Sunday, March 8.

Dear Fido,

send

I will snerf off the n.l.t. before I post this. Thank you
for nice and very kind letter, about "plans". I listened-in
last night to rather alarming, sounding news about Hitler and
French soldiers, called in from leave ... etc. I wait your
news each day, and please do not think I am letting you down,
or letting Pup down, not coming. Things change and veer so,
almost from hour to hour. I was terribly home-sick for
you both- still am, of course, - but the back-bone of it
broke somehow, with Sch. I mean the actual heimweh, and
now, I got down to pages and it does seem rather
important to finish up a job of work. I cut out people
last week, almosf altogether. I am full again next week.
I shall prob. see Bud at Film, and Silvia now belongs and
called up in a ps-a panic, as her sister was there with a
hocky-girl-champion and poor So. went to bits, so I told
her to come in here, after film. I meant to go Aud.,
but will write your mother I had intended coming and was
met at Film by people, and would come Wed. or Fri. next week.
Theo. is usually there anyhow, after film, and it means just
that sort of chocker-block conversation... and as Bud has
confided me about her, it is all rather difficult. Anyhow, I
will write to-day, to Audley.......

It is dark and cold and fog, almost
daily, with whiffs of occasional watery sun-light.

I have just sent off your N.L.T. I added after
Fido - ' stop radio alleviates fog all well
here Kat. "

I am getting quite expert and they seem to know me there now.
It is quite good fun. This is just the 25 words.

I added "all well here" in case he was concerned about Eileen,
I only just mentioned it, and then said she was better, gave
no details, not knowing what you would write or what she would.
Better left to you... anyhow, thank you, Fido, for
word-space.

I read H.Ellis, in quite a brain-storm, glad to get
Rousseau on the map, at last. I liked it, as it gave me vand.

I finish the Exile by bits... it is pure Mrs. Moore, a
missionary story, of, I imagine Buck family, anyhow, the
mother looses five children, each loss, by plague or what
not, graphically described in the best Little Women manner,
It is a relic, well done... but evidently, like Wilder, she
believs in all this, really.

I also re-read Winters Tale, re Perdita, as ps-a.

L. and L. takes a lot of reading, I usually carry it along.
Silvia was most pleased to see her name in print.

Darling Fido, I am so terribly困 between love and duty but will write you each day... bulletins...
anyhow, I guess politics is making you frisk now.

Eternal love and gratitude from

Sorry about Berg-ner. I have looked for
news but found nothing but the barest news-statements, as
Monday, March 9.
to her being better....

Dear GFido,

Thank you so much for your letter and Cole, enclosed. I find
the Cole very tiresome, I don't think " mad", just damn boring,
but maybe " mad" is also that. Its just mood and drift
but as Sch said, " she has arranged her life very well, " and she
better stick to it, not come around trying to messup other
peoples UNKs. So that is that.... thank you, all the same
for it. I have to have an old-witch, it seemed, and one might
as well know what Cole is up to, lest one get it, wed in the
MUNK - it was all rather a shock as it linked up so many
years, but better let that go...

See Hart to-morrow and will see what she feels.

I am very pleased to be getting down actually to sorting the
lump of papers.

Just had call from "nurse" and I will pop over, it seems this
afternoon, so I will have all news for you to-morrow. I expect
Lady A. wants to discuss Pup, and I will be so glad to get
the said same arranged there. I love Pup in large
surroundings, Kenwin etc. And I love her here, only she is
inclined to get mou in London and as I have to keep myself
whipped up with papers etc. not to rot in the fog, I have no
extra energy to pour into her. Then she will sulk and lie
on the bed. If she were an outside dragon, I would cuss her and
maybe, make love to her- anyhow, would have some sort of
means of dealing. But will be so glad all the same to see Pup.

Please make any arrangement that seems
fitting and suitable. I will be here and oke it all, and will
hope for the best ... I think the Pup needs a firm hand,
and I am afraid I have it not. Also, she needs people, but
what can one do? There seems nothing here, as you know better
court-circles and underworld... but it will all work out, I am
sure, oke in mind.

I went Film yesterday, it was good fun. I felt
Pyg fun, as Pyg-is very like Kex and it was all tres
Kenwin, I think it lovely, but felt it not quite so
well received as the Mozart; I may be wrong, but of course, we
really most high-brow and excellent with the dancers, off Greek
vases, most suitable for Greek because of the vase-silhouettes,
excellent and very, very charming. The joke was that I
went in late to avoid Lotte, and she pounced on me in the hall, we
very nice, and acted as if nothing had happened, just said, " I
am too busy to see anyone, my dear H.D., how well you are looking."
I just lied, said I had been Vaud and was going again, I find
that the best tactics and Sch. has given me more body for that
sort of statement.

Well, gruss and god bless you. I will write, re
Laudley, to-morrow. Ever and ever, with all love

Silvia brought the paper
for "Bryher", that is
the reason I send-
picture of
St.Ives
may redeem
it!

I have 2 more radio boxes for you. Do you want more ? I
continue the drops!
March 10. Tuesday.
E19367

Dearest Fido,

I enclose from G., just hot off the griddle. What charming
letters he does write, you should keep them all, and do a
monograph later.

I saw your mother. She was so very nice, alone in the big
boom, full of flowers. She had a bundle of corfu-lilies for me,
to take home, which touched me so very much, as it is the
Greek time-of-year for me, always in March. We spoke of Bunch,
and she seemed to feel with me, that the longer you can keep
her the better, as weather is really vile, and she had Eileen
for a few days and said, I thought, very tactfully, that she
didn't think it best for B. and Eil. to be there, at the same time,
but that she had told Eil. that the house was left for Bunch, after
a certain date. All this was most satisfactory and kind. I did a
little mother-business, how much I would love the dear-little-one,
but I felt she was too BIG for my flat and needed more
air and excersise than I could give her. Mama then said Bun.
had more room there and run up and down stairs- so it was
really most amicable and satisfactory, and we talked of
her "birthday dinner" and I am altogether most
soothed in the UNK. I think she was, too. I will go
in another day, soon.

At the same time, please remember that I am here and a S.O.S. at any time, will find room ready and everything absolutely ship-shape for Bun, on for you. That is what, you remember, the flat was originally for. It is good as a pent-house on the way to Audley.

Please do not get too bonely. I feel very ambi, ALL the time, but maybe it is good, a I knit at pages, and it gives me a sort of satisfaction in the UNK, to reduce the heap... prob. neurosis left over from darning-stockings in the old days. Sort of Danae seive.... Sch. very kind and always sustaining. The UNK great problem is the pup and stealing of same, in which you double for PUP. As I "stole" you, I had very difficult layer of guilt, yet at the same time, snarled at injustice that made me darn stocking for BOYS, and got Gretchen in on that, prob. first layer, as I both wanted to steal her and to BE her. You, as a GIRL (forgive that) alone, (John hardly entered that vibration) were a sort of ideal theft object- and so on. All very fascinating. The boy-friends hadly come in, ever. Anyhow, Sch. is sitting and calming, and clever in a very quiet, un-ostentatious way. He has got S6. D. very much on rails, you did not enclose... a favourite UNK joke of yours, "see enclosed" and then it is not there. It has happened before.

Brook came up fine on Jim's book- I quite forgive heat all, for she simply GOT all the jokes of Jim. I gave her my 2nd copy. I shall really have to buy one myself, it gets funnier and funnier each time I think of it. I have not yet

March II. Wed.

Dearest Fido,

Enclosed came from Kex, early this morning.

Had your letter late last night, posts seem late, I suppose
it is this fog, but with all this talk on the radio and papers,
one get a little anxious. Though, I am glad I got ION done last
summer. It set a sort of standard and whatever happens, I will
just try to finish up old papers and feel that ps-a will
eventually be a help one way and another, directly or
indirectly.

Spoke to the Hart. I don't think people have ANY idea of
what ps-a is about. She was very affable about it, but kept
saying, "I am so tired. That is a I want, rest. " But I
could not tell her, if she had some ps-a, she would prb.
not take a job that would leave her so "tired" or else
would find some other mode of life ... but anyhow, I let sleeping
lion lie, just drift along with people. She say she does not
want to "offend" you by refusing, but that she sees no reason
for it, is very detached, while, in itself, is a sort of "symptom."
But since Cole, and all that, I am very wary... but keep
on very slimly, all the same.

I told her about Brook, as I felt a little alarmaed, she seemed
thoroughly shocked. Perhaps I should not have mentioned but
felt puzzled, thought perhaps Brook had been up to the same

Thursday, March 12.

Darling Fido,

I have/ your long letter about plans, I find it most
explicit and not at all muddled or confusing, as you imply.

First, lest I forget, I sent off G.P.

n.l.t.); added, at the end, 3 words as there was space, & simply
to signiture, " love Bryher, Pup, Switzerland and Hilda
London. "

It gave weight to the missive and the man

at the other end, seemed hurt that I had not used the whole ,
also he said "street" was not necessary- remember- and did not
want to count it. I have quite a bunch now at the office, and
I think they remember and have a little chat with me. Quite fun.

Pup certainly; let
her come here five days to a week. If I think it all out, I will
get people in, and have her arrange to see her friends out. I
think it can be managed. Better say five days with the chance
to prolonge it a few days, rather than a long week that gets
too much for me. Leave it a tiny bit fluid that way, but certainly
any time, especially, as I will not be going to Sch. and
prob. feel a little at sea, any how. And once in so often, one
ought, I suppose to have a jolt, also will make me whip up
work so as to finish a certain no. of pages, before then. Tell
her I will be happy, I will write her later, but write you
first, so you can change it, if you want, without a row.

Any time you want, the place
is free for you, at same arrangement,
three days or more, and

March 14. Sat.

Darling Fido,

I have a hunch, it may be quite, quite wrong that Gavin
is trying to bust up Kex and the Stetts. After all, the Stetts
represent the good- middle-class, wealthy art-circles -
not that you and I do... but I mean there is wealth there, and
a Bryn Mawr "girl" of sorts and general connection with
repeating our original combination that G. and Ch. damaged.

Europe, I don't trust that combine for one, tiny, little
minute, and I think the only decent thing for you to do,
is to dash across and do a rescue... anyhow, I think you,
owe it to yourself to see some life after that Baud-Vee
atmosphere. I will keep on eye on Ps and Lady A., and write
as per usual. Only the next thing - you mark my words, Gavin
will have Kex back at the sewer... however, maybe, that is my
Unk, only I don't like it. However ... I suppose the ps-a is
bound to go in cycles, and so can "watch and pray", I
presume, from a distance.

I repeat, I had that dose of the hornet-Vee and know what
it is like. I trust you will escepe, intact.

No special news, it is fog, all the time, and I got a back
sort of half-UNK crick in the back of the neck, after the
nose-bleed, plus phobias, that is evidently good for my
work and the ps-a but not at all pleasant. Am better now.

Nothing but fog; I presume it stands to reason that after
a time, one breaks out in neuralgia. But spiring is here,
singe loude ....

March 15. Sunday.

Dear Eido,

I expect to see Bud, on Thurs. for lunch, and will take the
book, if I can find it- it is sure to be here, however. I
had encloed from him, from Mrs. R. I presume it is to be
destoryed, haven't yet read, if anything out of the way, I
will keep it.

Bud gives me no news at all. He wrote those long letters, a
while ago, now writes like enclosed. Please destroy.

Had Brook for sherry, she is very tiresome, chewing over every
point, sadistically in Jim's book, but I suppose it is a good
test of my endurance and a sort of scourge of the past. I agree
with the slip, you sent, and told Brook to paste it in the
vol. He talks of Corrnos being so wonderful etc., while I
on my £ 3, was shelling out about Io/ weekly to C., and
Jim never gave him, at that time, a cent. G.P. was quite
different.... and Mildren flirting like madith, Cuth, and there is
no suggestion of it. I think it all a most peculiar document,
he was apparently - and is- in love, fatuously with London, and H.D.
was to his ind part of that... anyhow, the vol. is good as
an endurance test. I hate it and people who talk about it,
but I am learning it by heart, and will recite it in self
defence ... something to GO on, not like Cole, all march...

I am afraid, communistically, you will hate Acropole
et Angleterre- I had back fair copy, it looks neat and
printable, and sets the standard for me to go by. I am
sorry I had to stick to the name Madelon for myself as I
abridge/ abrievate it to Mad or Madd. I am Mrs. M. Thorpe, and
you are Eleanor Eddington. I am sorry about that, but I had
Eden at first (the name quite different and the person from
what came out in Pagany. I liked Eden but as there is
so much of the actual man now, I could not use it. I choose
Eddington as I can/ you E.E. or Edd to my Madd, a sort of
refrigerated Mutt and Jeff. If you hate it too much, you
have to skyeal. I will send the proofs, I don't think you
want the MSS. It is just us and Archie Rowe in the Angletters
having dinner and all the people and voices round us, and
that woman with the diamonds, /, to me, it is suitable to what
I am trying to shape, and that is all I can say; for me, it has
come off, and I will build down stacks of Greek MSS to this
long short-story form. It is better to bang it out in bits.
I hope L. and L. will last a bit longer. Brook was not
worried. But one/never knows, anyhow, / would stick here, that
is certain.

There are old Greek sketches done onto card-board, unpick them,
and bring them or any MSS at all, or letters or post-cards or
photographs of travel in those shelves. I am stacking here.
But no actual NEED for any, except the Greek. Those not
imperative at all...

Tues. Mar. 17.

Dear Fido,

I had your little notelast night, thank you. I don't really
know quite where Rvr. got the fittings. Tell me what you want,
and I can go to the Elect. shop on Sloane st, and give you
approx. ideas, or I will look in at Harrods. I may be able to
trace them. What is it you want, the shades and so on, or the
entire fittings, lamps etc. ? There shouldnot be too
great difficulty.

Spring clean sounds to me, very dire.

The Uh. and I talked of his Kevern trip. I think he is
nibbling, he likes the sea; why not take him out for some
fish ? By the way, just how far are you from the sea, I told
him, ten to fifteen minutes walk. Have you your own boats,
there, or it there a fishing " hamlet" or what ? He seems
very interested and nibbles ... he said, he hoped he would
see me there. But I told him I did not think I would be
going... not the UNK; I never did intend taking the long
trip for the little, confused time, for when I go I want
to slunk in for some time. However, it is V E R Y good of you,
and do, do get the Uh., complete with Melitta, there. I would
love, more than anything, to know what Ml. is like, in real
life. I bumped into her, sitting on the waiting room carpet,
the other day... very funny. She is not supposed to do
these things... it must be her UNK or just sheer curiousty.
Can't say that I altogether envy her...

Wed. March 18.

Please give Pups the note, first censor!

Darling Fido,

Have had terrific dream sequence about Cecie G. and Lizzie,
all mixed up. I suppose it is the thought of the Pups,
whom really I want terribly to see, too terribly. I am torn,
as Sch. said between wanting to eat her up, and being
afraid lest I get too attached- so please forgive all
the ambi-stiff- also complicated by the crick in the behind that
did not make me feel like entertaining a sleeping Pup for
breakfast. That however, is much better and I imbide Radio, that
has, I am sure, tide-ed me over this foggy mass of a
winter. I love the trip to Sch. but prob. the damp, as Pup
remarks, see enclosed ( please return both) is bad.

The horse-letter is
something even you at you S.R.L best, could not have
invented. Please - I want it back- and Pups, I repeat.

I found the vol. Questions
for Bud. I go there to-morrow- chez Rules. He sent me that
damn mag. Fido, I blush. Do N O T, please, send me 2nd copy.
I am reading at leisure, and notice your good Fido squeal!

Do encourage Sch. to tea. It is such a super-comic turn. I agree about Rvr... better get him back to the unique Uhlan. Love, my own Fido, from ye olde

Thurs. March 19.

Dear Fido,

Enclosed from Rvr. When he says, " don't tell Fido, "
remember I have not told you.

I think he has a lingering heimweh for the Uklan.

Letter from Collins, very funny, he wants Jim's book. I
am writing Cole to post him my copy. Why should I buy that book?
Collins writes; " I see that J. Whitall is getting away
with it and cataloguing all the old lads and classies of
the village. His naif self-complancy gives me something
between the giggles and the staggers. " I feel now I
have something else or someone else to hold on to. As a matter
of fact, it's all such concentrated hokkum, that on the whole,
it is easier to deal with, than vague generalities, and so
no doubt, in the bed, good for the UNK. Putting one's own
private insides into HIS show-window and cashing-in on
it, so very Quaker. Collins sends you his love, seems
almost finished, re Man., says, " has she beenjourining in that
drizzily sub-city, really? " One feels altogether Collins,
like the yearly hedgehog, has seen his shadow - and there
is hopes for the litt. racket for another season.

I have the Ramuz, and am
taking to Bud, this lunch-time. There is no portrait in
this vol., sorry I seemed dumb.

I am slowly inflating the Rodeck-rex
father-image in my Greek stuff, and then going as slowly
to deflate it, - I don't think this or any "generation" will

benefit. Its my own work, and part of my UNK ps-a with
Uh., all knitted loose for years, now I am slowly
re-knitting, it is good for me, but I think it a cross
between Swanns-way and Manchester. I am sorry- but it took
that form, and I started it, before I read Man., but
it looks like sheer Sun-roof-lounge school. I give you
all the credit, but I want the fun of this slow knitting. It
ought to last me five years. I hope to finish it in time
for the next jubilee anyhow. So please don't expect
anything. I am taking the first Ear-Ring to Bud. I am doing
stream-of-c. in the close-weave pattern, rather fun, and
in short long-stories, instead of Joyce-length novels.
This has no mention of P.R., and is, for that, a triumph.
Any that don't mention him can be set-up, there may be another
in a few months, I cannot predict, but it is good
solid knit-and-purl stitch, and keeps me out of
mischief-fitting for my time of life. Thank you,
indded for kindness, re E.E. or Edd, it just clicked like
that and is a tribute to our new monarch (sez you).
Love, my darling, and

love to Pups, from ye olde

Lizzie is bulking big in my ps-a. She is you and pup
and self, interchangeably! Perdita and Cordelia ....

Friday, March 20.

Dear Fido,

All news interesting. Yes, certainly, "Annie, Anna and Anny"
should have a grand time. I only know vague rumous that Persia
IS grand, from the back-wash of the V. Sackville-West
Blooms-brows, by way of Georgie. They, it appears really
did love it. Yes, do trek off.

I don't myself " see" myself in the Mary-bath racket. Yes,
fun for Lotte and you. I don't want to meet the Uh. "socially", as
he would put it, though he says I am uneasy in the UNK about
Cornwall. I don't myself think so, and want so very much
for you to SEE him and give me dirt- peeping though the
key-hole - but I don't dare tell him that.

Glad the Vee is kindly in her UNK toward me. I am
very snug here, but for damp ... had good lunch with Bud.
He seemed to think at the moment, he most needed your
sympathy, re army-boots, you switched off into another
world. I don't think he or anyone is much perturbed here,
after our bogus "Geneva in London" as they featured it.
Please do not worry ...

No news. I am sorry. We had about hour and half talk,
mostly about snippets of his ps-a and mine, his seems to be
largely made up of playing with animals, the cat( I mean) in
association, his own things, rinsdeer in particular. He wondered,
when I told him of the polar-bears, if Sch. thought you had
written he-Bud, as he-Bud had been talking for hours about the

north and ice-floes and reindeer. I said I thought not-
I did not tell Bud you had actually played the joke on Sch., just
that you had, genera lly, been talking of p.bs.
I feel that Kex is getting a little , slightly home-sick
for the Uk. I may imagine it...

Bud said Eileen tried to tell him in Aud. about her
"little advenitre" as she called it ; said, "did H.D. tell
you ? " Bud pretended not to know, said, "O no, what ? " and
fortinately, knowing what it was about, turned her off. But
she tried to collar him and tell him the whole thing. Its
pretty crazy...

I heard about Doris and your mother, but it seems oke now.
He had no spicy bits, re Theo. Just the usual... alaruuums and
excursions.

Sorry this is so dumb. I took the Ramuz back and his
copy of Caravel, which he seems to treasure. Do NOT,
I beg you , send me another, but thanks.

Love, dear Fid, and best
wishes for all the features of A.A.A. , and polar-bears
at the baths. Ever ye olde,

Sat. March 21.

Darling Fido,

I have letters and enclosed-s, thank you. I note the little one,
roughly from 9 to 15, it is indeed very good and I shall
be glad for the Pups, and now will be glad enough for a time
off from the Uh. as papers are snowing me under. I had
the other-partner from Chatto in for sherry, he called me up,
about print etc. of the prelim. sheets. He is very
snappy-up, does the N.Y. work, and knows bunch there-at
least, more "correct" J.Whitall etc. sort of people.

Fortunately or perhaps not - he apparently "knows Greek", and
is picking on bits that Oxford might pick on. He seems to
want the text fool-proof and there is no harm in that, if someone
elose will do it. I have never found anyone who could, and told
him so. He is very nice, a sort of link between the
University mentality and the N.Y. bunch, a funny
combination and really just what I need for placing script.
I am to see him again; Parson has gone to Portugal. They
are a good tie-up.

I sent flowers to Mrs. Wms., as I had not written; I got for
ten shillings a bundle, and will count that gloom money, though
I did not add your card or name, so I did not know if you
had or had not, sent. Anyhow, it is good for the UN of the Bud. I
considered out lunch that day, "gloom-money" and this, that makes
about ten shillings left from the original. I hope I have spent it
wisely. At any rate, it was good to have it and it has helped much.