crossing the rubicon yep i was afraid of crossing that river the figurative one not the actual one in italy which i hear is quite nice but unfortunately when you feel like your back is against the wall like i've been made to feel during the past few months usually that's the way people go you might be right only time will tell however in any case i will be me regardless of what that is and if wikipedia can't accept that it's wikipedia's loss i'd love to stick around and i'd love to find a middle way but i probably can't do that right now thus the psuedowiki break and i wonder if it'll ever happen with the way things are here at wikipedia in any case thank you for your message afist ''''''