ngisebenzisa abantu abehlukene ukuze ngifeze intando yami: iziqalekiso zami ziyafezeka kulabo engibasolayo futhi izibusiso zami ziyafezeka kulabo engibathandayo. okwalowo manje ohlangana nezibusiso zami nalowo owehlelwa yiziqalekiso zami kusezwini lami elilodwa kanye nengikushoyo. uyazi ukuthi noma ngubani engimphatha kahle manje nakanjani uyozwa izibusiso zami ngazo zonke izikhathi (okuchaza ukuthi labo abaya ngokuya bengazi, baya ngokuya beqiniseka ngokwengeziwe ngami, labo abanokukhanya okusha nesambulo kanye nalabo abangahambisana nesivinini somsebenzi wami). noma ngubani engimenyanyayo (lokhu yinto engaphakathi kimi abantu abangakwazi ukuyibona ngaphandle) ngumuntu nakanjani oyokwehlelwa yiziqalekiso zami, futhi uyilowo ngaphandle kokungabaza ophakathi kwenzalo kadrako omkhulu obomvu, ngakho bayokwabelwa ekuqalekiseni kwami udrako omkhulu obomvu. kulabo engingafuni nokubabona, yilabo izinga labo engicabanga ukuthi liyantuleka futhi abangakwazi ukupheleliswa noma basetshenziswe yimi, basayoba nethuba lokusindiswa futhi bayoba phakathi kwamadodana ami. uma umuntu engenalo izinga lami, engakwazi ukuqonda izindaba zokomoya futhi engangazi, kodwa enenhliziyo eshisekelayo, khona--ke uyobizwa njengomunye wabantu bami. ngicabanga labo abathola iziqalekiso zami njengalabo abangenakusindiswa futhi bayilabo abaphathwe yimimoya emibi. ngijahile ukubaxosha. bazalwa ngudrako omkhulu obomvu futhi ngibenyanya kakhulu. kusuka kuleli qophelo angidingi ukuthi bangisebenzele—angibafuni nje! angifuni muntu kubo! ngisho ukukhala nokugedla amazinyo kwabo phambi kwami akunamthelela, angibheki muntu kubo, kodwa ngiyabaxosha—uyintoni? ngabe ufanele ukuba phambi kwami? ufanelekile? usenza sengathi ungumuntu olungile futhi wenza sengathi uthobile! emva kokwenza izinto ezimbi ngokungenakubalwa, ngingakuyeka? futhi lapho usukuma phambi kwami uqala ukungedelela futhi. awukaze ube nenhloso enhle futhi ufuna nje ukungikhohlisa! ngabe ungalunga uma uyinzalo kadrako omkhulu obomvu? ngeke kwenzeke! vele usuqalekisiwe yimi futhi ngikwahlulela ngokugcwele! ngisebenzele ngenhliziyo yonke, ngobuqotho nangendlela eqondile, bese khona--ke uphindela emgodini wakho ongenamkhawulo! ufuna isabelo embusweni wami? uyaphupha! awunamahloni! wena, nomzimba onamanyala futhi ongcolile, nikhohlakaliswe kakhulu, nokho nisenesibindi sokuma phambi kwami! deda! uma ulibala futhi ngizokujezisa kanzima! bonke labo abenza ubuqili nenkohliso phambi kwami kufanele badalulwe. ningacashaphi? ningazifihlaphi? ningaphunyuka ekulawuleni kwami kungakhathaleki ukuthi nigwema noma nicashe kangakanani? uma ungangisebenzeli kahle khona--ke impilo yakho iyoba mfushane ngokwengeziwe—uzophela masinyane.