Feb. 2. Sunday.

Dear Fido,

I took Silvia to Polyt. to Funeral, followed by Bandera, which Kex had told me was so good. The first part was, as S. remarked, " like being in church, " the sort of Albionites who never darken the doors of a movie, literally, darkened this. Crepe, by the miles, and pearls, and wet hks. They rose when the film bank played God Save The , much to our amazement and diintegration. As S. remarked, they should have gone home after it, but they sat solidly through

La Bandera. S. and I left before they did at the

lying in state of the slaughtered Legion( you did see it ? ) -
Anyhow, only just in time, did we get seats in a
A.B.C. across the street; the mob flowed in, like the
March Past; fortunately we were already deep in tea and
tea-bun, after five... or we would never have got a table.
The show goes on, in and out, of life... on busses, on
trams, in bun-shops, everywhere.... I will
be glad for a change, and am discussing all this with Sch.,
who says I am recalcified in UNK to father-mother, all that,
apart and together and that I want to come and show you my
" new self" whatever that may mean. I will see Bud first.

I think of you to-day. I am
off to something, a church or " sight" as one gets restless,
has to be out and see what is doing. It is grey and cold.

I am going over papers, old bills etc. Lotte gave a party, Bud will have told you. I did not go, just after death, I am writing her, I think it all a little fishy .... somehow, though personally, I like Lotte, as you know. However... I will make all that, oke.

Also Lucie F., I think I will tell them I am going for a few weeks to Vaud ... but will wait a few days.

When are you due to leave Vaud ? I can time coming (IF) as regards that.

I have no word at all from Cole.

I see Kuhl to-morrow, at long last.

Forgive this rather dull note.

The film seats were 3/9, we had tea and took taxi ... as it was so crowded, and I was very tired, had not been home after Sch.

I have from Anna, and note, re Anny ... best luck, anyhow.

And god bless old Pups, I am so home-sick, Ever ye oldie,

I will not mention to your mother for the present, I do not want Theo. rushing out, too.

Feb. 4. Tues.

Thanks so much for card. Enclosed for Pups. I am
sending later a few scraps of Una C., the new dragon, she is
rather a Fido, and I would like to help her with some of her
Manchester-like gibes at stage and so on, really quite
funny. I am

off early as had several interruptions, so forgive this
little note, just to say I will cable to ex to-day and
to thank you for a good news. -es- I understood about Timmie.
Sch. does not forbid me to come, is very kind but think
it links up to something, partly guilt that I did not feed
Pups after death of father, death and birth muddles, and the
king's funeral of course, brings all thes thing up in UNK-
but we are discussing it and I will see Bud and want, at any
rate to know, as near as poss. your dates, so that I may
plan to see you later, if not at once.

Cold and chill...

It appears the Sheila dragon repotted- or someone did
that ps-a meant that you were turned into an mt-ar and
that you had to fall in love with the analyst. I explained as
well as I could to Una, who seems open minded and is at any rate,
rather clarid and has talents. She came in in a funny dress,
40 years too old for her, had been to an audition, had along
her fiddle.

Forgive this "short", with no news, but will
write. Had nice card from Lady E.

Best to old Pups. The card is
a great treasure, ever ye olde

Feb. 6. Wed.

Darling Fido,

I sent the cable, word for word, with two left out, an
IN and an AT; anyhow, it made sense and came with the address,
just right, 25 voids.

You see Rvr. is corrupting my good British accent. I
read enclosed. He will know now, where you are, so dreadfully
sorry it 'appened like that, or loike that. Anyhow,
thank you for two pencilled or inked notes and one from
Pups. Sch. is rather close-fisted with me,
I think he thinks I have struck a snag and he wants me to
weather it, anyhow, I am leaving it all fluid and will
come if I can somewhere, anywhere, the effects in the
windows are beyond a joke, they decided to be light-hearted,
and are now making up black with inner silver-linings, and silver
collars and old dames appear with silver badges now and birds and
butterflies on their crepe-hats. It's all too dreadfully in
bad-gout. Its simply a sort of

annex for the jubilee ... which, more and more, thank God,
I missed, as this came with the full force of the tidal wave and
never tell me or lecture me any more about dear old England. I
just KNOW, I don't think and no one ever does, I just KNOW.

Please forgive me all my past jubilee-transgressions, for surely
I have earned or gained merit or de-merit, now. One must
willow with the welter or just not notice it, there is no
merging- which has all before remarked bee.

I heard from Bud last night, he seemed
oke and I am seeing him to-morrow at lunch and will tell

his remarks to Chester, in full, I couldn't indicate on
telephone and he was full of news, had seemed to enjoy the
change, but felt he had been swamped too-suddenly, back.

Much love. I do miss
you both so terribly. But I will stick to my guns with the Uhlan,
who is distinct and cruel" at the moment....

O my darling old, old Lizzards, how are you ???? But I know, from the lovely paw-mark and I am so jealous of your ride in the frigidaire, snow just makes me melt with joy. I want to see you but Mr. Sch. is being very stern with me, thinks I must " resolve" old terrors, following the death of grand-parent, and the appearance of Pups - the old funeral made all that snap into place. O, my dear, do people go in for gay-times (I mean, in bed) when they are deeply in " mourning" ? Because, I ask you, Harvey N. is full of THE most jaunty gauze, my dear, nighties, in pale lavender, in deep purple, in mixed lilac and mauve with marvelous love-knots twined over the- well- never mind- and ribbons from the elbow in the palest grey-silver (Silver is this weeks note. ) Can you explain ?

All my love and devotion to my dear Pup
afro her old

Feb. 6. Thurs.

Dear Fido,

Film Society looks as if it might be good on Sun., I
left it to Silvia to arrange her own subs., don't know yet
whether she gets it for this week; anyhow, she seemed most
responsive to the suggestion and to the last film I took
her to.

Saw Brook yesterday, quiet and quite pleasant; talk of Freud,
she seems more nor-mal.

Had terrific scene with the Uhlan who is tightening the
thumb or the tail-screws. I suppose it is all for the good,
but he certainly can put on sideward when he wants. He apparently,
though not forbidding me to come out, makes it a sort of
test or something... I don't know, only that I feel pretty
rotten and guess I shall have to postpone coming for the moment;
anyhow, I will soon hear from you as to your exact plans. I am
happier for the Pup to be there for a time, please do NOT
hutry her back. Because I may do something myself to get
out of this frightful back-wash. Only, I will wait
definitely for your letters and word as to your exact plans.
I am feeling pretty sick now with ps-a, suppose it is
a good thing, will not of course break off

I go off to lunch with Bud and an afternoon to-day.
Lake frozen in Regent Park, very pretty with the gulls and
ducks sitting and sliding on thin ice, like Japanese or

I read AT SEA, it is very good... a bit pseudo-psycho, but not bad....

Feb. 7. Fri.

Dear Fido,

I enclose from Rvr., I expect, will by now, he has cable and
knows where you are. I will never get over my having been so
dumb... anyhow, its all right now.

I had a beautiful lunch with Bud at Rules. He was in fine
form and said the trip to you, hough it had not
changed his feelings, had remouved the funeral by about three
months. He was in suitable but not so upsetting grey, and
talked about you and the trip to Zuri, like being back
in the old Berlin vibration. He was thoroughly appreciative,
and I am sure the trip did him a lot of good in all ways.

He spoke of Pup and his being the "honoured guest" and the
toy-chocholates. He was upset at being in Kex room, missed
Kex, and I think is now forgiving Kex and really wants
to see him... ( but this is entre nouuuuss) . I think
he is much more now one of the family, re ps-a, as before he
would look knowing and say I must tell him nothing that
he could not pass on to Sch. Now he was quite gosspiy and
though Sch. had got very class-conscious, since the
damise. I said so , too, maybe all the Albion Whlans about,
anyhow we got very frinedly and gosspiy about Sch . and the
parties he seems to be having once a week- and wondering who goes,
etc. Do not pass on to Turtle- not very important, but it
will all come back to Sch, via grapevine

Brass Eagles is MARVELOUS. Do you want it ?

Sat. Feb. 8.

Darling Fido,

Thank you so much for the cutting, it is the funniest thing I have EVER seen; I will pass it on to Bud, - he should give it to Sch., but I may not have the courage or the nove to ask him. I enclose from Helen Kati., we both did them very well with machines, poor girls. (I mean drab, I don't know what I mean... anyhow.... I am glad in the UNK, I gave her money for the said same.) Silvia was in and we gassed, she "dug" for some remnants; a poor thing, her mother has refused to pay for the sister and S. has to "keep" her... she did not ask for the dollars but wanted some awful batik sort of remnants from Footprints, a Shoppe next

Culpepper that she loves. Please do not YOU send her anything, you have been too generous and it is good for my UNK to write her a small check, as she and I have both had fights with the U. over money. He is certainly putting on side; Silvia thinks he has more pep and life in him, that he seemed rather sick and lost and "psychic" when she first went there. Maybe Princk Stahnenberg marching in the funeral put his old U-swank on the map for him. Anyhow, we have all noticed he has been salshing his sabre and his teeth lately... very odd. Unless he has a newmistress on the strength of your dollars...

It is cold. I walk almost every morning now in Regent Park, it is just faintly in the fog suggestive of le lac, with mighty over-fed swans that clash and clatter and many, many gulls and

Sunday. Feb. 9.

Dear Fido,

Kuhl comes to-morrow to plan me some new afternoon frocks, he send me some quite good patterns, he is very odd, I think its just "personal sex-appeal" that brings him, as he will not let me pay for the lost stuff( if it was lost) and is very independent, then all over me and not charging too much. I suppose he was upset by Jimmie and Kex and all that. Anyhow, he has quite spoiled me for looking for anyone else, so I might as well make the best of him for the moment.

I got some pattern books and Vogue to cheer me up, as Sch. has been most dynamic and rather stell-helmet, steel-fist... I can't run away now. I want to come to Paris and will leave it like that, but anyhow, Fido, if you are swep' into politics and can't see me except with about 20 people, it's hardly worth my while, either is it ? I want you to do what you want and you seem happy with a pack of people or alone with VEE, there doesn't really seem much place for me, and that all oke with me Fido, provided you are completed and doing what you want, and that's the way the ps-a takes you. I mean that. So please don't think about it. I want terribly to see Pups, but prefer her there where it is clean and cold, to here. You have been heavenly to her, I appreciate a lot that. But I suppose its all part of the UNK, and bruised as I am, I can't face parties and the rush and bang of Paris. Though if it is indicated I will come just to see you, if only once for tea,

but I can't face a pack of people. Yet want you to
have them. Sort of Jack Sprat .... so as the Unk
is rather mad at Uhlan and things are pretty painful,
maybe, I better leave it. I have spoken to him,
its seems to be oke to go for a week-end, but I am
leaving it. I think he thought I didn't appreciate his
sex-appeal, as I started to talk to Aiken, and
I think he thought I was paying my bills rather too promptly,
lie to the dentist ... well, he is, anyhow.

rather sore in the behind.

Nothing to be done about it. And am
well, adh seeing people, not Cole, but dragons and have no
lonely times, not working as it mixes things up too
terrifically.

I have your two letters, all terribly funny, and Hart
will enjoy when she comes next week. I am glad the
phantom-lover stunt comes off... Geneva needs a little
fresh air.

Well, much love, darling Fido. Must run on your
own rails and god bless you.

P.S.

Brass Eagles is a marvelous book, but rather upset me, Red Indian nigh-watchman in a bag "store" and the contrast of the two Americas, very good indeed, and very tragic...

I got three books too, thank you so much. I not only read but have become a sort of lending-library.

I shall enjoy Chiron, and the Chinese vol., and the third, Marietta. It is all good fodder.

Could you post ( do you mind) So RED

THE ROSE to
Cornelia Brookfield
I5 Wyndham Place W.I.

None of us want it, and it is her cup of tea. She has brought me in some very nice orange-flower water; has been nibbling at ps-a but I am not anxious any more to "help" in that way... it upsets them, then they turn on the hand that fed them. However, she is different toward me, and I can't "repay" her for this, and this vol. will rather even it up... do you mind terribly ?????

Feb. 10. Mon.

Dear Fido,

Saw Film, pool of London and so on, in colour, reminded me
of our "voyage out", just - how many years ago ?
Pup wasn't yet a year old. Also saw the Lotte Mozart,
very lovely indeed, and funny, and with beautiful tree-designs.
I will try to go to her show- but, as I have before said, it is
all a bit awkward. Saw Bud, who sat on the back of a seat
in interval, and smoked, looked rather pallid as if he had had a lot
of "fun", if that is what I mean- said he had snapped back
to being a baby and talked of Sxh. cat. It is so funny he seems to
think to go into baby-memory is going "back", but I couldn't
explain all that in a hushed voice, with people listening. He
seems to be getting on oke with Sch.- I grumble to him, as it is
fun to grumble, also, I think they all get "material", too,
from me... anyhow, all is well. It is bitter cold. Wore coat
and skirt with fur-coat over that, and was none too
warm.

I forgot Beau Geste, am posting it
to Bud, now.

Thank you for really lovely card and birds. I am taking
great pleasure in his lake, as it is so full of swans; I think
they have flown there from all yonder. The place is quiet and
fairly empty and it reminds me of crawls along lake-front, chez
nous. Anyhow, it's always good for them to have a crawl on
back-paws.

I am sorry it is so cold there. Get Pup to send me
paw-mark, I am now in that usual spring-state about
her.

I have discovered a hang-out, that Belgium bun-shoppe ,
opp. Wollands back-entrance, just off my square. I go there
for buns- always a different very pretty L., also
Spanish women, I suppose from the embassies, and odd
women, always, very continental, I think it must be a smart
haunt of the embressay crowds- very chic, yet with a distinct
je ne sais quoi- the madame right out of de
Maupassant- very what one used to feel in places with you,
about 1924, when we stopped off in Paris with the Bvr., I feel
quite at home there, and may go in for hot/choc.in the best
frog manner to see what I S up. Anyhow, it takes the edge off
this continental heimweh, I now have.

Sch. is, of course, kind-- I
should not grumble, - I think he was doing a sort of
obstreptical knife-turn- anyhow, he does know his job.

Much love, and I do hope
you keep well, swen in those blankets.

I like the Marietta, a very long book, good fodder and I carry
Buck Exsile with me to read in shoppes, as it is smaller; the
Ellis is good fodder, too. Thank you so much. I will keep
here, and lend, as per any instructions.....

Tues. Feb. II.

Dear Fido,

I love the envelopes. Let me know if and where I am to
send any. I shall be glad to distribute. In the meantime, I
like them so much, and I am simply sending you a line for
"continuity." The U. is of course, very good, but it
is not THE PUP this year, apparently, so much as the
first pup, who arrived a long time in the spring. So I suppose it has
got to be painful, going into that, thoroughly, and
piking up the early threads from infancy... anyhow, as you
say, I shall have to prances in zip-fastner manner, like a
kangaroo, and one can't predict from day to day.

It is colder than I
have ever known in London. The wind simply eats right
through the fur, and I wear a coat as well under. I went to
Regent, it was like being at sea, hardly anyone there, the
gulls all sitting out of the wind, on the water. I stood on
a little bridge, in the sun and watched the swans waddled across
ice, all very odd and noric. I don't think

Sch. ever goes out... but I talk of the unprecedented cold...
everyone seems to feel it, almost without snow) like
blizzard weather in states.

Thank for enclosures from

Rvr. I am so thankful you did not cross... I am terrified
for the ships, never felt it so much as this year.

I am so grateful for Marietta;
like Regnier, but of course not quite so
authentic, but all the same, to me, kos, most
entertaining, and takes me RIGHT away, into the
early Italian memories. I do thank you. It is
over 1000 pages and will keep me going now for some days,
it is a help to wallow in books, and I am going over and
into all old vols., here. I can not thank you enough for
M., but I don't think any of the rest of the bunch would
get such a kick out of it. It is "dope" to me, for
the present.

I had a line from Connie, very grateful that I
liked Coffin, I told him that he would do as well without
ps-a, I though ... afterall, as you said, he had his
chance, and its tricky, for they blame you afterwards it they
don't again a quick and painless Nirvanah.

Best to old, old Pups, and Vee
from ye olde, colt

Wed. Feb. 12.

Dear Fido,

The weather is not to be described for horror, please do
not plan to send the Pup back in it . I could not stand it.
She is much better with you- only, that I get these fits, and
its the UNK and theps-a. I had such a lovely letter from
her, and she is writing , she tells me, likeman, and all that
is to the good. It will give her a sense of
direction and timelessness ... please, let her have all
the benefit of it all. You can not imagine how cold
it is here ... without the sparkle and beauty of chez vous.

About Paris ... the Unk
it's so ratty. I mean, now just the idea of channel in this
kind of cold, is unthinkable ... don't, anyhow, get me a
ticket, I could not plunge ... and if I come, will do
as you say, stay at F., and eat out... I always find places in
Paris. I think I went to the place you mentioned, once with
Eileen when I was there. Also, there is Regence that I'd likes
that E.P. found or knew... and so on. I always manage very
well, in Paris. But may I leave it ????.... The U. is good
and all this is necessary... but of course, I started with
the troop, then Kex went, then I had fight with Cole,
I am left with Silvia once a week... very good... but you went,
Pups went, it made four people right out of my daily life...
you see. But it is better to fight clear now, as I
have good material. Cole did something rather

I simply can not and could not thank you for the fund in
Suisse, dear Fido, the name made me weep... forgive me.'
Thurs. Feb. 13.

Darling Fido,

Thank you so much for letters; I am sorry I may have seemed
cross. I'm not really- and am so thankful and glad that you
have varied interests, and especially with the bunch there
in Paris. Its simply this painful transition- I will
keep a happy, open mind to the idea of coming and will
write - the thing is, now it is so cold, one simply
feels one can not risk anything, cold trains and cold
hotels, but in a few days I may feel differently. It is like
a black blight here- I don't so much mind, but when I
think of travelling, it seems too much... all the same, it is
good of you to write as you did, and I really want you to see
ALL the people you can, for you will need some contacts after
all that time in Vaud.

I heard from nurse, she says your mother is all right, and I am
going in to-morrow to tea, and I will write you just how
everything looks and is there. Nurse assured me she was oke,
but suffering with her arm. I will report at length, and will
be so glad to pop in there again.

Hart yesterday was full of her experience in the north
last year- its all unthinkable. She talked for 2 hours, I was
glad to have her, but rescue seems indicated somewhere,
later. Just now, she says the bureau or office would collapse
without her as the man who was so good is in Australia. So
we better let it alone... she is valuable as an actual

witness of those horros, I don't so how she kept sane
through it. They seem to like
coming here and it is my contribution to the " cause",
just keeping them sane.

Silvia comes to-night, she has been very independant, took
a week off, I think is so much better, also in the "work",
regarding children and so on.

I have not

heard from Bud, will write him again....

The U. is very good really, and will help me. It is
prob. much better that I was alone here, for a time, as of
couse, there was a goodish va e vient at one time, all psaa
bunch... and no doubt, I used a certain kind of
relationship, here, as buffer. But its pretty good now and
straight.... and I value your finding him so much. I told him
that Sach took the credit, but that is was you who
had the bright idea of him. He pricked up his eyes for "dirt"
as to where and what you had heard, but I was serenly
spiteful in return for some of his neat s tings and gave him
no satisfaction.

So much love and do keep well and I am so glad you are secure and
knitting a basket ... the Pups letter was such a joy, too.

Love, n ever ye olde,

Beautiful daffodils this week, with mimosa from
Solomons ...

Feb. 14. Fri.

Darling Fido,

No news. I go Audley this afternoon and will write you. Don't
bother about Paris plans if your mother wants to come out, for this
cold has shrivelled me insides - I can't plan anything. I
simply stagger out to Baker Street, then to Kettle, then
thankfully back to my place, rejoicing the moment I enter
the hall, for the aura of steam-heat. I don't think I
could have lived through this winter in one of the old boxes. This
is so wonderfully universal, might be Berlin, or, as Jennie
said, N.Y.
So please realize me,

really deeply happy and grateful just for physical well-being
and glad to have a place big enough to house you at any time,
Pup you
or/ or with the Pup.

I post on papers sent by Rvr.

to you.

I still don't know what Bud is about- you
mention it each letter, yet I had not the " enclosed" you spoke of,
so just have wildly to conjecture, he does not write - I will
do what I can, gladly. But am at sea.

I was dumb of course about Baass Bag
Eagles, I remember perfectly your speaking of it, yes, I was
very dumb- but books come like that to me. Marietta is
of course, a sort of super-high-brow Gemma, long
drawn out. I repeat : you should mention it to her,

I have Psycho and the N.Y.
papers, and the Stages come and the N.Y.-er, so I have plenty to
brouse over.

Feb. 15. Saturday.

Dear Fido,

Thank you for good letters; enclosed is as it came, with nothing in it, from Kex, and the other was delivered about III, last night .... saw your mother and really loved it yesterday, madame de S. was there and Eileen and we all formed a nice group. I don't know what your mother will be doing; she seemed well and was in good form, talked about Thoby; of course that had upset her... but she and I had quite a nice little relationship after Madame left. I spoke of Vaud, as I thought it would be tactful, but of course she flirted with the idea, and said anyhow, she would go to a hotel, but I know how she likes to be petted and coaxed, and I knew in the end, she would do what she wanted.... I imagine she got a panic about business or "papers"; anyhow, I think she enjoyed talking to me, and I found the place looking very cosy and funny, they were all in complete black, but as I had hat and gloves and entered in fur, I looked good enough. Paton seemed to pass me, anyhow, was very nice, took me up in life, ....

Hart was having lunch with P.T. on Fri., I wonder what happened.

Love to my darling Pups. I will write more and at length to-morrow.... I do appreciate a lot of your kind words about my writing. Arrive and your wonderfullness to ye olde

Feb. 16. Sunday.

Dear Fido,

I gave Silvia 17/6 for her film ticket; that
still leaves over three pounds. I will account for that
in detail, as I spend it. I will go to the Review,
but fog has been so bad. Yesterday, it was holding up
traffic, so I slid into a shoppe at Baker and had lunch, then
walked a bit, and then it lifted and busses came along in
droves, it was an odd experience.

But one does not
like to plan anything in this weather. People come in
almost daily, and I am so more than thankful for my steam-heat
and the general comfort of this place.

I wrote of your mother. I will go again next week, it was
really lovely there, and I was so happy. I did not
worry unduly over Eileen, and that part of it, did not enter,
my "hour", only Sch. thinks I have a "guilt" that I stole
Eileen from her brother-lover. All these things come up and he is
quick, alas too quick, to spot a snaglet.

Something has blocked in my brain about Paris, it is really
the weather, to leave this for a cold train, a colder boat,
a suffocating train, another hotel... and so on. I am
sure you understand. I am leaving it all open,
however, but it had to do with fear for Pups and
you... and after all, you are well looked after chez Vaud, and
I know how Vaud/ is. If later, a rescue party, is
indicated, please squeal. I likewise, will do said same.

Just return U.C. here. I thought,
just by some chance, you might have an idea, but I was not
surprised when you did not. I am sorry I bored you with them.
I quite understand how you feel. I gave her a lecture about
"working girls" .... but it is all so difficult. Thank
you, anyhow...

Jam has come and the chocholates, thank you so
very, very much. But Fido, I have enough to last a year or
so, actually.... the radium is good too, but I have
not finished my first bottle, and have two more. The
little pills are simpler to take. I hold over the three
flat boxes for instructions, at any time, for sending.

Broke off to send a line to Pups,
read and pass on, s.v.p.

I have been deep in Havelock E. The
book is worthy and solid but good fun, picking up the
threads of the old Paris bunch .... it is well-done and most
readable. Thank you so very much.

I will, of course, follow this up, with
to-morrow's budget, though, I fear, all this is pretty dull
reading... only to keep the continuity ... and to thank
you for all the letters. They mean a great deal in my days.

Love again, and to the Vee
whatevr greeting seems most suitable, ever

I am interested about the dog... I think the
cuttings should be sent "papa."

Have long letter, yet unread, from Chiron, evidently
he has been ill... I suppose I should amble to see him. I
will send you, next time.

Thank you for good vol., just arrived ....

Sch. is really very kind and good, and I am thankful that

I am with him .... the fog it too awful, so

I will not " air this, have not been doing it, as black fog
lookedbau... anynow, this catches up the last, in ordinary
continuity.

I am going on with Chiron's essays, they are very helpful, in
a discreet and ponderous manner....

Kuhl again to-night, very helpful, too, to have a few new
garments for the very named and shivering UNK.

I am very sorry about your cold... and dear Fido, just now,
I am afraid to think of Paris. But the IDEA is there always, and
I do, do appreciate your writing as you do.

Love, dear Fido, please give much to

Pups. I think of and in" Marietta and in better terms,
de Regnier and all the Proust tangle, Chiron so n'ely
clears up in his vol. BUT frog .......

Again, best to Pups and to VEE; ever

Tues.

Fido,

The Colette is terribly, sheer Fido world, and Bergner, too.
The pictures are a delight ... I am reading away at
Chiron, and will write you further. Forgive this tiny note.
I bought some first hyacinths... it is fog, fog, fog.
I am grateful for Sch. Glad the dog is better in the UNK.
It is well he is there. Paris seems such an impossible
idea ... but I will hold the idea. Please don't feel too
cut off... if only it weren't so far. Forgive this. See
enclosed, all is well with me, really, love to old Puss,

I rejoice over crocoi ...

Wed. Feb. 19.

Dear Fido,

This is to catch up with the last "air", though I have
nothing particular to impart. I have your letter with directions,
re Eileen, which I will follow. I send a note to the Home yesterday
have not yet heard, simply said she was to keep up her
courage, nothing commital at all.

Sch. seemed to
think it all most, most odd, and I am inclined to agree with you
that it is all or part, pure hallucination... however,
one never knows what she will do. By the way, please note-
when she called up Nurse at your house, she said to me,
while waiting, "now I must think of a name to give, what shall
I say?" When the telephone was answered, she said, much to
my horror, "Mrs. Ash is speaking and wishes to talk to Nurse
Potter. " Please remember this, Fido... as I was horrified, I expected
especially as you and I had had that row, about the Ash. I said,
"O, Eileen ... that's going to be difficult now for me, "
or something like that. She said, airily, "O, no, they'll only think
it a relative of mine. " Then there was a nurse to think of,
as she was called away from the drawing-room. Please note
all this... as you may have to put in some sort of word or
alibi for poor Potter.

It is foggy and so disagreeable everywhere except in my
heavenly flat. I don't see myself crossing the channel...
but I do not let it drop, quite, and I am sure it is good to
have the idea, there.

Sunday, Feb. 23.

Dear Fido,

I had a card from Eileen which I destroyed, saying "it was
decessary, after all. I hope to be out on Monday" etc., all
on a p.c. This is pretty awful as she wants to throw off on
me ... is "telling me all about it." I simply do NOT
know ... she is pretty odd. I wonder K. has survived at
all... but as I have Sch., I shall no doubt
get through, somehow, and I am stunting a "big piece of work".
after this week, which is booked up every afternoon; I
shall simply weed them all out. Or some of them...
I like people and so on, but it's simply a clinic... its either
church-and-state or people going mad... however, its all
experience.

Thanks, re Cole.

Do go on with the good work. You are
very good and tactful. Its simply impossible even to think
straight about her now... she quoted "Gerald says" on
all occasions, then would turn and say the most frightful
things against men and man, and man and men. She got all
baby-baby, which is comic and dire with a prson her size,
hair egg-yellow and eye-lashes and a hat percehed with
a dolly-varden ribbon ... it frightened me, a sort of
crinoline phantasy of herself. Of course, I realize I shouldn't
have let it go on ... I said that... but it started so
long ago, and this phase was sprung on me so suddenly.

I did write her, I told her and enclosed your mother's
letter, which required, in decency, some little recognition,
but it is simply that I "turned her out." Its all right,
the clock in the steeple strikes one and so on. Just you
carry on, in whatever way seems most tactful, say anything
you want about me... its all, all right. I am really
very, V E R Y much better since that break. It was
working into the unk, as Sch. said, it was a sort of
negative transference to me, on her part. But even at that,
its interesting and helped me in the long run ... but now, on
top of that, Eileen is almost too much. However, I shall
see her once and stunt something about work ... have already
told Mrs. Ash that I must have her out of the place by two, as I
have a big piece of work on hand. I am a little annoyed, too,
as I think that atmosphere is gradually corroding or may
corrode, the Ash. I slept in Pups' bed one night as there was
a party at Harvey N. till late, they have them occasionally.
Mrs. A. was very haughty about the " extra bed"; ... so
ironical. If one steps over the chalk line, there it is -
sheer underworld and blackmail and nothing in between... but
you know all that.

I will write Jean U., thank you for reminding me.

Mon. Feb. 24.

Dear Fido,

Thank you for letter and card. I note, re Paris, and glad you feel as I do. I am talking to Sch., the catch is, his Easter, however, I tell him, I simply want to see some TREES, and the thing marches, and I do find, when one is thwarted like that, things come up in the UNK, memories of the Lehigh and the old grandfather taking drives in the lanes for daisies and that kind of text-book, carriage, horses, Zeus, woods, olives in bottles layer.

I also would be far happier there with books and quiet, even if there were hurricanes, than in a hotel anywhere. However, I talk daily to the U. I don't think he has a secretary, I find him practicing a manner with note-books, occasionally; he has prob. copied out an official note from Jones or Glover. He has a great sense of humour, but also a

Blue Danube U. idea of the "right thing", you did not enclose his note, so I can not do any clairvoyance on it.

I seem to have bust a screw somewhere, will hope for the best, but it is always annoying, especially as I have planed now some work- it would happen, like that.

Black fog has come down again, all at once, so I will not "air" this.

Please greet the Pup in all brotherliness... I expect Eileen will rush at me, but will try to avoid it. She was prob.

finding it difficult to write your mother, as she was
hiding at the home," its all a mess, I know... glad you
wrote her as I simply can not cope. She evidently wrote a
long, confidential scream to Trude W., who wrote her- she
showed me the letter, saying all would be ready at £25 for her
in Vienna. Heaven knows what, from time to time, she tells them
there.... your friends, too. I think, later, you
better tell Alice the whole story, for evidently E. has a
curious very tricky way, of double-crossing; but you
know all that....

I did some work on the file, good for the
UNK.

Forgive this, mad about screw.
I will go on writing... greet the M., and Timmie.

Best to old Pups
from

Feb.wy. Wed.

============

Dear Fidi,

I have dug this out, and will try to get the
other to be mended. I enc lose from Rvr. and the statement. I
have letter that went with same, so you can file this
after you. Terrible fog. I am off now and will write a better
after seeing Bud, due at rules.

This also seems to need something B oil ora new harness
Please do not letter plans, return, a s my own ae
most uncertain.

Please do not letter plans, return, a s my own ae
most uncertain.
Please explain Rvr. that stamps to England are the same as

most uncertain.
Please explain Rvr. that stamps to England are the same as
BEING in England... I did not mean to hurt him, he put TOO
much, not too little.

much, not too little.
I do regret this...
It is worse than the one, but I have tomorrow morning free
ans will try to get mendings done.
I won't correct, will send as is.

ans will try to get mendings done.
I won't correct, will send as is.
Parson, mos kind, is writing Houghton, seems to want ION

I won't correct, will send as is.
Parson, mos kind, is writing Houghton, seems to want ION
and maybe a book of poems after.

and maybe a book of poems after.
Will erite later, forgive ye olde

Wed. Feb. 26.

Dear Fido,

I am writing now on this, as I find, from Ryman, that they
ment machines, and I am taking this right round before tea. It
is a great discovery, as it is a long trek to Harrods plus
machine, and they always keep it too long, and generally it comes
back worse than it went. I am going out now, and will post this
but prob. won't write a proper letter to-morrow or not till
later. Anyhow, this is chiefly to tell you that I saw
Bud, he was in good form, looks better than he almost ever
has, his eyes are quite different; he told me he took along
paper cut-outs to his mothers and realized that he thought, as
people were cutting up people in the home, he would have a little
fun too. He told this to Sch. who said, "I think that is a
very-eery good explanation." Bud is funny and yet very
sane and good and very appreciative about "our funny little man,"
as he calls Sch.

I did not write properly of Ian Garsons. He was in good
form, seemed to think Ion good, but worried about market; he
read Houghtons letter to me, and said he would write at once to
Houghton and would himself be glad to set up sheets if Houghton
finally agreed. I think he is a good tie-up. He said he would
be glad to do a vol. of poems, after this, and seemed most
up to the minute on gossips, Uncle N. and Pino and so on, right out
of the middle-muddle here.... good fun and he stayed quite a time.
Sch. says a publisher is a proper "father" for a MSS., so ION will

Thurs. Feb. 27.

Dear Fido,

The screw is a local affair, so I brought back the machine,
thankfully, and can use it. They are getting screw, and I will
take it round, saves much trouble, and I am so thankful.

Thank you for note, and notes, re
Eileen, etc. I have so far avoided E. and Sch. says it is better
for my UNK not to get mixed up in her vibration. Also Cole.
I see Hart, Brook, Silvia and the Una specimen guinea-pig, and
the young men... but am repairing the whole time, to make a
get-away, tell them now quite truthfully that 9 my publisher"
wants the two vols. It keeps people quiet, anyhow... something
definite.

I repeat, Sch. seems to think it oke to leave the
week before he does, he leaves the 4th. However, I may
be able to get away still earlier, but I would not rush back
between visit to Vaud and ps-a. I would want a good time off.
There will be little to discuss, re Vaud, as that is a haven of
rest for the UNK. The things that came up had to do with
Eileen, Cole, Brook... and general rushing in of
these dames... Bud restful and Kex, as well in background.
Vaud to the UNK is a place of gestation- pups in
woods in Buckinghire- and creation, and peace. So
that is to be a sort of full-stop to a period. So I would
not, whatever I did, break across it.

However, don't let this alter

your own plans.

I went to Coopers, the chemist in Sloane Street,
they keep Crinex now, and I think as economical to get
from them, an English edition, but just the same bottles etc.,
but it is imported, and better get that way. But I mentioned
nose-bleed, and he said "it is sometimes a good relief of
other troubles," so I judge he meant ktx symptom, anyhoe,
they will bring me anything I want from their central shop
if I get a scare in the night. It is not likely to happen,
but I arranged to have them call if in need. + do not think
it is likely to happen again, and I will get, as well, the
preparation that Sch. recommends, that he says, it
a sure cure. Anyhow, it did good to the UNK but left
me feeling rather weak.

I wrote Kex, and gave all news. I repeat,
Bud seemed miraculously better. I do like him so much, and go
again next week, chez Rules....

Love to old Pups, and I am so
happy about machine, a good omen, and the ION, and
will be ready now for a change.

Best and gruss to all and sundry

Exactly WHERE is Lady E.? I will go to
see her... or write ...

Fri. Feb. 28.

Dear Fido,

I suppose it's all right, but a bit of a blow for you
to say "mama wants Pups on her birthday." After all, damn it,
Fido... O God... I am sorry and whatever I say I will be sorry
for. I can never forget, never will, the flowers you put on
my bed... how YOU saved the Pup. But it was YOU and PUP and
not mama and PUP then... remember what I had to do, how you
wanted my "help." God knows I've made messes enough... God
knows... and Kex and all that. But I will talk to Mr.S.
I shall prob. come a week earlier. I wanted to stay till the
last and would... only I must not let things slip right
out.... after all, I did not see Pup last summer... well,
Fido, I do, do thank you, you are everything and you are
right. Only the 31st?

I am sorry and will regret this
outburst.... I don't want you to change your plans in
ANY way. I will prob. come a week earlier, but I am
not rushing out and rushing back. I will let you know. I will
prob. now come the 21st. Anyhow, I have about ten days
in which to decide. God bless you and thank you for
red anemonies in 199, March 31st.

Will write again,

Feb. 29. Saturday.

Dear Fido,

A very special date. We don't have it, do we, for
another four years ? I am always a bit staggred by leap-year,
and just realized it must be .... D.V.!

I was thinking of the Hedgehog in the night. Who
has it ? It must not be printed as H.D. but D.A. Hill. It is
odd how the H.D. is a sort of chemical like H₂O or
NACL, but as you never studied chemistry, that can't mean
much, only it is water, the first and the other salt. I mean,
I am seeing the H.D. as that thing, and it makes it easier to
approach H.D. and also to think of forming the other

pages into some tidy shape. I do not want G.P.
to do the Hog if you don't mind. I would like to brouse
over it a bit... I have a copy here, but do not like the Hog
on the loose. It is a pup MSS and I will keep it and later
have it shaped as an early Vaud souvenir of and for Pup.

I will write your mother. I feel rather
limp but am not rushing out to Vaud. I am happy, indeed that
Pup is doing Ramuz and I want terribly to see her. I shall
prob. come about the 21st, can not make it sooner.

I have the notes, thank you so very
much. I have written Coutts. I have put them aside, I suppose
for fare... but it is not necessary, dear Fido.

I have all the letters you
sent, except the few destroyed, all in one lump for you

to file at leisure.

Will you give Pup the enclosed from Stage and the
photo. of the young gent. I don't know these people
at all, a grand-son of aunt Laura. A long letter from
the married grand-daughter, rather nice, in the " Birdie"
rythm. I will forward for you to destroy later.
She writes much of you and of Aunt Laura's constant thought of
your goodness ...

It is fog again.

Please excuse yesterdays outburst, am going though
funny time, and another nose-bleed, occasioned by meeting
Barbara Low, just a few doors below Sch. But it is all to the
good. I have not told her I am with Sch., but rather a shock
to meet her. He says, I may tell her I pop in, on L. and L.
business, if caught .... L. and L., by the way,
is marvelous. I am reading Manchester, and like yours and
Pups reviews; it is a great rag. I will give it full
attention over week-en.

I hope it is not too awful and remote

there.

Love from ye olde