated. It's like I'm fighting a losing battle, with no end in sight.",cyberbullying,despite best effort stand cyberbullies attack leave feeling drained defeated like fighting losing battle end sight,,
"Ava, a 45-year-old single mother of twins, here. I recently returned to work after a long maternity leave. Unfortunately, a former colleague keeps spreading rumors online about my parenting skills and commitment to my career. It's affecting my reputation at work and causing unnecessary stress in my personal life. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets working mothers online?",cyberbullying,ava year old single mother twin recently returned work long maternity leave unfortunately former colleague keep spreading rumor online parenting skill commitment career affecting reputation causing unnecessary stress personal life handle cyberbullying target working,,
"I've tried everything to stop the cyberbullying, from blocking accounts to reporting abusive behavior, but nothing seems to work. It's like I'm fighting a losing battle, with the bullies always one step ahead of me.",cyberbullying,tried everything stop cyberbullying blocking account reporting abusive behavior nothing seems work like fighting losing battle bully always one step ahead,,
I share that I have been targeted by cyberbullies who are spreading false rumors about me online. I feel humiliated and embarrassed. How would you support me?,cyberbullying,share targeted cyberbullies spreading false rumor online feel humiliated embarrassed would support,,
"I'm Daniel, a 36-year-old musician. I recently released a new album that received some mixed reviews online. While I can handle constructive criticism, some reviewers have resorted to personal attacks on my appearance and musical style. It's discouraging and making me question my creative choices. How can I develop a thicker skin against cyberbullying that focuses on personal insults rather than the music itself?",cyberbullying,daniel year old musician recently released new album received mixed review online handle constructive criticism reviewer resorted personal attack appearance musical style discouraging making question creative choice develop thicker skin cyberbullying focus insult rather music,,
I've noticed some troubling comments under my grandson's posts. How can I support him without making things worse?,cyberbullying,noticed troubling comment grandson post support without making thing worse,,
"I'm Olivia, a 28-year-old social media influencer. I promote healthy living and fitness on my platforms. Recently, someone created a fake news article claiming I endorse an unhealthy weight loss product. It's spreading misinformation and confusing my followers. How can I combat cyberbullying that uses fake news to damage my online reputation?",cyberbullying,olivia year old social medium influencer promote healthy living fitness platform recently someone created fake news article claiming endorse unhealthy weight loss product spreading misinformation confusing follower combat cyberbullying us damage online reputation,,
"I am a female singer,As a public figure, I'm used to some negativity online.  However, this has escalated to cyberstalking.  Someone is constantly digging up dirt from my past and spreading rumors.  It's impacting my mental health and making me question my career.  What strategies can I use to deal with persistent online harassment?",cyberbullying,female singer public figure used negativity online however escalated cyberstalking someone constantly digging dirt past spreading rumor impacting mental health making question career strategy use deal persistent harassment,,
Someone made a fake account pretending to be me and is messaging people awful things. I'm worried about the damage it might do to my reputation. How can I get this to stop?,cyberbullying,someone made fake account pretending messaging people awful thing worried damage might reputation get stop,,
"I'm William, a 24-year-old gamer. A group of players in my favorite online game keeps targeting me with harassment and insults. They follow me around in-game and try to ruin my experience. It's making it impossible to enjoy playing the game anymore. How can I create a safe and harassment-free gaming experience for myself?",cyberbullying,william year old gamer group player favorite online game keep targeting harassment insult follow around try ruin experience making impossible enjoy playing anymore create safe free gaming,,
The stress from online harassment is causing me to have panic attacks and bad anxiety.,cyberbullying,stress online harassment causing panic attack bad anxiety,,
"Despite my attempts to block and report the cyberbullies, their attacks seem to follow me everywhere I go online. It's like they're always one step ahead, finding new ways to infiltrate my digital space.",cyberbullying,despite attempt block report cyberbullies attack seem follow everywhere go online like always one step ahead finding new way infiltrate digital space,,
"I am 16 yrs old female.So, there's this group chat I'm in with some classmates.  It was fun at first, but lately, they've been making fun of me behind my back.  I know because someone sent me screenshots.  I want to tell them to stop, but I'm scared they'll just get worse.
",cyberbullying,yr old female group chat classmate fun first lately making behind back know someone sent screenshots want tell stop scared get worse,,
I'm being targeted by someone online who is spreading rumors and false information about me. What should I do?,cyberbullying,targeted someone online spreading rumor false information,,
"I've been cyberbullied by someone I considered a friend, who shared private conversations and manipulated images to humiliate me online. How can I confront this betrayal and protect myself from further cyberbullying?",cyberbullying,cyberbullied someone considered friend shared private conversation manipulated image humiliate online confront betrayal protect cyberbullying,,
"I feel so ashamed and embarrassed after being publicly humiliated online, and it's really affecting my ability to participate in class.",cyberbullying,feel ashamed embarrassed publicly humiliated online really affecting ability participate class,,
"I started a blog about my mental health journey, hoping to connect with others. But some commenters have been incredibly insensitive, mocking my struggles and leaving hateful messages. Now I'm afraid to share my vulnerabilities online for fear of further attacks.",cyberbullying,started blog mental health journey hoping connect others commenters incredibly insensitive mocking struggle leaving hateful message afraid share vulnerability online fear attack,,
"As a member of a minority group, I've experienced cyberbullying in online forums and gaming communities. The discriminatory remarks and targeted harassment have made me feel unwelcome and afraid to participate. How can I combat cyberbullying and foster inclusivity in these online spaces?",cyberbullying,member minority group experienced cyberbullying online forum gaming community discriminatory remark targeted harassment made feel unwelcome afraid participate combat foster inclusivity space,,
"I am 16, male, I excitedly posts a picture of myself meeting my  favorite celebrity at a convention. Online trolls dissect the photo, mocking my appearance and creating cruel memes.",cyberbullying,male excitedly post picture meeting favorite celebrity convention online troll dissect photo mocking appearance creating cruel meme,,
"iam social media influencer,Someone is impersonating me online, creating fake accounts and using my photos and content.  They're even contacting my followers and potentially damaging my reputation.  I feel helpless and don't know how to stop them.  How can I report this online identity theft and protect my brand?",cyberbullying,iam social medium influencer someone impersonating online creating fake account using photo content even contacting follower potentially damaging reputation feel helpless know stop report identity theft protect brand,,
How can I educate myself on recognizing signs of cyberbullying to better support my grandkids?,cyberbullying,educate recognizing sign cyberbullying better support grandkids,,
"I'm afraid that the cyberbullying will affect my future opportunities, like getting into college or finding a job. How can I move forward and achieve my goals despite this setback?",cyberbullying,afraid cyberbullying affect future opportunity like getting college finding job move forward achieve goal despite setback,,
"I've been the target of a coordinated smear campaign online, where false rumors and lies are being spread about me to damage my reputation. It's like my life is being torn apart, and I'm helpless to stop it.

",cyberbullying,target coordinated smear campaign online false rumor lie spread damage reputation like life torn apart helpless stop,,
"I am 40 yrs old Male  cooking Blogger ,I don't know how to handle the negativity on my channel. Some viewers, especially younger folks, leave rude comments about my recipes or the way I present them. Part of me wants to ignore them, but another part feels the need to defend my work and culinary style.,I am having internal dabate whether to respnd or Ignore?",cyberbullying,yr old male cooking blogger know handle negativity channel viewer especially younger folk leave rude comment recipe way present part want ignore another feel need defend work culinary style internal dabate whether respnd,,
"I've been targeted with a flood of hateful messages and comments on my blog, criticizing my writing style and attacking my personal life. It's like I'm being torn apart, and it's affecting my mental well-being.

",cyberbullying,targeted flood hateful message comment blog criticizing writing style attacking personal life like torn apart affecting mental well,,
"Ava, a 48-year-old animal shelter volunteer, here. I frequently post about adoptable animals on the shelter's social media pages. Unfortunately, a group of animal rights activists keep leaving negative comments, accusing the shelter of mistreatment and demanding the animals be released. It's discouraging potential adopters and making it difficult to find loving homes for the animals. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets an animal shelter and its adoption efforts?",cyberbullying,ava year old animal shelter volunteer frequently post adoptable social medium page unfortunately group right activist keep leaving negative comment accusing mistreatment demanding released discouraging potential adopter making difficult find loving home handle cyberbullying target adoption effort,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the spread of rumors and gossip about me online, which have tarnished my reputation and led to social ostracism. It's like my character is being assassinated, and it's isolating me from others.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied spread rumor gossip online tarnished reputation led social ostracism like character assassinated isolating others,,
"a friend of men whos a academic reseacher, her research paper stolen and plagiarized online. Anonymous accounts post distorted versions of her work, discrediting her olarship and potentially damaging her academic career.",cyberbullying,friend men who academic reseacher research paper stolen plagiarized online anonymous account post distorted version work discrediting olarship potentially damaging career,,
I've been receiving unsolicited and harassing emails from someone I used to be friends with. These emails are making me anxious every time I check my inbox. What can I do to stop this harassment and regain my sense of security online?,cyberbullying,receiving unsolicited harassing email someone used friend making anxious every time check inbox stop harassment regain sense security online,,
"Lucas, a 20-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category), here. I'm part of an online fantasy sports league with friends and classmates. It's supposed to be a fun competition, but one player keeps making harassing comments and personal attacks after losing games. They try to intimidate and belittle other players, creating a toxic environment in the league. How can I deal with cyberbullying within a competitive online gaming league?",cyberbullying,lucas year old college student still appropriate category part online fantasy sport league friend classmate supposed fun competition one player keep making harassing comment personal attack losing game try intimidate belittle creating toxic environment deal cyberbullying within competitive gaming,,
"I'm scared that the bullies will find new ways to harass me online, even if I block them or change my accounts. How can I protect myself from future attacks?",cyberbullying,scared bully find new way harass online even block change account protect future attack,,
"I am 16 yrs old female ,Some classmates created fake profiles online to spread rumors about me.  They're trying to pressure me into joining their social circle.  It's hurtful and embarrassing.  How can I deal with online bullying from peers and maintain a positive online presence?",cyberbullying,yr old female classmate created fake profile online spread rumor trying pressure joining social circle hurtful embarrassing deal bullying peer maintain positive presence,,
Someone is leaving fake negative reviews of my small business online. It's affecting my sales and reputation. Feeling discouraged and helpless.,cyberbullying,someone leaving fake negative review small business online affecting sale reputation feeling discouraged helpless,,
"I'm Emily, a 22-year-old college student. I joined an online forum for my major, but a group of students keeps shutting down my ideas and making condescending remarks about my intelligence. It's making me feel discouraged from participating in class discussions. How can I deal with cyberbullying within academic online communities?",cyberbullying,emily year old college student joined online forum major group keep shutting idea making condescending remark intelligence feel discouraged participating class discussion deal cyberbullying within academic community,,
"David, a 42-year-old programmer, here. I recently started working remotely for a tech company. While I excel at my job, a colleague keeps making passive-aggressive comments about my work ethic and online presence during video conferences. It's affecting my morale and creating a toxic work environment. How can I handle cyberbullying from a coworker in a remote work setting?",cyberbullying,david year old programmer recently started working remotely tech company excel job colleague keep making passive aggressive comment work ethic online presence video conference affecting morale creating toxic environment handle cyberbullying coworker remote setting,,
I'm feeling overwhelmed and anxious because I've been cyberbullied on social media. I'm not sure how to cope with it.,cyberbullying,feeling overwhelmed anxious cyberbullied social medium sure cope,,
" I've been targeted by some nasty comments on a reel I posted.  It's made me feel exposed and vulnerable online.  I don't know how to handle cyberbullying on this platform.
",cyberbullying,targeted nasty comment reel posted made feel exposed vulnerable online know handle cyberbullying platform,,
"iam a female musician ,The worry about receiving hateful comments is starting to hold back my creativity. I hesitate to experiment with new sounds or concepts for fear of criticism. It feels like the negativity is silencing my voice and passion for making music.how to ignore negativity?",cyberbullying,iam female musician worry receiving hateful comment starting hold back creativity hesitate experiment new sound concept fear criticism feel like negativity silencing voice passion making music ignore,,
"The cyberbullying has invaded every aspect of my life, even infiltrating my dreams with its relentless negativity. It's like there's no escape from the torment, not even in the sanctuary of sleep.",cyberbullying,cyberbullying invaded every aspect life even infiltrating dream relentless negativity like escape torment sanctuary sleep,,
"Despite my best efforts to ignore the cyberbullies, their words continue to haunt me, poisoning my thoughts and emotions. It's like I'm carrying their toxicity with me wherever I go.",cyberbullying,despite best effort ignore cyberbullies word continue haunt poisoning thought emotion like carrying toxicity wherever go,,
"a disgruntled customer left a one-star review on our restaurant's social media page, filled with lies and insults. Now, it's gone viral, and we're receiving online threats and harassment.  It's damaging our reputation and causing immense stress",cyberbullying,disgruntled customer left one star review restaurant social medium page filled lie insult gone viral receiving online threat harassment damaging reputation causing immense stress,,
"I'm Chloe, a 19-year-old streamer. I recently started playing a horror game on stream, but a group of viewers keeps joining my voice chat and deliberately making creepy noises and threats to ruin the atmosphere. It's making me feel scared and anxious, and it's discouraging viewers from enjoying the stream. How can I handle cyberbullying that disrupts my online content creation?",cyberbullying,chloe year old streamer recently started playing horror game stream group viewer keep joining voice chat deliberately making creepy noise threat ruin atmosphere feel scared anxious discouraging enjoying handle cyberbullying disrupts online content creation,,
"I'm Ava, a 17-year-old girl. Someone keeps creating negative memes about my religious beliefs and posting them on social media. It's disrespectful and making me feel like I can't express my faith openly. How can I handle cyberbullying that targets my religion?",cyberbullying,ava year old girl someone keep creating negative meme religious belief posting social medium disrespectful making feel like express faith openly handle cyberbullying target religion,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the creation of fake accounts impersonating me online. It's like my identity has been stolen, and I don't know how to reclaim it.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied creation fake account impersonating online like identity stolen know reclaim,,
"I don't know how to title this, story of my life and shitty issues I guess. I always had problems socializing and I've also suffered from bullying for a long time, I felt empty a lot of time and also I cried sometimes for no real reason. I have though of myself as a really paranoid person since a really long time and I had friends but I didn't feel like they were real friends, though I didn't really care about it at that time, there were some special cases where I did wanted to be with that people but I had problems trusting them which I think lead to a conflict that ended in my losing contact with some of them.",cyberbullying,know title story life shitty issue guess always problem socializing also suffered bullying long time felt empty lot cried sometimes real reason though really paranoid person since friend feel like care special case wanted people trusting think lead conflict ended losing contact,,
"I've been cyberbullied through the use of derogatory language and insults directed at me online. It's like I'm being verbally attacked, and it's taking a toll on my mental health.

",cyberbullying,cyberbullied use derogatory language insult directed online like verbally attacked taking toll mental health,,
I feel overwhelmed and helpless because I am being cyberbullied by someone I thought was my friend. They are spreading rumors and making hurtful comments about me online. How would you advise me to cope with this situation?,cyberbullying,feel overwhelmed helpless cyberbullied someone thought friend spreading rumor making hurtful comment online would advise cope situation,,
"Despite my efforts to block and report the cyberbullies, their attacks seem to only intensify. It's like they're always one step ahead of me, finding new ways to target and torment me online.",cyberbullying,despite effort block report cyberbullies attack seem intensify like always one step ahead finding new way target torment online,,
"During an online game, a player is targeted with constant verbal abuse through the voice chat feature, affecting their enjoyment and performance in the game. What steps can the gaming community or developers take to mitigate such toxic behavior?",cyberbullying,online game player targeted constant verbal abuse voice chat feature affecting enjoyment performance step gaming community developer take mitigate toxic behavior,,
"Sophia, a 19-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category), here. I'm a member of the online debate club for my university. While most debates are respectful, a few members resort to personal attacks and insults to win arguments. It's making healthy debate difficult and discouraging me from participating further. How can I deal with cyberbullying that undermines respectful debate within online communities?",cyberbullying,sophia year old college student still appropriate category member online debate club university respectful resort personal attack insult win argument making healthy difficult discouraging participating deal cyberbullying undermines within community,,
"I'm Sophia, a 27-year-old cosmetologist. A disgruntled former client keeps posting pictures of their allegedly botched hairstyle on social media, tagging my salon and blaming me directly. It's embarrassing and causing other potential clients to hesitate booking appointments. How can I handle cyberbullying from a client unhappy with my service?",cyberbullying,sophia year old cosmetologist disgruntled former client keep posting picture allegedly botched hairstyle social medium tagging salon blaming directly embarrassing causing potential hesitate booking appointment handle cyberbullying unhappy service,,
"I am 52 yrd old Teacher,A student I caught plagiarizing is now accusing me online of unfairly targeting them. They've posted screenshots of our emails and are spreading misinformation. It's damaging my reputation and making it difficult to teach effectively. What can I do to address this online harassment and protect myself?",cyberbullying,yrd old teacher student caught plagiarizing accusing online unfairly targeting posted screenshots email spreading misinformation damaging reputation making difficult teach effectively address harassment protect,,
"Sophia, a 21-year-old college student (still appropriate for the category), here. I joined an online language learning community to improve my conversational skills. However, a group of native speakers frequently corrects my mistakes in a harsh and condescending manner. They make me feel discouraged from participating and embarrassed about my learning process. How can I deal with cyberbullying that targets someone's language skills within an online learning community?",cyberbullying,sophia year old college student still appropriate category joined online language learning community improve conversational skill however group native speaker frequently corrects mistake harsh condescending manner make feel discouraged participating embarrassed process deal cyberbullying target someone within,,
I feel devastated and betrayed because my private messages were shared online without my consent. How would you help me navigate this violation of privacy?,cyberbullying,feel devastated betrayed private message shared online without consent would help navigate violation privacy,,
The shame and embarrassment I feel after being publicly humiliated online is just crushing my self-esteem.,cyberbullying,shame embarrassment feel publicly humiliated online crushing self esteem,,
Getting hate comments for expressing traditionally masculine interests online. People call me toxic or say I need to man up differently. Is there even a way to win?,cyberbullying,getting hate comment expressing traditionally masculine interest online people call toxic say need man differently even way win,,
"I've been targeted with false accusations and rumors online, which are damaging my reputation and relationships. It's like my life is being torn apart, and I'm struggling to defend myself.

",cyberbullying,targeted false accusation rumor online damaging reputation relationship like life torn apart struggling defend,,
"I found out my personal information has been shared in a public forum without my consent, leading to strangers contacting me. How can I get this information removed and protect myself from potential harm?",cyberbullying,found personal information shared public forum without consent leading stranger contacting get removed protect potential harm,,
"I'm feeling scared because I'm being cyberbullied by classmates, and they're threatening to share embarrassing photos of me online. How would you help me handle this situation?",cyberbullying,feeling scared cyberbullied classmate threatening share embarrassing photo online would help handle situation,,
"Iam 19yrs old female,i keep getting creepy DMs from strangers on Twitter. They make me feel uncomfortable and unsafe.  How can I protect myself from online harassment and manage my privacy settings on Twitter?",cyberbullying,iam yr old female keep getting creepy dm stranger twitter make feel uncomfortable unsafe protect online harassment manage privacy setting,,
"Ben, a 28-year-old freelance graphic designer, here. I rely on positive online reviews to attract new clients. Lately, someone has been leaving fake negative reviews on my profile on freelancing platforms, accusing me of plagiarism and poor quality work. It's hurting my business and making it difficult to find new projects. How can I address cyberbullying through fake reviews on freelance platforms?",cyberbullying,ben year old freelance graphic designer rely positive online review attract new client lately someone leaving fake negative profile freelancing platform accusing plagiarism poor quality work hurting business making difficult find project address cyberbullying,,
I'm feeling distressed because I'm being cyberbullied by someone at school. They're spreading rumors about me and making fun of me online. How would you advise me to deal with this situation?,cyberbullying,feeling distressed cyberbullied someone school spreading rumor making fun online would advise deal situation,,