Nov. 4

E1963J

Darling Fido,

I had such fun walking back and getting to the book-shop. I must
take you there. Fido, I am SHOCKED, I gave our Erich a rough
sketch of his star -map that Silvia d'or me; Fido, he asks me for
a write-up of this to take into BOSS. I was writing this (imagine)
when Father B comes in for his little morning visit. FIDO!!!!

I spoke to him of your ideas of moving, sometime. Fido- he
said he had two friends with houses in Kusnacht who would be glad
to sell or let- and moreover, he expects to get rid of the
(in August)
family/ who live in the house NEXT DOOR, where Dr. Rudolph used
to be, before he moved to Zuri. Father B says that you could have
that House. Well, I am simply dithering. I told him that you were, of
course, very uncertain as you might have to make arrangements to sell
before moving etc. etc. etc. But that I would tell you of his
interest and proffered help.

I can not tell you what it meant to see you. By the way,
re Robert's letter, I said that you and Elsie had been angels packing
for me, but that no one could choose finally, everything and that I
wanted to go back to Kenwin to pick over clothes, MSS and so on.
I can never thank you for that move OUT of Lausanne, as much as
I treasure old memories. I had a card from the boys, speaking of
floods and flu, I must write them.

I am rushing to the post to get this to you. Whatever you do, God
be with you, darling, darling Fido.

Please give love and messages, where indicated.

Bless you and thanks and thanks

Did you have two duck cards sent me? I have two, as for Xmas
cards. I must write them, if you had no hand in this. But ducks
are wonderful ... O Fido, Fido!

November 7, Saturday

Darling Fido,

I am thinking of you and Doris to-day, please give her love
and messages and all blessings, as I feel that I see it all fresh
through her eyes.

I went in to Z and saw "The Man
Between", yesterday, a grim film of Berlin, east and West, it
brought back so much; then, I had coffee in a little place, near
Stadel and came home in the dusk, with lights from windows, all, as
you say, very fairy-tale world, and I am so happy here and reading
away, like mad, at the Anthologies. Will you tell Norman again, what
his selections mean to me ? Please give them all my greetings,xx
there.

Father B asks of you and wants news of your
trip. Don't worry to write much, I had two letters from London, with
enclosed letters which I will keep for you, later. It is
cold and raw but I have the extra electric-fire in my room and
am (though lazy) rushing ahead with this poetry. I seem

TIME for it, at last.

Dr. H comes in for his

"reading", it is so odd to have to EXPLAIN Claribel, all
references and rhyme irregularities, It is really almost too
stimulating. I don't know how to thank you for everything. I am
so in-love with Zurich, due to our little visits there, and
the memories that come back. Please give my very
dear love to Gregories and Marianne, if you see them.

Again, again, thank you- Fido. Or course, I wouldnot mention
to Bear, where you are. I have not written, nor heard- maybe, a
card later.

I am rushing this out now, to the P.O., to
welcome you THERE and to hope to welcome you HERE again ,
soon.

Juniere am

C.A.T.

November 10

Dearest Fido,

Thank you for Nicholas cable and for two letters, thank
Doris for her little note. I am so very happy that she is with you.
Give her all love and news, such as it is. It is raw and cold but
I am deep, DEEP in the Freud volume which arrived yesterday.

I cannot thank you, I am so happy, re-living my days in
Vienna. I always liked E. Jones' work on the Professor.
It is astonishing- and all the Fleiss material is most
illuminating.

I am so happy to think of your
return. I could come over and even have supper with you, if you
give me, later, some idea of your possible time of arrival.

In any case, there will be, I hope, a nice time for visiting on the
Thursday, 19th. Please give all messages again to Pup. I
will know more of plans, on your return. No news, this end,
from Bear. Thank you for more papers. I am so deep

in Freud,

that I have only given them the once-over. Dr. Heydt wants me to take the big room, on this floor, but I am not sure as it has a huge balcony-room, lovely, but maybe too exposed now, to wind. But I will see. He actually asked me to his room on Sunday and made me tea. I don't know if this is strictly "correct", in the house-rules, but it was lovely, all most discreet.

He has bed-room and living-room, with balcony, I think I showed you, above the office-building. He now speaks of uncertainty, re return to Germany, next October. Perhaps we will all settle here or near Zurich, in time. I can see Bear there. I thanked rather B for you, but said you did not want a house and anyhow, wouldn't be moving for some time. But it is good to think about.

Bless you again and again for all books and especially this last.

I would like to discuss it with Bear. I am beginning my Xmas list, such fun. Please give Norman every kind of greeting.

Sat. Nov. 14

Dearest Fido,

I guess this will be about my last letter. I will hope to hear,
can come in the Wed. 18th, if I have idea of where to come and
at what time. Or if that is too uncertain, I will come in, as before
on the Thurs., 19th, on that train, 10. 16. If you are not at
the news-stand , as before, I will come to hotel. And if we miss,
we will meet at hotel, as arranged last time. I am wild to see you. I
spoke of supper with you on the Wed., it might be a little
difficult; I have to arrange to get a key etc.; or even if it would
amuse you, you could come here for dinner. Please remind me to
talk to room here; they want an extra live francs for the big
room; I do not know if it is worth it. However, there are other
advantages and/or disadvantages. I told Dr. B and Dr. H that I
hoped to join you and some other friends at Lugano for Xmas. I have
begun already to address envelopes, as for future cards- all this is so

such fun. I got roped in at last, for the "reading" over at the
House; Dr H got Midsummer Night at my suggestion and said I
couldn't let them down. This was remarkable run, and the Sh. came
up fresh and really more living as read by a German (Theseus),
a Congo-Belgian (Hermia), myself in the long Egeus speech
(American), a wonderful short part by an Italian Swiss,
Demetrius. Hippolyta by the manageress, Zuri. I can not tell
you what elan they put into it, no inhibition and racing along with the
metres, in most astonishing style- a tribute to Mr. W.S.,
somehow, that they got it, to that extent, not really understanding
half, I don't suppose.
And we laughed and laughed, a real
Midsummer ... I wish you could stay to next week? O, how, how
I would love it. Thank you for five letter, re family and so on.
Please give them all my love, all of them, all of my love. I will
hope to write. I have just had letter from Norman, saying he was waiting
for you. Dear, dear Fido, thank you and thank you. I long to

hear of plans- and tell Pup what fun I am having. Can you
or anyone believe it ????�?? I so dreaded the
_Dream_ , and I have never laughed so much- I thought I would be
ill, laughing when I got back. I do wish Robert could join us -
and how _you_ would laugh.

I may write again, but this does as for the rendez-vous. Please
give Doris so much love- and of course, to all old friends who
may want news.

Thank you for lovely Nicholas cable, again.

And bless them all- and God Bless Fido.

Saw _Crim Blanche_ - beautiful ... AND an amazing loan
exhibition of Dutch school - walked miles!

Tuesday, Nov. 17

Fido dear,

Thank you for cable and two letters. I have already written to Augustiner, but am taking your letter to, office now, and will get them to telephone, as well. I will leave final arrangement for the moment, but could come in to lunch. Or it might be better for you to rest a bit, and I could come in on the two train or even the one-thirty and come direct to Augustinerhof.

I can send a p.c. there or write you again. It is all so exciting and after first disappointment, I am glad that you stayed the few extra days. I had card from Bear, saying they would be Kenwin on 17th. I will later, send back some of the mags and papers. Thank you infinitely for the SHIP book and the Georges Sand. Both look enchanting. Now

Fido: I am staggered by Fabula. It came yesterday and I have gulped it, in two sittings. I will keep here or send, later.

You take me back to Ceresio-
and I admire infinitely
your description of the arena, a most difficult theme; they are
usually too crowded with detail-
these descriptions - you
have "staged" it perfectly -
and the market scenes and the
usual threat from the border, all
, as in _October_,
perfect
past as applied to present
- or near-past. The flowers and
grass make me nostalgic for a real summer again at Lugano.
How happy I am to remember how you
and Doris and I
climbed to the "temple" there on Salvatore.
Remind Doris- it
was all a happy omen, tnen, I leit, as
for future _Fabula_.
That beautiful title, and how
you have managed the simple, perfect
"mystery" of the love-story.
I may be wrong as i have only read
the MS once, but it this the END ?
I reel that I want to go
on- though there is no need; it is balanced. I love the
love-story ... perhaps, that is
why I w-ant more of it. I
was enchanted too, with the cloak incident.

It is really cold; I have letters and feel in touch, and
with all these books. A beautiful picture of Dylan Thomas
in *Times* but no detail at all, as to why or wherefore of his
going. I am anxious to know of this, exactly. How did you
hear ? Please give love and suitable greetings, here, there
and everywhere. I want to get this off at once. Thank you, Fido, I
am so proud of you and of *Fabula*; I remember our discussing the
name, in the beginning and it all seems to "belong"
terrifically. I can not choose between the three but this
comes so very near ... somehow.

232

Tuesday, Nov. 24

Dearest Fido,

Don't hurry across; I am busy settling in my new, extravagant room. I long for you to see it, but will come in to you at any time in Z; TIME is the thing, how much time to save and have to revel in gossip WITH. I am so happy. Though a little raw and cold here, I am mad to know more of Fabula. I hope you got returned copy.

Father B visit; wanted all news of you and also, of Bear.
I am returning your few letters and sending on the old mag, as
for Elsie. Please file or destroy letters from George,
as you think best, from time to time. I sent Mrs Galbreath
some mags, as you suggested, had a charming bird-card of thanks.
She said she always liked the old mags, to glance over. I owe
letters everywhere, and am trying to address Xmas cards and
calendars for later posting. So please give messages, when you
write- thank Doris, too, for her letter. I have so
much, so much to say. Wonder how Bear has been. Thank him again
for ringing me. I will write later, want to get
this out. O - my room. It is a fairy-tale ... balcony-room on
lake. I DO want you to see it. I suppose it is very extravagant of
me; they say only 5frs. more but they may put on more for the
heating. Anyhow, I long to talk over all this- and I have the
notes for you, in an envelope, frs. 742, it is; don't forget it.
Or I can send later.

Bless you a thousand time; O, Fido this Midsummer Dream gets
worse and worse ... if only you would conduct my "class"!

Union Bank, Montreux, sent me frs. 500, the first I have
had from them, since coming here, though have written
bumper cheques, as for the "house" here ...

Nov. 26

Fido dear,
You enumerate all papers, except the important Fabula - you say,
mags, letters, etc. You did get the MS? I was so careful to
post it and they said it was safe un-registered. Anyhow, I am sure,
it is just your over-whelming modesty that makes you leave
Fabula - unmentioned.

I am so sorry about Bear. I talked this morning to Father B, he repeats his concern and willingness to help, in any way, he also sends special greetings. I think he was pleased to feel that Herzog was still working, as it were "with" him. Let me know of anything I can do. We will talk over all this; if you want to see anyone here, I will arrange, though selfishly, I want you to myself.

So glad you found your bags- and that Orbe mosaics are to be featured- as I judge from your letter, anyhow, I will hear more of this.

Thank you for magazines; I have glanced through the white- you must indeed let me know all of the "things to say on the subject" of which you speak.

I will look for you here, Monday and hope to come in to you, on Tuesday.

All love. I have been typing out poems for Norman- will write soon again.

Greet Bear and Elsie.

Nov. 27

Fido dear, brown
I don't need the fur-coat, don't burden yourself, but would be glad
if you could find my fur GLOVES. Do you know if
Pearsoll-Smith Shakespeare anthology is at Kenwin? I don't
think it is; if you lay your hand on it, bring it. I am so
anxious to see you. Thank you for corn cutting, most fascinating.
Thank you all letters. I had my first Xmas card or calendar from
Gretchen, rather a shock. To-night is the reading. I am really
terrified of it and have to give them resume of sources of
Oberon and Titania, most enchanting- but really, Fido. I long
for session to be over.

I would like the brown jacket to that brown skirt; if you do not
bring coat ( and do not) perhaps you could fetch that.

There is so much, so much to say but I will hurry this to post.
Ever and ever, with endless love

in my new room,
I will look for you here, on Monday, after lunch.

I will leave door open, it is the door, facing telephone,
at top of stairs, same floor... and same side of house as
the first room.

Dec. 5

E1938]

Fido dear;
---

Who is "Helen", as per enclosed ? Madame Kurt W ? I love
her quote and have copied it down, who wrote it ? You,

Fido, " a condition of complete simplicity - costing no less
than everything. " O Fido- after this, if telephone rings around
six, just fore or aft, I will answer it direct. There was such a lot
lost, yesterday. There is no one of the house or staff on this
floor; I don't expect you will ring for some time, but I will
expect it about the same time, around six and will go straight
from my room. I was so dazed about Rose - I am so dazed. What

I was trying to say was ; there are no changes in text, but
referred to, directly or indirectly,
I must note a few of the books, other than Violet Hunt, either in
beginning note or note at end, or root-notes on pages. I will talk
this over with you and Robert. I have not Rose script here. I
do not want it, as I have so much else and there is plenty of
time. But I am writing Adrienne with this, and telling her too, that
CARE is ordered for her and Sylvia. I am glad I got order on, first.

I am so terribly happy. There is thick fog, it is very beautiful out of the
ground, like banks of snow.
But I am not looking forward to
crawling over to the House, to-morrow at 8. Maybe, H will let me
off. I am already sorting and washing as toward move. O- what fun.
I am only terrified that the excitement will be me - "fell" -as I
right? Like the proverbial oak. But O I am so well and happy.
No, I do not like the bath-rooms, they are cold and bleak, the ones
they showed me, and on the wrong side of the house, at Bristol.

Thank you for all enclosed letters, returned. I will keep Norman
to show H, will return it later. Now you will let me
pay for translation ? Let me know what cheque you want, from
which Bank ? please - I can not thank you. I must not write more, or
will not be able to get off to Adrienne. Do you know Frangoise
Hartmann ? I am so terribly excited ... All best
to Bear-infinite thanks and eternal love, always and always, CAT.

I got blue for new room, they only charge naif-iranc extra for
the double heating. It is HEAVEN here ... but I do miss you ...

Dec. 4

Fido dear,
Thank you for LORNA, what a pet! And other paper. Thank you
infinitely for Robert present, I will settle later. Or soon.
I enclose card. I sent Miss Butler the one of this series, with
calendar and January I. I hope that I am not stealing your
thunder.
Ribbon ran nicely, then,

thunder.

at end, tore off the spool. I think though, that it will
come to heel again, if I have faith. I am glad to say
that next week, the reading-circle is to do German again. So I
will try to get out of it, till after Xmas. They read the
three languages in rotation. I had quite a scene with

H yesterday as he read Xmas and his birthday is, to boot,
on Monday. I ordered Pearson-Auden set, some time ago, for him. I
also, ordered set for George Plank, so that is his Xmas settled.
I have arranged with Father B, as to room, will speak of
it now, at office, thought best to have formal consent, as it
were, first.
Very, very, very foggy, but beautiful out of
windows, like banks of snow, and I have a very sea-change
feeling with fog and hooters on the river (I was going to
say), reminding myself of a scene in my Rose book- for which,
I can not thank you. I am really happy about it. We're busy
listening to H grouse about Xmas, that I had no time to brag.

He says they have a huge affair and Father B gives everyone
presents. But then Father B beats it to the S. of France, also,
on the 22nd. Thanks, re Bank. How thrilling about the
Wolves!
Robert's letter is most revealing- about conditions then
there, I mean; did those workmen mean to trick him? I don't
know, it all seems so negative and I am thankful every day, that
we are here. I have nothing for Cole- any suggestions,
as Robert says to you ? How terrible about the tough children
that George writes you about. I enclose his letter to me, re
Poets. Fido, Fido, I have so much to say, but am trying to
get out with my American Xmas cards, as already, they are

Dec. 6.

---

Fido dear,
Should I send a card to Dorothy Richardson- if so, what is her
address ?

PLEASE do not speak of MSS or trunk YET. I will write in a few
days, re said same. Now, I am trying to get Xmas ordered.

Will you tell me if you think stockings would be suitable as for
the three secretary-housekeeper type here; the office, the House and
this Strand. How many should I get and what price nylons ?

Would be be suitable to ask one of them, Miss Raeder at office, for
example, to get for herself and the others , as "surprise" ?

She could find out their numbers. I think I have worked out
general tips with Heydt. Would expensive cards be enough
for the Brunners ?

Well, I shall be grateful for help here.

The Calendar is an inspiration and dream as toward 1954. My
first 1954 ... and I feel it already an inspiration
to come. At the moment, I am trying to concentrate on 1953- what is
left of it. All the letters are most exciting. I send you
a p.c. but won't comment as I would like, as I want to go on with
my Xmas letters. O- Fido- what treasures you have given me. I keep
my new blouse for evening, just put it on to show you, last
Mon; it is very gay and suitable with the dark
skirt. I will go into all this with you, later.
About trunk etc. I don't think I want a lot of things, Fido. I will
write again.

Miss W got my poems but not the long card explaining the work.

This is rather a trial ... she says envelope was opened.

Sec. 7

really, Fido, Heydt is the limit. I said I could not come to
the next two Fridays and he rang up to say he was ordering
Giraudoux, La Guerre de Troie n'aura pas lieu. I
suppose I will have to go. ( Ribbon at the end - I was
not quick enough to catch it, but have re-fixed it; I am getting a
lot of practice and feel triumphant.) Thank you for two
letters and the mugs. I have addressed No. 2 to Norman, will
post later. I am sending back, also later, the bag you posted me, as
I have two such bags and string-bag and others. Thank you for
all the same for offering it to me. I will put in the New Yorkers
as they are very heavy to post back. Please give me the
address for the Booknews papers.

There is fog here, too. I had an interrupted tea chez Heydt, a young violinist came, then the son of a patient here, then he was called away to a new arrival. But it was interesting and I always enjoy this change over to his flat. His birthday is to-day. I am the only one to know; he rushed off to Zurich, sensibly. ( This ribbon has not quite come to-heel, but I must persevere, forgive script. ) Some more USA Xmas cards in. I will go into the matter of the trunk, later. I was in such a reisenfeber state that Heydt gave me some mild sleep-dope. I have had nothing at all, as to sleep, since I came here, in July and that is good. I guess I will finish this and pray that the ribbon makes up his own mind, later.

Dec. 12

Fido darling;

The Bear is better but had a bad night and Hecht had to
go to him at about 11 A.M.; he had artificial respiration;

Dr. Brunner told me all this, this morning; he said, heart
was not too good, that there was the usual liver-condition, not
absolutely serious, but well that things had come to a head; in
addition, there was temperature and evidently, slight pneumonia
symptoms. I tell you all this because he IS better. I felt that
I must see him, though Father B said not. But I went up, just as
he was about to have his shave. I talked a few minutes,
went out, found four red-roses, came back, saw him again. He was
worried lest you wonder that he did not write; I said I would
tell you, give you messages and so on.

I will go over about twice a day, just pop in like that; I
asked Bear if he was being looked after properly, he
said, "I am looked after only too well. " I will not ring
you unless for some special reason or just to chat. They said they
would let me know and let you know, if there was any special
worry. I am so relieved to see Bear, it was lovely just to see him and
I felt he was more his own old dear self. He seemed grateful to
be here and a bit worried about himself. I told him the doctor had
said he would be all right, it was just a matter of patience.
We won't go right into Xmas plans but I don't think we ought to leave
if he is not really much, much better. We will see and I will visit
him and report.

I love Adrienne's book- have written her. I sent Madame Spider a
pack of the flower-cards; said you had got me a set and I liked them so
much, I was sending that instead of calendar. I posted Madame Imrie t
her calendar.
Reading was terrific- I
hope you come next Friday! I will try to be around
about six; possibly, I will be over at Heydt to-morrow, but in any case

I would leave word in case message came through. I do hope
and pray that YOU are all right, Fido, and that Fabula marches; was
so excited to hear of your return trip, via Avencnes.
Love is love (s from Bear)

CAT

It is a mercy that Bear got here; I am sure all will be well; I
saw Father B just before lunch; he had been up to Bear and he
said that Bear was better.

My very best to Elsie, and all sympathies for what she has been
through.