November 29, 1939

NOTES
THE CREAM IN THE WELL.
A Parable.

1. Zet

2 sisters?

2 brothers (one a sailor)

father

mother

Bill

Blockie

Lawyer

2. The Indian heritage.

3. The strange farmer she couldn't lick.

4. Got his wife killed.

5. Has to marry him.

6. Kills self instead.

7. Burst of relief in everyone else.

8. 1900 or later.

9. "Wants only the best without deserving it."

10. Thanksgiving dinner (fashionably at night) in which she kills self.

11. Act 1. "We will see."

Act 2. "You killed her - and you have to pay."

"No. No."

Act 3. "Even the memory of her is death. Let us forget."

12. "Was anything ever made by destruction?"

13. Oil.

14. "She always has to have the best. What have you done to deserve it?"

15. Destroys everyone.

16. The lawyer who is to run for the senate of the new state.

17. Blockie, the friend.

Julie

Can I help it? I bought myself and fought myself --
and look at me.

If you could see my real self --

My soul

If there is such a thing.

It's a field that wagons have been driven over, over and
over again in the rains.

The wheels have cut the juicy earth to pieces.

It's packed solid underneath the ruts --

Solid -- like rock!

And no seed will ever grow there anymore.

Never.

It's me that drove those wagons up and down,
Me that wanted the field to be different,
The crop that grew to be another kind of corn.

I can't lick what I am.

Clabe

Quit trying.

Julie

But you have to try. Everybody does.

Clabe

That's what causes so much misery in the world! Quit
trying! Look what it's done to you. Are you going to
come to the pretty pass that most people have? Stupid
people -- pahhetic from the first!

Julie

I'll never be that. It's not in me to be pitiful.

Clabe

You almost are, you know.

Julie

No! If I can get rid of what I've done, the thoughts
I've had, the needs! .........