emva kwenyanga kusuka lapho isilingo sikasathane saphinde sangehlela. ngelinye ilanga, indodakazi yami eyayisanda kushada yafika ekhaya yavele yaquleka singazelele. umakhelwane wami wayisukumisa wayisiza yangena endlini. ekuqaleni ngacabanga ukuthi kwakungumkhuhlane nje ojwayelekile, angizange nginake kangako. ngangingakulindele neze ukuthi phakathi nobusuku yayizovele iphaphame ithukile futhi iqhaqhazela kusuka ekhanda kuya ozwaneni. ngangesaba futhi ngingazi nokuthi ngenzenjani. ngavele ngayibamba ngayigona esifubeni sami, kwathi emva kwesikhashana yabonakala sengathi ingconywana. ngakusasa ekuseni indodakazi yami yathi kimina: “mama, hamba uyokwenza imisebenzi yakho, ngizoba ngcono.” ngakhuleka buthule kunkulunkulu: “nkulunkulu wami! zonke izinto zisezandleni zakho, ngakho ngibeka indodakazi yami kuwe….” emva kwalokhu ngaphendukela endodakazini yami ngathi: “jing, kudingeka uthandaze kunkulunkulu kakhulu futhi uthembele kunkulunkulu, ngoba yena uyinsika eqinile esiyidingayo.” emva kokukhuthaza indodakazi yami ngalokhu ngahamba ngayokwenza imisebenzi yami. ngangingalindele ukuthi ngangizothi lapho ngibuya emva kwezinsuku ezimbili ngithole indodakazi yami embhedeni wasesibhedlela iqulekile. umalokazana wami waphendukela kimina ngezwi elidangele wathi: “mama, emva kokuthi uhambile, ukugula kukajing kuqale ukuba bucayi kakhulu. lapho udokotela emhlola, wathi ube nokopha ebuchosheni nokuthi wayedinga ukuhlinzwa ebuchosheni. kodwa njengoba wena nomyeni wakhe beningekho ukuze nigunyaze ukuhlinzwa kwakhe, bekungekho muntu ongakwenza lokho, manje sesiphuthwe yisikhathi sokuhlinzwa kwakhe. ngaphinde ngezwa udokotela etshela umamezala kajing ukuthi isimo sakhe sasingesihle nokuthi ngisho noma wayengavuka wayeyohlala ekhubazekile engakwazi kwenza lutho.” ngithe lapho ngizwa lokhu kwaba sengathi kunommese ongigwaza uphenduphendulwa enhliziyweni yami, nezinyembezi zaqala zazehlela emhlweni ami. kwakungavumi ngamukele lokhu njengeqiniso. ngakho ngabambelela ethembeni futhi ngaqhubeka ngakhuluma nengcweti kadokotela, kodwa nayo yanikina ikhanda yathi kimina: “sesisebenzise yonke imithi esinayo, senze konke ebesingakwenza, ukuphela komphumela ongaba muhle manje ukuba avuke ekhubazekile engqondweni.” emva kokuzwa amazwi alo dokotela ngezwa sengathi izulu liwele phansi emhlabeni. kwakuzwakala sengathi ngangiphila enhluphekweni engapheli…. kamuva, lapho umkhwenyana wakwami ebona isimo indodakazi yami eyayikusona, akagcinanga nje ngokungakhombisi kukhathazeka ngokuthi yayizophila noma cha, kodwa waphendukela kimina wakhombisa ukungabi nabuntu nhlobo ngokungicela ukuba ngibuyise imali yelobolo ababesikhokhele yona ngenkathi sishadiselana. ngalelo langa indlela ebheke ekhaya isuka esibhedlela yezwakala iyinde ngokungenakulinganiswa, ngangiwumphefumulo olahlekile ngidwanguza emgaqweni. ngazizwa sengathi ngihamba emhubheni omude omnyama lapho ngangingaboni kukhanya phambi kwami.