Dear Hilda, thank you so much for your letters. I can imagine how awful you must feel in this weather. It seems the same in Lugano and in Küsnacht. Why do you think you would feel frustrated in the Sonne? We could have a meeting every day, in fact see each other as often as you want. And Sonne does not seem more distant from the Strand than Saipa from Bristol. But I can understand of course XXXXXXXXXXX if you should still feel a little bit afraid that all the complicated conflict-loaden Küsnacht memories could rise again should you come back too early. Although I think we could manage to get through. Well, you will know best when you are ready to come.

Carnaval is almost over. With Belinda and a Greek lady, Penelope, I went to the Künstlermakkenball Saturday. A huge crowd of masks, a big negro band, wild dancing, phantastic drawings on walls and ceilings. We enjoyed it very much and returned 5 am.

XXXXXXXXX Except the cold everything seems allright. Time runs and runs, as always, one does not know how. With the help of Dr. von Schumann, the set up is completely different. Her husband wants her to go back to Germany, she is just now with him (in Düsseldorf) to discuss it. I hope she will overrule him and stay, but one does not know.

In Zurich we have a most overwhelming performance of Wozzek (Büchner - Alban Berg), the opera event since years. I went twice and hope to see it some times more. The music is almost unbearably intense. Has much to do with analysis, in a strange way. He composed it in those exceptional years XXXXXXXXXXX during and after the First War in Vienna. I would very much like you and Bryher to hear it, but I realize the difficulties (external and internal). Anyway, I hope to get some records later and to give you little sections of it.

Please write again. Best wishes and greetings
and love

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Dearest Hilda, thank you very much for your letter. I am so glad you liked the miniatures, I also thought some of them very thrilling, being the starting point for a lot of phantasies and associations. It is a relief that you find the Adam book worth while: I ordered something else, the book we discussed once, about Adam, Eve, Lilith and so forth, by the Marburg professor Ernst Benz. My father was hunting for it but could not get it, so it was he who finally chose the one you received. In the meantime, he has become interested in the subject and sends me his research exceptions, talmud interpretations of the Mose stories, which point to the androgyn nature of man. Not only Adam is supposed to have been androgyn originally before God divided him in two: early Christian sects believed that also Jesus was "mann-weiblich" and as such was called "Adamas". But you probably know much more about the subject.

A very boring thing has happened: Albany informed me that my English professional examination, which is affixxxx requested for the license application, will not take place before the 15th of October. I was determined to fly back the end of September, and now we have another delay. It is embarrassing because people will think, in delaying I try to escape. But what can I do? I hope you are not too disappointed. I wanted so much to be there when the new X ray is taken, and to go out with you, now that you are walking to the Kunststube, and have your glass of wine there. But apparently I am stuck until this "damned" examination is over, only then can the application for the license be sent in. Tell me how you feel about the delay!

In California I met interesting people. Robert Duncan, a poet, came up in a party: "you are from Zurich, do you know HDM?" He was delighted to talk about you, and said when I read his poems (some of them appeared in the last Evergreen Review) I would see how much he is indebted to you (is indebted the rigth word?). He said that he had corresponded with you some years ago, and that he had tried hard to get your Freud book published in America at that time. Also Peter Ostwald and Ann Wilder wanted to know about you. Wilder, a cousin of Thornton's, is an analyst, very tough. She lives in an house on a hill, half in a forest, with a lot of animals: a Mops, a Weimaraner (do you know what those dogs are? I had not seen a Mops for years, when he is excited, he makes peculiar noises, he "schnarchelt", that is a diminutive dialect form of "schnarchen"), then a black Angora Cat with fire eyes, and an orange cat with 3 kittens. The whole crowd came out together when we arrived in the car, and behaved frantically, it was most romantic. Ann said she has read practically everything you published.

I stopped in Chicago for the Art Institute, and again was deligthed with the "Loop ", walking along sunny I believe it is Michigan Boulevard. Again I had the impression that the collection of the more modern paintings (beginning with the impressionists) is unique. My beloved Picasso (les saltimbanques) is not any more there, it was given to Washington DC 5 years ago. They must hage been so mad about this that they not even have picture cards of it any more.

Back in New York, I had to talk about my therapy "technique"
before Melittas group, they say they enjoyed it. Then I met
a psychologist (Rollo May) who is editing the European
"existentialist" therapists, and he wants me to read some of
his chapters and to give him my opinion. - [xerox](xerox) [smoking](smoking) [xerox]
[xerox](xerox) There will be plenty to fill the waiting time, but
the prolongation is not agreeable.

All the best to you, in the meanwhile,