inxeba! isilonda esinobuzaza esiviwa sisizwe sakwaxhosa, nobu ethe ethe bomcimbi wolwaluko “Ukuphumelela ngo’3-0 yinto entle kuthi ngoba iza kukhuthaza abadlali emdlalweni ozayo. Emva kokubethwa emidlalweni emibini bekuza kusiphazamisa kodwa noko ngoku noko sivuselelekile emva kokuphumelela umdlalo,” utshilo uMapeza. "ngeke ngibasindise nhlobo labo abangenzela umsebenzi. abanasabelo embusweni wami. lokhu kungenxa yokuthi laba bantu balibala yizindaba zangaphandle kunokwenza intando yami. nakuba ngibasebenzisa manje, empeleni bangabantu engibazonda kakhulu, abantu engibenyanya kakhulu. namuhla, ngithanda noma ngubani ongenza intando yami, noma ngubani ongakhombisa ukucabangela imithwalo yami, nanoma ngubani onganikela konke okwakhe ngenxa yami ngenhliziyo eqinisile nobuqotho, futhi ngiyohlala ngibakhanyisela, ngingabavumeli basuke kimi. ngihlala ngithi, “kulabo abazikhandla ngobuqotho ngenxa yami, nakanjani ngizobabusisa kakhulu.” “ukubusisa” kubhekise kuphi? uyazi? mayelana nomsebenzi wamanje womoya ongcwele, kukhombisa imithwalo engikunika yona. bonke labo abakwazi ukuthwala umthwalo webandla, abazinikela ngobuqotho ngenxa yami, umthwalo wabo futhi nenhliziyo yabo yangempela kuyisibusiso kimi. ngaphezu kwalokho, izambulo zami kubona nazo ziyisibusiso esivela kimi. lokhu kungenxa yokuthi labo abangenamthwalo manje abamisiwe ngaphambili futhi abakhethiwe yimi; iziqalekiso zami sezehlele phezu kwabo. lokhu kusho ukuthi, labo engibamise ngaphambili futhi engibakhethile banesabelo ezingxenyeni ezinhle zalokho engikushilo. lapho amazwi ami ekhulunywa ngokwengeziwe aqondwa ngokwengeziwe. lapho amazwi ami ekhulunywa ngokwengeziwe acaca ngokwengeziwe. wonke umuntu kulabo abangaqili nabanenkohliso engingabamisile ngaphambili waqalekiswa yimi ngaphambi kokudalwa komhlaba. kungani kuthiwa ngalowo nyaka, inyanga, usuku, ngisho nehora, umzuzu, nomzuzwana wokuzalwa kwenu konke kuhlelwe ngokufanele yimi? kade ngamisa ukuthi ngubani oyothola isikhundla samadodana angamazibulo. basemehlweni ami; kade babonwa yimi njengegugu, futhi kade baba nendawo enhliziyweni yami. lonke izwi engilikhulumayo linesisindo futhi liphethe imiqondo yami. umuntu akalutho! ngaphandle kwalabo abambalwa engibathandayo abanesikhundla samadodana angamazibulo, yibaphi abambalwa abakhombisa ukucabangela intando yami? anakuphi ukubaluleka amadodana ami? anakuphi ukubaluleka? abantu bami babaluleke ngani? esikhathini esedlule, igama “amadodana ami” laliyigama lamadodana ami angamazibulo, kodwa lawo madodana ami nabantu bami abangalazi ihlazo bacabanga ukuthi kwakuyigama lokukhuluma ngabo ngokubahlonipha. ningadlali ngokungenamahloni indawo yamadodana ami angamazibulo, kunifanele lokhu? namuhla okuyibona kuphela abaqinisekiswe yilabo ababekwe ezikhundleni ezibalulekile phambi kwami. bathole isikhundla samadodana angamazibulo. sebenesabelo sesihlalo sami sobukhosi, umqhele wami, inkazimulo yami, nombuso wami. konke kulungiselelwe ngobunono yimi. bonke labo abamukela isikhundla samadodana angamazibulo namuhla bezwe ubuhlungu, ukwahlulelwa, nobunzima obukhulu, obufana nalokho abahlangane nakho emindenini yabo kusuka bezalwa, amathemba abo ekusasa, umsebenzi, umshado, njll. la madodana angamazibulo awasizuzanga lesi sikhundla ngaphandle kokukhokha inani elithile. sebedlule ezingxenyeni zempilo ezehlukene: ezinhle, ezimbi neziphakathi nendawo. bonke labo ngaphambili abebethathelwa phezulu ngabantu bomhlaba futhi abaphila ngokuthokomala ekhaya abanasabelo emadodaneni angamazibulo. abafanele ukuba ngamadodana angamazibulo; bahlaza igama lami, angibafuni nhlobo. ngokwamadodana nabantu bami engibakhethile, banedumela elihle futhi emhlabeni, kodwa basilela kakhulu emadodaneni ami angamazibulo. manje ngisebenzisa abantu abathile, kodwa phakathi kwabo abaningi abafanele ngisho ukubizwa ngabantu bami, bangabafanelwe ukubhubha okuphakade; basetshenziswa ukungisebenzela isikhashana, hhayi ukusetshenziswa isikhathi eside. labo abangabokusetshenziswa isikhathi eside sebenqunyiwe enhliziyweni yami. lokho kusho ukuthi, labo engibabeka esikhundleni esibalulekile yilabo engibathandayo futhi okudala ngaqala ukubasebenzisa. okungukuthi, umsebenzi wabo usuvele ubekiwe. mayelana nalabo engibenyanyayo, esigabeni samanje basetshenziswa okwesikhashana nje. lapho kufika abakwamanye amazwe, amadodana angamazibulo ayokwambulwa ngokucacile kini ngaleso sikhathi.