to retreat into the background of my awareness There was an opening now for more than worry I became aware of my liveliness and pure elation Seeing him throw his hands up in the air laughing and smiling I felt it it was exhilarating to go against my fearful thoughts The thoughts were not gone but I was no longer a captive of them I was energized I was present I was in the moment I was a person who along with worried thoughts was having a thrilling memorable experience Similar to watching an engrossing movie a particular thought stream has the potential to pull us in so entirely that there is no separate from those thoughts The thoughts become making choices for us limiting our experiences telling us right and wrong only through breaking the trance that we can come to see the nature of things as they truly are Our brains supply us with an inordinate number of thoughts many of which are unhelpful and even downright inaccurate Taking each one seriously would be like visiting a beautiful beach and spending the entire timecounting the grains of sand Perhaps up until this point not even considered your thoughts