LECTURE III (or Seven impulses characterize genuine man)

"7 psychic factors proper exclusively only to man".

"I shall speak about 3 : CAN, WISH, and THE-ENTIRE-SENSING-of-the-whole-of-myself".

It is necessary first to learn to divide one's attention into 3 approximately equal parts and to concentrate each separate part, simultaneously for a definite time, on 3 diverse inner or outer "objects".

"Soil-preparing" exercise.

Americans begin with Exercise 4, thus :

First of all one's attention must be divided approximately into three equal parts, each of these parts must be concentrated on three fingers of the right or left hand, for instance : the fore-finger, third and fourth; constating in one finger the result proceeding in it of the organic process called "sensing", in another the result of the process called "feeling", and with the third making any rhythmical movement and at the same time automatically conducting with the flowing of mental associations a sequential or varied manner of counting.

FEELING-CENTER = nervous sympathetic nodes. Solar plexus chief agglomeration.

SENSING-CENTER = _moving_ center = nervous moving-nodes, partly spinal column and partly head brain.

(Most difficult of all the exercises of this series, but necessary for the Americans. At the beginning one must all the time try only to understand the sense and significance of this exercise without expecting to obtain any concrete results).

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**Essence** changes in form as often as the center of gravity changes.

Faith = Christian term for magnetic center = Gurdjieff's use of word "smell."

First semi-tone = impetus to self-development

Second " " = how to serve God.

The horizontal line is the popular idea of Good and Evil.

**Absolute Evil** = absence of serviceability and functioning.

**GOOD AND EVIL** (Nov 19, 1929) - Orage's formulations at end of third evening.

The absolute by definition is the whole considered as one.

The absolute to which we refer is the whole of our world.

The self-contained unitary absolute presents two features : a status quo (i.e., its condition at any given moment) and a movement. (1/ Static, 2/ Dynamic).

Note : Two kinds of Will : Static= to stabilize
Dynamic = to develop

These two features presuppose a plan or design which necessitates a
maintainance and a development and = a plan of campaign and an army
to carry out the campaign.

Objective of plan of campaign id development of ochid....? Total plan
= objectiveness = fulfillment of potential of each being.

The plan of campaign is being carried out by all beings consciously or
unconsciously to the extent to which they remain beings. Only possibil-
ty of escape from plan is that they should cease to be.

The potentiality of beings is to be conscious of plan, and to develop
at same time Will to co-operate with it.

Aimment of this state of conscious willing co-operation is defined
as right. Failure to develop is defined as Wrong.

This plan of campaign by its nature, and by the nature of beings, is
discoverable by all beings. In absence of personal discovery of plan
of campaign all reports are under suspicion of beings subjectively de-
termined. Consequently, obedience to any standard of morality (religion,
society, etc.) risks the wrong-doing of the individual.

In Gurdjieff text claim is made that principles of right and wrong as
laid down are from prime source - formulated by being Divine (by divine Being).

SPITITUALISM

(Dec 4, 1929)

Octave of first plane of matter :

Do, re, mi - our material body

fa - the bridge

sol, la, si - our etheric body (also physical). (NOT the astral or second body, but part of first body)

The etheric body surrounds (3 or 4 inches) and interpenetrates the material do-re-mi body we know. Is of rarer substances and coherent. Has its own 5 senses, and senses differently. Can separate from other body in life.

Mediums and mediumistic persons are in a state of misplaced center of gravity. Dangerous.

Extreme fatigue, illness, excitement puts one on this state of seeing the etheric body.

The body dies - the etheric body remains a day, a year or thousands of years - speaks the words that are old records, turned on by accident. So entirely automatic, decomposing etheric force is the conversation reported from the spirits. (Real reason for its banalities!)

Cremation destroys the etheric body.

By *blood fumes* (so-called black magic) one sees etheric bodies or *amas*.

The function of the etheric body is to refine grosser substances. Acts as forces - super-dynamo for tuning our special forms of consciousness - (emotional and mental centers).

Mediumship is induced by change of blood currents (streams) - also drugs, hysteria, certain nerve pressure - makes different state of consciousness.

Consciousness is NOT dependent upon constituents of blood but on *channel* - or blood streams (determines races, nations, even family).

*Channel* of even smallest blood vessel may change - makes different state of consciousness.

There is a *second blood stream* for etheric body - colour is steel blue - quite separate from other blood. Absence is said to cause anaemia. Doctors prescribe sunlight.

The etheric body has its own senses - sight, hearing, etc., - but these senses are of entirely different range. What is called *second sight*, for instance, is due to etheric body. The etheric body is responsible for what we call nervous tone.

Blake in his "Marriage of Heaven and Hell" described the angel with whom he talked as changing colour repeatedly. Aura.

In Tibet the lama was about to divulge an important legomonism when sudden death came. For him consciousness could continue in the etheric.

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H 6 Solar gods. (These were once given as archangels and angels and are synonymous with Orage).

H 12 Planetary gods.

H 24 Man

H 48 Apes (Carol puts a question here. Can't imagine why).

H 96 Vertebrate

H 192 Invertebrate

H 384 Vegetable, etc.

Do stuff (?) (ethnomorphs)

Re metals

Mi minerals

Fa vegetable

S61 invertebrate

La vertebrate

Si man

Orage says a being of a certain octave cannot recognize a being of a higher octave as such, and that we view a planetary god as a planet; that a cat views a man wrongly in the same way. (Denied by D.King). why? Suggested that cat has higher development, is on his way to 24, whereas we are not on our way to 48. It seems that within 24, for instance, there may be a whole octave of development. (Also? special gap between si and do, man and god.

Orage further stated that a being of a higher scale could affect the lives of beings of a lower scale without their knowing it. Thus man might shoot a cat and to eat it would be an accident. So our "accidental" deaths are hot accident but due to act of planetary god. Orage said no death was accidental(from chemical point of view).

## MAN CONSIDERED PHYSIOLOGICALLY:

Man's position as man not si in evolutionary scale given

Man as Nature's sex cells (free to wander)

Orage discussed Norse mythological tree, Ygdrasil - all parts of which are beings.

Man is seed: 1/ Nature's objective and culmination
2/ free, falls from tree
3/ the epitome of all the life that has gone before

Chemically the unit is the atom.

Physiologically the unit is the cell.

We are terminal nerve cells of the planetary god and so responsible for his development. (wonderful like Jane.)

["quantum theory a full note of the scale must be actualized or nothing is\ndone. Thus a transformation (transforming?). Many are called but few are\nchosen.", "There are four stages in the going from 48-248", "1. Egypt - do, râ, mi. Mechanical man.", "2. Desert - fa. Self-conscious man.", "3. Promised land - sol, la, si. Cosmic consciousness.", "Man as he is receives the impression of the two higher stages, but uncon-\nsciously. Do, is primitive man", "Re, the great herd", "Mi, the better, divided into two :ндун~~і~~і~~і~~і~~і~~і~~і~~і~~і~~і~~і

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## INCARNATION, REINCARNATION

"Reincarnation presupposes incarnation". Stress falls first on Incarna-
tion. Is it a completed fact or a fact in process. Not yet a subject
to a repetition until completed process. (G's method is a technique for
speeding-up a process in activity - not to be identified with the process
itself).
Not a process of "materialization"
Not a process of "taking on a body"
Not a process of "embodiment.

Whitehead : "It is a process of "concretizing".
"Coating" is Gurdjieff's word, provisionally satisfactory for word "incar-
nation". A more subtle word than any above synonym.

"As long as we have remained a sleeping passenger, the process is still
taking place". (Orage continued the driver, horse, cart analogy; the
owner (master), "I", asleep.

Forms of consciousness . . . Being . . . "Being" is incarnation.

Analogy : Tree, seed = reincarnation
Leaves = incarnation

Orage says he used this - leaves - for recurrence as against reincarnation. Each succeeding leaf differs by totality of tree. Gurdjieff speaks of "blocks of essence" = the tree. Blocks of essence = human life, and leaves = each life. Leaves recur - not to be confused with reincarnation. But seed falls from tree and entire cycle is repeated = principle of reincarna-tion.

Gurdjieff. Everyone of us recurs, Not a reincarnation of previous leaf or
a continuation - does not inherit any of the virtue or experience. Issues
from a common essence - but no continuation of individuality. So - we only
recur like leaves - no continuity of progress except as the (tree) human
essence has undergone development.

Individual can pass from wheel of recurrence by identifying himself with
another part of tree - seed, relative freedom. But maxx oak to oak - type,

God is subject to 3 laws - the nature of His Will, Consciousness, Individ-
uality (primordial, or existing from the beginning).

Next order of creation is under 6 laws : 3 laws of his own
and 3 laws preceeding

Next order of creation is under 12 laws : 3 of its own
9 of two series before (6+3)

(Hydrogen) 24 laws for us; 3 being the primordial laws for our being
+3+6+9. (+3+9+9? Carol questions this as possi-
ble mistake in text).

If we were to pass from 24 to 12 laws, that is gaining relative freedom.
12-6 + 6-3 as far as we go.

"Time-tube" - Eddington. Concretize any cross-section of one's past or
future, and every cross-section in time-tube remains constant. (1) with
static pulsation; but there is also (2) dynamic movement. And any cross-
section if understood, reveals the whole time, simultaneity, all that has
been and that will be is implicit.

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In waking state there is a magnetic tie between the three centers. This is broken in sleep. Sometimes this tie wears very thin, e.g., Hamlet - third center only. Near dream state with delayed responses in other two centers. Usually order is physical experience with two following.

Think of 3 spheres in each of which are the letters A-Z. If, for example, A be struck in one center it calls out A in other two (overtoes). This is normal (usual?).

The Legomonists made art (artificial) in which three rhythms, e.g.,
A in one center
B in another
C in another

were played, each a strong experience affecting incongruous groups.

Removing conditioning = the independent working of each of the three centers while each is still magnetically associated with the others two.

**Memory** - three different keyboards of vibrations. All impressions are images. Images in each center (not visual). Image = power of recall or re-experience of anything that the three centers have already experienced. Becomes a perpetual activity and continues as long as the organism lasts.

Gurdjieff's example of the boxes, one within the other. Any impression received in first pass through and into the second and third = Blossom, fruit and seed, operating in simultaneity and succession.

So - ultimate seat of memory is (in) center of psyche - middle box - mental matter.

Fields of memory = spheres in which impression continues to act as it originally began to act.

An atom of ether is simultaneously in all parts of ether at once. Psyche = an epitomized cosmic field = ideal form in which each atom of ether is both localized and eternal.

The Akashic (?) records (or cosmic memory) consist of field of cosmic ether.

The psyche is indestructible (with one exception - see Chapter "Purgatory")
The psyche = the material instrumentation of "I".

The psyche = both the form of the field and contents of the field. (Field of Ethernokrato and has 3 Emanations - God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost).

In any given psyche the contents of Ethernokrato have 3 potentialities, but only in developed psyche are these 3 forms differentiated into centers and only when each center has become the root of a body is the psyche said to be a soul.

3 bodies : 
etheric = blossom
astral = fruit
mental = seed

Completed soul = completed/seed.

The above 3 bodies, plus physical or planetary body, make Man what was spirit was called quaternary in Pythagorean teaching - on this planet - instead of only trinity.

The planetary body (modelled atom for atom on the etheric body) for calling us tetartocosmos beings, = It is necessary to have this kind of a body on our planet.

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The etheric body is the definitive body. The planetary body is put on it (patterned on it) and is the double of it. The etheric is the original. ("Coating" - Gurdjieff's electrolysis).

AXIOINA (Remorse) (from chapter "Arch-Absurd")

(Psyche - crystallized essence)

"Djartklom" is the first peculiarity of the holy Okidonok. Djartklom - the process of scattering electricity into its 3 prime sources.

Ethernokrno (prime source substance) = primary matter from emanations from Sun Absolute from which all things are made. Basis for everything that exists.

LAW OF ASSOCIATIONS (continued) January 20

Impression newly arriving in center hitherto unoccupied has nothing to associate with. Simile - violin :

1. Bow is stimulus for impression

2. String is nerve tract

3. Violin is receptacle (or our body)

Tone is the impression deposited.

Nerve tract may be cut - illness, intoxication, etc.

Laws of association in each center are according to octave, but three centers taken as unity are law of Triamesacanno - as the three notes do sol do form octave of 7.

Negative impressions we call "deprivation" quality; not just minus quantity, but absence of quality. Related to + being and -- non-being.

FIRST LAW - law of contrast or polarity (+ and -). Electricity - polarized - center is now mopped out.

(Word dicotying (?) used several times. Can't find in Oxford) (Carol).

An incoming charge is modified by character of charges already in globe or center, which can be described as "swirls", but not chaos. Divided into hemispheres - swirls and anti-swirls.

SECOND LAW : Law of propinquity in point of Time.

THIRD LAW : " " " " " Space

FOURTH LAW : Law of Similarity of rates of vibrations - all positives, all negatives. Grouping of impressions per se in each center - same law as governs human units in society - basis

of Gurdjieff's book. (All this (above) antecedent to the introduction of a new element or catalyst - not conscious, no superior agency or force.

Similarity includes concordance (e.g., recognition of any major chord as major, also examples of words, etc.).

(Law 1 is Major law - refers to the whole - two hemispheres. Laws 2,3,4,5 - Minor - refer to single hemispheres).

FIFTH LAW : Density, weight, gravity, gravitation (consider this as re garded tones, planets, notes in scale, etc.)

not reined, but is bound to respond to the casual images of the mind - of the sleeping driver. Only when the cart is smashed does the driver awake (if then); until then he dreams that he is accomplishing his object, quite unaware that he is constantly frustrated and arrives at just where he does not wish to arrive.

Gurdjieff's Method applies to the passenger. The passenger wakes up when he realizes he is in an equipage. He next wakens the driver. Why an equipage? That the passenger may realize the meaning and aim of existence.

There must always be a means, a ship, a vehicle on every plane. The fore-ordained vehicle on this plane is the three-centered planetary body. The passenger, having taken the ship, goes below in calm and falls asleep through the voyage.

"I"'s work is not to harmonize. Harmony is a by-product of "I" agreeing.

"I" on one side, electricity on the other.

The communication of electricity (the whole of the external world) and "I" is the understanding vibrations. (Doubtful? M.C.A. Not very informative.)

"I heard a beggar yell and it was me".

"I" is sometimes awakened by accidental shocks but "I" does not remain awake except by use of the Method.

"I" is attached to "It" through essence.

"I" is a potentiality of essence. The function of "I" is objective - is objective knowledge.

Individuality is the consciousness of Will. Personality is the awareness of a wish. To be conscious of Will is to have Individuality, to be aware of Wish is to have Personality.

I am equilateral when aware; any other triangle out of harmony. God is equilateral and therefore can only see us when we are aware.

"I" cannot sense, feel, or receive impressions. Body does.

In FIRST BODY we have instinctive reason. In SECOND BODY we have subjective reason. In THIRD BODY we have objective reason.

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PONDERING

Pondering is the neutralizing force. In the absence of pondering all impressions go into either Intellectual (positive) or Instinctive (negative) deposits and leave the Emotional (or neutralizing) center vacant. Pondering is the food of the emotional center. The difference between thought and pondering is that pondering includes clarity (thinking center) with emotional element (emotional center) which is the seat of essence.

Pondering has weight and value.

Without emotion there is no value, only logic - weighing clarity against clarity.

Thinking octave : 
Sol = concentration
La = meditation
Si = contemplation

= 3 notes in thinking scale

Question : What relation do meditation and contemplation have to pondering?

Answer : None.

Our emotions are -at root - based upon our Being or Non-Being. Positive, expanded; negative, contracted.

Emotions : the thermometer of state of Being at the moment.

What is weighed in **pondering** as against what is weighed in **thinking** are our experiences of preference and disinclination in the emotional center; likes and dislikes against dislikes, pleasure against displeasure, relative to the criteria of Being.

Happiness can be described as the conscious experience of Becoming.

Pondering is nearer Being than anything that goes on in either of the other two centers (one and three).

Nº 9 in scale of centers is the intellectual sub-center of the emotional center.

Am I creating those objective values that I was created to create?

There are 3 approaches to knowledge of the aim of existence :

1. Values according to likes and dislikes. (Infantism). **Emotional**

2. Welfare of planetary body - state of being called existence.

**Physical.**

3. **Being** - continuity of being - expansion - state of becoming - experiences of happiness (real), experiences of pondering. Related to permanence of Being.

Planetary existence related to **trogoautoegocrat** value.

Being - related to God.

Essential element in pondering is the very center of Being.

(Gabneli's (?) measuring rod = Where do I stand?

Blessed are they who have intense experiences.

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Parabolic account of the nature of man's development of first three centers is Old Testament, and nature of man's development in three higher centers is New Testament; and the correspondances 1, 2, 3 (Old) 5, 6, 7 (New)

St Paul takes myths from the Old Testament and translates them into mean-
ing of New Testament, e.g., Hagar cast out daughter - symbol of pseudo-
center, refers to it as allegory.

Jesus does the same - refers to Old Adam and New Adam.

The word "promise" seldom used in Old Testament. Had very special <u>meaning</u> and important use = exhibiting symptoms of potentiality.

Only historic plausibility in Old Testament, but, however, don't take it as history - only allegory. But we can say : Old Testament= historical parable.

New " = psychological parable

(miracles as text)

New Testament. It was characteristic of disciples to astound former companions by resourcefulness, illustration, apt example, etc. "He that shall practise this method shall find himself bringing out of his treasury things both new and old". (A symptom - embarrassed with rishes of latent memory (memories?).

What is the advantage of stating a method by parable, instead of by fact?
Answer : Gurdjieff : "I bury the bone so that the dog, if he smells it, must scratch for it - and deep, so that with mush scratching understanding comes".
Method = "new sense of smell" (Gurdjieff).
= divining rod, or measuring rod.

G. also says "Plenty of keys in the book, but I never put a key near the lock".

Israel attempted to argue that Einstein was really parabolic. No, said Orage, purely <u>symbolic</u> language; not even language - a <u>code</u>.

Three-centers parable : horse (3), cow (2), goat (1) ?
Allegory : the three bears - only a picture.

Example of trans-solar ships ( first Gurdjieff book ) : <u>astral and spiritual</u> to make communication possible outside this sphere.

Example : cart, horse, driver, passenger. Best of all parables. Orage dis-cussed use of reins, taming horse, etc. Plato speaks of charoteer, chariot, drawn by two horses, one white (positive emotions), one black (negative emotions).

Fairy tales begin to fill magnetic center of child. New fairy tales ("Alice in Wonderland" only exception) cannot compare with old. It is to be supposed that the writers had <u>knowledge</u>, cast it into popular language.

Allegory is a parallel.

Fable is not a parallel (because the original is distorted).

We are incapable of writing <u>parable</u>.

Old meaning of parable = "An earthly story with a heavenly meaning".

Content = cosmic truth. Instead of "heavenly" meaning call it "cosmic" meaning or universal truth, facts of objective kind; if less than that, it becomes moral or scientific, etc.

Story told on instinctive plane must have its emotional and intellectual counterparts.

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Referred several times to Wagner, who has written eight or ten volumes of prose, including his own dramas to all the operas. "The Ring" elaborate allegory. In all he shows himself to be a sentimental moralist of the worst sort. (Read Nietzsche's "The Case of Wagner"). The allegory is so bad that his music must be equally bad (aroused a fury!) Bombastic, sentimental playtitudes - almost infantile.

Music weighed like literature. Two things : Content, as stated in terms of prose.
Form - pleasure of its poetic expression

Shelley's own comment on "Queen Mab" is as intelligent prose as the poem is a poem.

Swinburne - infantile

Joyce - disease

Stravinsky - very bad

Bach (2), Palestrina (1), Beethoven (3)

Blake's "prophetic books" are not parable. Spoke of Saurat (who wrote "The Three Conventions") - new book on Blake's mythology, in which he traces it to its sources in Swedenborgian religion, which was Blake's religion.

BEING refers to status of octave as a whole.

EXISTENCE refers to the movement up and down the scale.

Evolution = actualizing of potentialities

Involution = v.v. (?) potentializing of actualities.

MAJOR SCALE = scale in which totality of objects or beings is represented.

EVOLUTION - INVOLUTION

<table><thead><tr><th></th><th>Other Octave.</th><th>Down?</th><th></th></tr></thead><tbody><tr><td>do</td><td>man</td><td></td><td>(Is matter</td></tr><tr><td>si</td><td>monkey</td><td></td><td>for</td></tr><tr><td>la</td><td>vertébrate</td><td></td><td>science,</td></tr><tr><td>sol</td><td>invertébrate</td><td></td><td>and of less</td></tr><tr><td>fa</td><td>vegetable</td><td></td><td>interest to</td></tr><tr><td>mi</td><td>mineral</td><td></td><td>system)</td></tr><tr><td>re</td><td>metals</td><td></td><td></td></tr><tr><td>do</td><td>man</td><td></td><td></td></tr></tbody></table>

Can be various octave diagrams - each differs according to subject of interest (do). If it is MAN, he is do, and not mi, as in a different frame of reference. But we are always talking about the same phenomena. Gurdjieff method : Man's interest in himself is the first premise. Man = do.

Two things about the Togoaftoegokrat :

1. Its maintenance.

2. That maintenance, or progress, subserves its development.

When expert in the method, one can enter into one's instinctive center and discover a replica of the organic kingdom.

Question : Where do we now stand?

conscience is the most va luable thing in man. and since conscience is sustained by faith his religion, therefore I respect his religion and sin if I should begin to judge his religion or and thus destroy his conscience which can only

I respect his conscience,
faith and his faith by his
for me it would be a great
to disillusion him in it,
be acquired in childhood".

Chapter VIII. Prince I... Linbovedsls1 (?) (includes account of Vitviskaia and Soloviev and beginning of Prof. Skridloff - archeologist - on trip to Gobi Desert where Soloviev was killed by wild camel.

Chapter I of Book II. Ekkim Bey.

Chapter II. Peter Karpenko.

Chapter III. Professor Skridloff.

Steiner : "An Outline of Occult Science"
"A Knowledge of Higher Worlds"
"The Story of My Life" (ends 1912; died 1925)
"The New Art of Education"
"Lectures to Teachers"
"Essentials of Education"
"The Education of the Child"

Occultists believe in 3 kinds of clairvoyance : 
1. Hereditary
2. Karmic (transmitted
from our own
previous incar-
nations)
3. Conscious.

Rudolf Steiner claimed karmic clairvoyance.

Delphic priestesses or pythonesses had clairvoyant gifts.

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# The Five Facets of the Mind

(Five ways in which Gurdjieff's book can be read). For:

1. BEX POWER. We read to extract a "method", support for our arguments, etc. Not to get at truth.

2. MENTAL (Critical). Newspaper. We compare with everything we have heard before and reject everything that does not conform. This facet is scribbled over so that the truth can't go through.

3. MENTAL (The position of the esoteric scholar, G.R.S. Mead). Accepts, but merely to compare with other systems.

4. EMOTIONAL, AESTHETIC. Looking for purple patches.

5. EMOTIONAL (Wonder). Become as little children. Here the truth enters so that it appears as though nothing happened.

(To attain 5 the book must be read aloud. In reading aloud we cannot avoid 2. That is why Catholic Church permitted the Bible to be read only in church). (I think there's a mistake in this note. Makes no sense to me. - M.C.A.)

## CHAPTER ON ART

### CHAPTER ON ART

Music now creates mechanical associations in one single center only, the center which chances to dominate at that moment (where your center of gravity temporarily is), but may vary at another moment-- same music call forth another response in same being. Perhaps only an emotional sub-center of instinctive or intellectual affected.

The artist pulls one stop at a time.

Babylonian sacred melodies - as if sounds entering in combinations were afterward sorted out - all equal intensities, producing 3 quite separate promptings (or manifestations?) = jad . . . ?), e.g.;

third center - joy (intellectual sub-center)

second center - sadness (emotional sub-center)

first center - religious posture (instinctive sub-center)

- 3 influences simultaneously combined by a melody.

(This note impossible to understand without having read his Art chapter, and even then not clearly stated, to me. - M.C.A.)

only?
M.C.A.

PRESERVATION PHOTOCOPY: ORIGINAL MATERIAL RESTRICTED

January 2 1936

New Year with Gurdjieff.

I want to tell you about it just the way it happened, because
seeing him made the day for me, and perhaps will make the year.
Gloomy yesterday and rainy, I had no feeling it was the beginning
of a New Year or the beginning of anything for that matter.
Mi-chemin with every one of my problems, yesterday was just
Wednesday, no different from the previous day, Tuesday.

I phoned Solita, she had to go to his house around 1 P.M. - but
I said, Maybe if we tried to catch him in the Cafe de la Paix,
I'd have a chance to see him too. Solita said, Yes, but I'll
need a half hour to dress etc. . . .then I haggled, But
in a half hour perhaps he will have left the cafe (been leaving
before noon these days) and we'll have the trip for nothing. . .
back and forth haggling and debating, no direction, no Action
anywhere (in me, I mean) and finally hung up deciding not to go
to the cafe. . . . . . Then upstairs in my room, walking around
aimless and indirect. Some of his chapters walked back and forth
in my mind - remember the "gallery" chapters, people who were
"turning points" in his life and how he travelled days and miles
to find them? Prince Liubovedski, Skridloff, etc? Remember
the 21 day ride through Turkestan, blindfolded, when he went to
a monastery where he thought he might hear something? I thought
of those chapters and suddenly the shocking shame of my attitude
came over me - me, unwilling to take a bus ride to the Opera
on mere chance that he would be in the cafe, unwilling to give
up half an hour and 3 bus tickets on the CHANCE OF SEEING G -

up half an hour and 3 bus tickets on the CHANCE OF SEEING G -
I was out of my work clothes in 3 minutes, 2 minutes later
dressed and going out the door. It was just 11 when I walked in
the cafe. He was sitting there, alone. I sat at a table near,
waiting until he would see me. His eyes examining every person
who came in the cafe found me quickly - Crocodile, he called -
and I went over to his table - straight into the most beautiful
smile I ever saw. I felt his mood, friendly, glad for company,
and touched with a special kind of gentleness he has on holidays
like Christmas and New Year - it was the Perfect Moment to find him
alone, like the first time I found him alone after Jane left. . .
and I was so surprised that at long last an impulse had been
correct, I kept saying to myself, Well, Katie Hulme I beat your
inertia that time, I put it over on you, Katie Hulme. . . .and
felt near to tears - just for the emotion of having made Katie
Hulme do a right thing at a proper moment. Tears of victory maybe.

And how your New Year? he asked. No party last night, I
said, No feeling of holiday, yesterday like any day, Theen One (Alice)
and myself go home eleven o'clock. He teased me for not being
able to make something on New Year. I have beeg party, he said,
beeg party, many people, and champagne, veritable champagne.
(Solita had seen one mangy little bottle of champagne in his
house, but he was making his story beeg) Then he told me how his
Fontainebleau nephew "met a beeg year" having a breakdown coming
to Paris from Fontainebleau and not getting into Paris until
10 A.M. New Year's Day - and how he sent his nephew right back
to Fontainebleau for a task - laughing and saying Idiot, idiot,
he meet beeg new year. Then we were silent a long time.
Then he said - Ach, holy
*day* - idiot day, look all those
sleep - once could make something
Ten year, twenty year ago - holy-day
*beep* ple*(in street) asleep
*or holy-day, now noth*

was eemportant day, could FEEL holy-day, New Year Day people
could MAKE something, could make begeen new thing. Now no more.
All dies - all this (indicating the drowsy few over coffee in the
cafe) all this die too.
There again he struck
the what I call world-note, remember a crayfish night when he talked
about the reciprocal relations of Individual versus Society, but
he didn't call it that. You hear that world-note often these days
when he talks, the dead weight of the universal idiocy that drags
us all down. . . .

Then more silence, then what you do now? he asked. Work,
I said, Still same book, not finish yet, not important work (I
meant there - not for any Being purpose of mine) but I make exercise
of it, I work, I make exercise of my work. No good, he said,
You make exercise, spend energy, and it bring no good. Even
making exercise of Concentration? I asked. Yes, even concentration,
he said. Leesten, I tell you something, leesten, this important -
you make exercise of all these things, you spend all energy and
have nothing left for self. Must know HOW make exercise of things,
then can build something for self at same time. How you do it
bring no good - only leave you feefish each day, nothing left
for self. Once you learn HOW make exercise, then can continue
aftomatically (automatically, remember?!) - like Canary, you
see leetle change there? I told him I saw a beeg change. No,
he said, not beeg - I just tell her how do one little thing,
how make one little exercise, she have 7 parts, just say for
example 7 parts - I make something for ONE part, she have 6 parts
must do for self, if CAN do, then can build something for self -
once she learn HOW do, then can proceed aftomatically in her.
Then will see beeg change. . . .

So that my darling was my New Year. It's the Last Clod cut away
from under my feet. And I like the feeling. You know how we've
talked of Effort, of Making Exercises of all our difficult tasks,
etc - but you see, NONE of it, not even an effort that cracks the
3 centers, can be of any use unless you know HOW to make it,
and that knowing has to be TOLD to you by one who knows. There is
NO knowledge of that kind springing spontaneously in the human
brain. All this back-breaking effort, if not done with self-observ-
vation, does nothing more but wear you out, reducing you simply
to the "planetary manure" for which use most of us are doomed.
I suppose when he took away my last clod, I should have followed
it up and asked him to give me one thing, one beginning clue
about how to make effort and save something for Being at the same
time. . . but I couldn't. I don't feel ready for it. If I HAD
asked he would have known I was just "philosophizing" and wouldn't
have told me anyhow.

There was silence again. Then he said, looking at clock,
Twelve o'clock I must go home, but must do something on way home,
cannot remember what must do - ach, my memory go these days.
I know I must do something - but what is, cannot remember. Have
TASTE of it (he touched his tongue) but cannot remember. He
concentrated. Then he said, It is something in life.
You know, when I heard that - something in life - I felt as if he
were light-years removed from me. . . something in life, he
kept saying, a Being from the planet Karatas trying to remember some
idiot business he had to do among the 3 brained beings of the
planet Earth. It gave me the strongest feeling I think I've ever
beside him.
A few moments later he had forced

He had some more merry moments. He looked at me, nodded, said Knachtschmidt & Company - perfect correspondence for you. You KNOW Knachtschmidt? he asked. I laughed and said I remembered how he used to call ALL of us Knachtschmidt & Co. when he wasn't calling us church-mowuss, and then I asked him exactly what it meant. Knacht - he said - and tore at his clothes - no clothes, he said, How that word English? Naked, I said. Yes, yes, Naked. . . . Russians say Knachtschmidt, very funny how they mean it. Example - many peasants with no shoes come together in group for company, wish make something together. Knachtschmidt & Company. . . he laughed. . . perfect correspondence for you. The more I looked at that analogy during the day, the more perfect it became! Barefoot, stupid, poor, coming together for company to MAKE SOMETHING. Well, at least, THIS peasant knows enough (sometimes) to "come together". . . . and sometimes something is "made", too! But I feel from the way he laughed that he likes his Knachtschmidt & Company that used to come together to make something in room #6. (October 1935)

Gordon came in the cafe then, he had to speak to her for business. I got up to leave, thanking him - I said, You have made my day, Mr. Gurdjieff. How? he asked, How make your day - idiot, all I do is disillusion you (I wish I could write out how he said disillusion!) You mean about effort and exercise, I said. Yes - I take all away from you - how then make day? He "twinkled" at me. He knew damned well he had made it for me.

Solita came to the cafe then. He invited Gordon and myself to go to his house for lunch, with Solita. Small things left over from beeg party, he said. The "small thing" was a 4 gallon pot of soup, an enormous plat of roasted grain of some sort with grapes and apricots and god knows what else in it, bear meat, cheese and yoghurt whi h he had m de himself and then platters of loucoum and apricot paste in stips and fruits, etc - so much that I couldn't eat but half, and he picked up a plate I had tried to hide, some kind of baked rice and meat, and said, You know how much cost make that dish? One hundred francs - and now you have defiled it. . . . must eat, he said, or if not, then must take home with you, because anyhow I put you down for one hundred francs, owing me. . . . . There was a new tablecloth for the holidays, and a Russian woman doing kitchen work so we had no dishes to wash, but could listen to his music afterwards. . . . and I was so glad to "be back" I became quite "psychopathic" within myself, with my emotions manifesting wildly. . . . .

We left at 3. At the door he said, in return for our thanks. . . . You see, Gurdjieff New Year not tail of donkey. A short paunchy man in suspenders and dirty carpet slippers with a most beautiful smile. Indeed it was not tail of donkey!

BEYOND BEHAVIOUR

I

The term 'psychology' - Greek derivation.
'Psyche' and Logos' - knowledge of.

Psyche was name ancient Greeks gave to Soul.

Soul imaged as a butterfly.

Review salient features of butterfly to
understand, what - if anything - the Greeks
meant. Formation exemplifies a numerical
regularity - number 3 its basis.

Butterfly divided into 3 parts - head,
thorax, abdomen, each - in turn divided anatom-
ically into 3 parts.

**Life history.** The egg on the surface of the leaf. Hatching, eats shell, eats leaf under it.

Next, larva moults, sheds skin, grows another
a bit too large. Voracious feeding. The
larva repeats performance four times; on
fifth moult, attains full larva size. It has
increased in size, taken on more active color
protection. Entire life so far just feeding
and adaptation to environment; no reciprocal
effect on environment.

On fifth moult, caterpillar spins silken
web. Once more its skin splits, larva enters
web, shrinking. Now a true chrysalis - a
small cone-shaped object hanging point downward
from leaf or beam.

This chrysalis is neither larva, caterpillar
nor butterfly. A definite transition stage.
Hard outer shell, within a formless creamy
fluid without structure, containing nuclei.
Curious happening - sometimes the outline
tracing of the creature to be appears on shell
that the liquid molecules of super-protoplasm
within are still entirely formless.

At length, with no feeding visible from without,
out, the chrysalis emerges. It is a butterfly.
The overwhelming character of transformation
that has taken place might be likened to a
horse that had drawn up legs and tail,
rolled off a jetty to live henceforward as a
whale.

in all thought processes.
Gestalt: serious attack on whole position
of analytical psychology.
Maintained not only that external
stimuli must be treated simultan-
eously in toto, but that reacting
organism also presents to investiga-
tion a functioning whole which
likewise, as a whole, determines the
separate functionings of its constit-
uent members.

The conflict as to possibility of "imageless though-
thought". Can thought be carried forward in the
absence of all imagery? Introspection must
then be a tool. By the nature of the process
there exists no means of knowing whether or
not a man is capable of introspection. Who can
see within him, check his statements against
possible self-deception?

Watson: **Behaviourism**; asserts the whole sub-
ject of images a futile ground for
research, technique of animal psy-
chology must be transferred to human.
Denied authority of insti
opinion OF WHICH - of any research
to be called scientific which did not
include those objective measurements
which could be reproduced and verified
anywhere.

"Unconditioned response" - at birth
exist in us a small number of organ-
ic nerve pathways which are prepared
to conduct stimuli through the organis
and return it to the world as the
physical behavior.

But these few unconditioned responses
begin immediately to be modified.
Baby once knocked down by dog - soon
the visual element - sight of dog
alone- suffices to provoke
the now "conditioned response", fear.

"This simple process of conditioning has been employed to account for all our most complicated, habitized be-

behaviour, even in so subtle a manner
as language and speech, and is confirmed
in these cases also by experimental
evidence.

The picture of the human being. "A man then,
says psychology, is a biological product of three
interacting systems, the ordinary muscular,
the visceral and the cerebral. These structures,
having developed physiologically in the embryo
in the above order, at birth begin to be filled
with content in the shape of nerve modifications,
muscle adaptations to particular stresses,
permanent and semi-permanent tensions and so on.
The body consists of just these three large
muscular systems, of which physical movement
and sensation are the response of the first to
environment, emotions are the various changing
strains in the unstriped muscles of the second,
and what we call thoughts are the changes in the
third which, like the other two, is also a
muscle".

The three systems are inter-connected in
the organism and a series of reactions in one
always coincides with some series in both others.
These coincident responses are almost never
congruous, they are chance-joined events.
Consequently the associations, instead of being
aids, are interferences.

Thus, a man cannot think without suffering
the intrusion of feelings, etc., etc. Immense
waste and friction. There is also a tendency
of the 3 systems, a struggle to make the
organism act, in such a way as to relieve
the wishes (tensions) of the other two, even
at their expense. Since one center is always
stronger than the others, here is explained the
appearance of 'types' - the athletic,
the aesthetic, or the scholarly.

How then can a machine of 3 interacting
mechanisms improve itself? Any attempt at
improvement is doomed to intensify one element
in our make-up at the expense of the other
two - (remember the organism reacts always as a whole
there is no way.)

### III

**The dilemma.** With the considerations of behaviourism, we reach a cul-de-sac. For if this interorganization of thinking, feeling and physical action must always proceed in a vicious circle, what avenue of escape lies open to man, all of whose activities are comprised in those categories?

Our civilization must head toward eventual extinction.

Not so calmly can we shrug away the problem of our single destinies. We are practically defenseless against environment. Where shall we be in death who cannot so much as consciously exist through ordinary sleep?

The age-long dream of a soul - is this a loop-hole of escape? With this dream we must do the one human things that sets us off from animals; namely, submit it to stern objectivity test, not of the emotions but of reason.

The hope for a soul, pervading all ages and religions, is only emotional wish-fulfillment. Nothing proves we possess a soul. It must be worked for, perhaps?

The saint, the ascetic, the yogi, they are all, equally with each other and with the rest of mankind, automatic. Even their most striking distinctions are demonstrably the play of environment upon a given mechanistic structure.

**LAW OF THE OCTAVE.** There is an ancient tradition in the East to the effect that the widely known diatonic scale (do-re-mi-fa-so-la-si and the next repetitive do) was originally not associated with music at all; but was a mathematical formulation, in respect of sound, of that series of phases through which all action physical, psychological, or of any other category, must pass either upwards or downwards in the phenomenal changes of nature.

**In Physics** - the periodic table of elements.

**The wave theory of electronic vibration, called Quantum.**

The seven primary colors of spectrum constitute one octave.

In Astronomy we know there are 8 major planets

IV

PSYCHOLOGY OF THE FUTURE

The Only Way of Buddha. We see immediately
that this impersonal observation of the three
automatic functions of our organism as
objective facts (entirely as objective and
unrelated to anything properly called our-
selves as is any other mechanism of nature,
such for example as the ocean tides) is
precisely a fourth possible activity for
human beings.

This process is not a physical action,
nor an emotional activity. Neither must it
be thought.

The valid distinction between _being_ / _conscio_
conscious of something and _thinking_ about it
is the significant thing here. It is also
plain that for each of us the field of observa-
tion is confined (certainly at the moment)
to our own bodies. We cannot be directly
aware of a cool breeze, but we can be conscious
of the physical effects produced by it in
our bodies.

Thus we conclude, upon consideration, that
we are dealing here with a real fourth
activity, differing from the other three at
least equally as much as they differ from
each other. It is not physical action, it
is not feeling, it is not thought.
***It is awareness.***

We do not convince ourselves by logic that
our hands are resting on a hot stove; we are awa-
aware of it. In fact long before there has
been time for thought-formulation on the
subject, our arm muscles have contracted
reflexly and the situation been met. Now it
is suggested that we be aware, not of the
stove, but of the reflex, and not for the
purpose of changing or guiding it, but just to
be aware of it as of any other movement in
nature. Between us and all external envir-
onment is interposed this automatic mechanism,
our body, and it is solely through that
as a medium that we are able to perceive
anything of outside reality at all.

Here is the means whereby "I" can begin
its existence as an entity, can conceivably
achieve a meaning which is real. Assured-
ly "I" cannot at once, if ever, aspire
to the control of this complicated organism
behind which stand millions of years of
biological and sociological history.
But "I" can at least maintain from the outset
an occasional brief, independent existence
in just this way: "I" can _observe_, in the
sense of being vividly aware of, the contem-
porary actions of the powerful machine, the
body, to which it finds itself unaccountably
attached.

We have an unexercised faculty by
means of which direct knowledge of our own
body is obtainable. This is Whitehead's
"Prehension" as distinguished from our
ordinary "apprehension" of external objects.
Do we normally exercise this activity? We
do not; it has never even occurred to us.
But can we? Most certainly we can. It is
a human possibility, rusted perhaps from disuse.

Supposing this activity to be initiated,
what would become of the impressions result-
ing from our detailed awareness? Just as
sensations are received into the physical-
muscular system and form its content, so
these impressions we may imagine, will
commence to fill another physical system
with content (Jane's fourth room?) - thereby
eventually actualizing it, i.e. enabling it
to function. (Modern science finds only three
systems in the human organism, but modern
science is young. It has just found glands
of interhal secretion)

Nor is it remarkable that our hypothetical
fourth system remains unknown to science for
unlike the glandular system it has.never func-
tioned since it lacks all content in the
form of impressions. Nothing has ever been put
into it. How can anything come out?

WANT AND NEED

The absolute understands itself only through man. That's why God never can forget man any more than man can forget God.

Prayer was never meant for supplication.
"Three-fold prayer" The state of having three centers working together is prayer.

Testament means "I will to you" - the Old Testament, the New Testament - knowledge willed to us.

We cannot change our being but we can change our condition. Water into steam. Steam is a greater force than water.

Habits are the solids in the octave of our personality. We have to melt them and loosen our being.

Development cannot begin until degeneration is arrested. Habits are degenerating.

Divide the word remember into re-member.
That's what we mean when we say "Remember ourselves" - doing self observation. We are stopping our degeneration and doing self development. Degeneration is Involution, the running down of the octave.

Adam the unregenerate man - living in the first Do, living mechanically.

Man is at the note Do - but every completed process begins at the note Do; hence, man has the potentiality. He is at the beginning.

We have to un-involve. When the cosmos evolves, man involves. While the cosmos has been evolving we have been involving, that is our condition. In completing

ourselves, we are e-volving and as we
e-volve we take into ourselves the cosmos.

"And man lives in caves and looks out
through small apertures"...

The cross is the plus sign and what is on
the cross? - Man. The most fascinating
study in the world is what the cross
means. Infinite variety of Being Meanings
in the cross. "And the mother who weeps
is nature who loses as man rises from
the cross. Nature doesn't want to lose us."

It is the chief concern of man to work on
the MOON.

All waste energy of our three centers goes
to the moon by gravity without intention.

Was the snake in the Garden
personality tempting man to serve
the Moon?

All our deaths go to serve the moon.

Find out about the moon. Create in yourselves
a moon.

What is the moon? A split-off particle of
our planet earth.

Why is the moon without reality but with
influence? We never think of the moon as
a reality - yet it pulls oceans.

Every outside manifestation has its
psychological replica.

Why do we feel that way about the moon?
Because there is something like that
psychologically in us.

Some part of our psychology bears the
same relation to us as the moon bears to
our psychical life.

It is only when Wish becomes a Need that
it becomes the Magical Evocative.

You say, What do you want? Nothing.

You say, What do you need? Everything.

I don't want food but I need it.

Wants are real only when they are needs,
they are imagination when not.

We die because we don't get all we need to
live.

Find out the needs of our lives and become
conscious of them.

"They lived happily everafter". What do I
need to enable me to live happily everafter
and what is happily and what is everafter?

To "live happily everafter" - the discovery
and adoption of the means to arrive at
immortality.

Find out if the means exist, where found and
how to use them.

Few of us want what we need and few of us
need what we want.

What we want, the moon wants, what we need -
the sun needs. Memory belongs to the moon,
awareness to the sun.

The child in the womb sings "I remember who I am
- but the first breath, the first cry, means
"I have forgotten who I am."

And we keep on forgetting until we die.

run down the scale and go into the earth.

When masculine and feminine sex fluids
mix, they never could produce another
individual unless that force, the third
force, comes. But it takes 9 months.
The "I" covers itself, coats itself, in
the womb, during those nine months, with
the sex fluid.

ist - to be
ex - outside.

The ist is now covered up in subconscious
brain. The Being from the Sun Absolute
is now covered up and is only a Potentiality.

When that "I" can develop itself, it never
comes again. Nature loses the machine
with which the "I" has coated itself.

We have many "I"s but they are all
Personality I's. Produce an "I"
superior to all the personality I's -
Produce an "I" with the range of the universe.

## Definition of FATE

If you let your Personality I impose upon
you, then it is Fate.

## Definition of Imagination

Imagination is the building up of new
creations out of previously conceived impacts.

Think with will. Organize your thinking.
Organized - from the organ. Not from
muscle extension.

Think organized.

Our effort is to be free of the type imposed
upon us by planetary conditions - to be
free of the animal.

Planets are moods.

Moods make temperament.

Temperament makes outside confirmation.

We think we make effort in this method but
we don't even approach the outside of it.
Think of effort. Think of those men who roll
40 kilometers over stones to a shrine, doing
self-observation all the while. That's effort.

Do physical work every day. Consciously, with
self observation. That takes Will. We cannot
think without Will.

**Personality** - We have a saying, "He stands in
his own light". He can't see his real self
because of his personality.

A Persian saying: You must always hold a
mirror up to yourself so you can see the
Devil approaching. (Emotional center
working with the body is the devil)

Truth doesn't lie in either pan of the scales, it lies somewhere between.

**Shock in the octave** comes at a certain place, but not always between two definite notes.

Life is an organization of vibrations. The circulation of blood has ITS vibration, the emotional viscera has its, etc etc.

Each organ has its rate of vibrations for different stages - youth, age, etc.

**Man, woman, child.**

Into that positive and negative sex fluid comes a third force from the Sun Absolute itself which is Life. Later in your subconscious force as the I.

The agent is not the action. Positive and negative come together and the neutralizing force is lost to our sight.

The I is a particle of the affliction of God in the subconscious brain.

**Rate of vibrations.** It is the rate of vibrations, the neutralizing force, (form-giving force, a particle of the sun absolute) which enters the sex fluids which are ALSO rates of vibrations, which produces the child.

The "I" comes and comes until it develops.

If you develop yourself you become a help in the enlarged universe.

G. says you become an individual, instead of one of the thousand leaves on a tree, you become a seed.

When we die the whole of the vibrations that hold us together go into space.

The vibrations of the physical organs just

## NEGATIVE EMOTIONS

The commonest of the negative emotions is
anger, displeasure, etc.

Next after association, negative emotions are
the most depleting of our 'activity'

Negative emotions are difficult to handle
because they are insusceptible to reason.
When we THINK reason has come in, it is
usually only another emotion that has been
added.

Bodily well-being usually pulls us out of anger,
the coming in of another center, physical.

Child-care stresses keeping the body busy. This
is calling in the physical center to equalize
small rages, fears, etc. in its emotions center.

ALMOST ALL FORMS OF NEGATIVE EMOTION ARE
INFANTILE.

Some negative emotions, like despondency,
despair, jealousy, need help from the outside.
This usually calls in more negative emotions
on the part of the helpers - they must
lie, tell 'charitable' untruths and thus
an anger arises for being so forced.

Make a list of the dramas of negative emotions.
You will find all are tragedy.

If you are not secretly in love with your
negative emotions, they is usually a cure.
(Most people are in love with theirs. They
do not want to get rid of them)

To get rid of a negative emotion, say "I am
sick". Do NOT say what made you sick.

When you say 'I am sick' a positive attitude
is at once established.

Observe manifestations of each mood in your
negative emotions.

When one is angry at you, don't meet him with
anger, with the same center. "Turn the other
cheek" - a recommendation to turn another
center.

(yourself)

Write a candid opinion of someone/as you think they would write it to you.

Something in us is NEVER deceived.

Often the result is amazingly near the truth.

Often the getting of this opinion is necessary for your future life and its development.

When a bad situation arises, ask yourself
"What did that friend expect of me?"

"What did I give him?"

CHRISTIANITY has not been tried and found wanting; it has been found difficult and never tried.

In perfecting a technique of living, the great difficulty is the body. It is first necessary to organize the outside life, the life of the body.

There is no chance for a significant relationship with a person whose center of gravity is in the physical center.

The body will always triumph. . . and your 'friend' will fail you.

We always expect behaviour of people without bodies. Don't trust. No illusions.

A physical center person never loves, but always hates. He hates to have his body deranged.

You project your chemistry on other people and your relations with them are a result.

Your unconscious manifestations are more powerful and get more results than your so-called"conscious."

You receive what you evoke.

## CHIEF FEATURE

In each one of us is a "special little quirk" - the last little thing added to the scale. This is what makes you do things as YOU do them, and not like anyone else.

In bowling balls there is a pellet of lead added, so that it must be thrown with a special quirk to make it go straight.

We must learn how to send ourselves off with a certain quirk to make up go straight.

We must learn where Chief Feature lies, what it consists of.

Chief feature is the pattern of your wishes and motives.

It is mechanical.

It is of the essence but in the emotions.

Chief Feature gives you illusion of freedom. (Freedom is actually the absence of choice of wishes.)

Write about yourself as if of another

person. In a situation, how do you behave?

This gives a clue to Chief Feature.

Chief Feature is WISH.

Look for Chief feature in 5 things:

Greed

Self-Pride

Lying

Fear

Sex

"Chief feature is not nice".

Chief feature can often be a combination of one or many of these 5 things. It is always the last little thing making you act as you do. It is in every situation. Look for it.

III

Our body is as much an object of the outside world as a tree, a stone or a planet.

The great absurdity - Science investigates a world image which we cast upon our own consciousness.

THE MASK - You must know you have a mask and that little exists behind it.

Try to discover how this mask was started - in youth we made always for peace - adjustment to a hostile environment.

\#Make a list of people you remember earliest in life - put down opposite the name every effect and influence they had upon you. Maybe some of these influences were what we "put on" these persons.

Our three centers are like clocks - they are wound up by and with these influences. And time (material) determines the effects.

We begin by protecting our inner essential lives.

A child has more sense of reality that its parents.

We evolve a mask - sex mask, social mask, professional or national mask. Our "repertory of gestures".

We become 'mask sore' - but it is dangerous to remove our mask, even if we could. The other person has the advantage over him who momentarily lets his mask slip/ A specialized cruelty then goes on.

We can build up behind our mask our essence. Then we are impervious.

Victimization is a form of exhibitionism on the part of both parties.

We cannot go back far enough in our childhood to remember or find out how we put our masks on - hence the difficulty of removing.

We have practically no manifestation
we can make to show our essence. Sometimes we want to show an "essential attitude"
to a friend - often we show just the opposite
because we have no gesture that is not
part of the mask, etc. ...

## WORDS and ASSOCIATION

We waste our minds by words.

We should non-identify with all the
traditional things in words.

Because of words and association, the
mind is always in a state of tension,
not of attention.

Poetry is a fact translated in another
center. Non-identification with the
traditional application of the words.

## THE CINEMA

It is a recorded fact that people
drowning have a complete memory of
everything that has happened in life.

Could we never use this power consciously?

Everything that has happened to us, every
experience, is there within - the impress
is in some one of the 3 centers, never
to be eradicated, generally forgotten.

EVERYTHING IS THERE.

Try to picture the days' events with yourself
as the central figure; but impersonal.

Do the day from the beginning, not backwards.

Engage the mind and leave the emotional
center free with its pictures.

Count a series of numbers until it becomes
automatic, thus engaging the mind.

1234

4321

2345

5432 and etc., up to 10

Don't try to remember. DO IT PICTORIALLY -
the unrolling of the EAXIN cinema.

This method of seeing oneself pictorially
in all one's daily activity, has been
called a "specific against mediocrity".
This is a way of keeping your life
from slipping into oblivion.

Four reasons why this nightly 'cinema'
is difficult:

1. Usually no self-observation during the day. This S.O. NECESSARY.

2. Difficulty of keeping from thinking of the counting.

3. Constant interruption due to association.

4. Sleep.

After doing the day's cinema, try the cinema
of your life.

If we could do these things, if we can
teach ourselves to see, impersonally,
uncritically, we should gain a
mastery over the 3 mechanical centers.
There is an "inviolate completeness" which
could be property of the human being. We
are approaching only the outskirts of it.

For this method, ability to think is the
first thing needed.

Be able to think differently than as
accustomed, know the world in different
categories.

This method is a mathematical and material
explanation of the creation, maintenance
and purpose of the universe and man's
responsibility to it.

A TECHNIQUE FOR SELF-OBSERVATION

Observe:
* Tones of voice
* Gestures
* Posture
* Carriage
* Facial Expressions
* Weight
* Temperature

Weight - not physiological, rather a feeling of heaviness, on awakening in morning, or of lightness. Clues to emotional state, etc.

Temperature - not medical, rather the emotional temperature. Why a sudden hot flush? A cold clammy sensation?

Often the condition observed disappears upon observation.

But at first, with this self-observation, all we are doing is GETTING DATA ON OURSELVES.

IV

REPETITION

Investigate what you repeat. (In love this
is fairly obvious - one always repeats)

Investigate all relationships outside the
definite love relationship.

You find out your weak spots if you find out
where and how you repeat.

Formulate reasons for wanting to wake
up and change.

Make repertory complete of your weaknesses
and failures. Avoid MORAL.

Find out the wrong working of your centers.

Try to remember to remember to observe.

Participate in your gestures observed.

Try also to observe how whole trains of thought go on without our taking part in them

MORALS

The subconscious mind sees the result
of our real experiences.

Conscience once uncovered needs no morals.

John the Baptist, crying in the wilderness
is a symbol of man crying in the wilderness
of his own body.

Give up the idea that the universe has desirable ethical ends in view.

Give up "doing good".

Sacrifice mechanical suffering. Suffering
is very real to us, therefore we identify
with it. Most suffering is mechanical.

But our identification with it is real.

Self-pity is the most depleting of the
emotions.

Chaplin - the epitome of self-pity,
which explains why all the world
identifies with him.

Be careful of self-depreciation. Don't
discourage the body.

You must observe yourself with non-identification otherwise your statements about yourself sound fantastic.

These ideas give no result unless worked on. EFFORT IS THE FIRST AND LAST WORD. The Labors of Hercules - the Aegean stables are a man's personality. Clean out our own stables.

Of all the great teachers, Christ is the most cruel when he speaks of the difficulty of doing things with ourselves. One wonders how he came to be called the meek and gentle Jesus.

#Make a catalogue of a friend's image of life; this will help you with your own. Make a formula which encompasses your attitude toward life. "All is lost from the beginning" - Jane's.

We only know two states now - sleeping and waking (the chart)
There is an exact analogy between our personal psychology and this chart.
Everything below the planet **XAPAXIXON** is repetition of things perfected above. . .imperfected repetition.
On the chart, God begins with "planets"

The idea of a "personal God" is the most egotistic gesture of man - that a divine omnipotent being could be concerned with our transient little life.

Our environment is not this planet we live on. Ours is the megalocosmos - everything above the planet.

**LOVE** is of 3 kinds (as far as we are in it)
Instinctive, emotional and conscious.
Instinctive love has chemistry as its base.
And it lasts only as long as, and is only
as strong as, this chemistry.

Emotional love is pathologic. The lover
is a medium through which uncontrolled power
of X'X'EX'X'EX' magnetism passes. Emotional
lovers are the victims of their own
uncontrolled power. Emotional love
ALWAYS creates hate in the lover, then in
the loved one, then back again - an eternal
changing of the hate.

Instinctive love is the highest type we
know, BECAUSE OF ITS IRRADIATIONS.

Emotional love seldom produces off-
springs. It is non-biological. It evokes its
own slayer.

Conscious love wishes that the loved object
should arrive at its own native
perfections, regardless of consequences
to the lover. The paradox: it always evokes
the same in the lover. This love is rare
among us.

"Take hold tightly, let go lightly" a
proverb from Tibet.
It is always hard to let go. We have
fear, we are over-sensitive from past
failures, or we have imagination - we
cannot bear to imagine the loved one happier
elsewhere with someone else.

Instinctive and emotional loves are uncontrolled and unconscious. These are dangerous states to be in. This is love without knowledge or power.

associative

Love can be evoked in 4 ways

1. External form (reminding of someone you've been in love with, esthetic associations)

2. Feelings influenced by other people. You love what others love, or what others hate, etc.

3. Suggestions - influenced by praise of others, etc.

4. Superiority - you get the idea that another person is superior. "All the rot about ideals. . ."

When associations work and run together in harmony, then we are in love.

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DOTS IN HIGHER CENTERS

RECEIVERS OF IMPRESSIONS

All in lower row we take passively.

We must "coat" the higher body.

Self-observation makes this active - the worm must turn, and observation starts with the body.

THINK:

1 of a second - an impression
10,000

Every 3 seconds - a breath

24 hours - a day

80 years - a life

FEELERS, TENTACLES
RECEIVERS OF IMPRESSIONS
& VIBRATIONS

Another
PICTURE
OF MAN

ANOTHER PICTURE OF MAN

This is how it always works - we perceive, we feel, we act. The three inter-connected centers.

(At night - we jump in half sleep - one of the centers disconnecting)

This above interconnection of centers works only on the waking hours.

Study your dreams. There is a self-contained energy left over in some one of the centers. You can discover in which center you contain unused (during the day) energy. Do you have predominantly physical, mental or emotional dreams?

The 3 centers fall asleep separately. Sometimes one center does not sleep at all during the night. Times we awaken with a feeling of suffering, though the physical self has slept soundly - this means the emotional center was wide awake all night with some suffering.

Teach yourself to put all 3 centers to sleep at any time. If this could be done, we would need little sleep. Gurdjieff awakens people at the Priory, at all hours of the night, making them change beds - saying" You're not sleeping anyhow. Why not spend the night talking and learning something?"

A being consists of its appetites.

Intelligence is due to innate arrangements
in the nervous system. You are born
intelligent. You never acquire intelligence.

Instincts are given to man to ennable him
to cope with his situation.

We in this method are like Lucifers, cast
out from the mechanical heaven in which
we live. We must realize the solemnity
of the situation. We must think with terror
of dying unfinished.

There are 7 accidental circumstances determining
the reactions of our 3 centers.

We die accordingly as the contents of one
center are used up prematurely.

**Physical** dying - doctors have names
for it but no cure. Sport addicts
often die thus. Statistics show
wrestlers die at 49 years.

**Emotional** dying: artists die as a result
of the disharmonizing in the tempo
of their lives.

**Mental** center dies - reading, studying
and associations (superfluous) provoked.
"Dying by newspapers"

To NOT die in one center, get an activity that
is linked up with another center.

Put a regulator on the spring of each center.

Do not allow one center to overwork.

You give yourself up to the associations in
the functioning of these centers.

**Harmonious associations** with the 3 centers
is difficult to acquire. Self-observation is
the first regulator. You thus begin to cut
off the superfluous associations running into
one center.

The tragedy is that when one center dies, runs down
it affects the other two without their taking
part.

I

We are in a state of arrested development.

A 1-centered being is a worm.

A 2-centered being is an animal, 2 dimensional.

A 3-centered being is a man.

We take no part in our activity.

Everything is done in us from the outside.

Our whole life is wasted in argument
yes, between the three centers.

no The contents of these 3 centers
were accidentally acquired.
Thus, they are accidentally
called forth.

1% ~~is~~ are ourselves, 99% of us is sociology.

The ages of our different centers differs.
There can even be different ages in one
center.

Physical - young face, old neck, etc.
We can develop hallucinations of our centers
as we "develop" - one can be retarded
mentally and develop a mental hallucination,
retarded emotionally and develop emotional
hallucination.

The 3 centers like 3 types - physical (yogi)
emotional (monk) mental (ascetic) Each
is a one-centered development, developed at
the expense of the other two centers.

Our brain has undergone development only for
survival. It is NOT a truth-finding organ.

Everything tends to put us to sleep -
suggestibility, etc.

We start with these 3 centers practically
empty. The emotional and mental has
inclinations, desires - pleasing to
them. Constant repetition of the
same desires makes our character.

We receive 10,000 impressions per second, but
we register practically not one.

We always choose by our habits of yesterday -

["repeat, repeat, repeat.", "We have no future. Our lives are an idle\nescape from one error into another.", "Our race, etc. is indicated by a series of\ngestures.", "A human being can make 20 gestures, but makes\nusually only 5.", "Find out the repertory of your own gestures.", "The agency of the will is not admitted\nin the scheme of psychology. What we call\n'will' is only desire.", "The first symptom of awakening from our\nsleep is to SUSPECT we are asleep.", "It is more difficult to wake from our dream\nsleep than from our life ⌜x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x_x_x_x_x_x_x_x_x_x_x_x_x

II

LAW OF THREE - In the cosmological scale, operating at 3, operating at shock. The shock can carry us beyond the status quo. The shock is self-observation.

We have the three forces in us

The plau and the minus, sexes, electricity, etc. Science is the 3rd force. The 3rd force is the neutral balancing force. The mind affirms all, the body denies.

All energy leaks away from the bottom of the triangle because it is open at the bottom.

Some have no emotions after 30.

Some stop mental growth at 7 or 8.

Many die too soon (physical)

Close up bottom of triangle, stop the leak.

A 3-centered force is given us each morning.

We cannot use but a part of it; the rest is wasted. One uses only 1/10.

If the bottom of the triangle can be closed, new energy flows in, and can be stored.

In psychology, the 3rd force is usually the motive behind the act.

‡ Problem: Find out the motives behind your acts, thoughts, etc.
(Usually it is the emotional center motivating.)

Law of 3 operating - in fairy tales.
Three princes, each with a task, the reward being in one of the 3 centers.

A set-up of man, law of 3

matter
emotion.
physical

THE EMOTIONS ARE SITUATED IN THE SOLAR PLEXUS.

A system of nerves, across the center of the being. Like the Milky Way -

a galaxy of disconnected nerve centers

REALITY
Know-able
Feelable
Do-able

Unless these three operate at once, it is
not Reality. (That's why Reality is never found.)

There is a continual argument, friction, be-
tween the three centers in man. The body
is always the tyrant.

The Cosmological Chart presents an exact
analogy with our psychological processes.
The shock in our life is Self Observation.

Everything we touch is degraded - air, water, food, etc. We send energy into the planet thus. We are the digestive apparatus.

OUR REAL FUNCTION IS TO UP-GRADE ENERGY.

Change the vibrations into higher instead
of degrading to lower. (Some - like breathing
and eating, are automatic and must go on.)

We give only quantity vibrations. We should
give quality vibrations to this octave.

As we function, (eat, drink, suffer, create, etc.)
vibrations are extracted from us by nature.

A few quality vibrations would make up for
many quantity vibrations.

We're in a situation - "the terror of the
situation," Gurdjieff. Like sheep, taken
for its mutton and wool. Thus ourselves.

Nature feeds us, cares for us, etc. but
not from love - for profit from us. Nature
takes from us with a drastic hand. Takes
vibrations from us she can't get voluntarily.
If we could give ONE quality vibration. . .

Wars - nature needs those vibrations.

Only consciousness can change this.
Deaths give vibrations to the
planet - 10,000 bodies going
back to earth - the suffering
before death is one sort of
vibration - the chrystalization
of material substance, another.
All goes back to the planet.

2

ESSENCE is difficult to define. It must be found out by **xerox** relations.

Human essence is composed of 2,000 million people. 2,000 million implies history, all our evolution from the animal up.

EACH ONE OF THE 2,000 MILLION IS ONE OF YOUR POTENTIALITIES ACTUALIZED.

O mi Essence is composed of 3 notes;

O re Anger, hate and fear

O do

Anything else is an 'overtone', that which does not exist but which might.

All the so-called 'good' in the world, philanthropies, etc, are possibilities not actualized. Usually you find they are motivated by one of the 3 notes, anger, hate or fear.

\# Try to find out the distribution in you of anger, hate and fear. These 3 can be in one center, or in all three.

We have to make an effort to get at essence.

It is not your own - it is human essence.

In getting at it, it is fatal to identify yourself with it. Get at motives, then more easily, you will get at essence.

When you get at essence, what you learn can be applied to everything. Art, literature, etc.

There are AFFIRMED EMOTIONS of humanity.

In great literature, in great art, there are no emotions that have not to do with the affirmed emotions of humanity. . . something every man can understand.

Your essence is material. You can change it.

Essence aspires to be soul. It has no sex differentiation. It is wishes.

Wishes are planetary. You are interesting or dull according to the number of planets that were in conjunction at conception.

More planets, more interesting, vice versa.

PERSONALITY is a cross-section of all
streams of activity at any one
moment.

The pattern of your habits is personality.
Personality is a mass of unfised chemicals

# Analyse yourself in respect of some person
near to you. How do you recognize your-
self? Your identity? How do you
know yourself from another?

What is the ESSENTIAL POWER in you? To find
out, gratify all your fancies, whims (but
don't cultivate) Gratify and watch them and
yourself. Whims and fancies change. An
essential power does not. You must find
out this power by excess.

To have essential power, you must have
ESSENTIAL WISHES.

Potential
Actual.
Ideal

3 kinds of wishes

Most of us spend our lives on non-actualizable
wishes. Find the actualizable wishes.

Most "ideal" wishes are non-actu. These
un-actualizable wishes are mistletoe. Cut
them off. Don't plod along with them.

"Imagination is only excess of desire
over ability" *Orage

The "I"

Necessity to establish in yourself
an unique and personal "I"

We have too many "I"s

Physical center "I"s are disconnec-
ted and go off in different direc-
tions. Thought must connect and
fuse.

Subjugate to one single "I" the
personalities in you.

Say over and over again - I am.

I have a body

Say it to try to find out what it
means. (I am a body is a confusion)

3

Self-observation pumps up energy, uncovers that "I". The "I" is not defined by intelligence, gifts, talents, etc. It is simply what you are in yourself.

The body is the only vehicle, cart, vessel, instrument, etc through and by which we can find out. & personality are
Stripped of your 5 senses, what/you?
What manifestation could you give that
an astute psychologist could not
reduce to a bodily manifestation?
99% of our 70 years is spent
in *sublimated animality* (caring for
body, thinking of it, etc.)

Get the "I" out from the inside where it
is buried, to the outside. All miraculous
re-births in legend and history are just
this - the uncovering of the "I".
Our first birth is passive.
Our second birth is active, conscious.
We are born out of our own bodies.
Self-observation gets at the "I".
For this 2nd birth, we must first die to
our automatic selves, change values and
die to the old values.

Gurdjieff says in the cerebellum there is a
seed, a germ, which is a possibility of a
soul. He calls it the "representative of
God in the essence".

"Fragments of a Faith Forgotten"

"Hermes Thrice Greater"

These ancient books show these ideas
are not new but have been with
man always (esoteric)

TIME

In the physical center we sense time
as one thing after another.

In the emotional center, we experience
a thing AT the time.

In the mental center time as a thing
in immediacy.

Space is the field in which time operates.

Time is the actualization of one possibility
in a situation. All others die for you (but
remain for others)

When we start to actualize one possibility,
that determines the second, because we have
taken a direction. Thus the danger of making
a wrong choice - all off in the wrong
direction. Again, find the essential wish.

Time is the possibility of your existence.

Time can never be subjective.

Wherever a process goes on, there is time.

This method is a TECHNIQUE AGAINST TIME

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ADDENDA - 2nd Conference

This method is a psychological technique
of life. Most people are technique-resisting.

In the SOLAR PLEXUS the negative emotions
are situate in the left side, positive in
the right side. Locate the agitation
and the kind of emotion acting on you can
be known.

ESSENCE is eternal, compacted of internal
relations simple or complex but individual
at every level.

When we talk about our essence, we talk about
our psychology.

Time is the actualization of one possibility
in a situation. The minute we begin to
actualize one possibility in a situation, all
others are dead for us (but exist for others
on earth) The moment we actualize, the
next is decided. THIS GIVES A DIRECTION
IN TIME.

Time is MY possibility of experience.

Time is the exhaustion of the means to renew
ourselves.

Time is the unique subjective. It can never
be objective. It cannot exist for you
outside yourself. Your time is in you.

ETERNITY is the possibility of the actualiza-
tion of every possibility in a situation
<u>at the same time</u>.

ART is a subjective emotion backed up by
craftsmanship. Art enjoys only vivid values.
Mahabarata - greatest objective art.

We progress in details. The whole is often
lost in details.

Bogachevsky -

Objective Morality is established by life
and by the commandments given to us by our
Lord God Himself through his prophets and
gradually becomes the basis in man of what
is called **conscience**. By this conscience
is objective morality maintained. Objective
morality never changes, it can only broaden
in the course of time. As for Subjective
Morality, that is invented by man and is
therefore a relative motion differing for
different people and different places and is
based upon the understanding of good and bad
prevailing at the given time.

Subjective morality is a relative notion
and if you are filled with relative notions
then when you are grown up you will always
and everywhere act and judge other people
according to the conventional views and notions
you have acquired from others. You must
learn not what people around you consider
good or bad - but learn to act in life as
your conscience bids you. An untrammelled
conscience will always know more than all the
books and teachers put together. But for
the present, until your own conscience is
formed, you should live according to the
commandment of our Teacher Jesus Christ:
Always-do-unto-others-as-you-would-have-
others-do-unto-you.

Yelov

It is not a question to whom a man prays
but a question of his faith. Faith is conscience
the foundation of which is laid in childhood.
If a man changes his religion, he loses his
conscience and conscience is the most valuable
thing in man. I respect conscience and since
conscience is sustained by his faith and
his faith by religion, therefore I respect
his religion and for me it would be a great
sin if I should judge his religion or
disillusion him in it and thereby destroy his
conscience which can only be acquired in
childhood.

It's all the same. Our thoughts work day
and night. Instead of letting them think
of "caps-of-invisibility" or the "riches-
of-Alladin" let them better be occupied
with something useful. In giving direction
to thought, of course a certain energy is
spent but no more energy would be spent for
this purpose during twenty-four hours than
is required for the digestion of one meal.
I decided to study languages in order not
only not to allow my thoughts to idle,
but also not to allow them to hinder my
other functions with their idiotic dreams
and childish phantasies. Besides, the
knowledge of language itself may
sometimes be useful.

From Kan. Art. 1

The Yogis do not teach evolution as it is conceived by modern science. Modern science teaches that Mind is a by-product of the evolving material forms. The Yogi teaching says that there was mind involved in the lowest form and that mind constantly pressing forward for unfoldment compelled the gradual evolution or unfoldment of the slowly advancing degrees of organization and function. Science teaches that "function precedes organization." The Yogis say that "desire precedes function." There is ever the Urge of the mind which the creature feels as dim desire and which grows stronger as time goes on. Science says all is material and mind is a by-product. the Yogis say all is mind, (even God - pure mind) with matter as a tool and instrument of expression and manifestation. Accompanying this evolution of bodies there is an evolution of souls producing the former.

* * *

G-f says, "all is material, even thought."

G's

Sayings of Father -

1. Without salt, no sugar.

2. Ashes come from burning.

3. He is deep down because you are high up.

4. If there is "I" in one's presence, then God and the devil are of no account.

5. All the unhappiness on earth comes from the wiseacring of women.

6. In the dark even a louse can be worse than a tiger.

7. Once you've shouldered it, it's the lightest thing in the world.

8. If the priest goes to the right, the teacher inevitably must turn to the left.

9. The cassock hides a fool. shoe

10. A good representative of hell - a tight shoe

11. If the teacher is the enlightened, who then is the donkey?

12. If there is no elephant and no horse, even the donkey is great.

13. He is really stupid who is to those around him "clever".

14. If a man is a coward, it proves he has will.

15. If you want to be rich, make friends with the police.

If you want to be famous """ the reporters.

If you want to have peace- neighbors

If you want to sleep - your wife.

If you want to be full - your mother-in-law.

If you want to lose your faith, make friends with the priest.

16. If you are first in the house, your wife is second; if your wife is first, then you are zero.

17. More powerful than Ghengis Khan is he wishes, is the corner policeman.

18. Happy is he who sees not his unhappiness.

19. It isn't the quantity of food a man eats that denotes absence of greed.

20. Fire heats water but at the same time water puts out fire.

21. The truth is that from which one's conscience can be at peace.

Bokharian Dervish.

Here it will do you no harm to say that
among your favorites there have long existed
in each locality special forms for outward
relationship, for the reason that the
INNER FEELING OF RELATIONSHIP COMMON TO
ALL THE BEINGS OF THE UNIVERSE without
difference of form or place of existence, has
long been destroyed in them.

However much Good or bad relationspions among
them are established at the present time
only by external manifestations, chiefly by
politeness as it is called, that is to say,
by empty words.

However much one being might inwardly wish
another being good, if for some reason or
other he should express himself in the wrong
words. . .all would be over.

It is also interesting to note that the abnor-
mal existence of your favorites has not only
spoiled their own psyche, but it
has reacted on the psyche of other forms
of beings on this same planet..

Such an inner feeling is entirely atrophied
in those forms of beings with which our
Favorites have a frequent contact, and it has
been preserved only among those other forms
of beings, whose form of existence is such
that they have no contact at all with these
biped beings of yours; as for example those
called tigers, lions, bears, hyenas, snakes,
falangas, scorpions, etc.

In the psyche of these forms of beings however
a very strange peculiarity has been formed.
These tigers, lions, etc etc perceive the
inner feeling of fear of other beings as
hostility, and hence try to destroy them
in self-defence.