I will write Pup, after I hear
you have!

Monday, January 4

Dearest Fido,

The snow is getting deeper and it is very cold.

This is just to thank you for everything; I can not begin to
enumerate.

It is so beautiful now, outside my
"studio" window- one of the most wonderful winter-scapes I
have known, intimately, in la belle Suisse. There is a new
member of the table-troupe, an air-official, USA, in blue, sits next
me, they call him Captain something; I sit between him and Bear;
said Captain was in London, on air-transport, all WAR II. Last
night, the boys came in, Ivan to say good-bye; he sent you all
sorts of messages. Robert came to tea, we finished the good
cake and had a nice visit. He said he was going in to town, this
morning, will be back to dinner, come again to tea, over at
House, I hope, say good-bye to Bear, etc. Bear seems very
calm and resigned; he rang me last night to tell me of your
telegram to him; I had already tried to get him to tell

him of yours to me; no need to send two, you can send to Bear,
next time, very extravagant, but thank you. Father Brunner is due
back, to-day, I believe. I am so glad you got away, as I began
to fall after lunch, or toward three, I was deep in the
Hartley and was astonished, as it grew darker to see a real
blizzard effect; I thought Robert would not come, but he did.

Thank you for all books, left here. I will take great care of
them. Ivan returned the mag, then I gave it back to H, as he
wanted to read it; I will keep on eye for it, later.

Robert said they did not want cards at the old place, a notice
in one of papers, but I will sort them out, perhaps send some to
Petzolozzi-dorf. I gave the little tray-garden to the maid,
perhaps I will do up some of the cards, as for her, too. Please
greet all and sundry. Dear, dear Fido. Both of the "boys" spoke
of you with great admiration and sent messages.

January 7

Fido dear,

I enclose from Mr. Baylis, as you may like to see the tax-return; I have written him. I can never thank you and can not now, begin to try, though I am never un-conscious of all you have done and all you do for Perdita and me. I can only hope and pray that your Valentine and Nicholas may be a delight to you.

That comforts me. I went in yesterday; I went to Heimwerk and left my ebony-beads and got Robert some of the flower-cards. I save the first you sent me and the rest of the 8 cards together; I do not break that set, it is as from you. I got myself another set, however, as people love to have the flowers.

I then went to the post and got off the Dorf cards; I gave some more to the maid and now have just some of the specials that I saved from yours and mine. I got my Bethlehem candles, late, so have put them away, too. I have the calendar propped on my window-sill, we are already one half a card (half a half-month) though; I will turn the pictures, but keep them as a little Minnesinger book. It is exquisite and will sustain me through the year. Even it may send me back to my Helen.

I will see Bear, later.

Heydt says that he acts up to you; he said that they had spoken to Bear about it and told him that he had no business to distress you, after all that you had done and are doing for him. They are very kind really, and think as much of your state of health and your reactions as of him. For some reason, he is reasonable when with me. He did tell me a lot about drugs he got in Vaud. I don't know what. But that is a thing that no one could have checked-up on. Heydt said, you remember, that is was the drugs that had chiefly worried him.

I do not know what I would do without those boots. It was slushy and slippery, both, in Zuri yesterday; it was melting and it was freezing and snowing altogether. I was so emu with Caesar, that

I started back the wrong way; then ran as for **Parade** and did
get an **elf** that brought me to station in time for the
5.15. But I missed end of the show; but I never did like it so
much, after the big speeches. I thought it was amazing.

I do hope you will go. I did not like the Caesar but Guilgood was
so good and the young Antony.

Father B is back; he send messages. He said he had meals
**al fresco**, without an overcoat.

So much love, dear Fido. Thank you for letters. Please don't worry
to write. I will get news from Bear. But of course, I love to hear.
Give love, please, to Robert and Doris, in particular.

January 10

Fido dear ;

Snow is deeper, very cold; I am sitting in two jackets and a
shawl. I saw Bear after tea; he wants news of little things
and of course, we talk of you and discuss your plans; I did not take
over my last letter because you spoke of Doris, my best love to
her and let me know of anything I can do. Bear wanted to see
his bills, I have the one but won't take it over. He says they are
making too much of this X-ray; he keeps on talking about his
"coin" and his "treasure chest." I am curious to know what it is
about; or a joke ? No letters much in, lately. I will write
to Pup soon. I really can hardly manage this script, but want to
get a letter to you, after so many cards.

Let me know if you will come here again ? Why not ? If snow
continues, it will be so difficult coming and going in and
out, from Küssnacht to Zürich.

I can't think of any books, but thank you. I will let you know at
once, if I do remember something. I am so happy with this great
heap of Xmas volumes. So glad your party was a success.
Thank you for beautiful Rome card, I will keep with my
little collection- and thank you for letters also enclosed.
You do keep me up on things ; remember me in writing, to those
who ask of me.

I had a set of those birds from
Hildegarde; I wonder if the Scarlatti could do with some of
them ? They kept thanking me for something that they use with their
patients- perhaps several of the flower-cards ? I wish I knew, could
send them an extra pack of those, if indicated. I always bless you
for finding them.

I do hope that you will not be too upset by all the
innoculations. O- Fido- I forgive this short, "cold" letter. Please
give my love and greetings.

To Fido - love always

January 12, Tuesday

Fido dear,
I was so glad to hear you this morning; but you sounded a little
hoarse, though your voice was so near and clear. I have
just seen Father B; he understands and says that he will be
glad to have Bear, of course, provided things work out, as we
would like; always of course, some proviso, but as far as
klinik is concerned, all will be in order. He also says that if
you care to stay here, they will always be glad to have you, he did
not seem to think that your staying would unsettle Bear. But all
this is to be arranged when and how you like. Bear
has gone in to Zuri to-day, to have the X-ray established, as to
the mysterious "coin"; it seems that actually, there is a "coin"
stuck in his lungs. When and how it was swallowed is a mystery.
Eventually, no doubt, it will have to be removed; Bear jokes
about this. I will let you know the verdict. Poor Heydy slipped,
indoors it seems, oddly enough, and went in with Bear to see about
his sprained leg or ankle.
It is cold and rather grim,
as snow seems to be melting, but this makes for a dank, foggy
atmosphere, worse, I think, that the actual, rather bracing dry
falling snow. It is dark, too. A book arrived for me,
Santayana— did you send it? My very special thanks, if you
did. A box, as from Switzerland comes for you. Shall I open it and
report. A little letter from Islay, saying what you already
know, as to snow etc., and a line from K, saying they have to
take the car to Nice and that it is bitter cold there, now. I will
keep for you, or send when answered. Nothing else in. I am reading
the Milton in the Foets. Looking up dates and making lists, it is
all exciting; I never had TIME for these things, don't think I shall
use these notes, but they might come in, as for readings. "

Thank you for letters, I couldn't take to Bear, as about Doris etc.;
he shares with me, I told him my notes said almost the same things,
about pricks and the fire alarums. I am sure there is
much more to say, but am taking this to the box, and will let you know

later, more about Ursus.
I do not need to
assure you that he is well looked after; he buys lady-fingers
and chocs at the little corner-shop, goes walks with Eydt or
the attendant. We talk much of you, of course.
Greet all there and do, do look after yourself.

Much, much love

CAT

January 15

Darling Fido,
Forgive me for sending just cards.
I have been trying to
type end of <u>Leuke</u> section.
Thank you for all letters and
old letters; <u>Listener</u> came, too.
Mrs. G was very grateful
for the stack of Xmas mags.
Alas, I am being
re-roped in for reading, German, Greek trans. What
next? I have had several rewarding and disturbing "sittin's"
with H; he says poor Bear has the psychology of the addict. It
appears he has been getting cigarettes for me, all very touching but
on the plea of that, he has been hoarding extra Boyers. This
upsets H, as Bear had good ration. Now, there is going to be
a row and Bear will be furious. H says now, the next
step is "his first drink" and that is going to be terribly
difficult. That, however, is yet to come, but H predicts it, on
strength of the very sly way Bear got the nurse or
attendant to let him get more cigarettes as for Mrs. A.
Bear was very shocked by the acute danger that the operation
implied. That came off, in a miraculous manner; I wrote you.
Bear was most impressed with the doctor and the whole Zuri
University <u>klinik</u> set up. If the coin had stayed a bit
longer, it would have meant abscess and prob. the end. Bear
knows this and is grateful. Why, why, why, can he not be "good",
when everyone is trying so hard. H says it is simply addict
psychology. There is nothing you can do. I go over as a rule,
twice a day and really enjoy sitting there, just Darby and Joan,
talking over the past and you and Pup and the children there and
the cats there and the cats here, and Melitta writes; he shares
letters with me but I have had to be careful of late, as you
wrote of Doris and the trip. Some new people, H takes
them to the Horn to feed the birds. He is much interested in the
book that K sent, on Uncle N and we talk of all that.
Will you

share news with Robert and thank him for his good letters and
messages to H for good-bye; Robert had not seen him at the last.

I will hope to write Robert. I was so very anxious about the
Poets, as I ordered well before Dec. 7th, H birthday, so I wrote Norman.
Actually, he had FORGOTTEN the order. This is pretty unk-ful. But
now, he says he has ordered them, as through London. I have been
reading Milton, filling in gaps. Have written very few letters. I
must catch up again. I hear from Margaret Pratt's son that his
father was having this operation. I must really write. And please
convey to Doris all my best thoughts- and let me know if there is
anything I can do. I mentioned it in a general way, to H.
It is cold and dark and now raining.

I will post this and let you know, of course, of any special
developements. Greet all who ask of me.

I have not sent on letters as I know how crowded your days are,
but will keep interesting ones for you.

Stay there, as long as you are happy. Things are really very
pleasant and Bear is sociable at lunch-time. It is all most
tragic- but at least, he has been pulled out of acute
physical danger. Please again, tell Robert. He was so deeply
sympathetic, helpful and understanding.

How is Fabula?

Do take care of yourself and get away and forget everything!

Jan. 19

Fido dear,

I enclose from Mr. Baylis, I have written and returned the form. It brings back all the 1943 atmospheres, as I wrote him. And how deeply touched am, as always, at your thought for everyone. Yes- I could weep! It is funny but now your letters come at lunch-time and Bear asks to see them or seems hurt if I do not hand them over. Please do NOT cramp your style and write to me, as for him, however. I could let him see one letter but I tell him you write very "confidently" of Doris, I just outlined all that situation, but told him you had asked me NOT to speak of it. So that covers the other things, about trip and so on. And anyway, why should he see everything you write me, particularly, as comments on him can not be handed over. It has all been so odd- really uncanny. I mean, all that latest "inhabited" coin and the miraculous, really miraculous operation. Heydt thanks you for books to come. I gave him your message. We had a lovely day, beautiful sun and H got the car, just to taxi us up the hill to some woods; he says Bear has such trouble up-hill. Then we left Bear in the sun as he wouldn't explore the woods, we were only about ten minutes , locating a gorge while H says, is a famous walk, but now it is too dark and damp. Then, we all came down in the sun, quite lovely, about an hour. Bear wanted some cakes and choc, but H insisted on going with him. H says they have cigarettes in this bun-shop and is it vis-a-vis the Kunststube. It is a pity we must have this farce or always watching.

Bear could be so happy and free if he could be trusted. I love all you write but please do not tire yourself. I have no special news in.

I am trying to get a hair-cut, to-day or to-morrow and the first free day, I want to go in to Z. The last time was almost two weeks ago, for Caesar.

Jan. 22, Friday.

Fido dear,
Elsie sent on a bundle, mostly magazines. I have written her
not to send and if anything special arrives and I am in doubt, I will
get in touch with her; best leave official directions with her, as to
addresses, though of course, I will want to know where you are likely
to be.

cards
There are 12 return from CARE, I donot list the names; you will
know by now, that boxes were received.

I hesitate about this set of papers, see enclosed note. They are
in German and evidently the year's data. But I will look out an
envelope and prob post on, from the post-office. Anyway, there
are catalogues and so on that I am sure you do not want
there.

I have not as yet told Bear about the change of plan, but do not let
anything upset you. It will be wonderful to see you, on your return and
I will hold that over him and try to go on reading some
German every day, with him. It is dark and rainy. I went to a
not very good film yesterday but enjoyed it. I went into the
Heimwerk, especially to get you a little wooden touch-wood
mascot- but there was nothing small and flat enough. And Fido,
I will be touching wood for you, all the time. Consider your mascot
my strings of beads, the rose and ebony beads that I got to
replace the ones you brought me to London and that I wore and wore, on
my writes. These are new, and whenever I feel the least cut-off
from you all( though I will not, and do not), I will rattle my dear
rose-wood beads, Bryher-rose beads. Now, please realize that I have
been trying and trying to find you a little au-repoir gift, the one
flat paper-book that I went to yesterday, was out of print. I will
be thinking of you, all the time and paper-books can wait.

Please realize that Doctor Father wants you HERE, on your return.
You must think of this as a home-from-nome, and ready and waiting

Sat. Jan. 25.

Fido dear,

I enclose from Viola, as it is chiefly about your kindness
and generosity. Please Fido, do not QUOTE Heydt as
He, Heydt has a positive phobia lest I talk.
saying anything definitive about Bear. What I say to you,
is simply private conversations and he might modify any statement,
at any time, and has. I know of course, that you are
really concerned and I like you to feel in, on our talks, so
I write you sometimes or a chance remark that when returned
looms up in my UNK, as I am always being told that this and this is
confidential, "you won't speak of it." But I must
give you hints as to how things are. Now, I reared a great
scene with Bear about your not coming here, but he was very good;
I told him that if you didn't come in early spring, then
we would go to you, M. and the Mount. In fact, I
restated him by saying how upset I was. I did not tell
him you had rung me up, days ago. Heydt took Bear on tiny
trip to a little lake and they walked back. I did not go as there
was the evening reading. I felt too, that Bear was
happier alone with H on these trips, as they talk shop and in
German. But I will go with them occasionally. The
reading was the whole of the Alkestis, of Hugo von H.; I
think we are to do French next time. There seems no escape for me.
I had a nice little note from May B., saying the old days
were her happiest for many years, saying how very happy she was
to see you, saying that A seemed to have lost touch with his gift,
since marriage, or words to that effect. There is much, much to
say, Fido. But you will understand that I am grateful for all past
letters, glad always for news, but don't take precious time to
write. Just forget and enjoy yourself.

No, you can not have full responsibility with Bear but something
will arrange itself, and I keep in touch, as you know with Father B
and the others, and will write you, freely, in "confidence" as I
say. Terribly, terribly sorry about Doris, all my love

to Her. I can't say more, Fido, but bless you, bless you, bless you.

I will try to go on with German with Bear, ordered some
paper Rilke for this. Please, please greet the

bays; I have been trying to write. I love the
Urzidel card, I hope you saw it was our Avon.

A thousand bon-voyage gruss and love

CAT.

The pies are in a tin-box and though some broken, they
look fresh and good. I will sample and prob finish the lot,
beautiful rich fruit and shortbread -like crust.

But there is not tea ... and no room for packet, must have
been separate and gone astray.

Jan. 25

Fido dear,

Enclosed came, nothing else but Ramuz advt. folder.

Thank you for letter and all news. There is little here to report; I see Bear; he is depressed but we talk of the little family in States, and of you and your plans.

I go on reading the various anthologies- and I do bless and thank you, as for books you mention, to come. I do need a good wailow, now and again. Please give all greetings to the two; I have been involved with Heydt in long arguments about _South Wind_; it is funny and stimulating. He thanks you again and bewails not having written you at once. It is cold, VERY, with slight drift of powder-snow.

Jan. 26

Was taxied up with Bear, to a little lake; it was lovely, frozen, and children, children skating, some little girls doing Degas ice-dancing; Bear seemed to enjoy it, but when I began to "dance" and lured H onto the ice, Bear immediately made for a little hutch where "punch" was; it would have been mad run to have sat down at a hut-table in that cold and had "punch" but H was after him and Bear said blandly, "I came in for some matches."

I am amazed, with rheumatics in me, feet, modome, that I have scittered around like this. H asked me afterwards for the address, as he wanted to send week-report to you. Now, it is knowing again, it was bitter cold but no snow after lunch, yesterday.

I enclose two letters. You know how our thoughts are with you. I had some more mags from Elsie, nothing else in. There are FIVE men in the hall, scraping off old paint and what-not. I long for news of Rome and Anticoli. Beg the boys to send me a line but don't take your own precious time off, you must rest and forget all this. I am so happy but O the cold- and the terrible evenings looming, now this Fri., we are to do Phaedre- Racine. No one

believes me but I saw Bernhardt - her famous part. She
was pretty old ( Philadelphia) but wonderful and graceful with
Greek veils ... please tell the boys , one of my claims to
fame and history.

I can never thank you enough for the Reader's Encyc., for getting it
for me, how well I remember, in that tiny room in the Croce ,
summer 1949, the year before Pup was married- and I bless you for
having sent it over to me, dear, dear Fido. I can't remember how it
came, or if you brought it. I have been brushing up notes on the
old "Courts of Love", etc., in preparation for my
new books to come - also had a wack at Racine, of whom and of
Corn., I am really very ignorant.

Dear, dear Fido. I will keep you in my mind and heart. And just GO -
and just COME BACK

Bear sends messages, you know- he is so busy grumbling; he
banked on your coming and taking him out or demanding that
he is let loose to prowl, on his own. Of course, he is well
after and at time, very affable and companionable ...

2.

must be done; Heydt said, " what ? " Well, we will.
talk that over. I go to tea to-morrow at his flat; I have been
there a good deal but felt today, I wanted to get my breath and
see Miss Holder, for a change, the only real ENGLISH speaking
person here. I get home-sick for real ENGLISH sometimes.
By the way, my brother in Panama, met the QUEEN- did you ever ? I
feel quite put out but pleased, too. Dorothy says she will send us
a picture, newspaper, I suppose, some 50 or more there were asked
to this reception - well! I am annoyed with John Schaf.; I wrote to
and rather painfully, with tact, that we must NOT arrange for the
children and P, this summer. He sends me some pictures and gala
account of all their social doings, but says nothing as to change
or plans; he is probably lying-low and still wants to keep to his
plans. I can not COPE with this future, with every day, two
visits to Bear or/and a long walk. Now, remember, I am enjoying
this but of course, it can't go on forever and Bear can be very
sarcastic at times. I had some charming pictures of the N.Y. family;
I keep all letters etc. till you return. Now, stay as long as you can.
Heydt is wonderful and the Brunners are kind, and we will map out
something, in time. I take books and papers over but of course, Bear
sniffs at them all. He does listen to his radio a lot. I can not
thank you for all the books, I have wallowed, wallowed in the
White Gods and Grail, and some of the Xmas books- and what a
tour-de-force is the Victorian chaise-longue; I gulped it down, it
is so well done and hair-raising. Who gave it to you- or did you just
sniff it ? I wrote Doris, Miss Butler, Ashby etc., gave last two the
address. Now, do not worry to write. Get the boys to send bawdy cards.
My love to them. Ever and ever devotedly CA T.

I think of you ALL the time.
But FORGET all this!

Feb. 4

Letter II

Fido dear,

Thank you for the telegram; it came yesterday at lunch and caused intense excitement, all round the table. I put your letter to Madame Eller in envelope and asked Miss R at the office to send it on.

Thank you for the p.c. and the letters from Anticoli and Rome, thank K too, please for his last minute line; don't any of you, bother to write, but occasional cards. There is no news here. Almost everyone has 'flu or grippe, as we always called it. They have been giving extra vitamins, he grumbles but seems to like the extra attention.

I avoid as much as possible, reference to the future.

It is sad beyond words for Bear refuses to admit there is anything out of the way, talks constantly of "prison", demanded his release etc., pretended to be shocked when told he must wait your return- but then WHAT ? You must not worry at all, it is simply here, a metter of patience and tack. Hey at

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tickets for a show on Mon. night in Z., he asked me but
it is too much; a French company, he was surprised that Iear
accepted and seems happy at the thought of the spree.

We have had no walks, H was in bed all day yesterday and it is too
dangerously cold. But I go over as usual, twice as a rule;

Dear is affable and friendly at lunch; after tea, his room
is a hot-house and we have a nice "hour", only I am always
on edge lest he go on about "prison". But I see H again
after tea at tea and we will talk about plans. I am sure
SOMETHING will work out; we have several new people and a
man or youth from Glover, a Lord someone, it was whispered, but I

think that is the usual romance. I can never tell you what the
books have meant; I take notes on the Goddess and Grail legends.

I have finished the Leuke and if I manage a third section, it
will be what Norman asked for. It is fun writing this, and keeps me'
'and in, Modome. I long for your Paki book with the photos

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by the boys. Give them my love. I am very, very happy for
you all. Robert wrote he was frozen out in London. I had
nothing in, at all, to-day; mags drift through, thank you
for all. I repeat, I am amazed that John Shaff made no
reference to Bear and our trouble, nor to your trip to P, nor
to my writing of change of summer plans. Bear read letter and
said, "he is absorbed in his own life," lots of parties etc., I am
glad of course, for them and for Pup, but after all, we HAVE
had a hard time here. Fido, forgive this banal letter. It is
just to give lateste reports, but as thighs are as they were, there
is little to say on the subject. Only, keep well and we will
muddle through, somehow. Miss Holder says Zuri is
an ice-trap. I have not been in now, EX for two weeks. I am
VERY well and happy. A thousand and one blessings, dear Fido,

Feb. II.

Letter IV

Fido dear,

Another letter in, this morning, all so intensely interesting.

I have been exchanging with Bear, as it is general news; I am
of course, careful not to show him personal remarks. He had
after-effects of his grippe; I was not going to write byt was
told they sent you report. Now, Bear is better; we were very
upset but. Dr. Heydt said , it was strange, as his psychic
state grew better, he got worse physically. This is ver-y
interesting and both H and I note little signs or
mental or psychic improvement; Bear wans't to get to Zürich now,
even to films; this must wait. But he has had in this young man to
help w'th a radio and seems to enjoy it. He refused at first to
make any effort.

I do my best , in short visits,

now to carry on the uplift. Bear seems to remember more, H
says, and has admited to certain"symptoms" to Heydt. When Bear
talks of prison and wanting to be moved,

3.

Now, more books come; I am reading the Sansom, it is
very good and gets one off on a cruise and exotic Spain.

This morning, the Sitwell book comes, and one on Richard III; I do
thank you and am so very touched at your thinking of me; I have a
heap of these new books and the Xmas lot is still only
nail-read. Do take a lot of notes, but don't tire yourself
with letters now, to us, as we know you are happy. I wrote
Elsie again and to thank her for sending on your copy of the
Sansom, papers and so on.

The trip really has
been and will continue to be a success, I hope and
pray. My "news" is in the books I am reading and Bear
visits, so forgive this dull letter.
I think this may be
my last to you there, at Karachi. I have enjoyed it all
with you, and with the two- give them my love and tell them
both how excited I am at the prospect of the pictures and notes.

2.

I say, "wait till Bryher comes and we can talk this over."
Then he says, " well, if I go to Lausanne clinique, I don't know
the doctors there." He seems to realize at last, how ill
he has been and after one dreadful visit, on Sunday and
suicide-talk, I have kept him off that and see him for short
visits. Heydt has lunch with him upstairs. Do not worry if you
get this report as from the Brunners, as Hrang me last night,
to say Bear was better, and they were very surprised and pleased.
This is all very dull, but I feel that I am here in this
capacity; I have been happy but the cold was frightful and Bear
so very bitter and destructive, at one time. But, as I say,
there seems to be this change, and I do enjoy him when he is
his old self. I want you to squeeze the last drop of joy
from your trip and stay as long as you can. I had a letter
from E.M. Butler, from Ceylon; she is wild, wild about it.

Feb. 23

Letter V

Dearest Fido,

Two letters from you and one from K; will you please thank him.
I have enjoyed all news and shared most of it with Bear.
Father Brunner also heard from you and says he is writing.
He read out part of letter, re your decision not to have Bear
back in Vaud.

I have talked much with him and Heydt, both see
the difficulty and want the best for you. About Bear ? I
don't know what the solution will be. Do not let it worry you. He has
been countering the days, the hours for you to come and take him
"out of prison". I have tried to get it over tactfully that maybe,
you would have plans of your own and that he might make some
alternative plans.

But I will try to keep on the surface till you
worry
do get settled in, again. Do not let it worry you, in any case. We have
talked over everything, the possibility of some student-companion etc.
"they say Bear wouldn't be "controlled", in any way, by this sort of
comparisons and once out, he would be as usual.

I only want you
to feel that you must not worry, that something will transpire, some
providence ... I know it will work out. I am all rightnow, but
was much worried at one time as his heart was really very, very bad and
I did not want them to write you. That is better. As Heydt says, when he
is physically ill, he is better psychically and visa-versa or
contrarywise.

I am so happy with my books and am deep in
Elizabethans again.

The sun is out, it seems almost spring. I have
a wonderful bundle of your letters, in case you want them for
your notes.

This is just a short letter of greeting and
welcome-home. I am so glad about it all. Much love to I and K.
I have revelled in it all, or wallowed. But I am just as glad to
have been here. And ALL IS WELL. Do not hurry across here. Come
only when you are ready. Bear said if I was writing, would I
send love. He might have written you himself, and I took him air
envelopes etc. and thought he would write. He was difficult sometimes,
but I am glad I was here and he is better, much better and I just ke