Although the situation was what Sandy had worked to bring about, he seemed to me the person most apt to be hurt by it, and at that time I was more willing to see him hurt than Paul. The impossibility of his situation, and the cause of what seemed to me his contrariness and willfulness, was that there was x that he could do almost nothing that he wanted to do without hurting me or Paul, and he did not want to hurt either of us.

Watching Sandy's behavior it was hard for me to see that although I saw every thing he did with different eyes from my view of the same conduct earlier Paul still saw them with the same.

## boat - a quare / 7 five

(p.25 chug of motor, lap of waves, gentle boat motion,

16 - walk to station

63 - (day 3, 42) boat full, smaller ferry, the electric boat & worked in the cooking of the larger

76 - ugey women on ferry.

* only passengers - sunny day, rain, fops of yellow flowers that seemed like the yellow pebbles on the beach before they any other

* - frequently trying to see myself from outside

- two drawings for me in Italian client. p. 7

- cooking breakfast, etc., "let a child's game", p. 10

- p. 1-2 disorder at Melon's - moved down to p. 10, may 31 - after a number of attempts!

- at Melon's 10:30 to 2 PM. p. 7

- as though it is my home. p. 7

- $75 dollar a month p. 5

* P. 10 - life at Paul's a child's game!

CONSIDER IT: Ring the bell for each child

* I judged everybody, not leniently, I did not condemn, I just wanted to know what was individual about them to understand

number p. 17

nagging over Segfault - p. 12-13 lit or met
" " " - also p. 3

- [T]wenty of boys away from Melton p. 29

+ cutting up her live, ford & space
anger at Melton & Sally p. 40-41

jared on my opinion of him p. 65

transfer to yachts on a 125 ft boat p. 5-6 sub choice

workload at Melon's: board on an open draw, p. 14

Mellon's Sally - nothing in common p. 15

I say in garden p. 17
Anonymity? p. 17 (ie as early as June 5th)
Suey "chickas she's pregnant" p. 18 to June
Sally's all you do is walk around perج p. 49

apartments - p. 51

Chinatown p. 56

beer bottles p. 56

PAUL held on to Melon p. 56
and my view of my
sunflowers.

Blenway, Monroe, Georges, with Talisman, etc.
macaroni p. 66

Sally: Desperate and on the defensive
needs to express so is preliminary p. 106

A MMA Sailor's dance p. 66-67

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