i very sincerely appreciate that xoloz i was thinking to myself earlier i need a wiki hug i've tried my absolute best to approach everything i do on wikipedia with the most professional attitude i can i feel under assault from kelly and at this point do not know how to resolve it i could generate a very large detailed response to kelly's assertions regarding my conduct but at this point i despair that it would do anything but fan the flames and honestly i don't know if i have the energy for it with that in mind i earlier tried to push myself above the trees and think what do we want to come from this and that was my motivation in my recent addition of a question to kelly on the rfc i well recognize that there are simply too many people on wikipedia for everyone to like you or you to like everyone i even noted this to someone else recently unfortunately i think i've found my first oil water person in kelly i respect her work on wikipedia but i feel badly abused by her actions with respect to me i asked her to bring the rfc to help bring closure to this but now i am uncertain it will have any beneficial effect even if the rfc closes with a view against kelly it doesn't resolve the dispute kelly will still view me as a problem admin and will continue to consider me such with her trusted peers as she put it so whether this rfc concludes in my favor or not i still lose i fear the only possible conclusion to this that might at least stop the debate is an oath by both of us not to comment on the actions of the other but that doesn't stop her from casting about her belief that i am a problem admin sigh at this point i'm at a loss on how to proceed in a way beneficial to all parties including wikipedia on a humorous note your edit summary usage over the last edits is please improve gmaxwell my examination of her edit summaries was accurate i stand by it she later qualified it that outside of arbcom she always uses them i never disagreed with that