in their psyche
This strange peculiarity/was also acquired
on account of your favorites. Thanks as
usual to their abnormal conditions of exist-
ence, they gradually became cowards from
head to foot; and at the same time, and
equally completely, the xdaa peculiarity of
destroying the existence of other beings
entered into them.

Being thus by nature cowards of the highest
degree, whenever they set out to kill other
forms of beings, or accidentally meet any of
them who, psychically and in other respects,
are much stronger than themselves, they sweat
with fear and long with all their being for a
means of killing them. In this manner, in the
psyche of beings who have no frequent contact
with your favorite side by side with the
real function placed in them by Nature -
instinctively to pay respect to those forms of
beings which in the gradation of the sacred
reasonableness are higher than themselves, an
instinct is gradually acquired and formed,
owing to which the feeling of fear in others
is perceived as a menace to their own life,
which menace they try accordingly to destroy.

In spite of the difference of their exterior
forms, all the beings of this planet lived
together at first in peace and concord; and
even at the present time it happens occasional-
ly that one of your favorites so perfects
himself that he realizes that all living
creatures are alike to Our Endlessness; and then
succeeds in completely destroying his fear of
other forms of beings. In consequence not
only do other forms of beings not attempt to
harm him but they even pay him every respect
and render him every service as a being
higher in the scale of reasonableness.

If all humans had a soul
There would not be any room left on earth
And there would neither exist
(Poisonous) plants nor (wild) beasts nor even evil.
Soul is for the lazy-fantasy
Luxury for the indulger-in-suffering
The denominator of personality is in it
The way and the connection to the Maker and Creator

Leader of the will
Its presence is "I am"
It is a part of the All-Being
So it was and ever will be.

Soul is the sediment of education
It is the (prime) source of patience
It is also the testimony
To the sense of the eternal being.

Read - Elliot - (Book on Atlantis)

The Sphinx is supposed to be a replica
of a figure before a temple door in
Atlantis.

The SYMBOL OF THE SPHINX - Consciousness
Body of a bull - EFFORT
Claws of a lion - STRENGTH
Breasts of a virgin - IMPARTIAL LOVE
Wings of an eagle - ABILITY TO SOAR
Face of a conscious being.

In writings of Plato - he relates how
in his travels (Egypt?) he saw the actual
ground-plans of Atlantis.

The seal of Solomon
ancient and
universal.
2 triangles, 2 sexes

The SWASTIKA - The one line represents our
passive birth. We must turn
around, be re-born in
consciousness, the line
is active, conscious

There has been all knowledge in the world,
but vast bodies of it have been wiped out
(wars, calamities, etc) as chalk off a slate.
But all over the world we find proofs (if we
can read) of a superior knowledge.

Atlantis, Stonehenge, Pyramids, Mayan
architecture, temples, etc.

As in the life history of the human race, so in
our personal life history - there are great
blocks of memory that are irretrievable
to us.

Great cathedrals, monuments etc were built with
a CONSCIOUS PURPOSE - to elevate for a
moment the vibrations of people. This
was a conscious attempt to leaven the masses.
An attempt to force people to non-identify
for even one instant.

I

This is a method of EFFORT - conscious effort, not automatic, mechanical effort.

As we are, there is no will. Will as we think we have it is a state of development. Will is a possibility, in a higher center.

All we call development now is but an extension of one of the 3 centers. All our art but an extension of the emotional center, etc.

All supposed development in the world today is really a detriment.

The obligation and highest aim of man is to understand and cooperate with the laws of the universe. The universe is an intelligent creation and therefore intelligible. There are answers to everything.

Nature can do no more. Man is the highest possible development of a self-evolving form.

All further development requires conscious effort. This requires labor comparable to that which nature has expended on our development thus far, milleniums of it.

In all natures creations, a certain activity follows a certain form.

The start toward consciousness - neutral scientific observation of one's self.

Begin with the body because of its speed.

Body is 3 times faster than emotions

Emotions are 3 times faster than thought.

Gestures are speedy and proficient, habitized from birth. It is almost too fast for itself to observe. Here the personal equation is most pernicious; but remember the body is something OUTSIDE the "I"

We are an animal with a formless psyche - a psyche to have form must be three-fold.

A three-fold psyche means the three centers
in the brain are developed equally -
instinctive
emotional
mental

Be conscious of your body, aware of emotions
and mindful of your thoughts.

Feel with the mind and think what you feel -
this is insurance against self-deception.

We observe at first only with the emotions -
the wish to do this and that.
Avoid one-centered observation. This is a
pathological attack.

Eradicate subjective weaknesses - greed
at table, etc. Don't try to observe yourself
in excess. You are then observing an
over functioning organism.

Self-observation is the first step toward
FREEDOM FROM ASSOCIATIONS.

Self-observation is NOT the body observing
the body (like an actress in a glass)

WE MUST NON-IDENTIFY WITH THE BODY.

There are 3 kinds of people.

A people are masters (Buddha, Christs, etc)

B people are artists, interested in
experience, not facts.

C people are scientists, positivists. Facts
are more agreeable to them.

Magnetic-center people have a few cells in the
brain NOT monkey cells. These can be developed
into traits of B people.

Find out what you are - are you predominantly
practical, emotional or mental. In which centers
do you work and in which centers do you
expect your rewards?

I

THIS IS A METHOD OF EFFORT - Conscious
Effort, not automatic, mechanical
effort.

As we are there is no will. Will as we
think we have it is a state of development.
Will is a possibility in a higher center.
All we call development now is but an ex-
tension of one of the 3 centers. All our
art but an extension of the emotional
center, etc. All supposed development in
the world today is but a detriment.

The obligation and the highest aim of man
is to understand and cooperate with the
laws of the universe. The universe is an
intelligent creation and therefore intelligi-
ble. There are answers to everything.

Nature can do *no* more/ Man is the highest
possible development of a self-evolving
form. All further development requires
conscious effort. This requires labor comparabl
to that which nature expended on our
development thus far, milleniums of it.

In all nature's creations, a certain activi-
ty follows a certain form.

The start toward consciousness - neutral,
scientific observation of one's self.

Begin with the body because of its speed.
Body is 3 times faster than emotions.

Gestures are speedy and proficient, habitized
from birth. It is almost too fast for itself
to observe. Here the personal equation is
most pernicious; but remember the body
is something OUTSIDE the "I".

We are an animal with a formless psyche - a
psyche to have form must be threefold.

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A three fold psyche means the three centers
in the brain are developed equally -
instinctive
emotional
mental

Be conscious of your body, aware of emotions
and mindful of thought.

Feel with the mind and think what you feel;
this is insurance against self-deception.

Eradicate subjective weakness - greed at
table, etc. Don't try to observe yourself in
excess. You are then observing an over-
functioning organism.

There are 3 kinds of people -

"A" people are masters (Buddha, Christ, etc)

"B" people are artists, interested in
experience, not facts.

"C" people are scientists, positivists.
Facts are more agreeable to them.

Find out what you are - are you predominantly
practical, emotional or mental. In which
centers do you work and in which do you expect
your rewards?

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We are in a state of arrested development.

A 1-centered being is a worm.

A 2-centered being is an animal (2 dimensional)

A 3-centered being is a man.

We take no part in our activity. Everything
is done for us from the outside.

Our whole life is wasted in argument between
the three centers. The contents of these 3
centers were accidentally acquired. Thus, they
are accidentally called forth.

1% is Ourselves; 99% is Sociology.

The ages of our different centers differ. There
can even be different ages in one center.

Physical - young face, old neck, etc.
We can develop "hallucinations" of our centers
as we "develop" - one can be retarded mentally
and develop a mental hallucination, retarded
emotionally and develop an emotional hallucin-
ation, etc.

The 3 centers are like 3 types - physical (yogi)
emotional (monk) mental (ascetic). Each is
a one-centered development, developed at the
expense of the other 2 centers. Our brain
has undergone development only for survival.
It is NOT a truth-finding organ.

Everything tends to put us asleep. . .
suggestibility, etc.

We start with these 3 centers practically
empty. The emotional and the mental has
inclinations, desires, pleasing to themselves.
Constant repetition of the same desires
makes character.

We receive 10,000 impressions per second;
but we register practically not one.

We always choose by our habits of yesterday -
repeat, repeat, repeat.

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We have no future. Our lives are an idle
escape from one error into another.

Our race, nationality, etc - is indicated by
a series of gestures.

A human being can make 20 gestures; but makes
usually only 5.

Find out the repertory of your own gestures.
The agency of the Will is not admitted in
the scheme of psychology.

What we call will is only desire.

The first symptoms of awakening from our
sleep is to SUSPECT we are asleep.

It is more difficult to wake from our
dream sleep than from our life state.

Our life state (to a trained observer) gives
us away. Man collects impressions and ex-
cretes behavior and by this behavior is
he known.

A need is an internal disequilibrium - one
needs a shock to awaken; one must WANT to
awaken. Do not disturb those who are
"sitting pretty" unless their need is
great. One loses one's place and must go
through life standing. Standing is not
comfortable, especially if a good chair
has been lost.

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## II

LAW OF THREE. In the Cosmological Scale, operating at 3, operating at shock. The shock can carry us beyond the status quo. The shock is self-observation.

We have the 3 forces in us-

The plus and the minus, sexes, electricity, etc.

Science is the 3rd force.

The 3rd force is the neutral balancing force.

The mind affirms all, the body denies.

All energy leaks away from the bottom of the triangle because it is open at the bottom.

Some have no emotions after 30.

Some stop mental growth at 7 or 8

Many die too soon (physical leakage)

Close in- the bottom of the triangle, stop the leak.

A 3 centered force is given us each morning. We cannot use but a part of it; the rest is wasted. One uses only 1/10

If the bottom of the triangle can be closed, new energy flows in and can be stored.

In psychology the 3rd force is usually the motive behind the act.

Problem: Find out the motives behind your acts, thoughts, etc. (Usually it is the emotional center motivating.)

Law of 3 operating - in fairy tales.

Three princesses, each with a task, the reward being in one of the 3 centers.

A set-up of man, law of 3

matter

emotional

physical

THE EMOTIONS ARE SITUATED IN THE SOLAR PLEXUS.

A system of nerves across the center of the being, like the Milky Way, a galaxy of disconnected nerve centers.

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the Knowable REALITY IS the Feelable the Do-able Unless these 3 operate at once, it is not Reality. (That's why reality is never found)

There is a continual argument, friction, between the 3 centers in man. The body is always the tyrant.

The Cosmological Chart presents an exact analogy with our psychological processes. The shock in our life is Self Observation.

Everything we touch is degraded - air, water, food, etc. We send energy into the planet thus. We are a digestive apparatus.

OUR REAL FUNCTION IS TO UPAGRADE ENERGY. Change the vibrations into higher, instead of degrading to lower. (some - like breathing, eating, etc are automatic and must go on.) We give only quantity vibrations. We should give quality vibrations to the octave.

As we function (eat, drink, suffer, create) vibrations are extracted from us by nature.

A few quality vibrations would make up for many quantity vibrations.

We are in a situation "the terror of the situation" - Gurdjieff. Like sheep, we are taken for out mutton and wool. Thus ourselves. Nature feeds us, cares for us; but not from love - for profit from us. Takes vibrations from us she cannot get voluntarily.

If we could give ONE quality vibration. . . . Wars - nature needs these vibrations. Only consciousness can change this. Deaths give vibrations to the planet - 10,000 bodies going back to earth - the suffering before death is one sort of vibration - crystallization of the material another sort. . .

All goes back to the planet.

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ESSENCE is difficult to define.

It must be found out by relations. Human essence is composed of 2,000 million people. 2,000 million implies history, all our evolution from the animal up.

EACH ONE OF THE 2,000 MILLION IS ONE OF YOUR POTENTIALITIES ACTUALIZED.

Essence is composed of 3 notes - anger, hate and fear.

Anything else is an overtone, that which does not exist but which might.

All the so-called 'good' in the world - philanthropies, etc - are possibilities not actualized. Usually you find they are motivated by one of the 3 notes -anger, hate or fear.

*Try to find out in you the distribution of anger, hate and fear. These 3 can be in one center, or in all 3.

We have to make an effort to get at essence. It is not your own - it is human essence. In getting at it, it is fatal to identify yourself with it. Get at motives, then - more easily - you will get at essence. When you get at essence, what you learn can be applied to everything - Art, literature, etc.

There are AFFIRMED EMOTIONS of humanity. In great literature, in great art, there are no emotions that have not to do with the affirmed emotions of humanity. . . .something every man can (or could) understand.

Your essence is material. You can change it. Essence aspires to be strong. It has no sex - it is wishes. You are interesting or dull according to the no. of planets in conjunction at your birth. More planets, more interesting, etc.

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PERSONALITY is a cross-section of all
streams of activity at any one moment.
The pattern of your habits is personality.
Personality is a mass of unfused chemicals.

*Analyse yourself in respect of some person
near to you. How do you recognize yourself?
Your identity How do you know yourself
from another?

What is the ESSENTIAL POWER in you? To
find out, gratify all your fancies, whims,
(but don't cultivate.) Gratify and watch them
and yourself. Whims and fancies change.
An essential power does not. You must find
out this power through excess.

To have essential power, you must have
ESSENTIAL WISHES.

Potential
Actualizable
Ideal

3 kinds of wishes

Most of us spend our lives on non-actualizable
wishes. Find the actualizable wishes.

Most "ideal" wishes are non-actualizable.
These wishes are mistletoe - cut them off.
Don't plod along with them.

"Imagination is only excess of desire over
ability" - Orage.

THE "I" Necessity to establish within yourself
an unique and personal "I".

We have too many I's.

Physical center I's are disconnected
and go off in different directions.

Thought must connect and fuse.

Subjugate to one single I the per-
sonalities in you.

Say over and over again "I am. I have
a body". Say it to try to find out
what it means. (I am a body is a
confusion.)

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Self-observation pumps up energy, uncovers that "I". The "I" is not defined by intelligence, talents, gifts, etc. It is simply what you are in yourself.

The body is the only vehicle, cart, vessel, instrument, etc, through which and by which we can find out.

Stripped of your 5 senses and personality, what are you?

What manifestation could you give that an astute psychologist could not reduce to a bodily manifestation?

99% of our 70 years is spent in sublimated animality. (caring for body, thinking about it, etc, etc.)

Get the "I" out from the inside where it is buried, to the outside. All miraculous births in legend and history are just this - the uncovering of the "I".

Our first birth is passive.

Our second birth is active, conscious.

We are born out of our own bodies.

Self observation gets at the "I".

For this 2nd birth, we must first die to our automatic selves; change values, die to the old values.

Gurdjieff says in the cerebellum there is a seed, a germ, which is a possibility of a soul. He calls is the "representative of God in the essence".

"Fragments of a Faith Forgotten."

"Hermes Thrice Greater"

These ancient books show these ideas are not new but have been with man always (esoteric)

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**TIME** In the Physical center we sense time
as one thing after another.

In the emotional center, we experience
a thing AT the time.

In the mental center - time as a thing
in immediacy.

Space
line
plane
solid

Energy
plus
minus
neutral balancing

Time
succession
recurrence
eternity

Space is the field in which time operates.

Time is the actualization of one possibility in a situation. All other possibilities die for you, (but remain for others)

When we start to actualize one possibility,
that determines the second, because we
have taken a direction. Thus - the danger
of making a wrong choice - all off in the
wrong direction. Again - find the essential
wish.

Time is the possibility of your existence.

Time can never be subjective.

Wherever a process goes on, there is time.

This method is a TECHNIQUE AGAINST TIME.

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III

Our body is as much an object of the out-
side world as a tree, a stone, a planet.

The great absurdity - Science investigates
a world image we cast upon our own con-
sciousness.

THE MASK - You must know you have a mask
and that little exists behind it.

Try to discover how this mask was started.
In youth we made always for peace -
adjustment to a hostile environment.

*Make a list of people you remember earli-
est in life - put down opposite the name
every effect and influence they had upon you.
Maybe some of these influences were what we
ourselves "put upon" those persons.

Our 3 centers are like clocks - they are
wound up by and with these influences.

And time (material) determines the effects.

We begin by protecting our inner essential
selves.

A child has more sense of reality than its
parents.

We evolve a mask - sex mask, social mask,
professional or national mask. Our "reper-
tory of gestures".

We become 'mask sore' - but it is dangerous
to remove the mask, even if we could.

The other person has the advantage over him
who momentarily lets the mask slip. A special
ized cruelty then goes on.

We can build up behind our mask our essence.
Then we are impervious.

Victimization is a form of exhibitionism
on the part of both parties.

We cannot go back far enough in our child-
hood to remember or find out how we put
on our masks - hence the difficulty of
removing.

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We have practically NO manifestation we can
make to show our essence. Sometimes we want
to show an "essential attitude" to a
friend. Often we show just the opposite
because we have no gesture that is not
part of the mask, etc. . .

## WORDS AND ASSOCIATIONS

We waste our minds by words.

We should non-identify with all the tradit-
ional things in words.

Because of words and associations, the mind
is always in a state of tension, not of
attention.

Poetry is a fact translated in another
center! Non-identification with the
traditional application of the words.

## THE CINEMA
It is a recorded fact that people drowning have a complete memory of everything that has happened in life. Could we never use this power consciously? Everything that has happened to us, every experience, is there within - the impress is in some one of the 3 centers, never to be eradicated, generally forgotten.

BUT EVERYTHING IS THERE.

Try to picture the day's events with
yourself as the principal figure, but
impersonal.

Do the day from the beginning, not backwards. Engage the mind and leave the emotional center free with its pictures. Count a series of numbers until it becomes automatic, thus engaging the mind.

1234

4321

2345

5432 and etc., up to 10 or more

Don't try to remember. DO IT PICTORIALLY.✓

The unrolling of the cinema. . .

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This method of seeing oneself pictorially in all one's daily activity, has been called "a specific against mediocrity".

This is the way of keeping your life from slipping into oblivion.

Four reasons why this nightly cinema is difficult:

1. Usually no self-observation goes on during the day.

2. Difficulty of keeping from thinking of the counting.

3. Constant interruption due to association.

4. Sleep.

After doing the day's cinema, try the cinema of your life!

If we could do these things, if we can teach ourselves to see, impersonally, uncritically, we should gain a mastery over the 3 centers/

There is an "inviolate completeness" which could be property of the human being.

We are approaching only the outskirts of it.

For this method - *ability to think* is the first thing needed.

Be able to think differently than as accustomed, know the world in different categories.

This method is a mathematical and material explanation of the creation, maintenance and purpose of the universe and man's responsibility to it.

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A TECHNIQUE FOR SELF OBSERVATION

Observe:

Tones of voice

Gestures

Posture

Carriage

Facial expressions

Weight

Temperature

Weight - here not physiological,
but rather a feeling of heaviness
on awakening in the morning, or of
lightness. Clues to emotional states.
Temperature - not medical, rather the
emotional temperature. Why a sudden
hot flush? A cold clammy sensation?

Often the condition observed disappears
upon observation.

But at first, with this self-observation,
all we are doing is GETTING DATA ON OUR-
SELVES.

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IV

## REPETITION

Investigate what you repeat. (In love, this
is fairly obvious - one always repeats)

Investigate all relationships outside the def-
inite love relationship.

You find out your weak spots if you find out where and how you repeat.

Formulate reasons for wanting to wake up and
change.

Make repertory complete of your weaknesses
and failures. Avoid the MORAL.

Find out the wrong working of your centers.

Try to remember to remember to observe.

Participate in your gestures observed.

Try also to observe how whole trains of
thought go on without your taking part in them.

## MORALS

The subconscious mind sees the result
of our real experiences.

Conscience once uncovered needs no morals.

John the Baptist, crying in the wilderness,
is a symbol of man crying in the wilderness
of his own body.

Give up the idea that the universe has desirable and ethical ends in view.

Give up "doing good".

Sacrifice mechanical suffering. Suffering
is very real to us, therefore we identify
with it. Most suffering is mechanical.

But our identification with it is real.

Self-pity is the most depleting of the
emotions.

Charles Chaplin - the epitome of self-pity,
which explains why all the world identifies
with him.

Be careful of self-depreciation. DON'T
DISCOURAGE THE BODY⁴

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You must observe yourself with non-identification, otherwise your statements about yourself sound fantastic.

These ideas give no result unless worked upon. EFFORT IS THE FIRST AND LAST WORD. The Labors of Hercules - the Agean Stables are a man's personality. Clean out your own stables.

Of all the great teachers, Christ is the most cruel when he speaks of the difficulty of doing things with ourselves.

One wonders how he came to be called the meek and gentle Jesus.

\#Make a catalogue of a friend's image of life; this will help you with your own.

Make a formula which encompasses your attitude toward life. "All is lost from the beginning" - Jane's.

We know only two states now - waking and sleeping. (the chart)

There is an exact analogy between our personal psychology and this chart.

Everything below the planet is repetition of things perfected above. ... imperfected repetition. On the chart "God" begins with Planet.

The idea of a "personal god" is the most egotistic gesture of man - that a divine omnipotent Being could be concerned with our transient little life.

Our environment is not this planet we live upon. Ours is the megalocosmos - everything above the planet.

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LOVE is of 3 kinds (as far as we are in it)

Instinctive, emotional and conscious.
Instinctive love has chemistry as its base.
And it lasts only as long as, and is only as
strong as, this chemistry.

Emotional love is pathologic. The lover is
a medium through which uncontrolled power
of magnetism passes. Emotional lovers are
the victims of their own uncontrolled
power. Emotional love ALWAYS creates hate
in the lover, then in the loved one, then
back again - an eternal changing of hate.

Instinctive love is the highest type we
know, BECAUSE OF ITS IRRADIATIONS.

Emotional love seldom produces offspring.
It is non-biologic. It evokes its own slayer.

Conscious love wishes that the loved one
should arrive at his own native perfections,
regardless of consequences to the lover.

The paradox: it always evokes the same in the
lover. This love is rare among us.

"Take hold tightly, let go lightly" - an old
Tibetan proverb.

It is always hard to let go. We have fear,
we are oversensitive from past XEXXXEXXXEXX
failures, or we have imagination - we
cannot bear to imagine the loved one happier
elsewhere with someone else.

Instinctive and emotional love are uncontrolled
and unconscious. These are dangerous states
to be in. This love is without knowledge or
power.

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Love can be evoked in 5 associative ways:

1. External form (reminding of someone you've been in love with, esthetic associations.)

2. Feelings influenced by other people. You love what others love, or what others hate, etc.

3. Suggestions - influenced by praise of others, etc.

4. Superiority - you get the idea that another person is superior.

"All the rot about 'ideals'. . . ."

* * * * *

## PICTURE OF SELF-OBSERVATION

<table><tr><td>Higher Mental</td><td>Higher Emotional</td><td>Higher Sex</td></tr><tr><td>Mental O</td><td>Emotion O</td><td>Body O</td></tr></table>

Dots in higher centers are DEPOSITS from Self-Observation

All in the lower row we take passively.

We must "coat" the higher body.

Self-observation makes this active - the worm must turn and observation starts with the body.

THINK! . . . .

Every 1/10,000 of a second - an impression.

Every 3 seconds - a breath

24 hours - a day

80 years - a life

Feelers, tentacles, receivers of impressions & vibrations.

Another picture of Man -

ANOTHER PICTURE OF MAN

This is how it always works - we perceive, we feel, we act. The 3 inter-connected centers.
(At night - we jump in half-sleep. .
one of the centers disconnecting)
This above interconnection of the centers
works only in waking hours.

Study your dreams. There is a self-contained
energy left over in some one of the centers.
You can discover in which center you contain
unused (during the day) energy.
Do you have predominantly physical, mental
or emotional dreams?

The 3 centers fall asleep separately. Sometimes one center does not sleep at all during the night. × Times we awaken with a feeling of suffering, though the physical self has slept soundly. This means the emotional center was wide awake all night with some suffering.

Teach yourself to put all 3 centers to sleep at any time. If this could be done we would need little sleep. Gurdjieff awakens people at the Priory, at all hours of the night, making them change their beds, saying: "You're not sleeping anyhow. Why not spend the night talking and learning something?"

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V

OUR LIFE

Consider each year of your
life as a chair. See your-
self sitting in it, see the
chairs you will sit in. You sho
should be able to see yourself
both ways in time - back to
the beginnings, forward to death.
Our effort is to break this
circle in time - not repeat. Eternal
Recurrence.

Man, 3-centered,
geared to connect with. . . . . . WHEEL OF

4 (Self observation)

These wheels are emptying their contents as they connect with the wheel of circumstance.

Numbers in centers represent relative proportional strength of the center.

The functioning of these 3 centers
depends on a set of seven accidental circumstances
1. Heredity in general
2. Conditions at moment of conception.

3. . . .

4. "Degree of Being" in parents.

5. Quality of 'being' manifested in people around us.

6. Good wishes, thoughts and actions manifested by people around us.

7. Conscious effort on our own part, during childhood

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A BEING CONSISTS OF ITS APPETITES.

Intelligence is due to innate arrange-
ments in the nervous system. You are
born intelligent. You can never acquire
intelligence.

Instincts are given to man to ennable him
to cope with his situation.

We, in this method, are like Lucifers, cast
out from the mechanical heaven in which we
live. We must realize the solemnity
of the situation. We must think with
terror of dying. . . unfinished.

We die according as each center the contents
of one center are used up prematurely:

Physical dying - doctors have names for
it but no cure. Sport addicts often
die thus. Statistics show wrestlers
die at the average of 49

Emotional dying - Artists die as the
result of the disharmonizing in the
tempo of their lives.

Mental center dies - reading, study-
ing and superfluous associations
provoked. "Dying by newspapers"

To NOT die in one center, get an activity
that is linked up with another center.
Put a regulator on the spring of each
center. Do not allow one center to overwork.
You give yourself up to the associations
in the functioning of these centers.

HARMONIOUS ASSOCIATIONS with the 3 centers
is difficult to acquire. Self-observation
is the first regulator. You thus begin to cut
off the superfluous associations running into
one center.

The tragedy is that when one center dies,
runs down, it affects the other two without
their taking part.

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## NEGATIVE EMOTIONS

This commonest of the negative emotions is
anger, displeasure, etc.

Next after associations, negative emotions
are the most depleting of our 'activity'.

Negative emotions are difficult to handle
because they are insusceptible to reason.

When we THINK reason has come in, it is
usually only another emotion that has been
added.

Bodily well-being usually pulls us out of anger -
the coming in of another center, the physical.

Child care stresses keeping the body busy. This
is calling in the physical center to equalize
small rages, fears, in emotional center.

ALMOST ALL FORMS OF NEGATIVE EMOTION ARE
INFANTILE.

Some negative emotions, like despondency,
despair, jealousy, need help from the outside.

This usually calls in more negative emotions on
the part of the helpers - they must lie,
tell 'charitable untruths' and thus an anger
arises for being thus forced.

Make a list of the dramas of negative emotions.
You will find all are tragedy.

If you are not secretly in love with your nega-
tive emotions, there is usually a cure. (Most
people are in love with theirs. They do not
want to get rid of them.)

To get rid of a negative emotion, say "I am sick"
Do NOT say what made you sick.

When you say "I am sick" a positive attitude
is at once established.

Observe manifestations of each mood in your
negative emotions.

When one is angry at you, don't meet him with
anger, with the same center. "Turn the other
cheek" - a recommendation to turn another
center.

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Write a candid opinion of yourself as you think someone would write it to you.
Something in us is NEVER deceived.
Often the result is amazingly near the truth. Often the getting of this opinion is necessary for your future life and its development.

When a bad situation arises, ask youself:
"What did that friend expect of me?"
"What did I give him?"

Christianity has not been tried and found wanting; it has been found difficult and never tried.

In perfecting a technique of living, the great difficulty is the body. It is first necessary to organize the outside life, the life of the body.

There is no chance for a significant relationship with a person whose center of gravity is the physical center.

The body will always triumph - and your 'friend' will fail you.

We always expect behaviour of people without bodies. Don't trust. No illusions.

A physical center person never loves, but always hates. He hates to have his body deranged.

You project your chemistry on other people and your relationship with them is a result.

Your unconscious manifestations are more powerful and get more results than your so-called 'conscious'.

You receive what you evoke.

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## CHIEF FEATURE

In each one of us is a "special little quirk" - the last little thing added to the scale. This is what makes you do things as YOU do them, and not like anyone else.

In bowling balls there is a pellet of lead added, so that it must be thrown with a special quirk to make it go straight.

We must learn how to send ourselves off with a certain quirk to make us go straight.

We must learn where Chief Feature lies, what it consists of.

Chief Feature is the pattern of your wishes and motives.

It is mechanical.

It is of the essence but in the emotions.

Chief Feature gives you illusions of freedom. (Freedom is actually the absence of choice os wishes.)

Write about yourself as of another person.

In a situation, how do you behave?

This gives a clue to Chief Feature.

Look for Chief Feature in 5 things:

Greed

Self-pride

Lying

Fear

Sex

"Chief feature is not nice".

Chief Feature can often be a combination of one or many of these 5 things. It is always the last little thing making you act as you do. It is in every situation.

Look for it.

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Chief Feature is imaginary.

It is not real.

It is emotional.

Chief Feature is not ever a good thing;
but once found, it can be used consciously.

Chief Feature is an outgrowth of your
emotional attitude toward yourself.

* * * *

LAW OF THREE In the cosmological scale this operates at shock. The shock carries us beyond, in the octave. The shock is self-observation.

We have 3 forces in us. The plus and the minus (sexes, elec. etc) And science is the 3rd force. The 3rd force is the neutral-balancing force. The mind affirms, the body denies all.

All energy leaks away from the bottom of the triangle because it is open.
Some have no emotions after 30.
Some stop mental growth at 7 or 8,
Many die before their time.

Close up the triangle, stop the leak.
A 3-centered force is given us each morning We cannot use but a part of it; the rest leaks away. One uses only 1/10.

If the bottom of the triangle can be closed, new energy flows in to be stored. In psychology, the 3rd force is usually the motive behind the act.

\#Problem: Find out the motives behind your acts. (Usually emotional)

Law of 3 operates in fairy tales.
Three princes each with a task, the reward being in one of the 3 centers.

A set-up of man (law of 3)

matter
emotion
physical

THE EMOTIONS ARE SITUATED IN THE SOLAR PLEXUS. A system of nerves across the center of the being. Like the Milky Way, a galaxy of disconnected nerve centers.

Know-able

REALITY

Do-able

Feelable

Unless these three operate at once, it is
not reality. (That's why Reality is never
found.)

There is continual argument between the 3
centers in man. The body is the tyrant.

The Cosmological chart presents an exact anal
ogy with our psychological processes.

The shock in our life is self-observation.

Everything we know touch is degraded - air,
water, food, etc. We send energy into the
planet thus. We are the digestive apparatus.

OUR REAL FUNCTION IS TO UP-GRADE ENERGY.

Change the vibrations into higher instead
of lower. (Some like breathing, eating, etc
are automatic and must go on.) We give
only quantity vibrations. We should give
quality vibrations to this octave.

As we function, vibrations are extracted
from us by nature. A few quality vibrations
would make up for a great many quantity
vibrations.

We're in a situation - "The terror of the
situation" - Gurdjieff. We're like sheep, taken
for the mutton and the wool. Nature
feeds us, cares for us but not for love, but
for profit from us. Nature takes from
us with a drastic hand - takes vibrations
from us she can't get voluntarily.

If we could only give ONE quality vibration.

Ware, for example. Nature needs those
vibrations. Deaths give vibrations
to the planet. 10,000 bodies going
back to earth - the suffering before
death is one kind of vibration, the
crystallization of material substance,
another kind. All goes back to the
planet.

Human essence is composed of 2,000 million
people. This number implies history, all
your evolution from the animal up.

mi
re
do

Anything else is an overtone, that which
might exist, but which does not. All
the so-called 'good' in the world -
philanthropies, etc - are possibilities
not actualized. Usually you find the
motive is one of the 3 notes - anger,
hate or fear.

\#Try to find out in you the distribution
of anger, hate or fear. These 3 can be in
one center, or in all 3.

We have to make an effort to get at essence.
It is not your own - it is human essence.
In getting at it, it is fatal to identify
yourself with it. Get at motives, then
more easily you will get at essence. When
you get at essence, what you learn can
be widely applied. . .arts, etc.

There are AFFIRMED EMOTIONS of
humanity. In great literature, in
great art, there are no emotions that
have not to do with the affirmed
emotions of humanity. . .something
every man could understand.

Your essence is material. It can be changed.

Essence aspires to be soul. It has no sex
differentiation. It is wishes.

Wishes are planetary. You are interesting

or dull according to the number of planets in conjuction at conception. More planets, more interesting, etc.

#Analyse yourself in respect of some person near you. How do you recognize yourself? How do you know yourself from another?

What is the ESSENTIAL POWER in you? To find out, gratify all your fancies and whims. Gratify and watch yourself. Whims and fancies change. An essential power does not. You must find this out by excess.

To have essential power you must have ESSENTIAL WISHES.

Potential
Actualizable
There are 3 kinds
Ideal

Most of us spend our lives on non-actualizable wishes. Find the actualizable ones.

Most "ideal" wishes are unactualizable. These are mistletoe, cut them off.

## THE "I"

Necessity to establish within yourself an unique and personal "I". We have too many "I"s. Thought must connect and fuse.

Subjugate to one single "I" the personalities in you.

Say over and over again "I am." I have a body". Say it to try to find out what it means. (I am a body is a confusion.)

Self-observation pumps up energy, uncovers that "I". The "I" is not defined by intelligence, gifts, talents, etc.

The body is the only vehicle or instrument, through which and by which we can find out.

Stripped of your 5 senses and personality, what are you? (Nothing)

What manifestation could you give that an astute psychologist could not reduce to a bodily manifestation? (None)

99% of our 70 years is spent in sublimated animality. (caring for the body, thinking about it, etc.)

Get the "I" out from the inside where it is buried, to the outside. All miraculous re-births in history and legend are just this - the uncovering of the "I".

Our first birth is passive.

Self-observation gets at the "I".

For this 2nd birth, we must first die to our automatic selves, change values and die to the old values.