Ukufunda kwam le post (See link) I can’t believe the things endizenzayo xa ndi-sober! I-most yabantu icinga ngezinto ezibhadlileyo when sober but that’s not the case with me. Basically, into endizama ukuyithetha yile yokuba, thinking about it ngoku maybe I’m not gay, maybe I don’t have feelings for Zolile (which would explain why he irritates the fuck out of me right now!) … and maybe, my whole “I’m gay” routine was just a call out for attention (kudala ke ndawathanda amehlo!). I think that being gay is not only just about shagging amanye amadoda (or finding them attractive) but is about the mental and emotional headspace that one is in … and as it stands ngoku, ndidikiwe yiyo yonke lekaka! I just want to feel breasts again, kiss lips that are soft and ndingahlatywa zintshebe zenyindoda and eyona nto ndiyikhumbulayo is the sex! (Good thing I never took things that far with Zolile … I can’t imagine having that “thing” up my ass!)