CHAPTER I.

YOUNG POWELL AND HIS CHANCE.

I believe he had seen us out of the window coming off
to dine in an overloaded dinghy of a fourteen ton yawl belonging
to Marlow my host and skipper. We helped the boy with us to
haul the boat up on the landing stage before we went up to the
riverside inn, where we found our new acquaintance eating his
dinner in dignified loneliness at the head of a long table,
white and inhospitable like a snow bank.

The red tint of his clear cut face with trim short
black whiskers under a cap of curly iron grey hair was the only
warm spot in the dinginess of that room cooled by the cheer-
less tablecloth. We sat on each side of him, so as to make
him the president of our indifferent feast. He carved cold
beef for the strangers with skill and judgment. His manner
of courteous detachment recalled something familiar to us.
We knew him already by sight as the owner of a little five ton
cutter, which he sailed alone apparently, a fellow yachtsman
in the unpretending band of fanatics who cruise at the mouth
of the Thames. But the first time he addressed the waiter
sharply as 'steward' we knew him at once for a sailor as well
as a yachtsman.

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Presently he had occasion to reprove the same waiter for the slovenly manner in which the dinner was served. He did it with considerable energy and then turned to us.

"If we at sea," he declared, "went about our work as people ashore high and low go about theirs we should never make a living. No one would employ us. And moreover no ship navigated and sailed in the happy-go-lucky manner people conduct their business on shore would ever arrive into port."

Since he had retired from the sea he had been astonished to discover that the educated people were not much better than the others. No one seemed to take any proper pride in his work: from plumbers who were simply thieves to, say, newspaper men (he seemed to think them a specially intellectual class) who never by any chance gave a correct version of the simplest sort of affair. This universal inefficiency of what he called "the shore gang" he ascribed in general to the want of responsibility and to a sense of security.

"They see," he went on, "that no matter what they do this tight little island won't turn turtle with them or spring a leak and go to the bottom with their wives and children."

From that point the conversation took a special turn relating exclusively to sea-life. On that subject he got quickly in touch with Marlow who in his time had followed the sea. They kept up a lively exchange of reminiscences while I listened.

They agreed that the happiest time in their lives was as youngsters

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in good ships, with no care in the world but not to lose a
watch below when at sea and not a moment's time in going ashore
after work hours when in harbour. They agreed also as to the
proudest moment they had known in that calling which is
never embraced on rational and practical grounds, because of
the glamour of its romantic associations. It was the moment when
they had passed successfully their first examination, and
left the seamanship Examiner with the little precious slip of
blue paper in their hands.

"That day I wouldn't have called the Queen my cousin,"
declared our new acquaintance enthusiastically.

At that time the Marine Board examinations took place
at the St. Katherine's Dock House on Tower Hill, and he informed
us that he had a special affection for the view of that
historic locality, with the Gardens to the left, the front of
the Mint to the right, a miserable tumble-down little
houses a cabstand, boot-blacks
squatting on the edge of the pavement, and a pair of big
policemen gazing with an air of superiority at the doors of
the Black Horse public house across the road. This was the part
of the world, he said, his eyes first took notice of, on the
finest day of his life. He had emerged from the main entrance
of St. Katherine's Dock House a full-fledged second mate after
the hottest two hours of his life with Captain R ---- the most
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responsible for the merchant service officers qualifying in
the Port of London.

"We all who were preparing to pass," he said, "used
to shake in our shoes at the idea of going before him. He kept
me for an hour and a half in the torture chamber and behaved
as though he hated me. He kept his eyes shaded with one of his
hands. Suddenly he let it drop saying, "You will do! Before
I realised what he meant he was pushing the blue slip across
the table. I jumped up as if my chair had caught fire.

"Thank you, sir," says I grabbing the paper.

"Good morning, good luck to you," he growls at me.

"The old doorkeeper fussed out of the cloak-room with
my hat. They always do. But he looked very hard at me before
he ventured to ask in a sort of timid whisper: "Got through all
right, sir?" For all answer I dropped a half-crown into his
soft broad palm. "Well," says he with a sudden grin from ear
to ear, "I never knew him keep any of you young gentlemen so
long. He failed two second mates this morning before your
turn came. Less than twenty minutes each: that's about his
usual time."

"I found myself downstairs without being aware of the
steps as if I had floated down the staircase. The finest day
in my life. The day you get your first command is nothing to it.
For one thing a man is not so young then and for another with
us, you know, there is nothing much more to expect. Yes the
finest day of one's life no doubt, but then it is just a day

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and no more. What comes after is about the most unpleasant
time for a youngster, the trying to get an officer's berth
with nothing much to show but a brand new certificate. It is
surprising how useless you find that piece of ass's skin that
you have been putting yourself in such a state about. It
didn't strike me at the time that a Board of Trade certificate
does not make an officer, not by a long long way. But the
skippers of the ships I was haunting with demands for a job
knew very well. I don't wonder at them now, and I don't blame
them either. But this 'trying to get a ship' is pretty hard on
a youngster all the same."

He went on then to tell us how tired he was and how
discouraged by this lesson of disillusion following swiftly
upon the finest day of his life, And the depression of that
time seemed to have left a memory as vivid as the exultation.
He told us how he went the round of all the ship-owners' offices
in the City where some junior clerk would furnish him with
printed forms of application which he took home to fill up in
the evening. He used to run out just before midnight to post
them in the nearest pillar-box. And that was all that ever
came of it. In his own words: he might just as well have dropped
them all properly addressed and stamped into the sewer grating.

Then one day, as he was wending his weary way again
to the docks, he met a friend and former shipmate a little
older than himself outside the Fenchurch Street Railway Station.

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He craved for sympathy but his friend had just "got a ship" that very morning and was hurrying home in a state of outward joy and inward uneasiness usual to a sailor who after many days of waiting suddenly gets a berth. This friend had the time to condole with him but briefly. He was sorry for him but must be moving. Then as he was running off, over his shoulder as it were, he suggested: "Why don't you go and speak to Mr. Powell in the Shipping Office." Our friend objected that he did not know Mr. Powell from Adam. And the other already pretty near round the corner shouted back advice: "Go to the private door of the Shipping Office and walk right up to him. His desk is by the window. Go up boldly and say I sent you."

Our new acquaintance looking from one to the other of us declared: "Upon my word, I had grown so desperate that I'd have gone boldly up to the devil himself on the mere hint that he had a second mate's job to give away."

It was at this point that interrupting his flow of talk to light his pipe but holding us with his eye he inquired whether we had known Powell. Marlow with a slight reminiscent smile murmured that he "remembered him very well."

Then there was a pause. Our new acquaintance had become involved in a vexatious difficulty with his pipe which had suddenly betrayed his true intent and disappointed his anticipation of self-indulgence. Not from any sort of sympathetic interest in things human, but merely to keep the ball rolling I asked

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Marlow if this Powell was remarkable in any way.

"He was not exactly remarkable," Marlow answered with his usual nonchalance. "In a general way it's very difficult for one to become remarkable. People won't take sufficient notice of one, don't you know. I remember Powell so well simply because as one of the Shipping Masters in the Port of London he despatched me to sea on several long stages of my sailor's pilgrimage. He resembled Socrates. I mean he resembled him genuinely: that is in the face. A philosophical mind is but an accident. He reproduced exactly the familiar bust of the immortal sage, if you will imagine the bust with a high top hat riding far on the back of the head, and a black coat over the shoulders. It was so striking that the first time I saw my eyes on that man I wondered where I had seen him before. It was the same board, white streaked with grey, not beautifully silky, the same... As I never saw him except from the other side of the long official counter bearing the five writing desks of the five Shipping Masters, Mr Powell has remained a bust to me."

Our new acquaintance advanced now from the mantelpiece
with his pipe in good working order.

"What was the most remarkable about Powell," he enunciated dogmatically with his head in a cloud of smoke, "is that he should have had just that name. You see, my name happens to be Powell too."

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It was clear that this intelligence was not imparted
to us for social purposes. It required no acknowledgment. We
continued to gaze at him with expectant eyes.

He gave himself up to the vigorous enjoyment of his
pipe for a silent minute or two. Then picking up the thread
of his story he told us how he had started hot foot for Tower
Hill. He had not been that way since the day of his examination -
the finest day of his life - the day of his overweening pride.
It was very different now. He would not have called the Queen
his cousin, still, but this time it was from a sense of pro-
found abasement. He didn't think himself good enough for anybody's
kinship. He envied the purple-nosed old cab-
drivers on the stand, the bootblack boys at the edge of the
pavement, the two large bobbies pacing slowly along
the Tower Gardens railings in the consciousness of their in-
fallible might, and the bright scarlet sentries walking smartly
to and fro before the Mint. He envied them their places in
the scheme of world's labour. And he envied also the miserable
sallow, thin-faced loafers blinking their obscene eyes and
rubbing their greasy shoulders against the door-jambs of the
Black Horse pub, because they were too far gone to feel their
degradation.

I must render the man the justice that he conveyed
very well to us the sense of his youthful hopelessness surprised
at not finding its place in the gun and no recognition of its

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right to live.

He went up the outer steps of St. Katherine's Dock House, the very steps from which he had some six weeks before surveyed the cabstand, the buildings, the policemen, the bootblacks, the paint, gilt, and plateglass front of the Black Horse, with the eye of a Conqueror. At the time he had been at the bottom of his heart surprised that all this had not greeted him with songs and incense, but now (he made no secret of it) he made his entry in a slinking fashion past the doorkeeper's glass box. "I hadn't any half-crowns to spare for tips," he remarked grimly. The man, however, ran out after him asking: "What do you require?" but with a grateful glance up at the first floor in remembrance of Captain R----'s examination room (how easy and delightful all that had been) he bolted down a flight leading to the basement and found himself in the examination room of dusk and mystery and many doors. He had been afraid of being stopped by some rule of no-admittance. However he was not pursued.

The basement of St. Katherine's Dock House is vast in extent and confusing in its plan. Pale shafts of light slant from above into the gloom of its chilly passages. Powell wandered up and down there like an early Christian refugee in the catacombs; but what little faith he had in the success of his enterprise was oozing out at his finger-tips. At a dark turn under a gas bracket whose flame was half turned down his self confidence abandoned him altogether.

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of my heart beats. Very uncomfortable sensation. Never happened
to me before or since. A bigger door to the left of me, with a
large brass handle looked as if it might lead into the Shipping
Office. I tried it, setting my teeth. "Here goes!"

"It came open quite easily, And lo! the place it opened
into was hardly any bigger than a cupboard. Anyhow it wasn't more
than ten feet by twelve; and as I in a way expected to see the
big shadowy cellar-like extent of the Shipping Office where I had
been once or twice before, I was extremely startled. A gas
bracket hung from the middle of the ceiling over a dark, shabby,
writing-desk covered with a litter of yellowish dusty
documents. Under the flame of the single burner which made the
place ablaze with light, a plump, little man was writing hard,
his nose very near the desk. His head was perfectly bald and
about the same drab tint as the papers. He appeared pretty
dusty too.

"I didn't notice whether there were any cobwebs on him,
but I shouldn't wonder if there were because he looked as though
he had been imprisoned for 100 years in that little hole. The
way he dropped his pen and sat blinking my way upset me very
much. And his dungeon was hot and musty; it smelt of gas and
mushrooms, and seemed to be somewhere 120 feet below the ground.
Solid 1,000 stacks of paper filled all the corners halfway up to
the ceiling. And when the thought flashed upon me that these
were the premises of the Marine Board and that this fellow

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must be connected in some way with ships and sailors and the sea,
my astonishment took my breath away. Perhaps they had got him
to collect statistics. Who can tell? One couldn't imagine why
the Marine Board should keep that bald, fat creature slaving
down there. For some reason or other I felt sorry and ashamed
to have found him out in his minotaur's captivity. I asked
gently and sorrowfully: "The Shipping Office, please."

He piped up in a contemptuous squeaky voice which made
me start: "Not here. Try the passage on the other side. Street
side. This is the Dock side. You've lost your way ...,"

He spoke in such a spiteful tone that I thought he was
going to round off with the words: "You fool" .... and perhaps
he meant to. But what he finished sharply with was: "Shut
the door quietly after you."

And I did shut it quietly - you bet. Quick and quiet.
The indomitable spirit of that chap impressed me. I wonder
sometimes whether he has succeeded in writing himself into
liberty and a pension at last, or had to go out of his gas-
lighted grave straight into that other dark one where nobody
would be likely to try his temper which clearly was not patient
of intrusion. My humanity was pleased to discover he had so
much kick left in him, but I was not comforted in the least.
It occurred to me that if Mr. Powell had the same sort of
temper.... However, I didn't give myself time to think and
scuttled across the space at the foot of the stairs into the

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passage where I'd been told to try. And I tried the first door I came to, right away, without any hanging back, because coming loudly from the hall above an amazed and scandalized voice wanted to know what sort of game I was up to down there "Don't you know there's no admittance that way?" it roared. But if there was anything more I shut it out of my hearing by means of a door marked "Private" on the outside. It let me into a six feet wide strip between a long counter and the wall, taken off a ~~medium~~ spacious, vaulted room with a grated window and a glazed door giving daylight to the further end. The first thing I saw right in front of me were three middle-aged men having a sort of romp together round about another fellow with a thin, long neck and sloping shoulders who stood up at a desk writing on a large sheet of paper and taking no notice, except that he grinned quietly to himself. They turned very sour at once when they saw me. I heard one of them mutter: 'Hullo! What have we here?'

"I want to see Mr. Powell, please," I said, very civil but firm; I would let nothing scare me away now. This was the Shipping Office right enough. It was after 3 o'clock and the business seemed over for the day with them. The long-necked fellow went on with his writing steadily. I observed that he was no longer grinning. The three others tossed their heads all together towards the far end of the room where a fifth man had been looking on at their antics

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from a high stool. I walked up to him as boldly as if he
had been the devil himself. With one foot raised up and
resting on the cross-bar of his seat he never stopped swinging
the other which was well clear of the stone floor. He had
unbuttoned the top of his waistcoat and he wore his tall hat
very far at the back of his head. He had a full unwrinkled
face and such clear-shining eyes that his grey beard looked
quite false on him, stuck on for a disguise. You said just
now he resembled Socrates—he didn't you? I don't know about
that. This Socrates was a wise man, I believe?"

"He was," assented Marlow. "And a true friend of
youth. He lectured them in a peculiarly exasperating manner.
It was a way he had."

"Then give me Powell every time," declared our new
acquaintance sturdily. "He didn't lecture me in any way. Not
he. He said: 'How do you do?' quite kindly to my mumble.
Then says he looking very hard at me: "I don't think I know
you - do I?"

"No, sir," I said and down went my heart sliding
into my boots, just as the time had come to summon up all my
cheek. There's nothing meaner in the world than a piece of
impudence that isn't carried off well. For fear of appearing
shamefaced about it, I started out free and easy as almost
to frighten myself. He listened for a while looking at my
face with surprise and curiosity and then held up his hand.

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I was glad enough to shut up, I can tell you.

'Well, you are a cool hand,' says he. 'And that friend of yours too. He pestered me coming here every day for a fortnight till a captain I'm acquainted with was good enough to give him a berth. And no sooner he's provided for than he turns you on. You youngsters don't seem to mind whom you get into trouble.'

"It was my turn now to stare with surprise and curiosity. He hadn't been talking loud but he lowered his voice still more.

"Don't you know it's illegal?"

"I wondered what he was driving at till I remembered that procuring a berth for a sailor is a penal offence under the act. That clause was directed of course against the swindling practices of the boarding house crimps. It had never struck me it would apply to everybody alike no matter what the motive, because I believed then that people on shore did their work with care and foresight."

"I was confounded at the idea, but I, Powell made me soon see that an Act of Parliament hasn't any sense of its own. It has only the sense that's put into it; and that's precious little sometimes. He didn't mind helping a young man to a ship now and then, he said, but if we kept on coming constantly it would soon get about that he was doing it for

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money.

"A pretty thing that would be: I the Senior Shipping Master of the Port of London hauled up in a police court and fined fifty pounds," says he. "I've another four years to serve to get my pension. It could be made to look very black against me and don't you make any mistake about it," he says.

"And all the time with one knee well up he went on swinging his other leg like a boy on a gate and looking at me very straight with his shining eyes. I was confounded I tell you. It made me sick to hear him imply that somebody would make a report against him."

"Oh!" I asked shocked, "Who would think of such a scurvy trick, sir?" I was half disgusted with him for having the mere notion of it."

"Who?" says he, speaking very low. "Anybody. One of the office messengers maybe. I've risen to be the Senior of this office and we are all very good friends here, but don't you think that my colleague that sits next to me wouldn't like to go up to this desk by the window six years in advance of the regulation time? Or even one year for that matter. It's human nature."

"I could not help turning my head. The three fellows who had been skylarking when I came in were now talking

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one o'clock he went out to get a bit of dinner and didn't turn up at two as he bought to have done. Instead there came a messenger from the hospital with a note signed by a doctor. Collar bone and one arm broken, Let himself be knocked down by a pair-horse van while crossing the road outside the dock gate, as if he had neither eyes nor ears. And the ship ready to leave the dock at six o'clock to-morrow morning!'

"Mr. Powell dipped his pen and began to turn the leaves of the agreement over. "We must then take his name off," he says in a kind of unconcerned sing-song.

"What am I to do?" burst out the skipper. "This office closes at four o'clock. I can't find a man in half an hour."

"This office closes at four," repeats Mr. Powell glancing up and down the pages and touching up a letter here and there with perfect indifference.

"Even if I managed to lay hold some time to-day of a man ready to go at such short notice I couldn't ship him regularly here - could I?"

"Mr. Powell was busy drawing his pen through the entries relating to that unlucky second mate and making a note in the margin.

"You could sign him on yourself on board," says he without looking up. "But I don't think you'll find easily an

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officer for such a pier-head jump."

"Upon this the fine looking skipper gave signs of distress. The ship mustn't miss the next morning's tide. He had to take on board forty tons of dynamite and a hundred and twenty tons of gunpowder ~~at a place~~ down the river, at a place called Hole Heaven before proceeding to sea. It was all arranged for next day. The stuff would be waiting for him in barges. Such a lot of explosives could ruin the left side about on the river. There would be no end of fuss and complications if the ship didn't turn up in time... I couldn't help hearing all this, while wishing him to take himself off, because I wanted to know why Mr. Powell had told me to wait. After what he had been saying there didn't seem any object in my hanging about. If I had had my certificate in my pocket I should have tried to slip away quietly; but Mr. Powell had turned about into the same position I found him in at first and was again swinging his leg. My certificate open on the desk was under his left elbow and I couldn't very well go up and jerk it away."

"I don't know," says he carelessly, addressing the helpless captain but looking fixedly at me with an expression as if I hadn't been there." I don't know whether I ought to tell you that I know of a disengaged second mate at hand."

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"Do you mean you've got him here?" shouts the other looking all over the empty public part of the office as if he were ready to fling himself bodily upon anything resembling a second mate. He had been so full of his difficulty that I verily believe he had never noticed me. Or perhaps seeing me inside he may have thought I was some understrapper belonging to the place. But when Mr. Powell nodded in my direction he became very quiet and gave me a long stare. Then he stooped to Mr. Powell's ear. I suppose he imagined he was whispering, but I heard him well enough.

"Looks very respectable."

"Certainly," says the shipping-master quite calm and staring all the time at me. "His name's Powell."

"Oh I see!" says the skipper as if struck all of a heap. "But is he ready to join at once?"

"I had a sort of vision of my lodgings - in the North of London, too, beyond Dalston away to the devil - and all my gear scattered about, and my empty sea chest put away somewhere in an outhouse the good people I was staying with had at the end of their sooty strip of garden. I heard the Shipping Master say in the coolest sort of way:

"He'll sleep on board to-night."

"He had better," says the Captain of the Ferndale very businesslike and cheerful as if the whole thing were

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settled. I can't say I was dumb for joy as you may suppose.
It wasn't exactly that. I was more by way of being out of
breath with the quickness of it. It didn't seem possible
that this was happening to me. But the skipper, after he had
talked for a while with Mr. Powell, too low for me to hear
became visibly perplexed.

"I suppose he had heard I was freshly passed and
without experience as an officer, because he turned about and
looked me over as if I had been exposed for sale.

"He's young," he mutters. "Looks smart, though....
You're smart and willing (this to me very sudden and loud) ~~was~~
and all that, aren't you?"

"I just managed to open and shut my mouth, no more,
being taken unawares. But it was enough for him. He made
as if I had deafened him with protestations of my smartness
and willingness.

"Of course, of course. All right." And then
turning to the Shipping Master who sat there swinging his leg,
he said that he certainly couldn't go to sea without a
second officer. On the other hand these explosives mustn't
be kept waiting twenty-four hours while he was looking for
one. I stood by as if all these things were happening to
some other chap whom I was seeing through with it. Mr. Powell
kept staring at me with those shining eyes of his. But that

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this discovery, though indeed the mistake was natural enough
under the circumstances. What I ought to have admired was the
reticence with which this misundertstanding had been established
arising upon it. But I was too stepwise to admit of this.
All my anxiety was that his should be cleared. I was ass
enough to wonder exceedingly at Mr. Powell failing to notice
the misapprehension. I saw a slight twitch come and go on his face;
but instead of setting right that mistake the Shipping Master
swung round on his stool and addressed me as 'Charles'. He did.
And I detected him taking a hasty squint at my certificate
just before, because clearly till he did so he was not sure of
my Christian name. "Now then come round in front of the desk,
Charles," says he in a loud voice.

"Charles! It was so unexpected that at first, I
declare to you, it didn't seem possible that he was addressing
himself to me. I even looked round for that Charles but there
was nobody behind me except the thin-necked chap still hard
at his writing, and the other three Shipping Masters who were
changing their coats and reaching for their hats, making ready
to go home. It was the industrious thin-necked man who without
laying down his pen lifted with his left hand a flap near his
desk and said kindly:

"Pass this way."

I walked through in a trance, faced Mr. Powell, from
whom I learned that we were bound to Port Elizabeth first,

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and signed my name on the Articles of the ship Ferndale as second mate → the voyage not to exceed two years.

"You won't fail to join - eh?" says the captain anxiously. "It would cause no end of trouble and expense if you did. You've got a good six hours to get your gear together, and then you'll have time to snatch a sleep on board before the crew joins in the morning."

"It was easy enough for him to talk of getting ready in six hours for a voyage that was not to exceed two years. He hadn't to do that trick himself, and with his sea-chest locked up in an outhouse the key of which had been mislaid for a week as I remembered. But neither was I much concerned. The idea that I was absolutely going to sea at six o'clock next morning hadn't got quite into my head yet. It had been too sudden.

"Mr. Powell, slipping the Articles into a long envelope, spoke up with a sort of cold half laugh without looking at either of us."

"Mind you don't disgrace the name, Charles."

"And the skipper chimes in very kindly: -

"He'll do well enough I daresay. I'll look after him a bit."

"Upon this he grabs the Articles, says something about trying to run in for a minute to see that poor devil in the hospital, and off he goes with his ~~keeping swinging step~~ after telling me sternly: 'Don't you go like that poor fellow and get yourself run over by a cart as if you hadn't

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either eyes or ears.'

"Mr. Powell," says I timidly (there was by then only the thin-necked man left in the office with us and he was already by the door, standing on one leg to turn the bottom of his trousers up before going away.) "Mr. Powell," says I, "I believe the Captain of the _Ferndale_ was thinking all the time that I was a relation of yours."

"I was rather concerned about the propriety of it, you know, but Mr. Powell didn't seem to be in the least."

"Did he?" says he. "That's funny, because it seems to me too that I've been a sort of good uncle to several of you young fellows lately. Don't you think so yourself? However, if you don't like it you may put him right - when you get out to sea." At this I felt a bit queer. Mr. Powell had rendered me a very good service: - because it's a fact that with us merchant sailors the first voyage as officer is the real start in life. He had given me no less than that. I told him warmly that he had done for me more that day than all my relations put together ever did."

"Oh, no, no, no," says he. "I guess it's that shipment of explosives waiting down the river which has done most for you. Forty tons of dynamite have been your best friend to-day, young man!"

"That was true too, perhaps. Anyway I saw clearly enough that I had nothing to thank myself for. But as I tried to thank him, he checked my stammering.

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"Don't be in a hurry to thank me," says he. "The voyage isn't finished yet."

Our new acquaintance paused, then added meditatively: "Queer man. As if it made any difference. Queer man."

"It's certainly unwise to admit any sort of responsibility for our actions, whose consequences we are never able to foresee," remarked Marlow by way of assent.

"The consequence of his action was that I got a ship," said the other. "That could not do much harm," he added with a laugh which argued a probably unconscious contempt of general ideas.

But Marlow was not put off. He was patient and reflective. He had been at sea many years and I verily believe he liked sea life because upon the whole it is favourable to reflection. I am speaking of the now nearly vanished sea life under sail. To those who may be surprised at the statement I will point out that this life withdrew him who embraced it from the din of other men's activities and from the small antagonisms of the general human intercourse. It was not in truth a contemplative life. It was simple in its demands upon the energy, endurance and a few other elementary qualities of manhood. It led no mind astray by ambitious visions, and inducement of rewards; and it secured for it the inestimable advantages of solitude and silence. Marlow had the habit of pursuing general ideas in a peculiar manner, between jest and earnest.

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"Oh, I wouldn't suggest," he said, "that your namesake Mr. Powell, the Shipping Master, had done you much harm. Such was hardly his intention. And even if it had been he would not have had the power. He was but a man, and the incapacity to achieve anything distinctly good or evil is inherent in our earthly condition. Mediocrity is our mark. And perhaps it's just as well, since, for the most part, we cannot be certain of the effect of our actions."

"I don't know about the effect," the other stood up to Marlow manfully. "What effect did you expect anyhow? I tell you he did something uncommonly kind."

"He did what he could," Marlow retorted gently, "and on his own showing that was not a very great deal. I cannot help thinking that there was some malice in the way he seized the opportunity to serve you. He managed to make you uncomfortable. You wanted to go to sea, but he jumped on the chance of accommodating your desire with a vengeance. I am inclined to think your cheek alarmed him. He was afraid perhaps that your pettinacity would prove equal to your initial impudence. He must have been asking himself with despair: How am I ever going to get rid of a fellow of this description? And this was an excellent occasion to suppress you altogether. For if you accepted he was relieved of you with every appearance of humanity, and if you made objections (after requesting his assistance mind you) it was open to him to drop you as a sort of impostor. You might have had to decline that berth for some very valid reason. From

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sheer necessity perhaps. The notice was too uncommonly short.
But under the circumstances you'd have covered yourself with
ignominy."

Our new friend knocked the ashes out of his pipe.

"Quite a mistake," he said. "I am not of the declining
sort, though I'll admit it was something like telling a man that
you would like a bath and in consequence being instantly knocked
overboard to sink or swim with your clothes on. However, I didn't
feel as if I were in deep water at first. I left the shipping
office quietly and for a time strolled along the street as easy
as if I had a week before me to fit myself out, and get used to
the idea of being really and truly a full blown officer. But by
and bye I reflected that the notice was even shorter than it
looked. The afternoon was well advanced; I had some things to get,
a lot of small matters to attend to, one or two persons to see.
One of them was an aunt of mine who quarrelled with poor father
as long as he lived about some silly matter that had neither right
or wrong to it, and then left her money to me. I used to go and
see her for decency's sake. In short I had so much to do before
night that I didn't know where to begin. When I remember the
distances I had to travel over I felt inclined to sit down on the
kerb and hold my head in my hands. It was as if an engine had
been started going under my skull. However I sat down in the
first cab that came along and it was a hard matter to keep on
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streets, pulling up here and there, the parcels accumulating
round me and the engine in my head gathering more way every minute.
The composure of the people on the pavements was provoking to
a degree, and as to the people in shops, they were benumbed, more
than half frozen - imbecile. Funny how it affects you to be in a
peculiar state of mind: everybody that does not act up to your
excitement seems so confoundedly unfriendly. And my state of
mind what with the hurry, the worry and a growing exultation was
peculiar enough. That engine in my head went round at its top
speed hour after hour till at about eleven at night it let up
on me suddenly at the entrance to the Dock before large iron gates
in a dead wall."

These gates were closed and locked. The cabby, after
shooting his things off the roof of his machine into young
Powell's arms, drove away leaving him alone with his sea-chest,
a sail cloth bag and a few parcels on the pavement about his feet.
It was a dark, narrow thoroughfare he told us. A mean row of
houses on the other side looked empty: there wasn't the smallest
gleam of light in them. The white-hot glare of a gin-palace
a good way off made the intervening piece of the street pitch
black. Some human shapes appearing mysteriously, as if they had
sprung up from the dark ground, shunned the edge of the faint
light thrown down by the gateway lamps. These figures were wary
in their movements and perfectly silent of foot, like beasts
of prey slinking about a camp fire. Powell gathered up his

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belongings and hovered over them like a hen over her brood. A
gruffely insinuating voice said:

"Let's carry your things in, Capt'in! I've got my
pal 'ere."

He was a tall, bony, grey-haired ruffian with a bull-
dog jaw, in a torn cotton shirt and moleskin trousers. The
shadow of his hobnailed boots was enormous and coffinlike. His
pal, who didn't come up much higher than his elbow, stepping
forward exhibited a pale face with a long drooping nose and no
chin to speak of. He seemed to have just scrambled out of a
dust-bin in a tam-o'shanter cap and a tattered soldier's coat
much too big for him. He looked like a horrible dirty invalid in a ragged dressing gown. The coat
flapped open in front and the rest of his apparel consisted of
one brace which crossed his naked, bony chest, and a
pair of trousers. He blinked rapidly as if dazzled by the light, while his patron, the old bandit, glowered at him from
under his beetling brow.

"Say the word Capt' in. The bobby'll let us in all right.
'E knows both of us."

"I didn't answer him," continued Mr. Powell. "I was
listening to footsteps on the other side of the gate, echoing
between the walls of the warehouses as if in an uninhabited town
of very high buildings dark from basement to roof. You could
never have guessed that within a stone's throw there was an
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lamps showing up a bit of brick work here and there, appeared in
the blackness like penny dips in a range of cellars - and the
solitary footsteps came on, a tramp, tramp. A dock policeman strode
into the light on the other side of the gate, very broad-chested
and stern.

"Hello! What's up here?"

"He was really surprised, but after some palaver he let
me in together with the two loafers carrying my luggage. He
grumbled at them however and slammed the gate violently with a
loud slang. I was startled to discover how many night prowlers
had collected in the darkness of the street in such a short time
and without my being aware of it. Directly we were through they
came surging against the closed gate, silent, like a rush of stinging
ugly spectres. But suddenly, up the street somewhere, perhaps
near that public-house, a row started as if Bedlam had broken
loose: shouts, yells, an awful, shrill shriek, and at that noise
all these heads vanished from behind the bars.

"Look at this," marvelled the constable. "It's a
wonder to me they didn't make off with your things while you were
waiting."

"I would have taken good care of that," I said defiantly,
But the Constable wasn't impressed.

"Much you would have done. The bag going off round one
dark corner, the chest round another. Would you have run two
ways at once? And anyhow you'd have been tripped up and jumped
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most extraordinary chance that there wasn't one of them regular boys about to-night, in the High Street, to twig your loaded cab go by. Ted here is honest... You are on the honest lay, Ted, ain't you?'

"Always was, Officer," said the big ruffian with great feeling. The other frail creature seemed dumb and only hopped about with the edge of its soldier coat touching the ground.

"Oh yes, I dare say," said the constable. "Now then, forward, march ... He's that because he ain't game for the other thing,' he confided to me. "He hasn't the nerve for it. However, I ain't going to lose sight of them two till they go out through the gate. That little chap's a devil. He's up to anything, only he hasn't got the muscle. Well! Well! You've had a chance to get in, whole, and with all your things."

"I was incredulous a little. It seemed impossible that after getting ready with so much hurry and inconvenience I should have lost my chance of a start in life from such a cause. I asked:

"Does that sort of thing happen often so near the dock gates?"

"Often - No! Of course not often. But it ain't often either that a man comes along with a cab-load of things to join a ship at this time of night. I've been in the dock police thirteen years and haven't seen it done once."

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"Meantime we followed my sea-chest which was being
carried down a sort of deep narrow lane, separating two high ware-
houses, between honest Ted and his little devil of a pal who
had to keep up a trot to the other's stride. The skirt of his
soldier's coat floating behind him nearly swept the ground so
that he seemed to be running on castors. At the corner of the
gloomy passage a rigged jib boom with a dolphin striker ending
in an arrow-head stuck out of the night close to a cast iron
lamp-post. It was the quay side. They set down their load in
the light and honest Ted asked hoarsely:

"Where's your ship, guv'nor?"

"I didn't know. The constable was interested at my
ignorance.

"Don't know where your ship is?" he asked with
curiosity. "And you the second officer? Haven't you been working
on board of her?"

"I couldn't explain that the only work connected with
my appointment was the work of chance. I told him briefly that
I didn't know her at all. At this he remarked:

"So I see. Here she is, right before you. That's her."

"At once the head-gear in the gas light inspired me
with interest and respect; the spars were big, the chains and
ropes stout and the whole thing looked powerful and trustworthy.
Barely touched by the light her bows rose faintly alongside the
narrow strip of the quay; the rest of her was a black smudge
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We walked in a body a few steps on a greasy pavement between her
side and the towering wall of a warehouse and I hit my shins
cruelly against the end of the gangway. The constable hailed her
quietly in a bass undertone 'Ferndale there!' A feeble and dismal
sound something in the nature of a bad-weary groan answered from
behind the bulwarks.

"I distinguished vaguely an irregular round knob, of
wood, perhaps, resting on the rail, just above where I stood.
It did not move in the least; but as another broken down groan
like a still fainter echo of the first dismal sound proceeded from
it I concluded it must be the head of the shipkeeper. The stalwart
constable jeered in a mock-official manner.

"Second officer coming to join. Move yourself a bit."

"The truth of the statement touched me in the pit of
the stomach (you know that's the spot where emotion gets home on
a man) for it was borne upon me that really and truly I was
nothing but a second officer of a ship just like any other
second officer, to that constable. I was moved by this solid
evidence of my new dignity. Only his tone offended me. Neverthe-
less I gave him the tip he was looking for. Thereupon he lost
all interest in me, humorous or otherwise, and walked away
driving sternly before him the honest Ted, who went off grumbling
to himself like a hungry ogre, and his horrible dumb little pal
in the soldier's coat, who, from first to last, never emitted the
slightest sound.

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"It was very dark on the quarter deck of the *Ferndale* between the deep bulwarks overshadowed by the break of the poop and frowned upon by the front of the warehouse. I plumped down on to my chest near the after hatch as if my legs had been jerked from under me. I felt suddenly very tired and languid. The shipkeeper, whom I could hardly make out hung over the capstan in a fit of weak pitiful coughing. He gasped out very low 'Oh! dear! Oh! dear!' and struggled for breath so long that I got up alarmed and irresolute.

"I've been took like this since last Christmas twelve-month. It ain't nothing."

"He seemed a hundred years old at least. I never saw him properly because he was gone ashore and out of sight when I came on deck in the morning; but he gave me the notion of the feeblest creature that ever breathed. His voice was thin like the strained buzzing of a mosquito. As it would have been cruel to demand assistance from such a shadowy wreck I went to work myself, dragging my chest along a pitch-black passage under the poop deck, while he sighed and moaned around me as if my exertions were more than his weakness could stand. At last as I banged pretty heavily against the bulkheads he warned me in his faint breathless wheeze to be more careful.

"What's the matter?" I asked rather roughly not relishing to be admonished by this forlorn broken-down ghost, of a shipkeeper.

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"Nothing! Nothing, sir," he protested so hastily that he lost his poor breath again and I felt sorry for him. 'Only the captain and his missus are sleeping on board. She's a lady that mustn't be disturbed. They came about half past eight, and we had a permit to have lights in the cabin till ten tonight."

"This struck me as a considerable piece of news. I had never been in a ship where the captain had his wife with him. I'd heard fellows say that captains' wives could work a lot of mischief on board ship if they happened to take a dislike to anyone; especially the new wives if young and pretty. The old and experienced wives on the other hand fancied they knew more about the ship than the skipper himself and had an eye like a hawk's for what went on. They were like an extra chief mate of a particularly sharp and unfeeling sort who made his report in the evening. The best of them were a nuisance. In the general opinion a skipper with his wife on board was more difficult to please; but whether to show off his authority before an admiring female or from loving anxiety for her safety or simply from irritation at her presence - nobody I ever heard on the subject could tell for certain."

"After I had bundled in my things somehow I struck a match and had a dazzling glimpse of my berth; then I pitched the roll of my bedding into the bunk but took no trouble to spread it out. I wasn't sleepy now, neither was I tired. And

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the thought that I was done with the earth for many many months
to come made me feel very quiet and self-contained as it were.
Sailors will understand what I mean."

Marlow nodded. "It is a strictly professional
feeling," he commented, ~~to~~. "But other professions or
trades know nothing of it. It is only this calling whose
primary appeal lies in the suggestion of restless adventure
which holds out that deep sensation to those who embrace it.
It is difficult to define, I admit."

"I should call it the peace of the sea," said Mr. Charles Powell in an earnest tone but looking at us as though he expected to be met by a laugh of derision and were half prepared to salve his reputation for common sense by joining in it. But neither of us laughed at Mr. Charles Powell in whose start in life we had been called to take a part. He was lucky in his audience.

"A very good name," said Marlow looking at him approvingly. "A sailor finds a deep feeling of security in the exercise of his calling. The exacting life of the sea has this advantage over the life of the earth that its claims are simple and cannot be evaded."

"Gospel truth," assented Mr. Powell. "No! they
cannot be evaded."

That an excellent understanding should have established
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remarkable enough. For they were exactly dissimilar: one
individuality projecting itself in length and the other in
breadth, which is already a sufficient ground for irreconcilable
difference. Marlow who was lanky, loose, quietly composed
in varied shades of brown robbed of every vestige of gloss,
had a narrow, veiled glance, the neutral bearing and the
secret irritability which go together with a predisposition
to congestion of the liver. The other, compact, broad and
sturdy of limb, seemed extremely full of sound organs functioning
vigorously all the time in order to keep up the brilliance of
his colouring, the tight curl of his coal-black hair and the
lustre of his eyes, which asserted themselves roundly in an open,
wind manly face. Between two such organisms one would not have
expected to find the slightest temperamental accord. But
I have observed that profane men living in ships like the
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profound resemblance. This must be because the service of
the sea and the service of a temple are both detached from
the vanities and errors of a world which follows no severe
rule. The men of the sea understand each other very well in
their view of earthly things, for simplicity is a good
counsellor and isolation not a bad educator. A turn of
mind composed of innocence and scepticism is common to them
all, with the addition of an unexpected insight into motives,
as of disinterested lookers-on at a game. Mr. Powell took me
aside to say,

"I like the things he says."

"You understand each other pretty well," I observed.

"I know his sort," said Powell, going to the window
to look at his cutter still riding to the flood. "He's the
sort that's always chasing some notion or other round and
round his head just for the fun of the thing."

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"Keeps them in good condition," I said.

"Lively enough I daresay," he admitted.

"Would you like better a man who let his notions lie curled up?"

"That I wouldn't," answered our very new acquaintance. Clearly he was not difficult to get on with. "I like him, very well," he continued, "though it isn't easy to make him out. He seems to be up to a thing or two. What's he doing?"

I informed him that our friend Marlow, had retired from the sea in a sort of half-hearted fashion some years ago.

Mr. Powell's comment was: "Fancied had enough of it?"

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Marlow's long sojourn amongst us. From year to year he dwelt
on land as a bird rests on the branch of a tree, so tense
with the power of brusque flight into its true element that
it is incomprehensible why it should sit still minute after
minute. The sea is the sailor's true element, and Marlow,
lingering on shore, was to me an object of incredulous commis-
eration like a bird, which, secretly, should have lost its
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## CHAPTER II.

### THE FYNES AND THE GIRL-FRIEND.

We were on our feet in the room by then, and Marlow,
brown and deliberate, approached the window where Mrs. Powell
and I had retired.

"What was the name of your chance again?" he asked.

Mr. Powell stared for a moment.

"Oh! The Ferndale. A Liverpool ship. Composite
built."

"Ferndale," repeated Marlow thoughtfully. "Ferndale."

"Know her?"

"Our friend," I said, "knows something of every
ship. He seems to have gone about the seas prying into
things considerably."

Marlow smiled.

"I've seen her, at least once."

"The finest sea-boat ever launched," declared Mr.
Powell sturdily. "Without exception."

"She looked a stout, comfortable ship," assented
Marlow. "Uncommonly comfortable. Not very fast tho'."

"She was fast enough for any reasonable man - when
I was in her," growled Mr. Powell with his back to us.

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"Any ship is that - for a reasonable man,"
generalised Marlow in a conciliatory tone. "A sailor isn't
a globe-trotter."

"No," muttered Mr. Powell.

"Time's nothing to him," advanced Marlow.

"I don't suppose it's much," said Mr. Powell.

"All the same a quick passage is a feather in a man's cap."

"True. But that ornament is for the use of the
master only. And by the bye what was his name?"

"The master of the _Ferndale_? Anthony. Captain
Anthony."

"Just so. Quite right," approved Marlow thoughtfully. Our new acquaintance looked over his shoulder.

"What do you mean? Why is it more right than if
it had been Smith?"

"He has known him probably," I explained. "Marlow
here appears to know something of every soul that ever went
afloat in a sailor's body."

Mr. Powell seemed wonderfully amenable to verbal
suggestions for looking again out of the window, he
muttered:

"He was a good soul."

This clearly referred to Captain Anthony of the
_Ferndale_. Marlow addressed his protest to me.

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"I did not know him. I really didn't. He was a good soul. That's nothing very much out of the way - is it? And I didn't even know that much of him. All I knew of him was an accident called Fyne.

At this Mr. Powell who evidently could be rebellious too turned his back squarely on the window.

"What on earth do you mean?" he asked. "An accident - called Fyne," he repeated separating the words with *emphasis*.

Marlow was not disconcerted.

"I don't mean accident in the sense of a mishap. Not in the least. Fyne was a good little man in the Civil Service. By accident I mean that which happens blindly and without intelligent design. That's generally the way a brother-in-law happens into a man's life."

Marlow's tone being apologetic and our new acquaintance having again turned to the window I took it upon myself to say:

"You are justified. There is very little intelligent design in the majority of marriages; but they are none the worse for that. Intelligence leads people astray as much as passion sometimes. I know you are not a cynic."

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Marlow smiled his retrospective smile which was
kind as though he bore no grudge against people he used
to know.

"Little Fyne's marriage was quite successful. There was no design at all, in it. Fyne you must know was an enthusiastic pedestrian. He spent his holidays tramping all over our native land. His tastes were simple. He put infinite conviction and perseverance into his holidays. At the proper season you would meet in the fields, Fyne, a serious-faced, broad-chested, little man, with a shabby knap-sack on his back, making for some church steeple. He had a horror of roads. He wrote once a little book called the Tramp's itinerary and was recognised as an authority on the footpaths of England. So one year, in his favourite over-the-fields, back-way fashion he got into a pretty Surrey village where he met Miss Anthony. Pure accident, you see. They came to an understanding, across some stile, most likely. Little Fyne held very solemn views as to the destiny of women on this earth, the nature of our sublunary love, the obligations of this transient life and so on. He probably disclosed them to his future wife. Miss Anthony's views of life were very decided too but in a different way. I don't know the story of their wooing: I imagine it was carried on clandestinely and, I am certain, with portentous gravity. At the back of copses, behind

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hedges ...

"Why was it carried on clandestinely?" I inquired.

"Because of the lady's father; a savage sentimentalist who had his own decided views of his paternal prerogatives. He was a terror, but the only evidence of imaginative faculty about Fyne was his pride in his wife's parentage. It stimulated his ingenuity too. Difficult - is it not? - to introduce one's wife's maiden name into general conversation. But my simple Fyne made use of Captain Anthony for that purpose, or else I would never even have heard of the man. "My wife's sailor-brother" was the phrase. He trotted out the sailor-brother in a pretty wide range of subjects: Indian and colonial affairs, matters of trade, talk of travels, of sea-side holidays and so on. Once I remember "My wife's sailor-brother Captain Anthony" being produced in connection with nothing less recondite than a sunset. And little Fyne never failed to add: "The son of Carleon Anthony, the poet - you know." He used to lower his voice for that statement, and people were impressed or pretended to be."

The late Carleon Anthony was a poet of a past age. He had sang in his time of the domestic and social amenities of civilisation with a most felicitous versification, his object being in his own words "to glorify the result of six thousand year's evolution towards the refinement of thought

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and sentiment." Why he fixed the term at six thousand years
I don't know. His poems read like sentimental novels told
in verse of a really superior quality. You felt as if you
were being taken out for a delightful country drive by a
charming lady in a pony carriage. But in his domestic life
that same Carleon Anthony showed traces of the primitive
cave-dweller's temperament. He was a massive, implacable man
with a handsome face, arbitrary and exacting with his
dependants, but he was marvellously suave in his manner
to admiring strangers. These contrasted displays must have
been particularly exasperating to his long-suffering family.
After his second wife's death his boy, whom he persisted by
a mere whim in educating at home, ran away in conventional
style; and, as if disgusted with the amenities of civilisation,
threw himself, figuratively speaking, into the sea. The
daughter (the elder of the two children) either from com-
passion or because women are naturally more enduring, remained
in bondage to the poet for several years, till she too seized
a chance of escape by throwing herself into the arms, the
muscular arms, of the pedestrian Fyne. This was either
great luck or great sagacity. A civil servant is, I should
imagine, the last human being in the world to preserve
those traits of the cave-dweller from which she was fleeing.
Her father would never consent to see her after the marriage.
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unless as a perverse sort of refinement. There were also
~~Carleon Anthony's~~
doubts as to his complete sanity for some considerable time
before he died.

Most of the above I elicited from Marlow, for all
I knew of Carleon Anthony was his unexciting but fascinating
verse. Marlow assured me that the Fyne marriage was perfectly
successful and even happy, in an earnest, unplayful fashion,
being blessed besides by three healthy, ~~active~~ small self-reliant
children, all girls. They were all pedestrians too. Even
the youngest would wander away for miles if not restrained.
Mrs. Fyne had a ruddy out-of-doors complexion and wore
blouses with a starched front like a man's shirt, a stand-up
collar and a long necktie. Marlow had made their acquaintance
one summer in the country, where they were accustomed to
take a cottage for the holidays.

At this point we were interrupted by Mr. Powell
who declared that he must leave us. The tide was on the
turn, he announced coming away from the window abruptly. He
wanted to be on board his cutter before she swung and of
course he would sleep on board. Never slept away from the
cutter while on a cruise. He was gone in a moment, un-
ceremoniously, but giving us no offence and leaving behind
an impression as though we had known him for a long time.
The ingenuous way he had told us of his start in life had
something to do with putting him on that footing with us.

I had no idea he was thought to seeing him again. Marlow expressed a confident hope of coming across him before long.

"He cruises about the mouth of the river all the summer. He will be easy to find any weekend," he remarked ringing the bell so that we might settle up with the waiter.

Later on I asked Marlow why he wished to cultivate this chance acquaintance. He confessed apologetically that it was the commonest sort of curiosity. I flatter myself that I understand all sorts of curiosity. Curiosity about daily facts, about daily things, about daily men. It is the most respectable faculty of the human mind - in fact I cannot conceive the uses of an incurious mind. It would be like a chamber perpetually locked up. But in this particular case Mr. Powell seemed to have given us already a complete insight into his personality such as it was; a personality capable of perception and with a feeling for the vagaries of fate, but essentially simple in itself.

Marlow agreed with me so far. He explained however that his curiosity was not excited by Mr. Powell exclusively. It originated a good way further back in the fact of his accidental acquaintance with the Fynes, in the country. This chance meeting with a man who had sailed with Captain Anthony had revived it. He had received it to some purpose,

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to such purpose that to me too was given the knowledge of its
origin and of its nature. It was given to me in several
stages, at intervals which are not marked here. On this first
occasion I remarked to Marlow with some surprise:

"But, if I remember rightly you said you didn't
know Captain Anthony."

"No, I never set my eyes on the man. It's years
ago now, but I seem to hear solemn little Fyne's deep voice
announcing the approaching visit of his wife's brother "the
son of the poet, you know." He had just arrived in London
from a long voyage, and, directly his occupations permitted,
was coming down to stay with his relatives for a few weeks.
No doubt we two should find many things to talk about by
ourselves in reference to our common calling, added little
Fyne portentously, in his grave undertones, as if the Mercantile
Marine were a secret society.

"You must understand that I cultivated the Fynes
only in the country, in their holiday time. This was the
third year. Of their existence in town I knew no more than
may be inferred from analogy. I played chess with Fyne in
the late afternoon, and sometimes came over to the cottage
early enough to have tea with the whole family at a big
round table. They sat about it, an unsmiling, sunburnt
company of very few words indeed. Even the children were
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Fyne muttered sometimes deep down in his chest some insignificant remark. Mrs. Fyne smiled mechanically (she had splendid teeth) while distributing tea and bread and butter. A something which was not coldness, nor yet indifference, but a sort of peculiar self-possession gave her the appearance of a very trustworthy, very capable and excellent governess; as if Fyne were a widower and the children not her own but only entrusted to her calm, efficient, unemotional care. One expected her to address Fyne as Mr. When she called him John it surprised one like a shocking familiarity. The atmosphere of that holiday was - if I may put it so - brightly dull. Healthy faces, fair complexions, clear eyes, and never a frank smile in the whole lot, unless perhaps from the girl friend.

The girl-friend problem exercised me greatly.

How and where they got all these pretty creatures I can't imagine.

I had at first the wild suspicion that they were obtained to amuse Fyne. But I soon discovered that he could hardly tell one from the other, though obviously their presence met with his solemn approval. There were some who came for Mrs. Fyne. They treated her with admiring deference. She answered to some need of Mrs. They sat at her feet. They were like disciples. It was very curious. Of Fyne they took but scanty notice. As to myself I was made to feel that I did not exist.

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gleam of something inward which resembled sly satisfaction.
Of the divine frivolity of laughter he was only capable ⌜
over a chess-board. Certain positions of the game struck
him as humourous, which nothing else on earth could do.

"He used to beat you," I asserted with confidence.

"Yes. He used to beat me," Marlow owned up
hastily. So he and Fyne played two games after tea. The
children romped together outside, gravely, unplayfully,
as one would expect from Fyne's children, and Mrs. Fyne
would be gone to the bottom of the garden with the girl-
friend of the week. She always walked off directly after
tea with her arm round the girl-friend's waist. Marlow said
that there was only one girl-friend with whom he had con-
versed at all. It had happened quite unexpectedly, long
after he had given up all hope of getting into touch with
these severe girl friends.

One day he saw a woman walking about on the edge
of a high quarry, which rose a sheer hundred feet at least
from a road winding up the hill out of which it had been
excavated. He shouted warningly to her from below where
he happened to be passing. She was really in considerable
danger. At the sound of his voice she started back and
retreated out of his sight amongst some young scotch firs
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"I sat down on a bank of grass," Marlow went on.
"She had given me a turn. The hem of her skirt seemed to
float over that awful sheer drop, she was so close to the
edge. An absurd thing to do. A perfectly mad trick - for
no conceivable object! I was reflecting on the foolhardiness
of the average girl and remembering some other instances
of the kind, when she came into view walking down the steep
curve of a path. She had Mrs. Fyne's walking stick and was
escorted by the Fyne dog. Her dead white face struck me
with astonishment, so that I forgot to raise my hat. I just
sat and stared. The dog, a vivacious and amiable animal
which for some inscrutable reason had bestowed his friendship
on my unworthy self, rushed up the bank demonstratively and
insinuated himself under my arm.

"The girl-friend (it was one of them) went past
some way as though she had not seen me, then stopped and
called the dog to her several times; but he only nestled
closer to my side, and when I tried to push him away
developed that remarkable power of internal resistance
by which a dog makes himself practically immovable by
anything short of a kick. She looked over her shoulder and
her arched eyebrows frowned above her blanched face. It
was almost scowl. Then the expression changed. She
looked unhappy. "Come here!" she cried once more in an
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the dog hanging out his tongue with that cheerfully imbecile
expression some dogs know so well how to put on when it
suits their purpose, pretended to be deaf.

She cried from the distance desperately.

"Perhaps you will take him to the cottage then.
I can't wait."

"I won't be responsible for that dog," I protested
getting down the bank and advancing towards her. She
looked very hurt, apparently by the desertion of the dog.
"But if you let me walk with you he will follow us all
right," I suggested.

She moved on without answering me. The dog
launched himself suddenly full speed down the road receding
from us in a small cloud of dust. It vanished in the distance,
and presently we came up with him lying on the grass. He
panted in the shade of the hedge with shining eyes but
affected not to see us. We had not exchanged a word so
far. The girl by my side gave him a scornful glance in passing.

"He offered to come with me," she remarked
bitterly.

"And then abandoned you!" I sympathised. "It
looks very unchivalrous. But that's merely his want of
tact. I believe he meant to protest against your reckless
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quarry? The earth might have given way. Haven't you noticed
a smashed fir tree at the bottom? Tumbled over only the
other morning after a night's rain."

"I don't see why I shouldn't be as reckless as
I please."

I was nettled by her brusque manner of asserting
her folly, and I told her that neither did I as far as that
went, in a tone which almost suggested that she was welcome to
break her neck for all I cared. This was considerably more
than I meant, but I don't like rude girls. I had been intro-
duced to her only the day before - at the round tea-table -
and she had barely acknowledged the introduction. I had not
caught her name clearly but I had noticed her fine, arched
eyebrows which, so the physiognomists say, are a sign of
courage.

I examined her appearance quietly. Her hair was
nearly black, her eyes blue, deeply shaded by long dark
eyelashes. She had a little colour now. She looked straight
before her; the corner of her lip on my side drooped a
little; her chin was fine, somewhat pointed. I went on to
say that some regard for others should stand in the way of
one's playing with danger. I urged playfully the distress
of the poor Fynes in case of accident, if nothing else. I
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given occasion for a coroner's inquest the verdict would
have been suicide, with the implication of unhappy love.
They would never be able to understand that she had taken
the trouble to climb over two post-and-rail fences only
for the fun of being reckless. Indeed even as I talked
chaffingly I was greatly struck myself by the fact.

She retorted that once one was dead what horrid
people thought of one did not matter. It was said with
infinite contempt; but something like a suppressed quaver
in the voice made me look at her again. I perceived then
that her thick eyelashes were wet. This surprising
discovery silenced me as you may guess. She looked unhappy.
And - I don't know how to say it - well - it suited her.
The clouded brow, the pained mouth, the vague fixed glance!
A victim. And this characteristic aspect made her attractive;
an individual touch - you know.

The dog had run on ahead and now gazed at us by
the side of the Fyne's garden-gate in a tense attitude and
wagging his stumpy tail very, very slowly, with an air of
concentrated attention. The girl-friend of the Fynes bolted
violently through the aforesaid gate and into the cottage
leaving me on the road - astounded.

A couple of hours afterwards I returned to the
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Mrs. Fyne then. We had our two games and on parting I warned
Fyne that I was called to town on business and might be
away for some time. He regretted it very much. His brother-
in-law was expected next day but he didn't know whether he
was a chess-player. Captain Anthony ("the son of the poet -
you know") was of a retiring disposition, shy with strangers,
unused to society and very much devoted to his calling,
Fyne explained. All the time they had been married he could
be induced only once before to come and stay with them for
a few days. He had had a rather unhappy boyhood; and it
made him a silent man. But no doubt concluded Fyne as if
dealing portentously with a mystery, we two sailors should
find much to say to one another.

This point was never settled. I was detained in town
from week to week till it seemed hardly worth while to go
back. But as I had kept on my rooms in the farmhouse I
concluded to go down again for a few days.

It was late, deep dusk, when I got out at our
little country station. My eyes fell on the unmistakable
broad back and the muscular legs in cycling stockings of
little Fyne. He passed along the carriages rapidly towards
the rear of the train, which presently pulled out and left
him solitary at the end of the rustic platform. When he
came back to where I waited I perceived that he was much
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usual greetings. He only exclaimed Oh! on recognising
me, and stopped irresolute. When I asked him if he had
been expecting somebody by that train he didn't seem to
know. He stammered disconnectedly. I looked hard at him.
To all appearances he was perfectly sober; moreover to
suspect Fyne of a lapse from the proprieties high or low,
great or small, was absurd. He was also a too serious
and deliberate person to go mad suddenly. But as he seemed
too to have forgotten that he had a tongue in his head I
concluded I would leave him to his mystery. To my surprise
he followed me out of the station and kept by my side, though
I did not encourage him. I did not however repulse his
attempts at conversation. He was no longer expecting me,
he said. He had given me up. The weather had been un-
formly fine - and so on. I gathered also that the son of
the poet had curtailed his stay somewhat and gone back to
his ship the day before.

That information touched me but little. Believing
in heredity in moderation I knew well how the sea-life
fashions a man outwardly and stamps his soul with the mark
of a certain prosaic fitness - because a sailor is not an
adventurer. I expressed no regret at missing Captain
Anthony and we proceeded in silence till on approaching
the holiday cottage Fyne suddenly and unexpectedly broke
it by the hurried declaration that he would go on with me

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a little further.

"Go with you to your door," he mumbled and started
forward to the little gate where the shadowy figure of Mrs.
Fyne hovered, clearly on the lookout for him. She was alone.
The children must have been already in bed and I saw no
attending girl-friend shadow near her vague but unmistakable
form, half-lost in the obscurity of the little garden.

I heard Fyne exclaim "Nothing" and then Mrs.
Fyne's well-trained, governess-voice uttered the words,
"It's what I have said," with a sort of incisive equanimity.
By that time I had passed on raising my hat. Almost at
once Fyne caught me up and slowed down to my strolling gait
which must have been infinitely irksome to his high pedestrian
faculties. I am sure that all his muscular person must have
suffered from awful physical boredom; but he did not attempt
to charm it away by conversation. He preserved a portentous
and dreary silence. And I was bored too. Suddenly I per-
ceived the menace of even worse boredom. Yes! He was so
silent because he had something to tell me.

I became extremely frightened. But man, reckless
animal, is so made that in him curiosity, the paltriest
curiosity, will overcome all terrors, every disgust, and
even despair itself. To my laconic invitation to come in
for a drink he answered by a deep, gravely accented: "Thanks
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seen in the lamplight gave me no clue to the character of
the impending communication; as indeed from the nature of
things it couldn't do, its normal expression being already
that of the utmost possible seriousness. It was perfect and
immovable; and for a certainty if he had something excruciating-
ingly funny to tell me it would be all the same.

He gazed at me earnestly and delivered himself
of some weighty remarks on Mrs. Fyne's desire to befriend,
counsel, and guide young girls of all sorts on the path of
life. It was a voluntary mission. He approved his wife's
action and also her views and principles in general.

All this with a solemn countenance and in deep
measured tones. Yet somehow I got an irresistible con-
viction that he was exasperated by something in particular.
In the unworthy hope of being amused by the misfortunes of
a fellow- creature I asked him point blank what was wrong now.

What was wrong was that a girl friend was missing.
She had been missing precisely since six o'clock that morning.
The woman who did the work of the cottage saw her going out
at that hour, for a walk. The pedestrian Fyne's ideas of
a walk were extensive; but the girl did not turn up for
lunch, nor yet for tea, nor yet for dinner. She had not
turned up by footpath, road or rail. He had been reluctant
to make inquiries. It would have set all the village talking.
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the shades of the night and the silence of slumber had stolen
gradually over the wide and peaceful rural landscape commanded
by the cottage.

After telling me that much Fyne sat helpless in an unconclusive agony. Going to bed was out of the question - neither could any steps be taken just then. What to do with himself he did not know!

I asked him if this was the same young lady I saw a
day or two before I went to town? He really could not remember.
Was she a girl with dark hair and blue eyes? I asked further.
He really couldn't tell what colour her eyes were. He was
very unobservant except as to the peculiarities of footpaths,
on which he was an authority.

I thought with amazement and some admiration that
Mrs. Fyne's young disciples were to her husband's gravity
no more than evanescent shadows. However with but little
hesitation Fyne ventured to affirm that - yes, her hair was
of some dark shade.

"We had a good deal to do with that girl first
and last," he explained solemnly; then getting up as if moved
by a spring he snatched his cap off the table. "She may be
back in the cottage," he cried in his bass voice. I followed
him out on the road.

It was one of those dewy, clear, starry nights,
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evidence of the awful loneliness, of the hopeless obscure insignificance of our globe lost in the splendid revelation of a glittering, soulless universe. I hate such skies. Daylight is friendly to man toiling under a sun which warms his heart; and cloudy soft nights are more kindly to our littleness.

I nearly ran back again to my lighted parlour; Fyne fussing in a knicker-bocker suit before the hosts of heaven, on a shadowy earth, about a transient phantom-like girl, seemed too ridiculous to associate with. On the other hand there was something fascinating in the very absurdity. He cut along in his best pedestrian style and I found myself let in for a spell of severe exercise at eleven o'clock at night.

In the distance over the fields and trees smudging and blotching the vast obscurity, one lighted window of the cottage with the blind up was like a bright beacon kept alight to guide the lost wanderer. Inside, at the table bearing the lamp, we saw Mrs. Fyne sitting with folded arms and not a hair of her head out of place. She looked exactly like a governess who had put the children to bed; and her manner to me was just the neutral manner of a governess. To her husband too for that matter.

Fyne told her that I was fully informed. Not a muscle of her ruddy smooth handsome face moved. She had schooled herself into that sort of thing. Having seen two successive wives of the delicate poet chivied and worried into

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their graves, she had adopted that cool, detached manner to
meet her gifted father's outbreaks of selfish temper. It had
now become a second nature. I suppose she was always like
that; even in the very hour of elopement with Fyne. That
transaction when one remembered it in her presence acquired a
quaintly marvellous aspect to one's imagination. But somehow
her self-possession matched very well little Fyne's invariable
solemnity.

I was rather sorry for him. Wasn't he worried!
The agony of solemnity! At the same time I was amused. I
didn't take a gloomy view of that "vanishing girl" trick.
Somehow I couldn't. But I said nothing. None of us said
anything. We sat about that big round table as if assembled
for a conference and looked at each other in a sort of fatuous
consternation. I would have ended by laughing outright if
I had not been saved from that impropriety by poor Fyne
becoming preposterous.

He began with grave anguish to talk of going to
the police in the morning, of printing descriptive bills,
of setting people to drag the ponds for miles around. It was
extremely gruesome. I murmured something about communicating
with the young lady's relatives. It seemed to me a very
natural suggestion; but Fyne and his wife exchanged such a
significant glance that I felt as though I had made a tactless
remark.

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But I really wanted to help poor Fyne; and as I
could see that, manlike, he suffered from the present in-
ability to act, the passive waiting, I said; "Nothing of
this can be done till tomorrow. But as you have given me an
insight into the nature of your thought I can tell you what
may be done at once. We may go and look at the bottom of
the old quarry which is on the level of the road, about a
mile from here."

The two made big eyes at this, and then I told them
of my meeting with the girl. You may be surprised but I
assure you I had not perceived this aspect of it till that
very moment. It was like a startling revelation; the past
throwing a sinister light on the future. Fyne opened his
mouth gravely and as gravely shut it. Nothing more. Mrs.
Fyne said "You had better go," with an air as if her self-
possession had been pricked with a pin in some secret place.

And I - you know how stupid I can be at times -
I perceived with dismay for the first time that by pandering
to Fyne's morbid fancies I had let myself in for some more
severe exercise. And wasn't I sorry I spoke! You know how
I hate walking - at least on solid, rural earth; for I
can walk a ship's deck a whole foggy night through, if
necessary, and think little of it. There is some satisfaction
too in playing the vagabond in the streets of a big town
till the sky pales above the ridges of the roofs. I have

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done that repeatedly for pleasure - of a sort. But to tramp
the slumbering country side in the dark is for me a wearisome
nightmare of exertion.

With perfect detachment Mrs. Fyne watched me go
out after her husband. That woman was flint.

The fresh night had a smell of soil, of turned up
sods like a grave - an association particularly odious to a
sailor by its idea of confinement and narrowness; yes,
even when he has given up the hope of being buried at sea;
about the last hope a sailor gives up consciously after he
has been, as it does happen, decoyed by some chance into the
toils of the land. A strong grave-like sniff. The ditch
by the side of the road must have been freshly dug in front
of the cottage.

Once clear of the garden Fyne gathered way like a
racing cutter. What was a mile to him - or twenty miles? You
think he might have gone shrinkingly on such an errand. But
not a bit of it. The force of pedestrian genius I suppose.
I raced by his side in a mood of profound self-derision,
and infinitely vexed with that minx. Because dead or alive
I thought of her as a minx....."

I smiled incredulously at ~~Marlow's~~ ferocity; but Marlow
pausing with a whimsically retrospective air, never flinched.

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"Yes, yes. Even dead. And now you are shocked. You see, you are such a chivalrous masculine beggar. But there is enough of the woman in my nature to free my judgment of women from glamorous reticency. And then, why should I upset myself? A woman is not necessarily either a doll or an angel to me. She is a human being, very much like myself. And I have come across too many dead souls lying so to speak at the foot of high unscaleable places for a merely possible dead body at the bottom of a quarry to strike my sincerity dumb."

The cliff-like face of the quarry looked forbiddingly impressive. I will admit that Fyne and I hung back for a moment before we made a plunge off the road into the bushes growing in a broad space at the foot of the towering limestone wall. These bushes were heavy with dew. There were also concealed mudholes in there. We crept and tumbled and felt about with our hands along the ground. We got wet, scratched, and plastered with mire all over our nether garments. Fyne fell suddenly into a strange cavity - probably a disused lime-kiln. His voice uplifted in grave distress sounded more than usually rich, solemn and profound. This was the comic relief of an absurdly dramatic situation. While hauling him out I permitted myself to laugh aloud at last. Fyne, of course, didn't.

I need not tell you that we found nothing after a most conscientious search. Fyne even pushed his way into a

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decaying shed half buried in dew-soaked vegetation. He struck matches, several of them too, as if to make absolutely sure that the vanished girl-friend of his wife was not hiding there. The short flares illuminated his grave, immovable countenance while I let myself go completely and laughed in peals.

I asked him if he really and truly supposed that any sane girl would go and hide in that shed; and if so why?

Disdainful of my mirth he merely muttered his basso-profondo thankfulness that we had not found her anywhere about there. Having grown extremely sensitive (an effect of irritation) to the tonalities, I may say, of this affair, I felt that it was only an imperfect, reserved, thankfulness, with one eye still on the possibilities of the several ponds in the neighbourhood. And I remember I snorted, I positively snorted, at that poor Fyne.

What really jarred upon me was the rate of his walking. Differences in politics, in ethics and even in aesthetics need not arouse angry antagonism. One's opinion may change; one's tastes may alter - in fact they do. One's very conception of virtue is at the mercy of some felicitous temptation which may be sprung on one any day. All these things are perpetually on the swing. But a temperamental difference, temperament being immutable, is

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the parent of hate. That's why religious quarrels are the fiercest of all. My temperament, in matters pertaining to solid land, is the temperament of leisurely movement, of deliberate gait. And there was that little Fyne pounding along the road in a most offensive manner; a man wedded to thick-soled, laced boots; whereas my temperament demands thin shoes of the lightest kind. Of course there could never have been question of friendship between us; but under the provocation of having to keep up with his pace I began to dislike him actively. I begged sarcastically to know whether he could tell me if we were engaged in a farce or in a tragedy. I wanted to regulate my feelings which, I told him, were in an unbecoming state of confusion.

But Fyne was as impervious to sarcasm as a turtle. He tramped on, and all he did was to ejaculate twice out of his deep chest, vaguely, doubtfully.

"I am afraid .... I am afraid! ...."

This was tragic. The thump of his boots was the only sound in a shadowy world. I kept by his side with a comparatively ghostly, silent tread. By a strange illusion the road appeared to run up against a lot of low stars at no very great distance, but as we advanced new stretches of whitey-brown ribbon seemed to come up from under the black ground. I observed, as we went, by the lamp in my parlour in

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the farmhouse still burning. But I did not leave Fyne to
run in and put it out. The impetus of his pedestrian
excellence carried me past in his wake before I could make
up my mind.

"Tell me Fyne," I cried, "you don't think the girl
was mad - do you?"

He answered nothing. Soon the lighted beacon-like
window of the cottage came into view. Then Fyne uttered
a solemn: "Certainly not" with profound assurance. But
immediately after he added a "Very highly strung young person
indeed," which unsettled me again. Was it a tragedy?

"Nobody ever got up at six o'clock in the morning to
commit suicide," I declared crustily. "It's unheard of!
This is a farce."

As a matter of fact it was neither farce nor
tragedy.

Coming up to the cottage we had a view of Mrs. Fyne
inside still sitting in the strong light at the round table
with folded arms. It looked as though she had not moved her
very head by as much as an inch since we went away. She
was amazing in a sort of unsubtle way; crudely amazing -
I thought. Why crudely? I don't know. Perhaps because
I saw her then in a crude light. I mean this materially -
in the light of an unshaded lamp. Our mental conclusions

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depend so much on momentary physical sensations - don't
they? If the lamp had been shaded I should perhaps have
gone home after expressing politely my concern at the
Fynes' unpleasant predicament.

Losing a girl-friend in that manner is unpleasant.
It is also mysterious. So mysterious that a certain mystery
attaches to the people to whom such a thing does happen.
Moreover I had never really understood the Fynes; he with
his solemnity which extended to the very eating of bread and
butter; she with that air of detachment and resolution in
breasting the common-place current of their unexciting life,
in which the cutting of bread and butter appeared to me, by
a long way, the most dangerous episode. Sometimes I amused
myself by supposing that to their minds this world of ours
must be wearing a perfectly overwhelming aspect, and that
their heads contained respectively awfully serious and
extremely desperate thoughts - and trying to imagine what an
exciting time they must be having of it in the inscrutable
depths of their being. This last was difficult to a
volatile person (I am sure that to the Fynes I was a volatile
person) and the amusement in itself was not very great;
but still - in the country - away from all mental stimu-
lants! .... My efforts had invested them with a sort of
amusing profundity.

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in the searching, domestic, glare of the lamp, inimical to
the play of fancy, I saw these two stripped of every
vesture it had amused me to put on them for fun. Queer
enough they were. Is there a human being that isn't that -
more or less secretly? But whatever their secret, it was
manifest to me that it was neither subtle nor profound.
They were a good, stupid, earnest couple and very much
bothered. They were that - with the usual unshaded crudity
of average people. There was nothing in them that the lamp
might not touch without the slightest risk of indiscretion.

Directly we had entered the room Fyne announced
the result by saying "Nothing" in the same tone as at the
gate on his return from the railway station. And as then
Mrs. Fyne uttered an incisive "It's what I've said,"
which might have been the veriest echo of her words in
the garden. We three looked at each other as if on the
brink of a disclosure. I don't know whether she was vexed
at my presence. It could hardly be called intrusion - could
it? Little Fyne began it. It had to go on. We stood before
her, plastered with the same mud (Fyne was a sight!), scratched
by the same brambles, conscious of the same
experience. Yes. Before her. And she looked at us with
folded arms, with an extraordinary fulness of assumed
responsibility. I addressed her, and so on and so on