Monday, May 4.

3 Tavistock Square.

Telephone :
Museum 7194.

Fido dear, I am somewhat shattered by the Beggar's Opera.
I think it is the most intensive thing even Pabst has
yet done. I could go again and again every day for a month.
My grief is : that it being Film Society, there was just
that one chance. We barged out into a
driving rain, it made all London unreal. I waited in an
alcove and back of me, through an iron railing was a
complete " set ", old boxes, building material,
street lamps, half demolished walls and some new
going up, and across it the blight of the cold and rain and
mist. We had to wait for a taxi for at least 15 minutes
in the gale, Buddy got one finally. We had the satisfaction
(sadistic) of perceiving half the film society in like
predicament, huddled under shelters and eaves, O. B.
himself with his collar shrinking into his collar, Havelock
Ellis, Pop etc. etc. We had, a la Macky (in the film) sidled
out of a side door, (Buddy's suggestion) and tried for a taxi,
below the crowd. We then went half way down the Strand, to
deliver some papers of B., then back to K.'s fast for a
cocktail, it being past tea. Buddy was all right but it
seemed to me sort of " pointless. " He wanted to talk to K.
I saw, so I left early, and went on to supper at Lyons corner
house, which sounds awful, but they have music which is
funny, especially rainy nights. I do not know when I see K. or
E. again. I will call up or leave notes. I think K. is bored
with Buddy's history, but all the same, there they were :
and Buddy was most scornful about a very good African
disk, that K. has, jungle. Then Buddy was all
rather suspicious of me, as I told K. that p.a. was helping me
in a way I hadn't predicted, etc. etc. Well, we will see. I think
Buddy's affair the worst ever. He told me a lot of Essie and Noel
Coward. I think E. suffers from delusions about white men. She
says Coward is so kind, he is " covering " another affair with a
white man who is mad to marry her, that's all.

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Letters just handed me through door. I will
tell K. about Thursday. And I WILL BE HERE, SO
PLEASED YOU WILL COME. Maybe you won't get
this ... SO GLAD YOU ARE COMING BACK!!...

has strictly race-principles, etc. Buddy seems to swallow
this whole. Paul and E. are not living together but why
should she turn up here again, just as he is about to
put on a show ????_

Well, Fido. I will keep days open till I hear. Will
you let me know, if you can, when you can come in ? I can give
you tea, or else we can meet in a very discreet place where they
have real Italian things, a new place not yet spoiled but the
patronized by the elite. I took Chaddie there, she liked it.
Let me know. I have not much to do, but would not want to miss
you. If you take an hour with C., you can dash in here before
*or* after. Again ... do not let on, I have told
you things. At least, make it, I stopped writing details
lately.

K. seemed rather limp, he had been dining with his people
Pop was with K., he had Eileen's ticket. I like Pop, as you
know, but he has a vague air, that yet is all-knowing. I
think he is very frightened and suspicious. I suppose
he has wind that something is up, and he seems to watch all
the time. Eileen is better, but as C. said we were talking too
much, I have not tried to see her lately. I will... later.

P. is in good form. The Waaangs are battening on worms.
Let me know if you want me to do anything before you arrive.
If you would like to spend a night or so here, I can
so easily arrange with the old ladies; there is a big extra room
next door to mine. They serve breakfast, there is a bathroom,
telephone etc. etc. It would be grand if you did come.

Well, love my dear Fido. I am so very, very grieved, you are
giving up your happy released life there. You must try to
keep up a little of it here with us all.

Again love ... and very best congratulations to Pabst.
B. O. is terrific.

June 2. Tuesday.

Thank you so much for the wire, it came yesterday over tea. K. was here. We had something of a stand-up fight, of sorts. ( Please, now, for all time, note this : please, do not ever refer to Chaddie or K. to things that I write you of HIM. I think you get my point. I won't bother to say it again, in any of this series of letters. Just remember : all that I write in this confidential vein about K. is for you only, and the Herr Doctor. ) Well, there was nothing special, just a general resume on my part.

At his house the other day, he showed me a pack of letters etc. from you and me and Toni, that he intended to use as background for a later book. As I had some pages that I didn't want, that I had jotted down at Monte, I took them to him, told him to use them with my letters, or throw them away, but not to leave them lying about, as there were notes on him and T. and his family. He said he was very happy for them ... as the book, I do, if I do it, will be on another level, altogether. Then it appears some of the stuff rather stung him. At least, I think so, as he told me that YOU had been influencing ME, about his family, that they really had not had any part whatever in his change of mind about the situation in Territet. That he was " quite on his own ", and entirely uninfluenced , that what had happened had had nothing to do with either of his parents but dated from some shock at school. Of course, I could not argue this, just went off the deep-end, and told him what I thought was due him in the way of loyalty to our situation as THREE people, apart from ANY relationship between self and him, as lovers. I am of course, somewhat bottled up, as have not " talked " things out with him, however. He then said, that he had adored me from the second he saw me and would do till he died. He particularized between " adored " and " loved. " I said I didn't want " any ultimatum of that sort ", that I wanted to

UNDERSTAND and when I DID, then I would be free, as
Saint Paul says, " and the Truth will make you free."
Well... in a way, it would be easier to put a tin
of dynimate under the " situation " and blow it and us
to blazes. But ... I will be as good as I can, as
patient. I will finish my work with Chaddie. Don't suggest
it is too tempting,
alternative of Berlin, because I must face this here and
finish it, or else come to become part-time compromise.
Things can never, of course, we all agree, be the
same. But then vital things, are bound, by their own laws
of vitality, to change.

I am so glad you are in Berlin, you at least, out of
this, rain, and sodden heat, then rain and sodden
for... the mist and then sun for five minutes, then
mist and sodden rain.

I like

Chaddie, love her ... but, rock-bottom she is
ENGLISH... perhaps that is the worst and the best to
say of anyone.

K. is of

course, mixed, in bits now... but I will go on, try to
keep my temper, and later, I hope sail free of tangles
and storm-winds, for a time, anyhow.

K. went last night to Audley. I see him again later
in the day.

I will write every morning, D. V., before departing across to
Chaddie.

I see the Movie Sar to-morrow, I hope, at K., for
cocktails.

Love, darling; do, do write me. I opened a fresh jar
of jam for my breakfast, as a special ceremony this
morning. Also, cigarettes, lasting like majic.

Love dear F.,

P. loves your letter, she will write again.

Thurs. evening.

Just a hi!ried note, as Robert is waiting. I verified the
address to Potemp. and Robert will weight the two letters
and I want this to go in . I have your notes for P. and she
is reading them. I have arranged with Moderne to come in
here, provisionally any day after Wed. next and to pay
up to then and I will give her more if necessary. She says she
has enough.

I had a good letter from Rvr. while I have answered. This is to
say, I went to inquire about ticket and get money so
now have nothing to keep me. You can do anything you want, I won't
be " put out " if you don't want me around with family. I
will write more. This is in subh haste. I wrote Chaddie, saying
I WOULD save the time and was so glad she would let me come.
There are more papers etc., P. got a book from Bookshop and
is pleased.

Do keep up your heart. I am so, so, so sorry you feel like
that. I will come when " indicated ", probably arrive Thurs.
next, the 12th but don't know, and don't
stay home from Cannes that day, as I know the way so well, and
it would be better to get in alone, the getting in is a
waste of time, anyhow. . And I would rather have you come
in later and we could talk and talk. I will slepp in Dining room
or sitting room, but you take little room. I will be so glad to
see you. PLEASE do NOT NOT worry. I will come and am so
glad you might like me to come. You can do anything you
want, rage at me and all. I don't mind how nervy you may
be about your family, it will all be all right. Please be
good kind dogs to dog and dog. Love, so much love, more later....

June 1. Monday. 1931

O, my dear Fido, rain and rain drips from the eaves and I am not altogether happy about your flying over. I will contain myself in peace however, and in prayer. Thank you for everything, the bag will be most welcome and I have still two boxes and a quarter of the cigarettes. There is the big tin, two thirds full of exquisite biscuits and the other un-opened and tea. And all these little bean-feasts will contain YOU and will be done " in memory of " how you came here and the thrilling talks and all of that, all the time. I love yesterday. I love all this, the intrigue within intrigue, only do NOT be other than happy, and free and do, do write me all purple details and I will be most discreet. Really. Have been, though, from the extent of my clatter, no one would guess.

The developements of Chaddie thrill me, I want to get her to dance next, it would be such a joke. I loved yesterday and will write you of the next

Kasbeck adventure. I wonder how C. will be this morning ... hang-over Monday.

Let me know of Frau G. and of the new little
live-wire.

I had card from Puss this morning. She seems
unusually happy since Miss M. is off duty,
perhaps that rushing about with the N.s is not
so bad, now the weather permits wjaks, swims etc.

It is the best for the Puss really. I think.

I am over the nerve stage about her, now, and I am
glad you are to be safe enconsed on the day-bed,
chez the Herr T.

I am using great self-control, NOT to call you
up now, at South A.

Darling Fido, this is to tell you that I was
thinking of you... AM, all the time.

I am happy here, really rather snug and now will
be looking forward to the 17th July.

I remember last summer especially, and the
stone you brought me to Lausanne, a special
" fate," its impossible that all THIS has
happened since then.

Love darling, and greetings and appreciation to
Sir S.

June 14. Sunday.

It is funny to think of you being now, D.V., in Territet.
I shall, be so anxious for all details. You will miss
Turtle. I am sorry. Also the G.-M. I did burn
your last letter. I always do, the same day, lest they get
lost or forgotten. So, you can write me any details, of
any sort, you may want to. How is Puss ??? Give her
heaps of love. I had the last cards, thanks her. We
seem to have selected all the pretty cards in the world.
I will get her some more, though, one day.

I had a queer, rather good day, yesterday. Chaddie and the
Spanish girl were late, so I had a half hour, sitting
in the Kasbeck alcove. It was very funny, I smoked and
observed life Proustian-ly. Then the s.g. came. Then Chaddie,
who had evidently been so impressed the first time, that she
came, literally in "ermine and perls. " The ermine was quite
a super-tippet and a little necklet of pearls and a
brouche. It was a scream... I don't know why, but I do
love watching Chaddie. I suppose she had the ermine anyway,
but it was such a shock. Then we were ushered down to
the dining room and the usual things happened, but the s.g.
paid the bill... I have asked them again, it is a bit
extravagant but things seem to "go" there. We did not
have vodka again. Were most correct ... C. wants to meet
Violet Hunt and the Coburn Mayne, so I will try to arrange it.

It seems very back in the dark ages, but suddenly I was inspired, as
they get me out of and around Chaddie's writing. Also U. is
doing a paper on Witches which will "get" the Mayne.

2.

As you don't mind writing letters, would you be so good
as to answer the enclosed, as you want. I mean, I will say
I will NOT be there, but have written you, and I don't
know if YOU will be there, but YOU will write her. I think
that is maybe best and most diplomatic. I hate to bother
you but know you do not mind the " family ", as I do, but
do not let her bother you, or be too, too cordial or you
may have the mother down on you ( us ) for a visit later,
or some try on, in the way of cading. Please, do not think I am
a beast ... but you know some of my various reactions to all
that crowd.

I have read a lot more in Cuthberts Bevril book. I took it on,
as Cole was so very retuperative that I thought there must

be something ... well, it is at least, a slam out at county."

Though Cole, says he does NOT know it, I think R. A. did have
almost as much as Cole anyhow, they did know all those murky
edges of things in Sussex, even though they kept a " pub. "
I think with C. it is repressions and inferiority complex, she
says he does not know " army " people, but I DO think in
this instance his slams at the Colonel etc. are not so bad.

They represent terribly things that I do not know exist here, anyhow.
So I am reading the book from another angle, and have written
Cuthbert quite a friendly letter. Well... more of that, later.
He does as a buffer against certain types of people ... Dr. M
liked the damn book... so I think it is Cole who does not know
her " county. " But that is a small point.

I took the s.g. to see Oppie. I had to go back with her as
C had a date at the Charing Cross hospital, so then time was
a bit dragging, you know how awful it is to go to a " home " of
any sort. So I called up Oppie and we went in, and

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Oppy was in terrific form, and talked on and on. The s.g. felt for her hard and it was a tonic after the " home ", and all its smug Hampstead, money-ed atmosphere. The girl was there as she had tried to kill herself so often, that she put herself in the hands of a nerve specialist etc. But I think she is better, and it is time she got out ... a most morbid atmosphere.

I did not see K. yesterday. He was, I believe to dine with Buddy. I see him sometime to-day, but must call him up to make final arrangement.

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I just called up Rvr. He seemed rather subdued on phone. I asked him how he enjoyed Buddy etc., he said he would tell me if I came in for cocktail this evening at six. He said he was dining out, and I said was he meeting the person there or at his flat ( as I get tired of being there and having O. B. come in... simply a phobia. ) K. said he was meeting the person out. "He may be just wanting to be alone or dining with Eileen, anyhow, it is half an hour's half arrangement, but I will go and get any " dirt. " Evidently Buddy had bored him considerably.

Well more later. I may, while in the mood, run out for tea with Violet ... it part of the old vibration and it all comes in useful. Will of course, write to-morrow. ( I told you I loved Range? )

Love to all the Waaangs and best touss and tell me how it all looks, garden, lake etc. It is a like a dream to me, now.

Fri., June 19.

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I am writing now, dear Fido, as I am in a funny state
with C., and if I write in the morning, before leaving,
I feel I may jab up too much. I am on a new sort of
side-track that is so important, that C. suggested I come
to-morrow, Sat., a thing I have never done. I am
very happy about this, as the week-end is awful. I may
suggest she fill out the broken part of the last
week, with another Sat., I know you will not mind. This
weekend is fairly empty but next will be over-crowded. I
am making great head-way, but to-day I got terribly depressed. I
will explain when I see you. Nothing about you ... only the idea
of a "smash", at the moment it too awful... but I know
you will do what seems best. Rvr came in. How was so vague, it
was queer. It seems he lets his watch do all sorts of things
and seems terribly anxious now to break away from
Chaddie ( THIS is PRIVATE, of course ) and he seems all
over Eileen in his mother again. I suppose now he will break
through soon or something will just smash, and if he comes to
you in this state, he will just fly out of the house, and I

don't mind so much, except for the SHOCK as it appears, he
is mixed up in some queer way with my thwarted ambitions
to be like the Beaver's people, to be a singer or musician.
And all my work and writing now has been getting involved ...
plus proofs from Chatto ... and I AM in a mess.

I don't know what I will do. I suppose it will be all right.
Its just a black ... and I don't like writing you
too much lest you take it too deeply and I do NOT want a
smash, at the moment. No doubt, the thing will " peter out " ,
or have a new refracted sort of lease of life. Anyhow ...
" sufficient unto the day. "
Difficult philosophy
for me now...

It seems Gilbert Murry says that H.D. is the only living
translator of Greek... funny ... that from Brugiere who
knows him.

Give heaps of love to Puss. Tell her why I don't write more.
I do feel so funny to-night ... not ill, but there has been
thunder again. I told them here that I was due to leave in
a little less than 4 weeks, and they will give me another room,
or this, later when I come back and they will keep the bag box
of books. I am so scattered and shattered....

I have paid £10 for my curtains, it seems a good bit but it
is wide; 12 yards and hand woven and my own design. Lovely
... I hope you do not think I paid too much ... the girl is so
pleased. I paid her don't, she has set up the spools etc. It
will take her the whole time, till I leave to do it, but she will
have it, or hopes, for me to bring out. I think that better.
Then if you like it, you may order something else. K. is

June 23. Tues.

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Thank you for the enclosed, dear Fido. Chaddie says it is
not a Turtle but a Tortoise, a Turtle should have a more
hooked-nose, more like a bird, and that was the
chief feature of the Dr. So will you tell him to
make this slight correction in the totem sign, next
time.

Thank you also, for the mags. And also for the Who IS
Who. I will attend to that and will write the uncle one day
soon, as he sent me as well, an elaborately signed Back
programme.

I saw Oppie yesterday and so far, she is the only single one
person I have met, who has gone on, whose sees things as they
are and not as they might or should be. She was in great
form, wearing bargain basement, pseudo-Monte pyjamas, a sort
of Slave blouse, and gave me a very good tea, with a special
chocholate cake. Well... it is funny but she had a slick
and rather touching way of SAYING things, getting to the
core of things etc. I told her she must come out and stay
with us a bit later., she wouldn't be so bad in the big
house, and would keep Rvr. busy, if he is there. She works

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is all " mou. " I loved talking to Cole but there
Cole is, still dodging the actualities, so as Cole is
now on the verge of turning down this Chaddie thing, or
seems to be, there isn't much use there, I fear. Though I still
feel the old affection. Yes... Buddy and Co. , can just fade out.
I had to hear of them, as K. was in that baby state where,
I suppose Buddy and O.B. represented others of the same
ill. Anyhow... I am getting on, very well with p. a. , and as
you say, that is the chief thing, and that will be the
corner-stone, and should make all the difference.

I am sending the second lot of posts to-day or to-morrow. I
meant to, yesterday. I am going to Argentina
to-morrow night with K.; O.B. got the tickets and
invited us. I work a bit, am
fairly happy, its just occasional P.A.

crisis-os that get one, but I am always better afterwards.
Chaddie has been very good, and I think enjoys it too.
Certainly I gave her an earful,* each time different.

I have not seen Eileen, it seems so hopeles, sand in
a sieve, sort of thing. I believe she/s as per
usual.

I must go to the office and say good-bye one day.

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all morning and sleeps all afternoon, so she would
not be difficult to " entertain. "I didn't tell her
the whole histoire but snatchs of it, as she was
like an culture on the trail, and " knew something
was wrong from your face, Hhhhh. Daight. " So
I gave her some of it, and she swore blood-brother
secrecy. She is the ONLY one who has an inkling of the
emotional and the material values. It appears she
has ruined herself on this man, whot then turned and
refused to give her day-bed. This is of course,
PRIVATE, as she is putting up a big bluff of how
SHE kicked him out. Well, she DID kick him out, but he
had practically ALL her savings by the time she did, and s
borrowed money from her bank on some Colonial securities,
which went ( you will know more of this ; Australia )
down to almost nothing. So she is reduced to
living with her mother ( as per usual ) but with out her
usual " allowance " for clothes taxis etc. etc.
Forr darling, she has got the emotional and the
material experience to draw on, anyhow, and Cole

( Slight intermission for bath. )

Thank Puss for her letter, I will write again soon.
She is a darling. I carry the pictures of her and the
house in my bag with me, and showed them to Chaddie, who
was so excited and wants to "camp" on the roof. She says she
thinks now, she will be out, early August, as the little boy
has disappeared, she thinks more or less, for good. But that
leaves her free, at least, I hope it does.

Well, love, my own dear, good Fido.

K. is due in to tea to-day. I will try to take him afterwards,
to see the waeping-girl, as he liked her things so.

Tues. evening.

June

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Thanks for the Who Who folder, I will send to it. I wrote
Uncle Fred, so that is all right, too, thank you so
much.

Afternoon Men can to-day. I finished it at once. I think this
man the most solid of the lot, he is solid and gets the
grey one-tone quality of London and does not try to stunt nor
be funny in that sputtering pyrotechnic way. His chief
" man " is a British Museum official and all that is very
good and terribly from the inside, then there are parties on
the side and some characters, all rather R. A. and Arabella, or
established journalist Oxford, not this showing off, all
the time. His style is hard and grey and crisp. I will lend it to
K., then send it on to you. It is more solid than I would have
thought and mature, not like Buddy, I had thought it might be,
as I say,
nothing " psychic " either or, stunted . I think you will
like it, very much. Thank you again, dear F. It came almost
by return.

It is early so I am writing, as sometimes it is so
late when I get into the bath, then too, I feel like

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writing. K. came in after his " hour. " She was very
shattered, he said. C. spent the whole time, literally,
scolding at him, and he said, " will you please keep
quiet. How can you expect me to tell you anything, if I
am kept in this tension listening to you scold. " She
evidently did some " stunt" or else she was just furious. It
appears she met him with a tight face and said, " I can't
have this coming late go on, like this any longer. "
Then he began to stutter, and she got him on the couch, and
then when he began in a wistful way to tell her his usual
" troubles ", she lit out and would not stop and she talked,
he said, almost the whole hour. I must say, K. looked pretty
sick, but it was funny - after my talk with Oppy, and writing
you as I did, I felt so odd and detached. I suppose I am getting
over a lot of the fixation on HIM, I mean in that way, and he
is slower, and is only getting round a corner, that, apparently,
I got round some time ago. He is evidently about to get into
his next layer, and has been putting it off, has been late and
I think got out of one or two days, ( he told me not to tell
you ... and I haven't ) But C. insisted that he make up
the time and then when he was late over and over.... lit out.
I gave him tea, he sat crouched over the photos of the house,
had his tea in a vague but somewhat more " old Rover " style;
then I took him up to see my curtains on the loom. I thought it
would be good for him to see this girl, as after all, she is one of
the " workers ", and I had that sort of mysterious feeling, the
minute I ordered these curtains that MT room was there and that
KENWIN was going to " come true " and that it would really
satisfy something deep in me, some real desire for a " home. "
You know... so I took K. How was very nice to her, I'm sure, like he

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used et be, with Miss Lewin and people like that. I suppose
it possible, that he MAY come through to some
of the " old " Rover yet. But I do not like to boast or
tempt providence .... so I lay low, and try to have as much
as I can on the side. Oppy, so far, has been my only
real success, that way.

She is due in here on Monday and we will go from here, to K.,
for cocktail.

K. calls here to-morrow about 7.15, to take me out to dinner,
(from Chaddie) then, we go on to Argentina. It will
be rather fun, K. adopts her.

Thank you for Post, Sat Post, I mean. I will keep these now,
and bring them back. I am posting the last of the OLD
lot, to-morrow, but I will stick to all these new ones,
and fetch them along. Will you ask the Movie Mag to send to
YOU now, or seen ?????. Or do you prefer them coming here ?
Just as you feel. I am beginning to feel " on the move " again.
It will be marvelous to get back. I was simply ill over the
marvelous pictures of the house and the bits of tree and grass.

K.was too, he could hardly talk, just gazing at the
phptographs. O ... I AM so happy about it all.
Well... I will hope to add a line by way of P. S. in the
morning.

WED.

FEB. 24.

I had your good letter last night, dear Fido. News always welcome. About p.a. , being here, instead of Berlin, it is MUCH better here. Among other reasons, I had my LIFE here and this district is all mixed up with the war and so on, and a lot comes up that way. Then, as well, I have some sort of inhibition about German, the German goes with the music , goes with the Beaver, and I had to GET AWAY to make good. Do you see ? London was MY OWN, just as Berlin is your own, and I made friends here and married here and had the pups here. You see ? Germany is MUSIC, is the thing I MISSED, it would not do just now. Don't think I want to change that. Its only that naturally ( you know it here ) one loves it, and goes on seeking, I suppose, the old 'lan and so on, and every once in a while, one vomits with disgust at the people one knows and hears of. That is partly my fault, for getting mixed in with Buddy and O. B. and so on. I felt quite established and strong and happy with Oppy, for instance. And with V.H. , a little the same, though of course , all mixed up with phobias of her talking about Perdita and so on, while P. was at Norland, and things HAD to be quiet. You see ?????

Now will you please get for me, several packets of Eison Trpphen, Dragee, you get them at the Lien d'Or, that chemist in Lausanne, half way up the Rue du Bourg, you know. I have enough to last about two weeks , and had wanted to make it last, but now

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am increasing the dose a little, as I want to keep up,
and strong, till I go. I would be glad for one packet
here. You can take the little paper lump out of the
box if it is easier. You might almost wrap it up in a magazine.
Will you keep one packet there, for me, as I will want to
go on. I take very little but very regularly and find when I
do stop, that I go down in nerves, immediately.
Also, I think another of those hair-washes would
be " indicated " for the bath-room generally, as I use it, and K.
too. I find it such a help her, and I have still here, the half of
that lot you brought me.

Thanks for the mags. I read late last night. They are so
good, just to brouse over. I am taking Chaddie, the
English ones, as she seems to like them and I got through
with them, last night. I keep the posts of course, and will bring.
( I repeat. )

I have a blue sample of my curtains, if you need it to match
paints. I think K. has some idea for my room. You will
let me know, won't you ???? The curtains are very
lovely, extravagant, I know, but I felt it " indicated, "
this one time.

6.

Will you give me name of the place you go to now,
for tickets, and let me know exactly what I ask for ? I have
done this so often, but know you change your office from
time to time. It WILL be magnificent to be out there again.

The sweets holding out, I love them. And have not
yet opened one big box of biscuits, though I much away
like anything at tea-time. They are "majic" boxes, all.

Love to good, nice, hansome, old Puss.
And Fido.

From

CAT

Fri., June 25.

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Fido dear, you thank me for check, now duly received. I will
look up trains etc., at once. I am so happy about it, and will
probably spend the week-end, trial-packing, and putting books
in order in the new trunk. They will keep it here, I told
you, and try to reserve the same room, if not, another.

Now this is a joke. Cole IS going to Chaddie. She went to
C. to talk and got all excited and had a sort of ( almost )
treatment ( though Cole didn't know it was that. ) I told C. if
she felt talking was helping Cole, to keep her there, and call it
an hour. Anyhow, I was ready for Cole, at 4, and she came in
at about ten to five. Then she was all " released " and
terribly happy, and is due in at 12 to-day, just after me. She
is to have that hour, the little boy's hour, for a time, will
have a month, as first agreed; C. will have holiday , and then Col-
go on afterwards. I hope you agree, as at first, as I am so
happy about it. I suppose it is making a " convert " to the
faith, and also, I love Cole, and it means I go on with her,
otherwise, I think there would have been a definite break, as one CAN

not be interested in the old, old stuff. Well... thank
YOU.

It was really cold yesterday, people in winter coats and so on.
Now it is about normal. K. blew in for a half our, all agog with
the sample of paint, they are lovely, the studio and the blue
in the
~~X~~ hall especially.
I AM so happy, the house seems a sort
of increasing Mecca. I AM so happy, and now everyone wants to
come out, Oppy, Cole etc. etc. Chaddie simply seems to think
the house belongs to her, and so it does, too. We must keep
that spirit about it. I feel the old Lady did something rather
Demeter-like, and must have put her blessing on it. It seems
full of "fish" vibration and I am really happy. Do try
to get me some more views, won't you ????_

Tell H - mann, I am so happy he is to be " one of us " . What
is his animal ???? Has he one ???? I will try to find him a
little p. a. gift in totem, ivory, if you tell me what he has
or is, for luck.

I am going to try to get a B. Museum tocket this morning, as
I want to consult a bag reference book ( I know it there ) on
some of the Red Roses for Bronze proof spelling. That will
be fun, and a link with the pre-war.

The book looks rather good.

I am re-reading Murry on Greek Religion. I have a renewed
respect for him since - he admires H.D.

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I enclose little note, from Cole, just destroy. I have
from Nancy and will do likewise, I wonder if N. is due to be
where R. is, that whole coast is eaten out ... one/will
have to look carefully. Have you any idea of where Puss and
I MIGHT go ???? If -

I am now almost due out, must close this. I heard last night,
will probably hear later in the day. Love , my darling Fido,
and much to Puss and congratulations to Herr H - .

( Alane - !!!!! )

Love again,

Sat., June 27.

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Fide dear, this in haste, am due over to Chaddie, as I
asked for an extra Saturday, to fill out the last week. I
would otherwise, have missed two days, so last Sat., and
this Sat., completes the last week. I will have my last
" hour ", on the Wed., leave on Thurs., arrive Fri., the
17th of July. Is that correct? I thanked you for the
ticket fare, so good of you, dear Chang. I will go and
look out trains soon. I am waiting really for your name of
best office, though I don't suppose I really do need that. I
got the lot for us and Sophie that time, up on the
strett off St. James. I will go there one day early
in the week, if I do not hear to from you to contrary.
K. will also have to be making his reservations, I will
speak to him of that to-day, if I see him. I made no
definate arrangement but am to call him up
before I go out, will probably see him this evening.
To-morrow is full; Mon., I have Oppie. Cole was all over me
about p. a. I am so happy for all this.

Hollis=DEAR= My DEAR Fido, thank you for the pictures. I have them, with the others, in my hand-bag. Puss is a little old Pomona, tell her. It is a joy to see her

looking so well and spry, up that tree, so good to look
at. And O, those steps , right out of a dream, the whole
HOUSE is a dream... it excites me more than I can say,
and all the odd bits of grass and trees. I feel so hungry, so
starved sometimes, for all that.

I will write more later of the pictures. I will let K. have some.

Of course, and the monkeys to-day. I was so hurt

that P. was out of that picture by the wall, but I feel better

now, such a rewarding lot yesterday. And your little

note.

I don't know where the time has gone this morning ... darling,
later.... love to Puss, and thank you both for the
exquisite and comforting photographs... where are some
too, of CHANG ?????

Sunday, June 28.

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Fido dear, I am waiting for the bath, Sunday is rather a crowd here. I go, as I told you, to Kasbeck, at one. I gave K. the pictures, he took the lot, and said he would give them back at Chaddies at tea-time. He wanted to show them to his people, evidently is seeing them lunch to-day, his usual arrangement, I suppose it gives him something to " relationship " about, with the Edleweiss.

My dear ... that SWALLOW. What could be more exquisite. It seems almost the leveliest thing that has happened, especially it is just at about this time, that said Cornwall swallow, did its little conjuring trick. So... it seems to ME the most exquisite thing that ever happened, a sort of quite definite " sign ", you know. O... how glad I am that YOU all feel the same about it, and are thinking of it, and so on.... it is, of course( you and Puss know) a sacred bird, and the symbol of Isis, and nothing could make me happier than the fact that it came and that you feel the SAME about it. I will tell Rover and Chaddie to-day. I am almost afraid to breathe about it, I am so happy.

I have had a lot come up with Chaddie, after several
days of feeling pretty sick. I won't tell you about it,
nor did I tell Rover, as I want to get this -

( interval for bath ) -

clear. ( What do I want clear? ) O yes ...
stuff When
a lot of pre-reading stuff, oh no! I looked at pictures in
books, dictionaries etc. etc., seems to have had a profound
effect. I am happy about this last week, very. Though I
had several horrid days, one day, I told C. she was
a " good woman ", it was awful, and that she therefore
" could never understand ", or something of the kind. I
felt too terrible afterwards, I screamed it at her, " O ... you
are a GOOD woman. " But we worked it out, and she has been
very nice and all that.

I went to the B. Museum yesterday, it was quite queer, it
made me very happy. I got a one day ticket, and will get the
usual ticket later, as I will be there in the fall a lot, I think.
I had a great feeling of security in the reading room and people
were so very nice to me. It was like coming 'home'; then
I got a great batch of cards, most elaborate and lovely,
thinking I had at last bust the bank, and they were only
one and six. I am posting Puss the cat with this. I was so
happy, these cards are so lovely and link up with my
pre-reading state of mind when pictures meant much. I
suppose that is one reason why I like the films so much ....
Well, darling, more later. I do love the tale of the Swallow,
tell Puss now glad I am for it, and both of you, I know, will
do your best for it.

Love darlings,

CAT-

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P. S. I remember ... K. thinks a honey-coloured ceiling
in your room, a darker more light-struck tint, would make
it still BRIGHTER. He says he is writing you, but I
said I would mention it, as I know what he is like.
He went off into a sort of trance over the pictures of the
house. The one of the steps is terribly Egyptian; K. loved
the rails on the roof so much. The whole thing is so occult. We
both feel it is a sort of dream ... I am so happy, that he
feels the same, he gets quite queer, like he used to do over
the first drawings in that room in Berlin, where he used to
spread them out on the Exquisit bed. I think we all feel
the house is something " to live up to " and really
will make our lives so different ... and O, the SWALLOW!

June 29.

Monday.

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Thank you for trouble about iron. Yes ... any time will do. I
did not mean you to go out of your way too much. I have some, for
a few days and can always do without for a little, anyhow,
I have on stock some Ion Jelleids; meant to try but while this
lasted, have not. Also check, the second one, thank you. And
again for first, I was only being " funny " but have both, thank
you. I will try to go, after C. to-day, to the wagon-lits.

We had a terrific day yesterday. V.H. was in terrific form and C.
very "impressed" with her and very sweet to her. V.H. "fell"
for them both and is arranging an afternoon next Saturday for them
to meet some people. I went out of my way to get this all right,
as C. seems much impressed wirh V.H. and all her anecdotes of
Kipling and the whole P.R. tradition. It was a good move, I
consider. C. has the MSS of those stories on her desk now and
works away at them, you know. So I guess it's a general exchange
and to the good, for strength and power. I am very happy too,
about Cole. Cole is almost beside herself; she evidently needed
p.s. even more than most. She says, "the word is opening,"
and keeps thanking me and you; its most embarrassing. I can go on
after this month if you want, as I find I have £200 in my

current account, I don't know where its come from. I have
of course, £40 due Chesterton etc. But I seem all the
same to be very well " fixed ", so I could go the 3 months
with Cole. Its your money, in a way, anyhow, you know.

Yes ... you are right to get yourself stuff in Germany. I
feel simply, or felt, that this was good, and liked the girl.
I will tell K. about what you say. The order (minde) won't
be done till mid-july, so there's no special hurry to decide. I
will try to see the girl to-day, too, sometime.

I had your two letters and a great bunch of papers this
morning. Tahnk you. I will read the papers and distribute, where
due and save where to be saved. About the trip South, I am
ready at any time. Only this... I feel Puss may be disappointed
in me, as a companion. You know I am 44 and not too physically
" able. " I mean I will need rest and being alone sometimes. I
feel she is so vibrant and I would hate to go with her and
her feel I am a dud. I want to go, any time and anywhere,
you know that x, and tell her that. I will be ready to leave
within five days of arrival. Make any arrangement you want. Or
if you prefer, my going later, that will suit me. I will be ready
any time, as I find Suisse always in the summer, very eneverting.
I will be ready as soon as I have once arrived, to leave. Make
any arrangement you like. I think perhaps the sooner the better,
but don't know. I can NOT say like that from here, but, whatever
you find best, suits me exactly. Puss will be able to be on her
own, a bit. It isn't that I don't LOVE her, but as I
am so much ALONE, she may be disappointed if I am not ALWAYS
with her. But you can explain. I will be ready to leave any day.

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I myself would like to go where I KNOW, but perhaps
Monte would not do. I will talk it over with K., and maybe
you will have some idea. After all, we know the excursions about
Monte, but I know ... it might be difficult. Where else
would you suggest ?????. Anyhow ... I am keen and love the
sea and Suisse never agrees with me mid-summer.

Ask Puss what she thinks and you both decide ... and I will
LOVE it, ... tell her.

I think the idea of the old place as annex, is splendid. What
a brilliant mind you have Fido... make any arrangement there, you
like. I don't mind HOW many people there are, only in the
small place, one could not even go to the W.C., without
having to be pleasant on the way, to a whole
reception committee. You know... it got on my nerves so.
I don't mind twenty people, so long as I can get up and
down stairs and in and out of my room, without running the
gamet (? what do I mean ????) You know ... it was too
SMALL there at the old place... have the lot, I shall
love it, only thing at Riant was, one could never

GET AWAY in those rooms. One could not even talk, without
feeling people were " listening in. "

Yes ... do ask H - mann, he sounds more and more
delightful. Thank you for community card. Poor V.H., by the
way, burst into song at Kasbeck... she was so " released " on the
strnegth of 4 people to 1 bottle of Liebfraumilch; she
began singing the Lorelei.

Well... darling, thank you and thank you. This in the usual
rush out to Chaddie. It seems I am still terribly
" mixed " in u.c., but am getting it straightened, there is
a powerful duality, and the Greek means father and
the B. Museum means father, and the ball and all the states
of contemplation ... but the mother is all the rich things, and
the house and Italy etc. etc. So I guess we may get in time, get
them amalgamated. Greek is also mother, as per mountains
and the sea ... So I may get it right. I am in a splendid
new pocket ( plus nightmares. )

Well thank YOU for p.a.

And love to all, sorry about Alice, we will arrange somehow.

Best to Puss and thank her for the community card.

K. carries the photographs about ... and I can't get them back.

Tues.

JUNE 30.

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Fido dear,

I got my ticket yesterday for the Orient, now K.says there
is a better " summer train. " I may change this but will
not change the day, it would be the question really of the
train and an hour difference in arriving. But I may not
be able to, or I may not want to. The trip is shortened by
some hours, its the way Miss L. goes. I got the ticket
yesterday and paid some £8 plus, for it. Thank you for the
money, dear Fido.
I leave, as I repeat, D.V.,
the Thurs., July 16.

Oppie was good but (like you) I am so bored with the
surface complexes. She talked for two hours here about
her new husband and how he tortured her etc. And I just
looked at her and it meant nothing and I had to be polite,
I told her all that mattered was p. a., and she said (the
usual) that she " understood herself " etc. ; fatal. I may
later, after I see how Cole " shapes " , get Oppie into
it, as people like Oppie talk a lot and advertise things.
She needs it, if any body does. I took her then to K., and
it was the same. K. evidently likes her and felt drawn to
her as she apparently did just as he (K) did, spent all her
money etc. etc. I suppose K. felt she would
" understand " though of course, we kept off all that.

K. took us out to dinner and then to the new Dietrich, it
is marvelous, Dishonoured, really one of the best films I
have ever seen, ranks with Pabst, almost, though of course more

2.

supersficial. K. wants me to write about it for C.U. but
I am so off film criticism, feel out of it, with all this p. a.,
uprooting. I would like to write it, and may do, will
let you know.

About Puss ... what I said holds, ~~my~~ dear. I ~~am~~ already anytime to go with her. My complex is this: I am tired and rather battered by these cross-currents of p.a. etc. I feel simply, that I am not PHYSICALLY fit enough to give P. the GOOD TIME she deserves. Do you see ????owntoo?? If it is hot, and I am limp and can't take P. on excursions, I will ~~feel~~ I am letting her down and so on. Also, I did not want you nor P. to think I would not LOVE it. P. must realize how I would love it. It is the heat, and my feeling so battered now. And I never know now, how I will feel, I mean simply strength and nerve energy.

I would like to take P. one time to Italy, if it were fall and
P. free, nothing would make me happier, do you see ????~~ Can
I leave it to you ????~~ Find out tactfully what she wants, and
then arrange. I am here and will be THERE and ready for ANYTHING.
It's a matter of what will give P. the most pleasure, and I don't
want to get away with her, and then be limp and no good. Can you
arrange ? You see, I am so very anxious to do and be RIGHT. But want
the best for P.

I am ready and I leave it to FISH

and FIDO.

Write

Please do write to Cole. She would love it.

I approve of " commercial English ", and of Miss N. having
hair done, we must all be snapped up and moderne.

Chaddie, is sorry, I think, about M. but she begins to

talk and goes on and on about him, and it's almost
a complex of hers, like Dan, she stands and talks, or did.
I love talking of course, but always feel "trapped";
now she has Cole in the little boy's hour, so I have to
leave as in the old days, more or less, on time.
Chad appears very excited about going out.

I regret rotten typing.

Love to dear Puss. K. is glued to the photographs and seems
to be busy on things for it ... the house, I mean.

Love dears,

July 1. Wed.

========

Dear Fido, July is in with the Crab. Well... I think of long sand-stretches and the ~~roll~~ of the Atlantic. I do not know whether I will find this ~~in S. France~~ or will want to ... later. As I wrote yesterday, will you and Puss, ask FISH what is right, and I will abide by it. I want, at the moment, only you and Puss and the HOUSE. O the HOUSE ... the HOUSE. I dream about it. K. came in and was all keen on things he was doing, he stayed a half hour, had tea, and went on somewhere before shops shut, to get some paint, I think.

He thinks for me a touch of " hyacinth " would go with my curtains, and he will have same on bath-room ceiling, and also somewhere on some stairs. I will see the girl to-day and hint that there MAY be more work , but will not commit you nor her, lest she be disappointed. I did not promise her anything, just hinted there MIGHT be more work, as I thought you might want Berlin things. I will go to-day and say that when mine is finished, there MAY be more. I feel she is in the right vibration and K. was wild over her looms and colours and Swedish spools etc.

O my God. I think it is coming RIGHT. I got another little fish-book that I consult, stars and things, and it has been very kind to me.

I AM so proud that puss is doing commercial English. The carbon is excellent. She will help us all. Does she like it ?

Get her to write me, or you dictate to her to me.

How is

her sex investigation going ???? All I want now is
a HOUSE and a canoe or some kind of boat. My ideas are
all boling down to adolescent hiking and camp and fires and
boats. ( No... I do not actually want to hike, but lie
along on rocks by camp fires and watch the stars and moon. )
Well...

I will try to take my proofs back to Chatto to-day. And I saw some
pretty summer things in Swan and Edgar, I may go and look at.
The English things FIT me, that is the great advantage, getting
a few pyjama suits etc. here.

K. helped me with proofs, he was very good about it.

I must get out now, dear Fido and Puss. I feel you are
both so near to me, being near to one another. Take care of
each other. I will be so glad to see you both.
O... I love the HOUSE.

read
I gave Rvr. the
bit about the new boarding house. He
really WAS amused. He thinks it will be a solution of all
evils. And cheap, too. I am so glad about that, too. I will
have more to say on it, later.

Good-luck darlings,

The letter was from Josephine Weaver. I will try to see her.
Explain to the niece, if she arrives ...

Thurs.
July 2, evening.

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K. came in, unexpectedly, at about six, with a lot of colours,
and the one for my room. I think it lovely. I expressed his
letter to you. He had a lot of paint-plans and seemed
very keen. He had a drink and then went on to Chaddie.
I had not arranged to see him, he seems to know when I get
luke-warm and runs in. I am to call him up in the morning, as
it appears Paul has been trying to get him and K. was to
rush back from Chaddie in order to make Paul a cocktail. I
said would K. make a plan so I could see Paul, as P. seems to
be free ( he says ) all next week. I am to call K. up to see,
as the sp. girl, has turned out rather queer and " fish. " It
was the first time I saw her alone, to-day at Kasbeck. She was
quite different and poured out the story of her life, more or
less ( but this private ). She seems to be a sort of South
American Bryher, her father a mathematician and I judge, a sort
of Peruvian Sir John, of sorts. At least, I get some of that. She
likes V. Hunt, as she was " continental " " and V. had
suggested that as she had a whole empty house, she would take the
girl as a paying guest. I thought the girl would just take it
as a joke, but she seems to think if V.H. is

serious, she would like to go there. This is all
sort of cross-Chaddie as the Chopitea did not want to take
the flat above C. But this is MOST PRIVATE. I can't go into
more of it, but it is all most uncanny and sort of early Bryher.
So we all go to V.H. on Saturday, and I will leave them to fix it
up, if things seem to arrange themselves like that.
She has asked me to that German I can't remember his name)
famous singer in a show here, early in the week. She is very
good alone, but of course, her lameness is always sad.

Well... Paul, as in answer to prayer. If only K. could see a bit
if HIM now. K. saw Buddy for lunch, but I was not
much interested, and did not inquire much. I will try to write
Buddy, but it is too hopeless, without p.a. A sort of door closes
on people who are slack now, and who snub p.a. I paid for Cole,
for a month, it will be fun to hear how she goes on. I will call
her up. Just did call her up but
her man answered, and said she would give me a ring later. I will
try to see her for lunch to-morrow.

I think the grey silk stocking you gave me, brought me good-luck.
I wore them to-day. They fit so beautifully. My other ones, are
none of them so nice. I only began to wear them recently, as they
were so thin. I still have biscuits, a lot of coffee,
tea and two jars of jam. And still a little of the candy.
I still also have cigarettes, so you see what you have done
for me. You ask of my MIND, my reading. Well, I have been
brousing, for the most part, over old books, as they bring
up memories etc. etc. I also brouse over little fish-books,
and as that is sort of

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I do shell and ball and cards, but not
in excess. All these things mean MORE since P.A. I was
afraid ~~some~~ of them might mean less. I have also new
little side-fish books etc. etc. The days go
very quickly, and now, in just two weeks, D.V., I will
be well on the way. I tried to change my ticket for this
vaunted summer train, but was told the Orient was better. So
I arrive Orient, D.V., as per arrangement, the Fri.,
July 17th. I think it best to stick to the first plan,
as otherwise, it rather joggles my mind, and I made plans
for room etc. up to the Thurs. However ... if it were
anything very pressing I could rush out, if you
wanted. O ... the HOUSE. I really am sorry you have it all,
but K. should " take over " soon. He did seem keen, and I
tnsgut does not go all mou and slack, again. I imagine in
time, he will reflect more of his old contour. But I am
now, rather in a fish-world, and want what I have, space, and
friends and dreeeeams. You know. And a HOUSE. And maybe
later a CAT, and maybe later, a garden, and maybe later,

a canoe... all on that level.

Good-night ... more to-morrow, I trust. I usually have more time
than I plan the night before ...

Friday, July 3, morning.

Since writing, I have had your two letters and an exquisite
snow-crocus card from Puss. Again about PLANB. Of course, I DO
WANT the sea. The whole thing is : I repeat : its almost
impossible to say finally anything till I see you. Will you tell
Puss that I will not go South without her, anyhow I will
hope to go with her, but I must see you first. Can it be left
like that ???? Also, I do not want her to give up any trip
with boys en hout. Also, frankly, I will be glad to get away
from all this p.a., I mean if I am NOT being analyzed there,
I shall be glad ( entre nous ) to have a rest and change from just
this Bloomsbury atmosphere. I like Chaddie, so very, very much.
You know that. And she has done miracles for me. But I will be
just as glad to get out of the atmosphere, once she is there. You
see, I have had a good bit of it ... well, that is an added
reason for wanting to get South with Puss. Now will you think it
all out. But you see how it is, one can NOT say day and date and
place and IF, all from this end, amidst the most vital u.c.
states, that I know it would be fatal to disturb. You think it
much out, I want to go South, so very much.

The house sounds more and more thrilling and more and more ...
hopeless. Of course, we will HAVE to camp on the roof, there is
no other way for it.

Thurs. July 9.

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Fido dear, I judge you were not interested in your
star-lesson!!!! I know how you must feel....HOUSE!
K. is now due out, I think, the day before I am. I am sorry
it is not sooner. I am 2 ways about him ... all the time.
I suppose he is 2 ways himself about himself. I told
him yesterday, as he was so busy, that I would help. He gave me
lining for car, which I couldn't find. I will give it
back, he must look Harrodstell me in a motar supply shop.
I was going to Harrods to look for pyjamas so I told him I would
look out incenerator. I got one you like best, not much
over £1 but the freight is almost the same as the
barrel. I enclose the slip as you may need it. K. said he
had the money for it and would return it to me.
Please give Pup the silver, enclosed also.

I did not get what I wanted at Harrods, but got a model,
slightly reduced three piece summer lounge suit at Goughes. I
wanted something from the west end. I will have enough to go
on with, dear Fido, but have linings etc. for the dressmaker

to do first. I also got two cheap garden straws, they are a good

the market here, but one never knows if one
can get these things south. I now feel very much
I would like to stay with P. near sea. Could you ask
Addie, where? I don't suppose so. There was a place
we pass in the train, I wonder if you could find out from
Addie where it is. There is a hotel in a pine woods,
she must know it, and people were having al fresco dinner. It
looked rather select, as was off the main track.
It was about an hour out from Monte, in France. The
place was wooded and hills behind it, lowish hills, but
wooded with pine etc. The sea was near and the edge of the
sea looked wooded and rocky, but of course the whole
sea-edge may be private, as it is so often on the
French side. On the other hand, we know Monte. But where could
we stay ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? Could we stay in some quite little place
on the other side, on the Monaco side, do you think ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? You
see its awkward ask if Addie, yet, in a way, I know Monte.
And we know the bathig restrictions are simple. There is that
clean village, Monaco, side, I don't know. Could Puss
tell, do you think ? Or has Puss any ideas, maybe one of the
other little towns, Roquebrune or something. I don't want to go
involved with Addie, but you may be able to pump her, as
for an American friend, could you ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?
L. R. sounds delightful. . . I wish K. were leaving to-day. Its
all so queer. . . I do want to talk to you. P. A. HAS
helped but there are still such queer snags.

I did found Eileen had left good-bye flowers for me, so I
must call her up now and thank her, she goes off to-day. I have
not seen her here alone since you left. Just as well, perhaps.

RIANT CHATEAU
TERRITET
SUISSE

But I was vey touched with the flowers and still have some
clothes she might like. I gave Cole the best and kept some
for self. But I have some two years backthings I myself were
later at Monte, that have queer associations, E. might dowith
them, and I will now hope to live in pyjamas. I told you,
Chaddie, has a supply, didn't I ????_

Will you let me know the approximate size of the couch in
my new room. Will it be the one I already have ???? I told the
spinning girl, I would get the measurements. She can of
course, do the usual double or single size couch bed, but it's
better, so course, to have the actual size in doing this
work.

I am sorry my letter is so dull. Had a perfectly rotten
night, got up a terrible " phobe " that keeps recurring, but I
think I got up a lot that matters, in a nightmare and
bad sleepless night, anyhow... I hope so. But I feel
rotten. Well... I will write again, and thank you
always, always,