Desperately Seeking Helen
Desperately Seeking Helen is a 1998 film by Eisha Marjara, produced by the National Film Board of Canada. It documents the life of the Bollywood star Helen and also discusses Marjara's process of self-discovery. Marjara liked Helen as a child, and Marjara stated "Helen is a conduit into my childhood — my relationship with my mother, my struggle with anorexia and the Air India disaster which took the lives of my mother and sister." Jerry Pinto, author of "Helen: The Life and Times of an H-bomb", wrote that the film "is as much about Eisha  Marjara's perception of Helen as it is about Helen." "Desperately Seeking Helen" uses Hindi music. The film covers the complications in the relationship between Marjara and her mother, Devinder. Marjara had the perception that her mother was unable to balance the culture of Canada against that of India, and Devinder was more feminine and traditional compared to her daughter. The film also discusses the 1985 Air India Flight 182 bombing, which ultimately killed Davinder along with Seema, one of Marjara's sisters. D.B. Jones, the author of "Brave New Film Board," wrote that the filmmaker "verges on self-pity  and often seems self-absorbed, but she can also be brutally honest about herself." Sabeena Gadihoke, the author of "Secrets and Inner Voices: The Self and Subjectivity in Contemporary Indian Documentary," wrote that the "deeply personal" film "did not easily fit popular conceptions of documentary" since it had a "fictive structure in which the filmmaker staged her own body" as well as "reflexive use of humor" and "whimsy". Angela Failler argued that the film was what had been described as a "counter-memorial" of the Air India Flight 182 disaster. Background. The National Film Board selected Marjara to make a  film on the Air India Flight 182 disaster in 1994. She did research by visiting Trois-Rivières and taking one trip to India. The title is a reference to the 1985 film "Desperately Seeking Susan". Marjara dedicated her film to Air India Flight 182 victims, including Davinder and Seema. Release. Its first screening in India was during the Mumbai International Film Festival (MIFF). Reception. It was ranked as the "Theater Critic's Choice" in the "Chicago Reader" in 1999. Firdaus Ali of Rediff wrote that the film received "rave reviews". Gadihoke stated that in India the film received some criticism  due to a perception that it was "self-absorbed"; Gadihoke argued that this was because the film used "strategies unfamiliar to documentary discourse in India at the time."