Kunjalo ke empini yokholo Dokotela, Christ presents himself to us differently, eg Paul met with God on his way to Damascuss and God's salutation was not tender, Christ met the Samarithan woman at the Jacob's well, he used tact to get to her heart which tact was peaceful, multitutes have met Christ thru sermons from the pulpit etc. And when we accept him we then have to walk with him as did Enock of old. As we walk with this new found friend will be part of our lives, decisions and all about us. thereby an experience with him is developed. you learn to trust him, believe him and confide in him thru yo personal experiences lobabili. But as yu walk with this friend Satan will come in and try to suggest to us that yu have made a wrong and worthiless decision. He will bring all things on yo way which he thinks may distract you. those are the times when you will have unanswered questions, doubt will begin to ukukunyenyela, and at times you may eventually back slide. But Christ in his mercy will send uMthokozisi ongumoya ongcwele to continue pleading with you for a reconciliation if yu have fallen. The Spirit will convict yu of yo sin and persuade yu to repent. This is why Dokotela yu will find yorself worrying abou yo condition and wanting to revive the fires that have gone low. NguMoya oyabe ekufuqa. Now to answer yo question Dokotela which if I'm getting correctly is"How to reconcile with Christ": Doctor ungizwe kahle: I may share with yu my experiencies with Christ, thousands may do the same; these may encourage and edify you but they are not yours, hence the impact they may have on yu will differ from the one they make on I. For instance: it is recorded in scripture that Jona was swallowed by a fish, after 3 days yamkhafula eNiniva, this is an amazing experience but no man comprehends it better than Jona himself. We read about it, we believe it, kodwa asikubonanga akubonayo esiswini senhlanzi, we cannot feel how he felt and guess what ma usubhekane lobunzima empilweni yu may quickly forget about Jona's experience and never remember to apply it kusituation yakho. But not Jona himself. I'm sure he lived to remember it the rest of his days on earth. Ngamafitshane ngithi identify those things in yo life which draw yu closer to God. Reflect on the experiences you have had with him & remember how it all started. The experiences you went thru with Christ should be the solid, unwavering rock supporting yo relationship with him. Its good because as you walked with Christ you had an experience with him, because if one doesn't have an experince loKrestu then akala Testimony about Christ all that he/she calls his/her christian era is fantacy, inganekwane nje and not real for if God is real he should have a real relationship with you which practically impacts on yo real life. And in Revelation it says ababenqobile they had the word of prophecy & his testimony. You say he used to answer yo prayers, I'm sure he still does, its all about yu praying once more.