consider repentantance and mentoring i don't know if it is too late for this but if things look as bad as igor is suggesting you might consider asking for mentoring of course that would require a willingness on your part to look at what you accusers are saying an consider that they may be at least partially right just a suggestion i think you got alot done with the cam portal and although i don't agree with all your povs i think it would be unfortunate to lose the productive side of your energy at wikipedia