Sat. Oct. 26.

Dear Fido,

I consider enclosed very funny and what cheek. Doris may
be interested in the LIST of famous poets- I should think
it would cheapen " ahrt" for anyone for a life time. If
you think I should answer, will you return the letter, NOT
the list.

I am off to Uhlan. Kex came in with a tummy ache. He
went home to take Boracic or something, I gave him a late
cup of tea. Yes- he quoted me too, papa's Delphic
statement about war and hate. I am not worried-
my job is to settle good old '18, I can't bother about
the "next" war. Here we live perminantly burned in the
sand and I can not worry- if this ps-a is to be any good.
I am stuck in pre-Fido layer- HE seems to think that is
the missing link- when I passed out before Pup arrived,
there is a gap. I never did this with papa or turtle. It
is prob. because he was in the melange- and I heard about
it, that I feel, in the uc-n, he will understand. Certainly
I never got into this absolute black black layer before. None
too pleasant, but I can't bother with future bombs till
the old ones are settled. Thank you, all the same, for all
news.

I walk in his park and please, I do not want the old
taxi. If the man comes, I will tell him it is a mistake, that
I have changed my mind, that I am dead or something. Because I
must be independent and the hours are shifted from time to

About Lotte. I should love to have her ... I mean, I would if it weren't so, as you say, awkward. I should be out, as it were, at ps-a, all morning. I can't explain nor excuse that to anybody NOW. This is a real projection of Soho 1919, after Pup arrived and just that period ... and this MUST be got clear. I love Lotte, but would simply not be "here", and she would be filling up time, I imagine with Eric, and that makes at once that atmosphere in this flat. I don't know what to say ... as actually, I do love her. I must leave it to you. And thank you for writing me at once.

I told you von S. reminded me of Heron-Allen and it is on that very-odd level. But apparently there is the weak thread ... registration of Pup and suppressed phobia about life in general, via Pup. So it is all very practical and helpful but very painful, at the moment ...

Sorry about Doris, but Kenwin is odd that way. But I suppose she likes it, anyhow it is a change for her ... but it is always difficult there if weather goes bad on ones hands ... unless people like reading a lot. However, I do hope weather improved ... kind thoughts to themenage.

I will, look out mags you mention on return, must get ready now to go off.

Will write of Kex and Cole to-morrow.

Much love, ever and ever, ye olde

Oct. 30.

Dear Fido,

Kex in. He took off N.D. letter about Dori. He thought it a
gem. He also read and liked other N.D. letter ....

News about Boris, very, very funny!

Met Mrs. S. on stairs and had a shock. Kex and I talked
about 5 hours on ps-a. Kex told me all history
of Stetts. He took me Prunier, very swell, and came
back here for a short time.

Kex wrote to Metzner, we posted card ; he asked M. to
call him up first thing, then Kex would try to go boat-train.
Kex liked IDEA but with me, thought they must be a "catch"
somewhere. However, he got message and wrote M., and awaits
developements.

Had Vigneron folders, thank you so very, very much, dear
Fido. I think I have reported on all and sundry
books and pamphlets. I find 4 Asias.

Jan. 1935
Feb.
March

April the same.

Ps-A Quarterly, Vol Iv, No. I and Silvia

has borrowed the last ps-a, but it is "safe"; I told her
a long story about how valuable they were; as S. asked for it,
I thought it bad policy to say " no, " but I am sure it is
safe and I will get it back at once.

What other mags. do you want report on ?
Pa is one long scream. S. said I should use my descretion in
telling Bud., but he agreed that Kex would prob. let cat out
of bag, sooner or later- at least, as that might happen, it would
possibly be as well to break it gently to Bud. If I do tell Bud, I
will say I have more or less just begun and it must be dead
secret on account of Theo., and Bud will love that.

Bud said his whole ps-a
consisted on reporting progress of various fights with
Petrie.

Kex and I agree that Cole is being very, very
foolish. She is just destroying herself in this
maso. anxiety neurosis, "rather like Bud in the old days,"
Kex remarked. Cole did everything she could to
make me distrust S., and it wasn't too good for me, as I
like Cole. But maybe, it will work out- and I suppose it
links me closer to Kex in a way, and is all material for S.
But we do feel Cole is making a fool of herself- and there
is no excuse, and she stopped her ps-a just when it was
beginning to " take. "

Sometimes I go very early and sit in a
Dutch Over where they serve hot coffe and it is very bunch, and
other times I rush over in the last bus and other times, I
walk across this park or in his park- that is the reason
any sort of TIMED conveyance would simply cramp my style,
and I sometimes leave house very early, sometimes late- and
don't want any sort of claustrophobia or feeling of
compulsion about all this.... so thank you again, re taxi,
but this is so much better.

I told Kex you had called ME up as you
felt more sure of making the contact ... also that you
gave your blessings to any undertaking but that you were not
over-eager - quite neutral- but that you said he must
be free, only ps-a in your mind was the most important-
I don't think I tried to influence him- I don't think he is
keen to make a wild-goose chase- but he said he would go at once
if there really were a salary attached ... but this will work
out.
Much love, and all news is fun, and we are all
so happy chez Schmide.

Fri. Nov. I.

I wrote old "papa" last night.

Bud came in ; I gave him sherry, he had only one glass, and I got
him to order only ⅔ wine, then after, he had only One
brady here. Quite different from other times. He said he was
trying to cut down on his drinks - I told him I was chez
von S. Bud was rather startled, and went on talking about
anything and everything but I insisted on von S., and finally
Bud was telling me the history of his ps-a, of how von S.
had a voice like Veidt, and from he moment he spoke, I thought,
"ah, Connie" and how he lept on he couch and hullo this and that.
So Bud is well embarked and already in a frenzy of anxiety
because he had told von S., he would be there 3 months and the
3 months were nearing an end, and should he, or shouldn't he - could
he, couldn't he go on. And so on. I had a realy good
time and got side-lights too, on S.; he seems to have
got Bud all right, and Bud looks better, his eyes are quite
different, not so narsicistc in his manner and wearing
a Tyrol felt hat.

We talked of poems and we compromised on Poet, as I said I would
have none at all, and he argued, as for you, for Master and I
screamed and said I will not, NOT , NOT have my
analysis spoiled again... and that is about Freud and I
will never write again... etc. So in the end we comprimised
on Poet, though I think it is too much and I don't and didn't
want to be printed this time. But all the same, there it
is ... and thank you always ... anyhow ...

Bud was one squeal of how Theo was
upset by your MSS and how sadistic you were really as she had to
read and, as well, publish it ... and Theo said Br sees everything

Fri. evening.

This is tomorrow's letter. I will get Silvia to post it after dinner. Just to say Pup was in and very pleased, as your mother had written John, and J. and E., I believe are to call on her after her return from Brighton. I am sure you must have heard but I thought I would write as well, as Pup seemed so pleased, as she said your mother was so happy.

I enclose from the Monmouthshire Pratt. I thought Doris might be interested in details about farm and so on. Please destroy.

Had a good séance with S. on the way out, bell went, I thought it might be Madame S., so I looped to put on my "rubbers," but on looking up, I was staring into startled eyes of Jennie. She stopped and wanted to talk, poor girl, rather lost and rather stunned at seeing me, I think. I asked her if she liked psyllium. She said, "Oh, maybe. But it is not much use, I can not talk." I said, "Oh, but that will change. You will soon love it." She said, "do you?" I said, "Oh, yes, I love it. It has helped me so much." She looked so sad. I took her shoulders and said, "poor Jennie. I am so sorry about all that. You will be happy, soon. I KNOW I will." She was about to burst into sobs on my bosom, (the maid was regarding this with dropped jaw) so I said, "now you better go upstairs. I'll get into trouble for talking-not that HE isn't very kind. HE is so kind." And I shooed her up the stairs.

Well.... what next? ?????

Monday, Nov. 4.

SLOANE 3835.

49 LOWNDES SQUARE
FLAT 10

S.W.1.

Dear Fido,

Had long talk with Kex, and he is due in again
to-day after S. S. says it is
very unwise for Kex to stop ps-a now, and that
Kex is making a phantasy-escape image of N.Y.
Kex was livid and said he knew what he liked,
if you went into a florist, you knew you prefered
Lilies to Carnations. S. said ," but you must
know W H Y you prefer them. " This all got Kex
Achilles' heel, and he is a sad dog, but is
going back all primed for the battle. I will hear
more later. S. showed the good old mailed
fist, Kex bit at him, S. said, " say what
you want, you know it will make no difference to my
feelings for you. " Kex then, as it were,
wept inwardly, but swep' out, outwardly.

It all seemed to me very simple and natural,
but evidently he got Kex on the Achilles.

Anyhow, it is good fun .......

I will get together the mags. on my return. Thank
you for the V.L. vol., almsot Mould
anthology sent me, via Kenwin. I will
hand over N.D. letter, all most interesting.

Kex screamed, by the way that Bud found
von S. was Connie Veidt .... because

R.A. .... mein Gott....

Very interesting that Maria and H. had seen
Cournos and Fletcher ...

Tues. Nov. 5.

Thick fog but I do not mind as I dope over to S., then
dope back to Kettle, then dope to buy buns, then wait
Cole, then dope over von S. with Cole ... then supper
and gramaphone, then bath ... read V.L. book. An ideal
existence for me.

Kex came in last night, had sherry and long talk over S.
Kex and he have made up their little tiff ... Kex
waits for cable from Pabst, but I think, with S., it is
part phantasy, and anyhow, for the moment, Kex seems oke.
Later, of course, he should get something, as his
talents are very keen ... went to Top Hat, and Kex much
interested in technique, he had seen it before, the
usual thing, like Gay Divorce, good dancing. I went back
to Kex room, for the first time in years. He has film stars over
the bath-tub, girls ... quite a shock for me to find
them. One flamboyant negro, I think prob. Jimmie, but
half-nude with one tall feather in a sort of head-band, it might
have been someone else, anyhow, one negro boy and 20 girls.
I may, for a joke, tell S.

We had a talk again, Kex lay on his couch and imitated
himself with S., very funny and I told him S. jokes. We
should do a film of a psa seance - it would be great fun, but
too, too high-brow for words. I see it in pellicule ....

We had four members speaking, conservative got most
applause, they hissed the long-haired socialist (?), I must
say I felt Cons., sorry ... but the others didn't
film so well ... great influence film. I am however,
keeping a very open mind ... much interested in the
Lewis Day pamphlet on writing, very good ... and Kex sat
up half night to read Doan and Out, while I found very
good... did not realize it was the Bummese man.

Must "out" ... don't hurry back. Everything here
is so very oke, and your mother seems so happy ... and Pup
is all right. Kex is working and I, also... or come
back to see us, and return if you want... but does you
want.

Bud told me Kex said, "I wonder if S. is an old queen as he wear
suede shoes. " I told this to Kex who roared and said it
and he NEVER said it,
wasn't a "sign" and what did Bud mean and so on. Kex, by the
way, however, I note, has burst into suede shoes...

Love and more later, love
to Do-wis. I do hope the later is improving... I mean
B.- what exciting friends we do have ...

ye olde

Nov. 6. Wed.

Can not find any Geographic mags., will take a thorough look
later.

Had note from Film S., who is only 3 / and I am
writing cheque for same.

Cole was as per usual, very eager for "dirt" en ps-a, but ambi
altogether about it, and tlked only of the money, how it was
spoil d as she had to pay or you had paid, and that if she saw
S. without the money it would be oke- but that is simply
sp simple - she won't ever admit she is fixated, but I
suppose it is better so. Maybe it is not for her ...

I had a nice note from "papa", simply saying that he
was glad I was with S., it may make stirrings in the UNK ...
He does not think there will be war ...

Glad Doris is happy. Don't come back. There is none
of your life here .... I am happy with ps-a, and feel I
have only just begun. I nevar had enough, and it was broken;
I hope to feel I am in this for a good long stretch, six
months and then later another three, as I told S., which
he of course counted pp to 9 ... the usual story ....

Freud "approves" of this, I am cozy in my own home;
S. is thorough and strict but very understanding, I like
the trip there. I have written enough ... if I want to DO
my one REAL work, it will be AFTER ps-a, and a continued non-stop
pxa. I have had enough publicity... V.L. had a terrible
time. I know what I want.

Nov. 7.

Had horror of night mare, the almost exact symbol of
pre-consciousness primal, and was filled with
horror and heart-beat and had to get up and make tea ...
a wreck, then I ran into the royal wedding and almost went
mad. S. upset me by saying, of course, that the Wedding was
a symbol of my parent's wedding. Fortunately he did not say
of his, or I might have gone quite off the deep end...
did I hate him ? Anyhow, had another scream and then took
alonal and feel, this morning, a new person. S. says there is
a deep fund of repressed aggression. So, for the moment, I must
be careful not to fly at you or anyone... so, please be careful
and one talking that KILLS me, is talk of my writing and being
forced to publish. So... I will go into that later. By the way,
I am only beginning my ps-a. Think of the time you had, and how
put up with your moods and tenses ... so don't say, I am an
" analyzed cat. " I am distinct in the baby-class ....

"ex will be in to-day. S.D. had go
some almost presentable clothes, and talked ps-a, and of you.
Cole wrote that I had helped her understand her on ps-a and that
she wanted to make money and pay S. herself ... that it was taking
Fido cash that upset her. So, I think in time, she may go back.
No more Winnie. I will not seek her out ...

Lotte called up when Cole was here but I made
Cole answer, so it was all right... but Eric called up
last night so they must have chewed it over and I could
not escape... so I told him I was lying in bed and I
coughed into the receiver and said it was a bad attack and that
he should call up later. I am sorry ... but can't let
anything at present, break into ps-a vibration...

I will prob. finally have to see them... but don't want
Eriq here, after what happened ...

Thank you for Connie A. It looks

DRE ADFUL.

Fog, a bit of sniff still... but I take
radio. Letter from your mother. She seems very happy. I
am answering it now. I had vote card and will
ask Cole or Silvia what to do ... don't worry. All is
very serene here. Too serene for you, I shouldn't wonder.

I am glad Doris has
found her nest ... I, too, had cult of bed and book, by't mine
was at night, tell her. Kenwin is grand for that.

Best to Vee though I must say, after
my long time, I am glad to have got out of Scorpio ...

Devotion and blessings

from ye olde

Nov. 8. Friday.

Bump called up, I have done up packet of Asia's and the
2 Photoplays; I explained over telephone; they are
to call at about 11; I will leave packet in hall
and trust all will be well.

Went last night to Barbary Coast with Kex, very, very good,
early Calif., but done in a really magnificent way,
almost all in the fog, as Kex said sort of Pabst stuff but Pabst
would never have got the right tempo. Kex rather fancies
himself on an authority now of the Wild Vest - and
certainly we had a lovely evening and right in the old, best
film spirit.
I went back and had a lime and gin drink
at Kex, where it is cozy, rather late ... he walked back with
me, in the best 5th Avenue of the sixties tradition.

Kex is very excited because he is making a sort of "montage"
for von S. of his and Buds and Jimmies triangle ...

Kex in good form and terribly doped by von S., it is really
so good for him, and von S. is good for me - more like
a black page where I write. I think the others were too
mixed up in other ways with things - S. is more
occult forme, almost Chinese.

Silvia and I, and possibly de Bruce, are having a sherry
at Kex to-morrow, D.V., at six.

N.D. has again come in, my analysis ... I am back
in terrible suppressed rage pocket ... but it is
bursting out nicely, the "boil", I mean .... saw the
wedding on film and it was quite beautiful, right sun for a

wonder.

I told you Eric W. called up and asked me to Willie
Walton concert ... but I simply can not, at
the moment, cope ...

I shall love We Two are, thank you so much; will
write you, at once, look forward to a good brouse, have got
back to reading habits now again ... but do NOT
like Connie A.

Sorry about cold, I find the Radio a great help and go
on with Crinex, I wonder what you will do when Doris
leaves. Won't it beterribly lonely for you, or
will you be able to slunk;? pity about weather ...

Well, this is simply
daily bulletin, fog and people with colds, but as
von S. says, London is a symbol of my UNK. I heard,
did I tell you - yes, I did - from papa, giving his
blessing to me and "Schmd." as he writes it.

Blessings and greet the

bretherн, from

Nov. 9. Saturday.

Dear Fido,

Rain. Very hard rain. I got dressed to rush out and shop, as Pup called me up last night, and asked to come here to dinner to-morrow night. So, I was about to get in some fodder. But I can't, will have to get eggs and fish-cakes, if possible, at T. Kettle, on the way back.

I do not mind rain, but one gets wet shopping, then has to go to von S. The flat is more like a boat than ever. I love it. Last night, for some reason there was a fog-horn going. I don't know why nor from where, unless it was just the wind in from the river.

Anyhow, it kept on and on. I felt I was right on the sea, and loved it. There was pretty thick fog last night. All this, is oke for my UNK.

I got the book WE TOO. My dear Fido. San Fran. by way of the Village, by way of the Paris bunch, authentic and about ten years late. Perhaps I should not put it that way, because if I S authenti, and I loved it, of course. It is Silvia cum Bergner- I mean bits and pieces and a dash of Fido. I will take it to Kex to-day. He will howl. I think I will kepp Silvia off for the moment ... but the reactions are pure Dobson, all that death and drink - though S. does not drink, and that frozen rage is well done. Thank you so very much. She has a lovely face.

Nov. 10. Sunday.

Dear Fido,

I tried King C., it was so awful, I lept into
the Corvo book, which I found, looking for the will-west
one by that tree-woman, you know. But Corvo made me laugh,
he is really Connie A. come true - I mean what is the
difference ? Connie A. is a sort of luke edition of all
that sort of sub-black-majic, after all. So I had a good
read and gloat, and will have fodder for reading for some time.
I am still at the Lindsay book, too, while I take very seriously
It is almost like reading one of your U.S.S.R. volumes,
a strange really Russian world.

I went with S.D. to Kex last night for sherry. It
was good fun, Kex had on a N.Y. programme, all very uncanny, I
still am surprised when I hear N.Y. playing its noon
programme at six thirty. I left S. there, Kex
making faces at me to sty, but I thought it wouldn't hurt
him. At the door, I whispered that I would call him up
in a 1/2 hour, and he could say he had a date - but when I
called up, S. had just gone. Kex was very nice to her,
in, as he put it, "her little bit of red plush." She had on
with green glass buttons,
an odd costume, white silk moujok blouse, red plush
skirt, very high heels, which she never wears. I suppose
it means bohemia to her. Kex gave her two gin-and-limes and
she must have been pretty lit-up. But Kex was king and we talked
all the time about how old S. was and how awful Mrs. Silvia,
does not know I am there, of course, but I say, "Cole tells

me" or " Buddy told me" and we do keep the ball
rolling. Kex, on the whole, seems pleased to chew S. with me,
and that I am there. But I think Bud was not so
pleased, anyhow, I have not heard of nor from him since...
but that may just be L. and L.

Pup comes to dinner to-night ...

Von S. thinks I have a deep, very early guilt suppression
about wanting to steal a baby, a brother or cousin, and that
I had a lot of that when I "stole" you and went to Greece.

I think this is a new and very sound idea and it means a certain
amount of exploring. S. and I talk chiefly this guilt and the
suppressed rage ... he is easy for me to talk to about
"zoo", as one simply feels he knows it all... and one does not
have to bother too much. I think for me he is by far the best.
Simply because he is on a level nearer ... but we draw in

"papa" all the time, and "papa", I told you, wrote and I
took letter to von S., and all is right in the UNK.

I took We Too to Kex, told him not to
let S.D. see it. Kex said he would rush home from his dinner to
read it. Kex is due for sherry with Cole to-morrow, I told him
to bring back We Too, if he had finished as Cole might be amused,
too.

I hope trunk marches ...

Much love and more later, all is serenely here, stay there as
long as you can stand it. Love to all,

It is foggy. I will try to go Audley but won't if it rains,
as I have been so very wet through, so often this week,
and, from what Puss says, all there is serene and maybe it is
better to let ( as von S. says) "sleeping lions lie."
I will however, hold it in mind and try to get across, if not,
it will be for some good reason.

I am glad the sun is out and that you are happy, chez Kenwin.
I do not envy you the Scorp. but will, when time permits,
consult the S. about all that Scorp.

I think the idea of G.P. is good ... but how small
the world is and how telescoped is life. Cournos knew the Craigs
and used to talk of them, I never met them, but they were
there, in the background ... all very funny. But they
do stand for some sort of ultra-tradition, yet are not
suburban ... it might be a good idea.

Glad you liked the Garbo- I love the coffee-pot scene.
Hope all marches ... Kex and I are in quite out old movie-form.

I will write news to-morrow. Dog may be in after or for tea.

Silvia may be in, later, but I will try to avoid too
much ... anyhow, thank you and blessings and love,
from ye olde badde

is a story of Africa and you're being in with hashish
dope-circle. " Alex thinks, or I think, that Eric
White is the cause of that, as Eric W., you remember, had
that joky-experience at Kenwin. I am, be para. but I
do think Eric W. has done more damage than anyone, I really
feel it so strongly that so far , I have been unable to
write Lotte. I will try to over week-end, and make up
some story - but you see, Fido, I can not tell Lotte all
this. She would only take it back to Eric. It is so
very difficult. And I do think she likes Eric so much, and it only
makes beastly unpleasibility, in the end. After all, I have been
the sort of " but" of all those tangles ... and I will try
to see Lotte, but von S. did say, that it was linked up
with primal scene ... Lotte being here with Eric, and you
know how very subtle ps-a is. However, I will try to
make an effort .... and say I had been away.
I will give Bud WE too."

Sun-light now. I enjoy the trip to Baker Street, 74 takes me
to the door. I usually go early and have early-morning coffee and a
cigarette in the Ducth Oven, a sort of ritual ...
I do hope all goes well, chez vous. I will be happy
to put you up at anytime, dear Fido.
Much, much love from ye olde

I took great interest in the returns, I suppose, of course,
you followed it on radio.

Pup was oke and said Lady A. was quite well and happy, and
Mouse was all right, and there was no stress or strain there
at all. I think Lady A. just slunks along till she sees
you and then gets snappy. However, we are all here and
eager to see you, when you come. I repeat, I have room here,
and you can stay a few days here - but do as you want.

"ex will I suppose," officially "come back ith you.

Kex tells me that Eileen says that Lady A. says "H. must
have a new man or something, she is seen every morning
in Regents Park. " This, I presume is fabrication on Eileen's
part- and I don't mind telling E. where I am, - but thought for
Kex sake, better. I simply do NOT know.

I like Corvo so much, (so" deliciously para," as Kex says)
that I am ordering so much more of him.

That very old " queen" who lunch'd with us, has asked Kex to
dine again. Kex will go just to keep in step with
dirt, I think. Kex seems to be released and happier ....

Much love and forgiv'e us our
trespasses ....

The anem.s, in two big bunches, are
as fresh as the day they arrived ...

Sun. Nov. 17.

Dear Fido,

I got Corvo's Hubert's Arthur, which is a
twelfth century novel of a mythical king of
England, rather good in parts, one of the "lost" MSS of
Corvo. There seems to be coming quite a revival of the
1910-s. I have also ordered his Hadrian the Seventh and I will
give these to Kex for Christmas present, but now, before
the date. I think it a good idea. I have not
finished the Venice Vol., like it very much, but it is
very fine print. This Corvo is quite a bond between Kex
and me, and helps with ps-a, as it stirs up all
pre-Europe
sorts of pre-europe ideas of mind, Maurice Hewlett,
Gadfly( did you ever read it ? ), and so on. Kex had all
the low-down, of course, on C., from N.D.

I repeat, "forgive us our ..."

I am off to church, it keeps me in some sort of vibration
or at least projects a vibration, so I can look at it, and
say, "these are the people one must study." Of course, if I
had known the ropes in good old fourteen, I need never have run
amuk. But it is a deep long study ... all the same, taken in
small doses, it helps on over. To me, it is less
terryfing than the states ... I expect we will thank
for having been rightly "guided in the election."

Bud seems huffy but I told him to
call me up to-day and I will try to arrange something.

I'm so glad my vote caused such a success for Sch.
said the old gent I voted for, represented Freud in the UNK.

Glad to hear of paint and Vee going modern
and the vines and leaves. Stay as long as you can. There
is nothing here, really. Pup says all serene, chez Audley,
she seems quite happy. I did not see Mouse. Give her

some message. Everything apparently we say goes the
rounds, I refer to Eric W. now and dear Lotte. I think
L. is devoted but she does get a bit " high" at times,
and is so sentimental over E.W.W. I don't blame L.
at all- but everything goes the rounds, and it is
impossible for me to be cold and offish with L. However,
it will work out .....

Much love, ps-a is good but
very painstaking and Sch. is very good, not too
electric ... he takes down my cerebralism. He says he
is busy every hour from 7.30, to 7.30 with ony
½ hr. for lunch... seems rather extreme, but he is
evidently getting on....

Greet the Vee and Mouse, love from

ye badde, olde

P. TEE . Oh.

Nov. 19.

Tues.

Dear Fido,

Enclosed Bud. Please do NOT return. He might have
said at once, he would come to tea, we have had about three
changes of hour, refusal, acceptance, refusal, then
acceptance. It must be his UNK. However, I shall
prob. see him, this afternoon, and will let you have all
news to-morrow.

Cole was in quite good form. She is off to the country
and I won't see her for another ten days. It is good and
quite cosy having these "hours" here this year. However, it
means a rather concentrated whole- and no merging and
breaking out and into the world of non-ps-ists. However,
I shall certainly on Sun., after Film, go to Audley. Pup
coles again Fri., and I shall prob. take her to a matinee,
on Sat. Silvia comes now Wed. I fit Kex in here
and there, rather miss not seeing him, after a few days, and I
am sure, he feels the same.

I keep getting t.b. stamps and hospital demands for
Xmas. When I can, I send back, or else throw away, - it
is all rather annoying but I work it out, that all my
"cheer-ty" will go to ps-a, and so stick to that.

I had a good return to S. over
Sun. We are in a very important terror layer; I had

Nov. 21. Thurs.

Thank you so much for good letters, dear Fido. I am glad you are so snug and just say, " keep there. " It would be sheer suicide for you to come back here, and would bust us up, too, as you would be mad and take it out, in the UNK, on us, and we are all very snug here. I had good talk over tea with Kex, who was wild with joy over the ditt I extracted on Bud's ps-a, and very grown up and of course we laugh over " I am married to my mother. " Kex wanted to call you up, he was that excited. Kex also told me he had memory of catapulting into a crocodile of girls at the convent( I suppose he wrote you). They were coming from upper story , down stairs, with a nun at the bottom. Kex bumped the top pair, and the whole lot went like a deck of cards and the nun at the bottom was severely injured by the thud of the impact of the fall of Label. Kex said, he was beginning to realize he was not the holy child-martyr that he had always imagined. He is very humorous and human about all this, as we relationship like mad over von S., and all crumbs that I also vouchsafed (?) said Kex.

Silvia looked better than I have ever seen her and was disguised simply as a school-mistress in collar and tie, this time.

S. has punctured her resistance in some way and she was pleased that he had referred to her "super-ego. " She considered that a great step, and herself a grand initiee.

Thank you for Scene Capital. I like it so much and carry
it in my sack, and read it in Dutch Oven. The Frog looks
good again, and the print is so good and it is just my cup of.

I asked S. if he had read Wagadoo, He had not. It
is so interesting to hear of you and Garbo tinned and French and
German. Certainly, I do love Suisse, but think staying alone
after Wien that time, did make me feel very cut off and it is
good for me for that moment, to slunk in fog. I think,
however, of the clear, pure air, and those views and the snow as
it creeps down. The library has become for you,
a Dutch Oven too, I see, and a slum of the first
order. Do you still have tea at night? That was the best of
the day for me, and for Doris, too, I shouldn't wonder.

I see Pups to-morrow

Silvia spoke of old Vic dramatic school... of course,
you will howl, but lots of the "best" had their training
there.

Bud said he could help after the school,
with Flora Robson and so on. But he was not helpful. Vole
is apt to get up-stage as she herself feels, I missed
that career ... so I didn't mention. I think he Craig, a good
medium training ground and Pups can always re-act in her
own direction. I will try to take pup Romeo and J.,
rather painful, but Bud says very well produced by Guilgood.

Much love. I do hope you continue in
the faith. Yes, I am pleased and happy that all is oke there.
Bless the Vee forme, discreetly ... and don't over-frog
yourself out of shape. All love,

Nov. 23. Sat.

Dear Fido,

Thanks for yours. I will try to see E. Hart. I like her so much, but simply, this year, will NOT mix up my ps-a vibrations, with doubters and outsiders. I think she is seriously troubled and also has a deep mind and a certain sound background of scholarship. Only, if I see her, I must prob. see the Brook., as out of a sort of loyalty to B., the Hart always tells me how much really , she, the B., is grateful for me and so on. It was through the B., that I met the H., although it was the Hart that got the pomes first, I believe ... all very complicated.

The film is Crime and Punishment, in French. I talked it over with Kex and decided at the last, to give Silvia the ticket. I hope you don't mind. I had intended to go for half the programme, but it is just one very long programme . Eric W. with a friend is on the lookout for me, I am sorry... but after all, this sort of thing is part of Silvia's education ... and I will prob. not miss another Sun. Also, I had intended to go to Audley, but Pup came yesterday and said your mother did not want anyone a Sun., as she was having a big party in the evening. So I wrote your mother; she wanted me to come to-day. I explained at length and I think, from what Puss says, all is oke there. John E. came in, you know, and was closeted with "mama." Pup says she seems to be happy to have

Re-puzzling...
Marina

or puzzlele, it is

metal Wedding. I thought it would

make Vee laugh. Has she it? I got

at Libertys, they say it is fairly
difficult...

seen J. and is seeing him again but she talks of his
not looking well, being thin and that woman, " that little
Jewess. " However, I suppose it is better
for the UNK of Lady A., to be in touch.

I will write all Pups' news about
Wed., when he goes with Georgie to see da Craig. I had
long talk with Pups. It seems "mama" keeps telling her that
she must have nice quiet happy life and not go in
for writing or anything like that. This works up a bit of
guilt on Pup's part ... but it is just as well, I
think. Pup found me very sympathetic and we wallowed on subject
of her " career". I'm taking Pups to Romeo and J. next week,
to celebrate ...

spent

I spent yesterday morning at Libertys, a wallow
of old ladies in long skirts, all very funny, I wonder if
" her majesty" was expected. I got all things for
states, hks., scarves, table mats and so on, to go
in envelopes. I had quite a lot of fun. I'll be
getting them off now this week.

Thank again four Coutts, I file all
those. It is all terribly good of you. You know that.

I find the Jouve now, terrible, sort
of super Poe, about a girl who died but stayed alive and
decayed ... all very horrible. But extreme good, real
contribution ...

Much love, will write news of Kex
whom I see again, sometime week-end. Ever and ever ye olde

I got a puzzle for Vee Xmas. Tell
me how I send it, I mean shall,
I send at once or in a few days? I
want to get off presents ...

Sun. Nov. 24.

Dear Fido,

Spent last night, doing up hks. and mats for states, rather
fun, and am starting my cards also, for states.

Sorry about Vee, also, it is of course, very funny. She
better start a few chaste "hours" with you in the
pig-pen, dutch-ovenie, I think.

Kex came in, rather mou, I felt. He seems to be seeing a lot
of Eileen, but maybe this is my imag. Anyhow, he seems to
back-slide without Sch. However, Kex is Pisces, two
fish, pulling in opposite directions, and I suppose Eileen
is, or may be, a sort of stop-gap, and he retrogresses and
progresses in leaps and bounds. It is odd though, how he seems
to retrograde without Sch. But of course, I do know that ps-a,
taken all in all, does have gaps. Kex talked nicely,
but seems to get all the dirt, garbaged, on Audley. He told me
he had heard that J. came in tweeds and held Esther's hand or she
held his, all the time. I think E. is afraid, all the time,
or just instinctively scorpiotes anything, that seems to
be getting anywhere. After all, she is a retrogressive Scorpio.
Anyhow, this is not to be taken too seriously .... I shall
prob. find Kex in fine form again, in a few days.

I go there for sherry, at
six with Silvia.

Enclosed keeps turning up, just
destroys. It is for you, I told Ash, I would send. I have the
change for you, if you want it. Ash is being a little
difficult ... some trouble and is going to be X-rayed.
Poor thing. However, hat, too, may work out, oke.

I sent your mother one of the grape-bunches, by Bunch. Roses arrived yesterday, with no card. I think it must be from her, it is so difficult, no mark on the box at all, and such lovely buds; I only hope it is not last year's, but imagine it is Lady A., as I had just written her a rather gushing letter, apropos Bunch career. I wrote George and suggested he pop in here, for an hour on Wed., if he had time. Bunch is terribly thrilled, of course. But I told you. She called up last night to say she had a date with the alumnae of the Cook and Wash on Sat., so I will change the Romeo tickets for the following Wed.

I will try and see la Hart, next week. I do like her. It is very grand of you to take on her boys, and also to write her as you do.

Cold but a watery film of sun at the moment. You should stick there. It is a good life. But for me, I now need to slunk into people and this fog and so on. But I do see the ritual of Kenwin can be very fascinating and dope-making ...

All letters most happy
happily received, usually late at night ...

Can you tell me any remote thing I, or anyone might get you for Xmas? I have ONE idea, but of course everyone keeps asking ME.

Bud gave me some agents. I have ION back.
It looks very well, I must say.

Much love, dear Fido, and greet la Vee.

I am finishing Jouve. The second part is altogether another story, and most exciting. Are his other works, ps-a ?

Lady A. didn't send me the roses, so I fear it is prob.

Brookfield. But I will let sleeping lions lie for the
moment.

Fog, fog, fog ... I am interested in all you are
doing and often hand over the letters to K., who pads with
avidity. He, too, thinks Pup has fine letter-manner and really
on write.

Kex took the vol. Bonnard, about a N.Y. lodging house, - he
said he had heard of it. I go on at the French, now sit in Nell
wyn, it is near than Dutxh Oven and I read a scrap
of frig before hour, over coffee and cigarettem it is a good
preparation. Thank you so very much, you feed the mind and body,
dear Fido.

No special news, I will try and thank G.P. for taking Pups.

No doubt, he will write you.

I do hope you aren't too lonely. I feel how you would hate
it here, and Kex and I are snug; he reads in bed, he says and
goes out seldom except, apparently with me. He takes me out
to-morrow again. Thanks always and for everything,

Kex, on the other hand, is heating and cooling to the tail,
and very intelligent and funny, and slinking in a most
domestic manner in his green and red bed, and reading all the
taff I collect for him. So I suppose it works out that way.
Also, Bud is funny and rewarding and Silvia very much improved.
I find Sch. very good and solid and I spoke or wrote him of
prick, but haven't mentioned it again ... as it sort of
gets in the ps-a vibration ... but I am much worried.
He has half of his pupils, I think I wrote you, has kept on
me and Kex. I don't know when he begins again, full time.

I am amused about the
party and I should so love to come, incog. or otherwise, it will
be great fun. Do you want to stay here " incog." ? Please do.
I will love to have you, really. Let me know, whenever and for how
long as you want. It would be great fun cooking you egg and
easy-squeezing your orange, of a morning.

Fog a Ml the time.

I read a lot. I like the
Flowering Judas and Kex will like it. I will hand it over
to him.

Pups says your mother is in good form,
and all oke there.

Pups is so radiant about her dramatics. It is a
joy to see her. I will have a chew to-day with her again.

Best to Vee and Timmie,
I trust his tooth is better. I note, re air-mail, to-day,
I air it. But I think fog does delay things.

Ever so much love and
thanks for all the vols., such an ambarasse de ....

Nov. 30.Sat.

Dear Fido,

The bill was paid, I wanted to let you see
that. I had the change from a pound. Do you want the change ?
That is what I wanted to know.

Kex said, yes, it would be fun if you came incog. and you must
spend part-time at his place and the whole time at my
place. Let me know when...

Kex thinks Cole is mixing a "witches brew" of N. and
Rodeck at my house, and it is most sympathetic. He thinks she is
on the wrong track. It's all very well, but I seem to get the
back-wash of so many unresolved psyches. I will give Cole
a good talking to on Monday, however. I did not want to
see her so soon and she said "Monday is my day," and I was so
upset that I let it go, and see her again so soon. I dare say
it will work out with Sch., who thinks Cole needs no sympathy
on my part," people always have to have ONE person, ""
he says, to grumble to. "However... it is very difficult and
horribly exhausting. Sch. thinks it pure UNK jealousy of my
being with him, that takes itself out in trying to spoil all
my personal tidyness. Well... Sch. is very good for me.
I am sorry I scolded you for speaking of him and his UNK. But you
know how sore are the corners of the unking...

"ex has slight relaxed throat, it did not keep us from going out
last night.

It might be as well maybe, to have Stephen on the same agreement, but for only short space. I will tell Silvio before the holidays, that I am with Sch., as otherwise, I will have to hold it in, all that time- and it is all I talk about with her, else she gets "literary". A vol. of hers came back from Peter Davis and she was making a great stunt of how it upset her. I gave her the usual story of Butts and the 13 publishers ... very amateurish. But I don't want to discourage her too much.

I must finish up Xmas cards for states this afternoon.

I never heard of a butterfly table - what ever? I approve of the ice-bond for Bud. For self... Please do not get anything. Pup wants fancy undies, as far as I can make out. I will consult Kex ...

I am having a real hectic time with Sch., re memory-go-round and the zodiac. We have great fun, all the time, now.

Cole says, "how can he sit and watch people suffer?"
She apparent is like early Bud, sheer mascho-fiend.

Well, love and do come here as soon as you can and for as long as you want. I will tell S.D. that I am taking Jennie's "hour." I think that may do the trick. Poor Jennie ... I will see what I can see, but always a little difficult to but in, and one grudges the time from the merry-go-round.

Love again and keep well, ever ye

old

Glad they got
Cournos' number
chez Gregorys.

Mon. Dec. 2.

Thank you for note and G.P. while she is very nice. He was most
awfully kind and I think they were very wise with Pups, as they
did not put off her, yet did not make her feel puffed up,
either. It was an excellent idea, and yours is, also. I
think Pups will feel her way round, and I will be seeing her
now soon, and will tell her what you say. I think
everyone has been most kind about Pups. I imagine it will
work through, in the end, to best sellers. Anyhow, its all
helping now. George was most tactful and evidently
very kind to Pups.

I had a absolutely black-sweat of a night, just horrible,
thinking of Cole swamping me out again. But Sch. thinks I need
not pity Cole and that her UNK is trying to put me out of joint
because I am chez Sch. However, I will try to cope with C.
I feel it such a waste of really of Sch., and she ought to
be more humble and receptive. I am really cross with her
but I suppose later, if she licks the door-mat, he may take her
back. He can't now, and she is terribly uppish and slightly
patronizing about ps-a, then all but bursts into tears and shouts,
" don't tell me ps-a is no good for me. " Well... she kept on
saying it herself. I suppose she is sitting hard on her
own back-side, re Nicholas, and won't admit it. Anyhow, that is
how it looks ...

Nov. 4. Wed.

Dear Fido,

All is well. George, I suppose, will be in, though
Kex was most upset, as we have not been able to talk now for
some three days. He evidently comes in here, as a sort of
Sch. anex. Sch. himself spoke yesterday of my little green
book-like his, you got in Lucerne - and of how I had
my (and his) analysis at my flat. So lovely, not
putting me out but rather actually accepting the fact that
he and the " bunch" and I were all working away together. He
is very calming and good and has got a very good line up on my
UNK, re primal scene and my father shooting a
kitten of mine - the kitten was having a fit in the
summer, it is true and was a danger, all the same it was a shock
and Yo-fi killed a cat and son en and so on.
Bud was
rather doped and subdued. I spoke of Jennie. He said, " but how
can anyone break off analysis. I do not understand. " I then
explain how you simply gave notice, as it were. But he went on,
" but I do not understand. I do not understand. " He is simply
glued to Sch. and the couch, and never, O never, Fido, was such
a joint triumph on our parts as getting Bud to the couch. He
admits as much. Well, I do not crowd over him or anybody. I
simply feel it is very important and very dangerous, too. And
alot, one has a sort of terrific responsibility toward
the people one lands, finally. Cole, I told you, was better,
and Sch. said it was better for my UNK to have her good tempered
about ps-a.
She was very difficult. But I think now that

Dec. 5. Thurs.

Dear Fido,

I will not air this, as it is fog, but it ought, surely, to
get to you by Sat. I am so happy you are due, and
will simply wait here for you, will tell Kex and get him
in, too. I judge you do not want to be met; as there is so
much fog, I wonder if air is good for you. But in any
case, I will be here alone, or with Kex. And of course,
the slum is yours always. I will not mention this to Pups, she
is off to Brighton anyhow. She was grumbling yesterday.
She was in for dinner and I think her nose was out of joint,
as she was not asked to see J., who said he would only come
if he could be alone there. Anyhow Pup was most sulky. Also,
she called on the old Fogy school and they can take
no one till Oct.; this upset her. I suggested maybe you would
arrange some preparatory work, anyhow that is how it is. I
think I cheered P. up in the end, by Mrs. Russels' letter,
as she is hankering for a boy-friend and that seems a
good arrangement. I mean the R. pup. She left powdering

her nose with great defiance and is to see me Sat. at Romeo.
She is to leave after the show from Brighton. Fri., she goes
to some sort of charity matinee. She is full of dates
with old Cooks.

Kex says you are to go to him, but I say you will
come here first, and you can move across if you want. I
thought you preferred this.