mina bakwethu lam disillusioned by this talk of being a totally anti shona crudade. my disillusion emanated from notably and vociferous mthwakaziyans practising the exact opposite of what they preach in our forums.at one time l for one was of a total conviction not to corrupt my beautful toungue through talking shona. even at college l had made it a point to strictly lecture in english and nothing else.l was totally flambergasted to see one of the high ranking pro mthwakazi exponent openly convesing with his shona friends in perfect shona. worse still this was happening in bulawayo at NUST . we were attending a gvm symposium on gender empowerment,most of the shona dignatories were university lectures and worse some of them were teaching in bulawayo.Later during the week l communicated with him and expressed my displeasure at his betrayal of our cause. Bakwethu lundoda ohloniphekayo njalo he is an active participant of this forum said 'who among the ndebele can assert truthfully that they have never talked in shona, njalo his shona friends are academics , people who do not know any tribal divide, and also if he had difficulties whether socially of financial it is his shona friends who come to his aid,'.he emphasisedb that l should not take seriously things l read in forums becoz most of the participants are foreign based armchair politicians, who want to ignite an inferno in zimbabwe yet they are in comfort of european countries who granted them refugee status.It is these wavering stances from you bobaba okwenza ukuthi thina amanina singaboni i essence of your struggle. we want to be firmly behind you if you demostrate firmness of purpose and be resolute. but if you enjoy talking and yet practise the oppositte, why blAme us when we marry the shona?