ngokufunda izwi likankulunkulu futhi nangentshumayelo yomlingani wami engisebenza naye, ngasheshe ngabona ukuthi: le impi kamoya. unkulunkulu uveza iqiniso ngezinsuku zokugcina ukuze asindise abantu, kodwa usathane ucabanga zonke izindlela ezikhona ukuze asebenzise ingcindezi nokuhlushwa indodana yami, umakoti wakwami, nohulumeni we--ccp ukungivimbeli ukukhonza unkulunkulu nokulandela unkulunkulu. uyasaba ukuthi ngizokwamukela umsebenzi kankulunkulu ngezinsuku zokugcina futhi ngiqonde iqiniso. ngakho--ke ngizohlukanisa umongo wobubi bakhe, ukona, ubusathane, amadimoni bese ngiyamkhaphela futhi ngimushiye, ngiphinde ngithole insindiso kankulunkulu. namhlanje, ngigcine ngilubonile unya lukasathane oludelelekile futhi ngaqonda nesineke sokunginakekela kanye nomcabango unkulunkulu awubekela ukusindisa mina. emva kwalokhu, ngizofunda izwi likankulunkulu kakhulu futhi ngizihlomise ngeqiniso ukuze ngingadlali usathane. imimoya ebengiyivimbile esikhathini eside kangaka ekugcineni ikhululiwe ezwini likankulunkulu, futhi ngazizwa ngijabule kakhulu sengathi ngibona ukukhanya kwasemini futhi. nakuba bengiqonda ukuthi ukuhlushwa umakoti wakwami ngokukholelwa kunkulunkulu bekungamanye nje amaqhinga kasathane, nokuthi akufanele ngenziwe isilima usathane, bengisakhathazekile ukuthi uma uhulumeni we--ccp ethola mayelana nokholo lwami kuzoba nomthelela emsebenzini wendodana yami nomakoti wakwami. futhi bengisaba kakhulu ngomthelela okuzoba nawo kumzukulu wami uma eseya esikoleni. ngakho--ke ngatshela umlingani wami engisebenza naye mayelana nokwesaba kwami futhi wangifundela esinye isiqephu ezwini likankulunkulu usomandla: “igunya likankulunkulu likhona kungakhathaliseki ukuthi izimo ziyini; kuzo zonke izimo, unkulunkulu onquma futhi ahlele ukudalelwa kwawo wonke umuntu, futhi zonke izinto zenzeka ngokuvumelana nemicabango yakhe, nezifiso zakhe. lokhu ngeke kushintshe ngenxa yokuthi abantu bayashintsha, futhi akuncikile ezintweni ezithandwa umuntu, ngeke kushintshwe yinoma yiziphi izinto ezenzeka esikhathini, emkhathini, nasendaweni, ngoba igunya likankulunkulu linguye uqobo lwakhe. …ngazo zonke izikhathi unkulunkulu alawula ngazo igunya lakhe, ubonisa amandla akhe, uqhubeka nomsebenzi wakhe wokuqondisa; ubusa zonke izinto ngazo zonke izikhathi, unakekela yonke into, uqondisa yonke into, njengoba ayehlale enza. akekho ongashintsha lokhu. kuyiqiniso; bekulokhu kuyilo selokhu kwathi nhló!” (“unkulunkulu uqobo lwakhe, oyingqayizivele iii” kwincwadi ukuqhutshwa kwesithi izwi livela enyameni). emva kokufunda izwi likankunkulunku, umlingane wami engisebenza naye waqhubeka wangishumayeza ngalo wathi: unkulunkulu ungumdali, unguphezukonke emazulwini, emhlabeni, nasezintweni zonke ezingaphakathi. ulawula isimiselo sawo wonke umuntu, futhi noma uhlobo luni lomsebenzi noma ikusasa lethu ngabanye lanqunywa kudala unkulunkulu. lokhu into engeke inqunywe noma iguqulwe umuntu ngokwakhe. umsebenzi nekusasa lendodana yakho kanye nomakoti wakwakho konke kulawulwa unkulunkulu. akusho lutho ukuthi bakholelwa kunkulunkulu noma abakholelwa; isimiselo sabo sanqunywa futhi salungiswa unkulunkulu. asikho isidingo sokuzikhathaza ngalokhu noma ngalokhuya. ujobe akaze akhathazeke ngakho, ngoba kwakusobala kuyena ukuthi konke ayenakho wayekunikwe unkulunkulu, futhi noma yini anikezwa yona noma aphucwa yona kwenza unkulunkulu. ngakho--ke kufanele sizihluphe ngokuthandaza kunkulunkulu, futhi sibeke ikusasa lamadodana ethu namadodakazi ethu ezandleni zikankulunkulu futhi sibe nethemba ukuthi unkulunkulu unohlelo olufanele…. ngalawa mazwi ngishunyayezwe ngawo mayelana nokwazi umyalelo kankulunkulu, senginethemba kunkulunkulu, futhi nginokuzinza nokuthula enhliziyweni yami. ngeke ngisakhathazeka ngekusasa lendodana noma likamakoti wakwami.