thank you to be honest even figuring out how to respond to you was not easy for me i appreciate very much your help and direction i want to be a contributing member here and not just a one issue person it just happens that this particular issue ben's page is something that i am devoting everything i can to i believe in it and in what has happened because of him i truly do not mean to be disrespectful to other members but find that i see room for interpretation in many policies and i'm finding that i have a problem with the jabs flying around i hear what you are saying about the page not being the place to argue about the policies but that seems to get folded into things when people can look at the very same words and see different things i am not ashamed to say that i am literally praying that this page does not get deleted there was a huge impact here and i did take the time to read approximately messages left to ben on places like legacy om and on his breedlove tv channel it is not cliche stuff it is real poignant and in many cases very specific examples of how he changed their lives to me it is also noteworthy when thousands of teenagers risk peer judgement to leave such messages this is a phenomenon that happens to fall within the category of something making things better i hope that has a place in cultural history at wikipedia as for navigating through this new world here at wikipedia i'm more confused than i have ever been that in itself is enough to make a person a one issue member but i am going to keep trying again thank you for your polite and kind way of trying to educate someone like me who probably seems like a freakish hot mess tina