namhlanje ngivuke namaphupho axakile. firstly it was as if there is a war at the township people i know were being killed left right and centre. ngacasha ngasemfuleni and managed to escape from the war, then in the early hours ekseni ngaphupha ngithenga imbuzi e greyish in colour and there is some ancestor in the dream who was directing me as to which goat i must get and bathi insikazi. then she told me to carry that goat and go under water where the river meets the ocean they are waiting there for me and they want to come home with me but kumele ngibahlangabeze nalembuzi on my shoulders. i consulted ongqondongqondo, sengisho osiyazi phela, and was informed again that idlozi lasemanzini. sometimes i fail to get this elasemanzini elasentabeni elasemoyeni thing... but bathi abalozi. for now i will focus on the upcoming initiation and im in no way going under water ngzohamba ngingabuyi...unless bezongthatha ebsuku then i can understand but not in my sober senses. this reminds me that the iziko engiyakulona bayawathanda amanzi and ubaba ushange can control water spirits very well. i remember amathwasa ethi aya kothandaza after fasting for few days and they saw a big umnumzane there but he never did anything to them...now thats frightning. but sobona phakathi.