i have been trying to change my tone status comment seems to express '''the and only the thing i was hoping for thank you to everyone involved i understand that i myself have many faults and could have avoided it if i was wiser and also headed the very wise sayings of jc such as a kind word turns away wrath but i am only human and i try to not be a hypocrite i strive all ways to admit my transgressions and apologize for offence and if asked even if i feel i am justified others seamed to expect more from me than they are willing to give themselves and really i thought mostly i was trying to teach or provide or gain explanation not be self righteous but i can see others could easily perceive otherwise i know i am ultimately to blame because i am stubourn i have difficulty with relating to some people and some forms of authority and have spent much of my life bashing my head against brick walls and it hurts alot and iam sick of it and i am quick to anger when i feel disrespected unjustifiably i do not in any way attempt to justify all my statements etc as some were very malicious but i think only when i felt forced into a corner i just wanted to clarify to you my sincerity which is very very strong i am sorry but this does not mean i that i would not again become angry even to plasmic physics for obviously he knows knot what he does hopefully and dmacks but i also think they do have reason to be sorry also iam sorry to dmacks for the final insults but he did i believe on purpose ignore again his own words of advise and push that obvious button on purpose but i still cant figure what plasmic physics and osperys wise council was and should see the truth in many of my sayings etc i also never intended any type of malicious revenge type behavior sincerely and any comments that may have been misunderstood re dmacks etc were apart from the following up any confirmed malicious hacking of my computer systems were in relation to karma eg revenge is mine says the lord etc even if i was to be let back in i don't think i am wanted or want to or the right type of personality i like looking for and correcting flaws in obvious logic science of arguments statements of things mainly organic chem really and this seams to rub people up the wrong way etc not chase up refs for every little detail any how i just wanted to leave you on that note what a waste of all our time thank you dirk and i hope you appreciate nick if nothing else