Sadie Frost on depression and her doomed marriage to Jude Law | Daily Mail Online comments 'The force of the love I felt for Jude and his intense ambition made me feel out of control,' said Sadie Frost Sadie Frost has revealed how depression ‘weaved a dance of destruction’ through her adult life, and was one of the primary reasons behind the break-up of her marriage to Jude Law. She writes with candour about her illness and her life with the Hollywood actor in her much-anticipated autobiography, Crazy Days, which The Mail on Sunday begins serialising today in the Review section. Last month, the book was the subject of a legal action from Law, who issued a 100-page writ demanding that all passages relating to their marriage be removed. The actor employed a leading firm of solicitors, Atkins Thomson, to try to prevent publication of details relating to the couple’s turbulent six-year union. Not only did the mention of previous liaisons on both sides cause concern, he is also said to have objected to the inclusion of minor domestic details and photographs of their children. However, the matter was settled last month at the High Court.

Sadie says she was bedevilled by internal conflicts: a ‘battle between the good girl and the bad’ during her chaotic childhood and, later, her experience of ‘paradise syndrome’ – when she ‘had it all’ but felt compelled to ‘destroy whatever was good before someone took it from me’. She details her early romance with Law – they met when he was 19 and she was 25 and a married mother – and the guilt she suffered because of it. She writes: ‘I knew that by even entertaining thoughts of Jude, I was jeopardising an idyllic home life, the most secure relationship I’d ever had. I crushed my unwelcome ideas about Jude, but it wasn’t easy.’ Eventually, Sadie left her husband, Spandau Ballet’s Gary Kemp, and bought a house with Law. Sadie and Jude at the Bafta awards in London in 2000 ‘The force of the love I felt for Jude and his intense ambition made me feel out of control,’ she recalls. She writes of the pressures their careers brought to bear on their relationship, in particular the long periods apart. In 1996 she discovered she was pregnant with their first child.

‘Jude was away a lot, while I was sitting on the sofa, getting fatter and gripped by a nagging sense that I was jeopardising my love,’ she writes. After their baby, Rafferty, was born Sadie says ‘unease’ pulled her down. ‘Eventually I wanted to press the self-destruct button. One night I arranged a babysitter and went out. ‘I partied all night and got home the next day racked with guilt. I was sitting at my dressing table, not feeling anything – just numb. 'I watched my hand slowly pick up a pair of scissors. It was as if I was being sucked down lower into the chair and the scissors seemed to be drawn to my arm. 'I appeared to have cut myself. Blood dripped down my arm. There was no sense of panic within me – I just felt empty.’ She was successfully treated for severe post-natal depression, but it returned after the birth of the couple’s daughter, Iris Tallulah, in October 2000. The end of Frost’s marriage to Law came after a holiday in Thailand. ‘Right away I knew something was wrong,’ she writes. ‘I knew it was over, the way he looked at me.

I was underweight, depressed and scared . . . I asked him if he loved me but he didn’t need to reply – I knew the answer. The moment had arrived and I knew the relationship with the man I loved was over.’ Now, she says, she is happy. ‘I don’t regret the past, nor do I dwell on it,’ explains Sadie. ‘I’ve probably recovered from manic depression, or severe PND, which has weaved such a dance of destruction through my adult life . . . to have come through and out the other end, into the light.’ Sadie tells for the first time of her doomed marriage to dashing film star Jude Law... Happy and healthy: Sadie has finally conquered her demons but it has been a long and tortuous road Sadie Frost was a successful film actress and mother when she met a 19-year-old unknown called Jude Law. Their leading roles in the trendy 'Primrose Hill Set' dominated showbusiness headlines for a decade - until, after three children of their own, their marriage fell apart as their career paths diverged and she fought postnatal depression. Law's subsequent relationship with Sienna Miller ended after an affair with his nanny.

Now Frost has written a compelling account of her extraordinary life - not least the coup de foudre which would rip up her idyllic world... The sallow, blond youth was leaning against a wall in the theatre foyer. 'Sadie, I want you to meet Jude Law,' a friend said. I smiled at this man, who returned a shy smile and offered a hand. I was 25, a married woman with a young child. He was thin and gangly, and couldn't have been more than 19, but something about him made me nervous. I blushed. A week later, I was in a rehearsal room in East London waiting to do a screen test with Jude. Across from me, he sat astride a chair, waiting pensively. The silence between us crackled and I couldn't help but watch him surreptitiously. After the test, as I left the room, I felt a weight pressing on my heart. I tried to cut the weight loose but I couldn't. It was an unshakable and unwelcome premonition - like being confronted with the juicy apple in the Garden of Eden. I felt it was my fate to spend the rest of my life with Jude.

As a child, I used to dream about being a film star. Those ambitions appeared to be possible when, aged 11, I won a scholarship to the Italia Conti Academy in London. It was a welcome change from my chaotic home life. My dad David Vaughan, a painter, left my mother before I started school, but lived in a squat next door to us in North London, often arguing with Mum's new lover, Frosty. Doomed: Sadie left first husband Gary Kemp for a young and then unknown Jude, but both marriages were ultimately doomed to fail My mother would accuse my father of being on drugs, not that I knew what that meant. I later learned that Dad had taken LSD and suffered psychotic episodes for years afterwards, eventually ending up in a psychiatric clinic. There was something inside me that liked danger. There was a battle between the good girl and the bad, influenced by my father. It was as if he were a poison and I could feel him trying to rise up and engulf the tidy, clean part. By my mid-teens, I had rejected the discipline of stage school in favour of a comprehensive, boys, pot, make-up, leather, punk rock, cigarettes, fights and trouble.

When I was 15, my boyfriend's mother suggested I try modelling and soon I started to pick up photographic jobs. My face seemingly fitted the moment. I'd turned from a homely girl to a wild party girl. By the early Eighties, I had a full diary, including two months in Japan and a campaign for 7Up. I met my first husband, Gary Kemp, while appearing in a video for his band Spandau Ballet's song Gold. I lost contact with him until I was 21, when we met again and started dating. Gary was wise and manly, polished and clean. His pristine eyes twinkled and gleamed with a sureness of who he was. I moved into his big Georgian house and we married in 1988. I was happy, but part of me wanted to rebel against this contentment. I convinced myself, however, to suppress my destructive urges. Soon after our son Finlay was born in 1990, I started shooting Bram Stoker's Dracula with Francis Ford Coppola. My childhood dreams were coming true.

My agent urged me to stay in Los Angeles after filming with Coppola, but instead I took a role in a lowbudget British film called Shopping, which would have an unknown actor for the male lead - Jude Law. I'd gone to see him performing in a play before our screen test. Changing faces: Sadie's career has undergone many metamorphoses from model to successful actress to fashion designer and boutique owner Filming began in 1992. Gary was as devoted as ever and I knew that by even entertaining thoughts of Jude, I was jeopardising an idyllic home life, the most secure relationship I'd ever had. I crushed my unwelcome ideas about Jude, but it wasn't easy. I was beginning to prefer this straightforward young man to my intellectual older husband. Still, I tried to reject my dark thoughts, until it became clear that Jude was interested in me, too. A night shoot in which we sat in a car was almost painful, so powerful was the force drawing me to him. He turned to me, his stare intense and hungry. I allowed my gaze to take him in as his almond-shaped, avocado-green eyes thundered their way into my soul. His head was shaved and he was wearing tight black trousers.

Time slowed down inside our bubble and I realised we were destined to be together. 'Cut!' shouted the director, shaking us back to reality. After that we spent all our time together between shots, hanging out in my caravan. Jude would chain-smoke and loaf around with his rangy arms and legs dangling. His easy charm and calm were a breath of fresh air after Gary's controlled power-dressing and artistic leanings. The more I felt for Jude, the more guilt I felt. Much as I tried to fix things with Gary, we started to row. I couldn't be logical about the attraction to Jude. It seemed I was suffering from 'paradise syndrome'. I had it all - a career and a perfect family - but I felt I had to destroy whatever was good before someone took it from me. 'I asked Jude if he still loved me. He didn't need to reply...' I told Gary I needed to separate from him for a while to sort out my feelings. After filming Shopping, I moved out of Gary's house with Fin. There was no fighting: Gary was too grown-up to try to resolve our differences like that and maybe he hoped the separation was temporary. I hoped so, too.

I couldn't get Jude out of my head, so we took a holiday together to Bali. Up to that point nothing physical had happened between us and I was keen we should have separate rooms. Zoe Grace, a friend, came with us. Once we were in Bali, though, the relationship began. Exploring Bali, with its exotic scents and ancient temples, brought Jude and me even closer. We had no choice but to be together, so I made my decision. Zoe and I found a flat to share in Primrose Hill, North London. It wasn't glamorous but I was desperate to keep some stability for Fin. The force of the love I felt for Jude and his intense ambition made me feel out of control. And because I had my own career too, from the beginning we were often apart. I had enough money but I wasn't rich. Still, compared to Jude, who was living hand-to-mouth between acting jobs, I was wealthy. I'd lend him cash for his bus fare or bills. Almost immediately, he got offered a role in Cocteau's play Les Parents Terribles, which - retitled Indiscretions - transferred from the West End to Broadway.

This meant he would be away in America for nine months. I waved him off with immense trepidation. Once he left, I looked for something new, to help me rediscover myself. I found it in music, hanging out with the likes of Pulp, Suede and Elastica. It was exciting, but even early on in the relationship I was looking for a way to burst the bubble and reject Jude before he could take his love away. Face of the eighties: A young Sadie was encouraged to model I nervously waited for Jude to get home after he finished the play in New York. I needn't have worried and we took up where we'd left off. I bought a house in Primrose Hill and Jude moved in. We hung out with the likes of Jonny Lee Miller and Ewan McGregor. Life was settling down and Jude was great with Fin, while things between Gary and I were amicable after our split. In 1996, the year after Gary and I divorced, I discovered I was pregnant with Jude's child. We were thrilled.

Although he was devoted and supportive when he was at home, Jude was away a lot, while I was sitting on the sofa, getting fatter and gripped by a nagging sense that I was jeopardising my love. Rafferty was born in October of that year. I didn't want a nanny because I wanted to be alone with Raff, but unease was pulling me down, making me feel low and lost. Eventually I wanted to press the self-destruct button. One night, I arranged a babysitter for Raff and Fin and went out. I partied all night and got home the next day racked with guilt. I was sitting at my dressing table, not feeling anything - just numb. I watched my hand slowly pick up a pair of scissors. It was if I was being sucked down lower into the chair and the scissors seemed be drawn to my arm. I appeared to have cut myself. Blood dripped down my arm. There was no sense of panic within me - I just felt empty. I was admitted to hospital and diagnosed with severe postnatal depression (PND). They gave me medication and I began to feel like my old self, as if a veil was lifted from my eyes.

With life happy once more, Jude and I decided to marry in 1997. With my capacity for conjuring up the worst-case scenario, I didn't buy a dress because I didn't want to jinx it. Jonny Lee Miller was to be Jude's best man and, a few weeks before the wedding, he came to the house to have a drink. He stuck his head round the door and I saw he had a girl with him, a very beautiful girl I'd never met but recognised all the same. 'Hello,' the girl said. 'I'm Kate.' It was Kate Moss. She sat down at the kitchen table, lit a cigarette and made herself at home. 'You must be so excited to be getting married!' she said with a smile. I knew I'd found a soulmate. After a few hours of wine and food Kate was singing and dancing with abandon. 'What you wearing to the wedding, sweetheart?' she asked. 'Jude was up for lots more roles but I was struggling, still feeling low' 'Oh, er, well, I dunno yet.' 'You what?

Are you mad?' A few days later I was trying on the dress John Galliano had made for Kate's 21st birthday. 'You can borrow it,' she said, smiling. 'It fits you perfectly.' The ceremony was on a barge on the canal in nearby Little Venice decorated with bunting and balloons. I went barefoot and wore no make-up. We took a penthouse suite at the Covent Garden Hotel, where the wedding celebrations continued. Many holidays and parties followed with our North London gang.The constant partying, however, took a toll on my relationship with Jude. The more in demand Jude was professionally, the more of a drama queen I became. As he matured into a man, I started to act more like a child. We were living on a knife edge, but we made it work because of Rafferty. I found out I was pregnant again as Jude was finishing filming Enemy At The Gates in Berlin. He landed another role immediately, in Steven Spielberg's A.I. That meant six months in Hollywood, so we moved to a house overlooking the ocean in Malibu. I settled in with Fin and Raff while Jude started filming. Things were once again perfect.

Seven weeks before my due date we went to a gig with a group of friends, including Kate and my sister Holly, when I started feeling contractions. 'Sadie, I think we need to go the hospital,' Holly said. She and Jude helped me to the waiting limo, with Kate rushing in, determined to be with me at the birth. As we headed towards Santa Monica, Kate spotted a convenience store. Happier times: Mixing with famous friends, for a while, it seemed like Sadie had the perfect life 'Stop!' she shouted to the driver. 'We're going to need supplies.' The limo stopped and the others dived out to buy champagne and cigarettes before rushing on to the hospital. While waiting at the hospital, Jude put some Bob Marley on and sat and ate bananas because he was so nervous, while Holly and Kate paced about the hall. Almost seven hours later, on October 25, 2000, our daughter Iris Tallulah was born. The day she came back to our house in Malibu was Heaven. I sat on the deck in the sun with Iris, watching the dolphins play in the ocean.

In my lifetime I don't think I've felt so complete, surrounded by my three children, husband and friends. Sadly, illness is cruel and that horribly familiar sinking feeling returned - PND was setting in again. This time I'd convinced myself that it wouldn't be a problem. Illness doesn't listen, though. It seduced me into its cold, dark arms. Jude tried to understand, but the more we had to socialise at grand dinner parties in Hollywood, the more I felt my self-esteem slipping away. Soon I admitted defeat and went to see a doctor, who diagnosed PND and put me back on medication. The more I worried about my condition, the more self-obsessed I became and the less attention I gave to Jude. Back in London, we were busy with the children and our careers. Jude was up for lots more roles and I was still feeling low, struggling to hold the relationship together, feeling threatened. I hid my pain by falling back on parties and socialising, but I still felt I was missing something. It was probably a bad idea to get pregnant again, knowing how badly I suffered with PND, but part of me wanted another baby. One sunny morning, Kate Moss called me.

'Sadie, I'm coming round. I think I'm pregnant.' 'I think I am, too,' I said. Together we did pregnancy tests, dancing around the room when we found we were both positive. Luckily, I had Kate to keep me company during the pregnancy. In September 2002, my son Rudy Indiana Otis came into the world weighing less than 6lb. Jude, Kate and her then boyfriend Jefferson Hack, Rhys Ifans and his girlfriend Jess Morris and I celebrated by singing The Specials' song A Message To You, Rudy. Soon after Kate's daughter Lila was born, I took Rafferty to a birthday party in Soho for my friend Pearl Lowe's son Alfie. What happened that afternoon has been well documented in the Press but, for legal reasons and out of respect to my family, I'm not going to dwell on it. What I will say, though, is that my actions that day were those of a responsible parent who did everything she could to protect her child. Illness: Sadie's ongoing battle post-natal depression took its toll on her marriage to Jude he next morning, I was woken by strange noises in the street.

Outside were four or five news vans and an army of photographers on stepladders. Suddenly I was public enemy number one. The criticism cut me wide open - I was barely holding it together anyway. As the days passed, I sat in my kitchen, wearied by the pressure and wondering what was the point. The fallout from the incident meant the PND kicked in even harder and sent me spiralling downwards. One day, I was looking for a list of things I had to pack before flying to Thailand to meet Jude for a family holiday. The bedroom carpet seemed to come towards me. All I could see were the specks of hair and fluff on the floor. I wanted to clear them all up. I scanned my lovely bedroom in the house we had bought and designed but it felt cold and empty. Even the chic wallpaper and dark wood furniture seemed to repel me. The carpet stretched on for miles in all directions. How was I ever going to pick up all the fluff? Elsewhere in the house I heard Rafferty and Iris fighting. The door opened. Zoe came in and sat me on the bed, saying something, but I couldn't hear her. She seemed to be moving her lips but not speaking. 'Sadie!

Listen to me,' I made out. 'You need help.' It was as if a crack had appeared in my shiny facade. Whatever was going wrong between Jude and me, I had put on a united front for family. 'I don't think you have any choice,' Zoe said. 'I think you need to go into a clinic.' 'What, me? I do? Why?' 'Because I think you're having a breakdown.' 'OK, fine. I will. But I just need to get to Thailand and see Jude.' 'But you're exhausted, Sadie. You need to rest and...' I cut her off mid-sentence by throwing a newspaper at her. On the front page was a picture of Jude and a woman sitting close together at a party. 'I need to sort this out with him, Zoe. It's probably c*** but we need to talk and show a united front.' Jude and I flew to Thailand separately. Right away I knew something was wrong. I knew it was over, the way he looked at me. I was underweight, depressed and scared. We got through the holiday, then we had to go to Los Angeles for a meeting with our joint agency. When we got to our hotel room I could bear it no longer.

I asked him if he loved me but he didn't need to reply - I knew the answer. The moment had arrived and I knew the relationship with the man I loved was over. I could not go on feeling this wretched, but, thankfully, my American agent took one look at me and advised me to seek help. Young love: Sadie and Jude on the set of the 1994 filml Shopping, which also starred Sean Pertwee At a clinic, a doctor, a black-haired, hawk-like woman, asked me questions, insisting on calling me Stacey. I didn't like her: all I wanted was space and peace. She recommended I enter treatment straight away. 'No thanks,' I said, getting up from the chair. 'I'll see a doctor when I get home.' I ran out of the clinic down a street. As I hurried, I felt a huge hand wrap around my upper arm from behind. 'Mrs Law, ma'am?' said a massive, uniformed man from the clinic. 'I'm afraid I have to take you back to the clinic.' 'Why?' I asked. He wouldn't let go of my arm.

'Under Californian law, the patient is not legally allowed to terminate an assessment and therefore I am committing you to our care for 28 days,' he said, turning me and leading me back down the street. Panic rose. It was here, the day I'd been dreading. I saw my father standing before me, smiling, as if this was my fate. I was being sectioned, as he had been, and his madness was inside me. All the happiness with my man and my children had been a dream. I'd come straight from childhood to this place. The psychiatric ward was as bad as I'd imagined: plastic sheets on the bed and bars on the windows. It was obvious to me and to the staff that this was not the best place for me. Fortunately, a friend was allowed to take me to his home a week later. Soon Zoe arrived from London to accompany me home. My marriage to Jude Law was over. As soon as I got back to London I checked myself into a clinic to be treated for my depression but I didn't feel able to open the almighty Pandora's box that was my past. All I needed to carry on were my children and my work.

I left the clinic after a week and went back home. I wanted to give my children even more love. I loved the tender moments that we shared - they gave me strength to go on as a single mother. Cover girl: Sadie is a regular on magazine covers Some time later, I was told about a counsellor called Chip, and soon I found the courage to give him a call. I'd been holding all this stuff in for so long that now it felt as if the years of childhood pain and all the times since then that I'd refused to deal with it were bursting to get out of me, leaking from my seams like a bulging bag of rubbish. Chip just listened as I let it all come out and didn't stop crying for an hour-and-a-half. I told him I felt that part of my life was over, the part that contained alcohol and parties. I'd had enough of both and felt that booze had no further role to play in my life. As I left I had an overwhelming feeling of light. Although still engulfed in darkness, I had a sense something new had begun, something about finding out who I really was.

I started to see Chip every week and began to come to terms with my past instead of getting drunk and crying about it. I was never reliant on alcohol or even used it every day; it was more that I couldn't handle it when I did drink - who it made me into. It meant that I couldn't do my life, my career and my children. Without it, I could keep everything in balance. I took up yoga and the gym, and my sessions with Chip made things look much more manageable. In my house today there is music and laughter with my children. Every weekend we amuse ourselves listening to Raff play the drums or Finlay singing songs he has written or Iris practising the piano or Rudy playing the trumpet. My gang of children are my closest friends, growing up into creative people. I know I can trust myself now and walk on solid foundations. I don't regret the past, nor do I dwell on it. I'm just pleased I can trust myself and others can, too. I've probably recovered from manic depression, or severe PND, which has weaved such a dance of destruction through my adult life. I've realised, as a woman and a mother, that depression is not something we like to admit to.

The stigma remains: as a mother you are supposed to cope and not admit defeat. What saved me was being able to ask for help and to accept it. It was the best thing to do because as soon as I did, recovery was swift. To come through and out the other end, into the light, you have to experience pain. Yes, there are moments of loneliness but I now have a routine and rhythm to my life that I didn't have before. Every morning I wake with my four children. We have at least seven cups of tea during the day and at night we have cups of cocoa and cuddles. Glamorous it ain't, but it's real life, and I'm happy. Sadie Frost | Sadie Frost would marry again | Contactmusic.com Sadie Frost would marry again Sadie Frost would marry again Sadie Frost has admitted she would ''love'' to get married again despite her unsuccessful marriages to Jude Law and Gary Kemp . Sadie Frost would ''love'' to get married again.

The 50-year-old actress was married to Spandau Ballet star Gary Kemp from 1988 to 1995 and 'Sherlock Holmes' actor Jude Law from 1997 to 2003 and although neither of those relationships worked out, it hasn't put her off tying the knot again in the future. She said: ''Yeah, definitely. I would. I'd love to. I really believe in relationships. But to tell you the truth I've got a really busy few months where I'm just focused on work and I'm not really...'' The 'Dracula' star - who claims she's ''not really'' seeing anyone at the moment - insists she feels more ''complete'', having recently turned 50, than she ever has before. She explained: ''It's funny that you get to this age that is symbolic, that looks quite old, but I just don't [feel it] ... I can do everything that I did in my 20s - but better. Everything. If you're talking about running up a hill, or writing something that's meaningful, engaging in something. I'm more mindful of other people.

Everything is more complete.'' Sadie - who has son Finlay with Gary as well as sons Rafferty and Rudy and daughter Iris with Jude - also admitted her sex life has improved. She added to the Sunday Telegraph newspaper: ''Yeah of course. I mean I can't complain about that either.'' Contactmusic Sadie Frost: 'Third time lucky’ in love? - Telegraph Celebrity news Sadie Frost: 'Third time lucky’ in love? Sadie Frost, the former wife of Jude Law, says she could marry James Gooding, the ex-boyfriend of Kylie Minogue. Frost, right, was married to Gary Kemp before her six-year union with Law Photo: Andrew Crowley/David Rose By Richard Eden Comments When Sadie Frost was cautioned by police earlier this month for allegedly assaulting her boyfriend, James Gooding, many thought that it would be the end of their relationship. The former wife of Jude Law says she and Gooding could, however, soon walk down the aisle. “I wouldn’t rule out marriage again,” the actress turned businesswoman tells Mandrake .

“It could be third time lucky.” Speaking at the Elle Decoration British Design Awards, Frost insists of her altercation with Gooding: “The press about the fight got blown out of proportion.” Frost, 47, was married to Gary Kemp, the Spandau Ballet guitarist, before her six-year union with Law. Gooding, 37, is a model, who gained notoriety when he gave a “kiss and tell” to a tabloid newspaper after splitting up with Kylie Minogue. Related Articles Sadie Frost - Biography - IMDb Sadie Frost Jump to: Overview (3) | Mini Bio (1) | Spouse (2) | Trivia (20) | Personal Quotes (37) Overview (3) 5' 3½" (1.61 m) Mini Bio (1) Sadie Frost was born on June 19, 1965 in London, England as Sadie Liza Vaughan. She is an actress and producer, known for Bram Stoker's Dracula (1992), Love, Honor and Obey (2000) and Shopping (1994). She was previously married to Jude Law and Gary Kemp .

Spouse (2) Staunch friend and fan of Annie Lennox . Co-owns fashion label FrostFrench Older sister of actresses Holly Davidson and Jade Davidson . Is best friends with supermodel Kate Moss . Children: Finlay Munro Kemp (b. 20 September 1990) with Gary Kemp , Rafferty Law (b. 6 October 1996), Iris Law (b. 25 October 2000), Rudy Indiana Otis Law (b. 10 September 2002) with Jude Law . Her friendship with best friend Kate Moss ended because of Moss' relationship with rock singer Pete Doherty . Kate Moss is the godmother of her daughter Iris Godmother of Kate Moss ' daughter Lila She and Jude Law fought a custody battle for over 2 years Former husband, Gary Kemp , is famous as guitarist and songwriter of the British band, Spandau Ballet . At nineteen she joined the Manchester Royal Exchange Theatre. Her father, David Vaughan, was a psychedelic artist who had done work for The Beatles . She studied acting at the Italia Conti Academy of Theatre Arts. Recovering after undergoing emergency surgery on her hand [July 7, 2009].

Has split from Welsh actor Andy Jones [December 29, 2009]. Ex-sister-in-law of Natasha Law. Ex-daughter-in-law of Peter Law and Maggie Law. Personal Quotes (37) I don't like it when people don't act on their words. I never thought I'd spend all my life with Gary. I suppose I was quite cynical about marriage. But with Jude, I knew right from the beginning: there was an electricity I'd never felt before. It was so easy, we talked for hours. It was a relief, really. I always wear flat shoes, because I can't walk in anything else. I'm a strong woman. It is so important that you don't stay with someone just for the children and for the wrong reasons. By 17, I was modeling and had bought myself a flat. I've always tried to be self-sufficient. At home it's all Batman and Star Wars and they do gang up on me. Sometimes I don't want to dress up as Darth Vader or play train sets, so I'll go out for a drink with the girls. I've never worn fur, either.

I'm a naturally squeamish person, and fur smells like dead animal to me. I really fought to make my character not a stereotype. I play a soap star with dyed blonde hair. I find a lot of young filmmakers make too much of an effort to be trendy and they can be pretentious. I really enjoy making dinner for my kids and my husband - chopping ginger and marinating the tofu. I love babies. I love being pregnant and I loved giving birth. I haven't done an international film for a long time. Having money has given me a certain freedom, but being in the public eye has taken away a lot. From 16 years old, I wanted to have a baby, that's all I wanted. I've never got into debt and I've always been in control of my taxes and VAT, but having four children costs a lot. They are my weakness. I've had four children and I've done a good job and I'm happy in life. I'm the kind of person who'll have a few drinks and fall asleep at 11. I was fiercely independent and ambitious from a very young age. I want to get up at 6 A.M. and go swimming and do 30 lengths.

My father was a painter and an anarchist, always getting in trouble for his performance art. My childhood was colorfully anarchic and punctuated by a lot of change. Just to be remembered is good enough for me. Lots of people are forgotten. If the kids did want to get into showbiz then so be it, but I would never project anything on to my children. If I am in London I like a quick get away to The Olde Bell in Hurley... It's nearby and no stress - great food and beautiful walks. When you love someone so much that you are in pain when you are apart it ends up being destructive. I never want to be in that place again. There are people out there who want me to fail, who want Jude to fail, who want our relationship to fail. My style is scruffy with a touch of androgyny. My parents are from Manchester but I was brought up in London, Camden Town. My kids inspire me to be the person I am today - without them I wouldn't be who I am today.

I was the eldest daughter with these four beautiful younger sisters with ringlets and pretty faces, and I used to dress them up in Victorian clothes and take them out for the day and pretend they were mine. I was a very defiant child, and my father encouraged that. He wanted me to be as wild and creative as possible and didn't believe in disciplining children. I don't allow meat in my house or in my oven. My whole family is vegetarian - and although I've given my kids the choice to order meat at a restaurant when they reach five, they're not interested. When I had my first boy it all started and that male energy seemed to keep me awake but since my daughter, who's incredibly serene, I can't seem to stop sleeping because she's asleep all the time. It's a pattern. I'm always the girl at the party who, within five minutes, has taken my heels off, hitched up my dress in my knickers, and probably spilt drink down my cleavage. I've concentrated for a long time on English films because I've got two kids but my oldest son is 11 and I think I'm going to be away for about four months of year now.

I'm playing a very strong character, it's the story of the woman Polish Jews out of the Warsaw ghetto. I've just begun my weapons training and the SAS type training that's getting me fit. See also Gary Kemp, Sadie Frost And Jude Law Are Close Friends Now Spandau Ballet star Gary Kemp has forgiven his ex-wife Sadie Frost for leaving him for Jude Law and they are now close friends. Gary Kemp, Sadie Frost And Jude Law Are Close Friends Now Last Updated: 2010-01-13T15:17:10+05:30 Gary Kemp, Sadie Frost And Jude Law Are Close Friends Now Sadie Frost Spandau Ballet star Gary Kemp has forgiven his ex-wife Sadie Frost for leaving him for Jude Law - and is now close friends with the man who replaced him in the actress' life. The musician was left heartbroken when his marriage to the Brit ended in 1995. Frost, who met Law on the set of 1994 movie Shopping, walked down the aisle with the Hollywood hunk just two years later (97).

Frost and Law divorced in 2003, but remained close because of their three children together. And Kemp, who has a son with Frost and is now remarried, reveals they are now all close friends, despite their rocky past. He reveals they even go on holiday together. He tells a popular magazine, "A lot of people have asked, 'How can you be friends after that?' But you have to move on in life. Otherwise certain things will burn away inside you. "Sadie has two ex-husbands in myself and Jude, yet (she) is happy to be with us both. Jude has gone on to have other relationships and I'm there with my young wife. Somehow, it works. We have never gone public with a slanging match, so any arguments have been between ourselves. You work through it. It's called being grown up. "So, when we go on holiday we are a close unit. Jude and I are great mates. It's strange how things have worked out." Sadie Frost would marry again FacebookEmail Twitter Google+ LinkedIn Pinterest Sadie Frost would marry again Sadie Frost has admitted she would ''love'' to get married again despite her failed marriages to Jude Law and Gary Kemp.

Post to Facebook Sadie Frost would marry again Sadie Frost has admitted she would ''love'' to get married again despite her failed marriages to Jude Law and Gary Kemp. Check out this story on azcentral.com: CancelSend A link has been sent to your friend's email address. Posted! A link has been posted to your Facebook feed. Join the Conversation To find out more about Facebook commenting please read the Conversation Guidelines and FAQs Sadie Frost would marry again Bang Showbiz 11:49 a.m. MST August 17, 2015 Sadie Frost (Photo: Bang Showbiz) Sadie frost would ''love'' to get married again. The 50-year-old actress was married to Spandau Ballet star Gary Kemp from 1988 to 1995 and 'Sherlock Holmes' actor Jude Law from 1997 to 2003 and although neither of those relationships worked out, it hasn't put her off tying the knot again in the future. She said: ''Yeah, definitely. I would. I'd love to. I really believe in relationships.

But to tell you the truth I've got a really busy few months where I'm just focused on work and I'm not really...'' The 'Dracula' star - who claims she's ''not really'' seeing anyone at the moment - insists she feels more ''complete'', having recently turned 50, than she ever has before. She explained: ''It's funny that you get to this age that is symbolic, that looks quite old, but I just don't [feel it] ... I can do everything that I did in my 20s - but better. Everything. If you're talking about running up a hill, or writing something that's meaningful, engaging in something. I'm more mindful of other people. Everything is more complete.'' Sadie - who has son Finlay with Gary as well as sons Rafferty and Rudy and daughter Iris with Jude - also admitted her sex life has improved. She added to the Sunday Telegraph newspaper: ''Yeah of course. I mean I can't complain about that either.'' Daily Celebrity Watch Posted! A link has been posted to your Facebook feed. Bollywood actress Jacqueline Fernandez (top) attends a Christmas-themed charity event in Mumbai on December 22, 2016.

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Question: Who was married to Spandau Ballet's Gary Kemp and later to Jude Law?
Answer: Sadie Frost