September TWO 53

Daring Fido,

So good to hear your voice this morning. I go on thinking
of you. It will be wonderful to see you and I shall
shall outline alternate plans, later. I find
Robert's letter enchanting, to a degree. I enclose fm
from John, he did not send the photographs and
Elsie sent me a card, without a stamp - this to
continue to Ashby letter to someone else - so these
things happen. I have found a corner on the table
by the window for my type but it is pretty phoney, a
as yet and the margine has gone hay-wire. I have the
papers, thank you, I give them on to the American
two and the old lady, Mrs. Herf, who says she has
a son in St Louis, USA who used to send papers
but never writes now. We go on "helping"
one another, Dr. Heydt put me more or less

I will tell Father Brunnen that I expect you.

He just came in and sends you Happy Returns -
I can trust you not to mention 10th, I know ...
blessings, blessings ....

this, I hope. But again, again, May
Happy Returns. --

in charge of Mrs. Herf's reading ... she
is to look after my food and so on. It is
all very gay and bawdy at table, I long to have you
again. Wonderful articles on Eliot and Lawrence.
Thank you so much for marking pages.

I am trying, too, to make copy of some
poems as for a continued *Helen*. I call the *se*
series *Leuke*, (*l'isle Blanche*) . She was
supposed to meet and complete her life or after-life
there with Achilles, but I have her meet Paris
(Achilles, not Paris) instead. This *Leuke* story is authentic
myth, Euripides refers to it etc. Anyhow, this
gets away from war and I make *Leuke* a sort of
Earthly Paradise. I don't think the scraps, so far, --
are much good, but it gets my mind on the Greek
and Paradise theme. My next letter will be better th--

September 3

Dearest Fido,

Enclosed came yesterday at tea-time; I did not open it, at first, then thought best but was not necessary to ring you for this. A lovely day again. Interesting letters, especially from Doris; I wish I could find her something here, there is a delightful selection of picture-books, but French, think she does not read French? Anyhow, I will be sending card- possibly calendar, remembering last year at Lugano. I think I have got my margin to heel, at last. I am typing out the new *Helen*, and eager to know more of *Fabula* and to see script, when you have extra carbon. What a tragic situation at Tregonning, this would be a good place for John. I get pretty sunk in the lazy atmosphere but have vivid talks with the English, Devon girl who does occupational masks etc. She was at Plymouth and her hospital was burnt down, has a relative at Lowndes etc., all most mate-y. Father B comes in daily. I miss

Dr. H, you must advise me about him. Have you a copy of
*Avon* that I could lend him when he comes back about 14th?
He could not understand why I did not TALK about my books and
lend them round. But it is inspiring to have someone
outside and new, so interested.

Please give greetings, as indicated, thank Elsie for her card. I will
be writing more. John Schauf wrote again and enclosed a
few pictures. I will, later, send them or show them. The new
baby seems to have turned out fair like V. or reddish hair, very
charming. This now and more again and love and devotion

September 4

Dearest Fido,

I enclose another folder; I must have a talk with you about
these things. I will be so grateful if you will see to this,
if it needs filling up. Another time, I will try to do them or
send direct to the bank, perhaps one day, Mr. Benet could be
approached, one came about taxes when you were away, but I think
I managed it, as I did not hear again. But I actually, do not
always know how to answer these questions.

I am relieved and grateful to you always that the little family
is so well installed and so very happy. It was always my ideal
to spend a WHOLE summer there, or near, as per Watch Island.

What the mother dreams ... etc. We had a howling wind
yesterday, rather Sconset atmosphere, hot but with wind, sort
of fohn-froen ?- you know. To-day it is sunny but
cooler. Dr. B. said rain was announced, but glad to say, it has neid
orf.

I long to see Fabula. We both seem to take to early
lighting- my Leuke, though an Earthly Paradise, goes back
to the ramparts, in retrospect. It is supposed to be, in
effect, the Trojan side of it, Paris and Helen, more "reality".

I believe William Morris liked the Trojans ... any way ...
I am happy to be tapping again.

I got Doris a calendar, not as glamorous as the last one, but
lovely pictures... I will send it soon.

So much love, dear Fido, and thanks for all news and letters.

Lunch and coffee on terrace after enlivened now, by drift of leaves
and half-burrs of chestnuts falling on the table.

So long to see you-but come later, if indicated.

Sept. 5

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Dearest Fido,
Our pictures are about the same, so I will not send mine.

Thank you for letter and all news. I note, Bristol 12th.

I do hope you have a heavenly time, there. Return R.A.
letter, ad lib, it is unanswered. Thank you for

help with bank. I had a beautiful box, sent by Cole.

I also, had a box with some more of the met. Museum booklets,
very, very beautiful but I never get time to read and paste in the
pictures. I must write N. now. I have talked more

with Phyllis Holder, she had a trip to Egypt; we do enjoy
our war reminiscences; her hospital at Plymouth was over a
shop, and riddled with rats, they even got into beds - at

least one did. I am going on with the type-script. Thank
you for your interest. Please give greetings, as indicated.

Dr. or rather Father Brunner asks of you. I will tell him
again that you want a little talk with him, please that Heydt is away.

Sun has been wonderful but a touch of Foehn(?),
everyone seems to feel it. I must thank Bear again,
for his Kusnacht suggestion; it will be nine weeks, next
Tuesday, that I came here. I will talk with you about
staying, Father B. thinks O.K. to go, but is fussy about my weight,
also thinks it would not be amiss to stay on a bit longer.
So much depends on weather, my script and so on. You will
know, I am sure, what is best. I tell everyone that I hope
to return to Paix, end-September. But we will see. Thank
you again, again, again,
with love -
CAT.

Monday

Fido dear,

Thank you for two magazines, they are appreciated when I
finish them. Thank you two letters and many enclosed notes.

I return , and two old letters of Kenneth's. Please file.

They are part of the last "semester" and now I am
already being swamped with birthday letters, cards, some
more of those wonderful lavettes, from Miss Voules, etc. etc.

I will keep this new lot, as you will not want to be bothered,
on the eve of departure; and Edith, I LONG to see
the erotic film- all my congratulations to her.

I am so glad about Thursday. I will be here in my room,
as from about 2.30 on till quarter of four, when I
will begin to go over slowly or wait at the door for you.

If you are not here by FOUR, I will go and save places for
us at the tea-table. This is wonderful.

I am so surprised about Miss Müller, but so much better for her,

If she was suffering. I was going over some dresses and remembering when and how she had made them. I am glad I have so many nice summer things, though half are already packed away. It is sunny but a bit chill. I did write Doris, but I would never dream of referring in any way, to the situation. Thank you, re Bank and Mr. Beney. Also, later, spare Avon. I have some at Paix and could write for more to London. Later. Sorry about Nindon- give them special greetings, please, from Claribel! Yes- Leuke is run. I am surprised myself. I would like to balance the Egypt with Leuke, we will see! Much, much love and thanks again and again for everything.

Till soon - with love e AT.

[1953]

Sept. II

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Darling Fido,

I have been weeping at the time lost with you, then, it
began to POUR and I felt that after all, perhaps it was as
well that I could slide home and change at once. I had a talk
with Miss Holder, I did not tell her WHAT, re Bear, but that
we hoped a friend who had had a break-down, would come
here. I said she must make him do a basket. I will get exact
time from Father B. to-morrow, as to consultation. I will
be thinking over all you said, I think of nothing else, and will
made some sort of plan on your return. I do, do hope that
you have a lovely time there, yes, I would have felt very
wistful in Zuri, waiting for you to go. Remember me where
indicated, there. O- the lovely birthday, the roses, the
coat- O the coat- the beautiful handkerchiefs, the
fruit-candy - all so festive and making me feel very young though
so very, very old

old. I will catch up to the idea of this 6-7 later, I
hope. Thank you for various papers and for AVON. I may
or may-not lend to Dr. H., I will see how things shape.
He kept on asking for something for mine to read. I will
ask about the car, that would be such a lovely trip, they
talked to me about it, when I was here seven years ago. I think
there is, re Bear, re my own UNK and so on, really a change
indicated, but what I don't just SEE, at the moment. You will,
I know, help me to decide. Sorry that this is so short and
so dull, when I have so much to say. But it is only to
greet you, dear Fido, to thank you not only for to-day and
yesterday, but for all the "semester", the letters, the
papers, the wonderful books. I will trust that you let
me know if there is anything else that I can do, and please
get Eisie down or let me know, if you want company or help.
So much love and gratitude always, dearest Fido,
CAT.

Sept. 12

E19537

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Fido dear,
Bless you and thank you for the cards. They are a great
help, I would not send out the flowers, only one that I
had the duplicate of, that you had sent me. Now, I can
acknowledge some of my birthday greetings with some
of these, it is a lovely collection. Now, the skirt came and is
absolutely PERFECT. It is something like another black or
dark-blue you got me, that I regretted giving to the
Red Cross but I had worn it and worn it and I felt that
it was really time it went. But I regretted it- and this
takes its place, is really so elegant and suave. And I have
a new-look or a new line, Glory BE. Fido, I can not thank you.
And for coming and coming twice. I asked the office about the
Einsedeln trip; they thought it would come to about 70-80
frances, depending on how long we waited at E. and so on, but they
are asking the taxi people; they said it would surely not be

poir E. and Alice Smith. I have, as you know, letters
on letters to write, but I have to send this first. I do
so much regret not having kept you here. But Fri. and Sun. are
so dull and long, long ... however, it was like that. I was
feeling so terribly JITTERY too, was sorry for that, it was
the Day and your Day and your coming-and-going- bless you, but
I could not see so far ahead and began to phobe about Lausanne.

But I will see more clearly, I am sure. Dear Fido, thank you.

The skirt is so absolutely RIGHT. I am sitting in the new
jacket by the window, My roses are on the window-sill.

So much to say- and thank you for ringing. I am always
here, as you know, at that time and in the morning, in case, I can do
anything. Greet Bear and all the best of luck.

CAT.

Sept. 13

I am afraid I have confused trains, I threw
away the note, I made this morning!

Fido dear,
Just a line to thank you for the beautiful little under-coat,
I got into it this morning, now have slipped it off, as the
sun is out again and it is warmer. I have been going
over summer things, prep. to leaving. I think that it would
be good to come to Kenwin for a bit. I can not face that
dining-room. We will see how things are , I won't stay
forever. It was so good of you to suggest this and it has
given me an incentive to pack, as for leaving summer things
at Kenwin, if convenient. I saw Father B. this
morning. He is off on a sort of inspection trip , by air,
Amsterdam, Essen, Durfledorf, on Sunday next; he says he
will be back, the 24th and will be able to see you in the
morning. He gives me trains, from Z, as for arriving at K,
10. 43 and 10. 55 - leave Z, I gather, at 9.30 and 9.41.

But you know all this.

He said that he was free the Saturday, if you want to see
him, at any time. He thinks the trip to E. would be
around ffs. 100. I think that is about perfect.

I would love you to lunch, on the Fri., if convenient. Car could some
here, if you arranged it, after lunch. We will see. I hope
Bear is happy there. I wrote Doris and sent a card to Elsie
about the lace. ... Interval to pack some more. I am
weepy as I told the many lovely slips, night-dresses and
so on, that you have given me through the years. Yes- through the
many years. Some, I am putting aside(✓ but very few and very
frayed) to give the maid here; not suitable for Red Cross!

The many meetings come back, when you came to Lugano with some
pretty things from Zurich. Some I have never worn. Never
think for that, they are unappreciated; you have adorned me like a
bride. Now, Fido, this comes with all memories of years and
years and years and especially of Lugano, as from 1946 on...
we will meet there again ? Love & CAT. hand写真
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まつ虫

Sept. 14

Fido dear,
Just a line to thank you for two letters. Fido, I forget
"Socrates" - do enlighten me. I think the tree is
there, but it is just ordinary in summer season. I
do love all you write. Thank you for number, I will
ring if anything special, but I am all right, so well and
washing and going over old clothes. I do want to come
back, maybe not with you this time, but soon after.

Ashby does a little complicate things, but I know you will
advise me. Father Brunner can see you downstairs ,
Fri. morning- I wrote you. I can of course tell him , if you
don't want to see him. But I will leave it, there is so much
time, unless you write. I am wearing the black skirt
and the pull-over. The skirt is rather"best black" but it is so
much more comfortable to slip on, when in my room. I wear
my other "suits" out of doors and over to lunch.

It WAS good o, you to do all this extra shopping for me.

I am looking forward to Kenwin. Yes, I love the Churchill.

I have sent out some of the cards, but not those. O- Socrates-

Fido, Fido, I remember! How wistful this all makes me -
nostalgic, to use Pup's word!

No news in, but Lugano, this morning. O bless you. I think of you
in those funny little rooms!

My very best to Bear.

CAT.

Sept. 16

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Fido dear,

I can't tell you how touched I am by the gift; now, I have
tried it on twice and am sending it back to Bristol, as I am
not sure of the shop address; and anyway, you will explain.

Measured by the old ones, the nightie is as large, though
not as long. The length does not matter; the others were almost
too long. But though it measures about the same, this one is
tighter across the chest, it is made that way with the lovely
embroidery. This means that the sleeves seem to pull a bit
under the arms. It is just a feeling of across chest and
under arms, the others were LOOSER somehow. I think she will
understand. Sleeves measure same length and I like the cuffs
and everything. I thought I would send it at once, as
really it is perfect, and I COULD keep it. But with such an
elaborate "piece", it seems better that it should be
absolutely comfortable. This is really so upsetting, dear

Fido. The size, measured by the others seems the same, but
the new one feels tight under arms and across chest. That is
about all I can explain, in my amateur fashion. But otherwise,
it is perfect and I had to bother you with its return.
Please thank Madame for the beautiful, beautiful card she
sent and for messages. You will return said same ?

Thank you for all news. I feel as if I were there, all the
time, with you. I got the p.c. too; thank Bear.

Please do not think or that trip; it rather confuses me, what
with your visit, Bear and Ashby. I have made no arrangement, just
asked and that can be left to last minute. Please greet any that
ask of me; I feel nostalgic about Pup's old word) but it
is coperto now, here too. I will write again- and I
am so deeply touched about the night-dress; it will do very
well, if she can not exchange for one a little FULLER over chest
and arm-holes, length of sleeves and all rest is perfect.
Anyhow, bless and bless you.

have a love
from CAT.

Sept. 17

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Fido, the papers have come; I find them most entertaining and
simulating. Thank you for ringing. I am going on with
my trial-packs, as there is a certain amount of planing to be
done, re the bags. I will have things really,
almost in order when you come, I hope. I had a feeling
that you might dash away. I do not want to come to Kenwin, on the
eve of your departure. And anynow, I do want you to help me to
decide where and when and how to settle in Lausanne. I do not
SEE the Paix, on the other hand, I have things there. I went
to Zurich yesterday on the two o'clock train, got off at
Stadle., walked round a bit, then decided to take the three
o'clock paix back. It was a good trip and gave me the idea of getting
out. I have a boat-trip in mind, leave about twenty OF two,
can take train back or try for another boat. All this is practice
toward your coming and my long journey back.

I do thank you
tell Bear, NO
and yourself - soon -
again for the
tell Bear, NO
and yourself - soon -
gift - please
Just himself
CAT.

I am MOST interested in your news of Lugano. I think it is
just as well that I did not come, this time. I did not
speak of the lovely nightdress on telephone; I knew you would get
my letter and the box. I repeat again, my thanks and pleasure
in it and the others - and all - everything - As I say, I am
having a good wistful time, going over all the clothes, very
little that I care to give away. But I am sorting out,
carefully. I am astonished at Bear - I do hope all will be
well - my very best to him and say how happy I was to hear
his voice, but I am always on edge for the ping. It is
clouded over and a little cold. I will leave the return open; I
don't want to stay on here, too long. One gets stuck, somehow.
I see Father B almost every morning; he always wants news of you
and Bear. I lent Heydt the Avon and the script of the
Mystery, the last of my "novels" series, the Zinzendorf story,
shorter than the others and ( though part of the original theme)
remouved and historical, Prague 1788, as I have told you, I am

Sept. 18

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Fido dear,
Yes- I sent Ethel a card, some days ago. Thank you- and
for ringing. Enclosed from Ashby. It will be nice to see her
but O- how ironical that she comes just when you do. I will
wait your advise, re inclosed, I have written down time and
place, so do not return. Thank you for the mag., I read and
give over. Now the sun is out, rather dim
but hopeful. I am SO WORRIED about the future, as
to where to settle and so on. I am so airaid oi getting stuck
here. I do not fancy the Paix but it is always possible
to go back. So good oi you to see about the nightdress.
I have so many lovely things, am taking such pleasure
in going over them. I gave some old "smalls" and 4 pair
hall-worn nylons to the maid, she was ecstatic. I must look
out some more odds-and-ends. I am really enjoying the
Stein saga. More than 20,000 letters in the rile,

left to Yale; she kept every letter, even scribbled
notes from the concierge. You will enjoy "The Flowers of
Friendship" later, if you have not already had it. I may
post back some books to Kenwin, I will mark "await return" but
if you write Eisie, just mention possibility. I only just sent
her a card to thank for the hk. ; I have actually only a few books
of my own and the packing or trial-packing is run.

Please note enclosed note, to be destroyed.

So much, so much to be said - dear Fido - but I will let this go,
now. So much love and greet Bear

Sept. 19

Just 7 years ago to-day that I started writing AVON -
for you, because of you.

Now thank you, the wonderful full nightdress has come, it is
just that difference that matters, I have just tried it on. Thank
you and thank Paradis des Dames; it is that indeed and
I am there with memories, walking along, walking along the
arcades. More of all this. I addressed the envelope to Kenwin so you
see how my thoughts go. I am posting back some books, have sent a
card to Elsie. Yes- May Bhaduri, I will try to get her some little
thing here. Now Fido, I will not write. Ashby, just a card
of welcome. I will try to get a little time-table for you.

I will leave you to decide. Fido, I feel the FULL toward
Kenwin. A number of people have left, Miss Holder has
moved up the hill; it is not bad weather, but gets dark
so soon, a bit uncertain mornings, afternoons, I still sit in
garden. I am anyway, simply going on with the bags. The big

I am going with this to post, so will just say thank you again for the Paradis - this one is perfect! Arientôt - love - CAT-

USA air one is practically packed, so it can go. But if Bear leaves anyway, couldn't I come back with you ? Now, I will leave this, just make general preperations; I have told Father B and Dr. H that I MAY go back with you, am not sure till I see you. Now, could you perhaps bring Ashby out Thurs. ? I should much prefer you alone, but if I go back with you, I will need all the time; we could of course leave it till near-end, if I am to see you x_x_x Friday, as originally planned. How do I address the bags ? I would prefer using the trip money in getting my bags to station in a taxi. But this is week-end and I still have time to write and get answer. Father B says Bear MUST come here and I must come back with him; of course, I don't SEE it but will say in a general way, that I MAY come back later. Doris letter is so interesting. Of course, I am most discreet, but maybe things will work out, if he is scared. Fido, thank you but I won't BUY A SINGLE THING. I have this phobia now about clothes and packing and storage.

Sunday, Sept. 20

Fido dear,
Father B says he can see you or, and Bear on Friday
morning, at 10 or 10.30, or in the afternoon at 3,
downstairs, here in the house.
I must tell you at once,
boats are very uncertain, they seem to run nere to K, oniy
in fine weather.
I rind I have no key to the GREEN case,
there was a key, also key and little padlock is missing from the
large, soft shoe-bag. Now, this is not very important as I am
packing important things in them USA air-trip large case and in the
Sim for which I have the keys. But I may have to ask you to get
me some straps from Zurich. I will try here but I may not be able
to get them.
I have been packing the other bags as well.
I could stay here forever, in this Shangri atmosphere. But
about half the people have gone; I suppose it is a sort of
summer-cure place.
I will send a line to Ashby; I
will say I am very anxious to see you IF you come, as

Thank Bear for his lovely card-how
home-sick it makes me ...

I could stay a night with you in Z, if
indicated. I AM happy here, but there is
so much I want to talk about with you,
and there seems to be CHANGE writ clear in
the air. Love and love( greet Bear) C.A.T.

you are advising me as to return; AND that I MAY return
with you, in which case, we would have to sit in meeting or
meetings. I was rather surprised at Dr H; he suggested
my taking the old lady, Madame Herf to a film in Z; she is
rather lame, very nervous; he arranged this at table and she
seemed delighted; I had the brilliant idea of getting the
California dame, here with husband, I don't know if you saw them.
This Mrs. Menker did actually take-over. But imagine, going in
by 2.30 train, getting to movie (an Alex Guiness, they all like),
sitting for hours, having tea at a shop, coming back ... all
the time WITH the delicate old dame to look after. Well ... I can
and do go in alone, independent ... I am only grateful that I found
my way out, said I had many, many letters to write, that I was
expecting a lady-doctor friend- and so on. If any
discussion, as to my possible return, will you back me up. I
have hinted at it, but left it open ... We had some torrential
rain, now it is cloudy, rather pleasant, a bit cold.

Monday, Sept. 21

Fido dear,

Thank you for letters and two mags. I don't know WHAT to say, only that I will leave things to you, a bit.

I am going on arranging, this has to be done, anyway.

I don't SEE Elsie coming for me, do not arrange with her, till
I talk it over with you. Had a terrible scene with Madame

Herf, her mother was American, her father German. I can not
WRITE what she told me, we can talk it over. Also, a strange
fey Bergner sort of girl, who rushed to me in garden,

"Madame l'American- La Paix." This rather stunned me.

She tells me the most AMAZING stories in funny french, her
father was Polish, I can not follow, but it is strange and fey.

I do long to see you. I am having a private talk with Dr.H
to-morrow, D.V., at three, I will go over points with him.

Thank you cuttings, will read, later. Had a long letter from N.P.

about the LEUKE, so began to make copy of the short sections I
have done, this morning, so did not get my letter to you, as usual
by morning P.O. post. I am taking the three Euripides to post
to Kenwin, as I have enough, more than enough books, now I am
working again on LEUKE.

Thanks for Urizdel. I don't think I can get in. N.B. Are you bringing Ashby out here
do not think I can get in. N.B. Are you bringing Ashby out here
with you, the first time? Let me know. It might be a good idea.
I am glad you had happy time at Montagnolia. All news is of
greatest interest. I must out now. Sun is lovely. I do long to see
you. N.B. If you should bring Ashby, on Fri., we could talk
over things Fri. morning. Do not plan excursion! We will see.
If I do stay, I can of course, see Ashby here or "in town."

I just won't plan anything now, till I see you. But will have
big bag ready, in case you can take it, if you, it can come with the
others.

We will discuss all other points in your letter, later.

And thank you, thank you- and love to Bear. Soon, soon -

Give my very best to Bear. I will
have time, I think, for another
letter, if I post early to-morrow-
well, I don't know. But you know how
I feel and that I am quite open to
either coming at once or waiting
another ten-14 days. Perhaps then,
you could fetch me ? But we will
discuss all this ... all this ...
Infinite love and thanks for leaving
return problem, more or less open.
Evan on CATE-

POSTKARTE CARTE POSTALE CARTOLINA POSTALE

Mrs. W. BRYHER

Hotel BRISTOL

LUGANO

Tessin

Sept. 26

Fido dear,
I enclose the carbon of the letter that I wrote Madame Imfeld. There is certainly no hurry, but I thought I better write at once. I had a long talk with Dr. H this morning. Things are clearing up, re former talks. I think he is very clever but loose-ends are painful. I have been so happy, exalté, writing the new poems, seeing you, getting this ps-a sage straightened out with Heydt. I talked or you, too; he is most sympathetic and interested about Bear but, like Father B, keeps saying, "why doesn't he come over here?" Well, you will write me all developements and I could always come back, if you needed me. In the meantime, I am just tearing along with the script. By the way, did you take the L. and L. folder with Writing on the wall, from Paix? If you find it, will you sent it here, as Heydt keeps on asking me of my talks with the Professor ; it is stimulating going over those Vienna days with him. I kept the L. and L. sheets ( cut out ) and put them in a L. and L. cover. But don't bother, if this is not at hand.

I can not thank you for all, all, all you have done. Actually, I was a little over-excited though not, really too tired with the visit yesterday. But I felt it would be a scrappy time, just an hour with you, this morning. And perhaps better than I say. H. and got this letter written to Paix. Please don't bother to unpack the bag. I can see to all that, later and the summer things anyway, were always stored in a suit-case, as I had no place at Paix to hang them. Bless you a thousand times. I must post this at P.O. after lunch, when I go to meet Érisson, as I was delayed, this morning.
How can I thank you? Greet Bear and let me know how things are there.

Sunday, Sept. 27 5:30

Dearest Fido,

Thank you so very much for the straps and for the cards;
the extra ones I am sending out anyway, so it does not matter
if the set is not complete. I am so deeply touched by all
this; I had a nice tea with Ashby and she went on about
your visit, the bag and the wool. Dear Fido ... I had quite
a talk with Father B, he didn't say anything much new, except
that Bear denied any excess in drinking, declared he was
well and nothing possible (if ill) due to drink;
Father B said there was one solution, that he might have
trouble, liver, kidney or heart and stop or himself. He of
course wants me over here, I went into all that again.

I will do what is indicated and will wait for news from you.
Dr. B said he had written to Herzog and would report to me on
what Herzog says.

I am beginning to make notes of food, I will send on later. Thank
you again.

I will try to go in to take Ashby to tea to-morrow. I was
meeting her at her hotel, then asked her to come to
the old place, off Paradeplatz, as I can get there with
elf. We will have easy tea and I will try to find the
Heimwerk shop. I will hope to get the 16.21 back. It will
be an adventure - but only if weather fair-to-middling.
It was lovely hearing your voice and Bear's, All my very, very
best. If you come across the Smith-Corona pamphlet,
I'll send it. Do not worry if you do not just put your hand on
it. I have ribbon trouble, have managed so far, but have no book-of-
words. They could always help me at the office.

Sept. 28

Fido dear,

Thank you for letter and the beautiful coat that came this
morning. It is so exactly what I want but really do not
need, as I am just catching up to the first beautiful coat.

Really- really- Fido. Thank you for hint, re Ashby. I will
take in extra notes, in case she might care to do extra
shopping.

It has been much easier this time and really,
quite mate-y to have another visitor here. It is
cloudy but unless it pours, I will go in to Z, this afternoon.

Do you know Ernst Junger? Our Erick rushed in with a vol. for
he to read, said Junger was accapted by Nazis but was not one,
his son was killed by them and he was, I think, in Paris.

Anyhow, I feel very ignorant. Also, a pamphlet on all this by
Gerhard Loose of ( all places) Boulder, Col.; also, an
article on Kafka, a letter rather, to his father in a
Frankfurt mag.; this is all irrightful.

PRIVATE; it seems our Erich is here to do
analytical work with a certain analyst in Z, I did not get the
name, will ask again later. But PRIVATE. That is why he
is here, at all, at Kusnacht. I don't think this is his first
analyst- it is all very familiar. But our Erich and

H.D. of Avon ( he brought your copy back, I had new ones
sent out for Macm., London) seem to have started something.

I know you will understand, if I do not "break the analysis", his
it seems, as well as mine. I am ready to come back, of course,
but this puts a rather special light on the past; I will write
you, as exactly as I can in a few days, because until Ashby
goes, I don't feel quite secure; you know. I am sure you will
understand this Erich processus.

Thank you too, for Pup's holiday and all the Pup's pups!

It is a bit cold here, too.

I can not beg you to tell how grateful I am for all the

Sept. '29

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Fido dear,
Did you know that the wonderful new coat is a double ?

You turn it inside-out and have that beautiful deep-rose,
complete with 2nd set of buttons ? How can I thank you ?
Did you know this ?

Thank you for Schaf envelope. I am writing P, I hope, with
this. I will add a line if Father B has anything new to say,
when and if he comes in. I had a happy time with
Ashby, we walked back from Sprungli ( ? ) and I took
her into the Heimwerk, they still had no more cards but expect
soon. I was getting some more. I gave Ashby a small note, she
insisted that you had given her. But I see here here to
tea to-day and will take notes in my bag, in case she will
accept more.

Would it be much trouble to send me the grey suede shoes that
I got in Lugano last year ? They are for winter. You might
slip two pairs of the winter-stockings in with them. I do not
want to bother you and this is not REALLY necessary.

I hear that the "Young Bess" is very good and in
English with German captions only. Ashby and I thought the
display of photos. looked very good. It is the film near the
Stadel., we spoke of it too. I will hope to go in, after A.
leaves. I think much of you. Had another long talk with
Dr. H. - he has PRIVATE ambitions to write.

Please be discreet about him as we are on a strict sort of
ps-a level and give each other ideas, find "findings", though
we are inclined to quarrel a bit over Qedipus. "Far too
much is made of this Qedipus etc." I guess he has not worked
through his ... anyway, I will report progress etc.

I am delighted to hear of the book and long to read the MSS.

PRIVATE. Our Erick expects to leave here next Oct., wants

to set up on his own, then, in Frankfort. Where exactly is F--
what is it like ? But if Bear came in the spring, he would be
here- and perhaps I could come over, too.

I am glad to hear you have a companion of suitable
age for your travel exploits (Moon) :

Thanks for future movements - but don't hurry and don't worry.

Had a nice visit with El.A.,
but she had frightful tummy-ache,
and we had to get the sister
to open the dispensary and get her
powders.

Wed. Sept. 30

Thank you for letter and the S-Corona
letter, dear Fido. Thank you about
Paix and all that; please do not worry or
put yourself out, in any way. There is
really no immediate rush. Please give
my love and all suitable messages to
the Scariatti. I remember how we talk of
Venice at Bristol, last summer. It is
very COLD, I wear the two beautiful coats,
sitting at window, writing. But I will try

October 1

Dear Fido,

Thank you for letter and the two lots of papers. I went
in the " Young Bess " yesterday, it was very good. I felt
triumphant to take the trip, just caught the 5.15 back.
I found a funny , rather old-Berlin cafe by the Corso cinema.

Had early coffee there. I feel a bit blurred and
excited after my adventure. It is very COLD. I got some
warm socks to wear over my stockings. Give all
messages to the Scarletti. Do not worry about any of those
things. I am in two minds about return; I somehow do want to
come back but will have a few more "sessions" with Heydt
first.

We are very few now at table, less than

one half the summer crowd. I have not seen Fater B
this morning but will report in a p.s. if he has any news.

No, I never had Simon's new novel. I think I write you
at once, when books come, as I am always so pleased and
glad to have them. So interested to hear of the script. I
an making copy of Leuke to sent Norman, I wonder why, except
that it keeps the continuity with the past and N seems
happy to have more poems. They must be re-worked, but I
send him the second rough copy, before revising.

My very best to Bear. It will be heaven to see you
again, but, as I say, Heydt has been telling me of his
ambitions and "frustrations" and it is all very
fascinating. But more of all this, later. Infinite love

Thanks in advance, for shoes etc.

Father B just in, no news yet from Herzog. He wanted me to
be "weighted", am now 123 instead of 124, puzzling to him. I
wonder if we read the scales right ? But he thinks I look
exceptionally well ...

October 2

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Thank you for the box, dear Fido, with snoes, stockins, clips and
the mag., which I am reading later. How really tragic about the
Scarletts. Interesting about Rome. Yes, it is very
cold here, too. Antony Hopkins is the boy who came
to tea, a long time ago. I think we gave him some ice-cream
from the frig, he got down under the piano, I remember - O
Fido, these remembers - to regulate pedals. Never saw him
again, except once at a concert, madrigals and so on, when
he wanted to talk over a book I gave him - don't know if he
ever set anything after Hymen. They went very English, just
then, perhaps I was too Greek-American. Anyhow ... thank you for
reminder. No special news from Father B; we have a wood-pecker,
he thought I was hammering in my room and I thought they
were, quite a carpenter, this, just outside my window. I
love them, have not seen this one but hear him.

I am restless and will hope to get into Zuri again- perhaps not
to-day; I am off to the p.o. to send this and the IV section of
Leuké to Norman. So much love, and thank you again for box
and all. Love to all- and greet the Scarletti-

October 3, Sat.

Dear Fido,
Thanks letter. Also enclosed from Kenneth. What are
your plans now- and what date, approx., might you be leaving ?
Father B has not heard from Herzog, he wondered if Herzog
was held up by "professional etiquette" of some sort, about
giving confidential report on a patient there. I said I thought
Herzog was prob. busy, anyhow I suppose he will write. I had a
marvelous day yesterday, went to "Captains Paradise", very
good English film, Alec Guiness, scene in and around Gb., reminded me
of our 1926 trip and other trips, much takes place on the
"Golden Fleece" running back and forth to Africa. Captions in
French and German, also very good documentaire of Pompeii. It is a
lovely little cinema, Wellenberg, off Marktgasse. I took
tram from Bellevue, felt very adventurous, must take you
there, sometime. I just got the 5.15 back, but leaving
a little early.

Now I hate to bother you but it really is cold in the
morning. Could you bundle my TWEED coat, with the big collar,
into a paper and send it ? I hoped to do without but really,
really. Can you put another pair of those stockings in with
it, the same ones; if I start ( and I have started wearing them,
I must go on. You know the coat ? I do hate
to bother you and I can make-do if this is too much trouble.
I do wonder what your plans are.

I saw the Territet P.O. on the news-reel, when I went to
"Young Bess", also Lausanne, I was thrilled.

I feel a little dither-y, I don't know why. I keep thinking of
return, but Heydt has been coming in and they seem to think
I should stay, if comfortable. But I can leave, at a few days notice.
I certainly do not want to come back, just as you are or may be
leaving. I will write, of course, from day to day.

I do appreciate all you have done and wear the new clothes, am

so comfortable in the new dark skirt, right now and the
red side of the new coat. I have displayed the latter's double-face
and everyone seems surprised and amused.

I left the copy with Miss Voules that Prof. Butler had; she
sent it back there, as I thought safer. I got "Mystery" back,
this morning; Miss Voules does seem to understand the posting.
I am writing her.

Thanks again, dear Fido. I may send just a card to-morrow, as
I am deep in un-answered letter.

Please greet all and sundry. I have sent cheque or check to
Pup for John's October 10th.

Sun is gloriously out; it gets quite warm when sun appears but
mornings are misty, damp and very cold.
Infinite love

October 5, Monday.

Dearest Fido,

Thank you for two letters and the mag. I take latter across to the Menkers who always seem pleased.

Scarletts and Italy, in general. They seem such
cultivated woman- and are. I had heard Hermitage was
good- do you know if it shuts down in winter ? I always
meant to look into it. Please do not worry about the _Paix_
things ; I knew there were a lot of things studded in
the hall cupboard. I will be glad to have room, they can all
stay in the Studio until I get across. But there is no
hurry, as I keep on saying. What a shock and surprise about
Petrie, do let me know what it is all about and when you do
write, give her my special love and sympathy. Yes, I felt
_Paix_ was getting musty somehow, all those new rooms and
an effect of superricial elegance, then the smoke and fish
from kitchen through the corridors. K. and I. noticed it and
everyone grumbled, but I was sort of fixed there and I did like
my tiny appartment. But better to leave. I told you there is a
girl here, who spent some time, off and on, at _Paix_.

Such a number of invalids are associated with the place now. I
do look forward to seeing you, but you give me no hint as to
your actual future plans. And our Erich has been most
helpful, I don't dare suggest I am going. I will hold on a bit
longer till Father B hears from Herzog at any rate. It is cold
mornings, but I have electric heater now, in my room. I have
had quite a recrudescence of life too, going in to Züri. I
thank you in anticipation, as they say, for Tibet. I
will write more later, and you let me know WHAT IS BEST TO DO. I
am happy here. I enclose the WAFER, it is not a hint, as I have
no special need of same for 1954. But O- how the year has gone!
Yes- that is odd about Viola, I must try to write.

Tuesday

Thank you for letter, dear Fido. Nothing
to report. I am so glad that you are busy and
happy with the new book. I am so eager to see
it. It is terribly cold in the morning but
we have the heating on now. No special news
in. I am trying to catch-up with old letters,
wrote seven yesterday, a RECORD for me.
Forgive this scrap- with so much love - will
hope for news to-morrow,

Mrs. W. BRYHER

Villa Kenwin

Burier-La Tour

VAUD

Oct. 7

Dear Fido,

Thank you for coat and stockings, arrived yesterday afternoon.

It is bitter cold mornings and I have had a very slight sniff but
nothing serious, is better now. But the room-maid was ill
with throat and tummy, I just have her do the bed and leave, as
don't want germs. But it is O.K. now, simply the actual COLD.
More people are leaving, we are a very small table, compared with
summer, but it is quieter and one sees more of Dr. Heydt. I was
out the last time and to-day is his day off, so I am glad I did
not broach leaving. Now, I have your letter. I meant by PLANS
specifically, the USA trip you spoke of. I did not want to
come back on the eve of your leaving, before I had got the
rythm or system of Kenwin and Bear established. Now you say
you could fetch me, as from coming or going to England ? It is
good of you, in any case. Is USA out, pro tem ? I will certainly
wait on here, now a bit longer - as I say, would want to talk
to Heydt- though I have told Father B that I might leave, but
waiting for word from you. All this will arrange itself. I am
very, very sorry that virus has appeared. Please take extra care
of YOURSELF. I am delighted to hear of the work in progress. Will
be excited to see MSS when ready. Please leave all things
in the Studio, it is so good of you to see to this. I can not
thank you and it will be fun, later, to go over things there.

I will explain to Father B, we always talk of Bear. Please let
me have the Francey BILL. I MUST PAY THIS. I don't know what
I could have done without your help, here. I dreaded interview with
Paix. Thanks, thanks, thanks, dear, dear Fido. Longing to see you
but will wait now and have "session" on "leaving" with Heydt.
Bless you- best to Bear and sympathies -
C.A.T.

Thursday, Oct. 8

Fido dear,
Thank you for letter and papers; I am so glad for all
these mags. I read reviews etc. with intense interest.
I have been giving the Villa to various people as -my -
near-future address, so do not be alarmed if letters come
in. Open and put away the books, if you feel like it,
that I sent back; I think only one lot was addressed to me, the
Euripides.

N.B. Please have the big trunk left in the Studio; there is nothing
in it but stacks of cards, boxes, old diaries etc; I long to
pick over all these things. Leave almost or all of my things in
Studio and I can gradually sort them over and take what I need
upstairs. Thank you again and again for all this.

My type-ribbon seems fairly all right. I will try to find one in
Zürich; Smith-Corona, Portable, Noiseless. If I can not
find a ribbon, perhaps when you are in Lausanne, you will
try for me. There is no hurry and I am going in to Z, soon.

But I am rather stupid about finding things. Or does one get ribbon
in England ? I think you got me ribbons before, hence, I am so
helpless. But do not bother Y E T. You see, this is quite O.K. ;
I am glad for the little book and I can follow it and have
changed ribbon myself.

I cleared out a few more old things for the maid, she is Austrian;
she was delighted with the bits and pieces.

I started out for Z yesterday, but it was so bitter-bitter cold,
that I just put your letter in the p.o. box and came back. I am
so glad for the warm tweed coat.

Thank you for ringing; it is wonderful to hear your voice. I will wait
on a bit but my ringers are itching to sort over papers, MSS ,
all the things. It doesn't really matter about the Frued. It may have
been among books, as it is in L. and L. blue folder, its the
L. and L. printed copy, not MSS ( if any).

Love and infinite thanks and all gruss to Bear

Dr. Heydt just in and Father B.; however, Heydt stayed a minute after B left; we talked to you and Bear.

Heydt has frightful cold but it didn't matter as I am half-and-half; I gave him effedrin. He was delighted, had only had it in spray-form, always difficult. He has just rushed off, leaving me with MORE German to de-code ... mag, papyry this time, criticism on litt. matters etc.

Oct. 9

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Fido dear,
I found a ribbon-shop in Z yesterday, they were not sure it, theirs
was right for this machine, so I am taking booklet in, next
time ; anyhow, this ribbon will last some time yet, D. V. ; I had
a lovely trip in; Z was misty and darker than here; had
wonderful cake and coffee at Sprüngli and thought of our first
trips there; very crowded, had to go downstairs but rather liked it,
or a change. Everyone here has cold and sniff; I feel much
better. So sorry for Bear, hope you keep O.K.

I did not mean to nag you about plans, simply, as I said, I do not
want to return on the very eve of your departure. All blessings
on the work in progress.

I had a beautiful ship-card from Rita andena from Cambridge. I am
sending them one of the flower-set; I got three more sets
yesterday, trust I am not stealing your thunder.

Thank you for mag, these are all much appreciated.

I hope to get back to the Helen , have been busy with all the
German books and papers- and all you send are read and
re-read; no books in yet, I will let you know.

It is COLD mornings, but sun is out.

Sat., Octo. 10

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Fido dear,

Thanks two letters and the books. I am wild about it. I have been
hungry for some such thing; Origo is Anglo-American, I read in
Times review. I am so distressed about Bear. I talked with
Father B; he said you could always go to Proi. Steck,
University Clinic, Lausanne, "Ery", but I am not sure of that last
and specializes, I gather, in Bear trouble.
word, written by Brunner. Steck is psychiatry. I suppose it
is as well to have people to refer to. B keeps asking if Bear
is drinking as much; I say I don't think so but have no special
details. Please remember that I can always come over if you need
help. It is really TOO MUCH FOR YOU ALONE. Is Elsie any
help? Write me fully and freely.

Thank you about future arrangement or trunk etc. There is no
hurry at all, will probably not open it for some time, anyway.

Do hope that the books goes on and that the "Mooncaif"
sustains you. What rot about Chatto. The Sands is so perfect for
the moment, with "Young Bess" in the offing. What is the matter
with these idiots ? I can not understand them at all.

Heydt has been miserable at table, with his knife that he went to his
tummy. So he has not been in lately.

I went in to Züri again yesterday, went to Central Station and walked
the length back to Sprüngli, then to Stadel. I feel I am
getting to know Züri now. I was looking for film, there is one by
the "Third Man" author, called "The Man Between", it looks
quite good, Orient, near Central Station. I may go in this afternoon or
early next week. I am restless and think it good to get out. I
met an old mate on the street, who was at Paix, part of the winter.
She was anxious for all Paix news and kept me talking French for
a long time on corner. However, I finally got away by Grieder and over
to Sprüng, while was crowded; now a good tea, however, and thought of
you. Yes, I do like old Züri and round my way and Pelican street
and Jemoli and all the high spots. It is cold and damp
this morning out there is central heating and I also have the

Monday, October 12

Thank you, dear Fido, for letter papers and duck-report.
Letter was from E.M. Butler, she seems to have been
getting more CARE than I ordered, but I have written CARE;
anyhow, she is sending extra to Cambridge friend with large
family. I never knew anyone more grateful than she has been;
or perhaps she expresses it in a new way. They are going off
to India in a few weeks now.

Dr. Heydt came in and I walked back with him to lunch and of
course, met the THREE Brunners on the path. I don't know why
but I felt rather guilty, "discovered"; though our talks are
most innocent, there are vistas open with this new ONDINE, talk
of books, ps-a and so on.

I am falling in love with Zurich. I wander now in the old
town, such lovely corner, the bridges etc. I feel too, that is
near England, I mean even I could flip over ( to use your word)
from here. Not now- later perhaps. But problem is
hotel or flat if I leave here. I must leave sometime. Dr. Heydt was
quite shocked when I said I was trying to think of move over.
You will come and pull me out if necessary ? But not NOW. Not
just yet. I am glad Bear is better, much gruss all
round. Thank you, re ribbon. No hurry and I can easily
get one in Z. I love the flower cards so, am glad I
am not trespassing.

I got Giraudoux in Payot, Zuri. Had long talk in French with a
nice woman, wanted one of those card-board paper-cutters and
said I did not know the bench. She said, "but I am English." A
most charming, clever woman, must have a sort of Rita-job, I felt.
I will go back again.

I told you our Miss Holder had moved to a loft in a friends house,
up the hill ? She seems very gay about it, but place is full of snap-

electricity trouble, roof trouble, noisy-children trouble,
rood problems - we laugh over it and I realize everything that
MIGHT happen to me, on an idyllic hunt for romantic apartment
in Zürich. But it is just a little dream, not to be taken seriously.
So much, much love and endless gratitude

Oct. 13, Tuesday

Fido dear,

Your letter is a great comfort to me, as I feel at peace
about non-return for the moment. I will report progress here,
from day to day. Thank you for the mags, I save N.Yers of
course, the rest are greatly appreciated. Thick mist reported
yesterday in Z, now soft mist here and some sun but they say
probably rain later. I do hope to go in again this afternoon, or
to-morrow to Ziri. I am glad you approve. How terrible about
Petrie, convey all my sympathies, if indicated. This is really
most tragic and I understand that you would want to see her.
Thank you for approximate dates, but I am sure evrything
will work out. I am so glad I made the break with Paix, I feel
better altogether about it and life in general. Like you, I
don't even want to see Lausanne, much as I loved it, in the past.
Ziri seems so much more vivid now, intellectual and people so
kind, always want to help directing one and with German, and
almost always trying out their English.

Do you mind addressing enclosed card to Miss Emerson ? And
give her news and messages as from me, when you write.
So glad about MSS, I long to see some pages. Loved what I
did see.

Yes, I have found some most attractive shops for cards and
calendars, "the other side" near Gross munster. Miss Holder
wants to take me exploring, one day, but I rather prefer being on my
own. The Americans, Cal. Menkers, leave on Thurs., very, very few
here now, but it is cozy and _en famille_.

I will just wait, as to Lugano, plans-but thank Bear for suggestion
that you pick me up, in Dec., it seems a long, long time. But I
will report, as I say, on my feelings, from day to day. Now, I
am VERY happy with the new books.

So much, much love

Oct. 13

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Thank you, dear Fido, for the ribbon. It is really very good of you - as with all things, the many mags, letters etc. Could you get Elsie to do up Norman's Auden-Pearson anthology and send it, and as well, before or after the Aldington Anthology of poetry? I am having real encounters with Eng. Litt., as Dr. Heydt asks my advise and wanted me to dig out some anthologies for him in Zúri, but it seems foolish to buy new ones when I have so many, at the Villa and in London.

This is all great fun, though at times, over-stimulating; he takes me and Litt. in general, so seriously. He seems impressed with "Mystery" which I gave him, in Christians MSS to read.

I had quite a time in Zúri yesterday, the usual, book-shops and Sprüngli for tea. Then back and a "session" with Heydt.

No special news though I seem to be living very intensely with MSS and your letters. Not quite so cold, though there is general "sniff" about still.

I am shocked and distressed about Petrie. She was so well, animated and attractive when I saw her last, In Lugano.

Please do give messages, as indicated to them.

I keep an eye-out for all films, we have a list of 47 cinemas here; I have explored round-about in Zúri, must find cinema first, before I go. I had read review of the Roman Holiday and intended to go, when/if it comes.

Please give greetings and much love. An interesting article on a fig-tree on the mag that I enclose.

The girl that George mentions is a daughter of Horace Traubel, who was intimate friend of Walt Whitmann. I was taken once, only once, to see them. Once was enough - I mean for the boy-friend of W.W. ... but interesting. How George remembers ...

Love to all. Glad of your MSS. Again thanks and thanks for ribbon and ALL.

CAT.

Oct. 16

Fido dear,
I have a sort of sentiment or feeling about the krone. Just now, I do not think that I need extra francs; could we leave it, that you deal with my fund in Norway, when you transfer (if you transfer) your own? I always felt that I might even get there sometime, though not likely. Thank you so much for help, in all ways, with this and all other miraculous nest-eggs.

(Yes, that duck-folder is magnificent!) Thank you for addressing Emerson card. I did think of 14th but too late to write- may the new one soon be ready, what a wonderful trilogy. Glad to hear of rocket kits and all, and guests due at Kenwin. Hope Elsie's repairs wqork out- do let her see this amazing letter from Pup, before you file it. Also, thank you for Kenneth's news, how sad about the little cat!

PLEASE do not send me the Freud. I am simply swamped with books from Dr. H., at the moment, and will be glad of the Anthologies to get him off the German, which I find very difficult. Does Bear know or do you know Prof. Medard Boss? I was given a book of his on dreams, he is one of the Zürich crowd, I am sure Bear has heard of him. I only gave the book a glance-over, but interesting to know what is going on. There is a famous Rennweg, Banhof corner book-shop, specializes in Eng. Litt.; Dr. H asked there for Pearson, was shown Aldington. They wanted to order Pearson-Auden for him but I said he must wait for my own copy.

I hate to pester you but Father B keeps on and ON asking me why Dr. Herzog does not write, " is it etiquette not to write about a patient to another doctor etc. etc.?" It seems to worry him- though I explained over and over how Dr. Herzog apologized for delay, was ill and so on.

I got yesterday's letter at tea-time. Thank you so much for everything, Fido. It is dark now and a bit cru and my room-maid is ill; I chase her out, as soon as poss. from room.

Sat. Oct. 17

Dear Fido,

Thank you for ringing. I shall be glad to have the 2nd Aldington,
as Dr. Heydt wants me to go over poems and it is so much
better to have the two books. This is very good of you- no
hurry about the Pearson.

Thanks all news. It is cold and I have slight sniff but am now
off to sit in the sun. I will be
eager to know your plans, will love to see you. Later, if you
come, I will make short list of a few odds-and-ends that you
might stuff into a small bag for me; I have plenty of bags,
of my own, however, here. I don't mean I want another.

I enclose from R.A. ; I will not mark "return" on such
letters, you will send back, when not marked, as I do. Herring
is always most, most fascinating on Sh. plays. Thank you.

Sorry about Bear's sniff; Father B was sneezing, too.

Much, much love. I have been typing out for Norman, so forgive
little note. Bless you all, there ....

Oct. 19

Fido dear,

Thank you for all papers ; I am very interested in the
Freud reviews and am handing them on to Dr. H; he was shocked
to learn that Yo-fi shared the analysis with me. I can not
tell you how I have enjoyed all the mag's, have time to read them
and they do keep one up on books, affairs etc. Do
not worry about posting Pearson, the second R.A., the English
edition will be quite, quite enough. It is
sunny but a good many colds still about. I will
explain again to Father B, if necessary, about Herzog. It really
does not matter, but I was at wits end, as he seemed to
be so pompous about it, but I am sure all is O.K. now.
I do hope the script goes on nicely. Do not worry to
write- just a card. I do so love to hear. Please do not send
the Freud, but it really sounds wonderful and I am so
glad that Bear is wallowing. HIS contribution is yet to
come- remind him!

Just seen Father B, explained Herzog. I think it can rest now.
Again to thank you, with love always

Oct. 21

Fido dear,
Thank you for Times; I have never read it with such intense
interest and concentration. I seem to have time to follow the
news, thanks to you. Thank you infinitely for the shock of
the 1954 diary, sent out by Rita. I have sent her another
flower-card. This is a great shock and reminder of the
many, many years; I have a collection of the little old books in my
trunk.
Year Fido- I have been reading myself silly
with the poetry- and stayed up last night, reading after
my dinner, the new novels. Now, the leaves are
impossibly beautiful and drifting slowing, gold and red and
rose, mostly the gold-shower. I go round and round the garden
inspecting the new blaze from day to day. Wed. is Dr. Heydt's
day off and one feels a slight sense of holiday, though I have
not seen him at Am Strand for a few days, he seems to be
suffering from after-math of his cold, tummy I think. But
we managed to talk over lunch, very excited about Professor's
900 letters, to Martha; WHEN will they be published ?
Do not, O I pray and pray, send me the book. But thank you
for thinking of me. So much comes back in these ps-a
talks with Dr. H. and even with Miss Holder, in a small way.
Don't go out of your way to come over, as frankly, when I
see you, I LONG to return to Vaud. I think of it anyway,
but am so very happy here now, wieht the books and daily round and
Zuri always, to look forward to. I have been so
absorbed with reading that I have resented taking time off,
lately, away from the books. All blessings on the
inter-planatery spheres- how it terrifies me! You
are all very brave ... Thanks hint, re pen, but it
seems to be all right- as well, as its successor, the
beautiful black one ... Fido, Fido ... bless you ...
love to all ...

Thurs. Oct 22

So good to hear your voice, dear Fido, yesterday evening.
I will be so very happy to see you and we can then discuss
plans. You will be sending me the exact times etc.,
and I can meet you in Zuri, either or both days, or we can
arrange you come here. Will you want to see Father B again?
Edith's letter is wonderful. Please give her my
very best love- and tell people, which is true, how WELL
I am. Trees are startling, fountains of fire,
but alas, the leaves are drifiting down. It is damp but not
so very cold and I have little electric heater in my
room, to turn on, ad lib; the central heating comes on and
off, as days so much milder now. I have no news, it is all
books, books- for which I again thank you. I am deep too,
in the Anthologies, so many, many gaps in my poets - Christopher
Smart ... I find comes back but with a question-mark.
Do you know his "legend", I am mad about his David.
I do long for your new story- so glad to hear it
is not too "profound." How amazing about
Ros. Leh., it does seem more convincing than the other one.
Forgive scrappy letters, of late. You know how it is -
you are MSS and I am all books now. I will think out the few
ole' clos' later, depends on how long I stay on, can
really do with what I have and shops are so good here.
Please, my very best to Bear - and I AM so looking forward to
early week-after-next. Bless you and thank you

Friday, Oct 23

You know how I long to see you, dear Fido. I only did not want you to make special trip, just for me. I would let you know of course, if I DID need help or company, at any time. I am half in a "comma" and half cerebrastically blazing with the poems and new books. I thank you for Robert's news- think now, I will skip Melba. There is so much else to do in Zuri - also, there are other films. Enclosed from R.A. is interesting, re birds, those hoopoes we saw in Egypt, King Birds- you remember, of course. I have told a few that I delay coming Kenwin, as you are planning to be away a short time. I am very pleased about Robert coming to Lugano- 11 ONLY you were nearer, as I say, I have such a longing to see you and TALK. But I will really see you now, soon. The 2nd Nov., you know is nat.holiday and I think shops etc. are closed. We will see what best, the two wonderful days, Nov. 2 and 3, either you nere or I nere. I hope you come back this way, too ?

Had a short session with Dr.H., after dinner. I gave him the Eng. R.A. Anth., as the print is far too fine for me; he was very happy to have this, "my first English Anthology."

He has gaps, re ps-a and the Professor, is inclined to be too specialized, "why did Auden broad-cast on Freud and not one of the ps-a people ?" He gets a long lecture from me, re Freud's philosophy etc. being or belonging to the creative mind and so on and so on and so on... but all this is most stimulating. So much love and to all ther and a bientot, soon ...

Sunday, Oct. 25

Dearest Fido,

At last, the letter came from Dr. Herzog. Father B read it to me, or read part of it to me, on a bench in the garden. He said that Herzog was _d'accord_ and that it was a very satisfactory letter - gave some details about general health and so on, then said that it would be better for Bear to have the treatment, either here or somewhere nearer you. Anyhow, the only snag seems to be that Bear won't listen to this. But the way is open and the connection made between the doctors.

I went in again to Zürich, but did not attempt film, such crowds.

I pottered along Bahnhofstr. and got a book at Payot, next Sprüng., then tea at Sprüng., and home again.

I wrote Robert, sent a card to one Scarlett, some days ago, must send to the other.

I am so glad for all the reminders in my diary. Raw and cold, this morning.

I do look forward to early next week.

Let me know if there is anything at all that I can do, this end.

A wonderful article in Listener, "The Decline of Germany", among others. Thank you always for these papers.

Dr. Heydt says that Zürich is now the center of German culture. Certainly, then is a stir and _stimmung_ here.

Please tell Dr. Herzog if you see him, how pleased Dr. Brunner was with his friendly letter. More and more of all this, soon, dear Fido. Love to all

Tues., Oct. 27

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Dear Fido,

Thank you for envelopes, cards and the proof of first Freud chapters or sections. I can give this later; the actual SET is from the mag., I wonder where it is ? I expect I put it in a box, but now, it does not matter, and do not worry with proof it. I will give this later, to Dr. Heydt, to keep; I could only lend him the final L. and L. copy, the only one I have - but/some script. Dear Fido- thanks for the books. I am tempted to sit down at once and read them, but will save them for recreation, after I do my chore of letters and poetry-reading. I am enchanted with the anthologies and am filling up regretable gaps. It's dark and chill but I am so happy in my room. Thanks letter, too. And letters, read and destroyed. Wonderful of you to help Cousin H.; I wrote her a short time ago, always feel I neglect writing.

About clothes- if no special trouble, please several of the bright woollies. Old stockings- there are two qualities, or were, I want only the thicker ones( but not VERY thick ones, if any are left; I gave some of the VERY thick to Red Cross.) The second stockings are a bit sleezy, wool and silk, the first lot, just wool. I can easily buy more, even in Kusnacht. But think better to finish up old and give away here, before leaving. But stockings are not important, you sent TWO pair of the pure wool, and I have the silk-and-wool, but sleezy and can buy more.

There is a brown skirt but I do NOT want the jacket to it. I get wet at times, have three skirts but I keep the blue for best and wear the new black in my room. This is NOT important.

No straps, you brought me the new ones. I don't think there is anything else, will write. Yes- a few handkerchiefs. The only thing I have missed here is half-dozen hks; I did not report this as it would have meant such a lot of trouble and unpleasantness, but I was annoyed, as they were the little-flower ones from your trip to

Jā-a-ica etc. I sent the best scarves back, and think better not to have them here. I have about 15 lovely scarves but the small ones and older-but lovely. But now, I could them.

It might have been a little Italian who comes in when my usual maid has day off. But I have counted bits and pieces, since. It was a shock, however, a small thing, but a worry. Perhaps just as well it happened, as I keep check on things, now.

Father B was very much amused to hear of Monte; "so he is going there, instead of coming to Kusnacht, for a cure?"

Much, much love and greet all. I AM so glad for the Freud proofs.

Bless you and soon ...