diff --git "a/archive (3)/wutheringheights.txt" "b/archive (3)/wutheringheights.txt" new file mode 100644--- /dev/null +++ "b/archive (3)/wutheringheights.txt" @@ -0,0 +1,12082 @@ +CHAPTER I + + +1801.--I have just returned from a visit to my landlord--the solitary +neighbour that I shall be troubled with. This is certainly a beautiful +country! In all England, I do not believe that I could have fixed on a +situation so completely removed from the stir of society. A perfect +misanthropist's heaven: and Mr. Heathcliff and I are such a suitable pair +to divide the desolation between us. A capital fellow! He little +imagined how my heart warmed towards him when I beheld his black eyes +withdraw so suspiciously under their brows, as I rode up, and when his +fingers sheltered themselves, with a jealous resolution, still further in +his waistcoat, as I announced my name. + +'Mr. Heathcliff?' I said. + +A nod was the answer. + +'Mr. Lockwood, your new tenant, sir. I do myself the honour of calling +as soon as possible after my arrival, to express the hope that I have not +inconvenienced you by my perseverance in soliciting the occupation of +Thrushcross Grange: I heard yesterday you had had some thoughts--' + +'Thrushcross Grange is my own, sir,' he interrupted, wincing. 'I should +not allow any one to inconvenience me, if I could hinder it--walk in!' + +The 'walk in' was uttered with closed teeth, and expressed the sentiment, +'Go to the Deuce:' even the gate over which he leant manifested no +sympathising movement to the words; and I think that circumstance +determined me to accept the invitation: I felt interested in a man who +seemed more exaggeratedly reserved than myself. + +When he saw my horse's breast fairly pushing the barrier, he did put out +his hand to unchain it, and then sullenly preceded me up the causeway, +calling, as we entered the court,--'Joseph, take Mr. Lockwood's horse; +and bring up some wine.' + +'Here we have the whole establishment of domestics, I suppose,' was the +reflection suggested by this compound order. 'No wonder the grass grows +up between the flags, and cattle are the only hedge-cutters.' + +Joseph was an elderly, nay, an old man: very old, perhaps, though hale +and sinewy. 'The Lord help us!' he soliloquised in an undertone of +peevish displeasure, while relieving me of my horse: looking, meantime, +in my face so sourly that I charitably conjectured he must have need of +divine aid to digest his dinner, and his pious ejaculation had no +reference to my unexpected advent. + +Wuthering Heights is the name of Mr. Heathcliff's dwelling. 'Wuthering' +being a significant provincial adjective, descriptive of the atmospheric +tumult to which its station is exposed in stormy weather. Pure, bracing +ventilation they must have up there at all times, indeed: one may guess +the power of the north wind blowing over the edge, by the excessive slant +of a few stunted firs at the end of the house; and by a range of gaunt +thorns all stretching their limbs one way, as if craving alms of the sun. +Happily, the architect had foresight to build it strong: the narrow +windows are deeply set in the wall, and the corners defended with large +jutting stones. + +Before passing the threshold, I paused to admire a quantity of grotesque +carving lavished over the front, and especially about the principal door; +above which, among a wilderness of crumbling griffins and shameless +little boys, I detected the date '1500,' and the name 'Hareton Earnshaw.' +I would have made a few comments, and requested a short history of the +place from the surly owner; but his attitude at the door appeared to +demand my speedy entrance, or complete departure, and I had no desire to +aggravate his impatience previous to inspecting the penetralium. + +One stop brought us into the family sitting-room, without any +introductory lobby or passage: they call it here 'the house' +pre-eminently. It includes kitchen and parlour, generally; but I believe +at Wuthering Heights the kitchen is forced to retreat altogether into +another quarter: at least I distinguished a chatter of tongues, and a +clatter of culinary utensils, deep within; and I observed no signs of +roasting, boiling, or baking, about the huge fireplace; nor any glitter +of copper saucepans and tin cullenders on the walls. One end, indeed, +reflected splendidly both light and heat from ranks of immense pewter +dishes, interspersed with silver jugs and tankards, towering row after +row, on a vast oak dresser, to the very roof. The latter had never been +under-drawn: its entire anatomy lay bare to an inquiring eye, except +where a frame of wood laden with oatcakes and clusters of legs of beef, +mutton, and ham, concealed it. Above the chimney were sundry villainous +old guns, and a couple of horse-pistols: and, by way of ornament, three +gaudily-painted canisters disposed along its ledge. The floor was of +smooth, white stone; the chairs, high-backed, primitive structures, +painted green: one or two heavy black ones lurking in the shade. In an +arch under the dresser reposed a huge, liver-coloured bitch pointer, +surrounded by a swarm of squealing puppies; and other dogs haunted other +recesses. + +The apartment and furniture would have been nothing extraordinary as +belonging to a homely, northern farmer, with a stubborn countenance, and +stalwart limbs set out to advantage in knee-breeches and gaiters. Such +an individual seated in his arm-chair, his mug of ale frothing on the +round table before him, is to be seen in any circuit of five or six miles +among these hills, if you go at the right time after dinner. But Mr. +Heathcliff forms a singular contrast to his abode and style of living. He +is a dark-skinned gipsy in aspect, in dress and manners a gentleman: that +is, as much a gentleman as many a country squire: rather slovenly, +perhaps, yet not looking amiss with his negligence, because he has an +erect and handsome figure; and rather morose. Possibly, some people +might suspect him of a degree of under-bred pride; I have a sympathetic +chord within that tells me it is nothing of the sort: I know, by +instinct, his reserve springs from an aversion to showy displays of +feeling--to manifestations of mutual kindliness. He'll love and hate +equally under cover, and esteem it a species of impertinence to be loved +or hated again. No, I'm running on too fast: I bestow my own attributes +over-liberally on him. Mr. Heathcliff may have entirely dissimilar +reasons for keeping his hand out of the way when he meets a would-be +acquaintance, to those which actuate me. Let me hope my constitution is +almost peculiar: my dear mother used to say I should never have a +comfortable home; and only last summer I proved myself perfectly unworthy +of one. + +While enjoying a month of fine weather at the sea-coast, I was thrown +into the company of a most fascinating creature: a real goddess in my +eyes, as long as she took no notice of me. I 'never told my love' +vocally; still, if looks have language, the merest idiot might have +guessed I was over head and ears: she understood me at last, and looked a +return--the sweetest of all imaginable looks. And what did I do? I +confess it with shame--shrunk icily into myself, like a snail; at every +glance retired colder and farther; till finally the poor innocent was led +to doubt her own senses, and, overwhelmed with confusion at her supposed +mistake, persuaded her mamma to decamp. By this curious turn of +disposition I have gained the reputation of deliberate heartlessness; how +undeserved, I alone can appreciate. + +I took a seat at the end of the hearthstone opposite that towards which +my landlord advanced, and filled up an interval of silence by attempting +to caress the canine mother, who had left her nursery, and was sneaking +wolfishly to the back of my legs, her lip curled up, and her white teeth +watering for a snatch. My caress provoked a long, guttural gnarl. + +'You'd better let the dog alone,' growled Mr. Heathcliff in unison, +checking fiercer demonstrations with a punch of his foot. 'She's not +accustomed to be spoiled--not kept for a pet.' Then, striding to a side +door, he shouted again, 'Joseph!' + +Joseph mumbled indistinctly in the depths of the cellar, but gave no +intimation of ascending; so his master dived down to him, leaving me +_vis-a-vis_ the ruffianly bitch and a pair of grim shaggy sheep-dogs, +who shared with her a jealous guardianship over all my movements. Not +anxious to come in contact with their fangs, I sat still; but, imagining +they would scarcely understand tacit insults, I unfortunately indulged +in winking and making faces at the trio, and some turn of my physiognomy +so irritated madam, that she suddenly broke into a fury and leapt on my +knees. I flung her back, and hastened to interpose the table between us. +This proceeding aroused the whole hive: half-a-dozen four-footed fiends, +of various sizes and ages, issued from hidden dens to the common centre. +I felt my heels and coat-laps peculiar subjects of assault; and parrying +off the larger combatants as effectually as I could with the poker, I +was constrained to demand, aloud, assistance from some of the household +in re-establishing peace. + +Mr. Heathcliff and his man climbed the cellar steps with vexatious +phlegm: I don't think they moved one second faster than usual, though +the hearth was an absolute tempest of worrying and yelping. Happily, an +inhabitant of the kitchen made more despatch: a lusty dame, with +tucked-up gown, bare arms, and fire-flushed cheeks, rushed into the +midst of us flourishing a frying-pan: and used that weapon, and her +tongue, to such purpose, that the storm subsided magically, and she only +remained, heaving like a sea after a high wind, when her master entered +on the scene. + +'What the devil is the matter?' he asked, eyeing me in a manner that I +could ill endure, after this inhospitable treatment. + +'What the devil, indeed!' I muttered. 'The herd of possessed swine could +have had no worse spirits in them than those animals of yours, sir. You +might as well leave a stranger with a brood of tigers!' + +'They won't meddle with persons who touch nothing,' he remarked, putting +the bottle before me, and restoring the displaced table. 'The dogs do +right to be vigilant. Take a glass of wine?' + +'No, thank you.' + +'Not bitten, are you?' + +'If I had been, I would have set my signet on the biter.' Heathcliff's +countenance relaxed into a grin. + +'Come, come,' he said, 'you are flurried, Mr. Lockwood. Here, take a +little wine. Guests are so exceedingly rare in this house that I and my +dogs, I am willing to own, hardly know how to receive them. Your health, +sir?' + +I bowed and returned the pledge; beginning to perceive that it would be +foolish to sit sulking for the misbehaviour of a pack of curs; besides, I +felt loth to yield the fellow further amusement at my expense; since his +humour took that turn. He--probably swayed by prudential consideration +of the folly of offending a good tenant--relaxed a little in the laconic +style of chipping off his pronouns and auxiliary verbs, and introduced +what he supposed would be a subject of interest to me,--a discourse on +the advantages and disadvantages of my present place of retirement. I +found him very intelligent on the topics we touched; and before I went +home, I was encouraged so far as to volunteer another visit to-morrow. He +evidently wished no repetition of my intrusion. I shall go, +notwithstanding. It is astonishing how sociable I feel myself compared +with him. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +Yesterday afternoon set in misty and cold. I had half a mind to spend it +by my study fire, instead of wading through heath and mud to Wuthering +Heights. On coming up from dinner, however, (N.B.--I dine between twelve +and one o'clock; the housekeeper, a matronly lady, taken as a fixture +along with the house, could not, or would not, comprehend my request that +I might be served at five)--on mounting the stairs with this lazy +intention, and stepping into the room, I saw a servant-girl on her knees +surrounded by brushes and coal-scuttles, and raising an infernal dust as +she extinguished the flames with heaps of cinders. This spectacle drove +me back immediately; I took my hat, and, after a four-miles' walk, +arrived at Heathcliff's garden-gate just in time to escape the first +feathery flakes of a snow-shower. + +On that bleak hill-top the earth was hard with a black frost, and the air +made me shiver through every limb. Being unable to remove the chain, I +jumped over, and, running up the flagged causeway bordered with +straggling gooseberry-bushes, knocked vainly for admittance, till my +knuckles tingled and the dogs howled. + +'Wretched inmates!' I ejaculated, mentally, 'you deserve perpetual +isolation from your species for your churlish inhospitality. At least, I +would not keep my doors barred in the day-time. I don't care--I will get +in!' So resolved, I grasped the latch and shook it vehemently. +Vinegar-faced Joseph projected his head from a round window of the barn. + +'What are ye for?' he shouted. 'T' maister's down i' t' fowld. Go round +by th' end o' t' laith, if ye went to spake to him.' + +'Is there nobody inside to open the door?' I hallooed, responsively. + +'There's nobbut t' missis; and shoo'll not oppen 't an ye mak' yer +flaysome dins till neeght.' + +'Why? Cannot you tell her whom I am, eh, Joseph?' + +'Nor-ne me! I'll hae no hend wi't,' muttered the head, vanishing. + +The snow began to drive thickly. I seized the handle to essay another +trial; when a young man without coat, and shouldering a pitchfork, +appeared in the yard behind. He hailed me to follow him, and, after +marching through a wash-house, and a paved area containing a coal-shed, +pump, and pigeon-cot, we at length arrived in the huge, warm, cheerful +apartment where I was formerly received. It glowed delightfully in the +radiance of an immense fire, compounded of coal, peat, and wood; and near +the table, laid for a plentiful evening meal, I was pleased to observe +the 'missis,' an individual whose existence I had never previously +suspected. I bowed and waited, thinking she would bid me take a seat. +She looked at me, leaning back in her chair, and remained motionless and +mute. + +'Rough weather!' I remarked. 'I'm afraid, Mrs. Heathcliff, the door must +bear the consequence of your servants' leisure attendance: I had hard +work to make them hear me.' + +She never opened her mouth. I stared--she stared also: at any rate, she +kept her eyes on me in a cool, regardless manner, exceedingly +embarrassing and disagreeable. + +'Sit down,' said the young man, gruffly. 'He'll be in soon.' + +I obeyed; and hemmed, and called the villain Juno, who deigned, at this +second interview, to move the extreme tip of her tail, in token of owning +my acquaintance. + +'A beautiful animal!' I commenced again. 'Do you intend parting with the +little ones, madam?' + +'They are not mine,' said the amiable hostess, more repellingly than +Heathcliff himself could have replied. + +'Ah, your favourites are among these?' I continued, turning to an obscure +cushion full of something like cats. + +'A strange choice of favourites!' she observed scornfully. + +Unluckily, it was a heap of dead rabbits. I hemmed once more, and drew +closer to the hearth, repeating my comment on the wildness of the +evening. + +'You should not have come out,' she said, rising and reaching from the +chimney-piece two of the painted canisters. + +Her position before was sheltered from the light; now, I had a distinct +view of her whole figure and countenance. She was slender, and +apparently scarcely past girlhood: an admirable form, and the most +exquisite little face that I have ever had the pleasure of beholding; +small features, very fair; flaxen ringlets, or rather golden, hanging +loose on her delicate neck; and eyes, had they been agreeable in +expression, that would have been irresistible: fortunately for my +susceptible heart, the only sentiment they evinced hovered between scorn +and a kind of desperation, singularly unnatural to be detected there. The +canisters were almost out of her reach; I made a motion to aid her; she +turned upon me as a miser might turn if any one attempted to assist him +in counting his gold. + +'I don't want your help,' she snapped; 'I can get them for myself.' + +'I beg your pardon!' I hastened to reply. + +'Were you asked to tea?' she demanded, tying an apron over her neat black +frock, and standing with a spoonful of the leaf poised over the pot. + +'I shall be glad to have a cup,' I answered. + +'Were you asked?' she repeated. + +'No,' I said, half smiling. 'You are the proper person to ask me.' + +She flung the tea back, spoon and all, and resumed her chair in a pet; +her forehead corrugated, and her red under-lip pushed out, like a child's +ready to cry. + +Meanwhile, the young man had slung on to his person a decidedly shabby +upper garment, and, erecting himself before the blaze, looked down on me +from the corner of his eyes, for all the world as if there were some +mortal feud unavenged between us. I began to doubt whether he were a +servant or not: his dress and speech were both rude, entirely devoid of +the superiority observable in Mr. and Mrs. Heathcliff; his thick brown +curls were rough and uncultivated, his whiskers encroached bearishly over +his cheeks, and his hands were embrowned like those of a common labourer: +still his bearing was free, almost haughty, and he showed none of a +domestic's assiduity in attending on the lady of the house. In the +absence of clear proofs of his condition, I deemed it best to abstain +from noticing his curious conduct; and, five minutes afterwards, the +entrance of Heathcliff relieved me, in some measure, from my +uncomfortable state. + +'You see, sir, I am come, according to promise!' I exclaimed, assuming +the cheerful; 'and I fear I shall be weather-bound for half an hour, if +you can afford me shelter during that space.' + +'Half an hour?' he said, shaking the white flakes from his clothes; 'I +wonder you should select the thick of a snow-storm to ramble about in. Do +you know that you run a risk of being lost in the marshes? People +familiar with these moors often miss their road on such evenings; and I +can tell you there is no chance of a change at present.' + +'Perhaps I can get a guide among your lads, and he might stay at the +Grange till morning--could you spare me one?' + +'No, I could not.' + +'Oh, indeed! Well, then, I must trust to my own sagacity.' + +'Umph!' + +'Are you going to mak' the tea?' demanded he of the shabby coat, shifting +his ferocious gaze from me to the young lady. + +'Is _he_ to have any?' she asked, appealing to Heathcliff. + +'Get it ready, will you?' was the answer, uttered so savagely that I +started. The tone in which the words were said revealed a genuine bad +nature. I no longer felt inclined to call Heathcliff a capital fellow. +When the preparations were finished, he invited me with--'Now, sir, bring +forward your chair.' And we all, including the rustic youth, drew round +the table: an austere silence prevailing while we discussed our meal. + +I thought, if I had caused the cloud, it was my duty to make an effort to +dispel it. They could not every day sit so grim and taciturn; and it was +impossible, however ill-tempered they might be, that the universal scowl +they wore was their every-day countenance. + +'It is strange,' I began, in the interval of swallowing one cup of tea +and receiving another--'it is strange how custom can mould our tastes and +ideas: many could not imagine the existence of happiness in a life of +such complete exile from the world as you spend, Mr. Heathcliff; yet, +I'll venture to say, that, surrounded by your family, and with your +amiable lady as the presiding genius over your home and heart--' + +'My amiable lady!' he interrupted, with an almost diabolical sneer on his +face. 'Where is she--my amiable lady?' + +'Mrs. Heathcliff, your wife, I mean.' + +'Well, yes--oh, you would intimate that her spirit has taken the post of +ministering angel, and guards the fortunes of Wuthering Heights, even +when her body is gone. Is that it?' + +Perceiving myself in a blunder, I attempted to correct it. I might have +seen there was too great a disparity between the ages of the parties to +make it likely that they were man and wife. One was about forty: a +period of mental vigour at which men seldom cherish the delusion of being +married for love by girls: that dream is reserved for the solace of our +declining years. The other did not look seventeen. + +Then it flashed upon me--'The clown at my elbow, who is drinking his tea +out of a basin and eating his bread with unwashed hands, may be her +husband: Heathcliff junior, of course. Here is the consequence of being +buried alive: she has thrown herself away upon that boor from sheer +ignorance that better individuals existed! A sad pity--I must beware how +I cause her to regret her choice.' The last reflection may seem +conceited; it was not. My neighbour struck me as bordering on repulsive; +I knew, through experience, that I was tolerably attractive. + +'Mrs. Heathcliff is my daughter-in-law,' said Heathcliff, corroborating +my surmise. He turned, as he spoke, a peculiar look in her direction: a +look of hatred; unless he has a most perverse set of facial muscles that +will not, like those of other people, interpret the language of his soul. + +'Ah, certainly--I see now: you are the favoured possessor of the +beneficent fairy,' I remarked, turning to my neighbour. + +This was worse than before: the youth grew crimson, and clenched his +fist, with every appearance of a meditated assault. But he seemed to +recollect himself presently, and smothered the storm in a brutal curse, +muttered on my behalf: which, however, I took care not to notice. + +'Unhappy in your conjectures, sir,' observed my host; 'we neither of us +have the privilege of owning your good fairy; her mate is dead. I said +she was my daughter-in-law: therefore, she must have married my son.' + +'And this young man is--' + +'Not my son, assuredly.' + +Heathcliff smiled again, as if it were rather too bold a jest to +attribute the paternity of that bear to him. + +'My name is Hareton Earnshaw,' growled the other; 'and I'd counsel you to +respect it!' + +'I've shown no disrespect,' was my reply, laughing internally at the +dignity with which he announced himself. + +He fixed his eye on me longer than I cared to return the stare, for fear +I might be tempted either to box his ears or render my hilarity audible. +I began to feel unmistakably out of place in that pleasant family circle. +The dismal spiritual atmosphere overcame, and more than neutralised, the +glowing physical comforts round me; and I resolved to be cautious how I +ventured under those rafters a third time. + +The business of eating being concluded, and no one uttering a word of +sociable conversation, I approached a window to examine the weather. A +sorrowful sight I saw: dark night coming down prematurely, and sky and +hills mingled in one bitter whirl of wind and suffocating snow. + +'I don't think it possible for me to get home now without a guide,' I +could not help exclaiming. 'The roads will be buried already; and, if +they were bare, I could scarcely distinguish a foot in advance.' + +'Hareton, drive those dozen sheep into the barn porch. They'll be +covered if left in the fold all night: and put a plank before them,' said +Heathcliff. + +'How must I do?' I continued, with rising irritation. + +There was no reply to my question; and on looking round I saw only Joseph +bringing in a pail of porridge for the dogs, and Mrs. Heathcliff leaning +over the fire, diverting herself with burning a bundle of matches which +had fallen from the chimney-piece as she restored the tea-canister to its +place. The former, when he had deposited his burden, took a critical +survey of the room, and in cracked tones grated out--'Aw wonder how yah +can faishion to stand thear i' idleness un war, when all on 'ems goan +out! Bud yah're a nowt, and it's no use talking--yah'll niver mend o'yer +ill ways, but goa raight to t' divil, like yer mother afore ye!' + +I imagined, for a moment, that this piece of eloquence was addressed to +me; and, sufficiently enraged, stepped towards the aged rascal with an +intention of kicking him out of the door. Mrs. Heathcliff, however, +checked me by her answer. + +'You scandalous old hypocrite!' she replied. 'Are you not afraid of +being carried away bodily, whenever you mention the devil's name? I warn +you to refrain from provoking me, or I'll ask your abduction as a special +favour! Stop! look here, Joseph,' she continued, taking a long, dark +book from a shelf; 'I'll show you how far I've progressed in the Black +Art: I shall soon be competent to make a clear house of it. The red cow +didn't die by chance; and your rheumatism can hardly be reckoned among +providential visitations!' + +'Oh, wicked, wicked!' gasped the elder; 'may the Lord deliver us from +evil!' + +'No, reprobate! you are a castaway--be off, or I'll hurt you seriously! +I'll have you all modelled in wax and clay! and the first who passes the +limits I fix shall--I'll not say what he shall be done to--but, you'll +see! Go, I'm looking at you!' + +The little witch put a mock malignity into her beautiful eyes, and +Joseph, trembling with sincere horror, hurried out, praying, and +ejaculating 'wicked' as he went. I thought her conduct must be prompted +by a species of dreary fun; and, now that we were alone, I endeavoured to +interest her in my distress. + +'Mrs. Heathcliff,' I said earnestly, 'you must excuse me for troubling +you. I presume, because, with that face, I'm sure you cannot help being +good-hearted. Do point out some landmarks by which I may know my way +home: I have no more idea how to get there than you would have how to get +to London!' + +'Take the road you came,' she answered, ensconcing herself in a chair, +with a candle, and the long book open before her. 'It is brief advice, +but as sound as I can give.' + +'Then, if you hear of me being discovered dead in a bog or a pit full of +snow, your conscience won't whisper that it is partly your fault?' + +'How so? I cannot escort you. They wouldn't let me go to the end of the +garden wall.' + +'_You_! I should be sorry to ask you to cross the threshold, for my +convenience, on such a night,' I cried. 'I want you to tell me my way, +not to _show_ it: or else to persuade Mr. Heathcliff to give me a guide.' + +'Who? There is himself, Earnshaw, Zillah, Joseph and I. Which would you +have?' + +'Are there no boys at the farm?' + +'No; those are all.' + +'Then, it follows that I am compelled to stay.' + +'That you may settle with your host. I have nothing to do with it.' + +'I hope it will be a lesson to you to make no more rash journeys on these +hills,' cried Heathcliff's stern voice from the kitchen entrance. 'As to +staying here, I don't keep accommodations for visitors: you must share a +bed with Hareton or Joseph, if you do.' + +'I can sleep on a chair in this room,' I replied. + +'No, no! A stranger is a stranger, be he rich or poor: it will not suit +me to permit any one the range of the place while I am off guard!' said +the unmannerly wretch. + +With this insult my patience was at an end. I uttered an expression of +disgust, and pushed past him into the yard, running against Earnshaw in +my haste. It was so dark that I could not see the means of exit; and, as +I wandered round, I heard another specimen of their civil behaviour +amongst each other. At first the young man appeared about to befriend +me. + +'I'll go with him as far as the park,' he said. + +'You'll go with him to hell!' exclaimed his master, or whatever relation +he bore. 'And who is to look after the horses, eh?' + +'A man's life is of more consequence than one evening's neglect of the +horses: somebody must go,' murmured Mrs. Heathcliff, more kindly than I +expected. + +'Not at your command!' retorted Hareton. 'If you set store on him, you'd +better be quiet.' + +'Then I hope his ghost will haunt you; and I hope Mr. Heathcliff will +never get another tenant till the Grange is a ruin,' she answered, +sharply. + +'Hearken, hearken, shoo's cursing on 'em!' muttered Joseph, towards whom +I had been steering. + +He sat within earshot, milking the cows by the light of a lantern, which +I seized unceremoniously, and, calling out that I would send it back on +the morrow, rushed to the nearest postern. + +'Maister, maister, he's staling t' lanthern!' shouted the ancient, +pursuing my retreat. 'Hey, Gnasher! Hey, dog! Hey Wolf, holld him, +holld him!' + +On opening the little door, two hairy monsters flew at my throat, bearing +me down, and extinguishing the light; while a mingled guffaw from +Heathcliff and Hareton put the copestone on my rage and humiliation. +Fortunately, the beasts seemed more bent on stretching their paws, and +yawning, and flourishing their tails, than devouring me alive; but they +would suffer no resurrection, and I was forced to lie till their +malignant masters pleased to deliver me: then, hatless and trembling with +wrath, I ordered the miscreants to let me out--on their peril to keep me +one minute longer--with several incoherent threats of retaliation that, +in their indefinite depth of virulency, smacked of King Lear. + +The vehemence of my agitation brought on a copious bleeding at the nose, +and still Heathcliff laughed, and still I scolded. I don't know what +would have concluded the scene, had there not been one person at hand +rather more rational than myself, and more benevolent than my +entertainer. This was Zillah, the stout housewife; who at length issued +forth to inquire into the nature of the uproar. She thought that some of +them had been laying violent hands on me; and, not daring to attack her +master, she turned her vocal artillery against the younger scoundrel. + +'Well, Mr. Earnshaw,' she cried, 'I wonder what you'll have agait next? +Are we going to murder folk on our very door-stones? I see this house +will never do for me--look at t' poor lad, he's fair choking! Wisht, +wisht; you mun'n't go on so. Come in, and I'll cure that: there now, +hold ye still.' + +With these words she suddenly splashed a pint of icy water down my neck, +and pulled me into the kitchen. Mr. Heathcliff followed, his accidental +merriment expiring quickly in his habitual moroseness. + +I was sick exceedingly, and dizzy, and faint; and thus compelled perforce +to accept lodgings under his roof. He told Zillah to give me a glass of +brandy, and then passed on to the inner room; while she condoled with me +on my sorry predicament, and having obeyed his orders, whereby I was +somewhat revived, ushered me to bed. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +While leading the way upstairs, she recommended that I should hide the +candle, and not make a noise; for her master had an odd notion about the +chamber she would put me in, and never let anybody lodge there willingly. +I asked the reason. She did not know, she answered: she had only lived +there a year or two; and they had so many queer goings on, she could not +begin to be curious. + +Too stupefied to be curious myself, I fastened my door and glanced round +for the bed. The whole furniture consisted of a chair, a clothes-press, +and a large oak case, with squares cut out near the top resembling coach +windows. Having approached this structure, I looked inside, and +perceived it to be a singular sort of old-fashioned couch, very +conveniently designed to obviate the necessity for every member of the +family having a room to himself. In fact, it formed a little closet, and +the ledge of a window, which it enclosed, served as a table. I slid back +the panelled sides, got in with my light, pulled them together again, and +felt secure against the vigilance of Heathcliff, and every one else. + +The ledge, where I placed my candle, had a few mildewed books piled up in +one corner; and it was covered with writing scratched on the paint. This +writing, however, was nothing but a name repeated in all kinds of +characters, large and small--_Catherine Earnshaw_, here and there varied +to _Catherine Heathcliff_, and then again to _Catherine Linton_. + +In vapid listlessness I leant my head against the window, and continued +spelling over Catherine Earnshaw--Heathcliff--Linton, till my eyes +closed; but they had not rested five minutes when a glare of white +letters started from the dark, as vivid as spectres--the air swarmed with +Catherines; and rousing myself to dispel the obtrusive name, I discovered +my candle-wick reclining on one of the antique volumes, and perfuming the +place with an odour of roasted calf-skin. I snuffed it off, and, very +ill at ease under the influence of cold and lingering nausea, sat up and +spread open the injured tome on my knee. It was a Testament, in lean +type, and smelling dreadfully musty: a fly-leaf bore the +inscription--'Catherine Earnshaw, her book,' and a date some quarter of a +century back. I shut it, and took up another and another, till I had +examined all. Catherine's library was select, and its state of +dilapidation proved it to have been well used, though not altogether for +a legitimate purpose: scarcely one chapter had escaped, a pen-and-ink +commentary--at least the appearance of one--covering every morsel of +blank that the printer had left. Some were detached sentences; other +parts took the form of a regular diary, scrawled in an unformed, childish +hand. At the top of an extra page (quite a treasure, probably, when +first lighted on) I was greatly amused to behold an excellent caricature +of my friend Joseph,--rudely, yet powerfully sketched. An immediate +interest kindled within me for the unknown Catherine, and I began +forthwith to decipher her faded hieroglyphics. + +'An awful Sunday,' commenced the paragraph beneath. 'I wish my father +were back again. Hindley is a detestable substitute--his conduct to +Heathcliff is atrocious--H. and I are going to rebel--we took our +initiatory step this evening. + +'All day had been flooding with rain; we could not go to church, so +Joseph must needs get up a congregation in the garret; and, while Hindley +and his wife basked downstairs before a comfortable fire--doing anything +but reading their Bibles, I'll answer for it--Heathcliff, myself, and the +unhappy ploughboy were commanded to take our prayer-books, and mount: we +were ranged in a row, on a sack of corn, groaning and shivering, and +hoping that Joseph would shiver too, so that he might give us a short +homily for his own sake. A vain idea! The service lasted precisely +three hours; and yet my brother had the face to exclaim, when he saw us +descending, "What, done already?" On Sunday evenings we used to be +permitted to play, if we did not make much noise; now a mere titter is +sufficient to send us into corners. + +'"You forget you have a master here," says the tyrant. "I'll demolish +the first who puts me out of temper! I insist on perfect sobriety and +silence. Oh, boy! was that you? Frances darling, pull his hair as you +go by: I heard him snap his fingers." Frances pulled his hair heartily, +and then went and seated herself on her husband's knee, and there they +were, like two babies, kissing and talking nonsense by the hour--foolish +palaver that we should be ashamed of. We made ourselves as snug as our +means allowed in the arch of the dresser. I had just fastened our +pinafores together, and hung them up for a curtain, when in comes Joseph, +on an errand from the stables. He tears down my handiwork, boxes my +ears, and croaks: + +'"T' maister nobbut just buried, and Sabbath not o'ered, und t' sound o' +t' gospel still i' yer lugs, and ye darr be laiking! Shame on ye! sit ye +down, ill childer! there's good books eneugh if ye'll read 'em: sit ye +down, and think o' yer sowls!" + +'Saying this, he compelled us so to square our positions that we might +receive from the far-off fire a dull ray to show us the text of the +lumber he thrust upon us. I could not bear the employment. I took my +dingy volume by the scroop, and hurled it into the dog-kennel, vowing I +hated a good book. Heathcliff kicked his to the same place. Then there +was a hubbub! + +'"Maister Hindley!" shouted our chaplain. "Maister, coom hither! Miss +Cathy's riven th' back off 'Th' Helmet o' Salvation,' un' Heathcliff's +pawsed his fit into t' first part o' 'T' Brooad Way to Destruction!' It's +fair flaysome that ye let 'em go on this gait. Ech! th' owd man wad ha' +laced 'em properly--but he's goan!" + +'Hindley hurried up from his paradise on the hearth, and seizing one of +us by the collar, and the other by the arm, hurled both into the +back-kitchen; where, Joseph asseverated, "owd Nick" would fetch us as +sure as we were living: and, so comforted, we each sought a separate +nook to await his advent. I reached this book, and a pot of ink from a +shelf, and pushed the house-door ajar to give me light, and I have got +the time on with writing for twenty minutes; but my companion is +impatient, and proposes that we should appropriate the dairywoman's +cloak, and have a scamper on the moors, under its shelter. A pleasant +suggestion--and then, if the surly old man come in, he may believe his +prophecy verified--we cannot be damper, or colder, in the rain than we +are here.' + +* * * * * * + +I suppose Catherine fulfilled her project, for the next sentence took up +another subject: she waxed lachrymose. + +'How little did I dream that Hindley would ever make me cry so!' she +wrote. 'My head aches, till I cannot keep it on the pillow; and still I +can't give over. Poor Heathcliff! Hindley calls him a vagabond, and +won't let him sit with us, nor eat with us any more; and, he says, he and +I must not play together, and threatens to turn him out of the house if +we break his orders. He has been blaming our father (how dared he?) for +treating H. too liberally; and swears he will reduce him to his right +place--' + +* * * * * * + +I began to nod drowsily over the dim page: my eye wandered from +manuscript to print. I saw a red ornamented title--'Seventy Times Seven, +and the First of the Seventy-First. A Pious Discourse delivered by the +Reverend Jabez Branderham, in the Chapel of Gimmerden Sough.' And while +I was, half-consciously, worrying my brain to guess what Jabez Branderham +would make of his subject, I sank back in bed, and fell asleep. Alas, +for the effects of bad tea and bad temper! What else could it be that +made me pass such a terrible night? I don't remember another that I can +at all compare with it since I was capable of suffering. + +I began to dream, almost before I ceased to be sensible of my locality. I +thought it was morning; and I had set out on my way home, with Joseph for +a guide. The snow lay yards deep in our road; and, as we floundered on, +my companion wearied me with constant reproaches that I had not brought a +pilgrim's staff: telling me that I could never get into the house without +one, and boastfully flourishing a heavy-headed cudgel, which I understood +to be so denominated. For a moment I considered it absurd that I should +need such a weapon to gain admittance into my own residence. Then a new +idea flashed across me. I was not going there: we were journeying to +hear the famous Jabez Branderham preach, from the text--'Seventy Times +Seven;' and either Joseph, the preacher, or I had committed the 'First of +the Seventy-First,' and were to be publicly exposed and excommunicated. + +We came to the chapel. I have passed it really in my walks, twice or +thrice; it lies in a hollow, between two hills: an elevated hollow, near +a swamp, whose peaty moisture is said to answer all the purposes of +embalming on the few corpses deposited there. The roof has been kept +whole hitherto; but as the clergyman's stipend is only twenty pounds per +annum, and a house with two rooms, threatening speedily to determine into +one, no clergyman will undertake the duties of pastor: especially as it +is currently reported that his flock would rather let him starve than +increase the living by one penny from their own pockets. However, in my +dream, Jabez had a full and attentive congregation; and he preached--good +God! what a sermon; divided into _four hundred and ninety_ parts, each +fully equal to an ordinary address from the pulpit, and each discussing a +separate sin! Where he searched for them, I cannot tell. He had his +private manner of interpreting the phrase, and it seemed necessary the +brother should sin different sins on every occasion. They were of the +most curious character: odd transgressions that I never imagined +previously. + +Oh, how weary I grow. How I writhed, and yawned, and nodded, and +revived! How I pinched and pricked myself, and rubbed my eyes, and stood +up, and sat down again, and nudged Joseph to inform me if he would _ever_ +have done. I was condemned to hear all out: finally, he reached the +'_First of the Seventy-First_.' At that crisis, a sudden inspiration +descended on me; I was moved to rise and denounce Jabez Branderham as the +sinner of the sin that no Christian need pardon. + +'Sir,' I exclaimed, 'sitting here within these four walls, at one +stretch, I have endured and forgiven the four hundred and ninety heads of +your discourse. Seventy times seven times have I plucked up my hat and +been about to depart--Seventy times seven times have you preposterously +forced me to resume my seat. The four hundred and ninety-first is too +much. Fellow-martyrs, have at him! Drag him down, and crush him to +atoms, that the place which knows him may know him no more!' + +'_Thou art the Man_!' cried Jabez, after a solemn pause, leaning over his +cushion. 'Seventy times seven times didst thou gapingly contort thy +visage--seventy times seven did I take counsel with my soul--Lo, this is +human weakness: this also may be absolved! The First of the +Seventy-First is come. Brethren, execute upon him the judgment written. +Such honour have all His saints!' + +With that concluding word, the whole assembly, exalting their pilgrim's +staves, rushed round me in a body; and I, having no weapon to raise in +self-defence, commenced grappling with Joseph, my nearest and most +ferocious assailant, for his. In the confluence of the multitude, +several clubs crossed; blows, aimed at me, fell on other sconces. +Presently the whole chapel resounded with rappings and counter rappings: +every man's hand was against his neighbour; and Branderham, unwilling to +remain idle, poured forth his zeal in a shower of loud taps on the boards +of the pulpit, which responded so smartly that, at last, to my +unspeakable relief, they woke me. And what was it that had suggested the +tremendous tumult? What had played Jabez's part in the row? Merely the +branch of a fir-tree that touched my lattice as the blast wailed by, and +rattled its dry cones against the panes! I listened doubtingly an +instant; detected the disturber, then turned and dozed, and dreamt again: +if possible, still more disagreeably than before. + +This time, I remembered I was lying in the oak closet, and I heard +distinctly the gusty wind, and the driving of the snow; I heard, also, +the fir bough repeat its teasing sound, and ascribed it to the right +cause: but it annoyed me so much, that I resolved to silence it, if +possible; and, I thought, I rose and endeavoured to unhasp the casement. +The hook was soldered into the staple: a circumstance observed by me when +awake, but forgotten. 'I must stop it, nevertheless!' I muttered, +knocking my knuckles through the glass, and stretching an arm out to +seize the importunate branch; instead of which, my fingers closed on the +fingers of a little, ice-cold hand! The intense horror of nightmare came +over me: I tried to draw back my arm, but the hand clung to it, and a +most melancholy voice sobbed, 'Let me in--let me in!' 'Who are you?' I +asked, struggling, meanwhile, to disengage myself. 'Catherine Linton,' +it replied, shiveringly (why did I think of _Linton_? I had read +_Earnshaw_ twenty times for Linton)--'I'm come home: I'd lost my way on +the moor!' As it spoke, I discerned, obscurely, a child's face looking +through the window. Terror made me cruel; and, finding it useless to +attempt shaking the creature off, I pulled its wrist on to the broken +pane, and rubbed it to and fro till the blood ran down and soaked the +bedclothes: still it wailed, 'Let me in!' and maintained its tenacious +grip, almost maddening me with fear. 'How can I!' I said at length. +'Let _me_ go, if you want me to let you in!' The fingers relaxed, I +snatched mine through the hole, hurriedly piled the books up in a pyramid +against it, and stopped my ears to exclude the lamentable prayer. I +seemed to keep them closed above a quarter of an hour; yet, the instant I +listened again, there was the doleful cry moaning on! 'Begone!' I +shouted. 'I'll never let you in, not if you beg for twenty years.' 'It +is twenty years,' mourned the voice: 'twenty years. I've been a waif for +twenty years!' Thereat began a feeble scratching outside, and the pile +of books moved as if thrust forward. I tried to jump up; but could not +stir a limb; and so yelled aloud, in a frenzy of fright. To my +confusion, I discovered the yell was not ideal: hasty footsteps +approached my chamber door; somebody pushed it open, with a vigorous +hand, and a light glimmered through the squares at the top of the bed. I +sat shuddering yet, and wiping the perspiration from my forehead: the +intruder appeared to hesitate, and muttered to himself. At last, he +said, in a half-whisper, plainly not expecting an answer, 'Is any one +here?' I considered it best to confess my presence; for I knew +Heathcliff's accents, and feared he might search further, if I kept +quiet. With this intention, I turned and opened the panels. I shall not +soon forget the effect my action produced. + +Heathcliff stood near the entrance, in his shirt and trousers; with a +candle dripping over his fingers, and his face as white as the wall +behind him. The first creak of the oak startled him like an electric +shock: the light leaped from his hold to a distance of some feet, and his +agitation was so extreme, that he could hardly pick it up. + +'It is only your guest, sir,' I called out, desirous to spare him the +humiliation of exposing his cowardice further. 'I had the misfortune to +scream in my sleep, owing to a frightful nightmare. I'm sorry I +disturbed you.' + +'Oh, God confound you, Mr. Lockwood! I wish you were at the--' commenced +my host, setting the candle on a chair, because he found it impossible to +hold it steady. 'And who showed you up into this room?' he continued, +crushing his nails into his palms, and grinding his teeth to subdue the +maxillary convulsions. 'Who was it? I've a good mind to turn them out +of the house this moment?' + +'It was your servant Zillah,' I replied, flinging myself on to the floor, +and rapidly resuming my garments. 'I should not care if you did, Mr. +Heathcliff; she richly deserves it. I suppose that she wanted to get +another proof that the place was haunted, at my expense. Well, it +is--swarming with ghosts and goblins! You have reason in shutting it up, +I assure you. No one will thank you for a doze in such a den!' + +'What do you mean?' asked Heathcliff, 'and what are you doing? Lie down +and finish out the night, since you _are_ here; but, for heaven's sake! +don't repeat that horrid noise: nothing could excuse it, unless you were +having your throat cut!' + +'If the little fiend had got in at the window, she probably would have +strangled me!' I returned. 'I'm not going to endure the persecutions of +your hospitable ancestors again. Was not the Reverend Jabez Branderham +akin to you on the mother's side? And that minx, Catherine Linton, or +Earnshaw, or however she was called--she must have been a +changeling--wicked little soul! She told me she had been walking the +earth these twenty years: a just punishment for her mortal +transgressions, I've no doubt!' + +Scarcely were these words uttered when I recollected the association of +Heathcliff's with Catherine's name in the book, which had completely +slipped from my memory, till thus awakened. I blushed at my +inconsideration: but, without showing further consciousness of the +offence, I hastened to add--'The truth is, sir, I passed the first part +of the night in--' Here I stopped afresh--I was about to say 'perusing +those old volumes,' then it would have revealed my knowledge of their +written, as well as their printed, contents; so, correcting myself, I +went on--'in spelling over the name scratched on that window-ledge. A +monotonous occupation, calculated to set me asleep, like counting, or--' + +'What _can_ you mean by talking in this way to _me_!' thundered +Heathcliff with savage vehemence. 'How--how _dare_ you, under my +roof?--God! he's mad to speak so!' And he struck his forehead with rage. + +I did not know whether to resent this language or pursue my explanation; +but he seemed so powerfully affected that I took pity and proceeded with +my dreams; affirming I had never heard the appellation of 'Catherine +Linton' before, but reading it often over produced an impression which +personified itself when I had no longer my imagination under control. +Heathcliff gradually fell back into the shelter of the bed, as I spoke; +finally sitting down almost concealed behind it. I guessed, however, by +his irregular and intercepted breathing, that he struggled to vanquish an +excess of violent emotion. Not liking to show him that I had heard the +conflict, I continued my toilette rather noisily, looked at my watch, and +soliloquised on the length of the night: 'Not three o'clock yet! I could +have taken oath it had been six. Time stagnates here: we must surely +have retired to rest at eight!' + +'Always at nine in winter, and rise at four,' said my host, suppressing a +groan: and, as I fancied, by the motion of his arm's shadow, dashing a +tear from his eyes. 'Mr. Lockwood,' he added, 'you may go into my room: +you'll only be in the way, coming down-stairs so early: and your childish +outcry has sent sleep to the devil for me.' + +'And for me, too,' I replied. 'I'll walk in the yard till daylight, and +then I'll be off; and you need not dread a repetition of my intrusion. +I'm now quite cured of seeking pleasure in society, be it country or +town. A sensible man ought to find sufficient company in himself.' + +'Delightful company!' muttered Heathcliff. 'Take the candle, and go +where you please. I shall join you directly. Keep out of the yard, +though, the dogs are unchained; and the house--Juno mounts sentinel +there, and--nay, you can only ramble about the steps and passages. But, +away with you! I'll come in two minutes!' + +I obeyed, so far as to quit the chamber; when, ignorant where the narrow +lobbies led, I stood still, and was witness, involuntarily, to a piece of +superstition on the part of my landlord which belied, oddly, his apparent +sense. He got on to the bed, and wrenched open the lattice, bursting, as +he pulled at it, into an uncontrollable passion of tears. 'Come in! come +in!' he sobbed. 'Cathy, do come. Oh, do--_once_ more! Oh! my heart's +darling! hear me _this_ time, Catherine, at last!' The spectre showed a +spectre's ordinary caprice: it gave no sign of being; but the snow and +wind whirled wildly through, even reaching my station, and blowing out +the light. + +There was such anguish in the gush of grief that accompanied this raving, +that my compassion made me overlook its folly, and I drew off, half angry +to have listened at all, and vexed at having related my ridiculous +nightmare, since it produced that agony; though _why_ was beyond my +comprehension. I descended cautiously to the lower regions, and landed +in the back-kitchen, where a gleam of fire, raked compactly together, +enabled me to rekindle my candle. Nothing was stirring except a +brindled, grey cat, which crept from the ashes, and saluted me with a +querulous mew. + +Two benches, shaped in sections of a circle, nearly enclosed the hearth; +on one of these I stretched myself, and Grimalkin mounted the other. We +were both of us nodding ere any one invaded our retreat, and then it was +Joseph, shuffling down a wooden ladder that vanished in the roof, through +a trap: the ascent to his garret, I suppose. He cast a sinister look at +the little flame which I had enticed to play between the ribs, swept the +cat from its elevation, and bestowing himself in the vacancy, commenced +the operation of stuffing a three-inch pipe with tobacco. My presence in +his sanctum was evidently esteemed a piece of impudence too shameful for +remark: he silently applied the tube to his lips, folded his arms, and +puffed away. I let him enjoy the luxury unannoyed; and after sucking out +his last wreath, and heaving a profound sigh, he got up, and departed as +solemnly as he came. + +A more elastic footstep entered next; and now I opened my mouth for a +'good-morning,' but closed it again, the salutation unachieved; for +Hareton Earnshaw was performing his orison _sotto voce_, in a series of +curses directed against every object he touched, while he rummaged a +corner for a spade or shovel to dig through the drifts. He glanced over +the back of the bench, dilating his nostrils, and thought as little of +exchanging civilities with me as with my companion the cat. I guessed, +by his preparations, that egress was allowed, and, leaving my hard couch, +made a movement to follow him. He noticed this, and thrust at an inner +door with the end of his spade, intimating by an inarticulate sound that +there was the place where I must go, if I changed my locality. + +It opened into the house, where the females were already astir; Zillah +urging flakes of flame up the chimney with a colossal bellows; and Mrs. +Heathcliff, kneeling on the hearth, reading a book by the aid of the +blaze. She held her hand interposed between the furnace-heat and her +eyes, and seemed absorbed in her occupation; desisting from it only to +chide the servant for covering her with sparks, or to push away a dog, +now and then, that snoozled its nose overforwardly into her face. I was +surprised to see Heathcliff there also. He stood by the fire, his back +towards me, just finishing a stormy scene with poor Zillah; who ever and +anon interrupted her labour to pluck up the corner of her apron, and +heave an indignant groan. + +'And you, you worthless--' he broke out as I entered, turning to his +daughter-in-law, and employing an epithet as harmless as duck, or sheep, +but generally represented by a dash--. 'There you are, at your idle +tricks again! The rest of them do earn their bread--you live on my +charity! Put your trash away, and find something to do. You shall pay +me for the plague of having you eternally in my sight--do you hear, +damnable jade?' + +'I'll put my trash away, because you can make me if I refuse,' answered +the young lady, closing her book, and throwing it on a chair. 'But I'll +not do anything, though you should swear your tongue out, except what I +please!' + +Heathcliff lifted his hand, and the speaker sprang to a safer distance, +obviously acquainted with its weight. Having no desire to be entertained +by a cat-and-dog combat, I stepped forward briskly, as if eager to +partake the warmth of the hearth, and innocent of any knowledge of the +interrupted dispute. Each had enough decorum to suspend further +hostilities: Heathcliff placed his fists, out of temptation, in his +pockets; Mrs. Heathcliff curled her lip, and walked to a seat far off, +where she kept her word by playing the part of a statue during the +remainder of my stay. That was not long. I declined joining their +breakfast, and, at the first gleam of dawn, took an opportunity of +escaping into the free air, now clear, and still, and cold as impalpable +ice. + +My landlord halloed for me to stop ere I reached the bottom of the +garden, and offered to accompany me across the moor. It was well he did, +for the whole hill-back was one billowy, white ocean; the swells and +falls not indicating corresponding rises and depressions in the ground: +many pits, at least, were filled to a level; and entire ranges of mounds, +the refuse of the quarries, blotted from the chart which my yesterday's +walk left pictured in my mind. I had remarked on one side of the road, +at intervals of six or seven yards, a line of upright stones, continued +through the whole length of the barren: these were erected and daubed +with lime on purpose to serve as guides in the dark, and also when a +fall, like the present, confounded the deep swamps on either hand with +the firmer path: but, excepting a dirty dot pointing up here and there, +all traces of their existence had vanished: and my companion found it +necessary to warn me frequently to steer to the right or left, when I +imagined I was following, correctly, the windings of the road. + +We exchanged little conversation, and he halted at the entrance of +Thrushcross Park, saying, I could make no error there. Our adieux were +limited to a hasty bow, and then I pushed forward, trusting to my own +resources; for the porter's lodge is untenanted as yet. The distance +from the gate to the grange is two miles; I believe I managed to make it +four, what with losing myself among the trees, and sinking up to the neck +in snow: a predicament which only those who have experienced it can +appreciate. At any rate, whatever were my wanderings, the clock chimed +twelve as I entered the house; and that gave exactly an hour for every +mile of the usual way from Wuthering Heights. + +My human fixture and her satellites rushed to welcome me; exclaiming, +tumultuously, they had completely given me up: everybody conjectured that +I perished last night; and they were wondering how they must set about +the search for my remains. I bid them be quiet, now that they saw me +returned, and, benumbed to my very heart, I dragged up-stairs; whence, +after putting on dry clothes, and pacing to and fro thirty or forty +minutes, to restore the animal heat, I adjourned to my study, feeble as a +kitten: almost too much so to enjoy the cheerful fire and smoking coffee +which the servant had prepared for my refreshment. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +What vain weathercocks we are! I, who had determined to hold myself +independent of all social intercourse, and thanked my stars that, at +length, I had lighted on a spot where it was next to impracticable--I, +weak wretch, after maintaining till dusk a struggle with low spirits and +solitude, was finally compelled to strike my colours; and under pretence +of gaining information concerning the necessities of my establishment, I +desired Mrs. Dean, when she brought in supper, to sit down while I ate +it; hoping sincerely she would prove a regular gossip, and either rouse +me to animation or lull me to sleep by her talk. + +'You have lived here a considerable time,' I commenced; 'did you not say +sixteen years?' + +'Eighteen, sir: I came when the mistress was married, to wait on her; +after she died, the master retained me for his housekeeper.' + +'Indeed.' + +There ensued a pause. She was not a gossip, I feared; unless about her +own affairs, and those could hardly interest me. However, having studied +for an interval, with a fist on either knee, and a cloud of meditation +over her ruddy countenance, she ejaculated--'Ah, times are greatly +changed since then!' + +'Yes,' I remarked, 'you've seen a good many alterations, I suppose?' + +'I have: and troubles too,' she said. + +'Oh, I'll turn the talk on my landlord's family!' I thought to myself. 'A +good subject to start! And that pretty girl-widow, I should like to know +her history: whether she be a native of the country, or, as is more +probable, an exotic that the surly _indigenae_ will not recognise for +kin.' With this intention I asked Mrs. Dean why Heathcliff let +Thrushcross Grange, and preferred living in a situation and residence so +much inferior. 'Is he not rich enough to keep the estate in good order?' +I inquired. + +'Rich, sir!' she returned. 'He has nobody knows what money, and every +year it increases. Yes, yes, he's rich enough to live in a finer house +than this: but he's very near--close-handed; and, if he had meant to flit +to Thrushcross Grange, as soon as he heard of a good tenant he could not +have borne to miss the chance of getting a few hundreds more. It is +strange people should be so greedy, when they are alone in the world!' + +'He had a son, it seems?' + +'Yes, he had one--he is dead.' + +'And that young lady, Mrs. Heathcliff, is his widow?' + +'Yes.' + +'Where did she come from originally?' + +'Why, sir, she is my late master's daughter: Catherine Linton was her +maiden name. I nursed her, poor thing! I did wish Mr. Heathcliff would +remove here, and then we might have been together again.' + +'What! Catherine Linton?' I exclaimed, astonished. But a minute's +reflection convinced me it was not my ghostly Catherine. 'Then,' I +continued, 'my predecessor's name was Linton?' + +'It was.' + +'And who is that Earnshaw: Hareton Earnshaw, who lives with Mr. +Heathcliff? Are they relations?' + +'No; he is the late Mrs. Linton's nephew.' + +'The young lady's cousin, then?' + +'Yes; and her husband was her cousin also: one on the mother's, the other +on the father's side: Heathcliff married Mr. Linton's sister.' + +'I see the house at Wuthering Heights has "Earnshaw" carved over the +front door. Are they an old family?' + +'Very old, sir; and Hareton is the last of them, as our Miss Cathy is of +us--I mean, of the Lintons. Have you been to Wuthering Heights? I beg +pardon for asking; but I should like to hear how she is!' + +'Mrs. Heathcliff? she looked very well, and very handsome; yet, I think, +not very happy.' + +'Oh dear, I don't wonder! And how did you like the master?' + +'A rough fellow, rather, Mrs. Dean. Is not that his character? + +'Rough as a saw-edge, and hard as whinstone! The less you meddle with +him the better.' + +'He must have had some ups and downs in life to make him such a churl. Do +you know anything of his history?' + +'It's a cuckoo's, sir--I know all about it: except where he was born, and +who were his parents, and how he got his money at first. And Hareton has +been cast out like an unfledged dunnock! The unfortunate lad is the only +one in all this parish that does not guess how he has been cheated.' + +'Well, Mrs. Dean, it will be a charitable deed to tell me something of my +neighbours: I feel I shall not rest if I go to bed; so be good enough to +sit and chat an hour.' + +'Oh, certainly, sir! I'll just fetch a little sewing, and then I'll sit +as long as you please. But you've caught cold: I saw you shivering, and +you must have some gruel to drive it out.' + +The worthy woman bustled off, and I crouched nearer the fire; my head +felt hot, and the rest of me chill: moreover, I was excited, almost to a +pitch of foolishness, through my nerves and brain. This caused me to +feel, not uncomfortable, but rather fearful (as I am still) of serious +effects from the incidents of to-day and yesterday. She returned +presently, bringing a smoking basin and a basket of work; and, having +placed the former on the hob, drew in her seat, evidently pleased to find +me so companionable. + +Before I came to live here, she commenced--waiting no farther invitation +to her story--I was almost always at Wuthering Heights; because my mother +had nursed Mr. Hindley Earnshaw, that was Hareton's father, and I got +used to playing with the children: I ran errands too, and helped to make +hay, and hung about the farm ready for anything that anybody would set me +to. One fine summer morning--it was the beginning of harvest, I +remember--Mr. Earnshaw, the old master, came down-stairs, dressed for a +journey; and, after he had told Joseph what was to be done during the +day, he turned to Hindley, and Cathy, and me--for I sat eating my +porridge with them--and he said, speaking to his son, 'Now, my bonny man, +I'm going to Liverpool to-day, what shall I bring you? You may choose +what you like: only let it be little, for I shall walk there and back: +sixty miles each way, that is a long spell!' Hindley named a fiddle, and +then he asked Miss Cathy; she was hardly six years old, but she could +ride any horse in the stable, and she chose a whip. He did not forget +me; for he had a kind heart, though he was rather severe sometimes. He +promised to bring me a pocketful of apples and pears, and then he kissed +his children, said good-bye, and set off. + +It seemed a long while to us all--the three days of his absence--and +often did little Cathy ask when he would be home. Mrs. Earnshaw expected +him by supper-time on the third evening, and she put the meal off hour +after hour; there were no signs of his coming, however, and at last the +children got tired of running down to the gate to look. Then it grew +dark; she would have had them to bed, but they begged sadly to be allowed +to stay up; and, just about eleven o'clock, the door-latch was raised +quietly, and in stepped the master. He threw himself into a chair, +laughing and groaning, and bid them all stand off, for he was nearly +killed--he would not have such another walk for the three kingdoms. + +'And at the end of it to be flighted to death!' he said, opening his +great-coat, which he held bundled up in his arms. 'See here, wife! I +was never so beaten with anything in my life: but you must e'en take it +as a gift of God; though it's as dark almost as if it came from the +devil.' + +We crowded round, and over Miss Cathy's head I had a peep at a dirty, +ragged, black-haired child; big enough both to walk and talk: indeed, its +face looked older than Catherine's; yet when it was set on its feet, it +only stared round, and repeated over and over again some gibberish that +nobody could understand. I was frightened, and Mrs. Earnshaw was ready +to fling it out of doors: she did fly up, asking how he could fashion to +bring that gipsy brat into the house, when they had their own bairns to +feed and fend for? What he meant to do with it, and whether he were mad? +The master tried to explain the matter; but he was really half dead with +fatigue, and all that I could make out, amongst her scolding, was a tale +of his seeing it starving, and houseless, and as good as dumb, in the +streets of Liverpool, where he picked it up and inquired for its owner. +Not a soul knew to whom it belonged, he said; and his money and time +being both limited, he thought it better to take it home with him at +once, than run into vain expenses there: because he was determined he +would not leave it as he found it. Well, the conclusion was, that my +mistress grumbled herself calm; and Mr. Earnshaw told me to wash it, and +give it clean things, and let it sleep with the children. + +Hindley and Cathy contented themselves with looking and listening till +peace was restored: then, both began searching their father's pockets +for the presents he had promised them. The former was a boy of fourteen, +but when he drew out what had been a fiddle, crushed to morsels in the +great-coat, he blubbered aloud; and Cathy, when she learned the master +had lost her whip in attending on the stranger, showed her humour by +grinning and spitting at the stupid little thing; earning for her pains +a sound blow from her father, to teach her cleaner manners. They +entirely refused to have it in bed with them, or even in their room; and +I had no more sense, so I put it on the landing of the stairs, hoping it +might be gone on the morrow. By chance, or else attracted by hearing his +voice, it crept to Mr. Earnshaw's door, and there he found it on +quitting his chamber. Inquiries were made as to how it got there; I was +obliged to confess, and in recompense for my cowardice and inhumanity +was sent out of the house. + +This was Heathcliff's first introduction to the family. On coming back a +few days afterwards (for I did not consider my banishment perpetual), I +found they had christened him 'Heathcliff': it was the name of a son who +died in childhood, and it has served him ever since, both for Christian +and surname. Miss Cathy and he were now very thick; but Hindley hated +him: and to say the truth I did the same; and we plagued and went on with +him shamefully: for I wasn't reasonable enough to feel my injustice, and +the mistress never put in a word on his behalf when she saw him wronged. + +He seemed a sullen, patient child; hardened, perhaps, to ill-treatment: +he would stand Hindley's blows without winking or shedding a tear, and my +pinches moved him only to draw in a breath and open his eyes, as if he +had hurt himself by accident, and nobody was to blame. This endurance +made old Earnshaw furious, when he discovered his son persecuting the +poor fatherless child, as he called him. He took to Heathcliff +strangely, believing all he said (for that matter, he said precious +little, and generally the truth), and petting him up far above Cathy, who +was too mischievous and wayward for a favourite. + +So, from the very beginning, he bred bad feeling in the house; and at +Mrs. Earnshaw's death, which happened in less than two years after, the +young master had learned to regard his father as an oppressor rather than +a friend, and Heathcliff as a usurper of his parent's affections and his +privileges; and he grew bitter with brooding over these injuries. I +sympathised a while; but when the children fell ill of the measles, and I +had to tend them, and take on me the cares of a woman at once, I changed +my idea. Heathcliff was dangerously sick; and while he lay at the worst +he would have me constantly by his pillow: I suppose he felt I did a good +deal for him, and he hadn't wit to guess that I was compelled to do it. +However, I will say this, he was the quietest child that ever nurse +watched over. The difference between him and the others forced me to be +less partial. Cathy and her brother harassed me terribly: he was as +uncomplaining as a lamb; though hardness, not gentleness, made him give +little trouble. + +He got through, and the doctor affirmed it was in a great measure owing +to me, and praised me for my care. I was vain of his commendations, and +softened towards the being by whose means I earned them, and thus Hindley +lost his last ally: still I couldn't dote on Heathcliff, and I wondered +often what my master saw to admire so much in the sullen boy; who never, +to my recollection, repaid his indulgence by any sign of gratitude. He +was not insolent to his benefactor, he was simply insensible; though +knowing perfectly the hold he had on his heart, and conscious he had only +to speak and all the house would be obliged to bend to his wishes. As an +instance, I remember Mr. Earnshaw once bought a couple of colts at the +parish fair, and gave the lads each one. Heathcliff took the handsomest, +but it soon fell lame, and when he discovered it, he said to Hindley-- + +'You must exchange horses with me: I don't like mine; and if you won't I +shall tell your father of the three thrashings you've given me this week, +and show him my arm, which is black to the shoulder.' Hindley put out +his tongue, and cuffed him over the ears. 'You'd better do it at once,' +he persisted, escaping to the porch (they were in the stable): 'you will +have to: and if I speak of these blows, you'll get them again with +interest.' 'Off, dog!' cried Hindley, threatening him with an iron +weight used for weighing potatoes and hay. 'Throw it,' he replied, +standing still, 'and then I'll tell how you boasted that you would turn +me out of doors as soon as he died, and see whether he will not turn you +out directly.' Hindley threw it, hitting him on the breast, and down he +fell, but staggered up immediately, breathless and white; and, had not I +prevented it, he would have gone just so to the master, and got full +revenge by letting his condition plead for him, intimating who had caused +it. 'Take my colt, Gipsy, then!' said young Earnshaw. 'And I pray that +he may break your neck: take him, and be damned, you beggarly interloper! +and wheedle my father out of all he has: only afterwards show him what +you are, imp of Satan.--And take that, I hope he'll kick out your +brains!' + +Heathcliff had gone to loose the beast, and shift it to his own stall; he +was passing behind it, when Hindley finished his speech by knocking him +under its feet, and without stopping to examine whether his hopes were +fulfilled, ran away as fast as he could. I was surprised to witness how +coolly the child gathered himself up, and went on with his intention; +exchanging saddles and all, and then sitting down on a bundle of hay to +overcome the qualm which the violent blow occasioned, before he entered +the house. I persuaded him easily to let me lay the blame of his bruises +on the horse: he minded little what tale was told since he had what he +wanted. He complained so seldom, indeed, of such stirs as these, that I +really thought him not vindictive: I was deceived completely, as you will +hear. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +In the course of time Mr. Earnshaw began to fail. He had been active and +healthy, yet his strength left him suddenly; and when he was confined to +the chimney-corner he grew grievously irritable. A nothing vexed him; +and suspected slights of his authority nearly threw him into fits. This +was especially to be remarked if any one attempted to impose upon, or +domineer over, his favourite: he was painfully jealous lest a word +should be spoken amiss to him; seeming to have got into his head the +notion that, because he liked Heathcliff, all hated, and longed to do +him an ill-turn. It was a disadvantage to the lad; for the kinder among +us did not wish to fret the master, so we humoured his partiality; and +that humouring was rich nourishment to the child's pride and black +tempers. Still it became in a manner necessary; twice, or thrice, +Hindley's manifestation of scorn, while his father was near, roused the +old man to a fury: he seized his stick to strike him, and shook with +rage that he could not do it. + +At last, our curate (we had a curate then who made the living answer by +teaching the little Lintons and Earnshaws, and farming his bit of land +himself) advised that the young man should be sent to college; and Mr. +Earnshaw agreed, though with a heavy spirit, for he said--'Hindley was +nought, and would never thrive as where he wandered.' + +I hoped heartily we should have peace now. It hurt me to think the +master should be made uncomfortable by his own good deed. I fancied the +discontent of age and disease arose from his family disagreements; as he +would have it that it did: really, you know, sir, it was in his sinking +frame. We might have got on tolerably, notwithstanding, but for two +people--Miss Cathy, and Joseph, the servant: you saw him, I daresay, up +yonder. He was, and is yet most likely, the wearisomest self-righteous +Pharisee that ever ransacked a Bible to rake the promises to himself and +fling the curses to his neighbours. By his knack of sermonising and +pious discoursing, he contrived to make a great impression on Mr. +Earnshaw; and the more feeble the master became, the more influence he +gained. He was relentless in worrying him about his soul's concerns, and +about ruling his children rigidly. He encouraged him to regard Hindley +as a reprobate; and, night after night, he regularly grumbled out a long +string of tales against Heathcliff and Catherine: always minding to +flatter Earnshaw's weakness by heaping the heaviest blame on the latter. + +Certainly she had ways with her such as I never saw a child take up +before; and she put all of us past our patience fifty times and oftener +in a day: from the hour she came down-stairs till the hour she went to +bed, we had not a minute's security that she wouldn't be in mischief. Her +spirits were always at high-water mark, her tongue always going--singing, +laughing, and plaguing everybody who would not do the same. A wild, +wicked slip she was--but she had the bonniest eye, the sweetest smile, +and lightest foot in the parish: and, after all, I believe she meant no +harm; for when once she made you cry in good earnest, it seldom happened +that she would not keep you company, and oblige you to be quiet that you +might comfort her. She was much too fond of Heathcliff. The greatest +punishment we could invent for her was to keep her separate from him: yet +she got chided more than any of us on his account. In play, she liked +exceedingly to act the little mistress; using her hands freely, and +commanding her companions: she did so to me, but I would not bear +slapping and ordering; and so I let her know. + +Now, Mr. Earnshaw did not understand jokes from his children: he had +always been strict and grave with them; and Catherine, on her part, had +no idea why her father should be crosser and less patient in his ailing +condition than he was in his prime. His peevish reproofs wakened in her +a naughty delight to provoke him: she was never so happy as when we were +all scolding her at once, and she defying us with her bold, saucy look, +and her ready words; turning Joseph's religious curses into ridicule, +baiting me, and doing just what her father hated most--showing how her +pretended insolence, which he thought real, had more power over +Heathcliff than his kindness: how the boy would do _her_ bidding in +anything, and _his_ only when it suited his own inclination. After +behaving as badly as possible all day, she sometimes came fondling to +make it up at night. 'Nay, Cathy,' the old man would say, 'I cannot love +thee, thou'rt worse than thy brother. Go, say thy prayers, child, and +ask God's pardon. I doubt thy mother and I must rue that we ever reared +thee!' That made her cry, at first; and then being repulsed continually +hardened her, and she laughed if I told her to say she was sorry for her +faults, and beg to be forgiven. + +But the hour came, at last, that ended Mr. Earnshaw's troubles on earth. +He died quietly in his chair one October evening, seated by the +fire-side. A high wind blustered round the house, and roared in the +chimney: it sounded wild and stormy, yet it was not cold, and we were all +together--I, a little removed from the hearth, busy at my knitting, and +Joseph reading his Bible near the table (for the servants generally sat +in the house then, after their work was done). Miss Cathy had been sick, +and that made her still; she leant against her father's knee, and +Heathcliff was lying on the floor with his head in her lap. I remember +the master, before he fell into a doze, stroking her bonny hair--it +pleased him rarely to see her gentle--and saying, 'Why canst thou not +always be a good lass, Cathy?' And she turned her face up to his, and +laughed, and answered, 'Why cannot you always be a good man, father?' But +as soon as she saw him vexed again, she kissed his hand, and said she +would sing him to sleep. She began singing very low, till his fingers +dropped from hers, and his head sank on his breast. Then I told her to +hush, and not stir, for fear she should wake him. We all kept as mute as +mice a full half-hour, and should have done so longer, only Joseph, +having finished his chapter, got up and said that he must rouse the +master for prayers and bed. He stepped forward, and called him by name, +and touched his shoulder; but he would not move: so he took the candle +and looked at him. I thought there was something wrong as he set down +the light; and seizing the children each by an arm, whispered them to +'frame up-stairs, and make little din--they might pray alone that +evening--he had summut to do.' + +'I shall bid father good-night first,' said Catherine, putting her arms +round his neck, before we could hinder her. The poor thing discovered +her loss directly--she screamed out--'Oh, he's dead, Heathcliff! he's +dead!' And they both set up a heart-breaking cry. + +I joined my wail to theirs, loud and bitter; but Joseph asked what we +could be thinking of to roar in that way over a saint in heaven. He told +me to put on my cloak and run to Gimmerton for the doctor and the parson. +I could not guess the use that either would be of, then. However, I +went, through wind and rain, and brought one, the doctor, back with me; +the other said he would come in the morning. Leaving Joseph to explain +matters, I ran to the children's room: their door was ajar, I saw they +had never lain down, though it was past midnight; but they were calmer, +and did not need me to console them. The little souls were comforting +each other with better thoughts than I could have hit on: no parson in +the world ever pictured heaven so beautifully as they did, in their +innocent talk; and, while I sobbed and listened, I could not help wishing +we were all there safe together. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +Mr. Hindley came home to the funeral; and--a thing that amazed us, and +set the neighbours gossiping right and left--he brought a wife with him. +What she was, and where she was born, he never informed us: probably, she +had neither money nor name to recommend her, or he would scarcely have +kept the union from his father. + +She was not one that would have disturbed the house much on her own +account. Every object she saw, the moment she crossed the threshold, +appeared to delight her; and every circumstance that took place about +her: except the preparing for the burial, and the presence of the +mourners. I thought she was half silly, from her behaviour while that +went on: she ran into her chamber, and made me come with her, though I +should have been dressing the children: and there she sat shivering and +clasping her hands, and asking repeatedly--'Are they gone yet?' Then she +began describing with hysterical emotion the effect it produced on her to +see black; and started, and trembled, and, at last, fell a-weeping--and +when I asked what was the matter, answered, she didn't know; but she felt +so afraid of dying! I imagined her as little likely to die as myself. +She was rather thin, but young, and fresh-complexioned, and her eyes +sparkled as bright as diamonds. I did remark, to be sure, that mounting +the stairs made her breathe very quick; that the least sudden noise set +her all in a quiver, and that she coughed troublesomely sometimes: but I +knew nothing of what these symptoms portended, and had no impulse to +sympathise with her. We don't in general take to foreigners here, Mr. +Lockwood, unless they take to us first. + +Young Earnshaw was altered considerably in the three years of his +absence. He had grown sparer, and lost his colour, and spoke and dressed +quite differently; and, on the very day of his return, he told Joseph +and me we must thenceforth quarter ourselves in the back-kitchen, and +leave the house for him. Indeed, he would have carpeted and papered a +small spare room for a parlour; but his wife expressed such pleasure at +the white floor and huge glowing fireplace, at the pewter dishes and +delf-case, and dog-kennel, and the wide space there was to move about in +where they usually sat, that he thought it unnecessary to her comfort, +and so dropped the intention. + +She expressed pleasure, too, at finding a sister among her new +acquaintance; and she prattled to Catherine, and kissed her, and ran +about with her, and gave her quantities of presents, at the beginning. +Her affection tired very soon, however, and when she grew peevish, +Hindley became tyrannical. A few words from her, evincing a dislike to +Heathcliff, were enough to rouse in him all his old hatred of the boy. He +drove him from their company to the servants, deprived him of the +instructions of the curate, and insisted that he should labour out of +doors instead; compelling him to do so as hard as any other lad on the +farm. + +Heathcliff bore his degradation pretty well at first, because Cathy +taught him what she learnt, and worked or played with him in the fields. +They both promised fair to grow up as rude as savages; the young master +being entirely negligent how they behaved, and what they did, so they +kept clear of him. He would not even have seen after their going to +church on Sundays, only Joseph and the curate reprimanded his +carelessness when they absented themselves; and that reminded him to +order Heathcliff a flogging, and Catherine a fast from dinner or supper. +But it was one of their chief amusements to run away to the moors in the +morning and remain there all day, and the after punishment grew a mere +thing to laugh at. The curate might set as many chapters as he pleased +for Catherine to get by heart, and Joseph might thrash Heathcliff till +his arm ached; they forgot everything the minute they were together +again: at least the minute they had contrived some naughty plan of +revenge; and many a time I've cried to myself to watch them growing more +reckless daily, and I not daring to speak a syllable, for fear of losing +the small power I still retained over the unfriended creatures. One +Sunday evening, it chanced that they were banished from the sitting-room, +for making a noise, or a light offence of the kind; and when I went to +call them to supper, I could discover them nowhere. We searched the +house, above and below, and the yard and stables; they were invisible: +and, at last, Hindley in a passion told us to bolt the doors, and swore +nobody should let them in that night. The household went to bed; and I, +too, anxious to lie down, opened my lattice and put my head out to +hearken, though it rained: determined to admit them in spite of the +prohibition, should they return. In a while, I distinguished steps +coming up the road, and the light of a lantern glimmered through the +gate. I threw a shawl over my head and ran to prevent them from waking +Mr. Earnshaw by knocking. There was Heathcliff, by himself: it gave me a +start to see him alone. + +'Where is Miss Catherine?' I cried hurriedly. 'No accident, I hope?' 'At +Thrushcross Grange,' he answered; 'and I would have been there too, but +they had not the manners to ask me to stay.' 'Well, you will catch it!' +I said: 'you'll never be content till you're sent about your business. +What in the world led you wandering to Thrushcross Grange?' 'Let me get +off my wet clothes, and I'll tell you all about it, Nelly,' he replied. +I bid him beware of rousing the master, and while he undressed and I +waited to put out the candle, he continued--'Cathy and I escaped from +the wash-house to have a ramble at liberty, and getting a glimpse of the +Grange lights, we thought we would just go and see whether the Lintons +passed their Sunday evenings standing shivering in corners, while their +father and mother sat eating and drinking, and singing and laughing, and +burning their eyes out before the fire. Do you think they do? Or reading +sermons, and being catechised by their manservant, and set to learn a +column of Scripture names, if they don't answer properly?' 'Probably +not,' I responded. 'They are good children, no doubt, and don't deserve +the treatment you receive, for your bad conduct.' 'Don't cant, Nelly,' +he said: 'nonsense! We ran from the top of the Heights to the park, +without stopping--Catherine completely beaten in the race, because she +was barefoot. You'll have to seek for her shoes in the bog to-morrow. We +crept through a broken hedge, groped our way up the path, and planted +ourselves on a flower-plot under the drawing-room window. The light came +from thence; they had not put up the shutters, and the curtains were +only half closed. Both of us were able to look in by standing on the +basement, and clinging to the ledge, and we saw--ah! it was beautiful--a +splendid place carpeted with crimson, and crimson-covered chairs and +tables, and a pure white ceiling bordered by gold, a shower of +glass-drops hanging in silver chains from the centre, and shimmering +with little soft tapers. Old Mr. and Mrs. Linton were not there; Edgar +and his sisters had it entirely to themselves. Shouldn't they have been +happy? We should have thought ourselves in heaven! And now, guess what +your good children were doing? Isabella--I believe she is eleven, a year +younger than Cathy--lay screaming at the farther end of the room, +shrieking as if witches were running red-hot needles into her. Edgar +stood on the hearth weeping silently, and in the middle of the table sat +a little dog, shaking its paw and yelping; which, from their mutual +accusations, we understood they had nearly pulled in two between them. +The idiots! That was their pleasure! to quarrel who should hold a heap +of warm hair, and each begin to cry because both, after struggling to +get it, refused to take it. We laughed outright at the petted things; we +did despise them! When would you catch me wishing to have what Catherine +wanted? or find us by ourselves, seeking entertainment in yelling, and +sobbing, and rolling on the ground, divided by the whole room? I'd not +exchange, for a thousand lives, my condition here, for Edgar Linton's at +Thrushcross Grange--not if I might have the privilege of flinging Joseph +off the highest gable, and painting the house-front with Hindley's +blood!' + +'Hush, hush!' I interrupted. 'Still you have not told me, Heathcliff, +how Catherine is left behind?' + +'I told you we laughed,' he answered. 'The Lintons heard us, and with +one accord they shot like arrows to the door; there was silence, and +then a cry, "Oh, mamma, mamma! Oh, papa! Oh, mamma, come here. Oh, papa, +oh!" They really did howl out something in that way. We made frightful +noises to terrify them still more, and then we dropped off the ledge, +because somebody was drawing the bars, and we felt we had better flee. I +had Cathy by the hand, and was urging her on, when all at once she fell +down. "Run, Heathcliff, run!" she whispered. "They have let the bull-dog +loose, and he holds me!" The devil had seized her ankle, Nelly: I heard +his abominable snorting. She did not yell out--no! she would have +scorned to do it, if she had been spitted on the horns of a mad cow. I +did, though: I vociferated curses enough to annihilate any fiend in +Christendom; and I got a stone and thrust it between his jaws, and tried +with all my might to cram it down his throat. A beast of a servant came +up with a lantern, at last, shouting--"Keep fast, Skulker, keep fast!" +He changed his note, however, when he saw Skulker's game. The dog was +throttled off; his huge, purple tongue hanging half a foot out of his +mouth, and his pendent lips streaming with bloody slaver. The man took +Cathy up; she was sick: not from fear, I'm certain, but from pain. He +carried her in; I followed, grumbling execrations and vengeance. "What +prey, Robert?" hallooed Linton from the entrance. "Skulker has caught a +little girl, sir," he replied; "and there's a lad here," he added, +making a clutch at me, "who looks an out-and-outer! Very like the +robbers were for putting them through the window to open the doors to +the gang after all were asleep, that they might murder us at their ease. +Hold your tongue, you foul-mouthed thief, you! you shall go to the +gallows for this. Mr. Linton, sir, don't lay by your gun." "No, no, +Robert," said the old fool. "The rascals knew that yesterday was my +rent-day: they thought to have me cleverly. Come in; I'll furnish them a +reception. There, John, fasten the chain. Give Skulker some water, +Jenny. To beard a magistrate in his stronghold, and on the Sabbath, too! +Where will their insolence stop? Oh, my dear Mary, look here! Don't be +afraid, it is but a boy--yet the villain scowls so plainly in his face; +would it not be a kindness to the country to hang him at once, before he +shows his nature in acts as well as features?" He pulled me under the +chandelier, and Mrs. Linton placed her spectacles on her nose and raised +her hands in horror. The cowardly children crept nearer also, Isabella +lisping--"Frightful thing! Put him in the cellar, papa. He's exactly +like the son of the fortune-teller that stole my tame pheasant. Isn't +he, Edgar?" + +'While they examined me, Cathy came round; she heard the last speech, and +laughed. Edgar Linton, after an inquisitive stare, collected sufficient +wit to recognise her. They see us at church, you know, though we seldom +meet them elsewhere. "That's Miss Earnshaw?" he whispered to his mother, +"and look how Skulker has bitten her--how her foot bleeds!" + +'"Miss Earnshaw? Nonsense!" cried the dame; "Miss Earnshaw scouring the +country with a gipsy! And yet, my dear, the child is in mourning--surely +it is--and she may be lamed for life!" + +'"What culpable carelessness in her brother!" exclaimed Mr. Linton, +turning from me to Catherine. "I've understood from Shielders"' (that +was the curate, sir) '"that he lets her grow up in absolute heathenism. +But who is this? Where did she pick up this companion? Oho! I declare +he is that strange acquisition my late neighbour made, in his journey to +Liverpool--a little Lascar, or an American or Spanish castaway." + +'"A wicked boy, at all events," remarked the old lady, "and quite unfit +for a decent house! Did you notice his language, Linton? I'm shocked +that my children should have heard it." + +'I recommenced cursing--don't be angry, Nelly--and so Robert was ordered +to take me off. I refused to go without Cathy; he dragged me into the +garden, pushed the lantern into my hand, assured me that Mr. Earnshaw +should be informed of my behaviour, and, bidding me march directly, +secured the door again. The curtains were still looped up at one corner, +and I resumed my station as spy; because, if Catherine had wished to +return, I intended shattering their great glass panes to a million of +fragments, unless they let her out. She sat on the sofa quietly. Mrs. +Linton took off the grey cloak of the dairy-maid which we had borrowed +for our excursion, shaking her head and expostulating with her, I +suppose: she was a young lady, and they made a distinction between her +treatment and mine. Then the woman-servant brought a basin of warm +water, and washed her feet; and Mr. Linton mixed a tumbler of negus, and +Isabella emptied a plateful of cakes into her lap, and Edgar stood gaping +at a distance. Afterwards, they dried and combed her beautiful hair, and +gave her a pair of enormous slippers, and wheeled her to the fire; and I +left her, as merry as she could be, dividing her food between the little +dog and Skulker, whose nose she pinched as he ate; and kindling a spark +of spirit in the vacant blue eyes of the Lintons--a dim reflection from +her own enchanting face. I saw they were full of stupid admiration; she +is so immeasurably superior to them--to everybody on earth, is she not, +Nelly?' + +'There will more come of this business than you reckon on,' I answered, +covering him up and extinguishing the light. 'You are incurable, +Heathcliff; and Mr. Hindley will have to proceed to extremities, see if +he won't.' My words came truer than I desired. The luckless adventure +made Earnshaw furious. And then Mr. Linton, to mend matters, paid us a +visit himself on the morrow, and read the young master such a lecture on +the road he guided his family, that he was stirred to look about him, in +earnest. Heathcliff received no flogging, but he was told that the first +word he spoke to Miss Catherine should ensure a dismissal; and Mrs. +Earnshaw undertook to keep her sister-in-law in due restraint when she +returned home; employing art, not force: with force she would have found +it impossible. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +Cathy stayed at Thrushcross Grange five weeks: till Christmas. By that +time her ankle was thoroughly cured, and her manners much improved. The +mistress visited her often in the interval, and commenced her plan of +reform by trying to raise her self-respect with fine clothes and +flattery, which she took readily; so that, instead of a wild, hatless +little savage jumping into the house, and rushing to squeeze us all +breathless, there 'lighted from a handsome black pony a very dignified +person, with brown ringlets falling from the cover of a feathered beaver, +and a long cloth habit, which she was obliged to hold up with both hands +that she might sail in. Hindley lifted her from her horse, exclaiming +delightedly, 'Why, Cathy, you are quite a beauty! I should scarcely have +known you: you look like a lady now. Isabella Linton is not to be +compared with her, is she, Frances?' 'Isabella has not her natural +advantages,' replied his wife: 'but she must mind and not grow wild again +here. Ellen, help Miss Catherine off with her things--Stay, dear, you +will disarrange your curls--let me untie your hat.' + +I removed the habit, and there shone forth beneath a grand plaid silk +frock, white trousers, and burnished shoes; and, while her eyes sparkled +joyfully when the dogs came bounding up to welcome her, she dared hardly +touch them lest they should fawn upon her splendid garments. She kissed +me gently: I was all flour making the Christmas cake, and it would not +have done to give me a hug; and then she looked round for Heathcliff. Mr. +and Mrs. Earnshaw watched anxiously their meeting; thinking it would +enable them to judge, in some measure, what grounds they had for hoping +to succeed in separating the two friends. + +Heathcliff was hard to discover, at first. If he were careless, and +uncared for, before Catherine's absence, he had been ten times more so +since. Nobody but I even did him the kindness to call him a dirty boy, +and bid him wash himself, once a week; and children of his age seldom +have a natural pleasure in soap and water. Therefore, not to mention his +clothes, which had seen three months' service in mire and dust, and his +thick uncombed hair, the surface of his face and hands was dismally +beclouded. He might well skulk behind the settle, on beholding such a +bright, graceful damsel enter the house, instead of a rough-headed +counterpart of himself, as he expected. 'Is Heathcliff not here?' she +demanded, pulling off her gloves, and displaying fingers wonderfully +whitened with doing nothing and staying indoors. + +'Heathcliff, you may come forward,' cried Mr. Hindley, enjoying his +discomfiture, and gratified to see what a forbidding young blackguard he +would be compelled to present himself. 'You may come and wish Miss +Catherine welcome, like the other servants.' + +Cathy, catching a glimpse of her friend in his concealment, flew to +embrace him; she bestowed seven or eight kisses on his cheek within the +second, and then stopped, and drawing back, burst into a laugh, +exclaiming, 'Why, how very black and cross you look! and how--how funny +and grim! But that's because I'm used to Edgar and Isabella Linton. +Well, Heathcliff, have you forgotten me?' + +She had some reason to put the question, for shame and pride threw double +gloom over his countenance, and kept him immovable. + +'Shake hands, Heathcliff,' said Mr. Earnshaw, condescendingly; 'once in a +way that is permitted.' + +'I shall not,' replied the boy, finding his tongue at last; 'I shall not +stand to be laughed at. I shall not bear it!' And he would have broken +from the circle, but Miss Cathy seized him again. + +'I did not mean to laugh at you,' she said; 'I could not hinder myself: +Heathcliff, shake hands at least! What are you sulky for? It was only +that you looked odd. If you wash your face and brush your hair, it will +be all right: but you are so dirty!' + +She gazed concernedly at the dusky fingers she held in her own, and also +at her dress; which she feared had gained no embellishment from its +contact with his. + +'You needn't have touched me!' he answered, following her eye and +snatching away his hand. 'I shall be as dirty as I please: and I like to +be dirty, and I will be dirty.' + +With that he dashed headforemost out of the room, amid the merriment of +the master and mistress, and to the serious disturbance of Catherine; who +could not comprehend how her remarks should have produced such an +exhibition of bad temper. + +After playing lady's-maid to the new-comer, and putting my cakes in the +oven, and making the house and kitchen cheerful with great fires, +befitting Christmas-eve, I prepared to sit down and amuse myself by +singing carols, all alone; regardless of Joseph's affirmations that he +considered the merry tunes I chose as next door to songs. He had retired +to private prayer in his chamber, and Mr. and Mrs. Earnshaw were engaging +Missy's attention by sundry gay trifles bought for her to present to the +little Lintons, as an acknowledgment of their kindness. They had invited +them to spend the morrow at Wuthering Heights, and the invitation had +been accepted, on one condition: Mrs. Linton begged that her darlings +might be kept carefully apart from that 'naughty swearing boy.' + +Under these circumstances I remained solitary. I smelt the rich scent of +the heating spices; and admired the shining kitchen utensils, the +polished clock, decked in holly, the silver mugs ranged on a tray ready +to be filled with mulled ale for supper; and above all, the speckless +purity of my particular care--the scoured and well-swept floor. I gave +due inward applause to every object, and then I remembered how old +Earnshaw used to come in when all was tidied, and call me a cant lass, +and slip a shilling into my hand as a Christmas-box; and from that I went +on to think of his fondness for Heathcliff, and his dread lest he should +suffer neglect after death had removed him: and that naturally led me to +consider the poor lad's situation now, and from singing I changed my mind +to crying. It struck me soon, however, there would be more sense in +endeavouring to repair some of his wrongs than shedding tears over them: +I got up and walked into the court to seek him. He was not far; I found +him smoothing the glossy coat of the new pony in the stable, and feeding +the other beasts, according to custom. + +'Make haste, Heathcliff!' I said, 'the kitchen is so comfortable; and +Joseph is up-stairs: make haste, and let me dress you smart before Miss +Cathy comes out, and then you can sit together, with the whole hearth to +yourselves, and have a long chatter till bedtime.' + +He proceeded with his task, and never turned his head towards me. + +'Come--are you coming?' I continued. 'There's a little cake for each of +you, nearly enough; and you'll need half-an-hour's donning.' + +I waited five minutes, but getting no answer left him. Catherine supped +with her brother and sister-in-law: Joseph and I joined at an unsociable +meal, seasoned with reproofs on one side and sauciness on the other. His +cake and cheese remained on the table all night for the fairies. He +managed to continue work till nine o'clock, and then marched dumb and +dour to his chamber. Cathy sat up late, having a world of things to +order for the reception of her new friends: she came into the kitchen +once to speak to her old one; but he was gone, and she only stayed to ask +what was the matter with him, and then went back. In the morning he rose +early; and, as it was a holiday, carried his ill-humour on to the moors; +not re-appearing till the family were departed for church. Fasting and +reflection seemed to have brought him to a better spirit. He hung about +me for a while, and having screwed up his courage, exclaimed +abruptly--'Nelly, make me decent, I'm going to be good.' + +'High time, Heathcliff,' I said; 'you _have_ grieved Catherine: she's +sorry she ever came home, I daresay! It looks as if you envied her, +because she is more thought of than you.' + +The notion of _envying_ Catherine was incomprehensible to him, but the +notion of grieving her he understood clearly enough. + +'Did she say she was grieved?' he inquired, looking very serious. + +'She cried when I told her you were off again this morning.' + +'Well, _I_ cried last night,' he returned, 'and I had more reason to cry +than she.' + +'Yes: you had the reason of going to bed with a proud heart and an empty +stomach,' said I. 'Proud people breed sad sorrows for themselves. But, +if you be ashamed of your touchiness, you must ask pardon, mind, when she +comes in. You must go up and offer to kiss her, and say--you know best +what to say; only do it heartily, and not as if you thought her converted +into a stranger by her grand dress. And now, though I have dinner to get +ready, I'll steal time to arrange you so that Edgar Linton shall look +quite a doll beside you: and that he does. You are younger, and yet, +I'll be bound, you are taller and twice as broad across the shoulders; +you could knock him down in a twinkling; don't you feel that you could?' + +Heathcliff's face brightened a moment; then it was overcast afresh, and +he sighed. + +'But, Nelly, if I knocked him down twenty times, that wouldn't make him +less handsome or me more so. I wish I had light hair and a fair skin, +and was dressed and behaved as well, and had a chance of being as rich as +he will be!' + +'And cried for mamma at every turn,' I added, 'and trembled if a country +lad heaved his fist against you, and sat at home all day for a shower of +rain. Oh, Heathcliff, you are showing a poor spirit! Come to the glass, +and I'll let you see what you should wish. Do you mark those two lines +between your eyes; and those thick brows, that, instead of rising arched, +sink in the middle; and that couple of black fiends, so deeply buried, +who never open their windows boldly, but lurk glinting under them, like +devil's spies? Wish and learn to smooth away the surly wrinkles, to +raise your lids frankly, and change the fiends to confident, innocent +angels, suspecting and doubting nothing, and always seeing friends where +they are not sure of foes. Don't get the expression of a vicious cur +that appears to know the kicks it gets are its dessert, and yet hates all +the world, as well as the kicker, for what it suffers.' + +'In other words, I must wish for Edgar Linton's great blue eyes and even +forehead,' he replied. 'I do--and that won't help me to them.' + +'A good heart will help you to a bonny face, my lad,' I continued, 'if +you were a regular black; and a bad one will turn the bonniest into +something worse than ugly. And now that we've done washing, and combing, +and sulking--tell me whether you don't think yourself rather handsome? +I'll tell you, I do. You're fit for a prince in disguise. Who knows but +your father was Emperor of China, and your mother an Indian queen, each +of them able to buy up, with one week's income, Wuthering Heights and +Thrushcross Grange together? And you were kidnapped by wicked sailors +and brought to England. Were I in your place, I would frame high notions +of my birth; and the thoughts of what I was should give me courage and +dignity to support the oppressions of a little farmer!' + +So I chattered on; and Heathcliff gradually lost his frown and began to +look quite pleasant, when all at once our conversation was interrupted by +a rumbling sound moving up the road and entering the court. He ran to +the window and I to the door, just in time to behold the two Lintons +descend from the family carriage, smothered in cloaks and furs, and the +Earnshaws dismount from their horses: they often rode to church in +winter. Catherine took a hand of each of the children, and brought them +into the house and set them before the fire, which quickly put colour +into their white faces. + +I urged my companion to hasten now and show his amiable humour, and he +willingly obeyed; but ill luck would have it that, as he opened the door +leading from the kitchen on one side, Hindley opened it on the other. +They met, and the master, irritated at seeing him clean and cheerful, or, +perhaps, eager to keep his promise to Mrs. Linton, shoved him back with a +sudden thrust, and angrily bade Joseph 'keep the fellow out of the +room--send him into the garret till dinner is over. He'll be cramming +his fingers in the tarts and stealing the fruit, if left alone with them +a minute.' + +'Nay, sir,' I could not avoid answering, 'he'll touch nothing, not he: +and I suppose he must have his share of the dainties as well as we.' + +'He shall have his share of my hand, if I catch him downstairs till +dark,' cried Hindley. 'Begone, you vagabond! What! you are attempting +the coxcomb, are you? Wait till I get hold of those elegant locks--see +if I won't pull them a bit longer!' + +'They are long enough already,' observed Master Linton, peeping from the +doorway; 'I wonder they don't make his head ache. It's like a colt's +mane over his eyes!' + +He ventured this remark without any intention to insult; but Heathcliff's +violent nature was not prepared to endure the appearance of impertinence +from one whom he seemed to hate, even then, as a rival. He seized a +tureen of hot apple sauce (the first thing that came under his grip) and +dashed it full against the speaker's face and neck; who instantly +commenced a lament that brought Isabella and Catherine hurrying to the +place. Mr. Earnshaw snatched up the culprit directly and conveyed him to +his chamber; where, doubtless, he administered a rough remedy to cool the +fit of passion, for he appeared red and breathless. I got the dishcloth, +and rather spitefully scrubbed Edgar's nose and mouth, affirming it +served him right for meddling. His sister began weeping to go home, and +Cathy stood by confounded, blushing for all. + +'You should not have spoken to him!' she expostulated with Master Linton. +'He was in a bad temper, and now you've spoilt your visit; and he'll be +flogged: I hate him to be flogged! I can't eat my dinner. Why did you +speak to him, Edgar?' + +'I didn't,' sobbed the youth, escaping from my hands, and finishing the +remainder of the purification with his cambric pocket-handkerchief. 'I +promised mamma that I wouldn't say one word to him, and I didn't.' + +'Well, don't cry,' replied Catherine, contemptuously; 'you're not killed. +Don't make more mischief; my brother is coming: be quiet! Hush, +Isabella! Has anybody hurt you?' + +'There, there, children--to your seats!' cried Hindley, bustling in. +'That brute of a lad has warmed me nicely. Next time, Master Edgar, take +the law into your own fists--it will give you an appetite!' + +The little party recovered its equanimity at sight of the fragrant feast. +They were hungry after their ride, and easily consoled, since no real +harm had befallen them. Mr. Earnshaw carved bountiful platefuls, and the +mistress made them merry with lively talk. I waited behind her chair, +and was pained to behold Catherine, with dry eyes and an indifferent air, +commence cutting up the wing of a goose before her. 'An unfeeling +child,' I thought to myself; 'how lightly she dismisses her old +playmate's troubles. I could not have imagined her to be so selfish.' +She lifted a mouthful to her lips: then she set it down again: her cheeks +flushed, and the tears gushed over them. She slipped her fork to the +floor, and hastily dived under the cloth to conceal her emotion. I did +not call her unfeeling long; for I perceived she was in purgatory +throughout the day, and wearying to find an opportunity of getting by +herself, or paying a visit to Heathcliff, who had been locked up by the +master: as I discovered, on endeavouring to introduce to him a private +mess of victuals. + +In the evening we had a dance. Cathy begged that he might be liberated +then, as Isabella Linton had no partner: her entreaties were vain, and I +was appointed to supply the deficiency. We got rid of all gloom in the +excitement of the exercise, and our pleasure was increased by the arrival +of the Gimmerton band, mustering fifteen strong: a trumpet, a trombone, +clarionets, bassoons, French horns, and a bass viol, besides singers. +They go the rounds of all the respectable houses, and receive +contributions every Christmas, and we esteemed it a first-rate treat to +hear them. After the usual carols had been sung, we set them to songs +and glees. Mrs. Earnshaw loved the music, and so they gave us plenty. + +Catherine loved it too: but she said it sounded sweetest at the top of +the steps, and she went up in the dark: I followed. They shut the house +door below, never noting our absence, it was so full of people. She made +no stay at the stairs'-head, but mounted farther, to the garret where +Heathcliff was confined, and called him. He stubbornly declined +answering for a while: she persevered, and finally persuaded him to hold +communion with her through the boards. I let the poor things converse +unmolested, till I supposed the songs were going to cease, and the +singers to get some refreshment: then I clambered up the ladder to warn +her. Instead of finding her outside, I heard her voice within. The +little monkey had crept by the skylight of one garret, along the roof, +into the skylight of the other, and it was with the utmost difficulty I +could coax her out again. When she did come, Heathcliff came with her, +and she insisted that I should take him into the kitchen, as my +fellow-servant had gone to a neighbour's, to be removed from the sound +of our 'devil's psalmody,' as it pleased him to call it. I told them I +intended by no means to encourage their tricks: but as the prisoner had +never broken his fast since yesterday's dinner, I would wink at his +cheating Mr. Hindley that once. He went down: I set him a stool by the +fire, and offered him a quantity of good things: but he was sick and +could eat little, and my attempts to entertain him were thrown away. He +leant his two elbows on his knees, and his chin on his hands and +remained rapt in dumb meditation. On my inquiring the subject of his +thoughts, he answered gravely--'I'm trying to settle how I shall pay +Hindley back. I don't care how long I wait, if I can only do it at last. +I hope he will not die before I do!' + +'For shame, Heathcliff!' said I. 'It is for God to punish wicked people; +we should learn to forgive.' + +'No, God won't have the satisfaction that I shall,' he returned. 'I only +wish I knew the best way! Let me alone, and I'll plan it out: while I'm +thinking of that I don't feel pain.' + +'But, Mr. Lockwood, I forget these tales cannot divert you. I'm annoyed +how I should dream of chattering on at such a rate; and your gruel cold, +and you nodding for bed! I could have told Heathcliff's history, all +that you need hear, in half a dozen words.' + +* * * * * + +Thus interrupting herself, the housekeeper rose, and proceeded to lay +aside her sewing; but I felt incapable of moving from the hearth, and I +was very far from nodding. 'Sit still, Mrs. Dean,' I cried; 'do sit +still another half-hour. You've done just right to tell the story +leisurely. That is the method I like; and you must finish it in the same +style. I am interested in every character you have mentioned, more or +less.' + +'The clock is on the stroke of eleven, sir.' + +'No matter--I'm not accustomed to go to bed in the long hours. One or +two is early enough for a person who lies till ten.' + +'You shouldn't lie till ten. There's the very prime of the morning gone +long before that time. A person who has not done one-half his day's work +by ten o'clock, runs a chance of leaving the other half undone.' + +'Nevertheless, Mrs. Dean, resume your chair; because to-morrow I intend +lengthening the night till afternoon. I prognosticate for myself an +obstinate cold, at least.' + +'I hope not, sir. Well, you must allow me to leap over some three years; +during that space Mrs. Earnshaw--' + +'No, no, I'll allow nothing of the sort! Are you acquainted with the +mood of mind in which, if you were seated alone, and the cat licking its +kitten on the rug before you, you would watch the operation so intently +that puss's neglect of one ear would put you seriously out of temper?' + +'A terribly lazy mood, I should say.' + +'On the contrary, a tiresomely active one. It is mine, at present; and, +therefore, continue minutely. I perceive that people in these regions +acquire over people in towns the value that a spider in a dungeon does +over a spider in a cottage, to their various occupants; and yet the +deepened attraction is not entirely owing to the situation of the +looker-on. They _do_ live more in earnest, more in themselves, and less +in surface, change, and frivolous external things. I could fancy a love +for life here almost possible; and I was a fixed unbeliever in any love +of a year's standing. One state resembles setting a hungry man down to a +single dish, on which he may concentrate his entire appetite and do it +justice; the other, introducing him to a table laid out by French cooks: +he can perhaps extract as much enjoyment from the whole; but each part +is a mere atom in his regard and remembrance.' + +'Oh! here we are the same as anywhere else, when you get to know us,' +observed Mrs. Dean, somewhat puzzled at my speech. + +'Excuse me,' I responded; 'you, my good friend, are a striking evidence +against that assertion. Excepting a few provincialisms of slight +consequence, you have no marks of the manners which I am habituated to +consider as peculiar to your class. I am sure you have thought a great +deal more than the generality of servants think. You have been compelled +to cultivate your reflective faculties for want of occasions for +frittering your life away in silly trifles.' + +Mrs. Dean laughed. + +'I certainly esteem myself a steady, reasonable kind of body,' she said; +'not exactly from living among the hills and seeing one set of faces, and +one series of actions, from year's end to year's end; but I have +undergone sharp discipline, which has taught me wisdom; and then, I have +read more than you would fancy, Mr. Lockwood. You could not open a book +in this library that I have not looked into, and got something out of +also: unless it be that range of Greek and Latin, and that of French; and +those I know one from another: it is as much as you can expect of a poor +man's daughter. However, if I am to follow my story in true gossip's +fashion, I had better go on; and instead of leaping three years, I will +be content to pass to the next summer--the summer of 1778, that is nearly +twenty-three years ago.' + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +On the morning of a fine June day my first bonny little nursling, and the +last of the ancient Earnshaw stock, was born. We were busy with the hay +in a far-away field, when the girl that usually brought our breakfasts +came running an hour too soon across the meadow and up the lane, calling +me as she ran. + +'Oh, such a grand bairn!' she panted out. 'The finest lad that ever +breathed! But the doctor says missis must go: he says she's been in a +consumption these many months. I heard him tell Mr. Hindley: and now she +has nothing to keep her, and she'll be dead before winter. You must come +home directly. You're to nurse it, Nelly: to feed it with sugar and +milk, and take care of it day and night. I wish I were you, because it +will be all yours when there is no missis!' + +'But is she very ill?' I asked, flinging down my rake and tying my +bonnet. + +'I guess she is; yet she looks bravely,' replied the girl, 'and she talks +as if she thought of living to see it grow a man. She's out of her head +for joy, it's such a beauty! If I were her I'm certain I should not die: +I should get better at the bare sight of it, in spite of Kenneth. I was +fairly mad at him. Dame Archer brought the cherub down to master, in the +house, and his face just began to light up, when the old croaker steps +forward, and says he--"Earnshaw, it's a blessing your wife has been +spared to leave you this son. When she came, I felt convinced we +shouldn't keep her long; and now, I must tell you, the winter will +probably finish her. Don't take on, and fret about it too much: it can't +be helped. And besides, you should have known better than to choose such +a rush of a lass!"' + +'And what did the master answer?' I inquired. + +'I think he swore: but I didn't mind him, I was straining to see the +bairn,' and she began again to describe it rapturously. I, as zealous as +herself, hurried eagerly home to admire, on my part; though I was very +sad for Hindley's sake. He had room in his heart only for two idols--his +wife and himself: he doted on both, and adored one, and I couldn't +conceive how he would bear the loss. + +When we got to Wuthering Heights, there he stood at the front door; and, +as I passed in, I asked, 'how was the baby?' + +'Nearly ready to run about, Nell!' he replied, putting on a cheerful +smile. + +'And the mistress?' I ventured to inquire; 'the doctor says she's--' + +'Damn the doctor!' he interrupted, reddening. 'Frances is quite right: +she'll be perfectly well by this time next week. Are you going +up-stairs? will you tell her that I'll come, if she'll promise not to +talk. I left her because she would not hold her tongue; and she +must--tell her Mr. Kenneth says she must be quiet.' + +I delivered this message to Mrs. Earnshaw; she seemed in flighty spirits, +and replied merrily, 'I hardly spoke a word, Ellen, and there he has gone +out twice, crying. Well, say I promise I won't speak: but that does not +bind me not to laugh at him!' + +Poor soul! Till within a week of her death that gay heart never failed +her; and her husband persisted doggedly, nay, furiously, in affirming her +health improved every day. When Kenneth warned him that his medicines +were useless at that stage of the malady, and he needn't put him to +further expense by attending her, he retorted, 'I know you need not--she's +well--she does not want any more attendance from you! She never was in a +consumption. It was a fever; and it is gone: her pulse is as slow as +mine now, and her cheek as cool.' + +He told his wife the same story, and she seemed to believe him; but one +night, while leaning on his shoulder, in the act of saying she thought +she should be able to get up to-morrow, a fit of coughing took her--a +very slight one--he raised her in his arms; she put her two hands about +his neck, her face changed, and she was dead. + +As the girl had anticipated, the child Hareton fell wholly into my hands. +Mr. Earnshaw, provided he saw him healthy and never heard him cry, was +contented, as far as regarded him. For himself, he grew desperate: his +sorrow was of that kind that will not lament. He neither wept nor +prayed; he cursed and defied: execrated God and man, and gave himself up +to reckless dissipation. The servants could not bear his tyrannical and +evil conduct long: Joseph and I were the only two that would stay. I had +not the heart to leave my charge; and besides, you know, I had been his +foster-sister, and excused his behaviour more readily than a stranger +would. Joseph remained to hector over tenants and labourers; and because +it was his vocation to be where he had plenty of wickedness to reprove. + +The master's bad ways and bad companions formed a pretty example for +Catherine and Heathcliff. His treatment of the latter was enough to make +a fiend of a saint. And, truly, it appeared as if the lad _were_ +possessed of something diabolical at that period. He delighted to +witness Hindley degrading himself past redemption; and became daily more +notable for savage sullenness and ferocity. I could not half tell what +an infernal house we had. The curate dropped calling, and nobody decent +came near us, at last; unless Edgar Linton's visits to Miss Cathy might +be an exception. At fifteen she was the queen of the country-side; she +had no peer; and she did turn out a haughty, headstrong creature! I own +I did not like her, after infancy was past; and I vexed her frequently by +trying to bring down her arrogance: she never took an aversion to me, +though. She had a wondrous constancy to old attachments: even Heathcliff +kept his hold on her affections unalterably; and young Linton, with all +his superiority, found it difficult to make an equally deep impression. +He was my late master: that is his portrait over the fireplace. It used +to hang on one side, and his wife's on the other; but hers has been +removed, or else you might see something of what she was. Can you make +that out? + +Mrs. Dean raised the candle, and I discerned a soft-featured face, +exceedingly resembling the young lady at the Heights, but more pensive +and amiable in expression. It formed a sweet picture. The long light +hair curled slightly on the temples; the eyes were large and serious; the +figure almost too graceful. I did not marvel how Catherine Earnshaw +could forget her first friend for such an individual. I marvelled much +how he, with a mind to correspond with his person, could fancy my idea of +Catherine Earnshaw. + +'A very agreeable portrait,' I observed to the house-keeper. 'Is it +like?' + +'Yes,' she answered; 'but he looked better when he was animated; that is +his everyday countenance: he wanted spirit in general.' + +Catherine had kept up her acquaintance with the Lintons since her +five-weeks' residence among them; and as she had no temptation to show +her rough side in their company, and had the sense to be ashamed of +being rude where she experienced such invariable courtesy, she imposed +unwittingly on the old lady and gentleman by her ingenious cordiality; +gained the admiration of Isabella, and the heart and soul of her +brother: acquisitions that flattered her from the first--for she was +full of ambition--and led her to adopt a double character without +exactly intending to deceive any one. In the place where she heard +Heathcliff termed a 'vulgar young ruffian,' and 'worse than a brute,' +she took care not to act like him; but at home she had small inclination +to practise politeness that would only be laughed at, and restrain an +unruly nature when it would bring her neither credit nor praise. + +Mr. Edgar seldom mustered courage to visit Wuthering Heights openly. He +had a terror of Earnshaw's reputation, and shrunk from encountering him; +and yet he was always received with our best attempts at civility: the +master himself avoided offending him, knowing why he came; and if he +could not be gracious, kept out of the way. I rather think his +appearance there was distasteful to Catherine; she was not artful, never +played the coquette, and had evidently an objection to her two friends +meeting at all; for when Heathcliff expressed contempt of Linton in his +presence, she could not half coincide, as she did in his absence; and +when Linton evinced disgust and antipathy to Heathcliff, she dared not +treat his sentiments with indifference, as if depreciation of her +playmate were of scarcely any consequence to her. I've had many a laugh +at her perplexities and untold troubles, which she vainly strove to hide +from my mockery. That sounds ill-natured: but she was so proud it became +really impossible to pity her distresses, till she should be chastened +into more humility. She did bring herself, finally, to confess, and to +confide in me: there was not a soul else that she might fashion into an +adviser. + +Mr. Hindley had gone from home one afternoon, and Heathcliff presumed to +give himself a holiday on the strength of it. He had reached the age of +sixteen then, I think, and without having bad features, or being +deficient in intellect, he contrived to convey an impression of inward +and outward repulsiveness that his present aspect retains no traces of. +In the first place, he had by that time lost the benefit of his early +education: continual hard work, begun soon and concluded late, had +extinguished any curiosity he once possessed in pursuit of knowledge, and +any love for books or learning. His childhood's sense of superiority, +instilled into him by the favours of old Mr. Earnshaw, was faded away. He +struggled long to keep up an equality with Catherine in her studies, and +yielded with poignant though silent regret: but he yielded completely; +and there was no prevailing on him to take a step in the way of moving +upward, when he found he must, necessarily, sink beneath his former +level. Then personal appearance sympathised with mental deterioration: +he acquired a slouching gait and ignoble look; his naturally reserved +disposition was exaggerated into an almost idiotic excess of unsociable +moroseness; and he took a grim pleasure, apparently, in exciting the +aversion rather than the esteem of his few acquaintances. + +Catherine and he were constant companions still at his seasons of respite +from labour; but he had ceased to express his fondness for her in words, +and recoiled with angry suspicion from her girlish caresses, as if +conscious there could be no gratification in lavishing such marks of +affection on him. On the before-named occasion he came into the house to +announce his intention of doing nothing, while I was assisting Miss Cathy +to arrange her dress: she had not reckoned on his taking it into his head +to be idle; and imagining she would have the whole place to herself, she +managed, by some means, to inform Mr. Edgar of her brother's absence, and +was then preparing to receive him. + +'Cathy, are you busy this afternoon?' asked Heathcliff. 'Are you going +anywhere?' + +'No, it is raining,' she answered. + +'Why have you that silk frock on, then?' he said. 'Nobody coming here, I +hope?' + +'Not that I know of,' stammered Miss: 'but you should be in the field +now, Heathcliff. It is an hour past dinnertime: I thought you were +gone.' + +'Hindley does not often free us from his accursed presence,' observed the +boy. 'I'll not work any more to-day: I'll stay with you.' + +'Oh, but Joseph will tell,' she suggested; 'you'd better go!' + +'Joseph is loading lime on the further side of Penistone Crags; it will +take him till dark, and he'll never know.' + +So, saying, he lounged to the fire, and sat down. Catherine reflected an +instant, with knitted brows--she found it needful to smooth the way for +an intrusion. 'Isabella and Edgar Linton talked of calling this +afternoon,' she said, at the conclusion of a minute's silence. 'As it +rains, I hardly expect them; but they may come, and if they do, you run +the risk of being scolded for no good.' + +'Order Ellen to say you are engaged, Cathy,' he persisted; 'don't turn me +out for those pitiful, silly friends of yours! I'm on the point, +sometimes, of complaining that they--but I'll not--' + +'That they what?' cried Catherine, gazing at him with a troubled +countenance. 'Oh, Nelly!' she added petulantly, jerking her head away +from my hands, 'you've combed my hair quite out of curl! That's enough; +let me alone. What are you on the point of complaining about, +Heathcliff?' + +'Nothing--only look at the almanack on that wall;' he pointed to a framed +sheet hanging near the window, and continued, 'The crosses are for the +evenings you have spent with the Lintons, the dots for those spent with +me. Do you see? I've marked every day.' + +'Yes--very foolish: as if I took notice!' replied Catherine, in a peevish +tone. 'And where is the sense of that?' + +'To show that I _do_ take notice,' said Heathcliff. + +'And should I always be sitting with you?' she demanded, growing more +irritated. 'What good do I get? What do you talk about? You might be +dumb, or a baby, for anything you say to amuse me, or for anything you +do, either!' + +'You never told me before that I talked too little, or that you disliked +my company, Cathy!' exclaimed Heathcliff, in much agitation. + +'It's no company at all, when people know nothing and say nothing,' she +muttered. + +Her companion rose up, but he hadn't time to express his feelings +further, for a horse's feet were heard on the flags, and having knocked +gently, young Linton entered, his face brilliant with delight at the +unexpected summon she had received. Doubtless Catherine marked the +difference between her friends, as one came in and the other went out. +The contrast resembled what you see in exchanging a bleak, hilly, coal +country for a beautiful fertile valley; and his voice and greeting were +as opposite as his aspect. He had a sweet, low manner of speaking, and +pronounced his words as you do: that's less gruff than we talk here, and +softer. + +'I'm not come too soon, am I?' he said, casting a look at me: I had begun +to wipe the plate, and tidy some drawers at the far end in the dresser. + +'No,' answered Catherine. 'What are you doing there, Nelly?' + +'My work, Miss,' I replied. (Mr. Hindley had given me directions to make +a third party in any private visits Linton chose to pay.) + +She stepped behind me and whispered crossly, 'Take yourself and your +dusters off; when company are in the house, servants don't commence +scouring and cleaning in the room where they are!' + +'It's a good opportunity, now that master is away,' I answered aloud: 'he +hates me to be fidgeting over these things in his presence. I'm sure Mr. +Edgar will excuse me.' + +'I hate you to be fidgeting in _my_ presence,' exclaimed the young lady +imperiously, not allowing her guest time to speak: she had failed to +recover her equanimity since the little dispute with Heathcliff. + +'I'm sorry for it, Miss Catherine,' was my response; and I proceeded +assiduously with my occupation. + +She, supposing Edgar could not see her, snatched the cloth from my hand, +and pinched me, with a prolonged wrench, very spitefully on the arm. I've +said I did not love her, and rather relished mortifying her vanity now +and then: besides, she hurt me extremely; so I started up from my knees, +and screamed out, 'Oh, Miss, that's a nasty trick! You have no right to +nip me, and I'm not going to bear it.' + +'I didn't touch you, you lying creature!' cried she, her fingers tingling +to repeat the act, and her ears red with rage. She never had power to +conceal her passion, it always set her whole complexion in a blaze. + +'What's that, then?' I retorted, showing a decided purple witness to +refute her. + +She stamped her foot, wavered a moment, and then, irresistibly impelled +by the naughty spirit within her, slapped me on the cheek: a stinging +blow that filled both eyes with water. + +'Catherine, love! Catherine!' interposed Linton, greatly shocked at the +double fault of falsehood and violence which his idol had committed. + +'Leave the room, Ellen!' she repeated, trembling all over. + +Little Hareton, who followed me everywhere, and was sitting near me on +the floor, at seeing my tears commenced crying himself, and sobbed out +complaints against 'wicked aunt Cathy,' which drew her fury on to his +unlucky head: she seized his shoulders, and shook him till the poor child +waxed livid, and Edgar thoughtlessly laid hold of her hands to deliver +him. In an instant one was wrung free, and the astonished young man felt +it applied over his own ear in a way that could not be mistaken for jest. +He drew back in consternation. I lifted Hareton in my arms, and walked +off to the kitchen with him, leaving the door of communication open, for +I was curious to watch how they would settle their disagreement. The +insulted visitor moved to the spot where he had laid his hat, pale and +with a quivering lip. + +'That's right!' I said to myself. 'Take warning and begone! It's a +kindness to let you have a glimpse of her genuine disposition.' + +'Where are you going?' demanded Catherine, advancing to the door. + +He swerved aside, and attempted to pass. + +'You must not go!' she exclaimed, energetically. + +'I must and shall!' he replied in a subdued voice. + +'No,' she persisted, grasping the handle; 'not yet, Edgar Linton: sit +down; you shall not leave me in that temper. I should be miserable all +night, and I won't be miserable for you!' + +'Can I stay after you have struck me?' asked Linton. + +Catherine was mute. + +'You've made me afraid and ashamed of you,' he continued; 'I'll not come +here again!' + +Her eyes began to glisten and her lids to twinkle. + +'And you told a deliberate untruth!' he said. + +'I didn't!' she cried, recovering her speech; 'I did nothing +deliberately. Well, go, if you please--get away! And now I'll cry--I'll +cry myself sick!' + +She dropped down on her knees by a chair, and set to weeping in serious +earnest. Edgar persevered in his resolution as far as the court; there +he lingered. I resolved to encourage him. + +'Miss is dreadfully wayward, sir,' I called out. 'As bad as any marred +child: you'd better be riding home, or else she will be sick, only to +grieve us.' + +The soft thing looked askance through the window: he possessed the power +to depart as much as a cat possesses the power to leave a mouse half +killed, or a bird half eaten. Ah, I thought, there will be no saving +him: he's doomed, and flies to his fate! And so it was: he turned +abruptly, hastened into the house again, shut the door behind him; and +when I went in a while after to inform them that Earnshaw had come home +rabid drunk, ready to pull the whole place about our ears (his ordinary +frame of mind in that condition), I saw the quarrel had merely effected a +closer intimacy--had broken the outworks of youthful timidity, and +enabled them to forsake the disguise of friendship, and confess +themselves lovers. + +Intelligence of Mr. Hindley's arrival drove Linton speedily to his horse, +and Catherine to her chamber. I went to hide little Hareton, and to take +the shot out of the master's fowling-piece, which he was fond of playing +with in his insane excitement, to the hazard of the lives of any who +provoked, or even attracted his notice too much; and I had hit upon the +plan of removing it, that he might do less mischief if he did go the +length of firing the gun. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +He entered, vociferating oaths dreadful to hear; and caught me in the act +of stowing his son away in the kitchen cupboard. Hareton was impressed +with a wholesome terror of encountering either his wild beast's fondness +or his madman's rage; for in one he ran a chance of being squeezed and +kissed to death, and in the other of being flung into the fire, or dashed +against the wall; and the poor thing remained perfectly quiet wherever I +chose to put him. + +'There, I've found it out at last!' cried Hindley, pulling me back by the +skin of my neck, like a dog. 'By heaven and hell, you've sworn between +you to murder that child! I know how it is, now, that he is always out +of my way. But, with the help of Satan, I shall make you swallow the +carving-knife, Nelly! You needn't laugh; for I've just crammed Kenneth, +head-downmost, in the Black-horse marsh; and two is the same as one--and +I want to kill some of you: I shall have no rest till I do!' + +'But I don't like the carving-knife, Mr. Hindley,' I answered; 'it has +been cutting red herrings. I'd rather be shot, if you please.' + +'You'd rather be damned!' he said; 'and so you shall. No law in England +can hinder a man from keeping his house decent, and mine's abominable! +Open your mouth.' He held the knife in his hand, and pushed its point +between my teeth: but, for my part, I was never much afraid of his +vagaries. I spat out, and affirmed it tasted detestably--I would not +take it on any account. + +'Oh!' said he, releasing me, 'I see that hideous little villain is not +Hareton: I beg your pardon, Nell. If it be, he deserves flaying alive +for not running to welcome me, and for screaming as if I were a goblin. +Unnatural cub, come hither! I'll teach thee to impose on a good-hearted, +deluded father. Now, don't you think the lad would be handsomer cropped? +It makes a dog fiercer, and I love something fierce--get me a +scissors--something fierce and trim! Besides, it's infernal +affectation--devilish conceit it is, to cherish our ears--we're asses +enough without them. Hush, child, hush! Well then, it is my darling! +wisht, dry thy eyes--there's a joy; kiss me. What! it won't? Kiss me, +Hareton! Damn thee, kiss me! By God, as if I would rear such a monster! +As sure as I'm living, I'll break the brat's neck.' + +Poor Hareton was squalling and kicking in his father's arms with all his +might, and redoubled his yells when he carried him up-stairs and lifted +him over the banister. I cried out that he would frighten the child into +fits, and ran to rescue him. As I reached them, Hindley leant forward on +the rails to listen to a noise below; almost forgetting what he had in +his hands. 'Who is that?' he asked, hearing some one approaching the +stairs'-foot. I leant forward also, for the purpose of signing to +Heathcliff, whose step I recognised, not to come further; and, at the +instant when my eye quitted Hareton, he gave a sudden spring, delivered +himself from the careless grasp that held him, and fell. + +There was scarcely time to experience a thrill of horror before we saw +that the little wretch was safe. Heathcliff arrived underneath just at +the critical moment; by a natural impulse he arrested his descent, and +setting him on his feet, looked up to discover the author of the +accident. A miser who has parted with a lucky lottery ticket for five +shillings, and finds next day he has lost in the bargain five thousand +pounds, could not show a blanker countenance than he did on beholding the +figure of Mr. Earnshaw above. It expressed, plainer than words could do, +the intensest anguish at having made himself the instrument of thwarting +his own revenge. Had it been dark, I daresay he would have tried to +remedy the mistake by smashing Hareton's skull on the steps; but, we +witnessed his salvation; and I was presently below with my precious +charge pressed to my heart. Hindley descended more leisurely, sobered +and abashed. + +'It is your fault, Ellen,' he said; 'you should have kept him out of +sight: you should have taken him from me! Is he injured anywhere?' + +'Injured!' I cried angrily; 'if he is not killed, he'll be an idiot! Oh! +I wonder his mother does not rise from her grave to see how you use him. +You're worse than a heathen--treating your own flesh and blood in that +manner!' He attempted to touch the child, who, on finding himself with +me, sobbed off his terror directly. At the first finger his father laid +on him, however, he shrieked again louder than before, and struggled as +if he would go into convulsions. + +'You shall not meddle with him!' I continued. 'He hates you--they all +hate you--that's the truth! A happy family you have; and a pretty state +you're come to!' + +'I shall come to a prettier, yet, Nelly,' laughed the misguided man, +recovering his hardness. 'At present, convey yourself and him away. And +hark you, Heathcliff! clear you too quite from my reach and hearing. I +wouldn't murder you to-night; unless, perhaps, I set the house on fire: +but that's as my fancy goes.' + +While saying this he took a pint bottle of brandy from the dresser, and +poured some into a tumbler. + +'Nay, don't!' I entreated. 'Mr. Hindley, do take warning. Have mercy on +this unfortunate boy, if you care nothing for yourself!' + +'Any one will do better for him than I shall,' he answered. + +'Have mercy on your own soul!' I said, endeavouring to snatch the glass +from his hand. + +'Not I! On the contrary, I shall have great pleasure in sending it to +perdition to punish its Maker,' exclaimed the blasphemer. 'Here's to its +hearty damnation!' + +He drank the spirits and impatiently bade us go; terminating his command +with a sequel of horrid imprecations too bad to repeat or remember. + +'It's a pity he cannot kill himself with drink,' observed Heathcliff, +muttering an echo of curses back when the door was shut. 'He's doing his +very utmost; but his constitution defies him. Mr. Kenneth says he would +wager his mare that he'll outlive any man on this side Gimmerton, and go +to the grave a hoary sinner; unless some happy chance out of the common +course befall him.' + +I went into the kitchen, and sat down to lull my little lamb to sleep. +Heathcliff, as I thought, walked through to the barn. It turned out +afterwards that he only got as far as the other side the settle, when he +flung himself on a bench by the wall, removed from the fire and remained +silent. + +I was rocking Hareton on my knee, and humming a song that began,-- + + It was far in the night, and the bairnies grat, + The mither beneath the mools heard that, + +when Miss Cathy, who had listened to the hubbub from her room, put her +head in, and whispered,--'Are you alone, Nelly?' + +'Yes, Miss,' I replied. + +She entered and approached the hearth. I, supposing she was going to say +something, looked up. The expression of her face seemed disturbed and +anxious. Her lips were half asunder, as if she meant to speak, and she +drew a breath; but it escaped in a sigh instead of a sentence. I resumed +my song; not having forgotten her recent behaviour. + +'Where's Heathcliff?' she said, interrupting me. + +'About his work in the stable,' was my answer. + +He did not contradict me; perhaps he had fallen into a doze. There +followed another long pause, during which I perceived a drop or two +trickle from Catherine's cheek to the flags. Is she sorry for her +shameful conduct?--I asked myself. That will be a novelty: but she may +come to the point--as she will--I sha'n't help her! No, she felt small +trouble regarding any subject, save her own concerns. + +'Oh, dear!' she cried at last. 'I'm very unhappy!' + +'A pity,' observed I. 'You're hard to please; so many friends and so few +cares, and can't make yourself content!' + +'Nelly, will you keep a secret for me?' she pursued, kneeling down by me, +and lifting her winsome eyes to my face with that sort of look which +turns off bad temper, even when one has all the right in the world to +indulge it. + +'Is it worth keeping?' I inquired, less sulkily. + +'Yes, and it worries me, and I must let it out! I want to know what I +should do. To-day, Edgar Linton has asked me to marry him, and I've +given him an answer. Now, before I tell you whether it was a consent or +denial, you tell me which it ought to have been.' + +'Really, Miss Catherine, how can I know?' I replied. 'To be sure, +considering the exhibition you performed in his presence this afternoon, +I might say it would be wise to refuse him: since he asked you after +that, he must either be hopelessly stupid or a venturesome fool.' + +'If you talk so, I won't tell you any more,' she returned, peevishly +rising to her feet. 'I accepted him, Nelly. Be quick, and say whether I +was wrong!' + +'You accepted him! Then what good is it discussing the matter? You have +pledged your word, and cannot retract.' + +'But say whether I should have done so--do!' she exclaimed in an +irritated tone; chafing her hands together, and frowning. + +'There are many things to be considered before that question can be +answered properly,' I said, sententiously. 'First and foremost, do you +love Mr. Edgar?' + +'Who can help it? Of course I do,' she answered. + +Then I put her through the following catechism: for a girl of twenty-two +it was not injudicious. + +'Why do you love him, Miss Cathy?' + +'Nonsense, I do--that's sufficient.' + +'By no means; you must say why?' + +'Well, because he is handsome, and pleasant to be with.' + +'Bad!' was my commentary. + +'And because he is young and cheerful.' + +'Bad, still.' + +'And because he loves me.' + +'Indifferent, coming there.' + +'And he will be rich, and I shall like to be the greatest woman of the +neighbourhood, and I shall be proud of having such a husband.' + +'Worst of all. And now, say how you love him?' + +'As everybody loves--You're silly, Nelly.' + +'Not at all--Answer.' + +'I love the ground under his feet, and the air over his head, and +everything he touches, and every word he says. I love all his looks, and +all his actions, and him entirely and altogether. There now!' + +'And why?' + +'Nay; you are making a jest of it: it is exceedingly ill-natured! It's +no jest to me!' said the young lady, scowling, and turning her face to +the fire. + +'I'm very far from jesting, Miss Catherine,' I replied. 'You love Mr. +Edgar because he is handsome, and young, and cheerful, and rich, and +loves you. The last, however, goes for nothing: you would love him +without that, probably; and with it you wouldn't, unless he possessed the +four former attractions.' + +'No, to be sure not: I should only pity him--hate him, perhaps, if he +were ugly, and a clown.' + +'But there are several other handsome, rich young men in the world: +handsomer, possibly, and richer than he is. What should hinder you from +loving them?' + +'If there be any, they are out of my way: I've seen none like Edgar.' + +'You may see some; and he won't always be handsome, and young, and may +not always be rich.' + +'He is now; and I have only to do with the present. I wish you would +speak rationally.' + +'Well, that settles it: if you have only to do with the present, marry +Mr. Linton.' + +'I don't want your permission for that--I _shall_ marry him: and yet you +have not told me whether I'm right.' + +'Perfectly right; if people be right to marry only for the present. And +now, let us hear what you are unhappy about. Your brother will be +pleased; the old lady and gentleman will not object, I think; you will +escape from a disorderly, comfortless home into a wealthy, respectable +one; and you love Edgar, and Edgar loves you. All seems smooth and easy: +where is the obstacle?' + +'_Here_! and _here_!' replied Catherine, striking one hand on her +forehead, and the other on her breast: 'in whichever place the soul +lives. In my soul and in my heart, I'm convinced I'm wrong!' + +'That's very strange! I cannot make it out.' + +'It's my secret. But if you will not mock at me, I'll explain it: I +can't do it distinctly; but I'll give you a feeling of how I feel.' + +She seated herself by me again: her countenance grew sadder and graver, +and her clasped hands trembled. + +'Nelly, do you never dream queer dreams?' she said, suddenly, after some +minutes' reflection. + +'Yes, now and then,' I answered. + +'And so do I. I've dreamt in my life dreams that have stayed with me +ever after, and changed my ideas: they've gone through and through me, +like wine through water, and altered the colour of my mind. And this is +one: I'm going to tell it--but take care not to smile at any part of it.' + +'Oh! don't, Miss Catherine!' I cried. 'We're dismal enough without +conjuring up ghosts and visions to perplex us. Come, come, be merry and +like yourself! Look at little Hareton! _he's_ dreaming nothing dreary. +How sweetly he smiles in his sleep!' + +'Yes; and how sweetly his father curses in his solitude! You remember +him, I daresay, when he was just such another as that chubby thing: +nearly as young and innocent. However, Nelly, I shall oblige you to +listen: it's not long; and I've no power to be merry to-night.' + +'I won't hear it, I won't hear it!' I repeated, hastily. + +I was superstitious about dreams then, and am still; and Catherine had an +unusual gloom in her aspect, that made me dread something from which I +might shape a prophecy, and foresee a fearful catastrophe. She was +vexed, but she did not proceed. Apparently taking up another subject, +she recommenced in a short time. + +'If I were in heaven, Nelly, I should be extremely miserable.' + +'Because you are not fit to go there,' I answered. 'All sinners would be +miserable in heaven.' + +'But it is not for that. I dreamt once that I was there.' + +'I tell you I won't hearken to your dreams, Miss Catherine! I'll go to +bed,' I interrupted again. + +She laughed, and held me down; for I made a motion to leave my chair. + +'This is nothing,' cried she: 'I was only going to say that heaven did +not seem to be my home; and I broke my heart with weeping to come back to +earth; and the angels were so angry that they flung me out into the +middle of the heath on the top of Wuthering Heights; where I woke sobbing +for joy. That will do to explain my secret, as well as the other. I've +no more business to marry Edgar Linton than I have to be in heaven; and +if the wicked man in there had not brought Heathcliff so low, I shouldn't +have thought of it. It would degrade me to marry Heathcliff now; so he +shall never know how I love him: and that, not because he's handsome, +Nelly, but because he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are +made of, his and mine are the same; and Linton's is as different as a +moonbeam from lightning, or frost from fire.' + +Ere this speech ended I became sensible of Heathcliff's presence. Having +noticed a slight movement, I turned my head, and saw him rise from the +bench, and steal out noiselessly. He had listened till he heard +Catherine say it would degrade her to marry him, and then he stayed to +hear no further. My companion, sitting on the ground, was prevented by +the back of the settle from remarking his presence or departure; but I +started, and bade her hush! + +'Why?' she asked, gazing nervously round. + +'Joseph is here,' I answered, catching opportunely the roll of his +cartwheels up the road; 'and Heathcliff will come in with him. I'm not +sure whether he were not at the door this moment.' + +'Oh, he couldn't overhear me at the door!' said she. 'Give me Hareton, +while you get the supper, and when it is ready ask me to sup with you. I +want to cheat my uncomfortable conscience, and be convinced that +Heathcliff has no notion of these things. He has not, has he? He does +not know what being in love is!' + +'I see no reason that he should not know, as well as you,' I returned; +'and if you are his choice, he'll be the most unfortunate creature that +ever was born! As soon as you become Mrs. Linton, he loses friend, and +love, and all! Have you considered how you'll bear the separation, and +how he'll bear to be quite deserted in the world? Because, Miss +Catherine--' + +'He quite deserted! we separated!' she exclaimed, with an accent of +indignation. 'Who is to separate us, pray? They'll meet the fate of +Milo! Not as long as I live, Ellen: for no mortal creature. Every +Linton on the face of the earth might melt into nothing before I could +consent to forsake Heathcliff. Oh, that's not what I intend--that's not +what I mean! I shouldn't be Mrs. Linton were such a price demanded! +He'll be as much to me as he has been all his lifetime. Edgar must shake +off his antipathy, and tolerate him, at least. He will, when he learns +my true feelings towards him. Nelly, I see now you think me a selfish +wretch; but did it never strike you that if Heathcliff and I married, we +should be beggars? whereas, if I marry Linton I can aid Heathcliff to +rise, and place him out of my brother's power.' + +'With your husband's money, Miss Catherine?' I asked. 'You'll find him +not so pliable as you calculate upon: and, though I'm hardly a judge, I +think that's the worst motive you've given yet for being the wife of +young Linton.' + +'It is not,' retorted she; 'it is the best! The others were the +satisfaction of my whims: and for Edgar's sake, too, to satisfy him. This +is for the sake of one who comprehends in his person my feelings to Edgar +and myself. I cannot express it; but surely you and everybody have a +notion that there is or should be an existence of yours beyond you. What +were the use of my creation, if I were entirely contained here? My great +miseries in this world have been Heathcliff's miseries, and I watched and +felt each from the beginning: my great thought in living is himself. If +all else perished, and _he_ remained, _I_ should still continue to be; +and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would +turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it.--My love for +Linton is like the foliage in the woods: time will change it, I'm well +aware, as winter changes the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles the +eternal rocks beneath: a source of little visible delight, but necessary. +Nelly, I _am_ Heathcliff! He's always, always in my mind: not as a +pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own +being. So don't talk of our separation again: it is impracticable; and--' + +She paused, and hid her face in the folds of my gown; but I jerked it +forcibly away. I was out of patience with her folly! + +'If I can make any sense of your nonsense, Miss,' I said, 'it only goes +to convince me that you are ignorant of the duties you undertake in +marrying; or else that you are a wicked, unprincipled girl. But trouble +me with no more secrets: I'll not promise to keep them.' + +'You'll keep that?' she asked, eagerly. + +'No, I'll not promise,' I repeated. + +She was about to insist, when the entrance of Joseph finished our +conversation; and Catherine removed her seat to a corner, and nursed +Hareton, while I made the supper. After it was cooked, my fellow-servant +and I began to quarrel who should carry some to Mr. Hindley; and we +didn't settle it till all was nearly cold. Then we came to the agreement +that we would let him ask, if he wanted any; for we feared particularly +to go into his presence when he had been some time alone. + +'And how isn't that nowt comed in fro' th' field, be this time? What is +he about? girt idle seeght!' demanded the old man, looking round for +Heathcliff. + +'I'll call him,' I replied. 'He's in the barn, I've no doubt.' + +I went and called, but got no answer. On returning, I whispered to +Catherine that he had heard a good part of what she said, I was sure; and +told how I saw him quit the kitchen just as she complained of her +brother's conduct regarding him. She jumped up in a fine fright, flung +Hareton on to the settle, and ran to seek for her friend herself; not +taking leisure to consider why she was so flurried, or how her talk would +have affected him. She was absent such a while that Joseph proposed we +should wait no longer. He cunningly conjectured they were staying away +in order to avoid hearing his protracted blessing. They were 'ill eneugh +for ony fahl manners,' he affirmed. And on their behalf he added that +night a special prayer to the usual quarter-of-an-hour's supplication +before meat, and would have tacked another to the end of the grace, had +not his young mistress broken in upon him with a hurried command that he +must run down the road, and, wherever Heathcliff had rambled, find and +make him re-enter directly! + +'I want to speak to him, and I _must_, before I go upstairs,' she said. +'And the gate is open: he is somewhere out of hearing; for he would not +reply, though I shouted at the top of the fold as loud as I could.' + +Joseph objected at first; she was too much in earnest, however, to suffer +contradiction; and at last he placed his hat on his head, and walked +grumbling forth. Meantime, Catherine paced up and down the floor, +exclaiming--'I wonder where he is--I wonder where he can be! What did I +say, Nelly? I've forgotten. Was he vexed at my bad humour this +afternoon? Dear! tell me what I've said to grieve him? I do wish he'd +come. I do wish he would!' + +'What a noise for nothing!' I cried, though rather uneasy myself. 'What +a trifle scares you! It's surely no great cause of alarm that Heathcliff +should take a moonlight saunter on the moors, or even lie too sulky to +speak to us in the hay-loft. I'll engage he's lurking there. See if I +don't ferret him out!' + +I departed to renew my search; its result was disappointment, and +Joseph's quest ended in the same. + +'Yon lad gets war und war!' observed he on re-entering. 'He's left th' +gate at t' full swing, and Miss's pony has trodden dahn two rigs o' corn, +and plottered through, raight o'er into t' meadow! Hahsomdiver, t' +maister 'ull play t' devil to-morn, and he'll do weel. He's patience +itsseln wi' sich careless, offald craters--patience itsseln he is! Bud +he'll not be soa allus--yah's see, all on ye! Yah mun'n't drive him out +of his heead for nowt!' + +'Have you found Heathcliff, you ass?' interrupted Catherine. 'Have you +been looking for him, as I ordered?' + +'I sud more likker look for th' horse,' he replied. 'It 'ud be to more +sense. Bud I can look for norther horse nur man of a neeght loike +this--as black as t' chimbley! und Heathcliff's noan t' chap to coom at +_my_ whistle--happen he'll be less hard o' hearing wi' _ye_!' + +It _was_ a very dark evening for summer: the clouds appeared inclined to +thunder, and I said we had better all sit down; the approaching rain +would be certain to bring him home without further trouble. However, +Catherine would not be persuaded into tranquillity. She kept wandering +to and fro, from the gate to the door, in a state of agitation which +permitted no repose; and at length took up a permanent situation on one +side of the wall, near the road: where, heedless of my expostulations and +the growling thunder, and the great drops that began to plash around her, +she remained, calling at intervals, and then listening, and then crying +outright. She beat Hareton, or any child, at a good passionate fit of +crying. + +About midnight, while we still sat up, the storm came rattling over the +Heights in full fury. There was a violent wind, as well as thunder, and +either one or the other split a tree off at the corner of the building: a +huge bough fell across the roof, and knocked down a portion of the east +chimney-stack, sending a clatter of stones and soot into the +kitchen-fire. We thought a bolt had fallen in the middle of us; and +Joseph swung on to his knees, beseeching the Lord to remember the +patriarchs Noah and Lot, and, as in former times, spare the righteous, +though he smote the ungodly. I felt some sentiment that it must be a +judgment on us also. The Jonah, in my mind, was Mr. Earnshaw; and I +shook the handle of his den that I might ascertain if he were yet living. +He replied audibly enough, in a fashion which made my companion +vociferate, more clamorously than before, that a wide distinction might +be drawn between saints like himself and sinners like his master. But +the uproar passed away in twenty minutes, leaving us all unharmed; +excepting Cathy, who got thoroughly drenched for her obstinacy in +refusing to take shelter, and standing bonnetless and shawlless to catch +as much water as she could with her hair and clothes. She came in and +lay down on the settle, all soaked as she was, turning her face to the +back, and putting her hands before it. + +'Well, Miss!' I exclaimed, touching her shoulder; 'you are not bent on +getting your death, are you? Do you know what o'clock it is? Half-past +twelve. Come, come to bed! there's no use waiting any longer on that +foolish boy: he'll be gone to Gimmerton, and he'll stay there now. He +guesses we shouldn't wait for him till this late hour: at least, he +guesses that only Mr. Hindley would be up; and he'd rather avoid having +the door opened by the master.' + +'Nay, nay, he's noan at Gimmerton,' said Joseph. 'I's niver wonder but +he's at t' bothom of a bog-hoile. This visitation worn't for nowt, and I +wod hev' ye to look out, Miss--yah muh be t' next. Thank Hivin for all! +All warks togither for gooid to them as is chozzen, and piked out fro' +th' rubbidge! Yah knaw whet t' Scripture ses.' And he began quoting +several texts, referring us to chapters and verses where we might find +them. + +I, having vainly begged the wilful girl to rise and remove her wet +things, left him preaching and her shivering, and betook myself to bed +with little Hareton, who slept as fast as if everyone had been sleeping +round him. I heard Joseph read on a while afterwards; then I +distinguished his slow step on the ladder, and then I dropped asleep. + +Coming down somewhat later than usual, I saw, by the sunbeams piercing +the chinks of the shutters, Miss Catherine still seated near the +fireplace. The house-door was ajar, too; light entered from its unclosed +windows; Hindley had come out, and stood on the kitchen hearth, haggard +and drowsy. + +'What ails you, Cathy?' he was saying when I entered: 'you look as dismal +as a drowned whelp. Why are you so damp and pale, child?' + +'I've been wet,' she answered reluctantly, 'and I'm cold, that's all.' + +'Oh, she is naughty!' I cried, perceiving the master to be tolerably +sober. 'She got steeped in the shower of yesterday evening, and there +she has sat the night through, and I couldn't prevail on her to stir.' + +Mr. Earnshaw stared at us in surprise. 'The night through,' he repeated. +'What kept her up? not fear of the thunder, surely? That was over hours +since.' + +Neither of us wished to mention Heathcliff's absence, as long as we could +conceal it; so I replied, I didn't know how she took it into her head to +sit up; and she said nothing. The morning was fresh and cool; I threw +back the lattice, and presently the room filled with sweet scents from +the garden; but Catherine called peevishly to me, 'Ellen, shut the +window. I'm starving!' And her teeth chattered as she shrank closer to +the almost extinguished embers. + +'She's ill,' said Hindley, taking her wrist; 'I suppose that's the reason +she would not go to bed. Damn it! I don't want to be troubled with more +sickness here. What took you into the rain?' + +'Running after t' lads, as usuald!' croaked Joseph, catching an +opportunity from our hesitation to thrust in his evil tongue. 'If I war +yah, maister, I'd just slam t' boards i' their faces all on 'em, gentle +and simple! Never a day ut yah're off, but yon cat o' Linton comes +sneaking hither; and Miss Nelly, shoo's a fine lass! shoo sits watching +for ye i' t' kitchen; and as yah're in at one door, he's out at t'other; +and, then, wer grand lady goes a-courting of her side! It's bonny +behaviour, lurking amang t' fields, after twelve o' t' night, wi' that +fahl, flaysome divil of a gipsy, Heathcliff! They think _I'm_ blind; but +I'm noan: nowt ut t' soart!--I seed young Linton boath coming and going, +and I seed _yah_' (directing his discourse to me), 'yah gooid fur nowt, +slattenly witch! nip up and bolt into th' house, t' minute yah heard t' +maister's horse-fit clatter up t' road.' + +'Silence, eavesdropper!' cried Catherine; 'none of your insolence before +me! Edgar Linton came yesterday by chance, Hindley; and it was _I_ who +told him to be off: because I knew you would not like to have met him as +you were.' + +'You lie, Cathy, no doubt,' answered her brother, 'and you are a +confounded simpleton! But never mind Linton at present: tell me, were +you not with Heathcliff last night? Speak the truth, now. You need not +be afraid of harming him: though I hate him as much as ever, he did me a +good turn a short time since that will make my conscience tender of +breaking his neck. To prevent it, I shall send him about his business +this very morning; and after he's gone, I'd advise you all to look sharp: +I shall only have the more humour for you.' + +'I never saw Heathcliff last night,' answered Catherine, beginning to sob +bitterly: 'and if you do turn him out of doors, I'll go with him. But, +perhaps, you'll never have an opportunity: perhaps, he's gone.' Here she +burst into uncontrollable grief, and the remainder of her words were +inarticulate. + +Hindley lavished on her a torrent of scornful abuse, and bade her get to +her room immediately, or she shouldn't cry for nothing! I obliged her to +obey; and I shall never forget what a scene she acted when we reached her +chamber: it terrified me. I thought she was going mad, and I begged +Joseph to run for the doctor. It proved the commencement of delirium: +Mr. Kenneth, as soon as he saw her, pronounced her dangerously ill; she +had a fever. He bled her, and he told me to let her live on whey and +water-gruel, and take care she did not throw herself downstairs or out of +the window; and then he left: for he had enough to do in the parish, +where two or three miles was the ordinary distance between cottage and +cottage. + +Though I cannot say I made a gentle nurse, and Joseph and the master were +no better, and though our patient was as wearisome and headstrong as a +patient could be, she weathered it through. Old Mrs. Linton paid us +several visits, to be sure, and set things to rights, and scolded and +ordered us all; and when Catherine was convalescent, she insisted on +conveying her to Thrushcross Grange: for which deliverance we were very +grateful. But the poor dame had reason to repent of her kindness: she +and her husband both took the fever, and died within a few days of each +other. + +Our young lady returned to us saucier and more passionate, and haughtier +than ever. Heathcliff had never been heard of since the evening of the +thunder-storm; and, one day, I had the misfortune, when she had provoked +me exceedingly, to lay the blame of his disappearance on her: where +indeed it belonged, as she well knew. From that period, for several +months, she ceased to hold any communication with me, save in the +relation of a mere servant. Joseph fell under a ban also: he would speak +his mind, and lecture her all the same as if she were a little girl; and +she esteemed herself a woman, and our mistress, and thought that her +recent illness gave her a claim to be treated with consideration. Then +the doctor had said that she would not bear crossing much; she ought to +have her own way; and it was nothing less than murder in her eyes for any +one to presume to stand up and contradict her. From Mr. Earnshaw and his +companions she kept aloof; and tutored by Kenneth, and serious threats of +a fit that often attended her rages, her brother allowed her whatever she +pleased to demand, and generally avoided aggravating her fiery temper. He +was rather too indulgent in humouring her caprices; not from affection, +but from pride: he wished earnestly to see her bring honour to the family +by an alliance with the Lintons, and as long as she let him alone she +might trample on us like slaves, for aught he cared! Edgar Linton, as +multitudes have been before and will be after him, was infatuated: and +believed himself the happiest man alive on the day he led her to +Gimmerton Chapel, three years subsequent to his father's death. + +Much against my inclination, I was persuaded to leave Wuthering Heights +and accompany her here. Little Hareton was nearly five years old, and I +had just begun to teach him his letters. We made a sad parting; but +Catherine's tears were more powerful than ours. When I refused to go, +and when she found her entreaties did not move me, she went lamenting to +her husband and brother. The former offered me munificent wages; the +latter ordered me to pack up: he wanted no women in the house, he said, +now that there was no mistress; and as to Hareton, the curate should take +him in hand, by-and-by. And so I had but one choice left: to do as I was +ordered. I told the master he got rid of all decent people only to run +to ruin a little faster; I kissed Hareton, said good-by; and since then +he has been a stranger: and it's very queer to think it, but I've no +doubt he has completely forgotten all about Ellen Dean, and that he was +ever more than all the world to her and she to him! + +* * * * * + +At this point of the housekeeper's story she chanced to glance towards +the time-piece over the chimney; and was in amazement on seeing the +minute-hand measure half-past one. She would not hear of staying a +second longer: in truth, I felt rather disposed to defer the sequel of +her narrative myself. And now that she is vanished to her rest, and I +have meditated for another hour or two, I shall summon courage to go +also, in spite of aching laziness of head and limbs. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +A charming introduction to a hermit's life! Four weeks' torture, +tossing, and sickness! Oh, these bleak winds and bitter northern skies, +and impassable roads, and dilatory country surgeons! And oh, this dearth +of the human physiognomy! and, worse than all, the terrible intimation of +Kenneth that I need not expect to be out of doors till spring! + +Mr. Heathcliff has just honoured me with a call. About seven days ago he +sent me a brace of grouse--the last of the season. Scoundrel! He is not +altogether guiltless in this illness of mine; and that I had a great mind +to tell him. But, alas! how could I offend a man who was charitable +enough to sit at my bedside a good hour, and talk on some other subject +than pills and draughts, blisters and leeches? This is quite an easy +interval. I am too weak to read; yet I feel as if I could enjoy +something interesting. Why not have up Mrs. Dean to finish her tale? I +can recollect its chief incidents, as far as she had gone. Yes: I +remember her hero had run off, and never been heard of for three years; +and the heroine was married. I'll ring: she'll be delighted to find me +capable of talking cheerfully. Mrs. Dean came. + +'It wants twenty minutes, sir, to taking the medicine,' she commenced. + +'Away, away with it!' I replied; 'I desire to have--' + +'The doctor says you must drop the powders.' + +'With all my heart! Don't interrupt me. Come and take your seat here. +Keep your fingers from that bitter phalanx of vials. Draw your knitting +out of your pocket--that will do--now continue the history of Mr. +Heathcliff, from where you left off, to the present day. Did he finish +his education on the Continent, and come back a gentleman? or did he get +a sizar's place at college, or escape to America, and earn honours by +drawing blood from his foster-country? or make a fortune more promptly on +the English highways?' + +'He may have done a little in all these vocations, Mr. Lockwood; but I +couldn't give my word for any. I stated before that I didn't know how he +gained his money; neither am I aware of the means he took to raise his +mind from the savage ignorance into which it was sunk: but, with your +leave, I'll proceed in my own fashion, if you think it will amuse and not +weary you. Are you feeling better this morning?' + +'Much.' + +'That's good news.' + +* * * * * + +I got Miss Catherine and myself to Thrushcross Grange; and, to my +agreeable disappointment, she behaved infinitely better than I dared to +expect. She seemed almost over-fond of Mr. Linton; and even to his +sister she showed plenty of affection. They were both very attentive to +her comfort, certainly. It was not the thorn bending to the +honeysuckles, but the honeysuckles embracing the thorn. There were no +mutual concessions: one stood erect, and the others yielded: and who can +be ill-natured and bad-tempered when they encounter neither opposition +nor indifference? I observed that Mr. Edgar had a deep-rooted fear of +ruffling her humour. He concealed it from her; but if ever he heard me +answer sharply, or saw any other servant grow cloudy at some imperious +order of hers, he would show his trouble by a frown of displeasure that +never darkened on his own account. He many a time spoke sternly to me +about my pertness; and averred that the stab of a knife could not inflict +a worse pang than he suffered at seeing his lady vexed. Not to grieve a +kind master, I learned to be less touchy; and, for the space of half a +year, the gunpowder lay as harmless as sand, because no fire came near to +explode it. Catherine had seasons of gloom and silence now and then: +they were respected with sympathising silence by her husband, who +ascribed them to an alteration in her constitution, produced by her +perilous illness; as she was never subject to depression of spirits +before. The return of sunshine was welcomed by answering sunshine from +him. I believe I may assert that they were really in possession of deep +and growing happiness. + +It ended. Well, we _must_ be for ourselves in the long run; the mild and +generous are only more justly selfish than the domineering; and it ended +when circumstances caused each to feel that the one's interest was not +the chief consideration in the other's thoughts. On a mellow evening in +September, I was coming from the garden with a heavy basket of apples +which I had been gathering. It had got dusk, and the moon looked over +the high wall of the court, causing undefined shadows to lurk in the +corners of the numerous projecting portions of the building. I set my +burden on the house-steps by the kitchen-door, and lingered to rest, and +drew in a few more breaths of the soft, sweet air; my eyes were on the +moon, and my back to the entrance, when I heard a voice behind me +say,--'Nelly, is that you?' + +It was a deep voice, and foreign in tone; yet there was something in the +manner of pronouncing my name which made it sound familiar. I turned +about to discover who spoke, fearfully; for the doors were shut, and I +had seen nobody on approaching the steps. Something stirred in the +porch; and, moving nearer, I distinguished a tall man dressed in dark +clothes, with dark face and hair. He leant against the side, and held +his fingers on the latch as if intending to open for himself. 'Who can +it be?' I thought. 'Mr. Earnshaw? Oh, no! The voice has no resemblance +to his.' + +'I have waited here an hour,' he resumed, while I continued staring; 'and +the whole of that time all round has been as still as death. I dared not +enter. You do not know me? Look, I'm not a stranger!' + +A ray fell on his features; the cheeks were sallow, and half covered with +black whiskers; the brows lowering, the eyes deep-set and singular. I +remembered the eyes. + +'What!' I cried, uncertain whether to regard him as a worldly visitor, +and I raised my hands in amazement. 'What! you come back? Is it really +you? Is it?' + +'Yes, Heathcliff,' he replied, glancing from me up to the windows, which +reflected a score of glittering moons, but showed no lights from within. +'Are they at home? where is she? Nelly, you are not glad! you needn't be +so disturbed. Is she here? Speak! I want to have one word with +her--your mistress. Go, and say some person from Gimmerton desires to +see her.' + +'How will she take it?' I exclaimed. 'What will she do? The surprise +bewilders me--it will put her out of her head! And you _are_ Heathcliff! +But altered! Nay, there's no comprehending it. Have you been for a +soldier?' + +'Go and carry my message,' he interrupted, impatiently. 'I'm in hell +till you do!' + +He lifted the latch, and I entered; but when I got to the parlour where +Mr. and Mrs. Linton were, I could not persuade myself to proceed. At +length I resolved on making an excuse to ask if they would have the +candles lighted, and I opened the door. + +They sat together in a window whose lattice lay back against the wall, +and displayed, beyond the garden trees, and the wild green park, the +valley of Gimmerton, with a long line of mist winding nearly to its top +(for very soon after you pass the chapel, as you may have noticed, the +sough that runs from the marshes joins a beck which follows the bend of +the glen). Wuthering Heights rose above this silvery vapour; but our old +house was invisible; it rather dips down on the other side. Both the +room and its occupants, and the scene they gazed on, looked wondrously +peaceful. I shrank reluctantly from performing my errand; and was +actually going away leaving it unsaid, after having put my question about +the candles, when a sense of my folly compelled me to return, and mutter, +'A person from Gimmerton wishes to see you ma'am.' + +'What does he want?' asked Mrs. Linton. + +'I did not question him,' I answered. + +'Well, close the curtains, Nelly,' she said; 'and bring up tea. I'll be +back again directly.' + +She quitted the apartment; Mr. Edgar inquired, carelessly, who it was. + +'Some one mistress does not expect,' I replied. 'That Heathcliff--you +recollect him, sir--who used to live at Mr. Earnshaw's.' + +'What! the gipsy--the ploughboy?' he cried. 'Why did you not say so to +Catherine?' + +'Hush! you must not call him by those names, master,' I said. 'She'd be +sadly grieved to hear you. She was nearly heartbroken when he ran off. I +guess his return will make a jubilee to her.' + +Mr. Linton walked to a window on the other side of the room that +overlooked the court. He unfastened it, and leant out. I suppose they +were below, for he exclaimed quickly: 'Don't stand there, love! Bring +the person in, if it be anyone particular.' Ere long, I heard the click +of the latch, and Catherine flew up-stairs, breathless and wild; too +excited to show gladness: indeed, by her face, you would rather have +surmised an awful calamity. + +'Oh, Edgar, Edgar!' she panted, flinging her arms round his neck. 'Oh, +Edgar darling! Heathcliff's come back--he is!' And she tightened her +embrace to a squeeze. + +'Well, well,' cried her husband, crossly, 'don't strangle me for that! He +never struck me as such a marvellous treasure. There is no need to be +frantic!' + +'I know you didn't like him,' she answered, repressing a little the +intensity of her delight. 'Yet, for my sake, you must be friends now. +Shall I tell him to come up?' + +'Here,' he said, 'into the parlour?' + +'Where else?' she asked. + +He looked vexed, and suggested the kitchen as a more suitable place for +him. Mrs. Linton eyed him with a droll expression--half angry, half +laughing at his fastidiousness. + +'No,' she added, after a while; 'I cannot sit in the kitchen. Set two +tables here, Ellen: one for your master and Miss Isabella, being gentry; +the other for Heathcliff and myself, being of the lower orders. Will +that please you, dear? Or must I have a fire lighted elsewhere? If so, +give directions. I'll run down and secure my guest. I'm afraid the joy +is too great to be real!' + +She was about to dart off again; but Edgar arrested her. + +'_You_ bid him step up,' he said, addressing me; 'and, Catherine, try to +be glad, without being absurd. The whole household need not witness the +sight of your welcoming a runaway servant as a brother.' + +I descended, and found Heathcliff waiting under the porch, evidently +anticipating an invitation to enter. He followed my guidance without +waste of words, and I ushered him into the presence of the master and +mistress, whose flushed cheeks betrayed signs of warm talking. But the +lady's glowed with another feeling when her friend appeared at the door: +she sprang forward, took both his hands, and led him to Linton; and then +she seized Linton's reluctant fingers and crushed them into his. Now, +fully revealed by the fire and candlelight, I was amazed, more than ever, +to behold the transformation of Heathcliff. He had grown a tall, +athletic, well-formed man; beside whom my master seemed quite slender and +youth-like. His upright carriage suggested the idea of his having been +in the army. His countenance was much older in expression and decision +of feature than Mr. Linton's; it looked intelligent, and retained no +marks of former degradation. A half-civilised ferocity lurked yet in the +depressed brows and eyes full of black fire, but it was subdued; and his +manner was even dignified: quite divested of roughness, though stern for +grace. My master's surprise equalled or exceeded mine: he remained for a +minute at a loss how to address the ploughboy, as he had called him. +Heathcliff dropped his slight hand, and stood looking at him coolly till +he chose to speak. + +'Sit down, sir,' he said, at length. 'Mrs. Linton, recalling old times, +would have me give you a cordial reception; and, of course, I am +gratified when anything occurs to please her.' + +'And I also,' answered Heathcliff, 'especially if it be anything in which +I have a part. I shall stay an hour or two willingly.' + +He took a seat opposite Catherine, who kept her gaze fixed on him as if +she feared he would vanish were she to remove it. He did not raise his +to her often: a quick glance now and then sufficed; but it flashed back, +each time more confidently, the undisguised delight he drank from hers. +They were too much absorbed in their mutual joy to suffer embarrassment. +Not so Mr. Edgar: he grew pale with pure annoyance: a feeling that +reached its climax when his lady rose, and stepping across the rug, +seized Heathcliff's hands again, and laughed like one beside herself. + +'I shall think it a dream to-morrow!' she cried. 'I shall not be able to +believe that I have seen, and touched, and spoken to you once more. And +yet, cruel Heathcliff! you don't deserve this welcome. To be absent and +silent for three years, and never to think of me!' + +'A little more than you have thought of me,' he murmured. 'I heard of +your marriage, Cathy, not long since; and, while waiting in the yard +below, I meditated this plan--just to have one glimpse of your face, a +stare of surprise, perhaps, and pretended pleasure; afterwards settle my +score with Hindley; and then prevent the law by doing execution on +myself. Your welcome has put these ideas out of my mind; but beware of +meeting me with another aspect next time! Nay, you'll not drive me off +again. You were really sorry for me, were you? Well, there was cause. +I've fought through a bitter life since I last heard your voice; and you +must forgive me, for I struggled only for you!' + +'Catherine, unless we are to have cold tea, please to come to the table,' +interrupted Linton, striving to preserve his ordinary tone, and a due +measure of politeness. 'Mr. Heathcliff will have a long walk, wherever +he may lodge to-night; and I'm thirsty.' + +She took her post before the urn; and Miss Isabella came, summoned by the +bell; then, having handed their chairs forward, I left the room. The +meal hardly endured ten minutes. Catherine's cup was never filled: she +could neither eat nor drink. Edgar had made a slop in his saucer, and +scarcely swallowed a mouthful. Their guest did not protract his stay +that evening above an hour longer. I asked, as he departed, if he went +to Gimmerton? + +'No, to Wuthering Heights,' he answered: 'Mr. Earnshaw invited me, when I +called this morning.' + +Mr. Earnshaw invited _him_! and _he_ called on Mr. Earnshaw! I pondered +this sentence painfully, after he was gone. Is he turning out a bit of a +hypocrite, and coming into the country to work mischief under a cloak? I +mused: I had a presentiment in the bottom of my heart that he had better +have remained away. + +About the middle of the night, I was wakened from my first nap by Mrs. +Linton gliding into my chamber, taking a seat on my bedside, and pulling +me by the hair to rouse me. + +'I cannot rest, Ellen,' she said, by way of apology. 'And I want some +living creature to keep me company in my happiness! Edgar is sulky, +because I'm glad of a thing that does not interest him: he refuses to +open his mouth, except to utter pettish, silly speeches; and he affirmed +I was cruel and selfish for wishing to talk when he was so sick and +sleepy. He always contrives to be sick at the least cross! I gave a few +sentences of commendation to Heathcliff, and he, either for a headache or +a pang of envy, began to cry: so I got up and left him.' + +'What use is it praising Heathcliff to him?' I answered. 'As lads they +had an aversion to each other, and Heathcliff would hate just as much to +hear him praised: it's human nature. Let Mr. Linton alone about him, +unless you would like an open quarrel between them.' + +'But does it not show great weakness?' pursued she. 'I'm not envious: I +never feel hurt at the brightness of Isabella's yellow hair and the +whiteness of her skin, at her dainty elegance, and the fondness all the +family exhibit for her. Even you, Nelly, if we have a dispute sometimes, +you back Isabella at once; and I yield like a foolish mother: I call her +a darling, and flatter her into a good temper. It pleases her brother to +see us cordial, and that pleases me. But they are very much alike: they +are spoiled children, and fancy the world was made for their +accommodation; and though I humour both, I think a smart chastisement +might improve them all the same.' + +'You're mistaken, Mrs. Linton,' said I. 'They humour you: I know what +there would be to do if they did not. You can well afford to indulge +their passing whims as long as their business is to anticipate all your +desires. You may, however, fall out, at last, over something of equal +consequence to both sides; and then those you term weak are very capable +of being as obstinate as you.' + +'And then we shall fight to the death, sha'n't we, Nelly?' she returned, +laughing. 'No! I tell you, I have such faith in Linton's love, that I +believe I might kill him, and he wouldn't wish to retaliate.' + +I advised her to value him the more for his affection. + +'I do,' she answered, 'but he needn't resort to whining for trifles. It +is childish and, instead of melting into tears because I said that +Heathcliff was now worthy of anyone's regard, and it would honour the +first gentleman in the country to be his friend, he ought to have said it +for me, and been delighted from sympathy. He must get accustomed to him, +and he may as well like him: considering how Heathcliff has reason to +object to him, I'm sure he behaved excellently!' + +'What do you think of his going to Wuthering Heights?' I inquired. 'He +is reformed in every respect, apparently: quite a Christian: offering the +right hand of fellowship to his enemies all around!' + +'He explained it,' she replied. 'I wonder as much as you. He said he +called to gather information concerning me from you, supposing you +resided there still; and Joseph told Hindley, who came out and fell to +questioning him of what he had been doing, and how he had been living; +and finally, desired him to walk in. There were some persons sitting at +cards; Heathcliff joined them; my brother lost some money to him, and, +finding him plentifully supplied, he requested that he would come again +in the evening: to which he consented. Hindley is too reckless to select +his acquaintance prudently: he doesn't trouble himself to reflect on the +causes he might have for mistrusting one whom he has basely injured. But +Heathcliff affirms his principal reason for resuming a connection with +his ancient persecutor is a wish to install himself in quarters at walking +distance from the Grange, and an attachment to the house where we lived +together; and likewise a hope that I shall have more opportunities of +seeing him there than I could have if he settled in Gimmerton. He means +to offer liberal payment for permission to lodge at the Heights; and +doubtless my brother's covetousness will prompt him to accept the terms: +he was always greedy; though what he grasps with one hand he flings away +with the other.' + +'It's a nice place for a young man to fix his dwelling in!' said I. 'Have +you no fear of the consequences, Mrs. Linton?' + +'None for my friend,' she replied: 'his strong head will keep him from +danger; a little for Hindley: but he can't be made morally worse than he +is; and I stand between him and bodily harm. The event of this evening +has reconciled me to God and humanity! I had risen in angry rebellion +against Providence. Oh, I've endured very, very bitter misery, Nelly! If +that creature knew how bitter, he'd be ashamed to cloud its removal with +idle petulance. It was kindness for him which induced me to bear it +alone: had I expressed the agony I frequently felt, he would have been +taught to long for its alleviation as ardently as I. However, it's over, +and I'll take no revenge on his folly; I can afford to suffer anything +hereafter! Should the meanest thing alive slap me on the cheek, I'd not +only turn the other, but I'd ask pardon for provoking it; and, as a +proof, I'll go make my peace with Edgar instantly. Good-night! I'm an +angel!' + +In this self-complacent conviction she departed; and the success of her +fulfilled resolution was obvious on the morrow: Mr. Linton had not only +abjured his peevishness (though his spirits seemed still subdued by +Catherine's exuberance of vivacity), but he ventured no objection to her +taking Isabella with her to Wuthering Heights in the afternoon; and she +rewarded him with such a summer of sweetness and affection in return as +made the house a paradise for several days; both master and servants +profiting from the perpetual sunshine. + +Heathcliff--Mr. Heathcliff I should say in future--used the liberty of +visiting at Thrushcross Grange cautiously, at first: he seemed estimating +how far its owner would bear his intrusion. Catherine, also, deemed it +judicious to moderate her expressions of pleasure in receiving him; and +he gradually established his right to be expected. He retained a great +deal of the reserve for which his boyhood was remarkable; and that served +to repress all startling demonstrations of feeling. My master's +uneasiness experienced a lull, and further circumstances diverted it into +another channel for a space. + +His new source of trouble sprang from the not anticipated misfortune of +Isabella Linton evincing a sudden and irresistible attraction towards the +tolerated guest. She was at that time a charming young lady of eighteen; +infantile in manners, though possessed of keen wit, keen feelings, and a +keen temper, too, if irritated. Her brother, who loved her tenderly, was +appalled at this fantastic preference. Leaving aside the degradation of +an alliance with a nameless man, and the possible fact that his property, +in default of heirs male, might pass into such a one's power, he had +sense to comprehend Heathcliff's disposition: to know that, though his +exterior was altered, his mind was unchangeable and unchanged. And he +dreaded that mind: it revolted him: he shrank forebodingly from the idea +of committing Isabella to its keeping. He would have recoiled still more +had he been aware that her attachment rose unsolicited, and was bestowed +where it awakened no reciprocation of sentiment; for the minute he +discovered its existence he laid the blame on Heathcliff's deliberate +designing. + +We had all remarked, during some time, that Miss Linton fretted and pined +over something. She grew cross and wearisome; snapping at and teasing +Catherine continually, at the imminent risk of exhausting her limited +patience. We excused her, to a certain extent, on the plea of +ill-health: she was dwindling and fading before our eyes. But one day, +when she had been peculiarly wayward, rejecting her breakfast, +complaining that the servants did not do what she told them; that the +mistress would allow her to be nothing in the house, and Edgar neglected +her; that she had caught a cold with the doors being left open, and we +let the parlour fire go out on purpose to vex her, with a hundred yet +more frivolous accusations, Mrs. Linton peremptorily insisted that she +should get to bed; and, having scolded her heartily, threatened to send +for the doctor. Mention of Kenneth caused her to exclaim, instantly, +that her health was perfect, and it was only Catherine's harshness which +made her unhappy. + +'How can you say I am harsh, you naughty fondling?' cried the mistress, +amazed at the unreasonable assertion. 'You are surely losing your +reason. When have I been harsh, tell me?' + +'Yesterday,' sobbed Isabella, 'and now!' + +'Yesterday!' said her sister-in-law. 'On what occasion?' + +'In our walk along the moor: you told me to ramble where I pleased, while +you sauntered on with Mr. Heathcliff!' + +'And that's your notion of harshness?' said Catherine, laughing. 'It was +no hint that your company was superfluous? We didn't care whether you +kept with us or not; I merely thought Heathcliff's talk would have +nothing entertaining for your ears.' + +'Oh, no,' wept the young lady; 'you wished me away, because you knew I +liked to be there!' + +'Is she sane?' asked Mrs. Linton, appealing to me. 'I'll repeat our +conversation, word for word, Isabella; and you point out any charm it +could have had for you.' + +'I don't mind the conversation,' she answered: 'I wanted to be with--' + +'Well?' said Catherine, perceiving her hesitate to complete the sentence. + +'With him: and I won't be always sent off!' she continued, kindling up. +'You are a dog in the manger, Cathy, and desire no one to be loved but +yourself!' + +'You are an impertinent little monkey!' exclaimed Mrs. Linton, in +surprise. 'But I'll not believe this idiotcy! It is impossible that you +can covet the admiration of Heathcliff--that you consider him an +agreeable person! I hope I have misunderstood you, Isabella?' + +'No, you have not,' said the infatuated girl. 'I love him more than ever +you loved Edgar, and he might love me, if you would let him!' + +'I wouldn't be you for a kingdom, then!' Catherine declared, +emphatically: and she seemed to speak sincerely. 'Nelly, help me to +convince her of her madness. Tell her what Heathcliff is: an unreclaimed +creature, without refinement, without cultivation; an arid wilderness of +furze and whinstone. I'd as soon put that little canary into the park on +a winter's day, as recommend you to bestow your heart on him! It is +deplorable ignorance of his character, child, and nothing else, which +makes that dream enter your head. Pray, don't imagine that he conceals +depths of benevolence and affection beneath a stern exterior! He's not a +rough diamond--a pearl-containing oyster of a rustic: he's a fierce, +pitiless, wolfish man. I never say to him, "Let this or that enemy +alone, because it would be ungenerous or cruel to harm them;" I say, "Let +them alone, because _I_ should hate them to be wronged:" and he'd crush +you like a sparrow's egg, Isabella, if he found you a troublesome charge. +I know he couldn't love a Linton; and yet he'd be quite capable of +marrying your fortune and expectations: avarice is growing with him a +besetting sin. There's my picture: and I'm his friend--so much so, that +had he thought seriously to catch you, I should, perhaps, have held my +tongue, and let you fall into his trap.' + +Miss Linton regarded her sister-in-law with indignation. + +'For shame! for shame!' she repeated, angrily. 'You are worse than +twenty foes, you poisonous friend!' + +'Ah! you won't believe me, then?' said Catherine. 'You think I speak +from wicked selfishness?' + +'I'm certain you do,' retorted Isabella; 'and I shudder at you!' + +'Good!' cried the other. 'Try for yourself, if that be your spirit: I +have done, and yield the argument to your saucy insolence.'-- + +'And I must suffer for her egotism!' she sobbed, as Mrs. Linton left the +room. 'All, all is against me: she has blighted my single consolation. +But she uttered falsehoods, didn't she? Mr. Heathcliff is not a fiend: +he has an honourable soul, and a true one, or how could he remember her?' + +'Banish him from your thoughts, Miss,' I said. 'He's a bird of bad omen: +no mate for you. Mrs. Linton spoke strongly, and yet I can't contradict +her. She is better acquainted with his heart than I, or any one besides; +and she never would represent him as worse than he is. Honest people +don't hide their deeds. How has he been living? how has he got rich? why +is he staying at Wuthering Heights, the house of a man whom he abhors? +They say Mr. Earnshaw is worse and worse since he came. They sit up all +night together continually, and Hindley has been borrowing money on his +land, and does nothing but play and drink: I heard only a week ago--it +was Joseph who told me--I met him at Gimmerton: "Nelly," he said, "we's +hae a crowner's 'quest enow, at ahr folks'. One on 'em 's a'most getten +his finger cut off wi' hauding t' other fro' stickin' hisseln loike a +cawlf. That's maister, yeah knaw, 'at 's soa up o' going tuh t' grand +'sizes. He's noan feared o' t' bench o' judges, norther Paul, nur Peter, +nur John, nur Matthew, nor noan on 'em, not he! He fair likes--he langs +to set his brazened face agean 'em! And yon bonny lad Heathcliff, yah +mind, he's a rare 'un. He can girn a laugh as well 's onybody at a +raight divil's jest. Does he niver say nowt of his fine living amang us, +when he goes to t' Grange? This is t' way on 't:--up at sun-down: dice, +brandy, cloised shutters, und can'le-light till next day at noon: then, +t'fooil gangs banning und raving to his cham'er, makking dacent fowks dig +thur fingers i' thur lugs fur varry shame; un' the knave, why he can +caint his brass, un' ate, un' sleep, un' off to his neighbour's to gossip +wi' t' wife. I' course, he tells Dame Catherine how her fathur's goold +runs into his pocket, and her fathur's son gallops down t' broad road, +while he flees afore to oppen t' pikes!" Now, Miss Linton, Joseph is an +old rascal, but no liar; and, if his account of Heathcliff's conduct be +true, you would never think of desiring such a husband, would you?' + +'You are leagued with the rest, Ellen!' she replied. 'I'll not listen to +your slanders. What malevolence you must have to wish to convince me +that there is no happiness in the world!' + +Whether she would have got over this fancy if left to herself, or +persevered in nursing it perpetually, I cannot say: she had little time +to reflect. The day after, there was a justice-meeting at the next town; +my master was obliged to attend; and Mr. Heathcliff, aware of his +absence, called rather earlier than usual. Catherine and Isabella were +sitting in the library, on hostile terms, but silent: the latter alarmed +at her recent indiscretion, and the disclosure she had made of her secret +feelings in a transient fit of passion; the former, on mature +consideration, really offended with her companion; and, if she laughed +again at her pertness, inclined to make it no laughing matter to her. She +did laugh as she saw Heathcliff pass the window. I was sweeping the +hearth, and I noticed a mischievous smile on her lips. Isabella, +absorbed in her meditations, or a book, remained till the door opened; +and it was too late to attempt an escape, which she would gladly have +done had it been practicable. + +'Come in, that's right!' exclaimed the mistress, gaily, pulling a chair +to the fire. 'Here are two people sadly in need of a third to thaw the +ice between them; and you are the very one we should both of us choose. +Heathcliff, I'm proud to show you, at last, somebody that dotes on you +more than myself. I expect you to feel flattered. Nay, it's not Nelly; +don't look at her! My poor little sister-in-law is breaking her heart by +mere contemplation of your physical and moral beauty. It lies in your +own power to be Edgar's brother! No, no, Isabella, you sha'n't run off,' +she continued, arresting, with feigned playfulness, the confounded girl, +who had risen indignantly. 'We were quarrelling like cats about you, +Heathcliff; and I was fairly beaten in protestations of devotion and +admiration: and, moreover, I was informed that if I would but have the +manners to stand aside, my rival, as she will have herself to be, would +shoot a shaft into your soul that would fix you for ever, and send my +image into eternal oblivion!' + +'Catherine!' said Isabella, calling up her dignity, and disdaining to +struggle from the tight grasp that held her, 'I'd thank you to adhere to +the truth and not slander me, even in joke! Mr. Heathcliff, be kind +enough to bid this friend of yours release me: she forgets that you and I +are not intimate acquaintances; and what amuses her is painful to me +beyond expression.' + +As the guest answered nothing, but took his seat, and looked thoroughly +indifferent what sentiments she cherished concerning him, she turned and +whispered an earnest appeal for liberty to her tormentor. + +'By no means!' cried Mrs. Linton in answer. 'I won't be named a dog in +the manger again. You _shall_ stay: now then! Heathcliff, why don't you +evince satisfaction at my pleasant news? Isabella swears that the love +Edgar has for me is nothing to that she entertains for you. I'm sure she +made some speech of the kind; did she not, Ellen? And she has fasted +ever since the day before yesterday's walk, from sorrow and rage that I +despatched her out of your society under the idea of its being +unacceptable.' + +'I think you belie her,' said Heathcliff, twisting his chair to face +them. 'She wishes to be out of my society now, at any rate!' + +And he stared hard at the object of discourse, as one might do at a +strange repulsive animal: a centipede from the Indies, for instance, +which curiosity leads one to examine in spite of the aversion it raises. +The poor thing couldn't bear that; she grew white and red in rapid +succession, and, while tears beaded her lashes, bent the strength of her +small fingers to loosen the firm clutch of Catherine; and perceiving that +as fast as she raised one finger off her arm another closed down, and she +could not remove the whole together, she began to make use of her nails; +and their sharpness presently ornamented the detainer's with crescents of +red. + +'There's a tigress!' exclaimed Mrs. Linton, setting her free, and shaking +her hand with pain. 'Begone, for God's sake, and hide your vixen face! +How foolish to reveal those talons to him. Can't you fancy the +conclusions he'll draw? Look, Heathcliff! they are instruments that will +do execution--you must beware of your eyes.' + +'I'd wrench them off her fingers, if they ever menaced me,' he answered, +brutally, when the door had closed after her. 'But what did you mean by +teasing the creature in that manner, Cathy? You were not speaking the +truth, were you?' + +'I assure you I was,' she returned. 'She has been dying for your sake +several weeks, and raving about you this morning, and pouring forth a +deluge of abuse, because I represented your failings in a plain light, +for the purpose of mitigating her adoration. But don't notice it +further: I wished to punish her sauciness, that's all. I like her too +well, my dear Heathcliff, to let you absolutely seize and devour her up.' + +'And I like her too ill to attempt it,' said he, 'except in a very +ghoulish fashion. You'd hear of odd things if I lived alone with that +mawkish, waxen face: the most ordinary would be painting on its white the +colours of the rainbow, and turning the blue eyes black, every day or +two: they detestably resemble Linton's.' + +'Delectably!' observed Catherine. 'They are dove's eyes--angel's!' + +'She's her brother's heir, is she not?' he asked, after a brief silence. + +'I should be sorry to think so,' returned his companion. 'Half a dozen +nephews shall erase her title, please heaven! Abstract your mind from +the subject at present: you are too prone to covet your neighbour's +goods; remember _this_ neighbour's goods are mine.' + +'If they were _mine_, they would be none the less that,' said Heathcliff; +'but though Isabella Linton may be silly, she is scarcely mad; and, in +short, we'll dismiss the matter, as you advise.' + +From their tongues they did dismiss it; and Catherine, probably, from her +thoughts. The other, I felt certain, recalled it often in the course of +the evening. I saw him smile to himself--grin rather--and lapse into +ominous musing whenever Mrs. Linton had occasion to be absent from the +apartment. + +I determined to watch his movements. My heart invariably cleaved to the +master's, in preference to Catherine's side: with reason I imagined, for +he was kind, and trustful, and honourable; and she--she could not be +called _opposite_, yet she seemed to allow herself such wide latitude, +that I had little faith in her principles, and still less sympathy for +her feelings. I wanted something to happen which might have the effect +of freeing both Wuthering Heights and the Grange of Mr. Heathcliff +quietly; leaving us as we had been prior to his advent. His visits were +a continual nightmare to me; and, I suspected, to my master also. His +abode at the Heights was an oppression past explaining. I felt that God +had forsaken the stray sheep there to its own wicked wanderings, and an +evil beast prowled between it and the fold, waiting his time to spring +and destroy. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +Sometimes, while meditating on these things in solitude, I've got up in a +sudden terror, and put on my bonnet to go see how all was at the farm. +I've persuaded my conscience that it was a duty to warn him how people +talked regarding his ways; and then I've recollected his confirmed bad +habits, and, hopeless of benefiting him, have flinched from re-entering +the dismal house, doubting if I could bear to be taken at my word. + +One time I passed the old gate, going out of my way, on a journey to +Gimmerton. It was about the period that my narrative has reached: a +bright frosty afternoon; the ground bare, and the road hard and dry. I +came to a stone where the highway branches off on to the moor at your +left hand; a rough sand-pillar, with the letters W. H. cut on its north +side, on the east, G., and on the south-west, T. G. It serves as a +guide-post to the Grange, the Heights, and village. The sun shone yellow +on its grey head, reminding me of summer; and I cannot say why, but all +at once a gush of child's sensations flowed into my heart. Hindley and I +held it a favourite spot twenty years before. I gazed long at the +weather-worn block; and, stooping down, perceived a hole near the bottom +still full of snail-shells and pebbles, which we were fond of storing +there with more perishable things; and, as fresh as reality, it appeared +that I beheld my early playmate seated on the withered turf: his dark, +square head bent forward, and his little hand scooping out the earth +with a piece of slate. 'Poor Hindley!' I exclaimed, involuntarily. I +started: my bodily eye was cheated into a momentary belief that the +child lifted its face and stared straight into mine! It vanished in a +twinkling; but immediately I felt an irresistible yearning to be at the +Heights. Superstition urged me to comply with this impulse: supposing he +should be dead! I thought--or should die soon!--supposing it were a sign +of death! The nearer I got to the house the more agitated I grew; and on +catching sight of it I trembled in every limb. The apparition had +outstripped me: it stood looking through the gate. That was my first +idea on observing an elf-locked, brown-eyed boy setting his ruddy +countenance against the bars. Further reflection suggested this must be +Hareton, _my_ Hareton, not altered greatly since I left him, ten months +since. + +'God bless thee, darling!' I cried, forgetting instantaneously my +foolish fears. 'Hareton, it's Nelly! Nelly, thy nurse.' + +He retreated out of arm's length, and picked up a large flint. + +'I am come to see thy father, Hareton,' I added, guessing from the +action that Nelly, if she lived in his memory at all, was not recognised +as one with me. + +He raised his missile to hurl it; I commenced a soothing speech, but +could not stay his hand: the stone struck my bonnet; and then ensued, +from the stammering lips of the little fellow, a string of curses, which, +whether he comprehended them or not, were delivered with practised +emphasis, and distorted his baby features into a shocking expression of +malignity. You may be certain this grieved more than angered me. Fit to +cry, I took an orange from my pocket, and offered it to propitiate him. +He hesitated, and then snatched it from my hold; as if he fancied I only +intended to tempt and disappoint him. I showed another, keeping it out +of his reach. + +'Who has taught you those fine words, my bairn?' I inquired. 'The +curate?' + +'Damn the curate, and thee! Gie me that,' he replied. + +'Tell us where you got your lessons, and you shall have it,' said I. +'Who's your master?' + +'Devil daddy,' was his answer. + +'And what do you learn from daddy?' I continued. + +He jumped at the fruit; I raised it higher. 'What does he teach you?' I +asked. + +'Naught,' said he, 'but to keep out of his gait. Daddy cannot bide me, +because I swear at him.' + +'Ah! and the devil teaches you to swear at daddy?' I observed. + +'Ay--nay,' he drawled. + +'Who, then?' + +'Heathcliff.' + +'I asked if he liked Mr. Heathcliff.' + +'Ay!' he answered again. + +Desiring to have his reasons for liking him, I could only gather the +sentences--'I known't: he pays dad back what he gies to me--he curses +daddy for cursing me. He says I mun do as I will.' + +'And the curate does not teach you to read and write, then?' I pursued. + +'No, I was told the curate should have his--teeth dashed down his--throat, +if he stepped over the threshold--Heathcliff had promised that!' + +I put the orange in his hand, and bade him tell his father that a woman +called Nelly Dean was waiting to speak with him, by the garden gate. He +went up the walk, and entered the house; but, instead of Hindley, +Heathcliff appeared on the door-stones; and I turned directly and ran +down the road as hard as ever I could race, making no halt till I gained +the guide-post, and feeling as scared as if I had raised a goblin. This +is not much connected with Miss Isabella's affair: except that it urged +me to resolve further on mounting vigilant guard, and doing my utmost to +check the spread of such bad influence at the Grange: even though I +should wake a domestic storm, by thwarting Mrs. Linton's pleasure. + +The next time Heathcliff came my young lady chanced to be feeding some +pigeons in the court. She had never spoken a word to her sister-in-law +for three days; but she had likewise dropped her fretful complaining, and +we found it a great comfort. Heathcliff had not the habit of bestowing a +single unnecessary civility on Miss Linton, I knew. Now, as soon as he +beheld her, his first precaution was to take a sweeping survey of the +house-front. I was standing by the kitchen-window, but I drew out of +sight. He then stepped across the pavement to her, and said something: +she seemed embarrassed, and desirous of getting away; to prevent it, he +laid his hand on her arm. She averted her face: he apparently put some +question which she had no mind to answer. There was another rapid glance +at the house, and supposing himself unseen, the scoundrel had the +impudence to embrace her. + +'Judas! Traitor!' I ejaculated. 'You are a hypocrite, too, are you? A +deliberate deceiver.' + +'Who is, Nelly?' said Catherine's voice at my elbow: I had been +over-intent on watching the pair outside to mark her entrance. + +'Your worthless friend!' I answered, warmly: 'the sneaking rascal yonder. +Ah, he has caught a glimpse of us--he is coming in! I wonder will he +have the heart to find a plausible excuse for making love to Miss, when +he told you he hated her?' + +Mrs. Linton saw Isabella tear herself free, and run into the garden; and +a minute after, Heathcliff opened the door. I couldn't withhold giving +some loose to my indignation; but Catherine angrily insisted on silence, +and threatened to order me out of the kitchen, if I dared to be so +presumptuous as to put in my insolent tongue. + +'To hear you, people might think you were the mistress!' she cried. 'You +want setting down in your right place! Heathcliff, what are you about, +raising this stir? I said you must let Isabella alone!--I beg you will, +unless you are tired of being received here, and wish Linton to draw the +bolts against you!' + +'God forbid that he should try!' answered the black villain. I detested +him just then. 'God keep him meek and patient! Every day I grow madder +after sending him to heaven!' + +'Hush!' said Catherine, shutting the inner door! 'Don't vex me. Why +have you disregarded my request? Did she come across you on purpose?' + +'What is it to you?' he growled. 'I have a right to kiss her, if she +chooses; and you have no right to object. I am not _your_ husband: _you_ +needn't be jealous of me!' + +'I'm not jealous of you,' replied the mistress; 'I'm jealous for you. +Clear your face: you sha'n't scowl at me! If you like Isabella, you +shall marry her. But do you like her? Tell the truth, Heathcliff! +There, you won't answer. I'm certain you don't.' + +'And would Mr. Linton approve of his sister marrying that man?' I +inquired. + +'Mr. Linton should approve,' returned my lady, decisively. + +'He might spare himself the trouble,' said Heathcliff: 'I could do as +well without his approbation. And as to you, Catherine, I have a mind to +speak a few words now, while we are at it. I want you to be aware that I +_know_ you have treated me infernally--infernally! Do you hear? And if +you flatter yourself that I don't perceive it, you are a fool; and if +you think I can be consoled by sweet words, you are an idiot: and if you +fancy I'll suffer unrevenged, I'll convince you of the contrary, in a +very little while! Meantime, thank you for telling me your +sister-in-law's secret: I swear I'll make the most of it. And stand you +aside!' + +'What new phase of his character is this?' exclaimed Mrs. Linton, in +amazement. 'I've treated you infernally--and you'll take your revenge! +How will you take it, ungrateful brute? How have I treated you +infernally?' + +'I seek no revenge on you,' replied Heathcliff, less vehemently. 'That's +not the plan. The tyrant grinds down his slaves and they don't turn +against him; they crush those beneath them. You are welcome to torture +me to death for your amusement, only allow me to amuse myself a little in +the same style, and refrain from insult as much as you are able. Having +levelled my palace, don't erect a hovel and complacently admire your own +charity in giving me that for a home. If I imagined you really wished me +to marry Isabel, I'd cut my throat!' + +'Oh, the evil is that I am _not_ jealous, is it?' cried Catherine. 'Well, +I won't repeat my offer of a wife: it is as bad as offering Satan a lost +soul. Your bliss lies, like his, in inflicting misery. You prove it. +Edgar is restored from the ill-temper he gave way to at your coming; I +begin to be secure and tranquil; and you, restless to know us at peace, +appear resolved on exciting a quarrel. Quarrel with Edgar, if you +please, Heathcliff, and deceive his sister: you'll hit on exactly the +most efficient method of revenging yourself on me.' + +The conversation ceased. Mrs. Linton sat down by the fire, flushed and +gloomy. The spirit which served her was growing intractable: she could +neither lay nor control it. He stood on the hearth with folded arms, +brooding on his evil thoughts; and in this position I left them to seek +the master, who was wondering what kept Catherine below so long. + +'Ellen,' said he, when I entered, 'have you seen your mistress?' + +'Yes; she's in the kitchen, sir,' I answered. 'She's sadly put out by +Mr. Heathcliff's behaviour: and, indeed, I do think it's time to arrange +his visits on another footing. There's harm in being too soft, and now +it's come to this--.' And I related the scene in the court, and, as near +as I dared, the whole subsequent dispute. I fancied it could not be very +prejudicial to Mrs. Linton; unless she made it so afterwards, by assuming +the defensive for her guest. Edgar Linton had difficulty in hearing me +to the close. His first words revealed that he did not clear his wife of +blame. + +'This is insufferable!' he exclaimed. 'It is disgraceful that she should +own him for a friend, and force his company on me! Call me two men out +of the hall, Ellen. Catherine shall linger no longer to argue with the +low ruffian--I have humoured her enough.' + +He descended, and bidding the servants wait in the passage, went, +followed by me, to the kitchen. Its occupants had recommenced their +angry discussion: Mrs. Linton, at least, was scolding with renewed +vigour; Heathcliff had moved to the window, and hung his head, somewhat +cowed by her violent rating apparently. He saw the master first, and +made a hasty motion that she should be silent; which she obeyed, +abruptly, on discovering the reason of his intimation. + +'How is this?' said Linton, addressing her; 'what notion of propriety +must you have to remain here, after the language which has been held to +you by that blackguard? I suppose, because it is his ordinary talk you +think nothing of it: you are habituated to his baseness, and, perhaps, +imagine I can get used to it too!' + +'Have you been listening at the door, Edgar?' asked the mistress, in a +tone particularly calculated to provoke her husband, implying both +carelessness and contempt of his irritation. Heathcliff, who had raised +his eyes at the former speech, gave a sneering laugh at the latter; on +purpose, it seemed, to draw Mr. Linton's attention to him. He succeeded; +but Edgar did not mean to entertain him with any high flights of passion. + +'I've been so far forbearing with you, sir,' he said quietly; 'not that I +was ignorant of your miserable, degraded character, but I felt you were +only partly responsible for that; and Catherine wishing to keep up your +acquaintance, I acquiesced--foolishly. Your presence is a moral poison +that would contaminate the most virtuous: for that cause, and to prevent +worse consequences, I shall deny you hereafter admission into this house, +and give notice now that I require your instant departure. Three +minutes' delay will render it involuntary and ignominious.' + +Heathcliff measured the height and breadth of the speaker with an eye +full of derision. + +'Cathy, this lamb of yours threatens like a bull!' he said. 'It is in +danger of splitting its skull against my knuckles. By God! Mr. Linton, +I'm mortally sorry that you are not worth knocking down!' + +My master glanced towards the passage, and signed me to fetch the men: he +had no intention of hazarding a personal encounter. I obeyed the hint; +but Mrs. Linton, suspecting something, followed; and when I attempted to +call them, she pulled me back, slammed the door to, and locked it. + +'Fair means!' she said, in answer to her husband's look of angry +surprise. 'If you have not courage to attack him, make an apology, or +allow yourself to be beaten. It will correct you of feigning more valour +than you possess. No, I'll swallow the key before you shall get it! I'm +delightfully rewarded for my kindness to each! After constant indulgence +of one's weak nature, and the other's bad one, I earn for thanks two +samples of blind ingratitude, stupid to absurdity! Edgar, I was +defending you and yours; and I wish Heathcliff may flog you sick, for +daring to think an evil thought of me!' + +It did not need the medium of a flogging to produce that effect on the +master. He tried to wrest the key from Catherine's grasp, and for safety +she flung it into the hottest part of the fire; whereupon Mr. Edgar was +taken with a nervous trembling, and his countenance grew deadly pale. For +his life he could not avert that excess of emotion: mingled anguish and +humiliation overcame him completely. He leant on the back of a chair, +and covered his face. + +'Oh, heavens! In old days this would win you knighthood!' exclaimed Mrs. +Linton. 'We are vanquished! we are vanquished! Heathcliff would as soon +lift a finger at you as the king would march his army against a colony of +mice. Cheer up! you sha'n't be hurt! Your type is not a lamb, it's a +sucking leveret.' + +'I wish you joy of the milk-blooded coward, Cathy!' said her friend. 'I +compliment you on your taste. And that is the slavering, shivering thing +you preferred to me! I would not strike him with my fist, but I'd kick +him with my foot, and experience considerable satisfaction. Is he +weeping, or is he going to faint for fear?' + +The fellow approached and gave the chair on which Linton rested a push. +He'd better have kept his distance: my master quickly sprang erect, and +struck him full on the throat a blow that would have levelled a slighter +man. It took his breath for a minute; and while he choked, Mr. Linton +walked out by the back door into the yard, and from thence to the front +entrance. + +'There! you've done with coming here,' cried Catherine. 'Get away, now; +he'll return with a brace of pistols and half-a-dozen assistants. If he +did overhear us, of course he'd never forgive you. You've played me an +ill turn, Heathcliff! But go--make haste! I'd rather see Edgar at bay +than you.' + +'Do you suppose I'm going with that blow burning in my gullet?' he +thundered. 'By hell, no! I'll crush his ribs in like a rotten hazel-nut +before I cross the threshold! If I don't floor him now, I shall murder +him some time; so, as you value his existence, let me get at him!' + +'He is not coming,' I interposed, framing a bit of a lie. 'There's the +coachman and the two gardeners; you'll surely not wait to be thrust into +the road by them! Each has a bludgeon; and master will, very likely, be +watching from the parlour-windows to see that they fulfil his orders.' + +The gardeners and coachman were there: but Linton was with them. They +had already entered the court. Heathcliff, on the second thoughts, +resolved to avoid a struggle against three underlings: he seized the +poker, smashed the lock from the inner door, and made his escape as they +tramped in. + +Mrs. Linton, who was very much excited, bade me accompany her up-stairs. +She did not know my share in contributing to the disturbance, and I was +anxious to keep her in ignorance. + +'I'm nearly distracted, Nelly!' she exclaimed, throwing herself on the +sofa. 'A thousand smiths' hammers are beating in my head! Tell Isabella +to shun me; this uproar is owing to her; and should she or any one else +aggravate my anger at present, I shall get wild. And, Nelly, say to +Edgar, if you see him again to-night, that I'm in danger of being +seriously ill. I wish it may prove true. He has startled and distressed +me shockingly! I want to frighten him. Besides, he might come and begin +a string of abuse or complainings; I'm certain I should recriminate, and +God knows where we should end! Will you do so, my good Nelly? You are +aware that I am no way blamable in this matter. What possessed him to +turn listener? Heathcliff's talk was outrageous, after you left us; but +I could soon have diverted him from Isabella, and the rest meant nothing. +Now all is dashed wrong; by the fool's craving to hear evil of self, that +haunts some people like a demon! Had Edgar never gathered our +conversation, he would never have been the worse for it. Really, when he +opened on me in that unreasonable tone of displeasure after I had scolded +Heathcliff till I was hoarse for him, I did not care hardly what they did +to each other; especially as I felt that, however the scene closed, we +should all be driven asunder for nobody knows how long! Well, if I +cannot keep Heathcliff for my friend--if Edgar will be mean and jealous, +I'll try to break their hearts by breaking my own. That will be a prompt +way of finishing all, when I am pushed to extremity! But it's a deed to +be reserved for a forlorn hope; I'd not take Linton by surprise with it. +To this point he has been discreet in dreading to provoke me; you must +represent the peril of quitting that policy, and remind him of my +passionate temper, verging, when kindled, on frenzy. I wish you could +dismiss that apathy out of that countenance, and look rather more anxious +about me.' + +The stolidity with which I received these instructions was, no doubt, +rather exasperating: for they were delivered in perfect sincerity; but I +believed a person who could plan the turning of her fits of passion to +account, beforehand, might, by exerting her will, manage to control +herself tolerably, even while under their influence; and I did not wish +to 'frighten' her husband, as she said, and multiply his annoyances for +the purpose of serving her selfishness. Therefore I said nothing when I +met the master coming towards the parlour; but I took the liberty of +turning back to listen whether they would resume their quarrel together. +He began to speak first. + +'Remain where you are, Catherine,' he said; without any anger in his +voice, but with much sorrowful despondency. 'I shall not stay. I am +neither come to wrangle nor be reconciled; but I wish just to learn +whether, after this evening's events, you intend to continue your +intimacy with--' + +'Oh, for mercy's sake,' interrupted the mistress, stamping her foot, 'for +mercy's sake, let us hear no more of it now! Your cold blood cannot be +worked into a fever: your veins are full of ice-water; but mine are +boiling, and the sight of such chillness makes them dance.' + +'To get rid of me, answer my question,' persevered Mr. Linton. 'You must +answer it; and that violence does not alarm me. I have found that you +can be as stoical as anyone, when you please. Will you give up +Heathcliff hereafter, or will you give up me? It is impossible for you +to be _my_ friend and _his_ at the same time; and I absolutely _require_ +to know which you choose.' + +'I require to be let alone!' exclaimed Catherine, furiously. 'I demand +it! Don't you see I can scarcely stand? Edgar, you--you leave me!' + +She rang the bell till it broke with a twang; I entered leisurely. It +was enough to try the temper of a saint, such senseless, wicked rages! +There she lay dashing her head against the arm of the sofa, and grinding +her teeth, so that you might fancy she would crash them to splinters! Mr. +Linton stood looking at her in sudden compunction and fear. He told me +to fetch some water. She had no breath for speaking. I brought a glass +full; and as she would not drink, I sprinkled it on her face. In a few +seconds she stretched herself out stiff, and turned up her eyes, while +her cheeks, at once blanched and livid, assumed the aspect of death. +Linton looked terrified. + +'There is nothing in the world the matter,' I whispered. I did not want +him to yield, though I could not help being afraid in my heart. + +'She has blood on her lips!' he said, shuddering. + +'Never mind!' I answered, tartly. And I told him how she had resolved, +previous to his coming, on exhibiting a fit of frenzy. I incautiously +gave the account aloud, and she heard me; for she started up--her hair +flying over her shoulders, her eyes flashing, the muscles of her neck +and arms standing out preternaturally. I made up my mind for broken +bones, at least; but she only glared about her for an instant, and then +rushed from the room. The master directed me to follow; I did, to her +chamber-door: she hindered me from going further by securing it against +me. + +As she never offered to descend to breakfast next morning, I went to ask +whether she would have some carried up. 'No!' she replied, peremptorily. +The same question was repeated at dinner and tea; and again on the morrow +after, and received the same answer. Mr. Linton, on his part, spent his +time in the library, and did not inquire concerning his wife's +occupations. Isabella and he had had an hour's interview, during which +he tried to elicit from her some sentiment of proper horror for +Heathcliff's advances: but he could make nothing of her evasive replies, +and was obliged to close the examination unsatisfactorily; adding, +however, a solemn warning, that if she were so insane as to encourage +that worthless suitor, it would dissolve all bonds of relationship +between herself and him. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +While Miss Linton moped about the park and garden, always silent, and +almost always in tears; and her brother shut himself up among books that +he never opened--wearying, I guessed, with a continual vague expectation +that Catherine, repenting her conduct, would come of her own accord to +ask pardon, and seek a reconciliation--and _she_ fasted pertinaciously, +under the idea, probably, that at every meal Edgar was ready to choke for +her absence, and pride alone held him from running to cast himself at her +feet; I went about my household duties, convinced that the Grange had but +one sensible soul in its walls, and that lodged in my body. I wasted no +condolences on Miss, nor any expostulations on my mistress; nor did I pay +much attention to the sighs of my master, who yearned to hear his lady's +name, since he might not hear her voice. I determined they should come +about as they pleased for me; and though it was a tiresomely slow +process, I began to rejoice at length in a faint dawn of its progress: as +I thought at first. + +Mrs. Linton, on the third day, unbarred her door, and having finished the +water in her pitcher and decanter, desired a renewed supply, and a basin +of gruel, for she believed she was dying. That I set down as a speech +meant for Edgar's ears; I believed no such thing, so I kept it to myself +and brought her some tea and dry toast. She ate and drank eagerly, and +sank back on her pillow again, clenching her hands and groaning. 'Oh, I +will die,' she exclaimed, 'since no one cares anything about me. I wish +I had not taken that.' Then a good while after I heard her murmur, 'No, +I'll not die--he'd be glad--he does not love me at all--he would never +miss me!' + +'Did you want anything, ma'am?' I inquired, still preserving my external +composure, in spite of her ghastly countenance and strange, exaggerated +manner. + +'What is that apathetic being doing?' she demanded, pushing the thick +entangled locks from her wasted face. 'Has he fallen into a lethargy, or +is he dead?' + +'Neither,' replied I; 'if you mean Mr. Linton. He's tolerably well, I +think, though his studies occupy him rather more than they ought: he is +continually among his books, since he has no other society.' + +I should not have spoken so if I had known her true condition, but I +could not get rid of the notion that she acted a part of her disorder. + +'Among his books!' she cried, confounded. 'And I dying! I on the brink +of the grave! My God! does he know how I'm altered?' continued she, +staring at her reflection in a mirror hanging against the opposite wall. +'Is that Catherine Linton? He imagines me in a pet--in play, perhaps. +Cannot you inform him that it is frightful earnest? Nelly, if it be not +too late, as soon as I learn how he feels, I'll choose between these two: +either to starve at once--that would be no punishment unless he had a +heart--or to recover, and leave the country. Are you speaking the truth +about him now? Take care. Is he actually so utterly indifferent for my +life?' + +'Why, ma'am,' I answered, 'the master has no idea of your being deranged; +and of course he does not fear that you will let yourself die of hunger.' + +'You think not? Cannot you tell him I will?' she returned. 'Persuade +him! speak of your own mind: say you are certain I will!' + +'No, you forget, Mrs. Linton,' I suggested, 'that you have eaten some +food with a relish this evening, and to-morrow you will perceive its good +effects.' + +'If I were only sure it would kill him,' she interrupted, 'I'd kill +myself directly! These three awful nights I've never closed my lids--and +oh, I've been tormented! I've been haunted, Nelly! But I begin to fancy +you don't like me. How strange! I thought, though everybody hated and +despised each other, they could not avoid loving me. And they have all +turned to enemies in a few hours: they have, I'm positive; the people +here. How dreary to meet death, surrounded by their cold faces! +Isabella, terrified and repelled, afraid to enter the room, it would be +so dreadful to watch Catherine go. And Edgar standing solemnly by to see +it over; then offering prayers of thanks to God for restoring peace to +his house, and going back to his _books_! What in the name of all that +feels has he to do with _books_, when I am dying?' + +She could not bear the notion which I had put into her head of Mr. +Linton's philosophical resignation. Tossing about, she increased her +feverish bewilderment to madness, and tore the pillow with her teeth; +then raising herself up all burning, desired that I would open the +window. We were in the middle of winter, the wind blew strong from the +north-east, and I objected. Both the expressions flitting over her face, +and the changes of her moods, began to alarm me terribly; and brought to +my recollection her former illness, and the doctor's injunction that she +should not be crossed. A minute previously she was violent; now, +supported on one arm, and not noticing my refusal to obey her, she seemed +to find childish diversion in pulling the feathers from the rents she had +just made, and ranging them on the sheet according to their different +species: her mind had strayed to other associations. + +'That's a turkey's,' she murmured to herself; 'and this is a wild duck's; +and this is a pigeon's. Ah, they put pigeons' feathers in the pillows--no +wonder I couldn't die! Let me take care to throw it on the floor when I +lie down. And here is a moor-cock's; and this--I should know it among a +thousand--it's a lapwing's. Bonny bird; wheeling over our heads in the +middle of the moor. It wanted to get to its nest, for the clouds had +touched the swells, and it felt rain coming. This feather was picked up +from the heath, the bird was not shot: we saw its nest in the winter, +full of little skeletons. Heathcliff set a trap over it, and the old +ones dared not come. I made him promise he'd never shoot a lapwing after +that, and he didn't. Yes, here are more! Did he shoot my lapwings, +Nelly? Are they red, any of them? Let me look.' + +'Give over with that baby-work!' I interrupted, dragging the pillow away, +and turning the holes towards the mattress, for she was removing its +contents by handfuls. 'Lie down and shut your eyes: you're wandering. +There's a mess! The down is flying about like snow.' + +I went here and there collecting it. + +'I see in you, Nelly,' she continued dreamily, 'an aged woman: you have +grey hair and bent shoulders. This bed is the fairy cave under Penistone +crags, and you are gathering elf-bolts to hurt our heifers; pretending, +while I am near, that they are only locks of wool. That's what you'll +come to fifty years hence: I know you are not so now. I'm not wandering: +you're mistaken, or else I should believe you really _were_ that withered +hag, and I should think I _was_ under Penistone Crags; and I'm conscious +it's night, and there are two candles on the table making the black press +shine like jet.' + +'The black press? where is that?' I asked. 'You are talking in your +sleep!' + +'It's against the wall, as it always is,' she replied. 'It _does_ appear +odd--I see a face in it!' + +'There's no press in the room, and never was,' said I, resuming my seat, +and looping up the curtain that I might watch her. + +'Don't _you_ see that face?' she inquired, gazing earnestly at the +mirror. + +And say what I could, I was incapable of making her comprehend it to be +her own; so I rose and covered it with a shawl. + +'It's behind there still!' she pursued, anxiously. 'And it stirred. Who +is it? I hope it will not come out when you are gone! Oh! Nelly, the +room is haunted! I'm afraid of being alone!' + +I took her hand in mine, and bid her be composed; for a succession of +shudders convulsed her frame, and she would keep straining her gaze +towards the glass. + +'There's nobody here!' I insisted. 'It was _yourself_, Mrs. Linton: you +knew it a while since.' + +'Myself!' she gasped, 'and the clock is striking twelve! It's true, +then! that's dreadful!' + +Her fingers clutched the clothes, and gathered them over her eyes. I +attempted to steal to the door with an intention of calling her husband; +but I was summoned back by a piercing shriek--the shawl had dropped from +the frame. + +'Why, what is the matter?' cried I. 'Who is coward now? Wake up! That +is the glass--the mirror, Mrs. Linton; and you see yourself in it, and +there am I too by your side.' + +Trembling and bewildered, she held me fast, but the horror gradually +passed from her countenance; its paleness gave place to a glow of shame. + +'Oh, dear! I thought I was at home,' she sighed. 'I thought I was lying +in my chamber at Wuthering Heights. Because I'm weak, my brain got +confused, and I screamed unconsciously. Don't say anything; but stay +with me. I dread sleeping: my dreams appal me.' + +'A sound sleep would do you good, ma'am,' I answered: 'and I hope this +suffering will prevent your trying starving again.' + +'Oh, if I were but in my own bed in the old house!' she went on bitterly, +wringing her hands. 'And that wind sounding in the firs by the lattice. +Do let me feel it--it comes straight down the moor--do let me have one +breath!' To pacify her I held the casement ajar a few seconds. A cold +blast rushed through; I closed it, and returned to my post. She lay +still now, her face bathed in tears. Exhaustion of body had entirely +subdued her spirit: our fiery Catherine was no better than a wailing +child. + +'How long is it since I shut myself in here?' she asked, suddenly +reviving. + +'It was Monday evening,' I replied, 'and this is Thursday night, or +rather Friday morning, at present.' + +'What! of the same week?' she exclaimed. 'Only that brief time?' + +'Long enough to live on nothing but cold water and ill-temper,' observed +I. + +'Well, it seems a weary number of hours,' she muttered doubtfully: 'it +must be more. I remember being in the parlour after they had quarrelled, +and Edgar being cruelly provoking, and me running into this room +desperate. As soon as ever I had barred the door, utter blackness +overwhelmed me, and I fell on the floor. I couldn't explain to Edgar how +certain I felt of having a fit, or going raging mad, if he persisted in +teasing me! I had no command of tongue, or brain, and he did not guess +my agony, perhaps: it barely left me sense to try to escape from him and +his voice. Before I recovered sufficiently to see and hear, it began to +be dawn, and, Nelly, I'll tell you what I thought, and what has kept +recurring and recurring till I feared for my reason. I thought as I lay +there, with my head against that table leg, and my eyes dimly discerning +the grey square of the window, that I was enclosed in the oak-panelled +bed at home; and my heart ached with some great grief which, just +waking, I could not recollect. I pondered, and worried myself to +discover what it could be, and, most strangely, the whole last seven +years of my life grew a blank! I did not recall that they had been at +all. I was a child; my father was just buried, and my misery arose from +the separation that Hindley had ordered between me and Heathcliff. I was +laid alone, for the first time; and, rousing from a dismal doze after a +night of weeping, I lifted my hand to push the panels aside: it struck +the table-top! I swept it along the carpet, and then memory burst in: my +late anguish was swallowed in a paroxysm of despair. I cannot say why I +felt so wildly wretched: it must have been temporary derangement; for +there is scarcely cause. But, supposing at twelve years old I had been +wrenched from the Heights, and every early association, and my all in +all, as Heathcliff was at that time, and been converted at a stroke into +Mrs. Linton, the lady of Thrushcross Grange, and the wife of a stranger: +an exile, and outcast, thenceforth, from what had been my world. You may +fancy a glimpse of the abyss where I grovelled! Shake your head as you +will, Nelly, you have helped to unsettle me! You should have spoken to +Edgar, indeed you should, and compelled him to leave me quiet! Oh, I'm +burning! I wish I were out of doors! I wish I were a girl again, half +savage and hardy, and free; and laughing at injuries, not maddening +under them! Why am I so changed? why does my blood rush into a hell of +tumult at a few words? I'm sure I should be myself were I once among the +heather on those hills. Open the window again wide: fasten it open! +Quick, why don't you move?' + +'Because I won't give you your death of cold,' I answered. + +'You won't give me a chance of life, you mean,' she said, sullenly. +'However, I'm not helpless yet; I'll open it myself.' + +And sliding from the bed before I could hinder her, she crossed the room, +walking very uncertainly, threw it back, and bent out, careless of the +frosty air that cut about her shoulders as keen as a knife. I entreated, +and finally attempted to force her to retire. But I soon found her +delirious strength much surpassed mine (she was delirious, I became +convinced by her subsequent actions and ravings). There was no moon, and +everything beneath lay in misty darkness: not a light gleamed from any +house, far or near all had been extinguished long ago: and those at +Wuthering Heights were never visible--still she asserted she caught their +shining. + +'Look!' she cried eagerly, 'that's my room with the candle in it, and the +trees swaying before it; and the other candle is in Joseph's garret. +Joseph sits up late, doesn't he? He's waiting till I come home that he +may lock the gate. Well, he'll wait a while yet. It's a rough journey, +and a sad heart to travel it; and we must pass by Gimmerton Kirk to go +that journey! We've braved its ghosts often together, and dared each +other to stand among the graves and ask them to come. But, Heathcliff, +if I dare you now, will you venture? If you do, I'll keep you. I'll not +lie there by myself: they may bury me twelve feet deep, and throw the +church down over me, but I won't rest till you are with me. I never +will!' + +She paused, and resumed with a strange smile. 'He's considering--he'd +rather I'd come to him! Find a way, then! not through that kirkyard. You +are slow! Be content, you always followed me!' + +Perceiving it vain to argue against her insanity, I was planning how I +could reach something to wrap about her, without quitting my hold of +herself (for I could not trust her alone by the gaping lattice), when, to +my consternation, I heard the rattle of the door-handle, and Mr. Linton +entered. He had only then come from the library; and, in passing through +the lobby, had noticed our talking and been attracted by curiosity, or +fear, to examine what it signified, at that late hour. + +'Oh, sir!' I cried, checking the exclamation risen to his lips at the +sight which met him, and the bleak atmosphere of the chamber. 'My poor +mistress is ill, and she quite masters me: I cannot manage her at all; +pray, come and persuade her to go to bed. Forget your anger, for she's +hard to guide any way but her own.' + +'Catherine ill?' he said, hastening to us. 'Shut the window, Ellen! +Catherine! why--' + +He was silent. The haggardness of Mrs. Linton's appearance smote him +speechless, and he could only glance from her to me in horrified +astonishment. + +'She's been fretting here,' I continued, 'and eating scarcely anything, +and never complaining: she would admit none of us till this evening, and +so we couldn't inform you of her state, as we were not aware of it +ourselves; but it is nothing.' + +I felt I uttered my explanations awkwardly; the master frowned. 'It is +nothing, is it, Ellen Dean?' he said sternly. 'You shall account more +clearly for keeping me ignorant of this!' And he took his wife in his +arms, and looked at her with anguish. + +At first she gave him no glance of recognition: he was invisible to her +abstracted gaze. The delirium was not fixed, however; having weaned her +eyes from contemplating the outer darkness, by degrees she centred her +attention on him, and discovered who it was that held her. + +'Ah! you are come, are you, Edgar Linton?' she said, with angry +animation. 'You are one of those things that are ever found when least +wanted, and when you are wanted, never! I suppose we shall have plenty +of lamentations now--I see we shall--but they can't keep me from my +narrow home out yonder: my resting-place, where I'm bound before spring +is over! There it is: not among the Lintons, mind, under the +chapel-roof, but in the open air, with a head-stone; and you may please +yourself whether you go to them or come to me!' + +'Catherine, what have you done?' commenced the master. 'Am I nothing to +you any more? Do you love that wretch Heath--' + +'Hush!' cried Mrs. Linton. 'Hush, this moment! You mention that name +and I end the matter instantly by a spring from the window! What you +touch at present you may have; but my soul will be on that hill-top +before you lay hands on me again. I don't want you, Edgar: I'm past +wanting you. Return to your books. I'm glad you possess a consolation, +for all you had in me is gone.' + +'Her mind wanders, sir,' I interposed. 'She has been talking nonsense +the whole evening; but let her have quiet, and proper attendance, and +she'll rally. Hereafter, we must be cautious how we vex her.' + +'I desire no further advice from you,' answered Mr. Linton. 'You knew +your mistress's nature, and you encouraged me to harass her. And not to +give me one hint of how she has been these three days! It was heartless! +Months of sickness could not cause such a change!' + +I began to defend myself, thinking it too bad to be blamed for another's +wicked waywardness. 'I knew Mrs. Linton's nature to be headstrong and +domineering,' cried I: 'but I didn't know that you wished to foster her +fierce temper! I didn't know that, to humour her, I should wink at Mr. +Heathcliff. I performed the duty of a faithful servant in telling you, +and I have got a faithful servant's wages! Well, it will teach me to be +careful next time. Next time you may gather intelligence for yourself!' + +'The next time you bring a tale to me you shall quit my service, Ellen +Dean,' he replied. + +'You'd rather hear nothing about it, I suppose, then, Mr. Linton?' said +I. 'Heathcliff has your permission to come a-courting to Miss, and to +drop in at every opportunity your absence offers, on purpose to poison +the mistress against you?' + +Confused as Catherine was, her wits were alert at applying our +conversation. + +'Ah! Nelly has played traitor,' she exclaimed, passionately. 'Nelly is +my hidden enemy. You witch! So you do seek elf-bolts to hurt us! Let +me go, and I'll make her rue! I'll make her howl a recantation!' + +A maniac's fury kindled under her brows; she struggled desperately to +disengage herself from Linton's arms. I felt no inclination to tarry the +event; and, resolving to seek medical aid on my own responsibility, I +quitted the chamber. + +In passing the garden to reach the road, at a place where a bridle hook +is driven into the wall, I saw something white moved irregularly, +evidently by another agent than the wind. Notwithstanding my hurry, I +stayed to examine it, lest ever after I should have the conviction +impressed on my imagination that it was a creature of the other world. My +surprise and perplexity were great on discovering, by touch more than +vision, Miss Isabella's springer, Fanny, suspended by a handkerchief, and +nearly at its last gasp. I quickly released the animal, and lifted it +into the garden. I had seen it follow its mistress up-stairs when she +went to bed; and wondered much how it could have got out there, and what +mischievous person had treated it so. While untying the knot round the +hook, it seemed to me that I repeatedly caught the beat of horses' feet +galloping at some distance; but there were such a number of things to +occupy my reflections that I hardly gave the circumstance a thought: +though it was a strange sound, in that place, at two o'clock in the +morning. + +Mr. Kenneth was fortunately just issuing from his house to see a patient +in the village as I came up the street; and my account of Catherine +Linton's malady induced him to accompany me back immediately. He was a +plain rough man; and he made no scruple to speak his doubts of her +surviving this second attack; unless she were more submissive to his +directions than she had shown herself before. + +'Nelly Dean,' said he, 'I can't help fancying there's an extra cause for +this. What has there been to do at the Grange? We've odd reports up +here. A stout, hearty lass like Catherine does not fall ill for a +trifle; and that sort of people should not either. It's hard work +bringing them through fevers, and such things. How did it begin?' + +'The master will inform you,' I answered; 'but you are acquainted with +the Earnshaws' violent dispositions, and Mrs. Linton caps them all. I +may say this; it commenced in a quarrel. She was struck during a tempest +of passion with a kind of fit. That's her account, at least: for she +flew off in the height of it, and locked herself up. Afterwards, she +refused to eat, and now she alternately raves and remains in a half +dream; knowing those about her, but having her mind filled with all sorts +of strange ideas and illusions.' + +'Mr. Linton will be sorry?' observed Kenneth, interrogatively. + +'Sorry? he'll break his heart should anything happen!' I replied. 'Don't +alarm him more than necessary.' + +'Well, I told him to beware,' said my companion; 'and he must bide the +consequences of neglecting my warning! Hasn't he been intimate with Mr. +Heathcliff lately?' + +'Heathcliff frequently visits at the Grange,' answered I, 'though more on +the strength of the mistress having known him when a boy, than because +the master likes his company. At present he's discharged from the +trouble of calling; owing to some presumptuous aspirations after Miss +Linton which he manifested. I hardly think he'll be taken in again.' + +'And does Miss Linton turn a cold shoulder on him?' was the doctor's next +question. + +'I'm not in her confidence,' returned I, reluctant to continue the +subject. + +'No, she's a sly one,' he remarked, shaking his head. 'She keeps her own +counsel! But she's a real little fool. I have it from good authority +that last night (and a pretty night it was!) she and Heathcliff were +walking in the plantation at the back of your house above two hours; and +he pressed her not to go in again, but just mount his horse and away with +him! My informant said she could only put him off by pledging her word +of honour to be prepared on their first meeting after that: when it was +to be he didn't hear; but you urge Mr. Linton to look sharp!' + +This news filled me with fresh fears; I outstripped Kenneth, and ran most +of the way back. The little dog was yelping in the garden yet. I spared +a minute to open the gate for it, but instead of going to the house door, +it coursed up and down snuffing the grass, and would have escaped to the +road, had I not seized it and conveyed it in with me. On ascending to +Isabella's room, my suspicions were confirmed: it was empty. Had I been +a few hours sooner Mrs. Linton's illness might have arrested her rash +step. But what could be done now? There was a bare possibility of +overtaking them if pursued instantly. _I_ could not pursue them, +however; and I dared not rouse the family, and fill the place with +confusion; still less unfold the business to my master, absorbed as he +was in his present calamity, and having no heart to spare for a second +grief! I saw nothing for it but to hold my tongue, and suffer matters to +take their course; and Kenneth being arrived, I went with a badly +composed countenance to announce him. Catherine lay in a troubled sleep: +her husband had succeeded in soothing the excess of frenzy; he now hung +over her pillow, watching every shade and every change of her painfully +expressive features. + +The doctor, on examining the case for himself, spoke hopefully to him of +its having a favourable termination, if we could only preserve around her +perfect and constant tranquillity. To me, he signified the threatening +danger was not so much death, as permanent alienation of intellect. + +I did not close my eyes that night, nor did Mr. Linton: indeed, we never +went to bed; and the servants were all up long before the usual hour, +moving through the house with stealthy tread, and exchanging whispers as +they encountered each other in their vocations. Every one was active but +Miss Isabella; and they began to remark how sound she slept: her brother, +too, asked if she had risen, and seemed impatient for her presence, and +hurt that she showed so little anxiety for her sister-in-law. I trembled +lest he should send me to call her; but I was spared the pain of being +the first proclaimant of her flight. One of the maids, a thoughtless +girl, who had been on an early errand to Gimmerton, came panting +up-stairs, open-mouthed, and dashed into the chamber, crying: 'Oh, dear, +dear! What mun we have next? Master, master, our young lady--' + +'Hold your noise!' cried, I hastily, enraged at her clamorous manner. + +'Speak lower, Mary--What is the matter?' said Mr. Linton. 'What ails +your young lady?' + +'She's gone, she's gone! Yon' Heathcliff's run off wi' her!' gasped the +girl. + +'That is not true!' exclaimed Linton, rising in agitation. 'It cannot +be: how has the idea entered your head? Ellen Dean, go and seek her. It +is incredible: it cannot be.' + +As he spoke he took the servant to the door, and then repeated his demand +to know her reasons for such an assertion. + +'Why, I met on the road a lad that fetches milk here,' she stammered, +'and he asked whether we weren't in trouble at the Grange. I thought he +meant for missis's sickness, so I answered, yes. Then says he, "There's +somebody gone after 'em, I guess?" I stared. He saw I knew nought about +it, and he told how a gentleman and lady had stopped to have a horse's +shoe fastened at a blacksmith's shop, two miles out of Gimmerton, not +very long after midnight! and how the blacksmith's lass had got up to spy +who they were: she knew them both directly. And she noticed the +man--Heathcliff it was, she felt certain: nob'dy could mistake him, +besides--put a sovereign in her father's hand for payment. The lady had +a cloak about her face; but having desired a sup of water, while she +drank it fell back, and she saw her very plain. Heathcliff held both +bridles as they rode on, and they set their faces from the village, and +went as fast as the rough roads would let them. The lass said nothing to +her father, but she told it all over Gimmerton this morning.' + +I ran and peeped, for form's sake, into Isabella's room; confirming, when +I returned, the servant's statement. Mr. Linton had resumed his seat by +the bed; on my re-entrance, he raised his eyes, read the meaning of my +blank aspect, and dropped them without giving an order, or uttering a +word. + +'Are we to try any measures for overtaking and bringing her back,' I +inquired. 'How should we do?' + +'She went of her own accord,' answered the master; 'she had a right to go +if she pleased. Trouble me no more about her. Hereafter she is only my +sister in name: not because I disown her, but because she has disowned +me.' + +And that was all he said on the subject: he did not make single inquiry +further, or mention her in any way, except directing me to send what +property she had in the house to her fresh home, wherever it was, when I +knew it. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +For two months the fugitives remained absent; in those two months, Mrs. +Linton encountered and conquered the worst shock of what was denominated +a brain fever. No mother could have nursed an only child more devotedly +than Edgar tended her. Day and night he was watching, and patiently +enduring all the annoyances that irritable nerves and a shaken reason +could inflict; and, though Kenneth remarked that what he saved from the +grave would only recompense his care by forming the source of constant +future anxiety--in fact, that his health and strength were being +sacrificed to preserve a mere ruin of humanity--he knew no limits in +gratitude and joy when Catherine's life was declared out of danger; and +hour after hour he would sit beside her, tracing the gradual return to +bodily health, and flattering his too sanguine hopes with the illusion +that her mind would settle back to its right balance also, and she would +soon be entirely her former self. + +The first time she left her chamber was at the commencement of the +following March. Mr. Linton had put on her pillow, in the morning, a +handful of golden crocuses; her eye, long stranger to any gleam of +pleasure, caught them in waking, and shone delighted as she gathered them +eagerly together. + +'These are the earliest flowers at the Heights,' she exclaimed. 'They +remind me of soft thaw winds, and warm sunshine, and nearly melted snow. +Edgar, is there not a south wind, and is not the snow almost gone?' + +'The snow is quite gone down here, darling,' replied her husband; 'and I +only see two white spots on the whole range of moors: the sky is blue, +and the larks are singing, and the becks and brooks are all brim full. +Catherine, last spring at this time, I was longing to have you under this +roof; now, I wish you were a mile or two up those hills: the air blows so +sweetly, I feel that it would cure you.' + +'I shall never be there but once more,' said the invalid; 'and then +you'll leave me, and I shall remain for ever. Next spring you'll long +again to have me under this roof, and you'll look back and think you were +happy to-day.' + +Linton lavished on her the kindest caresses, and tried to cheer her by +the fondest words; but, vaguely regarding the flowers, she let the tears +collect on her lashes and stream down her cheeks unheeding. We knew she +was really better, and, therefore, decided that long confinement to a +single place produced much of this despondency, and it might be partially +removed by a change of scene. The master told me to light a fire in the +many-weeks' deserted parlour, and to set an easy-chair in the sunshine by +the window; and then he brought her down, and she sat a long while +enjoying the genial heat, and, as we expected, revived by the objects +round her: which, though familiar, were free from the dreary associations +investing her hated sick chamber. By evening she seemed greatly +exhausted; yet no arguments could persuade her to return to that +apartment, and I had to arrange the parlour sofa for her bed, till +another room could be prepared. To obviate the fatigue of mounting and +descending the stairs, we fitted up this, where you lie at present--on +the same floor with the parlour; and she was soon strong enough to move +from one to the other, leaning on Edgar's arm. Ah, I thought myself, she +might recover, so waited on as she was. And there was double cause to +desire it, for on her existence depended that of another: we cherished +the hope that in a little while Mr. Linton's heart would be gladdened, +and his lands secured from a stranger's grip, by the birth of an heir. + +I should mention that Isabella sent to her brother, some six weeks from +her departure, a short note, announcing her marriage with Heathcliff. It +appeared dry and cold; but at the bottom was dotted in with pencil an +obscure apology, and an entreaty for kind remembrance and reconciliation, +if her proceeding had offended him: asserting that she could not help it +then, and being done, she had now no power to repeal it. Linton did not +reply to this, I believe; and, in a fortnight more, I got a long letter, +which I considered odd, coming from the pen of a bride just out of the +honeymoon. I'll read it: for I keep it yet. Any relic of the dead is +precious, if they were valued living. + +* * * * * + +DEAR ELLEN, it begins,--I came last night to Wuthering Heights, and +heard, for the first time, that Catherine has been, and is yet, very ill. +I must not write to her, I suppose, and my brother is either too angry or +too distressed to answer what I sent him. Still, I must write to +somebody, and the only choice left me is you. + +Inform Edgar that I'd give the world to see his face again--that my heart +returned to Thrushcross Grange in twenty-four hours after I left it, and +is there at this moment, full of warm feelings for him, and Catherine! _I +can't follow it though_--(these words are underlined)--they need not +expect me, and they may draw what conclusions they please; taking care, +however, to lay nothing at the door of my weak will or deficient +affection. + +The remainder of the letter is for yourself alone. I want to ask you two +questions: the first is,--How did you contrive to preserve the common +sympathies of human nature when you resided here? I cannot recognise any +sentiment which those around share with me. + +The second question I have great interest in; it is this--Is Mr. +Heathcliff a man? If so, is he mad? And if not, is he a devil? I +sha'n't tell my reasons for making this inquiry; but I beseech you to +explain, if you can, what I have married: that is, when you call to see +me; and you must call, Ellen, very soon. Don't write, but come, and +bring me something from Edgar. + +Now, you shall hear how I have been received in my new home, as I am led +to imagine the Heights will be. It is to amuse myself that I dwell on +such subjects as the lack of external comforts: they never occupy my +thoughts, except at the moment when I miss them. I should laugh and +dance for joy, if I found their absence was the total of my miseries, and +the rest was an unnatural dream! + +The sun set behind the Grange as we turned on to the moors; by that, I +judged it to be six o'clock; and my companion halted half an hour, to +inspect the park, and the gardens, and, probably, the place itself, as +well as he could; so it was dark when we dismounted in the paved yard of +the farm-house, and your old fellow-servant, Joseph, issued out to +receive us by the light of a dip candle. He did it with a courtesy that +redounded to his credit. His first act was to elevate his torch to a +level with my face, squint malignantly, project his under-lip, and turn +away. Then he took the two horses, and led them into the stables; +reappearing for the purpose of locking the outer gate, as if we lived in +an ancient castle. + +Heathcliff stayed to speak to him, and I entered the kitchen--a dingy, +untidy hole; I daresay you would not know it, it is so changed since it +was in your charge. By the fire stood a ruffianly child, strong in limb +and dirty in garb, with a look of Catherine in his eyes and about his +mouth. + +'This is Edgar's legal nephew,' I reflected--'mine in a manner; I must +shake hands, and--yes--I must kiss him. It is right to establish a good +understanding at the beginning.' + +I approached, and, attempting to take his chubby fist, said--'How do you +do, my dear?' + +He replied in a jargon I did not comprehend. + +'Shall you and I be friends, Hareton?' was my next essay at conversation. + +An oath, and a threat to set Throttler on me if I did not 'frame off' +rewarded my perseverance. + +'Hey, Throttler, lad!' whispered the little wretch, rousing a half-bred +bull-dog from its lair in a corner. 'Now, wilt thou be ganging?' he +asked authoritatively. + +Love for my life urged a compliance; I stepped over the threshold to wait +till the others should enter. Mr. Heathcliff was nowhere visible; and +Joseph, whom I followed to the stables, and requested to accompany me in, +after staring and muttering to himself, screwed up his nose and +replied--'Mim! mim! mim! Did iver Christian body hear aught like it? +Mincing un' munching! How can I tell whet ye say?' + +'I say, I wish you to come with me into the house!' I cried, thinking him +deaf, yet highly disgusted at his rudeness. + +'None o' me! I getten summut else to do,' he answered, and continued his +work; moving his lantern jaws meanwhile, and surveying my dress and +countenance (the former a great deal too fine, but the latter, I'm sure, +as sad as he could desire) with sovereign contempt. + +I walked round the yard, and through a wicket, to another door, at which +I took the liberty of knocking, in hopes some more civil servant might +show himself. After a short suspense, it was opened by a tall, gaunt +man, without neckerchief, and otherwise extremely slovenly; his features +were lost in masses of shaggy hair that hung on his shoulders; and _his_ +eyes, too, were like a ghostly Catherine's with all their beauty +annihilated. + +'What's your business here?' he demanded, grimly. 'Who are you?' + +'My name was Isabella Linton,' I replied. 'You've seen me before, sir. +I'm lately married to Mr. Heathcliff, and he has brought me here--I +suppose, by your permission.' + +'Is he come back, then?' asked the hermit, glaring like a hungry wolf. + +'Yes--we came just now,' I said; 'but he left me by the kitchen door; and +when I would have gone in, your little boy played sentinel over the +place, and frightened me off by the help of a bull-dog.' + +'It's well the hellish villain has kept his word!' growled my future +host, searching the darkness beyond me in expectation of discovering +Heathcliff; and then he indulged in a soliloquy of execrations, and +threats of what he would have done had the 'fiend' deceived him. + +I repented having tried this second entrance, and was almost inclined to +slip away before he finished cursing, but ere I could execute that +intention, he ordered me in, and shut and re-fastened the door. There +was a great fire, and that was all the light in the huge apartment, whose +floor had grown a uniform grey; and the once brilliant pewter-dishes, +which used to attract my gaze when I was a girl, partook of a similar +obscurity, created by tarnish and dust. I inquired whether I might call +the maid, and be conducted to a bedroom! Mr. Earnshaw vouchsafed no +answer. He walked up and down, with his hands in his pockets, apparently +quite forgetting my presence; and his abstraction was evidently so deep, +and his whole aspect so misanthropical, that I shrank from disturbing him +again. + +You'll not be surprised, Ellen, at my feeling particularly cheerless, +seated in worse than solitude on that inhospitable hearth, and +remembering that four miles distant lay my delightful home, containing +the only people I loved on earth; and there might as well be the +Atlantic to part us, instead of those four miles: I could not overpass +them! I questioned with myself--where must I turn for comfort? and--mind +you don't tell Edgar, or Catherine--above every sorrow beside, this rose +pre-eminent: despair at finding nobody who could or would be my ally +against Heathcliff! I had sought shelter at Wuthering Heights, almost +gladly, because I was secured by that arrangement from living alone with +him; but he knew the people we were coming amongst, and he did not fear +their intermeddling. + +I sat and thought a doleful time: the clock struck eight, and nine, and +still my companion paced to and fro, his head bent on his breast, and +perfectly silent, unless a groan or a bitter ejaculation forced itself +out at intervals. I listened to detect a woman's voice in the house, and +filled the interim with wild regrets and dismal anticipations, which, at +last, spoke audibly in irrepressible sighing and weeping. I was not +aware how openly I grieved, till Earnshaw halted opposite, in his +measured walk, and gave me a stare of newly-awakened surprise. Taking +advantage of his recovered attention, I exclaimed--'I'm tired with my +journey, and I want to go to bed! Where is the maid-servant? Direct me +to her, as she won't come to me!' + +'We have none,' he answered; 'you must wait on yourself!' + +'Where must I sleep, then?' I sobbed; I was beyond regarding +self-respect, weighed down by fatigue and wretchedness. + +'Joseph will show you Heathcliff's chamber,' said he; 'open that +door--he's in there.' + +I was going to obey, but he suddenly arrested me, and added in the +strangest tone--'Be so good as to turn your lock, and draw your +bolt--don't omit it!' + +'Well!' I said. 'But why, Mr. Earnshaw?' I did not relish the notion of +deliberately fastening myself in with Heathcliff. + +'Look here!' he replied, pulling from his waistcoat a +curiously-constructed pistol, having a double-edged spring knife attached +to the barrel. 'That's a great tempter to a desperate man, is it not? I +cannot resist going up with this every night, and trying his door. If +once I find it open he's done for; I do it invariably, even though the +minute before I have been recalling a hundred reasons that should make me +refrain: it is some devil that urges me to thwart my own schemes by +killing him. You fight against that devil for love as long as you may; +when the time comes, not all the angels in heaven shall save him!' + +I surveyed the weapon inquisitively. A hideous notion struck me: how +powerful I should be possessing such an instrument! I took it from his +hand, and touched the blade. He looked astonished at the expression my +face assumed during a brief second: it was not horror, it was +covetousness. He snatched the pistol back, jealously; shut the knife, +and returned it to its concealment. + +'I don't care if you tell him,' said he. 'Put him on his guard, and +watch for him. You know the terms we are on, I see: his danger does not +shock you.' + +'What has Heathcliff done to you?' I asked. 'In what has he wronged you, +to warrant this appalling hatred? Wouldn't it be wiser to bid him quit +the house?' + +'No!' thundered Earnshaw; 'should he offer to leave me, he's a dead man: +persuade him to attempt it, and you are a murderess! Am I to lose _all_, +without a chance of retrieval? Is Hareton to be a beggar? Oh, +damnation! I _will_ have it back; and I'll have _his_ gold too; and then +his blood; and hell shall have his soul! It will be ten times blacker +with that guest than ever it was before!' + +You've acquainted me, Ellen, with your old master's habits. He is +clearly on the verge of madness: he was so last night at least. I +shuddered to be near him, and thought on the servant's ill-bred +moroseness as comparatively agreeable. He now recommenced his moody +walk, and I raised the latch, and escaped into the kitchen. Joseph was +bending over the fire, peering into a large pan that swung above it; and +a wooden bowl of oatmeal stood on the settle close by. The contents of +the pan began to boil, and he turned to plunge his hand into the bowl; I +conjectured that this preparation was probably for our supper, and, being +hungry, I resolved it should be eatable; so, crying out sharply, '_I'll_ +make the porridge!' I removed the vessel out of his reach, and proceeded +to take off my hat and riding-habit. 'Mr. Earnshaw,' I continued, +'directs me to wait on myself: I will. I'm not going to act the lady +among you, for fear I should starve.' + +'Gooid Lord!' he muttered, sitting down, and stroking his ribbed +stockings from the knee to the ankle. 'If there's to be fresh +ortherings--just when I getten used to two maisters, if I mun hev' a +_mistress_ set o'er my heead, it's like time to be flitting. I niver +_did_ think to see t' day that I mud lave th' owld place--but I doubt +it's nigh at hand!' + +This lamentation drew no notice from me: I went briskly to work, sighing +to remember a period when it would have been all merry fun; but compelled +speedily to drive off the remembrance. It racked me to recall past +happiness and the greater peril there was of conjuring up its apparition, +the quicker the thible ran round, and the faster the handfuls of meal +fell into the water. Joseph beheld my style of cookery with growing +indignation. + +'Thear!' he ejaculated. 'Hareton, thou willn't sup thy porridge +to-neeght; they'll be naught but lumps as big as my neive. Thear, agean! +I'd fling in bowl un' all, if I wer ye! There, pale t' guilp off, un' +then ye'll hae done wi' 't. Bang, bang. It's a mercy t' bothom isn't +deaved out!' + +It _was_ rather a rough mess, I own, when poured into the basins; four +had been provided, and a gallon pitcher of new milk was brought from the +dairy, which Hareton seized and commenced drinking and spilling from the +expansive lip. I expostulated, and desired that he should have his in a +mug; affirming that I could not taste the liquid treated so dirtily. The +old cynic chose to be vastly offended at this nicety; assuring me, +repeatedly, that 'the barn was every bit as good' as I, 'and every bit as +wollsome,' and wondering how I could fashion to be so conceited. +Meanwhile, the infant ruffian continued sucking; and glowered up at me +defyingly, as he slavered into the jug. + +'I shall have my supper in another room,' I said. 'Have you no place you +call a parlour?' + +'_Parlour_!' he echoed, sneeringly, '_parlour_! Nay, we've noa +_parlours_. If yah dunnut loike wer company, there's maister's; un' if +yah dunnut loike maister, there's us.' + +'Then I shall go up-stairs,' I answered; 'show me a chamber.' + +I put my basin on a tray, and went myself to fetch some more milk. With +great grumblings, the fellow rose, and preceded me in my ascent: we +mounted to the garrets; he opened a door, now and then, to look into the +apartments we passed. + +'Here's a rahm,' he said, at last, flinging back a cranky board on +hinges. 'It's weel eneugh to ate a few porridge in. There's a pack o' +corn i' t' corner, thear, meeterly clane; if ye're feared o' muckying yer +grand silk cloes, spread yer hankerchir o' t' top on't.' + +The 'rahm' was a kind of lumber-hole smelling strong of malt and grain; +various sacks of which articles were piled around, leaving a wide, bare +space in the middle. + +'Why, man,' I exclaimed, facing him angrily, 'this is not a place to +sleep in. I wish to see my bed-room.' + +'_Bed-rume_!' he repeated, in a tone of mockery. 'Yah's see all t' +_bed-rumes_ thear is--yon's mine.' + +He pointed into the second garret, only differing from the first in being +more naked about the walls, and having a large, low, curtainless bed, +with an indigo-coloured quilt, at one end. + +'What do I want with yours?' I retorted. 'I suppose Mr. Heathcliff does +not lodge at the top of the house, does he?' + +'Oh! it's Maister _Hathecliff's_ ye're wanting?' cried he, as if making a +new discovery. 'Couldn't ye ha' said soa, at onst? un' then, I mud ha' +telled ye, baht all this wark, that that's just one ye cannut see--he +allas keeps it locked, un' nob'dy iver mells on't but hisseln.' + +'You've a nice house, Joseph,' I could not refrain from observing, 'and +pleasant inmates; and I think the concentrated essence of all the madness +in the world took up its abode in my brain the day I linked my fate with +theirs! However, that is not to the present purpose--there are other +rooms. For heaven's sake be quick, and let me settle somewhere!' + +He made no reply to this adjuration; only plodding doggedly down the +wooden steps, and halting, before an apartment which, from that halt and +the superior quality of its furniture, I conjectured to be the best one. +There was a carpet--a good one, but the pattern was obliterated by dust; +a fireplace hung with cut-paper, dropping to pieces; a handsome +oak-bedstead with ample crimson curtains of rather expensive material and +modern make; but they had evidently experienced rough usage: the +vallances hung in festoons, wrenched from their rings, and the iron rod +supporting them was bent in an arc on one side, causing the drapery to +trail upon the floor. The chairs were also damaged, many of them +severely; and deep indentations deformed the panels of the walls. I was +endeavouring to gather resolution for entering and taking possession, +when my fool of a guide announced,--'This here is t' maister's.' My +supper by this time was cold, my appetite gone, and my patience +exhausted. I insisted on being provided instantly with a place of +refuge, and means of repose. + +'Whear the divil?' began the religious elder. 'The Lord bless us! The +Lord forgie us! Whear the _hell_ wold ye gang? ye marred, wearisome +nowt! Ye've seen all but Hareton's bit of a cham'er. There's not +another hoile to lig down in i' th' hahse!' + +I was so vexed, I flung my tray and its contents on the ground; and then +seated myself at the stairs'-head, hid my face in my hands, and cried. + +'Ech! ech!' exclaimed Joseph. 'Weel done, Miss Cathy! weel done, Miss +Cathy! Howsiver, t' maister sall just tum'le o'er them brooken pots; un' +then we's hear summut; we's hear how it's to be. Gooid-for-naught +madling! ye desarve pining fro' this to Chrustmas, flinging t' precious +gifts o'God under fooit i' yer flaysome rages! But I'm mista'en if ye +shew yer sperrit lang. Will Hathecliff bide sich bonny ways, think ye? I +nobbut wish he may catch ye i' that plisky. I nobbut wish he may.' + +And so he went on scolding to his den beneath, taking the candle with +him; and I remained in the dark. The period of reflection succeeding +this silly action compelled me to admit the necessity of smothering my +pride and choking my wrath, and bestirring myself to remove its effects. +An unexpected aid presently appeared in the shape of Throttler, whom I +now recognised as a son of our old Skulker: it had spent its whelphood +at the Grange, and was given by my father to Mr. Hindley. I fancy it +knew me: it pushed its nose against mine by way of salute, and then +hastened to devour the porridge; while I groped from step to step, +collecting the shattered earthenware, and drying the spatters of milk +from the banister with my pocket-handkerchief. Our labours were scarcely +over when I heard Earnshaw's tread in the passage; my assistant tucked +in his tail, and pressed to the wall; I stole into the nearest doorway. +The dog's endeavour to avoid him was unsuccessful; as I guessed by a +scutter down-stairs, and a prolonged, piteous yelping. I had better +luck: he passed on, entered his chamber, and shut the door. Directly +after Joseph came up with Hareton, to put him to bed. I had found +shelter in Hareton's room, and the old man, on seeing me, said,--'They's +rahm for boath ye un' yer pride, now, I sud think i' the hahse. It's +empty; ye may hev' it all to yerseln, un' Him as allus maks a third, i' +sich ill company!' + +Gladly did I take advantage of this intimation; and the minute I flung +myself into a chair, by the fire, I nodded, and slept. My slumber was +deep and sweet, though over far too soon. Mr. Heathcliff awoke me; he +had just come in, and demanded, in his loving manner, what I was doing +there? I told him the cause of my staying up so late--that he had the +key of our room in his pocket. The adjective _our_ gave mortal offence. +He swore it was not, nor ever should be, mine; and he'd--but I'll not +repeat his language, nor describe his habitual conduct: he is ingenious +and unresting in seeking to gain my abhorrence! I sometimes wonder at +him with an intensity that deadens my fear: yet, I assure you, a tiger or +a venomous serpent could not rouse terror in me equal to that which he +wakens. He told me of Catherine's illness, and accused my brother of +causing it promising that I should be Edgar's proxy in suffering, till he +could get hold of him. + +I do hate him--I am wretched--I have been a fool! Beware of uttering one +breath of this to any one at the Grange. I shall expect you every +day--don't disappoint me!--ISABELLA. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +As soon as I had perused this epistle I went to the master, and informed +him that his sister had arrived at the Heights, and sent me a letter +expressing her sorrow for Mrs. Linton's situation, and her ardent desire +to see him; with a wish that he would transmit to her, as early as +possible, some token of forgiveness by me. + +'Forgiveness!' said Linton. 'I have nothing to forgive her, Ellen. You +may call at Wuthering Heights this afternoon, if you like, and say that I +am not angry, but I'm sorry to have lost her; especially as I can never +think she'll be happy. It is out of the question my going to see her, +however: we are eternally divided; and should she really wish to oblige +me, let her persuade the villain she has married to leave the country.' + +'And you won't write her a little note, sir?' I asked, imploringly. + +'No,' he answered. 'It is needless. My communication with Heathcliff's +family shall be as sparing as his with mine. It shall not exist!' + +Mr. Edgar's coldness depressed me exceedingly; and all the way from the +Grange I puzzled my brains how to put more heart into what he said, when +I repeated it; and how to soften his refusal of even a few lines to +console Isabella. I daresay she had been on the watch for me since +morning: I saw her looking through the lattice as I came up the garden +causeway, and I nodded to her; but she drew back, as if afraid of being +observed. I entered without knocking. There never was such a dreary, +dismal scene as the formerly cheerful house presented! I must confess, +that if I had been in the young lady's place, I would, at least, have +swept the hearth, and wiped the tables with a duster. But she already +partook of the pervading spirit of neglect which encompassed her. Her +pretty face was wan and listless; her hair uncurled: some locks hanging +lankly down, and some carelessly twisted round her head. Probably she +had not touched her dress since yester evening. Hindley was not there. +Mr. Heathcliff sat at a table, turning over some papers in his +pocket-book; but he rose when I appeared, asked me how I did, quite +friendly, and offered me a chair. He was the only thing there that +seemed decent; and I thought he never looked better. So much had +circumstances altered their positions, that he would certainly have +struck a stranger as a born and bred gentleman; and his wife as a +thorough little slattern! She came forward eagerly to greet me, and held +out one hand to take the expected letter. I shook my head. She wouldn't +understand the hint, but followed me to a sideboard, where I went to lay +my bonnet, and importuned me in a whisper to give her directly what I +had brought. Heathcliff guessed the meaning of her manoeuvres, and +said--'If you have got anything for Isabella (as no doubt you have, +Nelly), give it to her. You needn't make a secret of it: we have no +secrets between us.' + +'Oh, I have nothing,' I replied, thinking it best to speak the truth at +once. 'My master bid me tell his sister that she must not expect either +a letter or a visit from him at present. He sends his love, ma'am, and +his wishes for your happiness, and his pardon for the grief you have +occasioned; but he thinks that after this time his household and the +household here should drop intercommunication, as nothing could come of +keeping it up.' + +Mrs. Heathcliff's lip quivered slightly, and she returned to her seat in +the window. Her husband took his stand on the hearthstone, near me, and +began to put questions concerning Catherine. I told him as much as I +thought proper of her illness, and he extorted from me, by +cross-examination, most of the facts connected with its origin. I blamed +her, as she deserved, for bringing it all on herself; and ended by hoping +that he would follow Mr. Linton's example and avoid future interference +with his family, for good or evil. + +'Mrs. Linton is now just recovering,' I said; 'she'll never be like she +was, but her life is spared; and if you really have a regard for her, +you'll shun crossing her way again: nay, you'll move out of this country +entirely; and that you may not regret it, I'll inform you Catherine +Linton is as different now from your old friend Catherine Earnshaw, as +that young lady is different from me. Her appearance is changed greatly, +her character much more so; and the person who is compelled, of +necessity, to be her companion, will only sustain his affection hereafter +by the remembrance of what she once was, by common humanity, and a sense +of duty!' + +'That is quite possible,' remarked Heathcliff, forcing himself to seem +calm: 'quite possible that your master should have nothing but common +humanity and a sense of duty to fall back upon. But do you imagine that +I shall leave Catherine to his _duty_ and _humanity_? and can you compare +my feelings respecting Catherine to his? Before you leave this house, I +must exact a promise from you that you'll get me an interview with her: +consent, or refuse, I _will_ see her! What do you say?' + +'I say, Mr. Heathcliff,' I replied, 'you must not: you never shall, +through my means. Another encounter between you and the master would +kill her altogether.' + +'With your aid that may be avoided,' he continued; 'and should there be +danger of such an event--should he be the cause of adding a single +trouble more to her existence--why, I think I shall be justified in going +to extremes! I wish you had sincerity enough to tell me whether +Catherine would suffer greatly from his loss: the fear that she would +restrains me. And there you see the distinction between our feelings: +had he been in my place, and I in his, though I hated him with a hatred +that turned my life to gall, I never would have raised a hand against +him. You may look incredulous, if you please! I never would have +banished him from her society as long as she desired his. The moment her +regard ceased, I would have torn his heart out, and drunk his blood! But, +till then--if you don't believe me, you don't know me--till then, I would +have died by inches before I touched a single hair of his head!' + +'And yet,' I interrupted, 'you have no scruples in completely ruining all +hopes of her perfect restoration, by thrusting yourself into her +remembrance now, when she has nearly forgotten you, and involving her in +a new tumult of discord and distress.' + +'You suppose she has nearly forgotten me?' he said. 'Oh, Nelly! you know +she has not! You know as well as I do, that for every thought she spends +on Linton she spends a thousand on me! At a most miserable period of my +life, I had a notion of the kind: it haunted me on my return to the +neighbourhood last summer; but only her own assurance could make me admit +the horrible idea again. And then, Linton would be nothing, nor Hindley, +nor all the dreams that ever I dreamt. Two words would comprehend my +future--_death_ and _hell_: existence, after losing her, would be hell. +Yet I was a fool to fancy for a moment that she valued Edgar Linton's +attachment more than mine. If he loved with all the powers of his puny +being, he couldn't love as much in eighty years as I could in a day. And +Catherine has a heart as deep as I have: the sea could be as readily +contained in that horse-trough as her whole affection be monopolised by +him. Tush! He is scarcely a degree dearer to her than her dog, or her +horse. It is not in him to be loved like me: how can she love in him +what he has not?' + +'Catherine and Edgar are as fond of each other as any two people can be,' +cried Isabella, with sudden vivacity. 'No one has a right to talk in +that manner, and I won't hear my brother depreciated in silence!' + +'Your brother is wondrous fond of you too, isn't he?' observed +Heathcliff, scornfully. 'He turns you adrift on the world with +surprising alacrity.' + +'He is not aware of what I suffer,' she replied. 'I didn't tell him +that.' + +'You have been telling him something, then: you have written, have you?' + +'To say that I was married, I did write--you saw the note.' + +'And nothing since?' + +'No.' + +'My young lady is looking sadly the worse for her change of condition,' I +remarked. 'Somebody's love comes short in her case, obviously; whose, I +may guess; but, perhaps, I shouldn't say.' + +'I should guess it was her own,' said Heathcliff. 'She degenerates into +a mere slut! She is tired of trying to please me uncommonly early. You'd +hardly credit it, but the very morrow of our wedding she was weeping to +go home. However, she'll suit this house so much the better for not +being over nice, and I'll take care she does not disgrace me by rambling +abroad.' + +'Well, sir,' returned I, 'I hope you'll consider that Mrs. Heathcliff is +accustomed to be looked after and waited on; and that she has been +brought up like an only daughter, whom every one was ready to serve. You +must let her have a maid to keep things tidy about her, and you must +treat her kindly. Whatever be your notion of Mr. Edgar, you cannot doubt +that she has a capacity for strong attachments, or she wouldn't have +abandoned the elegancies, and comforts, and friends of her former home, +to fix contentedly, in such a wilderness as this, with you.' + +'She abandoned them under a delusion,' he answered; 'picturing in me a +hero of romance, and expecting unlimited indulgences from my chivalrous +devotion. I can hardly regard her in the light of a rational creature, +so obstinately has she persisted in forming a fabulous notion of my +character and acting on the false impressions she cherished. But, at +last, I think she begins to know me: I don't perceive the silly smiles +and grimaces that provoked me at first; and the senseless incapability of +discerning that I was in earnest when I gave her my opinion of her +infatuation and herself. It was a marvellous effort of perspicacity to +discover that I did not love her. I believed, at one time, no lessons +could teach her that! And yet it is poorly learnt; for this morning she +announced, as a piece of appalling intelligence, that I had actually +succeeded in making her hate me! A positive labour of Hercules, I assure +you! If it be achieved, I have cause to return thanks. Can I trust your +assertion, Isabella? Are you sure you hate me? If I let you alone for +half a day, won't you come sighing and wheedling to me again? I daresay +she would rather I had seemed all tenderness before you: it wounds her +vanity to have the truth exposed. But I don't care who knows that the +passion was wholly on one side: and I never told her a lie about it. She +cannot accuse me of showing one bit of deceitful softness. The first +thing she saw me do, on coming out of the Grange, was to hang up her +little dog; and when she pleaded for it, the first words I uttered were a +wish that I had the hanging of every being belonging to her, except one: +possibly she took that exception for herself. But no brutality disgusted +her: I suppose she has an innate admiration of it, if only her precious +person were secure from injury! Now, was it not the depth of +absurdity--of genuine idiotcy, for that pitiful, slavish, mean-minded +brach to dream that I could love her? Tell your master, Nelly, that I +never, in all my life, met with such an abject thing as she is. She even +disgraces the name of Linton; and I've sometimes relented, from pure lack +of invention, in my experiments on what she could endure, and still creep +shamefully cringing back! But tell him, also, to set his fraternal and +magisterial heart at ease: that I keep strictly within the limits of the +law. I have avoided, up to this period, giving her the slightest right +to claim a separation; and, what's more, she'd thank nobody for dividing +us. If she desired to go, she might: the nuisance of her presence +outweighs the gratification to be derived from tormenting her!' + +'Mr. Heathcliff,' said I, 'this is the talk of a madman; your wife, most +likely, is convinced you are mad; and, for that reason, she has borne +with you hitherto: but now that you say she may go, she'll doubtless +avail herself of the permission. You are not so bewitched, ma'am, are +you, as to remain with him of your own accord?' + +'Take care, Ellen!' answered Isabella, her eyes sparkling irefully; there +was no misdoubting by their expression the full success of her partner's +endeavours to make himself detested. 'Don't put faith in a single word +he speaks. He's a lying fiend! a monster, and not a human being! I've +been told I might leave him before; and I've made the attempt, but I dare +not repeat it! Only, Ellen, promise you'll not mention a syllable of his +infamous conversation to my brother or Catherine. Whatever he may +pretend, he wishes to provoke Edgar to desperation: he says he has +married me on purpose to obtain power over him; and he sha'n't obtain +it--I'll die first! I just hope, I pray, that he may forget his +diabolical prudence and kill me! The single pleasure I can imagine is to +die, or to see him dead!' + +'There--that will do for the present!' said Heathcliff. 'If you are +called upon in a court of law, you'll remember her language, Nelly! And +take a good look at that countenance: she's near the point which would +suit me. No; you're not fit to be your own guardian, Isabella, now; and +I, being your legal protector, must retain you in my custody, however +distasteful the obligation may be. Go up-stairs; I have something to say +to Ellen Dean in private. That's not the way: up-stairs, I tell you! +Why, this is the road upstairs, child!' + +He seized, and thrust her from the room; and returned muttering--'I have +no pity! I have no pity! The more the worms writhe, the more I yearn to +crush out their entrails! It is a moral teething; and I grind with +greater energy in proportion to the increase of pain.' + +'Do you understand what the word pity means?' I said, hastening to resume +my bonnet. 'Did you ever feel a touch of it in your life?' + +'Put that down!' he interrupted, perceiving my intention to depart. 'You +are not going yet. Come here now, Nelly: I must either persuade or +compel you to aid me in fulfilling my determination to see Catherine, and +that without delay. I swear that I meditate no harm: I don't desire to +cause any disturbance, or to exasperate or insult Mr. Linton; I only wish +to hear from herself how she is, and why she has been ill; and to ask if +anything that I could do would be of use to her. Last night I was in the +Grange garden six hours, and I'll return there to-night; and every night +I'll haunt the place, and every day, till I find an opportunity of +entering. If Edgar Linton meets me, I shall not hesitate to knock him +down, and give him enough to insure his quiescence while I stay. If his +servants oppose me, I shall threaten them off with these pistols. But +wouldn't it be better to prevent my coming in contact with them, or their +master? And you could do it so easily. I'd warn you when I came, and +then you might let me in unobserved, as soon as she was alone, and watch +till I departed, your conscience quite calm: you would be hindering +mischief.' + +I protested against playing that treacherous part in my employer's house: +and, besides, I urged the cruelty and selfishness of his destroying Mrs. +Linton's tranquillity for his satisfaction. 'The commonest occurrence +startles her painfully,' I said. 'She's all nerves, and she couldn't +bear the surprise, I'm positive. Don't persist, sir! or else I shall be +obliged to inform my master of your designs; and he'll take measures to +secure his house and its inmates from any such unwarrantable intrusions!' + +'In that case I'll take measures to secure you, woman!' exclaimed +Heathcliff; 'you shall not leave Wuthering Heights till to-morrow +morning. It is a foolish story to assert that Catherine could not bear +to see me; and as to surprising her, I don't desire it: you must prepare +her--ask her if I may come. You say she never mentions my name, and that +I am never mentioned to her. To whom should she mention me if I am a +forbidden topic in the house? She thinks you are all spies for her +husband. Oh, I've no doubt she's in hell among you! I guess by her +silence, as much as anything, what she feels. You say she is often +restless, and anxious-looking: is that a proof of tranquillity? You talk +of her mind being unsettled. How the devil could it be otherwise in her +frightful isolation? And that insipid, paltry creature attending her +from _duty_ and _humanity_! From _pity_ and _charity_! He might as well +plant an oak in a flower-pot, and expect it to thrive, as imagine he can +restore her to vigour in the soil of his shallow cares? Let us settle it +at once: will you stay here, and am I to fight my way to Catherine over +Linton and his footman? Or will you be my friend, as you have been +hitherto, and do what I request? Decide! because there is no reason for +my lingering another minute, if you persist in your stubborn ill-nature!' + +Well, Mr. Lockwood, I argued and complained, and flatly refused him fifty +times; but in the long run he forced me to an agreement. I engaged to +carry a letter from him to my mistress; and should she consent, I +promised to let him have intelligence of Linton's next absence from home, +when he might come, and get in as he was able: I wouldn't be there, and +my fellow-servants should be equally out of the way. Was it right or +wrong? I fear it was wrong, though expedient. I thought I prevented +another explosion by my compliance; and I thought, too, it might create a +favourable crisis in Catherine's mental illness: and then I remembered +Mr. Edgar's stern rebuke of my carrying tales; and I tried to smooth away +all disquietude on the subject, by affirming, with frequent iteration, +that that betrayal of trust, if it merited so harsh an appellation, +should be the last. Notwithstanding, my journey homeward was sadder than +my journey thither; and many misgivings I had, ere I could prevail on +myself to put the missive into Mrs. Linton's hand. + +But here is Kenneth; I'll go down, and tell him how much better you are. +My history is _dree_, as we say, and will serve to while away another +morning. + +Dree, and dreary! I reflected as the good woman descended to receive the +doctor: and not exactly of the kind which I should have chosen to amuse +me. But never mind! I'll extract wholesome medicines from Mrs. Dean's +bitter herbs; and firstly, let me beware of the fascination that lurks in +Catherine Heathcliff's brilliant eyes. I should be in a curious taking +if I surrendered my heart to that young person, and the daughter turned +out a second edition of the mother. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +Another week over--and I am so many days nearer health, and spring! I +have now heard all my neighbour's history, at different sittings, as the +housekeeper could spare time from more important occupations. I'll +continue it in her own words, only a little condensed. She is, on the +whole, a very fair narrator, and I don't think I could improve her style. + +In the evening, she said, the evening of my visit to the Heights, I knew, +as well as if I saw him, that Mr. Heathcliff was about the place; and I +shunned going out, because I still carried his letter in my pocket, and +didn't want to be threatened or teased any more. I had made up my mind +not to give it till my master went somewhere, as I could not guess how +its receipt would affect Catherine. The consequence was, that it did not +reach her before the lapse of three days. The fourth was Sunday, and I +brought it into her room after the family were gone to church. There was +a manservant left to keep the house with me, and we generally made a +practice of locking the doors during the hours of service; but on that +occasion the weather was so warm and pleasant that I set them wide open, +and, to fulfil my engagement, as I knew who would be coming, I told my +companion that the mistress wished very much for some oranges, and he +must run over to the village and get a few, to be paid for on the morrow. +He departed, and I went up-stairs. + +Mrs. Linton sat in a loose white dress, with a light shawl over her +shoulders, in the recess of the open window, as usual. Her thick, long +hair had been partly removed at the beginning of her illness, and now she +wore it simply combed in its natural tresses over her temples and neck. +Her appearance was altered, as I had told Heathcliff; but when she was +calm, there seemed unearthly beauty in the change. The flash of her eyes +had been succeeded by a dreamy and melancholy softness; they no longer +gave the impression of looking at the objects around her: they appeared +always to gaze beyond, and far beyond--you would have said out of this +world. Then, the paleness of her face--its haggard aspect having +vanished as she recovered flesh--and the peculiar expression arising from +her mental state, though painfully suggestive of their causes, added to +the touching interest which she awakened; and--invariably to me, I know, +and to any person who saw her, I should think--refuted more tangible +proofs of convalescence, and stamped her as one doomed to decay. + +A book lay spread on the sill before her, and the scarcely perceptible +wind fluttered its leaves at intervals. I believe Linton had laid it +there: for she never endeavoured to divert herself with reading, or +occupation of any kind, and he would spend many an hour in trying to +entice her attention to some subject which had formerly been her +amusement. She was conscious of his aim, and in her better moods endured +his efforts placidly, only showing their uselessness by now and then +suppressing a wearied sigh, and checking him at last with the saddest of +smiles and kisses. At other times, she would turn petulantly away, and +hide her face in her hands, or even push him off angrily; and then he +took care to let her alone, for he was certain of doing no good. + +Gimmerton chapel bells were still ringing; and the full, mellow flow of +the beck in the valley came soothingly on the ear. It was a sweet +substitute for the yet absent murmur of the summer foliage, which drowned +that music about the Grange when the trees were in leaf. At Wuthering +Heights it always sounded on quiet days following a great thaw or a +season of steady rain. And of Wuthering Heights Catherine was thinking +as she listened: that is, if she thought or listened at all; but she had +the vague, distant look I mentioned before, which expressed no +recognition of material things either by ear or eye. + +'There's a letter for you, Mrs. Linton,' I said, gently inserting it in +one hand that rested on her knee. 'You must read it immediately, because +it wants an answer. Shall I break the seal?' 'Yes,' she answered, +without altering the direction of her eyes. I opened it--it was very +short. 'Now,' I continued, 'read it.' She drew away her hand, and let +it fall. I replaced it in her lap, and stood waiting till it should +please her to glance down; but that movement was so long delayed that at +last I resumed--'Must I read it, ma'am? It is from Mr. Heathcliff.' + +There was a start and a troubled gleam of recollection, and a struggle to +arrange her ideas. She lifted the letter, and seemed to peruse it; and +when she came to the signature she sighed: yet still I found she had not +gathered its import, for, upon my desiring to hear her reply, she merely +pointed to the name, and gazed at me with mournful and questioning +eagerness. + +'Well, he wishes to see you,' said I, guessing her need of an +interpreter. 'He's in the garden by this time, and impatient to know +what answer I shall bring.' + +As I spoke, I observed a large dog lying on the sunny grass beneath raise +its ears as if about to bark, and then smoothing them back, announce, by +a wag of the tail, that some one approached whom it did not consider a +stranger. Mrs. Linton bent forward, and listened breathlessly. The +minute after a step traversed the hall; the open house was too tempting +for Heathcliff to resist walking in: most likely he supposed that I was +inclined to shirk my promise, and so resolved to trust to his own +audacity. With straining eagerness Catherine gazed towards the entrance +of her chamber. He did not hit the right room directly: she motioned me +to admit him, but he found it out ere I could reach the door, and in a +stride or two was at her side, and had her grasped in his arms. + +He neither spoke nor loosed his hold for some five minutes, during which +period he bestowed more kisses than ever he gave in his life before, I +daresay: but then my mistress had kissed him first, and I plainly saw +that he could hardly bear, for downright agony, to look into her face! +The same conviction had stricken him as me, from the instant he beheld +her, that there was no prospect of ultimate recovery there--she was +fated, sure to die. + +'Oh, Cathy! Oh, my life! how can I bear it?' was the first sentence he +uttered, in a tone that did not seek to disguise his despair. And now he +stared at her so earnestly that I thought the very intensity of his gaze +would bring tears into his eyes; but they burned with anguish: they did +not melt. + +'What now?' said Catherine, leaning back, and returning his look with a +suddenly clouded brow: her humour was a mere vane for constantly varying +caprices. 'You and Edgar have broken my heart, Heathcliff! And you both +come to bewail the deed to me, as if you were the people to be pitied! I +shall not pity you, not I. You have killed me--and thriven on it, I +think. How strong you are! How many years do you mean to live after I +am gone?' + +Heathcliff had knelt on one knee to embrace her; he attempted to rise, +but she seized his hair, and kept him down. + +'I wish I could hold you,' she continued, bitterly, 'till we were both +dead! I shouldn't care what you suffered. I care nothing for your +sufferings. Why shouldn't you suffer? I do! Will you forget me? Will +you be happy when I am in the earth? Will you say twenty years hence, +"That's the grave of Catherine Earnshaw? I loved her long ago, and was +wretched to lose her; but it is past. I've loved many others since: my +children are dearer to me than she was; and, at death, I shall not +rejoice that I am going to her: I shall be sorry that I must leave +them!" Will you say so, Heathcliff?' + +'Don't torture me till I'm as mad as yourself,' cried he, wrenching his +head free, and grinding his teeth. + +The two, to a cool spectator, made a strange and fearful picture. Well +might Catherine deem that heaven would be a land of exile to her, unless +with her mortal body she cast away her moral character also. Her present +countenance had a wild vindictiveness in its white cheek, and a bloodless +lip and scintillating eye; and she retained in her closed fingers a +portion of the locks she had been grasping. As to her companion, while +raising himself with one hand, he had taken her arm with the other; and +so inadequate was his stock of gentleness to the requirements of her +condition, that on his letting go I saw four distinct impressions left +blue in the colourless skin. + +'Are you possessed with a devil,' he pursued, savagely, 'to talk in that +manner to me when you are dying? Do you reflect that all those words +will be branded in my memory, and eating deeper eternally after you have +left me? You know you lie to say I have killed you: and, Catherine, you +know that I could as soon forget you as my existence! Is it not +sufficient for your infernal selfishness, that while you are at peace I +shall writhe in the torments of hell?' + +'I shall not be at peace,' moaned Catherine, recalled to a sense of +physical weakness by the violent, unequal throbbing of her heart, which +beat visibly and audibly under this excess of agitation. She said +nothing further till the paroxysm was over; then she continued, more +kindly-- + +'I'm not wishing you greater torment than I have, Heathcliff. I only +wish us never to be parted: and should a word of mine distress you +hereafter, think I feel the same distress underground, and for my own +sake, forgive me! Come here and kneel down again! You never harmed me +in your life. Nay, if you nurse anger, that will be worse to remember +than my harsh words! Won't you come here again? Do!' + +Heathcliff went to the back of her chair, and leant over, but not so far +as to let her see his face, which was livid with emotion. She bent round +to look at him; he would not permit it: turning abruptly, he walked to +the fireplace, where he stood, silent, with his back towards us. Mrs. +Linton's glance followed him suspiciously: every movement woke a new +sentiment in her. After a pause and a prolonged gaze, she resumed; +addressing me in accents of indignant disappointment:-- + +'Oh, you see, Nelly, he would not relent a moment to keep me out of the +grave. _That_ is how I'm loved! Well, never mind. That is not _my_ +Heathcliff. I shall love mine yet; and take him with me: he's in my +soul. And,' added she musingly, 'the thing that irks me most is this +shattered prison, after all. I'm tired of being enclosed here. I'm +wearying to escape into that glorious world, and to be always there: not +seeing it dimly through tears, and yearning for it through the walls of +an aching heart: but really with it, and in it. Nelly, you think you are +better and more fortunate than I; in full health and strength: you are +sorry for me--very soon that will be altered. I shall be sorry for +_you_. I shall be incomparably beyond and above you all. I _wonder_ he +won't be near me!' She went on to herself. 'I thought he wished it. +Heathcliff, dear! you should not be sullen now. Do come to me, +Heathcliff.' + +In her eagerness she rose and supported herself on the arm of the chair. +At that earnest appeal he turned to her, looking absolutely desperate. +His eyes, wide and wet, at last flashed fiercely on her; his breast +heaved convulsively. An instant they held asunder, and then how they met +I hardly saw, but Catherine made a spring, and he caught her, and they +were locked in an embrace from which I thought my mistress would never be +released alive: in fact, to my eyes, she seemed directly insensible. He +flung himself into the nearest seat, and on my approaching hurriedly to +ascertain if she had fainted, he gnashed at me, and foamed like a mad +dog, and gathered her to him with greedy jealousy. I did not feel as if +I were in the company of a creature of my own species: it appeared that +he would not understand, though I spoke to him; so I stood off, and held +my tongue, in great perplexity. + +A movement of Catherine's relieved me a little presently: she put up her +hand to clasp his neck, and bring her cheek to his as he held her; while +he, in return, covering her with frantic caresses, said wildly-- + +'You teach me now how cruel you've been--cruel and false. _Why_ did you +despise me? _Why_ did you betray your own heart, Cathy? I have not one +word of comfort. You deserve this. You have killed yourself. Yes, you +may kiss me, and cry; and wring out my kisses and tears: they'll blight +you--they'll damn you. You loved me--then what _right_ had you to leave +me? What right--answer me--for the poor fancy you felt for Linton? +Because misery and degradation, and death, and nothing that God or Satan +could inflict would have parted us, _you_, of your own will, did it. I +have not broken your heart--_you_ have broken it; and in breaking it, you +have broken mine. So much the worse for me that I am strong. Do I want +to live? What kind of living will it be when you--oh, God! would _you_ +like to live with your soul in the grave?' + +'Let me alone. Let me alone,' sobbed Catherine. 'If I've done wrong, +I'm dying for it. It is enough! You left me too: but I won't upbraid +you! I forgive you. Forgive me!' + +'It is hard to forgive, and to look at those eyes, and feel those wasted +hands,' he answered. 'Kiss me again; and don't let me see your eyes! I +forgive what you have done to me. I love _my_ murderer--but _yours_! How +can I?' + +They were silent--their faces hid against each other, and washed by each +other's tears. At least, I suppose the weeping was on both sides; as it +seemed Heathcliff could weep on a great occasion like this. + +I grew very uncomfortable, meanwhile; for the afternoon wore fast away, +the man whom I had sent off returned from his errand, and I could +distinguish, by the shine of the western sun up the valley, a concourse +thickening outside Gimmerton chapel porch. + +'Service is over,' I announced. 'My master will be here in half an +hour.' + +Heathcliff groaned a curse, and strained Catherine closer: she never +moved. + +Ere long I perceived a group of the servants passing up the road towards +the kitchen wing. Mr. Linton was not far behind; he opened the gate +himself and sauntered slowly up, probably enjoying the lovely afternoon +that breathed as soft as summer. + +'Now he is here,' I exclaimed. 'For heaven's sake, hurry down! You'll +not meet any one on the front stairs. Do be quick; and stay among the +trees till he is fairly in.' + +'I must go, Cathy,' said Heathcliff, seeking to extricate himself from +his companion's arms. 'But if I live, I'll see you again before you are +asleep. I won't stray five yards from your window.' + +'You must not go!' she answered, holding him as firmly as her strength +allowed. 'You _shall_ not, I tell you.' + +'For one hour,' he pleaded earnestly. + +'Not for one minute,' she replied. + +'I _must_--Linton will be up immediately,' persisted the alarmed +intruder. + +He would have risen, and unfixed her fingers by the act--she clung fast, +gasping: there was mad resolution in her face. + +'No!' she shrieked. 'Oh, don't, don't go. It is the last time! Edgar +will not hurt us. Heathcliff, I shall die! I shall die!' + +'Damn the fool! There he is,' cried Heathcliff, sinking back into his +seat. 'Hush, my darling! Hush, hush, Catherine! I'll stay. If he shot +me so, I'd expire with a blessing on my lips.' + +And there they were fast again. I heard my master mounting the +stairs--the cold sweat ran from my forehead: I was horrified. + +'Are you going to listen to her ravings?' I said, passionately. 'She +does not know what she says. Will you ruin her, because she has not wit +to help herself? Get up! You could be free instantly. That is the most +diabolical deed that ever you did. We are all done for--master, +mistress, and servant.' + +I wrung my hands, and cried out; and Mr. Linton hastened his step at the +noise. In the midst of my agitation, I was sincerely glad to observe +that Catherine's arms had fallen relaxed, and her head hung down. + +'She's fainted, or dead,' I thought: 'so much the better. Far better +that she should be dead, than lingering a burden and a misery-maker to +all about her.' + +Edgar sprang to his unbidden guest, blanched with astonishment and rage. +What he meant to do I cannot tell; however, the other stopped all +demonstrations, at once, by placing the lifeless-looking form in his +arms. + +'Look there!' he said. 'Unless you be a fiend, help her first--then you +shall speak to me!' + +He walked into the parlour, and sat down. Mr. Linton summoned me, and +with great difficulty, and after resorting to many means, we managed to +restore her to sensation; but she was all bewildered; she sighed, and +moaned, and knew nobody. Edgar, in his anxiety for her, forgot her hated +friend. I did not. I went, at the earliest opportunity, and besought +him to depart; affirming that Catherine was better, and he should hear +from me in the morning how she passed the night. + +'I shall not refuse to go out of doors,' he answered; 'but I shall stay +in the garden: and, Nelly, mind you keep your word to-morrow. I shall be +under those larch-trees. Mind! or I pay another visit, whether Linton be +in or not.' + +He sent a rapid glance through the half-open door of the chamber, and, +ascertaining that what I stated was apparently true, delivered the house +of his luckless presence. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +About twelve o'clock that night was born the Catherine you saw at +Wuthering Heights: a puny, seven-months' child; and two hours after the +mother died, having never recovered sufficient consciousness to miss +Heathcliff, or know Edgar. The latter's distraction at his bereavement +is a subject too painful to be dwelt on; its after-effects showed how +deep the sorrow sunk. A great addition, in my eyes, was his being left +without an heir. I bemoaned that, as I gazed on the feeble orphan; and I +mentally abused old Linton for (what was only natural partiality) the +securing his estate to his own daughter, instead of his son's. An +unwelcomed infant it was, poor thing! It might have wailed out of life, +and nobody cared a morsel, during those first hours of existence. We +redeemed the neglect afterwards; but its beginning was as friendless as +its end is likely to be. + +Next morning--bright and cheerful out of doors--stole softened in through +the blinds of the silent room, and suffused the couch and its occupant +with a mellow, tender glow. Edgar Linton had his head laid on the +pillow, and his eyes shut. His young and fair features were almost as +deathlike as those of the form beside him, and almost as fixed: but _his_ +was the hush of exhausted anguish, and _hers_ of perfect peace. Her brow +smooth, her lids closed, her lips wearing the expression of a smile; no +angel in heaven could be more beautiful than she appeared. And I partook +of the infinite calm in which she lay: my mind was never in a holier +frame than while I gazed on that untroubled image of Divine rest. I +instinctively echoed the words she had uttered a few hours before: +'Incomparably beyond and above us all! Whether still on earth or now in +heaven, her spirit is at home with God!' + +I don't know if it be a peculiarity in me, but I am seldom otherwise than +happy while watching in the chamber of death, should no frenzied or +despairing mourner share the duty with me. I see a repose that neither +earth nor hell can break, and I feel an assurance of the endless and +shadowless hereafter--the Eternity they have entered--where life is +boundless in its duration, and love in its sympathy, and joy in its +fulness. I noticed on that occasion how much selfishness there is even +in a love like Mr. Linton's, when he so regretted Catherine's blessed +release! To be sure, one might have doubted, after the wayward and +impatient existence she had led, whether she merited a haven of peace at +last. One might doubt in seasons of cold reflection; but not then, in +the presence of her corpse. It asserted its own tranquillity, which +seemed a pledge of equal quiet to its former inhabitant. + +Do you believe such people are happy in the other world, sir? I'd give a +great deal to know. + +I declined answering Mrs. Dean's question, which struck me as something +heterodox. She proceeded: + +Retracing the course of Catherine Linton, I fear we have no right to +think she is; but we'll leave her with her Maker. + +The master looked asleep, and I ventured soon after sunrise to quit the +room and steal out to the pure refreshing air. The servants thought me +gone to shake off the drowsiness of my protracted watch; in reality, my +chief motive was seeing Mr. Heathcliff. If he had remained among the +larches all night, he would have heard nothing of the stir at the Grange; +unless, perhaps, he might catch the gallop of the messenger going to +Gimmerton. If he had come nearer, he would probably be aware, from the +lights flitting to and fro, and the opening and shutting of the outer +doors, that all was not right within. I wished, yet feared, to find him. +I felt the terrible news must be told, and I longed to get it over; but +how to do it I did not know. He was there--at least, a few yards further +in the park; leant against an old ash-tree, his hat off, and his hair +soaked with the dew that had gathered on the budded branches, and fell +pattering round him. He had been standing a long time in that position, +for I saw a pair of ousels passing and repassing scarcely three feet from +him, busy in building their nest, and regarding his proximity no more +than that of a piece of timber. They flew off at my approach, and he +raised his eyes and spoke:--'She's dead!' he said; 'I've not waited for +you to learn that. Put your handkerchief away--don't snivel before me. +Damn you all! she wants none of your tears!' + +I was weeping as much for him as her: we do sometimes pity creatures that +have none of the feeling either for themselves or others. When I first +looked into his face, I perceived that he had got intelligence of the +catastrophe; and a foolish notion struck me that his heart was quelled +and he prayed, because his lips moved and his gaze was bent on the +ground. + +'Yes, she's dead!' I answered, checking my sobs and drying my cheeks. +'Gone to heaven, I hope; where we may, every one, join her, if we take +due warning and leave our evil ways to follow good!' + +'Did _she_ take due warning, then?' asked Heathcliff, attempting a sneer. +'Did she die like a saint? Come, give me a true history of the event. +How did--?' + +He endeavoured to pronounce the name, but could not manage it; and +compressing his mouth he held a silent combat with his inward agony, +defying, meanwhile, my sympathy with an unflinching, ferocious stare. +'How did she die?' he resumed, at last--fain, notwithstanding his +hardihood, to have a support behind him; for, after the struggle, he +trembled, in spite of himself, to his very finger-ends. + +'Poor wretch!' I thought; 'you have a heart and nerves the same as your +brother men! Why should you be anxious to conceal them? Your pride +cannot blind God! You tempt him to wring them, till he forces a cry of +humiliation.' + +'Quietly as a lamb!' I answered, aloud. 'She drew a sigh, and stretched +herself, like a child reviving, and sinking again to sleep; and five +minutes after I felt one little pulse at her heart, and nothing more!' + +'And--did she ever mention me?' he asked, hesitating, as if he dreaded +the answer to his question would introduce details that he could not bear +to hear. + +'Her senses never returned: she recognised nobody from the time you left +her,' I said. 'She lies with a sweet smile on her face; and her latest +ideas wandered back to pleasant early days. Her life closed in a gentle +dream--may she wake as kindly in the other world!' + +'May she wake in torment!' he cried, with frightful vehemence, stamping +his foot, and groaning in a sudden paroxysm of ungovernable passion. +'Why, she's a liar to the end! Where is she? Not _there_--not in +heaven--not perished--where? Oh! you said you cared nothing for my +sufferings! And I pray one prayer--I repeat it till my tongue +stiffens--Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest as long as I am living; +you said I killed you--haunt me, then! The murdered _do_ haunt their +murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts _have_ wandered on earth. Be +with me always--take any form--drive me mad! only _do_ not leave me in +this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! it is unutterable! I +_cannot_ live without my life! I _cannot_ live without my soul!' + +He dashed his head against the knotted trunk; and, lifting up his eyes, +howled, not like a man, but like a savage beast being goaded to death +with knives and spears. I observed several splashes of blood about the +bark of the tree, and his hand and forehead were both stained; probably +the scene I witnessed was a repetition of others acted during the night. +It hardly moved my compassion--it appalled me: still, I felt reluctant to +quit him so. But the moment he recollected himself enough to notice me +watching, he thundered a command for me to go, and I obeyed. He was +beyond my skill to quiet or console! + +Mrs. Linton's funeral was appointed to take place on the Friday following +her decease; and till then her coffin remained uncovered, and strewn with +flowers and scented leaves, in the great drawing-room. Linton spent his +days and nights there, a sleepless guardian; and--a circumstance +concealed from all but me--Heathcliff spent his nights, at least, +outside, equally a stranger to repose. I held no communication with him: +still, I was conscious of his design to enter, if he could; and on the +Tuesday, a little after dark, when my master, from sheer fatigue, had +been compelled to retire a couple of hours, I went and opened one of the +windows; moved by his perseverance to give him a chance of bestowing on +the faded image of his idol one final adieu. He did not omit to avail +himself of the opportunity, cautiously and briefly; too cautiously to +betray his presence by the slightest noise. Indeed, I shouldn't have +discovered that he had been there, except for the disarrangement of the +drapery about the corpse's face, and for observing on the floor a curl of +light hair, fastened with a silver thread; which, on examination, I +ascertained to have been taken from a locket hung round Catherine's neck. +Heathcliff had opened the trinket and cast out its contents, replacing +them by a black lock of his own. I twisted the two, and enclosed them +together. + +Mr. Earnshaw was, of course, invited to attend the remains of his sister +to the grave; he sent no excuse, but he never came; so that, besides her +husband, the mourners were wholly composed of tenants and servants. +Isabella was not asked. + +The place of Catherine's interment, to the surprise of the villagers, was +neither in the chapel under the carved monument of the Lintons, nor yet +by the tombs of her own relations, outside. It was dug on a green slope +in a corner of the kirk-yard, where the wall is so low that heath and +bilberry-plants have climbed over it from the moor; and peat-mould almost +buries it. Her husband lies in the same spot now; and they have each a +simple headstone above, and a plain grey block at their feet, to mark the +graves. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + +That Friday made the last of our fine days for a month. In the evening +the weather broke: the wind shifted from south to north-east, and brought +rain first, and then sleet and snow. On the morrow one could hardly +imagine that there had been three weeks of summer: the primroses and +crocuses were hidden under wintry drifts; the larks were silent, the +young leaves of the early trees smitten and blackened. And dreary, and +chill, and dismal, that morrow did creep over! My master kept his room; +I took possession of the lonely parlour, converting it into a nursery: +and there I was, sitting with the moaning doll of a child laid on my +knee; rocking it to and fro, and watching, meanwhile, the still driving +flakes build up the uncurtained window, when the door opened, and some +person entered, out of breath and laughing! My anger was greater than my +astonishment for a minute. I supposed it one of the maids, and I +cried--'Have done! How dare you show your giddiness here; What would Mr. +Linton say if he heard you?' + +'Excuse me!' answered a familiar voice; 'but I know Edgar is in bed, and +I cannot stop myself.' + +With that the speaker came forward to the fire, panting and holding her +hand to her side. + +'I have run the whole way from Wuthering Heights!' she continued, after a +pause; 'except where I've flown. I couldn't count the number of falls +I've had. Oh, I'm aching all over! Don't be alarmed! There shall be an +explanation as soon as I can give it; only just have the goodness to step +out and order the carriage to take me on to Gimmerton, and tell a servant +to seek up a few clothes in my wardrobe.' + +The intruder was Mrs. Heathcliff. She certainly seemed in no laughing +predicament: her hair streamed on her shoulders, dripping with snow and +water; she was dressed in the girlish dress she commonly wore, befitting +her age more than her position: a low frock with short sleeves, and +nothing on either head or neck. The frock was of light silk, and clung +to her with wet, and her feet were protected merely by thin slippers; add +to this a deep cut under one ear, which only the cold prevented from +bleeding profusely, a white face scratched and bruised, and a frame +hardly able to support itself through fatigue; and you may fancy my first +fright was not much allayed when I had had leisure to examine her. + +'My dear young lady,' I exclaimed, 'I'll stir nowhere, and hear nothing, +till you have removed every article of your clothes, and put on dry +things; and certainly you shall not go to Gimmerton to-night, so it is +needless to order the carriage.' + +'Certainly I shall,' she said; 'walking or riding: yet I've no objection +to dress myself decently. And--ah, see how it flows down my neck now! +The fire does make it smart.' + +She insisted on my fulfilling her directions, before she would let me +touch her; and not till after the coachman had been instructed to get +ready, and a maid set to pack up some necessary attire, did I obtain her +consent for binding the wound and helping to change her garments. + +'Now, Ellen,' she said, when my task was finished and she was seated in +an easy-chair on the hearth, with a cup of tea before her, 'you sit down +opposite me, and put poor Catherine's baby away: I don't like to see it! +You mustn't think I care little for Catherine, because I behaved so +foolishly on entering: I've cried, too, bitterly--yes, more than any one +else has reason to cry. We parted unreconciled, you remember, and I +sha'n't forgive myself. But, for all that, I was not going to sympathise +with him--the brute beast! Oh, give me the poker! This is the last +thing of his I have about me:' she slipped the gold ring from her third +finger, and threw it on the floor. 'I'll smash it!' she continued, +striking it with childish spite, 'and then I'll burn it!' and she took +and dropped the misused article among the coals. 'There! he shall buy +another, if he gets me back again. He'd be capable of coming to seek me, +to tease Edgar. I dare not stay, lest that notion should possess his +wicked head! And besides, Edgar has not been kind, has he? And I won't +come suing for his assistance; nor will I bring him into more trouble. +Necessity compelled me to seek shelter here; though, if I had not learned +he was out of the way, I'd have halted at the kitchen, washed my face, +warmed myself, got you to bring what I wanted, and departed again to +anywhere out of the reach of my accursed--of that incarnate goblin! Ah, +he was in such a fury! If he had caught me! It's a pity Earnshaw is not +his match in strength: I wouldn't have run till I'd seen him all but +demolished, had Hindley been able to do it!' + +'Well, don't talk so fast, Miss!' I interrupted; 'you'll disorder the +handkerchief I have tied round your face, and make the cut bleed again. +Drink your tea, and take breath, and give over laughing: laughter is +sadly out of place under this roof, and in your condition!' + +'An undeniable truth,' she replied. 'Listen to that child! It maintains +a constant wail--send it out of my hearing for an hour; I sha'n't stay +any longer.' + +I rang the bell, and committed it to a servant's care; and then I +inquired what had urged her to escape from Wuthering Heights in such an +unlikely plight, and where she meant to go, as she refused remaining with +us. + +'I ought, and I wished to remain,' answered she, 'to cheer Edgar and take +care of the baby, for two things, and because the Grange is my right +home. But I tell you he wouldn't let me! Do you think he could bear to +see me grow fat and merry--could bear to think that we were tranquil, and +not resolve on poisoning our comfort? Now, I have the satisfaction of +being sure that he detests me, to the point of its annoying him seriously +to have me within ear-shot or eyesight: I notice, when I enter his +presence, the muscles of his countenance are involuntarily distorted into +an expression of hatred; partly arising from his knowledge of the good +causes I have to feel that sentiment for him, and partly from original +aversion. It is strong enough to make me feel pretty certain that he +would not chase me over England, supposing I contrived a clear escape; +and therefore I must get quite away. I've recovered from my first desire +to be killed by him: I'd rather he'd kill himself! He has extinguished +my love effectually, and so I'm at my ease. I can recollect yet how I +loved him; and can dimly imagine that I could still be loving him, if--no, +no! Even if he had doted on me, the devilish nature would have revealed +its existence somehow. Catherine had an awfully perverted taste to +esteem him so dearly, knowing him so well. Monster! would that he could +be blotted out of creation, and out of my memory!' + +'Hush, hush! He's a human being,' I said. 'Be more charitable: there +are worse men than he is yet!' + +'He's not a human being,' she retorted; 'and he has no claim on my +charity. I gave him my heart, and he took and pinched it to death, and +flung it back to me. People feel with their hearts, Ellen: and since he +has destroyed mine, I have not power to feel for him: and I would not, +though he groaned from this to his dying day, and wept tears of blood for +Catherine! No, indeed, indeed, I wouldn't!' And here Isabella began to +cry; but, immediately dashing the water from her lashes, she recommenced. +'You asked, what has driven me to flight at last? I was compelled to +attempt it, because I had succeeded in rousing his rage a pitch above his +malignity. Pulling out the nerves with red hot pincers requires more +coolness than knocking on the head. He was worked up to forget the +fiendish prudence he boasted of, and proceeded to murderous violence. I +experienced pleasure in being able to exasperate him: the sense of +pleasure woke my instinct of self-preservation, so I fairly broke free; +and if ever I come into his hands again he is welcome to a signal +revenge. + +'Yesterday, you know, Mr. Earnshaw should have been at the funeral. He +kept himself sober for the purpose--tolerably sober: not going to bed mad +at six o'clock and getting up drunk at twelve. Consequently, he rose, in +suicidal low spirits, as fit for the church as for a dance; and instead, +he sat down by the fire and swallowed gin or brandy by tumblerfuls. + +'Heathcliff--I shudder to name him! has been a stranger in the house from +last Sunday till to-day. Whether the angels have fed him, or his kin +beneath, I cannot tell; but he has not eaten a meal with us for nearly a +week. He has just come home at dawn, and gone up-stairs to his chamber; +locking himself in--as if anybody dreamt of coveting his company! There +he has continued, praying like a Methodist: only the deity he implored is +senseless dust and ashes; and God, when addressed, was curiously +confounded with his own black father! After concluding these precious +orisons--and they lasted generally till he grew hoarse and his voice was +strangled in his throat--he would be off again; always straight down to +the Grange! I wonder Edgar did not send for a constable, and give him +into custody! For me, grieved as I was about Catherine, it was +impossible to avoid regarding this season of deliverance from degrading +oppression as a holiday. + +'I recovered spirits sufficient to bear Joseph's eternal lectures without +weeping, and to move up and down the house less with the foot of a +frightened thief than formerly. You wouldn't think that I should cry at +anything Joseph could say; but he and Hareton are detestable companions. +I'd rather sit with Hindley, and hear his awful talk, than with "t' +little maister" and his staunch supporter, that odious old man! When +Heathcliff is in, I'm often obliged to seek the kitchen and their +society, or starve among the damp uninhabited chambers; when he is not, +as was the case this week, I establish a table and chair at one corner of +the house fire, and never mind how Mr. Earnshaw may occupy himself; and +he does not interfere with my arrangements. He is quieter now than he +used to be, if no one provokes him: more sullen and depressed, and less +furious. Joseph affirms he's sure he's an altered man: that the Lord has +touched his heart, and he is saved "so as by fire." I'm puzzled to +detect signs of the favourable change: but it is not my business. + +'Yester-evening I sat in my nook reading some old books till late on +towards twelve. It seemed so dismal to go up-stairs, with the wild snow +blowing outside, and my thoughts continually reverting to the kirk-yard +and the new-made grave! I dared hardly lift my eyes from the page before +me, that melancholy scene so instantly usurped its place. Hindley sat +opposite, his head leant on his hand; perhaps meditating on the same +subject. He had ceased drinking at a point below irrationality, and had +neither stirred nor spoken during two or three hours. There was no sound +through the house but the moaning wind, which shook the windows every now +and then, the faint crackling of the coals, and the click of my snuffers +as I removed at intervals the long wick of the candle. Hareton and +Joseph were probably fast asleep in bed. It was very, very sad: and +while I read I sighed, for it seemed as if all joy had vanished from the +world, never to be restored. + +'The doleful silence was broken at length by the sound of the kitchen +latch: Heathcliff had returned from his watch earlier than usual; owing, +I suppose, to the sudden storm. That entrance was fastened, and we heard +him coming round to get in by the other. I rose with an irrepressible +expression of what I felt on my lips, which induced my companion, who had +been staring towards the door, to turn and look at me. + +'"I'll keep him out five minutes," he exclaimed. "You won't object?" + +'"No, you may keep him out the whole night for me," I answered. "Do! put +the key in the lock, and draw the bolts." + +'Earnshaw accomplished this ere his guest reached the front; he then came +and brought his chair to the other side of my table, leaning over it, and +searching in my eyes for a sympathy with the burning hate that gleamed +from his: as he both looked and felt like an assassin, he couldn't +exactly find that; but he discovered enough to encourage him to speak. + +'"You, and I," he said, "have each a great debt to settle with the man +out yonder! If we were neither of us cowards, we might combine to +discharge it. Are you as soft as your brother? Are you willing to +endure to the last, and not once attempt a repayment?" + +'"I'm weary of enduring now," I replied; "and I'd be glad of a +retaliation that wouldn't recoil on myself; but treachery and violence +are spears pointed at both ends; they wound those who resort to them +worse than their enemies." + +'"Treachery and violence are a just return for treachery and violence!" +cried Hindley. "Mrs. Heathcliff, I'll ask you to do nothing; but sit +still and be dumb. Tell me now, can you? I'm sure you would have as +much pleasure as I in witnessing the conclusion of the fiend's existence; +he'll be _your_ death unless you overreach him; and he'll be _my_ ruin. +Damn the hellish villain! He knocks at the door as if he were master +here already! Promise to hold your tongue, and before that clock +strikes--it wants three minutes of one--you're a free woman!" + +'He took the implements which I described to you in my letter from his +breast, and would have turned down the candle. I snatched it away, +however, and seized his arm. + +'"I'll not hold my tongue!" I said; "you mustn't touch him. Let the door +remain shut, and be quiet!" + +'"No! I've formed my resolution, and by God I'll execute it!" cried the +desperate being. "I'll do you a kindness in spite of yourself, and +Hareton justice! And you needn't trouble your head to screen me; +Catherine is gone. Nobody alive would regret me, or be ashamed, though I +cut my throat this minute--and it's time to make an end!" + +'I might as well have struggled with a bear, or reasoned with a lunatic. +The only resource left me was to run to a lattice and warn his intended +victim of the fate which awaited him. + +'"You'd better seek shelter somewhere else to-night!" I exclaimed, in +rather a triumphant tone. "Mr. Earnshaw has a mind to shoot you, if you +persist in endeavouring to enter." + +'"You'd better open the door, you--" he answered, addressing me by some +elegant term that I don't care to repeat. + +'"I shall not meddle in the matter," I retorted again. "Come in and get +shot, if you please. I've done my duty." + +'With that I shut the window and returned to my place by the fire; having +too small a stock of hypocrisy at my command to pretend any anxiety for +the danger that menaced him. Earnshaw swore passionately at me: +affirming that I loved the villain yet; and calling me all sorts of names +for the base spirit I evinced. And I, in my secret heart (and conscience +never reproached me), thought what a blessing it would be for _him_ +should Heathcliff put him out of misery; and what a blessing for _me_ +should he send Heathcliff to his right abode! As I sat nursing these +reflections, the casement behind me was banged on to the floor by a blow +from the latter individual, and his black countenance looked blightingly +through. The stanchions stood too close to suffer his shoulders to +follow, and I smiled, exulting in my fancied security. His hair and +clothes were whitened with snow, and his sharp cannibal teeth, revealed +by cold and wrath, gleamed through the dark. + +'"Isabella, let me in, or I'll make you repent!" he "girned," as Joseph +calls it. + +'"I cannot commit murder," I replied. "Mr. Hindley stands sentinel with +a knife and loaded pistol." + +'"Let me in by the kitchen door," he said. + +'"Hindley will be there before me," I answered: "and that's a poor love +of yours that cannot bear a shower of snow! We were left at peace in our +beds as long as the summer moon shone, but the moment a blast of winter +returns, you must run for shelter! Heathcliff, if I were you, I'd go +stretch myself over her grave and die like a faithful dog. The world is +surely not worth living in now, is it? You had distinctly impressed on +me the idea that Catherine was the whole joy of your life: I can't +imagine how you think of surviving her loss." + +'"He's there, is he?" exclaimed my companion, rushing to the gap. "If I +can get my arm out I can hit him!" + +'I'm afraid, Ellen, you'll set me down as really wicked; but you don't +know all, so don't judge. I wouldn't have aided or abetted an attempt on +even _his_ life for anything. Wish that he were dead, I must; and +therefore I was fearfully disappointed, and unnerved by terror for the +consequences of my taunting speech, when he flung himself on Earnshaw's +weapon and wrenched it from his grasp. + +'The charge exploded, and the knife, in springing back, closed into its +owner's wrist. Heathcliff pulled it away by main force, slitting up the +flesh as it passed on, and thrust it dripping into his pocket. He then +took a stone, struck down the division between two windows, and sprang +in. His adversary had fallen senseless with excessive pain and the flow +of blood, that gushed from an artery or a large vein. The ruffian kicked +and trampled on him, and dashed his head repeatedly against the flags, +holding me with one hand, meantime, to prevent me summoning Joseph. He +exerted preterhuman self-denial in abstaining from finishing him +completely; but getting out of breath, he finally desisted, and dragged +the apparently inanimate body on to the settle. There he tore off the +sleeve of Earnshaw's coat, and bound up the wound with brutal roughness; +spitting and cursing during the operation as energetically as he had +kicked before. Being at liberty, I lost no time in seeking the old +servant; who, having gathered by degrees the purport of my hasty tale, +hurried below, gasping, as he descended the steps two at once. + +'"What is ther to do, now? what is ther to do, now?" + +'"There's this to do," thundered Heathcliff, "that your master's mad; and +should he last another month, I'll have him to an asylum. And how the +devil did you come to fasten me out, you toothless hound? Don't stand +muttering and mumbling there. Come, I'm not going to nurse him. Wash +that stuff away; and mind the sparks of your candle--it is more than half +brandy!" + +'"And so ye've been murthering on him?" exclaimed Joseph, lifting his +hands and eyes in horror. "If iver I seed a seeght loike this! May the +Lord--" + +'Heathcliff gave him a push on to his knees in the middle of the blood, +and flung a towel to him; but instead of proceeding to dry it up, he +joined his hands and began a prayer, which excited my laughter from its +odd phraseology. I was in the condition of mind to be shocked at +nothing: in fact, I was as reckless as some malefactors show themselves +at the foot of the gallows. + +'"Oh, I forgot you," said the tyrant. "You shall do that. Down with +you. And you conspire with him against me, do you, viper? There, that +is work fit for you!" + +'He shook me till my teeth rattled, and pitched me beside Joseph, who +steadily concluded his supplications, and then rose, vowing he would set +off for the Grange directly. Mr. Linton was a magistrate, and though he +had fifty wives dead, he should inquire into this. He was so obstinate +in his resolution, that Heathcliff deemed it expedient to compel from my +lips a recapitulation of what had taken place; standing over me, heaving +with malevolence, as I reluctantly delivered the account in answer to his +questions. It required a great deal of labour to satisfy the old man +that Heathcliff was not the aggressor; especially with my hardly-wrung +replies. However, Mr. Earnshaw soon convinced him that he was alive +still; Joseph hastened to administer a dose of spirits, and by their +succour his master presently regained motion and consciousness. +Heathcliff, aware that his opponent was ignorant of the treatment +received while insensible, called him deliriously intoxicated; and said +he should not notice his atrocious conduct further, but advised him to +get to bed. To my joy, he left us, after giving this judicious counsel, +and Hindley stretched himself on the hearthstone. I departed to my own +room, marvelling that I had escaped so easily. + +'This morning, when I came down, about half an hour before noon, Mr. +Earnshaw was sitting by the fire, deadly sick; his evil genius, almost as +gaunt and ghastly, leant against the chimney. Neither appeared inclined +to dine, and, having waited till all was cold on the table, I commenced +alone. Nothing hindered me from eating heartily, and I experienced a +certain sense of satisfaction and superiority, as, at intervals, I cast a +look towards my silent companions, and felt the comfort of a quiet +conscience within me. After I had done, I ventured on the unusual +liberty of drawing near the fire, going round Earnshaw's seat, and +kneeling in the corner beside him. + +'Heathcliff did not glance my way, and I gazed up, and contemplated his +features almost as confidently as if they had been turned to stone. His +forehead, that I once thought so manly, and that I now think so +diabolical, was shaded with a heavy cloud; his basilisk eyes were nearly +quenched by sleeplessness, and weeping, perhaps, for the lashes were wet +then: his lips devoid of their ferocious sneer, and sealed in an +expression of unspeakable sadness. Had it been another, I would have +covered my face in the presence of such grief. In _his_ case, I was +gratified; and, ignoble as it seems to insult a fallen enemy, I couldn't +miss this chance of sticking in a dart: his weakness was the only time +when I could taste the delight of paying wrong for wrong.' + +'Fie, fie, Miss!' I interrupted. 'One might suppose you had never opened +a Bible in your life. If God afflict your enemies, surely that ought to +suffice you. It is both mean and presumptuous to add your torture to +his!' + +'In general I'll allow that it would be, Ellen,' she continued; 'but what +misery laid on Heathcliff could content me, unless I have a hand in it? +I'd rather he suffered less, if I might cause his sufferings and he might +_know_ that I was the cause. Oh, I owe him so much. On only one +condition can I hope to forgive him. It is, if I may take an eye for an +eye, a tooth for a tooth; for every wrench of agony return a wrench: +reduce him to my level. As he was the first to injure, make him the +first to implore pardon; and then--why then, Ellen, I might show you some +generosity. But it is utterly impossible I can ever be revenged, and +therefore I cannot forgive him. Hindley wanted some water, and I handed +him a glass, and asked him how he was. + +'"Not as ill as I wish," he replied. "But leaving out my arm, every inch +of me is as sore as if I had been fighting with a legion of imps!" + +'"Yes, no wonder," was my next remark. "Catherine used to boast that she +stood between you and bodily harm: she meant that certain persons would +not hurt you for fear of offending her. It's well people don't _really_ +rise from their grave, or, last night, she might have witnessed a +repulsive scene! Are not you bruised, and cut over your chest and +shoulders?" + +'"I can't say," he answered, "but what do you mean? Did he dare to +strike me when I was down?" + +'"He trampled on and kicked you, and dashed you on the ground," I +whispered. "And his mouth watered to tear you with his teeth; because +he's only half man: not so much, and the rest fiend." + +'Mr. Earnshaw looked up, like me, to the countenance of our mutual foe; +who, absorbed in his anguish, seemed insensible to anything around him: +the longer he stood, the plainer his reflections revealed their blackness +through his features. + +'"Oh, if God would but give me strength to strangle him in my last agony, +I'd go to hell with joy," groaned the impatient man, writhing to rise, +and sinking back in despair, convinced of his inadequacy for the +struggle. + +'"Nay, it's enough that he has murdered one of you," I observed aloud. +"At the Grange, every one knows your sister would have been living now +had it not been for Mr. Heathcliff. After all, it is preferable to be +hated than loved by him. When I recollect how happy we were--how happy +Catherine was before he came--I'm fit to curse the day." + +'Most likely, Heathcliff noticed more the truth of what was said, than +the spirit of the person who said it. His attention was roused, I saw, +for his eyes rained down tears among the ashes, and he drew his breath in +suffocating sighs. I stared full at him, and laughed scornfully. The +clouded windows of hell flashed a moment towards me; the fiend which +usually looked out, however, was so dimmed and drowned that I did not +fear to hazard another sound of derision. + +'"Get up, and begone out of my sight," said the mourner. + +'I guessed he uttered those words, at least, though his voice was hardly +intelligible. + +'"I beg your pardon," I replied. "But I loved Catherine too; and her +brother requires attendance, which, for her sake, I shall supply. Now, +that she's dead, I see her in Hindley: Hindley has exactly her eyes, if +you had not tried to gouge them out, and made them black and red; and +her--" + +'"Get up, wretched idiot, before I stamp you to death!" he cried, making +a movement that caused me to make one also. + +'"But then," I continued, holding myself ready to flee, "if poor +Catherine had trusted you, and assumed the ridiculous, contemptible, +degrading title of Mrs. Heathcliff, she would soon have presented a +similar picture! _She_ wouldn't have borne your abominable behaviour +quietly: her detestation and disgust must have found voice." + +'The back of the settle and Earnshaw's person interposed between me and +him; so instead of endeavouring to reach me, he snatched a dinner-knife +from the table and flung it at my head. It struck beneath my ear, and +stopped the sentence I was uttering; but, pulling it out, I sprang to the +door and delivered another; which I hope went a little deeper than his +missile. The last glimpse I caught of him was a furious rush on his +part, checked by the embrace of his host; and both fell locked together +on the hearth. In my flight through the kitchen I bid Joseph speed to +his master; I knocked over Hareton, who was hanging a litter of puppies +from a chair-back in the doorway; and, blessed as a soul escaped from +purgatory, I bounded, leaped, and flew down the steep road; then, +quitting its windings, shot direct across the moor, rolling over banks, +and wading through marshes: precipitating myself, in fact, towards the +beacon-light of the Grange. And far rather would I be condemned to a +perpetual dwelling in the infernal regions than, even for one night, +abide beneath the roof of Wuthering Heights again.' + +Isabella ceased speaking, and took a drink of tea; then she rose, and +bidding me put on her bonnet, and a great shawl I had brought, and +turning a deaf ear to my entreaties for her to remain another hour, she +stepped on to a chair, kissed Edgar's and Catherine's portraits, bestowed +a similar salute on me, and descended to the carriage, accompanied by +Fanny, who yelped wild with joy at recovering her mistress. She was +driven away, never to revisit this neighbourhood: but a regular +correspondence was established between her and my master when things were +more settled. I believe her new abode was in the south, near London; +there she had a son born a few months subsequent to her escape. He was +christened Linton, and, from the first, she reported him to be an ailing, +peevish creature. + +Mr. Heathcliff, meeting me one day in the village, inquired where she +lived. I refused to tell. He remarked that it was not of any moment, +only she must beware of coming to her brother: she should not be with +him, if he had to keep her himself. Though I would give no information, +he discovered, through some of the other servants, both her place of +residence and the existence of the child. Still, he didn't molest her: +for which forbearance she might thank his aversion, I suppose. He often +asked about the infant, when he saw me; and on hearing its name, smiled +grimly, and observed: 'They wish me to hate it too, do they?' + +'I don't think they wish you to know anything about it,' I answered. + +'But I'll have it,' he said, 'when I want it. They may reckon on that!' + +Fortunately its mother died before the time arrived; some thirteen years +after the decease of Catherine, when Linton was twelve, or a little more. + +On the day succeeding Isabella's unexpected visit I had no opportunity of +speaking to my master: he shunned conversation, and was fit for +discussing nothing. When I could get him to listen, I saw it pleased him +that his sister had left her husband; whom he abhorred with an intensity +which the mildness of his nature would scarcely seem to allow. So deep +and sensitive was his aversion, that he refrained from going anywhere +where he was likely to see or hear of Heathcliff. Grief, and that +together, transformed him into a complete hermit: he threw up his office +of magistrate, ceased even to attend church, avoided the village on all +occasions, and spent a life of entire seclusion within the limits of his +park and grounds; only varied by solitary rambles on the moors, and +visits to the grave of his wife, mostly at evening, or early morning +before other wanderers were abroad. But he was too good to be thoroughly +unhappy long. _He_ didn't pray for Catherine's soul to haunt him. Time +brought resignation, and a melancholy sweeter than common joy. He +recalled her memory with ardent, tender love, and hopeful aspiring to the +better world; where he doubted not she was gone. + +And he had earthly consolation and affections also. For a few days, I +said, he seemed regardless of the puny successor to the departed: that +coldness melted as fast as snow in April, and ere the tiny thing could +stammer a word or totter a step it wielded a despot's sceptre in his +heart. It was named Catherine; but he never called it the name in full, +as he had never called the first Catherine short: probably because +Heathcliff had a habit of doing so. The little one was always Cathy: it +formed to him a distinction from the mother, and yet a connection with +her; and his attachment sprang from its relation to her, far more than +from its being his own. + +I used to draw a comparison between him and Hindley Earnshaw, and perplex +myself to explain satisfactorily why their conduct was so opposite in +similar circumstances. They had both been fond husbands, and were both +attached to their children; and I could not see how they shouldn't both +have taken the same road, for good or evil. But, I thought in my mind, +Hindley, with apparently the stronger head, has shown himself sadly the +worse and the weaker man. When his ship struck, the captain abandoned +his post; and the crew, instead of trying to save her, rushed into riot +and confusion, leaving no hope for their luckless vessel. Linton, on the +contrary, displayed the true courage of a loyal and faithful soul: he +trusted God; and God comforted him. One hoped, and the other despaired: +they chose their own lots, and were righteously doomed to endure them. +But you'll not want to hear my moralising, Mr. Lockwood; you'll judge, as +well as I can, all these things: at least, you'll think you will, and +that's the same. The end of Earnshaw was what might have been expected; +it followed fast on his sister's: there were scarcely six months between +them. We, at the Grange, never got a very succinct account of his state +preceding it; all that I did learn was on occasion of going to aid in the +preparations for the funeral. Mr. Kenneth came to announce the event to +my master. + +'Well, Nelly,' said he, riding into the yard one morning, too early not +to alarm me with an instant presentiment of bad news, 'it's yours and my +turn to go into mourning at present. Who's given us the slip now, do you +think?' + +'Who?' I asked in a flurry. + +'Why, guess!' he returned, dismounting, and slinging his bridle on a hook +by the door. 'And nip up the corner of your apron: I'm certain you'll +need it.' + +'Not Mr. Heathcliff, surely?' I exclaimed. + +'What! would you have tears for him?' said the doctor. 'No, Heathcliff's +a tough young fellow: he looks blooming to-day. I've just seen him. He's +rapidly regaining flesh since he lost his better half.' + +'Who is it, then, Mr. Kenneth?' I repeated impatiently. + +'Hindley Earnshaw! Your old friend Hindley,' he replied, 'and my wicked +gossip: though he's been too wild for me this long while. There! I said +we should draw water. But cheer up! He died true to his character: +drunk as a lord. Poor lad! I'm sorry, too. One can't help missing an +old companion: though he had the worst tricks with him that ever man +imagined, and has done me many a rascally turn. He's barely +twenty-seven, it seems; that's your own age: who would have thought you +were born in one year?' + +I confess this blow was greater to me than the shock of Mrs. Linton's +death: ancient associations lingered round my heart; I sat down in the +porch and wept as for a blood relation, desiring Mr. Kenneth to get +another servant to introduce him to the master. I could not hinder +myself from pondering on the question--'Had he had fair play?' Whatever +I did, that idea would bother me: it was so tiresomely pertinacious that +I resolved on requesting leave to go to Wuthering Heights, and assist in +the last duties to the dead. Mr. Linton was extremely reluctant to +consent, but I pleaded eloquently for the friendless condition in which +he lay; and I said my old master and foster-brother had a claim on my +services as strong as his own. Besides, I reminded him that the child +Hareton was his wife's nephew, and, in the absence of nearer kin, he +ought to act as its guardian; and he ought to and must inquire how the +property was left, and look over the concerns of his brother-in-law. He +was unfit for attending to such matters then, but he bid me speak to his +lawyer; and at length permitted me to go. His lawyer had been Earnshaw's +also: I called at the village, and asked him to accompany me. He shook +his head, and advised that Heathcliff should be let alone; affirming, if +the truth were known, Hareton would be found little else than a beggar. + +'His father died in debt,' he said; 'the whole property is mortgaged, and +the sole chance for the natural heir is to allow him an opportunity of +creating some interest in the creditor's heart, that he may be inclined +to deal leniently towards him.' + +When I reached the Heights, I explained that I had come to see everything +carried on decently; and Joseph, who appeared in sufficient distress, +expressed satisfaction at my presence. Mr. Heathcliff said he did not +perceive that I was wanted; but I might stay and order the arrangements +for the funeral, if I chose. + +'Correctly,' he remarked, 'that fool's body should be buried at the +cross-roads, without ceremony of any kind. I happened to leave him ten +minutes yesterday afternoon, and in that interval he fastened the two +doors of the house against me, and he has spent the night in drinking +himself to death deliberately! We broke in this morning, for we heard +him sporting like a horse; and there he was, laid over the settle: +flaying and scalping would not have wakened him. I sent for Kenneth, and +he came; but not till the beast had changed into carrion: he was both +dead and cold, and stark; and so you'll allow it was useless making more +stir about him!' + +The old servant confirmed this statement, but muttered: + +'I'd rayther he'd goan hisseln for t' doctor! I sud ha' taen tent o' t' +maister better nor him--and he warn't deead when I left, naught o' t' +soart!' + +I insisted on the funeral being respectable. Mr. Heathcliff said I might +have my own way there too: only, he desired me to remember that the money +for the whole affair came out of his pocket. He maintained a hard, +careless deportment, indicative of neither joy nor sorrow: if anything, +it expressed a flinty gratification at a piece of difficult work +successfully executed. I observed once, indeed, something like +exultation in his aspect: it was just when the people were bearing the +coffin from the house. He had the hypocrisy to represent a mourner: and +previous to following with Hareton, he lifted the unfortunate child on to +the table and muttered, with peculiar gusto, 'Now, my bonny lad, you are +_mine_! And we'll see if one tree won't grow as crooked as another, with +the same wind to twist it!' The unsuspecting thing was pleased at this +speech: he played with Heathcliff's whiskers, and stroked his cheek; but +I divined its meaning, and observed tartly, 'That boy must go back with +me to Thrushcross Grange, sir. There is nothing in the world less yours +than he is!' + +'Does Linton say so?' he demanded. + +'Of course--he has ordered me to take him,' I replied. + +'Well,' said the scoundrel, 'we'll not argue the subject now: but I have +a fancy to try my hand at rearing a young one; so intimate to your master +that I must supply the place of this with my own, if he attempt to remove +it. I don't engage to let Hareton go undisputed; but I'll be pretty sure +to make the other come! Remember to tell him.' + +This hint was enough to bind our hands. I repeated its substance on my +return; and Edgar Linton, little interested at the commencement, spoke no +more of interfering. I'm not aware that he could have done it to any +purpose, had he been ever so willing. + +The guest was now the master of Wuthering Heights: he held firm +possession, and proved to the attorney--who, in his turn, proved it to +Mr. Linton--that Earnshaw had mortgaged every yard of land he owned for +cash to supply his mania for gaming; and he, Heathcliff, was the +mortgagee. In that manner Hareton, who should now be the first gentleman +in the neighbourhood, was reduced to a state of complete dependence on +his father's inveterate enemy; and lives in his own house as a servant, +deprived of the advantage of wages: quite unable to right himself, +because of his friendlessness, and his ignorance that he has been +wronged. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + +The twelve years, continued Mrs. Dean, following that dismal period were +the happiest of my life: my greatest troubles in their passage rose from +our little lady's trifling illnesses, which she had to experience in +common with all children, rich and poor. For the rest, after the first +six months, she grew like a larch, and could walk and talk too, in her +own way, before the heath blossomed a second time over Mrs. Linton's +dust. She was the most winning thing that ever brought sunshine into a +desolate house: a real beauty in face, with the Earnshaws' handsome dark +eyes, but the Lintons' fair skin and small features, and yellow curling +hair. Her spirit was high, though not rough, and qualified by a heart +sensitive and lively to excess in its affections. That capacity for +intense attachments reminded me of her mother: still she did not resemble +her: for she could be soft and mild as a dove, and she had a gentle voice +and pensive expression: her anger was never furious; her love never +fierce: it was deep and tender. However, it must be acknowledged, she +had faults to foil her gifts. A propensity to be saucy was one; and a +perverse will, that indulged children invariably acquire, whether they be +good tempered or cross. If a servant chanced to vex her, it was +always--'I shall tell papa!' And if he reproved her, even by a look, you +would have thought it a heart-breaking business: I don't believe he ever +did speak a harsh word to her. He took her education entirely on +himself, and made it an amusement. Fortunately, curiosity and a quick +intellect made her an apt scholar: she learned rapidly and eagerly, and +did honour to his teaching. + +Till she reached the age of thirteen she had not once been beyond the +range of the park by herself. Mr. Linton would take her with him a mile +or so outside, on rare occasions; but he trusted her to no one else. +Gimmerton was an unsubstantial name in her ears; the chapel, the only +building she had approached or entered, except her own home. Wuthering +Heights and Mr. Heathcliff did not exist for her: she was a perfect +recluse; and, apparently, perfectly contented. Sometimes, indeed, while +surveying the country from her nursery window, she would observe-- + +'Ellen, how long will it be before I can walk to the top of those hills? +I wonder what lies on the other side--is it the sea?' + +'No, Miss Cathy,' I would answer; 'it is hills again, just like these.' + +'And what are those golden rocks like when you stand under them?' she +once asked. + +The abrupt descent of Penistone Crags particularly attracted her notice; +especially when the setting sun shone on it and the topmost heights, and +the whole extent of landscape besides lay in shadow. I explained that +they were bare masses of stone, with hardly enough earth in their clefts +to nourish a stunted tree. + +'And why are they bright so long after it is evening here?' she pursued. + +'Because they are a great deal higher up than we are,' replied I; 'you +could not climb them, they are too high and steep. In winter the frost +is always there before it comes to us; and deep into summer I have found +snow under that black hollow on the north-east side!' + +'Oh, you have been on them!' she cried gleefully. 'Then I can go, too, +when I am a woman. Has papa been, Ellen?' + +'Papa would tell you, Miss,' I answered, hastily, 'that they are not +worth the trouble of visiting. The moors, where you ramble with him, are +much nicer; and Thrushcross Park is the finest place in the world.' + +'But I know the park, and I don't know those,' she murmured to herself. +'And I should delight to look round me from the brow of that tallest +point: my little pony Minny shall take me some time.' + +One of the maids mentioning the Fairy Cave, quite turned her head with a +desire to fulfil this project: she teased Mr. Linton about it; and he +promised she should have the journey when she got older. But Miss +Catherine measured her age by months, and, 'Now, am I old enough to go to +Penistone Crags?' was the constant question in her mouth. The road +thither wound close by Wuthering Heights. Edgar had not the heart to +pass it; so she received as constantly the answer, 'Not yet, love: not +yet.' + +I said Mrs. Heathcliff lived above a dozen years after quitting her +husband. Her family were of a delicate constitution: she and Edgar both +lacked the ruddy health that you will generally meet in these parts. What +her last illness was, I am not certain: I conjecture, they died of the +same thing, a kind of fever, slow at its commencement, but incurable, and +rapidly consuming life towards the close. She wrote to inform her +brother of the probable conclusion of a four-months' indisposition under +which she had suffered, and entreated him to come to her, if possible; +for she had much to settle, and she wished to bid him adieu, and deliver +Linton safely into his hands. Her hope was that Linton might be left +with him, as he had been with her: his father, she would fain convince +herself, had no desire to assume the burden of his maintenance or +education. My master hesitated not a moment in complying with her +request: reluctant as he was to leave home at ordinary calls, he flew to +answer this; commanding Catherine to my peculiar vigilance, in his +absence, with reiterated orders that she must not wander out of the park, +even under my escort he did not calculate on her going unaccompanied. + +He was away three weeks. The first day or two my charge sat in a corner +of the library, too sad for either reading or playing: in that quiet +state she caused me little trouble; but it was succeeded by an interval +of impatient, fretful weariness; and being too busy, and too old then, to +run up and down amusing her, I hit on a method by which she might +entertain herself. I used to send her on her travels round the +grounds--now on foot, and now on a pony; indulging her with a patient +audience of all her real and imaginary adventures when she returned. + +The summer shone in full prime; and she took such a taste for this +solitary rambling that she often contrived to remain out from breakfast +till tea; and then the evenings were spent in recounting her fanciful +tales. I did not fear her breaking bounds; because the gates were +generally locked, and I thought she would scarcely venture forth alone, +if they had stood wide open. Unluckily, my confidence proved misplaced. +Catherine came to me, one morning, at eight o'clock, and said she was +that day an Arabian merchant, going to cross the Desert with his caravan; +and I must give her plenty of provision for herself and beasts: a horse, +and three camels, personated by a large hound and a couple of pointers. I +got together good store of dainties, and slung them in a basket on one +side of the saddle; and she sprang up as gay as a fairy, sheltered by her +wide-brimmed hat and gauze veil from the July sun, and trotted off with a +merry laugh, mocking my cautious counsel to avoid galloping, and come +back early. The naughty thing never made her appearance at tea. One +traveller, the hound, being an old dog and fond of its ease, returned; +but neither Cathy, nor the pony, nor the two pointers were visible in any +direction: I despatched emissaries down this path, and that path, and at +last went wandering in search of her myself. There was a labourer +working at a fence round a plantation, on the borders of the grounds. I +inquired of him if he had seen our young lady. + +'I saw her at morn,' he replied: 'she would have me to cut her a hazel +switch, and then she leapt her Galloway over the hedge yonder, where it +is lowest, and galloped out of sight.' + +You may guess how I felt at hearing this news. It struck me directly she +must have started for Penistone Crags. 'What will become of her?' I +ejaculated, pushing through a gap which the man was repairing, and making +straight to the high-road. I walked as if for a wager, mile after mile, +till a turn brought me in view of the Heights; but no Catherine could I +detect, far or near. The Crags lie about a mile and a half beyond Mr. +Heathcliff's place, and that is four from the Grange, so I began to fear +night would fall ere I could reach them. 'And what if she should have +slipped in clambering among them,' I reflected, 'and been killed, or +broken some of her bones?' My suspense was truly painful; and, at first, +it gave me delightful relief to observe, in hurrying by the farmhouse, +Charlie, the fiercest of the pointers, lying under a window, with swelled +head and bleeding ear. I opened the wicket and ran to the door, knocking +vehemently for admittance. A woman whom I knew, and who formerly lived +at Gimmerton, answered: she had been servant there since the death of Mr. +Earnshaw. + +'Ah,' said she, 'you are come a-seeking your little mistress! Don't be +frightened. She's here safe: but I'm glad it isn't the master.' + +'He is not at home then, is he?' I panted, quite breathless with quick +walking and alarm. + +'No, no,' she replied: 'both he and Joseph are off, and I think they +won't return this hour or more. Step in and rest you a bit.' + +I entered, and beheld my stray lamb seated on the hearth, rocking herself +in a little chair that had been her mother's when a child. Her hat was +hung against the wall, and she seemed perfectly at home, laughing and +chattering, in the best spirits imaginable, to Hareton--now a great, +strong lad of eighteen--who stared at her with considerable curiosity and +astonishment: comprehending precious little of the fluent succession of +remarks and questions which her tongue never ceased pouring forth. + +'Very well, Miss!' I exclaimed, concealing my joy under an angry +countenance. 'This is your last ride, till papa comes back. I'll not +trust you over the threshold again, you naughty, naughty girl!' + +'Aha, Ellen!' she cried, gaily, jumping up and running to my side. 'I +shall have a pretty story to tell to-night; and so you've found me out. +Have you ever been here in your life before?' + +'Put that hat on, and home at once,' said I. 'I'm dreadfully grieved at +you, Miss Cathy: you've done extremely wrong! It's no use pouting and +crying: that won't repay the trouble I've had, scouring the country after +you. To think how Mr. Linton charged me to keep you in; and you stealing +off so! It shows you are a cunning little fox, and nobody will put faith +in you any more.' + +'What have I done?' sobbed she, instantly checked. 'Papa charged me +nothing: he'll not scold me, Ellen--he's never cross, like you!' + +'Come, come!' I repeated. 'I'll tie the riband. Now, let us have no +petulance. Oh, for shame! You thirteen years old, and such a baby!' + +This exclamation was caused by her pushing the hat from her head, and +retreating to the chimney out of my reach. + +'Nay,' said the servant, 'don't be hard on the bonny lass, Mrs. Dean. We +made her stop: she'd fain have ridden forwards, afeard you should be +uneasy. Hareton offered to go with her, and I thought he should: it's a +wild road over the hills.' + +Hareton, during the discussion, stood with his hands in his pockets, too +awkward to speak; though he looked as if he did not relish my intrusion. + +'How long am I to wait?' I continued, disregarding the woman's +interference. 'It will be dark in ten minutes. Where is the pony, Miss +Cathy? And where is Phoenix? I shall leave you, unless you be quick; so +please yourself.' + +'The pony is in the yard,' she replied, 'and Phoenix is shut in there. +He's bitten--and so is Charlie. I was going to tell you all about it; +but you are in a bad temper, and don't deserve to hear.' + +I picked up her hat, and approached to reinstate it; but perceiving that +the people of the house took her part, she commenced capering round the +room; and on my giving chase, ran like a mouse over and under and behind +the furniture, rendering it ridiculous for me to pursue. Hareton and the +woman laughed, and she joined them, and waxed more impertinent still; +till I cried, in great irritation,--'Well, Miss Cathy, if you were aware +whose house this is you'd be glad enough to get out.' + +'It's _your_ father's, isn't it?' said she, turning to Hareton. + +'Nay,' he replied, looking down, and blushing bashfully. + +He could not stand a steady gaze from her eyes, though they were just his +own. + +'Whose then--your master's?' she asked. + +He coloured deeper, with a different feeling, muttered an oath, and +turned away. + +'Who is his master?' continued the tiresome girl, appealing to me. 'He +talked about "our house," and "our folk." I thought he had been the +owner's son. And he never said Miss: he should have done, shouldn't he, +if he's a servant?' + +Hareton grew black as a thunder-cloud at this childish speech. I +silently shook my questioner, and at last succeeded in equipping her for +departure. + +'Now, get my horse,' she said, addressing her unknown kinsman as she +would one of the stable-boys at the Grange. 'And you may come with me. I +want to see where the goblin-hunter rises in the marsh, and to hear about +the _fairishes_, as you call them: but make haste! What's the matter? +Get my horse, I say.' + +'I'll see thee damned before I be _thy_ servant!' growled the lad. + +'You'll see me _what_!' asked Catherine in surprise. + +'Damned--thou saucy witch!' he replied. + +'There, Miss Cathy! you see you have got into pretty company,' I +interposed. 'Nice words to be used to a young lady! Pray don't begin to +dispute with him. Come, let us seek for Minny ourselves, and begone.' + +'But, Ellen,' cried she, staring fixed in astonishment, 'how dare he +speak so to me? Mustn't he be made to do as I ask him? You wicked +creature, I shall tell papa what you said.--Now, then!' + +Hareton did not appear to feel this threat; so the tears sprang into her +eyes with indignation. 'You bring the pony,' she exclaimed, turning to +the woman, 'and let my dog free this moment!' + +'Softly, Miss,' answered she addressed; 'you'll lose nothing by being +civil. Though Mr. Hareton, there, be not the master's son, he's your +cousin: and I was never hired to serve you.' + +'_He_ my cousin!' cried Cathy, with a scornful laugh. + +'Yes, indeed,' responded her reprover. + +'Oh, Ellen! don't let them say such things,' she pursued in great +trouble. 'Papa is gone to fetch my cousin from London: my cousin is a +gentleman's son. That my--' she stopped, and wept outright; upset at the +bare notion of relationship with such a clown. + +'Hush, hush!' I whispered; 'people can have many cousins and of all +sorts, Miss Cathy, without being any the worse for it; only they needn't +keep their company, if they be disagreeable and bad.' + +'He's not--he's not my cousin, Ellen!' she went on, gathering fresh grief +from reflection, and flinging herself into my arms for refuge from the +idea. + +I was much vexed at her and the servant for their mutual revelations; +having no doubt of Linton's approaching arrival, communicated by the +former, being reported to Mr. Heathcliff; and feeling as confident that +Catherine's first thought on her father's return would be to seek an +explanation of the latter's assertion concerning her rude-bred kindred. +Hareton, recovering from his disgust at being taken for a servant, seemed +moved by her distress; and, having fetched the pony round to the door, he +took, to propitiate her, a fine crooked-legged terrier whelp from the +kennel, and putting it into her hand, bid her whist! for he meant nought. +Pausing in her lamentations, she surveyed him with a glance of awe and +horror, then burst forth anew. + +I could scarcely refrain from smiling at this antipathy to the poor +fellow; who was a well-made, athletic youth, good-looking in features, +and stout and healthy, but attired in garments befitting his daily +occupations of working on the farm and lounging among the moors after +rabbits and game. Still, I thought I could detect in his physiognomy a +mind owning better qualities than his father ever possessed. Good things +lost amid a wilderness of weeds, to be sure, whose rankness far +over-topped their neglected growth; yet, notwithstanding, evidence of a +wealthy soil, that might yield luxuriant crops under other and favourable +circumstances. Mr. Heathcliff, I believe, had not treated him physically +ill; thanks to his fearless nature, which offered no temptation to that +course of oppression: he had none of the timid susceptibility that would +have given zest to ill-treatment, in Heathcliff's judgment. He appeared +to have bent his malevolence on making him a brute: he was never taught +to read or write; never rebuked for any bad habit which did not annoy his +keeper; never led a single step towards virtue, or guarded by a single +precept against vice. And from what I heard, Joseph contributed much to +his deterioration, by a narrow-minded partiality which prompted him to +flatter and pet him, as a boy, because he was the head of the old family. +And as he had been in the habit of accusing Catherine Earnshaw and +Heathcliff, when children, of putting the master past his patience, and +compelling him to seek solace in drink by what he termed their 'offald +ways,' so at present he laid the whole burden of Hareton's faults on the +shoulders of the usurper of his property. If the lad swore, he wouldn't +correct him: nor however culpably he behaved. It gave Joseph +satisfaction, apparently, to watch him go the worst lengths: he allowed +that the lad was ruined: that his soul was abandoned to perdition; but +then he reflected that Heathcliff must answer for it. Hareton's blood +would be required at his hands; and there lay immense consolation in that +thought. Joseph had instilled into him a pride of name, and of his +lineage; he would, had he dared, have fostered hate between him and the +present owner of the Heights: but his dread of that owner amounted to +superstition; and he confined his feelings regarding him to muttered +innuendoes and private comminations. I don't pretend to be intimately +acquainted with the mode of living customary in those days at Wuthering +Heights: I only speak from hearsay; for I saw little. The villagers +affirmed Mr. Heathcliff was _near_, and a cruel hard landlord to his +tenants; but the house, inside, had regained its ancient aspect of +comfort under female management, and the scenes of riot common in +Hindley's time were not now enacted within its walls. The master was too +gloomy to seek companionship with any people, good or bad; and he is yet. + +This, however, is not making progress with my story. Miss Cathy rejected +the peace-offering of the terrier, and demanded her own dogs, Charlie and +Phoenix. They came limping and hanging their heads; and we set out for +home, sadly out of sorts, every one of us. I could not wring from my +little lady how she had spent the day; except that, as I supposed, the +goal of her pilgrimage was Penistone Crags; and she arrived without +adventure to the gate of the farm-house, when Hareton happened to issue +forth, attended by some canine followers, who attacked her train. They +had a smart battle, before their owners could separate them: that formed +an introduction. Catherine told Hareton who she was, and where she was +going; and asked him to show her the way: finally, beguiling him to +accompany her. He opened the mysteries of the Fairy Cave, and twenty +other queer places. But, being in disgrace, I was not favoured with a +description of the interesting objects she saw. I could gather, however, +that her guide had been a favourite till she hurt his feelings by +addressing him as a servant; and Heathcliff's housekeeper hurt hers by +calling him her cousin. Then the language he had held to her rankled in +her heart; she who was always 'love,' and 'darling,' and 'queen,' and +'angel,' with everybody at the Grange, to be insulted so shockingly by a +stranger! She did not comprehend it; and hard work I had to obtain a +promise that she would not lay the grievance before her father. I +explained how he objected to the whole household at the Heights, and how +sorry he would be to find she had been there; but I insisted most on the +fact, that if she revealed my negligence of his orders, he would perhaps +be so angry that I should have to leave; and Cathy couldn't bear that +prospect: she pledged her word, and kept it for my sake. After all, she +was a sweet little girl. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + +A letter, edged with black, announced the day of my master's return. +Isabella was dead; and he wrote to bid me get mourning for his daughter, +and arrange a room, and other accommodations, for his youthful nephew. +Catherine ran wild with joy at the idea of welcoming her father back; and +indulged most sanguine anticipations of the innumerable excellencies of +her 'real' cousin. The evening of their expected arrival came. Since +early morning she had been busy ordering her own small affairs; and now +attired in her new black frock--poor thing! her aunt's death impressed +her with no definite sorrow--she obliged me, by constant worrying, to +walk with her down through the grounds to meet them. + +'Linton is just six months younger than I am,' she chattered, as we +strolled leisurely over the swells and hollows of mossy turf, under +shadow of the trees. 'How delightful it will be to have him for a +playfellow! Aunt Isabella sent papa a beautiful lock of his hair; it was +lighter than mine--more flaxen, and quite as fine. I have it carefully +preserved in a little glass box; and I've often thought what a pleasure +it would be to see its owner. Oh! I am happy--and papa, dear, dear papa! +Come, Ellen, let us run! come, run.' + +She ran, and returned and ran again, many times before my sober footsteps +reached the gate, and then she seated herself on the grassy bank beside +the path, and tried to wait patiently; but that was impossible: she +couldn't be still a minute. + +'How long they are!' she exclaimed. 'Ah, I see, some dust on the +road--they are coming! No! When will they be here? May we not go a +little way--half a mile, Ellen, only just half a mile? Do say Yes: to +that clump of birches at the turn!' + +I refused staunchly. At length her suspense was ended: the travelling +carriage rolled in sight. Miss Cathy shrieked and stretched out her arms +as soon as she caught her father's face looking from the window. He +descended, nearly as eager as herself; and a considerable interval +elapsed ere they had a thought to spare for any but themselves. While +they exchanged caresses I took a peep in to see after Linton. He was +asleep in a corner, wrapped in a warm, fur-lined cloak, as if it had been +winter. A pale, delicate, effeminate boy, who might have been taken for +my master's younger brother, so strong was the resemblance: but there was +a sickly peevishness in his aspect that Edgar Linton never had. The +latter saw me looking; and having shaken hands, advised me to close the +door, and leave him undisturbed; for the journey had fatigued him. Cathy +would fain have taken one glance, but her father told her to come, and +they walked together up the park, while I hastened before to prepare the +servants. + +'Now, darling,' said Mr. Linton, addressing his daughter, as they halted +at the bottom of the front steps: 'your cousin is not so strong or so +merry as you are, and he has lost his mother, remember, a very short time +since; therefore, don't expect him to play and run about with you +directly. And don't harass him much by talking: let him be quiet this +evening, at least, will you?' + +'Yes, yes, papa,' answered Catherine: 'but I do want to see him; and he +hasn't once looked out.' + +The carriage stopped; and the sleeper being roused, was lifted to the +ground by his uncle. + +'This is your cousin Cathy, Linton,' he said, putting their little hands +together. 'She's fond of you already; and mind you don't grieve her by +crying to-night. Try to be cheerful now; the travelling is at an end, +and you have nothing to do but rest and amuse yourself as you please.' + +'Let me go to bed, then,' answered the boy, shrinking from Catherine's +salute; and he put his fingers to remove incipient tears. + +'Come, come, there's a good child,' I whispered, leading him in. 'You'll +make her weep too--see how sorry she is for you!' + +I do not know whether it was sorrow for him, but his cousin put on as sad +a countenance as himself, and returned to her father. All three entered, +and mounted to the library, where tea was laid ready. I proceeded to +remove Linton's cap and mantle, and placed him on a chair by the table; +but he was no sooner seated than he began to cry afresh. My master +inquired what was the matter. + +'I can't sit on a chair,' sobbed the boy. + +'Go to the sofa, then, and Ellen shall bring you some tea,' answered his +uncle patiently. + +He had been greatly tried, during the journey, I felt convinced, by his +fretful ailing charge. Linton slowly trailed himself off, and lay down. +Cathy carried a footstool and her cup to his side. At first she sat +silent; but that could not last: she had resolved to make a pet of her +little cousin, as she would have him to be; and she commenced stroking +his curls, and kissing his cheek, and offering him tea in her saucer, +like a baby. This pleased him, for he was not much better: he dried his +eyes, and lightened into a faint smile. + +'Oh, he'll do very well,' said the master to me, after watching them a +minute. 'Very well, if we can keep him, Ellen. The company of a child +of his own age will instil new spirit into him soon, and by wishing for +strength he'll gain it.' + +'Ay, if we can keep him!' I mused to myself; and sore misgivings came +over me that there was slight hope of that. And then, I thought, how +ever will that weakling live at Wuthering Heights? Between his father +and Hareton, what playmates and instructors they'll be. Our doubts were +presently decided--even earlier than I expected. I had just taken the +children up-stairs, after tea was finished, and seen Linton asleep--he +would not suffer me to leave him till that was the case--I had come down, +and was standing by the table in the hall, lighting a bedroom candle for +Mr. Edgar, when a maid stepped out of the kitchen and informed me that +Mr. Heathcliff's servant Joseph was at the door, and wished to speak with +the master. + +'I shall ask him what he wants first,' I said, in considerable +trepidation. 'A very unlikely hour to be troubling people, and the +instant they have returned from a long journey. I don't think the master +can see him.' + +Joseph had advanced through the kitchen as I uttered these words, and now +presented himself in the hall. He was donned in his Sunday garments, +with his most sanctimonious and sourest face, and, holding his hat in one +hand, and his stick in the other, he proceeded to clean his shoes on the +mat. + +'Good-evening, Joseph,' I said, coldly. 'What business brings you here +to-night?' + +'It's Maister Linton I mun spake to,' he answered, waving me disdainfully +aside. + +'Mr. Linton is going to bed; unless you have something particular to say, +I'm sure he won't hear it now,' I continued. 'You had better sit down in +there, and entrust your message to me.' + +'Which is his rahm?' pursued the fellow, surveying the range of closed +doors. + +I perceived he was bent on refusing my mediation, so very reluctantly I +went up to the library, and announced the unseasonable visitor, advising +that he should be dismissed till next day. Mr. Linton had no time to +empower me to do so, for Joseph mounted close at my heels, and, pushing +into the apartment, planted himself at the far side of the table, with +his two fists clapped on the head of his stick, and began in an elevated +tone, as if anticipating opposition-- + +'Hathecliff has sent me for his lad, and I munn't goa back 'bout him.' + +Edgar Linton was silent a minute; an expression of exceeding sorrow +overcast his features: he would have pitied the child on his own account; +but, recalling Isabella's hopes and fears, and anxious wishes for her +son, and her commendations of him to his care, he grieved bitterly at the +prospect of yielding him up, and searched in his heart how it might be +avoided. No plan offered itself: the very exhibition of any desire to +keep him would have rendered the claimant more peremptory: there was +nothing left but to resign him. However, he was not going to rouse him +from his sleep. + +'Tell Mr. Heathcliff,' he answered calmly, 'that his son shall come to +Wuthering Heights to-morrow. He is in bed, and too tired to go the +distance now. You may also tell him that the mother of Linton desired +him to remain under my guardianship; and, at present, his health is very +precarious.' + +'Noa!' said Joseph, giving a thud with his prop on the floor, and +assuming an authoritative air. 'Noa! that means naught. Hathecliff maks +noa 'count o' t' mother, nor ye norther; but he'll heu' his lad; und I +mun tak' him--soa now ye knaw!' + +'You shall not to-night!' answered Linton decisively. 'Walk down stairs +at once, and repeat to your master what I have said. Ellen, show him +down. Go--' + +And, aiding the indignant elder with a lift by the arm, he rid the room +of him and closed the door. + +'Varrah weell!' shouted Joseph, as he slowly drew off. 'To-morn, he's +come hisseln, and thrust _him_ out, if ye darr!' + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + +To obviate the danger of this threat being fulfilled, Mr. Linton +commissioned me to take the boy home early, on Catherine's pony; and, +said he--'As we shall now have no influence over his destiny, good or +bad, you must say nothing of where he is gone to my daughter: she cannot +associate with him hereafter, and it is better for her to remain in +ignorance of his proximity; lest she should be restless, and anxious to +visit the Heights. Merely tell her his father sent for him suddenly, and +he has been obliged to leave us.' + +Linton was very reluctant to be roused from his bed at five o'clock, and +astonished to be informed that he must prepare for further travelling; +but I softened off the matter by stating that he was going to spend some +time with his father, Mr. Heathcliff, who wished to see him so much, he +did not like to defer the pleasure till he should recover from his late +journey. + +'My father!' he cried, in strange perplexity. 'Mamma never told me I had +a father. Where does he live? I'd rather stay with uncle.' + +'He lives a little distance from the Grange,' I replied; 'just beyond +those hills: not so far, but you may walk over here when you get hearty. +And you should be glad to go home, and to see him. You must try to love +him, as you did your mother, and then he will love you.' + +'But why have I not heard of him before?' asked Linton. 'Why didn't +mamma and he live together, as other people do?' + +'He had business to keep him in the north,' I answered, 'and your +mother's health required her to reside in the south.' + +'And why didn't mamma speak to me about him?' persevered the child. 'She +often talked of uncle, and I learnt to love him long ago. How am I to +love papa? I don't know him.' + +'Oh, all children love their parents,' I said. 'Your mother, perhaps, +thought you would want to be with him if she mentioned him often to you. +Let us make haste. An early ride on such a beautiful morning is much +preferable to an hour's more sleep.' + +'Is _she_ to go with us,' he demanded, 'the little girl I saw yesterday?' + +'Not now,' replied I. + +'Is uncle?' he continued. + +'No, I shall be your companion there,' I said. + +Linton sank back on his pillow and fell into a brown study. + +'I won't go without uncle,' he cried at length: 'I can't tell where you +mean to take me.' + +I attempted to persuade him of the naughtiness of showing reluctance to +meet his father; still he obstinately resisted any progress towards +dressing, and I had to call for my master's assistance in coaxing him out +of bed. The poor thing was finally got off, with several delusive +assurances that his absence should be short: that Mr. Edgar and Cathy +would visit him, and other promises, equally ill-founded, which I +invented and reiterated at intervals throughout the way. The pure +heather-scented air, the bright sunshine, and the gentle canter of Minny, +relieved his despondency after a while. He began to put questions +concerning his new home, and its inhabitants, with greater interest and +liveliness. + +'Is Wuthering Heights as pleasant a place as Thrushcross Grange?' he +inquired, turning to take a last glance into the valley, whence a light +mist mounted and formed a fleecy cloud on the skirts of the blue. + +'It is not so buried in trees,' I replied, 'and it is not quite so large, +but you can see the country beautifully all round; and the air is +healthier for you--fresher and drier. You will, perhaps, think the +building old and dark at first; though it is a respectable house: the +next best in the neighbourhood. And you will have such nice rambles on +the moors. Hareton Earnshaw--that is, Miss Cathy's other cousin, and so +yours in a manner--will show you all the sweetest spots; and you can +bring a book in fine weather, and make a green hollow your study; and, +now and then, your uncle may join you in a walk: he does, frequently, +walk out on the hills.' + +'And what is my father like?' he asked. 'Is he as young and handsome as +uncle?' + +'He's as young,' said I; 'but he has black hair and eyes, and looks +sterner; and he is taller and bigger altogether. He'll not seem to you +so gentle and kind at first, perhaps, because it is not his way: still, +mind you, be frank and cordial with him; and naturally he'll be fonder of +you than any uncle, for you are his own.' + +'Black hair and eyes!' mused Linton. 'I can't fancy him. Then I am not +like him, am I?' + +'Not much,' I answered: not a morsel, I thought, surveying with regret +the white complexion and slim frame of my companion, and his large +languid eyes--his mother's eyes, save that, unless a morbid touchiness +kindled them a moment, they had not a vestige of her sparkling spirit. + +'How strange that he should never come to see mamma and me!' he murmured. +'Has he ever seen me? If he has, I must have been a baby. I remember +not a single thing about him!' + +'Why, Master Linton,' said I, 'three hundred miles is a great distance; +and ten years seem very different in length to a grown-up person compared +with what they do to you. It is probable Mr. Heathcliff proposed going +from summer to summer, but never found a convenient opportunity; and now +it is too late. Don't trouble him with questions on the subject: it will +disturb him, for no good.' + +The boy was fully occupied with his own cogitations for the remainder of +the ride, till we halted before the farmhouse garden-gate. I watched to +catch his impressions in his countenance. He surveyed the carved front +and low-browed lattices, the straggling gooseberry-bushes and crooked +firs, with solemn intentness, and then shook his head: his private +feelings entirely disapproved of the exterior of his new abode. But he +had sense to postpone complaining: there might be compensation within. +Before he dismounted, I went and opened the door. It was half-past six; +the family had just finished breakfast: the servant was clearing and +wiping down the table. Joseph stood by his master's chair telling some +tale concerning a lame horse; and Hareton was preparing for the hayfield. + +'Hallo, Nelly!' said Mr. Heathcliff, when he saw me. 'I feared I should +have to come down and fetch my property myself. You've brought it, have +you? Let us see what we can make of it.' + +He got up and strode to the door: Hareton and Joseph followed in gaping +curiosity. Poor Linton ran a frightened eye over the faces of the three. + +'Sure-ly,' said Joseph after a grave inspection, 'he's swopped wi' ye, +Maister, an' yon's his lass!' + +Heathcliff, having stared his son into an ague of confusion, uttered a +scornful laugh. + +'God! what a beauty! what a lovely, charming thing!' he exclaimed. +'Hav'n't they reared it on snails and sour milk, Nelly? Oh, damn my +soul! but that's worse than I expected--and the devil knows I was not +sanguine!' + +I bid the trembling and bewildered child get down, and enter. He did not +thoroughly comprehend the meaning of his father's speech, or whether it +were intended for him: indeed, he was not yet certain that the grim, +sneering stranger was his father. But he clung to me with growing +trepidation; and on Mr. Heathcliff's taking a seat and bidding him 'come +hither' he hid his face on my shoulder and wept. + +'Tut, tut!' said Heathcliff, stretching out a hand and dragging him +roughly between his knees, and then holding up his head by the chin. +'None of that nonsense! We're not going to hurt thee, Linton--isn't that +thy name? Thou art thy mother's child, entirely! Where is my share in +thee, puling chicken?' + +He took off the boy's cap and pushed back his thick flaxen curls, felt +his slender arms and his small fingers; during which examination Linton +ceased crying, and lifted his great blue eyes to inspect the inspector. + +'Do you know me?' asked Heathcliff, having satisfied himself that the +limbs were all equally frail and feeble. + +'No,' said Linton, with a gaze of vacant fear. + +'You've heard of me, I daresay?' + +'No,' he replied again. + +'No! What a shame of your mother, never to waken your filial regard for +me! You are my son, then, I'll tell you; and your mother was a wicked +slut to leave you in ignorance of the sort of father you possessed. Now, +don't wince, and colour up! Though it is something to see you have not +white blood. Be a good lad; and I'll do for you. Nelly, if you be tired +you may sit down; if not, get home again. I guess you'll report what you +hear and see to the cipher at the Grange; and this thing won't be settled +while you linger about it.' + +'Well,' replied I, 'I hope you'll be kind to the boy, Mr. Heathcliff, or +you'll not keep him long; and he's all you have akin in the wide world, +that you will ever know--remember.' + +'I'll be very kind to him, you needn't fear,' he said, laughing. 'Only +nobody else must be kind to him: I'm jealous of monopolising his +affection. And, to begin my kindness, Joseph, bring the lad some +breakfast. Hareton, you infernal calf, begone to your work. Yes, Nell,' +he added, when they had departed, 'my son is prospective owner of your +place, and I should not wish him to die till I was certain of being his +successor. Besides, he's _mine_, and I want the triumph of seeing _my_ +descendant fairly lord of their estates; my child hiring their children +to till their fathers' lands for wages. That is the sole consideration +which can make me endure the whelp: I despise him for himself, and hate +him for the memories he revives! But that consideration is sufficient: +he's as safe with me, and shall be tended as carefully as your master +tends his own. I have a room up-stairs, furnished for him in handsome +style; I've engaged a tutor, also, to come three times a week, from +twenty miles' distance, to teach him what he pleases to learn. I've +ordered Hareton to obey him: and in fact I've arranged everything with a +view to preserve the superior and the gentleman in him, above his +associates. I do regret, however, that he so little deserves the +trouble: if I wished any blessing in the world, it was to find him a +worthy object of pride; and I'm bitterly disappointed with the +whey-faced, whining wretch!' + +While he was speaking, Joseph returned bearing a basin of milk-porridge, +and placed it before Linton: who stirred round the homely mess with a +look of aversion, and affirmed he could not eat it. I saw the old +man-servant shared largely in his master's scorn of the child; though he +was compelled to retain the sentiment in his heart, because Heathcliff +plainly meant his underlings to hold him in honour. + +'Cannot ate it?' repeated he, peering in Linton's face, and subduing his +voice to a whisper, for fear of being overheard. 'But Maister Hareton +nivir ate naught else, when he wer a little 'un; and what wer gooid +enough for him's gooid enough for ye, I's rayther think!' + +'I _sha'n't_ eat it!' answered Linton, snappishly. 'Take it away.' + +Joseph snatched up the food indignantly, and brought it to us. + +'Is there aught ails th' victuals?' he asked, thrusting the tray under +Heathcliff's nose. + +'What should ail them?' he said. + +'Wah!' answered Joseph, 'yon dainty chap says he cannut ate 'em. But I +guess it's raight! His mother wer just soa--we wer a'most too mucky to +sow t' corn for makking her breead.' + +'Don't mention his mother to me,' said the master, angrily. 'Get him +something that he can eat, that's all. What is his usual food, Nelly?' + +I suggested boiled milk or tea; and the housekeeper received instructions +to prepare some. Come, I reflected, his father's selfishness may +contribute to his comfort. He perceives his delicate constitution, and +the necessity of treating him tolerably. I'll console Mr. Edgar by +acquainting him with the turn Heathcliff's humour has taken. Having no +excuse for lingering longer, I slipped out, while Linton was engaged in +timidly rebuffing the advances of a friendly sheep-dog. But he was too +much on the alert to be cheated: as I closed the door, I heard a cry, and +a frantic repetition of the words-- + +'Don't leave me! I'll not stay here! I'll not stay here!' + +Then the latch was raised and fell: they did not suffer him to come +forth. I mounted Minny, and urged her to a trot; and so my brief +guardianship ended. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + +We had sad work with little Cathy that day: she rose in high glee, eager +to join her cousin, and such passionate tears and lamentations followed +the news of his departure that Edgar himself was obliged to soothe her, +by affirming he should come back soon: he added, however, 'if I can get +him'; and there were no hopes of that. This promise poorly pacified her; +but time was more potent; and though still at intervals she inquired of +her father when Linton would return, before she did see him again his +features had waxed so dim in her memory that she did not recognise him. + +When I chanced to encounter the housekeeper of Wuthering Heights, in +paying business visits to Gimmerton, I used to ask how the young master +got on; for he lived almost as secluded as Catherine herself, and was +never to be seen. I could gather from her that he continued in weak +health, and was a tiresome inmate. She said Mr. Heathcliff seemed to +dislike him ever longer and worse, though he took some trouble to conceal +it: he had an antipathy to the sound of his voice, and could not do at +all with his sitting in the same room with him many minutes together. +There seldom passed much talk between them: Linton learnt his lessons and +spent his evenings in a small apartment they called the parlour: or else +lay in bed all day: for he was constantly getting coughs, and colds, and +aches, and pains of some sort. + +'And I never know such a fainthearted creature,' added the woman; 'nor +one so careful of hisseln. He _will_ go on, if I leave the window open a +bit late in the evening. Oh! it's killing, a breath of night air! And he +must have a fire in the middle of summer; and Joseph's bacca-pipe is +poison; and he must always have sweets and dainties, and always milk, +milk for ever--heeding naught how the rest of us are pinched in winter; +and there he'll sit, wrapped in his furred cloak in his chair by the +fire, with some toast and water or other slop on the hob to sip at; and +if Hareton, for pity, comes to amuse him--Hareton is not bad-natured, +though he's rough--they're sure to part, one swearing and the other +crying. I believe the master would relish Earnshaw's thrashing him to a +mummy, if he were not his son; and I'm certain he would be fit to turn +him out of doors, if he knew half the nursing he gives hisseln. But then +he won't go into danger of temptation: he never enters the parlour, and +should Linton show those ways in the house where he is, he sends him +up-stairs directly.' + +I divined, from this account, that utter lack of sympathy had rendered +young Heathcliff selfish and disagreeable, if he were not so originally; +and my interest in him, consequently, decayed: though still I was moved +with a sense of grief at his lot, and a wish that he had been left with +us. Mr. Edgar encouraged me to gain information: he thought a great deal +about him, I fancy, and would have run some risk to see him; and he told +me once to ask the housekeeper whether he ever came into the village? She +said he had only been twice, on horseback, accompanying his father; and +both times he pretended to be quite knocked up for three or four days +afterwards. That housekeeper left, if I recollect rightly, two years +after he came; and another, whom I did not know, was her successor; she +lives there still. + +Time wore on at the Grange in its former pleasant way till Miss Cathy +reached sixteen. On the anniversary of her birth we never manifested any +signs of rejoicing, because it was also the anniversary of my late +mistress's death. Her father invariably spent that day alone in the +library; and walked, at dusk, as far as Gimmerton kirkyard, where he +would frequently prolong his stay beyond midnight. Therefore Catherine +was thrown on her own resources for amusement. This twentieth of March +was a beautiful spring day, and when her father had retired, my young +lady came down dressed for going out, and said she asked to have a ramble +on the edge of the moor with me: Mr. Linton had given her leave, if we +went only a short distance and were back within the hour. + +'So make haste, Ellen!' she cried. 'I know where I wish to go; where a +colony of moor-game are settled: I want to see whether they have made +their nests yet.' + +'That must be a good distance up,' I answered; 'they don't breed on the +edge of the moor.' + +'No, it's not,' she said. 'I've gone very near with papa.' + +I put on my bonnet and sallied out, thinking nothing more of the matter. +She bounded before me, and returned to my side, and was off again like a +young greyhound; and, at first, I found plenty of entertainment in +listening to the larks singing far and near, and enjoying the sweet, warm +sunshine; and watching her, my pet and my delight, with her golden +ringlets flying loose behind, and her bright cheek, as soft and pure in +its bloom as a wild rose, and her eyes radiant with cloudless pleasure. +She was a happy creature, and an angel, in those days. It's a pity she +could not be content. + +'Well,' said I, 'where are your moor-game, Miss Cathy? We should be at +them: the Grange park-fence is a great way off now.' + +'Oh, a little further--only a little further, Ellen,' was her answer, +continually. 'Climb to that hillock, pass that bank, and by the time you +reach the other side I shall have raised the birds.' + +But there were so many hillocks and banks to climb and pass, that, at +length, I began to be weary, and told her we must halt, and retrace our +steps. I shouted to her, as she had outstripped me a long way; she +either did not hear or did not regard, for she still sprang on, and I was +compelled to follow. Finally, she dived into a hollow; and before I came +in sight of her again, she was two miles nearer Wuthering Heights than +her own home; and I beheld a couple of persons arrest her, one of whom I +felt convinced was Mr. Heathcliff himself. + +Cathy had been caught in the fact of plundering, or, at least, hunting +out the nests of the grouse. The Heights were Heathcliff's land, and he +was reproving the poacher. + +'I've neither taken any nor found any,' she said, as I toiled to them, +expanding her hands in corroboration of the statement. 'I didn't mean to +take them; but papa told me there were quantities up here, and I wished +to see the eggs.' + +Heathcliff glanced at me with an ill-meaning smile, expressing his +acquaintance with the party, and, consequently, his malevolence towards +it, and demanded who 'papa' was? + +'Mr. Linton of Thrushcross Grange,' she replied. 'I thought you did not +know me, or you wouldn't have spoken in that way.' + +'You suppose papa is highly esteemed and respected, then?' he said, +sarcastically. + +'And what are you?' inquired Catherine, gazing curiously on the speaker. +'That man I've seen before. Is he your son?' + +She pointed to Hareton, the other individual, who had gained nothing but +increased bulk and strength by the addition of two years to his age: he +seemed as awkward and rough as ever. + +'Miss Cathy,' I interrupted, 'it will be three hours instead of one that +we are out, presently. We really must go back.' + +'No, that man is not my son,' answered Heathcliff, pushing me aside. 'But +I have one, and you have seen him before too; and, though your nurse is +in a hurry, I think both you and she would be the better for a little +rest. Will you just turn this nab of heath, and walk into my house? +You'll get home earlier for the ease; and you shall receive a kind +welcome.' + +I whispered Catherine that she mustn't, on any account, accede to the +proposal: it was entirely out of the question. + +'Why?' she asked, aloud. 'I'm tired of running, and the ground is dewy: +I can't sit here. Let us go, Ellen. Besides, he says I have seen his +son. He's mistaken, I think; but I guess where he lives: at the +farmhouse I visited in coming from Penistone Crags. Don't you?' + +'I do. Come, Nelly, hold your tongue--it will be a treat for her to look +in on us. Hareton, get forwards with the lass. You shall walk with me, +Nelly.' + +'No, she's not going to any such place,' I cried, struggling to release +my arm, which he had seized: but she was almost at the door-stones +already, scampering round the brow at full speed. Her appointed +companion did not pretend to escort her: he shied off by the road-side, +and vanished. + +'Mr. Heathcliff, it's very wrong,' I continued: 'you know you mean no +good. And there she'll see Linton, and all will be told as soon as ever +we return; and I shall have the blame.' + +'I want her to see Linton,' he answered; 'he's looking better these few +days; it's not often he's fit to be seen. And we'll soon persuade her to +keep the visit secret: where is the harm of it?' + +'The harm of it is, that her father would hate me if he found I suffered +her to enter your house; and I am convinced you have a bad design in +encouraging her to do so,' I replied. + +'My design is as honest as possible. I'll inform you of its whole +scope,' he said. 'That the two cousins may fall in love, and get +married. I'm acting generously to your master: his young chit has no +expectations, and should she second my wishes she'll be provided for at +once as joint successor with Linton.' + +'If Linton died,' I answered, 'and his life is quite uncertain, Catherine +would be the heir.' + +'No, she would not,' he said. 'There is no clause in the will to secure +it so: his property would go to me; but, to prevent disputes, I desire +their union, and am resolved to bring it about.' + +'And I'm resolved she shall never approach your house with me again,' I +returned, as we reached the gate, where Miss Cathy waited our coming. + +Heathcliff bade me be quiet; and, preceding us up the path, hastened to +open the door. My young lady gave him several looks, as if she could not +exactly make up her mind what to think of him; but now he smiled when he +met her eye, and softened his voice in addressing her; and I was foolish +enough to imagine the memory of her mother might disarm him from desiring +her injury. Linton stood on the hearth. He had been out walking in the +fields, for his cap was on, and he was calling to Joseph to bring him dry +shoes. He had grown tall of his age, still wanting some months of +sixteen. His features were pretty yet, and his eye and complexion +brighter than I remembered them, though with merely temporary lustre +borrowed from the salubrious air and genial sun. + +'Now, who is that?' asked Mr. Heathcliff, turning to Cathy. 'Can you +tell?' + +'Your son?' she said, having doubtfully surveyed, first one and then the +other. + +'Yes, yes,' answered he: 'but is this the only time you have beheld him? +Think! Ah! you have a short memory. Linton, don't you recall your +cousin, that you used to tease us so with wishing to see?' + +'What, Linton!' cried Cathy, kindling into joyful surprise at the name. +'Is that little Linton? He's taller than I am! Are you Linton?' + +The youth stepped forward, and acknowledged himself: she kissed him +fervently, and they gazed with wonder at the change time had wrought in +the appearance of each. Catherine had reached her full height; her +figure was both plump and slender, elastic as steel, and her whole aspect +sparkling with health and spirits. Linton's looks and movements were +very languid, and his form extremely slight; but there was a grace in his +manner that mitigated these defects, and rendered him not unpleasing. +After exchanging numerous marks of fondness with him, his cousin went to +Mr. Heathcliff, who lingered by the door, dividing his attention between +the objects inside and those that lay without: pretending, that is, to +observe the latter, and really noting the former alone. + +'And you are my uncle, then!' she cried, reaching up to salute him. 'I +thought I liked you, though you were cross at first. Why don't you visit +at the Grange with Linton? To live all these years such close +neighbours, and never see us, is odd: what have you done so for?' + +'I visited it once or twice too often before you were born,' he answered. +'There--damn it! If you have any kisses to spare, give them to Linton: +they are thrown away on me.' + +'Naughty Ellen!' exclaimed Catherine, flying to attack me next with her +lavish caresses. 'Wicked Ellen! to try to hinder me from entering. But +I'll take this walk every morning in future: may I, uncle? and sometimes +bring papa. Won't you be glad to see us?' + +'Of course,' replied the uncle, with a hardly suppressed grimace, +resulting from his deep aversion to both the proposed visitors. 'But +stay,' he continued, turning towards the young lady. 'Now I think of it, +I'd better tell you. Mr. Linton has a prejudice against me: we +quarrelled at one time of our lives, with unchristian ferocity; and, if +you mention coming here to him, he'll put a veto on your visits +altogether. Therefore, you must not mention it, unless you be careless +of seeing your cousin hereafter: you may come, if you will, but you must +not mention it.' + +'Why did you quarrel?' asked Catherine, considerably crestfallen. + +'He thought me too poor to wed his sister,' answered Heathcliff, 'and was +grieved that I got her: his pride was hurt, and he'll never forgive it.' + +'That's wrong!' said the young lady: 'some time I'll tell him so. But +Linton and I have no share in your quarrel. I'll not come here, then; he +shall come to the Grange.' + +'It will be too far for me,' murmured her cousin: 'to walk four miles +would kill me. No, come here, Miss Catherine, now and then: not every +morning, but once or twice a week.' + +The father launched towards his son a glance of bitter contempt. + +'I am afraid, Nelly, I shall lose my labour,' he muttered to me. 'Miss +Catherine, as the ninny calls her, will discover his value, and send him +to the devil. Now, if it had been Hareton!--Do you know that, twenty +times a day, I covet Hareton, with all his degradation? I'd have loved +the lad had he been some one else. But I think he's safe from _her_ +love. I'll pit him against that paltry creature, unless it bestir itself +briskly. We calculate it will scarcely last till it is eighteen. Oh, +confound the vapid thing! He's absorbed in drying his feet, and never +looks at her.--Linton!' + +'Yes, father,' answered the boy. + +'Have you nothing to show your cousin anywhere about, not even a rabbit +or a weasel's nest? Take her into the garden, before you change your +shoes; and into the stable to see your horse.' + +'Wouldn't you rather sit here?' asked Linton, addressing Cathy in a tone +which expressed reluctance to move again. + +'I don't know,' she replied, casting a longing look to the door, and +evidently eager to be active. + +He kept his seat, and shrank closer to the fire. Heathcliff rose, and +went into the kitchen, and from thence to the yard, calling out for +Hareton. Hareton responded, and presently the two re-entered. The young +man had been washing himself, as was visible by the glow on his cheeks +and his wetted hair. + +'Oh, I'll ask _you_, uncle,' cried Miss Cathy, recollecting the +housekeeper's assertion. 'That is not my cousin, is he?' + +'Yes,' he, replied, 'your mother's nephew. Don't you like him!' + +Catherine looked queer. + +'Is he not a handsome lad?' he continued. + +The uncivil little thing stood on tiptoe, and whispered a sentence in +Heathcliff's ear. He laughed; Hareton darkened: I perceived he was very +sensitive to suspected slights, and had obviously a dim notion of his +inferiority. But his master or guardian chased the frown by exclaiming-- + +'You'll be the favourite among us, Hareton! She says you are a--What was +it? Well, something very flattering. Here! you go with her round the +farm. And behave like a gentleman, mind! Don't use any bad words; and +don't stare when the young lady is not looking at you, and be ready to +hide your face when she is; and, when you speak, say your words slowly, +and keep your hands out of your pockets. Be off, and entertain her as +nicely as you can.' + +He watched the couple walking past the window. Earnshaw had his +countenance completely averted from his companion. He seemed studying +the familiar landscape with a stranger's and an artist's interest. +Catherine took a sly look at him, expressing small admiration. She then +turned her attention to seeking out objects of amusement for herself, and +tripped merrily on, lilting a tune to supply the lack of conversation. + +'I've tied his tongue,' observed Heathcliff. 'He'll not venture a single +syllable all the time! Nelly, you recollect me at his age--nay, some +years younger. Did I ever look so stupid: so "gaumless," as Joseph calls +it?' + +'Worse,' I replied, 'because more sullen with it.' + +'I've a pleasure in him,' he continued, reflecting aloud. 'He has +satisfied my expectations. If he were a born fool I should not enjoy it +half so much. But he's no fool; and I can sympathise with all his +feelings, having felt them myself. I know what he suffers now, for +instance, exactly: it is merely a beginning of what he shall suffer, +though. And he'll never be able to emerge from his bathos of coarseness +and ignorance. I've got him faster than his scoundrel of a father +secured me, and lower; for he takes a pride in his brutishness. I've +taught him to scorn everything extra-animal as silly and weak. Don't you +think Hindley would be proud of his son, if he could see him? almost as +proud as I am of mine. But there's this difference; one is gold put to +the use of paving-stones, and the other is tin polished to ape a service +of silver. _Mine_ has nothing valuable about it; yet I shall have the +merit of making it go as far as such poor stuff can go. _His_ had +first-rate qualities, and they are lost: rendered worse than unavailing. +I have nothing to regret; he would have more than any but I are aware +of. And the best of it is, Hareton is damnably fond of me! You'll own +that I've outmatched Hindley there. If the dead villain could rise from +his grave to abuse me for his offspring's wrongs, I should have the fun +of seeing the said offspring fight him back again, indignant that he +should dare to rail at the one friend he has in the world!' + +Heathcliff chuckled a fiendish laugh at the idea. I made no reply, +because I saw that he expected none. Meantime, our young companion, who +sat too removed from us to hear what was said, began to evince symptoms +of uneasiness, probably repenting that he had denied himself the treat of +Catherine's society for fear of a little fatigue. His father remarked +the restless glances wandering to the window, and the hand irresolutely +extended towards his cap. + +'Get up, you idle boy!' he exclaimed, with assumed heartiness. + +'Away after them! they are just at the corner, by the stand of hives.' + +Linton gathered his energies, and left the hearth. The lattice was open, +and, as he stepped out, I heard Cathy inquiring of her unsociable +attendant what was that inscription over the door? Hareton stared up, and +scratched his head like a true clown. + +'It's some damnable writing,' he answered. 'I cannot read it.' + +'Can't read it?' cried Catherine; 'I can read it: it's English. But I +want to know why it is there.' + +Linton giggled: the first appearance of mirth he had exhibited. + +'He does not know his letters,' he said to his cousin. 'Could you +believe in the existence of such a colossal dunce?' + +'Is he all as he should be?' asked Miss Cathy, seriously; 'or is he +simple: not right? I've questioned him twice now, and each time he +looked so stupid I think he does not understand me. I can hardly +understand him, I'm sure!' + +Linton repeated his laugh, and glanced at Hareton tauntingly; who +certainly did not seem quite clear of comprehension at that moment. + +'There's nothing the matter but laziness; is there, Earnshaw?' he said. +'My cousin fancies you are an idiot. There you experience the +consequence of scorning "book-larning," as you would say. Have you +noticed, Catherine, his frightful Yorkshire pronunciation?' + +'Why, where the devil is the use on't?' growled Hareton, more ready in +answering his daily companion. He was about to enlarge further, but the +two youngsters broke into a noisy fit of merriment: my giddy miss being +delighted to discover that she might turn his strange talk to matter of +amusement. + +'Where is the use of the devil in that sentence?' tittered Linton. 'Papa +told you not to say any bad words, and you can't open your mouth without +one. Do try to behave like a gentleman, now do!' + +'If thou weren't more a lass than a lad, I'd fell thee this minute, I +would; pitiful lath of a crater!' retorted the angry boor, retreating, +while his face burnt with mingled rage and mortification! for he was +conscious of being insulted, and embarrassed how to resent it. + +Mr. Heathcliff having overheard the conversation, as well as I, smiled +when he saw him go; but immediately afterwards cast a look of singular +aversion on the flippant pair, who remained chattering in the door-way: +the boy finding animation enough while discussing Hareton's faults and +deficiencies, and relating anecdotes of his goings on; and the girl +relishing his pert and spiteful sayings, without considering the +ill-nature they evinced. I began to dislike, more than to compassionate +Linton, and to excuse his father in some measure for holding him cheap. + +We stayed till afternoon: I could not tear Miss Cathy away sooner; but +happily my master had not quitted his apartment, and remained ignorant of +our prolonged absence. As we walked home, I would fain have enlightened +my charge on the characters of the people we had quitted: but she got it +into her head that I was prejudiced against them. + +'Aha!' she cried, 'you take papa's side, Ellen: you are partial I know; +or else you wouldn't have cheated me so many years into the notion that +Linton lived a long way from here. I'm really extremely angry; only I'm +so pleased I can't show it! But you must hold your tongue about _my_ +uncle; he's my uncle, remember; and I'll scold papa for quarrelling with +him.' + +And so she ran on, till I relinquished the endeavour to convince her of +her mistake. She did not mention the visit that night, because she did +not see Mr. Linton. Next day it all came out, sadly to my chagrin; and +still I was not altogether sorry: I thought the burden of directing and +warning would be more efficiently borne by him than me. But he was too +timid in giving satisfactory reasons for his wish that she should shun +connection with the household of the Heights, and Catherine liked good +reasons for every restraint that harassed her petted will. + +'Papa!' she exclaimed, after the morning's salutations, 'guess whom I saw +yesterday, in my walk on the moors. Ah, papa, you started! you've not +done right, have you, now? I saw--but listen, and you shall hear how I +found you out; and Ellen, who is in league with you, and yet pretended to +pity me so, when I kept hoping, and was always disappointed about +Linton's coming back!' + +She gave a faithful account of her excursion and its consequences; and my +master, though he cast more than one reproachful look at me, said nothing +till she had concluded. Then he drew her to him, and asked if she knew +why he had concealed Linton's near neighbourhood from her? Could she +think it was to deny her a pleasure that she might harmlessly enjoy? + +'It was because you disliked Mr. Heathcliff,' she answered. + +'Then you believe I care more for my own feelings than yours, Cathy?' he +said. 'No, it was not because I disliked Mr. Heathcliff, but because Mr. +Heathcliff dislikes me; and is a most diabolical man, delighting to wrong +and ruin those he hates, if they give him the slightest opportunity. I +knew that you could not keep up an acquaintance with your cousin without +being brought into contact with him; and I knew he would detest you on my +account; so for your own good, and nothing else, I took precautions that +you should not see Linton again. I meant to explain this some time as +you grew older, and I'm sorry I delayed it.' + +'But Mr. Heathcliff was quite cordial, papa,' observed Catherine, not at +all convinced; 'and he didn't object to our seeing each other: he said I +might come to his house when I pleased; only I must not tell you, because +you had quarrelled with him, and would not forgive him for marrying aunt +Isabella. And you won't. _You_ are the one to be blamed: he is willing +to let us be friends, at least; Linton and I; and you are not.' + +My master, perceiving that she would not take his word for her +uncle-in-law's evil disposition, gave a hasty sketch of his conduct to +Isabella, and the manner in which Wuthering Heights became his property. +He could not bear to discourse long upon the topic; for though he spoke +little of it, he still felt the same horror and detestation of his +ancient enemy that had occupied his heart ever since Mrs. Linton's +death. 'She might have been living yet, if it had not been for him!' was +his constant bitter reflection; and, in his eyes, Heathcliff seemed a +murderer. Miss Cathy--conversant with no bad deeds except her own slight +acts of disobedience, injustice, and passion, arising from hot temper +and thoughtlessness, and repented of on the day they were committed--was +amazed at the blackness of spirit that could brood on and cover revenge +for years, and deliberately prosecute its plans without a visitation of +remorse. She appeared so deeply impressed and shocked at this new view +of human nature--excluded from all her studies and all her ideas till +now--that Mr. Edgar deemed it unnecessary to pursue the subject. He +merely added: 'You will know hereafter, darling, why I wish you to avoid +his house and family; now return to your old employments and amusements, +and think no more about them.' + +Catherine kissed her father, and sat down quietly to her lessons for a +couple of hours, according to custom; then she accompanied him into the +grounds, and the whole day passed as usual: but in the evening, when she +had retired to her room, and I went to help her to undress, I found her +crying, on her knees by the bedside. + +'Oh, fie, silly child!' I exclaimed. 'If you had any real griefs you'd +be ashamed to waste a tear on this little contrariety. You never had one +shadow of substantial sorrow, Miss Catherine. Suppose, for a minute, +that master and I were dead, and you were by yourself in the world: how +would you feel, then? Compare the present occasion with such an +affliction as that, and be thankful for the friends you have, instead of +coveting more.' + +'I'm not crying for myself, Ellen,' she answered, 'it's for him. He +expected to see me again to-morrow, and there he'll be so disappointed: +and he'll wait for me, and I sha'n't come!' + +'Nonsense!' said I, 'do you imagine he has thought as much of you as you +have of him? Hasn't he Hareton for a companion? Not one in a hundred +would weep at losing a relation they had just seen twice, for two +afternoons. Linton will conjecture how it is, and trouble himself no +further about you.' + +'But may I not write a note to tell him why I cannot come?' she asked, +rising to her feet. 'And just send those books I promised to lend him? +His books are not as nice as mine, and he wanted to have them extremely, +when I told him how interesting they were. May I not, Ellen?' + +'No, indeed! no, indeed!' replied I with decision. 'Then he would write +to you, and there'd never be an end of it. No, Miss Catherine, the +acquaintance must be dropped entirely: so papa expects, and I shall see +that it is done.' + +'But how can one little note--?' she recommenced, putting on an imploring +countenance. + +'Silence!' I interrupted. 'We'll not begin with your little notes. Get +into bed.' + +She threw at me a very naughty look, so naughty that I would not kiss her +good-night at first: I covered her up, and shut her door, in great +displeasure; but, repenting half-way, I returned softly, and lo! there +was Miss standing at the table with a bit of blank paper before her and a +pencil in her hand, which she guiltily slipped out of sight on my +entrance. + +'You'll get nobody to take that, Catherine,' I said, 'if you write it; +and at present I shall put out your candle.' + +I set the extinguisher on the flame, receiving as I did so a slap on my +hand and a petulant 'cross thing!' I then quitted her again, and she +drew the bolt in one of her worst, most peevish humours. The letter was +finished and forwarded to its destination by a milk-fetcher who came from +the village; but that I didn't learn till some time afterwards. Weeks +passed on, and Cathy recovered her temper; though she grew wondrous fond +of stealing off to corners by herself and often, if I came near her +suddenly while reading, she would start and bend over the book, evidently +desirous to hide it; and I detected edges of loose paper sticking out +beyond the leaves. She also got a trick of coming down early in the +morning and lingering about the kitchen, as if she were expecting the +arrival of something; and she had a small drawer in a cabinet in the +library, which she would trifle over for hours, and whose key she took +special care to remove when she left it. + +One day, as she inspected this drawer, I observed that the playthings and +trinkets which recently formed its contents were transmuted into bits of +folded paper. My curiosity and suspicions were roused; I determined to +take a peep at her mysterious treasures; so, at night, as soon as she and +my master were safe upstairs, I searched, and readily found among my +house keys one that would fit the lock. Having opened, I emptied the +whole contents into my apron, and took them with me to examine at leisure +in my own chamber. Though I could not but suspect, I was still surprised +to discover that they were a mass of correspondence--daily almost, it +must have been--from Linton Heathcliff: answers to documents forwarded by +her. The earlier dated were embarrassed and short; gradually, however, +they expanded into copious love-letters, foolish, as the age of the +writer rendered natural, yet with touches here and there which I thought +were borrowed from a more experienced source. Some of them struck me as +singularly odd compounds of ardour and flatness; commencing in strong +feeling, and concluding in the affected, wordy style that a schoolboy +might use to a fancied, incorporeal sweetheart. Whether they satisfied +Cathy I don't know; but they appeared very worthless trash to me. After +turning over as many as I thought proper, I tied them in a handkerchief +and set them aside, relocking the vacant drawer. + +Following her habit, my young lady descended early, and visited the +kitchen: I watched her go to the door, on the arrival of a certain little +boy; and, while the dairymaid filled his can, she tucked something into +his jacket pocket, and plucked something out. I went round by the +garden, and laid wait for the messenger; who fought valorously to defend +his trust, and we spilt the milk between us; but I succeeded in +abstracting the epistle; and, threatening serious consequences if he did +not look sharp home, I remained under the wall and perused Miss Cathy's +affectionate composition. It was more simple and more eloquent than her +cousin's: very pretty and very silly. I shook my head, and went +meditating into the house. The day being wet, she could not divert +herself with rambling about the park; so, at the conclusion of her +morning studies, she resorted to the solace of the drawer. Her father +sat reading at the table; and I, on purpose, had sought a bit of work in +some unripped fringes of the window-curtain, keeping my eye steadily +fixed on her proceedings. Never did any bird flying back to a plundered +nest, which it had left brimful of chirping young ones, express more +complete despair, in its anguished cries and flutterings, than she by her +single 'Oh!' and the change that transfigured her late happy countenance. +Mr. Linton looked up. + +'What is the matter, love? Have you hurt yourself?' he said. + +His tone and look assured her _he_ had not been the discoverer of the +hoard. + +'No, papa!' she gasped. 'Ellen! Ellen! come up-stairs--I'm sick!' + +I obeyed her summons, and accompanied her out. + +'Oh, Ellen! you have got them,' she commenced immediately, dropping on +her knees, when we were enclosed alone. 'Oh, give them to me, and I'll +never, never do so again! Don't tell papa. You have not told papa, +Ellen? say you have not? I've been exceedingly naughty, but I won't do +it any more!' + +With a grave severity in my manner I bade her stand up. + +'So,' I exclaimed, 'Miss Catherine, you are tolerably far on, it seems: +you may well be ashamed of them! A fine bundle of trash you study in +your leisure hours, to be sure: why, it's good enough to be printed! And +what do you suppose the master will think when I display it before him? I +hav'n't shown it yet, but you needn't imagine I shall keep your +ridiculous secrets. For shame! and you must have led the way in writing +such absurdities: he would not have thought of beginning, I'm certain.' + +'I didn't! I didn't!' sobbed Cathy, fit to break her heart. 'I didn't +once think of loving him till--' + +'_Loving_!' cried I, as scornfully as I could utter the word. '_Loving_! +Did anybody ever hear the like! I might just as well talk of loving the +miller who comes once a year to buy our corn. Pretty loving, indeed! and +both times together you have seen Linton hardly four hours in your life! +Now here is the babyish trash. I'm going with it to the library; and +we'll see what your father says to such _loving_.' + +She sprang at her precious epistles, but I held them above my head; and +then she poured out further frantic entreaties that I would burn them--do +anything rather than show them. And being really fully as much inclined +to laugh as scold--for I esteemed it all girlish vanity--I at length +relented in a measure, and asked,--'If I consent to burn them, will you +promise faithfully neither to send nor receive a letter again, nor a book +(for I perceive you have sent him books), nor locks of hair, nor rings, +nor playthings?' + +'We don't send playthings,' cried Catherine, her pride overcoming her +shame. + +'Nor anything at all, then, my lady?' I said. 'Unless you will, here I +go.' + +'I promise, Ellen!' she cried, catching my dress. 'Oh, put them in the +fire, do, do!' + +But when I proceeded to open a place with the poker the sacrifice was too +painful to be borne. She earnestly supplicated that I would spare her +one or two. + +'One or two, Ellen, to keep for Linton's sake!' + +I unknotted the handkerchief, and commenced dropping them in from an +angle, and the flame curled up the chimney. + +'I will have one, you cruel wretch!' she screamed, darting her hand into +the fire, and drawing forth some half-consumed fragments, at the expense +of her fingers. + +'Very well--and I will have some to exhibit to papa!' I answered, +shaking back the rest into the bundle, and turning anew to the door. + +She emptied her blackened pieces into the flames, and motioned me to +finish the immolation. It was done; I stirred up the ashes, and interred +them under a shovelful of coals; and she mutely, and with a sense of +intense injury, retired to her private apartment. I descended to tell my +master that the young lady's qualm of sickness was almost gone, but I +judged it best for her to lie down a while. She wouldn't dine; but she +reappeared at tea, pale, and red about the eyes, and marvellously subdued +in outward aspect. Next morning I answered the letter by a slip of +paper, inscribed, 'Master Heathcliff is requested to send no more notes +to Miss Linton, as she will not receive them.' And, henceforth, the +little boy came with vacant pockets. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + + +Summer drew to an end, and early autumn: it was past Michaelmas, but the +harvest was late that year, and a few of our fields were still uncleared. +Mr. Linton and his daughter would frequently walk out among the reapers; +at the carrying of the last sheaves they stayed till dusk, and the +evening happening to be chill and damp, my master caught a bad cold, that +settled obstinately on his lungs, and confined him indoors throughout the +whole of the winter, nearly without intermission. + +Poor Cathy, frightened from her little romance, had been considerably +sadder and duller since its abandonment; and her father insisted on her +reading less, and taking more exercise. She had his companionship no +longer; I esteemed it a duty to supply its lack, as much as possible, +with mine: an inefficient substitute; for I could only spare two or three +hours, from my numerous diurnal occupations, to follow her footsteps, and +then my society was obviously less desirable than his. + +On an afternoon in October, or the beginning of November--a fresh watery +afternoon, when the turf and paths were rustling with moist, withered +leaves, and the cold blue sky was half hidden by clouds--dark grey +streamers, rapidly mounting from the west, and boding abundant rain--I +requested my young lady to forego her ramble, because I was certain of +showers. She refused; and I unwillingly donned a cloak, and took my +umbrella to accompany her on a stroll to the bottom of the park: a formal +walk which she generally affected if low-spirited--and that she +invariably was when Mr. Edgar had been worse than ordinary, a thing never +known from his confession, but guessed both by her and me from his +increased silence and the melancholy of his countenance. She went sadly +on: there was no running or bounding now, though the chill wind might +well have tempted her to race. And often, from the side of my eye, I +could detect her raising a hand, and brushing something off her cheek. I +gazed round for a means of diverting her thoughts. On one side of the +road rose a high, rough bank, where hazels and stunted oaks, with their +roots half exposed, held uncertain tenure: the soil was too loose for the +latter; and strong winds had blown some nearly horizontal. In summer +Miss Catherine delighted to climb along these trunks, and sit in the +branches, swinging twenty feet above the ground; and I, pleased with her +agility and her light, childish heart, still considered it proper to +scold every time I caught her at such an elevation, but so that she knew +there was no necessity for descending. From dinner to tea she would lie +in her breeze-rocked cradle, doing nothing except singing old songs--my +nursery lore--to herself, or watching the birds, joint tenants, feed and +entice their young ones to fly: or nestling with closed lids, half +thinking, half dreaming, happier than words can express. + +'Look, Miss!' I exclaimed, pointing to a nook under the roots of one +twisted tree. 'Winter is not here yet. There's a little flower up +yonder, the last bud from the multitude of bluebells that clouded those +turf steps in July with a lilac mist. Will you clamber up, and pluck it +to show to papa?' Cathy stared a long time at the lonely blossom +trembling in its earthy shelter, and replied, at length--'No, I'll not +touch it: but it looks melancholy, does it not, Ellen?' + +'Yes,' I observed, 'about as starved and suckless as you: your cheeks are +bloodless; let us take hold of hands and run. You're so low, I daresay I +shall keep up with you.' + +'No,' she repeated, and continued sauntering on, pausing at intervals to +muse over a bit of moss, or a tuft of blanched grass, or a fungus +spreading its bright orange among the heaps of brown foliage; and, ever +and anon, her hand was lifted to her averted face. + +'Catherine, why are you crying, love?' I asked, approaching and putting +my arm over her shoulder. 'You mustn't cry because papa has a cold; be +thankful it is nothing worse.' + +She now put no further restraint on her tears; her breath was stifled by +sobs. + +'Oh, it will be something worse,' she said. 'And what shall I do when +papa and you leave me, and I am by myself? I can't forget your words, +Ellen; they are always in my ear. How life will be changed, how dreary +the world will be, when papa and you are dead.' + +'None can tell whether you won't die before us,' I replied. 'It's wrong +to anticipate evil. We'll hope there are years and years to come before +any of us go: master is young, and I am strong, and hardly forty-five. My +mother lived till eighty, a canty dame to the last. And suppose Mr. +Linton were spared till he saw sixty, that would be more years than you +have counted, Miss. And would it not be foolish to mourn a calamity +above twenty years beforehand?' + +'But Aunt Isabella was younger than papa,' she remarked, gazing up with +timid hope to seek further consolation. + +'Aunt Isabella had not you and me to nurse her,' I replied. 'She wasn't +as happy as Master: she hadn't as much to live for. All you need do, is +to wait well on your father, and cheer him by letting him see you +cheerful; and avoid giving him anxiety on any subject: mind that, Cathy! +I'll not disguise but you might kill him if you were wild and reckless, +and cherished a foolish, fanciful affection for the son of a person who +would be glad to have him in his grave; and allowed him to discover that +you fretted over the separation he has judged it expedient to make.' + +'I fret about nothing on earth except papa's illness,' answered my +companion. 'I care for nothing in comparison with papa. And I'll +never--never--oh, never, while I have my senses, do an act or say a word +to vex him. I love him better than myself, Ellen; and I know it by this: +I pray every night that I may live after him; because I would rather be +miserable than that he should be: that proves I love him better than +myself.' + +'Good words,' I replied. 'But deeds must prove it also; and after he is +well, remember you don't forget resolutions formed in the hour of fear.' + +As we talked, we neared a door that opened on the road; and my young +lady, lightening into sunshine again, climbed up and seated herself on +the top of the wall, reaching over to gather some hips that bloomed +scarlet on the summit branches of the wild-rose trees shadowing the +highway side: the lower fruit had disappeared, but only birds could touch +the upper, except from Cathy's present station. In stretching to pull +them, her hat fell off; and as the door was locked, she proposed +scrambling down to recover it. I bid her be cautious lest she got a +fall, and she nimbly disappeared. But the return was no such easy +matter: the stones were smooth and neatly cemented, and the rose-bushes +and black-berry stragglers could yield no assistance in re-ascending. I, +like a fool, didn't recollect that, till I heard her laughing and +exclaiming--'Ellen! you'll have to fetch the key, or else I must run +round to the porter's lodge. I can't scale the ramparts on this side!' + +'Stay where you are,' I answered; 'I have my bundle of keys in my pocket: +perhaps I may manage to open it; if not, I'll go.' + +Catherine amused herself with dancing to and fro before the door, while I +tried all the large keys in succession. I had applied the last, and +found that none would do; so, repeating my desire that she would remain +there, I was about to hurry home as fast as I could, when an approaching +sound arrested me. It was the trot of a horse; Cathy's dance stopped +also. + +'Who is that?' I whispered. + +'Ellen, I wish you could open the door,' whispered back my companion, +anxiously. + +'Ho, Miss Linton!' cried a deep voice (the rider's), 'I'm glad to meet +you. Don't be in haste to enter, for I have an explanation to ask and +obtain.' + +'I sha'n't speak to you, Mr. Heathcliff,' answered Catherine. 'Papa says +you are a wicked man, and you hate both him and me; and Ellen says the +same.' + +'That is nothing to the purpose,' said Heathcliff. (He it was.) 'I +don't hate my son, I suppose; and it is concerning him that I demand your +attention. Yes; you have cause to blush. Two or three months since, +were you not in the habit of writing to Linton? making love in play, eh? +You deserved, both of you, flogging for that! You especially, the elder; +and less sensitive, as it turns out. I've got your letters, and if you +give me any pertness I'll send them to your father. I presume you grew +weary of the amusement and dropped it, didn't you? Well, you dropped +Linton with it into a Slough of Despond. He was in earnest: in love, +really. As true as I live, he's dying for you; breaking his heart at +your fickleness: not figuratively, but actually. Though Hareton has made +him a standing jest for six weeks, and I have used more serious measures, +and attempted to frighten him out of his idiotcy, he gets worse daily; +and he'll be under the sod before summer, unless you restore him!' + +'How can you lie so glaringly to the poor child?' I called from the +inside. 'Pray ride on! How can you deliberately get up such paltry +falsehoods? Miss Cathy, I'll knock the lock off with a stone: you won't +believe that vile nonsense. You can feel in yourself it is impossible +that a person should die for love of a stranger.' + +'I was not aware there were eavesdroppers,' muttered the detected +villain. 'Worthy Mrs. Dean, I like you, but I don't like your +double-dealing,' he added aloud. 'How could _you_ lie so glaringly as to +affirm I hated the "poor child"? and invent bugbear stories to terrify +her from my door-stones? Catherine Linton (the very name warms me), my +bonny lass, I shall be from home all this week; go and see if have not +spoken truth: do, there's a darling! Just imagine your father in my +place, and Linton in yours; then think how you would value your careless +lover if he refused to stir a step to comfort you, when your father +himself entreated him; and don't, from pure stupidity, fall into the +same error. I swear, on my salvation, he's going to his grave, and none +but you can save him!' + +The lock gave way and I issued out. + +'I swear Linton is dying,' repeated Heathcliff, looking hard at me. 'And +grief and disappointment are hastening his death. Nelly, if you won't +let her go, you can walk over yourself. But I shall not return till this +time next week; and I think your master himself would scarcely object to +her visiting her cousin.' + +'Come in,' said I, taking Cathy by the arm and half forcing her to +re-enter; for she lingered, viewing with troubled eyes the features of +the speaker, too stern to express his inward deceit. + +He pushed his horse close, and, bending down, observed--'Miss Catherine, +I'll own to you that I have little patience with Linton; and Hareton and +Joseph have less. I'll own that he's with a harsh set. He pines for +kindness, as well as love; and a kind word from you would be his best +medicine. Don't mind Mrs. Dean's cruel cautions; but be generous, and +contrive to see him. He dreams of you day and night, and cannot be +persuaded that you don't hate him, since you neither write nor call.' + +I closed the door, and rolled a stone to assist the loosened lock in +holding it; and spreading my umbrella, I drew my charge underneath: for +the rain began to drive through the moaning branches of the trees, and +warned us to avoid delay. Our hurry prevented any comment on the +encounter with Heathcliff, as we stretched towards home; but I divined +instinctively that Catherine's heart was clouded now in double darkness. +Her features were so sad, they did not seem hers: she evidently regarded +what she had heard as every syllable true. + +The master had retired to rest before we came in. Cathy stole to his +room to inquire how he was; he had fallen asleep. She returned, and +asked me to sit with her in the library. We took our tea together; and +afterwards she lay down on the rug, and told me not to talk, for she was +weary. I got a book, and pretended to read. As soon as she supposed me +absorbed in my occupation, she recommenced her silent weeping: it +appeared, at present, her favourite diversion. I suffered her to enjoy +it a while; then I expostulated: deriding and ridiculing all Mr. +Heathcliff's assertions about his son, as if I were certain she would +coincide. Alas! I hadn't skill to counteract the effect his account had +produced: it was just what he intended. + +'You may be right, Ellen,' she answered; 'but I shall never feel at ease +till I know. And I must tell Linton it is not my fault that I don't +write, and convince him that I shall not change.' + +What use were anger and protestations against her silly credulity? We +parted that night--hostile; but next day beheld me on the road to +Wuthering Heights, by the side of my wilful young mistress's pony. I +couldn't bear to witness her sorrow: to see her pale, dejected +countenance, and heavy eyes: and I yielded, in the faint hope that Linton +himself might prove, by his reception of us, how little of the tale was +founded on fact. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + + +The rainy night had ushered in a misty morning--half frost, half +drizzle--and temporary brooks crossed our path--gurgling from the +uplands. My feet were thoroughly wetted; I was cross and low; exactly +the humour suited for making the most of these disagreeable things. We +entered the farm-house by the kitchen way, to ascertain whether Mr. +Heathcliff were really absent: because I put slight faith in his own +affirmation. + +Joseph seemed sitting in a sort of elysium alone, beside a roaring fire; +a quart of ale on the table near him, bristling with large pieces of +toasted oat-cake; and his black, short pipe in his mouth. Catherine ran +to the hearth to warm herself. I asked if the master was in? My +question remained so long unanswered, that I thought the old man had +grown deaf, and repeated it louder. + +'Na--ay!' he snarled, or rather screamed through his nose. 'Na--ay! yah +muh goa back whear yah coom frough.' + +'Joseph!' cried a peevish voice, simultaneously with me, from the inner +room. 'How often am I to call you? There are only a few red ashes now. +Joseph! come this moment.' + +Vigorous puffs, and a resolute stare into the grate, declared he had no +ear for this appeal. The housekeeper and Hareton were invisible; one +gone on an errand, and the other at his work, probably. We knew Linton's +tones, and entered. + +'Oh, I hope you'll die in a garret, starved to death!' said the boy, +mistaking our approach for that of his negligent attendant. + +He stopped on observing his error: his cousin flew to him. + +'Is that you, Miss Linton?' he said, raising his head from the arm of the +great chair, in which he reclined. 'No--don't kiss me: it takes my +breath. Dear me! Papa said you would call,' continued he, after +recovering a little from Catherine's embrace; while she stood by looking +very contrite. 'Will you shut the door, if you please? you left it open; +and those--those _detestable_ creatures won't bring coals to the fire. +It's so cold!' + +I stirred up the cinders, and fetched a scuttleful myself. The invalid +complained of being covered with ashes; but he had a tiresome cough, and +looked feverish and ill, so I did not rebuke his temper. + +'Well, Linton,' murmured Catherine, when his corrugated brow relaxed, +'are you glad to see me? Can I do you any good?' + +'Why didn't you come before?' he asked. 'You should have come, instead +of writing. It tired me dreadfully writing those long letters. I'd far +rather have talked to you. Now, I can neither bear to talk, nor anything +else. I wonder where Zillah is! Will you' (looking at me) 'step into +the kitchen and see?' + +I had received no thanks for my other service; and being unwilling to run +to and fro at his behest, I replied--'Nobody is out there but Joseph.' + +'I want to drink,' he exclaimed fretfully, turning away. 'Zillah is +constantly gadding off to Gimmerton since papa went: it's miserable! And +I'm obliged to come down here--they resolved never to hear me up-stairs.' + +'Is your father attentive to you, Master Heathcliff?' I asked, perceiving +Catherine to be checked in her friendly advances. + +'Attentive? He makes them a little more attentive at least,' he cried. +'The wretches! Do you know, Miss Linton, that brute Hareton laughs at +me! I hate him! indeed, I hate them all: they are odious beings.' + +Cathy began searching for some water; she lighted on a pitcher in the +dresser, filled a tumbler, and brought it. He bid her add a spoonful of +wine from a bottle on the table; and having swallowed a small portion, +appeared more tranquil, and said she was very kind. + +'And are you glad to see me?' asked she, reiterating her former question +and pleased to detect the faint dawn of a smile. + +'Yes, I am. It's something new to hear a voice like yours!' he replied. +'But I have been vexed, because you wouldn't come. And papa swore it was +owing to me: he called me a pitiful, shuffling, worthless thing; and said +you despised me; and if he had been in my place, he would be more the +master of the Grange than your father by this time. But you don't +despise me, do you, Miss--?' + +'I wish you would say Catherine, or Cathy,' interrupted my young lady. +'Despise you? No! Next to papa and Ellen, I love you better than +anybody living. I don't love Mr. Heathcliff, though; and I dare not come +when he returns: will he stay away many days?' + +'Not many,' answered Linton; 'but he goes on to the moors frequently, +since the shooting season commenced; and you might spend an hour or two +with me in his absence. Do say you will. I think I should not be +peevish with you: you'd not provoke me, and you'd always be ready to help +me, wouldn't you?' + +'Yes,' said Catherine, stroking his long soft hair: 'if I could only get +papa's consent, I'd spend half my time with you. Pretty Linton! I wish +you were my brother.' + +'And then you would like me as well as your father?' observed he, more +cheerfully. 'But papa says you would love me better than him and all the +world, if you were my wife; so I'd rather you were that.' + +'No, I should never love anybody better than papa,' she returned gravely. +'And people hate their wives, sometimes; but not their sisters and +brothers: and if you were the latter, you would live with us, and papa +would be as fond of you as he is of me.' + +Linton denied that people ever hated their wives; but Cathy affirmed they +did, and, in her wisdom, instanced his own father's aversion to her aunt. +I endeavoured to stop her thoughtless tongue. I couldn't succeed till +everything she knew was out. Master Heathcliff, much irritated, asserted +her relation was false. + +'Papa told me; and papa does not tell falsehoods,' she answered pertly. + +'_My_ papa scorns yours!' cried Linton. 'He calls him a sneaking fool.' + +'Yours is a wicked man,' retorted Catherine; 'and you are very naughty to +dare to repeat what he says. He must be wicked to have made Aunt +Isabella leave him as she did.' + +'She didn't leave him,' said the boy; 'you sha'n't contradict me.' + +'She did,' cried my young lady. + +'Well, I'll tell you something!' said Linton. 'Your mother hated your +father: now then.' + +'Oh!' exclaimed Catherine, too enraged to continue. + +'And she loved mine,' added he. + +'You little liar! I hate you now!' she panted, and her face grew red +with passion. + +'She did! she did!' sang Linton, sinking into the recess of his chair, +and leaning back his head to enjoy the agitation of the other disputant, +who stood behind. + +'Hush, Master Heathcliff!' I said; 'that's your father's tale, too, I +suppose.' + +'It isn't: you hold your tongue!' he answered. 'She did, she did, +Catherine! she did, she did!' + +Cathy, beside herself, gave the chair a violent push, and caused him to +fall against one arm. He was immediately seized by a suffocating cough +that soon ended his triumph. It lasted so long that it frightened even +me. As to his cousin, she wept with all her might, aghast at the +mischief she had done: though she said nothing. I held him till the fit +exhausted itself. Then he thrust me away, and leant his head down +silently. Catherine quelled her lamentations also, took a seat opposite, +and looked solemnly into the fire. + +'How do you feel now, Master Heathcliff?' I inquired, after waiting ten +minutes. + +'I wish _she_ felt as I do,' he replied: 'spiteful, cruel thing! Hareton +never touches me: he never struck me in his life. And I was better +to-day: and there--' his voice died in a whimper. + +'_I_ didn't strike you!' muttered Cathy, chewing her lip to prevent +another burst of emotion. + +He sighed and moaned like one under great suffering, and kept it up for a +quarter of an hour; on purpose to distress his cousin apparently, for +whenever he caught a stifled sob from her he put renewed pain and pathos +into the inflexions of his voice. + +'I'm sorry I hurt you, Linton,' she said at length, racked beyond +endurance. 'But I couldn't have been hurt by that little push, and I had +no idea that you could, either: you're not much, are you, Linton? Don't +let me go home thinking I've done you harm. Answer! speak to me.' + +'I can't speak to you,' he murmured; 'you've hurt me so that I shall lie +awake all night choking with this cough. If you had it you'd know what +it was; but _you'll_ be comfortably asleep while I'm in agony, and nobody +near me. I wonder how you would like to pass those fearful nights!' And +he began to wail aloud, for very pity of himself. + +'Since you are in the habit of passing dreadful nights,' I said, 'it +won't be Miss who spoils your ease: you'd be the same had she never come. +However, she shall not disturb you again; and perhaps you'll get quieter +when we leave you.' + +'Must I go?' asked Catherine dolefully, bending over him. 'Do you want +me to go, Linton?' + +'You can't alter what you've done,' he replied pettishly, shrinking from +her, 'unless you alter it for the worse by teasing me into a fever.' + +'Well, then, I must go?' she repeated. + +'Let me alone, at least,' said he; 'I can't bear your talking.' + +She lingered, and resisted my persuasions to departure a tiresome while; +but as he neither looked up nor spoke, she finally made a movement to the +door, and I followed. We were recalled by a scream. Linton had slid +from his seat on to the hearthstone, and lay writhing in the mere +perverseness of an indulged plague of a child, determined to be as +grievous and harassing as it can. I thoroughly gauged his disposition +from his behaviour, and saw at once it would be folly to attempt +humouring him. Not so my companion: she ran back in terror, knelt down, +and cried, and soothed, and entreated, till he grew quiet from lack of +breath: by no means from compunction at distressing her. + +'I shall lift him on to the settle,' I said, 'and he may roll about as he +pleases: we can't stop to watch him. I hope you are satisfied, Miss +Cathy, that you are not the person to benefit him; and that his condition +of health is not occasioned by attachment to you. Now, then, there he +is! Come away: as soon as he knows there is nobody by to care for his +nonsense, he'll be glad to lie still.' + +She placed a cushion under his head, and offered him some water; he +rejected the latter, and tossed uneasily on the former, as if it were a +stone or a block of wood. She tried to put it more comfortably. + +'I can't do with that,' he said; 'it's not high enough.' + +Catherine brought another to lay above it. + +'That's too high,' murmured the provoking thing. + +'How must I arrange it, then?' she asked despairingly. + +He twined himself up to her, as she half knelt by the settle, and +converted her shoulder into a support. + +'No, that won't do,' I said. 'You'll be content with the cushion, Master +Heathcliff. Miss has wasted too much time on you already: we cannot +remain five minutes longer.' + +'Yes, yes, we can!' replied Cathy. 'He's good and patient now. He's +beginning to think I shall have far greater misery than he will to-night, +if I believe he is the worse for my visit: and then I dare not come +again. Tell the truth about it, Linton; for I musn't come, if I have +hurt you.' + +'You must come, to cure me,' he answered. 'You ought to come, because +you have hurt me: you know you have extremely! I was not as ill when you +entered as I am at present--was I?' + +'But you've made yourself ill by crying and being in a passion.--I didn't +do it all,' said his cousin. 'However, we'll be friends now. And you +want me: you would wish to see me sometimes, really?' + +'I told you I did,' he replied impatiently. 'Sit on the settle and let +me lean on your knee. That's as mamma used to do, whole afternoons +together. Sit quite still and don't talk: but you may sing a song, if +you can sing; or you may say a nice long interesting ballad--one of those +you promised to teach me; or a story. I'd rather have a ballad, though: +begin.' + +Catherine repeated the longest she could remember. The employment +pleased both mightily. Linton would have another, and after that +another, notwithstanding my strenuous objections; and so they went on +until the clock struck twelve, and we heard Hareton in the court, +returning for his dinner. + +'And to-morrow, Catherine, will you be here to-morrow?' asked young +Heathcliff, holding her frock as she rose reluctantly. + +'No,' I answered, 'nor next day neither.' She, however, gave a different +response evidently, for his forehead cleared as she stooped and whispered +in his ear. + +'You won't go to-morrow, recollect, Miss!' I commenced, when we were out +of the house. 'You are not dreaming of it, are you?' + +She smiled. + +'Oh, I'll take good care,' I continued: 'I'll have that lock mended, and +you can escape by no way else.' + +'I can get over the wall,' she said laughing. 'The Grange is not a +prison, Ellen, and you are not my gaoler. And besides, I'm almost +seventeen: I'm a woman. And I'm certain Linton would recover quickly if +he had me to look after him. I'm older than he is, you know, and wiser: +less childish, am I not? And he'll soon do as I direct him, with some +slight coaxing. He's a pretty little darling when he's good. I'd make +such a pet of him, if he were mine. We should never quarrel, should we +after we were used to each other? Don't you like him, Ellen?' + +'Like him!' I exclaimed. 'The worst-tempered bit of a sickly slip that +ever struggled into its teens. Happily, as Mr. Heathcliff conjectured, +he'll not win twenty. I doubt whether he'll see spring, indeed. And +small loss to his family whenever he drops off. And lucky it is for us +that his father took him: the kinder he was treated, the more tedious and +selfish he'd be. I'm glad you have no chance of having him for a +husband, Miss Catherine.' + +My companion waxed serious at hearing this speech. To speak of his death +so regardlessly wounded her feelings. + +'He's younger than I,' she answered, after a protracted pause of +meditation, 'and he ought to live the longest: he will--he must live as +long as I do. He's as strong now as when he first came into the north; +I'm positive of that. It's only a cold that ails him, the same as papa +has. You say papa will get better, and why shouldn't he?' + +'Well, well,' I cried, 'after all, we needn't trouble ourselves; for +listen, Miss,--and mind, I'll keep my word,--if you attempt going to +Wuthering Heights again, with or without me, I shall inform Mr. Linton, +and, unless he allow it, the intimacy with your cousin must not be +revived.' + +'It has been revived,' muttered Cathy, sulkily. + +'Must not be continued, then,' I said. + +'We'll see,' was her reply, and she set off at a gallop, leaving me to +toil in the rear. + +We both reached home before our dinner-time; my master supposed we had +been wandering through the park, and therefore he demanded no explanation +of our absence. As soon as I entered I hastened to change my soaked +shoes and stockings; but sitting such awhile at the Heights had done the +mischief. On the succeeding morning I was laid up, and during three +weeks I remained incapacitated for attending to my duties: a calamity +never experienced prior to that period, and never, I am thankful to say, +since. + +My little mistress behaved like an angel in coming to wait on me, and +cheer my solitude; the confinement brought me exceedingly low. It is +wearisome, to a stirring active body: but few have slighter reasons for +complaint than I had. The moment Catherine left Mr. Linton's room she +appeared at my bedside. Her day was divided between us; no amusement +usurped a minute: she neglected her meals, her studies, and her play; and +she was the fondest nurse that ever watched. She must have had a warm +heart, when she loved her father so, to give so much to me. I said her +days were divided between us; but the master retired early, and I +generally needed nothing after six o'clock, thus the evening was her own. +Poor thing! I never considered what she did with herself after tea. And +though frequently, when she looked in to bid me good-night, I remarked a +fresh colour in her cheeks and a pinkness over her slender fingers, +instead of fancying the line borrowed from a cold ride across the moors, +I laid it to the charge of a hot fire in the library. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + + +At the close of three weeks I was able to quit my chamber and move about +the house. And on the first occasion of my sitting up in the evening I +asked Catherine to read to me, because my eyes were weak. We were in the +library, the master having gone to bed: she consented, rather +unwillingly, I fancied; and imagining my sort of books did not suit her, +I bid her please herself in the choice of what she perused. She selected +one of her own favourites, and got forward steadily about an hour; then +came frequent questions. + +'Ellen, are not you tired? Hadn't you better lie down now? You'll be +sick, keeping up so long, Ellen.' + +'No, no, dear, I'm not tired,' I returned, continually. + +Perceiving me immovable, she essayed another method of showing her +disrelish for her occupation. It changed to yawning, and stretching, +and-- + +'Ellen, I'm tired.' + +'Give over then and talk,' I answered. + +That was worse: she fretted and sighed, and looked at her watch till +eight, and finally went to her room, completely overdone with sleep; +judging by her peevish, heavy look, and the constant rubbing she +inflicted on her eyes. The following night she seemed more impatient +still; and on the third from recovering my company she complained of a +headache, and left me. I thought her conduct odd; and having remained +alone a long while, I resolved on going and inquiring whether she were +better, and asking her to come and lie on the sofa, instead of up-stairs +in the dark. No Catherine could I discover up-stairs, and none below. +The servants affirmed they had not seen her. I listened at Mr. Edgar's +door; all was silence. I returned to her apartment, extinguished my +candle, and seated myself in the window. + +The moon shone bright; a sprinkling of snow covered the ground, and I +reflected that she might, possibly, have taken it into her head to walk +about the garden, for refreshment. I did detect a figure creeping along +the inner fence of the park; but it was not my young mistress: on its +emerging into the light, I recognised one of the grooms. He stood a +considerable period, viewing the carriage-road through the grounds; then +started off at a brisk pace, as if he had detected something, and +reappeared presently, leading Miss's pony; and there she was, just +dismounted, and walking by its side. The man took his charge stealthily +across the grass towards the stable. Cathy entered by the +casement-window of the drawing-room, and glided noiselessly up to where I +awaited her. She put the door gently too, slipped off her snowy shoes, +untied her hat, and was proceeding, unconscious of my espionage, to lay +aside her mantle, when I suddenly rose and revealed myself. The surprise +petrified her an instant: she uttered an inarticulate exclamation, and +stood fixed. + +'My dear Miss Catherine,' I began, too vividly impressed by her recent +kindness to break into a scold, 'where have you been riding out at this +hour? And why should you try to deceive me by telling a tale? Where +have you been? Speak!' + +'To the bottom of the park,' she stammered. 'I didn't tell a tale.' + +'And nowhere else?' I demanded. + +'No,' was the muttered reply. + +'Oh, Catherine!' I cried, sorrowfully. 'You know you have been doing +wrong, or you wouldn't be driven to uttering an untruth to me. That does +grieve me. I'd rather be three months ill, than hear you frame a +deliberate lie.' + +She sprang forward, and bursting into tears, threw her arms round my +neck. + +'Well, Ellen, I'm so afraid of you being angry,' she said. 'Promise not +to be angry, and you shall know the very truth: I hate to hide it.' + +We sat down in the window-seat; I assured her I would not scold, whatever +her secret might be, and I guessed it, of course; so she commenced-- + +'I've been to Wuthering Heights, Ellen, and I've never missed going a day +since you fell ill; except thrice before, and twice after you left your +room. I gave Michael books and pictures to prepare Minny every evening, +and to put her back in the stable: you mustn't scold him either, mind. I +was at the Heights by half-past six, and generally stayed till half-past +eight, and then galloped home. It was not to amuse myself that I went: I +was often wretched all the time. Now and then I was happy: once in a +week perhaps. At first, I expected there would be sad work persuading +you to let me keep my word to Linton: for I had engaged to call again +next day, when we quitted him; but, as you stayed up-stairs on the +morrow, I escaped that trouble. While Michael was refastening the lock +of the park door in the afternoon, I got possession of the key, and told +him how my cousin wished me to visit him, because he was sick, and +couldn't come to the Grange; and how papa would object to my going: and +then I negotiated with him about the pony. He is fond of reading, and he +thinks of leaving soon to get married; so he offered, if I would lend him +books out of the library, to do what I wished: but I preferred giving him +my own, and that satisfied him better. + +'On my second visit Linton seemed in lively spirits; and Zillah (that is +their housekeeper) made us a clean room and a good fire, and told us +that, as Joseph was out at a prayer-meeting and Hareton Earnshaw was off +with his dogs--robbing our woods of pheasants, as I heard afterwards--we +might do what we liked. She brought me some warm wine and gingerbread, +and appeared exceedingly good-natured, and Linton sat in the arm-chair, +and I in the little rocking chair on the hearth-stone, and we laughed and +talked so merrily, and found so much to say: we planned where we would +go, and what we would do in summer. I needn't repeat that, because you +would call it silly. + +'One time, however, we were near quarrelling. He said the pleasantest +manner of spending a hot July day was lying from morning till evening on +a bank of heath in the middle of the moors, with the bees humming +dreamily about among the bloom, and the larks singing high up overhead, +and the blue sky and bright sun shining steadily and cloudlessly. That +was his most perfect idea of heaven's happiness: mine was rocking in a +rustling green tree, with a west wind blowing, and bright white clouds +flitting rapidly above; and not only larks, but throstles, and +blackbirds, and linnets, and cuckoos pouring out music on every side, and +the moors seen at a distance, broken into cool dusky dells; but close by +great swells of long grass undulating in waves to the breeze; and woods +and sounding water, and the whole world awake and wild with joy. He +wanted all to lie in an ecstasy of peace; I wanted all to sparkle and +dance in a glorious jubilee. I said his heaven would be only half alive; +and he said mine would be drunk: I said I should fall asleep in his; and +he said he could not breathe in mine, and began to grow very snappish. At +last, we agreed to try both, as soon as the right weather came; and then +we kissed each other and were friends. + +'After sitting still an hour, I looked at the great room with its smooth +uncarpeted floor, and thought how nice it would be to play in, if we +removed the table; and I asked Linton to call Zillah in to help us, and +we'd have a game at blindman's-buff; she should try to catch us: you used +to, you know, Ellen. He wouldn't: there was no pleasure in it, he said; +but he consented to play at ball with me. We found two in a cupboard, +among a heap of old toys, tops, and hoops, and battledores and +shuttlecocks. One was marked C., and the other H.; I wished to have the +C., because that stood for Catherine, and the H. might be for Heathcliff, +his name; but the bran came out of H., and Linton didn't like it. I beat +him constantly: and he got cross again, and coughed, and returned to his +chair. That night, though, he easily recovered his good humour: he was +charmed with two or three pretty songs--_your_ songs, Ellen; and when I +was obliged to go, he begged and entreated me to come the following +evening; and I promised. Minny and I went flying home as light as air; +and I dreamt of Wuthering Heights and my sweet, darling cousin, till +morning. + +'On the morrow I was sad; partly because you were poorly, and partly that +I wished my father knew, and approved of my excursions: but it was +beautiful moonlight after tea; and, as I rode on, the gloom cleared. I +shall have another happy evening, I thought to myself; and what delights +me more, my pretty Linton will. I trotted up their garden, and was +turning round to the back, when that fellow Earnshaw met me, took my +bridle, and bid me go in by the front entrance. He patted Minny's neck, +and said she was a bonny beast, and appeared as if he wanted me to speak +to him. I only told him to leave my horse alone, or else it would kick +him. He answered in his vulgar accent, "It wouldn't do mitch hurt if it +did;" and surveyed its legs with a smile. I was half inclined to make it +try; however, he moved off to open the door, and, as he raised the latch, +he looked up to the inscription above, and said, with a stupid mixture of +awkwardness and elation: "Miss Catherine! I can read yon, now." + +'"Wonderful," I exclaimed. "Pray let us hear you--you _are_ grown +clever!" + +'He spelt, and drawled over by syllables, the name--"Hareton Earnshaw." + +'"And the figures?" I cried, encouragingly, perceiving that he came to a +dead halt. + +'"I cannot tell them yet," he answered. + +'"Oh, you dunce!" I said, laughing heartily at his failure. + +'The fool stared, with a grin hovering about his lips, and a scowl +gathering over his eyes, as if uncertain whether he might not join in my +mirth: whether it were not pleasant familiarity, or what it really was, +contempt. I settled his doubts, by suddenly retrieving my gravity and +desiring him to walk away, for I came to see Linton, not him. He +reddened--I saw that by the moonlight--dropped his hand from the latch, +and skulked off, a picture of mortified vanity. He imagined himself to +be as accomplished as Linton, I suppose, because he could spell his own +name; and was marvellously discomfited that I didn't think the same.' + +'Stop, Miss Catherine, dear!'--I interrupted. 'I shall not scold, but I +don't like your conduct there. If you had remembered that Hareton was +your cousin as much as Master Heathcliff, you would have felt how +improper it was to behave in that way. At least, it was praiseworthy +ambition for him to desire to be as accomplished as Linton; and probably +he did not learn merely to show off: you had made him ashamed of his +ignorance before, I have no doubt; and he wished to remedy it and please +you. To sneer at his imperfect attempt was very bad breeding. Had you +been brought up in his circumstances, would you be less rude? He was as +quick and as intelligent a child as ever you were; and I'm hurt that he +should be despised now, because that base Heathcliff has treated him so +unjustly.' + +'Well, Ellen, you won't cry about it, will you?' she exclaimed, surprised +at my earnestness. 'But wait, and you shall hear if he conned his A B C +to please me; and if it were worth while being civil to the brute. I +entered; Linton was lying on the settle, and half got up to welcome me. + +'"I'm ill to-night, Catherine, love," he said; "and you must have all the +talk, and let me listen. Come, and sit by me. I was sure you wouldn't +break your word, and I'll make you promise again, before you go." + +'I knew now that I mustn't tease him, as he was ill; and I spoke softly +and put no questions, and avoided irritating him in any way. I had +brought some of my nicest books for him: he asked me to read a little of +one, and I was about to comply, when Earnshaw burst the door open: having +gathered venom with reflection. He advanced direct to us, seized Linton +by the arm, and swung him off the seat. + +'"Get to thy own room!" he said, in a voice almost inarticulate with +passion; and his face looked swelled and furious. "Take her there if she +comes to see thee: thou shalln't keep me out of this. Begone wi' ye +both!" + +'He swore at us, and left Linton no time to answer, nearly throwing him +into the kitchen; and he clenched his fist as I followed, seemingly +longing to knock me down. I was afraid for a moment, and I let one +volume fall; he kicked it after me, and shut us out. I heard a +malignant, crackly laugh by the fire, and turning, beheld that odious +Joseph standing rubbing his bony hands, and quivering. + +'"I wer sure he'd sarve ye out! He's a grand lad! He's getten t' raight +sperrit in him! _He_ knaws--ay, he knaws, as weel as I do, who sud be t' +maister yonder--Ech, ech, ech! He made ye skift properly! Ech, ech, +ech!" + +'"Where must we go?" I asked of my cousin, disregarding the old wretch's +mockery. + +'Linton was white and trembling. He was not pretty then, Ellen: oh, no! +he looked frightful; for his thin face and large eyes were wrought into +an expression of frantic, powerless fury. He grasped the handle of the +door, and shook it: it was fastened inside. + +'"If you don't let me in, I'll kill you!--If you don't let me in, I'll +kill you!" he rather shrieked than said. "Devil! devil!--I'll kill +you--I'll kill you!" + +Joseph uttered his croaking laugh again. + +'"Thear, that's t' father!" he cried. "That's father! We've allas +summut o' either side in us. Niver heed, Hareton, lad--dunnut be +'feard--he cannot get at thee!" + +'I took hold of Linton's hands, and tried to pull him away; but he +shrieked so shockingly that I dared not proceed. At last his cries were +choked by a dreadful fit of coughing; blood gushed from his mouth, and he +fell on the ground. I ran into the yard, sick with terror; and called +for Zillah, as loud as I could. She soon heard me: she was milking the +cows in a shed behind the barn, and hurrying from her work, she inquired +what there was to do? I hadn't breath to explain; dragging her in, I +looked about for Linton. Earnshaw had come out to examine the mischief +he had caused, and he was then conveying the poor thing up-stairs. Zillah +and I ascended after him; but he stopped me at the top of the steps, and +said I shouldn't go in: I must go home. I exclaimed that he had killed +Linton, and I _would_ enter. Joseph locked the door, and declared I +should do "no sich stuff," and asked me whether I were "bahn to be as mad +as him." I stood crying till the housekeeper reappeared. She affirmed +he would be better in a bit, but he couldn't do with that shrieking and +din; and she took me, and nearly carried me into the house. + +'Ellen, I was ready to tear my hair off my head! I sobbed and wept so +that my eyes were almost blind; and the ruffian you have such sympathy +with stood opposite: presuming every now and then to bid me "wisht," and +denying that it was his fault; and, finally, frightened by my assertions +that I would tell papa, and that he should be put in prison and hanged, +he commenced blubbering himself, and hurried out to hide his cowardly +agitation. Still, I was not rid of him: when at length they compelled me +to depart, and I had got some hundred yards off the premises, he suddenly +issued from the shadow of the road-side, and checked Minny and took hold +of me. + +'"Miss Catherine, I'm ill grieved," he began, "but it's rayther too bad--" + +'I gave him a cut with my whip, thinking perhaps he would murder me. He +let go, thundering one of his horrid curses, and I galloped home more +than half out of my senses. + +'I didn't bid you good-night that evening, and I didn't go to Wuthering +Heights the next: I wished to go exceedingly; but I was strangely +excited, and dreaded to hear that Linton was dead, sometimes; and +sometimes shuddered at the thought of encountering Hareton. On the third +day I took courage: at least, I couldn't bear longer suspense, and stole +off once more. I went at five o'clock, and walked; fancying I might +manage to creep into the house, and up to Linton's room, unobserved. +However, the dogs gave notice of my approach. Zillah received me, and +saying "the lad was mending nicely," showed me into a small, tidy, +carpeted apartment, where, to my inexpressible joy, I beheld Linton laid +on a little sofa, reading one of my books. But he would neither speak to +me nor look at me, through a whole hour, Ellen: he has such an unhappy +temper. And what quite confounded me, when he did open his mouth, it was +to utter the falsehood that I had occasioned the uproar, and Hareton was +not to blame! Unable to reply, except passionately, I got up and walked +from the room. He sent after me a faint "Catherine!" He did not reckon +on being answered so: but I wouldn't turn back; and the morrow was the +second day on which I stayed at home, nearly determined to visit him no +more. But it was so miserable going to bed and getting up, and never +hearing anything about him, that my resolution melted into air before it +was properly formed. It had appeared wrong to take the journey once; now +it seemed wrong to refrain. Michael came to ask if he must saddle Minny; +I said "Yes," and considered myself doing a duty as she bore me over the +hills. I was forced to pass the front windows to get to the court: it +was no use trying to conceal my presence. + +'"Young master is in the house," said Zillah, as she saw me making for +the parlour. I went in; Earnshaw was there also, but he quitted the room +directly. Linton sat in the great arm-chair half asleep; walking up to +the fire, I began in a serious tone, partly meaning it to be true-- + +'"As you don't like me, Linton, and as you think I come on purpose to +hurt you, and pretend that I do so every time, this is our last meeting: +let us say good-bye; and tell Mr. Heathcliff that you have no wish to see +me, and that he mustn't invent any more falsehoods on the subject." + +'"Sit down and take your hat off, Catherine," he answered. "You are so +much happier than I am, you ought to be better. Papa talks enough of my +defects, and shows enough scorn of me, to make it natural I should doubt +myself. I doubt whether I am not altogether as worthless as he calls me, +frequently; and then I feel so cross and bitter, I hate everybody! I am +worthless, and bad in temper, and bad in spirit, almost always; and, if +you choose, you may say good-bye: you'll get rid of an annoyance. Only, +Catherine, do me this justice: believe that if I might be as sweet, and +as kind, and as good as you are, I would be; as willingly, and more so, +than as happy and as healthy. And believe that your kindness has made me +love you deeper than if I deserved your love: and though I couldn't, and +cannot help showing my nature to you, I regret it and repent it; and +shall regret and repent it till I die!" + +'I felt he spoke the truth; and I felt I must forgive him: and, though we +should quarrel the next moment, I must forgive him again. We were +reconciled; but we cried, both of us, the whole time I stayed: not +entirely for sorrow; yet I _was_ sorry Linton had that distorted nature. +He'll never let his friends be at ease, and he'll never be at ease +himself! I have always gone to his little parlour, since that night; +because his father returned the day after. + +'About three times, I think, we have been merry and hopeful, as we were +the first evening; the rest of my visits were dreary and troubled: now +with his selfishness and spite, and now with his sufferings: but I've +learned to endure the former with nearly as little resentment as the +latter. Mr. Heathcliff purposely avoids me: I have hardly seen him at +all. Last Sunday, indeed, coming earlier than usual, I heard him abusing +poor Linton cruelly for his conduct of the night before. I can't tell +how he knew of it, unless he listened. Linton had certainly behaved +provokingly: however, it was the business of nobody but me, and I +interrupted Mr. Heathcliff's lecture by entering and telling him so. He +burst into a laugh, and went away, saying he was glad I took that view of +the matter. Since then, I've told Linton he must whisper his bitter +things. Now, Ellen, you have heard all. I can't be prevented from going +to Wuthering Heights, except by inflicting misery on two people; whereas, +if you'll only not tell papa, my going need disturb the tranquillity of +none. You'll not tell, will you? It will be very heartless, if you do.' + +'I'll make up my mind on that point by to-morrow, Miss Catherine,' I +replied. 'It requires some study; and so I'll leave you to your rest, +and go think it over.' + +I thought it over aloud, in my master's presence; walking straight from +her room to his, and relating the whole story: with the exception of her +conversations with her cousin, and any mention of Hareton. Mr. Linton +was alarmed and distressed, more than he would acknowledge to me. In the +morning, Catherine learnt my betrayal of her confidence, and she learnt +also that her secret visits were to end. In vain she wept and writhed +against the interdict, and implored her father to have pity on Linton: +all she got to comfort her was a promise that he would write and give him +leave to come to the Grange when he pleased; but explaining that he must +no longer expect to see Catherine at Wuthering Heights. Perhaps, had he +been aware of his nephew's disposition and state of health, he would have +seen fit to withhold even that slight consolation. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + + +'These things happened last winter, sir,' said Mrs. Dean; 'hardly more +than a year ago. Last winter, I did not think, at another twelve months' +end, I should be amusing a stranger to the family with relating them! +Yet, who knows how long you'll be a stranger? You're too young to rest +always contented, living by yourself; and I some way fancy no one could +see Catherine Linton and not love her. You smile; but why do you look so +lively and interested when I talk about her? and why have you asked me to +hang her picture over your fireplace? and why--?' + +'Stop, my good friend!' I cried. 'It may be very possible that _I_ +should love her; but would she love me? I doubt it too much to venture +my tranquillity by running into temptation: and then my home is not here. +I'm of the busy world, and to its arms I must return. Go on. Was +Catherine obedient to her father's commands?' + +'She was,' continued the housekeeper. 'Her affection for him was still +the chief sentiment in her heart; and he spoke without anger: he spoke in +the deep tenderness of one about to leave his treasure amid perils and +foes, where his remembered words would be the only aid that he could +bequeath to guide her. He said to me, a few days afterwards, "I wish my +nephew would write, Ellen, or call. Tell me, sincerely, what you think +of him: is he changed for the better, or is there a prospect of +improvement, as he grows a man?" + +'"He's very delicate, sir," I replied; "and scarcely likely to reach +manhood: but this I can say, he does not resemble his father; and if Miss +Catherine had the misfortune to marry him, he would not be beyond her +control: unless she were extremely and foolishly indulgent. However, +master, you'll have plenty of time to get acquainted with him and see +whether he would suit her: it wants four years and more to his being of +age."' + +Edgar sighed; and, walking to the window, looked out towards Gimmerton +Kirk. It was a misty afternoon, but the February sun shone dimly, and we +could just distinguish the two fir-trees in the yard, and the +sparely-scattered gravestones. + +'I've prayed often,' he half soliloquised, 'for the approach of what is +coming; and now I begin to shrink, and fear it. I thought the memory of +the hour I came down that glen a bridegroom would be less sweet than the +anticipation that I was soon, in a few months, or, possibly, weeks, to be +carried up, and laid in its lonely hollow! Ellen, I've been very happy +with my little Cathy: through winter nights and summer days she was a +living hope at my side. But I've been as happy musing by myself among +those stones, under that old church: lying, through the long June +evenings, on the green mound of her mother's grave, and wishing--yearning +for the time when I might lie beneath it. What can I do for Cathy? How +must I quit her? I'd not care one moment for Linton being Heathcliff's +son; nor for his taking her from me, if he could console her for my loss. +I'd not care that Heathcliff gained his ends, and triumphed in robbing me +of my last blessing! But should Linton be unworthy--only a feeble tool +to his father--I cannot abandon her to him! And, hard though it be to +crush her buoyant spirit, I must persevere in making her sad while I +live, and leaving her solitary when I die. Darling! I'd rather resign +her to God, and lay her in the earth before me.' + +'Resign her to God as it is, sir,' I answered, 'and if we should lose +you--which may He forbid--under His providence, I'll stand her friend and +counsellor to the last. Miss Catherine is a good girl: I don't fear that +she will go wilfully wrong; and people who do their duty are always +finally rewarded.' + +Spring advanced; yet my master gathered no real strength, though he +resumed his walks in the grounds with his daughter. To her inexperienced +notions, this itself was a sign of convalescence; and then his cheek was +often flushed, and his eyes were bright; she felt sure of his recovering. +On her seventeenth birthday, he did not visit the churchyard: it was +raining, and I observed--'You'll surely not go out to-night, sir?' + +He answered,--'No, I'll defer it this year a little longer.' He wrote +again to Linton, expressing his great desire to see him; and, had the +invalid been presentable, I've no doubt his father would have permitted +him to come. As it was, being instructed, he returned an answer, +intimating that Mr. Heathcliff objected to his calling at the Grange; but +his uncle's kind remembrance delighted him, and he hoped to meet him +sometimes in his rambles, and personally to petition that his cousin and +he might not remain long so utterly divided. + +That part of his letter was simple, and probably his own. Heathcliff +knew he could plead eloquently for Catherine's company, then. + +'I do not ask,' he said, 'that she may visit here; but am I never to see +her, because my father forbids me to go to her home, and you forbid her +to come to mine? Do, now and then, ride with her towards the Heights; +and let us exchange a few words, in your presence! We have done nothing +to deserve this separation; and you are not angry with me: you have no +reason to dislike me, you allow, yourself. Dear uncle! send me a kind +note to-morrow, and leave to join you anywhere you please, except at +Thrushcross Grange. I believe an interview would convince you that my +father's character is not mine: he affirms I am more your nephew than his +son; and though I have faults which render me unworthy of Catherine, she +has excused them, and for her sake, you should also. You inquire after +my health--it is better; but while I remain cut off from all hope, and +doomed to solitude, or the society of those who never did and never will +like me, how can I be cheerful and well?' + +Edgar, though he felt for the boy, could not consent to grant his +request; because he could not accompany Catherine. He said, in summer, +perhaps, they might meet: meantime, he wished him to continue writing at +intervals, and engaged to give him what advice and comfort he was able by +letter; being well aware of his hard position in his family. Linton +complied; and had he been unrestrained, would probably have spoiled all +by filling his epistles with complaints and lamentations: but his father +kept a sharp watch over him; and, of course, insisted on every line that +my master sent being shown; so, instead of penning his peculiar personal +sufferings and distresses, the themes constantly uppermost in his +thoughts, he harped on the cruel obligation of being held asunder from +his friend and love; and gently intimated that Mr. Linton must allow an +interview soon, or he should fear he was purposely deceiving him with +empty promises. + +Cathy was a powerful ally at home; and between them they at length +persuaded my master to acquiesce in their having a ride or a walk +together about once a week, under my guardianship, and on the moors +nearest the Grange: for June found him still declining. Though he had +set aside yearly a portion of his income for my young lady's fortune, he +had a natural desire that she might retain--or at least return in a short +time to--the house of her ancestors; and he considered her only prospect +of doing that was by a union with his heir; he had no idea that the +latter was failing almost as fast as himself; nor had any one, I believe: +no doctor visited the Heights, and no one saw Master Heathcliff to make +report of his condition among us. I, for my part, began to fancy my +forebodings were false, and that he must be actually rallying, when he +mentioned riding and walking on the moors, and seemed so earnest in +pursuing his object. I could not picture a father treating a dying child +as tyrannically and wickedly as I afterwards learned Heathcliff had +treated him, to compel this apparent eagerness: his efforts redoubling +the more imminently his avaricious and unfeeling plans were threatened +with defeat by death. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + + +Summer was already past its prime, when Edgar reluctantly yielded his +assent to their entreaties, and Catherine and I set out on our first ride +to join her cousin. It was a close, sultry day: devoid of sunshine, but +with a sky too dappled and hazy to threaten rain: and our place of +meeting had been fixed at the guide-stone, by the cross-roads. On +arriving there, however, a little herd-boy, despatched as a messenger, +told us that,--'Maister Linton wer just o' this side th' Heights: and +he'd be mitch obleeged to us to gang on a bit further.' + +'Then Master Linton has forgot the first injunction of his uncle,' I +observed: 'he bid us keep on the Grange land, and here we are off at +once.' + +'Well, we'll turn our horses' heads round when we reach him,' answered my +companion; 'our excursion shall lie towards home.' + +But when we reached him, and that was scarcely a quarter of a mile from +his own door, we found he had no horse; and we were forced to dismount, +and leave ours to graze. He lay on the heath, awaiting our approach, and +did not rise till we came within a few yards. Then he walked so feebly, +and looked so pale, that I immediately exclaimed,--'Why, Master +Heathcliff, you are not fit for enjoying a ramble this morning. How ill +you do look!' + +Catherine surveyed him with grief and astonishment: she changed the +ejaculation of joy on her lips to one of alarm; and the congratulation on +their long-postponed meeting to an anxious inquiry, whether he were worse +than usual? + +'No--better--better!' he panted, trembling, and retaining her hand as if +he needed its support, while his large blue eyes wandered timidly over +her; the hollowness round them transforming to haggard wildness the +languid expression they once possessed. + +'But you have been worse,' persisted his cousin; 'worse than when I saw +you last; you are thinner, and--' + +'I'm tired,' he interrupted, hurriedly. 'It is too hot for walking, let +us rest here. And, in the morning, I often feel sick--papa says I grow +so fast.' + +Badly satisfied, Cathy sat down, and he reclined beside her. + +'This is something like your paradise,' said she, making an effort at +cheerfulness. 'You recollect the two days we agreed to spend in the +place and way each thought pleasantest? This is nearly yours, only there +are clouds; but then they are so soft and mellow: it is nicer than +sunshine. Next week, if you can, we'll ride down to the Grange Park, and +try mine.' + +Linton did not appear to remember what she talked of and he had evidently +great difficulty in sustaining any kind of conversation. His lack of +interest in the subjects she started, and his equal incapacity to +contribute to her entertainment, were so obvious that she could not +conceal her disappointment. An indefinite alteration had come over his +whole person and manner. The pettishness that might be caressed into +fondness, had yielded to a listless apathy; there was less of the peevish +temper of a child which frets and teases on purpose to be soothed, and +more of the self-absorbed moroseness of a confirmed invalid, repelling +consolation, and ready to regard the good-humoured mirth of others as an +insult. Catherine perceived, as well as I did, that he held it rather a +punishment, than a gratification, to endure our company; and she made no +scruple of proposing, presently, to depart. That proposal, unexpectedly, +roused Linton from his lethargy, and threw him into a strange state of +agitation. He glanced fearfully towards the Heights, begging she would +remain another half-hour, at least. + +'But I think,' said Cathy, 'you'd be more comfortable at home than +sitting here; and I cannot amuse you to-day, I see, by my tales, and +songs, and chatter: you have grown wiser than I, in these six months; you +have little taste for my diversions now: or else, if I could amuse you, +I'd willingly stay.' + +'Stay to rest yourself,' he replied. 'And, Catherine, don't think or say +that I'm _very_ unwell: it is the heavy weather and heat that make me +dull; and I walked about, before you came, a great deal for me. Tell +uncle I'm in tolerable health, will you?' + +'I'll tell him that _you_ say so, Linton. I couldn't affirm that you +are,' observed my young lady, wondering at his pertinacious assertion of +what was evidently an untruth. + +'And be here again next Thursday,' continued he, shunning her puzzled +gaze. 'And give him my thanks for permitting you to come--my best +thanks, Catherine. And--and, if you _did_ meet my father, and he asked +you about me, don't lead him to suppose that I've been extremely silent +and stupid: don't look sad and downcast, as you are doing--he'll be +angry.' + +'I care nothing for his anger,' exclaimed Cathy, imagining she would be +its object. + +'But I do,' said her cousin, shuddering. '_Don't_ provoke him against +me, Catherine, for he is very hard.' + +'Is he severe to you, Master Heathcliff?' I inquired. 'Has he grown +weary of indulgence, and passed from passive to active hatred?' + +Linton looked at me, but did not answer; and, after keeping her seat by +his side another ten minutes, during which his head fell drowsily on his +breast, and he uttered nothing except suppressed moans of exhaustion or +pain, Cathy began to seek solace in looking for bilberries, and sharing +the produce of her researches with me: she did not offer them to him, for +she saw further notice would only weary and annoy. + +'Is it half-an-hour now, Ellen?' she whispered in my ear, at last. 'I +can't tell why we should stay. He's asleep, and papa will be wanting us +back.' + +'Well, we must not leave him asleep,' I answered; 'wait till he wakes, +and be patient. You were mighty eager to set off, but your longing to +see poor Linton has soon evaporated!' + +'Why did _he_ wish to see me?' returned Catherine. 'In his crossest +humours, formerly, I liked him better than I do in his present curious +mood. It's just as if it were a task he was compelled to perform--this +interview--for fear his father should scold him. But I'm hardly going to +come to give Mr. Heathcliff pleasure; whatever reason he may have for +ordering Linton to undergo this penance. And, though I'm glad he's +better in health, I'm sorry he's so much less pleasant, and so much less +affectionate to me.' + +'You think _he is_ better in health, then?' I said. + +'Yes,' she answered; 'because he always made such a great deal of his +sufferings, you know. He is not tolerably well, as he told me to tell +papa; but he's better, very likely.' + +'There you differ with me, Miss Cathy,' I remarked; 'I should conjecture +him to be far worse.' + +Linton here started from his slumber in bewildered terror, and asked if +any one had called his name. + +'No,' said Catherine; 'unless in dreams. I cannot conceive how you +manage to doze out of doors, in the morning.' + +'I thought I heard my father,' he gasped, glancing up to the frowning nab +above us. 'You are sure nobody spoke?' + +'Quite sure,' replied his cousin. 'Only Ellen and I were disputing +concerning your health. Are you truly stronger, Linton, than when we +separated in winter? If you be, I'm certain one thing is not +stronger--your regard for me: speak,--are you?' + +The tears gushed from Linton's eyes as he answered, 'Yes, yes, I am!' +And, still under the spell of the imaginary voice, his gaze wandered up +and down to detect its owner. + +Cathy rose. 'For to-day we must part,' she said. 'And I won't conceal +that I have been sadly disappointed with our meeting; though I'll mention +it to nobody but you: not that I stand in awe of Mr. Heathcliff.' + +'Hush,' murmured Linton; 'for God's sake, hush! He's coming.' And he +clung to Catherine's arm, striving to detain her; but at that +announcement she hastily disengaged herself, and whistled to Minny, who +obeyed her like a dog. + +'I'll be here next Thursday,' she cried, springing to the saddle. +'Good-bye. Quick, Ellen!' + +And so we left him, scarcely conscious of our departure, so absorbed was +he in anticipating his father's approach. + +Before we reached home, Catherine's displeasure softened into a perplexed +sensation of pity and regret, largely blended with vague, uneasy doubts +about Linton's actual circumstances, physical and social: in which I +partook, though I counselled her not to say much; for a second journey +would make us better judges. My master requested an account of our +ongoings. His nephew's offering of thanks was duly delivered, Miss Cathy +gently touching on the rest: I also threw little light on his inquiries, +for I hardly knew what to hide and what to reveal. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + + +Seven days glided away, every one marking its course by the henceforth +rapid alteration of Edgar Linton's state. The havoc that months had +previously wrought was now emulated by the inroads of hours. Catherine +we would fain have deluded yet; but her own quick spirit refused to +delude her: it divined in secret, and brooded on the dreadful +probability, gradually ripening into certainty. She had not the heart to +mention her ride, when Thursday came round; I mentioned it for her, and +obtained permission to order her out of doors: for the library, where her +father stopped a short time daily--the brief period he could bear to sit +up--and his chamber, had become her whole world. She grudged each moment +that did not find her bending over his pillow, or seated by his side. Her +countenance grew wan with watching and sorrow, and my master gladly +dismissed her to what he flattered himself would be a happy change of +scene and society; drawing comfort from the hope that she would not now +be left entirely alone after his death. + +He had a fixed idea, I guessed by several observations he let fall, that, +as his nephew resembled him in person, he would resemble him in mind; for +Linton's letters bore few or no indications of his defective character. +And I, through pardonable weakness, refrained from correcting the error; +asking myself what good there would be in disturbing his last moments +with information that he had neither power nor opportunity to turn to +account. + +We deferred our excursion till the afternoon; a golden afternoon of +August: every breath from the hills so full of life, that it seemed +whoever respired it, though dying, might revive. Catherine's face was +just like the landscape--shadows and sunshine flitting over it in rapid +succession; but the shadows rested longer, and the sunshine was more +transient; and her poor little heart reproached itself for even that +passing forgetfulness of its cares. + +We discerned Linton watching at the same spot he had selected before. My +young mistress alighted, and told me that, as she was resolved to stay a +very little while, I had better hold the pony and remain on horseback; +but I dissented: I wouldn't risk losing sight of the charge committed to +me a minute; so we climbed the slope of heath together. Master +Heathcliff received us with greater animation on this occasion: not the +animation of high spirits though, nor yet of joy; it looked more like +fear. + +'It is late!' he said, speaking short and with difficulty. 'Is not your +father very ill? I thought you wouldn't come.' + +'_Why_ won't you be candid?' cried Catherine, swallowing her greeting. +'Why cannot you say at once you don't want me? It is strange, Linton, +that for the second time you have brought me here on purpose, apparently +to distress us both, and for no reason besides!' + +Linton shivered, and glanced at her, half supplicating, half ashamed; but +his cousin's patience was not sufficient to endure this enigmatical +behaviour. + +'My father _is_ very ill,' she said; 'and why am I called from his +bedside? Why didn't you send to absolve me from my promise, when you +wished I wouldn't keep it? Come! I desire an explanation: playing and +trifling are completely banished out of my mind; and I can't dance +attendance on your affectations now!' + +'My affectations!' he murmured; 'what are they? For heaven's sake, +Catherine, don't look so angry! Despise me as much as you please; I am a +worthless, cowardly wretch: I can't be scorned enough; but I'm too mean +for your anger. Hate my father, and spare me for contempt.' + +'Nonsense!' cried Catherine in a passion. 'Foolish, silly boy! And +there! he trembles: as if I were really going to touch him! You needn't +bespeak contempt, Linton: anybody will have it spontaneously at your +service. Get off! I shall return home: it is folly dragging you from +the hearth-stone, and pretending--what do we pretend? Let go my frock! +If I pitied you for crying and looking so very frightened, you should +spurn such pity. Ellen, tell him how disgraceful this conduct is. Rise, +and don't degrade yourself into an abject reptile--_don't_!' + +With streaming face and an expression of agony, Linton had thrown his +nerveless frame along the ground: he seemed convulsed with exquisite +terror. + +'Oh!' he sobbed, 'I cannot bear it! Catherine, Catherine, I'm a traitor, +too, and I dare not tell you! But leave me, and I shall be killed! +_Dear_ Catherine, my life is in your hands: and you have said you loved +me, and if you did, it wouldn't harm you. You'll not go, then? kind, +sweet, good Catherine! And perhaps you _will_ consent--and he'll let me +die with you!' + +My young lady, on witnessing his intense anguish, stooped to raise him. +The old feeling of indulgent tenderness overcame her vexation, and she +grew thoroughly moved and alarmed. + +'Consent to what?' she asked. 'To stay! tell me the meaning of this +strange talk, and I will. You contradict your own words, and distract +me! Be calm and frank, and confess at once all that weighs on your +heart. You wouldn't injure me, Linton, would you? You wouldn't let any +enemy hurt me, if you could prevent it? I'll believe you are a coward, +for yourself, but not a cowardly betrayer of your best friend.' + +'But my father threatened me,' gasped the boy, clasping his attenuated +fingers, 'and I dread him--I dread him! I _dare_ not tell!' + +'Oh, well!' said Catherine, with scornful compassion, 'keep your secret: +_I'm_ no coward. Save yourself: I'm not afraid!' + +Her magnanimity provoked his tears: he wept wildly, kissing her +supporting hands, and yet could not summon courage to speak out. I was +cogitating what the mystery might be, and determined Catherine should +never suffer to benefit him or any one else, by my good will; when, +hearing a rustle among the ling, I looked up and saw Mr. Heathcliff +almost close upon us, descending the Heights. He didn't cast a glance +towards my companions, though they were sufficiently near for Linton's +sobs to be audible; but hailing me in the almost hearty tone he assumed +to none besides, and the sincerity of which I couldn't avoid doubting, he +said-- + +'It is something to see you so near to my house, Nelly. How are you at +the Grange? Let us hear. The rumour goes,' he added, in a lower tone, +'that Edgar Linton is on his death-bed: perhaps they exaggerate his +illness?' + +'No; my master is dying,' I replied: 'it is true enough. A sad thing it +will be for us all, but a blessing for him!' + +'How long will he last, do you think?' he asked. + +'I don't know,' I said. + +'Because,' he continued, looking at the two young people, who were fixed +under his eye--Linton appeared as if he could not venture to stir or +raise his head, and Catherine could not move, on his account--'because +that lad yonder seems determined to beat me; and I'd thank his uncle to +be quick, and go before him! Hallo! has the whelp been playing that game +long? I _did_ give him some lessons about snivelling. Is he pretty +lively with Miss Linton generally?' + +'Lively? no--he has shown the greatest distress,' I answered. 'To see +him, I should say, that instead of rambling with his sweetheart on the +hills, he ought to be in bed, under the hands of a doctor.' + +'He shall be, in a day or two,' muttered Heathcliff. 'But first--get up, +Linton! Get up!' he shouted. 'Don't grovel on the ground there up, this +moment!' + +Linton had sunk prostrate again in another paroxysm of helpless fear, +caused by his father's glance towards him, I suppose: there was nothing +else to produce such humiliation. He made several efforts to obey, but +his little strength was annihilated for the time, and he fell back again +with a moan. Mr. Heathcliff advanced, and lifted him to lean against a +ridge of turf. + +'Now,' said he, with curbed ferocity, 'I'm getting angry and if you don't +command that paltry spirit of yours--_damn_ you! get up directly!' + +'I will, father,' he panted. 'Only, let me alone, or I shall faint. I've +done as you wished, I'm sure. Catherine will tell you that I--that +I--have been cheerful. Ah! keep by me, Catherine; give me your hand.' + +'Take mine,' said his father; 'stand on your feet. There now--she'll +lend you her arm: that's right, look at her. You would imagine I was the +devil himself, Miss Linton, to excite such horror. Be so kind as to walk +home with him, will you? He shudders if I touch him.' + +'Linton dear!' whispered Catherine, 'I can't go to Wuthering Heights: +papa has forbidden me. He'll not harm you: why are you so afraid?' + +'I can never re-enter that house,' he answered. 'I'm _not_ to re-enter +it without you!' + +'Stop!' cried his father. 'We'll respect Catherine's filial scruples. +Nelly, take him in, and I'll follow your advice concerning the doctor, +without delay.' + +'You'll do well,' replied I. 'But I must remain with my mistress: to +mind your son is not my business.' + +'You are very stiff,' said Heathcliff, 'I know that: but you'll force me +to pinch the baby and make it scream before it moves your charity. Come, +then, my hero. Are you willing to return, escorted by me?' + +He approached once more, and made as if he would seize the fragile being; +but, shrinking back, Linton clung to his cousin, and implored her to +accompany him, with a frantic importunity that admitted no denial. +However I disapproved, I couldn't hinder her: indeed, how could she have +refused him herself? What was filling him with dread we had no means of +discerning; but there he was, powerless under its grip, and any addition +seemed capable of shocking him into idiotcy. We reached the threshold; +Catherine walked in, and I stood waiting till she had conducted the +invalid to a chair, expecting her out immediately; when Mr. Heathcliff, +pushing me forward, exclaimed--'My house is not stricken with the plague, +Nelly; and I have a mind to be hospitable to-day: sit down, and allow me +to shut the door.' + +He shut and locked it also. I started. + +'You shall have tea before you go home,' he added. 'I am by myself. +Hareton is gone with some cattle to the Lees, and Zillah and Joseph are +off on a journey of pleasure; and, though I'm used to being alone, I'd +rather have some interesting company, if I can get it. Miss Linton, take +your seat by _him_. I give you what I have: the present is hardly worth +accepting; but I have nothing else to offer. It is Linton, I mean. How +she does stare! It's odd what a savage feeling I have to anything that +seems afraid of me! Had I been born where laws are less strict and +tastes less dainty, I should treat myself to a slow vivisection of those +two, as an evening's amusement.' + +He drew in his breath, struck the table, and swore to himself, 'By hell! +I hate them.' + +'I am not afraid of you!' exclaimed Catherine, who could not hear the +latter part of his speech. She stepped close up; her black eyes flashing +with passion and resolution. 'Give me that key: I will have it!' she +said. 'I wouldn't eat or drink here, if I were starving.' + +Heathcliff had the key in his hand that remained on the table. He looked +up, seized with a sort of surprise at her boldness; or, possibly, +reminded, by her voice and glance, of the person from whom she inherited +it. She snatched at the instrument, and half succeeded in getting it out +of his loosened fingers: but her action recalled him to the present; he +recovered it speedily. + +'Now, Catherine Linton,' he said, 'stand off, or I shall knock you down; +and, that will make Mrs. Dean mad.' + +Regardless of this warning, she captured his closed hand and its contents +again. 'We _will_ go!' she repeated, exerting her utmost efforts to cause +the iron muscles to relax; and finding that her nails made no impression, +she applied her teeth pretty sharply. Heathcliff glanced at me a glance +that kept me from interfering a moment. Catherine was too intent on his +fingers to notice his face. He opened them suddenly, and resigned the +object of dispute; but, ere she had well secured it, he seized her with +the liberated hand, and, pulling her on his knee, administered with the +other a shower of terrific slaps on both sides of the head, each +sufficient to have fulfilled his threat, had she been able to fall. + +At this diabolical violence I rushed on him furiously. 'You villain!' I +began to cry, 'you villain!' A touch on the chest silenced me: I am +stout, and soon put out of breath; and, what with that and the rage, I +staggered dizzily back and felt ready to suffocate, or to burst a +blood-vessel. The scene was over in two minutes; Catherine, released, +put her two hands to her temples, and looked just as if she were not +sure whether her ears were off or on. She trembled like a reed, poor +thing, and leant against the table perfectly bewildered. + +'I know how to chastise children, you see,' said the scoundrel, grimly, +as he stooped to repossess himself of the key, which had dropped to the +floor. 'Go to Linton now, as I told you; and cry at your ease! I shall +be your father, to-morrow--all the father you'll have in a few days--and +you shall have plenty of that. You can bear plenty; you're no weakling: +you shall have a daily taste, if I catch such a devil of a temper in your +eyes again!' + +Cathy ran to me instead of Linton, and knelt down and put her burning +cheek on my lap, weeping aloud. Her cousin had shrunk into a corner of +the settle, as quiet as a mouse, congratulating himself, I dare say, that +the correction had alighted on another than him. Mr. Heathcliff, +perceiving us all confounded, rose, and expeditiously made the tea +himself. The cups and saucers were laid ready. He poured it out, and +handed me a cup. + +'Wash away your spleen,' he said. 'And help your own naughty pet and +mine. It is not poisoned, though I prepared it. I'm going out to seek +your horses.' + +Our first thought, on his departure, was to force an exit somewhere. We +tried the kitchen door, but that was fastened outside: we looked at the +windows--they were too narrow for even Cathy's little figure. + +'Master Linton,' I cried, seeing we were regularly imprisoned, 'you know +what your diabolical father is after, and you shall tell us, or I'll box +your ears, as he has done your cousin's.' + +'Yes, Linton, you must tell,' said Catherine. 'It was for your sake I +came; and it will be wickedly ungrateful if you refuse.' + +'Give me some tea, I'm thirsty, and then I'll tell you,' he answered. +'Mrs. Dean, go away. I don't like you standing over me. Now, Catherine, +you are letting your tears fall into my cup. I won't drink that. Give +me another.' Catherine pushed another to him, and wiped her face. I +felt disgusted at the little wretch's composure, since he was no longer +in terror for himself. The anguish he had exhibited on the moor subsided +as soon as ever he entered Wuthering Heights; so I guessed he had been +menaced with an awful visitation of wrath if he failed in decoying us +there; and, that accomplished, he had no further immediate fears. + +'Papa wants us to be married,' he continued, after sipping some of the +liquid. 'And he knows your papa wouldn't let us marry now; and he's +afraid of my dying if we wait; so we are to be married in the morning, +and you are to stay here all night; and, if you do as he wishes, you +shall return home next day, and take me with you.' + +'Take you with her, pitiful changeling!' I exclaimed. '_You_ marry? Why, +the man is mad! or he thinks us fools, every one. And do you imagine +that beautiful young lady, that healthy, hearty girl, will tie herself to +a little perishing monkey like you? Are you cherishing the notion that +anybody, let alone Miss Catherine Linton, would have you for a husband? +You want whipping for bringing us in here at all, with your dastardly +puling tricks: and--don't look so silly, now! I've a very good mind to +shake you severely, for your contemptible treachery, and your imbecile +conceit.' + +I did give him a slight shaking; but it brought on the cough, and he took +to his ordinary resource of moaning and weeping, and Catherine rebuked +me. + +'Stay all night? No,' she said, looking slowly round. 'Ellen, I'll burn +that door down but I'll get out.' + +And she would have commenced the execution of her threat directly, but +Linton was up in alarm for his dear self again. He clasped her in his +two feeble arms sobbing:--'Won't you have me, and save me? not let me +come to the Grange? Oh, darling Catherine! you mustn't go and leave, +after all. You _must_ obey my father--you _must_!' + +'I must obey my own,' she replied, 'and relieve him from this cruel +suspense. The whole night! What would he think? He'll be distressed +already. I'll either break or burn a way out of the house. Be quiet! +You're in no danger; but if you hinder me--Linton, I love papa better +than you!' The mortal terror he felt of Mr. Heathcliff's anger restored +to the boy his coward's eloquence. Catherine was near distraught: still, +she persisted that she must go home, and tried entreaty in her turn, +persuading him to subdue his selfish agony. While they were thus +occupied, our jailor re-entered. + +'Your beasts have trotted off,' he said, 'and--now Linton! snivelling +again? What has she been doing to you? Come, come--have done, and get +to bed. In a month or two, my lad, you'll be able to pay her back her +present tyrannies with a vigorous hand. You're pining for pure love, are +you not? nothing else in the world: and she shall have you! There, to +bed! Zillah won't be here to-night; you must undress yourself. Hush! +hold your noise! Once in your own room, I'll not come near you: you +needn't fear. By chance, you've managed tolerably. I'll look to the +rest.' + +He spoke these words, holding the door open for his son to pass, and the +latter achieved his exit exactly as a spaniel might which suspected the +person who attended on it of designing a spiteful squeeze. The lock was +re-secured. Heathcliff approached the fire, where my mistress and I +stood silent. Catherine looked up, and instinctively raised her hand to +her cheek: his neighbourhood revived a painful sensation. Anybody else +would have been incapable of regarding the childish act with sternness, +but he scowled on her and muttered--'Oh! you are not afraid of me? Your +courage is well disguised: you seem damnably afraid!' + +'I _am_ afraid now,' she replied, 'because, if I stay, papa will be +miserable: and how can I endure making him miserable--when he--when +he--Mr. Heathcliff, let _me_ go home! I promise to marry Linton: papa +would like me to: and I love him. Why should you wish to force me to do +what I'll willingly do of myself?' + +'Let him dare to force you,' I cried. 'There's law in the land, thank +God! there is; though we be in an out-of-the-way place. I'd inform if he +were my own son: and it's felony without benefit of clergy!' + +'Silence!' said the ruffian. 'To the devil with your clamour! I don't +want _you_ to speak. Miss Linton, I shall enjoy myself remarkably in +thinking your father will be miserable: I shall not sleep for +satisfaction. You could have hit on no surer way of fixing your +residence under my roof for the next twenty-four hours than informing me +that such an event would follow. As to your promise to marry Linton, +I'll take care you shall keep it; for you shall not quit this place till +it is fulfilled.' + +'Send Ellen, then, to let papa know I'm safe!' exclaimed Catherine, +weeping bitterly. 'Or marry me now. Poor papa! Ellen, he'll think +we're lost. What shall we do?' + +'Not he! He'll think you are tired of waiting on him, and run off for a +little amusement,' answered Heathcliff. 'You cannot deny that you +entered my house of your own accord, in contempt of his injunctions to +the contrary. And it is quite natural that you should desire amusement +at your age; and that you would weary of nursing a sick man, and that man +_only_ your father. Catherine, his happiest days were over when your +days began. He cursed you, I dare say, for coming into the world (I did, +at least); and it would just do if he cursed you as _he_ went out of it. +I'd join him. I don't love you! How should I? Weep away. As far as I +can see, it will be your chief diversion hereafter; unless Linton make +amends for other losses: and your provident parent appears to fancy he +may. His letters of advice and consolation entertained me vastly. In +his last he recommended my jewel to be careful of his; and kind to her +when he got her. Careful and kind--that's paternal. But Linton requires +his whole stock of care and kindness for himself. Linton can play the +little tyrant well. He'll undertake to torture any number of cats, if +their teeth be drawn and their claws pared. You'll be able to tell his +uncle fine tales of his _kindness_, when you get home again, I assure +you.' + +'You're right there!' I said; 'explain your son's character. Show his +resemblance to yourself: and then, I hope, Miss Cathy will think twice +before she takes the cockatrice!' + +'I don't much mind speaking of his amiable qualities now,' he answered; +'because she must either accept him or remain a prisoner, and you along +with her, till your master dies. I can detain you both, quite concealed, +here. If you doubt, encourage her to retract her word, and you'll have +an opportunity of judging!' + +'I'll not retract my word,' said Catherine. 'I'll marry him within this +hour, if I may go to Thrushcross Grange afterwards. Mr. Heathcliff, +you're a cruel man, but you're not a fiend; and you won't, from _mere_ +malice, destroy irrevocably all my happiness. If papa thought I had left +him on purpose, and if he died before I returned, could I bear to live? +I've given over crying: but I'm going to kneel here, at your knee; and +I'll not get up, and I'll not take my eyes from your face till you look +back at me! No, don't turn away! _do look_! you'll see nothing to +provoke you. I don't hate you. I'm not angry that you struck me. Have +you never loved _anybody_ in all your life, uncle? _never_? Ah! you must +look once. I'm so wretched, you can't help being sorry and pitying me.' + +'Keep your eft's fingers off; and move, or I'll kick you!' cried +Heathcliff, brutally repulsing her. 'I'd rather be hugged by a snake. +How the devil can you dream of fawning on me? I _detest_ you!' + +He shrugged his shoulders: shook himself, indeed, as if his flesh crept +with aversion; and thrust back his chair; while I got up, and opened my +mouth, to commence a downright torrent of abuse. But I was rendered dumb +in the middle of the first sentence, by a threat that I should be shown +into a room by myself the very next syllable I uttered. It was growing +dark--we heard a sound of voices at the garden-gate. Our host hurried +out instantly: _he_ had his wits about him; _we_ had not. There was a +talk of two or three minutes, and he returned alone. + +'I thought it had been your cousin Hareton,' I observed to Catherine. 'I +wish he would arrive! Who knows but he might take our part?' + +'It was three servants sent to seek you from the Grange,' said +Heathcliff, overhearing me. 'You should have opened a lattice and called +out: but I could swear that chit is glad you didn't. She's glad to be +obliged to stay, I'm certain.' + +At learning the chance we had missed, we both gave vent to our grief +without control; and he allowed us to wail on till nine o'clock. Then he +bid us go upstairs, through the kitchen, to Zillah's chamber; and I +whispered my companion to obey: perhaps we might contrive to get through +the window there, or into a garret, and out by its skylight. The window, +however, was narrow, like those below, and the garret trap was safe from +our attempts; for we were fastened in as before. We neither of us lay +down: Catherine took her station by the lattice, and watched anxiously +for morning; a deep sigh being the only answer I could obtain to my +frequent entreaties that she would try to rest. I seated myself in a +chair, and rocked to and fro, passing harsh judgment on my many +derelictions of duty; from which, it struck me then, all the misfortunes +of my employers sprang. It was not the case, in reality, I am aware; but +it was, in my imagination, that dismal night; and I thought Heathcliff +himself less guilty than I. + +At seven o'clock he came, and inquired if Miss Linton had risen. She ran +to the door immediately, and answered, 'Yes.' 'Here, then,' he said, +opening it, and pulling her out. I rose to follow, but he turned the +lock again. I demanded my release. + +'Be patient,' he replied; 'I'll send up your breakfast in a while.' + +I thumped on the panels, and rattled the latch angrily and Catherine +asked why I was still shut up? He answered, I must try to endure it +another hour, and they went away. I endured it two or three hours; at +length, I heard a footstep: not Heathcliff's. + +'I've brought you something to eat,' said a voice; 'oppen t' door!' + +Complying eagerly, I beheld Hareton, laden with food enough to last me +all day. + +'Tak' it,' he added, thrusting the tray into my hand. + +'Stay one minute,' I began. + +'Nay,' cried he, and retired, regardless of any prayers I could pour +forth to detain him. + +And there I remained enclosed the whole day, and the whole of the next +night; and another, and another. Five nights and four days I remained, +altogether, seeing nobody but Hareton once every morning; and he was a +model of a jailor: surly, and dumb, and deaf to every attempt at moving +his sense of justice or compassion. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + + +On the fifth morning, or rather afternoon, a different step +approached--lighter and shorter; and, this time, the person entered the +room. It was Zillah; donned in her scarlet shawl, with a black silk +bonnet on her head, and a willow-basket swung to her arm. + +'Eh, dear! Mrs. Dean!' she exclaimed. 'Well! there is a talk about you +at Gimmerton. I never thought but you were sunk in the Blackhorse marsh, +and missy with you, till master told me you'd been found, and he'd lodged +you here! What! and you must have got on an island, sure? And how long +were you in the hole? Did master save you, Mrs. Dean? But you're not so +thin--you've not been so poorly, have you?' + +'Your master is a true scoundrel!' I replied. 'But he shall answer for +it. He needn't have raised that tale: it shall all be laid bare!' + +'What do you mean?' asked Zillah. 'It's not his tale: they tell that in +the village--about your being lost in the marsh; and I calls to Earnshaw, +when I come in--"Eh, they's queer things, Mr. Hareton, happened since I +went off. It's a sad pity of that likely young lass, and cant Nelly +Dean." He stared. I thought he had not heard aught, so I told him the +rumour. The master listened, and he just smiled to himself, and said, +"If they have been in the marsh, they are out now, Zillah. Nelly Dean is +lodged, at this minute, in your room. You can tell her to flit, when you +go up; here is the key. The bog-water got into her head, and she would +have run home quite flighty; but I fixed her till she came round to her +senses. You can bid her go to the Grange at once, if she be able, and +carry a message from me, that her young lady will follow in time to +attend the squire's funeral."' + +'Mr. Edgar is not dead?' I gasped. 'Oh! Zillah, Zillah!' + +'No, no; sit you down, my good mistress,' she replied; 'you're right +sickly yet. He's not dead; Doctor Kenneth thinks he may last another +day. I met him on the road and asked.' + +Instead of sitting down, I snatched my outdoor things, and hastened +below, for the way was free. On entering the house, I looked about for +some one to give information of Catherine. The place was filled with +sunshine, and the door stood wide open; but nobody seemed at hand. As I +hesitated whether to go off at once, or return and seek my mistress, a +slight cough drew my attention to the hearth. Linton lay on the settle, +sole tenant, sucking a stick of sugar-candy, and pursuing my movements +with apathetic eyes. 'Where is Miss Catherine?' I demanded sternly, +supposing I could frighten him into giving intelligence, by catching him +thus, alone. He sucked on like an innocent. + +'Is she gone?' I said. + +'No,' he replied; 'she's upstairs: she's not to go; we won't let her.' + +'You won't let her, little idiot!' I exclaimed. 'Direct me to her room +immediately, or I'll make you sing out sharply.' + +'Papa would make you sing out, if you attempted to get there,' he +answered. 'He says I'm not to be soft with Catherine: she's my wife, and +it's shameful that she should wish to leave me. He says she hates me and +wants me to die, that she may have my money; but she shan't have it: and +she shan't go home! She never shall!--she may cry, and be sick as much +as she pleases!' + +He resumed his former occupation, closing his lids, as if he meant to +drop asleep. + +'Master Heathcliff,' I resumed, 'have you forgotten all Catherine's +kindness to you last winter, when you affirmed you loved her, and when +she brought you books and sung you songs, and came many a time through +wind and snow to see you? She wept to miss one evening, because you +would be disappointed; and you felt then that she was a hundred times too +good to you: and now you believe the lies your father tells, though you +know he detests you both. And you join him against her. That's fine +gratitude, is it not?' + +The corner of Linton's mouth fell, and he took the sugar-candy from his +lips. + +'Did she come to Wuthering Heights because she hated you?' I continued. +'Think for yourself! As to your money, she does not even know that you +will have any. And you say she's sick; and yet you leave her alone, up +there in a strange house! You who have felt what it is to be so +neglected! You could pity your own sufferings; and she pitied them, too; +but you won't pity hers! I shed tears, Master Heathcliff, you see--an +elderly woman, and a servant merely--and you, after pretending such +affection, and having reason to worship her almost, store every tear you +have for yourself, and lie there quite at ease. Ah! you're a heartless, +selfish boy!' + +'I can't stay with her,' he answered crossly. 'I'll not stay by myself. +She cries so I can't bear it. And she won't give over, though I say I'll +call my father. I did call him once, and he threatened to strangle her +if she was not quiet; but she began again the instant he left the room, +moaning and grieving all night long, though I screamed for vexation that +I couldn't sleep.' + +'Is Mr. Heathcliff out?' I inquired, perceiving that the wretched +creature had no power to sympathize with his cousin's mental tortures. + +'He's in the court,' he replied, 'talking to Doctor Kenneth; who says +uncle is dying, truly, at last. I'm glad, for I shall be master of the +Grange after him. Catherine always spoke of it as her house. It isn't +hers! It's mine: papa says everything she has is mine. All her nice +books are mine; she offered to give me them, and her pretty birds, and +her pony Minny, if I would get the key of our room, and let her out; but +I told her she had nothing to give, they were all, all mine. And then +she cried, and took a little picture from her neck, and said I should +have that; two pictures in a gold case, on one side her mother, and on +the other uncle, when they were young. That was yesterday--I said they +were mine, too; and tried to get them from her. The spiteful thing +wouldn't let me: she pushed me off, and hurt me. I shrieked out--that +frightens her--she heard papa coming, and she broke the hinges and +divided the case, and gave me her mother's portrait; the other she +attempted to hide: but papa asked what was the matter, and I explained +it. He took the one I had away, and ordered her to resign hers to me; +she refused, and he--he struck her down, and wrenched it off the chain, +and crushed it with his foot.' + +'And were you pleased to see her struck?' I asked: having my designs in +encouraging his talk. + +'I winked,' he answered: 'I wink to see my father strike a dog or a +horse, he does it so hard. Yet I was glad at first--she deserved +punishing for pushing me: but when papa was gone, she made me come to the +window and showed me her cheek cut on the inside, against her teeth, and +her mouth filling with blood; and then she gathered up the bits of the +picture, and went and sat down with her face to the wall, and she has +never spoken to me since: and I sometimes think she can't speak for pain. +I don't like to think so; but she's a naughty thing for crying +continually; and she looks so pale and wild, I'm afraid of her.' + +'And you can get the key if you choose?' I said. + +'Yes, when I am up-stairs,' he answered; 'but I can't walk up-stairs +now.' + +'In what apartment is it?' I asked. + +'Oh,' he cried, 'I shan't tell _you_ where it is. It is our secret. +Nobody, neither Hareton nor Zillah, is to know. There! you've tired +me--go away, go away!' And he turned his face on to his arm, and shut +his eyes again. + +I considered it best to depart without seeing Mr. Heathcliff, and bring a +rescue for my young lady from the Grange. On reaching it, the +astonishment of my fellow-servants to see me, and their joy also, was +intense; and when they heard that their little mistress was safe, two or +three were about to hurry up and shout the news at Mr. Edgar's door: but +I bespoke the announcement of it myself. How changed I found him, even +in those few days! He lay an image of sadness and resignation awaiting +his death. Very young he looked: though his actual age was thirty-nine, +one would have called him ten years younger, at least. He thought of +Catherine; for he murmured her name. I touched his hand, and spoke. + +'Catherine is coming, dear master!' I whispered; 'she is alive and well; +and will be here, I hope, to-night.' + +I trembled at the first effects of this intelligence: he half rose up, +looked eagerly round the apartment, and then sank back in a swoon. As +soon as he recovered, I related our compulsory visit, and detention at +the Heights. I said Heathcliff forced me to go in: which was not quite +true. I uttered as little as possible against Linton; nor did I describe +all his father's brutal conduct--my intentions being to add no +bitterness, if I could help it, to his already over-flowing cup. + +He divined that one of his enemy's purposes was to secure the personal +property, as well as the estate, to his son: or rather himself; yet why +he did not wait till his decease was a puzzle to my master, because +ignorant how nearly he and his nephew would quit the world together. +However, he felt that his will had better be altered: instead of leaving +Catherine's fortune at her own disposal, he determined to put it in the +hands of trustees for her use during life, and for her children, if she +had any, after her. By that means, it could not fall to Mr. Heathcliff +should Linton die. + +Having received his orders, I despatched a man to fetch the attorney, and +four more, provided with serviceable weapons, to demand my young lady of +her jailor. Both parties were delayed very late. The single servant +returned first. He said Mr. Green, the lawyer, was out when he arrived +at his house, and he had to wait two hours for his re-entrance; and then +Mr. Green told him he had a little business in the village that must be +done; but he would be at Thrushcross Grange before morning. The four men +came back unaccompanied also. They brought word that Catherine was ill: +too ill to quit her room; and Heathcliff would not suffer them to see +her. I scolded the stupid fellows well for listening to that tale, which +I would not carry to my master; resolving to take a whole bevy up to the +Heights, at day-light, and storm it literally, unless the prisoner were +quietly surrendered to us. Her father _shall_ see her, I vowed, and +vowed again, if that devil be killed on his own doorstones in trying to +prevent it! + +Happily, I was spared the journey and the trouble. I had gone +down-stairs at three o'clock to fetch a jug of water; and was passing +through the hall with it in my hand, when a sharp knock at the front door +made me jump. 'Oh! it is Green,' I said, recollecting myself--'only +Green,' and I went on, intending to send somebody else to open it; but +the knock was repeated: not loud, and still importunately. I put the jug +on the banister and hastened to admit him myself. The harvest moon shone +clear outside. It was not the attorney. My own sweet little mistress +sprang on my neck sobbing, 'Ellen, Ellen! Is papa alive?' + +'Yes,' I cried: 'yes, my angel, he is, God be thanked, you are safe with +us again!' + +She wanted to run, breathless as she was, up-stairs to Mr. Linton's room; +but I compelled her to sit down on a chair, and made her drink, and +washed her pale face, chafing it into a faint colour with my apron. Then +I said I must go first, and tell of her arrival; imploring her to say, +she should be happy with young Heathcliff. She stared, but soon +comprehending why I counselled her to utter the falsehood, she assured me +she would not complain. + +I couldn't abide to be present at their meeting. I stood outside the +chamber-door a quarter of an hour, and hardly ventured near the bed, +then. All was composed, however: Catherine's despair was as silent as +her father's joy. She supported him calmly, in appearance; and he fixed +on her features his raised eyes that seemed dilating with ecstasy. + +He died blissfully, Mr. Lockwood: he died so. Kissing her cheek, he +murmured,--'I am going to her; and you, darling child, shall come to us!' +and never stirred or spoke again; but continued that rapt, radiant gaze, +till his pulse imperceptibly stopped and his soul departed. None could +have noticed the exact minute of his death, it was so entirely without a +struggle. + +Whether Catherine had spent her tears, or whether the grief were too +weighty to let them flow, she sat there dry-eyed till the sun rose: she +sat till noon, and would still have remained brooding over that deathbed, +but I insisted on her coming away and taking some repose. It was well I +succeeded in removing her, for at dinner-time appeared the lawyer, having +called at Wuthering Heights to get his instructions how to behave. He +had sold himself to Mr. Heathcliff: that was the cause of his delay in +obeying my master's summons. Fortunately, no thought of worldly affairs +crossed the latter's mind, to disturb him, after his daughter's arrival. + +Mr. Green took upon himself to order everything and everybody about the +place. He gave all the servants but me, notice to quit. He would have +carried his delegated authority to the point of insisting that Edgar +Linton should not be buried beside his wife, but in the chapel, with his +family. There was the will, however, to hinder that, and my loud +protestations against any infringement of its directions. The funeral +was hurried over; Catherine, Mrs. Linton Heathcliff now, was suffered to +stay at the Grange till her father's corpse had quitted it. + +She told me that her anguish had at last spurred Linton to incur the risk +of liberating her. She heard the men I sent disputing at the door, and +she gathered the sense of Heathcliff's answer. It drove her desperate. +Linton who had been conveyed up to the little parlour soon after I left, +was terrified into fetching the key before his father re-ascended. He +had the cunning to unlock and re-lock the door, without shutting it; and +when he should have gone to bed, he begged to sleep with Hareton, and his +petition was granted for once. Catherine stole out before break of day. +She dared not try the doors lest the dogs should raise an alarm; she +visited the empty chambers and examined their windows; and, luckily, +lighting on her mother's, she got easily out of its lattice, and on to +the ground, by means of the fir-tree close by. Her accomplice suffered +for his share in the escape, notwithstanding his timid contrivances. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + + +The evening after the funeral, my young lady and I were seated in the +library; now musing mournfully--one of us despairingly--on our loss, now +venturing conjectures as to the gloomy future. + +We had just agreed the best destiny which could await Catherine would be +a permission to continue resident at the Grange; at least during Linton's +life: he being allowed to join her there, and I to remain as housekeeper. +That seemed rather too favourable an arrangement to be hoped for; and yet +I did hope, and began to cheer up under the prospect of retaining my home +and my employment, and, above all, my beloved young mistress; when a +servant--one of the discarded ones, not yet departed--rushed hastily in, +and said 'that devil Heathcliff' was coming through the court: should he +fasten the door in his face? + +If we had been mad enough to order that proceeding, we had not time. He +made no ceremony of knocking or announcing his name: he was master, and +availed himself of the master's privilege to walk straight in, without +saying a word. The sound of our informant's voice directed him to the +library; he entered and motioning him out, shut the door. + +It was the same room into which he had been ushered, as a guest, eighteen +years before: the same moon shone through the window; and the same autumn +landscape lay outside. We had not yet lighted a candle, but all the +apartment was visible, even to the portraits on the wall: the splendid +head of Mrs. Linton, and the graceful one of her husband. Heathcliff +advanced to the hearth. Time had little altered his person either. There +was the same man: his dark face rather sallower and more composed, his +frame a stone or two heavier, perhaps, and no other difference. Catherine +had risen with an impulse to dash out, when she saw him. + +'Stop!' he said, arresting her by the arm. 'No more runnings away! Where +would you go? I'm come to fetch you home; and I hope you'll be a dutiful +daughter and not encourage my son to further disobedience. I was +embarrassed how to punish him when I discovered his part in the business: +he's such a cobweb, a pinch would annihilate him; but you'll see by his +look that he has received his due! I brought him down one evening, the +day before yesterday, and just set him in a chair, and never touched him +afterwards. I sent Hareton out, and we had the room to ourselves. In +two hours, I called Joseph to carry him up again; and since then my +presence is as potent on his nerves as a ghost; and I fancy he sees me +often, though I am not near. Hareton says he wakes and shrieks in the +night by the hour together, and calls you to protect him from me; and, +whether you like your precious mate, or not, you must come: he's your +concern now; I yield all my interest in him to you.' + +'Why not let Catherine continue here,' I pleaded, 'and send Master Linton +to her? As you hate them both, you'd not miss them: they can only be a +daily plague to your unnatural heart.' + +'I'm seeking a tenant for the Grange,' he answered; 'and I want my +children about me, to be sure. Besides, that lass owes me her services +for her bread. I'm not going to nurture her in luxury and idleness after +Linton is gone. Make haste and get ready, now; and don't oblige me to +compel you.' + +'I shall,' said Catherine. 'Linton is all I have to love in the world, +and though you have done what you could to make him hateful to me, and me +to him, you cannot make us hate each other. And I defy you to hurt him +when I am by, and I defy you to frighten me!' + +'You are a boastful champion,' replied Heathcliff; 'but I don't like you +well enough to hurt him: you shall get the full benefit of the torment, +as long as it lasts. It is not I who will make him hateful to you--it is +his own sweet spirit. He's as bitter as gall at your desertion and its +consequences: don't expect thanks for this noble devotion. I heard him +draw a pleasant picture to Zillah of what he would do if he were as +strong as I: the inclination is there, and his very weakness will sharpen +his wits to find a substitute for strength.' + +'I know he has a bad nature,' said Catherine: 'he's your son. But I'm +glad I've a better, to forgive it; and I know he loves me, and for that +reason I love him. Mr. Heathcliff _you_ have _nobody_ to love you; and, +however miserable you make us, we shall still have the revenge of +thinking that your cruelty arises from your greater misery. You _are_ +miserable, are you not? Lonely, like the devil, and envious like him? +_Nobody_ loves you--_nobody_ will cry for you when you die! I wouldn't +be you!' + +Catherine spoke with a kind of dreary triumph: she seemed to have made up +her mind to enter into the spirit of her future family, and draw pleasure +from the griefs of her enemies. + +'You shall be sorry to be yourself presently,' said her father-in-law, +'if you stand there another minute. Begone, witch, and get your things!' + +She scornfully withdrew. In her absence I began to beg for Zillah's +place at the Heights, offering to resign mine to her; but he would suffer +it on no account. He bid me be silent; and then, for the first time, +allowed himself a glance round the room and a look at the pictures. +Having studied Mrs. Linton's, he said--'I shall have that home. Not +because I need it, but--' He turned abruptly to the fire, and continued, +with what, for lack of a better word, I must call a smile--'I'll tell you +what I did yesterday! I got the sexton, who was digging Linton's grave, +to remove the earth off her coffin lid, and I opened it. I thought, +once, I would have stayed there: when I saw her face again--it is hers +yet!--he had hard work to stir me; but he said it would change if the air +blew on it, and so I struck one side of the coffin loose, and covered it +up: not Linton's side, damn him! I wish he'd been soldered in lead. And +I bribed the sexton to pull it away when I'm laid there, and slide mine +out too; I'll have it made so: and then by the time Linton gets to us +he'll not know which is which!' + +'You were very wicked, Mr. Heathcliff!' I exclaimed; 'were you not +ashamed to disturb the dead?' + +'I disturbed nobody, Nelly,' he replied; 'and I gave some ease to myself. +I shall be a great deal more comfortable now; and you'll have a better +chance of keeping me underground, when I get there. Disturbed her? No! +she has disturbed me, night and day, through eighteen +years--incessantly--remorselessly--till yesternight; and yesternight I +was tranquil. I dreamt I was sleeping the last sleep by that sleeper, +with my heart stopped and my cheek frozen against hers.' + +'And if she had been dissolved into earth, or worse, what would you have +dreamt of then?' I said. + +'Of dissolving with her, and being more happy still!' he answered. 'Do +you suppose I dread any change of that sort? I expected such a +transformation on raising the lid--but I'm better pleased that it should +not commence till I share it. Besides, unless I had received a distinct +impression of her passionless features, that strange feeling would hardly +have been removed. It began oddly. You know I was wild after she died; +and eternally, from dawn to dawn, praying her to return to me her spirit! +I have a strong faith in ghosts: I have a conviction that they can, and +do, exist among us! The day she was buried, there came a fall of snow. +In the evening I went to the churchyard. It blew bleak as winter--all +round was solitary. I didn't fear that her fool of a husband would +wander up the glen so late; and no one else had business to bring them +there. Being alone, and conscious two yards of loose earth was the sole +barrier between us, I said to myself--"I'll have her in my arms again! If +she be cold, I'll think it is this north wind that chills _me_; and if +she be motionless, it is sleep." I got a spade from the tool-house, and +began to delve with all my might--it scraped the coffin; I fell to work +with my hands; the wood commenced cracking about the screws; I was on the +point of attaining my object, when it seemed that I heard a sigh from +some one above, close at the edge of the grave, and bending down. "If I +can only get this off," I muttered, "I wish they may shovel in the earth +over us both!" and I wrenched at it more desperately still. There was +another sigh, close at my ear. I appeared to feel the warm breath of it +displacing the sleet-laden wind. I knew no living thing in flesh and +blood was by; but, as certainly as you perceive the approach to some +substantial body in the dark, though it cannot be discerned, so certainly +I felt that Cathy was there: not under me, but on the earth. A sudden +sense of relief flowed from my heart through every limb. I relinquished +my labour of agony, and turned consoled at once: unspeakably consoled. +Her presence was with me: it remained while I re-filled the grave, and +led me home. You may laugh, if you will; but I was sure I should see her +there. I was sure she was with me, and I could not help talking to her. +Having reached the Heights, I rushed eagerly to the door. It was +fastened; and, I remember, that accursed Earnshaw and my wife opposed my +entrance. I remember stopping to kick the breath out of him, and then +hurrying up-stairs, to my room and hers. I looked round impatiently--I +felt her by me--I could _almost_ see her, and yet I _could not_! I ought +to have sweat blood then, from the anguish of my yearning--from the +fervour of my supplications to have but one glimpse! I had not one. She +showed herself, as she often was in life, a devil to me! And, since +then, sometimes more and sometimes less, I've been the sport of that +intolerable torture! Infernal! keeping my nerves at such a stretch that, +if they had not resembled catgut, they would long ago have relaxed to the +feebleness of Linton's. When I sat in the house with Hareton, it seemed +that on going out I should meet her; when I walked on the moors I should +meet her coming in. When I went from home I hastened to return; she +_must_ be somewhere at the Heights, I was certain! And when I slept in +her chamber--I was beaten out of that. I couldn't lie there; for the +moment I closed my eyes, she was either outside the window, or sliding +back the panels, or entering the room, or even resting her darling head +on the same pillow as she did when a child; and I must open my lids to +see. And so I opened and closed them a hundred times a night--to be +always disappointed! It racked me! I've often groaned aloud, till that +old rascal Joseph no doubt believed that my conscience was playing the +fiend inside of me. Now, since I've seen her, I'm pacified--a little. It +was a strange way of killing: not by inches, but by fractions of +hairbreadths, to beguile me with the spectre of a hope through eighteen +years!' + +Mr. Heathcliff paused and wiped his forehead; his hair clung to it, wet +with perspiration; his eyes were fixed on the red embers of the fire, the +brows not contracted, but raised next the temples; diminishing the grim +aspect of his countenance, but imparting a peculiar look of trouble, and +a painful appearance of mental tension towards one absorbing subject. He +only half addressed me, and I maintained silence. I didn't like to hear +him talk! After a short period he resumed his meditation on the picture, +took it down and leant it against the sofa to contemplate it at better +advantage; and while so occupied Catherine entered, announcing that she +was ready, when her pony should be saddled. + +'Send that over to-morrow,' said Heathcliff to me; then turning to her, +he added: 'You may do without your pony: it is a fine evening, and you'll +need no ponies at Wuthering Heights; for what journeys you take, your own +feet will serve you. Come along.' + +'Good-bye, Ellen!' whispered my dear little mistress. + +As she kissed me, her lips felt like ice. 'Come and see me, Ellen; don't +forget.' + +'Take care you do no such thing, Mrs. Dean!' said her new father. 'When +I wish to speak to you I'll come here. I want none of your prying at my +house!' + +He signed her to precede him; and casting back a look that cut my heart, +she obeyed. I watched them, from the window, walk down the garden. +Heathcliff fixed Catherine's arm under his: though she disputed the act +at first evidently; and with rapid strides he hurried her into the alley, +whose trees concealed them. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + + +I have paid a visit to the Heights, but I have not seen her since she +left: Joseph held the door in his hand when I called to ask after her, +and wouldn't let me pass. He said Mrs. Linton was 'thrang,' and the +master was not in. Zillah has told me something of the way they go on, +otherwise I should hardly know who was dead and who living. She thinks +Catherine haughty, and does not like her, I can guess by her talk. My +young lady asked some aid of her when she first came; but Mr. Heathcliff +told her to follow her own business, and let his daughter-in-law look +after herself; and Zillah willingly acquiesced, being a narrow-minded, +selfish woman. Catherine evinced a child's annoyance at this neglect; +repaid it with contempt, and thus enlisted my informant among her +enemies, as securely as if she had done her some great wrong. I had a +long talk with Zillah about six weeks ago, a little before you came, one +day when we foregathered on the moor; and this is what she told me. + +'The first thing Mrs. Linton did,' she said, 'on her arrival at the +Heights, was to run up-stairs, without even wishing good-evening to me +and Joseph; she shut herself into Linton's room, and remained till +morning. Then, while the master and Earnshaw were at breakfast, she +entered the house, and asked all in a quiver if the doctor might be sent +for? her cousin was very ill. + +'"We know that!" answered Heathcliff; "but his life is not worth a +farthing, and I won't spend a farthing on him." + +'"But I cannot tell how to do," she said; "and if nobody will help me, +he'll die!" + +'"Walk out of the room," cried the master, "and let me never hear a word +more about him! None here care what becomes of him; if you do, act the +nurse; if you do not, lock him up and leave him." + +'Then she began to bother me, and I said I'd had enough plague with the +tiresome thing; we each had our tasks, and hers was to wait on Linton: +Mr. Heathcliff bid me leave that labour to her. + +'How they managed together, I can't tell. I fancy he fretted a great +deal, and moaned hisseln night and day; and she had precious little rest: +one could guess by her white face and heavy eyes. She sometimes came +into the kitchen all wildered like, and looked as if she would fain beg +assistance; but I was not going to disobey the master: I never dare +disobey him, Mrs. Dean; and, though I thought it wrong that Kenneth +should not be sent for, it was no concern of mine either to advise or +complain, and I always refused to meddle. Once or twice, after we had +gone to bed, I've happened to open my door again and seen her sitting +crying on the stairs'-top; and then I've shut myself in quick, for fear +of being moved to interfere. I did pity her then, I'm sure: still I +didn't wish to lose my place, you know. + +'At last, one night she came boldly into my chamber, and frightened me +out of my wits, by saying, "Tell Mr. Heathcliff that his son is dying--I'm +sure he is, this time. Get up, instantly, and tell him." + +'Having uttered this speech, she vanished again. I lay a quarter of an +hour listening and trembling. Nothing stirred--the house was quiet. + +'She's mistaken, I said to myself. He's got over it. I needn't disturb +them; and I began to doze. But my sleep was marred a second time by a +sharp ringing of the bell--the only bell we have, put up on purpose for +Linton; and the master called to me to see what was the matter, and +inform them that he wouldn't have that noise repeated. + +'I delivered Catherine's message. He cursed to himself, and in a few +minutes came out with a lighted candle, and proceeded to their room. I +followed. Mrs. Heathcliff was seated by the bedside, with her hands +folded on her knees. Her father-in-law went up, held the light to +Linton's face, looked at him, and touched him; afterwards he turned to +her. + +'"Now--Catherine," he said, "how do you feel?" + +'She was dumb. + +'"How do you feel, Catherine?" he repeated. + +'"He's safe, and I'm free," she answered: "I should feel well--but," she +continued, with a bitterness she couldn't conceal, "you have left me so +long to struggle against death alone, that I feel and see only death! I +feel like death!" + +'And she looked like it, too! I gave her a little wine. Hareton and +Joseph, who had been wakened by the ringing and the sound of feet, and +heard our talk from outside, now entered. Joseph was fain, I believe, of +the lad's removal; Hareton seemed a thought bothered: though he was more +taken up with staring at Catherine than thinking of Linton. But the +master bid him get off to bed again: we didn't want his help. He +afterwards made Joseph remove the body to his chamber, and told me to +return to mine, and Mrs. Heathcliff remained by herself. + +'In the morning, he sent me to tell her she must come down to breakfast: +she had undressed, and appeared going to sleep, and said she was ill; at +which I hardly wondered. I informed Mr. Heathcliff, and he +replied,--"Well, let her be till after the funeral; and go up now and +then to get her what is needful; and, as soon as she seems better, tell +me."' + +Cathy stayed upstairs a fortnight, according to Zillah; who visited her +twice a day, and would have been rather more friendly, but her attempts +at increasing kindness were proudly and promptly repelled. + +Heathcliff went up once, to show her Linton's will. He had bequeathed +the whole of his, and what had been her, moveable property, to his +father: the poor creature was threatened, or coaxed, into that act during +her week's absence, when his uncle died. The lands, being a minor, he +could not meddle with. However, Mr. Heathcliff has claimed and kept them +in his wife's right and his also: I suppose legally; at any rate, +Catherine, destitute of cash and friends, cannot disturb his possession. + +'Nobody,' said Zillah, 'ever approached her door, except that once, but +I; and nobody asked anything about her. The first occasion of her coming +down into the house was on a Sunday afternoon. She had cried out, when I +carried up her dinner, that she couldn't bear any longer being in the +cold; and I told her the master was going to Thrushcross Grange, and +Earnshaw and I needn't hinder her from descending; so, as soon as she +heard Heathcliff's horse trot off, she made her appearance, donned in +black, and her yellow curls combed back behind her ears as plain as a +Quaker: she couldn't comb them out. + +'Joseph and I generally go to chapel on Sundays:' the kirk, you know, has +no minister now, explained Mrs. Dean; and they call the Methodists' or +Baptists' place (I can't say which it is) at Gimmerton, a chapel. 'Joseph +had gone,' she continued, 'but I thought proper to bide at home. Young +folks are always the better for an elder's over-looking; and Hareton, +with all his bashfulness, isn't a model of nice behaviour. I let him +know that his cousin would very likely sit with us, and she had been +always used to see the Sabbath respected; so he had as good leave his +guns and bits of indoor work alone, while she stayed. He coloured up at +the news, and cast his eyes over his hands and clothes. The train-oil +and gunpowder were shoved out of sight in a minute. I saw he meant to +give her his company; and I guessed, by his way, he wanted to be +presentable; so, laughing, as I durst not laugh when the master is by, I +offered to help him, if he would, and joked at his confusion. He grew +sullen, and began to swear. + +'Now, Mrs. Dean,' Zillah went on, seeing me not pleased by her manner, +'you happen think your young lady too fine for Mr. Hareton; and happen +you're right: but I own I should love well to bring her pride a peg +lower. And what will all her learning and her daintiness do for her, +now? She's as poor as you or I: poorer, I'll be bound: you're saying, +and I'm doing my little all that road.' + +Hareton allowed Zillah to give him her aid; and she flattered him into a +good humour; so, when Catherine came, half forgetting her former insults, +he tried to make himself agreeable, by the housekeeper's account. + +'Missis walked in,' she said, 'as chill as an icicle, and as high as a +princess. I got up and offered her my seat in the arm-chair. No, she +turned up her nose at my civility. Earnshaw rose, too, and bid her come +to the settle, and sit close by the fire: he was sure she was starved. + +'"I've been starved a month and more," she answered, resting on the word +as scornful as she could. + +'And she got a chair for herself, and placed it at a distance from both +of us. Having sat till she was warm, she began to look round, and +discovered a number of books on the dresser; she was instantly upon her +feet again, stretching to reach them: but they were too high up. Her +cousin, after watching her endeavours a while, at last summoned courage +to help her; she held her frock, and he filled it with the first that +came to hand. + +'That was a great advance for the lad. She didn't thank him; still, he +felt gratified that she had accepted his assistance, and ventured to +stand behind as she examined them, and even to stoop and point out what +struck his fancy in certain old pictures which they contained; nor was he +daunted by the saucy style in which she jerked the page from his finger: +he contented himself with going a bit farther back and looking at her +instead of the book. She continued reading, or seeking for something to +read. His attention became, by degrees, quite centred in the study of +her thick silky curls: her face he couldn't see, and she couldn't see +him. And, perhaps, not quite awake to what he did, but attracted like a +child to a candle, at last he proceeded from staring to touching; he put +out his hand and stroked one curl, as gently as if it were a bird. He +might have stuck a knife into her neck, she started round in such a +taking. + +'"Get away this moment! How dare you touch me? Why are you stopping +there?" she cried, in a tone of disgust. "I can't endure you! I'll go +upstairs again, if you come near me." + +'Mr. Hareton recoiled, looking as foolish as he could do: he sat down in +the settle very quiet, and she continued turning over her volumes another +half hour; finally, Earnshaw crossed over, and whispered to me. + +'"Will you ask her to read to us, Zillah? I'm stalled of doing naught; +and I do like--I could like to hear her! Dunnot say I wanted it, but ask +of yourseln." + +'"Mr. Hareton wishes you would read to us, ma'am," I said, immediately. +"He'd take it very kind--he'd be much obliged." + +'She frowned; and looking up, answered-- + +'"Mr. Hareton, and the whole set of you, will be good enough to +understand that I reject any pretence at kindness you have the hypocrisy +to offer! I despise you, and will have nothing to say to any of you! +When I would have given my life for one kind word, even to see one of +your faces, you all kept off. But I won't complain to you! I'm driven +down here by the cold; not either to amuse you or enjoy your society." + +'"What could I ha' done?" began Earnshaw. "How was I to blame?" + +'"Oh! you are an exception," answered Mrs. Heathcliff. "I never missed +such a concern as you." + +'"But I offered more than once, and asked," he said, kindling up at her +pertness, "I asked Mr. Heathcliff to let me wake for you--" + +'"Be silent! I'll go out of doors, or anywhere, rather than have your +disagreeable voice in my ear!" said my lady. + +'Hareton muttered she might go to hell, for him! and unslinging his gun, +restrained himself from his Sunday occupations no longer. He talked now, +freely enough; and she presently saw fit to retreat to her solitude: but +the frost had set in, and, in spite of her pride, she was forced to +condescend to our company, more and more. However, I took care there +should be no further scorning at my good nature: ever since, I've been as +stiff as herself; and she has no lover or liker among us: and she does +not deserve one; for, let them say the least word to her, and she'll curl +back without respect of any one. She'll snap at the master himself, and +as good as dares him to thrash her; and the more hurt she gets, the more +venomous she grows.' + +At first, on hearing this account from Zillah, I determined to leave my +situation, take a cottage, and get Catherine to come and live with me: +but Mr. Heathcliff would as soon permit that as he would set up Hareton +in an independent house; and I can see no remedy, at present, unless she +could marry again; and that scheme it does not come within my province to +arrange. + +* * * * * + +Thus ended Mrs. Dean's story. Notwithstanding the doctor's prophecy, I +am rapidly recovering strength; and though it be only the second week in +January, I propose getting out on horseback in a day or two, and riding +over to Wuthering Heights, to inform my landlord that I shall spend the +next six months in London; and, if he likes, he may look out for another +tenant to take the place after October. I would not pass another winter +here for much. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI + + +Yesterday was bright, calm, and frosty. I went to the Heights as I +proposed: my housekeeper entreated me to bear a little note from her to +her young lady, and I did not refuse, for the worthy woman was not +conscious of anything odd in her request. The front door stood open, but +the jealous gate was fastened, as at my last visit; I knocked and invoked +Earnshaw from among the garden-beds; he unchained it, and I entered. The +fellow is as handsome a rustic as need be seen. I took particular notice +of him this time; but then he does his best apparently to make the least +of his advantages. + +I asked if Mr. Heathcliff were at home? He answered, No; but he would be +in at dinner-time. It was eleven o'clock, and I announced my intention +of going in and waiting for him; at which he immediately flung down his +tools and accompanied me, in the office of watchdog, not as a substitute +for the host. + +We entered together; Catherine was there, making herself useful in +preparing some vegetables for the approaching meal; she looked more +sulky and less spirited than when I had seen her first. She hardly +raised her eyes to notice me, and continued her employment with the same +disregard to common forms of politeness as before; never returning my +bow and good-morning by the slightest acknowledgment. + +'She does not seem so amiable,' I thought, 'as Mrs. Dean would persuade +me to believe. She's a beauty, it is true; but not an angel.' + +Earnshaw surlily bid her remove her things to the kitchen. 'Remove them +yourself,' she said, pushing them from her as soon as she had done; and +retiring to a stool by the window, where she began to carve figures of +birds and beasts out of the turnip-parings in her lap. I approached her, +pretending to desire a view of the garden; and, as I fancied, adroitly +dropped Mrs. Dean's note on to her knee, unnoticed by Hareton--but she +asked aloud, 'What is that?' And chucked it off. + +'A letter from your old acquaintance, the housekeeper at the Grange,' I +answered; annoyed at her exposing my kind deed, and fearful lest it +should be imagined a missive of my own. She would gladly have gathered +it up at this information, but Hareton beat her; he seized and put it in +his waistcoat, saying Mr. Heathcliff should look at it first. Thereat, +Catherine silently turned her face from us, and, very stealthily, drew +out her pocket-handkerchief and applied it to her eyes; and her cousin, +after struggling awhile to keep down his softer feelings, pulled out the +letter and flung it on the floor beside her, as ungraciously as he could. +Catherine caught and perused it eagerly; then she put a few questions to +me concerning the inmates, rational and irrational, of her former home; +and gazing towards the hills, murmured in soliloquy: + +'I should like to be riding Minny down there! I should like to be +climbing up there! Oh! I'm tired--I'm _stalled_, Hareton!' And she +leant her pretty head back against the sill, with half a yawn and half a +sigh, and lapsed into an aspect of abstracted sadness: neither caring nor +knowing whether we remarked her. + +'Mrs. Heathcliff,' I said, after sitting some time mute, 'you are not +aware that I am an acquaintance of yours? so intimate that I think it +strange you won't come and speak to me. My housekeeper never wearies of +talking about and praising you; and she'll be greatly disappointed if I +return with no news of or from you, except that you received her letter +and said nothing!' + +She appeared to wonder at this speech, and asked,-- + +'Does Ellen like you?' + +'Yes, very well,' I replied, hesitatingly. + +'You must tell her,' she continued, 'that I would answer her letter, but +I have no materials for writing: not even a book from which I might tear +a leaf.' + +'No books!' I exclaimed. 'How do you contrive to live here without them? +if I may take the liberty to inquire. Though provided with a large +library, I'm frequently very dull at the Grange; take my books away, and +I should be desperate!' + +'I was always reading, when I had them,' said Catherine; 'and Mr. +Heathcliff never reads; so he took it into his head to destroy my books. +I have not had a glimpse of one for weeks. Only once, I searched through +Joseph's store of theology, to his great irritation; and once, Hareton, I +came upon a secret stock in your room--some Latin and Greek, and some +tales and poetry: all old friends. I brought the last here--and you +gathered them, as a magpie gathers silver spoons, for the mere love of +stealing! They are of no use to you; or else you concealed them in the +bad spirit that, as you cannot enjoy them, nobody else shall. Perhaps +_your_ envy counselled Mr. Heathcliff to rob me of my treasures? But +I've most of them written on my brain and printed in my heart, and you +cannot deprive me of those!' + +Earnshaw blushed crimson when his cousin made this revelation of his +private literary accumulations, and stammered an indignant denial of her +accusations. + +'Mr. Hareton is desirous of increasing his amount of knowledge,' I said, +coming to his rescue. 'He is not _envious_, but _emulous_ of your +attainments. He'll be a clever scholar in a few years.' + +'And he wants me to sink into a dunce, meantime,' answered Catherine. +'Yes, I hear him trying to spell and read to himself, and pretty blunders +he makes! I wish you would repeat Chevy Chase as you did yesterday: it +was extremely funny. I heard you; and I heard you turning over the +dictionary to seek out the hard words, and then cursing because you +couldn't read their explanations!' + +The young man evidently thought it too bad that he should be laughed at +for his ignorance, and then laughed at for trying to remove it. I had a +similar notion; and, remembering Mrs. Dean's anecdote of his first +attempt at enlightening the darkness in which he had been reared, I +observed,--'But, Mrs. Heathcliff, we have each had a commencement, and +each stumbled and tottered on the threshold; had our teachers scorned +instead of aiding us, we should stumble and totter yet.' + +'Oh!' she replied, 'I don't wish to limit his acquirements: still, he has +no right to appropriate what is mine, and make it ridiculous to me with +his vile mistakes and mispronunciations! Those books, both prose and +verse, are consecrated to me by other associations; and I hate to have +them debased and profaned in his mouth! Besides, of all, he has selected +my favourite pieces that I love the most to repeat, as if out of +deliberate malice.' + +Hareton's chest heaved in silence a minute: he laboured under a severe +sense of mortification and wrath, which it was no easy task to suppress. +I rose, and, from a gentlemanly idea of relieving his embarrassment, took +up my station in the doorway, surveying the external prospect as I stood. +He followed my example, and left the room; but presently reappeared, +bearing half a dozen volumes in his hands, which he threw into +Catherine's lap, exclaiming,--'Take them! I never want to hear, or read, +or think of them again!' + +'I won't have them now,' she answered. 'I shall connect them with you, +and hate them.' + +She opened one that had obviously been often turned over, and read a +portion in the drawling tone of a beginner; then laughed, and threw it +from her. 'And listen,' she continued, provokingly, commencing a verse +of an old ballad in the same fashion. + +But his self-love would endure no further torment: I heard, and not +altogether disapprovingly, a manual check given to her saucy tongue. The +little wretch had done her utmost to hurt her cousin's sensitive though +uncultivated feelings, and a physical argument was the only mode he had +of balancing the account, and repaying its effects on the inflictor. He +afterwards gathered the books and hurled them on the fire. I read in his +countenance what anguish it was to offer that sacrifice to spleen. I +fancied that as they consumed, he recalled the pleasure they had already +imparted, and the triumph and ever-increasing pleasure he had anticipated +from them; and I fancied I guessed the incitement to his secret studies +also. He had been content with daily labour and rough animal enjoyments, +till Catherine crossed his path. Shame at her scorn, and hope of her +approval, were his first prompters to higher pursuits; and instead of +guarding him from one and winning him to the other, his endeavours to +raise himself had produced just the contrary result. + +'Yes that's all the good that such a brute as you can get from them!' +cried Catherine, sucking her damaged lip, and watching the conflagration +with indignant eyes. + +'You'd _better_ hold your tongue, now,' he answered fiercely. + +And his agitation precluded further speech; he advanced hastily to the +entrance, where I made way for him to pass. But ere he had crossed the +door-stones, Mr. Heathcliff, coming up the causeway, encountered him, and +laying hold of his shoulder asked,--'What's to do now, my lad?' + +'Naught, naught,' he said, and broke away to enjoy his grief and anger in +solitude. + +Heathcliff gazed after him, and sighed. + +'It will be odd if I thwart myself,' he muttered, unconscious that I was +behind him. 'But when I look for his father in his face, I find _her_ +every day more! How the devil is he so like? I can hardly bear to see +him.' + +He bent his eyes to the ground, and walked moodily in. There was a +restless, anxious expression in his countenance. I had never remarked +there before; and he looked sparer in person. His daughter-in-law, on +perceiving him through the window, immediately escaped to the kitchen, so +that I remained alone. + +'I'm glad to see you out of doors again, Mr. Lockwood,' he said, in reply +to my greeting; 'from selfish motives partly: I don't think I could +readily supply your loss in this desolation. I've wondered more than +once what brought you here.' + +'An idle whim, I fear, sir,' was my answer; 'or else an idle whim is +going to spirit me away. I shall set out for London next week; and I +must give you warning that I feel no disposition to retain Thrushcross +Grange beyond the twelve months I agreed to rent it. I believe I shall +not live there any more.' + +'Oh, indeed; you're tired of being banished from the world, are you?' he +said. 'But if you be coming to plead off paying for a place you won't +occupy, your journey is useless: I never relent in exacting my due from +any one.' + +'I'm coming to plead off nothing about it,' I exclaimed, considerably +irritated. 'Should you wish it, I'll settle with you now,' and I drew my +note-book from my pocket. + +'No, no,' he replied, coolly; 'you'll leave sufficient behind to cover +your debts, if you fail to return: I'm not in such a hurry. Sit down and +take your dinner with us; a guest that is safe from repeating his visit +can generally be made welcome. Catherine! bring the things in: where are +you?' + +Catherine reappeared, bearing a tray of knives and forks. + +'You may get your dinner with Joseph,' muttered Heathcliff, aside, 'and +remain in the kitchen till he is gone.' + +She obeyed his directions very punctually: perhaps she had no temptation +to transgress. Living among clowns and misanthropists, she probably +cannot appreciate a better class of people when she meets them. + +With Mr. Heathcliff, grim and saturnine, on the one hand, and Hareton, +absolutely dumb, on the other, I made a somewhat cheerless meal, and bade +adieu early. I would have departed by the back way, to get a last +glimpse of Catherine and annoy old Joseph; but Hareton received orders to +lead up my horse, and my host himself escorted me to the door, so I could +not fulfil my wish. + +'How dreary life gets over in that house!' I reflected, while riding down +the road. 'What a realisation of something more romantic than a fairy +tale it would have been for Mrs. Linton Heathcliff, had she and I struck +up an attachment, as her good nurse desired, and migrated together into +the stirring atmosphere of the town!' + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII + + +1802.--This September I was invited to devastate the moors of a friend in +the north, and on my journey to his abode, I unexpectedly came within +fifteen miles of Gimmerton. The ostler at a roadside public-house was +holding a pail of water to refresh my horses, when a cart of very green +oats, newly reaped, passed by, and he remarked,--'Yon's frough Gimmerton, +nah! They're allas three wick' after other folk wi' ther harvest.' + +'Gimmerton?' I repeated--my residence in that locality had already grown +dim and dreamy. 'Ah! I know. How far is it from this?' + +'Happen fourteen mile o'er th' hills; and a rough road,' he answered. + +A sudden impulse seized me to visit Thrushcross Grange. It was scarcely +noon, and I conceived that I might as well pass the night under my own +roof as in an inn. Besides, I could spare a day easily to arrange +matters with my landlord, and thus save myself the trouble of invading +the neighbourhood again. Having rested awhile, I directed my servant to +inquire the way to the village; and, with great fatigue to our beasts, we +managed the distance in some three hours. + +I left him there, and proceeded down the valley alone. The grey church +looked greyer, and the lonely churchyard lonelier. I distinguished a +moor-sheep cropping the short turf on the graves. It was sweet, warm +weather--too warm for travelling; but the heat did not hinder me from +enjoying the delightful scenery above and below: had I seen it nearer +August, I'm sure it would have tempted me to waste a month among its +solitudes. In winter nothing more dreary, in summer nothing more divine, +than those glens shut in by hills, and those bluff, bold swells of heath. + +I reached the Grange before sunset, and knocked for admittance; but the +family had retreated into the back premises, I judged, by one thin, blue +wreath, curling from the kitchen chimney, and they did not hear. I rode +into the court. Under the porch, a girl of nine or ten sat knitting, and +an old woman reclined on the housesteps, smoking a meditative pipe. + +'Is Mrs. Dean within?' I demanded of the dame. + +'Mistress Dean? Nay!' she answered, 'she doesn't bide here: shoo's up at +th' Heights.' + +'Are you the housekeeper, then?' I continued. + +'Eea, aw keep th' hause,' she replied. + +'Well, I'm Mr. Lockwood, the master. Are there any rooms to lodge me in, +I wonder? I wish to stay all night.' + +'T' maister!' she cried in astonishment. 'Whet, whoiver knew yah wur +coming? Yah sud ha' send word. They's nowt norther dry nor mensful +abaht t' place: nowt there isn't!' + +She threw down her pipe and bustled in, the girl followed, and I entered +too; soon perceiving that her report was true, and, moreover, that I had +almost upset her wits by my unwelcome apparition, I bade her be composed. +I would go out for a walk; and, meantime she must try to prepare a corner +of a sitting-room for me to sup in, and a bedroom to sleep in. No +sweeping and dusting, only good fire and dry sheets were necessary. She +seemed willing to do her best; though she thrust the hearth-brush into +the grates in mistake for the poker, and malappropriated several other +articles of her craft: but I retired, confiding in her energy for a +resting-place against my return. Wuthering Heights was the goal of my +proposed excursion. An afterthought brought me back, when I had quitted +the court. + +'All well at the Heights?' I inquired of the woman. + +'Eea, f'r owt ee knaw!' she answered, skurrying away with a pan of hot +cinders. + +I would have asked why Mrs. Dean had deserted the Grange, but it was +impossible to delay her at such a crisis, so I turned away and made my +exit, rambling leisurely along, with the glow of a sinking sun behind, +and the mild glory of a rising moon in front--one fading, and the other +brightening--as I quitted the park, and climbed the stony by-road +branching off to Mr. Heathcliff's dwelling. Before I arrived in sight of +it, all that remained of day was a beamless amber light along the west: +but I could see every pebble on the path, and every blade of grass, by +that splendid moon. I had neither to climb the gate nor to knock--it +yielded to my hand. That is an improvement, I thought. And I noticed +another, by the aid of my nostrils; a fragrance of stocks and wallflowers +wafted on the air from amongst the homely fruit-trees. + +Both doors and lattices were open; and yet, as is usually the case in a +coal-district, a fine red fire illumined the chimney: the comfort which +the eye derives from it renders the extra heat endurable. But the house +of Wuthering Heights is so large that the inmates have plenty of space +for withdrawing out of its influence; and accordingly what inmates there +were had stationed themselves not far from one of the windows. I could +both see them and hear them talk before I entered, and looked and +listened in consequence; being moved thereto by a mingled sense of +curiosity and envy, that grew as I lingered. + +'Con-_trary_!' said a voice as sweet as a silver bell. 'That for the +third time, you dunce! I'm not going to tell you again. Recollect, or +I'll pull your hair!' + +'Contrary, then,' answered another, in deep but softened tones. 'And now, +kiss me, for minding so well.' + +'No, read it over first correctly, without a single mistake.' + +The male speaker began to read: he was a young man, respectably dressed +and seated at a table, having a book before him. His handsome features +glowed with pleasure, and his eyes kept impatiently wandering from the +page to a small white hand over his shoulder, which recalled him by a +smart slap on the cheek, whenever its owner detected such signs of +inattention. Its owner stood behind; her light, shining ringlets +blending, at intervals, with his brown looks, as she bent to superintend +his studies; and her face--it was lucky he could not see her face, or he +would never have been so steady. I could; and I bit my lip in spite, at +having thrown away the chance I might have had of doing something besides +staring at its smiting beauty. + +The task was done, not free from further blunders; but the pupil claimed +a reward, and received at least five kisses; which, however, he +generously returned. Then they came to the door, and from their +conversation I judged they were about to issue out and have a walk on the +moors. I supposed I should be condemned in Hareton Earnshaw's heart, if +not by his mouth, to the lowest pit in the infernal regions if I showed +my unfortunate person in his neighbourhood then; and feeling very mean +and malignant, I skulked round to seek refuge in the kitchen. There was +unobstructed admittance on that side also; and at the door sat my old +friend Nelly Dean, sewing and singing a song; which was often interrupted +from within by harsh words of scorn and intolerance, uttered in far from +musical accents. + +'I'd rayther, by th' haulf, hev' 'em swearing i' my lugs fro'h morn to +neeght, nor hearken ye hahsiver!' said the tenant of the kitchen, in +answer to an unheard speech of Nelly's. 'It's a blazing shame, that I +cannot oppen t' blessed Book, but yah set up them glories to sattan, and +all t' flaysome wickednesses that iver were born into th' warld! Oh! +ye're a raight nowt; and shoo's another; and that poor lad 'll be lost +atween ye. Poor lad!' he added, with a groan; 'he's witched: I'm sartin +on't. Oh, Lord, judge 'em, for there's norther law nor justice among wer +rullers!' + +'No! or we should be sitting in flaming fagots, I suppose,' retorted the +singer. 'But wisht, old man, and read your Bible like a Christian, and +never mind me. This is "Fairy Annie's Wedding"--a bonny tune--it goes to +a dance.' + +Mrs. Dean was about to recommence, when I advanced; and recognising me +directly, she jumped to her feet, crying--'Why, bless you, Mr. Lockwood! +How could you think of returning in this way? All's shut up at +Thrushcross Grange. You should have given us notice!' + +'I've arranged to be accommodated there, for as long as I shall stay,' I +answered. 'I depart again to-morrow. And how are you transplanted here, +Mrs. Dean? tell me that.' + +'Zillah left, and Mr. Heathcliff wished me to come, soon after you went +to London, and stay till you returned. But, step in, pray! Have you +walked from Gimmerton this evening?' + +'From the Grange,' I replied; 'and while they make me lodging room there, +I want to finish my business with your master; because I don't think of +having another opportunity in a hurry.' + +'What business, sir?' said Nelly, conducting me into the house. 'He's +gone out at present, and won't return soon.' + +'About the rent,' I answered. + +'Oh! then it is with Mrs. Heathcliff you must settle,' she observed; 'or +rather with me. She has not learnt to manage her affairs yet, and I act +for her: there's nobody else.' + +I looked surprised. + +'Ah! you have not heard of Heathcliff's death, I see,' she continued. + +'Heathcliff dead!' I exclaimed, astonished. 'How long ago?' + +'Three months since: but sit down, and let me take your hat, and I'll +tell you all about it. Stop, you have had nothing to eat, have you?' + +'I want nothing: I have ordered supper at home. You sit down too. I +never dreamt of his dying! Let me hear how it came to pass. You say you +don't expect them back for some time--the young people?' + +'No--I have to scold them every evening for their late rambles: but they +don't care for me. At least, have a drink of our old ale; it will do you +good: you seem weary.' + +She hastened to fetch it before I could refuse, and I heard Joseph asking +whether 'it warn't a crying scandal that she should have followers at her +time of life? And then, to get them jocks out o' t' maister's cellar! He +fair shaamed to 'bide still and see it.' + +She did not stay to retaliate, but re-entered in a minute, bearing a +reaming silver pint, whose contents I lauded with becoming earnestness. +And afterwards she furnished me with the sequel of Heathcliff's history. +He had a 'queer' end, as she expressed it. + +I was summoned to Wuthering Heights, within a fortnight of your leaving +us, she said; and I obeyed joyfully, for Catherine's sake. My first +interview with her grieved and shocked me: she had altered so much since +our separation. Mr. Heathcliff did not explain his reasons for taking a +new mind about my coming here; he only told me he wanted me, and he was +tired of seeing Catherine: I must make the little parlour my +sitting-room, and keep her with me. It was enough if he were obliged to +see her once or twice a day. She seemed pleased at this arrangement; and, +by degrees, I smuggled over a great number of books, and other articles, +that had formed her amusement at the Grange; and flattered myself we +should get on in tolerable comfort. The delusion did not last long. +Catherine, contented at first, in a brief space grew irritable and +restless. For one thing, she was forbidden to move out of the garden, and +it fretted her sadly to be confined to its narrow bounds as spring drew +on; for another, in following the house, I was forced to quit her +frequently, and she complained of loneliness: she preferred quarrelling +with Joseph in the kitchen to sitting at peace in her solitude. I did +not mind their skirmishes: but Hareton was often obliged to seek the +kitchen also, when the master wanted to have the house to himself! and +though in the beginning she either left it at his approach, or quietly +joined in my occupations, and shunned remarking or addressing him--and +though he was always as sullen and silent as possible--after a while, she +changed her behaviour, and became incapable of letting him alone: talking +at him; commenting on his stupidity and idleness; expressing her wonder +how he could endure the life he lived--how he could sit a whole evening +staring into the fire, and dozing. + +'He's just like a dog, is he not, Ellen?' she once observed, 'or a +cart-horse? He does his work, eats his food, and sleeps eternally! What +a blank, dreary mind he must have! Do you ever dream, Hareton? And, if +you do, what is it about? But you can't speak to me!' + +Then she looked at him; but he would neither open his mouth nor look +again. + +'He's, perhaps, dreaming now,' she continued. 'He twitched his shoulder +as Juno twitches hers. Ask him, Ellen.' + +'Mr. Hareton will ask the master to send you up-stairs, if you don't +behave!' I said. He had not only twitched his shoulder but clenched his +fist, as if tempted to use it. + +'I know why Hareton never speaks, when I am in the kitchen,' she +exclaimed, on another occasion. 'He is afraid I shall laugh at him. +Ellen, what do you think? He began to teach himself to read once; and, +because I laughed, he burned his books, and dropped it: was he not a +fool?' + +'Were not you naughty?' I said; 'answer me that.' + +'Perhaps I was,' she went on; 'but I did not expect him to be so silly. +Hareton, if I gave you a book, would you take it now? I'll try!' + +She placed one she had been perusing on his hand; he flung it off, and +muttered, if she did not give over, he would break her neck. + +'Well, I shall put it here,' she said, 'in the table-drawer; and I'm +going to bed.' + +Then she whispered me to watch whether he touched it, and departed. But +he would not come near it; and so I informed her in the morning, to her +great disappointment. I saw she was sorry for his persevering sulkiness +and indolence: her conscience reproved her for frightening him off +improving himself: she had done it effectually. But her ingenuity was at +work to remedy the injury: while I ironed, or pursued other such +stationary employments as I could not well do in the parlour, she would +bring some pleasant volume and read it aloud to me. When Hareton was +there, she generally paused in an interesting part, and left the book +lying about: that she did repeatedly; but he was as obstinate as a mule, +and, instead of snatching at her bait, in wet weather he took to smoking +with Joseph; and they sat like automatons, one on each side of the fire, +the elder happily too deaf to understand her wicked nonsense, as he would +have called it, the younger doing his best to seem to disregard it. On +fine evenings the latter followed his shooting expeditions, and Catherine +yawned and sighed, and teased me to talk to her, and ran off into the +court or garden the moment I began; and, as a last resource, cried, and +said she was tired of living: her life was useless. + +Mr. Heathcliff, who grew more and more disinclined to society, had almost +banished Earnshaw from his apartment. Owing to an accident at the +commencement of March, he became for some days a fixture in the kitchen. +His gun burst while out on the hills by himself; a splinter cut his arm, +and he lost a good deal of blood before he could reach home. The +consequence was that, perforce, he was condemned to the fireside and +tranquillity, till he made it up again. It suited Catherine to have him +there: at any rate, it made her hate her room up-stairs more than ever: +and she would compel me to find out business below, that she might +accompany me. + +On Easter Monday, Joseph went to Gimmerton fair with some cattle; and, in +the afternoon, I was busy getting up linen in the kitchen. Earnshaw sat, +morose as usual, at the chimney corner, and my little mistress was +beguiling an idle hour with drawing pictures on the window-panes, varying +her amusement by smothered bursts of songs, and whispered ejaculations, +and quick glances of annoyance and impatience in the direction of her +cousin, who steadfastly smoked, and looked into the grate. At a notice +that I could do with her no longer intercepting my light, she removed to +the hearthstone. I bestowed little attention on her proceedings, but, +presently, I heard her begin--'I've found out, Hareton, that I want--that +I'm glad--that I should like you to be my cousin now, if you had not +grown so cross to me, and so rough.' + +Hareton returned no answer. + +'Hareton, Hareton, Hareton! do you hear?' she continued. + +'Get off wi' ye!' he growled, with uncompromising gruffness. + +'Let me take that pipe,' she said, cautiously advancing her hand and +abstracting it from his mouth. + +Before he could attempt to recover it, it was broken, and behind the +fire. He swore at her and seized another. + +'Stop,' she cried, 'you must listen to me first; and I can't speak while +those clouds are floating in my face.' + +'Will you go to the devil!' he exclaimed, ferociously, 'and let me be!' + +'No,' she persisted, 'I won't: I can't tell what to do to make you talk +to me; and you are determined not to understand. When I call you stupid, +I don't mean anything: I don't mean that I despise you. Come, you shall +take notice of me, Hareton: you are my cousin, and you shall own me.' + +'I shall have naught to do wi' you and your mucky pride, and your damned +mocking tricks!' he answered. 'I'll go to hell, body and soul, before I +look sideways after you again. Side out o' t' gate, now, this minute!' + +Catherine frowned, and retreated to the window-seat chewing her lip, and +endeavouring, by humming an eccentric tune, to conceal a growing tendency +to sob. + +'You should be friends with your cousin, Mr. Hareton,' I interrupted, +'since she repents of her sauciness. It would do you a great deal of +good: it would make you another man to have her for a companion.' + +'A companion!' he cried; 'when she hates me, and does not think me fit to +wipe her shoon! Nay, if it made me a king, I'd not be scorned for +seeking her good-will any more.' + +'It is not I who hate you, it is you who hate me!' wept Cathy, no longer +disguising her trouble. 'You hate me as much as Mr. Heathcliff does, and +more.' + +'You're a damned liar,' began Earnshaw: 'why have I made him angry, by +taking your part, then, a hundred times? and that when you sneered at and +despised me, and--Go on plaguing me, and I'll step in yonder, and say you +worried me out of the kitchen!' + +'I didn't know you took my part,' she answered, drying her eyes; 'and I +was miserable and bitter at everybody; but now I thank you, and beg you +to forgive me: what can I do besides?' + +She returned to the hearth, and frankly extended her hand. He blackened +and scowled like a thunder-cloud, and kept his fists resolutely clenched, +and his gaze fixed on the ground. Catherine, by instinct, must have +divined it was obdurate perversity, and not dislike, that prompted this +dogged conduct; for, after remaining an instant undecided, she stooped +and impressed on his cheek a gentle kiss. The little rogue thought I had +not seen her, and, drawing back, she took her former station by the +window, quite demurely. I shook my head reprovingly, and then she +blushed and whispered--'Well! what should I have done, Ellen? He +wouldn't shake hands, and he wouldn't look: I must show him some way that +I like him--that I want to be friends.' + +Whether the kiss convinced Hareton, I cannot tell: he was very careful, +for some minutes, that his face should not be seen, and when he did raise +it, he was sadly puzzled where to turn his eyes. + +Catherine employed herself in wrapping a handsome book neatly in white +paper, and having tied it with a bit of ribbon, and addressed it to 'Mr. +Hareton Earnshaw,' she desired me to be her ambassadress, and convey the +present to its destined recipient. + +'And tell him, if he'll take it, I'll come and teach him to read it +right,' she said; 'and, if he refuse it, I'll go upstairs, and never +tease him again.' + +I carried it, and repeated the message; anxiously watched by my employer. +Hareton would not open his fingers, so I laid it on his knee. He did not +strike it off, either. I returned to my work. Catherine leaned her head +and arms on the table, till she heard the slight rustle of the covering +being removed; then she stole away, and quietly seated herself beside her +cousin. He trembled, and his face glowed: all his rudeness and all his +surly harshness had deserted him: he could not summon courage, at first, +to utter a syllable in reply to her questioning look, and her murmured +petition. + +'Say you forgive me, Hareton, do. You can make me so happy by speaking +that little word.' + +He muttered something inaudible. + +'And you'll be my friend?' added Catherine, interrogatively. + +'Nay, you'll be ashamed of me every day of your life,' he answered; 'and +the more ashamed, the more you know me; and I cannot bide it.' + +'So you won't be my friend?' she said, smiling as sweet as honey, and +creeping close up. + +I overheard no further distinguishable talk, but, on looking round again, +I perceived two such radiant countenances bent over the page of the +accepted book, that I did not doubt the treaty had been ratified on both +sides; and the enemies were, thenceforth, sworn allies. + +The work they studied was full of costly pictures; and those and their +position had charm enough to keep them unmoved till Joseph came home. He, +poor man, was perfectly aghast at the spectacle of Catherine seated on +the same bench with Hareton Earnshaw, leaning her hand on his shoulder; +and confounded at his favourite's endurance of her proximity: it affected +him too deeply to allow an observation on the subject that night. His +emotion was only revealed by the immense sighs he drew, as he solemnly +spread his large Bible on the table, and overlaid it with dirty +bank-notes from his pocket-book, the produce of the day's transactions. +At length he summoned Hareton from his seat. + +'Tak' these in to t' maister, lad,' he said, 'and bide there. I's gang +up to my own rahm. This hoile's neither mensful nor seemly for us: we +mun side out and seearch another.' + +'Come, Catherine,' I said, 'we must "side out" too: I've done my ironing. +Are you ready to go?' + +'It is not eight o'clock!' she answered, rising unwillingly. + +'Hareton, I'll leave this book upon the chimney-piece, and I'll bring +some more to-morrow.' + +'Ony books that yah leave, I shall tak' into th' hahse,' said Joseph, +'and it'll be mitch if yah find 'em agean; soa, yah may plase yerseln!' + +Cathy threatened that his library should pay for hers; and, smiling as +she passed Hareton, went singing up-stairs: lighter of heart, I venture +to say, than ever she had been under that roof before; except, perhaps, +during her earliest visits to Linton. + +The intimacy thus commenced grew rapidly; though it encountered temporary +interruptions. Earnshaw was not to be civilized with a wish, and my +young lady was no philosopher, and no paragon of patience; but both their +minds tending to the same point--one loving and desiring to esteem, and +the other loving and desiring to be esteemed--they contrived in the end +to reach it. + +You see, Mr. Lockwood, it was easy enough to win Mrs. Heathcliff's heart. +But now, I'm glad you did not try. The crown of all my wishes will be +the union of those two. I shall envy no one on their wedding day: there +won't be a happier woman than myself in England! + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII + + +On the morrow of that Monday, Earnshaw being still unable to follow his +ordinary employments, and therefore remaining about the house, I speedily +found it would be impracticable to retain my charge beside me, as +heretofore. She got downstairs before me, and out into the garden, where +she had seen her cousin performing some easy work; and when I went to bid +them come to breakfast, I saw she had persuaded him to clear a large +space of ground from currant and gooseberry bushes, and they were busy +planning together an importation of plants from the Grange. + +I was terrified at the devastation which had been accomplished in a brief +half-hour; the black-currant trees were the apple of Joseph's eye, and +she had just fixed her choice of a flower-bed in the midst of them. + +'There! That will be all shown to the master,' I exclaimed, 'the minute +it is discovered. And what excuse have you to offer for taking such +liberties with the garden? We shall have a fine explosion on the head of +it: see if we don't! Mr. Hareton, I wonder you should have no more wit +than to go and make that mess at her bidding!' + +'I'd forgotten they were Joseph's,' answered Earnshaw, rather puzzled; +'but I'll tell him I did it.' + +We always ate our meals with Mr. Heathcliff. I held the mistress's post +in making tea and carving; so I was indispensable at table. Catherine +usually sat by me, but to-day she stole nearer to Hareton; and I +presently saw she would have no more discretion in her friendship than +she had in her hostility. + +'Now, mind you don't talk with and notice your cousin too much,' were my +whispered instructions as we entered the room. 'It will certainly annoy +Mr. Heathcliff, and he'll be mad at you both.' + +'I'm not going to,' she answered. + +The minute after, she had sidled to him, and was sticking primroses in +his plate of porridge. + +He dared not speak to her there: he dared hardly look; and yet she went +on teasing, till he was twice on the point of being provoked to laugh. I +frowned, and then she glanced towards the master: whose mind was occupied +on other subjects than his company, as his countenance evinced; and she +grew serious for an instant, scrutinizing him with deep gravity. +Afterwards she turned, and recommenced her nonsense; at last, Hareton +uttered a smothered laugh. Mr. Heathcliff started; his eye rapidly +surveyed our faces, Catherine met it with her accustomed look of +nervousness and yet defiance, which he abhorred. + +'It is well you are out of my reach,' he exclaimed. 'What fiend +possesses you to stare back at me, continually, with those infernal eyes? +Down with them! and don't remind me of your existence again. I thought I +had cured you of laughing.' + +'It was me,' muttered Hareton. + +'What do you say?' demanded the master. + +Hareton looked at his plate, and did not repeat the confession. Mr. +Heathcliff looked at him a bit, and then silently resumed his breakfast +and his interrupted musing. We had nearly finished, and the two young +people prudently shifted wider asunder, so I anticipated no further +disturbance during that sitting: when Joseph appeared at the door, +revealing by his quivering lip and furious eyes that the outrage +committed on his precious shrubs was detected. He must have seen Cathy +and her cousin about the spot before he examined it, for while his jaws +worked like those of a cow chewing its cud, and rendered his speech +difficult to understand, he began:-- + +'I mun hev' my wage, and I mun goa! I _hed_ aimed to dee wheare I'd +sarved fur sixty year; and I thowt I'd lug my books up into t' garret, +and all my bits o' stuff, and they sud hev' t' kitchen to theirseln; for +t' sake o' quietness. It wur hard to gie up my awn hearthstun, but I +thowt I _could_ do that! But nah, shoo's taan my garden fro' me, and by +th' heart, maister, I cannot stand it! Yah may bend to th' yoak an ye +will--I noan used to 't, and an old man doesn't sooin get used to new +barthens. I'd rayther arn my bite an' my sup wi' a hammer in th' road!' + +'Now, now, idiot!' interrupted Heathcliff, 'cut it short! What's your +grievance? I'll interfere in no quarrels between you and Nelly. She may +thrust you into the coal-hole for anything I care.' + +'It's noan Nelly!' answered Joseph. 'I sudn't shift for Nelly--nasty ill +nowt as shoo is. Thank God! _shoo_ cannot stale t' sowl o' nob'dy! Shoo +wer niver soa handsome, but what a body mud look at her 'bout winking. +It's yon flaysome, graceless quean, that's witched our lad, wi' her bold +een and her forrard ways--till--Nay! it fair brusts my heart! He's +forgotten all I've done for him, and made on him, and goan and riven up a +whole row o' t' grandest currant-trees i' t' garden!' and here he +lamented outright; unmanned by a sense of his bitter injuries, and +Earnshaw's ingratitude and dangerous condition. + +'Is the fool drunk?' asked Mr. Heathcliff. 'Hareton, is it you he's +finding fault with?' + +'I've pulled up two or three bushes,' replied the young man; 'but I'm +going to set 'em again.' + +'And why have you pulled them up?' said the master. + +Catherine wisely put in her tongue. + +'We wanted to plant some flowers there,' she cried. 'I'm the only person +to blame, for I wished him to do it.' + +'And who the devil gave _you_ leave to touch a stick about the place?' +demanded her father-in-law, much surprised. 'And who ordered _you_ to +obey her?' he added, turning to Hareton. + +The latter was speechless; his cousin replied--'You shouldn't grudge a +few yards of earth for me to ornament, when you have taken all my land!' + +'Your land, insolent slut! You never had any,' said Heathcliff. + +'And my money,' she continued; returning his angry glare, and meantime +biting a piece of crust, the remnant of her breakfast. + +'Silence!' he exclaimed. 'Get done, and begone!' + +'And Hareton's land, and his money,' pursued the reckless thing. 'Hareton +and I are friends now; and I shall tell him all about you!' + +The master seemed confounded a moment: he grew pale, and rose up, eyeing +her all the while, with an expression of mortal hate. + +'If you strike me, Hareton will strike you,' she said; 'so you may as +well sit down.' + +'If Hareton does not turn you out of the room, I'll strike him to hell,' +thundered Heathcliff. 'Damnable witch! dare you pretend to rouse him +against me? Off with her! Do you hear? Fling her into the kitchen! +I'll kill her, Ellen Dean, if you let her come into my sight again!' + +Hareton tried, under his breath, to persuade her to go. + +'Drag her away!' he cried, savagely. 'Are you staying to talk?' And he +approached to execute his own command. + +'He'll not obey you, wicked man, any more,' said Catherine; 'and he'll +soon detest you as much as I do.' + +'Wisht! wisht!' muttered the young man, reproachfully; 'I will not hear +you speak so to him. Have done.' + +'But you won't let him strike me?' she cried. + +'Come, then,' he whispered earnestly. + +It was too late: Heathcliff had caught hold of her. + +'Now, _you_ go!' he said to Earnshaw. 'Accursed witch! this time she has +provoked me when I could not bear it; and I'll make her repent it for +ever!' + +He had his hand in her hair; Hareton attempted to release her locks, +entreating him not to hurt her that once. Heathcliff's black eyes +flashed; he seemed ready to tear Catherine in pieces, and I was just +worked up to risk coming to the rescue, when of a sudden his fingers +relaxed; he shifted his grasp from her head to her arm, and gazed +intently in her face. Then he drew his hand over his eyes, stood a +moment to collect himself apparently, and turning anew to Catherine, +said, with assumed calmness--'You must learn to avoid putting me in a +passion, or I shall really murder you some time! Go with Mrs. Dean, and +keep with her; and confine your insolence to her ears. As to Hareton +Earnshaw, if I see him listen to you, I'll send him seeking his bread +where he can get it! Your love will make him an outcast and a beggar. +Nelly, take her; and leave me, all of you! Leave me!' + +I led my young lady out: she was too glad of her escape to resist; the +other followed, and Mr. Heathcliff had the room to himself till dinner. I +had counselled Catherine to dine up-stairs; but, as soon as he perceived +her vacant seat, he sent me to call her. He spoke to none of us, ate +very little, and went out directly afterwards, intimating that he should +not return before evening. + +The two new friends established themselves in the house during his +absence; where I heard Hareton sternly check his cousin, on her offering +a revelation of her father-in-law's conduct to his father. He said he +wouldn't suffer a word to be uttered in his disparagement: if he were the +devil, it didn't signify; he would stand by him; and he'd rather she +would abuse himself, as she used to, than begin on Mr. Heathcliff. +Catherine was waxing cross at this; but he found means to make her hold +her tongue, by asking how she would like _him_ to speak ill of her +father? Then she comprehended that Earnshaw took the master's reputation +home to himself; and was attached by ties stronger than reason could +break--chains, forged by habit, which it would be cruel to attempt to +loosen. She showed a good heart, thenceforth, in avoiding both +complaints and expressions of antipathy concerning Heathcliff; and +confessed to me her sorrow that she had endeavoured to raise a bad spirit +between him and Hareton: indeed, I don't believe she has ever breathed a +syllable, in the latter's hearing, against her oppressor since. + +When this slight disagreement was over, they were friends again, and as +busy as possible in their several occupations of pupil and teacher. I +came in to sit with them, after I had done my work; and I felt so soothed +and comforted to watch them, that I did not notice how time got on. You +know, they both appeared in a measure my children: I had long been proud +of one; and now, I was sure, the other would be a source of equal +satisfaction. His honest, warm, and intelligent nature shook off rapidly +the clouds of ignorance and degradation in which it had been bred; and +Catherine's sincere commendations acted as a spur to his industry. His +brightening mind brightened his features, and added spirit and nobility +to their aspect: I could hardly fancy it the same individual I had beheld +on the day I discovered my little lady at Wuthering Heights, after her +expedition to the Crags. While I admired and they laboured, dusk drew +on, and with it returned the master. He came upon us quite unexpectedly, +entering by the front way, and had a full view of the whole three, ere we +could raise our heads to glance at him. Well, I reflected, there was +never a pleasanter, or more harmless sight; and it will be a burning +shame to scold them. The red fire-light glowed on their two bonny heads, +and revealed their faces animated with the eager interest of children; +for, though he was twenty-three and she eighteen, each had so much of +novelty to feel and learn, that neither experienced nor evinced the +sentiments of sober disenchanted maturity. + +They lifted their eyes together, to encounter Mr. Heathcliff: perhaps you +have never remarked that their eyes are precisely similar, and they are +those of Catherine Earnshaw. The present Catherine has no other likeness +to her, except a breadth of forehead, and a certain arch of the nostril +that makes her appear rather haughty, whether she will or not. With +Hareton the resemblance is carried farther: it is singular at all times, +_then_ it was particularly striking; because his senses were alert, and +his mental faculties wakened to unwonted activity. I suppose this +resemblance disarmed Mr. Heathcliff: he walked to the hearth in evident +agitation; but it quickly subsided as he looked at the young man: or, I +should say, altered its character; for it was there yet. He took the +book from his hand, and glanced at the open page, then returned it +without any observation; merely signing Catherine away: her companion +lingered very little behind her, and I was about to depart also, but he +bid me sit still. + +'It is a poor conclusion, is it not?' he observed, having brooded awhile +on the scene he had just witnessed: 'an absurd termination to my violent +exertions? I get levers and mattocks to demolish the two houses, and +train myself to be capable of working like Hercules, and when everything +is ready and in my power, I find the will to lift a slate off either roof +has vanished! My old enemies have not beaten me; now would be the +precise time to revenge myself on their representatives: I could do it; +and none could hinder me. But where is the use? I don't care for +striking: I can't take the trouble to raise my hand! That sounds as if I +had been labouring the whole time only to exhibit a fine trait of +magnanimity. It is far from being the case: I have lost the faculty of +enjoying their destruction, and I am too idle to destroy for nothing. + +'Nelly, there is a strange change approaching; I'm in its shadow at +present. I take so little interest in my daily life that I hardly +remember to eat and drink. Those two who have left the room are the only +objects which retain a distinct material appearance to me; and that +appearance causes me pain, amounting to agony. About _her_ I won't +speak; and I don't desire to think; but I earnestly wish she were +invisible: her presence invokes only maddening sensations. _He_ moves me +differently: and yet if I could do it without seeming insane, I'd never +see him again! You'll perhaps think me rather inclined to become so,' he +added, making an effort to smile, 'if I try to describe the thousand +forms of past associations and ideas he awakens or embodies. But you'll +not talk of what I tell you; and my mind is so eternally secluded in +itself, it is tempting at last to turn it out to another. + +'Five minutes ago Hareton seemed a personification of my youth, not a +human being; I felt to him in such a variety of ways, that it would have +been impossible to have accosted him rationally. In the first place, his +startling likeness to Catherine connected him fearfully with her. That, +however, which you may suppose the most potent to arrest my imagination, +is actually the least: for what is not connected with her to me? and what +does not recall her? I cannot look down to this floor, but her features +are shaped in the flags! In every cloud, in every tree--filling the air +at night, and caught by glimpses in every object by day--I am surrounded +with her image! The most ordinary faces of men and women--my own +features--mock me with a resemblance. The entire world is a dreadful +collection of memoranda that she did exist, and that I have lost her! +Well, Hareton's aspect was the ghost of my immortal love; of my wild +endeavours to hold my right; my degradation, my pride, my happiness, and +my anguish-- + +'But it is frenzy to repeat these thoughts to you: only it will let you +know why, with a reluctance to be always alone, his society is no +benefit; rather an aggravation of the constant torment I suffer: and it +partly contributes to render me regardless how he and his cousin go on +together. I can give them no attention any more.' + +'But what do you mean by a _change_, Mr. Heathcliff?' I said, alarmed at +his manner: though he was neither in danger of losing his senses, nor +dying, according to my judgment: he was quite strong and healthy; and, as +to his reason, from childhood he had a delight in dwelling on dark +things, and entertaining odd fancies. He might have had a monomania on +the subject of his departed idol; but on every other point his wits were +as sound as mine. + +'I shall not know that till it comes,' he said; 'I'm only half conscious +of it now.' + +'You have no feeling of illness, have you?' I asked. + +'No, Nelly, I have not,' he answered. + +'Then you are not afraid of death?' I pursued. + +'Afraid? No!' he replied. 'I have neither a fear, nor a presentiment, +nor a hope of death. Why should I? With my hard constitution and +temperate mode of living, and unperilous occupations, I ought to, and +probably _shall_, remain above ground till there is scarcely a black hair +on my head. And yet I cannot continue in this condition! I have to +remind myself to breathe--almost to remind my heart to beat! And it is +like bending back a stiff spring: it is by compulsion that I do the +slightest act not prompted by one thought; and by compulsion that I +notice anything alive or dead, which is not associated with one universal +idea. I have a single wish, and my whole being and faculties are +yearning to attain it. They have yearned towards it so long, and so +unwaveringly, that I'm convinced it will be reached--and soon--because it +has devoured my existence: I am swallowed up in the anticipation of its +fulfilment. My confessions have not relieved me; but they may account +for some otherwise unaccountable phases of humour which I show. O God! +It is a long fight; I wish it were over!' + +He began to pace the room, muttering terrible things to himself, till I +was inclined to believe, as he said Joseph did, that conscience had +turned his heart to an earthly hell. I wondered greatly how it would +end. Though he seldom before had revealed this state of mind, even by +looks, it was his habitual mood, I had no doubt: he asserted it himself; +but not a soul, from his general bearing, would have conjectured the +fact. You did not when you saw him, Mr. Lockwood: and at the period of +which I speak, he was just the same as then; only fonder of continued +solitude, and perhaps still more laconic in company. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIV + + +For some days after that evening Mr. Heathcliff shunned meeting us at +meals; yet he would not consent formally to exclude Hareton and Cathy. He +had an aversion to yielding so completely to his feelings, choosing +rather to absent himself; and eating once in twenty-four hours seemed +sufficient sustenance for him. + +One night, after the family were in bed, I heard him go downstairs, and +out at the front door. I did not hear him re-enter, and in the morning I +found he was still away. We were in April then: the weather was sweet +and warm, the grass as green as showers and sun could make it, and the +two dwarf apple-trees near the southern wall in full bloom. After +breakfast, Catherine insisted on my bringing a chair and sitting with my +work under the fir-trees at the end of the house; and she beguiled +Hareton, who had perfectly recovered from his accident, to dig and +arrange her little garden, which was shifted to that corner by the +influence of Joseph's complaints. I was comfortably revelling in the +spring fragrance around, and the beautiful soft blue overhead, when my +young lady, who had run down near the gate to procure some primrose roots +for a border, returned only half laden, and informed us that Mr. +Heathcliff was coming in. 'And he spoke to me,' she added, with a +perplexed countenance. + +'What did he say?' asked Hareton. + +'He told me to begone as fast as I could,' she answered. 'But he looked +so different from his usual look that I stopped a moment to stare at +him.' + +'How?' he inquired. + +'Why, almost bright and cheerful. No, _almost_ nothing--_very much_ +excited, and wild, and glad!' she replied. + +'Night-walking amuses him, then,' I remarked, affecting a careless +manner: in reality as surprised as she was, and anxious to ascertain the +truth of her statement; for to see the master looking glad would not be +an every-day spectacle. I framed an excuse to go in. Heathcliff stood +at the open door; he was pale, and he trembled: yet, certainly, he had a +strange joyful glitter in his eyes, that altered the aspect of his whole +face. + +'Will you have some breakfast?' I said. 'You must be hungry, rambling +about all night!' I wanted to discover where he had been, but I did not +like to ask directly. + +'No, I'm not hungry,' he answered, averting his head, and speaking rather +contemptuously, as if he guessed I was trying to divine the occasion of +his good humour. + +I felt perplexed: I didn't know whether it were not a proper opportunity +to offer a bit of admonition. + +'I don't think it right to wander out of doors,' I observed, 'instead of +being in bed: it is not wise, at any rate this moist season. I daresay +you'll catch a bad cold or a fever: you have something the matter with +you now!' + +'Nothing but what I can bear,' he replied; 'and with the greatest +pleasure, provided you'll leave me alone: get in, and don't annoy me.' + +I obeyed: and, in passing, I noticed he breathed as fast as a cat. + +'Yes!' I reflected to myself, 'we shall have a fit of illness. I cannot +conceive what he has been doing.' + +That noon he sat down to dinner with us, and received a heaped-up plate +from my hands, as if he intended to make amends for previous fasting. + +'I've neither cold nor fever, Nelly,' he remarked, in allusion to my +morning's speech; 'and I'm ready to do justice to the food you give me.' + +He took his knife and fork, and was going to commence eating, when the +inclination appeared to become suddenly extinct. He laid them on the +table, looked eagerly towards the window, then rose and went out. We saw +him walking to and fro in the garden while we concluded our meal, and +Earnshaw said he'd go and ask why he would not dine: he thought we had +grieved him some way. + +'Well, is he coming?' cried Catherine, when her cousin returned. + +'Nay,' he answered; 'but he's not angry: he seemed rarely pleased indeed; +only I made him impatient by speaking to him twice; and then he bid me be +off to you: he wondered how I could want the company of anybody else.' + +I set his plate to keep warm on the fender; and after an hour or two he +re-entered, when the room was clear, in no degree calmer: the same +unnatural--it was unnatural--appearance of joy under his black brows; the +same bloodless hue, and his teeth visible, now and then, in a kind of +smile; his frame shivering, not as one shivers with chill or weakness, +but as a tight-stretched cord vibrates--a strong thrilling, rather than +trembling. + +I will ask what is the matter, I thought; or who should? And I +exclaimed--'Have you heard any good news, Mr. Heathcliff? You look +uncommonly animated.' + +'Where should good news come from to me?' he said. 'I'm animated with +hunger; and, seemingly, I must not eat.' + +'Your dinner is here,' I returned; 'why won't you get it?' + +'I don't want it now,' he muttered, hastily: 'I'll wait till supper. And, +Nelly, once for all, let me beg you to warn Hareton and the other away +from me. I wish to be troubled by nobody: I wish to have this place to +myself.' + +'Is there some new reason for this banishment?' I inquired. 'Tell me why +you are so queer, Mr. Heathcliff? Where were you last night? I'm not +putting the question through idle curiosity, but--' + +'You are putting the question through very idle curiosity,' he +interrupted, with a laugh. 'Yet I'll answer it. Last night I was on the +threshold of hell. To-day, I am within sight of my heaven. I have my +eyes on it: hardly three feet to sever me! And now you'd better go! +You'll neither see nor hear anything to frighten you, if you refrain from +prying.' + +Having swept the hearth and wiped the table, I departed; more perplexed +than ever. + +He did not quit the house again that afternoon, and no one intruded on +his solitude; till, at eight o'clock, I deemed it proper, though +unsummoned, to carry a candle and his supper to him. He was leaning +against the ledge of an open lattice, but not looking out: his face was +turned to the interior gloom. The fire had smouldered to ashes; the room +was filled with the damp, mild air of the cloudy evening; and so still, +that not only the murmur of the beck down Gimmerton was distinguishable, +but its ripples and its gurgling over the pebbles, or through the large +stones which it could not cover. I uttered an ejaculation of discontent +at seeing the dismal grate, and commenced shutting the casements, one +after another, till I came to his. + +'Must I close this?' I asked, in order to rouse him; for he would not +stir. + +The light flashed on his features as I spoke. Oh, Mr. Lockwood, I cannot +express what a terrible start I got by the momentary view! Those deep +black eyes! That smile, and ghastly paleness! It appeared to me, not +Mr. Heathcliff, but a goblin; and, in my terror, I let the candle bend +towards the wall, and it left me in darkness. + +'Yes, close it,' he replied, in his familiar voice. 'There, that is pure +awkwardness! Why did you hold the candle horizontally? Be quick, and +bring another.' + +I hurried out in a foolish state of dread, and said to Joseph--'The +master wishes you to take him a light and rekindle the fire.' For I +dared not go in myself again just then. + +Joseph rattled some fire into the shovel, and went: but he brought it +back immediately, with the supper-tray in his other hand, explaining that +Mr. Heathcliff was going to bed, and he wanted nothing to eat till +morning. We heard him mount the stairs directly; he did not proceed to +his ordinary chamber, but turned into that with the panelled bed: its +window, as I mentioned before, is wide enough for anybody to get through; +and it struck me that he plotted another midnight excursion, of which he +had rather we had no suspicion. + +'Is he a ghoul or a vampire?' I mused. I had read of such hideous +incarnate demons. And then I set myself to reflect how I had tended him +in infancy, and watched him grow to youth, and followed him almost +through his whole course; and what absurd nonsense it was to yield to +that sense of horror. 'But where did he come from, the little dark +thing, harboured by a good man to his bane?' muttered Superstition, as I +dozed into unconsciousness. And I began, half dreaming, to weary myself +with imagining some fit parentage for him; and, repeating my waking +meditations, I tracked his existence over again, with grim variations; at +last, picturing his death and funeral: of which, all I can remember is, +being exceedingly vexed at having the task of dictating an inscription +for his monument, and consulting the sexton about it; and, as he had no +surname, and we could not tell his age, we were obliged to content +ourselves with the single word, 'Heathcliff.' That came true: we were. +If you enter the kirkyard, you'll read, on his headstone, only that, and +the date of his death. + +Dawn restored me to common sense. I rose, and went into the garden, as +soon as I could see, to ascertain if there were any footmarks under his +window. There were none. 'He has stayed at home,' I thought, 'and he'll +be all right to-day.' I prepared breakfast for the household, as was my +usual custom, but told Hareton and Catherine to get theirs ere the master +came down, for he lay late. They preferred taking it out of doors, under +the trees, and I set a little table to accommodate them. + +On my re-entrance, I found Mr. Heathcliff below. He and Joseph were +conversing about some farming business; he gave clear, minute directions +concerning the matter discussed, but he spoke rapidly, and turned his +head continually aside, and had the same excited expression, even more +exaggerated. When Joseph quitted the room he took his seat in the place +he generally chose, and I put a basin of coffee before him. He drew it +nearer, and then rested his arms on the table, and looked at the opposite +wall, as I supposed, surveying one particular portion, up and down, with +glittering, restless eyes, and with such eager interest that he stopped +breathing during half a minute together. + +'Come now,' I exclaimed, pushing some bread against his hand, 'eat and +drink that, while it is hot: it has been waiting near an hour.' + +He didn't notice me, and yet he smiled. I'd rather have seen him gnash +his teeth than smile so. + +'Mr. Heathcliff! master!' I cried, 'don't, for God's sake, stare as if +you saw an unearthly vision.' + +'Don't, for God's sake, shout so loud,' he replied. 'Turn round, and +tell me, are we by ourselves?' + +'Of course,' was my answer; 'of course we are.' + +Still, I involuntarily obeyed him, as if I was not quite sure. With a +sweep of his hand he cleared a vacant space in front among the breakfast +things, and leant forward to gaze more at his ease. + +Now, I perceived he was not looking at the wall; for when I regarded him +alone, it seemed exactly that he gazed at something within two yards' +distance. And whatever it was, it communicated, apparently, both +pleasure and pain in exquisite extremes: at least the anguished, yet +raptured, expression of his countenance suggested that idea. The fancied +object was not fixed, either: his eyes pursued it with unwearied +diligence, and, even in speaking to me, were never weaned away. I vainly +reminded him of his protracted abstinence from food: if he stirred to +touch anything in compliance with my entreaties, if he stretched his hand +out to get a piece of bread, his fingers clenched before they reached it, +and remained on the table, forgetful of their aim. + +I sat, a model of patience, trying to attract his absorbed attention from +its engrossing speculation; till he grew irritable, and got up, asking +why I would not allow him to have his own time in taking his meals? and +saying that on the next occasion I needn't wait: I might set the things +down and go. Having uttered these words he left the house, slowly +sauntered down the garden path, and disappeared through the gate. + +The hours crept anxiously by: another evening came. I did not retire to +rest till late, and when I did, I could not sleep. He returned after +midnight, and, instead of going to bed, shut himself into the room +beneath. I listened, and tossed about, and, finally, dressed and +descended. It was too irksome to lie there, harassing my brain with a +hundred idle misgivings. + +I distinguished Mr. Heathcliff's step, restlessly measuring the floor, +and he frequently broke the silence by a deep inspiration, resembling a +groan. He muttered detached words also; the only one I could catch was +the name of Catherine, coupled with some wild term of endearment or +suffering; and spoken as one would speak to a person present; low and +earnest, and wrung from the depth of his soul. I had not courage to walk +straight into the apartment; but I desired to divert him from his +reverie, and therefore fell foul of the kitchen fire, stirred it, and +began to scrape the cinders. It drew him forth sooner than I expected. +He opened the door immediately, and said--'Nelly, come here--is it +morning? Come in with your light.' + +'It is striking four,' I answered. 'You want a candle to take up-stairs: +you might have lit one at this fire.' + +'No, I don't wish to go up-stairs,' he said. 'Come in, and kindle _me_ a +fire, and do anything there is to do about the room.' + +'I must blow the coals red first, before I can carry any,' I replied, +getting a chair and the bellows. + +He roamed to and fro, meantime, in a state approaching distraction; his +heavy sighs succeeding each other so thick as to leave no space for +common breathing between. + +'When day breaks I'll send for Green,' he said; 'I wish to make some +legal inquiries of him while I can bestow a thought on those matters, and +while I can act calmly. I have not written my will yet; and how to leave +my property I cannot determine. I wish I could annihilate it from the +face of the earth.' + +'I would not talk so, Mr. Heathcliff,' I interposed. 'Let your will be a +while: you'll be spared to repent of your many injustices yet! I never +expected that your nerves would be disordered: they are, at present, +marvellously so, however; and almost entirely through your own fault. +The way you've passed these three last days might knock up a Titan. Do +take some food, and some repose. You need only look at yourself in a +glass to see how you require both. Your cheeks are hollow, and your eyes +blood-shot, like a person starving with hunger and going blind with loss +of sleep.' + +'It is not my fault that I cannot eat or rest,' he replied. 'I assure +you it is through no settled designs. I'll do both, as soon as I +possibly can. But you might as well bid a man struggling in the water +rest within arms' length of the shore! I must reach it first, and then +I'll rest. Well, never mind Mr. Green: as to repenting of my injustices, +I've done no injustice, and I repent of nothing. I'm too happy; and yet +I'm not happy enough. My soul's bliss kills my body, but does not +satisfy itself.' + +'Happy, master?' I cried. 'Strange happiness! If you would hear me +without being angry, I might offer some advice that would make you +happier.' + +'What is that?' he asked. 'Give it.' + +'You are aware, Mr. Heathcliff,' I said, 'that from the time you were +thirteen years old you have lived a selfish, unchristian life; and +probably hardly had a Bible in your hands during all that period. You +must have forgotten the contents of the book, and you may not have space +to search it now. Could it be hurtful to send for some one--some +minister of any denomination, it does not matter which--to explain it, +and show you how very far you have erred from its precepts; and how unfit +you will be for its heaven, unless a change takes place before you die?' + +'I'm rather obliged than angry, Nelly,' he said, 'for you remind me of +the manner in which I desire to be buried. It is to be carried to the +churchyard in the evening. You and Hareton may, if you please, accompany +me: and mind, particularly, to notice that the sexton obeys my directions +concerning the two coffins! No minister need come; nor need anything be +said over me.--I tell you I have nearly attained _my_ heaven; and that of +others is altogether unvalued and uncoveted by me.' + +'And supposing you persevered in your obstinate fast, and died by that +means, and they refused to bury you in the precincts of the kirk?' I +said, shocked at his godless indifference. 'How would you like it?' + +'They won't do that,' he replied: 'if they did, you must have me removed +secretly; and if you neglect it you shall prove, practically, that the +dead are not annihilated!' + +As soon as he heard the other members of the family stirring he retired +to his den, and I breathed freer. But in the afternoon, while Joseph and +Hareton were at their work, he came into the kitchen again, and, with a +wild look, bid me come and sit in the house: he wanted somebody with him. +I declined; telling him plainly that his strange talk and manner +frightened me, and I had neither the nerve nor the will to be his +companion alone. + +'I believe you think me a fiend,' he said, with his dismal laugh: +'something too horrible to live under a decent roof.' Then turning to +Catherine, who was there, and who drew behind me at his approach, he +added, half sneeringly,--'Will _you_ come, chuck? I'll not hurt you. No! +to you I've made myself worse than the devil. Well, there is _one_ who +won't shrink from my company! By God! she's relentless. Oh, damn it! +It's unutterably too much for flesh and blood to bear--even mine.' + +He solicited the society of no one more. At dusk he went into his +chamber. Through the whole night, and far into the morning, we heard him +groaning and murmuring to himself. Hareton was anxious to enter; but I +bid him fetch Mr. Kenneth, and he should go in and see him. When he +came, and I requested admittance and tried to open the door, I found it +locked; and Heathcliff bid us be damned. He was better, and would be +left alone; so the doctor went away. + +The following evening was very wet: indeed, it poured down till day-dawn; +and, as I took my morning walk round the house, I observed the master's +window swinging open, and the rain driving straight in. He cannot be in +bed, I thought: those showers would drench him through. He must either +be up or out. But I'll make no more ado, I'll go boldly and look.' + +Having succeeded in obtaining entrance with another key, I ran to unclose +the panels, for the chamber was vacant; quickly pushing them aside, I +peeped in. Mr. Heathcliff was there--laid on his back. His eyes met +mine so keen and fierce, I started; and then he seemed to smile. I could +not think him dead: but his face and throat were washed with rain; the +bed-clothes dripped, and he was perfectly still. The lattice, flapping +to and fro, had grazed one hand that rested on the sill; no blood +trickled from the broken skin, and when I put my fingers to it, I could +doubt no more: he was dead and stark! + +I hasped the window; I combed his black long hair from his forehead; I +tried to close his eyes: to extinguish, if possible, that frightful, +life-like gaze of exultation before any one else beheld it. They would +not shut: they seemed to sneer at my attempts; and his parted lips and +sharp white teeth sneered too! Taken with another fit of cowardice, I +cried out for Joseph. Joseph shuffled up and made a noise, but +resolutely refused to meddle with him. + +'Th' divil's harried off his soul,' he cried, 'and he may hev' his +carcass into t' bargin, for aught I care! Ech! what a wicked 'un he +looks, girning at death!' and the old sinner grinned in mockery. I +thought he intended to cut a caper round the bed; but suddenly composing +himself, he fell on his knees, and raised his hands, and returned thanks +that the lawful master and the ancient stock were restored to their +rights. + +I felt stunned by the awful event; and my memory unavoidably recurred to +former times with a sort of oppressive sadness. But poor Hareton, the +most wronged, was the only one who really suffered much. He sat by the +corpse all night, weeping in bitter earnest. He pressed its hand, and +kissed the sarcastic, savage face that every one else shrank from +contemplating; and bemoaned him with that strong grief which springs +naturally from a generous heart, though it be tough as tempered steel. + +Mr. Kenneth was perplexed to pronounce of what disorder the master died. +I concealed the fact of his having swallowed nothing for four days, +fearing it might lead to trouble, and then, I am persuaded, he did not +abstain on purpose: it was the consequence of his strange illness, not +the cause. + +We buried him, to the scandal of the whole neighbourhood, as he wished. +Earnshaw and I, the sexton, and six men to carry the coffin, comprehended +the whole attendance. The six men departed when they had let it down +into the grave: we stayed to see it covered. Hareton, with a streaming +face, dug green sods, and laid them over the brown mould himself: at +present it is as smooth and verdant as its companion mounds--and I hope +its tenant sleeps as soundly. But the country folks, if you ask them, +would swear on the Bible that he _walks_: there are those who speak to +having met him near the church, and on the moor, and even within this +house. Idle tales, you'll say, and so say I. Yet that old man by the +kitchen fire affirms he has seen two on 'em looking out of his chamber +window on every rainy night since his death:--and an odd thing happened +to me about a month ago. I was going to the Grange one evening--a dark +evening, threatening thunder--and, just at the turn of the Heights, I +encountered a little boy with a sheep and two lambs before him; he was +crying terribly; and I supposed the lambs were skittish, and would not be +guided. + +'What is the matter, my little man?' I asked. + +'There's Heathcliff and a woman yonder, under t' nab,' he blubbered, 'un' +I darnut pass 'em.' + +I saw nothing; but neither the sheep nor he would go on so I bid him take +the road lower down. He probably raised the phantoms from thinking, as +he traversed the moors alone, on the nonsense he had heard his parents +and companions repeat. Yet, still, I don't like being out in the dark +now; and I don't like being left by myself in this grim house: I cannot +help it; I shall be glad when they leave it, and shift to the Grange. + +'They are going to the Grange, then?' I said. + +'Yes,' answered Mrs. Dean, 'as soon as they are married, and that will be +on New Year's Day.' + +'And who will live here then?' + +'Why, Joseph will take care of the house, and, perhaps, a lad to keep him +company. They will live in the kitchen, and the rest will be shut up.' + +'For the use of such ghosts as choose to inhabit it?' I observed. + +'No, Mr. Lockwood,' said Nelly, shaking her head. 'I believe the dead +are at peace: but it is not right to speak of them with levity.' + +At that moment the garden gate swung to; the ramblers were returning. + +'_They_ are afraid of nothing,' I grumbled, watching their approach +through the window. 'Together, they would brave Satan and all his +legions.' + +As they stepped on to the door-stones, and halted to take a last look at +the moon--or, more correctly, at each other by her light--I felt +irresistibly impelled to escape them again; and, pressing a remembrance +into the hand of Mrs. Dean, and disregarding her expostulations at my +rudeness, I vanished through the kitchen as they opened the house-door; +and so should have confirmed Joseph in his opinion of his +fellow-servant's gay indiscretions, had he not fortunately recognised me +for a respectable character by the sweet ring of a sovereign at his feet. + +My walk home was lengthened by a diversion in the direction of the kirk. +When beneath its walls, I perceived decay had made progress, even in +seven months: many a window showed black gaps deprived of glass; and +slates jutted off here and there, beyond the right line of the roof, to +be gradually worked off in coming autumn storms. + +I sought, and soon discovered, the three headstones on the slope next the +moor: the middle one grey, and half buried in the heath; Edgar Linton's +only harmonized by the turf and moss creeping up its foot; Heathcliff's +still bare. + +I lingered round them, under that benign sky: watched the moths +fluttering among the heath and harebells, listened to the soft wind +breathing through the grass, and wondered how any one could ever imagine +unquiet slumbers for the sleepers in that quiet earth. \ No newline at end of file