262.

Tip of a violent
Sun. Violent pink
Peeping over the hill.

We did go together, first to the facade of Singha Durbar, where
a helpful clerk directed us to City Hall, where I learned that Mr.
Shrestha, once in Protocol, has been replaced by Mr. Hamal. Mr. Hamal
received me in a large shared office room and I sat down to communicate
what I wanted, i.e., a passport for Krishna. Krishna must present a letter
stating his desire to depart and for what purpose, then he must fill out
four duplicated passport forms and have ready five photographs; besides
which he must present that Proof of Citizenship Certificate, which I
trust he can obtain immediately from another office—he's already gone
through a whole number with his 'panchyat' and has in his pocket a little
identification-folder-booklet. Krishna is helpless when it's a question
of hurdling formalities, especially those involving papers, etc.—though
he's far from stupid; he's bright and capable of unlimited (relatively)
development. It's too early to wonder if he might become homesick and
despondent if transplanted abroad. I don't see that he depends too much
on companionships here—he depends on me. So let's go! When I say that
he should drink carrot juice as I do, he murmurs, 'Expensive. . . '
Better than any son! No Westerner would be as wonderful. In this case,
Fortune's wheel is not reversible. In the Sea of Discovery, a blessed isle.

viii

New York? Somehow, living in expensive places seems to pay off—
opportunities usually arise for directing some of the gold your way.

263.

'And shy as a rabbit
Helpful and shy.'

But that's only the way he was at the beginning—he's still shy,
but not so shy as a rabbit—and he'll always be helpful. ... testes secrete
fluids which circulate in the body, adding ... to man's magnetic and
spiritual. ... Krishna doesn't think of himself as 'attractive'—but he
may start to, staying around me. The idea that masculinity and femininity
are two separate factors is ... illusory.

When I told Lenny that in ten year's time Kathmandu would be taken
over by the dogs, he said No, there's a mass massacre of them every year.
Slaughter time, approach!

Drown, drown in the water-butt/ Drown all the dogs. ...

Krishna (nude honey torso) pays attention to me, he wants to show
his gratitude (especially since he refuses to go to bed with me). His
smile is wide and toothy, he's my funny valentine.

He's here and now.
Forget about entanglements
In nostalgia.

Let's go to Mr. Hamal this clear morning and see about his passport.
Then get to your work and works; work hard, erase your restlessness, after
more than two months in any place at all I want to move—if only to return
... I am eager enough to work, and ... I am deeply convinced of the
need of it, both for fortune and for happiness. ... To identify with
H.J.—? Chief difference (aside from his *assiduous* writing) is in my
pursuit of sex in contrast to his discipline of continence. ... at work,