friend is not the best description of annie p cher's relation to jeanine deckers it might explain her repeated visits to jeanine in the convent but scarcely her taking care to get herself a shack een kot near where jeanine lived when studying in leuven her falling into a deep depression and attempting suicide when it seemed that jeanine was going to be sent to a mission country and above all jeanine's making it clear to her when they went to live in the same house that she did not wish to enter into a relationship with her and wanted simply to live together as friends